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I mean, they've always treated me as sort of a burden in the grander sense some background on what happened recently: they were released from the mental hospital on the 12th and I spoke to them until cutting contact on the 18th, their boyfriend had broken up with them a month earlier, their replacement girlfriend broke up with them around the 22nd or so, and their best friend deleted them around the 25th they're normally a very fucking high key person around this time of the year but everyone fleeing from them seems to have made a deep impact and they were very distraught and very low key and very sad I spoke to them again tonight for the first time since the 20th and they were initially very low key and very sad, think of your typical internet sad boy/girl, they seemed pretty vulnerable and stuff now, a few hours later, we're already past some extremely sexual conversation and they're basically trying to draft me to date again the contrast made me notice something I'd never noticed before this always happens any time they're low key and sad and I come back to say hello, they get fucking HYPE fucking FAST and don't usually cool off until I back off it's kind of perplexing and paradoxical behavior for somebody who thought I died about 5 months ago and publicly celebrated my demise it's even more perplexing and paradoxical considering just how much I feel like this person disdains me it's also not because I'm all over them or whatever, I've spent half the conversation throwing barbs at them when they get too close, which they return in full anybody experience anything like this? what the hell drives this cycle? they're fine until they start talking to me and then they're just fully active and fully off the rails and back into their psychosis in no time ",8.785794403069282,7.90430945260664,7.794062288422477,74.9748262243286,61.1090047393365,10.976483863687656,35.97201534642293,10.07000556051586,3.4162271270593543,1807,67,329,31,21,556,223,422,0.161,0.733,0.106,-0.9803,0,1,1,0,0,0,22.0,0,1,25,2,20,29,5,1,22,1,9,7,0,4,6,71,36,41,1,2,16,2,1,3,2,0,2,3,0,2,18,31,1,1,7,0,1,4,6,16,0,5,10,5,48,13,49,24,9,67,1,9,0,4,45,29,4,12,37,213,66,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07812678312175028,0.0,0.0,0.09128177454738808,0.09725969118369898,0.14096381922417014,0.1466715555353242,0.0,0.0,0.11987029415494801,0.09241773296084377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07252798845377682,0.2353777826706171,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20331222603957005,0.0,0.05372656911462861,0.0,0.07499679997192213,0.09929850207703346,0.09249274623774896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09053941355276723,0.0,0.07592090992309147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09147071097456444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05821265174404525,0.07972358536069342,0.0,0.08421722583102813,0.0,0.08621340898682878,0.0,0.0,0.04456394566063512,0.06296400282367473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07496799224150172,0.0,0.0,0.06809325138148657,0.24443948659696146,0.09209429879992748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15587582357903645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059075352834096165,0.0931199710814663,0.0,0.0,0.08679569191797143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07833886209128542,0.0,0.09177953729092428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09012449723010743,0.0,0.12917562741397146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07954570959291694,0.1667918399058407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09600537293131964,0.0,0.0,0.08881983175771288,0.0,0.08899170779809346,0.0,0.14069779475323718,0.0,0.06478971705042194,0.0,0.06797551372216823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08635405513610032,0.0,0.20068565086201,0.0,0.0,0.05972288060096183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08413528612765357,0.0,0.15391299903189398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08966546601803936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08702315140877925,0.0946245191846258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0700888693043008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16047045738060564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0729065778560648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06785099658350023,0.0,0.0,0.12476548938376038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10089403564926117,0.0,0.0,0.16613328923697465,0.0,0.0,0.07083995840025148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05855329507431582,0.056473655305762725,0.0,0.06996972440372506,0.20557002307320488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05983820394084952,0.0,0.0,0.0917521404693786,0.0,0.0,0.09706877691447807,0.4363259959939114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07952855995752511,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056756357953622674 schizophrenia,Breanainn01,2019/01/01,"Supposed to see psychiatrist, worried I was recently convinced to see my doctor. A very, very close friend of mine made me realise that I am seeing and hearing things others are not, including him. After he sat me down to think things through I realised this had been going on for months without me really noticing, I thought it was really happening. I still am not sure, I don't know what to trust now. I don't know what's real and isn't real anymore, and I don't feel like I can trust my thoughts anymore. The doctor put me on seroquel 25mg twice a day. It made me sleep 15 hours the first day. I feel a lot better, more refreshed. After a few days on it, I am starting to feel like I can figure out what is and isn't real. Today I was able to convince myself I was imagining the person in the car behind me was following me, last week I would have panicked the entire way home. I'm still talking slowly, and thinking slowly. But, overall, I feel a lot better. Still seeing and hearing things but I have been able to tell if no one else is reacting to it, its just me. But, when the doctor prescribed this, he told me I need to follow up with my psychiatrist ASAP. I see one, every 6 months or so now (used to be 2 times a week) for PTSD, with atypical depersonalisation, derealisation and disassociation. When I was diagnosed they leaned towards schizophrenia at first but after months of various tests said I had warning signs but they thought it was PTSD. Thats when they made me look into the lights to become better. The lights flashed and buzzed in my hand. It was to help me process trauma but it just made me remember things I had forgotten and I told them it made me better so I could stop going regularly. Now my doctor said I need to call them when they open tomorrow, or go to the hospital if the voices start to tell me to hurt myself or someone else. If I call them I'm supposed to tell them my doctor wants me to see them immediately. But I am scared to go back. They'll make me use the light things again or they'll say I got better from them and tell me to go away. Should I just pretend its all okay and tell my doctor to forget about it happening? 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Can't trust my brain I'm feeling very off. Noticing delusions coming back, had hallucinations Christmas Day. (Happy holidays!!) I don't feel safe with my own brain, I can't trust what it tells me, I can't trust anything. I hear mice scratching the walls in my kitchen and I don't know if that's real or not. I'm in a partial hospitalization program right now and see the doctor tomorrow but am really tempted to go inpatient tonight because I just can't trust anything. Every time I've gone through psychosis it's lasted months and I'm so afraid to go back into that state. I'm terrified. I don't know what I should do. 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(USA) i hate having to do this but i can't work and can't afford rent anymore because the landlord raised it too high. i can't work because of schizoaffective disorder and ptsd. anyone know where and how to apply for SSI and the like?,1.7402380952380982,4.128544928571428,2.8000000000000007,91.61166666666668,81.85714285714286,5.161904761904762,20.047619047619047,6.42735559955562,0.1969619047619049,220,6,44,2,6,70,36,56,0.113,0.8290000000000001,0.059,-0.4606,2,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,2,3,2,1,0,2,0,5,0,0,1,0,8,8,6,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,2,4,0,0,2,0,1,0,3,1,0,0,0,0,3,1,6,8,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,26,5,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27759442927319883,0.3914376422497143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3412597523428565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3207998660242286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2763521032060321,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2957391360839999,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30766123816021584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13674935680945455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.327198541960153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4075540467019881,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,_Mephistopheles__,2019/01/01,"How much does inpatient psychiatric care cost? After my first episode in which I cut my tongue nearly off, I stayed in a regular hospital for two days in the trauma section and then was transported to a psychiatric hospital again where I stayed for about a week. I was lucky my mom has really good health insurance, but even then, we suffered a little bit financially. That has me worried though. I don't think she has good health insurance anymore. She does have health insurance for me, but I think it's average at best. If I ever needed that kind of care again, how much would it cost? I don't think I'm ever going to hurt myself like that again, but I can't picture myself not ever having another episode again either. I know she's probably the best person to ask about this, but I don't want to bring it up, so any estimates would be helpful. Also, if it was a bad financial situation, what kind of say would my parents have in getting me out as soon as possible, given that I'm acting sane and not planning to hurt myself shortly after whatever initially causes my hospitalization?",6.869214743589745,7.001039543269229,7.395000000000002,72.91666666666669,64.625,11.164102564102564,33.19871794871795,10.864195022040775,3.675008333333333,867,33,156,22,12,286,117,208,0.114,0.737,0.149,0.8733,1,0,0,0,0,4,21.0,1,0,0,4,17,16,1,0,7,0,17,3,0,3,3,29,32,17,0,7,9,2,0,1,0,3,3,1,0,1,11,4,0,0,4,0,2,4,6,6,0,2,4,1,26,10,25,24,7,34,0,3,0,0,10,13,0,3,16,121,37,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08963012870189582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07621806752806752,0.1175253812674446,0.0,0.0,0.1111529867409194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10477942855325884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09358190249257993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2352415476512508,0.0,0.122362049207018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2285455321548994,0.11513676820040733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07228216107540987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19616347397714945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07402761214351078,0.30414762833966896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0953349707763366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05855703895920705,0.0,0.0636974999145764,0.1880143389930019,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3574065720601017,0.0,0.0,0.0751246881188653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23996736250770076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2334276067394036,0.0615960947333373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05475650028016645,0.11233334528435693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1312664385239479,0.0,0.0,0.16478301197426767,0.08310570808863837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12445128907823855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09786370707071512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12635306813453634,0.0,0.0,0.12084091776314188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07180115230472701,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08913030891032626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1259823252873225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23892418329020845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2154485181168011,0.11011777686263588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10948562152149773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06610753536192618,0.0,0.0899036080029003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11382241786878157,0.0,0.23885469769067985,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,jmal2000,2019/01/01,"Voices and their Placement (What makes us have voices that come from behind our backs? or in front) Do you hear them behind you? in front of you? how do you think our mind's generate subconsciously where the voices should be heard from? My voices are very precise with locations, behind, in front, corner of room, behind walls.",4.162768361581924,7.001869372881355,3.645,86.44399717514126,75.61016949152544,5.967231638418079,18.30790960451977,7.1686216300943375,0.3581163841807906,259,5,45,3,6,77,42,59,0.037000000000000005,0.963,0.0,-0.2869,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,3,4,2,0,3,0,0,0,1,0,6,0,0,2,1,10,11,3,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,6,1,0,2,3,0,0,1,0,0,4,0,0,0,0,1,6,10,0,12,8,0,12,0,0,0,0,11,7,0,1,1,36,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2991510582925133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3351272226826594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4384812095736423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2596900963189766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39282384663689257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2492838834061677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4679724003120298,0.0,0.0,0.32100229780748496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,MySchizoBraim,2019/01/01,Anyone else traumatized by their delusions? I've seen some glitchy things and now I don't trust the fabric of reality like I used to.,4.634615384615387,6.347247846153848,4.910769230769233,83.0092307692308,70.53846153846153,8.276923076923078,28.384615384615394,8.841846274778883,2.141292307692308,108,4,21,2,2,34,24,26,0.201,0.706,0.093,-0.4408,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,1,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,3,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,3,2,3,2,1,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,2,12,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3653605168355841,0.5353869814631395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4365012594662329,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2552785439524115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3471413348499183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4512924572136885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,loofy_goofy,2019/01/01,"Absolutely blank mind. Any ideas? I just don't get thoughts inside my head, no inner monologue. Compared to myself before sz and AP administration the volume of thoughts is probably 90% less then before. Is it a negative symptom? Or maybe side effect of drugs? It's getting better when I'm concentrating on something. But then I pass back to blank mind state. And it's unbearable. Does anything help? Maybe change of meds? Maybe that's how normal people think? Maybe that's why most of them stare into their phone all the time? 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And check how I am feeling about things. I think the more self aware a person is the easier it is for them to work through their issues. I cannot get caught up in the world of drugs. I already have way too many issues and I couldn't imagine bringing that false world into my life. We live in a world where people are constantly unhappy or unfulfilled. Dissociated, isolated, asocial, etc. Sometimes we are not alone but we can feel lonely. The morals of our modern age are becoming skewed. Almost like they did a 180. The line of morality is blurring and I think that's causing a lot of problems. People as a whole are becoming more isolated as more and more people live their lives online. This is the ugliness of our species. Our thoughts. Trolls, nasty, unhappy people, illegal things, etc. I see them outside and wish I were not involved in society but there's no other way unless you go out and live in the wilderness. I have felt very dissociated. So unattached from people, I can't relate to them and almost refuse to. Whenever someone talks to me it's like I'm in another dimension in my own brain. I'm not listening to them I'm just listening to my voices or my thoughts. I try not to see patterns in things. Or believe in fate anymore. It's like a snake eating its own tail. It's a circle of unanswerable questions. The real world is here: tangible, I can feel it, I can see it but I'm not really here. I feel like a ghost. I wonder how many people see me as a normal person because I'm pretty high functioning now as compared to before. My delusions, I try to keep at bay. There's times where I slip up but I think I'm doing an ok job now. Just a vent, nothing more. If anyone is reading this and could possibly relate.",1.832141532119547,4.417418245070426,3.5090827894194447,85.326021985572,83.45070422535211,6.731020267949159,23.869804190999645,7.933642134475585,1.6300594297492268,1427,54,271,29,41,473,181,355,0.117,0.8079999999999999,0.07400000000000001,-0.9549,1,3,1,0,0,0,46.0,6,1,7,1,15,7,0,0,19,1,23,4,1,3,0,59,53,24,1,6,17,0,5,4,0,0,2,3,0,3,15,13,1,2,14,1,1,3,9,2,0,0,6,12,40,5,38,45,11,33,2,1,4,0,23,20,0,10,12,182,55,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17643530793347356,0.09124319971045754,0.09721859013427342,0.0,0.07330478674363143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09237867807835344,0.0,0.0,0.08736977382119959,0.061600332467051974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05370386476151201,0.19459515227747215,0.07496510701521117,0.09925653944490824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09834676317246233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09050115243075356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09520289173392968,0.0,0.0703392699381881,0.0,0.0,0.05681607170112325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10216598022484184,0.09014648547406501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19650563364269366,0.0,0.0,0.07422656042699137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17818045339109398,0.06293739481617859,0.08458811873393746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04602769029886687,0.0,0.05006825568694915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09308061943961607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18390333193381195,0.08742390185834495,0.07830575680991378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06222638690528873,0.17216138531192196,0.0,0.3111694129090936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07489796674811935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17863556014093115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08631756270799315,0.08453262999248337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3664573303881923,0.15384795681652752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09931752000744977,0.0,0.08962757421820203,0.0,0.08429811046289455,0.0,0.0,0.0986901824948893,0.0,0.08812207301431291,0.10027507560772173,0.056437983547734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28081154036572514,0.0,0.09190566988442378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0746453464072464,0.0,0.08713140449123907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06623890679056467,0.07081002208649109,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1755856529738341,0.16934937017799326,0.0,0.13988031168566806,0.10274157553770136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11962583373432563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07269026810799062,0.0,0.1398565524584554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09835853028465072,0.10130861945834108,0.0,0.09553877499871083,0.06413656241859099,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Zam-Boney,2019/01/01,"I can’t say No. The new guy in my complex, really nice, just came to my door. And asked if was going to food line tomorrow: he’s got 2 TV dinners and that’s it. Told him I have a bunch of stuff beforehand. 9:00 DMV, then social worker, then psychiatrist, Then food bank. He said ok. Afraid it’ll turn into him asking for rides as a regular thing. It’s *not* a me being selfish thing. It’s an I gave another guy rides and I can’t be a taxi service. Kept doing it, then tried to make excuses. He would say “well how about later after you do that? Wanna do it tomorrow?” I mentioned to apartment supervisor and she gave me permission to say she told me I’m not allowed to give rides. I feel bad about it. I can’t even Promise I’ll finish the other stuff in time for food line. *I just don’t know what to do?* Peeps here have long memories, hold grudges, and gossip everything. ",-0.3582948717948753,1.9095873500000025,1.9911111111111133,93.11807692307694,94.94444444444444,5.435897435897436,18.034188034188034,7.010146845296331,0.3431495726495726,673,20,147,12,26,227,109,180,0.065,0.878,0.057,-0.3285,1,0,0,0,0,0,31.0,0,1,0,1,8,8,0,1,7,1,15,4,0,3,0,22,32,12,0,3,5,0,1,0,0,2,0,4,1,2,15,7,4,2,3,1,1,5,7,4,1,0,9,5,18,4,18,19,1,21,0,0,0,0,25,4,0,1,12,92,33,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14607340965337012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2604626885740797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11631383307604724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1593277770131735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0920096203703638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12519832664322952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07043677962772057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5053443762872721,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1336340230116457,0.0791702260275487,0.0,0.111414912078763,0.0,0.0,0.27586764809521536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07655836962192407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12328051679048654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0929871507136018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13454161028626646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08924233234627871,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13251092915005233,0.33234271573291285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14200387614431886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3189417296617854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18509606725733094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08122984959376689,0.0,0.0,0.2662237415821121,0.0,0.09457893195537456,0.15152380740411234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12525189992876135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09895825544839827,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,magicalpussyjuice,2019/01/01,"The world scares me, I just want to hide in my house I don't like the world and other people scare the shit out of me. I don't have any friends. I still talk to my old therapist though sometimes. I hate leaving my house lately. I have reclusive tendencies. I dropped out of high school and became a shut in for 5 years almost. :/",0.6836194029850731,3.0449238358208994,1.5896828358208952,98.58213619402989,86.76119402985073,4.544029850746268,18.82276119402985,5.985473137389443,-0.32395373134328365,255,7,57,2,8,79,46,67,0.25,0.675,0.075,-0.8878,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,0,3,6,2,2,4,0,4,1,1,0,0,7,6,3,0,1,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,4,0,0,0,0,12,2,9,6,0,13,0,0,0,0,2,8,1,1,5,35,13,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19979977623612785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13568676902647134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15415584549276487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19699387924577075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21081366483592728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4604600555240038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22507774605401634,0.21127272342034287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09747993943138007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20937244034566255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1383284964693822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3995272834016992,0.20193430823995948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20481396347696287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19733958383265626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1593443600990435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16037409670280678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23166890092856515,0.0,0.0,0.1960365283384642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11768755325972766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12849033009766825 schizophrenia,talura,2019/01/01,"I know my delusions are bullshit but I spend most of my brain time shushing them. Hi all. I'll try to make this quick as I know diagnosing people isn't the point of this subreddit and I am inquiring about a symptom I have. I have experienced a couple episodes of psychosis following traumatic live events in the last 3 years and have taken antipsychotics before briefly. Hated them, not taking them now. I have never gotten a formal diagnosis. I feel further away from those episodes now that time has passed and have a stable job (my dream job, honestly) and feel like I can differentiate reality from delusion pretty well... Until I decide that this method of rational thinking IS the delusion and I'm fucked. I spend a lot (most) of my time catching myself and trying to logically think away the obsessive thoughts and that's miles better than how my brain used to be functioning but still feels out of my control. I am constantly anxious of losing my grip and this job I love. I also feel like I can't be present with people because I'm too busy reminding myself of reality. But since I'm fairly high functioning and I'm able to identify delusion now, I feel like getting more aggressive help for my mental illness is unnecessary and frankly more scary. I guess my tl;dr would be after years of psychotic fragility, I can decently identify when a delusion is fake or not but now that's all I think about. Do I need help or is this what managing is?",5.102714633298575,6.910194846715331,5.7343378519290935,77.18947688564478,69.5109489051095,9.014668057003822,31.2957942301008,9.48565724429506,3.0510144595064306,1164,50,206,26,21,377,149,274,0.14300000000000002,0.732,0.125,-0.7539,4,0,1,0,0,0,25.0,0,0,3,3,13,13,3,1,10,0,23,7,2,4,3,47,50,21,0,2,8,0,7,3,0,1,3,0,0,0,11,12,0,1,14,1,2,3,5,6,1,0,3,8,34,7,27,43,7,30,0,1,0,2,7,8,1,6,22,142,45,4,0.11622595883476255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09294585728887728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13130225107938162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2183962284997324,0.0,0.0,0.07085026573532341,0.0,0.09889973052202232,0.0,0.0,0.10279241558698617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2594932165839789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12559897147205307,0.13035729572706234,0.0,0.12860181279759691,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11796690168007055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2938366849308852,0.2490955446437971,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10744902610258836,0.06072326644161745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12803599708695246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11474907201474882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15580762053775285,0.12279910675686788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3460089905515499,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12774949480834202,0.09473966892241424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17034639806015595,0.0,0.10262965100937156,0.0,0.0,0.13002711848720566,0.0,0.09881115392169533,0.10489846561277093,0.0,0.07758173003156521,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11712842986817948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0861800757821995,0.0896406245564529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16115289128606616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10987109864871772,0.0,0.0,0.11824358412139815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09614331419403427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09281820086063293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12080327335413685,0.08738745654469532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2234187042683642,0.0,0.0922704287492178,0.20331687378285626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15781959355299033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10038191141829757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10450109516897348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08256358647054758,0.0,0.0,0.14969141374368589 schizophrenia,sakurablade5,2019/01/01,"//whynotyou I told everyone in my church group and everyone at my work place im schizoaffective. I helped out two people since then. Im not afraid of the questions and negative comments, there is always someone who relates or understands and my weird behaviors no longer need excuses. Why was i so afraid of this label. I claim it. It makes me look cooler, ya i survived psychosis, what have you done? Thats what i thought.",2.3125546605293446,5.2362790126582315,2.8944533947065594,87.10241657077101,87.98734177215191,6.9233601841196775,26.16915995397008,8.00094639256281,2.2230151898734176,338,15,61,8,11,105,62,79,0.099,0.858,0.043,-0.5106,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,2,0,2,2,3,0,2,1,0,4,0,0,1,0,11,10,6,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,7,4,0,0,3,0,0,0,3,3,0,1,4,1,12,0,5,6,0,5,1,0,1,0,9,4,0,2,1,40,19,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18002294105431316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22140412862229125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4134689272559217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1450167855955403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4673965078212797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18168194268313465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14441723801811734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1604229309090363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14999185664394538,0.0,0.2260427278443945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2423647580894216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17896935121402013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18331510660070185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17176003248816288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20673446362796086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2113453419847265,0.2252309947220537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19522483700556206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1575074849625885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,esmereldaskysurfer,2019/01/01,"Anyone here treat their illness with CBD? Im looking into it as a possible replacement for Clozapine, has anyone had any success with it?",5.7323999999999975,7.9387520400000025,6.749000000000002,68.93950000000001,68.6,9.8,36.5,10.125756701596842,4.557,111,6,16,3,2,37,22,25,0.092,0.679,0.229,0.6199,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,1,1,1,2,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,0,0,3,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,2,5,2,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,12,3,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2883737718180823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5930219955411906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4580550755491039,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3561016592509608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4780613313939689,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,bbebemal,2019/01/01,"Can you live with schizophrenia refusing to take meds? I believe my son has schizophrenia. A psychiatrist a few years ago diagnosed this. He does not believe that he is schizophrenic and thus refuses to consider meds, even though he is anxious, depressed, and has occasional psychotic episodes. I know that he hears voices and has paranoia about being watched, monitored, and manipulated. He otherwise has a gentle and lovely nature. I see a side to him that others don’t and sometimes wonder if he reserves his scary behaviour just for me. He has extremely low self esteem and is not living a “normal” life. He can’t find a job and spends his time wallowing in self pity and blaming the world for his disfunctionality. I fear that he will never have this “normal” life with job/relationship/joy/self-acceptance without some kind of medical intervention but how can you convince someone who won’t agree that it would make all the difference.....? He will not see a therapist, either. Thinks they are a waste of time. Believes in eating healthy, meditation, sweat lodges and running. What is the prognosis for an unmedicated/untreated schizophrenic?",7.597640692640695,9.516774550505053,7.268138528138528,68.14363636363639,63.595959595959606,10.909668109668116,36.36507936507937,10.914260884657429,4.551150360750361,923,44,143,26,14,291,129,198,0.114,0.8170000000000001,0.069,-0.6106,2,0,0,0,0,0,32.0,0,2,1,0,5,7,0,1,12,0,20,9,1,4,2,36,29,14,0,4,8,1,0,0,0,4,6,2,0,2,11,12,1,2,4,0,1,1,8,4,0,0,0,5,13,3,14,24,4,11,0,3,3,1,25,5,0,3,5,94,24,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10836600452024668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1381061170866373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4131969151282443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10529253682026347,0.12407975188426895,0.0,0.12772376379722886,0.0,0.0,0.10698057039993307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12509083336254187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08074404487127218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13756365791770195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11173300225537464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1377830527347116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2426257370269125,0.0,0.0,0.1273031008768819,0.06718463142377201,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1726955977082869,0.0,0.0,0.21589550037937924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11033413102238007,0.0,0.0816018872749222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2715812629280787,0.12315259952048875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09428565381737616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23955533698699244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13124924211595526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19483260726938484,0.0,0.3825958419607865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10358083889365208,0.0,0.12090698758293293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0919157303568901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14194004255970524,0.0,0.07833196429708618,0.12010862512874965,0.0,0.1425682791448272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11784328433676007,0.13257338786062167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08684189529470061,0.0,0.0,0.07872408790939639 schizophrenia,Daffodil509,2019/01/01,"How to best address my sister's problem (aggressive tendencies) My sister (26F) developed schizophrenia from her late teens maybe around 18yo. I am about 6 years younger (21F) and before then, I hardly had any clue she had it and neither did my parents at the time. I recall that she was initially reserved and maybe had depressive episodes, to which my parents sent her to our home country to be treated. She is in Canada now and for the past several years (6 or 7 yrs) has tried different meds--I think Clozaril or Clozapine. At one point, when my mom was away because her mother was gravely ill, for a couple weeks, I had to make sure she was taking meds and that was a trying experience. She had withdrawn from the meds regularly due to paranoia perhaps, which is why it is so hard for us to ensure she takes her meds. She has been mostly reserved in the past, and speaking of voices, but recently, has been more aggressive--it is unpredictable and oftentimes I find intolerable. I don't know if this is because of the new meds which is by injection, but I want to make it easier for my family. I know that being medicated is primarily important, but if it is to the point where she adamantly does not want to take them, I don't think any degree of persuasion will help. I'm away from home for college these past few years, but when I come home, it doesn't seem like the situation has gotten any better. If you could give us advice, that would be most appreciated. Thanks.",6.8617126334519565,6.870904483985767,7.006705960854095,76.10870662811391,64.65836298932385,10.441370106761566,33.22086298932384,10.125756701596842,3.1848663701067608,1164,44,220,24,16,375,156,281,0.045,0.845,0.11,0.9662,3,0,0,0,0,0,39.0,3,1,1,2,8,10,1,0,9,0,35,2,0,3,1,36,53,21,1,8,10,6,2,1,0,2,2,2,4,0,14,9,0,0,6,0,0,2,5,4,0,1,15,4,33,6,30,32,6,28,0,2,0,0,27,10,0,8,17,152,47,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0920884652479357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1922555953054843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0838919657062906,0.0,0.0,0.17707975683459995,0.0,0.0,0.11489344769608265,0.0,0.08018975580372092,0.0,0.09889716277491092,0.08334601783934634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08117785331385206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07524152374798587,0.10427276100473096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08116721200727271,0.0,0.0,0.098458847393839,0.0,0.0,0.08246847213048847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09218302935923164,0.08883937531776369,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08613199525957037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09040185563799973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1688378098073811,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06316587000456537,0.0,0.2835857545361728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10358168559871407,0.0,0.10630477918150208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.046040017805190486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12580944261877658,0.0,0.18934984977273095,0.0,0.4187095232193889,0.09493505861283937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11037062514850947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09101582782809088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06385823412570824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2092807077049956,0.0,0.26988303707272754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17817109357169256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0901732174058388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09304884026188924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08579090571784281,0.0,0.10646232699481338,0.0,0.0,0.10592767013396123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08881837558248885,0.0,0.21256616464896214,0.0,0.0,0.08676186089730104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12076804957033042,0.0,0.0,0.05495104443448658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12796308545288446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22671387041233576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11116824813666083,0.0,0.07559218890955413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08503530557041272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06694410391622192,0.0,0.0,0.18205890729925225 schizophrenia,Burphurp,2019/01/01,"Faults Hey reddit, Ive done so many wrong things throughout my life. As a child I had sexual thoughts with children. I jerked myself off with other friends. I always had weird thoughts in my head. I always believed my feelings were truly female and I angered my mother so much she had a stroke which she died from. One day she fell to the floor. She passed out for 15 minutes and everything in my head started running. I just took something to eat and left the kitchen. When she woke up again and told me shes sorry and gave me a hug. A few months later she fell over something in the bath and died there. I tried calling the police but they said to me I should get out of the line and call an ambulance which I didnt do. When I was 14 I started shitting myself and masturbating anally for hours. I rarely washed myself and always smelled really bad. I shat on the floor once while masturbating and semi-molested my female cousin. I always gave her weird looks.. I started drinking and going to football matches. I never beat anybody up in my life but I drank a lot and was obnoxious. I read rightist newspapers even though I knew my uncle was an actual communist intellectual. I think my family is disgusted by me and hates me. They can not underdstand why I did this. I started smoking weed and thats why I developed schizophrenia. Even as a sane person I was a fucking scumbag. I watched shotas and lolis, furries and every bdsm and other bullshit there is. I masturbated for hours. I could only see woman as objects and couldnt feel real love. When I was on a festival I spat on someones face when I was in girl mode. I alienated everyone around me with my scresming during videogame playing. Sometimes I feel like Jeffrey Dahmer. Maybe I have an impairment in my brain that makes me not feel empathy. Am I still a normal person or does that make me a monster? I did many other wrong things and I dont want to mention more. What do I do now? Everyone despices me. I have the feeling they hate me but I dont know how to cope with them anymore. 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How much Klonopin/Clonazepam do you take everyday & at what time do you take it?",6.989615384615385,9.28717334615385,4.456923076923079,86.26307692307695,65.53846153846153,6.7384615384615385,32.230769230769226,7.1686216300943375,2.0216769230769227,121,5,20,1,2,33,17,26,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,3,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,2,0,2,7,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,1,7,2,3,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,2,13,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2982091972073431,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4046481898800405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1908082962831656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8277481870412684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16048753860399206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,dijjonnaise,2019/01/01,"Psychiatric Service dog? Hey guys, first post in here. I've been struggling with schizophrenia for a couple of years now, and it's been getting gradually worse. I've been recommended antipsychotics however I have heard that their effects can vary drastically and that they also have some pretty nasty side effects. I also don't really like taking medication for prolonged periods of time (I was taking fluoxetine for depression for quite a while and found that it just made me numb to all emotion rather than combating the depression itself). Because of this, I decided to look into alternatives and found out that service dogs can be given to people with schizophrenia, however I couldn't find anything from the patients point of view about it and was hoping you guys could help. Does anyone in here have a service dog? How has it helped? How long does it take to get a dog from the time of application? I feel like the simple act of having a constant companion with me would really help lessen my episodes, especially in New areas as I've found that being in an unfamiliar space brings on episodes a lot more than if I am in a space that I am comfortable in. Thanks in advance! 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The violent urges and thoughts are uncontrollable now, they just keep coming. To regain focus i put out a lit cig on my leg, It helped a bit. Im hearing voices telling me to hurt people in the hospital",1.9155345911949693,4.4800371886792485,3.6625471698113214,84.53709119496857,82.77358490566039,7.3069182389937115,25.81446540880504,8.344100000000001,2.0385371069182403,213,9,42,5,6,71,37,53,0.222,0.778,0.0,-0.9062,0,0,1,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,1,0,2,4,1,2,5,0,2,2,2,0,0,8,7,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,4,0,1,2,0,0,3,0,4,0,0,2,4,7,0,7,5,1,9,0,1,2,0,4,5,0,0,1,25,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2860719926270438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2257180875228835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2953300518155859,0.0,0.17563508755308088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2805115720230061,0.0,0.2830404295477615,0.0,0.0,0.23290682564100434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18166057650307385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5268307512616727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22902824952938106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4160496072270717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,anxietyisabitch123,2019/01/01,is underestimating everyone you know a delusion of grandeur? title,7.445999999999998,11.2089056,8.780000000000001,41.02000000000004,93.0,10.0,45.0,8.841846274778883,7.057000000000002,56,4,6,2,2,19,10,10,0.0,0.7020000000000001,0.298,0.5267,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8668527064169156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4985643242127026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,ninjaturtle7778,2019/01/01,"Seeing people Whenever I close my eyes or sometimes with open eyes also, I see someone trying to kill me. Like if I am sleeping on bed I expect someone to kill me from the other side. It’s really messed up. Is this schizophrenia ? 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i can't really tell . my father has schizophrenia and my mother has symptom of it . i think i have schizophrenia but i asked my therapy and he said no immediately didn't even think . i had my doubts. so i have major depression and anxiety and porn addiction i have no motivation to do anything and no dreams hopeless all the time . you see i dont have hallucinations or hear things or see things but im sure that i have early stage of schizophrenia because im 19 (i read) i won't have hallucinations until 22 (i think) i dont feel at all i have no joy in anything. i droped school because it gives me anxiety . i didn't even ragret it . i dont think about the future and when i sleep and think about positive things my stomach hurt me (anxiety) i also forget things fast and hate thinking (seems hard) i don't care about anything in my life or others lifes . i workout sometimes (whight lefting) i have been like this since 2 years but it was alright back then . i can't cry anymore even when i want to . sometimes i just make myself cry by listening to sad music . but even music are not enjoyable anymore . when i think of something to do in my head it seem more fun then actually doing it . thank you for reading ,1.4769507786429372,3.99799725403226,3.06614015572859,88.31145161290323,84.5241935483871,5.840044493882092,23.067853170189096,7.237678284180719,1.0104127919911008,981,36,197,15,29,322,127,248,0.183,0.6659999999999999,0.152,-0.8198,0,0,1,0,0,1,25.0,0,2,0,1,15,14,1,1,2,1,28,8,3,3,3,38,51,25,0,2,10,2,2,1,0,1,4,3,0,0,13,8,0,0,12,4,0,0,14,6,0,0,6,7,40,8,17,44,4,18,0,4,2,1,11,5,0,7,13,138,53,4,0.0,0.0,0.09148238227955056,0.10219676439753457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07496848605677024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2151458517406944,0.0,0.18594129579730764,0.0,0.0,0.2314344285383945,0.0,0.08763967253307302,0.0,0.0,0.07208473714227602,0.0,0.11429314471518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09558009560422122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20595072874435527,0.0,0.0,0.08074312412152651,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3296081543720156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24767287916119646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0474006955441677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08992951796768997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08397782735510595,0.09255457377328942,0.09621024116893838,0.0,0.1056583350042398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10035682270451753,0.0,0.20252311162411185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051520242535030784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10185509097754336,0.0,0.13243086834163836,0.04579946483647486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06257605250823292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1875423470611123,0.0,0.060055962915326125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08917372773306717,0.0,0.0,0.0948757590891228,0.1494065378871665,0.17068531929501998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07754749829468388,0.0,0.0938135066833902,0.0,0.0,0.0721701003747481,0.18543399561610427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08835431138483213,0.0974377855907472,0.0,0.0,0.08193796522041884,0.08630854171531355,0.10720649757021736,0.0,0.2491221880630848,0.42047968401629293,0.0,0.0,0.05466393253699183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0552937044139621,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06036922457545981 schizophrenia,Jdogftw,2019/01/01,"Schizophrenics being well liked in society? Is anyone having a hard time being liked by all in society? &#x200B;",5.038771929824564,8.617309368421054,4.890526315789477,71.280350877193,86.89473684210527,6.7438596491228076,27.385964912280702,7.793537801064563,3.058143859649124,94,4,11,2,3,29,15,19,0.06,0.597,0.344,0.7691,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,1,0,4,1,0,0,1,1,4,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,3,3,2,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,3,10,0,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3950726404307938,0.4430610854524891,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2549553138946433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.326633707537772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35627616179031896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21261663364605585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3278429968023649,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4430610854524891,0.0 schizophrenia,MtRushmost,2019/01/01,"Why do I always have symptoms around the holidays? Every year I start getting symptoms around the holidays sms then by February I end up in inpatient. I have no idea why but I can't afford to go again, my debt is already bonkers from the last 3. Does this happen to anyone else? 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Hello everyone! my mother has schizophrenia. And my boyfriend i think has something like that too. Maybe schizo affective disorder. I know him for a few month only. I really like him but his behavior drives me crazy sometimes. It is triggering old memories with my mother which are quite painful. For example he is sitting often or walking as if i am not there. he seems to be in a different world. he doesn't listen and seems kind of careless. What is this? Can you help me understand what is going on.He says when i ask about whats wrong.. that he is just thinking about something. (exactly like my mother) He also says he cannot trust anyone. It is unsure if we stay together at this point. Which is kind of sad for me. He does not take medication and i don't think he would take medication. i don't like him to take it if it is making him worse. i am kind of confused and scared. English is not my first language .. so i am sorry for mistakes. Any thoughts are welcome. thank you.",1.4373366834170866,4.060699005025128,2.694299497487439,89.92343919597992,86.58793969849245,5.998070351758795,23.03537688442211,7.404127859558343,1.176213507537689,798,30,158,14,25,256,111,199,0.181,0.727,0.092,-0.968,1,0,2,0,0,0,29.0,1,2,0,2,9,17,0,2,2,0,24,3,0,3,1,32,41,13,0,5,9,3,0,4,0,1,3,3,0,0,14,7,0,0,8,0,0,4,7,7,0,1,1,3,26,10,17,38,1,15,0,1,0,0,26,5,0,8,8,104,40,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10242396662450844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08709746284805008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08955514729909053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1197356831737658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1338142974094564,0.14678853617762544,0.0,0.11208196062290274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12238406103354067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10894311997944783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14557940950891898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08584801405512779,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4001207252769991,0.07038834421570965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2502898540210187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08549308983968644,0.0,0.12867161145291656,0.0,0.0,0.2580503124719209,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10223067389391913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13439636358983734,0.0,0.0,0.09740912493633476,0.13628407046785074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12107515137569265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13622676670976022,0.0,0.0,0.08205007550217938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2037056047398109,0.12822846683036984,0.0,0.0,0.2331948844949085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19720147333569027,0.12667246183716885,0.143372885909314,0.0,0.13651415505881467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2888962518700335,0.0,0.0,0.11791705636639227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2462017197619876,0.0,0.10167966158261388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1333337621651428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13052247026524255,0.09098296870592276,0.14003323660480804,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,one577,2019/01/01,I got a shower today and feel much better. It's been a week I'm going over to my mom's today.,-2.8523188405797093,-1.253524347826085,1.7652173913043503,96.06202898550728,96.82608695652172,3.066666666666667,7.666666666666668,3.1291,-2.152263768115942,72,0,18,0,3,28,19,23,0.0,0.847,0.153,0.4404,1,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,5,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,2,1,2,3,1,5,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,3,10,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30979935622893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17711504357244795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1990755129155756,0.0,0.28015558223625103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4102505375061953,0.0,0.0,0.25750039383448325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6640600292821693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2809781686901431,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Nervous_Independence,2019/01/01,"Had high hopes but... Sorry this is long.... My boyfriend was diagnosed with schizophrenia in 2017. I wish I could say it was his first episode but as I think about it, I think it was his second one. This was a very traumatic episode, he hurt himself, the walls were filled with blood, he didn’t recognize me. I didn’t know what to do, I called a friend and she recommended a psychiatrist, she was out of town but said she would be back in the afternoon and gave me instructions to take him to the hospital. That night the psychiatrist said it was either schizophrenia or bipolar disorder. He started medication. Now I know his dose was too high and that those weren’t the right ones, but I trusted the psychiatrist. As time went one, his psychiatrist would point out he can’t keep doing weed and would refuse to treat him if he kept it out. He resented her for it and that definitely created some difficulties but most of all his belief that his diagnosis isn’t real. I convinced him to see a new psychiatrist (almost 2 years later), she did change his medication and I felt things were in check. He has been working, being social and overall having a normal life. He still distrusted her because he was very vocal about not taking his medication and she lowered his dose instead. Fast forward to this month, he said he wanted to stop his medication. He is still convinced he doesn’t have schizophrenia. The episodes he has had, he says, have been when he has had bad weed. He is irritable but he has learned coping skills for it not to be as bad as it used to be. I have been reluctant about him stopping his medication. I do want to believe he is high functioning and maybe doesn’t need them, but I worry, sometimes I feel he just likes making life harder on himself. All in all, he has been okay without his medication this month. Last night we had a great night on New Years. We were leaving his family’s get-together and he wanted to go out. I wasn’t feeling well so I stayed home. He said he would be a few hours. I woke up and he wasn’t there. I called and he seems okay but he has been having out with a new friend who I’ll just call C. C is very unstable, he has mentioned he has bipolar disorder. I’ve seen C high and low. He loves drinking and cocaine. I feel my boyfriend is off doing that, I just know he is. We met C as a mutual friend of another and he was so depressed, I felt he was going to kill himself. So as normal human beings, my bf and I tried to help that night. Since then, my bf and C hang out weekly. My bf tells me it’s his first friend that gets him since he alienated himself from his old friends. And that he wants to help C, like I helped him out of his depression. He asked me to be more compassionate towards C but... I feel C is going to bring down my bf, adding new addictions and make him spiral. I don’t know what I want from this post. Advice? Suggestions or maybe it’s just a need to vent. I want to believe he wants to get better! Sometimes I want to believe he is right, this isn’t his diagnosis but the more I read about it. The more it fits with how he acts and responds. I’m sorry if I’m posting in the wrong sub. I know this is for people with schizophrenia, but necessarily their significant others. I just wish I could somehow get him to see why my worries and concerns are real and genuine. It’s not about nagging. I love him so much, I just want him to be okay. To be healthy. To not self destruct and spiral back to his depression or another episode where he could hurt himself. I worry he is going down a path that isn’t healthy for him and me. I have always told him he wouldn’t be alone, he would always have me now. But C’s influences, specially on cocaine use, truly scare me. I had a parent have a coke addiction and I don’t want to live through that again. The line between caring for him and for me feels like it’s getting very thin. 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My handwriting used to be super neat just four months ago. Now it's a total mess. I'm wondering if this could have anything to do with antipsychotics (I've been on Invega Sustenna the whole time) - seems like a long shot, but I can't think of anything else.",3.1534615384615385,5.552113576923084,3.669846153846154,87.27515384615386,76.69230769230771,8.006153846153849,23.861538461538462,8.841846274778883,1.829264615384616,214,7,42,5,5,67,46,52,0.036000000000000004,0.838,0.127,0.5346,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,1,2,4,0,0,3,0,6,0,0,1,1,10,11,2,0,2,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,1,0,2,3,5,8,2,6,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,3,6,25,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26444236485933065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4909832971189482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23818396127125965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2492077830502703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14574390936803885,0.0,0.0,0.2640034973988841,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23811589373299435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27157899982683376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1911511822780912,0.0,0.0,0.17395258345960046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2576523900688365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3330632289559521,0.0,0.0,0.32351492849148983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,mrsucka,2019/01/01,Done drinking I'm done drinking. I'm literally just done. It's ruining my relationship and it just ruins me. It's really bad and I don't have fun doing it. So please just everyone too. Don't drink. It's not good. Really really bad. I had to puke my guts up to find that out. ,-1.6644530046224943,0.009840644067800495,2.3018181818181813,88.11294298921419,108.66101694915254,6.891217257318952,15.533127889060092,7.686295010490155,0.9762067796610172,214,6,48,7,11,79,36,59,0.32,0.64,0.04,-0.9545,0,0,3,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,0,5,6,0,0,0,0,8,4,1,0,0,8,10,3,0,0,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,6,3,3,0,1,3,0,0,3,4,0,0,4,0,5,2,4,6,0,2,0,2,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,31,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3082211454777748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5666461493474862,0.0,0.542433209316427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17636721362748128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16869618919693952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15481090196703512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2026055008003472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3547261728047557,0.0,0.0,0.19816210549272206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Jellyfishking3,2019/01/01,"I Got an Epistle Hello everyone I'm getting really worried and really sleEPy and I'm not sure what to do. I woke up and I found an epistle next to my pillow and I know it's because I didn't stay up and watch my window again like I should have so I think that they put it there as a warning. When I read it it said that they'd come back one last time tonight and that it would be my turn again. I think that it's the women who wear the ram skulls on their heads. When I can't see them I hear them speak latin and I swear they touch me even when I can't see them. They're covered in mud and I have to watch my windows at night to make sure they don't get in becuase when they emerge from the forest after the darkness falls my short fence doesn't keep them out. If I keep my guard up they'll just watch me through my window, but if I try and run they close in on me and rape me again. They've raped me so many times now that I think my body is decaying and fading away. I'm so tired but if I don't stay awake I think they'll bring me to their gore cave and finish me off, and my body will putrefy and dissolve into parasites. I only have one choice left I think and that's to either create a ring of flames around my house and hope the barrier keeps them out, or set the trees that they come from at night on fire. Thing is, if I'm wrong, and I fall asleep and they make it through the fire, they're going to touch me again but if I destroy the trees something else bad might happen i think. I've been crying for hours now confused and it's almost nightfall what should I do???? I'm not going to ask any of my friends because I think they've all been replaced by now. Please I don't know what to do and my body feels like the millipedes are growing in my tummy and the holes in my back, arms, and shoulders where I'm dissolving are getting bigger.",1.885502819548872,3.1499514812030083,2.7881007205513804,97.28147438909777,76.79448621553884,5.8897556390977455,20.238173558897245,6.158741222570753,-0.21448565162907274,1447,31,350,9,32,457,183,399,0.15,0.7979999999999999,0.052000000000000005,-0.991,0,0,1,0,0,0,25.0,0,0,17,0,21,13,3,1,14,0,28,12,9,2,3,71,68,39,0,9,13,0,5,2,1,7,1,4,4,1,20,29,0,6,11,1,0,10,9,7,0,2,7,14,66,6,38,52,2,62,0,0,5,2,25,24,0,10,27,220,86,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09727538217231613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06606104652078257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08647848777202898,0.09081624513149536,0.0,0.09126970298746102,0.14939501641980404,0.0811109309717027,0.1184357945128815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3237142503359371,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16736138999864006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10670779183707683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08115109530902669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06416249700681577,0.0,0.0,0.0928249673982326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04911877305700802,0.06939947797730113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10651305185524904,0.07505298087362781,0.0,0.15226071981078215,0.0,0.11041800564058636,0.0,0.07769469033773826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0859038522055297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09969746113395504,0.0,0.10948800896431464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09648561226269817,0.09566697540901864,0.11209078588568552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2590373494691532,0.0,0.0,0.10677527288865116,0.0791850802834696,0.0,0.0,0.10554691320436624,0.0,0.0,0.09491900882927133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12968834683412162,0.09848846348162313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10305411314972897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10331342595992868,0.18232556163757999,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13165416908497427,0.07388216055379616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10663460979895167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09765624876677467,0.0,0.0,0.09716998746663814,0.0,0.12446548217459455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09240590343419314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1548219017350679,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07478596550351496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20708451551152346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18311357332197525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06453795708300293,0.4357203188091191,0.0,0.0,0.1132905441940702,0.11165239158745184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06595419494252346,0.10566444899884812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09865414180395686,0.0,0.06900809658217763,0.1062113849854018,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,SchizoChatban,2019/01/01,"I'm new Here my story. I am a US Army Infantry Veteran with two tours to Iraq. (I am bad a grammar english etc etc so forgive me.) I guess when i first started noticing i had a mental illness was when i first got back from Iraq i attempted suicide. I woke up several days later in a hospital and then i spent 5 days in a mental hospital then i was released like nothing ever happened. I continued to seek help while in the army and they said there was no way I was this crazy and they don't believe the test or anything that they are getting false reports. I was prescribed every medicine in the book basically. To shorten then things up I did another two in Iraq despite being prescribed an anti psychotic that makes you non deploy able. I did another tour came home and had even more problems. I was constantly depressed and suicidal but i would never report being suicidal because they would just throw me in a mental institution. I spent two other trips to the mental ward before finally getting out of the army. One of those trips was because i saw a man in the back seat of my car that wasn't actually there. I was diagnosed with bipolar type II while in the Army and they even wrote me a profile so I was no longer allowed to carry a weapon. If you know anything about the military to be an infantrymen who isn't allowed to carry a weapon makes you useless in the Army. I maintained my diagnoses until right before i got out my doctor told me there was nothing wrong with me i didn't need medicine and i would be fine. I finally got out of the Army and still was extremely suicidal and depressed. I would get very delusional I got heavy in to the illuminati and other secret organizations. I finally seeked out mental health treatment through my nearest VA only to get turned away because i was registered with them and that i would need 3 weeks to go through a registry process before I could even schedule an appointment. This is where things started to get bad for me. I then made up in my head that the VA wanted me dead. That even if i went through the registry they wanted to kill me. I felt that i was a target of a bigger plot by secret societies and because i have discovered there paths I was a dead man. I was lost hopeless and i was constantly being turned down by jobs probably because my hygiene wasn't the best and i was always speaking weird things in my interviews. I kept being told i had no worked experience and they wouldn't hire me. I had no money so i decided that i would use the GI bill because that would give me money and maybe i could find a career going through college. College was ok at first i started to get my life around. I started of well but then i started to get extreme anxiety and stressed out and then suicidal and depressed. I would have such crippling depression i couldn't even write papers. I constantly waited til the last minute and had to rush papers to get them done or i would ask for extensions. This turned in to me not showing up for college because i was so scared as if i was gonna be killed for not having my work done. I would abandon classes all together and just sit at home in a crippling depression. I finally dropped out of college and this is where things got worse for me. I started Hallucinating really bad and having extremely delusions. I was homeless and I would randomly sleeps on friends couches and bounce around places. I found my self believe I was the next prophet and found my self exorcising demons out of random people to include friends. I am not sure if all this stuff actually happened but i spent days talking to demons and exorcising random people. I could see them every where i was constantly being attack and mocked by them having a hold of other people. It just made me even more depressed and suicidal but spiritually up lifting as well. This phase eventually ended as do most of my episodes. But i never lost my religious side from all of that. So finally this is a few years after i got out of the Army I had no money no money for food and no home. I prayed for help and finally I finally got Va disability that i had filed before i got out for issues i been having with mental health and other physically problems. I got a large lump sum of money and its was almost life changing. But I still wasn't on medicine so that probably wasn't the best thing for me. I looked up to the sky and asked god ok now what i got money i'm a little stable money wise what do you want me to do. I had always played guitar since i was 16 and played several other musical instruments since i was 8. And then i heard a voice saying go on craigslist and come be a rock star. And for some reason I decide to do this i do what the voice tells me and sure enough on the musician section craigslist it says come be a rock star. Fast forward a bit I met a singer and all of sudden i'm in LA meeting famous rappers and multi platinum Music producers and Grammy award winning and nominated artist. I got even more delusional I straight up thought i was a rock star even though i hadn't even sold one album. This pushed my delusion so much that I blew all the money i got on equipment and complete mismanaged all my money thinking I was just gonna become a rock star over night I ended up homeless in my Van in LA suicidal. I tried to hang my self with a belt in my van so i decided i finally need some help. I finally went to the VA clinic in LA to get help even though i was terrified of the VA still because they were trying to kill me. The doctor prescribed me medicine Depakote and risperadone diagnosed me with schizoaffective disorder and PTSD. Now to back track a little bit I wasn't hallucinating when i said i met all these people in the music industry. I basically got significantly better after a few months of taking the medicine and I started to notice how crazy i was. People that i thought were real disappeared out of my life I was no longer being visited by demons. I didn't see shadow people any more. I no longer had spiders crawling all over my legs. I no longer wanted to kill my self. But I still have negative symptoms like i have no interest in playing music at all or or no interest in anything in life for that matter. I'm not exactly sad any more but i have no emotions. I'm absolutely terrified what i got my self in to. I have a song coming out on radio soon and i supposed to play with these famous people and write songs for them and i'm not exactly sure i'm capable or even have interest any more. Of course before i got really ill i would of have been really excited and capable but I've seem to lost interest. I have no emotions or drive to even compete for this spot any more. It really makes me upset if i could feel up set. I just feel nothing like i'm letting the biggest opportunity slip out of my life because i am mentally ill. I don't even know why wrote all this i just thought i'd share my crazy little story. I' am good now mentally besides the negative symptoms. Anyways AMA. &#x200B;",4.200779249693866,5.6750084464544175,5.226219247467442,81.26139388288993,71.26483357452966,8.29657130134699,29.71393187131248,8.81431480718593,2.4065268618501623,5571,227,1062,103,104,1831,455,1382,0.184,0.731,0.085,-0.9994,3,0,0,0,0,4,77.0,1,4,13,17,61,63,8,3,64,2,116,24,3,11,18,201,224,99,13,32,31,0,3,3,2,15,20,10,4,7,49,77,1,4,20,15,14,20,36,31,2,8,101,17,188,32,152,91,31,169,4,13,4,0,58,76,0,20,74,766,237,22,0.0300039376703697,0.0,0.05855903009247688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.030044609517058313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04993135941416164,0.03250925393033281,0.03645806836413158,0.08161482597885858,0.06292348947780188,0.022952930193444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07407205260462756,0.05341973146163069,0.056099262975864164,0.03413381060912478,0.028189687110543742,0.06921352810791001,0.07515610406833485,0.16461109725638726,0.0331369918672607,0.12765570531527373,0.06760832635066896,0.06297456297840417,0.026536044625309733,0.06551305796863538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03431651155470472,0.0,0.0,0.031740187675091194,0.07753720671845793,0.03145855779858,0.12969439011013414,0.0,0.09582281114864667,0.0,0.0,0.05805017290066725,0.0,0.15505408530173326,0.09136009547249688,0.0,0.0,0.03438711198949837,0.06142060316264344,0.0,0.061408890762892174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0675007829191231,0.05314916627085877,0.031002088171591582,0.06692464337039586,0.257625132146247,0.0271402793806988,0.050559223093014236,0.0,0.0,0.02934960834587118,0.0,0.0,0.0303417848071904,0.0,0.028808485409303437,0.2958106242330273,0.02742305546355604,0.0765640021646934,0.03628088052830735,0.06579553798703816,0.04636193563228441,0.0,0.14108237159318227,0.028782511001842762,0.05115578765725815,0.025165879390725208,0.35995334800294976,0.0,0.03305272001775527,0.0,0.053064765984764166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.030792696186026782,0.06378556539244838,0.0,0.0,0.08044402785834673,0.0,0.09028918756477726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.031316315660132515,0.02977427845431018,0.0,0.13277964631624736,0.0,0.03297875894575356,0.024457213773566928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.030681059096924382,0.10596334249217998,0.043975225164932887,0.09021548358887796,0.0,0.0,0.025195750958312,0.0,0.09825852686195476,0.0,0.0,0.0567809025771333,0.06008358413809819,0.0,0.030142988193209458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2418952973622284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02394885679422648,0.0,0.02205634648503698,0.06674261881219608,0.04628177283094846,0.02897798996841273,0.031909528099689666,0.02815666298116282,0.0,0.08636876221618077,0.0683193638049516,0.0,0.0,0.040662889346905366,0.02281934662752877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1456066677279397,0.0,0.031347728852932126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06469863901188865,0.05741943246050256,0.03507299751906565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03415104976679012,0.0768851630654876,0.030849045073902463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.025623198831765517,0.05708123111422625,0.04772067101071137,0.030039175837286658,0.0,0.04781850740075826,0.02731445798601421,0.15650325302928245,0.06779181857240467,0.0,0.049639134586133137,0.0,0.030025606155325506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14865859058755146,0.0,0.0958447335248942,0.0,0.03436940922868486,0.0,0.034347330253378286,0.22973606582669925,0.0,0.08483506851691941,0.06237115908412817,0.022559227092002813,0.024116028570484043,0.026224764000988388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09966641488761588,0.019225311753268998,0.058957432845651914,0.07145932511373998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057340096469078984,0.0,0.040741408335972576,0.0979070050133094,0.08792846208387825,0.0,0.03609104273004828,0.0259137686935248,0.0,0.024756390844607276,0.07078839925281483,0.0238157291543972,0.024067348989549563,0.0,0.0539542865874376,0.05562790163404239,0.027073886933540608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04368644793840423,0.0,0.030576575794213856,0.2557672375920441,0.03280459574550513,0.03645806836413158,0.019321552141980437 schizophrenia,SchizoGamer,2019/01/01,"Happy New Year Struggled through the year but we made it. Hope love and light 🙏 to everyone! Don't give up, stay strong, & keep fighting.",0.9594444444444434,3.553071518518521,1.027685185185188,99.71708333333336,93.07407407407408,4.181481481481482,21.564814814814817,5.985473137389443,0.10619259259259196,109,4,23,1,4,32,26,27,0.122,0.467,0.411,0.9299,0,0,0,0,2,0,7.0,1,0,0,1,0,6,1,1,1,0,1,1,0,1,0,6,6,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,1,1,4,3,5,0,5,0,0,0,1,4,1,0,1,3,9,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3071060537576182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2708381248372701,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27190052992153263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3017261014293341,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2815188955240359,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2519336192961157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2558147767562562,0.26819684875925204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27374716639447577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3021082766630924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29631199913092393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3650508648098599 schizophrenia,turkeylegdance,2019/01/01,"New Patient (Please Have Patience ;))/ HELP This may or may not be against the rules, but I just need someone to respond in an understanding manner or maybe a completely un-understanding manner which would mean I don't have it. Because from what I have researched if you have schizophrenia you wouldn't know it. But, despite this, I feel like I might. And I say this because for awhile i smoked weed and took mushrooms (afterwords for months I felt great) then LSD (which is around when the trouble started, I think, IDK) but overall, for the past year, I feel insane. And from what I know online you shouldn't feel like you're insane and I get that but nothing else feels like what I have been experiencing. I feel ridiculous and just part of the experiment typing here, even. I haven't ever heard voices (except when I am high) that aren't there that I'm aware (maybe the voices I hear are real?). I thought I was experiencing dp/dr but at the same time I think that whole world is made up for me--I saw psychiatrists and that makes me feel worse because i Think they are making take pills to dull the real feelings that the world is fake and I don't want to take the drugs because I will lose the sense of depth that I have gained and be numb and be a part of life anymore and I recognize the whole world and human experience is completely insignificant, And I don't know if maybe I am reaching some spiritual enlightenment and that is why I don't want to take the meds and I think I could be another Great in this world if I don't take the meds and I have written a suicide note and planned out my death but I am so afraid what comes after because I know I am trapped in a box and even the sky is claustrophobic feeling and overall am so depressed. I just want to see if anyone here feels anything similar because I also view technology and internet as a separate brain and I think I might be a simulation and everyone I know I know doesn't feel like anything but if someone else feels this way maybe what I feel isn't real. &#x200B; Please just share schizophrenic/ psychotic disorder experiences. 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I hope it doesn't catch anyone else off guard. 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Essentially I had a delusion about one of my professors trying to rape/kill me. I also thought he was in love with me. It's over now but I still see him (he's my advisor, unfortunately, and the kindest most intelligent and thoughtful guy ever) and I really think that he is attracted to me and may have feelings for me. I think bits and pieces of my ""delusion"" are true and I still see evidence of his crush on me all the time. I obviously won't act on this ever, and I don't want to make him uncomfortable, but it does make me feel good. However my friends think I'm over analyzing things again. I could be 100% sure that something he did meant he liked me, at least a little and they all get worried that I'm psychotic again! I don't understand. I suppose they are right and I'm wrong but it doesn't feel that way. The worst part of it is that when they gently try to show me I'm being irrational and he is ""just doing his job"" (even that phrase makes me wanna punch something) I can barely stand it. The pain is too intense. I just can never ever ever accept it. It feels like knives in my heart to hear someone tell you the connection you thought you had with this person is entirely fake. Like my whole life is a lie. No one will ever love me. The pain and humiliation is too much to bear. Yet I don't even think I'm delusional. I think he likes me. I suppose that is the essence of being delusional. Makes me wanna scream sometimes",2.450576850094876,4.467538494117648,3.9927134724857716,85.97156546489565,77.29411764705881,7.4459203036053125,24.791271347248568,8.360895534625662,1.5769535104364325,1328,47,276,26,31,441,168,340,0.14800000000000002,0.698,0.154,0.5077,2,0,2,0,0,1,37.0,0,3,3,0,22,20,1,0,10,0,31,6,1,4,12,61,64,18,0,4,6,0,4,4,2,3,3,2,0,2,20,13,0,2,18,1,1,1,8,7,0,3,8,8,52,13,28,49,10,31,1,0,2,2,26,12,0,3,19,191,72,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07541406631411643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05748622686786335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10295443983931317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07529326329386353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08252518125976589,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18685870472754298,0.4265122629537529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19072969911096574,0.06737007425707782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14571651090301135,0.0,0.04926941959344227,0.0,0.0,0.07909687308372179,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0933747855057796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09310467813006193,0.0,0.0,0.10628632245040892,0.11174949613702784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09358116549378008,0.0838208296744508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0666089900734391,0.1842867081890093,0.0945163693643323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1702242589980876,0.0,0.2517919100011137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06932354763094528,0.0,0.07273227879031176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19170643798811307,0.0,0.2006900585191925,0.0,0.0,0.10212094743823527,0.0,0.0,0.08234173264798701,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06041290958476692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08053423743030667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1502945457302294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07990261664133541,0.14519809647579718,0.09326806754303907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1506209778259457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08887945119857578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16484993809524565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12530143130195046,0.3021277381436822,0.0,0.224598118802596,0.05498883130991012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1920766181683773,0.0,0.0,0.09817273742868933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07780984221710065,0.05562234627854156,0.07485332330631357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1052859195784599,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0957692630090779,0.0,0.0,0.10310551465176697,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,VashhTS,2019/01/02,"Quality Life It's been one year and 4 months since I discontinued antipsychotics after an episode culminating in 9 months of hallucinations and 3 months of of acutely presented voices. I grew up watching my mother diagnosed with schizophrenia spend her life on disability and tranqualized on antipsychotic changes. My major was Philosophy and I had a number of courses in logic and philosophy of science that led me to pursue other ideas from the current paradigm of antipsychotics. I did alot of article searching and reading and pursued exercise, a ketogenic diet rich with vegetables and meats. Natural brain foods it used to fuel most of our evolutionary history. And strayed from sugar and refined carbs. I have Zero doubt the effects are near night and day difference when I do and don't pursue healthy options. I am not implying to discontinue medication. Antipsychotics were in the cocktail of things I did to get out from psychosis. Stress free environments being the #1 ingredient to exiting psychosis in my case. When I've been accused of faking my condition for benefits, ""studying"" my mother (talk about paranoid on Their part right? Lol ) and had the stigma attached to me ao that I am unable to return to the career I loved, am disowned (not to my face, but you can see the changes in their eyes) by every friend and family member I had. I am applying for jobs to be able to support myself, and work through college a second time this time for a substantially gainful career. Wherever you're at now? It is possible to make a full recovery and begin anew. My heart will always have little cracks and a break in it for the life I Loved that I lost. But I survived a state I have no doubt many people went the way of suicide to escape. Or got killed for acting in who knows what manner at the wrong place at the wrong time. Count your blessings. You never know when all you have will be over before you know it. And for those still struggling? I'm walking talking living proof going psuedo-public this is not what people write it off to be. Its life ending of the one you had. And people that know will never look at you the same. But you don't want them in your life anyways then. If I fulfill my plan and retire within 20 years. I'll go public with videos I do have of the period. Tp destigmatize. But moving forward I know to tell no one or professionaly you'll be black sheeped. I wish you all well and great success. I admit, I still get a little paranoid! But if you were surrounded by people who all call you and called you a liar all your life, basically for calling Them out on their bs. You'd be nervous people stupid enough to do something stupid, Might do something stupid. And when your means of survival rests on a truth that's currently unprovable? It's lawyer talk. You know truth doesn't matter. What matters is what people can Make it look like, vs what can be proved. And we are all left behind in the game of life dealt an event or illness in ways unprovable. With the current political climate also, the tone is not set well for fringe groups. We'll see what happens, hopefully it spurs a backlash that ends it once and for all. Good luck! I thought I was done for life. But I'm determined not to let this define me in the way everyone thought it would. I'm determined to turn it into the Best thing that ever happened to me. Maybe you can do the same when the right time comes.",4.502626590609919,6.545411779844965,4.999327190288138,80.89566476524794,71.51162790697674,7.968699722100338,28.13880356881673,8.677809691926855,2.2366451660084836,2718,103,492,50,53,866,320,645,0.108,0.755,0.13699999999999998,0.9737,4,0,2,0,0,1,64.0,3,19,5,9,14,33,5,5,35,1,56,22,4,5,13,97,94,43,2,6,17,2,0,1,1,7,12,1,0,0,35,34,5,0,14,5,3,10,12,14,2,5,18,9,65,20,85,60,16,87,1,1,7,2,47,38,0,13,36,351,100,8,0.07037091783710588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05627559757002123,0.05855424093716425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0598804680163718,0.0,0.07384993672942672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07855721736603903,0.21556972515592046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14888620044187967,0.060618314649765824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04538342036415239,0.0,0.0,0.07142500030847908,0.0,0.07352263145340612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07201388120818025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1246554920173315,0.07271196945780424,0.0,0.0,0.06365452399474078,0.05929053335056093,0.06724242767278693,0.0,0.0,0.0663394384855198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08509279317816662,0.0,0.054368396558338784,0.0,0.07353180023472818,0.0,0.07998682861053044,0.0590237871561816,0.056282051500019324,0.07758418534657294,0.0,0.0,0.12445754047965528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08338987645972956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06989419965217865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07944020066053406,0.0,0.0,0.06983227754257487,0.0,0.07785499426786978,0.0,0.2320440965086916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07645820813254223,0.07195903126399385,0.39764048306905736,0.03437967588285102,0.14106029355245134,0.06213880970514508,0.0,0.11818769522925145,0.0,0.07681816963007178,0.0,0.12702500162411087,0.0,0.09394626819080107,0.07134506553452401,0.07069704546160188,0.0766545594660843,0.0,0.07089129632484463,0.0,0.07465242320123658,0.0,0.0,0.1685081857195807,0.07479314894277099,0.0,0.0,0.10854878013090284,0.0,0.0,0.06603833933341441,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07494273083821103,0.14305546542027334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07620484642170368,0.0,0.29271800342021204,0.0,0.07352263145340612,0.0,0.0,0.07933263643663872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07038996120687498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1201927586654516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11215302112545472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058211550427853816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10834994112597753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11239661177306616,0.0,0.08060964862389176,0.07356696248769112,0.0,0.0769743624516516,0.07985608362844257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16968443446342354,0.06150728391338865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09350262182555594,0.0,0.0,0.11173329650972376,0.16413539239498795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07654335108902187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06077787881097577,0.0,0.0,0.04150659058793715,0.1675714772474598,0.0,0.0,0.1265438126860851,0.06523454585105415,0.0,0.0,0.08092308260197695,0.0,0.0,0.05123086629899948,0.0,0.0,0.049989480991211484,0.15387910328624346,0.0,0.0906331277718528 schizophrenia,mjcollins79,2019/01/02,Do you like any songs about schizophrenia? IMO lyrically frayed ends of sanity by Metallica is pretty good and accurate ,5.217833333333335,8.866366450000006,4.710000000000001,73.16833333333331,84.5,10.666666666666668,26.66666666666667,9.725611199111238,4.414666666666667,99,4,14,4,3,30,20,20,0.0,0.664,0.336,0.8225,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,1,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,2,3,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,7,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3787258707332448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.493267345320106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4671195200484343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27208382368490885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5665896114092815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,madeofmold,2019/01/02,"Gaslighting birthdays My dad likes to joke around a lot. Somehow in a conversation we were just having the discussion of our family’s birthdays came up and I mentioned I didn’t know any of his siblings’ birthdays (he has five). He started quizzing me on when his and my two siblings birthdays were and when I told him (his is June 28, my brother is July 1, and my sister November 29), he said his and my brother’s were flipped and that my sister was on the 28th. Every year for Christmas my mom makes a calendar filled with pictures she took the year before and included a picture of each of us on our birthdays with how old we will be. Since I still live with my parents mine is the one our house uses, and my mom keeps it on the basement door. I went to check the dates (to prove I was right) and as I read them aloud to my dad, he said something along the lines of “See? I told you you had them mixed up!” meaning that I had switched his birthday with my brother’s and gotten my sister’s date wrong (aka saying my dad was born July 1, my brother June 28, and my sister November 28). I immediately started yelling at him, because he and my mother have a history of gaslighting me, but never this blatantly. I told him it wasn’t funny to pretend like I don’t know anything, and went downstairs. I even almost started crying (which I never do) because of how frustrated and hurt I was. I know he doesn’t understand why I got mad, because from his perspective it was just a joke, but I hate that he pretends my memory is so bad about this when it is already shitty in so many other areas of my life. This is one thing I *knew* to be true, and he tried to take that away from me. I’m probably overreacting but as this just happened I needed to vent immediately so I can move on. Thanks for reading this far. Hope y’all are having a better day/night than I am. 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I've been living with this mental disorder for about 10 years now. Luckily I was able to finish school and start a great job at a company. I never doubted I would make it this far, but I really struggled to get where I am. I've been hospitalized 4-5 times and just recently had a really bad experience with it back in May of 2018. My hallucinations are menacing to say the least. They weren't always as evil as they are now and it's only been getting worse as the years pass on. I have no friends and only a few family members who still support me. I like to think I act normal enough but being lonely sucks (never had a GF or anything like that)! Anyway. I take medication for it and it helps a little, but no meds have been able to make the voices go away. They do make it more tolerable than if I'm not on them. Before I typed this I heard my computer ask me if I really believe I'm hallucinating. It's so hard to just ignore it. I've heard my fried chicken (while I was cooking it in the oil) threaten me in disgusting ways. I guess I'm looking for somewhere to help cope as no one really gives me the time of day to relieve some of this stress. My parents don't want to hear about it they just tell me to see a doctor who, quite frankly, doesn't seem to want to hear what's going on either. He just wants to prescribe medicine and hope it goes away. I've tried like three different medications and they all don't seem to work. The latest one I'm on helps a lot, but I still hear things ALL THE TIME. The worst part is I believe they aren't hallucinations and real. I've been seeing things too, but only on rare occasions. I can't complain too much though as life is good. I have a great job, a reliable car, a roof over my head and a very supportive brother and sister-in-law. Working hard really paid off. I just want to let you guys know that living with it can be tolerable and possible. I just discovered this subreddit today. Thanks for reading. 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Was it difficult to detect it in yourself or did you know that something weird was going on while in the prodomal phase? Did you feel normal during this time or did something feel off? Was there a sort of ""fogginess"" in your brain during this time?",5.872352941176473,7.6183062352941215,4.811058823529415,84.79276470588236,67.52941176470588,7.792941176470588,26.835294117647056,8.238735603445708,1.7050964705882357,296,9,53,4,5,87,45,68,0.153,0.847,0.0,-0.8796,0,0,3,0,0,0,8.0,0,5,0,1,1,3,0,0,2,0,7,1,1,2,0,14,12,5,0,1,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,7,2,0,0,4,0,0,1,0,3,0,1,8,2,5,0,8,4,0,11,0,0,0,0,5,5,0,3,5,36,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2840177130686984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26136020662306403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2572855641264888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2164101707035664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14459318251897393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13982299745166818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2407390772164946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2492783287132395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5875965987887409,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2967095853487485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2583766343062619,0.0,0.0,0.2781691642715611,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Flame1213,2019/01/02,Anyone else like instrumental music? I feel like my inner monologue is always always always talking and going on about whatever and when I put on instrumental music it’s like the voice matches the song and it becomes all cinematic and poetic ,4.667441860465118,7.970218069767442,6.424465116279071,64.31995348837211,77.6046511627907,8.091162790697675,27.20465116279069,8.841846274778883,3.2487339534883724,199,8,26,5,5,68,30,43,0.0,0.831,0.16899999999999998,0.7579,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,1,6,3,5,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,2,0,0,2,4,0,0,1,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,3,3,3,3,3,1,6,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,4,17,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6537142035639566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18311224531083034,0.2683265097580878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2892253485741305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21876673044513992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13241415096418566,0.1870867772502497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1488321629195384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3838233077372269,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26326124334970186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2104888336715076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,ls4man,2019/01/02,"Trying to help my Schizoaffective brother find a job in Florida. Need ideas I'm trying to get my brother to move in with me this summer. He's not happy with his place in New England and wants to move down to Florida with me. Right now he is doing janitorial work and isn't too sure what he wants to do once he's down here. He does like being around people. I'm trying to give him something to look forward to because I believe he's also suicidal. Can I ask what kinds of jobs have been a good fit for other members in this subreddit? I'm just looking for ideas. &#x200B; Thank you!",3.5065732959850604,4.838569890756304,4.738095238095241,84.64301587301587,72.78151260504202,7.3056956115779625,26.66760037348273,7.793537801064563,1.499705135387488,463,16,93,6,9,153,77,119,0.077,0.8140000000000001,0.109,0.4464,2,0,1,0,0,0,13.0,0,1,0,1,6,6,0,0,2,0,8,0,0,0,1,15,20,3,1,3,2,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,6,0,0,3,0,0,3,2,0,0,0,1,2,9,6,22,18,0,16,0,0,2,0,14,11,0,0,5,54,14,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11872969261718624,0.0,0.16086486240446882,0.18040469841285905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13216787087262016,0.13879740579318967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09050462837150644,0.0,0.0,0.16727243478277887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12992522327781586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1356969327351739,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07756832816030752,0.14242389818876858,0.0,0.12452779550561108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15804679587519396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09951487582909382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3352042808301449,0.0,0.0,0.2946628807298448,0.0,0.0,0.15460642753684126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07253389614869005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2493512167195175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3155956744056759,0.0,0.11008703567653068,0.0,0.14339118267729095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15811342358900812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10292891907649963,0.0,0.1551173121175315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1267907397465183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11429781077820625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16239973963700785,0.0,0.1399291993729267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13668925660759498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3023997902339778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17514037895240125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10808636906296792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18040469841285905,0.0 schizophrenia,CaitlinNoGoYea,2019/01/02,"My life was over a long time ago Doesn't matter if I kill myself or not. I will continue to stay alone for as much peace as possible. Though, I've had an imaginary boyfriend who has been with me for a long time. He resides in my dreams. Though as many days has passed, he has never left me. And he comforts me. And always stick with me the these dark times.",0.8256756756756758,3.0102836621621663,1.7310135135135134,99.12733108108112,84.0,5.321621621621622,17.35810810810811,6.6274283507984215,-0.3646162162162159,277,6,65,3,8,86,55,74,0.039,0.794,0.16699999999999998,0.8993,0,1,0,0,0,1,9.0,0,0,0,0,2,2,1,0,4,0,8,1,0,0,1,9,8,9,1,1,3,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,2,4,0,0,0,1,0,1,3,1,0,0,3,0,9,1,10,4,1,14,0,0,0,0,4,3,0,2,9,42,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19580932842253254,0.0,0.0,0.2287797123745271,0.0,0.0,0.18380162116302826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1424584471311972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2443866393457129,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24000213103372314,0.0,0.15602406473549355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39096872813381456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22395198874322686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16238261038546667,0.0,0.1703671795928441,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2490249545517803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23544376390533664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.43405474490517176,0.0,0.3864154508228042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Perrierchicken,2019/01/02,"I’m making a go fund me, making a business after being homeless My credit is 419 but I’m a graduate of uc Berkeley and I’ve been on meds for 5 months. I have absolutely no more symptoms. I want to make a go fund me to help me start a business, will you guys help me out? Because I was ill I wasn’t paying my student loans so my credit is shit and I can’t take out a loan. The business is in a field I know. I’m 27, female, college grad (almost 3 classes, do you guys think anyone will help me?",-0.5113608562691141,1.386500302752296,2.4589220183486242,93.61174694189604,87.25688073394495,4.367278287461774,20.09250764525994,5.46131890053228,-0.18333088685015264,379,12,87,2,12,134,68,109,0.109,0.725,0.166,0.6414,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,2,0,0,1,3,1,0,8,0,12,3,1,3,0,12,25,4,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,2,0,4,0,0,2,0,7,2,3,1,0,0,3,0,16,2,9,19,1,9,0,0,0,0,7,4,1,1,3,51,16,8,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.217162586128096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15163957443188794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1322010916440932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2465028573985965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.42946803951045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4360873733030368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11918531635248453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.43428444319991216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2408921359806505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1731024553104213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2226125114936948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15350071824660433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22540952310972706,0.16305820495250034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13896064840144925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1279147249432665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,TryChanging,2019/01/02,"Weight gain: med induced vs symptom induced.... Does anyone get the feeling that the pills dont really cause the weight gain, that its actually due to the stress of the symptoms themselves? It just correlates with an increase in meds because our symptoms are getting worse which drives our eating. I definitely eat comfort food due to my symptoms. Also, I'm often convinced I'm going to go to jail for the things i've done so i feel that i might as well eat whatever i want. If i try to jog or work out it just puts me more into my head so i'd rather not do that either. Last weird thing- sometimes my voices guilt me into fasting. Fasting is problematic because it creates this yoyo effect. When i'm not fasting i'm so happy that I eat anything i can. In the end i gain weight over all. &#x200B; &#x200B;",2.6754113924050635,5.1317764620253215,3.646060126582281,86.51060917721522,78.68354430379749,5.468987341772152,26.96360759493671,6.6274283507984215,1.2644544303797471,643,27,119,6,16,206,101,158,0.07400000000000001,0.73,0.196,0.9586,0,0,0,0,0,0,25.0,2,0,0,5,10,7,0,2,8,0,7,14,1,4,1,23,18,8,0,3,9,0,5,0,0,1,5,1,0,0,13,4,8,0,5,1,0,6,3,3,1,0,1,6,15,4,15,16,4,20,0,0,0,0,2,6,0,4,8,75,28,1,0.0,0.0,0.09980348250341403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08178750705912496,0.0,0.2216250337965788,0.2485452496287392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07151150734824896,0.0,0.08416178563116435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1246890776628962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10506231976164136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08949960099917402,0.1046605646495458,0.11986293917345672,0.0,0.0,0.4186023549042011,0.0,0.0,0.09058332895213317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1034243833733106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12366865432358196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10686661520182113,0.0,0.11624795812218525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10887127851827198,0.0,0.0,0.10496138034328156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08336596774494838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22720401078484084,0.0,0.0,0.1084952599917744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1028123941484861,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06551856318880814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10115039680786143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11715312658665107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4252023214551262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13589098424213256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06943650582331051,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06032313679987528,0.0,0.0,0.3736220891983561,0.09195551375953047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07445580358095745,0.0,0.10422470257697056,0.0,0.0,0.2485452496287392,0.0 schizophrenia,bobbielovesyoux,2019/01/02,Day 2 of eating healthy I know it’s not a lot but I usually fail on the first night. 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Following what I can describe as a quickening degradation to my mental health, I am putting aside my reluctance to work with a mental health professional and am currently seeking professional help. I have not sought medication or professional help in almost 6 years, and now I'm seeing it affect me negatively &#x200B; In the past I was seeing counselors and psychiatrists to address issues with initially severe depression and suicidal ideation. My current reluctance of seeing mental health professionals stemed from my time living in Florida, and anything I brought up in a session resulted in me being baker acted for weeks at a time. I now live in the Southwest US and as far as I know I do not have to worry about being involuntary committed to facilities, so I think I can start being open to behavioral health again. &#x200B; My question, I need to find someone who is skilled with psychosis and suicidal ideation, however when I search online I'm not sure how to tell who I should be approaching. I see things like ""Counselor"", ""LPCC"", ""NCC"" and ""LCSW"", and I don't know what any of this means. I want to be able to find someone who is designated to help me, and not get stuck with counseling visits with guided meditation and breathing exercises and no real solutions. &#x200B; &#x200B;",12.123813559322038,10.102436635593225,11.214000000000002,56.69794915254239,55.52542372881357,14.694237288135595,46.48135593220338,13.187427743715654,6.30799627118644,1090,54,164,31,10,352,133,236,0.115,0.8029999999999999,0.08199999999999999,-0.8959999999999999,3,0,0,0,0,0,42.0,1,0,0,2,8,4,0,0,6,0,17,8,1,4,2,41,35,20,2,3,5,0,0,1,0,1,7,0,1,0,8,18,0,0,7,1,0,6,7,2,0,0,3,5,25,2,34,26,0,28,0,1,5,0,10,10,0,3,13,116,33,7,0.07819981574757515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07830581953121532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3389178707638389,0.3800853421186912,0.053178556294295465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.064351785304132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06735338671607398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14294642976834265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04085617614973922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4156137367571484,0.0,0.0,0.15724706434268845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08162029069050154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08595314726601508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03820447994899808,0.0,0.13810373998429645,0.0,0.06566815010109672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08518252441065308,0.0,0.07877808732780901,0.3152280859223982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057984172510559526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0746505726246505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07861241376035243,0.08760169050586428,0.0,0.0,0.0890085104391683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2492605143461677,0.0,0.0,0.0883435331021631,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13251690022985327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05535023207837645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.171075812168312,0.0,0.07370240088528428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06835008575978235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05195248281114637,0.050107284360879766,0.0,0.0,0.09119788285734172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09406474985497663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04612427741528248,0.0,0.06272717525253327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0569303972195452,0.07941570880105064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3800853421186912,0.050358117459768016 schizophrenia,SatanicMessiah666,2019/01/02,"What can I do if a family member makes fun of me all the time, causing me to become suicidal, but I have nowhere else to go? I am thinking about going to a shelter at a church but I’ve never been to one before. Homelessness is my next best option and I do have a tent but I’ve never been homeless before. Any other suggestions? I don’t have any friends. Twenty four year old male, by the way.",0.6444579945799447,2.8219891097561,2.9291869918699187,90.2896612466125,84.73170731707317,5.595663956639567,20.08672086720868,6.937597516519254,0.4636216802168023,305,9,64,4,9,104,57,82,0.034,0.813,0.153,0.8936,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,1,1,3,0,0,6,0,11,0,0,2,3,12,15,5,1,1,4,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,1,0,0,2,3,0,0,2,2,0,8,3,8,13,2,10,1,0,0,0,3,1,0,2,6,46,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.303318190985979,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24630457290929544,0.37954180153785416,0.0,0.2340424094721485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2290997225405841,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1863019488945053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2102404242141178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1723022536399897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25349121371128963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14886546923425126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34400866367940885,0.0,0.2371809342807716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2340186530478023,0.0,0.15112197923648465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24394422058575085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14290018295581713,0.0,0.0,0.13004291004515034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17702038318368846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14361552995934568 schizophrenia,Maslover51,2019/01/02,"I could really use someone to talk to. I would really like someone to talk to right now. I don't know how it is for you guys but for me psychosis seems to happen in two ways. The first seems random. It doesn't feel like anything causes it or whatever. These ones are normally more mild I guess? I mean that it's not hard to tell that it's not real. Like the voices I get of preteen aged girls yelling horrible things at each other or at me. I know those aren't real people. The second seems like it's caused by stress, anxiety, upset of some sort. It doesn't even have to be much. Today I am tired and a bit stressed about work. And I'll start to get really anxious and the walls sometimes start to sort of breath or pulse and I'll know I'm in for a bad time. Lot of times, this is when I can't figure out what's real and what's not. This is usually when I'll get visual hallucinations. Stress doesn't always cause this for me and it's not always a result of it. But today I am very stressed and anxious as hell and the walls are starting to breathe. I had to call in sick to work. I would really love to have someone to talk to right now. Please? 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I've never had a drug or alcohol problem..is this really that uncommon?,6.124313725490197,8.91256711764706,7.224117647058829,63.455196078431406,69.0,10.415686274509804,34.86274509803922,10.504223727775694,4.897580392156863,158,8,21,5,3,53,32,34,0.212,0.7879999999999999,0.0,-0.8053,0,0,2,0,1,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,3,0,0,2,5,2,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,3,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,0,1,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,10,4,1,0.0,0.3089721536242014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2786859399614808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18233783112002613,0.2671917093160262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2669111705849155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3024127062692891,0.0,0.21784152710745505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.131854148014105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20112342645581294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1983288410310203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1807864561357608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4990471321739014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16705720733545945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2078015051751003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2491788012808431,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,SzStarsReadArt,2019/01/02,"For people who ""can't"" or don't read. For a while, I was unable to read. Forget the hows and whys, but I just couldn't. It started with not reading books anymore, then not reading full articles anymore, and then I was just barely skimming headlines and reddit comments. I used to love books, and it felt like shit. Then I read Bunnicula. The book about a vampire bunny who drains the vegetables white. It's undeniably written for small children. But reading it, and actually finishing it, made something click in my head. I was able to start reading again, and have been on a reading frenzy ever since. If you feel like you have lost the ability to read, try picking up a book you loved when you were 5-10 years old. Something that you read, or something someone read to you. Doesn't matter. Just read it. Then read something else. And something else. If you don't know what to read next, try posting in r/suggestmeabook. It's a very active sub, and people tend to be very friendly and helpful. There does seem to be a strong lean toward classics, but there are plenty of people in there who read across a variety of genres. Don't give up on reading. Anhedonia is a bitch. Word loops suck. Inability to focus gets worse and worse all the time. Our brains are not like everyone else's, and we have challenges. Reading is a great way to tackle some of those challenges. Reading the **right** book can quiet the voices, help you focus, break you out of word loops, and even *feel* good. 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I feel extremely overwhelmed, suicidal, and my psychosis seems to be coming back. I don’t know if I could handle school and I’m thinking I shouldn’t go back even if I really want to. I’d only be taking one or two classes but even that is terrifying.",2.1568609022556373,4.142424723684211,3.549548872180452,88.9518421052632,78.07894736842105,6.448120300751881,22.69924812030075,7.447530270364453,0.8700511278195497,293,9,61,4,7,96,57,76,0.135,0.812,0.053,-0.8316,1,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,0,7,1,0,1,1,0,6,0,0,0,0,18,19,7,1,6,6,1,1,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,1,4,0,0,5,0,1,3,3,1,0,4,2,2,8,0,6,12,0,10,0,1,0,0,2,1,0,5,5,40,9,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.47839168362835705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17864116009253533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16557758724541993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2739476028449461,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10485852921390272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2357198470077088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11397167900063855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14052735518359233,0.15772329414305591,0.0,0.0,0.23027307869834795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13285416742372316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19726769464590604,0.0,0.0,0.419763146592142,0.0,0.18879271004582715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2268421595881412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15592539384889842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1328819597750761,0.0,0.16463807864656124,0.12092606450333496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20258200077869554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12231922871751508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,SuperPheotus,2019/01/02,Trying to start school again... But my financial aid was denied because I dropped two semesters because of being IN THE HOSPITAL. There's no way to appeal. Not sure how I'm going to pay by tomorrow. This is rediculous. Anyone else in school? Maybe the disability office can help me?,2.5735164835164848,5.5448818461538485,3.418681318681319,83.78346153846157,86.30769230769229,6.048351648351648,24.736263736263727,7.447530270364453,1.7107109890109884,224,9,38,4,7,71,45,52,0.159,0.792,0.049,-0.6276,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,2,0,4,0,0,1,1,4,7,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,1,1,0,3,1,7,5,0,8,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,3,24,4,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19366106815297696,0.2837843990460752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33767180783383743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23136955490018435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15740616143715067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18564447273145926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2782495754455613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5606087604128493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1960379615232902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2610371788227428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18804173461296766,0.0,0.2705555389045328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2198427204251219,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,VenerealDiseases,2019/01/02,"Abilify restlessness I hate the way abilify makes me feel, I feel uncomfortable and can’t even sit down right. It’s making me aggravated and bitter while I’m on it...yeah I guess it makes me feel better mentally but the physical aspect of it and the side effects make me not want to take it anymore. I’m going to talk to my Dr. today and tell her I don’t wish to take it any further...I’m only going to be taking my seroquel in the meantime. Does anyone else feel odd or uneasy on abilify?",1.2960545454545451,3.640820060000003,3.767454545454549,84.2437272727273,83.4,6.836363636363638,22.090909090909093,8.00094639256281,1.3939000000000004,386,13,76,8,11,134,65,100,0.17,0.7759999999999999,0.054000000000000006,-0.8309,0,0,0,0,0,1,12.0,0,0,0,2,1,4,2,1,4,0,3,1,0,5,0,19,22,7,0,2,3,0,4,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,5,4,0,0,5,0,0,2,3,3,0,0,0,5,11,1,10,21,0,12,0,0,0,0,3,6,0,2,2,42,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.119494333597234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17426513828964713,0.12286618113522388,0.1800439588043744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15540837982693184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15377209341069836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1467899248551428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11606014778091568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35539340429397825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19972929125496985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19357329773003384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1734852446712396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4691727847634084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1770825154126518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13364153317374872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15006229725096162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3963544283278876,0.14123555265747068,0.15358536444614085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1665602125756285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10364308805021782,0.13947684873697316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20206714299124467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,frost0r,2019/01/02,"Place to read about other peoples delusion stories? I'm interested in hearing about other peoples delusions. 1. Does anyone know of any places where they discuss these in detail? Like I'm interested in seeing what the common ground in between them if any on a wider base. (Research level welcome) 2. Failing any direct link can anyone recommend keywords that might help me look it up? 3. Finally if you want to share below go for it!",2.7895166858458005,5.831706962025319,3.7906559263521302,80.67710011507485,86.9746835443038,4.898043728423477,27.434982738780214,6.574015621080383,1.7385848101265826,346,16,53,4,11,111,64,79,0.037000000000000005,0.7659999999999999,0.196,0.9028,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,1,2,1,3,6,0,0,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,6,10,2,0,3,2,0,0,1,0,1,0,1,0,0,7,0,0,0,2,1,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,3,4,5,14,9,0,15,0,1,2,0,8,12,0,3,3,32,11,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4476493413063756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3068539648047153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19202019670271345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24036923756719344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12470421954795533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24730779420518226,0.0,0.14707587602669492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12059017906862902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10719991588010447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18426164094465733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2327751289653774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30424317601833706,0.0,0.4585046080100193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21948426581719888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17485322536658113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12942248305826126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Ohm860,2019/01/02,I find it does not help really to help others procastrinate over nothing.. What's your Opinion?,4.153529411764708,7.350605823529412,5.077941176470588,73.79573529411766,79.0,8.105882352941178,26.14705882352941,8.841846274778883,2.8032588235294122,77,3,12,2,2,25,16,17,0.258,0.742,0.0,-0.5448,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,1,0,8,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4024015962712245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4202776101833835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6164306495088018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4412206732026736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29457979832576897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,RelevantAngle,2019/01/02,"My Delusional Belief: Lip smacking I think lip smacking has been introduced by Media, so TV news, Radio. And it's an effort from the government to intimidate people and make each other to feel bad. People use it against people and in turn the other does it too, so it perpetuates itself. And I delusionally believe when people use it they arrogantly claim to be of high authority. When they smack their lips they show that they have authority over their words. And that's intimidating to me. Crazy is I know people think it can't be true because a lot of people in different countries all over the world do smack their lips and they do it for different reasons. But to me it makes me anxious panicky and on edge. The delusion has different areas. 1. People do that to bitch around to each other. 2. They do that specifically because they know I hate that sound 3. It's has a deeper governmental motive so people adopt it and unknowingly hurt each other. I hear it everyday throughout the day. Tl;Dr I have the delusion that people do lip smacking specifically towards me because they hate me.",3.563136813681368,6.446470579207926,4.756255625562559,77.31644464446447,78.35643564356435,7.237083708370839,26.013501350135016,8.296473431620573,2.1878732673267334,875,34,147,18,22,287,104,202,0.162,0.816,0.021,-0.9838,3,0,0,0,0,0,21.0,0,0,11,2,7,6,3,0,9,0,15,5,5,6,2,31,28,14,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,22,12,0,0,8,3,0,0,1,5,0,0,1,3,23,1,20,25,5,14,1,1,0,0,12,10,1,2,4,109,45,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1299439695792681,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10239542331452434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09603993231446163,0.2103520244255652,0.0,0.0,0.12959225003284836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07418073016602549,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3605256572452559,0.0,0.0,0.1006579598273762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05815940691656229,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2271240561461361,0.0,0.0,0.12963999850829486,0.0,0.0,0.12152878767576178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12313518233264603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12642796548176471,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09778898285247606,0.0,0.0,0.1535583416773844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7176861633242179,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1182634559464204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14740500421598987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12511268713503745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19868698268945886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,VisibleBiscotti,2019/01/02,"Really scared Hi everyone. New person here *waves* I need some help. I’m a 29 year old female and I’ll first say that things have felt much “different” for about 2.5 years now. I’ve always had struggles with severe anxiety and at times depression but lately I can’t chalk what’s going on up to solely “anxiety and depression.” Just some background psych info: I’m diagnosed with: ASD, MDD and generalized anxiety. I’m currently on Xanax 1.5 mg three times daily and have been for years. I also take propanol for anxiety. Anyways, I don’t just feel anxious now. I feel paralyzed. I find that so many days I just stare at something for a long time. I feel like I can’t talk (I used to have trouble speaking when I was a child so at first I thought it was maybe just the ASD or whatever). But my thoughts are all over the place. I don’t feel real. I feel that my friends are conspiring against me. I hear whispers when I’m alone and laughing. I feel very ocd like if I don’t touch the microwave before it beeps then something bad will happen to someone I love. I’m scared to even type that thinking it will make it happen. I constantly think something bad will happen to people I love. A lot of times I look at a clock and then think that if I look at it again before the minute has changed, something horrible will happen. On New Year’s Eve I had the most frightening night so far so here I am. I was supposed to go out with my s/o and friends but couldn’t because I i was in such a bad place. I thought depression. Then I heard the whispers and started seeing snippets of light here and there. At one I was writing in the air with my finger “help me.” I told everyone I was just tired. When they left, I was afraid to go into the bedroom because I thought there would maybe be the woman who’s voice I heard in the shower two years ago (the first time I recall hearing a voice and last until NYE). I’m really scared and constantly paranoid about getting bad reviews at my job. I also have a terrible time doing regular things like bathing, cleaning and driving. I’m not who I used to be and have described it to my s/o as someone took me and replaced me with a false person. Today I have my second appointment with the new therapist I’ve been seeing. Last time we talked about breathing exercises. I’m scared to tell her any of this. I’m afraid she will tell the doc to switch my meds and put me on something awful that will make me gain a ton of weight. Anyways, sorry this was so long. Thanks for reading. Have you found a medication that doesn’t cause weight gain and works? Also how does one tell when it’s just “extreme anxiety” or whatever or schizophrenia. The latter roams freely on my dad’s side of the family. Two of his siblings are affected by it and I have a cousin who is as well. Any input much appreciated. 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But ever since about 5:30am I've felt like a door I've been hitting with a battering ram for years has just been blown open by the breeze. I'm so inspired to write, read, learn more Russian and dive deeper into my history degree, create signature drinks where I bartend, master the espresso machines at my work places, listen to podcasts and the news, and just live passionately. I feel like this is a new life or me. I feel like the world is full of opportunities. I feel like I can finally live uninhibited by my illness. I feel free.",5.903740875912408,5.905038379562043,6.247874087591241,80.76991332116789,66.66423357664233,8.893795620437958,30.99361313868613,8.472884824447931,2.1501978102189785,546,19,110,7,8,176,93,137,0.024,0.7340000000000001,0.242,0.9861,0,0,1,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,0,4,7,9,0,0,10,0,7,8,2,1,1,23,16,7,0,0,5,0,6,5,0,0,3,1,1,0,3,6,2,0,9,2,1,0,1,0,0,1,4,8,13,10,15,11,4,16,0,0,1,1,2,7,0,1,14,63,16,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0933413474709794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16716884489236886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.098750596705497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15000061902042816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13850701813674168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3871137507135738,0.4375596627574812,0.14702049876156106,0.1677369431487156,0.0,0.13024493334174947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21630826115712967,0.3740367606420854,0.0,0.2704178965673253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2957710881175106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15997920978906802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1531627765267822,0.0,0.0,0.1574342395528485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12666355452669406,0.0,0.15323192211793854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14514112604400795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11147415898079416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0986051224978355 schizophrenia,outsatptnin,2019/01/02,"Do/dont stop addressing this Torn on whether i should grab meds, they probably help me. But i cant help but feel like part of my mind is going towards the benefit of someone i dont know. Were losing energy to people who sold their soul to drain the life force... Get on in their ""justified"" beliefs is one of the main delusions sz patients face. 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Im very curious to know what schizophrenics dating lives are like. It must be very difficult. Im not schizophrenic but ive had a psychotic episode once and im 21 and never had a gf so im kinda worried that I wont find a girl that'll accept me haha,0.06845433255269384,2.2027363606557406,2.703653395784542,91.19983606557379,87.03278688524591,6.108665105386418,20.18969555035129,7.447530270364453,0.7125203747072595,222,7,49,4,7,77,44,61,0.078,0.708,0.214,0.7932,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,1,0,0,1,5,0,0,3,1,8,3,0,0,2,10,9,4,0,1,2,0,0,2,1,3,3,0,0,1,5,2,0,0,3,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,2,0,4,4,1,3,0,3,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,1,5,25,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17421793159940974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8235842109235202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10475658297595987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13463645128006155,0.18624894613547333,0.0,0.16831583667530853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1470134271521476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2029979090945074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3145533664216104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19357797947443614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,0n3tw0,2019/01/02,Eviction notice end of this month and nonstop threats broadcast into my head I'm not sure it's official. It doesn't look official and there was no hearing or court order. What can I do?,1.237297297297296,3.8792338108108098,2.6041081081081106,89.57264864864867,89.27027027027027,5.122162162162162,26.318918918918918,6.742157984588678,1.3874151351351351,149,7,28,2,5,48,33,37,0.256,0.7440000000000001,0.0,-0.8386,2,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,0,4,1,1,0,1,6,7,3,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,4,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,1,2,2,1,2,6,0,4,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,1,2,18,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3438542347207222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3984333047888037,0.0,0.4375604829874716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32601322925114196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30987939804918624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4419994556083685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36589971971469415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,OmSadasiva,2019/01/02,"It's my birthday today and I am more stable than ever I have no voices, no delusions (I think). The day is sunny, I am happy ",-0.5322222222222202,1.3823128148148172,3.216296296296296,88.03333333333335,87.51851851851852,3.6,16.407407407407412,3.1291,-0.7105703703703705,94,2,19,0,3,35,22,27,0.14,0.573,0.28600000000000003,0.6801,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,4,0,0,0,1,3,5,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,5,1,1,5,1,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,17,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3363510573798095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4717640557024019,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5551905190216772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3341826706218568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4943602655869398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Mad_Squid,2019/01/02,"I'm finally learning to drive I put it off for years because I was so convinced I would die in a car crash if I did. Thought I might have to rely on public transport my entire life. My 39 year old brother doesn't drive so it didnt seem like a big deal. Then last year my case manager kept encouraging me to get my license, eventually I went with her to get my learners permit, and then after a few months off putting it off I finally started driving and it's been a lot easier than expected. It was still terrifying at first but now I've driven about 5 times (30-45 minutes each) and it gets easier every time. I still panic on ocassion, but most of the time it's almost fun. I had just been driving around a nearby estate with little traffic (had to watch out for the ducks though) but today I drove home on the main roads for the first time, reaching 60 kph (just under 40 mph). Just wanted to share the achievement and tell anyone who's also afraid of driving that you should at least try it.",4.041364922206508,4.940292103960399,4.991598302687411,84.9741584158416,71.02970297029701,7.5536067892503524,26.8048090523338,7.7094869923839395,1.4146848656294204,783,25,160,9,14,256,132,202,0.065,0.8390000000000001,0.096,0.7406,0,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,1,0,4,12,7,0,2,10,0,13,1,0,1,0,29,25,14,1,5,7,1,0,1,0,3,1,0,1,0,10,9,0,1,3,0,0,12,2,2,0,2,13,1,18,5,28,9,6,49,0,0,1,0,9,15,0,6,23,107,28,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14575601867751814,0.0,0.0,0.11640324502258476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.101778032013801,0.0,0.0,0.12957810904895736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08873123647320455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15006463497037306,0.0,0.0,0.1510669566213995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12263948814648674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3189048962990075,0.0,0.2476243228302793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2281452493425276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1460072507804071,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1186497732831612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10281241910402204,0.07111263155596281,0.1458880635866479,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1237488070626238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15441478517595342,0.0,0.0,0.11618357084063904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15273937689256434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1707817797368191,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2926534072929555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1325111796216009,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10302720166800344,0.0,0.23248674212032225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12722472526631876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14301069012313708,0.11555735391898375,0.3395058093174269,0.0,0.13797263405697147,0.0,0.0,0.09882480700897184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08585429640703746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1349343792429574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1034007288351152,0.0,0.0,0.28120510402568355 schizophrenia,analcrong,2019/01/02,"I made a new friend! He showed up at my work yesterday and gave me his phone number after he saw the scars on my arms. I'm 18 and my few friends left for university in September and I've always been shit at talking to people, so it was pretty exciting. I met up with him in his car at 11 earlier tonight. He's 25 and when I talked about my experience with psychosis, he related to a lot of it due to meth use and we bonded over our shared mental issues, lol. He seems like a super friendly, genuine guy and I can't wait to hang out with him again. I'll probably delete this post later but I'm just really excited.",2.5455813953488367,3.784123751937986,4.534023255813956,85.53219767441863,75.04651162790697,8.26077519379845,24.527906976744184,8.841846274778883,1.6283916279069763,480,15,105,10,10,165,95,129,0.018000000000000002,0.802,0.18,0.9438,1,0,1,0,0,0,11.0,2,0,0,2,5,9,1,0,4,1,3,2,2,2,0,18,12,9,0,0,2,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,1,3,11,0,1,1,1,0,2,1,1,0,0,6,1,15,8,21,6,2,22,0,0,1,0,21,11,1,2,9,59,18,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17046997265834316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20040419451647115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4748509549320522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2028555574072043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21383321171218572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2225941014903985,0.0,0.0,0.1000901440092367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17417490604495414,0.0,0.19385490448102355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20646285826851252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19786672005601366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1420324962547593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19621080941545813,0.2084285461445383,0.220886740373036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13124629290474113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18650783638519072,0.0,0.0,0.2102982338632084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3293368159227205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17694368799447888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14914930562630951,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,KoalaCubed,2019/01/02,"Is having trouble getting into sex common with this diagnosis? I can’t tell if it’s the meds or me. The beginning is alright but before long I’d much rather do anything else. I lose focus and feel out of the moment. I could go without it. Would rather that then pretending I wanna be into sex for a long time. Male 27 if that matters. I can’t remember if I enjoyed it as much before my symptoms appeared. 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I have anxiety, sadness, de realization, difficulty concentrating and short term memory loss my doctor has told me that he doesn’t think that I’m going to develop it but I cannot get it out of my mind I would just like to know for sure. 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Anyone else feel like this is a symptom of this illness? Cuz that's what I did. It was triggering for me so I ignored it. Then instead of saying what was actually going on I kinda made up my own reality. I feel like that was social suicide. Now I feel like I live in the twilight zone.,1.2026863572433193,3.6036122784810134,3.8156118143459965,83.34074542897329,84.44303797468353,6.042756680731365,22.701828410689174,7.3871296695380915,1.1811254571026728,306,11,59,5,9,107,54,79,0.156,0.728,0.116,-0.6615,0,0,0,0,0,1,7.0,0,0,0,0,4,5,0,0,3,0,5,4,2,3,0,11,12,4,1,0,0,0,4,3,0,0,2,1,0,0,11,2,0,2,3,0,0,2,0,2,0,0,5,5,9,3,11,7,1,11,0,0,0,0,2,7,0,1,5,46,20,0,0.0,0.0,0.3978656418423776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1425399748413273,0.2088732727036078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17029447812644635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3092252467610542,0.4369016033383486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2317106944117251,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20921377647074135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2987793882135498,0.0,0.18000747119009608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1928922850375467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16211347225903608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20780423652641367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22298399980848715,0.0,0.0,0.2118831305972035,0.15327339527743894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13543203180369734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,rwijn,2019/01/03,"Random Thoughts anyone else get random thoughts that make no sense and have no logical context? ex: short giraffe sweaters",4.855499999999998,7.974987550000002,2.2900000000000027,87.55000000000004,98.5,4.0,35.0,5.985473137389443,2.5305000000000004,101,6,14,1,4,27,17,20,0.196,0.804,0.0,-0.5267,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,7,5,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,3,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,2,0,5,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2987979216029158,0.43784839889098937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3569780069154498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22326142809115734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.285244995133508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6785019614496556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,AngryJulius,2019/01/03,What are the things we aren’t telling people about The Schizophrenia Spectrum? Are there things we don’t tell the outside community about schizophrenia? Are there things we don’t tell our therapists about schizophrenia? ,8.643333333333334,11.786161111111117,4.495555555555558,84.20500000000001,62.88888888888889,7.022222222222222,34.22222222222222,7.793537801064563,2.5452888888888894,184,8,28,2,3,47,18,36,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,1,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,4,0,0,0,5,0,0,0,3,0,6,0,0,0,0,3,6,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,3,6,0,0,0,0,0,0,7,0,0,0,0,22,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.194716704819312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7364662204208345,0.0,0.0,0.3261063782899318,0.5597834769640699,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,KaotikJumper,2019/01/03,"Do you feel normal yourself? I say ""yourself"" because normality is subjective, and if you think you're normal yourself (not thinking you're like the rest), why do you think you're normal?",7.710882352941176,8.226350088235293,7.351764705882353,72.63294117647061,62.82352941176471,9.15294117647059,37.588235294117645,8.841846274778883,3.467694117647058,149,7,24,2,2,47,21,34,0.0,0.91,0.09,0.4329,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,3,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,0,0,11,7,2,0,5,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,4,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,4,1,0,7,1,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,1,1,12,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1318747817242328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1093846248441478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10568953095914972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8478428725109048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17203693615876706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4158529619150335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1952071695265867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Wisso94,2019/01/03,"Safe to take Sulpiride 50mg once a day? Im taking Sulpiride (Dogmatil) for anxiety and dysthymia. I remember my doctor telling me to take it twice a day but ive read online that many people see more antidepressant effects at lower doses...which is 50mg because thats the lowest dose. However i just read that the half-life of this drug is 8 hours. So does that mean I will feel withdrawals if i dont redose after that? Or does the drug build up in your system? 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Hi everyone. I’m feeling very emotional today because I met my new therapist and we went over my entire history (ugh). I remarked how I have had significant improvements this past year. She asked what had changed and become the catalyst to this. The only thing I can think of is my fiancé. I hate being so honest about my dependence on him, but if I were being truthful I would have to admit that without him I wouldn’t be where I am today. I’m not saying I’m some millionaire or a success story. I’m on disability and spend most days alone at home. However I have been showering TWICE a week lately and I just got out of the hospital and am on a new injectable medication. I am even starting school back up (very nervous). On the outside looking in I have come a long way; and I feel I have my fiancé to thank for that as he gives me a reason to keep going. What are your reasons? 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Therefore, Cayce considered schizophrenia to be an illness. Yet, he also noted that such individuals are closer to the ""universal"" or divine consciousness than most sane individuals. To explain the mystical aspects of schizophrenia, Cayce often relied on terminology from perennial philosophy of other cultures and times (such as Hinduism, yoga, etc.). Thus, his readings on schizophrenia sometimes make references to kundalini, karma, possession and so forth. The various therapies recommended by Cayce for this illness were not only directed toward nervous system regeneration and coordination, but also tended to help the afflicted persons to be more focused in material reality. Much emphasis was placed on simple, physical activities to assist these individuals to be more incarnate in their bodies and to attend to the physical world.",14.698400621118012,15.269065571428573,13.659992236024845,32.97210015527952,48.56521739130434,16.4972049689441,54.28649068322982,14.90622815163357,9.260272670807453,891,55,86,34,8,292,108,161,0.059,0.877,0.064,0.429,0,0,0,0,0,0,22.0,0,0,1,0,7,3,0,1,8,0,7,4,1,3,0,20,10,11,0,0,3,0,1,0,0,0,3,0,0,2,6,7,0,0,5,3,0,1,1,2,0,0,2,2,2,1,30,5,6,16,2,0,0,0,8,12,0,3,2,74,8,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3531264050134722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2452444707572904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2462357535729733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2017952248163687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14798880369460013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1949588758759213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1473769688068218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1623037740448271,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1679183849146359,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38556520625014096,0.2306753162413549,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4416932920009177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2183638875594092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2294821247429123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2524890595522275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12874261570434675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,klukluxkafka,2019/01/03,"Masturbation and schizophrenia So I've noticed something about myself. When I was younger I used to masturbate a lot, probably more than other kids. I did this at a young age too, before puberty. I think that the reason why I did this was because even back then my young brain was more stressed out than that of the typical youngster's. So I would compulsively masturbate to take my mind off the stressors of life. It was not a healthy way to deal with stress, however. The healthier thing would have been to accept the fact that, due to the cards with which I was dealt, my brain is more stressed out than the average person, but also to realize that abstaining from short gratifying releases of pressures are no way of dealing with life's problems. The same tendency towards compulsive masturbation would also lead me later in life to alcohol problems and other behavioral problems. In short, I need to build up my willpower. I've taken up weightlifting, and this has tremendously helped with building my tolerance levels for stress and also has made me healthier in general. But I still have problems with masturbation. I did it twice today. I should also say that I am religious, and I have a really really strong faith. I know the Catholic Church's opinion on masturbation, which is that it is a mortal sin. I don't know whether I would be damned for masturbating, but I do know that it is not very spiritually helpful to my soul to be lusting after women so much and also having the consequent fears for my damnation. I was reading a book today about the Catholic Saint John Vianney, and in this biography by one Fr. Tronchu, it states how this priest would lecture his 19th-century French parish on the evils of dancing and drinking, and how it could lead to damnation. The book also talks a lot about John Vianney's own personal fear for his damnation. I know a lot of people here aren't religious, but I am, and as I said my faith is very strong. Very strong. I used to be an atheist. I want to direct my life in such a way that it would be more pleasing to God, and to avoid the tragedy of personal damnation, at the very least. This is really troubling my soul. I am in fear for my soul. Pray for me. &#x200B; &#x200B; &#x200B; &#x200B; &#x200B; &#x200B; ",6.6685815602836875,7.609295905437357,6.392813238770689,77.13333333333334,65.12293144208039,9.76548463356974,34.815602836879435,9.816601858774405,3.415956028368795,1820,81,324,37,27,569,193,423,0.197,0.7070000000000001,0.096,-0.994,2,1,3,0,0,0,68.0,0,0,0,5,21,23,2,9,25,0,41,9,2,8,1,64,54,30,1,14,7,0,1,0,0,7,5,2,0,5,26,18,2,2,8,6,0,3,5,17,0,2,13,3,41,6,59,29,11,38,10,0,0,1,14,19,1,4,12,243,67,6,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05961434590426822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2676546531966744,0.0,0.3626407852096671,0.4066898172172555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04289316826179243,0.0,0.034004390400714034,0.0,0.04746665396795507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1245430564229962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04453765117466037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11501826494696014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054645446500600964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03684370263699471,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18831188779522007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07477943944436884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12262603816293287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15760283644016407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14227242561589395,0.0,0.052782589073488116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05632425119006326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04100643068858232,0.041361890618851815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06350855202733477,0.0,0.0,0.03779955022769882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03867244372778078,0.14612093587230973,0.0,0.06123224683458305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06014278607035972,0.2135046236208403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055797425138878524,0.0,0.10720676628257933,0.05735352541229415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05306176952045063,0.04436034747506585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04294396264128179,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04454784051407264,0.0,0.2555938805730498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04194136969891053,0.04483572357417865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03705930115707155,0.03574306444685372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10575025209988867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0963560452345875,0.0,0.18410505583189565,0.03290186329686886,0.13283225046319824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05033487612120662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23775699905338926,0.0,0.4066898172172555,0.0 schizophrenia,brokenshakashuri,2019/01/03,"Drugs and Schizophrenia I aint gonna lie bro.. i smoke a lot of weed still even tho i am diagnosed with schizophrenia. i do take medications for it (haldol) and everything seems to be okay. marijuana just calms me down, so i smoke or eat edibles to help fall asleep or to relax. ive also been doing LSD and all of my trips seem to help relieve my delusions. im very cautious of which drugs i take and where i get them but idk! drugs dont really have an effect on my schizophrenia.. and hopefully it doesn’t affect it in the future (effect vs affect... i never know when to use them) i kinda feel weird doing recreational drugs for the sole fact that i do have this mental illness.. but like.. f*ck it i guess! im not condoning this btw.. im just sayin.. i like drugs (in a very responsible way) ",0.4835863095238118,2.9165427812500013,2.352678571428573,91.7654166666667,89.9375,5.547619047619048,17.61904761904762,7.07126945348624,0.24840476190476224,615,16,130,10,21,203,101,160,0.03,0.83,0.14,0.9402,0,0,7,0,0,0,29.0,0,0,2,2,9,8,0,0,5,1,13,10,1,5,3,30,24,13,0,1,8,1,1,2,0,1,8,0,0,0,8,6,1,0,6,1,0,2,5,1,0,0,1,1,19,7,15,21,2,12,0,0,0,0,5,5,0,8,6,81,27,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09605626772458307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1219146352612797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14077439195178915,0.0,0.6964788360636803,0.12290807397929107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07933511012484201,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10795200536318963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060733971579393274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06275535573682002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13232069048912856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16102168454253032,0.0,0.0,0.1193017265757415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3892358360254862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06601230024083501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11736466580487295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1021178450781064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12100366114547614,0.12104810419478793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09264042618523344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0769490215913362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21869715648843294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09592433930511526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1806237129114552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10374116759107303,0.0,0.1982156221223239,0.0,0.09534203915802038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Katietennyson,2019/01/03,"Do you feel your life has been deeper or more meaningful than normal people because of the schizophrenia ? Or has it just been torture for you? I feel like I have great depths now that ive been so in touch with the spirit world,or see the transience of life,I can’t explain it well but I don’t live in a superficial way anymore.",5.2929104477611935,5.337882432835826,5.38429104477612,86.29345149253733,67.955223880597,7.894029850746268,28.690298507462693,7.1686216300943375,1.3675402985074627,261,8,55,2,4,82,48,67,0.038,0.815,0.147,0.6002,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,3,0,0,4,4,1,0,4,0,10,1,0,0,0,10,14,4,0,1,4,0,3,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,4,0,0,0,2,1,1,0,3,4,7,3,7,11,1,5,1,0,1,0,4,3,0,2,2,38,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3041527415222405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1869545608642764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3101420034317822,0.21909844034600864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33812533091584696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.43324654155565373,0.14983258808145813,0.0,0.2708117060250489,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.300489771129335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21261930149242966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2443911553099232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.243435183528922,0.0,0.0,0.2757499376238891,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,astorysofar,2019/01/03,The haldol bop. Help. Side effects. Just started haldol 3x a day and am feeling very VERY restless. Called the six they are out until Monday. Is there a trick to starting still somehow?,1.6286274509803889,4.226683235294118,1.8905882352941177,91.60098039215687,99.0,2.266666666666667,23.31372549019608,3.1291,0.05305490196078422,146,6,24,0,6,44,30,34,0.125,0.7609999999999999,0.114,-0.1038,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,1,1,4,2,1,1,4,0,3,0,0,1,0,6,6,2,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,1,1,0,3,6,0,8,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,1,6,17,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3721526035611178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2350454086464856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18428103275264715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2442886703389609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5159308246764682,0.0,0.2910568147211323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6014324208101657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,takemetovenus,2019/01/03,How does one of the schizophrenic symptom (extreme reaction to criticism) look like? I was reading upon the symptoms of schizophrenia and got confused by this symptom. What does it look like? Is it a minor criticism or is it a extreme reaction to defending delusions?,6.436521739130434,9.236124173913042,6.594999999999999,68.26250000000003,68.13043478260869,9.817391304347826,44.10869565217392,10.125756701596842,5.739539130434784,216,15,29,6,4,69,32,46,0.115,0.784,0.101,-0.1877,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,1,4,0,3,4,0,1,0,4,6,3,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,4,0,0,0,5,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,2,2,1,2,6,4,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,2,2,23,6,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40515815106086667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1851442634981724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22618933038125474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3887877787780836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15686409242216814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2315533492112902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7218224346712608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Oceanlover1,2019/01/03,"Am I schizophrenic? Hey there. I've been diagnosed as manic bipolar, but ever since I've been a child I've always had some form of music going through my mind. Recently I've started occasionally hearing a voice in my head that is clearly NOT my normal voice. I've been having visual hallucinations for a few years before this voice. So am I schizophrenic, or could it be something else? 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I've learned about about my triggers and have been doing okay for the past 3 1/2 years, but now I moved to a new state and don't have health insurance with my job yet. There was a fund at my clinic that said they would pay for my 3 month injection and now at the last minute, they are deciding not to pay for it. Ive sent off paperwork to Johnson-Johnson to try to get them to sponsor it since I can't afford it because without insurance it is over$2600. I've been having delusions but not as many hallucinations. I get delusions at work, but seem to be doing okay at work so far. Maybe this is the push I need to try to survive without meds so that I can start a family in the next couple years since we want an antipsychotic free pregnancy. I guess wish me luck with everything and hope that I can either get my injection soon or that I do okay off meds. &#x200B; On another note. My aunt on my husband's side sent us one of those sun lamps to help with depression and lack of sunlight. It's super bright, but I hope it helps. 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I feel like everything around me isn't real. Like everything I do is just temporary and is in a different world from everybody else.,5.867857142857144,7.425176738095237,6.165238095238099,75.79642857142859,67.33333333333333,12.266666666666667,33.04761904761905,11.855464076750405,4.591990476190476,181,8,33,7,3,58,31,42,0.051,0.8270000000000001,0.122,0.4386,2,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,1,1,0,0,3,3,0,0,3,0,5,0,0,0,0,7,7,1,0,0,1,0,2,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,5,3,4,7,0,6,0,0,0,0,2,5,0,0,4,20,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19304701250816092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2294039389368979,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4531348427553248,0.0,0.0,0.18977135696928316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3623092150378632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3897907570322861,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21929690587833628,0.30984264961851465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3178333402353966,0.0,0.191487023846448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20701272799640133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2468285762998146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Sultan_of_Ahhs,2019/01/03,"I need advice please! I'm 99% sure my brother is suffering from schizophrenia or some related disease: When he is out in public he complains about hearing people muttering insults at him, among other symptoms. He is currently holding down a job in our town (UK), and travelling to and from work is really getting to him due to the 'abuse' he is experiencing. He is currently reluctant to go to the doctors about this, and he is flat out refusing the idea of taking any medication (our mum had a bad experience with antidepressants 10 years back). I'm wondering what your views are on this: * If he goes to the doctor and does get diagnosed with schizophrenia, will he be forced to stop his job? * As i understand it, he wont get sectioned or slung in an asylum unless he is a danger (he isn't), but does anyone have any experience of the process in the UK healthcare system when someone is diagnosed? I have no idea of what it will entail. * Finally, what is your opinion of the treatment options? Is it important that he at least tries any medication they would offer? Is it possible to recover without drugs / with counselling only? * I have heard that anti-psychotics are hit-and-miss at best, but from my research on the internet i cant see any other way to cure/alleviate his symptoms. Please offer any advice/experience you have. I'm very worried about the guy and i don't know what to do! Thanks guys!",4.641282467532466,6.5454909962121235,5.6719480519480525,76.78863636363639,70.85606060606061,8.967965367965366,31.13203463203463,9.48565724429506,3.0998216450216445,1109,49,197,26,21,366,147,264,0.093,0.84,0.067,-0.4452,4,0,1,0,1,0,41.0,2,3,1,2,6,8,2,0,13,0,28,9,0,0,1,31,44,14,0,3,7,2,0,0,0,4,9,2,0,2,14,10,0,3,5,1,0,2,6,5,0,0,2,5,18,3,39,37,4,28,0,1,2,0,34,15,0,7,9,130,32,6,0.0,0.12857030115714166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10603776345772926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3689632080691898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07587489547020952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08343988996671317,0.09060392130295157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11387782307732218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22027706207053924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2221355496395116,0.18992112241091136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12584076675751016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31843995561312394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11887081717371055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1700808770161903,0.0,0.06167050589629385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21489009533120126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12230217097718235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2449962049173308,0.0,0.0,0.2153650524093423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05963597203242312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2186311013421865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08046110235989364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08252911636341015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07522933325175389,0.0,0.0,0.2382296363424997,0.0,0.12233223664752622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06951628231104348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08647090615734136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09194281311739244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09072182591317997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10227232993142787,0.22557335798409864,0.0815883604440483,0.0,0.0,0.09990430026399696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07367328443384133,0.0,0.0,0.1129659832186187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08953468712762687,0.0,0.08613266254922393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1046027738782726,0.11767784809045152,0.0789988426106631,0.11020033912980616,0.0,0.07708460594761747,0.0,0.0,0.06987889053420662 schizophrenia,Ttshowdelusion,2019/01/03,"I have auditory hallucination every day since 1-2 years, feeling suicidal and hopeless Now I am on clozapine 200mg (I am on clozapine since a few months) and the voices are still there. It makes me anxious and suicidal. If the ""best"" medication doesn't work on me, the voices will never go away. I have tried Haldol, risperidone, olanzapine, Abilify and many more. Clozapine was my last chance. To be honest my diagnosis is not schizophrenia but Bipolar type 1, Aspergers and Psychosis NOS. &#x200B; Do you think the voices will go away one day? 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I feel like this is around the corner for me but I can't tell for sure. LONG STORY, my apologies for not being brief but I like to go into detail. TL:DR Could always see whether or not small visions in the dark were real or fake since I was young. Psychoactive drugs have caused more paranoia and visions but the effects have not seeped into my daily life. Decently credible tests show that at my worst I could be schizophrenic. I have a feeling it's coming. *Storytime* I myself am a non-schizophrenic at the moment, but I have this really odd feeling that it's coming in soon. Ever since I was young and I'd look into my dark closet across the room or walk to the bathroom late at night and there was darkness around I randomly envisioned creatures or figures in my peripheral vision, but I knew it was my head getting to the best of me. I don't see actual things I believe are real though, I can tell what's fake and if something's not there. Sometimes I look at my closet in the dark now and my head will want to start envisioning the babadook or maybe when I'm curled up in bed I can feel his presence behind me, but when I muster up the courage and turn around I know he's not there. I'm in bed at night right now typing this out and even saying that is making me sweat to be honest. This worst part about this is that recently, within the past 6 months, I have been experimenting with psychoactive drugs. Now now, I am not doing this for a fix or have any inclination to ""get fucked up"". Personally I have always had an interest in these types of drugs, and hold them to a very high degree of respect. I use them to see corners of reality and to be able to learn, not to play. I don't drink at all, or smoke any nicotine products, but I occasionally get high and I've had two LSD trips. Now when I get high the paranoia feels a lot more real, but I only when I'm really high (which only happened once) I may see a dark figure that feels real but I know they aren't. My acid trips were very pleasant and I brought very good things out of them, and I did hit some dark parts but I embrace and flow through those on the wave of the trip just as much as the highs. But like I said I take those things with a lot of respect, and I'm not abusing by any means and take them with good breaks in between. Personally I feel like exploring these substances more but if anything really negative comes of it I can stop myself. This isn't the most credible of sources, but recently I took the Enneagram Test, and I've always been skeptical of any online personality test but this one is very cohesive and well detailed. Definitely not a cheap and inneffective but of course it's not a doctor's level of credibility. Anyway, I scored very highly on Type 5 (alongside 1 and 8 but 5 was my highest), and long story short the unhealthiest level of the type can develop schizophrenia. [Link Here](https://www.enneagraminstitute.com/type-5) Now personally I don't see myself as unhealthy at all, and in fact a lot of the negative aspects of a Type 5 I actually don't have. The weird part is that I have always thought about very negative things, like envisioning my own suicide (which actually came up very heavily on my first LSD trip but I got through it and become one with the universe lol), but I would never act on them and have no real desire to fulfill that. Those thoughts just, intrigue me, I guess. All in all though, the test results don't help with the feelings I am having now. That's about it, I'm sorry this was so long but hopefully I can get some advice.",4.237269239802711,5.5578171659751066,5.006537226963129,83.46521647224615,70.97786998616874,8.00155536417965,26.504579973381357,8.451235370850725,1.6775616221717686,2893,93,581,46,53,936,294,723,0.114,0.77,0.116,-0.3099,0,0,6,0,0,1,79.0,0,2,6,3,31,25,2,0,37,1,59,12,3,5,8,136,113,63,1,8,41,0,8,5,0,3,7,2,5,4,38,40,1,2,21,3,1,16,23,7,1,4,24,18,74,18,85,79,21,101,0,0,7,1,20,50,1,19,39,410,112,11,0.05413768110200902,0.06414429944675479,0.15849170190352552,0.0,0.0,0.05290271540690815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18018755022432836,0.0,0.0,0.14726191843821956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04455069871757439,0.1445820421071295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0597908153955821,0.0,0.06099462763895234,0.056814156287060776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061919084737890685,0.0,0.055614311402361234,0.0,0.1399044557744778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08644906627349935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05541221061787497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053034317049516486,0.18834756750636852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.035757427783246226,0.04897063199750335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052957040324302825,0.0,0.0,0.2189891057638924,0.07735194039299081,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04604948388912166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05004941381583617,0.14142351962706987,0.0,0.030767691773622305,0.09081623672696526,0.04329884914856479,0.0,0.059638759269998724,0.0,0.04787377260606908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11112175906407462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0362873464693363,0.34319659469532243,0.0,0.05377093276527622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05950530742197861,0.0,0.06106966235447479,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07647809040757705,0.13224468193271224,0.0,0.0,0.14373043248541556,0.09092403440457658,0.0,0.0,0.1380777614733936,0.0,0.0,0.036137322521574304,0.0,0.05438857726588156,0.0589718057251437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04321218055201818,0.0,0.03979742477140123,0.0,0.041754317148043854,0.0,0.0,0.10160909265428113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05765486351086685,0.07337018761784135,0.08234829203083965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1758774988648963,0.05168054241817073,0.03753225150637493,0.18908373980227652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3081026667041703,0.10404595436549684,0.0,0.10690885773944267,0.0,0.0,0.046233283857851686,0.051497332132239074,0.0430524569397285,0.0,0.0,0.21570361304550156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08956649850188379,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.041677831840120166,0.05354355090680826,0.0606027016764652,0.11495678798735222,0.0,0.0,0.04526152552617034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05921783622439328,0.0,0.05102412374550478,0.0,0.08140959734233456,0.0,0.09463743899608372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14386667896846858,0.0,0.10637999362140678,0.08595854311466825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06014895568795356,0.0,0.058886251012510674,0.052884647923929634,0.0,0.0,0.046757574325542985,0.0,0.3126847966605148,0.03193180697291592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.048676276984831984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.038457855368914,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,korbaending,2019/01/03,"Horrible realizations sometimes it happens to korba that he realizes, that he is a horrible, disgusting cripple. it's a painful thing to know, especially because of how others see him.",9.11032258064516,10.741231161290326,10.248548387096774,49.19282258064519,59.96774193548386,15.232258064516133,50.983870967741936,13.816669648895859,8.68401935483871,150,11,19,7,2,52,25,31,0.35700000000000004,0.643,0.0,-0.9231,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,2,0,1,1,0,1,0,3,4,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,6,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,1,0,3,4,0,0,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,0,0,14,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2829221811906684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4104182411851152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2550672558674851,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4938545473687583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3698421605995864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4590248228565983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3083395465469183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,adrenalineparty,2019/01/03,"Weird episode Hi everyone. I wanted to start this off by saying that just recently I’m on my road to getting help for any mental disorders i might have, and i wanted to come and post to some communities and kind of branch out and speak to people who might have similar sort of experiences. I had an “episode” if you will yesterday. I’m not sure if it’s related to schizophrenia, but that’s kind of what I’m picking up if I’m being honest. Just wanted to see someone’s input... Yesterday night, i was lying down on my couch, and for some prefix, my dining table is behind my couch. Anyways. I was lying down, and usually my mind runs at 800 miles a second, but suddenly it sort of stopped. I picture my mind as a container, with 80 different thumbtacks in it. At this point it felt like there was only one thumbtack. My mind went completely empty and i was immensely scared. I had the urge to look over my couch.. and i saw a man of sorts sitting at my dining table. I immediately ducked down, and i was like i can’t think right because he’s controlling my thoughts. A little after this i felt really giggly, and i started taking peaks over the couch of the man. Every time he would look at me I’d laugh and go back down to where i couldn’t see him. Eventually, i was sick of not being able to think properly, so i started yelling out in my living room and calling my mom’s name out loud. I started getting immensely frustrated and trying to tell on the man, saying it wasn’t fair he could control me like that. Then, i started crying really hard begging him to stop and kicking my feet all around. Eventually i felt my mind start flooding with thoughts again, and i started crying even harder. I looked over my couch, and no one was there. I got up to go with my mom and she said she didn’t hear me yelling. I have no idea what the hell that was, but it was really scary and I’m immensely worried of something like that happening again. 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The tasks I perform are not mine but done mechanically. ,1.829901960784316,3.5515265000000014,4.447647058823531,83.36107843137258,78.11764705882355,5.7098039215686285,20.15686274509804,6.42735559955562,0.232874509803922,127,3,26,1,3,45,27,34,0.108,0.8290000000000001,0.063,-0.0644,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,3,0,5,0,0,0,0,7,9,1,0,0,2,0,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,4,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,3,5,1,2,7,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,18,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.48790183923138897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7232085987426812,0.3406050008835105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26202064465435354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2329260250108093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,msrosekat,2019/01/03,Do you guys watch any interviews of your favorite people? Sometimes I try to watch interviews of people who I feel are like me or would accept me to cure some of the loneliness I feel. One of them being Flatbush Zombies or Vince Staples. Who do you guys watch? ,4.319400000000002,6.1747967400000014,4.625,84.1675,71.6,7.4,28.5,8.07648339933343,1.966,207,8,38,3,4,65,33,50,0.052000000000000005,0.792,0.156,0.6868,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,3,1,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,5,0,0,0,0,7,7,2,0,1,2,0,2,1,0,1,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,5,9,2,6,5,1,0,0,0,3,0,10,0,0,3,1,27,11,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.210050961471894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3123609464375792,0.2206660027735653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6116852595048083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1509045808128037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2093070444273258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4282810165033355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3054930824716303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2097112109240268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2194215471877453,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,CyrusVercetti,2019/01/03,"Any Drug-free Schizos in Arizona, Phoenix? I wanna get to know some fellow people that suffer from Schizophrenia. That way we can talk about our experiences. Preferably Secular. or Scientific-Like Minds. finally break this thing Down. my theories and hearing others and coming to a Good conclusion.",5.331632653061224,9.011705836734698,4.719591836734697,73.69326530612248,82.46938775510205,7.69795918367347,31.489795918367342,8.418075326091056,3.6388693877551015,242,12,33,6,7,73,46,49,0.071,0.87,0.059,-0.1531,0,0,1,0,0,0,10.0,2,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,11,5,3,0,2,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,5,4,0,0,3,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,4,1,7,5,1,6,0,1,0,0,5,2,0,2,1,22,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2101374446455484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2661848144925864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35835357808495594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.302271143762367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3385054284210295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16144500814542734,0.0,0.0,0.2591829866203447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3482768081164425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16982385367671635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31201208277943915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21422867519283192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24837058992753505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20529256041682295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2452778110767225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,ozmanda,2019/01/03,Menopause & Schizophrenia Periodically I scan the web for schizophrenia news and info to see if anything new pops up. I recently read that women with schizophrenia may worsen when they reach menopause due to the loss of estrogen. I've been relatively stable for the last 4 years. I hate the thought that my stability and that of others may be at risk due to menopause. Are there any women on here who have gone through menopause who can speak to this information?,6.7650000000000015,8.545148357142857,5.603333333333335,79.82500000000002,65.42857142857143,8.457142857142857,33.04761904761905,8.841846274778883,2.6712761904761897,378,16,68,6,6,112,61,84,0.13,0.8320000000000001,0.038,-0.8442,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,1,1,3,3,1,1,4,0,7,1,0,0,0,10,11,4,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,1,0,2,7,3,0,0,3,1,0,1,0,3,0,0,3,3,5,0,13,5,0,12,0,1,2,0,7,3,0,3,8,42,12,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3707443760738803,0.0,0.232689419763012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2815792798184459,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3378250642081437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2789167195413936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3304728811598525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34226566475718817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33785462445070225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2726676337923707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27164719478263816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22034823712068333 schizophrenia,PestoPastaPenne18,2019/01/04,"Lately, I’ve been having negative symptoms? I haven’t been in the mood to cook, bathe, or go to the gym. I still do these things though except head to the gym. When I do shower, I only have the energy to put on a sweater, no shirt or bra and some pants. I also had a voice (or intrusive thought? Idk yet) tell me there’s demons in the local gym so I feel inclined to listen to it. I’ve also been having a lot of trouble concentrating lately. I started watching anime again and even 5 minutes during a scene I hold my attention and feel myself slipping. This has likely been due to me not taking my meds. Which I’ll start again but it makes me wonder, when in the hell have I become dependent on medication? Also I’ve been feeling dead a lot lately. Not depressed per se but not too alive either. I can laugh, get angry or sad but when nothing’s happening I feel a little low. Is this negative as well?",2.382356557377051,4.199954322404373,4.088111338797817,86.12429815573775,76.81420765027323,6.542213114754097,22.36646174863388,7.413659706084162,0.886967486338798,703,20,141,9,16,236,112,183,0.199,0.727,0.07400000000000001,-0.9789,1,0,0,0,0,0,23.0,0,0,0,0,16,9,1,0,12,0,16,5,2,2,0,28,30,19,1,0,12,0,4,1,0,0,2,2,2,0,7,3,1,1,7,5,0,2,7,5,1,0,7,7,17,3,15,23,4,23,2,3,1,0,2,8,1,9,14,103,24,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3594843045563781,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16548803739012516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1290581654116917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09896882166296377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30305722612174685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07828593923345939,0.0,0.0851583122416704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13250424197467794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15378049034108704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5070828270323132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07320493197335776,0.15018043260262326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2547795744466145,0.0,0.0,0.10002028808376444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1664399995106909,0.15094943136308114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14377685023658418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11396112547094882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.150631978481858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21211700718953905,0.0,0.11966352368940487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15574257234823802,0.1126620735958282,0.0,0.1309679750934355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09954795812203557,0.0,0.1472184000628417,0.11895732231485832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13472540042116848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16249659032255098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Sheltered_A,2019/01/04,"Mark 8:36 King James Version ""For what shall it profit a man, if he shall gain the whole world, and lose his own soul?"" &#x200B; I know Schizophrenia has made me question whether or not I had a soul in the past, some of you may struggle with it from time to time. There was a defining moment in my life however, like many others I have been baptized (possibly more than once). I had been struggling with trying to prove myself to God, doing everything in my power to make it to Heaven. If there's anything else I could have wanted I would have found a way to get it. Proving my devotion wasn't something I could do only once, because I found the constant struggle of delusions to be predatory when I was down, and over reassuring when I was far up emotionally. So I knew once I was baptized for sure I would definitely be one who has tried his best, and let fate take it's course. Baptisms are an act of faith, and most people come out of the water feeling renewed in their life with Christ. Mine however was more notable at the rage, anger, and betrayal at lies. As I came out of the water, people ushered me towards the next step, whatever that was I don't know. I left to walk my own way. I felt as if I had entered a new life thrashing. I stood at the top of a knoll above the waters and looked down at the line of people who were to be baptized. ""Sheep,"" I thought. ""And I'm the black sheep."" Because in the end I was no better, in a different world you would have been led to your death at the hands of such people. Eternal damnation however, well one will find out, won't they? It wasn't anything simple, that can be summed up by a couple words about how religion in general is simply a hoax to get one thing or another. It was simple, though, that I knew what I was agreeing to. ""Give your heart to Jesus,"" and simply put, I would have done anything to feel the relief and security that people get from it. It was my turn in line, and the pastor oversaw the person who would submerge you in the water for a few seconds, bring you back up, and declare you saved. But he wasn't giving the vows. So in my moment of disarray, when the person giving the vows said ""Do you give your heart and soul to Jesus,"" spoke, I agreed without thinking. The emergence from the water was filled with a glorious rage, a newfound knowledge, and a true about face from religion as an institution. Protestants were made for people like you and me, so we didn't have to deal with the corruption, however small. Faith is different from religion, faith is truly something special. Faith is what brings you back. Faith needs not be defined because faith is glorious, and glory is God's. As I looked down at the people, I couldn't describe to you what it feels like to have given up your only soul, only that I was still lost. So I lit a cigarette and pondered my umpteenth eternal failure, and for someone who takes it upon them self to never respond or give hint of hallucinations' tricks in public, I believe I might have spoke a few words. That even through the medication I still had faith. Having given it time, thought, and felt the emotions and allowing them to pass I still have my faith, even when I didn't believe in God. Faith is part of the human spirit, everyone has it, however small. The need to prove did not end there, though. All I know is that I am alive. I was alive to see this day, and to tell my story to you. Below I will share something I *just* found, which helped me, and a prayer. &#x200B; Isaiah 63:3-12 **3** He is despised and rejected of men; a man of sorrows, and acquainted with grief: and we hid as it were our faces from him; he was despised, and we esteemed him not. **4** Surely he hath borne our griefs, and carried our sorrows: yet we did esteem him stricken, smitten of God, and afflicted. **5** But he was wounded for our transgressions, he was bruised for our iniquities: the chastisement of our peace was upon him; and with his stripes we are healed. **6** All we like sheep have gone astray; we have turned every one to his own way; and the Lord hath laid on him the iniquity of us all. **7** He was oppressed, and he was afflicted, yet he opened not his mouth: he is brought as a lamb to the slaughter, and as a sheep before her shearers is dumb, so he openeth not his mouth. **8** He was taken from prison and from judgment: and who shall declare his generation? for he was cut off out of the land of the living: for the transgression of my people was he stricken. **9** And he made his grave with the wicked, and with the rich in his death; because he had done no violence, neither was any deceit in his mouth. **10** Yet it pleased the Lord to bruise him; he hath put him to grief: when thou shalt make his soul an offering for sin, he shall see his seed, he shall prolong his days, and the pleasure of the Lord shall prosper in his hand. **11** He shall see of the travail of his soul, and shall be satisfied: by his knowledge shall my righteous servant justify many; for he shall bear their iniquities. **12** Therefore will I divide him a portion with the great, and he shall divide the spoil with the strong; because he hath poured out his soul unto death: and he was numbered with the transgressors; and he bare the sin of many, and made intercession for the transgressors. **Our Father**, Who art in Heaven, hallowed be Thy name; Thy Kingdom come, Thy will be done on earth as it is in Heaven. Give us this day **our** daily bread; and forgive us **our** trespasses as we forgive those who trespass against us; and lead us not into temptation, but deliver us from evil, for thine is the Kingdom, and the power, and the glory, forever. So be it.",2.1873182957393524,4.5959899636032775,2.997580336190797,90.74194558849354,80.21019108280254,5.821563462797121,23.7440815414332,7.0608816371341465,0.8866118895966038,4386,155,884,54,114,1381,417,1099,0.08,0.8190000000000001,0.101,0.9245,10,1,4,0,0,0,223.0,23,16,5,11,32,62,10,3,73,0,117,21,9,11,10,158,176,78,8,14,19,1,7,4,0,23,6,3,0,7,41,75,6,1,26,1,2,17,20,24,1,5,69,17,127,38,147,71,18,104,32,9,7,0,132,53,1,11,35,621,168,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10973209589517467,0.1230609678849915,0.034435448480193774,0.05309816088239033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12501181351288246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0778747032035502,0.0,0.15434170040267606,0.0,0.043089048205291636,0.11410294690739956,0.05314125939733783,0.044785029514107205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057916166651785374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08723998220431939,0.0,0.054721485162077865,0.0,0.08086034459943127,0.0560297756290614,0.0,0.09797159838116093,0.05220536048458785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.105811471280069,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15546018768495784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04230139407110591,0.11392144526222835,0.08970014234225078,0.0,0.0,0.06689159425725118,0.0,0.04266454044683278,0.04838659922700298,0.04551000011626608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0768119974522117,0.03617566288005855,0.09724048082748668,0.0,0.0462820426195308,0.0,0.0,0.166565240915874,0.0,0.0,0.07936850002749997,0.2914584195742996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05582836629554652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12001210162967316,0.033941457861748583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08348765124449822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055018130703530704,0.051780593399713866,0.10730095207330488,0.09895630815667286,0.0,0.04471411556222957,0.0,0.08504601693515783,0.05665075877272276,0.05527715336706197,0.0,0.0,0.1916588876496796,0.06760226519395128,0.15401637979113428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05101226803774616,0.0,0.053718716110910204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07509459166601071,0.03905500219543437,0.04890631419714531,0.05385388734094936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16178285083748742,0.13725396721658373,0.11553701314231833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05483581557919479,0.04833952116727303,0.280847062550942,0.08842996817449827,0.0,0.055585111125694406,0.0,0.05708652435275879,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10180997426734134,0.05672593824282071,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04816815498030085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12105533975592545,0.0,0.05282628142164871,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.042905253626729235,0.11695038442939268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12131826578602305,0.0,0.0,0.1588129066767975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09545107672748336,0.0,0.07614666506606392,0.0,0.044259679480059384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.033641512104255686,0.032446665147180524,0.09950278601619947,0.08040153256863848,0.08858194586716199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06875950054110705,0.11015879648661656,0.0,0.0,0.3654663164799944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02986749339019768,0.1205818140728891,0.0,0.0,0.045529474180306326,0.0,0.0,0.056535308513292526,0.0,0.04881304357716802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17985824322539534,0.0,0.1230609678849915,0.0 schizophrenia,ahnahnah,2019/01/04,"Paranoid that my meds are making me go blind So I've been on abilify for some months now, currently I'm on 10mg but I might increase. I've noticed that I need a new glasses prescription and I've noticed that my eyes are pretty bad now where they weren't so bad before. Is this my medication? I'm concerned it could be and now I'm mega paranoid that I'm gonna go blind.",0.32369444444444184,2.479079425000002,2.479166666666668,93.1202777777778,86.0,5.555555555555557,22.63888888888889,6.937597516519254,0.6643472222222222,294,11,66,4,9,99,51,80,0.222,0.693,0.085,-0.8922,1,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,1,0,6,2,0,0,1,0,8,4,1,1,0,8,17,5,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,0,6,2,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,2,0,0,2,3,7,0,3,11,2,12,0,0,3,0,1,3,0,2,6,35,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3980365509772947,0.0,0.0,0.2028243904582875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1903087999007209,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2709277381263415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15910525763108893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2647610750739813,0.24011976596364035,0.0,0.2528592833958005,0.0,0.0,0.19025441399056,0.0,0.0,0.17673881665715396,0.0,0.2302068339810606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5427424213439898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24249492641120515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,creativenamereddit,2019/01/04,"My drug induced delusions are gone and I want to go on adderall again Any AP I take just completely makes me miserable. I try and try to enjoy anything and I just can’t like how I use to. It’s the worst. I’ve skipped taking my meds and retaken adderall in place and it helped tremendously. No more paranoid thoughts, or id just ignore them, no personal self esteem issues, it’s great. It just keeps me ready to go like it used to back in the hay days of middle school. I stopped for other reasons but now I want back. I know it can cause psychosis as all stimulants can but I don’t think my shit is coming back.",1.0502380952380932,3.3578183095238106,2.3422222222222224,94.30000000000004,84.15873015873015,5.504761904761906,22.492063492063494,6.868970318607317,0.6021015873015876,481,17,104,6,14,154,83,126,0.142,0.759,0.099,-0.7584,0,0,1,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,1,0,10,8,1,1,2,0,6,2,1,8,1,30,21,10,0,2,7,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,2,7,6,0,3,5,0,0,4,4,4,0,0,2,0,15,4,11,19,3,16,0,1,0,0,4,5,1,1,9,64,22,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11463872979310535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13872522011237226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3888779202369704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1731759054914018,0.0,0.14521490482153307,0.17675068537603156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10871877759606227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1954968048544033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1916133724727256,0.0,0.0,0.18585769261076435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11299419024076468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1759514944016417,0.0,0.14983975315808482,0.0,0.0,0.09264598656801724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16471726045067978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11252703471291657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1872520061817086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14719569040896904,0.17612799020264858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17332612305114867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1706098005308247,0.0,0.0,0.17586347990658865,0.0,0.17304275711885966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14093864455514868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2534991512067995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1080178897810616,0.0,0.13383199542746071,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2289066108075992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2911943011871451,0.0,0.0,0.198863186365968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,throwawaymaybeschizo,2019/01/04,"Really just at a loss for words, more of a vent I think Currently awaiting for a call back from psychiatrist and possibly neurologist I think.. I went to doctor over a month ago and he said they'd call me eventually and i'm on some list.. half of me thinks I'm fucking nuts but maybe theres something actually wrong with my brain itself to cause such bizarre, freakish episodes. Since then I've called wondering what's taking so long for me to get help and they just said there's no room. I take seroquel and have taken seroquel for 8ish years and it was originally prescribed for sleep when I was a minor and I think maybe it was actually for something else. It was during a period I barely remember. I was told I had anxiety. I dropped out of school before 16. It really is a period I can't remember. I stopped taking seroquel May 2017 after a type 1 diabetes diagnosis, which we figure was from seroquel.. and started up again around October 2018 with 25mg enough to knock me out at night. Since last summer (2018) I have had about half a dozen of these episodes at night time (before taking the seroquel) where basically I feel high like a fucking kite, I am out of my own body, I am fucking dying, and the only way to fix it is to take seroquel and within a few hours I'm out. But when I'm lying in my bed after taking the seroquel, I close my eyes and see some insane hallucination or visuals or whatever they're called. Everything is moving, and its not geometric..its beings dancing with me and gesturing me to come closer. I also hear my heart fluttering. I try to breathe normally, and I can't even tell if I am. There is absolutely no distraction that can stop me from getting out of that episode. I am not even me during those times. I want to cry, I even think about suicide during the episodes, but I'm too fucked up to even understand how to harm myself. Also, I usually end up shitting myself or vomiting all over. I thought this was maybe some hypoglycemic episode but my blood sugars run fine and my blood pressure usually sky rockets to about 160+. It honestly feels like a huge drug trip. I have tried DMT once in my life, years ago, and I thought it was an enlightening experience and I can only explain that these episodes are very similar to the DMT trip. The fact that these episodes last hours... It really hurts. I don't think anyone will believe me. I feel like I'm a normal person in every other way. I have a full time job. I have a great relationship with my family, I eat properly and I work out. I have hobbies, I have friends, I don't smoke, maybe weed sometimes but thats a couple times a year. By no means am I looking for a diagnosis but is there anyone here that has this happen to them? 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schizophrenia,Baynsma,2019/01/04,"Question If a person had in the past experienced auditory hallucinations from smoking marijuana, and then subsequently had a psychotic episode related to an incident of smoking said marijuana, but then that person ceases medication for over 2 months without any positive symptoms, after having been on medication for the best part of a year without symptoms, could that person be considered to be mentally healthy?",36.11909090909091,14.397400000000005,30.889393939393944,-8.845909090909032,41.42424242424242,34.88484848484849,100.84848484848484,24.50423929779172,16.85232121212121,344,23,39,14,1,116,49,66,0.054000000000000006,0.8170000000000001,0.129,0.7553,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,6,0,7,4,0,0,0,7,8,5,0,2,4,0,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,3,2,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,4,2,0,1,13,1,2,9,0,0,0,0,5,3,0,2,6,35,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1297444736110957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20022346250271608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15233114870130451,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3844038719618995,0.19227252921786306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15228761593680648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20660814193983493,0.18213166969692868,0.0,0.4997742230152157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21372966876396207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18148600319032768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3966099593708793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3678315761107522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1228631970696092 schizophrenia,hh434344,2019/01/04,"I’m really in it deep now First, I was diagnosed late in life (46), but looking back I have been ill since 26 or so. Anyway, between that time I got married and had 3 kids who I am primarily the provider for. My husband works but he makes much less than me. My job used to be easy in that I didn’t have a thing to do so I screwed around a lot at work on Twitter, Indeed, etc. Reddit too. I just had my review and was given more responsibility plus I now have to enter all my time into a time tracking system. And I am totally freaking out. Today, even though I had a deadline I went out to lunch for two hours and left early because I had so much anxiety I was ready to scream and cry. My psychiatrist says I need to get a different job but I can’t find one. I can’t find a job at all that I can handle and I can’t quit, which means I may get fired. Fuck! Anyway, just misererating. I know you can’t help me but I just need to tell someone.",-0.004338433843386724,1.9929200693069369,2.478037803780378,93.65010801080109,85.93069306930694,5.454905490549057,19.082808280828086,6.7829847944221076,0.038318811881187916,722,20,171,9,22,248,120,202,0.16699999999999998,0.78,0.053,-0.9776,4,0,0,0,0,0,23.0,0,1,0,4,15,4,2,0,7,0,22,6,0,2,3,32,36,16,0,2,8,1,1,0,0,1,3,2,0,1,7,11,1,0,4,0,0,2,5,4,0,3,12,4,29,0,22,22,9,26,0,0,1,2,8,12,2,3,11,124,36,6,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10840286594672327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12614624668268146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1089613213643137,0.0,0.08638119916057124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1556547504337598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14382617090596556,0.0,0.14805010166193278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1580369713729506,0.09359389119448162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2590290459833769,0.12053300955556626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13100269458480862,0.14806856453492867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1133333135879479,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09498093592679524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13954950173441202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4218568725745826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07787659255172011,0.0,0.1598478326890867,0.0,0.1539613757443618,0.0,0.10008944317468843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11899533482400662,0.0,0.0,0.1204713331363042,0.0,0.0,0.09458825317767476,0.0,0.0,0.15435676195834386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20833690087855306,0.21014284738536454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09602202650662148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15071922097190746,0.0,0.0,0.09077895452603912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11268839008492693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1172186820353969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12006500022015627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12385519201794955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09414157514005504,0.0,0.13922306728305298,0.0,0.2478855256880917,0.0,0.1343184435932321,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13842382661456032,0.0,0.0,0.12238641298447067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13136065663317809,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2063238165952336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Archy177,2019/01/04,Spread the love everybody. Just want you all to know that I love you all for being there for each other and that you are all stronger than you know. Keep the good will going everybody. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vdB-8eLEW8g,6.746052631578944,10.32926755263158,3.3307894736842094,88.10302631578949,70.84210526315789,6.957894736842108,20.026315789473685,8.07648339933343,0.8526105263157895,189,4,32,3,4,49,27,38,0.0,0.6709999999999999,0.329,0.9349,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,4,0,0,2,3,0,0,2,0,3,2,0,0,3,10,10,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,3,4,8,4,1,0,0,0,2,6,0,0,0,0,24,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2207038811717965,0.3257231004933807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34517648376050075,0.0,0.0,0.4268455493827713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7009881839621822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22905435297532145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,CountyClareHills,2019/01/04,"I'm new(ish) and I have some questions for you guys... first I want to say that this is an amazing community and without it I would feel very alone. I've been wanting to ask questions for ages now, so here goes... Do any of you think (or have the experience that) other people can hear your voices? If so, how do you cope? Do any of you go to support groups, and do they help? Would you want to go to a meetup for people with psychosis/schizophrenia, if there was one in your area? (I would love to set one up! But right now, I live abroad and I'm not fluent in the language) Do you guys feel like socialising in genral, or do you feel like it's too much work? I miss socialising so much, but its so hard (see first question) &#x200B; That is all! Please answer any that apply to you. I'd love to hear your answers. I don't know any one else with this illness. 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I've had Schizophrenia since I was a 13 year old girl. In a lot of ways it was worse when I was younger, but in some ways its worse now. When I was younger I think I was mostly scared cause I didn't know what was going on and I wasn't on the right medications. Now I'm just apathetic to everything including my symptoms. Two of my family members died this year and I didn't cry. I've begun to see things that aren't there on an almost daily basis, and hear things often. I dream about aliens who want to contact me, ive tried contacting them but they wont talk to me. In a lot of ways it was worse as a kid, but now im just like broken into pieces as an adult.... and i have so many minor dysfunctions that im just confused and broken all the time. Is this getting worse? I've been on so many medications and none of them get rid of all my symptoms. Does Schizophrenia get worse over time? I""m a 21 year old woman now, and I dont think this is how my 13 year old self would've wanted me to be.",2.3694117647058803,3.4929570540540524,3.5353736089030217,92.97488871224171,75.30630630630631,6.664970853206147,21.166931637519873,7.048011613610866,0.2439758346581877,814,18,191,8,17,264,113,222,0.19,0.7559999999999999,0.054000000000000006,-0.9878,0,0,0,1,0,0,23.0,0,0,3,1,15,4,0,2,9,0,20,4,0,2,2,31,33,18,1,2,7,0,0,1,0,1,4,1,0,5,12,8,0,0,3,1,0,1,7,2,0,1,12,2,22,2,23,19,8,32,0,0,1,0,13,11,0,8,18,119,34,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09462928575588107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08357861826273819,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09707874818157693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10380511390068377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09807730985041417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1653972470332343,0.0,0.11075468459789399,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08493157128893765,0.0,0.08908730649490296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1974918743414769,0.0,0.053707201015403376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10650970323378693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2041549918063888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05193537966236795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0461685053791871,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1606830555846494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19161873736873472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19040000300548024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2974892894293441,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08070349534262485,0.0,0.0,0.09461217169635153,0.0,0.07530520905383893,0.0,0.09858534552911684,0.0,0.0,0.0781723564880891,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1964458294106452,0.0,0.07595647257780595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12556477592840204,0.1211050866620894,0.0,0.0,0.16531320217774922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06416010115446598,0.0,0.09231392584068823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.111478494291842,0.22503192511354486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5778286837026568,0.06713093020160625,0.0,0.0,0.24342265827785556 schizophrenia,selena1-800,2019/01/04,New friends F 16 i m new here and i need to meet new people and make friends. I want to learn more about this from people who have schizophrenia ,0.218,2.597659133333337,0.3150000000000013,106.1625,91.0,3.0,17.5,3.1291,-1.267,114,3,27,0,4,33,22,30,0.0,0.746,0.254,0.7579,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,6,4,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,2,4,4,1,3,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,3,14,5,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4122581055748781,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17809110164123845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19782885260914929,0.0,0.7730314374165193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3699311156135511,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1573655789746715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,sciencelove1994,2019/01/04,"Chronic thoughts of suicide As mentioned in the title, I have chronic thoughts of suicide. I think about it all day, every day. In fact it is like I have this knot in my stomach screaming at me to do it. I am starting school back up and I have a volunteer internship at this great nonprofit that is starting soon. I don't know what I am doing with my life, although I keep putting one foot in front of the other. I think to myself, how easy it would be to just end it. Does anyone else feel this gnawing sensation to end their life? What helps? 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Have you tried music to help your schizophrenia? 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I'll try to keep it as short as possible, extending sections only if it is needed. My mother has paranoid schizophrenia, and is locked up from around 2009 in a psychiatric hospital, even though she had her first episodes from around ~1993 (at least as far as i can remember, i was 7yo then). We had some trauma in the 90s that might have accelerated the process. She is 59 now. She refused to take medication at home, lived in denial about her condition, but when she started smashing shop windows in my hometown she was forcefully locked up. The fact that my father is a psychological abusive alcoholic did not help at all. I am visiting her in the hospital every now and then, and she seemed to be happy to see me (her only child), we had conversations that she remembered afterwards (her memory is still razor sharp), but lately her condition took a turn for the worst: she thinks she had her stomach removed, and because of this she is not eating. She is literally starving herself to death, and last time I saw here she was very very very thin (she looks like she has an advanced form of cancer). I am pretty desperate about this and trying to handle this situation at my very best. I had my own medical problems (stroke in 2015 and testicular cancer last year), and I am trying all sort of tactics to motivate my mother (""manipulating"" her, praising her, ""blackmailing"" her, giving me as an example, joking around, you name it), all with the best of intentions in mind, but I am not feeling any progress. She lightens up when she sees me or my girlfriend, when i mention of my cat to her, but then reverts to her energy-less state. The most awful thing is this feeling of powerlessness, I do not want to give up, and i am trying to help as much as i can, as my mother sacrificed her well being for me, so that I can be alright. My stroke taught me to not give up easily, and I won't give up on her, even though at times i feel like it. If you can help me out with advice about what to do to at least motivate her to eat, even just linking me to other resources if no advice might do, I'm most grateful. Thank you",8.030322545494172,6.565886361556068,8.16003922850605,73.62317315026702,62.95881006864988,11.435937670262616,35.912498637899105,10.398101306919678,3.5170526097853334,1768,66,341,34,21,579,205,437,0.107,0.735,0.158,0.9773,1,0,1,0,0,0,64.0,2,3,0,8,23,13,0,0,12,2,42,10,1,5,5,69,67,37,1,6,15,5,8,2,1,3,7,0,2,1,16,21,3,2,12,2,1,4,8,3,1,1,12,12,74,10,67,49,16,55,1,0,4,0,59,31,0,11,21,274,90,3,0.0,0.10669134833182307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17598639585620413,0.0,0.09623319883958276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061235264753131124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08930274398094606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24048361506828314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05489200985456792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18899821155995514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18428177528643552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1784262147678039,0.0,0.07586874994049082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1821225203599284,0.06432982266383243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07659420351442499,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3455263742230968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0958570454657028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24142727915588014,0.0,0.09032480293562424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08003819452412472,0.0,0.0,0.049487651564582895,0.1468011668307662,0.10157729798228754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08798514316506721,0.0,0.07951343239307856,0.0,0.07561706893724703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18142640080588815,0.0,0.19105195073279707,0.09092212255365678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06619514041960453,0.06676894603015437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13697008752720116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0940802827278423,0.0,0.0,0.10151482227936938,0.0,0.09161049598710568,0.0,0.08616312309736986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20401211743248607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1435121095053737,0.08197569724868997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10121695935603944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06373595583733846,0.0,0.07191190524758967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06770437733764903,0.0,0.0,0.08290347306790202,0.0,0.0,0.05982343751337051,0.05769868604402189,0.17694206738386703,0.0,0.10501463166448198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10004588464522572,0.24454487487505835,0.09794562529981453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2971938746706068,0.0531122417735637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08096335400148727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05798752109878096 schizophrenia,wupwobpaoa,2019/01/04,"CBD for treating schizophrenia // looking for studys etc Hello, I'm looking for studys for my doctor regarding cbd as a treatment for schizophrenia I want to encourage him to prescribe me cbd oil. 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This is for someone who's undergoing outpatient treatment. How are such patients treated if they are having massive meltdowns, hitting everyone around them, breaking things and making demands that are not possible to fulfill (practically)? Keeping in mind that there aren't any emergency mental healthcare services where they live. In such a situation, can they be given something to sedate them/put them to sleep? If yes, what? Im guessing benzos aren't a good choice since they interact badly with antipsychotics - what does this leave us with? Thanks. 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I was diagnosed with schizophrenia when I was 18. I’m 26 now and never relapsed. I only ever disclosed that to my professors. The one professor asked for a writing assignment what experience I had with mental illness, asking if I knew anyone with mental illness. I told him about it in a “Fight Club” manner talking about myself in 3rd person and then revealing it was me at the end. We had a guest speaker with schizophrenia come in and talk in that class. That’s his thing, whatever he has to do to get through it, not judging him about it. I could not tell a group about it, and I still have not told any classmates about it, it would not be good for symptoms. During the presentation one student who is older then me bursted out into tears like how she always does, gave her the nickname waterworks but I don’t tell that to anyone else. She has a sister that has schizophrenia and was crying about that. This is the precise reason why I never told anyone about it. I do not need anyone’s pity. They would treat me like a specimen and they would be totally ignorant about it. Make me out to be more edgy then they already perceive. After the class we were asked what we thought. One kid who pretty much defines themself by their anxiety. Has left the class when they were scolded/feeling overwhelmed. This person chimes in like how they normally do, love the sound of their own voice type this person said “I never saw anyone hallucinate front of me before” because he had mentioned he was hallucinating. Like how would you be able to tell? I have literally had thousands of auditory hallucinations in front of you I just never told you about it. I chime in with real insight and the professor liked my point, the guest speaker had mention he had electro convulsive therapy (ECT). I have experienced those at 18, the guest speaker experienced them at an older age around 35-40 ish. His brain took more damage from as far as memory goes due to age and nuero-plasticity. Only really the professor understood that obviously. Altogether, really not to fond of most of my classmates. I have a feeling that are going to define people with mental disorder as a mental disorder and it sickens me. The majority of them are female as well, that probably assume that a white heterosexual male has no real problems. They will find out in the field that everyone has mental health problems. Bunch of assholes really. It is like high school part 2 for me. Oh well, they are a really small part of my life anyway. Their lack of perception is not really my problem anyway.",5.264794258373208,7.122119901010102,5.819556087187668,76.54056220095697,69.18181818181819,8.76608187134503,29.18793195108985,9.276330184999452,2.701343434343434,2121,80,366,44,38,685,235,495,0.108,0.805,0.087,-0.8781,0,0,0,0,1,0,50.0,3,3,12,0,24,22,1,2,26,0,44,9,1,5,8,75,67,25,0,12,10,1,1,6,3,5,7,6,0,5,33,25,0,2,11,1,0,6,13,10,2,4,24,11,57,12,65,33,11,47,0,3,2,1,60,21,0,3,26,280,90,13,0.06888525835953252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07601659554020525,0.0,0.057318053238123876,0.0,0.0,0.046844337860643605,0.0,0.05269703409779891,0.0,0.0,0.24083087153509564,0.07058108767255505,0.0,0.06132248446285246,0.1931952532194491,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04199181412611883,0.0,0.05861628122494784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07689873005197839,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0593385505591167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05499927355559901,0.0,0.07566722170540692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06991708721162845,0.0,0.0,0.1578969480378598,0.0,0.06028195379999125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057544794196098724,0.0,0.06101189267863099,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0623106599416654,0.0,0.06582281637542738,0.0,0.06738300072036904,0.0,0.0,0.06966091279401382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06295987817893545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.035989704358665664,0.0,0.07829815957424838,0.05777768647302956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14644361683256105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07278105751997123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07484403476317783,0.0,0.04865569515845159,0.2019231462340052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06217163512952684,0.0,0.045981444857785415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4165208306443866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05063859093366857,0.05107754623165405,0.212514231553381,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06749292746713682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14003530148675378,0.1047806861420985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1491920439679019,0.0,0.047756364683592775,0.18044385171379865,0.0,0.0,0.06511883483295394,0.0,0.0,0.07008107244905286,0.07426995937678811,0.1977416672781692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1568130098308929,0.22064830206483207,0.07082551841717817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0655256552653546,0.0,0.0,0.20914667720481744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055011856308638425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07159815912990355,0.0,0.11073472268436374,0.18062625614069214,0.0,0.07877629634392,0.0,0.09152860954089813,0.0,0.0,0.054687200579442666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2632912655017095,0.07653405665480187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12387224010434712,0.0,0.06215823125294265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19573644449598465,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Yaa_Dude99,2019/01/04,"I can’t discern if this is how I actually feel or if it’s not real I want society to end completely , I think everything that has been created is utter fucking bullshit , I feel we need anarchy , so then I’m not getting judged by every motherfucker that looks at me , I’ve definitely had my fair share of this ass of a society , looking at all these interactions sickens me , I notice the repetition in everything every mf ests the same , every person flaunts there shit for whatever they feel makes them hot shit , idk if this is ok I just feel like I’m becoming way too aware of human tendencies it’s almost like this never end loop, like why do we conversations over the same shit constantly , like oh my daughter got an A in school , honestly fuck your daughter I hope she fails ",4.225200000000001,6.05719972,5.805,75.70750000000002,71.8,9.8,30.5,10.125756701596842,3.3864,618,27,114,18,12,210,103,150,0.2,0.643,0.157,-0.8913,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,2,1,2,1,5,15,5,1,6,1,8,6,4,2,2,26,25,7,0,6,7,2,5,4,0,0,0,0,0,2,9,2,0,0,6,0,0,0,4,7,0,0,3,7,18,8,11,22,3,12,0,1,2,3,13,5,6,6,10,68,27,2,0.0,0.0,0.13479349036196592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13831573975768127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15255207563480402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14482510385598105,0.14926783705009944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2446817039204313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34913765511148226,0.0,0.2482819777783554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2793676788371734,0.0986790277341016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2553951442674321,0.07216644001240055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11047397943162836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13719276694742122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2699304311142126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2319863022729973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09220184608751546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10242053225479568,0.1065332142655247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1572602123367729,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12060847801115555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15722047275445694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1397934159528613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.42536075972686266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08850716517768899,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08147176786701199,0.10963997365280297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12463948640112467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,anonymoushouse,2019/01/04,"Questioning my diagnosis I was diagnosed with psychosis NOS and prescribed risperidone a few months ago but i don't feel like I actually have it. I stopped taking my meds because I feel like I purposefully convince myself im being tracked by the government or whatever may be going on in my head. Like I have anxiety or something and not actual delusions. Or maybe I'm doing it for attention even though I spent 2 years never telling anyone about my symptoms. I dunno, I feel like I think too much about whether or not im having a delusion. Delusions seem more serious than what i experience. At the same time the meds did help.",3.555728291316523,6.21732411764706,4.738004201680674,78.7561379551821,76.73109243697479,8.000280112044818,30.925070028011213,8.841846274778883,3.040965826330533,506,25,88,12,12,166,83,119,0.135,0.784,0.081,-0.4913,0,0,1,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,0,5,6,0,0,5,0,10,3,1,0,1,23,19,9,0,0,8,0,3,4,0,1,2,0,0,0,3,3,0,1,7,0,1,1,4,1,0,0,3,3,17,5,9,13,4,10,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,8,10,62,20,1,0.0,0.0,0.30368919717838744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13793132346630713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1190347062157727,0.0,0.0,0.10880017265361047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09485321790014496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15793222670279985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10277330995475284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1522081049153647,0.0,0.0,0.23603035060101266,0.333485184971911,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08843190685892548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15969200939504372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10429639203175467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3361525992581401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30407609335940805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15632260080976695,0.0,0.34567633262996456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12419961672338525,0.0,0.11438499145479805,0.0,0.12000945381802808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17430926854824086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1416537433088587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11978962121972501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1300898045609857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16172951634813532,0.1169929480340798,0.0,0.13600255183659546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0997031454010465,0.15287766395993427,0.0,0.09073247423773878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10020225145416513 schizophrenia,Slechler,2019/01/04,"[Repost] UK Participants needed for online study on Unusual Experiences, Beliefs & Paranoia Hello, my name is Suzy Lechler. I am currently training as a Clinical Psychologist and as part of my doctoral degree, I am carrying out some important research that I hope you can help me with. Unusual experiences (e.g. hearing voices), unusual beliefs and paranoia are common. These experiences are often associated with past experiences and memories from childhood and adolescence. I am interested in your experiences and memories and would like to invite you to take part in my study. I am keen to hear from everyone; however these unusual experiences make you feel. It is hoped that this study will be valuable in providing information that could help improve approaches to psychological assessment and intervention that are intended to enhance the well-being of people who have psychotic type experiences and high levels of shame, in a non-pathologising way. You must be aged over 18, living in the UK and have a degree of fluency in English to participate in this study. If you would like to participate, you will be asked to complete a number of questionnaires via a secure online survey,to which there are no right or wrong answers. These should take approximately 30-40 minutes. In appreciation of your time, I am offering all participants the chance to be entered into a prize draw to \*\*win one of four £25 Amazon vouchers.\*\* Please click on the link below for further information about the purpose of this study and exactly what participation in the study will involve. You are in no way obliged to participate by clicking on this link. If you have any questions, please feel free to contact me on ([u1622874@uel.ac.uk](mailto:u1622874@uel.ac.uk)). Study link- [https://tinyurl.com/y86f284w](https://tinyurl.com/y86f284w) Many thanks in advance, Suzy.",10.79406792174234,12.219799770764125,9.513726467331118,56.63802417866373,56.27574750830564,13.200516795865633,41.6391657438169,12.554650470220118,6.053879143595423,1525,75,207,49,18,474,169,301,0.045,0.7859999999999999,0.17,0.9879,2,0,0,0,0,0,74.0,0,10,0,3,3,14,0,1,12,0,28,2,0,2,3,43,40,15,0,10,3,0,2,2,0,7,2,3,0,0,15,14,0,1,11,0,1,3,2,2,0,2,0,7,21,13,49,28,4,34,2,0,2,0,24,23,0,8,8,148,36,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11226190888135244,0.0,0.07045867752794856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09686180990193853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10863361419155128,0.0,0.0,0.0827245352736882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10604971388237262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09900425120266368,0.0,0.7094564967322486,0.0,0.0,0.10477714095260199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23355307622524174,0.0,0.13889583785644022,0.1094701578918266,0.0,0.20581716453327528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10123769129618844,0.0,0.09148994969990387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06916079815541104,0.10504476168859543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07682585608448925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07020914088796612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22440010032677826,0.09890792436576877,0.07183045919356162,0.0,0.0,0.2274663808960184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11606744696297736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08848278150783721,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15580436891374885,0.0,0.0,0.0953906070037788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06041610253498327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16448234844167253,0.0,0.0,0.0931582622230803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1472038207076101,0.11328179189727093,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,slayerbizkit,2019/01/04,"Thinking about asking my pdoc for clozapine, advice? I've been taking Seroquel for about 6 years now. Tried most other anti-psychs, seroquel is the only one that gives me the least side effects / most benefit. As you can tell from my flair, I'm a severe insomniac, and this is the only med that helps in that area. Without sleep/seroquel, I get hallucinations. I've always had problems with negs (Flat affect, feeling emotionally walled off from people, etc.) and I'm tired of it, the isolation. Even with seroquel, I still can fall pretty easily into a delusional train of thought. I can physically be around people but I'm just walled off mentally/emotionally, it's hard to explain. I know there are risks associated with it. I just got done reading the book ""The Quiet Room"" and it helped the author a ton with similar problems(except sleep), so it gives me some hope. For anyone that's taking it right now, is it worth the risk? 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Long post... I am a mother of a 6yr old little girl, she is very normal to me and all of our family. She’s kind, curious, and playful. Of course she throws her tantrums sometimes too, so yes in my eyes, a very normal child. About 10 months ago she was having trouble learning how to read. I asked her if she could please pay more attention to what was in front of her, instead of wondering about other things in her head, to which she responded “I try mom but sometimes the talking in my head doesn’t stop” of course right then i didn’t think anything of it. Second time, she was sitting at the table about to have dinner and she aggressively threw her tablet on the table and I asked her why she was upset, she said “ i want to play this game but i cant concentrate because the person in my head is talking” Now I freak out a little, and asked her to elaborate on what the person was saying and she said she didn’t know. She can’t understand. There’s a third time but this time she just came up to me and asked me, “mom did you call me?” I had not. So recently I asked her if she knew that we all have an inner monologue going on all the time in our heads and that imagination is also a big part of a child’s life. We talked for quite a few minutes and I told her that whatever she needed to ask me was ok, and if she felt that what she is hearing isn’t actually being said by anyone, that she could always ask me. She says she understands because sometimes when it’s calling her name she’ll ask me first if it’s me and If i say i didn’t call her, then she knows it’s just in her head. I made an appointment with her doctor and I’ve been referred to a psychiatrist who will talk to her. There’s no way they can give me any answers before evaluating her and I completely understand. Now my question to any one who has had this condition, (as a child) does a person with schizophrenia answer to auditory hallucinations as if they were real voices? Or do they know early on that they are just in their head? I’m sorry if I sound ignorant about this topic, i really am. I lack knowledge about all of this and of course I’ve started reading articles and information but I just wanted to ask people who actually have gone through this. 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This started a few years ago and it's making things real difficult at best, the first time it was with a great girl who I had a lot of fun with, we watched Disney movies and spoke a lot but then bam out of nowhere I begin to think she is going to kidnap me and try recruit me to Isis, the second girl was fun too she was a Aspie and knew so many interesting things but I couldn't listen properly and eventually things started going back the way of I think this girl might be a psychopath and is trying something funny, I unfortunately told her this too even though she was a victim not to me but of another person, she didn't take kindly to it but we sorta moved past it only for me to them start thinking people where hacking my phone and she was involved. She told me she thinks I am schizophrenic which wasn't her being mean she just said what she thought this was before my official diagnosis. Now I'm talking to a much older lady probably in her mid 30's to 40yo and we have some funny conversations and she is stunning to say the least but it's started to hit me again, like why are you coming in here so much and why are you actually talking to me, ahh you must be trying to kidnap me or get me beaten by the local travelers I know it's not real as much this time but at the same time I don't like how could I know that. I've lost most of my friends this year with a particularly bad spell I apologise they say it's fine but then something will get said and I think they're talking about me, my mum says this too but I think she's taking the piss out of me. She says things randomly like ""they're talking about me"" and ""they're repeating what you said they're taking the piss out of you"" I say they're talking about me so does that mean she's saying what I said and taking the piss out of me? I dunno I'm tired and this is too much sometimes. Anyone sorry, I went off track. Anyone got any advice to overcome the kidnap thing and how to not casually bring it up.?",2.4854969385861807,4.177460670480554,3.894477085781436,88.17746180963573,76.16247139588101,6.4634547591069325,22.108293648339405,7.222845823187471,0.6426966293524647,1671,45,352,19,37,551,195,437,0.095,0.7959999999999999,0.109,0.8281,0,0,2,0,1,0,23.0,3,5,2,4,21,20,5,0,19,1,27,6,3,3,1,70,73,34,0,3,13,1,0,3,2,3,3,12,0,5,28,27,0,0,13,2,0,8,7,8,1,2,23,13,62,12,46,40,12,43,0,1,1,0,60,13,3,9,24,243,90,2,0.0,0.0,0.07156619373779112,0.0,0.0,0.07166392816648401,0.06500869908718751,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04987157777933792,0.07690008921791823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10255767155602392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05639151643534592,0.0612332125473852,0.0,0.0,0.062404264031695016,0.0,0.07696250719228015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06317320885879002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058553513064800826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0641775780153041,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04843830257798408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.062380293339399075,0.0,0.0,0.056659874015661464,0.0,0.0766309621247323,0.0,0.1250370781246589,0.0,0.05865418421733758,0.08085414405458176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07636905147891536,0.08060803767468559,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1074860522398198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08005584289548097,0.12469674701960642,0.0,0.0,0.04895292170535714,0.07435206260842421,0.07367673028274142,0.15977067403170342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07779881624809773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07794547319019726,0.2156441133950809,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11155196929570316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0700083285134564,0.10168508573486328,0.06403491504365695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07460994893128234,0.07906953593295739,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16694679813510355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2790405809837456,0.3499224746164689,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11291659129977848,0.07253202706987938,0.08209460754957655,0.2076328201860018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22056075916441967,0.294726939660002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2436087464472721,0.2819477816004284,0.07205308992740299,0.11644254574994466,0.12828993372048605,0.16857985831486758,0.0,0.1401530198286851,0.0,0.1493727364089619,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05821138376024147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06798400143038089,0.1323502137559987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09445306329180138 schizophrenia,pm_me_lots_of_cats,2019/01/04,"Do you ever feel watched? One of my biggest symptoms is feeling watched all the time and I can’t shake the feeling tonight. I’m on my meds and alone sober in my room, but I can’t shake the feeling someone is keeping an eye on me. 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I was wondering what people spend their time doing if they don't have a job? I've been programming for a few years, but I have always had problems with concentrating for long periods. I'm not sure if it is because of the medication or just because I'm lazy, but it has always been a problem for me. What do you spend your time doing? Can you concentrate for long periods or do you struggle as I do? I'm always on the lookout for new things to do so I can try and do more useful stuff.",3.1133333333333333,4.2203160740740735,4.75277777777778,85.03250000000003,73.44444444444444,7.992592592592592,25.537037037037038,8.472884824447931,1.563403703703703,408,13,87,7,8,138,62,108,0.15,0.8109999999999999,0.039,-0.9084,1,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,6,2,0,2,4,0,1,5,0,20,1,0,1,1,15,25,9,0,4,8,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,7,2,0,0,1,0,3,0,2,3,0,0,4,0,13,1,10,21,2,10,0,0,0,0,8,1,0,5,9,67,20,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4758719646297142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23241923451871965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1891762952144017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33741279608699337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1920451870340924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.184116931444592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13216263638695214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3648248108803111,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19929359177943715,0.2182320118289558,0.0,0.0,0.17967168083147386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12664974000746104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3334832387635707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12942897512434445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16464784407812594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20673604265414308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12276299684711975 schizophrenia,ImRemzy,2019/01/04,"Do I have schizophrenia? A few days ago I looked up on the internet something along the lines of “Why is everything rigged against me” to find answers on why I feel this way and I was met with multiple pages talking about schizophrenia. After seeing some symptoms it seemed kind’ve scary how many of these symptoms matched my life. I’m 15 writing this, soon to be 16 and I’ve always been socially awkward my whole life. I’ve only ever had a select 2ish friends at once throughout my life and I would be a little awkward and anxious whenever I had to be with friends of my friends. I always thought this was just “me.” Recently in the past few months I’ve been experiencing delusions whenever I wake up.(usually on school days) I wouldn’t quite click at what’s happening and I wouldn’t even notice my alarm clock still ringing. My mind would think that I’m in some simulation or game where I have to do something to get something else or unlock something, quite like a video game. These illusions would usually last about 5 minutes or so and sometimes I can instantly realize what’s happening and click out of it. This is the only time I’ve ever had delusions other than some memories I still have of seeing some of my friends in my room late at night but that only happened when I was 8-10ish I don’t think my schizophrenia is intense if I do I have it, if anything the social awkwardness and anxiety hit me the hardest throughout life and often get called out by my own friends about how awkward I am when different people I’m not familiar with talk to me. Also I do have nights where I can barely fall asleep for 2 hours if I’m lucky but I don’t know if that’s relevant. You guys definitely are more educated in this and I’ve just recently discovered what schizophrenia even is. It would help if any of you can tell me what I have or if it’s just me, life is still sort of confusing to me.",4.8608785316560095,6.003016734584455,5.221621983914208,83.17821148690452,69.32171581769437,8.633903897710871,31.50433078985358,8.950670267944501,2.53726941637451,1514,64,298,27,26,481,175,373,0.052000000000000005,0.873,0.075,0.904,1,0,4,0,1,0,21.0,0,2,0,2,23,13,0,6,10,0,39,9,2,2,2,61,59,28,0,12,16,0,1,1,5,6,7,1,1,1,20,16,0,0,9,3,0,1,5,6,0,0,10,8,41,7,40,39,10,43,0,0,5,0,19,17,0,19,25,202,61,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07631600760374056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06884832236724425,0.14327209057158852,0.0,0.0,0.05854600634161301,0.0,0.06586070021209482,0.09726027575131,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07084697842603863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08791029961483329,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11104537278245884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08994857540684284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07191942590701235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11372686793488784,0.1557516002445087,0.0,0.0,0.07737459138788975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.043531069372071705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07868719242220266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3325751350912993,0.0,0.08995979261713351,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08524533482516701,0.2283945414524301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0577061398912944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08478399365376861,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08965232646078328,0.04731431102669412,0.07017706283200778,0.09711634555365972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3040491943526383,0.04206055751107339,0.08628752943612336,0.0,0.0,0.07229620734689295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08728451199689717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.086929111600634,0.0,0.06871839300924891,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1615843836884082,0.0,0.0,0.09801713986661624,0.0,0.0916859440792398,0.0,0.19643219422601027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0821852491463116,0.05968585654760693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18314042423029347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17001236245102627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08713043560274797,0.13720951329389408,0.07837558489096838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17552138573662573,0.0,0.2651135482242174,0.08514790800467792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20626128804877494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17896661453246376,0.0,0.13839614503255238,0.07524883774949848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11032948588217924,0.0,0.0683480082791189,0.05020136122687821,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09481897527441864,0.0,0.0,0.0683363990981079,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15537058980080667,0.09611945471388404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2446312114569241,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,zane-the-big-gay,2019/01/04,"Delusions getting strange, seeing a new doctor tomorrow I recently moved from my home town to somewhere with more opportunities for my girlfriend and I, but I’ve been having strange delusions. I keep thinking the people at my work are trying to get me sick, deliberately touching me to put some kind of sickness on me. My girlfriend keeps mentioning how sick she feels and I keep thinking she’s trying to see if I’m also sick to see if it’s working. I need to see a new doctor tomorrow because my usual one is over an hour away. I hope it isn’t too much of a stuff around to get sorted out, things are getting strange. 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I feel as though I have gotten better enough to the point where I don't need medication with all it's side effects. I have spontaneously quit my medication many times, but that was out of psychotic delusions and mania, whereas this time it's because I've genuinely gotten better. I will for sure talk to my doctor extensively during this time and plan it out meticulously. I plan on also starting therapy again. I think with just therapy I can retain my progress. I have become fed up with the biomedical model of schizophrenia and am choosing to cope with it from a psychospiritual perspective. I will be taking medicinal herbs and vitamins to cope, and I will be praying and meditating a lot. I am at a vastly different point in my life than when I was diagnosed five years ago. Any advice is appreciated. 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[Here's](https://etinterra.home.blog/2019/01/06/creating-and-invoking-a-demon-the-wolf/) the post. I made another post a little while ago about how this demon sort of came to be and I talk about it in this post too. It's a longish read but I broke it up a lot with pictures of drawings and journal entries since people seemed to like that. I hope you'll read it. I'm looking for people who can relate in some way, and to kind of ""get it out there"". Thanks, friends. 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Does anyone else get angry often? I'm manic right now and ive been okay until today. Raaage! I've been extra angry lately. I hate when people ask me questions. Any questions, even at my job. I hate repetitive noises. I hate being touched. I'm just Hulking out over everything right now. Anyone relate?",0.72379781420765,2.8620614754098384,2.2547950819672127,87.95082650273226,106.37704918032787,3.3448087431694002,14.919398907103824,5.46131890053228,-0.36637814207650266,254,6,42,2,12,82,45,61,0.297,0.6759999999999999,0.027000000000000003,-0.9625,1,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,1,0,0,7,4,3,0,0,1,4,0,0,0,0,8,12,3,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,3,1,7,1,4,8,1,12,0,0,0,0,5,5,0,3,7,23,7,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12446604444383008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2559563638116216,0.18753491235761072,0.0,0.0,0.1711074740422469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16016997322390025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1528973028336935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1208889750416694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16449472700690698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20068192897750595,0.0,0.0,0.09562513522022577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18122755583137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5421099442182856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18162811086981245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20646476399044406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12688931214838925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4100688948198158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31261165273218905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17349015804287338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,MissSunderstanding,2019/01/05,"*DV Trigger* Not sure what to think. Long story short my dad beat me against the inside of his car during a road trip in October. I was strapped into the drivers side (he took off his seatbelt to hit me) and had been driving for 13 hours with no food, so I was too weak to fight back. I got some weak punches in, but biting his hand when he swung it into my face was what got him to stop. I freaked out and got out screaming “you fucking hit me” over and over. The cops got called. I’m terrified of cops and told them I was having a mental breakdown from lack of sleep. They let us leave and I just flipped my survival switch and pretended to be asleep while he drove the rest of the way, but I listened for every little movement he made during those two hours. Now, I know exactly what happened. I was completely helpless. I did not have a breakdown. My father and I are no longer on speaking terms (good riddance.) But I don’t know what to think. I was upset for a week while my broken nose healed. But I have since recovered mentally and that scares me. I never fully experienced the magnitude of what happened. I already had PTSD, so now it feels like PTSD inception. More compounded into what was already there. I am not a violent person, but I have the tendency to lash out when I’m cornered or threatened. I never hit first, ever, but I’m fearful of being in that situation again and losing control because of what happened with my dad. If I were ever in a DV situation again, or any kind of violent situation, I don’t think I could control myself. If somebody physically comes at me again, I already know I won’t stop until they’re completely disabled. I feel dangerous. Not like a ticking time bomb who will go off randomly, but like the wrong fucking button to push. I am naturally very mild tempered and usually laugh things off. It’s only in those PTSD veiled moments where I have to fight for my life. I have isolated myself since, with few people deemed as “safe.” I just don’t know what to think anymore.",3.254595681310498,5.216503881012663,4.2360722263589,85.38435405807896,74.74683544303798,7.077438570364857,27.31384959046909,7.928766900206844,1.7291921072226355,1583,62,308,24,34,512,207,395,0.191,0.736,0.073,-0.9932,0,1,0,0,4,0,47.0,1,1,2,6,18,26,8,3,15,0,30,12,5,4,6,64,62,29,0,4,17,3,3,3,0,2,4,3,0,1,17,20,1,5,10,1,0,9,12,18,0,2,20,8,51,8,47,33,6,60,1,2,0,2,23,24,2,6,29,215,68,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2891697304256953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05939915468400594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08662504399736692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06716467689130415,0.0,0.053246099243830544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08919135243264696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07524195888670959,0.1831639502653734,0.0,0.19593483336732176,0.06973970615521681,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15802125496353953,0.07359386183052226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09828998891200848,0.0883308319308545,0.062400923758695236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07429756302668597,0.10562069372695154,0.0,0.0,0.16150233024910032,0.0,0.0,0.049641479679566336,0.07326276542332852,0.2794384389926608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2317227688863351,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17203897818008634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09095876456802822,0.19201515218941173,0.0,0.0,0.09248817161021693,0.0,0.08931852531986867,0.06169597639681521,0.1280204262158188,0.08754493480512605,0.0,0.07729960587723814,0.0,0.09771927858708493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08265012085304901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1760510546095459,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13473523470589302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06643155254500671,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060555615097503075,0.07626828733361668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3063129346728833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0874498784130838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1445091672155593,0.2945460520015164,0.08741037443188154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14605249663868658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08232379018603098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05802966040746906,0.2238744743709143,0.0,0.0,0.05093290912899597,0.0,0.0,0.08346408189720138,0.09704605673703916,0.0,0.0,0.08532561345818818,0.0,0.1050680390048018,0.0,0.09620070319469301,0.0720706646891561,0.0,0.0693322157089877,0.07006472994671463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09550055317342937,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,CatapillarSwings,2019/01/05,"When I am in an episodic phase I get super sexual, in ways that my partner doesnt satisfy or care about. Before he and I were together, I would frequently become a sort of cam girl for girls that I new. I would send risque snapchats and have them cumming to me. Since i got with this person, i have quit. But in these episodes i am sometimes too drunk to care and will send risque videos to my friends again. My partner knows of this happening at least once. And i feel guilty to no end knowing that I am cheating, so please dont hound me for that. I simply want to know if any of you have experienced this or ever felt pressure from your mind to do this. And what did you do or what advice would you give me to help satisfy the sexual pleasure that I get from this without being an adulterous. Also, thanks for always being there for me. I am sorry if this is TIM",4.74551688311688,5.0860476971428605,5.179116883116883,86.2667012987013,69.17142857142858,8.420779220779222,27.33766233766233,8.296473431620573,1.5716857142857137,677,20,144,9,11,216,105,175,0.133,0.757,0.111,-0.2789,0,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,4,1,2,8,8,1,1,4,0,20,1,0,0,1,25,34,14,0,6,7,0,2,0,3,4,0,0,0,5,14,6,1,0,5,2,0,2,4,2,0,0,4,3,26,6,23,24,1,13,0,0,0,0,16,4,0,6,6,107,40,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16152376160418264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1321858612971801,0.13753817116292846,0.0,0.0,0.11240585111857744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18255466355162894,0.14065334854549758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3370572869977229,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19372379012360624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1464017646123816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14951823602117018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08357780843868824,0.0,0.15870853282018654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12770603310730766,0.0,0.17271898951700582,0.1585654374772559,0.0,0.0,0.13220102094598682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14616928023520304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1107933431257496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27252441626908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1669002103992506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15964234865605426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17603312717356062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14432868273460134,0.0,0.18144359958599351,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17581092670698056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1367332247547591,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1634803749786985,0.18503353302126574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15218086324036173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09749491188519477,0.13120299031467594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15933789020159458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35226116927858725,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,chocolitcake,2019/01/05,"Does anyone else get very startled on Seroquel? I get extremely startled if someone says my name, something happens around me, or pretty much anything that isn't fully expected. I haven't figured out if it's because I am more zoned out or if the medication just makes it happen due to dopamine levels. It's definitely seroquel though as when I was taking abilify without it, it didn't happen. Curious to see if others have experienced the same startled feeling. 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Recently, I’ve been having mild hallucinations, hearing things that aren’t there, seeing figures for brief moments, etc. I can’t really hold a conversation anymore. I just don’t know how. My thoughts feel jumbled and unclear, my perception of time is broken. My memory is getting worse and I feel as though everyone is against me. I can lie for up to an hour, doing nothing but staring. I can’t feel emotions anymore. I just feel dead. I’m 15. What might be going on? Could I be showing early signs of schizophrenia? Please, please help.",3.0902350427350456,6.062675416666664,3.711111111111112,83.25269230769233,81.87037037037038,6.286039886039887,28.678062678062677,7.61054688173877,2.167194301994302,467,22,80,8,13,147,76,108,0.107,0.77,0.123,0.1926,1,0,0,0,0,0,20.0,0,0,0,0,5,0,0,0,2,0,17,1,0,1,0,19,28,6,1,1,3,0,4,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,3,2,0,1,8,1,0,2,5,0,0,0,2,7,12,0,9,22,1,9,0,0,2,0,4,2,0,2,5,52,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3288635158100013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13237999023964786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1682862831506934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1865057573846456,0.0,0.0,0.18491387447236332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15843161601973824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33533937303496336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08662508436428168,0.0,0.0942295136838785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18687172946241432,0.0,0.2222681529600752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16328229288513565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09112084554860636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17589049736745055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15909219335330746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5460048312735674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1062174759243298,0.0,0.16371019554224778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13212331108021996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1101519679657582,0.0,0.16290034264502626,0.1316288490905584,0.0966809065465067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16896714912363742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,errrbudyinthuhclub,2019/01/05,"Communicating with my partner. Hello all- My partner and I have known each other almost 2 years, and have been dating for about 8 months. I love this girl an unbelievable amount. She has been diagnosed with schizophrenia, and takes medication for it. She also has ADHD and anxiety. She's been through some rough patches, but has found medication that seems to work well for her. I need advice. We recently got a house together. I am a pretty neat person. Not anal about everything, but I like to know my home is clean. I do 100% of the household chores, including her laundry, her dishes, and cleaning up after her and her two cats. I teach high school full time, and she has a fantastic job as a quality control engineer! On days that I am tired, I can become short with her about her lack of contribution to the household. How can I bring this up to her in a positive way? How can we compromise? We have days where communication is amazing, and others where I feel as if I'm pulling teeth to get an emotion from her. I'm working on my patience, I promise. She mentioned even attending a therapy session with her, which is a huge step for her. I just need some advice. Thank you <3",3.4160761904761934,5.767233337777778,4.426793650793653,82.40800000000002,75.62222222222222,7.663492063492062,27.158730158730158,8.563005593585519,2.1399396825396826,931,37,175,19,21,302,136,225,0.034,0.7709999999999999,0.195,0.9908,1,0,0,0,0,0,35.0,3,1,0,3,11,7,0,0,11,0,19,8,2,3,1,37,33,16,0,4,5,0,2,1,2,0,4,0,4,4,8,16,1,2,5,0,0,4,1,0,1,1,5,2,37,7,28,28,7,24,0,0,0,1,27,11,0,5,9,130,45,6,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18083643136440816,0.2940762756202074,0.0,0.0,0.15067457966012066,0.0,0.0,0.12033129179836236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1151096041671532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16618296596484444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1687655829718802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19408218959742274,0.0,0.0,0.15272450093708484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16925918253810845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09938441824181347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13523328113082514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07608246113775538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1649832563821441,0.0,0.0,0.07861468285160876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12034509191364112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15898046000924038,0.15093428963191724,0.0,0.0,0.17362288042395174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1493188616160728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08269471165938433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07351233908169601,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.135805599550496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30316661687741303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12010420467477614,0.0,0.0,0.22314410020281367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13138513201472835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15308270469736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14857157365650303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15228428973341074,0.0,0.13698279131735835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11313517180560576,0.0,0.0,0.13853312056978134,0.17207625524188175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0877406222659172,0.17294383013253534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14698792093500296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11943656573738105,0.0,0.0,0.13529114844724754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2190887911598757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09689813893973516 schizophrenia,riemuidiootti,2019/01/05,"Do anyone else have these kind of symptoms? Hi. Sorry about my little bit bad grammar. I'm not searching for a diagnosis here, just would like to hear if someone here is experiencing something similar than i am. - feeling like everything is too big or small or like i'm in some kind of scale model - feeling like i'm in another dimension where everything looks wrong and unfamiliar - fearing that someone/something bad and supernatural is trying to take control over me - feeling physically that someone is invading into my head - hearing voices like laughter, steps, music and talking but that quietly that i can't tell what they are saying or talking about - feeling like some kind of bugs are walking on or under my skin - feeling spaced out or separated from myself In last few days i have been fearing also that i live in some kind of simulation where everything (for example people, my house and apartment) are built for me and to hurt me in some kind of way. That i will soon realize that my boyfriend and other people close to me aren't real, for example. I think i will try to contact my doctor on monday but i'm not sure how to cope until that",7.638937984496124,7.653409293023257,7.972383720930235,69.81609496124032,63.04651162790698,10.515503875968994,37.451550387596896,10.125756701596842,3.9168992248062033,918,42,155,18,12,302,121,215,0.098,0.8059999999999999,0.096,-0.759,0,0,2,0,0,0,21.0,0,0,1,1,11,18,0,2,1,0,17,4,2,2,1,36,31,17,0,2,11,0,6,6,0,3,2,5,0,0,11,9,0,1,7,0,0,2,4,6,0,0,1,13,19,12,31,27,6,27,0,1,1,0,9,19,0,10,11,109,30,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07907450162891065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10368456552572512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06913937112922522,0.10131450308242622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16512176002107082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10795162518976203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1109026103366042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06376958224291586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1012081276181178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0826017623305234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2666015834097751,0.0,0.0,0.22253554721149735,0.24998413161101146,0.2119202148996419,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10147966528589196,0.0,0.22289046032152693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11409453464445213,0.10585335462705417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5148428306607257,0.0,0.08060060257709194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28984737832955165,0.09910398906390257,0.08731307389733703,0.0,0.08303450787256662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1371022328074072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11254737417467034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07863354498302565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16756183291967147,0.15224569735395616,0.0,0.11068834642911468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09319346710870713,0.10277444217799003,0.07434564354399469,0.15895240173663436,0.08642569838458823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06335847273497229,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13426640058516473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07848654137095007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07024169385584116,0.10811003284614946,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,anon_yyy,2019/01/05,"Early signs of schizophrenia? I’ve been having these symptoms since around august / september. Just as a preface, i’ve had depression since i was around 11/12. I used to party a lot and used a lot of drugs. I am 15 at the moment. At around 13 I started smoking weed, I first tried mdma and ketamine when I was 14, and first tried speed and cocaine at 15. I was consistently using all of these until around july, when i stopped and went into a depressive episode. The episode lasted around 1/2 months, in which i just stayed in my room all the time. I started experiencing a lot of hypnagogic hallucinations, but i just chalked this up to stopping drugs very suddenly and the drastic change in my sleeping schedule due to the depressive episode. During the depressive episode, i started noticing a lot of paranoia. When I heard a car pull up outside my house I would instantly think it was someone coming to rob / murder me. I always knew it was incredibly unlikely, but in the back of my mind it was always there, and I would just sit there watching them as a kind of “what if” During the depressive episode I knew that something was wrong, but i really didn’t care enough to try and figure it out. After the depressive episode, i started trying to go out more. I realised whenever I met my friends i would get really paranoid before i met them. I would always get convinced that they were going to set people up to mug me / beat me up. I knew that it was incredibly unlikely to happen, and it didn’t stop me from going to meet them, but it would be all i could think about from when I arranged to meet them to actually meeting them. The only person this wouldn’t happen with is with my girlfriend, and i’ve now isolated myself from everyone except her. I’ve only noticed and actually started thinking about how absurd it is around 20 mins ago, but for at least a few weeks i’ve been having a lot of recurring thoughts about people reading my mind, mostly about my girlfriend reading them. it made me start “monitoring” my thoughts if that’s the right way to put it, i started to make sure I didn’t think about anything i wouldn’t want other people to know. I know it’s stupid and i know people can’t read my mind, but I just can’t stop thinking about it and i just think like “what if” and “better safe than sorry.” This is scaring me quite a lot, because up until now it’s just seemed so natural and normal until i actually thought about it. Just so everyone who comments know, i will not be using this to self diagnose. My therapist i have for depression is away for the holidays at the moment but will hopefully be back in the next couple weeks. I just want to either have a peace of mind that this isn’t schizophrenia symptoms, or if these are in line with what early schizophrenia symptoms is like. I will be asking my therapist about this when i next see her. 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PARTICIPANTS NEEDED ## Have you ever had unusual experiences, like hearing voices, feeling suspicious or unusual beliefs? If so, please read the poster below to decide if you would like to take part in some research and potentially win one of **8 shopping vouchers.** The research involves completing some questionnaires online which will take on average 20-30 minutes to complete. Study here: [https://www.psych-ssl.manchester.ac.uk/survey/cpollard/](https://www.psych-ssl.manchester.ac.uk/survey/cpollard/?fbclid=IwAR0ayUv9ihvSaqTBa06ESRiR-nP3SI_FaKXin2GzqHyrkiNhffNrf9vvYYU) Please share to help find people who would like to take part :) Thank you for your help. This post has been approved by moderators &#x200B; &#x200B;",12.864300423985462,17.884922007874025,9.311338582677166,45.705057540884354,57.267716535433074,11.781708055723806,44.41490006056935,11.051253699011982,7.181407510599638,793,44,73,25,13,227,88,127,0.035,0.698,0.267,0.9829,0,0,0,0,0,0,56.0,0,4,0,3,4,7,0,0,4,0,8,0,0,1,1,18,19,7,0,5,3,0,2,3,0,3,0,4,0,0,4,2,0,0,6,2,1,1,0,0,0,1,2,7,4,7,16,14,5,7,1,0,1,0,11,4,0,5,4,51,8,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26311097332851696,0.2950703782227976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25460725058881883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.109828809660881,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2375386416200624,0.0,0.0,0.12278437010969795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11097312214732002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2736920199461353,0.0,0.16276678106512346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.177954934313187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10195986922048253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09002931614386696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08227543776720965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3944489903142216,0.0,0.0841753993913765,0.0,0.0,0.2665592518131853,0.0,0.0,0.11628411583942724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12145005831895628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3651624986802729,0.0,0.0,0.11178464585743073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17250259206348348,0.0,0.2950703782227976,0.0 schizophrenia,TylerJames-777,2019/01/05,"Does anybody have any stories about their first episode and about how it happened? I was too quiet in school and I knew eventually I would break from the sociological stress that I put myself through. I didn’t show any signs or symptoms until I read a self help book called “The Secret of the Ages”. In this book it talks about developing the mind of Christ and becoming the Godhead. My grandma was dying at the time and I was just put through so much stress from it all that I finally broke. I was also on Paxil and Xanax at the time. So the Paxil may have helped shoot me into a manic episode. I started to feel like an Egyptian god and I had tons of energy and strength. I wasn’t eating a lot or sleeping a lot. My mom called the ambulance on me because I couldn’t sleep and the cops showed up. I turned to the wall and put my hands behind my head. They lightly strapped me to a hospital bed. I thought I had received the Holy Spirit and one woman even yelled in the hospital, “Don’t hurt him, he has the Holy Spirit!”. I was given a shot of Ativan because I was hyperventilating and the I woke up upstairs kind of half awake. I was scared to death of the place and I carried around a “Know Your Rights” booklet and the Bible the whole time. I read to my mom and cousin when they came to visit the part of the Bible where it says those who are persecuted for righteousness sake have the kingdom of Heaven. I believed that God was going to break me out of there, because I was so afraid to be up there. They took me off the Paxil and put me on new drugs. But I had believed that an angel sent “The Secret of the Ages” book to me because I had such a strong reaction to it. I would read it extremely fast and then pass out with my mind orbing. So that’s my first episodical experience. I’d love to here yours. It’s helpful to know what caused your first episode.",3.125496453900709,4.669845095744684,3.8597021276595775,89.7136666666667,74.1063829787234,6.715460992907803,24.50141843971631,7.3011,0.8654403546099294,1460,45,314,16,30,464,188,376,0.063,0.855,0.08199999999999999,0.7177,1,1,1,1,0,1,27.0,0,3,4,5,19,12,0,4,34,0,26,9,4,2,1,45,41,28,2,3,4,3,2,1,0,3,3,3,1,2,16,22,1,0,7,8,0,11,4,6,0,5,22,6,50,6,49,14,7,48,5,2,0,1,28,20,0,5,16,222,66,7,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0748935299201154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1273732438754372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08337020145071701,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2283577407954711,0.10343135810888868,0.0,0.21102763467276445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19125847742144064,0.10711302371321416,0.0,0.09620647787756892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09719606728721704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08195556126224035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10860667353227373,0.09582945219550737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06185631177016765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09160969901364728,0.0,0.0,0.047353302656840984,0.06690506053707378,0.0,0.10259126963344972,0.0,0.23898121947424594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05322463199350478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08281621994417074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09611404677628126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18831903375088768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10025648241338253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09752422373320027,0.10293746155863512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.045753672916088436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15923928894808753,0.08452465340684312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18912379551861325,0.21936835489319872,0.0,0.0,0.06884505029925564,0.0,0.0,0.09044975686703606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06346106922785025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10141607005488276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09784648473452384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3765848058800448,0.0,0.0,0.2810322534112647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07997835967971592,0.0,0.07447588834069648,0.0937620640330958,0.09478089895871906,0.0,0.0,0.09769953817244832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18743941726081914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06628742015921715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2145562692089295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09734036385587913,0.0,0.07527398978246858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07434928589440623,0.16382783282739038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10405090036781953,0.0,0.1018665638839061,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10455919636096124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1330554930366748,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Memes_Be_Danking,2019/01/05,"How do I get out of this? I have been suffering from ghis but only very recently. I feel like I stumbled into Schizophrenia by accident. How do I get out of here?",0.6786363636363646,3.063199212121216,3.0032575757575763,88.22488636363637,87.18181818181819,6.936363636363637,23.40151515151515,8.07648339933343,1.6522787878787888,126,5,26,3,4,43,24,33,0.18600000000000005,0.71,0.104,-0.4431,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,2,0,7,7,3,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,5,1,7,6,0,4,0,1,0,0,0,3,0,0,2,21,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2429704559910708,0.34329079820696656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5021142863784157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2347627334939923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3654647932375455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4744655004426228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3964876562424203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,throwaway123434343,2019/01/05,"Afraid to get help because I don't know what will happen I have various mental health issues. It's more socially acceptable to talk about things like depression and anxiety, but I think I have more than that. I am just afraid of what might happen if I tell people my full range of symptoms. Will I get committed involuntarily? What will happen if I am honest with a counselor or psychiatrist? &#x200B; I am basically on the verge of homelessness (again) right now, temporarily living with people that I can't stay with for long. I can't incur any huge medical costs. I am worried that, if I tell a counselor about my symptoms, they might have me go to an expensive mental hospital, and then the people who are temporarily supporting me will get really mad, and then I'll be homeless again. &#x200B; My mental health issues have also made employment very difficult. I apply and interview for jobs, but I don't get hired. I've had jobs in the past though. I have contacted multiple places that said they can help people with disabilities get hired, but maybe they won't hire me because I am afraid of saying my real mental health issues. I only mention stuff like anxiety and depression because I am afraid to tell people about my delusions and paranoia, among other things. But maybe the reason why these places aren't helping me is because they think my issues are mild (because I'm not telling the full story). &#x200B; What should I do?",6.951085802742152,7.97183980075188,6.881525873507298,73.59458867757631,64.52631578947367,10.018222025652367,31.812472357364,10.056822442137396,3.2469777089783283,1161,43,196,25,17,369,131,266,0.111,0.8029999999999999,0.086,-0.7721,3,0,0,0,0,0,40.0,0,0,4,0,9,13,1,4,8,0,31,6,0,2,1,31,47,18,0,4,10,0,0,2,0,8,6,3,0,0,15,10,0,0,5,0,2,1,7,8,0,0,3,3,34,5,21,35,5,19,0,2,0,0,19,10,0,6,9,137,49,7,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0589719466234826,0.0,0.2397002940931649,0.26881606473279,0.050147510386372114,0.0,0.11282580501455156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22476408368676415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12702882121167988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19263737684773108,0.0,0.04190963038226937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1956310661541338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2351548703060648,0.0,0.0,0.14828437140549794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3078725456546253,0.1463563434830851,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04052701545158568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.072053838560256,0.0,0.06511608454479847,0.06525989821257575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06977705012743562,0.0,0.0,0.14816874707414807,0.0,0.0,0.07428793159835385,0.2972608663045897,0.1564585328786335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05608458552913664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07039567500340095,0.25561923845634,0.0,0.15409068530257505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08393524594804605,0.047241410701325315,0.0758196952428187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06297579461265472,0.07014611857186492,0.0586430912877078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07517131452911464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07859982122145118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08441765720711666,0.0,0.08368225136014495,0.0,0.1532936355848677,0.0,0.059271524687422174,0.2578172010973372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0979826401059802,0.09450258668228136,0.07245174980210169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060845384505536775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06654124467781802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07488921022793915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26881606473279,0.0 schizophrenia,roodood2,2019/01/05,"Do I have psychosis? Over the summer I did a lot of lsd. Now my mood and temperament has changed a bit. For the most part it has mainly been for the better. I had depression and anxiety and over three months that has been reduced to half of what it was. The problem is my mind races incredibly fast now. I find myself going from one topic to the next just thinking about random things. Also, mainly when i am trying to sleep, I get these loud thoughts. They are not external but purely internal, similar to a song stuck in my head. Sometimes these internal thoughts are literally gibberish. Like three people having conversations at once that make not sense. I also wonder if I have been having delusions. I am convinced that the universe is a machine of moving parts that all interact in sync. And this continues from any level of size. From the molecules interacting in mechanical fashion to form proteins. To proteins that interact to make cells. Onward to organisms working in ecosystems where each member affects all the others in some way. And each member continues to specifically evolve around all the others in it's environment. And these things only exist because there is no other way that they could exist. Each event in time leading up to the next, cause and effect. And in this way anything that happened could never have happened any other way. Upon reflection this sounds slightly insane. Are these symptoms of psychosis?",5.403811141304349,8.092165984375,5.482900815217395,75.57745244565218,70.796875,7.889673913043477,29.880434782608692,8.716276077567194,2.794329008152173,1156,48,179,22,23,363,149,256,0.056,0.91,0.034,-0.5529999999999999,0,0,0,0,0,0,27.0,0,0,2,4,10,6,0,0,14,0,25,3,2,6,5,42,36,13,0,4,5,0,0,1,0,0,1,3,0,0,24,12,0,0,7,1,0,3,4,2,0,4,9,3,15,3,35,25,15,36,0,1,0,0,7,16,0,6,14,153,39,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20797822774241068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17685680960205485,0.0,0.09947658299443583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10700790162581046,0.11575890976658858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0792682596757046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1150055798221202,0.14196477515750222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13358198490349246,0.13756001464344725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20764507506564767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11199913950819372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11884983005614808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06793803245047432,0.0,0.07390200893226959,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2299794210619546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1334536450011364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06352863735988896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11055128906899657,0.0,0.0,0.17359903053028256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13129849753988818,0.0,0.1037928674219205,0.1382068537347546,0.0,0.0,0.10029117366162008,0.0,0.27658785118674883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13848325930714556,0.08811522652707669,0.0988976400634259,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28163093043034104,0.0,0.09015004461433987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.124426138417004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13012912414649386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12860815190474453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13515637722070906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17277923661629313,0.08332131471232468,0.0,0.20646687011182335,0.07582457915626775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08828537475361586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4128636017857244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14101764294483346,0.09466718470041018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,thekingalquarious,2019/01/05,Will sexual dysfunction go away if I discontinue the Anti psychotic? I heard it takes about 16 days for it to fully leave so how long until the sexual side affects go away? Any feedback would be helpful,3.5234210526315803,6.306211605263162,5.1939473684210515,74.74513157894737,77.6842105263158,9.06315789473684,25.28947368421053,9.516144504307137,2.983926315789473,163,6,27,5,4,55,32,38,0.16699999999999998,0.7659999999999999,0.067,-0.4859,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,2,0,3,0,0,2,0,4,7,4,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,1,2,0,6,3,0,8,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,1,3,18,4,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22512286434795006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6220578706169876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21349750354879868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37628252978972704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22189338461431565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3505302764317485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2929655948914908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2489056496545421,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2351658228861461,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,SarahStew28,2019/01/05,"What's a good way to interact with a friend who has schizophrenia? I don't have schizophrenia, but I have a friend who does. From my understanding, she experiences things (hallucinations) that most people don't. There were times where she stares at me as if there was a demonic mask in front of my face and it scared her because she knew it was me but she was seeing something else. I know I can never fully understand her world or her perspective of the world. I try to be a good friend to her, treat her like any other person, be mindful of when she's struggling, and do what I can to help. For those of you with schizophrenia, how would you like those without schizophrenia to interact with you?",6.417686567164183,6.74202595522388,5.824589552238809,83.13673507462687,65.56716417910448,9.088059701492536,29.436567164179106,8.841846274778883,2.0175402985074617,554,17,111,8,8,169,79,134,0.052000000000000005,0.74,0.209,0.9716,0,0,1,0,0,0,15.0,0,3,0,0,5,10,0,2,6,0,15,1,1,1,1,19,20,9,0,2,5,0,0,2,3,1,0,0,0,1,11,5,0,0,4,0,0,1,4,2,0,0,5,2,23,8,18,12,1,10,1,0,2,0,22,5,0,3,5,86,34,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1309494200679686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11738459669929555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16851314910579618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1608616488576876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1883635305727129,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.44632100931138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3230253593943396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12907089698029567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10582757009434617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18815307680160906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19443370201386004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14851643042160234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13349891460681582,0.16813855431184305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19278912173292545,0.0,0.15344775259993107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14824437891439535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20130862184643386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1279302780910678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1122850139584976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13073761367156256,0.0,0.0,0.4009296771701954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1528475192520525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18562382748867465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13679120606404038,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,teadrinker69,2019/01/05,"I struggle with social cues and being socially appealing how do I do better? Am I just doomed because I can’t function well in society? I don’t understand how to talk to people or when they are acting out a certain emotion. I never have much to say and my personality it very flat I’m suspecting due to my schizophrenia, it’s hard for me to get people to hire me and things like that because I can’t fake the outgoing friendly sociopath mask society wants me to put on, I am trying to get on ssi but want to get a job till then so I don’t end up homeless. How do the rest of you handle these situations? I struggle so much with basic social principles that I don’t pick up on, I’m not stupid my mental illness just makes me different and unable to adjust to societal standards appropriately and it’s really messing with me and my paranoia destroys relationships. 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Right down I am writing a paper for the university about juvenile criminals and their treatment and the memories keep coming back to me. I am still deeply ashamed of the things I did when I was psychotic. I drew graffiti everywhere: at the university, at the building floor, on my apartment. But the highlight was throwing ceramic tiles at my neighbor's yard. For that I was arrested by the police & was transferred to the hospital. I really didn't understand what was happening to me. I was smoking a lot of weed as well as being on a very high dosage of anti depressants and ritalin. I thought I was a Mossad agent on some sort of secret mission, writing codes to the human brain. I didn't realize what was happening to me until an ambulance came and took me to the hospital, a hospital I knew as a former mental health worker. At the hospital I received an injection of Zyprexa. No one explained to me why or what they were doing to me. I felt violated, as if I was raped. From there I was thrown into isolation room that smelled like urine. I cried. And I fell asleep. Next morning I woke up and was told I might be staying there for a long time. It is very late right now and English is not my native tongue so please bear with me. What hurt me the most is that I had no staff to talk to during my entire stay there. I never met a psychologist, a social worker, any kind of therapist. The staff kept yelling at me. The next day I was eager for a cup of coffee and a cigarette & didn't realize cigarettes are only handed out once per hour. I burst into tears and was sent to isolation again. I was forced into eating food that didn't sit well with my stomach: one time I threw up & the last day I had severe diarrhea. (I have an irritable stomach & mostly vegan). The staff was mostly rude & impatient. at least I was mostly high & easy to socialize with the other patients. we did exercise. Another thing I remember is the lack of hygiene and privacy: there were only three toilets for thirty people. At least that time I had my favorite soap. People can laugh at essential oils as much as they like but for someone being hypersensitive I craved good odors and cleanliness. The medications I received were brutal as well: I got 400 mg seroquel & 80 mg clotiapine. It felt like being hit on my head with a club and I am really not sure I needed such a high dose. I felt degraded as a person, reduced to dust. This experience has crushed my self esteem and sense of worthiness. And there was nothing to do at the Psych ward. The occupational therapy room was only open for a couple of hours and after that nothing. I picked up a book in Arabic and tried to learn a few words but that book was taken from me. I began singing mantras to myself and stroking the cats through the bars. When I left I was still high and being released felt like salvation. But that relief soon turned into debilitating, crushing depression. I laid in bed for about a year and did nothing. My husband got a divorce from me. A year later I am still struggling, but thank heaven, nowhere near where I was.I am still struggling to recover from that horrifying experience. &#x200B; &#x200B;",4.328900210301828,6.392219832025122,5.324674032167295,78.2942478007168,72.02982731554161,8.826385474363912,29.44429963567429,9.406748399995196,2.8746960042652763,2671,111,480,64,53,876,309,637,0.121,0.8059999999999999,0.073,-0.9808,0,2,2,0,2,0,96.0,1,0,3,3,23,26,4,3,49,0,58,17,7,1,4,76,86,39,0,4,9,1,6,4,1,2,6,1,5,3,20,32,3,2,13,7,0,9,9,11,3,4,53,10,70,15,85,24,11,85,1,3,0,1,22,39,0,11,38,349,90,13,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05230695607414913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5754154586086975,0.14340215026972475,0.040127405483898884,0.06187494358908914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04537344408603378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06587234792756277,0.0,0.0674893345630728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05083009362190174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06529113530007874,0.06481742353250165,0.07611044679550158,0.0,0.10164686098331227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060379828110675576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17316319001061972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22662740726946945,0.0,0.0,0.05019210212498424,0.07135260471666778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04949303926382754,0.0943880397700806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10436100823791117,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06055914429661492,0.0627226540233155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2493804066855671,0.0,0.0,0.11622181953924032,0.0,0.06316919314900142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05244894586177983,0.0,0.06144766280855106,0.0,0.04809932618627597,0.0665634980190995,0.0,0.06411227200878612,0.0,0.0,0.11531314612836772,0.0,0.0,0.05222014766511013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05016641896029998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05944426614281913,0.059466099238003826,0.12519614516981112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04337760686411133,0.043753621085594586,0.04551054156219711,0.0,0.1255111734907379,0.0,0.0,0.16985905690659175,0.0,0.0,0.06284150337726299,0.07997058031553518,0.13463453445152496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08181731656860468,0.051523435100712216,0.0,0.06477297062912442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06003226300850955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07560396231987787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06684446448338065,0.1007848735310088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061558124211226285,0.0666621477095462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12030227605026696,0.049997214662662035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12578917169823262,0.1884951877074849,0.0,0.0,0.12337576893496555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0556142613028764,0.0,0.0,0.047428326679752005,0.0,0.05432655991985553,0.06748069308431949,0.06851273703596042,0.07840447311585959,0.0,0.0,0.046845693047446894,0.13763195843217074,0.0,0.0,0.05638459125298231,0.06555996444759504,0.04006250072030194,0.06418366667678556,0.0,0.06142932025963376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09737541892173072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1591656057233592,0.0,0.05324546494965692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14340215026972475,0.11399748730659055 schizophrenia,Buster_Scrugggs,2019/01/06,"I believe there is a moderate chance I have schizophrenia. I don't suffer from hallucinations, but I often have delusions of persecution. I often believe I will be framed for a crime I didn't commit, and the conviction is so powerful that I will develop a panic attack after driving by a police car. For example, tonight I went to the store to buy some Juul pods (I'm helplessly addicted to nicotine), and on my way home I passed two cop cars. The cop cars followed me for a few minutes, and I was convinced they would arrest me (even though - to reiterate - I haven't committed a crime). I'm now back in my room, and I'm anxious they will arrest me tomorrow morning. I also frequently believe that someone will slip LSD into my drink when I leave my room. I live in a dorm-type house with six or seven other people, and this fear drives me to lock my door even when I'm merely going to the bathroom. Or when I buy food at the store, I'll believe that someone has opened the packaging and slipped LSD or some other drug into my food. There's also been a general cognitive decline. I've lost my attention span and I find reading and writing to be much more difficult. I used to be a voracious reader and an eloquent writer, but I have completely lost the ability to employ those faculties. I also frequently believe that my parents harbor the desire to destroy me, that they actually wish to alienate me and keep me in a permanent state of initialization. I essentially have paranoid episodes everyday, and my paranoia is usually centered upon a fear that isn't corroborated by reality. But, as I've said, I don't hallucinate, and I'm essentially capable of functioning at a relatively high level. There's always a figurative voice in the back of my head that recognizes these fears as illusory, and I've never been compelled to subscribe to them fully. I'm a rational person, so I don't believe in anything that violates the laws or physics, and I know that I ought to proportion my beliefs to their evidence and not to their emotional impact. 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I'm not diagnosed with anything because I've never seen a professional, but I've been having delusions since i was a kid. I've become aware of when a delusion is a delusion, for the most part, but I can't figure out how to NOT believe in it and forget about it. does anyone have any tips? it would be really appreciated.",3.982567567567572,4.6865126621621656,5.809027027027027,79.77516216216219,71.02702702702703,8.082162162162161,28.313513513513517,8.238735603445708,1.879424864864864,283,10,57,4,5,98,54,74,0.035,0.8859999999999999,0.079,0.5993,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,7,0,9,1,0,1,1,13,12,5,0,1,4,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,3,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,3,1,2,0,9,7,2,6,0,0,1,0,1,3,0,1,2,41,5,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20931482333337748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21522119270232448,0.0,0.2532934985594325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18763226371998987,0.339941353316955,0.0,0.3467856413642633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3124109214911483,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2693581996477948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16081300224724934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2373946396987949,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3333178325498677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19718481453577105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2546156672320707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24431762639790586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21865256918276335,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Cynderizer,2019/01/06,"DAE get/have had racing thoughts on meds? Its been almost a year since Ive been on Invega injection. Lately my mind has been wandering from lots of different subjects eg (what I did today, the song I heard on the radio, what was said to me, etc) Its especially hard when I try to sleep, been going to sleep later and later each night. Does anyone else have this?",2.41509054325956,4.718729422535212,3.655855130784712,86.91746478873242,78.71830985915494,6.874044265593561,18.593561368209254,7.957251820313856,0.7004631790744469,283,6,56,5,7,92,55,71,0.031,0.969,0.0,-0.2624,1,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,0,10,2,2,0,0,6,14,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,5,2,0,0,1,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,10,4,6,0,8,4,3,11,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,2,7,36,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21920643938107387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15306674954067942,0.22429885338660446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2287140400554426,0.0,0.0,0.1915693504182129,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18287096136054534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24414217751346315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11437128114009648,0.0,0.12441142517001925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1961000896176188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24693967243541426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1861091954896908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24315932290506126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2210363890999315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20543192060623294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20823325097524548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1810843629105277,0.0,0.4381355804827773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1737898463933972,0.0,0.0,0.2075007956314438,0.0,0.0,0.14862531416206887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1409706671659211 schizophrenia,genuinely-bored,2019/01/06,"anyone from the uk ever been referred to an early intervention team ? i got referred to it and they’re coming to my house tomorrow to do an assessment on me and i’m pretty fuckjng scared just wondering if anyone can answer a few of my questions what kind of shit do they ask you is it worth making a list of stuff to say really anxious about it in general and i’m scared i’ll have an episode while they are here also scared they’re coming to spy on me ",1.8806264775413688,3.947501223404256,3.7982269503546138,86.43388888888893,79.31914893617021,6.73096926713948,22.14657210401891,7.793537801064563,1.08471536643026,361,11,73,6,9,122,63,94,0.15,0.7979999999999999,0.052000000000000005,-0.8685,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,1,2,1,5,5,1,3,6,0,7,1,1,1,1,15,15,6,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,5,5,0,0,5,1,1,2,0,4,0,0,2,1,8,1,14,13,1,9,0,0,0,0,7,3,1,3,4,50,13,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15132675545630786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21377546261365304,0.0,0.2646273195972923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17690402982981882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3260089016652329,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1711689080556516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15134411026600733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21834542598912493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1970533952890428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1263121545253518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1925144214120608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2119803369418407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12122525732877495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15048288622989367,0.5683551950408496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19424135304421547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2166224942503239,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20521131082401434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,PotentialSpirit,2019/01/06,"What exactly is ""hearing voices""? I hear voices through media, or if God is speaking to me through music lyrics, and during a certain point in the song, video, whatever, there is a resonance that hits me to my core, and I take it as a divine message. Today, for instance, I've been listening to the song [Like You by Evanescence](https://youtu.be/dQzqSfiPyFA) and at one point in the song, it says, ""You're not alone. No matter what they told you, you're not alone."" and I immediately started crying. I've heard this song dozens of times before over the years but it was today in particular that the lyric struck me and I know it was God communicating with me. Is this what hearing voices is about? 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A nigger runs my prison. In prison, the nigger tries to torment me. We can take away his knives by confessing, every day. In about 2000, I masturbated fantacizing about my niece, Lani. She looks like Star Trek Seven of Nine! In 1985, at my sister's wedding, I stuck my crotch on the hot tub drain because it kinda sucked. In 1985, I tried to get a dog to lick my dick. From 1998-2003, I fantacized about leading a Catholic army like Dune, of Mexicans or Brazilians? That was dumb because they're niggers. In 2003, I played tag with a black girl about 7-years-old. She reached for my crotch. In high school, in the library, Carlos and I said 'juicy' or 'toxic' as a way of evaluating girls. In 1988, I cheated on my SAT by talking in the hall during the break -- two problems. On 9/9/1999, I killed a CIA nigger on purpose with my car. :-) In 1982, when I was 12, I babysat Kevin's kids. I changed a diaper because I thought that was being professional. In 1975, when I was about age five, my brother, Keith, put my penis in a vacuum. In 1977, when I was about age seven, my brother, Danny, got me high on gas fumes and we sucked each other's dicks. Dr. Tsakalis had an oddly round ass. Paul Keck at Xytec had an oddly round ass. Distracting? At about age five, Jay Weinrick and I touched dicks to each other's assholes. 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It is just now dawning on me that I am schizophrenic and probably have been for a long time. Looking back I used to believe that my professors were deliberately putting confusing instructions on tests to hurt me. I kept thinking that co workers had it out for me and even when random people would smile at me that they had ulterior motives. I went through three semesters in college where I failed out and did not know why but understood a lot of it had to do with my mental health. I cut all of my friends and family off from where I was from. It started slow and a lot of it was unearthed from partying too much. It started as anxiety and became depression. I stopped being able to develop feelings. I stopped caring about life for a very long time. I was able to hide it at first because I thought a lot of it was normal. Partying helped a lot with that because it served as a distraction. I had a prescription for adderall that I used extremely loosely. At first it was because I did not want to develop a tolerance but later it was only to distract myself. Eventually it became a tool to self medicate although looking back it helped with my ADHD but did not do me any good in the long run. Adderall would help me function and weed would help me calm down. Alcohol would help me feel anything. I kept the delusions especially to myself because I didn't want to admit something could be wrong. This happening to me has always been my biggest fear. At first it started with feeling as if I was being watched and judged. The most common one was that people were talking about me. I became disassociated with time. I couldn't keep track of the day of the week any longer. I stopped being able to recognize people. Remember names or faces. Register what faces meant what emotions. My sense of smell went away for a while. I did not care what I ate or wore. Everything around me had meaning but nothing meant anything to me. Music was especially interesting to me. It did not matter what kind of music it was it all had some kind of meaning associated with it. There were messages even if they did not have anything to do with me. I was worried people could read the thoughts that were in my head. I stopped trusting everyone and became defensively aggressive. It was like I was scrambling to grab onto some sense of reality and every time someone talked to me they were attacking me and trying to pull me away. I felt like one incident that started the process was my first hallucination. It was during the school year when I was stressed and on the phone. I had recently just stopped being homeless where I had been sleeping in my car and studying in the library. I saw a person across my room that was me. It was all of my negative feelings embodied as a person. It scared me and I tried to put it behind me. I was hoping that it was a one time thing. Looking back I had other hallucinations but I didn't acknowledge them. I lived like that for a very long time, but I didn't want to admit that I could be crazy. It wasn't until the day before Halloween that I completely broke. Before that I just limited my routine and was just extremely defensive. I couldn't venture too far from my apartment without having panic attacks. Slowly my life became smaller. I couldn't hold my job any longer. I trusted the people around me, but looking back they enabled me in a lot of ways. For a lot of that time I feel fog. I can't recall a lot. The reality started settling in I was able to stop drinking. It wasn't even hard. I almost feel as if I am a different person now and I am having a hard time differentiating between what was real and what wasn't. I know I have to talk to someone. I am just slowly coming to terms with the fact that this is my life now. I know it can't do it on my own and my girlfriend can't be the only person I rely on. Are there any resources out there?",3.5691376201923077,5.528366524739589,4.597687499999998,83.14394711538462,73.85677083333334,7.382403846153848,28.742467948717948,8.189365985712001,2.047537516025641,3113,130,595,51,65,1014,288,768,0.116,0.789,0.095,-0.8555,4,0,3,0,0,0,61.0,0,1,5,9,30,32,6,7,35,0,90,13,4,4,4,134,138,41,0,18,25,0,10,3,2,4,7,0,1,5,56,33,3,13,24,2,0,8,21,18,0,8,65,17,101,14,96,56,16,90,0,4,6,0,26,34,0,19,50,467,157,10,0.20706795489902813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.062213860596640136,0.0,0.0,0.05532316760019573,0.051837161481815636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0430742815860017,0.0,0.0,0.14081330999407188,0.0,0.03960160468196007,0.0,0.051338942610137085,0.0,0.0,0.12779946266153264,0.09216719040796856,0.0,0.11778484599910065,0.09727357994394643,0.1592224757752908,0.0,0.12622670337117614,0.0,0.08809978917177581,0.05832366915211716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10555979018766372,0.0,0.0,0.04459267702393887,0.054276702769731566,0.0,0.0,0.12399518453552515,0.0,0.0,0.0667708503026854,0.0,0.04458683153372159,0.0,0.0,0.054085485175469065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05071194105182368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05823089466915731,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1025748234798108,0.0,0.04361592069252379,0.04946557615207041,0.04652483151110946,0.0,0.048801309825687686,0.058252254394906826,0.15704966953927246,0.0,0.049704427323667436,0.0,0.0,0.17613189665639953,0.0,0.0,0.03999504707517956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04341969407418167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04577737716619696,0.0,0.09274610764910482,0.0,0.05312786520820938,0.055025888280890466,0.0,0.0,0.17349160670457445,0.0,0.0,0.05141630032019282,0.0,0.0,0.05541763210017953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05137074853192294,0.04601287812801983,0.0,0.10781470527596876,0.11379913271765367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10969366520409772,0.07587220751794352,0.0,0.04571119945915944,0.18324862403710274,0.17388493071811556,0.0,0.0,0.30807309826127266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11277885346806216,0.0,0.05214979497676208,0.05216894890886472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03805469309876003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05072065777784253,0.04967182184481098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10523595390028133,0.07874225527005961,0.0,0.060737407447688824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1794435595499818,0.18080375123448172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055813569422641325,0.0,0.0,0.10408024361321563,0.0,0.0,0.05178099760709675,0.11784433280981794,0.0,0.0,0.051113656149644415,0.0,0.05864190685380099,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0518277865376812,0.05239095629708088,0.0,0.0,0.05400425920065468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05180437422491082,0.0,0.08772400311251738,0.03985275702656122,0.0,0.0,0.18320470531305874,0.0,0.0,0.25967712327725984,0.05929891068181141,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12482503391483518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.034391687067256836,0.033170196115433814,0.0,0.08219441323740855,0.2414859793960123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07029277453945022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08942011455372624,0.0,0.08542637435112843,0.09160053355887347,0.041090226094725665,0.041524355818375935,0.0,0.0,0.0959770343582334,0.04671165548407414,0.0,0.0,0.04990152982136521,0.0,0.0,0.05257188987942156,0.0,0.14709513409040556,0.05659907565248759,0.0,0.033336243491349116 schizophrenia,akgreenie2,2019/01/06,"Involuntary commitment dilemma If you’ve ever been involuntarily committed, looking back do you think it helped you or further harmed you? Do you hold resentment against those who had you committed? Someone I love was diagnosed with schizophrenia about 4 years ago in his early 20s. He has been hospitalized around a dozen times with one of those being involuntary. He has never followed up with outpatient treatment, meds, etc. Is in extreme denial about his condition. He admitted himself to the hospital a month ago after a suicide attempt, stayed in the psych unit for 9 days - same hospital he has been numerous times before - they are familiar with him and his condition and symptoms. They treated him for depression only, and medicated with Prozac while inpatient and nothing else. Sent home with a Prozac rx which he has not taken since the day he left the hospital. Twice since being released he has took off - jumped in his car on Christmas Eve and drove north until he ran out of gas in the middle of nowhere, in the middle of the night. Scared and in psychosis he left the car and started walking and became disoriented and called a family member for help. Unable to say where he was nor identify any landmarks to help find him, family member had to talk him into trusting the police not to arrest him (has an irrational fear of anything being on his record or show up on background check), and persuaded him to call 911 so local police could find him. They found him and held him in a safe place until someone picked him up a few hours later. His car had to be left on side of the road and retrieved the next day because his symptoms were so severe he was unable to drive. Two days later he took off again, to another state again, and called family and said where he was and that he might come home the next day. At that point family was ready to involuntarily commit but probate court would not begin the process until he returned to state. He came home but family held back on IC.! Since that time he has stayed around home, mostly alone, and extremely disconnected. Stays up all night, sleeps whenever. Has been mostly agreeable when family has stopped in to check on him, has been self medicating with weed but stopped after he ran out because he wants to start looking for another job - he in no way has the ability to focus on even a job interview without treatment, much less actually do a job. Family has been hesitant to go back and finish the process for involuntary commitment, hoping he would eventually go or ask to be taken to the hospital on his own. He is manic, disconnected, not bathing, eating or sleeping much and is alone all the time. Maybe not having extreme symptoms or dangerous voices as he has in the past (that we know of) but not in a good place either. He has an apartment, car, money, but no friends or girlfriend or family member he sees every day. Involuntary commitment is the worst, last thing anyone wants to do but we also want him safe. He is unpredictable and doesn’t have anyone watching out for him daily. I think it is dangerous to wait and see at this point, he is so vulnerable but I hate forced treatment too. 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I'm writing about a character who suffers from paranoia, thinks she is being followed, watched through digital devices, and has isolated herself and set up security cameras. Constantly watching cameras and finding strange patterns in the vehicles that pass by the house. A few suspected neighbors ""are in on it"". Husband has been quiet about the whole thing for years, until she finally opened up about it. Now, the husband wants her on meds and to go see a doctor. Research shows that these meds can cause drowsiness. Is already on anxiety meds. Which meds work best without drowsiness? Are there other meds to take on top of the antipsychotic drug to counter the drowsiness?",6.807603305785122,9.45243790082645,5.609991735537193,76.39316942148761,66.68595041322314,8.145785123966942,41.02561983471074,8.841846274778883,4.2018390082644625,570,35,85,10,10,169,83,121,0.117,0.818,0.064,-0.6046,1,0,1,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,0,4,5,3,0,0,9,0,9,2,0,1,0,12,16,5,0,1,1,2,0,0,1,0,2,1,1,0,10,5,0,1,3,1,0,3,1,1,0,0,1,4,4,2,22,14,3,19,0,1,3,0,9,10,0,0,5,63,14,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1393213197758022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09658180936151893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1324928273851163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1296947423375414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.136432677171358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1292234354291356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14641129007789894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13830199976891322,0.11539129394677615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07175145670744408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14567691426992954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8414196175274575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10060584698357077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09492517739479547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08387567601430876,0.0808966602094383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07446621873571563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14095493702942252,0.0,0.12170163504133802,0.0,0.18382472960572305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08130162248645778 schizophrenia,92514914,2019/01/06,"feeling like i'm making all of this up lately, i've been very concerned and convinced that i've given myself all of my mental disorders somehow. my DID, my schizophrenia(or schizoaffective?), all of it. that i don't actually have any of it at all. that, at some point in my teen years, i decided i wanted attention and somehow gave myself these mental disorders, and now i can't shake them. i know it's not true, or plausible, because i do have a history of severe, extensive childhood trauma that would cause my DID despite what my parents say. but i can't help but be convinced that i've somehow given myself these things for attention as a teen, and now they're stuck with me and ruining my life and it's all my fault because i did this to myself quite literally. i feel maybe this is a delusion, but i'm not sure about much currently. i'm not entirely seeking advice, but i wanted to get this somewhere. thanks for listening.",7.907166666666669,6.859886938888893,8.20555555555556,71.85500000000003,62.944444444444436,11.555555555555555,37.22222222222222,10.746095033038511,3.9883888888888883,739,31,134,16,9,244,98,180,0.11,0.809,0.081,-0.6381,2,0,0,0,0,0,24.0,0,0,1,1,6,10,0,1,3,0,13,1,0,2,7,37,29,12,0,3,8,1,2,1,0,1,1,2,0,0,17,7,0,0,6,0,0,1,6,4,0,0,8,4,24,6,16,19,7,12,0,1,0,0,6,5,0,5,7,99,41,0,0.0,0.0,0.1749141254234269,0.0,0.0,0.17515299703620552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1218905597064459,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21852825595051936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18413068677673936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4108532269050181,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18126006339088432,0.1280503664338285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09364643430327703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12014198968254595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09850659700881176,0.0,0.20219253977988846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12660377297706546,0.0875684818990959,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11964528277675475,0.0,0.1800724639440799,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3612671206758057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13176333519779235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19902678949907784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16944142211665167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1906457007848863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1425402610199654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20249219698020865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16893326035215891,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16502175298161242,0.0,0.0,0.11908027688727305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14789324366836887,0.21144289661008547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1273282207848751,0.0,0.0,0.11542583234047896 schizophrenia,augboi666,2019/01/06,"Some of my delusional obsessions. * hoboken, new jersey * long island * pontiac cars * video games * taoism and ancient chinese culture Just FYI for video games, I'm not obsessed with playing them, it feels like everything is a video game. I just like thinking about them. I don't play them that often.",3.196153846153845,6.3327843846153895,3.0565384615384623,84.72596153846156,89.76923076923076,5.676923076923077,27.653846153846153,7.1686216300943375,2.117184615384616,236,11,37,4,8,71,43,52,0.101,0.733,0.166,0.5458,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,3,0,4,6,0,2,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,9,5,1,0,0,3,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,2,8,0,1,2,2,0,0,0,1,6,4,4,5,1,4,0,0,0,0,7,0,0,2,5,21,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4165546695685069,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2343543260518616,0.3311171447797583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.452875325649463,0.0,0.0,0.4101738123244554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4476412546288717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29698549427498205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,phonegetshotalldtime,2019/01/06,"Before I sleep every night I get shot in the head I'm 25M. It's been a long time since I first remembered all the things, sleep paralysis auditory hallucinations exploding head syndrome etc. But the worst of them all was the ""get shot in the head"". I will imagine myself pointing the gun at my head and sometimes I'll pull the trigger and I see a flash and a loud bang and I feel like that's the end of my life for the night. The gravity will just pull my body to the bed and crash my head against the pillow and I feel helpless lying there thinking of all the failures I've experienced mostly. I didn't have a proper diagnosis because, insurance, but I knew I was very depressed and something was very wrong from relationships, school, work, life satisfactory etc. From time to time I'll be sitting in a cockpit in a crashing plane telling me to ""pull up"" and I feel my hands on the wheel pulling the plane up. At times during the day I mumble the words ""terrain-terrain, pull up, bank angle bank angle"" I love planes and that's how I know those warning sounds but it still terrifies me because of how I just subconsciously say it out of no where. Sometimes if i didn't ""die"" from the head shot suicide I will see myself doing it again and again, or I'll find something that will just kill myself. I don't know if this was the right sub reddit but I just wanted to share my experience that's all. TLDR: I ""shoot"" myself to sleep almost every night.",3.5998969853052567,5.286032080139371,4.324605362823815,86.28245720345406,73.14634146341464,6.9425238600212085,25.71867898803212,7.586124646067393,1.22920493864566,1145,38,232,14,23,366,142,287,0.156,0.797,0.047,-0.9859,0,0,2,2,0,2,32.0,0,0,1,2,11,8,1,0,25,0,15,14,11,3,4,43,29,19,3,3,11,0,4,1,0,4,2,3,2,0,11,11,0,0,10,0,2,5,4,5,0,1,8,10,33,3,26,16,8,34,0,2,2,1,6,14,0,5,15,148,44,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09473312473772298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1153405172454126,0.0,0.08050178750532745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10508469793563133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06101232310711172,0.0,0.08148304715383779,0.0,0.09818493243168287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08379184617434532,0.0,0.21101890456708086,0.0,0.0,0.15941738850669673,0.0,0.0,0.0925417288866452,0.0,0.0,0.14350521430172414,0.06758574736114027,0.0,0.0,0.08646714920503683,0.0804708652020601,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09885429345278084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5825514211749947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10466628622653656,0.0,0.10398473919687876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1336444534083677,0.04621916718597812,0.0,0.0,0.08372234446620261,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08538460058305028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26634082212432314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08943219349244272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1015702395175048,0.10716889038740787,0.08079205322109262,0.0,0.0752336001714192,0.0,0.0957451923705549,0.15077568652692205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07825813688726536,0.0,0.2840196167259117,0.0,0.0,0.14566292191225724,0.18713329677422336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07555158181796715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1034823870739741,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08268883767360825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06285128058229204,0.06061898908721002,0.0,0.0,0.2206594724188239,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15611787269902447,0.05580041115689322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06887348160652842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1034355883029559,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,ratta606adamson,2019/01/06,"Parents Who're the moms and dads of this subreddit? What kind of challenges do you face, as parents? 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As well as other self care of course. I do and I haven't been to a dentist for about two years. I've finally decided to face my fears and make an appointment, but I'm just so worried that they're going to tell me that my teeth are fucked. I guess I'll only find out if I go and it's better to have treatment (fillings, etc) sooner than later. I'm just so worked up over this and embarrassed to tell my dentist how much I've neglected my teeth. 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On the schizophrenic side of things, things are quite good. Negative symptoms I think will always be a problem but hallucinations etc are mild to non existant. But I’ve been starting to hear music again, after I candy flipped the other day. Same ol’ mistakes by rihanna keeps playing in my head. Nice in some ways but the lyrics are getting to me. All throughout my teenage years I dealt with my issues and fears through drugs. Got over it and triumphed to great achievements with tremendous reward. But as soon as going gets tough I over analyze and fall down the same self hatred fueled spiral. I felt like I was over being self destructive, I gave myself pats on the back and looked at things clearly, logically. I remember I once made a post about how to handle things when things are good. Somehow I guess I got too used to things being good that I questioned the whole thing. Too wrapped up in emotions with no time to sit and take it all in. Which only results in impulses to do drugs and speak impulsively without thinking what I actually mean or what point I actually try to get across. I feel somehow that the old me, the insecure, self hating child was somehow locked away and forgotten about. I put it in memory storage and moved on. But getting closer to someone special made me dig deep again with a will to share all I am. The only bad thing is that I didn’t just share the memory of who I used to be, I became him again. Since I got out of the hospital I’ve done coke about 10 times, done mdma twice and acid twice. Plus steady drinking for the most part. I forgot how much these drugs affect me and to combat the lows I took zyprexa two days in a row to recooperate but forgot how long it takes to get used to these medications. So the result was a zombie with a will to listen, understand and share what it had inside, but nothing came out. During a time where I really needed to be myself, to be fit for fight, to be true. I fear I’m slipping into old habits and that it might make me jeopardize the best thing that ever happened to me. TLDR: I lost my balance and in an attempt to regain it I started knocking over things that I worked so hard to keep stacked nice and tighty.",5.101543231380198,6.016982380129591,5.398985577927959,82.95626140876473,68.61123110151189,8.13402076220999,27.678464432522816,8.259297600419973,1.7419321256880096,1874,59,365,25,31,595,248,463,0.129,0.735,0.13699999999999998,0.7226,0,0,4,0,1,0,38.0,0,0,0,8,23,28,3,3,24,0,30,12,2,13,6,84,74,34,0,4,11,0,4,1,0,4,8,3,0,4,33,25,2,4,10,2,0,6,4,12,0,3,22,9,45,16,69,40,13,63,0,2,1,0,15,34,0,10,21,263,78,2,0.0,0.0,0.13899742081363828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059259265098201085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0669118630503484,0.05476241595998076,0.05946423980157418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07473912919186783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08145467214693787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09185972170003676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1457619331739078,0.0,0.06976674358304287,0.2477715784373709,0.0,0.0,0.08011091298679801,0.0,0.0,0.07942714217318178,0.0,0.06442095827272501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16028059708266665,0.03601007243820212,0.0,0.1367613214603069,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.186042905412,0.0,0.040474956255366255,0.17920339470926222,0.17087915188018699,0.07851834014575124,0.07845489971551836,0.0,0.06297803768533633,0.0,0.06379753738934921,0.07031324894710668,0.07309044126920311,0.0,0.08026811112206664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07433331971636238,0.0,0.12660405432301702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050303535710703035,0.034793625440698354,0.07137936720437665,0.0,0.06302588453514844,0.0598053689266627,0.0,0.07774310119316634,0.0,0.0,0.13477680551109295,0.04753871557894192,0.0,0.0,0.0775775210759055,0.0,0.0717448651853798,0.0,0.07555127802702621,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07569369818123295,0.05235358695577096,0.10561481703268966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06833580387719931,0.0,0.14946308562532534,0.07584508112214211,0.0,0.10832933267063727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07712239324761262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06732423866910622,0.0,0.06820736924494472,0.0,0.0,0.06814621932764987,0.0,0.07159398277422792,0.0797807066475448,0.0757493445259472,0.0,0.08106192722395975,0.09124843212107543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08067636130332445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22288841006069712,0.0,0.0,0.11782489682628787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060342967595883035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1008172468549078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1480460013111575,0.10709447804670476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4731422152738272,0.09126752078449556,0.0,0.0,0.12458375227299423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07912606406058212,0.048352497215822014,0.0,0.06956985356752013,0.07414067977335673,0.0,0.2460387070122527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056529708945481,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07951260046894469,0.0,0.06865182367779936,0.0,0.0518477131396989,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.045862199384284805 schizophrenia,SlimeMagician,2019/01/06,"Despite things looking up im at my lowest I just moved into a better room in a house. Everything is clean, there's food I can eat if I really want, finally the neighbor who hates me is gone. Something bad just happened. I can only describe it as a ptsd flashback or hallucination. I dont know what my problem is anymore. Basically it seems like everyone is constantly competing for sexual dominance. That might be true, but it makes me want to throw up. Guys make these sounds like ""haha! Im better than you"" and they slurp with their mouths amd click their tongues at me. Im mot man enough to fight back. It seems childish to me. The problem is that these sounds, its like they get stuck in my head and playback in echos and a voice in the back of my head calls me a cuck. It makes me feel like I have to face some horrible doomed realitt where I am emasculated over and over again. Like my roll in life is just to gratify some sexual bully. I am in a dark place right nkw because it took me 2 hours to realize none of this was real and to calm down. My everything clenched and an unholy pit in my stomach the weight of the earth formed. This happens to me once every few days. I really wish there was someone in my corner rooting for me. If I just had someone to love then life wouldnt be so bad. I feel trapped. Please do not ask if i am on medication.",3.035630391506306,4.591903120437959,4.1249369608493724,87.67173855341744,74.36496350364962,7.609555408095554,25.593231585932315,8.296473431620573,1.485502189781022,1061,36,226,18,22,345,160,274,0.14300000000000002,0.703,0.154,-0.3532,1,1,1,0,1,0,27.0,0,1,4,3,11,18,2,0,12,1,21,12,5,4,1,39,42,14,0,9,10,0,3,5,1,2,3,3,3,2,16,8,3,0,6,0,0,4,4,7,0,0,6,8,34,11,34,32,6,34,1,1,2,1,13,22,0,9,13,147,50,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10426736238588777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09828862874385512,0.0,0.0,0.16168727614544218,0.1755695177620008,0.06409036081598041,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.185969747205383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10735633295683997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1136154298959337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06780447834885173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12321943772588685,0.0,0.0,0.10758109879022976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10863432326705673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08858221025657732,0.1004626291866061,0.18898018620871893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10632055624769787,0.07510968457297176,0.0,0.11517212360699144,0.0,0.0,0.12713172357651753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05492959011200825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1041018696171496,0.1859440857716792,0.0,0.0,0.10380073176010088,0.2158011868892356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.103538478335123,0.12131364409058006,0.0,0.0,0.3406970557134511,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057780384670059574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1485223309996459,0.25682242219017565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08828835462346862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09488998298581347,0.0,0.2105387052051104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1059141714796078,0.0,0.111533431636981,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11174368100598922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1119671617905877,0.0,0.07996120340530971,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1098454817317114,0.11540853245583245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20120325938047726,0.12289918438210973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11966859005563422,0.13470653351908965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08978617342223963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19142501900476164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1781639815204829,0.080939373654819,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06984815651025235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11681075009012246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12402470771363157,0.0,0.0,0.1280281852768812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12090202453189568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,edwardmuch,2019/01/06,When of my medication but felt more alive for it. I went of my anti psychotic medication for 4 days and felt really giddy and alive. I told my care worker and agreed I should start taking them. But today I felt like a zombie. Do you guys think I'm over medicated? Last time I tried changing my medication I was really psychotic and now I'm too frightened to change my medication. Any advice? ,2.593815789473684,5.1457146973684225,4.883421052631579,76.97144736842105,79.65789473684211,8.53684210526316,21.34210526315789,9.188382445141503,2.045242105263158,311,9,58,9,8,108,50,76,0.107,0.679,0.214,0.8779,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,1,1,1,3,2,0,0,1,0,3,5,0,0,0,11,14,7,0,1,2,0,3,1,0,1,5,0,0,1,1,4,0,0,4,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,6,3,13,2,6,7,1,9,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,0,8,34,14,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13890385572108008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09666445339628456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14492776882450348,0.0,0.3007441704871562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09167269411657107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.409448620914026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1407473235215552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11586832037749292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06944557033706772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7159879171037504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18212529826222404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10061198163417798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10687643230194406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09108169892976614,0.0,0.0,0.08288673209288486,0.0,0.13473820407635442,0.13582701467278838,0.0,0.09650810181012404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13177117369410082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,ravinglt0,2019/01/06,Internet tests Hey guys delete if not allowed but I am currently making a project on schizophrenia and just wondered if there any pdf or Internet test available for me to download for free since I am not able to find any ,5.643571428571431,7.145183833333338,5.041428571428573,83.85357142857143,67.80952380952381,8.457142857142857,35.42857142857143,8.841846274778883,3.0579428571428564,179,9,33,3,3,54,34,42,0.0,0.895,0.105,0.6652,2,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,2,0,12,4,5,0,2,7,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,2,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,3,2,5,4,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,4,1,20,3,3,0.3787375610877468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5151090580080668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3461592694247605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3750097305114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2528102629714307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31329562429774965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.410724729136961,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Decker27,2019/01/06,"Recently Diagnosed and a bit freaked A bit of an introduction rant I guess. I had two positive experiences in a year. Many of my friends and family have bailed and I’m worried I might lose my job. I’m 38. Really hope there are others out there that are successful. Hearing the stats really shook me. They kept me in hospital twice for a fortnight each time. Thankfully my meds seem to be working. I know no one else with schizophrenia. I didn’t even know how to spell it. It’s been just over a month since I left hospital for the second time and work is pushing for me to go back to full time, again. I find myself very restless and lonely since it all began.",2.3046447445684057,4.602920274809161,3.5629007633587797,87.46646506165592,79.07633587786259,7.6948913681738125,23.817381092190253,8.617729084823388,1.6936019964768052,520,18,107,12,13,169,91,131,0.135,0.7440000000000001,0.12,0.2366,1,2,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,1,4,8,9,0,2,8,0,9,1,0,1,1,19,21,6,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,1,1,1,0,0,5,8,0,1,4,0,0,3,2,5,0,4,5,1,15,4,14,14,5,18,0,2,0,0,3,6,0,4,9,71,20,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1231383708017914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3496644996303459,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16253951532769356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13377706840038586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1057714713293041,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15664840620810114,0.15096647017119685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14636576683064093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1237243652442401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09101169267626534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17641311770187018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18049029170173067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1590559228087748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1589150087081154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17601836340348306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1739934202172069,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17915656440383976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16235761040140198,0.0,0.0,0.17788029947700645,0.0,0.0,0.16988405506140966,0.0,0.0,0.12782283848940662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10851553337516992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20518056175275848,0.0,0.1581196954347806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1457861467697981,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.264940207270639,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.147436109701358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28013812054021503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15643426746336406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13213291038066302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2331687824177361,0.16263073007002635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10312540844974323 schizophrenia,AMHATEHATEHATE,2019/01/06,"Frequent visual hallucinations DAE get this predominantly too? Things you know that aren't. I'm laying in bed next to my boyfriend and I can't sleep because the faux fur blanket was writhing like an animal wounded when I went to piss and now I can't go back to sleep and leave him sleep here and I can't take the blanket off to the closet because he's wrapped in it if it starts back. I wish that things that can't wouldn't and then no more of this late night thinking.",2.9383762886597964,4.611624731958766,3.3717396907216504,92.48482603092786,74.87628865979381,6.087113402061857,24.496134020618552,6.6274283507984215,0.5235371134020617,377,12,84,3,8,117,64,97,0.043,0.878,0.079,0.4919,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,1,0,0,6,2,1,0,4,0,7,5,4,0,0,10,16,8,0,3,1,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,2,0,9,5,0,0,2,0,0,2,7,1,0,0,2,0,8,1,8,13,1,15,0,0,0,0,3,3,1,1,11,51,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3150315553969425,0.0,0.24974737079060774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10702483598484612,0.0,0.1164200684011944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11257932527522292,0.0,0.23107792163470334,0.21690488145531692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10007858262217624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2178586009996832,0.1922363498053535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6149890274839546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14499275429497632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1540205056791699,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2721843537921974,0.13125858550038175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18989652226568535,0.0,0.0,0.23556555436471846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Livevine57,2019/01/06,Reclassifying schizophrenia as a neurological condition? I recently read an article about the “pro’s” of reclassifying schizophrenia as a neurological condition vs a mental illness. The article talked about how it could potentially lead to a lot more funding and research and reduce the amount of stigma attached to it. It explored the idea that if we should treat schizophrenia like a neurological condition because it isn’t behavioral and that behavior systems don’t fit the needs of someone living with schizophrenia. I work in mental health and live with bipolar disorder and know many people who live with schizophrenia and I have perceived that it seems very much medical and for many can only really be managed with medication. On the other side of that I have also met and know people who are med resistant and even on medication and still have symptoms but by using coping skills and supports they also live enriching healthy lives which makes me feel like it should remain classified as a mental illness. I have experienced mania and to me that felt like I wasn’t in any control of my behaviors but with coping skills and support I have become much better at living with it more than any medication has. I decided to post on this sub because I don’t have schizophrenia so I don’t have that experience and wanted to hear your thoughts.,11.216459129106193,10.08161437394958,10.300282658517952,59.75140183346068,56.52100840336134,13.192360580595874,43.064935064935064,12.079253325248375,5.422557983193278,1103,51,167,27,11,352,129,238,0.031,0.86,0.11,0.9571,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,1,1,1,6,8,7,0,0,13,0,19,12,0,5,0,46,33,24,0,6,4,0,2,3,0,2,12,1,0,0,18,21,0,1,10,1,1,2,5,0,0,0,4,4,16,7,30,25,6,14,0,0,0,0,8,8,0,3,5,124,34,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.158604932280016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13487162870209224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12090051054181684,0.1095202987894171,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08770366204919716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11122233235601636,0.07917543443502988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11365204164219556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0654977549453439,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0970027058662492,0.0,0.0,0.05014096257136196,0.07084372045884071,0.09521425307209984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1054080920835609,0.11176651650319223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1119455695730086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10899732685185552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1453414908235446,0.0,0.5253887367246105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08430680416208379,0.0,0.0,0.06619361742815079,0.20107612848600825,0.0,0.0,0.11015030913653837,0.3995944863616768,0.2998059391109137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14579583245942046,0.07352982414719253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07541969020113186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1374974859272937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09497295942047787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0991921499946602,0.0,0.06352783971109856,0.0,0.09791378462890303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09027637788856877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0840224491317669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07919354821861062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22506324735649813,0.0,0.10307073143662313,0.0,0.07970532344135403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07872618280195813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08564699238372031,0.0,0.08182176985496882,0.0584902717486296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07219352997441927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,give-karma-plz,2019/01/06,"Am I gonna be ok I haven’t been to a doctor but I’ve been hallucinating since I was little and there’s one recurring hallucination that’s scaring me so much. He’s called the shadow man and he watches me sleep, when he’s close I can hear heavy breathing and when he’s really close I can hear a heartbeat and he’s like 8 feet tall. He gets mad if you look away from him, and he climbs walls and the ceiling like a spider. Sometimes he has a broken noose around his neck and he attacked me once. After he jumped at me he vanished and I could hear a giant crowd and women screaming. I know this isn’t specificities schizo but I don’t know who else to go to I haven’t slept in days and keep the lights on all night, I understand schizo sometimes comes with hallucinations will I be ok?",1.308350775893178,3.5145561901840523,2.700332010104656,92.78024178996756,82.19018404907976,5.553085528690004,19.404186214363044,6.794906146795322,0.06379711295561162,621,16,138,7,17,201,100,163,0.127,0.8029999999999999,0.07,-0.8957,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,1,0,1,5,8,2,1,8,2,15,6,5,0,1,24,28,16,0,2,3,0,0,2,0,2,1,4,0,2,3,15,0,1,3,0,0,4,4,4,0,1,4,7,18,4,11,19,2,21,0,0,2,0,22,11,0,1,8,75,21,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1497191193015088,0.0,0.1913331992869834,0.15801409000369646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17173432653519954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1448753358276077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13428097167125144,0.0,0.0,0.10846455075912388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17214310818996634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14049587166752112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08786902369823607,0.0,0.09558265289697117,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5686656427003899,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14948936946784006,0.0,0.0,0.18485868835044328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16433208735510724,0.16856421626389828,0.0,0.0,0.14123192088032505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12363434560207585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15782897699652373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17911011483500192,0.11396560436935475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1077427627073128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1683811890418078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13912326606252193,0.0,0.16830512573048675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33267589124669866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17508512709961718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,normelpersan,2019/01/06,"People who live with this condition, I'm sending you all my love & support I just want to say that those of you living with this condition are so amazingly strong & beautiful. I am moved by your willingness to keep going even tho it's hard & scary & tiring & riddled with side effects like depression & anxiety. I kno you can be very tired but the fact that you keep trying & keep going exemplifies hope. It's beautiful. I hope you find effective & healthy treatment and an amazing support system. I hope all of you live long, fulfilling, extraordinary lives surrounded by people who love you & whom you love. You deserve a wonderful life. Each & every one of you. I am here because I want to be supportive & informed; kept in the loop of important things within the community of people diagnosed with schizophrenia and mental conditions in general. I am living with a different mental condition (bpd) that spawns many of the same things that schizophrenia can cause so in some ways I do relate with you. But mostly I relate on a human level. Yes, it's hard for all of us, but living with something that's in your own mind is its own unique animal. Anyway, I'm here. I love you & I want you to to know that you do deserve lives of happiness, health and love. You can do it! (imagine those words are less corny) ",4.719285714285714,6.630371246031745,5.2446349206349225,79.90314285714291,70.66666666666666,8.84952380952381,28.07619047619048,9.3871,2.5904104761904763,1062,39,192,24,20,340,128,252,0.035,0.6579999999999999,0.306,0.998,1,0,1,0,0,0,51.0,1,17,0,3,8,18,0,0,8,1,14,10,0,3,4,43,38,9,0,6,4,0,2,1,0,0,5,1,0,1,20,11,0,4,7,0,0,4,0,1,0,1,1,3,31,16,29,35,10,16,0,1,0,5,31,9,0,6,2,127,51,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7505992320346717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04416294258106986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.035191393744950894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0727083388173032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05930414326242243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04972237101777266,0.0585942712113996,0.0,0.060315085599589986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03812981886283545,0.0,0.048639630051200436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052763756680636736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06561805962482826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06145417227659573,0.10342866304584336,0.0,0.0,0.06136380493006459,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17201538702845298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15393801168490392,0.0,0.0,0.03172664721762319,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04077608366984905,0.028203738804893567,0.0,0.3568337104689115,0.05108882914217604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2605158335192913,0.0,0.0,0.05852869585537415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11635560294487172,0.0,0.058290381849557114,0.0,0.0,0.06135736835813601,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03911903256519091,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1200671894069784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.045908849894427166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.044443022811727136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1965324046956861,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07670588671419525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13270323523661107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03919457040668815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06944153249040594,0.0,0.0,0.047632919116235364,0.10215114100663432,0.04582302435060648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06260522708785479,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,lettensp,2019/01/06,"Jobs that we can do I’m at a loss right now as to whither to go back to school and what job I should be doing. I’m wondering what jobs have worked for you. I’ve worked many different jobs in the past like uber, barista, office assistant etc. Looking for something I can do and make a living but not to the point where it can cause me to have a psychotic break from anxiety. any thoughts? what has worked for you?",1.7805,3.757944623529415,2.574926470588238,95.52591911764708,79.23529411764707,6.602941176470589,22.389705882352942,7.6454224807358475,0.7187941176470591,323,10,74,5,8,101,59,85,0.051,0.927,0.022,-0.3204,5,0,1,0,0,0,8.0,1,2,0,4,3,2,0,0,5,0,11,0,0,2,0,10,18,4,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,5,3,0,0,2,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,1,1,6,1,12,15,1,10,0,1,1,0,3,5,0,1,4,47,11,8,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11489245368936984,0.0,0.12924703018879044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12991286778990954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17355918665266126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17651780505837927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18842499256452705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0960187301569815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6706310756493906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08254091026795282,0.0,0.14918680250235214,0.0,0.14187626404529113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1127760849050635,0.17128976644261507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16128281878691467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15971327714371691,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1442832058927491,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17098740226637876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13006671148517582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13412819877327578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18322012081840836,0.3689949567189928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,brookieb91,2019/01/06,"Wondering If Anyone Feels The Same NOT ASKING FOR MEDICAL OR PSYCHOLOGICAL ADVICE...JUST WONDERING IF ANYONE IN THIS SUBREDDIT HAS FELT THE SAME. For about the past week or so I have been feeling like everyone around me is lying to me, not actually lying but more like everyone is ""in on something"" that I'm not. I have this feeling that things I've been doing are staged almost by the people around me. It is a very paranoid feeling. I have struggled with depression and anxiety quite a bit since high school. When I'm driving in my car, taking a shower, or laying in bed to go to sleep, I will play the same scenario in my head 100 different ways (most of the time it's about things that have never happened). I know that it all comes from anxiety. But what I've been experiencing in the past week or so is different. It's very uncomfortable and I have to work to ground myself when it starts to happen. Anyone else have similar experiences?",5.022090947726305,6.4056808563535945,5.9427624309392275,77.25445813854657,69.1657458563536,9.326136846578837,28.287717807054825,9.661875296680813,2.622220229494262,749,26,139,17,13,247,101,181,0.124,0.802,0.073,-0.8923,3,0,1,0,0,0,21.0,0,0,0,2,8,5,0,1,10,0,17,3,2,0,2,32,34,14,0,2,11,0,5,2,0,1,1,0,2,0,14,6,0,0,8,1,0,4,4,2,0,0,4,6,12,3,23,29,7,26,0,1,0,0,1,11,0,10,11,100,26,2,0.0,0.0,0.12185427812428362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12503841673762495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19104911643121725,0.0,0.0,0.2619342397757172,0.1279432008599432,0.0,0.22232003517033527,0.11673579945625664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1363247713269076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1075637163335334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1075496162011008,0.0,0.0,0.2609233700884374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1043121522359083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23863564856802666,0.0,0.12214598952778907,0.0,0.0,0.2525503772069841,0.0892065459411681,0.1198939664082864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07096601573956236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2208427544887972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12815177298268554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13193111310889585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06862481940741423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12200951892733272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1257925320500725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09630678666844647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23840346644536334,0.08656854634204621,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1328137118166048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1263742465731873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10329305150982172,0.0,0.12495932933053408,0.0,0.0,0.09613037247378103,0.0,0.0,0.08838302729698637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13054034791738095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09388606088579814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16591502994754742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07281220572475898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20606025274450696,0.0,0.09911531934629343,0.2003250007970017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.270830533929078,0.09090622861993483,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,slendermana,2019/01/07,is this really life for us hi im new to this ive worked really hard to be better and remove and mitigate my symptoms but my personalityis always different i have excellent people skills ive learned to understand empathy for others but whats nexti feel like ive dont everything i can to improve my illness but is there more to do is the best you can go to is functionally fucking weird and people think youre a fucking weirdo no matter how calm rationale and polite i am someone anyone i just wanna hear others ideas please upvote for others to see,2.034417784050813,4.729277706422021,4.351559633027524,78.79800988002823,83.86238532110092,7.390543401552577,23.06351446718419,8.384062270229773,2.043513196894849,446,16,78,11,13,154,73,109,0.117,0.6659999999999999,0.217,0.9274,1,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,1,2,0,5,3,8,2,0,2,0,14,5,0,2,0,17,22,8,0,1,4,0,2,1,0,0,3,1,0,0,6,4,0,0,6,0,0,2,2,3,0,0,0,4,13,5,11,21,2,3,0,0,1,2,5,0,2,0,2,56,19,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15808858183119534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13284683896706695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19938490498761785,0.16803250347855428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1985012247266528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2226692342108133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17075257816759154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09606567469171673,0.13573033812152946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3512891247715023,0.0,0.0,0.10797684418608766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17019553302747664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2141348164296004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21447786636473176,0.20522398601416747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1341969835167825,0.09282050483701963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18349547827955495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2634330909627273,0.0,0.0,0.20855418607331616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2434275079928187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15139904278525082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16097962326921456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19747445698386373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1217392158353652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19778839480961705,0.22853700876344166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13831645444577834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,TynorTynor,2019/01/07,"HOT TAKE: People posting selfies doing it not to be supportive but to seek validation Let’s be real here y’all are doing it to get a positive response on your looks, or a “You don’t look like a schizophrenic!” response. This is not a rate me subreddit. 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I'm kinda nervous but I know it can be helpful in the end and I want to try to be hopeful. So many thoughts have been invading telling me that this is bad and it isn't gonna help, but I'm gonna take the leap and try to do something good for myself.",2.2340476190476197,3.9225793571428578,3.962857142857143,87.43047619047621,76.85714285714286,7.523809523809526,30.23809523809524,8.344100000000001,2.2038095238095248,265,13,57,5,6,89,51,70,0.079,0.679,0.242,0.9135,0,0,1,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,1,1,4,0,1,3,0,9,0,0,0,0,11,19,6,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,4,4,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,2,0,6,2,6,13,0,5,0,0,0,0,5,1,0,2,4,35,10,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21217958582572274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22507489363897135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27837603927040483,0.0,0.2161543426159173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1327672118498596,0.0,0.0,0.21314379978540865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5109938391649381,0.0,0.0,0.2523984992254961,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13965770646774106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25763779480515475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1956339915719684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19106661475869252,0.0,0.2221120812375149,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20174289492484795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34506159894171995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14988656032254727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,VoidsIncision,2019/01/07,"Schizoid factor common within autistic and schizotypic tendency + neurobiologic correlates Worth following this research to anyone who deals with the schizoid symptoms at all: - Factor analysis demonstrates a common schizoidal phenotype within autistic and schizotypic tendency: https://www.frontiersin.org/articles/10.3389/fpsyt.2014.00117/full - Increased glutamate/GABA+ ratio in a shared autistic and schizotypal trait phenotype termed Social Disorganisation.: https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/m/pubmed/28794973/ - Mismatch field latency, but not power, may mark a shared autistic and schizotypal trait phenotype: https://researchbank.swinburne.edu.au/file/54010fc4-a99c-4573-9d91-a6841a1f362a/1/2017_ford_mismatch%20field%20latency%20but.pdf ",32.656846846846854,35.12379621621622,18.427297297297297,6.882117117117133,12.513513513513516,20.67747747747748,70.61261261261261,17.879347455551382,12.935753153153154,656,34,34,20,3,153,55,74,0.0,0.887,0.113,0.7003,1,0,0,0,0,0,54.0,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,4,0,1,1,0,0,1,9,2,5,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,2,5,0,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,6,1,3,9,0,0,0,0,5,4,0,1,3,20,2,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36493072110258745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5380649867970425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.532020227786443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5424630088814402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,whoretilla,2019/01/07,"Help I want to ask my mental health specialist about these symptoms but Im worried that they are just normal and Ill waste the visit. I have manic depression and take a mood stabilizer to treat it, my concern is usually only when Im in a “low” phase. My mind creates little voices that tell me awful things such as what negative things others think or say about me (which usually i never hear those people the voices reference actually say these things), crushing any future plans, rude remarks in general (“you suck!” but about 7000 times worse), etc. and I don’t know if its normal or something I really should mention to my doctor. Does anyone have advice on what to do? and maybe even what this could be? thank you.",5.8868888888888895,6.9656393185185195,6.168148148148145,77.55666666666669,66.92592592592592,8.962962962962962,27.592592592592588,9.150863307647796,2.2773703703703703,568,17,100,10,9,182,98,135,0.24,0.6829999999999999,0.077,-0.9838,0,0,1,0,0,0,16.0,0,2,1,1,7,7,2,0,4,1,9,4,0,0,1,21,17,11,0,6,6,0,0,0,0,1,4,5,0,0,16,4,0,0,3,0,0,1,3,4,0,0,0,5,14,2,11,14,1,12,0,2,0,0,11,5,1,3,6,70,30,1,0.0,0.0,0.14587905210058494,0.0,0.0,0.14607827194267334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10165719473451153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1045257203914675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13975141482939066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1193542724145441,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12875408485204168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15300764638114644,0.1308182503220111,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1667190102299405,0.0987356361486402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15889911090494074,0.16848421928765148,0.0,0.10019888062179746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3229461106719612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08215488007336852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1498265847864187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15018112622973365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15064908277623784,0.0,0.1509406051459849,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1152946204787081,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2929336600355022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11369261582104785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10363638992816447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09576605598555804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23775824980888066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1150834244838606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1553756192894376,0.11239662470864567,0.0,0.13065939473328855,0.137628775507174,0.0,0.0,0.2979402242238347,0.09578608971071133,0.0,0.0,0.08716785094444603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3292805653644468,0.0,0.0881720937523267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15181266166553842,0.15234138565128488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,DatFleur,2019/01/07,Has someone here used Risperidone or Risperdal Consta? What are your side effects after X years or use? Tell me if you are using tablets or injection and what your side effects are after X years.,5.110833333333336,7.3762728611111115,4.495555555555558,84.20500000000001,70.3888888888889,7.022222222222222,31.44444444444445,7.793537801064563,2.2758444444444437,157,7,27,2,3,47,25,36,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,3,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,5,0,10,7,5,0,1,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,2,7,0,6,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,4,4,18,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2699148670702889,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2784354943421533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8254007162288883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4102844107125047 schizophrenia,maninthemacintosh16,2019/01/07,"Losing meds weight gain and diet Hello fellow szs, I was wondering if anyone had any success losing weight gained from meds with any type of diet, for example vegetarian diet or something? Any thoughts would be helpful. Thanks.",7.291538461538463,9.664086871794877,7.028717948717951,67.8246153846154,64.8974358974359,8.276923076923078,30.948717948717945,8.841846274778883,3.01885641025641,184,7,25,3,3,58,32,39,0.101,0.601,0.298,0.8807,0,0,1,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,5,0,4,0,0,0,0,4,5,0,0,0,7,7,3,0,2,2,0,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,5,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,3,2,1,2,4,2,0,0,0,2,0,0,3,0,0,3,0,12,1,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4102871966997416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1406215104087038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13480048624901653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4499836076602368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4467780410765187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15482509867731584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18515601916003702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1596596959618671,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4897981173787016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21809633657581096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1428635077575783,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,reib0t,2019/01/07,"Has anyone else gone through weight loss surgery? I had the gastric sleeve done in April 2018, and my weight loss has been pretty great but then in November I was diagnosed SZA. My loss feels like it is at a standstill now from the medication. I also kind of let things slide over the holiday season too. I guess my real question is if anyone else had WLS and what has been your experience with medications? Have they slowed your loss down or made you gain weight? Idk if there are many folks out there in my situation because I know for a fact that my surgeon wouldn't have done the surgery if I was diagnosed during my 6 month pre-surgical testing period. I don't blame him either because it is a struggle keeping up on my diet, vitamins, and good habits while also dealing with all... this head stuff. Tbh I had symptoms since I was a teenager but was never able to get real help until now -- and while I was always chunky, I gained a lot of weight with zoloft when I was on that a while back. Now I am on risperidone, imipramine, and klonopin. I made good progress going from a HW of 275 to my current 194. I am just afraid of losing my progress :0 The best thing that helps me remember my vitamins and other habits is my medicine organizer and my journal/planner. Without it I would be lost! 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I have had several traumas in the last five years (or at least experiences which I perceived to be traumas), including one in which I experienced delusions. That time I was studying abroad and became convinced that I was going to die while abroad in an earthquake, but when I came home and was able to take my antidepressants again I got well. Now I am the primary caregiver for my dad, who has late stage dementia and is in a nursing home. My other family members are either unable or unwilling to help, so a lot of pressure rides on my ability to make correct decisions with respect to his care. I also work full time and am pursing a master’s degree. Lately I have been feeling like I am literally the only person capable of helping my dad, like only I have the skills and intellect to help him and he would suffer without me. Many people have told me “I’m a hero” or similar so the feeling probably started there. I have also felt like organizations like the government and hospitals are preventing me from securing dad’s care. Again, this feeling started when I had some bad experiences, but I feel like it’s turned into a personal conspiracy theory for me at this point. I know my coworkers have noticed due to some of their comments. I have talked to my friends, coworkers and therapist about my concerns and their consensus was essentially “you’re going through a lot.” But what if it’s more? Sometimes the world feels like an illusion, or essentially meaningless, which are not feelings I felt as a teenager. Any guidance would be appreciated.",6.421544850498343,7.608434700996677,7.175845514950165,70.42104401993356,65.77740863787375,10.671162790697675,36.3124584717608,10.686352973137794,4.280795215946846,1299,64,218,35,20,431,173,301,0.079,0.691,0.23,0.9942,0,0,0,0,0,0,28.0,1,0,2,4,13,19,0,1,17,0,27,0,0,1,1,43,49,25,1,3,11,3,8,6,1,2,0,0,2,2,12,12,0,2,11,0,0,4,2,5,1,2,12,9,37,14,30,33,8,33,0,1,0,0,20,12,0,9,21,163,49,2,0.10486039890245946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16771364623455634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07130866706996854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08755405306176538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11993236121540235,0.21382433052059466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10882853873883297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20514718251919928,0.09885305174872606,0.0,0.3181234103252321,0.2247368697840463,0.20136485450564656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08101488407457404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11918916241021743,0.0,0.08386644018203859,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21085714506592448,0.0,0.2103670597869867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057628532900447824,0.08547522063651034,0.23657419471892002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30737696520241553,0.0,0.0925936533624372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17829712260704125,0.0,0.0,0.06999513052173363,0.10631198599668536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10567461866464316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11938425916049444,0.0,0.0,0.07105612010476035,0.15950211711172882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07269699744342874,0.18312011133498465,0.0,0.0,0.0991269708390662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11305724551502301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1184624034338944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10370961578798958,0.0,0.148441460113344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07884196993698919,0.08428281659648265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12175100524029475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1222898837300286,0.0,0.0,0.10019860484497273,0.0,0.0,0.11405800258432347,0.0,0.0,0.12613414875927986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09428209184095758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10108168258990986,0.0,0.07633961928231385,0.0,0.0,0.14897963757696905,0.0,0.0,0.06752665890995946 schizophrenia,777swans,2019/01/07,"Is this happening because I'm off meds? So I've not been on an antipsychotic for probably over a week now because I ran out of my old one and then my NP wrote me a new script but just hasn't called it into the pharmacy yet I guess. Anyway. Lately I've just been getting so pissed off and irritated by everything. Even little things. I cut off communication with my friends because they were annoying me, I just feel pissed at everything and everyone, I recently exploded in anger and screamed at my brother because he was pushing my buttons, etc. I'm wondering if all of this could be happening because I'm not on an antipsychotic right now. Or am I just being a bitch? What do you guys think? 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To start, my uncle had psychosis and later dementia. Depression runs in my family, and the past few years I have had delusions that have gradually got worse and worse. I am 15. The main delusion is that God will kill me in my sleep if I do not follow a certain ritual every night, and although I know it’s only a delusion, I tremble in fear every night and carry out the ritual. The next one is not as severe as the first as I am not so concentrated on it, but I also often feel as if people from the government who are aware I am awoken are trying to kill me, and I often walk past people in the street and try to communicate with them through my mind to tell them I will hurt them and know they are onto me. My daily life is becoming a anxiety ridden mess, I am currently going through testing for ADHD and have had counselling for depression, anxiety and also a drug worker as I used pretty heavily about 1.5 years ago but have been clean for 7 month. I would just like to know if anyone thinks this may be signs of schizophrenia or psychosis? I haven’t heard voices but sometimes I see people in the corner of my eye but it’s nothing like a clear illusion so I just assume this is normal.",6.930176088971269,6.103040991967872,7.471164658634539,75.6131232622799,64.78313253012048,10.231819586036456,31.6036453506333,9.466822959209583,2.716719864071671,993,31,188,16,13,329,135,249,0.165,0.768,0.067,-0.974,1,0,1,0,0,2,19.0,0,0,4,2,9,13,2,3,13,0,28,4,2,1,2,43,40,28,2,5,13,0,1,2,0,5,2,2,1,0,8,12,0,0,6,0,0,5,4,9,0,2,6,5,30,4,29,28,3,28,2,3,2,0,7,10,0,10,15,143,38,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14585677954673856,0.0,0.10758248004826776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1941106066735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1856873201051819,0.0,0.0,0.08486101713230025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13403777130678396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.209062469209725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14074451631954754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.204509981157512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11441183396392254,0.2731380482064895,0.061365636768073314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10323274819867392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06897435344049728,0.0,0.09706643406055797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1299234169157905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26854410832500325,0.12638265451238387,0.20009658845586795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08572347378279607,0.11858531994360468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1225437455133655,0.0,0.09687214225425736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12907273077371126,0.22778509096717706,0.11891163366203115,0.11645269878806933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08223985877756325,0.09230332001417664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23171266957396802,0.2524169963608775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12347152696498025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09671194936597664,0.0,0.0,0.13710756110087013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1214523438734748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12003278737573808,0.0,0.08590255630660901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10607809344371373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07776559653962699,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16479732364146013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10482013019628716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2473619868735649,0.08621399773164415,0.0,0.0,0.15630976991955695 schizophrenia,violet708,2019/01/07,"everyone on here are so beautiful!! I know some of us were worried about posting selfies, so thanks to who did because looking at your pretty eyes and smiles is heartwarming. i hope everyone is coping and if you aren’t doing too well, getting help 💝",6.345673758865246,7.206185553191488,6.58808510638298,75.73333333333333,65.80851063829788,9.670921985815603,36.94326241134753,9.725611199111238,3.7853177304964536,199,10,34,4,3,64,41,47,0.035,0.5429999999999999,0.422,0.9756,1,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,1,2,0,0,6,4,0,0,0,0,7,1,1,0,0,6,12,5,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,2,2,5,4,5,10,1,3,0,0,2,0,5,2,0,3,0,27,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17021074134955452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5336159252052117,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14588162924900924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18715618300369335,0.0,0.0,0.2773297998353582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1534527499133854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2344756075900566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26741686629237904,0.2840684915469177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25706950153085273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3358689005415425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25105352387808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28356283136732313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,raabinnit1988,2019/01/07,"Hallucinations Unfortunately I don't really have many people to talk to about what I experience on a daily basis. Most of my friends don't want to know unless its about them and had to cut one out of my life for betraying me. I can't keep burdening my wife with it. She says she don't mind but I don't like putting it on her. I'm new here you all look like great people is it easier to talk to other people suffering.",1.7860227272727265,3.6257010113636414,4.2545454545454575,84.1518181818182,78.6590909090909,8.036363636363637,20.090909090909093,8.841846274778883,1.1897681818181822,331,8,73,8,8,116,60,88,0.16899999999999998,0.6940000000000001,0.13699999999999998,-0.0106,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,1,1,0,3,7,1,0,1,0,8,1,0,0,1,11,13,3,0,1,2,1,0,2,1,0,1,1,0,0,6,3,0,1,1,0,0,1,5,3,0,1,1,2,13,4,16,12,2,5,0,1,1,0,10,3,0,1,3,50,19,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2257797577170821,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1783258309786726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2544725465259097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20515752144198945,0.0,0.0,0.12684898750326531,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16303030359273735,0.22552749974917286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1938250923088685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2340085215502001,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2330556981983224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2229209833771653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15640510763599927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4800507694420976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2320311799596255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14786495005653255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1835520496887772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3710380747556442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.136139701117417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Kineke,2019/01/07,"Do people think you're eccentric/quirky? A lot of people in my life who aren't aware or don't understand my mental illness seem to think that my behavior is quirky and ""cute"". Or endearing. I suffer with my symptoms and it feels like other people trivialize them and think that it's just my personality. On one hand I'm grateful that it allows me to get a pass from people questioning things a lot but it also means that I'm scared to reveal why I act the way I do to anyone because I'm afraid they'll suddenly judge me. It's hard to open up and admit things, especially when it comes to getting help with issues or tough situations from people I don't know well. Does anyone mistake you for just having an odd personality instead of being mentally unwell? 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Here's a picture of me this xmas and a thingy I wrote about my experience as schizoaffective :) it's titled ""A Moment"", and I hope you all like it <3 [https://imgur.com/gallery/1dsuC4U](https://imgur.com/gallery/1dsuC4U) A moment. It screams at me to shut up. I haven’t been speaking. A mushroom cloud in the foam of the boiling water. It explodes with the omen, the warning; the modus operandi of my mind. Behind me the shadows move. It moves through my back, a radar of things not there. Falling asleep. Awareness dissipates, excruciatingly present until the moment of darkness. In the blue sky above me, an ephemeral point twinkles. “A year before the war, I thought of you.” My eyes split open to my living room. The lights illuminate me. I look inward, to no avail. Shutters get pulled from the sides and tops of my eyes, revealing a bigger picture, which stays the same. CLICK. *An angry click.* *It’s not talking to me…* CLICK CLICK*. I guess it was.* Click. The engines roar. Like beacons, they explode into my mind. “YOrR’Re EEEEEVIL….” Or was it “YOU’RE EVIL”? *Why?* Another car passes. “YOr’re FEyyralll…” *I’m not feral! I’m a human being! Stop saying these things… please….* CLICK CLICK. *Why not?* CLICK CLICK. *Okay, I’m sorry.* Click. *Correct.* In the bathroom, I look at the mirror. My face morphs into something evil. Something dark fills image in front of me, but I only feel fear. It’s horrible. I look away. Then look back again. Something else is there. Something I can’t place… I feel discomfort and look away once more. Watching TV. For a few moments, everything seems well. Everything is one. Hope flares, but it comes my turn to talk, and I falter. Condescension rains down. I am standing trial. I am in two places, two times, at once. I’m not guilty. Prisoner and convict of my own mind. *But, what have I done to deserve this?* *I’ve done nothing*. That’s the point. You’re not living. You’re asleep. I know some day I will wake up, I need to wake up. Someday, I will wake up and realize, this whole time I’ve been dreaming. Everyone will be there, I’ll tell them about my strange dream, we’ll all share our dreams with one another, and I’ll know I’m okay. *I’m not there anymore. Why did I ever leave here?* I’m in my living room. With tears in my eyes, I’ll think to myself, *it’s great to be here,* but my heart will break. Everything is heavy. Am I moving through the universe, or is the universe moving around me? *Am I the only one?* Click…click.",0.3211511412175838,2.210014608879497,1.0860044440609222,95.87306931440656,110.0993657505285,3.4528109763990167,18.357186003365406,5.5774198320480926,-0.22451570953962952,1942,64,383,18,98,593,235,473,0.084,0.8190000000000001,0.097,0.7948,0,0,4,0,0,0,147.0,2,2,2,1,15,17,3,2,31,2,27,12,10,0,4,55,56,17,1,4,13,0,2,3,0,5,0,3,2,1,20,17,2,1,9,4,0,11,10,7,1,5,10,28,50,10,52,37,9,61,0,1,22,0,14,31,0,7,19,228,70,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1664826664610105,0.0,0.0,0.07872786890017791,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07066883455740995,0.0,0.0,0.14916827772307606,0.12208321365313544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06755017048870185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06838252313275021,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05119628961685372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16247534845037254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06631537479776703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07180762092651448,0.0,0.0758550760179275,0.21403640100017896,0.07765305289896098,0.0,0.08932937871292458,0.08027814861839885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04147500684896963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08752144265063462,0.08745072798746101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09407074724844183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1576929926928819,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08725504213813279,0.0,0.0,0.08405648428377874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11634943968363512,0.0,0.2102933057436988,0.0,0.399976781755608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24046646134605265,0.0,0.0,0.3374916816675324,0.0,0.05886243350805221,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07617135218244868,0.0,0.0,0.16908332258278105,0.1613785162106281,0.12075063557272285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16587934109324945,0.0,0.15008759692928028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0631295611631217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07226846184449312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24445557083820724,0.0,0.08886419577611578,0.0,0.08461307397432702,0.0,0.06636880789499916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12761214529529458,0.06938535472886466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0527393844327506,0.05086623756550507,0.0,0.06302224647303141,0.09257921745434618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08634729465418221,0.15509380198104558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07137599625054945,0.0,0.2148958803254156,0.0886297072636492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051120869924054985 schizophrenia,LilPizzza,2019/01/07,Nightmares about psychosis Does anyone have frequent nightmares about being in psychosis? This happens to me at least twice a week,6.517142857142857,10.491668333333337,3.4352380952380983,82.90142857142861,79.95238095238095,2.8000000000000003,35.57142857142857,3.1291,1.9768285714285716,109,6,13,0,3,29,18,21,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,5,2,1,4,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,2,12,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4271079286084097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5345431890825942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5401567097450738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4899725760107597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,soundandvisions,2019/01/07,"Hey guys. Hi everybody. I hope everyone has been well. I'll keep it short. They did end up changing my diagnosis to personality disorder and GAD. Which feels really invalidating. I had schizophrenia diagnosed for nearly three years, and as shitty a diagnosis as it can be, it really made my symptoms make sense. Now I'm left thinking, did I make everything up?! Did none of that happen? What's going on? I've decided to stop taking my medication. For several reasons. Some are rational, some are impulsive. Either way I need to do it. I have a lot of support and I'm hoping to work through things rather than numb them out. My girlfriend is a little freaked out by my decision but I told her if things get too miserable or in the way of our relationship, I'll trust her when she tells me to go back on them. I just finished an album if anybody cares to listen. It's called [Swimming in the Aftermath](https://soundcloud.com/user-598770546/sets/swimming-in-the-aftermath). It's about my recovery after my last hospital stay (which [also has an album](https://soundcloud.com/user-598770546/sets/hospital-again) if you're into it). I just started another new album yesterday that I'm calling [A Respite from Health](https://soundcloud.com/user-598770546/sets/a-respite-from-health). One of the benefits of not being on medication is I feel much more creative. &#x200B; Anyways, that's the short update. I'm feeling pretty lame but still working and school is about to start. I'm two terms away from my associates degree in economics, today is my first day of term. Wish me luck! Glad to still see some familiar faces around here and to see all these new ones.",4.830184604667362,7.700240656565661,5.051275978172535,77.08848484848488,73.41077441077442,8.540996168582376,29.096598165563684,9.223106411051027,2.933587576918612,1333,56,227,33,29,419,184,297,0.057,0.8,0.14300000000000002,0.9803,0,0,0,0,0,0,83.0,1,0,3,3,16,13,0,1,10,0,18,6,1,4,1,42,48,15,0,8,11,0,3,0,1,0,5,1,0,2,16,9,0,2,7,1,0,3,2,4,1,5,7,6,27,9,41,39,11,46,0,2,2,0,18,18,0,11,22,151,43,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08673682800350596,0.0,0.117518268552852,0.13179290666331173,0.0,0.113731609322404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09655395908780984,0.0,0.0,0.10190339118138708,0.0834003963005585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22150316159500846,0.0,0.11058399000753613,0.0,0.11473815754470325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06994886054187859,0.0,0.0,0.11008640040114234,0.0,0.0,0.12430657037528316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09606492367625707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10363985697949664,0.09747843366835512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16452456997254786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0922575152206768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056666791514848165,0.0,0.12328263217649688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10739419190771107,0.09591237364375774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2305795518915653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2154539955308533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09640579326808034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08841080827188103,0.0,0.0,0.11784401649395182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10870717458627976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09221030729639278,0.0,0.10262913710712407,0.14479813022860955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21852761913804067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07973187127203915,0.08042301860982749,0.0,0.20950608183919744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1469929873089403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09470462277489247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11034459972303826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13896675789949892,0.11151675062623594,0.0,0.11644733649532198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10976908872861184,0.17285995570865811,0.0,0.0,0.12253091316323098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15353957991508416,0.11560580182165132,0.1732353987251245,0.09067888557005407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12308111667931243,0.0,0.11273329493978625,0.08154974314157137,0.0,0.0948003563910692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1441143440026389,0.06949791448535522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1028090636740263,0.10363985697949664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10595137662193532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17218378868652087,0.0,0.0,0.09752014540764208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12472566796696805,0.0,0.0,0.1579229019511681,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13179290666331173,0.06984581554363414 schizophrenia,actual_diabetes,2019/01/07,Hi everyone im 14 and I was diagnosed only a year ago and people at school are starting to see that something is off should I just tell them or is there some way I can seem normal or does all this hopefully just normalize with time thank you for any input and much love to everyone on this sub🙂,2.6224193548387085,4.0996570483870975,4.091161290322585,87.81674193548392,75.29032258064517,8.185806451612903,23.690322580645162,8.841846274778883,1.53328,235,7,51,5,5,78,51,62,0.0,0.8440000000000001,0.156,0.8697,0,0,1,0,0,0,0.0,0,1,1,0,3,3,0,0,1,0,6,2,0,0,1,15,12,5,0,4,4,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,3,4,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,5,3,7,10,3,8,0,0,1,1,5,3,0,5,4,33,8,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19037176384904744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1460441504152282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2179768584136286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18793790520169396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4104247272780124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2133051171958932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2319776307331892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1938292661842857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15787329544784165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4208383638721877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1633346417775282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1488875289022879,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21734856462562085,0.17113589850150687,0.19550941941128336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16533272435378948,0.0,0.0,0.1520082187721846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18770968791167048,0.19772213510441972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12522827103334427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17046647538152426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13829838554137314 schizophrenia,lunakat34,2019/01/07,"I am having nightmares that induce psychosis in the mornings Been stable for a few months, now this. It just never ends this carousel of madness. 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For the past several months, colors have been unbearably bright and my depth perception has changed. I assumed this was due to depersonalization, but recently things have gotten a lot worse. I constantly am seeing bugs and shadowy figures out of the corner of my eyes. My anxiety rises dramatically, and then when I look again, they are gone. My thoughts have become completely disorganized and my paranoia is worse than ever. I constantly think people are following me, spying on me, or have some type of malicious intentions. My sleeping pattern has become even more screwed up to. I either sleep excessively or can't get any sleep at all. I am seeing patterns in walls, things that look like faces, and see strange patterns everywhere. Sorry for the random, incoherent post, but do you think it might be possible I have schizophrenia? I am very worried about it.....",7.4086050724637635,10.131905983695653,7.086391304347831,66.1049855072464,65.25,10.34144927536232,35.09275362318841,10.504223727775694,4.50859536231884,887,42,127,25,15,279,122,184,0.159,0.7879999999999999,0.054000000000000006,-0.9569,1,0,0,0,0,0,31.0,0,1,1,0,5,6,1,0,4,0,22,8,5,1,2,32,34,14,0,0,6,0,0,2,0,1,2,0,0,0,7,11,0,0,6,0,0,3,1,2,0,0,6,8,20,4,18,26,7,24,0,1,8,1,3,8,1,9,14,95,27,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08305344263734503,0.0,0.1868601542248216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.404653133086572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12919867559625078,0.0,0.12805229903962642,0.2639610012079847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10519147246301673,0.12396065474072755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08066654322449973,0.11047471386094897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06380854086100167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12747330133206666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11933432590286712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2051189922245804,0.0,0.0,0.10383162701889856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1295619631507177,0.0,0.0,0.09748400392372424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11658810399092105,0.08467043565897482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13768464140736444,0.1169679837521706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2411797639974908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29196839768606064,0.0,0.0,0.13797355682760365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3666583753964723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1367159428787702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12694113896806494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16227716025777314,0.156513555740357,0.0,0.09695857565184336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10077107742423637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1240302196041319,0.24892436915116384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Zeond1987,2019/01/07,What drugs allow you to focus when you have Schizophrenia? I am taking my current medications and it is hard to focus when I have this disorder. Are there specific medications that I can take that help me focus? ,5.600769230769231,7.553371128205129,6.423589743589744,72.16307692307696,68.48717948717949,9.302564102564103,28.384615384615394,9.725611199111238,2.9309076923076933,170,6,28,4,3,56,29,39,0.109,0.7709999999999999,0.12,0.1116,1,0,1,0,0,0,3.0,0,2,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,6,3,0,1,0,2,8,3,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,5,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,7,0,2,8,0,3,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,3,24,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3583137632014294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3625643953897124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2800649983763417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20955672548052004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6299059924218563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4701343664288966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Z-Wake,2019/01/07,"I think I have schizophrenia but I'm not sure. Maybe someone here can help. Hi. I'm a 15 year old male and I think I may be schizophrenic for multiple reasons. For the past year or so I've been very depressed, anxious and paranoid of everything. I try to get a healthy amount of sleep because I thought I was sleep deprived. I wasn't. Recently stuff has been getting... weird I guess. I started getting sleep paralysis almost daily and it terrified me. Then through out the day I would have auditory hallucinations. (Hearing people call out my name from all around me and someone whispering in gibberish) a couple of days ago while I was showering I had my eyes closed and I thought I heard the mirror shatter. When I opened my eyes it was normal. Naturally I was sorta freakes out but then I started hearing clawing noises from behind the freaking mirror. I feel like someones inside my mirror. Am I schizophrenic? Or just a crazy hormonal teen?",2.5473937747035578,5.489084426136365,3.4182114624505964,84.18508893280634,85.42045454545455,6.242687747035574,29.24308300395257,7.586124646067393,2.31006847826087,753,38,131,14,23,239,110,176,0.17800000000000002,0.764,0.058,-0.9693,1,0,0,0,0,0,22.0,0,0,0,0,5,7,0,0,8,0,16,7,5,1,2,32,32,14,0,2,6,0,1,1,0,2,2,4,1,1,3,11,0,0,6,0,0,0,2,5,0,0,11,7,26,2,15,18,2,21,0,2,2,0,8,7,0,6,15,86,29,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12113026891880925,0.0,0.13683330303459235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15437342343752636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12164575310865194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08329939496930562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13953295733667176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15119849003833566,0.0,0.1762534006911202,0.0,0.117694782202653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12281047393048755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06909336985683641,0.09762140829926344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21417892943589192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1505332546172451,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3080246116685396,0.0,0.09159232070410757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06675934449618201,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13728135276538647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13388609517641148,0.0,0.0,0.1433891624735955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13044604458271114,0.09473456593537444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14049697435836045,0.13492348348556366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4102402659135551,0.0,0.34734439805833417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19344041411880888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15642934704547629,0.0,0.0,0.12878918853142093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17511713091667686,0.0,0.21696660721305566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09277506951333536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11274896844838833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0970708680922235,0.0,0.0,0.17599375341132045 schizophrenia,Str8Face88,2019/01/08,"Too afraid Hi. Hi? Idk. Im going crazier daily. Im on year 2 i think going on year 3 without meds or therapy or any type of treatment. Ive been on medd since 2010. Felt obligated/forced to get a diagnosis in early adulthood. My paranoia and dilusions are crazier and crazier every day especially with my new job. I just wash dishes for a cafe in not my home state. Clear across the country. Shit. Everything and everyone seems real ""loony"". Well the way i see things. Vision. Eyeballs. You know, peripheral sight. Oh god i cant even finish Im a paranoid schizophrenic.",0.6673201352003844,3.0466765045871576,2.7776436504104325,85.36623370352487,100.46788990825688,5.230516658619027,23.16803476581361,6.8360192770164,1.3352091743119274,445,19,81,8,19,149,84,109,0.118,0.797,0.085,-0.128,1,0,0,0,0,0,21.0,0,1,0,0,4,3,1,1,5,0,4,4,1,0,1,15,12,5,0,0,5,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,1,4,1,0,4,0,0,2,3,2,1,0,2,3,9,1,11,10,0,16,0,0,2,0,3,6,1,3,6,39,10,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12044771279977776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11422778430523907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1169861275140755,0.0,0.14923128756201112,0.16924580524641994,0.15918408690610505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17006303132596087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0925379196785153,0.0,0.2013228208114684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1776658591507159,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5739601681357847,0.0,0.1757643269870766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0973405515076436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19674045501429746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1710636552302078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20160140194071047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14114175400956064,0.16124344817610786,0.0,0.0,0.1818111937313844,0.14651554186512272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20255222190757832,0.0,0.1176706959519998,0.11349138104607505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14058965737667292,0.0,0.0,0.15925220294861608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1707374148777947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2281190198306406 schizophrenia,GeoWolf1447,2019/01/08,"In a Paranoid Frenzy Right Now So I saw some news that the big teleco companies (ATT, Verizon, T-Mobile) were caught selling the active location data of their customers to all sorts or bad guys. It really set me off. I've spent the last two hours freaking out over whether or not I should close all my online accounts, get a burner phone, and hide. They all know me and where I've been. My voices are yelling at me that they were right. That I am being watched. That they were always right. That I was stupid not to listen. That I'm a freak for believing I was okay. They keep calling me names and yelling at me to hide and close everything. Yelling at me to watch the window. Yelling at me that I'm stupid and deserve to be scared. Yelling for me to end it all, to just clean house by ending it. Yelling ate that I'm the dumbest person ever. They won't stop or be quiet. I've been watching my window nervously and keep looking out for police or gangs coming to get me. 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Hi my name is Martin. I recently had a psychotic meltdown in July 2018 and began hearing voices. I have since been diagnosed schizoaffective, very horrifying. Sometimes I hear the voices more than other times, but when I do, it feels like someone is talking to me in my head, almost like a signal is being beemed into my scull. I began researching technology that might make this possible and began becoming paranoid so I have stopped and am trying to focus on how this is an actual disease. I guess what I’m getting at is... does it feel this way for other people that have auditory hallucinations? I haven’t had these voices that long, but this sh*t is horrifying. 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I've seen all your faces, and you're all young, good looking and great people. But I think you're human most of all, and that feels really great. Seeing your faces just made me realise that we're all human. We're all normal people with normal faces. We live among each other. We're not weird at all. I've been feeling weird and ashamed a lot. I don't really talk about our mental illness and seeing your faces made me feel less alone. I kinda want to post my own face too and share the love, but I'm really shy. Plus I don't really post, so I don't want to come across as an attention seeker. Still appreciate seeing your faces though! Stay great and strong everyone <3",2.2986088379705407,4.323477617021279,3.2017021276595763,91.42615384615387,77.79432624113475,6.3242771412984204,16.519912711402075,7.321109707123232,-0.05521102018548785,548,8,116,7,13,174,81,141,0.073,0.7120000000000001,0.21600000000000005,0.9687,0,1,0,0,0,0,19.0,2,4,0,1,7,10,0,1,3,0,4,8,6,2,7,37,20,14,0,4,4,0,3,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,3,12,0,0,5,0,0,1,4,3,0,0,4,8,14,7,10,16,12,9,0,0,5,1,11,3,0,3,2,62,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14331412377149755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11919727388641113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13222264779892454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20989872915449254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11606186288941625,0.0,0.4576747197661622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12218711064789348,0.0,0.11619962679298272,0.0,0.0,0.11764094760854,0.1248882783733864,0.2618663638701734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13944882672367684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2711550209734595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19186274108055248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2650488072571788,0.14077648861073766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35458467854001274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3307993909147124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14748867533463,0.11050595677910806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11122008326942498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08866471391961514,0.13595212352813452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1632335862514974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,krystiannajt,2019/01/08,"Things I noticed from our selfies 1.) We're pretty diverse. It's nice. I don't know why, but when people think of schizophrenia I think they associate it with crazy white guys. 2.) It's nice to see that there are a lot of ladies here. I know symptoms are a little different for us and we can be misdiagnosed. 3.) A lot of us are young. 4.) None of us ""look"" crazy. Just some observations. What did you guys notice? I think I feel more comfortable posting in here now because it's more personal. 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I am searching for a pen pal (via email) to share experiences & discuss with. Preferably in a place that's far away from where I am - I'm also interested in hearing what life is like in other places. If this interests you feel free to shoot me a message!,3.0475862068965505,4.965218931034482,4.192620689655172,85.66444827586207,75.20689655172414,6.708965517241379,27.11724137931035,7.554174236665415,1.4845200000000005,230,9,46,3,5,75,45,58,0.04,0.738,0.222,0.8702,0,0,0,1,0,1,9.0,0,1,0,0,3,5,0,0,4,0,3,1,0,0,0,4,6,2,0,2,1,0,1,1,2,0,1,1,0,0,4,1,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,4,6,10,6,0,8,0,0,0,0,9,8,0,1,1,29,8,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24938392977851095,0.0,0.3378860895315657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2929905178172293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3050462005225075,0.0,0.0,0.1576792109698975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3514742284812641,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22026675546048224,0.15235269008932273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6516274744730589,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,gioraffe,2019/01/08,"You guys all look like such amazing really cool people! I wish we could all hangout, although who knows how that would go down haha Stay safe and stay cute everybody ❤",2.293125,5.122662062500002,2.64875,90.32125,84.625,5.7,20.5,7.1686216300943375,0.7385374999999996,134,4,25,2,4,41,30,32,0.0,0.522,0.478,0.964,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,1,1,0,0,2,6,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,1,2,10,6,3,0,3,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,2,0,1,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,3,6,1,4,2,4,0,0,1,0,4,1,0,0,1,14,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24699677324599065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17581498368690945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3063125399738617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.170014779312254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15113643732360504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2597823675433063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21446952325437368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19818232172512776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6594678196775424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3557458320253473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2197586762135944,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,lanasoul,2019/01/08,"Do any of you not work? I’m currently on sick-leave from an internship I had, that I don’t even think I’m gonna get back to. I’ve gone for years before that without working or going to school, simply because I’m too sick and I can’t have a normal work life. Do the rest of you work normal full time jobs?",0.7216666666666676,2.168032147058824,2.712352941176473,95.8022549019608,80.47058823529412,5.7098039215686285,18.686274509803926,6.42735559955562,-0.2463901960784312,238,5,58,2,6,80,49,68,0.062,0.938,0.0,-0.5661,2,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,2,0,4,3,0,0,0,3,0,6,2,0,0,0,7,14,2,0,2,3,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,0,2,4,0,0,0,2,0,5,0,8,11,2,8,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,1,4,32,7,6,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1476065311489193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1669038056922527,0.0,0.1323162265255131,0.0,0.1846999303566461,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14336441990893242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11340357575895925,0.0,0.12335876925489922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2153960586151922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22983253307754625,0.0,0.0,0.15331411886626747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4253404938776866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21967376018395712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1390816702294596,0.0,0.0,0.1265679634306068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20923566717567152,0.0,0.6320817288835334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13977790206056334 schizophrenia,revakk,2019/01/08,"Question regarding seeing things (or the lack of) My SO has schizophrenia. She’s been living with me for 4 months now, and I’ve seen more of her symptoms. Recently she will talk to something in the corner of the room and is completely unaware of my existence. No matter what I do, she won’t acknowledge me. And sometimes she mentions me doing something I’m not (the other night, she told the thing she was talking to that I was sleeping. I was not. I was sitting on the floor beside her.) Today she saw the tv on, when it was not. And for the past 10 minutes, she has not been responding to me, but has been having a conversation with a different me? She’s looking in an opposite direction and having a conversation with what I guess is me. And I feel bad because it sounds like what shes hearing is saying mean things to her, and I worry she won’t understand that I never said that when she comes back to. So my question is, how do I get her to notice me and speak to me? Or do I have to wait for it to run its course? I apologize if this is not the right place to put this post, but I don’t know where else to ask. 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I know it might not seem interesting to say no as its what people expect, but its still interesting as to what happened before being diagnosed!",10.783076923076923,10.7242658974359,9.261153846153846,63.39634615384618,56.69230769230769,11.902564102564106,34.884615384615394,11.20814326018867,4.1015538461538465,186,6,27,4,2,57,32,39,0.191,0.768,0.041,-0.6659999999999999,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,3,2,1,4,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,0,8,7,3,0,1,2,0,1,1,0,1,1,1,0,0,5,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,2,1,0,1,2,2,4,3,4,3,0,2,0,1,0,0,4,0,0,2,3,21,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19130205271035305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.465613683540806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2776903604146978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2626914515009229,0.0,0.0,0.2327174161317057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2419367106955372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15035913782127086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.133663346805979,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3060797298408386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2902381269170395,0.2762501659268822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18967440793038365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2175715272131845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2490680962002209,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2184911130406282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,GoofCob,2019/01/08,"Confused and not sure what to do anymore I am also completely lost as to what I should do. I was diagnosed with paranoid schizophrenia 2 and half years ago and I constantly feel alone and depressed, let alone I am locked in an argument with my family half of the time, but at the same time I would be homeless and probably dead without their help. I have also been blacking out for up to 2 minutes at a time for the last several weeks and during the blackouts I have no memory of what I did during that time. I have been fighting to get disability for the last couple of years as well and it is draining me and my family emotionally and financially. I have jumped around between jobs and unfortunately have not been able to hold a job for longer than a year because of my mental illness and I am struggling to find a job now because of that. I have recently started asking for help with getting a car so that I can at least get to my doctors appointments and find a part time job while I wait for disability, but apparently a little help is to much to ask for. Honestly, I want to give up and turn a gun on myself and just end it all. The way I see it, I don't have anything to look forward to and I am losing my will to even try anymore.",6.592064615384616,5.639115148000003,7.2972,76.99736923076924,65.52000000000001,10.572307692307692,34.43076923076923,9.851270322608157,3.1021046153846155,977,38,199,18,13,326,131,250,0.198,0.7709999999999999,0.032,-0.9897,5,2,0,1,2,0,13.0,0,0,1,2,8,9,1,2,15,0,27,3,0,0,2,38,41,23,1,3,6,0,1,0,0,3,3,0,0,0,9,20,0,2,3,0,0,3,5,6,1,2,6,4,27,3,42,30,5,32,0,3,3,0,8,11,0,1,19,155,36,5,0.10369396968649876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09191844759096572,0.0,0.0,0.21479136026038564,0.0,0.16584806018938736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20567310905633288,0.0,0.0,0.08533130175317143,0.09230961741920896,0.1938797279997984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12642176293651938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1087211543559619,0.11205634327348846,0.0,0.0,0.11473540516728616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08931146414671916,0.10524719649088196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10613517186384594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11664175907055604,0.09184207914142764,0.0,0.0,0.06848888901681288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1955068921869202,0.0,0.052430786728672435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1895488194376133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16252745805128116,0.09947270442018703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.208511646317367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4116010586873841,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16904885028853753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10603410948583514,0.0,0.0,0.10392859900914768,0.0,0.0,0.08707681854305037,0.11600702818897618,0.11319421712576855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10449913236203426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07622699890064652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11229046426689916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11179963753693938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10238528533170392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08263066853662658,0.0,0.0,0.1171446704307351,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07339512545403679,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10840345149092297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.097730339261801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30232393804506164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07040139876619657,0.1127892625459394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06116138993921182,0.08230744658014412,0.08317704775867803,0.0,0.09323333189329154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09995728644984736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07366122093995517,0.0,0.0,0.20032655021329449 schizophrenia,AtomiicDonkey,2019/01/08,"What type of music do people with schizophrenia listen to? My brother with sever schizophrenia recently passed and I was wondering if there are any songs that you guys really like, or that bring you peace/ease of mind. Sorry if I sound ignorant I just don’t know much about the subject. ",5.723490566037736,7.593468849056606,5.1624056603773605,81.65040094339625,68.0566037735849,8.318867924528304,26.45754716981132,8.841846274778883,2.045871698113208,231,7,40,4,4,70,44,53,0.066,0.879,0.055,0.101,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,2,0,0,3,2,0,0,1,0,4,0,0,0,0,11,8,4,0,2,4,1,0,1,0,0,0,3,0,1,3,3,0,1,2,1,0,2,1,1,0,0,1,3,6,1,6,7,1,3,0,0,0,0,5,0,0,4,2,27,9,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2252456105971385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3279666486765055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1820336098589815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16182070393252326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3344446879416668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24348984008621846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.229630986674548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2121923963304457,0.0,0.3270465466585093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3741920511302003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3707813313237092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3592013806146282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Phoenix_franklin,2019/01/08,"I'm always paranoid and can't determine what is real and what is a delusion. A year ago I believed that the government was spying on me and that they sent an assassin like Sam Fisher from Splinter Cell: Conviction to kill me, because I knew too much and I thought they were talking to me using popular TV channels. I was always afraid and grabbed a knife everywhere I went to protect myself. (this is just one example). The doctor told my that I suffer from schizophrenia but I never believed him untill a few months ago after taking some antipsychotics. now I know that the above is a delusion but how can determine what is a real threat and what's not?",4.52664,6.433510184000004,5.144200000000001,80.44510000000002,71.16,7.88,30.1,8.548686976883017,2.5103600000000004,523,22,91,9,10,168,81,125,0.095,0.858,0.046,-0.775,0,0,0,0,0,1,10.0,0,0,2,0,4,6,2,1,10,0,10,1,0,2,1,19,19,10,1,0,4,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,9,6,0,1,3,2,0,2,3,4,0,1,8,1,16,2,8,11,3,11,0,1,0,0,7,1,0,1,9,71,25,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3452929852558692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32411842161727744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11872629779365147,0.0,0.0,0.4388645589078348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19934915837892175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2154774569121604,0.0,0.10703717485170924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0951518293510211,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15545872883808062,0.0,0.1431739150155482,0.0,0.15021396709020762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1319770948373073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4433680347122973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14643825370978925,0.15654388760193735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1546208230488795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1861053031701476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16821352163542933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18054813535071984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12542159991098598 schizophrenia,phauxtoe,2019/01/08,"This community is god damn fantastic Long time lurker, very rare poster... haven't shared my own image for personal reasons... but I'm pretty sure I went through and upvoted every selfie posted in the last few days... Gotta say, the support here is incredible. I love all of you beautiful people. Keep strong! :D",3.5647368421052654,6.35778924561404,4.67640350877193,78.45565789473683,77.59649122807018,8.010526315789475,25.28947368421053,8.841846274778883,2.3886631578947366,245,9,42,6,6,80,53,57,0.042,0.51,0.449,0.9889,0,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,1,0,1,1,6,1,0,2,0,3,1,0,1,2,6,9,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,1,1,1,0,1,1,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,1,1,4,5,4,7,3,7,0,0,0,1,5,1,1,0,4,20,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17805444707939355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2326167364219913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2454004265776616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2250492354091645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24432991554754654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2491809370906871,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1914052232840608,0.2410701062664252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26441676924095897,0.2808815831977657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2838652869971653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21955690913124376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31330231838628225,0.2602104431897209,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1609896097768187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2278021888613828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25593709990971786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Starscarredceiling,2019/01/08,"First day back at uni and Already wanting to quit. Idk why, i got through my first 2 years with top marks but now im just too lazy. At the same time this is all i can do because no one is hiring. I couldnt find a job for 6 months while i learned how to cope with schizophrenia. Im recently diagnosed and was doing great in school until something changed in me. Which led me to sitting at the hospital to get diagnosed. I have a couple withdrawals now from classes and im not sure if i can do it again. Just writing letters into the void lol",1.8929203539822976,3.643302407079649,3.0187699115044246,93.54603097345137,78.02654867256638,5.935929203539826,26.344247787610627,6.742157984588678,0.9303776991150444,424,17,94,4,10,136,83,113,0.086,0.818,0.096,0.4691,1,0,1,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,4,8,2,0,0,5,1,10,2,0,2,2,21,13,8,0,3,5,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,3,6,0,0,2,0,0,1,3,0,0,3,2,0,9,2,16,10,2,22,0,0,0,0,2,7,0,1,13,64,12,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1891737826399903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.131816659737686,0.0,0.10450021158803174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18134686815508425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1896805397760585,0.0,0.11055613112267564,0.0,0.0,0.3479892716847165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15668102767589484,0.2916311679925891,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08956344941839457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13710570546604794,0.1889986981897213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5555112181643044,0.0,0.17011468881464453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13683126955597325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1161632645131617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1823335475196416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16926332511335934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17349311586614602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13197275791623206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16156776957075886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09996036998692956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10111199276464887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15468606091562248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11039326561994704 schizophrenia,Syn13x,2019/01/08,"I'm really happy we all decided to show our faces It's just so wholesome, it makes this subreddit feel like a real, breathing community now. Not even to mention anyone coming in here can see now that schizophrenia can affect anyone, and that we're all still humans. I love all you guys <3",3.7669642857142884,6.021854625000002,4.792285714285715,80.65271428571431,74.17857142857143,7.337142857142857,23.7,8.238735603445708,1.606925714285714,233,7,41,4,5,76,46,56,0.0,0.818,0.182,0.8932,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,2,1,0,0,7,3,0,0,1,0,2,3,2,2,3,13,8,2,0,0,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,5,3,0,0,2,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,2,4,3,3,8,3,5,0,0,1,1,7,1,0,0,4,27,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4317528820859552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26595002189086386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20391820937521848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15610695835962893,0.2205621342823185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3056986682353963,0.0,0.32865681356524823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1508335493401969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2786476509434745,0.0,0.20608468105938207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3514108703729603,0.19778515050131532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2460238180141852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2465581692118304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,redshift1989,2019/01/08,"little radioplay i did about a schizophrenic alexa i am schizophrenic [https://soundcloud.com/gremble\_tones/smarthome](https://soundcloud.com/gremble_tones/smarthome) hope you like - warning the humour skews a little dark so a sincere \*trigger warning\*",20.34555555555556,27.501056148148145,11.427111111111113,22.75400000000002,61.5925925925926,8.085925925925926,35.02962962962963,8.238735603445708,4.799731851851852,224,8,16,4,5,57,22,27,0.077,0.547,0.375,0.8505,0,0,0,0,0,0,22.0,0,1,0,0,2,4,0,0,4,0,2,2,0,1,0,2,3,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,3,4,1,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,1,11,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.43375607507985214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2133566640389748,0.8754053925133669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,iamgonnapissyouoff,2019/01/08,"Zyprexa dosage A buddy of mine takes 30mg of zyprexa nightly. Since starting, she has gained 65 lbs despite being on 90 mg of adderall every day. She also sleeps up to 18 hours a day. Is this a normal dosage or is her psychiatrist an ass? Also wanted to say that she has no choice of her treatment. She has to take her meds anyway even if she doesn’t want to. Does any one else take this dosage? Or has experience? I want to help her. 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How do I go about suing the company? I was in the psychiatric hospital and was forced to tell people everything about my history. I was tortured and forced to commit crimes and then forced to tell people about them. I wasn't arrested but I hear a voice and it forces me to do nothing at all, basically I'm just a vegetable. I can play some games but that is it. If I try to do something I want to do then I just hear the voice nonstop to where I can't focus. I'm being monitored day and night because they are building a brain computer interface in my body. I don't know all the details but at first they said it would take a month but now it's been 8 years and they continue to lie to me. I have wanted to die for a long time now because they won't leave me the fuck alone. They forced me to get fired or quit all of my jobs. I'm on disability now and I want to work. They threatened me and my family and I don't understand why they continue to fuck with me when they clearly need to screw off. If you don't believe any of this then fine. But to the people that did this to me, I can't wait any longer as this is just a waste of all of our time. How do you break a contract with people who routinely fuck with other peoples lives?",2.820491551459291,3.9531447921146965,4.267414234511012,88.13064516129036,74.19713261648745,7.894930875576037,25.4720942140297,8.418075326091056,1.4444717869943668,1043,34,233,18,21,347,135,279,0.188,0.75,0.062,-0.9908,1,1,1,0,0,0,18.0,1,2,9,3,13,7,5,0,14,0,26,8,2,3,6,42,45,25,1,7,11,0,1,0,0,2,1,5,0,0,12,13,1,1,2,2,0,2,7,5,0,1,8,6,40,2,36,34,5,27,0,0,0,4,20,7,4,4,17,165,52,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13170591172098314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1729548582750642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2325581465950495,0.0,0.0,0.14327284732829346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14125306626010192,0.0,0.141959621643477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08201172851836704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1319785186517966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1142888501181307,0.0,0.11988104853006648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10816757032843097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35268952211428123,0.06643913118413496,0.0,0.07227152581731695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2866512728841595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12619290793173935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06988726020230479,0.0,0.0,0.13465072607567016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11229015246321457,0.11253815353382401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12815369747748445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10150290913487232,0.0,0.0,0.09429218314296813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11933693656756038,0.0,0.12201947255973453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4408054240276964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13525698888991405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12096425029546155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09789881288479964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09561321433199002,0.0,0.222297862511543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1483033576286599,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08633755472933258,0.0,0.0,0.13238457920861052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22501789497402191,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11474778562313165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09257856426337192,0.0,0.0,0.09033527466483353,0.0,0.0,0.08189091313473204 schizophrenia,chipandele,2019/01/08,How are you guys? I've had bad bad thoughts even though I'm fine. they tell me to hurt myself,-1.557142857142857,0.4119237619047631,-0.4980952380952371,111.10142857142858,97.09523809523807,2.8000000000000003,11.761904761904766,3.1291,-2.2012666666666667,73,1,20,0,3,22,19,21,0.382,0.551,0.066,-0.8625,0,0,0,0,0,2,2.0,0,1,1,0,3,4,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,2,4,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,2,0,4,1,1,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,4,0,0,0,0,10,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6013744233862187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2378574883695717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3565778536756358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3855185415551436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3147629029944369,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3538184884122797,0.285897007093198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,PurpleJollyBastard,2019/01/08,"Lets not do this again I appreciate everyone being open about their diagnosis and loved all the pictures. However, There are people that come to this sub for information/to get help about schizophrenia. &#x200B; If you guys want to post selfies then please make a selfie thread and other people can join.",7.411981132075473,9.701339962264154,6.27561320754717,73.66926886792454,64.47169811320754,9.073584905660377,30.23113207547169,9.516144504307137,2.9620981132075475,250,9,39,5,4,75,47,53,0.0,0.745,0.255,0.9201,1,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,1,1,0,4,1,0,0,2,0,5,1,0,1,1,9,10,4,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,4,4,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,5,8,1,5,0,0,0,1,5,1,0,1,2,27,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2877024815624755,0.32264895293546514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2287312492019265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25372603263271626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1387288694920922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26291721191713696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17797967996531572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.271523205609897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2396518896081835,0.0,0.17724385282974994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3681712090536626,0.0,0.0,0.2914730513133573,0.0,0.0,0.2543050810087637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1566169295557686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32264895293546514,0.0 schizophrenia,CryptoKapitalist,2019/01/08,"Have anyone kill someone? Because you are schizophrenic? Yeah, I am crazy and ready! 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TW: stillbirth I was covering the front desk for our receptionist while she had a meeting and last time I covered front desk for her was the day my daughter died. All of the sudden I started thinking all our clients that are coming in and out are out to get me and they’re trying to kill me. I ran to the bathroom and hid in there, then people started coming in the bathroom and I could see their feet and I felt as though they’re trying to come in. So I ran out of there and went to my manager’s office and told her I think people are trying to kill me, so we called my social worker and she told me to just hold on until we can see my psychiatrist later on today. I feel like I shouldn’t trust my psychiatrist and I don’t wanna see him. I don’t wanna be at work anymore I just wanna go home and hide in my bed. This month was supposed to be the month my daughter was supposed to be born, instead she died before her due date and I gave birth to a dead baby. I just wanna punch a wall, cry, scream and hide in bed.",3.1063392857142844,3.977764098214287,4.409285714285716,88.3857142857143,73.19642857142857,6.492857142857144,23.82142857142857,6.322622252153567,0.5438803571428572,834,22,180,5,16,276,113,224,0.163,0.805,0.032,-0.9834,0,0,0,0,0,2,15.0,4,0,1,2,9,5,2,0,10,0,16,2,1,0,2,38,37,20,5,6,3,2,3,1,0,1,1,1,3,0,2,21,0,1,5,0,0,9,4,3,0,0,12,7,38,2,34,20,2,42,0,0,3,0,20,13,0,0,21,127,40,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12902516630553587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11070631153909416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1328475986804432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3362113013924849,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10387500853736437,0.0,0.1429097657572176,0.08390433875984167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2700484561912978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13156588157266927,0.09294413248239676,0.12491729816599915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06797236773926511,0.0,0.07393935836273417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13050184351300834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28787481246595026,0.0,0.0,0.10604962468022064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06356074417887621,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3115359702943376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18039121132052405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3110207979679756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13262151712789805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1841722199109467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13522468407441682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1667268491554801,0.1278235060476969,0.0,0.07586290023694768,0.0,0.24664094423448546,0.24863403354006056,0.0,0.26498998023498305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12060486825392888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09471502866951642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,ewica,2019/01/08,"I can’t say I’m surprised by how good looking the community is You are literally all beautiful and as a lurker mainly it was amazing to put a face to your beautiful personalities. Made my day yesterday, that’s all I’m gonna say :)",1.7091489361702124,4.070604170212771,5.1483404255319165,74.89400000000002,81.76595744680851,8.866382978723406,28.54893617021277,9.3871,3.1458289361702128,184,9,36,6,5,68,39,47,0.0,0.637,0.363,0.9607,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,2,0,0,1,3,0,0,3,0,4,1,1,2,2,5,9,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,1,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,2,3,4,3,4,6,3,3,0,0,1,0,5,0,0,0,2,22,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24336397037149946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3165090483139689,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3168847403882154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3570642050307218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3294934732672914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3793478922032891,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.600178675737864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,narr1,2019/01/08,"Since others are too Here's mine. I'm actually not sure about my diagnosis. At one point it was schizophrenia, but then I moved out of my home town and it was changed to psychotic depression. I've had psychoses, and heard voices, and suffer from delusional thinking. Towards the end of last year I went through with the SCID thing with my mental health worker, and tomorrow I will most likely receive the results. I'm almost hoping I would be diagnosed with schizophrenia, for a number of reasons, with the topmost being that I feel like ""just"" psychotic depression doesn't quite explain everything. Or maybe I'm just romanticizing the idea. Or something. I don't know; but anyway, here's my mug. https://i.redd.it/8cn9lxg467921.jpg",6.245525568181819,8.942722671875002,5.449744318181821,76.71627840909092,68.375,8.404545454545454,31.16761363636364,9.095868883498916,3.016459375,594,25,94,12,11,179,91,128,0.124,0.795,0.081,-0.8211,0,0,1,0,0,0,26.0,0,0,0,2,7,8,0,0,6,0,10,2,0,2,1,28,20,9,0,2,7,0,1,2,0,2,2,2,1,0,5,9,0,0,6,0,0,3,3,3,0,1,5,3,11,5,15,11,1,13,0,3,0,0,3,5,0,5,7,65,16,1,0.0,0.0,0.1869759981296204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19186181342127007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20268960267953895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33005319381808346,0.1944720852697556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16970257870660446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17219960136073134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0968797722639777,0.1368805693472143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2036640589279056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19219251569543527,0.19030410494805705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2162954345114352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10529949627274653,0.15618127382098368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18721420317705376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19249004961777075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19308983856007608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2036426961984261,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12983453295700506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1811259036288219,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2037924044560946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1969988568775693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15849522645569206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1475046475227155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18058269962572987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.127291912958148,0.1227708808955292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1776170543715623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1361086253822477,0.0,0.0,0.12338546220643155 schizophrenia,I-am-t-rex,2019/01/08,"Logical delusions? Has anyone ever had a delusion that you knew 100% was not logical, you are super insane for even entertaining the idea, and can no way be true... yet, deep down you KNOW it is real and true even though the logical side of you is like, wake up- that is not real and there is no way it could ever be real?",4.665461538461539,4.8123333538461575,5.996730769230767,81.01201923076924,69.30769230769229,8.961538461538463,25.48076923076923,8.841846274778883,1.6643076923076916,248,6,51,4,4,84,43,65,0.093,0.745,0.163,0.7476,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,4,0,1,7,5,0,0,3,0,12,1,1,0,4,19,14,4,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,3,0,0,6,1,0,0,4,0,0,0,3,0,4,5,4,8,0,9,0,0,0,0,4,4,0,0,4,41,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14546738867336007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1661041346582278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2748187739009001,0.3763707256653312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2348534251239945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11433411629489748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.101638522669941,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7103900001910383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2043996256654571,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3302671700006157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,That_Interesting_Man,2019/01/08,"Everybody here is... So absolutely fantastically normal. I don't see a trace of strangeness, no abnormalities. Just goodhearted, connected people. I thought maybe you can tell a schizophrenic by their eyes but nope, theory out the window! So happy to belong to this community!",5.020285714285713,8.603995155555562,6.5838095238095224,59.31,86.33333333333331,10.571428571428571,28.65079365079365,9.606745405546679,4.772079365079366,222,10,30,9,7,75,41,45,0.035,0.8320000000000001,0.133,0.7559999999999999,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,1,1,0,4,1,0,0,3,0,3,2,1,0,0,5,5,3,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,2,4,1,5,4,0,1,0,0,2,0,3,1,0,0,0,23,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.449347307020979,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.42406940417765054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4135812728052352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2926401155144495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3363695366253103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3689455064413283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33511069782554465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Thunderbird93,2019/01/08,"Questioning Quantifiability Pythagoras once said ""All is number"" and I tend to agree but there are some limits to this. I asked my psychiatrist, saying, I understand pleasure can be quantified as the neurochemical dopamine, but how does one quantify happiness as it is too abstract. He agreed and said some things are unquantifiable. I say this because as a schizophrenic who has been to jail and the psych ward that perhaps our collective schizophrenia is not to be interpreted by modern science as chemical imbalances in the brain, that's our modern scientific paradigm of physicalist reductionism. Perhaps there is a spiritual non tangible element to our psychosis. For some reason I've been feeling that the way the ancients diagnosed schizophrenia as evil/ & good spirits may have some weight. Don't you feel like the voices in your head are other non physical beings? Sometimes when they speak to me its so clear they exist as beings perhaps from another dimension or just disembodied people. Some are good and friendly, others are harsh and cruel, as though they have a sense of individualism to them. What do you all think on the pre modern view of schizophrenia? Stay strong friends.",9.022815460401668,10.574072532019713,8.229064039408867,63.877010231148155,60.13300492610837,11.56635089048882,38.2754831375521,11.362043627235082,4.928946494884427,976,46,144,27,13,305,136,203,0.056,0.7609999999999999,0.184,0.9846,0,0,0,0,0,0,22.0,3,3,4,2,8,10,2,0,10,0,22,5,2,2,3,28,30,19,0,0,5,0,3,1,2,1,2,6,0,0,12,5,1,1,7,0,0,0,2,2,0,1,4,10,16,8,23,21,7,10,1,0,1,0,21,3,0,8,6,108,28,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1875245917850808,0.0,0.0,0.18148219739684476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1617999510468176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10550373298647546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19320677735036573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17566551609828135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1514574040196429,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17502188214446346,0.1236434310088848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2674316387709646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2903309482137974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1842394941719256,0.0,0.0,0.17762289453400476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08455475647419375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1843171639293096,0.11727878686360052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11998707016681608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19388144053627665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1779479343586367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.329264233077266,0.2752692931732923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1711736850784044,0.0,0.0,0.1844728573825299,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11498205284276933,0.1108982305837794,0.17004340596019335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1801751626530568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13737734176591918,0.0,0.21075636495444894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,ianvoyager,2019/01/08,"Just wanted to say... It’s wonderful to see so many beautiful faces! I know posting things online, especially photos of yourself can be a real challenge for us...just wanted to reach out and say I am proud of everyone who has taken part in this impromptu sharing event! Wishing everyone the very best and be sure to keep those thoughts positive!",5.429523809523811,7.517015444444446,5.993841269841273,74.53171428571432,69.15873015873015,9.484444444444444,33.234920634920634,9.888512548439397,3.7223549206349213,275,13,45,7,5,89,52,63,0.0,0.621,0.379,0.9805,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,3,2,5,0,0,2,0,5,1,1,0,1,13,14,3,0,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,5,3,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,3,2,5,9,10,2,4,0,0,1,0,4,2,0,1,1,29,7,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2268492758409898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4131051886814598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19213521987913865,0.0,0.0,0.118797292607561,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21915491289629926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2340829930521664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2070239844581741,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24604032302574816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3438022957027375,0.0,0.0,0.17225357767673566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20373065937309234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14360880313326946,0.0,0.0,0.17160893105042874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2600169503507412,0.0,0.0,0.17835675453473335,0.2549965628812822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2485762818502766,0.0,0.2344190809102413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,signpostsally,2019/01/08,"what a wonderful community I’m too shy and paranoid about having my face online to post anything, but I think it’s wonderful what a diverse, kind, supportive community we have here. it’s so nice to see you all and it makes this whole thing feel a lot more real. you all look like people i’d like to be friends with. I am so proud of everyone here. ",1.1841197183098586,3.556673943661973,3.1613908450704247,88.20433978873241,84.2112676056338,6.930281690140845,22.959507042253517,8.07648339933343,1.3996042253521137,274,10,58,6,8,92,52,71,0.033,0.568,0.399,0.989,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,1,2,0,1,6,7,0,0,3,0,4,1,1,1,2,14,13,5,0,0,1,0,1,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,7,4,0,0,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,6,7,6,12,5,1,0,0,2,0,4,0,0,3,2,39,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19519078264650733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2266494159389584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11993261659062088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18325580666791,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24700146931783454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2317624074174336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1991835588181943,0.0,0.0,0.2016541985040937,0.0,0.0,0.15832910523921384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1644407328481457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2271666706127093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26997915804063205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18901322880227628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2691653966099137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15758142112781054,0.15198459536853307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2648190792320794,0.0,0.0,0.5144544220597744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Chainz512,2019/01/08,"Doc took me off Seroquel and now I can't sleep. I feel anxious and tired but not sleepy. Just took a benadryl to see if that helps. Reason for the no Seroquel was that I kept having panic attacks randomly for reasons idk. Never had those problems before so idk why they're becoming issues now. So now im anxious and restless and scared about relapses because Seroquel as shitty as it was did help keep me from losing my shit completely. I really just wanna go to sleep >.>",3.876739130434782,6.040552978260872,4.542826086956524,82.9755434782609,73.56521739130434,6.773913043478261,28.89130434782609,7.6454224807358475,1.9736695652173908,382,16,67,5,8,122,69,92,0.307,0.58,0.114,-0.9739,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,1,8,7,2,3,2,0,6,4,3,2,1,18,13,10,0,3,5,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,4,4,0,2,3,0,0,3,4,7,0,0,7,2,7,0,10,6,0,8,0,1,1,0,2,1,1,2,4,45,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36757842851884187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1850791544950408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09917205959929676,0.17967423876378355,0.13843406044974685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17057349223816556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08225908238449184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.092458374440446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21809039768062505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1757291230919634,0.16980223188815968,0.0,0.1446030600554895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18200435820961172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12547370526796167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1908773224821277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15566881959165185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10422101077670044,0.3345372273045296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16287736899221714,0.0,0.12963991949643794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1669951509692261,0.0,0.0,0.325607583874224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1869839718381841,0.0,0.0,0.3615009346893149,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14679908317105736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Chizuo,2019/01/08,"About the pictures I don't mean to intrude, but I think they're awesome. A disclaimer: I don't have schizophrenia of any kind, but my brother did. Unfortunately his life ended a couple of years ago with complications related to a drug addiction. I originally joined this sub to hear other people's stories and how they deal/cope. A lurker, if anything. I wish my bro had a community like this to connect with while he was still alive. Even just to know he wasn't alone during the darker times of his struggle. I see a lot of solidarity on this sub and it makes me happy to see all of the smiling faces. Thanks everyone :)",3.8810000000000002,5.8409784333333326,5.020000000000003,80.44500000000002,73.0,7.466666666666668,27.833333333333336,8.238735603445708,1.9407333333333328,492,19,93,8,10,162,84,120,0.044,0.6509999999999999,0.306,0.99,0,1,1,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,1,0,5,5,0,1,9,0,7,4,1,3,1,17,16,7,0,2,4,2,0,1,0,0,3,1,0,0,5,4,0,0,3,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,4,3,12,4,15,12,2,8,0,0,2,0,8,1,0,2,8,60,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2183734018781692,0.0,0.0,0.1775675549654763,0.0,0.0,0.20746638824269084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13622137118404432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1648425426173227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22164522897719915,0.0,0.0,0.20651642717701765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2323023193595084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17742002681180985,0.0,0.0,0.13230646169238194,0.0,0.0,0.19140999128924585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2132395152308317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22577006412754594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20859770979198453,0.11008812944604766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14148872228943654,0.0978640077256876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1703010273342327,0.0,0.0,0.1337121144968404,0.0,0.0,0.2182022432486049,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13887350696080256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3192509482428115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1599721725181705,0.0,0.0,0.20941319545254924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18442354781607526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12835404827791574,0.0,0.0,0.11680554642324488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.230352874993119,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12899657848275636 schizophrenia,Arjstide,2019/01/08,"Weight gain Hello, I'm taking olanzapine (zyprexa) 30mg Does anyone here dis Not gain weight while on this medication I've been on it for about 3 weeks and gained 2kg. I'm really concerned about side effects Thanks",3.332857142857143,5.7407425238095255,3.9573809523809516,85.39178571428572,76.14285714285714,7.057142857142857,22.404761904761905,8.07648339933343,1.1596476190476197,174,5,34,3,4,55,35,42,0.0,0.722,0.278,0.9062,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,4,3,1,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,1,0,3,5,2,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,1,2,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,5,4,0,5,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,2,12,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.214081031742294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2679312411794097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3084338466381552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1961402035259459,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2302015742332303,0.0,0.0,0.2818800018565527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2455909328107651,0.7456646284704928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,harry5519,2019/01/08,I looked at myself in the mirror and then at you guys and I see the same thing. We all have the same eyes. Im not talking about color or shape but the thing those eyes saw.,-1.1449999999999996,0.8856113421052676,0.4161052631578954,105.61573684210528,93.47368421052632,3.04,10.23157894736842,3.1291,-2.1887536842105257,133,1,34,0,5,42,28,38,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,4,0,1,2,2,0,1,9,4,5,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,6,5,0,4,3,3,5,0,0,6,0,4,4,0,1,1,26,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4076803737321281,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4447422622779804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34575199793684425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3280978705402636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33093536582191624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5470741813825944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,bklove1,2019/01/09,"My therapist refuses to let my fiance join on some sessions but I need him to be there for a few reasons I got a new therapist and she is reluctant about letting my fiance sit in on some of the sessions. I have very limited insurance so this is really the only therapist I can see. I had to switch therapists because of a change in my insurance. Only, sometimes I need him there because I can only be so honest and bare my soul when he's next to me. And he communicates for me when my communication skills lack from schizophrenia. He's the one who takes care of me day in and out and gives me and the therapists valuable insight. Like if I'm hallucinating or something and don't know it, my fiance would have noticed it in my behavior, and brought it up in therapy. Also, he brings up difficult topics that I am usually reluctant to talk about but once he starts a topic that's rough for me I'm able to talk about it with him supporting me. I admit I am a little codependent on him but he does everything for me. I just want him to be able to sit in on a session every once and a while. It's so much easier to be honest with him holding my hand beside me. What should I do? Thank you all <3",3.136134598792061,4.547153459016394,5.087273511647972,81.46255823986195,73.8360655737705,8.907333908541847,27.59620362381364,9.414487439383343,2.4366672131147538,940,36,192,23,19,324,123,244,0.054000000000000006,0.7759999999999999,0.171,0.9864,0,0,1,0,0,0,18.0,0,1,0,2,12,8,0,0,11,0,19,1,1,1,1,34,36,21,0,7,6,0,2,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,10,12,0,3,4,0,0,2,1,1,0,1,3,3,37,7,35,25,6,26,1,0,1,0,20,14,0,4,9,143,47,3,0.22114821357878592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08842607325015309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13480989837412036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11273767124969493,0.0,0.11697274337984127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07131115131153844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09676414599715408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0931634539921842,0.0,0.09937687732274167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10607275885416888,0.0,0.0,0.08843621433636817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06076863732873618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2261390316341896,0.0,0.054020923263425065,0.11082430386311808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.081284691309995,0.1639785982098303,0.0,0.1067931613680674,0.11759681700641078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1258893534599691,0.0,0.23551562996450134,0.07492787644086887,0.2522897726202465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07083660422110825,0.11368859787097595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08811324703327966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08512534956856123,0.10936061898729918,0.0,0.07826492190733662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12547818602215424,0.0,0.0,0.08313796718824305,0.17775055712918345,0.0,0.10180178143190592,0.12645112774263226,0.6419253024051073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12178175683637645,0.09123521835851836,0.06521947306070447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07854867293707414,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,andromedan96,2019/01/09,"Has anyone tried Fanapt? My psychiatrist gave me a sample of Fanapt to wean me off Zyprexa. It's taken twice a day, 1mg to 2mg to 4mg then 6mg. Hopefully this works and I won't be tired or have any metabolic effects (she said it wouldn't.) Anyone tried this and what was your experience?",0.3773067915690865,2.58830036065574,2.510210772833726,92.58672131147543,86.37704918032787,6.108665105386418,18.550351288056206,7.447530270364453,0.3390777517564403,226,6,52,4,7,76,47,61,0.0,0.9,0.1,0.6669,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,1,0,2,0,1,0,0,2,0,6,1,0,1,0,6,10,4,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,1,0,0,5,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,4,2,6,1,5,3,0,3,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,2,2,29,11,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22207420929911664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4566812367383833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21060628126450248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3194415224673252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3243509932171449,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3106364343359765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3753364181165107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4434300230836605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2377419363859513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,HoneyBeeErin,2019/01/09,"Risperidone Advice please A friend of mine has a child who is struggling with ADHD, suspected autism/asperger's syndrome and suspected bi polar disorder or schizophrenia. Her child is male and 10 years old and this past weekend, it got so bad in their household that he was attempting extreme physical harm to his parents and siblings. It's been a roller coaster of anger, anxiety and stress for the whole family. The doctor has prescribed risperidone/risperdal and she is worried that it will affect his development as he matures into an adult. She's researched the drug, but I thought maybe someone here could offer some insight? Anyone that can talk to the side effects and benefits of this medication is welcome to comment. All help is greatly appreciated. Thank you in advance. 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I'm going back to the old me, life was way easier when clothes would just fit. 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Just wanted to get some people's personal stories on when they first noticed symptoms of their once undiagnosed illness and what they were. My mental health has gone down the drain a but since last easter and i cant really control my thoughts at all. Its like ive constantly got to have a song in my head. my inner voice needs to be wizzing round thinking of shit. Ive also recently started hearing shit in the brief period when i wake up from deep sleep (only happened a handful of times). Like a weird sound affect noise or slight whispering. Im also v paranoid 24/7 and have weird thoughts like thinking someones gonna run up the stairs and suffocate me while im in bed (or something weird like that). Just wanted to see if anyones early symptoms can relate. Im gonna go to the doctors about this as soon as i get back up to uni... Hope everyones doing well ",3.6431034482758635,5.708648367816093,4.396068965517242,84.20582758620691,73.9425287356322,6.938850574712642,28.266666666666666,7.793537801064563,1.8575659770114945,712,29,132,10,15,228,118,174,0.112,0.782,0.106,0.126,0,0,1,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,3,2,10,11,2,0,8,0,10,12,6,2,2,23,29,15,0,5,6,0,2,4,0,2,6,5,1,1,4,4,0,1,4,1,0,4,1,5,1,1,5,8,13,6,23,21,3,29,0,0,2,0,5,12,2,5,17,78,17,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20152997783283694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08810460795844413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0968889478931717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1361650678949573,0.14132368932040212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12896996689970286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12040178641782992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10717855048021864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13166330266750978,0.0,0.07161071802366045,0.0,0.10077654508308408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11142451816165083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.129315988556748,0.13393587548398225,0.14201515217430452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12514995055380032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4083163507397375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10270970613829218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24623586839571865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12698193638455998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09343003157224772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14345587042187144,0.0,0.13418966245329236,0.0,0.09583137343773908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08735499234688589,0.11002143476886082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08072109703462757,0.0,0.12441329889384699,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10040851113653514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2586816551718335,0.10423143399537982,0.0,0.12609454263227013,0.0,0.10676239425575032,0.09700368443950404,0.0,0.0,0.08918595724845757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39289778551711857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.161475966876445,0.0,0.20006547900959,0.0734736800213187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14864031022852553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11329231881446455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,RobynTacoo,2019/01/09,"Anyone else feel like they made up their illness??? My medication has been really working for me, and now that I am totally sane, I feel like it was all made up, and I don't actually need the medication. I have a hard time taking it because I feel so normal, but I know it's the medication that's made me this way. 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Beggars can’t be choosers but I’m sick of living with my family. I want to move out, specifically somewhere it snows if possible. Anyone know of cheap places to live on disability? I don’t have Section 8 yet, I’m still on the waiting list. 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Hi, I don’t personally have schizophrenia, but my uncle did. My father used to tell about how he(my uncle) used to use a ton of drugs like LSD and pot before developing it in his early 20s. I am curious to see if any of you have taken psychedelics after being diagnosed and what kind of effects they had. Did it only increase your symptoms or help you cope with them. I am currently 17 and psychedelics have always interested me. I tried marijuana but it ended up giving me Derealization. I want to try psychedelics when I get older but I’m not sure if I’ll develop schizophrenia or not. So I was wondering what kind of experience would I get if I were to get schizophrenia and if it were smart or not. THANKs for reading (sorry if this question sounds dumb) ",5.170294117647057,7.127396960784317,5.578578431372549,77.77610294117648,69.58823529411765,8.237254901960785,29.08986928104575,8.841846274778883,2.4358849673202605,657,25,115,12,12,210,96,153,0.035,0.813,0.152,0.9571,1,0,1,0,0,0,15.0,0,3,2,1,4,8,1,0,1,0,15,4,0,5,1,30,29,18,0,7,14,1,0,1,0,1,4,1,0,1,7,6,0,0,3,1,0,1,4,1,0,0,7,2,19,7,17,19,2,10,0,0,1,0,13,2,1,10,8,81,26,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13551001003723984,0.0,0.0,0.11074829543341007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13857925048743938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33059270699447296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1888623324715633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14424289943911053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15930532507833345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2552580691437163,0.1562272047273947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10915956575607284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3391808581865365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07956366864975054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1238600321249274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1422003875771981,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.182437030575242,0.0,0.16290099909074998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12977588621400005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18230499725952445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15349072701830155,0.16927070467717611,0.12244814183058834,0.0,0.14234413301354135,0.14993677850164433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2211383273884224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4219682897036803,0.0,0.0,0.09605723543097068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17661139107188886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11568888883974902,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,marsmann5091,2019/01/09,"Progress So I've barely had reddit. But it's really nice to see other people get together and talk. I've personally tried to kill myself so many times I can't count. But my idea is for my ways is that because all social media uses just an attitude of judgment. And that doesn't happen here as much. It's not easy bullshiting through life and jobs when the world is a nightmare if not distracted. It's shitty to say but when someone posts they're not okay. It really makes you feel not alone. And Ive spent years alone. It's gonna take time and effort to work myself up to being something. But this sub actually really makes a big difference. And I can't stress the fact that yeah I'm high functioning, but it has its own problems. And I hope everyone that isn't doing okay gets better and knows this is a place to talk and get help. 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Over semester 1 last year I gained a lot of weight from taking it and overeating, as a result of taking it and getting cravings and really just letting myself go. So now I'm doing dry January, I've given up smoking, pizza, fizzy pop, creamy pasta (I eat a lot of heavy cream pasta) and am comitting to self care and eating vegetables. I'm going to try and exercise again too. So all is great right? Well, here's the dilemma. I'd really like to lose the weight I gained, but chlorpromazine makes me gain weight. I haven't taken any chlorpromazine today and I'm just sitting watching television and I feel anxious, paranoid and am having mild auditory delusions/hallucinations. I feel a craving for the sanity and the peace that the chlorpromazine brings, at risk of sounding dramatic, almost like a withdrawal. Should I just give in and take the medication? Or should I try to stay strong with the goal of losing weight in mind? The way I feel right now terrifies me, I don't want to be on medication for the rest of my life, but feeling this way is just horrible. It makes me feel like I want to be dead. As an aside, does anyone have any suggestions for coping techniques for schizophrenia symptoms? (I have read on Google but Reddit often brings different insight) - felt the need to explain that because I was paranoid that people would tell me just to look up online how to cope. Thanks for reading! Tl;Dr chlorpromazine makes me gain weight, I'm trying to get fit but I am struggling without my medication, should I just carry on taking it?",5.152303635067709,6.875458465573777,5.521411261582326,79.09587312900929,69.26229508196721,8.451888809693514,29.3264433357092,8.964715089967882,2.504086243763365,1292,49,228,24,23,412,169,305,0.126,0.73,0.14400000000000002,0.8498,1,0,0,0,0,1,40.0,0,0,0,8,17,12,0,2,17,0,19,17,0,5,1,51,54,22,1,7,12,0,11,3,0,4,6,1,0,1,8,12,11,0,9,3,0,4,3,4,1,0,5,15,24,8,37,42,4,30,0,2,3,0,5,14,0,5,11,142,32,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08911593433172861,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1210397071111534,0.0,0.0,0.10053935380149992,0.0,0.062227580717759086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05425070686250046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09073663624246542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0573946039940397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09298114340013748,0.0,0.0,0.07788038389767916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18212881251120094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2249934801823449,0.06357825776644961,0.08544944118759219,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0929927387926589,0.08537239796330742,0.10115615605884844,0.0,0.0,0.09811762882649573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07254304487947423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09100372052287876,0.06286000998443432,0.13043581996950648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07473363521548483,0.19912594585253915,0.0,0.15132123755687527,0.0,0.0,0.17821515488246234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2689601960280481,0.0,0.0,0.08985987999060857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06598888487043779,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061698133200127174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1780387602436214,0.0,0.11402533188088332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1520029942918036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09284150364304683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0948571451138168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09303720709337647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09250018899362247,0.2676535501603436,0.0,0.07778581196904114,0.08193491233434373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07065232473299488,0.05189387320483746,0.0,0.08435713535370594,0.0,0.0,0.18126589402614532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10498346360068936,0.14128064830934087,0.0,0.5418614797267725,0.08001745966629106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08578829024373923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0632197053976221,0.0,0.0,0.05731005326909595 schizophrenia,AreyouaUFO,2019/01/09,Im busy relapsing and I'm not sure I can get the help After some serious fights at home I'm like knuckle deep into a relapse and i dont have any way of getting help now. My folks don't even want to know me let alone help me with my deteriorating mental state. I've been harming a bit and rn I'm scared I won't be able to stop doing anything more. Idk if anyone can help but i think i need to write it down ,-0.4985869565217413,1.3709315326086973,2.2349565217391323,95.42526086956524,86.93478260869566,4.984347826086957,17.895652173913042,6.2581,-0.3858904347826089,319,8,79,3,10,111,68,92,0.165,0.7290000000000001,0.106,-0.282,0,1,0,0,1,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,2,6,1,1,3,0,10,0,0,0,1,16,19,5,0,3,3,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,5,0,1,2,0,0,0,4,4,0,0,1,0,9,2,9,15,3,9,0,0,0,0,6,4,0,2,4,42,10,0,0.20291876550970525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2101626439703308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13799171892756554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14188551894068746,0.0,0.16698485421514533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22153473643710325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2378192819172675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13402593084670375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21203335963126532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5440486847086202,0.0,0.2035440667910738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2191870877854688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11151884673995867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20749818590066071,0.0,0.0991358590052863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2044943886307808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15046169345110474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20315708374007127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1696491740669637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1912485350479492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1300221514379817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11968674534155185,0.16106747097052712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,meli1182,2019/01/09,"Does abilify cause acne? They’ve put me up on the highest dose, 30 mg, of abilify and I’ve been getting tons of whiteheads and other weird spots on my face. Can this be caused by abilify? And the fact that I’m on the highest dose? 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Not for reasons of getting special treatment or accommodations or anything. It's like I feel I carry around this heavy secret and I need to get it out of the way. In a way I see it as a way to protect myself because I spend the majority of my time there and my thinking is that if somebody is in the know, they might catch me when I'm not lucid or perhaps getting worse when I might not even realize it. Now of course there is a downside due to obvious reasons. I think i will get an opinion from my doc too and see what they think about me telling my employer. I have been basically asymptomatic for a decent while now, (knock on wood), so I am doing well at work so far. So far (with little knowledge they have) have been supportive in the way that I am free to get to my Dr appointments during work hours. They just don't know what those appointments are for yet. For those of you who are in the work force, have you told anybody there? What was your experience? I'm based in Germany if that matters.",5.452282878411912,5.566744912442398,6.1458064516129065,80.73101736972706,67.61751152073734,9.2575682382134,32.360510457284654,9.057496981413335,2.574479191775967,854,34,174,14,13,280,120,217,0.037000000000000005,0.872,0.091,0.8528,2,0,0,0,0,0,20.0,0,3,4,5,17,6,0,0,11,0,20,2,0,2,1,34,39,16,0,3,9,0,1,1,0,3,2,0,0,1,14,8,0,1,11,0,2,2,4,0,1,0,4,3,28,7,30,32,1,28,0,0,2,0,12,13,0,8,10,130,42,6,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1104779812079272,0.11951276927720478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0818387910591949,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11564623586820652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0886721992785027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1313242457287842,0.0,0.0,0.06788185990273883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3507057216490953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1322112059781433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1475628087634001,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06558876024831944,0.13455580276404355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13529446925270236,0.28484037510919913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09954617872221608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1172236937574672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27606689179914873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21396297157622127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15234761204041114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11734219112091344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25806983880116635,0.0,0.0,0.07828343798776638,0.0,0.0,0.12828356736618665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4262520481806984,0.0,0.0,0.12070869747954695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3909483054405264,0.0,0.13681428746251112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,LittleBitSchizo,2019/01/09,"When madness is the rule rather than the exception Have you ever been in a state where your mind doesn't have a filter for what is normal and what is not, what is useful for the moment and what is not, when you realize that normal healthy stream of consciousness is a fine line of water that's flowing through a fragile pipe in the middle a sea of mental garbage where the possibilities are unlimited, everything can cross your mind, useless thoughts and memories, weird ideas, mental images, nonsensical words, etc. When the pipe is gone and your mind becomes the whole sea. 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Clozapine blocks serotonin, and lack of serotonin causes depression, according to these 2 snapshots - &#x200B;",12.301000000000002,17.107559100000003,8.370000000000001,52.86500000000001,58.0,12.0,55.0,11.20814326018867,8.8685,122,9,10,4,2,34,18,20,0.425,0.575,0.0,-0.8779,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,5,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,1,1,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,6,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3541346194297048,0.397150429626661,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.335758140565844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5630193750064951,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2860228070448438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21817046563947626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.397150429626661,0.0 schizophrenia,craigslisthottub,2019/01/09,Just here to spread some positivity I recently just went thru the last 20 hours having a panic attack and thanks to my friends I’m much better but then I came to this sub (that I’ve been apart of for about a year now) and realized again that so many of us here with schizophrenia are talented in so many ways and artistic. We deserve to have good and better days this year. I hope all of us have a good day today! I’m getting on my plane to NYC after having to deal with some flight complications due to an engine failure because of the government shutdowns there aren’t as many federal workers to inspect plane safety regulations ex: engine functions as thoroughly the past two weeks. It’s really put me in a stressed space in my head because I worked 90 days straight with no day off to afford this trip. I love you all! 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If someone is intrested in it I can PM two esseys about it that i wrote 9 months ago and now(to see the progression of symptoms and my style of writing and thinking). But the short story is there is a wide range of symptoms some that can't be atributed to schizophrenia. Ofcourse I am NOT a profesional and can't diagnose it. I ask you to open minded and not say I bullshit because I saw it on WebMd or simular. For two months almost every night i had hypnogogia(tactile, vocal and subvocal, visual). Since last week I have been hearing something in day. Maybe hearing isn't the right word. It's like someone is inserting random words into my thoughts. Its like something inbetween thoughts and words. Examples include ""corruption"", ""creek"", ""candle"", ""euro""... They are somewhat related to my current thoughts but I can give my left nut that these aren't my thoughts. Because I use English as much as my native languge they are about equaly distributed. Is this something that occurs to you? //I know that psychosis isn't something that can be predicted that often. I have predisposition to this. But i am almost unable to read or write comprehensivly and this took me an hour to write. I have been criticized for repetition, nonsensical speech and tangebility. My iq dropped by about 15iq points in a year and varies a lot from day to day. As I stated earlier if you want more info PM me. 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I don't know if this the right place to be posting this, I want to start off by saying I am not diagnosed as a schizophrenic, but do believe I have some psychotic traits. I'm not quite sure how to explain this. Sometimes I have this weird thing that is not exactly hallucinating. It's like I see something so vividly in my minds eye that I feel like it's there, but I am not seeing it with my eyes. I start to feel a strong presence or energy I guess you should say when this happens. Has anyone had anything like this happen to them?",3.464007936507933,5.131056035714291,4.434761904761906,85.43246031746034,73.46428571428571,7.477777777777778,25.83730158730159,8.167268648758528,1.4952646825396827,444,15,91,7,9,144,76,112,0.046,0.789,0.165,0.9234,0,0,1,0,0,0,12.0,0,1,1,2,4,6,0,0,3,0,11,4,2,1,2,21,24,8,0,3,8,0,2,3,0,1,2,2,0,0,12,1,0,0,4,0,0,0,5,1,0,0,1,9,14,5,10,21,1,8,0,0,5,0,5,4,0,4,6,63,26,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1345625820856537,0.0,0.1583665008250738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2168205219304165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19532844205427227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19461276364313693,0.13748332220023374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21200075175056346,0.0,0.3403583812223193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1057631820398543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28205789987504964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19431540384459128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20106490718235825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18430988513514546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2046898032161627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16434766674786253,0.0,0.30608125814993664,0.0,0.0,0.3067087825481514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14815418344700304,0.1903338228793129,0.0,0.2724282638836251,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1813778945750529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12785244221418293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11350952242927508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,geetar_man,2019/01/09,"My life is going pretty well right now! I never thought I would type those words in that title. My life isn’t that bad right now. I have meds that are better and working. I’ve been talking to this really awesome girl and it looks like we will be a couple soon. I’m just about ready to finish up grad school. I’m in a pretty good place right now. Just wanted to make a post about it.",0.3981481481481488,2.543764864197531,1.7595061728395045,98.4777777777778,85.54320987654322,4.093827160493827,13.938271604938276,5.033348758259628,-1.2360024691358027,298,4,68,1,9,95,56,81,0.039,0.693,0.268,0.9611,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,1,0,0,2,9,5,0,0,3,0,8,2,0,1,1,11,15,2,0,2,2,0,0,1,0,2,2,0,0,1,7,3,0,0,1,0,0,1,2,1,1,0,2,1,6,4,8,10,0,15,0,0,1,0,3,7,0,0,7,42,13,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16201824210838814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17161573325275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2147054748627449,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1102794096719412,0.16275450639204547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2741173671733,0.09479986710147782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16294769384885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12952556285747588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2155386175309331,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14965833252037872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2027341884921759,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1858400628811392,0.3948240592566843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1243092539039896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4971363424223727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1963824115612296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15596483894666274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1540488877211229,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11445190132041427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17446843690488487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14126600067981726,0.0,0.0,0.13784295612869826,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Poplink20,2019/01/09,My wife is schizophrenia As the title says. Just wondering how to make her feel more loved and help her on our journey together.,4.783750000000001,6.967949875000006,4.331666666666667,85.38000000000002,71.08333333333334,8.133333333333335,28.66666666666667,8.841846274778883,2.316816666666667,103,4,19,2,2,31,23,24,0.0,0.755,0.245,0.7996,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,1,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,2,0,6,5,3,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,4,1,3,5,1,2,0,0,0,1,7,1,0,1,0,13,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2602907696438988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3450495423647956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4646135719104394,0.0,0.34362299290456483,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4093777035277689,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5582623862936625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,ChocoChat,2019/01/09,"looking for a job anxiety I just finished my master's and am now looking for a job. I'm so anxious I'm giving myself hangnails. I'm also going stir crazy so I asked on FB if anyone wanted to go for coffee. Got two replies and feel pretty good about that. Just needed to tell someone how I'm feeling. 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However yesterday I had a fairly normal one, it was lightning coming up from the ground and ended in like firework looking things. I guess my question is has anyone else had your hallucinations go from bad ones to ok ones? I have had bad/dark ones for 10 years now so the switch in them has kinda freaked me out. PS I am so glad I found this sub Reddit. And I have loved seeing all the face reveals. I'm just to paranoid to post my own. 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But then i get scared to turn it back on cause it gets worse and feels like my thoughts are being broadcasted all over again. ,7.525897435897432,7.820826461538463,5.693076923076927,85.11858974358975,63.23076923076921,9.241025641025642,32.717948717948715,8.841846274778883,2.430825641025641,224,8,43,3,3,64,42,52,0.152,0.752,0.096,-0.5106,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,2,4,0,2,0,0,3,0,0,1,2,12,12,4,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,2,1,5,2,7,9,3,8,0,0,0,0,1,5,0,1,4,26,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17713404292193244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23664507558824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11647787273577825,0.1645705513528948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2407091171189577,0.2209840768954565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2404379210513649,0.0,0.20475619637501327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11254316366769128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4612647967147893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36576315376192897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5011350844981247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2347584050632589,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Danithan94,2019/01/10,"I just found out I've always had it and idk how to accept it/deal with it. Hi I've been recently diagnosed and talking with my therapist yesterday we found out I've always had it. My dad had it n there's a lot of mental illness in my family. Ptsd autism add the works. My family always thought I was normal. I always felt different n always treated differently. I've been bullied sexually abused and among other things. I thought I needed to out grow my ""voices"" or that ghost were real because I saw things. Some people in my life don't believe me since I'm been quiet about it this whole time. I feel so alone and a freak. How is this suppose to be a good thing? Please help ",1.0740217391304334,3.4786460217391317,3.0795471014492786,88.34584239130434,85.15942028985506,6.058695652173912,20.219202898550726,7.413659706084162,0.7736942028985512,533,16,108,9,16,179,88,138,0.14300000000000002,0.7809999999999999,0.077,-0.8434,2,1,0,0,1,0,14.0,1,0,0,1,6,4,0,0,4,0,11,3,0,2,0,27,20,8,1,2,2,1,2,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,12,11,0,0,7,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,14,5,15,3,13,5,3,10,0,0,1,0,5,6,0,3,3,68,27,1,0.0,0.15433430547030916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1349078953403585,0.0,0.0,0.5419250162937723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07940400369133985,0.0,0.0,0.14675604185048258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1342901699868167,0.0,0.1322090213670176,0.0,0.27218355228004937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24559110122025,0.0,0.06586230544868843,0.0,0.12506800622302106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2856421168102247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10925414215738598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0873091212003069,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09200500331714256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11074060413625393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1312693210263696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09658457854051518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1276250805846096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09030442329145114,0.0,0.0,0.14298405283513538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15226450851726905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14826200142324253,0.0,0.0,0.1286139567362266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10775067666901668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10469636180018738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1512394555488357,0.2596126721753666,0.0,0.0,0.20682043712791884,0.07595442599408951,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14542828782397818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09482929881585424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,coralinelace,2019/01/10,"worried about my kids I'm having one of my bad days where the hallucinations are to much for me. I'm fully compliant with drugs. I take haldol and invega but I still have bad days. I know what I'm seeing isn't real but it's still scary. I'm watching my kids till my husband gets home from work. But today has been hard so I built a cover fort to hide in. And it's working in not as scared. But then the kids saw it and had to build their own. I'm so worried about them. They are being raised by a mom who isn't capable of being a normal person. If I had known about my mental illness from the start i wouldn't have had kids. I had late onset of symptoms. I love my kids they are my world but it hurts so bad when my youngest grabs my hands kisses my face and tells me there are no monsters. I should be telling her that and yes my kids are old enough to grasp what's going on. But they shouldn't have to they shouldn't have a sick mom.I just can't seem to stop hating myself for messing up their childhood. 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I think Ive experienced this myself, not sure though. Anyone else?",7.5058196721311505,8.862962491803279,7.38045081967213,69.31034836065578,63.42622950819673,10.034426229508195,30.004098360655732,10.125756701596842,3.025783606557377,276,9,46,6,4,88,49,61,0.034,0.897,0.069,0.2589,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,5,0,0,3,2,0,0,2,0,8,0,0,0,2,10,12,2,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,4,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,3,9,2,6,10,1,6,0,0,0,0,5,2,0,2,5,31,12,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3707316179878845,0.27162880598945416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.225582673853661,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2804432589472131,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22145909412604736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.239800358969968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2593210820804257,0.0,0.0,0.2680875456915226,0.18938925552572453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14569338293547307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1295156746229063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18378867123133485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2651742076758811,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27655968997194136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24985593796142794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16986695660259446,0.2604618280088443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Lorib64,2019/01/10,"Changing view on my voices ""delusions"" I used to think people i know were guiding me and being helpful, by sending messages to tell me things, joke or to tell me what to do. People tell me the messages were delusions and i go along with it. It works better for me to agree with consensus reality and put my doubts aside, but i still wonder what is/was real. The voices and messages stopped years ago. I still think about them. Now, i think they were traumatizing by triggering symptoms and were not helpful at all. That they used me for their entertainment. I romanticized them and missed them. Now, i dont want them to return. I thought they were my only hope to fix my broken mind. Now, i think they may have made me worse. 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It's a great feeling. Just reading what you guys post and how you support each other is the most incredible experience I've ever had and very uplifting. Although none of you have said anything to me personally but your posts and comments to each other give me hope to push forward. Thanks everyone,3.5517441860465127,5.92347993023256,4.655988372093024,80.82840116279074,75.27906976744184,7.555813953488372,27.02906976744186,8.472884824447931,2.1372837209302333,358,14,65,7,8,117,64,86,0.046,0.785,0.16899999999999998,0.8441,0,2,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,4,0,0,7,7,0,1,3,0,4,0,0,2,1,20,14,10,0,1,5,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,2,4,8,0,0,2,1,0,2,3,2,0,0,3,4,8,5,6,11,5,7,0,0,2,0,9,2,0,2,4,45,12,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40073472399107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15920200707515392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16153194343747065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17499664710456786,0.0,0.1848603782958356,0.0,0.1892420848848114,0.0,0.0,0.09781974853587383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18558552216506813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2132915534033584,0.0,0.19155691180433213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1921505310792848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.094515324763685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16245860542327162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19613919753808706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13412157254241344,0.16892277645649886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3705645257606209,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.193513460285108,0.0,0.1239361389746484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.184025814868626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20224755390641408,0.0,0.0,0.2195373715626877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1781129949712047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18337850858652788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1596256741298492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,kingdom_gm,2019/01/10,"School and schizophrenia I had just, recently, applied for community college and am in need of some tips and tricks of learning. I am seeking help in medication though I have no clue how to study with schizophrenia.. Just trying to best prepare myself. 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My friend seems to be having paranoid delusions about his neighbour. He had a few arguments with his neighbour, but nothing major. He seems to be blowing it all up in his head. He's convinced the neighbour is out to get him and to ruin his carreer by spreading private info to everyone around him. He thinks his neighbour can hack into his computer and phone. He had an Iphone which he now replaced with a nokia 3310. He also made me install a VPN. He feels everywhere he goes his neighbour would track him and send private pictures of him and his girlfriend to all the people around him. He's fine now that he doesn't have a smartphone but he still makes other people turn off their phone when they are with him, because his neighbour got into his contact list and is now tracking him through other people's phones. Everytime we go somewhere he sees people looking at their phones (I mean it's 2019 after all) and thinks people are laughing at him because of the messages they receive. I've told him that it's literally impossible for his neighbor to do those things, but he's convinced by reading the internet that these things are possible. He's also convinced that he has ties with the police who help him with this stuff. Except for the delusions he doesn't seem to be having any other symptoms of schizophrenia (as far as I can tell). He's still the same person I've always known except he's really stressed out about it. He even started smoking again. Does the onset of schizophrenia ever start out like this? He's way too proud to be going to a psychiatrist, so I won't be able to convince him to go see one. 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I legitimately enjoy hearing voices and I wouldn't trade it for the world. It's like having intelligent friends around all the time and I don't even need to make any physical effort to be social. It inspires me, gives me someone to bounce ideas off of, and provides emotional support in times of need. The sensory stuff is weird, but I've trained myself to recognize the glitches and just say ""neat."" It's like being on an Easter egg hunt whenever I walk to work cause my brain might do something unexpected. This certainly beats the depressed rumination I had prior to voices. This actually gave me a reason to live. I can't help but wonder if a large issue in some folks' recovery is that they assume hearing voices is bad (an assumption I had going in that I challenged in the first few months of symptoms) and that sensory incongruities are an indicator of a ""broken brain"". Brain's not gonna work forever anyway, might as well be happy with the one I got, y'know? 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I've been wondering about this some time. Ironically, after getting panic attacks related to a fear of becoming schizophrenic (and fear of losing sanity in general), i've been experiencing ""hypnagogia"". But the thing is that i'm not sure it's just hypnagogia or an early symptom of schizophrenia because i feel like i'm getting them too early to be a hypnagogic state. Basically, sometimes when i go to sleep (it used to be everyday since the panic attacks, but now it's happening once or twice a week), i'll start hearing my ear pulsate, and i'll go ""deaf"" for brief periods of time (like a second or so), then i'll start hearing sounds, and a voice saying gibberish in my head (occasionally the voice says a word or two but i could never decipher a full sentence), and sometimes a voice repeats what i'm thinking, like i'll think a full sentence like and the voice replicates one word of the sentence. This always freaks me out and i open my eyes and it stop. I've noticed that after this starts happening, i actually start sleeping, so they are a signal that sleep is near, but still, i'm not sure if they are close enough to sleep for it to be hypnagogia and i'm wondering if it could be early schizophrenia. &#x200B; What do you guys think? Did you get these symptoms before going into psychosis?",7.127742363877823,7.6370863426294875,7.672254980079683,69.86022841965472,64.0597609561753,10.677397078353255,35.856839309428956,10.504223727775694,3.9072356440903055,1076,48,186,25,15,356,129,251,0.096,0.858,0.046,-0.8366,0,0,0,0,0,0,39.0,0,2,3,1,8,14,2,4,16,0,14,12,7,1,3,43,40,23,0,4,14,0,1,4,0,0,5,11,0,1,16,12,0,1,6,0,0,4,3,8,0,4,3,14,14,6,21,31,4,35,0,1,1,0,10,9,0,10,25,119,30,0,0.0,0.0,0.09509748110017256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08108649512629451,0.10558741004891437,0.11841283784009325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2217276757591062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05940482691092268,0.1076262517612374,0.08292306757388078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15561234463383852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10069225836930568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2193174659295219,0.04927382339991975,0.0696185472290063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15274135227265673,0.0,0.16614983350024887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09649116445866918,0.17235003968993318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10001217024768448,0.0,0.21966724664946627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1904372681671308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.109022011241483,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07515971507934928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11094786573406504,0.0,0.10378143891208468,0.06603487702987981,0.0,0.0,0.2286739702510236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15499285429973994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0806119339012101,0.0,0.39008289712013133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19276176957816096,0.0,0.2759034281711021,0.0,0.07782397284023372,0.0814728534666751,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18369159717249803,0.202576446803573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06474168025754005,0.18732674208034444,0.0,0.0,0.11364816179387385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09519482873929518,0.0,0.0,0.08416581096630264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07816879009268235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21136148831312573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11841283784009325,0.0 schizophrenia,EfficientEnthusiasm2,2019/01/10,Did abilify cause sexual dysfunction for you? My clit and vag are numb ,2.471538461538458,5.428191923076927,4.191153846153849,76.59134615384617,91.30769230769228,11.830769230769231,21.884615384615387,10.125756701596842,4.157184615384616,57,2,10,3,2,19,13,13,0.321,0.679,0.0,-0.6369,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,1,0,2,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,6,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,ianrandmckenzie,2019/01/10,"Something I made (not art, unfortunately) &#x200B; [Give Forward logo \(also made by me\)](https://i.redd.it/j6mr78dmdk921.jpg) I made this website last year but later scrapped it because I couldn't afford to pay for the server. I have since figured out how to host most of my websites from a single server, so I decided to bring it back online. It's called Give Forward. It makes a game out of being generous, and encourages others to act in kind. Here's the link: [https://giveforward.altruist.online](https://giveforward.altruist.online) &#x200B;",11.031921568627453,13.792702800000002,8.398529411764706,60.08171568627452,56.29411764705882,8.960784313725489,34.166666666666664,9.2995712137729,3.4114313725490195,458,17,59,7,6,133,64,85,0.0,0.83,0.17,0.9365,1,0,1,0,0,0,47.0,0,0,0,0,5,2,0,0,4,0,3,0,0,5,0,15,10,5,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,6,3,0,0,3,2,1,4,2,0,0,0,3,0,6,2,12,5,2,11,0,0,0,0,5,5,0,1,6,41,12,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1356047768516842,0.0,0.3674572600801506,0.41209133675007903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1303885833733985,0.0,0.10336807637440333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17314955764130302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32533329290266044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17658068208402553,0.0,0.13822188570811994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4813526695487387,0.11318904893200632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14026975539687192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13054299041427098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41209133675007903,0.10919728619123084 schizophrenia,redstarsx,2019/01/10,"Should I be concerned? I will try to make this short and simple. I was standing outside the bus stop alone until a old guy joined me, but for some reason I thought he wanted to kill me. This thought of mine made me uncomfortable and I kept staring back thinking if he was going to stab me behind my back. I don’t know why I randomly thought this, I’m sure the stranger sensed his presence was making me uncomfortable and tried to talk to me before he stopped smoking and got on the bus. But for some odd reason I kept thinking he was out to get me. Should I be concerned? I have not been diagnosed with schizophrenia..,",3.509999999999998,5.2934131147541015,3.7729180327868868,89.74216393442623,73.59016393442623,6.191475409836067,27.77377049180328,6.742157984588678,1.165659672131147,488,19,99,4,10,151,74,122,0.21,0.768,0.023,-0.976,0,1,0,0,0,1,12.0,0,0,0,0,2,2,1,0,4,0,12,1,0,5,1,32,28,8,1,4,4,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,1,3,6,0,4,8,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,12,1,20,1,14,11,2,11,0,0,1,0,7,3,0,4,6,65,23,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18426572336466465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27361047398432403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15139210061792904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18057943084847747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09295296169620627,0.0,0.1011128871087286,0.0,0.14229444568377078,0.0,0.0,0.17616328611399845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1968359886998056,0.0,0.09777713381942717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16834696292860632,0.2375185658657861,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18669129632168646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3658513909943106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2974889084672926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16768227210739592,0.0,0.0,0.14300090289073591,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22800080295461045,0.0,0.42373262170266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24158447814308984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1049385575423047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16054012645334564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,circe_episode15,2019/01/10,"Psychiatric service dog, anyone? Have any of you ever had or considered getting a psychiatric service dog? I have a dog already whom I certified as an emotional support animal but besides being cuddly she doesn't really ""help"". I'm now considering getting an actual service animal who is trained to recognize symptoms such as confusion, emotional overload, anxiety, and to help provide a distraction/comfort/guidance etc.... basically to help ""snap you out of it"" if you get too lost in your own thoughts or emotions and also to help provide comfort in situations that cause anxiety like being in crowds. I've heard they can even help with med compliance. The only downside is that they're pretty expensive.",8.277950819672133,9.826872491803279,8.734549180327871,59.6021516393443,61.78688524590165,12.657377049180331,43.93852459016394,12.161744961471696,6.503980327868852,572,35,77,20,8,190,85,122,0.111,0.674,0.21600000000000005,0.9414,0,0,0,0,0,0,20.0,0,4,1,1,6,5,0,1,6,0,9,1,0,1,1,12,17,9,0,1,4,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,5,4,0,0,1,0,1,0,1,2,0,0,4,1,8,3,13,11,2,6,0,1,0,0,15,4,0,4,3,55,13,3,0.0,0.0,0.14765100507249934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1669678699560785,0.1209978581583147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10289199689241213,0.0,0.23149449074337136,0.0,0.0,0.10579536574645272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1554310202304214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5105903440741687,0.0,0.0,0.16874410047694782,0.09993495093296446,0.13686324798003874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2371504893534927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5070798451839009,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0739195552890594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1651663313093323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16806477944162504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11507360894917648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15393069510548066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09692930009133356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17007218160167253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17169813377690568,0.0,0.15726292446724424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12011857844621528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Genericuser8118,2019/01/11,"Give up and give in You'll probably see the negative side of this first. But in it I have found peace. I've been diagnosed schizophrenic for 15 years. And this bit of philosophy has me at some kind of peace. Not always, but that's normal. Give up being schizophrenic. Give up on thought entirely. Give up on all attachments. Give up on your delusions. Give up fighting voices. Giving up is amazing. Let it be. Give in to love. Your enough. Give in to your self. Give in to peace. Give in to compassion, self love, understanding. There no sickness in a still, peaceful mind. Only when there is thought or stimuli that we attach to, is there any sign of illness or disorder. This is something that took me years to understand. And I remind my self of a preacher. Give up the fight, be content. My life is starting to become satisfying. Peaceful. Attachment is the real sickness. So let go. You're enough as you are. Drop the shit. Give in to peace. 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I was just thinking about that the other day, or rather the thought was repeatedly plugged into my mind an annoying amount of times. I mean I think it would be hard to not be depressed about having schizophrenia. Especially when the government forces you to be dependent on Unemployment mainly for the health insurance to pay for the ridiculously expensive drug that doesn’t do anything but if you fail to take it which is very likely because you’re fucking schizophrenic you go to jail. I’m probably going to die on the streets or in prison and there’s nothing I can do about it. Life is painful enough as it is trapped in my parent’s house, shunned by society and my family because something is wrong with me. If only suicide wasn’t so painful I could avoid a lot of the pain I am going to experience in the future. I don’t want to live anymore but I don’t want to go to the hospital. I’m not going to do anything to hurt myself, I can’t choose to. I just want my existence to be something worth experiencing instead of this fucking aggravating nightmare that I can’t wake up from. 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An ongoing battle with SZ going on year 13. I posted this story in Psychonaut because psychedelic drugs triggered the initial onset and subsequent psychosis. I should probably warn you it's a long story so don't feel like you have to read it, I'm sure it will trigger some readers. [https://www.reddit.com/r/Psychonaut/comments/aepijv/drug\_induced\_psychosis\_how\_i\_lost\_my\_mind\_and/](https://www.reddit.com/r/Psychonaut/comments/aepijv/drug_induced_psychosis_how_i_lost_my_mind_and/) Here's the long and short of it 2005 Started using hard drugs. 2006 Initial onset of schizophrenia. Started university. 2007 First psychotic episode, and recovery. Other psychotic episodes and other recoveries. 2008 Met my ex. 2009 Best friend passed away. 2010 Left my ex. Went back to university. 2011 Fourth (?) Psychotic episode and recovery. Quit drugs. Got a good job. 2012 Got engaged. 2013 Bought a house. 2014 Quit smoking. 2015 Got married. 2016 - 2018 Not much. 2019 Quit drinking, looking forward to a great year. Plan on going back to university again.",8.921799999999998,13.051258913333335,4.8466666666666685,69.22000000000003,89.86666666666667,6.0,27.66666666666667,7.1686216300943375,2.5032666666666668,887,34,107,15,30,235,105,150,0.049,0.828,0.123,0.9277,1,0,6,0,0,0,64.0,0,2,0,6,5,8,1,0,7,0,4,4,0,3,1,14,18,6,0,1,1,2,2,1,1,2,3,0,0,0,7,6,1,0,1,2,1,5,2,1,0,1,6,3,7,7,11,10,3,22,0,0,1,0,6,7,0,1,12,51,14,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11513777984006687,0.1884635311249968,0.0,0.07470405834278314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1286064534753197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12005028102084753,0.5684665996577585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06196389703414465,0.08754823950138013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10423917548693024,0.0,0.0,0.09468019841541178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13929358382563922,0.10278735870350376,0.294038235845174,0.13510948505956924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10977884158966153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14140381534033475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12160987470793848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1331486447040648,0.0,0.0,0.05987071056166054,0.0,0.0,0.21690205852953345,0.10290936594532936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0900868021596653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11736700647066654,0.0,0.13212735610173842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3910343079146623,0.1225810565586357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1734800593390683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1154999391954307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1058420330442584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1136031248979288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15783365086444234 schizophrenia,porpison,2019/01/11,"I had a bad night last night and a confusing day. Just a heads up, Im going to talk about things I heard and a very horrifying thought process Ive been dealing with today. I dont want this to be a trigger and I dont want any one thinking this is going to happen because I know its just my brain being a piece of shit. Delete if not allowed. I dont have anyone to talk to about my problems with schizophrenia and Im really bugged about the last 24 hours. So last night I couldnt sleep because something in my head kept telling me that if I fell asleep he would come up the stairs and stand over me and when I would wake up he would scream in my face. I couldnt stop hearing him pacing the floors downstairs. Heavy footsteps, creeping up and down the first couple steps. I dont know who he is but he wants to scare me. Ive never seen him but I feel hes there waiting. I sweat so bad last night because I was so afraid. Im scared to go to bed tonight. I dont want to see him. He wasn’t there this morning but that didnt make me feel better. Then today I just kept getting this bad thought that one day the government is going to track all schizophrenics down and shove us into an asylum, cut us off from meds, and make our lives hell. I cant get it out of my head. Im scared its gonna happen, even though the rational part of my brain says that stupid, the nervous part is terrified it could become reality. I cant talk about this with anyone cuz they will think im crazy. I tried so hard not thinking about it but it just kept coming up. I just get so afraid. This wasnt something I wanted to think about but my brain wouldn’t stop showing me this hell. Sorry for the long post. Just wanted to tell someone. Some days are just plain hard.",1.8289959016393416,3.509152155737709,2.605051229508195,96.75708504098364,77.98907103825137,5.340027322404372,20.727117486338802,5.800992412223965,-0.20204890710382584,1363,34,315,7,32,426,173,366,0.201,0.779,0.02,-0.9965,1,0,2,0,0,0,30.0,3,0,1,2,23,18,5,7,15,0,32,13,12,5,2,71,70,25,0,16,16,0,4,0,0,6,1,4,1,0,19,16,0,6,10,1,0,8,16,17,0,3,13,10,43,1,39,46,5,47,2,0,2,0,23,15,3,4,22,191,62,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04459122730645153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09169897260137924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16424971222001086,0.11991629816254815,0.07241915271560187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05799312972904418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2196002062101585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11296899121035353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05235392836810457,0.07255420130340337,0.0,0.12686559942738815,0.06760188116389533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3842496397699247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04330970578373066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06631037471409122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055775533151323456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10277603405496406,0.0,0.1490643774980302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1159702548457664,0.0,0.117479314083135,0.0,0.2018874534436141,0.0,0.07390444069823557,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06457523867476457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35414520994594784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0720733429887213,0.21379981699738765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057901301677227374,0.0580291809657548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08753967515272319,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07283574047188905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05057319004723408,0.0,0.0,0.2461396236040573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08886660579413036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14201623181605627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06279987662696965,0.0,0.0,0.06274357468622076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0420071199273872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052145508190049636,0.1969471161829192,0.0,0.052252416332169635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06730874400255459,0.0,0.0,0.06561938290148074,0.0,0.055558966168564664,0.10096110076156796,0.0,0.07340251640070927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10964230233471736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1581129358031926,0.11462568459598645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04356314145397082,0.16806363033098545,0.06442418415757757,0.10411373084388097,0.0,0.0,0.12430922999586748,0.0,0.0,0.0445191024573136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15775015098549086,0.0,0.0,0.0541037900013508,0.2320564846313421,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13974146109144886,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,magicmazik,2019/01/11,"An interesting title. The feeling of failure is haunting me. I’ve been in a pretty bad place before. Gave up on education, family, friends and life in general. I am frightened that it’s all gonna repeat, but this time I know I won’t be able to start over. I know my head is trying to take over and at times I can’t even control myself, go into bad episodes. Any advice on how to distract yourself? Maybe fight it? How to be more motivated? Anything would be great help. 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It triggered an episode of extreme paranoia. How do you know if you have schizophrenia or if it's just pychosis? Do you have to have delusional thinking and hearing voices to have schizophrenia. Is it something you just know? ,6.649000000000001,10.051737900000004,6.0100000000000025,69.78500000000001,70.0,8.0,41.66666666666667,8.841846274778883,4.713666666666667,294,19,39,6,6,90,41,60,0.08199999999999999,0.893,0.024,-0.5514,0,0,1,0,0,0,5.0,0,4,0,0,3,1,0,0,1,0,7,1,1,2,0,16,13,8,0,3,6,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,3,3,0,0,4,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,4,5,0,5,13,0,1,0,0,0,0,5,0,0,4,1,31,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4578137479127039,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2083990701314452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4645311321645698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4530216493233726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3943787884689075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3172987576812287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2640936990245171,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Alternative1215,2019/01/11,"Encouragement So I am new to Reddit I have schizophrenia I went through a traumatic experience at 12 years of age that I think triggered the schizophrenia it runs in my family Since then I have always thought that I was rapped by just about ever guy I knew or saw I have had what I know know are delusions but thought were real for a very long time In my delusions it is never by choice I am either drugged or forced with one or many men I was diagnosed with schizophrenia at 16. Although my parents neglected to get me treatment, I just kind of went into denial and kept loving kept having delusions and all of my other symptoms I learned to think it was normal everyone's mind worked like mine I met my future husband almost a decade ago while we were dating I told him all of my delusions( my goodness how hard that had to be for him to hear) He however loved me for who I was and married me I was so confused on our wedding night I was so nervous and paranoid I tried to back out I eventually went trough with the sexual relations and we quickly became aware that I was a virgin... I tore It was painful I had no idea what I was doing However it did not click in my head what was happening I knew it then but it didn't register because I was still dealing with all of my delusions 10 long years of dealing with schizophrenia and getting to place in my life where I am stable it finally just clicked that I was a virgin on my wedding night That nothing had ever happened to me obviously because of the events that took place that night My question is how do I talk to my husband He must be hurting to know that even though he took my virginity I never gave him credit for it He must be hurting to have head all of my delusions Looking back on it I know the were delusions There was so many gaps The delusions changed everytime I talked about them And then there is my wedding night Any suggestions on how to talk to him ( I don't do well socially because of the schizophrenia) would be appreciated ",3.5319273337913124,5.3925002997481135,4.260508358140601,85.9441416685749,73.71032745591941,6.927990229753455,29.158766506373556,7.686295010490155,1.8117059613769944,1597,68,312,21,33,510,180,397,0.103,0.83,0.067,-0.9134,3,0,1,0,0,0,9.0,3,0,1,1,24,14,0,2,11,0,45,12,2,4,11,63,74,25,0,4,10,3,1,1,0,3,5,1,0,2,24,16,0,3,13,1,1,6,6,6,1,1,37,6,62,8,48,30,5,49,0,3,4,5,36,15,0,6,29,239,86,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07993633337236022,0.0,0.09029908564923447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07503436011977746,0.0,0.0,0.06132334784654155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13868085719122367,0.0,0.1649129057191837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09539514646607594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18593673796883048,0.0,0.09152760088637883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10457651256787603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059560956567859,0.16314024057795962,0.0,0.08616784117724972,0.0,0.08821025935752606,0.0850107052503341,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09878432741970204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09422736066186868,0.0,0.0,0.07563606034723726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08928925551772476,0.15948617491248274,0.0,0.08078074183496266,0.0,0.18509492085055626,0.0,0.10163585974423933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1930723583021546,0.10179868321999926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09390530873663763,0.19823534580852376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0636945734571649,0.044055852141663895,0.0,0.0,0.15960734272492355,0.07572583935529739,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16277624922688386,0.0,0.0,0.1828503368639469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09105290833283576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1390998863369291,0.08709336017879328,0.0,0.33849944639008794,0.08835416311276183,0.08652711620198464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061106164914488524,0.0,0.0959545225079963,0.0,0.1001307162148253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.188431222645296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10101870590669752,0.0,0.0,0.1026409934251856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07459521920233607,0.0,0.0,0.09192393866482773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07201534601971309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09372827150544308,0.0,0.21744219988971328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1155633639808841,0.08859829373328748,0.14318068637722334,0.052582844317727716,0.0,0.0,0.08616784117724972,0.20037958876957224,0.061224159340657475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07440534236179329,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08107981471578457,0.25078452016264074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06564981817888225,0.0,0.0,0.06405904438109837,0.0,0.0,0.11614186503267745 schizophrenia,commentlurk,2019/01/11,"Do clozapine side effects get better? I can barely complete sentences for the first couple of hours of being awake. So drowsy and insanely forgetful. It also makes me drool all over myself at night. Once it kicks in at night my whole body freezes up. Very uncomfortable. Anyone have these experiences? Do they get better? ",3.769642857142859,7.0617552500000045,3.786428571428573,80.38357142857146,85.78571428571428,6.371428571428572,23.07142857142857,7.6454224807358475,1.7718285714285718,258,9,40,5,8,79,49,56,0.123,0.784,0.093,0.2889,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,1,4,2,2,0,0,1,0,5,2,2,2,1,5,8,3,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,5,2,8,7,2,10,0,0,0,0,1,6,0,0,4,28,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1854940219381484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1621880601311982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4102900150289851,0.0,0.2576492870145288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2432000008708708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2566533698239156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2268961222245789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19730047715846324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24237342569167625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22842857223051724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15483150677439406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4353473865765524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2470240949624913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1913868497569801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2589690442459175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,bittercynic,2019/01/11,"What small hobbies do you find help you? I was just wondering what hobbies you guys have or what little things you do to help you through the day. As for my hobbies, I crochet A LOT. I find it helps kind my mind working and I love the rush of pride when you finish a project and people tell you how pretty it is. I also write. Not like, my own writing, but I have a notebook filled with short stories I like. I'll find a story online or in a book and write it down. Keeps my mind off bad things and helps me focus on 'the now' instead of 'the future'. I'm writing SCPs down right now! What about you guys? What are some hobbies or activities you like to do?",1.7606372549019618,3.465058102941178,2.799117647058825,95.18019607843142,78.26470588235293,5.121568627450982,22.362745098039216,5.46131890053228,-0.006022549019607748,506,15,114,2,12,161,78,136,0.083,0.7859999999999999,0.131,0.5715,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,9,0,2,8,7,0,0,9,0,8,1,0,1,0,25,12,12,0,0,6,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,2,10,5,0,1,4,1,0,2,1,1,0,0,1,0,21,6,14,11,3,17,0,0,0,1,21,9,0,6,9,81,31,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1305836580126154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.136341064419363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1053091091018868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4477347191014085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3233672881846884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4378017402717753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14514043720903702,0.0,0.17004232399655592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2393270279796561,0.16366036015426622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13882406712802106,0.14737639480856565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3297544802921253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.113205336188567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16612552943704295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1394495196042414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14272342675414712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21696641029105115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.177081994206244,0.1188777056725983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Queen_Samantha_II,2019/01/11,"The loneliness is getting to me... When I was younger I was surrounded by friends. I had a steady boyfriend and thought I had the world ahead of me. Things changed. I grew up and moved on. I ended up in San Francisco. I met my best-friend, Doug, and worked on my career. Then I got sick. My friends disappeared, I lost my career, I stopped dating. I became isolated. Family is no help because they're a dysfunctional lot. It's been years. January 2012 to now I've been alone and haven't been able to hold down a job or find a date. Doug calls me each day to check on me and try to make me smile. But he's in California and I'm in Colorado. I miss him so much I just want a hug from him. How do you deal with the loneliness? How do you deal with people not wanting you around or taking you seriously? Anyone want to be a chat buddy?",-0.13790444893831832,2.155457924418606,1.7334984833164808,95.9538675429727,91.84883720930232,5.5494438827098085,19.687563195146613,7.079830092131019,0.3826907987866535,641,21,148,11,23,210,109,172,0.14800000000000002,0.7490000000000001,0.103,-0.6920000000000001,1,1,0,0,0,0,26.0,0,4,0,3,7,6,0,0,9,0,13,2,0,3,0,26,25,14,0,3,5,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,2,10,0,2,2,1,1,3,3,3,0,0,11,0,28,3,22,13,3,25,0,2,0,1,15,12,0,3,10,95,30,4,0.17337837177907778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17956770498201766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12123018879586728,0.0,0.0,0.15434350923278303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10568984619665968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1819499045866431,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1770387024505041,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18341132819057268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11181470656267607,0.35749097657094353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15356177596911114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16344569863337655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15846469079203715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4018550998586065,0.0,0.09058304332616827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13866652232741247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1162118679442907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17205128126909516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18926297372361506,0.14740009161732434,0.0,0.0,0.1157314094676553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1842737707918604,0.12745305242876068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12019873261872392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14495208217688824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13035895837326986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11518488622470173,0.0,0.0,0.13764306064052845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11771253358277015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30678916726205224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1262215195816104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11164998699251877 schizophrenia,Azr3all,2019/01/11,"SSI Questions (FL) People from fl, do you have ssi? How long did it take for you to get it? What was the process? Any useful information or advice would be much appreciated!",1.820454545454545,4.488617636363639,3.360833333333337,85.66125000000002,84.75757575757575,5.724242424242425,20.37121212121212,7.1686216300943375,0.5737939393939393,134,4,27,2,4,44,29,33,0.0,0.815,0.185,0.7925,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,6,0,0,2,0,6,9,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,2,0,3,5,1,1,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,2,1,18,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3813740206098938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2654016409438234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2039035458733178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3453827306679482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2868983903424952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2705688271278948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4371993906913068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29343962040391225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3370738907698813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2772414764207225,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,PS4MENG,2019/01/11,"Support for the struggle Hey guys, I've been a lurker on Reddit for a couple years and occasionally browsed through here and I've recently decided to take a different approach with my Schizophrenic diagnosis. I had completely shut myself down from anyone, refusing to directly tell anyone besides family and friends with schizophrenia. Mainly because of the ""social stigma"" surrounding it. Truthfully, I lost my confidence in many areas of my life. I was in the psych ward twice, stopped taking meds, got placed on mandatory injections every four weeks. Lost an old ""buddy"" to suicide who battled similar demons. I had to battle to ""legally"" have my own rights with allowed me to taper and eventually get off meds which I have been off Since 2017. I' would just love to try and reach out to others because I know what it's like to feel completely lost and hopeless. Feel free to PM me anyone, I'm more than willing to share now. TL;DR DIAGNOSED WITH SCHIZOPHRENIA AND would finally love to share and connect with others. ",7.475810313075504,8.908092745856358,7.177582872928178,70.46795810313077,63.53038674033149,10.453222836095764,36.07780847145488,10.504223727775694,4.213618416206262,821,38,127,20,12,259,119,181,0.128,0.711,0.161,0.7675,2,0,0,0,0,2,23.0,0,0,0,3,3,16,2,1,7,0,10,5,0,1,1,25,24,8,1,2,1,0,2,1,1,3,3,0,0,1,7,14,0,2,4,0,1,1,0,7,0,2,9,2,14,10,32,12,3,21,1,4,0,2,11,13,0,0,8,86,21,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2769069532643632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1609404037722869,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27681351808744803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14606316195631716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13398425955861068,0.0,0.13791915006706432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11122153553378372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12444438931225595,0.0,0.1334933446616834,0.0,0.0,0.14460714404340794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10198822995865177,0.0,0.06896817477011727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10557800439763497,0.0,0.0,0.1307076190266704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07254755879451037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09324040158283904,0.06449192015588956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4323034876057709,0.0,0.2382828241446629,0.0,0.0,0.13383431204086338,0.0,0.0,0.293259890278877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13851907155852708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13791915006706432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1303409221551463,0.0,0.0,0.1127332005918492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10919750014910153,0.0,0.0,0.1345644454617297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11036370792788323,0.0,0.13800230947593362,0.0,0.1443941604975581,0.14979990465519408,0.0,0.0,0.19850557220880755,0.0,0.11537987899201045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08962404320571647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10588800013483653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1875478772810477,0.0,0.0,0.08500813765170592 schizophrenia,KindaCrazy71,2019/01/11,"Feelings of extreme persecution from Family... It's driving me crazy. It's like I traumatize myself every day, all day. It is not good for my internal health and my outwards overall appearance. I believe that consistent stress over long periods of time can really bring on catastrophic irreversible conditions and damage. It's really sad. I used to be a funny, good looking guy. Now, I'm just a super paranoid damaged piece of garbage. Where did I go wrong?",4.148238482384818,7.196024609756101,5.5194308943089485,71.71892953929543,77.29268292682926,9.498102981029811,32.281842818428196,9.725611199111238,4.252158265582656,366,19,56,12,9,122,65,82,0.334,0.5720000000000001,0.093,-0.9681,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,0,1,3,9,0,1,2,0,4,1,0,1,1,8,11,2,0,0,2,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,5,2,0,0,1,0,0,4,1,5,0,0,1,2,8,4,8,9,2,14,0,3,1,0,1,4,0,1,7,35,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2732809620798134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3128610129450796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2043664423402804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2286630641349982,0.0,0.12264513249921045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13785188522900352,0.40689400863501096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2401715725201033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2578289038962531,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11850208881488722,0.0,0.0,0.21465710664588564,0.20368849323372584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31077904847428434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2778505467333427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14143811967232145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2094931208013888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2652002192591561,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,littlesleepymole99,2019/01/11,Anyone else deal with this? I sometimes feel like certain things are cursed. For example my dad gave me a guinea pig calendar. I have 2 guinea pigs and I felt like if I used this calendar my guineas will die so I gave it to my brother instead to be free of the curse. My partner has also talked about getting matching tattoos but I feel like if I do we'll split up. It's stupid I know. ,0.3502500000000026,2.697223525000002,1.6900000000000013,97.195,88.75,4.7,23.0,6.2581,0.3951000000000002,302,12,67,3,10,96,60,80,0.117,0.752,0.131,-0.2144,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,1,0,0,0,4,6,1,0,2,0,7,0,0,1,1,11,15,6,1,2,3,2,3,3,1,2,0,0,0,1,5,2,0,0,4,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,3,3,14,6,7,9,0,1,0,0,0,0,8,1,0,2,3,41,19,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2097457040644192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1833926964740872,0.2687374734359487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2703997857699246,0.0,0.0,0.2722058579318541,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21910178932627095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2652339078189717,0.3747466314590692,0.2518305106970707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1370307902298786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14414256059401628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38441116407068665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2594022236125028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21081121428649896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17424757882196013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2265262304303107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Shadows23,2019/01/11,"How likely/possible is it for a schizophrenic to be living an entirely different life from what's actually real? Ok, so I've had moments where I completely disassociated to the point I would be blacked out for hours off doing something while in my ""reality"" I was doing something far less odd like merely watching tv or something for up to an hour or longer sometimes. I have no idea when the disassociations happen and if people weren't around to tell me they happened I still would not ever even know this was a problem I am dealing with/have dealt with. See the thing is I keep having what I can only assume are complex hallucinations. Like I'll get the strong scent of my ex husband's penis and then it'll be followed by the sound of his voice saying like ""Do you wanna have sex?"" as I'm driving in my car down the street. Then like an hour later when I make it home I'll hear him say ""I love you"", and ""Come to bed."" Followed by what feels like a slap on the butt. Those are just random examples but it makes it realllly confusing trying to figure out if there's absolutely any possible way they aren't hallucinations but rather some parts of reality filtering through. Is it possible for a schizophrenic to have like an entirely different life from what they think is actually happening? Or are these just complex hallucinations that are far from random voices and senses but are a constant ""story"" that is cohesive each and every day??",7.557530413625304,7.364957697080296,8.114291970802917,69.42207055961075,63.270072992700726,11.102287104622873,34.32506082725061,10.650279960617883,3.61575600973236,1155,44,208,26,15,385,161,274,0.028,0.897,0.075,0.8531,4,0,3,0,0,0,26.0,0,2,3,1,13,11,0,1,16,1,30,7,1,3,1,45,47,21,0,7,12,2,1,6,0,3,4,6,2,0,16,11,0,1,8,1,0,5,4,2,0,0,4,11,21,9,32,37,4,34,0,0,3,3,15,14,1,10,20,148,37,0,0.0,0.0,0.22306265252084065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07772165769788701,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10174303585599513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09845139723319947,0.11983172084561115,0.12350774350835712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07370810574143373,0.11782878796864445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23881910398435585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07548799015523616,0.10338256455502856,0.09629492150664544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05778885844437798,0.08164936457776159,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05971222159514015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3032009095078878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12881402888569982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11464298298853562,0.0,0.3376602237171389,0.0,0.0,0.1290203925447724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10158690719538098,0.0,0.0,0.06281123027198382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16145393261434202,0.3350202472616209,0.0,0.1009208631619893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10315190191032024,0.0,0.15257998216657742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08692329738881725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12376579008349405,0.0,0.07923484455849368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1080417404047506,0.2576913907457401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10936085255044577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13008794263363502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1817772500486,0.0,0.0,0.09107496387453763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.263959906068469,0.11303651560818692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0912727740557415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09989518970098253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07592972368895277,0.07323292459680299,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0775959454631085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09071871082066033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16237779882144074,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,matadora5,2019/01/12,"I feel guilty for having had delusions that disrupted my friendship I had delusions that people didn’t like my friend, that people thought she was being arrogant. I told her that she should go to therapy, and she took offence to that. She believed me for a bit and talked less. I think that I was also wanting a story to tell and emulate a friend who was talking about being manipulative. She doesn’t really want to talk much with me anymore, I wish that my friendship was like it was before I had these delusions. ",8.123163265306122,7.349016010204082,7.707061224489795,74.71651020408162,62.36734693877551,10.288979591836735,35.926530612244896,9.3871,3.2351812244897964,411,16,74,6,5,130,57,98,0.078,0.716,0.205,0.9061,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,0,2,4,0,0,3,0,14,0,0,1,0,12,23,4,0,4,0,0,1,2,2,1,0,0,0,0,10,4,0,0,3,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,12,1,18,4,8,8,3,2,0,0,0,0,14,0,0,0,2,59,28,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15870366815001413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19681313613064874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16886981809323895,0.22358980635117334,0.0,0.0,0.21666047268651906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10034435335968864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3066502831713853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.112786035620349,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19390929312223293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14588659431753573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27516616367946223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12713477502701606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4785296529956658,0.1734576263335706,0.0,0.2269495531899242,0.0,0.0,0.12716137091335702,0.0,0.15755038396991333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1896313924291089,0.22048980172650895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2341067341136718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22821241535393055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,ZOMBIEDESUUU,2019/01/12,SSI experiences I was just wondering how many people here are on it and if it will be achievable for me to get on it. I have been hospitalized 4 times last year alone and the psychiatrist there said I need to apply for it. My other psychiatrist told me I should get on it before she left and I was wondering if that helps any weight in the decision. I had my mental evaluation that SSA appoints and I should get a letter in a few weeks. ,4.368674242424241,5.23357003409091,5.818636363636365,79.46878787878791,70.25,9.503030303030306,26.03030303030303,9.725611199111238,2.1347666666666667,345,10,72,8,6,117,58,88,0.024,0.916,0.06,0.4404,0,1,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,1,4,0,0,0,4,0,10,1,0,1,0,14,18,7,0,5,3,0,1,0,0,3,0,1,0,0,8,4,1,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,6,2,12,0,9,8,1,10,0,0,0,0,5,6,0,4,4,54,20,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2290610369868627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1504003072858662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1881957801263664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21634256085198528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.346649958684874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14824275325101094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18027962065879688,0.0,0.0,0.2402972555697757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2242273768262044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22288307680585676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16399161562496808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15332849713097768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21037929314605253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12896353870212138,0.0,0.0,0.2113333705075751,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17740583969496376,0.2693203247177096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4796896852171891,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14242350428567982 schizophrenia,I_WantCoochie,2019/01/12,Question I'm curious if this is schizophrenia. So I'm nearing young adulthood and I've recently noticed I've been hallucinating very small things. For example whenever I go to bed I hear loud continuous stomping (definitely not real) but it stops so long as I don't think about. Is there anything that disputes the possibility of schizophrenia?,5.504644808743169,8.567624737704923,6.365163934426231,67.53550546448089,72.11475409836065,9.31256830601093,38.03551912568307,9.725611199111238,4.672079781420765,283,17,43,8,6,93,50,61,0.081,0.89,0.029,-0.4404,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,1,0,4,0,0,0,0,8,9,6,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,4,1,0,1,2,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,1,2,3,0,6,8,0,8,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,2,5,25,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2439635617343056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1684865981344338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33413503639897485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2623601817564136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3375247764141853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3342171771637253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3321060997570286,0.0,0.0,0.3374394840605971,0.0,0.0,0.2927211745926201,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2478561121317899,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19695666076157373,0.1899613430107738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24461279553199355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,patmail1990,2019/01/12,Any else get bat sh*t crazy on weed but it made them realize how stupid the delusions were? It made me realize how crazy I was... anyone else?,1.7402380952380982,4.128544928571428,2.3785714285714303,94.63309523809528,81.85714285714286,6.590476190476192,20.047619047619047,7.793537801064563,0.6544619047619058,110,3,24,2,3,34,22,28,0.289,0.711,0.0,-0.8677,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,1,0,2,1,1,0,1,0,2,0,0,4,0,7,5,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,4,0,3,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,12,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2312599121165285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2377855199996117,0.3484428829115233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5681712948165759,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1776730389880788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6435667236875073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,CaptainPraline,2019/01/12,"High for the first time in a while I don't feel like explaining too much. But i just got high for the first time in years. I used to be a super heavy smoker. Smoking started making psychotic Everytime I smoked, which makes sense cause my grandma is a diagnosed paranoid schizophrenic. I started of getting paranoid thinking Everyone was focused on me, but I don't know. I kept thinking about my life, and it sobered me up and made it different. I'm high but I feel fine. There's no paranoia. There's nothing. I just feel high. I could probably go to sleep if I really wanted. 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The book is basically about how antipsychotic meds generally create worse outcomes for people presenting with initial episodes of serious mental illness and over the long term cause more mental health symptoms (and physical) than they fix. There are lots of studies, etc, cited, but I’d really like to hear from people who have IRL experience being prescribed antipsychotics. The place I work at gives out psych meds like they are halloween candy (at least it looks that way to me) and it’s really scary to learn that sometimes, maybe lots of the time, they may create problems and worse outcomes. 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I'm not suicidal right now, but I can see myself really struggling to not to be in the future. Does that make sense?",0.33999999999999986,2.4711741111111145,2.7792592592592613,91.1666666666667,85.66666666666667,6.562962962962962,16.407407407407412,7.793537801064563,0.3594296296296293,99,2,22,2,3,34,22,27,0.207,0.715,0.078,-0.5851,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,1,0,2,1,0,1,0,4,6,1,1,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,1,2,0,3,5,0,4,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,2,13,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34072573855822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2598963831053744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24942972463068386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33250563172094905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3102642085329837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4070366569062256,0.0,0.4258893680033424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4475043972263648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Defekton,2019/01/12,"The counselling office has thin walls, and people can hear anyone's conversation. Hello, I have been having a problem at the government counseling office. I live in British Columbia, Canada and the local psychologist has been moved to a new office. Previously, i reported to her that I could hear the Secretary in the adjacent room talking. I said that If I could hear her, she could probably hear me. More recently I was waiting in the room next to the secretary's office. The psychologist was in the other room on the phone. I could hear virtually every detail of their conversation. Specific details about the other patient, including his name and diagnosis. I brought this up to the psychologist at our next meeting. She look stunned and admitted that people could hear what was going on in the room if the rear door was open. She said she would keep the door closed and ""turn on the radio"". I did not find this satisfactory, so I brought it up to the local government psychiatrist. He immediately tried to downplay the issue and this is the first time anyone claimed that it was a hallucination. The psychiatrist admitted that if I had the details on the other patient this would be a big deal. But I am not willing to give him that information since he said the issue was a hallucination, even when the psychologist was in the middle of explaining how people could hear the room from the second door. If you have information for reporting these issues in British Columbia, PM me. Thank you.",6.677609078458223,8.361064888475838,7.258716493836823,68.23797104284878,65.54275092936803,10.718919976521232,33.11700254353355,10.771109862388434,3.990006691449814,1201,51,198,34,19,395,128,269,0.016,0.952,0.032,0.4723,0,0,0,0,0,0,29.0,1,2,1,1,5,2,0,0,32,0,29,0,0,1,0,34,51,14,0,13,7,0,1,0,0,3,0,10,8,0,17,8,0,2,6,1,0,4,2,1,0,2,16,12,27,1,27,25,1,39,0,0,1,0,38,28,0,4,7,152,44,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12147601242954502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4161276581031437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08955396907470321,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05737349295040273,0.0,0.0731874830533938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07939300820817384,0.07388729847397177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08332879373190151,0.04936736383205876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6853219345344862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2719933790265095,0.0,0.07720957587878134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0767033592928599,0.0,0.07294469667330694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09232371529522132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08389472859711156,0.18476376053021348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18066369708695965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09365512871012638,0.08311804420743095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0857686776721034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24788543292014176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07185560020620094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06981877190123716,0.0,0.07997359301403714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050651662122620615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058975612158335924,0.09448414264643754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12341276376315913,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,GoldFrankincenseHerb,2019/01/12,"Need advice on auditory hallucinations For anyone with schizophrenia im looking for some advice and help about it. Im pretty scared right now and im gonna just write down exactly what has happened cos the smaller details could be important. Sorry its quite long. Im a 17 yr old who stupidly has been using weed pretty regularly for about a year. Ive got a extensive family history of mental illness unknown to me until quite recently. I read the rules about the sub and i know talking about drugs isnt encouraged but they tie in with my experience and cant really miss them out. About a month i first experienced auditory hallucinations. It was when i first tried mdma and had also smoked weed that night. I was on the bus back home when i heard 2 grown men whispering in conversation however i couldnt quite make out what they were saying. Didnt think much at first however the bus was empty apart from me and my mates who werent talking. After noticing this i realised that the whispering voices was actually just the sound of my own breath which freaked me out cos i could actually hear the individual voices until i realised it was in my head and it stopped. Never had auditory hallucinations but i didnt panic to much cos i heard mdma can act like a psychadelic. Ever since that point whenever i smoked weed ive been hearing things that arent there or adaptations of a real sound. Ive also been getting more paranoid and the auditory hallucinations have been getting worse. Last week my parents went out overnight so i had friends round and we smoked in the house all day. I got extremely paranoid and was hearing these hallucinations all day. My friends got quite concerened as im not usually like this and hearing things isnt a good sign. I was acting like a mainiac and kept checking the door or looking out the window. Next day i got caught as someone left some weed and my parents found it. Since then ive stopped smoking cos its not worth me getting into shit from it. Im now extremely scared as i havent smoked in a week and ive still had a couple of hallucinations this week. Hearing things whilst baked isnt unheard of but im concerend if im hearing things sober. Also been feeling anxious and quite down since ive stopped. Really not been myself the past few days and my moods being changing quickly. Im pretty sure i dont hear things unless theres another real sound going off. I listen to music alot and so these hallucinations tend to happen when i have earphones in. Sometimes when i hear something my inner paranoid chitchat in my brain thinks its something bad such as someone(my parents voices) shouting my name. I then cant tell the difference between what i thought it could be and what i actually heard. Its like im so paranoid its something bad i get confused on what the actual sound was so my brain makes something up (usually something paranoia related). I then cant tell if what my brain made up is real or not. Usually i take my earbuds out then realise it wasnt real. Earlier today i searched up auditory hallucinations and it made me quite scared i was schizophrenic or something as i relate to alot of the syptoms recently. I could just be anxious but with my family history its scaring me. I know i probably should go to the doctors but i dont want to concern my parents further if its just a weird phase. Help and advice appreciated.",3.839418699080504,6.201955656877903,4.936856940769655,79.19961543499332,74.34775888717157,7.663102192649255,29.513242344065176,8.543581382742746,2.4827825897885956,2718,120,488,53,59,891,265,647,0.124,0.7959999999999999,0.08,-0.9756,8,0,11,0,0,0,39.0,1,0,3,9,29,23,2,6,30,0,55,11,6,9,6,98,102,55,0,11,21,4,2,4,3,2,4,23,4,1,39,31,1,4,7,1,2,7,19,13,0,3,37,28,68,9,60,54,11,83,0,1,3,0,37,30,1,12,50,323,107,2,0.0,0.0,0.16767910326352992,0.0,0.0,0.1259310707719596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10305794570869237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04504409598821833,0.0,0.09705822764544976,0.0,0.030036490522180763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.033031234489687075,0.0717344994447345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14386245178937054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04544274553703016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13719048129914171,0.04753103590958428,0.0,0.11081468757144207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04488085829894261,0.0,0.043968247270971685,0.0,0.0,0.100690425078347,0.0,0.04981641127268463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03885701062407024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0420201290970813,0.0809919579711153,0.0,0.02172031905177636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10961745101454544,0.0,0.04710006633898056,0.066376848968522,0.0,0.08977291050558832,0.0,0.048826836712530575,0.03603024232480476,0.1374263531221384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07597335851672034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.044086212454213965,0.0,0.3873247378208876,0.0,0.057586261388262436,0.0,0.043089312275567414,0.0,0.0,0.049566540055382684,0.0,0.0,0.4640086552881262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04721602046717041,0.035015638641895885,0.0,0.0,0.046672839874649465,0.0,0.0,0.08394636215596599,0.0,0.0,0.03801553920706828,0.07214601949638068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08129378860606105,0.05734818064908188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04329049089579935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03428781884792944,0.0,0.06315658565451285,0.03185202593637903,0.03313103954029131,0.0,0.0456851919240186,0.040312177234825455,0.0,0.0,0.04890675972714272,0.045076081307754215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05040071228465637,0.19079438843396568,0.0,0.04100725892005955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04060819223067176,0.0,0.0,0.13110795067401596,0.046314845698230106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27413995357383075,0.042968563721714655,0.19557760404707344,0.05503863015119969,0.0,0.08482958972635943,0.0,0.0,0.036684991162494865,0.0,0.03416108202942215,0.1720295592060642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.044094680538704606,0.10660327144723916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03639727498362732,0.19842210180366804,0.04248551104144145,0.048086776233760335,0.0,0.0,0.03430546694635853,0.10774177337480707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.040486406599041534,0.0,0.03229827204388183,0.06905432071860658,0.0750925161164574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14269340738272715,0.055050143925865616,0.0,0.034103011200739164,0.0,0.0,0.04071815531479903,0.0,0.0,0.029164941788998436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03710100295246355,0.14193299807453266,0.0,0.025337115576854547,0.0,0.10337239594282188,0.0,0.0,0.03982151278674614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04377679071824152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.027662860294223327 schizophrenia,mrracerhacker,2019/01/12,"Anyone on latuda? Know that its mostly for bipolar in the us but in Norway it's the newest meds for schizofrenics, have used it for a few months, works pretty well for my voices and paranoia, biggest issue for Me is that you have to eat when you take them, i just really struggle to eat sometimes so often i just drop eating and taking the pills, anybody Else whit thoughts about latuda? 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I personally admire a lot of the art. Wish I had the drive to make art though, maybe one day. 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Also, I decided to overload on coffee this morning and found that my mind has shut the fuck up finally and I've become more clear headed although with a slight side effect of agitation and palpations. 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My dad was a diagnosed schizophrenic So... I’m stating to worry that my mental health is deteriorating. I’m ok as long as I have company, but when I spend a lot of time alone it starts to sink in. Being alone with my thoughts is terrifying. No, I don’t see things, no I don’t hear voices.. but I can’t turn that nagging voice in the back of my mind off.. it feels like I’m speaking these words instead of just typing... I can hear my voice in my mind, my speech patterns, my inflections... why can’t I just shut up? If I am mentally ill, I’m high functioning. I’ve never had a problem keeping a steady job, fitting in just enough to join conversations with others at my leisure... but it seems like my leisure really isn’t mine.. And I never really join conversations or social interactions, I stand on the edge of the circle and appear to be “actively listening...” most of the time I am, and I really do have a genuine interest in what other people are saying.. but interest and relating aren’t the same thing. I know this, and can’t connect with many people, I always wonder what they actually want for me so I just let them control the conversations, it’s easier to be supportive of someone else’s thoughts and ideas than to be judged on your own. Rejection, family history, history of drug abuse... all of these factors are a perfect storm and I’m worried that my mind is going to simmer and brew into a terrible storm that is going to rip my world to shreds, and my biggest fear is taking someone with me. I have people that say.. and most importantly show.. that they care about me, but in all honesty I don’t believe anyone would stand by me once the levy breaks. And I don’t want anyone to drown with me. It’s not fair to them to be pulled into something that I created, but it’s not fair that they are mentally sound and I’m not. I want to talk about this, let them know I feel like I’m not going to be ok in the future, that I’ve seen what mental illness can do to a family, tell them to run.. But I’m selfish. Is this a part of the illness too? Thanks for being my sounding board, I’m tired of hearing my voice",3.0760661764705866,4.532493210648152,4.7435348583877985,83.68436274509804,74.06944444444444,8.137908496732027,25.66884531590414,8.757208317658263,1.804955936819172,1665,56,344,33,34,563,194,432,0.14,0.716,0.14300000000000002,-0.539,2,2,2,0,1,0,67.0,0,1,7,2,12,17,1,1,18,2,40,8,0,1,5,66,77,26,1,6,17,1,2,3,0,1,8,14,0,0,28,19,0,2,9,1,1,6,17,6,0,0,5,18,50,11,53,62,9,38,0,1,2,0,23,19,0,8,12,237,78,2,0.0,0.10587217488138323,0.08719850569161809,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18509160675364608,0.0,0.0,0.07435129853056355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12495949888941338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06870920067179552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10067354293231304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09110433400260412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10022028250219372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09069439609302034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10362451939094973,0.0,0.07464542025492597,0.0,0.0,0.09232857025170826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16847365165163436,0.10055027262489696,0.09036209414757863,0.12767179985337535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1523491162386483,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09498118357037208,0.30213190878918245,0.0,0.0,0.09440945442714796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10087197750505562,0.0,0.0,0.08867198056941636,0.07942366330860957,0.0,0.0,0.09821537327692988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1827450012107858,0.0,0.13096439322096007,0.0,0.0,0.0790771932196625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07596722304775612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09059289611375007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3601990748567017,0.0,0.2706720744492485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1378336159340216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09516115765597613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09676377312885093,0.0,0.18584446924110976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08550156483653668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1717311058238021,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1421188566874826,0.0,0.0,0.0712051135950318,0.08134628993668777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09108712588291064,0.1514219925105963,0.06879056657118614,0.0,0.0,0.06324659279453601,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10140005947155104,0.0,0.0,0.06718454485581486,0.07182091818261642,0.07810102829197334,0.08226694231683056,0.0,0.0,0.11872822937287625,0.0,0.0,0.14187726715667634,0.10420833200183532,0.1027015058857234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09719360128768187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15811334200888974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08062983557413325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0969027030392476,0.0,0.1814905848603202,0.0,0.0634758945736151,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,mundanecinamon,2019/01/12,Clorozpine Need advice My doctors are considering clorozpine have you had any experience with it?,8.067999999999998,12.3974108,5.428333333333337,69.5025,74.33333333333334,8.333333333333334,40.833333333333336,8.841846274778883,4.884333333333334,82,5,11,2,2,23,14,15,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,0,2,4,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,7,3,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4903351946024488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34122871047137826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5135947534579597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.490838711647606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3720647154095573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,SchizoMindOverMatter,2019/01/12,"The Choice Schizophrenia Forces You to Make The universe supports intentions that are based on pure love and compassion. Therefore, right from the start, I would like to clarify my intention for this post. I’ve been through a lot since I was diagnosed with schizophrenia about a year ago. It was a journey full of valuable lessons that sometimes came very painfully. It is my belief that this disease is a sign that you, as a person, have come to the point where you have a choice. The choice is either to start changing your old habits, patterns of thought, values and evolve as a person or either to remain where you are today. My biggest wish is to be of some help to you, dear reader, in understanding what changes need to be made and how to move, step by step, in the path that you are on. There is only one advice I would like to give to anyone who is suffering. The advice is simple, and it has been repeated time and again in books, speeches and every other source of media. Everything in your life depends on the way you think – it’s that plain and simple. The pain that you now feel can either be your teacher or your worst enemy – it all depends on the way you look it. You can it either allow it to soften your heart and allow love, compassion and beauty to fill the void or the same void can be filled with anger, hatred and pity. Choose love and it will heal you, for everything in this universe is made out of love and there is nothing that it can not do. Allow the loving God to become your light in the dark road that you are currently on and He will show you the way to a fulfilled life. I cannot say that today I completely free from schizophrenia or that I have healed entirely, but the threatening voices I’ve been hearing, the delusions and the pain are gone. Their place has been taken by gratefulness, humbleness and devotion. The thing that helped me the most is without a doubt the switch in perspective – rather than being angry about all the pain I’m suffering I started accepting it as a valuable lesson in this road I’m on that we call life. I have faith that everything will work out in the end and that all the hardships are valuable to me. This faith is what has allowed me to overcome even the biggest obstacles and it can do the same for you. Life has been extremely generous to me by giving me this illness, as I am now a different person and I know in my heart that all the changes I described can also happen to you too, if you just allow it. My wish, therefore, for you, dear reader, is to make the right choice. I have lots I want to share with people who are struggling and are on the same road as I am. I offer my support and insights to anyone who wants to read them. I believe, all of you are my brothers and sisters and I am here for you, if you would ever need support or just someone to listen to what you have to go through. I would greatly appreciate any feedback you have and it is extremely important for me to hear what you think or have to say. 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Most (I think) of the mothers involved in the twins separated at birth study had psychological problems, including schizophrenia. What did you all think of the movie and its implications? FYI, if one twin has schizophrenia, there is less than a 50% chance that the other one does too. Would love to hear others' thoughts. &#x200B; Film info: [https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Three\_Identical\_Strangers](https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Three_Identical_Strangers) [https://www.imdb.com/title/tt7664504/](https://www.imdb.com/title/tt7664504/) Links to watch movie: [https://www.amazon.com/Three-Identical-Strangers-Tim-Wardle/dp/B07F82R56B](https://www.amazon.com/Three-Identical-Strangers-Tim-Wardle/dp/B07F82R56B) [https://itunes.apple.com/US/movie/id1397873475](https://itunes.apple.com/US/movie/id1397873475)",29.151753246753245,38.70319188095239,12.6738961038961,17.79837662337664,29.0,9.245021645021646,33.82683982683983,9.339509955726095,4.4187047619047615,834,22,61,13,11,180,69,84,0.03,0.873,0.098,0.7294,0,0,0,0,0,0,108.0,0,1,0,0,2,2,0,0,5,0,6,1,0,0,1,11,12,2,0,3,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,6,1,0,0,5,1,0,0,0,1,0,3,4,3,2,1,9,7,3,5,0,0,2,1,5,3,0,2,2,38,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2391221800097667,0.2681677286368596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15431458477378665,0.2261273890603628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1931310676804703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.184361767361082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2487385137642344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19918522070211825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29909633629135657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21117463806310074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2828239902189604,0.0,0.17520662106285825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5309361349804704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1567748974880361,0.0,0.2681677286368596,0.0 schizophrenia,Not_Basquiat,2019/01/12,"Hope Lurking in this subreddit has given me so much hope for the future. Seeing posts/photos from y'all makes me realize that my life has just begun and this diagnosis isn't the end. I've seen young, old, single, married, and all the other descriptors inbetween on here. I'm only 19 and I have many decades on this Earth. So much time to do anything my heart sets out to do. Obviously I won't be able to do anything and everything, but I want to live my life in a way I won't regret. Normally I'm so pessimistic about everything, but this small space of the internet has made me feel hope for me, the future, and everyone here reading this or skipping my lame sappy happy vent. Love all y'all and I wish nothing but the best.",3.1062100456620985,4.8034933424657575,4.5111643835616455,84.38994292237444,74.4794520547945,7.880365296803652,25.865296803652967,8.59863814320734,1.818170776255708,572,20,115,11,12,190,89,146,0.101,0.731,0.168,0.8955,0,0,0,1,0,0,17.0,0,2,0,1,7,8,0,0,7,0,11,4,1,2,3,26,25,13,0,7,5,0,1,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,7,7,0,0,2,1,0,0,3,2,0,0,3,3,15,6,14,19,6,16,0,2,2,1,3,7,0,4,7,76,22,1,0.1635909113480642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26924276238091666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17167856870261694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1448929910993987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15631812632756628,0.2940499254335661,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08271648013448837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17414556709065024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19385601760698432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4874480610943969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2310981972863056,0.0,0.0,0.14445377184477384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1476471845072374,0.15479367578029685,0.10919820362907794,0.16585550749809788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24051628570466985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16028435948182504,0.15696989150974516,0.0,0.17166114250649106,0.0,0.0,0.1244182597689955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16363518137198055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13036077615771505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09539117597031647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09649015800744992,0.12985085089794798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18812147459261466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,savethesarah,2019/01/12,"They follow me around ""Follow me around"" - Radiohead What bands just entrap you with their music and somehow make sense of your world? Most recent diagnoses for me is schizoaffectice disorder and I've found that often Radiohead is my go to band for getting lost. Have had some ""friends"" that won't leave me alone anymore. Get lost a lot these days.",3.853809523809524,6.857729619047621,3.2787301587301587,87.5857142857143,78.20634920634922,6.774603174603175,23.285714285714285,7.957251820313856,1.475038095238096,278,9,49,5,7,82,52,63,0.112,0.8440000000000001,0.044,-0.6609999999999999,0,1,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,2,2,2,5,3,0,0,1,0,5,1,0,1,0,13,14,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,4,5,0,0,1,2,0,3,1,2,0,0,4,0,9,1,7,9,3,8,0,2,0,0,7,3,0,5,2,34,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23617639337359936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2261503118746181,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4060005484268338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1470642737498078,0.0,0.0,0.2314516119248531,0.0,0.0,0.2613488676291656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25002956562934986,0.1761799505334171,0.0,0.2382786645930717,0.0,0.12959804224506585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2414570647144437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4978561878672118,0.1938679453780622,0.0,0.0,0.15221571657805205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22515791505631114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,chauhandev,2019/01/13,Super smash ultimate Does anyone wanna play super smash Bros ultimate with me? I can send you my friend code. Just private message me!! :),1.7650000000000006,3.2617054999999984,2.6866666666666674,82.92500000000003,119.0,4.933333333333334,20.666666666666668,6.42735559955562,1.3879666666666668,108,4,16,2,6,34,20,24,0.0,0.528,0.472,0.9515,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,1,0,2,1,4,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,4,2,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,5,0,0,0,0,9,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5138525734487112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6431076899567622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5677746312390276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Lpanino,2019/01/13,"People are pretty dumb. My mom is worried about me doing psychedelics because she fears me having a psychotic break, that is her reasoning. When i tell her that i was on the border of schizophrenia for 2 weeks from weed, she gives me upmost apathy. Im not whining, i just think its hilarious. ""Im afraid of you losing your mind and the pain that that would cause to you and me, Oh you already lost your mind and were in pain? Cool, but don't do psychedelics you might lose your mind.""",5.326666666666668,5.8499296842105295,4.993421052631582,87.46311403508776,67.94736842105263,8.017543859649122,26.35964912280702,7.793537801064563,1.2330701754385966,380,10,79,4,6,116,67,95,0.18600000000000005,0.7440000000000001,0.07,-0.863,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,7,0,3,3,10,1,2,3,1,11,2,0,2,0,14,14,5,0,1,3,1,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,5,3,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,9,0,0,3,1,19,1,8,9,0,5,0,4,0,0,14,2,1,1,2,53,24,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.179429753878994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09911757847136048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16703183500179844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1829667492509127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15597778985374725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35126516920486656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36380874471822944,0.17749375483873436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17248964620748602,0.4925296399715333,0.19043155755980493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3460291918170439,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11272423739103687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16541953098200468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16717672302523806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1421168822987124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10418554643589574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1304254483838611,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16512507358094164,0.0,0.11550419290511504,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,RLV94110,2019/01/13,"For those who are discouraged about the road ahead Resiliency makes the difference. Some people have more than others. But this is also an asset you can create. I grew a lot when I began to look at myself as a whole person: physical, emotional, spiritual, intellectual. If you feel lacking in one of these areas, you can strengthen your overall health by growing an area of weakness. I read some posts here saying things like ‘I feel hopeless.’ Or even ‘why don’t they do more?’ To assume we are not doing what we can, what know how, demeans our struggle. And it is a daily struggle. I am proud of everyone here for coming to find allies, share secrets and support. That also builds resilience. If you try and fail, so what? Not to worry. Next time, fail better.",3.4812462006079024,6.073589085106387,4.2385663627153,82.61250000000003,76.58865248226951,6.298074974670719,24.255825734549138,7.447530270364453,1.3578081053698077,595,20,103,8,14,190,105,141,0.106,0.711,0.183,0.8613,0,0,0,0,0,1,24.0,3,5,1,5,9,11,0,2,7,0,12,2,0,2,0,25,20,13,0,3,6,0,2,1,0,0,2,1,0,1,11,6,0,1,6,1,0,3,3,6,0,1,1,4,14,5,16,19,6,14,0,3,1,0,14,5,0,7,6,84,25,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29923915317389915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16547007198689967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16116553111723847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19547415687464936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21045637295443426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12357429521821865,0.0,0.0,0.1787770186636006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18920141969719845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17100118068566128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19887293389510446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10282236282470752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09140502759457043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15711244021874338,0.0,0.0,0.159061236757253,0.0,0.0,0.12488717557500975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1989773527395859,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12678022143907272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12970791847690746,0.16336388921016856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17918501992881414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1871453462336014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1487852273935758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39118403903222015,0.0,0.0,0.21231286625634155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12429741567739408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10909643332758333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12702503077212793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16882388023968198,0.2088845685933805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19000376563410792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,DelusionalRabbit,2019/01/13,"Can't cry Does anyone else experience emotional numbing from their meds? I cant cry anymore no matter how hard i try. Im on olanzapine I want to so bad",-0.4203125000000014,1.8093700937500048,3.1310000000000002,84.01400000000002,98.0625,6.3100000000000005,22.025,7.554174236665415,1.4810175,121,5,25,3,5,44,27,32,0.207,0.482,0.312,0.1786,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,1,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,1,0,3,3,2,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,0,1,4,0,3,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,12,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2499437535615148,0.17622362567815586,0.2582321588316986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21043259979097195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5536811816908814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22055113602928325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2105368013556774,0.2834972371242517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24653144798935764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2257673132272531,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2722331609298224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27994595578961645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1711102627304049,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14865246550300418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,hylics,2019/01/13,coffee-drinkers? i was wondering if anyone else here drinks coffee and (if they do) how it affects their psychosis :),3.569333333333333,6.808418600000002,2.9400000000000013,85.85833333333333,88.0,4.666666666666667,26.66666666666667,6.42735559955562,1.5121666666666669,92,4,14,1,3,27,18,20,0.0,0.857,0.14300000000000002,0.4588,0,0,2,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,2,0,6,3,4,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,3,0,11,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2596623439285121,0.3805004430133592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7275794737713721,0.0,0.0,0.3102221913369887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4027222136421566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Vicent3,2019/01/13,"Bandersnatch Did anyone have any trouble watching that show Bandersnatch? I thought I was doing really well. Taking my meds, got straight A's, worked 2 jobs, was socializing well. And then I watched Bandersnatch and now my delusions are back. I can't get out of this rut it seems. I feel like I have no free will again. The main character in Bandersnatch has the same exact delusions as I had with the Program and Control study. It feels like they made that show to drive me insane, just to see how I would react. I usually just run away when I feel like everything is a set up. But this time I doubled down on my medication and I feel a lot better. Despite feeling better though, I still feel as if everything is set up in the back of my mind. I can't get it out of my head. I feel like I was supposed to run away. I mean this time I finally had the resources since I have money saved up. Did I make the wrong decision? Was this finally going to be the time I figured everything out on one of my journeys. Fuck. I'm tired of being schizophrenic and pretending to be a functioning person. Sometimes I just want to give up and become hospitalized. All these classes seem so fake to me and all my classmates are actors, yet I try to pretend with a smile that they aren't, stay on my meds like a good drone and continue trooping. But it's fucking hard man. I don't know how to cope. I don't know whats right. 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I get medication much, much cheaper that way. But it's active for 2 years at a time. It's been 2 years since my diagnosis and in two weeks my card will turn inactive. I wonder if the Social Insurance Institute (SII from now on) will renew the card's number? I don't have a lot of symptoms anymore because I've been on antipsychotics for 3 years. Before meds I was very paranoid, had long term delusions and some hallucinations. So I was almost on the schizophrenic side of schizotypal. &#x200B; I'm worried the SII will think that I'm cured because the meds keep my symptoms at bay and they won't renew my card's number. I don't have money for the medication if they do that. Maybe I'll go without medication then and see how it will go? I don't want to be scared to death again because of my paranoia... I don't want to have delusions again. I know I won't tell my nurse about my delusions and paranoia if it happens because it's all so true to me. So I'll have a breakdown and fail school again. I so hope the SII will renew the number so that won't happen. &#x200B; Any tips for if I have to go without meds? 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I’ve been paralyzed for two days, I don’t remember them, I don’t remember what I was thinking. Apparently, my mom told me that I didn’t move at all, not even a bit, for two days. My eyes were open but I was staring into space. Didn’t move didn’t speak... I don’t understand what happened to me.. 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Ridiculous. She mocks me, she laughs with her friends on the other side of the room, I tell her to shut up, to stop being loud, but she looks at me like a piece of shit. She's so obnoxious. I can't believe I have to live with this girl, this 17 y/o e-girl. She's really effecting my mental health, and doesn't listen to a thing I say, I really tried to help her during her drama, told her straight, but she ignored me, it's clear now that it's what she wants. Drama. She's what's wrong with this world, we all are. But at least I'm not that bad, I'm not bad at all. I keep my distance from people, I'm clean, I do my work. But why do people like her? She's so obvious with her intentions, she's predictable. Oh well, that's the problem, I get so bored with people because of how predictable they are, I know it sounds really narcissistic but that's just it. I had people who reached out to me, for friendship, but I just feel very exhausted talking to people, if I was truly myself, they'd stay clear of me. I'm constantly at war with my two opposite mind sets, it's very draining. What should I do? I've been to professionals, it doesn't help; and I'm not using medication. So what now? 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I made a video in response to her checking me out, and got to mention some issues and concerns that I have with schizophrenia and the health care system. It's a bit lengthy, but if anyone cares to take a look, feel free. 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schizophrenia,KnifeHoleHead,2019/01/13,no idea what is wrong but i am currently spinning and lost sleepless what is happening im not insane or diagnosed i dont trust doctors i cant sleep for days every second is nuts i see utterly morbid horrorshow type shit i cant even explain too surreal and too scary for me to entertain it happens in flashes often i jut back in terror and laugh so much it hurts in fear but i have hypnagogic hypnopompic hallucinations sleep paralysis vivid nightmares that feel traumatic i wake up screaming crying catatonic too depressed to blink i see a lot of stuff awake now worse than hell no sleep cant stop walking in circles repeating phrases spoken somehow intrusive voices im trying to sleep talking to the surprise floating rotten head inches from my eyeballs spewing vitriol and maggots surprise you cant escape us burying me alive ripping my flesh but a deadpan man on a radio is giving me advice on installing lightning rods from his cornfields dead woman floating in the supermarket dead people everywhere i look rot and disease i try to draw i only draw disease even if i try not to i cant sleep i hear disease all day and night i cant stop laughing they think im laughing and cracking jokes for fun but its all too real and letting out these broken shivering screams until im madness and it feels like i am being smothered to death by the immense weight of panic and screwdriver drilling my head physical pain my reflection feels unreal it smiles at me in rage the voices need me to dance i hate dancing possessed but i do it pacing music helps me balance linear lines i saw my face transform into this black hole tornado my soul is rotting like a helpless child my body feels like a cage if i try to sleep the raw meat creature visits my window with spinning machine blood cleavers i hear loud banging on the walls i see them when i wake up they float chase and stare with eyes like the heads of nails staring me down like a casket also when falling asleep they attack and the bladed mosquito man whipping gnashing his bloody dog tongues flapping his meat cant stop to explain because theyre all here and theyre all staring from the ceiling under the table staring bloody sack head the flying killer insect crustaceans with the surreal killer textures i limbo to escape when waking the whispering and the nightmares worse than death by fire i am numb awake vulnerable asleep i see such atrocities i am sleeping soon i am too terrified to sleep but i must and theyre going to do it again and again and again patterns textures perspectives its all to absurd for me to care i see too many senses too many god damn dead too much stimulation im going to sleep come and eat im sorry i cant express 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schizophrenia,eatyerbroccoli,2019/01/13,Schizophrenic Employee Hi everyone. I manage a small business and recently hired a person who I believe is schizophrenic. I haven’t spoken with him about it. I’m really not even sure if I should bring it up as I don’t want to cause any unnecessary stress to him. I wonder if you could offer some general advise on how best to help him thrive at work. 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I work and study part time. I know how to get out of an episode quick or even avoid them. I'm exercising regulary and have good knowledge on nutrition and supplementation, also I know how to be productive. I want to become a peer support coaching other schizophrenics for free. There is a training on that called experienced involvement but I want to help people now. How can I start? I would do it online via discord for example. I just would like to avoid people that are currently suicidal or self harming since that would drag myself down too much. Also insight needs to be there. Any advice or warnings appreciated, or even tell me if you would be interested. Mods, if I'm violating any rule just delete and tell me.",4.206499526963103,6.727681953642389,5.027024597918637,78.23187086092717,73.83443708609272,8.022894985808891,28.0042573320719,8.841846274778883,2.486914474929045,649,26,114,14,14,210,96,151,0.166,0.6709999999999999,0.163,-0.7615,1,2,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,1,1,2,14,9,1,2,3,0,13,3,0,4,0,34,25,17,1,10,9,0,0,1,0,4,3,0,0,1,5,7,0,3,4,2,1,0,0,4,0,0,0,1,15,6,16,18,2,12,0,0,0,0,9,7,0,6,6,80,20,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1463923760084858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2396056421400385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20375156520721532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16545312394495806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15297252762078026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16802439861975135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1978958839023114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07826942304358916,0.0,0.0,0.12565332962921494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2008286655166892,0.15828224994070567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1646630663778993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07318948773691189,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1101274202371778,0.11108204819335267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1622293849331082,0.0,0.3115777006551626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15241039637889112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1562842651799434,0.0,0.0,0.12392419203437595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10603612815417478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1638675761781084,0.17000235468645228,0.0,0.15570971492938393,0.0,0.0,0.2618806888726493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08735528317530189,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2650850560536111,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10906329872098414,0.0,0.0,0.4256822569762347,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,islandguy101,2019/01/13,"Should I drop out of university or continue? I’m currently in my second year and I’m studying mechanical engineering. I was diagnosed around 2 years ago and these days I just don’t feel well anymore. At home I’m fine and normal but at campus I have no motivation to go to classes or study. Depression gets worse and I feel like the hallucinations are more frequent as well. My psychiatrist said I was okay to go to college before but I feel like I need to see a therapist as well. I don’t see a therapist regularly these days. But dropping out of college seems like a very big decision and it’ll be hard for job prospects without a degree. My parents also have a lot of hope for me in university so I don’t want to disappoint them either. I’m on a scholarship so if I drop out now I’ll lose it as well. Any advice is appreciated ",2.6735714285714285,4.656889214285716,5.073238095238096,78.63842857142859,76.5,8.765714285714285,27.86666666666667,9.3871,2.643770952380952,660,28,133,18,15,232,98,168,0.136,0.65,0.214,0.9036,3,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,1,2,10,13,0,0,7,1,12,1,0,1,0,30,29,17,0,6,9,1,4,3,0,2,1,1,1,0,4,9,0,0,6,0,1,2,5,3,4,1,3,7,16,10,24,23,3,24,0,3,2,0,3,10,0,6,12,87,20,7,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1347534825832757,0.12223930259384952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11027792431998193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09377617107558296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1367589318154777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12275950640770188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11734204531436765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17786712580253589,0.0,0.1187723615558926,0.13996476481253953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2091779062462007,0.19703040330455995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07204662990302144,0.0,0.15674256361528874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12353057900368992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13832412102090744,0.1369650006836126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1368436578278904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2021117211827302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15427390902976088,0.0,0.1172369514036512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.102250494559019,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13511191750385804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15312071997732046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13117369865027145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2197755849778632,0.1255382342221403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3202231528135368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11378126536270565,0.08133650913154188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4959516949133944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1329298884504215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1405310453434764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1776051012674101 schizophrenia,astarphase,2019/01/13,"Self Awareness & Positive Symptoms On Meds I've been on antipsychotics for approaching two years now, consistently. I first started them because of general paranoia, but after ~6 months my psychiatrist gave me a diagnosis of paranoid schizophrenia. My question is, how do you feel self-awareness works? I seem to have days when it's like I'm not taking my meds at all (but I am). Most days things are chill but I never seem to be capable of identifying positive symptoms. I might feel something is ""off,"" but I can't ID hallucinations or delusions as such, no matter what. My fiancé is able to recognize symptoms & when he points things out I can sometimes get it, but usually it's like... ""oh yeah...... I suppose you're right."" I trust his judgement but it still feels very real, y'know? **tl;dr** I see a lot of people here are able to ID their positive symptoms as such, but I've never gotten to that point even on stable medication. I wonder if I should bring it up with my doctor & psychiatrist. 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I'm currently watching the Netflix series You. You get an in-depth look at how the main character, a stalker, thinks, feels, you know his motivations, etc. I'm currently unmedicated, and because of this it's very easy to press a certain way of thinking into me. I \*stopped watching it\*, and will not be returning to it until I'm back on meds, but oh my gosh. I went from being horrified by his behavior in episode one, to episode 5-6 and instead thinking ""Yeah, that makes sense"" and that's when I realized I was too impressionable to be watching it. &#x200B; I also knew a schizophrenic girl who couldn't watch American Horror Story: Asylum because she would start feeling and thinking like one of the characters. Anyone else experience this?",6.120038412291932,8.242330901408454,6.396658130601796,72.19424455825867,67.45070422535211,9.67067861715749,36.85275288092189,10.018931242160765,4.2203014084507045,636,34,102,16,11,204,99,142,0.034,0.8540000000000001,0.111,0.7686,2,0,0,0,0,0,32.0,0,3,0,1,6,2,0,0,7,1,7,1,0,3,1,25,24,10,0,2,2,0,3,1,0,2,1,0,0,1,9,6,0,1,11,1,0,1,2,0,0,2,4,8,13,2,14,14,2,14,0,0,5,0,8,4,0,0,9,67,22,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13493698364641768,0.0,0.1828238482646672,0.2050309851130631,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23596628493898464,0.34577703719804315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12974647760070648,0.0,0.20571806915843588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2819121821359411,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18818366104212467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1650547980692472,0.0,0.0,0.1706345483521889,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08815685442895091,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09273211305273654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0824351932754014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1416945513418498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11263164321561298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1874260812565876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2286778382516228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11943120506575425,0.0,0.0,0.1410696653415454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4324732257901547,0.0,0.1339564096599183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13922370082852714,0.0,0.13393365663102286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15641864727837945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11986420527318208,0.0,0.2050309851130631,0.0 schizophrenia,blackpillceled,2019/01/14,a voice got killed by someone last night it was scary I heard him scream he was asking for my help but I didnt want to help him because hes mean to me. ,-1.1755714285714305,0.6412902285714317,0.633928571428573,106.10232142857143,89.57142857142857,3.5,14.464285714285715,3.1291,-1.6605714285714286,118,2,32,0,4,38,29,35,0.215,0.6409999999999999,0.14400000000000002,-0.1613,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,1,0,4,0,0,0,0,3,9,1,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,5,3,7,0,4,4,0,2,0,0,0,0,8,0,0,0,2,17,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3168794891390718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20662533452402396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2710952621680528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4543921096255633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3750062323533668,0.0,0.0,0.27629558732945464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3692240659498273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31808863461078113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2871975739651533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1999259045689724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,throwawayforhelp420,2019/01/14,"a venting i said in my last post that i'd ask my parents for help the next time i have an episode. lmao that didn't happen. my hallucinations have gotten worse since then. they used to stick to my peripheral vision. now they sometimes don't. there's a couple recurrences. i keep on seeing some dude in a yellow yacket, watching me. at school i was knelt down packing up, and to my right i very clearly some a person floating, their fingers wire shaking. there was nothing at all. i can't count the amount of times i've seen a person that doesn't exist in the middle of the road. another hallucination, an impossibly skinny man, went up to my ear and whispered and I didn't hear anything. I think I'm being more paranoid than usual. I went on a purge of people off my snap private story, looking back on it it was random adn I had no readosn to think anyone was making fun of me for it but whatev. there's something that's happened since i was a kid that i think mite be related to mental illness. when focus in on something for a long time, like a book, it's like my consciousness moves forward, my field of view shrinks. i dunno it's weird and it shifts my consciousness. is there anyway to get help without needing parental stuff? i live close (<30min) to one of the biggest cities in the USA, I have a license, currently a car, I'm 17",2.1427590511860197,4.462364898876409,3.425468164794008,88.11687890137327,79.78651685393258,5.603495630461923,24.495630461922595,6.775458762138228,0.9226918851435704,1056,39,208,11,27,343,157,267,0.05,0.8690000000000001,0.08199999999999999,0.8294,3,0,2,0,0,0,33.0,0,0,3,0,8,5,0,1,19,0,17,4,3,2,2,22,38,7,0,1,2,2,1,2,0,0,1,4,0,4,12,5,1,1,5,1,0,6,7,2,0,1,13,11,30,3,34,23,5,39,0,0,6,0,14,21,0,4,15,132,42,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13935216045251425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09292338440474306,0.0,0.10936139159127596,0.0,0.12423903315530982,0.0,0.0,0.10218817333475716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14704596456501315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06943223498333753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23503749856379705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14978250153516742,0.0,0.1781536461279303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11812332254933648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10832729100943683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12985172276098936,0.0,0.11734885922172407,0.11760803281872598,0.11159846217692428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08870854987922168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13392706193853735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14124652125912787,0.0,0.09854007571125196,0.0,0.0,0.14133550814217505,0.0,0.0,0.12751648825494347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09005319838042042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29512869164300165,0.0,0.0,0.092132769461408,0.2320778518329102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12727682570111076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11349173876221585,0.12641372789509478,0.0,0.0,0.13449699477893978,0.1059002348917886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21986449591328106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20461837051928036,0.1314367093326184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15213316096440596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2554615534285915,0.0,0.0,0.2324767059450175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11477874742415058,0.14636524119507208,0.10965242321533698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24639028567792498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.128106189888716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13543151950169313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,ms-elle,2019/01/14,"empty I used to be a person full of life and imagination and deep emotions, things used to touch me so easily and I would become emotional with just one song. Now it's all empty. After my psychotic break, it feels like my personality was fully wiped away and I remember nothing about who I once was. the world, everything in it including people and places, and myself, feel unfamiliar. It feels like all my hopes and dream for the future will go nowhere because I dont have the feelings necessary to strive for those dreams, and everything feels timeless like no time is passing, the days the same. Its been 8 months but it feels like its been a different timeline, old thoughts feel foreign and I cant remember anything. &#x200B; Sorry I guess Im just throwing out everything i feel again, but it might not sum up my experience very well. Are these negative symptoms? Perhaps medication? Has anyone gotten over this at all?",5.1991932773109255,7.4264167176470615,5.457478991596641,77.56294117647059,70.05882352941177,8.857142857142858,30.378151260504197,9.424239791934726,2.9932857142857143,742,31,128,17,14,235,117,170,0.064,0.816,0.121,0.7806,1,0,0,0,0,0,23.0,0,0,0,0,7,6,0,0,7,0,14,3,0,2,3,38,29,12,0,2,5,0,9,4,0,3,3,1,0,2,13,11,0,0,12,3,0,3,5,0,1,1,6,10,14,6,15,19,5,22,0,0,0,0,3,10,0,3,12,89,27,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12286416412209705,0.13778815424877516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07928889101506766,0.0,0.09331497679172154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1065389673698043,0.0,0.0,0.06912494964927322,0.12523661158193894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07313082797765981,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11847434305614715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13289888401579894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25510973855991786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.305738156800892,0.11092272693966032,0.0,0.0,0.4586900746841995,0.2430296739561293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06444537406677797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12491811795022735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11262748929864955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12248678543859788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08009471721981101,0.2215975916087994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11423421053430655,0.0,0.12029488909032025,0.0,0.0,0.09051134418550827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1088062063670842,0.0,0.1189896834171612,0.12076269071676947,0.07683984260455938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07861428168525747,0.19802545525936946,0.11847434305614715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25691038427496515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12693717187928485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11786152248556532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07533504633760564,0.0,0.0,0.09002349779792844,0.06612192872402367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19587490605636887,0.0,0.09356330583042297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1019563281362226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08055303248911612,0.0,0.13778815424877516,0.0 schizophrenia,punchherghost,2019/01/14,my medication is on backorder and i dont know what to do...? My medication that I take is on backorder and I don't know what to do. I've been trying and failing so many different medications since 2013 and this is the only one that only somewhat helps me. Does anyone know how long backorders usually take to correct themselves? If they do at all? I don't know what I'll do if I can't get ahold of my medication anymore and I'm almost out... :/,2.2176098901098875,4.019086736263739,4.795700549450551,80.93992445054947,77.24175824175825,8.506043956043957,26.759615384615394,9.188382445141503,2.3487681318681317,347,14,72,9,8,123,53,91,0.07,0.903,0.027000000000000003,-0.5654,1,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,1,1,2,1,0,0,1,0,12,4,0,1,2,17,20,9,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,6,6,0,0,4,0,0,0,4,1,0,1,1,0,10,0,8,19,2,6,0,1,0,0,2,4,0,4,2,49,16,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16528927998689247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1637006467318768,0.1154176532995468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1724583415998014,0.0,0.0,0.1444499536034934,0.0,0.19345556638340727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0862399241746782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1106399422199374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3628627836158085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1460777956384957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16735053466102698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6651446041231924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11185267191641536,0.2510795403544224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13654390832165722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2482174648321429,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1120686565368986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18179635590732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,The_Juice_Loosener,2019/01/14,"Forming a good relationship with the voices So yeah, going to some group meetings for people who hear voices and the guy running the group keeps going on about forming good relationships with the voices, was wandering if anyone has ever herd of this approach to dealing with voices? And has anyone tried doing this? And how did it work out for you?",4.828095238095237,7.607361888888893,4.987539682539683,78.00607142857146,72.96825396825399,6.104761904761905,24.785714285714285,7.1686216300943375,1.4229809523809522,281,9,43,3,6,88,44,63,0.0,0.87,0.13,0.8331,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,1,0,1,4,2,0,0,5,1,5,0,0,1,1,12,9,6,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,0,1,4,7,0,1,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,0,2,5,1,2,11,7,3,7,0,0,0,0,10,2,0,2,1,36,5,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3385190211895759,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2495613854002075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21896428267975612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2751455427108441,0.4060701551004833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2396852881445296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27282812682629193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2151610802017931,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16781940916891924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5197806865669092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16434822071127073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17622832104046118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,lwsrc,2019/01/14,"Having a really rough time at the moment My treatment for my depression(cymbalta/duloxetine 30mg) isn’t working and it’s come and a really inconvenient time. I can’t manage deadlines at university, struggling with hygiene, motivation, sleep, diet, feeling hopeless. My medication is supposed to treat anxiety as well as depression but I’ve been worrying a lot about my future prospects as well as physical symptom of feeling an itch under my skin. I’ve been in the brink of crying which I never ever do and can no longer hold back. Hope you’re all having a better day then me, I wouldn’t want anyone to feel like this ",8.631594202898555,8.220081391304351,9.225869565217394,63.05561594202898,61.17391304347826,11.84057971014493,37.42753623188406,11.20814326018867,4.4140144927536245,500,21,81,12,6,169,85,115,0.155,0.638,0.207,0.6655,0,0,0,0,0,1,13.0,0,0,0,3,5,9,0,1,7,0,10,6,3,1,3,18,16,9,0,3,1,0,5,1,0,1,3,0,0,0,3,5,1,1,4,0,0,1,5,3,2,0,2,5,9,6,15,13,2,15,0,2,0,0,0,5,0,2,10,57,12,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.155958296019167,0.0,0.0,0.14254909406749036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15676174115476774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18030448696410692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17561404340654482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22393918678191232,0.13147785450347416,0.0,0.17559102280672306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18441008141552706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3092450299479369,0.1456431849424332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2024867085550164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09959950103656116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1733210987643942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20537534343979968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15723540233487426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26120584430379545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2040150139203011,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21312687128049265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21189668616426605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23775388751025786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12024650047237563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3666032409888135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1484181741107206,0.2070376296604168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,risir,2019/01/14,"Anybody else get kinda fat? Not bragging but I used to work out all the time before I got sick and when I got sick i got out of the habit and gained probably like 40 lbs. I've noticed people don't treat me as well, I've never been judgmental of fat people but it kind of pisses me off when I get treated worse because I'm kind of fat. I don't expect girls to be as interested in me but some people are just huge fucking dicks. When I used to go to the gym and a fat guy was there I would approach him and encourage him because I wanted him to do well but I feel like some people don't want me to do well and just want to be judgemental assholes. I got a gym membership and started lifting weights like I used to but started to get stretch marks so I decided to do a bunch of cardio first. I'm really determined to lose the weight from the meds because I hate that I have schizophrenia and feel like it leaves a physical mark on me. I wish some of us could get together and go to the gym because going by myself is not as fun and its hard to get work out partners because nobody does the old school work outs anymore where you need spotters. Hope you're all well and just want to remind anyone that doesn't know yet that life can get way better after you get sick even when it feels like you are fucked forever. peace",3.274490909090908,4.305302512727273,4.232863636363638,89.20529545454546,72.96363636363638,7.245454545454546,25.38636363636364,7.554174236665415,1.090254545454545,1041,32,226,12,20,337,137,275,0.163,0.6509999999999999,0.18600000000000005,0.748,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,1,3,0,7,16,23,4,0,11,0,18,15,6,3,3,49,53,23,0,10,10,0,6,5,1,1,9,0,0,3,7,14,6,0,5,3,0,4,7,5,4,1,6,6,29,18,33,43,6,27,0,1,0,3,11,10,4,5,17,139,36,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08770988065046557,0.06184012585143196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2695645966956841,0.0,0.07525692584153325,0.0,0.0,0.07821903210524238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07061308163558952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07739546815156581,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07388125310718137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0584145619143853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13415554617173545,0.189547179064763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0752280181917039,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1635248821501463,0.3234480452810153,0.0,0.1507894734739629,0.0,0.282937947297824,0.0,0.0,0.08757066785499061,0.0,0.0,0.07922592109534388,0.08731735018302986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08784204222550825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1841957479321581,0.048604956789765695,0.0,0.0,0.09364643432398698,0.0,0.0,0.062468617349771126,0.216039453604828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09894305233926738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09823820768077192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06557801055599967,0.06821128631014348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1006908638104325,0.0928041356530129,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24525589957929356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09535454498764312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056657681308127275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08950719065011246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1251982376001584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05157076031062142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10638384393282088,0.22915433713207164,0.0,0.0,0.20865958555682865,0.07020048803960767,0.0,0.21539504967953035,0.3180769503811438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1017029864325741,0.0,0.0,0.193158685974558,0.0,0.09012911296640068,0.06282607314932412,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,alr123321,2019/01/14,Has anyone lost the med weight? I'm starting a new diet and I honestly only need to lose like 25 pounds but it seems really hard.,0.8633333333333333,3.1244908888888894,3.216296296296296,88.03333333333335,84.55555555555556,6.562962962962962,16.407407407407412,7.793537801064563,0.4805407407407407,102,2,21,2,3,35,26,27,0.196,0.672,0.133,-0.1997,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,2,0,4,0,0,2,0,1,2,0,0,0,4,6,2,0,1,1,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,2,1,2,1,5,0,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,8,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2158762070102853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.276567861198215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15083338582081762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3453979201196367,0.33702309054173585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3429373948649985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2289246987646913,0.0,0.2981802816124854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23480852919841602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19778493608147849,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2810627232337413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21852575722781167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3759586974751626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Toppo1213,2019/01/14,"Anyone know what I am ? * raw thoughts * The paragraph below will show what I think in my mind and all I want to know is what I am classified as. I've read what a schizophrenia, crazy etc is. Please read below and tell me what I'm classified as. WARNING very dark thoughts below. I will be completely honest with what I'm about to say. I see people on this Reddit saying they see stuff or hear stuff etc. I myself do not see stuff or hear voices. BUT my mind thinks very bad stuff. I enjoy watching bad stuff, and I have thoughts of doing this some time before I die. I like watching people get killed weather it's a suicide or murder or car crash. Idk why but I just seem to enjoy this. I also enjoy watching people suffer and also like watching cp. I also believe that the government is always watching and come up with thoughts on how I can do something illegal and not get caught. I feel like everyone is stuck in a bubble and I have to do these stuff in order to get out of it. I don't want a normal Life like everyone else. I will not be trapped inside the bubble. I feel like I need to make the most of my life by doing these stuff. I have no emotions towards other people. All I care about is me and that's all. I always find myself learning more and more bad stuff that I want to try. Buying from the deep web etc. Does anyone know of this is considered a schizophrenic? Or is this something else. I know I need help but I want to know what I am first",1.0716615822656088,3.376679885906043,2.4640329469188558,93.48065182021558,84.03355704697988,4.8201749033963806,19.097417124262762,6.11248444174946,-0.08664340044742769,1138,30,238,9,33,367,131,298,0.135,0.715,0.151,0.6303,0,1,2,0,0,1,28.0,0,0,1,1,7,16,2,0,10,0,25,3,0,2,3,57,60,23,4,7,12,0,2,5,0,3,3,5,0,0,28,13,0,0,16,3,1,3,5,6,0,1,6,15,37,10,31,49,10,18,0,1,8,0,7,12,0,8,7,168,65,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16507888437037496,0.1145087058031284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0962252897960633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17235717815504534,0.0,0.0,0.05855113810457015,0.07752384516227409,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0701550583908482,0.0,0.0,0.0592726047457466,0.07214461577280074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07141257004032246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06021495953677751,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11496168374259885,0.07740052928114817,0.0,0.0,0.2302196772307312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13149932856501642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06958349523812445,0.09831390209517596,0.0,0.0,0.06288990780828986,0.058528647472930476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10784912175646601,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15510481789840094,0.0,0.04612102307912277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07612663481959142,0.0,0.18907731785089985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0972032434423308,0.1680822826949856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.045930343444749416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13895434939620074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10204156254727688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06741791929864245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19081316286377875,0.0,0.0,0.07553129283739267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13765464687658235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10943888453282513,0.0,0.0,0.1644948823788223,0.06264085877872806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10594460224917833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6301560191836445,0.07526555278735729,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06014183913634734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08817967679462467,0.0,0.21850569614890306,0.040122907962823605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04671659249703744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11354877212369174,0.16234062279538014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.062089151791462724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,abzuxoxo,2019/01/14,"Chakras Chakras chakras chakras. 1st, there is nothing mystical about them. This is a farce. The chakras correspond to glands. The role of chakras is for the brain and body to become self aware of the individual/discreet processes. When working chakras, you relax in to the chakras. You pick one, place only your awareness there, and then let your awareness do the work. You are not forcing energy through chakras. You are being aware of where your attention is. Your attention pulls to a chakra, and then you let yourself be non-judgmentally or emotionally aware of the state and location, until your body ""screenshots"" the entire layout into the chakra. The new age-icke movement lied about chakras. They are a system of order within the body that you build yourself. Ie, they are not initially there, but you build them into place. Find a map, select a chakra, and click awareness into it. This causes chemical changes and rebalancing. If you feel pressure at a location, (your attention pools there) simply be aware of it, and it will click into place. Ask more questions if you are looking for assistance. I fucked up my chakras before by building them wrong and then disregarding them. Fixing them makes chemical differences in the body. 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It is a really long story. [https://docs.google.com/document/d/179cgRahEqFxvpo2qOoAYC-0la3LcKtlabQDmXD-LN\_8/edit?usp=sharing](https://docs.google.com/document/d/179cgRahEqFxvpo2qOoAYC-0la3LcKtlabQDmXD-LN_8/edit?usp=sharing),73.5925,92.92943325,43.98666666666668,-213.175,-33.5,11.6,20.666666666666668,8.841846274778883,4.612966666666667,237,2,8,3,3,59,11,12,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,33.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,6,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5429335160985715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6802477124606972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4924289256215875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,lobefinned,2019/01/14,"Service dogs. Just wondering if anyone here has a PSD that has helped them? I have bad panic attacks and agoraphobia as result of my sz, and it looks like something that could really help. The dogs I live with (roommate's dogs) are wonderful companions but tend to get stressed when I have a panic attack or get nervous and they are nearby.",4.913906250000005,6.785183828125002,5.25825,80.16175000000003,70.09375,8.245000000000001,28.425,8.841846274778883,2.3509412500000004,271,10,48,5,5,86,51,64,0.277,0.642,0.08199999999999999,-0.9393,0,0,1,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,2,0,3,8,2,4,3,0,7,0,0,1,0,12,13,8,0,2,4,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,3,4,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,7,0,0,0,1,6,1,4,12,0,1,0,0,1,0,5,0,0,4,2,32,9,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14231736450973512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4631040156730573,0.0,0.0,0.169944369796809,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16250723199417902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21267870855433146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27285228101778936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09943759086463877,0.0,0.1797263463835616,0.0,0.17091929143670473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4776121588817991,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13039061243790212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15669224387986272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2331502276786481,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4414530286367399,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,mountainofsteaks,2019/01/14,"Was recently diagnosed with schizophrenia. It's nice to know that there are people who have similar issues and I'm not just fucked up and alone. Much love to everyone here.",3.17625,6.225134125000004,3.3862500000000004,85.03375000000003,82.75,8.200000000000001,23.625,8.841846274778883,2.353225,140,5,25,4,4,43,30,32,0.052000000000000005,0.675,0.273,0.8596,0,1,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,3,3,1,0,0,0,3,3,0,0,0,6,7,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,2,4,6,1,2,0,0,0,2,2,1,1,0,1,17,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3645259976157748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3572335428258658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3363143235844001,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3253827617844546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3673563934121575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19342885154501108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31765902108267524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2587322207544072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24400580786160805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34751954856536665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,IndigoSpeculation,2019/01/15,"Do you have pleasant hallucinations? Out of nowhere I started hearing music. It sounds like a group of people in a band, but it's indistinct. I can't make out the words but they tend to sound like rhyming words. Weird echo stereo fuzzy effect with the audio. It also mixes in some songs I enjoy. I know they're trying to entertain me. I know this isn't real. But it's still happening. For me, it doesn't seem to be particularly dangerous. It's like a weird bug in the software. Do you also have weird hallucinations like this? Should I increase my medicine? 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The school guidance consular gave them access to my file, and now all my teachers know that I am suffering from schizophrenia except for maybe one of my teachers. I kind of feel like I’m being treating like I’m incompetent I’m a high school student, and I sort of feel as if I’m being labeled. I sometimes get to the point where I question if I do have schizophrenia. I feel as if I lied to my psychiatrist last year when I was hospitalized I believe I do not hear voices, but that’s probably because I’m on medications and making progress compared to last year. I hate my diagnosis I really do you never hear of successful people who have schizophrenia maybe like one or two one being John Nash. So I’m sort of contemplating whether or not to fake bipolar to have a more socially acceptable mental disorder because I absolutely hate being called a psychotic schizo I remember while I was hospitalized I was treated very poorly and the nurses would call all my complaints psychosomatic there was a girl who would fake seizures and fainting yet she wasn’t treated like absolute shit like I was probably because she wasn’t schizophrenic but I did act very erratic while I was in the hospital most likely due to fear. I feel like I’m sort of romanticizing bipolar disorder and my parents know this thankfully they didn’t bring it up to my current psychiatrist. In my opinion psychiatrists are nothing but silly doctors who will believe anything I say because I’m very serious, and they have respect for me just as I have for them unlike those racist nurses who would make notes that I’m hallucinating when I was not all in all my life would be better if my doctor changed my diagnosis from schizophrenia to bipolar disorder I mean most of the schizophrenics are very disrespectful reckless people my sister has schizophrenia and I can say I never want to be like her she’s disrespectful, rude and says things like I have 30 children she even said at one point that she was a time traveler not to mention she put bread in the microwave while she was in the unit in hopes of burning it down, her plan worked and they had to evacuate from the unit and she managed to escape, but the police found her after a couple of hours. I hate psychotic people in no way do I compare to my sister and I will get my diagnosis changed. I mean come on how hard will it be to pretend to be manic and depressed. 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I'm applying for two major entrance awards at what's basically my dream school. I very much doubt I'll win either of them, as they're a significant amount of money and *super* competitive, but it's amazing to me that I was even qualified enough that teachers at my school were telling me they thought I stood a chance. I think that the probability is that I will be accepted to this university. Just a couple of years ago I was homeless, and so deeply psychotic I was incapable of holding a conversation. My life seemed totally hopeless to everyone around me. Now I'm a star student with an impressive extracurricular portfolio who's probably going to attend a really awesome university. Life is wild! 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My mom got it before I was born. However, I’m 20 now and I’ll be heading to Amsterdam soon and I really want to try weed. Do you think there’s a chance this could trigger something within me? 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I have recently come to terms with being schizophrenic. I am doing a screening at a nearby wellness center tomorrow but I have been on anti psychotics for nearly two months now. My girlfriend was the person who really helped me take charge of it, but I am now wondering what I can do to better my situation. I failed out of school multiple times and my situation at my job became so bad I had to leave. Are there any resources that will allow me to find work? I am without health insurance as well. Are there resources for that?",3.854454638124359,5.761105862385322,5.047094801223242,80.44864424057086,72.94495412844037,8.147196738022426,26.790010193679922,8.841846274778883,2.1915374108053003,445,16,82,9,9,147,77,109,0.145,0.762,0.093,-0.799,1,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,4,8,6,0,0,3,0,16,2,0,2,0,11,20,6,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,1,5,4,0,0,2,0,0,3,1,3,2,1,4,1,15,3,18,14,1,17,0,2,1,0,4,8,0,1,8,69,20,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13306659717249034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16338154095850946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1730597899760027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1685578100717112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17884459745356218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20799476158155686,0.0,0.0,0.13115770231173535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19417853899278328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2071929531716173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2136038014480192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15618695949211472,0.20797294459603566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17085700161303502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12535525132194314,0.0,0.19320674425348727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1980348669414476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4398967298321591,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14712422886262716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1141004268149306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1911473167410844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35187299527757043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1886249749348316,0.212202605375238,0.1424546802617077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Jakeas,2019/01/15,"Overactive Imagination vs Psychosis I've been told I have an overactive imagination and I've been told I've experienced psychosis. But where is the line? Can my imagination fuel my delusions? When does imagination cross that threshold into delusions, paranoia or hallucinations? Will I recognize it when it does? Does having insight matter? Will I continue to believe that it is only my imagination even though the people, that think they are experts, tell me otherwise? Wat are your thoughts?",5.875365853658536,9.560013121951222,6.171414634146341,65.42175609756097,76.3170731707317,9.133658536585367,35.02926829268293,9.3871,4.614210731707317,404,22,55,12,10,129,53,82,0.038,0.948,0.014,-0.4329,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,1,1,0,5,0,0,0,3,0,11,0,0,0,0,14,15,6,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,6,2,0,0,8,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,5,1,9,0,2,8,0,6,0,0,0,0,5,2,0,1,3,39,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28096898748764376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6547096384568004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16471497029035392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18966683730081407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17289061532270528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2179715365306394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15979441199099698,0.2450173093413613,0.19798206628789694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4765918553817751,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,stayingtogether,2019/01/15,"Loss of Delusions of Grandeur I was recently diagnosed with schizophrenia after being admitted to the hospital following a suicide attempt. Put on medication, etc. I’m out now and trying to pick up the pieces of my life. Still looking for a job but in a relatively good place, dating a really nice girl that I’m into, going well. I’m just trying to adjust to losing my delusions of grandeur. I’m no longer an archangel here on a special mission, chosen. I’m just a regular joe with a serious mental illness. Hard to adjust to this. Trying to find new meaning, Netflix only provides so much.",4.105675675675676,6.483313306306307,5.6417027027027045,74.38471621621622,73.5945945945946,8.043603603603604,32.72162162162162,8.841846274778883,3.3190281081081086,471,24,75,10,10,159,77,111,0.139,0.6809999999999999,0.18,0.7899,1,0,0,0,0,1,14.0,0,0,0,3,7,7,0,0,10,0,2,4,0,1,0,14,12,3,1,0,3,0,1,0,0,0,4,0,0,1,2,5,0,0,5,1,0,3,1,3,1,0,1,2,3,4,21,10,3,16,0,2,1,0,2,7,0,0,6,51,5,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20750166416529467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22800394638170896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1868538867792036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11618760921460534,0.17147404980538564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18313752574013265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20287453608616687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14440157791382946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17167758724544938,0.22871536921335706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22269441492997505,0.0,0.20595116414012846,0.20602680728726172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15028646513715507,0.0,0.0,0.19744882417798074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15548535854373208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21359563618486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20551804034590693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13096909982853072,0.0,0.20185922096469008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16326555049859132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22362349650398472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4164027515397782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18381555203904434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,thegreatcatdragon_25,2019/01/15,"I'm doing well but now I have another mountain to climb? I was diagnosed in 2013 with schizoaffetive disorder depression type. I've had quite a battle. I gone from 1 psychotic episode a month to one in every blue moon. My hallucinations have lessened, and are not as severe. I am emotionally stable as well. I mean Seroquel actually works for me at 400mg. Here's the problem... My husband is 27, and now is diagnosed with bipolar 2. He has delusions, and hallucinations. I do well in helping him ground himself to what is real. We had went through a very traumatic event, and he stopped taking his medicine, he went into a severe delusion, and long story short he had to be admitted to the hospital. They began giving him zyprexa instead of depakote. He isn't getting out of his delusion very well, and I am aware for my worst delusion I had lasted a month. I'm highly stressed, because I have to take care of myself, as well as him, plus court process for the traumatic event, and moving out of state soon. I know stress makes my symptoms worse. I've noticed that I'm slipping again. I do have friends and family to help. I'm at the point of I want to scream, and pull my hair out. Any suggestions to lessen stress, or help him more? I kind of now know how my parents felt in 2013...",3.0311157674174964,5.245390847389559,4.03378033874629,85.42483499214252,76.26907630522088,7.061358477387812,28.49676968744544,8.04050195162591,1.9741177230661773,1007,44,196,17,23,325,143,249,0.175,0.669,0.156,-0.9248,1,0,0,0,0,0,38.0,1,0,1,3,13,16,1,3,9,0,21,5,1,2,0,31,41,17,0,2,3,2,2,0,1,0,4,1,0,0,2,17,0,1,5,0,0,6,2,8,5,1,10,4,30,8,37,30,2,34,0,1,1,0,23,14,0,1,13,127,32,2,0.0,0.0,0.10501310490325334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07317937360509423,0.11283983001385252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06559884918071726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10971689145214483,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09268545431709464,0.2184464069771107,0.0,0.0,0.12333187188962795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12104822751578098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09066716081378187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10144635572595524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10332372293781154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0831402228210135,0.0,0.05622246233973127,0.10323056384104508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21638875651598471,0.11369724587573984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11206060844454828,0.11828071152409485,0.08771757153726598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09523261346242867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07183137783183274,0.0,0.0,0.11722025216282388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17178862470047596,0.11437378076645695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12251617738277085,0.0,0.0,0.07292020134063908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11948961282360282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10172746079036343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10296948011156827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11445786283648035,0.0,0.12248521760188415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2431402755163063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0899678646467095,0.3698051389609756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11184934349997903,0.16182060921484803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1775811836149025,0.0634719323811362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4837774078941485,0.19951350494085573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07834230746242395,0.0,0.10966510737590134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,E11011,2019/01/15,"Memory problems during an episode? In general I'd say my memory is average. I still struggle with my short term memory & I would say it's gotten worse in the last year. I had a really bad episode at the beginning of 2018. I got sectioned for 2 months. I'd say the first 5 weeks in the hospital I had no memory at all! I would repeat myself several times in conversation saying the same things over and over and not realising. I couldn't remember anyone's names even if I was familiar with them. My visitors would ask me what I ate for dinner or what my doctor said and I'd really struggle to remember anything that happened during the day. It seems to be common for people here to suffer with memory problems on a day to day basis but I feel like when I'm in a really bad episode my ability to memorise anything disappears. If I try to read a sentence I'll get half way through and forget what I just read. Does anyone know why memory is effected by psychosis? I'm not talking the normal being forgetful feeling but the entire process of remembering completely shutting down until the episode ends? I don't even realise my memory was bad at the time it's only afterwards that people tell me I told the same story to them like 5 times.",4.458023679417121,5.8733003032786915,6.187650273224044,74.84414389799637,70.55737704918033,10.176320582877961,29.539162112932605,10.380263240014207,3.3654642987249543,990,39,179,29,18,341,135,244,0.14300000000000002,0.804,0.052000000000000005,-0.9636,0,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,2,2,6,10,0,2,16,0,13,3,0,1,1,37,28,11,0,9,8,0,2,2,0,3,1,5,0,0,9,7,2,0,8,2,0,1,5,8,0,2,9,7,25,2,30,13,5,37,0,1,0,0,13,15,0,4,22,117,34,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11579408092863824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14945259797343122,0.0,0.17589053816760994,0.0,0.09990943826310184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2676970691305197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11205162675936327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2067677847417303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10938642745450568,0.09352304533152582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0946554921507309,0.0,0.0,0.14117384008174005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1080738147055706,0.07634826622070995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0909039446827254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05583539583622769,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08547405650200175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09450518027984972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05873320086757749,0.08711367529548293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10442300096080563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08530296843236841,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1047103439282908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08127978808093378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1481810186176538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2045211626036182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21379872840520311,0.0,0.2053918281228949,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36319013815834733,0.0,0.101658264894536,0.3399506646830429,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09729083802822414,0.0,0.12073318174103392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08534687426347025,0.0,0.0,0.2234483833039169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08589841433926113,0.09340947816189396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07099997395262082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18695104517746586,0.0,0.0,0.10211928863740126,0.0,0.07255801600541388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08482878367459865,0.08572502348426399,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09643395266324736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10891011216754777,0.2277530904899807,0.0,0.0,0.06882106175644498 schizophrenia,kenlasalle,2019/01/15,"Dropping into memories Just saw a post where someone was sharing their symptoms and thought I would chime in. I have a tendency to drop into memories. Sometimes, it's nice but, more often, it's a pain in the ass. I'll see something that brings back a memory and I'll find myself inside the memory, like a fly trapped in amber. Nothing is really happening; I just can't seem to take my focus out of that memory. And this can sometimes happen several times a day. The memories don't have to be vivid, either. They can be muddy as hell. They can be incorrect. Doesn't even matter if I like them. In fact, most of the time, I don't. I'll find myself sitting alone in a shopping center or leaning against a wall in a place I haven't been in years. Sometimes, it's downright dull and I think, ""Enough!"" So, what about you? Do you ever find yourself dropping into memories? Or anything like that? 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I had a great time with family. We did this all immersive VR and it was awesome. My son loved it. He also loved the food and company. I did too. It was too short of a trip but it was okay. Today is my son’s 14th birthday. I gave him dog tags today that is a sweet message from mom like you’re smarter than you think, loved more than your know. We have a T-shirt for him tonight. My dad got him all of this music stuff that we need to hook up to a computer somewhere so he can make music. He doesn’t know him very well. I took my medicine and was pretty good. I did get some thc things at the dispensary. I already had the day off because I thought we were coming home today so I’m just chilling. 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However, the greatest prayer is the Lord's Prayer &#x200B; *Processing img 0methfhzxla21...* &#x200B;",6.687142857142861,9.63378247619048,2.343238095238096,85.7434285714286,105.1904761904762,5.48952380952381,37.53333333333335,6.742157984588678,3.657716190476192,116,7,15,2,5,29,16,21,0.0,0.8109999999999999,0.189,0.6369,1,0,1,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,2,1,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,7,0,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5223126962540096,0.5857566595742428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20240483902495013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5857566595742428,0.0 schizophrenia,Crazyhorse193,2019/01/15,"Will my psychosis end or is it just schizophrenia? Hey, just to give you a little background, I started smoking weed at around 18 with no major problems. Whenever I turned 19 I had had decided to use LSD which caused me to ‘breakthrough.’ I thought I was feeling chakras and releasing past karma and a bunch of other stuff. I used LSD once more then I went on to using LSA twice. At about age 21 I began experimenting with meth and pcp and that’s when I began hearing voices. After that I basically went on to smoke a bunch of weed after that, which made things a lot worse on me. Long story short, I ended up having some family issues and ended up being hospitalized. They put me on an antipsychotic and I can tell you that being sane feels a lot better. However, I came off of my medication after about 6 months and fell right back into hearing the voices. I’ve been clean of drugs for about 2 and a 1/2 years now and was wondering if anyone was ever able to come off their medication after this long and actually feel fine.",5.361357692307692,6.118818605000001,6.222000000000001,77.8556153846154,67.95,8.753846153846155,27.384615384615394,8.841846274778883,2.009907692307692,811,24,153,13,13,268,129,200,0.043,0.91,0.048,-0.0258,1,0,3,0,0,0,17.0,0,2,2,1,10,3,0,0,8,0,12,3,0,5,1,36,32,14,0,2,4,0,3,0,0,1,3,4,1,0,11,16,0,0,6,0,0,6,1,1,0,1,13,7,22,2,32,16,7,42,1,0,0,0,9,15,0,6,21,112,33,0,0.12588368470164127,0.0,0.12284431732897362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08802079928484477,0.0,0.0,0.11206316827546264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0967967831994341,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11133388928947248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14397739950242505,0.0,0.12931722044544566,0.0,0.1084376478672604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14598510882908214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33448674116546984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11386899978959485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12313839882346292,0.11867193457567315,0.0,0.19095172009999425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12075910101145235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28376012321255883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1313898612204595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12616852290161945,0.0,0.22280619926482412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21404361418034068,0.0,0.11911418620485333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2536291374031729,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10047915612844356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13406201580822405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12017022108354355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12045368529650108,0.0,0.12654787243216786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10750397891843404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08910111995159105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14410670157568492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11002788897723696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08363152653423715,0.0,0.0,0.09993758430907176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1369253005453444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3261692571973748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2333908737861814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13651548622045812,0.0,0.0,0.1282862292550292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08106496568913239 schizophrenia,marekstopka,2019/01/15,"Anybody doing vector graphics? I would need one logo done in Illustrator, so I was wondering if someone could help... Hi, I need one logo in Illustrator (od anything that can be imported into Illustrator) and was wondering if I maybe could someone willing to do it in this group, although I know this isn't a graphic subreddit...",9.159265536723161,8.605965830508477,9.880000000000004,59.25638418079098,60.1864406779661,12.612429378531074,45.09039548022599,11.855464076750405,5.844961581920903,260,15,39,7,3,89,42,59,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,12,0,0,0,0,12,17,5,1,7,2,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,3,0,5,0,5,9,0,4,0,0,0,0,3,4,0,4,0,34,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19315279946954508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3748062239856105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2401978630148915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15732643387495746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1289947974184865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2358056385303457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3480806380866787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31810179287718704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3977513620710543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5090830134140578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16673683331413872,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,habiboboy,2019/01/15,"Wake up and fall asleep. Tips💡 Hi there, The last 2 years I've been struggling with sleeping. I get tired very late and need to sleep for more than 10 hours to feel normal. But now real life hits me and I have to wake up at 7. But due to my problems I over sleep most of the time which makes it hard for me to go to university. My medication also doesn't make me tired anymore.. What are your pro tips for sleeping and waking up?",0.8610500610500651,2.7893593296703294,2.098388278388281,98.02716727716732,82.07692307692308,4.923565323565324,17.803418803418804,5.82211442006289,-0.6361804639804638,333,7,80,2,9,106,66,91,0.138,0.862,0.0,-0.8934,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,1,0,0,3,2,0,1,2,0,4,12,8,2,0,15,11,7,0,3,2,0,2,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,3,5,0,0,1,0,0,2,1,2,0,0,1,2,9,0,17,9,2,14,0,0,0,0,2,5,0,1,7,46,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13140521408980346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1629595118399362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08308422476706064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08584948334160775,0.0,0.09338582611098167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14719684180413956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1618203385993113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13394127334642095,0.18535809937424896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11606281200179056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21936736378836205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1655333105806484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12183987149893773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16099695886696433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1572303364110243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.187030098122814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6577475191861805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1717810716021855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0958152703333842,0.3777192230622376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1355797329936317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10581554059617193 schizophrenia,MyStoryThrowaway987,2019/01/15,"My story I realize it now. I had this moment of lucidity at my doctor's office. I stop, looked back at my life and it makes sense now. I feel like I need to share with someone. Since I don't really have any friends I'll just give you my version of what happened to me. &#x200B; It all started 6-7 years ago. I was at school doing quite well when depression hit me. I got so tired, I hated it all. My friends, my school, I was consumed by hate and the loss of hope. I even contemplated suicide. The only thing that stopped me is that I didn't want my mother to suffer because of me. So instead I started to create another reality. At first I would lie to my friends and then to myself. But it wasn't enough, I still suffered. So I conditioned myself over a matter of months to stop listening to my emotions. I buried it all under layers of denial. Soon I would just stop with all the hatred, I tolerated my life. I was neither happy nor unhappy, I was just numb. &#x200B; Then after school I went to work in a quite stressful environment. I met a girl there. She noticed I was removed from my feelings and tried to help me express them. I tried to let myself feel again but the emotions that came back to the surface were unrecognizable. I didn't understand what was happening. I felt lost and she gave up and left. I tried to get back to my usual state of automatic behavior without emotions but I couldn't. I felt like a stranger to myself. I began watching me from the outside acting in public like everything was fine. I was completely removed from my body. &#x200B; Then my feelings began to morph into actual physical phenomenons. I could not recognized that they were not there so eventually it all turned to shit at my job. I was fired and my family convinced me to see a psychiatrist. He prescribed me risperidone then solian then largactil then eventually abilify. On that last drug I had less hallucinations and when it happened I could see that they were not real. I figured I had no other symptoms and could go one with my life. I felt I didn't really have schizophrenia. I thought I just had a breakdown because of the stress at work and that it would all go away soon. &#x200B; I had it all figured out. I managed to conquer my emotions. I lost my empathy. I saw others as weak, manipulated by forces beyond their control like anger or love. Only I was pure, a perfect man, stronger that the world around him. &#x200B; I kept using drugs throughout all of this. Not much weed but some cocaine. Never a lot. I'd say about 3g cocaine a month. I thought it was expanding my consciousness. When high I thought I could understand other people's emotions and try to replicate them in my life to appear normal without ever feeling them and suffering. &#x200B; Then I began to see myself as out of my body again. I though I wasn't me but merely an observer, unable to control me. I thought I achieved something, a new state of consciousness, the evolution of our kind and that I would soon completely separate myself from everything physical and become a spirit. &#x200B; That was a few weeks ago. Last week I went to the doctor and he asked me the same question he always asked me. ""So how are you?"". I don't know why in a moment of clarity I tried to find an answer for him. I never tried before. I always said I was tired. But I could decide if I was fine or not. I didn't understand this at first. How could a question so simple be so difficult. Then for what seemed like a long time it all came crashing back. I had this moment of insight. For so long i thought I had either beaten schizophrenia or that I didn't have it. I knew everything I needed to know. But I understood that day that I had almost wiped myself out of this world. Though drugs and depersonalization I was leaving everything that made me human before. &#x200B; Now I want to go back but I'm pretty sure I can't. I need to rebuild myself from scratch. I have no idea how to do that. How to make connections with others and be alive again. I finally understand the extent of my pathology and I'm scarred and ashamed. &#x200B; This is only my story and I don't know if you can find something to relate to in there. But I just needed to share. 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Mind has been quieter than usual. I went and picked up my meds yesterday at my new pharmacy. Today I'm going to group and do some puzzles in the word search book I got . I made cookies yesterday and my husband took some to work this morning. They are chocolate cookies with peanut butter chips. ,3.1164999999999985,5.641849650000001,3.6500000000000017,86.70500000000001,77.5,6.0,28.33333333333333,7.1686216300943375,1.689833333333333,249,11,45,3,6,78,48,60,0.0,0.935,0.065,0.4019,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,1,1,4,0,0,2,0,13,12,3,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,0,2,1,0,3,0,0,0,0,5,2,8,1,7,7,2,11,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,3,5,26,9,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15644674334534142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17584455305009525,0.0,0.2474630476713361,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2927707565276935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3436842106564678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31241539911601984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2988296297044328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19825711853872727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.293284034126982,0.0,0.3437653466889549,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3407708586764559,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2868257126297507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2252538059880209,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,termtwottwo,2019/01/15,"Rant 2 - Feeling life is pointless I got very into Islam this summer after having rejected it all my life, but I found some things I didn't agree with and it slipped away from me. I still hallucinated but it felt like I had the big guy on my side so it wasn't so bad. I used to be so disciplined that I quit smoking for 3 months and washed and prayed 5 times a day. Now I stay awake in bed for up to ten hours at a time before I can even brush my teeth. When I hallucinate now it just makes me sad that I am so ill and that I feel there is no point in suffering this way for the rest of my life. I'm doing a law degree, I have financial independence, I have good friends, and I could probably get into a relationship if I put in the effort, but it just feels like schizophrenia ruins all that. Being aware that some other people live life unmotivated by delusion or with seven conversations/strains of thought in their head makes me feel so jealous, like why are we so tortured ):",4.966183333333333,4.973187785,5.778000000000002,83.32233333333336,68.65,8.866666666666667,27.66666666666667,8.59863814320734,1.6721666666666668,767,22,167,11,12,252,130,200,0.202,0.691,0.106,-0.9734,0,1,0,0,0,1,16.0,1,0,1,2,14,12,2,0,7,0,15,8,2,4,2,35,28,17,0,2,7,0,5,3,1,0,6,0,1,1,15,10,0,1,7,0,0,1,3,7,0,2,7,6,25,5,22,18,5,27,2,4,0,0,5,13,0,4,14,116,40,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.145020329474694,0.0,0.12887884531772276,0.0,0.0,0.1313435822934067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12323882480031614,0.0,0.0,0.0995453309704524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10194912606569813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3121833606974109,0.1102702740582234,0.14820370404755134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16924080355039053,0.11925324240231973,0.0,0.08064340823682113,0.0,0.0,0.1294645132616013,0.12345070951705707,0.0,0.0,0.15283437492676372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15841136968992847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15200724708799973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.43609817392284994,0.22622818114774784,0.0,0.1362970954717761,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2060645117854338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12320360595779585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10700938175831866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14591408501180395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16641933465375386,0.0,0.0,0.15516804490276465,0.0,0.16417410007518501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16571804833210155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16452044701358534,0.12326701942175533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10254570239027257,0.0,0.0,0.12253955180365432,0.1800097020985001,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13331198956303314,0.0,0.1273579214558368,0.0,0.122518737973468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13928015546487346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,FamiliarLion,2019/01/15,"If you've taken risperdal, read this. (Risperdal and brain shrinkage) ""Risperdal is an atypical antipsychotic medication developed for schizophrenia that is often prescribed for autistic children by mainstream doctors. Published research by McCracken and others has demonstrated that this medication can effectively reduce irritability and emotional meltdowns in autistics.1 However, the safety of Risperdal has never been established for young children, and its impact on early brain development is unknown. Recent MRI studies have heightened these concerns due to strong evidence that atypical antipsychotic medications reduce brain cortex volumes. The first warnings came from published reports of reduced cortical gray matter volumes and glial cell numbers in macaque monkeys after administration of atypical medications.2‐4 These results were especially significant since they were very similar to the findings from postmortem studies in schizophrenia.5 The most decisive and troubling study was published in 2011 by Beng‐Chung Ho and colleagues from the University of Iowa’s Department of Psychiatry.6 The Iowa researchers studied 211 schizophrenics who underwent repeated high‐resolution MRI scans over a period of 5‐14 years. They found brain shrinkage similar to that observed in the monkey studies, but also discovered that the brain volume loss was directly related to the dosage and duration of atypical medication treatment. "" &#x200B; [http://psychrights.org/research/digest/nlps/RisperdalBrainShrinkageAutismScienceDigestWalsh1202.pdf](http://psychrights.org/research/digest/nlps/RisperdalBrainShrinkageAutismScienceDigestWalsh1202.pdf) &#x200B; Study: [https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC3476840/](https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC3476840/)",20.378330980945663,24.160181582568804,13.196788990825686,30.316065631616112,35.92660550458715,15.148059280169372,58.51235003528581,13.875232112747142,9.685925476358504,1547,91,116,46,13,411,144,218,0.04,0.908,0.053,-0.0358,1,0,0,0,0,0,75.0,0,0,2,4,2,3,0,0,11,0,12,14,5,2,1,20,15,11,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,8,0,0,2,12,9,0,0,4,1,0,2,1,2,0,1,8,2,2,1,28,7,1,19,0,1,2,1,6,7,0,3,10,80,14,8,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09149842651406684,0.0,0.2479393564820901,0.2780559045788687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6386304269246154,0.0,0.13086141271985496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1171096148155417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12870258969084644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1045741427806606,0.09732218333426136,0.0,0.12545122830916464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12088677616544954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.46104829427674704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08824466563541164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1144469534028768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11297198767772075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09464608994094896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09440517503085306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2780559045788687,0.07368014680656708 schizophrenia,thebestolivesincali,2019/01/16,Candace newman Did anyone else get affected by the Candace Newman story? I try to stay out of horror stories but this one really fucked me up. ,2.9566666666666634,5.737758000000002,4.9644444444444495,75.50000000000003,80.1111111111111,6.562962962962962,23.814814814814817,7.793537801064563,1.9257259259259256,114,4,17,2,3,39,25,27,0.307,0.693,0.0,-0.8804,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,1,1,0,1,0,3,3,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,2,0,5,2,0,3,0,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,0,12,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2895678914221825,0.424323023899525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3459507622813108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3828546163783582,0.21636476124548376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28062381646864365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2653009689643851,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.44140529296034414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2811656938101508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,geffalo,2019/01/16,"I’m finally getting better After months of battling with my hallucinations/delusions, three blackouts & two trips to the psych ward I am finally seeing progress. I’m finally on what I believe to be the right medications. I haven’t had hallucinations in three days; which is more than it’s been in months! My body is exhausted but I haven’t been this happy in a long time. Just wanted to share!",3.9603428571428574,6.446682786666668,4.951238095238092,78.64800000000002,74.46666666666667,8.019047619047619,28.04761904761905,8.841846274778883,2.4417619047619046,319,13,58,7,7,104,54,75,0.044,0.778,0.17800000000000002,0.9,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,2,1,5,1,0,3,0,9,3,1,0,0,4,14,1,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,4,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,2,0,3,3,1,6,3,11,10,1,15,0,0,1,0,1,5,0,0,9,39,10,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2191933752664864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2279242901218058,0.0,0.17891906101901114,0.0,0.2247111400047138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1304676032673477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6648335609738979,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10569408016827374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2153534968427934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1790302854597505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2037972777239914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3229499370086889,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17276420581951746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16120794497221422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1179635155597184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1976189756867303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11932254885937685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Highmendestroyer,2019/01/16,"Reality is becoming to be too much This is my first time talking about this, but I just want to feel like I'm not alone in this? I've been diagnosed see a few years ago, but I think a lot of my symptoms have been lingering since I was 13~14. Lately reality has been too much. It's been feeling like I've been losing touch with what's real. Like, everything doesn't feel right. It's almost like I feel my body disassociates from my mind and it's 2 separate entities fighting for control and I feel more and more like I'm just taking the backseat. I feel like I'm sitting in an empty movie theater in the dark watching myself. I can't talk or move and I'm stuck in my seat enjoying the ride. Except I'm not enjoying it lol. I don't know what to expect from posting this, but it kind of helps. Thanks for reading if you did and have a good night/day!",1.5074851288830118,3.4724350955056167,3.3429676140119007,89.74443159286189,80.06741573033706,6.660145406477199,22.83013879709187,7.724431198458867,0.9739969596827502,669,22,147,11,17,224,102,178,0.075,0.69,0.235,0.9843,0,1,0,0,2,0,17.0,0,1,0,3,5,13,1,0,7,1,16,3,1,1,0,31,34,10,0,3,10,0,7,6,0,0,2,0,0,0,11,6,0,1,8,1,0,2,5,2,0,1,8,9,15,11,16,25,6,14,0,1,2,0,5,5,0,4,11,88,26,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11605341922692733,0.0,0.13109830286864715,0.1355944994281567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1445917742250419,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14542353157849428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14683884673950207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08443310653544632,0.0,0.0,0.13288188972869042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1176632029609846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39718504165979535,0.374119477286762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11136119374895777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10981018330253096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08775347473029832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13633390102698015,0.0719506659929761,0.0,0.14768440224031826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3837678358985567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14646692398021366,0.0,0.11130421052336248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13219272009085356,0.0,0.0,0.13914812638922688,0.1924837525366722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12286033303841473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12538596824332945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13095626213092745,0.14901657027916845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11180567612313767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10432695359864752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10829906603405216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1360768742765175,0.09843617318809952,0.2104584128961458,0.0,0.1205343133444482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08388878349519638,0.0,0.0,0.07634099061465778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07722049940075963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08430872410452013 schizophrenia,lunarmood,2019/01/16,"Hear my life?.... from an infrequent poster I ruined my life I think. nudes. self-debasement. Latuda is making me happy. The tactile hallucinations have ebbed. Latuda: mildly euphoric at all times. With better cognition. I lack words. I lack self. Did you hear my cries for help over the summer? My vice answered them and your cruelty. But mostly just the silence. The confirmation that my life was marginal from the get go. The poetry takes many paths but I'm sure in the whole I am shattered glass. 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I don't know if I'm a schizophrenic, I've never been tested. While writing this I am completely wiping my computer, with my so cards, USB sticks and phone to come. I'm completely freaking out right now. I think somebody is following me. They're spying on me. A lot of shit happened at the same time and it can't be a coincidence anymore. As said I just wanted somebody to hear this. Thanks a lot.",1.53409090909091,3.725105574074078,3.644646464646467,86.41954545454546,81.22222222222223,6.519865319865321,23.707070707070702,7.686295010490155,1.2788222222222227,414,15,84,7,11,141,72,108,0.127,0.8270000000000001,0.045,-0.8035,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,0,3,4,1,0,5,0,8,2,1,0,1,20,27,7,0,3,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,5,5,0,0,5,0,0,3,4,3,0,0,2,2,12,1,9,24,3,12,0,0,0,0,4,4,1,3,4,51,17,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19377621490815594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16831278026000024,0.4097292809586179,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11104569291807684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17278437039599573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22022081907978144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4295290100794488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33223033243668354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1506982426286765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18713138396338147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1668635749359253,0.1858623965727404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20056692934052314,0.16163015999975727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16555488305264024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14691035670754285,0.0,0.0,0.17989056660191674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12519920988284686,0.0,0.0,0.113934560836447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23049435476168414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1763107561551222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,123ZZZZZ123,2019/01/16,"[IMPORTANT] Could you please give me any advice on schizophrenic in our family! \*English isn't my native language, but I hope that you will understand me. This is going to be a long post, since I have no clue what to do next. Regards\* My dad's brother got diagnosed with schizophrenia when he was in his 20's. At that time he was thinking that someone's looking at him through walls, but nothing more. About 4 years ago he quit his job, due to big amounts of work which lead to depression. He still lives with his parents. 2 years ago he attempted suicide buy swallowing pills, after that he was hospitalized and started taking meds. Everything was going fine till the summer when he stopped taking his meds without saying anything. (In summer, in my spare time I always tried to take him out of the house, and he got happier and more active. He learned all countries and their capitals, etc). He had been going to a 'magician' who apparently helps people with incurable illnesses, so maybe he could've told him that meds are useless. So forward on his symptoms started to come back. He started posting dumb things on facebook all day. All of his friends blocked him because of the spam in their feeds. About a week ago there was a 'hacker' who attacked his wifi network, so spent couple of days by changing the wifi network password, changing security options, which lead to wifi no longer working on his PC. In a week he had gotten aggressive, he said bad things about particular nationality and that he would beat all of them up. I think that he doesn't have voices, but hallucinations and nightmares. When we arrived at my grandads and grandmoms place, they couldn't stand it anymore, because he was constantly talking about nightmare stuff to them. When we went to eat, we couldn't do it properly because he kept swearing about nationalities that had harmed our country before and other stuff over and over. Then he started telling about how he deals with the 'hackers' and my dad said that there are no hackers, and that he should calm down. He got aggressive and closed his palms with angry look. We calmed him down and talked as nice as possible, because it was like in psycho house. Couple days ago he called police about 'hackers', and they understood that he has some sort of illness, so they took him with ambulance to psycho rehabilitation centre, where we thought that he would get some sort of medication for some time. But today we got news that he had said that he refuses to use meds and he has right to do so. (That's true, you can't hospitalize someone against their allowance. Doctors said that they will all think about doing it with force, since he had attempted suicide before, and his mother obligated about him getting meds). But if he doesn't get hospitalized, then he will come out as psycho. We are thinking about saying that he will have to live in his own appartement if he doesn't take meds, since we don't want him to harm our family members. What would be the best way to say that without making him go psycho? Could someone suggest if there's anything better to do? ! I would appreciate any help, because I want my family not to be stressed anymore. \*P.S He's 38 years old, and I think that he knows that he's psycho, because he said : ""I'm psycho, and I don't give a s\*\*\*.""",6.394545454545455,7.400943779220783,5.932233766233767,79.9604935064935,65.75324675324676,8.757402597402598,32.932467532467534,8.841846274778883,2.6822825974025966,2632,108,480,40,40,810,274,616,0.12,0.787,0.093,-0.9637,3,0,0,0,0,2,87.0,11,3,9,10,26,21,4,1,12,0,50,12,1,6,6,94,101,42,2,15,11,5,0,1,1,9,8,9,0,0,36,38,3,5,10,0,2,11,15,10,0,0,30,11,59,11,76,55,14,83,0,2,2,0,108,31,1,10,40,294,95,8,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05631835066620861,0.2043528902317992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04795531553137285,0.0,0.0,0.07838490234944795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1143130007636046,0.0,0.0,0.09485418105677544,0.0,0.0,0.06556591597962545,0.0,0.044316258938906186,0.04812119046350232,0.21079543868528303,0.0,0.09808296348587107,0.0,0.06048233161509226,0.05097175033453614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05884978909245929,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12193625271514524,0.09929154095359516,0.0,0.062280853889754566,0.0,0.13804590534840913,0.1275397500303078,0.0,0.11150565058770244,0.05941714518479128,0.049639262595122385,0.05849633385730639,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058989870080653366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05897299954056112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06427608675804806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051796870267112716,0.0,0.16299393453812253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.044527152434404166,0.0,0.09033267169231207,0.11057374868805224,0.131016764728898,0.0,0.184377663871198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07726043880686795,0.0,0.0,0.057242624009589335,0.0,0.13300160637264846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05719191044457865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03167361773507306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.028156597685173493,0.0,0.10178208028866577,0.05100343675403876,0.096794495598135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03847050924047917,0.0,0.057900146393924365,0.0,0.3841039650155181,0.058059235834585776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061293403842067974,0.0,0.0,0.0553004670508576,0.0,0.060476192369053335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06399468300654765,0.0,0.0,0.03995550106209371,0.0,0.060214271991477726,0.06326378339716995,0.0,0.06497260576458158,0.11039306371031844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061299844201860375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.049218310869858416,0.2741111478957215,0.1374963467370634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14302396668418044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14649689190532114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16317188125500992,0.0,0.04602582917963823,0.0481838114861218,0.06601846549048675,0.0,0.13195211019981642,0.1260824076997754,0.0,0.0,0.05990280755481488,0.1733315280871856,0.09264652699466926,0.05037382707615599,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07657767671289566,0.18464466061693866,0.0,0.045754205021923545,0.1008188869779823,0.0,0.05462939373363785,0.05507085028400304,0.064032440538923,0.039129058669088376,0.0,0.0,0.059998038894844924,0.0,0.04977645186854397,0.0,0.0,0.06798693370176351,0.0457464334882463,0.09245951468889288,0.0,0.0,0.053426415913925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1111124095385713,0.0,0.08391509543947566,0.0,0.0,0.1637634641532224,0.0,0.0,0.1113413863026227 schizophrenia,cepheid22,2019/01/16,"Movie Recommendation I am watching Elizabeth Blue. It's about a lady with sz. It's very touching if a bit slow. Beware, the intro music gets very loud and overwhelming; turn down your speakers. You can watch it for free if you have US Amazon Prime.",3.0119148936170212,5.696945936170216,3.8930212765957455,83.89400000000002,79.0,6.313191489361702,22.16595744680852,7.554174236665415,1.082850212765957,197,6,36,3,5,63,40,47,0.0,0.889,0.111,0.6124,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,1,3,0,0,1,2,0,1,3,0,3,0,0,0,0,4,5,3,0,2,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,3,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,6,5,2,4,5,1,2,0,1,3,0,4,1,0,2,1,21,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4181079471274725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20008788270353084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4165652685109187,0.0,0.0,0.4606700481841269,0.0,0.0,0.6319866039090777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,wsethdalton,2019/01/16,"delusions associated with political figures Hi, I'm a journalist for VICE News on HBO doing a bit of research. I was speaking to a psychiatrist recently who told me she had a patient with schizophrenia, with delusions that he was the son of Donald Trump. She then told me this was not a rare occurrence, and that Obama frequently appeared in patients' delusions when he was president. I'd like to learn more about this phenomenon. Does anyone here have delusions associated with political figures they'd be willing to share? If preferred, you can email me at [seth.dalton@vice.com](mailto:seth.dalton@vice.com) and let me know if you want your notes kept off the record. Thanks &#x200B;",8.058367149758457,10.720504208695658,7.0420289855072475,67.33338164251211,63.43478260869566,9.285024154589372,36.256038647343004,9.725611199111238,3.937183574879228,564,27,84,12,9,172,81,115,0.0,0.92,0.08,0.7845,0,0,0,0,0,0,25.0,0,3,1,0,3,3,0,0,7,0,12,0,0,0,0,18,20,6,0,4,3,1,0,1,0,1,0,1,0,0,5,6,0,1,5,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,8,1,11,3,15,8,2,9,0,0,0,0,16,4,0,3,5,58,16,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2897573569746721,0.32495342871390603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1869913791555016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2919613376086777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2340274236313165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14697104475089606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2734625227684367,0.0,0.13065146561512814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2640521861968788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24621111863363135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5110764718611603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15773554443851154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32495342871390603,0.0 schizophrenia,thatoneweirdcousin,2019/01/16,"What does 'proven persecuted' mean? I've been lurking this sub quite a bit and although I've seen it in the flair selection, I've never seen the proven persecuted flair in use and can't find anything about it online. What does it mean?",3.569565217391304,5.657084434782611,4.029782608695655,86.65380434782612,74.21739130434783,7.208695652173913,24.54347826086957,8.07648339933343,1.3001913043478268,188,6,38,3,4,59,30,46,0.145,0.855,0.0,-0.6662,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,3,0,2,0,0,1,1,7,7,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,6,2,0,0,3,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,3,4,1,3,0,0,2,0,0,2,0,0,1,18,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22835835781447825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30295746790580336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.485683181647097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2536294199381394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6045563863372543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2140246409161446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2951547649300019,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2396703799430501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,mitakellotofu,2019/01/16,"My dad had schizophrenia, and I'm desperate to understand more - reading recommendations? Preemptive tw for talking about suicide, and sorry if I phrase anything ignorantly or get things wrong! Hi everyone! I made an account just to ask about this - my dad killed himself when I was 5 (having been kicked out by my mum just after I was born), but I only properly started to come to terms with that and what specifically drove him to do that really recently. Having schizophrenia is one of precisely three things I actually know about him (along with him liking sci-fi shows and getting into Oxford for a PhD, woah), and I'm so, so desperate to understand what that actually means. If there are any books or things you guys could recommend to help me comprehend things and what he went through better (we have no contact with his side of the family, and even trying to seek it out has just been dead end after dead end), I would appreciate that so much!!! Thanks again, I hope you're all having a lovely new year!",7.244919786096258,7.6446535989304865,7.1940106951871705,73.76395721925135,63.81283422459893,10.864171122994652,32.508021390374324,10.637119530657019,3.4267582887700527,801,29,144,19,11,256,125,187,0.138,0.713,0.149,0.7533,0,0,0,0,0,1,27.0,1,1,0,1,13,8,1,0,4,0,15,1,0,1,2,35,32,16,4,5,8,3,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,13,16,0,1,4,3,1,3,1,3,0,2,8,0,19,5,26,22,4,19,0,0,0,1,18,4,0,5,13,105,32,3,0.0,0.0,0.2886995139945733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10059149100334568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1217265470060198,0.0,0.13828635763783284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13082428405263902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12742101921636492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11810304475894184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26202856241611433,0.0,0.0,0.09770056001735958,0.0,0.0,0.14134504923393332,0.0,0.0,0.13944694627201967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1545654475030741,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1464652478788825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0991484648473295,0.0,0.0,0.14691913175826155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1636528956308511,0.0,0.08129362512278362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07226682837738843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1335046616391466,0.13996661959995108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1611295555012209,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10873910480877567,0.0,0.0,0.14286322036428598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1002352359109074,0.11250074105799812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14796123335664274,0.0,0.09476211087917,0.0,0.14605434338391782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16558567714229744,0.1046993893804214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1618017883503996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11889346044125206,0.0,0.13618597059841342,0.0,0.0,0.3930890999280097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10042878756252502,0.0,0.0,0.3079823797089508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13712443786145612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.105078979097316,0.16172861527179705,0.0,0.0952564054459499 schizophrenia,EPIKNICE,2019/01/16,"Questions about living with schizophrenia I don't know if this is appropriate for this sub but ill just give it a shot. First off i'm a 19 year old programmer apprentice from Switzerland and i'm currently working on essay about Schizophrenia for school. I wanted to get a deeper insight into what it's like actually living with schizophrenia so i thought i'd ask if some of you could answer a few questions, it would really help me out a lot. Thanks Also, please forgive me if some of my questions are dumb. I'm not a psychologist. 1. What were the first ever symptoms you noticed? 2. How did you react to it? 3. How did you find out you had schizophrenia? 4. If you're experiencing hallucinations, how vivid are they? 5. Do you get used to hallucinations after a while? 6. How does schizophrenia affect your daily life?",2.1032503840245766,4.961840019354838,3.3517972350230463,84.17817204301078,87.51612903225808,5.533026113671276,22.86482334869432,7.07126945348624,1.1263210445468523,653,24,118,10,21,211,102,155,0.052000000000000005,0.835,0.113,0.8590000000000001,2,0,0,0,0,0,20.0,0,7,1,3,10,4,1,0,8,0,11,3,0,7,1,36,23,13,0,7,7,0,0,1,0,1,3,0,0,0,8,6,0,0,9,0,0,0,2,1,0,2,5,2,14,3,18,16,4,13,0,0,1,0,15,5,1,10,9,81,22,3,0.0,0.0,0.16001539322209554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13113029500020815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15329396013520896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13092024220161358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14349513151120347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1483242625570051,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1498696613117573,0.2789531382536734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17133974712003486,0.15729921785268272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1099086061517289,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0901160601934118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11581999148030353,0.08010962540060855,0.0,0.2895848573605613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13940519933870632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18668597903122025,0.17206358419117895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17999468707262226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5510666775404341,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10504622072326203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16595088059140325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17043222080016712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15096562744506384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13017738385128164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14162126253841484,0.0,0.0,0.09671636914164908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1193753403070526,0.0,0.0,0.11648273270005878,0.0,0.0,0.10559415887789513 schizophrenia,felorva,2019/01/16,"Books that explain schizophrenia well? Hi All, &#x200B; I am looking for a book that will show in detail the life of a schizophrenic, but not a reference or non-fiction book; more like how Kissing Doorknobs (if you've read it) explains OCD really well in the story. Or something like Perks of Being a Wallflower. &#x200B; Thanks in advance!",7.5058196721311505,8.862962491803279,6.219795081967213,77.6316598360656,63.42622950819673,8.067213114754097,38.200819672131146,8.07648339933343,3.2980786885245905,276,14,43,3,4,82,48,61,0.0,0.6940000000000001,0.306,0.9689,1,0,1,0,0,0,18.0,0,0,0,1,3,6,0,0,6,0,3,3,0,1,1,10,7,5,0,1,5,0,0,2,0,1,2,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,3,5,0,1,1,0,2,0,0,1,1,6,6,5,2,4,0,0,1,1,3,3,0,3,2,29,4,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4355698740055132,0.488477412550901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1419732357975075,0.1963982658138042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16879055566615847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2010557976002764,0.0,0.12876664618747574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15474070065902185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.185055087197288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3614488025672596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.488477412550901,0.0 schizophrenia,cti75,2019/01/16,"good advice to deal with voices and thought insertion I hear voices 24/7, and I recently found a very effective way to silence them, temporarily at first but then after a week of doing so, it doesn't talk anymore, or very little, and I feel i'm on the brink of complete silence in my head. &#x200B; whenever it talks to you, repeat what it says in your head in your head, this is tricky because you need to think 2 things at the same time, you own line of thoughts aswell as what the voice is telling you. In this venture, it's crucial not to respond to the voice but you can talk to it and tell it how little of a bitch it is(like once a day max), thats not a problem, just don't respond to it, repeat what it says, no matter what the provocation is in my case the voice tries to make me believe that when I say something about me it ""saves"" it in the ""system settings"", which is total bs and just leads to more games and delusions, if you get such a thought, you must think: ""but I don't want that, so who cares"" or ""this is not my intent so it will not apply"" or ""this isn't my thought, how could it change something in me"". Thought insertion is a very bad and mentally painful experience, but it can be stopped with time, you just need to fight (or not), basically you fight it by mocking it, voices are bitches, they only speak to you in your head and show you hallucinations and subtly try to fuck with your mind so that you start believing in delusions. Tip: the more you talk to them (or it) the more it will talk to you and the more control it may have on you Many of you (including me) may not have been aware of thought insetion at some point in their life and people might think that they thought they are worthless, but that idea comes from the voice, it wants to bring you down to it's level, because it knows it is worthless. From my experience and research thought insertions comes before hearing voices, my rational theory being that voices will start semi intelligent entities that will learn over time how to talk to you, due to their semi-intelligent nature this process can be reverted, and the first step it to make it stop talking (using my technique works fine apparently). The second step is to stop the thought insertion, paralize it's thought process like it did to yours and take your revenge. You can hear it's thoughts but so can it, and just as you it cannot block thoughts, think of it as 2 merged minds that have their own conscious and are battling for control. As for the headaches and cracks, don't mind them, the voices use that to spook you out, distract you and gain more immaginary control over you. Just ignore them and if they talk repeat what they say on the second thought line dedicated to imitate the voice, think of your mind as a mirror. I hope all goes better for the people who hear voices and suffer because of it aswell as the people with other disorders who suffer all the time. I share this so that all our minds can be free &#x200B;",10.2725862841775,6.812016986254298,9.018558195129241,75.47376736889288,60.40893470790378,12.114866278201106,39.565516210966685,9.54385415503706,3.4896842073808454,2354,83,477,29,23,727,229,582,0.123,0.802,0.076,-0.9862,1,0,2,0,2,0,79.0,1,30,12,10,17,25,7,1,29,0,42,7,4,14,5,118,86,50,0,10,24,0,1,1,0,8,2,21,0,0,60,27,0,8,25,2,1,6,13,16,0,4,16,22,61,10,72,57,13,55,0,4,0,1,72,25,3,12,22,338,121,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05225467269343338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11587921940115944,0.12995476647859275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05303234530881275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04464898257039037,0.09779269566196007,0.0,0.04550286978513543,0.12049492275835436,0.0,0.04729385890806483,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054520827264298216,0.0,0.05656894155919216,0.0921271115432337,0.056067006782096085,0.0,0.17992863140380633,0.042695045311272925,0.0,0.0,0.034486635386174365,0.05512987218697785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061286421757672876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10461666429311654,0.0,0.0,0.027038319198511268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09097078249459256,0.0,0.05863204057494085,0.0,0.04943632320815064,0.027938224616352602,0.0,0.0,0.04485188226082292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21952110035748906,0.0,0.24107863861751985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053112254644365836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06036621332640565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02938819244854479,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03777062814005287,0.02612494469022551,0.10719101540113654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07138930188582795,0.054214760411388334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053889729166070495,0.05672800505069452,0.26997005828312043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07930134380937119,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056948608379968214,0.0,0.040669774829487186,0.056900649322084024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1112174773730315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05055069683783546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051167884583259916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05279962782849813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17010030798834025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0823345813017774,0.0,0.0,0.07569906741665533,0.0,0.0,0.1341212554280343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04020617685224147,0.3438462871885588,0.09347815818617436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03552608860984338,0.1713215353608963,0.0,0.5518862454834671,0.12472566823023595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07261136483466603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09236961556801608,0.0,0.1323662142052301,0.06308130344710916,0.0424455773392264,0.042894026727603465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.038930080465398184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12995476647859275,0.0 schizophrenia,FatalLady,2019/01/16,"Pregnant with Schizophrenia and medication I'm not pregnant. I'm a 22 year old female, diagnosed with paranoid schizophrenia a couple of years ago. I was wondering if anyone on here has any knowledge in this area? I cant find much information online and I dont see my doctor for a few weeks. I want to know what the adverse effects of taking medication such as Aripiprazole while pregnant/breastfeeding are. Has anyone had issues? Any experiences, positive or negative? Cheers",4.5257142857142885,7.836212523809526,5.245523809523808,72.41614285714286,78.52380952380952,8.121904761904762,31.019047619047623,8.841846274778883,3.547813333333334,388,19,57,10,10,125,65,84,0.106,0.7979999999999999,0.097,-0.1877,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,1,2,2,0,0,4,0,7,4,0,1,0,14,14,6,0,2,3,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,2,4,0,0,6,0,0,0,4,1,0,0,2,1,5,1,9,12,2,9,0,0,1,0,1,3,0,3,6,38,7,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18412480355941846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2825035600082832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29047514246421785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22983018633805985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21082404987187567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21260278194794555,0.0,0.0,0.24343777402870154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2031829080835195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18984567330367125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2167981259341849,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11415348492250375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41849744843744097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1526927571814759,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21795957037539976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16552015412611404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15617412371073308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12251435052614178,0.0,0.16661462394763288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2252555965785642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2675203775553762 schizophrenia,Throwawayundertrains,2019/01/16,"Chewing I notice im constantly chewing, grinding my teeth,im on abilify and antidepressants, is this normal?",6.3583333333333325,9.984317055555554,7.58666666666667,56.70000000000002,72.8888888888889,10.266666666666667,42.333333333333336,10.125756701596842,6.361466666666669,89,6,10,3,2,30,16,18,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,2,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,6,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37990963991943133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.759486605391909,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3444525010728162,0.0,0.4002514662449644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,steph4staph,2019/01/16,"[SPOILERS] Bandersnatch Why couldn’t the main character be comforted by his dad and have a happy ending? Why did he have to hurt him? Just disappointed that getting help wasn’t an explorable option in the show. 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Too Many possible outcomes again. Last time It didn't turn out too good.. &#x200B; Bright side is no more Doc, Doc is saying the free",1.2558333333333316,3.614478472222224,1.6866666666666674,99.00000000000004,83.72222222222223,4.711111111111111,20.11111111111111,5.985473137389443,-0.20742222222222212,139,4,31,1,4,42,29,36,0.106,0.745,0.149,0.4215,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,0,4,3,0,0,1,0,4,0,0,0,0,2,8,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,0,3,3,1,4,2,5,1,6,0,0,1,0,2,2,0,0,4,17,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3148639252233711,0.3531096264402939,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.243740677151263,0.23241858926770426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2368769934023996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29462180288044904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3276067405518243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2764262219570368,0.2310960107070641,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16945063005268685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3160882946480185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1714028357647413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3531096264402939,0.0 schizophrenia,keefersphasethree,2019/01/16,"The beginnings? Hello, I write to you in a paranoid state so forgive any mistakes, also I've very recently found this sub. I'm 19, and started smoking weed a couple months ago. I began reading up on schizophrenia because of a friend who suffers from it. I've always had quite a few issues with ADHD, ego, depression, so many possible disorders, but I've only been properly diagnosed with adhd. My problem in trying to help my friend is that every time I read up on schizophrenia or bipolar I become incredibly paranoid and fearful, I think of a few acute hallucinations from my childhood that I somehow forget and i feel intense anxiety and my eyes inexplicably tear up. Sometimes I begin to dissociate, and feel as though something might be inside me. When I was very young, 5 or so, I went through episodes of what my religious chalked up to demonic attacks(she suffered them at the same time) I remember black gooey forms screaming at me and trapping me in a hallway or elevator by making it endless. Around the time I was 12-15 I was thoroughly convinced I could control the wind or chakra, despite clear evidence I could not. I've had no such hallucinations since, though I do get delusions of grandeur(i don't think they're delusions as most everybody I meet likes me very much, and I'm very talented.) These feelings haven't been around much until I visited my friend in a mental hospital, which I've always been deeply afraid of ending up in. Since then I've had intense episodes of paranoia like I'm now, I feel like other beings are watching, oh boy my eyes are tearing up just talking about it. Do you think I may have schizophrenia?",5.464694802435916,7.225698208469055,5.835847613652457,76.99640277581081,68.54397394136808,8.466166265401501,34.520464523438605,8.964715089967882,3.218971505452485,1318,65,225,24,23,422,178,307,0.116,0.77,0.114,0.3005,0,0,1,0,0,0,35.0,0,2,1,2,14,17,0,2,11,0,23,4,2,2,1,42,41,23,0,4,7,0,4,3,3,2,2,1,0,1,11,11,0,1,10,2,0,2,4,8,0,0,12,9,34,9,37,23,7,37,1,3,4,0,15,17,0,8,20,149,45,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2582163128799096,0.0,0.0952288656546075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08591051664151858,0.17877820254879045,0.0,0.0,0.07305505027815418,0.0,0.0821824931537502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1912682467171269,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0654874042916479,0.11864631593071605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12049017514676608,0.17154579948677015,0.11886756979538385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0925279924057392,0.10903764584617892,0.0,0.0,0.12312234524467736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09514974681598573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09051312775062112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12088690689296072,0.21727626940648465,0.07674692757575963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11778978336525275,0.2489969314756447,0.0,0.05612694685193062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07200704564745489,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11212742232251582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15745238671461556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07170934459444904,0.10891561715124484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10826264038977616,0.11396464049590195,0.0,0.0,0.08574838780687914,0.0,0.15794458735565156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08170419995114996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12110946977195862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1027945468249042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11426341211080088,0.2149151033406538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10607266372957956,0.0,0.1216955259070786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17773189757916755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08270369238308684,0.10624951365709176,0.0,0.07603843107389996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08634694290385372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2065074966323512,0.2110958723075984,0.0,0.18792723181126508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07293688612797586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3545589872755546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09958727723798347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,bhsgzjsn,2019/01/16,"Does anyone see the ‘yarn’? There’s this thing that looks similar to yarn but is more or less alive, that connects to every bodies head, then goes up to the lining and intertwines with itself. Everybody has their own string of ‘yarn’. Do any of you see it? If so, can you explain it to me?",2.614210526315788,4.504292877192988,3.3472280701754364,91.36926315789476,76.36842105263158,6.665263157894738,20.171929824561406,7.554174236665415,0.4909045614035099,222,5,47,3,5,70,46,57,0.0,0.934,0.066,0.5988,0,0,1,0,0,0,8.0,0,2,1,0,2,0,0,0,2,0,4,2,2,0,0,6,8,6,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,7,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,4,0,8,8,3,2,0,0,3,0,4,1,0,2,1,35,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2346244218736477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.241244968266362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3832377921000515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3019280281389074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2906929800144909,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3540885349653944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2897286580650274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5498701746503711,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22921497110619005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,TehFook,2019/01/16,"Does anyone else see the ‘yarn’? I feel like I’m the only one, when I bring it up to my friends they just kind of laugh and roll their eyes. Does anyone else see it? If so, can you explain it to me?",-0.08727272727272606,1.2871239090909121,1.5727272727272743,103.37909090909092,82.63636363636364,4.4,15.545454545454547,3.1291,-1.418981818181818,148,2,40,0,4,48,34,44,0.0,0.8009999999999999,0.199,0.8572,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,1,2,0,3,4,0,0,2,0,1,1,1,0,0,5,7,4,0,1,2,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,4,7,4,4,7,0,3,0,0,3,0,5,1,0,1,2,23,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3271429090700728,0.4793841877361776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4094328439882552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3908421552260797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11828359833318412,0.16712184500358868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1807361237028648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2436053128418266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1142878905130105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1585191148490464,0.17791665505957094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3728287678675573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Adhelpmeee,2019/01/17,"Negative schizophrenia symptoms vs. depression? Note: This is not for diagnostic purposes; I'm just curious what people with 1st hand experience feel/think. Some background information about why I'm asking: I've had clinical depression for a very long time. It's sort of like my whole system sort of shuts down a bit. I function OK but not at my best, and it seems to have gotten worse over time. My brother has schizophrenia. My psychiatrist suggested that my symptoms might be the result of the negative schizophrenia symptoms, since we share DNA. I will say that I've been diagnosed with OCD in the past, and I have some weird-ass paranoia about things. But I know they're not rational, and I don't buy into them. It's more that I have the OCD uncertainty of what if it was true, so it's easier if I do the compulsion so it doesn't come true. My question for you to answer: Do you experience negative symptoms of schizophrenia? What does it feel like for you? And would you be able to differentiate it from clinical depression, or would you say the defining factor are those positive symptoms and also which medications work to treat it?",5.156048834628186,7.232025037735852,5.5820199778024415,77.25376803551609,69.84905660377359,9.516537180910099,30.39511653718091,9.916854025145753,3.1958370699223084,916,38,164,24,17,293,121,212,0.156,0.7070000000000001,0.13699999999999998,-0.8207,1,0,0,0,0,0,26.0,1,5,1,2,6,11,0,0,8,1,19,10,1,1,2,36,27,13,0,4,10,1,2,2,0,4,9,2,0,0,19,10,0,0,6,0,1,1,8,3,0,0,4,4,20,8,23,17,6,12,0,3,0,0,15,6,0,10,6,114,39,1,0.12327857569105115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09858583244081097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11524882688667842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12937325950404846,0.0,0.13458827578345525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10619357712675312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3185389698025075,0.12512515933278492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1078819123469003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2411802046597576,0.0,0.0,0.12466670395228555,0.08807023910591108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06775068118652235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12045537008252732,0.0,0.0,0.10909766013603958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12419019544478513,0.0,0.13077908725643128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11768334975870645,0.08546584216390657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13810021840142378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1960721428584825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11222818528963434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10197731173728786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6406682133329257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08190080786437835,0.07899193353211044,0.0,0.0,0.14376945773099267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1017177357220046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11123973980533608,0.13763612722731303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08974827134383545,0.0,0.12563140061254865,0.17514712627158407,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,negatory_negatory,2019/01/17,"Where are the Weirdos in Real Life? I mean Weirdos in a good way. I’m in college right now (18 M) and hate almost everyone. It’s all the same. Immature people conforming to shit culture. Not that I’m any better, but I want some people like me in my every day life. Someone I can relate to at least just a little. They all just stare at me with that same look in their eyes like I’m some kind of animal. WHERE ARE MY FUCKING PEOPLE HIDING. Fuck. ",-0.2802341137123747,2.00391452173913,1.7917391304347845,94.8214882943144,94.0,4.56989966555184,16.859531772575252,6.297961479604792,-0.2118471571906353,344,9,74,4,13,114,63,92,0.187,0.698,0.115,-0.8554,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,2,1,5,9,4,0,4,0,3,6,2,0,2,16,12,2,0,1,4,0,0,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,4,0,0,0,3,9,5,11,12,7,14,0,0,3,2,3,11,3,3,4,45,12,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1986324734480976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13489403768929392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1754364681112503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12792809994532242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1671298728791547,0.18954490293739806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3667678696679675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1663779609795935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1958429695260485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20656514526317032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2802201280346068,0.19382085251129125,0.1988124207816256,0.0,0.0,0.16657544942929914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2160760926778384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4125609936058804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2257811832160825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16940141487664492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20361736598772626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1680728190057294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11699997987188668,0.15745177803765512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Azmodien,2019/01/17,"Heard voices last night I kept hearing a voice quietly, but insistently calling my name last night as i was playing a game and it really started to freak me out. I know i was alone in my house and my kids were sleeping, it got me looking up information on schizophrenia, and now that i think about it i have had it happen before but never so much in one night, and when i was a kid i would hear things and music that only i could hear. Is this symptoms of schizophrenia? Including the music? Or is schizophrenia only hearing voices? I was also given latuda 20mg for what my doctor thinks is bipolar disorder about 3 weeks ago, any way the latuda caused the voice? Im making an appointment with my Dr tomorrow but i can't stop thinking about it. 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I have good days where I barely have intrusive thoughts and bad days when they are relentless. People around me are aware that I am schizophrenic but it seems like they also doubt that it's true. It seems like people might think that I'm faking it or exaggerating. &#x200B; I need a job. I collect social security, but I need a part time job to keep going. It's the middle of winter and too cold to go outside and do anything. I'm not interested in playing video games, watching shows. Mostly I just hang out on discord and chat with strangers and pretend that I'm not someone who does nothing for a living. &#x200B; I met up with an internet friend recently and I left after about an hour or so of hanging out because I just could not deal with the social ambiguity and paranoia. Maybe we were a bad match as friends. I went out for food with another friend and we had some fun, but I barely said anything and spaced out a lot just to disconnect from delusions I was experiencing. So I have gotten out of the house recently. Maybe this is something like catatonia? I'm not completely still but I feel really far away from everything. Not depressed, but also feel like doing anything is completely pointless. &#x200B; It seems like everyone is wearing tough guy armor and you have to be really mean just to get by in the social world. It feels like people are really really mean. Do you know what I mean? It's like everyone has this dog-eat-dog mentality that I don't feel. Maybe it's because I lack motivation that I don't see a point in acting that way? I don't feel territorial or like I want to defend my roost, so to speak. But the rest of the world seems hostile and territorial. &#x200B; It's a strange thing that people are able to just go outside and hang out in the city and not let everything affect them. I'm not sure how anyone is able to enjoy anything in all that chaos. All that stuff is there to enjoy. Ice cream shops, clothing stores, mall foodcourts. But in every one of those environments there are all these mean territorial people. Maybe it's just the place I live in, but no one is friendly. &#x200B; Anyway, I need to get over my crippling fear of going outside. Whenever someone is mean to me, it's like I want to cry or become enraged. It's like very very small things make me very emotional and I can barely control myself. Which is why I can't hold a job. I don't understand how to explain these things in a clear way. But it's like people are really mean and they think if I'm not mean back that makes me pathetic and weak and I become emasculated, but if I retaliate then I am an asshole. Maybe I'm just a weirdo so anything I do is slated to be negative? &#x200B; Help me out here guys, how do you deal with your fear of other people?",3.6761463883954977,5.697362714031974,4.640858126110126,82.6808727427472,73.7246891651865,7.53358496151569,26.29399792776791,8.344100000000001,1.7943582297217286,2300,82,440,40,48,747,247,563,0.135,0.7090000000000001,0.156,0.9145,3,0,1,0,0,0,75.0,2,4,4,3,28,36,2,3,21,0,43,5,1,10,7,118,91,46,0,9,32,0,5,11,4,1,3,2,0,2,38,32,1,4,24,8,2,9,16,11,0,2,9,12,50,25,58,77,9,54,0,1,3,0,29,31,0,16,23,292,88,5,0.0909957981845183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07276930693228291,0.0,0.295781727945848,0.3317095643418937,0.0,0.04770851423313507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.031813188924153336,0.0,0.18720447140343247,0.04050277630687578,0.0,0.0,0.04274677389643019,0.03498507598424087,0.0759776905870434,0.05547019398081916,0.10049770991802376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0954073631289582,0.0,0.05102976259685408,0.036326370227424985,0.0,0.049977305736094345,0.05868476193445382,0.09381267231614837,0.039187273819438186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03981551810056741,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04655570933434156,0.0,0.051179012628993235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03833394229352558,0.08695038470456921,0.08178115596530683,0.0,0.0,0.10239557129536396,0.1150255241997692,0.06500741640484008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055016240181214135,0.0,0.14060625590504364,0.0,0.04754154883834341,0.0,0.10343001821450763,0.03816147912538547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09010014654168394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.030496282706989487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04480626575202608,0.05249846688760283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13544893322420426,0.04044062321538658,0.0,0.0,0.025004455468250315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04943360048879564,0.04652468439880962,0.0,0.2445077283970733,0.0,0.08035095691723486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03868068678797031,0.0,0.0,0.06074040188211894,0.0,0.22854377485728605,0.3469238519434723,0.0,0.0,0.0458511810649247,0.0482660809635132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10120834702537224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.043656461264146885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061661107839596586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04926979097901692,0.0,0.22079760157574946,0.0,0.04753562081722031,0.0,0.04301022086281008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14573559599395502,0.0,0.08984737289232263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04327892095079448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.036255934943677334,0.16567831420803164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03763633229143302,0.0,0.0,0.13913813531705865,0.07710044450921606,0.03502650554745619,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03633468098711035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05208420918364914,0.0,0.0,0.0857624628978714,0.04728973799127915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09068034743830562,0.05830643322734772,0.0,0.03612024971460822,0.026530190845108662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04736491752463337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11262159502972245,0.053671679389064635,0.07222822909310403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04217700828246977,0.04105477718526025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3317095643418937,0.0 schizophrenia,scoldingstole,2019/01/17,"Didn't have a job for years, Thankful for advice I have been diagnosed with sz like 6 years ago. I've had job in retail, but then the delusions started and I thought people were plotting against me and really disliked me and want to get rid of me. &#x200B; I didn't talk to anyone much, additionally I felt not good and I got fired. &#x200B; Now I haven't had a job for 4 years now. I heard a symptom of sz for some could be ""no direction of life"" no future look if that makes sense. &#x200B; I really don't know what my passions are what career directions I want to go and at that point I think its too late to get a job. I tried various ""What Job is suited for you"" and they don't give me the answer I seek. &#x200B; If someone in the same situation feels a sense of relief, that would also relief me.",3.5322088353413683,4.587978385542171,4.590542168674698,86.78934738955826,72.3734939759036,7.461044176706826,25.88152610441768,7.793537801064563,1.2737767068273094,636,20,135,8,12,208,97,166,0.106,0.7759999999999999,0.118,0.0004,5,0,0,0,0,0,32.0,0,1,1,0,4,6,0,0,8,0,16,4,0,1,0,25,33,11,0,6,4,0,3,1,0,1,3,1,0,0,7,8,0,0,6,0,1,1,8,0,0,0,10,5,20,6,18,20,4,15,0,0,1,1,5,4,0,3,11,90,27,6,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08948542086271502,0.08117515947549242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0732319957930718,0.0,0.3968831946643783,0.4450915629948667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06403093325117935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07311468815136339,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09294606451050998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04630275625481548,0.0,0.08792576220903621,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09568766424463894,0.08784648627552358,0.05204382849084077,0.0768082422818247,0.07324039435647899,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4543671925345079,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050326882441327984,0.0,0.10329988537829324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0646816902899954,0.04473861475193516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07689941265441216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06112660739286881,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06731770340197014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06348614236793332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08656738523607052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1173297809491209,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10293343598922512,0.0,0.0,0.07759067202875919,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06481681500940388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09518084037423928,0.0,0.07360401504585637,0.0,0.08430938246526333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058677162842674824,0.0,0.07269982597488256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.062172990535856586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10802587972659072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06505180966032806,0.0,0.4450915629948667,0.17691268822448758 schizophrenia,MrDavi,2019/01/17,"Hard decision if I should admit myself to the hospital. I've been almost a year with minimal symptoms. No voices, no noticeable hallucinations, and only mild paranoia. Lately I've been having mild hallucinations, (peoples faces morphing into other faces) and my paranoia is getting pretty bad. Last time I was this paranoid I was walking around outside with a knife at midnight trying to find the people that were after me, (my psych says I'm not allowed to go out at night with knives so I'm trying to keep that promise). Been having urges to take all of my pills at once and thinking of suicide daily. I know a lot if not most of you here deal with these things daily if not worse, but I'm struggling to keep up as is. My biggest deterent is that my job has told me they will fire me for missing too many days if I go to the hospital, and I can't afford my rent this month as is so I have to keep working. And yes I know a place can't legally fire you in the U.S for this, but my employer had a meeting with everyone specifically to say no missed days are excused even surgeries or, a specific example, a car crash so bad we can't move. They will 100% fire me, and I'm currently getting most of my food from my grandma, and I can barely pay utilities. Don't know if I'm more here to vent, or if I really need help deciding. I feel like I'm a danger to myself and others, but I can't afford hospitalization. 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I want to start off by saying I am not schizophrenic, I don’t pretend to know the struggle people living with schizophrenia go through and I have no reference point to gauge how bad symptoms get. However, my brother was diagnosed with schizophrenia around 20. He was my big brother and my best friend and I don’t think I could have loved a human being more. His symptoms were exacerbated by a lot of methamphetamine and other drug use. He had used heroin for years before that to try to suppress delusions and symptoms but had gotten off of it and was just using methamphetamine because he got very stuck in his symptoms. Towards the end of his life he would talk constantly, among other things, of being a burden to the family and the voices telling him how worthless he was and how much we just wanted him dead. He wanted him dead. He couldn’t cope and eventually succumbed to his illness at his own hands and took his own life. I wish more than anything I could tell him that nothing he could do would ever make me stop loving him, he was never a burden and I would sit with him every day for the rest of his life if it meant we got to keep him longer. He was a beautiful, creative person and I can’t imagine the horror he dealt with in his own head that drove him. I’m so sorry. The point of this is to tell you how much you are loved. If you don’t have family or friends to tell you, IM telling you. You are loved. You are beautiful and worth so much and I wish you all the very best. I apologize if this is misplaced or misguided but I hope it resonates with someone. Please, know how worthwhile you are. 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Here’s mine: -Construction labour jobs for guys.",8.382000000000001,12.789400866666671,5.035,72.3225,73.66666666666666,8.333333333333334,27.5,8.841846274778883,2.9370000000000007,166,6,24,4,4,45,25,30,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,3,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,1,0,3,3,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,4,3,2,2,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,2,1,14,4,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27385961279936233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2772094892513331,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8334665600426855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18687889452957832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3031749473680257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16324991548178042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,iPiPrince,2019/01/17,"Did I have an episode? I (22M) dream almost every night and occasionally experience terrifying sleep paralysis. Last night I had a spooky dream, but in the middle of the dream I started hearing 2 voices that completed drowned out my dream experience. Sort of like when you slowly wake up to people talking in the same room. When I ""woke up"" I couldn't move anything which is fine. I've had sleep paralysis before, but what was different was that I did not have a pressing sense of terror. Everything was very clear. I literally opened my eyes and looked around my room. But then, I heard two people talking in my room. I couldn't quite make out what they were saying, but they were whispering some shit. I genuinely believed two people were in my room. Then a voice called me. It had a childish sing-songy tone. Sort of like when a mom calls her baby. I thought it was my mother calling me. So I forced myself to get up and follow her. When I sat up in bed. I realized no one was in the room. I've heard people call my name in my sleep before only to wake up to darkness, but it was always at 4:30 am. It was 3:00 am when she called me. Then I started having a mini panic attack and random streams of consciousness. I was legit scared as shit. I laid undercovers for like 30min before reaching for my phone and watching Youtube videos to calm myself down. I'm genuinely hoping it's not an early symptom of schizophrenia. If this happens again should I talk to the doctor?",3.377027972027971,5.440683094405596,4.178593006993008,85.48004335664336,74.6993006993007,6.813762237762238,24.37706293706293,7.699297019823105,1.2371036643356643,1159,37,224,16,25,371,154,286,0.154,0.74,0.106,-0.9669,1,0,0,0,0,0,37.0,0,1,2,1,8,12,3,3,13,0,25,10,8,1,1,33,40,21,1,5,8,2,1,3,0,1,2,7,6,0,11,9,0,0,3,5,0,2,5,6,0,3,21,11,39,6,32,16,2,41,0,0,3,0,22,24,2,7,18,149,50,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09997626222596948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0830756458867454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08216057249372792,0.08887958882635154,0.0,0.11358346322630344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2548718150987069,0.11248653040499232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5097437254850693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1046813080375022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10431251430343724,0.0,0.1021914151418614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08412028359061521,0.0,0.0897305836625607,0.19532716100372974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052162761398192765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08828899833163692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.112527976250201,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09916456411881347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08138367769947058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14633169520939227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08384122960087839,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06664459126859427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11693248214079363,0.0,0.1061151004073654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18738788533861436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06765479321512964,0.07593352081889468,0.0,0.1171418110161344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27686849899176985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10619311109515764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07939750915812911,0.09995818114578787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2049705450712152,0.0,0.0,0.2997390802607195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14133583811941616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10377294723021904,0.0,0.24074505559902026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07926254039021341,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19506014830897664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08237921752465435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,machultra,2019/01/17,"Do I have schizophrenia?? Please help I’m a 21 year old male and for the past 4 years I have been out of it.. dizzy and a feeling that I have no control over my life. I can’t think straight and when I speak to people i overthink a lot. I’m always paranoid about everything and it’s been getting worse. Every other day I’m extremely depressed and I’m starting to think I’m either bi polar or have schizophrenia. Everything is on auto pilot for me, I have no control. I’m starting to think about taking a bunch of shrooms or drink ayahuasca to restart, and change my perception on everything. I don’t know what to do.. I’m getting more dizzy every day and I feel like I’m living life in 3rd person. 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I got diagnosed w bipolar disorder two years ago but my current psych said my diagnosis is ""psychotic dysthymia"" and when i look it up online all I can find is links about schizoaffective disorder. My psychosis is really mild and I never had a full-blown psychotic episode. I'll ask her about this when I see her tomorrow but in the mean time I'm confused about dx. Did anyone else got the same? 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If i don't eat breakfast, my eating schedule is off, and end up eating a meal late at night which could jeopardize my sleep. I can't watch TV, use the computer, or use my phone after 8, anything more than 30 seconds and I will be awake the entire night. I can no longer drink caffeine. I need to work out in the morning, every morning, or I can't fall asleep at night. If i work out in the evening, like I did tonight, I will be up all night as I am now. If I masturbate, I have trouble sleeping, which is a catch 22, because when you can't watch TV because it will prevent you from sleeping, and you can't sleep already, there's not much else to do. Tonight was a quadruple whammy, and It's 230, I need to wake up in 4 /12 hours. I ate late, I masturbated, I worked out at night, and I've been on the computer. Tomorrow will be hell at work. It's already so difficult working when you are mentally ill, and without adequate sleep it is absolutely excruciating. Insomnia doesn't make me tired, it just makes me more crazy. When I get up in the morning, I will look at my face. My eyes will be droopy, one closed a little more than the other, my face sunken and melting, my cheeks and mouth drooping, deep diagonal symmetrical lines stretching from the underside corner of my eyes to my cheeks. ""today is going to be rough"" i'll say as I lifelessly reach for the knob to turn the shower on. I'll get to work and throughout the day the vultures will come for me, bullying teasing and tormenting me in my crippled and weakened state. My concentration will be poor and my short term memory will be spotty, I will struggle and prove once again my inconsistency. My enemies can just sense it when I'm down and defenseless to abuse and ridicule. I keep to myself for the most part anyway, it baffles me trying to identify what the indicators of my sensitivity is. How do the vultures know when I'm bleeding psychologically? It's almost 3, tomorrow is going to be hell.",5.673389423076923,5.8698469831730815,6.415465384615384,78.70453461538463,67.14903846153845,9.540615384615384,32.50538461538461,9.3871,2.742808961538462,1659,66,333,30,25,547,202,416,0.152,0.8240000000000001,0.023,-0.9946,1,0,1,0,1,0,55.0,0,4,0,7,16,8,4,1,22,0,45,27,15,6,2,47,65,31,0,6,9,0,1,1,0,10,5,1,1,0,12,20,7,2,3,3,1,5,9,7,0,2,5,7,48,1,49,41,9,66,2,0,5,0,8,31,2,8,29,224,60,8,0.0,0.09823918874970702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08302610416914882,0.0,0.1829946825543437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06823091900598416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10108685664337466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07142281988317466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06619985105557108,0.0,0.0,0.10694496793845716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08484951283019652,0.0,0.08122387067558573,0.0,0.25452427570589714,0.06926376583782021,0.0,0.07343693737810622,0.0,0.0,0.05476372378372064,0.0,0.06985837710502618,0.0,0.07451749665823283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08663798316060342,0.0,0.09424354480792788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055575312378090005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08165330311204946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07369751551537917,0.0,0.0,0.09113441378044154,0.0,0.18706055374109007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.040507450799480094,0.08310132009834259,0.0,0.0,0.06962663443826854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11069109114061997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08355751863500174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060951117364923535,0.12295893142666132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4668534032507266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08830039563350782,0.056184476034176985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08978746855053574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06593631047372206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4978415385252723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08667941267368984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09529711307896116,0.07859250267428487,0.0,0.0,0.05629296680623793,0.09018630771363637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14322164897781467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06581304405086567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07992585810474895,0.0,0.3621730122924074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,NWcoffeeaddict,2019/01/17,"A ? For other schizophrenics I am.wondering if symtoms for you come and go, or stay constant. Do you feel disconnected from your body? Like inside yournhead so completly that your body isnjust reacting on muscle memory? Unmedicated, it is like a wild ride of emotions, paranoia and vivid halkuciinations and delusions. I feel like a human but on a different plane of existing. Like I exist in this imagibary world but my body exists in the earth world doijg all the mundane things while I think and retreat from human interaction. I really have gotten to a point where I just loath human interaction. Inrarely go outside anymore. 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If so can you describe it? For me, I notice it most when in a small room. The walls around me, even if not looking directly at them, will seem off. Then when I pay closer attention I can see blobs or splotches of different color on them at times. 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I have had these thoughts before but I know I need help but not how to get it. I am getting problems to communicate. Need someone to talk to ",2.25344537815126,5.156386333333336,2.984761904761907,86.64000000000001,87.62745098039215,6.0515406162464975,28.85434173669468,7.447530270364453,2.0294459383753503,217,11,41,4,7,68,37,51,0.067,0.7979999999999999,0.134,0.3612,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,5,0,0,1,0,13,12,6,0,4,4,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,4,0,7,0,4,8,1,1,0,0,0,0,6,0,0,2,1,28,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22036274265286934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2706002425949208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3471616596596434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14232207155618196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3033002585214101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3840430658639428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1754834576046578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28426915999546937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2477974561990381,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2194227943573355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4162974294460288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2055917102868768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24745507634578345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,hyperlink83,2019/01/18,"S/O of 7 years having a break down and making strange claims.... To start off I am sorry this is hard to read. For I (m33) haven't had a good nights rest in about 6 days. &#x200B; January 11th my S/O of 7 years started having a break down. I was unable to understand or process what was happening. I have know that she was depressed and had some pretty crippling anxiety. About a year an a half ago she went and saw a provider who prescribed to her Buspirone 5MG. At the starts of her meds I was told that she was taking them to help with her panic attacks and anxiety. It took awhile for them to get the right dosage and she was on one other one before landing on busprione. While she was on it seemed as all was well. Her anxiety was way down her panic attacks were more or less no longer and Issue. Shakiness of the hands, clammy hands, night sweat all that disappeared. She was sleeping better and the arguments started when they were needed. In others no more mood swings on little things. &#x200B; &#x200B; Come June of 2018 she loses her job and she tells me that shes going to stop taking her meds due to the fact that she will be losing her health insurance and she wanted to be off before her insurance went out. Against my plea, but being understanding that it is her choice and her body to decide. We came to an agreement that if she went off her meds correctly and kept in contact with her provider that it would be ok. Months pass with no issue or really visible signs of side effects. She had taken up yoga the year before and was excelling at it excellently. &#x200B; &#x200B; 3 strange events (I can explain more later) between Christmas and Jan 10th. On January 10th she drops a bomb on me right as I am walking out the door. She starts the conversation off with ""I got to be honest with you"" and my reply was ""That's a great start please continue"" From there she beings to tell me that she has been writing for Netflix and has been in contact with some big name comedians. (not going to list names of shows or comedians) Making claims that she had wrote jokes for some of these comedians and that they had loved her ideas and wanted her to work them or even open for them or come up with some new material. When asked how do you talk to them. She swears up and down that they speak to her through Netflix and that Netflix beams the show ideas to her and she decides what to keep or change. She ends the conversation saying that she has been in a relationship with one big name comedian for about 4 months and that she is desperately in love with them. I will be honest. I did not recognize what was happening and didn't handle the situation right. I did a quick google search on the shows/movies that shes claims she has wrote for, and was I able to show her that timeline she says she wrote these shows/movie don't match up for when they aired. I ask if she is making this up cause she wants to get out of the relationship, but is too scared to go through with it. That she doesn't need to fabricate a whole story like this to get out. She beings to yell that no believes her and they all think she crazy. I ask who are these people. She tells me her family, friends, and worst of all you now. She storms out the room and says I wont be here when you get back from work my sister is coming right now to get me. Her sisters come and pick her up and get her to her mothers house who see exactly what is happening. She is currently waiting to be seen by a physician on the 23rd who will refer her to a mental health specialist. Her condition as far as this moment has worsen but her claims for work and her love life are the same. &#x200B; &#x200B; I spoke to her yesterday briefly after she had sent me two text message randomly. First one saying that she missed me and loved me. So I call her up and thank her for her love but I son realize that she thinks she talking to the comedian not me. When I I.D who I she starts crying saying how every one calling her a liar and crazy. Now a few days had past till this point and I had spent hours reading info on the internet on how to speak with people having these issue. Also my line of work is 911 dispatch so talking these sort of things over the phone was much easier for me to remain calm and empathic towards her, but being careful not to support or claims but to questing deeper into her thought pattern. After a mins of talking I was able to get her to admit that her love for a guy who she has never met, spoke to, or even been in the same room with wasnt real and that it was all one side that he couldn't feel the same about you. Shortly after shes says to me that she knows it made she goes right back to it saying how she loves him more then me. I then asked her does she have any love for me? To her reply was I will always love you no matter what but I'm not in in love with you. I took the small victory and left it at that. I decided from there that I should limit my interaction with her all together or just to a txt a day sort of thing. Seeing on her social media that after she speaks to me her delusion of having this job and made relationship just get stranger from there. &#x200B; &#x200B; I come to you all now seeking some sort of answers for her condition once she is back on meds and leveled out. Will the love she has for me still be there after her delusions fade. Will she be about to recognize the love that she has for me? I am so scared that when she comes back she will be too embarrassed and filled with shame to want to ask for any sort of 2nd try. As of right now, she claims that she doesn't want be with me but doesnt want me out of her life and that I sh ould just let her go. That she will always love me but just as of right now she not ""in in"" love with me, that she just has to go and see if the comedian loves her. Her parents have given me the out saying no one expects you to sit and wait for her but if I am I am going have to have some patience and wait till she get proper help. Personally I have made a promise to her long ago that no matter could ever happen I would love her even at your worst that I would stand by her side and love unconditionally. I would hate for her to come to and see the wreckage along with the man she has been with for 7 years is gone. I really feel that I cant take what she is telling with any sort of merit. I have accepted the possibility that she may not want to continue the relationship when she get professional help. At least then I would I have proper closure with a woman who is based in reality. So basically if anyone has ever gone anything close to this sort of situation please share with me. For I am stuck in the ""what if"" and fearing that I may have lost the love of my life. &#x200B; &#x200B; FYI: I have an appointment with my local mental health counselors to get some information on her condition and to speak to someone for my own benefit. I have been a mess these past 7 days. Crying over the littlest things. Not getting much sleep in fear that something may have happen and my appetite is a fleeing one. So I decided to make a call and take advantage of the help I have available.",4.994483660130722,5.3223958920415235,5.280801614763554,85.79854190695887,68.62629757785467,8.41530180699731,26.851403306420607,8.238735603445708,1.453765705497886,5644,156,1202,72,90,1789,464,1445,0.084,0.773,0.14300000000000002,0.9989,4,0,1,0,0,0,149.0,1,10,11,14,52,63,4,9,61,1,135,31,6,14,13,240,266,104,0,24,39,5,5,1,1,18,7,15,3,4,84,93,0,7,25,10,1,27,26,21,1,11,67,26,219,41,216,163,31,192,0,5,6,18,236,85,0,35,75,896,303,11,0.05318428376809657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.047144658604359964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02126572625719717,0.04425358459919889,0.31693832083415474,0.3554359934850214,0.05425070509366018,0.0,0.06102874726621155,0.0,0.0,0.01859384390342215,0.0,0.021883066973240984,0.0,0.12430031493149142,0.060504800718704774,0.0,0.0817908626954976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06788386241858611,0.029960237662996683,0.0,0.02351858850895215,0.0,0.029537874863913186,0.0,0.0,0.08146065012994416,0.030414326087921318,0.027112460924139808,0.02731745485752535,0.028130960121140188,0.16034742922763695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.021231661472133862,0.0,0.058420438377682925,0.06859892640880637,0.0,0.02290377283888358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.023270962564012503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02355274474338913,0.0,0.0,0.0526915767538522,0.04810822952595208,0.02240502644698567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02506870472825977,0.059847105350140616,0.02689157188207577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.022619262301969496,0.0,0.0,0.020545022854955658,0.0,0.1667195590108112,0.0,0.09067756229312904,0.0223042269567135,0.021268165103065523,0.029317930305670963,0.0,0.026330401275799137,0.1175767162308334,0.0,0.02382133589913373,0.026254234722358858,0.0,0.0847986099543844,0.0,0.0,0.07129660866633614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02618790317671981,0.0306837614048791,0.0,0.060038582760911376,0.0,0.08326586181475952,0.05277719517022464,0.023636317541656817,0.0,0.0,0.029228691469765325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.028892439964575512,0.027192266749174014,0.05634844870730596,0.012991577303576158,0.026652312174151958,0.0,0.023533208761478564,0.0,0.0594996095235749,0.029028464156234595,0.0,0.4320080329840226,0.07548638286533511,0.07100184479587224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11815149945565274,0.0,0.053597248961199176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0424511878960304,0.0,0.03909656803167237,0.039435472518430936,0.02050949917452465,0.025682856337738303,0.0,0.04990984751417036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02831976323288652,0.14415618840537867,0.0,0.0,0.06240029780777143,0.029527426594414274,0.0,0.05077041678379434,0.03687128583895957,0.02321923258642313,0.0,0.05838037263669962,0.025138169420281874,0.02997864443152583,0.0,0.027053768343653015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05319867619060333,0.03026767922480113,0.03407121404326065,0.0,0.0,0.1142000342087284,0.0,0.15896680710387748,0.0,0.16917710845293735,0.053246746125183465,0.0,0.08476197674148206,0.02420848724023549,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05978136328947839,0.05322269282178063,0.027107339823394437,0.02253143552359201,0.02047192999684747,0.0,0.0297677257084698,0.1317543842617276,0.0,0.021236518859070984,0.02223222133235644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.030176447478879508,0.0,0.0,0.07997592505565462,0.0854950254158653,0.09297081641102772,0.024482471479894432,0.0,0.0,0.07066654983444373,0.03407834155134019,0.0,0.021111190284861636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.025409931151413045,0.05908969616993951,0.018054318785231317,0.0,0.02597665863137401,0.05536671504709493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1097931398329542,0.021107604465237254,0.0,0.0,0.023909529141613928,0.07395354582534583,0.0,0.029689176753404958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07743758400987373,0.0,0.0,0.09445147314302113,0.0,0.3554359934850214,0.08562233757854122 schizophrenia,youllalwaysbemybby,2019/01/18,"Do I have schizophrenia? I woke up months ago with extreme depersonalization/derealization, panic 24/7, skin peeling around nails, facial numbness, and head sensations. Most of the symptoms went away and 2 or so months later I have a really bad panic attack after a nap (ears ringing, whole body shaking, jittery, these fucked up head sensations). I was in panic mode for a week after that. Second one after that I woke up from a nap and it felt like my whole head/brain had this burning cold feeling. Few weeks past I had another incident where I thought I was losing my mind. Then the last few nights I've been waking up with this overwhelming feeling and extreme tingliness in my head. One of the nights it lasted for like 30 seconds and I thought I was having a stroke or something. The head sensation was really intense",5.9580072245635165,7.665963403973514,5.861649608669477,77.48724864539436,67.27814569536424,8.139915713425648,30.945815773630343,8.575989854853784,2.531127152317881,658,26,111,10,11,206,91,151,0.179,0.759,0.062,-0.9651,0,0,1,0,0,0,20.0,0,0,0,1,3,12,2,5,9,0,11,13,9,0,0,17,20,9,0,0,2,0,5,2,0,0,3,2,0,0,7,8,0,0,5,2,0,2,0,10,0,4,13,8,13,2,18,7,5,26,0,2,0,1,0,9,1,3,17,77,20,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.100043309295796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11834322972967737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10046905543424543,0.0,0.1283941950450796,0.10603539776374601,0.0,0.09423313045900708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1253616777989649,0.0,0.12598874360831652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11413050482880514,0.0,0.10836300514325364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1043369686407295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5791330310797044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1839914278227769,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1102750915923879,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12626112935719933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11395611840476748,0.0,0.18016706224546766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21182235526059756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15295329916980882,0.0,0.0,0.3972496023009907,0.0,0.0,0.10773734840255857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14460162001461455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08688490637906914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11730443542237395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17919598120288385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18105847810359424,0.0,0.0,0.104622067165868,0.0,0.25200763612306765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,crazneil20,2019/01/18,"Do people around you believe you? Let me give you a foreword first: I am 22 years old right now. I was diagnosed with schizophrenia 3 years back. My first psychotic episode was in my college computer lab and then the hallucinations were everlasting. I spent 6 months in a psychiatric hospital. But now I am out, completed my degree and working as a AR and VR game developer. I'm still on medications though. Now my question is, do people believe you and support you in the daily basis? I mean the doctor and parents do try to help me. But I'm living away from my parents right now due to my job. I have lost a lot of friend circle as I apparently scared them off. I don't have the courage to express my stuff with the few friends I do have now because I'm scared how they may react. So I don't have people to talk to. And as you all obviously know, the voices aren't really friendly too. So not even trying to reason with them, they just end up being even more toxic. I just want to know, is that how you guys go through life too? And if you do, did you find some kind of closure that helps you get through the day? Please do let me know. Anything that helps. P.S, I am new to this community and this is my first post not just in this subreddit, it's my first post ever in Reddit. So excuse me for grammatical sins I may have committed in writing this post. And do let me know the things I have to follow the next time I write a post.",3.02392200806813,4.4910368247422685,4.3072344240251015,86.71675481846708,74.22336769759451,7.397639324667562,25.366950545345894,8.04050195162591,1.334292275511729,1120,37,239,17,23,369,152,291,0.058,0.8540000000000001,0.08800000000000001,0.7809999999999999,4,0,0,0,0,0,32.0,0,10,4,6,22,10,0,2,14,0,32,4,0,4,4,44,48,22,0,2,8,2,0,0,3,2,4,1,0,1,10,14,0,0,8,1,1,2,5,4,0,4,6,1,43,6,33,36,5,43,1,1,0,0,31,14,0,6,23,177,53,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07847516903301105,0.08489279644765027,0.0,0.0,0.08959615873461332,0.07332783589285832,0.0,0.058132062983123824,0.0,0.0,0.21488164504069365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09998571204535854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061500889614753036,0.0,0.0,0.09679087703083734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09760750605276493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08446282356988473,0.0,0.0,0.12597199461515934,0.08626079352918149,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08715954954256602,0.3244609971206751,0.0,0.0,0.2210303715609753,0.0,0.049822942972607635,0.09148034933446683,0.05419667664467226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09442381606527256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.191758315576132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.094632514654736,0.0,0.0,0.09930531448927517,0.209634829204551,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.292543691267072,0.06735731699858821,0.0,0.0,0.08420678842194282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10409937666483446,0.08107374282362549,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10387766198236877,0.0,0.0960676333986676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07611739592687697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09210164620978868,0.10141904497042337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.100066847149177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21177742552631798,0.0,0.0,0.19833694190684195,0.0,0.0,0.10467933074640333,0.0,0.0,0.3653234570462992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10682776612234572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06109162587845395,0.09804847880765616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16287801853329192,0.0,0.0,0.1909488924811683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07615657390146442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10916718732719943,0.0,0.10821617553045046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0766487231793855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06335457285328074,0.0,0.09369312066341774,0.0,0.05560661012634795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12948968443768896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05624724239713319,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06942499767187356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12282057944974445 schizophrenia,someofthisistrue,2019/01/18,"rescue meds I've been on an episode all week. I don't want to increase my APs because they generally work and I don't have a bunch of side effects. Question: is there a 'rescue' pill that my pdoc could prescribe me for when my symptoms rise above my regular dosage? I'm two months into a new job and I don't want to start down the path of burning up all of my sick leave and vacation on my schizoaffective disorder and lose this job too. I like this job and for the most part, it seems to be working. I'm on Abilify, Klonapin PRN, and Prozac. Klonapin helps with the anxiety/panic but doesn't do a thing for the psychotic symptoms.",2.71302556818182,4.532834421875002,3.6981818181818182,89.27409090909092,75.875,7.154545454545455,27.26136363636364,8.00094639256281,1.6241156250000008,498,20,105,8,11,160,83,128,0.09,0.862,0.048,-0.2389,3,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,1,4,3,2,0,0,9,0,10,5,0,1,2,19,16,8,0,3,1,0,0,1,0,0,5,0,0,0,5,8,0,0,3,0,0,2,4,1,0,1,1,0,12,1,16,13,6,14,0,1,0,0,3,7,0,3,6,68,17,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11005702521856392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1441484861437855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2069173332205257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12101382432937485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5374816848428007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1911684269811355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08820394029870765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2019808635849469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2005420042668819,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1441072917974319,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17436906036733374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19550992124404906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2022489061429497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16435910077462132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12778890256530673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3753055479477976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1199444070004718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17636377735680464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21297727475362732,0.0,0.14482029407198133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26287416367075384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,AlConstanza,2019/01/18,"How many times a day do you wash your hands? I counted yesterday, 26.",-0.09928571428571333,2.231877642857146,1.4685714285714295,97.00142857142859,94.0,5.6571428571428575,21.285714285714285,7.1686216300943375,0.7275428571428577,53,2,12,1,2,17,14,14,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,2,1,1,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,3,6,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4828692951437424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7590953090404677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4365908331609156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,emth0,2019/01/18,"My dad had delusions. Hi people of Reddit, I wanted to hear your input on something that hasn't left my mind ever since it happened. Awhile back my dad experienced his first schizophrenic symptoms. He had delusions about everyone thinking he was gay. To my mom he described it as a fear ""because everyone is talking about him being gay"". I was wondering if these delusions represent anything at all , is there some psychological trigger to it or just purely and simply delusions?",7.213571428571428,9.10513416666667,7.00809523809524,69.75357142857145,64.47619047619048,8.933333333333335,37.80952380952381,9.2995712137729,3.9863952380952377,386,20,56,7,6,122,64,84,0.039,0.961,0.0,-0.4939,0,0,1,0,0,0,10.0,0,1,0,1,6,1,0,1,1,0,8,4,0,1,3,13,13,4,0,2,3,3,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,5,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,4,2,9,0,9,8,2,6,0,0,0,2,12,3,0,4,3,42,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18808459406408667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17574777369010322,0.0,0.13932745355017226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2067447134488775,0.0,0.4367958651914767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2571924339823174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1944121805822424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20211398128705144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2576026199852484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24833003750814486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2307794493286076,0.26768555486923096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.158454042071017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18906637827683487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17595589539043416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2375603292700965,0.0,0.18370707782306156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14645138738776667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13481002824012855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24786250105063146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Yusada,2019/01/18,"Dealing with other people... I wanted to make a short post about being an introverted, agoraphobic schizophrenic with CPTSD, but there is honestly so much going on in my life and I don't know who to talk to about any of it. I'm 28 and unemployed at the moment, partly because I was physically sick for many years (I'm not anymore, but my body is still very weak in the aftermath) and partly because I am scared to rejoin the workforce because I am uneducated, physically weak and mentally ill. I can't handle being part of a social circle or interacting with the same people on a daily basis unless they are close friends or family. Inevitably, when I worked at jobs where I had to interact with people daily, I would have anxiety attacks, panic attacks and/or psychotic episodes at work. I was best as a cashier because, for whatever reason, dealing with customers was way different than dealing with the same co-workers daily and I was mostly isolated from my co-workers. However, after several years of gastrointestinal illness, I highly doubt I have the stamina to maintain a job that requires me to be on my feet all day. My dad is also schizophrenic and he worked from home during some of his most difficult years. He made very little money, but he survived and he's leveled out as he got older and can now work an office job, though only about 4 days out of the week. My 31-year-old sister, who is also schizophrenic with CPTSD, is on disability and gets less than enough to get by and is constantly stressing over money, causing her to have increased psychotic episodes. I want to enroll in community college and try to find a career that allows me to be isolated and/or doesn't require me to work full-time. I realize that that's what a lot of people want, and it doesn't feel realistic, but I want to contribute to my household somehow... Working, introverted schizophrenics, how do you deal with interacting with your co-workers? What careers might allow me to limit my interactions with other people? I know that in another post, people suggested work with computers. What did y'all study in school? I appreciate any input at all.",8.002286571296723,8.111035093908633,8.315865251499769,67.340013844024,62.274111675126896,11.123027226580527,36.944623904014776,10.735267742514802,4.196405076142132,1713,75,278,39,22,565,210,394,0.132,0.7859999999999999,0.08199999999999999,-0.9747,7,0,0,0,0,0,53.0,0,3,1,12,14,12,2,4,16,0,30,12,2,7,2,65,45,27,0,5,8,2,1,0,1,2,10,0,1,0,14,26,0,3,6,0,2,2,5,9,0,0,8,1,36,3,63,31,16,41,0,0,0,0,27,22,0,9,14,204,50,18,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11875369541182333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10098364586990116,0.07785648382036361,0.05680023320595524,0.0,0.0736349937388095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1689377684213909,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1810458501841416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0779196780774891,0.0,0.0,0.08247383024397162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07627411061211425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08023672295513583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09576884318225924,0.3061895731497953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07757433557795483,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07671899941215167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06999528936053052,0.0,0.03754249323307709,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06786218284211629,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05736454416929749,0.0,0.07758400963484123,0.0,0.04219738168907845,0.0,0.059383657300747586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07844807797794219,0.07447773721312513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22104183807785688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08161054746277334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05244421966270303,0.0,0.07441694028387319,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06312379065824172,0.0,0.07025613899498973,0.04956174167642717,0.07527676779514862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07482546447121438,0.07876638818062788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05458151153090197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0779117688573546,0.0,0.0,0.056469662005131586,0.0,0.0871151291736771,0.0,0.2412130882201939,0.0,0.30884918260058386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1422199137598944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07634027288067871,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07433613828355239,0.07514388771505498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08388016414279492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07568744038832673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059295296612407976,0.0,0.08505190591734604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05967848267129856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07294920314387536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05041015406571639,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12252629720567088,0.17517578592142466,0.0589353498023537,0.05955801824579194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5405411008372998,0.0,0.0,0.05274431419443406,0.0,0.0,0.19125552307547736 schizophrenia,Poor-Pikanya,2019/01/18,"Early Symptoms for Paranoid Schizophrenia? Hello, I am just writing this post because I am pretty sure I am experiencing the early onset symptoms of Paranoid Schizophrenia, but I am not entirely sure. I am looking for a therapist anyway, but due to my family history, and my past behaviors in the last three years, I feel like the subtle signs seem to be pointing more towards said mental illness. I don't experience visual or auditory hallucinations but from the tedious research I have done, there are subtle symptoms that I relate to, but I want to find out more so that I have a better understanding of myself and I know what to expect. I understand the early symptoms of Schizophrenia in general, but I can't find any early symptoms to those who specifically suffer from Paranoid Schizophrenia. My mother has it, but her first real experience and introduction to her illness was a full blown, in your face, visual hallucination. I am not entirely sure if there were events in her life that she di not think twice of, but should have. So basically what I am looking for is: Is there a distinction between Schizophrenia and Paranoid Schizophrenia? If so, then what were the early symptoms you experienced? Were there any symptoms that you often experienced but you overlooked? Apologies if this is a repetitive answer. Please downvote, if it is. &#x200B;",7.797262658227848,9.442571181434602,7.662824367088611,66.50664161392407,62.924050632911396,9.638080168776373,37.17536919831225,9.827888789773867,4.0907217299578065,1098,53,160,22,16,351,121,237,0.101,0.8109999999999999,0.08900000000000001,-0.4431,0,0,0,0,0,0,31.0,0,4,0,2,10,6,0,0,11,0,25,11,1,0,4,43,35,21,0,7,17,1,1,1,0,1,10,1,0,0,13,5,0,0,9,0,0,0,5,1,0,3,6,7,28,5,23,27,3,22,0,1,2,0,14,8,0,7,14,137,41,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1088722241892216,0.12209664980167895,0.13666243541264236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0612529053451707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0888681790647397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10282799071114472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19658138858216634,0.09472550361022217,0.0,0.05080672729230689,0.07178437351700358,0.0,0.0,0.1836774875719928,0.085469952918246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05522228909218805,0.08190625557589462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0709734207027358,0.049090438301947814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16875917563827372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10126224021157247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09592145566508582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11029908124311168,0.0949879853780777,0.0,0.09623399715456404,0.10222633593102738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11437053444767176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09558140897638848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09147505506688106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2841093375589339,0.7310750318217935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1166673671921954,0.0,0.06438481965150873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20921064821380608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05926689743453058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12209664980167895,0.06470712496181523 schizophrenia,telu121314,2019/01/19,"Dealing with schizophrenia by becoming and alcoholic I'm struggling with alcoholism. I want to get better but can't seem to find anything that has worked.. My next try is going to be a writing in a journal for each day that has a scale that will show how drunk i was and a scale for how I emotionally felt that day. I think I have schizophrenia because sometimes I hear voices but also think that other people can hear my thoughts and drinking is the only thing that helps get rid of that panic/ anxiety feeling that comes with hearing the voices. They're not always bad thoughts so its not invasive or upsetting but they stop me from being the person i want to be. this started like in gr 10 and im now 24 and i dont want to try to take medication. i have dramatically changed from the panic and anxious feeling where i can now tell myself that no one can hear me, but i also want to get off of drinking now, and i want to know what worked for you guys ",5.245034904013959,5.705790497382196,5.691845549738223,82.60419066317628,68.10994764397907,8.251483420593367,30.57635253054101,8.07648339933343,2.0142247818499124,759,28,151,9,12,244,109,191,0.1,0.767,0.133,0.3728,0,0,4,0,0,0,10.0,0,1,1,3,9,7,0,4,8,0,16,6,0,2,0,38,42,17,0,5,7,0,3,1,0,1,3,6,0,2,14,12,5,1,10,4,0,2,5,5,0,1,4,9,19,2,22,34,1,14,0,0,0,0,12,4,0,2,9,105,33,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23028991185320566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17232475829096622,0.0896511618899547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0824234262701709,0.12171940385675425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.088663659571761,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08996126057722319,0.06567939267988979,0.11899414946012167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0952903049520407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11397825883627301,0.09281142156712856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13897119324124355,0.11107874159467908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12627449328036594,0.2110950789934182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12119685280318344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10895662740590606,0.0,0.10345058574557237,0.0,0.09847553977003007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16887448000506902,0.0,0.0612330721571643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10668293150864304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4857386883134817,0.0,0.07221814756522746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11638138934982442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05921296940169012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05263799579615756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1085401668894931,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11458635627236585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0730097341335111,0.08194373086294722,0.0,0.25282739246606345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07469572568589614,0.09407740405298667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0980855688117316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10656100367718273,0.0,0.07626135174061788,0.0,0.0,0.09007832888079637,0.0,0.11263682285308488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08100964779916574,0.0,0.0941725036355268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07157994495576919,0.13807527426447955,0.0,0.17107249096851967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14630142808878116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31774932205956075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1568769952380723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,atrone,2019/01/19,"Has anyone here experienced this set of delusions before? About a year ago, I was diagnosed with a psychosis spectrum disorder due to unusual behavior. My doctor said I had little disorganized or negative symptoms, but I had delusions. I wanted to be hyper focused on doing the right thing all the time, including being honest with others, and other things. During this period I had trouble paying attention because I believed as long as I thought these thoughts all the time (such as ""Do the right thing"" or ""Be honest""), I would in turn act to do the right thing or be honest, and paying attention to anything else wasn't necessary. Has anyone else here experienced this set of delusions before?",10.187317073170732,9.43036004878049,9.769227642276428,61.534817073170736,58.26829268292683,12.427642276422766,40.82520325203252,11.538034831475384,5.080486178861788,558,25,81,13,6,181,74,123,0.07200000000000001,0.8290000000000001,0.1,0.7642,0,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,0,0,0,4,4,0,0,7,0,15,3,0,0,2,16,20,9,0,2,4,0,0,0,0,1,3,1,0,0,10,4,0,0,4,0,2,1,2,1,0,0,8,3,9,3,14,7,2,16,0,0,0,0,1,6,0,3,7,67,19,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14209272142805218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2241653633950644,0.16424218234653867,0.1319099398094943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09771494631480084,0.0,0.2728001584245171,0.1805986862644381,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16269705335550305,0.0,0.0,0.18371308934702135,0.16406973577793704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2678134580554148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16065869098583418,0.0,0.14185690493233205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4106756930713653,0.1524781917558003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16660890750289026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4259741263235519,0.0,0.0,0.2545142180653337,0.1869397590387104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17435600451318747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09454672669688406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1138696705763336,0.0,0.0,0.10322536059634256 schizophrenia,BetaScum,2019/01/19,"had a relapse and almost lost everything The religious delusion was the worst part of it cuz it made me burn all my paintings which was up to 25-30 pieces, I’m normally atheist but when I’m having an episode I can’t help my self but believe I’m some kinda devine being. I started going to church again now I don’t know how to get out because it was really hard the first time, my parents would have to go through the emotional bits again...need advice",4.667101449275363,5.27770339130435,5.268260869565221,84.60210144927538,69.43478260869566,8.307246376811595,30.55072463768116,8.344100000000001,2.1193855072463768,360,14,73,5,6,116,70,92,0.07,0.868,0.062,0.0918,1,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,2,4,2,0,0,6,0,10,0,0,3,1,14,20,6,0,2,2,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,4,2,0,0,1,0,0,2,2,2,0,1,6,1,7,0,8,12,6,10,1,1,0,0,3,2,0,3,6,49,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2241667920878669,0.0,0.0,0.22971072454153516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13983996547560726,0.0,0.0,0.2584549754629881,0.0,0.0,0.25044512567824323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2580438554654715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2061697139674375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19512732005016029,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11985190732359255,0.0,0.2607463421032837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20549712771171647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15376182467847185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1260721096676016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2504169384642133,0.0,0.0,0.21706360110471956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2247630602122886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2547212876542051,0.2484175869973897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14695936141423072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23931398160493456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16237033199298215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13376484578814088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1629590088584159,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,DanielCherry55,2019/01/19,Help I have been up for sevarl hours straight no sleep no food and im scared,-2.4044117647058805,-1.6642280588235268,-1.4383823529411757,112.94477941176471,123.7058823529412,1.7000000000000002,10.132352941176473,3.1291,-2.479105882352941,61,1,16,0,4,18,15,17,0.333,0.457,0.21,-0.4019,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,2,2,1,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,2,1,0,3,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,8,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4915364947823326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27246565480138324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4003166108678737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4390853618511083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4069733419421749,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4067894987220168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Rainbowdragonmediato,2019/01/19,"Psychiatry ""If you want to get out of here, you have to behave more normally than normal: pathologically normal, so to speak!"" ",5.2650000000000015,7.968772772727277,6.936363636363637,64.9245454545455,71.27272727272728,9.854545454545457,24.63636363636364,10.125756701596842,2.993290909090909,99,3,16,3,2,34,18,22,0.0,0.93,0.07,0.1511,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,6,3,2,0,5,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,6,3,1,1,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,1,0,13,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17168398274756547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.9658974532860166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19382136054501586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,ObviousThrowaway1409,2019/01/19,"Anxious/Scared I'm in prodromal phase of schizophrenia? Hello r/schizophrenia, I hope you're all doing well and that the subject matter of my post is not alarming. I have come to the subreddit to explain how I'm feeling, and how worried I am. I basically think I'm entering the prodromal phase of schizophrenia, and I'm extremely scared. I've not heard voices, I've not hallucinated, and I'm not deluded - I don't think the government's out to get me or that people can read my thoughts, but I'm scared that other parts of me are becoming affected. I've become really tired and lethargic in recent weeks, I'm not eating much, I've noticed that while I'm still laughing, I'm nowhere near as happy with doing things as I was before. The two concerning symptoms I have is my memory and a general brain fog. I used to have an amazing memory - I could remember stuff out of the blue and would hardly ever forget ANYTHING, much less simple stuff like I am now. I'm not forgetting to grab things when I need them, like if I'm going out, and I'm not forgetting things like my birthday or other important dates. I'm just feeling generally forgetful. In addition, I am also having problems with speaking coherently - I'm not jumbling them up word salad style or going off on freaky, unrelated tangents, but I'm often having trouble keeping track of what I'm saying - I'm losing focus when speaking, if you will, which I can recognise and correct. I am not having focus issues when reading, I am not being clumsy, I am not suspicious or paranoid of other people, I'm not neglecting friends, family, my hygiene or responsibilities, but I feel like I'm constantly on the lookout for any potential symptom of schizophrenia that I can find. And I want to know why I am constantly doing this. If this information helps, I am 19 years old, Male, diagnosed with Asperger Syndrome but no other mental health condition, I have a distant relative (great aunt's son) who is a diagnosed schizophrenic, and I have recently quit a 15 month cannabis habit (not daily but some periods of daily use followed by 1-3 day breaks in between. This 15 months began October 2017, shortly after I turned 18 and finished on the 7th January. I never used more than around a gram to two grams a day during this habit, and occasionally I used less than a gram. I have quit for 12 days as of this post.). None of these symptoms were present before I smoked, or during, only after. I think these symptoms are to do with weed withdrawals sending my anxiety into a tailspin, but I'm honestly not so sure at this point. Is anyone able to provide me with any reassurance that I am not going, or even possibly going, schizophrenic? I am seriously worried about developing it and the consequences of it as such, so any advice is widely welcomed. Thank you so much for reading and understanding :) ",7.712363706414948,7.423760426443202,8.30993642843383,68.46569832402238,62.985102420856606,11.354755024722277,37.325435047839214,10.852061532183503,4.2319579913953635,2267,101,384,53,29,759,263,537,0.102,0.7829999999999999,0.115,0.5893,2,0,1,0,0,0,71.0,0,2,2,3,19,24,0,3,18,0,40,13,1,7,5,102,89,45,0,9,32,2,5,4,1,2,10,5,0,1,28,27,2,2,13,3,0,8,19,8,1,2,5,11,44,16,56,80,10,57,0,2,1,0,20,19,0,13,31,264,72,4,0.07768284773570712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07591077973983977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.062122945268205124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1584810009559101,0.0,0.059427165890511426,0.08775950639784649,0.0,0.05431765335298201,0.0,0.06392636467889394,0.06915420420490907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17158920418541584,0.13220476362199451,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08671974933328276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06691689481489088,0.0,0.16789512213009486,0.0,0.06202343280611156,0.0,0.0,0.15029703074364642,0.0,0.0,0.15769291048128825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07948894677782617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05130878828504865,0.07026858320391245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07323247524882485,0.0,0.11783634577075433,0.05549664194415607,0.0,0.0,0.07100071548698915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06001757545997175,0.0,0.040586081700605986,0.0,0.17659581028052376,0.0,0.0,0.08564561387316096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0826948359213443,0.06958857310488391,0.0,0.0,0.08257323452932808,0.0,0.0,0.052069175353092335,0.0,0.0,0.07715659587896329,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08108071039861743,0.0,0.06904808437874592,0.0,0.0,0.04269246153356638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15180766196584913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08690723611335979,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07828603931681062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1240114158500868,0.0,0.17131749416629302,0.057600847280237275,0.059913801169432575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0884424370255506,0.08151508103709247,0.0,0.0,0.0590813062261903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08412295395952184,0.0,0.10771101087444956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07343540042562671,0.08757573875965621,0.14879738921665814,0.0,0.0,0.07433199398532442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16525054147531842,0.2331116094526507,0.0,0.04976562144249458,0.0,0.15340488082086148,0.0,0.0879995231184219,0.0,0.0,0.06177651848063559,0.15554816493160106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.062037622548760926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17785655039779688,0.0,0.0,0.07321516465216378,0.3229688921142326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0715199291752913,0.0,0.0,0.1548270967058654,0.14932809639938446,0.0,0.0616715038438559,0.0,0.08928500586364914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08449663114517368,0.1517697089570632,0.08087058412563991,0.0,0.26837215432098543,0.0,0.0,0.04581935628770339,0.0,0.06231249469644251,0.0,0.06984620944936419,0.0,0.070096687287448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1577814053815484,0.0,0.05518366620166019,0.0,0.0,0.05002520700958707 schizophrenia,VicariousLiving247,2019/01/19,"New to the sub - saying hi and a thought on L-Theanine for any curious Hi all. I have schizoaffective disorder and have had it for roughly the past 20 years. I've tried online forums and message boards in the past, but they tend to be a little too overwhelming, so I'm trying this sub. You can call me Vic for short, if you like. I'm almost 40 and still learning how to cope with positive and negative symptoms. I chose to go the route of not pursuing a love life, and have not dated in almost 10 years. I have very little interest in dating, because most women view my family as a threat instead of as my support system. I am male, in case you're curious (Probably not, but I figured I'd tell you that anyway) I am on day 2 of cutting out my normal 200mg of L-Theanine per day. I slept a lot better last night, had less vivid dreams/no nightmares for the first time in several months, and today I have way more energy considering I've only drank about half the regular amount of coffee I drink by now. I heard sarcosine is the supplement that \*really\* helps sza, but I'm hesitant to try any more supplements. I'm good on what I take, I think. Speaking of, you might be curious which meds I take. I take paliperidone and started on it around the beginning of 2018. It's been a life changer for me, because previously I was on risperidone and before that, olanzipine. Neither really worked very well for me, not to the point this one does. Unfortunately, I am the sza person that has never gotten it completely together. I still cannot work full time, and any extreme stress, even stress from a contractor not calling back about work on my house, causes me to have extreme auditory symptoms for several days at a time. I learned to cope by talking to my voices when they're super loud, because they usually have something they want me to know. I only started doing this after reading Louise Haye's books and telling myself positive affirmations for about a year or so. This is me in a nutshell. I don't get too personal, but I wanted to give you some background on me, because why should you want to talk to me otherwise? Also, don't expect a selfie from me. <3 \-Vic",5.197401215805471,6.052011420803787,6.035119047619048,78.70125000000002,68.36170212765957,9.352549814251944,30.946386355960822,9.516144504307137,2.809377642688281,1713,67,323,35,28,564,231,423,0.071,0.8029999999999999,0.126,0.974,0,0,2,0,0,0,59.0,0,6,3,6,19,13,2,3,21,0,26,8,1,2,2,47,52,24,0,7,11,0,1,1,0,2,4,5,0,4,14,14,2,0,6,3,0,1,11,5,1,3,9,8,45,8,55,39,10,54,0,1,2,1,28,21,0,8,31,212,59,7,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17874803239714188,0.0,0.0,0.07137561522747167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18208536147565746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07945411875405445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06863007021569549,0.0,0.21763127280310654,0.0,0.07594775407688073,0.0,0.0,0.07893705128175824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18227464385756376,0.0,0.0,0.091687446895667,0.0,0.0,0.09358010303570932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1726824603997069,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10229170401521034,0.0,0.07810592734305102,0.0,0.0,0.08743398966042143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05895078403978655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08413981264005976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07591858106648161,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04663102398874528,0.08561963845972817,0.05072455334718884,0.07486120633523134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05982442411847755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10298601238812563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0490511306953929,0.07275313126401718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12608410813891738,0.04360452173619872,0.17890996579727972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07587973373119229,0.08055434354926641,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09913999481726364,0.0,0.0,0.09468335947174968,0.0,0.0,0.07124091640629257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06883743841542136,0.08620113179931663,0.0,0.08375792176454748,0.08744901843109745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06048016249150516,0.1357619012469859,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1704042311779522,0.0,0.15586460494428847,0.0,0.0,0.08437296174908615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09622986126331566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08927718236536306,0.0,0.11435555195588798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07097759119645868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2016610363260232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06871134240826565,0.0,0.0,0.12634750694092384,0.0,0.14255516886878006,0.0,0.20447808685253632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10128327987178704,0.0,0.18553614348502628,0.2013215109089534,0.1434764080977593,0.15602216306371358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0571897372499942,0.0,0.07085693554699328,0.1561324772902406,0.0,0.08460143562544538,0.0,0.0,0.18179084436949214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0982996021217495,0.14728619289312825,0.1579312473149283,0.07084490021470838,0.0,0.0,0.08024919213395262,0.0,0.08053697645771404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19493180482949,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17242807364214022 schizophrenia,Douseigh,2019/01/19,"Would you consider this schizophrenia? A friend of mine has been out of the hospital (was committed for same issue) and started being awake at all hours of the night, laughing at herself, going in and out of the house 10 times an hour to half smoke cigarettes, and calling herself Holly (that's not her name). She went live on Instagram and I managed to get a brief transcript of what she said. **Additionally**, how would you give about getting this person to move from your apartment? They don't want to leave, however their parents live right up the road. They have made the house permanently cig smelled. Our landlord will kick us out if she keeps doing his kind of stuff and she finds out. Not to mention we aren't equipped to be this person's caretaker. But the person wants us to move out (me and my SO which I find wrong after continually putting us though this). It's worse because she lost her jobs after the last hospital visit but gets govt money and just sits around the house all day not cleaning. ***live view from the 901 (*laughs*)… its holly. take it or leave it, i found out my true identity*** ***im not karen (**inaudible**) but karen is a pet name for jack, jack bearcat*** ***what the hell their problem was i don’t know \***laughs**\**** ***you have instagram you get it.*** ***(**inaudible**) its karensketti come talk to me*** *\*breathes heavy through nostrils\** ***(**inaudible**) they hold me captive in the 901… just be careful. because that guys on the loose*** ***You see him… send him towards an angel…or a black person.*** ***Where’s (~~redacted--- names of friends~~)?*** ***(**inaudible**) now they know… me and (~~redacted~~\---)*** ***it was a lie, it was all a lie*** ***(**inaudible even at 33% of normal speed**) princess (**inaudible**) of the kingdom*** ***trying to act like I’m retarded skitzo...real nice people there.*** ***they don’t care if I’m going live to go (**inaudible**)*** ***president…my*** ***purses*** ***everybody knows about*** ***the rejuvenation*** Thank you so much for any advice and help.",-0.272687384440335,-3.9263540730337034,0.6353633906983376,94.52050988479591,179.61797752808982,3.822614137391552,18.545299388422702,5.4465110117690285,0.4377403498791073,1514,58,282,26,158,463,205,356,0.061,0.852,0.08800000000000001,0.7853,3,0,2,0,0,0,220.0,5,7,7,1,13,15,1,0,22,0,20,2,2,2,5,55,47,19,0,8,12,1,0,1,2,3,0,1,3,5,18,19,0,2,5,0,1,12,8,4,0,1,10,6,41,11,45,31,5,45,1,1,3,0,49,20,1,3,13,181,59,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08888602915436257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0618565941036634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08097456819928149,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1108979535500312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09288134341865616,0.0,0.18548158822716615,0.0,0.0,0.07835484082525061,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05866231516471788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06007887769049384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1662733985446068,0.0,0.0,0.09973403332748992,0.1405524743756364,0.0,0.19009345727524316,0.08725807248729067,0.15508568474987106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09006568346854656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06096923591537794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17915650988481233,0.3148703181583819,0.0,0.0,0.0982534809137838,0.0949396437903478,0.0902647495715936,0.08085030956309673,0.0,0.09472187626215814,0.14996934797203124,0.0741453493114077,0.0,0.19262911471107566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.044438946331460005,0.0,0.32128089153570616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09929466842863846,0.0,0.0,0.08606949047378243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1933542796130088,0.06686679561324363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08536072961991467,0.0891224598290291,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10100141769345464,0.0,0.0,0.06306089916112087,0.3176945205819507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08703738529791312,0.0,0.09144092108429412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07768019061558984,0.08652473375081933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07248413428457072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06438265868422935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.104128574216555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06839134614506719,0.07311100025199829,0.0,0.0837446609240469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08936871332353691,0.0,0.05304008623138541,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061756543089430224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32824462283490474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10730230022088627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08432175137166414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09269702239995084,0.12923215858553724,0.09945156603238292,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,The_Spitting_Llama,2019/01/19,Any advice for going through school with schizophrenia? I’m starting classes again for the first time since my first episode and I’m a little worried about not being the same. Anybody have any tips to help balance schizophrenia and school?,5.912142857142857,8.960660928571432,3.3954761904761916,89.42035714285717,70.66666666666667,4.2,31.92857142857143,3.1291,1.2463142857142857,197,9,31,0,4,53,33,42,0.045,0.882,0.073,0.2853,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,3,0,2,0,0,0,0,5,6,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,6,5,1,7,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,5,19,1,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2599679259781054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3618280764747072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4525812607892672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15119475353958356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1783187522289344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2666386039848112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.538486566147512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2200682580616201,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18830210333761865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1551281044102798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2701731220225139,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,chebezlcrow4212,2019/01/19,"What do you make from the idea that every person has two distinct personalities, one in each hemisphere of the brain? The source is not quite reliable - athene theory of everything. I watched this documentary and it made perfect sense to me, but I'm not educated enough to make any kind of conclusion. The idea is that brain makes you believe that you are a singular individual, when in reality you are not and there is always two of you. 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I don't want people to know I have schizophrenia but (especially) if I'm not telling them, they're shaming me for being lazy, being self-absorbed, not being present, not caring about anything, and so forth. They perceive me as the worst person ever because I don't have a degree and I don't have a job and I don't have hobbies and I seem not interested in the conversation. It's hard to get me talking. I have a lot of scary thoughts and I can't get rid of them, and sometimes I just can't talk about anything but my scary thoughts. Other times I just don't know what to say, like, at all. I realize I need people who would love me and help me with my life. I hate myself for being so low functioning. I've had acquaintances with schizophrenia and I couldn't see any difference between them and healthy people. But my schizophrenia is clearly visible. When I try to hold a conversation, people see there's something really wrong with me. I feel so desperate because I can't do anything about my life. I don't even know who I am. I'm just schizophrenia itself. Nothing more. I'm not human. I can't even name one personality trait of mine. If you can, please let me know. It'd be helpful if someone found something human in me, just like if you were me and tried to tell about yourself. Is there a way to make negative symptoms seem as good or neutral personality traits of a mentally healthy person? Please, say there is and tell me what they are. We can try to talk if me being super passive, is okay with you. Who I live with, they tend to gaslight me all the time, so I really need someone to do a sanity check. But it means I have to trust this person. But there's a problem. I don't know how to know if someone is trustworthy or not. I used to trust people who ended up doing awful things to me. Now I'm just socially isolated. But I try to socialize again and find someone to protect me, so I feel more secure. There's something I can't verbalize but it's constantly inside my head. I feel like I must control myself (in a helpful way), like I must take on the role of my own mom (my real mom is dead), like I must take responsibilities I can't take. I don't trust myself, but there should be someone I could trust, and I try to imitate this person. Get it? I'm not sure I explained it good enough, although I've been writing this post for a week or so. I really need to fix my life but I don't know how. Like I need someone to control me because I don't trust myself but I don't want them to control me because if someone wants to control me, they'll abuse me. Everything is so contradictory about me. I'm constantly trying to sort it all out but failing.",2.5726659690733618,4.339528253187616,4.054056505057551,86.80188698988489,76.12204007285976,6.8581327752586905,26.25280006200829,7.69321558396912,1.4105883889470219,2117,80,439,30,47,702,201,549,0.141,0.688,0.171,0.9694,1,0,3,0,1,0,67.0,1,3,8,6,32,27,1,1,14,2,58,7,1,9,9,109,102,48,1,22,33,2,4,6,0,6,5,2,0,8,19,20,0,7,20,0,1,0,27,7,0,1,6,8,88,20,49,79,9,22,0,2,2,1,46,8,0,14,17,307,107,2,0.0,0.07169654243092786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.041150072862397635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14938807135543458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.147549632662504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061695773755259926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1307834339868278,0.2714763438045369,0.04831371767757001,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06322191150431379,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053595459854023766,0.0625248254515882,0.0,0.0799348955525012,0.05473635264802917,0.0,0.0,0.054384069422798935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09178969438085934,0.04322961451238711,0.0,0.0,0.05530665375564083,0.0,0.0,0.0663480231615912,0.0,0.0,0.09484469357178107,0.0,0.0,0.1015087891842503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05420665259022901,0.059742836700816086,0.06210252495118521,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12167927461757518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06004858617906302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2327897712399755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06187737593956325,0.12822374009621976,0.17737794063505896,0.0,0.0534329940387366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051444935713330184,0.054614227298190696,0.0,0.04039207068835262,0.0,0.0,0.06591504791335139,0.0,0.0,0.060981623082217426,0.0,0.0,0.14174128746202425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17947481766678305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058062667178494926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.041004335654755024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2097561814428084,0.3170192166098629,0.0,0.13284748559046056,0.0,0.0,0.057953540529159076,0.0,0.0,0.05790158347159283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06887563230704252,0.1162961517433742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09624276303141084,0.0,0.0,0.09644007887596423,0.11017527002876087,0.06312696437802091,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12336824086389353,0.3588999341055588,0.13975473103894487,0.05984767941349376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05703161909433836,0.12578977949368725,0.1364919416179252,0.14591118526687485,0.15866984016645164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.040201325534865336,0.0,0.0,0.09607915881655718,0.0705697895164293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2465010838069419,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05226273325163208,0.0,0.0,0.10707421422991427,0.0960628393893468,0.0485388850688115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.042985819208277716,0.06616011191391699,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,schizopherenia14343,2019/01/19,"Question to those who do recreational drugs does it cause psychosis to occur I don’t plan on doing recreation drugs as I am fearful of developing schizophrenia because it does run in my family, but I do feel pressure from my friends. 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My brother has been having problems for years and we didn’t know it was schizophrenia. My mom has been at the end of her wits. I’ve always been gone. Today she called him and we quickly left to go get him from his new appt in a new town where he was working a relatively new job. We found him at the end of a road near his appt (in a rural community) passed out drunk in his car. The drive back to my mothers (about an hour) was the longest of my life and very disturbing. He was out of his mind and speaking complete nonsense, most of it paranoid thoughts about the government and the people who had wronged him throughout his life. Eventually he admitted to multiple personalities, and they continued to fly about the conversation. When we got home he stomped about for hours cycling through all of his paranoid thoughts (he’s been drunk for about a week and lost his job) until we gave him a sleeping pill and he finally went to bed. What my mom and I witnessed tonight was more than I’ve ever seen in movies, and could be compared to the exorcism. It was really fucked up and I feel bad for my mom for having to witness it. It was deeply disturbing and we are very scared for his well-being. He has been on sertraline and represidone at various times...(I’m very sorry I don’t know the correct spellings) and said tonight he’d love to go back on represidone. BUT he always comes off his meds and resorts to weed or cbd oil which he claims does wonders for him. Please help reddit. What do we do?",4.542572280178838,5.835052140983606,4.557146050670641,87.08275335320421,70.21311475409837,7.64381520119225,29.92921013412817,8.00094639256281,1.8507377049180325,1233,49,251,16,22,381,162,305,0.08800000000000001,0.878,0.034,-0.8672,3,0,0,0,0,0,32.0,7,0,1,2,12,9,1,3,17,0,27,8,1,1,3,45,49,20,0,2,3,6,1,0,0,0,3,2,2,1,10,26,2,0,8,2,0,9,2,8,0,0,25,5,36,1,46,21,4,48,0,1,1,2,51,19,1,3,20,164,46,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18427123291178726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17028793538784745,0.09245430874176401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11306695694215232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09538345471452686,0.1160975246655697,0.0,0.0,0.08840830571511764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09689992351020206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19614652018040127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10016095699636174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05598804199169615,0.0,0.0,0.12129849429602994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12140892063843105,0.0,0.10236741860216662,0.05785146929842866,0.0,0.1258599828882017,0.0,0.08856030626238305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0742194903552107,0.0,0.11107047826171207,0.0,0.2180920370385556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21976341378274172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12170781332885283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12030766732958625,0.0,0.15642270503814867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12087406993244575,0.0,0.09993748226117076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1229952481378402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1118049894202613,0.3890543207011784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3208290341842964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07676572826951282,0.09668452069401832,0.0,0.1215474784816522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10595294957652376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0709360007264439,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10532888506293986,0.0,0.11085930830116418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11080922951191148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12395234345330147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17581333115768522,0.0,0.0,0.1049583932977693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2740897133728755,0.0,0.0,0.0888203350210552,0.0,0.0995589047343582,0.1026471353741404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1200811614217251,0.0806122216338371,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12106506560449308,0.0,0.07130601443152995 schizophrenia,deflagrat,2019/01/20,Experiences hearing voices. What's yours? What are your voices like? Are they good / bad all the time? Medication makes them disappear completely or do you keep hearing them? It would be cool if we could learn something from other people experiences.,4.7228571428571415,8.251725095238099,4.559047619047622,74.84428571428573,83.76190476190476,7.561904761904763,26.04761904761905,8.344100000000001,2.7337333333333333,202,8,30,5,6,62,36,42,0.108,0.7190000000000001,0.173,0.504,0,0,1,0,0,0,7.0,1,3,3,0,0,4,0,0,1,1,6,1,0,1,1,9,10,2,0,3,2,0,0,1,0,1,1,4,0,0,4,1,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,5,7,3,1,7,1,2,0,0,0,0,9,0,0,2,2,22,11,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20584506647087836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2584855482359282,0.0,0.0,0.1968368355588108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4823138843405421,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20678049428713732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5557220515909548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21913018702136194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12044375183307725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16456293901916536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24835643392245554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17091519749998574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18979343296565654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14375559077411004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17513023285286738,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,mitch121,2019/01/20,Schizophrenia Vyvanse I used to take Vyvanse and honestly had never felt better or more productive but I am.unable to.take it now.because it caused me to have schiOphrenia which is terrible. Is there anything similar I could take while.beinh diagnosed with schiophrena,7.414285714285715,11.611639952380955,5.401904761904763,68.8014285714286,78.04761904761905,9.466666666666667,42.714285714285715,9.2995712137729,6.128257142857144,226,15,26,7,6,65,35,42,0.133,0.821,0.046,-0.5931,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,1,1,3,0,0,0,0,5,1,0,2,1,9,9,3,0,1,2,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,1,4,2,3,6,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,21,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2731256045759065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20232329593111756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2935387764948273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3409529561171754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2649953218540415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3368717408605922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3186762638939189,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2559819137071108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4990953258300962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2866552292956299,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,nonenn,2019/01/20,I never got out of the hospital. I n ever turned 18. or 19. or 20. I'm still there . I afcna'nt walk ther.e I 'm not in control of myself. This isn't wild back thaerre. I can't go back. I can't go on. I'm hallucianting and it's bad again but it was always bad and it never went away. It'ws back and it never went away. The meds don't work they just keep me tired. They're waiting. I hadve to leave but i don't know where. They said go to to hte railway tracks and I have to listen. But I can't leave and I don't know what to do. :I don't know I can't go back I can't go back I can't walk there Ican't woalk there,-3.4331805231805217,-2.2263004615384574,-0.4041647241647244,107.393524993525,113.05594405594404,2.6779590779590783,10.191401191401187,4.683912600354853,-2.056662056462057,466,7,130,2,27,159,70,143,0.111,0.889,0.0,-0.9091,0,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,0,2,2,13,2,0,0,2,0,14,1,0,1,4,23,32,10,0,0,7,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,6,6,0,3,3,0,0,9,15,2,0,0,5,2,19,0,12,27,0,26,0,0,0,0,4,6,0,2,11,80,25,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11201581781082758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25296253837810084,0.5175778672658714,0.2248065493500256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15098938589620772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1217727947371313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3825423179218565,0.0,0.1076690590799605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1196577164740244,0.0,0.0,0.22195325925656595,0.0,0.0,0.2850893226914859,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14953406551093348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31148504832755985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12805581221759066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10750885149751062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15472753535654532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14642946322912956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2495908370109476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09800600765703502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,osmicai,2019/01/20,"Worried for a friend Hi, I am concerned a friend of mine is developing paranoia and I didn’t know where else to post. He believes that a hacker has got into his computer, mobile and house phones and tv and is spreading rumours about him in the hopes of blackmailing him. He says it started about 10 months ago which is shortly after he started taking medication for his diagnosed ADD. I am worried because his mother was placed into an institution for schizophrenia in the past and am afraid he may be developing the same symptoms. When asked to explain his beliefs has says that he knows it sounds crazy and that it is too complicated to explain. Can somebody offer me some advice? I have asked him to ring me tomorrow so he can slowly explain to me why he thinks this. I am in the UK if that helps. 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I'll give you a free copy if you can't afford the $1 cost on Amazon. The main character's son has schizophrenia.. he's based off of me. https://www.amazon.com/Metaparadise-John-Lasheras-ebook/dp/B07CZKJHM9 I wrote this book while I was on risperidone, so I find it to be quite boring and lacking compared to my latest work in progress, The Machine of Flesh, which was written on ariprapzole (abilify). I would really appreciate if you could read my book and leave an honest review on my Amazon page. If you can't afford the $1 cost I can give you a free review copy (epub, pdf or Google Docs) if you message me. I posted this before, but I'm kind of disparaged by the fact that no one is buying or reading my book. Please tell me what you think, it really motivates me. Thank you. If the moderators want to take this down I won't contest it. This will be my last repost of this same thread. Thanks.",4.2306557377049145,6.1930624480874386,4.449967213114757,84.8880655737705,72.06010928961749,6.847213114754098,22.036065573770493,7.554174236665415,0.7476268852459018,760,18,148,9,15,237,105,183,0.056,0.7909999999999999,0.153,0.9338,2,0,0,0,0,0,37.0,0,9,0,4,1,8,0,0,10,0,14,1,1,1,1,21,24,13,0,9,8,1,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,11,3,0,0,3,7,5,0,4,1,0,1,4,0,26,9,16,14,4,12,0,0,0,0,16,8,0,7,3,95,37,12,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1481645178857481,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1390217987244713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1591438385647213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33406629618292744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18132068167679072,0.0,0.14193221049696614,0.0,0.3687389203898479,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11798919172954705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1911330496864592,0.0,0.0,0.1667602046396788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18519958084154844,0.5225056689617902,0.0,0.2230933018236614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1309176506332688,0.0,0.15218981029001707,0.3206152497130427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11156998584948832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1027013346298735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12676247961163478,0.0,0.0,0.12369087276332867,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Reframingrabbits,2019/01/20,"schizophrenia is sexual repression when you live in the present I think it's important to acknowledge that schizophrenia is caused by sexual repression, that's at least one of the reasons, it's a symptom of not being able to fuck all the time because life is calculating act and if you are experiencing schizophrenic symptoms it is likely that your act has taken on words repressed in your mind. Language is all a sexual act. You are trying to escape reality because act isn't perfect. Are you that lit is an attention. Sexual repression causes idiot savants. A genius act will suffer levels. Peace out. Hahah. Spirit God and Goddess, get stupid. Hahah. It's brilliantly evil. 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The purpose of the study is to learn more about how people experience their relationships with their therapists/counselors. Participation will take about 10-15 minutes. If you choose to participate in this study, you will have the option to enter your email address for a chance to win a $25 Amazon gift card. 40 gift cards will be given out, with odds of roughly one-in-ten. Link: [https://www.psychdata.com/s.asp?SID=181716](https://www.psychdata.com/s.asp?SID=181716) To be eligible to participate, you must be At least of 18 years of age, live in the United States, and be currently seeing a counselor/therapist for outpatient counseling or psychotherapy. Your confidentiality will be protected by storing your data securely on a password-protected, encrypted website and computer. Only the researchers will have access to the data. The data will be anonymous as you will not be asked for any identifying information. IP addresses will be not tracked or recorded as a part of this research. Your individual identity will be kept private when information is presented or published about this study. Dissemination of research results will be based on all participants’ combined results, not your individual responses. If you agree to participate in the survey, there will be no direct benefit to you. However, possible benefits of participation include helping to provide information that could benefit scholars’ and therapists’ understanding of counseling/psychotherapy. There is no anticipated risk in participating in the study, other than potential discomfort in answering questions about your relationship with your therapist. You may access the study at the following link: [https://www.psychdata.com/s.asp?SID=181716](https://www.psychdata.com/s.asp?SID=181716) Thank you for your time.",11.766784127924195,14.81074387947883,10.262044714243412,46.34344906721944,54.83061889250814,13.269114598756293,41.96757477050637,12.484440550625713,6.679926384364817,1709,86,200,59,22,531,163,307,0.029,0.8290000000000001,0.142,0.9873,2,0,0,0,0,0,85.0,0,20,2,3,8,9,0,2,19,0,33,0,0,3,2,35,41,12,0,4,8,0,1,0,0,13,0,0,2,0,6,8,0,3,10,0,1,3,5,2,0,0,3,2,23,7,53,13,4,24,0,0,1,0,34,14,0,8,6,155,29,9,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10114167614790474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13904271484964698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11874900934407165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1454867321853946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09969075736055036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13133154336689395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10078347251829324,0.11311606384389795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1610603766002103,0.0,0.1031108345516235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16767101964178388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16661192835172078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4790419115507395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11851876007568787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11182664489304583,0.0,0.0,0.1369308397436388,0.0,0.6907491753064501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08672580995134377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15483344464368107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.095777410340874 schizophrenia,mybestprisonlife,2019/01/20,"Hello from down under! Any other aussies here? I’m often lonely and was hoping to chat or meet some new peeps 😊",0.4242028985507247,2.8368067826086967,2.2782608695652202,92.38376811594203,89.86956521739133,3.066666666666667,12.014492753623188,3.1291,-1.4461768115942029,88,1,17,0,3,29,23,23,0.102,0.773,0.126,0.1511,0,2,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,5,3,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,4,2,1,3,0,1,0,0,3,2,0,4,1,11,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.44064105837376666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6435793034538284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6258123823009031,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,mariemagilicutty,2019/01/20,"The Voices What do your voices ‘sound’ like? Are they loud? Sometimes I tune out and it feels like my brain is busy with chatter. Like background noise. To block it takes a lot of concentration and I can’t do it very long, like straining a muscle or holding your breath. Do your voices have different voices? Mine seem to be versions of my voice mostly, when it’s active. Mine have improved their nature with medication, but when I’m sad or exhausted they can be mean and manipulative. I’m scared asking this! It feels personal. But I need to know wether or not experiencing this is just a woman’s racing mind or if it’s the schizophrenia (no matter how long I’ve been diagnosed I always convince myself that I’m just making a big deal out of something EVERYONE experiences)",5.085083487940629,6.744554428571429,5.595967841682128,78.74437847866422,69.34013605442178,8.066542980828695,26.969078540507113,8.575989854853784,1.948923809523809,619,20,112,10,11,199,94,147,0.107,0.795,0.098,-0.7402,1,0,1,0,0,0,15.0,0,3,3,0,5,9,0,2,6,0,13,5,2,3,0,32,25,13,0,2,10,0,2,4,0,0,3,7,0,2,10,7,0,2,5,0,0,0,3,4,0,0,1,10,15,5,10,22,3,7,0,1,0,0,10,3,0,8,8,73,25,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16012427441853894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1799040499762023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2148250447747268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19839567637734445,0.0,0.19532105901624236,0.0,0.20105730731702065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1838832639432647,0.0,0.18824181019666014,0.0,0.0,0.19460540765636936,0.13747812559606484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.105759184395748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3760629848412593,0.0,0.0,0.34060408997828145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16360435810159965,0.0,0.0,0.12845421431151774,0.0,0.0,0.2096219764602746,0.0,0.19386157526637254,0.0,0.0,0.19430805909745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14269073297805338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16802990330069684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1926645415430933,0.0,0.0,0.17518881189946986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14814858350487894,0.19032662862824568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1446898266713513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15878194255973707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,AndAroundAndAround,2019/01/21,"Does this sound like the onset of schizophrenia? So about six months ago I was in a heavy depressive state and decided to take some LSD to see what it'd do, and lo and behold it more or less lifted the depressive state immediately and then a month or so latter I decided to do it again simply because of how euphoric the experience had been, and then done it again two weeks later at a lower dose(my previous ones were quite high), during this experience I got into a disturbing conversation with a friend (of a conspiratorial and occult nature, stuff I've been interested in for a while) which left me very uneasy, a day or so later I more or less suddenly started having startling peripheral hallucinations, mostly just dark blurs moving towards me rapidly, at which point I was convinced there were demons in my home, I covered the whole place with salt and retreated to my bed for a day or two. I recovered more or less from this within a few days, but I've been having minor auditory and visual hallucinations since then, hearing my name being called when nobody is around, hearing my flatmate move around when it turns out he's at work, occasionally vague shadowy figures in my periphery, small flashes of light at night when I'm trying to sleep and occasionally insects. I'm also just generally getting startled by things more, my perception being suppressed and then rapidly flaring up making me aware of my surroundings. I've also had semi-delusional experiences, attempting to control people or animals (while being semi-self-aware that it probably wouldn't work), and I'm somewhat suspicious that the government is watching me (not continual surveillance but maybe occasional checkups) because of my somewhat radical political views. I'm generally getting slightly paranoid about certain friends I have, nothing specific just general disloyalty. My memory has never been great, but it also seems to be slipping, things just generally seem to be getting harder to manage in my life, I've always been socially anxious but now it seems hard to get more than a few words out. During the last 4 months since I did LSD I've done amphetamine twice, simply to break the unbearable boredom I've been feeling (it works pretty well), but one the second time I did it I got shadow people that didn't disappear when I turned to look at them within just a couple hours of taking it, which has put me off that. I've been telling myself that this is simply HPPD, but most stuff I've found seems to suggest that tends to get better over time, not worse. I really don't want to waste the valuable time of a psychiatrist if this is just HPPD that will resolve itself, and honestly I seem far too self-aware for this to be actual schizophrenia, every report I've seen of schizophrenics having an episode are other people telling them they're suffering from delusions or issues. I just thought that because a lot of the people here will be well read in these kinds of issues then someone might know what's up here. Appreciate you reading, even if you don't respond, sorry for the excessive length.",11.69040929801529,9.058166969804619,10.891512858135764,60.57428990655653,56.92184724689165,13.627894045872269,42.95072978608387,11.882522634951824,5.13471015522434,2496,104,402,54,23,808,289,563,0.062,0.84,0.098,0.9692,1,0,0,0,0,0,55.0,0,2,2,8,32,20,0,3,26,0,45,4,1,3,2,80,78,46,0,4,25,0,2,1,2,4,3,3,2,0,37,19,0,2,14,2,0,4,7,6,2,7,23,12,35,14,62,43,17,71,1,3,5,0,17,30,0,23,35,294,72,8,0.0,0.0,0.07267202738723813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06601320698683602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17866101874946125,0.061965048141979985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08412996062510589,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13258826799787693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1361887557355148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06586270840599966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07604224836919167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0835244945654643,0.0,0.08239969503979064,0.0,0.14408106651387892,0.0,0.12828189168839318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06516924351548925,0.15241743533980226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04918676637234324,0.0,0.0627442298735246,0.0,0.0,0.2185379988173552,0.0,0.0,0.03765429538371238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08165256717881306,0.11507075341494052,0.0,0.19453764016858124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1191210055808126,0.08210349418098896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06671053832881227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16786631969540394,0.0,0.0,0.07868169762000185,0.07469953311632159,0.0,0.07333799943122933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15545477073145172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07754909840457908,0.040926792494994285,0.060703030988094576,0.0,0.0,0.08091192835830059,0.0,0.05260039939510061,0.0363823053136773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06253608711732109,0.0,0.0,0.06331177432539001,0.0,0.0,0.04970933734286983,0.0,0.07481517573125021,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07900095575560741,0.0,0.0,0.17832385277842874,0.15829975765214094,0.0,0.0,0.05743589429997607,0.0,0.0,0.06988509816740204,0.0,0.0714560224473675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10092566777816828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2065126269666475,0.0,0.07780535320104859,0.0,0.0703982690865324,0.0,0.0,0.07576281438077133,0.08029131047361808,0.0,0.0,0.07486297006770998,0.0,0.07920806598757896,0.1489804073995856,0.0,0.04770742161493895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05934298901393858,0.3389736878654697,0.1553770091120006,0.0,0.0,0.12320479155564805,0.0,0.07452383242660868,0.07591283880709876,0.06309823258713243,0.0,0.0,0.08336312519352286,0.052710285425864034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1705007832889428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11198442094931972,0.0,0.1301802140297761,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0989491857479541,0.0,0.0,0.05912090214538832,0.13027225691226035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050560276317944366,0.1620040618499193,0.1454928379013174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061445591247919325,0.043924365559635546,0.0,0.059735382985158486,0.0,0.13391503876854305,0.0,0.0,0.08314315251441999,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16264525228733587,0.0,0.07589134417069322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Dill3318,2019/01/21,Does anyone have family/friends that actually believe their delusions? I live with my grandma however recently she has started taking interest & even believing some of my delusions. My grandma is a very religious person & a lot of my delusions happen to based off of religion e.g I believe I’m the reincarnation of the prophet jeremih “The weeping prophet” and I see visions of the future. Any advice on how I should go about handling this?,5.030411392405063,8.071701962025319,5.587832278481017,72.58909018987346,73.68354430379749,8.506962025316456,38.988924050632896,9.188382445141503,4.562808860759494,361,23,53,9,8,116,58,79,0.038,0.893,0.069,0.3313,1,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,1,0,3,2,0,0,6,0,4,0,0,1,0,6,10,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,10,1,10,9,2,6,0,1,1,0,3,2,0,2,3,37,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.18607308065868214,0.0,0.0,0.18632719150744312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.413196531375579,0.0,0.12966678301643744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13332567302327847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6444824756683961,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16686257891922265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12594024792747166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1473164458969919,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10836603666278152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1686148910872352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1683711342895484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16210662223469716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1664916532454671,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18827036624341148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15194474653196455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13496204171278325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1433652461681412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1573283540786742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,wistfulasterism,2019/01/21,"Anybody else relapse? I’ve tried many medications and it goes well for a while and I feel great but then I forget a dose or I hear voices a bit or my delusions start in the background and suddenly I’m very sick again, off my meds, and potentially heading to the hospital etc. I just feel like every time I make progress it doesn’t last. It’s so frustrating and I’m getting so fed up. Schizophrenia sucks ",1.343703703703703,3.920667876543213,2.5739382716049377,91.03572222222223,86.28395061728395,5.709135802469136,24.14938271604938,7.1686216300943375,1.0909249382716046,322,13,66,5,10,103,60,81,0.18,0.6920000000000001,0.128,-0.7616,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,1,5,5,2,0,5,0,1,5,1,1,0,13,11,12,0,0,4,0,2,1,0,0,3,2,0,0,3,5,1,0,2,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,1,4,7,3,5,10,2,10,0,0,0,0,1,3,1,2,8,37,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2679178150764832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20500371019110514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2736905402149524,0.0,0.0,0.2067636132865285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24816746288824204,0.17531680153539586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1282135599801597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27055898453977045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2518554968514499,0.0,0.2765883562464351,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20003716755855205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11989209081875715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16380920163987292,0.2488013297647759,0.0,0.0,0.2725887313777168,0.24721890241778716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17369834794345965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14309715599593625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16661333546265475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20248415659186764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2206478376179177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,bemis_,2019/01/21,"how to tell doctors i have schizophrenia symptoms about a year ago, i was interested in schizophrenia and looked it up. i found out that i have been exhibiting the symptoms since i was about 10 years old (hallucinations, delusions, etc.) i think i need to tell my doctor. i am getting worse and worse each day. i just dont know how to.",4.325156249999999,6.050202453125002,4.336375,86.77112500000004,71.34375,6.995000000000001,28.425,7.554174236665415,1.4907849999999998,263,10,53,3,5,81,45,64,0.105,0.8490000000000001,0.046,-0.5423,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,0,5,1,0,0,2,0,7,4,0,2,0,11,13,4,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,2,4,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,4,1,10,1,8,9,2,8,0,0,1,0,2,3,0,0,5,36,12,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17243249544440378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1254509462540002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3982041259082876,0.0,0.0,0.22797896888266725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21694405250680546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2132839254558898,0.0,0.0,0.10162999885408756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10690450112285033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16334994237014788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14423599908629714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20411868417115195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16091105574437894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4043668021171073,0.0,0.0,0.34004254886627744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12464218955571922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.396470174842204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25053227697927377 schizophrenia,LucySparky,2019/01/21,I think anti psychotics make me sad and think of suicide. I feel like I’m out of options with this medication.,2.91,5.0288472727272815,4.2545454545454575,84.1518181818182,76.27272727272728,6.218181818181819,29.181818181818183,7.1686216300943375,1.6751090909090918,88,4,17,1,2,29,18,22,0.361,0.547,0.091,-0.8126,0,0,0,0,0,1,2.0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,8,5,1,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,3,1,4,5,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,9,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21955103166122047,0.31020170167896144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21213443471542215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2898404069338532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.43742370124017865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4749583132168556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5564520421275309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,moldycheddar,2019/01/21,How can I increase my libido? I plan on having sex tomorrow - the first time after having a terrible experience of limp dick. Is there anything I can do to help me get it up at least? I skipped my dose of rexulti tonight in hopes of increasing it somewhat. Any suggestions?,3.2440384615384623,5.665187634615389,4.804461538461538,79.14053846153845,76.5,8.775384615384615,31.55384615384615,9.3871,3.3877261538461543,215,11,39,6,5,72,43,52,0.113,0.74,0.147,0.2359,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,2,2,2,0,0,2,0,6,3,1,1,0,3,8,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,1,0,1,7,1,9,8,4,11,0,0,0,2,2,4,1,2,5,31,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3081920841664453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3729456422802427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4433173437348761,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3854923680226676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23677871224966396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3037709424367285,0.0,0.0,0.45013065189576745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2642650303801731,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Geekrock84,2019/01/21,"Cecelia McGough I thought that a few of you might be interested in Cecelia McGough, a schizophrenic who has had a Ted Talk and does youtube videos about what its like to live with schizophrenia. https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCBvBvo-hQ2MDZK0v3szZXMg",15.568333333333335,17.50790583333334,8.802222222222222,64.01500000000001,46.22222222222222,10.533333333333337,45.77777777777778,10.125756701596842,4.8065444444444445,214,10,28,3,2,53,32,36,0.0,0.852,0.14800000000000002,0.6369,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,1,0,0,1,2,0,0,3,0,4,1,0,0,0,4,5,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,4,2,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,2,2,5,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,1,1,20,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4277273667318305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23878914052077366,0.0,0.4315943237230139,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.518509483183006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3928561398052203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3880300956301094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,cuzzik,2019/01/21,"I’m here for insight to the world of schizophrenia. I’ve decided to join this subreddit. And first off, I do not have schizophrenia. But I’m in love with a woman who does. Who is also on this subreddit. (Hopefully she doesn’t see this). I’m her biggest supporter. Her biggest fan. Our marriage is falling apart and there no one to blame because I’m dealing with separate mental health issues and she’s finally helping her schizophrenia. I’m so proud of her in every aspect of her life and the only thing I want is for her to be happy. With or without me no matter how much I can’t imagine life without her. I’ve been researching schizophrenia to better understand what she’s going through. Are there others here for the sole reason of learning and understanding? If so, what is your advice? Anything that has helped any of you comfort an SO in these times? I love her more than anything and she was there for me (especially these past 2 years in the darkest time of my life) when I needed someone the most. And I couldn’t thank her enough especially due to the fact that I’ve watched so many run from me because of my family and personal life with them. I want to help her, and maybe that means letting her go. 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I’ve been diagnosed & everything but. I am not eligible for SSDI bc I haven’t worked. So I was reading about SSI and they said if you live with your parents who pay the bills they’ll take that out of your check. The thing about fair share. So what do I need to do? Say i’m homeless but sleep on their couch? Move out to.... a group home? ,-0.5924242424242436,1.4891097777777809,1.3675757575757572,99.83045454545454,90.11111111111113,5.050505050505051,17.070707070707073,6.574015621080383,-0.4371111111111112,320,8,81,4,11,105,63,90,0.019,0.901,0.08,0.7278,4,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,3,3,1,4,1,0,0,3,0,9,2,1,0,0,12,15,7,0,4,5,2,0,0,0,1,1,2,2,0,5,5,0,0,0,1,3,1,2,0,0,0,3,2,13,1,13,11,1,5,0,0,0,0,13,4,0,2,0,51,18,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2378793946722657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2228358757455237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19731494583925416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1147043964276006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22022383051696606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.387728554949314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23334402201534504,0.0,0.3255830641517368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4875625630012048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21960670047579076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20883974657951845,0.1745928152905191,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2197058422873368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1650722374749025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1458574625762151,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15983304035889725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,wackazoo,2019/01/21,"my family i don't know what to do now. i don't think i can disclose my schizophrenia to my family. they don't know. they've seen me react to hallucinations. however, they are also anti-medication. i am getting worse. i don't know what i should do.",0.12932773109243811,2.5046888235294134,3.447507002801121,83.32235294117645,92.13725490196079,6.835854341736696,19.050420168067227,7.957251820313856,1.2014067226890757,194,6,40,5,7,70,28,51,0.075,0.925,0.0,-0.4767,1,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,10,0,0,1,0,6,16,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,1,1,12,0,3,14,0,1,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,1,29,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.254566419894513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.600181751319773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16631300192647785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.52483347540091,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35359013675132106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2039714350628176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3244029602272816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Dee_DaLuckyFlame,2019/01/21,Has anyone experienced seeing through their closed eyelids ? I’ve been getting this issue mainly after I take my night time medication (400 mg Quetiapine) I’ll start to feel very weak and faint and I have to lay down for some reason laying on a cold floor feels like it helps. I start to hear loud white noise or as if an explosion happened and it blurs out all other noises one time it happened in my kitchen I was laying with my front body against the floor I thought I was staring at hand for a minute or so until I actually opened my eyelids it’s a strange mind fuck every time. When I’m going to sleep in my bed sometimes I’ll start to see the details on my ceiling but my eyes are closed. Basically what ever I am looking at last can still be seen when I close my eyes it just looks more dimly lit.,2.85578439964943,4.708416055214727,3.7912050832602975,88.61872699386505,75.56441717791411,6.129535495179668,24.52629272567923,6.868970318607317,0.806839088518843,639,21,132,6,14,205,113,163,0.038,0.925,0.037000000000000005,-0.0249,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,1,0,6,3,1,0,6,0,9,10,5,1,2,23,28,12,0,1,5,0,3,1,0,0,3,2,2,0,8,9,1,0,4,0,0,2,0,2,0,1,5,17,18,1,21,22,4,30,0,0,10,1,3,14,1,5,15,80,26,0,0.0,0.0,0.16291073657756772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11672931689008816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1854342745458301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15100806478004292,0.14065533978047715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16882118792648762,0.11926297812862913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15433464538685726,0.0872199975461008,0.0,0.09487665163725932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29525147869567603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1881551043183512,0.0,0.11189730952659066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17424346144500893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.136079532198355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08155914139367981,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28037748171453364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16817590951819594,0.0,0.0,0.1685632365285818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15666320629230732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11312382128623286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17164357564554966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26606138286085473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16706197514635554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16510932520333918,0.0,0.35448597208597943,0.0,0.13331962731420965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12551916575035446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13253283363506224,0.2920346396297922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13774414846448274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,vggcakes,2019/01/21,Feeling like my spanish teacher has been replaced I cant shake the feeling that my spanish profesor is actually someone else that I know that posses the power to be in different forms. I think she is atching me from afar. It sounds delusional but I cant help but think that everytime im in class,5.228448275862071,6.387735120689657,6.137413793103452,76.88646551724139,68.48275862068965,9.248275862068963,36.91379310344829,9.516144504307137,3.7002620689655177,239,13,43,5,4,79,41,58,0.075,0.847,0.078,-0.2054,2,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,1,2,0,7,0,0,0,0,7,12,2,0,0,2,0,2,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,5,0,0,0,5,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,1,3,8,1,4,10,1,3,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,1,29,13,1,0.0,0.0,0.3291162436263819,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3523639906604536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2817367123823932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3410566816046168,0.2409379773855528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2260576740180369,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3642977154966018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1853487881637704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1647677667708549,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2857585516072668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4322040427780177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,someguynamedcole,2019/01/21,Not sure if questions from non-schizophrenics are allowed but I’m on vacation with a friend who has it and she ran out of meds and is starting to have an episode. What do I do? Please see the title. She’s pacing and talking to herself. ,1.62125,3.901610291666668,2.4123333333333328,94.86600000000004,81.5,4.673333333333334,26.266666666666666,5.6839178017228535,0.6380366666666677,186,8,39,1,5,58,42,48,0.03,0.821,0.149,0.7763,1,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,3,0,6,0,0,1,1,11,10,5,0,1,3,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,3,5,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,1,4,2,7,9,0,4,0,0,1,0,7,2,0,2,1,29,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2928335556950645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4210110149373323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4160553196436077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4245944262723731,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3020336264917253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26827564511198226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35722630965310936,0.0,0.0,0.3046457098577633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Tethadamtherock,2019/01/21,"How long do I have to take Schizophrenia medication before they take me off? For those of you who have been on schizophrenia medication or know about schizophrenia, how long do I have to take the medications for? Its been longer than a year and I want to get off. Please reply.",3.7875000000000014,6.343631980769235,3.4429230769230803,88.90207692307693,75.34615384615384,6.467692307692308,21.93846153846154,7.554174236665415,0.7098415384615384,221,6,44,3,5,66,35,52,0.0,0.921,0.079,0.4515,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,1,1,0,3,0,0,0,2,0,7,3,0,2,0,6,13,4,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,6,0,11,11,0,6,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,1,3,33,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1873872113507312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1150535345500096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1210247058169154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3897676596616888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6655319890144639,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2417305417571332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4967240568556653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12988883555191208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1418115925924175 schizophrenia,LSDuck666,2019/01/21,"anyone here take latuda? if you do, do you like it? does it make you spacey or anything? when do you take it? i like it n i take it at night, but idk i feel like its been making me feel spacey during the day.",-2.58195652173913,-1.0060536521739092,-0.2648913043478256,107.20309782608696,107.2608695652174,2.3000000000000003,7.9239130434782625,3.1291,-2.5462086956521737,156,1,41,0,8,51,29,46,0.034,0.8029999999999999,0.163,0.7278,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,4,0,0,2,3,0,0,1,0,4,0,0,2,0,7,11,4,0,1,3,0,2,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,6,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,8,3,1,10,0,4,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,2,6,25,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1883628566189357,0.0,0.22168396314785255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17373343842282055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2357438842445567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2724220621078233,0.19245135538951985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3948291637164299,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3596381248662451,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2528030648212109,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6076403747849753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Lizaster9,2019/01/21,"Feeling weird. Just needed to chat. I have been feeling super lonely lately. My fiance is AMAZING and really helps me keep on track. he is always there to listen to me, especially when I am experiencing voices. I just wish I had a friend who has had similar experiences, especially with voices. I've been on and off of clozaril for a while now, and it has had an effect on my voices. The chatter and voices I used to hear are all gone, replaced by new ones. It feels even more isolating because I don't \*know\* these voices. Even when the ones I was used to were the most violent and aggressive, I knew them and there's comfort in that. Now I just walk around with this head full of strangers. Has anyone else experienced this? Sorry for the downer post.",3.075812807881775,5.470157551724141,4.318251231527096,82.55008620689657,76.93103448275863,6.901477832512318,23.46059113300493,7.957251820313856,1.3874729064039408,595,19,111,10,14,195,94,145,0.076,0.774,0.149,0.9021,0,2,0,0,0,0,22.0,0,0,1,2,12,8,2,0,7,0,16,1,1,3,1,25,29,9,0,2,3,0,3,0,1,0,0,7,0,0,7,9,0,1,6,1,0,2,1,4,0,2,9,12,14,4,18,20,4,17,0,1,0,0,8,7,0,1,7,86,21,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.166295260808405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1397431710608289,0.2047749307515146,0.0,0.17791320484671788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12182967298122363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1669530979925419,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2640045118167011,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19549641074330196,0.0,0.0,0.3031578797636235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15440737580572586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20510875342989213,0.0,0.2252509620482505,0.0,0.13395850573806153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17764019008807042,0.0,0.0,0.10983500918795663,0.0,0.22544499697288065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14818985279836236,0.0,0.19302107757690226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2708536626482906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1914057192381144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1280321464735218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22372116316438054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3452208771384794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22982323588067646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Derpliiine,2019/01/21,"I[21] was diagnosed as schizotypal today and I have been crying pretty much since. Diagnosed 4 years ago with ADHD, depression, anxiety and micropsychotic episodes. They have been on/off about the ADHD and when I was re-evaluated today they focused om checking weather I have shizotypal personality disorder. It fits with me isolating myself, paranoid thinking, intrusive sexual/violent thoughts, micro psychosis and other psychotic stuff. I felt like they gave me no room to talk about the stuff that I don’t think fits it all the way though. For example I am only completely emotionally numb for brief periods (hours, days or weeks at max) Usually I would say I have a pretty wide range of emotions and a pretty extreme temper unfortunately. I am also still pretty good at forming friendships and often told that I am good socially (I just can’t maintain the fucking stuff cause I get scared of abandonment or paranoid about ill intentions) It has gotten way worse though, I barely even try to maintain social relations, even though people try to reach out I just kind of don’t respond. It just seems pointless. I have one close relationship that I keep working to maintain with my ex-boyfriend. I want to push him away too but I also want to keep the last slightly stable thing in my life. When I push him away with psychotic, self-harming or extremely angry actions I crawl back and apologize while I would just ghost other people. He never understands in the moments when it happens but he understands and forgives in retro perspective when I explain. I am getting better at reacting with sadness instead of rage, since he/most people understands it better and I think it doesn’t push him/them away as much. Also guys, I am fucking losing myself :( I used to be this relatively pretty girl, even found myself attractive sometimes, doing great socially and in school, extroverted, lots of friends, somewhat happy (sucky childhood, so always struggled a bit) but very outgoing and pretty funny. Gradually over the last years all of that has just declined. I just get weirder and weirder (in a bad way), more psychotic, self hatred, self harming, I can’t stand to look at pics of myself unless I edit them to make it look like how I feel like I used to look, even though in reality I probably haven’t changed. The only reason I look in a mirror is to do make up so I can bear to go out in public and not feel like everyone is staring at my flaws. I spend all of my money to fix the stuff I hate about myself (photo editing apps, makeup, skincare) I can’t hold a job anymore. I dropped out of school a few times as well. I just want to die. Or be myself again. I want to just feel pretty and happy for a day. I want to trust someone, something or myself again. I want to do well at something. I don’t want a lifelong struggle. I want a relationship and stable friendships. I want anything but this.",5.671654490760638,7.288865711359406,6.150577281191808,75.49051568543192,67.86405959031657,8.859647614954879,32.01876521988254,9.265573868473778,3.0530068185073778,2305,98,388,45,39,745,257,537,0.145,0.6629999999999999,0.192,0.9689,1,0,2,0,0,1,73.0,0,0,4,4,42,33,5,3,19,0,34,7,0,9,4,89,78,43,2,11,19,0,4,4,1,2,5,2,1,5,21,24,0,4,16,0,3,6,11,15,2,1,10,11,64,18,64,64,11,64,0,4,5,2,28,27,2,9,30,276,85,6,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13442016166402676,0.0,0.049573473393710515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13416780768181455,0.046533456040379936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04278189821731972,0.0,0.05546182875595014,0.0,0.0,0.04602089273674039,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15762802150888452,0.04300229629098325,0.04669441283478155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09892090906759413,0.061054796801501075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05744960984564991,0.059160441262625076,0.0,0.05863551217469104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06143016268012886,0.07213302956975005,0.0,0.04816747462199166,0.11352387321032525,0.05804054225213525,0.0,0.06409403560781507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12581450821734988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14774975889707986,0.0,0.0,0.05343801750445157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08483094348388283,0.07990459082071122,0.05369605014212917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06131805363393781,0.043206936863007785,0.10340213604087488,0.08765433738944564,0.0,0.031783040078614835,0.0938132152687738,0.0,0.061656683110753424,0.0,0.0553737999481806,0.04945362962709018,0.11906480817217582,0.0,0.055213618891736885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05507412121754663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05549618892189489,0.099416086018131,0.0,0.05823650057226069,0.0,0.09117145580295716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.039500951687312456,0.10928705492699953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18784914064093208,0.06256493093748533,0.0,0.04754479752292908,0.0,0.0,0.0746597423354132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08222151702777468,0.0,0.043132229259693816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.037895719165266496,0.08506582441343541,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11631250039599512,0.048830898045318455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3982654720260345,0.060295800267722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05749944322272934,0.0,0.12008343097607388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04447320827528997,0.055989930364970894,0.1131966534088852,0.0,0.05091133687814249,0.17502356828560264,0.0,0.0,0.09252223509425207,0.0,0.0,0.17102319065919006,0.04738443558683848,0.08610643980124331,0.055310513279433114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04466117833072298,0.0,0.0,0.11692833721878128,0.2560795461934373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04494979381774592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03715358676623376,0.107502003930573,0.2197811669272261,0.04439760774084223,0.03260987993542154,0.0,0.10601929999412812,0.05343801750445157,0.0,0.07593778964036965,0.0,0.0,0.17465734973190442,0.0,0.09660119255625173,0.06159266051222121,0.0461433631530274,0.296870144644902,0.1331701998918242,0.04485906009184474,0.0,0.1005652340558749,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.040713520091453986,0.0,0.05699158854392612,0.07945396538167825,0.0,0.0,0.07202676696807507 schizophrenia,lmao_goaway,2019/01/21,"I never thought it would get this far. So I have dual diagnosis, I have BPD, anxiety, and a form of psychosis to list my top 3 that are my worst to handle. I woke up today and my sister called me to ask for permission to move forward with the Dr Phil show. They had contacted them a few months back during an episode and I understand that... but they want to continue with the communication with my family even though I went to the hospital, I was discharged, I'm on meds, and I'm seeing a therapist. I'm following my action plan perfectly, so why do they want my permission. I know I've been hard to deal with but why would my family plan on my next failure? ",2.349636591478699,4.297511075187971,4.3475375939849625,83.63353696741856,77.34586466165413,8.643859649122808,24.6171679197995,9.2995712137729,2.139561904761905,515,18,107,14,12,176,84,133,0.077,0.845,0.078,0.0387,0,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,4,4,5,2,0,0,7,0,9,1,0,0,2,19,23,9,0,4,2,1,1,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,4,8,0,0,3,1,0,5,1,1,0,0,6,2,21,1,16,15,3,16,0,0,1,0,9,6,0,0,7,72,25,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14224178573552887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1738265937482172,0.0,0.0,0.14297456798402386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2341819486383177,0.0,0.18986311960684107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19169354243892395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12281005766012472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3505709181022538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0971447426542014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16656360364656958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10218646430435717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20653480150010065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14841365037167356,0.197622285409825,0.0,0.0,0.14340657072970447,0.0,0.1977467896527792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1481682257247103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21588793128742484,0.0,0.0,0.18268278733195004,0.14761371679591134,0.0,0.0,0.17624714168819214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1935676407772799,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21934167520702794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17236605519339307,0.3355595988636416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26416952941754845,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,WhenTheSkyFalls,2019/01/21,"Can Schizophrenics recognize delusions in hindsight? I know that schizophrenic people truly believe their delusions at the time but if they remember something they believed to be true in the past can they recognize that as a delusion in the present? Basically, can schizophrenics recognize that their delusions are in fact delusions in hindsight?",10.527222222222225,13.475637092592592,7.3750000000000036,66.23250000000003,57.7037037037037,9.844444444444443,48.685185185185176,10.125756701596842,6.0368296296296275,289,19,34,6,4,81,34,54,0.0,0.89,0.11,0.7343,0,0,1,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,5,0,0,1,0,0,4,0,5,3,0,0,2,6,6,3,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,6,1,8,5,0,9,0,0,0,0,5,6,0,1,3,28,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7516353287397864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18332061788552453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3184290403399817,0.23125451610530576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3778682786659404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2567974594561221,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19450657441917615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Schiz1717,2019/01/21,"Podcast: Bizarre Questions Psychiatrists and Therapists Have Asked There is an assumption among many Americans that doctors are pretty darn smart and always know what they’re talking about. Psychiatrists work with the mentally ill, so they are certainly smarter than their patients. Because, after all, their patients are “crazy.” Right? In this episode, our hosts discuss all the times that psychiatrists and therapists didn’t live up to the hype – or stereotype. [WEB](https://psychcentral.com/blog/podcast-bizarre-questions-psychiatrists-and-therapists-have-asked/) // [iTunes](https://itunes.apple.com/us/podcast/a-bipolar-a-schizophrenic-and-a-podcast/id1360410451?) // [GooglePlay](https://play.google.com/music/listen?u=0#/ps/Iwwkxsmonivv5a7qp5gsas6k7s4) // [Spotify](https://open.spotify.com/show/4OpZjOVTcCyj7FBQB5LKKB)",15.064328571428568,21.157135290000006,7.3737142857142866,54.91900000000001,61.1,9.657142857142855,45.14285714285714,9.424239791934726,6.477285714285713,699,38,63,17,14,171,74,100,0.107,0.762,0.132,0.5112,0,0,0,0,0,0,81.0,1,0,3,1,3,2,0,0,4,0,6,2,0,0,3,10,8,5,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,4,4,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,4,2,8,7,2,6,0,0,0,0,8,4,1,2,2,34,8,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18556161838741586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4169672186089179,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13594441101993732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2282594878031465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1225600895746261,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19692131447708602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22609644686111566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.224740941291644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2268806508125161,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2498214754617247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1904487400011152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17924644324211875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5178620158118008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1300385273551398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2682527524527077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16235344032609467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,isnt_this_lovely,2019/01/21,"How do I explain this (TLDR; I feel like I've been in a coma since I was eight and want to tell my boyfriend.) Ever since I was a young girl I've felt as though I'm not technically alive, but trapped deep in a coma. Everyone I've met so far in my life doesn't seem like an actual person to me anymore and is more of a representation of things that I went through when I was ""awake."" The only person this doesn't apply to is my boyfriend, and it's only because I can feel his heartbeat whenever I embrace him. I've come up with the theory that he's in the same hospital room as I am and has taken intrest in me. He holds my hands against his chest so I can feel his heart and talks to me while I sleep, which would explain why I enjoy holding him so much. He's the only person who's ""real"" to me at the moment, minus my family, and I want to tell him this. Maybe he can snap me out of this delusion, or at least understand my struggles a bit more. 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I stopped taking my medicine around two months ago, and I’ve been doing really well!!! Lost the weight it gave me from being on it for a year, and I feel more energized. However, this does mean the hallucinations are stronger. Not much, considering I was on an EXTREMELY low dose. I hear things like “the trees are here and ready to set on fire did you know genderfluid people are green the men in black are here ahhhhh ahhhhhh ahhhhh” and random songs that don’t exist play. Also I’ll hear random words being shouted. 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I just noticed that my life was a constant pain. Most of my habits seems to be close to schizophrenia. The more I advance in life and the more it's impacting me. I don't know if it's only in my head or if it's really the case. My family is really religious so they don't believe in mental illness. They made me really dependant on them so no matter how hard I try I can't see a doctor. Does anyone here know how I can verify my doubt without a doctor ?",1.3522113022113018,3.409264810810811,3.653562653562656,86.84137592137594,81.07207207207206,7.27960687960688,20.9017199017199,8.296473431620573,1.2203081081081084,418,12,87,9,11,144,71,111,0.155,0.812,0.032,-0.9167,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,3,1,8,3,0,1,7,0,9,7,1,4,0,19,14,9,0,2,5,0,1,0,0,1,6,0,0,0,5,2,0,0,4,1,0,1,5,3,0,0,2,2,18,0,8,10,3,9,0,0,1,0,3,6,0,8,2,63,23,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13068447027393376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15605326882942874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2105717251691713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2019719533405091,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3825990988685645,0.16355700473976775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17619220721022247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1674252338228342,0.0,0.1918127990588148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20543014566361484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2640252766209683,0.0,0.0,0.16503567538870942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1768488181516905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18835072847269985,0.1982708252842462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2127863101395432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14214548550333989,0.1988742366352783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3591978007850636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.159611144768537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14893469698045292,0.17014627785173533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1268924865057322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18016444054059114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,SwiggitySwoner123,2019/01/21,"Should I get evaluated? Lately, (and by that I mean the last year or so) I've noticed things are different. I constantly feel like I'm having an out of body experience, but I'm in my body, if that makes sense. Sometimes, if I look at the stars, I feel like they're giant monsters reaching down for me. I never see vivid hallucinations, only shadows and people moving out the corners of my eyes, or ill think someone's there but no one is. I occasionally hear a short gasp or whisper, but they're not talking to me or anything. Do these warrant talking to a doc? Cause I just thought everyone was like this till I mentioned it to a friend and he looked at me like I had two heads.",4.5499673202614375,5.241807852941181,5.573921568627451,82.01486928104578,69.73529411764707,8.103267973856209,30.552287581699343,8.167268648758528,2.0294454248366005,532,21,109,7,9,176,94,136,0.049,0.8140000000000001,0.13699999999999998,0.897,1,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,0,0,0,3,5,0,0,7,0,7,5,4,2,1,25,20,14,0,3,11,0,2,4,1,1,1,2,0,0,6,5,0,0,5,0,0,1,3,0,0,2,3,9,15,5,14,16,0,16,0,0,5,0,6,9,0,6,10,69,21,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1308217474029116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35316771721174856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16330970349958848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17179401149910886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16609360162635944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15190611072389398,0.0,0.15550670925344687,0.0,0.0,0.1607636821806575,0.2271415779888778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1228226278155922,0.0,0.08305715732438043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16315280246674282,0.0,0.17917482848465344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12958472176581873,0.17932917266158613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31066593114248897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26699561183395937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1061161286987855,0.0,0.0,0.17316888162351066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1689638039241598,0.0,0.0,0.12261025950570904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1809925249835853,0.0,0.0,0.10772464212395264,0.12090660493804987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11021229447278268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12668139621613725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13469783601616378,0.0,0.15722897941940034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2555539548646582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10561501209567056,0.10186387940481853,0.0,0.1262073002014824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15529413121116856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10237380192131072 schizophrenia,YosemiteBlob,2019/01/21,"Should i confront my Dad with the possibility that he has schizophrenia? He is 52 years old and frequently complains about the symptoms of schizophrenia. I also think that I have the precursors of schizophrenia, I am 20. His wife, is a hindu and basically a self-educated theologist. I have no doubt that he himself has thought that he has this disorder. Sorry, I dont know if it classifies as an disorder. Perhaps, I get it from him, but I never really considered the possibility of medicine. Religion and spirituality kind of covered it for me. Instead of thinking of it as a problem, I just think of it as the will of the Gods. Let things be. He is very intelligent. I don't know of this is important, however I am also the only child, of 4, that really has a relationship with him. Any advice would be helpful.",3.797815126050424,6.164179150326802,5.870835667600371,72.43661764705884,74.49019607843138,9.33874883286648,31.84360410830999,9.784248007369934,3.631407469654529,642,32,114,19,14,223,88,153,0.102,0.8290000000000001,0.069,0.0037,1,0,0,0,0,0,23.0,0,0,0,0,5,5,1,1,12,0,20,1,0,0,1,19,27,10,0,4,3,2,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,1,13,5,0,0,6,0,0,0,4,4,0,0,1,0,17,1,18,20,0,4,1,0,0,0,15,0,0,2,4,91,30,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16396152069106898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2683616901549813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1141023097836189,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3846015826395187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19664752050871914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08766285496381032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11246546539611356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17472647864248145,0.1844249509510646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17157567476642654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12940926155401974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.176066385985006,0.0,0.0,0.1276111356840257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3783138930172536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1605514633310617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21497992769438265,0.0,0.0,0.18014264964051546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17504057572987572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1878261077608674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17439707136603028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11147159119815092,0.3225373504455757,0.0,0.1332057658767116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1384435410305206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11919252916043947,0.0,0.0,0.10805064896300501 schizophrenia,Mr_Hawkman,2019/01/22,"I usually only post to /r/Schizoid Hello. So I am tech diagnosied as emergent paranoid schizophrenic. &#x200B; Recently I have been feeling more and more watched by people. Stalking my parent's house (where I live). I feel like I should just flee the town. &#x200B; I've talked to my work about this (DVR: Disability Vocational Rehabilitation) but they haven't been any help. I'm stuck in a corner. Do I let the people capture me or do I flee tomorrow? I have half a tank of gas. I live in Wisconsin. I've either thought about going to the police directly. But then again they could be apart of it it. Or you aren't it's hard to tell... I'm just super scared of these people capturing me.",1.7026690079016689,4.40378470149254,3.2468042142230047,85.82396400351186,86.31343283582089,6.436523266022828,23.553994732221252,7.724431198458867,1.501660755048288,546,21,105,11,17,179,89,134,0.086,0.836,0.078,-0.2366,1,0,0,0,0,0,31.0,0,1,2,2,7,3,0,1,5,0,13,1,0,0,0,13,20,8,0,2,7,1,3,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,5,1,0,0,3,0,0,3,2,1,0,1,4,4,17,2,13,12,3,15,0,0,1,0,8,6,0,2,6,68,22,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3458252200528916,0.38783170914190507,0.10852473427336308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1274173533118519,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16138411589251567,0.11400909163355917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09069705486250132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14295874002154435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10696790249197552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1841421441743208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1631886729296747,0.0,0.07796622028570949,0.0,0.28183675391656204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12137321862014748,0.0,0.0,0.17720264387731546,0.0,0.0,0.331912907120181,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15284037545106569,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15757305759274426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1597745770542636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1282701058760361,0.13948620292720626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12669437080515028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17576269909318906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11618134565625488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38783170914190507,0.0 schizophrenia,woozookazoo,2019/01/22,"I fucked up I think I triggered my symptoms. I decided to smoke some weed, and I usually smoke and everything is fine. This time is different. I went to a processing plant for dead animals in my town to meet up with my friend, I saw cut off heads and saw where they were processed. It felt so grim and lonely. I had a panic attack, and then I went off and smoked. I’ve felt detached and paranoid. I’m going to quit smoking without a doubt. This was too close of a call. I’m just worried it’ll get worse.",0.6111217948717922,2.8912573557692336,2.313076923076924,93.91525641025645,86.01923076923076,5.7743589743589725,22.128205128205128,7.1686216300943375,0.7323358974358979,391,14,86,6,12,128,69,104,0.295,0.643,0.063,-0.9785,1,2,3,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,1,1,4,9,3,2,4,0,6,3,1,1,0,18,18,9,1,0,2,0,2,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,4,9,0,0,4,0,0,3,1,7,0,0,9,4,13,2,13,8,1,14,0,2,2,1,4,8,1,2,3,52,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23714879501333105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2128568839700532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21779215362172824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1873468125287035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4003009027740435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16105258940445874,0.19271421406400208,0.1089096569058005,0.0,0.1184703493338611,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2139359967555373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2445782030154049,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22171861659789105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2166656015902268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13357018846365118,0.0,0.0,0.1215523706394617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22958483484386594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3864816030269618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20094414635561733,0.0,0.0,0.2116971878805793,0.21243447408398006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,I_dooo,2019/01/22,Need help with severe hallucinations and don’t know who to talk to It feels like whenever I’m thinking a thought in my head everyone around me can hear it. I was diagnosed with a drug-induced psychosis last year and was told I had really bad auditory hallucinations. But I’m convinced that I am actually talking out loud every time I think but my five senses are telling me I am not talking whatsoever. However people are reacting to my thoughts but no one I interact with tells me I am talking out loud. Please help. I need someone to talk to or a good recommendation. ,4.416197757390414,6.462372495412843,6.021406727828747,73.46332313965344,71.75229357798165,9.615086646279307,33.21202854230377,9.994966539143718,3.6745649337410793,458,23,84,13,9,156,71,109,0.065,0.789,0.147,0.8318,1,0,1,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,0,3,0,10,2,1,1,0,22,22,6,0,2,5,0,1,1,0,0,1,3,0,0,4,8,0,0,6,0,0,0,3,1,0,2,6,4,14,3,12,16,0,7,0,0,0,0,13,4,0,1,4,53,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.14543717899610706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13267321938631751,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12443844263102205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15126792614053186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1728338995664211,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12556886217668914,0.142409836034816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07535684216586146,0.10647101266676504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12500393192180126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15295345089929224,0.0,0.16797387428636346,0.0,0.1997907489302021,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08190602986915277,0.12148384874937596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07281123205770795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2210159146768462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10099033244070983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10332247142722123,0.0,0.0,0.16359625780374287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09547597702046601,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16836772802787736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12627732123411642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5989455696827386,0.2605272450803387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1909919001254332,0.0,0.23663512734860415,0.08690381626398394,0.0,0.0,0.142409836034816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09597399522902399 schizophrenia,DrugsIzBad,2019/01/22,"My voices are getting worse By worse I don’t mean like violent or anything, just more constant. I’m only 15 but it started when I was 13 I would hear people talking during white noise, rain, and wind. I was diagnosed at 14 when I caught a possession charge and went to court ordered therapy. The only thing that helps is heroin but I’ve tried to quit twice already. I don’t want to end like my dad but I really can’t help myself. I went into psychosis twice because of weed and adderall. I’m starting to feel better now but I thought the world was fake and everything was in my head. Now I’m not even sure if I’m schizophrenic. I want to think that it was just a bad reaction with the drugs but I don’t know for sure. My favorite voice is also the only one with a name. He’s named Lucifer, like the devil, but he always tells me when something bad is going to happen and how to avoid it. I think I’m crazy",1.2871762740183783,3.375363153439153,2.8989974937343383,91.99556390977446,81.48677248677248,5.6720690615427465,21.587580061264273,6.8360192770164,0.4871417989417997,712,22,152,8,19,234,113,189,0.197,0.677,0.126,-0.9518,0,1,2,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,0,2,10,12,1,1,8,0,14,4,1,1,2,34,36,18,0,4,11,1,1,3,0,1,3,3,0,0,6,8,0,1,6,0,0,4,5,6,0,3,9,5,18,6,15,26,1,18,1,0,1,0,10,4,0,2,12,89,24,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15399836648162696,0.1115991508369704,0.11611788854592227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1148388567776156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23303906851712866,0.08506919752282488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12342181380214567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15080541479878692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14164166578664386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16183524203436475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1236010602907374,0.0,0.0,0.09217233951745576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1254197400655078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07056134717466611,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0729098118904818,0.0,0.07931023868712088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12340478317893905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14321992854628304,0.0,0.1572844949328739,0.0,0.18707663421619686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07669376320965418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2045331973491293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15201231285999173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0945635950740799,0.31840523223983724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09674732337209704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14843002069827588,0.0,0.0,0.0894001575404859,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10743343425051673,0.0,0.0,0.19755030398040316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2630509602625774,0.0,0.0,0.11216607561153306,0.12197401629510644,0.0,0.1595891116699632,0.0,0.09271170496038574,0.17883771911033056,0.0,0.11078817062036128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0947461949337316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1646219840842403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2587309681840241,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2844294617127106,0.09913326326670527,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,queernotreallyaboi,2019/01/22,I think I've convinced myself we aren't in a simulation No one running a simulation would make this shit so obvious.,3.774347826086956,5.912730130434787,6.338478260869567,70.10163043478265,73.78260869565217,9.817391304347826,33.23913043478261,10.125756701596842,3.974321739130435,95,5,17,3,2,34,20,23,0.17800000000000002,0.629,0.192,-0.1685,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,1,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,2,0,2,1,1,1,1,5,4,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,2,1,0,1,0,0,3,1,1,3,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,12,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39376935919272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39973813423613336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6055339124280097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37799036781652734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4190549827122016,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Vivian9,2019/01/22,Lexapro Does anybody here take it? Does it cause weight gain?,2.300909090909091,5.011754090909093,-0.5722727272727255,108.96159090909092,99.0,2.2,23.681818181818183,3.1291,-0.5699454545454543,49,2,10,0,2,12,9,11,0.0,0.727,0.273,0.5803,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4136752732027759,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7047963909205489,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3027740214049327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4903699701738092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,dragondemer,2019/01/22,"I am proud to say i am no longer ashamed of this illness. It’s been a journey, for sure. Never thought i would be saying this but not only am i proud of myself for having made it this far but i am proud of all of you for being so brave and being here today. Even if you don’t feel brave, know that you are. Hugs.",0.6343478260869588,1.9928294637681208,2.4051449275362344,98.30163043478264,80.44927536231884,4.6000000000000005,17.297101449275363,3.1291,-0.9964028985507248,239,4,59,0,6,79,47,69,0.065,0.601,0.335,0.9796,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,3,0,3,3,8,0,1,1,0,12,2,0,1,3,13,16,5,0,2,4,0,1,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,6,1,0,0,3,0,0,1,4,1,0,0,3,3,9,7,8,9,1,4,0,0,0,1,5,1,0,1,2,47,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2263622619124531,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17328871366037546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18834906226317086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32428842372300937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2643255474508595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2606527762808198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5450868330261474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3230080232042018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27208011672545634,0.0,0.0,0.3248569572253979,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2434573085731904,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Groundbreaking_Star,2019/01/22,"Cant sleep on invega As soon as I get to the point where I would be in a deep sleep I snap suddenly awake. A deep dark feeling accompanies this. This happens to me over and over again. I've been taking ativan to sleep and my doctor will prescribe me a different sleeping pill on wednesday, but I just want to be able to sleep on my own. I couldn't sleep for two days without the ativan. I'm on invega sustenna 78mg, I'm going to beg my doctor to bring me down to 39. She got mad last time I asked her to do this and said I might as well inject water. Well if I'm on 100mg of everything else, why can't my ap be low as well? How do I convince her? Does anyone else have experience with this? It was hard just to get her to go down to 78mg, I have no delusions anymore and I just want to go back to freaking normal instead of having my brains blasted out with these meds.",2.7617798690671016,3.326985824468085,4.360638297872342,89.55653846153848,73.73404255319149,7.273977086743042,24.036006546644845,7.321109707123232,0.7744585924713592,677,18,157,7,13,228,107,188,0.085,0.835,0.08,-0.6111,1,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,0,0,12,7,1,0,5,0,16,11,7,1,0,21,33,11,0,6,6,0,2,0,0,3,3,1,0,0,6,7,1,0,1,0,0,4,5,3,3,1,4,3,22,4,35,22,1,28,0,1,0,0,6,16,0,2,8,105,28,2,0.1129808578086004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11204665208401142,0.07899884271556236,0.11576224028498243,0.0,0.0,0.10562185075631927,0.0,0.0,0.0868753057626585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12612400232744767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07286330661338315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1180409496601932,0.0,0.2312813907519221,0.09887031003287143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1887620186241172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10153990995060376,0.11051695826370264,0.0,0.0,0.057126516402973365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11805567018410655,0.0,0.19262887541255255,0.0,0.09036111298731817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09990859943513246,0.0,0.10120865689444096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0920944784682277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12549626331415928,0.0,0.0,0.119854835918014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11069725254497123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10680342926964714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.107470668132087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6783747073975444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08494754443082704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06588004675618574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11036588131828312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13327807433720348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30475007887646305,0.0,0.10194765112397948,0.0,0.0,0.10890951519617788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08025835980805891,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,SalinaChee,2019/01/22,"Memory loss... caused by meds or sz? I'm losing my working memory. I forget what I did in a day, forget what I ate for breakfast. I keep a journal which helps sometimes but I have to read my insane ramblings and that makes me sad... I'm starting to see a neuropsychologist but it's expensive and I wanted to know what you think... is memory loss and slow decline a sz thing or a medication thing? I'm on seroquel, I can't remember how long I've been on it for, maybe a year... I don't want to go off the medication or change though because it's the only one that's worked when solian was hell and latuda and abilify made me nauseated. My hallucinations are mostly under control, I like seroquel, I'm confused and nervous...",3.050208333333334,4.803838048611112,5.151111111111113,79.50500000000002,74.7638888888889,7.855555555555558,26.583333333333336,8.59863814320734,2.0030666666666668,565,21,110,11,12,196,90,144,0.163,0.8,0.037000000000000005,-0.945,0,0,0,0,0,0,25.0,0,1,0,6,3,8,1,2,8,0,8,4,0,5,0,26,23,14,0,2,5,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,11,6,2,2,3,1,1,1,2,7,0,1,5,1,15,1,12,18,1,12,1,4,1,0,2,5,1,5,7,70,26,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.114178384099377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1924121362505814,0.19814210950173525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2100766345363188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12079516598138312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10644881060975893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1255454877884822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16648382417055335,0.0,0.0,0.10293702313847547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0915069560939362,0.0,0.0,0.16575757127606658,0.0,0.20954453909077644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17723095923712714,0.1250264410260619,0.0,0.18817139105877267,0.0,0.20805179810893787,0.37737684103506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1269215978825859,0.1424526384189651,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1873540376459544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2121781837361088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14925652026068809,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18524780317577247,0.0,0.1325742756699402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2488720469388419,0.12001642415021667,0.18402459107089694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2209527382097228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2727181401622975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12061721686870193 schizophrenia,madman3845,2019/01/22,"Schizoaffective disorder diagnosis So I got my diagnosis a few years back after my first and only episode at this point. My family firmly believes my psychosis was the result of various drugs: Xanax, dxm, pot, alcohol, opiates, and Ambien. Note these drugs were hardly combined and if they were it was pot in addition to another. Dxm was a one time thing. My recollection leads me to believe that the hallucinations started very subtle and gradually grew to the point of psychosis in about the span off 2 weeks at which point I self committed to an inpatient mental health facility. They had to keep me sedated with several shots of haldol a day for the first half of my stay (12 days) to keep me manageable and started me on 4mg of risperidone. I am officially off all mental health medications but feel like I might need to ask for an antidepressant on my next check up visit. When do the thoughts off full blown relapsing disappear? When do the reminders of how warped your mind was at the time fade? When can I stop trying to decipher what was real or imagined?",7.234778911564626,7.977081423469392,7.576938775510207,69.83115646258507,63.8469387755102,11.635374149659865,34.70068027210884,11.374738998889045,4.2371068027210885,853,36,148,25,12,279,128,196,0.039,0.936,0.025,-0.4098,0,0,3,0,0,0,18.0,0,1,2,3,7,1,0,0,13,0,13,7,0,3,2,26,22,13,0,2,3,0,2,1,0,1,7,0,0,1,7,7,1,3,4,0,1,4,0,0,0,4,10,2,19,1,30,11,4,39,0,0,0,0,6,16,0,3,19,104,26,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13664868826295692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13407749282660233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1195364178249776,0.0,0.0,0.09832021285327193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2881199045548252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16492456061087754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14654424919412787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2965653712667455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12053964482631647,0.0,0.06465233362920128,0.09134670767678547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21752363144946288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10226523848840842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11454183212477813,0.0,0.0,0.2718288116988114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22730439026325616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06246832977139676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1288104312510744,0.2577154832482281,0.13564444896628247,0.12910709537726178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09481020065570044,0.0,0.0,0.13598576812545407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08664456310297249,0.09724701567415747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3626209706106617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1455382455145969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13339097344737136,0.14445093785764146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18100686385529724,0.13628696680547805,0.0,0.1069007789653093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0849477556826323,0.0,0.0,0.10151044524966392,0.14911809893475697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08681187151642475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10550193078695574,0.0,0.0,0.10256550735763148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08234080119250572 schizophrenia,Gir247,2019/01/22,"Schizophrenia ruined my 4 1/2 year first love I hallucinated that my gf was someone else, with being able to tell her anything I decided to tell her and we never were the same again, they say you learn how to love from your parents, maybe my mom doing what she did to me as a child is why I’m so fucked up, I learned to love from my first gf and she’s gone.",5.360657894736843,4.2272132236842115,5.793684210526315,87.36578947368423,68.07894736842105,8.65263157894737,28.21052631578948,7.1686216300943375,1.1658789473684212,279,7,66,2,4,90,57,76,0.102,0.75,0.14800000000000002,0.5972,1,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,1,2,1,2,3,5,1,0,2,0,6,4,0,1,1,10,12,5,0,0,0,2,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,1,2,4,0,0,3,0,0,1,1,2,0,2,4,1,16,3,10,7,1,7,0,1,0,4,19,1,1,0,5,45,18,2,0.2071730900745443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17048580084006246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17306653288699922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3524426491659705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.191528183431218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5609454071092449,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2081332149358102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24263861919306065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15978465888136772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2300411992455423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16475235654623968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17553708691807304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.362156824497462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18694149007946945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1334126775714367 schizophrenia,caveman123456,2019/01/22,"An interesting fuckim title Shitititshitshitshitfuckkkkkkwhathefuccck Just need to let that out anyone else ever feel this way 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schizophrenia,unconditionallyisa,2019/01/22,"What delusions have you had? If you’re comfortable sharing, what delusions have you had and how did you figure out they were delusions? What did you do about it?",3.823,6.523827300000002,2.8633333333333333,92.345,76.0,5.333333333333334,26.66666666666667,6.42735559955562,0.9876666666666672,129,5,24,1,3,37,19,30,0.0,0.8029999999999999,0.197,0.7677,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,4,1,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,8,0,0,1,0,5,8,3,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,0,5,2,2,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,6,1,0,1,0,22,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,lolamityy,2019/01/23,"Benzodiazepine addiction and psychosis I really fucked up guys, I thought at first that I would temporarily use Xanax and klonopin until my antipsychotics were ready at the pharmacy, but they keep telling me they don’t have abilify right now. I’m up to 2mg of klonopin and 2mg of Xanax a day+ now for about a month and a half. today I thought to try and start weaning off and I can feel the psychosis coming back. I don’t even know what’s going on at the pharmacy and I’m running low on pills and benzo withdrawals+returning psychosis is scaring the shit out of me. Can anyone help Me decide what to do. I’m laying in bed having a panic attack and my vision is starting to get all fucky again ",3.819249011857707,5.530624086956525,4.60852437417655,84.366581027668,72.62318840579711,7.626877470355732,27.03820816864296,8.296473431620573,1.7577449275362325,556,20,110,9,11,179,86,138,0.126,0.78,0.093,-0.6855,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,2,1,6,6,3,2,8,0,11,6,1,1,1,21,26,11,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,1,4,0,1,1,3,11,0,1,5,0,0,3,2,6,0,2,3,1,13,0,20,22,1,26,0,1,0,1,5,12,2,0,11,73,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2262468004674025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1451152326367952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2361041718308125,0.0,0.15958373278368804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17877541018369,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13384469096538165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13707673819984978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10493733113781556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17653151914537038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1918653219766492,0.10842991779349534,0.0,0.1179484960672305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.205495019018339,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13910819094977075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18446910367486802,0.0,0.0,0.11405732952086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16565466611524493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2435008538313441,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13295400826710815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17723611960901312,0.0,0.0,0.20778151067747355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21303453609848386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2937926002723853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1813971565265748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3295236106465869,0.0,0.0,0.19672153698131906,0.0,0.0,0.14090452109988447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17924599648315645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14742887559161347,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,nofacee3,2019/01/23,"Peripheral vision movements? Does anyone ever recall in the beginning stages of onset (looking back) that they recall seeing movements out of the corners of their eyes/peripheral vision but when they go to look it’s nothing? Like just shapes and blobs, usually dark then you look at that location and there was nothing? 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I feel it. I can feel it. Everything is so loud. Everything has so much sense and yet it doesn't make sense at all. I talk to myself. It's almost 5 am and I am sitting in my room in my jacket winter jacket very black jacket. And it's nice. But I don't want anyone to know me. Everyone will leave me. Everyone will know my true face. Everyone will know something is up. Everyone will see the truth. I am so sorry you have to deal with me, I don't know I HAVE TO VENT unless I will die I think. I want to feel happy and healthy but right now I am so in shambles my poor soul is weeping.",-0.9285920271416472,1.1845324809160331,1.5704707379134852,96.76561280746395,94.41984732824429,4.743172179813401,16.438083121289228,6.42735559955562,-0.304644105173876,469,12,109,6,18,159,70,131,0.12,0.8029999999999999,0.077,-0.6617,0,0,1,0,0,0,16.0,0,1,0,0,7,5,0,0,1,0,20,1,1,1,3,24,33,11,1,2,3,0,3,0,0,5,0,1,1,0,5,6,0,0,8,0,1,1,3,1,0,0,0,6,21,4,12,28,2,13,1,1,2,0,3,7,0,1,4,74,26,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15929154501021298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1112295747007662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1223195553227509,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13702981058822922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16400027781159054,0.0,0.0,0.16509567933145805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.608015394735511,0.2859343405731903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2413006787903489,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16933926378790806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3496958389161861,0.0,0.0,0.16843841953240635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10618440491157886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11693909707454635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1358499576337793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12676290433437595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12246440696612013,0.0,0.17807245707557914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12785919045883354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10192941967651407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13125428520797408,0.1876541860092832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Tezcatzontecatl,2019/01/23,"so, i hope i dont say anything untoward here, but ive been noticing recently- like in the last 4 times, ive started to hallucinate people in the room every time i drink, even a small drink. It never happens otherwise, but its been happening a lot recently, could this be a sign of schizophrenia? at that same time this started happening, i started having really anxious thoughts about people i know, i got entirely convinced that they all secret hate me, even my girfreind who i dont think she doesnt, but my girlfriend also could. The other day i was in a group of freinds, and a close made a small joke at me, and instantly i was convinced she absolutely hated me and was making fun of me for the rest of the night. im not sure who else to ask about this, i have agoraphobia so i dont like to see doctors anymore",6.264629629629631,5.893385339506175,6.9448148148148166,77.33166666666666,65.9753086419753,10.162962962962963,34.66666666666667,9.725611199111238,3.1862666666666675,643,27,126,12,9,213,97,162,0.1,0.757,0.14300000000000002,0.7314,0,0,2,0,0,0,18.0,0,0,1,0,8,10,2,0,11,0,16,3,0,2,3,23,33,9,0,3,4,0,0,2,1,0,1,1,1,0,10,4,2,0,4,3,0,0,6,2,0,0,8,2,22,8,15,22,4,21,0,0,1,0,10,9,0,2,14,90,32,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09896104388975946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1397997523601932,0.12272453201457148,0.0,0.0,0.10183386755712286,0.0,0.11568745663960694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1976050436636515,0.0,0.0,0.07980707177628987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12666108230715775,0.0,0.0,0.4350943809446976,0.2424513991414665,0.0,0.0,0.10337537966061308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1634684649121363,0.0,0.10426283018765807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09897239317217282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32828922279751555,0.0,0.0,0.2443505990087769,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12290945379678272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1336688226766882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06800853599817093,0.10087094581518563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12091381560987452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10520592552770876,0.0,0.11709312843692787,0.08260259482932286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09544190607081698,0.0,0.0,0.11612889563810255,0.0,0.0,0.14088765196846367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1715822395177422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07927598774510182,0.0,0.2443719800836032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09840919052251734,0.0,0.0,0.09861094795266746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2627679174440937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11663080511166632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07929257183988779,0.0,0.09824190357186564,0.21647495280418175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,HontserrationMin,2019/01/23,"I can't stop stalking my therapist I posted about this situation a while ago but its developed into a new issue. It's totally a fucked up set of circumstances in every way. I (23F) went to a licensed psychotherapist (32M) who does shamanic ceremony and breathwork outside of his practice. It's not a part of his actual practice but there are talk therapy parts of those processes. I started as a formal client but he recommended the breathwork. He is licensed and I checked, no disciplinary action or complaints. There were a few issues - obvious attraction on my end, and I think maybe his but it's hard to know, that was not addressed. The sessions were done in his home. He knew I was a survivor of childhood sexual abuse / incest but not the schiz. That's what I was there to process. During one of the sessions he initiated prolonged eye contact while I lay on my back and he pinned my arms down as a way to defuse my anxiety, had me do holotropic breathwork to bring me into a regressed state, and then tied me up with rope and touched me in a number of ways including squeezing my neck. I have heard from two other therapists and several other IRL people (including probably 40 people on Reddit) that he was so far in the wrong he should maybe even be reported. He didn't ask for consent before the bondage or strangling, later admitted to being into BDSM personally, and it turned out the rebirthing therapy we did is actually illegal in my state. But I felt like I ""fell in love"" with him then, pretty much from the time with the eye contact. He told me about his history -- he had suffered from OCD and bipolar, had an incestuous relationship with his mother, tried to kill his dad, used to stockpile assault rifles, stalked former girlfriends. But he had changed his life and put that all behind him; and honestly it only made him sexier and more exciting. And now he was a functioning professional with a lot of friends in a huge super nice house in the mountains! I couldn't believe how far he'd come. He seemed to know absolutely everything about the human psyche, about philosophy, and was also a higher-up ""guru"" type in a Brazilian ayahuasca religion in which he'd gone through a 10-year shamanic initiation. I started to think he was the one, and the ONLY ONE, who could understand me and help me with my issues. I became obsessed with him. My boyfriend was very concerned and has been telling me for probably 6 months that the guy is unwell. Intellectually I can see that that seems true. But the guy had told me so many times he has transcended his issues, he knows the way, he was so smart and nuanced in his thinking. I started to think everything he said was absolute gospel. He suggested very edgy therapies, like OCD treatments including tying up a germ freak and rubbing raw meat all over their body. For my OCD and neurotic reliance on my plans and schedules he suggested tying me up and burning my plan in front of me for our next session. The guy believed that reliving the birthing process is the ONLY way to ultimately resolve psychological issues. But because my boyfriend and another friend confronted him about the consent issue, he decided to stop working with me. I held it together for a few months, but then started trying to coerce him. I told him if he didn't work with me again I would sue him and tell everyone about what he did. We hung out as friends a few more times but he was very worried about working with me again. On one of these occasions he told me he had been blackmailed before and if I continued or if it happened again he might kill himself. So when he tried to distance himself from me I called in a suicide threat to the police to his home on a day I knew he was having special time alone with his friends and there were a number of other people there, AND I knew he had a lot of drugs so it could have been catastrophic for him. He told the police I was harassing him and he was considering pressing charges. Then he called my boyfriend and said he had three lawyers and a journalist involved and they believed they had an extortion case against me and that if I didn't stop he would move forward. He called friends and told them to distance themselves from us because He would have to blow up our lives if I tried to blow up his. My lawyers believed he was full of shit because there's no way he could take me down because he has committed so many crimes here that are so much worse. He also offered to give me all sorts of exotic hallucinogens but didn't realize that I didn't want drugs! I just wanted to be around him so desperately. Eventually, he politely asked me not to contact him again in any form and suggested that we move on with our lives. I was so crushed. I was able to respect that for about a week. I made a new Facebook (he blocked my real one) and used the graph search to view every post he ever commented on or liked. I joined every group he was a part of and searched for every private post he had ever made. I ""heart""ed all the posts he made about interesting things, but also ones about the best way to peel potatoes from nine years ago. Then I sent him messages. First apologies, then desperate pleas for him to finish helping me as a therapist, then naughty suggestive come-ons. It's been a week, and he still hasn't responded. I've started finding ways to hang out with his friends and am trying everything I can to get close to him socially. I know this is more OCD, and I know he can't help me as a therapist if he even wanted to. I know he probably shouldn't even be practicing. But I've made him into some sort of god after the age regression bondage and eye contact thing, and I feel like I will always be psychologically and spiritually shattered without him. Further complicating matters, my boyfriend owns a private school and is worried about scandal blowing up and ruining him. We also share a one-year-old child together and don't want things to affect him. I had a fellowship this semester that I had to drop out of because my anxiety and preoccupation with this got too bad, it's $12000 down the drain and a huge burnt bridge. I sought therapy truly seeking psychological support and self-improvement and his bad boundaries combined with mine to create such a horrible situation, I feel like I've deteriorated psychologically so much. I have two therapists involved now helping me untangle this but I feel literally addicted to this guy. Miserable and need help.",7.281329470179057,7.3089504840556,7.26177468093427,74.5687772998211,63.78331970564186,10.622152701245453,36.857916503726884,10.276239652853533,3.752198013912096,5154,234,945,108,69,1652,479,1223,0.123,0.7559999999999999,0.121,-0.8542,0,1,2,1,1,1,117.0,8,0,4,9,51,42,8,2,65,0,87,15,7,9,10,182,152,105,3,20,31,2,9,5,7,7,5,3,3,7,44,80,0,5,25,0,1,13,18,16,0,11,68,17,139,26,145,66,24,132,1,3,5,3,164,50,2,18,60,642,183,13,0.03995160829018028,0.047336122888530514,0.0779740132048704,0.043553150115165216,0.0,0.0,0.07082938041427629,0.0,0.0,0.0413778174139823,0.0,0.1277971468621546,0.03324293855404165,0.0,0.0,0.027168463636346517,0.04189274473715178,0.06112574197925452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03556540161109113,0.07469872136125932,0.0,0.0,0.030720320709542063,0.06671584828501481,0.12177064798136172,0.0,0.06799175215990454,0.18004712589334734,0.0419267480821875,0.0,0.0,0.044377230365009235,0.0,0.0,0.122385176765592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04226350417679782,0.06882954596966619,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09569432498326512,0.0,0.0,0.025765482233076058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.034961921643874024,0.04088436618298221,0.0,0.0,0.0926623636408823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03538526667951259,0.0,0.0,0.0791629814492174,0.07227703394241684,0.13464381233285325,0.03817547380982754,0.10771778830992096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06060220068909095,0.05708287389042716,0.038359809207392036,0.0,0.03651504619281458,0.03398281760233879,0.0,0.0,0.18519908076446376,0.03693461809263237,0.020873066389796458,0.038325223101933516,0.0,0.0,0.03195295079853118,0.0,0.0,0.15823349356074454,0.03532907526879385,0.0,0.03578879373240305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04734284818335768,0.13389360446574253,0.0,0.08014944114016243,0.0,0.0,0.04609879196126116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2501945958074981,0.0,0.0,0.08840107049972465,0.0,0.1317381545487783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.028219002444778964,0.09759168888449374,0.0,0.07055600413524768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06793085737055768,0.03605788629681672,0.18901588876822292,0.0,0.08100932030673565,0.08027352077723435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04238234289557519,0.0,0.0,0.06377798515329135,0.08492447395009248,0.0881070869527474,0.029623611322178164,0.0,0.07717102448176989,0.04248898865772087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04192249231665705,0.0,0.1895057061322284,0.09115499517930198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1297910955673757,0.0,0.08309224443539615,0.034884203353616625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15305038838973786,0.040645148493557964,0.12922377278149946,0.0,0.0,0.04016240103988437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.045473676754389805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04289307583163484,0.0,0.0,0.07600625662040705,0.0,0.0,0.040433160504233165,0.03183625925511132,0.07274088741981981,0.041678240568667466,0.04513394559472013,0.04100975178983211,0.0,0.08981456324986366,0.0,0.04072563342717055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14138976988794486,0.0,0.03190540598813426,0.10020400033556937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0437005750610403,0.0453366116397186,0.0,0.0,0.030038637395216724,0.032111589403621875,0.06983893316806768,0.0,0.18275258358803428,0.23193448247419626,0.07962621995196724,0.1023975096684352,0.0,0.0,0.09318441630530934,0.0,0.0,0.2290528428589653,0.0,0.1356225976829432,0.043455877426596214,0.07805383220754633,0.04159103319921858,0.048056865661302406,0.06901072436158562,0.0,0.09889278273089094,0.09425797472010616,0.2536938165315898,0.0640935406530394,0.0,0.0,0.03703554114303286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03851192471526727,0.0,0.08725573996982848,0.08114559503178831,0.040714102009077664,0.08514142878511145,0.043680811956772286,0.0,0.07718257762183765 schizophrenia,layla_smiles,2019/01/23,Paranoid probably have anemia haven’t got my period in 2 months And yeah I’m not sexually active because I’m 16 should I see a doctor? 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I even dressed semi nice and did my make up which I don't do often enough. But I'm feeling great and ready to take on today! ,2.0666666666666664,2.9136825185185167,3.2231481481481516,95.9991666666667,75.66666666666666,5.4,24.61111111111111,3.1291,0.0377555555555551,192,6,46,0,4,62,38,54,0.0,0.6559999999999999,0.344,0.9638,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,1,2,6,0,0,2,0,4,0,0,1,0,10,14,5,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,4,0,1,2,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,2,4,4,7,12,2,8,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,1,4,28,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3082699212742357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1894428626807221,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30351973330155,0.0,0.19401748029163146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29705516549721706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15347096607924504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6477154014780268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19607876446322375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2079160212802508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22086159334028746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2784383216688938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,D1ETCH0KE,2019/01/23,"Is loss of interest a real thing? I used to be really passionate about sign language and I wanted to be an interpreter up until a couple of weeks ago when it suddenly just dropped off the face of the earth. My interest in it, I mean. There’s no passion there anymore. I’m dreading going back to school this semester but I want to make everyone proud and just do it so they’ll be happy even though it doesn’t make me happy anymore. Have you guys just suddenly lost interest in something you were really passionate about? I don’t feel like I wanna do anything anymore but I’m not about to kill myself so that’s good. I’m on meds that are managing my psychosis and delusions (mostly; sometimes I think my husband is snap chatting other women) but I can’t go on a higher dose because it makes me a zombie (it’s risperidal). I’m on Wellbutrin to counteract the zombie symptoms and it seems to be helping. Does this just happen or am I just bored?",2.654818775995245,4.933512631016042,4.17396613190731,83.64107991681523,77.77005347593581,7.1502079619726695,26.966428995840765,8.167268648758528,2.0301505644682116,750,31,139,14,18,249,110,187,0.054000000000000006,0.703,0.243,0.9917,0,0,1,0,0,1,16.0,0,2,1,3,16,16,1,1,8,0,16,6,1,4,0,29,34,13,1,3,10,1,1,1,0,1,2,0,0,2,13,4,0,0,5,1,0,2,5,5,0,0,2,1,18,11,22,27,1,17,0,2,0,3,8,7,0,3,8,100,31,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13178101377267748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4423020328492676,0.0,0.0,0.12233719940109615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11431287363652415,0.0,0.09062374593639824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1644930740763505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1300962242143795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0981906838436105,0.0,0.0,0.1420541196460154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07516861314662361,0.10620506555810813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16897751783795306,0.1246916926236798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14720000423739704,0.13146243345182454,0.3165096179758385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09964585222104816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1644738754017898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07262936155456827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16228351410391384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29770164947376576,0.0,0.0,0.16193787670480805,0.16513137265127995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16921134104560576,0.19047498741125868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1504551599947995,0.0,0.1353374522103816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11444824371337588,0.14703176947806104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1545180535190634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09876526686884528,0.09525741685849966,0.14606090214714768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.128397328401923,0.0,0.0,0.17537088976527812,0.0,0.11924870320954298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,babykittenflowers,2019/01/23,"my roommate makes fun of my schizoaffective disorder. she constantly calls me psychotic, tells everyone about my mental illnesses, and makes fun of how i hear voices/have delusions. i wanna move out but i can’t afford it. it sucks. 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There are a lot of stray cats near my house, so sometimes when I see a cat I'll look at it and try to communicate with it. Sometimes I can tell what he is thinking (""What the hell is this human doing why is he looking at me""). I can communicate telepathically with my dogs too. The dogs seem more intelligent. This also happens with babies too. Does this happen to anyone else?",2.41,4.759872000000001,4.092500000000005,83.53250000000001,79.0,6.5,22.5,7.6454224807358475,1.0525000000000002,320,10,63,5,8,107,54,80,0.062,0.897,0.041,-0.3954,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,0,6,1,1,0,4,0,8,0,0,0,0,7,15,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,7,4,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,6,0,10,15,2,4,1,0,3,0,5,3,1,2,1,44,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15439845971916824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26999885395171136,0.39564721625562094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16895735102627601,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3225713627326549,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3414633230075456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22277750790196627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32426129422170485,0.0,0.0,0.1641416886517772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15385224202262535,0.17576418960807852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38190344781695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1551828054002298,0.1687521822566264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12371182111708752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13108223899831015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17421615317613334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Mac022,2019/01/23,"Am I having an episode? I've been diagnosed since Feb 2016. Lately things have been going great for me. I really feel like I'm making positive improvements to my life & my attitude. The way I'm thinking is changing. I feel like I'm obtaining knowledge every waking & sleeping moment. I'm more relaxed. I'm more confident. Today. Text a friend & tell her I'll meet her after my appointment. I was coming out of the building with the woman I'd just met in the group so we're making small talk. Just before we reach the door onto the street I see two girls sitting on the bench smiling and laughing at me. Out of nowhere the words ""what the fuck are you looking at?"" left my mouth. I stormed out only to turn around & approach the girls. But as I got closer I realised it was my friend who I'd said I'd meet & this other friend we know. I apologized but they were shaken by the experience. I felt like a horrible person. I've never had an outburst like that. The three of us hang out for an hour or two. It's after 6 now & I'm walking up to the train station to go home. I usually go in the side gate so I don't have to pay through the barriers but the gate was locked. 7 minutes until the train was due. Two guys my age climbed over the gate. I walked behind the bike shed to suss out the fence. I found a part of the wall I could stand on & then hoisted myself over the metal bars and onto a large green recycling bin. One more section of fence & it was a small drop into the platform. I looked back & seen about 5 other young guys do the same thing. The train starts moving. I'm walking towards the harbour. I come to an enclosed green area with a monument of an anchor in the middle & several benches. I sat down & rolled a J. I smoked looking over the sea. I walked back through town and then through the woods towards my estate. I had a penknife in my pocket for protection. I smoked more at the burnt out bonfire in the other woods near my estate. I walked back towards town going straight past my house. I think that God has been sending me knowledge since I started going on these long walks. The more I walk the more things are revealed to me. I am causing change everywhere. I've trained one of my dogs who was biting the other dog for the last year. She was also very territorial over food & toys. The training was all instinct. I've worked on it for about 2 weeks now & she's a changed dog! I knew exactly how to train her without researching anything. I haven't spoke to me grandmother much after my grandfather died 3 years ago. There is a lot of family problems. But I seen her when I was walking the other day and we chatted for half an hour & the conversation just flowed I haven't spoken to her in ages & our previous conversations were always arguments. I am changing things that have been the same for years! There is something going on I'm following divine intuition. There is a down side. As my thoughts grow I feel like more and more people are becoming attracted to me. I'm not talking in a sexual way but I've noticed people staring, smiling, finding it easy to talk to me. But it's making me uncomfortable because I like my solitude. I don't want people to become attached to me right now. I want to be in the background but I feel like people are starting to follow. And when I'm walking. I hear footsteps, the sounds of breathing, the sounds of clothing. It gets louder. I turn around to face my attacker and the road is empty. It's happening multiple times. Who is following me & disappearing? And I think I see people everywhere and it always turns out to be a tree or a bench. I've been taking my meds. I just want to know the truth about all of this. I can feel it. That this is special. Meaningful. Something is stirring out there. It's ready for you. Mac I just know what to say. My circle is expanding. I'm running through the maze. 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I was trying to listen to teachers but I ended up zoning out and then noticing a decent amount of time has passed, I was oddly calm all day and stuttered a bit more (I don't have a stutter). It was nearly impossible to focus on reading and was for most part, pretty gone in the hallways. Any ideas?",1.939,4.1718869000000005,3.649999999999999,86.70500000000001,80.0,4.571428571428573,20.0,5.288315135182226,-0.012000000000000007,273,7,51,1,7,91,52,70,0.034,0.848,0.117,0.7702,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,4,0,9,0,0,0,1,10,11,5,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,4,0,0,2,1,0,2,2,2,0,0,5,1,5,1,10,5,6,12,0,0,0,0,1,5,0,1,5,38,6,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3313638712155604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17035708805937247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26598917835443064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15712610861561288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21579061495460847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5500744323489811,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27738304404713515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2638357990608965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2478670478248622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2437035507966342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14206705491887173,0.0,0.23093997500993,0.0,0.0,0.16541395050549834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21984505573716007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,AnotherCrazyChick,2019/01/23,"I am so scared :( I haven't been able to find any support subs or info. But then, I haven't been able to sleep and I'm rather panicked as well. My SO of 13 years is having an absolutely awful episode. Due to several triggers, he hasn't slept for almost an entire week. He is so scared and panicked and I haven't been able to help. He needs meds and he refuses to get them. I just want him to be ok. I have no idea what I could possibly do. Advice please?",-0.0746204311152745,1.9992776391752607,1.960431115276478,96.71341143392695,87.04123711340206,5.176757263355202,18.096532333645733,6.574015621080383,-0.19730103092783446,349,9,83,4,11,116,63,97,0.196,0.68,0.124,-0.8676,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,1,0,6,5,0,2,2,2,15,2,2,1,0,17,21,11,0,4,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,1,3,0,0,0,5,2,1,0,4,0,10,3,9,15,0,4,0,0,0,0,8,0,0,2,4,51,11,0,0.5576799603740553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18165280097740544,0.0,0.0,0.18614530787041408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1264138322383527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14842068984243376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1699031268525164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09712158730130388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12460037401656217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20985093140807629,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20648557200930484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13783754142674748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2040550427805604,0.0,0.20956678745598484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3722232855934092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2100065393110003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18602757005730255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.210949536741984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10964469653938744,0.0,0.14911240849180604,0.0,0.16714041968235366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11970920340839075 schizophrenia,CommunistSandas,2019/01/23,i don’t think i have schizophrenia i don’t think i have schizophrenia and all that i went through is real. i’ve seen a lot of weird shit and heard a lot of weird shit that might be just hallucinations. if i’m right that means something really wrong with everything and somethings really wrong with 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schizophrenia,schwable,2019/01/23,"universe speaking to me sometimes when i am feeling down, the universe contrasts with my feeling. like today, i was feeling lonely and was greeted by several friends. cool 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schizophrenia,thirstypineapple,2019/01/23,Journal Diary Entries I’m seeing a lot of artworks being shared but does anyone have any written notes or journal entries they would like to share? 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I have severe paranoia and I always think people are watching me, keeping tabs, following, etc. You know how it goes. My boss hired this kid who's family I was neighbors to for a year. That family was always loud, oversharing, gossiping people. I warned my boss about their behavior but he didn't listen. I had to scold this new hire six times in one six hour shift to stop texting the boss. I had a gut feeling about this new hire that he wasn't trust worthy. Fast forward next day and I'm being yelled at for the previous day with the new hire. New hire has been for the past couple months now running to the boss about everything my coworkers and I do, plus twisting it around so we get repremended. New hire was even telling boss about PRIVATE conversations my friends and I would have. I had to defend myself on false allegations, prove how he is lying, and went into complete panic mode because I'm being watched. I'm also double shocked about this because I'm the assistant manager and this kid is way below me! I don't feel comfortable at work now. I'm searching the shelving and walls for cameras. Looking for bugs. I don't know how far this kid will go. I'm seriously spiraling. I feel like I can't talk to my coworkers now. Who else is working with them? 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All seems to be going well but I'm really curious about the experiences of others. Anyone have sz symptoms worsen with kratom? 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So, I have psychotic depression so I hope it's ok I post here! I am on Fanpat 6mg (atypical antipsychotic) and Trintellix 20mg (antidepressant) as well as Metadate 50 mg for ADHD. I take Hydroxyzine 50-75mg and Ambien 10mg for sleep. I was off my Trintellix and Fanapt for a few days (due to financial reasons and getting to the pharmacy) and I noticed it affected my sleep a lot, has anyone else noticed that in themselves?",3.425080645161291,5.426354451612905,5.438373655913981,76.77756048387097,74.3763440860215,9.811290322580646,29.90456989247312,10.125756701596842,3.475044086021505,376,17,70,12,8,130,64,93,0.064,0.8340000000000001,0.102,0.5257,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,3,0,0,5,4,0,0,3,1,5,3,3,2,0,9,8,10,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,5,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,12,3,11,7,2,8,0,1,0,0,3,4,0,2,3,46,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20866751156475646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12140496539742238,0.17790274253419916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11197590893818182,0.0,0.1495458262109706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1450441902163086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09071363618120147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17245210856212706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18122286646615907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14761259716019012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19286193292753046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5930310135256167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16628794483887094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17851884099997894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5212611669174572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13054689584951273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15611272059630768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,cadad1971,2019/01/24,"Help me get some clarity? (Concerned Parent) Hey there. I am writing this for my son and firstly if you take the time to read this, thank you. A year ago he was he had a psychotic brake and was put on a 5250 hold(14 days). Everything was fine he was put on Anti-Psychotics(he has been on Abilify, Handal or something like that and is now on Zyprexa). Recently he had issues and his psychiatrist called me saying he strongly advises me to schedule a 1 hour appointment as soon as he can come in. He has been acting really oddly: Has trouble remembering to take care of himself like eat, brush teeth, shave, ect. He speaks in wired ""rythem"" and sometimes it makes no sense to me. At dinner we were talking about something on the news and he said ""Yeah it is like when a cat jumps off a bride,but not the red kind the blue kind, with strings, man we have all changed just think of that"" He dosen't seem to have emotions correctly if that makes any sense like laughing at sad things or crying at funny things --------------------------------------------------------------- So I am totally ignorant but I thought Schizophrenia meant like seeing shadow people, or being really paranoid? Also wouldn't all these pills he has been taking fix the problem? I just feel powerless not being able to understand this. His therapist said he can't diagnose him but something about ""Disorganized-Schitzophrenia"" if anyone out there has that do these symptoms sound familiar? I really just want answers and hopefully someone can help me, it upsets my son trying to talk about it.",5.268341013824884,7.008981333333335,5.282467997951869,80.85322580645166,69.0,8.755145929339479,30.131592421915002,9.23628265651192,2.6876259088581675,1188,47,214,24,21,371,171,279,0.091,0.7859999999999999,0.122,0.6357,2,0,3,0,0,0,101.0,2,2,0,2,13,18,0,1,11,1,28,6,1,2,4,48,48,20,0,7,13,3,1,5,0,1,3,5,0,1,15,12,2,2,8,1,0,5,5,5,0,1,14,10,20,13,28,31,4,28,0,1,3,0,36,12,0,9,16,135,35,2,0.1162118077427451,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1030147557446991,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09293454066570356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07902801433775812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08125799803284414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11866524896437965,0.0,0.11848568310470975,0.0,0.1229366834560184,0.10010618227368476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1276532139193111,0.07494700203108742,0.0,0.0,0.11795253861955098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11891369163043655,0.0,0.13072264202889294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10444367941855863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058760181768860276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0988497042991495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06071587308010312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15578865018037868,0.0,0.0,0.1154245467014372,0.11444522154058542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12129493450789434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24203342921856255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2838760958897909,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15514456813551705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12903945975809086,0.0,0.0,0.08056663505761681,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11119900526235232,0.0,0.233649929396272,0.0,0.0,0.11624325630835144,0.0,0.22334477944022701,0.0,0.1147451402490118,0.0,0.13164532403451815,0.0,0.22108808279909767,0.0924162939174518,0.0,0.0,0.09260576477749832,0.10579486515873904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09846588757885773,0.26839658158679985,0.11493644938580455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12078856495117435,0.26213045005387003,0.1868132980771592,0.0,0.10699221902074166,0.0,0.13493086581362632,0.15441192249597915,0.07446383397441933,0.0,0.09225919436284824,0.06776403964539662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07890018911391737,0.0,0.0,0.12098059028972095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06854473515078657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07483659403254547 schizophrenia,MyOwnPrivateUniverse,2019/01/24,"1995 I was first diagnosed in 1995 with “drug induced schizopheniform psychosis” that was supposed to go away after a few weeks. Here I am 24 years later have gone through a schizophrenia diagnosis before settling on schizoaffective 20 years ago. It’s hard to believe it’s been so long, I didn’t think I’d live this long. I’ve probably had this illness before some of you were born…? Life is weird. I am old.",3.1303846153846173,5.7393650512820535,3.1894230769230774,89.56182692307692,77.97435897435899,5.951282051282053,26.41666666666667,7.1686216300943375,1.3099435897435905,326,13,62,4,8,99,62,78,0.08900000000000001,0.911,0.0,-0.6399,0,0,1,0,0,0,7.0,0,1,0,1,2,1,0,0,2,0,10,4,0,1,0,4,13,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,5,1,0,0,2,0,0,2,1,1,0,1,7,1,5,0,9,6,2,15,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,1,10,36,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20101861528397594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2130586141101344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3859304652948923,0.25549301519546674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23016756979256275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2629821116474992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19289111094619094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1288790610933639,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.203142077953895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16017490942222745,0.0,0.0,0.2002427547478481,0.4013700112346269,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23795778829229866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2444972572527957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1453055602186768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18190184236207602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29206589670073463 schizophrenia,Throwaway2791666,2019/01/24,"Should I try and see someone? First off I know that nobody can diagnose anyone without being seen and seeing my health records, ect. I feel like I've been experiencing psychotic symptoms for a while but am unsure if they are just normal experiences I am misinterpreting. It started a couple years ago and I've never thought anything of it, but sometimes it feels like I hear someone inside my head talking but not answering back to me. It tells me to do some stuff I'm obviously not okay with. Example someone does something mildly irritating and it wants me to stab them in front of everyone and I get very vivid thoughts of me doing it and blood running down my hands in the future. Starting my roommates bed on fire while he sleeps, ect. I obviously don't react on anything because they aren't normal thought but in the moments I feel compelled to. Sometimes colors shift in my eyes to lighter or darker shades and I feel in tune with the universe and get signs that tell me that I'm where I'm supposed to be. I see patterns that match, listen to something and see an object talked about in the song, or even when I'm working out doing pullups I feel like I can somewhat communicate with the universe and it tells me how many I can do back to me so when I feel like I'm struggling at a point I always know I have more in myself to push more. I always thought like the sounds and voices I hear were normal like dialogue with myself or just buzzing and stuff, but last night it felt different. As I was sitting there I kept ""hearing"" a voice saying ""stop look, look"" and it wouldn't stop for what felt like a lengthy period of time and I didn't know what I'm supposed to be looking for. I guess there's other stuff that concerns me but that's probably the biggest things and i don't know if I should go see someone about these things or not. I don't want to waste anyones time when there is nothing wrong and everything is fine and dandy.",5.5859290687554415,6.1102002506527455,5.668736945169716,82.84408017841601,67.38120104438643,8.158790252393386,31.624129677980854,7.9370924344782425,2.0884552654482165,1548,60,304,17,24,488,188,383,0.07,0.8440000000000001,0.086,0.4984,1,0,2,0,0,0,25.0,0,0,3,2,17,11,0,1,13,1,27,8,5,3,3,78,71,37,0,10,18,0,10,7,0,3,3,9,1,0,24,22,0,3,17,1,0,4,11,2,0,1,12,32,43,9,39,53,4,43,0,0,12,0,14,16,0,9,29,200,67,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06678296984774854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12537521294808038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10535675968527612,0.0,0.12399421229153305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11586119995170792,0.0,0.045925605814510065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0833605364817887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07646691751244784,0.0,0.07871262121616399,0.0,0.0,0.06592916513756696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04976032047962001,0.0,0.0,0.07198909552656084,0.0677093203102259,0.07369543788673033,0.0,0.0,0.2285602340528744,0.2152871491208952,0.14467340906719547,0.0,0.0,0.06408282749346475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07872243722515265,0.0,0.042816564221405014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08299377103608396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07731896120724657,0.08008122488473404,0.2547356478736044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16561611676907662,0.061410873265909924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2576458494839661,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18979591255966646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07638134011321787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058105639345452126,0.0,0.0,0.070700010145716,0.22144698770194826,0.0722892525656904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07121916501764729,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08122756659080553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05991214098905862,0.0,0.0,0.3001748609777004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0753928354802902,0.0,0.25533601875473183,0.11599840356703707,0.14902326134252744,0.0,0.10664985274730447,0.0,0.0,0.12597259675563102,0.0,0.0787600815945647,0.2587334229574761,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07830547218962057,0.0,0.12110834765812048,0.1975473175403596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10010300650266303,0.0,0.0,0.23924118251879525,0.08786088524280232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05114984656795192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0621620923280576,0.0888731123557014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07262355514040494,0.0,0.05484727211001192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08237074306656855,0.0,0.048515476900898816 schizophrenia,alen_elrich,2019/01/24,"I went to the career fair today I was diagnosed with schizophrenia my senior year of college. I had a psychotic break where my darkest nightmares turned into reality. I was in a psychiatric center when I watched myself be a spectacle for a live audience on television. My friends and hospital workers together drove me to insanity so that I could perform on TV. It was a devious plan that started when I was a mere child. Lets trick him into thinking he understands reality and the world around him. Lets train him. Lets make him our ticket to the top. I've been on olanzapine, abilify, and now I'm finally on Geodon which has made my delusions seem silly mostly. I still have bouts of depression and sometimes the voices in my head get annoying. I thought it was normal to have voices. Now I've realized that my brain doesn't make a noise when its working efficiently. There's a beauty in being focused in an activity so that my brain doesn't have the time to question itself. I guess that's what this post has turned into at this point. That's what it all is really. That's my recovery. Stringing together seconds, minutes, maybe an hour of silence. The medicine is so vital and I'm so happy to live in a time when its accessible. I also went to the career fair today and got an interview scheduled. Wish me luck. /Hugs",3.5571428571428565,6.020735428571433,4.940714285714286,78.34178571428573,75.66666666666667,8.326984126984128,29.15079365079365,9.075114841892004,2.8824650793650792,1056,47,186,26,24,351,142,252,0.057,0.812,0.131,0.9478,0,0,0,0,0,0,25.0,1,0,0,5,15,9,2,0,19,0,22,5,3,3,1,27,41,15,0,3,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,2,0,1,18,11,0,0,6,2,0,3,2,3,0,1,13,3,27,6,26,22,2,41,0,1,1,1,10,19,0,5,17,135,45,7,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10590457832893684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11789117216473027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2956723460641473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10573493367846198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11406214748122215,0.13441411315804902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14507107840089392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1023154326307604,0.0,0.06918944119551151,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10591672392604334,0.0,0.14588706455496156,0.0,0.0,0.14097467031578206,0.0,0.0,0.13591184186654096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13041731139141802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4062573046953348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23387701681878226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12530888827469333,0.17679669959869335,0.0,0.13304418099508775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12975371760662946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12518957500994427,0.0,0.12683175832539026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14835240556210455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08483833358819051,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12055970260084105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1309770954871774,0.0,0.09373494997448964,0.0,0.10575912375356854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08485608129472473,0.0,0.10513498001901274,0.1544425139050481,0.0,0.2510571527091232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2880925897190281,0.0,0.13786476275496395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24552869695393195,0.0,0.0,0.15228847511351026,0.0,0.0,0.09641094056923817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0852808641202591 schizophrenia,knownpinballwizard,2019/01/24,"psychosis vs guilt? i had an appointment today where they were trying to assess me for psychosis. i dont think the person assessing me believed what i was saying as she was very dismissive, but i don't know what to believe anymore. i tried to tell her about some of my odd beliefs/delusions and about how i see signs everywhere but in response she told me ""it sounds like you're using this as escapism for guilt"". it's true that something in my past has made me very guilty and affected me greatly and that my symptoms were much worse after it, but is it really possible that i'm just using delusions and paranoia as escapism? i really believe in them, and i daydream often but about entirely different subjects, and i know they're just daydreams. is it possible that i just made up my symptoms out of guilt? is this something that's recognised by the medical community? i didn't have very good ties to reality before but this doubt is tearing me apart; it feels like the small piece of reality i thought i knew for sure has been blown to pieces. i don't know if she was just being dismissive or if it's the truth and i didn't experience anything i thought i did. she didn't really ask me about paranoia or anything, either, she just kept poking at my guilt, which i didn't want to talk about at all. i feel completely unheard but at the same time i feel very worried that i just made all of it up/was unintentionally malingering, and i don't know what to do. sorry if this is hard to understand or if its offensive to anyone. (i also think it's possible that she did this intentionally to make me doubt my beliefs, as i think she & her team are experimenting on me like a lab rat to see my reactions to various stressors, so i'm really uncertain as to what to believe or do)",6.794448942869995,6.301278179487183,7.415306642675066,74.8021592442645,64.92592592592592,10.808277103013943,35.282801019643124,10.307518312809881,3.495139031339032,1415,59,274,30,19,470,157,351,0.158,0.789,0.054000000000000006,-0.9877,1,0,2,0,0,0,32.0,0,0,2,1,16,16,1,7,7,0,29,3,0,9,5,69,57,30,0,5,22,0,4,3,0,0,3,2,0,1,27,9,0,1,15,1,0,0,8,8,0,0,21,8,51,8,42,35,9,16,1,0,2,0,18,12,0,13,7,198,78,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07344723745124697,0.0,0.099512425966417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0910841022858303,0.06421913137548599,0.0,0.1511587985951068,0.0,0.08586130222520133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07815207910707576,0.41390482753631297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09629619340542624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09595694054922857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10763993269428107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1796811907108531,0.0,0.0,0.13931654448845632,0.06561303590841534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07703399515461237,0.0,0.10125781563707258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08227376262766717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20189920784318754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13461032812256546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26071370521707943,0.061306269194945626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09252269365809973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06751556191924622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08767504132985095,0.0,0.08019422749004773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3106193396922318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2353492674383224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07303766107948544,0.0,0.0,0.14637480416314813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1414112723335636,0.0,0.10281131206387177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08656143973894664,0.19092118705953276,0.0,0.07382035013375411,0.0802752930512545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17654887589500104,0.0,0.1458270069855639,0.05355470070481444,0.0,0.08705692709331453,0.08776042841546709,0.0,0.12471145568241372,0.0,0.0,0.09561235336562354,0.0,0.15864664222387098,0.0,0.3031221222608283,0.05417169335093678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09327156251541376,0.09359640309029676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Pasdesoucie,2019/01/24,"OCD vs Psychosis Hi all, currently 18 and a student. I’ve always had extreme anxiety along with unbelievable hypochondria, and more recently OCD symptoms. Problem is, my psych says she can’t decide whether the obsessive thoughts I might me having are a result of intense OCD or if they cross a border into delusions. My question to all of you is, when you were in your prodrome did you have a similar problem? I’m terrified I might be in the prodrome. The implications of having a psychotic diagnosis has just blasted me into a state of depression and FOMO. Never had any hallucinations, but my “delusions” have ranged from fear losing objects (once thought that losing my shirt would mean that someone would use it to try and harm me once I become prominent/famous) to fearing random people might hurt me (only if I wasn’t nice to them) to obsessively studying René Descartes and Boltzmann Brain theories thinking they confirmed that nothing could possible be real outside of my conscious experience. No government suspicions or broadcasting ideas either. My upbringing in a stressful environment with constant worry might explain these thoughts, but I hoped that you guys might have some insight. I understand the literature on delusions and OCD is relatively novel and not well understood. Thanks for reading. TL;DR: OCD vs psychosis, when do/did obsessions become delusions for you?",9.530732445520583,10.572627605932203,8.734285714285715,62.46652542372885,58.95762711864407,11.319128329297822,43.97578692493947,11.062562989136584,5.5407600484261526,1129,64,154,27,14,355,151,236,0.229,0.723,0.047,-0.9933,1,0,0,0,0,0,27.0,0,6,3,2,4,17,0,6,11,0,26,3,2,2,3,56,38,16,0,8,12,0,0,0,0,7,1,2,0,1,6,12,0,0,13,2,0,1,5,13,1,0,9,2,26,4,22,19,5,14,0,4,0,0,15,6,0,13,6,117,32,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08842830668867221,0.0,0.0,0.07226982147770446,0.0,0.08129915845927824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2347421030757743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1186366964829655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1148442125251498,0.0,0.0848509737311497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09153345959509646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10395615895308537,0.0,0.2391751192253615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10522776043296256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.105553852695908,0.0,0.0,0.11376829019261565,0.1199701732101315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2377863744354019,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1157633125297626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5636984843655971,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08196489841271598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10197256771672954,0.0,0.0,0.22635623587912515,0.0,0.08082600616885739,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07367686486197632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1198077302849546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20337932886588825,0.0,0.0,0.11905096668980195,0.0,0.10630254918827964,0.12096283930380268,0.0,0.0,0.10493254665096888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0845131833187696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09004543738824293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12173626737351093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11045915930850803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09784262749011144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06809595347893656,0.0,0.2531085550669433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07215292740938285,0.0,0.0,0.11063476332756696,0.0,0.09178643291015227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09555290017137527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10792619238880996,0.0,0.1509877025318153,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,thedog1234,2019/01/24,"What is wrong with me? I have very strong delusions, I’m aware that these are delusions. But for some reason my brain begs to differ. For example, there is this a girl, whom is a complete stranger, I believe she throws signs that she is in love with me. I think to myself this is absolutely ridiculous, but I believe them. She never talked to me ever, but I think to myself she is shy and doesn’t want to talk to me because she is in love. Yes, this is what I think. This isn’t the first time this has happened either, there are other examples but I’m too embarrassed to talk about them. I’m not diagnosed schizophrenic, but these delusions are so concerning to me that I should get this checked out by a professional. What’s next? Thinking the government is after me as well? I feel like it’s getting worse too, every time I wake up I hallucinate. Just yesterday I woke up and I saw my dog jump on my bed, touched him and he disappeared. I feel the delusions are getting stronger, I’m becoming more obsessed and irritated that she does not talk to me. When she shouldn’t have to me because why the fuck would she want to talk to a complete stranger? I’m diagnosed GAD and depression so I currently take antidepressants. However is my medication making my delusions worse? I take Celexa 20mg. I’m starting to believe perhaps I need to be put on antipsychotics. I just wish my delusions could go away, hell it would make my life so much more easier.",2.5727072633895816,5.051246092198586,3.4336194668623143,87.76500000000001,79.21276595744679,7.010222548300319,26.39080459770115,8.104835398774808,1.7782872095866962,1146,47,228,22,29,364,139,282,0.146,0.741,0.113,-0.9163,2,0,0,0,0,0,33.0,0,0,2,2,13,12,3,2,8,1,25,10,2,3,2,40,56,15,0,9,10,0,3,1,0,4,5,0,1,1,19,8,0,0,7,0,1,5,6,7,1,1,2,4,45,5,30,48,5,24,1,1,1,3,21,8,2,1,12,158,64,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10065940239394716,0.0,0.0,0.13062030342485964,0.11832517989332199,0.0,0.3621225220038645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11960111347187673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22466369461732053,0.0,0.0,0.08554074108828218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09227754996598778,0.2174850345530756,0.0,0.11193610061615107,0.0,0.0,0.09375692929994878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09691218964413728,0.0902681388780214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10834408747712483,0.07653919921933733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09113127876121192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09904708363873076,0.1679250897346644,0.0,0.06088882782296265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0947415203874887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07567453082470375,0.05234207185868062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1933919268324082,0.0,0.14303050259268493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10792996824734252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07875854199698618,0.07944125213235455,0.08263120439448239,0.0,0.11394216674317922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10770298707171932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11015540645719016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07583262038139607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1611084442793267,0.4305661525260994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27459806621231536,0.0,0.0,0.12494571694866648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08839982856415199,0.12638519074848706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0963296652280308,0.0,0.096675116276554,0.0,0.12320307553252505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.218364952731072,0.1522151061072281,0.11713826374051847,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Bridgetinerabbit,2019/01/24,"Just passing through with a question about ADHD meds and schizophrenia. Hey everybody. I've found myself at an impasse with my daughter's pediatrician, and I'm extremely frustrated. My husband's family has a history of schizophrenia and our 11 year old daughter has been diagnosed with ADHD. Our pediatrician has decided that no matter how bad the ADHD gets, she will not prescribe medication because she is concerned that it may increase the likelihood of her developing schizophrenia as an adult. Well, the ADHD is crippling some aspects of her ability to function. Now, we are very fond of our pediatrician, and she has really gone to bat for us with other things before, but I can't shake the feeling that it's less that there actually is an increased risk, with observable data to support the claim, and more that because for some people the side effects of ADHD meds mimic some symptoms of schizophrenia, it spooks her and she's not even willing to consider it. I've been trying to call local pediatric psychiatrists just to pose that question so hopefully I can get them in touch with the pediatrician, but so far, none have called me back. So if anyone here actually knows, is there an increased risk of developing schizophrenia if ADHD meds are taken as an adolescent, and I'm spinning my wheels for no reason because the doc is right? Or is there no increased risk and I need to keep fighting the good fight to get my girl some meds? I hope anybody reading this is having a good day. Thanks for your time.",8.657826086956522,8.667052608695656,8.345420289855074,68.0024782608696,60.95652173913044,10.9831884057971,39.052173913043475,10.504223727775694,4.275066956521739,1224,57,199,25,15,392,152,276,0.092,0.77,0.138,0.9302,0,0,0,0,3,0,25.0,5,1,1,1,15,16,3,4,17,0,22,4,0,3,0,43,38,19,0,5,9,3,2,0,0,3,4,0,0,2,13,15,0,1,8,1,0,7,7,8,1,0,5,2,24,8,31,30,11,19,0,0,0,0,26,6,0,12,6,146,37,1,0.0,0.0,0.17870835021047127,0.0,0.6602595999634594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06402433651968208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07040778852198315,0.07645290199813894,0.16745141651975365,0.0,0.07791502166555686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1869960869529775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05905181268728934,0.0,0.0,0.0929364888226327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0604777806992417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08631927835745956,0.0,0.04629798595341447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10039623288078137,0.0,0.0,0.1435167091587317,0.0,0.0,0.1536006583582395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18188929581202767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08138712770921896,0.0,0.0,0.05032169755780837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40683203541692137,0.09224204606315888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06789424436514735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09608200387142547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06347960176304543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2051473815866572,0.0,0.0915897208914914,0.0,0.05865884657497743,0.09414401061662787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07819596026621979,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10390681122157366,0.0,0.0951710344505122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08430069656408111,0.0,0.0,0.06083167889847415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05339225409462253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06216658521730002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11014135127369806,0.0,0.0,0.07555066670364402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0823278794713393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05896482064928395 schizophrenia,HasNeverBeenAlive,2019/01/24,"Triggering when it turns out to be this way. Is this the unluckiest random dice roll of all existence? I can and will not State any names. If the goverment, out of boredom, decides to look deeper into this and the signs this will become the ""mystical truth"" so quick that it is unbelievably disgusting to look at. Now imagine you are me and you don't mean any harm. Will i be sacrificed over a ""dice roll""? I am Schizophrenic and this is the shit i have to deal with. Apart of Dreams that i apperently have confused with reality that made me believe God is trying to send me a message. ++ My Name is Ben M++++++ -> 10 Letters I was born 01.03.2000 -> 6 added up My Zodiac is Pisces -> 6 Letters I am born in Germany. Therefore German -> 6 Letters Antichrist has 10 Letters. Also 3 times 6 alignes. + Apocalyptism on Wikipedia Lineup: Year 1000: My Birthday is 01. So 1 and 1000 could be 2000, my year of birth. + Five Monarchy Men: My Father has 4 Brothers. M++++++s (my last name) has the same amount of letters as Monarchy. Four and five have the same letters. Four M++++++s Ben, might be something god is trying to say. Father, Mother, Sister, Me + Isacc Newton and the decypher of the bible: The World will end in 2060. My birthday added up is 6. I was born in 2000. 2 - 6. + Mormons: Since mormons are Christian and i believe God is a pun towards the word Good. Those where the first i spoke to. + Something that has nothing to do with this: I interpret Religion differently. God in islam said ""If he leaves the religion, kill him."" God made all religion. ""If he leaves God, kill him."" If we now take my Pun into account, it will state: ""If he leaves good, kill him."". This is how we should decypher the bible. Configure Synonyms for what was said based upon the Knowledge of "" What would Good, without emotion mean?"". If God exists and has no emotion, since he is nothing, has no rules and therefore can create something, every thought is something and he has no Memory. No rules mean infinite thinking speed. This means he never begins, he only ends. So he ended everything all at once. He could. + Jehovas Witnesses: Jehovas Witnesses are Christian. Therefore those also exist and now you may have become one. + It states Islam: My Fathers side is Islamic + It states Christianity: My Mother side is Christian + Millerites and Seventh-day Adventists: Millerites is 10 Letters = Antichrist Seventh is 7 Letters = M++++++ (my last name) Day is 3 Letters = Ben Adventists is 10 Letters = Punishment Antichrist M+ Ben Punishment + Judaism: States every Era of the first 4 goes for 21000 Years. My date of Birth is 1. My year of birth is 2000 + Now lets start a new Chapter. My Fathers name is S++++ S++++ has the same Letters as Satan. And his name is also only one Letter off from ""Sahir"". An islamic wizard. It's the last letter. Since he is a from a muslim country and they are, from what i have read, evil and should be stoned. My Mothers name is C++++++ = 7 Liliths other name is Satrina =7 Her middle name is K+++++ = 6 Lilith has 6 Letters. + The Four Horsemen of the Apocalypse: Lion of Judah = 4 - 2 - 5 Letters Lion of Satan = 4 - 2 - 5 Letters Lion is my Sisters Zodiac Conquest = 10 Letters My Name and My sisters name add up to 10 Letters War = 3 Letters My name has 3 Letters. Famine = 6 Letters My Zodiac has 6 Letters and my Birthday equals 6 Death = 5 Letters My Sisters Name has 5 Letters + Gog and Magog = 3 and 5 or Ja'juj and Ma'juj: My name is Ben = 3 My Sisters name = 5 German has 6 Letters + My Sisters Birthday adds up to 17. Punishment Started has 17 Letters..",1.1819602537786906,3.790775731044352,2.768860328419482,88.74380738010824,88.54220314735336,5.21366548485414,25.90970019282205,6.800593979768761,1.3382606705231082,2792,128,531,38,92,912,262,699,0.079,0.865,0.055,-0.969,2,0,4,0,0,0,198.0,2,3,1,2,14,16,10,1,27,0,79,2,1,7,5,92,97,38,5,11,9,14,0,0,0,10,1,4,0,1,24,32,0,0,10,2,1,1,8,12,0,10,9,6,52,4,53,70,8,67,12,0,2,0,84,25,1,11,35,300,76,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1947931690250167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11042982328806256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17934546143111155,0.0,0.1829563548573887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12965409133937889,0.0,0.0,0.1047272193236512,0.08370776318360583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08483076735612023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1826653292502404,0.2157421633436732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13681940762060985,0.0,0.07297220585887791,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13812766864138293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20430579228776646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26948840550281056,0.0,0.0,0.1985525862053284,0.0,0.25791913626093343,0.0,0.08302667790388023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13636553371600238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15365602909828613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3537776041095182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08613432653275019,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06262205345513833,0.07841796568393104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1558162508629199,0.0,0.0,0.08646928488675704,0.11003872473180276,0.12350385535489887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08121627729185564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15446875465107054,0.06456897020482169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08334478724773897,0.20149430430467366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25002937101161954,0.0,0.0,0.114939493910707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06104801257385429,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05202603213591021,0.0,0.06445920864622197,0.04734505216937415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11025120666712404,0.08831608826468128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06444825999329352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0782684125557355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057678104665039115,0.0,0.0,0.20914588133706896 schizophrenia,HelpMeMyHeadHurts,2019/01/24,I want to get high FUCK. I started talking to my ex again and found some stuff out and i’ve been feeling like shit and I want to get high. I already have some heroin. Life has been going so good i’ve been symptom free. I don’t know what i’m going to do i’m either getting high or committing suicide. Fuck me.,-1.138059701492537,0.9330958656716426,1.1125522388059714,99.01957462686569,97.80597014925371,3.2770149253731344,18.64029850746269,4.935628992294339,-0.6016256716417909,241,8,55,1,10,80,42,67,0.241,0.57,0.189,-0.8439,0,0,0,0,0,1,6.0,0,0,0,0,2,6,3,0,0,0,7,5,1,0,1,14,22,5,1,2,2,1,1,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,4,0,0,3,0,1,2,1,3,0,0,4,1,7,4,5,18,3,8,0,0,0,2,2,4,3,3,3,30,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20378854369643207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09337497864757638,0.1319286775905914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20248172589997293,0.0,0.34144989487585564,0.2894482206364463,0.0,0.2099050582357065,0.1548928954370264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5853437245622198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10149010455223956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13043827059624222,0.0902207025040682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18956166545981354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13071076555788316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21140359734213227,0.20199960810726736,0.0,0.0,0.1919434102085158,0.0,0.14843119263700336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2178469497009052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Bingbangboodle21,2019/01/24,"Can anyone else relate to this? I was talkin' to myself just the other day, I was hearin' lots of things I never thought I'd say, But one thing I said really blew my mind (Who's who?) I said I don't know me, But I know you, and if you listen closely We can talk it through, it ain't as simple As we're gonna find (Who's who?) I think I will save you, I think I don't blame you, 'Cause I like you and you like me. I was talkin' to myself just the other day, Then the bad man came and took me away, I feel bad, but not as bad as me (Get off me, man!) I was talkin' to myself just the other day, (You've got the wrong man!) before the bad man came And took me away, (I'm not that man!) I feel bad, but not as bad as me (Not who I am!) (Who's Who?)",-0.7461403508771944,0.3093114619883046,1.691087719298249,103.24294736842108,83.50292397660819,4.793918128654972,13.15438596491228,4.604124745555138,-1.6304989473684213,544,3,157,1,15,186,75,171,0.17600000000000002,0.782,0.042,-0.9811,0,0,0,0,0,0,37.0,1,6,0,0,3,10,0,0,6,0,11,0,0,1,1,33,29,16,0,1,12,0,2,2,0,2,0,4,0,5,16,8,0,0,8,0,0,4,8,7,0,1,12,6,35,3,15,15,1,13,0,0,0,0,24,4,0,2,7,103,51,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0868421067964682,0.12725549499532682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23337615809396986,0.0,0.6222006919054537,0.0,0.0,0.10568332294157168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2840987767767329,0.0,0.12758552478265664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2402922436691616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10375146531889176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1255964484502484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11351469248640254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0648883120666094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09933246050890017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13651191003443974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12135370712067642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10558867081857788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12540454256540262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09578912928963232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08415975721517989,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07956439841053002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2362814167548797,0.09876720889516892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0998256219409918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16502322218944832,0.15916208567843942,0.0,0.09859931334483744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2759770240093449,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1357909808095792,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,idkanymore20,2019/01/24,My physiatrist lies and therapist too Screw this stupid world. I hate it so much. Every time I feel like I’ve done something right It turns out I’m dead wrong and just delusional. Why do I have to deal with this crap. I’m so done with. I hate being so aware of what I’m doing with my life and I just watch myself screw it up even more. I don’t care anymore. I can just screw up my life even more. I just wish someone could kill me. I don’t know what’s real. Are my parents real. Are they actors. If they’re actors why do I feel bad for them. Where are the camera. Why are the birds in the us gone. The spainish hotel workers speak perfect English but hide it so they can spike my drink and make me see the truth. ,-0.07205409356724958,2.0872654934210537,1.2888596491228093,100.8625730994152,88.14473684210527,4.167251461988304,15.681286549707599,5.46131890053228,-0.982299415204678,553,11,132,3,18,175,89,152,0.173,0.754,0.073,-0.8826,1,0,2,0,0,1,16.0,1,0,3,2,12,14,8,0,5,0,16,7,1,1,2,24,30,10,2,3,6,1,2,1,0,0,2,1,0,0,8,8,1,0,3,4,0,1,2,10,0,0,3,5,22,4,10,25,3,9,0,0,2,3,7,7,4,1,2,82,30,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1470946968398387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12384194055825448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15122326782267473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11842234602400738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15291256286972058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3035680053089903,0.0,0.1452982320228947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19592940298415248,0.0,0.12496694137970878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14999123053691868,0.10596063839332844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29287279970691954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16409534465249334,0.0,0.08151340910376775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2095271881097856,0.07246220767324209,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09900549992042844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10903308989441343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16469305211707358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3376438143767009,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12666542681951498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11819273014187978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12567200440221876,0.11418484516851485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17221225319220296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08648723835255358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16133078803646436,0.0,0.0,0.17841204612187486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4015102251615225,0.0,0.17056196914259858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16216586184371212,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Antwerpben,2019/01/24,"My tutor has been hearing only my sister's voice in her head for the past year So, there's this old lady in my apartment complex who had been recently diagnosed with schizophrenia, and she has been hearing my sister's voice in her head telling her to do things like ""not to go out of her room otherwise she would be in trouble"", ""to only eat once a day because she's getting fat. She also mentioned that the voice in her head gets mad at her for telling people that it exists and that ""she puts my family in a bad light every time she goes out of her apartment."" I'm wondering out of the hundreds of people she has tutored (including myself), why is it that my sister's voice is the one telling her to do these things? &#x200B; Side note: My family owns the apartment complex",7.095637254901964,6.3252742745098045,6.907965686274513,79.59959558823529,64.42483660130719,9.480065359477123,34.15767973856209,8.472884824447931,2.635771895424836,616,23,118,7,8,195,83,153,0.044,0.939,0.017,-0.6369,0,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,0,0,0,3,4,1,0,7,0,13,6,4,0,0,11,20,4,0,1,1,3,0,1,0,1,2,6,1,0,11,6,2,0,3,0,0,2,1,3,0,1,4,7,23,1,21,14,1,23,0,0,0,0,25,15,0,1,7,83,34,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11250518677839164,0.0,0.15243138419677266,0.1709468275646844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11746551713678666,0.08575984570325898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09072973731390804,0.0,0.0,0.14279160679464445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14395516447984644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1185325934654984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.265249281744205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1470034842236213,0.0,0.07995413181923085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4331480488151599,0.0,0.3171228696106869,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06873124451087481,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14762451100378726,0.14982419191808294,0.09533132507242267,0.2139935047635561,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1342990865676272,0.1950655646508989,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1414265824051491,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13890877754552558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3688928468310218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18692880017248165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08203414879498258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12694570197490412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15256612608707032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09993809286295573,0.0,0.1709468275646844,0.09059607901626313 schizophrenia,magicalme79,2019/01/24,Weight gain from antipsychotics Does anyone take medication to combat the weight gain? What is it? ,5.0810416666666685,8.418326687500002,3.452500000000004,79.80916666666668,94.625,7.133333333333333,17.833333333333332,7.793537801064563,1.6042333333333336,81,2,12,2,3,23,14,16,0.106,0.5760000000000001,0.317,0.6966,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,6,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23615996577813425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2955639377896452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34024372021229743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2539430768366016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8225676591167471,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,DoingBetterForMyself,2019/01/24,"I can't function with too much going on I was trying to cook earlier and the sizzling of the oil in the pan, the tv in the background, people talking, the ticking of the toaster oven, the dogs, everything felt so loud like all of it was screaming in my ear at once. I can't focus with all the noises going on. I can never focus with too much going on. Knowing I have multiple tasks to do stresses me out too, like if I'm trying to do something and someone asks me to do something else even something simple it stresses me out so bad that I will refuse to do it because it's like my brain just shuts down and I get mad if they keep asking. Does anyone else experience this?",1.8985618729096991,3.9088096811594255,3.513768115942028,88.77777591973248,79.0,5.405574136008919,24.3835005574136,6.297961479604792,0.734747380156076,528,19,106,4,13,175,80,138,0.128,0.815,0.058,-0.8795,0,0,3,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,1,0,7,8,1,2,9,0,11,3,2,0,3,18,21,7,0,2,3,0,1,3,0,1,0,3,2,0,6,8,1,2,2,2,0,3,3,5,0,0,3,5,13,3,21,17,4,15,0,0,0,0,5,11,0,2,4,77,19,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11252760258485156,0.16489415441214375,0.0,0.0,0.3008999432808715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13437174424854004,0.09810283336354286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17965366481904285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14083293593145668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2688765643229437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10629426311424538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14463556984705403,0.15742266507829095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1545202408344775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08408048194577204,0.0,0.2743845959470053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14304401826280774,0.0,0.0,0.08844418063495886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2358701711212281,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23660750798762675,0.0,0.12412090712993945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17138764200235276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1115701901454408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1363574113794907,0.37168062958829695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3686948005701149,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12935128278138924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2185249289772533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,d0---0b,2019/01/24,"8 year partner left me due to the illness. Had the psychotic break in 2015, and we tried—really hard to keep it working. They say it’s just the illness and while they’re just almost finished moving stuff out we’re quite friendly and going along as friends. It’s a bummer but I’m not going to hold the illness against them and hopefully we’ll get on with our lives. It’s been hard though. Med increases to deal with the anxiety. They won’t refill them for two weeks. So fun times ahead. Just wanted to vent. 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About 2 years ago, I had a psychotic episode that lasted around a month. The day it began (minutes before it began) I had an auditory hallucination of a woman's voice saying, ""5...4...3...2...1."" I am just wondering if anyone else has experienced this particular hallucination, or if anyone knows what it means. It's almost as if the universe was telling me, ""Hey, you're about to lose your shit!""",4.9740740740740765,6.543220172839508,7.1564814814814826,67.7991666666667,69.49382716049382,9.844444444444443,29.549382716049386,10.125756701596842,3.1512123456790118,338,13,61,9,6,120,61,81,0.043,0.957,0.0,-0.4574,0,0,0,0,0,0,28.0,0,1,0,1,4,2,1,0,6,0,5,1,1,0,0,11,11,5,0,3,5,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,8,1,0,0,4,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,5,3,6,0,6,6,0,8,0,1,0,0,5,1,1,6,7,36,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1990502324537191,0.0,0.22485462155377456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31402148712066963,0.2300782492320571,0.0,0.19989731426679735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1910757088824796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1448163233330286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19650542160719375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1875829055296018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1234069352415838,0.18303840974178176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2512142723519016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4892020645213288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17923385318267862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17857135760598644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23049758670457265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19626680058635196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.243515148386812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14460298750928516 schizophrenia,xHeadBand,2019/01/24,"Career paths/other passions I may have been manic or delusional but in college I said that if I don’t make a career out of music my life wasn’t worth living. 3 years later I’m really starting to improve and I sell beats here and there. I just feel like if I don’t do something creative and on my own time I’ll hate my life. I’ve worked early and long shifts and it makes me very depressed and anxious. I don’t even like working with people all that much. The schizophrenia finally hit me and I had to drop out of an expensive state school. Now I’m going to a tech school but I honestly just hate it. I suck at communication, all my work is group work. I have like a year left before my parents will force me to get a job or leave the house. I have great studio equipment that I’m just now putting into use, Yamaha HS8s beyerdynamic dt770 pro ableton live 10. An m audio key board, behringer umc404hd. Took multiple years to get all this. My parents support my love for art but I think there patience is wearing thin. I just don’t really think we should live a life doing something we regret. We only have one life, and anything is possible through hard work and consistency. I don’t know what I’m trying to say but is anyone else artistic/creative? Or does anyone else have a strong desire to follow their passion? I’ll never stop loving music, art, movies, anything that is creative. If anyone else makes music pm me we can talk about it and share our stuff. I mostly make hip hop and trap beats but I also do alternative stuff and I like all music regardless of gender if it sounds good. I’m also in need of a good graphic designer! Post some of your favorite music below!",2.1807467418104958,4.530677754491019,3.4327932370553,87.94794998238821,79.83832335329342,5.606058471292709,22.3983797111659,6.794906146795322,0.6836019020781965,1326,42,258,14,34,430,183,334,0.102,0.69,0.208,0.9918,3,0,2,0,1,0,31.0,5,1,1,8,13,20,3,0,11,0,25,10,2,5,5,59,54,26,0,9,16,2,3,4,0,3,4,4,1,0,12,20,0,1,4,2,3,4,7,5,0,1,5,7,36,15,24,45,8,30,0,2,0,4,16,10,1,10,17,154,48,11,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14147651038005574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0999301358317764,0.0,0.1855515385314439,0.27190096779093403,0.14558355140772086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07526956639012039,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0761870489771326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07740846790095306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22168098777164907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05842437353105472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04472602654732876,0.06319300546821516,0.0,0.09689925710993567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0924292495182187,0.0,0.05027160028867367,0.14838544230261785,0.0,0.0975230852933656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0792392282972229,0.17466403292768504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10206638222448088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0877789607326892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.048613120733628765,0.0,0.0,0.09366216367101847,0.09610773535585217,0.0,0.2499164396275493,0.17286059258104436,0.0,0.2343248850973761,0.07828080295382671,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15967004116162015,0.0,0.23618034744679045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06502535989201705,0.06558902538313235,0.06822274343610436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05994009515187744,0.06727479675577176,0.0,0.0,0.1964399063806802,0.0,0.0,0.06132427351212754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09972088300208763,0.08471642518376349,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08892274181576147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11333439565980245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08414194070627241,0.07034378537862476,0.0,0.1790444494960663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13619554684705595,0.0,0.0,0.06260963327690451,0.0,0.0,0.07395320183420293,0.0,0.0,0.20252198273826166,0.0,0.10037885453204344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07109760621623011,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1133581045836972,0.0,0.0,0.051579422406423145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09827790399012937,0.060055837927452616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07639760903275951,0.0,0.07298548857083413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3219852165368537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1708883494222834 schizophrenia,ItsiAdam,2019/01/25,got new airpods since i started listening to music the voices stop,3.1575000000000024,6.217299750000006,4.449999999999998,73.84500000000001,93.16666666666666,5.7333333333333325,31.0,7.1686216300943375,3.0757000000000003,55,3,7,1,2,18,12,12,0.18,0.82,0.0,-0.29600000000000004,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,1,2,0,3,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,3,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4301766921041453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5194696453415155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4449242971411445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3807008866959372,0.0,0.0,0.4496760009401006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,stevoschizoid,2019/01/25,"My story I'm thankful I finally decided to go back to Reddit and find such a great group. I'm kinda scared to share my story but I'm going to to try to help myself and maybe others may get help out of it... probably not but what the hell: I've been dealing with voices since I went to bonnaroo in 2006 I thought I was in a game show to find my true love and ended up losing my shoes and wandered every night by was there searching for clues picking up trash sorting bad from good trash trying to get to stages over night I'm sure I looked like some drugged up goof ball The psychosis lasted well after I got back home for a couple of weeks. My friends didn't know what to do and never took me to a hospital. And I kept this a secret to everyone until a couple years ago... I thought I had a gift... Years pass and in 2013 rolled around I'm at a tiny little outdoor gathering in ohio again for a week all the sudden the dissociation and psychosis started again this time I decided to stay extended at the camp site and in fact I never went back to ny I called a friend and him and his girlfriend took me in. The psychosis faded yet again until I went back to the campsite the year after it this time I ended up on a greyhound bus got off at my destinations after being haunted my voices and delusions telling me to drop off my luggage and get back on the bus. The fucked up part is the bus driver didn't check to see if I had a ticket and just let me on. He finally kicked me off in some part of Florida I still have no idea where I was. I kept trying to find my friends to have them give me a ride and trying to get back on a bus. I managed to get a hold of a friend who wired me the money to get back home but I had no phone because i dropped that behind due to the voices telling me to do so and couldn't get in touch with her when I landed so I had someone call the cops I told them I was hearing shit and he took me to a clinic... I stayed for a few days where I got to collect myself to ""normal"" and got a hold of my friend who picked me up but kicked me out a couple weeks later for putting her through hell waiting for me. Then I move back to Ohio met a girl she breaks my heart I move to Kent and met someone who told me she couldn't get pregnant... then I get her pregnant. She didn't help things by saying things like she wanted him to have the same last name as her and me finding fertility clinic info on her emails so I thought she was trying to trick me. Psychosis started again and I'm at my job the voices got to me and my body litteraly failed. I walked to a clinic it wasn't open I called they had the sheriff's drive me to the open one the clinic was a joke and didn't help me at all. I finally called my mother in my she was worried and ended up coming all the way down to see me in the clinic then I asked her to take me home. I thought the girl I got pregnant was lying and a fbi agent I ended up destroying my phone and moved my stuff to my. Weeks later in my I had a fight with my mom and her and my sister told the l8cal mental health clinic and I got taken away to a hospital. I finally gave up I told them what I was hearing and what I was doing and I was finally diagnosed with schizophrenia. 2 years now I'm on invega depakote welbutrin and lexapro. I got back a hold of my girlfriend and after a year I finally was trusted to meet my son which I now watch full time at her house. Thanks for reading it was triggering for me to share but also cleared my head. I look forward to chatting with you all.",3.537021224489795,3.8804926493333376,4.6652544217687115,88.87688571428575,71.84,7.4024489795918385,25.70612244897959,7.127189543769624,0.9490636734693872,2757,78,620,24,49,908,286,750,0.08800000000000001,0.804,0.107,0.8865,1,0,1,0,1,0,39.0,0,1,4,2,29,30,7,1,51,0,37,16,5,3,10,96,102,50,0,5,8,4,1,2,7,1,9,7,3,2,20,44,0,6,14,7,2,18,12,11,1,1,53,13,118,19,114,44,11,138,2,2,5,2,77,50,4,6,67,427,138,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0434187673205909,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03917014769428129,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04360354102163192,0.04579069283057642,0.0,0.046019331983891666,0.338970806800795,0.04089715138463984,0.029858408475444787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054406931933636764,0.0,0.0,0.20006061448491144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04219285872274118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16258988236704336,0.0,0.03158874104044155,0.050497337203421186,0.0,0.04971475971740902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0568024961219133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17353077511604414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04126866792173107,0.0468035158576122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3219382385612518,0.17907125942068927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18921328382533792,0.045282214235370065,0.23031530892703797,0.046987109999826734,0.05567414697592983,0.04108300151778529,0.3133971191758341,0.05400180771042873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050268713622360885,0.052064591885402696,0.11041046191366087,0.05804280928463264,0.13132392742131724,0.0,0.14739603461385148,0.0,0.0,0.056517583811107115,0.0,0.055293671273143406,0.0,0.0,0.04860615867769751,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02691871765709884,0.0798522264992302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05008646739007841,0.0,0.04785935788019699,0.04909190458060658,0.0,0.0,0.08226353299965034,0.054797293649957585,0.0,0.0,0.04420733221261525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04920807298109371,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.049361402766736236,0.0,0.0,0.057366042632677576,0.0,0.15617739217945087,0.0,0.0,0.07555444870169732,0.0,0.0,0.09193084096375352,0.04799105348163246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.033190843817127336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10608346133132072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052809882846845096,0.0,0.0,0.049239508678111166,0.0,0.0,0.04899432961573407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.038951716511152916,0.04903860053351005,0.0,0.07806314977602563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05027836924234938,0.04051765109975138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08300301118797497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06933811347065465,0.10441461685656428,0.03911634947998418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056071611844864255,0.0,0.0,0.04616408318222735,0.0,0.03682767236031432,0.0,0.08562323632952287,0.09019038542960048,0.0,0.0,0.0650816990819592,0.0,0.0,0.15554200810428298,0.08568377555614913,0.0,0.0,0.1872140634304488,0.16325932852187927,0.16627467239634158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.028890306879329523,0.038878897168912636,0.15715865433752915,0.0,0.04403986849312412,0.13621784073864926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04974265889619405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15771103080695387 schizophrenia,Mellowneko,2019/01/25,"Clozapine experience Doc wants me to start clozapine instead of abilify...I know nothing about this drug. Can u share your experiences? Thanks",5.199782608695653,8.708482782608698,5.635108695652175,64.90309782608696,90.7391304347826,10.995652173913042,36.184782608695656,9.516144504307137,5.9655304347826075,116,7,16,5,4,37,22,23,0.0,0.7879999999999999,0.212,0.6249,0,0,1,0,0,0,5.0,0,1,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,2,5,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,3,5,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,8,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4076840522426177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6877627700753017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1932015781853515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3373197718674834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24882747242219924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3236581516272332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20735210920694147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,dudderson,2019/01/25,"Inner voices, not outer ones? I was finally diagnosed with (among other things) paranoid schizophrenia around 6 years ago. I hear disembodied mumbling and whistling, but no actual words. My meds have calmed them and the shadow figures down, plus it’s worse when I’m alone and I live with roommates now so there’s constantly noise of people already. But my voices are in my head, I can’t control them, they say really weird and obscure things or really hurtful repetitive things. The former is like I’m picking up on conversations from somewhere else. I used to think I was picking up on different dimensions or parallel universes. I don’t know what I think now. It’s very difficult to focus on what’s happening in front of me, and my already affected memory is made even worse. It’s just confusing because I’ve always read that the voices are outside of your head-like actual people next to you. But mine are all in my head. Does anyone else have voices like this?",4.474166666666665,6.8852406944444455,5.120833333333334,78.38625000000003,72.6111111111111,8.722222222222221,27.91666666666667,9.354420925462401,2.8121666666666667,775,30,132,19,16,249,114,180,0.17800000000000002,0.769,0.052000000000000005,-0.9717,1,1,0,0,0,0,21.0,0,2,3,1,8,7,0,1,3,0,11,3,2,6,1,30,20,13,0,0,7,0,0,2,0,0,1,6,0,0,11,9,0,1,4,1,0,1,4,4,0,1,3,6,20,3,21,17,1,24,0,1,0,0,8,13,0,4,12,87,31,1,0.0,0.0,0.2542729856948859,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11548718151480222,0.0,0.0,0.13493291858336648,0.2875389760333913,0.0,0.10840510693221347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09109624248011096,0.1334893619772511,0.0,0.11597865087858507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07941873185587879,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1407886185491047,0.1461224034568937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1322335440123466,0.0,0.1361170189738644,0.0,0.0,0.11401070480572907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2176678800413664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0860500690006128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14271762376683475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1152079914988197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4011209262406712,0.0,0.14683734526600764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13946963507111326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07159961058444846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12729846312497686,0.0,0.11504144196754992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12327603109151365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14471399377806854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13855644414208504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08828249259670301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1806423466167293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13031731176865954,0.0,0.16692404175262526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10360551974729378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2596608261471368,0.16695896133179694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11252186598554556,0.0,0.10749634010581977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26553708991568725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08389737233766023 schizophrenia,redditreadr999,2019/01/25,"Have you undergone forced outpatient treatment? I'm writing an article for [MadInAmerica.com](https://madinamerica.com/) about forced out patient treatment, also known as Assisted Outpatient Treatment (AOT). If you have undergone this type of treatment please reach out to me on Reddit, at [msimonson@madinamerica.com](mailto:msimonson@madinamerica.com) or at 201-572-1030.",18.17078014184397,21.96836465957447,15.124255319148936,14.533333333333356,40.70212765957447,13.07517730496454,45.45390070921986,12.45797560212912,6.744679432624112,317,14,31,8,3,98,37,47,0.121,0.81,0.069,-0.5574,0,0,0,0,0,0,28.0,0,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,6,3,4,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,10,3,0,5,0,0,0,0,3,5,0,2,0,20,4,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5888325236713088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8082550705482009,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,molagbal33,2019/01/25,"I think my life is a movie. Everything about my life is orchestrated. All people are essentially actors, and every conversation is likely scripted and destined to happen a certain way. I think even me getting schizophrenia was part of the story, and it would've been forced to happen by the directors no matter what. I don't believe I myself am being controlled, because ""I"" don't actually exist and thus cannot be controlled by anything. I think the escape to the movie is to escape being human. The fact that I am human is a part of the movie. I do not think I can ever understand the beings making this movie, but they send me messages and talk to me often. I will never die because the movie will likely always exist, or at least for a very long time.",6.082727969348661,6.6526113724137925,6.8878160919540266,74.37601532567052,66.3103448275862,8.375478927203066,29.214559386973185,8.167268648758528,2.152157088122605,599,19,102,7,9,199,85,145,0.027000000000000003,0.902,0.071,0.6019,0,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,1,2,4,3,0,0,12,0,21,2,0,4,5,24,30,7,1,0,3,0,0,2,0,2,2,0,0,2,4,5,0,2,5,1,0,1,6,0,0,0,2,0,17,3,12,22,4,7,0,0,0,0,7,1,0,2,6,83,21,1,0.0,0.0,0.1588087217312735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13541097505107946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1339194310604288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19840703491302186,0.0,0.0,0.1833498927353286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36504880053811295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16889625417108475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10748685256933334,0.14720575354721044,0.13711370523808247,0.0,0.1462583371571283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08502383950063336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2878171869206625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22989319249286044,0.15901104202623778,0.0,0.0,0.1440179263819503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10862881641466526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12551350613445972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3524585885642053,0.0,0.11282197390470727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13080256501739648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4171035182243046,0.0,0.0,0.09489378211070887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1694159001537271,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.134275816334498,0.0,0.12917377552651568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11560433975365565,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Empty_Insight,2019/01/25,"Takes One to Know One From our selfies that have been posted recently, a few people brought up that we all seem to have the same 'look' in our eyes, which I'd say is a pretty solid observation. In personal experience, every schizophrenic I've met irl has a somewhat off-kilter walk, everything from an unusually perky walk to shuffling their feet. I met one dude who legit had a pimp limp, and he owned it. Anybody got any personal observations about any more common threads that we might share?",10.292282608695654,8.157804967391307,9.540869565217395,67.62478260869568,59.10869565217392,13.11304347826087,39.30434782608695,11.698219412168324,4.454621739130435,395,15,71,9,4,126,72,92,0.0,0.92,0.08,0.7184,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,4,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,6,0,7,3,2,0,1,9,15,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,1,0,2,6,3,0,0,2,0,0,3,0,0,0,3,6,4,6,1,9,8,6,9,0,0,2,0,13,3,0,3,2,44,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30632617443003995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1897647052050308,0.0,0.2024208315733836,0.2203166676588785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1801357874129241,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12377968027426815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1891351947488321,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2389318206645857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4578619332522806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15614506647239276,0.3933216358637623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21570662127789003,0.22913833137247686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22238594846058551,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17911072426635302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2050395457230578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1693437840566326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,kruemelmonstah,2019/01/25,"Less quetiapine - more sleep? So I've been on 200 mg quetiapine/seroquel for the past 2-3 years and the other day my meds were delivered late so I was out for 2 days. I had no negative symptoms except for lack of sleep and dizziness, and no positive symptoms either, so I discussed weaning myself off of them. The Dr was reluctant even though I only had one proper episode (positive symptoms since I was a teenager but nothing I couldn't manage). So he said to start by reducing to 150mg. And I took my first one last night, and today has been really crap. I've been tired and cranky, spent more time asleep than awake, and had a headache for most of my awake hours. I'm honestly feeling like just not taking any will be easier than taking the lower dose, I know nobody here will tell me to do so but have you guys had a similar experience? I know it's day one but this sucks... thanks",4.502481060606059,5.40061125568182,5.349318181818184,82.83356060606064,69.9659090909091,8.821212121212124,27.734848484848484,9.075114841892004,2.081755303030304,695,23,141,13,12,227,114,176,0.109,0.7859999999999999,0.105,0.4625,1,0,0,0,0,0,22.0,0,1,1,1,9,5,2,0,7,0,18,10,4,0,0,21,30,16,0,2,7,0,1,1,0,2,6,1,0,1,3,8,0,0,3,0,1,1,5,2,0,4,14,2,16,3,17,12,6,17,0,0,0,0,7,3,2,1,14,94,19,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09988017010847887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2841670529639886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09700968200086584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14367212520735892,0.0,0.0,0.07426451239930512,0.10492766964616283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12493196701583688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1454295361089413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14464248268622878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16143753363251132,0.11972288822700305,0.1656816189581634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07175580200211698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1631452325434595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13783242221084416,0.0,0.14093071217959838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2985793026960488,0.11170520530239536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1402089942265934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09409201176007256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13971194584589738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12149668021800256,0.0,0.2939625357952438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10395901996544163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4579786996641595,0.22086373767910428,0.0,0.12837539542886206,0.13522294752848849,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14430413472445136,0.0,0.08564410815249547,0.16881143203301888,0.1392205125092497,0.0,0.16318374742566044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09458281098097317 schizophrenia,christen1986,2019/01/25,"Treatment Other than medication, Electroconvulsive therapy (ECT), and deep brain stimulation therapy; what treatment has anyone had for Schizo affective disorder? 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He's been feeding it to his infant child. He's been 51-50'd twice (which destroyed the relationship he had with whoever called the authorities). Here are some questions I need help brainstorming: Keep in mind: he's incredibly smart and isn't easily fooled. 1. How to determine whether or not this substance is actually dangerous, and if it isn't should his delusion be indulged? IMPORTANT TO NOTE: separation from his child may result in a psychotic break which would be catastrophic. 2. If the substance IS dangerous, how can one effectively keep him from giving this elixir to anyone? 3. Is it possible to get him help without making his mental state any worse? I know next to nothing about schizophrenia and how to help someone who has it. 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Not too long ago we would be considered seers. Seeding the shadow people and their messages. Do you think maybe we have the ability to peek behind the curtain? I do t feel ill, I feel godly.",2.034615384615382,4.829951435897434,2.8827692307692345,88.2872307692308,85.92307692307692,5.171282051282052,23.18461538461539,6.742157984588678,0.9853138461538458,162,6,29,2,5,51,33,39,0.07200000000000001,0.87,0.059,-0.128,1,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,2,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,3,0,5,1,0,0,0,9,9,1,0,1,1,0,2,0,0,1,1,0,2,0,0,3,0,0,4,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,3,6,0,2,6,0,2,0,0,1,0,5,0,0,0,2,19,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3736903565677536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4263100585630681,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37307018158986205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4235169138391536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2922588551950641,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2701206877417137,0.0,0.3346741055577421,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2994664144107389,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,EldritchFold,2019/01/25,"Medication Has anyone here taken, or is taking risperidone? Today is my first day taking it, and I feel very off. My brain just kind of feels like it’s wrapped up in a flour sack and my mouth tastes off. Is this normal? 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Read some posts here where ppl talk about in the beginning feeling like they were gifted in some way, feeling like they could read other people’s body languages, like they connected telepathically with others. And that is how I feel sometimes. I just thought I was very sensitive and perceptive, and that I was able to connect with others in a deep way, but now it is scaring me. Some other possible symptoms I’ve experienced are the misinterpretation of noises from where I’m at. Never heard clear words. I took acid 5 times with bad vibes emerging quite normally during 2 of those, mdma arround 15 times with some anxious moments and I’m a daily weed smoker for the last 2 years. Always have been anxious but the paranoia started to get worse on days where I smoke more weed than I should. The thing is: I don’t want to quit, I rely on weed to work on my art, I make photographs and abstract drawings, study those almost everyday and feel able to to perform my best while high. Some strains do not make me feel paranoid or anxious (all are high on THC tho bc my country hasn’t legalized weed), and usually I just take some puffs, not smoking the whole joint, so I thought it might be fine. Should I just really control myself and smoke as little as I can in order to enjoy it and not get paranoid or I’m getting into dangerous territory and should quit cold turkey? thanks for reading",6.552563467492262,6.902773284210527,6.433147574819403,78.79987616099072,65.28070175438596,9.091847265221878,32.55417956656347,8.841846274778883,2.605953560371517,1186,45,220,17,17,374,163,285,0.124,0.769,0.107,-0.7332,0,0,3,0,0,0,25.0,0,0,3,8,12,12,1,3,8,0,23,2,1,4,3,60,49,21,0,7,11,0,5,3,0,5,1,1,0,0,12,15,0,1,9,4,0,1,7,5,0,0,8,9,25,7,32,33,10,35,0,0,0,0,5,17,0,11,16,141,37,5,0.19660268031765624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09843459256989996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08179458976831906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33315760204630845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08207751298289997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10316119178595427,0.0,0.0,0.1091906284656298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11025331172073946,0.0784856212639756,0.0,0.0,0.0633962321354754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24852055604547216,0.14045299410200662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20543357197917966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20772152599177612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08012871233454193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14407520822735606,0.09852376752781282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13123381575686774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.208564374953088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07581605361588223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09631444200490552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06814977197310983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11081999098131122,0.094145510871951,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4182223016401871,0.2949838256926296,0.0,0.12594871131083674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09841679030642987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0972225389758404,0.0,0.06957819451863967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1021727313359287,0.07391037404671076,0.07901089363108119,0.0,0.09050266681668027,0.0,0.0,0.06530704242832606,0.06298752953962948,0.0,0.1560805674397223,0.11464060393009938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10921640589183614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10826503827621882,0.08110890058020348,0.11596135465115676,0.15605405653464505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10974993574409037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07156454639893764,0.0,0.10017746374028418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06330284012624901 schizophrenia,PopPunkJess,2019/01/25,"This may be the wrong place for it but idk where else to put and i normally get decent advice off you peps :) So the last 24 hours have been so fucked. &#x200B; So, I go to my psychiatrist appointment with the community mental health nurse. I tell them how bad I've been and stuff like that. I explain my breakdown at work. LONG STORY SHORT: They've essentially said nothing is wrong with me and I will be receiving no help anymore. &#x200B; So i tried something dramatic last night. lo and behold i can't die. which is funny irony to anyone else (not me though) &#x200B; The voices are getting louder and louder in my head and i have had a feeling for weeks something bad is gonna happen. &#x200B; So any UK peeps: anyone aware of how i can get some help? 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I used to have a ""delusion"" where my mother was poisoning my food. But this time she actually IS and no one fucking believes me. She hates when I try and cook my own food so I'm just going to eat out instead. She just wants to see me fail. I have proof in that I am constantly bloated for no reason. My brain is clouded because of it. Also I am going to come of medication because of the brain fog and of course she tells me no. She just wants to see me fail in life and be her fucking house plant or something.",1.654316205533597,3.6614130086956536,3.4681422924901213,88.81841897233204,79.78260869565217,6.2687747035573125,25.23715415019763,7.348242739294969,1.1554347826086966,436,17,93,6,11,146,70,115,0.204,0.7959999999999999,0.0,-0.9729,0,0,1,0,0,0,11.0,0,1,0,2,8,7,5,0,2,0,9,13,2,2,1,17,21,10,0,3,6,1,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,4,6,5,0,1,1,0,3,3,7,0,1,1,2,20,0,13,19,1,10,0,2,2,2,9,4,2,2,3,68,24,2,0.0,0.0,0.288060063778896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11803052312810085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1799433384645517,0.0,0.0,0.166287409215988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3295264683654259,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12713879013640444,0.0,0.15949621359801985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1510250669955021,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5354121854016863,0.0,0.0,0.27289575093329393,0.0,0.0,0.16776165215325836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.145718092160582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17030316135711612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10424970204704187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1486849922835474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10001322153223788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15175076973564866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2352259296289757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12505555133705315,0.11362473953373635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12900328401582795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08606299650621918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1002063444798246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12747345457771353,0.0,0.0,0.17410902102860715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,gretaamato,2019/01/26,"I applied to multiple universities I hope I get accepted to the university of British Columbia I have relatives that are in BC that will let me stay with them until I find a job and apartment way nicer than my actually parents who kicked me out at 18 I’m 19 now and I have a job and apartment. A while back I applied to several of universities, for some reason I got my eye set on the university of British Columbia because I want to live in BC I don’t like living in Winnipeg, but if I don’t get accepted into the the university I’ll stay in Manitoba and go to the university of Winnipeg, but I want to live a life without having psych evaluations every month, and if I don’t show up I run the risk of being hospitalized. I want to get away from that I just want to leave my past behind and start in a new province I feel like all the psychiatrists know me and they even tried to separate me from my family when I was young thankfully it didn’t work. I always had social workers checking on me and trying to build cases against my family so that they can take me I feel like there were sort of obsessed with separating me from my family, my consciousness always told me that they got some sick enjoyment through breaking up families. Anyways wish me luck I hope I get accepted into the university of British Columbia, and start life in Vancouver stress free. 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If a person, hypothetically, experienced symptoms of schizophrenia and wanted to discuss them with a professional, is there any chance (however minute) of this coming back to bite them? I understand therapy notes can be subpoenaed. Is this only for cases relevant to the illness/symptoms, or could this information be subpoena’d and the court made aware of the illness just because? Let’s say, if the person in question worked for a company, and the company is now involved in a lawsuit of some kind, and the patient works in a relevant department. Can the judge make everyone (the company, the lawyers, the public?) aware of the patient’s mental health just because they want to? I know LEGALLY they can’t lose their job or anything because that’s discrimination, but that doesn’t mean practically this wouldn’t damage their reputation or hurt their career. Particularly if their current role is appointed or elected, or if they have ambitions in that vein, this sort of information being public could be damaging. Basically I want to know if, completely hypothetically, a person was experiencing symptoms like hallucinations and disordered thinking, could they stand to lose anything by telling this to a professional? 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Can anyone/everyone share their experience about the time leading up to when they were diagnosed with schizophrenia? I’ve been struggling lately and I’ve really been concerned that I’m becoming schizophrenic. I’ve found a pretty good list (from what I think) that talks about things that may happen before schizophrenia presents. Thank you so much for your answers. I’m worried.",5.3116666666666665,8.677683500000004,4.308888888888891,80.20000000000002,75.1111111111111,6.933333333333335,28.44444444444445,8.07648339933343,2.447994444444445,340,14,51,6,8,100,59,72,0.086,0.7659999999999999,0.14800000000000002,0.6705,1,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,2,2,1,4,4,0,1,2,0,6,2,0,2,0,9,12,4,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,6,2,0,0,3,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,4,0,5,3,7,7,1,6,0,0,0,0,7,1,0,2,4,31,11,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26902835370407063,0.20727894903357785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2472408698378365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23276270543962516,0.0,0.2382798307938775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26708618176073706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20431350947975105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21540770341736212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27478251660875946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1790682330902411,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2478207545893087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15605134683493396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27268143031953085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25465536882363865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19579011547537856,0.0,0.2242668924819889,0.0,0.0,0.16183177775586488,0.15608399190692862,0.0,0.0,0.142040521566837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2473796177121053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,lady_evelynn,2019/01/26,"I wrote a poem about my latest psychotic episode TW: psychosis, suicide Onset everything, for her, is painted slant. it is strange. trees, grass, leaves. the road & that endless procession of cars up on it. she doesn’t know what it would be for these things to make sense. only that their existence confuses her. why should there be cars at all? & for what matter is there a sun? her mind is like a child’s mind— except it wants no answers. indeed there cannot be an answer that would satisfy the deep disorientation & unease she feels at the facts of existence. it is not a search for answers, rather it is a complete bewilderment, followed by the inability to comprehend. stars!? but how? no explanation can explain the stars. no reason can be given for the grass. not to her, at least. she feels her mind expand: the grass the stars, the roads, the fact of coffee & the morning dew. she is so many things. she tunnels into herself, avoids the naked world. the brute fact of an orange is too much for her. she wants to weep. to smash her head upon the pavement for it is too much. it rushes. her head hurts. she babbles of green fields, as she hears the walls scream endlessly at her, the fan nearby is set to drown it out, but today it plays its chaos on her eardrums. this disorder is so noisy. she is everything. she steals her soul from god till she expands to fill in every fiber of the bed she can’t get out of. her mind blows on the heat of the world. for a moment, there is nothing. she is empty, but cycling rapidly from place to place. her voice is stolen from her when she tries to scream. she must get out. is there nothing that will let her out of this. she stares at the wall. if there is truely nothing there, why is she filled with dread? why does she know the evil that’s within it? a moment later she is bored of her own death, having witnessed it a thousand times, having been assured it will take place a little while on. she takes her pills. in a small moment of clarity she wonders how will she live? when she cannot fathom what an orange is. that’s how it always starts. a day. a few weeks. a couple months where everything is just so strange. what kind of thing’s a shirt? does wood exist? then, people follow her. the man in the red pickup plans to slaughter her, murder her family. she sees the future in great detail. watches as her neck is split open, blood pours out & down her throat. will she drown in her own blood, or will she die of blood loss first? she takes down his license plate. she checks her car for trackers. takes the long way home. pulls into the wrong driveway. waits a while till they must be gone & then drives on until another car can catch her eye. another person to avoid. it takes forever to get home this way. she glances in the rearview mirror & beholds what she has known is always there: the demon, which begins to scream. its contorted face & open mouth beholds her back. she pulls over and waits for it to stop. she’s late for work. she’s late for life. she texts a friend that she’s not safe. she needs to go home, but she cannot drive right now. it takes two hours in the starbucks parking lot. eventually the fear subsides. she drives home slow. hides beneath her desk the next three days. not returning calls or texts or anything. she quits her job before they can fire her. they hate her. she hates them. if she had returned, they would have killed her. something stops. she stares a while at the wall. until she cannot breathe. the shadow people climb on her. beat her with ethereal fists she thrashes violently around the bed till something snaps. she’s outside her body & she sees herself. the vision burns. loses consciousness. it will be weeks, at least, until she feels sane enough to leave the house. takes her seven pills at night. three more in the morning. she’s still alive, but back to being unemployed. calls her psychiatrist. collapse. 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If so what do they look like? I'm curious ",2.7680769230769218,5.287068820512825,3.643269230769232,86.30798076923078,78.74358974358974,5.951282051282053,17.442307692307693,7.1686216300943375,0.14596923076923085,160,3,31,2,4,51,29,39,0.056,0.7659999999999999,0.17800000000000002,0.644,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,1,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,1,1,1,0,1,4,7,4,0,1,1,0,1,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,7,2,2,2,7,1,1,3,0,5,0,1,0,0,1,3,14,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3213497591544934,0.4708951011941274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4021824779255204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3839209989491822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12005606625491592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2245280889323166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3859323374013481,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3662265983409824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13399270438943128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,awsomejwags,2019/01/26,"Wondering about impulse and feeling forced to do stuff Hello again, so I’ve been wondering if any of you ever feel strongly compelled or forced to do certain things (even if it means hurting you/your partner) like breaking up with your partner or blocking friends, I’ve been experiencing my partner (aches diagnosed schizophrenic) trying to “take breaks” with me for a few weeks now and any time I bring it up she just stays quiet and says “I don’t know” or pretends not to hear me, it’s really hard for me not to blame her and stay calm when she’s trying to leave, does anybody else experience this? 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(undiagnosed and just concerned) I can't be alone in a house. I used to be fine during the day but I'm not anymore. When I'm alone or everyone in the house is asleep/quiet, I feel like something (sometimes multiple) is always around the corner. The hair on my neck raises at every shadow, and my ears feel tucked back and tight (I can wiggle my ears and they tend to do their own thing sometimes). It doesn't happen as often anymore, but sometimes I can look at something harmless (my beautiful dogs) but it's like there's something terrifying to their faces. Like they want to kill me. I also have a lot of trouble sleeping at night because it feels like something is going to get me. I got a night shift job because I might as well work while I'm awake. It seems to be triggered by anxiety. I've been diagnosed with Major Depression and anxiety. Maybe it's just depression with psychotic tie-ins?",3.540553278688524,5.645819322404375,4.217073087431697,85.1997079918033,74.35519125683061,6.9793715846994555,26.73804644808743,7.8658589789855275,1.6654374316939888,748,28,141,11,16,238,109,183,0.14400000000000002,0.6990000000000001,0.157,-0.6286,1,2,4,0,0,1,25.0,0,0,4,1,9,12,1,0,7,0,15,7,6,2,0,27,31,14,1,1,7,0,6,5,0,1,1,2,0,0,6,8,0,1,5,0,0,1,3,4,1,0,2,10,18,8,19,24,3,15,0,2,2,0,4,8,0,5,11,86,24,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2370804227965295,0.0,0.09152911965830116,0.09523520596241056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17511456207567178,0.0,0.2270159637419327,0.08002915785526561,0.0,0.0,0.10188865650555776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0880083469530959,0.0,0.13954064526309742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07381360114115122,0.0,0.19715876518322345,0.11616877798045055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1001597919264328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09643274449277324,0.10936605694713823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2314862771038724,0.2452986779302125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059797685257811074,0.0,0.06504705701145083,0.0,0.09153961661535838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10121162285985773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2641299558949648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11357830326462798,0.0,0.12662680440618404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27958312337596514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09611284611697908,0.0,0.0,0.0973050138508536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11498480003685325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12141800124763286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21481534888590975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10419496134575053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11453702922967607,0.0,0.0,0.3524502681273169,0.3395949004614561,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07603839879965367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0988518289005426,0.0,0.0,0.06750815381044001,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10290822553195292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08332414570711742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,kaypuiu,2019/01/26,"Schizophrenia in film? I was wondering if there were any accurate depictions of schizophrenia in film? What are your thoughts/feelings about how it is depicted in films? What would you want to be depicted/discussed in films? I don’t have schizophrenia but I have 3 uncles and some cousins that do. 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Hi all, I'd thought I'd provide a list of things that were most helpful to me during my psychosis. Please feel free to add any of your own helpful tips/activities. Meditation: Would be very helpful to me. Especially in reducing the physical symptoms of my psychosis (rapid heart rate, sweating). It almost ended my psychosis. Sometimes 'the darkness' would overcome me though and I'd end up deeper in a delusion, so while I'd suggest it, I'd also add to be cautious and know when to quit a session that isn't going well. Walking (Outside): Seeing nature would help me a lot. I would always have to change locations though since they were pretty quickly engulfed in 'darkness' and trigger points for voices. Talking to strangers: Talking to strangers (as opposed to family) helped me compose myself somewhat. This would work best during moments of insight. Talking kind of forced my mind off my delusions, it distracted me. The more and longer I could talk, the better. Pretending that I don't exist: This one helped me to decentralize, something I consider quite useful in combating paranoia.By pretending that I didn't even exist, I could get a few moments of respite. No one was persecuting something that didn't exist. Recording supportive messages to myself: I would do this when my psychosis was in it's milder phases. I would record (on a tape player or phone) myself saying positive messages. Messages of hope that would potentially be sufficient to uplift me. Sometimes it worked, but mostly just made me feel better during the recording. Journaling: Once again, a distraction. Pretty much one of the only intellectual exercises (other than crosswords) that I could really engage in. I would just write and write about everything that was going on inside me, including various dialogues with voices. Watching TV: Would sometimes work, unless of course the TV was overcome with 'the darkness'. Sport is probably what I would recommend watching. I'd say to stay away from narrative content, lest your delusions morph and take on what you just watched (happened to me, not very fun). Crossword Puzzles: This was something I used to do with my mum. It would make me feel better until a clue stood out as meaning more than it should. Delusions of reference central. Pacing (Inside): This was a last resort tactic. Done in times of low insight, high voices. It would calm me to not have to sit still. Makes you look really crazy to other people though, but in those ultra-tense moments, who cares? Medication: Ultimately what ended my psychosis. Without it I probably wouldn't be alive. 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Every day I chill with my roommates, speaking when spoken to, never being confrontational or assertive, just chilling. Then when I'm by myself I can't stop myself from just wanting to scream and punch walls. Breaking the skin of my knuckles open is the only feeling I ever want to feel. And I just realized, my roommates have no idea. I want to tell them I'm only hanging on by a thread. I want to let them know I feel isolated and depressed. I want them to understand what goes on in my head, why I can't speak or date or party. They're good people. They would care. I think. There's just no way I could articulate it. And it makes me angry. So. Fucking. Angry. So that's my dilemma. As I sit here typing this out, my roommates are all around me playing ping pong or Call of Duty, and all I want to do is shout, ""All of you, shut up and help me, cuz I'm drowning,"" but instead all I can do is just look up and get ""excited"" about my roommate's CoD killstreak. I want to do something uncharacteristicly angry, just so they know somethings wrong. Just so they look at me and see someone other than the easygoing guy that doesn't let anything faze him. I just don't know what.... I am sorry for ranting here. This sub is such an amazing, positive place, and I hate to ruin that vibe, but I needed to vent and I can't think of anywhere else people might understand. So thank you for being the incredible human beings you are. I love you all. May your lives be happier than mine ha",2.297997738835498,4.442706413114756,3.6776257772752983,87.4281967213115,78.31147540983606,5.911814584511024,23.631995477670998,6.953978226594392,0.8361057094403619,1196,40,240,13,29,392,164,305,0.122,0.7170000000000001,0.161,0.8558,0,0,3,0,0,0,47.0,0,5,6,0,23,15,3,0,6,1,28,4,2,2,7,64,60,26,1,11,14,0,4,0,0,3,0,4,0,2,11,14,0,2,12,1,0,1,8,7,0,0,0,11,48,8,33,50,5,24,0,2,3,2,20,12,1,6,8,173,59,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0935167320475788,0.1011644447025659,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1160400078584186,0.0,0.11586441454909635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09073296714954852,0.0,0.0,0.07328894331366442,0.0,0.09787869269292217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09493234335439016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10279464974821048,0.09574731262869958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17238067623995132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1050591293893128,0.05937265080411861,0.0,0.0,0.09531654856195143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11252230246450924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11219680662894962,0.11662829165630274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07617106250124686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12828668082573122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18736210821968968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2324109254391385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10034694753100093,0.0,0.1908593761009496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10256529883323906,0.0,0.0758561460189596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12055497730939475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08426324612508307,0.08764682487511476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17285796591526695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15756850546900245,0.0,0.11873049509323293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09055703979301842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09628751861352942,0.262458821839693,0.0,0.12721162130284802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09500883435136333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09932710685831084,0.10462522132055097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14563292884765855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23660825339269076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5362265144996622,0.09020281267500613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10254318629583327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08072719528954411,0.12424842362488644,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,alliefw5,2019/01/27,"Opinions? Hey I know I’d probably need a doctor to determine this, but maybe you can help. I’m concerned I may have schizophrenia. Here a list of things that happen: -frequently hearing whispers/voices -hallucinations -scrambling up my words/ talking way too fast -seeing things happen that didn’t really ( for example I saw and heard a pencil roll off a desk, but then looked back a minute later and it had never fallen ) -agitation/compulsive behavior I may be overreacting, but I just heard these were some symptoms, so I thought I’d ask. Thanks. -Allie",2.7957040998217444,5.726362545454549,3.6064289958407616,79.5786631016043,95.26262626262628,6.369815805109923,25.015448603683897,7.5105763829236425,2.2303102792632203,448,19,70,10,17,142,78,99,0.0,0.887,0.113,0.8769,0,0,0,0,0,0,21.0,0,1,0,0,5,1,0,0,5,0,8,2,0,0,1,15,22,7,0,1,4,0,0,0,0,2,2,3,0,0,7,2,0,0,2,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,7,6,8,1,5,12,1,10,0,0,3,0,8,2,0,4,6,46,15,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21836253182818646,0.0,0.0,0.17960593933776495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2390754833763043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4131019210105705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2632577333235672,0.0,0.15656142934679226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12836755632679986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1961454635486576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2346590265033676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1731940427446133,0.18014862507571472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2518350129938806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1496351108411707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18613025894416568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2427754570773667,0.0,0.1877399729318157,0.0,0.21504589351634434,0.0,0.0,0.3103557449938211,0.0,0.0,0.18543367983619985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18540218318825127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,rocoonshcnoon,2019/01/27,"I am scared as fuck Well maybe scared isn’t the right word but very very disturbed. Lately I’ve seen family members walk into room, even bump in to me, family members around corners saying stuff or shouting stuff at me. Normally I would assume this is normal family activity but there’s only one problem with that. Those family members are either not home or on the complete other side of the house. And I hear weird sounds as well, completely unusual noises that I can’t describe. The past two nights have been weird, I’m laying in bed with my dog and I feel like crying for absolutely no reason, i feel this lingering anxious feeling and it feels like my face is rotting off. 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The other day I went out drinking with a few friends since one of them just turned 21. I don't really like drinking but I like hanging out so I went. I watched carefully to make sure I wouldn't drink a lot. All I ended up having was one mixed drink and one shot. I made sure to drink lots of water and pace out my drinks over a couple hours. We were having a good time, we were playing truth or dare at a table and that is the last thing I remember. The next thing I knew I woke up in a hospital. I nearly died of hypothermia and I had a ton of bruises everywhere. Neither of my friends who found me in the hospital knew what happened to me and the only other person with me that night told me later that I just slipped on ice and couldn't get up but that is all they remember. Now the two things that don't make sense to me is that first if this person was with me when I slipped on ice, how come I had gotten hypothermia? It would have taken me a few hours to get that cold. Did they just leave me there instead of calling an ambulance. (And I live on a college campus so it wouldn't take more than 15 minutes for an ambulance to arrive, I know from experience). Also it doesn't make sense I slipped on ice because I have bruises and cuts on opposite sides of my body. Like bruises on my knees and hands (which means I fell forward) and bruises on my behind and sides (which means I fell backward). And ever since that incident I've been feeling extra paranoid that usual. I'm just about to have a panic attack while writing this. I'm worried that my boyfriend is sick of me and thinks badly of me and won't tell me. I try to tell him how i'm feeling but then I go into a thought loop that I'm just seeking attention and over exaggerating my problems. I have this inner voice constantly shouting at me that I'm horrible and the worst person ever. I want to just go somewhere and die, or commit myself to a hospital but I know I'd hurt my boyfriend if I did that. I'm at such a loss.",3.74619252873563,4.344118699074077,4.860395913154534,86.74833333333332,71.5,7.810472541507026,27.16507024265645,7.873277556716777,1.4458886334610468,1626,53,351,20,29,536,196,432,0.158,0.7609999999999999,0.081,-0.99,0,0,6,0,0,0,33.0,2,0,3,2,19,21,3,2,24,0,28,11,3,6,8,80,67,34,2,8,15,0,3,3,2,4,1,3,0,3,29,28,7,0,14,7,0,10,8,10,0,5,20,8,56,11,53,42,11,56,0,2,1,0,17,29,0,6,22,252,85,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06663640456502322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1895925081539686,0.0,0.0,0.06957438982599841,0.05079523831174985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0925572799920999,0.0,0.0,0.08508596998659028,0.0,0.08495721674602633,0.0,0.0,0.07177865208851207,0.0,0.09004665856112451,0.0,0.0,0.09219950921256992,0.0,0.05373888666694848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17296010666845685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4897711933559705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07380280402161345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15074770580729074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08150959064240622,0.0,0.0,0.08426505832204689,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07087772575866289,0.0,0.0913635252678732,0.12875614387231507,0.0,0.08706961810115113,0.0,0.1420696065785678,0.06989055878092304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07368560598802128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16412020823440793,0.0,0.0892030530473092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0915884501723212,0.06792245604932234,0.0,0.0882310401076624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1221277830818333,0.0,0.07357908296840279,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14168291563115898,0.0,0.07884582429222711,0.16686383987518885,0.0,0.0,0.18153460671759145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0886189874272702,0.07819654853328338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16939317005247087,0.06337377931650326,0.0,0.1955320706853033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21827321920801251,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07973248534734294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10676255188979633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18878602096959785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13785756498955834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1570690285527518,0.0,0.0626513765979063,0.0,0.14566257601968866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16607585183184131,0.05339244301030153,0.0,0.06615216426926021,0.048588521860928886,0.0,0.0,0.07962231958110955,0.0,0.05657342129622325,0.09063562059175392,0.08139816683767874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09177268783869708,0.0,0.04914830018625997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15448953993025585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0846224009216761,0.0,0.059192961481770875,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,SlyToes,2019/01/27,"Don't be weak minded. If you let them tell you that you have a problem, and you believe it; you have been defeated already.",2.9063999999999983,4.410841439999999,3.916999999999998,89.24350000000004,74.6,6.6000000000000005,28.5,7.1686216300943375,1.4481999999999997,96,4,20,1,2,31,20,25,0.206,0.7090000000000001,0.085,-0.5258,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,5,1,1,0,3,0,0,1,0,6,1,0,0,0,4,6,2,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,1,0,6,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,0,0,7,0,0,1,0,17,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4420527338128704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4513192852295689,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4096227316703296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4044741170781826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3833033387329977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3501267486744433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Tiervexx,2019/01/27,"Anyone used vraylar? I might end up switching to it on a doctor's recommendation. I am eager to hear people's experience with it. I'm especially interested in how you'd compare it with other anti psychotics if you've been on more than one.",3.8862765957446825,5.951152893617022,6.566968085106383,68.90875,73.25531914893618,8.104255319148937,28.77127659574468,8.841846274778883,2.6481106382978723,194,8,33,4,4,70,38,47,0.053,0.8220000000000001,0.125,0.4927,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,1,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,4,1,0,2,0,6,7,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,4,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,3,2,9,4,1,5,0,0,0,0,2,4,0,2,1,24,7,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2577492405800405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37730048173769104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3264898911013657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3605832830519916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4154640542870455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39104994295856704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2497879693367297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25555624682996103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31837126007426225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,grapefully,2019/01/27,"Quitting meds Has anyone quit their meds cold turkey before? What happened? I know generally it’s a bad idea but I seriously don’t think I need them/I don’t want to be on them and I’ve had enough, but my psychiatrist won’t even think about letting me come off them just yet. For context, I’m not schizophrenic, I’m diagnosed with depression, anxiety and psychosis.",1.5570422535211286,4.2967106901408485,3.133929577464791,85.23976760563382,89.98591549295773,6.783661971830987,24.001408450704226,7.908726449838941,1.8328242253521123,293,12,56,7,10,96,55,71,0.175,0.8029999999999999,0.022,-0.8836,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,3,2,4,3,0,0,1,0,7,2,0,0,0,15,16,4,0,2,4,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,2,4,0,0,4,0,0,1,4,3,0,0,1,1,8,0,6,12,1,4,0,1,0,0,3,2,0,0,1,33,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1634036269104906,0.0,0.0,0.14935427981702207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17834730882909128,0.0,0.0,0.18175810293964606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18399772478611248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1839736052002966,0.21679978444696504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22070618462839373,0.0,0.14108096814857696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18888601912673375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24112871270905525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1173891258616324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2184207546330844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4745235090215131,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15838189854197404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4543803733756873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2737328648231879,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12598697730106906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,milaninovski,2019/01/27,Get interest back? Did interest come back for you? Can you think of things that might have helped you to get this quality back? Special thanks.,2.471538461538458,5.428191923076927,1.9219230769230795,92.86057692307695,91.30769230769228,7.215384615384615,21.884615384615387,8.07648339933343,1.6729538461538462,114,4,22,3,4,33,20,26,0.0,0.644,0.35600000000000004,0.903,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,3,0,0,3,4,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,0,3,9,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,3,4,3,7,0,4,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,1,3,16,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7143004626706454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2667342842131193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3235565392378996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20755048864407066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.328487533551605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2850822227826865,0.0,0.0,0.20571633382408794,0.19840989840796772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Jazzy_Jacqueline,2019/01/27,"Have you told your doctor/s about every delusion and hallucination you have had? And do you fear that what you have told might some day be used against you? I personally am very scared of it and my doctors have said me that I seem tense and anxious during meetings. And the reason is that I simply fear a lot the information would be used against me and I would be sent to a hospital against my will. I actually just realized this. Do you think this fear might be paranoia? Or is it relevant? Please tell about your thoughts. I'm very careful what I tell my doctor. But I also think that doctors are for my wellbeing and I try to be as honest as I can but I remember sometimes I have left some very bizarre things untold. How do you act in these kind of situations? I know I should tell everything in very detail so I get the help I need but it really scares me that they would send me to a mental hospital against my will as I told.... How could I get out of this fear? Because I don't know. 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I've been on Invega for 4 months, but 5 injections because my body metabolizes the medication quickly so I have to get them three weeks apart. I have episodes where I feel horribly depressed, guilty and ashamed. I relive just about every mistake I've ever made. The mean voice in my head beats up on me and even laughs at me. I have to tell him to shut up. My stomach becomes cold on the inside as if I'd swallowed ice cubes. I notice triangles wherever I look, like the corner of a table or grouped together in the square tiles on the bathroom floor or geese flying in a V. I take hot showers to calm myself because the water on my head is comforting. (I have to drag myself into the shower). When these episodes are over I'm left utterly exhausted and spent. I'm just wondering if anyone can relate so I don't feel so alone. Thanks for reading. Hugs. 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This seems a bit weird but sometimes I see flashing lights and large bursts of colors and I immediately get paranoid. My brain just goes ""hes here, hes here, hes here"". I'll spend a while locked up in my own head after that. But yeah this happens often and I was wondering if anyone else experienced the same thing.",0.9965217391304328,3.6010188695652205,2.6633188405797092,88.25758695652176,92.18840579710144,5.0788405797101435,18.49420289855073,6.742157984588678,0.2502742028985505,278,8,56,4,10,91,51,69,0.061,0.894,0.045,-0.0129,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,0,5,1,0,0,4,1,5,2,2,0,0,11,10,7,0,1,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,3,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,5,8,0,5,9,3,4,0,0,3,0,3,2,0,4,2,37,12,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2123518421306483,0.3111732289825579,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3315582148873987,0.0,0.0,0.3390260326667753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2536996809146592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15866902713895548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2685580497822157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3116805014321548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24200700507623585,0.2764741323720678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3003638699684237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20176263864944485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32934619105721674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,dibarrondo,2019/01/27,The difference between paranoia and intuition is being right. This is a phrase that stuck with me a while back. I think of it now and then when I think of my paranoia and don't know whether I was being paranoid or whether that was my gut telling me the right thing.,3.946132075471698,5.3746571509433965,3.603915094339623,92.82398584905664,71.83018867924528,6.809433962264151,30.23113207547169,7.1686216300943375,1.4966264150943402,211,9,45,2,4,63,36,53,0.157,0.843,0.0,-0.7184,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,4,0,7,1,1,0,0,10,11,9,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,4,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,0,7,0,4,6,0,7,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,5,38,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27621581959777297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3753054722542824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19741635444410324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6135389765132314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3139716272372774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23864791661797974,0.4603436976660933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,KittenBurglarr1975,2019/01/27,"Vent about hallucinations and delusions I've told my therapist these things but I wanted to vent to see if anyone has anything similar. I honestly usually hallucinate tall red men and I'll see roaches on the walls that aren't really there. I talk to serial killers in my head and sometimes they'll answer me. There's people in the woods that watch me. When I was younger I had a talking dog, a witch, and a monster and every time I'd talk to them I'd pass out soon after. I've had all this since the age of 8. 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I now live close enough to meet him. I don’t know what he will be like, so I have some questions. I would appreciate any advice the community can offer. Note: I understand that this illness is on a spectrum. So I will take responses into consideration but know that it’s not the same for everyone. 1. What should I know about his moods? 2, What medications might he be taking, and how might they affect his personality and communication? 3. How should I respond should any delusions be brought up? Do I just go along with it? 4. What topics should I avoid? Any other words of advice or ways to better understand him would be helpful. I really want to connect with him. Thank you in advance!",2.55414110429448,5.422949000000003,3.876843558282207,81.78360889570551,83.5398773006135,6.9409815950920235,23.48742331288344,8.07648339933343,1.7499499386503068,689,25,125,15,20,225,110,163,0.03,0.8490000000000001,0.121,0.9264,0,1,0,0,0,0,25.0,0,1,1,2,7,5,0,1,5,0,20,2,0,3,1,36,32,8,0,7,4,0,0,1,0,10,2,1,0,2,12,8,0,1,7,0,0,3,3,1,0,0,2,1,18,3,18,16,3,15,0,0,0,0,21,7,0,5,5,88,30,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4204665227338586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2926064678371396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13475467928644935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12684980038948532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14819875199006655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13705094135391707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08151304567952168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19227260543993704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2364716962398252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07007133897835384,0.0,0.25329788526206226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14448792572448124,0.0,0.304307421018978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11061998365193043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15050283500138592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25047039006305016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16067141232409934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18376641518133366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2156789750671611,0.0,0.0,0.13204859718021586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29862577634164394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08459714363897915,0.11384592285784448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20377329209403086,0.0,0.0,0.09236248533014528 schizophrenia,MercuryNocturna,2019/01/28,Hopefully I'll make it till my psychiatrist appointment tomorrow without totally losing it I am a demon. I must be. Why else would I suffer this way? Or a demon has switched places with me. That's possible too. I didn't always feel like this.,1.2682066869300923,3.9374998936170233,3.5987841945288745,81.22000000000003,92.61702127659576,7.792097264437691,23.7355623100304,8.418075326091056,2.4903945288753797,193,8,35,6,7,66,39,47,0.125,0.76,0.114,-0.1303,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,1,1,4,0,0,2,0,6,0,0,1,2,9,9,2,0,3,2,0,1,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,5,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,1,1,6,2,3,5,1,4,2,2,0,0,0,1,0,2,3,25,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2590254163062372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2600500790035049,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15740195206717494,0.22239181938425046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3091898020115231,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15208479719829945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3482635647820839,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20779426766588502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3252408350846068,0.0,0.0,0.35094245695582393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2470943804147537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28089861426842544,0.0,0.0,0.3000807920728701,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22113763098007927,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,tyhfxe,2019/01/28,"Thoughts of self harm.... Everyday, throughout the day I am thinking of harming myself. Cutting to be precise. Anyone feel this way? Not suicidal, just wanna cut. Any coping strategies? Don't want another hospital admission if I have to go to the hospital for stitches. Tnx",3.1534574468085097,6.185357191489363,4.275718085106384,74.87187500000002,94.10638297872343,7.456382978723402,35.662234042553195,8.07648339933343,4.353682978723404,216,14,30,6,8,70,41,47,0.16699999999999998,0.7240000000000001,0.108,-0.2714,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,0,1,4,2,0,2,0,4,0,0,0,1,9,9,1,1,3,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,3,0,0,1,2,4,0,0,1,1,3,0,7,7,0,4,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,2,20,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2508511244535993,0.38680295891679295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2579295500234829,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2378971544644001,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18651686738349385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2096430675386827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3848224048234696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.403494969022291,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23636347996516185,0.0,0.2928496032836067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21757504641912456,0.2927998616138914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,concernedsis3,2019/01/28,"How do I help my brother? About 3 years ago, I visited my brother in prison and that was the first time he mentioned that he is being watched and part of a reality show (like Truman show). He is out of prison and some days he seems fine (running errands with me, job searching) but sometimes he talks nonstop about how he needs closure to all the voyeurism by suing and getting a settlement. In one conversation he goes from saying “it’s not paranoia” to “I need to go on disability”. I don’t know if he has been officially diagnosed with schizophrenia but I don’t know how to convince him to get help. I’ve done everything from flat out telling him he needs help to listening to him vent. I’m at a loss. What can I do to help him get past the denial? Please help. 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I was diagnosed with psychotic disorder nos because I was under 18, but now I’m 18 (adult) and new things are popping up. When I look back, I haven’t been able to cry or feel much at all, even when my mom was beating me and yelling at me to move (don’t worry the situation is better now) but just today, my mom said “that’s not good that you aren’t feeling any emotion” and now I’m worried that it’s another new illness. I also was worried because I didn’t even know this was happening to me, which has only happened once during my first psychotic break. And, kinda important point, my bio mom used heavy drugs and tried to abort me, causing me to be born dead for a few minutes. My therapist said that that could have been the start of my brain issues. At the moment I think I’ve been diagnosed with 7-10 disorders and I’m worried about a new, possibly more serious one now. Thank you for any help. -Ruben",3.877681159420291,5.03489773429952,4.955285024154591,84.11495652173916,71.65700483091787,8.225314009661835,28.775845410628023,8.648137234880735,2.1084952657004834,809,31,163,14,15,266,122,207,0.17,0.765,0.065,-0.9749,1,0,1,0,1,0,26.0,0,2,0,3,14,4,0,0,5,0,19,5,1,3,1,30,35,15,1,1,6,3,2,0,0,0,4,3,0,1,10,11,0,0,6,0,0,1,5,1,0,2,12,6,22,3,17,21,4,25,0,0,1,0,11,7,0,4,16,104,32,0,0.10135308894654904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08105202861269277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13784715205833264,0.10627755089907692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07793426924707865,0.0,0.12356780459291168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08963857080181277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11314356674335214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10411754134137492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0809221943479118,0.0,0.11133160903337284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2057425036299709,0.0,0.0,0.2323188415051541,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1175374057018899,0.0,0.0,0.2280171666240928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13388551873089627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10249433418191492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08621088568168511,0.0,0.11112843066048396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08501016234363044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17925240366343365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06793483908944895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1094787283396574,0.10578629250100384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055701007072758914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08511106828737218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3561105384501449,0.0,0.10772229367444784,0.07450618221159344,0.0,0.0,0.2936623346269489,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10793773192108858,0.06867947610874035,0.07708359128895494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09581142926796746,0.11426037920578533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11353865536421337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19281999442399889,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1139251185038815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07173823801785333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09331230708503332,0.0,0.1176787480555915,0.06733448871988491,0.06494296693858577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19214175483139675,0.0,0.0,0.06881209440321809,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08753652711153477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4117159264849398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,StockLingonbery,2019/01/28,"if your psychosis was triggered by stimulants, what was it like? I was diagnosed with ADD and want to treat it but I have a family history of psychosis so people are hesitant. I have anxiety that can get bad sometimes but that’s about it. If you had your psychosis triggered by stimulants, what happened? Did you become psychotic immediately after you took them or did it take a while? I’d hope that if I don’t have a bad reaction initially, that means everything will be ok. 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I really need some assurance here or advice at the moment because I have no family history of shizophrenia (although my dad has an undiagnosed hoarding problem, and my sister is consrantly in and out of doctors' offices for depression and anxiety). But a lot of time when I smoke cannabis, I get paranoid to the point where I think I am hallucinating but I am not sure if I am or not or just imagining it. I know this is very concerning, but I've asked on other places why this is happening but I keep getting told that I am just smoking strong weed. I'll give you a couple examples of what I've experienced - Last year when I first started using it, I went out of my house and halfway to my destination, I convinced myself that I had killed my mother in an argument before I went outside (when I didn't argue with her at all). I knew this was just delusion but it was so vivid in my head, that I went home to check on my mother to see if she was okay. I kept thinking ""Did this really happen?"" I was relieved to see if she was fine, but this was scary for me. Second time is imagining stuff in my head, and it looks like they appear in front of me but at the same time, they don't. It's really confusing and I can't really explain it well. There was one after I smoked in my bedroom (it was really dark and the only light was coming from my laptop) and I ""saw"" my older brother in my corner of my eye. He had long, sharp razor teeth that covered the whole of his face, and said something in a demonic voice (I could best describe it as someone who is trying to talk while choking) and I can't remember what he said but I knew it wasn't real and there was no one there. After it was over, I kept questioning whether it really was a hallucination or if I was just being paranoid. More recently, I was walking in the street (night again) and I walked past a bunch of parked cars in the housing estate I was in. In a jeep, I swear I could have seen two men sat in the front seats staring. As out of the ordinary this was, they were wearing all black and their faces were pure white and looked like potato faces. You know, like those children's dinners where they have smiley potatoes. It looked like them but I could barely see inside because the windows were all condensated. I imagine stuff like this unprovoked and get paranoid that they become a reality. I keep thinking that there's nothing wrong with me sometimes but other times, I consider that I might be schizophrenic in the future. I'm 21. So far, I plan to stop weed to see what happens or if this continues without it. But I don't want to go to the doctors only for them to laugh when I suggest schizophrenia when it might just be me over-thinking. But this sound like the symptoms to you? 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I strongly feel that I experience at least mild psychotic symptoms coupled with major depression. This all started happening to me around the age of 18/19, and although things have evolved and changed over the years (i.e. some things getting better and new things that are equally bad taking their place), there hasn’t been a steep drop-off - yet. I’ve read that it’s not uncommon for women to experience a prodrome that can potentially last for many years, and that their symptoms may only become severe in their mid to late twenties. I get that this is a niche group, but if there are any women here who fit this description, I would really appreciate hearing your story. Thank you. 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Last year, he tried to commit suicide, but lived and is now disabled. Since then, I have spent all of my time trying to understand how people can be understanding towards schizophrenia. I still cannot fathom how somebody could do the things he did to himself and to his family - it seems beyond selfish. I understand that it is an illness, but there are many aspects of his outbursts that seem planned to hurt our family in the greatest possible way - when we finally have something to celebrate or be joyful about, that is when he does the craziest things. Other than that, he is just incredibly lazy. For example, I have a younger sibling that is 16 years younger than him. My younger sibling does not cook or wash dishes for themself because they are only 12. Meanwhile, his 28 year old ass refuses to wash his dishes ""because if my younger sibling doesn't have to then why should he?"" It seems trivial, but imagine hundreds of more examples just like that and then trying to live with someone like that. He expects me and my parents to support and serve him for the rest of his adult life. No matter how hard I try, I just can't understand him. He had everything afforded to him - incredible intelligence, financial support to do whatever he wanted, a family who loved him and tried to help him. He just threw it all away when he purposely disabled himself. When I hear about people supporting their loved ones with schizophrenia, I wonder whether I am just a terrible person or whether they are just faking it. Either way, I just avoid my family completely because I can't deal with it. I suppose I just want to hear whether people agree or disagree with me and what their reasoning is for it. 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Hello guys,firstly i have to say sorry if this isn't the totally right place to post this but i ll give it a try. So lately [this](https://www.reddit.com/r/Drugs/comments/ak2zqe/first_minor_experience_of_a_bad_trip_or_what/) happened to me and i am here mostly to ask some of you guys if this is really the thing getting exposed or i m just overthinking about it lately.All my friends found that extremely weird.Something else maybe to be pointed out is that since i have been talking to them about me in third person like ""T would like to say that ...."" (T is me).Thanks for the help ! (i saw the rule about no self diagnosing and helping somebody with the symptoms but i am just asking about your opinion as you are the only people i can ask)",6.758697042366109,7.833328978417271,5.629016786570748,82.2135651478817,64.97122302158273,8.19216626698641,29.83293365307754,8.167268648758528,1.9366636290967223,604,20,111,7,9,179,94,139,0.039,0.8220000000000001,0.139,0.9407,0,0,3,0,0,0,32.0,0,3,1,0,8,3,0,0,7,0,13,2,0,0,1,18,22,10,0,3,8,0,0,2,1,1,2,2,0,3,9,4,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,3,3,15,3,17,17,3,7,0,0,1,0,19,5,0,7,3,78,24,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.44815692818722497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16218735455663524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13348722481704045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13592053402678805,0.0,0.17520566598402015,0.12345630201189152,0.0,0.1669713420280066,0.15328878410459082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15822099566149975,0.14130513936185704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3213192696623737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1802543789642063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15613436913887485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16053436092216866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12153039386908004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11078090864725876,0.13952579225203274,0.16695052214168232,0.0,0.15105680134241511,0.0,0.15303829987238016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10236800709671602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13646304151642774,0.0,0.25414890436136045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16669979463387252,0.0,0.0,0.1321830917432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12301708254597887,0.0,0.17887608893000315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16608695361200235,0.0,0.12843621241956255,0.0,0.14711667221583585,0.0,0.0,0.10615990768288557,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10848950854444278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11351293864343615,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,HallOfTwoTruths,2019/01/28,"My thoughts on how I look at it. If you are hearing voices like actually HEARING them audibly as if someone is talking to you then you are really rare and are some sort of a medium for entities who talk because you are the only person that can hear them. They may not be nice but this is ok after you work with them for a bit and understand them they can become your best ally in life. Try and develop a mutual understanding and please don’t believe that you’re crazy. Labels from doctors are subjective diagnosis and mean nothing unless you accept it. Don’t think that your broken or diseased because you aren’t. You are a rare soul who is able to tap into the spiritual realms which most people can’t do. Use your gift whether it’s hearing voices, reading symbols and signs, connecting synchronicities, or even being hyper sensitive to your environment. Your mind is amazing not broken but only if you choose to believe that you have a gift not a curse. 🕉🙏🕉 ",5.907576576576574,6.784697410810814,6.623581081081082,75.03356981981983,66.78378378378378,9.409909909909912,31.632882882882882,9.516144504307137,2.953261261261261,771,30,137,15,12,254,115,185,0.078,0.774,0.14800000000000002,0.9445,1,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,15,6,2,2,6,0,0,8,1,21,2,0,2,0,35,32,18,0,3,12,0,0,1,0,1,2,7,0,1,11,8,0,0,7,1,0,0,7,0,0,0,1,8,23,6,16,28,4,6,1,0,1,0,30,4,0,9,3,102,34,3,0.13484655401867482,0.0,0.1315907848729558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1644024154586407,0.1489274245579347,0.0,0.3038517787737207,0.14151313907134214,0.0,0.1472175120371011,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13802116197585299,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08906487716119492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6079274669123067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09524610898976732,0.06587921493098525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1132371434032256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14688742894825038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13615657912737025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12938890541259185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20511376149929245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09348562179197333,0.1177428096950506,0.0,0.1480210226523246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13488304541127266,0.0,0.08638615544771883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11425504762641565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2167691044470572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08640422694995915,0.0,0.10705310138457848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09155195861840226,0.0,0.0,0.28076003670517663,0.0,0.11646412708721575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09816989734030243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,viiant,2019/01/28,"Does anyone name their voices? I’ve named what I called The Debate, in which left side voice is angry and yells, his name I named him Bob. The right side soothes me and tells me better things but sometimes agrees with Bob his name is Parking . And I’ve named the whispering Quiet it helps me differentiate them I think When I hear the voices that yell my name from the other room that sound like my mom I call it Imposter Mom. Idk if anyone does this bc I haven’t seen anyone write about naming their voices . Is it bad to name them? ",1.3536211901306243,3.9235604433962266,1.7277358490566073,97.19846879535558,86.07547169811322,4.016255442670537,13.81422351233672,5.369823440869387,-1.1579976777939045,421,6,89,2,13,127,67,106,0.078,0.821,0.102,0.3939,1,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,4,1,2,3,0,0,5,0,4,0,0,0,0,17,7,6,0,1,2,2,0,1,0,0,0,10,1,0,10,4,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,11,18,2,5,6,0,7,0,0,1,0,24,6,0,1,2,48,28,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41901195621472204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16678387087325075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1766636640551664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40793652569169664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3496071638044257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2251340692371569,0.0,0.13388898867068375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2170302144490068,0.0,0.0,0.0975883245472864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4678922772382306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17058639500915895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1975589999893688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17459131392090646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13270579158202706,0.12799247457158336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,PerfectCaterpillar,2019/01/28,"Minor victories. Hey, I just wanted to share some minor victories I achieved over the weekend. On Friday, my boiler pressure dropped and I couldn't work out how to top it up. I managed to call the maintenance team for my apartment building, who sent someone out to fix it. That's a HUGE deal for me - I don't like making phone calls, especially not ones asking for help, and letting strangers into my home is also a big deal. On Saturday it was my boyfriends birthday, so we went for a meal out with his friends, and then to a bar. I really struggle in big groups of people, especially ones I don't know well. I made it through the meal and a few hours in the bar - I did have to come home early, but he's a sweetheart and purposefully picked a bar a few minutes walk from my apartment so I could do that easily if I had to. Then on Sunday, I had a video call with my Step-Father. He lives a few thousand miles away, and although we've emailed and talked on messenger, we haven't spoken 'properly' for about 7 or 8 years. It was great to have a catch up with him, and I enjoyed it so much we're making it a monthly thing, and I'm also arranging a video call with one of my friends in Australia too. I've struggled with webcams in the past, as I'm never convinced they're properly off. All in all, I had a wonderful weekend, and I'm looking forward to the week ahead. I hope everyone else did too! Please feel free to share your little victories :) ",4.080924657534247,4.906751407534248,5.015643835616442,85.10709589041099,70.88356164383559,8.168767123287669,30.01095890410959,8.395991825355821,2.059784383561644,1129,45,235,17,20,369,157,292,0.042,0.77,0.188,0.9931,0,0,0,0,0,0,36.0,2,1,0,5,11,15,0,3,20,0,17,5,0,5,3,43,33,23,0,5,5,0,1,1,3,0,0,0,2,0,11,22,5,0,3,8,1,6,6,3,1,4,10,2,28,13,45,20,7,47,0,0,1,0,28,27,0,5,16,160,39,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.198151358022784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11582146740931967,0.0,0.11639977973890545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5060267165248077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10672122454104567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09891697332367147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2554525967450774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1034951282885116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1183832685519943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06264306969056857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19143593452120172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13659039042976268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0830416021229946,0.0,0.24854577737671754,0.12305183042936432,0.12200779121004597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06808731615741101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12668705782486614,0.0,0.06052694026121841,0.12417144347393315,0.10939812334887662,0.0,0.10403733288713547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11722876751765195,0.16539656109397474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09888870511102248,0.0,0.09107422379807198,0.0,0.09555246467126444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2518554752824981,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11826808677280433,0.08589049902026517,0.0,0.0,0.13599523923998466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07936781996655479,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10497253875097597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2590357837499495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0995789844269523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0823077510210867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07307418887611067,0.0,0.09937797855993663,0.0,0.11139299010520977,0.11484830378124647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1343546281647285,0.09019420644267176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07978181541075352 schizophrenia,ImpressiveStoreBore,2019/01/28,"Do you guys have to remind yourself time exists, and, do you experience the collapse of willed action like this? Hey, I've been what I would consider ""depressed"" for long time but none of the treatment or the way people described depression ever made proper sense to me. Doctors have never really cared when I describe these experience but the other day someone said I wasn't making any sense when I described how I have to deal with time. I looked up some papers about how schizophrenics and the experience of time. I read things about the negative symptoms of schizophrenia that made sense, so I was just wondering if I was reading it right and if people could relate to this. **Time** I forget that time exists and have no sense of identity. I put it down to depression and losing the want for things but now I have to actively create a ""person"" that is me, I have to write down who I am and what my identity is. I keep referencing it to remind myself of what my intentions are, that there are parts of me that stay static in time. I feel like I get lost away from who I am and end up confused unless I remind myself I'm a person and look at the text to remind myself what my core drives are. Not the same as reminding myself of goals, but, in a much simpler sense. Reminding myself that I've chosen to exist, and that existence requires material action, and that positive and negative emotional states exist. &#x200B; **Will** I had this for a long time, but the inability to initiate action. Where you look down at your hands and you just can't move them. Like it's stuck at the millisecond before they move. I always thought this is what people called procrastination but I don't think that's what it is. This morning I had it in bed, and it isn't like being tired and having to get up despite not wanting to. I couldn't create any positive thought to move my arms and legs. I have been deal with this more recently by imagining that I'm a puppet and imagine pulling a human soul in to the body, since a large part of why I'm around is to help my mother. Not ""you've got to do this"" but ""you have to bring in the human soul, you have to bring it in to this body. Get this body taking action and moving. Initiate action"". I have to talk to myself in my head to kind of get it working - without the imagery and words it just doesn't move. I feel like I'm whispering to a brain and waiting to see the response, and over years I've found certain concepts or words that allow me to ""boot up"" and start forcing my body to move. My mind still reacts to the environment but only really with avoidance and aversion. If I get shouted at it works after a while but abstract planning and will fails often. Apparently external stimuli and internal goals are different types of action according to one paper I read. \-------------------------- I have been very dysfunctional for about a decade. ( NEET, welfare ) It used to be worse and it's taken me many years by myself to try and get something working in my head since none of the advice ever worked, it always felt like there was something more simply wrong than what I kept being asked to do in therapy. &#x200B; Thank you if you read all of this, I was just wondering if this is relatable to your guys and if so I might look down this road in the future.",4.28737676056338,5.772130657277,5.021280320813773,82.77351672535211,71.06572769953051,7.8915101721439775,26.14505086071988,8.408885092690799,1.72368255086072,2586,82,495,41,48,835,260,639,0.104,0.8190000000000001,0.077,-0.9718,2,1,2,0,0,0,103.0,0,10,2,11,22,19,0,2,28,0,52,14,10,9,5,102,97,53,0,11,26,1,4,6,0,5,4,3,1,6,50,31,0,5,11,4,0,17,16,9,0,1,22,12,66,10,89,65,10,74,2,6,5,0,30,28,0,14,32,366,116,17,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058860882459366916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10024058437093483,0.13052905627542033,0.14638408089564342,0.08192364423321301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05362186370929775,0.05631153416868965,0.0,0.0565927053128313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051255494139250624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.267629740212078,0.0,0.06724210961744617,0.061506604464682466,0.0,0.0614135318389351,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04809269514341415,0.0,0.0,0.0388465506959293,0.12419914849855745,0.15564078669304424,0.0,0.0,0.06293268790972074,0.0,0.061653009508213515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06775619575249778,0.05335027474044506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10897189650078187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1767639771578363,0.0,0.0,0.06091318713560375,0.0860637008224581,0.05783498479016151,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06604449842947947,0.0,0.0,0.18882160815522725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04817538099427554,0.0,0.0,0.11928411379606488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1236368445105274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04037420799415176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05353957886601456,0.0,0.06272541678417347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17656648327207675,0.0,0.0,0.10661204599532116,0.20232870319243976,0.06738748603648205,0.06575354825526081,0.0,0.0,0.1139915059838458,0.040207287602875286,0.06106877099506704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06389974839250898,0.0608201144474802,0.0,0.0,0.3841212269327126,0.044279608780706456,0.0,0.046456896114281616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.040816751618306536,0.04581138322177627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13045713196771333,0.0,0.12527796129328658,0.10518964572871417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060552747817902874,0.0,0.0,0.24100494626158486,0.0,0.0771760849851127,0.0,0.05947473263768225,0.0,0.0,0.051440306342237334,0.05729721792713281,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04799944545710064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09965392324508206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05103686591846818,0.092743593300779,0.0,0.0,0.042634597824735485,0.06420242740794366,0.04810369780702893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06260716219066438,0.04528917564414675,0.048414560007470006,0.0,0.05545623637534188,0.06888389899851165,0.0,0.08003483011645861,0.038596114895972616,0.0,0.09563962196901177,0.2809878052604655,0.06923119817152901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.040895567711445785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052023645011263664,0.0,0.04970013062522105,0.07105625193305531,0.04781168859944144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054352660917960205,0.0,0.0,0.058064328946613064,0.13064443757877858,0.17540700360719744,0.0,0.06138454593737482,0.042789170406428434,0.06585744682627383,0.14638408089564342,0.07757864798354704 schizophrenia,C0mput3r_V1ru5,2019/01/28,"Interesting title that is interesting and catches your attention Okay so I’m going to start off by saying that I am new to this subreddit and new-ish to Reddit. I have no idea what I’m doing, so tell me if I’m doing something wrong. Anyhooo, my dad was diagnosed with Paranoid Schizophrenia when I was very young, and ever since I was around 15, I’ve experienced visual/auditory hallucinations and paranoid thoughts. More recently however, I’ve had this horrible, bone-chilling premonition of death. Like maybe an hour before I usually go to bed I just get this overwhelming sense that if I let myself go to sleep, I’m never going to wake up. I drink a lot of coffee and pop and monster to keep myself awake, but sometimes I do fall asleep. I don’t die (obviously), but still I can’t force myself to go to sleep when I feel this way. It’s not every night, just some of them, but it’s really interfering with my life. Does anyone else get this? Or know someone who does? Or has ever heard of it? How do I make it stop? ",4.06313432835821,5.452088049751244,5.604159203980104,78.75041791044778,71.48756218905474,8.743084577114429,26.832835820895525,9.21078282632365,2.20637552238806,802,27,156,17,15,272,126,201,0.11,0.8540000000000001,0.036000000000000004,-0.9309,1,0,2,0,0,0,28.0,0,1,1,0,11,6,0,1,2,1,15,7,4,2,4,34,33,18,2,2,10,1,1,1,0,0,2,2,1,0,14,9,1,2,5,1,0,7,5,2,0,0,6,4,21,4,19,26,3,25,0,1,0,0,7,3,0,6,15,100,35,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0972082541733209,0.14244569781626468,0.0,0.12376012299020801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11829850400178525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1411056219953052,0.14428413308730298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2433202790697865,0.0,0.0,0.13618980971135816,0.0,0.0,0.11613604487061438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25150888798880955,0.11713304236235485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07029430730436098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.145267768480837,0.0,0.3950504429042651,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13690984830739444,0.0,0.0,0.1569402712946969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1235702082498296,0.0,0.0,0.07640351517158847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14216064152372254,0.0981961978502646,0.06791971338459751,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11819255346731017,0.0,0.0,0.09279906580292337,0.0,0.1396674907946126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10722326266048587,0.26853894651834315,0.0,0.1304638558898579,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08906182207169483,0.0,0.137268638515692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11055682894443006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11500142800080998,0.0,0.2782472025946195,0.0,0.11779390655549254,0.10702685173051923,0.1374975000141935,0.0,0.09840133679487174,0.0,0.11102410742671416,0.11622962058509465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1215124048492335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11036889207908612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15311441419587118,0.11470870002118608,0.0,0.110350145483854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15200004541482345,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Brvisatha123,2019/01/29,"for the first time a voices in my head said something after a subliminal video there is lots of subliminal videos on youtube that effects your sub conscious so i've searched for it and got bit deeper to point where there was satan affirmations and things like that and there was hypno sissy(calling yourself slut and other disqusting things) videos on adult sites,i was curious so watched some of those and after being disqusted i closed all the tabs and deleted my history but seconds later a girl voice in my head said:maybe this girl is sick of called various things. i freaked out and had an anxiety attack,it was just terrible any ideas what that really was,what should i do ? should i see a therapist ?",5.721755725190839,7.659362587786263,5.46251145038168,79.23162977099237,68.16030534351145,9.209465648854962,29.893893129770994,9.642632912329526,2.8676100763358785,573,22,102,13,10,177,88,131,0.124,0.85,0.026,-0.9301,0,0,1,0,0,0,9.0,0,1,0,2,7,4,0,0,7,0,11,4,2,1,1,19,14,10,0,2,2,0,0,1,0,2,1,3,0,3,11,9,0,0,3,3,0,0,0,3,0,2,7,5,8,1,13,4,5,13,1,0,2,1,6,8,0,2,6,71,19,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1354410096122353,0.0,0.15236290718867707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22658225220061154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2174397753750125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20337270599931886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1694121238188701,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15929277320096255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4088074743869346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2248363293376586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09730338122318996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16932543608730802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2000909371380896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.188278053172305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1275920641243352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3789085857524371,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15871103914836585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.153329188774436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2312492961741929,0.3969549315064112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.116136410890321,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Naeemxsaleem,2019/01/29,"Can anyone offer me advice on how to convince a friend who might be suffering from schizophrenia to seek treatment? I came into contact with one of my old friends from college about a week ago, he sent me a Facebook request and i was pretty glad to get in touch with him after such a long time. I checked his Facebook out of curiosity and some of the thing he had posted really disturbed me. Basically it was posts after posts about how the government had invented some sort of device that spied on his thoughts and he kept hearing their voices,they were stealing his thoughts and then using it to make money off of him and now he needs the government to compensate him for all the harm that they have done to his psyche and how he is numb and has lost all sense of self because of them. He even said that they set his house on fire and he recorded a video but i checked it out and there was nothing in that video. He has made a suicide attempt and when i confronted him that he might be suffering from a mental illness he said that he has had all the tests(CT, MRI) but they found nothing. He seems pretty convinced and i don't know how to persuade him to seek treatment. Do you think its ok for me to tell him that he might have possible schizophrenia and maybe rationalize that the stuff that he is seeing is not real and he needs to go to a psychiatrist or should i contact his family because he has made a post that he might harm someone. He even said that he has an increased sex drive and he is having problems because of that. Whats the best way to approach this situation, he has been going through this for two years now and i want to help him as much as i can!",7.785,6.292706987951809,7.2880421686747,79.76893072289158,63.45783132530121,10.107228915662652,35.50903614457832,8.660442795831766,2.743255421686748,1328,49,268,15,16,416,166,332,0.107,0.7979999999999999,0.094,-0.6745,0,0,0,0,0,1,16.0,0,1,5,3,13,17,1,1,17,1,33,4,0,8,3,56,58,26,1,5,4,0,2,0,2,5,3,4,0,1,22,21,0,1,6,2,3,7,2,10,0,2,21,7,33,7,45,30,8,34,0,3,1,1,55,9,0,9,12,190,55,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09757601157217537,0.08851439959706428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06982012291677678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18260991241046975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10479043899144944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11420618549447792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10218514137570447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1319050321078093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09413330856076199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10948457572789708,0.15429364993184486,0.0,0.05216950729870007,0.0,0.11349847074806532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11254252882586466,0.0,0.06692992054909025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11521791857376072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054877056129850735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08836750146376109,0.0,0.0,0.10900225612308848,0.0,0.0,0.18896822545410866,0.06665321001825393,0.0,0.10031659819104123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10062917947222512,0.4237165552460602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07340405781004462,0.14808070632513307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19162489487245649,0.0,0.104779802260518,0.0,0.06766354260821462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11257019527319187,0.3825294858483497,0.20317449591670625,0.0,0.09554663422181038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11365552463803573,0.06396892339153304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2849515892003922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07957057811039872,0.09090318083348976,0.10416932687029494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11223989387787818,0.0,0.0,0.08460583007578606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11430875087359,0.1092238881930066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08727665273526833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06633845079549841,0.06398230533377124,0.0,0.15854558188876908,0.058225573997855065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09754268714044001,0.0,0.0,0.08624165278442894,0.0,0.0,0.0588963788105071,0.07925932614559242,0.08009672307976773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06430259568926723 schizophrenia,erk365,2019/01/29,New to the group! I recently started taking ability and some of my symptoms have greatly increased. I can't even look in the mirror bc then my face becomes all evil looking and distorted. Does anyone else have this issue?,3.1182926829268283,6.11814912195122,4.0128780487804905,80.89736585365854,82.17073170731706,6.206829268292682,30.151219512195123,7.554174236665415,2.5257960975609763,178,9,28,3,5,57,36,41,0.16,0.738,0.102,-0.5717,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,2,0,3,2,1,0,1,4,7,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,2,4,1,3,7,3,6,0,0,2,0,1,1,0,1,4,19,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18796361615428814,0.2754355450045154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2968880770873419,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2352442183360384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22456273024732995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17755158389998932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2963725105489929,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28057588253757004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4514784011022644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25962585119496945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26542509069221165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19027058201664887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2794045633407438,0.20211748787428613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,rutherfordium_fire,2019/01/29,"Delusion. Trigger warning: Aliens, higher civilizations, suicide, abuse. Direct me to a different sub if I am wrong. So my problem is, I think aliens implanted a recording instrument inside my head, so they can collect data about an underdeveloped civilization like Earth. Here are the reasons why I think this: 1. I persistently think that hypergiant stars are populated and always try to keep my fictional universe as close as possible to real one. I spend way too much time in it. I think that my fictional universe, which is actually an edit of our real universe, may be a reality. 2. I don't feel a sense of responsibility for person, or a ""sense of self"" in general. I simply do not believe that a person called ""me"" exists, and I have never collected any evidence for this. My feelings, emotions, etc. were never really mine. Even as I am typing this, I visualize my fingers as in a movie and not actually being mine. I think there is a nanometer-sized instrument inside my head that is manipulating the body. 3. I always wanted to leave Earth since childhood and objectively insisted that aliens would come one day and take me away. 4. I remember a moment from 2001, while my birth year is 2002. I once told my grandparents about a memory I had of setting up a large, old, blocky TV. I asked them, what year that was, and they answered, 2001. This was kinda a shock to me since to me memory was crystal clear of them being in the room. Except for some reason there was no ""me"" in the room. I have no idea what entity was observing that TV being set up. 5. I acted like a ""boy"" in childhood and up to a large age, but now I am a very dysphoric trans girl pursuing medical transition. I write this on a throwaway account. People already conflate being trans with schizophrenia so I better hide. I think aliens at the control center changed my brain gender, just so they can see what a terrestrial female would observe. I also have an intense fear of detransitioning, because they might switch me back to male. 6. Can also explain why I had suicidal thoughts. Aliens simply needed a way to extract back the instrument, after witnessing a lot of abuse on this planet and realizing that my ""assigned person"" is socially introverted and is not a good data collector. I have yet to commit suicide, but maybe because they are arguing up there over whether to continue the experiment. 7. I always managed to get away from bad situations, and live life on ""easy"" mode, except for stepdad. This may be the need of aliens keeping me in good life to research life on Earth from a neutral standpoint. *Personally, I think I will be committing suicide voluntarily soon, in order to help them retrieve the instrument.* I wish this saying wasn't true, but I feel like it becomes more convincing day by day, and it is actually scary. Problem is, I have never observed anything in my life that would say that I am a real person, with real and valid observations. Honestly at this point I just accept this alien theory of mine because it costs less energy.",5.2918246869409655,7.16769217173524,6.388407871198571,72.41531305903402,69.14311270125224,9.350268336314848,31.4257602862254,9.763852164103024,3.3386715563506275,2400,103,403,58,43,801,276,559,0.131,0.8,0.069,-0.9898,2,0,0,0,2,4,89.0,1,0,8,3,21,17,1,1,34,0,49,10,5,5,7,81,73,29,4,10,13,0,4,3,0,7,5,2,2,9,28,16,0,3,19,2,3,2,10,7,0,2,11,7,66,10,64,48,6,57,0,0,1,0,28,27,0,8,26,295,94,5,0.0,0.1604461817803612,0.19822017415125426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07471763172016545,0.10829237274428853,0.1690158245970593,0.0,0.0,0.04604386660009481,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055718041716360786,0.0,0.0632979841553159,0.0,0.12722807918772122,0.1041267822572022,0.05653348050269937,0.12382278688648506,0.07477833664485463,0.0,0.07628390362192898,0.0,0.05988236005739564,0.0,0.07520849549529167,0.0,0.07558469240750515,0.06913759556239324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07162624925782199,0.05832457946817081,0.0,0.0,0.07594045216527266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13099847411758914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07074061008935995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0761625600950287,0.0,0.0,0.07551248966465106,0.044720597212782535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06623156688675068,0.0,0.07619049735076301,0.10270583134733016,0.04837071881835542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03537471596667553,0.0,0.0,0.11358077453631127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13897619982074674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0453833484671461,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07643426451498439,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1203642367331416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07169315890709416,0.0,0.0,0.19129708643766014,0.09923635206808144,0.0,0.059787540541912425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05756305135001436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06802194138873198,0.0,0.0,0.06820884199749057,0.0,0.07182765167010234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.049773283864163714,0.10040947667770672,0.15666210755355356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07104831799135294,0.07210697436227485,0.0917615950390347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04694030880185043,0.2956007426779357,0.0,0.0,0.0640060908347514,0.07633077041158078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12957511857707738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3082668102724587,0.04337557728335865,0.1392305183855706,0.0,0.0,0.07670013968041146,0.0,0.0,0.1076884834945738,0.0,0.0,0.05395463261409144,0.0,0.07063437132687439,0.0,0.0,0.11201776949791553,0.07610680206977301,0.0,0.06901993641688182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2962469244327947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050908105500071264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3036925584865864,0.0,0.05375271128184732,0.03948116915074055,0.0,0.0,0.06469804281253372,0.0,0.045969392154495095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05586631810471196,0.03993602354644683,0.1074871623401471,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12219215549262173,0.0,0.07786103571664688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14429379009413573,0.07402823750514846,0.0,0.08720366268379467 schizophrenia,DelusionalCat,2019/01/29,"My schizophrenia ruined my dream I had a dream that one day I would work at the CIA, but of course you can't when you have schizophrenia. I feel like I have no other dream jobs, and I'm getting really depressed about it ",2.407,4.304639422222223,2.695277777777779,95.77625000000003,77.0,5.3888888888888875,20.13888888888889,5.985473137389443,-0.1724444444444444,174,4,38,1,4,53,35,45,0.197,0.626,0.177,-0.4569,1,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,2,0,1,2,3,0,0,2,0,5,0,0,0,0,4,8,3,0,1,1,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,1,3,0,0,2,2,0,1,1,1,8,1,3,6,0,3,0,2,0,0,2,1,0,0,3,26,11,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27949198137132225,0.0,0.3732665326841888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21912817301892445,0.3096042484608308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2264213271774219,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4300592916408508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2117258605521888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29366712304104386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27763207441260696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3155032435718904,0.0,0.0,0.3078582217437654,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,lordawall,2019/01/29,What would you call this ? Please read What would you call someone that thinks they do not have schizophrenia but have inappropriate thoughts. Someone who believes they know about life so much better than anyone else and just know they will succeed in life because of this. Someone who likes watching people get hurt and also see very inappropriate stuff and also thinks in his mind that some day he will come across these actions himself or herself. Someone who knows they are not mentally crazy ( in which he sees stuff or hears voices etc ). But just seems to see life as it really is. Is these still described as schizophrenia ? Or is this considered something else. Feel free to say anything ,7.006056466302368,9.054203303278687,4.97863387978142,83.51217668488161,65.14754098360655,7.0615664845173045,30.76867030965392,7.3871296695380915,1.8707511839708562,561,21,95,5,9,158,80,122,0.032,0.8170000000000001,0.151,0.9505,0,0,1,0,0,0,10.0,0,2,4,2,7,5,0,0,0,0,11,3,0,0,0,25,25,13,0,2,9,0,1,1,0,4,3,3,0,0,16,4,0,0,8,1,1,2,2,1,0,0,1,8,9,5,11,20,3,8,0,1,4,0,18,4,0,5,3,66,25,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20193532334482187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08828181637083607,0.1293651968587914,0.10389873714099597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07696508342411733,0.0,0.0,0.14224838142824706,0.0,0.11166403906759907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25784498688827073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10875920912423638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08142530742855361,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2109430124940284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14080990775786714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06383932292718712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06596406123476142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14230079307590507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13516070891007118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20816260369530726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2675371175211549,0.06168278317485201,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12723734036251969,0.0,0.127483558462884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0928134079652771,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0875306930266461,0.0,0.0,0.13859225030456274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12629114740944014,0.0,0.0808834546885972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10040461845978524,0.0,0.0,0.3018314006824343,0.1149396131460939,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4279085193565579,0.09719879192949826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10082898770206684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28906807185746464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1618007501130168,0.0,0.10023393945750604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10417523159455087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17937867288285658,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,memefied-sesame,2019/01/29,"How was your relationship with your parents/family before and after finding out you’re schizophrenic? How’s your relationship now? How’d they take it? So yeah, hi. I’m just curious about how your family dealt/deals with your illness. I just want to know how it went for you. Initially I planned on sharing my experience but I really want this to focus on your experiences instead. I want to hear you out.",2.4494736842105285,5.372866052631583,4.142421052631581,78.89994736842105,85.84210526315789,8.303157894736843,24.70526315789473,8.841846274778883,2.6647989473684213,324,13,58,10,10,108,50,76,0.026,0.8340000000000001,0.14,0.617,1,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,8,1,1,10,1,0,0,0,1,1,2,0,4,0,17,9,7,0,3,3,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,3,5,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,14,1,12,7,0,7,0,0,0,0,14,4,0,0,2,41,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1850115632724204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2241542980582174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4253642176111352,0.4099354473136349,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19872133205830755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24505232314371875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11949038494341703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1392871961350057,0.0,0.0,0.4668633921661464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1634755712720034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3847264123929207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20155395752702052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,kandikouture,2019/01/29,I’m in love with a man who has Schizophrenia. I need Tips and Advice for partners of people who suffer in this mental state. I recently entered a relationship with a man (29) who has just revealed to me that he suffers with delusions and distinguishing reality from what is just in his head. We’ve been best friends for 2 years and he always proclaimed his love for me in the most respectful way. I finally decided to let go of any inhibitions I held onto regarding why we shouldn’t be in a relationship and jumped all the way in love with him. Things were beautiful and perfect at 1st but out of no where he began to accuse me of cheating on him and of wanting other men. I’ve never cheated or been untrue to this man ever! He goes through my phone and searching my home for “clues” or validation of what’s actually only happening in his head; and I let him. I don’t have anything to hide from him and I remain open with our communication however it’s not enough. The mental and emotional abuse I experience everyday is becoming unbearable. Things have gotten so bad that he even began to physically unleash his frustration on my property and even onto me. I am in love with him and want to help him. But I don’t know how else to deal with this. I just found out that I am 5 weeks pregnant but I fear I may end up having to raise my child alone due to his inconsistency and delusions. Please if anyone has any advice as to how I can cope I am desperate for a solution. ,5.541890034364258,5.949075989690727,6.732182130584192,75.59078178694159,67.45360824742268,10.178006872852237,31.630584192439862,10.125756701596842,3.078272852233676,1167,45,227,27,18,395,159,291,0.138,0.731,0.131,-0.7453,1,1,0,0,1,0,18.0,2,0,0,2,10,15,3,1,8,0,22,6,2,2,4,52,38,23,0,5,10,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,1,6,15,24,0,1,5,0,0,3,6,7,0,0,8,0,37,8,49,25,4,35,0,2,0,4,37,18,0,5,11,167,52,0,0.0,0.1400864593709549,0.11537809569381775,0.0,0.0,0.23107132376166176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12245345804244352,0.0,0.0,0.09837910832047177,0.0,0.0,0.1608046305915982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08267107851425101,0.0,0.09729546818151244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09871939651865784,0.0,0.13057876855638856,0.0,0.0,0.1240779627347708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12189275990486717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09876828017829158,0.13299591504079145,0.1047191113370846,0.12216602256291825,0.0,0.15618321495663326,0.1069482792525113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11565430352785296,0.0,0.1330446993894987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12951818383037395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12963609312016214,0.09134631904737676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06719438891310027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10455281855063936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24268179589801545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07924891113786453,0.0,0.11859707496879306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0649776200100578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24180196747673904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4268386437661063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2383015798150081,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0876680761049566,0.09118837532206203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08992132399404805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08196769270373963,0.0,0.0,0.12978404021805154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11674056373897565,0.25387542359281445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15709715323089565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13947346276236772,0.18769528614491848,0.09483916965248716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10668665490151136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07613800599053656 schizophrenia,yyz89,2019/01/29,"Please talk to me about visual hallucinations. Visual hallucinations in schizophrenia have always fascinated me, yet despite over 15 years trying to understand them, I just don't. The concept seems so farfetched for me that I can't even begin to imagine what it must be like. What I'd like to know is whether the hallucinations are more like augmented reality, where the visuals present themselves as additions to the real world, or if they are 100% overlays, as in what's really there is completely hijacked by what you're seeing, which might as well be a dream or a virtual simulation? Most of the reading I've done suggests that most hallucinations belong to the former camp, where baseline reality is still in tact, albeit with your minds additions, i.e. a person who's not really there or a group of people trying to chase you down. I'm really interested to learn more about what I refer to as ""100% overlays"", where you can be in your dining room, but can be seeing something completely different, like, for example, yourself rowing a boat in the middle of the ocean or in the midst of a big bloody battle. How do you know when a vision is starting? Do they fade in gradually or can the onset happen instantly, at the blink of an eye? How do they go away? How long can they last? Are the visual hallucinations always accompanied by auditory ones? How real do these visions get? Are they detailed in the sense that the fabrications you see still adhere to laws of the real physical world? i.e. do imaginary people have shadows, do they leave footsteps in the rain/snow/mud, etc. Would you say that schizophrenic hallucinations are extremely realistic daydreams/fantasies? Thanks in advance to anyone willing to indulge my curiosities. P.S. I've seen several folks in the ""schizophrenia in films"" thread cite A Beautiful Mind as a pretty accurate depiction. I guess in Dr. Nash's case- based off the film-, his hallucinations were more like augmented reality, seeing as all the places his visions existed were there, in front of him, but they (the visions) were extremely vivid, complex, deep, almost to the point of completely taking over his reality. 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I went to my psych today and he put me on geodon. he said i can go cold turkey on the abilify and start the geodon tomorrow, but i'm worried that's bad advice. &#x200B; i have heart issues (non-fatal, i have PSVT which causes flutters) and i read geodon can really fuck with your heart, especially with something like abilify still in my system. it's only 20mg of geodon, but i'm still worried. &#x200B; what should i expect? should i follow my psych's advice or am i right to believe it could be dangerous?",3.6679357484620674,5.536788165413537,4.563048530416953,83.88302802460697,73.36090225563909,7.54313055365687,25.62474367737525,8.296473431620573,1.7035172932330829,538,18,102,9,11,174,81,133,0.16899999999999998,0.804,0.027000000000000003,-0.9632,0,0,1,0,0,0,32.0,0,1,0,0,2,4,2,0,4,1,10,4,2,1,0,15,19,7,0,5,3,0,0,1,0,2,1,1,0,0,7,6,0,0,0,1,0,4,0,3,0,0,4,2,15,1,14,11,1,17,0,0,0,1,6,5,1,1,8,60,22,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2355005364201788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39168198156689454,0.4392585720843139,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1006116659425895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13576115533236524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1237857080412235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09620867910011943,0.0,0.0,0.07771191277399188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1113994216599872,0.0,0.0,0.06848238187176874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2855838874053315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12576969211516545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058869744765129475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09618118485612773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0916449505350716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11502996933476616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12113481821034625,0.0,0.0,0.12053164969897492,0.0,0.07719477118504806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10290552257331474,0.11462218194348825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09276604877163472,0.0,0.0,0.08528984138757158,0.0,0.19246137951074369,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11421900123488615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11170381818626453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24474525048899698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4392585720843139,0.0 schizophrenia,blue_and_true,2019/01/29,"New sub - /r/MadStudies /r/madstudies is a sub for scholarly discussion of recent publications on the subject of mental health, mental illness, critical psychiatry and psychology. Its intended as a hub to provide a regular feed to subscribers of published articles and relevant discussion. Open to all with an interest in this type of material and related academic issues. Thanks to the mods of /r/schizophrenia for permission to post this notice.",9.549041095890413,11.73301678082192,10.147835616438359,48.31189041095894,59.273972602739725,15.703013698630135,47.476712328767135,13.968273953766033,8.630503561643836,367,24,44,18,5,124,52,73,0.068,0.853,0.08,0.2263,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,6,0,1,3,0,1,1,7,2,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,3,5,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,16,2,1,6,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,0,2,30,3,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3169060823241176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3111779553137881,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6009046917436814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2879429293450922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3394313712999805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28553318727002125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29437468489302365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2744848338839121,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,MarieAmber,2019/01/29,Abilify Injection What has your experience been with getting this injection? I hesitantly agreed to get the injection since I struggle with taking the pills daily. I’m a little scared about it to be honest.. ,5.180833333333332,8.514354305555559,6.2755555555555596,66.10000000000002,75.3888888888889,10.266666666666667,31.222222222222214,10.125756701596842,4.557022222222223,169,8,24,6,4,56,29,36,0.191,0.753,0.056,-0.6133,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,1,0,0,1,3,0,2,3,0,3,1,0,0,0,2,7,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,3,1,5,5,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,17,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3867222028892005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4131017497624444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3962384567119603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3958082205347643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3270325663368422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41329929134551735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2972494179031983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,bigpapi926,2019/01/29,1st Ride Just recently started what I can only figure as my first episode. A week and a day of minimal sleep and deterioration. ,4.587500000000002,6.7229560833333375,6.789999999999999,67.75500000000001,71.5,9.8,32.83333333333333,10.125756701596842,3.7997333333333336,102,5,18,3,2,36,22,24,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,2,0,1,1,1,0,0,4,2,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,2,2,0,6,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,12,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2931852373339239,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38669023750026893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34575067855070235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.44887160613664895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4549373771103538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32177463527518074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3646599694495496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,TryingToBeMe93,2019/01/29,Are there any objective tests that can help diagnose schitzophrenia? Are there any objective tests that can help diagnose schitzophrenia? And how would i go about asking to have these tests done? Or is it all diagnosed by symptoms? ,6.270384615384613,9.659265717948717,4.853525641025644,77.63105769230769,71.30769230769229,11.079487179487181,30.262820512820515,10.686352973137794,4.373405128205127,189,8,30,7,4,55,28,39,0.0,0.85,0.15,0.7476,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,0,0,8,4,0,1,1,5,10,3,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,0,0,4,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,3,8,1,1,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,1,0,22,5,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3323407655191321,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2284397691087076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7440482462119257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25006091137297765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13887308199902554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3275732010604386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25397932921776023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17358341150351062,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Cruxy666,2019/01/29,"BOO! =) I'm 29 ,and i've been dealing with this for years. I always try to look on the positive side. I would like to make friends on here. It's very hard for me to keep people in my life. I'm up for any questions. If you have the time. =)",-2.8742626262626274,-1.2923037999999991,-0.11939393939393915,106.80313131313132,105.1818181818182,3.1717171717171717,13.383838383838384,5.033348758259628,-1.530858585858586,181,4,50,1,9,61,43,55,0.028,0.71,0.262,0.9349,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,1,0,0,1,2,0,0,2,0,3,1,0,1,0,7,8,2,0,2,1,0,1,1,1,1,1,0,0,0,2,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,5,2,11,6,0,7,0,0,1,0,4,5,0,2,3,26,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25762048942596405,0.0,0.0,0.2105455535336886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3191945220918305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2392040731207617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2773499262803769,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27519577220505465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21868684109012304,0.15125990509808884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2599945913547094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20666721320005865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21464472967844808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34683428252493936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.180536197908773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2102050029993668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2554608406675709,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21993820350136226,0.0,0.0,0.19937881834935656 schizophrenia,mork0rk,2019/01/30,Progress :)` I went to work for the first time in 8 months today. So glad my work understands about my issues and let me take as much time off as I need. Feels good to be back.,-0.07105263157894726,1.8189568947368429,1.157105263157895,103.68723684210528,85.3157894736842,4.852631578947369,14.76315789473684,5.985473137389443,-1.1065999999999998,134,2,35,1,4,42,32,38,0.0,0.7809999999999999,0.219,0.8399,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,4,3,2,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,4,7,4,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,1,5,2,8,4,1,9,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,6,21,5,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2130745411863962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1401112337422431,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23570304936921546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23242023711191845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2892227765298026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2833558454063009,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22118038826510866,0.0,0.20370205230198385,0.20546782211152684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2083464212944324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32316112415793685,0.0,0.2626605513144241,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2884732356859491,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2568765805296587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4034675057754377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,peachandmilk,2019/01/30,"Hallucinations are getting worse but nothing has changed? Hi everyone. I think I’m in need of some advice please in terms of coping mechanisms and understanding. Any insight would be greatly appreciated. To preface I am undiagnosed and have had hallucinations since childhood. I feel no pressing reason to have a formal diagnosis as my doctor is aware of my symptoms and I had previously undergone years of therapy. Usually my symptoms have periods of manageable, bad, and really bad. These are usually in line with stress, lack of sleep etc. but sometimes not. For most of my life I very very very rarely have visual hallucinations not in my periphery however recently I’ve had a huge cloak thing with a red black face and grin with dark shadows on the eyes, appear right in the middle of my vision from far away and charge at me. It was in public and some very kind people helped me after freaking out but nothing has happened for things to escalate. Am I fucked guys? Like is this just it like now it has to escalate because its fucking terrifying and I don’t like it. Does anyone have experience with things changing for no reason? I would please like some advice, insight anything please? Thank you kindly for your time.",5.420947844724934,7.915280239819008,5.925501309835672,73.29682067158849,70.13122171945703,8.9965229816623,31.088592522029053,9.549672527348893,3.2977185520362,987,43,162,24,19,318,135,221,0.14400000000000002,0.6729999999999999,0.183,0.8689,1,0,0,0,0,0,21.0,0,2,0,0,2,15,2,1,5,0,22,9,3,2,0,35,33,12,0,4,6,0,2,4,0,2,4,0,0,1,10,13,0,0,7,0,0,1,5,6,0,0,4,5,18,9,33,26,7,25,0,0,3,2,6,14,2,5,14,111,28,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20342516252074044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07078270808264367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07278002873204929,0.0,0.08565470654320781,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0977931335271634,0.0,0.17381654247561207,0.06345045008410467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22022042311540568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10653742311592916,0.09108720783224172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11608448436681985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09945955924363063,0.0,0.1018170282161166,0.0,0.0,0.052629498892029294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19245345085301174,0.054381145170168496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11475625056840658,0.0,0.1030624636483236,0.09204376276306292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06976730113183592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21678112135525926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07351970428537635,0.2034065412918499,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0771791684888004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19974850762175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07216079839879666,0.0,0.0,0.3427687050581891,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06668077751658248,0.21403747918643964,0.1027733245509027,0.0,0.0,0.08888970263918512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08610181620176413,0.0,0.1041621391705163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10294467364649393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11923127109464644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21637242955693267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09582929635170014,0.11903252009947204,0.0,0.20745227106049186,0.06669472676358892,0.0,0.0,0.06069394855627939,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1083582053516411,0.0,0.0,0.22927418168826275,0.3435306005382089,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10607351361230884,0.14788079247816602,0.0,0.0,0.06702859528604029 schizophrenia,ace_of_william,2019/01/30,Thank you (getting an evaluation) Thanks to those who commented on my last post here it seems simple once it’s said to me but it’s hard to justify spending time and money on getting a diagnosis when I keep convincing myself I’m faking it but I have set my first visit for an evaluation and again thanks to those who commented and let me know it may be part of the problem believing I’m faking it ,5.292249999999999,5.7223987250000015,6.727500000000003,75.3275,68.0,10.4,31.0,10.355215969177356,3.14645,318,12,62,8,5,109,53,80,0.142,0.733,0.125,-0.3506,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,1,0,1,3,7,0,0,4,0,4,0,0,0,0,10,15,6,0,1,2,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,10,3,0,1,2,0,2,1,0,3,0,1,1,2,8,4,8,11,1,10,0,0,0,0,7,2,0,2,5,44,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2486475448305111,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1877229446750492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23060792268271,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19769925567773608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19616374181256985,0.0,0.0,0.12128812952545065,0.17989577575550214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22567545830616706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23503283509448275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2389910389187549,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21136468088364307,0.0,0.0,0.2111751862161582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20993136109950306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20091232199335105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6095585582464179,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1286889541602815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,pee_pearl_pray_pot,2019/01/30,"I cannot even make a dentist appointment I spent much of last night wondering whether every creak and crack I heard in the attic was a gas pipe leaking. I kept sniffing and listening for signs of gas. There was no reason to fear though, and I know that now. There was no gas leak. It is cold as all of motherfuck but I didn't have to stay up until 3am worrying about it. I swear I smelled gas a few times too, but nobody else does and everything works/looks fine. Today my anxiety is so bad I cannot make a dentist appointment that I have needed to make since September. The pain finally began kicking in and still I can't bring myself to do it. It feels like the world is conspiring against me to keep me unhealthy even though I know it's not. I fucking hate doctors and dentists so much. I have not been to one since 2011. I also need to make a doctor's appointment so I can get recommended to a cardiologist. No one around me gives a shit or wants to help, and I'm not going to ask for their help either. Dentists and doctors honestly scare the fuck out of me. I'm not even sure if I've still got insurance or not. I think I do. I don't have my login to check. I don't know how any of this shit works. I don't know what they're going to ask me when I call and try to make an appointment. I called a few a awhile back and they were all PEDIATRIC DENTISTS for some reason. I mean I finally mustered up the courage to call my insurance and every single one didn't take care of adults even though I'm in my mid 20's and my insurance should know this and give me people who take care of adults. I want to give up and let my mouth rot. Maybe It'll kill me and I won't have to ever worry about this again. I constantly find myself in a loop of anxiety and then hallucinating things to support that anxious worry. Fuck. 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So, I have this constant urge to lay down and do nothing at all and eventually go to sleep. I have to force myself to do everything. I force myself to shower, eat, drink, play games, work, brush my teeth. Everything and the urge to lay down is always there. I hate it. I wish it was gone. Does anyone else have this urge to just lay down? Is the urge to lay down schizophrenia? Is it just laziness? 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I just woke up from a nap and suddenly my heart started beating really fast, my breathing is shaky, I’m super fidgety and twitchy, I’m having an anxiety attack for no reason, I’m honestly scared and I feel like I’m dying. I know it’ll pass but I’m still scared. (Yes I took my meds today, all I’ve eaten today is a protein shake which is normal for me and this doesn’t usually happen)",1.2147126436781583,3.3737415057471267,3.642068965517243,86.16816091954023,82.2183908045977,6.16551724137931,21.160919540229887,7.3871296695380915,0.9010367816091952,329,10,65,5,9,114,60,87,0.211,0.716,0.073,-0.8316,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,2,2,8,1,4,3,1,6,3,2,1,1,12,19,5,1,1,2,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,4,1,0,3,1,0,3,2,5,0,0,3,1,8,3,5,15,1,11,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,8,34,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14819103153039856,0.0,0.0,0.13544965438061116,0.19848335618513133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2203781635546586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2010450257077551,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16952082919333905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16182357426981933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09794785134525466,0.1383896487900796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34260211410600233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22955256756670275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1064604010375871,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09463910016500213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21517309504348528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1897990411338755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1240984432927856,0.19917072777640954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3878839360494389,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1371120916922456,0.0,0.1547006178307804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36723731491418893,0.0,0.21522389252177634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21334910970155516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,jntythesunshineband,2019/01/30,"What are some methods you use to redirect your thoughts / relax? I went back to work today for the first time in months and I am already becoming obsessive about everything that has happened, and becoming extremely paranoid with lots of voices running around my mind. Are there any mothods to share? Exercises to calm yourself when you feel an episode coming? 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I'm trying to figure out their ""background"". Are they just voices that the brain forges? Are they voices of people you have met? People you have seen or heard of? I've watched videos that demonstrate what it may look and sound like and read about it but I can't seem to find an answer to what determines these voices. Why are they male or female? Why deep or high pitched voices? What determines WHAT they say? Sorry if the question is too loaded or ignorant but I honestly can't seem to find a satisfying answer",3.850521091811416,6.703106483870967,4.40258064516129,80.4873325062035,76.90322580645163,6.718610421836227,22.44168734491315,7.882392219407189,1.3453146401985108,540,16,93,9,13,171,74,124,0.032,0.883,0.084,0.8229,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,3,6,0,3,3,0,0,6,0,11,1,1,1,0,27,20,11,0,1,9,0,0,1,0,2,0,9,0,1,12,5,0,1,9,2,0,0,2,1,0,0,3,12,11,2,11,15,0,4,0,0,3,0,16,3,0,11,2,64,23,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2831214863782845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2260059374255291,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3700790969736265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2281806928349983,0.0,0.0,0.21390406734290746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1112635802579961,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09890893716467916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1700106097698742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21477200252737885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2807126193385852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2267951327522633,0.0,0.20250907174805047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16099977314790334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3686135543583733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2266309965937681,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13745316989246384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3653670044625841,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Drudkh_,2019/01/30,"Advice on hiding my diagnosis Hi I was diagnosed with paranoid schizophrenia 10 years ago. After many bad years, I finally became able to semi-manage my symptoms. I'm currently doing my Master's of science in a research direction (to paranoid to be more specific), after which I plan to work in a research post. The problem is, I am extremely paranoid about people finding out about my diagnosis. If people see me as a unstable and crazy, I will lose all credibility in my field. Even when my symptoms are under control, I still come across as a very strange person and most people realize that there is something wrong with me after a few minutes. I have tried to manage this by simply not talking to people whenever possible. This year I have responsibilities that requires me to work closely with other people on a regular basis and I don't think I can hide my symptoms from them for very long. Another thing I am worried about is how to explain my absence when the inevitable relapse comes and I am unable to be in public for some time. &#x200B; Does anyone have any advice on hiding symptoms from others and explaining absences?",6.6953983516483495,8.045166644230768,7.336978021978023,68.9223076923077,65.25,9.212087912087913,36.01098901098901,9.424239791934726,3.764739285714288,914,44,138,17,14,302,128,208,0.154,0.8390000000000001,0.006999999999999999,-0.9778,1,0,1,0,0,0,22.0,0,0,1,7,9,4,0,0,8,0,17,5,0,2,1,26,24,11,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,1,5,0,0,1,8,12,0,2,5,0,0,2,2,4,0,0,1,1,24,0,36,20,5,28,0,1,1,0,7,11,0,3,14,111,32,6,0.11771208895534807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23005378195728984,0.10434466451788316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12754099920352835,0.14303307231093645,0.08004825700916307,0.1234313887757896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08230702953997182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09828467744047524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20279708338873004,0.0,0.0,0.13202411702550812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11947529246967158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1030106422925944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07774772458585631,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12894783972913154,0.10758671677089172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10417149454206454,0.0,0.13168971795477816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1193415825577985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4080337057370706,0.10278165570888068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13270269373078794,0.11273564259246308,0.0,0.0,0.11263457176540985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09380129466187948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09062051697017008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09400502629464504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4893917263139415,0.0,0.0946125182476276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07820268142136234,0.07542515359675506,0.0,0.0,0.06863886568540735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07991878157622956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1942496023907964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17139160540741313,0.11954234021492775,0.0,0.0,0.12869969051937286,0.14303307231093645,0.2274081778344302 schizophrenia,mprc-trtmntresearch,2019/01/30,"Research Opportunity University of Maryland researchers are studying the link between gluten and schizophrenia. Consider being tested for antibodies to gluten. The visit will take approximately 30 minutes to complete, is a simple blood draw, and you will be compensated for your participation. To learn more and sign up, For more information please email [mprc-trp@som.umaryland.edu](mailto:mprc-trp@som.umaryland.edu) or visit [http://www.mprc.umaryland.edu/research/Research-Programs/Treatment-Research-Program-TRP/](http://www.mprc.umaryland.edu/research/Research-Programs/Treatment-Research-Program-TRP/)",22.044583333333332,25.59270095833333,15.357777777777779,17.01500000000002,32.472222222222236,13.311111111111117,61.05555555555557,12.602617957971056,9.085572222222222,527,31,35,11,4,146,52,72,0.0,0.911,0.08900000000000001,0.6573,0,0,0,0,0,0,51.0,0,2,0,1,0,1,0,0,3,0,6,1,1,0,0,8,7,4,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,3,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,9,3,2,3,0,0,0,0,6,1,0,1,0,26,2,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6189447051861975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6479997609911379,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4438510579883744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,dericcoz,2019/01/30,"Did I just have a fucking schizophrenic episode? Hey, im 14yo. I've tripped acid 5 times, smoked weed more than I could count, drank 2 times, juul in school, dph 2x, addys 3x, lsa 2x, xan 2x, etc. so I wouldn't be surprised. I have so much family history of nutcases, addicts, etc. but I thought that I was fine and that none of that would affect me because im retarded and think that im different - for some reason. Last night I took 225mg DPH, didn't hallucinate, had around 8 hours of sleep. At around 12pm I got really tired (as if I was awake all night and just laying down at 6-9am), which is really weird for me. Then I had these weird ""nightmares"" and i'm still so confused as to exactly what happened. I would be usually very VERY dizzy, almost like I was barred out on like a ton of Xanax. Then my parents would call me to do something while im unable to move straight and I would be so goddamn paranoid and anxious about it for some reason. A few times I had shit jumping at my face that would petrify me. The weirdest thing is I would always seem to be back in my bed and either ""wake up"" and walk somewhere or enter back into a ""nightmare"". There was one time that I finally thought it was over, was gonna go to my brothers room bc I wasn't dizzy anymore. In the hallway, I randomly tripped on my pc... MY FUCKING COMPUTER, IN THE HALLWAY! Well anyway, my parents ""woke up"" from the noise and I would go back to the same fucking process. There was once where all I can remember is my brother COMPLETELY RANDOMLY telling me that he always gets attacked. For some reason I instantly knew he mean't that thing that jumped at my face. I went into more fucking paranoia and shit. At the end I could feel my entire body, phone, and house shaking. It was very weird. I have never been diagnosed with any mental illnesses. I hardly have any emotion, let a lone anxiety and/or paranoia. This only lasted 1 hour IRL but it felt like at least 10-15 times that I went into this loop. After I felt very mentally drained and sorta like I do after an acid trip. This has scared me to either completely stop or ABSOLUTELY LIMIT every drug I can take that has ties with disorders (so probably none tbh). I only use them so often cause I escape boredom with it. When im sitting in my room, staring at my pc for hours, it gets pretty boring. Could this have been my first schizophrenic episode? I just don't want it to get worse and need to know so I can avoid things that would make it.",2.72513746351568,4.607575030364373,3.6762950757932416,89.16741973448829,76.0242914979757,6.862555314942098,25.25355427925808,7.738981096181357,1.2868072309575376,1931,68,399,28,43,619,252,494,0.198,0.7440000000000001,0.058,-0.9973,3,1,3,0,0,0,73.0,0,0,1,2,24,23,7,4,12,0,49,21,7,7,4,80,81,31,0,15,10,4,4,4,0,10,8,0,3,0,30,22,2,3,13,1,0,14,7,16,1,2,27,7,53,7,52,36,18,71,0,1,1,4,11,28,6,13,32,259,83,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07113952786608695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06534524381112539,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10859774539212527,0.0,0.0,0.08875370304218975,0.0,0.04992126187623664,0.07372159239577117,0.06471719565589297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11618474770667887,0.0,0.07423901366365387,0.0,0.15053531871238598,0.0,0.039779930418053465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07248557699784097,0.0,0.0,0.06663447358679289,0.0,0.0,0.06703669395929833,0.0,0.0,0.13684099492971954,0.0,0.0,0.15630669838512884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06623426308656652,0.0,0.06817945108112901,0.07478992914314476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07567715289178024,0.0,0.0,0.07340509975321219,0.05779814223172764,0.0,0.1455571301576802,0.0,0.0,0.054981655828116316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06151828915208835,0.0,0.03299579122113156,0.0,0.1253134943778426,0.07148561819366762,0.0,0.0555073879477652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2413153846347568,0.10228193029628176,0.0,0.07417386946823791,0.0,0.052191812250666915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05770635942340975,0.0,0.05845726158240407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1927943646122531,0.07529756829642455,0.0,0.0,0.3524426293690397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.035863422399866104,0.10638597889362897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06672948390072361,0.0,0.12752467552935065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.043559410685868535,0.0,0.0,0.07108376949994581,0.0,0.0,0.13152698135355176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0693576350402922,0.047971245485120766,0.04838707917970833,0.05033005551182741,0.0,0.0,0.12247814413212045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0694963462278704,0.044219686345560894,0.09926145108591496,0.0,0.0,0.14491987414926466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06638961053868513,0.07035785134899955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0836103348775413,0.20128453031316929,0.0,0.0,0.07392321630603127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06533342587988322,0.06604335026970412,0.0,0.05940732615118366,0.0,0.0,0.13397030398580634,0.0,0.0,0.06530391262640968,0.0,0.0,0.05023786121776221,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05211415276208396,0.05455759422924413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04906498098038197,0.0,0.05703730636142401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13006112481337456,0.04181391284679478,0.0,0.1036131960040866,0.1902587804472135,0.07500307464691372,0.0,0.0,0.07250268919545666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05636091001222913,0.07187112922072139,0.2153747273308235,0.03849014251248767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05867368670093207,0.12098738686931378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0665022389140336,0.37085238179716257,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,FlimsyChemist9,2019/01/30,"I am diagnosed schizoaffective disorder, and I am afraid of cognitive impairment. Hi guys. I was diagnosed schizoaffective disorder in 2017. There was so hallucination at all. But I had delusion , and auditory stimuli were amplified . I got WAIS test , and I got a normal range of intelligence and the premorbid intelligence was in range of 115 \~ 125. so my intelligence got decreased. I wanna be a professor in the future, and for that I need to have high intelligence like premorbid intelligence. How can I reverse my intelligence or how can I reduce cognitive intelligence impairment by schizoaffective disorder ? 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But if it were up to me to be the one talking it would just be dead silence. My cousins are pretty extroverted and they were here for the weekend so I tried to study what they were talking about to see how to do it better but it didn't help. They mostly talked about how much they liked spending money, complained about how boring their jobs were, and complained about all the incompetent construction workers and contractors they hired to build their house. They also rehashed a lot of TV episodes I hadn't seen. I tried to talk a few times and it was like they were ignoring me. I probably seemed like I was ignoring them too. How do you actually talk to people? I try on Reddit but 99% of the time I'm on here I just read posts and never say anything. I'm feeling like I'm never going to make friends because I'm losing the ability to socialize. It's been so many years since i had a friend :(",3.6584722222222235,4.900854384259258,4.425000000000002,87.38250000000002,72.28703703703705,7.437037037037038,26.0,7.8658589789855275,1.3244222222222222,841,27,176,11,16,270,115,216,0.158,0.7070000000000001,0.135,-0.7568,1,1,0,0,0,1,16.0,0,1,11,3,20,14,0,0,10,0,19,0,0,5,3,30,32,19,1,2,6,1,1,5,2,1,0,1,0,0,9,6,0,2,4,3,3,1,5,6,0,1,12,4,28,8,24,17,7,13,0,1,2,0,27,3,0,6,13,125,37,4,0.0,0.0,0.10786226937435063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1144767366610516,0.0,0.08839156607151627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09095755944653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06737864524143518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09775564892331308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0558877727483434,0.07896333749109577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17079188579416754,0.0,0.05774786283449376,0.0,0.06281728983136661,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07408657032666159,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.127537883763744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10968491923428617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2699992113398001,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12365586772877185,0.0,0.18793893337982032,0.0,0.0,0.07378027182765327,0.11206104148827356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16250594193421988,0.0,0.17049657551809755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07489863676616446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15325649634341285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10585810285901602,0.11244971947394372,0.11917106581570144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11056086786190672,0.0,0.07080896111465741,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0878986530882346,0.0,0.0,0.08807886193119506,0.20124646330030996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09143234950756116,0.0,0.0,0.1126723907777046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12653150102483096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6218841726240564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07082377395466384,0.0,0.0,0.1933544690063567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22512979229772015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07851802029143355,0.0,0.0,0.07117831216048767 schizophrenia,tachibanakanade,2019/01/31,"Scared of developing tardive dyskinesia I'm on Abilify (30mg), Thorazine (150mg), Wellbutrin XR (300mg), and BuSpar (20mg). I know that all of these (except maybe BuSpar) can cause tardive dyskinesia and I'm afraid of that. What are my actual chances of developing this disorder? Is there anything I can do to lessen the chances of developing it? (I'm not sure if that second question is against the rules, if it is I can erase the question.)",5.121124497991972,6.571542578313255,6.1543975903614445,75.57729919678718,69.0,9.388755020080325,34.315261044176715,9.725611199111238,3.438053815261044,346,17,64,8,6,115,51,83,0.104,0.851,0.045,-0.6953,0,0,0,0,0,0,21.0,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,2,3,0,8,0,0,1,2,12,12,4,0,2,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,8,2,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,0,0,4,1,9,12,1,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,4,0,40,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.2791591128850869,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2354079118914213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29386854292690506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3278563754389011,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15721437115350095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2873917081766368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.64091869223774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2864019320433861,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26961378323524404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,coffee_fiend101,2019/01/31,how long does it take for an antipsychotic to show up in blood work? thanks,1.16,3.7736293333333366,1.495000000000001,97.7025,89.0,5.666666666666668,14.166666666666668,7.1686216300943375,-0.5183333333333331,60,1,14,1,2,18,15,15,0.0,0.828,0.172,0.4404,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,1,0,1,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,4,2,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,7,1,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4683047948483852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4735822366974832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4023588310214304,0.0,0.0,0.4926851973671218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3895884387414613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,scotchinmyblank,2019/01/31,How do you deal with the drowsiness from clozapine? Title says it all. I've been sleeping 10-12 hours(closer to 12) a day. I'm currently on 300 mg of clozapine and 15 of abilify and things are going ok otherwise. I'm stressed though because I'm getting pressure to just work already and the long sleep is impeding that,4.217741935483872,6.091219483870969,5.233096774193552,79.62964516129036,71.90322580645163,9.476129032258065,34.980645161290326,9.888512548439397,3.8327961290322574,256,14,47,7,5,84,50,62,0.077,0.8859999999999999,0.037000000000000005,-0.34,1,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,1,0,1,3,3,0,2,3,1,4,2,2,1,1,7,9,5,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,3,4,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,1,1,1,1,7,8,1,5,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,3,25,4,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3142135836011439,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17357260351790427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1836313555945696,0.29355061895973256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14876296286251067,0.0,0.1618221990498548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2519826622712595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22643373145264176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5698838592903862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3261644656139534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18916614327107364,0.0,0.2797519656233035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20729141504284515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,ComfortableSky5,2019/01/31,"questions about schizophrenia Hi, my sister has recently been diagnosed with schizophrenia. One thing that is apparent in her behaviour is her withdrawing from family. She is hostile and paranoid about family. On the other hand friends are amazing in her eyes. I find it hard to see how someone who is so awkward and inept around family can be ok with friends. Sometimes I think she exaggerates just how good these friendships are. &#x200B; Does anyone else who has a family member with schizophrenia have this going on? &#x200B; Also, another quick question. My sister is unmedicated and spends her time going to different places but not really looking around. I think it's the journey she wants. Any thoughts? ...",6.763636363636363,9.839634454545461,5.961157024793388,71.91628099173556,68.0909090909091,9.028099173553716,34.140495867768585,9.573946990214177,3.98833223140496,583,28,82,14,11,177,84,121,0.058,0.8290000000000001,0.113,0.7877,2,0,0,0,0,0,24.0,0,0,0,0,10,7,1,1,3,1,13,3,2,2,0,20,21,8,0,1,3,2,2,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,9,8,0,0,6,0,1,3,1,2,0,1,2,5,12,5,14,18,0,13,0,0,3,0,16,7,0,2,3,63,21,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10186024544383103,0.0,0.2760174646562749,0.30954458744878743,0.08661809570177746,0.13356183188799234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08906225354546095,0.13050882317824958,0.0,0.2267781794109508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12928104500702933,0.0,0.13307781007926225,0.0,0.0,0.11146508376041396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10640390532671913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4803042013606771,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11641673257713014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1968163273940988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14477816933715773,0.10683453763902573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11410130517712735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10696134882897616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08631132882335395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13307781007926225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28537411094360243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08159848817392906,0.0,0.12576559872710993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1014998929588592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.107922839073422,0.0,0.12597528175227768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08462104731044659,0.16323111624572026,0.0,0.10112003690913912,0.07427229597415842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07512797175655632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30954458744878743,0.0 schizophrenia,okyeah93,2019/01/31,"I got diagnosed for the 2nd time recently. Long story short I was being psychotic and got diagnosed with paranoid schizophrenia for the second time in 2 years. I have a hard time accepting it, but I've read that it is part of the illness. I was planning on committing suicide that week as well (something I didn't tell the doctors). It feels like my life is completely over. I'm 25 years old with no friends. I guess I'm wondering why I shouldn't commit suicide? I have a painless method that I can get ahold of. So why not? My life has been miserable and I know it's not going to get better. Specifically, part of my ""paranoia"" stems from dating problems. I have a firm belief that it's over for me and I will never find a girlfriend. (I know it's strange but it's been a pervasive theme through my life). Sorry for being dramatic but this is where I'm at. 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So I started taking Zoloft a week and a half ago. For the first few days I had some side effects including seeing shadows in the corner of my eye and hearing a knocking sound (I don’t think the knocking was real because I asked my father if he heard it and he said no, but I’m not sure). And then after four days I didn’t have any side effects because my body got used to the dosage. Fast forward to a couple of days ago when I upped my dosage a tiny bit (from 5mg to 7.5mg) I was waiting for the bus and a lady walking towards me had a small disproportioned head, but as she came closer I knew who it was and that person has a normal sized head. Another day goes by (7.5mg) and in the evening I was drawing but I thought the bits of eraser looked like spiders for like a small period of time but then I could see that it wasn’t. I also heard some strange sound when listening to music which wasn’t there and I also saw a shadow. When I tried to sleep at night I heard a woman talking nonsense (nothing I heard was making any sense, like no real words) and she then screamed I think (I’m not sure if I remembered it correctly). I also had a really bad anxiety feeling for no reason. As I’m writing this I got that anxiety feeling again and I’m scared of losing it. I’ve told my therapist about the hallucinations of shadows and she says she doesn’t know if they go away or not (I’m being treated for ocd and it’s important I take my meds). I don’t know, should I worry? Is this normal? Like, I know they aren’t real so what if I’m just imagining it all? Do you guys get hallucinations that feel 100% real that you can’t differentiate from reality? I’m a bit sad because I don’t know what to do I really want the meds to work :/",1.9372186147186128,3.692992310606062,3.781157287157289,88.10554545454546,77.91414141414141,6.646926406926408,23.182972582972575,7.554174236665415,0.923314227994228,1489,47,322,21,35,502,188,396,0.127,0.805,0.068,-0.9773,2,0,0,0,0,0,37.0,0,4,2,5,15,14,0,1,22,1,28,7,5,5,4,68,73,36,0,10,14,1,3,5,0,2,2,11,0,4,21,14,0,1,18,0,0,4,16,5,0,3,23,20,45,9,36,46,7,39,0,2,5,0,30,14,0,8,27,204,66,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14971294903450613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20259482318307112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11485264414128192,0.08854921956206503,0.12920224686579318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07894581174288293,0.0,0.07933999891147334,0.0,0.07050906231049743,0.15443288682043455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2765801866230023,0.0938007079699096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09658397337718157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06742343132805083,0.09343813084562803,0.0,0.2178432907840312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055775928660330425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1280956310796142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07182990744787596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04411966201499618,0.0,0.04799273012061154,0.0,0.13507870509166195,0.0,0.0,0.16723005918202802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1733323589084398,0.0,0.09517702181239188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2784565882477465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20628077584045426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07091355238414593,0.0944737142221259,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0563685043330512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1876014159398192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07924705235343385,0.16547872239110167,0.08102842094161984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07373517780676066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08087613100200769,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38447312177641774,0.16229522333832422,0.08682477364808902,0.0,0.0,0.09566109993337067,0.0,0.08032768857470503,0.06715501969208602,0.0845453931037232,0.0,0.13458540033618913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06985478179637583,0.0,0.08450720117389421,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05977146570935656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09667071274075184,0.0,0.0,0.15917911675506882,0.0,0.12698608862910926,0.06787466895351282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09804856445420787,0.0,0.10821944972965514,0.0,0.06704086207727794,0.04924126713917664,0.0,0.0,0.08069197741714047,0.0,0.05733343687626346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07293441647202348,0.0,0.0,0.04980856560804636,0.0,0.06773766005791185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061477850362211275,0.0857592305785591,0.0,0.059988168346126976,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,bluamazeren,2019/01/31,"On cannabis I've been smoking with a friend/ some friends around about a few times a week. We play d&d. The first night I noticed it really got to my head. Nothing too crazy. I do take my meds and can handle shit somewhat well nowadays. I know a guy that has a strain that works well with schizophrenia. This isn't that strain. So the first night we smoke and play, I come to the conclusion that the strain smoked wasn't one for me due to schizophrenia. The second night, my friend's gf says that strain really messes with her head, bam! Big news. That was a game changer. It had nothing to do with my schizophrenia, it was the strain all along. That was a huge relief for me. I now smoke it just fine with no worries; the first night was the only night I had major issues. I say that to say that I recommend taking normal shit/ info into account. Just because something is messing with you and you're schizophrenic, doesn't mean that's why it's messing with you. I hope this helps some ppl or at least opens your minds a little. Thanks!",3.1274200542005417,5.149374687804882,2.8965447154471566,94.58064363143632,75.29268292682926,5.531165311653117,22.60840108401084,6.139981653823899,0.2286856368563681,821,23,171,5,18,244,115,205,0.071,0.772,0.157,0.9568,0,0,4,0,0,0,28.0,2,3,0,5,9,21,2,5,16,0,15,5,4,0,1,32,23,5,0,2,3,0,0,0,4,0,1,3,0,1,17,17,0,0,4,3,1,1,4,10,2,5,9,3,21,11,20,14,7,21,0,0,0,0,16,8,2,5,12,112,38,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1219774985714687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10021769850537124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06862610027377898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09697540831506403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2872746783018593,0.0,0.0,0.26093091598517043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09003838124762052,0.0,0.0,0.11146926389674887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2310736544795446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07545821656044863,0.0,0.0,0.11181469807080516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11750149224843714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06186956075360914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11283206769544035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12262972414168885,0.12504804365366642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1136710190791608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5282310270672755,0.11030188870191407,0.21604198386958293,0.12817004534740514,0.0,0.0,0.0762853176798998,0.08562013839585964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1442398507219701,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2685780528451664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2311180391322685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.086667534740224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16928829534415835,0.0,0.0,0.10364608748843132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0656447510476881,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09030274989647437,0.0,0.20244109351901104,0.0,0.1015835371625905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08195764277486589,0.11432775126316393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,mycology1,2019/01/31,"Mental Illness I’m confident that I’m at the onset of mental illness. I’ve never been more afraid. I’m hoping this is a caffeine induced psychosis and will disappear on it’s own as I go through caffeine withdrawals. I am trying to stay positive but my head is pounding. I haven’t mentioned this out loud to anyone that I know. Any tips or advice is appreciated from anyone in the medical field or anyone who has/is dealing with something similar. Thank you in advance. =]",2.736373626373627,5.4364567582417616,4.42713186813187,79.53036813186814,80.31868131868131,6.277362637362637,29.979120879120877,7.554174236665415,2.3665200000000004,379,19,63,6,10,127,68,91,0.056,0.755,0.189,0.9243,0,0,1,0,0,0,10.0,0,1,0,1,0,3,0,1,3,0,7,4,1,1,1,10,14,5,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,1,3,1,0,0,6,3,0,0,2,0,0,3,2,1,0,0,1,1,6,2,12,12,2,10,0,0,0,0,4,5,0,3,1,41,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2287137773037368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15916399262277706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4909656724069526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24129825449543846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13301765231399373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2402057915240917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23246733267467914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12862934846935695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2357836651467147,0.4717405307562555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18051601926694807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1801853511046635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24946924121765354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21548445701963664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15890655007971324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Calypsoraptor,2019/01/31,"Movie theatre triggers Usually the movie theatre is niceish because it makes things quiet when things aren’t quiet, but last night I went to see aqua man and the trench people resemble one of my hallucinations who follows me everywhere. Apparently I crawled under my seat and wouldn’t move until it was over. How do you cope at movies when things get too real?",10.479545454545457,8.957294530303034,9.080909090909092,69.14136363636365,58.24242424242425,11.830303030303032,40.18181818181819,10.504223727775694,4.150218181818183,293,12,50,5,3,90,54,66,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,2,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,1,0,0,4,0,0,0,2,0,5,0,0,3,0,8,10,7,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,1,6,2,0,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,1,2,3,6,0,6,7,0,12,0,0,1,0,3,3,0,0,6,33,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1711910398879824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.146721808586708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22891350192050525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1874558535888565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2984772859564943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2635394360570864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1902973185086684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19469179652252366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31964542113241823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2237847304902288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5597118690709808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3092939887002675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2603317345433022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,terminatortoo,2019/01/31,"Lack of Religious Revelry After Taking Meds Has anyone else experienced a lack of spiritual rapture after taking meds? I have less religious feelings. I used to go to a church every Sunday and suddenly I just didn't care to anymore and stopped going. I used to preach sermons to myself in my car (fucking insane sermons mind you). I would come on here and tell people about demons and everything, and after I took the meds the religious revelry died off just like the psychosis. I don't really miss it either, it wasn't exactly comfortable to start screaming about how Buddha wasn't as extreme as Jesus in a Zen way at handling torture, although it entertained me I suppose. I was always my own entertainer/audience of one. Maybe religious feelings are akin to psychosis? Maybe feelings in general kind of die down with the meds and the positive side is that it kills the psychosis. I don't really miss having extreme feelings. With me it was often anger and I would scream my throat hoarse.",5.747417582417582,7.736443412087915,6.337142857142857,72.78285714285715,68.17582417582419,9.375824175824176,33.32967032967033,9.784248007369934,3.6915670329670336,799,37,126,19,14,260,106,182,0.2,0.73,0.07,-0.9785,0,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,1,0,0,7,13,4,0,9,0,14,2,1,3,1,29,31,11,3,4,3,0,4,1,0,2,0,2,0,0,6,10,0,1,4,1,0,5,5,8,0,1,6,7,18,5,27,23,5,21,5,2,0,1,2,8,1,1,8,93,24,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1085342504310038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12935871357451384,0.0912047658496593,0.1336483884635937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1329894809829558,0.0,0.0,0.1123601508208996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2707465674794555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10896359439028956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10989901827543368,0.0,0.11722859972499255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2638119938591719,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12058714614300768,0.0,0.0,0.14826100293765535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14430950363170345,0.13583033531509492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06372505718262672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2620835216733717,0.0,0.5795455688780772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13170445033038206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0883876639331696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09042877333447026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16712289912562364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09232416483550906,0.0,0.0,0.10905139095860536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19614517461256095,0.0,0.11400791554535472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1449205966044214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2253118275963807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10353502658720687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1853177758597653,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,soft-cakes,2019/02/01,"Please help me... I’m so stuck. I’m here for support on my girlfriends behalf. I’m not entirely sure that she has schizophrenia or any of the subsets of it. But tonight she said the devil was talking to her and telling her to kill people. She called me for a bit, ended up harming herself really bad and got angry briefly... It terrifies me but I’m not leaving her side. I love her way too much. I just want to know how to help her when these issues come up. I’m not entirely sure what to say. I’m physically apart from her right now so it’s definitely more difficult to help her out. I’m a physically affectionate person. Can anyone please give me advice... or something... Do I let her ride it out? Is there a way to have her come back to being grounded? I love her so much....",0.8747749648382559,3.19425556329114,2.770042194092828,90.83694796061887,85.13924050632913,5.7895921237693395,22.06891701828411,7.1686216300943375,0.7489102672292547,601,21,129,9,18,200,94,158,0.134,0.6659999999999999,0.2,0.944,0,0,1,0,0,0,29.0,0,0,0,0,11,11,1,0,5,0,8,2,0,1,2,19,26,11,1,1,8,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,1,7,6,0,0,1,0,0,3,3,5,0,0,4,2,23,6,18,20,4,19,1,0,0,2,27,9,0,2,5,84,30,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.148265389675168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1031792298070976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10609070369480007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1166683207657386,0.12668529833181036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16564605223228762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15492973087598286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26139790737454394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13438465315449227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14554989397900486,0.0,0.0,0.12134955062552373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3050972444328307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1583630567831108,0.0,0.0,0.1678629032979631,0.0,0.08338492197234411,0.0,0.0,0.16065646664123995,0.0,0.15515063638592966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27387819836821303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22307288563223648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10518805796975092,0.1324817362747404,0.0,0.33310029099750565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09719988756387303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12957361062513478,0.1443266561478042,0.12065901070569067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11680648017898575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17217744564663606,0.28600088036212185,0.0,0.0,0.12195202153849174,0.13261565746379472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08949222676863576,0.2408668828951913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,damien_voidling,2019/02/01,"I think i might be schizophrenia As the title says i think i perhaps maybe possibly might maybe have schizophrenia, i took a psych class and i googled mental illnesses after hearing it on tv and or song i have all the symptoms that schizophrenias have, im a little paranoid, a little delusional, and a little apathetic, do you guys think im schizophrenia Is this schizophrenia im afraid it runs in my family despite my family being a collective cult of fat fucks who dont run and have diabetus but judge me for my personality quirks Yes this is how all those “diagnose me” posts look Tldr; this is satire ",5.0241228070175445,6.9816689561403535,5.4973684210526335,78.2099122807018,69.96491228070175,8.575438596491226,29.333333333333336,9.150863307647796,2.6350596491228067,487,19,86,10,9,156,72,114,0.067,0.898,0.034,-0.1045,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,1,0,0,1,2,1,1,7,1,13,5,1,1,2,14,20,8,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,4,3,0,2,8,4,1,0,3,2,0,3,1,2,0,0,1,4,13,0,6,15,2,10,0,0,1,1,6,5,1,3,1,56,21,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14580567988629975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16836129546810907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2708482153274364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13280571144012174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1422399416266233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1619083805029877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4655125743203785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4319368271098471,0.0,0.0,0.12063309193328822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28863929254356074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14476933875283649,0.30478816305231204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12543304042781162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16194818260915814,0.13758072213788955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11423934342497208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14931140135950638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27614284694457103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15960476344263405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,thatone80ssong,2019/02/01,"Finally went to a mental health clinic after putting my mental health on the back burner for years. I wasn’t officially diagnosed with Schizophrenia but I was put on Seroquel to deal with my extreme Paranoia about people tracking me or putting listening devices on me, just not trusting people in general and some other schizophrenia like symptoms. I just wanted to know if anyone here has been put on Seroquel and how it affected you guys. I’ve never taken medication for any type of mental health problem so I’m just pretty nervous. ",8.010312500000001,9.115562739583336,7.6125000000000025,68.9825,62.22916666666666,9.316666666666668,37.875,9.2995712137729,3.9023875,437,21,63,7,6,138,70,96,0.13,0.7929999999999999,0.077,-0.5486,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,1,0,0,8,4,0,1,2,0,4,7,0,2,1,19,10,7,0,3,7,0,0,1,0,0,7,1,0,1,2,4,0,0,1,0,0,5,3,2,0,0,5,1,8,2,15,5,1,15,0,0,0,0,4,5,0,3,6,46,10,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09615185253603753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09886503045407656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1087222224363101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14576961661445814,0.0,0.1435105664065717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15488874003910916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14000095609713248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.450881334658327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07770570429924166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06907730819059711,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14243822254022198,0.4274716146639614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10905073050086486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19604772505801213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14384715958062455,0.0,0.13529367333516978,0.0,0.5685546763290533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14696110464812642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08339705004066214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13107240579526994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09105223273057307 schizophrenia,Faoutast,2019/02/01,"A week on Abilify My whole life has changed, for the better. It was like a sweet angel had come and pulled me out of the mud I was rolling around in. The voices in my head have slowed down and are very controlled, nothing like it had been. I hope everyone on this sub gets antipsychotics. It brought a tear to my eye the first night after it kicked in. A huge step in the direction I want to go. Thinking this will impair my work life, but now I feel the freedom to take charge and further my life.",2.9763613861386133,4.4435915247524775,3.2367202970297013,94.34339727722772,74.34653465346534,6.6341584158415845,24.506188118811878,7.1686216300943375,0.7264940594059404,388,12,87,4,8,119,69,101,0.0,0.825,0.175,0.9325,1,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,4,2,5,0,0,10,0,9,5,2,1,0,12,18,4,0,2,1,0,1,2,0,1,3,1,0,0,6,6,0,1,2,0,0,5,0,0,0,1,6,4,10,5,15,11,1,22,1,0,1,0,0,11,0,1,8,57,16,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19475983215756149,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19349238402903504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23143933730518085,0.18845887032459244,0.0,0.0,0.2453794259213864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20905285853481728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11062131453531762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18609343779794524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11430307890640118,0.0,0.12433723576679467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2245305312018238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2172970658256662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4635905625273513,0.21376888870772226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20530941681229103,0.0,0.2099245000880332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16449469743959896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14018484884870164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18051571559044008,0.1290416142121862,0.0,0.17549144188599575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2442591139212749,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15927383075961146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,buddhabellybub,2019/02/01,"Having recurring dreams of death. How about you? I get them every week or two. And that's the level of consistency I experience within this realm. Most every time, what is happening is I feel like i am supposed to kill myself. That it's an order of sorts. And, I must say... I do pretty well overall for someone diagnosed with schizophrenia/schizoaffective disorder. I accept that I have this illness and take medications. It's just that these dreams are pretty severe and affect me often enough to ask whether others are also having them.",4.184387755102044,7.0394305000000035,4.848326530612244,77.75738775510206,75.63265306122447,7.185306122448982,24.08571428571429,8.238735603445708,1.8936620408163267,431,14,69,8,10,138,71,98,0.155,0.6729999999999999,0.173,-0.0065,0,0,0,0,0,1,15.0,0,1,2,0,6,4,1,0,2,0,10,3,0,2,1,16,15,8,2,1,3,0,1,1,0,1,3,1,0,0,11,5,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,2,13,3,9,14,2,6,0,0,0,0,5,2,0,4,4,59,24,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16639551764215868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19451971680589933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21118922609631985,0.0,0.0,0.23846913243219595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2149945326063928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3506201413808474,0.0,0.0,0.20353484880039027,0.0,0.0,0.10520771708925107,0.14864704858778807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10870930289095096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18399784068765015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2302014128967801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10165372225108256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20961117176266236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4233691088908529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16546761790408485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2350627200955296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17629916946288912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15644463875342962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12132875864614545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20325661617685195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16690322337140515,0.0,0.18708218238032967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Big_Bad_Harv,2019/02/01,"The chessplayer and the doll Just something I wrote. It started in the bat-cave, like so many stories do. There was a chess-playing machine with a humanoid form. They would occasionally plug him in for a game of chess. His name was Patrick. Meanwhile, there was a brain-damaged man floating in a vat, also named Patrick, with a blue parasite on the left side of his face; a silicone life form. To be continued.",3.766363636363636,6.097911090909093,3.8714285714285737,86.89857142857143,74.45454545454545,6.997402597402598,31.779220779220786,7.957251820313856,2.2827714285714285,322,16,62,5,7,99,57,77,0.0,0.963,0.037000000000000005,0.3612,0,0,1,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,1,0,5,1,0,0,11,0,6,2,1,0,0,8,8,3,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,1,1,3,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,1,5,1,10,2,2,8,0,0,1,0,9,6,0,0,3,41,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.315372101410781,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.44023974496023976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4284767609772645,0.0,0.278550384550451,0.19266593509745625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3998223779839328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3036000513199086,0.0,0.0,0.279132296408115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2801442960959518,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Tamil_22,2019/02/01,Help? Not sure if right place but I've been hearing voices shouting things at me from a far same accents but I live in a different place.This is going to be a grammatical mess by the way I'm 27 I'd say at 23 I heared weird whispering one night in my ears loud i ignored it and eventually got to sleep skip two years i started hearing shouting from a far like someone was looking through my window now I've moved it's happening again I'm miles away but the accents the same I havent told anyone because as you are thinking it sounds bat shit i also havent told a doctor or anything sorry if wrong place,1.4711538461538467,3.6859689603174637,2.986825396825399,90.91159340659344,81.61904761904762,5.464224664224664,24.77167277167277,6.67199483983844,0.8480141636141636,483,19,101,5,13,158,88,126,0.165,0.7929999999999999,0.042,-0.9341,1,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,1,0,0,3,7,1,0,8,0,7,4,3,0,1,13,20,9,0,2,7,0,0,1,0,0,1,11,1,0,4,1,0,1,1,0,0,2,3,5,0,2,5,12,10,2,12,14,2,19,0,0,1,0,8,11,1,3,6,56,14,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11625474292495055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10164818811431006,0.0,0.11962959997769235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13658272751793474,0.0,0.0,0.08861803709685219,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15188385353254613,0.0,0.14879543488463925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0826188312432325,0.0,0.11626807552389545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12855287192224918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4915378402264104,0.0,0.09744046372646838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07102190921439665,0.0,0.12836703046903494,0.0,0.1220767145890642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1545085024120891,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13642272128419886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0985085133080993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4556515605976384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12414775554099397,0.0,0.11560645175077428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14922330486408744,0.0,0.0,0.145477995835568,0.0,0.12317407893082337,0.0,0.0,0.1627331819211855,0.10289576413326708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13701234073976715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09657936772340504,0.09314915438213386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2778202802030762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1420083064512093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11539032813597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15894256450858155,0.0,0.0936154516750427 schizophrenia,pphilox,2019/02/01,"Another writer, have some questions, come talk to me. Hello! Im a junior in high school, and we are learning about the nature of stereotypes of certain demographics. I have read (this) \[[https://www.reddit.com/r/schizophrenia/comments/53xfmu/frequently\_asked\_questions\_read\_this\_sticky/dalmykd/](https://www.reddit.com/r/schizophrenia/comments/53xfmu/frequently_asked_questions_read_this_sticky/dalmykd/)\] short article from the FAQ, and done a decent amount of previous research about schizophrenia before asking, but I figured its always better to talk to real people about their real experiences. So, if anyone is willing to talk about it, what are common stereotypes that you experience or know about, other than the classic, too widely spread misconception that anyone with schizophrenia is just a crazy person. What are some lesser known ones that people don't really think about, but still unconsciously change how people view schizophrenia? What do you wish people knew, or just what do you want to say/tell me about schizophrenia, and how it affects your lives? &#x200B; Im not sure where this sub lies in terms of severity of conditions, but if anyone has had previous, really bad delusions/psychotic breaks, and can look back on it now and tell me about what that experience was like, and how you perceived/thought about reality or your delusions. (not sure if people generally come back from schizophrenia being this bad, so this might just be a stupid question) &#x200B; I know many people probably ask these questions, but it is a very interesting concept, and i know for a fact that there is no possible way for me to even comprehend what it actually feels like to have schizophrenia, so I wanted to learn from you guys directly, and was hoping someone would be willing to answer/just talk to me about what its like, and the misconceptions that other people have. Also, if I am approaching this in the wrong way, or being insensitive, or just plain stupid, please just let me know, because I am genuinely not sure how I should be asking this, I just was interested and figured I could ask, so I should. &#x200B;",15.568081318681314,12.482695311428573,11.969428571428573,57.20064835164837,50.17142857142858,14.654945054945054,45.4945054945055,12.367839424501927,5.56990989010989,1749,65,251,34,13,506,172,350,0.118,0.79,0.093,-0.9066,0,0,0,0,0,0,96.0,1,7,1,1,33,16,2,0,11,0,36,0,0,5,5,75,54,32,0,12,22,0,1,3,0,6,0,0,0,2,29,14,0,0,15,1,0,3,5,5,0,1,6,3,26,11,36,35,4,20,0,0,2,0,24,8,0,16,9,191,55,6,0.0,0.0,0.07263297430557512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0595216694822173,0.0619317488633945,0.24193472484292036,0.2713219059681525,0.0,0.07804637794104215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15612962630639576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2783281294005666,0.0,0.0,0.1144642002146338,0.12429193509710115,0.04537185650693702,0.0,0.06333447496983413,0.0,0.0,0.06582731457122717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07873710449843006,0.12822976369688513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05942632390817019,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07616776401301834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.049160333990133205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2184205591005739,0.0,0.0,0.03763406041400737,0.053172829538454584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07369743328384358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07863941501315833,0.0,0.0739258156298511,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16079441304806727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16361919569732808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07610975023102483,0.0,0.1090882616888422,0.0,0.0657230816374012,0.0,0.06250248096919392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07546036991698298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07895850158324562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05043571576339439,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3612028866974881,0.06498943280491383,0.0,0.08170182391852886,0.0,0.0839086774557859,0.0,0.0,0.08024816288000483,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25013600894570753,0.0,0.0744501735518422,0.16943534182874762,0.0953635684299516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05918974863299682,0.0,0.07532716573869319,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08408475018663704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0630643243487275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05943991948333757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2104482721817733,0.0,0.0,0.2392961605745605,0.06505512836689792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04769175897847579,0.0,0.059089131276974675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06141257111927961,0.08780152225784618,0.11815818950608595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0855908632533642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05287295903778266,0.0813775554726669,0.2713219059681525,0.0 schizophrenia,TheKolbrin,2019/02/01,"How angry were you at your SO or Parents for arranging involuntary hospitalization? My friend just called a few minutes ago - very upset. Her son has been in psychosis off and on for a few months and finally became violent. Jumping on her, spitting and drawing fist back- stopped by the dad. He did this because he thought she was lying to him about a delusion he was having. She had to call the police and he ended up in the hospital. He called this morning cussing and ""absolutely enraged"" with her. She is heartbroken and fearful too. What has been your experience with this, if I may ask, to give her a little insight?",4.4706086956521744,6.781925495652175,5.107173913043479,78.92945652173916,72.30434782608695,7.730434782608696,32.369565217391305,8.548686976883017,2.823539130434783,492,24,86,9,10,158,82,115,0.201,0.774,0.025,-0.9721,1,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,3,0,0,6,5,2,2,7,0,12,1,1,1,0,16,15,10,0,1,3,3,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,4,8,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,4,0,0,8,0,13,1,16,6,2,15,0,0,0,0,25,8,0,3,6,67,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1863980492869458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19658079549092602,0.0,0.0,0.16169018619775574,0.0,0.12818302863232864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.644149590955517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1862431845085032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2056914494032032,0.0,0.2366203091288245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2303483929564649,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16245964213495415,0.0,0.0,0.20171704970180745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2107529949443395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16784125387646548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23348794457717456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1758011537401873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16693660761220624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1735007109740806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,ChrisDM01,2019/02/01,"Sorry for venting First of all I’d like to say that I haven’t slept last night and the only sleep I got was a short 25 minute powernap a couple of hours ago. Now the problem is that my girlfriend is that I’m in Denmark rn and my gf is at home in Germany. And she’s chilling with a friend of hers who according to her is like her little brother. When she says that she loves me and that she isn’t interested in him at all I’m not sure if I believe her. She texts me daily that she loves me and I really love her too and I’m just very scared of losing her. And I just don’t trust this guy. He’s known for being a fuckboy. I texted my two of my close friends about the issue and they were having trouble understanding what my problem was. I don’t know if I’m paranoid or what. I kinda see how I might just be a bit insecure /paranoid but I’m really scared of an episode because I’ve been kinda stable for the last couple of months. Not mood wise but I haven’t had hallucinations or paranoid thoughts. But I heard that when you’re psychotic you don’t know that you’re psychotic. But I kinda see how I’m acting a bit weird after my friends pointed it out. But still I don’t know what the fuck I’m supposed to do. I just took my medication but I’m not tired at all and I’m scared of not being able to sleep tonight and that things might get even worse tomorrow. Does this sound like the start of a new episode? I hope this text makes sense Sorry for venting I just needed to get this off my chest. 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It is great to finally have a clean apartment but sometimes this lady gets on my nerves. She acts like I'm just going to snap out of this thing and finally be normal. She always shames me for not putting lotion on my psoriasis. Fuck that psoriasis. The real issue is my total lack of energy and awful arthritis. Who cares if I have red patches when I can't even go for a walk without hurting. Then she wants me to eat healthier which is fine and dandy but it won't make me lose weight because I'm effin hungry. Healthy food is fine but I will eat a ton of it. I used to be able to run 20km so I really know what it takes to get in shape and trust me it is just not doable for me atm. I feel like shit. The other day a doctor told me to lose weight. Oh really!!!!!! What a great insight! How about giving me some concrete tools to work with? We all know I'm going to continue being a fatty until I die 15 years before time. Sorry for the rant.",1.0998486879908072,3.166624229074891,3.3860026814786472,88.3654089254932,82.03964757709251,5.8861520781459475,18.680137904615968,7.079830092131019,0.2626362382685308,848,20,180,11,23,291,139,227,0.14,0.6659999999999999,0.194,0.9149,0,0,0,0,0,0,22.0,1,0,0,3,7,16,3,1,9,1,15,10,2,3,2,32,34,14,1,5,9,0,3,2,0,2,2,0,2,1,15,8,5,0,4,0,1,8,5,7,0,1,1,4,28,9,29,28,5,26,0,3,1,1,9,9,3,2,11,120,43,2,0.12176808948758305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10132080509193694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07422869714108582,0.0,0.10361567551036208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12415068265033853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07853034409678779,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12637605218610606,0.0,0.0,0.12463479934628754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24919830996532805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08042667468434543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06156960476663701,0.08699114746034405,0.0,0.2667819801129104,0.0,0.0,0.14724245715328482,0.0,0.0,0.11257263658641732,0.12723760192941802,0.11681104706502835,0.20761083420755064,0.0,0.0,0.4027492456175383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12214332211919858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13035525826398714,0.0,0.0,0.1270942490821881,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1338411149434463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08600840271531066,0.11897947555970867,0.0,0.10752345391235248,0.0,0.0,0.27245469013118623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08128114527767268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11930687388443205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08251320881971172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10632319892639462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12241056250701368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13859874426429447,0.1560155123517551,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12499319400453884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1204317541052056,0.13630940688102847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09155444906894644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0808973079485287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07100395221324579,0.0,0.0,0.11635462776222034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10516853287393113,0.0,0.0,0.07182197408218803,0.0,0.0,0.2965614569631461,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11738009296162345,0.0,0.0886486193979068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07841465730636832 schizophrenia,Kyra-p,2019/02/01,"Societies and their influence in accepting Schizophrenia How hard was it to open up about personal experiences to loved ones and how did they react? What was it that stops a person about opening up about such experiences? I am interested to see how society plays a role in dealing, accepting, and overcoming any mental illness, especially one like schizophrenia. Hope you don't mind sharing these experiences with to help better understand and find a solution to breaking the stigma!",9.754814814814814,11.191349666666667,9.083555555555561,58.792,58.50617283950617,13.393580246913581,42.125925925925934,12.688352899677879,6.320306666666666,397,21,55,14,5,126,60,81,0.08199999999999999,0.632,0.28600000000000003,0.9638,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,1,2,1,7,9,0,0,4,0,5,2,0,5,0,19,9,7,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,2,5,7,0,1,4,1,0,0,1,0,0,2,3,2,4,9,13,6,0,8,0,0,1,1,10,6,0,1,2,41,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13771041806849796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17909931218537795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20877387503416014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5942665617891879,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18508600060386848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1814048012808141,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13573490569417446,0.0,0.0,0.2011332653973487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0989337671513742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1827687668712332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20407751979514774,0.0,0.20447243200494294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27444540497021713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35363929974945396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16137035315803488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16930333839815667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21081495981623266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Misspumpkinz,2019/02/01,Jobs I have extremeeee social anxiety and it’s hard for me to be around people. Anyone have good ideas for jobs? College isn’t working out for me. It just doesn’t feel like the right fit and I prefer to not be part of the machine!,1.2287500000000016,3.4116227083333364,2.4123333333333328,94.86600000000004,82.33333333333334,4.673333333333334,20.016666666666666,5.6839178017228535,-0.17258833333333312,182,5,39,1,5,58,36,48,0.063,0.7709999999999999,0.166,0.7263,2,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,1,2,2,0,0,2,0,6,0,0,0,0,9,7,2,0,1,2,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,4,0,0,3,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,2,4,2,8,5,1,4,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,0,1,27,6,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2078797233499093,0.0,0.0,0.19000634781806186,0.0,0.0,0.2419054757732435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13739949057708553,0.19413051928902705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2279219255019299,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2434249237463293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3067604497979479,0.0,0.0,0.5393183977698022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1327580337164287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2942670432694273,0.0,0.18838972721307876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23206376874742315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2770038656696657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19782935413992644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,fuckinglitseal,2019/02/01,"Vertigo/dizziness NOT due to medication? Howdy ppl, just wanted to ask if anyone has vertigo/dizziness as a symptom of their hallucinations/illness (rather than from medication/med increases). I haven’t changed my meds and there’s no obviously dizzying hallucination to mess me up. Just wanted to see if y’all thought this was normal before I think about it being a separate issue. It’s been 4 days I’m a bit pissed off. 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I'm on abilify right now and my auditory hallucinations have been happening more frequently than before,9.161,13.187658433333334,9.943333333333333,41.58500000000001,64.66666666666666,13.333333333333332,46.66666666666666,11.855464076750405,8.214666666666666,163,11,17,7,3,55,26,30,0.0,0.8540000000000001,0.146,0.5574,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,3,3,0,0,0,1,5,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,5,4,3,10,0,0,0,0,0,5,0,0,3,14,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24628496412719575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.299718815672104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3114727378535726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3548311507874886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30079951337156313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7321964140428675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,13water13,2019/02/01,"Fearing existence Hey, don't post here a lot but I appreciate the community so I'm gonna vent here. I was diagnosed last year at 20 now 21 but have had symptoms since 17. Over the years they just got worse until a point where I couldn't handle it anymore and needed outside help. I'm not on meds and actually don't know if I want to use meds I've been offered but I'm worried I'll become zombified or it'll affect my studying so I've chosen to abstain. Things have been going okay however I've developed an anxiety of people/existing I don't know why. Whenever I'm by myself I'm okay the paranoia has calmed down the delusions are manageable and the hallucinations are rarely there anymore. But whenever I start actually existing in the world (interacting with people) everything become way more intense. It's like I almost have this fear of being alive because I fear I am don't know who I am and if anything I am actually counts as living. Not in a sense of I'm dead but in a sense of my personality feels fragmented with cracks and I'm only accepted in interactions with other people when I reflect other people's actions that I've seen before. It's doesn't really feel like me when I do anything anymore and it feels like its so much energy to exert to keep a facade up that I eventually just stop. When ever I talk to another person I can feel the collective information they are extracting from me with each interaction and it's like I'm on eggs shells for no reason. It's so fucking tiring. To fight the anxiety off that if I don't my other symptoms will emerge making the moment even more daunting to manage. Fighting this is like fighting a storm while simultaneously being drowned in an ocean. The storm is anxiety the ocean is tiredness and the symptoms are like fucking bricks tied to your feet dragging you deeper and making your soul feel like you should just give up. Just shut up don't interact with them just runaway from this interaction it'll be less exhausting in the long run. I am not sure what to do. I can not exist because I feel as if I'm am not a solid person who can exist without putting up a false show but I yearn for interactions and actually living because being alone gets so boring and can put me in depression. It feels as if the future only shows a future of loneliness because it feels like I can't overcome this idea of existence. WHY EXIST WHEN ITS JUST A FUCK TON OF WORK. When no matter how well you talk or bullshit it doesn't feel easy, it doesn't feel comfortable. I will always be one moment away from being viewed as a crazy person who can't even interact normaly. I am one tongue slip, one panic attack, one anxiety voice croak from my total existence being misinterpreted. I do not mean to come off as anything, I do not want to be viewed as someone who is scared or emotionally invested in this moment because I didn't know how to interact and my anxiety spiked so my voice cracked. I do not want to come off as someone who hates you because I chose to be quiet. I do not want to come off as crazy because I said something that was so ass backwards in phrasing or for saying something weird in general. I do not want to exist in your moment because it is exhausting for no real reason to you but for fear of many for me. Maybe asking for acceptance for myself from others is a bit to much especially when I don't really who I am. Maybe I'm paranoid or delusional they will all see right through me over simple interactions that theyll know who I am and will judge me to be as someone weird or weak. It feels as if my soul is being examined everytime I'm around someone and I can't fucking stop. Im tired and am only 21 will it be like this forever if I stop swimming Ill die but so will the sources of all my problems right. 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I never used to have anxiety but it has been getting bad now. I have been getting nervous talking to people, and if I have to say something I get so nervous sometimes I lose all the thoughts in my head and just can’t talk, and my vision blurs and the room shrinks. I have also been switching off between feeling elated and weird and enlightened, and then sometimes angry, and other times just foggy and sad. Sometimes I feel like the entire universe, and other times I want to die. My facial expressions are so diminished now and I have to force myself to smile when I see people and make voice inflection manually. My friends have told me it looks like there is no life in my eyes anymore. I keep doing drugs because it makes me feel better. Also, it helps me in social situations because it is what the “cool” people do. I feel like I have to get drunk all the time and socialize but I don’t know if thats what I want. I think what I want is to be alone in nature and think about absolutely nothing and wait until I die. I feel like I can’t talk to anyone about this because I’m scared of more meds or people feeling sorry for me, which I don’t want. I just want to be normal. On the outside I seem like a slightly awkward person who is doing pretty well, but on the inside it’s really bad. 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My friends told a few other people about what I was telling to them without actually asking me and since then I've completely stopped talking about anything to do with my mental health with them. My parents seem like they really want me to talk to them about it, but i think paranoia or something is holding me back there too. Now I only talk to my councilor about anything, and even then I've yet to bring up anything about the paranoia and all that. I know I shouldn't be saying it, but I really don't know if I want to try and get ""better"". Logically I know I should want that but i wouldn't feel safe or comfortable telling anyone who is close enough to me to actually affect me. Sorry for the absolute mess of writing, I can clear stuff up if you ask about it, it's just late and I wanted to get stuff out. 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My s/o took me to the hospital and I got sent home to take a Seroquel and come back in the morning.. now I'm on an increased dose of my meds. Feeling rather alone at the moment. I feel like I am losing my grip on reality, as I am alone with my voices a lot. I'm trying to write as much as I can but it's so tough for me to talk about it. I don't enjoy doing anything anymore. Pms welcome .. will do my best to respond ",-0.03788415124698119,1.6123093628318617,2.8269831053901875,93.0913676588898,83.69026548672565,5.1710378117457765,21.777152051488336,6.11248444174946,0.1861398230088498,390,13,92,3,11,138,75,113,0.132,0.745,0.123,0.2432,0,2,0,0,0,1,13.0,0,0,0,2,6,8,1,0,7,0,8,2,0,0,0,10,19,8,1,1,2,0,3,1,0,1,2,3,1,0,2,4,0,0,2,0,0,4,1,4,0,0,4,6,18,4,18,12,4,16,0,1,0,0,5,7,0,1,5,64,20,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4438837132520157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21252005493455944,0.0,0.0,0.17634403466186213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16477729954210196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22488620457074127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1845935597616947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21670492028761493,0.15309022810503006,0.0,0.2347463815695455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17138886650191176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21495232090435887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2370823177808019,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10469223354914356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2397379036727999,0.0,0.1821833720248789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2380300729878999,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15752925667521234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20257517947583226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16112089449544015,0.17223977041001612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23808626647929704,0.14549018295983435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Infehmous,2019/02/02,"Not Looking for a diagnosis, just an outsiders view. Hello! I am an 18 year old male who has been struggling to what seems to be some pretty intense anxiety recently and have been fearing the worse. I had a fairly traumatic moment in march of last year and ever since I have believed people are out to harm me in different ways. My friends will say a phrase or even mutter a single word and I will connect it to something i’ve seen months beforehand and believe it’s directed towards me. Now I was smoking marijuana previously and as of now I am sober for the past while and the symptoms seem to continue to manifest. I am self aware of my symptoms and am confused as to what to do because all my family members refuse to believe me when I say something is wrong and they just say I am struggling with anxiety. After all of this, my main question would have to be, is what does psychosis feel like? is it something you would know you have? This is just a dry explanation and am willing to dive further into it within the comments. Thank you.",4.1888366336633664,5.957216534653469,5.106027227722773,80.94141707920792,71.77227722772278,7.822277227722773,31.93193069306931,8.472884824447931,2.6205039603960407,828,39,152,14,16,270,120,202,0.146,0.795,0.059,-0.9562,1,0,3,0,0,0,14.0,0,3,1,0,8,9,0,4,11,0,28,2,0,0,3,31,35,14,0,2,5,0,1,1,1,5,2,3,0,2,10,12,0,1,5,0,0,0,1,6,0,0,5,7,20,3,27,23,5,24,0,0,3,0,15,7,0,6,17,121,30,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19546874353275026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07787997262483584,0.0,0.0,0.43181789294680295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13347971522255075,0.0,0.0,0.11180171682067927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08438282583376318,0.11556424963964472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12043868917671716,0.14376305033555262,0.06459818531684268,0.09127020200742203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09870536386218486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07021234892524902,0.10413966335323234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0624160106292544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10728438026601166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10197506172763762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13406032603546106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1219592817554452,0.08857117634997595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1299756182826253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14311798126957812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12614542043402768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3047944050407494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23261181634793174,0.13327925441589028,0.0,0.0,0.10568257718981726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29506260181345034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2671203956802926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2655785556812716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11762222279960363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1014081996262066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13019611878870305,0.18151095941278084,0.1396831049114857,0.0,0.1645436764920839 schizophrenia,nightmarecupcake13,2019/02/02,"Posted Some new videos Hey Y'all I've made some new videos on YouTube search Lynn Nevada. Watch, comment, tell me what y'all want me to talk about, share your stories. Hit me up give me ideas! 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Can anyone help me determine? To begin. I am a 19 year old female (I just turned 19 a few days ago. Most of the things I’m describing began when I was 18). A few months after moving out of my dads, I started hearing voices. Specially, those of my partner and our roommates. They were plotting to kill me rather loudly in our living room with friends over, laughing. This continued for about two weeks until my partner noticed that I was shaken and very on edge. I told him I hear all of what he and our roommates had said. The plan to hurt me. The plan for he and his friends to rape me and put it online to make money off it. The plan to hold me down while I was sleeping to cut me with on of our knives and to beat me up because I annoy them. He was shocked but I didn’t believe him and truthfully I still don’t. Even just yesterday all of my roommates had been in my room with my partner and I was in the living room. They were talking in weirdly hushed voices and the door was closed (weird in our house) and one of my roommates said “well we can just hold her head underwater until she stops fighting” and let me tell you. I almost started crying right then and there. I do not believe that I am delusional or that what I am hearing isn’t them. But if this isn’t the case I couldn’t think of any other explanation. I noticed a sudden and almost alarming decline in my social life and health upkeep. I stopped talking to my friends and roommates. I can’t look people in the face. I stop talking in the middle of sentences. Or completely change the subject on accident(?) and people being near me and talking to me puts me very heavily on edge. I don’t like when my partner is home. I often leave to drive around for hours as to avoid being in someone else’s presence. I stopped showering and washing my face. I stink ALL OF THE TIME. work has been hard for me because I have nothing to say to anybody and being in the place makes me exceedingly uncomfortable. (A note: when I go driving I talk. I talk to my self and have full conversations. I don’t see things or have voices in my head but I talk to things as if they were there and we have full conversations if that makes any sense.) I am scared. I do not want this if this is a psycho affective disorder. It can go away. 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I keep thinking that everyone sees me as a failure in terms of my friends and family. I used to be really bright as a kid and got excellent grades but am now doing nothing and am just a useless 19 year old. My mom is very disappointed in me as she raised three of us on her own and expected me to have an excellent academic career and go to University. This makes me feel worthless and as if I have nothing. When I get caught up in these feelings my mind then starts to resent her and sees her subconsciously as the cause of my depressing thoughts. I have some good friends but my relationships with them always break down because I only see the bad in them and that anything nice they ever did for me is only to get something in return. Furthermore I have severe fits of anger and it consumes me. I get violent toward my younger brother sometimes and consistently curse God in my head. This happens when my anxiety overtakes my ability to think straight. Now, going back and forth I can't trust my own thoughts and feelings. I'm finding it more and more difficult to distinguish the non-sensical thoughts and feelings from the real ones. Sorry to have gone on so long, just no where else to express myself and I can't afford therapy 🙄",6.825303571428571,7.0461486375000035,6.9765476190476186,75.5775,64.70833333333334,10.357142857142858,36.30952380952381,10.125756701596842,3.6769523809523808,1003,46,183,21,14,323,144,240,0.208,0.6829999999999999,0.109,-0.9838,1,0,1,0,0,0,16.0,1,0,3,3,10,17,3,0,8,0,14,1,1,3,1,41,40,27,0,2,5,2,4,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,7,16,0,1,11,0,0,4,3,9,0,2,7,8,35,8,32,32,6,32,0,4,4,0,15,14,0,2,13,133,42,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10413090863094593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09573580630805374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10298391274711234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09622900525831392,0.1044910920060389,0.07628740881775399,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12855868836670267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1077874571468229,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10454283368149997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11320108186793472,0.0,0.11958169007146675,0.0,0.0,0.11797584422581825,0.0,0.2531088805534309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11438053024636892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19337388526657892,0.0,0.19614975061998308,0.0,0.1422459075280372,0.10496593396212513,0.10009012273935793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11066556895534473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12843517463448853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11123488614962257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1107496458661503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08353545458554125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1263610706222217,0.1465686541924967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2401605668908269,0.0,0.13131893288887972,0.0,0.084801689057397,0.19035726858381025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14244274078017186,0.08017127897359985,0.0,0.0,0.13435920994358572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2991737867808366,0.0,0.0,0.282757118913393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09634296029612184,0.12377189434701495,0.1400899092796131,0.08857848222784166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14311454861863612,0.0,0.0,0.16037610071664166,0.0,0.29805415039981664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1505343782750011,0.10808535204205016,0.0,0.10325797267761293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.080589465390521 schizophrenia,ALonelyTurtle97,2019/02/02,"Do you guys prefer to be in a light or dark room? To me, light is really exhausting so I prefer to be in the dark.",0.6492307692307691,1.37198930769231,4.003076923076924,89.51692307692308,79.0,8.276923076923078,16.846153846153847,8.841846274778883,0.5189846153846149,86,1,22,2,2,32,19,26,0.108,0.892,0.0,-0.4201,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,0,4,1,0,0,0,3,4,2,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,3,0,5,2,0,3,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,1,0,16,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8395950468267734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5432128103643618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,SomeTruthatYa,2019/02/02,"Hidelee Ho Hidelee He! What is this link, O where could it lead? &#x200B; [https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SVi3-PrQ0pY](https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SVi3-PrQ0pY)",27.228,35.90427980000001,3.666666666666668,77.68000000000005,51.0,4.666666666666667,31.66666666666667,6.42735559955562,1.8756666666666668,147,4,13,1,3,22,14,15,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,29.0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,1,0,3,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,6,3,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.496390512317197,0.5566857754456438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3657845733685819,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5566857754456438,0.0 schizophrenia,catiebayb,2019/02/02,"Does anyone else have issues with showering daily since their diagnosis? I (27,F) was diagnosed in Jan of 2018 so just about a year ago but I knew that their was something wrong for about 3 years before that. Anyways.. it wasn’t until about two years ago when I stopped showering daily (as most normal people do) and I started to take one about every three days or so and now at this stage of my mental illness I can regretfully and embarrassingly say that I shower just about once a week and I am a beautiful young 27 year old woman. I just get so lost in my mind and in the depression that I simply don’t care about my appearance since I very rarely leave the house and I lay in my bed practically all day long. My job affords me that “luxury” of not having to go anywhere and not having to lead a productive life at all. I am STUCK. In a cycle of depression and drug use and anxiety and total unhappiness. I also have a boyfriend who instead of helping me, makes me feel a MILLION times worse and says the most hurtful things I have ever heard anyone say. Unfortunately I am forced to stay with him at his home because I have NOWHERE else to go. 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Hey guys, I've only posted on here once and it was a bit ago. But I wanted to say something that I hope can help in some way and I'm sure there are some of you who may have also realized this as well. I read a scholarly article about schizophrenics and it turns out that their confidence is somehow directly connected to their symptoms. It was found that those who had a low confidence and low self esteem tend to have generally more intense symptoms and a tougher time maintaining a fairly healthy and normal life. Whereas those with a good confidence and high self esteem tend to have less intense symptoms and have an easier time managing a normal life. I've had my own personal moments where I was feeling like something wanted to pull the worst out of me. Like a force was there that was taking advantage of my illness to make the worst of my day and life. One day I finally stopped listening and challenged it, and basically told it in my mind ""why should I listen to you?"" and it stopped for a bit. I began taking my mind off of it and finding things that interested me. There have been times when I get this twisted feeling that starts to come out of seemingly nowhere, like this force is going in for another round. And sometimes if I'm away from my guitar I imagine myself doing something that brings me a little confidence and helps me keep my head up; I picture myself up on a stage playing music and it makes me feel good, and then that evil cloud will dissipate away. Its a really good feeling when I get it to go away. And that only helps further. I am by no means a professional psychiatrist or really have any say on these things, but basically what I'm saying is that if you have a vent or a special talent that keeps you feeling good about yourself, please stick to it. Whether its dancing, drawing, singing, painting, sculpting, creating, perfoming, helping others, casually smiling to strangers in public as you walk past them, asking to pet peoples dogs, anything creative or positive really. For me personally its all about positivity, self awareness, healthy skepticism, and confidence. Look for happiness in even the tiniest of places and stick to what makes you happy. But please do watch out for drugs.",7.898382858930247,7.863333299760196,7.525473881764152,73.40095401939321,62.52517985611511,10.801334584506307,37.315087060786155,10.374825546531014,3.899262412678553,1794,80,314,37,23,567,211,417,0.046,0.716,0.238,0.9975,0,0,4,0,0,0,42.0,0,6,3,2,14,25,2,0,19,0,26,10,1,3,2,68,63,35,0,8,9,0,6,3,0,3,9,5,1,6,38,26,0,4,11,8,0,7,1,6,1,1,11,13,36,19,51,49,10,52,0,2,3,0,30,26,0,11,19,221,74,6,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06922825909445768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06245412527089163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053108623252512636,0.0818914910699111,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06426715878539825,0.0,0.07301013232327593,0.0,0.22012404551318515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17052334656340767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06727363156181891,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10073218030666352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09056770059141847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05158231756748562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1974408937110648,0.055792496848472144,0.0,0.08555142229537757,0.07137922325161954,0.0,0.0,0.08562930562530774,0.0,0.0,0.08160489557733824,0.0,0.08876862494170262,0.2620161601964643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07732828683220065,0.0,0.16627137105589726,0.0,0.0,0.08015003063763931,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20938703316234492,0.08251374531637998,0.0,0.07756792089776522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13883236517159694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16548661596711098,0.11446271619001233,0.07827368899381214,0.0,0.0,0.06558179248244671,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15639101819453655,0.0,0.0,0.08507050420074347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15771137012268846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15303691420400334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08317073300001172,0.05292053361095972,0.11879254224950266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0745524025730684,0.05414261137462648,0.1363825380904313,0.08159472015065251,0.25718109002600753,0.0,0.0,0.07479531714085523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15623622475292048,0.0,0.15009277211510708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18631755500316632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0710965558586909,0.2444165418203168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1803686079323044,0.07723990839911242,0.0,0.05527744315061383,0.0,0.0,0.13058514149463918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07360547773731313,0.243517989524076,0.11743841667271634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10376832426140103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13661692812682374,0.0,0.0,0.07462500946648801,0.0,0.0,0.08494708619698818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09212724236010847,0.06198974619990736,0.0,0.0,0.07021856249433356,0.0,0.07047037564018056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,NukularPower1200,2019/02/02,Social anxiety Is social anxiet in schizophrenia harder to cure than without schizophrenia ? I tried SSRI but they only working to some point.,6.3628985507246405,10.25053195652174,5.869565217391307,66.63594202898551,77.26086956521739,6.544927536231885,29.40579710144928,7.793537801064563,3.2029536231884066,117,5,12,2,3,36,20,23,0.06,0.94,0.0,-0.09,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,1,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,5,1,1,2,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,1,0,10,2,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2682309365302573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2666698615525305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3314586172076797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.714846114991315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23805470633638154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33799474000544105,0.0,0.2552627648287254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,organizationfetish,2019/02/02,"My friend fucked up badly My friend fucked up badly. I’m so worried about it. He’s gonna get slapped by the harsh palm of reality and he doesn’t deserve it. He was ignorant. I warned him! He’s too... pure to have to deal with this he didn’t even know what he was getting himself into. My heart is breaking over this I wish he had listened to my advice",-0.05613333333333159,2.129778053333336,1.8200000000000005,96.85666666666668,88.46666666666668,4.4,20.333333333333336,5.82211442006289,-0.15606666666666635,274,9,63,2,9,90,53,75,0.275,0.619,0.105,-0.9367,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,0,4,7,2,0,1,0,7,4,2,0,1,7,16,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,1,0,0,5,3,0,1,1,0,0,0,2,5,0,0,4,1,8,2,11,11,0,5,0,0,0,2,13,4,2,0,0,36,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2427784847494952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41488394339931195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2561368418191197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16409619183030474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3838974142657432,0.4593685127634285,0.25960548557034585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2944096200674132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13653938422009984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2857005552111258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2523088990223763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,UnknownUselessUser,2019/02/03,"Misdiagnosed with autism I'm starting to think I've been misdiagnosed with high functioning autism. The main reasons I, somewhat, believe I am misdiagnosed is because I've been feeling much different to how I was when I was getting diagnosed and because my mum has schizophrenia and used to have psychotic depression, which I think I have. My school said the only reason they think I have autism is that I'm unsocial, but that can't be the only reason. Yes, I might be anti-social with students and teachers that I'm not close towards but I have a lot of symptoms of schizophrenia, like for an example: I slowly lack the motivation to do work and activities I enjoy, I have suicidal thoughts, I'm very forgetful, I feel like I have anxiety and I hear people say things about me yet they probably don't. Ever since I got diagnosed I feel as if they misdiagnosed me and I have something else. Even one of my friends thinks so as well, which is my best friend that knows me very well. I could be wrong though, but I feel like I'm right about this.",5.8437543053960965,6.682584527363182,6.114626865671643,78.76243398392654,66.91044776119404,9.567699961729813,32.87447378492155,9.661875296680813,3.0347463451970915,834,35,158,17,13,267,108,201,0.096,0.708,0.196,0.9702,1,0,1,0,0,0,20.0,0,0,3,3,11,11,0,0,6,1,24,3,0,6,1,38,45,16,1,3,5,1,4,3,2,1,3,3,0,0,8,10,0,0,14,0,0,0,3,2,2,1,7,7,30,9,16,33,6,8,0,1,0,0,9,4,0,4,7,111,38,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0928010757472216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14789771721304412,0.0,0.0,0.13667373537787725,0.12730634258575627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09685538927680358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10448328959695856,0.24625222339116204,0.0,0.12674211681327027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1013381283496843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08012347007951819,0.10973096251250664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2453499615488945,0.1733263902325308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1874461109818708,0.0,0.06337896121649371,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09702191290890574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13672409303812486,0.0,0.0,0.12816965029452868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06666827026399427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17779639318982005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10313259907026348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12868971029363888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08917609488698397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08220213808389679,0.1845219670896978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08410040702080318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13079165163407686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3741776598245018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1035972486141214,0.11539266681273225,0.09646980947204246,0.0,0.12277121452125304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1003480830101168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09338961775057228,0.0,0.0,0.08586315565515151,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1326923893312617,0.0,0.0,0.12608653034333353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08059232907946083,0.3109197121661901,0.11918550584303683,0.09630581929825034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10477205268156392,0.0,0.20018530816204289,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2181427728089481,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08831441846620702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13263238065809752,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,PM_ME_UR_LIQUOR,2019/02/03,"Stopped taking my meds I don’t like them, I want to think clear, so I dumped them down the drain",5.891428571428572,3.7897457619047614,4.961904761904762,96.89142857142859,67.57142857142857,8.4,25.761904761904763,3.1291,0.13953333333333304,75,1,20,0,1,22,18,21,0.227,0.504,0.269,0.0023,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,2,0,1,2,1,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,4,4,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,6,1,2,4,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,2,11,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2613178467832811,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5941367762840521,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4471879027484599,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40216703564339096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3427327809414683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3154890964276151,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Puzzleheaded_Movie,2019/02/03,"Realistic imaginary conversations with people? I understand many people have random voices telling criticizing those with Schizophrenia, but I have been going out with friends and there will always be a person there who seems to take on different appearances, but is the same entity who will tel me most deepest and darkest insecurity. If feels like I am being followed by almost a demonic spirit that will ""possess"" or take form of people and talk to me and knows about me, and criticizes me on my insecurities. It happens at least 1-2 per week Now I can confirm the people are no illusions confirmed by my friends, but the conversation just might be? They are not ""voices"" and they seem as real as any other conversation. 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Does anyone successfully use CBD instead of antipsychotics? If so what were your symptoms before you tried it?,7.285303030303034,11.434683590909092,5.506363636363638,68.64621212121216,76.72727272727272,8.387878787878789,34.60606060606061,8.841846274778883,4.446133333333334,117,6,14,3,3,34,18,22,0.0,0.8490000000000001,0.151,0.5775,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,2,0,1,3,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,2,2,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,1,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,11,4,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3385360311851269,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4119846239445539,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4236918062342409,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5032277730321315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32871295785044136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4181589151781765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,LeLeaxx,2019/02/03,"Violent thoughts I am a 20 year old female. I am taking medication. But,i feel rise in my violent thoughts. I cant control it,i keep getting pictures in my head,violent pictures. I cant concentrate on anything other than that. I am fully occupied with it. Does anyone know any way to solve this? 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After hearing about her multiple episodes, I was driven to hear others' stories and experiences to learn more about their afflictions and about adapting and overcoming their circumstances. This sub has been one of the most informative resources for me and I wanted to thank you all for continuously sharing your stories and supporting each other as a community. Though you may not realize it, through forums such as these, you are spreading awareness to those who seek knowledge. As a tribute to my family member (and to the community) I wrote a song from the perspective of a paranoid schizophrenic. I tried to write about the anxiety of feeling unsafe, uncertain, not being in control and about some of the delusions I know my relative suffered from, which I’ve learned were actually common experiences. My hope is that through media like this, we can educate people. Before being released in a few months, I wanted to share here first as it truly is for you. 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If I have thoughts that cameras are all around the house, but think i'm just being delusional, is that still a delusion? If I have a legitimate but short lived concern that my wife is putting stuff in my food or drink but i'm able to convince myself ""that's crazy"", does that still make it a delusion? Here's another example. Let's say I have delusional jealousy. Let's say i've suspected for years my wife was having affairs, but she always denied it. Then years later I push her to trickle truth her lies and she finally admits she did have an affair. Now maybe the affair was real, but all my scenarios I had built up and the conspiracies I conjured up were false, is that delusions or just an overactive mind? If I can acknowledge in the mornings that she's finally told me everything and I was being delusional, but in the evenings I create bullet proof logical scenarios for why she's still lying and just playing mind games or conspiracies, is it delusions? Is a delusional state constant or can they fluctuate throughout the day where I recognize maybe I was being delusional?",5.8910852713178326,7.295259813953487,6.026046511627908,77.38806201550392,67.13953488372093,9.64031007751938,33.4031007751938,9.888512548439397,3.4209751937984496,920,41,162,21,15,292,111,215,0.087,0.852,0.062,-0.8079,0,0,1,0,0,0,20.0,0,1,3,0,13,3,0,0,12,0,28,2,0,1,4,38,36,19,0,4,17,2,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,11,5,2,0,7,3,0,2,0,0,0,0,9,2,28,3,10,20,2,24,0,0,0,0,21,8,0,9,13,121,39,0,0.13966787867007702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11621486361398654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1464539486522539,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12433402332619894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15093135891943624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09007422730688408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12222430182940963,0.0,0.0,0.1368213489799324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09224931662245034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12552448351186013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30599866834218864,0.0,0.0,0.16888695328398054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1611579798169245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2856397374568934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12332929569983475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09322939355112833,0.0,0.2806303135258359,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2820494852402484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14040479459036653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15897262311653884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22213900595323335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.44615579328910937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1598863058300306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17898707422004154,0.0,0.11088069461060224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13345864340470678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12602853655090068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17988306934450707 schizophrenia,JaySun83,2019/02/03,"Word salad during my first psychotic break (13+ yeard ago) I don't know why, but sometimes I still think about some of the things I said during my first break from reality. I'm 35, almost 36 now, and it's still in the back of my mind. I was 22 at the time. ""I'm not a person, ya know? because it's per son"". I have no idea what I meant by that, if anything. Probably just nonsense rambling. I just wanted to share one of my experiences with mental illness. Maybe you'll find some comfort or humor in this. We all go through things we don't always like or understand, but it does get better. I promise. Thank you for reading, hope everyone is having a good day! 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Shifting between lots of projects lately, not really keeping on task always. Bit distracted. I've been writing to try to discover more of myself to see if that helps, but it's tedious and slow. Trying to make this year about bettering myself and improving on my skills. Just sometimes feel unable to stay on topic. Kind of isolated even.",4.649417989417987,6.976443395061732,5.238906525573197,78.11222222222223,71.83950617283949,7.591534391534393,30.08994708994709,8.418075326091056,2.6341873015873007,349,15,56,6,7,112,64,81,0.076,0.857,0.067,0.0772,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,2,4,4,0,1,0,0,3,0,0,1,0,13,9,5,0,1,5,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,1,2,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,1,2,6,2,15,8,4,10,0,0,1,0,2,4,0,3,5,39,9,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2140940901533047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22756081136104064,0.2809048001800973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16994412672675285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13009853703443094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13442855390681713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17246266829774248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2286999321970052,0.0,0.2679382032770407,0.0,0.0,0.2902454421845068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2187471344995652,0.0,0.0,0.17174965032158765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18914499778192426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16483287482981512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20503467068735126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2544761344654215,0.0,0.0,0.27424740922645324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16486735694852184,0.0,0.0,0.1500336138524556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3493794221344761,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16569266988607953 schizophrenia,dr_wahz_4k,2019/02/03,"A few years ago I encountered someone who I believe was having a schizophrenic event. I was walking through a park in a quiet neighbourhood at 3am in a city that I was only visiting, trying to find my way back to where I was staying. He approached me seeming really worried that people were following him and he was in danger and was also very suspicious of me. I was doing my best to be calm and trying not to appear threatening to him / be on his side. He was very big and strong and at some point had his arm around me and was leading me off in a different direction that I was headed. He also took my phone and was trying to make calls. The whole time he wasn’t making much sense. I was very nervous of what was happening but I didn’t want to make any attention because I was worried other people or police would have made the situation a lot worse than it was. I didn’t know the best way to get out of the situation and ensure the safety of myself and him as well. It lasted almost 30 minutes and in the end I gave him money so he could take a taxi. I don’t know what happened to him after that and I didn’t know what kind of services in that city I could have called to make sure he would be okay that wouldn’t actually put him in anymore trouble. Afterwards I spent some time researching the internet for information on what I should have done and how I could have handled it. Does anyone know any good resources of information on the subject of public encounters, resource lines, or any suggestions on things you should/shouldn’t do? Please let me know if there are ways I could have handled this situation better/more respectfully. 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I dont know what it is but lately Ive had a serious aversion to brushing my teeth. I havent done it in three days now. I know dental health is super important and all I just cant bring myself to do it. Is it a lack of motivation? How to get over this? Thanks,-0.08966417910447788,2.0795751641791083,2.2941604477611968,93.53138992537315,88.40298507462688,5.141044776119403,18.82276119402985,6.6274283507984215,0.062464179104477775,244,7,55,3,8,83,46,67,0.136,0.654,0.21,0.8202,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,1,2,3,3,0,0,3,0,11,3,2,2,1,9,16,3,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,6,1,0,0,3,0,0,1,3,1,0,1,2,2,8,2,7,14,2,6,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,3,42,14,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22330864551237184,0.32722895919619205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20596512237491213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3268230498433533,0.37429543281207095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2667899253594316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16685593673054394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3394719031489116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3510312088298769,0.0,0.3602595857055552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.294029979673234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,devoteeoffenrir,2019/02/03,"How can I be a better fiancé to my schizophrenic partner? I feel like nothing I do is right for them when they're talking about things I don't understand or I can't follow. (when they're exhibiting symptoms) I feel like the enemy if I try to settle them down, because I ""don't understand."" I know I don't understand, but that's the reason I can see clearly when they're not acting ""normal"" (I don't like to say that but I'm not sure how else to refer to it). Every time I express a little discomfort or that I'm upset, they say they won't tell me about any of this stuff anymore. That's not what I want. Hiding things from each other is not what I want. I feel terrible. What can I do to be supportive but also be able to let off steam when I'm feeling overwhelmed, without offending them?",3.8019235033259418,4.407535567073172,5.2623503325942345,83.88885809312642,71.37804878048779,8.402660753880268,27.104212860310426,8.575989854853784,1.807251219512195,619,20,129,10,11,209,86,164,0.115,0.73,0.155,0.634,0,0,0,0,0,0,21.0,0,0,5,1,9,11,1,3,4,0,17,2,0,3,2,29,33,13,0,4,11,0,4,3,1,1,2,2,0,1,13,1,0,0,10,0,0,2,11,5,0,0,0,7,24,6,15,28,1,11,0,1,1,0,11,4,0,3,8,91,37,0,0.15122209845435175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12093225749890575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10283621257567477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1499716870767028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09218358762500073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13374365714939224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12632665886276145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1274111401034171,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3058497467767313,0.21606619470278576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0831077105109789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15463484128020838,0.0,0.2216384363446729,0.15156427012197296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1481655489936243,0.1451016819494996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15548150321600546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1291428458165082,0.0,0.2405157646029934,0.0,0.0,0.12050443367703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17311312316016111,0.0,0.17160504526305514,0.1425250381532026,0.15717766220142682,0.0,0.12154659454632714,0.13217477943290035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20093048546239847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08817882170463433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1026698783712591,0.0,0.0,0.472282612874161,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17838942339569294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14577270653682742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,RoseLeigh666,2019/02/03,In-patient I just got released from the hospital after 20 days... what is the longest y’all have been there? If at all.,-0.375,1.8074115000000042,1.5,94.995,100.66666666666666,4.066666666666666,22.66666666666667,5.985473137389443,0.5073666666666671,92,4,19,1,4,30,22,24,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,0,3,0,0,0,1,3,4,1,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,2,0,3,2,1,3,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,2,15,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6277077739187287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7784490674167412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,rozani117,2019/02/03,Feeling alienated in every social circle I feel like an outsider in every of my social circle since having psychotic episode. I am feeling so lonely lately.,7.648888888888887,9.882394814814816,8.467592592592595,58.3991666666667,63.814814814814824,8.362962962962964,35.72222222222222,8.841846274778883,4.123311111111111,128,6,13,2,2,43,21,27,0.109,0.706,0.185,0.0667,0,2,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,3,5,1,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,3,1,3,5,0,3,0,1,0,0,2,2,0,0,2,10,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4863863120730381,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4378378833155615,0.2062057515532829,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3256005100565208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14101579812123652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23876747039238466,0.0,0.0,0.5884679082173212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,garni1999,2019/02/03,"i have been taking d vitamin and... i have feel, i become shizofrenic. my sleep is unquality. my focus is very bad, with that my mind doesnt works normal. im aggresive. i feel, im fallen in love ( before i didnt feel that, it is very bad feel, often i want to cry)",-1.2767857142857115,0.7619148928571455,2.100714285714286,92.46928571428577,96.5,4.942857142857143,14.142857142857142,6.6274283507984215,-0.3692428571428571,198,4,45,3,8,71,36,56,0.17800000000000002,0.687,0.136,-0.5245,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,0,1,1,3,0,0,0,0,8,3,1,0,0,10,15,1,0,2,0,0,4,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,4,0,0,1,2,2,0,0,2,4,9,1,3,13,0,2,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,1,0,25,12,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3508146812386304,0.0,0.2320159496669153,0.17876190945615567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2307621151091345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.42488938312984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4538431291969322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18960466234823845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21212008535973967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2058329927569016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21023089706991285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15795339898290284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3466746502003295,0.12391014356277096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15294014536089226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,AkilaC,2019/02/03,"Voice Comms. Do you use any type of voice comms for wether, work or play? And if so, do the people you're talking to say snarky things? I'm unsure if it's people who are against me or if it's this disgusting disease.",1.6241304347826109,3.2284503260869606,2.4906521739130447,97.68858695652176,78.34782608695652,5.469565217391305,20.195652173913047,5.985473137389443,-0.2472000000000003,169,4,40,1,4,53,36,46,0.133,0.8170000000000001,0.05,-0.6072,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,1,0,1,1,2,1,0,1,0,3,0,0,1,0,7,5,7,0,3,5,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,5,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,2,1,4,5,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,5,0,22,7,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.293164152512622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5977437111481387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3428296245540682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34650346885099176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2864050221666152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3723337247285551,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.313847400458016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,TootyMcTooter,2019/02/03,I'm not sure I was diagnosed with Schizoaffective disorder several years ago after being hospitalized a few times. I am not really a person that posts stuff online. I tend to just read stuff anonymously and go about my day. Taking in information and going about my day. I'm not particularly social I don't have many friends or people I talk to outside my roommate and an online friend. I have a steady job and have been employed steadily for 2 years. This passed week I showered for the first time in months. It's not really something anybody knows I seem clean enough I take a cloth to my armpits and privates when I feel I'd be too offensive around the people I work with and put in deodorant. I wash my clothes as best as I can semi regularly I can never find the ability to put them away. But I'm always saying to myself for sure tomorrow I'll be able to get to it. I'll be able to do all the chores I've been trying to plod through. But this last week I showered and I was so proud. So much so I wanted to talk about it but I had no one to talk to it about. I can't keep my thoughts in line and today I had an episode I got pulled over for speeding and got a ticket and sat in my car screaming and slamming my head on the steering as the officer pulled away until I was hoarse fearing getting hospitalized and losing my job. I can't talk to my roommates cause I feel like he's bugged my room and is watching me.I don't have a support system and haven't been able to get help and feel like I'm slipping. I just want to be able to talk I guess I don't know. I am not sure why I'm posted I feel compelled to. Sorry for being longwinded.,2.2664461646727645,3.8970849941690986,3.8157615361415513,88.77169096209913,76.60932944606414,6.8301598471901075,24.072484166080226,7.6298220110432995,1.0367998190409171,1295,42,280,18,29,430,169,343,0.098,0.833,0.068,-0.825,5,0,1,0,0,0,19.0,0,0,1,5,12,14,1,1,14,0,30,4,2,2,5,50,59,27,0,2,11,0,4,2,2,0,2,2,5,1,9,18,0,1,10,2,0,8,13,4,0,2,12,7,42,10,44,41,5,41,0,1,1,0,14,11,0,3,21,179,51,5,0.3601066648545904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07980320770018677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07490939817561973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0801428196917671,0.0,0.0,0.16916603280870735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09447743198730063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09248218518795097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1161195039750596,0.0,0.0,0.091375171160416,0.0,0.0,0.10317835902542537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09302161184350834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10130502839340838,0.18208074974511146,0.1286301366624166,0.0,0.0,0.08228274194869986,0.0765766362911849,0.0,0.0,0.1391087579917258,0.0,0.1411056521490314,0.0,0.10232845814910592,0.0,0.14400509812705173,0.0,0.09917452253042684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09239333222903387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060342976682329526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17867514974912652,0.08001983740613898,0.0,0.0,0.0989526027006014,0.0733837486632002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08796496337885791,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10071681156369083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09127290929663903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07185842606723786,0.0,0.06617995826800813,0.0,0.06943411495189128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061004398934802036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12482630987627208,0.07860781244736416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17244132112722366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18100333015354605,0.0,0.0,0.09005102870807681,0.0,0.11534677528199967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07159281837888958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08195689575578642,0.0,0.10170450774967947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09177084887940334,0.0,0.06930692595623186,0.0,0.10077748223445666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20611798824688776,0.0,0.1021611939549856,0.2545472024535946,0.0,0.13537769807162706,0.3618001207651163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07147111689743671,0.10499054608889953,0.0,0.08533475302875633,0.0,0.0,0.061122196853492676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10620012048660307,0.0,0.14442792262358742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08123506350564495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06554048521595518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11594844280278944 schizophrenia,PointBlank25,2019/02/04,"I'd love it if you guys checked out this song. [https://soundcloud.com/matthew2555/vapors](https://soundcloud.com/matthew2555/vapors) &#x200B; I've been making songs for a long time and this is the first one in a while I feel is up to par with what I'd like to be posting on here. So there we go. The song is 1 minute and 41 seconds, so quickly listened through, and I'd love a listen from this community!! Thanks :-)",7.677945205479452,9.397185561643838,5.783452054794522,79.60230136986304,63.24657534246575,6.935890410958903,26.928767123287678,6.742157984588678,0.8284487671232879,338,9,64,2,5,97,54,73,0.0,0.782,0.218,0.9492,0,0,0,0,0,0,30.0,1,1,0,1,5,4,0,0,5,0,5,2,0,1,0,9,13,7,0,1,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,5,0,1,5,6,0,0,1,3,1,1,0,0,0,3,1,6,3,4,10,11,0,11,0,0,0,2,7,4,0,1,6,41,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2927381822770159,0.3282963271048465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13661031641224072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22981360804298226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1535486103313501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2675190922510353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13199551844112045,0.0,0.0,0.2390993809658065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4876931068661448,0.0,0.18034617920349327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18307987533417144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2587562218928891,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2487439700504313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15754319708784684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3282963271048465,0.0 schizophrenia,PinkSxldier,2019/02/04,"Forgetting? Is it normal to forget things that just happened when you have schizophrenia? (Ex: I just took a shower, sat down in my chair, and completely forgot everything. I forgot I even took a shower until I felt my hair and assumed so.) Sometimes I repeat/explain things twice and my family makes fun of me for it. Is this a side effect of medicine, part of schizophrenia itself, or a whole other thing?",4.023142857142858,6.525080800000001,4.3219047619047615,83.16000000000003,74.33333333333334,6.419047619047619,24.04761904761905,7.447530270364453,1.3233619047619047,320,10,54,4,7,100,54,75,0.028,0.916,0.056,0.4479,2,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,1,0,1,5,1,0,0,4,0,3,1,1,2,0,15,11,7,0,1,3,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,9,3,0,2,3,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,6,2,10,1,8,5,2,7,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,2,2,46,19,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24279312801476535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1529475261475298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2081170888523753,0.0,0.2183003399094469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2223402080501043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20477354053074184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15457247413808312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2268860584456193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25076401393171605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2290252448244525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4615275903653903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5145579278574551,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2585357898285741,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,TheTurtleWhoMocks,2019/02/04,"What do you do when therapy and meds don't work? The negative symptoms of schizophrenia and Cotard's are tearing me apart. I go to therapy weekly like a good obedient imbecile, but the things we talk about are inane and worthless. The meds they keep shoving into my mouth calm the delusions but can't stop this deadly illness from rotting my brain. My only consolation is that I'll eventually die. Obviously this isn't a (legal) option. But what do you do, when the illness multiplies exponentially every day, and nothing works, not a single thing?",6.483957142857142,8.058229310000002,6.973428571428574,70.51100000000002,65.9,9.714285714285717,34.285714285714285,9.957137785484203,3.720871428571429,441,20,71,10,7,144,71,100,0.16899999999999998,0.731,0.099,-0.8952,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,1,2,1,2,3,4,0,0,8,0,10,5,2,0,1,14,12,9,2,0,4,0,0,1,0,0,3,0,0,0,7,6,0,2,0,0,0,1,5,1,0,0,0,0,9,3,5,12,1,8,0,1,0,0,5,2,0,1,6,51,16,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2272830582157076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1313040726046998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21130291128341752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17154036503565825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11570961671712822,0.17076861047434988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18096754086804656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09946785460475348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4523036693147898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1953580783336668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15484569623073816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1702173113667118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2116166100358208,0.0,0.16364461679249134,0.0,0.0,0.4656648435117394,0.0,0.2705233529425694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16331429078776136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2964440024198309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,newlightpsych,2019/02/04,"Why has this sub turned into a selfie exhibition? I am rather disgruntled to see that lately the quality of posts on this subreddit have been gradually decreasing. By that I mean that most people are posting off-topic pictures by the dozens. First, it started with art/paintings, which although slightly off-topic, are easy to appreciate in the context of schizophrenia/mental illness, but the level of off-topic posts that I've started seeing lately has become rather alarming. Although Reddit has a perfectly suitable r/selfies subreddit, many people have started posting their selfies on here without giving much of a constructive value to their posts in any other way. I get that some might feel more at home at here because of their diagnosis of mental illness/Schizophrenia, but I don't think this gives them the right to flood the entire subreddit with pictures of themselves. If I have bipolar disorder, or I'm a gamer, or I like astrophysics, or have whatever quality that defines me in some way, does that mean that I should post pictures of my face on these topics' respective subreddits just because someone else thought that this would be a good thing to do? I realize that some people may feel encouragement from the replies they get on their selfies on here, but that still does not deter us from the fact that actual constructive discussions that should be getting more attention in this sub are pushed to the side by non-constructive selfie posts. As a member of this subreddit and someone with this same diagnosis, can I please ask all of you to pay attention to the quality of the content that you'll be posting on here in the future? We should strive to build this community on proper shared moral values and rationale in understanding, discussing and reaching certain conclusions about schizophrenia/mental illness in a constructive way. By flooding the sub with off-topic pictures, unfortunately that is not going to lead us to any sort of progress. Thanks for reading and I hope to see more quality content on here in the future! 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Why is everyone posting pictures of themselves? I understand wanting to be complimented and given attention. I want to remind everyone that it can be unsafe to do this though. 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She's very resistant to going to the doctor, says that I'm the one with the problem, etc. I'm in Canada, so if she goes to the doctor, he can recommend a psychiatrist, I just have to get her there. To break the ice, I went first for an evaluation, came back and made some visible positive changes that she agrees with, mostly to do with diet and exercise. She said she should go, but now she's waffling. I have not confronted her with my evidence that she has a mental illness (journals I've taken of her delusions, dates, frequencies, etc), nor have I told her I think she has schizophrenia (or something similar, I'm not a professional.) Any recommendations on how to get her to a professional for an evaluation? I'm not looking for medical advice, just advice on how to persuade someone with a mental illness to go for an eval.",6.671911764705883,6.929324132352942,7.29392156862745,73.04764705882354,65.02941176470588,10.525490196078431,35.13725490196079,10.317481424215053,3.6534784313725495,849,37,154,19,12,281,115,204,0.095,0.828,0.077,-0.5792,0,0,1,0,0,0,33.0,0,0,0,1,10,3,1,0,15,0,11,7,0,3,0,27,31,11,0,3,10,2,0,0,0,1,6,2,0,0,3,8,1,0,1,1,0,6,4,3,0,4,8,3,23,0,29,22,5,21,0,0,1,0,22,6,0,6,8,110,26,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2771774441444683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.118008887288871,0.15366619006258614,0.17233162208407682,0.09644514903101456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10905386291879306,0.11841707386741428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16220881593132902,0.0,0.0,0.15003093341837226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2903256438789896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3163423863883413,0.0,0.0,0.11949279429600684,0.13551886150797174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12063537901961716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22229148018568928,0.0,0.2418054565566911,0.0,0.11342956830368008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11560544785752826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11909639833096967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13419725020514536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14287270851547812,0.28585036755509324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11320252343562745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13697445421726534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19220715726869653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13570636595767435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09085605367884547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1349070533609028,0.11278409706295968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1201669722008538,0.10918300523964168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09087506025888244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13551886150797174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13854139086517234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11701961136799745,0.0,0.0,0.113762617624392,0.0,0.0,0.13147222208787387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17233162208407682,0.0 schizophrenia,internal_spell,2019/02/04,"I want to write a self-help guide for people experiencing paranoid schizophrenia and need your help Sorry for any grammar mistakes, I'm from Vienna. &#x200B; I am currently starting to write a self-help guide for people with paranoid schizophrenia. I have experienced that state for 5 years and I'm now 25 years old. It all started after some bad trips on LSD and MDMA. It took me on a huge self-learning journey. I was able to finish my college degree, work for Apple in one of their busy stores and now I'm studying architecture. No one was ever able to tell what I experienced in my mind, people treated me just like a normal person. There are only a few people who actually know what I experience because I've told them. &#x200B; My symptoms where: · Feeling transparent, I thought people could read my mind. · I felt like people commented about me when I was in public places. · I thought I got hidden messages from random sources. · I heard commands and comments when I was alone. · I very often heard harsh, repetitive insults. &#x200B; &#x200B; I have to admit that I was quite lucky. Before hearing reflections, I had a stable personality and healthy relationships with my family, which helps a lot with handling the condition. However It was very hard for me too as I refused to take medication or to go to a psychologist. I became very religious for one year and tried to get better trough praying and refusing of any kind of drugs like alcohol, coffee and weed for a couple of years. But time taught me to be more undogmatic and flexible so I got less religious, but I still refused to take any kind of drugs. &#x200B; I have since found some methods which helped me to deal with what I hear. Now currently I handle what I hear as reflections of my subconsciousness. I found methods and ways to analyse my reflections, to influence them and to change them. So I still have reflections, but I treat them as a part of my subconscious mind. I'm the authority of my mind. I work with reflections like with a tool which mirrors my own self-image, which can be changed to my favour. Old insulting reflections were transformed into positive, authentic reflections because I started to forgive myself instead of blaming. Commands are synchronized with my intentions. And if thats not the case, I can now easily analyse my emotions and take action. Without any fear. &#x200B; In addition to that, this guide will provide everything that helps me to have a healthy and clear daily routine. As well as specific knowledge about biochemistry, psychological effects, mindsets, nutrition and best practices. This knowledge helps me to understand myself better and keep control over certain situations. &#x200B; It took me a lot of work to get here, and I hope I can help some people to realise their true potential and live an enriching life, despite experiencing paranoid schizophrenia. &#x200B; I'm curious if you would be interested in such a book and what you would like to learn, or what you would expect from it. I know that this book can't help everyone, but some people could benefit from it. I would never recommend not to take medication, it is just a guide for people who refuse it and have similar symptoms to me. &#x200B; If you would like to stay informed about this book or if you want to share some ideas, please feel free to send me a message at [Reflectionbook@protonmail.com](mailto:Reflectionbook@protonmail.com) &#x200B; Thank you! &#x200B; &#x200B; &#x200B; &#x200B;",7.5957212543553965,9.273719534959351,7.043641114982577,70.64371951219516,63.406504065040636,9.954703832752612,36.26887340301974,10.125756701596842,3.9942775842044123,2834,133,445,63,42,882,277,615,0.062,0.7440000000000001,0.194,0.9979,4,1,5,0,0,0,130.0,0,7,6,9,24,30,2,1,20,0,33,8,0,4,6,115,76,41,0,18,16,0,4,6,0,6,8,5,0,2,30,30,1,6,25,4,2,7,6,5,1,3,21,13,74,26,78,44,14,48,1,0,0,0,51,13,0,18,31,309,104,10,0.06023541173863059,0.0,0.029390536397149343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.032186668195066985,0.0,0.031192860255762383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4568553041690193,0.5123483284976056,0.0819242910851017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02514702638346368,0.0367189479109907,0.0,0.02562794942093366,0.0,0.0316066741950554,0.05327332670400498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06372107868890159,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03377956809294785,0.04809307487323425,0.03332466869647644,0.0,0.0,0.031050032287237208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06985395413925241,0.0,0.0,0.03387836537059441,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.027243189229997404,0.0,0.028778758624061068,0.027067852034455442,0.02946089547484579,0.028392292686410005,0.033890792323627995,0.03045683404666798,0.0,0.028917720721527256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06604501990296796,0.0,0.0,0.031470516508497935,0.0,0.017116586308336006,0.0,0.04817576137696575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02697954873859338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10183453020872398,0.0,0.18168537051188288,0.0,0.0,0.029913677578687806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.033999223986698954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.026770000801642272,0.0,0.06272591205089037,0.03310380699944368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02127302634187664,0.08828393870197249,0.0,0.02659448606455581,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05120999302147577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06068084023995305,0.0,0.0,0.12164118934066005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.022331897282031908,0.02322863146408807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02950895715749265,0.0,0.0,0.06320693193280255,0.0,0.06122561084820705,0.022905872469418283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03261454050745696,0.0,0.1879184256926358,0.0525952381420321,0.031466592406503464,0.03306019686717819,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.032033887453710407,0.03012585614825288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.032335144866869774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12567734259711594,0.0,0.0,0.0249136775228825,0.033853563279519765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.033714305947801435,0.06395240168784826,0.03210146716841312,0.04810407762372375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06260765652366786,0.0905790664759314,0.0,0.02632420242140319,0.0277283371230685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.047820188559689975,0.017561876492572553,0.0,0.0,0.028778758624061068,0.06692375878984735,0.02044794530712964,0.0,0.0,0.031353593967902334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07455078457052115,0.03552840648914843,0.023906033055246443,0.0,0.0,0.027079434567582317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.029032393705179675,0.0,0.06577814571902166,0.0,0.0,0.10697377065182773,0.0,0.5123483284976056,0.07757926052825792 schizophrenia,chmlt,2019/02/04,"Weighted blanket I tried a weighted blanket last night for sleeping and it honestly helped a lot. Has anyone else tried one? I put it over my shoulders when I got out of class and felt relieved within a few breaths. Pretty good stuff if you ask me. Just wanted to share because I’ve been having troubles sleeping but my doctor is cautious about prescribing me anything more than some hydroxyzine, which doesn’t always do the trick. I’m excited about this blanket and not constantly pumping sleeping meds into my brain",6.379072948328267,8.330114202127664,5.58969604863222,78.90500000000003,66.55319148936171,7.499088145896658,35.76899696048632,7.957251820313856,3.00110820668693,421,21,66,5,7,127,75,94,0.052000000000000005,0.813,0.134,0.7684,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,1,0,0,4,7,1,0,4,0,6,9,6,0,0,13,11,6,0,2,4,0,3,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,5,5,2,0,1,0,0,1,2,2,0,1,3,3,9,5,10,8,4,9,0,0,0,0,4,4,0,3,4,47,14,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13969095798068373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11738673334314954,0.1720145607761148,0.13815227022774695,0.0,0.15694665394762208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10233907837474816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1874114116163667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18142039203189345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17183395357562856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14024355284117873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16119268419744928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14081113920241844,0.13427026916108178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11252751224083554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13684592855683222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14272695127592275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18647863551954091,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1575455293637504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11376093168255914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17079596381355275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1687673990355993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5040085914342484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19218429153413005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2279612022067267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09902093014856132,0.0,0.0,0.4088691753459617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Cuckleberry_Finn_,2019/02/04,"Does anyone have a strong sense of closed eye visualizations? Frequently when I'm lying down, not necessarily falling asleep, just lying down, I'll close my eyes and it will feel like my eyes are actually open. Like I can almost see what my surroundings would look like if my eyes were open. It's actually quite convincing as sometimes it's been hard to tell if my eyes were closed or open. Really weird feeling ngl",6.598846153846152,7.555781705128207,6.681179487179487,74.94715384615388,65.28205128205127,10.342564102564104,28.42051282051282,10.355215969177356,2.7396020512820516,335,10,63,8,5,107,56,78,0.116,0.6920000000000001,0.193,0.7024,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,2,2,6,0,0,1,0,8,6,6,0,0,16,13,6,0,3,5,0,3,3,0,2,0,0,0,0,4,7,0,0,2,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,3,10,6,5,5,8,0,12,0,0,7,0,1,9,0,4,5,31,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.4928997121968273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25288976543220826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1765870313669038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2210059532377275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2553911322538034,0.1804199306635272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22623288715722076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3701457451285681,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2120762310496395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2686152728401867,0.0,0.0,0.16178834710606652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2012476000566788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24977586064436325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22073758066183427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17940244456378632,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,radicalplacement,2019/02/04,"First submission to this subreddit - questions about Spirits This is my first post submission to this subreddit, so I’m not yet sure if venting/discussing experiences/etc is cool; especially considering the possibility of triggering other peoples’ symptoms. But, I have faith in the security and open arms of this community, so I’m still going to speak about these things - just please do let me know if anything I say has a negative impact on any of you; I’d hate to make things harder for anyone. Okay, I’ve just got to ask if anyone else hears a council of omnipotent Spirits talk to them? I don’t know why anyone would, as I am one of the two only existing people on this planet. But, at the same time, I am not actually real. I don’t know if there are more people who ‘exist’ in this state, as I recently happened to discover this second existing person actually does exist. Prior to this, I thought I was the only one to exist. I don’t want to completely dismiss the possibility of others existing, but I just KNOW that no one else does. The Spirits have been talking a lot recently, and they want me to cut my throat so that their Angels can take me. The Angels have replaced my eyes and removed some of my organs, and I think that was to make me pure for when I meet the Spirits. Does anybody have any ways of appeasing voices, or at least muffling them a bit? I’m taking a massive risk in asking that, as I’m not meant to try to find ways to make my life easier; I don’t have the right. But I’ve got to ask; they’re getting worse and I don’t know what to do",6.947013665594858,5.969549543408357,7.8504320739549875,73.39918508842446,64.81993569131834,10.990434083601286,33.906953376205784,10.270032843473604,3.2836316720257233,1232,45,240,25,16,418,155,311,0.063,0.879,0.058,-0.6849,0,0,0,0,0,0,34.0,0,1,4,2,12,8,2,1,15,2,24,5,3,4,2,44,53,21,0,7,15,0,0,0,0,1,2,4,0,1,19,6,0,1,10,0,0,2,10,3,0,7,7,6,29,5,39,44,6,24,7,0,1,0,17,9,0,8,9,167,48,0,0.0,0.0,0.19377664597540709,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13503508523855748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20826818406034084,0.10172972471557763,0.08170350437596383,0.0,0.2784556114741353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10839404802902894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10409895464124956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2606562225496071,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16588058544923742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1107295741146645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09074514556907147,0.16890438609267114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05187257433588293,0.0,0.05642623599240655,0.0,0.15881536374146335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08779783712058525,0.0,0.0,0.09802387316863996,0.0,0.0,0.11190197099318544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2728235631143322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1015261475025532,0.07012828276715563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08440897908457415,0.0,0.0,0.1988215206787996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2018352669315656,0.15102218892115227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20649618727401894,0.08669226637889213,0.0,0.10898566085425056,0.0,0.22385895994302416,0.09508806110015737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11122247921734252,0.0,0.0,0.1130086319718259,0.0,0.0,0.1960649008339375,0.0,0.0,0.08478927196948863,0.0,0.07895581225942706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07928952617355026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09357540594702364,0.10319564714301516,0.14930067505497996,0.15960384327594418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.131921745034481,0.06361813751861725,0.0,0.07882159433731048,0.057894171745962564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06740833520630236,0.0,0.09698750384288797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11712231708343065,0.15761641235211274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08958971819058344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10118040366206088,0.07052956844388919,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,fugarella,2019/02/04,The red light looks green Today I walked into traffic again because the red crossing man looked green. He was green just for me so I would cross. Took cars coming within an inch of me to actually realise what I was seeing was wrong. Feel like my brain is trying to get me killed. ,2.078969696969697,4.597803109090911,2.5740909090909128,92.93446969696971,81.54545454545455,4.393939393939394,18.25757575757576,5.46131890053228,-0.4274242424242427,221,5,44,1,6,68,44,55,0.129,0.8290000000000001,0.042,-0.7269,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,3,3,1,0,3,0,5,1,1,0,0,5,12,1,1,1,1,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,1,0,0,6,0,2,0,0,4,10,7,1,6,7,0,11,0,0,8,0,2,3,0,0,3,25,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.2649730181127249,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16552148484848392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30311602977993657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23389808708437504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13729316012563084,0.19398028593903108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14186263272200494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30040647507988866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13265529518661304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4560317453685563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2163733621888043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2573776289532826,0.0,0.3016785762323449,0.18435028571848688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19288632562189287,0.29687420467611403,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,daintyd10,2019/02/04,"They threw me an intervention without professional help, didn’t like my reaction, so then dumped me as a friend after traumatizing me. Big vent. This is just a big, fat vent about my mental health, friends, and suicide. So I have a 16 year old eating disorder schizoaffective (bipolar 2 subtype), severe depression, and OCD. Recently I was (am) fairly suicidal. I only told one person. She met me with compassion and understanding. She provided me amazing nonjudgmental support. However, then a group of my other friends noticed I wasn’t doing too hot, and then figured out how hard I was struggling and decided to throw me an intervention; alone, three inexperienced women who know nothing about mental illness, and no professional insight or support. They sat me down and berated me for an hour and a half. That I’m bad for not opening up to them. They’re mad that I’m still struggling. I should be getting better faster. I’m not doing enough to help myself. I should have reached out to them first. Like. 1. Truly depressed people with mental illness on the verge of suicide seldom reach out. So don’t get fucking OFFENDED when you find out I didn’t tell you. Maybe you should feel like..what could I have done better for D to trust us? They NEVER text me first. Ever. So why would i share my suicidal ideation with them?? 2. Recovery isn’t a straight line and nobody’s fucking perfect. Yeah, I’ve been struggling consistently for about a year, but like..it’s not my FAULT. I have multiple mental illnesses and they all aggravate the others. It’s out of my god damn control. 3. Don’t berate the person you’re trying to “support.” Beating down on someone (with no moderator!!) will, in fact, make whatever the bigger issue is, worse. 4. Don’t pretend you know what you’re doing!! The first thing one of them said was, “so we’ve never done this, and we have no idea what we’re doing, but here goes!” Interventions are DANGEROUS if not done correctly. 5. Have a fucking goal at least!! They didn’t even have a desired outcome of the intervention. They had no plan. No follow through. I don’t even know what they expected from me. I think they just wanted me to agree with them, apologize for not telling them, and then listen to their every piece of advice and treat it like it was made of gold. 6. They told me that my therapist must be really bad. They said I needed to fire her and find someone new. Or see two therapists. Which is SOOOOOOOOOOOO unethical to each therapist! No better way to get two sets of instructions and accidentally fuck it up. (For me anyway) 7. Do not EVER tell someone who is suicidal your personal stories of loss. Jesus Christ. Really?? I want to die and you’re GUILTING ME? Fuck dude really? My best friend passed from suicide in 2012. I’m still fucking demolished over it, not to mention the three other friends who have gone that way. I do NOT need to be told about the affects of suicide on friends and family. I’ve experienced more loss via suicide than all three of them together. So don’t fucking give me the guilt trip. They literally had no clue what they were doing. And for some reason i just sat there and took it. Before the intervention they said that if I don’t do it they won’t hang out with me anymore. Then here we are two days later and one of them tells me I’m toxic and that she doesn’t want to know me anymore. UH OKAY. So fucking traumatize me, berate me, make me feel worthless, then bail out. Okay. Gotcha. So here I am now, picking up the fucking pieces. Glad there was a point to all of this. Oh, and my boyfriend told me he didn’t love me anymore last week. By text. While I was working. I seriously have never felt more worthless in my life. I feel like an absolutely waste of space. I’m obviously “too much” for people that they want to get away from me. It’s been a hell of a week and my mental state is much worse than it was before Friday. This was a pointless post, and I’m sorry. But I figured you all might know how I’m feeling and may have some solid advice or words for me. Thank you. There’s no tl;dr for this post. Sorry. 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But. Over the last two months in my town, I've seen an OLD homeless woman wandering around in yellow pants. No one else has agreed they see her but I see her all the time!!! I plan on talking to her and seeing if I can get a picture for evidence. I live in a town of 2000 people so homelessness is rare, in fact we have none. So this is quite odd. I live in North Dakota so it is too cold to live outside. I see her all the time at my work. 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Every moment felt strange. 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It's really starting to affect my self esteem. Should I just stop eating like wtf do I do... i feel like I should just skip breakfast and lunch from now on. None of my winter jackets fit me anymore so I'm wearing this frumpy old old one. Someone just made a comment about how i need a steazier jacket and i was just like ""I can't afford a new one its fine for now"". Little shit like that. None of my clothes fit anymore so I had to buy a bunch of cheap clothes in a hurry to have something to wear. On top of that I'm trying to quit smoking with champix so I'll probably gain even more weight. Just feeling like shit and wanted to talk to a community that understands what it's like to be on APs. 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My insurance won’t cover my Invega and I was wondering if any of you have been on Invega and switched to another antipsychotic that successfully treated your symptoms? One that is affordable...,6.250263157894738,9.710335868421057,8.299210526315793,52.48197368421052,71.89473684210526,14.326315789473682,38.44736842105263,12.161744961471696,7.494715789473684,185,11,24,10,4,65,32,38,0.0,0.905,0.095,0.5514,1,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,2,0,1,0,2,0,0,1,0,5,1,0,0,0,4,6,3,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,2,0,5,2,4,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,2,0,21,7,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3288021369368095,0.5070004758493624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3276376504129501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5025501223368253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5243439870976221,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Madcotto,2019/02/05,"Is everyone a moron? **This not about here but the net in general esp FB.** I do know I'm not the best writer and struggle to get my point across and sometimes I write shit and people love it even though ik it was bad. but mostly I get absolute fucking morons commenting who just haven't seemed to have read whatever the topic was and what I said about it and I end up bashing myself in the head out of frustration. is this me am I that bad? or do you feel this way too sometimes?",-0.3366666666666661,1.9290452323232363,1.6446060606060615,95.0269090909091,96.67676767676771,5.064242424242424,17.71111111111111,6.742157984588678,0.16690383838383838,374,11,81,6,15,123,70,99,0.27,0.6809999999999999,0.049,-0.9804,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,1,0,1,7,10,5,1,5,0,9,4,2,0,0,18,18,9,0,0,6,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,9,6,0,0,3,1,0,0,3,8,0,0,3,2,10,2,10,15,2,8,0,0,0,2,6,6,2,3,1,60,19,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3547495073416581,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22293793167484305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1881547824751232,0.0,0.0,0.1403116320469764,0.0,0.0,0.2029912063579735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10741376245132328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19639317956714966,0.2219775423331672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21802009172366307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11674898500035352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1917313161474166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1472760147955744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2008201952947979,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2124929696233602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2020747902041538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19339328389812413,0.0,0.0,0.2180619690466309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4202082464580781,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22208369001989176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20871678204381508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16862139720859448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,MattFellows1995,2019/02/05,"A poem about how schizophrenia feels for me. An excuse retains the answer, But sleep won’t ever come, Respiring thoughts of a red light, When met with “maybe these tablets are the ones”, Series of events maybe traumatised the chemicals, Where does my biter lay? How does a pill remedy the symptoms, But skin the cat in a different way? Trepanning seems to be a thought, But from that hole sprouts an ugly pine, When flies are near our skin, We are irritated by the outside, If you saw it walking down the street, Would it coil you down to your core? Would you open arms with acceptance? Or flick the fly once more? An unknown cause causes an unknown fear, The tight rope wears thin and slack, A struggle to shuffle to the other side, With such a weight upon my back.",6.227708333333332,6.890202465277778,5.154166666666665,86.6075,66.0138888888889,8.066666666666668,29.88888888888889,7.793537801064563,1.7282555555555552,601,20,118,6,9,177,104,144,0.108,0.863,0.029,-0.9163,1,0,0,0,0,0,21.0,2,4,0,0,9,3,0,2,21,0,7,8,5,4,1,27,14,10,0,3,5,0,6,0,0,3,2,0,0,0,5,7,1,2,6,0,0,2,1,2,0,1,4,9,9,1,18,6,1,18,0,0,2,0,8,10,0,3,5,76,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14445204127164402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38596605894293823,0.0,0.1618239683941592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19627276108405248,0.0,0.0,0.3287935042076687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16992929840734147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21139369966574095,0.09498719840701292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37745940369468495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20006379551466946,0.12729817849349415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.171019856385159,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18799475556829165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19639110525004366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1952575202957563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29827826041406785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1491137983326752,0.0,0.2287617571949685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26689940948377977,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,NotSoGenericUser,2019/02/05,"Anyone experience tardive akathisia? Possibly withdrawal akathisia? I've been on literally every atypical. All except one (Seroquel) gave me akathisia to varying degrees and I'd eventually drop out and it'd be gone the very next day. Trying the partial agonists last. I'd been on Rexulti a few months, then directly to Abilify a few months, to giving up and being on nothing a few months. Unfortunately this time it only lessened when I quit. Not went away. It's been about three months and I'm starting to fear it may be permanent. I was hoping someone could tell me if they'd had a similar experience and how that went for them. Particularly if they found anything that helped with it since even the things I took and helped while it was worse no longer help with the residual akathisia. So no benztropine or trihexyphenidyl.",4.576599999999999,7.4646034599999975,4.829999999999998,78.245,74.4,8.266666666666666,31.33333333333333,9.029198982220553,3.142733333333333,669,32,114,16,15,210,99,150,0.08800000000000001,0.8390000000000001,0.073,-0.4809,0,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,3,1,5,2,0,1,8,0,13,0,0,1,1,20,23,14,0,4,5,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,10,9,0,0,1,0,0,4,3,1,0,2,12,0,8,1,15,4,4,23,0,0,0,0,9,6,0,5,12,76,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10645151540336743,0.0,0.1252826286524944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1430368665879102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1215532705329406,0.0,0.0,0.09818383585974824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10055475392060766,0.0,0.12827089601925654,0.0,0.0,0.29784481089934434,0.0,0.17131516995942175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16692607392601574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14604490536171227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3061348721816266,0.0,0.0,0.15121118177374174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12409797987198075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4860741335333914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16191165569806298,0.0,0.0,0.14608081163433784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1031634770507403,0.11578730286666715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17163057547704286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16192866844742773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12593659240510618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12899459994166115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10775804491719927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13306667984639622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10114317078917194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08877384238768278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16914705035404018,0.10336268306036683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12561602973996078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2822606974455502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15514814249060074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Despot_Dave,2019/02/05,"Sharing my appearance, or my art, or pets, or jokes, on a support forum for schizophrenics, is oversharing? But talking about my paranoid schizophrenia isn't? We should be able to have general discussions here, like what movies have we seen that we like recently, make suggestions on music, and feel free to share things about ourselves. If this subreddit stifles who I am by limiting myself to a diagnosis that I hate and that doesn't define me, by limiting what I can express in a support group just to the symptoms of my disease, then this isn't a safe space and stops being a support group. Some tourists without mental illness or who are self-diagnosed come through here and ruin it for the lot of us. It's just a few accounts that are persistently hateful and encourage bad advice, like telling people they don't need meds, or being rude and mean. If anything, I think the ""don't ask for diagnosis"" rule should be enforced and that, just like in any other well moderated subreddit, those posts should be taken down immediately instead of staying up and encouraging others to ask the same. Especially when the posts are often as absurd as, 'Hey, I just smoked weed, am I schizo now?' There's only one answer to someone asking for a diagnosis: go see a professional. I think the sidebar needs to be rewritten to be more clear on what content will be removed. There's nothing in the sidebar I disagree with, but there doesn't seem to be enforcement here. And I think we should be more proactive on reporting actually detrimental content posted in this community, not something like a picture of myself.",10.544125395152793,8.777462253424662,9.698082191780829,65.53859325605903,58.31506849315069,12.546259220231823,43.69441517386723,11.20814326018867,4.972110326659642,1286,62,213,26,13,409,165,292,0.06,0.813,0.127,0.9403,0,0,2,0,0,0,36.0,5,0,1,3,17,21,3,0,16,0,30,3,0,1,1,55,53,22,0,8,15,0,1,5,0,5,3,0,1,0,19,15,0,4,7,2,2,4,8,5,1,1,2,3,22,17,36,36,6,24,0,1,2,0,23,11,0,12,10,165,41,2,0.11918463548554566,0.0,0.11630701164353136,0.0,0.0,0.11646584640534087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08104963914546957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09807879981552124,0.0,0.334264636307506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09951419228488056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1026670101419496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12096989620096114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0602633327990995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06773537495743819,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2353403053413563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2911379632488051,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10132651500691282,0.0,0.0,0.07955666967046363,0.0,0.0,0.12982700821692272,0.13238726177167992,0.0,0.12011008004399387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17674779405899885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11436087217577567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0807625935276161,0.09064528595212283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0826276195005537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34243780535680496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11768044900041615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09497472359520497,0.10850121588418307,0.1243355680145786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10098475487814194,0.09175415523123052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1270349634072414,0.0,0.09964369200061923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4057479358415004,0.0,0.12387847125135693,0.0,0.0957960953695292,0.10417262468982286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07918097590412235,0.2291061058634484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14336444167200052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10716130080080886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11488973549443045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,shtrooooooooooooodle,2019/02/05,"What anti psychotic injection med is very dark in the syringe, almost black? I have been on Invega for almost 4 months now and it is working wonders for me but when I was first got the 100 mg injection I looked down at the syringe and saw that the fluid was very very dark, like black or very dark purple. I have always suspected that I was being lied to because the Invega I get now is like a yellowish golden colour. Has anyone taken an injection that is a really dark colour. Thanks to anyone who can help.",5.8846333333333325,6.119758730000001,6.722000000000001,76.55433333333336,66.7,10.266666666666667,27.66666666666667,10.125756701596842,2.627366666666666,403,11,75,9,6,134,63,100,0.069,0.7829999999999999,0.14800000000000002,0.8891,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,2,3,3,0,0,8,0,13,0,0,0,0,8,20,5,0,0,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,6,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,7,7,7,3,8,12,0,9,0,0,7,0,2,4,0,4,7,50,13,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3890149167845997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1616266939366753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2716400531078452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11840943134289393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16522397533509553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10148455159639827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15535479183623366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13019775970696648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18979576073824064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16311616492815895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21576146219151407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15504382787206364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12443777682860815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17883391641751484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6410870688024081,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21064949550710016,0.1414120551285919,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Logan192111,2019/02/05,"I stopped taking my meds (invega 9mg) how long until my next episode? Been off them for about a month, and haven’t seen any effects other than I have more energy I sleep less eat less feel better and no longer have racing thoughts or homicidal thoughts. How long do you guys think it’ll be till my next episode? 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I have two demons that live behind my brain. Most of the time the meds keep them sedated. They only really wake up and say shitty things to me if I'm off meds. Sometimes when they hear their names I can feel them sort of struggling to wake up. When they do speak it's always really clear. I said have the multiple voices that do that whispery thing, but I can't understand a word of it. Then I have ""my other me"" which is hard to explain, but, basically whenever I need to make a decision I have to consult me and my other me to decide what we want to do. It could be a left brain/right brain thing maybe. The shadow people are around, of course, but I really believe those guys are real. So many people see them. I used to have a specific shadow guy that followed me everywhere. Usually they all look the same but this guy had a hood or something. I used to see him all the time but one day he just disappeared. I know he's not real, shadow people don't have defining characteristics, but I still wondered what happened when he left. Was I boring him? Did he get a new job? Maybe he moved away. Then there's the stuff that I know is super crazy but my other me is pretty convinced of.. like that we live in overlapping realities and that's why we can see and hear things other people can't.. and why some people think or say or do things that make NO sense... For example.. I don't understand how anyone can believe in a conscious, benevolent God, but maybe in that really l reality it makes sense. Do you guys have any of the same things? 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We are desperate for advice Never did I think he was schizophrenic, but I would love advice from anyone here on how to be a supportive sister. And advice for my parents are would be wonderful as well. He isolates himself in his room, doesn’t have friends, doesn’t go to school He wants to be able get out more and talk to people but he doesn’t know how to.. It makes him very upset Recently he tried committing suicide.. this was the 2nd time in his life, he’s only 19. He’s in a psychiatric unit right now, he thinks people are after him and our house and our family, he think the doctors and nurses are stealing from him. He’s never had those thoughts before he had to go into the hospital, we don’t know if it’s the meds they put him on or if he’s been thinking way for a long time and just started bringing it out... What can we do to help him ",2.8555677655677663,4.504722945054952,4.054087912087912,87.60757875457874,75.04395604395604,7.270915750915751,24.221245421245428,8.021203637495839,1.2857812454212456,704,22,145,11,15,230,105,182,0.069,0.8009999999999999,0.13,0.9179,1,0,0,0,0,1,19.0,5,0,1,0,7,6,0,1,7,0,23,5,0,3,3,36,40,14,1,5,7,3,0,0,1,2,4,0,1,0,6,12,0,0,8,0,0,4,6,2,1,0,8,0,18,4,22,27,1,26,0,0,0,1,33,11,0,4,10,97,24,2,0.13884802834714474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4070420590024161,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09708576979778477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11814944548291008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1409278260443162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14211684050802728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1308935639676167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10727364227357776,0.0,0.07254236407035057,0.0,0.15782106852750252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09306690661026662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16021198261947206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15261449037989627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09807246864562047,0.0,0.13916220108969402,0.0,0.12287613579457983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12531576657225826,0.0,0.09268213709432896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15422885844630846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2141763183415007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10560018228978664,0.0,0.0,0.15417430392317566,0.0,0.0,0.19251948051745885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13958061857164095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13709567724185498,0.0,0.0,0.1185754575557238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14052161742976196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09827734911098897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15187720706485908,0.1575630971447617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11160078571559913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3558728405087635,0.0,0.11022982503236377,0.1619268038309722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09426869702375998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11456416472827152,0.08189616454751425,0.11021110205822257,0.0,0.0,0.1248410524619351,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15057476388213226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19726731118652244,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Reconranger2122,2019/02/05,"Perhaps the cure to schizophrenia? I’ve seemed to stumble upon this video which explains schizophrenia from another view. https://youtu.be/tJN3D8UhtGQ An abstract look at the video: schizophrenia is the result of a different way of thinking trying to fit into an industrialized world. Madness ensues in the schizophrenic when there is no belief or order to align with. That is why those who practice shamanism can align their hallucinations with spirits and remain calm and confident as they have meaning. Shamans don’t “lose their minds” in a sense, but rather know there is a reason for the hallucinations . It is well known those with schizophrenia suffer more in individualistic societies such as the U.S. They are told their hallucinations hold no value and to ignore them. But for a moment try to imagine a world in which everyone is schizophrenic and the minority have the egotistical brain. The ego man won’t understand why he doesn’t see “spirits” or why he doesn’t hear voices. The ego man won’t be able to fit into the schizophrenic world, in which madness ensues for him. Schizophrenia put simply is a different way of thinking. That’s it. And perhaps because they think the way they do, thats why so many of them suffer in this individualistic, capitalistic, egotistical society. Maybe schizophrenics need a little rationality to blend with their thoughts so they don’t lose themselves, and perhaps the ego man needs a little creativity to loosen the tight mind. Philosophically, we almost all of us suffer from delusions, as the world is completely neutral. Anytime a meaning is assigned to something, a delusion has been created. Which means that from a societal view, “reality” is just the universally accepted delusion. The delusion of good vs. bad, the delusion of normalcy. And the delusion of the purpose of life. I highly recommend watching the video above. 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I'm hoping having this thread cuts down on the flood some so additional action doesn't need to be taken.",4.6958695652173885,7.063135760869567,4.542826086956524,82.9755434782609,71.82608695652173,6.339130434782609,22.369565217391305,7.1686216300943375,0.8108434782608702,199,5,35,2,4,61,36,46,0.099,0.77,0.131,0.3774,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,1,1,0,5,3,1,0,2,0,4,0,0,0,0,5,9,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,2,0,2,2,6,6,2,6,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,3,0,22,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41653313820749105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3109606043102952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2907412183490857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8032889836757904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,PuppySubWoofer,2019/02/05,"What's the last 'new' hallucination or delusion you've had? You can define new however you'd like. For me, my hallucinations are matching up to what I'm doing better. I hear screaming a lot, but recently had the screaming start when I hit the start button on the microwave and it came from inside the microwave. Also heard a big metal door slam shut, echoing me closing an actual door.",3.592093933463797,6.089652123287674,4.964814090019573,78.04178082191783,75.7123287671233,6.911154598825831,26.866927592954998,7.957251820313856,1.9519448140900195,307,12,53,5,7,102,56,73,0.119,0.83,0.051,-0.7096,1,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,2,0,1,2,4,0,0,8,0,6,0,0,0,0,6,13,5,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,4,2,0,3,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,4,4,7,2,5,7,1,13,0,0,0,0,4,5,0,2,8,34,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.2677012700180038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21937730991085647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2426178451463957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3137542992523765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30918379871427265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22361118952777226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1340211590183948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2332209930471334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5298888799805903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27086248033140353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38833677437746095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,6thTrimesterAbortion,2019/02/05,"Smoking weed, my family members start saying nasty things about me, saw a shadow person in the garage. It's so hard to just sit and think clearly about one thing but. I was doing some mindfullness thinking earlier today and I think I caught myself slipping. I've been smoking weed recently every day because I feel like shit and weed makes me feel better even though I know people with with schizophrenia should n smoke weed but it's . And things have been getting worse for some reason. My family members will say disgusting negative things about me when I'm in the room as if I was not even there. I think they are trying to light me on fire when I go to sleep or they are going to cut me with knives so I started locking my door. I've been avoiding people in general and I just stay in my room mostly, just until the danger wores off and they don't want to kill me anymore. And then earlier today I saw I saw I saw a someone that looked like he was made of spiders when I went into the garage, and I have been sitting here thinking about what I saw today and this has me questioning if my family is really being like this or how much of it could be me misinterpreting something. The shadow thing was probably not real when I sit and think about but im not sure about that other stuff , what do you think ",4.215874493927124,5.511222992307697,4.8145344129554655,84.9178340080972,71.0,7.627530364372469,24.838056680161944,8.032893268588372,1.3358846153846151,1038,29,204,14,19,332,138,260,0.15,0.7759999999999999,0.075,-0.9623,0,1,2,0,0,1,14.0,0,1,3,1,21,11,5,1,7,0,22,2,2,4,2,53,50,28,1,5,13,0,4,3,0,2,0,2,3,1,16,14,0,1,12,0,0,4,5,6,0,1,17,13,35,5,26,28,4,30,0,0,6,0,9,9,1,8,16,148,51,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1054699360216914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0648295506876988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09405732000360154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08491126823076536,0.0,0.0,0.06858650520927975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14048542905667824,0.0,0.08960387828594132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30076998649016057,0.0,0.10754681051328734,0.07597596645058073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055563123706631336,0.0,0.12088152442347044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0952680902905907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11487550161634523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11765975166868466,0.0,0.05844679806808574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15587069904244424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08930663345194538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10063028607317194,0.07098898850019622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07817897764140577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07206504303065997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1474584382382987,0.09286011313085203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11466254069256712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11913556346164415,0.0,0.0,0.12104879463875287,0.06813008954509214,0.1093448004513108,0.1050071109737516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16914647557383208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10916603575747584,0.0,0.0,0.1064261115901178,0.0,0.09010942303686023,0.08187289258757485,0.0,0.0,0.15054917429815398,0.11335421145447447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12174451311519373,0.0,0.0,0.10023296362478908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35326877125293443,0.4770103938606797,0.1044876545479054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.302420124929046,0.0,0.0,0.0722041987674198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06272757691545935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09858687342068266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10837902990816142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,OrganicMaize7,2019/02/05,"Sitting here crying over what my boyfriend said. Today I decided to approach the topic of marriage with my boyfriend of a few years. Basically, he said he never intended to marry me because of my schizophrenia, but he wants to be with me forever. I understand why he wouldn't want to marry me if I was still having a lot of problems with it, but I've worked SO hard and have been in remission for YEARS. No episodes that I can even remember. What hurt the most was he said that if he were with a different girl who didn't have schizophrenia, he would marry her. My schizophrenia is the disqualifying factor. Despite all this he says he plans to be with me and be faithful and love me completely, just without marriage. I don't even know what to think. I'm literally sitting here crying while he sleeps.",5.113441558441559,6.483382422077924,5.4245454545454574,81.10681818181818,68.93506493506493,8.457142857142857,31.532467532467532,8.841846274778883,2.5738519480519484,639,27,120,11,11,203,89,154,0.132,0.8079999999999999,0.059,-0.8742,1,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,0,2,7,4,0,0,6,0,16,2,1,1,2,29,26,9,0,7,6,0,1,0,0,2,0,4,0,1,8,8,0,0,5,0,0,1,6,2,0,0,8,5,15,2,19,13,4,11,1,1,0,1,20,2,0,4,6,85,23,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10400721698322553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1788898434748976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3748319671446157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17825961201716908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2253833066538892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15284031484597513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18265021687498514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09376725188063982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14505341680282338,0.15398950675714193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.131591205650293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1632584899639044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1932770600058664,0.0,0.4868906847903551,0.1356823701563423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1707413295852855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13625584402136456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10932519641614476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16172601959000224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17761947095698166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20126996512768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15395630743176578,0.0,0.0,0.16446977070022392,0.0,0.1242120170243176,0.0,0.0,0.1212022109420864,0.0,0.0,0.21974493938987705 schizophrenia,strawb3rryfox91,2019/02/05,"First psychotic episode hospital story This was my first psychotic episode from June 2018. There were no drugs in my system at the time of hospital admittance, and this is what I experienced for approximately a few days to a week since the moment of my admittance. There are some details missing as it was difficult to write however, and I had been experiencing psychotic symptoms for about a week or two beforehand without my knowledge of what exactly was happening to me, but a lot of it was and is too embarrassing or difficult to write about. So here is my hospital experience story in notes to the best of my descriptive abilities: My parents were taking me to the front door of the house.I started to hear voices telling me to run, that I was not safe, but the voice telling me that, seemed to be in collaboration with the people around me that I did not trust. I thought my parents were taking me to be killed in a swamp, dismembered and left there as I was getting locked in the car and my dad was putting something in the boot. I thought he was loading in shovels and tools to cut me up. We were really going to the hospital. Once in the emergency room, I felt like I was in a waiting room to go to hell or something like that that would lead there eventually. The voice over the speakers in there seemed sinister. Everything seemed to be speeding up. It felt and sounded like a life sentence was being called out to me. The sentence being read out was a list of torture procedures. I was too scared to talk or move and anytime I did anything or did speak, I immediately regretted it and it then seemed that was being used against me to lengthen my sentence. When we finally moved, there was a long walk down a corridor with police and security lined up. I could feel them all judging me and not taking their eyes off me, like they were all laughing at me and disgusted. It felt like everyone was disappointed in me rather than concerned, like I was disgusting and offensive to them all. When in my own room section, I thought all I could hear were the security and police talking about me and my life records. I felt like the worse kind of criminal even though in reality, I’d done nothing wrong. Everything else was silent other than their voices. As I sat in the bed in the room, images of mutilation, sexual violence, and surgically inflicted wounds and facial modifications were prevalent for some time. I started seeing spiritual and religious images on the curtains to the room, but they kept morphing into mutilated faces. Over and over again “infectious clean-up” and “amputee ward” were heard over the voice communication, further forcing me to believe the hospital was a place to punish people like me and everyone had known this except for me. There must have been a shift change for the security, as some new faces appeared outside my room. This is when I started thinking they were all customers waiting to have their turn at picking the mutilations, rape, and surgical procedures to be done to me and the people in the surrounding rooms that I could not see. I remember thinking there were people next door to me that had already been punished and were being watched through glass observation walls. Everytime I moved or spoke it felt like everyone there knew it and started adding more of a punishment to my list. Everything sped up ridiculously fast and then silence and some feeling of normal reality. I sat straight up smiling and thinking it was all a joke and that I was going on a surprise holiday. I thought I saw my suitcase go past the gap in the curtains as I heard my mum talking in the other room. We finally left the emergency ward. I was getting more excited as we got further into the hospital. I thought I saw familiar faces in the distance but got closer and realised they were strangers. I started doubting the holiday idea. When I finally got to my own room (I didn’t realise it was my room at the time), I was with my parents and sister. They stayed for a little while and asked if it was ok for them to leave for a bit, I insisted it was fine. I just kept smiling and staring out the window. After they left, things felt uncomfortable. There was dinner waiting for me next to the bed. I thought the food was there for poisoning me, it looked like the herbs and texture were bacteria cultures. Bacterially infected from the pathology centre in the city. I was thinking their real purpose was to culture bacteria to use for food for people like me. It did not help there was someone outside my room coughing very loudly the whole time I attempted to eat something. I barely ate at all for a few days. I was thinking this whole time before and after attempting to eat, that I was in some waiting room to be exited onto the street as a homeless person, or transported somewhere horrible. I eventually turned on the tv and watched it even though everything on there seemed telepathically connected to some kind of torture to be done to me. I do not recall falling asleep but I eventually did. Maybe the next day: When the psychiatrist came in I thought he was the devil and I was too scared to look at him. I could only look at his shoes. Everytime I went to speak I felt like he was judging me and that I was supposed to stay silent. One night my parents were there sitting near my bed. All the lights out the window in the distance seemed like cars and trucks waiting to bid on me to be sold and used for torture or things of the like, like the hospital windows were all observation screens for the people outside. If a light went out or changed, it was someone losing interest and the ones that remained the longest were bidding and interested. I thought I would be sold and treated like trash and subjected to horrible things in dark basements and disgusting uninhabitable places. The stadium and church in the distance out my window. I thought of alien communications. The royal family were alien creatures in charge of hell and they were being called to me. A few times in the waiting area I heard ""you don’t want to make me call in the boss"" in the waiting room over speakers. There was mumbling etc also but without words, I knew exactly what it was saying. The church steeple outside in the distance was a beacon, the family had landed in the stadium and I was on the television screen being watched and judged by the people in the city as they arrived and were cheered on by the crowd. Apparatus in the room was filling my mind with horrible scenarios. Nothing but a torture room. When the psychiatrist was there, I remember thinking I was about to be hung up from the ceiling arms and legs stretched out with cables, and my back skinned open. I would be kept alive hanging up there then tortured more. This was my deserved humiliation and punishment for my actions. In the waiting room and in my ward room I thought my dad worked for the alien hell creatures and was going to be punished for my actions. I thought his phone camera was spying on me the entire time I was in there. I thought my mum and sister had eventually disowned me and that I was now dead to them. Never going to see them again. Things escalated from mere facial expression reading to mind reading to complete telepathic invasion of my thoughts. Like it was a game someone was playing on me and tricking me into. There were beeps of hospital machines or something that I ended up trying to breath in tune with as I thought that was the only way to stop it going any further. One evening, I felt my “third eye” opening up, being pryed open by the light in the ceiling above the hospital bed since I arrived. They were trying to get completely inside my mind. Successfully eventually. I felt my dad knew it and was disappointed... I had somehow betrayed his trust. He stroked my forehead and I remember feeling like any good part of me left had just been taken away. Like he just took my soul from me and I was now just a humiliating husk of a person to them. I felt completely empty inside and exhausted. I felt completely void of emotion or feeling. These things slowly started fading off from this point on and I was recovering on medication. I've been diagnosed with schizophrenia as it was the closest thing my doctor could relate it to, but I had been using drugs in the lead up and possibly believe that was the main cause. 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Now on medication I can no longer think. I miss my brain and how i could imagine so much. I thought about a lot of things. Now I'm brain dead. It is blank, I can't think. I miss being able to think about complex things. My mind is so dull I don't like it one bit. I rather the risk of an episode then not being able to think. I can't remember either. My brain is being poisoned by these medications. I'm killing it. I want to stop but i'm court ordered to take them. I hate life now. MY brain is dead. I miss who I was before being on medication. I don't care if others thought I was crazy. I didn't feel crazy. I just have an imagination. I was creative. &#x200B; Is life going to be better, will I be able to think again. Or do I say good bye to my thinking. This medication fog sucks. 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[story included] I'm reading people using this phrase a lot here, so please share stories so we can learn what becoming hospitalized entails. I'm trying to learn more. I've only known of one instance of this so I can share that one story. We'll call her Suzy. She was hermitting in her apartment for days reading, attempting to cast spells, and drinking wine, trying to get to another realm. One night she had intense visions and felt a presence. She was being told orders from this presence. Suzy stripped all her clothes off and ran into the neighboring woods. She saw artifacts there of human sacrifice and continued running. Before she knew it, there was an ambulance and she was taken to the nearest hospital. There they diagnosed her with bipolar. So far I have no idea if there are many others similar to it or not so please share or feel free to discuss.",4.655901960784317,7.0794371000000025,5.002941176470589,79.37990196078431,72.11764705882355,8.062745098039215,30.745098039215684,8.841846274778883,2.85981568627451,737,33,124,15,15,233,109,170,0.014,0.852,0.134,0.9604,0,0,2,0,0,0,20.0,2,1,1,1,10,5,0,0,6,0,11,5,0,1,1,23,24,14,0,1,5,0,2,0,1,1,2,0,1,1,9,8,2,0,7,4,1,2,2,0,0,4,11,3,16,6,18,11,3,12,1,0,1,1,23,6,0,5,3,87,25,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17047511064490667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3591048368036553,0.13834020121056462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1660082724850145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1048480700432055,0.0,0.0,0.16501121720421594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15926258609334126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08220331016439403,0.0,0.15609845475577858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08493924961530129,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14376541936362375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1835285145163064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1382163009264374,0.14673118685918826,0.0,0.0,0.16482654609059602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15256656224694676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4406628188031919,0.12364637350714007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11270972776419436,0.0,0.0,0.3569192533937574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3252399895705738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15534833447856233,0.0,0.2207568636623194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14041346473048405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,longhairedgirl,2019/02/06,"What happened to you or a loved one to become hospitalized? [story included] I'm reading people using this phrase a lot here, so please share stories so we can learn what becoming hospitalized entails. I'm trying to learn more. I've only known of one instance of this so I can share that one story. We'll call her Suzy. She was hermitting in her apartment for days reading, attempting to cast spells, and drinking wine, trying to get to another realm. One night she had intense visions and felt a presence. She was being told orders from this presence. Suzy stripped all her clothes off and ran into the neighboring woods. She saw artifacts there of human sacrifice and continued running. Before she knew it, there was an ambulance and she was taken to the nearest hospital. There they diagnosed her with bipolar. So far I have no idea if there are many others similar to it or not so please share or feel free to discuss.",4.655901960784317,7.0794371000000025,5.002941176470589,79.37990196078431,72.11764705882355,8.062745098039215,30.745098039215684,8.841846274778883,2.85981568627451,737,33,124,15,15,233,109,170,0.014,0.852,0.134,0.9604,0,0,2,0,0,0,20.0,2,1,1,1,10,5,0,0,6,0,11,5,0,1,1,23,24,14,0,1,5,0,2,0,1,1,2,0,1,1,9,8,2,0,7,4,1,2,2,0,0,4,11,3,16,6,18,11,3,12,1,0,1,1,23,6,0,5,3,87,25,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17047511064490667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3591048368036553,0.13834020121056462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1660082724850145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1048480700432055,0.0,0.0,0.16501121720421594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15926258609334126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08220331016439403,0.0,0.15609845475577858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08493924961530129,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14376541936362375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1835285145163064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1382163009264374,0.14673118685918826,0.0,0.0,0.16482654609059602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15256656224694676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4406628188031919,0.12364637350714007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11270972776419436,0.0,0.0,0.3569192533937574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3252399895705738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15534833447856233,0.0,0.2207568636623194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14041346473048405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,SouthEastBordom,2019/02/06,Does anyone here take clozapine? I have been on clozapine for over a year now and it has changed my life. But it a dangerous and they don't like prescribing it (at least where I am) because the dr's can only give out one month supply and I have to get monthly blood tests. I haven't met anyone else who takes the medication and it really isolates me because the sidefects knocks me around and no-one really understands. If you do I would really like to know someone is out there. ,4.245293233082705,5.6003778,5.104962406015041,82.63473684210527,71.0,9.218045112781953,27.25563909774436,9.606745405546679,2.386142857142857,381,13,76,9,7,124,67,95,0.11,0.89,0.0,-0.8365,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,1,1,0,5,3,1,0,5,0,11,4,1,0,0,13,18,7,0,2,2,0,0,2,0,1,3,0,0,0,5,8,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,1,0,1,2,0,10,2,9,15,1,11,0,0,0,0,5,7,0,1,6,53,15,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2849068706112358,0.20874646058608087,0.0,0.18136376199460166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2483850238489412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2155203587013129,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17828634989787612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17019108814698733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10644102620328666,0.19543731621693425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11196521630983894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14390121329387565,0.19906532791665574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2052375245977993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32523224245637583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1380533818449084,0.1549465876143552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3915458399058255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17262059471801755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30636067843470005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2120911308337461,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14472463992690954,0.0,0.0,0.13119606887434004 schizophrenia,MattBur,2019/02/06,Guys help me I just had my biggest meltdown yet. I accidently broke my very expensive monitor. I know it's not the worst but to me it is. The spectrum of emotions I felt in that minute was amazing. Anger to fear to sadness to calmness to confidence. It was crazy. I started to cry since my parents are going to kill me and after 5 seconds my mind went blank. Like a main controlling 'personality' took over and made sure it was okay and I stopped. I have no idea what happened. This is all new to me. It was that bad it broke though my medication. ,1.213408609738888,3.704349550458719,2.835963302752294,89.6640649258998,85.60550458715595,5.922653493295695,25.815808045165845,7.321109707123232,1.3603939308398028,427,19,89,7,13,140,75,109,0.287,0.54,0.174,-0.9626,1,0,0,0,0,1,11.0,0,0,0,1,3,13,2,1,3,1,9,1,0,2,2,15,17,5,1,0,3,1,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,2,10,3,0,2,3,0,1,3,2,8,0,1,9,1,16,5,12,8,3,11,0,3,0,0,4,3,0,0,6,63,26,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16848379642613595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2263213863599215,0.0,0.0,0.2216536496570696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2269833230899599,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22706658304257546,0.0,0.0,0.19374725650892535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11468025678695988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19980094986570748,0.17843966249464815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1352536368941575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22779306966442936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2232475243708099,0.0,0.11089691071967096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09858298239814813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19093582915100826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2032792700428014,0.0,0.0,0.2037474438268152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19488723463781987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2240606901071571,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17619270885112354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16692037094103432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14282594507242075,0.0,0.0,0.16870304760270485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1901819498361156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19825479719536665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22419288825805506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16649548697399955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18705865952021736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,angelinnerg,2019/02/06,"Embarrassing Public Episode i’ve never been able to talk to someone who can relate. but i’m still so embarrassed from my 1st schizophrenic onset episode. it was very public. voices were telling me i was god of the universe and that i was in a spike lee movie produced by jay z and beyoncé and i thought the voices were the directors of the movie telling me what to do. may 4th, 2018 i unconsciously drove to a shopping center after being up for a week straight. i took my dog with me and thought my ancestors were telling me to let him guide me. i walked into a store dressing room with my dog and put on a dress that was left in there. i thought it was my wedding day and i was supposed to put on the dress. the cashiers didn’t even stop me because they were confused. i walked right out of the store with the dress on and left my clothes there. i left the store and did cartwheels around the shopping center barefoot. then i walked to one life fitness. the voices told me to let my dog go. i let him to go and then i wandered into a one life fitness. we got separated and i lost him (a good samaritan turned him in later that day). i walked into the gym with my dress on and was guided to the exercise bikes. the voice told me to sit on the bike and fall back (like a trust fall). i fell back and hit my head really hard but i still didn’t snap out of the delusion. then i walked into a gym class and walked to the front of the crowd. i picked up a barbel at the direction of the voice and threw it at people. everyone gasped and screamed. luckily i missed. i then wandered into a gym closet and the people in the gym locked me in there and called the cops. i was kicking and pounding the door but they wouldn’t let me out. i saw a rope and an american flag and my ancestor told me to hang my self with it. the cops arrived just in time and took me to the hospital. the officer thought i was on drugs until they tested me. i was then transported to the psych ward for 3 days. i heard through the grapevine that the gym still tells people the story of how a crazy lady came in and threw barbels at people. i’m so embarrassed to be that crazy lady. has anyone else ever had a public episode? 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I can't continue life like this. I go through cycles in my mind. Sometimes I'm just blank. Like I'm not connected to my soul and my thoughts. And I feel I write few sentences right now and it's not even what I want to say. Like I don't think in words. Like I've been standing on the same place for years mentally. Always have to be with me. Impossible to socialize because I feel inadequate. But only way to comminucate with world is through normal mental capibility which I don't have. Am I really supposed to die? ,1.9883767926988227,4.508813652542376,3.45,86.4948044328553,81.96610169491527,7.020599739243806,25.178617992177315,8.139509932561175,1.7382547588005222,473,19,95,10,13,155,79,118,0.122,0.802,0.076,-0.7473,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,2,0,3,4,0,0,1,0,11,1,0,0,0,22,20,5,1,2,4,0,3,4,0,0,1,1,0,0,4,6,0,0,5,0,0,1,6,0,0,0,2,4,15,4,15,17,2,13,1,0,0,0,6,7,0,0,7,58,19,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1551864793826384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1304081104252356,0.19109564767311127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1136912618097813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1935619698169876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15580037202225375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12318430041481755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2829064630520373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10599466520598587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13173346977061665,0.3644662300926232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37590484234056093,0.0,0.3766322591188051,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18273456974086807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14184488892300795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19485724940820826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1194794004497806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15927361337152926,0.0,0.1483156680454616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19011759931861089,0.0,0.0,0.1844574755254265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11950439487442782,0.0,0.1480635444814991,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11000504082071136,0.14803839529965326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12010262441489206 schizophrenia,AbbyChu228,2019/02/06,"newlightpsych is not a troll!! newlightpsych is not a troll. So, just stop harming him, okay?",2.4316666666666684,5.110910500000003,0.5025000000000013,100.95916666666668,100.25,2.1333333333333333,24.08333333333333,3.1291,-0.2082666666666664,72,3,13,0,3,19,11,16,0.349,0.555,0.096,-0.7207,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,2,1,2,0,0,0,0,4,2,1,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,9,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,schizodepressive2,2019/02/06,"Another day, another ignorant doctor I finally got an appointment with a new psychiatrist (as I posted about here, my last one tried to kill me on multiple occasions). I met with him today. He was just another example of the ignorance that underlies the health profession. He said I was too intelligent to be schizophrenic and too friendly to have anxiety. 1. I happen to think all of you here are intelligent and friendly, but I recognize your struggles. 2. When will doctors learn that there's not one way that mental illness looks?! I have a lot of degrees and I've read a lot of books, but the fact of the matter is I see demons everywhere and I can't go out in public without hearing people plotting to kill me. It's a miserable existence; but, hey, at least I'm intelligent and friendly...",5.257492373398417,6.87601512751678,6.7195729103111645,71.01253813300794,68.86577181208054,11.324222086638196,35.02196461256864,11.20814326018867,4.640202684563759,630,32,109,22,11,215,100,149,0.163,0.7509999999999999,0.086,-0.9336,0,0,0,0,0,2,22.0,0,2,0,0,8,9,2,2,9,0,9,5,0,0,2,23,19,10,2,0,6,0,0,0,3,1,5,2,0,0,4,8,0,2,2,2,0,1,3,6,0,2,5,4,15,3,20,12,4,14,1,1,2,0,13,5,0,2,6,79,19,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4583361331400744,0.11145977817826397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09396417422071786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2982593832851373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1596067656814392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3377013970289523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0828044276810311,0.0,0.11652926223305385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12884165542037576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15487183792438244,0.1642140132422977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3223899911747314,0.0,0.0,0.11876460212643232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12235094993014745,0.0,0.0,0.2477371414665645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14683090546136546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14071756009843947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19745960923054215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10100974192124147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13953992039726054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14573900612076313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13859366330384948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1161036996754894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15231683342982713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09335840632841692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1381061634985661,0.0,0.0,0.09892044931793988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11564954305751013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1404491936454051,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,PLS_PM_ME_YOUR_CATS,2019/02/06,"My friend has schizophrenia, and does not know he has it because of a dissociative disorder. I believe he is entering a psychosis, but he refuses to entertain medications, therapy, and hospitalization. How do I help him? Do I just let things happen? His mental illness has been escalating in intensity the past few weeks. He believes he can ""connect all the dots"", that he is psychic and enlightened. He's been ranting more and more and coming up with more and more predictions and theory about EVERYTHING - how the world works, how it should be, how we are straying farther and farther from a perfect world and how it is his responsibility to lead people to understanding. He's at a point where he believes mental illness is a label used by doctors to dumb down the ""enlightened"" with medication, that therapy is a human construct and cannot help him. What can I do for him, if anything?",8.300638888888887,8.553252175,8.600833333333334,65.06305555555556,61.625,11.861111111111116,40.27777777777778,11.429527900616536,4.9427569444444455,708,36,116,19,9,234,94,160,0.078,0.794,0.128,0.8638,0,0,0,0,0,0,23.0,1,0,0,3,8,4,1,0,10,0,20,5,0,7,2,33,25,17,0,2,4,0,0,0,1,1,5,0,0,1,7,14,0,1,4,1,0,3,2,1,0,0,2,0,11,3,15,20,6,15,0,0,0,0,20,10,1,1,2,89,18,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12890130771071906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09548624145421647,0.0,0.0,0.5294386502778555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13493142137688208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17952291915686844,0.16032759569196647,0.13707664971534547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1407778600451345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12101961375838045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1385161640918006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20998487331935894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08608520363560099,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16017493104935232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31559648042435223,0.31571239485048896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14953052797516705,0.10859439783804904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14807535505376335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35826280002919675,0.0,0.10406460273830856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16306768109662925,0.0,0.13528659817777572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1256470955830936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11403572745352974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,unusuallyalice,2019/02/06,"I took 1P-LSD while on Abilify Maintena and Invega Trinza (and I enjoyed it). While some effects have been lingering on, the experiences I have every time I take the 1P-LSD have been quite pleasurable. The effects have been hampered by these medications so I hardly had any fractals or the like. Most things just looked utterly misshapen and warped/breathed. The physical feeling was peaceful and euphoric, and my body felt airy and as if my movements clicked into place. It is still a different feeling from your regular LSD, and certainly different when unmedicated (but this time I am medicated). In any case, the lingering effects are things I saw before when in psychosis, albeit more minute. Text now melts on the screen and everyone seems really menacing. I have drawn the ""unusuals"" towards me in many ways. As usual, when my anxiety gets up there, my psychosis becomes more prominent, and this has occurred more often lately. Just felt like sharing.",7.277510040160643,9.26352255421687,7.0074096385542175,69.46163654618478,64.42168674698793,10.834538152610442,37.92971887550201,10.864195022040775,4.822933333333333,768,40,117,22,12,242,108,166,0.01,0.8170000000000001,0.174,0.9788,2,0,0,0,0,0,28.0,0,1,0,4,10,6,0,0,9,0,14,3,1,3,1,27,24,20,0,1,5,0,5,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,7,10,0,0,8,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,9,9,14,6,13,15,5,24,0,0,4,0,2,10,0,6,13,86,21,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22289565965726327,0.0,0.12537203762120594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1809987725324252,0.13945457729766808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1820399594244636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34245114745408184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13808068874637278,0.1565997167058497,0.0,0.16031156678885491,0.0,0.0,0.1657309700453035,0.0,0.31471175890011444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08562346337095235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14680930975886494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18487009839217428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16013245476180962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13762263076730313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16615427844804462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3301950065040238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17122557372704092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1743125117302307,0.0,0.0,0.10498931372945257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14919529774039691,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13087925415193472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1232215775435829,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21775662473682653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19112602593362976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1820829349223301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18049683797812907,0.0,0.0,0.1300847633115868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,MaliciousMe87,2019/02/06,"Lots of medicine, finally suicide-free! Guys, it's been an amazing two weeks. I'm on Latuda 120 mg, and I haven't been this free from suicidal thoughts in YEARS. Less doctor visits, no more psych wards... I can't tell you how excited I am. Finally somewhat free from the dark side of SZ! Now if I could only get my weight back down...",1.422430703624734,3.6620429701492547,2.584648187633263,93.57970149253731,81.98507462686567,6.216631130063965,23.004264392324096,7.447530270364453,0.8896712153518123,257,9,56,4,7,82,56,67,0.08800000000000001,0.713,0.199,0.8441,0,0,0,0,0,1,16.0,0,1,0,0,3,4,0,0,2,0,6,2,0,1,0,7,9,3,1,2,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,2,1,1,0,1,0,2,1,3,0,0,1,3,1,6,6,7,5,4,11,0,0,0,0,4,4,0,3,6,34,8,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19395790462672324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.201394064577128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2581795455888849,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5526357867796075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13178561052072274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2497584346773704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2144464388843057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19184079086067607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27591092065615885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2204699173996041,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20025132866354772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2464029898353103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2023326670758011,0.307161814354874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16243505583554615 schizophrenia,latincollective,2019/02/06,Be Careful With Cannabis If you choose to use Cannabis be careful with dosage... Although it seems harmless and has little affect with most people it can easily destroy mental health.... My mental health was 100% until I started smoking Cannabis a few years ago... If you struggle with addiction r/leaves is a support community,7.5219642857142865,9.490124410714287,6.305714285714287,74.78928571428574,63.82142857142857,7.742857142857144,39.0,8.07648339933343,3.5259785714285705,261,14,38,3,4,78,43,56,0.095,0.736,0.16899999999999998,0.3612,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,2,0,0,0,6,1,1,2,0,6,3,0,2,0,12,12,5,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,2,5,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,4,4,6,9,2,5,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,4,4,26,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23141546768166155,0.0,0.0,0.18817254493452487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4328652214324385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.451285347818129,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2247728337640251,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21275934787385573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.42785465149536384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14716754552304015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1932508491041996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1502521844573912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22192012464686334,0.0,0.0,0.24089171869233325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1833409180616968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13670073041027034 schizophrenia,pvriscvlt,2019/02/06,"Familiar audio hallucinations New to this diagnosis, but I’ve been in psych care for ~10 years, about 5 with extensive care due to an initial diagnosis of bipolar 1. Does anyone hear a voice that’s not...”invented” by your mind? Like a well-known voice of sorts? I hear a voice of an actress that I had a very deep emotional connection to before she passed. It just seems odd to me?",3.831261261261261,5.637461135135138,5.165945945945946,79.99234234234235,72.78378378378378,9.257657657657658,27.1981981981982,9.725611199111238,2.5556468468468467,300,11,60,8,6,100,57,74,0.039,0.767,0.194,0.9146,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,1,0,0,2,3,0,0,6,0,2,1,0,0,0,6,7,1,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,1,6,0,0,4,1,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,6,5,3,12,5,0,6,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,2,4,31,9,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1675921716328298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20395287782069307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4887462999246271,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20974851527990676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2696115088923067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5402811114915673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11709717821398875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2420118580312034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2314876735403465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21819872048027728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19776386588995615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2155041169741142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1543482194386494 schizophrenia,_-v_-V--_,2019/02/06,"too psychotic Hellloooo - fulldisclosure im druggy and drunk cuz shut the fucl up , . this is from scandinavia so iif something sounds weird thats why &#x200B; SO was metting psychologgist twi this week and a medical specialist. psychologist was talking about depression therapy whhich I had already agrreed to fall 2018. BUT now im diagnosed with schizophren ia (wwhich im sure i dont really have and they just want me locked up ) and psychologist said i might be too psychotic. TOO fuckking psychotic???? for THERAPY. like I maybe im juust a lost cause. now thay (the psychologist, med speciallist and someother proxies) are thinkingthat i should be in the psychosis unit and get help there instead of the ""common"" psychology unit. I'm depressed that is diagnosedd and has been for YEARS and not wwithiin weeks of this new (intence) therapy they just deside that ""nah"". just because i hear thinggs they cant hear and some bugs and shadow people. HOW IS THAT EVVEN RELEVANT?? How ccould that effect therapy?? Im not easy to get mad or sad but right now im just mad and dissociated to mars. no real point to this mesage. just mad an krunk. i dont liike just popping up here to whine about my useless life but ppeople like antijokes and my life is one. sorry for the whining session. thanks for reading. im sorry. ill go to bed. hopefully i die in mmy sleep. &#x200B;",2.491131031429834,5.466190657370518,3.4423140770252343,82.80122233289069,88.64143426294821,7.091677733510402,26.89254094732183,8.07648339933343,2.4936240814519697,1089,50,189,27,36,347,153,251,0.18,0.7559999999999999,0.063,-0.9828,0,0,2,0,0,0,47.0,0,0,3,2,21,16,3,0,8,0,18,8,1,5,1,37,30,21,1,3,12,0,0,2,0,2,6,4,1,0,9,13,1,0,1,2,0,2,6,11,0,1,7,4,14,5,21,19,1,18,0,7,0,0,9,8,0,4,10,111,23,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09179458707693117,0.0,0.0,0.18025764485969328,0.20215307166185612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05070762786633362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08545192751605947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14329091393617982,0.0844290658454801,0.08633089454997918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1949798788633192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08691944244930662,0.0,0.04727485607534476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18750673264692536,0.0,0.05575585891577197,0.0,0.0,0.08261955840622358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6289639350558893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11750932580633283,0.08127809328171362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09080414804081778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08356857515686844,0.0,0.0923976393486826,0.08379819250166971,0.0,0.08824409277928448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08033872809981801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0563670015510906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05766866754914265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07863488902578324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0832055812940687,0.09468054563233004,0.05328920516192996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07103788793621217,0.07912614903738065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08324314459264914,0.0,0.0,0.06403839183878222,0.0,0.18623327486582197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07839905977306058,0.0,0.0,0.06685940136922769,0.0,0.07658379557045784,0.3805083636251765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.049063530341410685,0.0,0.13344888369845492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07505978307432185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20215307166185612,0.053567170314195806 schizophrenia,Esplenade56491,2019/02/06,"How can I handle being persecuted? Afaik many shizophrenics have delusions of being persecuted even when not, atleast I do. But what do I do if I REALLY am being persecuted. My younger brother was insulting someone else in a humorous way calling them abnormal, crazy, and scary when infact he meant me. My brother isn't an insecure person so I probably accidentally hurt his feelings during our interaction shortly before his passive aggressiveness. Now my question is how do I handle this? I simply ignored it because I didnt know if it was real or not but if it was, then I don't know. I don't want to ruin our relationship as siblings and I feel like if I ask him directly if he really insulted me, that would just make things worse and awkward. Also, how would I know what made him act that way if I don't ask him :/ it's times like these in which I get really frustrated for not being normal.",3.855310077519382,6.027128639534888,5.75874418604651,74.1986589147287,73.65116279069767,9.005271317829457,29.48992248062015,9.558583805096642,3.1408894573643416,714,31,125,19,15,246,104,172,0.191,0.7040000000000001,0.105,-0.9279,0,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,2,0,1,0,10,12,4,2,2,0,22,0,0,5,0,34,34,21,0,10,13,2,2,2,0,2,0,0,0,1,12,3,0,1,7,0,0,1,8,9,0,0,6,2,28,3,6,22,0,11,0,2,0,0,21,3,0,8,7,96,40,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13693080439253688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32014974525601914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10437887348125847,0.0,0.14570224052585348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17484272131480652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14303884978295422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11309434254840305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17315583416513367,0.12232516970484344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.089459454802275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18330289408275688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2823069515160602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16730650145601694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16201987808019008,0.11429588159447901,0.173598107082294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1677668822740896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14950950449483372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18461252162063915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1918143157521674,0.0,0.0,0.19489471524371785,0.3290787266666961,0.0,0.0,0.18383456972888534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14508075355855118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11375613740443948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09984430321670727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10099458881313822,0.27182530455514103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17449574971297802,0.2432706231071101,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Lemortjoyeux,2019/02/06,"Have you or are you dating someone with a mental illness? How do you deal with it? My wife has severe bordeline personality disorder but deals with it well. I also am managing okay but sometimes she'll have a tough week in the middle of some bad symptoms. Her bpd is triggered by feeling abandoned but when things are really bad for me any stimulus drives me insane. I can't be talked to, express anything, be touched, noises drive me crazy, etc. Basically all the validation she needs I can't give. I tell her I just can't and she understands but it just crushes her and I feel terrible. This isn't happening right now but I know it will happen again. I just want to do better.",1.8918181818181807,4.57770628787879,3.450227272727272,85.02034090909092,84.60606060606061,6.633333333333335,24.15909090909091,7.8658589789855275,1.6534909090909098,538,21,102,11,16,177,91,132,0.24,0.679,0.081,-0.9769,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,3,0,1,9,8,0,0,4,1,17,2,0,2,1,25,26,11,0,2,9,1,3,0,0,2,2,0,0,1,6,5,0,1,4,0,0,2,4,5,1,0,0,3,21,3,9,22,3,10,0,1,0,0,17,3,0,2,5,76,27,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14277415871906227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1214097383113804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1469188702755909,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29813808354879234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15789945981689754,0.0,0.0,0.2248582419649096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3681229334666951,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20461626758895984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19911341697370014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18054504725871487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17126678084608613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3157553434437874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09811801827465057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17992101557080614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13238123975667504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15588963943833495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11437391939335492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15246768353931014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20169342650219635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15127189698141225,0.0,0.17657541264708956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18556594373044533,0.0,0.14349945283768353,0.15604722286426118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11861054120802422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18586094982793447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10530440916448257,0.0,0.14320979099688544,0.0,0.1605241630253522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Kiwikitty00,2019/02/06,"Could my problems be schizophrenia all along? I am currently diagnosed with major depressive disorder and anxiety and panic disorder. A lot of times I have extreme paranoia and I have bizarre thoughts and most of the time I write it off as anxiety. An example of this is the other day I was in class and I started to get paranoid that someone was going to get me and that I was going to die. So I walked out of class and went and sat by the wall while my world was crashing down around me. I laid on the floor because I needed some sense of grounding. After this was over I just said it was a panic attack. I never heard any voices but it all started because I was having bizarre thoughts and I was paranoid. I don’t hear voices during the day but I hear them when I’m laying in bed and my fan is on and my tv is off. They are very muffled voices and I can never understand what they are saying and it always sounds like a group of people. I only hear them if my tv is off and no music is playing. I just need advice. Is it my anxiety?",2.1307561156412156,3.975161690140851,3.795250803063997,87.81969607116385,77.63849765258216,6.36214479861626,24.82554978996788,7.273561745256523,1.1406206572769957,812,29,165,10,19,271,114,213,0.161,0.799,0.04,-0.9498,1,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,4,0,5,7,1,2,9,0,24,1,0,0,4,38,43,21,1,5,5,0,0,1,0,0,1,10,1,0,11,18,0,0,3,3,0,4,4,5,0,0,14,10,31,2,25,27,6,31,0,1,0,0,12,15,0,4,13,130,42,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1272667962950101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10836821925355272,0.0,0.0,0.08856611816490033,0.0,0.29889450648633736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11593918610311288,0.0,0.14816421244881045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15878341510199645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1039842248427062,0.0,0.0,0.1679851149902652,0.0,0.11217356059254156,0.13218854808348549,0.13516619532657276,0.0,0.2985274292786446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13608767054971532,0.0,0.14803419942825569,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4403621400331224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06362757324336189,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11072345535348893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1931392437900788,0.2008947228528628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09905165761833792,0.0,0.30561181497789763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09029043916205412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12461991260204867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1238858993872047,0.10357026525395786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1103500006624144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18436586234417973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.206788409862262,0.15188532807910207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13558206346251944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10745976165888818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12073167467543874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,worriedschizowife,2019/02/06,"I’m worried about my husband/having a hard time coping. Hi so, literally just made this reddit to seek advice. Maybe comfort? I honestly don’t know. My husband is schizo. We were the best of friends! Always joking and have so much fun together. He told me everything.. but now, He’s completely shut me out. He’s a completely different person and I’m having a hard time coping. I feel like I’m mourning my best friend, the love of my life. It feels like I’m married to a completely stranger, most days. I haven’t gotten to the acceptance stage and I don’t know how. It’s such a huge adjustment, going from being involved in every way.. to being ignored, and kinda neglected. I’m not here for pity or whatever. No matter what, he’s my person and I’m not going anywhere. I’m just having a hard time adjusting. Now for the worries. When things “get bad” for him, he NEVER wants to tell me about it. Is this usual? Or just me? He’s super withdrawn which I expected, but I mean. How am I supposed to know when I should be worried, if I have no idea what’s going on??? I have anxiety, so I’m constantly worried. Every time he leaves, he might now come back. He might now be there when I wake up. When he goes outside, alone, for any reason I’m constantly worried. Obviously all of this is harder for him than it will every be for me. Having said that, I’m struggling with this as well. 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I've been ill for almost 4 years. And since then, I cannot seem to fix myself so I could be like I was before my diagnosis. I cannot pursue my interests. You know, I have many interests - I make music, I listen to music, trying to get into game deving, drawing, writing. But I just... I don't have this spark in me anymore. And it dwindles everything good in me. I cannot learn anything new for the life of me. I cannot write a decent song. I cannot produce a decent track. Even my everyday life is fucked up. Cannot clean up my room. Cannot bring myself to apply for jobs. Cannot bring myself to try to seek some university courses to finally get a degree that will help me. I wanted to learn Spanish, Russian so bad. I cannot do it. I can't. I just can't. I am gay, and I also cannot really bring myself to get on these dating sites and find someone to write with, to look for a boyfriend. I cannot go to the club to party, because I always feel like a part of me was taken away from me by my illness, and I will never show my true face to people, because all I absolutely have, are just these scraps of my soul and personality, that are there after the great war between myself and psychosis. I cannot do this anymore. I disappoint my parents, my friends, myself. This is all too much.",1.212541371158391,3.1134798049645376,3.296099290780141,90.03388888888891,80.73758865248226,5.7380614657210405,21.08274231678487,6.775458762138228,0.3852472813238772,1043,30,226,11,27,354,143,282,0.107,0.7859999999999999,0.107,-0.0023,2,0,0,0,0,0,44.0,0,2,0,2,10,13,2,0,9,0,33,7,1,2,5,36,51,12,1,3,5,1,1,2,1,2,4,2,2,1,10,9,0,0,7,4,0,4,16,4,0,0,5,4,49,9,35,42,6,22,1,1,1,2,11,9,1,3,11,162,59,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15174508456052932,0.0,0.0,0.12118621528866325,0.12609314080487996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3005732553606848,0.0,0.0,0.12470423221487208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14237650357531262,0.0,0.12652929039416413,0.1847543463927443,0.0,0.12894909342524127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12099209154576747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1342191637656997,0.0,0.0,0.10009051947662106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1361940794982435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07662300784222828,0.10825996689961302,0.0,0.16600429572217687,0.13850450836655884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1170791692086474,0.14009597834312215,0.2375196610588045,0.0,0.08612348380834346,0.12710428118619732,0.0,0.16707301555894954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10157384307843716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15037973448158218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16656447347346548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21407389379000366,0.14806925143387958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12725515229493442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10115390306047907,0.15363743514038625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1113990900952795,0.0,0.11687673171215696,0.1463579526854673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16138479742270928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1682668643860608,0.16410268967840688,0.0,0.10505852303392994,0.13231859025287224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0970801897441736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1379560195135655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12535517679149025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1283990663239421,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20577097031489489,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0893820206285596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1742631359502374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09758657578694226 schizophrenia,chrisbluemonkey,2019/02/06,"Anyone here prone to finding themselves the object of obsession in relationships? My daughter's diagnosis fluctuates with time and doctors but it's always some version of schizophrenia, bipolar disorder, anxiety, OCD, and PTSD. She just turned ten in January. Ever since she started making friends, she's always had a possessive, obsessive friend. (Not the same person. But different people behaving similarly. ) When she was in kindergarten this friend was so possessive that she didn't really have any other friends to speak of. I used to think that possessive friends were thinking of her more like a doll than a person. She went through many periods of time where she was catatonic at points and she had a difficult time even on good days being an advocate for herself. But she's active and verbal and assertive now. She has been for the last 2 or 3 years, even while having a very difficult time with her illness. And lately she's been in a real golden time of effective medication and therapy. I kind of expected the possessive friendships to end. But at her birthday party this weekend we almost had 2 literal, physical fights over who would sit next to her or who would be her partner for one of the activities. For kids, I was impressed with how absolutely spot on the gifts were to her current but ever changing favorite color, animals, shows, books, etc. The gifts were extravagant too, especially for this group. One gift bag had something like 5 different presents in it from one kid. Many of the cards said things like ""You're a very important part of my life and I can't imagine the world without you"", which to me seemed a bit heavy for an 8 year old. She got a couple of best friend necklaces, many things written in cards stating they were best friends, and there were several heated arguments over who the best friend really was. I know this might all sound like regular kid stuff but it really isn't. I've got another kid and this isn't her experience. I've run this by a few friends of mine (our kids aren't friends) and they don't have this experience. It's like once a child becomes close to my child they get really overly attached. She's just now starting to notice it and feel a bit overwhelmed and confused as to how to act. She enjoys group settings these days, but it's troublesome for her to play in a group because it inevitably devolves into fighting over her. I've watched carefully to see if she's encouraging this and I can't see much difference between her and other kids' behavior. My mother had schizophrenia and she was a pretty obsessive person who had obsessive friends from time to time. It makes me wonder if this is linked somehow to how others perceive the illness. Do any of you find yourselves in these kinds of relationships? If so, do you have any tips on how to cool things off gracefully? I realize that getting lots of presents at your birthday sounds like a nice thing. And it's hard to describe here the vibe these kids have around her. But it very much seems like the childhood version of a relationship that is not far from obsessive stalker kind of territory. I'd love to have a better understanding of what is going on. 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Hey all! To start i'm not schizophrenic, but about a year ago I read the book in the title, and i've just gone back and read it again recently. Schizophrenia is a big big part of it, and I wanted to see if I could find someone with first hand experience had either read it or would be willing to and get back to me with a book report! Thanks for the interest! Here's a PDF if you'd like (s-f-walker.org.uk/pubsebooks/pdfs/Julian_Jaynes_The_Origin_of_Consciousness.pdf)",7.149489795918367,9.025136193877556,6.125102040816326,76.08418367346937,64.61224489795919,8.457142857142857,24.20408163265306,8.841846274778883,1.4686571428571429,449,10,81,7,7,135,69,98,0.0,0.836,0.16399999999999998,0.9537,0,0,0,0,0,0,20.0,0,1,0,1,6,3,0,0,9,0,8,2,1,1,1,21,15,8,0,5,7,0,1,1,0,2,1,0,0,0,3,6,0,0,2,6,0,1,1,0,0,1,2,2,5,3,13,8,3,14,0,0,1,0,2,4,0,3,10,55,8,7,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16064296082354002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1267151030959094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2786980909540672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14469155416776053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17727054319838342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16563423541792674,0.15414790881513016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09468136433528287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08853624166964988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1829832338949728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1962464894137044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7250868376729273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1789355217751135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14441100341055876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15354937849861847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12827033715167382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16684548465239693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10688982489825828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12873538380813962,0.0,0.0,0.11670145656736162 schizophrenia,myredditusernameo10,2019/02/07,Need advice My son was evaluated at a mental health urgent care as having schizophrenia and they wrote a prescription for zyprexa. Told us it is fine to go home and start the medication. He has psychosis and is depressed and hears voices. Is it normal or safe to just go home and start the medication just like that? ,4.746949152542372,7.005056237288137,4.812000000000001,81.58003389830509,71.37288135593221,7.4318644067796615,25.359322033898305,8.238735603445708,1.6189769491525428,254,8,46,4,5,79,44,59,0.05,0.767,0.183,0.7845,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,1,0,1,0,2,5,0,0,4,0,6,3,0,0,0,12,15,7,0,2,3,1,0,1,0,0,3,2,2,0,3,5,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,3,2,3,4,5,12,0,5,0,1,0,0,7,1,0,1,3,29,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21006098265160064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2191708025291272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1851487509041824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2443387458725685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2284973866083008,0.2422808005200184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4312541721229988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10502087699493176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4331085689528825,0.21663382200987247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15939357523028072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2106197303009436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30430619249387514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20540794943872312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25857602399682983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,joesavu,2019/02/07,"Why did the schizophrenic cross the road? ""Because they told him/her to."" :/ What do you of this joke that I just made up? funny, not funny, cringy? Anyone else got schizophrenic jokes? remove if inappropriate",2.015000000000001,4.083574388888891,2.2261111111111127,87.11750000000002,110.66666666666669,5.133333333333334,15.611111111111107,6.6274283507984215,0.3876777777777787,162,4,28,3,8,49,33,36,0.055,0.687,0.258,0.8343,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,1,1,0,1,2,0,0,2,0,2,2,0,1,0,4,5,1,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,2,0,2,1,0,0,0,4,0,3,2,3,1,0,4,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,1,0,16,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2885881214410164,0.42288730200683694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25159437985073685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3447802175424587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3300952640815397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39053200508431024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3943780713132821,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37242167241771007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Charles327,2019/02/07,"I like to be normal I help my friends every day I thought. I be there most every day and talk to them and help them out. It helpsme feel good I think. Because I be there and listening to there problems and I think that would help them and they are happy in some way but I see in their eyes that they not want to ask about me. I mean it's okay I don't have to say much because I do the same things like others, I was at school and worked ase a carpenter 3 years. Than about 4 years ago I became ill with the diagnosis schizophrenia, depression and suicide thought. And stay a long time in a hospital. I don't remember the time so good but the symptoms are there since today. Like to see shadows and hear sometimes a scream from somewhere but no one else or that someone is see my thoughts and things I do. I know that is not real but my mind gives a fuck. I close all doors in the night but if I forgot it I see, if I watch TV or read, a black thing is move very fast and it's not that good to see it's feel more like I imagined it but I'm not sure. I think someone watch me out not with cam or so but I'm sure my thoughts sometimes be writing down and he read it and I try to build in my thoughts the situation that he have and they most 2 and discuss about me and often I try to be better to hear a good word from them. And now I'm walking down to the place my foods want because sometimes I walking without control. It's interesting because I can think in this time better and I can assess my situation of the walk and can see clearer and look closer to everything and feel like nothing against all and worthless to spend time to other people. Thay know and see that I'm not like they and sometimes a person talk to me I'm sure he doesn't want that but they think that they give me a good feeling but I know that no one if this person know me want to talk to me except they must ",1.4525117761152655,3.156199226932672,2.614017040731504,96.16094797727905,79.17456359102245,5.453061789969522,22.360834026046,6.139981653823899,0.11211050152396762,1474,45,345,10,36,471,159,401,0.12,0.7440000000000001,0.136,0.7142,0,0,0,0,0,1,18.0,0,0,12,4,11,25,1,0,17,1,23,5,1,1,6,97,67,41,1,11,23,0,4,6,1,2,2,5,1,2,25,29,1,2,21,3,1,4,12,5,0,2,7,21,54,20,40,53,8,34,0,2,12,1,33,14,1,10,20,224,79,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06007167901923732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0633533370829341,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16524142352715548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1198694521686188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07600686069957421,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0874086865890042,0.0,0.0583679310037341,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056610936604106515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11419385330039288,0.0,0.06090493677593978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1370608609538989,0.09682603625176382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08194456511004132,0.0,0.05235689704503044,0.06264983569760335,0.0,0.13001726046757672,0.0,0.2842002471075279,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07213961872513712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15275748801135933,0.0,0.13626910612207405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14897268315029727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19864626488020296,0.0,0.0,0.05997198430795324,0.05690751781200245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07381852568875112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06842571897386303,0.0,0.0,0.0720259828642984,0.04981680968912985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06359508009021939,0.06639762799476093,0.06502461310970184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09184183887295937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04698135724202049,0.11834369604497533,0.07080247145701954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06484421482232408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13557140490459396,0.07713409598776227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07676721254752866,0.0,0.0,0.053891327550347874,0.0,0.06858418993183893,0.3780127046636027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05605786349267064,0.15234671214803752,0.0,0.0,0.11483813459967986,0.0,0.2680946217928651,0.0,0.0,0.07223099290694941,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07412649673535122,0.0,0.1916098147142695,0.07043623848338466,0.0,0.1634065197382223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13506487557826086,0.21711295147555967,0.0,0.2689985852159649,0.15806277883970454,0.0,0.06423553690207545,0.0,0.0,0.0920191830916856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055915172176506066,0.15988378746987686,0.05379057894730371,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06532532026617212,0.0,0.049335447836249234,0.0,0.0,0.048139990790107945,0.0,0.0,0.0872799206893693 schizophrenia,absolute_illin,2019/02/07,"Time to shop for a new doctor? So my psychiatrist prescribed me Wellbutrin the last time I saw him for what he believed to be SAD. I've been taking the Wellbutrin for about two weeks and called him to let him know about a side effect I was having. I was having ""heart throbbing or pounding"" late at night while at work. I was kinda freaked out and may not have described it well over the phone to the nurse. They called me back later to tell me to discontinue, and follow up with my doctor for an EKG. However, after doing some research with the online PI sheet, found this is a common side effect, right at the top of the sheet. I called them back to tell them this, and that I'd like to keep taking it, since it's seemed to help get me motivated. They called me back just now to tell me that it's up to me if I want to keep taking it, but the doctor won't prescribe ANYTHING else to me until I get a full heart workup, EKG, and a stress test. Now, I'm in pretty good health, relatively young, and have never had any heart problems. Also, I'm dead broke right now, with no health insurance. I think this is all a bit unreasonable, and cruel to discontinue someone this fast. Does this seem unreasonable? I didn't get much time to talk to the nurse, but it seems weird to treat people this way, especially when psychiatric meds are involved, that effect us severely. What do you think?",6.354245742092459,5.8628059817518245,6.30553284671533,82.38995377128956,65.82481751824818,9.058491484184914,27.75571776155718,8.238735603445708,1.5721428710462289,1085,26,225,12,15,343,152,274,0.122,0.8029999999999999,0.07400000000000001,-0.9581,1,0,0,0,0,0,35.0,1,1,4,6,13,11,1,1,16,0,19,9,3,4,2,37,39,16,1,3,6,0,0,1,0,2,6,0,0,0,17,11,0,2,11,1,1,1,5,7,1,1,8,1,28,4,37,27,5,39,0,2,1,0,21,14,0,8,24,148,45,7,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07644219172270447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06500354529326184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07866129662433376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22050526508183346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10769565091704683,0.0,0.0,0.10435802514772052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3904267088288362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2935170352987029,0.08365025301160722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07985203349539118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10480799737887968,0.0,0.0,0.14982333943939435,0.0,0.0,0.0801752064627829,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20321248446297652,0.0,0.3398189552480065,0.06407104280069179,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16992713018926933,0.0,0.0,0.052533010396938584,0.07791749031916663,0.10782813656114976,0.0,0.0,0.09774584902840024,0.0,0.04669977554536603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10617741741429257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07026864055878146,0.0,0.07372384319604694,0.09232009311187403,0.0,0.08970345255050796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06626911931141984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09724799997588827,0.0,0.09146540800384778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1632643330024747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2610608921444796,0.0,0.10798794204928908,0.0,0.07907190132890493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08099193478046685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10949645105305723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21561225757229652,0.07683051880211729,0.25064602379743145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12249866696077255,0.0,0.0,0.16721549404687558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09337620053031076,0.0,0.11498135063800585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056380649739543875,0.07587380406500824,0.07667543201212887,0.0,0.0859456568065375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06958966004537942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,juan_suleiman,2019/02/07,"Just got lunch with my father and my brother... And it was a really good time. I'm blessed in having a kind and supporting family. Also, Denny's makes really good pancakes.",1.9631818181818201,4.666794939393941,4.4335606060606105,77.97034090909092,84.45454545454547,8.148484848484847,20.37121212121212,8.841846274778883,2.142884848484849,135,4,23,4,4,47,27,33,0.0,0.591,0.409,0.9484,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,0,2,5,0,0,2,0,2,1,0,1,0,6,6,4,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,4,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,2,5,2,4,0,2,1,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,14,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2556994680376529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30142654832865623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5363728375740316,0.25572879276344035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3329645719191377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21343185890315056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4096728793031591,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3628421373572521,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18644552138841916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Cerunis,2019/02/07,People around me are just deviations of one of 10ish base humans. I can never shake the feeling that every new person I see in a day is just a generated person that’s been created based off of some model in my head. It actually really scares me sometimes because when I notice it happening around me I start to feel like nothing at all is real. Like who are all these people? Who’s doing it?,5.149615384615384,5.746596782051284,6.832461538461541,73.86253846153849,68.35897435897436,9.316923076923075,27.138461538461538,9.3871,2.328704615384616,311,9,57,6,5,108,56,78,0.053,0.8320000000000001,0.115,0.5879,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,5,4,0,2,3,0,7,1,1,0,3,11,12,1,0,0,2,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,3,8,2,0,0,2,0,0,1,1,2,0,1,1,3,8,2,10,11,3,12,0,0,1,0,5,6,0,1,7,44,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.19944145141184208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3638758620118338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12458568579228305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1318055839806318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17219555754256474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2066772482677872,0.14600622376013386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18072898287621675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2097486932596603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19969553728847314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1576273365993364,0.1973875717945172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1961042417749144,0.23268338043296455,0.0,0.0,0.13849043703658984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2833771090328309,0.3569064031582553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2326245814512459,0.13092847072092287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.204615985570214,0.0,0.1628611762403552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2021330463048076,0.0,0.14465835353195194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,pang2405,2019/02/07,sorry to say that i am tired of talking care of my younger brother.,3.4007142857142867,4.345254785714288,4.19857142857143,89.89642857142859,72.57142857142857,5.6000000000000005,35.42857142857143,3.1291,1.6758000000000002,53,3,11,0,1,17,13,14,0.241,0.575,0.184,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,1,3,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,7,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4609666265885596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3595440911734188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5061114938787954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3633970516944595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5196456044819315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,MNightShyamalannn,2019/02/07,"Had my first hallucination last night An entire phone call, making plans. It never happened. Does anyone have a similar experience? 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Post them if you know any. I want some hope. Any stories besides John Nash.,3.0616666666666674,5.390207944444448,1.2427777777777784,94.16750000000002,108.44444444444444,1.8,32.27777777777778,3.1291,1.1185111111111117,85,5,13,0,4,23,16,18,0.0,0.639,0.361,0.7845,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,1,1,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,3,1,0,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,3,1,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,3,0,5,3,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6481336369382392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4733165313113975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2618965699045614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4563982076315449,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28107848121031226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,samuraisenpaixd,2019/02/07,"Ever had a family member insist an exorcism would cure you?... I've had more than one family member try to tell me I'm possessed. What in the fuck. The absolute denial of reality there is mind blowing. Way to brush everything under the rug. Also it makes me feel like they're calling me an evil sinner or something to that effect. I guess my medicine must have holy water in it because that's the only thing that has ever cured my ""possession"". I swear it's like the world is conspiring against me. Everyone I have so much as said two words to has pissed me off today. Also the police shot a stray cat tonight outside of my apartment for unknown reasons. So that was a depressing shit cherry on my depressing shit day. I have never been more excited to go to bed. I hope your days have been better",2.7911538461538465,5.099817346153852,4.199333333333335,83.479,77.46153846153845,7.236923076923077,24.5025641025641,8.238735603445708,1.7289441025641028,630,22,117,12,15,208,106,156,0.168,0.768,0.064,-0.9564,0,0,1,0,0,0,17.0,0,2,0,2,7,12,5,0,11,0,15,5,3,3,4,14,23,6,0,3,1,0,1,2,0,2,0,1,2,0,9,0,1,0,3,0,0,1,1,7,0,2,6,3,16,5,17,15,3,16,0,2,0,1,5,7,4,3,9,82,25,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25913838887916524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09876730523475176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14329557949753216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16544290859083452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20898199117937705,0.0,0.2790991815157947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2931169370941442,0.0,0.1548192744623327,0.1456152180839555,0.0,0.3054804560164105,0.0,0.08192335554012539,0.11574878106248565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14978702829282636,0.0,0.0,0.09208102087186312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17848585709704806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1609247264529532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15831184746434218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1081511597894747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16359636046558845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11910505110310275,0.0,0.12496160508522833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10979052031460812,0.12322527885817587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16658593446116302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15412033342648446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3326271757417037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12473270116591155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14161465311689378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10764043307449547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15357821894055088,0.0,0.0,0.11000252297361056,0.0,0.15827226836233954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1286057797430986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11509601074293233,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,InsaneGrape1988,2019/02/07,"Mom with paranoid schizophrenia hospitalized. I'm sitting outside the intensive care unit because my mom overdosed on sleeping pills she had hidden somewhere from earlier prescriptions. She was earlier telling my aunt that she was ""fed up"" with this disease. She just wanted the voices/visions/worry to stop. They pumped out most of the fluid from her stomach, she's stable but under observation now. I'm shook because she would never take her life, she just wanted every thing to stop. Please help me make sense of this situation and with suggestions as to how I can help and make her feel better. Once she's discharged, we'll be talking to her psychiatrist about the further plan of action. Thanks, and you guys are insanely brave to be going through this... ",7.491777777777778,8.969144103703705,6.6051851851851815,74.42333333333336,63.51851851851853,8.962962962962962,35.0,9.150863307647796,3.3107777777777785,614,27,97,10,9,187,94,135,0.05,0.774,0.175,0.9664,0,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,1,1,1,2,5,5,0,1,4,0,9,5,2,3,1,21,21,6,0,3,3,3,1,0,0,2,2,0,0,1,5,7,1,2,1,0,0,3,1,1,0,0,4,1,19,4,20,13,1,13,0,0,0,0,24,5,0,1,4,66,24,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2251243336320668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16330971959864804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18826505636021468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1555773036832024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09336561720013588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1049420069458612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1828345458586462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2475367338733343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13042519331331154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2465133347646899,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.432524463968366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14241503302910388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19664839116099048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20269248474956167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20755662424880367,0.1847853887511472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30875473929570235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.138835350285902,0.1484163114468973,0.1613940176848095,0.17000278528371576,0.0,0.0,0.12267460730130644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2178251091307735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1875231050292286,0.0,0.13117150792271975,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Pretzel_of_Truth,2019/02/07,"Withdrawals are bringing back psychotic symptoms It's been like 6 months since I last drank/smoked weed but recently I've gotten sudden withdrawals that are absolutely INSANE. Most of my psychotic symptoms have gone down significantly since being put on medication, but since these withdrawals popped up, it's brought some back but in a different way. I'm constantly confused and can't make sense of things, I've passed out a couple times for no reason and bit my tongue hard while unconscious, I feel like passing out when I try to exercise, and I'm constantly shaking violently. I don't know why this is happening or if it's related to my schizophrenia, but I really need help. It literally feels like I'm dying.",6.809075487701442,8.334063274809164,6.840865139949107,71.9420271416455,65.10687022900764,10.707718405428329,34.40288379983036,10.746095033038511,4.049986598812554,583,26,98,16,9,186,91,131,0.147,0.762,0.091,-0.8162,1,0,1,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,0,3,6,1,2,2,0,8,4,0,2,0,20,21,11,1,2,6,0,3,3,0,0,4,0,0,0,8,5,0,0,4,1,0,7,3,3,0,0,4,3,8,3,11,16,3,25,0,0,0,0,1,6,0,5,14,53,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24594134254684846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17459414949236965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34563921204916603,0.0,0.0,0.17695140621970085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16597449572280545,0.1670851652266143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.161723426649634,0.22849759242069725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14141909983132042,0.0,0.14325931135128844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10719280294008457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08788932386890468,0.1303583306947237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2343904337386508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1067496322750062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16110527772760772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12764875928412192,0.0,0.0,0.11858064257446875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16076646668252415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10245056535467788,0.1644271525199869,0.1579043555843561,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3968690862554029,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3324418004838089,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10624552405163457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09325220213054963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10857700370124608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12693918144511926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14430534642046916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Wytchee,2019/02/08,"Hello. Any other trans people with schizophrenia? I'm a 30yo trans woman with paranoid schizophrenia. Being neuroatypical my personality already tends to rub people the wrong way, and making friends is difficult. Being transgender on top of it just feels like I am being crushed/suffocated under a mountain of stigma. I need to know there are others out there who are as lonely and feel as isolated as me. <3 ",5.496607142857144,8.516965763888889,5.793650793650794,71.84500000000003,71.91666666666667,7.447619047619049,28.341269841269842,8.418075326091056,2.6190769841269845,333,13,48,6,7,106,56,72,0.159,0.746,0.095,-0.6124,0,2,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,1,3,5,0,0,3,0,7,0,0,1,0,11,14,5,0,1,1,0,3,1,1,0,0,0,0,2,4,5,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,3,4,2,12,11,0,5,0,1,0,0,5,4,0,0,1,35,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.351494739835447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21660452210572972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32210656429991363,0.2275507512120829,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24608776141062635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17505026165063234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15561278263844786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2126145729454172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2361785436001621,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.441643324346668,0.2781193775838157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2528263496352478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3482516172327527,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,KimShyt,2019/02/08,"SZ Advice. ♥ So , I will try and keep this as short as possible. I am 22 years old and currently living with my mother in Israel ( which is fucking horrible for my mental health) I was diagnosed when I was 19 with SZ , just general not really any specific sort of schizophrenia. I had a few psychotic episodes and progressive anxiety and depression for a few years.. So the last year has been pretty OK for me .. I mean , i guess so. I have literally been smoking cannabis (the only drug that really has any positive effect on me) all day , every day NO psychotic symptoms in the last year. But yeah the depression is really been kicking up a notch I haven't really left my room too much in the last year. and idk I guess it's a shame but really the only person who is worried by this is my mother , who wants me to get out and get a part time job ( which i totally agree with) but the thing is I literally struggle to get out of bed in the morning ANYWAY WITHOUT TOO MUCH RAMBLING ........ I NEED TO GET OUT AND GET SOME PART TIME WORK. Please if you have any advice for a person in my situation inform me. ty in advance. I honestly love you all. ♥",1.6204441997063164,3.942868744493396,3.8494107929515415,84.3105625917768,81.81938325991192,7.836196769456682,23.11472099853157,8.72156446121922,1.888503817914831,883,31,177,23,24,303,123,227,0.083,0.7979999999999999,0.119,0.9104,2,0,1,0,0,0,33.0,0,2,0,4,8,8,1,2,14,2,18,6,0,1,3,34,31,17,0,3,7,2,0,0,0,1,4,0,2,2,9,13,0,1,3,0,0,1,4,5,0,0,6,0,25,3,27,24,10,30,0,2,0,2,10,14,1,5,15,124,34,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20690838456360414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2159841329794749,0.0,0.0809896758783115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1365537979474142,0.0,0.1823700359294764,0.10745504616287208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1227747026766614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08919939755953354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0978744028670193,0.27656153148534923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2332537988460561,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11253404735933853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10505888098827318,0.0941014414881566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25889267292419965,0.0,0.0,0.11502723484675273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09348447513523674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09555111903679868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11532263479801318,0.0,0.0,0.10669128932964296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1556521400821502,0.07850069714139603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11109195421756636,0.0,0.0,0.16103664948593566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2292921317385463,0.0,0.0,0.18488186687967784,0.0,0.1162126293583396,0.0,0.11935165661468496,0.0,0.10770707384251688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3391127180737661,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.119001457180304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11067751230011104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1100386729669263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0703348162493598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12346640595443435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07187826190703148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.062444418458906865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10205416569660658,0.0,0.07707406481410124,0.10751534832587746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3408815851084352 schizophrenia,Masterchief441,2019/02/08,"For those of you who take/ took Geodon, how many years does this medication work? For hearing voices and paranoia (people hearing your thoughts)? Does it only work for a certain time period, then stops working?",6.5500000000000025,9.172894000000003,5.151111111111113,79.50500000000002,67.33333333333334,7.022222222222222,31.44444444444445,7.793537801064563,2.3666777777777765,168,7,26,2,3,49,31,36,0.108,0.8370000000000001,0.055,-0.2593,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,2,0,3,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,1,5,5,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,4,1,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,3,2,1,4,3,0,6,0,0,0,0,5,0,0,0,5,14,6,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3923430140963605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5053087490489616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2272718389365993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2258263435549077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17049036912636384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15541032499056534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.187415039313486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16854693593554246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17796487800494848,0.13071454971941288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2490596320798991,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4895923680294793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1443572688801945 schizophrenia,jza69,2019/02/08,"do you find yourself mincing words to talk about your SZ in order to keep people comfortable? i nearly always call my schizoactive symptoms “anxiety” because i’m afraid calling them what they really are will make me an outcast. i wish i was able to as freely express how my ML affects me without worrying about social consequence. my friends diagnosed with depression and anxiety talk about their illnesses boldly and usually receive praise for it. i’m so jealous of that. there’s really two or three people i actually feel comfortable enough to call my illness what it is and be honest about how it affects me, outside of explaining to people “i’m just a little anxious right now.”",8.531567944250874,8.950794723577243,8.339279907084787,66.57073170731708,61.113821138211385,11.581416957026715,41.14866434378629,11.20814326018867,5.116763995354238,553,29,83,14,7,178,88,123,0.13,0.684,0.187,0.8467,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,2,3,1,10,9,1,1,2,0,6,4,0,5,0,18,14,8,0,1,3,0,1,0,1,1,4,0,0,0,6,4,0,1,3,0,0,1,1,3,0,2,1,1,16,6,17,11,1,8,1,1,0,0,16,4,0,1,2,60,22,0,0.15883927811473486,0.0,0.15500422259865085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13216700374073065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2430232259910986,0.17944317246665495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09682694964586472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.486577986753262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13680803749074688,0.1612185237459184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16412343470797144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08031391160111298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14517622258071786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12271883225357867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14118364861235694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15919868524657455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10602645154879384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.330357467143455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20351301774493466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13564787562691275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16191664093600608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1650948284345662,0.0,0.2553379900474115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15516289446828868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17493902419919702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18265733087453653,0.15311539590974665,0.0,0.0,0.16130899716755442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,popcornchicken55,2019/02/08,"HELP: The voices in my head is saying the n-word What do i do? Those racist slurs are unbearable, can't stop hearing the voices in my head saying the ''n-word''. Medications doesn't work, it only damper the voices for some time, but they don't stop...",2.9063999999999983,4.410841439999999,3.916999999999998,89.24350000000004,74.6,6.6000000000000005,18.5,7.1686216300943375,0.08579999999999988,192,3,41,2,4,62,33,50,0.053,0.8690000000000001,0.078,0.0414,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,5,0,7,3,2,0,0,4,8,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,6,0,0,3,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,6,4,0,3,8,1,5,0,0,0,0,5,2,0,1,3,24,7,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5541146376133131,0.0,0.3042650621200309,0.0,0.1809488079396835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2719567653613523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20531709712421292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4293667914627714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4513980704768725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15741611703824016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19653443240045515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,getupandgetsprung,2019/02/08,"De-Stigmatize Mental Illness Hi everyone, I'm a 23 year old student entrepreneur looking to solve a problem very close to my heart: de-stigmatizing mental illness. I don't want to hide anymore and neither should you. Let's be proud of and completely own our mental differences. Here is the Facebook page I created - this is the first step in a long walk. Please feel free to join and share your experiences. &#x200B; Much love! &#x200B; \- Benny",4.7650000000000015,7.6997975000000025,4.977500000000003,77.18750000000001,74.0,8.0,32.5,8.841846274778883,3.2795,360,18,58,8,8,113,64,80,0.103,0.643,0.254,0.9116,0,0,0,0,0,0,21.0,1,2,0,2,1,5,0,0,5,0,6,4,1,0,0,8,11,3,0,3,0,0,1,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,1,4,0,0,1,0,1,2,2,1,0,1,0,2,6,5,6,8,4,8,0,0,1,1,6,2,0,0,4,32,7,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33585841983859555,0.3766542676551472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15370624506963487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1625017531204236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16192925713762674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1480974789114481,0.0,0.15160780224378773,0.0,0.0,0.0783664854495274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13183253830155126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18366128198879786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15848551998993995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13715932040524104,0.13015071218859578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13988253510712173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.46857372814849707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11393386162832254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16263361792730846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17013005572282516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1483023871875112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12788116158855434,0.09141581642762192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3766542676551472,0.0998070577863942 schizophrenia,jesussearcher,2019/02/08,Memory test Does anyone know of any good online tests I could take that could test my memory or attention? I feel like my memory is bad because of my schizoaffective disorder.,4.803958333333334,7.517227312500001,5.901250000000001,71.75208333333336,72.75,11.766666666666666,23.166666666666664,11.20814326018867,3.807529166666667,142,4,23,6,3,47,24,32,0.165,0.691,0.14400000000000002,-0.2023,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,6,6,1,0,2,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,5,2,2,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,12,6,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22389793253918724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23021580276672385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2749058742988535,0.20070473392915344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5257507823843803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3773433656495979,0.0,0.2881245726088144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16647619611756875,0.2352127381682979,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2761551371841922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1809444756415988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16085250654375308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2475513116643708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,KingOfSuns,2019/02/08,The world moves too fast for us to keep up and work at the same time. Help me brainstorm ideas for us to function in an artificially slower environment specially designed for people like us considering we do have the funding By artificial environment I mean work life stress that is reduced to some ratio where we could keep up while still not potentially being unable to sustain a comfortable life. Also consider that our idea could be well structured that a billionaire might find it something worth investing in,11.957,10.519505477777779,10.62277777777778,58.977500000000006,55.33333333333334,13.888888888888893,43.611111111111114,12.602617957971056,5.628444444444443,423,19,65,11,4,133,70,90,0.029,0.841,0.13,0.8271,1,0,1,0,0,0,2.0,6,0,0,2,5,5,0,1,6,0,8,2,0,0,0,15,11,3,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,1,2,0,0,0,4,3,0,2,4,0,3,1,1,1,1,0,0,0,8,4,13,6,2,12,0,0,0,0,7,7,0,2,5,49,12,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1302065344766821,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25999592283221673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14881388944154375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10913434394513064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3676063399689448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2894425478507193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2300081718529685,0.07954528510457379,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17735794857614373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.172725545974438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17305114733467342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11287840097079402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12534625089686766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13002770239518646,0.0,0.1865089567399157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09494124252581296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.587554707366257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14639410349059515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2370687774832082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,agent_wolfe,2019/02/08,"Does this Sound like “Hearing Voices”? I’ve never talked to my doctor about schizophrenia, but I’m going to ask next time. I always have this constant monologue running through my head. Lately it’s really negative, & I have great difficulty breaking out of the loop. I’ve been really depressed, I just quit my job and I feel like everyone there hates me. I kept getting really angry and at one point I thought I was going to become violent. I thought quitting was the right thing to do, but now I just feel like an asshole who couldn’t keep it together. :( Is that just a normal human thing or is it “hearing voices”?",3.4122804314329755,5.75773166101695,4.3936363636363645,82.6688520801233,75.61016949152544,7.002773497688753,26.828967642526965,8.00094639256281,1.9079220338983047,488,19,87,8,11,158,80,118,0.229,0.6709999999999999,0.1,-0.9678,1,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,0,2,6,7,2,0,4,0,9,2,1,0,1,18,23,5,0,2,6,0,2,3,0,0,1,5,0,1,9,3,0,2,4,0,0,3,3,3,0,1,6,7,13,4,9,16,0,14,0,1,0,0,6,4,0,1,9,57,22,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12403271953112815,0.16151017005010967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13935419007668512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16462885315361608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1610846179838691,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1283881185426657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15257274255874148,0.1304464168976628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14243650056160842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15074190365410786,0.21298189616336766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0778794926649311,0.0,0.169432371087873,0.0,0.0,0.16434296384217767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14716928182498873,0.15298208959099402,0.0,0.33601065074291464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14792245883526875,0.13249443049393447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16815004795265956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21847459525219132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11496691090121408,0.0,0.15853065470662647,0.0,0.1460505175932623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1010092416642587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1409131280763297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3170946243995462,0.0,0.0,0.2864815612421112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12729935941977655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1198115430055428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1980622459227114,0.0,0.0,0.2366794344264641,0.08692008795701903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Sheylore,2019/02/08,"Has anyone else been tranquilized with ketamine? I was dosed for being uncooperative with police during a psychotic episode. I had hallucinations following (8 months ago now) and have been quietly suffering since. There is a little reading on it out there, but I am curious about common experience. &#x200B; For those who don't know, you do not go to sleep when you are tranquilized. You just disintegrate into a timeless dimension that overlaps with the real world because you can still see if no one closes your eyes. Perhaps it would have even been enjoyable if I had not been in a hysterical panic, lol.",7.870053404539387,9.299903775700932,8.016288384512679,64.81532710280375,62.644859813084096,11.347930574098802,35.84646194926569,11.20814326018867,4.556659279038719,492,22,76,14,7,160,84,107,0.103,0.775,0.122,0.4958,0,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,5,0,0,8,5,0,1,5,1,18,3,2,0,0,16,22,5,0,3,6,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,5,7,0,0,1,1,0,2,4,2,0,1,7,3,9,3,11,13,0,16,0,1,2,0,6,8,0,2,6,63,14,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2045744701949647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2500523861066849,0.28042559841047743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1613682600759646,0.2364636069991873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14068266953843664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1927888907402951,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1524294475381601,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22574924708850835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13115882628657774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12683184583218818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2313043642230853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1842081272845229,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.156383971914204,0.0,0.0,0.2707731531404556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23084462416193394,0.2626806355056389,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1839035110009577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19090539687765745,0.0,0.23094883935288896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18430294005684225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16394103297700446,0.0,0.28042559841047743,0.0 schizophrenia,Poeball,2019/02/08,"I am really sorry to everybody on this sub reddit. (Long post but please read) I have hade panic attacks, anxiety and derealization now for over a year and it was all caused by smoking weed for a 2 year period of time. What “drives” my anxiety is the fear of going insane or becoming schizophrenic and for a year now I have had this really intense fear. I don’t have any family history of schizophrenia or anything I have just heard that weed can cause it and that it starts in late teenage years or in your early 20s and I am 19 soon to be 20 so I am right there. Over the year were I have had anxiety, dpdr and depression i have still managed to graduate high school, move in to an apartment, got a girlfriend and worked as a chef, teacher and now I am an electrician so I still am able to hav a high functioning “working” and social life. But the fear of becoming schizophrenic is always in the back of my head and I have met with 1 psychiatrist, a couple of doctors and I regularly go to a therapist and they all have said that I am fine and that it is just anxiety, Witch to me seems logical because I have always been anxious and a hypochondriac I don’t know why I have just always been this way. Before I was terrified of cancer and thought I had it all the time everywhere in my body and I guess that is what I am doing now but with schizophrenia it like I am over analyzing my every emotion or all my senses sight, hearing, smell, touch and taste. Anyway today I looked trough this sub reddit and I say all the selfies you guys have been posting and it somewhat made me feel a lot better! Media and movies have given me such a horrible image of schizophrenia but now that I have seen the pictures you guys posted I realized it’s not that bad you guys seem like really nice, average, awesome interesting, normal people that function well in society. You guys are such strong people i really do look up to you all! I will really try to kick the fear of schizophrenia this year I am going to get over it and you guys motivated me to do this I really want to thank you all and say I am sorry for have fallen victim to the media’s awful way of portraying schizophrenics. Thank you i wish all of you the best in life!",3.777811124449777,5.290831562358278,5.0680758970254765,81.82903661464589,72.37868480725623,8.634947312258237,25.89575830332133,9.168548406835145,2.086675550220088,1753,57,344,38,34,583,201,441,0.158,0.7120000000000001,0.13,-0.9352,0,0,0,0,0,0,27.0,0,10,1,6,19,21,2,5,23,1,46,10,2,4,8,61,71,33,0,3,12,0,2,2,1,1,7,5,0,5,25,24,1,0,8,1,0,6,3,10,1,0,17,13,52,11,45,52,11,51,0,1,4,0,24,17,0,9,25,252,77,8,0.07321349246001588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.182758472211992,0.0,0.0,0.04978768547044383,0.0,0.2240324853510839,0.08271040708771674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0602484661007494,0.0,0.0,0.08329091711621248,0.0,0.056296656502565524,0.0611302080744902,0.04463026546055699,0.16171710066023515,0.06229928965495444,0.0,0.0768330434232531,0.06475138444952717,0.0,0.08132368532266493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15042084868221856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08100933686412526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06305867377503027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07493711185413242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08235532475083787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0616855250696008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06901916485733649,0.3295421343201148,0.03701894160709485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03825102803489362,0.0,0.1248267449118686,0.0,0.05855551810009413,0.0,0.08065291610683194,0.3624643407215156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07513816535706239,0.0,0.08251692699699388,0.0,0.0,0.15470814896734764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.040236220757784616,0.0,0.08258800845016495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10342570980942464,0.07153682851922914,0.0,0.0,0.06479163693286505,0.12296178875431478,0.0,0.0,0.06224349315023905,0.0,0.06927637679385673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07781435590847217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07173367791449703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0859002586736447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10151403446674148,0.0,0.0,0.0803664291219409,0.0,0.0,0.21035486309437404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07323330507084796,0.0,0.28141462805102585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06252392252912707,0.06964279705055018,0.11644461555724082,0.0,0.074095963051352,0.0,0.1333016276582494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07463193557047333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1639130214641508,0.0518208867909769,0.0,0.11693677930458468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13481029462850694,0.0,0.08500650767551682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058123334986785874,0.08538275244149078,0.0,0.06939783022311954,0.0,0.0,0.04970715552048744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.043183214749098406,0.11622692501438965,0.0,0.0,0.06582772230852703,0.0,0.06606378931488009,0.0,0.08419190313298808,0.0,0.0,0.10660058895875664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28288253247366346 schizophrenia,thisisathrowawayy110,2019/02/08,"Does anyone have ORS? It's basically like a mental illness where you're convinced you smell bad but you actually don't. Anyone else struggling with this? I've been wondering if it has something do with anxiety. [https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Olfactory\_reference\_syndrome](https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Olfactory_reference_syndrome) So basically I don't know if all of this is actually in my head or that I actually smell. I've asked my family members who said they couldn't smell anything, but my brother actually said I did smell a little. But literally right after I asked my brother who said I smelled I asked my mom who said I didn't smell one bit. But the biggest thing and one gives me the most anxiety is strangers reactions. They cover up their noses when I walk past them, just like if they smelled something bad. I often get weird looks from them. Otherwise I could convince myself it was nothing, but two times people have said to their friend ""smells like shit"" right behind me when I couldn't smell anything. And often people sniff around me. Social situations like sitting in class makes this way worse and sometimes I think the smell comes from sitting. This has made my depression and social anxiety a thousand times worse than it used to be, I basically isolate myself at home because I don't want to be seen or smelled by people. I've been to doctors and two psychologists. they say they can't smell anything. My doctor refuses to give me a referral to a gastro. I wish this wouldn't be true but online there are many more people suffering from this, they say their family can't smell them either. I don't know if we're all just paranoid or actually smell? This has made my life a living hell, I've been so close to suicide because of this and still am. &#x200B;",5.804818276220146,8.288938183800628,5.3314018691588805,78.0145067497404,69.03115264797508,7.746209761163032,27.77673935617861,8.515128840125781,2.073476427829698,1451,51,250,24,27,443,152,321,0.182,0.741,0.078,-0.9897,0,0,2,0,0,1,52.0,0,2,12,0,12,16,2,1,9,0,29,7,3,4,3,49,53,24,1,10,17,3,0,4,1,1,4,7,1,0,17,11,0,1,4,0,0,2,10,8,0,5,14,25,44,8,23,32,6,23,1,2,2,0,36,11,2,12,11,163,61,3,0.0,0.0,0.3901472362943588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08663665060627644,0.09716017898817007,0.0,0.0,0.18350759428264454,0.0,0.0,0.1118198133184728,0.0819284919438758,0.19740085561327272,0.07118137223389412,0.224255480737503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1335265571468954,0.09748577469650424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08729563473743014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06887847894889024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06384157129064821,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06886944992211391,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16368494175941922,0.06997355423560718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0667963382709429,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15075838527040694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06177691477344498,0.0,0.04177581135177018,0.15340987858914118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08206205120582143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08020642177083316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08788787409070555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05647812835226281,0.1562577115677545,0.08014094845850629,0.07060616450512726,0.0,0.06714628017043772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15132021264548773,0.0533739356933102,0.08106691225117868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08058089554201811,0.0,0.0,0.0936482115568612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07672379779877668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10836596079808758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07633088881933765,0.22173684584744166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13657084406551273,0.3803014586875131,0.12717483796804374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0820778136935563,0.0,0.08987841510440678,0.0,0.1630183459835594,0.0,0.1231142631080716,0.07908250649132391,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06385617698765594,0.0,0.0,0.08359157634650283,0.0,0.08746328620917564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05312188573938256,0.051235153557633625,0.0,0.0,0.09325066388900084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15621864601451954,0.0,0.0,0.06905978614593783,0.0,0.0,0.0471624927642636,0.06346854376002896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09195007933961273,0.0,0.08671323316919985,0.0,0.0,0.16297218751907025,0.0,0.0,0.09716017898817007,0.0 schizophrenia,ASymmtrue,2019/02/08,It feels good outside today Really good feeling of the rain,5.050909090909091,7.701506818181822,5.863636363636362,72.61545454545455,71.72727272727272,8.036363636363637,29.181818181818183,8.841846274778883,3.0005636363636365,49,2,7,1,1,16,10,11,0.0,0.514,0.486,0.7635,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,2,1,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.44580691954192425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7395163626685597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28241530551443395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4178676046850156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,bananfluer505,2019/02/08,"Afraid that they think I am a hypochondriac I know I tend to convince myself that I have cancer and other illnesses, but I can feel that there's something wrong inside of me. I am going to see my doctor in two weeks and I am afraid she will dismiss all of my worries because I am diagnosed with schizophrenia. Does your doctor ignore your physical symptoms because of your diagnosis, or do they listen to you and examine you? 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I have visual hallucinations of cartoons but I don't have any vision loss past completely normal and not that bad near sightedness, so there is no way it's Charles Bonnet Syndrome (or whatever it's called.) I know they are hallucinations because they will appear on walls and paper and other surfaces they shouldn't appear on. They are not visual imprints or anything of the sort because I will see cartoons I've never watched or haven't watched in years like The Simpsons and Adventure Time and sometimes video game characters like Mario, or even cartoon characters that I'm pretty sure don't exist. They will be 2D, usually semi transparent and laid against a flat surface. Sometimes they will be still images and sometimes they will move. Sometimes it will be like a giant collage of multiple characters or their features while other times it will just be a couple of characters, and sometimes scenes or levels will play out. They usually will move when my eyes move but not if I look at something completely different and sometimes they won't move either way. If I blink they sometimes disappear and sometimes don't. Has //anyone// else had anything similar to this? I'm seriously freaked out because I can't find any information online of other people experiencing this. Also, I am not on any drugs, prescription, OTC, or illegal.",7.773982794698906,9.379283189723324,7.377754010695188,68.67486631016045,62.95256916996047,10.063613113229485,37.807254126947214,10.194018383442646,4.313368937456406,1169,58,175,26,17,368,134,253,0.078,0.8190000000000001,0.103,0.8161,2,0,2,0,0,0,26.0,0,0,11,1,7,10,0,0,5,0,30,2,1,0,2,42,37,26,0,4,17,0,0,3,0,11,1,0,0,0,12,13,0,0,5,3,0,7,14,4,0,0,1,6,22,6,15,21,1,32,0,1,5,0,15,13,0,12,13,121,34,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07102004004070109,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18117825845162666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06209689349709675,0.0909946938317083,0.14616348144958713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07415129888090223,0.16241031680771198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09068329893839053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1862278214605431,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0982647980297348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09278586910110784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1029895414353778,0.0,0.07418801696249228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05865710620627972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16233852516278433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.048806770420490364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13016188525133154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07457668341109762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3775570699947852,0.0,0.0,0.0684945077808711,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08701336963196002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08477766028911986,0.06156855789838836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09035006318525443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056892930820284876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0707687914029234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06836903995199661,0.7026701744298385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07092249761213228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08370085968613039,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10356977662906257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1956197969410884,0.0,0.0,0.14098393783067606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057189693591098524 schizophrenia,gracielizz97,2019/02/08,"Just your typical delusional night Most of the time I don’t think I’m schizophrenic. (I am a diagnosed paranoid schizophrenic though) Then I have thoughts like “oh fuck, so many people including me are going to die tonight because of like a nuclear bomb” and now I can’t sleep because I’m scared and then I made the mistake of turning off the tv and like laid in my bed in silence for a second before I heard whispers and the newscasters that I typically hear in silence (they are muffled so I don’t know what they are saying ever, but I think what they are talking about is a whole bunch of theories). Also low key can’t get out of bed because it’s dark and the demons will get me. Oh god heard a bang just now (it’s windy I keep reminding myself) and wow I’m terrified why did I leave my sleeping pills at my apartment???? Ugh this wind is making so many scary noises.",2.2071731092436977,4.407618154285718,3.4612773109243697,88.58189915966389,78.88571428571429,6.860504201680674,25.72268907563025,7.928766900206844,1.558119327731093,687,27,140,12,17,223,107,175,0.172,0.755,0.073,-0.9492,0,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,1,3,0,11,9,1,1,10,0,14,7,2,2,1,20,32,14,1,1,3,0,0,3,0,1,4,5,2,0,6,7,0,1,4,1,0,1,4,5,0,1,5,5,21,4,14,26,3,17,1,1,0,1,9,8,1,1,11,88,27,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13430056952817326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30712173679466503,0.0,0.14290351956202715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17045431117889545,0.17429392374074634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1519102274285318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1552566819194001,0.1754821463720289,0.0,0.09544347018066296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18927919333628407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14927169046572905,0.0,0.0,0.09229475315060592,0.0,0.0,0.17782290346952231,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2461391926855636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1589077198340089,0.11210042956338467,0.3405270969318222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15759915427174334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11642759404307768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1335516463296749,0.16813600070945106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3361200963154994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13498281773107068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2152167588149804,0.16499898373475713,0.13332462030141085,0.09792644427697708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18266915126151867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15153861401933047,0.18749763344928955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,stelioskali,2019/02/08,"Please give me some advice So I’ll be frank, I’m in my late teens and for a while now I’ve been doing a lot of acid and other psychedelics with my friends. We had already tried it earlier in our lives but for the better part of a year we’ve been going hard tripping almost every weekend. It all seemed like fun and games until my best friend of 12 years has begun acting very erratically. We’re very close so I feel we can talk about everything and I sat down and honestly asked what’s with his obsessive nature at random times. He opened up and told me that he has these very scare thoughts at night that some unearthly beings that exist beyond our dimension and control the world sense that he can acknowledge them. He says they don’t like that and our trying to kill him. At first I thought he was having night terrors or something but he later also went on about other delusions ( I feel bad calling what he believes that) that the government is out to get him and that there’s a conspiracy in our foods. You might think he’s joking but this last month he’s completely changed his diet. I was honestly entertaining a lot of what he was saying to not seem disrespectful and to understand further how he feels. He explained how we’ve all been set up in a loop of eternal suffering all brought on by these beings. He told me how when we die, the light is a hoax and we shouldn’t walk into it, because it just reincarnates us back into the suffering. He says the only way to break free is to not go in. This really scared me because although he didn’t say out it right, I knew the logical next step if all this was true. I asked him , then what’s the point of living if it all comes down to this moment, and he responded what I dreaded, That he’d been secretly having those thoughts more and more. I know there’s still the part of him that I grew up with so I tried reasoning with him and telling him how these things couldn’t be, and he admit to me that although he loves and trusts me, there’s a feeling in the back of his head that says “don’t trust him, he’s part of it”. I’m honestly scared for my friend and I hope I can stop whatever’s going on with him before it’s too late. I fear for his life. If this is not schizophrenia and I’m In the wrong subreddit I apologize. I just don’t know what it could be and all the signs point to schizophrenia.",4.133227272727275,4.998491883333337,4.636060606060607,87.73136363636368,70.79166666666666,8.068181818181818,25.79545454545455,8.296473431620573,1.3795625000000005,1864,54,400,27,33,592,223,480,0.13,0.7190000000000001,0.151,0.8240000000000001,0,0,1,1,0,0,31.0,9,1,2,4,22,31,1,7,20,0,35,5,1,6,7,92,69,40,2,7,12,0,5,2,3,2,1,5,0,0,39,35,2,2,20,4,1,11,9,12,0,1,19,12,51,20,54,40,16,69,0,2,0,1,67,30,0,14,27,267,90,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08136779447121294,0.0,0.0,0.08338012445216544,0.0,0.0918874826065569,0.06658879094449402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15568727980793193,0.0,0.0,0.12805475325247925,0.06952467693081224,0.10151788731687512,0.0,0.0708542981074406,0.09381367832257546,0.0873838432727646,0.07364311731428276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08502517362289473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08808571124818908,0.07172736418477615,0.0873041289766798,0.0,0.0933913029203692,0.06648212480839713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08641826085803353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07015625067962407,0.0,0.07483523654884472,0.0,0.0,0.0936988076164314,0.1684096970465178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07082708159260571,0.1006870910393048,0.0,0.19299621587701274,0.0,0.04350370218201813,0.07987753503725503,0.14196809377366007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07459110199300821,0.0,0.08545622264622525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08270316886605558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09212287672001006,0.0,0.09152300760020424,0.0678739235081558,0.18785817312645536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05881412224278736,0.08136034618749823,0.0,0.14705301721042366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1415816791280138,0.07515194545333323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08833339523159797,0.0,0.0,0.06646312573494902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08855566662137461,0.15628134971726546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06332849693520473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2705109571347473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09140243746557147,0.15742893405184324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053343133493594035,0.0856126026877481,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07110977782028342,0.0,0.33108730249554763,0.2500951345363343,0.0,0.0,0.15160675694082373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06410319827798172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06649733461216215,0.06961515071844637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06692706265186353,0.0727792479675793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05531906195893356,0.053354292579809184,0.0,0.1983146899568948,0.04855380396975422,0.0,0.0,0.15913085430437945,0.0,0.16959899389678385,0.0,0.0,0.08668414539349709,0.10016025113361124,0.0,0.0,0.20611260882966306,0.0,0.06609366847271744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07718957636353742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09103966800800696,0.0,0.10724275988959964 schizophrenia,SoundsLikeAnts,2019/02/08,"I’m back from inpatient care... so this is how life can be? I was recently discharged from a psychiatric ward and came out of it with an Insomnia Disorder, GAD and also Schizoid Personality Disorder. I didn’t “come out of there” like that, I just found what I have been dealing with has a name. After having an alarming number of psychotic episodes in the span of three weeks (any number is alarming) I became very worried and went to a psychiatrist and therapist as soon as I could. We talked and discussed all sorts of things, but then I had a complete breakdown last weekend and had to admit myself once I snapped out of it. I realize now all of the paranoia and delusions were directly caused by my insomnia, but it was scary and life changing nonetheless. I also recently found this community and just wanted to say hi to everyone hope you are doing well. Thanks for listening to me talk about my week. Love you all p.s. what i meant by the title was: life doesn’t have to distorted and chaotic, there is actually peace, which i am finding slowly. 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I got married and and am now separated to someone who is currently in a psych hospital. I don't know all the details, but I do know he's being forced to take anti-psychotics. I had to escape the relationship after a lot of emotional abuse and turbulance. I originally thought he had Narcissistic Personality Disorder, but I am hearing now that they are almost certain he is having schizophrenia symptoms. His friends and family are fearing for his life. Some of them have updated me on recent events. During the breakup he lied incessantly and said a ton of deplorable things about me to his friends to cover up his selfish acts. I was very confused for a long time, wondering how I could be certain of the authenticity of his love, and yet he could be so cruel on a whim. I had to eventually block him and go no contact for awhile. Before he was checked into the hospital he sent me over a hundred texts. Not all lucid, but the general gist was that he loves me and we belong together. He's since had his phone taken away. We are still technically officially married, but I have already completed the separation paperwork and am waiting for the 12 month term necessary in my jurisdiction to file the divorce. We haven't seen each other in 7 months. My question is, should I offer to see him? He is in a different country. Would this help his condition or cause more stress/confusion? I have no intention of getting back together with him, but I still care about him deeply. Thank you for listening. 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I am in the workforce and I find no harm in being there. I mostly just work low wage and do things like bag at Kroger. but I see no reason for you to not be in the workforce. I understand you can apply for disability, but I am choosing not to because I am young and it is just the beginning of my career. I plan on making much more than social security pays when I get older. So that is why I ask.",2.12003039513678,3.0132276595744685,4.33437689969605,87.90500000000004,75.59574468085106,7.073556231003039,23.003039513677805,7.447530270364453,0.7568528875379936,336,9,77,4,7,117,61,94,0.09,0.853,0.057,-0.2393,1,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,3,0,2,6,4,0,0,4,0,10,0,0,2,0,15,16,8,0,0,6,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,1,4,0,2,0,4,2,0,0,0,1,14,2,13,14,4,11,0,1,1,0,5,7,0,1,5,63,17,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27422802819096576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1788139024547398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2681022896852638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15325509551068722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14330835078791895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1958029622352966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2156345051552884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3015965755496695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2337495057856069,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2990174382650981,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1948783137721613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3053714124365683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5293772670378386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21355090675558613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,throwawayschizogff,2019/02/09,"Finding an SO who has SZ who’s been hospitalized Now that my SO has been hospitalized, I need to go find her. Currently she is at a point where she does not trust anybody (even her mother) and will not disclose information as to whether or not she is residing at a facility. I’ve just hit the first “I cannot confirm whether or not this person is here.” And I’m determined to go to every psychiatric treatment center and find her, I know her episode will be over soon as a week or two hits. She needs to be found before then and to know she has a visitor.. But to get some help finding her, could some provide some advice on how to go about this? Have you SOs, not married, faced this issue? I’ll start searching tomorrow 24 hours after her 5150. 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My brother (33) lives in another country and has 3 children, aged 2 to 6. SO many things happened randomly during the years, but I never connected the dots. Recently he told me that people are following him around town, he is sometimes seeing and meeting an old exgirlfriend (who is 600km away from him, so not possible). A few years ago he asked me to check his computer, phone and wireless connection to see if someone might have ""infiltrated"" his network or devices. Giving the benefit of the doubt, I checked everything and nothing weird was happening, but every time I visited the wireless router was turned off (supposedly because of the dangers of radio waves). My brother has a PhD and knows that all the scare is bullshit, but I understand that we're not always rational beings. Anyway, he came to visit me last summer with the kids and girlfriend, and he mentioned to me scaredly that some people from our country are following him, and he saw them a couple of times. His girlfriend almost left him a couple of times because she thought he was cheating on her, but she seemed to understand that this ""ex-gf"" is not really real. Technically, she is, but she's really far away and hasn't spoke to him in more than 5 years. He also told me that sometimes they communicate using youtube videos with special meanings to them, through fake profiles. A few weeks ago thought, he accused my father of touching one of the nephews and she told him that my aunt is going to punish him for this (that aunt died more than 10 years ago) for this, because he also molested her or something like that. My father has never touched me, my sister or my brother inappropriately. He mentioned a couple of times that he saw this happening, one of which I was there and nothing happened. Me and my father were playing with a niece, and her leggings came off a bit. Another time the kids were jumping on the beds while my parents were trying to watch TV and they grabbed them by the legs so they would stop jumping since they didn't listen and the bed is like 1m from the ground. While putting all this on paper it seems like my brother has schizophrenia, but I'm not sure and will not be until a diagnosis is confirmed. I want to help him, but the problem is that I'm 4000km away from him and so are our parents. The girlfriend seems to have shut down after this accusations started so not much I can do. So I really don't know what I'm looking for, but how would you help him? Don't know where to start, and I feel so helpless being so far away. Does this sound like schizophrenia? Sorry for the mistakes, English is not my main language.",8.05406001827254,7.30730718975332,7.6286738351254515,75.13338112305857,62.49146110056926,10.312151240424486,38.11434394546349,9.444778638647367,3.536276182444304,2207,98,399,33,27,697,251,527,0.116,0.8170000000000001,0.067,-0.9865,2,0,1,0,0,0,64.0,2,1,7,0,16,22,4,3,28,0,41,3,2,2,6,81,86,45,1,6,19,14,4,5,3,5,1,3,2,3,26,26,0,1,15,4,2,11,14,13,0,2,19,13,59,9,55,58,10,59,0,1,6,0,84,20,0,15,33,277,85,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19206403082885545,0.0,0.07232091523456023,0.0,0.0,0.1155134352967144,0.06009533273660445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15146425338638952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06429379401146944,0.13503753610428065,0.0,0.2714235937535353,0.0,0.0,0.1320794356869904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07884882493507618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16520777358644145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06221373090156027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23974017156243554,0.0,0.0,0.07445875541790949,0.0,0.0,0.07495608526966695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06320284564747837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06085100366438565,0.06901218426432376,0.0649093873937808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0365181255868912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06928289539660078,0.04104600284250881,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2554662885897713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0968191268481448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11907563795608753,0.058871395322592085,0.0,0.0,0.07847051528001936,0.0,0.0,0.17642258088305476,0.0,0.06377424393725029,0.0,0.06064914134738876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07322279964337816,0.0,0.07867203439347091,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07661720381084645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05309222486725235,0.0,0.16710852081028724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13859985826750668,0.0,0.07578590324744168,0.0,0.0978803659265457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1603902185206584,0.0,0.0,0.100140687403607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08142059579677582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06910766980404325,0.0,0.07260407650392145,0.08090630391721107,0.0,0.0,0.08220560077350937,0.13880373510173574,0.0,0.0713115125916693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14461567145420934,0.0,0.11510478172165745,0.2629964752329927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0597436229397891,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061194324802701865,0.055600804141108746,0.14286081379709067,0.08084775041228415,0.10223964109737152,0.0,0.0,0.060381673057327036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06806933531783567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.047981760846166704,0.0,0.0,0.1720110155312703,0.21056909930774592,0.0,0.0,0.2070365527929713,0.0,0.04903468519252314,0.07855789911794346,0.0,0.15037340786844036,0.0,0.06237749463937457,0.0,0.0,0.04259900448237111,0.0,0.0579329448500755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1026103129479832,0.0,0.0,0.1860370105814733 schizophrenia,MentallyUnchallenged,2019/02/09,"How did you come to accept your condition was real? What made you realize that you were having delusions and needed to get help? I am trying to help someone in my life but they are extremely defensive if I suggest they need help. Is there a way for me to help them realize the problem and help them understand that there is treatment that can help them? See my other post for more info on the situation.",4.453461538461539,6.121099730769231,5.364615384615386,79.75538461538463,70.92307692307692,8.78974358974359,28.384615384615394,9.2995712137729,2.557061538461539,321,12,59,7,6,105,55,78,0.039,0.722,0.239,0.9458,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,4,5,0,3,3,1,0,3,0,9,1,0,2,0,17,16,5,0,4,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,5,3,0,1,5,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,4,1,14,1,8,12,1,5,0,0,1,0,16,2,0,1,0,47,19,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1607888788709563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0975208217963112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7506753879048116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13184168810157235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17661980718125808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2768082912940415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17876625519799086,0.0,0.0,0.1786059859801412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21245706042288645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1487418334948892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2098108120253261,0.0,0.0,0.15815426491396647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12672816665457926,0.0,0.0,0.19431700456470444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14816000803850074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,CentAtMoney,2019/02/09,"Unsure in myself sorry if this doesn’t belong but i’m lost I don’t really want to tell other people because i’m afraid they won’t understand or understand very easily so here’s a bunch of things i can’t get out of my head in a schizophrenic way i think. do people trust their thoughts? i believe a lie about time but i’m unsure if it’s a lie and i just don’t want to stop thinking because if i stop thinking then my understanding of time will disappear. My belief of time includes the facts i believe but i believe everything said to me. However i understand that people can lie to me but i don’t know when they are. it’s hard to think of time is a difficult thing to keep on my mind i feel it relates to just about everything and the constant reassurance really messes with what i think about myself. before the meaning of time as in before the meaning i constructed of time. i don’t even remember actually not as in don’t remember what i was like but as in i don’t remember what i felt before i understood time. for some unknown reason i suddenly believed that time exists because i think time exists. If i didn’t understand that time could exist then i wouldn’t exist. I also think that reality and time are separate. The understanding we have of time comes from how reality changes. How could reality exist if things didn’t change? The separation of everything reality is and ourselves results in our own existence? are thinking and believing the same thing can someone tell me how they think because i don’t trust myself. im a little ... am i? ... isolated and i blame that ... i’m stuck in a loop thinking about my own thinking. ... isolation on why i feel like i don’t know what others think but talking to people is hard and i just need some answers before i can start. i feel like i need to know what someone else already is before i can talk to them and i don’t know what they are not as in i don’t know they are a human being on the planet earth but i don’t know if they know that they are what i think. Not that people are only what i think but are people not as in are people ... taking a break from the thought ... just a figment of my imagination ... hopefully theirs some meaning in what i just wrote ... i feel like i don’t care about my thoughts and i’m always just looking for the right way to think. do people think about their thinking? do people trust their own thoughts do people give reasons for why things work in their mind before they trust their thought. are those reasons valid? do people think that the border between thoughts and reality is yourself or are you something else. do people think that time is the result of ( thinking and acting in reality ) or just an element to describe reality are thoughts a piece of reality? i think i know what reality is but i only think that so do they exist in time together or are they separate elements to be treated differently. i don’t trust the answers i think of. i want and don’t want the answers at the same time. i don’t want to waste time thinking if it doesn’t matter but i don’t know if thinking matters. 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Do you guys experience racing thoughts? I've been diagnosed with schizophrenia even tho. I haven't experienced hallucinations or paranoid thoughts. The only thing I seem to have which is somewhat schizophrenia-related are racing thoughts which do increase when I stop taking my antipsychotic medication ",9.898235294117649,14.041181960784318,7.360549019607843,60.45847058823529,62.725490196078425,9.570196078431367,43.53333333333333,9.888512548439397,5.693773333333335,284,17,33,7,5,82,38,51,0.093,0.86,0.047,-0.3094,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,1,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,0,7,2,0,0,0,9,13,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,3,1,0,1,5,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,5,1,5,0,3,8,2,4,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,3,2,24,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24182946020599336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15736885744485307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23306455318917704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2359154206483723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2400224550157283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18120789767070672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21690347179745265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19919650265229008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1791422945250463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15828973375051586,0.0,0.0,0.7566091050831968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,denimcowboy,2019/02/09,"Going literally insane waiting for Disability I'm sure you answered this a bunch of times but I am diagnosed with schizophrenia and had my hearing/appeal for that about 2 months ago. I already waited the 2 years for the appeal...going nuts trying to stay afloat. I had a Lawyer and everything and my paperwork was all there so I'm just wondering about how long did it take you guys to get a decision after finally having your 2-year hearing? I know I'm so close but I'm so weak. All I do is sit inside my parent's basement with voices races inside my head. I suffered long and hard for this like Jesus Christ,, I just want a little piece of shit car to drive around and listen to music in! thanks for listening to my rant guys",4.0208712121212145,5.54012515277778,5.002954545454545,82.51022727272729,71.7777777777778,7.736363636363637,24.896464646464647,8.296473431620573,1.5564388888888891,578,17,110,9,11,189,93,144,0.161,0.769,0.069,-0.9383,1,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,3,0,0,10,6,1,0,6,0,8,4,2,1,3,24,24,11,0,1,4,1,1,1,0,0,2,4,0,2,4,9,0,2,4,0,0,3,0,3,0,0,4,5,15,3,19,20,4,17,2,1,0,0,9,4,1,1,9,70,19,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16329212282752087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20328165072643176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16398703177467971,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1869705003408964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1655571573691868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2017943761732456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09624275408803792,0.0,0.20938295136719834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3647961187126366,0.0,0.0,0.16501706122004856,0.0,0.1890538461996188,0.0,0.2076194215179698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1012376633718425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08999629224518768,0.184628026250107,0.0,0.3260422477849625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14703563019229698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20454474856626914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18909015968299095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19634463957530185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1736168851951085,0.0,0.13850390440864085,0.0,0.0,0.16959693243579796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10741503782708817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12506731951910094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10865254429337504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19976919911403151,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23725195903082175 schizophrenia,Sephenon,2019/02/09,"My life This is a little more unloading a secret, and searching for answers: My baggage, for your perusal and amusement. I'm sweating bullets after typing this. So scared and shaky. My baggage, before this is deleted for a baggageless rant, is that no one ever gets to match my face to this. I want to have someone hold me and tell ME, the FULL ME, it's ok, too. Just like Hitler did wanted in the alone and darkness, just like all breathing things to. The wolf that killed ten fawns still longs for life as the hunter guts it alive. I never started out liking this shit or being like this, and keep in mind that I'm not even kind of the only one JUST. LIKE. ME: &#x200B; My life is about 90% lies. I'm a pathological sociopath. I don't know if I enjoy or hate my life, I just know I am not happy ever. There's ALWAYS lingering fear. It's gripped me like a vice since I was a kid, and I'm tweaking now just imagining it. I barely fear death anymore. I'm sure that's until I'm about to die, but I know my basic instincts are sound in that I don't remember before my life, and I fucking won't after either. I have this non-physical (I consider it non-physical because here, it would just be social and not physical) anxiety of someone running up and saying, ""YOU MOTHER FUCKER, <my name>! I JUST FOUND YOU BULLSHITTED <insert, like, 20934 lies that I've built 23835498 lies on top of>!"" Even then, not only COULD I not stop, I wouldn't. I'd dig a deeper hole I think. I don't think I'd do much. I have SO many lies in place as nets to catch me when I finally fall that government officials are invoked some lol. I'm an extremely capable person with specialized combat type training, so for this please just trust that no one would find me really besides authorities of a federal level that wouldn't care because the laws I've broken are quite minor for the most part...that people know about or that I fear them finding is best to say. I could ghost my family, and they'd be fucked since I do everything and make the money and my spouse is completely dependent due to zero skills but anxiety. I live in this weird tragic comedy that's not COMPLETELY of my own making in my head, but that I just wish I could end anytime like I ""CAN."" Make no mistake, I've lied nonstop for all of my life. I ""could"" stop. And I could walk right up to a police officer and say, ""I love <insert insanely awkward sex fetish that will never let me live how I want due to judgement ((fyi it's not just being queer persay, for those calculating or trying to help or something))> and I would kill my spouse or yours so I'd survive just a little better without blinking!"" , and that cop would cock an eyebrow at best, say, ""...um...what? Are you ok?"" or probably pinch their brow, say, ""Alright, then...person, look, get out of here, quit shouting please."" No one with ANY POWER to do anything would ever even blink at my depravity. No one gives a shit that I can't communicate normally due to having keep up my lies/wanting to keep them going. No one actually cares or is legally allowed to do anything about the fact that I'm interested in torture if it's on someone that tortures (which I logically can reason everyone totures. Non-bread winner tortures breadwinning spouse, child tortures parent, slacker tortures boss, boss tortures spouse, and over and over and U, S, A! U, S, A.!).... I've gained a significant amount from my lies. I've done some atrocities. I don't think anything that's resulted directly in death before, or even SERIOUS dismemberment, but I've watch mothers drag kids away while leaving toys or a wallet laying somewhere, and just internally smile because she was saying racist shit earlier and I don't like her now so fuck her stuff. I find faults with all people. I understand I'm more riddled with them than most, but I don't care. One of the most entertaining (horrifying and traumatizing) things is my rambling, but also my secret-and-only-used-when-I-want-something-talent of active listening. I can't stop rambling when engaged. Imagine a person trained to be alone, who's spouse isn't who the person thought so now the person doesn't talk to spouse about honest thoughts due to fragility of their mind, and is now truly alone due to NO ONE KNOW ALLLLL of this at once or even close to in a few pieces. Then make sure you drop that person in a world where no one can talk with them because they'd either hit the loner in the face or vomit and run away. Right there. That's me. If you'll talk, I can't hold it back. I will have great convo, but it WILL turn to me just blaaaabbing...until you start to talk too much. Then, I'll tune in from thinking about what I will say next about whatever you say to hear you telling me, ""....so yeah, I'll do that. Selling drugs seriously is still the most logical way to make real money and retire."" Right there, I know you're a 20 year old, working at <some store> and are a moron not at least TRYING to be more intellectual and improve, now wasting my time SO IN THAT CASE MOVE OR DIE. I CAN'T TALK TO YOU ABOUT ANYTHING BECAUSE YOU'RE NOT DEVELOPED OR TRYING TO AND WON'T BE OPEN. I'd like to know some day if I have a serious mental disability, some legendarily lame but just me shit, but three 4-hour psychiatric testing appointments only detected OCD. I didn't tell those shrinks and testers all of this, obviously. Just told them the rambling was coming from stress. The rambling TRULY became fully out of control during a time (for a few years past) where I would have to lie just to not be in suicide inducing conditions of retaliation-based ostracizing and physical labor punishments at a job I had for those years. I also remember my first lie, btw. Or so I believe. It was in the basement of my childhood church, hilariously enough. I know it may not be the FIRST lie, but I was about 4, so it's one of my earliest, most vivid memories honestly. A friend told me and another kid his family got a golden retriever. I think my dog had just died, so I said I had 1000 golden retrievers. I did not (-\_-), so he told me so, it became nuh-uh, yus-huh, and so on. I think my little mind realized only one thing from that conversation, and not to ""just tell the truth."" It just heard, ""Improve,"" I guess. By fourth grade, my teacher told me she was catching me blaming everyone for my problems. I was a fucked kid for some reason, and I remember directly thinking, ""Fine, I'll make it their fault."" I combined a stupid work ethic that eventually got like, what 2060 SATs (not that smart) and a vicious urge to move through life completely untouched to now outwork/improve beyond people just so I can say they're fucked in my head to myself, and move on. If I see a chance to take advantage of someone I know is a lying, evil acting, close minded, cruel, etc etc, sack of shit, then I do. And all people are something, so if they're not OVERLY a good person, hey fuck that. I don't have time in my 60 years left. Fuck you. Dude at work that is sexually harassing girls, and insulting college kids due to their degrees being new types of degrees that let 22 y/o's make the 100k a year some deserve finally and almost shouting stubbornly that they'll never work out and get anywhere, AND that is blatantly inappropriate with me just because of my general demeanor and known violent off hour hobbies???? Oh yeah. I'm taking your half done work, finishing it myself, and turning it in EVERYTIMEEE. Even if I was only 45% done and you're just 46%? My fucked morals say, even if it's going to be harder for me to modify this for me and turn it in than finishing, fuck that guy. There's a lot of Good Will Hunting, ""Cause fuck him, that's why,"" in my life. Literally constantly sign myself up for an asswhooping just because I'm already getting beat, might as well get a swing in on the way down, even if it becomes a murder. I have taken weapons places they shouldn't go, stalked others out of paranoia, and many other crazy things. I smoke pot and drive constantly, and don't mind drinking and driving. If you logically hate me enough now, dip. I would. Here's the part where you know I'm going to die so since I have a race car and definitely drive INSANELY recklessly, so...you know. I'll only be a problem for so much longer. I feel superhuman somewhat much of the time, but only because I've performed MANY socially described ""super-human"" level acts. I have learned certain martial arts in a time that's INSANE comparatively to others, have survived insane bodily harm as a kid and young adult, and have surpassed many hundreds of people in my mentioned training time during rigorous and recorded testing. I have an INSANE amount of stamina in the physical endurance and pain tolerance realms. My anger is so violent in my mind that 90% of what I do is just echo chamber evil thoughts specifically about ""evil"" people, blast rage music like rap or metal, and focus on the evils in our world. This started around 8 years ago. I live an insanely mentally taxing lifestyle due to how I feel or lack of. It's like instead of feeling, I just have anxiety, worry, upset, sadness, and anger. That's all though. And even those pass QUICKLY. I imagine violence and carnage like I've seen before only worse. I imagine it happening to people that deserve it imo: Trump, Hillary, those at the peaks of our society just letting us wallow in our own stupidity, all of us smart or stupid stuck down in the mire. My friend (I have 3-5 depending on how many years have passed) told me that I have a ""Voice"" I ""use"" with people I encounter. She told me it's a voice that's creepy as fuck. She says I talk like a child. Well, I explained, that is because about 98% of the people I meet I could pull out my pistol and shoot in the face or take out my knife and gut and THEY NOR ANYONE ELSE WOULD DO SHIT. I treat people that I'll never see again like sheep or babies, because they essentially are TO ME, and why else should I really care? No one seems to care about me? People cut my hours, take my money for disobedience, not worry about my health, disregard my personal and family needs, disrespect my values and beli...see where I'm going? Don't gotta follow, just wondering. I'm starting to suppose that if it's that kind of society that propagates this, then fuck you all. I care about transgenders and gays getting justice. I just don't fucking want to hear Kardashian or Jenner. I don't even want them murdered. I want them replaced with education shit on black holes or sustainable filtration building, or videos about peace talks and how Australia is improving wind energy. We should be hearing about how many kids a day SURVIVE CANCER, how many CURES DOCTORS MAKE YEARLY. Stop this trash, and if not, Idc. I'll just keep brutally abusing anyone and anything I meet. BLM, feminism? All causes I'll get behind and endorse, but our world's media is too much and evil. Dude, if you're tearing down statues of racists, burn america. Otherwise, stop doing that fucking pathetic shit. You deserve rape or beating to death. Just like the sweat shop owners. You are PLUNGING us into chaos. I will not forgive or suggest a lesser punishment. You are evil, and doing out of selfishness and fear. If you wanted me to kill Taliban doing that girls in Afghanistan, then don't even dare be surprised that I feel this way about Zuckerburg, too. I've always found meeting other liars interesting since I'm like this, too. I wonder how foolish I look sometimes. For instance, I know people can tell I'm lying. Look, I know many can. Here's the thing, all you cuties out there with your little minds thinking, ""Omg, he's so full of shit, what a liar he's just saying this because he's cruel."" LOOK AT HOW YOU THINK INSIDE. I JUST LET IT OUT. Those are the thoughts I have when I know someone is onto me for SURE. I usually will relinquish whatever falsehoods I've put out that I can possibly relinquish, then either feign complete ignorance relying that everyone thinks I'm the ultimate in kindness and ""wouldn't heart a fly,"" and, ""is probably pretty autistic which is why he's so weird,"" or just attack that person as a stupid person which literally will ALWAYS WORKS with how I can dominate a conversation if no one knows how or is assertive enough to stop me. I just use someone's sexism/racism/misinformation to guide them into being wrong loudly or evil enough to be framed. Even more interesting is when I meet that liar and the shoe is on the other foot. Sometimes, I'll get caught lying. I'm done for. So I'll leave the bar, disengage that person, and just avoid the place. But sometimes I'll come back. FUN FACT: MOST OF THE PEOPLE THAT CAN CATCH ME LYING OR SAY THEY KNEW I WAS WHEN I UNVEIL I WAS LYING (JUST TO CATCH THEM IN A LIE)....ARE LIARS!!!!! THEY THEMSELVES LIE AND KNOW WHAT TO CATCH PEOPLE IN!!! So, as I said, I'll go back, and find that person again. And I wait. Active listening is a HUGE skill that I find most liars have. It helps us lie. We don't care, and I find that advantage in lying is the only reason I listen actively or even half-attentively. AND EVERY TIME, WITHOUT FUCKING FAIL, THEY WILL START TO LIE AS WELL. I don't know if I AFFECTED THEM, I don't know if you're ALLLL just like me and hiding it. I don't know, and am too paranoid to care. But dude. Watching you not liars try to lie is literally the same as watching a kid try to tie his shoes the first time. OMFG it is just PRECIOUS. You leave lose ends, talk about stuff you didn't just read enough articles and watch videos about but you just saw half a netflix doc, you give away a million body language cues, you haven't mastered ANY nonverbal tells I mean. Dude, if you've ever caught a kid lying, adults that really don't lie well sound just the same to a sociopath. Dunno. Been looking for a place to say all this shit. It's horribly sad for me, even if you hate me. This is probably more of a pity hitler moment, which is fine. If I meet you, I'll guarantee I'll do something to deserve that hatred. Another thing I'm really interested in is buying some audio surveillance gear for my home, car, and some sort of voice magnification tech but unnoticeable so I can fully eavesdrop. Btw, there is lots of bipolar level happiness in my life, just more of an 89-11 % blend. Probably less, but that's for another time. This is all true as best I can prove it to me in my mind. No one will ever have been able to track all I've lied about. I kinda can, but fuck it's getting hard not that my middle years are around. &#x200B; Please, god, read this and respond. I'd love to talk. I don't talk to many people if I can help it. I've read many articles where sociopaths like me know we hurt people, and honestly would LOVE to pretend the world is ok and we're not just doing what is logical and we're evil. So we stay away when we can...but then I just hear some fucking straight white n3\*45r say, ""DUDE THAT FUCKING TRASH FUCKING MUSIC DURING THE SUPER BOWL HALFTIME WAS FUCKING GROSSS!! GROSSSSS!! DUDE! WTF HAPPENED TO BON JOVI, MANNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN?>!?>!?>!!?"" and I debate testing good ol' Dooku's words about how it sounds when you knife someone in the back into the lungs. NCD's are no joke kids. 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What’s the difference? When having some sort of paranoia or trying to think what other people are laughing at me for in public places (which they probably are not, but I don’t know that for sure), among other symptoms, I try to ask myself what it is that I’m thinking. Reflecting on those small things and being self aware enough to notice them can take me from going down the slippery slope of negativity that might force me to stay in the house for a few days instead of pushing my way out into the world. I might be uncomfortable and then cause self destruction. I try my hardest to avoid those emotions, although I know that logic vs emotion, without lots of practice, usually ends with emotion winning. What do you do when you find yourself in these mindsets? Does sheer positivity work? And when you disassociate, what really makes a difference to bring you back to this reality?",10.393025641025636,9.036657533333333,9.38,66.40333333333334,58.282051282051285,12.153846153846155,39.615384615384606,10.980518767755715,4.3813076923076935,869,35,142,17,9,273,129,195,0.108,0.838,0.054000000000000006,-0.8822,1,1,0,0,0,0,19.0,1,4,2,3,9,7,1,1,9,0,14,2,0,2,1,31,25,13,0,0,6,0,0,1,0,2,2,0,0,2,20,9,0,1,7,0,0,3,4,3,0,0,0,2,18,4,29,21,4,28,0,1,1,0,12,15,0,6,9,114,38,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.109343857868497,0.0,0.0,0.08993670360416414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12015238669816038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07543093578755354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4888023729894489,0.0,0.0,0.10235439968373887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3947001594314887,0.10359378313134378,0.12085320707758918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1069013216882032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06647230733557402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.134958662324192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1285587203666236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05714181749872331,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09943707037887344,0.0,0.0,0.07807316930411523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11787037659127945,0.2481567980418533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13316222726078855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24326056457053105,0.0,0.12220059324736222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12610502194021328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0749289731849582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09320372139223528,0.0,0.24403414301615675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12466613103235301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1102354788293645,0.12156849826926396,0.08794100991424315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07770448113318551,0.14988929581705315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23822894595073035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12881732675845636,0.0,0.0,0.0928391413916936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11274737627550332,0.0,0.1702997330361195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,halfgracedlife,2019/02/09,"Why hello there Anyone else out there that has full on conversation with their voices? I was diagnosed about 3 years ago now, and up until I moved into my own apartment I didn’t notice any positive symptoms other than delusions and paranoia. Now however I can hear people talking to me when I am alone. At first it really freaked me out. I tried pretending that it wasn’t happening, I tried getting mad and telling them to shut up, but a couple days ago I decided fuck it, let’s talk. Who the voices are, and other hallucinations, for me fit in with my delusions and paranoia, but it’s not too important to talk about what exactly I think it is. Suffice it to say that if I think about it with any logic it doesn’t make any sense, but at the same time it does. For anyone else out there who hears voices, does engaging with them seem helpful or hurtful? The past couple days that I’ve been embracing my diagnosis, and my symptoms, I’ve actually felt a bit better. But as far as I know that is very not typical for schizophrenics. 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I'm also getting very upset and tearful because I'm having these thoughts. I think I need to end it before something bad happens. 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Had my first psychotic break in 2015, tried to commit suicide by slashing my forearm open. Needed 18 sutures to close the wound. I had religious delusions like believing God was communicating with me through birds, had religious delusions like I was the antichrist and that I had to fast for 40 days like Jesus to get my soul clean. I would walk around the city, starved and dehydrated until the boils on my feet made it hurt too much to walk. Anyway, about a year and half of that and many hospitalizations and more psychotic breaks I accepted that I had a medical problem and took the medication and they really helped and they do help a ton. My question to you guys is: do you believe your illness has changed the way your family view you? I went from an agnostic, scientific minded average guy to being hyper-religious and I believe my family's view has definitely changed. I believe they all seem to walk on egg shells when they talk to me as if I'm a timebomb waiting to relapse. When I want to have a discussion with them about God, they start asking if I'm on my meds or if I need to go to the hospital. I don't blame them, I just want to know how you might see these things in your own life.",6.390963855421687,6.786332674698797,6.712112449799196,76.50648192771088,65.6265060240964,10.495421686746988,33.06586345381526,10.355215969177356,3.3272268273092376,1032,41,196,24,15,334,143,249,0.081,0.804,0.115,0.5803,0,0,0,0,0,2,21.0,0,9,7,1,9,6,0,0,14,0,19,9,2,3,2,37,36,18,1,9,5,0,0,3,0,2,5,0,1,2,6,14,2,1,4,0,0,6,1,2,0,2,10,4,38,4,33,22,5,27,3,1,4,0,24,8,0,7,12,136,44,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10085375749862946,0.10591257779128746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5105644348329283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3595432365335501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07306386485903024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3204043941226527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09636598183436863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05919031082367528,0.0,0.06438636388805992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.224353468045186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15187426547933894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12128125863965908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06226223281765737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08002137753258047,0.16604601233974026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10719947896369858,0.0,0.11486014462432582,0.0,0.0,0.12584169521363514,0.2282592212221708,0.0,0.1201847396341819,0.11439246324557467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08328253844950212,0.16800892874432807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10840499116398374,0.0,0.0,0.12691278965309158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07257765416341316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09027892910331144,0.10313663684013916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08018854796577865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12392288572898805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09105969014556227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07526606490003174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.125871403578333,0.07691772317163555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13364492588450044,0.17985157971195045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10502267136230313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08047927314001935,0.0,0.0,0.0729562309995534 schizophrenia,FerrisTM,2019/02/09,"How do you cope with the FUCKING MEMORY PROBLEMS?!? Hi, everybody. I'm a university student (sort of...it's complicated) for the first time in a while and I'm at a point where it's almost mathematically impossible for me to pass a class I desperately need for my major. If I fail, it will set me back an entire year. My memory is to blame for my apparent inability to do well. I used to be at the top of my class, but now I can barely learn, and it's driving me up the wall. Does anyone have any tips--and I mean any at all--for increasing memory and attention capacity? I'm grasping at straws here.",2.5834426229508196,4.136721114754103,5.513901639344262,77.26019672131146,75.55737704918033,9.47016393442623,25.31475409836065,9.888512548439397,2.459594098360657,464,16,98,14,10,169,78,122,0.1,0.873,0.027000000000000003,-0.8012,1,0,0,0,0,0,23.0,0,1,0,3,6,4,1,0,9,0,7,1,0,2,0,16,14,7,0,3,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,4,0,0,4,0,0,3,0,3,1,1,0,0,13,1,16,12,2,20,0,1,0,1,2,10,1,3,6,61,16,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28749743543915685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39048690497063737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20075276104207607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2207685188632846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2512503606622451,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2442141271832225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2654269468143541,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3127450483106648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2128871263035844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27141009383951353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2747238163869914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16741512697223326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24796934164586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2581447932620089,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1848882970627207 schizophrenia,BigFuzzyHoward,2019/02/09,"Self-Help Books Hi everyone, for those who have used them, would anyone be able to tell me a good self help book for people with schizophrenia? I have a friend who thinks she has it. The links posted in the rules keep bringing me to a blank/black page; I am assuming the problem is o. My end but I can not get any information to appear. I'm really trying to help her and am becoming her SO slowly but she states she hears multiple voices and that she is a ""skitso"". I am under the impression she has gone to a doctor but I don't fully know the story yet and I have seen a lot of books on the subject. I was hoping for one that would actually be helpful. Thanks for your time everyone; I appreciate this, I'm kinda lost as to what I should do for her when she spirals into a depressed suicidal state. I'm really trying to get her to a doctor but we don't truly know each other yet as we've only been on a few dates. Thank you again for your time.",2.032594804419229,3.702881934010154,3.9639295312033447,87.28309346073458,77.3756345177665,7.071842340997312,20.21767691848313,7.928766900206844,0.7378321289937291,739,17,158,12,17,251,116,197,0.08900000000000001,0.765,0.146,0.8651,0,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,1,3,1,1,5,9,0,0,15,0,21,2,0,1,0,28,40,11,1,5,5,0,0,0,1,3,2,2,0,1,9,7,0,1,6,3,0,3,3,3,0,1,5,3,27,6,23,30,4,19,0,2,1,0,26,5,0,5,8,112,36,5,0.14097344000258666,0.0,0.13756974177932518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09586677338700124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09857190704555223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15569408876218072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12142021730382267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2885845787975505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12486062470846496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26941232641304297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1089157300462606,0.0,0.14730560787437585,0.0,0.0,0.1182418330346111,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15888731252045524,0.0,0.37796610096461775,0.0,0.0,0.14001843466079833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1253036708126039,0.0,0.0,0.15495063170292447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1538891627436363,0.11985057743227802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09552725136705616,0.10721665362846744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09773323308632792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1350135868643896,0.0,0.0,0.13489254320353836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1806223909937894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2941320861750921,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1542020624476417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12321700021815092,0.2595788063507813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09033008809563682,0.0,0.0,0.16440549308776406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1914234240442396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12175578939977558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20028697410449528,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,tempthethrowaway,2019/02/09,New Friends I have new friends. They're very cute but will only allow themselves to be seen through the corner of your eye. When it's dark and quiet and I get too anxious they pop out and rub around my legs. They look like a cross between a sugar glider and a fox. There's two and as soon as my stress is down they leave. I'm pretty happy to have things not trying to scare me for one.,1.0415853658536598,2.9676930975609785,1.9343292682926825,99.45076219512195,81.4390243902439,4.1000000000000005,17.567073170731707,3.1291,-1.0036390243902438,302,6,70,0,8,94,63,82,0.08,0.659,0.262,0.9527,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,1,3,0,5,7,0,2,4,0,5,3,2,1,0,10,9,9,0,0,2,0,1,1,2,1,0,1,0,0,2,7,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,2,0,2,1,6,9,5,12,6,0,9,0,0,3,0,6,4,0,0,5,45,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2620649528627811,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2065063263125572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35844556856445264,0.0,0.12119700787213285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2469409773053863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2456273105521627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11333093533176905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19480000466959566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4480844877774963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15719180285125142,0.1764269236092471,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23600127982852576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2322467626805865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26572579993018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1541134306148115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1574953361625278,0.0,0.22660520356348976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1914031084094713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,EntireDiscount,2019/02/10,"Is hearing gods voice schitzoprenia? I get a ssi check for schitzophrenia even though I believe I don't have mental illness. Been to the mental hospital involuntarily like over 10 times probably. I hear gods voice though. She sometimes tell me ""Go to sleep baby"", when I am trying to go to sleep. I can hear her voice in many ways , it's always a voice of love. I don't think hearing her voice is schitzophrenia. I basically now in essence get a ssi check for being lazy. Because I went through a temporary time where I was shocked and lost track of reality. Now that temporary time is over and I feel I'll never have a reason to go to the mental hospital again. I know by definition I don't fit the description of schitzophrenia. As I can hear gods voice and be totally grounded in rational reality. Really I only post this because I love hearing gods voice. She is a nice god. 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I have schizophrenia, I take CBD, and it helps a lot, takes away my anxiety, I don't get stuck in my delusions and crap anymore :D ",5.16,5.809743225806455,4.5388709677419365,90.12830645161293,68.35483870967742,7.490322580645162,31.62903225806452,7.1686216300943375,1.6901483870967744,124,5,26,1,2,37,23,31,0.121,0.562,0.317,0.7885,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,2,1,1,0,0,3,6,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,6,0,2,5,1,2,0,0,0,0,2,2,1,1,0,15,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2792336694372644,0.0,0.36199445565871374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3429413894359252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19070403832181287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4893205550203706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3103206923531172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5488881556715359,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,RUBEniteRL,2019/02/10,"Schizophrenia treatment broken (Rant) So basically I get a shot once a month to keep me from going psychotic, problem is that the shot makes me anhedonic, I believe it’s the shot because before treatment life was a fucking rollercoaster. Anyways so they put me on an antidepressant to make me feel better. Maybe I feel better maybe I don’t who knows with those things. Anyhow now I’m anxious as all hell but I’m not anxious about anything in particular, I just have this vibe of negative energy coursing thru my body collecting at my gut that makes me wanna scream. So they put me on benzos, fair enough everyone enjoys benzos right? Anyhow now the collection of the medication that I’m on, 2 of which haven’t been mentioned and are for other side effects, has got me fatigued all day, I’m talking 12-14hrs of sleep everyday. So then they put me on amphetamines. WTF IS THIS it’s like I have some mediocre janky stability where if I take my pills at the wrong time I’m either sleeping all day or feel like shit or I take the wrong pill or whatever the fuck my life has become, I literally wake up like really dude I promise you if you take a weeks worth of all that shit you will end this misery ",3.6999356223175965,5.759333789699568,4.703714592274679,82.08921995708157,73.76394849785406,7.750128755364808,26.67145922746781,8.548686976883017,1.9757984549356231,955,35,181,18,20,311,140,233,0.213,0.6779999999999999,0.109,-0.9863,0,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,3,3,4,10,17,5,0,12,0,12,15,7,4,4,29,33,13,0,4,9,0,3,3,0,1,6,1,0,0,14,2,0,1,5,0,1,4,4,10,0,0,3,4,28,7,22,29,7,25,1,1,0,2,9,11,5,8,13,114,42,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26443814708268965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09631189895704466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07134498014066086,0.12925873525451512,0.09959030127522196,0.13186119596745993,0.0,0.20702033429375705,0.0,0.1300022900253319,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15095902409213782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10366049579157308,0.12093103451759266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11183435688210122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17753304578396106,0.083611620936511,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21639858520955554,0.061147268727791464,0.0,0.06651511438750217,0.0,0.09360558878300668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10402831694352392,0.0,0.0,0.06432075501402504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16533410985216812,0.17153584761469293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2343703413502038,0.0,0.23515982055664625,0.0,0.0,0.11790297892882246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09341822433410628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1246411290660705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11198909135457014,0.0,0.3529650723009685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07497722618796979,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0999493945448094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2402746454520661,0.0,0.0,0.23424406732115305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2639929273525269,0.09407031769417536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07775452151680158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06824551360417898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09388043138555943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2559242899044817,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,narlymech,2019/02/10,"Do you think sz are mind control victim? They have a lot of mind control: people , TV, government, the mysterious supernatural thing, etc.",6.436521739130434,9.236124173913042,7.364565217391306,62.74510869565219,68.13043478260869,9.817391304347826,33.23913043478261,10.125756701596842,4.1164956521739136,108,5,16,3,2,36,21,23,0.091,0.909,0.0,-0.2732,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,1,1,2,0,1,1,0,2,0,3,0,0,2,0,6,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,4,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,11,3,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.636784572509221,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3165979861797624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2413421437527836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5732698575413148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19680462534502893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18859531947619693,0.18189697182474746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,buzso95,2019/02/10,"Unclear diagnosis... not sure what is going on Hey so I am currently going to my psychiatrist every month to get my monthly prescription of olanzapine because I've been having hallucination for the past year now. I'm getting more and more frustrated because my psychiatrist is trying to get me off my meds and is saying that she doesn't believe im schizophrenic because I am able to realize when I am having hallucinations. I think this is complete bs since just because you know something isn't real it doesn't mean that you are not experiencing it. Of course I know that my voices aren't real when I'm sitting in a car by myself and theres no else there yet I still hear voices... On top of this there are now making me fill out a form for ADHD which is completely unrelated to my problems and they think I have depression and anxiety. I really don't know what to do, it's almost as if they are waiting for me to have a mental breakdown to diagnose me. Has anyone else experienced this? What was your experience getting diagnosed? I'm pretty good at keeping my shit together but I'm starting to get really fed up. &#x200B; Thanks!",4.289086757990867,6.2801682511415535,6.073721461187216,73.18720319634707,71.96803652968036,9.0675799086758,29.97488584474885,9.586721724236666,3.1121433789954334,913,39,160,23,18,314,126,219,0.075,0.88,0.045,-0.5042,1,0,1,0,0,0,20.0,0,3,2,1,11,7,2,0,4,0,24,5,1,1,1,27,48,11,0,2,5,0,0,0,0,0,3,4,0,0,13,6,1,2,7,0,0,4,8,4,0,0,3,6,26,3,24,45,3,25,0,1,0,0,9,8,1,3,12,115,39,0,0.11963649358348953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14377981639319284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1197986668681713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12962609081411186,0.14537143457071136,0.0,0.0,0.09152159013188654,0.0,0.0,0.08365261800060461,0.1225817256630036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2917171842508332,0.0,0.0,0.13478935982509346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25087317468549303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1030427366183882,0.2428570453176719,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19988187793889867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.100798905723748,0.0,0.0,0.1170274471679198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3125256504159832,0.0,0.1359843526551473,0.1003454147028386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13483902318410165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.129227942795541,0.0,0.0,0.10633841246184184,0.0,0.0,0.1972472643266466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07985828845957679,0.0,0.0,0.13031921415232414,0.13288917425437913,0.0,0.12056544672856245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19098541555922927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11420657027685838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12171332407022815,0.0,0.11447596709801927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2723450429194066,0.1532844025141653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0951397415548364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12280514144084308,0.09896454378167484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09210201767081704,0.0,0.0,0.08467932592404702,0.0,0.0955418583165336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11275597936269438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11014520962184547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15331646875682986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08122532599750018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14537143457071136,0.07704197943124905 schizophrenia,T_Hummus,2019/02/10,"What do I do? [18M] I'm here because I'm scared and not sure what I can do in my current situation. Firstly, my parents don't believe in mental illness. They genuinely think everyone with a mental illness is faking it for attention. Needless to say, I've never been properly tested for anything, so I don't have any diagnosis. But I've seen and heard things throughout the day for a few years now (The things I see I've kept a sketchbook of, which I might post later). I also have a ton of other issues, like constantly derealizing and having delusions like believing everyone around me is an NPC or wants me dead. I'm used to the other issues, so I'm not as concerned with them as I am with the audio hallucinations. They've changed from merely whispering gibberish and saying my name to telling me to do things. Sometimes they tell me to hurt people. I can pretty easily ignore the voices, but I'm worried about it getting to a point where I can't anymore. I have a super supportive girlfriend who understands my problems helps me relax. I'm terrified that I might hurt her one day. What can I do to get help?",4.059425256341072,5.7080247752293625,5.541451699946034,78.1732460874258,71.88990825688073,8.248677819751753,29.796006475984893,8.841846274778883,2.564369347004857,883,37,161,17,17,298,126,218,0.165,0.741,0.094,-0.9409,2,0,0,0,0,0,25.0,0,0,3,2,8,12,0,1,12,0,21,2,0,1,2,26,38,12,1,2,5,1,0,2,1,2,2,6,0,0,13,8,0,2,3,1,0,0,6,6,0,2,4,8,25,6,22,32,2,15,0,2,2,0,15,5,0,3,11,113,38,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09930076542717416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08444161081247076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12314583079089535,0.0,0.0,0.10218345115777616,0.11053992016005043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07569445076363003,0.0,0.0,0.27979994629233385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13135812238178912,0.0,0.0,0.13418644324595627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16016207999412754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23730443835024465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10562113105464352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1297500935012074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16646052261047956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26585862499214324,0.0,0.0,0.2592078198868814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12132889841133955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2502735049942925,0.2634549639620409,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09576954682509488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08414255217872775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13787895256705365,0.0,0.0,0.08608563050729733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11738322193567904,0.0,0.11892300484939812,0.12632815224474134,0.0,0.1188163868696769,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1974940352254269,0.12431841223733554,0.0,0.0989494676522143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13957517982523832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12280985430967968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14090956952441278,0.11703118484560072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21706461186294626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2474842289814659,0.07956477384334504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1292680324403226,0.0,0.10724523856828852,0.0,0.0,0.07324020345632284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1261032800112738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07996306880265143 schizophrenia,OGasusual,2019/02/10,"DAE get tired by being social? I get tired after a few hours and need to lay down, preferably in the dark for a couple of hours before I´m good to go again. What about you?",1.970833333333332,3.4563721944444485,2.8566666666666687,95.955,77.05555555555556,4.800000000000002,14.777777777777779,3.1291,-1.2333222222222222,133,1,30,0,3,42,31,36,0.158,0.768,0.07400000000000001,-0.504,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,1,0,0,2,1,0,0,3,0,1,2,0,0,0,3,5,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,9,4,1,7,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,4,19,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2210458299225713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2874314650742355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2714390576263076,0.0,0.14763374017263114,0.2178834342701567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5116438504281449,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1926167672400736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2648036314422277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5971366743547064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,WalkingOnSunShine12,2019/02/10,"My brother has schizophrenia, and when’s having an episode, he targets me Is there any reason why when he gets angry and aggressive he only targets me? We never had any problems in the pass before the mental issue. But for years now he approaches me and tries to start a physical harm. He’s my older brother. Recently had a son that’s 3 weeks and I don’t think it’s a safe environment for him. 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He had a marijuana induced psychotic break over the summer where he was seeing and hearing things, believed that he made a pact with satan, that meth magically appeared in his room. After a few weeks in the hospital he came home and slowly seemed to be getting better. His marijuana use started up again and I told him he had to quit or move out. He stopped using weed, but I just found out he did Nbom and MDMA about three weeks ago. We had a very long conversation last night and he told me he still believes everything that happened (the black magic, the meth, etc.) before he was hospitalized. He also said he believed the government was controlling parts of people's lives. He told me some other very strange, disturbing stuff and was laughing inappropriately and had very strange facial expressions. I asked him if he'd be willing to see a doctor and he said no. I can't force him. I don't know what to do. His dad isn't someone I can rely on at all and he's been in denial about any struggles our son has had since he was little (son was diagnosed with ASD in 4th grade). What can I do? He already hates me for taking him to the hospital the first time. The hospitalization didn't help him either, he wasn't given any definitive diagnosis and was given a scrip for haldol which made him catatonic (he stopped taking it a few days after he got home). Any advice on what my next steps should be is greatly appreciated.",4.804142694620508,6.11977148805461,5.598186250609462,79.77708759954496,69.61433447098976,8.311327807573543,27.945555013814396,8.704169506293173,2.037838095238095,1198,41,229,20,21,391,165,293,0.093,0.863,0.044,-0.9117,0,0,2,0,0,0,31.0,2,0,0,4,7,6,1,2,16,0,34,4,1,6,1,40,63,15,0,2,7,4,0,0,0,4,3,3,3,0,11,16,0,3,5,0,0,4,7,3,0,2,28,7,25,3,26,27,7,39,1,0,4,0,47,14,0,6,20,141,36,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09811735941077183,0.08900547397215383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11080252592379493,0.08029609720024007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2048422817399811,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09386775743322262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08543965924583684,0.3393756873997321,0.0,0.08880255703884761,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11483979687780503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11261590773140608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06475473722522677,0.0,0.0,0.10191182350681967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20554331637311246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11198126066112507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0902400740830068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0854068402099355,0.0,0.11009199180767927,0.0,0.0,0.052458941654150285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08030530590548404,0.1106999757761526,0.0,0.0,0.08879030342790054,0.0,0.0,0.0991319345357874,0.0,0.0,0.11316691030803867,0.0,0.06730124509128968,0.0,0.20143445998139867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05518151185873097,0.08184577437237847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10063501349842496,0.08866194442064043,0.08885776085383867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19001661366720266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10671762214427444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10678485543594188,0.0942259370495438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10536111644387486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10873188414912778,0.0,0.06961013971062806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10679607577689662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1910216595367801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2400360975568054,0.09140750807204832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08305838610626526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0850752198623353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07106917163518646,0.0,0.08018581457689855,0.1678908665981698,0.0,0.10496805410707667,0.11494293128556872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15098836913163452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06670649388698527,0.06433727662377152,0.0,0.0,0.05854860717093637,0.0,0.0,0.28783192404182456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17344023610085255,0.0,0.2485409006236077,0.0,0.0,0.16108219303941426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06465934393744481 schizophrenia,disease97,2019/02/10,Is there anyone shiozofrnic and trying to stop smoking cigarettes? Really need some help from you guys. ,6.370000000000001,10.117594529411768,6.466176470588237,63.8427941176471,74.29411764705883,10.458823529411768,26.14705882352941,10.125756701596842,4.13384705882353,85,3,11,3,2,27,17,17,0.109,0.7440000000000001,0.147,0.1935,0,0,1,0,0,0,2.0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,2,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,2,1,1,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,1,1,7,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3479314478011505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4926993409570338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3335288335945539,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3689619295323565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3187734309265872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4160134395114901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3378357539536468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Cthula-Hoops,2019/02/11,"Inspirational? There is a mural of miniature bronze age European soldiers fighting in slow motion in the now 10 inch pile of snow along my wooden fence. First it was silhouettes but after a few seconds they were colorful and animated and one guy on the far left who was dressed I guess more ordinarily looked like he was trying to get my attention by jumping and waving. I think they are Romans but some had hats from later periods. Plumes and tricorns and things. I can't picture things like that on purpose in my own head, Im not really a picturer. As pissed as I am I gotta say this made me kind of happy. I guess I do have a vivid imagination, maybe I should try some kind of art thing, I have never felt inclined to do thay I've always been ""left brained"" even though thats mostly a myth but people change through life. I'm definitely different than I was when I was young adult, maybe this isn't all bad. I can get an actual expressive hobby out this, never had one of those before. I'm the ultimate sinner as far as surrogate activities, maybe that changes now that the last part of my life is over. I'm still bitter but this feels like a big ""fuck you"" I can use. Fuck everybody, I will be a reclusive artist now. Woooo mysterious!",3.5872131147540998,5.3898041147540985,4.6434098360655724,83.50118032786884,73.42622950819671,8.158688524590165,25.31475409836065,8.841846274778883,1.8251678688524589,980,32,196,20,20,320,158,244,0.085,0.813,0.102,0.4886,1,0,0,0,2,0,25.0,0,1,2,1,8,13,5,0,12,0,24,7,3,2,3,30,40,15,0,1,5,0,2,3,0,3,2,1,0,2,14,7,0,1,6,2,0,2,5,6,0,4,11,7,22,7,25,25,8,30,0,0,3,2,10,13,3,5,18,129,36,0,0.0,0.0,0.11969785927813953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10206242868579128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10241545729677287,0.0,0.0,0.10437409654325767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13692843194363266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2595147161279841,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12815294348290782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08101536246142177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.062020267111036975,0.08762788428211044,0.11777223861438735,0.0,0.0,0.1043340044214976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2267932372457439,0.1281689250424813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2702462676172835,0.12145206888068293,0.0,0.13057318891718506,0.0,0.0,0.1258839092467502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13249317689211898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25546173408691736,0.0,0.09998376434789637,0.0,0.0,0.2665395465836568,0.0,0.17327589255819634,0.1797755292464406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10300298511954112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1160632694160112,0.0,0.0,0.3696834957760273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18920494833036505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16623433821229694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13282815350254756,0.0,0.08503656857574332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07857873853661948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09754366071770636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09795593786215592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24446832166041266,0.07859517677075717,0.1205122162886682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16655533242580034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10593832013765823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Bendude14,2019/02/11,"Making friends while psychotic Now this is a very strange experience that I had in my most recent stay in the psych hospital for a severe psychotic episode. All of my teenage years and my time in high school I felt alone, unnapreciated,no friends,barely any interaction with girls. I suffered from severe social anxiety and depression throughout those years and was in so much pain feeling like nobody liked me and that they were turned off by my anxious and depressed appearance. I had my first psychotic episode shortly after I turned 18 and was admitted into a psych ward which made me have to drop out of school my senior year. After the hospitilization I was stuck at home with only one friend who was a girl I met in the hospital. This went on for a year where I was stuck at home and got so depressed I had to be hospitilized two more times. In november of 2018 I entered into my second psychotic episode where I was of course admitted into the hospital yet again with very severe psychosis. Something changed, I was becoming friends with practically everyone and had intense emotional relationships with very pretty girls. One goergeous 29 year old girl approached me out of nowhere, hugged me and told me how perfect I was and almost kissed me on the lips before a tech had to seperate us. Now I didnt look all that good, because of my mental state my facial hair got very long and my hair got long greasy and unkept but that didnt stop practically every guy,girl,and nurse treating me like I was the coolest guy ever when all my life I was ignored,bullied,unnapreciated. Now I had an everything is centering around me delusion but I couldnt have hallucinated all those interactions but now that Im stuck back home with no friends, returning social anxiety,and feeling like I'm a complete nobody again, the whole thing feels like a strange dream. When im manic and psychotic do I put out an aura that attracts people to a major degree?. Now I'm out again where girls are giving me blank looks where as in the hospital they were all over me. I know this is a confusing and strange post but I just wanted to share my experience. 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I'm a 16 years old boy from Italy and I don't know who to talk to about this so I'll just post my fear here. Can someone tell me their early signs of schizophrenia? I've done a lot of research online and I actually have around the 13% of chance of developing schizophrenia (my father is schizophrenic and so is my grandma). I feel like I'm experiencing some symptoms. I isolate myself from my new classmates because I don't like them and we don't have anything to talk about (we are really different people, for real). This makes me feel pretty bad when I'm in school but when I'm out I actually feel good. I've thought about getting a new group of friends since I'm not satisfied with my current one, and I read somewhere that this can be a symptom of schizophrenia too. I want to say that I've never been so good at socializing, so this may be the reason. I actually grew up in a healthy place without my father, so my environment isn't encouraging the development of schizophrenia. I feel like I'm becoming numb, I don't really even talk to my mom a lot because I find her a bit annoying (saying this breaks my heart but it's the truth), and I don't talk with my stepdad either. And this still reminds me of the isolation symptom. I am so different from my family and friends. I can speak English, they can't, I have different purposes in life, they just like to watch the tv. I feel so selfish and sad writing this but it's the truth. I've never had delusions or hallucinations of any kind. But I'm so scared I might have one someday, and I'm so scared about what would I do when the time will come. Can you find anything in what I said that is related to your story?",3.2453201970443364,4.8649227931034495,4.583579638752052,84.33724137931036,73.9425287356322,7.730049261083742,27.65845648604269,8.418075326091056,1.8724249589490969,1364,53,281,24,28,452,163,348,0.121,0.76,0.118,-0.6222,4,1,0,0,0,0,35.0,2,2,4,0,23,21,1,4,15,0,30,7,1,2,4,52,52,27,0,2,10,3,5,4,2,4,6,4,0,1,15,17,0,0,10,2,0,2,11,9,0,2,5,11,44,12,35,41,5,26,0,1,1,0,30,9,0,6,17,181,59,3,0.0,0.0,0.2717331918974248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06311994675676064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15276387871910047,0.08262838436957573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07749979623339025,0.1131629218346686,0.1025110394958148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10133405741559777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0799551519557616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2909275787693276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09498582809818287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061305922448215075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08750127606508977,0.10444692184347028,0.23465979600704545,0.13261949622599886,0.0,0.0,0.16966934916611676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14342310351348164,0.0,0.04849397657553575,0.0,0.0,0.15570396169353942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1099906898176296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09665646602443312,0.05101076878603476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.065560642503923,0.18138625102232564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15782239871062884,0.0,0.0,0.06195724998518455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09846604735560316,0.0,0.10870822206991823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1431751156415963,0.17928989366691406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09739768572699242,0.0,0.12579280197044473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12869769683124752,0.0,0.09697585958977586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08889472455610017,0.094430058437379,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09284388846791528,0.10564808131922812,0.11892416214513647,0.09543315490575356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08829190592585759,0.1476264233742654,0.18585556305249354,0.09393755099277866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07678064602968157,0.0,0.0,0.09461704746967567,0.07864504294352727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07412518993270102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2894227263243142,0.0,0.29841684690921844,0.08112769647415723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07368773573274891,0.054123371443445915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054746915627699975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0894739824108411,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06593579138474794,0.0,0.0,0.05977224494851939 schizophrenia,Electronic_Office,2019/02/11,"In the psych ward right now :( any words of encouragement? I need them. I'm currently in the psych ward. We are allowed to use our cell phones for 2 hours every day, so this is from my phone. I was diagnosed with paranoid schizophrenia a few years ago. I basically had a psychotic break at school. I still don't fully understand what happened, but I was called out from class and the police took me to the hospital. I asked my fiance what happened to me, but he said I don't need to worry about that now and he'll tell me once I'm more stable/in a good state of mind. They got me stabilized after a few days. I'm feeling much better. They were late on giving me my cogentin for the first few days so I had to deal with the tremors and muscle rigidity etc. but now I'm on track. It is just so depressing here. I tend to sleep all day. And there is this one guy here who will NOT shut the fuck up about some ex ""girlfriend"" whose house he broke into 3 times, all the times they had sex, etc. He just never shuts up about it, even though me and the other patients have told him to cool it. So I'm hiding in my room. I'm an extremely social person who needs a lot of human interaction but I'm definitely not getting it from these people, lol. Also, thanks to the nurse who gave me permission to keep potato chips in my room. I'll be out in a few days. A week at the longest. I just need a little pep talk or words of encouragement to get through this. I lose my phone at 6pm EST so if you comment after that I'll see it tomorrow. Thank you guys so much for everything. hugs",1.8170700232705703,3.5715490674846677,3.2364692193780407,91.88082822085892,78.2638036809816,6.582441294690077,20.75058176433256,7.503015589744147,0.4885156759043792,1220,31,275,17,29,399,181,326,0.062,0.799,0.139,0.9796,2,0,0,0,0,0,37.0,2,2,4,3,22,13,1,1,20,2,15,5,1,2,3,40,47,19,0,5,11,1,1,0,1,2,1,1,2,4,18,11,0,2,2,0,0,1,5,5,0,2,11,4,33,8,43,33,13,46,0,3,1,3,41,21,1,4,22,177,51,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0997933808086215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09002838418518609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07655672891077954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10524499724719816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09956586933214448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1149544673774716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3630166698006125,0.11606271463567196,0.09696304915668616,0.11426404420135887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2511078946016593,0.07435654062858628,0.0,0.09485160789962756,0.0,0.10117762060321284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056922691834324274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09575857470741284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10407631372125208,0.11763445342581315,0.10799483381661057,0.0,0.09442487357952306,0.09003870903137988,0.0,0.0,0.22293933939881244,0.19910426104501566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11086640445210574,0.1298996059008392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10006427481606246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12699260297918172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11283247845937028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1259457034354529,0.0,0.09570957530033453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1136714328972842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1655151958841012,0.33389989389260394,0.08682689924614985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11989162719053313,0.07628559539577902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07804723541450237,0.09829854699028784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09614078144569536,0.1070872181345424,0.0,0.0,0.113934690940252,0.08970988944940599,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11265905003145048,0.11475883655903872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08990473475850995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09048572925480038,0.0983979135797168,0.207292929621798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11060706555471324,0.0,0.1312899800533977,0.0,0.0,0.10757286236788274,0.12507801999879542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1171974056527838,0.0,0.09723102836441626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09030307864266494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1143281674721138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07249637853064869 schizophrenia,Finikan,2019/02/11,"Why can’t I have a job like everyone else?! Oh my freaking lord. For fucks sake. I had 5 jobs last year and just got let go from my 5th. My car broke down two days ago and needs a new transmission. There are NO jobs that will hire me in town. I have NO money to buy a car that will reliably take me out of town. For. Fucks. Sake. Won’t any companies understand and hire schizophrenics? I’m literally at the end of my rope. If I didn’t have doggos to care for I would be traveling to six feet under. I’m not a bad worker. If anything, I try to work harder to make up for the sometimes difficult mood swings and psychotic features. I’ve tried keeping it secret, but it’s noticeable and I get fired. I’ve tried being honest about it and I get fired for “other reasons”. Fuck at will employment and fuck automatic discrimination.",0.9081137724550884,3.330204646706587,2.7167994011976053,90.45675598802393,86.36526946107784,6.453772455089822,20.326047904191626,7.7348632917899725,0.8785451497005985,644,20,138,13,20,213,109,167,0.192,0.75,0.059,-0.9729,4,0,0,0,0,0,21.0,0,0,0,2,3,12,4,0,6,0,15,6,1,2,0,20,31,10,0,4,5,0,2,1,0,5,1,0,0,0,6,8,0,1,3,1,2,4,6,8,0,2,3,2,14,3,21,20,0,19,1,1,0,4,1,9,4,2,7,79,20,8,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.127841040976794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09807355796975599,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11867957662399148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12041646340149333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14704042114599758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09300903242919296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12047609096830188,0.0,0.12773482701928487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13780700277443067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5333108941431021,0.15069647765047875,0.0,0.08196272423333545,0.0,0.11534474729193482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4293439662180289,0.12818807172798222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1175573650513922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14747323623260175,0.0,0.07045789769558622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0962670005328836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10693622580823453,0.0,0.13928717214935024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16419377254611595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14828068670516825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1426358314344103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10843439972700757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2937447816093515,0.0,0.1408805654274717,0.15013659440163069,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13013480763071275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1049928204341124,0.0,0.0,0.1024487185259103,0.0,0.0,0.09287201639334712 schizophrenia,guyamas_sonora,2019/02/11,Having someone hospitalized My friend's roommate is definitely showing a ton of signs of schizophrenia and saying dangerous things. We're going to have him evaluated tomorrow. What does it usually take to have someone hospitalized? ,9.432342342342343,12.629716378378381,9.311891891891893,50.26801801801803,60.89189189189189,12.500900900900902,44.76576576576577,11.855464076750405,7.110106306306308,194,12,22,7,3,63,32,37,0.08199999999999999,0.847,0.071,-0.1027,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,1,0,4,0,0,0,0,2,6,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,3,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,1,4,6,1,3,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,2,16,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3214906406639907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2838315150018939,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20878657622689845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29214980274562313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6225480034728744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27621882112860474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2440663371497413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4046095237347983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Bum_In_The_Park,2019/02/11,"Anyone ever hear of/experience what is called ""Paroxysmal Perceptual Alteration?"" My therapist just sent me a study on it. Background on my experience: Schizoaffective since May 2013. On Latuda and mostly symptom-free since July 2013. Over the past year or so I began experiencing what I thought is/could be HPPD from earlier drug use in my teens. For the unaware, HPPD is a result of the use of psychedelics, where visual distortions become integrated into your regular, sober life. [This](https://www.google.com/url?sa=i&source=images&cd=&cad=rja&uact=8&ved=2ahUKEwiw5PeOr7TgAhWFpFkKHUVkAp8QjRx6BAgBEAU&url=http%3A%2F%2Fhppdresearch.blogspot.com%2F2015%2F11%2Fwhat-its-like.html&psig=AOvVaw03Uh5UP_7kQvALnz-6TZ2B&ust=1549998121686556) is an example of what the visual field of someone with HPPD would look like. I've been discussing these visual distortions and HPPD-like symptoms with my therapist for about 8 months now. Basically in times of severe anxiety I have been experiencing psychedelic-like distortions and visuals. The best I can describe it is as colorful static vision, rare occurences of patterns forming in different levels of lighting or very intricately patterned walls or carpets, and points of light as well as floaters. Even when I am not anxious, these visuals occur at a lesser level. My positive symptoms have only ever been auditory. It doesn't seem to make sense that I'd develop one positive symptom while experiencing none of the other historic symptoms. This phenomenon was discussed in a case report that my therapist mailed me. [This](https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed/24047761) is a link to the abstract. What it discusses is this phenomenon being cause by antipsychotic drugs. In other words, in this occurrence discussed in the study, it is often misconstrued as another positive symptom. Of course I have no clear diagnosis on this symptom. Where it is the result of schizoaffective, HPPD, or PPA remains to be seen. However, if anyone has any similar experiences with something like this I'd love to discuss it. 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I have questions I'm fascinated by the voices. In particularly the common phenomenon where the voices are a commentary or directive in nature. Why is that? Do you guys hear other sounds like music, nature sounds, urban sounds or just people? And if just people is it the same person all the time? And why are they always commenting on what you do or what you should do? That's oddly specific. It's very interesting to me as a non schizophrenic. Also can you distinguish the voices from ""regular thoughts"". Are the voices in your head or can you hear them coming from outside like across the room? 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schizophrenia,probablynotmeee,2019/02/12,Give me one good reason I shouldn't cut my pinky off It's gotta 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schizophrenia,tyamkea91,2019/02/12,Fear of schizophrenia Let me start by saying im sorry i dont look down on any of you im just very fearful and scared so my sister got schitzofrnia at 24 and she had a stage where she went into the hospital in December for trying to kill herself me im 27 happily married no problems in life besides i have anxiety had it sense 24 so that made me very fearful so the things she told me her voices say keep popping in my head like stupid bitch constantly and now tv sounds are Loud fan feel like its saying my name constantly but only when tv and things are on noise my eyesight had gotten horrible i see everything i had gotten ringing in ear sounded like a siren whistling talking to self in 3rd person saying things like shes crazy and your schizophrenic i went to psychiatrist and theropist they say its my OCD im super scared thoughts are pissing me off giving me anxiety please help 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schizophrenia,romfuckulus,2019/02/12,this isn’t very serious but do y’all also have a problem with salad fingers? my friend recently sent me a link to the new episode and it really fucked w me. tw for unreality if any of y’all are brave enough to watch it. 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schizophrenia,buddycoleslaw,2019/02/12,anyone have any ideas how to not forget what you're saying mid-sentence this happens all the time to me and i feel like a big idiot fool. 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schizophrenia,dragon_de_mer,2019/02/12,Does haldol cause weight gain? I read that first gen antipsychotics such as haldol do not have metabolic effects. Currently on abilify tablets ( plus wellbutrin )but want to try something else bc im sick and tired of the weight gain from this med,3.538712121212121,6.757529386363636,2.5563636363636384,89.79621212121214,84.68181818181819,6.56969696969697,25.51515151515152,7.793537801064563,1.867269696969697,199,8,35,4,6,57,40,44,0.121,0.721,0.158,0.2263,1,0,1,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,4,1,0,0,0,1,0,2,4,0,2,0,7,3,4,0,1,2,0,2,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,2,2,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,6,3,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,17,3,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2626486950946762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22374295053886398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21358368848337986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2174770584815261,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2761729173449944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28399733171845826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25574422937825514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19683113700690616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29386084725570016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17358656926481586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15080376295183912,0.0,0.0,0.6226866391244681,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,iseedemons92,2019/02/12,"Finding Love I’m still a person, damnit. I still have feelings. The stigma is so bad. Fuck. You can’t tell people because they will immediately cut you off. This has happened so much. I’m not crazy damnit I just have delusions, hear things, see things and experience things that others don’t. My life is so fucked. I’m not an ugly guy. I’m 26 years old. I work. I just need a lover. I need a boyfriend. I can’t go through this shit alone. Is my condition going to get worse? Has anyone been successful in finding a relationship with this curse of an illness? Please help me. Just need people to talk to. 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I’ve posted some artwork here in the past (long time ago oof) with good feedback, and now I’ve made a threadless shop (with a Pride collection! LGBTQIA+) This is pretty big for me, I’m usually too anxious and paranoid to do anything with my art oops Anyway [here](https://spetmber.threadless.com) is my shop! I am schizophrenic and bipolar (schizoaffective) and I /do/ want to make more designs with this in mind (the “brainiac” design was done during a manic episode where i was hearing lots of chatter, so its sort of with this in mind), maybe even a collection, but I’m afraid of accidentally continuing stigma/inadvertently subjecting mental health issues to commodification... even though technically 30% of proceeds will be going toward my (a mentally ill and semi-recently evicted college student’s) and the rest to threadless/production. I highly recommend doing business this way to any fellow artists, threadless gives you a lot of control and its super user friendly. Anyway How can I do this without glorifying schizophrenia/bipolar? I don’t want to make a mockery of such serious things, but as an artist its something I would like to explore. I do currently have a pride collection for any lgbtqia+ folks on here :) most graphics are simple, a pansexual panflute, asexual ace design, lesbian hand, marsha p johnson quotation, etc. the collection is incomplete, but will be updated in the coming days/weeks! Itd mean a lot to me if you could glance at it or even share it with your friends. Thanks all(: ",7.263004965243298,9.1917228,6.948341608738829,70.08823237338632,64.39622641509433,9.503475670307843,36.96623634558093,9.811843763644266,4.058207547169811,1222,61,185,26,19,384,171,265,0.064,0.764,0.172,0.9854,2,0,1,0,0,0,59.0,0,3,0,5,14,11,0,1,16,0,23,6,1,5,1,41,36,16,0,5,6,0,1,1,3,3,4,1,0,1,12,14,0,1,2,5,2,3,2,2,0,0,4,3,16,9,31,25,9,25,0,0,1,1,11,10,0,9,11,132,28,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11923780893868688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1829471361901337,0.0,0.0,0.15196159418578234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11069287745384117,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11587118514470884,0.0,0.0,0.1508679577812853,0.10739782062314274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1376536746472274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15001774124142014,0.2665340400226356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20784908257612075,0.0,0.0,0.1290372894138662,0.07644693423610936,0.11282326486690315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13318918620029402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1429812093435053,0.15160611844742364,0.0,0.0,0.14212054914490352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14039680161865625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06571634022577204,0.0,0.0,0.11903992236167807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34307486009968546,0.0,0.12727961362643098,0.1795771706634347,0.0,0.13513655883035694,0.1465242757638274,0.0,0.0,0.27111527458101803,0.0,0.27163991214179145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1284080410255366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12882643376285313,0.13684825201104195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10355480980594158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12384165430764328,0.0,0.0,0.08936457296496728,0.0,0.1321585063359464,0.0,0.07843571101771203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14814725262146772,0.0,0.15867870528990613,0.10677029308879443,0.10789835107820148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12966589554225602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09555429643148193,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Commececommeca18,2019/02/12,"A poem I wrote about my mental illness. Feeling lost and have no one to really share this with. (Trigger warnings) It started out so innocent; simply childs play they could say. But as you took my hand in yours my childhood went away. Everything started happening so fast, things were changing quicker than I could see. I was no longer alone with my sufferings and sadness. I had convinced myself, you were there for me. And as the forces of evil continued to follow me around, you continued to put yourself in my place. You handled all the horrible things they did to me that I couldn't face. I listened to you as you told me no one else would ever love and care for me as you do. So I started to resent everyone else, I had no one else that cared so I only listened to you. Brainwashed, lost and confused I followed you, hoping you'd take all the pain far away. But instead you took everything and everyone else; I didn't even get a say. You shook me so hard, rearranging all my pieces to how they suited you. Then you used me to do whatever you wanted to do. And I didnt stop you. I couldn't stop you. You made me feel so weak and scared, like curled up deep down inside the darkest places of my soul was where I needed to be. With all the worst thoughts you could ever think, and guilt for actions that I didn't even commit. When none of that was even true. See what you did was just what everyone else did to me. You took away my voice, my opinions, my thoughts and ideas and said you were doing this for my benefit. You took my beliefs, my ethics and morals and threw them in my face, telling me you were being generous. You left me with this wilted body of shame, full to the brim with pain. You took my ability to be sane. You took my basic human rights and threw them to the ground. And then you told me this is who I am now. I'm not good enough, no one will ever truly listen to me. I'm worthless, because no one will ever fully respect me. I'm used up and ugly, because if I try to make myself look good it's just giving everyone else a reason to hurt me. I'm to be left behind, lost and forgotten ,not to continue to be a burden. I'm to dispose of any and all relationships so when you do finally take my pain away, I wont be able to hurt them. They can't hurt if they don't know. These are the cards in your hand, their finally shown. You are my mental illness. And I hate you for doing this.",2.3782312925170075,4.102574795918373,3.4330612244897987,91.22884353741495,76.55102040816327,6.5442176870748305,22.891156462585034,7.35660576581511,0.7436666666666669,1870,55,404,23,42,601,210,490,0.191,0.7040000000000001,0.104,-0.9921,1,1,0,0,0,0,61.0,0,33,9,3,25,36,3,5,12,0,45,12,5,7,11,75,99,39,0,11,8,0,5,1,0,4,6,7,0,2,17,26,0,2,10,1,0,14,17,23,0,5,35,15,96,13,58,48,10,58,3,9,3,1,59,23,0,5,22,298,113,0,0.06364348031992619,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06591545174204046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.043279749045483235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05665619068612308,0.0,0.0,0.23918057910332424,0.0,0.0,0.07759294977119914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07069355923982884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12977753960355834,0.0,0.06732636335414502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1524424209550031,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3189957675256484,0.0,0.0,0.06576072814515327,0.0,0.12610775554605874,0.2302766864295408,0.0,0.24325629130848225,0.11439731271249733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06436011184474852,0.0,0.0,0.1394366436434755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.033251091679381534,0.06105262557963671,0.0,0.10676226349576473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05627971946108922,0.0,0.05701205751313732,0.06283476066549913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06321233624289711,0.0,0.0,0.20439498596474945,0.07184574257014716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03497679236303044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13829765517181994,0.0,0.0,0.03109298972795175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053444494448629226,0.0,0.20842313063393,0.0,0.05744072579610375,0.06022099991369069,0.04248251731327463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1282753181123208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0471908342336143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21563234685499366,0.04840373466836382,0.20316345077820772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1329877822200785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06397927616874244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04077164317739684,0.06543609757556318,0.0,0.06832927995598935,0.0,0.05435118445114843,0.060539523994595966,0.10122370002531933,0.06371822649515586,0.0,0.1014312277316134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13514154882491772,0.0,0.0,0.10641759862772404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09570395334346364,0.0,0.055627206999562064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08456380071368709,0.04078017237790592,0.0,0.101051628656568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12162814565424113,0.4242614902966347,0.043209745469461866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10993506558908564,0.0,0.0,0.03753857363840876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0589981438733162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04521050239861893,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,wimmelbook,2019/02/12,"I'm worried about developing schizophrenia. Is my experience relatable to any of you? Hi, all. I've been pretty worried about developing schizophrenia or being schizotypal, and I have some questions about the process. I'm curious about whether or not others can relate to my experience. Additionally, I'm aware that I absolutely should see a therapy and a psychiatrist and I'm working on it, but having some opinions from the community seems worthwhile. Obligatory ""sorry for the wall of text"". So, for some context, my family has a history of various issues with mental health (mostly depression and addiction), but not schizophrenia in particular, to my knowledge. I'm 19 (20 in a month). I was diagnosed with aspergers as a kid. It was pretty rough at the time, but I think most of my symptoms are easily under control these days. I've always had stereotypically aspie behavior to some extent, but I think I tend to read as neurotypical these days. I've also had some on and off issues with OCD behavior, which also started in childhood. My compulsions were really bad for awhile, but are mostly average these days. I began struggling with depression in high school and was voluntarily hospitalized for a week, and although I'm still depressed, being suicidal isn't really an issue for me. I hope I don't sound like a hypochondriac here, I just felt like this stuff was relevant. Anyways, I've pretty much been obsessing over the prospect of developing schizophrenia/being schizotypal lately. Some stuff I'm worried about: I've been reading up on self disorders lately, and I identify with that kind of thing to some extent. I don't struggle with depersonalisation, but I do feel this general perplexity at thought of just functioning and the world and being a person, which is apparently really common for prodromal patients. I feel like perceive the world differently from other people, but that honestly might just be aspergers. I don't have any particular delusions or anything. I went back to college recently (after being out of school for awhile), and I've been very isolated and feel like I'm too socially anxious to make friends. My social anxiety mostly stems from low self-esteem and embarrassment. I have a girlfriend who lives near my hometown who I visit every few weekends. She lives with some mutual friends. I love seeing her and her housemates, but it's pretty much my only social interaction right now (when I'm back home this summer I'll probably be around them way more). But otherwise I feel really isolated and like I couldn't possibly make connections here. I feel really worn out and lacking in energy. I have some hobbies and there hasn't really been a *marked* loss of interest with them I'm noticing myself feel less and less invested. I'm a bit paranoid sometimes. At night, I sometimes to stress out hard over making sure that the blinds are closed all the way, so that no one can see in. I'm scared of the idea of intruders or people watching me, but I never believe that my apartment is being broken into or that I'm actually being watched, or anything. This paranoia only really impacts me a few times a month, tbh. As far as intrusive thoughts go, I saw this in another post and it's a pretty good summary of how I feel: > I don't think I hear voices but it seems like sometimes my own thoughts will be repetitive almost like a mantra, and it's stuff I don't even agree with. I can get strange thoughts stuck in my head like this. It's not at all like hearing external voices, it's more like I'm recalling a line of thought and getting it stuck in my head, in a really similar way to how songs can get stuck in my head. I did get stoned recently and I had an exaggerated version of this that I really couldn't stop, but even then it felt entirely internal and more like I was obsessing over the thought of hearing voices rather than actually hearing them, if that makes sense. My normal thinking doesn't really have ""acoustic properties"" or anything. I'm really preoccupied with my own thoughts and space out really really easily. I'm in my own head a lot. Despite this, I don't really have strange beliefs, just odd thought processes. There was this one time about a month ago where I got *super* anxious at my orientation and ended up feeling like the people around me weren't real for a couple minutes. I think that this is derealization. I snapped out of it and haven't felt like that since, but it seems like the most worrying thing here. That's mostly that. I think I'm displacing my anxiety about growing up and being depressed and aspie and stuff on this, the chances seem pretty low all things considered. Still, though, I just can't stop thinking about it as possibility and it's really scary to me. I'm working with insurance to find providers for therapy in my area, it's just kind of tough right now. Does this sound like the prodrome to you guys/stuff I should be worried about as far as schizophrenia development goes? I've heard that most people aren't aware of the prodrome when they're going through it but I've read some conflicting things. Thanks so much. 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Does anyone else ever feel like they’re not able to be normal? Aside from the obvious stuff. Is it difficult for anyone else to participate in normal human activities? I find myself having to mimic other people’s ideas of norms just to fit in. Cue laughter, cue smile. Even in a relationship I have to remind myself to kiss or hug my partner to show affection because it just doesn’t happen naturally. Just wondering if anyone else has similar problems. 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I was diagnosed schizo-affective 3 years ago. It’s the only diagnoses I’ve refused to accept, and I’m almost 33. But yesterday morning, it hit me. I realized how true it was, and I believe I am actually paranoid schizophrenic. I’m a new dad, a husband, a disabled vet, and a student. My wife is helping me, but I just wanted to ask everyone what’s it’s like to finally talk about your voices with someone for the first time. Any advice? Thanks in advance.",1.3815695792880265,3.87193672815534,3.6817718446601937,83.95398462783172,84.63106796116504,6.928478964401295,27.02993527508091,8.07648339933343,2.198871197411004,405,19,77,9,12,139,66,103,0.032,0.816,0.152,0.8862,0,0,0,0,1,0,17.0,0,2,0,3,4,5,0,0,7,0,5,3,0,1,1,14,11,6,0,1,3,3,0,2,0,0,3,2,0,0,7,4,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,2,2,10,5,10,8,0,11,0,0,0,0,10,1,0,1,11,48,17,1,0.0,0.0,0.19668410014112495,0.0,0.0,0.19695270193697698,0.17866225397085495,0.0,0.201823595015904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13706117212389216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18842240111496825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2270782628969323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4091387929624383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19259002852704316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2207885932368953,0.0,0.3428773062027542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13509497344867388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19693467318724944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19465861616338573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15328814873320498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17077298574272246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3239971270612068,0.0,0.18556051382544508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2350512986939724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11887963808044065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12979183877785802 schizophrenia,Searchinforfiles,2019/02/12,"Psychotic episode + hearing voiced during cannabis use First of all, sorry for any gramatical error, I'm not a native English speaker. So I used weed with my friend and I went so strong that I start to remember things of my early childhood so vivid and with details, I start getting constant flashbacks, like every 1 second around 100 images of memories start passing around my mind. It was scary and confusing. Then I start to hear my friend whispering something like ""cigarette, cigarette, cigarette, cigarette, cigarette, cigarette, cigarette, cigarette"" many, many times without stop. although his mouth was closed and he wasnt saying anything, it was like I can hear his mind. Then he started to laugh and his laughing started to become louder and louder to the point it was like a maniacal laugh of movies. I simply can't believe it happened, it was so real and I felt the fear in my spine, I was paralised with fear, the only thing I could do was breath and wait to those things go away I can may develop schizophrenia in the future or it was only the cannabis effect? I already have schizoid personality disorder. 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I have good reason to believe my long-term partner has a schizo-related disorder due to matching the symptoms. Whether or not they have schizophrenia or some type of schizo-affective disorder, they have been heavily invested for a few months now in what could only be called ""Delusions"". Delusions that the project they've been working on will make millions (while not really working on it,) delusions that different people are telling them what to do (take clothes off in public for example) and that they can easily arrange to meet certain famous people. I am not judging because for a while I was completely caught up in many of these delusions. I found myself agreeing to move to another state with practically no thought behind it. I found myself saying ""yes, you are going to make millions on your project."" Does that mean I was encouraging the delusions? Have I done something wrong? My partner is now hospitalized as an in-patient awaiting a diagnosis, because they were determined to be a danger to themselves and others and they are not able to care for themselves daily as far as getting themselves food, basic activities. Even though I wasn't actively encouraging these delusions (believed a couple of them) she has a couple of friends who REALLY encouraged delusions -- told my partner her head was full of sh\*t that was leaking everywhere? Then she wouldn't stop talking for days about how her head was full of shit that is leaking everywhere. I guess I wonder if that friend believed the delusions as well. I apologize if this is the wrong place for these ramblings but I am just struggling to understand and I have a lot of anger at my partner's friend, who was actively encouraging ridiculous delusions during a very very acute phase she was having.",9.034392344497613,9.685542381818184,7.7751993620414686,70.2533253588517,60.03030303030303,10.704944178628391,41.307814992025506,10.426177893888326,4.6329393939393935,1526,79,234,31,19,464,175,330,0.094,0.8,0.106,-0.1952,1,0,1,0,0,0,39.0,0,2,7,2,8,19,4,1,15,1,38,6,3,4,1,38,56,19,0,6,11,0,0,1,7,3,2,1,0,4,19,6,1,1,9,0,1,3,7,7,1,2,18,1,34,12,44,32,6,26,0,0,0,0,36,13,1,8,10,183,53,5,0.0999053975403127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10475952023309912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12180280610439999,0.0,0.0,0.33767751396356416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1020145809817388,0.0,0.10186021113805904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10474890854128728,0.0,0.0,0.07976633055975396,0.22108684429465034,0.0,0.0644307164461767,0.0,0.0,0.1014018755113203,0.0,0.10437987664968797,0.2290004819578575,0.0,0.08742788663812104,0.1022379080968939,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06598657284513187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1208060032691194,0.21908222351312465,0.2315599869407753,0.0,0.05219644677159368,0.0,0.05677853974294951,0.08379590747733298,0.0,0.0,0.11005705882476606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20506352116849805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04880873082164408,0.0,0.0,0.08841313298365887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08493599633794897,0.0,0.0,0.13337525727256905,0.10128839233368483,0.0,0.10882626619229056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07974353516358756,0.10618362681748794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07598255673903903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20778547017531415,0.0,0.10437987664968797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12800391177646814,0.10271938789190516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07944878203309592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10255145489599113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07691205596264429,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08352538581127471,0.0,0.10444281329652648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1038399611378931,0.07511642557018294,0.08030017419370479,0.08732172095887919,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09815654583594806,0.07931372610581168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09546388870152307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3120151265776385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1648648318208143,0.05892679192887167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0898269505446466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1083431419535349,0.14546463855377925,0.0,0.0,0.07096992798674974,0.2184617375965612,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,sirlanceal0t,2019/02/12,"Pleasant distortions Inanimate objects and shadows, often take life. Distort and flex as if they had a mind of their own. Roll like a wave in the water. At times it becomes so mesmerizing that I can’t take my eyes off of it, eventually sucking me in. Aspects of the illness like this make me feel like a lucky, crazy man. ",3.989838709677418,5.8067105645161305,4.852451612903226,82.35867741935486,72.38709677419354,7.540645161290323,31.754838709677426,8.238735603445708,2.425376774193549,253,12,48,4,5,82,50,62,0.106,0.7,0.194,0.7351,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,2,0,2,6,1,0,5,0,2,4,1,1,0,8,7,5,0,1,1,0,1,3,0,0,2,0,0,1,4,2,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,2,6,5,8,6,1,5,0,0,1,0,3,4,1,3,4,31,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3744516624720232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17143275721786316,0.2422158193023441,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23947949117548675,0.4969248939841048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2263170422742057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3423416309124039,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5098435079757687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19770150137260645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,CannabisCBD,2019/02/12,"FUCKING Tired off delusions :( where ever I go, I feel like I am being poisoned, where ever I go, I feel like there are toxic chemicals around me, and that my brain is melting, I have crazy irritability problems, and I never listen to my parents, I have nothing in common with my family, I have two parts of my brain, the part that says it is delusional and it cannot be right, and the other part say that what I am feeling is true, the cognitive decline and hallucinations, delusions, are a sign that I am being poisoned, I am fucking fighting my own brain, and I am scared of brain damage all the time, what helps? :(((",17.36207282913165,7.1209337226890765,15.547226890756304,54.24728291316529,56.310924369747895,17.883473389355746,54.79271708683473,11.20814326018867,6.221636414565825,479,18,90,6,3,158,67,119,0.224,0.687,0.09,-0.9566,1,0,0,0,2,0,23.0,0,0,0,0,6,11,5,1,5,0,17,9,4,0,5,18,25,6,0,1,0,1,3,2,0,0,3,3,0,0,9,8,0,0,3,0,0,2,2,8,0,1,0,6,19,3,7,22,5,13,0,1,0,2,6,6,2,0,7,75,28,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1184897447978426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5943471455176766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2407982735645885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1254775093273592,0.0,0.20190238176865413,0.19017738738242912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24610285692019346,0.0,0.0,0.15129081979242914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0892160262757251,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13005464621783416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10265711379454782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12771576236583862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14779494936317472,0.4324122066434027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1273614395379108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11366909594672812,0.0,0.2116974374422806,0.13325916029563525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07761333491949622,0.15298213146535874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.130022131619647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,AI1859,2019/02/13,"What Would be a Good Way to Portray Schizophrenia in a Character? Now I have to preface this with that I am writing something, and I know there is a reddit for that I have asked a similar question there. I want to avoid the stigma surrounding the mental illness, and a good way to figure that out might be to ask people suffering from it, so for now I simply must ask what the people on this reddit would be a positive way to go on about making a character with schizophrenia? How would you like to be portrayed in any particular story?",8.262884615384614,6.8615049038461535,8.17969230769231,73.46530769230772,62.46153846153847,11.012307692307694,36.184615384615384,9.888512548439397,3.4480484615384626,426,16,78,7,5,138,60,104,0.076,0.792,0.131,0.6946,0,1,1,0,0,0,7.0,0,1,0,0,7,5,0,1,10,0,13,1,0,2,1,18,20,4,0,5,0,0,0,1,0,5,1,0,0,0,8,5,0,1,3,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,7,3,18,11,0,12,0,1,0,0,6,6,0,2,3,64,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12644825762518122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5214974587479286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10567622796671207,0.3119219149115843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10218992829591077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09084281822718822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12411902592480002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18738776020365566,0.1972571391946083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2578202352957787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2082997715881048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14314873182884527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1096745553058312,0.4427809412608697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3962677266443893,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,LoginFacebook,2019/02/13,"Ability to change categories of an object Im suspecting i might be developing schizophrenia, and i wanted to know does anyone get this weird new ability to consciously change the category of something? Like if talking to a person, you can imagine its a human equal to you and suddenly you treat them differently than if you would while just considering them a part of your conversation with them. Or when i go outside, i feel like i can change the ways how much i can follow the expected behaviour in a public place. Or for example, a pile of clothes is on the floor and i can conscioussly tag the pile of clothes as one object and just take the whole pile as one, instead of thinking of it like a bunch of clothes. Or another example would be me changing my beliefs about something like food falling on the floor, like i can change whether my opinion on picking food off the floor is unpleasant and unhygienic or ok and fine to do. So again, im asking is this normal to schizophrenia or some sort of other mental illness? Or is this actually completely normal and im just overfocusing on this? Im going to a psychotherapist, so i wont take anything said here as fact.",7.67837837837838,7.390606702702705,7.99617117117117,70.68452702702703,63.05405405405406,11.544144144144145,37.869369369369366,11.038039088145766,4.245812612612614,936,43,169,23,12,308,119,222,0.05,0.84,0.11,0.9075,1,0,2,0,0,0,16.0,0,5,3,0,11,9,0,0,16,1,16,3,0,2,1,40,28,24,0,8,12,0,1,5,0,4,1,1,0,2,7,8,2,0,7,0,0,4,1,1,0,2,1,2,20,8,30,21,6,20,1,0,0,0,15,10,0,12,10,124,27,0,0.0,0.0,0.10213122404178468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10974315987132227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07317938808698292,0.0,0.08612471196843323,0.0,0.09784121059585396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5535720474628371,0.0,0.1097320433581078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10934545581181808,0.0,0.0,0.09158702253685684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05291828804331394,0.07476777893853498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2531060184445109,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05467954597371403,0.0,0.11895923827077648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.452194898548135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05751736347391241,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2556533448109301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10547076501498334,0.11102572202640866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07693575733235855,0.0,0.0,0.10107946053993017,0.0,0.0,0.20508546519645154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1418380958672546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1133345407030416,0.0,0.0,0.0913834299862575,0.10934545581181808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0995538347254301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16114186156560367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15737975664585568,0.08412022921283355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06706069478423705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06173006837913235,0.08307274099810223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11684704888915327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14869224555011498,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Daedalus015,2019/02/13,"Tired Constantly Not on meds, but I'm tired constantly. I sense it is because where I live I have anxiety too much, all the time, due to housemates and conservative neighbors - along with constantly trying and failing to get a job. When I have something that is structured and worthwhile, I feel energzed, but so much of our society (U.S.) is bleak with blatant classism, racism, and sexism run amok. I'm not depressed - just nothing seems worth doing that's not tied to some corporation screwing over our planet, our society, our government, our people (as in all people). How does anything feel meaningful or worth devoting oneself to in the face of this perpetual terrorscape?",10.037401129943504,9.70220923728814,8.780000000000005,67.14282485875707,58.322033898305094,11.934463276836158,43.39548022598871,11.20814326018867,5.130893785310733,542,28,84,12,6,167,81,118,0.18,0.718,0.102,-0.8606,1,0,1,0,0,0,23.0,5,0,0,1,6,4,1,0,3,0,6,4,1,1,3,24,12,11,0,0,7,0,2,0,1,0,2,0,1,0,4,7,0,1,4,0,2,1,3,3,0,0,0,2,11,1,14,12,5,12,0,2,0,1,6,5,1,3,6,59,15,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1386171187191465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14911174627280271,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11045753112309738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5874368496610972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15606686066526754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1585689003105493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1832398195490712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09466925809322764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17981254055557974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16000247497827588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2012717919079376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2664049577513442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17386580369544938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25124183120647153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16495721607160774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13949622487274202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10565888347131497,0.41652433099177133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1230225637532285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,AssryeL,2019/02/13,"why im still alive why i keep living if ive no future why i keep living if im useless my monsters are eating my soul this world is so empty &#x200B;",-0.5564705882352925,1.4707548235294112,2.301470588235297,93.70161764705885,89.0,3.4000000000000004,17.323529411764707,3.1291,-0.8099764705882353,120,3,26,0,4,42,23,34,0.211,0.715,0.07400000000000001,-0.5812,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,0,4,5,3,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,5,0,0,5,0,3,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,2,2,13,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22077348645997547,0.24759026705424805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20849698192800256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4401907563491209,0.0,0.0,0.36222186315077737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3598469930284732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1627227129270939,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5515841510681887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24759026705424805,0.0 schizophrenia,lefttoe24,2019/02/13,"I don’t know what’s happening with me Reality has this weird feeling lately that sorta comes and goes in waves. I feel burnt out. I’m doing 5 a levels, looking to go to oxford or Cambridge for university and trying to balance social relationships and sports on top of that all the while my mind is far away from everyone around me. I can’t communicate properly with anyone any more and I don’t know why. I’ll be doing normal shit and then all of a sudden I’ll just think why the fuck is everything looking/feeling like that without any reason and it’s like I’m in a completely different world. It’s bringing me back to my simulation delusion a bit and I don’t really know what I believe right now. Words are so unsatisfying and nothing I write seems to explain my situation clearly. Sorry for the rant thought if anyone might have experienced the same it’d be you guys",3.499321705426357,5.582721296511632,5.2099069767441915,78.13354263565894,74.40697674418605,8.075038759689923,27.74573643410853,8.841846274778883,2.3696103875968992,701,28,130,15,15,238,111,172,0.079,0.853,0.068,-0.397,1,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,1,0,1,5,5,2,0,8,0,15,2,1,1,3,37,32,13,0,2,4,0,2,2,0,1,0,0,0,1,9,13,0,0,10,1,0,3,5,3,0,0,1,4,14,2,19,27,5,20,0,0,1,1,6,11,2,5,8,84,23,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20719170345098512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21303816339717715,0.0,0.0,0.13561414885938153,0.0,0.0,0.14312765412737136,0.11713940956630645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1716340644737001,0.0,0.0,0.16631490560698903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13122669603347106,0.1597247093337543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15916199691563535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1455665943164515,0.1369126127915416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2310817674808299,0.1088311252850238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14083509729063853,0.0,0.0,0.08657785444382995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15083971766253632,0.13471301477086045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2511648525271654,0.0,0.17184520623651206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14885043580886076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12792652555876866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16160777323142814,0.15381912309204254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14926003068300953,0.14617353120913795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09759236581458633,0.15663002700891046,0.0,0.16355524491122445,0.0,0.13009680900850062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1386838484573535,0.0,0.0,0.1563739570475767,0.0,0.17123559693627854,0.0,0.15529058758786973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17053121577180105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09761278159357678,0.0,0.12094027541522763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1034282888296416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2749247914467267,0.0,0.0,0.1468495125771003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,dreaminginapril,2019/02/13,"What was your prodromal phase like? Did you know it was an odd experience? Is it like depression, anxiety and ocd mixed together or something more? 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Two years ago I had a psychotic break with paranoia and delusions. Was hospitalized for a few days and slowly improved. First year after was hell, depressed, fat, unemployed, lost all my friends. Finally I got on Abilify and lost weight and have a part time job with plans to go to grad school. Haven't had any more psychotic symptoms but still have poor memory, poor concentration, alcoholism- though I've been sober 3 months now. I see the psychiatrist about every 2 months and push for a diagnosis but he just keeps the label Schiz spectrum disorder because I don't fit the exact criteria for schiz. Should I try to find a new psychiatrist? I guess as long as my meds seem to be working I shouldn't worry about a diagnosis but I think the dr. should make some effort to help me figure out whats going on. Anyone else have just one episode? 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Not diagnosed, but I'm pretty sure having a hallucination/delusion telling me I'm the antichrist is a good sign of what schizophrenia is. That, and seeing flames that aren't real, or satanic symbols in the bus. I digress. Also curious, what was everyone's upbringing like? My parents emotionally neglected/abused me, particularily my mother, who locked me up in the house for 3 years, yet was very condemning and emotionally unstable. Probably the source of said paranoia. Also, pretty sure she's schizotypical herself; always paranoid some neighbor is out there to condemn her. My dad wasn't too bad, just rather mislead and probably shouldn't have married that woman. Regardless, my parents' household was pretty harsh. Nonetheless, I reconcile with Jesus by having faith He knows my story; I've asked for forgiveness and duly promise to change my behavior by working on my bad qualities. Basically, moral limitations. Anyway, where my competition at? Lmao Anyone have stories regarding their delusions, or upbringing?",6.88153009180551,10.283179485549136,7.06784087045223,62.515130907854484,69.17341040462428,10.082148928935736,37.344100646038754,10.194018383442646,5.1979509690581445,853,47,109,26,17,274,124,173,0.075,0.6729999999999999,0.252,0.9902,2,0,0,0,1,0,34.0,0,0,1,2,10,9,0,0,6,0,13,1,0,0,2,23,19,9,0,3,6,4,0,1,1,1,1,1,1,1,7,6,0,1,3,0,0,0,4,2,0,0,5,2,17,7,15,13,1,9,4,0,1,0,16,7,0,3,3,77,24,1,0.0,0.17165739706682914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2317186563270493,0.12055056381522924,0.0,0.0,0.09852238555959228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10130245431419714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13544189184324834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24193508384029466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15326230107599315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14704868374828714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32593774871516035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1384376680240475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12151725829429512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16717040080848525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07962146497676882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07078034391924004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3217409804162053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4421807259265063,0.3124071726654837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16490351364640995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1378126827473423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11544945091819725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27309264721301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12663024293081154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11953998086025053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10547331360190472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09329703944893886 schizophrenia,SpiritualInsect,2019/02/13,"Hello All, Please Help My Wife (29F, Orange County, CA) Who is Suffering from Schizophrenia I am very sorry for the long post. Thank you for taking the time to understand my wife’s situation, and I really hoping this sub-reddit can help us. Based on the information below, can you please kindly refer us to any resources (e.g., medical professionals, specific therapies, self-help, etc.) that you think may be helpful? &#x200B; My wife had been suffering from what our psychiatrist called “high functioning schizophrenia” (e.g., she can do every day task, but not very efficiently; she is barely doing enough in her job to not get fired; she has voices and random thoughts in her head that really disturb her and can affect her mood for hours at a time). We are not sure if the events described below triggered the illness or if the illness is hereditary. &#x200B; This all happened 3 years ago. She was a young, female, and minority mechanical engineer in a middle-aged male dominated Aerospace industry. After spending about a year of time in toxic work environments, she started to break and suffer from psychosis (mostly thoughts about being watched/followed/investigated/etc.). I thought she was being overly anxious because of stress, so mental illness didn’t cross my mind. But after one sleepless night of focusing on a red light that was outside a window (she thought there were cops outside waiting for her), she broke and had to take a leave of absence because she could not fully function after this episode. &#x200B; The first psychiatrist we saw didn’t help a lot. She tried different medications with heart breaking side effects before Seroquel began working (she was not happy with the weight gain and apathy that resulted, but at least the thoughts and voices in her head and her emotional extremes were manageable). After a few months, she began working half time and eventually full time. We eventually switched to a second psychiatrist and a more regular psychologist while she was still on the Seroquel. About 1.5 years ago, she left and joined another company because she no longer wanted to be in the toxic environment (from what I understand, she impressed everybody at the interview). I thought she was getting better because she rocked at a job interview for a very difficult position. &#x200B; At the beginning of the job, she seemed to be doing fine. Around the same time, we were progressively lowering the Seroquel dosage because she was not happy with the weight gain, apathy, and degrading memory functions that might’ve been caused by the Seroquel, and the voices/thoughts were manageable (although she was still feeling irrationally upset at times). Around August of last year, we eventually stopped the Seroquel. That was when she started to really struggle at her job, and she started to want to make irrational decisions (e.g., quit her job, sell our house, move far away, separate from me). She really did not want to return to medication, so we tried to cope with it by seeing the psychologist and trying our best to steer her back to reality. However, similar symptoms of psychosis started to show up again about two weeks ago. We returned to our psychiatrist, and she is now on Abilify (we were hoping to not completely block dopamine, so it helps her memory functions). The Abilify helped manage the psychosis, but she is still struggling at her job and other aspects of life. &#x200B; Her inability to perform 100% at her job had been very hard on her. I also really don’t understand how she could be so competent 1.5 years ago while having the illness, but now she is on thin-ice at her job. She really wants to quit her job because she doesn’t feel like she’s qualified anymore. I am currently convincing her to take a leave, so we can focus on 100% recovery before she starts working again. &#x200B; I am running out of ideas to help her. I don’t want her to suffer through what happened 3 years ago again. &#x200B; Thank you very much again for your time. I appreciate any suggestions or help. 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I have some very unique views on schizophrenia, in that I believe I actually communicate with sentient beings telepathically, and I am agnostic as far as my worldview goes. But I am very into spirituality as well. I play WoW a lot, but I don't have anyone to play with who is in the same boat as I am. I hope this is okay to post here. Thank you!",4.575937499999998,4.828171385416667,6.260416666666668,78.67625000000002,69.52083333333334,8.9,29.541666666666664,8.841846274778883,2.1090541666666662,367,13,78,6,6,127,62,96,0.0,0.73,0.27,0.9709,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,1,0,0,3,11,0,0,3,1,11,0,0,0,0,12,14,8,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,3,6,0,0,0,4,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,3,12,11,17,12,3,7,1,0,2,0,3,5,0,3,1,56,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.2558648881991865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18333311998395566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2954044292695755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25053894077860245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26041919296307336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22017810034976165,0.0,0.0,0.222909152831792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25111071563863224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4443146230239352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2413942972007617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15288824622390454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4326773285464353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2357451529467037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,miserywantscompany,2019/02/13,"My secret schizophrenia with my demons. I today wrote a scathing letter to my father complaining how horrible he is doing keeping his intrusive voices out of me head. I scolded God as well. After I wrote the first letter, I felt it was not enough, so I sent another one exacerbating my struggles. When i finished, I gave myself a cigarette break because the only time I smoke is at night after work when I find my time to write and realized there was more I can send in my third letter. I finished my cig and went back to my device. Only to unexpectantly get a email password reentry prompt. I thought to myself, God must be damning my blasphemies. Then I reminded myself such things are irrational. Unless the supernatural beings which is God who is evident to all is truly fucking me throughly which also means there will be a realistic trail of logic. Then I thought hard about what could trigger a prompt for reentry of password. A phishing maybe. Because the google mail app was strangely popped up when I first accessed to compose to reply an email which usually I compose in my Samsung email app. I told myself it must be some algorithm that detects blasphemy because I live in North America. I cautioned myself from reentering my password in the samsung app fearing my apocalytic persecutions. And went on to realize my phone have a two step authentications. So if a phishing is in process they would have to asked me a secondary permisson. None was asked as it usually was supposed to be would. So I thought about checking my email to see if I could access from a computer. And thankfully there was no issue. I quickly accessed my account and then checked my email for failed attempts for my blasphemous rantings as I superstitiously suspected . No errors. I changed my passcode superstiously again and try to figure out why my phone is prompting a re entry code. Again. Found no clue. So regardless, I deleted my account from the samsung email app due to my humble naivity. And when that was done a prompt asked me to update my samsung email app. To now let me realize the apps somestimes bumps access to an account while maybe google email apps ignores due to samsung software updates. Just a self aware insane man sharing an episode. Is this too much? I do not think I am because if you reread my post you will find I am a real human with real ego to do real things!",5.888270547945208,7.597468474885844,6.1280336757990845,75.50657106164388,67.44748858447488,8.580022831050231,34.92037671232877,9.017664075816787,3.3103308219178085,1904,93,316,34,32,608,221,438,0.091,0.8690000000000001,0.039,-0.9601,0,0,2,0,0,0,36.0,0,2,1,5,24,10,2,2,24,0,39,2,1,2,3,53,61,28,0,10,7,1,2,0,0,6,0,1,0,3,13,11,0,2,16,0,5,5,6,7,1,5,20,4,65,3,49,27,6,47,1,1,1,1,37,11,2,4,29,242,78,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08486632093334708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11127895127351263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2976313235158444,0.0,0.0,0.08160184043305617,0.0,0.2587657617237956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11226379296572997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16946075338785793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10860041329041463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10965316410942942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11941759214214301,0.0,0.0,0.1018944775863554,0.0,0.19398853293261384,0.18053590557668614,0.0,0.11635811247017858,0.0,0.09810876782659024,0.05544475427171243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09506513499828133,0.0,0.10891255290836276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11076457435308668,0.0,0.09432677191045204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10851769692368554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09370832820196093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21322912268389332,0.11559878038715946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0780124283045684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09958900734552806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07191151857321612,0.16142225947936256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10163625479109482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3623727515250351,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0845660881044795,0.0,0.11070916767345257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11094253492028347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09770356566830386,0.0,0.0,0.14100647269153505,0.06799917002584029,0.0,0.25274881680474004,0.12376205219484307,0.0,0.10059195376921276,0.10140483075485113,0.0,0.07205037785821393,0.0,0.1036665017466818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2337584216877993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09541709269443308,0.19675369585363314,0.09575927113593703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07725862236495208,0.0,0.0,0.15077310664939442,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,ismetozel,2019/02/13,Is it possible to having only negative symptoms? 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Not asking for a diagnosis here, just curious about my chances. So I wanna start with the fact that my grandma has serious schizophrenia to the point where she screams at the walls and stuff and heard voices as well. Secondly, I’ve been institutionalized for a short amount of time for attempted suicide. Ever since I was in a psychiatric ward, I haven’t really felt suicidal thoughts as much as I have just pure apathy. An example is that lately, my mother (who I still live with) seems to have a tumor and in turn cancer and where most people would be upset I seem to just make memes about it and fall into apathy. Not only that but I’ve struggled with delusions such as “what if everyone around me is just an act to raise me in a certain way”, along with mental debates that seem in a third person but I can more or less control them. I’ve also dealt with paranoia such as a fear of underground shit trying to kill me or a general mistrust of people around me. It takes a good bit for me to care for someone but when I do I care about them a lot and when that gets thrown back it generally just makes me want to retract from people in general. I’m pretty sure I don’t have full blown schizophrenia or anything but I think I may have some seeds of them ",5.888138020833331,5.9160658085937525,6.2769375000000025,80.45764583333336,66.6953125,9.482916666666666,29.176041666666666,9.21078282632365,2.2283122916666662,1021,31,204,17,15,330,149,256,0.145,0.7440000000000001,0.111,-0.8456,0,0,0,0,0,2,16.0,0,0,3,2,23,13,2,3,17,0,18,2,1,3,5,55,36,23,3,5,15,1,1,0,0,2,1,3,0,1,11,15,0,1,6,0,0,2,4,7,1,2,5,4,25,6,41,27,9,27,0,0,0,0,10,16,1,11,8,155,36,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10332518509710394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10632469910296197,0.23003967113491625,0.1207892257484313,0.0,0.0,0.09935066318748374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14105838702102247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2634661999823906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14491438459590686,0.10315967228181654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1168733120219829,0.0,0.12346090642617252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14539153666892382,0.0,0.0,0.12405705397847568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06750427536840542,0.0,0.0,0.10837101685959456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08660338234100713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.142946179886448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14574885829113984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12949734494621518,0.11409037472252667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10984546343884632,0.0,0.0,0.1724906703641606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13020824218823007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.094980535338333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09826621830700863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2687234182366116,0.11281681499087835,0.0,0.0,0.12214047980016275,0.0,0.0,0.13144792648386816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0827720260978979,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35287011524071343,0.0,0.0,0.13262706714544106,0.1068797042139543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10947497009140222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0914519580645513,0.0,0.10318327318772008,0.0,0.0,0.13507311062515864,0.147908803351523,0.28265857996984994,0.0,0.12177417549891277,0.0,0.09714607391895347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08278934154442184,0.0,0.1025743309878855,0.07534046963737785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08772170805381256,0.14053792870675713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07620845162793889,0.10255690832985197,0.0,0.0,0.11617080433854254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09178351895594336,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,ManlyPanties,2019/02/14,"Need some help It’s really great to see some of you doing well and hope that everyone here who is struggling is able to get out of that situation. I know how hard it can be because I’m still in that situation myself of trying to find work, the right medication and dealing with the fear that it might not get better. I’m trying not to be so negative, but I’m a little heartbroken that Bobby left. She was the first person to help me and hope she’s doing ok. The reason why I’m writing this is because I had a couple of scary moments a week ago where I forgot who I was and where I lived. I went to my neurologist for a follow up to see the results of an EGG and MRI for some other issues I’m having. When I left I couldn’t remember anything and decided to walk around the city for a bit until I remembered how to get back home. After an hour or so I finally did and took a taxi back. I also thought that I was getting my hallucinations under control with the medication, but sadly no such luck. I like to listen to music on YouTube to help relax me, but kept hearing ads playing in the background. Apparently I was hallucinating that and have been hearing ads play in my head for a while. There’s nothing worse than unskippable ads and didn’t think something like that could happen. I been trying my best to think positive thoughts, getting my financial/medical bills in order, looking for work (like I said earlier) and just taking care of myself. Physically I’m very weak due to my uncontrollable tremors, but now that I’m forgetting so many things it terrifies me. I actually forgot I had a brother (can’t remember his name right now) and couldn’t even remember my mother’s name. I was supposed to meet my physiatrist today, but honestly it’s been going down hill. At times it’s really difficult to get in contact with him and just feels like he’s ignoring me like my family. To be clear I haven’t been diagnosed with schizophrenia, but I see that you guys are dealing with the same problems I am. I’m not trying to diagnose myself either so don’t take it the wrong way I just don’t really have anyone to talk to about this so I’m a little lonely. I have a lot of difficulties with focusing and problems with my memory (like I said earlier). Also, add in the extreme paranoia, hallucinations, anxiety and insomnia. A couple of days ago my doctor told me to check into a psychiatric hospital, but I ignored him. The reason why he told me that is because I had the urge to put a knife in my head for some reason. Though I get this feeling at times I never actually took any action to harm myself, but if I did I told home I would voluntarily check myself in. I know it’s difficult and different for everyone, but how do you guys deal with these problems? I really don’t have anyone who I can rely on so I pretty much have to do everything myself. At 24 I should be able to take care of myself and make my own choices, but I sometimes question myself if I’m making the right choices because of the situation I’m in. I have a tendency to ramble and make a lot of errors so sorry about that. Also, thank you for taking the time to read this. ☺️",4.861164924506389,5.503752601587305,6.454428958575299,76.15580139372824,69.01587301587301,9.638404955478126,29.49283778552072,9.745691949364133,2.7346786682152526,2489,89,478,55,41,857,264,630,0.131,0.737,0.132,0.4799,2,2,1,0,0,0,53.0,0,4,0,6,33,36,0,3,33,1,49,11,2,11,2,106,109,47,0,13,20,2,3,6,0,3,8,5,2,3,30,29,1,6,18,4,3,8,14,15,1,1,28,12,75,21,79,71,12,62,0,2,4,0,40,29,0,14,29,345,105,4,0.1182739731689727,0.0,0.1154183365871746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1048427409711079,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1418754804180269,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.040215178771129255,0.0,0.04523963287208177,0.0,0.0,0.08269991204659685,0.0,0.04866470116121988,0.05264445582942701,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09094538475027232,0.0,0.14419743252895226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.062060618958283076,0.05230185891773774,0.06456227300501736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12058819819286992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06632715897453627,0.04721607176731834,0.13086790170454524,0.0,0.0381384640661575,0.1829029094167151,0.0,0.12004559311893075,0.0,0.06178556431480285,0.0,0.060529211617902125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03905942190484957,0.0,0.0,0.11301584988272295,0.05314851036722885,0.0,0.055749087894828096,0.06654555096847309,0.059802874569499176,0.04224747503208568,0.0,0.06478167821023696,0.0540501343813769,0.050301890578620494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21627644290898748,0.0,0.033608912288354234,0.0,0.0,0.06519873648129866,0.0,0.11710982844485553,0.05229464193376389,0.0,0.05297512429176149,0.0,0.12138321851345135,0.0,0.1333033636519737,0.0,0.11891482666021215,0.0,0.11863843855880167,0.11747274226924564,0.058238019546913725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06172364972273911,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06500028252205095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12850501791306376,0.0,0.0,0.1733480671236416,0.11854159280293533,0.05221904259392054,0.0,0.04966017470030947,0.0,0.0,0.10055230247095512,0.0,0.0,0.1184231932541136,0.05995562247959964,0.0,0.0,0.06568786061604555,0.1191485849146798,0.0,0.06273499742564233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04347248952848338,0.04384932623036045,0.0456100897335373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056743533561162726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05163613566566663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06016357548686675,0.0,0.16975832861059195,0.0,0.05944900526270368,0.06624695910980148,0.0,0.05915298989291505,0.0,0.15153867158042802,0.18240801438017776,0.0,0.0,0.2679627109346182,0.15150799027243878,0.11250563295102224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1413735654491159,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1994173519907146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.045526541444498636,0.05848799186088854,0.0661990148649303,0.0,0.0,0.04722687387673055,0.0,0.0,0.06182281839447616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17785461689098533,0.04753206974737166,0.0,0.054445391942274636,0.0,0.0,0.039287986162918655,0.07578518631295555,0.058101789064377025,0.09389632336515956,0.10344975733338753,0.0,0.056054948575747686,0.1695237748240844,0.13140673605458048,0.16060052814846446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04879420725845688,0.0,0.046940187350615635,0.04743612355003291,0.0,0.053171253006031115,0.05482057903193474,0.10672386444528724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08610486110323398,0.0,0.06026564154369792,0.0420092185465843,0.0646570113504549,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,mariahp5559011,2019/02/14,"Please help. A little information about me. So I have had a rough life. I lived poor my whole life. I come from a broken home my father was a abusive drunk. My mother got involved with another abusive asshole that beat me my mother and my siblings. Afterwards my mother suffered a lot of ptsd and was diagnosed with bipolar and depression as well. Our house was always dirty growing up and we never had food. I have experienced a lot of trauma in my life time and I'm only 26. My boyfriend at that time was doing drugs and when I was 8 months pregnant he beat the shit out of me in front of my children. We were together for 8 years and he had never done anything like this before. I suffered a stroke I think it was a mix between overworking myself, stress and the recent head trauma. My son was born and I had a anuresym and leaked blood in my brain for five days until I was non verbal and couldnt make sense of anything. I spent some time in icu and then they put me in rehab. I learned how to talk, walk, and bath myself there. I have severe depression and at the moment living with my sister. She has been through a lot as well. While I was in the hospital my ex made her life a living hell. Tried to take the kids was all strung out on methaphetamine. He stalked me and came to my window at night just to scare the fuck out of me. Now to my question I'm sorry for going through all of that. When I was 16 years old I started seeing shadows in my room at night. Then the shadows would slowly climb on my bed. I was so terrified I would hide under the blanket at night. I could never be left alone in the dark ever. I am still seeing these demons today. They touch me and I can feel everything. It feels as if I'm being raped by them. I don't know what to do. I'm currently taking anti depressants and anxiety meds. Also a anti psychotic for seeing things. I honestly don't know how to tell my doctor the extent of this. I think I may need to be hospitalized. I am just done with all of this my life is constant fear and anxiety. I worry about my kids I am constantly checking on them throughout the night worrying they may feel them too. It makes me so sick to my stomach to even think about. I just need help it is getting worse...... please someone tell me they have experienced something like this how do I fix this please help me ",1.961663596168016,4.1125698347457655,3.161739130434782,90.67021739130436,79.46610169491525,5.968754605747974,21.913411938098747,7.079830092131019,0.6212317980840091,1830,55,380,22,46,590,227,472,0.196,0.746,0.059,-0.9968,1,1,3,0,0,0,45.0,3,0,7,3,23,19,4,3,23,0,45,21,5,6,7,69,75,35,0,7,4,7,6,2,0,4,12,0,5,3,15,29,2,0,11,2,3,8,6,14,2,1,24,11,74,5,60,42,9,65,2,5,3,2,34,24,3,8,35,271,89,2,0.0,0.1815393953592432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07934430933759032,0.0,0.06126456750752745,0.0637452182055181,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08033171165529039,0.11721207359895225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12608613669144125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06518901857251243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08552150762214274,0.0,0.08762082758301222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0659922771221089,0.0,0.16557524759194264,0.0,0.06116643004921073,0.0,0.0,0.04940677204116025,0.0,0.19795087931078226,0.07775700200569785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07841304136027158,0.0,0.15679617728689926,0.0,0.0,0.08884266624210582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05059983408783442,0.06929765388244906,0.0,0.0,0.06885165410662225,0.0,0.0,0.0862069553023825,0.11620815351147801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09263647828139616,0.0,0.0,0.07082422288946776,0.04002528745985584,0.0,0.04353892870729247,0.0,0.061271593594270736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07862342065366575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15404914374432285,0.0,0.07684554730659961,0.0,0.0,0.0883970455200359,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08420512518823997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08323641606492765,0.0,0.27055768031159555,0.07485503717276816,0.07678281751004902,0.2029427033954547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19539190190427627,0.0,0.07248973525161131,0.10227483559804412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08509585361641052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06114895007996466,0.0,0.0,0.11360990633832625,0.17725784412812973,0.0,0.0,0.2875712012221959,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0803887543244746,0.0,0.0,0.0582649560174647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25228258634984635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0895523737469215,0.07701367957537839,0.0858201421399766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07564261189209881,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0766994466374841,0.0,0.1831434928442373,0.0,0.0,0.08654689794448464,0.07863852264886959,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06491095747127046,0.058977714757179535,0.0,0.08575803239237567,0.05422457896664645,0.0,0.06118042372646964,0.0,0.08775589195177733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11520157835876538,0.061575792107915535,0.13392011138852258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05089592944646205,0.14726476993538362,0.0,0.0,0.1340147985356185,0.0,0.07261682225211742,0.0,0.0,0.052012803073014265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13776223247243696,0.0,0.0,0.0855317402026797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15560127614196925,0.07807159744290537,0.10884234251059527,0.0,0.0,0.09866797714387993 schizophrenia,thecharteriswatching,2019/02/14,"Is it normal to feel numb after a breakup? Hey everyone. My boyfriend (and fiance) broke up with me on the date of our anniversary this week. He expressed in a letter that he wrote to me that he wasn't happy and there was nothing I could do about it (but that it wasn't my fault, which makes no sense) -- The problem is he never communicated that to me and just let his feelings fester until he broke up with me. -- Is it a part of schizophrenia to not feel any emotion whatsoever about this? ",4.047231222385861,5.2197333402061865,4.6555228276877765,86.36587628865982,71.26804123711341,7.192341678939616,26.228276877761417,7.447530270364453,1.1811926362297496,382,12,79,4,7,122,63,97,0.156,0.823,0.022,-0.9186,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,1,0,0,0,4,6,0,0,5,0,9,1,0,1,1,17,14,5,0,3,3,0,3,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,11,5,0,0,3,0,0,0,5,5,0,0,4,3,9,1,16,8,1,9,0,2,0,0,11,4,0,0,5,60,20,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18569579026467792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2180227970618996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3071650543223113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2609284379393688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41421457243110704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2906862554110321,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2792308111585752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1822751933388276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21060708707311446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.267548930685523,0.2620163736438489,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29570633048800105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26128945959069594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21903889821919867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,confreeman,2019/02/14,Seroquel quetiapein I take seroquel 600 mg slow release at night and I get vivid dreams usually nightmares dose anyone else experience this or any tips to help with the nightmares ,5.083387096774191,8.64270177419355,4.561532258064517,76.16229838709678,79.64516129032259,6.970967741935485,33.55645161290323,8.07648339933343,3.319832258064517,149,8,22,3,4,45,28,31,0.0,0.833,0.16699999999999998,0.6597,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,2,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,3,2,0,4,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,1,3,9,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2563502382098538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2635838357667427,0.3862468649209224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3149072518388724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3687457027858612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19694950781228526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2526727890026889,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3537576500762445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2834319950820283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41517549047807134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Smallhippocampus,2019/02/14,"Relapsed because I wasn't taking medication. What are good ways to get on my feet again cognitively? I'm reeeeeeallly slow right now and I can feel it. I'm not sure how to get back on the horse and get back to school. I'm on invega currently but wish to get on abilify maintena. &#x200B; Thank you !!!",1.6172142857142866,4.1687531500000015,3.486190476190476,85.33500000000002,84.16666666666666,8.095238095238095,23.57142857142857,8.841846274778883,2.0906428571428566,239,9,49,7,7,80,43,60,0.024,0.821,0.155,0.846,1,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,1,0,0,5,3,0,0,1,0,3,2,1,1,1,8,14,4,0,1,2,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,1,4,3,8,13,0,12,0,0,0,0,1,5,0,0,6,27,6,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24719493366042036,0.2772210586552305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3508587334487069,0.0,0.13907503025740964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11535693034705387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4767852331984282,0.0,0.0,0.1913571409490901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2298320124224065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1948345215476064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23089484673636715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2150238942123724,0.0,0.17153659251573306,0.0,0.0,0.2100451970315922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1810908242007596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2623554073635817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2772210586552305,0.0 schizophrenia,Mywifeneedshelp144,2019/02/14,"Mental health in America My wife has suffered from depression and anxiety. She had a repressed memory and it sent her over the edge. However, she is being held for 3 days but the doctors say she needs at least 14 days. But insurance won’t pay so they are going to release her. I’m so afraid for her. She is so bad right now that she believes she is being held because she caused an accident that killed 7 children. I have no where to turn and no one to help. Her kids aren’t in a place where they can help and I can’t tell them.",1.2967272727272745,3.3700890363636367,2.791818181818183,92.85772727272727,81.36363636363637,6.545454545454546,21.81818181818182,7.686295010490155,0.8262727272727268,414,13,92,7,11,135,74,110,0.248,0.696,0.056,-0.9725,2,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,3,0,6,6,1,2,5,0,13,2,0,1,0,11,20,9,1,1,2,1,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,2,3,4,0,3,0,0,1,2,5,6,0,1,4,1,17,0,10,13,1,13,0,2,0,0,22,8,0,0,3,64,20,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17867778435873985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1950183272577048,0.14238001127984426,0.0,0.0,0.2631495380923207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2399372030514328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30126222630740185,0.0,0.2011705418000617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23906527825831064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1327412624980929,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2482703385219093,0.0,0.0,0.3131094928073199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25840680048010434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2353801639660952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1731866498257868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15827075046402794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2440273502735741,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19946457192428546,0.0,0.18574150865369024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20414747431096344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25405335443075416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,miller__heavy,2019/02/14,"supplements My father looked online and showed me that vitamin D and Omega 3 is good for people with schizophrenia. Does anyone take these, and if so, do they work? Thanks ",4.55182795698925,7.321058806451617,3.6658064516129047,87.18537634408602,73.83870967741936,6.713978494623658,20.010752688172047,7.793537801064563,0.8246688172043011,137,3,24,2,3,40,29,31,0.0,0.765,0.235,0.7906,1,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,1,1,1,2,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,5,5,5,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,4,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,2,2,5,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,1,0,14,5,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3100172366742976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3879993586220433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3718808678394932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3723222855346758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3073795339950824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3333618833067313,0.0,0.0,0.4081989821242532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3227813723478715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,reindrop01,2019/02/14,How do you handle death? The death of our parent is looming and my brother has shut down even more. How do I handle the situation to make him feel comfortable in the days to come?,3.017500000000002,4.763005750000005,4.167777777777779,86.555,74.83333333333334,7.022222222222222,23.11111111111111,7.793537801064563,1.0133444444444444,141,4,29,2,3,46,29,36,0.22,0.705,0.075,-0.7476,1,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,1,1,0,0,3,1,0,0,3,0,4,0,0,3,0,6,7,3,2,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,5,1,5,7,1,5,0,0,0,0,5,3,0,0,1,22,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3935132940301427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2946135890619199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3017278423722031,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2309838629392277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3049334650030901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5072488203620641,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5134891439195101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,CyPsySaii,2019/02/14,Is there a difference between hearing something (auditory hallucinations) and thinking that you heard something? Sometimes I'm just not so sure of myself. ,9.69,13.09279466666667,8.756666666666668,53.655,60.66666666666666,9.8,49.5,10.125756701596842,6.506400000000002,128,9,14,3,2,40,23,24,0.105,0.895,0.0,-0.3556,0,0,2,0,0,0,4.0,0,1,0,0,3,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,5,5,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,2,1,2,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,12,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3946227542288618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.425702517211696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5815536161102328,0.3735612467640652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35598377318287044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2420189835945289,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,lasersteam,2019/02/14,"I’m fairly certain that my schizophrenic brother committed suicide last night He hasn’t been seen in over twelve hours by anybody who knows him and evidence that the local police department found suggests that he threw off his jacket and jumped into a local river at a park. There were even eye witnesses who reportedly saw a woman jump into the river; my brother has really long hair and could be mistaken as a woman from a distance. The worst part is the jacket found had his wallet in it so it’s his jacket. I don’t even know honestly. Me, my sister, and my poor mother are just stunned this can’t really be happening ",5.7974159663865565,6.9153914621848775,6.572594537815127,74.43435399159667,67.15126050420167,9.64747899159664,29.160714285714285,9.827888789773867,2.917898319327732,500,17,85,11,8,165,83,119,0.127,0.8140000000000001,0.059,-0.8555,0,0,0,0,0,1,7.0,0,0,0,0,5,3,0,0,9,0,12,3,2,0,2,14,21,6,1,1,1,4,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,8,6,0,0,4,0,1,4,3,1,0,0,8,4,10,2,10,10,2,17,0,0,3,0,15,9,0,0,4,60,18,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19661532916978075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3252994502740064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5400138528249399,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21776331348131492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2425124953181361,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2706716477216089,0.2007314575317997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2179287566887834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2310945168066944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2666711843439907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3155157203840103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2693640281815377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,throwway8272,2019/02/14,"Mother suffers from schizophrenia and refuses medical treatment. What can I do? Hello reddit, first of all, thanks in advance for reading. Long story short, my mother has been suffering from Schizophrenia for about 13 years. She was first diagnosed when I was about 12 years old and it has affected my life so much - to the point where I developed anxiety. I also suffered from depression a few years ago. I’m no longer depressed but I feel on some days that I may eventually fall back and undo all the hard work I’ve put in to get my mental health to where it is now, because of my mother’s schizophrenia. First and foremost, I love my mother because she is truely a kind woman. But her illness is cruel and has made me suffer throughout these 13 years with her episodes. When I was young, she abused me because the voices inside her head was telling her everyone is evil including me. Throughout the years, it’s also been a long and hard battle to get her to take her medication and to build a healthy life. Usually, as soon as she thinks she gets better, she will stop taking her medication and start to become ill, and the worst part is, she does not recognise that the voices she hears is abnormal. And she will continue to get worst and worst. This time I don’t know how I can help her to get better. She won’t listen to any of my advice. She won’t go out to see a psychologist, friend, or extended family. She also refuses to take her prescribed medication. My father on the other hand, blames me for not always being able to be there to take her medication because she used to only listen to me. It’s complicated and frustrating. I’m trying to also live my life and not let this affect my life as well and he doesn’t understand that. But I’m sure he’s tired from this too but I also fail to see how this is solely my responsibility. I love my parents but I won’t lie that part of me just wants to disappear from their life. I’m tired of it all. It hurts. I don’t know what to do and I’m desperate for help. Tl;dr: my mother has schizophrenia and refuses to take measures that will help her get better (i.e. building a good social support, seeing a psychologist, taking medication, doing some casual work). What can I do? Thank you. 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Hi all, I tried googling this but couldn't find anything to answer my question. Last night my girlfriend with schizophrenia had the worst paranoid episode she's had in a long time. A little background; she's had the illness about 5 years, i met her in march last year and we got together end of may. She hadn't really had any progress with medication until about June last year because she never took it regularly. Since then she's been taking it as prescribed, and was discharged from being a outpatient after being in the system since being diagnosed. She has had some minor episodes but last night was the worst one yet. It was so bad that now she is scared that it's a signal that she's about to relapse hard and that she'll end up being hospitalised or sectioned. She described it as "" the episode before the storm"". So I was hoping people with first hand experience could tell me whether they've been through something similar, and if the medication is supposed to eliminate major episodes like that or if they can still happen from time to time. I feel like some testimonials from other people with schizophrenia could help put her mind at ease at little or at least confirm that things are about to get bad so we can prepare.",9.113354430379749,8.502983679324894,7.746255274261602,74.70267405063294,60.30801687763713,10.431645569620251,37.049578059071735,9.516144504307137,3.3844995780590725,1040,41,182,15,12,314,133,237,0.133,0.77,0.097,-0.9093,0,0,1,0,0,0,18.0,2,0,1,2,10,8,0,1,11,0,28,6,1,0,2,32,36,19,0,6,8,0,3,2,1,3,5,0,0,0,14,10,0,0,4,0,0,2,3,5,0,2,15,3,22,3,29,11,9,38,0,0,0,0,21,10,0,10,27,132,36,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08070559534808805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0976624697357464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.198183538350382,0.07234544266324082,0.0,0.10098684471586583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12443237392109648,0.0,0.0,0.18951059268771095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12045639678385545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21022823021176612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11609055518419302,0.0,0.0,0.0600075238149058,0.08478409716447016,0.0,0.0,0.10847019476697692,0.10094805370345372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06200472990585431,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0949182092826802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10494719505783744,0.0,0.10631281708176572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07954784051353378,0.0,0.0,0.11787474147470706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3869559677625197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11596085016616872,0.2378944993659885,0.0,0.1050269274989342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3586689568812069,0.0,0.0,0.11983166988152015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0915323407306958,0.0,0.0,0.22274386759080836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08041976819666367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16455375481730874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11930488708961155,0.13294732084581115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07602862328276434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11881809662093094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1963445176186736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09136467233748648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0947769744936926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08923162335845329,0.0,0.10373042721973716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07884486430735713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20760753798265005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1318564182741812,0.08057505669192899,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2292756028035776 schizophrenia,theNeckbeard69,2019/02/14,"I am the eye 👁 in the sky Looking at you I can read your mind 👀👀👀👀👀👀👀👀👀👀👀👀👀👀👀👀👀👀👀👀👀👀👀👀👀👀👀👀👀👀👀👀👀👀",-5.560666666666666,-8.168279199999999,2.946000000000001,103.62633333333336,91.0,6.666666666666668,18.666666666666668,3.1291,-1.0335333333333336,80,1,49,0,3,51,15,50,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,2,1,1,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,4,0,2,3,0,3,0,0,2,0,2,3,0,0,0,10,4,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5086821247278891,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6116404554604716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6059195072172765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Static_Reality,2019/02/15,"How would you best describe schizophrenia in your own words? You can say ""losing touch with reality"", ""alien taking over body"", ""A group of common symptoms that a person has which were collectively agreed upon psychiatrists and put in the DSM4"", ""Spiritual transformation"" or something anything you want idk.. try to explain why you describe it that way.. Society has us in a hole and who really can believe anything about anything anymore. When you believe something that is out of touch with reality, what is reality to you? How do you know? Someone tells you, but where does that information come from? How do you trust that person with that information? Could that person be a spy? I'm just really confused and wish I was instead diagnosed with.. idk... the memories and situations that made me who I am, why I become addicted to things, why I'm afraid of things, my sleep.. people and what they say to me, what they've done to me, how I cognitively analyse my thoughts and which turns I use for certain objects in reality, what they mean to me, why I use metaphors and similes so much... why a lot of the time when I was hearing voices I heard my mom screaming my name.. my desires, inspirations, spiritual beliefs, my mood throughout the day, my reasons for rebelling against authority, what I find to be real and true.. idk.. I need more therapy I suppose but most times my psychologist always challenged my paranoia and delusions.. Invega is a good medication.. helps a lot.. chemical imbalance in the brain? I'm still confused about what schizophrenia is because I don't know if I truly can believe the psychiatrist and there's a chance that he could have just been lazy and labelled me as ""schizophrenia"" or could have been lying and apart of some secret formulation of incidences that lead me to clues about something really stupid that I don't care to go deeper into. Different cultures deal with it differently and no culture is ethnocentrically better than another I mean America is just a shopping mall with conspiracies and corruption under a god that doesn't exist unless you take shrooms then you see everything is god. The soul is blablabla it goes round and round. People say this is the only life we will live and there's no afterlife so I hope that's what it is because my trauma is too screwed by what people have said to me and society just buy things. Shiny things. I hate my job and don't know why I'm going to school part time I have no idea what I'm even doing. Medicate me on antipsychotic injections because I can't be trusted with pills as I'll stop taking them because I believe it's all either real or not real how do I know. How does anyone know unless they use force. 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He lives with my parents (about 5 minutes from me) and has a steady job now. However, he is not 100% fantastic all the time. His psychiatrist is still working on getting meds just right, and I know it’s a difficult thing to maneuver. Especially since my brother doesn’t always grasp what parts of his reality are the same as everyone else’s. He has plenty of paranoid and irrational thought lines. I want to know where to go to find out how to best relate to him. And how to really encourage him to explain his fears and thoughts to his doctor in order to get the best help possible. It’s hard to know what to say sometimes. 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We did it to ourselves...and we are the only ones that can undo it. If we lose all of the stigmas and learn to trust our spirit guides or angels (higher selves), then we have an unprecedented opportunity to erase the perceived and closely moonitored ""normal"". Everyone has a Jekyll and Hyde personality -- some people just don't understand that Hyde is never necessary. Primitive and violent behavior is the result of constant fight, flight, or freeze \~ which a handful of people have been using to pull strings. And has now become pop culture (reverse psychology) [https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=T31h3L\_egm8](https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=T31h3L_egm8) Mass hypnotic regression, usually resulting in extremes..(docile and unassuming, or furious and violent). Humans feed off of negative energy in the same way spirits do. Occult rituals and channeled entities feed off of primarily negative energy (which has subtle, yet physical vibrations). When we are in pain, a lot of people project their anger onto others, in a primitive rage.. instead of using the incredible gift of consciousness. **Life is not limited to consciousness, unless consciousness is limited to life.** Several power-hungry individuals have infiltrated our way of life, and corrupted the very essence of what it means to be human. They have committed to becoming vessels for chaos, dictating the political narrative in the shadows. Machiavellianism at its finest... and is consistently ignored by MSM -- despite the countless people who realize we're slaves in a seemingly fascist world government. Well, anyways, I got kinda carried away. Ignore my schizophrenic ramblings",8.998568075117374,12.298932119718316,8.345422535211268,56.30656103286387,62.30985915492958,12.338967136150234,40.706572769953056,11.698219412168324,6.478110798122066,1478,82,178,54,24,465,183,284,0.16,0.762,0.078,-0.9835,1,0,0,0,1,0,83.0,8,0,2,5,7,15,7,0,19,0,22,9,1,4,3,52,29,18,0,3,7,0,2,0,0,0,6,0,0,4,11,18,2,4,9,1,0,1,5,12,1,1,4,2,13,3,37,24,4,28,4,2,0,0,17,17,0,9,8,134,24,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13895364837365173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3266801719386012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15982359620318592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28264292438689603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1182863571186709,0.0,0.0,0.14644080640215487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3133910562841547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16545837467456512,0.16144652165108428,0.12573633191149047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1611026669092993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11406691324458612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14490718754679194,0.0,0.0,0.1551925181727123,0.0,0.1002185090953571,0.1124819674288661,0.15737232405544374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4101312984017725,0.12913753605115907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1346394366004119,0.0,0.16708096978126785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15396549248163374,0.0,0.2554702142635264,0.1628871213878143,0.122030117430271,0.0,0.2347867460681725,0.0,0.0,0.13297673254269454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,nlogax7,2019/02/15,"Self-Referential Thinking Hi yall, I have been using the mantra ""its not all about you"" lately. It's a good one, gets straight to the point.. Helps with self referential thinking. How do you guys cope with those kinds of thoughts? (like thinking everybody can read your mind, or that you are being followed, any kind of thinking that falls under ""this is all about me right now"")... Thx",2.9089084507042244,5.709858816901409,2.496602112676058,92.970536971831,80.54929577464789,5.240140845070423,22.959507042253517,6.6274283507984215,0.5359422535211271,300,10,59,3,8,88,57,71,0.0,0.862,0.138,0.836,3,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,5,0,0,4,4,0,0,3,0,7,0,0,2,2,14,15,2,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,6,2,0,0,5,1,0,2,1,0,0,1,2,0,7,4,8,12,2,8,0,0,0,0,9,4,0,1,3,38,13,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13568664180125678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10424572844587338,0.0,0.0,0.1673555568635285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19756519589329105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13374016132673336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4155577422703667,0.0,0.0,0.2250775350123301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0974798480303813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2014675289554812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1352060936292853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1886195092089797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19958311255439304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1703967758303501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41630476972439295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5114008065268018,0.0,0.15840383139176614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17232909380213554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,nazzy72,2019/02/15,"Going through the worst period in my life Schizotypal, 17, male. Obviously have social problems. The main two are extreme social anxiety and not knowing what to say. The latter going as far as me not having any thoughts 99% of the time. I think I read somewhere else on reddit that this might be from Invega(which I am taking), although I'm not entirely sure. Let me get to the point. I am a foreign student in college in the US. I've been here for about one and a half months. I have this awful trait that I easily fall in love with women. I've already had a few crushes(god I hate this word) and this is far more that plain sympathy. I don't have any friends in college. Whenever I simply contemplate talking to someone I don't know, I experience severe anxiety, similar to a panic attack, even stronger that a psychotic episode. Now About a week ago two of the three friends I had back home left me. Because I was ""always 'eating' their free time and always asked for advice which I never used"". One of them told me he would come back when I stopped doing that and found some friends. I also found out from that third friend, which didn't leave me, that the other has no intentions of coming back. I really miss them. I really want them back. I spend most of my time in bed studying, jerking off, or crying to Radiohead(they're fucking amazing, aren't they?). Yesterday I experienced the worst anxiety in my life, again, when I contemplated talking to people, but this time overcame it. I contacted with three people and was once again convinced that I won't find any new friends, neither will I make my old friends come back. The first guy looked like he was about my age, but turned out to be 26, so I don't think I should even consider this option. I feel I did relatively well, but he didn't seem too interested. Next was my crush. We use the college shuttle at the same time on Tuesday and Thursday, and before that we obviously wait for it at the bus stop. I came over, said ""hi"". She had the most apathetic look I've ever seen. Also, she didn't say anything, so I apologized and left. Next was another girl who also seemed my age, but turned out to be 21. We talked a lot, but I did awful in the conversation. Some awkward silence, but not too much. Sometimes I feel like I don't have a filter. The conversation was so bad that I contemplated suicide for the rest of the day for the first time since September. Right now, I see two ""barriers"" in getting my friends back. The first is that I am much younger that almost everyone in college, so making friends is going to be almost impossible. Second is, that as I mentioned earlier, my head is lacking thoughts, so I won't be able to get past small talk, which is also an issue. What would you suggest?",4.337603189493437,5.829114690431517,5.103935741088179,82.20318316135086,70.95121951219512,8.256829268292682,29.084849906191373,8.769984970463412,2.2422458161350853,2162,84,419,39,40,700,260,533,0.142,0.792,0.066,-0.9895,0,0,0,0,0,1,82.0,4,1,5,3,31,28,4,2,29,2,50,6,1,5,5,76,93,31,1,6,11,0,2,2,8,7,2,3,2,4,28,21,1,4,13,1,2,8,17,11,1,13,23,10,64,18,51,57,16,74,0,1,4,2,47,26,1,12,42,302,92,6,0.0636392168552319,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06218750617831523,0.05641232597153981,0.0,0.12745096602937175,0.0,0.07022745828912362,0.2035690349076527,0.10590585290984587,0.0,0.0,0.12983054922987206,0.06673126767824662,0.14605148011816785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05236965305916301,0.0,0.05949407709684314,0.07239879642846697,0.0,0.2936077772835008,0.05313608786225475,0.03879387591709398,0.0,0.054152286294002185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07278631040157123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16445865095826562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06990469144806412,0.04104203013057108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06511880639080718,0.053162399676598505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08406620507426409,0.05756531505948126,0.0,0.06080999890389841,0.0,0.06225136549272155,0.0,0.0,0.0643558003730441,0.04546386923709445,0.0,0.0,0.05816509128405984,0.16239445604085376,0.0,0.1395542330498441,0.3933400086275938,0.05883343051398336,0.09974659258514036,0.0,0.1085029005154687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06301283003010068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06283055137678133,0.06531219640797516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06383532333037682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06642280840925074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06994889854866737,0.0,0.0,0.06738474187217343,0.1382883906380898,0.06507541092333224,0.08990052180017026,0.06218181362891609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1068818284241341,0.0,0.0,0.05410378641038735,0.05743687785276039,0.0,0.08495934283496971,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06751115226135332,0.0,0.0,0.05079621574030198,0.0,0.09356429362147152,0.0,0.04908248727202842,0.061463152199843565,0.13536205819342678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06677865282102495,0.06777368899146835,0.08624716067396511,0.0,0.0,0.07466690914435041,0.0,0.0,0.060750833415802286,0.08823884008547464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0601596299409235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06089413586648808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06365643853111219,0.0,0.08153782378548285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05434754347559469,0.06053546846334811,0.10121691906882366,0.0,0.0,0.050712216436438,0.11586950580634645,0.0,0.07189420086351353,0.0,0.05264301781216914,0.0,0.0,0.1297443346167075,0.05392130192437356,0.0,0.0629408127203858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1064104697329446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06961097417676282,0.0,0.05997920874686055,0.0,0.047848771076876455,0.20460316759018146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08155488104376196,0.0,0.10104485922710074,0.22265123472786594,0.0,0.0,0.06080999890389841,0.0,0.0,0.13844238695468314,0.1864988031830562,0.0,0.07655014218674328,0.10992770105986052,0.0,0.0,0.0375360589364695,0.0,0.05104754110288148,0.0,0.05721929871555029,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0904149475112498,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Disastrous_Cognition,2019/02/15,"Tired of people thinking I am doing this for attention.... Okay, I will preface this by saying that nobody has ever told me this and it could indeed be a delusion that I feel like everyone is talking behind my back. Realistically I am probably not on that many people's radar. I am just so fucking tired of feeling this way, in the very least. I have experienced - and I am sure you guys can relate - true despair. How many people can say they have been tortured and have suffered like someone with schizophrenia has? I would really appreciate the occasional, ""I can tell you're trying as hard as you can."" I feel like this entire post is pointless, so sorry if I have wasted one of your guys' time.",6.373636363636365,6.816318030303034,6.935909090909089,74.72386363636366,65.66666666666667,9.024242424242424,30.893939393939394,8.841846274778883,2.49569393939394,548,19,98,8,8,180,88,132,0.151,0.715,0.134,-0.5508,0,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,3,1,0,6,10,2,0,3,1,22,3,0,1,3,18,28,9,0,3,3,0,4,3,0,2,2,2,0,2,9,4,0,0,5,0,0,0,1,4,0,1,2,7,17,6,11,22,1,7,0,2,0,1,11,2,1,1,6,75,26,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11803474140175572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1225600801264513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13885273352678912,0.0,0.14667920369831522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2328479951217535,0.2193259087960231,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14191154241375936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3039852622329162,0.0,0.0,0.13750901408958438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2249822168724396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3112569775538673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1040179664276136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31926006493080195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1470139519849618,0.0,0.1655027709230676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09833829369943836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24414434069098626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13006304507820846,0.0,0.0,0.17183463728454088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14467526288477742,0.0,0.0,0.12338032493516785,0.13416885347988688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09835886552238483,0.0,0.0,0.08950914433206363,0.3528594590030899,0.0,0.14667920369831522,0.0,0.1042188224341567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1266564906283138,0.0,0.12184395921780496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10904450536443676,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,kardavox,2019/02/15,"I'm the subject of my neighbor's current paranoia Hey friends, I don't have schizophrenia, but my neighbor does. Her family told me she has an official diagnosis. Her family came by and let me know today that she has been telling them that my girlfriend and I have been talking to her through her car radio and through her bathroom vent. Now, I have known people who have similar paranoias and I get that it is a really hard place to be in. My question is, since she and I run into each other from time to time outside of our apartments, how can I make sure that I am not making her paranoia worse? I want to be as sensitive as possible and not feed the thoughts she is having. Thank you all for your insight :)",7.443642857142859,6.281234935714284,7.297142857142859,78.36785714285716,63.92857142857143,10.285714285714286,37.85714285714286,9.23628265651192,3.3215000000000003,561,25,110,8,7,179,92,140,0.092,0.8140000000000001,0.094,0.0671,1,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,1,2,1,0,2,3,0,0,4,0,18,1,0,3,2,23,28,10,0,1,3,0,1,0,4,0,0,0,2,0,7,9,1,0,5,1,0,3,3,0,0,0,5,1,28,3,15,20,2,12,0,0,0,0,24,4,0,1,5,85,35,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2336684981049452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17878715629174236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3851978548763662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15784418895790728,0.0,0.10674001906798336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1830155883221946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11227972662569152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2089139214520336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27274801993263226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1416381536826065,0.0,0.21345341901634712,0.0,0.0,0.23032122425749865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2288664039608909,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1308818974171286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16900176475514686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1925534011557666,0.0,0.0,0.16421121847824846,0.17857005096508613,0.1880949893174199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16219396454194052,0.23826174332799144,0.0,0.19365559834196108,0.19522051654002465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12050335383223652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20820247220164886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,wafflediva,2019/02/15,"Do you ever worry that... The police/fbi/cia/nsa/whomever will show up and arrest you for a crime you know you didn’t commit and have no memory of committing and then when they tell you what “you” did -hearing the details will implant a fake memory and you will start thinking you did it and confess to the crime and spend the rest of your life behind bars? I for real stress out about this because I can’t tell what’s real a lot and someone will say something and then based on their description I get this incredibly real “memory” and after a little bit I can’t remember if it really happened to me or if I just think it did because they told me about it because the “memory” is a completely intact memory. 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This is the life I will write which destroyed by anxiety ( Please please get help I wasted my last 17 years. It could be so much better. So everything started to when I got very very high fever when I was a kid. My parents says my personality changed after that I started to have some odd problems. first I started to shit my pants ( believe it or not I did it untill I was 11) . I pee in my bed in nights and night terors started. My family sent me psychologists and psychologists thought it was the problem about my intelliegence so I got a IQ test when I was 8. and my IQ number was as high as at 12-13 years olds which my family was proud of that when they heard this and stoped to send me psychologists. They probably thought nothing was wrong with me. My okb started when I was 11, I was obssed the thought that my body does not automatically breathe so I should breathe every second. I started to breathe every second. Then other thoughts started, thoughts that I could never sleep again ( I was sleepless for a long time). However, it did not affect my school and social life a lot, I got good grades and I had friends ( even though I stink really really bad) I had a good sense of humour which helped me to get friends. I had a very very good memeory so it helped me to overcome my studies. However, when I was 16 all my okb thoughts take over me and I lost my personality. Every okb thought take away my personality aspects, let say I was a good basketball player and one okb thought make me feel I was bad, then I could not play it. I used to write good poems and OKB thought started to stop writing poems. I had a very very good memory and one day one thought prevent me from understanding what I am reading. Depersonalization and cloudy mind started very very heavily and I feel like not myself, so I did not care anything about me. I gained a lot of weight and lost my all friends. Even though I gradauted from an okay university and started to building my life. I am depressed and I am very anxious since I was 16 years old. I am 31 years old now. No one knows that I have okb problem I dont wanna tell my family members. I am married to a lovely lawyer and she earns all our income. I dont work but my family is rich so I dont have a money issue. I am seeing a shrink and I am using prozac 3 times a day. I think it helped to feel like a human again. But still I have a cloudy mind, still feeling depersonalization and I feel very anxious all the time. I FEEL LIKE I AM NOT HERE, I AM IN SOMEWHERe ELSE. I feel like I have no personality. I dont know if I should use serious drug. What do you think about my experience? Did have similar experience? And what should I do Where should I seek help?",2.6077540106951886,4.651530631016044,3.8023172905525833,87.394064171123,76.9144385026738,6.752941176470588,25.79500891265597,7.724431198458867,1.3342356506238864,2208,83,461,33,51,718,225,561,0.083,0.797,0.119,0.9657,4,0,1,0,0,0,59.0,1,1,2,10,27,35,2,0,20,1,55,15,7,5,5,88,107,45,0,12,11,1,9,4,3,5,6,3,1,7,22,22,1,2,24,2,2,3,14,14,0,8,40,14,96,21,36,57,8,58,0,3,1,1,33,10,1,5,49,306,118,7,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04930886726182918,0.0552982869875185,0.0,0.0,0.06962835816558369,0.1028241924772614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03744994186906395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.042757103650088835,0.0,0.11399407588262067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05127293903704537,0.0,0.040248918196874095,0.0,0.050550121605070525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04639935009009042,0.0,0.04814237522308454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10900544547352764,0.0,0.0,0.058698943101336,0.046917671069539486,0.03919674342025742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03982513951655466,0.0,0.21334433772464634,0.0,0.05277586852235377,0.0,0.03801684107510446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06011639010912165,0.0,0.11502961706059947,0.0,0.0409004591867542,0.0890328609333558,0.17160693900065568,0.0,0.1840853121699948,0.13004625088109178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07741968338950883,0.0,0.0,0.1054801750445943,0.0,0.047553037248889686,0.0,0.0,0.2290242050581137,0.10919285871748548,0.0,0.0,0.04506095961656527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15251826065335589,0.09616528951640133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04749946139410551,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05002099558485242,0.03709582231998783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04653592708416526,0.0964328323393146,0.08893338678738592,0.0,0.0,0.04027393880335009,0.0,0.0,0.09935666664353178,0.07738006794416759,0.041073553309516266,0.0,0.030377539897094963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09190201892863267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.033454273156876074,0.0,0.0350992643210746,0.0,0.0,0.08541402767651908,0.0,0.04366701084366744,0.0,0.1432617854131966,0.0,0.12335201648034115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050532240789467976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1589464423189189,0.0,0.09991019833792912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04906628447848788,0.13063759535263045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.045521209007984516,0.0,0.05830832519449036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0723809976554727,0.0,0.04605742998278471,0.03626469618674892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.046714225356531885,0.03764542710738633,0.0,0.04554175963378528,0.046390586011204465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05094348057882527,0.32211429162032884,0.0,0.07268692251831098,0.038047472848985256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06843404875379983,0.0,0.03977677894019558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05832052297113548,0.08942451390962129,0.3974187598629346,0.0796098055892597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04737636325224027,0.0,0.11791521732559898,0.0,0.37549603342318416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055417572304515945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03313101658918218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.049756831105982835,0.0552982869875185,0.11722494178465093 schizophrenia,dogwoodamathyst,2019/02/15,"Drug use or schizophrenia? Mods, please delete if not allowed, I have no idea where this post belongs. I don't really know how to help anyone in my family. I feel like most of their problems are extrapolated by drugs use, but I don't know where the drugs end and a mental health problem begins. Please bear with me, I'm obviously ignorant. My little brother has been on and off drugs (but mostly on) since his early teen years when he started drinking a lot, smoking weed, popping vicodin and norcos. It has escalated to heroin, meth, and fuck if I know what else. He is delusional and homeless. He has had delusions where he believes he is a reincarnation of Ra and the the devil. Much of his delusions have a Devil theme, I think partly due to my older brother (who has used meth or heroin with him often) having a God theme when he was delusional. Around 8 years ago my older brother came to visit me. I dont remember the whole experience but I remember him ranting and pacing for hours. It made me physically ill to see him like that and so I've distanced myself from my brothers and sort of given up. I've kept my eyes on them through Facebook, each mirroring Christ/antiChrist themes. Now my older brother has moved away from hard drugs but is dangerously addicted to alcohol: he's not living on the streets but he was living in a tree for a few months this year. In any case, I don't speak with either of them often even though we were close all my childhood. I have read that schizophrenia can be due to genetic and environmental markers. I don't know if his delusions and hallucinations will stop if he stops using. His last and ""most sober"" experience he was living with my dad, still smoking weed, and seemed to be in his own world. He would laugh randomly and seemed to be preoccupied with something going on in his head rather than the conversations with the people around him. I know weed has hallucinogenic properties. I don't know if he likes that or what. It was really hard to talk to him and he would shut down if someone tried to talk to him about his mental state. Granted my mom just cries and has irrational expectations and my father is strict and no-nonsense and has irrational expectations. My dad, a former meth user, has tried to help them multiple times and my brother has lived with him and occasionally achieved some sobriety though he usually smokes weed during these periods. I think that part of the trouble is that my dad got clean through his faith, old school attitude, and a strict devotion to AA. This clearly will not work for my brother, who, for all I know enjoys being a reincarnation of the devil. We are poor, the only connection we have to possible help is through my dad and AA but I don't believe this will ever be enough. His options are usually jail or AA type programs. My father and mother firmly believe in the success of 12-step programs and believe it is up to my brother to fail or pull himself out of it. It seems he was able to access drugs the last time he was in jail. I honestly believe they haven't kept him because they probably know he needs medical treatment and do not want to pay for it. I believe it is unrealistic to expect someone at their lowest point (and spiraling lower) to be able to pull themselves out of this journey to the center of the earth and make it back up to the surface. I believe he needs medication, counseling and about 2 years off the streets and in a medically controlled facility. I've not heard of such places for poor white trash and I don't want to see my brother on the news for some horrific crime because there was no help for him. I've checked, I don't see any help for him. I don't see any options for us. Any ideas?",6.5432773109243705,6.768739966386554,6.723753501400562,77.13546218487397,65.30252100840336,9.713165266106444,33.106442577030805,9.48565724429506,2.914682913165266,2952,115,557,52,42,949,307,714,0.127,0.78,0.093,-0.985,3,0,13,0,0,0,72.0,4,0,7,5,24,19,2,0,28,0,60,18,2,9,5,134,99,54,0,18,25,17,3,3,0,5,14,2,1,0,24,48,2,6,18,2,4,7,18,10,3,0,17,11,76,9,90,71,17,83,4,1,6,1,79,40,1,26,37,370,100,10,0.11061356606299257,0.0,0.0,0.06029255709211801,0.0,0.0,0.04902612613708642,0.059106131193909624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15044203604727854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.038671788642379336,0.0,0.0,0.0984695252339124,0.0,0.0,0.05196254324605786,0.042527502267242466,0.0,0.06742900319399875,0.0,0.0,0.4361826361551493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06325622589291638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06203126000103919,0.0,0.0,0.06075190415364025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06481913780948696,0.054179591858660975,0.3848298574501839,0.0,0.04620172041142267,0.0,0.04898539384299232,0.057146691306548286,0.0,0.03652960858160966,0.0500281516250732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10820129268882653,0.05213831286445577,0.0,0.027964771283617858,0.039511176848518716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051130229710989634,0.0,0.0,0.03143211934211445,0.0,0.04423388676106951,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09908802847386236,0.0,0.05676071539760606,0.05878852410071001,0.0,0.0,0.18535485424530296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054466040582970165,0.0,0.0,0.12486925215558273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2431612924542294,0.09016481973733692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08106030160701137,0.055431926210794,0.19534761073619286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04701984914410063,0.0,0.052332615366470735,0.03691770713773231,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16714729600665978,0.1114724580031031,0.0,0.0,0.06477463584649856,0.0441453465582519,0.058782357655125676,0.04065684920816645,0.0820185576563026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058035165189252474,0.0,0.0,0.04206330071454548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11978371283289754,0.0,0.03834275958062039,0.0,0.05778381681919852,0.1214204789066921,0.052282786696867166,0.0623500878711603,0.05296860993727514,0.0,0.059630066386208685,0.1058422440338825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05532174983244728,0.0,0.0708618828421886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12530360752335254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05597341711609971,0.17628938193105834,0.15104765428311812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04575034244817975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09372251557058428,0.04257786362259194,0.0,0.0,0.039146425692143084,0.0,0.04416806837163704,0.09247789417628154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08890699443402036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07087670675312548,0.1086772670411398,0.0,0.06449965990206588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07509935049160049,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06652725024230614,0.19106921210231897,0.12182521565148223,0.0,0.06524274716262804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06174804813557715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.040263996747536064,0.0,0.0,0.07857670367289743,0.0,0.0,0.1424630198726962 schizophrenia,psycho-potato,2019/02/15,"Opening up is dsngerous. Hey guys, I'll try to keep this brief. Basically, I have some beliefs that others think are weird and far fetched and irrational. One of my beliefs if that I'm being targeted by the Illuminati and that they'll kill members of my family if I tell people about them and what they're doing to me (following me and such). Anyway, I'm in a mental health rehabilitation unit right now and I saw the doctor today who kept asking me questions about things and I ended up opening up a lot more than I would have liked to. Since talking with her, I've felt so vulnerable and anxious and I'm really worried that something bad will happen to my family as a result. I guess I just need some support. I nearly walked out of the unit to order a taxi to my flat to be on my own and drink, but I know the unit staff would have called the police (because I'm still under a section). I don't have access to alcohol, which is what I'd have done in the community, I'd have had a lot to drink to try to calm the anxiety. And I also don't have access to benzos, because they won't prescribe them here. I keep thinking to myself ""I'll leave the unit in an hour and go to the shop and buy some alcohol and get a taxi to my flat and just hide away from everyone for the night."" It's the only way I can imagine really being able to sleep tonight. I feel like shit guys. 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I've been down there a few times and from a logical perspective nothing speaks for this theory but also nothing against it. I feel like someone is following me and preparing some kind of ""messages"" for me. at night time i hear people wailing and screaming from down there and scratches and bumps on the walls and it gives me shivers just thinking about it. i know that the chance of that actually being true are remarkably low. but i have no other hallucinations and no other delusions so i am very scared that it might be true. i have to go home tomorrow to try how i feel at home and go back to the clinic on monday. i am currently on 1200mg seroquel and have some tranquilizers if i freak out. oh i forgot about the whole voices thing: i hear the voice of the ""killer"", my ex best friend and sometimes my parents in my head. I don't hear them acoustically just in my mind kinda... it's hard to explain... they say things like: i am going to kill you, we are disappointed, you can't act like you don't like me forever and so on. it's a very confusing time and i am scared of tomorrow because crazy shit exists and i am really afraid of this fucking basement. I don't know how i would be without the meds and I really don't want to know, this shit is just scary. thank you for reading. 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We had boughten acid and we were supposed to do it today but he accused me of lying to him about how much the acid was. It was $20 which i guess is a lot for acid. This started to really anger me because I wasn't lying and he has no reason to believe I was. After this he started talking about killing me and if he had a gun he could kill me. He was calling me out for being this ""problematic troubled soul"" which I said wasn't true. After awhile I thought this is ridiculous and I said let's go home. So I drove him back and we argued in the car for a really long time about how he didn't say any of that and that he ""loves me so much and that I'm his connection to everything"" this was the last straw for me and it made me think that this guy is an absolute psychopath and he's trying to fucking kill me. But I have no idea if it's just delusions getting the best of me and I should apologize or if it's actually something that I should be concerned about.",3.340415653864852,4.158043508264466,4.44358288770054,88.55890374331554,72.59504132231405,7.181720952843947,27.87165775401069,7.285733465282438,1.3179510938259598,907,33,198,9,17,297,120,242,0.238,0.698,0.064,-0.9947,0,0,2,1,0,2,14.0,3,0,0,2,11,16,7,0,10,0,25,3,0,4,2,42,43,24,3,6,8,0,0,0,1,2,0,3,1,1,18,19,1,0,4,3,0,3,6,9,0,0,17,6,29,7,27,20,4,18,1,0,0,2,27,2,1,6,13,142,47,1,0.0,0.0,0.12436938557199675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0866679805362769,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0979984806266657,0.0,0.07769019470810004,0.0,0.0,0.14358854636945176,0.1337472238170717,0.11271605968708988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1301371111720262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10175564833910823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1248490365071684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11454068346317972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09846483863223067,0.11782222229469963,0.1997565857036329,0.0,0.07243077477361988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1403966723355813,0.12619205785493093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12783921641111953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14387156940628587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.42300196065594303,0.0,0.0,0.2077717916446344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13032266629268588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11278612925167195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1083504445302489,0.11502542909975312,0.12059294620470005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12868461954995275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18737566219762453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11959989327674635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.244936446393242,0.13103621338212645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2424615855200613,0.10135056067890788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09811453108915312,0.0,0.0,0.3608291138931676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12011680441366,0.0,0.0,0.10243665754064946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08166256191088561,0.0,0.10117827365822624,0.07431507065261962,0.0,0.12080436642526167,0.0,0.0,0.08652779791743333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,notakirby,2019/02/16,First time ever being on meds. Started me on 250 (I think) of depakote and 40 Latuda. Not sure if I like it very much. It isn’t helping me in the way I hoped and in some ways it’s making it worse. What do?..,-0.959347826086958,0.7957287173913059,1.5936521739130465,100.02308695652177,87.91304347826087,3.68,15.72173913043478,3.1291,-1.2632817391304347,155,3,39,0,5,53,37,46,0.146,0.7559999999999999,0.098,-0.3339,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,1,1,3,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,1,2,10,7,3,0,2,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,5,3,5,6,2,10,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,3,5,27,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2631557241321231,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2474582169854407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19499897280186787,0.0,0.0,0.2889513198405808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14212985872185369,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1941927822545929,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3231489051137881,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21386124105659327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20591618250068008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27419066662525265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18641115535808672,0.0,0.0,0.16963903478793554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2400412268505819,0.0,0.4618408943731768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29647450682948423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,oniikai,2019/02/16,"Does this sound like prodromal schizophrenia? Hey guys, I've been kinda paranoid about my mental health as of late, and before I see a psychiatrist I kinda wanted to run what I'm feeling past you guys to see whether or not prodromal schizophrenia is something I should be worrying about. Here's an outline of what I've been feeling: dissociation - derealization. things really dont feel real sometimes, especially when I get anxious about mental illness -my time recall has gotten much worse -i got lost once? memory -my word recall has gotten slightly worse -it's been really hard to recall names **note- I still end up remembering the word/name -ive been having difficulty processing people talking to me, for example I'd hear ""you're a sweep"" if someone says ""you're so sweet"" reading -ive been noticing that I replace a word on a screen/paper with another similar word while reading, involuntarily - I can read aloud really well but reading in my head is noticeably harder writing -ive been misspelling words slightly more often when writing. general -i sometimes forget to bring things with me. (i.e. bringing taking my clean clothes to my room but forgetting the hamper) -i notice that I'll decide to do something (like go downstairs so I can get water) , but once I partly do it, I forget the rest of what i want to do -my general processing of thought has gotten noticeably slower, which makes me kinda scared - i sometimes wake up delusional(my brain is still working in dream logic), but it wears off after 30secs to a couple minutes. I've always had social anxiety, but I've never really been depressed. I dont hallucinate(or at least I believe I don't) but I do have a lot of noise in my vision and tiny dots that float around from time to time. And if it helps, I'm 18 years old and have aspergers. 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Before I begin, I understand a diagnosis cannot be done online. But my grandma will never believe she is sick (if she is) and will never go to a psychiatrist, so I would like to see if I can at least get an understanding of what’s going on. Also, forgive me because I barely have any understanding of what schizophrenia is, so I may give some symptoms that have nothing to do with schizophrenia at all, so sorry about that. To start, my grandma often tells me about supernatural experiences she’s had in her life. She told me about an experience she had in her younger adulthood where a demon manifested itself in her room and tried to suffocate her, before she ripped it off and banished it away. She told me this with complete seriousness in her voice, and I think she 100% believed it to be real. She also told me about an experience where she was in an airplane, and everyone believed the plane was going to crash, but the “light of God” and a few angels appeared outside her plane window and judged her, and upon hearing her prayers and judging her as a good person they decided to let the plane go. These experiences that she’s described have made her very religious, and while I don’t think she’s lying about how she *thinks* they are real, I really doubt that they are real. I think my grandma has also had cases of “flat affect”. She often sobs or gets incredibly excited when I call her, because we don’t get to talk very often and I’m “the light of her life”, but sometimes when I call her she responds in an uncharacteristically monotone and uncaring voice, and the conversation only lasts a minute because she has no interest in keeping it going. However, I’m not sure if flat affect is a permanent thing or if it’s something that only happens in episodes. She usually doesn’t have it, and I’ve only seen it with her a few times. She also has had episodes of depression, and attempted suicide once after which she was hospitalized. I see her quite rarely (once every few months), and only for 2-3 hours when I do, so it’s hard to say if those are her only symptoms. Would you say that those can be schizophrenic symptoms, or schizoaffective or anything like that? Thanks.",8.784284009546539,7.428963914081148,8.773817422434371,69.47289797136038,61.41050119331742,11.43489260143198,37.41778042959427,10.355215969177356,3.783162195704056,1756,69,315,32,20,575,189,419,0.09,0.851,0.059,-0.9251,1,0,1,0,0,1,47.0,1,1,3,2,22,12,0,1,18,0,40,8,0,4,4,63,72,42,1,7,13,0,1,2,0,5,8,5,2,1,24,20,0,1,9,0,0,6,8,4,0,0,13,11,63,8,41,50,6,37,2,2,3,0,55,17,1,16,16,242,87,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2472842285303756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05257028607936046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06361571277779693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07263091714600116,0.0,0.0,0.14137386389163067,0.0,0.13156231099138505,0.2612899566940525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1578748027015894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08105318430961755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06658298108889485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0791102086294392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0651330880161031,0.07386857079076424,0.0,0.3024778478281501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12116655761098205,0.0741583318619667,0.21967204769500293,0.06484005635700596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0683608620148499,0.0,0.06925040554853606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08712874313462238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07613019366892823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06871254334200608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06301417466054714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07904995371114983,0.10920610390434968,0.0755349742598208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07314818739177173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06170438950747754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11924529685884215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07417656426298543,0.0,0.0,0.16465534067610624,0.0,0.2939709950895503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06750004617474284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08222375099596514,0.0,0.2639712235542636,0.049523784056808066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1229526276307684,0.0,0.0,0.12320470374326638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0595134320193387,0.07645696372091193,0.08653700557759572,0.05471712166867118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08455950117539994,0.0,0.07285937357593766,0.2410495620246701,0.0,0.06213510870570418,0.06756827962864471,0.07117237614179361,0.0,0.0,0.051358236744911336,0.1981365766256338,0.0,0.0,0.04507736882805099,0.0,0.0,0.2216057123722927,0.0,0.05248525536409098,0.0,0.0,0.2414327739932286,0.0,0.0,0.08514091681749818,0.1275700127651406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10983099936135376,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,zeerak91,2019/02/16,"Joining the sub to help my sister Hi guys, my sister has been diagnosed with schizophrenia for about 4 years now. She was initially under deep depression and then developed schizophrenia. It's been years she's on meds but there's no signs of progress. I've been reading a shit ton of articles online in an effort to help her, but to no use. Do I am joining this thread to understand more about schizophrenia In An effort to help her situation better and help her out. I'm just starting out. Please tell me what are some of the basic things I should know, what are the correct ways to support my sister in this journey especially when she just can't forget the past and keeps bringing up the same things. Also is there a road to progress? Will there ever be a time she will completely recover? We miss the old her. P.s. please if there is anything I said that was offensive or if I overlooked something, please correct me. 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My partner (31M) has two children from a previous relationship, and we occasionally discuss the possibility of another child. We’re in agreement to wait at least another year. I’ve only had brief periods without antipsychotics (the most recent being 6m), and they always end rather poorly for my relationships, friendships, and career(s). I know that all of my medications have the “talk with your doctor” warning, but as it’s entirely hypothetical right now and in the distant future, I figured I would ask here first. Have any of you been pregnant during your disorder? Are any of you pregnant right now? Were you advised to continue or quit your medications? Were you switched to another medication? How were your symptoms?",6.622579908675796,9.193245116438364,7.17828767123288,65.26802511415528,67.013698630137,10.620091324200914,37.509132420091326,10.686352973137794,4.944883105022832,681,37,102,21,12,223,101,146,0.038,0.917,0.046,-0.4137,0,0,0,0,0,0,26.0,1,8,1,3,5,1,0,0,7,0,12,6,0,1,2,19,15,9,0,2,4,0,0,0,1,1,6,0,0,3,2,7,0,1,2,0,1,1,1,0,0,3,5,0,18,1,18,8,3,19,0,0,0,0,20,7,0,2,11,75,20,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11106662799702699,0.0,0.0,0.18154289453343092,0.4198984293700431,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1247864277070036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.305960872689278,0.13662314350855692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11822427323866044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2270772154991033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07335749706411507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09428135969045998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11812621132322156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4034032605215346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10151808053101473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15047942349021365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1419731455585906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13179607933346074,0.4299249257970235,0.0,0.2279835619243647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.138737547004889,0.0,0.10728672343112487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0778336644643858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13039123980337655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.128670623051164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0948208532832571,0.0,0.0,0.08595718879906378 schizophrenia,chandelly,2019/02/16,"for those who has the onset of the illness due to drug abuse how was it? how long were you using the substance? which substance(s)? did you have the onset after one psychotic break or after a few?",1.457894736842107,4.1350026842105265,2.27926315789474,92.2578421052632,87.94736842105263,4.092631578947368,18.12631578947369,5.6839178017228535,-0.2253326315789473,154,4,29,1,5,48,31,38,0.183,0.8170000000000001,0.0,-0.8343,0,0,1,0,1,0,6.0,0,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,5,0,5,2,0,3,0,4,6,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,2,0,5,3,1,5,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,1,4,26,6,0,0.0,0.544386383216599,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.532829115742639,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4066086982722596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3113427959904292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3968269510245848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,FateismysolaceTA,2019/02/16,"I thought curing psychosis was about not feeling paranoid and working through it intellectually Its not, its about working out whats real and what isn't and reality testing your intuition not supressing your feelings amongst another layer of dellusion. 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There’s something very wrong going on my mind and I don’t seem to be able to explain it to my therapist or my ex psychiatrist. My ex psychiatrist gave me meds for months that did not change a single thing, only left me always tired and sleepy. He diagnosed me with anxiety and a little depression. But anyway, I’ll try to explain, maybe someone will identify too? Idk what else to do. I’m really scared to leave my house, or “safe” places, like my room, or even some objects like a teddy bear I have since I was born, btw I’m 21. And I’m not sad or anything, like, If I stay in my room I’ll make my day productive, I’ll do everything that has to be done and more, I just don’t wanna leave it?! It’s like, I’m terrified. And every time I do leave my house (which I have to do everyday) I feel like I’m having a mental confusion or something, I can’t focus on anything, I feel like I’m gonna get lost, or forget my name?! I don’t feel like I’m awake. And I cannot pay attention on class at all. So when I get home I have to learn everything “again”. Most of the times I feel so desperate that I lock myself in any bathroom I find to cry, I even have this one between my college and home. And honestly I don’t know what else to do. Even at home, sometimes when I’m alone I freak out thinking there might be a ghost here, or a man hiding spying on me, things like that... I can be awake for hours and hours at night, like today, bc maybe there’s a killer hiding in my closet?!?!?! I know it probably sounds like a scared child, idk, I’m just so tired, but I don’t think I’m depressed?!?! 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I hate this, and I love it. I hate it. It hurts and it’s hard. I love it. It’s different and (I don’t know the word) motivational? Inspiring? Coercive? Persuasive? Comfortable? But familiar. The only life I know. It’s extra-sensory and inter-dimensional, but undeniably organic and human. They fight against each other momentarily, and sometimes they get along. Most days harmonious, but some days like tonight, they are hyena and kudu calf. Anaconda and river fish. Poison rain and thirsty bird. I never know. I never fucking know. I tear myself apart, my legs, my face, my very own live structure..and then I repair the obvious, insidious damage. I lie and steal my only self away, and try to make it back home. home. I fake and pretend to survive and we know the difference. The masks! Oh, the ill-fitting confirmations. And we convince myself it’s all so fucking real. Myself and I oppose, agree, kill each other daily. They always say I’ll come around. I’ll come around. You’ll come around. It’s fine. It’s done. I’m fine. Nothing matters. Everything has it’s place. It’s an intricate puzzle and we are/have the last few pieces. There are 5 of us now and they tingle upon acknowledgement. They hide low but soon I’ll be awake. And they’ll forget those pieces. Or we tossed them into the breaking waves. Who knows. Eyes upon us always, we thrive, suffocate, die. Now we are three, the golden dew. Goodnight. 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A girl I know texted me and told me her grandpa was in the hospital and was very sick. I spent 15 minutes trying to come up with the right thing to say because I didn’t want to offend her or say the wrong thing. My mind was completely blank. This happens a lot too. I’ll be in a conversation but never know what to say to the other person. Usually I’ll be zoning out by accident when I’m talking to others. Is this common with schizophrenia or could this lack of knowing what to say be something more like autism?,4.1350630252100835,4.840149932773112,4.886880252100841,86.52006827731094,70.68067226890757,7.6306722689075634,25.79936974789916,7.6454224807358475,1.2040327731092442,458,13,96,5,8,148,77,119,0.116,0.833,0.051,-0.8291,0,0,1,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,1,0,2,4,1,0,7,0,10,1,0,0,1,20,21,6,0,3,3,1,1,2,0,0,1,5,0,2,10,6,0,0,5,0,1,1,3,2,0,0,6,6,9,2,17,11,3,10,0,0,0,0,14,5,0,3,6,64,19,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10903689217731602,0.15977898508722885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0950595926513574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13432852478652751,0.16350015069561455,0.0,0.0,0.12450542204757666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13646416787911125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13026788218908827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07884796277236629,0.11140358594920508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1378972502599609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3428022410886518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15236884003340326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13257463389475965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1574549730615879,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1202705616826122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10810917955812524,0.13616081608063188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13317193042099534,0.0,0.6200488394527849,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12005025078848755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12533868623919778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20719924871002696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14900737779560053,0.0,0.10587304168762247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17174590793186098,0.1286668530607442,0.0919774677803172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17049593888696668,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,IdxntGivea,2019/02/17,"Does anyone have answers to my schizophrenia questions? Hello, hopefully someone can answer the questions that have been on my mind recently. I'm reading up about schizophrenia for a story I'm writing ( the main character has schizophrenia ) and I just want to have first hand knowledge for it so my story can be 100% stronger and better. Of course I wouldn't assume anything about schizophrenia nor am I saying that I know everything about schizophrenia, I'm just curious. But I have come to the conclusion that almost all, or just a lot of hallucinations, whether they be auditory or visual, are very demanding and angry. I know that they often yell insults and commands, but I'm not sure exactly what they are saying. I was wondering if anyone had any exact words their hallucinations would say? Thank you so much, if anyone is reading this! Hopefully you understand what I'm getting at, and please leave a comment with some things hallucinations have said, if you can.",7.2055038759689936,8.936148465116283,6.670930232558137,72.76457364341087,64.34883720930233,9.221705426356593,34.68217054263566,9.516144504307137,3.5098472868217057,784,35,123,15,12,243,103,172,0.055,0.821,0.124,0.9005,0,0,0,0,0,0,21.0,0,3,4,3,9,6,1,0,6,0,20,1,1,0,4,46,36,16,0,8,12,0,1,0,0,2,0,5,0,0,9,7,0,0,11,2,0,1,3,1,0,1,4,6,17,5,14,28,5,6,0,0,0,0,17,3,0,15,2,93,26,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15150975276065215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10289235161002704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3173871914200798,0.0,0.12451083635296052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1338166687819199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13033556000558905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13240772032214368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1359828647629935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12869965943755002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07905043564131344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3005593179369049,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16630615922591258,0.0,0.0,0.16020977947770973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1286338041653418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15277456610396165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11122632833200574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1660870716266969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33899167518878465,0.0,0.30269119376466136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1493950900193921,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14392537217832402,0.3609705958551534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12819994037882124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14260284360531467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13930099485948272,0.0,0.0,0.10052008743591592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.157513478459387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12484218355319025,0.08924340373792294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16408344053864993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10748248342142692,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,rat-czar,2019/02/17,"losing a friend (not dead) this'll be a really long post but i need to write out this whole situation so i can think through my feelings. so, i had this friend who i met my sophmore year of college and we became super, super close. i considered her my best friend and she spent pretty much every day in my dorm room last year. but this year she seems really different. she became an ra over the summer and now all her friends are people who i don't know and don't really care for, mostly other ras. her girlfriend is also an ra. they're always talking about things related to their job that i don't know about. she acts differently too, way more preppy and uptight. she used to be very carefree and snide, which was what i loved about her. she's also always with her girlfriend, who i don't know as well. the gf is nice, but i feel like i can't be myself around her. she never wants to hang out with me because she's either with her girlfriend or busy with her job. the only time i've seen her is at parties and when i'm at a party i like to drink so pretty much she only ever sees me completely wasted these days. it's not that i'm always wasted, it's just that i'm wasted whenever she sees me. she reported me to the school for alcoholism even though i'm not alcoholic and i feel super hurt and betrayed. it really triggered my paranoia which hurts all the more because she's one of the few people i trusted enough to tell about my psychosis. so now i have all these people from the school trying to pick apart my personal life and accusing me of things they have no proof of ever happening. i feel crushed by all of this and i never imagined something like this would happen. i'm not in trouble or anything, but i feel betrayed nonetheless because i thought my closest friend would've talked to me before just telling some bureaucracy about some of my most embarrassing moments. i feel like all this time she was just using me as a stepping stone until she found people with fewer problems to hang out with. i'm not the only friend she cut off this year either, which is why i'm saying that. now all her friends are the other ras or the people in her gf's residence hall. it hurts to lose such an amazing friendship but she's not the same person anymore. she doesn't even laugh at my weird/gross jokes like she used to. god, i hate growing 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schizophrenia,prophet-ross,2019/02/17,I cant fucking take it I hate people Sorry for my language im just having a breakdown I can't handle this! Everything that comes out of my mouth people dissect and mock me relentlessly until I blow up its like they want to see me get madder and madder so they can just laugh at me like im a joke. how do I teach people to stop laughing at me and that Im not a joke and that im worth listening to,1.5548051948051942,2.692406818181824,3.928766233766236,89.28636363636366,77.4090909090909,6.392207792207793,21.662337662337666,6.868970318607317,0.4273974025974021,312,8,71,3,7,109,55,88,0.155,0.636,0.209,0.616,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,2,0,4,11,5,0,3,0,5,2,1,1,0,12,13,7,0,1,3,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,6,6,0,1,0,2,1,1,3,5,0,0,0,2,13,6,10,13,0,7,0,0,1,1,3,4,1,0,4,46,19,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15446231613292702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16115500823245674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16577202640817526,0.09368366837070832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17703451474916915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7747554622138737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17520659871348027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3729392762181212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14288928605514895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20072628022546427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1499137398972802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13482109870627793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10576348342965172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,wtfbrainwtf,2019/02/17,Ppparanoia Hello everyone! Newly semi diagnosed schizophrenic on seroquel hoping to relate to others with the same condition. I think I've been suffering from delusions since I was about 16/17. Mild depression and paranoia with technology and severe issues with social media. Does anyone have social media and is afraid that people are out to get them? ,8.001206896551725,11.149200155172418,7.854689655172418,59.409275862068995,64.6896551724138,10.157241379310344,30.565517241379307,10.355215969177356,4.3327958620689655,291,11,33,8,5,93,48,58,0.181,0.775,0.043,-0.8356,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,1,0,1,4,0,1,1,0,5,2,0,0,0,10,8,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,7,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,2,0,3,1,10,6,1,2,0,2,0,0,4,2,0,1,0,25,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19175242137245405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2361993530349184,0.27834410685560856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2399860643390613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2620445697241787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1432771660722746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27237855782359355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.286231484348174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19012094474545765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3098089996797438,0.0,0.22685112975208066,0.0,0.0,0.5590988151885231,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17571956994928614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,little_kid13,2019/02/17,"If you cover your ears when hearing a hallucination sound then would you still be able to hear it? Obviously if you hear a voice inside your head then you can’t stop it but if you hear a sound or voice that you’re not sure is real and cover your ears will you still be able to hear it? It’s similar to if you have a visual hallucination and record it and then you can’t see it, because I think this is a new way. Because I got really shook at night when I heard some weird whistling sound which was very quiet but I wasn’t sure where it was but then I went into the bathroom and it got louder so I think it was outside but I still wasn’t sure how I heard it even when the door was closed and my door was closed too. But then I covered my ears and then I thought I could still hear it, it made me really scared. Anyways try this out next time you are unsure if you’re hallucinating",1.5498930481283428,3.3309223850267387,2.834759358288772,94.33096256684496,79.16042780748663,5.897326203208556,18.486631016042786,6.794906146795322,-0.20825989304812784,694,14,164,7,17,224,88,187,0.114,0.8859999999999999,0.0,-0.9529,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,12,0,0,13,6,0,2,7,0,18,4,4,2,4,36,34,28,0,7,12,0,0,0,0,2,0,17,2,0,16,10,0,1,3,0,0,2,5,3,0,0,14,18,26,3,6,15,1,27,0,0,1,0,20,6,0,7,18,111,42,0,0.21204363762209952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12925983337654312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08464979524670901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07002641140911084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16959066756133212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10880897339560457,0.0,0.7169657713868337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10032040845934936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10239653327148164,0.11275540709686167,0.09949429483919647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12067604093703448,0.1358405839483718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1061463362856942,0.0,0.08448566290125156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33867664582588336,0.08863898786882576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29977292853818266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13586900104141672,0.0,0.08416948138389113,0.0618221751536048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.071981855517737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08747910402222024,0.0,0.08415518486275482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09828328822499302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07531485816878197,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,neo_redditor,2019/02/17,Time alone and schizophrenia Do you think that spending a lot of time alone increase the probability of getting schizophrenia?,8.533000000000001,12.403678300000005,5.4200000000000035,74.01500000000001,66.0,6.0,40.0,7.1686216300943375,3.3665000000000003,106,6,14,1,2,29,16,20,0.179,0.7170000000000001,0.103,-0.1779,0,2,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,3,2,3,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,2,9,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7225042022539454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18223385285973828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2965376920554793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3760659080187605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22349726151452165,0.0,0.0,0.4067767258696466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Sherlockis_Agirlname,2019/02/17,"How do you tell if your in the wrong? Recently I was forced to stay at a mental hospital for several months after claiming ""my brother tried to sell me into human sex trafficking"" and arguing outside a dr's office about it before being arrested and brought to the hospital. My dr.s' claim the ""working diagnosis"" for me is ""schizophrenic"" or ""schizophreniform"". Is this a reasonable claim based on those facts alone?? It seems terribly wrong since I didn't see or hear anything out of the norm (I know my accusation wasn't a normal one though.) It seems reasonable to say I displayed paranoid ideation but how does that equal schizophrenic?? 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I'll feel a certain way or just question what I'm doing for a second and then I'll start to feel like I'm out if it and drugged. I feel like I'm losing my mind.,0.4847674418604662,2.0947397441860502,2.872267441860465,93.61677325581397,81.7906976744186,5.230232558139536,22.377906976744185,5.985473137389443,0.1428651162790695,151,5,36,1,4,52,29,43,0.065,0.7559999999999999,0.179,0.5423,0,0,1,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,1,1,4,0,0,2,0,2,1,0,0,1,12,9,5,0,1,3,0,3,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,4,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,3,3,3,3,9,0,4,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,3,4,19,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3449989338592492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4512661625660547,0.4250599673917799,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2906813709105018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33282001986378185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3003844317262289,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3332616950200093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21056799310232266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23613712404662615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Tbb95,2019/02/17,Hi. Had drug induced (weed) psychosis last years may and I’m curious about what happens in the next years.. can I relax? Can it happen again? How often does it happen again? (I won’t smoke ever again) how was your diagnosis of schizophrenia? Did it started only with psychosis? Sorry for all the questions but I really want to have some insight...,1.1805729166666694,3.549075078125004,2.3462500000000013,87.74041666666668,102.90625,4.008333333333333,20.95833333333333,5.985473137389443,0.6000145833333339,271,10,46,3,12,86,51,64,0.018000000000000002,0.8809999999999999,0.101,0.6485,0,0,2,0,0,0,15.0,0,1,0,0,8,1,0,0,2,0,8,1,0,3,2,14,14,4,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,4,2,0,0,3,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,0,4,1,6,9,2,10,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,4,9,35,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20761435677154305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2751284271527371,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21460133204576207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6293838747175323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1933860215775084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25231233397011416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1804352163804275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26576825892023603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15198497201306665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2655759171334449,0.1679229558853817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13993301763729074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30555550064156256 schizophrenia,justlarry98,2019/02/17,"Does anyone else literally forget how to socialise and speak? I used to be a talkative person. Now I have a hard time even reading,speaking or talking. It feels like I have lead in my mouth. I can't talk to people anymore - my conversations always end awkwardly. I can't present for a class - my tongue feels tied up everytime I speak. Even during my therapy sessions it feels hard to voice out my thoughts now. I feel bad because my therapist is always the one speaking and prompting me and I think she accidentally slip out a ""I'm tired of talking"" during our last session. I feel so many things but it's hard to put things into words now. 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So I came across the subreddit /r/gangstalking and to me it seems like how I felt pre diagnosis. Did anyone else feel this exact same way? I feel like I should try to help them but some are so deep in their psychosis that they treat schizophrenia as just ""being crazy"". What are your thoughts",2.794714285714285,5.638715900000001,1.9128571428571417,96.61500000000002,81.66666666666666,4.761904761904762,21.904761904761905,6.18269132825596,0.1529761904761906,254,8,51,2,7,72,51,60,0.0,0.846,0.154,0.8053,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,1,3,0,4,3,0,0,1,0,5,0,0,1,1,15,12,6,0,1,2,0,3,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,0,6,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,5,3,9,3,6,5,2,6,0,0,0,0,5,4,0,2,2,33,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20316961930413865,0.2977179092759153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3323286505345799,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2427295523874031,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2938365219235632,0.2075795053806992,0.2789877130942345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1947594176284023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2839105059327797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26451922271018524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.461351887808756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19727438250225945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23063676267795905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,MaroonGaka,2019/02/17,"Ask Me About My Hallucinations I've experience visual and auditory hallucinations for about 4 years now. I see 3 main visual hallucinations at the moment and I will be answering questions you have about them. There is Vex, Jeffery, and Nevermore.",6.360714285714287,9.520646738095241,7.890714285714285,57.19178571428574,69.71428571428572,10.866666666666667,31.92857142857143,10.686352973137794,4.54917142857143,201,9,30,7,4,69,33,42,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,1,1,0,5,0,0,0,1,0,4,0,0,0,0,5,6,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,6,0,5,4,1,4,0,0,1,0,4,1,0,1,3,22,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4597142726213004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4810200040684003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5508658366967869,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3918563129257801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3166670226197651 schizophrenia,EitherOther01,2019/02/18,"Am I hearing voices? Is this serious? I'm aware that no one here can tell me what is going on with me. I am curious what the opinion of someone who perhaps is more knowledgeable about or has experienced auditory hallucinations is on this. I'm going to go talk to my counselor, because I have been doing pretty bad in school and in life in general. I think I may be hearing voices. I'm wondering if I actually am, or I'm just being silly. I feel embarrassed to bring up the possibility, but I'm not sure if this may escalate later, making it better to say something now. Probably almost 2 years ago I started to get these thoughts that weren't mine. I'm not a religious person, so I find this strange, but I thought the reason why this was happening was because I was being possessed. There were a few times where they got particularly intrusive and vexing. After a while though I got somewhat used to them and even began taunting them back at times. Recently however, they have decided to evolve ,It sound like they are coming from outside my head. I think. I don't know. It's kind of confusing. Their were a couple of times where they got to me. Again, I think. I can't tell if they are real or not. I was walking around outside and when someone starts saying ""Come here. Come over here."" I got spooked and started walking a little faster. I heard it a few more times and eventually looked up. There was no one following me. On another occasion I was on my way to the kitchen when my dad, so I thought, said ""You're disgusting."" I had no idea why he would say that. I didn't get why he would be so mean. I assumed he was behind me, but again there was no one. I went looking for him and it turns out he was in the garage. I really don't want to ,but is this something I should bring up to the counselor? Should I just wait until she appoints me somewhere, and I should mention this to the person there? I've got no one to talk about this to and I've got no clue what to do. 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I still haven't had an appointment between now and then, my parents say my next appointment isn't for a while, so I'm mainly here to ask questions. In the past month or so, often times, when I'm sitting with friends at school but generally be not talking to them, I'll hear people at school saying really awful things about me right next to me. Insulting everything about me, especially stuff I'm insecure about. It sounds exactly like them too. I'll later find out that they said nothing like that. Not even similar sounds. I don't know if they're just messing with me everyday of my life or if it's my own head messing with me. Do any of you know what this possibly is? I mean, you can never know for sure I guess, but I want to hear your takes. 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I’ve been diagnosed with bipolar disorder and panic disorder a while back but it seems that my condition has worsened over the past few years and continues to. For the past week I’ve been experiencing something new. Never before have my mental conditions been brought into my sleep. But that’s no longer the case. I’ve been getting auditory hallucinations. I’m also seeing visuals as if I was on LSD. Whilst that all is happening my mind is experiencing very vivid and often terrifying or bad dreams and they’re all while I’m very lucid. So that’s how I’m able to dream with my mind “separately” as the visuals play and I am hearing sounds. My significant other said I was clenching my jaw open and close very violently and I was grinding my teeth too which I’ve literally never done before in my life. I’ve also been super anxious and restless and unable to stay asleep for more than a few hours at a time. And whenever I do try to sleep my body jolts awake and I gasp for air really loud like a sort of a tic before I end up being able to sleep at all. I’m not sure what to take from this. 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Don't know why I'm posting this. I just hope someone can relate or feels the same way. I think I show many typical signs of schizophrenia - like constantly having the feeling of being watched, even from people in cars passing by me. I feel like a total stranger to myself, like an alien sometimes; and I'm not even living in reality anymore. Everything just seems like I'm watching a fucking movie or dreaming. But the worst thing is that I can't shut up my brain. It just keep talking and talking to myself up to the point where it's not even full words coming out. My psychiatrist who I first managed to describe my symptoms to last week instantly prescribed me Risperidon. Any experiences with this drug? I smoked a lot of weed over the last 2 years and I feel like that contributed a lot to my state of mind right now. All of these symptoms make me think I may be schizophrenic, but I never had any vivid hallucinations. Do you guys have any experiences with manic states? Is this common for schizophrenia? &#x200B; Thanks in advance and sorry for asking so many questions! I would very much appreciate any personal experiences or advice! 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Many people believe that heavy marijuana use in early teens to age 26 can increase psychosis. What do you guys think and what is your experience?",8.848527131782943,10.987259279069765,7.5627906976744175,66.37038759689926,60.86046511627906,10.38449612403101,39.91472868217054,10.504223727775694,4.731998449612403,211,11,31,5,3,64,39,43,0.0,0.897,0.103,0.5574,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,3,0,8,9,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,5,1,0,0,4,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,4,8,1,5,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,2,16,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3392878221284061,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.309359353852795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29457805668321485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2981813630826633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3053142417308687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20877635237896286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3859237171867512,0.0,0.23907586631516176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5201859958823432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,iamnotagarlicbread,2019/02/18,"anyone else here feel this?? I love my cat, and I care about him, but I frequently crave the blood or want to see the blood of him. I love him. I'd take a bullet just to extend his life, but I just stabbed him with a thumbtack until he was frequently bleeding. He's OK now, but I crave this for humans as well. The auditory hallucinations I hear say nothing, but whisper gibberish, but I think they're encouraging these acts.",4.185714285714287,5.325229952380956,5.181904761904762,82.84642857142858,70.90476190476191,8.457142857142857,27.095238095238088,8.841846274778883,1.8603238095238104,332,11,69,6,6,109,58,84,0.041,0.667,0.292,0.9728,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,0,6,6,0,0,5,1,1,6,2,0,0,13,10,9,0,1,8,0,1,0,0,0,2,3,0,1,3,2,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,5,14,6,8,9,0,5,0,0,1,2,13,0,0,1,4,43,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1948340936309832,0.2855033110272834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2840957350022719,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23277098465228346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1408905834955506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3140516040749817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1968142249736631,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5029734810494318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26736606260425544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2215885857151364,0.0,0.0,0.2220428841741228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20950532003296632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17854357665604675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16435122288985415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2505340726557656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Blockphatass,2019/02/18,Recently dignosesed Hi everyone I have just recently been dignosesed with schizoaffective disorder and dissociative nature. There's so many things in my life that make sense now and I finally understand so much. I'm finally getting the right help i need and am learning more and more every day. I just want say there is hope out there and not to give up on yourself.,6.218955223880595,8.143363134328357,6.0151044776119456,75.80414925373138,66.91044776119404,10.733134328358213,34.295522388059695,10.793553405168565,4.185778507462687,298,14,51,9,5,93,51,67,0.041,0.856,0.104,0.4939,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,8,1,0,0,1,0,4,1,0,1,0,16,12,7,0,3,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,7,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,5,1,6,11,3,11,0,0,0,0,4,5,0,1,6,35,7,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14080509883396225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2502256475918365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18395284756761826,0.20862413185985865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4783407421546626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11406866556567705,0.20944249278493496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1463423198486244,0.0,0.0,0.21685143188809347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15421327620766034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14573729207215438,0.22135284038307385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1604980256676919,0.161889285917712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4311500226994349,0.0,0.0,0.186453038656197,0.0,0.17362516239832712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14504907080319274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2272897315581669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12877697500763174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,jrt364,2019/02/18,"I can't shake this feeling that someone is watching me I know I'm feeling paranoid, but I don't know what to do, so I'm asking for advice. Last night, I heard some voices. One of them said, ""[my name], are you there?"" and my bedroom door was open. I freaked out, slammed the door shut, and locked it. Now I can't stop feeling like someone is watching me. I just have a gut feeling that someone is in here or watching me outside the window, even though I KNOW it isn't true. What do I do to get rid of this feeling?",1.1091666666666669,2.8557575092592637,2.388666666666669,97.17300000000004,80.3888888888889,4.32,25.61481481481481,3.1291,0.12724148148148196,393,16,90,0,10,126,65,108,0.096,0.784,0.12,-0.317,0,0,0,0,0,0,20.0,0,1,1,0,7,4,0,1,3,0,13,1,1,0,1,19,27,6,0,0,3,0,5,1,0,0,0,3,4,0,8,4,0,1,8,0,0,1,4,2,0,1,3,11,16,2,7,24,1,9,0,0,3,0,6,4,0,2,5,60,24,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2018728439365803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1931294447872531,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13644769617096453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5222788805788874,0.14758463786819934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10793233537085817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34060176910200823,0.16839465855957192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10092718240228184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19386638612180487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13998760102057062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1965100054452823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5251173702169765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1727146292699182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20296908849696188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,iamugis,2019/02/18,"F33d Your Head // Full D0cumentary d0wnl0ad, only for r/schizophrenia :) DL: [https://dl.ugjka.net/FeedYourHead.mp4](https://dl.ugjka.net/FeedYourHead.mp4) &#x200B; Runtime: **43m 16s** | Release date: **2010** What causes mental illness? Do our thoughts, moods, and behaviours depend upon what we eat? Psychiatrists Abram Hoffer and Humphry Osmond met in Saskatchewan in 1951. They set out to prove that the symptoms of schizophrenia could be controlled with healthy, unprocessed food and large doses of vitamins. Sixty years later, it looks like they may have been right. **Featuring:** Abram Hoffer Margot Kidder Humphry Osmond",8.082758620689653,10.367949597701156,4.213177011494253,71.05452413793108,116.24137931034485,4.610390804597702,27.617931034482762,6.152001189255117,2.2520284137931026,513,21,57,7,25,136,76,87,0.029,0.879,0.092,0.7059,0,0,0,0,0,0,54.0,2,1,2,1,0,2,0,0,1,0,6,7,1,3,1,13,9,3,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,4,0,0,0,4,6,2,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,5,1,9,3,1,10,0,0,1,0,6,6,0,2,4,29,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27059929727937865,0.3034682893873644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25655756852934003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2801109722687873,0.1994015720548785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2555521394314583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30199341998669343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25631107890487803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12201310487196675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20972343808185506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2516848649529098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18994281366827506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2132814125105504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25958134651188897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1982701418010131,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3034682893873644,0.1608280043328959 schizophrenia,Chef_Zed,2019/02/18,"Schizophrenia compared to LSD First off I want it to be clear that I realize that these 2 things are entirely different. One is a drug, one is a disorder. I am curious if anyone in this community has done LSD and how the hallucinations compare to schizophrenia. LSD usually just makes you see patterns swirling and things like that, nothing major. However, with enough you can have auditory hallucinations as well, and see things that may not actually be there. How close is this to schizophrenia?",6.493596059113301,8.919992448275869,6.4824302134646965,70.72344827586207,67.04597701149426,10.488669950738917,35.41707717569786,10.608840637214634,4.372942200328406,401,20,66,12,7,127,61,87,0.031,0.847,0.122,0.7269,2,0,1,0,0,0,10.0,0,2,0,1,5,2,0,0,3,0,12,1,0,3,1,15,16,7,0,2,3,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,11,5,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,3,1,2,5,2,8,12,2,5,0,0,2,0,2,3,0,2,3,53,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.21630826146996174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15498988052913873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2315876037735344,0.2540416533427819,0.0,0.0,0.22683521873130394,0.0,0.0,0.2570553182916675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22903411425173065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18854394927959345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10829191772421774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14795982341547095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2126888232357604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30040521118892377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3532687677924967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.44178331978323737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24412726023445275,0.0,0.1307408571354145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1992990306046762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Margaretulu,2019/02/18,"I need advice: My boyfriend and his schizophrenia. Hi, Reddit. I live with my boyfriend of almost 3 years who has schizophrenia and he's been having more memory issues lately. I think it's always been a problem, but it's getting worse. It has always been a variable depending on his medication. He has been unmedicated for about a year now. He has a tendency to take my clothes- random things that I haven't worn in a while, or take things out of the dirty laundry and hides them. I keep finding things in his usual hiding spots that I check daily (now), but he continually says he doesn't remember doing it and doesn't know why he does it. I've recently found a stash of cups hidden in our room that have gone moldy and gross because they weren't taken to the sink. I'm not sure how long they sat there, but the cups are all ruined. I know that it's just clothes and cups. It's just things. But it feels more personal than that. Whenever I confront him about it, he says he doesn't remember. After it happens, it's like it's gone forever from his memory. I don't know why and I know I certainly don't understand it. I've been doing some reading about memory loss in people with schizophrenia, and I understand it's an issue. But it's becoming so frustrating finding items of mine that have been taken and hidden, not having any idea what's happening in-between or the why of it all. He was diagnosed a long time ago and I have been diagnosed as bipolar disorder type 2 and bpd for about 2 and a half years. I follow subreddits about each of them to help me understand the struggles that other people with the same diagnoses and how they cope. I am trying to get a better understanding of myself and how my issues are playing into my feelings about the situation. It's incredibly frustrating, but I love him so very much and we've been together for a long time, through some really trying and tumultuous stuff. I, by no means, intend to end the relationship over these frustrating finds, but it's getting harder and harder to be understanding when it continually happens. I feel like I find new things that have been hidden every single day. I have tried appealing to him emotionally, I've cried, I've yelled, I've expressed how upset and frustrated this makes me. But it keeps happening. And I don't know what to do. &#x200B; Does anyone have any advice on how to help me with this situation?",4.791826825557809,6.247531648706904,5.626749492900611,79.02849391480731,69.79741379310343,9.079513184584178,27.655679513184584,9.478462496947786,2.4451934077079107,1911,65,359,42,34,625,206,464,0.141,0.7929999999999999,0.066,-0.9887,0,0,0,0,0,0,54.0,1,0,5,2,19,18,5,2,19,0,37,6,0,8,4,84,75,39,0,2,14,0,3,2,0,0,5,3,1,1,41,26,0,2,23,2,1,3,11,11,0,1,18,6,44,7,44,56,11,35,0,2,0,1,32,10,0,7,24,243,85,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14113451456771162,0.06401387296991365,0.0,0.07231247611925305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12017664044488224,0.07824447334411874,0.08774862580385732,0.0982167891252236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05049411733553173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.044021341120029374,0.07975533620114719,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06386793252139504,0.0,0.0,0.09095174259207628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0793243313635919,0.04657243355877943,0.0,0.0,0.21988885288579565,0.0,0.0,0.0827641714943529,0.0,0.12639094103632328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08123168900062794,0.06396068843127355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0608439029711102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10954159287906907,0.05159011439330463,0.0,0.0,0.26401129190238953,0.0,0.0,0.07917956575105037,0.0,0.0,0.11318742131193528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2554364782719744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09680782904068813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08152147717101506,0.0,0.226119796334572,0.0,0.12837528351075886,0.0,0.0,0.1984362384002206,0.0,0.08146119802091822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07056079766483044,0.0,0.06376680213156423,0.19172290742931766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06517648296420156,0.0,0.04820379665419994,0.0,0.0,0.07866285416714852,0.0,0.07274859764850236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05308602954455606,0.053546200206652884,0.0,0.06974529678560354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10012900200381364,0.06305499071356989,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06909960564179925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07223412790856255,0.0,0.04626251270582588,0.0,0.07130319126338497,0.07753143939747678,0.16361009622182027,0.0,0.0,0.11485587392632113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1623444398100709,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0754943643534965,0.08266842334220825,0.0,0.0,0.0680613923186664,0.0,0.10859276233449168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23988080931324235,0.04627219056563655,0.0,0.0,0.0842178112141343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14708689003032566,0.0,0.0,0.3758896520525836,0.0,0.0,0.07953416365633513,0.05958459605651209,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1954872937748236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07359283220746309,0.0,0.0,0.08774862580385732,0.13951147646574533 schizophrenia,Wyvernrider,2019/02/18,"Research survey for those who suffer from bipolar disorder or schizophrenia - $5 compensation for estimated 20 minutes As a physician, I was contacted by a company I frequently work with for physician research surveys looking for patients who suffer from bipolar disorder or schizophrenia, particularly those who are being treated with Vraylar (cariprazine) but open to all. They estimate 20 minutes to complete and offer compensation of $5 expected to be sent within 6 weeks of survey closure. I'm not sure what exactly the research study survey entails, but I have had good experiences with this survey company. Here is the link: [Http://m3gr.io/CHBKVK/5986804](http://m3gr.io/CHBKVK/5986804)",13.130597484276734,14.641743632075471,10.447169811320755,51.627861635220135,51.35849056603774,12.727044025157234,50.68553459119497,12.161744961471696,7.156130817610062,579,35,63,15,6,172,71,106,0.101,0.863,0.036000000000000004,-0.5849,0,0,0,0,0,0,28.0,0,0,1,1,1,5,0,0,4,0,7,4,0,0,3,15,10,6,0,1,5,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,7,5,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,3,1,4,3,17,5,1,5,0,2,1,0,7,2,0,2,2,47,11,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31932914693929304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.698112558599753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2979216484142972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2554535032810741,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2557567232270201,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2870475948441515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24430255420895444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22172593292894308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Premedpotato,2019/02/18,Does anyone else struggle with social skills? I want to know if this is a schizophrenic thing or something else. I feel like my social skills were good prior to developing this disorder. ,5.621818181818185,8.414216030303034,5.148484848484848,77.7427272727273,70.51515151515152,8.036363636363637,26.15151515151515,8.841846274778883,2.310260606060606,151,5,24,3,3,46,27,33,0.146,0.6729999999999999,0.18,0.0708,0,0,1,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,2,0,3,0,1,1,0,2,1,0,0,0,6,5,2,0,2,2,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,3,2,3,4,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,2,2,14,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18023233013699966,0.2641063791727105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2954161844470706,0.0,0.22556819500194544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4306521119617161,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13033159486891005,0.18414435224906264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2161975123160572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14165858328738834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1259288967757518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5255093078722337,0.0,0.19843684097263387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2694675324103085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1712448083026568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15203398599429369,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,alfredostein,2019/02/19,"Recently diagnosed Title says it all. I go back to my follow up appointments from my voluntary psych ward visit. I have a lot of questions. What does it mean to dissociate? Like explain that out forther to me. Is that when everything gets all dreamy? How do you figure out what your demons are? What kinds of questions should I ask tomorrow? Right now I'm on the invega shot, but I think I'm gonna ask for pill form. I just want to feel like I'm in control. Hello and good night. 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I'm back in school and looking forward to graduation, trying to to focus on life goals. That said, I'm in nursing school and we're taking Psych Nursing this semester. This class is stirring up all kinds of emotional turmoil in me which lead to me seeking out schizophrenia and schizoaffective disorder forums for support. As I read these forums, I see that I am doing so much better than the average person with schiz-disorders. I'm in school and doing well (enough to graduate) and will be gainfully employed a year from now. Lots of people are on disability and/or working only part-time. I should be grateful that I'm doing as well as I am, and I shouldn't be taking up space with my own relatively minor problems. Does anyone else feel this way? 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I'm undiagnosed, and not very knowledgeable about the... Issue? But my life in the past few months has left me on shaky ground, and I have a strong family history of schizophrenia. How can I talk to someone about it? How do you bring it up to a doctor?",2.519423076923076,4.760595173076926,3.4429230769230803,88.90207692307693,78.03846153846155,7.236923076923077,20.015384615384615,8.238735603445708,0.8954184615384619,207,5,43,4,5,66,43,52,0.036000000000000004,0.8390000000000001,0.125,0.6868,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,1,0,1,4,2,0,1,4,0,4,2,0,2,0,8,6,5,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,5,1,8,6,1,8,0,0,0,0,2,5,0,1,2,30,7,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3021703136266223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3165040760641423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29150905957533724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3227497303306093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3359730027621163,0.0,0.21841420035128345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2468198097103441,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29518949246324305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3394353180481107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2620046648425541,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2485427022208033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2551423531353673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,lucyhorror,2019/02/19,"Scared to seek help Hello first time poster here... I believe that I may have some form of schizophrenia it runs in the family (particularly my mothers side) and all the symptoms I’m dealing with seem to add up. I’m just scared to seek professional help, I’m worried I’ll tell them my symptoms and they’ll just tell me I’m crazy and lock me in a mental hospital. I’ve never seen anyone for mental health issues so I’m sure I’m overthinking it all",1.5976923076923093,4.014954318681319,3.1304285714285736,88.82707142857143,82.73626373626374,5.837802197802197,21.18791208791209,7.1686216300943375,0.6543221978021978,357,11,73,5,10,117,59,91,0.115,0.797,0.08800000000000001,-0.3446,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,2,1,4,3,0,2,3,0,3,3,0,0,4,14,11,4,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,0,3,5,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,2,0,1,1,1,8,1,9,8,4,8,0,0,1,0,9,4,0,3,3,38,11,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13313876350787918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21452632481869052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1963038540920847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17950114928362662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1619622402977334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2023964156300818,0.0,0.0,0.2552549749649693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1987380687575254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3837760223858113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14685556006843312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3812662931208179,0.0,0.0,0.17334167557295793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17945871903686944,0.3958167952154168,0.0,0.0,0.3328526259436901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11102932224641256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19337011008670096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,lil_vort,2019/02/19,friend says she see hands she's struggling with depression and today she started panicking for no reason. she said she saw black smoke and friends trying to grab her. idk if it was really a hallucination but how can I help her? need a response asap. ,1.969696048632219,4.813222382978722,3.0966565349544086,84.82000000000002,91.12765957446808,6.089969604863223,21.60790273556231,7.447530270364453,1.3214583586626136,200,7,36,4,7,64,40,47,0.174,0.677,0.149,0.1779,0,0,1,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,1,2,0,2,1,1,2,0,8,7,5,0,2,2,0,2,0,2,0,0,2,0,0,1,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,3,7,8,2,3,4,0,2,0,1,3,0,12,0,0,1,2,22,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2630408722939972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4719031026969499,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2047034157551372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2264504883877388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1956472832030502,0.3140024221826331,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29050566700031644,0.24286661466581946,0.0,0.0,0.24336453710359246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2161639382581591,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3192707533381073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2894838204546639,0.0,0.0,0.2073467893411325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,PilotCat1,2019/02/19,"Dealing with coincidences I find myself getting very afraid of any and all coincidences that occur in my life, because they make the world just seem like something is out of place. Usually, it involves instances where I am thinking of something and the person next to me blurts out that same thought. These can be real insignificant thoughts, sometimes, to the point that I feel too embarrassed to even mention them to my therapist. Still, I remain afraid. What can I do to overcome this issue? Does anyone else face similar fears?",7.996129032258064,9.350298666666667,6.695860215053768,74.66379032258067,62.33333333333333,9.210752688172043,37.00537634408602,9.2995712137729,3.5713311827957,428,20,68,7,6,128,72,93,0.085,0.888,0.026,-0.6767,0,0,2,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,2,0,5,5,0,4,3,0,6,2,1,1,1,16,13,2,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,7,5,0,0,6,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,2,1,11,1,12,10,2,10,0,0,0,0,6,7,0,1,4,48,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13234786988933644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13608241382803662,0.1994105805428247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11863818352847175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20064406191527145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1703127537404927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16257954072764175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12854428218846806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2190009392078695,0.09840541935144224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1778786112904988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10168060703486108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2031320961941024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1374654420639407,0.09508121118403047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12990996477451913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2069799462299566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16993415853155172,0.2033358566801949,0.0,0.1839782452567805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22151949168109245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17717419786288266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2996550540232148,0.1924835689764629,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1554233090617223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2259681306990045,0.0,0.12470425700167187,0.0,0.30901213839040825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21434578012777952,0.16058139217403333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,frasierCrane009,2019/02/19,"Starting Olanzapine Hi, everyone. I'm starting olanzapine and hydroxyzine today. Is there anything I should expect? (Besides getting fat, which I hope to death I do not.) Abilify made me incredibly anxious and restless which was terrible. Risperidone was fine and helped me but my psychiatrist said it would mess with prolactin and changed it, I hope my other psych doesn't get upset. Does it take awhile to kick in? I'm stopping risperidone today as well, under the orders of my psych.",4.958222222222221,8.113739776470588,5.168627450980393,74.82771241830069,74.76470588235293,7.5424836601307215,32.97385620915033,8.515128840125781,3.307287581699347,391,20,59,8,9,123,61,85,0.14300000000000002,0.721,0.136,0.2518,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,0,0,2,8,0,2,1,0,7,1,1,1,0,14,18,6,1,5,2,0,0,0,0,2,1,1,0,0,6,5,1,1,0,0,0,0,2,4,1,0,4,1,9,4,7,12,0,8,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,2,5,38,15,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2512718779858896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18303313640869204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2352914181296568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19464169581662785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21253233837191168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2324110831427891,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14908378605544614,0.0,0.0,0.4418275248180109,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2104596738181888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21157284819700414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3148607775331988,0.0,0.0,0.18595351395530446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16723255037814028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4216572918040646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19998275900704235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1580011557696942,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Sr-Face,2019/02/19,"Weird question This question has nothing to do with my ilness (as far as I know) but I was wondering if you guys can relate. Why am I only attracted to people who don't show interest in me. For example, I was at a bar and I looked at this girl and I thought she was cute and wanted to meet her, but then she started to look at me and giving me a smile and then I no longer felt attracted, I almost wanted to ignore her. Because of this I allways thought I was asexual but I don't think it applies because there was attraction at first and I feel attracted to people that show no interest in me so I don't know... Can you tell me what is this or if you have the same thing?",0.9556539235412488,2.896803760563383,3.1572635814889334,90.49211267605637,81.8169014084507,6.592354124748491,23.523138832997986,7.7094869923839395,1.1344772635814886,522,19,115,9,14,178,78,142,0.106,0.727,0.16699999999999998,0.9043,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,3,0,1,2,9,0,0,3,0,15,1,0,0,0,28,29,17,0,4,6,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,9,7,1,1,10,3,0,0,5,2,0,1,8,4,26,7,17,21,1,11,0,0,2,0,15,7,0,7,4,90,35,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1934982455879676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2355901147986613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0977060814331035,0.0,0.1855371553949412,0.0,0.0,0.16436670151706773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1853698707354094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1913343215860344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21239523828887516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3245396552041507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1854154453557545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14696491679758888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2679314450283847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4329377695017344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13677365059417146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16889704698171046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1283776140531741,0.12381802110049585,0.0,0.3068160814351346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22795155742702075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17436570842808666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2095565288422275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,NaloxoneRescue,2019/02/19,"I'm a psych nurse. What can I do better? What do you want to see change in a psych hospital setting? I'm an RN at a psych facility. I'm just looking for tips or advice on things I can improve on. I do have some questions: When a patient is psychotic and confused and asks where they are and why are they here, what's the best way to answer? What does catatonia feel like? How can I help? How can I make the experience of being in an acute psych setting less scary? What things should I never say? What things do you wish you heard more often?",0.9832738095238084,3.183568874999999,2.483928571428571,93.87773809523813,83.46428571428572,5.519047619047619,20.047619047619047,6.816661863887847,0.19455119047619096,422,12,94,5,12,137,70,112,0.046,0.778,0.17600000000000002,0.9319,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,3,2,2,7,4,0,1,8,0,14,0,0,3,1,18,25,7,0,3,2,0,1,1,0,1,0,2,0,0,9,3,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,5,11,3,9,22,4,11,0,0,2,0,10,6,0,5,3,67,20,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2220716364164768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2124533989206821,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23849083286642636,0.20098919577547647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24040639381856665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1988729914162048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22229967808146947,0.0,0.0,0.11490730839691952,0.1623515149547328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15232470298877876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11102565415891293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1908375492118472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15169494205259784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17527360297478872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25457838993814863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18072285119615905,0.0,0.0,0.18109336717980992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4529357601768748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1340412977607672,0.18038499396339444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20506291868752813,0.0,0.2613328355117457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,RandomKevin,2019/02/19,Do any of you get shots over your regular pills? I was told once a month and dont have to worry about taking pills no more. Seem like a relief for me. Dont have to worry about taking it ever day. Does it feel any difference?,0.4437500000000014,2.431647541666667,2.4123333333333328,94.86600000000004,84.0,5.506666666666668,13.766666666666666,6.742157984588678,-0.6482133333333331,174,2,40,2,5,58,36,48,0.043,0.738,0.22,0.8448,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,2,0,0,3,2,0,0,2,0,6,2,0,0,1,4,12,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,2,1,4,2,7,10,1,4,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,1,4,25,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2960689207494141,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1403899502644246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22743633005692002,0.0,0.0,0.1904991490681756,0.0,0.5102545187338817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1969101355962592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1100689657024184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1137323464711924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1063507542748566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17375549354441133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2318292929584288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1981738489246864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3273467014338968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2080090262235579,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4421429394426609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,zweiundsiebzig,2019/02/19,"Not sure what these symptoms are called So one symptom I had is hearing someone talk. Sometimes it's clear, sometimes muffled. Often it's coming from birds, cows, cats or trees. When it happens I sometimes can't distinguish it from real voices, so I check if the radio is still on or I ask other people if they need help. I thought this was called hearing voices, but my therapist said it's not and people in psychosis hear voices in their head and that I just hear animals. &#x200B; The other one is feeling Tetris blocks rotating in my head, a dagger stabbed through the skull into the mouth, electric current flowing through the body and brain hemispheres tearing apart like a piece of cloth. I think this is called cenesthopathy, but I'm not sure.",7.757859712230218,8.088488194244608,6.466825539568343,79.64541816546766,62.7410071942446,8.388848920863309,36.79946043165468,7.6454224807358475,2.822402158273382,605,27,103,5,8,180,91,139,0.075,0.862,0.064,-0.3557,1,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,0,2,0,6,3,0,0,7,0,8,8,6,0,3,26,21,12,0,3,10,0,1,1,0,0,2,8,0,0,12,5,0,1,4,1,1,2,4,0,0,2,4,9,11,3,10,17,1,11,0,0,0,0,13,6,0,5,4,69,23,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1281836610124997,0.14375379657660875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11059941461221393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1314104341022054,0.0,0.13206775611371913,0.3624085837299693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10190947520311357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05981867603873507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1046169190667274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.242830582210789,0.0,0.5333543434206787,0.0,0.07929749802604001,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05779795672508066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08772182471738689,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16033336338639073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16403589291129772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.134657245469503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11253535985479966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10023963256471123,0.0,0.351020675424228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0944787048813598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.223002547480766,0.2459288524470524,0.0,0.0950892579039582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1373614836911336,0.0,0.07580521072313119,0.0,0.0939211332070894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14375379657660875,0.0 schizophrenia,goatsoapings,2019/02/19,"hppd? schizophrenia? pleasee help hi, i posted in this community a while ago, i was really panicked and basically spilled my whole life story when i wrote it. its really long but to ""summarize"", i was severely depressed and anxious my whole life, i tried to kill myself and it didn't go well, i came out of it feeling completely different, after this happened i did copious amounts of awful shitty drugs like dxm and vicodin and other things i dont want to mention but i tapered off them and was clean for 2 years (i didn't mention the 2 years in my last post) this summer i ate an edible and it was a really shitty experience (this is important) about a month after that experience i had to take a blood test because i was sick and i passed out during the test, which is normal for people, but the next day i was taking a bath and i felt the way i did during the test, like i was about to pass out, my vision going all blurry and dark, and i freaked out. the next three months after that consisted of me constantly having like, weed visuals like colors and the same awful anxious feeling in my chest, i'd get dxm visuals like geometry in my eyes and i couldnt sleep and was convinced i was going to die every time i drifted off. if i closed my eyes too long the blackness would slowly change colors and get whiter and whiter and it would be accompanied with that same drifting feeling and it literally would keep me jolting awake for hours. it felt like i was tripping everyday and i was 100% convinced that whenever the visuals got worse, if i didn't stop moving i would die, i would come home from class and end up walking miles past my house because i would be so scared that if i didn't stop walking i would literally fucking die. and im scared still. i feel like i've gotten used to the feelings but things are escalating again and im so fuckinv scared all the time im scared all the fucking time and things are getting worse again i see different things now the geometry in my eyes start to become like animal shapes when i stare at them for too long and i have to force myself to look away so that they dont fully form, im scared if i let them form then itlll take up my vision and ill die. I started off typing this somewhat calm but typing it all out is fucking making me so goddamn anxious and i just want to know what this is i did so much research and a couple days ago i found out theres this phenomenon called hallucinogen persisting perception disorder and that was very inline for what i was feeling and seeing about a month ago but now things are different, i dont feel real, i get extremely paranoid doing anything i cant go outside i cant do anything without thinking im going to die and it isn't totally because of the visuals anymore. im scared to drink the tap water in my house because im afraid its been laced i cant go out to eat im afraid the foods laced i cantdo FUCKING ANYTHING ANYMORE I JUST WANT TO KNOW WHAT THIS IS AND EVERYONE KEEPS TELLING ME ITS SOMETHING I KNOW IT ISNT i just want a fucking answer just an explanation please. please. and to everyone who responded to that last post thank you but the situation is different now and i need someone to tell me what the fuck is going on in my brain ",4.1837824328323885,5.432974149922725,5.2445657535598045,81.9803275346115,71.02472952086553,8.22663027393206,28.44911046071887,8.656518465578396,2.0997283633134924,2573,95,504,44,47,848,262,647,0.201,0.7020000000000001,0.097,-0.9982,4,0,3,0,0,1,37.0,0,1,4,1,24,31,7,8,28,2,55,24,7,2,5,106,111,53,6,18,16,0,9,8,0,7,6,0,3,0,41,44,5,4,16,2,0,17,14,17,1,1,30,19,75,14,58,70,14,89,0,1,10,6,15,25,6,5,51,338,116,7,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12405745796458333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15810395419650494,0.09252869889891743,0.0,0.0,0.11516713627948268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0438292908455617,0.0,0.0,0.113749836239599,0.05152135419601569,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05207692339853517,0.047634952969712034,0.05335526995521947,0.0,0.0,0.049349604756129255,0.040184917877817736,0.048911726970540366,0.05041216955409802,0.0,0.0,0.051617432179047566,0.0,0.0601708916153442,0.0,0.04017965018455477,0.0,0.2420771176519113,0.19495764104867594,0.05346503942439661,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16402065791647413,0.04569932380373304,0.054099288624021705,0.04773468355483761,0.0,0.0,0.041318129171665975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.039304708938052095,0.08915231146059191,0.0,0.0912654699110423,0.0,0.0,0.16511379394013775,0.033326830319752115,0.08958279535867654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056409468419161425,0.05114941076617141,0.0,0.25876351337056913,0.09749097680834537,0.0,0.18558623002920835,0.0,0.037310334848316716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0412525164411631,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03126856889157521,0.0,0.04679383925603476,0.0,0.04594093715954276,0.10765587034651007,0.0,0.0,0.4031207792800727,0.0,0.0,0.08292947866322957,0.05161140769268162,0.0,0.07691300076642935,0.0760520917845027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.047702872945546065,0.06590066982787511,0.1823270026559469,0.0,0.0,0.12385157271788567,0.03917432259867661,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.031139294237945026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11170695925818801,0.0495816580426862,0.03429318038516256,0.0345904472114563,0.0,0.0,0.0992257900800053,0.0,0.04570717892575325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04453278506660956,0.032341295412016864,0.0,0.0,0.10241556998872517,0.0,0.0,0.1340336595708526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05309801017089135,0.08965571772288185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2802292418579479,0.0,0.0743481564889229,0.0,0.0,0.05270131806550165,0.0,0.0,0.05243665053403727,0.046683775518169116,0.0,0.039526465960963736,0.03591351484588507,0.0,0.0,0.06603834108351789,0.0,0.03725481844836374,0.07800312046783467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10522517560295774,0.0,0.08154846162344409,0.04294913098533187,0.0,0.0,0.15496121927546572,0.02989149106644233,0.0,0.0,0.08160611981310004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.031672345783987865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04029069569020847,0.0,0.03849120603431075,0.11006171608704736,0.03702866639540591,0.0,0.0,0.04194402921061685,0.0,0.0,0.10416630872220728,0.0,0.04496901759839462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09508084487001682,0.2319721754052473,0.0,0.0,0.06008225100886633 schizophrenia,badatlife666,2019/02/19,Anyone get voices right when they're waking up? I hear voices in my head as if I'm wearing headphones and it's audible but only lasts a few minutes. It doesn't always happen but anyone else experience the same? I usually forget what the voices say but it's usually just random things.,2.581309523809523,5.1785183214285695,4.696428571428573,78.01523809523812,80.07142857142857,6.590476190476192,21.833333333333336,7.793537801064563,1.4699976190476192,230,7,38,4,6,79,44,56,0.055,0.945,0.0,-0.4039,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,3,0,1,3,3,0,0,9,5,7,0,1,5,0,0,0,0,0,0,6,0,0,5,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,6,3,0,3,5,2,7,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,2,4,24,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20404799890953734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3429359835947185,0.2512634133021172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2048551798260523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2398784620334265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1281206660181391,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21685288441642195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25167302118379964,0.0,0.2763879609975669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19989223557905805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18650571786554374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20942199485961005,0.0,0.19501386584708744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1629175152041849,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5401644405748551,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,rdalt19,2019/02/19,"Need advice - friend showing schizo like symptoms Hi There, &#x200B; recently my friend has been showing symptoms such as - 1. social withdrawl - he stays in the room for the whole day, except for couple of things where he attends school classes for couple of hours and a probable walk for few mins. 2. He is struggling to talk - talks very few words with great difficulty, it takes a long time for him to speak/respond to a question 3. gets irritated if he doesnt find the required thing, even for simple things like earphones/headset 4. smiles in between conversation without proper context 5. &#x200B; &#x200B; we have consulted a local doctor, where they say its probably schizophrenia. is this schizophrenia or bpd? what is his condition? they also said **Electroconvulsive therapy** (**ECT**) might improve the condition. Is it good to take? we are unable to identify how critical is his condition. Need advice. &#x200B; Thanks &#x200B; ",4.816605293440734,8.362275746835447,4.164073647871117,77.9998849252014,82.67088607594937,6.417031070195629,31.23245109321059,7.686295010490155,2.9245341772151905,760,38,108,14,22,227,113,158,0.06,0.7829999999999999,0.158,0.9541,0,0,0,0,0,0,54.0,2,0,2,1,7,8,0,1,8,0,11,3,0,1,0,16,18,6,0,3,4,0,0,2,2,1,3,2,1,0,8,4,0,1,2,2,0,2,2,1,0,0,2,2,8,7,20,15,3,15,0,0,0,0,22,6,0,4,8,68,16,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15515636808220362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06348749542171787,0.0,0.4300906955241565,0.4823326925250072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09998788811197336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17568522663331448,0.0,0.051199450863333336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0812581857164265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05243580205795729,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07256026867299806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1226717609986766,0.0,0.04147756782986052,0.0,0.0,0.06658787429467923,0.0,0.0875268468870459,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07818234669853791,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07757108265254181,0.0,0.0,0.07025692259144219,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08421937004420982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11773213624057755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17118991848733967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08893404626635934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07838723378886743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07551728638222044,0.06313345926012208,0.0,0.08034608457000753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08092726729002529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08461829862603971,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08299480406788362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1650315030214283,0.11938156060153612,0.12762002503517592,0.0,0.07309088705428475,0.0907884416728584,0.0,0.15822792288475634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04629246699803073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06550438456596101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08863517993270731,0.0,0.07652833272340091,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4823326925250072,0.0 schizophrenia,hucow-cutie,2019/02/19,"Anyone randomly make bird noises or similar things? Whenever I notice my other schizophrenia symptoms getting bad I notice I do weird things like make bird noises, scream or laugh. No reason, it just happens without thought",6.4904054054054034,10.081996351351354,5.558040540540541,71.68949324324326,71.97297297297297,6.943243243243244,33.57432432432432,8.07648339933343,3.4510594594594597,183,9,22,3,4,55,29,37,0.229,0.633,0.138,-0.4588,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,1,5,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,3,0,9,6,2,0,0,4,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,4,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,1,1,4,2,1,5,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,14,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18108788869371786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21624112579588586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1353086407793054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22901901739492736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12652667823423194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3457481474574802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5897108289198504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2662790595336068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26918391708974976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3441154066167453,0.0,0.0,0.2056046558395228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24965168460179304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,bobobmaxification,2019/02/19,"Long time on injections (abilify) no more symptoms I used to post on here fairly often, but it’s been over a year. I’ve been on injections since December of 2016. I don’t hallucinate anymore although I get paranoid sometimes. I occasionally still have intrusive sexual thoughts. Anyone, I thought I would see if anyone wants to chat about life, the illness and everything.",5.47909090909091,8.236038727272732,6.042424242424243,71.3336363636364,70.81818181818181,9.854545454545457,35.24242424242424,10.125756701596842,4.418442424242425,300,16,47,9,6,97,54,66,0.126,0.8740000000000001,0.0,-0.7684,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,2,0,5,3,0,1,0,9,11,4,0,3,2,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,4,1,6,0,8,6,1,9,0,0,1,0,1,4,0,2,4,31,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2551393022110774,0.3597735270272724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23121459936123756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13441116156799532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1817149826508948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2276728137108861,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24639025356563926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20500814334357514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21281356051953293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25444321039516965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20545341058561245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26739846592997424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40848183022181184,0.1500142025341683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22219571022453707,0.0,0.0,0.1517424851790038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18275478595005445,0.0,0.0,0.16567123260232394 schizophrenia,idkthrowthekwhdjsn,2019/02/19,"Music I think I'm skitzoaffective. Music just randomly plays in my head for no reason. It's usually clips. Right now I can hear the full house song. If I focus on it I can almost hear it. I don't hear it like I would hear someone else's voice next to me, but it is louder than my own thoughts. Does it get worse from here? It seems like these past few years have been ramping up. 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I've had auditory hallucinations (like the ones that are inside of your head) at night for about two years now, and recently im starting to hear them in the middle of the day. The first time i heard them in the day was when i was doing my makeup, i heard a man yell ""its not going to work!"" and a woman replay ""It has to work!"" A week or two later (about three nights ago) I was imagining a conversation with my friend when i heard ""Shut up!"" For the past few months i've been dealing with a lot of depersonalization and feeling as if i'm in a simulation and people around me know what im thinking and doing all of the time. I don't feel that way 24/7 bubt the more i think about it the more i believe it. I recently told my mom and she got very upset, because her cousin has paranoid schizophrenia, so obviously she assumes this is the case. I have no idea if i even have the symptoms or it i could even qualify as a person with hallucinations. I have a psych eval in two weeks, but i was wondering if anyone had any thoughts about my situation. 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Here are some examples from my episode. I was either absurdly strong or weak. I could pick my girlfriend up as if she weighed nothing and then other times I could barely stand. Along the same lines I would either move really fast or really slow. Also my pain threshold was off the charts, got ran over and didn't even feel any pain till I was out of psychosis, attempted to punch my way out of my front door again couldn't feel it. Also I could barely eat even when I wanted to like my muscles for swallowing just wouldn't work (Sometimes I didn't want to because I believed I had to fast or my food was poisoned). Also I was really flexible, far more than I am now or was before. These things werent hallucinations or delusions as they were verified by people around me. Interested to hear how others felt and I hope you're all doing okay.",4.077517730496453,5.8583256170212765,4.863957446808513,82.5136666666667,72.08510638297872,7.992056737588652,26.363120567375887,8.648137234880735,1.898392482269504,768,26,147,14,15,248,121,188,0.073,0.804,0.123,0.866,1,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,1,3,14,10,1,0,3,1,19,8,0,3,1,36,30,21,0,10,10,0,3,1,1,2,4,1,1,0,6,7,4,0,3,1,0,3,4,4,0,0,13,4,23,6,25,11,7,24,0,0,0,0,4,9,0,9,11,107,29,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3444864960481729,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09764609065638752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12782549931536885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0875311014360624,0.0,0.12218447248542075,0.16177670379825726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15189912891442298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34393467579509673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14692836724462122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18967961694329832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14520678734165213,0.0,0.13786887096610345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17362953883297425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11484200108534512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12697611954353732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1618363106880764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14261722055941892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07015079709826916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12207504159892207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14470489799062064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15261339384651146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13777843072165652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30557966362675026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29864157729282936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14362880857878044,0.0,0.2759621985140966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14201413322221587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0953947831589741,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08372845520548537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16938614689079762,0.11397501962011848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1045351945479608,0.0,0.0,0.10200218146359816,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,ChickenNuggetKris,2019/02/20,"Natural Remedies for Schizo Symptoms? Hey guys. First post here. First of all, I would like to state I am not against medicine to treat schizophrenia. However I will not be able to see a psychiatrist until March, and I am just suffering in general until then. I know this is a broad question that depends on individual cases, but I hear there are many natural supplements and such that help with the ailments (especially somatic) of schizophrenia. Is there any you all know of that are non narcotic and accesible to the general publoc? Any siccess stories with them? Thanks in advance.",5.166504854368932,8.09994666990292,5.267776699029128,75.6406941747573,72.59223300970874,9.168543689320387,34.571844660194174,9.642632912329526,3.9928881553398057,469,25,77,13,10,147,72,103,0.019,0.826,0.155,0.9259,1,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,1,1,3,5,4,0,0,4,0,9,1,0,1,2,18,14,7,0,1,4,0,0,1,0,2,1,1,0,1,4,5,0,0,3,0,0,1,2,1,0,2,0,2,8,3,16,11,2,13,0,1,1,0,7,4,0,2,7,57,12,0,0.2487728012687555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33834807129121186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.423212035347118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2463241852601673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28038502728636405,0.0,0.16674716478485585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2734380512129978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12153782470034738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2522165740513868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2382555764616397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2786824717511967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19823971388804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2585701939225927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2290365717283299,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17672106038096164,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Trevuh_,2019/02/20,"Handful of Tips Let me start this off by saying that I am a 22 year old male, with bipolar disorder and schizophrenia. Thankfully under proper medication and this is what I do to help myself beyond perscription. &#x200B; 1. Breathing techniques. Deep, slow inhales and exhales every once in a while. Not trying to get high on air. Often there is just a tightness in my chest. So to fight that I will breathe heavily a few times, just enough to ease the mind. 2. Meditation. It is difficult to keep things quiet, and it feels easiest to do in the morning. Couple that with stretching and it will ease the body as well. More often than not it is impossible to meditate in my room so I recommend going outside, and close your eyes and try and focus on consistent breathing. In the mouth and out the nose, or vise versa. 3. Time outdoors. Everyone needs fresh air and at times and it feels good to go on a walk. Getting some sun goes along with that, replenishing vitamin D3. It has a feeling of bringing life into you. Keep that in mind for spring/summer. 4. Friends. Having too many friends can cause some stigma, like coming into delusions. We already are antisocial to begin with, so holding on to people is something I try to stay away from. Though an SO or pet helps greatly from what I have heard. 5. Thinking. Holding on to things that seem so real that it is hard to let go of. Choose the path of least resistance, holding on to these thoughts can cause stronger hallucinations. Everything should blow over with time. 6. Reading. It can help keep thoughts organized, and your mind busy at something more important and interesting. It will keep you sharp too, after school and reading another book it brought a good feeling in to life. Ready to seize the day again! 7. Music. Calming music like jazz or instrumental music gets all the hyping up these outlandish thoughts and will ease the mind. Spotify has many playlists for relaxation, plus the quality is superb. 8. Hobbies. Always have one, reading can be coupled with this one. Art is an outlet that is all over this sub, there are so many beautiful exposes of this life on here. Writing is another good one. Even just keeping a journal can take a load off. 9. Exercise. This is a big one for your mind to be happy the vehicle it drives should be kept up with. Multivitamins made a real impact on my life, in a positive way. Personal routine.. 10 pushups + 10 calve raises upon waking up. (Good way to start the day) 10. Food. A study was recently found that schizophrenia is affected by gut bacteria. So eating less food helps the hallucinations go down, which I did not believe. I fasted for a day and had nearly no hallucinations or delusions and a great day of work on top of that. Snacking around is a good way to go. I hope this can help anyone who is struggling, life is a roller coaster and the ride can be less bumpy if you pick some of these up. I have had my entire world light up because of this sub. Much love!",2.9867412045319037,5.689381679785335,3.6853604651162826,85.23439728682173,79.25044722719142,6.58892069171139,26.31129994036971,7.793537801064563,1.74448190816935,2345,95,432,40,60,741,288,559,0.029,0.7929999999999999,0.17800000000000002,0.998,0,0,2,0,1,0,87.0,1,6,0,3,23,22,1,1,33,0,49,25,11,5,2,90,86,34,0,5,11,0,8,2,2,6,9,3,2,2,38,34,4,10,11,9,0,11,4,3,1,4,12,15,23,19,86,62,13,82,0,0,1,1,22,48,0,12,21,295,61,6,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07148661798905201,0.0,0.0539023583809768,0.07018937503848452,0.07871509567929794,0.0,0.1358554832157096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04529585780856018,0.0,0.0,0.05766815771980933,0.0,0.0,0.06086317837559897,0.0,0.0,0.039489439822564164,0.0,0.0,0.07298515961210156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07195625534732014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13309432491153653,0.0,0.055802450316261167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14335623147878893,0.0,0.16711161137914562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07424378009700329,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06628636931722227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06693531627379705,0.0,0.04278674491672406,0.0,0.0545801555294821,0.06190030605494527,0.058220312664282965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13101936560788224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15666507361780882,0.07102820171646736,0.10009812266310524,0.0,0.101535022533314,0.0,0.18408054790383652,0.27167300586384097,0.0,0.14284091113860947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06895978191572202,0.05803038087775509,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2171041841292262,0.0684438920053661,0.0,0.06434140615786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2878983184019895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13248439156105152,0.2287810357768756,0.06329671705412113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05846670583805009,0.06129663994367252,0.0,0.19703102096138791,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06525928778915288,0.0,0.0,0.3270479343564834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04762093829451262,0.04803373538807308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06797597635367465,0.06898885325872979,0.1755870987771462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04491046954182806,0.056563616599198216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19439334476904824,0.14746821598404128,0.0,0.0,0.06396268284682248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051515855790429485,0.0,0.06556107259987573,0.0,0.058973507656059986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09974200439892206,0.0,0.0,0.09170359034914212,0.0690471284218702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06772238378543392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04870668685083281,0.0,0.0,0.05964095174270706,0.0,0.0,0.08607424074732008,0.041508569214592485,0.06364626783158175,0.15428485012771692,0.1510955415402122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1319446146972994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1542586442323663,0.0,0.0,0.0582452255646207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0471607943544168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07871509567929794,0.04171635782615498 schizophrenia,bigmanbarryscott,2019/02/20,"Having a hard time in school and stuff Pretty much my grades and levels have been going down and my parents and teachers have been really harsh. ive heard im too young in the uk to get a diagnosis or any help and i havent told my parents or any teachers. I am sure i have some type of schizophrenia cos i have had pretty much all the symptoms but i haveent had an serious episode yet, although i have had times where i would run away from teachers cos i thought they were following me down the corridors or because they were staring at me. Some of the nicer teachers who care about the people in the school and not numbers on a page have said ive been acting differently or have asked if anything has been going on outside of school. Also ive been getting into trouble because i cant concentrate on what the teacher is saying and i get stuck on the work.",5.091263213530652,5.655464331395352,5.395391120507401,84.23036997885838,68.47674418604653,7.882452431289643,31.33403805496829,7.686295010490155,1.977306976744186,683,27,136,7,11,217,98,172,0.064,0.8420000000000001,0.094,0.723,3,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,2,1,5,4,0,0,12,0,27,1,0,2,2,23,40,15,0,2,7,2,1,0,0,1,1,3,0,0,3,8,0,0,1,0,0,5,3,2,0,0,15,5,20,2,18,24,6,23,0,0,1,0,11,14,0,7,4,101,23,6,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11947144239618752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20318798145462535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12293967973281213,0.0,0.1396645262480955,0.0,0.14036189021128534,0.0,0.0,0.1821400907679877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15231856059564347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.156086389266189,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2341587814798565,0.0,0.16980969015755767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13382892854225467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10013658330197986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16137266161393735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21964560810161585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3317718099835232,0.0,0.0,0.10357195538270818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3039776480875797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09570651471543223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.142109230644552,0.1188052133914788,0.0,0.4535883429029336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17102198329374976,0.0,0.0,0.14080339057499894,0.15527901656706522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11860325499954145,0.1742273109876285,0.0,0.0,0.1427537009143862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10876162593088556,0.0,0.0,0.10612620134732012,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,marvaden,2019/02/20,"Update after almost a year It's been a while since I have posted in here, and I hope that this doesn't come off as bragging because I know the struggles of progressively getting worse all too well. &#x200B; I am nearing the 1 year mark from the last hallucination. Within a month, I am seeing my psych and working with her to lower my dose of Latuda (currently 160mg/day). I have already eliminated the small dose of Haldol that I had gone on a year ago due to the hallucinations. &#x200B; I know that everyone is probably sick of hearing it, but I really do believe that this is all because of changes to my diet. I have been following a paleo/primal version of keto since April 2018. I dropped 40lb, lowered my cholesterol, and am getting better with regards to my psychosis. I specify that I follow primal because it means that I don't eat vegetable oil or any other unnatural foods. I typically eat tuna & sardine salad made with avocado oil mayo for lunch. So, I am covering all my bases by increasing omega 3 as well as eliminating processed food. &#x200B; As far as exercise goes, I run long distances at a low-effort level. This took time to get to a reasonable pace and had to start out simply by walking to maintain the target heartrate that I follow (180-my age: 147bpm). &#x200B; I hope all of you are doing well and are progressing towards health. If you're interested in hearing more about my diet and exercise you can message me, but to avoid being too preachy I am not going to give any other details here.",8.118973471741636,7.525731370242215,8.337840830449826,69.60044059976934,62.28719723183392,10.613241061130337,38.297808535178774,9.888512548439397,3.8672863206459054,1222,55,208,21,15,402,172,289,0.045,0.8809999999999999,0.07400000000000001,0.8735,4,1,0,0,0,0,49.0,0,2,0,4,9,9,0,2,13,0,22,15,0,2,4,29,43,17,0,3,5,0,0,0,0,0,6,2,0,0,15,11,9,1,4,2,0,10,3,2,3,0,7,5,31,7,40,35,7,40,0,0,1,0,7,12,0,5,16,146,46,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07439575718974067,0.0,0.08404024261561764,0.0,0.0926149532916994,0.0,0.0,0.4546715087121877,0.4079194184738914,0.11414576335898825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15348240247883582,0.0,0.0,0.09455639864648817,0.0,0.0742261478586937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08878308341352918,0.07229522776408857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05412563399191184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17175547454576934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08019534446151354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20296845596718693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13154435940492626,0.08050992329616354,0.047697350428957806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08920991946845183,0.1891824762109353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1667158551813171,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09224759274669593,0.06841127950308723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07427229029727347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07941326090137266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0914205363143966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06698931248251876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08037836464077999,0.0,0.0904869360404281,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05376544962163937,0.08629039532029592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0668785354190535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13884969653139892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05940359171955537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08773817516519053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04893820310702727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09324540295361952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2263799434164579,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061099474128188176,0.0,0.08552824914038529,0.0,0.0,0.4079194184738914,0.16213769682715404 schizophrenia,ETMeep,2019/02/20,"A Target Over My Head That Makes People Attack Me Sometimes I get the feeling that people are nice to everyone except me. They're nice to strangers and new people, except me - they always attack me, as if I have some aura that makes everyone hate me for absolutely no reason.",7.0730128205128215,7.255456173076923,7.508461538461539,72.10320512820513,64.19230769230771,9.241025641025642,28.871794871794872,8.841846274778883,2.372171794871795,219,6,36,3,3,72,36,52,0.205,0.6779999999999999,0.117,-0.7425,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,1,0,0,5,3,0,2,0,2,1,1,3,0,9,7,3,0,1,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,1,9,2,7,7,1,2,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,2,1,27,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18091181064890055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4946958828356667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.415510444606944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10993466415078744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11359357501545793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21465836875547287,0.2231368217143156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2902606064066953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20998669756483127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4521973401133314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22354514944475387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21503507275752734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,lwyrfeethrowaway,2019/02/20,"What happens when you skip a med for one day or two/three days? What do you feel mentally or physically? I'm just trying to understand what my brother goes through. He isn't particular about taking his meds and seems to lie about it from time to time. There are days where when I ask him something, he just stares at me blankly before asking ""huh?""and I have to repeat myself. I have gone on to realize that it tends to happen when he is not regular on meds or may have skipped a day or two. I want to understand from your perspectives as to what happens when you forget or skip. This way I know better on how to deal with a situation like that and not aggravate what he is or isn't feeling or going through at that point.",6.180155172413793,5.721242075862072,6.371163793103451,81.66709051724139,66.17241379310343,10.00862068965517,31.91810344827586,9.516144504307137,2.5727413793103446,571,20,120,10,8,183,86,145,0.023,0.905,0.07200000000000001,0.7795,0,0,1,0,0,0,13.0,0,4,0,1,11,2,0,0,3,0,10,0,0,1,0,25,27,15,0,1,11,1,2,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,11,3,0,0,7,0,0,2,4,0,0,2,1,3,14,2,23,25,0,21,0,0,1,0,14,7,0,9,12,83,25,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2662421671578198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12116854956836424,0.0,0.0,0.12593773347572662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3673346853917193,0.14680407372828144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14399944159655234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08092695605402979,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3777610670638728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07825714444475293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06956751674380009,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4745097279925923,0.0,0.14350172528717806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0964912479088763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.134610292591074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12963201481036246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16005912501722136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10962343521148576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10706410729432064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1660645623535997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0966775700163636,0.0,0.2782004974544001,0.2964786173444644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08398887893951021,0.11302735555079199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,WITCH_KING_XXYBORG,2019/02/20,"How would I be able to tell if I’m having a psychotic break? What does the onset of an episode feel like before the episode happens? Apologies for formatting, I’m on my phone at work. I’ve had one episode about a decade ago when I was in a very different phase of life and was pushing myself and making a lot of unhealthy choices that I’m sure contributed to the situation. That’s not the case now, I’ve become a pretty boring guy in an effort to not have any more episodes. I still go out for drinks sometimes but I can pass as a normal (if somewhat awkward and poor at speaking) dude and have been this way for almost ten years. However, I’ve felt pretty off lately. I don’t think it’s panic attacks as I’m well versed in those and this is different, there’s no adrenaline or fast heartbeat or overwhelming fear feeling, it’s mostly just that something about the world feels very off, like there’s something wrong with it. When my girlfriend asked me to describe it, I told her it feels like when you’re in the forest for hours by yourself in dead silence and your mind starts to make you think you’re hearing people laughing or drums beating or a baby crying somewhere in the distance when in reality it’s probably just birds or cicadas, and it’s starting to get dark and then you start seeing shit and the whole world feels real sinister. I spent a lot of time in the backwoods of Vermont growing up and I’ve had this feeling in the woods all my life. For the past 2-3 months I’ve been getting this in public, at work, when I’m hanging around downtown, in my home, pretty much everywhere but my car. I keep feeling like I’m being watched or followed. I haven’t had any real hallucinations but it feels way darker than it should be. Visually I feel like I’m looking at a screen with the brightness turned all the way down most of the time. My optometrist says my eyes are fine. Does this sound like something to watch out for or does it sound more like general anxiety? Also for future reference, what should I be expecting for if this ever does come back, what would it feel like?",4.407376916868442,5.711772179176759,4.6932857142857145,85.93398829701374,70.5496368038741,7.346860371267152,28.77877320419693,7.675431598112923,1.6749706860371267,1662,62,327,19,30,522,213,413,0.124,0.747,0.129,-0.7698,4,0,4,0,0,0,34.0,0,3,0,4,20,21,2,4,25,0,23,5,2,3,4,71,62,33,1,9,17,0,11,8,1,4,2,5,1,1,24,16,1,1,14,2,2,8,5,8,1,2,10,23,24,13,52,44,11,60,0,1,7,0,15,25,1,16,31,204,48,2,0.07823258862990119,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06934846953611658,0.0,0.07833863683883181,0.0,0.0,0.06256257286267622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1064016859562144,0.0,0.0598477161698629,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06964359015257962,0.0731369097457759,0.08900086358970606,0.0,0.06015603164689004,0.0,0.0,0.08640174771939678,0.06657017082162635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06739044791785366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08593482509059146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.163472808321089,0.0,0.0,0.27384746204055194,0.0,0.0,0.0766381533997512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07076585531597117,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08803341216294573,0.3955674743755499,0.2794468847440588,0.07511555359289533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08174659725620749,0.0,0.044461382989085314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07746256245366531,0.06918081975833003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08817381315725326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07847366509117464,0.0,0.0770433410455356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06953671934457395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08824976754623674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11051598192362068,0.3057639289910429,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06569567106818927,0.0,0.0,0.13302109845859605,0.0,0.0,0.10444172079293118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07899261291208802,0.0,0.06244450586195505,0.0,0.057509954199994974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07665132650596486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05301242673092852,0.0,0.0,0.091789086604323,0.0,0.0,0.07468185804915964,0.054236626554425085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2387720032797273,0.0843479623631213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1780916263083048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06221369450468255,0.0,0.0,0.062341244330636425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08030462799608644,0.0,0.08793670743698014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18068180647729967,0.0773740305570838,0.0,0.16612028667950382,0.0,0.062476646336993576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07373328893902546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0683787307034586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1002565678011266,0.0,0.0,0.09123610311981546,0.0,0.0,0.0747545910198032,0.0,0.0,0.08509459137598513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12910015759830426,0.0,0.1862921622814593,0.0,0.0,0.07034049253447193,0.0,0.0,0.08734389135847835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1139085125364034,0.0,0.0,0.11114837272011772,0.0855350545092866,0.0,0.05037922212148485 schizophrenia,BlueGuineaPig,2019/02/20,"Medication Free Cure Drink distilled water. Start at Walmart. Then get a distiller. I had it bad, I don't have It at all anymore. Negligence is poisoning you. It's need to know. Now you know. If you don't switch to distilled water and organic food you are choosing to stay sick. Anyone who claims they are already doing that is either a liar with an agenda or being lied to themselves. It takes time to heal but real water and real food will cure you no meds needed. The only side effect is that you'll realize that your country doesn't care for you unless you care for yourself which is honestly ok. God works the same. Ask for help but be prepared to do the work. Doctors won't admit that this works. I hope you believe me because it costs you a dollar a day at walmart to start feeling better. If you think you need to attack this post and you aren't a affiliate with money in the medication business I have one request. I want you to ask yourself what do I gain from you getting your brain back?",2.5967384370015942,4.849720348484852,3.7307761828814456,86.8758133971292,77.83838383838383,5.784582668793195,24.562466772993087,6.8360192770164,0.9895717171717178,791,28,151,8,19,256,118,198,0.121,0.728,0.151,0.8190000000000001,0,0,1,0,0,0,18.0,0,17,1,6,2,11,3,0,10,1,21,13,1,1,1,29,40,10,0,7,7,0,1,0,0,3,6,0,0,0,14,5,6,0,8,1,4,0,6,4,0,1,1,1,25,8,20,34,3,14,0,0,0,0,24,5,0,4,7,105,39,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14771318033661204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1327489643554304,0.09359507277294984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2502741677759774,0.15228027232544827,0.0,0.10292683140061376,0.11176398405970624,0.0815972402946176,0.0,0.0,0.15080962489133048,0.0,0.11838455859077687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14942731779952667,0.0,0.0,0.2729497748210726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08632590365293946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1370070614603503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13112770370447746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06768150362977557,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3237178778733113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13986823936047532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08972070690775923,0.0,0.0,0.1329489909896521,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14712727069131162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14868359451686178,0.2696912294078395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2977570914897453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09070413986581104,0.10180335147813667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12819683484534675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3047143618530836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18948761823971216,0.14267245002228113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10064288702953883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08576937813520351,0.0,0.0,0.07805238100299237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07895160636430333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2923458033372922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,wvufiend,2019/02/20,"My ignorance Hello, up until recently I have never known anyone with schizophrenia. But as of November of last year I had began befriending (and ultimately developing feelings for this girl who just told me she was schizophrenic. I think she’s an amazing person and I would eventually like to date her, but I have no idea what it is like dating a person who has this mental illness. If anyone could share with me any experiences they’ve had dating a person with this mental illness that would be extremely helpful as have no experience in dating someone who has this illness if that does happen. Thank you",7.450870129870133,8.561885827272732,7.7022077922077905,67.83045454545457,63.45454545454545,10.285714285714286,32.98701298701299,10.290406445055957,3.66842857142857,491,19,76,11,7,160,75,110,0.14400000000000002,0.7140000000000001,0.141,-0.1054,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,1,0,0,1,6,0,0,3,0,13,4,0,0,1,19,19,9,0,5,5,0,1,2,0,2,4,0,0,4,11,5,0,1,4,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,5,1,12,5,12,10,0,12,0,0,0,0,15,2,0,2,12,61,23,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12447772668625587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2559803875869881,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14614753573768227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1601850065967763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3581087119609737,0.0,0.0,0.09255368374812184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1618671940471368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12269204269193347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20663693539025285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1492071243233189,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17885430311285322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3689351334222764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14117655217444247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4794867743176359,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1807360886665772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15509449332202907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16852439363969618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11728864569294767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17490853581653087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26006160779765064,0.0,0.0,0.11787578336841385 schizophrenia,korba__,2019/02/20,"this is a mindfuck so we're all trapped here and know that - by definition - we cannot get out. except by suicide. but they keep saying that \*that\* will only make things worse. korba is a cowardly being, so he will heed the warning. so the plan for now is to stand up, take off (wait there is no mask) and face the show. korba is a sad clown.",0.08774603174603257,2.402559457142857,1.940476190476193,95.00341269841272,90.14285714285714,5.396825396825397,17.777777777777782,6.937597516519254,0.07201587301587331,262,7,59,4,9,86,54,70,0.281,0.7190000000000001,0.0,-0.9708,0,1,0,0,0,1,16.0,1,0,1,1,6,1,0,0,6,0,9,1,1,1,1,11,15,6,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,5,4,0,2,1,1,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,1,2,0,8,12,1,5,0,1,0,0,4,3,0,0,1,41,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2087640677610347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3551650802939897,0.0,0.0,0.21959872840707712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26672276533246003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3038986100555421,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3177620689099352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4370756860955954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3004344457836665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26546320933681844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4072061762237154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,schizotheritzo,2019/02/20,"The uk rules of diagnosis are a joke and should be checked. In the UK you can’t be diagnosed with schizophrenia until you’re 18. I feel so bad for anyone who can’t get the help they need for it, medication. So they have to suffer until they turn 18. But that’s not where it stops the joke carry’s on. The diagnosis takes very long and getting medication is a whole other story. Anyone undiagnosed should fight for it. Remember you know what’s going on in your head not the doctors.",3.3609375000000017,5.1917448854166715,4.7004166666666665,82.73625000000001,74.10416666666666,7.716666666666668,23.458333333333336,8.472884824447931,1.405670833333334,383,11,77,7,8,127,64,96,0.107,0.807,0.086,-0.6183,0,0,0,0,1,0,9.0,0,3,3,0,3,5,1,0,8,0,9,5,1,0,0,13,17,7,0,3,3,0,1,0,0,2,4,0,0,0,7,3,0,1,3,2,1,1,4,3,0,0,0,1,7,2,12,13,1,10,0,1,0,0,9,5,0,0,4,52,14,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31868585957338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19027498069164894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2312991155876143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2332505967222965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11522582077476425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2381216701211369,0.0,0.12951265408729354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23387639945703234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15274693290635594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.125239981491037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2016716097442147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4591415910949462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16897430572311015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2581499930123748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19052258915176906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17134163163033936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.247874124389766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1880295093131587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2544261655316871,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,BannerBill17,2019/02/20,"Free falling My girlfriend just broke up with me and I was doing okay while we were together, in fact the best I’ve done in over a year and a half. But she broke up with me on Valentine’s Day and ever since then I’m not doing well. I feel like I’m a shitty person and the voices just perpetuate that nonstop I can’t go to my classes and I’m probably going to fail school, going to have to drop out in debt with no degree. Girls come and go but the voices will never leave me alone. I guess In the end the only thing that’s constant is me and my fucked up mind always telling me life isn’t worth it that I am not worth it. Life is ass and so am I.",-0.030116550116549238,1.86014393706294,2.073454545454545,97.17684848484848,85.15384615384616,4.652494172494173,16.526340326340325,5.6839178017228535,-0.7350126806526807,505,10,121,3,15,169,86,143,0.17800000000000002,0.716,0.106,-0.8962,1,1,0,0,0,0,8.0,1,0,0,2,5,9,1,0,8,1,13,4,1,0,3,26,24,13,0,0,6,0,1,1,1,1,2,2,0,2,6,14,0,0,1,0,4,6,6,4,1,1,3,3,16,6,17,20,1,25,0,3,0,2,6,10,2,1,9,83,22,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1976645667822728,0.0,0.0,0.15880371316138867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20028684484103815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1644016436366841,0.0,0.2062426395690072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12308341043180153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19530731765944087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16903775611706176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17263608251250773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09650023848457537,0.1363443294428766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17643911015185273,0.0,0.0,0.43386115793002333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21024441274933905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20208415164423832,0.0,0.0,0.2696080770751461,0.09324038874213424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19270558067418825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14719642051567994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14515114424625866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16664414351413498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20577016592626865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19315187833002145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1578743095097887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1668125982949666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12679323733491552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17159839330608506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12290209039722752 schizophrenia,bluDesu,2019/02/20,"Hey guys So I'm not sure whether I have schizophrenia or not and thought I could get your opinions on this. So I basically have almost all symptoms besides hallucinations and delusions(I think). I have heard voices a couple times at night the past year, but dunno if that's normal maybe it's because the mind is just tired? Or is that how it starts? How did it start with you? I'm actually against it tho I don't think I have it cuz the symptoms I have can be something else and they're quite normal but just thought I should share this and hear your opinions and perhaps stories. Thanks",2.283598662207357,4.936371486956523,2.533043478260872,92.65789297658866,81.95652173913044,4.929765886287626,24.49832775919733,6.297961479604792,0.6059030100334457,471,18,95,4,13,143,75,115,0.05,0.884,0.066,0.4073,0,0,1,0,0,0,9.0,0,3,0,1,7,3,0,0,4,0,13,3,0,3,2,34,25,17,0,5,10,0,0,0,0,1,3,3,0,1,9,6,0,0,4,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,4,3,11,3,4,18,1,8,0,0,0,0,8,2,0,7,6,63,20,0,0.0,0.0,0.17500170596326592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1795746245175895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1093188371720724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14318163564805497,0.19842692878207116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14980848333749194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09369332362825533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17756641075342336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20211966953896712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1801626272946051,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18107372524920007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16829049416135275,0.3514136505694411,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17119223870392974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1907411582177969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13805817437642598,0.0,0.0,0.2538635621704635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16901784623739025,0.3727882523119504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1651043803519081,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2298168087268192,0.0,0.2847384091377961,0.10456965822557993,0.20611521484737585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11548362673920615 schizophrenia,Yeahokwhatit,2019/02/20,"So So I hear neighbors talk to me that I've never met from long distances and I'm sure they're real. Additionally my best friend is heard through the same way, I can hear him talk to me no matter where we are but when I talked to him he says I'm a schizo. All this being said i still think the neighbors are real people and my friend knows we can communicate over long distances by using mental powers and he's just lying because he doesn't want to ruin the good life he's built for himself by drawing attention over these communication superpowers. Also I feel like people can hear my racist thought processes Any thoughts please",6.798917050691244,6.7122044677419375,6.734700460829494,78.32919354838712,64.80645161290322,9.02119815668203,30.617511520737327,8.418075326091056,2.112312442396313,510,16,98,6,7,162,85,124,0.095,0.716,0.189,0.8962,2,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,2,0,0,2,7,7,0,0,4,0,8,1,0,1,3,23,23,8,0,1,2,0,1,1,4,0,1,6,2,0,3,6,0,0,6,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,5,7,15,6,11,17,3,9,0,1,0,0,23,3,0,0,6,57,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11856823307916545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10082593572489572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09038155186752928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15559597568237754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07496772327961243,0.105921230050138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22909982278726346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12435845117488907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5013195310647959,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08148309305009639,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1047246309103612,0.07243525789649834,0.0,0.0,0.26242141441911043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14941721318082796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11435184714836533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2055778937623967,0.0,0.0,0.16275149849852955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33751823960181426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1410348786606917,0.11790704079479973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11840538561528023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1397389107990379,0.0,0.0,0.3575116825784421,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09500283919631496,0.0,0.2354132184342336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12805418355532405,0.0,0.0,0.08745110349167938,0.11768661628144833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,xTomCruiseFan69,2019/02/20,"Im new Hi, i was diagnosed with Schizoaffective Disorder last week, i guess i am just trying to meet people similar to me. I take Depakote And Risperidone and xanax (as needed) and ambien. Well i dont take the ambien because im afraid to take it. I see my psychiatrist tomorrow, I finally found one who is real, i dont feel like my meds are working, but thats ok, ill tell doctor about it. I am in an Outpatient Treatment therapy group i like it but i am worried what is next after wards. The therapist is very nice and she is awesome, she is one person that believes i hallucinate, a lot of people dont. I no longer self medicate, which is good. I am scared of just everything, i dont like the voices, or the man in the hoodie. But everything will be ok. Im new around here, is anyone else Schizoaffective? Hi nice to meet you",1.9800673652694591,4.074090700598802,4.166852544910181,83.77866205089822,79.11976047904191,8.246856287425151,24.20995508982036,9.017664075816787,2.061108083832336,645,23,131,17,16,222,99,167,0.109,0.7340000000000001,0.156,0.88,0,0,0,0,0,0,24.0,0,1,0,1,6,11,0,2,7,2,19,5,0,0,0,18,27,9,0,1,6,0,1,3,0,1,5,1,0,3,8,6,0,0,2,0,0,0,5,2,1,2,2,3,21,9,13,23,1,11,0,0,1,0,13,3,0,3,11,84,29,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07756849622368106,0.11366625876687182,0.0,0.0987558794718378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0676250900622742,0.0,0.0,0.1249860219378858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11259692913903792,0.0,0.0,0.12714139117148704,0.11354691453988892,0.0,0.0,0.5200610804836154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09267215458799913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.199402873531076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056092188436618284,0.07925215460059855,0.0,0.12152412831547307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12163476006800425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09304721247797154,0.0,0.0,0.1222076691506528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35948727364363703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09042702348191917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16259205792729653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09431317037079824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12322403838268875,0.1117555790603964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08225707166881176,0.0,0.21428388397737824,0.11798088177510205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15034517356958205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15381704886934194,0.09686436890358376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1262685851211468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1110655238149663,0.0,0.08840102007596863,0.0,0.11572964498491738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.250228473717712,0.0,0.09696228573216203,0.0,0.12686411020562335,0.12880435906249896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07531774310827688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09153318758870127,0.0,0.0,0.0889855546251022,0.0,0.09974409974421336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0807621728734551,0.1126601168497812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,halfemptyjuulpod,2019/02/20,"Have any of you guys tried Benzos with antipsychotics? So to start things off I take 3 mg of vraylar at night 3 300 mgs of gabapentin a day and 60 mgs strattera in the mornings. I would like to substitute the gabapentin for a benzo. Do benzo help with symptoms at all? Or help in any sense of that matter. Also how hard would it be to get prescribed? Coming from drug induced background? Thanks :)",2.1280116959064337,4.833774842105264,2.1428070175438627,94.74020467836256,83.47368421052632,4.430409356725146,22.91812865497076,5.82211442006289,0.2987532163742692,312,11,61,2,9,93,58,76,0.017,0.7879999999999999,0.195,0.9254,0,0,1,0,0,0,9.0,0,1,0,0,3,2,0,0,4,0,5,2,0,2,1,11,10,5,0,2,1,0,1,1,0,2,2,0,0,1,3,4,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,2,16,7,1,9,0,0,0,0,4,5,0,1,4,37,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2006822593960442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3413051887765354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2161686569309004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16184008222154025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29101889913845924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1311094723623586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24847702612759456,0.0,0.0,0.22479925925183655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33640902599302325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1226000492467384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2354967999709374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1776216084523699,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26083006328940783,0.1886809453783126,0.0,0.0,0.2310383211352401,0.0,0.0,0.16671806446887424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17037656940827192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3565311582473929,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,hopelesscaribou,2019/02/21,"How vividly do you visualize? Just to disclose, I don't have schizophrenia. I do have a condition called aphantasia. I do not visualize at all, technically no imagination, no mind's eye. Most likely related is my lack of episodic memory. Voluntary visualizing (as opposed to hallucinations or dreaming) exists on a scale, some people see movie like moving images in their mind, some faded static images, or like me, nothing at all. I was curious if there was a pattern in this community. How well do you visualize? Are there many here with either hyperphantasia (very vivid visualizer) or aphantasia? I apologize if this is an intrusive question, it is purely for my own curiosity. Thank you for any answers and take care of yourselves. 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For someone who only experienced auditory hallucinations, I'm curious on what visual hallucinations are like. When I have auditory hallucinations I hear someone say something and twist their words into something they didn't say at all. I could've sworn they were talking shit about me, but in reality they were just talking about their day to someone. Or I will hear helicopters roaring above my house and believe the FBI is spying on me, when in actuality it is just my dryer. &#x200B; So when you have a visual hallucination do you actually see something that isn't there? Or is it there but you're believing it is something else than it actually is? I'm trying to imagine what it's like because I think I had a visual hallucination before... like I read someone's shirt and believe it says ""stupid"" when it actuality it says ""stud"". So what are they like for you?",5.7543356643356685,7.881963212121217,7.024242424242427,67.30867132867135,68.39393939393939,9.198135198135198,32.69230769230769,9.661875296680813,3.416972027972028,730,33,122,17,13,247,85,165,0.014,0.8859999999999999,0.1,0.9111,0,0,4,0,0,0,23.0,0,3,6,0,12,7,2,0,3,0,17,3,2,0,1,14,23,13,0,0,6,0,0,5,0,1,0,6,0,0,14,4,0,0,2,1,0,0,2,2,0,0,4,8,20,5,13,18,1,11,0,0,1,1,18,6,1,2,10,85,34,1,0.0,0.0,0.4263415227895296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11834250672801193,0.13271726290362115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06658100738644393,0.0,0.0929402821579131,0.36916898338406856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08720525928830229,0.0,0.0,0.07043946104065656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09124136327891408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2462033361978993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12602807240332087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2668029227974776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08306861448079722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1092520327974535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3474323860063151,0.0,0.0,0.08703617200697457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11211530167980097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3701753966925944,0.3363391915136129,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1755777772982081,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06998535218264454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07415489141093241,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13271726290362115,0.0 schizophrenia,DowntownIce8,2019/02/21,"Advice for using CBD for Schizophrenia My sibling has been suffering from schizophrenia (to be more specific schizoaffective) since she was 17. Pharmaceutical drugs have kept her stable for most of her life but she has re-lapses every few years and we just wait for her to rebound since she is already on the gold standard of drugs for her disorder. Recently she started to take a turn for the worse and her doctors are pretty much out of options. She also had a Seizure because of the pharmaceutical drug she is taking which is a known side affect. **I've been reading up on CBD for Schizophrenia but not sure what has worked for others? What dosage have they started with; increased too? I was hoping someone can provide me with some guidance (real world) on what we specifically should try?** I've attempted to get some information from her Doctors but all provide the same response, ""we don't have experience to make suggestions, it hasn't been vetted thoroughly"" etc.. Hope someone in the forum can 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schizophrenia,CrypticConscience,2019/02/21,"Anyone afraid they might have schizophrenia but don't want to deal with how a diagnosis may affect their life I've shown alot of the signs a schizophrenic person would have, and have even been in a psych ward, but I lied on all of the tests to get out quicker, and I'm stuck in a place where I don't know if a diagnosis would lead me to a place where things would be better for me, or if it would negatively affect me.",39.9896551724138,6.229579919540233,32.58137931034483,16.42655172413795,54.402298850574724,36.639080459770106,93.89655172413794,14.554592549557764,12.598986206896553,331,6,76,4,1,105,58,87,0.08800000000000001,0.865,0.047,-0.3363,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,2,2,4,2,0,1,9,0,13,2,0,4,1,24,18,8,0,7,5,0,0,0,0,6,2,0,0,1,2,4,0,0,1,0,0,1,3,1,0,0,2,0,7,1,11,9,2,9,0,0,0,0,4,8,0,6,0,55,9,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16057540593306546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2031052275373068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2367572765928257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15168051265515667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11998173967413453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1262086801961935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1622073605269767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24362051732670184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20052000637334316,0.4798671159438678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1525681024388206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13545249622028832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6525421518947043,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,DavyTheDemiGod,2019/02/21,Geodon I've been prescribed geodon and i was wondering how bad the side effects are..does anyone have 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schizophrenia,GetHautnah,2019/02/21,"Insatiable Hey Guys. I have a problem food. I was tiny as a child, have been big when I was on meds, but after stopping, I had a very restrictive diet to control the worst symptoms and became quite small again. The past year, I managed to actually do university. The stress is overwhelming and I've been having eating problems, really bad again. ¬ That is.. I try to restrict myself, then I binge. Bad. I eat and eat, untill I hurt. I am constantly hungry. I don't remember the feeling of satisfaction. I just want to continue untill I cannot move, untill every inch of my body hurts. I eat healthy, I don't eat processed food. I don't eat much sugar. I don't understand what I do wrong.. Is this maybe a delusion or a tactile hallucination? Do you experience this? It's not just a little stress eating. It's constant thoughts of eating and food. I feel constantly really hungry. I feel my stomach rumbling, I feel my body aching in hunger. I have been eating for 2 hours, I feel icky, but I feel like Ive had a long days work and need dinner. Anyone understand? I don't know what to do. 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Suddenly, I found myself on the streets of Skid Row with nothing but my precious puppy & the Voice. I believe if I can by brave enough to share my true story with you here and now (link below), then maybe it will actually help someone. I hope so anyway. [https://www.lovewhatmatters.com/i-love-you-cindy-ill-always-love-you-please-forgive-me-i-was-no-longer-going-be-her-momma-and-watch-her-grow-up-do-it-now-the-voice-says/](https://www.lovewhatmatters.com/i-love-you-cindy-ill-always-love-you-please-forgive-me-i-was-no-longer-going-be-her-momma-and-watch-her-grow-up-do-it-now-the-voice-says/)",27.52751243781095,35.69687341791045,11.660522388059704,31.351579601990036,23.77611940298507,7.451741293532338,27.58457711442786,8.344100000000001,2.174006965174129,617,11,49,5,6,130,58,67,0.075,0.664,0.261,0.9393,0,0,0,0,0,0,90.0,0,1,0,0,4,6,0,0,4,0,3,1,0,0,1,9,6,5,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,1,3,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,2,10,6,7,2,1,8,0,0,1,0,3,3,0,2,4,34,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.18976588212410367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2106984094355295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2190909526439925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20093019301312268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.213216446485242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1303431074938203,0.0,0.0,0.19314364789362268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17171262339285207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.702034569662874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1953622092205965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19597094766223294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18659057164525586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15464319022362338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16476617204533608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2160533232569364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,eyesofcosmos,2019/02/21,Anyone have issues with gravity It goes all wiggly and sometimes it'll flip so I'm standing on the ceiling hoping I won't fall. I've had a few brakes downs while out side and grab on to anything within reach so scared I'll fall into the sky as silly as that sounds... it really worries me. ,1.625,3.779896833333332,3.256666666666668,89.525,80.66666666666666,5.333333333333334,20.0,6.42735559955562,0.2320000000000002,230,6,46,2,6,76,48,60,0.114,0.802,0.084,-0.5906,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,1,3,0,4,0,0,0,1,8,6,7,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,4,5,0,1,0,0,0,2,1,1,0,0,1,2,2,2,10,3,2,12,0,0,0,0,0,8,0,1,1,29,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27085700586170763,0.0,0.31877120353540195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3847442452355217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4043119887561211,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2481581288345784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3878233651485936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3831172721290965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3933914335784936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,nitishshukla86,2019/02/21,"Fear of having Schizophrenia So it all started last december when i smoked weed and got a panic attack. during the attack i thought that time is very slow and that im in a dream and would never snap out of it. Thankfully i was okay next morning. After 15 days anxiety kicked and i eventually developed depression. my depression was all around not being able to function properly because of the anxiety. during this period the 'dream' thing came back and start to question the realty of everything. i started to ask questions like ""what if youtube is not real "", ""what if my mother is not real and im just imagining"". SO i met a psychaitrist who diagnosed me with anxiety and obsession and prescribed me fluoxtine 20mg risperidone 1mg and clonazepam .25 mg. by this time i had googled a lot and did a mistake(which i regret a lot) of searching risperidone online, after that i read almost all articles, websites and watched almost all videos on schizophrenia on youtube, after which i began to suspect everything i hear and see to confirm im not hallucinating ,causing me a lot of distress. Later one day i was showering and thought ""what if im in a game and everyone else is just programmed and my actions are just keystrokes by someone"" i quickly related this which schiz symptom and medication i was taking and start to feel the control. it stayed around 15 minutes but i ignored it and it faded away. fast forward to today. Now im living in constant fear of having schizophrenia, I do not hear or see anything extra, i do not have any delusion. I always try to calm myself down by talking rationally to myself that i do not have schizophrenia but the second moment i doubt it by thinking ""What if i do have schizophrenia but since im taking medications for it i not experiencing any symptoms"",""If you didnt had schizo then doctor wouldnt have prescribed me"". My greated fear is schizophrenia. please tell me its just anxiety and the medication is for something else.",6.35677685950413,7.786640303030302,6.586298622589536,73.70381157024795,66.07988980716254,9.113785123966943,35.73212121212121,9.3871,3.58800570798898,1582,77,257,30,25,508,180,363,0.117,0.848,0.035,-0.9746,1,0,2,0,0,0,37.0,0,1,0,1,12,18,2,7,15,1,28,6,0,2,5,71,48,31,0,7,20,1,1,1,0,2,6,2,1,0,23,24,0,2,8,5,0,3,11,13,0,2,14,7,34,5,36,31,8,42,0,3,3,0,12,11,0,13,30,193,57,3,0.0772575702587704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15472459356251247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06428448743021233,0.0,0.0,0.10507559410186734,0.0,0.2364073191387619,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06357639755136446,0.13755123417274878,0.07222539918657384,0.1757832788686451,0.0725860304218114,0.05940630270378276,0.0,0.047095497750904686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08836207872447695,0.0,0.07936480623292923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08348798719507043,0.08665093438975031,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09964948291517164,0.0,0.1330836641145046,0.07841480755357393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0790763968434066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12907757295262762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07382291918269338,0.13886824510339008,0.0,0.0,0.2608087362725426,0.039063748853087145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061789936549295765,0.08517674395347685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17414979318162416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5007086000705405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0629752311914409,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03774414639782612,0.0,0.06821984996279604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19704487043144853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23348662238127385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05958580096169416,0.0,0.0821643024382275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05235172904897652,0.0,0.0,0.0906451126252449,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08480561213120273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17309231983078507,0.0,0.07727847725448851,0.17587205757823735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1231285618497985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06390826047575722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06546008856996456,0.05947665204858234,0.0,0.0,0.2187332234867582,0.08234629044903648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08030019689418329,0.11617615602268976,0.0620967085092511,0.06752652167141597,0.07112839081235899,0.0,0.0,0.051326496776613724,0.049503531497858994,0.0,0.12266776206224662,0.09009902101362266,0.0,0.0732311431147334,0.0,0.0,0.052452818885603165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06374558653078485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054881561283851264,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,throw729away,2019/02/21,"This is getting worse When I'm changing my clothes I think that I'm doing it in a room full of people, but I know I'm not. This stops me from changing my clothes. Do I have schizophrenia? It happens in the shower as well. The thing is I know that no one's watching me but my actions are as if someone's looking at me. Eventually a do finish the task but this is wiered. 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Not schizophrenic but I do have a non specified psychotic disorder (that's what the psychiatrist said I had anyways) and don't know where else to ask this. Whenever I hallucinate, whether it be visual or auditory, I kind of just ignore it. For me, it's nothing more than putting on pants at this point. I'm still scared of course, but not nearly as phased as I used to be. Walked into the bathroom and saw the floor was a pool of blood, kinda just said ""oh"" and decided to pee later. Tbf it has been a whiiiile since I've had any really scary hallucinations so I don't know if I'd react so casually to those as well. Anyone else do this as well? 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I'm up late waiting for the hallucinations I know are coming after a really stressful and hard day. I'm fairly new to Reddit and have to say that this subreddit is really encouraging and uplifting and that all of you guys rock! Thanks all for making my night a little better. ,5.166964285714286,6.55019891071429,6.727142857142859,71.76785714285714,68.82142857142857,9.885714285714286,24.714285714285715,10.125756701596842,2.5345500000000007,233,6,41,6,4,80,41,56,0.086,0.754,0.16,0.6733,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,2,0,1,0,4,0,1,3,0,3,0,0,1,2,10,10,4,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,3,5,0,1,1,2,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,2,4,3,7,10,2,8,0,0,0,0,6,2,0,0,5,26,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22154752429990207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21578418376665634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1615522367521893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4960701799137167,0.0,0.0,0.2243994358743341,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13766864093879005,0.0,0.2825757157865224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2510675237505819,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1672111713811373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24193514999465765,0.0,0.2350779501656989,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3209543429148915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19920822167802274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2869477208748273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2306274010895237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,schizo-rose,2019/02/22,My room is a disaster zone can I show y'all a picture? It's seriously subtly embarrassing how bad it's got,0.01463768115942088,2.32551539130435,4.330434782608695,77.67072463768119,90.7391304347826,8.284057971014493,25.057971014492754,8.841846274778883,2.627301449275362,86,4,18,3,3,33,20,23,0.478,0.522,0.0,-0.8979,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,1,0,0,1,3,0,1,2,0,2,0,0,1,0,1,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,10,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7221510495018274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6917353986195944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,WhyMeGod7755,2019/02/22,"My mom is going to kill me I just posted on here but I know she is. She's getting really friendly and close to me so when she kills me everybody will dismiss her. She wont let me kill myself but thats because she wants to do it herself. She wont let me know that I didn't let her kill me but still died. She might be putting slow acting poison in my food or drink or maybe my meds. She makes sure I take them too. I used to refuse to take them because they make me feel sick (The poison setting in). I normally pretended to take them then flush them or throw them out the window but now she's giving them to me with pudding (So I don't catch on to her plan) and making sure I swallow them (so the poison really works). She even started giving me new meds a few months ago. She says they help with my ""depression"" but thats horse shit. She's trying to get me on antipsycotics too. They're because I ""Strangled the cat"". Given, I did but he didn't die and it was a one time impulse. I love my cat more then myself. I think the docters are in on it too. They keep giving me more meds and increasing the dosage. Maybe I'm too anoying and they want me to die faster. I think my dad is in on it too. He bought me grapefruit and one was all mushy and had white pouder on it. I think that one has something in it. I ate to of them before I found the bad one and now I have a really bad headache and belly ache. They locked up all the knives and meds so I have nothing to defend myself with.",0.9178691983122356,2.71404044936709,2.409139240506331,96.55126160337556,81.21518987341773,5.3525738396624485,18.761181434599155,6.2581,-0.2792064135021097,1146,26,269,9,30,372,145,316,0.191,0.7020000000000001,0.107,-0.9898,0,0,2,0,0,3,33.0,0,0,13,2,16,15,8,0,11,0,23,10,1,4,4,46,52,26,7,3,10,2,1,0,1,4,4,1,1,0,10,15,4,2,7,2,1,6,5,11,0,4,10,3,69,4,29,34,6,35,0,1,1,1,41,14,1,4,13,188,79,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07748644033596147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14597257712444664,0.15985864613172301,0.0,0.0743821111558675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07528877629350103,0.0,0.27216299603837235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08563156102205496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057735529173571,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.044198690622992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10570026939353797,0.09584395401727527,0.06753514543445062,0.0,0.09133947545391936,0.25156383657862563,0.04967888005724281,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05859115939244005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07769678106372177,0.3868385822294379,0.0,0.09607990914418227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2681574563186544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07889373700115035,0.0,0.17504677221301654,0.0,0.17563641929046198,0.0,0.388384999878996,0.0,0.0,0.09273148698655896,0.0,0.10237716807909368,0.06977230370255022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08442411820062205,0.0,0.0,0.08564627997858698,0.0838752284996122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23693351956736786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08371758808980631,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08787431073726287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1679972136160131,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06951440687247175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08972829260030975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06729487620538206,0.0,0.0,0.0618714432031334,0.0,0.06980821582891872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1647716274739852,0.0,0.19717132105497534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16803235769675726,0.0,0.0,0.05097128248228603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05934775801850343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07549685377041182,0.0,0.0,0.10311702420124436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06363777902707274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Twitchy-T,2019/02/22,Sounds instead of voices? I hear voices a lot but I also hear sounds like sometimes I hear like...well background office sounds and little beeping tunes and crowd's cheering and stuff. Does anyone else hear things like this to?,3.6926829268292636,6.835204121951223,2.573853658536585,91.21443902439024,80.95121951219512,3.28,20.39512195121951,3.1291,-0.31493560975609736,183,5,30,0,5,52,29,41,0.0,0.7390000000000001,0.261,0.9064,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,4,5,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,9,0,0,3,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,9,3,3,2,4,1,1,0,0,0,0,5,1,0,1,2,16,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14463202813839307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1264600758100366,0.18531033087519755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15827000082946388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1510836004978524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8153601645265677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2650741599051207,0.18126716754009614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15375895183765168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1788731257788353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20703906978873754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12015397805470368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Gwygwy,2019/02/22,"Not sure about being schizophrénic, need some advice I’m not sure about being schizophrenic, I talk to a doctor and he told me that I might be it, went to see a therapist (that didn’t help me at all, she just listened and repeat what I told her and ask for that sweet 50€ at the end), and I’m not sure about the result, I have a lot of the symptoms, but the voice in my head feels like it’s my voice, it’s me thinking all these bad stuffs about me, like a deep part of my mind telling me that, I’m lost about what to do, how to improve my mental health etc.. I’m sorry if this isn’t very clear, I don’t know how to tell what I want to, and I’m not a native english either so I apologize if I make a lot of mistakes So I ask you what I should be doing now and if you may help me about the « voice » in my head",3.7016574585635382,2.640494994475137,4.7684475138121565,93.1132237569061,71.43093922651934,7.902983425414367,24.177348066298343,6.2581,0.351596243093923,618,11,161,3,10,204,93,181,0.093,0.7659999999999999,0.141,0.8589,0,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,2,0,1,12,9,0,0,11,0,13,6,2,4,6,39,32,14,0,7,10,0,1,2,0,3,4,4,0,0,14,6,0,0,3,0,0,1,7,3,0,0,5,7,25,6,20,20,8,9,0,1,1,0,16,5,0,8,5,111,39,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1380955909731313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26422895018596065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11799571821223805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1446462986549047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12516695997459093,0.0,0.15760838308105338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07145528765521852,0.10095854096833012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2900687586619317,0.15021581467046854,0.0,0.0,0.18944670484250425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07766539516233359,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13808294991350809,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15426671713865112,0.24028924191952306,0.0,0.0,0.09433173460793266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14241662253308285,0.14991745194084596,0.1426922141963516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10478647529347902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15303503772796578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11261319079537616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15819539390764426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16177679586352586,0.0,0.0,0.3995753224569767,0.14688486989366606,0.0,0.11358710567329827,0.24703860597373534,0.0,0.0,0.1640826073038094,0.0,0.09055170553220317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27007330738203983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11660322821136213,0.08335378856921505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1310044131607817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Appius246,2019/02/22,"What supplements do you use? I'm looking to supplement as I find I do much much worse without them. What do you supple ent with and why?",1.2355952380952395,3.4985608928571463,2.8000000000000007,91.61166666666668,82.92857142857143,6.590476190476192,23.619047619047624,7.793537801064563,1.2344619047619059,107,4,23,2,3,35,21,28,0.126,0.8740000000000001,0.0,-0.5362,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,1,0,5,6,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,5,0,4,6,2,0,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,0,0,17,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33991244857523306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3123047106590009,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5467827427411303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3212046367383897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3355844578390917,0.0,0.0,0.3585010562546547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.379000755808182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,annesolomon25,2019/02/22,"I can't do anything. My doctor gave me to months out of work because of an schizophrenic crisis I had. Now I am home and have nothing to do and also can't do nothing. I can't study, I can't go to the gym and I don't know why, I just can't focus on anything. I spend my day smoking cigarrets, browsing the internet and walking arround the house, what can I do to change this? Did someone passed through this? 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I don't have schizophrenia but I was wondering how you guys deal with the hallucinated voices when you're trying to talk to someone or listen to something, I guess it must be difficult and/or confusing to pay attention to a real person when you're hearing multiple voices in your head at the same time.",7.438287671232878,7.225021835616437,7.853527397260276,71.26193493150687,63.52054794520548,10.587671232876714,31.948630136986303,10.125756701596842,3.1694136986301373,306,10,53,6,4,101,46,73,0.104,0.8959999999999999,0.0,-0.7351,0,0,1,0,0,0,4.0,0,3,0,0,5,2,0,1,4,0,6,1,1,2,1,14,10,7,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,5,0,2,1,2,0,0,2,0,1,0,1,2,0,0,1,5,6,0,11,7,1,6,0,0,0,0,11,2,0,4,4,36,7,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4351847070695985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2325050613583076,0.2089813929803234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21660721756859835,0.0,0.2378786050230598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14632159599260766,0.1842884017990551,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4804622383400086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1788294349275424,0.16248337436729798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3392821346919145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12307008260590585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28659013962816626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22888426364152395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,SoIomon,2019/02/22,"What apps and games do you use to distract yourself? My mind has been super noisy lately, what apps help you keep busy and ignore the noise? 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I was wondering if anyone could contribute a personal experience. I personally started using because I thought they could help me feel better. Then I just kinda got into it too much but eventually stopped after my diagnosis. I think its just weird that there is such a strong correlation between drugs and schizophrenia.",7.505962441314554,10.435599056338027,6.9742957746478895,66.13684272300472,65.47887323943662,9.8037558685446,34.36854460093897,10.125756701596842,4.222406572769953,347,16,49,9,6,108,57,71,0.13,0.758,0.112,-0.09,0,0,3,0,2,0,5.0,0,0,1,2,5,4,0,0,2,0,6,3,0,1,0,17,13,4,0,3,4,0,1,1,0,0,3,0,0,2,4,4,0,1,4,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,3,1,9,3,6,8,2,5,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,3,5,38,13,1,0.0,0.3919282157105347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11564689563306173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10082226823188876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14627700247774653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2641063086404051,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5754114294089868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32357292078376426,0.0,0.0,0.08362786153870581,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1322801935283678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11085969507237696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08080285025190546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12158316339144805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11466294348341165,0.2888302366685623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16543813600853774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11706628437313825,0.0,0.0,0.13827627001004086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10597739846601402,0.0,0.13130386768030025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1428467754299397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17936206346120132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,jimmyheidi,2019/02/22,Voices Mine know my whole history. They even know what i wore at diffrent occasions. And they will say i will tell u what u wore when i don't remember but they say what will u do for me than ill tell you. Anyone else have this. Than they show me the picture in my mind,0.5899999999999999,2.644199140350881,1.778157894736843,99.2346052631579,83.91228070175438,5.905263157894738,18.271929824561404,7.1686216300943375,-0.056249122807017216,209,5,51,3,6,66,38,57,0.07,0.93,0.0,-0.5719,1,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,1,4,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,6,1,0,0,0,6,10,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,1,3,0,0,4,1,0,0,3,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,3,13,0,5,5,1,3,0,0,0,0,9,2,0,0,1,34,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19381279887998926,0.2840067401370991,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2315508296969637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18307675775393464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3046650563906409,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27987581466475764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31399430613931945,0.0,0.0,0.4408540948551876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4845403198061317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3094649214496789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Yoo_brooo,2019/02/22,"Thought Brodcasting/Help me plzz I passed more then one year with this problem...its going harder & harder for me to survive with this problem...i think someone did black magic on me...dont know allah knows better...my problem is i think people know my inner thought and they lough at me and bully me where ever i go i think some people go with me and bully me...i think they want to inform me that they know my inner thought...and i feel pain inside all the time i cant think frèedomly plz someone help me...i with doctor scince it started...i feel littile bit imporvement but its not enough...i cant do study,cant talk with people freely all time bad thought flow in my head...i really in tough situation now😭",1.5490159574468088,4.027569588652483,2.659640957446808,91.69031250000003,83.60992907801419,4.9434397163120565,20.160017730496453,6.322622252153567,0.18213794326241128,556,16,111,5,16,177,82,141,0.122,0.8270000000000001,0.051,-0.8115,0,0,0,0,0,0,34.0,0,0,3,1,2,4,0,0,1,0,5,2,0,0,3,31,23,5,0,2,2,0,2,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,5,8,0,0,15,0,0,5,3,4,0,1,4,3,18,0,12,19,5,17,1,0,1,0,6,7,0,1,5,54,23,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13806768298964975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10639667065754108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11269930109678634,0.13911786684923616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13042748358153594,0.0,0.0,0.1493441242129567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13166670914273595,0.0,0.0,0.11526550248784767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1288623828487979,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2172600173625654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13077741570199786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1708239838502357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28012336704324753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08634819685224103,0.0,0.13559188356817875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2650266283843229,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.365792830038092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08163334310502733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14323389047716004,0.0,0.0,0.21593787699032785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10242142728880643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4082521017270785,0.0,0.4046529220101016,0.14860804301993893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07516006279571315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08205915588600626 schizophrenia,StarryBallarinaGirl,2019/02/22,"So I got a loose diagnosis of schizophrenia when I was in the hospital, I was curious if anyone has similar symptoms So I was In the hospital for trying to hurt myself, and of course they do their whole work up. These feelings only started a couple months ago for the most part but they've gotten increasingly worse. The first main part I suppose Is the paranoia, crippling paranoia, almost feeling like ocd in a way too. Like thinking everyone is talking about you or making fun of you, to think that my best friend is plotting against me because she secretly doesn't like me. This led to me thinking my roommate was going to try to kill me so I threw a bunch of stuff in front of my door. I haven't really heard voices but I constantly just get these terrible feelings or thoughts in my head about myself or about what other people think about me. Early yesterday morning though I had this one episode where I was laying in bed and I thought I had gone to work and had all these conversations and done all of these things, only to come to to yelling that wasn't there. It wasn't a dream but It felt like one if that makes any sense. Ive been dealing with massive depression and have a diagnosis for ptsd as well, does anyone else have symptoms like this? Maybe a wrong diagnosis? Im still youngish Im 23 so they said I guess a lot of times it starts to manifest in your twenties? Anyways, any thoughts would be helpful",4.7600902527075855,6.113006768953072,4.97684296028881,84.049452166065,69.75812274368229,7.9948736462093875,30.45649819494585,8.395991825355821,2.1850160288808658,1133,46,220,17,20,356,156,277,0.117,0.753,0.13,0.4274,0,0,0,0,1,3,19.0,0,3,3,4,17,14,1,0,13,0,24,3,1,3,2,38,49,20,1,3,9,0,4,5,1,1,2,4,2,0,17,7,0,0,12,1,0,7,4,5,1,3,22,8,32,9,35,25,11,28,0,2,0,0,15,9,0,9,16,159,49,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0950697260182299,0.0,0.1073943345935073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14586593185689362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14998192353952894,0.10988922669221926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06537796644804189,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11255115969376754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09238547674739228,0.0,0.11589801756684935,0.0,0.0,0.11866892685551166,0.0,0.0,0.11056896150763602,0.09237336627462886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09385428172075268,0.10975291520866304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08959273854929646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1024809708764554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16268487969019116,0.07661867362604019,0.1029758139949302,0.0,0.0,0.09122590484020794,0.0,0.0,0.0828602752328881,0.0,0.05603315153208088,0.0,0.060952051681004274,0.0,0.08577678528663378,0.0,0.11814681335089215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11006836735091516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07188671264776839,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11481222262207312,0.0,0.23169454703009254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11865507650880272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2619821060028667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09117922478820202,0.0,0.0,0.14317901818273432,0.0,0.10774598877152032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08560509126373805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14534933268415104,0.16313532352821164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2322803300555998,0.0,0.07435292027601087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12536828706730965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06870642571376474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10201831429711232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15182272222523244,0.0,0.085649152598854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12277439237579975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22294545462015947,0.0,0.08620264609845149,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07125143897842169,0.2748831948603358,0.1053715520284139,0.25543106715146313,0.06253772710913633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1456299984914081,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08512922705630503,0.0,0.0,0.0964296890468056,0.0,0.0,0.11973962621470673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15615703057931396,0.0,0.10929584588886526,0.07618657926092005,0.11725989414830865,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,hioctanecrazyblood,2019/02/22,"One of those days... just had one of those days, and its really bugging me. i was fine at school and all but then one of my friends got upset with me and then a man came up to me and said i was an asshole and then i felt nails piercing me in periods of 5-10 minutes for a couple seconds. and then I was getting headaches and i was hitting my head to stop it i should have asked for a panadol or something, and then on the bus i kind of had like an episode but it wasnt like a hallucination episode i just got al lconfused and i was being told about 2.5 days or weeks or months and now im home im okay but it really got to me :( Just wanted to share, I think i might see the 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schizophrenia,Gasky_Cuspo,2019/02/23,"I need some validation So my brother just came back to my moms house all of a sudden. It has been 10 years since I’ve seen him. He was 18; now he’s 28. I’m glad that he decided to visit, and I ask him how he’s been doing. He just goes on talking about his Star Trek game and how he has been fishing. Then he goes on about how he got some man put on house arrest for some reason. I got bored of conversation, and I had to go. So I did, but the next day I hear from my mother that he’s now moving in. Not really a surprise because my other siblings do this constantly. He gets all his stuff and brings it here. Everything seems fine and dandy. Friday I get a text from my mom at 5 AM. It said, “ Hi sweetie can you walk over later kerstie and i really really need you.” I was too busy then and it was WAYYY too early. After I got done my therapy appointment at 4 PM, I went to my mom’s: and a lot just happened then and there. I see my brother sitting on the daybed out in the living room with his hands in the praying position but pointing away from him in a death stare. Mumbling lots of things that I cannot comprehend. I go to my room and he just walks in without knocking or anything; and he just has my nieces pacifier in his mouth. What am I supposed to fucking do....I just laughed. Because I think it’s funny? But I didn’t want to humiliate him. So I didn’t laugh after that. My mom yells at him for having it in his mouth when he goes into her room. He also kept talking to himself when no one was around. My mother and father think he’s doing this to them on purpose; they are fucked up in the head as well. Today I went over there because I needed something to eat and I needed to buy bud (I don’t have a car). He was alright when I came in he was just acting like he was sleeping. I go into my parents room to chat with them. He ends up coming in to talk with us. Then he starts doing the praying thing again. My dad tells him to knock it off. In my head I’m thinking being mean doesn’t solve this. I’ve even told them this and they said that he would act like this (not as bad but as a child) when they first got custody back of him when he was 14. They believe drugs did this to him, but I do not think that entirely. I told them he should be evaluated, but they don’t want to put him on meds. Because it “screwed him up in the first place.” But when my mom went to check the mail, he was sitting in a baby pack and play praying. My mom just yelled so loud, never heard anything like it. Telling him to get out and that he is not a child. He wouldn’t get out, so she flipped him out it! I’ve never seen that strength from her, over him being a child? Too much...She comes back out a second time and I follow her. He is out there on the bed COMPLETELY NAKED and he PISSED THE BED. My parents were ballistic; yelling at him to get his clothes back on. I told them to take him to get evaluated or I’m calling the crisis hotline and having someone take him. Because he cannot be around these toxic fucking people. He needs help very badly. I love him to death even though I haven’t seen him much. But I just want to see him normal. What do you guys think. You think he’s playing this or actually delusional? 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I think. I hate fleas so much. When my head is bad I hallucinate bugs. I scratch bug bites that aren't there and lose my appetite when rice turns into larvae. I don't know if these fleas are real. I don't know if I would rather them be my head fucking up or reality. Fuck. 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First off, I just want to thank everyone in advance for their insight or help- and I just ask for kindness in responses. I am simply trying to do my best in understanding this situation. Forewarning: long text. I was dating a coworker (28, male) after entering into a casual relationship with him. We were very professional at work and it was nice knowing we had each other’s backs, because it’s very toxic where we work. We were together for about a month; and in that time, he felt very safe around me and explained that his mother was diagnosed with schizophrenia when he was just a child, and his parents had to split up because she was trying to kill his dad. He would often witness her coming to their house in a cab in her hospital gown- as she frequently escaped from the hospital. Needless to say he never had a mother’s love, sadly, and whilst seeing him for a month he explained how deeply abusive his father (still is). His father will call him in the early mornings and complain his car won’t start. He’ll call him and tell him that he’s taking his dog- or order him to research a car for him. He even texts “emergency” to him at work and when he calls in a panic, it turns out to be a story about how his truck has no gas, so he’s taking his son’s truck. Needless to say I bluntly pointed out how unhealthy his father’s behaviours are, especially because he’s very aware that he has to deal with his mother’s illness. It’s almost as if he’s the child and he’s made my ex partner the father. It really hurts me to see, and as much as I understand the cycle of abuse- he explained to me that he almost took his life twice because of his father’s abuse. Fast forward, last weekend we had a bit of a rough patch because he finally texted his dad and asserted a boundary to him regarding not being able to keep dumping stuff on him, and to respect his new life path with me. Well after he sent it, he felt liberated. Then within 10 minutes he was pacing and looked like a 7 year old who was just scolded. He was expecting his father to send a barrage of messages in disapproval, and he started treating me like garbage. I asked him to take me home, and he disappeared into the back room. I honestly was in fight or flight mode because I lost my fiancé to suicide in 2012 and found him, and my gut felt something was off. I eventually went back there and he was just laying down, and he took me home. A couple of days passed and I didn’t hear from him. He then came over Monday night and spent the night. Tuesday morning he told me he was going to do those things he said he wouldn’t, for his dad, and he said he couldn’t say no to his dad ever. He told me he was picking his dad. I was puzzled and hurt. He left that morning to go help his dad, and when he was supposed to come pick me up for work- his demeanour changed. He wasn’t even going to come here so he called me and said he wasn’t going into work. I managed to ask him to meet me in the parking lot, and when he showed up he just kept repeating “I don’t know what to do. I don’t know what to do.” He then took a set of keys out of his pocket and waved them at me and asked me if I knew what they were. He explained he wanted to give his gun safe keys to me because he didn’t feel safe with them around because of suicidal thoughts. He told me he was losing weight; wasn’t sleeping- and at work, he explained he has been “gapping out” for 10 minutes or more while looking at something simple to fix. He told me “my family members have been coming forward and telling me that I seem to be going down the path my mom was, before she was diagnosed with schizophrenia.” I asked him to elaborate, but he didn’t. He said “I know you need a rock, but I have to do me right now, I have severe anxiety right now and I can’t deal.” He left, and oddly called the cops on me. They came and I was confused as I was not in crisis, so I told them about him and about the gun safe keys and they were going to check on him. He wouldn’t answer their calls, so they made me call from my phone and he answered, and when they asked him where he was, he said he was at his dad’s house and that he was fine (By the way, he was his own house, and doesn’t live with his dad). They left my place and that’s the last time I’ve heard from him. Over the course of the month I noticed several things- one thing that struck me as unusual was he said when he was in his bed, often times there would be animals on top of him (like a wolf or a bear), and he could feel their breath and hear their snorting- and he said often times they would just walk away, and he was never scared, but he said it was so vivid and weird for him. He would also talk to himself a lot, and when he would come to my place, he would look around often. At nighttime recently, he would huff and puff and basically not sleep, and seemed very agitated. Well since Tuesday, I have not heard from him and all I want to do is help. I myself have experienced schizophrenia first hand with my deceased fiancé, and he knows this. I’m not sure if he has it, but is any of that behaviour indicative at all? Also, he won’t talk to me or respond to the two texts I’ve sent, but he’s actively looking at my Instagram stories every day, which I find odd. Why would he do that? I don’t understand why he just cut me away, when every day he explained how much joy I brought to him, and how amazing I am. He told me he doesn’t even want to carpool anymore, which I really don’t understand as we have to work together. Somehow I feel like I did something wrong here, but I know all I tried to do was help- and he even acknowledged the cycle of abuse he is in with his father. His possible schizophrenia doesn’t scare me, and I’ve told him this. What should I do at this point? I asked him to at least talk with me before our next shift, to ensure we can be civil and work safely together, but he never responded. I would think he could at least do that- but then again, this stonewalling from him has severely debilitated me and confused me to the point of crying every day since. tl; dr: ex possibly has schizophrenia and has pushed me away, but is still orbiting my social media. What can I do so he knows I would help him hell or high water? What to do about his codependency with his father? Should I block him from my social media for his sake? 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Before reading this for llthe last few months I've had fits of fear thinking people could read my thoughts even though everytime I am aware of how ridiculous and obviously not true it is it doesn't make the fear go away as easily as I would wish. It hasn't happened in a while but now that I know that this is a sign of schizophrenia I've been shaken. I'm not aware if I exhibit other symptoms but for context of my mental state I am 19 diagnosed with ADHD, anxiety, depression, learning disabilities. For a while (still do) suspect strongly that I have OCD for a number of reasons the main reason is suspect is because I have extreme intrusive thoughts (maybe I'm misdiagnosed with ADHD?) I'm a maladaptive daydreamer but thats probably a symptom of my ADHD or OCD I would just want some clarity of what I'm experiencing suggests that I should seek out help and maybe some advice that would calm me down",7.213732394366198,7.2111182253521156,7.2320305164319265,74.82720070422539,63.92957746478872,10.292488262910801,37.46830985915493,9.928628108626363,3.7229408450704233,894,42,161,17,12,287,123,213,0.129,0.732,0.138,0.2505,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,0,1,6,8,1,2,13,0,21,4,0,4,2,44,38,15,0,9,9,0,0,0,0,4,4,0,0,0,15,7,0,0,12,3,0,2,4,4,0,0,6,1,17,4,23,27,5,17,0,1,0,0,4,7,0,6,6,113,32,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4034517084673018,0.10934888776143788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08560437022531893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10513517845473837,0.0,0.0,0.06821413888709152,0.0,0.09521996683721204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12798554847735522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08934427252280115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09638063064462957,0.11357770548589845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0739099104315037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2518406812920214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1073461517571218,0.06359622277523035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09895416042735034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07500524208853213,0.0,0.0,0.11114347621956312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12632321561630724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061498158766025435,0.09121468870890376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07469514549520655,0.0,0.2248402708710321,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11277043070667722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0893187399694912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0775784366801846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1071707408908884,0.0,0.12064878428092644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3357954602137755,0.0,0.0,0.23010683632525375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1896276199007621,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08936471273671605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3489256327158401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07170198711683848,0.10994269285703512,0.26651196477020084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0660024263375586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12868124610546586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23847492579172114,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,niggamanca,2019/02/23,"being aware of delusions is it normal for a schizophrenic person to be aware of their own delusions? sometimes i feel like someone poisoned my food or is looking into my thoughts, but then i snap out of it. This happens a lot, i can always stop them instantly once they start, but it still happens every time.",8.213563218390803,7.607497827586207,7.412068965517242,76.35649425287356,62.103448275862064,9.11264367816092,38.298850574712645,7.793537801064563,3.1166712643678163,246,11,42,2,3,76,45,58,0.086,0.883,0.031,-0.4854,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,3,0,1,2,1,0,2,0,5,3,0,0,0,10,11,4,0,1,3,0,1,1,0,0,2,0,0,1,4,2,1,1,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,2,8,1,7,8,2,7,0,0,1,0,4,2,0,2,6,33,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2094277308158501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2120611873663341,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12726293086405474,0.1798086641450963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3043467099711828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4451404350633927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12296389452057667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2113577123199244,0.0,0.0,0.2139793581780303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24660451370947306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26804354064519914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21976756169705025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21325763580358326,0.0,0.2489296147769436,0.0,0.17814874349973747,0.0,0.20100138758765104,0.2104256053741432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19981516599042806,0.14676350604877386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,CantSleepTday,2019/02/23,"Should I see a doc? This is my first time of reddit so please forgive me Hi. My name is Mike, I'm 17, and I would like advice. If anyone thinks I should see a therapist or something please tell me, I could just be paranoid thanks to my love of horror. It's very hard to explain the things that I've been going through for, I believe is a few years, but I'll try. There are many times when I'm convinced someone is watching me. I know it's a generic story, but when I think about it, I'm paranoid to no end. And it's been happening for so long that I've convinced myself everything weird that happens is just their fault and it's normal. There's sounds I'd hear, for an example, like just today it was buzzing noises, almost like a phone buzz. These noises were coming from my bedside table, which is completely empty. This is just one example of many, and I'm well aware I maybe thinking to too much into this. I turned off the video I was watching so I could hear the buzzing better and the buzzing just stopped. So I turned my video back on. Then the buzzing happend again, video off, no buzzing. The noise wasn't coming from my phone or the video I can promise that. I turned off my phone and listened for a good five minutes and then shrugged it off. I'd tell myself it was the person (who's watching me) doing it and it was normal. Or that it was part of my imagination. Which I'd believe if stuff like that didn't happen all the time. Idk. I believe it's more than one person. I know I sound nuts or like I'm making this up, but it really is killing me. I'm aware of what other people think like and that this is not normal. And yet I some how convinced myself that it is normal? Like I said I could just be completely paranoid and it's not a real problem, but I'd like some advice. Should I go see a doctor? There's alot more weird shit I think and hear so if anyone would like to hear it so you can understand more hmu. 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What is your experience so far on this or do you know of any journal statistics on this too? 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Of course I am not asking reddit to diagnose me. More like does my symptons sound any familiar to people who are diagnosed with schizophrenia. I don't hear sounds or hallucinate in general. But I can't control my own thoughts. My own thoughts would bombard me constantly with suicidal thoughts and other very nasty ideas 24/7. I learned to live with this for many years. I always listened to music at high volumes to drown out my own thoughts. I have been having mild panic attacks when I am around people. Doing groceries and stuff. It would be feel like people are staring me. This is what I thought to be anxiety. Around 4 months ago my friend finally got me to see a psychiatrist who diagnosed me with depression. I got prescibed prozac. I can't even remember the last time it was this quiet in my own head. Prozac worked but it also made me not care about anything which resulted in my financial situation failing and generally everything else went for worse too. I met the psychiatrist again this time I got diagnosed for schizophrenia. I am not sure if this is misdiagnosis that's why I am here. I am now on haloperidol. My thoughts are more controlled and I don't get panic/anxiety attacks in grocery store. But the side effects of haloperidol are very nasty. I actually went off my dose for some time but I got a good tip to half my dosage. My original presciption was 1-3mg a day. But taking 1mg at time would cause my body be really restless. I couldn't focus on anything or stay still at all. It's very nasty feeling. I am no taking 0.5mg when I wake up and 0.5mg later in the day and the side effects are much more controlled. Does this sound anything like a schizophrenia? It is a bit hard pill to swallow being schizophrenic. As I have had this for many years now. It's a good thing I finally got to see a doctor but I am unable to go see psychiatrist again as I don't have money.",3.6414442815249295,5.836806336021508,4.317653958944284,84.18511730205282,74.34946236559139,7.627370478983384,28.477028347996093,8.484438967287268,2.1741010752688177,1535,64,293,29,33,489,179,372,0.139,0.8009999999999999,0.06,-0.9825,0,0,0,0,0,0,36.0,0,0,0,7,14,14,2,2,12,0,37,15,3,9,2,54,66,20,2,5,12,0,3,3,1,3,11,6,0,0,21,13,1,3,13,0,2,3,10,6,0,1,20,13,43,8,40,38,11,45,0,2,4,0,7,18,0,4,26,194,64,4,0.0,0.0,0.0701118978277739,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06368765796064073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057455683856738674,0.05978210984914016,0.0,0.0,0.0488581379440949,0.0,0.10992487368929403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17737084019007113,0.12791737664747074,0.0671668534770099,0.16347171311548045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07843785696976716,0.07980535343374558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07325237636350873,0.07380622843922438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0776406287286286,0.2417461452349133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09267020041984536,0.0,0.061881353848053135,0.3646138303627335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07353801875917236,0.1257468521835592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06001859821696101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04745398831382976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06457107317174081,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07265557892453325,0.0513272109184108,0.0,0.15740883253354973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05550848928022379,0.0,0.03753687255338914,0.0,0.04083206696856087,0.12052300468789932,0.3447736387449515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06436042333624012,0.0,0.073735318547011,0.0,0.08097631701187004,0.0,0.0,0.07590985614112815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08110604332523316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0585645517193989,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10530182924300946,0.0,0.06344184619649011,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06798297092301395,0.0,0.14568231016967825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05734725448823685,0.0,0.052815502878745986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16859296221760894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1494281161809181,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.046026758715149316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08138816918623368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1717572661226162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08075856587598662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07657889450604648,0.057376771384494825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08224714465313672,0.0785884970584852,0.0,0.06771455113102576,0.0,0.10803937308731132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04773167510749996,0.0,0.0,0.3422289538132136,0.16757727367380168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17784285799206204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1332049984291149,0.06483036319035501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05230516573581808,0.0,0.07321780277513579,0.1531132465943041,0.0,0.0,0.09253368353357162 schizophrenia,errrrrrrrrrm,2019/02/23,they won’t tell me for sure been two three different psych doctors and they won’t tell me for sure it’s maybe bipolar or maybe ptsd or maybe schizo even though the voice i hear is a lot more clear and there’s times i don’t remember anything at all. my bf found me taken too many of my anxiety meds and drank and i was telling him the demon wanted me to and didn’t like arguing with it anymore and i feel like i’m being watched all the time and that people want to hurt me or that i’m dead already. the demon isn’t always mean so i don’t think he was doing it bad i think he just wants to help me really i used to be so good i’m only 25 i got done with graduate school and wanted to help people and now i’m just scared. i don’t know where i am or who i am a lot and i don’t know what to do to fix it. when i went to hospital at seventeen they said i probably had schizo or affective and i went to school but then they said it may be trauma and i just don’t understand. i feel like i trick myself all the time and don’t believe anything fro. myself or other people is that normal? it’s so different to read things and i feel like every thing is. a lie anyway so it’s hard to figure anything out but i lost my job already. i’m trying find testing again but it’s really expensive??! how do you start or how do you trust yourself it’s wrong and you aren’t lying to yourself i’m scared it’s faking faking andi’m really scared of the hospital again i can’t do it im really scared to post it but you seem to understand you really do ,-0.2588255494505489,1.8169246696428587,2.1688095238095246,94.85824175824177,88.01785714285714,5.708058608058607,16.94871794871795,7.116496586553881,0.005789926739927065,1203,28,281,19,39,410,148,336,0.152,0.768,0.08,-0.9798,4,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,5,4,1,19,21,2,4,9,0,32,3,0,4,6,65,65,35,1,5,14,0,4,4,1,3,2,4,0,0,20,18,1,0,15,1,1,2,12,13,0,2,15,9,42,8,23,44,6,16,2,2,1,0,23,4,0,11,13,180,62,8,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1843182800129784,0.0,0.06948985883586174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06388754072493512,0.0,0.08282287581832155,0.0,0.0,0.20617329628394693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06973022062871753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09409103035364937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17450750617434987,0.0,0.08547952816552089,0.0,0.08546322792825731,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05515982887603108,0.0,0.07036366157072696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1266806893193711,0.17898602024047672,0.0,0.0,0.07632975650448802,0.0,0.0,0.09156815877622804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07004709773016221,0.0667933142182827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07481162413868793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09412569834692397,0.0,0.11195457535408468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08940284758946936,0.0,0.090208828826645,0.0,0.08287418692401304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09179358746128406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16320176203706402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0911647675417973,0.14200025312459014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0846695039211532,0.2517013779332139,0.09097060146573452,0.09276458723941802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0818254238786828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06351572216252653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17369307851001006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0799827748883202,0.0,0.09004159599414759,0.0,0.097622723480633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0835360238548148,0.0,0.267504189284982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09460442935073084,0.0,0.1588807810900408,0.0,0.33444602557912995,0.16904008718478966,0.0,0.07602748460671263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05911123130330925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15742082743827415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21898324057032725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11096521596810437,0.10702405986817076,0.08205151499654878,0.0,0.14609204728317066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05670013288758905,0.0,0.08158048021060091,0.17388083915343014,0.0,0.07212878437703746,0.0,0.0,0.19703352478320726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15483556134818338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09130881891736042,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,nerfedpsych,2019/02/23,"Risperdal - Kept down - No high I dont feel anything from tobacco. I always look forward to the first smoke of the day to get a bit swept off my feet. But on this shit I dont feel SHIT! Im forced to take it, will talk to my psychiatrist on monday... we’ll SEE how IT goes then. What are your experiences on Risperdal? :$",-0.5549419568822564,1.6379739701492575,1.226766169154228,99.52665008291876,92.88059701492537,4.768822553897182,17.892205638474298,6.42735559955562,-0.33715456053068005,244,7,60,3,9,79,51,67,0.16,0.789,0.051,-0.7562,0,0,2,0,0,0,13.0,1,1,0,1,1,2,2,0,3,0,5,3,3,1,0,5,12,3,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,3,2,0,1,1,4,7,0,11,9,1,11,0,0,2,0,3,7,2,0,5,34,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.183789569332424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1817651379480503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2411433786497437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14244910616313555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5177386271057118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21606268850886048,0.0,0.0,0.2233667830365135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1878801238248782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1154005045670482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2333714852732797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2385879332291183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18548328232865205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.176012489634161,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.453459588575781,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16607401362021035,0.1775347019180337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Ali13196,2019/02/23,"how should sarcosine be consumed? Hi, How should sarcosine be consumed? and at what grams? i've read it should be taken on an empty stomach? with water ? also i've heard it with NAC is very good, how shall i trial and at what mg? Lastly, how many hours of intervals shall i wait? for example if i take 1g of sarcosine and it doesnt work, how long should i wait to make it into 2g ?",-0.17962500000000148,2.035740287500005,2.2800000000000007,92.965,89.875,5.7,18.0,7.1686216300943375,0.31210000000000004,293,8,65,5,10,100,50,80,0.024,0.921,0.055,0.5192,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,1,6,1,0,0,1,0,11,2,1,6,0,19,17,10,0,5,1,0,0,0,0,6,0,1,0,0,6,6,1,2,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,1,4,1,10,6,0,7,0,0,0,0,2,4,0,1,3,42,10,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2825499723145757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29634815349814564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3479491472836355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2880030548098844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3126771878660156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23584392367704665,0.35821114589638897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3534157334443225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26565275901005264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2915261016780365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2572212553837938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,mainetreehugger,2019/02/23,Group homes: your thoughts on the good and the bad The.plan is for my 26 year old son to move into a group home in the near future. We haven't found the placement yet so every expectation he has is theoretical...and mostly not good. Will you share some of your experiences? He is worried about being locked up without freedom to come and go. Thank you.,3.4922549019607843,5.626768029411769,4.1005882352941185,85.84931372549022,74.58823529411767,6.298039215686276,24.568627450980397,7.1686216300943375,0.945374509803922,278,9,55,3,6,88,55,68,0.117,0.748,0.135,0.1109,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,1,4,0,0,3,5,0,0,5,0,7,0,0,0,0,12,12,3,0,1,2,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,5,0,0,2,0,0,3,3,1,0,0,2,0,6,4,11,8,2,12,0,0,0,0,11,5,0,2,4,36,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1992876601672925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2056015102749259,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20109802247575814,0.0,0.0,0.23347463974810176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.261700077008307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1356472285599105,0.4003865779367586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4788305927042161,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2536788505206421,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25045429585115336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.219744288701266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18948509739278985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23007880623076554,0.0,0.0,0.2423909188365973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1537019633298668 schizophrenia,Phrenia1234567,2019/02/23,"Does anyone know how I can change my username. I am new and changed my mind on phrenia. If possible that is otherwise I will learn to like it. 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My cousin is a diagnosed schizophrenic on medication. Sometimes I get a message from my brother who he’s quite close with that he could “use some love” so I call and chat with him for a while until he doesn’t feel like talking anymore. He lives pretty far away so I only get to see him in person a couple of times a year, if that. His condition has been more or less swept under the rug by most of our extended family so I check in fairly often. I’m just wondering if anyone could give me some ideas for casual conversation when it seems like he’s having a bad day and his daily general interests don’t seem to do the trick? He lives with his mother who is wonderful so he’s not alone but he seems to appreciate when we reach out to him. I’m very sorry if this question seems odd or ignorant I just want to be able to make sure he’s okay without him feeling like he’s being analyzed I guess. Is just “hey man, how are things?” good enough? I just want to be able to be an effective part of the support system for him. 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I've had nightmares of nearly being gang raped by ppl from my old school aat a house party in miami, having to cut my throat in my dream so i wont work my life on a field which made me cry in my dream, scary zombies and escping on a train just to meet a zombie screaming on the outside of the train, escaping people throwing bricks at us of a cliff, escaping 2 wild bears in a forest and oddly cooperating with them so they wont kill us and ofering them food to escape from them and oddly bonding with them and among other things a can't remember at this moment. I've never had dreams this bad ever? Could my meds/condition be causing this? ",8.05318181818182,5.928280378787882,8.186969696969701,75.55045454545456,63.39393939393939,10.618181818181819,33.36363636363636,8.841846274778883,2.629990909090909,518,15,102,6,6,170,86,132,0.163,0.732,0.105,-0.903,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,2,0,5,1,4,5,3,0,9,0,9,4,1,2,2,14,10,7,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,1,0,0,6,7,1,0,1,3,0,1,4,5,0,0,3,1,15,0,22,2,0,16,0,0,0,1,8,11,0,0,4,71,21,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1819013224958172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22379893810354046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1739409222572008,0.0,0.23930545763978894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19706394204918976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2634332991799825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2513774894201989,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24102626358357665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15387869587715167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20614136534862712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1680245894148375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.228604057079298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15103446972473145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2467892781307632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22048270560797603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1447343730855724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5241097966078447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1586023401621847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,JanusMagusZeal,2019/02/24,"My husband and I [M] just bought a dog and I'm freaking out! I can't take care of myself, what about a animal?",-2.6678,-1.0136634799999982,1.0075000000000005,98.97125,103.8,4.1000000000000005,14.25,5.985473137389443,-0.7651999999999997,83,2,21,1,4,30,21,25,0.252,0.748,0.0,-0.6927,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,5,2,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,4,1,3,4,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,14,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8048235919817855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5935140990655036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Steve-Evans-1978,2019/02/24,"Interesting project Hi. This study is still looking for additional participants. It is trying to analyse the link between relationships and psychosis. I’ve completed it and it’s really interesting, hopefully they get good participant numbers when it is published. They’re still open for participants [link here ](https://www.psych-ssl.manchester.ac.uk/survey/cpollard/)",9.520424528301886,14.235713377358492,8.144693396226419,48.46911556603774,75.60377358490567,11.706603773584904,42.474056603773576,10.125756701596842,7.289115094339625,311,19,32,12,8,95,41,53,0.0,0.7879999999999999,0.212,0.8903,0,0,0,0,0,0,20.0,0,0,1,0,4,4,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,0,0,7,6,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,4,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,4,4,6,0,4,0,0,1,0,3,1,0,1,3,20,6,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3630040645450408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18088515285511653,0.0,0.0,0.2903920950596115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34387361515458503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2907367866541137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22179677525808286,0.0,0.0,0.37170966801620137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5529819271680565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2350599941030167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,StarlightxUK,2019/02/24,"Is being 'lazy' a negative symptom? I always get called lazy by my Mum and I'm not sure if it's a negative symptom or not? I lack enthusiasm, motivation and I don't look after myself. I'd rather stay indoors than go out and I am sometimes quite flat and I can't relate to people or laugh much.",-0.08241935483870932,2.193832935483872,3.038951612903226,87.07842741935484,90.61290322580645,5.680645161290323,20.65322580645161,7.1686216300943375,0.8111225806451609,230,8,48,4,8,82,46,62,0.259,0.654,0.087,-0.8779,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,2,1,2,0,0,2,0,5,2,0,1,1,14,9,7,0,3,6,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,5,0,0,1,0,0,1,6,0,0,0,0,1,7,2,5,8,2,4,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,3,1,34,8,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2352323707696227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28867238707782056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14770116920083756,0.0,0.16066719526421536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23740015496408606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2078199646501092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19599135436770665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3006904973856049,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27960147975932537,0.0,0.0,0.3013248436870489,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2664451696058888,0.5876753924247271,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Expensive-o-Dot,2019/02/24,"Feel like I can’t relate. I hear a voice for maybe 5 seconds once a month; but I have visual hallucinations of things like angels that have life and personality, outside of my conscious control. It’s like being on a light dose of LSD 24/7. They aren’t always vivid hallucinations, they can be sort of ethereal. I don’t even know how my brain could orchestrate these beings that seem to have emotion and life. What hurts the most is when I’m in mental pain and they don’t help; it makes me feel like God has abandoned me. Anyone else get visual hallucinations that mouth things to them and are emotive and understandable?",5.82279661016949,7.008243101694918,5.8625000000000025,79.30273305084748,67.13559322033898,8.272881355932205,26.614406779661017,8.472884824447931,1.64526779661017,498,14,95,7,8,157,81,118,0.101,0.758,0.141,0.4767,1,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,4,1,3,7,0,0,4,0,15,6,2,3,0,19,24,8,0,1,1,0,2,4,0,0,4,2,0,1,9,5,0,2,6,0,0,0,4,3,0,1,0,6,12,4,9,20,1,4,1,2,1,0,7,2,0,3,6,60,21,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14333079335999482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1204454022166441,0.17649663100542867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1922946674573225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19319975421676547,0.13753240153146234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14389778682117754,0.38752963595357975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11377346517680605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17419562132487784,0.2461194454480237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08999665178942598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19414503419117304,0.0,0.11545956758730035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18440361353890544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0946673941823871,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2433390177984765,0.3366223276661717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11498221937031301,0.0,0.1730543074598647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17359353564458824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13749309791104225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18344702101308716,0.0,0.0,0.1832925317893866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1504072973054715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15681539534544628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.228878468117762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17932457371104205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,thelizabethsw,2019/02/24,"Numbed emotions? I’m schizoaffective and I’ve been taking an antidepressant and antipsychotics for at least a year, and I’ve definitely noticed that it tamped down my emotions. Any kind of emotion. Happiness, sadness, anger. I couldn’t really *feel* them all the way anymore. Now I’ve started taking birth control and I think it’s undone all of that? It’s been two months and for the first time I’m really *feeling* things and I feel kind of like a tea kettle, like the emotions are about to shoot out the top of my head like steam. Idk what to do so I took some klonopin to calm down. Have any of you ever experienced something that brought your emotions down, then all of a sudden back up? How did you deal? ",1.1532186305179015,3.7841841897810227,1.9411470281543293,92.76515815085159,93.96350364963504,4.945290232881474,21.122349669794925,6.655083550727371,0.5897225582203682,562,20,111,8,21,174,86,137,0.08800000000000001,0.784,0.128,0.6889,0,0,1,1,0,0,19.0,0,3,1,3,6,10,1,0,8,0,7,3,1,2,4,19,18,9,0,1,0,0,3,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,8,7,1,1,4,0,0,2,1,3,0,2,5,4,10,7,18,12,5,21,0,1,0,0,5,7,0,1,14,70,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1737852660180484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12672029084414818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09825250294104332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14331259140001953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13173231161197815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7186587348152309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11558146734762807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1938234290499816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10868691502239533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13602082242250393,0.0,0.0,0.13113590169236672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2661198325333097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18727592963246845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10199025480715733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14547477949781926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16371423152501655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09836885421847068,0.0,0.0,0.090441105176573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.192144563653708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08488925494392996,0.0818742398148894,0.0,0.0,0.07450770309058803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1419647710120541,0.0,0.0,0.12481940620088608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1014233082499698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08228409577802602 schizophrenia,BestNameEverTaken,2019/02/24,"""Benefits"" from schizophrenia I feel like this is a strange thing to ask but did any of you guys ever benefit from symptoms? In my case it was people coughing at exams to direct me or correct me or voices telling me to ""look at that task again"" and it helped me out sometimes. Also voices telling me they love me or reminding me to stay on medication and so on. I believe that if you have a positive mind, it will resonate back in some ways. What are your experiences?",5.200366300366298,6.026245318681326,5.755769230769232,80.8100641025641,68.34065934065934,8.704029304029303,32.74908424908425,8.841846274778883,2.6658117216117208,368,16,71,6,6,119,67,91,0.014,0.818,0.168,0.9546,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,3,1,0,5,4,0,0,2,0,6,4,0,0,2,13,10,9,0,1,5,0,1,1,0,1,3,2,0,1,8,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,4,14,4,14,7,1,12,0,0,1,1,10,7,0,5,4,57,22,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18155039096860207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15438357792182095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2122360694424451,0.0,0.0,0.17456684667660116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25577743244900514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20535550428915847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22207227633927498,0.0,0.0,0.11478976381770173,0.16218543726327034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22478868523776235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15216888223753947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1109120803229006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1906423316949284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20489732409283012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2287020150791393,0.0,0.0,0.22922874014947545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15738931928818273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22453177444106534,0.0,0.0,0.2419765513918859,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2359640563598849,0.0,0.0,0.39685661011412016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15082414298575192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1802004689013384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,ranzband,2019/02/24,What the hell is a delusion The other day I realized that everything I was thinking and wanting to say would come out completely different. If I was thinking A it would come out G. Every thing was evidence that this was true. If a delusion I supported by fact is it a delusion ,3.2461111111111123,5.523467685185183,4.792370370370372,79.9396666666667,75.85185185185185,8.764444444444445,33.022222222222226,9.3871,3.5407599999999997,221,12,40,6,5,74,34,54,0.087,0.816,0.097,-0.128,1,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,6,0,8,0,0,0,2,15,14,3,0,5,2,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,8,5,0,0,3,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,4,1,4,2,4,8,0,5,1,0,0,0,1,2,1,2,1,33,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4695412593998777,0.2857548938011873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1757669153025561,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2847481752543143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22962822259873214,0.0,0.2449429978084309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21673617977176876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3092772068497762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1810646628119825,0.34926756360064803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16075221598172895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3872117527017119,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,dnycole,2019/02/24,"Zyprexa experiences I was put on Zyprexa earlier last year for schizoaffective psychosis and dissociative personality. I remember it helping quite abit. My memory is also extremely bad. I got off of it around September of last year because I moved and didnt have a new psych to prescribe to me again. And around Thanksgiving I was placed in inpatient because I had a mental break complete loss of touch with reality. Hallucinations psychosis all of it. They gave it to me again and then again I stopped taking it... I have an appointment with a neuro psych in about a week and a half. And I did alot of research and decided I'd like to stay on zyprexa. But I really dont remeber being this tired... I also use to be on adderall to stop the insatiable hunger and drowsiness. I remember it working well together. I also took neurontin and vistaril. However now even at 10mg I am so BEYOND tired like I dont remeber being this tired?? And adderall isnt helping at all. I took it at midnight. Fell asleep at 1am. Woke up at 1pm... couldn't move... woke up again at 3.. couldn't move. Then at 6pm I forced myself awake. Took 15mg adderal. I felt like a zombie. I fell asleep at 10pm and now here I am awake at 1am. I've felt really calm and at ease and generally good. But this comma sleep I have no idea what to do about it I'm getting nothing done at all. And for what I have I should be taking a higher mg. I also dont know what other AP I could look into for what I have. One with slightly less sedative and weight gain effect. Or if i should power through the zyprexa again and wait until I adjust. At a total crossroads. 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It really freaks me out everytime it happens. Sometimes I get this strange squeezing sensation on my brain during it. I guess I was just wondering if this is normal.,4.323431372549024,6.664388794117649,4.2741176470588265,84.60519607843139,72.82352941176471,6.886274509803924,28.98039215686275,7.793537801064563,1.9944921568627456,290,12,51,4,6,89,51,68,0.091,0.909,0.0,-0.5984,1,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,6,1,0,0,3,0,4,1,1,0,0,16,10,5,0,2,7,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,5,0,0,2,1,0,1,1,1,0,0,1,2,7,0,8,8,0,13,0,0,1,0,0,8,0,7,3,37,12,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4253071841932468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2666687645887514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.124804791870459,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2631529379883958,0.0,0.21124054336611495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25389133292918303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23405140207093106,0.2292115294938911,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2389443595872868,0.0,0.15303246251391278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2174671211542969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4725162932269744,0.0,0.16908029202746302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2590548613638834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,iliveinframes,2019/02/25,Sounds on Guitar I have really only been able to play when I have my stress levels maintained very well. It's rare that i can pay attention long enough without the distractions. I'm new here.,2.7987837837837866,5.473464486486488,3.32560810810811,87.69489864864866,79.81081081081079,6.943243243243244,20.06081081081081,8.07648339933343,1.0797081081081084,154,4,29,3,4,48,33,37,0.111,0.716,0.173,0.3254,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,3,4,0,2,1,0,4,0,0,0,0,2,5,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,1,2,1,0,1,1,4,2,3,4,1,5,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,3,18,6,1,0.34293611787966444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3543446823724081,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30348767275321714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3312098396183902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2608183709408001,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21969365849487846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3928321643709597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2829582124264117,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3083407549458943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33057817993209165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,jurdel,2019/02/25,art posted here i just love how creative you guys are it brings a smile on my face every time I see a pic posted . keep working on art that changes people minds even through all the hardship. i hope everyone of yous guys on this board get help and recover or at least learn how to cope and look for better days. since i started doing art my recovery has increased dramatically and i hope it does for you too.,5.451851851851847,5.819633938271608,5.587259259259259,83.85866666666669,67.64197530864197,8.455308641975309,29.78024691358025,8.238735603445708,1.886109135802468,323,11,66,4,5,102,62,81,0.025,0.7190000000000001,0.256,0.9628,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,2,0,2,6,4,0,0,3,0,3,2,1,2,1,13,12,6,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,4,3,0,1,1,3,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,9,4,9,12,3,11,0,0,2,1,6,4,0,3,3,40,13,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18090379059690687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21638191922562025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13191486612289308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17899906438118734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13510031244252338,0.0,0.1723383276654064,0.1954519023259977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10686653304123048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4050642237238515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1371024749161184,0.0,0.0,0.4063194847767225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18180935634850276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17176662609871116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.184610216121354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20653255208471105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14180603078945206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3917959173411264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1629962070766311,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1692020746757524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14477829211340298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11927207193772815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14891149267652978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,raveramen,2019/02/25,"Are the inner voices similar to thoughts? Sometimes I hate how much I think. I always think way too much about the simplest things and come to odd conclusions, I think there is a special hidden meaning behind things that I found out, but then I intrusively keep on thinking about it and keep changing my minds about it. Those thoughts are however also filled with overthinking about general anxieties and then I often have this strong inner monologue about what other people would comment to my thoughts. Personalities that I know from real life start to comment on my thoughts with either validating responses to my assumptions or invalidating ones where in I hear those persons discuss about me. The thoughts seen to somewhat make sense to me but then the next day I might come to the conclusion that I‘m just paranoid. But then I’m really concerned about it and overthink it further.. All of this started when I started to get bad social anxiety from a slow and painful anxiolytic withdrawal to a point where I often dissociated badly for months, and I started isolating myself. Because of dissociation I couldn’t understand my surroundings that well so I started the habit of thinking about what people could have said or meant after I was done dissociating in public, when being by myself. Especially after smoking weed it instantly triggered those thoughts. Could this be any indication for schizophrenia? I definitely have the negative symptoms but I’m unsure if that inner monologue is just overthinking and anxiety, or if it could be considered as voices talking to me which is seen with schizophrenia. 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I'm at the ""absent to three classes and your eligible to get dropped"" thing now for one of my classes and I'm en route to be there for two others also. It's not as if I'm doing anything important, and I don't even actually hate being at school that much I almost always enjoy class when I'm finally there. Just the cycle of unmotivated, depression, panic, and then complacency when it's time for class to start and I'm still at home kills me. I think deep down I really don't want to do school. The problem is that it's the thing that I've always been known for. Ever since I was a kid I'm the 'smart' one and all that and I've dedicated my entire life to doing well in class and learning a lot, even going way beyond the call of duty doing university during high school. Now I'm 18 years old in my junior year of university and I get such high praise and love from everyone I meet because of that. It means nothing to me. Class is interesting and all and I genuinely enjoy philosophy and french, but there is *something* that I want more out of life than school all the time. I don't know what that something is. I feel like if I were to do something other than school I'd just default to playing games and reading books all day as a useless depressed sack of potato. I've yet to hold a job for longer than a few months and I have problems getting one in the first place because I can't get a damn state ID for so long. I want to do something, but I don't know what to do. So I just stick with what I've been doing my whole life but at this point I'm so tired over it that I am struggling to care as much as I did. Just had to type this out, thanks.",3.1213888888888874,4.101173379032262,4.533333333333335,87.10055555555556,73.2741935483871,7.231541218637992,24.261648745519715,7.526774132740827,0.9396121863799296,1395,39,305,16,27,465,174,372,0.14800000000000002,0.727,0.125,-0.8359,1,0,4,0,0,0,28.0,0,1,0,2,24,24,4,2,14,0,31,5,0,1,5,51,59,33,1,7,11,0,1,1,0,0,4,0,1,1,23,18,0,2,7,4,0,1,7,13,1,6,8,1,27,11,49,49,10,41,1,4,0,1,7,17,2,4,21,206,50,21,0.0,0.0,0.09082594055992158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09319928673111567,0.0,0.10270850391164764,0.0744305415839787,0.15488858592995544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07659124859587449,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11347302190476426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09503806318242143,0.0,0.09489425029983237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0600244635773835,0.0,0.1603274862185884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12294783782662763,0.08418996687336529,0.0,0.08893535609070495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04706056673117353,0.06649145654898261,0.0,0.10195705515216667,0.0,0.07916794954491042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1945074579903279,0.0,0.05289559978158414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09189043842773616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19667372572690808,0.09335992951626897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09236071160451652,0.0,0.10297161893598564,0.0,0.10230110693489122,0.0,0.1049905349568076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19722089450306896,0.045470825827452654,0.0,0.0,0.08236678362832188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07912743951644392,0.08400212591100861,0.0,0.062127031281494736,0.09436153672951696,0.0,0.10138391456159893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07429007755884724,0.0,0.13683890676846222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08930617021141117,0.0,0.0976645843602322,0.0,0.1892062675039679,0.0,0.0,0.10920125427792776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09724160229391272,0.0,0.08798418364612187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17811681482450084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09309830834197892,0.0,0.0596250248637826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4709748391375431,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07699104784089122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2866089440832453,0.0,0.0,0.06587763439535951,0.0,0.07432831500424666,0.0,0.0,0.09730023486350392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08568922544773824,0.0,0.0,0.12366729244125292,0.059637498086659815,0.0,0.0,0.10854337116418117,0.1069738614785436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09091891558704436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1646908153887136,0.0738771115967088,0.0,0.0,0.08368391380124902,0.0,0.0,0.103912816247718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1198720773620459 schizophrenia,truthseeker11-11,2019/02/25,"Treating negative symptoms tips My Dr said there is no meds that treat negative symptoms of schizophrenia. How do you go about then? Do you just push through? 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His therapist and I feel it's that he's been home alone to long. Due to abusive father he's been home over 2 year. The abuse affected his brother also he self harms and attempted suicide and has strong anxiety. . I suffer from breast cancer which has made this that much harder to deal with, I don't know what to do or how to help anymore and I'm losing my patience. Sorry for ranting, my question is how do I get my son to realize no one's out to get him, especially if the therapist hasn't diagnosed him. 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A few weeks ago I was on a train. Some guy got on about an hour into the ride of three hours with his girlfriend. They sat down and she was being quite loud so I looked over for a second instinctively and he shouted at me. I just ignored him and went back to my music. Over the next half hour, however, I heard him muttering to his girlfriend about me. They were sitting maybe 5 seats in front of me, so I couldn't hear too well. He got up after a while to, I'd assume, use the toilet, and when he walked past me he was glaring at me and even leered at me. I was quite afraid that he would be getting off at my stop and I wasn't sure what to do so I held onto my bag securely and started going over all the scenarios in my head that could happen, what he wanted and everything like that. I kept hearing him muttering bad shit about me but he eventually got off a couple stops before me. It didn't even occur to me that this could have been a delusion, and now I'm not sure how to tell. How do I know what other experiences could be fake, and I never even considered that?",2.4739272030651307,3.6996305689655173,3.8306321839080484,90.55536398467434,75.20689655172413,7.052107279693488,21.940613026819925,7.594959193182576,0.6229963601532567,860,21,195,11,18,283,130,232,0.08900000000000001,0.895,0.016,-0.92,1,0,0,0,0,0,21.0,0,0,2,2,19,10,1,1,11,0,20,2,2,4,4,38,41,20,0,6,3,0,0,1,2,1,0,5,0,1,11,12,0,6,3,0,0,5,5,5,1,3,16,6,33,5,31,17,3,40,0,0,1,0,22,17,1,2,18,142,44,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11319139374497092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09818738769327663,0.1066176183963449,0.0,0.0,0.10865662166079064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30585539376415977,0.1412889443104074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25301839860336023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1147614781569574,0.12490743292881824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06671388236275343,0.0,0.07257039617496554,0.0,0.3063812514520793,0.0,0.0,0.12643531235567962,0.11291775379104504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13104899350708693,0.0,0.28783668536132045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3772531626168738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1403525414223072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06238393851902116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10722925280055036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1282839359097319,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09848406437971673,0.0,0.13580205888719907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12189661367574907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2716326563793689,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13107416541203532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09038116680558414,0.0,0.0,0.21351272387183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2406966958675958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11160857453105863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1102850261875711,0.0,0.0,0.0753161432991766,0.0,0.1024269470399773,0.0,0.11481058543819825,0.1183719099492263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09070884552198696,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,TcL1337,2019/02/25,"I could use some help I am looking for advice- I do work in a community regarding safety & have earned the trust of a diagnosed schizophrenic lady. She is very meek, and has been suffering symptoms such as: paranoia, hallucinated voices (having full on conversations) and looking like she's been having a hard time being at peace in the community. She hasn't always been one to go out much, but feels like she has been forced to, due to the belief that she is being tortured by people choking her, making it hard to breathe, and causing general discomfort around her neck. She's told me that she believes that mobile devices are the main source of how people are choking her. She knows I listen to her, and feels comfortable enough to have conversations with the voices in front of me. She'd recently expressed one of the voices in her head wants her to commit suicide, so I had brought it to my boss's & her boyfriends attention. She keeps asking me to help her, and I know that she needs professional help- but from what it seems, she stopped taking her symptom management meds & dismisses my opinion that the difficulties she's been having can only be helped by a doctor. &#x200B; Would anyone be able to give me some advice on what would be beneficial to do when encountering this lady? My heart goes out to her, and I feel like one of the only people left in the community that isn't annoyed by her existence. Her boyfriend has been dealing with this for years, and I'm not interested in trying to take the lady as a significant other. I just want to be a positive influence to her well being, and have my conscience clear that I did the best thing I could for her while the encounters happen. &#x200B;",10.211832298136644,8.057372729813668,9.540869565217395,67.62478260869567,59.27950310559007,12.554037267080743,39.14906832298136,11.062562989136584,4.2199167701863365,1377,52,243,27,14,441,166,322,0.113,0.7290000000000001,0.158,0.9386,0,0,0,0,0,2,43.0,0,0,0,3,7,12,2,1,18,0,39,9,4,6,2,46,63,16,1,7,4,0,5,3,0,2,5,4,0,0,16,13,0,2,8,0,0,3,3,4,1,3,10,11,45,8,43,41,7,24,1,1,2,0,39,14,0,4,10,188,61,6,0.09168828845580633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17919346863728236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07629200099087831,0.4967211111745192,0.22282261251416705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06411058314719204,0.0,0.0,0.08162201577166114,0.08571617269703838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10330130325820742,0.09622120201650047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09418912894556004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14641127517605448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09452659937870052,0.0,0.09306168275933367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09384684839995988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09473851179928162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13908106070422635,0.13100426318602865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0879557610141796,0.05210856728687136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08107965067624683,0.0,0.16426939408236366,0.0,0.09409863602751717,0.0,0.0,0.10865106328202732,0.2458269081830196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08149676360189992,0.0,0.0,0.10077897095883076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09961959368354488,0.0,0.0,0.13438279915549892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1539901400347032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061202644515478764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10184501882936273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06740144180470037,0.06798570411189585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18639107150763126,0.1394661500063107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19069534374929145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09053112349257073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08346957423888073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07665551467883881,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1002921059592517,0.0,0.0,0.19059847704843152,0.13787636434095474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06091362472463899,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053464178336264614,0.0,0.0,0.08761208883480352,0.0,0.062250329284169875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07918924259382615,0.0,0.07565244035040902,0.1081602561857491,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08243878264254616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0667501659980721,0.0,0.0,0.13026545890698718,0.0,0.22282261251416705,0.059044251646919774 schizophrenia,vp_cata,2019/02/25,"I do not know if I have a disease or not but I come to this subreddit to ask if you have had any of these experiences I work full time and I am going to school. In the past, I have done many drugs. Sometimes at work people would laugh at me because I zone out too much, but I can’t help it. People always say that I change the subject too much and then there would be days that I am fine, but sometimes not. Have you guys ran into any experiences like this before getting diagnosed? 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I was recently diagnosed with schizophrenia (July ‘18) and hallucinate Pokemon (sounds from the game — like ALL of the sounds), among other things as well of course. I was wondering if anyone else has hallucinations of Pokémon or of anything similar. And I was born in 1992. So I played Yellow, Silver, and Crystal when I was 8-10 years old or so.",5.117793427230048,7.454266154929577,5.810915492957751,74.47768779342726,70.54929577464789,8.67699530516432,30.143192488262912,9.2995712137729,2.9911389671361497,311,13,52,7,6,101,48,71,0.0,0.895,0.105,0.7425,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,0,4,3,0,0,3,0,5,1,0,0,1,9,6,10,0,1,3,0,0,1,0,0,1,2,0,0,2,4,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,4,3,5,3,10,2,1,9,0,0,1,0,1,3,0,4,7,36,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3517172494652527,0.5153945975078054,0.20696775141464116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25527297899921203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.420201459362041,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12287297503309767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2639129115721396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2483315248646331,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1670892034620886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22613381798235996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2727471899425152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16196141702774702 schizophrenia,foxfuckingfailure,2019/02/26,"Paranoia I'm feeling paranoid all the time again and I truly hate that Its like this every time I go through some stressful situation I don't know what I should do, I thought I was stable",6.786052631578947,6.006641815789473,6.725263157894743,80.68684210526318,65.05263157894737,8.65263157894737,37.42105263157895,7.1686216300943375,2.618642105263158,151,7,30,1,2,48,30,38,0.261,0.523,0.21600000000000005,-0.4404,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,0,1,3,1,1,1,0,4,0,0,0,1,7,10,1,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,0,3,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,2,1,6,1,1,7,2,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,4,20,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31035596221702805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18625194856917585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20934530147783556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3636754591122399,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2024389189387476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17996021938687512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4140477711609203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4219507508007224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2924336550063076,0.4295828925962429,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Hbgfrhb,2019/02/26,As a szc what hopes do you have for the future? 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Any insight?? Im worried im developing schizophrenia. I smoked weed for a few months in 2016. Then i had a panic attack while high off weed in 2017. The whole time during the attack i was thinking to myself that i was hallucinating everything and that i had lost my mind. But it was really happening. But I thought it wasnt real. After that i felt hazy for a few weeks. After that i had panic attacks. But i started doing more and getting out more and i didnt have one for about 11 months ! i still had anxiety alot tho but it seemed like it got better. Then i got arrested and took a huge loss. After the arrest i had 3 panic attacks. The first one i had sent me into feeling detached which i still have. I sit at home alot because ive lost my car so i have to rely on other people. I still hang out with friends. I still hang with my girlfriend and we still have sex. I still cook for her and play with my nieces. I still shower and eat. But i keep having intrusive thoughts and stuff. I also have a ringing in my ear and i am having cluster headaches. I also sometimes feel like a tiny crawling on my legs or neck sometimes. Ive been feeling really detached. I have intrusive thoughts that what i may be hearing is a hallucination and that i might be losing it. For example ill hear an airplane outside and think what if im hallucinating or i might hear birds chirping and think it’s hallucination. Then i ask my parents and they tell me they hear it too. Imagine feeling like that almost all day. I read that it starts with cluster headaches and panic attacks and skin crawling hallucinations and feelings if detachment. I started trying 5htp. Idk if it works or not. The other night i had a horrible realistic nightmare that i had lost my mind and nobody would help me. I know i should talk to a doctor but i just wanted to know if anybody could provide insight. Im 19 and I turn 20 in a couple months. I know it shows up in your 20s. I suffered childhood trauma as well. I have smoked a couple times since that traumatizing smoking event but i figured its not for me. Its been about a year since i smoked weed. And also i think my great grand mother or great great grandmother had SZ. Please provide insight. 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I was wondering if you guys would care to share any experiences that you think others would call odd at an early age. I remember feeling like my parents were communicating telepathically as a young kid and seeing some sort of thing in my mind that said it was so. And then feeling scared when I saw an old man who had red eyes and a sharp tooth because I thought he was a vampire and was going to hurt me and maybe take me away. And telling my mother who thought I was just being silly. Stuff like that happen to any of you guys? Thanks.",4.576315789473681,5.693877289473683,5.0797807017543875,84.02388157894737,69.96491228070175,7.805263157894737,26.530701754385966,8.07648339933343,1.4225122807017545,457,14,94,6,8,146,77,114,0.085,0.7709999999999999,0.14400000000000002,0.6249,1,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,3,0,0,3,9,0,1,6,0,10,2,2,0,0,20,24,12,0,3,2,2,3,2,0,2,0,1,0,5,9,6,0,0,7,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,11,8,13,6,10,10,1,11,0,1,4,0,18,3,0,4,9,60,22,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22456798541288306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15513115828916113,0.0,0.0,0.10065268859374148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1686010721752174,0.0,0.16834594275248724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32302868209738034,0.0,0.0,0.16697440461974414,0.11795832626694235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09383876878265164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3269799992135042,0.14601081912116615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1767592281953114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16133388519262448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16588040350969668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16671927502602926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17326061880149712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1833408808222835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1441722169996891,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18704332542829133,0.0,0.15706235873773092,0.0,0.1653091119250871,0.0,0.13157543061135749,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.189017391553593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12414607566118235,0.0,0.14431795568995773,0.15201588501042615,0.0,0.0,0.10969519685275936,0.10579914807352807,0.0,0.2621660380498963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17906038254931045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2345861902409007,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,An1999,2019/02/26,"His untold truth about schizophrenia I'm hearing voices delete this, antipsychotics lick it on my tongue while tasting this pill will be my last cause they runned a game on me and I'm not able to past &#x200B; or did I run a game on myself do this chemicals making me more healthy or more mad? no I'm fine and I'm going to find them out no doubt I'm sane just kinda lost in my own brain &#x200B; what I should do now? my parents thinks I am crazy I feel so alone I have no place to go. they are telling me that I've made the wrong advances this silent whispering is giving me last chances I'm not listening eventhough I'm the only one who hears them what if they were right? these people are against me I shouldn't fight they locked me here throwed the key they think I am not able to find where is my mind they are blind if people were colours they would be black and I'd be white don't run I need your love she tried I love her except there is no love from her side my dear mother she lied well, at least she tried &#x200B; I choosed to be myself before I choosed to be normal or is this myself I'm everything I want to believe in she asked me why am I taking these pills well cause my way of thinking kills of course, I didn't answer her like this &#x200B; why you take medicals? when everything's alright? I'm just lost in my mind, I replied look this is so hard it's not easy to fight I rather choosed to be alright don't know how to start so I let myself fall into this delusional trap because I was alone I don't have any other way to go now I am fine they've got their world and I've got mine it's long time since I last tried now voices speaking loud and my sanity died it's long time since I last cried but at least, I am alright &#x200B; \------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------ I can only imagine your feelings and how did you become to this state of mind, but I want you to know I tried. This poem is made of pieces, memories I still have about you. I watched how this illness destroyed your beautiful soul, but it wasn't only schizophrenia what destroyed you, it was more about people around you who did help it rise, and I was one of them. I regret it everyday. &#x200B; &#x200B; &#x200B;",1.2496683107832922,3.552289926829271,1.8665541427213908,98.07378840671524,83.21286031042129,4.745934205167655,20.06882664373953,5.9561762281905315,-0.19627710756142847,1731,49,384,12,49,530,200,451,0.122,0.7829999999999999,0.095,-0.9074,2,2,0,0,2,0,185.0,0,9,11,3,23,24,6,1,5,3,44,10,1,8,1,62,85,23,2,11,16,2,3,1,0,4,5,8,0,0,28,10,1,0,14,2,0,10,14,11,2,2,16,19,79,13,35,58,7,46,1,3,6,3,47,16,0,7,18,243,107,0,0.10012877165850888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10370321018066356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4339579290345417,0.4866696688211668,0.034045499144835144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.044567917654211135,0.046803442555042915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.030518784920684387,0.0552921807893812,0.04260110492444389,0.056405418729966565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05588841187193095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10285983023283922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0549933769909858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051958928343606624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08998928362620037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05062811548350592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.091515883310232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04802632080368741,0.08535823260296845,0.0,0.08008212563267654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04484785605547257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11285240279660405,0.0,0.033557102509388224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05538882526420274,0.0,0.055028154309915235,0.16323662582162984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05119422647632945,0.0,0.02445893006636609,0.0,0.0,0.08861081204908891,0.04204147505880338,0.0,0.10930238232672726,0.0,0.1355551885650814,0.09474426475569606,0.033418366297354465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05043460168245252,0.0,0.0,0.15165227380627128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.037122107728862735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04905246843707348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06784984702878387,0.11422866423232572,0.0,0.0,0.0555905757427727,0.0,0.0477921211773593,0.10412502431985626,0.0,0.05230662753022269,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04275471195102653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0828275546180948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.035435829969926,0.0,0.039981483194046166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07528437510781445,0.0,0.04375847989189772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0962377107842625,0.0,0.0,0.058385891968328364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13596172666187262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059058543771207624,0.07947755833183437,0.0,0.0,0.09002779070305811,0.0,0.09035064238764537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03556430327569988,0.054737546665335785,0.4866696688211668,0.0 schizophrenia,okyiffyounextweek,2019/02/26,"What is this feeling called? I feel like i’m far away from earth. Writing this, I feel like I am watching a movie of someone typing. I feel a little nauseous and uncomfortable but that might be something else. I also feel a sense of hopelessness like nothing is real and I don’t have to pay attention to my schoolwork right now. Any idea what this is called? I think it might be a mixture of something and the answer is probably somewhere in my head but I have forgotten it currently. Any help would be appreciated, thank you. 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Hi! I helped organize the [2018 APA protest and virtual counter-conference in New York](https://protestapa.com/) and we are looking for folks in the Bay Area to help organize the 2019 protest. Who are we? We are a coalition of psychiatric survivors and ex-patients who stand united against the use of forced treatment in the mental health system. We have the support of groups like MindFreedom International, Psych Rights, the Network Against Psychiatric Assault, and Opal Project. Note that we have zero affiliation with CCHR or Scientology. To watch last years protest and/or counter-conference, check out [ProtestAPA.com](https://protestapa.com/). We also have a [Facebook group](https://www.facebook.com/groups/protestapa) you can join in. As I mentioned, we currently are looking for folks located in the Bay Area who can help with local organizing. Contact me or reply to this post if interested!",10.374245283018867,13.399359459119502,7.314606918238997,66.22021226415097,58.18238993710693,11.086163522012576,42.18081761006289,11.038039088145766,5.526689308176102,850,46,115,23,12,239,94,159,0.085,0.7809999999999999,0.134,0.8148,1,0,0,0,0,0,52.0,7,1,0,0,1,8,5,0,13,0,9,1,0,1,0,19,14,9,0,2,3,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,5,14,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,5,0,1,0,3,11,3,22,14,0,20,0,0,3,0,20,12,0,3,6,69,16,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1831132668810939,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2433924319963407,0.0,0.0,0.6139153101351178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18664726740534934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11186686658260628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3845669510954096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23075551792647855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22114794810966906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2192972011002268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19554557965641384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2598410143106801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19776308779899449,0.0,0.0,0.13505689371305896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14745403718997158 schizophrenia,coolkatzen,2019/02/26,"Prophecy group Hi there, I’m schizoaffective or bipolar 1 w/psychosis (new pdoc wants a bit more time before giving a firm diagnosis on either of those). I experience divine prophecy and was wondering if there are any other groups of people who experience that and want to chat about it. Thanks",4.137232704402519,7.253551811320758,4.775754716981132,76.55595911949688,78.05660377358491,7.3069182389937115,25.81446540880504,8.344100000000001,2.285329559748429,238,9,38,5,6,76,46,53,0.0,0.804,0.196,0.8578,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,2,0,2,1,0,0,0,8,8,4,0,3,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,5,2,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,2,5,7,3,3,1,0,0,0,6,1,0,3,2,23,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19394140041574792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2426787139514817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3113575028940572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.55794805181367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27358364974643423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2754417172763815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1977173051960798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2625679129654784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16629865822628112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33642910144380594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3092802501366749,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Toolooloo,2019/02/26,Does anyone get visitations from deceased relatives in their sleep? Or in waking life? What do you think of these?,3.569333333333333,6.808418600000002,3.5300000000000047,81.62833333333334,88.0,6.666666666666668,21.66666666666667,7.793537801064563,1.6676666666666669,92,3,15,2,3,28,19,20,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,2,0,0,2,3,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,4,3,0,3,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,1,0,10,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3770722467145613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4719214694282584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2817479045483851,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38090449475831695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5396624942843089,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3455443876966458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Cipra_lex_sed_lex,2019/02/26,"Going to a new job next monday, super scared about that I didn't worked for half a year. Was trying to get a job and received all refuses. Now I got an offer and accepted it. And I'm super scared about it. What if I fool myself and all that. I wish I was more self assured. I'm afraid I won't be able to do my work properly, good enough. What if they fire me? 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I don’t know what I’m doing at all. I’m in so much debt right now from the times I was really sick. Since November of last year my job has been in a slow period where upper managers are just telling us “We’ll be busy again next week “ and I believed them every time because it was actually a good job for myself. But every week we’d get less and less hours, now it’s like 16 hours a week. My girlfriend got tired of being my keeper, especially since I couldn’t even do anything to repay her except sweet whispers. Well before she left me I was living with my grandmother but she kicked me out two months ago because I couldn’t properly pay her. I found a place (cheapest I could find) and I can’t afford it with my current job situation. All I have room for in my budget is my rent. Anytime I get a little extra i use it towards gas, I would use public transportation but the city I live in only has like 7 bus stops making it inefficient. I need a hug ",3.077545549193129,4.270207269911508,4.631874023945862,85.53262103071317,73.64601769911505,7.441540864133265,24.798542425819893,7.928766900206844,1.2629092139510667,857,26,180,12,17,288,137,226,0.073,0.856,0.071,0.3907,7,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,3,0,1,0,10,7,0,0,9,0,22,4,0,3,2,27,35,9,0,5,6,0,0,2,2,2,3,1,2,0,6,7,0,1,3,0,5,1,4,1,1,2,8,2,36,6,19,19,6,37,0,0,0,1,12,16,0,0,22,115,42,6,0.0,0.0,0.1144662725556823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1039779130278784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09652655048885914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14300797517751426,0.0,0.09981225942321907,0.13215507666141166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09365319064088967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07747445624033918,0.0,0.19765784377333864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10720857008880924,0.0,0.0,0.128611590258214,0.0,0.0,0.12256709681825408,0.0,0.0,0.09838429375940977,0.18762841745508727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2310305005487644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34920154934099873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06446410748387284,0.09561381373074884,0.0,0.0,0.2548900086443305,0.0,0.0,0.11461210113344845,0.11756376562156505,0.3107297855209272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07829756181882051,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18725285339431288,0.0,0.08622778636708191,0.08697524286145733,0.0,0.0,0.1247481297014012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08921068352683899,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12255181375834777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07514432886818613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10017215300846027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1940608203377496,0.13184826397759794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09806667582479926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10252393112061577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13679522646500716,0.1348172020994191,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11458344728274708,0.0,0.14109547673287787,0.20261623223838154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2822689916257096,0.0,0.10546530679063376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08332538489449834,0.0,0.0,0.07553629389660585 schizophrenia,portishere,2019/02/26,"CDR in a country in another part of the world? Hello, im in Bulgaria, that is in Eastern Europe, north of Greece for instance. When i was approved for SSDA back in 2017 was a huge thing for me, 34 years old male, 8 years work experience as a driver in Bay Area. When i got psychotic - understand Schizophrenic i had to leave my american dream and fly back in poor, old Bulgaria. Had multiple non voluntary hospitalizations in the local psych ward in my town here. During my stay there, apparently SSA denied my claim on the basis of not supply them with medical documentation from hospitals in the US. Then the Autumn of 2015 i got a call from US Embassy in Athens, asking me if i still want to apply for disability. I said yes, sure i want. The workers from the embassy sent me the forms over email, i filled them scanned and send them back, alongside with copy of my still un expired green card, Bulgarian ID, and birth certificate. It took 1 year and half for them to decide i am disabled and only after they asked my psychiatrist to write down what are my limitations, because the regular health paperwork was not saying conclusively that i am disabled, at least Gina from the Embassy told me that stuff. And i had at least 7 hospitalizations with 20 days each of it. Recently i got the back pay for that disability and i invested it in an appartment, half of the cost of the appartment is all my back pay. Of course i am paying half of my monthly pension to cover the rest of the amount for this appartment. The building is going to look nice with shops, restaurants etc. and is expected to be completed in the summer of 2020, for me to be able to move in, a year later due to the payments. But then it comes the uncertainty: my CDR is due 2020 April, at least thats when i was awarded but in 2017. I no longer have valid green card, but as far as i know, the only reason, that i am a Bulgarian citizen and our country has disability system that could pays to Americans, then i can continue collect my disability no matter how much time i will be out of the US. Obviously i am never coming back, since i was silly enough not to apply for naturalization back in the days. I am having my visits in the psychiatrists cabinet, lately for personal and emotional problems. We take notes with whats going around my life, the psychiatrist is doing verry good job, as she knows how i need that pension to continue be my steady income. We never completed an RFC sheet with her, and now my fears are, what if the RFC report DDS do on the CDR, shows that i am not eligible to be disabled anymore. Then all this thing i was hopping with my parents to become independent of them, having my own place, taking my meds and live a litle bit better in terms of how an average Bulgarian can live in that economic situation, you know. Its scary when in any moment they can stop paying you, what are my options in that case.... i just have to go kill myself, there is no other viable option. Anyway i dont want to sound like that, i prefer to be prepared, proactive, and the Embassy told me that, they will get in touch with me for that CDR, but will they? Or just English Greek Bulgarian lost in translation here. Thanks for taking the time understanding my life as how i see it now. 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I work full time in a 9 to 5 job, have been incredibly stabilised for the last 5 years and haven’t been hospitalised in a long time, but as of late, the delusional thoughts and auditory hallucinations have been stronger. I am also medicated by a three monthly injection called Invega Trinza and have been medicated for the past 4 or so years. I’m starting to find that I’ve been staying up later because I feel the need to finish that next episode on Netflix or play a couple more matches on overwatch, at the detriment of my mental health. Because of the lack of sleep, I am having stronger thoughts of suicide, self harm and the shift between my dreams and what I perceive as real has been blurred. I can easily just change my technology habits and go to sleep, but I have no will to do that, I just want to relax on my couch till 1 or 2 am in the morning, I sorta don’t enjoy the work that I do, but I do it because I want to do things that can help stabilise my life, and full time work is one of the those things. Has anyone else gone through something similar?",11.4248253968254,7.135707555102044,10.246258503401359,70.0877097505669,59.163265306122454,13.011337868480728,44.36507936507937,9.994966539143718,4.324065759637188,1001,42,195,13,9,316,126,245,0.08800000000000001,0.79,0.122,0.8218,1,0,1,0,0,1,20.0,0,0,0,3,4,4,0,0,17,0,29,10,4,2,0,34,40,19,1,6,8,0,1,0,0,1,6,0,1,1,12,7,0,1,7,4,0,2,3,1,0,2,10,1,19,3,33,29,8,29,0,0,0,0,3,10,0,6,16,138,31,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09272528729528297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08107503581190666,0.11880462363941205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21204639249826526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11839805978886188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1226598766285759,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1282966275870628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09686146590134356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058627876105179326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2119526597870826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06589713821804911,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12324957970966376,0.0,0.0,0.07771893658614121,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11506262531574835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.094514842030965,0.26159362299335914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08189901490369804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10261222762845697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09857666498132422,0.0,0.0,0.07739762067806373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2336151405687784,0.11685047216485292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09255029774384634,0.0,0.0,0.08597556167777677,0.0,0.0,0.12331429227986646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07857081756588125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11068753132250332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13197664720861788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1209612867135476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4641355223744566,0.0,0.0,0.08926408472902042,0.0,0.0,0.0820701078568827,0.12358742455374172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12683063673948194,0.0,0.0,0.2410331897452608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1540642453569525,0.0,0.0,0.1841029232327931,0.2028343821166756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13678079676098973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2532392547258294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1493361807603809 schizophrenia,jjingram,2019/02/26,"A Schizophrenic's Apology I’ve been writing a few essays on schizophrenia coming up to my fifteen year milestone after the prodromal symptoms started. I’ve discussed with Dr. David Moore, an avid Quora user, and Dr. Julie Gurner, another avid Quora user and a streamer on twitch, and they agree that “A Schizophrenic’s Apology” is my best essay so far; even if it was my first. Therefore I would like to begin sharing it with the world. You can find the essay on my blog at [A Schizophrenic's Apology | Gingerbeard](https://gingerbeard.org/2019/02/12/a-schizophrenics-apology.html). It would mean a lot if you could read it and let me know what you think.",9.942202898550725,9.856213843478264,8.302391304347829,69.67648550724637,58.39130434782609,11.144927536231883,37.42753623188406,10.504223727775694,4.020623188405797,532,21,83,10,6,160,77,115,0.0,0.82,0.18,0.9432,0,0,0,0,0,0,28.0,0,3,1,2,2,3,0,0,10,0,8,7,0,1,0,19,14,7,0,5,2,0,0,1,0,2,7,0,0,0,6,7,0,0,4,2,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,0,10,3,10,8,3,13,0,0,0,0,10,7,0,3,6,56,16,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27540281995176963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2756263578738941,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2262426486373832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2096981002249802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1734724271366069,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2400498404978461,0.22340297481847546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14434106066819902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2685690277040575,0.0,0.12831351343188538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2232886601125696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2860939084819261,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26271286743844785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1858992127815363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27298538650640314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16829025584062846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37314638814371903,0.0,0.0,0.16913270353907445 schizophrenia,alkiwi,2019/02/26,"If my mom chooses to appeal her capacity to make decisions, is it likely they will allow her to leave? My mom has been untreated for years, her life has gone to shambles, she’s disappeared numerous times and we found her homeless with cuts and scrapes and big bites everywhere. She pulled out her teeth and put them back in and I’m pretty sure that’s all infected now. She has uncontrollable laughter all the time and especially at night. She talks to voices, she lost her job, she won’t stay with us and let us help her even though we got her her own room. She wants appeal staying in the hospital and getting treated. I’m trying my very best to stop that from happening and giving her a chance to love a relatively normal life again. Any ideas on that process?",6.21748299319728,6.707113605442183,6.111972789115652,80.33421768707484,66.00680272108843,9.798639455782316,30.619047619047624,9.725611199111238,2.6412394557823125,608,21,119,12,9,191,99,147,0.095,0.745,0.161,0.9184,1,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,4,0,2,2,5,8,1,1,4,0,8,6,1,2,3,27,20,11,0,3,1,2,0,1,0,2,4,1,1,0,4,14,0,1,4,0,0,4,1,3,0,0,5,1,26,5,16,12,4,21,0,1,0,1,29,7,0,1,9,77,30,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.104760243119843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11845602715442882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16166745315838638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10174950503540088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16890942235197506,0.0,0.0,0.08048550477202299,0.14778015214704618,0.0,0.0,0.1232089874074547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13622715527449605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10325741450656084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1739052934633354,0.0,0.0,0.15287225634222013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16311820252561626,0.0,0.15752800654139293,0.21762213692198512,0.0752617386898399,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.168165314560575,0.0,0.13903741431255054,0.0,0.10283051404490648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3608463047998608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1445668148634753,0.15093767599749866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15672566895283765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15486421880647486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32839661697634737,0.0,0.12879387878097814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14519163311860658,0.0,0.0,0.1238206899703946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15135473057878576,0.0,0.1796572349064494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10459079685906296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3706097626750221,0.0,0.0,0.12710854884737374,0.09086351440252263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09920405884935282 schizophrenia,sorbetth0t,2019/02/26,"I love you guys Hey, I was a user who was very active a lot a couple of years ago on this sub. I wanted to just say this is the most supportive internet community I've ever been in! Everyone here is understanding and awesome, even when we disagree about treatment. I'm actually writing my thesis on how the US health insurance industry limits treatment options for people with severe disabilities through private insurance. At the end of May, I'll have a beautiful poster to show all of you about my findings. It's so hard to have schizophrenia, especially in a country with private insurance. We are constantly silenced because we are considered to be a danger by virtue of our illness. 50% of mental hospital beds in the US are filled by people with schizophrenia, and 33% of people on medicaid have a mental illness. It's pretty grim out there. Learning more about health statistics has shown me how far I've come, and you should be comforted knowing that no matter where you are in life, the majority of schizophrenic people are so shunned from medical care that 90% of us have a chance of an emergency hospitalization due to psychosis within a 10 year period (as opposed to 40-60% for other severe illnesses like PTSD, or depression. The only other illness that even approaches this level is anorexia which is literally life threatening on its own). Only 2% of schizophrenic people obtain an education beyond high school. This should not be the way that American schizophrenics live. We deserve a level of treatment that doesn't bring us to absolute desperation for emergency help. We shouldn't be so stigmatized that what is clearly a larger social problem is blamed on individuals.",8.797891342583547,9.212128578073091,8.83888215751417,63.228313464920866,60.56146179401994,12.132186828219659,39.6327926519445,11.67016984619884,5.13426073871409,1366,66,206,38,17,447,180,301,0.153,0.727,0.12,-0.8742,0,0,0,0,0,0,31.0,10,4,0,2,17,9,1,0,20,0,28,13,0,2,3,38,37,11,0,5,3,0,1,1,0,4,12,1,1,1,18,13,0,2,4,1,0,4,4,4,0,0,3,2,20,5,45,26,6,32,0,2,0,1,22,18,0,5,10,155,38,2,0.0,0.0,0.10634383056925403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09659971727132496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06643011754808256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11110722348340599,0.0,0.0,0.09387226941269797,0.0,0.11776320599806805,0.0,0.0,0.1205787085253178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09385996404174587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09651945949035527,0.0,0.0,0.14395385232553765,0.09857408046223924,0.0,0.10413023395542548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09960112929815468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10790233270020988,0.0,0.0,0.09762014959924947,0.0,0.0,0.23167055014902124,0.0,0.0,0.07304361133856457,0.11513801694312073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05988978212537106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15394445874864865,0.0532396556295333,0.0,0.09622687663501847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09264660480740168,0.09835414629638664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10978079654754848,0.21964223517333265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1657607188935158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3777475426605708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1108667005122449,0.0,0.10427430897198003,0.1273858839476426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08666125351803199,0.0,0.11028846645982436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2462213481630594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1110862371448147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12366348091205237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11344676529902285,0.5243337845030381,0.0,0.0,0.08991574584919129,0.06427624846690523,0.08649924228864002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1403525887691058 schizophrenia,dewery12,2019/02/26,"Aripipazole Hi, I just got diagnosed as a Schizophrenie today. Does anyone have any experience with this medicine before? Will the side effect really strong? As i am a sleepless person naturally, will it make it worse? Cheers",4.928421052631581,8.467524473684215,5.3845263157894765,69.99468421052634,80.57894736842105,8.303157894736843,26.02105263157895,8.841846274778883,3.0936147368421056,182,7,26,5,5,58,33,38,0.075,0.75,0.175,0.6289,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,2,1,2,0,0,3,0,4,1,0,2,0,4,6,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,3,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,2,3,3,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,16,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2315755885415156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2381101040668639,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28977034242993543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3456360226140441,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2980046162930999,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33310873335286884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2723570786280576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2273098658499132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2973421696031545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21815554555752906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32278751714544857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3470344242093237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,WilliamTuft,2019/02/26,"I've realized I've been making schizophrenia my life. I've gotten better to the point that I have a job and made some friends and can handle my symptoms, but after talking with a co-worker, I realize I've sometimes been focusing on how I'm schizophrenic and not on me as a person. For example, lately I've been talking about my illness as an excuse. I realize now I shouldn't put myself in a box and should just focus on me as a person, not an illness.",8.376612903225809,5.624114161290324,9.210833333333337,70.43625000000002,63.301075268817215,11.880645161290325,38.303763440860216,10.125756701596842,3.8222924731182797,359,14,68,6,4,124,57,93,0.085,0.85,0.065,-0.5647,1,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,1,4,2,0,0,8,0,7,5,0,3,0,18,11,9,0,2,4,0,0,0,1,2,5,0,0,2,1,5,0,0,3,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,5,0,10,2,12,4,1,9,0,0,0,0,6,5,0,1,3,49,11,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22390256167590586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19559350873304415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25122573134404985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2855794793100879,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17881688218983044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2395494453073901,0.16898861646671134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.44210524405152224,0.0,0.0,0.2393213575254141,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25449926336919393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.250385196165393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2631338334484117,0.0,0.4069664978804418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1843060588351651,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,B3NGIS21,2019/02/26,"Feeling very anxious really need some advice, not sure if onset or not Okay so I think a good place to start is I’ve started to feel the symptoms of depression and anxiety roughly 5-6 months ago which made sense since I’ve had a lot of trauma from my parents when I was young and had suicidal thoughts since I was 12 (20 yr/old currently) And I started taking lexapro 20mg One night when I was drunk on my own wallowing in my own sadness a personal problem with a friend made me feel very angry and betrayed and I kept thinking about this all night and couldnt go to sleep cause my mind was racing so I go through the morning hungover and when I got to therapy I could barely focus on the conversation and I found it hard to speak as well, where I had to recap a few times so she could understand what I was saying, I ended it early and I had this huge agitation and I was so depressed as well I felt like I had to chill for a bit in my car so I don’t have any suicidal tendencies while driving. While driving I had this constant agitation and stress which I haven’t experienced anything like it and I had this thought that I was going insane cause I never felt this depressed and anxious before at the same time. My brother was diagnosed with schizophrenia and I know there’s a better chance to get diagnosed if a sibling has the disorder this is the first warning sign I had but could be sleep deprivation. A few days later I couldn’t shake that suspicion of having schizophrenia from before so I looked up symptoms of it and what made it so scary was a good amount of symptoms from depression can be found in schizophrenia and I became paranoid on some other symptoms of schizo that I didn’t have. I began to observe how I walked made sure I walked normal which I never have before and would wonder “do I have an emotionless expression right now” which I easily could have or not and sometimes if I walk slightly awkwardly for a few seconds I would start to get a lot of anxiety. I’m sorry if this offends anyone I don’t mean anything bad by it. Also I’ve had less motivation for schoolwork which could be depression as well but I still pull good grades but I end up staying up till 1-2am to finish tasks. Next one night after getting home from drinking/hanging with friends I was already in a sad/depressed state so I decided to drink more almost to a blackout state. And my mom got these fancy sharp kitchen knives and I was so sad at one point I contemplated slitting my wrists just staring with the knife on my wrist but I only ended up cutting myself slightly as a bad outlet for my emotions. In the morning I regretted what I did and remembered self harm was something that someone schizophrenic may do and I started freaking out yet again at some points I would admit to myself that I could be. Now I feel as if my memory is a lot worse than it has been, I could only remember my entire last 5 days of the week. But for roughly the last 5 days when I would try to go to sleep I my mind would race and I would have thoughts come and go, some depressing others just random and I’m not sure if they are mine or not. I would have images pop up in my head at this time too, some pornographic, some related to videogames, others just relating to my day and this made it very hard to fall asleep like I couldn’t shut them off and would fall asleep 30-45 minutes later. On the weekends I drank more so I would wouldn’t have to deal with those thoughts and just fall asleep immediately, but tonight I found it hard to judge if I could hear those thoughts when I was trying to sleep and there was one I heard for the first time rather faintly, it was the sound of my brother saying “(insert my name here) is gay!” I could tell it was my brother but I never heard him say that to me so it wasn’t a replay of a memory. I am freaking out right now and I haven’t been able to get much sleep the past 1-2 weeks because this happens, I drink heavily on weekends as well (almost blacking out) like three times a weekend cause I just don’t like myself or my life right now. If you guys could lend any insight that would be great and I am thinking about going to get tested for it soon. Any feedback is appreciated. 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The paranoia, delusions, and constant intrusive thoughts I have make simple relationships feel like the hardest feat imaginable. It's like it's impossible for me to just accept and enjoy the present. All the negative things mentioned above make doing so far beyond impossible to the point where I'm just sitting here contemplating whether I'd be happier alone for the rest of my life. But I don't want that... I want to love someone who loves me similarly. I want the two of us to be each others everything and never doubt that for as long as we live. Yet the second I meet someone, my head rewires my thinking into something that depresses me. The excitement and interest in a girl slowly dissipates into extreme jealousy, paranoia that she's using me, that she's making fun of me, that she doesn't like me even remotely, that she's cheating whenever I'm not by her side... God I sound like such a psycho boyfriend type but I'm not! I know these things are dumb so I suppress them until I can't do it anymore and have to stop talking to this person I once really liked.. I'm on a good medicine that helps tremendously with voices, hallucinations, and delusions to some extent, but when love is involved it's like my brain flips the ""You don't deserve this"" switch and destroys me from the inside out.. I just want to grow old with someone. be there everything while they're mine.. I just want to smile with someone without dying underneath it.",7.0628243352135405,7.325060294520551,6.949919419822724,75.82827961321516,64.20547945205479,9.884286865431104,36.012087026591466,9.627879704456738,3.4228647864625303,1234,55,221,22,17,392,166,292,0.102,0.73,0.168,0.9647,0,1,1,0,0,0,35.0,2,1,1,0,14,21,3,1,14,0,13,7,2,4,2,51,35,21,1,5,11,0,1,6,0,0,1,2,0,2,21,17,0,2,8,0,0,1,9,5,0,2,1,3,36,16,34,31,5,28,0,1,0,4,22,14,1,2,18,155,57,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11729039906216453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.112311226151411,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10639988359912927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12642181702937616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.122380464503426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09754002449536033,0.0,0.11753316854217052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07479899670422484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20355934921296012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05726140838341175,0.080904135073603,0.0,0.0,0.10350628929696368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059167216627597836,0.0,0.0,0.09498674559042457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11622474832901415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07590750446084064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.062237940054316536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07999015570999822,0.33196245282511816,0.0,0.0999997389719555,0.10022059575932013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4088416583966703,0.0,0.2267810328452002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08734355976821757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11883434556989594,0.12060503825592432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09888346916357103,0.0,0.0,0.1070556225942001,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07254933664737437,0.0,0.0,0.12158558125388433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3838174240281928,0.08718356435887255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09468009609590687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09102416152086494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15047339690149986,0.07256451356424215,0.0,0.08990597453078779,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11062648660705716,0.0,0.1362229644617814,0.09780959830428623,0.0,0.0,0.33398195460331354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10916668158962232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,ifouree,2019/02/27,"Do you notice early signs of schizophrenia before diagnosis? I need answers, I’m worried... I’m 15 and have never experienced schizophrenic-like symptoms and it doesn’t run in my family. I did tho, have a bad weed trip which lead to me being schizophrenic which peaked for 3 hours but was not as bad but still there the next day or so. I feel pretty normal almost a week after but I read a study that said if you have a schizophrenic episode on the influence of marijuana and it last for around 2 days that foreshadows your future and it’s very likely you will have schizophrenia within 6 years or so... again, I feel normal other then this weed trip experience, so I’m wondering if you always felt schizophrenic before your diagnosis or if it all comes on as time goes on. 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Any Gynecomastia? Sedation? Sexual dysfunction? ED? EJ? Desire? 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Hey so like a lot of times ill be thinking but in my head the words are all jumbled up, like ill know what im trying to say but i cant figure out what order the words go in, it feels like theyre all floating around my head at once. Its really frustrating because ill be in class or something and try to talk and i have to say like each word really slowly because as i talk im trying to get the order of words right. A lot of the time i just end up saying like disconnected phrases or like a really hard to understand jumble and its really frustrating",3.5876190476190466,4.578582206349207,5.041428571428573,83.85357142857143,72.17460317460319,8.457142857142857,25.11111111111111,8.841846274778883,1.6938158730158732,482,14,100,9,9,162,73,126,0.14300000000000002,0.6920000000000001,0.165,0.7392,0,0,1,0,0,0,5.0,0,1,0,0,3,8,2,0,9,0,7,6,2,0,2,25,14,9,0,0,5,0,3,6,0,0,4,3,0,0,5,6,0,0,6,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,1,6,7,6,17,11,5,16,0,0,0,0,8,9,0,4,10,59,12,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11894583757456985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16290114617037565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11834338970831645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06755984930382597,0.09545471073695118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0698084163826703,0.0,0.07593658551740523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23938591178212185,0.0,0.2742554437329559,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2886546440888765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07343140816404156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3916657644398853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2271896945086045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14229580514846105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3423892208986645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11410663299845247,0.0,0.3187684603244328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1028634928155586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13887733155467086,0.0,0.2147896396183731,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0856152117038365,0.0,0.10607552734545113,0.2337362565352536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2721478078921378,0.0,0.0,0.13909811376711798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,not__jerry,2019/02/27,"This is my new acc I was paranoid someone was tracking me so I made this new one last night. I don’t want to say what my account was but I posted about it earlier So hi (again) :-)",-1.7553846153846169,0.15140256410256825,0.8629487179487221,100.45288461538463,100.28205128205127,3.6256410256410256,19.320512820512818,5.46131890053228,-0.3961487179487175,136,5,33,1,6,46,30,39,0.039,0.8420000000000001,0.118,0.458,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,0,0,5,0,0,1,0,3,7,3,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,4,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,4,1,7,0,2,3,0,6,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,5,23,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26806945956726724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31118070129567865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6352411343416215,0.0,0.3086182055919928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22284792684458649,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3149624583352849,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2615272247784555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2786468621739783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19397352563360346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,sarahjade21,2019/02/27,"Need an advice with my boyfriend? My boyfriend is the most amazing guy I've known, he's always been faithful and has not given me a reason not to trust him, I've done a bunch of research on his medical condition but there are times where he will act so distant as if he doesn't love me anymore, also when we have a fight, he'll act as if he doesn't care anymore and will call me names and he'll stay distant for a whole day and then will come home and basically regret what he's done and just cuddle me in bed. it's quite confusing sometimes, like does he care about me, does he still have feelings for me or what? like I just need reassurance that he still cares about me, for anyone who suffers from the same condition or going through something similar? I love him so much, I don't wanna leave him, I just need to understand this",8.998739495798318,5.808553058823531,8.388487394957988,78.17676470588236,62.529411764705884,11.596638655462186,37.22689075630253,9.23628265651192,3.062453781512605,660,22,141,8,7,209,102,170,0.172,0.721,0.107,-0.9344,0,0,1,0,1,0,13.0,1,0,0,1,13,15,1,1,7,0,14,4,0,1,0,32,29,18,0,7,10,0,1,2,0,5,1,0,2,1,6,9,0,0,4,0,0,4,5,4,0,0,4,1,18,11,16,20,5,14,1,2,0,3,23,3,0,6,8,91,24,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13744388970652907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11247966714280452,0.11703405765202128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2789787570679396,0.09834742288448133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14362181821012832,0.0,0.430213463197021,0.0,0.0,0.1211595815767164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0907091570197948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2461717123257825,0.2878724611632596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0711180755752225,0.10048209701700823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07993599576376408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13926798151255365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14108581736728892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14893057462740744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13743130830264513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2538885506051998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1416924876545107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10339569186216263,0.3128758996174264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1496011322391787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14461408469743836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10828108308959733,0.1391088122552268,0.0,0.0,0.14991673557800342,0.2246503640318206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08201554092771089,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14642410054488653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15703337278860546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,jaminjamo,2019/02/27,"Am I losing it? So I’m not a heavy pot user but I have used it multiple times and for the most part they never gave me any bad vibes and I loved it, this one time though back in September I got too stoned and it got me had me hungover and feeling real tired for a good 3 days but it was no big deal. About a month after that horrible weed experience that had me tired for days and unable to focus, it came back hard and had me feeling detached from reality and I was very aware of it. I didn’t know what was going on but it definitely had me scared. Long story short ever since then I’ve felt that feeling and I soon enough started googling about this and seen schizophrenia popped up which scares me even more and now I believe im developing schizophrenia, I don’t necessarily hear voices with my ears but I must say from all the stress and googling for months I feel like it adds more symptoms to my problems and fears. For example my inner voice (thoughts) doesn’t feel like mines anymore. When I’m trying to sleep I hear lots of chatter in my mind that keeps me up worried that this is the start for schizophrenia. The chatter is like voices that I know of like my friends and family and it’s not like it’s talking to me but it feels weird and hard to sleep because it’s so loud in my head. I also ask my friends if they hear the same sounds I do to ensure that I’m not hallucinating.[r/schizophrenia ](www.schizophrenia.com)I talked to physiatrists about this and they seem to say it’s just anxiety but I don’t know what to do. Am I really going crazy?",3.1536923076923067,4.884485234920637,3.744523809523809,89.79502747252748,74.42857142857143,6.750915750915753,23.86141636141636,7.468242284971852,0.8550097680097681,1239,37,264,15,26,390,160,315,0.159,0.71,0.132,-0.8165,0,0,0,0,0,0,23.0,0,0,3,1,16,17,0,4,8,0,19,8,4,1,4,54,50,29,0,3,11,0,9,5,2,1,3,11,0,0,28,19,0,1,12,0,0,3,9,8,0,1,15,21,37,9,31,34,8,30,0,1,1,1,16,9,0,4,23,174,65,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07791342553185909,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06625462681506435,0.0,0.07453242991280949,0.0,0.09662275487616437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0910823661874582,0.0,0.0,0.14983279227661975,0.08134861230910073,0.05939142490369115,0.0,0.0,0.10976839999916152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1114320904018475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12566646630535674,0.10044436269333616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1006695417241272,0.0,0.06435051393519617,0.08812953090119098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09530363263300748,0.09184678836747437,0.10963399344091053,0.2955762419672324,0.1392056819172502,0.0935465058956348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15054582090448745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.110741566212991,0.08171828721106766,0.15584472196393098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17455335013714027,0.0,0.09998960703357207,0.0,0.3294265330343946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1052393492650812,0.0,0.0,0.08659880430869306,0.0,0.0,0.16063223860876946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2379928807841671,0.0,0.0,0.08622103408025421,0.0,0.10899741536503604,0.0,0.08283010891886597,0.08793290015632535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09837487146192264,0.0,0.15553277733728596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07514275869554356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06601997925228315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10550542123442667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09322578401597896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11089480522705462,0.06241510320488576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15495788718574974,0.19508557285384145,0.0,0.0,0.08869512120201845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0805937474712974,0.0,0.19499744629560375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13792059153262204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1116038589797697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10126537230410493,0.0,0.15661845298673968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09572287055233676,0.07734723621732846,0.11362252223619118,0.22395913862214795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0661474621270219,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08414682276507601,0.0,0.08038860180243296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0989432304395194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,TAABWK,2019/02/27,"How do you guys deal with it. Im feeling pretty upset. I havent seen a doctor yet but im 100% that I developed schizophrenia over time. I wont go into the details but there are a lot of nught where im scared all alone thinking that things are coming to get me and that they talk to me in my head. Im aware that its all in my head but at the same time it feels so real. I just felt an overwhelming sense of dread. Like i was going to die very soon and there was nothing i could do about it. I know its not true but again. It feels terrible. How did/you guys handle it? 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Lately I've been discussing with people on Reddit about my belief that I am in a simulated world. I've been told that I'm showing signs of psychosis. But there's so much evidence. The looks I get, the questions I get asked, the conversations I have. I feel like I'm around a bunch of aliens who are trying their best to imitate human beings. 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I’m not usually having a bad delusion when it happens, or even thinking of anything bad most of the time. The best way I can describe it is it’s like I’m realizing some horrible, life-ending secret that I’m not conscious of. I get this awful sinking feeling in my stomach and can’t get it to go away no matter what I think. It does eventually go away but that seems to be random too. Does anyone else get this?",1.8213207547169823,3.81794132075472,3.9062641509433966,85.9363773584906,79.18867924528301,6.1267924528301885,24.75094339622641,7.1686216300943375,1.14665962264151,404,15,81,5,10,138,71,106,0.151,0.6859999999999999,0.163,0.1307,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,1,3,6,1,1,3,1,7,1,1,0,0,21,25,6,0,0,5,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,14,2,0,1,9,0,0,2,5,4,0,0,0,2,6,2,9,24,3,11,0,0,0,0,1,3,1,5,6,53,20,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12713311133509392,0.18629657443894876,0.14962276785330714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34165266348793605,0.0,0.3036250222954653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1908093826049702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31822466509798963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15188768534231642,0.0,0.16103898340015854,0.0,0.0,0.12009071620090048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18386780161311334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37997479824596203,0.0,0.2066655444759967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1607832552820148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1616104020870066,0.0,0.0,0.0999237840789036,0.0,0.20510142772999654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12842518631927935,0.08882830534304118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11647885909934033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16552254173762407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2330064516549215,0.0,0.0,0.10602098753739614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20024957790378525,0.0,0.0,0.14432063872507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,melmel12345678,2019/02/28,"Mental Health First Aid schizo moment This happened to me the other day. I was in school( I’m schizophrenic ) and I was doing the Mental Health First Aid course to learn how to deal with other people who need first aid but have mental health issues. And in class we have to do a group setting of dealing with someone schitzoprenia .. meanwhile no one knows I’m schitzoprenic lollllll so we during this practice I get to pretend I’m the one with schitzoprenia and someone speaks in my ear with a paper like a speaker in my ear , saying all this stuff like she’s a spy and all this stuff about the government and the other guy starts talking to me regularly. So I’m trying to pretend I’m normal . And doing this excersice. It was very overwhelming lol and hilarious. I wanted to say that I was schizophrenic but I didn’t. O well lol ",2.5020694444444445,5.1985105125,3.806666666666669,83.6027777777778,81.375,6.305555555555558,22.63888888888889,7.594959193182576,1.2519722222222227,662,22,121,11,18,216,86,160,0.037000000000000005,0.833,0.13,0.9512,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,2,0,0,3,5,4,0,1,9,2,10,7,2,1,2,23,21,12,0,3,2,0,0,2,0,0,5,6,0,1,13,13,0,0,2,2,0,0,2,1,1,5,5,6,13,3,18,16,2,11,0,1,0,0,12,4,0,0,8,84,26,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08791745624324257,0.28108732971018024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3478704010911529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0712234641830781,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13498181521015254,0.12055052573675762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4347168954641433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1422864398592149,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07491989562712588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13320166817902065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4121464317581057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10108223586209544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1335682020102299,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1847528241301384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0945096324120511,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2168200263242024,0.0,0.13796678002182022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23101311935267174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09649055891845787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3121158563772903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10957176080600176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09255478853082216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11248126233210684,0.08040720228974974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12257130495468065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,appleseed666,2019/02/28,"fully recovered. Had to make a new account because of insane people. I am 16 and have schizoaffective disorder. I walked out of psychosis around 5 months ago, and with a recent med change, left a manic state completely. I sleep fine, and my affect is totally bright. I'm at therapeutic boarding school, and I'm doing great here. There are still things for me to work on, that need more time, like sociopath behaviors but I'm working on it. ",3.683780487804878,6.266146097560978,4.236768292682928,82.94344512195124,75.82926829268294,7.514634146341463,26.103658536585364,8.472884824447931,2.0744097560975607,348,13,62,7,8,110,67,82,0.048,0.8490000000000001,0.104,0.5227,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,2,4,4,0,0,3,0,6,1,1,2,1,12,11,5,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,7,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,5,4,11,10,2,14,0,0,1,0,0,6,0,0,7,38,8,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20370699061774267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2045738898161112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14008611737541568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2431016958911753,0.0,0.2409446607376868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26337478930558345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25335923646530045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2496822406194357,0.0,0.0,0.11227041171720437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15339566092793352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2552599499454116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18342700934627115,0.0,0.0,0.17039642810299913,0.0,0.22194571049644432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15931685371810989,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22690329204939946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2325734716104156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22996952164364196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18352142007358668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1526712742255598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13400030401931498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3345994576340227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,comrade_z82,2019/02/28,"Anyone else get discriminated against when people find out you're schizophrenic? I just got an earful from some jerk-off because he didn't want to have anything to do with me for being schizophrenic. My wife bought a car from the guy that was a friend of an acquaintance and i was trying to get a tow truck arranged to pick it up. I introduced myself and the guy becomes uncorked. My wife was all pissed off at me for talking to the guy too. I hate how people hear about my illness and automatically assume I'm a complete lunatic. It just makes me want to become a hermit and write off society ",4.301082375478927,5.980607250000002,5.102183908045976,81.43898467432952,71.32758620689654,7.569348659003833,27.54406130268199,8.167268648758528,1.8114015325670496,475,17,90,7,9,154,78,116,0.141,0.8320000000000001,0.028,-0.901,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,0,6,3,2,0,10,0,7,5,2,3,1,18,17,6,0,2,2,2,0,0,1,0,3,2,0,3,3,6,0,0,2,0,1,1,1,2,0,0,6,2,11,1,19,10,2,7,0,0,0,0,10,5,1,2,1,61,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.131292765617668,0.19239199156164716,0.1545182587331862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11446251418638775,0.41475321146953015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1968726963422989,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1568572818083319,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17161787598852948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14507021164186898,0.0,0.19620357593245133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1501763825972919,0.0,0.0,0.557763831074175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18538345829823244,0.0,0.0,0.21162981733455852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12533756623463427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2603513891382943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1509219716980611,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12748313135078918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22150257363810075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,psychospeaks,2019/02/28,"About to hike 2,200 miles I think I can do it. On March 24th, my bestfriend, my dog, and I will be departing from Springer Mountain, Georgia, and hiking northbound on the Appalachian Trail. End goal is Mount Katahdin, Maine. I’ve wanted to hike the Appalachian Trail since I learned what it was at 10 years old. It’s been at the forefront of my mind ever since. For the past two-ish years, I had slipped into a state where I felt nothing at all. Not symptomatic, not happy, not sad, not really anything at all. This did allow me to start and finish an academy I had been interested in and I’ve had a stable job in that field while volunteering in it on the side for the past seven months. This allowed me to shovel away the rest of the money I needed for the trail, although I didn’t really have any conviction to do it anytime soon. One thing led to another, and an amazing opportunity opened up back in December, that would allow me to hit the trail this Spring. I told my best friend and we took it, him excited as hell, and me a bit disappointed that I didn’t care as much as I should, but confident that I could knock it out in my apathetic state. I woke up one morning in late January and I was normal. Symptoms aren’t terrible, but they’re here, I’m STOKED about starting a six month adventure of a lifetime, and I’m sad as hell about leaving my girlfriend and my mom. I feel like I went to sleep with my life a psychotic disaster at 19 and woke up at 21 locked into a career and weeks away from walking across up the country. Feeling like I am, I’m not totally sure I’ll have the guts to finish it when things get tough, but on the other hand, I know Brett will not let me give up on this. I’ve spoken to Brett and my girlfriend about this, but this is the first time I’ve gotten all of my thoughts and feelings in order. I don’t post much, but this sub has been an absolute life saver for me ever since I made a reddit. Thank you guys so much. I can’t wait to share my trip with you:)",4.136963326963329,4.744530884520883,4.95915915915916,86.35643643643647,70.62162162162161,8.388351988351989,27.11338611338611,8.515128840125781,1.6322893620893622,1558,49,338,24,27,506,210,407,0.079,0.807,0.114,0.7947,3,0,0,0,0,0,46.0,1,2,0,4,12,21,2,0,25,0,30,6,3,5,7,60,57,27,0,6,11,1,5,2,3,4,3,0,0,1,23,21,0,1,8,0,1,6,11,7,0,5,20,5,43,14,60,29,11,67,2,3,0,0,12,33,2,0,26,231,66,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07776525194844422,0.11991108120439015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09410433727861164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2148803817646666,0.08793185775578899,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12000841017849732,0.0,0.1248459308156504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1165924397333486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09130308080682516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10128449718127773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20688110413055866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1734638170305859,0.16339032377567594,0.10979863519835896,0.0,0.0,0.09727021771037753,0.0,0.0,0.08835031042512,0.0,0.059745714312957186,0.10969963816853433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11322932774317665,0.0,0.12173291520377875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11347959088621208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06284646123065597,0.0,0.1289973057466185,0.12108532530103686,0.0,0.11693563085390772,0.1615444924840144,0.11173605362099016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10820536935077567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11546584793219017,0.13393107428800474,0.18255397694165654,0.0,0.2521920233339062,0.0847927077852886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11204352006925462,0.10972660867534696,0.0,0.11999622875067945,0.0,0.1549796766500698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21832937908749933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10952038154646024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1465173516006431,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2837866596880316,0.0,0.11443748361007293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16188197058826642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1077781379082718,0.11885852459576753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10528262589404104,0.0,0.0,0.15194462567948286,0.07327400110698658,0.0,0.09078501534309087,0.06668126056598732,0.0,0.0,0.1092710054867016,0.12705249919643974,0.0,0.0,0.11170811880287976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06744948159723069,0.0,0.0917286012905682,0.0,0.0,0.106008135998603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08123443844486107,0.0,0.0,0.1472816099119372 schizophrenia,owenvision,2019/02/28,Would I even know if I have schizophrenia/psychosis? Would I be able to tell if I'm delusional/hallucinating or not?,4.194545454545455,6.632443000000002,4.790909090909089,80.30636363636366,73.54545454545455,8.036363636363637,29.181818181818183,8.841846274778883,2.4060181818181814,94,4,18,2,2,30,17,22,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,0,7,6,3,0,4,4,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,3,0,13,3,0,0.4703218403512434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31064313984107755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25847658347831337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41108201874123945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6682062823853887,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,AG89zx,2019/02/28,"Olanzapine and over sedation Does the sedation from olanzapine (zyprexa) ever wear off while you take it? because I took it for the first time last night at 8pm and slept until 4pm today! I can't live like this always feeling tired out how am I going to work? I was prescribed fluoxetine in early January and I've had somewhat of a response from it but not enough so we added olanzapine. I just want to know from people who have taken it.. does this huge sedation go away? I can see already how olanzapine works I feel like I have my imagination chemically castrated, like thinking is harder but my thoughts were wack before and I feel calmer already. Im really considering after just one dose (5mg) abandoning this drug which is a shame because I can't tolerate quetiapine. I'm tired of the pharmaceutical merry-go-round. None of their drugs work. 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Hello all, I hope you’re all doing okay. I am sorry for not being able to relate to you 100% because I myself do not suffer from the illness (as of now, at least) but my mom does. Her mom didn’t have schizophrenia, and she never knew her father. However, she had me when she was 16, and after that regularly engaged in dangerous activities, such as frequent LSD use, PCP use, Stim use, etc. She also did smoke weed extremely often, and studies now are showing that smoking weed chronically or at an early age can affect the onset of the disorder. So with that being said, was cannabis a part of your daily routine? Did you have a schizophrenic parent yourselves and you resorted to things like marijuana to cope, and eventually ended up with the disorder yourself? I am very interested in your story in regards to drug usage, age used, etc.",6.889090909090911,7.808090103448279,7.600929989550679,68.7416144200627,64.63218390804597,10.00543364681296,33.63427377220481,10.018931242160765,3.5858919540229888,754,31,121,16,11,251,116,174,0.077,0.8340000000000001,0.09,0.3409,2,0,3,0,0,0,28.0,0,6,0,0,7,7,1,0,8,1,17,6,0,6,3,24,25,13,0,1,5,4,0,1,0,0,6,1,0,1,5,7,0,0,1,1,0,0,4,2,0,0,9,1,19,5,23,14,6,20,0,1,0,0,19,7,0,4,14,96,24,0,0.13924715380052835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1113558985856715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0848837725114478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3191786041261078,0.0,0.1218561226608527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3229649807262916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12333164752233225,0.0,0.3105947696207234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13830384294916598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06802912570151799,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32616916716902683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1073959893257035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1546174855058452,0.1507910980298935,0.0,0.0,0.12158524368551878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13245593054166993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15587578834729826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09250962160415736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6013241619252608,0.0,0.11489348502711193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,hefitonthedoor,2019/02/28,"How dangerous is it to be off meds and in denial? I have no experience with schizophrenia. I found out recently that a person in a board game group with me was diagnosed with paranoid schizophrenia. Our group gets together once in a while at each other's places, but it's usually at my place, since I'm the most central. This person found our group through Meetup recently. He always acted a little differently and sometimes made me uncomfortable, but I chalked it up to quirks and took steps to make sure I was safe (like making sure I was never alone with him, etc.). But recently he divulged to the group that he was homeless, ""misdiagnosed"" with paranoid schizophrenia (I have since learned that denial is a symptom), jobless, and estranged from family and friends. He also proclaimed that he was not on medication because he feels he was misdiagnosed and that the medical community conspired to retain that diagnosis. I did some research and found out that he lost his job and home because of threatened violence, including gun violence, when he stopped taking his medication. I feel terrible for him, and from what I'm reading, community is a healthy and important part of recovery. I'd be happy to continue providing him that community, but I'm genuinely concerned and would love your input. How common is it to have a violent episode when you're not on medication? Are there signs I can look for to help identify potential danger? How long do episodes last, usually? He is a nice dude and I don't want to make him feel worse, but it's also important to me to keep everyone safe. I'm trying to get informed before making any decisions, and I'd appreciate you helping with that if you can. 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All I do is lay around the whole Day and do nothing. I don't have willpower to do anything. I only walk My Dog for 20 mins and thats it. How do you guys deal with negative symptoms? ,-0.5146666666666668,1.6830156444444455,1.7572222222222216,95.8225,92.55555555555556,4.777777777777779,23.055555555555557,6.42735559955562,0.5678888888888891,164,7,37,2,6,55,35,45,0.222,0.778,0.0,-0.8834,1,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,7,3,0,1,1,6,8,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,1,2,4,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,5,0,4,8,2,4,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,2,26,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2344804567443115,0.2536560536361948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18376203408982272,0.2937595198472857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2821343335904433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2734065831952616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21670889215356096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5923212880753147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3274953778536873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31812413378863563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,TheOldRogue,2019/02/28,"Sharing art! I kill time with artful contrivances sometimes. :) https://i.redd.it/vwdo4xvd2dj21.jpg",19.855000000000004,22.3430175,6.6250000000000036,52.01750000000001,124.0,5.0,42.5,5.985473137389443,5.0310000000000015,85,4,5,1,4,18,10,10,0.264,0.393,0.342,0.1007,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6938863157642048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6203011425017679,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3657161104001019,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,thatsalreadytakennn,2019/02/28,"How do you tell the difference between your neighbors talking or the voices that no one else can hear if you’re alone without any animals? And how does the service animal thing work? I hear a lot of voices off in the distance that sound like they’re coming from either outside or the neighbor’s houses (our houses are close enough together and I have good hearing so I could actually be hearing them talk, even my mom can hear them sometimes like when they argue and she has sort of bad hearing relative to me). Sometimes they talk to eachother, sometimes they talk to me, sometimes I can’t make out what they’re saying or only bits and pieces, sometimes they talk about me (99% of the time when they’re talking about me it’s about what I’m doing or is something usually negative/sometimes neutral/ and very rarely positive about me. I know that people probably wouldn’t talk about me 24/7 but in a sense I know my actions and what I say seem weird to some people so I can see people talking about what I’m doing if they’re bored or whatever and people are just plain mean sometimes so it doesnt seem that far fetched to think it might be true. Reading the posts on this reddit made me realize that relative to most people on this forum I can’t distinguish between voices “in my head” and “real” voices that well if at all. So my question is how do you distinguish between them (besides checking to see if you can see the person talking, that’s pretty much my only way of knowing, but you can’t always do that, like when people are talking off in the distance/in your neighbors house (w/o looking creepy yourself atlleast, lol). Any advice on how to tell the difference? Also, I’ve seen a lot of posts about service animals helping people distinguish between the two. how do they let you know that someone’s there or not? I imagine a dog barks but how does a cat let you know? Is there any way I could train my cat or little dog to help me like the service animals do (the dog barks when anything comes near the house sometimes so that helps already but I’m still not sure about the other voices)? Thanks!",4.113668963473367,5.963913457212719,4.448037341631473,85.24732755427132,72.12958435207824,6.815766466622215,28.53085870934282,7.463857097105799,1.7026456397718008,1680,66,311,19,33,527,179,409,0.04,0.868,0.092,0.9751,0,1,1,0,0,0,36.0,1,8,8,1,30,13,1,0,20,1,31,1,1,8,3,68,59,39,0,7,20,1,0,4,3,2,0,14,3,1,21,12,0,0,15,1,1,3,9,4,1,2,2,19,43,9,40,49,10,29,0,0,5,0,48,15,0,20,11,214,64,5,0.0,0.0,0.05482718159041635,0.0,0.0,0.05490205637402176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05818936376176664,0.062000104376885024,0.044930080482960204,0.046749334907585614,0.0,0.0,0.114620517382544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.046234393710817605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04691103841571539,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06133804334049753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09679455655949444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08971621727775116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11740000608293184,0.0,0.0,0.09833345997888733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04693426772338792,0.0,0.0,0.0580527756413206,0.0,0.03710880057565898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04712421763334732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057660679925322235,0.0,0.379938644499866,0.0,0.11297623909469542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2593137620163966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15438544682946265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11490326911746285,0.0,0.10979406144715594,0.056310822238499786,0.0,0.0,0.04718015345939788,0.0,0.0,0.0955307364483736,0.0,0.05316237054384161,0.03750305259428331,0.0,0.0,0.06120051451984479,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05960202161347392,0.0,0.06580166438462091,0.0,0.0,0.04130148030274914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0380715256843061,0.08546046335442344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2726548988153673,0.04905743524783165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10761689814118444,0.057159016078103975,0.060575525656005214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06293859648865498,0.0,0.05619889896828236,0.06394934492973091,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08935905840615756,0.0,0.0,0.13431339203383735,0.10229505138169248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04760426233404568,0.0432529531921622,0.4445368866592471,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04486837129265859,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05295246750122324,0.0,0.0,0.4515832572997016,0.09821405141289886,0.051726397711959214,0.0,0.0,0.037325950370964985,0.03600024306974519,0.0,0.0,0.032761164291650366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05488330607053745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06187840231846109,0.04635743229411786,0.0,0.08919200369229194,0.0,0.0,0.05051588907192034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0541590769276581,0.0,0.040902399004502515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,X-23,2019/02/28,Do you guys have flat/monotone voices? I think I read that that's a symptom but I think I've always sounded that way. Do you guys have that?,-0.41000000000000014,1.8136790000000045,1.1016666666666666,100.5225,92.33333333333334,3.0,17.5,3.1291,-1.0489999999999997,110,3,25,0,4,35,19,30,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,4,1,0,0,0,3,6,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,2,4,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,5,0,0,6,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,0,15,9,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27786688292462186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.661311086541291,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3340328351404744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3470940860101435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.427953695858705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2650679854245063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,bizzarecat,2019/02/28,"I hear really quiet fast whispers when I’m walking around or sitting down sometimes. The whispers happen more as I get less sleep. Could this be a mild form of schizophrenia or psychosis? I was diagnosed a year ago with cannabis induced psychosis where I would here voices. I don’t smoke anymore but I hear very quiet whispers sometimes. any info would greatly help, thanks.",4.656162046908314,7.698955597014924,3.817484008528787,84.74089552238807,75.11940298507463,5.0226012793176995,31.959488272921103,6.18269132825596,1.912805543710021,303,15,47,2,7,89,52,67,0.0,0.8690000000000001,0.131,0.8503,0,0,1,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,0,3,0,6,2,1,1,0,10,12,5,0,3,3,0,0,0,0,2,1,8,0,0,1,2,0,0,2,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,8,6,2,5,7,3,9,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,2,4,30,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18994625939775064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14571772366563515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21250814579572916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.190754598176433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17108511533725285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21748965315976415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11195243724322107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2362444170645089,0.0,0.0,0.1894870647191596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4830181862148794,0.0,0.14362734321151052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13727323205303618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21443471468128986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4238567275429546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19728020166373603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17680341172264027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3044366772267143,0.0,0.0,0.1379892715348355 schizophrenia,Type2sugarnova,2019/02/28,"Is this a hulucination? I know what having a song stuck in your head is like. You hear a song on the radio and you keep singing it to yourself because its catchy. This is not that. I have no control over the song I dont know who sings it where I heard it from. It's really loud. The guy sings the same lyrics over and over. I take a shower I can barely hear the shower. I cant hear my own thoughts they just drowned out by this song. Am I overreacting?",0.1055113636363636,2.245943604166669,1.7032196969696969,98.3955681818182,86.91666666666666,4.74090909090909,17.060606060606062,6.11248444174946,-0.6255916666666668,350,8,85,3,11,113,62,96,0.071,0.879,0.05,-0.4352,2,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,3,1,1,2,1,0,0,9,0,9,1,1,1,0,11,19,2,1,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,9,2,1,11,3,0,2,3,8,0,0,4,0,0,0,3,9,13,1,9,16,2,7,0,0,0,0,10,7,0,0,1,59,24,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13525681824209393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2488588133254611,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2600433026151367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2196974315357281,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2277142891683296,0.0,0.7502292591061756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1972183484965621,0.0,0.0,0.24388038662212885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10840002532801944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1421428814586346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16682717000187391,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17614901625176044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,xaf23,2019/02/28,"My illness I'm having a hard time understanding my illness. I don't hear voices but I have delusions. Ten years ago, I went to a pyschologist and she asked if I hear voices several time. I said no everytime and I just eventually said yes because a) she's being persistent and I didnt know the consequence and b) ten years ago, I would hear with something like ""yany/laurel"" thing. This only happens when I am in a lot of people. instead of words that people usually say, I would hear ""ugly"". Only that word. It's never full sentences. I'm shy so I don't look to the direction of person I've heard it from. Delusions is what I have. Tl:dr; I have no auditory halucinations but I have delusions. What do I have?",0.6824759080800611,3.1800349718309886,3.1134692364714627,86.05202742772427,90.12676056338027,6.088065233506303,22.262416604892515,7.475848149327749,1.2815718309859156,554,21,109,11,19,190,84,142,0.113,0.833,0.054000000000000006,-0.5302,0,0,1,0,0,0,24.0,0,0,0,1,4,1,0,0,6,1,15,2,0,0,1,17,30,9,0,3,4,0,1,1,0,2,2,10,0,1,8,5,0,0,2,0,0,1,6,0,0,2,5,12,19,1,8,22,2,12,0,0,1,0,12,2,0,2,10,74,27,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2542682037792268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13407931563173786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08742813717741521,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12682675546836633,0.0,0.1284770845733559,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6465837600117113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07882045494489094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0700682775743716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12043755536580243,0.0,0.0,0.12193144274147208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11061515068507972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2181563333763446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.198860186897942,0.1252297235287627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27285251168113483,0.11405417061105215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1620249564335553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11041252651495674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0952825687235834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1672599281229276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14930636471805073,0.0,0.0,0.1579580174869606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13295274457225864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2037643892761743,0.0,0.0,0.18471690006011304 schizophrenia,intruderdude,2019/02/28,"How to handle a schizophrenic who is talking to ""some one""? My girlfriends aunt is round. She appeared at the door randomly last night at 9 or 10 and has been quite a pleasure but whilst we've been busy around the house she's been happily chatting away to no one. I'm just curious whether it would be appropriate to question who she's talking to / point out that whoever it is isn't actually there. Or to just leave her be. She isn't causing any harm to anyone nor posing any risks to anyone else and is fairly lucid in the sense that she knows where and who she is etc.. Hope this doesn't come across as rude or ignorant. Im just wondering how to handle such a situation ",3.9157777777777767,5.222068466666666,4.796481481481481,84.7191666666667,71.74074074074073,8.362962962962964,27.574074074074076,8.841846274778883,1.976496296296296,533,19,110,10,10,173,88,135,0.075,0.785,0.14,0.8871,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,1,9,6,1,1,6,0,15,1,0,3,0,26,21,12,0,2,8,1,1,0,1,1,1,0,1,0,8,6,0,1,3,1,0,2,5,4,0,2,3,1,8,2,17,15,2,14,0,0,1,0,16,9,0,9,3,76,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.18337592155516624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.255574484461286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2627861920817365,0.1925390123806763,0.0,0.1672823554375181,0.0,0.0,0.1765503917699571,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19303835120538498,0.0,0.1618703578748572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15697714795169349,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20957259936540215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18663994828035996,0.0,0.21682630176455087,0.0,0.0,0.20297821998560314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1032720368468017,0.15317412557267454,0.0,0.1989726697610135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17634356354383313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25466934118645784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1776384660475077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21050549741395544,0.19986854113313765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2112220165165204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30207460447206863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20378356635894426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1334879602769859,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,throneyawait,2019/02/28,"Voices i wont live with. My mind is full of guilt over ONE FUCKING thing. The voices call me ""you know"". This name is a bad one to have (especially because im killing myself and others to stop it). Everyone recognizes me and in my mind i hear it.""you know why"". Nobody here will help. Im literally typing this because im too drunk. My fight will end soon. If you know you know. I keep hearing it and it kills me. The edge on may cut someone else that's how i am. I blame the people who blame me. Have you ever thought the most extreme things to see if anyone will react????????????????????? Im convinced they do ",-0.23435483870967744,2.004160322580649,1.89701612903226,95.26552419354843,90.93548387096772,4.390322580645162,18.233870967741925,5.985473137389443,-0.28508709677419386,456,13,102,4,16,152,81,124,0.215,0.745,0.041,-0.9689,0,0,0,0,1,1,40.0,0,4,1,0,5,8,5,1,5,0,11,2,0,2,1,21,21,6,2,2,2,0,0,0,0,5,0,4,0,0,10,4,1,2,5,1,0,0,1,7,0,2,1,5,18,1,8,15,2,8,0,0,1,1,12,4,1,4,4,66,28,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09433660702822888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11264946681249795,0.16448743644731706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1377646167819058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11270524833454708,0.0,0.11949578779051445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1220395085380464,0.0,0.12891829694257173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12472793622539645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3041209288177185,0.0,0.09043154536975123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5829309804258024,0.0,0.0,0.11991979770849473,0.29852977106444994,0.0,0.2965858587879311,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11913355597760256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27245398546752697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18284553972434167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0935339680402301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10751081557328494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1143141348185555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11279605971141406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1792647764603888,0.0,0.0,0.10710846407797442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12174096696785215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,JoblessJamjars,2019/02/28,"Tips for Living with Schizophrenia I've never been diagnosed. I do have some symptoms, like hearing voices (usually in the voices my family, friends, or roommates heatedly discussing how mad I make them or how much they can't stand me). I know logically that no one else can hear my thoughts, but it really feels like other people can. I'm not asking for medical advice, as I know it's against the rules. I would like to ask others how they cope with voices. Can you make them shut up? How do you sleep? What about being paranoid or delusional? Threads like this almost certainly exist already and there are probably articles published with tips for how to deal with these things, but none of the things I found using Google are useful to me. All of the articles I have found are meant for family members or health care providers of people with schizophrenia.",6.261185270425777,7.7427238987341775,5.770046029919449,79.27742807825089,66.34177215189875,9.036593785960877,30.186421173762945,9.339509955726095,2.7080556962025306,688,25,119,13,11,211,102,158,0.037000000000000005,0.8140000000000001,0.149,0.9623,0,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,2,4,0,7,8,1,0,4,0,14,5,1,9,3,36,31,13,0,1,7,0,1,4,1,1,4,5,0,0,10,6,0,0,8,0,0,0,5,1,0,1,5,6,17,7,20,24,4,6,0,0,0,0,13,3,0,6,6,86,27,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13915633594257332,0.0,0.0,0.1425978507172648,0.0,0.15714725318060824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26625855538707993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14519119848225762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14681311008357506,0.0,0.14453788843891674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11896094896774835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26849316954870645,0.0,0.07200415265797633,0.10173402745345042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3122790561951168,0.11002160591407198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15136965795119528,0.32100114970439386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15652392294588466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27828719556794923,0.0,0.12574605958836976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1901126380450653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14345786818672498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10468392347238996,0.0,0.10983137140342722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0964971873162557,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19745113494194108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15353647485731767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0912281702226831,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14250765688272812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14801312739797096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18921486123625625,0.0,0.0,0.11305351540836946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24598407362112285,0.1568387836323718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10116029395059488,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,yllomssim,2019/02/28,"Do you/someone you know have an experience coming off meds? Someone I know will be completely off their medication (amisulpride) soon (with controlled weaning & supervision from doctor/psychiatrist of course) but I am curious about anyone else’s experience... good or bad? did you/they become unwell again? Thanks in advance if you’re willing to share!",5.695641646489104,9.29082781355932,5.6971428571428575,69.2291525423729,75.9491525423729,8.11719128329298,32.157384987893465,8.841846274778883,3.690697820823244,287,14,40,7,7,90,51,59,0.07200000000000001,0.7120000000000001,0.21600000000000005,0.8602,0,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,1,1,2,3,4,0,0,1,0,7,1,0,1,0,8,11,3,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,2,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,1,0,4,3,8,7,0,7,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,2,2,25,4,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2354242897218196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15192819634131138,0.2226304559201121,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18142088051260866,0.0,0.2399702186517603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1871686736523842,0.22781539807941345,0.0,0.24369954893705095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2223967044097441,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18151071611621014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4250857748533742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18224531677912326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23882433344515855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24135063600290585,0.2188881360902462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3682036245824201,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2000435065088063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,cerebralpickle,2019/02/28,"HELP! I love someone with schizophrenia, who is estranged from his family and homeless, and I don’t know what to do. Someone I love dearly has been struggling with schizophrenia for years. However, after his dad died, he got exponentially worse, had a psychotic break, stopped taking his medicine, and became violent and verbally abusive to all of his loved ones. Long story short, he has destroyed his relationships with his family. All of his surviving family members are women, and they verge on being afraid of him. He has never actually hurt anyone, but he did go to jail for breaking and entering while having a psychotic break. His family has tried and tried to get him to go back on medication, go to therapy, find a job, or apply for disability. He gets outraged by the idea that he can’t work. Beneath this horrible illness, there is a wonderful, loving, and supportive person who cannot bear the idea of being unable to financially contribute the way he wants to. When he refused to do any of those things, his family finally kicked him out. Two nights ago, he allowed an audience with me over Facebook messenger (he hadn’t spoken to me in a year, after he’d gone to jail and his condition became untenable) and confessed he was on the street. I found him in a more miserable condition than I could’ve imagined. He was living in a broken manhole. He is so traumatized by how cruel others have been to him when he asks for help that he won’t panhandle, or ask for food, and he’s emaciated. I believe he is experiencing “negative symptoms” and disassociation. He was cognizant of how miserable the conditions were, and thanked me tearfully and vociferously for getting him out of there for just one night, but he seemed resigned to going back there, even when I offered to pay for a month of his staying at a homeless shelter. Tonight, he’s at the shelter, but he refused to stay there for any length of time. I’m afraid to push the issue of medication for fear that he’ll extricate me from his life again. I’m all he has right now. I have been talking to his sister all evening and she and their mother are absolutely bereft. He is severely delusional, but only in spurts. I spent all day with him, and it was like my friend flickered in and out. After a while I deduced he responded well to humor, and just played into his wild tangents so at least we could laugh together. He wasn’t at all offensive or harmful—just absent from reality. He didn’t seem to be experiencing any present auditory or visual hallucinations—he just got lost in tangents of thought, like making connections between road signs we were seeing and obscure events from our past. Please help. He could disappear on me so easily. I’m scared to immediately try to force the issue of medication or hospitalization when I haven’t been around to see the illness progress to this extent. Please advise me on the best method for persuading or forcing him to GET HELP post haste. He has lost all sense of normalcy, he believes his future is bleak, his family won’t help him anymore (or do any in-depth research on this disorder to try and learn how to get through to him), and I feel helpless. 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I have been diagnosed with schizoaffective bipolar. Does anyone else hear a voice that can hold a full conversation with you? Mine does and claims that it's an actual spirit that resides in the ether. It claims to be a type of Japanese spirit that has come to show me the way to enlightenment. Honestly it's confusing to tell whether or not I'm actually just losing it or if this might be real. I'm really confused. I also have a problem with an overactive imagination to where I go in and out of daydreaming every few seconds, even when driving or doing work that I should be concentrating on. It's so much easier to just let my mind drift off than stay in a harsh reality that seeks my destruction.",5.712797202797207,7.088683811188816,6.738048951048949,72.22399650349651,67.53146853146853,11.034685314685316,31.08321678321679,11.00357731598739,3.7712047552447534,607,24,109,19,10,203,94,143,0.126,0.809,0.066,-0.8278,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,1,0,2,7,6,1,2,10,0,12,2,0,0,1,28,17,11,0,3,8,0,0,0,0,2,2,3,0,0,12,8,0,1,3,1,0,4,1,5,0,1,1,3,9,1,18,10,4,15,2,1,0,0,5,8,0,7,1,82,21,2,0.0,0.0,0.39093453451684784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16018259182668645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1400568253559165,0.2052345491791551,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1725436809566236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20330377934056545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3505737873912249,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16732782511420388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13229853567796365,0.0,0.1687642906157035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1138370632394414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2257565390376856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20482384249873276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22408831823781275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21249030042973605,0.20224937838145002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1472460785749591,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19166334436994004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2279891713158171,0.1283195153112679,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2134968201194291,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1750740388177585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1589915505166419,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1458232928595641,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,deevinegreenbean,2019/03/01,Latuda Anybody have experience with Latuda? How did it go?,3.2070000000000007,5.917039700000004,5.240000000000002,66.40000000000003,102.0,6.0,25.0,7.1686216300943375,2.5280000000000005,47,2,6,1,2,16,9,10,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,2,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8646581579092354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5023606970703499,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,XBoofyX,2019/03/01,"Does anyone else feel too reliant on caffeine? it seems like coffee really helps with the negative symptoms. I don't want to become addicted to drinking it but it makes me stay focused. Has anyone noticed if it make your delusions worse or not, it doesn't seem to affect mine that much.",4.031111111111109,6.503442851851853,4.355333333333334,83.07300000000002,74.18518518518519,6.542222222222222,27.46666666666667,7.554174236665415,1.8057600000000007,230,9,39,3,5,72,45,54,0.127,0.7340000000000001,0.139,-0.0681,0,0,1,0,0,0,5.0,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,3,3,0,3,0,12,9,3,0,2,4,0,1,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,6,1,1,0,3,1,0,0,4,0,0,0,0,1,4,1,5,9,1,2,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,4,1,26,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24544092836343176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3148527832832897,0.23068732591481114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24865460483012986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19702562232471127,0.0,0.0,0.2205560680371276,0.0,0.0,0.18807948603741892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11383991252577826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15090972981334402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10999431571322743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3005716376928674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1655072416109045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25632870474809394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14423344397049298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4099265125735147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23997426710877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2340115236921038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13279616261846586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2294416584832047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,frencln,2019/03/01,here we go again looks likely ill be outpatient again. my mom keeps saying i do all this for attention which makes it worse. i was doing so much better.,2.41,4.759872000000001,3.256666666666668,89.525,79.0,6.666666666666668,16.666666666666668,7.793537801064563,0.33566666666666656,120,2,24,2,3,38,28,30,0.173,0.7340000000000001,0.093,-0.4062,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,1,0,0,1,4,2,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,1,1,5,8,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,3,1,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,2,4,2,1,6,2,3,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,0,3,18,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3374838778686652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2168654477054336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3391732501062795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18642478847625213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3204381006773733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2547131804744484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4469116526923433,0.0,0.0,0.28051133650436794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30345436432958384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3888711191393697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Veritas_Network,2019/03/01,"Question for the forum: is it taboo here to talk about the voices we hear? Hi, I was wondering what everyone thought about talking about the voices/ people we hear. I know I hear a lot of talk about them being called demons, I know not everyone gets along with the ones they hear, I wanted to talk about them and I wasn't sure whether that would be very well accepted in this community. Thanks.",4.239122807017544,6.001693789473688,4.100000000000001,88.22833333333338,71.63157894736842,7.698245614035088,25.824561403508767,8.344100000000001,1.5118140350877192,312,10,63,5,6,95,53,76,0.027000000000000003,0.8690000000000001,0.104,0.6917,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,2,0,3,0,7,4,0,0,5,0,6,0,0,0,1,18,17,2,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,6,0,0,4,5,0,1,6,0,0,0,2,0,1,1,3,6,11,4,12,11,1,1,1,0,0,0,16,1,0,3,0,45,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.151149518165466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2828874194370278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07733666798953022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6673372732216625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16270073803295554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12584509780697775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10030520126873647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10262151872977687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1658212660221471,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13951129656398034,0.0,0.0,0.4759057978252783,0.0,0.13628102998623873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11751488237693335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12213567733325965,0.0873086584424631,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13309176161324324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16052620659923986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10515232544409757,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Mikey-506,2019/03/01,"15 years, fully recovered. I was part of the lucky 33% that fully recovered. Been medicated with zyprexa which I have reduced in dosage over the years from 15mg to 10mg and have stopped using zopiclone medication to sleep. &#x200B; Not easy, no, I tried ending it more then once as it seemed like I was going to be stuck in a state of psychosis forever. I now have a child, and I'm starting a family while working on various tech related social media projects. &#x200B; I did not picture myself here years ago, but I just wanted to tell everyone here, it does get better even if it does not seem that way. Give it time, question your thoughts from external perspective if possible, correct them as they come up but most of all just enjoy your stay here on earth as much as you can.",8.846485714285713,7.239437420000005,8.264476190476191,73.97700000000003,61.46666666666667,11.771428571428574,38.095238095238095,10.608840637214634,3.8669238095238088,623,25,117,12,7,197,104,150,0.032,0.878,0.09,0.8622,0,0,0,0,0,0,24.0,0,3,2,2,7,4,0,0,5,0,9,3,1,1,2,24,21,12,0,3,9,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,1,8,4,0,1,4,0,0,2,4,0,0,0,6,0,13,4,20,14,6,22,0,0,0,0,10,6,0,7,12,80,21,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12296987631180642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30061337528291393,0.3371280993013123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12268952647401958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11949787934021877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2427954701861942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12286770945586024,0.0,0.0,0.0916254618290386,0.0,0.0,0.1325561021452305,0.0,0.0,0.13077602472854524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07247722279055943,0.13307607427601428,0.078839674521905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06777321976272781,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2794983537052429,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1019776211641982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14773583625465628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15022386543496272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15638972926614553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1554018960647076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2525770485780882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13882353053396312,0.14141098160022078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0981890984401208,0.14786062931255994,0.0,0.11597892903709538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12125031905114325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11013084132862344,0.08089069874838357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09418404602503576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11981243079209365,0.0,0.0,0.08182262378223898,0.110112135167258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10099224821514187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3371280993013123,0.267999860173018 schizophrenia,clubvelour,2019/03/01,"stop apologising for your mental health. hey !! i was diagnosed with a form of schizophrenia almost exactly 2 years a go to the day. i've found that, through these 2 years, i've had to apologise almost every day, in whatever degree, for my illness. &#x200B; i hope this is OK to post here, but i've been making videos surrounding the topic of schizophrenia, my most recent about having to apologise for seeing the things we see, hearing the things we hear, or doing the things we do. [https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zri4OYUpNxU](https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zri4OYUpNxU) &#x200B; i do not believe we have enough people talking about it. and as someone who is on a good path, i think it's important these issues are shared. i hope this helps you out some-what. &#x200B; have a fab day. x",7.788444444444441,10.056612622222222,5.757962962962968,77.82583333333336,63.51851851851853,8.066666666666668,28.314814814814817,8.548686976883017,2.0987925925925928,644,20,103,9,10,184,90,135,0.024,0.752,0.224,0.9801,0,0,0,0,0,0,52.0,4,2,0,0,3,6,0,0,9,1,12,3,0,1,1,20,22,4,0,2,3,0,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,11,7,0,1,2,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,4,4,13,6,17,18,3,13,0,0,2,0,13,4,0,6,7,70,24,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2276739115968843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3695259711003864,0.4144113287118453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12808164562794602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2199481062595684,0.0,0.0,0.11538570276241207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1174647764633162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09578270673105696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12464738051118016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06460858516697142,0.09535178342738558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12083955666050758,0.2562576750374819,0.0,0.07619922001615585,0.0,0.0,0.22582544798184834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1186553627714318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07588418712134584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11456557730447722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07881337624542678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1088767483051404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11224810250933592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1811810305018927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0963231124092818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09504395546667782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09137397098982013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2265775082157552,0.07284338187273055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4144113287118453,0.14641606015182965 schizophrenia,exporius,2019/03/01,"Need advice I have hallucinations and voices, low motivation and social withdrawal. I’ve been diagnosed as bipolar for about 2 years now, but I have asked my psychologist what my current diagnosis is (and I’ve been seeing her for months and months) but she won’t tell me?? And it doesn’t help that the voices tell me “she’s lying, don’t trust anyone” So is she lying? Why doesn’t she want me to know? ",1.858509142053446,4.422325708860762,3.6662447257383977,84.41163150492268,83.0506329113924,6.549085794655415,18.904360056258792,7.793537801064563,0.7679609001406464,317,8,63,6,9,106,52,79,0.127,0.718,0.155,-0.3632,1,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,1,3,2,0,0,1,0,10,2,0,1,0,11,15,9,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,1,2,2,0,0,3,5,0,0,2,0,0,0,4,1,0,0,2,3,12,1,5,12,0,6,0,1,1,0,10,1,0,0,5,40,15,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2659150686116551,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19027445861686776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2543979098925613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.276198724699675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18239805181849755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14955147183056336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4344113479985435,0.0,0.0,0.2017754699544348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21684649123052915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2773947353882297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4756943172068018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16050496797350158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24554833283722516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17523804128816176 schizophrenia,QMark234,2019/03/01,"What’s your experience with latuda? I wanted to ask what your experience is with latuda. I’m thinking of switching to it from zyprexa. The reason is I am consistently gaining weight and I have a very hard time controlling my eating. I won’t make the switch until May at least when summer begins. What do you think?",2.637714285714285,5.442720866666669,3.8795238095238105,82.51500000000003,82.0,6.095238095238094,21.904761904761905,7.447530270364453,1.1249761904761908,252,8,45,4,7,82,47,60,0.031,0.912,0.058,0.3542,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,3,0,2,1,0,0,0,3,0,7,2,0,3,0,10,14,3,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,4,3,2,1,3,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,8,0,8,12,1,6,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,1,5,33,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2516077342084408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30186119446055176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27539540286807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5265372886618419,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24109481760776885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17965173000119647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27671872754827737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3449055743760531,0.0,0.0,0.15693655408588178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22206706745042665,0.1587445877132654,0.0,0.0,0.3277376236093685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,YBOXES,2019/03/02,What happens when a schizo takes psychadelics? Curious. Please answer and dont be rude. ,3.3640000000000008,6.113034733333333,2.0933333333333337,88.96000000000002,101.66666666666666,4.666666666666667,25.0,6.42735559955562,1.447000000000001,71,3,11,1,3,20,15,15,0.0,0.585,0.415,0.7253,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,4,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,6,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5915075422706766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4463067321377124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5540117586145537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3794734504576962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,justademonindisguise,2019/03/02,"Getting Better but Feel Like It's Worse I've made a lot of progress on my issues and the underlying things that trigger and worsen my schizophrenia. I used to go catatonic when I was psychotic, just frozen in fear and subject to everything in my head. I don't get scared anymore. I get angry instead. It's good in a way, because it's progress in my issues. But it makes me feel awful because my boyfriend is often the target of it, just because he's the one who's around me the most. I hate getting so angry with him, because I know I'm not angry at him. It's irrational and doesn't make sense but I can't help but feel like I have to fight in those moments. He's the one who keeps saying it's progress, as I don't remember my psychotic episodes very much, just the emotions. He says he thinks I'm trying to stand up for myself in those moments, which is better than being frozen in fear when everything overcomes me. It just hurts him. He says as soon as I see he's genuinely hurt, I snap out of it and try to comfort him. For me it's in those moments that I realize he's not in the reality that I'm fighting against, that he's not them (the abusers in flashbacks, the voices, the hallucinations in general), and I can stop fighting and yelling at him. I just always feel so awful afterwards though because I hate hurting him like that. I don't know what to do to get through this phase of the progress. Maybe it'll just take time, but I'm scared I'll push him away before them. He's so kind and understanding, I don't know how he does it. I love him so much and I don't want to lose him, but I'm so much of a burden already, with this on top of it I don't know what will happen. I know partially that I'm making progress, that can be seen in my accomplishments in school and life and in the changes in my symptomology, but part of me always feels like I'm getting worse and I worry that I'll never really be better. &#x200B; Mostly just needed to vent but if anyone has experience with getting passed psychosis-induced anger, I'd love some suggestions. &#x200B; TLDR; My psychosis makes me a shit girlfriend even though technically it's improvement. I'm getting better but feel like I'll never get better, wonderful paradoxes our minds make...",4.915978277381137,5.427175988986787,5.564415919793408,83.05204845814981,68.84581497797356,8.464712137323406,30.63314598207504,8.433251757073789,2.1289545192161623,1785,68,364,25,29,579,186,454,0.199,0.624,0.177,-0.9433,0,0,0,0,7,0,56.0,1,0,2,13,23,31,7,4,16,2,21,5,2,9,2,75,71,35,0,3,20,0,6,5,1,2,1,5,0,0,33,17,0,2,16,0,0,3,13,16,0,2,3,13,50,15,51,63,8,41,0,4,2,2,35,25,1,7,16,228,83,2,0.0,0.08236689891972247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07671431692703834,0.0,0.1156882986011825,0.15064441746111654,0.16894280263219616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06894270436863968,0.04860826947975234,0.0,0.0,0.061885335358757725,0.0,0.0,0.06531400262644435,0.0,0.0,0.21188618842503795,0.0,0.059154293125331325,0.0,0.0,0.30741300560669715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07354032320562197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06083525414325765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07819785823762586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.045915669284013416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12495573697452228,0.06800147830907828,0.0,0.15645308412572814,0.2109008948715803,0.19865333351664527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3268803357996678,0.0,0.03950841119427547,0.05830800129767399,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061474117312997914,0.0,0.0,0.13726832633398778,0.07134503592333992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04659613129278607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22325984325619785,0.0,0.0,0.1451164686756257,0.0,0.06179036989561885,0.0,0.07239180410160463,0.19102506707090905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04910228341805509,0.16981375497700035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07777232799963621,0.0,0.059101313343160725,0.12548455997812066,0.0657791625269166,0.23201743701594904,0.0,0.06983969713107571,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07019288250676191,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15331013784626055,0.05154636354897171,0.10723240099768393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09421374743138697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07528070457912646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04453470628018792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07874980360496582,0.0,0.0,0.1658493770881643,0.13919833887045371,0.07035544613781684,0.055396466546760684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07135873988561191,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058119763254427775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05226852684670347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.046184354286807665,0.0445440226925244,0.13660122968477492,0.0,0.040536227569730215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09439567174427667,0.0,0.0,0.07237019465142777,0.0,0.0600408209524573,0.0,0.05735923816058184,0.04100323707557957,0.055179775158241635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07538878988009802,0.0,0.07059842057093672,0.14168859298789413,0.0,0.0,0.16894280263219616,0.0 schizophrenia,DemetriusTheDementor,2019/03/02,"Anyone want to talk? Hey guys, I'm in desperate need of someone to talk to. I can't help but shake the feelings of stress from my dream even though I woke up and everything was okay. Is everyone okay?",1.730853658536585,3.8281590975609774,2.797743902439024,93.26051829268292,79.97560975609757,7.0268292682926825,22.445121951219512,8.07648339933343,1.0448975609756106,157,5,35,3,4,50,34,41,0.15,0.624,0.226,0.3628,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,2,4,0,2,1,2,3,0,0,0,0,5,8,3,0,2,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,1,1,2,0,0,2,1,3,2,8,6,0,3,0,0,0,0,5,2,0,0,0,19,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21268319763998453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20090185208448505,0.0,0.0,0.2906481003693776,0.2733689759750901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15379782489173024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3011767748276201,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20387918160983626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22553869009624125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2577228129625592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3484264630953964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4889617091066194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2988461288774514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17940773592973142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Bipolarapparently,2019/03/02,"Diagnosed as Bipolar NOS I’m wondering how conceivable it is I might have schizoaffective disorder. I know I have manic episodes and this isn’t disputable. These are the symptoms I get outlined on the mind website. a lack of interest in things feeling disconnected from your feelings difficulty concentrating wanting to avoid people (mainly new people or large groups) disorganised thinking and speech (but only when I’m manic) I don’t really class myself as depressed but I do feel like my personality has changed somewhat since I had my manicepisodes. When I’m not manic I feel like lazy, unmotivated, no interest in anything, and I’m a lot more introverted, and I can sometimes feel like somethings not quite right with me that comes out as self deprecating sometimes I can provide more info if needed ",8.383333333333333,9.749950879432623,8.178156028368797,64.33333333333334,61.482269503546114,11.08936170212766,39.780141843971634,10.980518767755715,4.932197163120566,658,34,98,17,9,211,98,141,0.126,0.7559999999999999,0.118,0.2263,0,1,1,0,0,0,12.0,0,1,0,1,3,7,0,1,4,0,12,3,0,1,0,31,28,14,0,4,6,0,5,3,0,1,3,1,0,2,5,7,0,1,9,0,0,1,5,2,0,0,1,6,15,5,11,26,6,9,0,1,0,0,4,5,0,6,6,67,20,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13185540759019093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1695017986835231,0.13802371658090715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1380056235589387,0.1626297935917096,0.0,0.0,0.1836371414503607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4050848054785793,0.34340443321890746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08371341577145952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08805806406813403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23484044389626116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13622157857824607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1699784126552786,0.16178634143897516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11880830755551475,0.0,0.1547508626022935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12186192273791588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22216622691030466,0.13990641167245996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17042403091569686,0.0,0.0,0.10264726192768707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1368353059052076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1671545433810022,0.0,0.0,0.1325436806419084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12335266702756865,0.3169425814575746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1665400305593107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10644950663002416,0.1026687351627706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0945076406140453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17376229703969956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,EckhartWatts,2019/03/02,"I've kept this to myself for a long time I have hallucinations. Not all the time, they just happen occasionally, less and less often, though when it happens I am absolutely petrified. They only happen when I'm either alone or the only one awake, though I have woken up partners in the past due to my hallucinations, they're unsupportive so I sit and usually cry and shake by myself. When they happen I stay up all night because I'm so scared they're going to get me, I try to keep my eyes on them so they can't get any closer. These hallucinations only happen at night. Sometimes I hear nothing or noises when these hallucinations happen that are hard to explain. Sometimes they bounce around the room. These things don't happen while I'm about to go to sleep. Often times I am just sitting down in my bed and catch a glimpse of something around the corner and then it just feels like it's taunting me waiting for me to go to sleep. ... I can't tell how I feel about sharing all this. I'm embarrassed to give too much more detail. I do not know if I have schizophrenia or not, I'm leaning towards not but I'm not sure wtf is going on",3.9528552837064055,5.36292294247788,4.945148360229048,83.28660333159814,71.78761061946905,7.087558563248308,24.798542425819893,7.5105763829236425,1.0916702758979695,899,26,180,10,17,294,120,226,0.071,0.892,0.037000000000000005,-0.511,0,1,1,0,0,0,21.0,0,0,6,0,20,6,0,3,7,0,11,3,3,1,4,35,40,22,0,1,14,0,3,1,1,0,0,1,2,1,10,7,0,3,4,0,0,6,8,3,0,1,2,5,26,3,27,38,8,38,0,0,1,0,12,14,0,6,16,123,36,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10893137485502052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07152378451952349,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18725918073474607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06411475969785735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11553170153773155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1063610319551202,0.0751382784566444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10990100306800203,0.1008951052770673,0.23909744269728755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6510520581639069,0.0,0.0942176931825318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11854182113466355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09348591210561373,0.0,0.0,0.05780238137537407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051384038642013984,0.0,0.0,0.09307809822580468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0773169999133433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19740247649369044,0.0,0.10091991112118556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07127047569378303,0.2399749327142792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10040309182363594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10530025710214548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2105053790376643,0.0,0.0,0.08097018687215549,0.2080449548985241,0.0,0.0,0.1121044022525172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09912782532714393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09192909974312403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06987474735633775,0.0,0.2066712106336667,0.0,0.1839881949604083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07140809714153787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11583731119622424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,AschoffTheTop,2019/03/02,What’s your go-to chill-out-album? Mine changes periodically but right now it’s “Swimming” by Mac Miller. Listening now because I can’t sleep,1.1566666666666627,3.546107629629632,2.6863703703703727,85.42066666666669,102.33333333333334,5.122962962962963,23.91851851851852,6.742157984588678,1.1986207407407408,114,5,22,2,5,37,25,27,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,1,2,0,5,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,3,10,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.323791416315014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5618989511304662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3018715970124733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4536094334273675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5315455843688673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Paltsick,2019/03/02,"How effective is Risperidone for thought broadcasting? Does anyone know? I suffer from this constantly and want to take Risperidone, but don't know much about it.",6.271111111111113,9.87543092592593,4.0903703703703735,81.7666666666667,73.07407407407408,8.044444444444443,31.222222222222214,8.841846274778883,3.2398,133,6,20,3,3,37,25,27,0.081,0.7909999999999999,0.128,-0.1053,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,2,0,8,7,3,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,4,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,4,6,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,13,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.292500385269667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4520573411816442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3660762965917385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4597975308516542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30751471485358634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31452599328818137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3321008460594197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24673708342787984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,dciky,2019/03/03,"looking for people to converse with. been so mentally unstable in most recent days. i have no references to base my thoughts off of. full of uncertainty and hope. and even though i acknowledge these tendencies, i still don’t even feel worried about them. is that weird and/or strange? i’m certain that there is someone who can relate, just don’t know where to find them. ",3.3916176470588217,6.399453455882355,3.169117647058826,87.48102941176472,80.61764705882355,6.929411764705884,27.617647058823533,8.07648339933343,2.1363470588235294,297,13,54,6,8,89,55,68,0.181,0.7490000000000001,0.069,-0.7251,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,2,0,9,3,0,0,0,0,7,0,0,0,1,13,13,4,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,3,0,0,6,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,2,2,6,2,10,11,2,7,0,0,1,0,4,4,0,2,3,40,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1885485581049516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3862031605571337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14782642729202067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2672125150428023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2903802855442631,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16067387408008396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24550947617452695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2946309669572002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2026861977104902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2886710629803122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24771639455060554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23347974784237546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28724304503723724,0.2321018532779212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2969066288262792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,isitmeweoryou,2019/03/03,"Is this schzophrenia? I have random thoughts. They are just thoughts not voices outside of my head but they make no sense. These are some of the random things that pop in my head and have nothing to do with what I am doing or thinking. Im going to take you to Greenbriar (have no clue what that is) Hi, Pippa, I dont want to be touched, dont stab me in the stomach, Hi, Little Shroomy, I am going to slit your wrists etc, I want to die, etc. What is this?",0.14165550239234648,2.312123031578949,1.4413397129186618,100.1111961722488,87.10526315789473,3.8755980861244015,19.16267942583732,4.851557810540192,-0.650157894736842,348,10,81,1,11,110,59,95,0.141,0.8170000000000001,0.041,-0.8346,0,0,0,0,0,1,16.0,0,2,2,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,15,4,4,1,0,15,24,3,1,2,4,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,9,2,0,0,3,0,0,2,5,0,0,0,2,2,12,0,11,21,3,5,0,0,0,0,6,3,0,4,0,59,21,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20385495198182735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4604100774154904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.43812474676510577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2232622183616544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4031711351542469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2121693902239815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1968663754292184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13111316330096265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1884721390542292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14768484610666344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13049400216285198,0.12585924136739066,0.0,0.3118741432428445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23170948648092324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,SaneSchizophrenic,2019/03/03,"Could I have schizophrenia? I’m not actually posting this to ask if I could have the disorder, rather, what is the best way to reply to this question? I have a YouTube channel where I talk about schizophrenia and I’m often asked by people if they might have schizophrenia and I’m not sure what the best thing to say to them in response. What would be a responsible reply to this question?",3.4579428571428568,5.819498680000002,3.535238095238096,88.80000000000004,75.53333333333333,5.885714285714287,26.714285714285715,6.868970318607317,1.1496285714285714,311,12,60,3,7,95,43,75,0.061,0.7929999999999999,0.146,0.8214,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,2,2,4,3,0,0,5,0,10,0,0,0,1,15,15,4,0,6,5,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,7,2,0,0,2,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,6,3,9,10,2,4,0,0,0,0,8,2,0,6,0,48,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.1991851965689887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3816368783969475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4284087590211328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32593581970696484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23393159518699094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21653202018803167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14150650420533567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19548417763410586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4573073555748976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1623191371281563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1923744271014614,0.0,0.0,0.1640585878450992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1356038473271542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1620156852174993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14499627531178294,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Fadeawayacountt,2019/03/03,"I no longer have schizophrenia. My psychotic break lasted a whole year, but now I experience none of the symptoms. I am able to live a normal life and now I am in culinary school. If anyone has any questions please ask! 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My uncle has drug induced schizophrenia, which means I have a 2-3% chance of getting it too. When I was 16 years old I experimented with acid, shrooms, dmt and weed (not the smartest thing to do at that age, I know). Apart from a bad acid trip, I never experienced psychosis or schizophrenia. I only smoke weed once a month now, but I am constantly worried that it will trigger something for me. Is this a realistic thought? Thanks",4.863179723502307,6.503187698924731,4.563471582181262,86.00806451612905,69.86021505376344,7.034715821812598,31.565284178187408,7.447530270364453,1.877231643625192,388,17,76,4,7,118,69,93,0.056,0.831,0.113,0.6261,0,0,4,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,0,5,0,9,1,0,2,1,12,14,4,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,8,2,0,1,4,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,2,3,11,2,8,11,0,11,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,8,49,19,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2236974103488054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28952038790514223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31069575394907345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2620717823167174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13997426451024916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14723879844759272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2918374240361604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2138467917713694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2066321729347776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2811311916934818,0.28532019061091424,0.0,0.20376104415106208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2062536653587149,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24665966914433715,0.0,0.0,0.17799048409032256,0.0,0.0,0.212694180617486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.272080171899742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17252814917670062 schizophrenia,just-sort-of-present,2019/03/03,"Schizophrenia without hallucinations? I’m trying to understand/find out whether or not it’s possible to have schizophrenia without hallucinations. I intend on making a follow up post, with this same question with some context towards my situation. I just wanted to ask this without the context first though, to maybe get some replies before making this question too complicated. 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Is it possible that all mental illnesses and mental disorders (more so disorders) are not really disorders/problems that need to be treated/helped but just people wired differently, and the only reason they are seen as disorders/problems is because they don’t fit the “normal” mold of a person and are expected to be so they are then labeled as having a disorder instead of just letting the person live their life in they way their “disorder” , I don’t know if I should say makes them live, but it’s the best my brain could come up with. I mean I don’t know. Is it possible? I need to get the thoughts out, sorry if this is not for this sub. I’ll stick to a journal from now on.",4.548913043478258,5.8728475144927526,5.610840579710146,79.41495652173914,70.23188405797102,9.288115942028986,29.017391304347825,9.642632912329526,2.717142608695653,559,21,106,13,10,185,81,138,0.078,0.855,0.067,0.1027,2,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,7,1,6,1,0,0,8,0,18,3,1,2,1,27,28,12,0,8,8,0,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,2,7,6,0,0,5,0,0,1,5,0,0,0,2,2,13,1,15,21,3,9,0,0,1,0,10,5,0,2,2,80,20,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07629510122589031,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1313455065744788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1397176215306412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10781245858795807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09992840820527556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26152675819662274,0.5737672393779526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06538984309864232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08389070991702963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1375670300852445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12798244429926406,0.08840273430866492,0.0,0.0,0.22103345785008036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0835438778472627,0.0,0.0,0.13633365701049407,0.0,0.0,0.2522594748368605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18560601113397632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12262817980835868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09518823158865666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17353747407873701,0.21856612165323228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2821934799710466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2395184368752215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08017936301011691,0.1286831781257508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09953059475975047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14010403518550846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09936140152072977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09934452459154333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,CorpusSatanae,2019/03/03,"Feel like I’m stuck in endless various time loops and dreams I’ve been unmedicated I can’t remember how long anymore that it’s been. I never even know what year or month or anything it is. My memory is shot and all I can ever think about is weird shit that to me is completely normal and I can’t share it with anyone because I’m not supposed to. I have no support and feel like everyone is secretly working with the government/fbi/cia/aliens and or are demons in disguise, and that they are always secretly watching me and doing experiments on me but also believe that I am the antichrist inhabiting a human vessel and I get secret messages only I can see or hear from my father Satan or lesser demons and spirits. i believe that I am not from or of this world and that I somehow got stuck here and want to leave. I see lots of strange things an often hear things too. Everything is too much all the time. I try to hide it all but it’s too hard. I never feel safe, ever. I always have this eerie weird feeling like I’m about to die or the world is going to end or like I’m about to be attacked. I feel like reality is a constant series of endless dreams, and I’m stuck inside of it, and it’s not really real, whenever it’s about to end or I’m about to wake up it all starts over again. I feel like only “dreams” are real or are reality. I know I will probably end up right back where I am right now. I just wish it would all stop but I’m not even allowed to die right now. 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Is schizophrenia easier to recognize for non beleivers, as they would understand that the things they experience are not actual entites (ie god, jesus angels, demons etc) trying to communicate/control them but are infact a manifistation of theyr condition.",14.550375586854464,13.093617464788736,12.752676056338027,45.78516431924882,50.40845070422535,16.22723004694836,47.61032863849765,14.554592549557764,7.385446948356807,364,17,45,12,3,115,57,71,0.0,0.903,0.097,0.5932,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,3,3,0,0,2,0,0,2,0,5,1,0,0,0,9,6,4,0,2,3,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,4,2,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,6,2,11,5,1,4,4,0,0,0,6,4,0,1,1,33,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.29769535317973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34215164765295697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2669607779265881,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34022345167115425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2984080169501767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3443765318124236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3176738983117309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1490373066398025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21149076072049294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2026688524947962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20711627095707508,0.0,0.0,0.31757907047364553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21670645274954606,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,mangoesAndPineapples,2019/03/03,"You ever think you figured out ""too much""? This happened first when I was in a mental hospital. I was ""delusional"" and thought my brain had tapped into some secrets that the government (or new world order, whatever LOL...there could be a larger thing than the U.S. gov't, and I don't mean the UN) didn't want me to know. I think I walked into that hospital not schizophrenic and walked out schizophrenic. So here's what is maybe possible. Serial killers used to be a big problem in the 70's/80's right? So maybe they diagnosed me as a psychopath and since they had me in the mental hospital somehow made me delusional so I'd have to be on these sedating meds for the rest of my life. Not that I even wanted to kill anyone, but if they diagnosed me as a psychopath (also something I""m not) then they'd want to keep me medicated just to be safe. Of course, getting to the main point of my post, maybe it's possible that serial killers don't exist. Maybe these ""serial killers"" (and maybe also people like the guy who killed the president) were innocent and they just put these crimes on them to put them in prison or to execute them to shut them up. Maybe they gave them some sorta drug to make them think they actually were serial killers so they'd ""confess"". Who knows? I mean what if some guy is super smart and radical thinking and the gov't views him as a threat and puts a bunch of child porn on his PC. you think anybody's going to really think he's not guilty? Once they find that shit on your PC you are pretty much presumed guilty and you'll never be heard from again, even assuming you don't get killed in prison. There are a thousand ways you can disappear and you only ever heard the side of the story that the media/govt wants you to, even if some of it is coming out of the convict's mouth.",6.805175685693108,6.201307278873237,6.687828020756117,80.39277983691625,64.94366197183098,10.515937731653077,30.79688658265382,9.93914555978268,2.6388591549295763,1424,43,288,27,19,451,175,355,0.158,0.767,0.075,-0.9886,0,0,2,0,0,0,45.0,0,10,15,2,19,10,5,0,22,0,26,11,3,3,3,66,53,28,3,9,12,0,0,1,0,1,7,2,0,3,17,17,0,2,17,0,0,8,9,6,0,2,12,3,43,4,41,32,9,40,1,0,1,1,38,21,1,12,9,199,60,3,0.0,0.0,0.08261092368196286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13539690869140253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059192640654861274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09450281157410942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07292265891489454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0675900106805984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17184578507616355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09817275187330077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1677411935116213,0.15315031994794606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0773730008317575,0.07200737363790123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08845733206038515,0.0,0.04811130311152896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16764322526444672,0.07486000581030376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07524512187552494,0.2809741523474805,0.0,0.0930481851933372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059794225320215964,0.04135808447487836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08010246757818396,0.056507770887287936,0.0,0.5102830617057186,0.18442790191423966,0.09403245620482377,0.085280856978615,0.1706243590259192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1244621130712618,0.0,0.06529104046234226,0.08176018332123215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09015465425986936,0.0,0.06438382943645166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058689015151582626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08002619775365037,0.19087125140687788,0.08107594719755724,0.08612441818073906,0.0,0.08100326022075964,0.0,0.25530452345497856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054232065731346986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07229478083349207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08689698878073006,0.07002736815240647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06517144072570391,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0562409218932296,0.3254604646633905,0.0,0.06720649623708104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0731146115115674,0.0,0.0,0.19972649953414734,0.06719508094642992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,HornySJW,2019/03/03,"Title Well guys its 1:30AM March 3rd and I decided to look into symptoms of schizophrenia and things of that nature around the Internet and found myself here reading the DSM-5 in the subreddit description. Was watching the Alex Jones Joe Rogan podcast earlier after smoking marijuana and Joe said something along the lines of how schizophrenia is real and people think others are after them and everything is some giant scheme simply put as “against you”. I started to think about how since August of 2018, I stopped my recreational usage of the most strong substances I’ve come across which is LSD. Ive been using LSD on and off since December of 2016 but as I stated have stopped. There was a time in the summer of 2017(I believe?) where I was experiencing an episode of psychosis telling me that I was essentially inside of the Truman Show movie and everything was just fabricated and most importantly not real. Another time was my second ever use of LSD where I believe i was being hunted and soon-to-be confronted with an evil being that would punish me for doing LSD. Ever since then i have become closer to what I call the second voice in my head, it judges what I say, do, and even makes me question/be confused to my loyalty to friends, family and my significant other with constant dissociative scenarios in my head that play out whether i want them to or not. They are like tiny movies that I play while doing basic everyday actions like driving, showering, scrolling through my phone, hanging out with my significant other or friends. This comes back to my previous comment about the DSM-5, I read there that if symptoms like this (in the activation month) persist for 6 months(August of 2018-stoppage of LSD usage and the decline of my mental health; to March 3rd) and personally I can’t sit here and act like that doesn’t make everything make sense. Since August of 2018, I have been mentally run down, beat, exhausted, anxious and depressed pretty much every word in the book. Im not too sure if this subreddit is about serious posting like this but I just figured I’d get this off of my chest because it seems living my life isn’t about my own free will anymore. I always have to have two sides of my head happy with a decision I make and evaluate what I say and do very closely as I am judged by myself. If anyone on this subreddit has had to take this route in their lives to cope with their mind because they’re truly too scared to figure out what’s actually happening then please shed some light on what could be happening to me with insight from themselves like personal stories or experiences. If you read this then thank you for listening to me talk about my issues, thank you!",12.206974736842106,8.640471508000005,10.721157894736844,65.06847368421055,56.92,13.886315789473686,43.515789473684215,11.622719091009314,4.92874,2174,86,375,42,19,680,262,500,0.099,0.7909999999999999,0.11,0.846,1,0,1,0,0,0,43.0,0,4,5,3,23,25,3,2,17,0,37,9,4,8,3,82,60,37,0,7,15,0,0,6,2,2,5,5,1,3,28,33,0,2,9,7,1,8,6,8,1,3,12,9,53,18,73,42,6,58,0,1,2,0,23,25,0,13,28,268,81,4,0.0,0.0,0.08060567846126235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06872981153744724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08661329520824704,0.0,0.09331448149878938,0.08191699826917695,0.057755835998969024,0.0,0.0,0.07353150642835476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06351429640626825,0.0,0.1007043787413227,0.09122520326609818,0.0,0.1861238140905011,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08434382859387379,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14230516098968846,0.0,0.08926124878552286,0.0,0.06594937358511996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07114325336445029,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0545565166860141,0.14943284611474372,0.06959405703016076,0.0,0.22270664423170866,0.08079864333665608,0.07786792265828772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09056662944713482,0.1276331001560683,0.0,0.0431550874134416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08178697991501438,0.14608580291836298,0.08792922901873867,0.0,0.0,0.2543142702814424,0.08779993053802382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0892221672073607,0.08621293305936538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05834281817930982,0.2421251072163217,0.0,0.14587461512067038,0.0,0.06936319119795849,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22054454823619946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16648273143936654,0.0,0.08340244682119669,0.0,0.06593052675980847,0.0,0.06072049929773302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05726443518206914,0.14424625658350887,0.0,0.09066998854775128,0.0,0.0,0.07910796102350644,0.08403388862066047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08303580773628769,0.09253089661377817,0.0,0.2478670386864912,0.18803375208020076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07857150902431746,0.13137366030040354,0.08269700317638011,0.0,0.0,0.07519593184133612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2733102727436882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06358951046494933,0.0,0.0,0.05846470053737179,0.0,0.0,0.1381145862935888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07784951634063435,0.1717060404331171,0.062104915414102416,0.0663907459411554,0.07219603505891152,0.15209395270678538,0.0,0.0,0.05487576538840271,0.10585348118329686,0.0,0.0,0.09632944091990142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08068819139859046,0.0,0.0,0.14267974751160611,0.0,0.06815364520656966,0.04871961625686917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07426731401469229,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05867666547104178,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,basslover258,2019/03/03,"How to get out of psych ward faster? There were times when I was in a psych ward, and I felt that i was clearly in a better mental state than others, yet they got released much sooner than I did. One patient literally tackled me and got sent to a different section of the ward, but he was released 10 days before I was. I still don't understand that... So are there secrets here that I'm missing?",4.762375000000001,5.060915487500001,5.400000000000002,84.845,69.125,7.9,29.75,7.554174236665415,1.6931999999999996,309,11,64,3,5,100,56,80,0.038,0.905,0.057,0.0,1,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,1,1,8,2,0,0,4,0,8,0,0,1,1,9,16,6,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,3,0,0,3,0,0,1,1,1,0,1,10,1,8,1,9,6,2,12,0,1,0,0,4,4,0,0,6,47,12,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2584028716667011,0.0,0.0,0.2685735869353009,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19584359535980425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3172730562970605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29157315529874656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15865631122222518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4857491670546684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3060303852396229,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22323417727916392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.205776297885694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2425131951192072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17707383618565584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31613370954134484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,gray_moon87,2019/03/04,"Re-Diagnosis The other day I was downgraded to assbergers from schizo, I am happy",3.0440000000000005,6.125569733333336,6.2150000000000025,63.86250000000001,85.0,11.0,27.5,10.125756701596842,4.663,66,3,10,3,2,24,14,15,0.0,0.748,0.252,0.5719,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,1,2,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,8,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5181574424015346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.855285253517153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Frinada,2019/03/04,Brushed My Teeth First Post but just wanted to share in the first time ever in my life I started brushing my teeth every morning. I'm no longer paranoid about it poisoning me or choking me. I can finally feel free from this and normal. That's all. ,3.6311224489795935,5.423308795918372,4.1181122448979615,87.35635204081633,73.28571428571428,6.53265306122449,28.5765306122449,7.1686216300943375,1.5446285714285717,197,8,38,2,4,62,41,49,0.239,0.642,0.119,-0.8047,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,2,3,3,1,0,1,0,1,4,2,0,2,9,5,3,0,2,3,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,1,1,0,2,0,3,7,3,5,5,1,9,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,6,26,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2943635160888736,0.2741827096106748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1645435246810375,0.0,0.0,0.35648472566573564,0.0,0.5536088646914288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2298557183955159,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31884520977562136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3116650477180917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23033590358105105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18975662760437706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1919427745204096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,itskinglique,2019/03/04,"The night before I got diagnosed..(can someone explain?) I wanna preface this with...I believe consciousness is something the brain tunes into NOT consciousness is created by the brain. Meaning that when we die the consciousness is still there & can still be tuned into...Now, I was on my way home to go kill myself because I was tired of reality beating up on me & the reason stated above, I thought what’s so bad if we never really die. So I was driving down a street I always drive down to go home at 2am & since I was bout to kill myself I pretty much didn’t give af about anything else so I pulled up to a stoplight it was red. There was no one on the road. Out of nowhere the police rode past & I decided to run the light in front of them. They didn’t do anything. Coincidence or not it was pretty cool. So I continue driving & eventually the road I’m on (2 lanes on each side) turns into a winding road (1 lane on each side). Also there’s a complete scenery change. At first there were businesses & gas stations on the street & then it turned into a familiar looking road in the woods. The businesses & gas stations turned into just trees and it seemed like I was in the middle of a forest. So eventually I pull over to see what’s actually going on and where I actually was but I had no clue. So I got out & laid on top of my car & looked up at the stars for a moment. It was really quiet and serene then I got back in my car & just sat there trying to grasp what’s actually going on. Then I start to feel like someone is patting me down & rustling through the things in my car. (No one or nothing was there) Eventually it gets silent again & I continue driving down this winding road. As The road seems to be coming to an end I see a kid pulled over standing outside his car next to a police officer. It then turns back into the previous road with gas stations & businesses and I keep driving home. I told my parents the next day that I thought I went to the future or jumped dimensions & they suggested that I get looked at by a professional. I told the psychiatrist the whole story and they diagnosed me with schiz & depression. I still don’t know what happened to this day. 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Ten years ago I had 100 college credits. Now I have 160. &#x200B; I ended up changing my major to an area I really enjoy. It seems to pay well too. I think I will be in school for 2 or so more years. &#x200B; I read on here that someone said people would be so much nicer to us if they knew how we suffered. When I read that I related but I kind of wanted to post its inverse. I really appreciate people who are kind. &#x200B; I'm not saying a voice telling me to put a bullet through my brain is as bad as a real person doing so, but I really appreciate it when people are kind or empathetic. I don't even care if people are empathetic but people who are kind really can make your day. &#x200B; This is just a rant, I'm not expecting anyone to respond or rate this up, but feel free to.",2.3109831460674144,4.233247443820229,4.52627808988764,82.42627106741574,77.37078651685394,7.371348314606742,24.04634831460674,8.278499904357787,1.5757741573033708,687,23,136,13,16,238,104,178,0.073,0.6679999999999999,0.259,0.9899,0,0,0,0,0,0,36.0,2,1,1,0,12,12,0,0,6,0,15,2,1,2,0,23,27,17,0,5,12,0,1,0,0,2,1,3,0,1,9,1,0,0,4,2,3,1,3,2,1,1,3,4,21,11,16,20,3,15,0,1,0,0,11,5,0,6,8,93,30,7,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0653245831168991,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3992328041773204,0.4477265734579008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05152800497401068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06153075109535264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0822659927142275,0.0,0.0,0.0751351376623971,0.0,0.0779576434315997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.047526023123091336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06527030960314742,0.0,0.0,0.048673669327750926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.037261500550823085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3837006832118245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.049190789042983823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054172987642215946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3065375524248226,0.06434606735542832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07057772324818996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07408202894219734,0.0,0.0,0.14742630225349354,0.08387900499478035,0.23604878257160694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07009911704667951,0.05860379738537611,0.0,0.07458146149490606,0.0,0.06708752947520147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06244001658621923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06441111256160932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04721963253225727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08864385645809349,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04346616381521443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06625904481797802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05234954109752947,0.0,0.4477265734579008,0.09491202054937088 schizophrenia,Mathcmput,2019/03/04,"Antipsychotics that do not elevate prolactin? I'm currently on Effexor XR 300mg, Abilify 5mg, and Invega Sustenna 150mg. My psychiatrist referred me to an endocrinologist since he saw I have low testosterone in my blood work results. After 3 months wait, I finally saw the endocrinologist today. She said although my overall testosterone is low, my testosterone protein hormone is fine, so it might be due to the elevated prolactin. Didn't recommend getting testosterone since the body will stop producing testosterone on its own and I'd have to get the shots forever. Apparently my testosterone was at its lowest when I was on risperidone, which is worse than Invega at elevating prolactin. She said she'll recommend the psychiatrist to change medication if possible. Obviously my psychiatrist will make the decision but what are other antipsychotics that do not elevate prolactin? I would like to know my options.",8.600064935064934,10.835999396103897,8.412857142857145,59.682142857142885,61.532467532467535,12.353246753246756,42.57142857142857,11.911945987284742,6.230085714285713,753,44,104,26,11,242,98,154,0.08,0.889,0.031,-0.522,3,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,0,2,2,4,0,0,7,0,17,3,2,3,1,18,27,7,0,2,4,0,0,1,0,5,1,2,0,0,8,2,0,2,3,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,7,4,15,2,13,14,1,16,0,2,2,0,6,8,0,3,9,69,23,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2502203119059063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2383021002070759,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2467684527328632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23538490976244916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12380058365507735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1100538390127047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15036714584723715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2269323113958748,0.0,0.23897217044432115,0.0,0.0,0.1798055805480133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2539541451351007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4285600764610639,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3726855727957897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18833289062848949,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21352631346113554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16399670349899556,0.0,0.22956582057705385,0.16002286676820238,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,eternal_arts_baja,2019/03/04,"I'm the reason she's alone I was diagnosed at 18 with Disorganized Schizophrenia. My mother has been taking the hits as far as coping goes. And to be honest I was a hard person to live with during recovery. Her husband left her because he couldn't cope with my mood swings, he took his daughter with him. That was 5 years ago. And my mom still hasn't recovered it feels. I know we talk about all the harm we do to ourselves and the infliction that is the illness, but what about those that choose to put up with it? Is my mother's only reward going to be the love she has for me? I keep ruining her life in tangible ways. I just want to disappear so she can have a chance at a normal life. Anything would be better than putting up with how broken, ashamed, and jealous I am. Why does she choose to suffer. Why do I have to be the biggest reason she suffers?",2.974630541871921,4.527000321839083,3.973234811165848,88.71310344827587,74.51724137931033,6.810509031198686,23.922824302134647,7.447530270364453,0.9524824302134652,672,20,140,8,14,217,109,174,0.179,0.715,0.106,-0.904,0,1,0,0,0,0,17.0,2,0,0,2,6,11,1,1,10,0,21,5,0,3,1,27,31,9,0,4,2,5,2,0,0,1,4,0,0,1,7,12,0,1,6,0,0,5,2,6,0,0,5,2,24,4,25,19,1,17,0,3,0,1,22,8,0,0,3,97,31,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1545201316537686,0.0,0.0,0.1805382387070955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14344676533009074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10626108232256788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15416785274495606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17692651566886924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15254462777119734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08813913072245362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.099067489144863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15615240700724387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1549395840999611,0.0,0.0,0.09579921432621938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18939424992302048,0.0,0.2462483194065261,0.0,0.0,0.1539237387673781,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15732650222696906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20415615198392065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17079213344382846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1325747571005188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15220553005857473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35047035339947896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3584506361388737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1392085460840697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13106352696749424,0.1401081583161583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19367088238318145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1028157706447531,0.1383634930198648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31458516692594385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12382869658623252,0.0,0.0,0.11225343669296237 schizophrenia,bendybiznatch,2019/03/04,"Is initial care considered urgent? If someone presents to a clinic/provider and is currently experiencing visual and auditory hallucinations, is it normal for them to be given an appointment for a follow up over a week later? I just thought it would be emergent, like see a regular provider the next day after assessment at most. I'm not sure what was disclosed to the person doing the assessment as this is for someone else. They're not a danger, but that's not to say they're ok.",7.875333333333334,7.904149200000003,8.343333333333334,67.305,62.55555555555557,11.2,38.0,10.793553405168565,4.3019333333333325,388,18,65,9,5,129,65,90,0.019,0.86,0.121,0.7707,1,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,1,0,1,5,1,0,9,1,9,0,0,0,1,13,15,5,0,3,6,0,0,1,0,1,0,1,0,1,5,2,0,0,1,0,0,1,3,1,0,0,3,3,2,4,12,9,1,11,0,0,1,0,3,3,0,2,8,46,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2936992744236971,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18577670769985846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2406395481393569,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14073295811677586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3063581094630123,0.0,0.2822404319137401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25152536991711305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2290791406797723,0.0,0.0,0.2295487961914084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4881494367861953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2714958274721013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22868972633037304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2310666429534773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2046315840378457,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,franksinatraisbest,2019/03/04,"I just watched ""A beautiful mind"" : Question John nash got REALLY into those newspapers. The newspapers themselved didnt really have any correlation intrinsically, but I'm curious if their correlation was rather tied to John Nash' own unconscious. In other words, what happens you just allow a schizophrenic person to dive extremely deep into their delusions? Would their unconscious mind find expression outwardly and would that unconscious pattern be shared by others but heavily regulated in other's at large?",11.324814814814815,13.151300000000004,10.248987654320988,50.436444444444454,55.17283950617285,15.368888888888884,43.36049382716049,13.968273953766033,7.597467160493825,424,22,51,18,5,134,62,81,0.0,0.865,0.135,0.8809,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,1,3,0,3,1,0,0,3,0,6,1,0,1,0,17,9,4,0,4,6,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,6,3,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,1,5,1,8,3,1,7,0,0,1,0,8,7,0,2,0,36,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1925354433176144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25877210800728745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2264417903657516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25036745764963336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5717532615828745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24721477251606502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31716600622962604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3627556336196885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4022492881269883,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,helpmeout19372947275,2019/03/04,"Can I get your thoughts? I’m sorry if this isn’t the place but I’m hoping to get your help. Basically a couple of nights ago I was trying to sleep after only a few drinks like maybe 3? (This was on a stag do trip away so the 2 nights before were heavier drinking). But I kept seeing what looked like shadows moving towards me while I was trying to sleep and when I closed my eyes I could see faces that were changing but I wasn’t hearing noises. I looked it up and it said alcohol could trigger hallucinations if you are schizophrenic? I have used drugs recently over the past 10 months (pills, ketamine mainly) but not a lot (well maybe marijuana every other week or so). I read that drug abuse could trigger schizophrenia’s if you are susceptible to it. No one as far as I know in my family has it and I don’t see things normally when I am sober but the fact I saw things on only alcohol has freaked me out. Last night I hadn’t been drinking but I did think I saw a shadow moving in my room but maybe because I was focusing on it I made myself see it? But I didn’t see anything when I closed my eyes this time. What do you think this could be? I know I will probably need to go doctors but I’m hoping someone could talk to me about it here first?",2.069393326592518,3.8958880155038784,3.4661779575328637,90.1912082912033,77.75968992248062,6.347421638018202,22.0701044826424,7.255503002510835,0.6211679811257165,980,28,212,12,23,321,140,258,0.052000000000000005,0.872,0.076,0.782,0,0,7,0,1,0,20.0,0,5,0,1,8,6,0,0,9,0,29,15,5,4,1,41,57,24,0,12,14,0,0,2,0,1,7,2,1,0,18,6,5,1,5,4,0,4,7,1,1,2,17,13,36,5,21,33,3,35,0,0,11,0,9,15,0,7,18,144,54,2,0.0,0.1069037958350698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07998045848371492,0.19284964342762728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07424882399669314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08477088361374169,0.0,0.0,0.055001312723302186,0.0,0.07677621177897809,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.095447804891637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3601930885029782,0.09983404365606656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09235077320597176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2651632265539089,0.20926847827370496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07601982241966858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08505763143117404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07674672054185255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09427937446593566,0.0,0.05127786986611298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10169196306346406,0.0,0.0604770043762732,0.0,0.0,0.1792307926902201,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09917238617630733,0.0735467411960023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08816034222553917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15153528052101098,0.0,0.0,0.07670744944980416,0.0,0.08537461350624634,0.0,0.0,0.2719343141919316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07201803070833661,0.19179324521233992,0.0,0.06690189866502409,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2540147243742993,0.08840293489302152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06113989571270704,0.13724282710327376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08613152225481671,0.0,0.0,0.09426761864104223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09727956142501701,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09025104091129536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08908790648048864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08582618140346981,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3594946894547436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1805835697887637,0.0,0.07644872597747451,0.0,0.0,0.10100131894732617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07252074289286922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11988512002287367,0.1156271553269348,0.0,0.07162986128672612,0.05261187021575157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12251591054435225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07792683406871066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07237435563168465,0.0,0.08112457103249338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Rebeux,2019/03/04,"Does smoking weed increase the chance of you getting Schizophrenia ? Hi there, Title says it all, but as someone who grew up with a mother having schizophrenia, I am fully aware that the chance of me getting it as well is higher than else. I am however trying to figure out if weed does increase the chance of me getting it. I am 25 years old, I've never tried to smoke weed, but I am somewhat interested in trying it out. but the fear of me getting it is also there. so I am not sure how I should go about these things. What do you guys think? steer clear, or is it not that 'dangerous'?",3.4269230769230745,4.839593743589745,4.103931623931627,88.79384615384619,73.1025641025641,6.2256410256410275,24.96581196581197,6.42735559955562,0.7474888888888893,456,14,93,3,9,145,72,117,0.056,0.78,0.16399999999999998,0.8925,1,0,1,0,0,0,14.0,0,2,0,0,7,5,1,1,5,0,11,0,0,1,4,19,17,10,0,2,7,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,1,12,3,0,0,2,0,0,4,3,2,1,0,0,1,11,3,15,16,4,11,0,0,0,0,7,4,0,3,3,70,23,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17248435302050785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3774972811624244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1801783285438376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2427071881209692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4507490115636469,0.0,0.12257956360110832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21356346705015614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1663506645908822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2263266165729137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17152249907000808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18275040466086925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2032818993336066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14329247424903133,0.13820314959865193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4393107656752649,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19392799545797426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1388949836250238 schizophrenia,RITarded,2019/03/04,"Is it normal for your body parts to talk to you? My anus keeps talking to me. It keeps distracting me. I hate him. He keeps saying ""FART FART FART FART!!!!"" HELP!!! IS THIS NORMAL??",-0.7499047619047587,1.3025289142857162,0.5078571428571443,101.81130952380954,102.71428571428572,3.4761904761904763,11.547619047619047,5.46131890053228,-1.4085238095238088,132,2,30,1,6,41,24,35,0.181,0.737,0.08199999999999999,-0.634,0,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,2,0,0,0,2,1,1,0,0,2,2,2,0,0,5,6,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,3,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,7,0,4,6,1,0,0,0,0,0,8,0,0,0,0,17,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2618308410686781,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23272386353589625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15799758021232688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6285540442781676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4619094461049428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2552608731708688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1874533323736007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3789242542829707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,nauseatingpharmacy,2019/03/05,"i'm scared of getting sectioned CAHMs are threatening my friend who's schizophrenic to get sectioned and i'm scared the sames going to happen to me, they read my psychosis journal (writings when im hallcinating/drawing hallucinatings or having psychotic breakdowns) and i get anger/violent fits often when i'm there. i'm currently getting diangosed conduct disorder and they reconise me on being on the schizophrenic spectrum but there isn't any diagnosis but their pushing for one. I'm underaged, would them diagnosing me alone be enough for sectioning me? i'm scared their only doing this for a reason to put me there, most of my friends are mentally ill and get sectioned over smaller things just because of background of psychosis or other serious disorders. am i just over-exagerating? can they section me just for having diagnosises? ",6.977442922374427,9.636247589041098,7.016643835616442,66.42692922374431,66.26027397260273,10.072146118721461,38.87899543378995,10.317481424215053,4.947074885844749,692,39,98,19,12,221,90,146,0.135,0.82,0.045,-0.8845,1,1,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,6,0,10,6,0,3,3,0,11,4,0,1,0,17,24,10,0,1,7,0,0,0,2,1,4,0,0,0,4,4,0,0,1,1,0,3,1,4,0,1,0,0,17,2,15,21,8,15,0,0,0,0,10,9,0,4,3,76,21,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17302387174865688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11360659071966388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1018382809720568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1695624759344904,0.0,0.0,0.3829306757411112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17261773213985826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25814042403093285,0.0,0.4364100123861222,0.0,0.0949440997043944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1477306868834705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18045356610239668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16835727893091812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11320424131540778,0.1270567273389932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16794153391703226,0.0,0.0,0.16710529998770687,0.0,0.0,0.17176559752568205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5017688853424722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11098730132749783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1186746955679566,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Dubbons,2019/03/05,Chatroom ban The schizophrenia chatroom really gives me an outlet to people who don’t judge and understand. If you check my comment history you can see what I’m like. I really try to do my part and be part of this community and help people.,3.786063829787235,5.826049680851067,5.813776595744681,74.30875,73.46808510638297,10.657446808510642,26.643617021276608,10.686352973137794,3.4681106382978726,193,7,35,7,4,67,36,47,0.07200000000000001,0.823,0.104,0.1531,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,4,0,0,0,0,6,8,4,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,1,1,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,6,1,3,7,2,0,0,0,1,0,6,0,0,1,1,24,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27643170886422497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19314923641808387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1407816322818764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6241037701224241,0.0,0.39955116176012784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3692085275523148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2296281883690047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19564340872009106,0.0,0.0,0.2999873047081799,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,garrbear94,2019/03/05,Im going to bathe Today if decided for the first time in 2019 that I will bathe. Up till today I didn't have the energy or the want. But today I've decided that I will get better.,1.7216666666666676,2.5596285000000023,4.655000000000001,85.4366666666667,76.5,8.333333333333334,18.333333333333336,8.841846274778883,0.8380833333333331,140,2,32,3,3,51,28,40,0.049,0.838,0.113,0.3369,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,3,0,4,0,0,0,0,6,7,4,0,2,3,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,2,0,2,0,0,0,2,2,0,1,1,0,0,1,1,0,3,1,5,4,0,9,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,2,6,21,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25485675923673795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2451113035296055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1505532758152136,0.0,0.1637696755817762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3112654927496909,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16803016465935902,0.0,0.8194344997756141,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16996600548298685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,ComfortablyAnxious,2019/03/05,"[16M] believe I suffer from schizophrenia Well, this might be a stupid assumption but I believe I might suffer from schizophrenia. At home alone, I hear strange sounds and I freak out. I get nervous. I believe someone sometimes is watching me or is invading the house. From time to time I see some shadows but they are rare. I have never heard sounds in my head, but rarely I sometimes hear my parents talking even though it would be impossible for me to hear them. People from my family calling other people like ""Hey, please come here"". These happen rarely but they happen and they are getting more and more common as I get older. I remember being like this when younger. I have family history of schizophrenia, many of my grandma's relatives have/had it. 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If you haven't seen it you should watch. Ive never been more into a TV show.,-3.1225000000000023,-1.622501583333328,0.025000000000000355,105.57,106.5,2.4000000000000004,6.0,3.1291,-2.7330500000000004,78,0,21,0,4,27,22,24,0.0,0.8170000000000001,0.183,0.6696,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,2,0,1,1,1,0,0,2,0,5,0,0,0,2,5,6,1,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,3,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,2,3,1,1,3,2,3,0,0,2,0,2,1,0,1,2,16,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6618211911012728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5704529313753268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4863909580724022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,yeetafied,2019/03/05,"I dunno what to do The voices they come and go, but they’re so loud. Since 7th grade came around they’ve gotten louder and two new voices came. I don’t like actually hear it but my mind is processing what happened as if someone telepathically said these things in my brain. How do I get them to stop telling me to do bad stuff?",5.152313432835822,5.162364492537313,5.560410447761196,85.03076492537315,68.25373134328359,8.491044776119404,25.70522388059701,8.07648339933343,1.1715701492537312,259,6,57,3,4,83,52,67,0.11,0.843,0.047,-0.6486,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,2,0,3,2,0,0,1,0,5,1,1,1,0,13,14,8,0,1,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,5,0,0,6,6,0,1,0,0,0,4,1,1,0,1,4,5,8,1,6,10,0,8,0,0,0,0,5,2,0,2,3,34,14,1,0.0,0.0,0.2130612656035573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19436243352123786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1822987234743524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2437315519505621,0.0,0.499428994735608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18807432851614855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11406984863924705,0.0,0.12408353125601032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19307092658153416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2460768731270798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10666635147526346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22045383418858533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21086712698509646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20768443951684634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18060710400573335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18499262750337014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18253595227888186,0.0,0.0,0.2499387589695852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19083244375398295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14505057519286169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21327936823840132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,immobilisingtime,2019/03/05,"Representation Of Schizophrenia In Writing Hi all, I’m writing this story where one of the characters is schizophrenic. Before I go further with this, I’d like to say yes, I’ve done my research, but to accurately represent a schizophrenic I‘ve decided to start reading first hand accounts of people having it or people witnessing someone have it. I hope this doesn’t come across as insensitive, but if you don’t mind, could you possibly provide below even at least a small insight to your experiences or even just more resources to further my research? I disapprove of writing wrong portrayals of people with schizophrenia and further any stereotypes there might be, so I’d really like an in depth understanding to avoid this. Thank you. 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Was wondering if someone with experience with this issue, or witnessed it in a loved one. I'm in a particularly rough situation with an immediate family member, and frankly i'm terrified of what comes next. I personally don't have this disorder, but would love for some insight and help regarding this disorder in someone very close to me. Thank you",7.185421686746987,7.7781147710843435,7.94424096385542,67.67274698795183,63.93975903614458,11.941204819277113,37.081927710843374,11.602472056035307,4.639435662650604,358,17,63,11,5,120,62,83,0.108,0.715,0.17800000000000002,0.8257,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,1,0,0,2,4,0,0,3,0,4,2,0,0,1,21,15,6,0,3,7,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,5,7,0,0,2,0,0,1,3,0,0,1,1,2,3,4,13,13,2,8,1,0,1,2,8,6,0,6,1,41,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15455729575125293,0.0,0.1755834368220195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16178761852971865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.43050885057776733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15689690975000073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18372095565552865,0.17705704668931235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09812657210048016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2517794019727444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19603203466594546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15771888299051093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3390241484811378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13926384259972938,0.0,0.0,0.19974539107662884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12726958401779512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16399446212750984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2111140512809154,0.0,0.0,0.3182732793514215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17701519417632786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.172916556434559,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1549686023388746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20367940325550826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13341972847369465,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,brokxnangxl,2019/03/06,"Please help me!! -I’m autistic -Since I was ten I felt like I was being watched & people could read my mind -when i was 11 i got panic attacks -I started seeing visions of places i’ve never been before and objects inside my head that were sudden and brief but extremely vivid and real and made me jump/scream when i was 11 -it stopped mostly when I was 12/13 -I had a few more visions when I was 14 -I saw a door move and switch between opened and closed right before my eyes for like 2 straight minutes also, even after i looked away and back again, when i was 14 -in january about 3/4 times I heard classical music playing for like a minute each time, not in my ears, in my head -why is this, i doubt is have schizophrenia but someone on r/aspergers told me i have symptoms & i need to see a doctor?!",1.741786358715263,4.055646773006135,2.5555467340310365,93.81827859978351,81.26993865030677,4.816889209671599,21.24467701190905,5.900188976854957,0.08680324792493721,636,19,131,4,17,199,110,163,0.064,0.804,0.132,0.8277,0,0,0,0,0,0,26.0,0,0,0,0,10,7,1,2,4,0,16,6,4,1,1,23,28,15,0,2,3,0,1,3,0,0,2,2,1,0,3,10,0,1,1,2,0,2,2,3,0,1,16,10,25,4,12,10,4,26,0,0,7,0,3,10,0,2,17,85,28,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1221283980196106,0.0,0.3309394223136236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17373858515107954,0.1434834337871506,0.11743058893018499,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2599032599309015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12193276502883715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15631317602950176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10086869015187314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14663307160964625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12214240423483767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31346511701316965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10236354610395454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2238306613154168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1282445190032747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1445053086852727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15420147907778745,0.0,0.0,0.1623148906034675,0.0,0.11323834007767213,0.11778540963403493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17918147527716208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10587531829323912,0.0,0.15955763395347874,0.16763832327369946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15275916329740954,0.17382633119550073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1304201972365101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24339268518772594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12632977181887406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12939732658540845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10809447013023844,0.0,0.0,0.1276789488823208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15873230588870346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17810199622117046,0.0,0.0,0.14592843657339954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13780409296336266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Theobold2,2019/03/06,"The problem is when I don't have symptoms, I wonder if I made it up Does anyone else have this second-guessing thing? 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I want to tell people. So I’m doing that. It sounded like something outside my window. Muffled like that. No questions it told me. 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I've been having this voice in my head for the last few years that is trying to break my spirit and ruin my life. Every day, it says things like, ""fuck you up!"" and ""Fuck the rest of your life up!"" and ""Every day! every day!"" I don't know what to make of it because I'm trying to escape from it but it catches me at all hours of the day. For the rest of life? Is this something have to look forward to? it's scary and it's really loud. I wonder if anyone else has these problems and what advice is out there for a person with me with my condition. Please feel free to share your thoughts because I'm dying inside and can use some feedback. Alright, thanks.",0.8894748858447521,2.9470740205479484,2.3498356164383547,95.5515570776256,82.76712328767123,4.441278538812785,17.267579908675803,5.2151,-0.6706003652968038,541,11,119,2,15,175,89,146,0.103,0.757,0.14,0.7076,0,0,1,0,0,0,23.0,0,3,0,0,1,10,2,0,5,1,9,7,2,2,1,21,22,8,1,2,2,0,1,1,0,0,3,4,0,2,13,10,0,0,4,0,1,2,1,5,0,0,2,6,12,6,23,20,5,17,1,1,1,2,8,8,2,3,9,76,25,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14392151566369285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10298246210417254,0.1509070274126161,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17956254442646505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37993684232132463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15285466645048126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12303457089654204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3722723712758009,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07446981637179945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2723182520613641,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1458315755288009,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3023060700137321,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1450423462997843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08094191355144346,0.12005386171295734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3120872700539902,0.07195417065390777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1236791414307594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09831136623761144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12860029116836888,0.0,0.1616705653740556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14092824857465985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09435212878192087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11712394738441888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11338428815741534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13559677087160452,0.0,0.0,0.09784710638851324,0.0,0.0,0.11692484699651612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1999885779157842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1272036967087549,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1597202138648565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09484428481546986 schizophrenia,mrsengels96,2019/03/06,"I just got out of a two month stay at the hospital I was admitted because I was scared my boyfriend was going to kill himself (he didn't) and ended up staying for two months. I am going to a day program at the hospital for the next six weeks doing activities like cooking, group therapy. It's only for a few hours a day. I plan on working in customer service afterwards. Does anyone have any advice?",3.9337130801687765,5.397036316455697,5.527278481012663,78.88602320675106,71.91139240506328,8.30464135021097,32.154008438818565,8.841846274778883,2.857985654008439,315,15,58,6,6,107,60,79,0.101,0.848,0.052000000000000005,-0.6908,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,2,1,3,1,1,7,0,7,1,0,0,0,4,11,1,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,1,1,0,2,1,2,0,3,5,0,7,1,12,6,1,19,0,0,0,0,4,6,0,0,10,40,8,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19179471530962486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1334716824342789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13723793770563186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11964558228048768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25315839043459715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17175893953386664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17383872493922484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2230917879759949,0.0,0.15697663875678786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1932883724029936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21714587483711364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09588857935706026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3133248568862757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.208737486115708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14927369138623015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1965025001207685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4183996492201368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22445412378852386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3834584260865873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15743754999613607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14288834500307038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Sohaib_Langrial,2019/03/06,"Loud Thoughts Before Sleep Feels like I'm just looking at myself from a window as I'm doing all sorts of weird things, just banging my hands on the glass and just begging myself to fall asleep. I laugh whenever I feel like a failure. I have to exhaust my brain from when the thoughts become too loud and too rapid for me to keep up. I find it hard to be the person I want to be. Instead I'm just hearing a million voices telling me about meaningless things and twisting my memories in a terrible knot. And there's always someone else controlling me, and I just can't help but watch through some weird glass that bleeds out colour from the outlines of everything I see. But sometimes, there's colour that just feels dead. I've been prescribed Risperidone for when thoughts get too loud, but I always feel terrible after I wake up from using it. It's a hangover, and I've never had a single drink in my entire life. Advice will be helpful, guys. Anything to stop the thoughts from being too loud and fast. Thank you.",6.120414551607447,6.5431152842639655,5.487626903553302,84.9588853637902,66.20812182741116,7.987986463620982,31.645093062605753,7.492282038375204,1.9431153976311348,809,30,156,7,12,245,113,197,0.13699999999999998,0.7929999999999999,0.071,-0.8996,0,0,1,0,0,0,18.0,0,1,0,1,16,9,0,0,11,0,10,9,5,2,2,35,29,13,1,1,9,0,6,2,0,1,3,6,1,2,7,8,1,3,9,1,0,1,2,5,0,1,6,17,19,4,26,18,3,14,0,0,5,0,7,7,0,2,8,103,26,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14361415646978667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24457613217756585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12094107017479433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16231317148147698,0.12505783548746588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16406343990212627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16483564876848514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14397141334682714,0.0,0.0,0.1227718179206651,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13208419179877856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2972431136894676,0.20998607699804345,0.0,0.0,0.13432489955130564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07678403393855954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14552013720567109,0.0,0.0,0.13165329431004313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16564214999039925,0.0,0.1970173596435132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.130630753996905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1038069252005733,0.14360101024910085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1234150119082355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11334977779619285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12832565202461518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.117113430555475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14707283570720553,0.0,0.12452440638827025,0.0,0.14535382236493335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1228707403576464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12845537197234946,0.13530719002610558,0.0,0.0,0.19527628766545524,0.0,0.0,0.4667005678567815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12693204013605974,0.0,0.0,0.08668476632434899,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,RedditUser_0123,2019/03/06,"A couple of questions. I have a father with paranoid schizophrenia and as I’m sure you’re all aware, that puts me at a higher risk of developing it myself. My father doesn’t like to speak about it, understandably, so I find it difficult to ask him things. I came across this community and thought perhaps I could get some answers. So my question is to those who had their psychotic episode during their later years but are now on medication that is helping. Looking back, even as far as childhood, was there any signs there that you just put down to having a peculiar personality but now see that it has something to do with your schizophrenia? Also, is it possible to have schizophrenia without any of the positive symptoms? Hallucinations/delusions etc etc. ",7.221403081914032,8.5217017810219,6.797761557177619,73.43845904298463,64.03649635036496,9.300567721005676,35.66017842660179,9.444778638647367,3.4400095701540967,612,28,102,11,9,191,97,137,0.036000000000000004,0.865,0.099,0.8565,0,0,1,0,0,0,15.0,0,2,2,0,11,5,0,1,5,0,13,2,0,0,2,20,21,10,0,1,4,2,0,1,0,0,2,1,0,1,13,5,0,0,6,0,0,3,2,3,0,0,4,3,13,2,20,16,4,14,0,0,2,0,14,5,0,3,7,82,26,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13746485376365045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23378981283716985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16069918711617254,0.0,0.0,0.1321771102907217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19660277939396026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13724465386826087,0.1901992181858927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3834180777843524,0.11353542637013635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15710946944636886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08980835924192439,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1152180010880787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0839795101561999,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14434901576244435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1731667383946484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1500926125632131,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19378646762263566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3456051232004293,0.3851248370535897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1369785423333748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13233363531724662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16200957405898073,0.17866535196059738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11419980231907036,0.0,0.0,0.13646590998992728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1789493877442053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16570122977318796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11069513424355892 schizophrenia,Aaron_Patridge,2019/03/06,"Fear of Being Hacked I'm constantly afraid that my PC has been hacked. I'm taking my meds, but I sometimes will see the hard-drive going while it should be idle or I'll come into the room and the PC will be on but I turned it off. This has led to me formatting the PC over and over because while I *think* it is probably a delusion, I can't calm down and stop stressing unless I format it. Things have gotten to the point that I'm considering getting rid of my PC, but I'm a huge gamer and this is my primary form of contact with my brother. Like most of us, I know I isolate and I don't really care/mind but I do need/crave some human connection and I'm able to do this via the PC as my brother lives far away. Also, I really enjoy gaming. I don't expect anyone to fix my delusions and this doesn't happen so often that I'm willing to up my dosage yet, but can any of you think of things I can do to try to alleviate this fear without having to format and then download all my games again? This can happen every day for several days in a row when I'm symptomatic and the stress it creates causes me to be more likely to be symptomatic. Thanks. 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Title sums it up. I’ve been recently diagnosed as schizoaffective-bipolar, and it’s been rough to say the least. My therapist really pushed for me to go to a facility the first time I met with him, but out of fear and delusions (hospitals and psych wards are a major trigger for me, I think they’ll kill me or sell my organs) I decided against it, hoping I could take care of myself well enough on my own. Well, it’s turning out to be much harder then I thought, and my symptoms are getting worse every day despite being on so many meds. My therapist advised it again, saying I’m in crisis, and he’ll attempt to get a referral for me. It’s a big step for me to take, an undetermined amount of time with strangers, leaving my two year old to my family to take care of, and my job. Did anyone else have a hectic schedule and manage to make it work by going? Any advice, stories from your times there, really anything to read about it would immensely help from you guys in specific. Thank you. 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Hey everyone, I am hoping to come up with some more ideas to help make high school and college more manageable. Here are some ideas I have already: &#x200B; Homework: Only being given the work that makes up the essential core of the class. That means exemption from all other work that serves a secondary purpose. &#x200B; Lectures: Ability to record lectures and have a copy of notes for each lecture created by the instructor. Ability to freely come and go during class. &#x200B; Class Discussion: Exemption from mandatory class discussion or permission to substitute with comments in a different format. &#x200B; Group Projects: Substitution of a group project with an individual project &#x200B; Exams: Distraction free environment Open note tests Rescheduling tests so that they are more evenly spaced/not on the same day Extended testing time &#x200B; There are more on this website: &#x200B; Go to Page 19 (Section 5) &#x200B; [https://www.nasmhpd.org/sites/default/files/Toolkit-Back\_to\_School\_Support\_for\_Full\_Inclusion\_of\_Students\_with\_Early\_Psychosis\_in\_Higher\_Education.pdf](https://www.nasmhpd.org/sites/default/files/Toolkit-Back_to_School_Support_for_Full_Inclusion_of_Students_with_Early_Psychosis_in_Higher_Education.pdf) &#x200B; &#x200B; &#x200B; &#x200B; &#x200B;",18.87096899224806,23.49903524418605,11.47325581395349,38.33434108527136,39.58139534883721,11.08217054263566,44.56589147286822,11.038039088145766,5.862870542635659,1210,52,114,23,12,313,106,172,0.014,0.862,0.124,0.9493,1,0,0,0,0,0,110.0,0,1,1,2,4,3,0,1,10,0,8,0,0,4,1,23,19,5,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,8,10,0,0,3,0,1,4,0,1,0,0,1,0,4,3,23,17,12,15,0,0,0,0,10,9,0,4,2,72,12,22,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04088653664666701,0.0,0.0,0.5218795763571166,0.5852709297311456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02848981827076295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06383205679639352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02389473447947773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03871025459771884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02447173839301152,0.0,0.0,0.03540367698389402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.042113706198614174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.049668810360584036,0.03914625950197411,0.0,0.03679985617971625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0836518044056129,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07419519449211047,0.0,0.0,0.04035923979256095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02817884261566246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0749948808002118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02160464982858049,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03200004020766285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05394692323962213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5852709297311456,0.0 schizophrenia,minij393,2019/03/06,"Another med down the drain I've tried multiple medications and Zyprexa has stopped working just like the others. The doctor increased it to 30mg but I don't think it'll work. This is beyond frustrating and my voices have gotten clear and scary. Has anyone tried Invega? 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Now I've got coprolalia and copropraxia when coming down from abilify. I'm saying crazy stuff like ""I murdered my family"" and name calling. I'm gesturing and have weird sexual movements. Anyone else get this? What's it like for you? 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I’ve never told anyone because I was afraid I would get put on pills and taken out of school. I don’t have any good friends but I did try to open up. I dumped a lot of my emotions on her and I think it scared her away. It really hurt me because she was the only thing I found to be somewhat of a friend. I don’t know what to do and I definitely don’t want to tell my parents or anyone with contact to a doctor. For reference, I’m a 14 yr old male if that helps with context. I appreciate any suggestions you give me. Thank you so much.",1.8388000000000029,3.078075213333335,3.5236666666666667,92.06350000000002,76.86666666666667,6.6000000000000005,23.833333333333336,7.1686216300943375,0.6903333333333332,542,17,127,6,12,181,94,150,0.106,0.723,0.171,0.8016,1,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,2,1,0,1,9,1,2,7,0,13,3,1,0,2,21,24,8,0,3,3,1,0,0,2,1,2,2,0,1,8,8,0,0,4,0,0,1,4,4,0,0,7,2,25,5,18,15,5,9,0,1,0,0,21,6,0,4,2,85,33,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12764877944070838,0.0,0.0,0.20864709158133454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21453461913915645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14413303361637692,0.0,0.0,0.18703370114234588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17040308520992234,0.0,0.0,0.15664798916985645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15702086060168186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17256474992896914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1682053165632042,0.2370472010137703,0.0,0.08014999767577567,0.14716412457947006,0.0,0.2573447889637906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20565396355901952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16422776739661393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08430970789272807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1304230523366035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1127734450161115,0.0,0.11831866549475767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16097719419822873,0.0,0.0,0.11667464210126595,0.0,0.0,0.17034280946679853,0.1661272604256938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15421866101924914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09827788926197124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15358941458929806,0.15525834393085322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4022593202095781,0.1412386196691081,0.0,0.0,0.10191828430793408,0.09829844844864608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14658910578778406,0.0,0.1041548058735088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0904847461515392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10897752462115122,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,mrunknownnn,2019/03/06,"Do I Have An Untreated Mental Illness Ok, so I’ve never come forward with this before so it’ll be all over the place. When I was 16, I was sent to a Christian rehab center, the place was terrible and basically ruined my life but that’s for another thread. So my memory is kinda bad but I remember them thinking that I had DID or some shit and I was hallucinating. Like many things from that time it was never pursued and I was just given antidepressants and it fizzled out. But from then to now it’s like I have voices in my head, not anything crazy but it sounds similar to my own sometimes. It’s not like I’ve ever seen anything that I can remember (but my memory is bad). I did talk to myself a lot I have since I was a child so I don’t think that’s a big deal. I know it sounds crazy but I’m anonymous so my pride will let me admit this I guess but even though I’m not Christian I guess I’ve rationalized it as some spiritual thing. Like it’ll say “don’t do this” and I listen to it. Or “go here” and I’ll do it. I dunno if that’s normal. I mean it’s not so bad that I’m completely crazy but is there something wrong and should I pursue help Incase this spirals due to the depression and stress I’ve been under? I know it’s weird but like I’ve found myself talking to this voice, trying to bargain with it kind of thing. I dunno. I’m scared. I didn’t ask for this to happen. Thanks ",0.18763712241653607,2.353489293918919,2.5552941176470583,92.24852941176472,86.80405405405406,5.509379968203497,18.16534181240064,6.923569853693429,0.10359650238473783,1085,28,243,15,34,370,141,296,0.127,0.737,0.136,-0.1133,0,0,1,0,0,0,23.0,0,0,1,1,14,20,1,2,8,1,30,5,2,0,4,52,52,30,0,3,17,0,0,5,0,4,3,6,0,1,30,12,0,0,9,0,1,4,9,11,0,0,16,7,33,9,21,30,5,20,2,2,1,0,11,9,1,11,14,166,63,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1252367194050074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1965676293497416,0.0,0.11165445073758254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2991666226679961,0.0,0.0,0.10162933988368338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10288161577215388,0.1252240334604088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12313097052319727,0.10286812939908392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0788848773793147,0.1080346808984002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13095296203957532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0678769627256002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26313952114154066,0.0,0.1056148866357888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1225735026450982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08005393715695365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1243718904433074,0.13127535089648046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12212911969942444,0.08435960243807783,0.2917465311421627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1015383185899664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12108709491464545,0.0,0.13009838659715808,0.0,0.0,0.12036114705554987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18422936953108945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1170197344826278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2495657348261901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2705903539202357,0.0,0.0,0.09497852606053384,0.1195740371906459,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12259704657683855,0.09879684711166664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0919459496380223,0.11812305049849448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13681097775758774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19199267734891415,0.0,0.10995856717228608,0.0,0.0,0.2380394654963329,0.15305667206313053,0.11734307069437515,0.0,0.06964279060114917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08108768865618972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13058207631742566,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,sniperbullet1997,2019/03/06,"which is the most potent antipsychotic? Which drug feels like the strongest that you feel affects your brain the most? Not help you with your symptoms but which feels the strongest. Ziprasidone, Thorazine , olanzapine and Clozaril. any other i'm missing and which is he most potent would you guys say?",4.746974789915967,8.269248627450986,2.7533893557422964,88.29882352941178,82.33333333333334,4.4829131652661065,26.893557422969195,6.18269132825596,1.1445439775910369,244,10,39,2,7,67,35,51,0.079,0.78,0.14,0.5457,0,0,1,0,0,0,7.0,0,5,0,0,0,2,0,0,4,0,3,3,1,1,0,13,8,3,0,1,2,0,3,1,0,1,2,1,0,1,6,3,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,4,5,1,1,7,3,0,0,1,0,0,9,0,0,3,1,26,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2177791888054817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3575019696235595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3713852696387437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.485780067748874,0.22878478034200975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31709523890242297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2146550571065904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15645668539746732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.254673557097532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33285963101159216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22749453855456345,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Lawful_Neutral_5000,2019/03/06,I’m writing a book in which a co-protagonist has schizophrenia. Can music drown out the noises heard by those suffering from the illness? I don’t suffer from this illness and I want to make sure my portrayal is accurate.,3.7814285714285694,6.300728333333336,4.800238095238097,79.3489285714286,75.19047619047619,8.009523809523811,29.54761904761905,8.841846274778883,2.780361904761905,178,8,31,4,4,58,36,42,0.332,0.5920000000000001,0.076,-0.9201,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,4,0,4,2,0,1,1,6,8,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,3,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,1,3,1,6,7,0,2,0,2,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,21,6,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5147261454822991,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7267680256736236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4548243968999444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,clownfreya,2019/03/06,Does talking/thinking about hallucinations make them worse? I was just imagining telling a girl about how it felt the bed was breathing on me and two seconds later I felt a third arm press up against my back and move upwards . It also seems that I mostly start getting pinched by imaginary bugs once I sit in my bed at night. Is this because I'm expecting it?? Or somehow feeding into it through imaginarily or actually telling somebody ,5.9606666666666674,7.851494400000008,5.982500000000003,75.9191666666667,67.5,8.333333333333334,39.583333333333336,8.841846274778883,3.757708333333333,352,21,60,6,6,111,64,80,0.049,0.951,0.0,-0.5632,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,1,0,7,0,0,0,3,0,3,3,2,2,0,15,10,6,0,1,3,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,6,3,1,0,4,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,4,3,8,0,10,6,1,11,0,0,0,0,4,5,0,5,4,43,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.2322151129856065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1902969186661007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1829769291411768,0.0,0.14505850663362388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2082408292464038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4569587770631489,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12432453508138515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15884047552444155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2529143429074152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22330980090151326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25342015670628343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21663029381962934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16842966029347434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4159759153041534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1524754741982113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2324528226783997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2425020698448528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,redrobbxm,2019/03/06,"Screens are live streams of another dimension. Your TV is casting a stream because in a different dimension it’s about 100% likely that that exact thing you’re watching on the screen is happening in some alternate dimension so your TV is casting a stream of those actors acting out that exact scene in a different dimension, and if you rewind it rewinds in their dimension as well because it’s also 100% likely that other dimensions can go back in time. For some of them, they kind of ascend/descend through dimensions in a loop. Like I always say energy is everything, and everything is anything. 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I want to start this off by saying that I am by no means trying to call them out, I am not going to use anything here to form my judgement, and I do understand how disrespectful it is to question someone on their mental health. If this isn’t allowed here, please please please delete it and I apologize in advance. I don’t want to offend anyone, I know that this a very serious thing and I am not trying to discredit anyone that has received this diagnosis. I am simply looking for help from the ones who know this topic the best. I am a clueless idiot. This just doesn’t add up. I’ve been dating this person for quite a few years now (have known them for 8+ years), and in the very beginning of the relationship, they told me that they had schizophrenia. I have always done my very best to support them and make them feel comfortable talking to me about the subject. But the problem is, I’ve had suspicions from the start. The main thing that gives me doubt, is their job. You can’t work this job with any sort of mental illness. There is no tolerance whatsoever. If you have so much as a mood swing, you’re out. They background check everything as well. So how would they have this job if they have been diagnosed with schizophrenia and have been institutionalized for it as well? My other suspicions come from small things. Granted, all I know about schizophrenia is from what I’ve read on the internet so I’ve tried to take it all with a grain of salt, especially because not everyone is going to be the same. It’s little things like going months without any mention of schizophrenia, no problems whatsoever, and then some minor thing happens and all of a sudden the world is ending. I just didn’t feel like that made sense. It’s only when they are doing something they don’t really want to do. (Supposedly they are prescribed medication but they don’t take it because of their job, yet they are perfectly fine going years without it.) The other thing is the body language queues. They’re not a good liar at all. I can almost always pick up the lie immediately. This is something we’ve been working on in our relationship, and I have been lied to by them way more than any person should allow. Safe to say there was some trust issues to begin with and I feel like that may be fueling my doubt. It just seems like every time their schizophrenia is talked about, they’re showing the exact same body language, speech patterns, and behavior as they do when they lie. The last thing that really gets me is the way it’s all described. It sounds way less like schizophrenia and more like they may be trying to say that they’re a psychopath. I’ve taken note of everything said and there’s very few things that line up with what I’ve read about schizophrenia and more that line up with being the exact definition of a psychopath. I feel like at some point they were interested in psychopath behavior and then got the two completely mixed up and now they’re just rolling with it. And another example, I was told by this person that they have no empathy. But it really seems like they do. They get angry. They cry. They get happy. All of the emotions are there. I tried to justify that by thinking that it may have been the ability to copy others emotions but they all seem way too genuine to me. I don’t want to go too much more into detail, because it doesn’t really help for what I’m asking. I don’t want to doubt them. I just feel like this is such an Unopen book in our relationship and it’s driving me crazy. I get that schizophrenia has got to be scary and they may just not want to talk about it. I respect that 100%. But what do I do? Should I just let it go and trust them? How would I even bring up my concerns if I even did decide to talk to them about it? I just don’t know what to do here. I don’t know what to think. 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Disclaimer: I don’t have a schizophrenia diagnosis and I am in NO way looking for one here, I know that I can only get one from a professional. Anyways, I’ve been having what I perceive to be some sort of mild hallucinations these past few months. These include things such as seeing doors open on their own very vividly out of the corner of my eye, hearing my Dads voice in video game music, seeing shadowy things in the corners of my eyes, seeing faces at night even when I’m not sleepy, I once saw the lights turn on by themselves at night, and I’ve seen creatures (not shadows) in the corner of my eye when walking past my dads bedroom. The reason I went to posting here rather than going directly to a professional is because there aren’t any trustworthy professionals where I am currently situated, and I won’t be going to a place with professionals before the summer. My only question is, are these in any way relatable to you? Perhaps potential warning signs of an early form of schizophrenia? I’m really sorry if I in any way come across as disrespectful or stupid. ",10.131474254742553,8.083213843902442,9.583089430894306,66.92628726287265,59.34146341463415,12.037940379403794,39.85094850948509,10.504223727775694,4.123151761517615,878,35,153,15,9,283,126,205,0.056,0.925,0.019,-0.7404,2,0,0,0,0,0,20.0,0,1,1,0,10,1,1,0,11,0,14,4,4,1,0,19,30,9,0,2,5,2,0,0,0,1,0,2,2,0,7,7,0,0,4,2,0,5,6,1,0,2,4,13,18,0,31,23,4,37,0,0,10,0,7,18,0,5,10,105,25,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2992078951017068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08940448935049093,0.0,0.1247995305656874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1263373093527849,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0968696212819825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07662543776741179,0.0,0.1667040855342521,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16530001882820766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08060222660836627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12316010021179533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11706511973447745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2752668448046993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15619145837942125,0.19876547974903166,0.22308785493745995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28001312633797826,0.0,0.0,0.1532317664723403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14046274744482354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16429628312682945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09395616351754167,0.15079413544872405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.350614604017964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1648555151981387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16417737863165704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19487294767469013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15952738180374235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12101245096242505,0.0,0.3492431236670363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13595820087196858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Mischa92,2019/03/07,"I don't know what's wrong with me guys. so I've never sought help for this because 1. I'm persistently terrified of doctors and 2. these ""cycles"" never seem to amount to anything really ""big"". but they still worry me never the less. over the last year or so I've noticed a definite trend: 3-10 days: everything is so hard. so so so tired. no attention span. no motivation whatsoever. have to plan to reward myself with little things to even make it through my morning routine to get to work. will smoke like 1.5 packs of cigarettes and drink up to 3 energy drinks a day to try to keep myself going. have to repeatedly remind myself that I do in fact HAVE to do certain things to make it through the day. have sometimes called in sick to work because I just did not have the willpower to do absolutely anything. I feel mentally blank, stupid, and honestly damn near totally emotionless. 1-5 days: woah I almost feel like I used to. actually have some level of energy and motivation. life isn't a total shit hole, cool. little things are fun again. forcing myself to do things isn't too hard. my thoughts are actually more complex and coherent, I can feel emotions again. 3-5 days: ok too much. sounds are too loud. lights are too bright. what was motivation, alertness and interest in life is now irritability and frustration. like something in the back of my mind is telling me to be on high alert. 2-4 days: thoughts are super disjointed. I'll try to remember where I put my keys and upon attempting to recall a visual memory, am only able to mentally envision images of a bicycle I saw last week or the toaster oven my family had when I was little, random shit that just does not pertain to what im trying to think about. putting thoughts into words is difficult and frustrating. everything is startling. everything feels either brand new - like it's the first time I'm seeing the house I've been living in for over a year; or like I've lived through the exact situation I'm currently experiencing before - like this persisting feeling of deja vu but...dark. everything has a warped feeling of dread accompanying it. a friend will ask how work was for me that day and my thoughts are like ""what does he mean by that why is he trying to gather information? what sinister plans does he have with this information?"" - overly paranoid shit like that. I'm not even sure if they're hallucinations or not - but little shadows and sounds will put the fear of God in me. not sure if they're not real at all, or real and I'm just overreacting to them. and always, always, during these days - a weird throbbing, pressure headache behind my left eye and on the left side of my forehead. and, not always, but every 4-7 of these cycles or so: 1-2 days: supreme paranoia. what I later recognize are hallucinations. a buzzy beeping in my head, unintelligible voices, weird pulsing pains in my head. a reoccurring complex belief that someone has implanted me with a chip to track me, has replaced my loved ones with clones, that I've been hooked up to a machine and am living in a simulation where someone is trying to get information out of me by having me interact with simulations of loved ones. that someone is controlling my thoughts or basically hacking my thoughts. I cannot go to work and will call in sick. went to work once while feeling like this and hid in the bathroom for 2 hours because someone in the building was monitoring my thoughts and the chip in my head was malfunctioning causing a headache. I've had times I'm extremely tempted and urged to cut at my neck because the buzzing and clicking sounds I attribute to a malfunctioning chip seem to originate from one point in my neck. but I never totally noticeably go off the rails completely. I'll only lose total insight into the belief that these are delusions for longer than 3 hours at a time. I don't totally slip into full psychosis - at least not as deeply as some cases I've seen. and usually, the cycle begins to repeat before any major paranoia or hallucinations become prominent. so I wonder wtf exactly may be wrong with me at this point. when I feel better, I call myself silly for overreacting and getting as crazy as I did a couple weeks before....but then it happens again. I'm terrified of doctors and have this persistent belief that if I tell anyone what's actually going on in my head, terrible things will happen. so there goes that idea. wtf guys. most days I feel this can't be a real issue because it never gets really, *super* bad. but when it does get, well, moderately bad...it feels like a real issue to me, at least at the time. ugh.",4.647074524664273,6.523705905963304,5.631356202632627,77.19766188006916,70.78899082568806,8.67892567477729,29.03676372822763,9.241812021751848,2.6505202898550726,3658,143,658,79,69,1204,366,872,0.139,0.7140000000000001,0.146,0.4688,3,0,5,0,0,0,120.0,0,0,2,21,33,51,8,4,39,2,61,24,11,11,17,139,114,59,0,3,28,0,12,10,1,6,9,5,2,2,41,35,2,2,38,2,0,8,21,22,1,4,21,26,57,29,111,84,18,108,3,1,6,2,22,53,4,20,57,418,98,10,0.045699000064895266,0.0,0.13378689570997887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04576094735810998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11407568677368035,0.0,0.0,0.031076887129614532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.031953803400051016,0.0,0.07521276649250534,0.0,0.042722396149128594,0.0,0.0,0.035139710218975814,0.07631351241135924,0.13928843138388405,0.05047095518358747,0.07777296632965662,0.0,0.0,0.0404170518675508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13999136556231415,0.0,0.0,0.046945461435571136,0.0,0.0,0.04791453210818196,0.0,0.05125531443762827,0.0,0.05056507436293362,0.0,0.2947207445790884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09354972599771316,0.15996601166766727,0.0,0.0,0.08953524454513777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05140522415575796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06036751709065787,0.0,0.038503378536385344,0.0,0.16428525827917273,0.0,0.04308095015433107,0.05142408015129602,0.23106787534126805,0.09794212433235944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03887154610985492,0.0,0.0,0.035306934088867044,0.0,0.11937920688618762,0.0,0.10388717948299901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0904983897016032,0.08082294966824301,0.0,0.08187465571950975,0.0,0.18760143291368184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.030631076449920913,0.04828350261777085,0.0,0.0,0.09000861940273308,0.05273051040969148,0.0,0.0515886085718609,0.049362762057870234,0.09539576618958112,0.0,0.04061937099989711,0.0,0.0,0.025114975303566343,0.07450156883435634,0.0,0.0,0.09930419456795657,0.0,0.06455711045165609,0.2232622308605236,0.18320961449243864,0.1210591629053872,0.0,0.0,0.051125491721111985,0.0,0.0,0.08249026353330709,0.0,0.06100887480373745,0.0,0.0,0.04977960819160992,0.0,0.0,0.0921076870917767,0.0,0.04614296274501683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03359402324203795,0.0,0.17622943052018758,0.04413637903116971,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1040572289296326,0.0,0.048667943615096174,0.0929004754301718,0.06951229765032743,0.04862695808812127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08640065256705996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13782035164119874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20806186743282265,0.05855189926269281,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05176805858587271,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.036416186382237634,0.08320530664934303,0.0,0.0,0.1407281005630139,0.0,0.0513675907859871,0.0,0.0,0.15488245782450116,0.03518132290109607,0.045197479584587384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.036495280483630266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08614153347142597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07988588064336323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15180192514914384,0.029282073996837712,0.0,0.2539593099657927,0.10658981775785588,0.052524277980113054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15513310641457834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03946926334194319,0.05033099226538352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07331396266173691,0.0,0.04108888928761577,0.04236343089884788,0.04123623953380898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04955861618155022,0.16634708159853834,0.04640955284815302,0.0,0.0,0.09992936524349408,0.0,0.05885731548244225 schizophrenia,realkingoftennis,2019/03/07,"Disorganized thinking and seizures Hello, It's 7PM tonight, Thu, March 8, I hope you're all have a good night. I've been ""hearing"" a lot stories about people dealing with symptoms of stress, seizures/epilepsy like stages of schzo disorder and I ""thought"" I'd like to help out. (/_\)(/_\)(/_\) There's a way to coherently understanding the pain and anxiety that comes with the feeling of being drowned out by noise that will intensely feel like listening or traveling through (sharp glass) or static. Eat a boiled egg. Every now and then. Try it and get back to me! (/_^)b ",3.5701871657754016,6.4301196372549025,3.4126381461675592,87.11141711229948,78.11764705882355,6.846345811051696,29.860962566844922,8.00094639256281,2.234517647058824,441,21,82,8,11,133,78,102,0.14800000000000002,0.6940000000000001,0.158,-0.1007,1,0,0,0,0,0,34.0,0,0,0,0,4,7,0,1,6,0,4,5,0,0,1,20,14,8,1,1,2,0,3,3,0,1,2,2,0,0,4,10,3,0,5,1,0,2,0,2,0,0,2,5,3,5,13,10,2,12,0,0,0,0,5,2,0,4,9,43,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16221604758811534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16305173057310407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18266047237959293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2186120530040552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2430252411301976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2169779187686255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17865948421733802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21443555862847494,0.15148704764383214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11078626520218836,0.0,0.0,0.1778557009687885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2389933716191689,0.0,0.142131224001375,0.0,0.0,0.2106113902840064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3107876492427257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1802755244372128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19899257060344436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2256338945132333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14700730048245075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2429001297885796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22039893871604074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1358717192088796,0.0,0.1683423305226625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14396659114405047,0.0,0.0,0.2207493210625764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16831373690836332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,glassocket,2019/03/07,"I think i may have schizophrenia I have had a few hallucinations and latley been starting to feel as if drops of water are landed on me when there is no water to be found.i am also very paranoid about most things.i also hear voices (i feel as if i hear more everyday) and (im not sure if this is anything to do with schizophrenia) find it very difficut to stay focused. I would just go to the doctors and find out but im only 14 and my mam wouldnt beileve me (btw shes not a bad mother) has anyone got an idea on what to do?",0.5922972972972964,2.718939693693695,2.4751576576576566,93.792195945946,84.4954954954955,4.781081081081081,20.96171171171171,5.985473137389443,0.0327711711711709,410,13,91,3,12,136,77,111,0.045,0.902,0.053,0.4305,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,0,6,2,0,0,4,0,16,3,0,0,1,24,24,13,0,5,7,1,2,0,0,3,1,3,0,1,3,6,2,0,6,0,0,1,4,1,0,0,3,5,10,1,14,17,3,10,0,0,0,0,5,4,0,5,3,65,13,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.293170744482635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12816799656948658,0.0,0.15084072273189278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15304829091063607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1876158654830455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18536451691388264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3350667378736431,0.0,0.0,0.2009795763755812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10417391864820537,0.0,0.1466021832885927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4131860514100813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2069239934815489,0.3959920663518504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13940831730175302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12974106267016355,0.19537398223275776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17275858570310926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11745158197875608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30248427761272656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13021144147122446,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Fundje,2019/03/07,"20 Years old, life seems to end These last 4 years have been horrible and I've finally come to a point where I'm really considering suicide. I was thinking about overdosing on sleepmedication. I don't know if that works. Every day gets worse and worse. I don't really have friends or family to talk to. I'm getting deeper and deeper in paranoia and delusions. Dead or suicide seems to only way out, beacause I've been feeling shitty for so long and it's only getting worse. I'm only 20 and I haven't done much yet, but living is so much pain, that I can't see past this to thing I still want to do. I'm thinking of killing myself in two days. Sadface",2.3850501253132848,4.341720481203012,3.903928571428573,86.81398809523813,77.27067669172932,6.8393483709273175,24.6171679197995,7.793537801064563,1.3158025062656642,516,18,105,8,12,171,82,133,0.246,0.7340000000000001,0.02,-0.9831,0,0,0,0,0,3,13.0,0,0,0,1,6,3,1,0,1,0,12,2,0,0,0,19,28,12,4,2,4,0,1,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,6,8,0,0,6,0,0,1,4,2,0,1,4,2,7,1,14,24,2,20,0,0,1,0,2,6,0,5,12,58,13,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11808354991477367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1768124176607819,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14028193930059366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1214134960599412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11549705224939905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1292282116548946,0.0,0.06931251096894904,0.0,0.0,0.15016605184474094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1059088050513395,0.0,0.2148582335266451,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15166033821397135,0.0,0.0753363918996674,0.11173969552038764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09682469749841753,0.0,0.0,0.12104545103004552,0.12131278882226812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20154130910806214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14384394504672038,0.0,0.0,0.3127699092473982,0.1458643509354836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1308597759051199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1295862994787563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17563580198694026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10923618501006492,0.24958764697557925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10947344043824857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29988976180658616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11018089446228237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09107083870025487,0.17567254401779733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13390867921141206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0808542037138554,0.10880889168105136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0997969440877283,0.0,0.419093192822416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17655194686645725 schizophrenia,tiredsloths,2019/03/07,"I don’t know what’s wrong Everything seems to be going great. I’ve been getting good exam grades, the delusions have been set back and the hallucinations are gone. However, the nightmares started up again. Something is hiding. I can tell that it’s watching me but I can’t figure out where it is. Something is waiting, and I’m not so afraid now because it’s made no appearance, but I’m nervous that it will soon. For me, nightmares usually mark the onset of a psychotic break and though everything in my life seems as though it’s turned upwards, something seems to be crawling its way back up to the top of my brain and I don’t know what it is or when it will come. It annoys me to know that something is going to happen and I won’t know until it begins. Maybe at the end of the month. March 31st was always a bad day. What do I do? 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It was prescribed by a physician assistant, so not a doctor. I'm not sure if this is a safe combination, anybody else using the same combination?",6.329224806201553,7.842222697674417,6.739534883720933,72.27271317829461,66.2093023255814,10.38449612403101,37.58914728682171,10.504223727775694,4.354324031007751,188,10,32,5,3,61,32,43,0.047,0.807,0.146,0.6367,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,5,0,3,3,0,1,1,9,6,4,0,1,3,1,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,3,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,1,3,2,5,1,2,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,1,22,4,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5239671279742389,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4276396490333562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3381153094312751,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4824742286623392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.44213056395360095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Jonnyfivedicks,2019/03/07,"The Demon Late at night, When the lights were out, The Demon stirred, It gave a shout, The sleeper woke, He looked around, In his little bedroom, Nothing made a sound, Suddenly a creak, From near the door, A demonic laugh, Shook the sleeper to his core, A shadow emerged, Illuminated by the moonlight, It slowly crept forward, The sleeper shook with fright, A chuckle was heard, The Demon toyed with his prey, The sleeper began to panic, ""Our father.."" he began to say, The prayer went unheard, The Demon called his name, ""Don't die of fright, Adam"" """"Wouldn't THAT be a shame!"" The Demon finally reaches, The foot of Adam's bed, Adam is beyond terrified, He put's his hands to his head, ""This can't be real, Demons don't exist..."" ""Wrong"" laughed the Demon, ""And you won't be missed"" The Demon leapt on the bed, Sliced Adam with its claw, Adam screamed in pain, Blood gushed from his jaw, He closed his eyes and repeated, ""It's just my imagination..."" A product of psychosis, His mental-health's damnednation, The Demon soon disappeared, His jaw pain went away, He was alone in the dark, And what was there to say? When all was finished, When all is done and said, The tormenter of the night, Was all in his head... 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My head feels away with the fairies not here at all. I've been hearing these voices past 8 years, theyve got names and personalities. I swear they're not my own insecure thoughts this feels like some gang stalking mkuktra shit. I had an appointment today cancelled it cause I can't face going out,, I need to put my perscription in but can't leave the front door. I've been in bed all day in and out of sleep, my dreams are mad, feel so real, course the voices tell me they control my dreams. I can't even speak properly, they're telling me they're controlling my voice and words,. I've managed to make a Dr's appointment and going to phone the mental health team with my support worker Monday, so that's a positive I guess. I'm just feeling numb scrolling through Facebook not taking anything in feeling blank. I can't even say I'm fed up with it all it's the norm. FML. 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Ever since I was 8 I believe I've had schizophrenia, at my old house (8-9 years old) I once saw a confederate soldier staring at me upstairs so I had my brothers cousin bring a rifle upstairs because he thought there was an intruder and demons moving around my room talking to me. Once at my mothers I had a few fleas on my leg and I started having a psychotic break and was saying that the demons from a few years back sent these bugs to kill me, this was four years ago. In 7th grade I saw a man inside my house behind my Dad through the door and then he was right in front of me suddenly, it freaked me out so bad that I called the 911, freaked my father right the fuck out lmfao. It went away for a long time until recently last year it's been happening pretty frequently and I started thinking that my step mom was trying to poison me so I would grab the last fork in the cup board or not eat certain foods she would make and not say why, etc & I've seen shadows follow me when I was outside. I've always had control over it though since the middle school incident because I realized they aren't real so I've never lashed out or said anything to anyone except my mother who has recently passed away. I'm at constant anxiety and panic because of the this but it's always on the verge that I can tell the difference between reality, and I think I'm one of the lucky ones that can do that. I'm 18 now and moved out. I've heard some meds take away a lot of your emotions / can make you feel dull, but I also don't want this to progress. Any advice would be appreciated.",4.128518927880627,4.7929092310030414,4.9474399005250085,86.22756493506495,70.67173252279636,7.683945841392652,27.72050290135397,7.686295010490155,1.4607191489361702,1263,42,266,14,22,410,187,329,0.073,0.875,0.052000000000000005,-0.2229,0,0,0,1,0,1,23.0,0,2,1,2,12,10,3,1,21,0,25,6,1,3,3,41,51,22,1,5,7,7,2,0,0,4,2,4,2,1,16,14,2,1,5,0,0,10,5,8,0,3,20,11,37,2,34,26,5,59,2,1,5,1,23,23,1,5,25,169,53,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0942925406909624,0.08553585549629386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07716598834342346,0.1605810002459125,0.1045508989667242,0.0,0.06561903453235493,0.0,0.07381742720973199,0.0,0.0,0.06747064852418623,0.0,0.07940610494804848,0.08589986344877816,0.0,0.0,0.2719770624678731,0.07419770997972926,0.0805682207699995,0.1764650175704392,0.0,0.0,0.1087153724405041,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09853087079101497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10427542497602256,0.10822590544612112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1008153936464582,0.0,0.09876540522114426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09873715925745198,0.0,0.10854244071973652,0.0,0.0,0.10761599823848483,0.0,0.08728408881793917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04879012118587512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11668058217108457,0.0,0.0,0.08920688385254973,0.0,0.0,0.05483960144988003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08532907274733546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2226815812697625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10675599797366088,0.0,0.0,0.15731051175320487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08539390054252256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08203550512233773,0.0,0.0,0.12882060696200184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10718276346977866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1130122717854295,0.0,0.2051150945951164,0.0,0.0,0.07442190100115649,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2025078420208404,0.20552531271090094,0.13077327596978985,0.0,0.0,0.11321458282270025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09816879740683533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10983097186502212,0.0,0.0,0.19055180326914467,0.0,0.0,0.16481020930256554,0.09178761899471563,0.15347134893212513,0.0,0.09765679027319164,0.07689299709415151,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15964119496658344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13659749505138247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0725512642497984,0.07755799231672797,0.08433975929959008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1236585515636424,0.09480458422688992,0.07660523058252414,0.056266260702676436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06551289789400461,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05691449267151336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08945063974607331,0.08707056838311576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20563909797644955,0.0,0.0,0.2485551529672781 schizophrenia,throwaway9247436,2019/03/07,"Is it coming ? My mother suffers from severe paranoid scitzphrenia and is on 6 different medications for it (some are for her side effects from the anti phsycotics) hers started after smoking weed for the first time and went pale and describes to me it felt like her brain was suddenly taken over it's caused her problems until this day and describes she hasn't felt the same since. My dad also suffered from scitzphrenia but also apparently bipolar I never really spoke to my dad about it because he passed away when I was in my early teens. Anyway I've been smoking weed and drinking alcohol since about 14 pretty heavy usage but recently the weed has been causing me huge paranoia and anxiety and somewhat delusional thoughts example my grandparents keeping life threatening doctors news from me and the past year when I sometimes speak my words come out in the wrong order and I sometimes stop speaking in the middle of a setence and don't speak until I I think of something else My Gran has always said I've showed simliar odd behavior as my mum did when I was younger I don't know if all of these symptoms are from the stress from my terminally ill grandad or something else I just thought I would ask reddit ",6.714793510324483,7.966290862831862,6.315203539823012,76.62109439528027,65.15044247787611,8.858525073746312,35.42064896755162,9.029198982220553,3.281049321533924,989,46,164,16,15,307,142,226,0.158,0.805,0.038,-0.9761,4,0,4,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,2,9,6,0,1,9,0,16,9,1,3,2,38,31,22,0,3,5,4,2,1,0,1,7,5,0,0,7,13,2,2,7,2,0,4,4,5,0,1,14,7,27,1,27,16,4,32,0,2,0,0,16,10,0,4,18,113,34,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14412244047024764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2156921640073473,0.11221285499305447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10316618084033707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12607424543186901,0.0,0.12670375127571054,0.0,0.0,0.08220832849737067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15054639083124474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2770731120174427,0.0,0.2323368570012564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08697240519053852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14089815272035186,0.0,0.1380331182074902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13210972947518476,0.0,0.0,0.22531350183530235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2589701088640364,0.0,0.0,0.11471034600829665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11986819584869242,0.0,0.0,0.07411455924392796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09525435978642288,0.06588492178885047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1358554842049106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10401098476857698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1287374450701556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13719930765640073,0.0,0.1290411181283886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08639363874136738,0.0,0.13315623788717715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12828106394453642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15235141995799853,0.0,0.22311225156488154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20764091614000396,0.26675648594983514,0.0,0.09545335301898784,0.0,0.0,0.11274752321810183,0.1544796528364305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1401693427171338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08641171180907102,0.0,0.214124749949304,0.07863692147342376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12501493516033296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09579942104730714,0.14744630984159018,0.0,0.08684428199781251 schizophrenia,abcxyz123brb,2019/03/07,Does anyone here have only pleasant hallucinations? I often hear about people with schizophrenia that experience scary hallucinations and threatening auditory ones. I'm curious if there's any cases of someone with schizophrenia experiencing only pleasant hallucinations and positive encouraging and uplifting auditory hallucinations.,16.214000000000006,19.85775706666667,15.433333333333339,11.130000000000024,45.0,17.555555555555557,55.0,15.021129683784007,10.885,288,18,21,13,3,96,34,45,0.115,0.609,0.277,0.8519,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,4,3,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,7,3,4,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,5,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,1,3,4,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,2,0,15,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24170442374152865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24852475104559255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31103897654793644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34767850508514025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40059516927273614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2408484027106851,0.5406406946888572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2464102415147146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.301154480659587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,ImmediatePangolim,2019/03/07,No friends Im feeling really low today ,1.41,4.020190000000003,5.230000000000004,71.81500000000003,86.5,8.200000000000001,33.0,8.841846274778883,4.080100000000002,32,2,5,1,1,12,8,8,0.377,0.246,0.377,0.0018,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,1,0,2,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2771575252867828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4234938527513376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5920884048928706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3511543843236838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5195753862726805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Businessman88,2019/03/07,"Lmao Ok so maybe not so funny when it was happening but after 2 years my brain decided to have another episode... well this time I thought I was crazy horse re incarnated and once again went after police. After 6 weeks of this bs I snap out of it and now I can’t quit fkin pacing around my house or at work ect. Hell, I can be at a damn restaurant and start having to pace!! Is there any of you who feel normal while on medications? 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It’s multiple voices telling me to hang and cut myself, (which I have) and it’s incredibly hard to deal with as I also have Anxiety, Depression and PTSD.",5.150142857142857,6.529199442857145,6.221428571428575,75.39357142857145,68.85714285714286,10.742857142857144,35.42857142857143,10.793553405168565,4.257085714285715,291,15,53,9,5,97,48,70,0.132,0.775,0.093,-0.4005,0,0,0,0,0,1,7.0,0,0,0,0,2,2,1,0,2,0,6,2,0,1,0,12,10,8,0,2,2,0,1,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,5,6,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,1,3,6,0,6,9,0,7,0,1,0,0,5,0,0,3,6,33,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1609357708841713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15395208183965278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1656077112088556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20747503823216426,0.17333225742686176,0.4085194287184507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18027623463461032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2697809267920153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1343327813993035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14922081882313562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.422346118612132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23524495299338294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.397410854326242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1758972375064743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.218241912357326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2591907134785708 schizophrenia,icametoseecars,2019/03/07,Always thinking someone has found someone else to talk to when they’re busy. Lately I’ve been really paranoid with my friends. I only have two but they talk to me on the phone and I sense them not paying attention to me and I think they’ve found someone who makes them happier than me. They swear there is no one but I know there is. I can’t tell if i’m being delusional about it or if it’s normal to feel like they want someone who isn’t me around. It feels too real to be fake but I think it may be extreme. I don’t want to be alone again. I dont want to be a bad friend and accuse them but I don’t trust it. ,0.06831746031745922,1.9499134666666684,1.9810846560846576,98.03416666666668,84.7037037037037,5.042328042328042,17.79100529100529,6.18269132825596,-0.4423439153439155,478,11,116,4,14,158,78,135,0.136,0.703,0.162,0.5652,0,1,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,6,0,7,6,0,0,2,0,16,0,0,1,0,29,29,11,0,6,8,0,2,1,2,1,0,0,0,0,7,5,0,0,9,0,1,0,7,2,0,2,3,2,20,4,13,20,0,5,0,0,0,0,14,2,0,4,4,77,27,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15862100545269575,0.0,0.0,0.1274361159480205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13633922994144845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12787691081819275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17949495162937018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12794023263339724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15487818685995314,0.1094130069747142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3358501713614667,0.23665227921412324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08416924750582487,0.0,0.1727640020195035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07482314332729438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10223125886726388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15005807148824432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10378088524711894,0.11648026157521565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17432239734265834,0.0981141578163905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5190664043810449,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2461982248568492,0.13386305140298546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2944040482540785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14960887400519648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2710019943618216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,helovatrainwreck,2019/03/08,"My partner has schizophrenia... constantly tells me that women are hitting on him to the point of harassment. Basically the title. It occurs in every place, at the gas station, the cashier, medical clinic, the doctor, at work. Some of these people are even changing their hair color to be more desirable. If there is an exchange with a member of the opposite sex, they are hitting on him. What is this about? Anyone else experience this? 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For me, my medicine seems to only make me feel worse to the point I can't bring myself to take antipsychotics. It just makes me feel so wrong. I don't know how to really explain it other than being wrong. 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Hi, 15 F here. I recently read a post about schizophrenia and it reminded me of some things I do, but milder. I looked at early signs and I do seem to meet a few. Sensations on skin of crawling and light pain, like a needle or bug bite. It feels completely real. Hearing people say something quietly Arm flapping (did this when I was younger too, I had to to imagine things) Social anxiety OCD disorganized speech occasionally Minor visual hallucinations of patches of light and faces in the dark, had this for years Feeling presences when I'm alone Thinking someone's trying to kill me, people I know and strangers Thinking someone is reading my mind Bad memory Please help me. I'm really scared right now, especially because my parents don't believe mental illness exists (they think it's demons or punishments from God) and they wouldn't listen to me because of my past hypochondria. 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I haven't mentioned my medical condition yet, but I indent to later describe how my psychotic episodes felt, so you're in for a good read if you follow my blog...",11.69533333333333,10.192847088888893,11.016111111111114,56.15750000000001,55.88888888888889,13.888888888888893,44.72222222222222,12.602617957971056,5.845222222222222,418,20,63,11,4,136,59,90,0.028,0.879,0.093,0.7311,0,0,0,0,0,0,23.0,0,1,0,0,6,3,0,0,5,0,4,3,0,2,0,10,9,8,0,2,3,0,1,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,4,0,3,1,1,0,0,1,1,14,2,13,8,1,16,0,1,0,0,2,5,0,3,7,46,14,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2669752377141296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29568703888297343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32054296776620506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28001283482068634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3315828062733833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3363131002676452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3197306420828277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3339347325901122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4725935544322683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Banana_hand,2019/03/08,"Appropriate/healthy ways to respond to paranoia and delusions? If more details are pertinent let me know. So my sibling has been suffering paranoia and delusions and some other stuff in his head for over a year (probably longer). Hindsight is 20/20 and he is on a verge to a diagnosis but is incarcerated. I'm wondering what is the best way to support and soothe him regarding his issues. I watched Ted talk about schizophrenia and the big take away I learned is that whatever is going on with him is real to him, regardless of how crazy or illogical it seems to a bystander. So being dismissive or telling him it's not real or only in his head is counter productive. Is it wrong or dangerous to agree with him? Will that feed his paranoia? Is there any response that is helpful?",4.880908045977012,7.0542281655172445,5.316982758620693,78.46420977011499,70.79310344827586,8.695402298850576,34.8419540229885,9.2995712137729,3.484712643678161,624,33,110,14,12,199,95,145,0.116,0.759,0.125,0.6767,0,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,0,1,5,5,1,0,6,0,17,3,2,1,0,24,24,15,0,2,7,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,9,8,1,0,4,0,0,1,1,3,0,0,1,1,13,2,18,20,3,12,0,1,1,0,14,8,0,8,1,83,22,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.129676162712828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17916011747755273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20011804418163348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1083738755286753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3914071869265763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12781590502363446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19903146745232686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10479857942047116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1949940817216358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14502881165431256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20559674395378846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4340953529712199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17359758135731898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21829514102460207,0.0,0.21639345921553302,0.0,0.0,0.1433756167692368,0.1532698995500344,0.16667200954780473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3027226812687441,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2067958463464359,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20849026115547264,0.0,0.12279850918640098 schizophrenia,toothcomb42,2019/03/09,"Adolescent-onset Schizophrenia? This question is just for curiosity's sake: has anyone here ever heard of adolescent-onset schizophrenia that only occurs during that developmental phase (around puberty)? From 12-14, I developed what seemed to me a kind of schizophrenia. I developed an external voice, really a separate distinct entity/personality who constantly criticized me and ordered me to do things. I even gave her a name: Nervouz, fittingly enough. This voice constantly nagged and criticized me non-stop, from when I woke up to when I fell asleep. I would often argue with her, sometimes out loud and I would catch myself talking to her aloud and have to shut myself up. Sometimes I would have to work on focusing on what people in front of me were saying because she would be talking over them and it was very difficult for me to ignore her. I never discussed this with family (and still haven't to this day). I felt completely crazy, and I was incredibly embarrassed to admit something like this to my parents. I told a couple of friends years later in college, but at the time I literally told no one because of how embarrassed I was. It got to the point where I was starting to contemplate suicide because I was just weighed down with the constant bombardment of nagging and criticism, and I felt like I'd never be rid of her. Then one day, very suddenly, I got rid of her. She disappeared and never came back. And that was that. I haven't had anything like external voices since. I deal with depression, which has been a chronic thing since that time, but no more voice(s). I used to be scared of such a thing returning, but it's been so long that I no longer possess that fear. I'm just curious, can there be periods of schizophrenia in a person's life? Particularly during puberty, like something going haywire because of hormones or something? Cause it seems like a permanent thing. But this has always struck me as very similar to symptoms of schizophrenia. 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I'm worried that her delusions might be getting worse again. She complained about people on websites and forums posting things about her and that someone had downloaded all her social media photos. I think she might be stressed out after going back to university. She has been responding less frequently and recently not at all despite still showing some interest. I don't know what to do. 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When you had your worst break with reality, what was your thought process like at that time? What did you believe to be true? 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It has been a rough time, to say the least. She behaves like a child. She has a bad temper and will go on tangents and gets louder and louder as she goes, and then keeps going and going over the same thing. She says she hears voices all the time and that she sees a little girl everywhere she is at. I can't joke with her because she says she can't tell when people are joking and she doesn't know how to joke. So if I joke and say something dumb like I think I'll keep your dog, she'll burst into tears and start wailing, till I tell her I was only joking. She says that I cannot under any circumstances joke about books because they mean too much to her. If I say something about the plot of a book she will go off the deep end and lose it. She doesn't know any social cues so she doesn't understand how to talk to people or interact with people. If we stop at a gas station and there is people there she says she can't go in because she's scared of people and she doesn't want people looking at her. When people walk by her she winces and curls up like they are going to hit her. She also has a phobia of leaving voice mails. She refuses to leave a voice mail with the doctor because it scares her to know that her voice is being recorded and someone has it. I joked with her one day and said that I thought she left me a voice mail once and she went berserk demanding I delete it right then and there if it was true. I don't know what to do because it's like living with a child with a temper who has all these phobias. She has no friends at all because she says that she doesn't know how to make them. &#x200B; Any advice would be greatly appreciated. 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I’ve struggled with addiction on and off but i feel drawn toward him with his struggle,3.5548717948717896,6.5661642307692345,4.582307692307693,77.64602564102567,79.76923076923076,8.082051282051282,27.89743589743589,8.841846274778883,3.0371435897435903,114,5,18,3,3,37,24,26,0.174,0.826,0.0,-0.5647,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,5,1,2,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,3,0,7,1,0,4,0,0,0,0,2,4,0,0,0,13,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40998071182886536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2629625977062894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3291085371450431,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19015642045953088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7863171082153337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,unsemble,2019/03/09,Schizophrenia and CBD Have any of you managed to find relief using CBD?,6.083846153846152,8.156432769230769,4.910769230769233,83.0092307692308,67.46153846153847,5.2,28.384615384615394,3.1291,1.0301384615384617,58,2,9,0,1,17,12,13,0.0,0.795,0.205,0.4767,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,3,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,5,1,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4756821359536641,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6393278398049498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6041410586815767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,NegligentNonmember,2019/03/09,"Hey friends. I’m so content. This is a false and a true statement. Maybe I’m a witch. I kid. I’m just a bitch. Peace and love and gold. How do I find the space? I look to you and see my death. Give it up. ! You’re not the good one. !¥ What is left to protect to defend to fight foor Nothing. Play is all. Spinning light. Crash. 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Opinions? ,12.939090909090908,15.01247396969697,10.154090909090916,51.65113636363637,51.72727272727274,12.660606060606062,52.86363636363637,12.161744961471696,7.451072727272729,183,12,21,5,2,54,28,33,0.15,0.85,0.0,-0.6486,1,1,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,2,2,0,2,0,6,3,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,4,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,14,3,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.390767319679912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3774004680427037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7843149339494997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2995327577663545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,utillizador,2019/03/09,"My sister has schizophrenia. Help me Hi everyone, My sister is at university and this year, my sister discovered that was schizophrenic, and I don't really understand what is schizophrenia and I need your help to explain it to me. She is really shy (she never goes to parties, she never drank and doesn't has interest to make friends, etc.); she studies A LOT but she can't get good grades. I'm afraid to see her losing everything she did the whole life, because of schizophrenia. Is my syster going to sleep 20hours a day? Is she going to die without friends or a boyfriend? Will she be able to finish uni? &#x200B; Please help me, I'm afraid to see my sister living a shitty life :(",3.1708461538461563,5.7096940846153865,3.831538461538461,85.40346153846156,77.38461538461539,6.76923076923077,25.384615384615394,7.882392219407189,1.641769230769231,541,20,99,9,13,171,78,130,0.17600000000000002,0.713,0.11,-0.8949,0,0,0,0,0,0,24.0,0,1,0,1,0,7,0,2,5,0,14,5,1,1,2,14,26,6,1,1,3,4,0,0,2,1,3,0,0,0,4,4,1,0,2,0,0,2,6,3,0,0,3,2,20,4,12,21,3,8,0,1,2,0,21,1,0,2,5,66,24,1,0.1647503863980689,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1785069748303233,0.20018975230206448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1004303063904617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10625036976734703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17098489034967249,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18374023063169867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15742605442605745,0.1480670241283445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25457147970028904,0.0,0.0860752770715553,0.0,0.187262882528334,0.1381848075815607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3312861336405802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2327361403214442,0.0,0.0,0.14547760955649566,0.0,0.0,0.18431354086267526,0.0,0.14006488698606764,0.0,0.0,0.1099721622284274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12216032396960205,0.2541313090586905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18084645065257293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2110866324026986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2625694553096561,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1648693671568063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17151096247482894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18393792283795524,0.0,0.1588134933564897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20018975230206448,0.10609384728676148 schizophrenia,neosharks,2019/03/09,"Worried I am developing Schizophrenia? Hi everyone, Recently I have been worrying about getting schizophrenia or wondering if I am developing Schizophrenia/. Recently, I am wondering if I have been smelling phantom smells. On Thursday, my friend turned on the oven to warm up garlic bread and I could smell it from my room. Then on Friday, I thought I smelled pizza in a cafe and turns out there was pizza down the hall. But after that, I began to smell constantly trying to see if the smell was normal. Sometimes the smell was normal and other times I thought I smelled something else. Later on during the day, I read that smell hallucinations could be one of the first symptoms of Schizophrenia and I started getting into a panic. I began smelling every second and trying to pay attention to what I was smelling. I ended up going to the doctor that day and he did a quick neurological exam and it turned out fine, and he said I was fine. Later though, I went back to my house and there were a lot of dirty dishes and food around, and I started smelling stuff and I was wondering if I was hallucinating and developing Schizophrenia. I dont if these are phantom smells, none of the smells have been something bad like rotten fish, eggs, flesh or anything like that. Yesterday night I had a full blown panic attack at nihgt, I couldnt go to sleep because I was having racing thoughts that I was developing the mental illness. I have had not any auditory hallucinations or delusions/paranoia. I am just wondering if I am having phantom smells or I am overthinking it too much. I had an ear infection but still have fluid in the ear and I am a steroid nasal spray to help clear the passageway of my nose to clear the fluid out. The doctor said that might be the reason and my sense of smell is improving. I can still smell things regulary its just the things in my environment that have me questioning and worrying I am developing Schizophrenia. I am 21 and about to graduate and I do not get such a mental illness that will prevent me from having a career.",5.867631757083451,7.336894780678854,6.0863475485929825,76.69186732424332,67.25065274151436,8.91167198530123,31.41756116429746,9.250403328903447,2.8390867227540846,1643,66,288,31,27,524,173,383,0.075,0.856,0.069,-0.0644,0,0,2,0,0,0,34.0,0,0,0,1,14,11,1,2,24,0,47,19,6,1,2,59,70,32,0,11,16,0,1,2,1,2,7,4,2,0,18,23,6,1,10,1,1,3,5,5,0,3,25,26,44,6,38,38,4,45,0,0,1,0,8,19,0,17,25,222,62,7,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06252368684655242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07566040059654143,0.08184783882769317,0.0,0.1045972547172878,0.0,0.07069769338371612,0.07676769768265236,0.05604696653735598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09935659772283498,0.0,0.1468163502196591,0.0,0.0,0.11858991838140545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18821298762860847,0.0,0.0,0.10775529447873894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07680571134700527,0.0,0.08143328833257155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07746506823874047,0.08785448458378102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07820578573643125,0.11117658515900912,0.0,0.0710341316128972,0.0,0.14410764082408348,0.0,0.10450547138578843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06162675893952758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10608867955029694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08983639673282308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07816576804461732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1853117450234765,0.0975358919994673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06758792089891784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08628130282770764,0.18016720286947227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.062302252790700126,0.0,0.0,0.21574816433421687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10299603911971576,0.0,0.09196684259817473,0.0,0.0,0.09453164964000496,0.18156319062834425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17491572033375696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07326583978673265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09200836118279714,0.0,0.0,0.14156282813920673,0.0909329511676622,0.0,0.13015398756598598,0.0,0.1468499389156097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10525154933656942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09556290225608524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12216430804209168,0.0,0.09033251065126482,0.21897494295141015,0.053612097301827935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1248451136633298,0.30001935791037304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08523111971343643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3988285423517791,0.0,0.2801145755233597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Bluenator,2019/03/09,"I had/ have schizophrenia? First sorry for my English, is not my first language. When i was kid i remember like 3 times where i ear creepy music for no reason, the music last around 5 seconds and scares me too much, i was around other people and the only one scared about that, so i was the only who listen that music. And at my teens I had very few times days where think to do something terrible, I wont do that and i know that was a very bad idea but the idea of doing that stay more than i want. Now I am around 25 and the only one bad was a terrible insomnia for moths that starts with something of my ex girlfriend. Now I am OK but i fear the future. My mother have schizoprenia and bipolar, i don't know if this is important. Thanks.",1.8779793233082744,3.7942756513157896,3.083759398496241,92.29131578947369,78.67105263157895,5.9218045112781965,20.06766917293233,6.868970318607317,0.2311037593984961,577,14,124,6,14,186,89,152,0.157,0.7559999999999999,0.087,-0.8726,0,0,2,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,0,2,11,10,0,3,8,1,18,3,1,1,0,22,25,11,0,2,4,2,0,1,1,1,2,2,0,1,9,10,0,0,7,0,0,0,4,7,0,5,7,2,20,3,13,17,3,18,0,0,0,0,6,6,0,1,12,94,29,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3892649613289052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24340267906691804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.094001463882914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1640175963845986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2479623375637888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3290847227169809,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16020890876142152,0.11881173383307354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07120970246131576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10714845902612684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19753797103371515,0.3325652091267444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10104982761545422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14986288161271766,0.0,0.0,0.1651147188976589,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2918571671481187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22442233299618028,0.0,0.16316347438941814,0.10316783693241527,0.15535799325976296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13419382949913505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09339545559175616,0.0,0.0,0.16998462253753427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2405302375756305,0.08597149013336038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,woohoopoopoo,2019/03/09,"an excerpt from my autobiography. I am woohoopoopoo on most social media. The finished product will be posted there some day, some way. Thank you for reading. a “RED ON THE LINE” excerpt “The Mask” By Lord byron the seventh I remember putting on a mask and never taking it off. Never. Never dare. I remember pretending I was always okay. I guess that’s how the “class clown” got to be so damn funny. Hellarious. I remember pain. Lots. The fear of never knowing when the next strike would hit. All day, but knowing. The acknowledgement of terror when getting ready to receive the tallied blows. They were kept track, for Christ’s sake! The highest owed amount I can remember was 38. I remember the blows not being proper enough and having to be restruck, according to my 3-year senior brother. Each blow was often two or three hits because “they didn’t count.” I remember I had to be silent when being hit on my skull or body, anywhere where the bruises wouldn’t actually show. They couldn’t help, but show, however. Is that why they’re called “shiners?” Fucking funny! LAUGH! Whether I was changing my clothes at home or the school’s gym, the bruises were everywhere and very apparent. I remember not being able to do anything. I remember having to hide or Josh’s punishment would be accelerated tenfold on me. Hence, the mask. That mask. ...My own best kept secret! ...God knows, and never answered. The mask didn’t have to be always happy, but at least blank. I remember climbing the stairs to get to class and being far behind the other students’ ascent. I remember the pained charlie horses on my thighs sitting in the backseat the day prior. There’s a bruised vein that remains to this day on my left thigh because of it. I remember the bus stop. Crushing the winter Michigan’s puddles of ice with my feet to vent my bizzare, contained anger. Or maybe it was fall? And I would squish the crispy leaves? At least I saw robins in the spring. And, as the bus approached each day, I had to stand still and receive blows to my shins. This lasted for over a year, this abuse, this type, this kind. Not exclusive, either, lol. My mother stopped the kicked shins after discovering them one night. My brother got scolded, and I got punished worst at whatever convenience of Josh’s time. Our mother held a stethoscope to my right shin to ensure there was a pulse and potentially no blood clots. The bruises on my shins looked gnarly by then. They were old and yellow in some spots, and refreshed and blackened in others. There’s still scar tissue on my right shin to this day. ...Want to feel????? Have you? Would you know? Will you keep sweeping this under the rug??? I can let you feel my bruises, finally. Now. It was decades of lies, denial, and anyway that one could only describe as “covering up.” I only refer to my brother as biological, not even that of blood-relation. Fuck you, Josh. And, fuck our parents. They knew. They were authoritative. They were deciding our future without any of our passions considered. I think my brother became a derivative monster of our monstrous parents white-privilege greed. I would always fear that I would become my brother some day. The disgust I have to share my physical and personality traits with my family, and especially my brother, brings upon irrational guilt and disgust in myself. I felt so ugly, so weird, and so alone for years locked in my bedroom. I’d highlight the TV guide for reruns or movies to watch throughout the day to help distract the time. I pissed into cups, and had nonparishable food in my closet. I had to hold my shit in all day. After my parents got wind, they would let me use their bedroom throughout the day because the masterbedroom came with a toilet. They act like they’re innocent in all of this too, by the way. I would sit there, on the ledge of my bed or my parents’ bed, and draw, draw, draw atop of a TV tray. My brother used to beat our dog, Sparky, to get at me so I would unlock the door and protect the poor thing. My brother videotaped his actions on me, our dog, and even smashed mailboxes in the “country” and Richmond, Michigan area. The judge saw the tape. My brother didn’t get a felony, then, because he and my dad fixed the mailboxes all day, Sunday, before the mail could be delivered on Monday. My brother was known as “NIGGER SLAYAR.” His Michigan vanity license plate knows of “SLAYAR,” which Josh has since replaced. The school he teaches at today had a Christmas-themed photograph of my brother saying, “You know what I’m sleighing?” My parents knew, my whole family knew. The town knew. The teachers and police and whoever else were bribed with my brother’s bootlegging CD business. Joshua \*\* \*\*\*\*\*\* is a teacher and male and female basketball coach at Romeo Middle School. All of this is so true, but let’s call it “alleged.” I wrote to J Dilla’s mother, as well as DJ Premier and “Weird Al” Yankovic about all of this abuse. I know J Dilla’s ma wrote to the middle school. Nothing has happened. Yet? Ha! Where do I even continue? I can’t end this here. I’m finally free to talk. I am finally free to be me. Finally. Took over 30 years. I’m 33 come this May 2019. I exploded yesterday, and that’s how this has come into fruition today. My loving wife, Rena, encouraged me to finally write this out. She thinks my story needs to be heard. Well, consider this a fraction of my autobiography to come. More will change. When this gets polished and released, I may be older than 33. So, expect changes, but the same old song. I learned to love myself more than was shown or ever given. I learned the man in the mirror is a naked mask. A perception of me with potentially hidden thoughts. I learned to accept my decline was happening, and accept my rise by still doing. I turned enough cheeks on all of this. So, ya’ll can kiss my hairy buttcheeks. I’ve bitched about it before, and will probably never cease to “complain.” FUCK YOU IF I INCONVENIENCED YOUR DAY. SPEAK UP. FUCK YOU. SPEAK UP, NOW, OR IT WILL GO ON FOR 30 YEARS. FUCK YOU. “OTHERS GOT IT WORSE.” FUCK YOU. “C’MON, BRYAN, IT WAS ORDINARY, BROTHER STUFF WE DID.” FUCK YOU. “I SWEAR, I DIDN’T KNOW.” FUCK YOU. “DON’T WORRY, WE’LL GET YOU FIXED.” HILARIOUS, I DIDN’T REALIZE I WAS THE PROBLEM. NO, WAIT, GOT SOMETHING IN MAH POCKET. IT’S MY FINGER: “FUCK YOU.” Why’s Joshie keep calling me “Byron,” ma and dad? It’s only bad when he calls me “NIGGER,” “FAGGOT,” “RETARD,” OR “FATFUCK???” FUCK YOU. And, this doesn’t end here. I will die with middle fingers raised and crispy from rigormortis: FUCK YOU.",2.304055236532676,5.1148887325676835,3.0675050041017218,87.54459576155321,84.15176374077112,5.613258955427947,23.959316379546074,7.087006719466742,1.1720149258955428,5091,193,935,72,150,1600,528,1219,0.18600000000000005,0.7290000000000001,0.085,-0.9994,8,1,1,0,2,0,246.0,9,18,11,4,41,56,22,5,68,3,91,31,12,4,15,178,172,77,1,18,23,26,5,1,0,19,2,5,11,3,44,53,1,11,42,11,5,16,23,35,2,4,52,16,144,23,131,78,28,146,2,0,6,16,97,57,18,21,68,615,188,15,0.03685653483003788,0.08733793389683864,0.035966661375050384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03817225473459168,0.0,0.0,0.09200276848211332,0.0,0.0,0.025063707548858345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.030329787784831273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0307736670845933,0.08986960616961111,0.04070514704889824,0.06272439305660596,0.0,0.03867865943662601,0.0,0.0,0.04093930148515673,0.0,0.0,0.1505385714764018,0.04215405715265197,0.0,0.0,0.11696798054418732,0.0952459237663614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05885388803650185,0.0,0.0,0.2852329908038768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.038251264257167024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.030788905523243607,0.0,0.06528790052060003,0.07616530570442898,0.0,0.07303018095894427,0.03333884583020995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06949012178032071,0.08294769682082515,0.037271542850060436,0.0,0.035388053313321885,0.20187266186558284,0.0,0.0,0.04456706821440102,0.0,0.0,0.40887927062496016,0.11553610950790907,0.0,0.020946418103088987,0.0,0.17686522687268325,0.0,0.04060162835776472,0.0,0.06518422405925399,0.03923446667105567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.049408316788327085,0.0,0.036970109532693585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06551956322484008,0.0,0.0383804093890982,0.1620431012874601,0.03004299506265588,0.0,0.03902574872149284,0.04004473293360162,0.11306491191104155,0.0,0.018006241222472363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.030950206701737364,0.0,0.0,0.031334107910340116,0.06652892331860485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.037027343091756135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02732865356901598,0.17055619076535042,0.0,0.03919734292001658,0.03458736120784904,0.0,0.03536483919566261,0.0,0.07734946673526738,0.0,0.04994988371090451,0.0840931666719322,0.07843590327615807,0.0,0.20462410125963515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0321817045907689,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03529837227994447,0.0,0.03973757825381356,0.035266726248592485,0.0,0.037050997347415376,0.0,0.0,0.03686650873179656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4592639613139496,0.06295055872833476,0.0,0.029309795809834293,0.0,0.14920312369793276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03783270336039668,0.03048810647632923,0.0,0.0,0.03757059580634702,0.0,0.02837396115953785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08830102897438549,0.06162742688859055,0.0,0.0,0.04219191453169194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02771152733983435,0.029623886595658355,0.0,0.03393254543987749,0.0,0.0,0.024485844038517886,0.04723235863487678,0.0,0.02925997174015932,0.04298268370359372,0.0,0.06987137099474752,0.0,0.040948966323960216,0.0,0.0400893262746788,0.03600347906497736,0.0,0.0,0.06366442491137687,0.0,0.03041050116336466,0.02173893916264632,0.05851000363519775,0.0,0.0,0.06627690220819063,0.0,0.0665145800336714,0.04114900491499775,0.0,0.03552838434764398,0.0,0.0,0.03742960017867855,0.037559957733669366,0.2356364238985301,0.0,0.0,0.11867200020791807 schizophrenia,anxiousthrowaway09,2019/03/09,"Do you guys ever see constant color patches/sometimes see things in a higher contrast of light? I've been diagnosed with Bipolar 1/GAD, (previously was diagnosed as schizophrenia) and I haven't seen any of these symptoms discussed in Bipolar forums so I figured I'd just ask around different mental illness communities and see if anyone else experiences these things. There'll be constant subtle morphing color patches all over the place, as well as sometimes everything being at a very high contrast. It's quite annoying. I don't know if it has to do with anything, but I figured I'd just ask.",8.677777777777777,8.905901592592592,8.365185185185188,67.14833333333333,60.85185185185186,10.533333333333337,42.074074074074076,10.125756701596842,4.659229629629628,484,26,73,9,6,155,75,108,0.04,0.943,0.016,-0.3174,1,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,1,0,1,6,2,1,0,3,0,9,6,0,0,2,15,16,9,0,2,5,0,0,0,0,0,6,0,0,1,6,5,0,0,3,0,0,0,2,1,1,0,3,7,5,1,13,11,1,10,0,0,6,0,5,7,0,2,3,47,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1078864795638588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11093078090894128,0.16255422577287804,0.1305542695008593,0.141230878030297,0.2966300260279134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3428855235637864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32204995289128635,0.0,0.16575400695659476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13253053723403765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14350672989349578,0.0,0.0,0.1425831204236758,0.15518876052418806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1570870439883927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1676209427513621,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0871891144867262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1598804613160837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16575400695659476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16874230089025086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37926715100532205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3138150186795105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16489662752321635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2107981436757327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.130901699435026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14264413279043245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,poopsackmickflagenar,2019/03/09,"Keep Hope Alive Friends I've been meaning to make a post like this for a while now. The fist of it is that my life is going super great now. I was going to therapy for about a year before my diagnosis, and as things were coming to a head for my symptoms we finally realized what's was happening. My appointment with a psychiatrist wasnt for a couple of months so we did everything we could for a couple of weeks to get me on medication as my symptoms grew worse and worse. I honestly didnt think anything was wrong really, things weren't that unusual to me. Looking back o can definitely say I needed help and I'm glad I got it. So I started medication, 5mg of Zyprexa which quickly became 20mg. Academia had been really important to me over the past few years. I graduated high school when I was 15 and immediately started taking college level math courses, I wanted to be a math researcher. I was 18 and a semester away from getting my AA when I was diagnosed. I thought I could keep going as normal but I dropped all but one of my classes the following semester and ended up essentially taking a break from school for about a year. I thought my life was over. It took me a while to tell my girlfriend and she was very supportive when I did, but I always worried about getting too symptomatic around her and how that would affect our relationship. The meds I was on basically destroyed me. I gained 60lbs in just a couple of months and was sleeping 16-18 hours a day. Essentially spending no time with anyone and just going on my computer. I remember thinking, though I'm not religious, that this is what gods plan for me was. That I was struck down and wasnt going to be able to live the life of academia I had always strived for, that my girlfriend would leave me and I'd continue on this path of despair. Well that's not the case today. It's been a year and a half since my diagnosis, I'll be turning 20 in may. I'm on much better medications. I'm actually engaged to my girlfriend, I guess fiance now. I'm back in school at the top of my class in a Mathematical Proofs class. I actually just got a 100 on my last exam. What I'm trying to say here is that schizophrenia is a sole crushing disease, that we all here live with every day of our lives. Its difficult to parse what's real and what we can trust and that's makes it difficult to hope for a better future for ourselves. I was there, I'm still kind of there but I want to say that that is not the only option for us. We are human, and capable and strong individuals, and if you can find even a glimpse within yourself of hope keep that spirit alive. I love this community and I love my fellow schizos. We are strong! Keep up the fight!",3.9419444444444447,5.254734305555553,5.255370370370368,81.4291666666667,71.68518518518519,8.511111111111111,28.314814814814817,8.982922981607832,2.204792592592592,2135,80,430,42,40,713,244,540,0.065,0.775,0.16,0.9943,0,0,0,0,1,0,46.0,10,1,0,8,28,26,2,0,30,0,44,13,2,4,3,76,92,36,0,12,11,0,0,1,5,3,9,3,0,1,31,31,0,4,8,0,1,9,8,6,2,2,30,4,63,20,68,54,4,66,1,1,1,2,28,22,0,7,33,296,94,13,0.07344767460948519,0.0,0.14334867092884135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12222869809125995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05135632183044764,0.0,0.06044117805615035,0.06538400221372652,0.0,0.0,0.06900650804521233,0.112953456240612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0624985614158225,0.0,0.0,0.1299169990602445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06326866817450759,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11728398336799425,0.2438053648748921,0.0,0.09473534789719992,0.0,0.0,0.07454784366722281,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06505283927920119,0.0,0.0,0.04851149637804812,0.0,0.061882833630721966,0.0,0.0660100340056071,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08045833744071877,0.06712984397625271,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05674549120845386,0.0,0.11512013562743867,0.0,0.2087100304144801,0.0,0.11748562991594245,0.08097632055002671,0.08091089414640136,0.0,0.06494953609249737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07537850380396964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.049230428080203815,0.07760150078208032,0.0,0.2188503400663363,0.07233116458295623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2611346716388368,0.0,0.07648445067309705,0.0,0.059869657737274914,0.0,0.07777048240443045,0.0,0.0,0.1556347940474143,0.035882823828847984,0.0,0.19456692691185945,0.0,0.06167754840243014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1325787878474646,0.0,0.09805378626474323,0.0,0.0,0.08000604957336079,0.08158380889813878,0.22197241524536235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11725046628320313,0.0,0.053992491835725694,0.05446052007082754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07196312669939865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.049770045156146456,0.055860266219488336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0701141161923657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07034256946339112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08359953344792524,0.094104922180062,0.0,0.0,0.07885531550568957,0.08320189756407219,0.0,0.0,0.1752256164697849,0.0,0.2229989036670096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06075667542429317,0.0,0.07350071764169648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10397328424340037,0.0,0.05865540781936394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08334755075252129,0.0,0.15268051306317212,0.11044702126089234,0.0,0.0641965049459924,0.0,0.08399381694425974,0.0,0.097590742796252,0.09412460840528164,0.07216196738960662,0.11661849891012913,0.0428279297153439,0.0,0.06961980751861642,0.0,0.08160306898156403,0.04986614982785709,0.07988997894442232,0.0,0.0,0.08834850918156002,0.0,0.0,0.06060202361557394,0.08664268289661135,0.0,0.05891529427629216,0.0,0.06603828018504546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07458967880090007,0.14969891047490694,0.10435024145169076,0.08030350217634867,0.0,0.18919157748762175 schizophrenia,Kemento,2019/03/10,"Looking for a Friend or someone to swap stories Hey there Reddit, I'm a schizophrenic. I've had trouble making friends since I have a tendency of being too open about the voices in my head and the fact that I'm psychotic. It's never ended well. Please don't be mistaken, this is not a cry for help. Yes, I am in a rough space but so is everyone else dealing with Schizophrenia and mental illness in general. That's why I came here though, I just wanted to talk to someone who can relate to what I'm dealing with. Anyone want to chat? 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Hey guys and girls. I'm quit new to the privilege to hear voices pretty much my whole awaken time. It gets quite hard for me to stay concentrated, if voices get louder. I can't follow what people are saying to me and it gets really exhausting to listen to them as well and I want to be alone more often. My question for you: do you have any kind of trick or tip what you do when it gets really worse besides the medication, which I don't want to take in front of others? (nobody, except my mother and one friend, knows about my ""problem). I'm grateful for any help. I hope it's okay to post this here. Thank you. 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I want to go to a psychiatrist but I'm very afraid they'll mess me up even more. I've already had a bad experience with a therapist. Any advice on how I can manage myself till I find some balls to go to a therapist? Thank you,1.1247058823529414,3.088518333333333,3.5429019607843166,87.82905882352941,81.35294117647058,6.432941176470589,20.003921568627447,7.554174236665415,0.5793615686274505,378,10,83,6,10,131,69,102,0.142,0.759,0.099,-0.6592,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,1,1,4,4,7,0,2,6,0,8,1,1,2,1,13,19,8,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,3,3,0,0,2,1,0,5,1,5,0,0,4,2,11,2,14,14,3,12,0,1,0,0,3,3,0,2,4,53,14,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17022136927718431,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19222854951851087,0.1393037042081077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11845859520693645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14544557564361266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11505417580700204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17039616676638056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15921110349907452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0910097146195828,0.0,0.3959962041963879,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17877435816750298,0.0,0.19633046124749065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09573303402972697,0.0,0.19649958357178327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1948796835180933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18527785869232732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14409593060664205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16037538168556068,0.0,0.6067615749280351,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10157452403692203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14372914463387818,0.1027447431500787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,ZentoGen2,2019/03/10,"Question about going to a doctor Hello, recently i have been put on medical leave for planning my own death. I have been trying to go to a therapist for half a year now and every time i go it seems like they kick me out or i get the police called on me for what my thoughts are. In the past i have been diagnosed with mania, ptsd, behavioral disassociative disorder, but even though i say i am worried i have schizophrenia, no one seems to think so, despite me hearing voices, seeing hands, and hearing something completely different from what other people are saying, and even my memories, when i ask people did this happen they say no. So my question from all of this, should say i just have depression as im going to go to a new doctor since im mandated, i am constantly worried now that someone is going to put me in a psych ward for the rest of my life against my will. I have a career and i really need to keep it intact. I am also worried i just cant trust people here because they do not see that even though i hear thoughts of wanting to harm people, i have no intent on it. I dont get to pick my thoughts and if they knew me theyd know i havent harmed anyone. I dont really know what to do and would just please love some advice from anyone whos gone through this",4.8466153846153865,5.038481469230772,5.8151923076923095,82.3135576923077,68.92307692307692,8.807692307692307,28.55769230769231,8.660442795831766,1.9763846153846152,1002,32,205,15,16,332,136,260,0.136,0.802,0.062,-0.9553,1,0,1,0,0,0,20.0,0,0,5,1,16,6,0,0,9,0,27,7,1,2,1,35,57,16,1,5,7,0,1,1,0,3,5,8,0,0,12,8,0,1,11,0,0,9,8,3,0,2,9,11,37,3,32,44,4,24,0,1,2,1,19,6,0,7,10,150,49,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08661096487417892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07087963328719735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12394825564237792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0828597211613732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054029743768054576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09050401788485056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0929298243526212,0.09578058989245154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07633931708134876,0.08996044552177013,0.0,0.0926024312623789,0.10158088929690996,0.1814388917661746,0.0,0.0,0.2077540073986735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.175623422989058,0.0,0.07467697266228278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09261397942687398,0.0,0.3022324412992367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07837770907761822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2996868857601818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1914773078547827,0.0,0.0,0.07878092190928045,0.0,0.0,0.09742055868608987,0.0,0.0,0.09384935769271173,0.0,0.0,0.06260398120386446,0.043301518319324064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07999457955306462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08928824044039614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06572011218445302,0.0,0.08560212884197027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06005989195169902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08461005469436073,0.2457873469718345,0.0,0.0,0.09729221926429016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10360702228739208,0.17820092717474387,0.19857808358115966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1135609067768662,0.0,0.08751421596404801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28193750033987924,0.0,0.0,0.1412577627369036,0.16137597910110993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07331798373658598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07509829986670864,0.06823387423068293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10290953416766924,0.0,0.05679233154281209,0.17416258919775407,0.21109367357827385,0.05168250949237587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0601758660518005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05227793301020496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27003278993051577,0.0,0.06296221157786375,0.0,0.0,0.057076629458687474 schizophrenia,ryuzaki5,2019/03/10,"Aripiprozole I've been on abilify for a couple of months now, low dose of 5mg, thinking about going off it as I don't feel like its helping my mental state at all, in fact it's getting worse and I just feel like a brain-dead zombie with no recollection most days. Should I test it out and go cold turkey? 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I spend an hour with people and I'm exhausted,-1.6833333333333336,0.17411955555555814,0.5166666666666693,102.04500000000002,103.44444444444444,4.622222222222223,11.555555555555555,6.42735559955562,-0.9829111111111116,64,1,16,1,3,21,16,18,0.257,0.743,0.0,-0.5423,0,1,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,1,3,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,2,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,7,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5368247464299807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3342744816149559,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5104422600909325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4586982083422179,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35933885865341586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,dope_admin,2019/03/10,"Since my Paranoid Schizophrenia diagnosis, negative memories of social interactions keep reappearing in my mind I think back on bad social interactions way too much to the extent of it haunting me again and again. I do not know how to let go. How do you cope with bad memories of social interactions? I tend to think there is always things that I could have done better in almost all social interactions. Some memories I let go of because it is trivial and some my mind keeps reminding me of. I have a retentive memory when it comes to social interactions. I'm diagnosed with Paranoid Schizophrenia and have been since 2014 when I was 27 years old and I'm well medicated with 2 mg risperidone in the morning and 2 mg before bed. I hope you are doing well.",6.713120567375885,7.664897333333336,7.257588652482269,70.93333333333334,65.02836879432624,10.805673758865249,32.687943262411345,10.746095033038511,3.7127645390070914,608,24,105,16,9,200,80,141,0.124,0.807,0.069,-0.7845,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,2,0,1,11,6,0,0,3,0,15,2,0,2,1,25,27,9,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,5,9,0,2,3,0,0,3,2,2,2,0,3,0,15,4,16,21,5,15,0,0,0,0,12,4,0,4,7,76,20,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12702413110382715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10555117284542727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09754149368620137,0.2118325376805399,0.07732790945472975,0.0,0.10794185918051173,0.0,0.0,0.11219044166803273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10927191787973327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10128114095784987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12875228902950372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12981381879463946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14418603054025927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12599283382900933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22550408613127226,0.0,0.0,0.06971463878717553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2594298901384805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12779022239652754,0.0,0.0,0.2561690737463837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0932509455979473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13311002050655296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2098668626719719,0.0,0.0,0.6465490958512397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0842749495156195,0.16256350539504671,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10068935330059116,0.0,0.0,0.2281106821909253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08168864271705327 schizophrenia,zoncaster1,2019/03/10,"I have nowhere to go Hello fellow redditor who is reading this, I just want to thank you for taking your time reading this. I am a 23 year old male and I was diagnosed with "" Schizophrenia "". I have been suffering with voice in my head, hallucinations, extreme anxiety, sleep paralysis and paranoia. It all happened when I was in highschool, I didn't know I was sick until I graduated highschool and went to college. The symptoms progressed slowly, it went from voices in my head to paranoia and then full on anxiety. I tried to talk to my parents but they didn't seem to care or they only took me to the doctors if I was begging them to. I can't work properly anymore without having voices in my head, my parents don't even care about me anymore and they left me alone dealing with my illness. I can't turn to anyone, I used to have my grandma but she passed away months ago. I am now struggling to find a way out or at least a friend who can help me with my mental illness. Lately I have been meditating on good things in life to forget about schizophrenia, but every time I get a little better, the hallucination kicks in just to ruin the moment. This is my cry for help.",4.771926855895195,5.9081285152838445,5.450390283842797,81.4781181768559,69.52401746724891,7.6463973799126626,30.46970524017467,7.8658589789855275,2.0442072052401747,926,37,175,11,16,300,128,229,0.162,0.743,0.096,-0.9351,2,1,0,0,0,0,23.0,0,2,4,3,7,9,0,1,8,0,21,11,4,1,1,26,36,14,0,2,9,2,0,0,2,0,7,3,0,1,8,10,0,0,3,2,0,5,6,3,0,0,11,3,37,6,36,25,3,32,0,2,0,0,19,14,0,4,12,130,45,8,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10669076273676473,0.0,0.0,0.12465535839674095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1841482163608724,0.0,0.23872706137629196,0.08415763087447578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11308100006029778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10644752643431643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2454275178821375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13220842645692066,0.0,0.12408457804958455,0.0,0.12216158958087088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12319227245591872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0794958139492728,0.0,0.1014074311504388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11000570968977014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0929888654931004,0.0,0.06288247506210426,0.0,0.06840264673709143,0.10095120239329088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10643283804449187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3705683783165971,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16134785539527827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06614601694068559,0.0,0.13576990341433046,0.0,0.1307701253291786,0.0,0.08501293889328618,0.0,0.12063107884275395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12129330324037553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09606919956124872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12629625319124713,0.0,0.0,0.091538246850508,0.0,0.0,0.2672882789500611,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2407826255353023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10957007834287724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12044566362678402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12582508980494558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12509881745929566,0.09049479514076933,0.0967397976976144,0.0,0.1108101589107472,0.0,0.0,0.07996100008999897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14036430069900466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13372299091527426,0.08171568525096459,0.13091574939442532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10395130913315404,0.0,0.0,0.07099070440889982,0.09553516714760296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22314751928128276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11602153225964255,0.0,0.08762259762913695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07750708372052564 schizophrenia,yeet_m3ister,2019/03/11,"An interesting request. Hey all! I plan on creating a youtube series that can help others understand what mental illness is like as a way to help end stigma while also giving others information on the subject. I plan on doing schizophrenia as my first video due to how close it hits home for me. So I have an interesting request for someone who would not mind sharing their story. I wish to interview an individual over pm and ask questions about their views on schizophrenia and their experiances. If you feel like you can do such a thing it would be great! These questions may be intrusive so someone who is open would be greatly appreciated. Thanks for taking the time out of your day to read this and I hope to hear from you soon. Feel free to ask any questions below.",5.36191287878788,7.214249395833335,5.576565656565659,78.3977272727273,68.93055555555556,8.014141414141415,29.75757575757576,8.575989854853784,2.3213000000000013,619,24,110,10,11,196,97,144,0.03,0.7240000000000001,0.246,0.9869,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,4,3,3,7,10,0,0,8,0,14,1,0,1,1,24,26,11,0,6,2,0,2,2,0,4,1,1,1,0,11,6,0,0,7,2,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,4,14,11,21,18,1,17,0,0,1,0,24,9,0,6,9,82,25,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.115689241027468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09837774989958177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27048611310009035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09329751586602912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12813101845295286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14151097646149388,0.0,0.0,0.14629481746573486,0.10334932380256193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1230527119867556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13877668106795854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3189892566600085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1630489453343119,0.0,0.1939329615335683,0.0,0.14511165924983593,0.14368584713688393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1413528698547725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14578916747277418,0.0,0.14607128537752267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.486176635842084,0.0,0.14470501495508525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24514983814404154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1087707275812762,0.0,0.0,0.13318889323269806,0.0,0.0,0.09610957342227697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08435583002159598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15060226875192384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11482903104072675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16635860678648826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30829944229563044,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,rigbed,2019/03/11,Do you have trouble socializing ? I’m conducting a survey to learn about how Redditors socialize https://www.surveymonkey.com/r/2Z5ZZBJ,15.512941176470585,21.53142294117648,11.325000000000005,29.007500000000014,54.88235294117648,15.164705882352939,43.79411764705883,12.161744961471696,8.891494117647056,118,6,10,5,2,34,17,17,0.162,0.838,0.0,-0.4019,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,1,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,1,0,2,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,7,1,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,VagabondingCanada,2019/03/11,"It always seems to be going so well until it isnt Sometimes it just feels so real that I can't be sure one way or there other. I think I see what is truth but ""the real world"" and the people in it tell me otherwise, but how do they know? It's just so hard sometimes and I wish it wasnt. 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I don’t have voices or hallucinations. I am only interested in better sleep and thinking. 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I have a brother diagnosed with paranoid schizophrenia. I want to help him so much, but feel so helpless. He's was once given court ordered invega sustenna injectins, and basically turned into a zombie. Now he doesn't want any medication, and I understand why, but I think he'd be much better off on a very low dose of something. He had a horrible night last night felt sick and cried for hours on end until finally falling asleep this morning. I have schizo affective tendencies but nothing compared to what my brother dealing with. When I'm getting really worked up I find intense exercise to be very helpful. Does exercise help anyone else here deal with symptoms? Has anyone here once been resistant to taking medication, but eventually agreed to it and felt better? What makes you feel better in general? Thanks and my heart goes out to everyone dealing with this horrible fucking condition. 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If I look in the mirror, the voices that call me a scumbag and worthless get really loud. I avoid them as much as I can. Anyone have a way to cope? Or something similar?",0.3423684210526332,2.742406394736843,2.5897894736842098,90.03152631578949,90.31578947368422,5.145263157894737,20.757894736842104,6.742157984588678,0.6251936842105263,145,5,29,2,5,49,33,38,0.307,0.693,0.0,-0.9159,0,1,1,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,1,0,0,3,0,2,4,0,2,0,0,0,0,4,4,5,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,3,5,0,5,4,1,2,0,1,1,0,2,1,0,2,0,21,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29324355502872423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4282387002768416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21911121243087647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35217754921579786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3082960322400014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2686685975768437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41987727789268414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3228628551339966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3328880786391432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,lonerstoic,2019/03/11,How Do You Feel About People? Are you afraid of them or just not interested in them? I'm afraid of them. How about you?,-0.9722000000000008,1.1030828800000059,0.5355000000000025,102.35525000000004,100.2,4.1000000000000005,10.25,5.985473137389443,-1.5456,92,1,23,1,4,29,17,25,0.108,0.892,0.0,-0.4211,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,3,3,0,5,3,0,2,0,0,2,0,0,2,0,6,4,3,0,0,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,1,6,1,5,4,0,1,0,0,0,0,6,1,0,1,0,18,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5892617002037245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8079422310246048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,GenerallyConfusedBy,2019/03/11,"Paranoia Not really had that bad a time with it before, but it's started getting worse. Keep seeing laser points searching for me, now my phone is getting messages that dissappear after i've read them so i can't check what they said, not like an app or anything, actuall texts, had to switch it off, not sure if i can turn it back on, but need the damn thing Anyone had anything like this? Any ways of coping?",7.418703703703702,6.112318246913581,7.021080246913584,80.79236111111112,64.06172839506172,9.58148148148148,32.595679012345684,8.07648339933343,2.204627160493828,322,10,65,3,4,101,67,81,0.225,0.775,0.0,-0.9566,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,2,0,3,5,1,0,3,0,6,0,0,0,1,11,14,5,0,2,7,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,9,1,0,1,0,1,1,0,4,2,0,0,4,2,6,3,7,10,0,9,0,0,1,0,5,3,1,2,7,41,15,1,0.0,0.0,0.22459828776995688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15651343731741188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16092987642706744,0.0,0.37879625989554144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17697515229794855,0.19216998941127475,0.0,0.0,0.19584513467930603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24049319915543846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2045725284630189,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22488442313667173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1706571742829915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21757106918941524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23021749644412395,0.0,0.14744332302082402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21893031274272154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18340390660440756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.162905044487499,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2169185646421756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15290489679612693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1342053556614171,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2503427812009808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1826864953747873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2345478249350653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,_shambled_,2019/03/11,"New to this strange old world I'm currently in a treatment facility and have begun medication. I'm not totally sure of an exact diagnosis yet, I'm being helped and monitored by a team of medical professionals. My question is do you hear voices, and, if so, do you hear them all the time? I seem to hear the same three people, 2 voices I recognise and one I don't. However, recently I had a bout of paranoid psychosis thinking people were following me and tracking my movements. I nearly ended up hurting someone and then harming myself. Its really scared me, being out of control, the voices are not too bad, in fact, sometimes I like them, but I was terrified when I thought people were out to get me. Anyway, I hope you are all having a good day, take care, all 😀",4.423691646191647,5.877103912162162,6.0815970515970506,75.42458230958233,70.68918918918921,8.895331695331697,31.697788697788692,9.339509955726095,3.0762891891891893,601,27,107,13,11,206,98,148,0.11,0.785,0.105,0.3268,2,0,0,1,0,0,21.0,0,3,2,2,5,9,0,1,8,0,14,2,0,1,7,26,28,11,0,2,4,0,0,1,0,0,2,6,0,0,2,8,0,1,4,1,0,2,3,4,0,2,5,6,20,5,14,21,5,20,0,1,0,0,11,7,0,4,12,81,22,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13318132748146855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16262758370808705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17890018691545193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10286854518709657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1412754813378213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08333560201546045,0.0,0.0,0.1337865473221398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5393265076290708,0.0,0.10691389492851036,0.0,0.0,0.15842601940411002,0.0,0.0,0.17075508746756032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07792685552775758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3213721866201316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15405244402618992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16737531850638634,0.0,0.10808578324248096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33174532593948475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17868386872824965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10218399630634634,0.0,0.15749349973744292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15969390766270447,0.0,0.0,0.1452087951780962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13514940332892633,0.0,0.15775608118899598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1503330591989132,0.0,0.1199290935172903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1022053726288439,0.0,0.1266304034456664,0.09300956656586823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,phillipondeeznuts,2019/03/12,"I remember feeling extremely disorganized. I couldn’t get a hold of my life. I read that it’s a symptom of having schizophrenia, but I was wondering if any of y’all felt that way. The disorganization left me unable to care for myself. I think I’m considered recovered now and what I’m trying to say is my mind was so disorganized it bled through to my real life. I wish I could show y’all a picture of my room. 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I have a close online friend who's a mostly functioning schizophrenic, but sometimes suffers from conspiratorial delusions even while medicated such as believing that license plates have hidden messages in them. They'll be worried about them and how they're being watched. Debating them about this wouldn't work of course. Is the correct course of action just to ignore them when they start talking about it? 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I get really stiff and try to keep from looking around so I usually look straight ahead or at the ground. When I walk past people on the street it's even worse. The whole time I'm just dreading the moment when I have to pass them and don't wanna look at them, but then it feels awkward. I always feel like they are staring at me and talking about me too. It's the worst when I'm walking past girls my age because then I'm twice as nervous and probably seem creepy. 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The way I was informed of her death was through her father, who I am sure hated me. The only proof was her ""ashes"" and one of her exes consoling me over the phone. She always knew I lurked on the missed connection part of Craigslist and I found one saying ""sorry you thought I was dead"" and started putting things together. I can't remember things clearly and can't tell what is real and what I'm misremembering but I'm afraid to bring it up to my mom because she mourned her as much as I did, and I don't know if I should bring it up to my therapist because what if I'm right and he shoots my theory down? I don't know what would be worse, if I'm right or wrong. If I'm wrong it would mean my meds aren't working as well as they were and if I'm right it would mean she faked her death to get rid of me.",3.0993737920371096,3.333362447236187,4.314673366834171,91.393169694627,72.76884422110552,7.731117124081948,24.855431001159644,7.61054688173877,0.8579134905295707,713,19,173,8,13,235,100,199,0.187,0.804,0.008,-0.9871,0,0,0,1,0,0,16.0,0,1,1,1,2,10,1,1,6,0,20,0,0,0,3,34,42,21,6,9,7,3,0,0,0,4,0,1,0,0,12,9,0,0,10,0,0,4,5,8,1,2,11,1,33,2,21,26,2,17,0,2,0,0,21,10,0,6,2,114,45,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11874963098085027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17399447992334796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1564787329609797,0.0,0.0,0.07456226913266559,0.0,0.08110775777131105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12620167871873922,0.0,0.0,0.14090070728513046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15686396288677554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31091516187069856,0.15852328220714218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16714512364819964,0.0,0.0,0.10491134375728844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19341364470003328,0.108540565409665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15454555035971973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14346716957762273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16243998180689515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16166734632587187,0.3656313917571553,0.0,0.11349204466228295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15975684117050934,0.10101383168257533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13450642640640892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12473848435995145,0.0,0.0,0.16570216354833492,0.1896259205108995,0.09144548448023984,0.0,0.11329911818891218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11327987388312248,0.0,0.0,0.1283171877807131,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1038976233056108,0.0,0.14543794260050028,0.3041401780103793,0.31207110601117305,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Myzry,2019/03/12,"What do you guys think about the ward? Ive read that a couple people on here actually like it, i find that hard to believe. My experiences have always been bad and even though your drugged up on diaz or whatever it doesnt change the fact that you have no control whatsoever. Just the very thought of being an 'involuntary patient' pissed me off so much (i never knew you could become commited but if i did i surely wouldnt have said shit). its not for me, even though theyll probs try lock me away again soon anyway. Legit have PTSD and recurring visions and whatnot from it all.",4.7642699115044245,5.988163867256638,5.164767699115045,83.19193030973454,69.61946902654867,8.127876106194691,26.514380530973447,8.472884824447931,1.6589123893805309,459,14,91,7,8,146,90,113,0.067,0.863,0.07,0.3182,0,0,1,0,0,0,10.0,0,4,1,1,11,5,2,0,5,0,13,3,2,1,5,20,17,9,0,3,5,0,1,1,0,2,1,1,0,1,8,3,0,1,4,1,0,0,5,3,0,0,5,2,14,2,10,8,2,9,0,0,0,0,7,5,2,2,5,69,22,1,0.0,0.0,0.17897483602067002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1526059576008379,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1723131213107892,0.0,0.15313381363888295,0.0,0.20255416376587765,0.0,0.2066323349812012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19401601684466904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2057020184521295,0.14643234258905466,0.20293189055146046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21268921088287301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2422718551381177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1794032904123533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16762698586451555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18159776827572016,0.0,0.0,0.16429303113602808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08960142384458684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13482228066757948,0.0,0.1414516717589737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12714852219068593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21438824959413308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18345259478281628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17445821698879332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18826050629327176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1728551224595114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11751721341879355,0.36038496058034347,0.1456014665791903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12451857321862675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15132665226456432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,BitcoinCitadel,2019/03/12,Does anyone layer their clothes? Why is this a common behavior?,3.15727272727273,6.0808179090909125,3.7186363636363637,78.19795454545455,97.1818181818182,5.836363636363638,23.681818181818183,7.1686216300943375,2.080963636363637,51,2,7,1,2,16,11,11,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,4,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4861170043959182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6083954813100961,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6273318072269215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,InamortaBetwixt,2019/03/12,"Positivity Thread: Name three positive things/strengths I think it is important to focus on positive things in life. There's already so much focus on negative things. Let's write some positive things about ourselves. What are your strengths? What positive things happened to you recently? Doesn't matter what it is :) Much love to you all!",4.1241187739463605,7.4866702241379315,3.6060919540229897,80.68699233716474,88.13793103448276,8.095019157088123,28.858237547892717,8.515128840125781,3.297855938697319,275,13,44,8,9,82,39,58,0.061,0.5529999999999999,0.386,0.9783,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,3,0,1,3,2,0,0,0,0,5,2,0,0,1,6,8,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,9,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,4,2,7,7,4,4,0,0,0,1,6,3,0,1,1,33,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28523491347305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2285696495125141,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2643094262008137,0.18256938369664014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23328486155722855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3800194944463867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25521406412192604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6868804065001451,0.16562111177406116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Gandadalf,2019/03/12,Cutting of body parts Has anybody experienced wanting to cut off fingers when on invega? Because I have and maybe I should report it? I haven't had it before I was taking invega.,2.6297058823529404,5.448301088235297,4.73088235294118,76.28397058823529,82.23529411764707,6.929411764705884,26.14705882352941,8.07648339933343,2.3303176470588243,143,6,23,3,4,49,28,34,0.128,0.872,0.0,-0.4515,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,1,2,2,0,0,0,6,2,2,0,0,3,8,2,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,2,2,4,0,4,5,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,19,6,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26172875037598603,0.0,0.3653465885187976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4769128374170638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4313413911643569,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4649459429935707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32281896987403713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2532426979061559,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,AshamedPakiHenna,2019/03/13,I Miss the Prodrome I think withdrawing off my low dose of Abilify brings it back. What I especially miss during the prodrome is intensely enjoying cannabis.,5.573333333333334,9.004341888888893,5.838518518518517,69.23333333333335,74.55555555555556,11.007407407407408,38.62962962962963,10.504223727775694,5.754985185185183,129,8,19,5,3,41,22,27,0.191,0.6829999999999999,0.126,0.0258,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,0,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,5,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,0,0,4,1,2,5,0,4,0,3,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,12,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7682322233451504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6401712669389082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,BotheredbySheela,2019/03/13,"Potential early signs of Schizophrenia? [POTENTIAL TIGGER WARNING] I’m sorry, I know there are a lot of these and that they’re probably *really* annoying, but I wanted your input on this. So for a few weeks now (I think), I’ve had problems with my sense of time. A week could’ve gone by without me noticing it. I’ve also had what i on some level know are delusions, but that I just can’t quite get out of. Delusions such as believing that there’s a Virus in my PC, despite me having a great antivirus, me being spied on by I think the CIA, me being stupid, that my neighbors are spying on me, etc. I dunno if these are delusions, but I can’t get rid of them and I can’t quite comprehend that they might not be real. There have also been what I perceive to be hallucinations. These perceived hallucinations include doors opening in the corner of my eye (incredibly vividly), hearing my Dads voice when he’s at work (has happened twice, also very vivid), hearing my bird under my office chair (I thought I could’ve accidentally crushed him, scarred the crap out of me), seeing shadow people during the day in the corners of my eyes, at night seeing demons. These ‘demons’ are one I’ve named Sheela (sorry if that’s an actual name), who I can feel/see sitting behind my chair, peeking out at me and who has talked to me inside my head, telling me that everyone hates me. Another ‘demon’ is some sort of spider creature on the ceiling of my room, crawling around. And a third would be a kid without legs, on a pole, kinda like a scarecrow. These occur at night, but not when I’m falling asleep, when I’m working. I will post a drawing of these in a few days, which I will provide a link to in the comments. I’ve also had multiple occasions of not being able to move, and having very disorganized thoughts for several minutes at a time. It should also be mentioned that sentences are becoming increasingly hard to put together, sometimes I just mumble. My dad yelled at me because of it. Im 15. Im NOT looking for a diagnosis, I am fully aware that only a doctor can diagnose me, I’m just in a situation where professional help isn’t ideal until I move in the summer. Im sorry if I in any way come across as rude or naive.",4.393646273637373,5.569530498850579,5.534534668149799,80.3757063403782,70.44827586206897,7.911753800519095,29.204671857619577,8.259297600419973,2.0704349276974416,1737,66,330,25,31,577,227,435,0.106,0.861,0.033,-0.9825,0,0,0,0,0,0,64.0,0,1,2,5,19,9,5,0,25,0,35,8,6,0,0,54,57,25,0,8,17,2,1,1,1,5,2,4,3,1,24,12,0,0,9,0,0,7,10,6,0,3,7,12,47,3,56,38,7,57,3,0,7,0,20,32,1,11,16,231,71,5,0.09263594681748846,0.0,0.09039932119788917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3704046660074988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06299562045786439,0.09713686731513307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08246563262879822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056470013364168535,0.10230912522320562,0.0,0.1043689897147224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0797976656359671,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14792453135633546,0.0,0.0,0.11948504423321715,0.0,0.0,0.09402353604838927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0948168168888646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10331356790815156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08851761701039773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04683951810968977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09679691760886383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10213145839990197,0.0,0.0,0.08191766183579255,0.0,0.08298361279417706,0.0914588190029634,0.09507120690604703,0.0,0.2088148892777036,0.0,0.0620919224698095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30018815691351713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10182058746317732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.045257244392611404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07779086436730738,0.0,0.0,0.07875576929142168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09827210043606847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1969147022869064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17386512151415265,0.0,0.0,0.10546663943863206,0.0,0.0,0.0627725150006774,0.0704538118903359,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.064222101569772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08871963011031346,0.0,0.0998772185923447,0.08864009034644728,0.0,0.09312471277177173,0.0,0.19705946444896286,0.0,0.10543998806803248,0.059344959610268685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14763771199414505,0.0,0.0,0.10465225212982396,0.0,0.0,0.1041266855168796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09161932009752284,0.3110950747365212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07445726506459795,0.08096790061312018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11871474849011167,0.0,0.1470851884748292,0.10803353109565628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1528687154912184,0.0546390815475762,0.07353010273532089,0.14861393764563016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1785954940211755,0.0,0.13488014514386665,0.0,0.0,0.06580591876398591,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,lightedpathway2,2019/03/13,"Solutions we might find for our lives while in the ""eye of the hurricane"" Putting one's life together is difficult. There are many worries that people like us have about our fates, and sometimes it feels as if all the cards are stacked against you. However, I remember a moment when I was going insane for the first time, and I was visiting my mother's house. One day when lying in bed, there was something of an ""eye of the hurricane"" effect. I saw how my life could fit together. I didn't do it. I went back and embarked on a little adventure, being evicted from my student housing and walking the streets, eventually ending up court committed to live in a group home. That moment of that ""eye of hurricane"" was important, though. I'm a very complex person. And therefore putting the pieces of my future together can be a very complex affair. 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Laing Is anyone here familiar with R.D. Laing's work on schizophrenia? I'm thinking of 'The Divided Self' in particular. For me, reading that book was at the same time encouraging and terrifying. Anyway I'm wondering how other people might feel about it",5.8221739130434775,8.469187086956524,6.338478260869567,70.10163043478265,69.43478260869566,9.817391304347826,31.06521739130435,10.125756701596842,3.763452173913043,210,9,33,6,4,68,41,46,0.077,0.852,0.071,-0.0772,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,1,4,1,0,0,2,0,3,0,0,1,0,8,8,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,3,2,0,0,3,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,1,7,6,1,4,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,2,1,21,4,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2662655465229757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19254488531887048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4039706442793857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26400009395336843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3809049560640548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3972594374133485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2440024850400676,0.0,0.0,0.2220486535183052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4129634227668119,0.2772283226494793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,SirTEPL,2019/03/13,"Visual snow (?) and hallucinations Ever since a kid I have had problems with white dots in the dark. &#x200B; I did my best to look up what they might be called and the only thing I can find is ""Visual snow"" or ""Visual static"" When in dark areas I see these white dots floating around me. My mind often turns them into things. People, objects, creatures and sometimes even words. I don't think they ever made sense, but they do pop up. &#x200B; When I was a kid it got so bad I went to the hospital. Was told there was nothing wrong with me. I had just gotten over my fear of the dark, and that happened. &#x200B; Now I find myself often getting these hallucinations as an adult. Almost 24 now and find myself seeing them so bad I jump out of my bed to turn the lights on. I play and love horror games. I have never had nightmares or hallucinations based on these games. These dots are something else. I can never describe them other than being something I absolutely am terrified of. &#x200B; I would list my medication, however I've had these since I was a kid and am not on anything I was on back then. I still see them, I always see them forming things that terrify me. But I'm just stronger now, I am able to push through it. Not always, but more often. &#x200B; Could anyone shed some light as to what this might be? As I said, I think the dots are this ""Visual snow"" but it's the hallucinations it causes is my main worry.",3.158817204301073,5.27815738351255,3.8613247311827976,87.25598709677423,75.52329749103944,5.897691756272402,22.27111111111111,6.742157984588678,0.5353964444444439,1126,31,221,10,25,357,143,279,0.13,0.8079999999999999,0.062,-0.9751,1,0,2,0,0,0,58.0,0,0,8,1,20,8,0,1,11,0,30,2,0,2,4,45,49,21,0,3,10,0,0,0,0,3,1,1,1,4,19,12,0,0,5,3,0,3,5,5,0,0,16,10,41,3,27,26,5,28,0,0,7,1,18,13,0,9,12,169,60,0,0.07477014568962258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07487150038298926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12442950185050736,0.40506710808034574,0.4542695550658285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05228102435866388,0.0,0.061529459073264674,0.06656128185519967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05749362674966357,0.12485989699952588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07846665494985303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07634867855255356,0.0,0.0,0.07680953600778212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059697877231035625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0624608624281401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04938497605395705,0.13526775489577966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08413720123869503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2050156757547438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03906431509887042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0598005158907894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06611899290113506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06278809103689298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06748297570627453,0.07074931971801103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07532305556401184,0.0,0.15863861749708788,0.07549653257393744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11533469157821355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07174397135117358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056866065068762024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05183620458185953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07154493149622518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07112353074190887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23832850236493214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12370127433564375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11512342218136612,0.07394958595471153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0597115349322672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14902188726119134,0.09581938054350213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07144607841063452,0.0,0.0,0.1626568954449627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06931267414431498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07593271237705346,0.0,0.05311456623762604,0.08174941669749072,0.4542695550658285,0.0 schizophrenia,Lastal,2019/03/13,"Screaming in your sleep? Hello everyone. &#x200B; Long time lurker, first time poster. I've always been told I talk in my sleep, that's nothing new. But recently my girlfriend refuses to sleep in the same bed as me. Because apparently I scream and cry in my sleep. We already sleep in separate beds because of our different sleep cycles, but every so often we'd sleep in bed together just to be close. But we don't do that anymore, because I just won't stop screaming in my sleep. Has anyone else had this happen to them? Or am I just a weirdo?",2.58365351629503,5.0919842264150965,3.6417667238421965,86.11635506003431,79.37735849056604,6.496054888507719,25.674099485420236,7.686295010490155,1.5953509433962263,432,17,81,7,11,139,70,106,0.095,0.857,0.049,-0.5903,2,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,4,1,1,1,5,3,0,0,2,0,9,8,8,0,0,15,11,7,0,0,7,0,0,0,1,1,0,3,3,0,3,4,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,1,3,3,15,0,12,5,1,15,0,0,0,0,11,8,0,2,7,52,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11674381341660996,0.0,0.08802720070639962,0.11462530378169825,0.12854854099353125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10491697687804337,0.07397204289840223,0.10839613733593297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19346898444452545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11620725645174608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11052984944945077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08837542209021207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08913410191484022,0.10108853913911972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08998639818760408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09355128441494273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09362235894218504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10217431966388743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10151002570421674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10445657833524637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8469451151747375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08844662989889714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08503139157926372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12337602621202208,0.0,0.0,0.10108853913911972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12854854099353125,0.0 schizophrenia,ToyboxOfThoughts,2019/03/13,What is the most surreal visual hallucination you've had? I hallucinated that my teachers head turned into a scribbly spider thing once.,7.460434782608697,10.514352652173915,8.390652173913043,55.38858695652178,65.95652173913044,9.817391304347826,33.23913043478261,10.125756701596842,4.258669565217392,113,5,15,3,2,38,23,23,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,2,1,1,0,0,2,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,1,2,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,11,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5256517077951858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5454625218758524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3402743356995966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5571124624212227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,notsureyou,2019/03/13,"When did you find out you were schizophrenic? Were you self aware enough to know what was happening, did you have to hear a voice/see something before you sought help? Or is there a phase before the delusions/hallucinations where you can tell something is not quite right. I am not sure if something is happening.",4.143157894736846,7.079876210526322,3.2272807017543883,88.84513157894737,76.36842105263158,6.60701754385965,23.535087719298247,7.793537801064563,1.1953298245614032,252,8,47,4,6,73,41,57,0.036000000000000004,0.909,0.056,0.2728,0,0,3,0,0,0,7.0,0,6,0,1,3,1,0,0,3,0,11,1,0,0,1,8,15,3,0,1,4,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,1,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,5,1,7,1,3,10,1,4,0,0,0,0,10,3,0,2,1,33,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3816544819410389,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2317187052274175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2049679644230442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3966216339727997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2527553299470061,0.0,0.15031556806305166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12324646134513613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23852623789550906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.191515307750206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2339502484807137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5179348377521571,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21136073292672686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19601158236728056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,candypaintfence,2019/03/13,"I feel like y'all will appreciate the helicopter story... For a long time I had a paranoia-founded fear of helicopters. Especially with search lights. Those kind still get to me. With time, I worked through it, and I'm cautious of them now, but not as afraid as i used to be. The very first time I had moved into an apartment after couch surfing for years, on a beautiful sunny day, I was sitting on my floor just behind the balcony, looking out over the creek while I ate breakfast. I saw a black unmarked helicopter - the worst kind - in the distance. I stared at it. It was coming in my direction. Talked myself down from mounting fear as it came toward me with alarming speed and silence. It got about three hundred feet from my apartment (puzzlingly, still silent!) before I got the idea to duck and cover behind the wall lest I be shot at, but just as I abandoned my breakfast and touched the wall, the helicopter turned to the side and then I noticed it was a fucking balloon. And had been the entire time. It truly made me afraid for my life but that's not a new feeling. It was funny then, and I think it's funny now too. 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I ask because these have happened, but I’m not sure if I was just making it up or if this is a thing Schizophrenics have had before",7.012857142857143,5.1897102857142885,7.209523809523812,80.77714285714288,65.19047619047619,8.4,32.904761904761905,3.1291,1.6888190476190474,160,5,32,0,2,52,35,42,0.064,0.936,0.0,-0.3491,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,1,0,0,2,1,0,0,2,0,5,2,1,1,2,11,11,5,0,2,7,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,4,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,2,3,1,4,8,0,4,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,4,1,26,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2833477645356381,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.378837388867524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2470257775838737,0.0,0.3448227410508895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36655570958722217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20489756763616832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35834548120860754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2704956288935235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3819265368385133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2692182561475451,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,bringbackzootycoon,2019/03/14,"Progress post I don't post my own threads often, but I thought I'd do so here. I've put off sharing this for a variety of reasons. One, part of me doesn't like that I desire validation and appreciation from others, even though in reality that's a basic human component. We validate and support each other. I learned at a young age that vulnerability wasn't safe and so I've never really felt comfortable embracing this from other people. On the other hand, I don't want to make people feel bad. Without dismissing my own difficulties, I recognize that my experiences are relatively mild and that I was very fortunate to have caught things early. I've managed to utilize some of my strengths to manage symptoms and continue with my goals, though I know this is an extremely difficult thing to do. I don't share this to brag, but more so because a lot of people who know about my diagnosis (schizoaffective) don't truly know how dark the path I was on truly was. At one point all I could do was smoke weed and take medicine. I'd coast in school and get good grades because I was smart enough to wing it, but I didn't retain anything and frankly I'd see homeless people near my university and recognize that as soon as I hit the real world I was on the fast track to that. I seriously couldn't envision my life going anywhere; it was objective fact that I was going down that path because literally everything about my life centered around weed and dysregulated emotions from psychosis. I've sought trauma and general therapy, and I'm in my last semester of college. I'll be graduating with an engineering degree, and assuming I don't royally fuck up I'll be graduating Cum Laude. I have a job lined up that pays well. I am a student manager at my current job. I have a relationship, though my paranoia makes that a very difficult albeit worthwhile endeavor for me. I don't do a good job of giving myself credit where it's due. I constantly think of what could go wrong to fuck it up. Life is chaos waiting around a corner and I was a wrong turn away from a very dark place. I almost killed myself a few times because I was terrified of what was happening in my head, and sometimes I still have those feelings. But lately I've found it a bit easier to step back and appreciate these accomplishments. Psychosis sucks. I don't wish it upon anyone. Those of us who struggle with it persevere through circumstances most couldn't fathom, though to be fair I think I'd struggle living in anyone else's shoes regardless of if they were psychotic or not. It put me against a wall and essentially told me adapt or get left behind. My perspective on life has become cynical to most (realistic to me), but at the same time for once I feel proud for what I've overcome. 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Has anyone with Schizophrenia or basically Schizoaffective disorder been approved for SSI or SSDI on their first try? I've been told that people with schizophrenia that apply for disability are usually denied on their first try. I've been diagnosed with Schizoaffective disorder (major depressive type) 7 years ago and I've been suffering for the last 7 years without a solid treatment plan because none of the medicines work that well. And because of that, I have like 20 W's on my college transcripts and poor work history that shows that I can't stay for any longer than 3-6 months. In addition, I have been hospitalized somewhat recently because I was paranoid during work that customers were going to stab and kill me, and I had no choice to burn bridges with that employer because I did a no call no show for many days because I was confined in a psychiatric ward with no access to a phone. I have a lot of documentations (psychiatrist and psychologist statements and hospitalization records) to provide to SSA that will make my case solid for submission but I'm not sure if their protocol is to just basically deny all cases like this until a judge hears this case. 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At this point I'm more mental illness than man and because of that no one likes me and would rather hang out with the popular and talented and skilled people, all of which I am not, because I am garbage and no one likes garbage so naturally they wouldn't like me. Like, why'd people hang out with me when there are much more wonderful people around like, why choose me when they can choose them? So making friends is impossible because I talk and people don't like me and would rather listen and talk to someone else that is not me. People tell me to stop being negative, so I stop being negative, then they tell me I am faking it, and to stop faking it, so when I stop faking it, they get angry that I'm being negative again and leave me behind. So yeah, I'm friendless and don't have friends so yeah, that's kinda how it is because I don't have friends because it's impossible to make them because I am garbage and garbage shouldn't be touched obviously. And I have nothing good about me, because nothing about me is good at all, like everything I do may be ""decent"" but it's never ""good enough"" and that's pretty much how I am, pure garbage that is never good enough for anything, so yeah.",5.476666666666668,5.884677685950416,5.622661157024794,83.48611294765844,67.59504132231405,8.436804407713499,31.009366391184567,8.238735603445708,2.076501597796144,968,36,195,12,15,306,95,242,0.183,0.7020000000000001,0.115,-0.8069,0,0,0,0,0,0,26.0,0,0,6,1,19,20,0,0,1,3,30,1,0,5,6,48,39,28,0,6,5,0,1,7,4,5,1,1,0,1,14,19,0,4,3,0,0,2,14,3,0,2,0,2,28,17,18,29,8,19,0,0,0,0,16,6,0,3,18,142,42,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07848646306311242,0.08490501409318432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4069830048447219,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0796745533878176,0.0,0.0,0.1970981628777192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08571795359386912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29474957589959033,0.0,0.049830113416769864,0.0,0.0,0.3199880322680567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10098959502353123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3261718603662337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1909930064578624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09611674876336072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14022492123542812,0.0,0.147119967358566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18303201888220705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12925872514160347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3306091437762895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0901613109392684,0.0,0.0,0.09703185538017134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08081192111433701,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3189550021569946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15331950870020936,0.1667259565835625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08606216050713834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1034313901691091,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13550499236987634,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,QuafWaff,2019/03/14,"Where do your hallucinations come from? Do yours come from things you experienced before or like stories you've heard? Kevin comes from a drawing I made as a kid. Then there was the woman who eats dogs in the story with the little girl. Is it normal for it to come from things you've seen in the real world? I met a group of people that are okay with me. I like that a lot. I haven't taken my medicine in months. Please don't call the police. The police tried to kill my brothers. My moms friends son died to them why do they hate me. Why do they hate us? Please help me.",0.8707496740547569,3.113594771186442,1.75,98.68294002607566,84.33898305084746,4.3087353324641455,15.009126466753585,5.369823440869387,-1.1142876140808342,445,7,103,2,13,138,76,118,0.122,0.737,0.142,-0.5204,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,1,3,3,0,2,7,3,0,10,1,9,1,0,1,0,11,20,3,2,1,1,3,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,3,7,6,1,0,0,0,0,4,2,3,0,0,6,3,17,4,15,14,1,12,0,0,1,0,20,6,0,2,4,63,24,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13129313318867974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15755178927796135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5316437043751234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16013318226034867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15788164647635647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11920743720034535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30466746705553616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1034202548737954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1707038450170529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15076085789565594,0.15464347994034278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1311755444013014,0.0,0.14599705093911386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1807076856950436,0.12315628342013415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1511757097184321,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10696827942645874,0.0,0.0,0.3387377397413536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17562075719571965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20501262911767895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1047557400144894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18559711328106254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2784533158405809,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,UndercoverSchizo,2019/03/14,"Traveling alone to America tomorrow. I am a bit scared and paranoid. Hello everyone! As the title said, I am traveling to America tomorrow. I am going there because I need to present my bachelor project at a conference. I didn't have to pay for the trip myself and I am so happy to be given this opportunity, but I am also a bit scared. For some reason I keep having thoughts that something bad is going to happen. I keep thinking that the American government will for some reason think I'm a terrorist or something and that they will lock me up in some CIA facility forever. I haven't done anything illegal and I don't plan to, but for some reason I am just scared of the American police. Anyways, I am going to Phoenix, Arizona. Does anyone have any tips for me while I'm there? Only been to America once when I was 14, and then I was in Boston and New York. Hope all of you beautiful people are having a good time :)",3.417311233885819,5.23413010497238,5.414342541436465,77.73650460405156,73.9171270718232,9.025561694290976,29.19373848987109,9.558583805096642,2.974259373848988,723,31,134,19,15,250,103,181,0.124,0.735,0.142,0.5302,0,1,2,0,0,0,20.0,0,1,1,2,7,8,0,3,9,0,23,0,0,3,1,25,38,15,0,2,4,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,4,6,0,2,6,2,1,6,3,4,0,0,8,1,21,4,21,27,7,18,0,0,0,0,4,4,0,6,8,101,25,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14694874672520206,0.0,0.11346436170473455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09648579677045156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09920839780514172,0.0,0.11675821442592008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11846698188675807,0.08649100038191065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30980055504179943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1241634017877394,0.14519630919955898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13557597724086987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2419073678014899,0.1190053348920792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12546730731996672,0.15103786102838426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14092255067625292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2522255436262711,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10520498250827458,0.0,0.13703218342376758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15110153398881332,0.0,0.107908964565265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09836430842643988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.43764029261067056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13496391124134907,0.0,0.4261510744245051,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2184580429431764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18182672086123136,0.0,0.11263982718146436,0.08273353964869515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Party_End,2019/03/14,"A rant I could have trust issues from abuse but I want to know if it could be any broader, for my own closure and so I can help myself better when with someone. Through my childhood I couldn't trust my mother, teachers, friends cause they told the adults everything, and my reality- I've had such tramatic hallucinations that two separate types caused me to develop severe ptsd, and for a long time I felt like I world was a horrible, dishonest place so I pushed everyone away (making me very lonely.) I'm wondering what anxiety could be coming from what, but I know that I feel like a small child compared to everyone else, whom I see as big, bright, and probably better than me in every way, wanting nothing to do with me. I feel so scared of what other people think of me that I don't even focus on how they feel, so of course most people are going to be upset, and not understand when all I can do is cry and lie to ""protect myself"" in my head. I don't know if this makes any since or probably needs more explaining. Tldr: how much is my anxiety general from abuse or from ""different"" trauma, and is anyone else dealing with this complex of an issue too or am I crazy? 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If anyone has coping methods for anything similar, ideas would be very much appreciated *Possible Trigger Warning* Recently I have come under a lot of stress and stress always makes the voices worse. I have been clean for almost 3 years and my voices have been so loud and irritating lately because of the stress and as soon as i think about smashing my skull onto something or slicing my arm open as far as I can my voices go silent. They used to pressure me into it and encourage me but the silence is proving to be more of a trigger. The silence is so glorious i continue to think about horrendous things that i dont want to do but i do. Its like my voices have gotten smarter and have figured out how to manipulate me. Its scary because I only just got everything under control about a year ago. .",3.8279204339963835,6.064512696202534,4.943074141048825,79.72430379746838,73.9367088607595,7.299095840867992,29.640144665461122,8.192908349453996,2.3596296564195307,658,29,115,11,14,216,97,158,0.128,0.742,0.13,0.4979,0,0,2,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,1,1,8,6,0,4,8,0,18,2,2,7,1,31,27,17,0,3,5,0,0,1,0,1,0,5,1,0,6,10,0,1,5,0,1,2,1,4,0,0,4,5,17,2,22,20,3,16,0,0,0,0,2,7,0,4,8,89,23,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1456153483371737,0.0,0.16449256873080573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13668571005380006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11486132839122752,0.0,0.13518012493145926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20027480369686101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1415039670492769,0.0,0.0,0.1842426527355628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19252309074250354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14763518731084418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09335836558204594,0.0,0.13138163947544204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1854407137777392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18530359397805224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08025397194559852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13965638836596184,0.0,0.0,0.10965142890627197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12075727221818262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12493465562898005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18518962193393407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16219670130332267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1264629888463968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5645118209883967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1091336174081143,0.2105150285378316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14187644460726498,0.0,0.13553986515355346,0.09689063875856163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16740505455818178,0.11669261858995232,0.0,0.0,0.21156885010577756 schizophrenia,CSMan13,2019/03/14,25mg/ 2 week risperidone constra tablet equivalent What is the equivalent tablet wise to a 25mg per two week of risperidone injection ,7.255652173913043,10.258706956521742,5.312391304347828,77.45815217391308,66.39130434782608,9.817391304347826,37.58695652173913,10.125756701596842,4.538234782608695,112,6,17,3,2,32,19,23,0.0,0.86,0.14,0.4767,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,7,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.520077785544626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.854118900963442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,paigeeb13,2019/03/14,Just wondering Does anyone else wake up and know they’re going to have a rough day? This morning I woke up to the voices again. I hope today isn’t as bad as what I think it is..,1.6153846153846168,2.57811258974359,3.3979487179487187,93.85538461538464,76.94871794871794,6.2256410256410275,18.128205128205128,6.42735559955562,-0.30704102564102564,137,2,33,1,3,46,33,39,0.094,0.8290000000000001,0.078,-0.1531,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,2,0,3,1,1,0,0,6,9,3,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,3,1,0,0,3,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,1,2,3,1,6,8,0,6,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,2,3,20,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2439992545880665,0.3575482800511464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29136500450739905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22504877146744506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30537513107339864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29150928200717924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19832063524453525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3465936158669892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.191777960712436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22359792787639168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3307709846353499,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3784296115026807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,dissociative-daniel,2019/03/14,Books about schizophrenia? I looked in the resources thing here on the sub but I don’t think I saw anything about books. I’m looking for a book that has characters and such (not nonfiction). Please tell me what you recommend! Thanks.,2.5268217054263538,5.504512418604653,1.7491860465116282,95.28641472868219,87.6046511627907,5.657364341085271,23.44573643410853,7.1686216300943375,1.0469875968992248,186,7,36,3,6,53,37,43,0.0,0.767,0.233,0.8845,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,1,0,0,4,1,0,0,3,0,2,0,0,0,0,4,8,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,1,3,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,3,5,1,5,7,0,2,0,0,3,0,2,2,0,0,0,23,8,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3074011864349753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6273786238148394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4100475457800857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3265006146479094,0.34391617907045896,0.0,0.0,0.2481711234414441,0.23935681953147145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,JustASkull999,2019/03/14,"I finally told my mom I needed help. It was not easy. We talked about it and she said she would make an appointment for me soon. I told her pretty much everything. The faceless man that would watch me from the woods, the thoughts I get that belong to other people, how I can't open my window or curtain because I was terrified something would try to come in, how I'm scared of things happening knowing it won't even. It was hard for me to even admit all of the things and thoughts I had because just saying this stuff feels ridiculous. Has anyone ever felt the same? I don't want to be alone on this.",3.7040404040404016,4.9833613140495885,4.0863911845730065,89.71120293847568,72.22314049586777,7.03067033976125,25.014692378328746,7.3871296695380915,0.9977044995408628,473,14,99,5,9,148,82,121,0.133,0.804,0.063,-0.7736,0,1,1,0,0,0,11.0,1,0,0,0,8,2,1,1,6,0,12,0,0,3,2,25,28,5,0,5,3,1,3,0,0,4,0,2,2,1,12,5,0,0,6,0,0,1,4,2,0,0,10,6,17,0,12,13,3,7,0,0,1,0,13,3,0,1,3,73,29,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1751942683280021,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11827758353031488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20623146323529767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14571263903143256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22345146071708624,0.15301099562323706,0.0,0.0,0.15202621668883382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08553019365076765,0.0,0.1624159785919462,0.18530177762288408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08837686041619228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1495838079252998,0.0,0.15153026244857953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11338148570517888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09296353714577277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11291272896919145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1981130863335362,0.0,0.0,0.12434888705997167,0.1254267923051052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11727124884287693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17209213768258447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1609057865925876,0.13451938502060268,0.16935434370780494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13022430557154666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1936427818354398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13596092694139333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22475903299651395,0.0,0.0,0.26858142784371025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3232709997858663,0.0,0.114845602087157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0997724019004693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3604900222544803,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Zafkiel722,2019/03/15,"Do you guys think I could have schizophrenia? I have yet to see a doctor about this, but for a while now I’ve felt like something is wrong with my mind. Initially I thought it could be ADHD, since I had symptoms like concentration issues and felt like I constantly had to be doing something. There was more to it than this, but I felt like that could have been an explanation. Somewhat recently however, I began realizing certain things that I was doing weren’t exactly normal. Things like being irrationally paranoid or afraid of numerous things, being completely inexpressive with emotion, having extremely disorganized thoughts, etc. It reminded me of someone awhile ago asking me if I was schizophrenic, which, at the time I had written off, but now I wanted to look into it. So I did, and now I think it’s a very real possibility for me, especially since it also covered some of the symptoms that made me think it could have been ADHD, but I’m still unsure. It was mainly the fact that the more I actually thought about the different common symptoms, the more examples I remembered where I acted that way. The main thing I have not experienced, however, is actual hallucinations. I know enough to know that not all cases of schizophrenia necessarily have hallucinations, but I’m also only 16 now. I kind of just needed somewhere to ask about this to see what people thought. I haven’t talked about every reason that I think I may have schizophrenia here, but I would be happy to answer questions if it would help you guys understand better. If necessary, I could leave a list of symptoms that I relate to in the comments or something, but for now I just wanted to ask about this. Side note: I do plan to ask my parents to see a doctor soon hopefully, but before that I wanted to confirm or deny this in my own mind. 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schizophrenia,s1dv1shuss,2019/03/15,"There re a ton of people in my house Im too youg i dont want my mind to break I dont kniw for sure if i have this and i dont know what else it could be but regardless i thought yall could maybe tell me what helps u in these kinds of situations if u have experienced them or experienced stuff similar Otherwise im sorry this is mostly a vent and im sorry if this is disturbing Since i was thirteen these 30 or 40 so people have showed iup in my house and more tend to show up every once in a while They usually stay in my house and theres almost always people everywhere in all of the rooms at the same time and sometimes they come w me wherever i may go so theyre always there But they never acklnowledge that i exist so im forced to watch their lives and the things they do and i have no control and theres nothing i can do Theyre horrific people who do horrific things to eachother most of them are so abusive and others are severely mentally ill to the point they cant function and the rest are helpless and dont deserve whats being done to them It breaks my heart and fucks me up in the head every god damn fucking day Everything i witness them do is heinous Ive been through really really bad things and im reliving eveything as this is happening Its like these people are some cruel personifications or metaphors or some wickwack pstchological shit where my brain is telling me how messed my life is Sometimes i even see some of these god cursing creatures that i cant begin to describe and ive never felt so much fear in my life I cant forget a single thing that these people have done i can recall every single moment nd its taking over my mind My mother loves me to desth and would do anything for me but she so fragile that her heart eouldnt make it through this and we cant afford meds or treatment or therapy or nothing and god forbid that i let myself admit that i need help from anybody anyway Thankyou",2.1661785476349067,4.321457906329119,3.550023317788142,88.1248484343771,78.79746835443036,6.487008660892737,23.30612924716856,7.573540080772713,1.0565949367088607,1543,51,315,23,38,505,197,395,0.18600000000000005,0.745,0.069,-0.9953,2,0,0,0,1,0,0.0,1,1,10,1,15,15,5,2,10,0,43,11,5,3,4,61,60,39,0,9,13,1,2,1,0,2,3,0,1,0,31,19,0,2,4,2,0,2,11,11,0,0,6,6,50,4,31,47,13,28,0,1,2,3,22,15,4,17,9,225,81,0,0.0,0.08881805394550381,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07506390365018635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1247492582674254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061687576232584425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06259037971859596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08368270548057152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06457337392602122,0.0,0.0,0.08407658072280433,0.11970257525677225,0.0,0.0,0.048344474605539686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15342489496737802,0.3514209753166782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06262137308896094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.049511884566470175,0.0,0.1894768834686066,0.0,0.06737127130535837,0.0,0.0,0.08435341531652621,0.0,0.0,0.07197555261432075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1386028555795749,0.0,0.0,0.04260279605979039,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0662889041516494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07693293461927103,0.0,0.0,0.17766134559795566,0.1004912836854049,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2594892488900852,0.0,0.0,0.4048606758533772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0780616879624819,0.04119731332506174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07665401883920699,0.10589616252817227,0.03662278766846793,0.0,0.06619307411615262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06765639209221112,0.0,0.0500379096638437,0.0,0.07530969441220807,0.0,0.0832662034825514,0.0,0.0755443554871391,0.0,0.15138108407243156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05510590731718209,0.05558358707724609,0.11563107633566205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1438566751150556,0.0,0.0,0.07983239074548665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.311816473271164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07086359258313747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09604552306129786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059735238532360964,0.0,0.0,0.08468604883516119,0.07694771190573321,0.062009579684112276,0.08426075306804552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14827924020971825,0.16782828944017344,0.0,0.07989982548856224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08581388575933659,0.0,0.0,0.07065106976672395,0.0,0.056362311778268476,0.0,0.1310406884869914,0.0,0.08572590992520404,0.0,0.19920645425691666,0.0,0.0,0.05951168369819786,0.043711113253693534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08256037018773517,0.0,0.04421469996179599,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053251058975551685,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,bluerose1986,2019/03/15,"My delusion I used to have heavy delusion of people hating me in my life friends, family, everyone so I isolated myself for over 10 years (from age 19 - 32) I had a new boyfriend recently since being without one all that time but he broke up with me so now I’m back to isolating myself. I don’t think I will ever trust another person for a really long time again. ""Why is it like this?"" I asked my psychiatrist, he said he didn't know and diagnosed me with simple schizophrenia",3.234893617021278,5.1379820106382965,4.683989361702128,82.40875,74.63829787234042,8.529787234042553,25.57978723404256,9.188382445141503,2.1965148936170213,375,13,73,9,8,125,74,94,0.083,0.8140000000000001,0.103,0.4413,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,0,6,5,1,0,2,0,7,2,0,1,2,10,14,4,0,0,2,0,0,1,1,1,2,1,0,1,3,3,0,0,2,0,0,0,3,2,0,1,3,1,14,3,12,9,1,14,0,1,0,0,7,3,0,0,12,48,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2350978022032861,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20960079519274905,0.0,0.0,0.17239930033489773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22756268851707184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20280566403859104,0.0,0.21423685764853415,0.0,0.0,0.2113599007529252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1732197191143609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22135537138487732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12321684337410765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1583621578572114,0.109534916912256,0.0,0.0,0.19841378811314694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2165379514194322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1519266651615905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15543506136497978,0.19576658420222096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1436310431028629,0.0,0.22137474033988705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21326967231762653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1854641492600309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14366108991654225,0.0,0.0,0.26147071062577193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19364056625630185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20230954665732928,0.0,0.0,0.21612498574600014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1443802459600808 schizophrenia,JoR2016,2019/03/15,"False memories or delusional? Should we be concerned that this is the start of psychosis? For the past month, my sister has been having false memories about things that occurred in her past. From her childhood to even a few years ago. She firmly believes that all of these things occurred, however my mother says that they did not. Many of the things just don’t make sense: teachers calling her ugly, faculty at her college sending emails about her to other faculty members behind her back - these types of things just don’t happen. She recently mentioned an incident where she was dropped off at a friends house and the parents did inappropriate things to her (My mother knows and respects those people and could not believe it to be true). She also mentions that people have come to our home and peered through the window, followed her and my mother while going on a shopping trip, etc. She remembers these seemingly false memories almost every day, and we hear new ones all the time. She is very logical when she describes them, even though they are likely not true. They seem to be all she thinks about, sometimes she cries about them and can’t sleep. All of these memories seem to be centered around a paranoia of people making fun of her, talking about her behind her back, and doing hurtful things to her. We think she might be developing schizophrenia, but since this began so recently, we haven’t taken her to a specialist yet. We are still trying to talk to her ourselves. Has anyone here experienced these types of thoughts? The thing is, she doesn’t seem to have any other symptoms of schizophrenia. We are very confused and we do plan to take her to a doctor, we would just like some insight. Thank you",7.097019230769233,8.1776890224359,6.000410256410259,79.82792307692307,64.22435897435898,8.547692307692307,32.266666666666666,8.548686976883017,2.5378712820512823,1373,52,236,18,20,410,168,312,0.042,0.919,0.039,0.2811,3,0,0,0,0,0,35.0,9,1,5,1,21,10,0,1,14,0,31,3,1,2,6,53,51,16,0,3,8,5,0,2,1,3,2,2,2,0,23,19,0,0,11,1,1,5,8,2,0,1,7,3,45,8,39,35,7,33,0,1,0,0,56,8,0,9,21,190,68,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08840114665004667,0.0,0.09986125677867592,0.0,0.0,0.0797509046044245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0678171494406872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06973078903757238,0.0,0.0,0.08877734818801741,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15336638893615498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22471426810348225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10183147064836123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08590518160023579,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07962315456235691,0.0,0.10954440849229004,0.06431506699827741,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10207386154317424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1112209328704693,0.13173626144811254,0.0,0.08402351771214163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07704811667303209,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05667662551420916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08818743706581082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11239853222065282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1000333824566772,0.0,0.0,0.11507049884446115,0.10675882380565073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0548068416974121,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09744224388742463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13313585632038685,0.10110658546736227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10579360394713083,0.0,0.0,0.07960040008262179,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09631606280396386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06757696804361367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11073400235970346,0.0,0.19039964197229872,0.20741250715033613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1969349322279985,0.0,0.1129702003527509,0.0,0.0,0.07930617601712721,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.363147485896004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08249443818470435,0.0,0.09979809404778467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09863163625578963,0.0,0.07058662780656642,0.0,0.07964137077550497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10365357435162302,0.07498159588607388,0.16031207995508578,0.0,0.0918143694628252,0.0,0.0,0.4637750016724945,0.12780088172244394,0.0979803604548168,0.07917136250750162,0.05815107518323207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06770745742349381,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1645689088848337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07084254102845049,0.0,0.0,0.06422032140964899 schizophrenia,cfbuzzkill90,2019/03/15,"Crying for no reason I'm diagnosed with schizoaffective disorder, PTSD and anxiety but a lot of the time I'll cry for no reason. Even if I'm not hearing voices, even if I'm not feeling anxious, even if I feel safe, even if I'm not thinking about anything I still cry. And I do it often. Does anyone else have this? Any idea what the cause would be? Or what I can do to stop this?",2.604791666666668,3.662100562500002,4.212500000000002,88.60916666666668,74.625,7.333333333333335,24.583333333333336,7.793537801064563,1.1240833333333335,295,9,65,4,6,99,52,80,0.26,0.672,0.068,-0.9311,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,0,7,1,0,0,3,0,6,1,0,3,0,24,14,8,0,5,9,0,2,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,5,3,0,2,6,0,0,0,5,0,0,0,0,4,4,1,6,12,1,3,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,7,3,44,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10790273978529352,0.0,0.1213840267019501,0.17925475846471473,0.0,0.110947499955376,0.16257872529975942,0.1305739461215064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16300036384776084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5228828652617736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16104924549014354,0.0,0.0,0.18185242950498945,0.0,0.1388553723179934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13255051170990334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4192067539422383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1604591651776466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17883543726740184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17912193661476014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13489768365924548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18547965908891664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3262835097237211,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1267160619077521,0.13265731325331565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1016709298352972,0.0,0.0,0.0925232096229456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11271639007781355,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,chrisfrank5,2019/03/15,Anyone know of a good anti schizophrenia medication? I am now on 20 mg of abilify but it is making me over eat anyone know of a medication that doesn’t make me eat everything in sight or something that combats this? Thank you ,5.278560606060606,6.36945034090909,6.489090909090908,74.66196969696973,68.31818181818181,9.503030303030306,30.57575757575757,9.725611199111238,2.9472666666666667,181,7,33,4,3,61,35,44,0.084,0.7829999999999999,0.133,0.5061,0,0,1,0,0,0,2.0,0,1,0,0,1,2,0,0,2,0,3,4,0,2,0,6,8,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,4,0,2,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,4,2,6,8,0,4,0,0,1,0,1,3,0,1,1,22,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3480370019322526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5093205066044739,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2236719211376327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20874371971581396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2735493048768597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.332250680961488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5014287833197522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1915953790103188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2291297597745807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,SenseiDezy,2019/03/15,"Whats possible? Is it possible to have a full recovery from schizophrenia? My entire childhood, I did not have schizophrenia. It developed through age and meditation, I'm 24 now, and it comes and goes. It's like tourettes syndrome, but it's in my head. When I'm around certain people, my head will blurt out bad things, racial slurs, it's like my mind mentally attacks certain people, but I am NOT that type of person. I love everybody, and I just want this to go away. Is there anybody that is more educated on the subject that can help me? 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Or will it definitely develop into the real thing? I’m being serious— is it a thing?,2.8128828828828847,4.366142000000004,5.803783783783783,75.41936936936938,74.94594594594594,9.257657657657658,31.25225225225225,9.725611199111238,3.3465927927927925,142,7,27,4,3,52,30,37,0.054000000000000006,0.856,0.08900000000000001,0.3134,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,3,0,4,1,0,0,1,6,6,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,5,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,6,4,0,3,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,1,0,21,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4350180584006752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4569875209603673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3784028887036834,0.4173054937391377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5334689056239803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,millermillion,2019/03/15,"What’s some of the weirdest stuff that’s happened to you (or other around you) in psych wards? Just curious what you guys went through in some psych ward situations. I have a mother list of craziness from the three I went to. 10 years diagnosed with Schizophrenia, so I’ve seen and been through a ton. 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I’m not schizophrenic/schizo-affective etc but I deal with really bad paranoia and I thought some people may relate. I’m sick and tired of having to second guess myself all the time. I don’t trust myself. And I feel like an idiot when I tell someone something and they give me a stupid sad sympathetic look and tell me how wrong I am. It’s so relentless. The delusions and mistrust just never ever end.",1.5946254681647931,4.323895494382029,2.8148595505617986,88.09135299625471,88.43820224719101,5.213857677902623,19.77621722846442,6.816661863887847,0.5934936329588023,365,11,67,5,12,117,67,89,0.344,0.5329999999999999,0.123,-0.9783,0,0,1,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,1,0,5,7,2,0,5,0,5,4,0,1,3,20,13,11,0,0,3,0,1,1,0,1,4,1,0,0,2,8,0,0,2,0,0,0,3,5,0,1,2,3,11,2,4,9,3,5,0,1,1,0,6,0,0,3,6,46,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17541358148889394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21659011629429376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18607441918975365,0.0,0.23430215407641605,0.0,0.19003540701559826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10622612509867356,0.15008594821461288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20153426265228414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.231434135715408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10263772768140936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17641987841258494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16203177966523738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14564763410832418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1345868906843432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1998405181388394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17800574091223653,0.1617349708222816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3672499925966141,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16678533705769447,0.12250321792534165,0.4829274095494762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.229696777141972,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,mhurwitz2442,2019/03/15,Conversations with myself Hi I just found this sub and I was curious if anyone could help me find some clarity in my situation. About almost a year and a half ago I took acid and had an extremely bad trip and ever since then I feel like my mind has split into two people. I have my self in reality and then I have second self in my mind where I have conversations with myself. I don't really hear voices however this second self sometimes talks to me and we have conversations in my head. I feel like I have control of what this second self is saying however at times I feel like it comes out of nowhere and I am not controlling it. I was curious if anyone else has experienced something like this and if this matches symptoms of schizophrenia or it can be categorized as more of an inner dialogue. Thanks for the help and support!,4.625185185185185,6.107675654320989,5.8453703703703725,77.1991666666667,70.23456790123457,9.350617283950617,27.69753086419753,9.725611199111238,2.6115827160493827,664,23,125,16,12,222,95,162,0.023,0.805,0.172,0.9674,2,0,1,0,0,0,7.0,1,0,0,2,4,7,0,0,5,0,16,2,1,2,1,35,25,16,0,4,6,0,3,4,0,0,1,3,0,4,9,15,0,2,6,0,0,3,2,1,0,5,5,8,23,6,17,18,2,18,0,0,0,0,14,9,0,6,10,96,32,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11112843526055582,0.0,0.12553485593233502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1753161303643621,0.12845117289974287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1046744696004706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.107990775841402,0.0,0.0,0.2812148299003198,0.10009368557234023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10472630208045668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11339974513847274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1901648072179785,0.2686821662924025,0.0,0.0,0.11458126340059024,0.0,0.0,0.13745616127085575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12866057311499754,0.0,0.1412953732456786,0.0,0.16805892321683688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2449878650184057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2531656582699747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0869122488660748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08031197629045671,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09969521416017643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5231318000207141,0.0,0.0,0.10370315522553238,0.1409154198326973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09651203825253284,0.12398910896127413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14226262271586776,0.0,0.13030215063226747,0.0,0.10076357193249366,0.0,0.11541917270858087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0731012915410878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13928503609483686,0.0,0.0,0.12246330814389388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08073089660744233 schizophrenia,kcamsps,2019/03/15,If anyone's looking for a job.... I suggest the post office lol. It pays pretty decent and if you have the ability to stay organized all you do is pretty much walk around alone outside all day and listen to music if you want. It's a pretty good gig ,2.8614705882352967,4.245117058823531,4.653088235294117,84.41139705882355,74.49019607843138,6.6686274509803924,22.553921568627448,7.1686216300943375,0.850721568627451,194,5,38,2,4,66,38,51,0.034,0.645,0.321,0.9423,1,1,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,3,0,0,1,1,0,0,4,1,3,0,0,0,2,9,6,5,0,4,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,3,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,4,1,4,6,3,5,0,0,1,0,5,1,0,3,1,25,6,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24814575324738586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16752876870640993,0.0,0.0,0.21328827676028506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1545174539425631,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20095896783982453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2377587595273489,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20119750348949508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17612818352710238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22946355248635436,0.7312556547782709,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2553739120278505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14131796695848675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,cantoitak,2019/03/15,"Saying Hello. Vent. Finally made a new account to be able to get on here without my family and friends digging deeper. I managed to escape detection with schizophrenia for almost two years. It got to a point where the voice talks over whoever I'm talking to so loudly I can't hear the actual person. I can't keep a job, the pinging-ringing sound in my ear makes me feel like I'm in a Tarantino movie. Sometimes spending 3 hours at night trying to find a dead bird carcass (that doesn't exist) under my bed because I 100% smell it. I'm just venting, I suppose. I just feel alone and I've been on here lurking and watching people talk. I can and will live with this, I don't have a choice. I've got a daughter. I will take the meds I need and get help. I get I don't have a choice, I have an auto-immune disease and I just live with it. This is just another one, but it's also so much more. I just wanted to not be alone in this thing I mostly have to hide in daily life. How did people not see that something was wrong with me? I'm a private person, but, damn. Did anybody else manage to seem unaffected for a long time? What made you finally tell?",1.4163080014614555,3.4017149201680685,3.1708622579466588,90.75968761417612,80.47058823529412,5.483668249908661,22.532700036536355,6.498293943080001,0.5029296309828277,893,29,188,8,23,297,140,238,0.086,0.8809999999999999,0.033,-0.904,1,2,1,0,0,0,31.0,0,1,0,0,12,4,1,0,15,0,19,2,1,4,0,33,40,12,1,2,10,1,2,1,1,2,1,6,1,2,11,10,0,1,4,0,2,0,8,2,0,2,8,11,22,2,25,28,3,19,0,0,2,0,13,11,1,3,9,119,33,3,0.12577758147302273,0.0,0.12274077588341667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12594807931123106,0.2605352837443698,0.0,0.10058428646178773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13188876092381902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07667284624065072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10507102989396773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11857190989467715,0.0,0.12719384877245982,0.08985552933587655,0.0,0.2755663850881689,0.11495843081332935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09717544744127644,0.0,0.19714078512426692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20119164380942167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14176047555627858,0.0,0.08430606158373817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12386558178652678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12481484181277198,0.11179689354400328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08884042547939182,0.061448573036677175,0.0,0.2221278175855884,0.11130920161395856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2380275775289315,0.08395751231216919,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13971053849048595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0924609945366806,0.09326248294029843,0.0,0.1214767719563643,0.0,0.11803373980539313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08523014435551385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1743966762379067,0.21964826534953044,0.0,0.0,0.11890046939915053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10002338112981267,0.0,0.0,0.1002284479556297,0.11450318629744802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0968297271545885,0.12439724420125008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0945690880545628,0.30328576685372377,0.10993515007873524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0835610362637894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07334191923343611,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08539472156289707,0.0,0.12286642090175046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07418687633755566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12124510015653216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1375180404452229,0.0,0.08099663868863306 schizophrenia,thezenergy,2019/03/15,"Should I apply for SSI/SSDI? Been dealing with schizophrenia for the past 2 years and recently (last month) had my diagnosis changed to schizoaffective disorder by my psychiatrist. Im only 18 so pardon my ignorance on this matter but are there drawbacks to applying and receiving SSI/SSDI? My father is a single father who raised me by himself my entire life. He works hard for his money and lately my psychiatrist visits and hospital visits have been more frequent then ever before and my medications only just seem to get more expensive with each new one I try. I feel like I’m just financially draining my father and I can tell it is hard on him. I’ve only ever had 2 jobs: a food service worker at one of the fast food places at my university and working in the financial aid office for the university. My first day on the job as a food service worker i locked the entrance doors and tried to defend myself from my boss because I thought he was trying to attack me (fired on the spot). The people at the financial aid office were more understanding and dealt with me missing 11/18 shifts I was assigned to and still let me keep my job up until yesterday which was my last day due to me having to drop out of university due to my poor attendance and failing grades in my second semester. I fly back home for good tomorrow, the 16th, and I really feel bad about everything especially costing my father lots and lots of his hard earned money. Should i apply for SSI/SSDI to get the financial benefits to help pay for some of my care like doctor visits, hospital/emergency room bills, medication, and for obtaining my service dog my psychiatrist highly recommend for me to get? If so, how should i go about starting this process?",9.518333333333334,7.982110462962964,9.587086419753085,64.79988888888889,60.111111111111114,12.837530864197532,37.958024691358034,11.729898335038438,4.527044691358026,1386,53,234,34,15,460,176,324,0.101,0.8170000000000001,0.083,-0.6279,3,0,0,0,0,0,28.0,0,0,0,8,12,10,1,0,14,0,18,7,0,2,2,41,32,22,0,4,4,4,6,2,0,3,4,0,3,0,5,19,3,2,5,0,7,6,0,5,0,4,9,6,41,5,46,19,8,45,0,2,0,0,18,14,0,5,26,163,46,17,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1189260182803898,0.0,0.08038256069395269,0.08728409404842251,0.0637248327883727,0.0,0.08895335430180125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10658251858331642,0.0,0.1105863679533577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1348355350187403,0.10777313774752864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11980854865292033,0.10699812948162944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18911954476603526,0.0,0.0,0.09395118558502012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10571417577605473,0.074681309782962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0889191855872471,0.3792199508880516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16384892675539994,0.0,0.059410830781454836,0.08768074173539253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28093406754031824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07006900018564344,0.11044916294141,0.10485921318904637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1129179834555149,0.0,0.3112107602890489,0.09291735857816576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1704233427453941,0.1179223778864297,0.0,0.0,0.10689624539157498,0.07383763008814162,0.10214307238721666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1777473717546516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.210620217503102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0834404987336292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10096256184743532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14167405969349314,0.2385154765093737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09979247006537016,0.07247284780081913,0.0,0.10921899747155417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06696912932548918,0.0,0.10321775359245423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09516663014750806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0739918822266172,0.0,0.08348344594299105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09137001428568076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08299076344076214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2129214429652981,0.0,0.0,0.10882678543853733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1522084763878982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06731845118483208 schizophrenia,PerfectStormX,2019/03/15,"Creating A Transcendental Platform For Managing & Potentially Treating Schizophrenia, Ascension, Lucid Dreaming Hybrid Mindset Voyagers 24/7, INtellectual Light Warrior/Soular Empowerment, Starseeds, Otherkin,, Mediums & Psychics, Merkaba-Ascension-5D, Dimension-Shifters, Future Earth(+Discord) &#x200B; [https://www.reddit.com/r/LightWarriorAscension/](https://www.reddit.com/r/LightWarriorAscension/) [https://discord.gg/PRVXJak](https://discord.gg/PRVXJak) [https://disboard.org/server/539367976806383616](https://disboard.org/server/539367976806383616) &#x200B; [Planetary Rainbow Forge](https://i.redd.it/t0ecuue8t9m21.jpg) Comprehensive Introductory Information To The Community, Discord Server And Internal Chatrooms/Mission Objective On Gaia: &#x200B; At the shift of ages, and the arrival of the age of Aquarius, golden age as we battle the last inner and outer demons of the Kali Yuga/age of Pisces, this transition time is like no other. 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Come join your star families and twin souls, or otherwise join and commune on the older site with archived content in the interim period \-Soul technology/higher-self descent to physical vessel: Production of DMT internally without the use of physical substance and unlock spirit molecule \-Sections encouraging to showcase your work (media/documents/arts, personal photos) \-A place of unconditional love and growth for Starseeds, Indigos, Human Angels and Walk Ins' to reunite with their long lost Star Family and Soul Mates. \-Server voice chat option for those interested \-Server map for ease of access with descriptions and guidelines for each topic (accessibility) Our own e-literature (growing library of PDF e-books and Links), videos, (multi)media and psychic tools, image-works not available anywhere else and written/crafted/made/authored exclusively by us. \-Mainstream launch Mid-February with over 340 members and counting \-Logos God, Elohim, Doctor, Scientist, & Architect Of The Age Of Aquarius. \-Futuristic & Future-Oriented Community Dedicated To The Universal Law, Spirit Science, Soul Technologies and Extraterrestrial Soul Origins \-A joint planetwide effort for reconstructing the new pantheon for the golden age of Aquarius, fusing the ancient with the new influx past with the future to create the new present in the Now with the help of deities and entities of various origins. Spirituality, lightworkers, ascension. &#x200B; We are highly focused and streamlined, yet loose and flexible (effortless effort being the motto). Our basic aim-quintessence is to harness all available energies to create an interdimensional rift/gate to haven that can propel us to 5th dimension and beyond while still connected to Earth but ultimately undergoing physical transfiguration, also fueled by the bowels of the earth likewise (as above so below)- which constructs a beastly cyclotron that irons out certain unwanted specific frequency-sets, diminishes their influence on the collective. &#x200B; ""As soon as humanity unites on this planet, it will qualify to establish contact with other more advanced civilizations, such as the Agarthans and those from the GF. In fact the Agarthans and some ascended masters such as St. Germain will already help us run the cities of light and the numerous healing centres which will manifest very soon all over the globe. The next step will be visiting other civilizations, but this could only happen after the incarnated human personality has completed the LBP and has ascended at least to 5D by transfiguring from a carbon-based body into crystalline light body."" The three cities of light will be open portals to the multiverse and to numerous advanced humanoid, and later on, other civilisations, such as the dragons. Alone this fact will make the existence of national states and nations obsolete as all the people will recognize their multidimensional nature and will strive to ascend too and be able to live in these cities of light and enjoy the advantages of a higher dimensional life. In the first place, they will enjoy the healing possibilities there which will help all humans advance rapidly in their LBP and also ascend. (Source: [http://www.stankovuniversallaw.com](http://www.stankovuniversallaw.com)) &#x200B; ""You see, nothing is ever just about one thing. We are not just sharing information with you. We are also preparing you for contact. Now, all of the other beings from the other star systems that are connecting with you all through the various channels that you have there on Earth are doing the same thing. And certainly those who channel faeries are readying you for more interactions with the fae."" ""We are excited to witness the coming together of humanity and the Arcturian beings that you will be meeting in the flesh. Now, of course, some have already established connections with physical Arcturian beings. A full and open contact with the fourth and fifth dimensional beings who are from our little star system."" (Source: [www.danielscranton.com](https://www.danielscranton.com) ) &#x200B; \`\`\`Keywords: spirituality, starseeds, occult, esoteric, lightworker, light warrior, spiritual awakening, light body, soul technology, quantum, lucid dreaming, astral projection, psychic, chaos magic, otherkin, bilocation, golden age, mentor, indigo, crystalline, human angels, transliminal souls, walk-ins, lucid dream, mental projection, multilocation\`\`\` &#x200B;",16.617020819563784,17.212077107677903,13.204961445252266,37.688132848645104,44.777153558052426,15.979466842916946,54.46177572152456,14.526554488767633,8.775053844459134,6253,358,613,203,51,1867,577,1068,0.026,0.815,0.159,0.9993,3,1,0,0,0,0,415.0,11,13,5,17,23,25,1,1,74,0,42,13,6,9,12,124,54,65,0,2,13,0,0,1,3,13,5,2,0,12,30,73,1,0,8,11,1,16,5,3,1,5,2,13,30,23,140,28,21,104,14,1,3,1,67,44,0,6,40,417,60,11,0.03947861164941107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04088793554246861,0.08713125930598546,0.09471309441841352,0.0,0.6416258884222075,0.4317375087307152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04143036728927395,0.0,0.0,0.17540735090629786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06801465652159049,0.04139257320238891,0.0,0.0,0.031520458998187784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08081606375036547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03297931424828124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03571066443006394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07443384311320904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0671609738026619,0.0,0.0,0.06100215485880915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03491080590145704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13230840607591093,0.08342264146757833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.032180337634376215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02788491092923116,0.01928725551020209,0.03956794027612317,0.03486033736812445,0.03493732899026989,0.0,0.0,0.04309556816445399,0.0,0.0356309883615007,0.03735561689556845,0.052704559664850735,0.0,0.0,0.04300378163779663,0.0,0.0,0.03978515507404964,0.0,0.03986214367878723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11438606741340428,0.04198595136423293,0.0,0.0,0.03788079262165408,0.0,0.04142616190876893,0.0,0.08025518690442297,0.030025263133750743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03768680191738328,0.027369498496920545,0.06894240186245577,0.08249349315893954,0.0,0.0,0.044506202864310764,0.03780959706392541,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03145934217149978,0.0,0.08236960383122177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.031527670259821304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.029683002786516526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05245567073315131,0.0,0.0,0.031341607845918745,0.023020295931356585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14246372682299208,0.03409684494960913,0.0,0.03257398914544685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03549601306347855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03805597283249025,0.0,0.0862226984063001,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4317375087307152,0.0 schizophrenia,Pegsus13,2019/03/16,"How do I help my brother? Hello! My brother was diagnosed with schizo paranoid when he was 15, he’s 30 now and quit his meds right before christmas, he is NOT healthy enough to quit his meds, and goes into psychosis several times a day. I’ve already notified the team that works where he lives, they didn’t do anything, does anyone have any advice to what I can do to get him some real help? I’m clueless and he needs help.",4.105450980392156,5.145863094117646,4.511470588235294,87.94995098039217,71.0,7.0784313725490176,28.284313725490193,7.1686216300943375,1.3916666666666668,333,12,68,3,6,105,64,85,0.077,0.823,0.1,0.4577,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,1,4,4,0,0,0,2,0,9,1,0,1,0,10,12,5,0,1,1,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,5,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,3,0,8,0,5,9,2,7,0,0,0,0,16,3,0,1,4,36,10,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18777378112344034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21205023632601774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13067347785433958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13436077440907707,0.0,0.15812899367350372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16351161477270426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.123925490121789,0.0,0.0,0.1950355019334056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16815805099718514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1985497430664454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10039420024436893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3863967398123672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16967831834854927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4268866364295285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1424821208106697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40876564714340974,0.0,0.2187169496169284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1641011894563071,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21708292817339955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11204840217898006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13989272215547185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Emma-monster,2019/03/16,"Alarming pictures in brothers journal Being the terrible little sister I am, I went through my brothers notebook. I thought it would be harmless since it was only labeled sketchbook but what I found was sketches labeled “the things I see.” He has mentioned to me that he has hallucinations before but I honestly never took him seriously but now that I saw he drew them out I am genuinely worried. I want to tell my dad but I’m scared to.",3.798658536585368,6.409557097560973,4.812378048780489,78.81661585365855,75.58536585365854,6.5390243902439025,34.640243902439025,7.6454224807358475,2.869165853658536,350,20,58,5,8,114,57,82,0.12,0.774,0.106,-0.3011,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,1,0,1,6,0,2,2,0,9,0,0,0,1,10,17,4,0,2,4,4,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,6,1,0,0,2,0,0,2,1,4,0,0,7,2,14,2,6,7,0,7,0,0,2,0,11,3,0,0,2,43,20,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2432320412923763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3134129996969784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2864906060577536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22046037919925884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21739710917989155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2861795342244549,0.0,0.2277805198348901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2364529654893449,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24984010172587376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1899019356912925,0.0,0.0,0.2269280676209479,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31758300662394856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16859809367272535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2649800890967455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2902882790113714,0.0,0.2030552516943326,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,leanansidhe606,2019/03/16,"Got locked out of my Reddit Because I never verified my email. Starting from square one! Just added what I can remember of my subs and this was the first one, of course. Kinda sad about losing my account and all my post history, and saves. But, wanted to re-introduce myself--I used to be ratta606adamson on here. I appreciate you guys so much! Hi! 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Why is it so hard for me to land a decent job? All I do is try try try, and I get nothing. I’m struggling with my disorder, I don’t have disability, and I can’t land a job. I’m struggling with suicide, and I don’t know what to do with myself. Are people like us born to suffer? That’s what it seems like...",-0.12635542168674618,1.4664182168674706,2.6731174698795184,94.37666415662649,83.69879518072291,5.595783132530121,20.01355421686747,6.6274283507984215,0.011989156626505793,284,8,71,3,8,100,48,83,0.2,0.7140000000000001,0.087,-0.8848,3,0,0,0,0,1,13.0,1,0,0,0,2,6,0,2,2,0,10,0,0,0,1,10,16,5,1,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,6,7,0,0,2,0,0,0,4,4,0,0,1,1,10,2,8,15,1,4,0,2,0,0,1,2,0,1,4,43,16,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1587291951988524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2112129558154197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19256842975063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16508814955638268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19906543663630827,0.0,0.5486398533433187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10128127593535716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1800701241901452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17683176925286956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12776387471912626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16777121060599767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3853210285224985,0.0,0.20158396858302075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37536359325632096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2216788608418788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16629357203338085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,zula8989,2019/03/16,"Asking for a favour I just wanna start off by saying that I HATE MYSELF so much right now for doing this. None of you could imagine, but I REALLY need to reach out to some of you, so here I am, slowly regretting it, but doing it anyway. I'm only 18 years old, I'm a university student studying Mechatronic Engineering. I've suffered from depression. Or at least I think that I have. I've been so lonely for as long as I can remember. And I still get this feeling of emptiness from time to time. But being the little boy that I am, I've always looked up to superheroes. Especially to how they went through the most horrible things, but instead of hurting others, or themselves, they chose to help people out. I figured that it does make things a bit easier. And it was true. Even the tiniest of gestures. Seeing somebody happy made ME happy. Now I don't know what I'm doing here. I think this may even be a huge mistake. But at least I'll go down trying, right? So I thought long and hard and came up with an idea. I want to do what I can to make sure that NOBODY feels this way, because it's dark, and lonely out there and because nobody should go through any of it. So I went online and built a website. I called it Alleviate. Which is a word that means to make problems less severe. It's just a community. It came to mind that people may not be able to afford therapists. So I thought that one approach could be to have all of us help each other out under one platform. You can follow a certain topic ranging from ADHD, postpartum depression, anxiety, and many more. There is a full disclaimer that the site doesn't offer a cure, or any of that, It's just a place for ranting and helping each other feel even just a LITTLE better. Here's a link to the website: [https://alleviate.mn.co](https://alleviate.mn.co/) I promise, all I want to do is help and all I ask from you is for any of you to just check it out, and if you want to join, you can sign up. I want a place for us and ONLY us. And while there is this subreddit and many more, it still doesn't feel like ours. And if I see that this idea helps people and actually benefits them, I'll turn it into a real thing from scratch. All I ask for you to do is check it out and if you feel like you could maybe benefit from it, please sign up. The number of members that I get there would be an indicator of whether this should be built or not. All I want to do is help. I'm not making any money from this whatsoever. Its ALL free and I'm not planning or going to allow any advertising or anything. It's just something that I wanted to do that was ""good"". I'm just an 18 year old kid in his first year of university. If you hate on me after this, I understand. I feel like a dipshit for posting something like this here, because I'm the type that hates the people that do this and here I am doing it. I deserve whatever comes my way. Thanks anyway though.",3.0653394815191355,4.623119740614335,4.334669232444995,86.1921803064411,74.2901023890785,6.8984968411880025,24.07218066952291,7.53845456269673,1.0054317478759711,2272,68,472,28,47,748,242,586,0.124,0.731,0.146,0.7834,1,4,2,0,0,0,84.0,4,11,3,3,34,29,3,0,27,0,46,0,0,7,9,120,101,46,0,21,27,0,8,4,0,5,0,2,0,2,54,32,0,0,19,0,4,10,8,12,0,3,10,13,54,18,73,77,19,59,0,7,3,0,33,29,0,14,21,349,108,2,0.06650168654682835,0.0,0.06489605308609153,0.0,0.07992210399302603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0553347305459972,0.0,0.0,0.22611713645922266,0.0,0.05087360818520316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05472522171712257,0.0,0.18651029956044315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1216164326178242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05881533754843496,0.07260261792332777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06790565729860762,0.1521204263162614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057285314498344064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15928855624847504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1145556103538148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058196074044086825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13177121031551065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2017515052211044,0.14252645447015833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05656630060432988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06948877292965264,0.0,0.11338332298959128,0.05577845952433198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14158456384587076,0.059572448883524635,0.19696994273490645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2674480721816964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07119143086897585,0.15014461899652412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03654758775678545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1299574596673722,0.13330432107967105,0.0,0.11770379981581786,0.055844667821594265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06292550375412093,0.17756156865626768,0.1348445446120948,0.06680988257048542,0.0724398322869509,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06714774591246014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04888639139404316,0.04931015793466267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1395646664862496,0.0,0.0901265277626124,0.10115505859925647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18441558443337525,0.0,0.13896021655793372,0.07299888174674918,0.0,0.0,0.0636902329478083,0.0,0.0,0.0636331327763699,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07569347836230951,0.04260268327490363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07533344712853167,0.11358415390389877,0.0,0.05288481032429007,0.0,0.0,0.10598646835088013,0.0,0.0,0.07512797684541321,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10239249456439092,0.0,0.0,0.047070236020147316,0.0,0.10621666556005528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0626770525552529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061225818188953826,0.0,0.07721358369791052,0.13254229671289766,0.08522319103759135,0.06533756938475395,0.10558982161542133,0.07755533643570472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04515027987994424,0.07233473852293458,0.0,0.06923060100318894,0.23998002233741,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2353465063476329,0.10557188676431276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12329545936159472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04724089009626737,0.0,0.0,0.12847471737815574 schizophrenia,zupo-,2019/03/16,"You ever hear a noise/voice and you blow it off as a hallucination but it’s actually real? Heard someone call my name today at work, the voice didn’t sound like anyone I knew so I thought it was a hallucination and kept working. Called a few more times but it was getting louder so I turn around and see it was a new-hire at work that I had not met yet. Felt like a dick for ignoring her, but I really couldn’t explain myself. Just apologized instead and said that I didn’t hear her. 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I’ve heard it’s very long and drawn out. For background information, I’m 18 and I was diagnosed this year in 2019, but it has been affecting me since the beginning of High School. I hate working in places with a lot of people because I get stressed out and then I get really paranoid about the people around me, that they’re out to get me and make fun of me, then I start messing up my work and I start hallucinating, it’s really bad. Plus I get very angry and hostile... My dad keeps pushing and pushing me to get a job so I can get a career and “do something with my life” (he doesnt even really believe I have SZ, which really sucks) I’m just scared I’m going to end up homeless and with no foreseeable future for myself, I need help. 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It's been 2 years since I dropped out of school and I haven't done anything since then and I'm really scared to screw it up. My therapist is gonna admit me to a hospital if I do to get my meds better because she doesn't think what I take now is perfect for me but I think I can do this ...I'm still scared tho ",2.333469387755102,3.8033498469387794,3.997704081632652,88.2196173469388,76.04081632653063,7.757142857142857,24.494897959183675,8.472884824447931,1.374016326530613,367,12,83,7,8,123,69,98,0.083,0.7959999999999999,0.121,0.1235,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,4,4,7,1,2,1,0,9,1,0,0,1,12,22,6,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,3,0,0,3,0,0,2,2,3,0,1,3,0,15,4,10,18,1,13,0,0,0,1,3,3,1,3,7,50,19,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1605096891446654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11890078700989196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17250604475640008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19960406699573666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16590959417207607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10190567522628248,0.0,0.11085151937998332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20311476044583934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21665679304451493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2141065389857132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1249541479161131,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39055853911926863,0.19740120812966544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4840426047002381,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1380575302300873,0.0,0.15576733575565474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1466534705285757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2264683070844372,0.0,0.2499605752548328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22429809545318216,0.0,0.0,0.14199886323907135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12560592905351622 schizophrenia,thatpotofgold,2019/03/17,Everyone in the entire world hates me The past few days I’ve been feeling my friends secretly hates me. No I’m not on my period. Yes I’ve had good sleeps. I go into this sulky wooo is me mentality. Is there a need that’s missing in my life. I go to my mates houses n feel I need to leave because the voices in my head say they don’t want me there. To top it all of the voices tell me they hate me. Does anyone have the same issue. I don’t no how to fix it n maybe it’s just life. 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Help? Last Monday was my 28th birthday. I realized I had been suffering from paranoid schizophrenia for well over a year, but I didn’t know it. I have delusions, extreme sensitivity to noises, auditory hallucinations, and paranoia. I’m also becoming more and more socially withdrawn, and experience extreme memory loss throughout the day. I can’t seem to stay organized. I had to drop out of graduate school because of this. I racked up over $150,000 in student loans, with no degree in hand. I had to move back in with my parents. It’s hard, because they don’t really understand my sensitivity to noises. My brain interprets unexpected noises as loud and scary. I went to the psychiatrist and I was prescribed risperdone. Does anyone else take this? Does it help? I’m afraid of the long-term consequences of medication. I know it can help me in the short term, but I don’t want to become dependent. Can antipsychotics help with the negative symptoms of the disease and the cognitive decline? What will my future be like? Will I ever be able to live independently? Will I ever be able to live a quiet lifestyle and support myself financially? I no longer dream of getting married and starting a family. I just want to find a place to live that is relatively quiet and secluded, so I won’t need to be scared anymore. I feel alone and terrified. I feel like I’m trapped inside my head. Does anyone else ever feel like this? 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Prison. A nigger runs my prison. In prison, the nigger tries to torment me. We can take away his knives by confessing, every day. In about 2000, I masturbated fantacizing about my niece, Lani. She looks like Star Trek Seven of Nine! In 1985, at my sister's wedding, I stuck my crotch on the hot tub drain because it kinda sucked. In 1985, I tried to get a dog to lick my dick. From 1998-2003, I fantacized about leading a Catholic army like Dune, of Mexicans or Brazilians? That was dumb because they're niggers. In 2003, I played tag with a black girl about 7-years-old. She reached for my crotch. In high school, in the library, Carlos and I said 'juicy' or 'toxic' as a way of evaluating girls. In 1988, I cheated on my SAT by talking in the hall during the break -- two problems. On 9/9/1999, I killed a CIA nigger on purpose with my car. :-) In 1982, when I was 12, I babysat Kevin's kids. I changed a diaper because I thought that was being professional. In 1975, when I was about age five, my brother, Keith, put my penis in a vacuum. In 1977, when I was about age seven, my brother, Danny, got me high on gas fumes and we sucked each other's dicks. Dr. Tsakalis had an oddly round ass. Paul Keck at Xytec had an oddly round ass. Distracting? At about age five, Jay Weinrick and I touched dicks to each other's assholes.",2.8000414868901444,4.739726309160306,3.2648224361101903,91.94458181214738,75.98473282442748,5.930567540657152,24.368403584467316,6.7026698264267655,0.6815726518420182,1031,34,216,9,23,320,152,262,0.221,0.74,0.039,-0.9946,0,0,0,0,0,0,62.0,2,0,0,1,10,11,6,1,16,0,9,8,7,1,0,16,19,9,1,1,2,3,4,2,0,0,1,1,1,3,5,9,0,0,2,1,0,4,0,8,0,6,12,8,34,3,44,6,2,39,1,0,4,5,15,26,12,3,9,124,39,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18518736505218494,0.0,0.0,0.3604615550800428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20851177591160566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1271169194859853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1660701175391707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.102979632816312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15764349517131546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4165061487972388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21806833769955075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1925918520943663,0.0,0.1740480115175077,0.0,0.16551920963804068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20682935534686914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1886036080935285,0.0,0.19814574604766969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18749272992151456,0.0,0.0,0.1994815684754568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1481990135754041,0.15842615666424856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15647996936287714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2676437673347541,0.0,0.19254370274432706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1564533906177949,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,beepboop33,2019/03/17,"Is the Truman Show safe to watch? Hello, I am schizoaffective and my delusions include being watched, people knowing what I have said/thought. I was asked to watch the Truman Show with a friend because he really likes movies and we often watch them together. Would it be ok for me to watch it? I don't want to be triggered or develop more delusions. &#x200B; Note: I'm going to ask my psych but I don't see her for a few days",2.0213986928104566,4.447479741176473,2.9474509803921585,90.75241830065364,81.0,5.660130718954249,23.562091503267972,6.937597516519254,0.8682287581699342,338,12,67,4,9,107,61,85,0.014,0.883,0.103,0.7136,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,1,0,1,0,1,4,0,0,4,1,10,0,0,1,0,12,17,4,0,2,2,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,3,4,0,1,1,2,0,1,2,0,0,0,1,6,11,4,8,12,2,2,0,0,6,0,8,0,0,2,2,43,14,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29183092004821803,0.32727886209526513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.503595055222043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1641878069050899,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17370269813905898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20809223059655907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15307272825353416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14802279968977947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13158643429869415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18672717400608066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17254677640051275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25620502133404505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21462994875245567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2138267116050256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15886433234487676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1913321573621065,0.0,0.32727886209526513,0.0 schizophrenia,rorylupin,2019/03/17,"Catatonia help!! Hi all, I’m not diagnosed with schizophrenia but have bipolar 1 with psychotic features and potentially schizoaffective. I was admitted to hospital on Thursday (though I have no memory of it) because I allegedly stopped eating, drinking, moving, talking, blinking and were holding my limbs in odd positions. I was given a big dose of benzos on Friday and it was like i just woke up, I ache all over, I’m somehow in hospital and I don’t really understand what’s been going on. I was unresponsive for over 24 hours. Has anyone had this who can relate/let me know their experience? I’ve posted this a few places but can’t find any experiences from others They won’t discharge me yet but I’m in a uk ward and allowed my phone. 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I was hospitilized a couple years ago, then went to jail.....labled schizoaffective, bipolar with psychotic features, post-partum psychosis, Severe PTSD onset at night time...... uhhh Anxiety you name it. Im also a Registered Nurse, Reiki Master, Tarot practitioner, Certified Hypnotherapist, Study palmistry, muscle kinetics with pendulum use, Crystals, etc and so on. Lets help one another. Visit my baby discord forum https://discord.gg/3FT6WKt",8.616847826086957,12.89492914492754,7.611431159420293,55.85453804347827,69.14492753623188,10.986231884057972,36.16123188405797,10.411451182825502,5.983331884057972,377,19,38,13,8,116,65,69,0.105,0.852,0.043,-0.5152,0,0,0,0,0,0,32.0,0,2,0,1,2,0,0,0,2,0,3,1,0,1,1,6,5,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,2,0,4,0,5,2,2,9,0,0,0,0,5,2,0,0,5,22,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22515872201664228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20312645752761724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26634475161624604,0.1943119347630763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2810499728246812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.283280976046032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1702531502683139,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2743673001514546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2597357245222872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2383650198136513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17211930318837665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2432650804823239,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29691642628777765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2869515856340187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14811144728679038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21937741671343894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23546373169400986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16356988618412838 schizophrenia,acornfaerie,2019/03/17,"Need help with my mum who’s diagnosed schizophrenic Hi everyone, My mum was diagnosed with schizophrenia when I was quite young (I’m 23). She was put in the psych ward several times for months at a time and I didn’t think I’d ever get to see her again. She was pretty heavily involved with drugs at the time as well. She’s been on clozapine for roughly ten years now. She’s always stayed on it despite the awful side effects, namely weight gain and sedation. She sleeps so much that she can’t really hold a normal job. She hates taking it but knows it’s necessary to stay sane. Anyway, she got sick with the flu a couple of months ago and abruptly stopped taking her meds without telling me or anyone else, which probably made her feel even worse. The only thing that tipped me off was that she was able to get up early and was super touchy and agitated. She lied to me about it until finally coming clean to me. That night she went back on it. But because she had been off it for more than two days, it completely knocked her out and she was unresponsive, only able to wake for a couple of seconds at a time. Her speech was really slurred too. I had to call the ambulance and she stayed overnight at the emergency department. After that she was supposed to be tapering up to 100mg in 25mg increments. I highly suspect she’s been off them this entire time - she isn’t acting herself at all. She’s incredibly vague and just kind of aimlessly wanders around the house. She has trouble with conversation, often trailing off and not being able to easily think of words. It takes her a while to actually get a sentence out. She also stares at me all the time and it makes me feel really strange. The past half an hour she’s been kind of muttering to herself about having to do things but just sits/stands there. When you say something to her, she just looks at you with a vacant expression as if she’s not actually understanding what you’re saying to her, and then sometimes asks you to repeat what you’ve said. It’s as if she’s frozen in this kind of limbo or something. I ask her if she’s taking her meds and she vehemently maintains she is, but I don’t believe her. I don’t know what to do. I witnessed her being dragged away from me by the mental health team (literally) when I was little and it’s something that has stayed with me since. I love her so much and couldn’t stand to lose her again. Not having my mum when I was young was terrible. I’m so sorry this is rambling and all over the place, but I need some advice if anyone has any. Thanks so much.",3.367735990270372,5.150143966601181,4.182008139208534,86.66501146037984,73.97053045186641,7.519524745065019,24.29979418093367,8.269060116576782,1.3768450369538776,2025,62,412,34,42,649,245,509,0.095,0.8420000000000001,0.063,-0.951,1,0,4,0,0,0,47.0,0,3,1,6,26,11,1,0,21,1,37,11,2,3,4,69,68,41,0,8,18,3,4,0,0,0,7,4,1,0,27,26,1,2,9,1,0,5,10,4,1,4,24,11,70,7,70,40,8,72,0,1,3,1,66,28,0,8,34,291,97,3,0.2309456435847317,0.0,0.1502464225527336,0.0,0.0,0.07522580334885526,0.06823979285836579,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06156238257878235,0.06405509204409049,0.0,0.0,0.05235031903372815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10765504249874636,0.07887703458201954,0.0,0.06853019537006337,0.1439353342543058,0.0,0.07232701147118603,0.05919431483094486,0.0,0.046927440256429115,0.0,0.0,0.08673221835235552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07860710779030666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06631307420781392,0.08071403779128278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1703579746467739,0.0,0.04964694481858342,0.0,0.0,0.15626997791393074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08927454205636202,0.0,0.06430848363910692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050845806495825416,0.06963451883667014,0.0,0.07355948646778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07784870435774015,0.0,0.0,0.08432988800439914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12065956684310053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061569442820251764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07600367007188369,0.0,0.08182813987513453,0.0,0.0,0.051599332256536935,0.08133558408098851,0.0,0.0,0.07581164615789716,0.08882675511370987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07639263858681551,0.0,0.0,0.2404943489203663,0.08461445730920666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07715606882313628,0.0,0.0,0.06464539182151383,0.08612303385450555,0.0,0.0,0.06947915335171638,0.07284211733064183,0.05138600347170694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1710190313694079,0.0,0.07757962991277761,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12289240623958095,0.0,0.1697716209811049,0.11416217894430285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07224228060577438,0.07542589877000645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11709637917030492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07348791628196495,0.0,0.0,0.08042968109048723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07831824866108432,0.08299948821057937,0.0,0.0,0.07738805313914385,0.0,0.08187970653784507,0.0,0.0,0.14794969298155866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07322739768977217,0.12243816350531468,0.0,0.0,0.06134459243458638,0.0,0.0,0.08696761372893966,0.0,0.06368020763324017,0.0,0.07703747658885078,0.0,0.0,0.17779323941482197,0.07613704892337178,0.08617491339826013,0.0,0.3282097703542361,0.0,0.06436029969940392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2315231765809984,0.0,0.06728555727811507,0.0708745733623507,0.0,0.0,0.10228668242539478,0.0986537621551482,0.0,0.0,0.2693325239798516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0752001120225954,0.0801408532357579,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09374319225585986,0.06921595634649078,0.07136297511614678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07420778636705709,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07845111368371757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04957380753940488 schizophrenia,Little_Match_Girl,2019/03/18,"I want to scratch my throat out I've been having the constant urge to scratch my throat out. My head voices keep telling me too and it's so hard to not. I can feel my blood writhing around in there and I need to kill it off. I already bit my nails down to the quick but it doesn't help, does anyone have any advice? 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My uncle is DX with schizophrenia, he is currently a ward of the state because he attempted murder (related to the voices, I don’t fault him in anyway because his mother died recently before that so he wasn’t on his medication) anyways, he is currently in a group home and has been there a while, the incident happened about 12 years ago now. He has recently been dealing with incontinence and they did a lot of testing on him and nothing physically is wrong with him, he said that there is an outside force causing him to urinate on himself. This is where I am absolutely pissed and am very concerned. The group home owner? (Not sure what the position is called) has been PUNISHING him for urinating on himself! When my grandparents went to see him he was in a straight chair for it! He also loves to go to church and took away this privilege due to the urinating. I suggested a brief until he can get proper counseling but they refuse. We have no say in his care they aren’t even supposed to tell us most of this stuff. He is not able to leave the group home and live with us as he would have to stand trial if he was ever “fit” enough to leave the group home. I’m just not sure what there is to do. 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Hi, When I get really high (off weed) I think I hear voices. Like it's not like I heard them physically with my ears but in my head. It won't be someone talking to me, it might just be I heard someone off in the distance maybe or a bump out side. Sometimes it just feels like the voice in my head (me) is just really loud. I also sometimes get extreme paranoia when on other substances. Thanks",0.9356097560975628,3.3933401219512227,2.4299512195121937,92.24614634146343,86.8048780487805,4.743414634146341,21.614634146341466,6.2581,0.35177170731707363,318,11,65,3,10,103,54,82,0.084,0.847,0.07,-0.031,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,1,0,6,4,0,0,3,0,5,3,3,0,0,11,14,5,0,0,6,0,1,3,0,2,0,9,0,0,5,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,10,12,4,9,8,0,11,0,0,0,0,7,9,0,2,5,43,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1524387540351905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09638320512011717,0.13617897404220528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1991821765339677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3912622505971943,0.0,0.4296852127781372,0.0,0.0,0.20140050752849856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2793819265550015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1915034222555612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20221770838318895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2442321204742847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32302343369798325,0.0,0.3770561303062775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15321314439226644,0.0,0.1754972956465152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12214160623632148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,destinyfan2019,2019/03/18,"I ended a few friend ships at school I predicted what they said in response because I control them. They are not humans. I don't need them I can tell who's a real person and who's myself I will stay friends with the real people They wanted to harm me by getting trusted I figured it out. I have only half a year left of high so I don't care hahahaha. I used to be friendly with everyone but I know not everyone is a human now. I can tell by their thoughts and their eyes. I don't wish to harm these non humans but I don't want to talk to them they will disappear naturally. 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The voices reckon it just popped into existence. They also reckon a love God is on my ass now cause I've been a shy lonely virgin for too long. I've hallucinated New scenes to movies before I got medicated so who knows... Probably also because my monthly anti-psychotic injection is due in a few days. And they cut my benefit. Finally got a new form to them today but was stressing about the extra security due to the 50 people shot in new Zealand. Then I took 2 liters of energy drinks today. Usually only take 1 liter. And I'm experiencing memory loss past a few days. Not sure whats causing it but told my nurse when I got a new form. Might be paliperidone injections. Or diabetes. Or my autistic brain not like my new computer screen. And I've been experimenting with omega oils again - only 2 times I got put in hospital I was taking slot of them to make me happy (voices reckon I'm a neanderthal that is supposed to eat clover to get plant based omega 3s). After writing everything wrong I'm going to assume it is. Kinda reality checked myself. Glad I couldn't post text to r/Rihanna or I would of embarrassed our kind. Need /r/schizophreniarealitychecks I think.",2.325166002656044,5.095874059760956,4.409254980079684,78.35239508632141,83.30278884462152,7.490092961487384,22.709296148738375,8.447377352677275,1.9783688180610888,1043,36,185,26,30,356,162,251,0.11,0.782,0.108,0.3595,0,2,1,0,0,0,29.0,1,0,4,1,10,16,1,2,14,0,12,8,2,3,2,32,33,14,0,4,8,0,0,1,0,2,2,4,0,1,7,6,2,1,6,3,2,4,4,7,0,0,12,7,21,9,21,17,6,37,0,2,1,3,10,6,1,6,27,103,28,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1611016631242196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0774523513166512,0.08410230102438919,0.061401852517634616,0.0,0.1714214224751856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11244392698214173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20694743065164253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12992033518317322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09867348325467222,0.0,0.10306820990709252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09052635509152564,0.09852970533736204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11034080098509884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052625364375709305,0.0,0.057245110108137334,0.08448448959532942,0.402800347406985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10722508037244848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10489100096547332,0.05535657176451054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04920981030461258,0.0,0.0,0.08913965655982584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0909094701061974,0.0,0.0672356256680364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10147120805562368,0.0,0.10685474746854612,0.0,0.0,0.16079763486409646,0.0,0.0,0.14937463531626466,0.0776863763527118,0.486410717855184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11467762542536425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15321386729972036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0961547054924928,0.06983097353863628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09646800698136812,0.0,0.10860004948697252,0.0,0.0,0.10125780991912472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11538170199800712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09493339973220774,0.0,0.15146737031851146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0645413826224021,0.0,0.0,0.058734348976653986,0.0,0.2864304273634485,0.09624835095813213,0.11191068919243144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11093585208192867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07155311426396012,0.11012845944741888,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,link9913,2019/03/18,"Alcohol and invega Hi, I google things. I guess since taking invega sustenna I've been looking up side effects and the doctors have told me not to drink alcohol while on invega. Now, yesterday while googling it said ""it will increase side effects"". One of the side effects is weight gain. I knew drinking could make someone relapse but I read closer and yea...if you drink, the weight gain is more hard on you than someone not taking invega. It was an aha moment that I probably should have had before but I'm glad I have it now. 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Like in your adulthood? Should I be worried if I'm at risk of having Schizophrenia because I have an uncle who has it? I'm 22 right now. I have ADHD and maybe Asperger syndrome (self-diagnosed), those alone are a huge weight on me. Can a doc know if I'm predisposed to have Schizophrenia even thought I don't have any of those symptoms? Like a brain scan or something? 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I GOT A JOB! Its not the greatest job (care assistant) but it pays me a wage, gets me out the house and gets me off benefits. I got discharged from mental health services a few weeks ago so i decided it was time for me to start looking for work again. I chose care assistant because ive cared for soneone, and been heavily cared for in my more deeper psychotic states and ill like to give something back, Id like to return the favour and help people out of similar situations. I start training next week, im nervous but excited. A voice keeps telling me i cant do it and ill fail but i know if i work hard and look after myself ill be able to do it and then some. Just a friendly reminder that although things may seem bad now, theres always a way out of it; take your meds and take good care of yourself (washing, cleaning, eating, socialising and getting out) and youll get there! Peace out, friends.",2.64750079491256,4.7455050378378365,3.5795230524642285,88.78184419713834,77.0,6.731319554848965,27.098569157392692,7.724431198458867,1.5646375198728135,732,30,149,11,17,234,120,185,0.121,0.638,0.241,0.9834,3,0,1,0,0,0,23.0,0,2,0,3,7,16,0,1,9,0,10,6,0,0,0,27,32,17,0,1,6,0,1,2,2,2,5,1,1,0,9,15,1,1,3,0,2,0,2,3,0,0,4,5,18,13,21,25,4,24,0,1,3,0,7,8,0,4,16,93,27,8,0.11213528284729447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09940116238831964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09330553829916594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0862251108116417,0.09362827728359724,0.06835662762164467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5716469714382778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11474238895683472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12283872122988786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1732708827284474,0.0,0.2343442282983617,0.10757038118481184,0.0,0.094053755029851,0.1793696588920381,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10045118781695954,0.0,0.0,0.1191945619844481,0.0,0.0,0.07516191638222562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12938906083450888,0.0,0.0,0.12112534798622533,0.0,0.22255393093589498,0.09967099169969752,0.0,0.0,0.06162661886187775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10956727005453416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2824961867972205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12455702015337823,0.0,0.11300599061007205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11925714545514528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07774048597746397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10208374999748844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1260447562045347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08632721917009514,0.0,0.0,0.1587398607128968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1686235545860547,0.0,0.09801117977119647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14899539849178606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06538698519631456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08900776805639796,0.17989632000821534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1632716428752067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,MrKrabsOurLord,2019/03/18,can you get short term schizophrenia from an awful period of time in your life? i remember when i was 13-15 my parents did crazy shit. i used to see scary faces in the dark and when i closed my eyes. i would also hear scream fights where there were none. what happened to me?,0.6530357142857142,3.075213946428576,1.2264285714285703,100.51857142857143,88.10714285714286,4.628571428571429,15.142857142857142,6.18269132825596,-0.7811499999999998,215,4,49,2,7,65,48,56,0.29,0.71,0.0,-0.9514,1,0,0,0,1,0,6.0,0,2,0,0,5,3,2,0,2,1,5,4,3,1,0,5,10,4,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,3,4,10,0,6,6,2,10,0,0,2,0,5,5,1,0,5,31,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2628102176850993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17169882916321788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2906118701388489,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37039683583421823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2321254380856581,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36491156319349655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3722807044496972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2618804701216003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3373402946694223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1916303871828424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2838361252561836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2334536983799897,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,omega_constant,2019/03/19,"Abuse (trigger warning) What is abuse? Is it physical pain? No, I have endured significant physical pain without trauma. Is it psychological pain? Perhaps, but what, exactly, is the psyche? Some people say my brain is my psyche. Others say it is an emergent property of my brain. Some people say the question is meaningless. Maybe they're all right, maybe they're all wrong. If abuse is anything, it is the misuse of a superior position or capability to exploit or harm another. The parent who induces emotional trauma on their child for the purpose of causing them to suffer abuses them, even if they never make physical contact or even utter a word. The same goes for domestic partners, whether male or female. It applies to employers, politicians, administrators and anyone who occupies any social position of authority, however trivial. Under this definition, almost all the abuse in the world cannot be observed. Thus, we can conclude that *there are no observable correlata* to abuse. From this, we can deduce that the most ambitious, intelligent and successful abusers will seek to gag their victims to prevent them from speaking out about the abuse they are being subjected to. After all, if the victim says nothing about an invisible abuse, then there is *literally* no way that anyone else can know that the victim is being abused. Now, the idea that someone is being bullied naturally arouses feelings of anger within us. How dare this bully commit such horrendous and cowardly deeds?? But if we thoroughly examine the social conscience, we will find that our culture (that is, Western/American culture) exempts and has always exempted some forms of action from scrutiny for abuse. Four or five decades ago, parents were more or less exempt from investigation for abusing their children. While awareness around this issue has grown, it has not actually disappeared, it has just morphed. Psychiatric intervention is, in modern culture, an almost entirely exempt activity. I don't have any solutions beyond saying that I refuse to join the inter-generational parade of abuse. I cannot fathom the ocean of causes-and-effects which has led to the present state of abuse and, for this reason, I cannot even judge those who abuse. All I can do is stand my ground. I will not join you in your abuse -- it doesn't matter how many of you there are, it doesn't matter how loud you scream, it doesn't matter how many legal powers you have, it doesn't matter whether the latest opinions of science agree or disagree with you. No matter what, I will not participate in your abuse, I will not rubber-stamp it, I will not join it, I will not approve of it, I will not turn a blind eye to it, I will not pretend that it doesn't exist, I will not stop talking about it. Fuck abuse.",6.403277780823419,8.408162442190674,6.552531111232934,71.81628748423884,66.56592292089249,9.14311715366482,32.99978071377666,9.567723090172098,3.447857452990516,2216,97,347,47,37,708,244,493,0.297,0.613,0.091,-0.9993,5,0,0,0,17,0,82.0,6,7,8,5,18,16,5,0,24,0,55,9,4,13,8,82,60,26,0,4,26,2,1,0,1,10,4,8,0,4,40,12,0,3,10,1,0,4,24,14,0,2,1,11,39,2,47,45,13,30,0,1,2,2,45,13,1,19,10,269,79,6,0.0,0.9153496201153176,0.04188337867961545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.038045672392662926,0.0,0.08595564207241166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03571257978536745,0.0,0.0,0.05837365572731033,0.045004986139279515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06002082226167524,0.0439762445240829,0.035319207802414036,0.03820758025256785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09582502814481847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04409029437810594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.035853852981068066,0.04827881964075357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0850440548887343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02170146023402497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.039227774596621016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03967851678728452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04845105083506045,0.0,0.04479695464806573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02358751241486501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02864919384662418,0.08702755955553,0.0862370969626809,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.033102273285287635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.041182553379923485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1370085732201944,0.0,0.09531436494106643,0.0,0.0,0.059510150386179975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04807982088137523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04412853951625728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03665313916433149,0.0,0.17065710716439506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08750233862226531,0.03636567279703296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.035882741944122665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03449718191270972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04668424505305305,0.0,0.0,0.05162704393217034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03406761352192967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04137300262569092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.046925890127309605,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,thehol,2019/03/19,A reality check subreddit? What do y'all think of me starting a subreddit for people who are unsure if they're being delusional to post on and ask if their ideas sound possible? Perhaps r/realitychecks ? ,5.74072072072072,8.021184513513518,7.3983783783783785,63.98693693693693,68.72972972972973,11.41981981981982,33.954954954954964,11.20814326018867,4.8314576576576584,165,8,26,6,3,57,34,37,0.076,0.924,0.0,-0.3695,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,3,0,0,0,0,5,6,3,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,1,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,4,5,0,3,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,2,1,17,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3905904310960498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4716499699921329,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2896527542758515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4710113429172939,0.4001408330100881,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2957238901374021,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2677119950362278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Auicjsnwkcicisjc,2019/03/19,"Scared of getting schizophrenia 19yr old Male. I’ve been reading stories about schizophrenia and I’m really worried about developing it. The fact it happens out of the blue scares me that I might just get it randomly in the future. My family has no history of Schizophrenia. I believe I have minor case GAD but haven’t been diagnosed. I don’t have any symptoms of schizophrenia. I mostly just read stuff about it and get paranoid that I might get it in the future and then my mind starts thinking about the symptoms and I feel like I’m experiencing them even though I’m not. For example the voice in my head will just go off but I know it’s just my voice scaring me and I am able to stop it. Any advice? I’m scared one day I’ll just lose control of my mental state and end up insane",1.9676470588235304,4.439979222929939,2.9684526039715284,90.22932933683028,81.61146496815286,5.732334207568378,23.248032971150245,7.048011613610866,0.8482494567253651,626,22,126,8,17,199,89,157,0.171,0.8079999999999999,0.021,-0.9676,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,1,2,11,6,0,4,6,0,11,4,1,1,1,26,25,10,0,0,8,0,1,1,0,3,3,2,0,1,10,7,0,2,3,2,0,1,4,5,0,1,2,5,17,1,17,20,1,16,0,1,1,0,2,6,0,4,9,81,27,2,0.13273588045712825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1297079661553559,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18052990083627268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1495478830642154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1488745766936758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08560366192943603,0.0,0.0,0.13472412459565178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11756459198839912,0.0,0.0,0.08767079718002986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12513157490414106,0.0,0.0671152494260849,0.0948265395204554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2773960762696718,0.0,0.07543685976335149,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11737790072126145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13622530765145258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07294816855607165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06484804644305328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1484974977082351,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1337665476885163,0.2816235861755192,0.1340254005156056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13928397796131772,0.0,0.08994526782933687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26554360134296945,0.0,0.08503400391730671,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5315670891966104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09395113937538274,0.0,0.0,0.11097313958144503,0.0,0.0,0.1519508263422462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2759268069117195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08505179255698317,0.13041232861225294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13479972975717958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,nigressnajari,2019/03/19,"Dad made me think I had a false memory but I confirmed it was real with my mom and brother Im 21 now with diagnosed schizophrenia. When I was younger, around 11 or 12, I would practice martial arts in my basement with my parents critiquing me. One day I kept looking through the window, paranoid that I would see a face. I would keep checking to make sure there wasnt anyone there, and then I heard someone tapping on the glass. I told my parents and they made a big deal of it, mocking me saying ""tapping on the glass"" in a really dumb voice when I was pretty shooken up. I now believe this was my first hallucination. But last year, I asked my dad about this event perfectly describing it and he acted like he didnt know what I was talking about. I began to question my memory, but then I asked my mom and little brother about it and they remembered it. I dont know what motivation my dad would have for lying about it but if anyone has been through something similar, any help would be appreciated.",5.1166758241758235,5.966173045918367,5.58183673469388,81.89722919937206,68.54081632653062,8.275667189952904,31.91365777080063,8.384062270229773,2.346269701726845,791,33,154,11,13,254,112,196,0.08900000000000001,0.792,0.119,0.8024,2,0,1,0,0,0,19.0,0,0,2,3,11,5,2,0,7,0,18,2,1,4,2,35,33,16,0,6,6,9,0,1,0,5,1,3,1,0,11,10,0,2,6,1,1,1,3,2,0,2,15,5,30,3,19,12,0,21,0,0,2,0,22,8,1,3,13,107,41,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08971226340196392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18448746268336466,0.0,0.0,0.11743956964361872,0.24666066717096025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14863221011604685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08507951571026626,0.1360069712314509,0.0,0.13389921665426047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1546129450900392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1122137609505211,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08842530422367577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14249963625745726,0.0,0.0,0.11725935403910785,0.0,0.0,0.14500302236643672,0.10753497187879747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06445098564451301,0.13222165016533458,0.0,0.0,0.11078221729801367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24965774181865266,0.0880597246343029,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.309013589313623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08939453821097287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2929700840916603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13421326713476073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1477841160190063,0.0,0.0,0.15015742227646184,0.08451334568085342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14944320801160366,0.0,0.0,0.1049105810392926,0.0,0.0,0.10512566754812024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11177805385351963,0.10156088329467848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12433600425303465,0.0,0.0,0.10603482793114008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08453102540172876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12605821984502086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4685720907782516,0.0,0.0,0.08495418102319509 schizophrenia,justtobesure_,2019/03/19,"Paranoid about something... (Please reply ASAP) Hey. So, a few months ago I started being paranoid that I was abused by someone close. It doesn't make a lot of sense, but the more opinions I read the more peaceful I can feel, I guess. So, one day I was already feeling like some shit was about to happen. The next day was when it all started. It all started the moment I woke up, saw the face of the person I'm suspecting (the person was closing my window) and (I'm not sure) but I remember interpreting the person's face as a perverse expression. This was the moment it all started. I realized my glasses were in a different position from the one I had placed before I went to sleep. I suspected that I might have been abused while I was sleeping (I have a very heavy sleep, and when I ""wake up"" while I'm sleeping and somebody talks to me it's like it is my subconscious talking, and I can't remember a thing the next day). The night that I'm paranoid about I was alone in the house with the ""suspect"". After a few days the suspect realized that I was acting weird and started to try to talk to me to know what was wrong, but I didn't say a word. During this time, the suspect started to take some ""weird actions"" (most people would interpret this actions as normal but, since I'm ""paranoid"" about this person, I find it really weird) to try and restablish a normal mood. After I got paranoid, I started locking my door to sleep, but sometimes I'm so tired I sleep in the couch and I end up going to my room during the night, but I don't remember it the other day. I talked to my psychologist about it, and he said that it is propably the fear of not being in control of myself when I'm asleep that manifested this ""paranoia"". My family is very religious, and my uncle told me that he had a feeling that he should talk to me about it, and he told me that it was just a thought my mind took too serious (I didn't tell him what I was paranoid about, but he got very close to it although I didn't say anything AT ALL). I also talked to a friend of mine and he said that it didn't make any sense and that I was just overthinking it. My brother told the same and told me that the person I was suspecting would never do such a thing, because this person was always a correct and respected person. A few days ago I ended up sleeping in the couch (I was really tired) and when I woke up in my room the person I'm suspecting was there just looking at me. I questioned what the suspect was doing there and the suspect told me that he/she was just checking/looking at me (probably to make sure everything was OK). My brother told me that it is a normal behavior of this person to check on people if they are ok while they are sleeping and that he was 100% sure nothing EVER happened. The ""suspect"" never hinted any psychopathic behavior, but then I think that it is the kind of cover nobody would suspect. I want your opinions on this, and please, don't joke about it, it is a really messed up situation and I'm feeling really bad about it. Would I wake up if somebody took my clothes off while I was asleep? Would I wake up if somebody touched me while I was asleep? Please, give me your opinions on this. Thanks for reading and replying, you don't know how much you might be helping.",4.564035025524674,5.187619503048783,5.307633295519004,84.1817512762337,69.67073170731706,8.114520703346571,29.585082246171304,8.133680483312611,1.9205891661939871,2558,94,519,33,43,831,227,656,0.125,0.802,0.073,-0.9841,1,1,1,0,2,0,85.0,0,4,2,1,27,22,1,1,45,2,60,19,17,5,11,108,112,49,0,13,17,2,5,2,1,8,2,4,6,9,51,24,0,1,28,3,1,7,13,9,0,2,48,11,77,12,62,53,15,74,0,0,2,0,48,27,1,14,42,372,128,2,0.0,0.11861607036243407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08874303870145524,0.0,0.0,0.05184279787107465,0.05523791070058602,0.04002967089218616,0.04165050386430885,0.0,0.0,0.06807943273928223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04119172599402952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04179457078212802,0.030513601173145825,0.0,0.04259386894262593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056141928199463086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19369141790578134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05229774302343728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08866930847155527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04527841118235643,0.0,0.0,0.044986999278695435,0.0,0.047188230856964386,0.0563267838126463,0.10123903215849424,0.035759932228825675,0.0,0.0,0.04575016947093366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03867305040089949,0.0,0.0,0.04801816332550145,0.028447911379397776,0.0,0.0800685233374767,0.0,0.055142197567926925,0.0,0.08852850259391137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03355140269047385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05775776740077152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05212549848057586,0.055018807540042285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.048909551222737435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08406866826507428,0.0,0.0,0.04255572101152645,0.0,0.0,0.1002380701301562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10620276144847607,0.050542171670678905,0.0,0.03995412759264076,0.0,0.03679683290365277,0.0,0.07721236436417778,0.0,0.10646999713350076,0.09394810908916283,0.14713240998982915,0.04802996896335698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06783832243897987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06940489215625809,0.3933617901435033,0.05229774302343728,0.16483898139284284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05396870715712791,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05607404386494371,0.0,0.10013885601904213,0.0,0.12826831950659298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17011067008614472,0.0,0.09522921326385064,0.07961289320616098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05138164373224709,0.041406742999957225,0.05626490882610093,0.4007362554910637,0.0,0.04241218653102207,0.03853546360892948,0.04950654739856122,0.0,0.24800867728722065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1415312296941269,0.0,0.03763579386563995,0.24139813206411814,0.043751047324938695,0.046084731088637435,0.0,0.0,0.06650980781814797,0.032073788131030304,0.0,0.03973877915217319,0.029187987436100026,0.11506374608925715,0.0,0.28698324310647844,0.11122785378662653,0.06796931648744706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12390403521605801,0.029524256211131493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04640230426642345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17779131262529535,0.054728249256427434,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,julsca,2019/03/19,Children of schizophrenia parents? I’m looking to hear/read voices of those people children or adults now. I have a relative that is in a poor situation. Just wondering what struggles others have gone through. ,4.5425,8.019143805555558,4.262444444444443,77.32700000000003,83.16666666666666,6.213333333333335,34.97777777777778,7.554174236665415,3.3641177777777784,171,10,24,3,5,52,31,36,0.162,0.838,0.0,-0.6808,1,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,1,2,0,3,0,0,0,0,3,7,1,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,3,4,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,1,2,1,0,5,6,0,3,0,0,1,0,4,1,0,2,1,18,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39306386836520135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29286013250733656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3872429156069417,0.0,0.0,0.2417776602509047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3488419556070608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3920068913752661,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36458669137284494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3782018734561553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,dcsross,2019/03/19,Woke up screaming. It's not the first time. What should I do? I've been going into a depressive mood for the last week or so. Last night I woke up my girlfriend by screaming at the top of my lungs. Is this a symptom of SZA or something else? Should I ask for therapy or something?,0.415960591133004,2.7284470000000027,1.8828078817733989,96.32155172413796,87.6206896551724,4.693596059113301,22.07881773399015,6.18269132825596,0.26037142857142825,218,8,48,2,7,70,41,58,0.146,0.823,0.032,-0.7608,0,0,2,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,2,1,4,0,0,5,0,5,2,1,0,0,7,9,4,0,2,4,0,0,0,1,2,1,2,0,0,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,3,0,1,3,2,5,0,9,4,0,12,0,1,0,0,2,5,0,3,6,33,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26294290274067883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2422513779344979,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23495911475138545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23924213268529115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15984822360764767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4585337091032924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2639462375448051,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4330599404387577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2923399122718812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3216487105555602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16400669561006262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22561218343662645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,tazman187,2019/03/19,"Hmm... So I went to school as usual, the conversations in my head going behind and to the sides. I was conversing with a teacher and she had an extra set of eyes. Have you guys had this happen to you? I saw a post about it in this sub recently. I broke into this really cold sweat and was having trouble looking her in the eyes due to the fact that she had for eyes. I dont even know what she said. I kept blinking and blinking my eyes to get rid of that extra set but to no avail. She had an estranged look. There were drops of sweat forming on my forehead. When the period was over and i made my way to the door, when i walked out i heard her voice yelling something like ""where did they say that"" but i walked quickly out of the door knowing that it was just in my head and that i shouldnt panic because of it. 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Was at work the other day and my boss started itching his face, A LOT. I thought hmmmm that was odd, maybe he's flushed since it was hot in there... on with the day. Then his itching started to correspond with conversation. Itching upwards when talking about something good, itching downward when talking about something bad. This is where I was thinking ummm hey... what the hell is going on here. But I didn't say anything because I'm kind of a pussy I guess. Then, as I walk by him to get something done he says what sounded like ""He wont pop, first left"" ???? as he wiped the snot off his nose onto his finger and halfway up his arm, pointing left. I kept walking, I heard what sounded like ""You missed your chance"" yelled from the office as I continued to do my job. I asked my buddy about it and he looked at me like I had two heads. Am I going insane?",1.8171843434343449,4.091279784090911,2.705151515151517,93.08328282828285,80.70454545454545,4.8202020202020215,24.550505050505052,5.82211442006289,0.4959239898989902,686,26,141,4,18,216,110,176,0.114,0.818,0.068,-0.8875,1,0,3,0,0,0,32.0,0,2,0,2,9,9,2,0,8,0,13,9,9,1,0,12,28,11,0,0,1,0,2,3,0,1,4,6,0,0,9,5,0,1,2,0,0,5,2,4,0,2,10,10,23,5,23,17,1,29,2,1,1,0,21,14,2,2,13,91,32,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1298940336273902,0.0,0.14756495794076582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13179504503897108,0.09622162318354578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20359557608274004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16153154073546322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13426395951132244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08246816298257452,0.0,0.2691230242122004,0.13239396515538787,0.0,0.0,0.1738854658873647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16199581515103945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15663807026189372,0.0,0.0,0.1643726036986598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34300087578446903,0.0,0.0,0.2313471481680929,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1325511150493701,0.0,0.0,0.1341952570016188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15857779760328253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14921574877972965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2510513841734574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13057206848814068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3645533187847633,0.0,0.0,0.2234488094741588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2537417108836422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1011415184363409,0.0,0.12531230947331487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15419287314328387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11491396696932756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,its-complicated-16,2019/03/19,"What does the science say on schizophrenia and genetics? If one parent is schizoaffective and the other is not, can the child be tested in utero? Can genetics be manipulated to prevent the gene from passing on to the child? Where is science on this topic? 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I don’t really know how this works, as I’m new to reddit. Bear with me. This post itself will probably even be disorganized. I. Just. Can’t. Anymore. I grew up in the advanced classes but diagnosed with ADHD. I used to be the smartest in my class despite my physical disabilities and was used to thinks making sense easily when taught. Then came middle school with all the mental health issues. I failed my first class in 6th grade. 7th-10th grade brought ten short term psych hospital stays and plummeting grades. Somewhere in that I was diagnosed with schizophrenia. Here i am senior year finally somewhat in control and a new symptom starts taking over... I can’t communicate what I am thinking in a way that makes sense to others; I can’t make words. My mom keeps yelling at me because she’s trying to help me with my wheelchair or something and I’m unable to directly say exactly what I need her to do. I feel more helpless than I already am. The big problem? I can’t tell if this is because of the schizophrenia or ADHD. I’m in between psychiatrists and therapists too right now so no help there. It’s so frustrating though... it’s all there together making perfect sense in my head but once I open my mouth -gone-",3.0943532763532744,5.731585723076925,3.914017094017094,84.15246438746442,78.30769230769229,7.236467236467237,26.937321937321936,8.285830014693849,2.0892279202279203,1088,45,201,22,27,347,151,260,0.094,0.815,0.091,-0.2145,0,0,1,0,1,0,36.0,0,0,0,9,13,6,1,0,7,0,17,6,2,9,4,41,40,19,0,3,6,1,1,0,0,1,4,2,0,0,13,13,0,2,5,0,0,5,7,5,0,4,6,3,30,1,29,31,5,39,0,3,0,0,8,17,0,4,12,130,43,12,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2739475895063593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12577240421099553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1130309181987326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13895416868622765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1303551271237051,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1278307813805972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2313610624507749,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07527830981405673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057628340360242086,0.0,0.0,0.12485221246910636,0.0,0.19389131321168016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11696951828604035,0.12114832057062737,0.0,0.0,0.15278784181051194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11895854572557747,0.0,0.1013047328082197,0.0,0.0,0.06263676172187081,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1275070034567797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3043123322091031,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1148583102190231,0.0,0.0,0.13348418706572845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08450978033284412,0.0,0.22015230540553096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12137787717750008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32746483612355354,0.0,0.12288252696782627,0.10905708474808017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07301423390130679,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09733260141276928,0.0,0.0906361668800941,0.0,0.11534709509968445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08774223796681306,0.0,0.0,0.08067090986706227,0.1214804055608554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1184619298832795,0.08569376029678033,0.0,0.1992354286762771,0.0,0.0,0.1323318210756555,0.0,0.1460590161441779,0.22395643686657327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07738040992844415,0.0,0.11133538281772533,0.0,0.0,0.19687272739909945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09046672464117513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10284320325883052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08297394193922764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07339508800829297 schizophrenia,lostbuthopefull,2019/03/20,"My best friend. Can one incident leave you with an illness forever? I’ve known this guy since I was born. He’s super chill, friendly, never hostile, pretty smart, great at sports. I grew up with him and I guess I can’t seem to understand what’s been happening. He stayed up for 5 days straight and ended up in a mental hospital on day 5. In the hospital he had a seizure. During those 5 days before the hospital, he told me he: found out how to time travel through music, he said he found out how math relates to music in ways that are profound said he started understanding math equations to the point where he was teaching the teacher information. How he came up with the equations on his own Told me the government was listening to our phone conversations and he couldn’t tell me too much information about what he knows because it would leave me mentally scarred This is half of it. I love the guy, I talked to him today. I though everything was back to normal after he got out the hospital. They diagnosed him with psychosis and schizophrenia. He’s on medication now. But the problem is on the phone he was still paranoid and had delusions. They were minor, but they were there, he couldn’t tell me it all because “the government was listening”. Did he become like this from staying up? Is that what caused this? He said he’s had thoughts like this before but never expressed them because no one could understand. The meds make him sleep all day and he’s depressed he says. His parents won’t let him leave the house. Does 1 episode trigger it forever? I’m just sad I guess, I don’t know what to do for him. 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Hello everybody My husband has schizoaffective disorder and he has been having bipolar and schizophrenic episodes since late december. He has been acting very de oriented  and confused till today. He has been taken haloperidol, lithium carbonate, benztropine (for shaking cuz the lithium) and propanolol since like 3-4 years ago and he's been doing pretty good and focused. But since november his psychiatrist prescribed him metformin to lose some weight. He stopped metformin on January when he started to get sick in case it was interacting with his other meds. Then on middle January his mom had to call to put him in the hospital inpatient room. He stayed there for one week and he came back home slightly better. But after couple of weeks he started to get confused again. I always made sure he was taking his meds properly. Then last week his mom put him in the inpatient again , he was there for 5 days then he came back and didn't improve at all. This last time on the hospital they gave him an haloperidol injection that he has to get once a month, then benztropine pills twice a day, and 1 Haloperidol pill at bedtime. They didn't left clear if he has to take lithium, his last blood test in there shows lithium levels of over 1.5 , so on the toxic side. However on the blood test of his first time on the hospital his lithium level were very low of 0.2. I'm really confused why his meds don't seem to be working when they were fine for 3 years. He has an follow up on next week and a psychiatrist appointment on April 16. Thank you and sorry for my long testament. I would like to hear someone opinion. :)",6.119970238095237,7.512195279605264,5.737293233082711,79.71271929824564,66.59868421052633,8.948370927318296,32.897243107769434,9.23628265651192,2.9774914160401007,1311,56,231,24,21,404,167,304,0.085,0.8340000000000001,0.08,0.1088,1,0,0,0,0,0,32.0,0,1,3,5,10,13,0,4,12,0,24,8,2,2,3,31,41,23,0,2,4,3,1,2,0,1,5,1,2,0,4,14,1,1,1,1,0,7,4,6,0,3,17,2,21,7,37,22,2,67,1,2,0,0,40,23,0,7,38,133,25,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0855786160405562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08033063844231286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09574367545960004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1484696048598922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08538351174473534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09858012772119026,0.2208365495869584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10682183438043492,0.0,0.12452314552110673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11064544177101876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0821185356290546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15131755695562069,0.0,0.0,0.0809748095040181,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10880979712301336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09683945008527296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2360837301449723,0.10890352769176123,0.0,0.10489311406211196,0.0,0.0,0.09433104311173257,0.0,0.0,0.0854365901215616,0.0,0.10800575057107606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09135032991026908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.42894538239783536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2261375363321245,0.07705886556327547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10267346191716066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10281402881311873,0.06541932565968925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09821787333157282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.194102655014406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061847246983227876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08788816785548735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.239581502675672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08179968321322012,0.0,0.0,0.10807081201644923,0.13666578200776325,0.10290087623874178,0.0,0.08071339530092347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09098964787152244,0.0,0.14517506723854412,0.0,0.0,0.08888285920509308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1125887779522078,0.0,0.09151048278409657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15931444330039152,0.0,0.0,0.3097605244684975,0.11756208980779127,0.0,0.0,0.08711409615134452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14056738271674382,0.0,0.0,0.06858063325819894,0.0,0.0,0.12433970454419573 schizophrenia,CoolguyPhD,2019/03/20,"I really hate setback days. It’s extremely irritating when I think I’ve come so far and how much I’ve improved since getting help just to get sent back to square one because of something I have no control over. Earlier today I passed by my grandmother (who I haven’t spoken to in over a decade) on my way home. The mere thought of her being close to my house made me feel paranoid and I felt sick thinking that she may have seen me or maybe she found where I live. I thought I was doing so well but now I have to go through the same motions of rational thinking and “mindfulness” til I feel like I’m stable again. These cycles of slowly building up confidence and breaking out of my old habits just to have it all swept away by some random occurrence is really tiring. I just wish for even a day I could do something normal like go to the store by myself without getting so anxious I neglect to get half of what I went there to get. 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I was on it for 6 months I slept like a rock after taking it It gave me anxiety 1 hour after taking it and the day after But, I slept like a ROCK again After 6 months I am again a normal guy I still do drugs though ",-1.5503181818181844,0.4216169454545451,1.6803409090909118,95.26051136363638,97.72727272727272,4.204545454545455,10.511363636363637,5.985473137389443,-1.225681818181818,192,2,45,2,8,68,34,55,0.036000000000000004,0.86,0.105,0.5106,0,0,1,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,5,2,0,0,4,0,3,3,2,1,0,4,8,4,0,1,1,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,1,5,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,6,2,7,4,0,13,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,13,32,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2034954791394005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17155322724939687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30848496029202194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.263389854629276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2619644090689021,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25991625585585165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26969047600552964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.42465027751219386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26063147288244604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1844165327256923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21243442348384112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4000099932698693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.261351621440948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,LuxandTenebris,2019/03/20,"Should I get lost in my own reality? Yesterday night i can’t sleep so I lay in my bed and next to me was my boyfriend and then I got this feeling that my boyfriend doesn’t exist. I thought that he is just a part of my own personality wich is personalized by my mind into the construction of my boyfriend and strangely I felt good with this feeling. And today i stood up and went to school but then I thought that it’s Just a illusion that I am walking to school right now and in reality I am doing something completely differently. And again I got a strange feeling but at the the same time a feel protected. Then at the way home the subway station seems to be different and not real, just like a drawing form a very realistic anime and I was stunned by the surrealism of my „reality“ also i heard some strange noises and sounds (like sounds from space) but I liked them. I had often thoughts and hallucinations like this but they always scared me but this time this is something completely different. I have this strong feeling that I have to go deeper in this other kind of reality maybe by taking drugs. I think there is something waiting for me, there is the answer of all my problems but at most there is this feeling of security. There is a nice warme place where i can be my real self. I just wanna feel beloved and hugged and i think i will find this in this other kind of reality. I think there is a creature waiting for me to be found in the deep of my own mind expended by drugs to tell me the truth and show me my real me and my real desire. Had someone of you guys the same experience? And what should I do ? I don’t wanna this world/reality anymore it’s fucked up and cold. 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This is starting to prevail as I get older.. I thought I had it under control for the most part, but I just let something that took hours to prepare go to waste because I can't control the disgusting thoughts, or images that come into my mind.. I have been celibate for quite some time since I hear family members cheering me on in my head, and/or picture gross things which immediately turn me off during sex. It's gotten to the point now that I can't even masturbate without my own mind turning me off.. Can anyone relate? Helpful advice is also welcome. Thanks.",5.32,6.622274815789478,5.493815789473686,81.0554605263158,68.38596491228071,7.1035087719298255,32.671052631578945,7.1686216300943375,2.166284210526316,475,21,84,4,8,150,84,114,0.064,0.777,0.159,0.9155,0,0,1,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,0,3,4,5,1,0,4,0,9,3,2,2,0,16,21,5,0,0,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,8,3,0,2,2,0,0,3,3,2,0,0,6,1,15,3,15,14,4,16,0,0,0,1,3,8,0,3,5,62,23,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1581103876234609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12939246560672582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11313525240907893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0986325893352353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13937751942479373,0.0,0.0,0.3629479009812348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10686825286266326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15253189452011867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08453451712382333,0.0,0.09195542488110828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3321096897178817,0.0,0.182361858924926,0.0,0.10845202126135824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15934171822413892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16545282289245214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3267464390202681,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17521507359237445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1529545562089152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17209563159010008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1338437326636711,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12456256917742872,0.0,0.0,0.11452381457061485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14896492650269866,0.0,0.0,0.10749361447160352,0.0,0.0,0.25690436619125673,0.09434765703238232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17976723171617864,0.0,0.3519867704962717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1559707087841013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Momthrowawayforthis,2019/03/20,"Hearing your own voice, kinda like the “bad angel” Hi. I’m a concerned mom trying to help my son. So this is new to me news, and apparently it’s been happening for a year or so. He is 21 years old diagnosed so far with extreme anxiety and panic disorder. He finally told me this morning—said it’s hard to explain— but he hears a voice that he thinks is like an internal voice of himself that eggs him on and he has no self control. Like, he has been having compulsive spending problems where I took away his credit card. And where he compulsively buys gaming things that add up to $200.00 of stuff. He said the voice says to just to it when he is struggling with making a decision about buying or not buying something. It doesn’t happen only when he is having anxiety. It doesn’t happen all the time. The one that scared him was when he was thinking about how easy it is to die (this is a new anxiety for him) and he was thinking about how people just kill themselves (my BIL, his uncle completed suicide in September sadly— we had no warning and were blindsided by it). And he thought to himslelf that he wouldn’t kill himself and his internal voice shouted NO! as if to say he was wrong and he would kill himself. He wrote a paper on the incidence of gun suicides (how my BIL completed) last semester after my BIL died and he said he is so sorry he wrote that because now that is going round and round in his head. Suicide facts, etc. So I’m asking you all, what is this? He does have his psych appointment tomorrow and I spoke with the nurse last night, but he informed me of the audio stuff this morning. As far as I am aware, he has no sexual abuse or trauma. He has had psych issues since about age 9, but it’s never been more than possible bipolar 2 (which was then ruled out but I realize this could be back in play now) and severe anxiety, add and panic disorder. In your experience, in your opinion, is this schizophrenia? He will get the proper help. We are lucky to have good insurance and resources, etc. I’m just trying to prepare myself for what this is. I want to read up on it, etc. He has been doing well at university, is finishing 3rd year and has a 3.3 GPA. Stupid major lol, but at this point the goal is get a degree and go to grad school. Opinions/thoughts/stories and experiences? Thank you so much. 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It's terrible, meds don't work for it, and people don't believe you, but I'm just letting you know you are not alone or crazy.",5.355882352941176,5.286424588235295,5.2694117647058825,87.56235294117648,67.82352941176471,9.15294117647059,31.70588235294117,8.841846274778883,2.223870588235294,132,5,29,2,2,41,25,34,0.0,0.769,0.231,0.7014,0,2,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,4,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,5,0,0,0,0,8,8,3,0,0,5,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,4,1,0,0,1,0,4,0,1,6,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,1,0,18,6,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6622774856176515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3602206607357121,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1757125339276436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32694054050803084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35514246982590003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2216571025985121,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2538259875929692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2327636548780289,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,miss_trash,2019/03/20,Does anyone have low blood pressure from Xeplion injections? and what to do about it?,3.9860000000000007,7.301539933333332,2.2816666666666663,92.0625,83.0,5.666666666666668,27.5,7.1686216300943375,1.6469999999999998,69,3,12,1,2,19,15,15,0.264,0.736,0.0,-0.5661,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,0,0,2,1,1,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,8,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6242256248996201,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7812441162777988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,sklett123,2019/03/20,"Is there anyone using an anti inflammatory diet to treat Schizophrenia? Hi! As the title says, I wounder if someone has tried it and how it works for you? I've read that schizophrenia could be caused by inflammation. I'm planning to start this diet and hope I could get some inspiration!",4.3984905660377365,7.035218283018872,4.796830188679248,79.55147169811325,73.71698113207547,6.504150943396226,25.69433962264151,7.554174236665415,1.4824143396226408,231,8,40,3,5,73,44,53,0.04,0.7859999999999999,0.174,0.8245,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,1,0,2,2,3,0,0,2,0,5,2,0,3,0,11,10,5,0,4,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,4,2,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,3,5,7,1,1,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,3,1,25,7,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22175449240902986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32579429876370025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5064274323489255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16569467550267789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31499559901751223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3172298717993532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25220567629176344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2687151227972473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22447618958787555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21531999078861397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27391063118755266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23088464419574195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,ishouldbedeadnow,2019/03/20,"Reoccurring voices? The voices I hear are the same ones I’ve been hearing for years, I named them or they named themselves. Does anyone else have reoccurring voices? I have OSDD so I’ve always thought about them as a dissociative thing, like pieces of my consciousness got cut off and turned into their own person. Sometimes they are helpful. They can control my body sometimes though which can be scary. 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I hope this post is allowed. My partner was diagnosed with schizophrenia a few years ago, following an psychotic episode in which he had positive symptoms: he began hearing voices and experiencing delusions and paranoia. This episode happened before we met. He has been on Zyprexa since the episode and the paranoia and delusions have gone away completely, but he still has auditory hallucinations. He told me he used to hear 4 different voices, but since starting the Zyprexa it has reduced to only one voice, but she refers to herself in plural form. He says he hears this voice every day, usually when he’s alone, especially in the shower. It worries me that he still has the auditory hallucinations. He has previously been on Risperidone but told me he had some adverse side effects, so he doesn’t want to talk to his doctor about adding any other medication because he thinks he’ll have bad side effects again. He told me he had told his psychiatrist the voices are gone, even though they aren’t. I haven’t pushed it because I’m trying to respect his decision, but part of me still has questions. Is it realistic to think adding another medication could help the hallucinations go away completely? Am I overstepping by worrying about it or trying to encourage him to be open with his psychiatrist? And looking to the future - I love him dearly and we are planning on getting married. What will his future look like? Is it only going to get worse from here? I am a therapist and have worked with clients with schizophrenia, but I feel like everything I thought I knew about it went out the window when I started dating him and getting such an intimate window into what’s going on in his head. I would never have known he had this dx if he hadn’t told me, and when I started doing research online to see how I could support him the best, all the advice I found was extremely negative and basically “leave him while you still can” which is not at all helpful. He is pretty open with me about this stuff, but I also have to be careful because I tend to switch out of “partner” mode and into “therapist” mode when we talk about it. I want to be a supportive partner, but I’m not sure where the line between supportive and pushy is. 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Figured I go ahead and introduce myself instead of lurking. So hi everyone!,3.917179487179485,7.018460461538464,5.490000000000002,71.13833333333336,79.0,8.082051282051282,39.43589743589744,8.841846274778883,4.6594512820512834,116,8,17,3,3,39,24,26,0.156,0.8440000000000001,0.0,-0.4389,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,2,4,1,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,3,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,1,0,0,4,0,2,3,1,5,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,4,15,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5098454414932685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4462406076898495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3972318262092444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2654081079585418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4510336274061928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33054655536289473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,shogunmaeve7,2019/03/21,"Any Borderlines or “previous” BPD suffers? Howdy all :) I was diagnosed in 2017 with Borderline Personality Disorder. I have regularly been seeing my Community Mental Health Team, Drs etc. When I saw my GP this week, I check in with her monthly, we were talking about stuff & she asked if I had ever been diagnosed as schizophrenic ... and to mention everything I told her at my next appointment at the hospital (next week). My question is; Is there any one who has BPD & Schizophrenia? or, previously diagnosed with BPD but it was changed to Schizophrenia? or has BPD with Schizophrenic symptoms? Thank you for any answers or insight. And to everyone who reads this, please try to take care of yourself x ",5.045618279569894,7.9374947983871,5.2835483870967765,75.58698924731183,72.79032258064517,9.617204301075267,33.72043010752688,9.928628108626363,4.086362365591398,561,29,93,17,12,177,85,124,0.03,0.8640000000000001,0.107,0.9011,0,0,0,0,0,0,25.0,1,1,0,1,4,3,0,0,1,0,11,8,0,0,2,18,18,10,0,1,6,0,0,0,0,0,8,0,0,1,6,7,0,0,3,2,1,0,0,1,0,1,8,2,15,2,16,10,2,11,0,1,2,0,14,4,0,6,7,63,21,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25422118364716106,0.0,0.23933436431630165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10967354915326676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5910157911048807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11961030901122567,0.0,0.12410355674782028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35721631229846595,0.0,0.0,0.13445298269396894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13083706941757542,0.0,0.10611799894672716,0.0,0.1120993673528332,0.105435023389983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12470020050615176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1182257768547438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09363959465621426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2495313494585141,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07949557903141018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10243480267011967,0.0,0.1287764771852353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13141948165613945,0.0,0.11734659786048322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09348474727928678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13429743682900291,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12193504903090005,0.08820616778508987,0.09429323326206586,0.0,0.10800775286545113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1120993673528332,0.0,0.07964908294126782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18820579397129086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,leaves27,2019/03/21,"Am I schizo? Iv'e noticed loss of cognitive abilities and disorganized thoughts since my sophmore year and I didn't know what it was so I orginally thought it was my brother smoking weed in the house, bad posture, and menningitis all of which are pretty much incredible because I got a neck x ray which came back normal, and I didn't have mennigitis and the weed thing doesn't make too much sense logically. But even now when I'm around weed it's very hard for me to think and when I hunch I get dizzy and very disoriented and cannot concentrate or think well. This leads me to believe i'm imagining these symptoms kinda like charles mcgill from better call saul, and I'm really scared. It got really bad today even though I was feeling better, then it suddenly got very bad and I was contemplating sucidie but I didn't because I didn't have enough money to buy rope at home depot. I could hang myself with a belt but then my mom would find me, and I can't really think of any other ways other than jumping off a cell tower which I imagine to be traumitizing. Can false beliefs of syptoms just be pychosis, and even if this is just phychosis what had been causing my mental deficits in the first place? I had a four point until junior year and now im failing a bunch of my classes and I took like four aps bc I thought I would get better if I worked hard. Im really sad. Im sorry that my post was bad and the main idea of it was kinda jumbled, I just want someone who might be expericing something similar to give me some insight.",4.071320028510336,5.5259844655737735,4.825017818959374,84.0886600142552,71.55737704918033,7.9272986457590875,28.014967925873126,8.456263369488248,1.9193977191732,1222,45,243,20,23,394,173,305,0.118,0.816,0.066,-0.9451,2,0,1,0,0,1,18.0,0,0,0,8,16,14,0,1,9,0,29,2,1,3,1,55,50,28,0,7,9,2,3,2,0,3,1,0,1,0,19,18,0,0,15,0,2,5,7,8,1,3,21,3,31,6,21,22,7,27,1,3,0,0,6,7,0,7,15,157,50,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0650653384100595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0851750368548446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07357162663986053,0.31955353118837,0.11665066564485325,0.0,0.0,0.10779802763981933,0.0,0.2538622172482439,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09769946323568927,0.1094318543514614,0.0,0.09828919873416296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07639229220932188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0988624963226967,0.0,0.18958621460846226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04837842812913525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08744932615239813,0.08138493059524503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09997717548450803,0.09178449117131114,0.0,0.0,0.2295709008136601,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17142007046518154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09597433592426527,0.0,0.0,0.11040129244708874,0.0,0.10801050506868642,0.3100508237605853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05258294888002511,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0934883377768022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06386680668121612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09642242811834444,0.10150082536955013,0.0,0.11205866957068587,0.0,0.0,0.1406708774712286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0937455916016767,0.0,0.10893174059038324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09996470919296767,0.0,0.0904480502612596,0.0,0.09163450911010436,0.09734044504167258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2451789411332895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09579186712564372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07914706798654163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08106892664395644,0.0736587506569158,0.0,0.1071053626073014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09944763158320498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06356520580669932,0.1839226734009393,0.09400461923142236,0.2278764974532624,0.0,0.0,0.09069297489379508,0.0,0.10630344079050524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2368368142131421,0.0564342458327841,0.07594593057465197,0.0,0.0,0.08602735773508438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06965581277553735,0.0,0.0,0.13593593785229874,0.0,0.0,0.12322891716279308 schizophrenia,simulated_mind69,2019/03/21,Energy Drink Addiction I've been addicted to energy drinks since I was 15 or 16 years old. I'm 29 now. Anyone else have this problem? I got schizophrenia at 21 so it's not just the illness. I've been drinking more of them since I got sick because of the medicated feeling. Do the energy drinks make schizophrenia worse and do they interfere with meds? Thanks. ,2.06246376811594,4.881972347826093,3.1333333333333364,86.25333333333334,86.3913043478261,7.12463768115942,23.608695652173914,8.167268648758528,1.8784608695652176,288,11,54,7,9,92,52,69,0.126,0.6990000000000001,0.17600000000000002,0.2006,0,0,4,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,2,0,3,2,0,0,3,0,6,9,0,1,0,9,12,3,0,1,3,0,1,0,0,0,5,0,0,0,2,2,4,1,1,4,0,0,1,1,0,0,5,1,5,1,5,7,1,4,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,1,3,28,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36707408117186535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11772109168869307,0.17250451822115564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1026305757523079,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6597140628618182,0.0,0.0,0.1406430153780912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08512777711875602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2693054354067625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11238147857827943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1870097916926092,0.16960479330880068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17666529638935505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16109759791140474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2785379444398984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15500309052933495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17157302682126654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10841819588287033 schizophrenia,Sendmenudes96,2019/03/21,I have schizophrenia and I smoke weed. Please help! So I have been diagnosed with schizophrenia and I had been well for a while my meds were working and thought I’d try doing weed again ended fully addicted again and I want to stop but each time I’ve tried to come off weed I’ve had a psychosis those times I wasn’t on my meds so I hoping that my meds will be able to get me throw it. Any advice would be much appreciated. Or just if anyone is going through or has gone through something similar ,1.1986303630363049,3.679332485148514,2.0627970297029705,95.26436056105614,85.53465346534655,4.950825082508251,20.297854785478552,6.42735559955562,0.08761320132013184,395,12,85,4,12,123,70,101,0.016,0.823,0.161,0.9227,0,0,2,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,1,6,2,0,0,2,0,15,2,0,0,0,17,22,11,0,4,5,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,3,7,0,1,1,0,0,4,1,0,1,0,8,0,11,2,9,10,2,13,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,4,7,57,14,1,0.18617903500989372,0.0,0.0,0.20296262921849734,0.0,0.18193199825649156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12660812815787548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1301807101570986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16037675324263834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1889678014971432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16489936415347434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0972708615363784,0.0,0.1058098360936681,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12479188268150625,0.0,0.0,0.18491779053036506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6204088105108844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13686301276659896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20436867192594974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1433297170352988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15565400981360755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14780535739783832,0.217124985052816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25280668731778344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10981321858130094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1673973116771345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13554055486880773,0.0,0.0,0.13225624473355518,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,proflayton9999,2019/03/21,"What is the name of this weird thing that keeping plaguing me? Hello everyone, I need help figuring out the name for the thing that has been plaguing me for over 10 years. started small when I was in 5th grade, seemed to skip 6th had a great year, then came full force in 7th grade causing me to go to hospitals and eventually dropping out, despite being a good and bright student, it was just too overwhelming for me to bear. Id never had a normal time at school since. I thought when I would leave school Id leave the ""weird thing"" behind me. Enter: college &#x200B; On some mornings, Like mostly in a classroom setting, maybe its the fluorescent lightning, I start to get loud intrusive thoughts. Embarrassing thoughts. like soandso is so cute! and I don't even think that, it just pops up. It gets so loud I think everyone can hear it, which causes me to get anxious and start to sweat and want to pass out. This only seem to happen in the morning. Ive been told I have schizophrenia, or paranoia. I also believe I have BPD. but I just want to know the name of this weird thing that happens to me. &#x200B; &#x200B; It just makes me want to run away from everyone and hide. It can happen at home, but it mostly happens in school settings. &#x200B; 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schizophrenia,martinothewiener,2019/03/21,"my girlfriend says she’s being raped.. so im in a long relationship with a girl i’ve known for about a year now. she has “cheated” on me although no proof of it and im confused. she has these four friends.. lilly,mark,jack and issy. i have no idea who these people are and she constantly talks about them. she was sending revealing pictures of herself to me and kept saying sorry wrong person(she says the person she meant to send it to was a girl)so i logged on to her account and nobody fit in her description so she refuses to talk about it. she also says someone from my school has been raping her which is a huge problem but that person says he doesn’t like her and is currently in a relationship (even though he goes from relationship to another)so im confused on what to do because i believe she is delusional and im young so i dont know many mental illnesses that involve delusions accept schizophrenia 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schizophrenia,javid2018,2019/03/21,"I deeply sympathize with you Right now, under the feeling of depression and suicide thoughts with tears on my eyes, I am writing this. I don\`t know, maybe you will hate me. At least I hate myself. I deeply want to connect with people here and have a friendly chat where I can help you like make at least 1% difference in your life. I admire you. You are heroes nobody can see. People get angry when wifi suddenly stops working. But you people battle with demons your entire life and still manage to keep up. My role models!",3.168787878787878,5.739657242424244,3.28918181818182,89.11377272727276,77.58585858585859,5.576161616161617,21.011111111111113,6.742157984588678,0.4929062626262626,413,11,76,4,10,126,72,99,0.212,0.638,0.15,-0.8555,0,0,0,0,0,1,15.0,0,8,0,2,5,8,3,0,2,0,6,3,1,1,0,16,16,5,1,1,1,0,1,1,1,1,2,0,0,0,1,7,0,2,3,1,0,0,0,4,0,0,1,3,19,4,13,14,2,13,1,1,2,0,13,8,0,0,6,52,20,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18438627705724325,0.0,0.0,0.2236674128054388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10824497907906444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16539721656032202,0.0,0.11184765284041036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4227181811045872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14349291196770464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19028361071805625,0.0,0.0,0.1176524418329747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3024212283911684,0.10458838327461124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1428996645902076,0.0,0.21507153564553788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4452471110753427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18282264139094964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17059356811338702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17096408865147047,0.1789799676683156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2341681215915106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16995513395348624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1262695791439656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15585235585780582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,TimberFrog,2019/03/21,"Am I developing Schizophrenia? Hi everyone, Recently I am worried I may have triggered Schizophrenia after going to the counselor to talk about health anxiety, which included those fears. The counselor, who had a masters in psychology and worked in counseling many years - said I did not have Schizophrenia. Later that night, I was really tired, I had like 4 hrs of sleep the previous night and the night before and I was still thinking about Schizophrenia and all of a sudden I heard an intrusive thought that said something negative. However I never heard this thought the next day. And the following day (saw the counselor on Tuesday), I was able to complete a research study, parts of my assignments, watch an NBA Game and talk with my parents. Today was a bit weird though. I woke up and my heart felt a little funny and suddenly I wondered ""what if something is eating my heart?"". I had this same intrusive thought a few days ago but it went away. I said to myself multiple times ""No, its not. if there was, would I be alive right now? its not a belief based in reality?"". Still the thought stuck in my mind and I kept repeating to myself that it was not true. I understand the feeling is probably anxiety, or gas and nothing is eating my heart as I would not be here typing up this post. And today I do not know if I am smelling phantom smells. I woke up today and I thought one of the rooms smelt a bit like Disinfectant, I did notice that our beer pong table was wiped. A few minutes ago when studying, I thought I smelled a sandwich. I looked around and saw a few sandwich and food wrappers that were already eaten but it did smell closer to me and when I walked around I found the area it was coming from, except the person did not look they had a sandwich but I am not too sure. I worry cause I heard Phantom smells could be a first symptom, but I am taking Omnaris to clear my nasal passageways to get rid of fluid in my ears. Part of me kind of realizes it is a bit improbable to think that I triggered Schizo right after visiting the counselor who said I did not have it, but I worry my lack of sleep or visiting the counselor could have triggered it. Im just worried. The counselor said I had health anxiety and I found the counseling session helpful.",4.428010620915032,6.220228219907413,4.798164488017432,83.29269607843138,71.19907407407408,7.860130718954249,30.298474945533773,8.4952907291091,2.3467383442265795,1789,76,334,30,34,565,202,432,0.071,0.866,0.063,0.5141,2,0,3,0,0,0,47.0,1,0,1,3,14,7,0,1,32,0,41,19,7,4,5,76,79,30,0,8,21,1,2,2,0,3,4,9,1,1,23,20,8,1,17,2,0,7,12,2,0,2,44,22,52,5,37,27,11,55,1,0,5,0,21,18,0,7,31,243,75,5,0.0712226430384774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12626915145046744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07859595765617293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1634553809384656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12680650476288513,0.0,0.0,0.06691601764069009,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06060522343021369,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23327003908559155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07316527358047681,0.0,0.061352000493844025,0.07467558615835393,0.0,0.0,0.1137309700540283,0.0,0.0,0.13779813797270746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1457570891613789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06805628760257905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08014527449171224,0.03601230832123295,0.0,0.06838490651886231,0.0,0.0,0.06058194378442482,0.08612270267249361,0.15618390382816905,0.0,0.0,0.03721089138141942,0.0,0.04047746936521962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15141267805792746,0.0,0.2531975247727553,0.047739036319809865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07693267634846321,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07416742268897553,0.0391421019809174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06959157158787889,0.07138379918423887,0.0,0.0,0.11961816454260878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07220858120515825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07191456617560953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05493129304794227,0.0,0.0757460888746893,0.20051287721236236,0.0,0.0683400468807242,0.08108745115980615,0.0,0.0,0.04826230617936192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0790843164626894,0.15425436362954814,0.0,0.0,0.062188864715790965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06821160427390043,0.0,0.07679005539279063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04562704889045383,0.0,0.07032376763681816,0.0,0.0,0.1216474960018993,0.33874521675368424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14254815835899634,0.0,0.0,0.10966134046906603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11375698946513335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06712649817840698,0.07402759677993646,0.053550563797643946,0.11449212521711948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09127318762955226,0.06997588516819381,0.339256937556736,0.041530495913059365,0.08185995089868547,0.20253221326624155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0741452832044685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0660241036457952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07723791822068504,0.051850932389596135,0.289320204939756,0.0,0.1011890442741519,0.0,0.0,0.045865046990702034 schizophrenia,alexaxelalu,2019/03/21,"Who else can I turn to? My doctor won’t listen. I’ve even tried a psychiatrist with the help of a therapist. Family believe me but everyone including ‘help’ say stuff like, “Oh don’t pay attention/Don’t listen” HOW LIKE HOOOOOW It doesn’t trouble me too much but it’s been getting worse lately... I used to see stuff a lot, but it’s turned more into hearing. It just bugs me, sometimes keeps me awake at night. 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When I go out I feel like everyone’s watching me and I constantly watch my back. When I’m out I also hate having people walking behind me even if they are a long distance away it just makes me paranoid. Have you guys got any tips on what to do on making life easier I’m not on any meds at the minute.,-0.03519163763066402,2.0563661138211407,2.2266724738675947,94.74676829268292,87.04878048780489,5.465505226480834,20.167828106852497,6.868970318607317,0.3024267131242744,444,14,102,6,14,150,78,123,0.095,0.8009999999999999,0.105,0.0516,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,1,1,0,6,6,2,0,4,0,8,2,1,2,0,15,22,5,0,1,3,0,4,4,0,0,1,0,0,1,8,4,0,0,4,0,0,2,3,2,0,2,2,8,17,4,15,19,1,22,0,0,4,0,5,11,0,3,11,65,25,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11974911829026327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20366023158640806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14068811974846074,0.11514283092813506,0.0,0.0912817106637321,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.485455722201687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0989035875738009,0.0,0.0,0.1430854895053582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3028574696552346,0.3209284707377401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08510218118099508,0.0,0.23952570327871014,0.0,0.0,0.14826873528190246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2956796698465974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10576764019428256,0.2926267193487492,0.0,0.0,0.13251750566355594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19990872186672354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1663302926193093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20293894796782244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10381267764013853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14155517601902806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11885872099366172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,scrtskwirel,2019/03/21,"medicine changes? my daughter was diagnosed a couple years ago. but, i just wondered how many medicine changes are normal? or how often? this just seems ridiculous and idk if its like this or not as the medications i take for health conditions have been the same for years and aside from adjustments at the beginning, havent changed. how long did it take to find one that worked well? do they generally take care of all the hallucinations or just minimize them? just a quick rundown... in the past two years shes been on: Abilify, Saphris, Latuda, Zyprexa, Seroquel, Risperdal, Geodon, Haloperidol and many others, starting at the minimum dose and maxing it out generally within 3 or 4 months. honestly dont know how she stays awake sometimes, for example she was at max dose of geodon and haloperidol at the same time, taking each 3x a day. it just seems like weve done every combination of drugs and worked thru the list and started over again and again. shes also autistic and younger in age so, while shes stopped hiding that she has hallucinations, i cant help but wonder if theres maybe a misunderstanding in how well the medications will treat them. that maybe they dont make every hallucination or paranoid thought go away but rather easier to deal with but she has the idea that they should all go away and everything will be normal and thus reports the medications as not working because a thought still comes to mind. or as shes young enough and has other illnesses that shes mistaking what a normal worry or fear is and attributing it to this. i really only have those concerns because weve tried what seems like every combination of medications at every dose and multiple inpatient stays and done the gene testing which says what medications should be effective. (anyone have experience with that? are they normally accurate or way off?) but it seems like those are some of the least effective for her. so has anyone else had a similar experience? 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Write that for a screenplay Unspeakable horrors now run around your backyard while talking about royalties and taking a smoke break mid writing 'Oh fuck.... neat'.",10.600857142857144,11.5717578,8.092142857142857,68.21535714285716,56.71428571428571,11.0,40.35714285714286,10.686352973137794,4.614857142857144,346,16,50,7,4,100,56,70,0.299,0.6409999999999999,0.06,-0.975,0,0,1,0,0,0,6.0,0,5,2,2,3,6,2,0,3,0,3,1,0,2,0,15,8,5,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,3,6,0,0,3,0,0,1,1,3,0,0,2,0,7,3,7,5,2,7,0,0,0,1,13,3,1,0,2,32,10,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2943986947636982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28140667873592234,0.0,0.3470558281909895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33972643728960683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.362602356370364,0.0,0.3057326183735746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3658774903685695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2486499586967692,0.2658091734936562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2625438387223423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19505912678921647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Quints55555,2019/03/21,"Drinking with delusional disorder? I was diagnosed at 22 with delusional disorder. Many years later at 29 I'm ~6 years sober and experience no symptoms thanks to a good psych who prescribed me 40mg of latuda which I never miss. I think I'm very fortunate for that. I've felt like after so many years it may be ok to drink socially again. Maybe a few here or there. No drugs, just alcohol. Can anyone shed light on their experiences?",2.297710843373494,5.074807987951812,3.712060240963858,83.23218674698798,83.57831325301207,8.139277108433738,23.96265060240964,8.841846274778883,2.314687710843374,345,13,65,10,10,113,67,83,0.11,0.7170000000000001,0.174,0.6905,0,0,4,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,1,0,5,5,0,0,2,1,4,6,0,0,1,9,10,3,0,0,2,0,1,1,0,1,4,0,0,0,4,3,3,0,2,2,0,0,3,1,0,0,2,2,5,4,10,6,1,10,0,1,0,0,3,3,0,2,8,36,9,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18805105191472585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12303749859325465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1785988537227793,0.0,0.0,0.4033379399878205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3447537179486906,0.2040613442292033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3442513745640584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16895218131005268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1475895090366547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08596668781965627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35679795220749605,0.17677859610076044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1357135990245407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17937223215980266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1828930474542875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16200319126657342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11275005648272048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14518799496518722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3399434230196602 schizophrenia,baubaubuo,2019/03/22,"Curious - Question about hallucinations https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Fl1XPQ7OPo0 I just watched this video/interview with this dude who suffers from schizophrenia and he at one point says if the interviewer were a hallucination he wouldn't be able to tell it since they are always so real. I was wondering, if he were experiencing such a hallucination wouldn't it be possible to find out it's not real by simply trying to touch it? Would your hand just go through? I'm not trolling or being disrespectful, I'm just wondering because I know nothing about the condition and all of sympathy to those who do have it. :( ",7.723018867924527,10.089632009433966,7.0548584905660405,68.08247641509436,63.81132075471698,10.58301886792453,34.00471698113208,10.686352973137794,4.0891735849056605,507,22,81,14,8,157,74,106,0.057,0.862,0.081,0.3695,0,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,1,1,0,7,1,0,0,4,0,12,1,1,0,1,23,18,6,0,5,8,0,2,0,0,3,0,1,0,0,10,4,0,0,5,0,0,1,4,1,0,1,3,5,5,0,13,9,1,4,0,1,1,0,11,3,0,6,0,58,15,1,0.21689853844530588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1804769593661384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13221933585680945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19824133469067348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12326843782724728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1192017643427178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20811999742420184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14697606302883476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2050392266341038,0.2445205124928271,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2429760026211976,0.0,0.0,0.4937560437678653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1724864234415842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17942071236960827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18957888279126556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1472598700103714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4704344253434711,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15407849858846026,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,ImUglierThanAProton,2019/03/22,"Are these symptoms psychotic? Hi I have an appointment in a month or two to get tested. I've been in therapy for many years now but could never find the cause of my problems. However, I know up until this point I've always been careful about what I tell people because the idea of this scares the shit out of me - and at the same time doesn't. As a preface I have experienced childhood trauma but do not have any known schizophrenics in my family, though have multiple people with BPD. Anyways some insight into my symptoms would really help me. I plan on working up a full list before my doctor's appointment but don't really know what's anxiety and what could be more (I certainly overthink). Thanks. Also most of this stuff happens when I'm stressed, if I feel good then I don't really experience this. - a constant state of fog and unclear/jumbled thoughts - sudden spikes of extreme anger for seemingly no reason - this is especially true if I take my ADHD medicine - if I'm stressed I often lose track of time and just sit there daydreaming in a fantasy world for hours or days on end, I still function but am only partially there - I have looping panic attacks (sometimes) where my entire mind dissolves within itself seemingly. I seemingly entirely lose my own identity and more or less forget who I am. - I see sparks in light and my vision becomes very hazy for seemingly no reason, especially when in public, this is in conjunction with all my other senses including touch becoming very numb and sometimes oversensitive. - when I'm out in public I think people are looking and talking about me. Sometimes it goes as far to where I randomly start fights with people (never been in a fight though but I do just get like insanely angry for seemingly no reason). - I have a god awful memory and can barely remember anything. Amplified when I'm stressed. - I have a lot of conversations with myself... Like constantly, I feel like I'm in control of the voices but the reality is the only real way for me to stop talking to myself is if I just ignore the thoughts. Which isn't always possible. - I feel like everyday I have a new pair of glasses on. Like with rose tented glasses everything just sort of shifts - as in my identity, asperations, what I enjoy etc. Randomly shifts. - my sleep is terrible (probably just the anxiety) - I often get delusions of grandeur where I think I'm some special deity , though I know this is not the case I for some reason cannot reason with the belief that I am. Anyways, the list goes on and I certainly have some weird experiences in the past that may actually have been delusions. Though I haven't had any psychotic breaks or anything. would love some feedback on this as I seriously don't know what to think, hopefully the doc will be able to help me more... 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I feel a combination of extreme nervousness, disgust, and relief. I'm so scared, I just want the paranoia to end. Nothing in life is enjoyable right now. 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When I was a child I didn't have this and for making new friends and find love it's so freakin difficult... how do you do for this stuff?,-0.7767857142857117,1.2902591785714321,1.2264285714285703,100.51857142857143,91.14285714285714,5.342857142857143,16.92857142857143,6.868970318607317,-0.2624,198,5,50,3,7,65,39,56,0.04,0.7120000000000001,0.248,0.9183,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,1,0,0,4,5,0,0,1,0,6,3,0,3,0,9,12,8,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,1,5,4,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,2,0,4,4,5,10,0,3,0,0,0,2,7,1,0,0,3,29,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24978701118733385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21114731999572345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15019598455530975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1335183099835638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4933194716640902,0.0,0.18242677739081395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2639503651971151,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1894685940399112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1750800080638477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6257156120081098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21966446103480347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,easterninside32,2019/03/22,"Who has switched from Risperdal to Abilify? I've been on Risperdal, .75mg for 2 years now. It helps with intrusive, obsessive thoughts, and helps keep me from talking to myself outloud. It doesn't eliminate them but makes them more manageable. I don't like the sexual side effects and have heard good things about Ability for my symptoms so I spoke with a doctor and am starting Abilify tonight. For one's who have made the switch, how did you do it? Did you taper off the risperdal or go cold turkey? How did you like Abilify when compared to Risperdal? I will be starting at 5 mg, I'd like to keep it at that dosage. &#x200B;",3.1134022038567517,5.610419066115703,3.0681198347107457,91.02521005509644,77.34710743801655,7.008539944903582,29.09159779614325,8.07648339933343,2.013082093663912,501,23,100,9,12,151,81,121,0.094,0.821,0.085,-0.2941,0,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,3,2,1,6,5,0,1,4,0,13,2,0,5,0,15,23,9,0,0,2,0,0,3,0,1,2,2,0,0,8,5,0,2,2,0,0,1,2,1,0,1,8,3,11,4,16,13,1,12,0,0,0,0,12,5,0,1,9,64,19,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2403436442534063,0.2695375609619689,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2270438384711477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12606634464294286,0.18605345962630854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29736472659955104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3943305150172521,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32511253243934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20989299044867585,0.14806766100613536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15031207779255545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31401298392455657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2305576083461176,0.0,0.17829182435162888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1473684349391424,0.0,0.0,0.17610159710760848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2695375609619689,0.14284585750221934 schizophrenia,Kutx4u,2019/03/22,"Can hearing voices benefit you? I've thought about this for awhile and I think my voices are my subconscious or at least a part of it I at first started hearing voices after a loss that's when it was at its peak uncontrollable and scary but they helped me solve problems and since my voices are basically me they helped me figure out what I needed and who I really was and once I accepted them (even tho one of them constantly told me to do some horrific thing) I accepted my self and I really knew who I was and they dont speak as much after I've accepted them, a part of me misses them I can talk to them whenever I want but it's not the same but I believe that they helped me alot even tho at times i just wanted them to go away they gave me comfort made me forget how lonely I felt and I think the next time I go through some traumatic experience or problem in my life they will be there to help, so in a way for me at least I consider my voices as a really cool coping mechanism ",3.301333333333332,4.37770687317073,4.878536585365853,84.42772357723578,72.95121951219512,8.783739837398375,24.88617886178861,9.21078282632365,1.8060178861788607,779,23,167,17,15,263,108,205,0.147,0.742,0.11,-0.8723,0,2,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,1,12,2,10,12,0,1,8,1,11,1,0,2,0,37,28,20,0,5,7,0,1,0,0,1,1,8,0,1,11,9,0,0,9,0,0,2,2,6,0,2,9,10,44,6,24,17,9,21,0,3,0,0,26,9,0,5,9,131,55,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13315526993670218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1596755031350601,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15315433847021653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16610060349079098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18721600551125156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13863421067803344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13607819186146874,0.0,0.0,0.1205511828456445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16109112734775194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3194686716681501,0.0,0.3799810264750093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10010453409867093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13410358866806765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10418415637306028,0.10508726577170067,0.0,0.0,0.15072610813327345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.150932462343646,0.0960365041683678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3069486522389361,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2712233022987598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2723779250005365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14785004758205805,0.0,0.0,0.11723635560979015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1003136596954349,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11391315843668777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09415576927790784,0.18162326996288602,0.0,0.11251379139353952,0.16528193365009386,0.0,0.0,0.13542427756640474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16718611267185846,0.11249468047862908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,wellwellwell583837,2019/03/23,"I believe I was misdiagnosed Any websites would help, I need to find an appropriate way to handle the situation. I know if I see that psychiatrist again I’ll act in a demeaning manner I however have a new psychiatrist to which I indeed need to convince I’m not suffering from schizophrenia.",5.904444444444442,7.704672222222223,7.593518518518517,64.66583333333335,67.51851851851852,11.325925925925928,35.72222222222222,11.20814326018867,4.769422222222223,236,12,39,8,4,82,40,54,0.0,0.846,0.154,0.7394,1,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,4,0,3,0,0,0,0,7,8,1,0,4,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,1,1,7,1,6,6,0,5,0,1,1,0,1,1,0,1,2,25,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2208228024775649,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3658516676722397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2967909757733865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2176550088934205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1784592905833018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4815560393277492,0.0,0.3136195355804228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25876222090493506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3650023024047682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25775003459704426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23067393090911656,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Miss_Sassafras_,2019/03/23,"It’s my fault I got hospitalized last year I woke up I said a bunch of strange things to my parents they brought me to emergency, and then I was saying strange things to the nurses and finally I started saying strange things to the psychiatrist. My parents brought me to the emergency on 3 other occasions, most times I would talk my way around things, and walk away with sleeping meds, but this time they kept me locked up for 5 months it came as surprise I wasn’t exhibiting suicidal thoughts, and even patients who tried to commit suicide were being discharged after 2 weeks, whilst I was not and kept there as an experiment seeing how my sister too was a schizophrenic. My psychiatrist didn’t dare taint or hinder the dignity or image of her other patients, but for me after a week in her care she presented to my parents I was a schizophrenic and as you know that diagnosis doesn’t come that fast. Sometimes I believe it’s my fault and I’m genetically responsible my image is tainted and plagued by schizophrenia if only I didn’t talk in an erratic way that morning at the hospital, but I did and I’m responsible for my fall and my image is hindered I think I’m ruined. ",4.932368558042686,6.585723814159294,5.676121811556481,78.04589536699636,69.7079646017699,8.857470067673088,32.320666319625204,9.325443323948027,3.024767621030713,946,43,173,20,17,308,124,226,0.13,0.787,0.083,-0.8641,3,0,0,0,0,2,12.0,0,1,2,0,5,5,0,0,11,0,14,3,1,1,1,30,32,21,2,2,7,4,0,0,0,1,2,3,0,0,14,14,0,2,3,0,0,6,5,3,0,0,18,4,34,2,27,12,2,31,0,1,1,0,16,8,0,4,15,124,48,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12155237106934168,0.0,0.0,0.12828680392939038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15383739579178346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15616901216730633,0.13921486301250444,0.0,0.0,0.11761985150239525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09018547671031978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13356542186886838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14957636970964422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1092060473460888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07504055589758744,0.1113009085813953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15166868158393249,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1089874564356142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10384723445573966,0.0,0.0,0.4548450979741059,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12988382374169802,0.21716922012377696,0.0,0.0,0.10880722902423964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13664178089683812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13504468756995675,0.0,0.09664595925422498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.298712134554199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2194964574558975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3628528624640341,0.0874913506383169,0.0,0.10840002579482452,0.15923884218266068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0927038502149471,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21676322723872105,0.2190533913210931,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09699635110015084,0.0,0.0,0.08792932541357057 schizophrenia,Aimcook,2019/03/23,"Research exploring predictive factors of voice hearing distress and loneliness ( 18+). Hi all my name is Aimee :). I am a trainee clinical psychologist passionate about learning more about peoples voice hearing experiences. I am completing research exploring predictive factors of voice hearing distress and loneliness. It is hoped that the findings from this research will have implications for clinical practice. I have put a brief description of the research here: **Hearing voices is a relatively common and normal experience.** We are interested in learning more about how people feel about their voices and the beliefs they hold about them. The study will also ask about childhood adverse experiences, mindfulness of voices and emotion regulation. It is important you are aware that for some people answering questions about their early childhood may be distressing ( support numbers are provided at the start and end of the research survey). All participants have the chance to be entered in to a prize draw where they could win 1 of 6 £25.00 Amazon vouchers. If you have any questions regarding the research my email address can be found on the information sheet at the start of the research questions. &#x200B; Click to complete here: [https://livpsych.eu.qualtrics.com/jfe/form/SV\_0PAIG9hNgxDlVfn](https://livpsych.eu.qualtrics.com/jfe/form/SV_0PAIG9hNgxDlVfn) ",9.835463056680158,13.694349697115385,7.400627530364375,61.50226720647774,61.644230769230774,10.148178137651824,42.67813765182185,10.307518312809881,5.786553846153848,1139,66,132,30,19,330,122,208,0.081,0.81,0.11,0.6597,0,0,0,0,0,0,53.0,1,2,5,2,12,10,0,3,15,0,21,3,0,1,2,32,32,9,0,4,1,0,1,0,0,3,2,10,1,0,5,7,0,1,13,0,0,5,0,4,0,0,1,12,13,6,25,24,5,18,1,0,1,1,20,6,0,7,7,96,18,9,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09747709317921872,0.0,0.13207007308964272,0.14811228101009682,0.08289082898768921,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.113952688323377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2556031606666081,0.0,0.0,0.09732094820737122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13711224122277835,0.10796024862779786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35770168036137817,0.0,0.0,0.06163232391834258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11140719953692567,0.0,0.0,0.13364843022147346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5495251622699288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12106638945424113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1230763048412805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11942840829984752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2535139681024635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12253525855905655,0.4096412493732748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1725517554950914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13832174585248466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14811228101009682,0.0 schizophrenia,liquidddd,2019/03/23,"I had a strange dream, my dead mother diagnosed me with schizophrenia This dream i had, it was very strange. In my dream I was trying to sleep on a park bench in an old town i used to live in, next thing i know im running. I get to my old house but it looks very different and weird but of course you i never realise this when im dreaming. My mum was there and hung out like she never left and she expressed some concern she had. And told me i had a type of schizoid/phrenic mental illness, she had a paper with three different mental illnesses on them, with two of the words crossed out meaning she was worried i had some sort of disorder and was trying to diagnose me. They seemed calm but worried at the same time by her facial expressions. And she also said that i have an inability to realise i have these symptoms , therefore unknowing to the fact that i have mental illness. there is also reoccurring themes in my dreams that im always running. Whether it be running home, to my friends house, or just running aimlessly to nowhere. Ill be running for ages without stopping. Another one is violence, im always inflicting pain on someone else violently . A dream i had a few days ago, i was frustrated with a woman in a store and i ended up beating her to death with a chair . Very alarming dreams",4.316730211355157,5.783166503937008,4.861479486116867,84.01880853709078,70.96850393700788,7.86705346042271,31.872358060505594,8.371475516178862,2.417129133858268,1028,47,199,16,19,328,134,254,0.221,0.6779999999999999,0.101,-0.9904,2,0,0,0,0,0,23.0,0,1,2,1,6,8,2,1,14,0,20,10,2,2,3,36,28,15,2,0,7,2,0,1,1,0,8,1,1,1,10,14,0,1,3,7,1,6,3,5,0,3,15,2,35,3,33,11,4,32,0,0,1,0,19,14,0,6,13,139,45,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0937135786276034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1690870074085241,0.17593347380849608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11085566483537636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06818005553641163,0.0,0.0,0.21460526547562134,0.0,0.22090785822021752,0.12116321561311955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08831471910302803,0.0,0.09363571873235907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08167829280009843,0.0,0.05523385174000786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10604484904873113,0.0,0.0,0.2439712300082991,0.0,0.0,0.4567789570894108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058100437193122426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11486408108651175,0.0,0.0,0.0516489985155043,0.0,0.09335187746249612,0.0,0.08877739447350877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11515906204471475,0.0,0.0,0.3196198776344982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16307413144163346,0.0,0.11243343245679747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22186876445923412,0.0,0.07163797923617646,0.0,0.11249254638487736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10056304692100132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09624267264217014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10579542107587686,0.0,0.08957542665661149,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08838587800075352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10988259494513956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07023505387775948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061645641068849386,0.0,0.0,0.10101910381252464,0.0,0.1435526206475591,0.0,0.10327217178781524,0.0,0.0,0.09130733469332722,0.0,0.2616879186560237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10190941283956503,0.0,0.0,0.21472569873736788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,throwaw-ayylmao,2019/03/23,"How to get my psych to take me seriously Hello, all. I'm a lurker and finally got the courage to post. I'm not diagnosed with SZ, nor am I trying to self-diagnose, but I have a strong family history of psychotic disorders and feel my my symptoms more closely align with the SZ spectrum than anxiety so I thought you all might be able to give me advice with my psych. I'm currently diagnosed with PTSD due to childhood events and other things. The flashbacks and major symptoms have been managed fairly well by medication (20mg escitalopram once daily), but other symptoms have shown up in the last few months and even my husband has noticed something isn't right. My sleep schedule has been funky, personal hygiene has been severely lacking, no motivation, hard to care about anything. And in the last month I've heard mumbling occasionally when there's no one there and (most worryingly) I've had visual... Blips, as I think of them. Walls look shimmery, spiders where there are none, a faint image of Our Lady of Guadalupe on my wall (and I'm not religious), and a shadowy figure occasionally lurking out of the corner of my eye. These blips happen at random throughout the day, not just on waking/sleeping, and not just when I'm anxious. I've mentioned all this to my psychiatrist, even broke down crying in his office because of the distress this is giving me, and he seemed sympathetic but attributes it all to anxiety? He added bupropion 75mg once a day, and said I should start feeling better in a week or two, but so far the symptoms are still there and feel like they're getting worse. I sent him a message telling him how I've been since our appointment, but he hasn't reacted yet. All my friends are kinda worried and even my boss has noticed something is up. I just want some advice but I don't know what I want. Anything really, to let me know if this is normal anxiety symptoms or needing more psychiatric help before it gets worse.",7.675871934604906,7.468032520435965,7.610641689373299,73.18141212534063,63.032697547683924,10.500762942779293,37.15108991825613,10.008157457239328,3.7014578746594013,1553,69,276,29,20,499,208,367,0.12,0.768,0.112,-0.0525,1,0,2,0,0,0,45.0,2,1,1,3,21,10,0,1,16,0,26,11,2,6,5,67,56,31,0,7,16,1,4,1,1,2,9,2,0,1,10,20,0,0,10,0,0,1,11,3,1,2,10,8,31,7,36,42,13,38,0,1,2,0,23,18,0,9,19,183,41,5,0.08778891718672939,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17157262768825268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20147484407704488,0.09917648829919873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14448559748832435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05351530908976032,0.0,0.07470190256663076,0.0,0.0,0.07764216316097845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08950665189649619,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09643200327964828,0.11323317797905127,0.0,0.0,0.267311709007023,0.0,0.0,0.10061370477109333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17395125553451365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08275957811010047,0.0,0.13316614287429865,0.06271641997925455,0.0,0.09616846768969063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06782549964864237,0.0,0.13759825762839228,0.1684302575566421,0.0,0.0,0.0702128167444354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07763144954087348,0.0,0.0786416262986617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0588430606793113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09649298601459858,0.14311936907575568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08977011570454503,0.0,0.042889230547946085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07372058023307629,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08843809820312028,0.0,0.0931301679675742,0.0,0.0,0.14014455228664555,0.0,0.0,0.06509436972462926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08601449949098539,0.0,0.1998965281562336,0.0,0.18698466336711453,0.059488042280762266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07665389631106287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08407751556678844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10262054629357192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0562398283135174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07497125560697272,0.08350736370433247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07991973308565586,0.09158298667717596,0.09917648829919873,0.0,0.07261989948250121,0.0,0.17570463458563398,0.0,0.0,0.13516839485756862,0.0,0.0,0.06213744743184407,0.0,0.07010834266688942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4562314936652602,0.06600634025887359,0.0,0.0767313830743578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05832305572016819,0.05625159337214393,0.0,0.06969459412905556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05960291215391918,0.0,0.08575701586285547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10356035577829416,0.0,0.07041897402134045,0.0,0.0789327795759826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17830781355714478,0.17892881326059096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,tofuwa,2019/03/23,"Can you help me understand my uncle better? I’m prefacing this with a warning. Murder, strong language, and suicide will be mentioned in this post. Please do not read any further if you are uncomfortable with those subjects. I’d also like to say that my uncle was never formally diagnosed, and my grandparents didn’t treat mental health very seriously. Please let me know if this isn’t the right place to talk about this. In 2017 my grandpa had missed an appointment with a customer, leading one of his employees to contact us. She hasn’t heard from him either, and it wasn’t like him to not show to scheduled meetings. We sent a police offices over to there house for a wellness check, but after an hour we couldn’t wait any longer and started to drive to their house. Halfway through the drive, the police officer notified us that they found three deceased persons in the home. Going back a few weeks my uncle had been beginning to act off. He was a heavy weed user, so the thought was that his mood was explained by that. He was depressed, had been for quite some time, couldn’t finish school with only one class left, and stayed locked in his room most of the day. When my parents and grandparents, along with my uncle and a few of his friends took a trip down to Las Vegas two weeks before these issues really began to rise rapidly. His friends informed us that while they were walking around Vegas with my uncle, he would say he overheard people on the street “threatening them, and calling them pussies, faggots,” even though his friends were standing right next to him, and didn’t hear any of that. They also admitted to other drug use while partying down in Las Vegas, specifically mentioning ecstasy. He continued to hear these types of conversations around him, his friends having to calm him down after each instance. Things started to get out of hand even faster, and my grandma decides to finally reach out to my dad to ask for advice. My uncle had supposedly heard a conversation in the middle of the night had by my grandparents, to which he immediately woke them up as asked about. What he had “heard” was that my grandmas brother was giving them a million dollars, half of it being specifically for him, and when he woke them up after hearing this conversation, he demanded his half. My grandparents were confused to what he was talking about, and told him it didn’t happen and to go back to bed. He insisted he heard it, and was getting angry and accusing them of stealing the money from him. He continued to hear these types of phone conversations between his parents and his uncle, confronting them about it each time, sometimes seeing them talk about it in front of him, and seeing other things that didn’t exist. The day before it happened, my dad met with my grandpa to get some drinks and to talk about what was happening, because my uncle had been getting angrier by the day. He got a spam letter in the mail, which he was offered to invest in some big opportunity, he claimed that this was because the company knew about the money that was supposed to come to him, and he was going to invest it into the company that sent him the letter. My dad advised my grandpa to take away the gun my uncle had in his possession, but my grandpa didn’t think it was that serious of an issue. He killed my grandparents the next night, and then himself. What I’m hoping to take away from this post is... just to get a little closer to my uncle. though, like I said he was never officially diagnosed, it’s just a speculation held by me and my family given everything that lead up to the end. As his niece, I can’t help but feel like I failed him by not being able to see these signs, we were very close as children being just 4 years apart, I wish I could have done more to help. 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Had sz symptoms for around 4 years but was too scared/ didn't accept it or seek help until recently. My main question is how does the process for applying for disability work? My doc thinks returning to work is unlikely and i haven't had luck with antipsychotics + antidepressants. They either don't do much of anything or make things worse. In the past before diagnosis limited marijuana use helped a great deal except of course that it could become addictive and does make me hallucinate a bit more, though they're not violent or paranoid kind of hallucinations, depending on the thc strain. I'm scared to bring this up with doc though because not sure how it would effect disability if I would rather use thc extract over these other options. Some meds have helped some symptoms but always trade off for other bad side effects that still keep me from functioning fully. I haven't had thc in many months or even alcohol but this anxiety is getting worse and suicidal thoughts/ voice has come back with antipsychotic. Im just wondering if anyone knows more about this kind of situation im in. It feels ""wrong"" to me that I felt better consistently before I stopped thc for antidepressants and antipsychotics. Thc doesn't stop voices or hallucinations but made them ""good"" if that makes sense. Ive been reluctant to go for disability benefits but I have no other options any more. I just want to know if I also have to stay on meds that aren't helping or stay off meds entirely until i am covered. worst case ill probably drop the meds and drink alcohol to get sleep and dull voices until disability is secured. Any input, even dissimilar experiences are welcome. PS had sz symptoms for 2 years before ever ingesting thc. And i know im supposed to seek immediate help if experiencing suicidal thoughts. 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When I’m very tired & about to fall asleep I start to hear voices. It’s not like these voices are, for example, coming from behind me or in front of me, but it’s more like they’re in my head and I’m not the one saying it. They just appear and I can hear the thought of their voices in my head. Could this be early signs of schizophrenia or is this something else? Thanks a lot!",1.9218018018018024,3.25373775675676,2.720900900900901,97.52207207207209,76.83783783783784,5.293693693693693,17.738738738738736,5.033348758259628,-0.7655693693693695,405,6,96,1,9,127,68,111,0.092,0.872,0.036000000000000004,-0.7237,0,0,1,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,2,0,6,3,0,0,4,0,8,5,4,0,0,17,21,8,0,1,7,0,0,2,0,0,1,8,0,0,8,3,0,0,3,0,0,4,3,0,0,1,1,8,10,3,16,18,2,14,0,0,0,0,7,5,0,4,6,61,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1896669468440498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1507903492814823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1397634352631215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29246415810295145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3593042573795125,0.0,0.591883293297118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09620307702771906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17104148686784007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14882152083948474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.118618626081248,0.13313365520766773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18289032516009804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16764981664361125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1392070391917838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1751767376398907,0.0,0.0,0.1347622872840569,0.0,0.0,0.1239015163379263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1611628144246944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11216517580445833,0.0,0.13897039949408888,0.0,0.20119459005116425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14443484542699805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Type1ASugarnova,2019/03/23,"Music I hear music. Sometimes I know the song. Sometimes I swear I dont remember ever hearing it. Sometimes its annoying. Sometimes I cant think because of it. Sometimes I feel a high listening to it. My parents confronted me today asking if I was paranoid. I think they know.",1.6563461538461546,4.4105254038461545,3.737307692307695,79.84519230769233,93.03846153846158,5.676923076923077,31.5,7.1686216300943375,2.804684615384616,219,13,34,4,8,74,35,52,0.172,0.828,0.0,-0.6908,1,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,1,0,1,2,2,0,2,0,3,0,0,0,1,8,12,1,0,1,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,4,0,0,0,6,1,0,0,2,2,0,0,1,5,11,0,2,11,0,3,0,0,0,0,6,1,0,1,2,24,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1467009766357799,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09565825309401983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1839115275685376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14194501959961273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07934452661174081,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3537252134068166,0.0,0.0,0.16579680982073608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17248055995528827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17424341689437028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17776214439322127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7759998261087627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20109868548863624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1487437983877979,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,rakov,2019/03/23,"What's the difference between simple schizophrenia and depression? I've read definition of simple-type schizophrenia on wiki and it sounds pretty much like a depression, so what is the difference? How to tell which one you have? 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Why are you calling?!"" Btw we were not even talking abour her today, nor were we on the news",3.4848214285714287,4.450252125000002,4.409285714285716,88.3857142857143,72.39285714285714,7.028571428571429,28.285714285714285,7.1686216300943375,1.2652642857142853,213,8,47,2,4,69,41,56,0.0,0.863,0.13699999999999998,0.851,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,2,4,0,1,4,2,0,0,3,0,4,0,0,0,0,7,7,3,0,0,2,3,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,1,4,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,5,3,14,2,6,2,1,4,0,0,1,0,18,3,0,0,1,35,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2538126530874433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24696172757113685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1597434197102622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18685712656925804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5665169840235209,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23006017073223076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5831833906181637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2292509397344936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2182371658330654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,thethirditeration,2019/03/24,If you haven't heard of SARDAA I was recently diagnosed with and then hospitalized for schizophrenia where I learned about SARDAA. If you haven't heard about them give this site a look. [https://sardaa.org/](https://sardaa.org/) It's been a good group for me and I attend meetings every week and there may be weekly meetings in your city or town so look into it if you need support or want to learn more about schizophrenia. No one should feel like they don't have support.,6.085781512605037,8.533212200000005,4.138655462184875,87.01823529411767,68.17647058823529,6.739495798319329,25.084033613445378,7.447530270364453,1.0898739495798324,387,11,69,4,7,108,61,85,0.029,0.828,0.14300000000000002,0.8242,0,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,4,2,0,6,4,0,0,2,0,9,1,0,0,0,17,19,10,0,6,5,0,1,1,0,2,1,2,0,0,3,5,0,0,3,0,0,1,4,0,0,1,4,5,10,4,10,12,1,10,0,0,2,0,12,5,0,6,5,49,13,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24440863539610205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20288580028745745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12175656420652566,0.17202876762486727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.230998912627606,0.0,0.2019730236254514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11764353701921355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4044255258919837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17855139382556548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16317344971796285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2377626075268449,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5465177835046554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14203106925766604,0.0,0.3863131639945604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,FoIds,2019/03/24,"Antipsychotic question? Hey all, I dont suffer from psychosis or schizophrenia, however I have dissociation or depersonalization, my psychiatrist recommended this as an off label treatment. My main concern is the development of side effects such as Parkinsonism and Tardive dyskenisia. I just received a prescription for 0.5 mg Risperidone to be taken at night. I think I’m being excessively worried about these side effects but I’d still like to know the incidence/occurrence of said side effects. Thanks and stay strong.",8.57931092436975,11.646074494117649,7.886890756302524,60.14529411764707,62.88235294117648,10.504201680672267,41.554621848739494,10.608840637214634,5.508932773109244,432,25,57,12,7,135,69,85,0.019,0.809,0.172,0.9228,1,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,4,4,4,0,0,4,0,5,0,0,3,1,13,11,7,0,0,4,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,2,0,0,6,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,2,1,6,3,11,7,2,9,0,1,0,0,4,5,0,3,3,38,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3902728866798885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1830077943451046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16268671554118555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3124974348960191,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3730356053342449,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3167587422528767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3549331170177378,0.2659337986435013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30658116257356915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21337260782615428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33817711547090384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,festiveatom,2019/03/24,"I got 51/50'd :D My voices kept telling me to kill myself and I was super suicidal. I was also zonked the FUCK out on Risperidone to the point where I couldn't take care of myself. It was scary for a minute since I'd never been to the hospital before, but it was a lot less scary than me being left alone. &#x200B; The hospital I was at was pretty nice. I had my own room and bathroom, but I had to keep the door open all of the time, unless I was changing. They checked on me every 15 minutes. They also let us sneak dogs in, so there were dogs all the time! My dog even got to come for a visit! It was such a nice treat. But not being able to go outside was making me go crazier. I ended up staying for two weeks. They told me to just take it day by day, which made it go faster for sure. I spent a lot of time socializing. &#x200B; After that, I went to a house full of suicidal people and only had to be checked on every HOUR. I stayed there two weeks before being transferred to one of the few residential treatment facilities available. Some were apartments for long-term folks, and some were co-ed. I ended up at a women's only house that focused on trauma. &#x200B; I'm in a day program now. I go into a center 3 days a week to learn about coping skills. The routine and the coping skills are supposed to help me stay out of the hospital. I have a good psychiatrist and psychologist, plus the therapists at day program. &#x200B; I don't have rich family members supporting me, though, like the other people in the program. At some point soon I'm going to have to switch day program out for an actual job. Hopefully I do that before I lose my apartment. :D &#x200B; Anyway, I wanted to post something to say that I'm back! :D ",3.4545962007853106,4.907333693409747,4.530767271569566,85.60171813647459,73.09742120343839,6.88956807810676,25.24684283137005,7.3871296695380915,1.1673609466199717,1365,43,272,15,27,446,177,349,0.1,0.75,0.15,0.9723,1,1,1,0,0,1,62.0,1,0,3,4,15,15,2,0,26,0,28,1,0,2,4,36,53,15,3,3,6,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,2,1,11,13,0,2,1,0,4,8,4,4,0,3,23,2,36,11,51,24,11,60,0,1,0,1,11,27,1,6,22,191,47,7,0.06663409223102124,0.0,0.0650252619341142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06901282376057287,0.0,0.10657451896582648,0.0,0.3609900554644092,0.4048385776276824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05123750384860767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17010211396741395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06793789795897626,0.0,0.07049003421509542,0.05739937027127572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2578408619285823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11803605534055385,0.0,0.0,0.04401118947749853,0.0,0.11228419321893554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06281669187306546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06160214454012172,0.0,0.0,0.18934845099073716,0.05588951513028783,0.10658674139463553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04466342743607184,0.0,0.0,0.06618268866149303,0.06562115843182124,0.15377359194024454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06612405473018593,0.05922744282653083,0.07372075039151177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0723981361777271,0.06813787390409154,0.0,0.03255405164607025,0.0,0.0,0.05896907477185573,0.0,0.07454650486582143,0.0,0.11329984471425306,0.0,0.06305078921393974,0.04447877398641266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05139231979004764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04515298539960134,0.10135645957777112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09239137907666553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12598151040062786,0.0,0.06381704099295345,0.06779082718752481,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05299010463873528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05512040967121027,0.0,0.0,0.06792506560042162,0.0,0.0512981796466436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21306922911055404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14577376349986668,0.07561557821404462,0.06280184334564777,0.0,0.10020108928526156,0.0,0.058241133626414913,0.0,0.0,0.07736731690242568,0.0,0.0,0.06546765729721307,0.0,0.11656462511125062,0.0,0.0,0.06367173066802978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1301836515948387,0.0,0.08015260851453879,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03930251402765544,0.0,0.16034954844372545,0.0,0.0,0.06177047107655995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4048385776276824,0.0 schizophrenia,tigers-love-pepper,2019/03/24,"Upstate NY providers? Looking for advice on locating specific providers of medical treatment in the Glens Falls region. Can travel to Saratoga or Albany as well. Or make roadtrips to Boston or New York City. Symotoms include psychosis, depression, audio and visual hallicunations, severe social anxiety. He is in a bad place. We are talking with everyone but resources are scarce in this area. Any advice, PMs or guidance is appreciated. ",6.557500000000001,10.26467297183099,6.485334507042258,64.37335387323947,72.80281690140845,8.057042253521129,38.4524647887324,8.841846274778883,4.69101267605634,355,21,42,8,8,112,61,71,0.1,0.823,0.077,0.0644,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,1,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,2,0,5,2,0,1,0,9,7,7,0,0,5,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,2,1,0,0,2,1,1,10,7,0,9,0,1,1,0,4,6,0,4,1,26,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5016322517127728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17454521750328836,0.0,0.1963527653169424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21430973068063872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22107052829490464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2452603308238997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21553916354935093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17133001895967767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2585692306317929,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2478946441988332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2681667741244221,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2899653972362565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2616439648429301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20630258787740532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.230778233603746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,audreyv223,2019/03/24,"I don’t know anymore I don’t know what to do anymore. I feel so bad, I wish I didn’t have to feel like this because I feel so different from everyone else, I just can’t feel anything, or experience anything because of it.",1.8820212765957443,3.4490886382978765,4.056329787234045,86.90875,77.51063829787232,7.253191489361702,30.89893617021277,8.07648339933343,2.164493617021277,174,9,38,3,4,60,27,47,0.105,0.768,0.127,-0.0033,1,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,0,0,6,0,0,0,0,9,13,3,0,1,2,0,4,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,6,0,0,0,4,1,0,0,1,4,7,1,4,12,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,24,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4451217944844239,0.0,0.0,0.3693513686483945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18737843035138493,0.2736044699201538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2344675113362372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.187471216001774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21443961350372573,0.0,0.21952243047125908,0.0,0.0,0.4538869662052827,0.16032321531519472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2466669139970327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10963858182778753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2580679365287228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,sarahflan,2019/03/24,"Does it ever feel like you life is just over from the start? When I'm sitting alone with my thoughts and voices, just thinking about how fucked up I am and how I will never get better. It's saddening to know my life can never be the level of normal people.",5.354654088050316,4.934442452830191,5.771698113207545,85.14861635220126,67.86792452830188,7.821383647798742,25.213836477987428,6.42735559955562,0.8315081761006295,202,4,42,1,3,65,43,53,0.205,0.752,0.043,-0.8593,0,1,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,1,0,1,7,3,1,0,2,0,5,3,0,2,3,15,13,5,0,1,2,0,1,1,0,1,2,1,0,0,2,3,0,0,4,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,2,5,2,7,10,0,9,0,0,0,1,1,3,1,0,6,31,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28473574189497525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2431457083111841,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2405856403140907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2486822187316249,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13900856104480044,0.1964039606544802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25416047876559833,0.14363512663462571,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15108965590600815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3883703442480319,0.1343127485884257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.42407278838177376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26936467960592125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19059593878785436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1945908389638728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.176158583909427,0.0,0.21825694654893935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,edjefy,2019/03/24,"What to do against boredom? I am bored to death the last couple of months and because of the negative symptoms I can't do much. I wanted to know from you guys: what do you do against boredom? What activities? Thanks in advance!",2.1311363636363647,4.757308022727276,2.860181818181818,90.23027272727276,82.4090909090909,5.3381818181818215,29.25454545454545,6.742157984588678,1.527723636363636,179,9,35,2,5,56,30,44,0.29100000000000004,0.653,0.056,-0.9049,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,2,0,1,0,2,0,0,2,0,6,1,0,0,0,3,9,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,3,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,0,0,5,1,9,9,1,4,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,2,28,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2304674318274551,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4183263000669396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3743478774911002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20777690584620215,0.30817680021553273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3017711716467669,0.0,0.2779243108857397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3929585849442667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3480752586425105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22299496762065604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,TophSauce,2019/03/24,"What to do with the rest of my life? [Advice needed] Greetings folks. &#x200B; I'm in a bit of a predicament right now. I have been diagnosed schizoaffective/bipolar with PTSD. &#x200B; I have the means to support myself for the rest of my life. I am currently in school but loosing my drive to finish. I began at a state university this spring semester and have been put off by the work load. The work load basically tripled from community college to the state level. &#x200B; Question is - what the hell do I do with the rest of my life? I have a plan in place, but it's not really academia based. I have filled my days with the gym, and church activities four days a week (for about two hours per event) just to get me out of the house. I have many unread books that I have collected over the years as I either liked the subject or thought it was something I could learn a lot from. I have been tossing up the idea of getting a part time job but fear that will only interfere with my mental health as last time I was employed I experienced a stress induced psychotic episode and was hospitalized for a week, this event took place before there was a diagnosis or medication in play. After the medication and receiving benefits I gained about 70lbs and I am planning scheduled exercise and diet restrictions to loose the weight I put on. The problem is I don't have the motivation to keep any type of schedule. &#x200B; I'd love to hear any input about this, as I am perfectly happy to resign my life to that of a hermit. &#x200B; Peace and love folks, Toph.",4.442544593088073,6.3466190000000005,4.817913879598663,82.71019300445934,71.37458193979933,8.060256410256411,28.51184503901895,8.72156446121922,2.1866955406911925,1247,48,237,23,24,394,161,299,0.084,0.775,0.141,0.9655,3,0,1,0,0,0,48.0,0,0,0,7,6,13,1,2,28,0,27,13,0,2,1,36,40,15,0,3,8,0,1,1,0,1,9,1,0,0,10,13,2,3,7,4,0,6,2,5,0,2,10,3,28,8,46,28,8,41,2,1,0,2,5,14,1,4,20,164,38,10,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07429490680002103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.411888323173356,0.4619193253964656,0.10340499935974123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06469529509166669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08300425365185808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060703172534124626,0.0,0.0,0.09806515780488696,0.0,0.0,0.07716809211671588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08555404781923544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07944429414791111,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08093455433701588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08081554141003026,0.08569049457377703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07487349998161041,0.08772755090320737,0.0,0.08582777313078632,0.0,0.0,0.07544730280506226,0.06757829403439275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061973989266407375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2148068414020412,0.03714405297882421,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06463735267598845,0.13723873971466702,0.0,0.0,0.07708173000298463,0.0,0.08281814603426534,0.0,0.15318294886782344,0.07661960547261669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05637472826591869,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0578236734590493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08233227277581283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15886877625917953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07274972782951232,0.08887412899569629,0.1528607988071492,0.08517016427204943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.048706286769635385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06492856725515968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07694566376692591,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05853103396247096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08709125325360517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0862770961274784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0603587348990401,0.08866653850364853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08447129835553893,0.0,0.0,0.07426953339614799,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12197216263131938,0.09258314862371683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11070040441598787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4619193253964656,0.048960346674959285 schizophrenia,celebi321,2019/03/24,"My boyfriend won’t take his medication. Hi all, I’m hoping this post is ok. I’m not sure how to deal with this situation and I’m hoping I can get some advice. My boyfriend was diagnosed recently, within the last 6 months. He has been taking his medication on and off. The longest he took it consecutively was 2 weeks. He just told me he hasn’t taken his meds in 3 days and he refuses to take them anymore. I really want to be there for him, but he really needs to take his medication. How can I talk him through it? To understand he needs it? Does anyone have a similar experience and how did your loved one get you back on track? 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Only those who have taken drugs understand how hard it is to stop. I remember the doctor telling me that mixing my medication and weed can cause Psychosis. I tried stopping but I lack self control and continued taking my daily hits along with the meds. At first I was fine, but slowly I started to lose touch with reality. It almost feels like I'm looking at my life through a television screen. I lack any sort of empathy, emotion or motivation to do anything. On the plus side I no longer feel depressed, but I almost miss that feeling because at least then I actually felt something. I feel detached from my own body. About a month ago I had my first hallucination. I was walking down the road to my local 7/11 to get a snack at around 10pm. That's when I noticed a figure standing at the very end of the road. I find it hard to describe him so bear with me. He was unnaturally tall and completely black despite the street light shinning on him. He looked like a shadow and he just stood there. I couldn't tell if he was staring at me or had his back turned to me because of how far away he was. I stared at him for an eternity. He would randomly teleport every couple of minutes to a different spot on the road witch was sometimes closer and sometimes further away from me. His posture never changed. Since I don't feel emotions anymore I didn't feel scared and decided to walk down the road. The closer I got the lighter the shadow grew till he vanished. Since then I randomly see him in the corner of my eye or standing behind people for split seconds. Emphasise on the split seconds its just a flash then he's gone. Basically I think my weed mixing has given me psychosis but I haven't officially been diagnosed and I'm not entirely sure what happening to me and I have no one else to talk to. &#x200B;",3.996959856396866,5.9988081958224555,4.913843831592692,81.15042632180159,72.78590078328982,7.7117819843342055,29.462222584856402,8.472884824447931,2.299569255874674,1581,67,294,28,32,514,208,383,0.108,0.851,0.042,-0.961,1,0,3,0,0,0,33.0,0,0,0,5,10,11,0,1,24,0,24,11,2,5,3,60,53,25,0,6,11,0,10,2,0,2,8,0,0,1,11,15,1,3,14,0,0,4,10,6,0,5,18,19,48,5,49,30,4,54,0,4,8,0,19,30,0,10,20,196,59,2,0.0,0.0,0.08924086134208749,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08106386546872753,0.0,0.2747183648111774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09908476345151274,0.11112033169080096,0.062188336770058784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09069266115802077,0.0,0.0,0.07525459085614879,0.08140884233858549,0.0,0.0,0.17183836240020345,0.07031850146334298,0.0,0.11149270958763044,0.0,0.07781621437087481,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10157902867829556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09394313379601728,0.09674073094487758,0.0,0.09588235290412676,0.0,0.10256763305179917,0.0,0.10118638524411908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1575294775782594,0.0928186321777712,0.0,0.09554455801388922,0.0,0.093601747189611,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21210320734881846,0.0,0.07639375865396306,0.2057352384236876,0.08099651531343596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0770495790398517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27743564125709097,0.06533105870130188,0.08780521288782353,0.0,0.08358256912161463,0.15557264729702744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04777823654098294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14627995838511773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08086789374616092,0.0,0.16384036926161233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06459300941122394,0.08935455306627471,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15358796169469713,0.10230784323496694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10157902867829556,0.2763752102105347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07299357947356594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07053097131817551,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10411509314052976,0.0,0.0,0.06196809039093053,0.06955095209358485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06339910062753111,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10359369160248058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0915562269898414,0.0,0.07287287343724097,0.0,0.09540106850209673,0.0,0.0,0.1512948257423899,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07040177310759765,0.1808904521126045,0.0,0.06472794886987612,0.0,0.0,0.15291062466113145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0861894351108514,0.0,0.20627440588303644,0.07350310134514586,0.15986060727066825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05859671438281895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06208774917293225,0.09947006117887984,0.0,0.09520145172093793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07545485774628463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06496262133484541,0.0,0.11112033169080096,0.0 schizophrenia,bees1280,2019/03/24,"today i found out we have a camera in our living room. its been there for months. i know my parents have it there in case something happens, I don't really go out into the living room but my anxiety is BAD right now. what if theres more cameras i don't know about?? ive always suspected theres one in my vents and this just made it ten times worse. i have never been able to shake the idea that im constantly being watched.",1.7553089887640458,3.5395571573033737,3.200435393258428,91.93188904494384,78.5505617977528,6.247752808988763,20.11376404494382,7.1686216300943375,0.3384707865168544,333,8,73,4,8,109,64,89,0.189,0.8109999999999999,0.0,-0.9502,1,0,1,0,0,0,8.0,2,0,0,0,7,2,0,1,3,0,10,0,0,1,1,15,16,3,0,1,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,6,5,0,0,5,0,0,2,3,2,0,2,4,1,11,0,9,11,1,17,0,0,1,0,3,9,0,1,6,51,17,0,0.21797581371122532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18137333868610564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16675090086304867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18200069959305185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.235554417295332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23899922884881405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12388067818668755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1927552921886569,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2460681615727393,0.2354512836455543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23958761331137005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3849532740180907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2062539853682468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1739862148937334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1681163853167638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1477060526291248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2420363454279259,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13964088785311596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18615015390977474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16780843072963975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12710344989007527,0.0,0.20661558415532888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22213597636648466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Camden_1507,2019/03/25,School presentation.... I have a English presentation next week and I am not very good at public speaking. What’s a good way to do good on this presentation and not let the voices distract me?,4.456666666666667,6.559626888888893,5.478888888888887,77.155,71.77777777777777,8.133333333333335,28.66666666666667,8.841846274778883,2.362233333333334,152,6,28,3,3,50,28,36,0.272,0.728,0.0,-0.843,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,1,3,0,4,0,0,0,0,4,4,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,2,3,3,3,3,0,8,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,5,19,5,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7424308830176642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3017122965528962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31379285097239845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29860999541918665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24345012056107,0.0,0.2341998141118685,0.23667420060818384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,WhyDoyYouAsk,2019/03/25,"When our 5 senses open up is it real? i know my visions are not real, they can be futuristic but i dont count on them. But i have the one when someone is telling the truth it feels good running through my body. if it feels like my own is this the spiritual realm relaying the message to me or is it the illness messing with my head sending that message?",5.567191780821919,4.889190616438358,6.39873287671233,81.69207191780822,67.49315068493149,8.943835616438355,36.05821917808219,8.07648339933343,2.638454794520547,277,13,59,3,4,92,53,73,0.045,0.8029999999999999,0.151,0.8079,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,1,0,2,0,2,4,0,0,5,0,9,3,2,0,1,13,12,6,0,1,5,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,6,2,0,0,3,0,0,2,2,1,0,1,0,2,11,3,5,11,1,7,0,0,0,0,7,3,0,2,3,45,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3016327516540766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3182566015392473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2746094246950612,0.19399660797069893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2277647048566052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27869041449568005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14923772742439878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13266645716587536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1840104779753497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6181706309490529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2300848970011888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2373481784554924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,crzyskater32441,2019/03/25,"Afraid I have psychosis or schizophrenia 14F? On my ig I suddenly started hearing an audio track. It said ""so the average male walks (idk). So whyd it take 15 years for my dad to get back from the gas station."" Then it started playing random noises and saying look at you. I was off my feed looking up someone on ig and it still played on repeat. No one I know posted it. I have ocd and have a fear I'm hallucinating and stuff. I'm fourteen btw...once I heard a witch cackle in my house and once I heard my name whispered in the night at 2 am....although that could a been imagined...help",0.6359642857142873,2.9437841916666727,2.3061904761904763,93.79500000000004,86.25,4.428571428571429,21.904761904761905,5.773587663045528,0.12797619047619113,453,16,97,3,14,148,84,120,0.07200000000000001,0.89,0.038,-0.5719,0,0,0,0,0,0,22.0,0,1,0,0,4,5,0,2,7,0,6,1,0,0,0,10,19,9,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,7,0,1,7,5,1,0,1,2,0,1,1,3,0,1,5,9,13,2,12,13,0,20,0,0,2,0,9,9,0,2,9,58,20,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16060478458232674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16676221791433204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23503191300033205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10912367624028743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2354067560680774,0.0,0.13999823573125966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24100290561563634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11478709338478127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3507890667333741,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1960062541067037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4448701797288277,0.14153276308656434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20003554723584216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1986790533022968,0.16609834010737615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17697117889899838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2956723499041443,0.0,0.16680036983286964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23910118702754404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1570409675608273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1345026241714294 schizophrenia,vroomvroomeeert,2019/03/25,"Hallucinations on meds I am on invega sustenna 156 mg injection and I hallucinate all the time visual, tactile and auditory all the time. I was wondering if anyone else has this as well. I have been struggling lately with mind reading and delusions. I went into a party where I knew few and heard them talking about me and it drove me insane. I had all I could do to hold it together. Anyone else feel like this?",2.454711673699016,5.16661064556962,4.263713080168774,80.1280872011252,81.78481012658227,7.055414908579465,23.967651195499297,8.167268648758528,1.8351760900140648,327,12,59,7,9,110,58,79,0.071,0.835,0.094,0.2023,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,1,0,3,3,0,1,3,0,8,0,0,0,3,17,14,7,0,2,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,4,7,0,1,3,1,0,2,0,1,1,0,7,2,11,2,7,6,4,9,0,0,0,0,3,4,0,2,4,45,15,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3047472433531574,0.4465663343734602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17399012111340229,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3640857438418209,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11018609765498216,0.15568095825065947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24582146245035535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10646392942304976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2420582313706351,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2200354762254822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21797738546331197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.227815641102786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17515456628563122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25413995890055874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19593482481687907,0.2020125526807436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2363232238216201,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,artemis_09,2019/03/25,"When do you have hallucinations the most? For those of you who have any sort of hallucinations, are there any patterns you’ve noticed in when they occur? e.g., certain time of day, when you’re alone, when you’re out in public, driving, etc.?",5.956666666666668,7.052748222222222,5.731111111111113,80.69000000000003,66.77777777777777,7.777777777777778,28.333333333333336,7.793537801064563,1.5336666666666674,190,6,37,2,3,59,31,45,0.045,0.8959999999999999,0.059,0.163,0,1,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,2,1,0,5,1,0,0,1,0,4,0,0,0,1,4,4,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,7,4,2,10,0,0,0,0,5,3,0,2,6,24,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4153305551789877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5454078436544558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25862147182035033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.447237680044142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4565581859153289,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2338350460278013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,kirillmarasin,2019/03/25,"Just an observation I thought this might be an interesting bit of info regarding potential treatment of negative symptoms. I have pervasive problems with thought formation, the primary manifestations of which are: no thoughts, having only fragments of thoughts (thought blocking), word retrieval problems (anomic aphasia), feeling like it's really difficult to think, zoning out when thinking or talking, brief, vague thoughts and phrases (alogia). &#x200B; What I noticed is that whenever I quit antipsychotics after taking them for at least a couple of weeks, my thought/speech problems COMPLETELY resolve and I am able to hold long-hour conversations about whatever (even philosophy). It goes on like that for about a week, then it goes to shit again. &#x200B; My rudimentary knowledge on biochemistry allows me to theorize that dopamine levels somehow change during that period, since antipsychotics interfere with dopamine, but that's all I can say. &#x200B; Any thoughts?",14.341512605042011,13.858861339869284,11.289841269841272,53.05000000000001,49.98039215686275,14.75592903828198,55.19047619047619,13.484332010920856,7.917161344537817,807,51,98,23,7,238,112,153,0.098,0.843,0.059,-0.6103,0,0,0,0,0,0,40.0,0,0,1,2,7,9,1,0,5,0,8,2,1,1,1,32,19,6,0,3,3,0,1,2,0,1,1,1,0,0,11,5,0,3,13,0,0,1,2,5,0,0,7,2,10,4,20,10,3,13,0,0,0,0,4,5,1,3,9,68,21,0,0.09571844850872163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3111326969053635,0.3489251755331269,0.06509182731138996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10449975491071024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1012574267088838,0.0,0.1003589721417029,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10591064268091298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06322113249782274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04839812358358997,0.06838127874008107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09426339076792853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09352639803154662,0.0,0.0,0.08470781484630305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10154214760676387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10897608804478467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07279819332936474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27476888449203235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10180835220574096,0.0,0.0,0.06131968912563952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07611915211134583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0982536118831372,0.07917928973356887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0994881179399185,0.07196836097066264,0.07693486316092236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12266503372566998,0.0,0.6079180500917887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15355913149177314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3489251755331269,0.0 schizophrenia,WhyAskWhyAgain,2019/03/25,Is there a way to control clairvoyant type of visions? I don't know if I have schizophrenia but I do have psychosis. I was wondering if there was any tips or tricks about that or somewhere where I can learn it. I see odd things lately and dont know if it good to imagine cutting heads off with a knife a burning the sheet that they tried to cover me up with as a protection shield. ,3.306153846153848,4.688828333333333,3.7005128205128233,91.68615384615387,73.35897435897436,6.7384615384615385,27.102564102564106,7.1686216300943375,1.146933333333334,302,11,65,3,6,94,56,78,0.08900000000000001,0.838,0.073,-0.0387,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,1,1,4,3,2,0,5,0,9,1,1,1,0,15,13,8,0,3,6,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,3,0,2,5,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,2,1,8,1,10,11,0,5,0,0,1,0,1,3,0,6,1,47,13,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20813814988166654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3432836202080497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35871185408183537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2567170615734719,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31411620313633115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3364162229122776,0.0,0.34526038153417177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2438982266059057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20333936096777874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20780149324387331,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2429441829876913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3319199455113325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,inadequate_thought,2019/03/25,"Only symptom is ideas of reference? Been more or less the same for about 5 years now. My immediate response to various stimuli, primarily people I encounter, is to think it's related to something I did, or how I am perceived. It's gotten better since I self diagnosed myself as psychotic. I'm not sure if this is schizophrenia or just some type of psychosis that I haven't discovered a diagnosis for. Anyone else have this? I function fairly well, it can cause some shifts in moods, but that's about it. I'm trying to limit that so as to have so many episodes of anger. Thanks.",4.213153153153153,6.114205810810816,5.165945945945946,79.99234234234235,71.97297297297297,8.176576576576577,29.45045045045045,8.841846274778883,2.5015477477477477,459,19,84,9,9,150,78,111,0.061,0.866,0.073,-0.1383,0,0,1,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,0,2,8,6,1,0,2,0,10,2,0,2,1,18,15,10,0,1,7,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,9,0,0,1,4,0,0,0,2,1,1,0,3,0,8,4,15,12,6,3,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,6,2,62,17,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17623421740729028,0.2582476795944205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22291141422545965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2589174300580692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25581818206273826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2105494554408729,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2845256930753481,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25553188498932605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1916899409941371,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17473477346536204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2629356556807125,0.0,0.0,0.2084924457989698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19403489566496945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2375473984667568,0.26196902128102784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2320471885139037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16149887793597734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1711205471264272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2266167866491347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16230732853425575 schizophrenia,several_pancakes,2019/03/25,"How do you deal with dissociation? I usually take long breathes in and out to help, but today I was so bad that I had to go home from work early and can't really tell if I'm actually typing right now. Do you have any methods to help?",4.047733333333333,3.82661684,6.25,79.93833333333335,70.6,9.866666666666667,26.66666666666667,9.725611199111238,2.009866666666668,182,5,42,4,3,65,41,50,0.122,0.778,0.1,-0.4934,0,0,1,0,0,0,4.0,0,2,0,1,3,1,0,0,0,0,6,1,1,1,0,7,9,6,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,4,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,2,0,5,0,7,7,0,9,0,0,0,0,6,3,0,1,5,26,6,2,0.0,0.0,0.27944799597615183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19473597432981093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2391003019699884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2952266396371329,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16274611926719615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3838848139691566,0.0,0.2872444265037257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2534213516319212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18345082479184027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24455157651100665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2153085797929223,0.0,0.2502930029220285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2714376849853091,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.315387277268372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2084749407294561,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,proudchristianmommy,2019/03/25,"Need help , partner has paranoid schizophrenia but refuses help Pretty much that. It's been years and it's still as exhausting as ever if not more because they've gotten more vicious . In the years I've been by my partner my mantra's been ""forgive and forget"". Had to be , when you've got the person you love most tell you ""fuck you you fat bitch I'll go fuck someone else"" as a response to putting too much milk in the coffee you made to wake them up with , or when you get to the point you're used to getting hit in the head by things for no reason because when something bad happens to them you're the first place they direct their anger and frustration . I don't know anymore though I really need help . They use their mental health to justify all these things but I really don't feel that it explains them..I feel horrible even typing this out but I'm at my end, I don't think I can keep it up much longer. Theyve been diagnosed with paranoid schizophrenia years and years ago . Been told they tried treatment and apparently it didn't work but I'm not so sure as maybe the continued use of drugs had something to do with it not working ? The drugs they use to this day..they can't help . Either way me and their family have been trying to help them get help , printed out countless forms , offered to fill them out , I put my life on hold for them and nothing. Other than getting called the most horrible things I can think of and my depression and self esteem being worse than ever . I'm in counselling now because I attempted suicide . I don't blame them for my mental condition even thought they never hesitate to blame me for theirs .constantly . I'm nothing of what I used to be and I think I need to get away for my own same but I'm scared . They've threatened to hurt themselves really bad before and even attempted it , I had to physically restrain them. How can I best handle this situation? Is me leaving justifies ? Am I horrible for thinking it's not the schizophrenia that hurts me , it's actually him? Because I feel like I've excused his actions for way too long..",3.261372549019608,5.33854003921569,3.811372549019609,87.92284313725494,75.07843137254902,6.886274509803924,26.03921568627451,7.793537801064563,1.4527274509803925,1648,60,326,24,36,518,192,408,0.208,0.69,0.103,-0.9955,1,0,4,0,0,1,38.0,0,6,16,6,15,18,6,1,11,0,26,13,3,8,5,64,65,28,1,4,12,0,3,1,2,0,7,0,0,4,21,17,2,4,12,0,0,5,12,13,0,1,15,3,51,5,49,46,13,39,0,3,0,3,43,14,3,4,19,211,72,3,0.0,0.0,0.07598377067213141,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06902150058772867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0772198997571349,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07315553954169311,0.0,0.13002592807339658,0.1898600338346509,0.0,0.06625630118768706,0.0,0.08171318315846728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07950757628777237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0841430329364046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05021566577857358,0.0,0.06706391846961042,0.07903004918858295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18059441856166164,0.0,0.06504515701718465,0.0,0.06896415557023955,0.0,0.0,0.1542847823506361,0.1408644071586513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0734029970459967,0.0,0.1181107276673749,0.05562586585867168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06623085085295304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14396753152308125,0.20340293189980413,0.0,0.04425175339326212,0.0,0.062274739646768384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06885464125668027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0799106529490236,0.08276550628174928,0.0,0.0,0.313142510475926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1667094715234229,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06920886282300212,0.0,0.0,0.04279187091774544,0.0,0.0,0.08244644978972512,0.0,0.0,0.0549974567738799,0.038040286515570496,0.0,0.0,0.0689069527894012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07027505833515255,0.0736765460965483,0.0,0.0,0.07822458461585206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15693665667286985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17171640690129145,0.17320491250878528,0.06005331043791073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14942470213062795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06798760763376073,0.0813510277233693,0.0,0.07360639473401333,0.0,0.0,0.07921540818874588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1565491139843566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14964450203235094,0.08005688491247018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07795517939404717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08122885415854789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08752209738217008,0.0,0.0,0.06597368763595864,0.11988661028748422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06218207713469893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08517028525783113,0.0,0.07338564614161637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06805633394661935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1551876115552062,0.19956774243749587,0.07650072157423124,0.06181510592249674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07440213291688598,0.0,0.10572872614083506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3362463235046663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12360921276186185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11337144882316515,0.0,0.07934979522091057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20056676275783905 schizophrenia,hx7918,2019/03/25,Job Interview Got a second interview as a dishwasher at a seafood restaurant in my town! I'm so grateful it's local and not far away.,1.7355555555555533,4.21335218518519,4.0903703703703735,81.7666666666667,82.7037037037037,8.044444444444443,31.222222222222214,8.841846274778883,3.2398,107,6,20,3,3,37,24,27,0.0,0.835,0.165,0.632,1,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,4,1,0,6,0,0,0,0,2,6,0,0,0,13,2,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5933662708207259,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5051118515703774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6267204209657206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,angelbabydarling7,2019/03/25,"(Delete if not allowed or offensive) Those who have Schizophrenia here, do you have a “thing” or liking to electricity? If this isn’t something that’s allowed to be posted here, I’ll delete ASAP but I’ve tried asking other places with not much feedback. My ex had schizophrenia and had a fetish for electricity. A friend of mine has a family member with schizophrenia who doesn’t have a sexual thing for electricity, but always had a “thing” for it growing up and into adulthood. My great grandmother also has schizophrenia and LOVED her electroshock therapy sessions in the 60s. I’m just curious as to if this might be a trend? If you don’t mind opening up and sharing, I’d love to hear everyone’s thoughts. Also while I don’t personally have schizophrenia, I have family members and my long term ex also suffered from sometimes sever episodes so I’m no stranger to it. ",5.700925925925926,7.450604586419757,5.69969135802469,78.24361111111115,67.9506172839506,8.362962962962964,32.01851851851852,8.841846274778883,2.7951629629629617,701,30,120,12,12,220,96,162,0.044,0.765,0.192,0.981,2,0,1,0,0,0,15.0,0,2,0,0,7,8,1,0,8,0,18,2,0,2,0,25,25,19,0,4,11,2,0,1,1,1,0,1,0,1,12,9,0,0,1,0,0,1,7,2,0,0,4,1,9,6,17,18,2,11,0,1,0,2,14,6,0,7,4,89,21,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4124885915532824,0.14306352674200087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.160735828207349,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16429106919661315,0.0,0.0,0.3241696546628349,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1328363997287657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1895587236285217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1937830150780975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08399865836064202,0.0,0.0,0.15215688724270368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3103557389849033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18239565182761472,0.1736051345732491,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12639186083517553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15012683524473708,0.17963527120715572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1646660109234446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19423738434149995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13236380876668574,0.17004791324331134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19662242769854185,0.0,0.3426775231962075,0.0,0.0,0.13649702564110228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11673244288492307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,charlietoldmeto,2019/03/25,"I don't think I'll ever be able to drive. To preface, I lurk in this sub frequently. I don't know if I necessarily belong here. I apologize if I don't. They haven't actually pinned down an official diagnosis or anything. I mostly experience auditory and visual hallucinations, paranoia, delusions. I don't know if there is a word for tripping over, mixing up, and not being able to think of words. About 60% of the time I can handle it. Not all the symptoms are constant. But onto the point. I'm 24. I have never had a driver's license or even a permit. I've probably driven/attempted to drive about 10 times. The couple times I managed to do so with out panicking were at night with no one else on the road. I've been in 6 car accidents ranging from minor to one that was pretty bad. I wasn't driving in any of them, of course. I have days where I can hardly keep my eyes open while riding in the car. I'm constantly afraid and jumpy. The fear of crashing due to another driver, my hallucinations, just anything that could happen is too much. I know I need to learn to drive. I'm so sick of hearing that everyone is nervous at first. I'm not nervous. I am terrfied. I won't get used to it. It feels like it's only getting worse. I know everyone that drives me places(just to and from work, usually) is getting tired of having to do so. I really do feel awful about it. I just can't bring myself to do it.",1.8217067669172948,3.9659062070175466,3.988765664160404,84.59427631578949,79.91228070175438,6.878446115288218,23.862781954887208,7.957251820313856,1.400962406015037,1099,39,223,20,28,377,162,285,0.14,0.833,0.026,-0.9813,0,0,0,0,0,0,41.0,0,0,2,2,14,6,0,4,11,1,30,4,1,2,3,39,51,14,0,5,11,0,3,1,0,1,3,2,0,0,11,8,0,1,9,0,0,10,13,5,0,3,5,6,27,1,40,42,3,40,0,0,1,0,4,16,0,6,15,152,38,3,0.2643517772101389,0.0,0.12898460067739434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0898841367557975,0.13859794383044588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2175389884127712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1103613459946776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28567035847478955,0.0,0.1055316918012054,0.14625010671592872,0.0,0.08524251351182813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11041599448995383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08730092784315395,0.11956065845571748,0.0,0.25259945167082243,0.0,0.12929338162028273,0.0,0.14873462176510846,0.13366420143962293,0.09442648122945292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11242874332538806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2071693393125857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11688270177588732,0.0,0.11840363419979275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1489718327088933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11748400290742098,0.0,0.0,0.2905616467169291,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06457446271041836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09716448647738912,0.09800674660605574,0.10194219367729404,0.0,0.0,0.12403811761560705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17913160571535755,0.10052571935780673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1249489377545661,0.0,0.0,0.13447039680105904,0.14250796340275196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08467525879746694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13738135750452002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16938594477932767,0.0,0.0,0.2312184707278665,0.15191674009283454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11415752964836318,0.14557306762959668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09622562111172613,0.0,0.13469852259064086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,kohays,2019/03/25,"Really think I'm schizophrenic or have some sort of thought disorder. Been diagnosed with ocd and anxiety since I was 10 (im 22 now). The last year I started having more intense symptoms where I thought I was going crazy... I started doing research on schizophrenia and it's sparked a new obsession of mine. Soon enough after that I started to hear different voices in my head and had got dissociation. Last summer around July I got prescribed geodon, I took it for a little while and got seizures on it. Taken off immediately. I then went through weeks of laying on my couch convinced I was psychotic. The world had never seemed this weird to me before. I'm talking about what I thought were delusions which started happening more and more. Then I told my psychiatrist and was put on Lexapro. At first it was making me feel super manic and was getting me feeling weird. Eventually got prescribed klonopin, taking it would knock me out and actually calm me down a bit. I took that for a couple months and then started to enjoy life again having less and less problems... Until: a woman I worked with had a mental breakdown I started getting really worried again after that and developed another fear of schizophrenia. It felt like I was losing my mind again. Soon it moved into Panic attacks, derealization, now I'm having thinking problems and even dissociation at times. I struggle to think coherently and constantly have flight of ideas, (where my thoughts just race from random memory to another after seeing an external stimuli). My behavior has been incredibly disorganized lately, I've been unable to really remember basic things throughout the day that I need and often jump from task to task without being able to complete them. I was smoking alot of cbd weed the last couple weeks since I got freaked out from the woman who had a breakdown. It helped me relax but when it wore off I'd start feeling nervous again. I don't know if maybe it messes with the ssri I'm taking? I've been having a hard time reading and understanding words. I've also read that a big thing in psychosis is seeing faces in objects. If I stare at the ground my mind scans and does that too where I see faces sometimes in like patterns, apparently my mom has this too and she's an artist, she told me it's a trait from that. My mood has been all over the place ranging from extreme happiness and confidence and other times feeling worthless. I haven't ever seen a real hallucination or heard voices externally though. So I know that's the biggest thing to schizophrenia or psychosis and is the most common symptom. That's why I have no idea what the hell is going on. My psychiatrist has told me he doesn't think I'm schizophrenic and my therapist who had worked at a psychiatric hospital for 15 years also said ""there's no way you're schizophrenic"". The thing is I just don't know how to explain these symptoms. Something just isn't right in my head. The disorganized thinking and quasi mania is really what's not making sense to me. I've been feeling fucking awful and I really want my mind to feel better but I haven't reacted well to antipsychotics. I did take abilify at one point and it did help for about 3 weeks but the side effects were awful. It did, however clear my mind entirely and I could think clearly. Do they prescribe abilify for add too? Or ocd?? I have a history of taking stimulants quite alot too. I was said to have had add, but I was wondering if the hard time focusing just came from psychotic thinking. Was on 40mg of Vyvanse for 3 years daily, then 2.5mg of dexedrine daily for 2 years. Came off of it in 2017. Haven't taken those meds ever since. I'm currently 20mg of Lexapro at the moment. It helped for a little bit. I was bumped up from 15 to 20mg. Which caused me to get more side effects and bring out more of the starting effects I had. 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I was and I am in the U.S. I'd like to know from many of you because it seems quite suggestive for hospitals to do this when we are at our worst and possibly suicidal. I am in Minnesota.",3.0005999999999986,4.52843846,5.097000000000001,80.78350000000002,74.4,9.8,28.5,10.125756701596842,3.0615999999999994,193,8,39,6,4,67,41,50,0.159,0.795,0.046,-0.7964,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,2,1,0,2,2,2,0,0,3,0,5,0,0,0,1,6,8,3,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,2,0,6,1,9,6,1,7,0,0,0,0,4,4,0,1,3,30,8,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2523962514056617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2200418992714397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3265149706855051,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19837781253782752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17635005587338515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3659634935528735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4069356242873342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38393242929774346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.328610451038189,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3948388916004308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Ryder-Willford,2019/03/26,"What's going on? So lately, I've been having like this little voice in my head that says for say, ""if you don't do *blank* then *insert something negative* will happen. When I think this it's not like small things maybe it's like touch a wall or turn on my phone or do something very minor, still very annoying and I've had enough, what should I do? I'm open to any thoughts...",-0.25223776223776184,2.03838076923077,0.9421212121212116,100.9377272727273,93.87179487179485,3.8620046620046624,13.501165501165502,5.565023196281405,-1.1706820512820513,292,5,67,2,11,91,58,78,0.04,0.855,0.105,0.595,0,0,2,0,0,0,15.0,0,1,0,0,3,4,1,0,1,0,9,1,1,0,0,9,15,7,0,2,4,0,1,3,0,2,0,3,0,0,8,2,0,0,2,0,0,1,3,1,0,0,3,4,5,3,5,10,1,12,0,0,0,0,4,7,0,3,7,39,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15187311866579362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23076120100978614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1269244718081889,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19749136029437306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.229202610962454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2519277264891032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3273255568324745,0.22383689368946755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22436656908365027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3552044396001505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34386309063021275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17835287171828632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14837156434437138,0.1431018454439856,0.0,0.1773003116792831,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2429206052088389,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3685438511334938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,sheridancomputer,2019/03/26,"Can you keep your job with schizophrenia? Sorry for grammatical errors. It is hard to be perfect with English, which is my second language. I have questions for people with schizophrenia, because I feel for people who have disorganized thoughts and psychosis. My current diagnosis is OCD, but I have dread experience with psychosis. I manage my life with minimum antipsychotic doses, but sometimes I have battle with my intrusive thoughts. I am not sure that my ""real"" diagnosis is OCD, and my second diagnosis was schizoaffective disorder. I want to hear success stories from people with schizophrenia because I want to be encouraged to have ambition. I have hopes and wishes for my life but sometimes I give up some of them because of possibility of my mental illness(especially delusions) hindering me. One of Important things for my life is a job, and I want full-time job. What do you do? Can you keep your job with schizophrenia? How do you manage your symptom and stress? Normally I do not write reply to comments, but I am willing to write reply to every comment.",6.598064516129033,9.06275708602151,6.565354838709678,70.07803225806451,66.84946236559139,8.830967741935485,35.51827956989247,9.3871,3.8189789247311836,862,43,128,18,15,273,93,186,0.114,0.767,0.119,0.254,5,0,0,0,0,0,26.0,0,7,1,2,1,8,1,2,1,0,23,5,0,1,2,38,35,10,0,6,6,0,2,0,0,1,5,1,0,0,6,13,0,2,4,0,0,0,2,3,0,3,3,3,31,5,26,29,1,2,0,0,0,0,17,1,0,3,1,103,37,7,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23529036690622102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14745584590057953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1084018485113452,0.0,0.0,0.12585445753085694,0.0,0.0,0.06505451150192504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12342267964275687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1152543538203758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1450095044154538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12778870444155832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5107019649571628,0.2287183654595909,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27262971615195225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12965931721313453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1260597729803722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08718354637110458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2675905483569162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1450451522532775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14412897688948767,0.0,0.0,0.14644358425019008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2544966452953257,0.14402466787585325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14737993444947164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1212608064131341,0.13372731076338198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08547618374942165,0.0,0.0,0.2042838071687831,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2276615282847725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14795299090031866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,EpochPirate,2019/03/26,"I'm getting help now!!!!!! I posted here under an alt before but I don't feel like doing that anymore. I got diagnosed with the symptom of psychosis so far, working on a diagnosis. In the first hospital I was at they said I didn't have schizophrenia because I wasn't catatonic but that isn't a requirement anymore so that doesn't make sense, and they ruled out everything else. My seroquel seems to be helping but I'm always tired. Hope things get better.",1.9452272727272728,4.688354886363637,3.2186363636363637,86.23545454545456,85.36363636363637,5.927272727272728,26.181818181818183,7.348242739294969,1.6876000000000002,362,16,66,6,11,117,66,88,0.075,0.77,0.155,0.7907,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,2,4,4,3,0,0,5,0,9,3,0,1,0,11,19,6,0,1,3,0,1,1,0,0,3,1,0,0,4,3,0,1,2,0,0,0,5,0,0,1,5,2,9,3,8,13,0,9,0,0,0,0,5,6,0,2,3,44,13,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17840626774447993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4252741452105455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.130702325198266,0.0,0.1824470890342135,0.0,0.0,0.1896281910946632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2176216022056967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1791120141153318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1926978522152591,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10841212111324393,0.15317452255859276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18237700755661912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2240407155903241,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17148323654124956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28742896129661843,0.0,0.0,0.21295747493873354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10474987912671256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14312031723226434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.205345479048636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20395297706356616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19519078038023893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2228540507939895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14244445421231056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24643271494818336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15609300886556066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,edm4un,2019/03/26,"Should I try switching AP's? Ok so currently I can't work part time due to cognitive problems. I can't watch my bucket list of TV shows due to inability to focus. I can't exercise because I have very poor motivation and it doesn't feel good. I oversleep so much that it hurts. I don't enjoy anything except meal time. The only thing I do every day is read. It's the only thing I can do. I'm on Proloxin right now and was thinking about asking my doctor to switch to Abilify. She has been no help so far because she feels the AP is working due to no positive symptoms and the fact I'm on a low dose. Have any of you been in my situation? Does/did changing APs help? I'm getting desperate because I'm really getting my ass kicked by this illness every day. I guess I could force myself to do things but I have no enjoyment/lose interest, not to mention this huge hurdle of poor motivation. Am I destined to be a vegetable?",1.9373015873015864,3.99856444973545,4.11346560846561,84.27273809523811,79.10582010582009,7.162962962962964,26.37301587301588,8.167268648758528,1.8466317460317447,727,30,146,14,18,250,113,189,0.161,0.731,0.107,-0.7402,1,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,1,0,4,5,7,0,0,6,1,22,8,1,2,1,16,33,7,0,3,3,0,2,0,0,1,5,0,0,0,9,3,2,0,5,4,2,0,9,3,0,0,3,3,21,4,18,27,2,16,0,2,1,1,7,7,1,1,9,90,30,6,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11021295199397764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13336955191489222,0.0,0.1515132894814491,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2963885501929719,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17144825041571893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12939946582486705,0.0,0.0,0.20904309455737508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16588520300365767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2731014205211501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16389461754082366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16934945566138782,0.0,0.0,0.13593637302588632,0.0,0.0,0.17853804383683344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21726380407527435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17349896331629822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.119139875735206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2465226163731814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17550568895469773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15507881263951,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16211355599016836,0.0,0.10382599833246912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13840663624077545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18217313058833728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16845247121468898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.323015716843391,0.10384771815263874,0.0,0.0,0.1890082880340775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11003468615525154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13372447385516112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2359773402283538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Gnexus99,2019/03/26,"Symptoms Leading to Break To those here who have or know anyone with schizophrenia, what were symptoms you experienced before you started having the more obvious signs like delusions and hallucinations? Did you first develop depression? Anxiety? Weird habits? Insomnia? Did you change your daily life or was your routine the same before you had your first episode? Did something traumatic suddenly cause the rest to follow? Was it a few weeks or a few years? What age were you? I've read a lot about people's first major moment when they realized they or someone they knew had schizophrenia but I haven't heard much regarding the beforehand. Just want to hear your stories.",5.322831564986736,8.711295646551728,4.471034482758622,78.90049071618037,75.29310344827586,7.707161803713528,29.612732095490717,8.617729084823388,2.934179840848806,549,24,84,12,13,163,81,116,0.073,0.898,0.029,-0.6159,0,0,1,0,0,0,12.0,0,10,3,4,4,3,0,0,7,0,12,4,0,2,1,18,19,7,0,1,6,0,0,1,0,0,4,2,0,0,5,2,0,0,3,1,0,2,1,2,0,3,11,3,14,1,6,8,8,13,0,1,0,0,16,0,0,5,11,63,19,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.150053049396274,0.0,0.0,0.13715157705284536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3338158168730929,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20149851930777768,0.2074990822051047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16894239736705874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5005313875819069,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2210735912393208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10779807421991858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1385454713726695,0.09582823889693318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16675842233563434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14419170104764706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13598465779980087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19620155935917155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16619596955723606,0.15100468192412442,0.0,0.0,0.13883490286186856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4077467467585789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11569345482521155,0.0,0.1573384781955969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12631318936356908 schizophrenia,crummyvelvet,2019/03/26,"Arrested and undiagnosed My friend has been experiencing what we believe but has not been diagnosed as schizophrenia with paranoia. It has been a tough six or so months and things have escalated. His delusions/beliefs have him convinced he is being targeted by a growing network of 200+ people using electronic torture and EMFs to frame him for all manner of things. He now believes my husband is being blackmailed into helping this network torture and frame him. His girlfriend is one of our best friends and she is blown apart by all of this. I have read the sticky post and have forwarded her the information, but I digress. I’m posting because last night, our friend was arrested for criminal trespass. It’s the second time in the last few months that he has been taken in for this charge and it all revolves around the place he used to rent - the place he believes this all started. My question and reason for posting is ultimately trying to gain an understanding of what an arrest could mean for him. His last arrest, his behavior was more muted. Since then he has progressed significantly into his beliefs and has taken to a lot of behaviors that, frankly, scare us a little bit. He has not been diagnosed. He refuses to go to the doctor and we are not able to get through to him. I do not understand if the county can force him into observation or medical treatment. I do not know if this would be good or bad. Mostly I’m just trying to prep for what he needs when he is released. I realize that without an official diagnosis (and even with one), we may be of absolutely no use at all. But I’d appreciate if anyone of you have experienced a similar situation would be willing to share insight from any perspective in such a situation. 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She never thought I’d be into her. Cue this August and we see each other, spent the evening together, had sex at my place and that was that. We became official late October and that’s when I learned she has herpes. Even when I said it’s illegal to knowingly have sex with someone without telling them your status and she said “she’ll take the misdemeanor” mind you, this is coming from an attorney — or whatever it’s called when you went to law school but didn’t even try to take the bar. I’ll save you the ups and downs.. but one day after a disagreement she showed me her phone... it said “schizophrenia” and listed a myriad of symptoms. Honestly, she fits in to almost all of those categories. She has even admitted she has persecutory delusions. I have surveillance cameras installed (stealing my amazon packages) and my home is VERY clean and organized. I also know Uh lot of people so that too convinced her that I am an an undercover cop. She told me if she hadn’t met my family for Thanksgiving she would have been 100% sure I was. She even asked me to do some fire consulting.. only to find out months later, it was just really to see if I’m actually a firefighter or an undercover cop. Other things she added to her “undercover cop” narrative are ancestry kit she asked for (she got it, and that means I’m definitely an undercover cop because I’m tricking her into giving the gov her dna. Her brother is schizophrenic and according to her, the way her mom handles her brother is by ignoring him. I have much more to include, but basically I have been in the dark while she’s pissed of at me for no reason (dna tests, private flying lessons, a Tile so she can track her belongings) and I’m hurting wondering what I did to merit this aloof and angry demeanor. I started seeing a new therapist in nov. I go once a week. Even my partner came to do a couples session with me. She doesn’t want medication. She doesn’t have health insurance and frankly I love this woman. She’s my best friend, my lover, my favorite person. There is no doubt I will marry her. But reddit, how can I approach this? She’s said she need mood stabilizers but won’t see a dr. She’s been to therapy 3 times. I’m losing the one I love because of her mental illness (I believe it’s schizophraffective because she has INSANE mood changes.. When she’s off her cycle/episodes, which is every 4 days) she is loving, funny, my best friend, and just the coolest person I’ve ever met. She gorgeous and I hate that she doesn’t see what I see. She yells that I should just leave; she doesn’t know why I want to be with her... She has this thoughts that I know will eventually kill her if she doesn’t get help. I said if you were born needing insulin, you’d take it everyday for the rest of your life because that’s what’s needed for you person to live. She goes back and forth with getting on meds. And let me tell you, being with someone with such delusions (I thought she was kidding at first) makes my mental health take a HUGE DIVE. TLDR: I’m losing the woman I love because she won’t see a psychiatrist.. any advice is welcomed 🙏🏼",3.299097934522976,5.2125404188562605,4.2630422931010274,85.45101419137279,74.48686244204019,7.4257018406632005,26.292229872137128,8.238735603445708,1.6943529520865543,2589,94,514,44,55,837,306,647,0.08900000000000001,0.75,0.161,0.9949,1,0,0,0,1,0,82.0,3,9,1,7,24,30,4,1,28,0,55,19,2,4,4,87,114,40,1,11,17,3,1,0,4,7,9,7,2,7,33,34,1,1,14,2,1,5,14,10,1,3,27,15,109,17,54,75,10,49,0,3,7,7,104,19,1,12,24,349,142,7,0.0,0.0,0.06457842791629584,0.0,0.0,0.06466661949710574,0.0,0.0,0.06626590798742991,0.0,0.0,0.052921085483069834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04500208719349896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12373163300426973,0.0,0.0,0.10177083030440898,0.0,0.20170199505631756,0.0,0.0,0.07455791912678877,0.13889568421603934,0.05852747363858162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06757330201806468,0.07568794647980133,0.0,0.0,0.07000564792786447,0.05700493908444643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07322270972429673,0.0,0.0853563523911771,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06914004705582509,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07380395902892782,0.2622525470236041,0.0598601641060908,0.055756305028617635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06238503448360135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06048385049073245,0.0562894443090737,0.0,0.0,0.10225514027678767,0.0,0.06914866929852126,0.06348224378194704,0.037609461091467004,0.0,0.05292715470304935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06533529977911308,0.0,0.14068441810909008,0.0,0.07841911896283248,0.04435651381300916,0.0,0.06638012710211609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07084299380319993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07321416359563848,0.0,0.1454748416416036,0.0,0.07464963920883827,0.07007104369266383,0.0,0.0676696509541707,0.04674220911169178,0.0,0.0,0.0584347994906765,0.0,0.0,0.14806848746774912,0.0,0.05626064115066892,0.2389064269312252,0.0,0.04417312924624812,0.0,0.0,0.07208528508514203,0.07350684297143757,0.06666556224737964,0.13338009525882227,0.0,0.06681910012920197,0.07750476892974764,0.05282121372984752,0.0,0.048647123401171055,0.1472064476171009,0.05103916724511731,0.06391338904961474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07047549624131275,0.08968541536328484,0.05032998425539683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04587824667154018,0.1733475232911232,0.06914004705582509,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.042394170062382185,0.06804015812575792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3147436153794028,0.05262597259749363,0.0,0.06697385022854117,0.3691370604768632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11214176379203013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.046839856960139016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06237028799079247,0.06878241314122535,0.24878134393749346,0.0,0.115681836190608,0.0,0.07567825523324184,0.07683567199964365,0.08792905728570001,0.0,0.0,0.15760953924671178,0.03858787603687586,0.0,0.0,0.06323419770945943,0.0,0.044929297791955536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05460229785573265,0.0780648779742198,0.05252758954656425,0.053082558211893456,0.0,0.0,0.06134600300134267,0.05971372999144714,0.0,0.0,0.06379149801122087,0.07176526906602486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04700967579239868,0.0,0.0,0.04261530494140255 schizophrenia,AnEternityInOblivion,2019/03/26,"I've been told I have this condition, but I don't know. It's all real to me. The people in my head that talk to me, the things I see.. it's all so real, and yet people tell me they're not. I've been called schizoaffective by doctors, as if it's all unreal. But can it really be? It feels so real.",-0.8271215351812379,0.8537559253731359,2.4085287846481904,94.8423880597015,86.76119402985073,6.216631130063965,14.049040511727078,7.447530270364453,-0.3206272921108746,225,3,57,4,7,81,44,67,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,2,0,6,2,1,0,3,13,10,7,0,1,4,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,8,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,3,2,7,0,5,6,3,2,0,0,1,0,4,1,0,1,1,39,15,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2223305312586845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22285974777763407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11009274023812238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.223457672248489,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11966079006433705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3018983726138957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7434861214776174,0.13948583346897392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1735056308420867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1750061630096497,0.1903089188268634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14465264709262524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20805395549121425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Shinpachix,2019/03/26,"I think i hallucinated Hi everyone. I am freaking out, my uncle has schizophrenia, and i have never been worried of developing schizophrenia. But today i was sitting and at the side of my eye i saw a bug crawl up my arm and i freaked out and shook my arms. But i then couldn’t find the bug, and the way it was crawling the angle seem unlikely, so i think i hallucinated. can someone please tell me if that was a hallucination or i am just freaking out and should i go talk to a Dr or not cuz i am not sure and don’t know what to do. ",2.202400793650792,3.5560959464285737,4.329404761904765,86.18781746031748,76.14285714285714,7.120634920634919,25.83730158730159,7.793537801064563,1.2349075396825393,414,15,94,6,9,143,68,112,0.109,0.85,0.041,-0.7162,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,0,2,5,0,1,7,0,14,4,3,1,2,28,20,15,0,3,8,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,3,10,0,0,5,0,0,2,5,4,0,0,5,2,18,1,9,13,0,13,0,0,2,0,3,6,0,4,3,70,21,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27334340120081285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26145443462130064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16257497342349236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1572115621129998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22062776273906096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31400891101979483,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26041905429580303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24237843004202575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26960896588915023,0.0,0.0,0.22992487556998936,0.2500297916863251,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3665924843093603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2711522377388925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22706178782418965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2905086790663857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,ieb94,2019/03/26,"Schizophrenic brother and tips to cope If this is the wrong place to post this please delete it. Last weekend my brother 19M paranoid schizophrenia diagnosis, went into some kind of psychosis, not sure. He has been struggling with symptoms progressively getting worse since he and his gf broke up about 2 years ago. She had a lot of the same mental problems too. Somehow she got him onto this group called TI- targeted individual. Not sure if anyone is familiar with that. He thinks that everyone is a clone, or working with the government against him to kill/hurt him. He lashes out at my parents and I frequently because he doesn't think we are real. He also thinks he has implants in his head and a camera in his eye. Any people walking around or cars driving by would set him off and put him in a panic. He finally got on some medication but was not taking it frequently enough to have any effect. &#x200B; He left the house about 9pm, no shoes on, in shorts and a t-shirt 40F weather. He ran barefoot for a few miles, somehow got into a store, cut himself up, and then got into a vehicle and crashed it. He said that the voices in his head told him he was in imminent danger and about to be killed. I guess he cut himself on purpose and his ears/face are hurt. I am at a loss and have no clue how to even begin to process what happened. I'm so upset for him and keep crying. &#x200B; I guess my question is, what is the best way I can support him? He is in involuntary mental health ward at the hospital and will probably face legal consequences. I know to watch what I say, be kind, and not engage when he gets angry. I can't imagine what he is going through. I hope now that he will have time to cool down and get the professional help he needs. Until now he has kind of been off the rails and my parents had no clue how bad it was or what to do. I am just glad it ended this way and not with him dead. The doctors said it could have been much worse. If anyone has advice I would be open to any and all. Thanks for reading.",3.8518390804597686,5.126840817733992,4.539724137931035,86.61935632183908,71.85714285714286,7.285254515599343,27.080131362889986,7.675431598112923,1.4166156978653532,1596,55,327,19,30,511,216,406,0.162,0.759,0.079,-0.9865,2,0,0,0,0,0,50.0,1,0,0,5,16,25,4,3,19,1,39,10,5,3,3,70,67,32,2,9,13,4,0,0,1,4,5,4,0,0,19,29,0,1,7,2,1,7,10,13,0,0,17,7,34,12,52,42,9,55,0,3,2,0,51,29,0,15,15,218,53,6,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08295044300965418,0.07524706678422753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0678839797025248,0.0,0.18394972333540266,0.2062936172973116,0.17317789756553906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11870971222575917,0.0,0.0,0.07556728957912039,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07087697029264199,0.05174623314460237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08908350728280419,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0866789602056513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06777523885117362,0.0,0.09324421383683146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08688528336480768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07518454939002421,0.08771080311786238,0.0,0.056066960886447664,0.0,0.0,0.08111301865090506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09298939004319558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13304961964411474,0.0,0.04824315053350157,0.0,0.2715670597288569,0.0,0.18702486116039765,0.0,0.07506515716012406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17423678674107132,0.09023074731180852,0.0,0.0,0.056897863221652266,0.0,0.0,0.08431179117394705,0.0,0.0979480226169552,0.1817462476252877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07545132862308082,0.1878294350955308,0.2651897606430321,0.046651590321148566,0.0691941088042739,0.0,0.0,0.09222980604520227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07216776048830012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08551456632359325,0.1710919493925976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.062401598671058725,0.06294252036406761,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09959642333824907,0.18851359256302166,0.0,0.0,0.05884985044070189,0.0,0.08868868633601168,0.09318026535196,0.0,0.0,0.08129813312748738,0.0,0.09152237676630803,0.0812252469544535,0.0,0.08533472566291081,0.0950926942621795,0.0,0.08490981711715312,0.09661981431005877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16149365798439594,0.06750542667490753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0702192758198629,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08874216185935639,0.0,0.0,0.0963285863541702,0.16000969463720008,0.08822993509956187,0.06382434354118617,0.0,0.0,0.0781524024577491,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16317618910738682,0.0,0.0,0.04949820227116916,0.0,0.0,0.08111301865090506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1347584536504741,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07869095625233202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06179863454416145,0.0,0.17301389536477824,0.12060235908556233,0.0928104398281037,0.2062936172973116,0.05466434539753633 schizophrenia,annalee124,2019/03/26,"searching for psychologists/psychiatrists through my insurance makes me not want to seek help.. i’m not sure if this belongs here, but recently I took a mental health examination(not sure which one) from the free counseling at my college and I got a diagnostic impression of schizophrenia. Even though this was not a formal diagnosis, it made me feel like my mental health was way more of a high priority than I felt it was before. I stopped going to the counseling at my college because my counselor left to work elsewhere. I told myself I would find a psychologist/psychiatrist to go to when she left, but trying to find one through insurance feels so wrong and makes me so discouraged every time I try. 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I’ll be fine but then that delusion that the meds are poisonous or are fake and that I don’t have schizophrenia will swell until I stop taking my meds and it goes downhill from there... I’ve tried apps to remind me and stuff but when I’m delusional I can’t think clearly. What helps you guys?,1.4007032967032984,3.718144323076924,1.828351648351649,98.49307692307691,82.69230769230771,4.32967032967033,18.516483516483518,5.288315135182226,-0.5944285714285718,251,6,55,1,7,76,50,65,0.172,0.711,0.116,-0.7193,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,1,0,0,3,3,1,0,2,0,7,1,0,1,1,10,10,10,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,6,3,0,1,1,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,6,1,4,8,0,5,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,1,4,35,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3161126453910813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21398989837693025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7092406731411603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2669114771429903,0.0,0.0,0.3654705964441168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24004002988912426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20456571446627145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2167531900540756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,jebnumbtoit,2019/03/26,"Help me to understand I (29f) have been with bf (38m) for about a year now, it's been a lot of stress. I often find myself in abusive relationships, I don't know why. It's gotten a little bit better since the beginning, but still feels like a helpless/hopeless situation. Bf was diagnosed with paranoia schizophrenia back when he was 21, so about 17 years ago. He doesn't talk about it because he believes there's nothing wrong with him. He hears Jesus and God, or ""feels them"" I'm not entirely sure, and satan as well. He was in mental hospital off and on between 30-37. He's outpatient now and hasn't been taking his pills for two years or so he says. He refuses to take them and if I mentioned taking them he'd go into a rage. I feel helpless. I work and rent apartment, he lives at his parents, and stays at my place which is an hour away for long periods of time. Refuses to work because its working for Satan, so gets his monthly cheques, but it's not a lot. I'm now struggeling to make ends meet. Back story: he was once marrried, had a son, and had his own business. Lost it all. He isn't allowed to see son, and is divorced. This past weekend: we went on a long walk around the city. We usually do, but this time as we were stopped at the lights he pointed across the street to a random photographer dude and claimed he was working for satan and we had to wait. We then crossed and that photographer was walking up he same street we were. Bf kept saying he was taking photos of him, etc- I tried to reassure him that he wasn't and to try to calm down... but he kept arguing and stating he knows he's satan. Long story short, I was getting really anxious and walking fast, bf was trailing behind and ended up confronting the photographer dude and swearing at him etc. Later in the day he apologized, but its just so stressful, nothing I do even helps. He firmly believes all these things. He talks to himself all the time and completely believes god and Jesus are talking to him. Wonder if anyone here has dealt with this, can I help at all? He is completely against getting better, thinks everyone is working for satan. 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I can't help but feel like the brain is like an antenna where physically I'm in this reality but I get this constant noise bleeding from other realities into my own. Like right now I'm laying down in bed and I can't control my imagination. I ""see"" big sharks swimming in my room and a big cockroach on my phone screen. I ""see"" text on the wall saying things to me like ""Hey sexy"" it almost feels like people in other realities are trying to communicate with me but the thing is it also feels like I'm the one doing it and that brings comfort but it can get really scary at times actually. I can't walk to the restroom at night without my dog because I just imagine all sorts of scary looking demons. Feel like I'm being watched all the time too. I've had psychotic episodes before where I actually see things that aren't there like not my imagination like it's actually there and I get worried that one of these days some monster will bleed all the way into my reality and kill me or something.",4.995783633841885,5.993243640776701,6.072843273231622,77.73106796116505,68.90291262135922,8.992510402219137,29.7628294036061,9.23628265651192,2.468383911234396,834,31,162,16,14,278,116,206,0.09,0.747,0.163,0.9397,0,0,1,0,0,1,14.0,0,0,0,1,8,11,1,0,10,0,13,3,1,1,3,31,29,11,1,0,8,0,4,9,0,1,2,1,2,0,16,8,0,1,8,1,0,3,6,1,0,2,1,11,19,10,19,26,5,28,1,0,6,0,4,18,0,4,15,103,35,0,0.0,0.0,0.3392123075994514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11602538850240847,0.0,0.0,0.09265985617079432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08101782562776091,0.1187207897646846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0706322543488256,0.0,0.09859540890584216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12934736860426838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12521249436248774,0.12995617690998226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07472548289245065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10139715042215243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09679311610358708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23434602257765855,0.3311054128748424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1816092496908227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07766409461624038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1281911322587509,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5094666896581247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09730020927342402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10873457215231808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1570307489410526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08032850609825666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07422821479573061,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09895091488681583,0.0,0.09214314119259558,0.0,0.0,0.2769961561138721,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0892010959844111,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2309332960658845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1351275020485823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07866698563069409,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09197088169970068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11169292875767294,0.0,0.0,0.11766990655353447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,kifflomm808s,2019/03/26,"I have just had my first psychotic episode and recorded several hours of footage, but I had to delete a good part of it because my disk space kept running out Have any of you recorded it? I can't find anything like this on the internet",5.243333333333332,5.8300502127659595,5.081702127659575,86.53333333333335,68.14893617021275,8.819858156028369,36.94326241134753,8.841846274778883,3.0257432624113467,188,10,39,3,3,58,38,47,0.057,0.86,0.083,0.2926,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,1,0,1,1,2,0,0,2,0,5,0,0,0,0,6,6,2,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,1,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,3,0,6,2,6,3,1,6,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,3,27,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24946245669505945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3018764624944107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22362107335462675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3352833362798888,0.3120322620362771,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3076863558750028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3612615901053231,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17921854388244374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39724986526982986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4144225856532137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,moronwithinternet,2019/03/26,"Sleeping problems and hallucinations on medication Hi guys, I'm 23, male and I've been diagnosed with Schizophrenia about 5 months ago. I have a history (starting 2014) of psychotic episodes. Currently I'm taking 600 mg Seroquel XR. I work as a software developer in a small start up. I'm working 20-30% at the moment but would like to work 100% (full time). However I'm unable to do so. It's because I can't concentrate for more than 4 hours and my sleep is irregular too. (Sometimes I sleep for 8 hours and sometimes for over 15 hours. X( ) I'm wondering if this is ”normal“ when having schizophrenia or not. My therapist said I shouldn't experience hallucinations on medication. What I recently discovered is when I'm not working (vacation) I practically have no hallucinations. My sleep is still irregular though. I'm wondering if some of you can relate and maybe guide me to the next steps I should take. (New job, another medication etc..) In the end I want to live my life as normal as possible.",4.018235294117648,6.4123416256684544,5.737433155080215,73.52026737967915,73.91978609625669,9.7475935828877,31.320855614973265,10.056822442137396,3.68612513368984,792,38,143,25,17,270,120,187,0.028,0.943,0.028,0.0129,3,0,0,0,0,0,33.0,0,1,0,4,7,2,0,0,6,0,14,9,4,0,0,22,29,16,0,9,6,0,0,1,0,3,5,1,0,2,3,6,0,0,2,0,0,1,5,1,0,0,2,1,15,1,22,24,4,27,0,0,0,0,5,9,0,6,18,82,18,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09863824030581414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11668114554395904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06783197801549191,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1129414011121876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09855628886217313,0.0,0.12410061994946285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10884793426057217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11017937239450502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3287492704098352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11042289442702703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07859655775775867,0.05436316061914151,0.0,0.0982575316938368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11179031619797504,0.0,0.0,0.3362924311798741,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08881834330578164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10746972531676158,0.1183418250747974,0.0,0.21805101148532646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12544541931229228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10647478726269573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10987026699220012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10584764911706013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4454199410655462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2201068969674748,0.0,0.15752150327922212,0.0,0.08886405851653684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1673293379960947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12919841502881887,0.0,0.0,0.10932675317042856,0.0,0.06488512813834729,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06563265629884857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2413451662787601,0.3240370063709063,0.0,0.0,0.07904630030989658,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,saraaxl,2019/03/26,"voice of family & friends ? does anyone else hear voices of people they once knew in real life? whether it used to be family and now it's ""ex friends"" they say they're watching and everyone's in on it so it's pointless to post, too. Idk I'm a little hesitant to get help again since I'm scared it won't help or that I'll find out it's all real .",0.8554135338345858,2.51772905263158,2.928496240601504,93.40447368421052,80.84210526315789,6.448120300751881,20.06766917293233,7.447530270364453,0.3996563909774435,272,7,64,4,7,92,54,76,0.078,0.767,0.155,0.7878,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,2,0,4,3,0,1,1,0,2,1,0,1,1,11,8,5,0,0,2,1,0,0,2,1,1,4,0,0,7,3,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,5,2,2,9,5,1,8,0,0,1,0,9,5,0,1,2,30,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20665208726023052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13336040611914926,0.1954218422319568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16690604882130095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15932752049432022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1822473478541136,0.0,0.0,0.35959994725205346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17432056923672712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29470964754736056,0.0,0.09964672632678524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21496263144342004,0.0,0.2556799104060106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1347157701373647,0.0,0.19115806252977524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2031175019835892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1322257430781672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18266326903381627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.434177033503084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15167337108005605,0.19095050288312845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15777093491592928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1647264622181655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,WesRabbit,2019/03/26,"After the ""awakening"" of your schizophrenia, what was your longest period without auditory/visual/tactile hallucinations? Mine was for two months (the best days of my life since I had my first outbreak ten years ago), but in the end I started to become paranoid about not being hallucinating. Sadly that paranoid thoughts was because I was hallucinating that I was on medication... I was taking (not-real) visual and tactile medication for two weeks. ¯\\\_(ツ)\_/¯ ",11.24815789473684,11.577026973684212,10.296315789473685,55.08421052631582,55.57894736842106,11.810526315789476,44.0,11.20814326018867,5.429826315789473,374,19,50,8,4,119,53,76,0.067,0.858,0.075,0.1526,0,0,0,0,0,0,24.0,0,2,0,2,1,2,0,0,3,0,8,3,0,0,0,5,11,2,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,1,0,4,8,0,10,1,10,2,1,12,0,1,0,0,2,2,0,0,10,42,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.197826325746474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13604207594657786,0.24647321568503086,0.0,0.0,0.23420265644242186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14392588644551035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19766196603228145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1898278907838156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15763124108187718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4496396517915986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17813179209803925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2540157866096645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18460814388758912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15796054412151173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16779571504281035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17717168094213767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4360084119255797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17901313801295654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21512746601156305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1437138623667589 schizophrenia,aldraek,2019/03/27,"Saying goodbye to alcohol due to triggering of symptoms. Anyone else? After going on a bender for a few weeks of too much drinking everyday I started getting schizophrenic symptoms, on top of the typical anxiety caused by the hangovers. Delusions, paranoia, social anxiety and self-hatred. I'm two weeks sober now. The only drugs I used to do were alcohol, weed, tobacco, and caffeine. Well, I quit tobacco for health reasons and weed because it makes me psychotic. I never thought alcohol could trigger psychotic symptoms in me, but I guess I was wrong. I've been trying to quit alcohol for quite some time but I think this time around it's gonna be different because now that it's triggering my symptoms I really don't want anything to do with it. Could be a blessing in disguise because I definitely hate life when I'm symptomatic and do everything I can to avoid triggers. I asked my psychiatrist to give me some medication to help me quit and now I'm on gabapentin. It really helps with the cravings.",5.773845559845562,7.672588102702707,6.530057915057918,71.78141891891893,67.97297297297297,10.258687258687258,37.53861003861004,10.451354775682146,4.597131274131273,809,45,130,23,14,266,109,185,0.11,0.7929999999999999,0.097,-0.0672,1,1,8,0,0,0,21.0,0,0,0,5,7,5,1,1,7,0,12,14,0,8,1,28,28,8,0,3,2,0,0,0,0,1,13,1,0,0,7,8,5,1,3,1,0,1,2,3,1,1,4,1,17,2,24,19,4,21,1,0,0,0,6,7,0,3,13,86,24,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4329562864412772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15496006866530426,0.0,0.0,0.07081834685524029,0.10377481749649194,0.08334600608764985,0.09016196609334014,0.09468448657261064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18522070108218455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10404395150088064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1617299977623116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10581756173639173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09921726569733172,0.11745433075768474,0.0,0.08460765783714873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09102523929904548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05291537895958905,0.0971583985925982,0.057560583777234164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1115729390618148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09999446648278612,0.0,0.1076574484147155,0.0,0.0,0.13577364606157766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07153808550894038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06760615634713628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10203040855768444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07445352155524149,0.0,0.07811450036436154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07702910893070293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4309011690238233,0.0,0.0,0.12976698451527202,0.10413420209582648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08054307657292475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10565864415292854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10324368666893563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07168753373282065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4210808386099533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06489706552258359,0.0,0.08040616044136782,0.1181160594672845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0687634583041903,0.0,0.098937262819456,0.0,0.0,0.08747465666218908,0.0,0.0,0.0597384250968985,0.0,0.1624837448021205,0.0,0.09106418966896113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11073536943690493,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,hurshitsahu_,2019/03/27,"Has reading become difficult and/or you've lost interest in it? I remember my 11th year of school we had just moved to a new place and I was traumatized by the change, in that year I just couldn't read or study anything, I was 17 then, now I'm 19 and have the same problem. I've been diagnosed with schizophrenia 3 months ago and am taking the medication I know... I visited the wrong physicians before. what I want to know is anyone having the same struggle as me? and also has anyone found something that helps? I kinda hope for that because I have exams coming, I've already failed my 1st semester so I'll have to study for two semesters. ",3.8969047619047608,5.603730595238098,4.495428571428572,85.27457142857145,72.4126984126984,7.5796825396825405,26.885714285714286,8.238735603445708,1.7438628571428576,509,18,99,8,10,162,88,126,0.153,0.772,0.075,-0.873,0,0,1,0,0,0,14.0,1,0,0,2,5,8,0,1,6,0,13,3,0,0,0,21,22,9,0,4,3,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,5,7,0,0,4,2,0,3,1,6,0,1,6,0,13,2,11,15,2,13,0,2,0,0,3,3,0,3,7,62,18,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15211546456947378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18936787766157395,0.13723063968572868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23997723493874365,0.0,0.14121442374944326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10460743030798658,0.18952173107592,0.14602128249891844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1815329326498439,0.1478205555384386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17417315684102927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18815353406739,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11502169143403992,0.0,0.0,0.1704402288515209,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1886167431603795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1873246489245159,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17287169506648573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13697166040637096,0.182386542599668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16573498415045548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17928832711505213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16420063536399246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3432983325269534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1943924390165833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1736711222981088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13210816386381494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17939643038637307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12902389532935596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1676309305295789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1012157351233634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18762064456057215,0.0,0.22101306139617866 schizophrenia,meowwithoutprozac,2019/03/27,"Thought I would say hey Hey I'm Helena, I'm 24. I live in Jasper, Alberta, Canada. Dx schizoaffective last year and bpd since I was 18, and I'm living on disability and the generosity of my relatives, and I live in my own apartment that I love. I'm currently coping with my delusions of grandeur",2.087175141242941,4.41074859322034,4.245000000000001,82.14230225988702,80.01694915254237,8.679096045197742,26.78248587570621,9.2995712137729,2.6582858757062144,233,10,47,7,6,80,39,59,0.066,0.755,0.179,0.7845,1,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,2,2,0,0,0,7,8,4,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,1,5,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,8,1,6,5,1,7,0,0,0,1,4,4,0,0,3,23,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3499995853124222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2265218782264926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7361603087533739,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2508114892521043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22099361210265814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2298779841418668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22061794243922664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.197408951214934,0.0,0.0,0.17895555568896668 schizophrenia,lunarambles,2019/03/27,Has anyone been on olanzapine depot? Just wondering what your experiences are with it. I’ve had my first jab and I haven’t noticed any major side effects yet ,2.4160000000000004,5.3415896000000025,4.248333333333335,77.9625,86.33333333333334,7.0,24.16666666666667,8.07648339933343,2.0776666666666674,128,5,22,3,4,43,29,30,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,1,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,5,0,0,1,0,5,6,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,2,0,3,0,2,4,1,4,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,2,16,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3010067072005796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3095004047177664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4329815746029183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3765047654072443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5039424268893001,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.480018343150279,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,xsunmisiren,2019/03/27,Im scared all the time I’ve been feeling bad these couple of days thinking someone wants to hurt me. People I see when I leave my house puts me into fear and I have restlessness from my risperidone where I want to pace and walk around. I was diagnosed with schizophrenia recently and given the medication for voices since I was inpatient this year. I just want to feel safe and make sure I’m okay and not alone. My heart starts pounding like crazy. ,5.309655172413791,6.489111862068968,4.848908045977012,86.12439655172415,68.3103448275862,8.098850574712644,27.143678160919546,8.344100000000001,1.6327333333333338,360,11,71,5,6,109,66,87,0.195,0.644,0.16,-0.7476,0,1,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,4,9,0,3,2,1,4,3,1,1,2,20,15,6,0,3,2,0,2,1,0,0,2,1,0,0,2,8,0,1,3,0,0,2,1,5,0,0,4,4,12,4,9,11,1,11,0,1,1,0,0,3,0,0,7,39,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20088291067950287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17266452997366707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16194756791856668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2146118179060424,0.0,0.12508743547919296,0.0,0.0,0.19686418621601567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21825767022911155,0.19614288087758794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2298422134686347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2238025127168196,0.2076369987297306,0.0,0.20950888010299606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.205374454538472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09475851432715196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12946906234187344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1953931718657929,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13446666966565396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19498225196486965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1915110002865175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19418668101942227,0.0,0.1545601199872113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1604447945937436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1643407344607714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1372850976223685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18280395439375333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12428102226083625,0.0,0.0,0.11309898604666095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3432059283194246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12490316321986665 schizophrenia,Rita005,2019/03/27,"Is it normal schizophrenic bahavior? So I spoke to my old flame’s family, and they told me he is schizophrenic. They also told me that the upstairs tenant looks a lot like me, and that he has been harassing her on a daily basis. He’ll call her by my name, and even tries to buy her gifts thinking it’s me. I truly loved this man and feel so bad not being able to help him. Would it be dangerous to try and talk to him after not seeing him for ten plus years? He’s in jail now for x number of reasons, and I’m debating wether or not I should visit him. I want to help, but I’m thinking it would be detrimental for him to see me again. Please any advice on this issue will help. Thank you in advance.",3.3181632653061257,3.905905476190476,4.672251700680273,87.74715306122452,72.46938775510205,8.05687074829932,22.86326530612245,8.238735603445708,1.0030440816326522,543,12,121,8,10,181,92,147,0.047,0.805,0.14800000000000002,0.9045,0,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,1,2,1,6,6,2,0,3,0,11,3,0,1,0,23,26,12,0,5,5,0,1,1,0,5,2,1,1,1,8,7,0,0,4,0,1,2,3,3,0,1,4,5,22,3,18,14,1,11,0,0,3,1,27,4,0,2,6,81,30,0,0.1760420419088896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17202624591933954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14078075731230108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11971462523688745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14698775171291986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17975860746921626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11627410838878227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16595676977119245,0.0,0.08901214586065541,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35399180965364097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1837421545945084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08600524944967536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14783097788225916,0.0,0.0,0.14966464870794513,0.15888481596297566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17248382380610086,0.0,0.0,0.18472650952447406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1932412975829436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1810005388430153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2805654303227697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1414959249323364,0.0,0.1620758601954571,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22560126437822636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3364314303198257,0.0,0.239041981506026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1038341574098938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2501104313582849,0.0,0.0,0.11336530322426193 schizophrenia,LethalPillow,2019/03/27,"Afraid of developing mental disorders Hi guys I don't want to go into too much details because of that fact, there is too much detail haha but basically I am a 20 year old male who has experimented with drugs (weed, psychedelics, alcohol) but have been totally clean of every drug for about 3 months now. I am pretty afraid and paranoid that I might develop/be developing psychosis or schizophrenia. I am pretty self conscious and aware at times of my own thoughts because I want to make sure if there is any changes or signs/symptoms I catch it. Obviously since I scared myself with the 'what if' thought one day, this behaviour has gotten worse. Sometimes I even question my own conciousness or reality. I believe I am being hyper paranoid about it. Is there any guidance or counsel anyone can lend me? Thankyou ",5.0117671517671525,7.503440675675678,5.274324324324322,77.52556133056136,71.29729729729729,7.7970893970893975,32.33056133056133,8.617729084823388,2.9058049896049907,652,31,109,12,13,206,105,148,0.1,0.7859999999999999,0.114,0.6243,0,0,3,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,0,0,9,5,0,3,2,1,15,3,0,1,4,25,22,10,0,4,8,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,1,3,7,5,1,0,4,0,0,2,1,3,0,1,4,0,15,2,13,16,5,10,0,0,0,0,6,2,0,8,6,75,22,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16561667649194714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2107709429762113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10835920029917036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1889375464538214,0.0,0.0,0.17459904529680928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1639385787149467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09994335821104497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17760998527724894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3594339014603869,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.102356764765908,0.0,0.13056959933014714,0.0,0.0,0.1515911981150135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08807348806946858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1534454758586382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10344422543569004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15617413660771295,0.16439954973550305,0.0,0.0,0.12369622967839,0.0,0.22784276712005824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16261580624812627,0.0,0.10501223802161497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3153220730499639,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17360278466427526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15515282527449625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16166836269856755,0.0,0.0,0.12819346337824136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15327010315511133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14605816344687514,0.1610740188073956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2460590406710036,0.09036473113758604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18281160908383495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15792850467633096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09979612688959644 schizophrenia,Schemes011,2019/03/27,"Not sure? I don't know if this is right to post here or anywhere but I'm just not sure about what is real. I seen a psychiatrist and he said I could potentially be schizophrenic but I feel like he didn't actually believe what I was saying and has prescribed me placebos. I know that sounds exactly like what someone would probably say but I just don't know. Like he knew I had been reading about it and was condescending for that, and he said things like ""we're going to batter you with testing. We'll do so many tests on you"" and I just interpret that as him trying to scare me into admitting im not being truthful? (even though I am) I don't hear voices, I hear other people around me say things but I don't think they actually say them, I think I make it up in my mind when I don't fully hear what they say. But even knowing that, I can't shake the vividness of the experiences. They've caused me to think I smell bad almost constantly when around others. I have grand ideas that dissipate in interest in a matter of days. I mumble my words a lot if I'm feeling social pressure/anxiety at the time. I cant think of anything else but there's been more shit like this. Does anyone share these occurrences? Can I tell my doctor I don't believe him? 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I am trying to gather numbers for possible places where my cousin might be at. He was arrested yesterday for what I would assume is battery(took a hammer and attacked a person) at his assisted care facility but there was no record of him at the local city police station/jail. I found his incident number and it said ""Mental Health"". I'm wondering if he was directly was put on a 5150 hold at the nearby hospital. There's also the possibility that he was directly transferred to the county jail but again I'm really new at this stuff. &#x200B; Does anyone know if it's possible he might be a hospital rather than a city jail? My second question is could he have been sent to another city jail or just automatically sent to the county jail? He is currently off meds, addicted to meth, and malnourished so maybe they took him to the hospital. 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He used to be a funny, joyful guy who was great to be around. Now he is humorless & emotionless. When he does laugh, it's usually weird and not in response to anything actually funny. He started sending me strange, cryptic messages all the time. These messages would be LONG and usually involve things like spirituality and supernatural sounding stuff involving nature. He started using big words in all of his speech and writing, like he was trying to emulate what he thinks an intellectual sounds like. It makes communicating with him really difficult because you can never understand anything he's talking about, and if you press him to explain what he means he'll just say more meaningless cryptic stuff. He wasn't into anything like this before he changed. At first I thought he was acting strange as a joke but after months of this behaviour it's obvious this is just his personality now. He's frightening to be around. It feels like he could do anything at anytime and there's no way to influence his decision making. He frequently ignores other peoples boundaries. For example, he'll decide he wants to come over to my place, and he'll pester me about it for days until he eventually just decides to show up. He came over to my place on new years eve and ended up staying for a couple weeks, without any sort of communication with me about it. I was okay with it, but I did have to kick him out so he would finally leave - it didn't matter how heavy my hints were, I had to straight up tell him to leave. And while he was here there was an absolute laundry list of weird shit he did. Like, opening the window in the guest room in the middle of winter and leaving it open after he left! He also went into one of my friends phones and sent my friends gf an insane text as ""a prank"". Another example of him being scary: I was driving with him a couple months ago and he'd randomly start speeding like crazy. We're talking double the speed limit and he'd just do it, despite it obviously scaring me. I really have no idea what could be going on. Schizophrenia is the only lead I have at the moment. I've thought about calling my aunt and talking to her about it, but I don't even know where to start with that.",5.953620689655176,6.791839344444448,6.352390804597699,77.15700000000002,66.66666666666667,9.31800766283525,32.85057471264368,9.40505699530331,2.9510827586206902,1875,78,347,35,29,606,231,450,0.093,0.802,0.105,0.7182,0,0,0,0,0,0,46.0,0,2,0,3,23,20,1,1,15,1,38,2,1,8,5,78,65,27,0,6,10,3,2,7,4,6,1,4,2,3,25,28,0,2,14,2,0,9,9,6,0,3,18,6,37,14,62,30,4,74,0,0,0,0,68,29,1,4,41,221,62,1,0.0,0.0,0.08243362592114792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14976073205200718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06755316140100144,0.0,0.0915266415183658,0.0,0.05744465049827676,0.08857748130518961,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2780568765559025,0.15039805656487376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05149405875774195,0.0,0.0718804436620031,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08625654851855367,0.09661479952628868,0.0,0.0,0.1787228206029755,0.07276615389640502,0.08856850878478298,0.0,0.0,0.13488990095065007,0.18693590590867687,0.0,0.054478204642330996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07392303799224173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07481815329717577,0.0,0.0,0.055793730341430835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04271217154085398,0.06034764762490918,0.0,0.09253622580314087,0.0,0.07185283298469035,0.0,0.0,0.13052751908140156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0480080476831742,0.0,0.0,0.09313196520678503,0.0,0.08364171651721555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056620583448813676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09535992381550068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0928484872097366,0.0,0.0,0.2683346617458249,0.0917803434780486,0.0,0.0,0.28888525859846026,0.0,0.0,0.07475609487870608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11277299028621507,0.0,0.0,0.0920160433888237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08961268136183198,0.0,0.0,0.13485135249656627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06515091425675938,0.08158471140080574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05724120437108233,0.06424565026736599,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0585630580685839,0.14751742287542893,0.17651296134238156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10823134811177654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06717645317196819,0.08457237696867517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08671049236057506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2391621704917868,0.09003715686991147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1934031331479216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20368899635908352,0.07383327155910636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05612021885453431,0.10825398950656646,0.0,0.13412451824426666,0.04925698319009047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0573517356582681,0.0,0.08251801005808722,0.08793954630526259,0.0,0.14591538905721135,0.18607051908755892,0.0,0.04982446272033692,0.06705086833072979,0.06775927949575541,0.0,0.0,0.07830747242291126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08142911888196765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12001462884689287,0.0,0.0,0.10879590040837038 schizophrenia,Mosanuu6,2019/03/27,Think I might be developing Schizophrenia Hey. I am a 20 year old man and I have a family history of Psychotic disorders and may think I’m developing schizophrenia. I have been diagnosed with depression and am currently taking antidepressants. I have become somewhat agoraphobic and have started having troubles in school. I’ve started noticing slight changes in my vision. I have never had hallucinations. Can someone please tell me symptoms of the start of the disorder,6.151167369901548,9.781177253164557,6.504219409282701,64.06479606188469,73.9367088607595,10.093389592123767,36.62587904360056,9.994966539143718,5.2363153305203936,389,22,52,13,9,125,55,79,0.121,0.8240000000000001,0.055,-0.7269,1,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,4,0,14,2,0,0,1,11,21,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,1,0,5,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,2,0,8,0,6,16,1,9,0,1,0,0,3,2,0,3,7,38,8,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2153817523189236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2063028915773992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16796847830098394,0.1979388828625256,0.0,0.0,0.4470144101886748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1838453522833544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2068829847758374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15040968976131847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2220289692040916,0.2046382938546233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21407089616657288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19736834628624494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16523788309712198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4141036424049233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20269808423640084,0.14662905678039634,0.0,0.17045408488824396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2499189637299432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1255850191390717 schizophrenia,JeSuisLouisMartin,2019/03/27,"Is my friend schizophrenic ? So he always was a really calm kid. He used to play basket and his grades were straight A. Now he doesn’t have any friends (we don’t live in the same place), he thinks that everyone wants to hurt him, he completely changed . He is not....himself, he doesn’t study , doesn’t go to basket (which he adored) anymore and he called 3 times the police on his parentsbc he had a fight with them. Also his psychologist/psychiatrist gives him risperidone, someone help me. Idk if the things that he does are bc of puberty or bc of he is schizophrenic. His parents used to suppress him ",2.7341014492753644,5.295910460869568,3.128369565217393,89.70269927536232,79.17391304347827,6.96376811594203,24.36594202898551,8.07648339933343,1.4576811594202912,473,17,95,9,12,146,78,115,0.062,0.8059999999999999,0.132,0.8173,2,0,0,0,1,0,21.0,1,0,1,0,3,7,1,0,6,0,12,2,0,2,0,12,18,6,0,2,2,1,0,0,2,0,2,0,0,1,4,4,0,1,1,1,0,1,4,2,0,0,3,0,11,5,9,15,1,7,0,1,0,0,29,4,0,2,2,50,15,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17167057115902468,0.1786216480946084,0.0,0.0,0.14598215326342273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2128937779762612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2192008581580124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2270911387102741,0.0,0.22507616482270787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1878581237465267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2051252490094595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3317051828212812,0.0,0.0,0.205929885016998,0.12200123273398762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14388797945836726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2298074028111395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18955649364631308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23836431105209605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2242832182993013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13752233768429128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18188818752704006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14261641978734318,0.13755110659084438,0.0,0.0,0.12517511042329918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3708098579080183,0.0,0.0,0.12661722701796413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,WolfsHeadGaming,2019/03/27,"I am tired of this I fucking hate this illness I don't feel myself I lose friends and I can't even make any I deal with bs all the time because of it all my problems I shove deep down because it feels no one will understand me. I have a sick sense of humor and I hate it, I just feel like there is no one to go to no one knows how I truly feel I hide my issues and lock them up but it hurts I can't feel happy even though I act like I am I just feel like I am failing at everything but I can't tell anyone been though people say I can talk to them about anything I am scared and I don't want to be a burden to them I go to therapy and try to show how I feel but I just can't it's all just overflowing and I don't know what to do please I just need to feel happy again and I don't know which way to go",-0.949652855543114,0.5999901489361719,1.5753303471444582,101.39184210526315,86.34042553191489,4.80895856662934,16.277715565509514,5.750287758089431,-0.9031531914893618,620,12,168,4,19,212,90,188,0.239,0.664,0.098,-0.9766,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,3,2,14,16,3,1,3,0,19,4,0,3,3,37,40,14,0,3,8,0,8,3,1,1,3,1,0,0,9,8,0,0,12,1,0,4,11,9,0,3,1,9,34,7,18,37,3,12,0,3,0,1,8,5,1,0,5,115,43,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08345105388377744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08580584529613935,0.0,0.10098477050059496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1496130078192619,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12651475566891907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16210545478867053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11028918279190268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4963909708328193,0.17533659792591413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09481003830378068,0.11344891805002663,0.0,0.0,0.2092269065602745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2612668206317844,0.0,0.2423131886721539,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13136996219173114,0.0,0.0,0.12808356884922198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20232442991535085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1798584431578976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13728775815475489,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08191384930866588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0909923217510141,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2494665102272736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08507578812106772,0.0,0.0,0.1347052618279121,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11742259068171168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09758864863392523,0.12286007358864105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09863443194595542,0.10725914893466693,0.0,0.14033638324694991,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2411355949727161,0.0,0.07155665710720735,0.14104393189844194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08331607453839178,0.0,0.0,0.12775163141527954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0723810465750823,0.09740620888954056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Bacateria,2019/03/28,"Successfully stopping medication? Your Experience I would say first that i enjoy taking my meds. The life I was living before I got on them was too much for me. And nowadays (two+ years later) I hear voices less than 10 times a day for sure. I hear a negative voice maybe 3 times a day. that will echo for a little while then fade away. And the visuals are so faint i don't know what i'm seeing 90% of the time. I feel really healthy. I am wanting to see if I can function without medication though. I don't know if it's too early for that though, will need to confer with doctors of course. I just want to know what your experiences were when you stopped taking medication and if it worked or not. Thanks for reading and responding.",2.8894748010610094,4.9442952206896535,4.140689655172416,85.24212201591514,76.10344827586206,7.220159151193633,23.56763925729443,8.139509932561175,1.2959230769230763,577,18,117,10,13,189,97,145,0.07,0.836,0.094,0.5247,0,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,3,1,3,7,4,0,0,7,0,11,6,0,0,1,23,27,14,0,7,7,0,1,0,0,3,6,5,0,0,7,5,0,2,4,1,0,0,5,0,0,2,4,8,18,4,15,20,2,18,0,0,2,0,8,3,0,4,15,81,25,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12630136205126385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11438998518648573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17339239171437584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13759474887095327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26299657000223936,0.0,0.0,0.06797182127610661,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11434604576697345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1075159104566786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3030246447142209,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22163755262386636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09495184839608352,0.0,0.13473412470201934,0.11870410765216464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1350529521724828,0.0,0.14932136804276172,0.4062720919732597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0988214800686038,0.09967810367188892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13446632744303666,0.0,0.08611926747027042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10690409090065367,0.0,0.0,0.2142465289625456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22477891312571785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12669863582122529,0.0,0.20214918295265666,0.0,0.0,0.12376503561236285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2641534842955596,0.0,0.23516155258890936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13131852653203052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.158580533512114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12958567348939054,0.0,0.09786660377188652,0.0,0.0,0.09549517863656913,0.0,0.0,0.08656847956158717 schizophrenia,skiexs,2019/03/28,"Is it possible to go past the thought block such as in hebephrenic schizophrenia? I am schizotypal, and the only real symptom I have is thought block. Maybe I have adhd? I dont know for real. BUT, I would like to know if its possible to go past the thought block. I have it sometimes when I want to explain something and I get shy or something, or anxious, and I lose the thought line. I also cant code cause of this. &#x200B; Any help will be greatly appreciated!",2.56907203907204,4.921612989010988,3.265421245421248,89.66013431013431,78.45054945054945,5.8026862026862025,29.89133089133089,6.937597516519254,1.6084349206349215,366,18,73,4,9,115,57,91,0.171,0.696,0.133,-0.4239,0,0,2,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,0,1,3,3,0,0,4,0,11,1,0,1,0,22,22,10,0,3,4,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,0,0,4,3,0,3,7,0,0,2,2,1,0,0,4,0,10,2,8,15,0,6,0,1,0,0,2,1,0,3,4,47,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17498333186893186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11643655102073812,0.0,0.15775792344711825,0.1769203676695878,0.0990132340203388,0.0,0.0,0.16448695727691925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14957167170335733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17064253129119822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07607017587884872,0.0,0.16549607383393533,0.0,0.0,0.16052490503132366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09759284860743796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16003629429006386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0711329787307759,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16288955374051795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14627512627765324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1107356307251338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27798402710040104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3282850460564508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.331450159163517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2241805328199573,0.14400247375399675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1513345178758643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4623616715427019,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08587886155586158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10343031447495686,0.0,0.1769203676695878,0.0 schizophrenia,quietsunflower,2019/03/28,"hearing voices in things that aren’t voices? i’m a 18m and am sorry if this question has been asked a million times before or never heard of. i was only very recently diagnosed with schizoaffective disorder, and i never thought i would’ve had it, but i did. but i’ve noticed that random sounds (a stomach growling or a drawer closing) sound like voices sometimes. they seem so real that i get anxious for a second before realizing it’s an object and not a person. is this common, uncommon, unheard of?",6.195,6.849370166666668,7.243749999999999,71.62625,66.08333333333334,8.9,33.70833333333333,8.841846274778883,3.1263458333333336,400,17,64,6,6,135,71,96,0.069,0.893,0.038,-0.1556,1,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,7,0,8,2,1,0,2,19,15,9,0,1,6,0,0,1,0,0,1,7,0,1,8,5,0,0,4,0,0,0,4,0,0,2,6,7,6,1,5,9,0,7,0,0,0,0,6,2,0,6,6,48,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2336845130632671,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19337921931864724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35203258404388904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2099509928434002,0.0,0.0,0.2370709531072821,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10807192438339444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23313786721324656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10105771164248772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3190748906124617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.235503009061496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1573206920059414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1806156755602488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23172220614845074,0.0,0.0,0.23544349756093785,0.0,0.0,0.2042419468133609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1883108005793209,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20458246973622235,0.23155450416872275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13742364858909215,0.0,0.0,0.16421782593326567,0.12061739042785102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1706750242596646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1469421227931755,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,schizosubreddit1313,2019/03/28,"Tingling sensation accompanied my perceived communication This is the only place I can talk about my irrational beliefs and not be immediately attributed as crazy or maybe be attributed as being crazy by people who have had similar experiences and can identify it. I experience tingling sensations on my body accompanied by a perceived message in my mind, has anyone experienced this? For example I will feel tingling on a part of my body and feel/hear “it’s because of this” it happens on occasion and will act up and then dissipate. My illogical beliefs make me think it’s someone communicating with me but I know better while simultaneously holding false beliefs much more so in times of stress. If anyone has ever experienced anything remotely similar or what maybe a response would help. I get stressed out and carried away and think my neighbors are harassing me with their minds when I am under prolonged periods of stress. The thing is that I only experience these symptoms at my home and to me it doesn’t make sense for symptoms of schizophrenia to be location specific but that is what happens to me at home.",8.562121212121209,9.54837001010101,8.842979797979797,61.05113636363637,61.020202020202035,12.256565656565654,42.25757575757576,11.855464076750405,5.665315151515151,914,51,139,28,12,302,117,198,0.1,0.863,0.036000000000000004,-0.899,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,1,1,4,5,1,3,5,0,19,7,2,4,1,35,28,19,0,2,6,0,1,0,1,3,5,0,3,0,15,11,0,1,9,0,0,1,2,4,0,0,1,3,21,1,28,20,3,19,3,0,0,0,6,12,0,3,6,110,36,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17289306742513078,0.0,0.10173879573596063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11615655505492548,0.0,0.0,0.0753650632987124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10934266550645283,0.0,0.27465508568143393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11183243516424367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3628081486998024,0.0,0.0,0.1250243460880021,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0645927403599764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2186551552493306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1393425148196746,0.0,0.08286808145586913,0.0,0.2480264252929541,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06794504341434761,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1650509545439135,0.0,0.2484103958908373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2496666287011315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0908839184611401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1880557724861421,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13388166326340667,0.0,0.08571102540332239,0.0,0.1291693724046535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10475319200803923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4248609244531617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2570024614173629,0.0,0.0993709078560806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0821357637821408,0.15843708902192366,0.0,0.0,0.07209095079277772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08782479297631289,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,godtiertrauma,2019/03/28,"Being stalked or just another delusion? I guess no one can say for sure, but any advice? I'm pretty sure my ex is stalking me. I see them everywhere. Like I'll go somewhere, and they'll be there at the same time. I'll be leaving a different place then they leave at the exact same time. And they won't stop texting me or back off. When I was in the hospital they asked around to find out which one and showed up without even asking me. I feel like they're still obsessed with me. This isn't something that's happened once or twice, it happens all the fucking time! I want to report it but I'm scared no one will believe me because of my disorder, and I'm not even sure if they're really stalking me or if it's just a coincidence, or if I'm just hallucinating them in these places! I don't want to make a false accusation. But what if my ex is counting on me not saying anything and using my disorder against me to stalk me and get away with it??? 😩",2.1154991087344044,3.7825557727272794,3.612959001782532,89.90414438502674,77.13131313131315,6.679025549613786,25.28342245989305,7.5105763829236425,1.1098124777183602,745,27,164,10,17,246,113,198,0.104,0.769,0.127,0.6967,2,0,1,0,0,0,20.0,0,0,6,0,10,8,1,2,7,0,12,1,0,2,5,43,30,20,0,6,18,2,1,2,0,3,0,2,0,0,9,10,0,1,2,1,0,1,8,3,0,4,1,4,25,5,20,23,3,21,0,0,1,1,12,12,1,10,10,111,34,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12285818847856682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08549812798850955,0.13183488397684814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10346195082418903,0.11192297435765937,0.2350740522176174,0.0,0.11812390445616505,0.09667568792365068,0.0,0.07664152515732205,0.0,0.0,0.141650374673733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1313571205462769,0.2881862374167092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16608193996518927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0635709448554597,0.08981882308770835,0.0,0.0,0.11491146995603267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1162318468632867,0.06568675084446034,0.0,0.07145309736748466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1385015848555968,0.0,0.2223585285850352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2662517867744265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1228469422275112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08392321542131237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13389430076398615,0.2555859827721663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2627142410925538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12790874576231673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08054342373888401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19996504256852765,0.12587386027489494,0.0,0.10018750433967903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09679017192608708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10040510649448303,0.10511273364987923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35548636949136786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21993587653077729,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10858707034418164,0.0,0.0,0.14831314156049666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12119557117630783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,slappycider,2019/03/28,"Suicide. How do I deal with this? I’ve suffered with schizophrenia for years now but today I woke up and I feel like I’m being screamed at by the world to kill myself. It’s loud and clear and is almost like a calm call to the other side, whispering sweetly to me and then screaming at me when I run from those phrases. I’m at work right now and I’m about to have a total breakdown because it won’t stop. What do I do? How do I combat such a horrible day? How do I get everything to shut up so I can be alone with my thoughts for two seconds? I’m just in total panic mode right now and I need some guidance. Hopefully this is the right place to ask this. I hope it’s not too heavy. I just need help. ",0.22603476821192106,2.208219927152321,2.0005587748344382,97.52878518211922,84.82781456953644,4.834602649006623,20.033526490066226,5.985473137389443,-0.1820831125827813,543,16,128,4,16,178,92,151,0.209,0.631,0.161,-0.8577,0,1,0,0,0,2,13.0,0,0,0,1,13,11,1,1,6,0,12,0,0,3,3,28,25,13,2,4,4,0,1,2,0,1,0,4,0,0,9,9,0,1,2,0,0,1,2,5,0,2,2,6,15,6,20,20,3,23,0,1,0,0,4,13,0,4,11,88,24,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1803807527244269,0.18656715866603488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1684033749402967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1098095802178664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1839395769602324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11617318438504287,0.18571289239973884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1618951325352763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09108246155464526,0.12868960056155393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09411392220209053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12074174477983107,0.0,0.0,0.35783251586084824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19929442364202946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17601125668312367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2671379661479273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21135145059568156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1882043740153349,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4615069358638872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1506022372852391,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1970401686400936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14300831397478606,0.0,0.0,0.17074840416457635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17596725260134802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13114156731695475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11600204413360392 schizophrenia,whitewomenbad,2019/03/28,hello i am a inkel that got called schizo by other inkels is it true? come on boys hallucinate me a vision like a like an old ugly wrinkle grey gypsy mush schizo tards mush I have another problem I am addicted to blacked.com as a white male watching a black loosen a white women gives me the most intense erections I ever felt ,5.8515625,6.42063103125,6.1374999999999975,79.5575,66.8125,8.275,30.0625,8.07648339933343,2.0786375,262,9,48,3,4,84,50,64,0.093,0.7120000000000001,0.195,0.5563,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,0,8,0,4,1,0,0,2,6,8,1,0,1,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,0,3,3,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,2,6,6,3,4,6,1,4,0,0,5,0,6,1,0,1,4,27,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3389526397510539,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32603052540464444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3174877792720397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2678331674929912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2812482149210641,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29853543444759834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29826626788414945,0.0,0.0,0.2486740222546267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3038031506579327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32626203611220184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2975119131010425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,ThisHuckleberry,2019/03/28,us disability rules. if im on disability in the us do i have to be on antipsychotics even if they dont help me and give terrible side effects? it's been 5 months so far without my injection and the only difference is im not always hungry and i enjoy my hobbies again. they shot never really made it go away just made me not care about it. if that makes sense. i havent been to the doc in 5 months either. i read online if you have ssi for mental illness you have to go to the doctor once a month and i hate doing that. thats one of the reasons i stopped the injection.,0.5846726001271456,2.6932365454545457,3.0581818181818186,89.71496503496503,84.37190082644628,6.367705022250477,20.05149396058487,7.61054688173877,0.7056263191354106,446,13,98,8,13,154,75,121,0.13699999999999998,0.836,0.027000000000000003,-0.9019,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,2,2,2,1,5,4,1,0,7,0,11,2,0,5,1,20,19,9,0,4,9,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,6,4,0,1,2,1,0,2,6,2,0,1,4,0,16,2,13,14,1,15,0,0,0,0,8,7,0,4,6,70,22,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13446215184315707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15182626842697045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16475952719497186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16883510188451167,0.0,0.16540199517202198,0.0,0.0,0.1893911883732628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10673369337949776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15501914669118574,0.1836792847442656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1595441782959028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10831546763071234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34910628521875553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3058151203450946,0.10786765549676702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16285237667112545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3869569973480812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12463403438201748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17209617428602952,0.1095027186500824,0.12290225970984316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1616413346078487,0.0,0.1035235630663138,0.16614925095618355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13510283280672827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3887640412505363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15577432363321916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,subcontschizo,2019/03/28,"Immigrant issues Hi all, new to the sub but it seems like you guys have an incredible community here and hoping to ask for your help. &#x200B; My mother is a wonderful, sweet lady who immigrated from south India with her family to the USA about 15 years ago. She had her first symptoms while here and, as commonly happens in the Indian community, they went untreated for a long time. She finally found a psychiatrist and her symptoms stabilized on risperidone. For the last 10 or so years, she has gotten by, but (as expected) is somewhat detached and disengaged from the rest of us. She does her very best, but the medication and her symptoms have left her unable to improve her English, hold a steady job, or find a hobby she enjoys. She recently had a backslide after a medication change and some symptoms returned, causing her to alienate many friends - thankfully she is now improving and will hopefully be back at baseline soon. &#x200B; My question is: any suggestions on how we can get her help with getting a bit more integrated and finding her something to do with her time? I imagine many immigrants have similar issues. She does speak English but not extremely well, can't drive, and is willing to try anything. Anyone we can hire, services we can look into, organizations that can help? We are happy with her psychiatric care for now, just want to help her get back on her feet. We are willing to pay for the help as well. If it helps, she's located in the St. Louis area. &#x200B; Thanks so much!",7.285364450127879,8.090487293478262,7.244663256606993,72.03878516624043,63.7463768115942,10.697016197783462,36.52514919011081,10.59048541779884,4.075483205456095,1207,56,205,29,17,386,167,276,0.024,0.727,0.249,0.9977,1,0,1,0,0,0,48.0,6,2,1,2,14,13,0,0,17,0,23,7,1,2,1,45,40,23,0,5,9,1,0,1,1,3,6,1,0,1,4,19,0,1,7,0,1,2,2,0,2,1,5,3,35,13,34,31,8,32,0,0,1,0,47,10,0,10,21,152,39,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07521366619152886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2758021078744517,0.3093030718393793,0.057700342511226715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059328509738749174,0.0,0.06982363403603067,0.0,0.07932251645487151,0.0,0.0,0.13048754252146408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08904396498474422,0.0,0.0926333135777882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08650937968147819,0.0871634663047939,0.08975916707573635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14850415398560832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07998824236308963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09294811400580484,0.15510120118238646,0.07217265729109051,0.0,0.093032731051732,0.06555425520748429,0.0,0.13299056171210016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08401401434960495,0.0750318373132873,0.09032351501676933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3412356447304051,0.0,0.0,0.16854873388091612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1771209696872882,0.08419970485673085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06916339499250572,0.0,0.0,0.09218886717119637,0.0,0.0,0.041453016631761264,0.0,0.0,0.07508884190064828,0.0712519296677181,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17204747352908809,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1709532164069491,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.062373899911890684,0.0,0.0,0.08194785329309799,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09505048461221698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08377831518795245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0772434940538765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06532103337521394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35276308673707346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15623542449511854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0989524621173634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057607014097764836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10206309954765054,0.0,0.0,0.07000944810912968,0.050046236498340745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15257918049597854,0.07865602698942284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09201530115070246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3093030718393793,0.10928016208521618 schizophrenia,dimaras20111,2019/03/28,Abilify and excersise ok so adding to my depression gym is supposed to make me feel good but after taking abilify and returning to the gym i have goten much weaker and when i perform the lifts i get weird pumps and i cant bend my arms if it makes sense.im wondering is this normal?could it be caused by abilify?whats your experiences(sry if this is out of topic i tried posting on r/fitness but they wont let me),2.9958333333333336,5.449716283950622,4.2377623456790126,82.71368055555558,77.51851851851852,8.494444444444445,27.40895061728395,9.188382445141503,2.625924691358024,333,14,64,9,8,109,60,81,0.107,0.848,0.044,-0.7236,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,1,1,1,2,4,0,0,2,1,8,1,1,3,0,14,14,10,0,2,4,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,5,0,0,2,2,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,1,11,2,8,11,1,7,0,1,0,0,2,3,0,3,3,44,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2931324970366394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2278283235397649,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2457710705055815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14428126002488142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1490833147175605,0.0,0.0,0.23933758750194306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3082263814257669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2917891543646477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3809459586878103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20976468474935286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2795818839331443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27328590339637504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21454728063658715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19373355151175253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30944931558326866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Haveathingtosee,2019/03/28,"Dealing with Schizophrenia alone So I am dealing with Schizophrenia alone, I can't handle my living situation. I'm not making enough money to leave. I had some strange dreams last night, I barely remember them now. They said something like remember in Futurama how Nibbler was Fry's demon, it's something greater than him communicating with him. We were talking about entities or something in a grocery store, not sure who I was with. I find that comment really funny. My schizophrenia is getting worse. The voice just said my tantrum emotions are light. It's smart at making fun of me, I almost respect it. It just said your pleasure mind has confident stages in actions. I feel it has a really sardonic sense of humor, it's like I share a mind with a psychopath. It just said you're important in this. It's just mocking my feelings, making human feel like nothing. I think I break down because I mean nothing, needing to shatter my sense of purpose and hope as a drive. I don't know what to do, I can't handle these people and illusory family dynamics. I can't handle their Christian. My own father said ""This isn't a democracy, it's a dictatorship in his house."" I just can't take it anymore. I'm a young schizophrenic, virtually powerless. I just want to live a peaceable life on my own. I've gone through way too much shit. I don't know what the point of this is. I think I'll always be alone in my perception. I can't handle these voices. They just said these voices are really psychedelic, use your mind to love it. They just make fun of what I am and convince me it's always right. They just said convince her enjoy my empathy act. I can't do this. I don't want to take antipsychotics and gain weight. My appearance is one of the only things I have. I don't know if I can gain weight if I'm gluten free and vegan. I'm honestly sick and dying, I'm nothing anymore. Vacant in this. I can't handle these people. I have no insurance, I want an easy and effective way to kill myself. 8,000 dollars for schizophrenia treatment. I can't even take myself to a hospital. I can't live in this. I'm too tall to hang. Too cowardly to throw myself off a building. I'm driven by dreams, I can't even own my mind. Everything reflects, every dislike I have shows me a parallel of my own behaviors. No escaping this mess, just as bad as the last one. Voice takes a friend's voice and says "" I'm crazy just so you know this"" and "" You're that controlling what I think"" and "" people go on a date"" I tried to work with this thing. It's not me. I'm sick of people saying its demons. This is a terrible time in our evolution to be alive, I feel like a pre pubescent boy. Nothing matters. There's my dead rant, I'll go back to sulking in torture. Life has always been bad. Depression. Under Pressure. Confusion. 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In older books like Lombroso's Criminal Man or Krafft-Ebing's Psychopathia Sexualis epilepsy is described as a mix between seizures, hallucinations and psychosis. Why is that? Is there a connection between the two, and why was the separation made?",8.437244897959182,11.423156755102045,6.526275510204084,70.09104591836736,63.08163265306122,8.981632653061224,42.86224489795919,9.516144504307137,4.8491183673469385,247,15,34,5,4,72,36,49,0.081,0.867,0.052000000000000005,-0.3485,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,4,0,5,0,0,1,0,4,6,4,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,1,5,3,0,4,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,1,3,20,1,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3003261950031864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1436906398039617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27830048132854696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3086261654046571,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2873094322183475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7961841488662803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Lord_Teutonic,2019/03/28,"How to connect with someone with schizophrenia I'm 20 y/o male in college. My Dad is a paranoid schizophrenic. He has always been disconnected from reality a bit, it's never been too bad except for a year or two when I was younger and his meds stopped working and he was put in a clinic twice for awhile. Otherwise he usually reserves himself to focusing on tv or reading, usually blocking out (or not being able to see) everything else, and often misses stuff happening around him. Because of two bad parents, I've grown up pretty socially awkward and have some anxiety from it, but up until now I haven't shown any signs of having schizophrenia yet at least. My question is about how I can connect with someone who has schizophrenia, such as my Dad? We've never been close and I only see him a few times a year. I've never acknowledged him having schizophrenia and honestly the only reason I know he does is because my mom told me when I was younger, a little bit after his first episode. He's never seemed like a bad guy (My Mom has talked a lot of shit about him, but she's also known for lying a whole bunch so idk how much I can believe it.) He and I were never close when I was young, part of it is because my Mom told me crap to make me hate him which I feel terrible about because he didn't deserve it. I've been trying to change that when I get time (On top of college and working, sadly it's not that much time.) I would like to talk to him about having it, to see if it runs in the family or when he got it just to satisfy my curiosity at least, but I don't know how open he would be to talking about it, or if it could trigger some attack or something. I also want to try to have what emotional relationship I can with him while he's still around so I don't feel guilty when he's gone. I have a hard time making meaningful relationships with the average person, so I don't know what to do about my Dad. Any advice would be great, thank you!",5.827664300435082,5.323656521410584,6.457802839477902,80.90425406457523,66.90931989924435,9.434806503320358,31.647469658804674,8.841846274778883,2.3758523929471043,1537,54,316,22,22,505,189,397,0.118,0.787,0.094,-0.8318,1,0,1,0,0,0,37.0,0,1,0,4,30,16,4,1,14,0,38,4,2,8,5,69,60,37,0,7,15,7,3,2,0,3,2,0,0,3,18,19,0,2,11,2,0,4,12,11,0,4,14,6,41,5,50,39,13,49,0,2,3,0,43,17,2,14,30,225,59,5,0.08216279079381247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08028852824730782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13141110822642627,0.06836602386439153,0.0,0.0,0.11174703044388344,0.0,0.06285431006781864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14628460665941395,0.0,0.09347203593356153,0.0,0.0,0.20580749511230767,0.20034269864182155,0.0,0.0,0.0925693293143241,0.0,0.0,0.17940097514119294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08691733826257911,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0656003028017243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07190121190894175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06863646880919007,0.0924220808337342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07384261847814487,0.0,0.07745576685928474,0.0,0.0830879514819811,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06988762787633576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.042926667045635136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0657130895115926,0.09058476691031044,0.0,0.08135408050144148,0.0726562845521848,0.0,0.07360172213445255,0.08111874569377209,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13546356323300554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08028117875797597,0.08234870131502388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06985186656369598,0.0,0.0,0.10968860171879263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0912643382966204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2886842026648209,0.0,0.0,0.12079821001065325,0.0,0.3168450471778625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12497700959169035,0.0,0.0,0.09123205586579028,0.08897429572418591,0.0,0.0,0.07174137975457913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08358909629378966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08259629826287343,0.09204112952709638,0.0,0.08218502521187092,0.0,0.0,0.08447703312952216,0.0,0.17642417749294792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19641931983085265,0.07479791892007401,0.0,0.0,0.08433892403881868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08375461821006483,0.13923253202252686,0.0632529304638505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06561531086194222,0.06869177210986109,0.0,0.0,0.09405673818344304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1981180169065993,0.0,0.07564445884386264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19163913619013187,0.0,0.0,0.15702013522506802,0.0,0.11156628328352863,0.0,0.1605222157702286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18098141237546908,0.0,0.0484617427746962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09173182171887448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11963098050402195,0.0,0.0,0.17509826764287767,0.0,0.0,0.10582028691660836 schizophrenia,thumbbreaker,2019/03/29,"Hearing Voices Groups and Other Strategies I Use Hey all, It's been a while since I've been on this sub, mainly because I think I was getting better (I wasn't). I wanted to share what has been helping me lately. For the past month I've been attending my local Hearing Voices group at the hospital. It was offered to me as part of my attending a clinic here in Melbourne. So far so good. I've made friends with everyone in the group. We share about our voices, delusions and anxieties in a non-judgemental safe space. Everything is confidential, which is why I'm not going to tell you about my friends' experiences and we can trust in each other because everyone in the group has been through a similar journey. There is a clinician who attends the group just to monitor if one of us is in crisis. At group lately, I've been sharing my poetry and songs, and it has helped me so much! I'm writing songs almost every day and singing all the time to drown out the voices. I also have been listening to lots of new music to inspire me and keep me focused. I have been smoking cigarettes a fair bit though and I would like to cut down - the HV group is full of people who smoke but they all understood when I told them I wanted to cut down. Today I found out there is a link between tobacco use and psychosis, which is a very good reason for me to quit. I hope you can find a hearing voices group in your area - if not, you could start one if you talk to the clinicians at your local hospital or ward. Finding a group of people so similar to me has helped me in the best way possible this past month. That's not to say that I'm cured or symptom-less. This week I was really unwell and crying almost every day because of my delusions. It makes it easier to keep on living just to talk about it with my friends at group though.",5.054775422206252,5.536163060606064,5.778440531800218,81.7445777937478,68.53168044077135,8.957671577434422,29.55671337884777,8.964715089967882,2.2713452868607016,1433,50,284,24,23,468,172,363,0.048,0.8240000000000001,0.128,0.9823,0,0,3,0,0,0,33.0,4,6,2,3,16,17,2,0,20,0,29,1,0,5,3,55,52,26,1,8,11,0,0,1,3,1,1,12,0,0,18,17,0,3,8,3,0,5,4,2,0,2,16,12,39,15,49,34,11,45,0,0,0,0,45,24,0,9,16,200,57,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1975505397873012,0.0,0.0,0.0788836169368833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07546052057758727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18039293149250865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10351822763905248,0.08724044052849983,0.10769103154321713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07875725617104479,0.0,0.10835311774763076,0.1272312868055075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1662195311205609,0.18851246847610167,0.08865267036040446,0.09649036989448652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18031319083600528,0.0,0.0,0.10815537507281862,0.2286306651250159,0.0,0.05153614188795131,0.0,0.05606026964225838,0.16547171481916634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3335286090085309,0.0,0.19835206774436054,0.0,0.0,0.09797332253313333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1753542950947715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22254394406593936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04819128183192747,0.0,0.08710230141218031,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08386152371293687,0.0,0.09333702562646186,0.06584400479614544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15746949829060194,0.0,0.0725128937252605,0.0,0.0,0.09526862975138173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13368414282821026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1068191929261006,0.18832905403093425,0.13677127001982595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11120353356486766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10491743715685707,0.0,0.0,0.0631923068287762,0.10141994860695576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07844372475390117,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08159731470713112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06981900125620177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10252634617562137,0.0,0.15856869296038567,0.08621706801095892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06320552630715799,0.1938296564733065,0.0,0.057518684734360864,0.0,0.09350066152031436,0.09425623423805084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1186536468174021,0.17038926701385612,0.0,0.08138961452903605,0.11636269124360522,0.07829707600639811,0.07912430649889826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0890086618503834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07007213143277241,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,TheMangaReader,2019/03/29,"How to classify this? What to do? I’ve been hearing *""voices""* in my head before i sleep sometimes, although i wouldn't call them voices directly, its strange to describe. Sometimes i can’t think properly and don’t know what to talk about when I’m with family or friends, especially cause i tend to drift into fantasy's a lot. Recently i started to get problems articulating myself properly, like talking and mid sentence my formulating just goes wrong and i mumble. I try to think about something to talk about but it interrupts in my brain and then I forget right away. I catch myself more and more thinking about past mistakes and sometimes talk to myself for a few words like ""oh you idiot, what where you doing?"". Most of the times im just really bored and don't know what to do, sometimes im depressed, sometimes euphoric (not genuinely happy but rather very happy (euphoric) or not at all (bored, depressed)) It starts to slowly creep up on me that the two psychosis (paranoid schizophrenia including voices) i had which i was in mental clinic for didn't resolve properly or maybe even evolved into something scary.",4.873566395663957,7.3292218878048825,5.026300813008131,79.31137533875341,71.58536585365853,7.482384823848236,30.901084010840112,8.344100000000001,2.615027100271003,897,40,148,15,18,281,126,205,0.151,0.74,0.109,-0.8103,0,0,2,0,0,0,31.0,0,2,1,1,11,14,1,0,4,0,11,4,3,2,1,36,22,16,0,4,10,0,0,2,1,1,1,4,0,0,10,10,0,0,6,1,0,2,7,8,0,1,4,4,21,6,28,17,6,21,0,2,0,0,10,12,0,5,9,104,31,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10639341148916824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09635953695610877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1264141270218911,0.11563146596260647,0.0,0.0,0.11632944298274828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19506818262878892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07479444681831078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10675330013528296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08748952189176715,0.0,0.059163617594223464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2410937663585503,0.0,0.0,0.11621767859053385,0.0,0.12763055438528625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2446388825962607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1244683084689253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11064742005245773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09627323540455143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11376555311796133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11412004064035998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10810110852683943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10835610344464934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07254492360415947,0.0,0.11181157832535184,0.0,0.0,0.09670698104191264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1133225302703131,0.0,0.0,0.174356522284801,0.5599899823665693,0.0,0.16030477019849482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3640744987516189,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2176802987935296,0.0,0.0,0.0660315914905927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.076883035358631,0.0,0.1106197574005796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09343547758399272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12381098237099315,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,tortiesunite,2019/03/29,What does it actually feel like to develop schizophrenia? Is it a slow progression or does it come on fairly quickly? Are there little things appearing that aren’t usually associated with schizophrenia? I’m paranoid that I may be heading down that road but I have no idea what it’s like. ,3.781761006289312,6.809789471698117,4.55311320754717,78.15218553459121,78.81132075471697,8.061635220125785,29.58805031446541,8.841846274778883,3.0164616352201263,234,11,40,6,6,75,41,53,0.081,0.8140000000000001,0.105,0.3049,1,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,1,2,2,0,0,1,0,6,1,1,0,0,8,10,2,0,0,2,0,1,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,10,2,0,0,2,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,1,2,2,4,8,0,9,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,3,5,28,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.2882049843279992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25440550514401233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5169004218354158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1493305746531356,0.21098784195912232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3030995734627379,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3333979919196408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28857215381846385,0.29600390116679604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19620787772851755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32527048542562664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,anondescriptUn,2019/03/29,"Using music as a distraction Does anyone else use music to try and drown things out but worry its ultimately a bad coping mechanism which leads to more problems and makes things harder, instead of just dealing with delusions. I have earphones in more or less constantly lately and im concerned its contributing to my paranoia. Its just so hard to be alone with my thoughts. Does anyone have any other ways of coping? or is this as good as it gets. Thankfully my delusions involving music have been quite mild lately which is why iv been using it to try and distract myself. Could having music in my ears all the time cause them to come back stronger?",6.6370000000000005,7.902060033333335,6.091666666666669,78.10500000000003,65.33333333333334,8.333333333333334,30.0,8.472884824447931,2.3365,524,18,87,7,8,161,80,120,0.191,0.732,0.077,-0.9354,0,1,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,1,2,5,6,0,2,3,0,10,2,1,6,1,23,18,11,1,2,5,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,11,8,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,4,0,0,3,2,7,2,16,13,4,11,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,2,5,63,18,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16500062044438515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10833856488049247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22279124600842015,0.16323538970487164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12250215922727895,0.13302002194031942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1636587312741373,0.0,0.137234374595874,0.0,0.17216117205496953,0.0,0.12719877446467875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16424510449521498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2788324335936498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1330858905102896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08323466823867436,0.0,0.0,0.13362450875545506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1427135006112518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17208579410100072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3594248749378184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1063429215680994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15244139369076465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16944939520675698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14667436046850452,0.0,0.0,0.2116814679431913,0.0,0.0,0.12647703220256495,0.0928969159507207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2163266616030164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.412786840218774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1264555495756744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1437555503396555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1617904757108997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,sammerrz,2019/03/29,"Clozapine Withdrawal Hi all! My brother has been on clozapine consistently for two years and just recently made up his mind to stop taking it. He is experiencing severe withdrawal symptoms such as not eating, not sleeping, hallucinations, delusions, and is being highly illogical. He is claiming that once the withdrawal ends he will be fine. Does anyone have any input on this? How long will these symptoms last? Will he be better once it's over? Thank you so much. I hope this doesn't sound ignorant, just a concerned brother. 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After doing research and talking to some medical professionals I have noticed differences in the voices I hear and when I hear them. To start with I mainly have psychotic episodes when I am at home, and a few other times at work or out just walking around. But mainly just at home. When at home i hear three distinct voices 1.evil woman voice that resembles my step mom this voice is the instigator of terror always making me paranoid. 2. My step sister who can be good but is usually also judgemental and causes paranoia. 3. My father who tends to stick up for me but can also just as equally get angry depending on what the other two voices tell them. The voices all communicate together in their own specific way though that usually ends with me getting put down and paranoid. I guess where I'm getting at is the 3 voices in my head(at home) literally have conversations about me non stop. Now if I'm in a completely comfortable situation with best friends or certain family the voices can almost completely die out. But say I'm alone in my room, the voices can break me down. Does anyone else experience this? Obviously anxiety and even white noise has something to do with this but I'm not even sure general schizophrenia is a good diagnosis. I know you all probably can't legally diagnose but thought I'd see if anyone else experiences similarities. I tried a few anti psychotic drugs but to be honest did not like how they made me feel in general thanks Tldr: i have developed three voices that reassemble the people i live with. They talk to each other but seem to be situational and definitely environmental. When i am comfortable with the situation these voices can die out entirely until i become anxious or paranoid again. Would this still be considered schizophrenia?",5.944988095238094,8.04696714166667,6.599841269841274,70.64500000000002,67.8611111111111,10.031746031746033,31.74603174603175,10.290406445055957,3.7461031746031743,1601,68,258,44,28,524,196,360,0.125,0.77,0.105,-0.4538,0,1,2,0,0,0,26.0,0,1,5,2,20,12,0,1,16,0,26,6,0,6,6,64,49,32,2,3,19,3,1,1,1,1,6,15,5,1,16,21,0,1,5,0,0,4,3,1,0,3,4,18,31,11,45,40,11,50,0,0,2,0,21,24,0,11,21,189,47,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08643468167785699,0.08939907793531023,0.0,0.13805642499136933,0.07182321930753276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06603278414112845,0.09751440196521724,0.0,0.1207106489149532,0.17688531457304768,0.0,0.07684103002871605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09533108899891768,0.0,0.0,0.09058507320173467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08867202821762768,0.0,0.0,0.1810048772856182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2628318655877496,0.17916823505590598,0.09018359726687684,0.0,0.0,0.07553717796513645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10010109747840404,0.0,0.14421468071787985,0.0,0.15290367696264762,0.0,0.0,0.11402401883379873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16887049594069967,0.08137262071584493,0.0,0.04364480939348748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06668882060308692,0.0,0.13529226567903166,0.0,0.0,0.14479833881985835,0.0,0.0,0.09508864915351813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0885868358958383,0.0,0.29185887501142554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3463346586540673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0474379360794915,0.07036042475590598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04217045531007252,0.0,0.0762200873161523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08167586995679578,0.11523543496419154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0869559752025229,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10109421623301927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09827324365061137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05984180655526511,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09306505156620708,0.0,0.0,0.08677310319950611,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0686432786873582,0.0,0.0,0.06878401037544042,0.15716073659628624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29107404552180977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06645156233688021,0.0,0.0,0.06109609374029786,0.0,0.06893340574138357,0.07216544028735472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08135338596225128,0.08971711345182824,0.0,0.13875775297664672,0.07544545144497161,0.0794697168248244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08480667618036833,0.06852659116342498,0.05033252969995757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11720806884269898,0.0,0.08431982478508028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19013344548768907,0.0,0.0,0.0685149516494009,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06284029451353568,0.0,0.0,0.06131759884231885,0.0,0.0,0.055585751845634614 schizophrenia,badabingbadaboooooom,2019/03/29,"Depression and slight Paranoia self care Hi, I am doing well as a college student but due to some recent stressors my depression and paranoia are on thr verge of getting me down. Does anyone have SA related self care tips?",9.383170731707317,8.426483048780494,8.522073170731709,70.47628048780491,59.97560975609756,11.126829268292685,42.45121951219512,10.125756701596842,4.502600000000001,179,9,29,3,2,56,36,41,0.285,0.569,0.146,-0.8225,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,1,5,0,0,1,0,4,0,0,0,0,4,7,4,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,3,3,5,7,1,5,0,2,0,0,3,3,0,1,2,18,3,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18181805097591133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5302329984044222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4479245237499704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22755279003624584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13585421711058074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2567468835572381,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5425331034035941,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2337969497248447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,victoriakmac,2019/03/29,"High - Functioning STPD / Schizophrenia Quality of Life Questions Hey all. I've never posted one of these before and am not sure how this goes. But I have schizotypal personality disorder and I am 25 years old. I have a really positive mindset about it all, but it doesn't take away from the fact that I suffer a lot and have really low moments, like now. I've been seeing a therapist, although had my final session recently (I couldn't get myself to pay for it at the moment, I don't have a full time job. She was so generous enough to give it to me for free. Even though she was okay with it, I still feel too badly because I know it's wrong). I am not on medication, as I am very scared to go on it, and feel it will blunt me from life, and I just very badly want to feel alive and not caught in my head. Has anyone had positive experiences from going on medication? What kind did you go on? I practice yoga and (try) to mediate. I do so daily, for the most part, and have for almost 2 years now. I have been very confused lately if my symptoms are getting worse or if I am just experiencing symptoms of spiritual enlightenment. I think they're very related though in a way. Do you guys have insight on this? I am also left extremely confused as to what I should do for my future. I want to protect myself from any suffering that can be avoided and take care of myself, yet live freely and surrender to what's supposed to happen. I do not want to live my whole life fighting and live a double life, as I know I could do easily, yet, suffer greatly. What kind of jobs do you guys have? How do you support yourself financially? I have a bachelor's degree in communications, but find the jobs that I would get with it are too much for me in a way, that I wouldn't be able to dedicate enough time for processing the things I go through, therefore leading me to stress and then leading to a lot more disfunction and a less sustainable lifestyle. I don't need much. I've dreamed about living in my jeep but don't think she will be alive for much longer lol. I currently live with my parents. Living here makes the symptoms worse because I feel more isolated as they seem to forget or somewhat deny that I have it or am suffering. I have an Instagram account (@victoriamaceachin if you're interested, message me and say you met me through this!) that I've used to spread positive words and things that help me vent, in a way, and let it out in a positive way. It's helped with my mainframe a ton, but has also added other stresses too. I've shared that I suffer from STPD on there, which gave me a ton of anxiety but also feel like it set me free too in ways. In some ways it feels like its word vomit, and sometimes feels good; other times not so good, so I've been pulling back and trying to just find other outlets. But they're not as satisfying as actually connecting to people. I don't want to live this way - unable to live freely in a place that's supposed to be a home, or not able to talk openly to the people I live with. I feel like I lose my mind the second there is resistance, and then tend to get very very distressed and stuck. I want to work on living on my own. I have in college and know I can do it again - I enjoy taking care of things very much. I just don't have the means to support myself in America right now. I have a job online teaching English as a foreign language to kids in Beijing. I will be traveling soon and have been considering living abroad permanently, but cannot decide where would accept me and wonder if that's what I really want. Do you have any advice? And anyone become diagnosed with STPD whose developed schizophrenia? What's the transition like? I'm trying to brace myself, if that's my future. I feel a pit in my stomach, every time I think about it coming true and am very scared. Also, if anyone out there who is reading this is seeking a positive (yet realistic) outlook on their own situation, whatever it may be, I'm most definitely here for you <3 &#x200B;",5.537212264150945,5.739901174842771,6.305852987421385,79.35236438679247,67.44025157232704,9.492924528301886,30.021619496855344,9.354420925462401,2.444161949685536,3154,107,628,57,48,1040,311,795,0.114,0.711,0.174,0.9954,6,1,0,0,2,0,95.0,0,7,2,4,40,42,1,8,31,2,75,13,2,7,6,130,128,65,0,19,29,1,9,5,0,8,11,1,1,4,50,35,0,2,25,4,4,10,17,19,0,2,13,12,85,25,94,98,25,82,0,7,1,0,31,35,0,23,33,453,135,12,0.09605745508623197,0.0,0.046869109854840704,0.0,0.0,0.0469331166915294,0.0,0.0,0.04809383289911103,0.0,0.0,0.15363422425571407,0.0,0.05203910622677574,0.058360160971084825,0.06532236340912786,0.0,0.03674184511007547,0.0,0.0,0.1007484090650547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04512457053578832,0.03693112684423252,0.08020396267442426,0.05855573304750297,0.053043956145890234,0.04086890965625738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09793697735420256,0.0,0.0,0.04137249602422146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03834703081004884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.048748147459490326,0.0,0.0,0.05504508277822602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0992530288803712,0.0,0.03172252157251056,0.0,0.0404662744171085,0.0,0.0,0.046981311527422624,0.0,0.0,0.21856290972834208,0.10293519766018673,0.0,0.05261312339782808,0.0877947737212895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1003721113146088,0.046073531884430516,0.10918333074085353,0.08056843591124321,0.0,0.05295184167258847,0.0,0.0951119826669449,0.04247164514906891,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04929133074746864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06438528734004932,0.05074498760942545,0.048176729748825114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1906444045292288,0.0,0.0,0.10002905775286924,0.07918599779387789,0.0,0.054178496652755787,0.0,0.05218335300575568,0.04911262795868434,0.13569644256768884,0.11732205126415295,0.0,0.4665127098241571,0.0,0.0,0.05373186084803115,0.0,0.08166461326721385,0.0,0.0,0.03205954858421139,0.0,0.0,0.05231736439840581,0.0,0.09676778024256304,0.0,0.0,0.04849532336737011,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14122656400163786,0.035612692903423546,0.0370427155583846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0503980702549086,0.0,0.032545508776453985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0533302181199322,0.052010431563862716,0.0,0.06659414459525091,0.04193683233626702,0.05017979788898825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0459982446197639,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053803166738957305,0.0,0.048041724798889435,0.0,0.09230529812992826,0.0,0.04742257421996315,0.0,0.0,0.04101627089731219,0.0,0.03819437187425487,0.09617026989984524,0.0,0.0382726775515461,0.043723549722398836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053986302083262064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04750163963152502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03835580385716899,0.0,0.1100334902570154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10900486169951283,0.045266507312743814,0.1497607133658779,0.10833487759059192,0.03860367190329212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05576505449140963,0.09572445733808538,0.09232460788382693,0.09437596191188466,0.0,0.1120237490687462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0978250599398984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04148139987058223,0.0,0.3170298415866247,0.16997152731811074,0.26686077859332025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0536223590971462,0.0,0.0,0.05208510625215994,0.034965485670772685,0.0,0.09789075315084383,0.06823646007023328,0.052511873892434786,0.058360160971084825,0.061857851708159 schizophrenia,Anto482c,2019/03/29,Were your symptoms progressive? Sorry if this is a stupid question but I was just wondering if your hallucinations/delusions started off as minor or more spread out and slowly became more and more frequent/severe? Thanks! ,6.363108108108107,9.923081459459464,5.558040540540541,71.68949324324326,72.24324324324327,6.943243243243244,30.871621621621625,8.07648339933343,2.9237621621621623,182,8,24,3,4,55,32,37,0.08800000000000001,0.784,0.129,0.5528,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,2,0,1,1,2,1,0,1,0,3,1,0,0,0,10,6,7,0,2,5,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,3,1,3,4,3,3,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,5,1,21,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41210391829234944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4155937623687083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4118056704718233,0.26038364540879344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3823627277292351,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3386896493646669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3989444798914904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,JustChillin145,2019/03/29,"Not sure, very confused I don’t really know much about schizophrenia but I don’t have hallucinations but I smoked weed the other day and I have been for about 4 years but for some reason I come home and it starts hitting me hard. I hide in the bathroom from my parents and “heard” my mom come downstairs. She didn’t actually but I imagined her just standing outside the door waiting. I then thought I heard my parents yelling at eachother from upstairs but when I was finished whatever the hell was happening I went upstairs and everyone was asleep. I don’t know if someone can help but I got depression and anxiety. ",2.4371794871794847,5.332502803418804,2.9836239316239315,87.56415384615386,85.06837606837607,5.855042735042735,29.16752136752137,7.3011,1.9802711111111115,496,25,91,8,15,154,75,117,0.162,0.7929999999999999,0.045,-0.9259,2,0,1,0,1,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,4,4,1,1,4,0,11,1,1,1,1,25,24,14,0,1,9,3,1,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,2,7,0,1,5,0,0,3,5,3,0,0,10,4,19,1,8,13,2,12,1,1,0,0,8,2,1,3,6,62,21,0,0.0,0.0,0.19728229112397727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1546544281700147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3482916927782473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13037865201320373,0.0,0.17412301824985538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19317576788456864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16168851858742622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17877240444214426,0.0,0.1810986746453856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13550584852646452,0.0,0.2027863480476846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22220740722546467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23677130089499554,0.0,0.0,0.1486133414956064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4489570059865363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12951103441302253,0.20785761927939414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17129237119438204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14309227702156235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19053658798932874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16049513750880842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16680595624865818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18740747357755524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13018658501077174 schizophrenia,Omnealice,2019/03/29,"Advice on friendships? These past 5 or so years I've found it very difficult to make friends or keep friends. I often feel like people are laughing at me or think that I'm creepy. It doesn't help that for a 2 year period I went without talking to anyone and no one really seemed to actually care that I wasn't connecting with anyone. A couple of years ago I was stuck in this weird emotional period where I didn't really even feel like I had any emotions. Which worked out for me a little better since at least then I didn't act ridiculous. (I'm diagnosed schizophrenia with a mood disorder) People would compliment me on how great I was at managing my emotions, but really it was just me not feeling anything most of the time. Recently I've just found it extremely difficult to keep people in my life. No one seems to really care if I'm around or not. I've found that those who claimed they will be there for me no matter what have turned their backs on me. I've reached a point where I really don't trust anyone. I've stopped trying to be friends with people because it always feels like I'm the only one trying. I'm not even sexually interested in anyone/anything (asexual). To be honest, I just really don't know what to do. I feel like I'm really lost with myself. I haven't been sleeping almost at all recently, which hasn't really been a big big deal but it I think it probably makes things worse. Any advice would help, really. I think I just need a direction to move in because I clearly don't make great decisions for myself. I think I kinda moved off my main question, but it's all kind of relevant I suppose. Sorry if this isn't something people should post and what not...",4.672294254658387,5.640781568452383,5.665129399585923,80.46610248447206,69.625,9.414906832298136,27.40631469979296,9.653516015845867,2.405282246376812,1341,43,262,30,23,443,161,336,0.12,0.721,0.158,0.9186,0,0,1,0,0,0,32.0,0,0,2,3,14,24,1,0,9,0,26,3,1,4,3,62,59,14,0,6,18,0,5,4,3,4,2,0,0,0,23,8,0,3,17,0,0,4,18,5,0,3,15,5,32,18,35,37,5,38,0,1,0,0,11,20,0,13,17,165,55,2,0.0,0.0,0.07141908651034215,0.0,0.0,0.1430332400838686,0.06487507105720146,0.0,0.07328531783670726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06089670665561672,0.0,0.0,0.09953812943803278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15352029012459115,0.0,0.12045186596873278,0.06515115459720684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05627560137543871,0.0,0.08922714720096596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0647271672274767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1492362342678203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08097903911658398,0.0,0.0,0.07545166621342092,0.0,0.07428236148309689,0.0,0.0,0.08387762304602511,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24697357079874266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09667747134648573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18502548203076447,0.209136687523208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24073437753682025,0.16963022200743816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16137589013357162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09811021418528812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13010235521389507,0.0,0.07621207178166986,0.040221172284291014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051693514133843266,0.14302014703938212,0.07335170928470437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07989128484824723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1465568909400888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15557050618777454,0.0,0.05426657351106416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1487784074005794,0.055661334838615614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06986442354145682,0.2536901697440304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06918453015323922,0.0,0.07009206323732868,0.0,0.0789070052798757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08198519305702344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4219640671385656,0.0,0.14452490952989022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13325177242898856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060540306793110836,0.0,0.07323896451652967,0.0,0.0,0.056342243322585375,0.0,0.08192585873851951,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061186865337175995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058824223285165164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.048621599748447736,0.18757881763091752,0.0,0.0,0.04267540951136354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09937712977503066,0.07960547217592857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06038620573539846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06784425754518905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07054879875665182,0.0,0.05328036000110058,0.0,0.07458289894448035,0.10397862600781116,0.0,0.0,0.14138836675706495 schizophrenia,sixrogues,2019/03/29,"Please send hugs to my son aka alphachopsticks. He's on his way to EPS. It's been building for several weeks, but tonight the command voices got to be too much to bear. I call him my hero, and tonight I am beyond grateful that he trusts me enough that he asked me to call 911. He was diagnosed almost exactly 3 years ago, after a years long prodromal phase. We have learned to recognize the warning signs of danger and have managed to stay out of the hospital for about 2 1/2 years. Tonight the voices were too insistent, but thankfully, he had enough insight to know that he couldn't fight this one on his own. Thanks to you all for being such an amazing resource for us. While I rarely contribute to the conversations, I visit with you all every night. I appreciate the wisdom, humor, art and empathy you all provide. You've been a tremendous help to me as my son and I fight this battle together. Hugs to you all.",4.643455019556715,6.0770348926553694,5.053333333333335,83.08318122555411,70.12994350282486,8.609995654063452,29.43459365493264,9.057496981413335,2.378836940460668,724,28,141,14,13,230,112,177,0.056,0.6890000000000001,0.255,0.9918,0,0,0,0,2,0,21.0,2,4,0,1,5,13,4,0,9,0,11,3,0,0,5,20,16,8,0,1,2,2,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,6,7,0,0,3,1,0,2,1,4,0,1,6,2,21,9,26,7,8,20,0,0,0,2,26,4,0,1,12,92,27,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16088248694718998,0.0,0.1817389021414558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16967134251469898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3706490440051207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18421145221056667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3750613210798237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15291557863037605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14515643535779826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12165085136579985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0997437400773348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16061548703394088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13341814920797326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17031877266563075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12298427216386808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1992246803082652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2050352938440832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1934472610597992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3341885180549218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2183135873067441,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14406059988101952,0.1455826403845462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3506263915953429 schizophrenia,kerryferrell1993,2019/03/29,"Possible schizophrenia in my 56 year old mom. The past year my mom has gone down hill pretty bad. She went from sweet, funny, talkative and happy to scared, delusional, paranoid and angry. She swears she hears us talking bad about her when we are not talking at all. She swears im in the other room when im really 6 hours away. She thinks the fbi live next door and their goal is to make her crazy and kill herself. Sometimes she willa agree that the voices and delusions aren't real and then 10 minutes later she is very determined they are 100 percent real and there is no way of talking her out of it. She got to the point where she kept calling and saying she needs to kill herself to feel better and then my husband who she is living with while he goes to college in another city, found her in the middle if the night trying to slit her wrists. She has been in the hospital since monday. She refused to put me or my sister on the contact list for the doctors because she heard us in the next room talking bad about her. I cant get info on her condition from the dr or social worker because of this but I can still call her daily. She was refusing medication to help with the voices because she believed they are real. But she agreed to take them today. She did tell me that when she was taking a shower this morning that the nurses put a video if her showering on the big screen for the whole hospital to see. She also swears we are pressing charges on her for a very terrible act that she thinks we said she did. Which we didn't and know she didnt do. Anyway i just need advise on wether yall think this is schizophrenia. Im also contemplating it being dementia because her sister has it but i just dont know. 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I developed schizophrenia/schizoaffective two years ago. I was super depressed about it and gained 100lbs but I’ve been stable on meds for about 5 months now, refused to take them before. At first I was on trilafon 16mg, abilify 50mg, lithium 1200mg, 200 amantadine, 10 mg selegiline. Now my doctors at UCLA want to lower the lithium or get rid of it all together, not sure and do this Cariprazine (vraylar) Selegiline Amandatine Galantamine Modafinil I know this is like a dream stack for a lot ig people, my docs are very open minded I also wanna do hormone therapy so I’m upper normal for estrogen (I’m a woman) and hgh because those are neuroprotective Also take fish oil, multivitamin I wanna also ask for contrave (diet pill with wellbutrin and nalytroxene I think this is as aggressive anyone can be without causing harm. My iq scores are coming up very low and my working memory is like in the lowest 4%. What do you guys think? 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We see the same figure. I have been with my boyfriend going on three years, and have known he is schizophrenic for the past two. He kept info about it to himself up until we moved in together, and a new hallucination gives me the heebie jeebies. I will catch him staring off into the dark or at dimly lit areas for seemingly no reason, with a terrified look on his face. He finally explained to me last night that he has began seeing a new figure and he’s scared. He’s been seeing the same things for most of his life, so he’s grown to cope with them, but not with this one yet. This new “creature” is a dark six-seven feet tall figure that likes to lurk around the corners in our apartment and stare at him. He describes it as an almost bird/humanoid with red glowing eyes that just stares, nothing else. This would normally be terrifying to think about alone, but I’ve been seeing the same thing. I don’t know if this is even the right sub for this, but I just need advice from somebody. Sometimes I’ll see it at the same time as he does, but usually when I’m home alone. It will be peeking at me by our closet door, only it’s eyes visible in the dark. I’ll catch a glimpse after I shut off my hallway lights. My cats will stay away from the areas I see it in. I have been seeing it before he told me about his experience with it. It is new. I pushed it off as my medication messing with me. I don’t believe in the paranormal. I don’t think I’m schizophrenic. I don’t know what’s happening. What should I do? I’m honestly just scared and home alone.",3.192222222222224,4.564541827160498,4.1779802469135845,88.19171111111113,73.62962962962962,7.282765432098768,24.379753086419754,7.839951260653429,1.1037021234567908,1248,37,266,17,25,404,162,324,0.079,0.8959999999999999,0.025,-0.9319,0,3,0,0,0,0,36.0,4,0,1,0,12,5,0,2,18,0,26,9,4,1,0,50,50,17,0,5,11,0,0,1,0,5,5,0,4,0,22,16,0,1,12,0,0,6,7,3,0,3,7,17,34,2,46,36,5,48,0,0,16,0,24,25,0,5,17,175,56,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09839384382093153,0.0,0.0,0.10082724985275003,0.31285577707743856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08963612271430202,0.0,0.0,0.09460228211492934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08568041922890908,0.11344400414348603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08811516127574971,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08411420834156509,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06650529632895816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09849488282047253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11030180417299276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0965917505609329,0.057224878455086524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08904050517424378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20200208112599785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1106740151230522,0.08207640716546732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07112086048331265,0.049192418499323036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08455487749504703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10143534594841223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10701834119123407,0.0,0.07466092155381353,0.0,0.3889910478772244,0.0,0.09449145584034024,0.09865556462338984,0.09661549839191977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06823066383318037,0.0765798591119658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09612072235162622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10352686972413863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08598935756413413,0.0,0.0,0.2016180297365597,0.0,0.5616624861409962,0.09166508482610324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09958573477789072,0.0,0.0,0.10732295119195273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1337889315565371,0.12903714461945578,0.0,0.0,0.05871359099455883,0.0,0.0,0.09621433472094404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0983602400808446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11089664496596753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0715278258545264,0.0,0.0,0.06484154717525324 schizophrenia,softmikaela,2019/03/30,"Personal hygiene protip I know that at least for me, I get nervous about using toothpaste because of all the chemicals in it (my dumb brain thinks any ingredients on something I can't pronounce are poison). I've found not exactly a substitute for teeth brushing (because that's still important) but at least something that helps on days when it's harder. I've heard it called ""oil pulling"" before, basically you just swish around coconut oil in your mouth for 10-20 minutes and then spit it out and rinse with water. It's really helped my gum health, and since it's completely natural I'm more inclined to trust it. Just something that helps me that I thought might help others, stay healthy out there. ",7.201615384615388,7.978406969230773,6.359807692307693,78.40894230769231,63.92307692307693,9.576923076923078,35.480769230769226,9.516144504307137,3.3093076923076925,566,25,100,10,8,172,93,130,0.028,0.805,0.16699999999999998,0.9671,0,0,3,0,0,0,16.0,0,2,0,0,7,4,2,1,2,0,3,7,4,1,2,19,11,6,0,0,4,0,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,1,13,7,1,0,4,0,0,1,2,3,0,0,3,4,10,1,16,7,4,15,0,0,0,0,9,9,1,1,4,59,23,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12575551680340452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16462268605943325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22545744173616214,0.0,0.15735777417680286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2064377463927541,0.18882936431050354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19389061467214208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11926149293089496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2027610004354196,0.0,0.0,0.09661581480113504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1965669017686211,0.0,0.0,0.4958060095450978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10163008558843076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19617647525132131,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16146960239372013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11846785556240726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15297208438991095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4270934947379652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19710571994905912,0.14768154992366042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11849263837750194,0.0,0.14680999850735785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15971604841611753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,tidaqwerty,2019/03/30,"I need advice :/ I got diagnosed with paranoid schizophrenia and it gets to me every time i think about taking my medication for my whole life. Another thing is that i know im not capable to work properly in many situations and struggle to find joy in social situations with any random person i meet anywhere because i get stressed out Is there a way to cope with that feelings or a way to handle thing better ",11.43653846153846,7.862133679487183,11.03974358974359,62.22192307692311,58.35897435897437,13.989743589743593,43.948717948717956,11.855464076750405,5.1470717948717954,329,14,57,7,3,109,57,78,0.139,0.778,0.083,-0.3786,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,2,2,4,0,2,2,0,2,3,0,0,0,14,10,3,0,1,2,0,1,0,0,0,3,0,0,1,5,6,0,0,4,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,1,9,2,13,9,1,6,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,2,1,37,14,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1801225858560532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12534894165258478,0.19328333342702125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1123642621321649,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16302259152227894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18708841421733965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1553037705950125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09320146352862403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1684718891701033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19260690011965415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14742344723220452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1991052049452532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1013015094080272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13019588219234368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1868790355679103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.185690446677565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1366764192802882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16094756145575745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41438340419434505,0.0,0.187898554609378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21114639505112526,0.19269900302646176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1385912525851798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24491784622967924,0.1181095445495415,0.0,0.0,0.10748277965521293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29262099461797303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20579494099574766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13419253053503355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,TBoogey97,2019/03/30,"Dating with schizophrenia This is you. Dates guy last year, stays in 5 month long relationship with him. Is cheated on twice (that we know of for sure, yet sources from dating apps say way more then that). “Forgives” him because he was cheated on before in his last relationship (bullshit reason for a shitty thing to do) Booked vacation down south, nice place to go visit, recommends it well. Booked in cash so no way to cancel vacation with ex (This is approximately 3 months in the relationship, I stay with him not to make the vacation shitty) Breaks up with him because of apathy (not knowing the other times I was cheated on). Does he pay me back? (Because I paid for it by asking my dad for money) Yes! Quite nice of him actually. Is he currently owing me more money? Yes. Does my father want his money back from when I asked a loan from him? No. So technically my ex shouldn’t owe me anything because the original dept from my father is forgiven. Have I told my ex about this? No. Do I feel bad that he’s working 3 jobs trying to pay out his debts (not just my debt but from phone and credit card bills)? Not really no. Do I work full time for a minimum wage job that is very demanding? Yes so I can relate. Did he (my ex) take advantage of me for the fact that my dad has a lot of spare money? Yes. Making extra money for a trip that was basically free, do you feel guilty about it? A little bit, so maybe me and my ex are even in that way. Hard to say(but I still want him finish paying me up). Today, my prospect of love with someone is low but there is hope, but you know (bitch better have my money because I’m saving for my next tattoo). In short I don’t feel like dating due to this, it kind of sucks in its own way. I’m planning on living on my full time job and rotting here forever in this small town. I’m borderline asexual, I don’t get horny and require a lot of time alone to recharge from people I’m a 22 gay man, inbox me on how to beat apathy in relationship or just friendly chats.",2.0230782290714373,4.067910548387096,3.5961767010578565,88.16892092203217,78.75186104218363,6.624239258195115,21.52337730181533,7.669130373188453,0.8295399503722081,1553,44,325,24,38,514,202,403,0.107,0.75,0.14300000000000002,0.9629,9,1,0,0,0,0,58.0,1,3,0,8,18,22,5,0,13,4,24,2,0,5,2,44,50,15,0,4,10,9,4,1,1,1,0,1,0,2,19,12,0,1,8,3,20,3,11,7,1,1,6,5,45,16,59,43,9,64,0,1,0,2,44,28,2,4,27,202,64,14,0.0,0.0,0.09061575791125484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09617261268392237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07641400681455814,0.0,0.17361890129644778,0.0,0.0,0.14280373832024815,0.07753233299862132,0.2830260776544584,0.0,0.07901509618975354,0.0,0.0,0.08212512372189171,0.10137660052662886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1625208654821765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06133166053402842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14085498798435414,0.06633758695660602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07174165844136796,0.0,0.04851433581785178,0.0,0.0527731927115734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09194376021328682,0.0,0.0,0.08318229460039396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09222868644100753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2764409319079223,0.0,0.0,0.09669704534071456,0.15309655396218502,0.1513829009114047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0453656006181065,0.09306784860594644,0.08199508435081737,0.0821761765326129,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1578886573407753,0.08380773442759794,0.0,0.1239665230361088,0.0,0.09328807927741242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14823632195340866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09875525837014627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06437586401405815,0.0,0.09701657299716407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09876563500703417,0.0,0.0,0.05948704505784354,0.09547322063892114,0.0,0.3987778405522153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14768840142469494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07867806051806561,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19794798830627391,0.07415630993584639,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0875173196342664,0.0,0.06981746308317258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06169055538711288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2165843763059273,0.0,0.08801827855197535,0.08872954849225863,0.0,0.06304430911690186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07661735913278178,0.10953980008699636,0.29482460267894645,0.0,0.0,0.08349025870067847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13520307915406032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0597973391499979 schizophrenia,slippythegoat,2019/03/30,"Confusion about my mental case Family has a log side of mental issues my grandma is fully schizophrenic and has to be monitored and My father is bipolar with borderline schizophrenia. I am currently 19, diagnosed bipolar type one with extreme anxiety. I was diagnosed when i was 16 cause thats when the depression really hit was that year but the anxiety was always there it was just always regarded as me being shy. But im on the line of thinking i have schizophrenia or have it coming. When im alone i always feel like “something” is watching me and i truly believe it. But if you ask me about it ill shrug it off and say your right nothing is there. I have had experiences as a kid where i just felt evil in the room and spiritual things happen that make my body chill. Even as im typing this right now i have a feeling someTHING is watching me just out of my peri feral. I know schizophrenic people hear voices but that only has happened to me a couple of times and hasn’t happened in months. Only voice i hear tho is screaming banshees just women yelling as loud as they can, the last occurrence was last year around September. I also only have one friend, reason being is because ill talk to someone for a while, then completely cut them off like not even answer text and i feel ok with it no remorse. There is a little remorse ill get sad every now and then about it but my head says “ they cant backstab you now they are gone”. And when i meet new people anymore its not meeting its me analyzing the entire time, me analyzing if they are a threat to me if I befriended them or (even tho i know its wrong as fuck) if i could use them to my advantage and then cut them off. Lastly the thing that worries me is, i act like a good person, i get along with everyone just fine and im friendly at work, but dont get on my bad side. I think about hurting people way to much. The other day someone pissed me off at work and i argued and cursed for about 10 minutes before he walked off i have a really explosive temper. But after that i was thinking about cutting his throat. I think about vulgar stuff i know is wrong. I think about killing people daily, cutting their throats, hanging them by hooks, literally cereal killer stuff. And my head says “hell yes fuck them cut their cutting throat and let them drain” almost like im... hyped for it? If someone could give me some feedback i would appreciate it.",3.4774999999999987,5.4305875116772855,4.3597871549893865,84.77764251592356,74.09554140127389,7.172845010615712,25.575424628450108,7.993328176185818,1.5479625902335452,1902,65,364,29,40,613,225,471,0.222,0.6940000000000001,0.084,-0.9976,1,1,2,0,1,0,37.0,0,3,13,3,31,33,15,1,17,2,41,18,7,4,0,67,70,46,1,8,21,1,4,4,2,1,9,10,1,3,24,23,0,0,14,0,0,5,6,23,0,2,10,16,64,10,47,52,2,49,1,3,2,2,35,20,4,10,27,255,88,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07264172254890837,0.07513307030745636,0.0,0.0580129198467702,0.18108572629279848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11099098398000222,0.0,0.07194354625972632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06457899393349996,0.06781827359042962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06057069745449858,0.04422177498940077,0.0,0.061729078702336626,0.08173155457342425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08057934848776586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07452204076646728,0.0,0.062489703901367814,0.07606036038164465,0.0,0.0,0.11583998216659075,0.08026787718777795,0.0,0.046784482824583855,0.0,0.062481512355642935,0.14726002021731247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08502030851534836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14374266751348908,0.0,0.061120931761916575,0.06931831442624624,0.0,0.07096135182483962,0.06838744844515653,0.0,0.11004034745490067,0.05182500969603901,0.06965302720838265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11209368066902728,0.13413038344526465,0.113702775734143,0.06959022640216618,0.0,0.06084595066420893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1924496308863365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14890088630429274,0.0,0.16352333739546313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07765919545480711,0.0,0.3917965287731414,0.07571644797532766,0.0,0.0,0.08025850878816318,0.0,0.11960384387678265,0.17739762631131098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07418052749728858,0.0,0.14176413703066593,0.07270753094392374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.048423273690473084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14621334208800474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05790343887218784,0.0,0.05332773590879807,0.0,0.0,0.07006285457347461,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06960733569902994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09831455204294738,0.16551754272491004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2011698000954929,0.0633420868231009,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09294630173774954,0.07458668324129385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12390331112779705,0.0,0.1730682374873101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18439732750069152,0.11169488590721034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16608964301200374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05830762604533168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09638920490679023,0.2324143639650757,0.0,0.0,0.08460126390644579,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06265419407640634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05758156345987539,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10562489848593663,0.07367133016788295,0.0,0.051532740284390734,0.15862960982209515,0.0,0.09343112474902496 schizophrenia,ChrisCGC,2019/03/30,"Schizophrenia is the result of ENHANCED brain function Schizophrenia results from enhanced brain function.  What is keeping people from understanding this state-of-consciousness is the belief that schizophrenia is the result of reduced brain function.  It is the OPPOSITE.  In the case of schizophrenia, all of the “delusions” and “hallucinations” that are reported are not delusions or hallucinations at all. They are actual existences in the visual and audio fields that are not perceptible to “normal” brains operating at the default, much-lower-function level at which you are currently operating.  There is a solution to the problem. The answer lies with N,N -dimethyltryptamine (DMT), an endogenous neurotransmitter that is active predominantly in infancy and childhood and which presence is gradually diminished as puberty approaches. It is practically inoperative by early adulthood. DMT is very similar to serotonin. In schizophrenia, the endogenous production of DMT continues, which is why schizophrenia gets reported in early adulthood. In the few people who's bodies continue to produce DMT, ""childhood"" continues, and parents and friends and teachers cannot understand why this is so. So parents and friends and teachers try to ""force"" the schizophrenic to ""grow up,"" but the schizophrenic cannot grow up, because they have DMT in their brains. Eventually parents and friends and teachers get frustrated with the schizophrenic and tell them they have a problem, and the schizophrenic feels horrible about constantly being told that what they are seeing isn't there and that they have a problem. This spirals into a horrible situation where nobody around the schizophrenic believes what he is saying, when everything the schizophrenic is reporting is the god's honest truth. Consider this and see if it aligns with your own experience of schizophrenia. The question becomes, what are you going to do about it? I'm happy to answer more questions here. Dr. Rolland Griffiths at John's Hopkins University has studied DMT and may be headed in the right direction. Eventually he and other researchers might verify this discovery, and the problem of schizophrenia may be solved. ",11.564396551724135,12.827319405172418,9.777609195402302,55.953310344827614,54.66091954022989,12.937011494252875,46.71034482758621,12.340626583579946,6.650573103448275,1795,102,221,52,20,548,171,348,0.077,0.851,0.07200000000000001,-0.5647,5,0,1,0,0,0,47.0,0,3,7,1,10,11,1,0,27,0,36,14,7,4,3,53,47,25,0,6,5,3,1,0,3,3,7,2,0,0,24,23,0,1,9,0,0,4,5,5,0,0,1,5,10,6,40,40,5,33,1,0,2,0,24,19,0,7,10,172,34,5,0.0,0.0,0.09718044843954764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0886516298299896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06070600032608747,0.1099836429842696,0.0,0.11219802415835052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11061631869699212,0.0,0.555848137161987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10761584482438076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0895004420286401,0.09741309226169297,0.0,0.0,0.050353092415679014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2308170245386115,0.0,0.10405794795962453,0.0,0.056596365262651376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10600992473614976,0.0,0.0,0.10220278646333908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08851559044301666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10564378872455954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07320632322526477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09757200926168462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3317315729907315,0.0,0.0,0.13807919235628838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.381157009386522,0.0,0.0,0.22311564641843126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08504491788864406,0.0,0.07919386986658505,0.0,0.0,0.1587124645192005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11193754398777933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08704154839356773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09515759191421276,0.0,0.06761157631702629,0.0,0.0,0.2073426820674001,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08216793072645942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1797196756194976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,OuterSpaceWolf,2019/03/30,"I just leave collegue for some time I needed to take a break from collegue, I just started having suicidal thoughts and some delusions didn't help me concentrate in my classes. When I talk to my school counselors, they thought that I could end up harming someone or myself, because of the state that i am, so they decide it that i should stop my semester this year or that I should just leave collegue and start a new career. My parents told me that i should start working in the family business and leave my career behind and that i should start doing the things that i like, like start painting and writing stories, while maintaning a job. I was just two semesters to finish my career, should i continue or should i leave it and start doing the things that i like?",16.574448275862068,8.200021462068964,13.52129310344828,62.68676724137933,55.06896551724138,16.155172413793107,52.80172413793103,10.125756701596842,5.607655172413793,612,24,112,6,4,184,77,145,0.124,0.8220000000000001,0.054000000000000006,-0.7819,2,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,2,1,6,4,0,0,7,0,13,0,0,0,0,28,24,12,1,8,7,1,0,3,0,6,0,0,0,0,13,6,0,1,3,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,5,0,26,3,10,12,2,20,0,0,0,0,7,3,0,5,18,88,39,7,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08057155021858732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10552953768469032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11706621581347075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12460112100974367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08859290358552137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1311614970387128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5598092982844257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1937194338428076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09800474608898024,0.0,0.12765369113015754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1467626865479594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13376632530368313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11198991549944404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5613171877018205,0.0,0.0,0.1105027056872854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14457601796824976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09937779019444347,0.10623580399393896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1756199895987574,0.0,0.0,0.20986149893723471,0.07707125036283538,0.0,0.0,0.12629714780107262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1291140017261404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09622365695104534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0851152012950574 schizophrenia,sanguinepaintings,2019/03/30,"Head Pressure? Do any of you get random feelings of pressure through your head? Idk if it’s a schizophrenia thing or what. There’s no pain accompanied with it, so it doesn’t feel like a headache or anything. The only way I can describe it is if you put your hand on your forehead and pressed firmly against it and after about 5-10 seconds you remove your hand to be left with this lightness. I get that feeling all over my head, and sometimes back to back. If it’s a hallucination, I have no other tactile ones. Anyone know what may be happening or what I’m experiencing, even if it’s not related to Schizophrenia?",4.429916666666667,5.940542825000001,4.851666666666667,84.02666666666667,70.75,7.0,31.666666666666664,7.3871296695380915,1.9496666666666664,489,22,95,5,9,155,79,120,0.116,0.799,0.086,-0.3899,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,7,0,0,6,4,0,2,4,0,8,7,6,0,1,20,16,11,0,4,8,0,6,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,14,5,0,0,4,0,0,2,4,3,0,2,0,8,11,1,13,13,1,9,0,0,0,0,7,3,0,9,4,71,25,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13454648647154688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13834307017135153,0.0,0.16281575157712724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3042727237044318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13067971202654718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30012051046759997,0.14134586744501287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20673953317531865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1749603146990555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6091612445840049,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10873456118114223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2149673230668125,0.0,0.0,0.09666073889188598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13406997627672762,0.15047574386083512,0.2105290124866196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19889641241797898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19568118422262107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13144441129672044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15704610734878846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,iamshoe2020,2019/03/30,Deal How do I deal with my condition. Ik that you have accept it but what else something honest please,0.3810000000000002,2.389129099999998,1.1099999999999994,96.01000000000002,108.0,4.0,15.0,5.985473137389443,-0.3904999999999999,82,2,16,1,4,25,19,20,0.0,0.635,0.365,0.8481,0,0,1,0,0,0,1.0,0,1,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,4,2,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,2,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,11,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7938103429707949,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32160762634366497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.42260062680520705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2963821592033314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Kuchikitaicho,2019/03/30,"How can I help my mom? My mother has recently been diagnosed with schizophrenia. However, she doesn't trust the doctor and refuses to take her medicines. I, my sister, my dad, the psychiatrist and a few other relatives tried to persuade her. We even got a religious 'Guru', who my mother has extreme respect for and recently met to tell her to take her meds. She just refuses. She's very religious and thinks she isn't some ordinary person, and believes that God tells her not to take her meds. She has some delusions and is very suspicious of people in general. She thinks our house is bugged and has a very weird Google search history, like she's having a conversation with Google. My sister and father are having a hard time with her in the house. I'm studying engineering in a different city, and therefore, cannot go home to help except on vacations. The psychiatrist had told us to slip in the meds in her food, but due to her suspicious nature and the bitter taste, she found out about them. We managed to convince her for a short while to take the meds and that her condition was better (which it visibly was) due to the meds, but now she's again refusing. This is causing my sister a lot of stress. Is there anyway in which I can help my mother/ convince her to take her meds? I understand that it should be a personal choice to take medicines. However, her behavior was quite troublesome when she wasn't on the medication. She used to tell everyone to whisper so that their conversation couldn't be recorded and write some stuff on Google that leads me to think that she might behave self-harmingly, maybe not physically, but at least mentally. Also, wouldn't it be better if she didn't voice her delusions to others, or behave as if they were real in front of others....?",6.8394776119402945,7.2685797761194095,6.828470149253732,75.93942164179107,64.67164179104478,10.759701492537317,32.27238805970149,10.577609850970193,3.364823880597015,1415,52,260,34,20,451,168,335,0.077,0.8490000000000001,0.07400000000000001,-0.4961,3,0,0,0,0,0,44.0,4,0,3,4,11,10,1,1,18,0,31,5,0,5,0,52,48,24,0,5,10,9,1,1,0,3,3,2,1,2,17,18,2,3,5,0,0,3,9,3,0,0,12,5,48,7,40,29,6,25,0,0,0,0,61,13,0,8,10,191,65,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06962077473754097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09808529143051233,0.0,0.1539926107317893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08943321982220337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08836270198496163,0.0,0.0909577647071603,0.0,0.08910822211155234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057501420382233624,0.0,0.0,0.08318827541524627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1052716708742906,0.0954553213580937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0494774397529506,0.0,0.06962875915042989,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07798745457938915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17506074345202566,0.0,0.0873269290272631,0.0,0.0,0.2009079976891508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04253246120063792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07401415500809069,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08746212015905602,0.0,0.5802152366454513,0.08770243560973727,0.08773464755798469,0.0923554749078946,0.0,0.10196204423035424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060355509485807264,0.1520325186101588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09259759557148743,0.0,0.09909180865265993,0.0,0.0,0.17191983743138284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09082116367489984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.099725394857574,0.0,0.09966133107003992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3927436426612818,0.0,0.22827930450976786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1673510120378702,0.0,0.0,0.050764601682687385,0.0,0.0,0.08318827541524627,0.0,0.05910711188436087,0.0,0.0,0.090631129866699,0.10472084239585176,0.07519072550868185,0.0,0.21549752302693506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,xzraidenz,2019/03/31,"I had to increase my Clozapine dose after taking low dose, & now I am gaining weight. & it is so hard to resist food because it is the only thing that seems to give me stimulation!! Anyone have any idea's to help me not get fat?",4.330625000000001,4.521929145833333,5.645833333333336,83.08250000000002,70.04166666666666,8.066666666666668,26.416666666666664,7.793537801064563,1.368741666666666,181,5,38,2,3,61,39,48,0.076,0.764,0.16,0.6617,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,1,0,5,5,1,1,0,4,9,1,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,4,0,3,0,2,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,1,2,5,0,5,8,1,4,0,1,0,0,2,1,0,1,2,23,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5577151373955174,0.0,0.17501871921551493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1799573336227728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15688883356090433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31120979140335714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13446389146404636,0.2468903487047263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23055071958260145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17250800397408325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29053657017512297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19573957413666573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2342976975294439,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19350832326259146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17098352485075402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3134042685245877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,schizo_senpai,2019/03/31,"Aspie/Schizo Misdiagnosis? We all get that feeling sometimes....""am I misdiagnosed?"" Not being neurotypical can mean so many other things... neurodiversity comes in different forms and shapes... I was diagnosed with paranoid schizophrenia in my late teen years when I didn't leave the house and suspected that my peers had poisoned me ... that was the onset of my illness. I didn't see figures, or imagine voices in my head... but I had some delusions of grandeur. I have been on Olanzapine and Quetiapine (don't remember the dosages)... and I was under the impression that my peers are all against me..so I just used to chat with people all day on the computer hoping to find someone who can understand me...later on, allegedly at one of the best psychiatric facilities in India they diagnosed me with ""internet addiction""... my hope was lost in Indian psychology. I was taking Aripiprazole , Escitalopram and Naltraxeone back then. A few months ago, I went to another psychiatric facility and they did some really oldschool tests on me ( Rorschach, TAT, MMPI) and said that I might have Schizotypal personality disorder with schizophrenia unspecified (non-organic psychosis)...but finally decided that I am on the high functioning autism spectrum... this has changed a lot of things (aripiprazole with setraline) and even though I was skeptical of this too...my [RAADS](https://www.aspietests.org/raads/questions.php?show=b3b3eac9356348&locale=en_GB) results say I might be on the AS... One of my online acquaintances who went to the aspergers IRC, told me I might have it too My problem? I don't relate to aspie people...I am definitely NOT a savant, and more like schizotypal from my own perception... and I am not that cold either... I have tried talking to the aspie community and feel like having an IQ of 107 is not good enough for being called an Aspie. I feel like they all look down on me, because I don't have a hobby/interest I'm good at. but I don't relate to paranoid schizophrenic people either... Anyways... **Not asking for diagnosing advice** I'm just curious if anyone has similar misdiagnosis experience with schizo/aspie. 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Then after thinking about it a bit i seem to accept that i have always known this, but the part of me that feels most like it's me still feels like something is wrong. It feels as though something has intruded into my thoughts and almost all of me has accepted it, except for, what feels like it's most me. Not sure how to describe this most me thing, but i feel a bit disconnected from parts of my thoughts and sometimes they don't agree with me or feel differently from me about things. Any idea?",7.47192546583851,6.473441637681162,6.720310559006213,81.99456521739133,63.78260869565218,9.624844720496897,31.30848861283644,8.418075326091056,2.0886923395445134,558,16,113,6,7,171,79,138,0.099,0.779,0.122,0.5285,2,0,4,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,1,1,5,11,1,0,3,0,6,0,0,2,4,40,21,10,0,0,6,0,8,5,0,0,0,1,0,0,16,7,0,0,17,0,0,0,4,2,0,1,3,9,18,9,20,18,8,8,0,0,0,0,4,3,0,6,10,83,34,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.113606667769435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09440188192527912,0.0,0.0,0.07715184661308477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0965400418626919,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24772231461276845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23706821785115234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4589214666497914,0.32420303110084386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09650295895379718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12807448824968756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2771367241191878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08750185265015274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2457168191030125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10328323794514524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34936626912342084,0.2244155920549156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09060361387648012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21385598723850693,0.0,0.0,0.09118912476361696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15074610009465247,0.1453920447112068,0.11146687531471958,0.1801378225627114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09798685880566256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1240429105279022,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,ConstructiveFeedbax,2019/03/31,"Hi sub, I’m a med student particularly interested in the aspect of insight in psychosis and schizophrenia. Could I possibly ask some of you about your experience and thoughts on it? To be clear, anything I gather from here is just for my own understanding, not for research or anything else. I am probably going to become a psychiatrist in the future, and the insight aspect really fascinates me. If any of you would like to talk about it, please let me know. Also, if any of you could provide a source for how to best speak to/handle someone who is acutely psychotic, I would like to learn that too. 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I also feel like I want to cry about everyone not liking me, not being good at anything, etc. Had a couple minor auditory hallucinations, just yelling and a scream so far. Anyone have a cure to this? I've taken the medicine as well as the anxiety-reducer, and it's not helped. I can't sleep yet, but I'm on seroquel so I don't know how it'd be affected by other sleeping meds to put me out. Anything you guys do? Anything will help at this point. Everything is just too much right now.",3.3302439024390225,5.026308081300815,4.7484634146341484,82.92610975609756,73.87804878048779,8.172032520325201,29.37317073170732,8.841846274778883,2.390340487804879,486,21,97,10,10,162,89,123,0.096,0.8140000000000001,0.08900000000000001,-0.2116,0,0,0,0,1,0,17.0,0,1,0,0,12,5,0,0,7,0,11,3,2,2,1,17,18,10,0,1,6,0,2,2,0,1,1,2,0,1,5,4,0,0,3,0,0,1,5,1,1,1,3,4,8,4,13,11,3,13,0,0,0,0,4,7,0,0,7,65,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13732734149242568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12007316940412148,0.0,0.4239417983835129,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19000895335992568,0.18863036686823856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19151726372470168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16408930738249042,0.15433414452255362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17365727511272228,0.1226794104343371,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1440336509068213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17003341263318053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23020548668682594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09437482751116362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16779100335589425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3814925273971595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1262366421050452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16115101338459348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11636439001637633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1623343559830294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1726296994316784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11001056792962467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14665105949012627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3436953351080359,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.101287058440627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15440018523901924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,crazyisasbadasnot,2019/04/01,"I just dont know I don't want to see a therapist about this because when I saw one for depression it just felt like he didn't believe me. I was just some whiny bitch and needed to get over it. So I lied. ""yes the medicine is working, I feel great"" ""yes I tried what we talked about, it worked great"". I don't want that to happen again. I recently looked up symptoms of schizophrenia and was surprised how much fit. I thought it was just being paranoid and hallucinating. But the jumbled speech problems I've had for years is apparently a symptom. I've been becoming more and more socially reclusive. I sometimes catch myself moving very slowly and deliberately for no reason when handing something to someone else or opening a door or pulling out my wallet. I've always been quick to temper but lately I'm just numb until I'm freaking the fuck out. I can tell my peers view me with open disdain. I see it in their eyes, subtle cues, and I fucking hear them whispering about me. I hear my roommate say my name to his friends online then laugh, I've even heard him mention websites I visit (modem is in his room, he can view my internet usage) and mock me. I can't tell if I'm reading into things too much or actually just being openly mocked. Hallucinations aren't super common. Sometimes it's music, sometimes I'll have a thousand voices on repeat in my head and one slips into my ear (from thought to actually hearing), and most common is I hear the TV when it's off. Off and unplugged, no one else home, no noise from neighbors, but I hear the general cadence and tone of voices. It's usually sitcoms. I've sat and stared at an unplugged TV ""listening"" to a full episode of Friends. I also smell things everywhere I go, not from any direction and always a bad smell, it only lasts a few seconds but I've seen others cover their noses and heard them attribute it to me. I know I didn't fart, I go to the bathroom just to be sure I'm clean, and I've done everything short of scrub myself with steel wool in the shower. I'm a twitchy person most of the time, but I think that one is just anxiety. I don't want to be crazy but what kind of life is this if this is what sanity is. 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I feel spaced out. Will I build up a tolerance to this drug (so I don't feel space out anymore). &#x200B; Thanks!",0.8025000000000021,3.277374250000001,1.1722222222222245,97.345,98.16666666666666,4.622222222222223,22.66666666666667,6.42735559955562,0.6398666666666672,147,6,30,2,6,44,29,36,0.0,0.774,0.226,0.7644,0,0,1,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,4,1,0,0,0,4,7,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,2,4,1,7,5,0,7,0,0,0,0,0,6,0,0,1,19,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3529875521019789,0.3958640310171417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3230908501027988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3778067855592929,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32945303415597343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26003821415129924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22076012268256345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2999387521137981,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3958640310171417,0.0 schizophrenia,Bearingfruit,2019/04/01,"Bringing my spouse to psych appointment My therapist mentioned it but I also thought maybe it would be beneficial for my husband to come along. Mostly because he has been pretty reluctant to hear any diagnoses. The problem partially because lots of ones were mentioned as the doctor's figure it out. My family doctor told me to mention Bipolar to my therapist/psych, I did but hadn't looked into it. Then I went into psychosis. Then had my Abilify increased. My brain continued to trick me for about 6 more weeks then my psych mentioned he thinks I am schizotypal but not ruling out schiziphrenia. It's been a month since my last appointment now. And since then I've done lots of reading as well as self reflection. And I don't feel very sure about schizotypal. Definitely schizophrenia or schizoaffective. What symptoms aside from hallucinations and delusions were noteworthy to your diagnoses? I just want a diagnoses so I can start moving forward. This last six months have been hell. How did your spouses and family react to your diagnoses? My husband doesn't seem to believe what I am saying so I figured if I brought him to an appointment maybe they could repeat what I've said but in a man's doctor voice then he will take it seriously. But at the moment he thinks my mental health is a joke. To anyone who thinks my spouse sounds like a dick. You are half right. He hasn't been his pleasant self since he had brain surgery and started radiation & chemo. So he really isn't he just has his own stuff going on too. 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My loved one (35m) has been delusional since Christmas 2018. He's only gotten an official diagnosis two weeks ago. In the last few months he's been hospitalized 5 times. 3 of those times were against his will. The last 2 times have been his decision because he's suicidal. His delusions are triggering his suicidal thoughts because his delusions involve people killing him in truly horrific ways, so he feels if he kills himself he'll save going through all the suffering and terrifying shit. Anyways! This doctor in the BHU of the hospital is telling him she's going to file for state Guardianship. He's only been going through this for less than 6 months!? During this time he's not been medicated consecutively for any real amount of time because, once again his delusions had him thinking the medications stopped him from communicating with God. We are past all that now and hopefully for good but he's still got the paranoid delusions about people wanting to kill him. He's managing that as best he can in the hospital and I feel like things are improving but the doctor is now pulling this crap on him and us. He doesn't have ssi or ss yet but I'm trying to get him planning and making goals. This is all so new and scary but I just can't imagine them stripping him of his rights without even giving him time to stabilize on his medications?! His father is paranoid schizophrenic and that's what they've diagnosed him with. He doesn't want to hear it though but he is complying with the treatment now with support from me and his family. I have a child with him and only want the best for him but I can't be his guardian and I really don't think he needs one. Maybe a payee through the state when he gets a check hopefully but that's only because he's also a drug addict (new in recovery). I just am in shock by all this and don't know if this is common or is this weird? He's not violent or a danger to himself really anymore I don't think. He has no problems telling me his thoughts no matter how crazy they sound and trusts me so....anyways my main question is have any of you been in a similar situation?",4.324424533799537,6.134782004807698,4.870594405594408,82.59561771561775,71.5,8.215501165501164,29.673368298368306,8.841846274778883,2.4030698717948726,1718,71,328,33,33,548,204,416,0.147,0.741,0.112,-0.9144,0,0,1,0,0,0,34.0,2,1,2,4,18,21,7,0,19,0,36,12,2,3,4,64,64,32,5,9,17,1,2,1,0,2,9,2,0,1,16,18,0,1,11,0,1,4,12,11,0,3,12,4,44,10,41,49,10,43,0,1,0,1,60,10,2,8,26,213,60,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09503997243766896,0.0,0.0,0.0772805450874383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06971847778676933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1185719071224242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08645995659343443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2125784977162597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18298180368564015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08848670671565492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1784665461515718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10110208404158856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05758211560758101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08218632707870717,0.0,0.08816249368757344,0.062282001954665614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0910967702281144,0.0836317955795115,0.1486406233211134,0.0731231434480829,0.06972647340466838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09825913086202556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17318046955649946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2893580125044322,0.0,0.047912303871623055,0.14212802368941393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04259214957908752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0786841023151802,0.0,0.0581938806057157,0.0,0.08758486104873632,0.0,0.0,0.263476541245927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13917381257316375,0.0,0.0,0.0646434803480196,0.0,0.16839957661708313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09284473805404814,0.11815197254037214,0.2652197971593677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08322396639447081,0.12088042005445868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08342027972335128,0.0,0.0,0.09766248121653998,0.0,0.0,0.09923087018846467,0.11170054343379894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07445195197368967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08948986857380394,0.07211688299512085,0.09799490499765354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06962272298804567,0.07288707709128207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1907233547208046,0.09893177208221814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15239977512116126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05791906922568514,0.16758586584737162,0.08565472226041458,0.13842368072703434,0.30501505633434495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059190060473829374,0.0,0.08516300246990183,0.0,0.10486780349558683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15426453590167716,0.06920008445719138,0.06993120269131159,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08403920850230558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Lilsassyboi,2019/04/01,"Weirdest thing someone has said to you? I recently had a bit of psychosis and now that I am on medication I am having trouble believing everything that happened were just products of my delusions. My friends and family all have said things to me that were way too real to chalk up to delusions. For example I had a friend who lives out of town that would call me and ask if I was “feeling funny” and made references to things like my subconscious being flipped without me even realizing that I was having psychosis yet. He would also make what seemed like perfect references to conversations I had with other people, ones who he doesn’t know. My roommate would reference things I had thought about but hadn’t said out loud. It’s like all the people around me knew what was going on before I did. Has anyone had similar experiences? Conversations that you just can’t shake?",8.009074074074075,8.07110793209877,7.6003703703703716,72.63166666666669,62.27160493827161,10.903703703703703,36.518518518518526,10.504223727775694,3.8655259259259274,703,30,122,15,9,222,98,162,0.034,0.8590000000000001,0.107,0.8638,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,2,0,1,9,8,0,1,3,0,25,1,0,2,3,31,38,7,0,4,5,0,1,3,2,3,1,4,0,0,16,8,0,0,9,0,0,2,4,2,0,1,18,5,19,6,19,16,3,13,0,0,0,0,15,7,0,2,6,98,35,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11593291741804075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10136679761923607,0.0,0.0,0.12905454837314875,0.13552791916628726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1233592827665294,0.1633321955150033,0.0,0.0,0.15827032217035528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14803116699166746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0957516983360848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1302902061400791,0.14180904120514948,0.13666535719912146,0.0,0.07330147920978881,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22400781512827225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08239011930790686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12819700176908222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07967203737645381,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21247590236743205,0.0,0.1280116747767698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1371746644509996,0.09676898533458916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14604260385258436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09823581430733014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2010086880911665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1650082538242504,0.0,0.0,0.14314095462592002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4137006477084744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1319757678667599,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12283309877472215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38524803653962814,0.0,0.0,0.11509044413957327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11507089556994715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13974646217855666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3089488137898765,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,hrtf817,2019/04/01,"Invega sustenna I was on Invega sustenna for 2 years and eventually noticed I had dry orgasms. I have not taken it for 3 months now and although my orgasms aren’t dry, I would say only half the semen that should be coming out, is coming out. Does anyone know if this is permanent or if it will return with time.",5.008064516129036,5.620070612903227,6.442096774193548,76.48314516129034,68.6774193548387,8.780645161290323,28.403225806451612,8.841846274778883,2.2651483870967737,246,8,45,4,4,84,48,62,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,1,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,10,2,2,0,0,14,14,6,0,4,4,0,0,0,0,3,0,1,0,0,4,7,0,0,1,0,0,2,2,0,0,1,3,1,5,0,6,7,0,10,0,0,0,2,1,3,0,3,5,35,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2340077288546703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5765738985769274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2928703245090907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18392484479701435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2671288981001028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3810218694137508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2545301837307571,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2661415192637085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1951476703748921,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2377386282468293,0.0,0.0,0.21551529484761026 schizophrenia,Phumlani123,2019/04/01,"I planned on killing myself today, the voices came back for a second time. I thought i could handle my psychosis having been through one before and recovering without medication, but a recent life change has caused me to reconsider how much I can really handle. Could use some advice on how to cope when things get hairy. I'm not going to go through with it. I've decided to remove myself from the situation and environment that's causing the extreme anxiety which for me leads to the psychotic symptoms. I'd like to know how other people going through this cope?",7.88820512820512,8.273122692307695,7.9623076923076965,68.84935897435899,62.46153846153846,10.394871794871797,35.6025641025641,10.125756701596842,3.7404410256410254,456,19,74,9,6,148,76,104,0.048,0.919,0.033,-0.128,0,0,0,0,0,1,8.0,0,0,0,2,5,2,1,0,6,0,6,3,0,7,0,20,15,7,1,2,3,0,0,1,0,0,3,1,0,0,6,4,0,0,3,0,0,6,2,1,0,2,3,1,9,1,16,10,2,13,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,6,56,15,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.185646161315492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14533410489580714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14608281774145834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16165890376939687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21728639646079534,0.0,0.3903233830868558,0.20097354569142944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3033669855987773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09925665757059897,0.0,0.32390986888162737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.210184613501608,0.0,0.10440798563759593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13418842302990594,0.09281458377461788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1913847641860872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13965708720667933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12873529819294532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1317081432227624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12170598982044598,0.0,0.18758223370288346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2135453694935416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1974618599980511,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12621420510400108,0.0,0.0,0.15082282108553693,0.11077880853018282,0.0,0.1800787331601948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16408163776083526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18313384590759427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,AlexeyShved,2019/04/01,"Was I right to quit my job? My friend was able to get me a decent job @ a hardware store making $11/hr (where the min wage is 7.25) however I’m on disability so I can only work up to 80 hours a month and I told them that. The first month went well I was working 16-20 hour weeks and was able to take my meds after work because I’d asked to only work morning shift because I could personally handle a 6am-10am shift without using my medication (I cannot drive on it personally), but then they scheduled me for an entire 40 hour week (including closing shifts) and I told the manager I can’t work because of the reasons listed above and they refused to work with me and just told me to attempt it and see if I was able to do it (I know I’m not fucking able and I’m not going to drive on my meds or be without them for basically my entire day) so I just told them I quit, and dipped. 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First things first I'm not diagnosed with schizophrenia but I am diagnosed with BPD. But I've been seeing and hearing things that I know aren't real but at the same time I'm not so sure. I've tried to find information with hallucinations tied to BPD but there wasn't a whole lot I could find. Something I experience a lot is seeing things in the corner of my eye and when I go to look, it's gone. I also experience hearing multiple voices in my head that tell me all sorts of nasty things about me, convince me I'm being watched when I'm in public and tell me that people only want me around to use me, hurt me or pity me. I also experience very strong auditory hallucinations with things away from me, like for example yesterday I heard 6 different planes fly over my apartment building. It's common to hear one plane fly over and you can see it when you look out the window and it'll also shake the walls but I couldn't see them yesterday and they didn't shake the walls. But I was convinced 6 different planes flew over one after the other. And I was mad no one else in the apartment block were as concerned about it as me. I could hear the neighbours laughing and chatting on the ground floor but no one sounded concerned or questioned it. Im convinced it happened. I also have episodes where I have tactile hallucinations. It's usually a paramedic that I feel is there (I dunno why) or a human male like figure. I've never seen him but I could tell you exactly what he looks like because his presence is so damn strong. Something else I've been experiencing a lot very recently is not feeling like I'm apart of my body. Like I know I'm blinking or moving my fingers but it doesn't feel like they're my eyes or my fingers. It's if like my ""soul"" is 90% detached from my body and every movement or thought I have is foreign. That also includes where I am at the time, like my room isn't my room or my bed isn't my bed. I've also shut out all of my friends and acquaintances, I deleted all of my social medias a month ago, changed my number and have tried to go off the grid as much as possible. I'm worried this is going to get worse but I'm so incredibly scared that if I told a medical professional what I'm experiencing they'll say that it's all a delusion and I'm making it up. I'm scared they'll say ""oh but people with schizophrenia don't know they have it so you're lying"". But I know that's not true? Is that true? For me personally I sometimes know what I'm experiencing isn't real, I don't know how I know that but I just do. And sometimes I'm convinced it's real and my partner has to tell me it's not. I'm scared of being labelled as crazy or a liar and I don't know what to do. I'm sorry if my post is in the wrong subreddit or I'm crossing any boundaries. I'm just so scared and I would really like some guidance on what I should do from here. Thank you for reading and I hope you all find something to smile about today ❤️ ",2.683058252427184,4.1926028009708745,4.161791585760518,87.23911456310681,75.19741100323624,6.885747572815534,25.304983818770232,7.554174236665415,1.1430806731391578,2353,80,504,30,50,782,236,618,0.138,0.747,0.115,-0.9372,2,0,3,0,0,0,44.0,0,5,5,4,26,34,3,6,22,0,47,10,7,3,10,108,103,62,0,12,32,0,5,9,3,5,3,9,5,4,37,25,0,1,18,2,0,10,19,12,0,6,13,28,74,22,54,79,12,60,1,2,11,0,36,32,1,20,26,321,111,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05332441908523315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2886390609652032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04090795464743194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05355134745925837,0.0,0.0,0.05651828221221175,0.0,0.0,0.03667037055673433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13363889481934366,0.15152805520114646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06363677884946796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14408835033258605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12211358569065466,0.0,0.12569985463650196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10050477554716657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05068379134531718,0.0,0.0,0.1765315209925901,0.0,0.0,0.09124962347916114,0.08595052143952184,0.0,0.0,0.1649437237525089,0.1023368549562466,0.0,0.0,0.046476162571343,0.0,0.031428882569726875,0.0,0.10256365146101568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05319550741537171,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061737126995844424,0.0,0.2711994884150525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05974820652183337,0.0,0.0,0.06439794592478941,0.0,0.06497850389947908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2644800983842705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26450143023626765,0.06029183818645813,0.0,0.0,0.15154697080811422,0.0,0.0,0.15342673419108555,0.0,0.0,0.040154412395825775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06060056248580674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.048015724390558116,0.06393601374204493,0.0442213782055561,0.04460470657014221,0.046395802264201945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16305229970521706,0.0457511382632752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08340880839918834,0.052525657240051565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06781653941708833,0.057612554309504425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06738817734013366,0.0,0.0601720022574307,0.2054111485161676,0.0385372966984958,0.0,0.059396519483054876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09567649122755638,0.2409054929536991,0.0,0.19174529221588527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06132118427918092,0.0,0.13893244413497485,0.11899109697268223,0.0673394071728802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056696057262943814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21031501441562808,0.05538330780553895,0.0,0.0,0.19982394772983364,0.0,0.0,0.04775692481243062,0.0701545719899535,0.0,0.05702059183054142,0.057481371496009175,0.0,0.0816835747422753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05195523052310893,0.06625303043915567,0.09926954342022426,0.035481404162383205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05428118362190098,0.06716171673996241,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06109105700328193,0.06130382125362752,0.04273289985500345,0.06577083998596456,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,iwatchgapehornn,2019/04/01,"Just finished from another visit need someones input please! I have been suffering for a long time of paranoia , depression and voices in my head. It has been a struggle. I started taking drugs ; heroin, meth, lsd, weed and so many others but now I'm almost 1 year clean. Even though some drugs helped and others worsened my condition severely but I'm done with that now. I was on paliperidone 6mg for some time and olanzapine, antidepressants (duloxetine) and xanax But got no improvement whatsoever today he increased my paliperidone to 12 mg and gave me 90 mg of duloxetine , 2mg xanax and he also removed olanzapine completely. What do you guys take and what has helped you and how long would i feel any improvement and will i ever have some peace in my mind without all these conversations in my head!? Thanks and sorry for the shitty post i just took 4mg xanax",4.655035714285717,7.040664575000001,5.165892857142861,78.38125000000002,72.0,8.321428571428571,27.67857142857143,9.04235418022936,2.484607142857143,692,26,121,15,14,221,104,160,0.151,0.716,0.133,0.2421,0,0,3,0,0,0,17.0,0,2,0,0,10,4,0,1,3,0,11,7,2,1,2,29,22,18,0,2,6,0,1,0,0,2,5,1,1,1,7,12,0,0,1,0,0,4,2,3,0,0,7,2,14,1,13,13,5,20,0,2,0,0,10,4,0,4,11,77,21,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15320252897988398,0.0,0.0,0.12235015528505055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10404193916312303,0.16042874038294755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1604124896369827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13177448677552342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15656714329042914,0.0,0.0,0.3548515709124692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10105184464549877,0.1383928599898397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07735893794169242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1223641869323642,0.0,0.0,0.151489238874286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3140342980413897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20509882982885305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2707917624349131,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15511305475006132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1544814737299862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11344395502919676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16794271616474635,0.0,0.0,0.1465270488872479,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17284095577180186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1296322825642318,0.0,0.0,0.1712655292777243,0.10829074498927176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15994373534672895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2300666041516746,0.0,0.0,0.14085736603108634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15031694469164664,0.0,0.17842538875142425,0.0,0.1450215000336343,0.0,0.16998322593595316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1474818518232352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1086833552372974,0.0,0.0,0.09852385168419137 schizophrenia,Thrill_ing,2019/04/02,Indie movie Does this even sound like psychosis? I feel like I’m the main character in a really bad indie movie. Like some kind of manic pixie dream girl. ,1.6310000000000002,4.361614433333333,2.6750000000000007,89.2425,88.0,5.666666666666668,14.166666666666668,7.1686216300943375,0.026666666666666842,123,2,23,2,4,39,25,30,0.107,0.623,0.269,0.5729,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,1,5,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,1,4,2,2,2,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,3,9,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3324397657307996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34842494968016946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2629752268666531,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20131729734125225,0.2844394204852936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4146133858824973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5835499484578333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2550659648459009,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,iwantaguacate,2019/04/02,Does schizophrenia make your skin itchy? Do schizophrenics have some sort of histamine imbalance?,9.657142857142855,14.411569,3.1542857142857166,84.91571428571432,73.28571428571428,5.6571428571428575,35.57142857142857,7.1686216300943375,3.0475428571428576,82,4,10,1,2,19,14,14,0.159,0.841,0.0,-0.3527,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,1,1,0,3,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,5,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7950988250510451,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6064798911773147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Itsmaybelline,2019/04/02,"Help playing the role of a paranoid schizophrenic? I'm playing a kind subservant family man who, through the incredible power of tabletop RPGs, has quite literally been injected with schizophrenia. Specifically paranoid schizophrenia. Personality wise, he's a hard working family man. He lost his wife recently, and still mourning the end of his marriage, is determined to provide for his only daughter as best he can. The character is heavily inspired by Walter White. So, any advice on how his illness will impact his decision making? I expect a buffer period before he starts listening to the advice of his paranoia in earnest. But when will that be? What if again through the power of tabletop RPGs, the voices in his head turn out to be right on several occasions? Will that increase or decrease his trust in them? Will his love and trust in his daughter override any feelings of suspicion towards her? Will his drive to protect her be abandoned when he doesn't feel he can trust her anymore, or will they become twisted into a ""protecting her from herself"" mentality? Apologies if I'm being blunt or rude. I haven't had my medication in 3 weeks, and I'm not exactly the most skilled at reading into what's offensive on the best of days.",7.228648648648652,8.738842405405407,7.297315315315322,69.10489189189192,64.13513513513513,10.244324324324324,39.12432432432432,10.355215969177356,4.592668108108109,1002,54,153,24,15,322,136,222,0.105,0.7,0.195,0.978,2,0,0,0,0,0,26.0,0,0,2,8,6,16,2,0,14,0,19,5,1,2,1,24,30,14,1,3,7,3,3,0,0,6,3,2,0,3,5,7,0,3,4,3,0,2,3,5,0,0,3,6,21,11,31,17,4,26,0,3,1,1,37,14,0,6,10,109,26,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32304881156643905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.224812598817227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16392826941145386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1825553916048032,0.14065390949044895,0.0,0.3469339055191152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10660163007612478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14640234848280906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31165091675096346,0.0,0.16715628351702888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14807189385474528,0.0,0.16964040469713712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1107937849848814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1721293539994503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1804390686361362,0.0,0.14918523245824464,0.0,0.1103357266635056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1665173688056196,0.1665785284396591,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1257143308735292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14432925833729235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1758116278652022,0.16533977706922892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16320891646585767,0.0,0.0,0.14116106602670242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18673635248277226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11699668424442805,0.0,0.13200483716192452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17979354425265007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13258971536331815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1203367620568135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,ahdjfkormf,2019/04/02,How long did it take for things to get better? Does it ever get easier? I haven’t been able to see someone routinely yet. Just multiple one time visits to doctors. I feel like I spend all of my time trying to stay here with everyone else that normal life becomes unmanageable. When did it start becoming easier for you?,3.2654644808743143,5.7722857377049195,4.624180327868854,80.01747267759565,76.86885245901641,8.656830601092896,23.281420765027317,9.2995712137729,2.2804404371584694,254,8,46,7,6,84,49,61,0.0,0.821,0.179,0.8895,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,1,0,1,6,2,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,1,2,7,10,2,0,1,1,0,1,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,5,1,0,0,1,0,1,1,1,0,0,1,3,2,5,2,8,7,1,9,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,8,30,10,1,0.21556915450704092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4761583894894196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19065339911995105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22064416408515336,0.18864601980400847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18008036736089353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19499464181862594,0.0,0.20598556514464356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10899824164712747,0.1540026470525838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2252519718823792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1522628689656106,0.1053162000735544,0.0,0.0,0.1907719181730435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21121200175163948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14607523806753972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17178070630959166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18265104506546856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15258095708843272,0.2297680363158309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16208117627700222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14321456754183814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25140021510854943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.146357305579343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Somebodyhelpmemaybe,2019/04/02,"Need help getting a prescription fast My wife takes aripiprazal but has been off medications for a few months because we lost our insurance. She's relapsing bad, paranoid and not sure what's real. I found that Costco offers the medication for a reasonable price, but I'm having difficulty in securing a prescription without insurance. Any help would be appreciated. We are in the Denver area.",6.470637254901964,9.344909102941179,7.050588235294117,64.69931372549021,68.26470588235293,11.003921568627453,34.86274509803922,10.864195022040775,4.941698039215686,321,16,47,11,6,105,55,68,0.198,0.6409999999999999,0.161,-0.4484,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,3,0,0,1,0,4,0,0,6,0,6,2,0,1,1,13,12,3,0,2,4,1,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,2,3,0,1,2,0,1,0,2,2,0,0,3,0,6,2,6,7,1,6,0,1,0,0,8,4,0,0,2,31,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1675067856536957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20566781854075544,0.1501550481716421,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.270078357611626,0.0,0.0,0.12869260126338053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3302076643544775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2688885636534858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.496285161078845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19661114134927926,0.0,0.0,0.182643964651502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.280367323192786,0.0,0.25325910182808903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2321547091074077,0.0,0.18520280214734627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23744473757291346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17497943268161575,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,davefake6689d08r9r,2019/04/02,Question.exe A schiz who hasn't taken his med for days after taking it regularly is now puking and having heavy breathing is he undergoing some sort of relapse ,4.8419540229885065,7.901902620689657,5.6765517241379335,71.58195402298853,74.51724137931033,6.625287356321839,26.90804597701149,7.793537801064563,2.1695425287356316,132,5,19,2,3,43,28,29,0.097,0.903,0.0,-0.4215,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,4,1,1,0,0,3,6,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,3,5,1,3,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,2,3,14,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3462113293854947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5962977824413863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6013731371395958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40362980562328976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,ZachofArc,2019/04/02,"Delusion of Unreality Since January, I have been extremely anxious about developing psychosis or schizophrenia. I have been going to a therapist, havent yet begun any medication, but it doesnt seem to be helpful. Hes just a free university therapist who seems great at helping those with stress, but not those with anxiety disorders, OCD, let alone psychotic illnesses. I go through phases of feeling good, like I have control of my obsessions, other times, for a week or two at a time, im 100% im developing schizophrenia, and ill spend hours a day reading stories, taking tests, and looking up symptoms. My most recent wave of OCD came from a story my good friend told me about his brother, who is currently experiencing his first psychotic episode after taking LSD for the first time. He believed he had to start a business, or else the mafia would come kill him, and he got incredibly obsessed with all the different businesses he had to start. He was hospitalized, and his positive symptoms are improving, but negative symptoms are still affecting him gravely. Anyways, I have this constant feeling(?) or thought(?) that the world doesnt exist. That im in a dream, or simulation, or something. Just that nothing exist, nobody but me has consciousness. I havent ever firmly believed this one, maybe a product of just reading too many experiences, but that others are just actors, or put there by God for me to live in this world alone. I get this feeling, or thought(?) even when im feeling calm. And normally I have just attributed this to depersonalization or derealization, but I looked through the CAARMS test, which psychiatrists use to calculate an individuals risk of psychosis prodrome. Most of the questions I dont score on, no hallucinations, not really any delusions, but the one that I would consider that I fall under, is nihlistic thoughts. Thoughts that the world or one's self does not exist. And it is scored based on ones insight, whether they shake it off immediately at a 0, up to a 5, where the person firmly believes it, and it causes much distress. I rated myself around a 3-4. I tried googling around for this type of delusion, which is what brought me to this page. Not certain whether this is just derealization, existential OCD, a slight indicator of psychotic risk, or even just normal human experience. I smoked weed around 5 times a week from ages 14-16, tried K2 Spice, MDMA once, and was drugged with something (think PCP?) around that age. I quit doing all drugs around 16 after getting panic attacks when smoking, and had developed contamination OCD that people would drug my drinks or food as a joke. (another possible indicator of psychotic risk?) Now 22, Male, a month away from graduating college. I feel quite social, I am in a fraternity, I have friends, I have a job lined up, but I cant shake the fear that I will lose my insight, and lose everything. I guess the only thing anybody can really offer, is to just visit a psychiatrist, and/or try some medication, which I will do once i graduate and begin making money. But for now, I get to just ruminate. I just wanted to know if anybody can relate, or has some information/education, since everything I read on my own is ""the worst case scenario""",8.190348770726132,8.474455662092629,8.139794168096056,68.17057175528875,61.84734133790737,11.320526014865642,38.42138364779875,10.959497528513188,4.39428690680389,2573,121,434,62,33,832,300,583,0.123,0.767,0.11,-0.8740000000000001,3,2,7,1,0,0,104.0,0,0,1,7,30,27,2,11,32,0,45,12,0,6,4,99,79,39,2,7,39,1,5,1,2,5,10,0,0,4,34,22,2,1,17,7,3,10,12,17,0,7,15,9,46,11,62,57,10,63,0,3,2,0,28,24,0,22,30,299,80,11,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13261139962508608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08707196787188927,0.06713084281546554,0.048975336929272584,0.07232469073992039,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2849580995710844,0.0,0.0728323077346941,0.060149157973912626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21638678815792228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07322214207356338,0.0,0.0657664600189924,0.0,0.055147800180443206,0.0,0.0691831761778132,0.07180418478470868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04128778261500217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06688756379254554,0.07337278428143103,0.0,0.05602457611998187,0.0,0.07503128823725211,0.06271549901314623,0.22272958984359809,0.0,0.05348072680996103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08456957877892657,0.05791000607861261,0.0,0.0,0.11507459443289644,0.12524823152137635,0.0,0.07204061069726976,0.16185287907075982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10891123039098068,0.07741357347359776,0.0,0.09892381491810233,0.0,0.10034385770246884,0.0,0.07276839791351622,0.10739434241247706,0.051202864147600814,0.07058258177212129,0.07052555319324076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08582288481484665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06304707727112932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.276611541821686,0.0,0.06353024676310508,0.0,0.07082895147680619,0.0,0.03518387014784879,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06546507108046641,0.0,0.03127707371625507,0.0,0.056531077791737376,0.0,0.10752181808332506,0.14324462916792854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04273403224601725,0.06490651283677272,0.06431697349208951,0.0,0.0,0.12898738827837808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05110037457889166,0.0,0.04706227010797965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12545255799069904,0.06142918273836004,0.0,0.0,0.13635901192968475,0.17352718711715867,0.04869030577665831,0.0,0.07511400151206803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04438359939869675,0.05590003679079991,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07217324347060845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06435806123987743,0.0717173623427986,0.13618689071273166,0.19211280639064512,0.0,0.08202605798604842,0.0,0.06321230040347749,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1165633121027485,0.0667871115629985,0.0,0.0,0.10591646995588244,0.0,0.0,0.06526061047833677,0.0,0.0985718744788837,0.0,0.0,0.09062776361506827,0.0,0.05112667617726195,0.0,0.07333501138410972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19962474322909746,0.09627056226663266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14866495269433802,0.042532227550170165,0.04102160869010054,0.0,0.20329979627515965,0.14932295420345212,0.0,0.0,0.0611741185213087,0.0,0.1303966977251505,0.0,0.06253850844514708,0.0,0.0,0.055292964435325706,0.0,0.0,0.03776081827975839,0.0,0.10270640966740267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13643450455965675,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,coffee_mann2,2019/04/02,"Former Girlfriend Now Schizophrenic I am a middle-aged man who had a memorable short-term relationship with a woman years ago before she manifested schizophrenia. She was fragile then, but she did not have the condition. Now, she is full-blown with paranoia and an extremely distorted sense of what most of us would consider reality. What should I expect if I get involved with her again, particularly if we develop a sexual relationship? &#x200B;",6.742913533834589,9.867542802631585,7.1206015037593975,63.34921052631579,68.34210526315789,11.184962406015039,34.54135338345865,10.914260884657429,5.084656390977445,367,18,52,13,7,119,61,76,0.092,0.908,0.0,-0.7572,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,2,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,6,0,8,1,0,0,0,14,9,5,0,5,4,0,1,0,1,2,1,0,0,2,3,5,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,1,10,0,5,4,1,7,0,0,0,0,14,0,0,3,7,42,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2469326304462415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3018269747531904,0.3384891115395148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2370398005925532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14553963790067515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.598152912313255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3350815206723225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1978858382109213,0.0,0.3384891115395148,0.17938786423851585 schizophrenia,cdwithdcs,2019/04/02,"Sitting here with a knife, hoping someone doesnt come in Worried someone's gonna try and torture me",7.881,6.827221099999999,7.5500000000000025,76.55500000000005,63.0,8.0,45.0,3.1291,3.4224999999999994,82,5,14,0,1,26,19,20,0.181,0.602,0.217,-0.0547,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,4,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,2,3,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,7,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3489909223015113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4023939190832325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6865450293056632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2750624301439176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.411437786664018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,lightfeathers,2019/04/02,"Mom keeps getting herself into debt, what do I do? We have paid off her debts plenty of times before, but she's never stopped borrowing money and she never tells us the complete truth. So months/years later, we find out there was more debt that wasn't paid and racked up in 10% interest per month the whole time. We have no clue where she spends her money, she won't tell us anything. She's suspicious of everything and probably doesn't want us to know how much trouble she got us all into. My siblings and I are so exhausted, she left us a couple of days ago with no money for food or anything else. We have no money. She also stole $2,000 and only told us when she left. We don't know what's going on and I feel so hopeless. I have my own mental health issues and it's taking a massive toll on me. &#x200B; Can someone please give advice on how I can help my mom? We're so lost. We've thought about taking her to her psychiatrist but she's incredibly suspicious and would probably cause a massive scene and make her distrust us even more. &#x200B; I know this post is all over the place but I'm having an anxiety attack and I would really just appreciate any advice or any inputs.",3.8232119514472447,5.2338539915966384,4.688515406162466,84.99847805788984,72.10924369747899,7.473762838468722,24.986928104575163,7.984000788550335,1.3492849673202616,942,28,187,13,18,305,140,238,0.18600000000000005,0.7390000000000001,0.07400000000000001,-0.9822,3,0,0,0,0,1,31.0,12,0,0,1,13,8,2,0,7,0,18,3,0,4,5,45,37,23,0,3,6,2,1,0,0,3,2,0,0,0,5,19,1,2,6,0,11,1,9,6,0,0,8,1,39,2,18,26,7,26,0,2,0,0,35,14,0,2,10,126,44,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15679142623611153,0.07111532195078119,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06415653497416134,0.0,0.17384921907010892,0.19496623107659336,0.10911257600200287,0.0,0.061372509471491775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1320379783535961,0.0,0.0,0.09126841746353467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06826623805782643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08241398515034261,0.0,0.0,0.08411521405682146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08876831029538443,0.0,0.05173899739077813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06701835287885068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05298837741642495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07210176672148426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04056456974702821,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07332491829975832,0.0,0.09700934325559868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04191466387898015,0.0769598876564553,0.045594165044970214,0.0,0.06416389272429679,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08527626283877772,0.0,0.0,0.05377365569507432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08373488104855015,0.0,0.07130836796643474,0.0,0.0,0.1322699876681374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17433111031877407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08757592632207209,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053551337534671305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08084872662964526,0.0,0.0,0.1879189503811821,0.06403545987583238,0.0,0.05897518626820367,0.0,0.12375014943565335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061015328118380265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08381887496376603,0.08806382565004969,0.0,0.0,0.07683412999921213,0.0,0.17299394029804135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05139469512918225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06797505120231498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06707235239520166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12063961914273873,0.0,0.140241752445011,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06369031565044764,0.09356060617201163,0.0,0.0,0.07665917998238754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6755122288016182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04731924929628395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08956922908237086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.113980198311082,0.0,0.19496623107659336,0.05166277820930757 schizophrenia,Vicrattlehead867,2019/04/03,"Hello new user to this,just here for helpful advice if possible? Hey pretty much the story is I keep losing jobs because of my schizophrenia and panic attacks just got a job making a lot more money then I’ve ever made though it’s a lot of work 26 days on 6 off 12 hour days I live in hotels when I am working....basically I don’t wanna fuck this up I’ve already had to leave for a manic episode but the boss is gonna give me another shot at it.any suggestions that could keep me in check at the job? anything I could ask my doctor about when I see him next?anything helps and thank you for your time ",5.396571428571427,4.885742120000003,6.195085714285718,82.45240000000003,67.8,8.742857142857144,28.25714285714286,7.957251820313856,1.643754285714286,475,13,99,5,7,157,94,125,0.078,0.8270000000000001,0.094,0.6046,4,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,2,0,2,7,5,2,1,7,0,7,2,0,3,1,16,18,8,0,4,3,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,3,2,0,2,0,1,2,0,1,4,0,0,3,1,13,1,16,12,4,16,0,1,1,1,10,7,1,3,9,61,16,6,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13923469656627602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15723574470842105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09689468854199748,0.14940794988662026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23450603508896814,0.0,0.13320424440750586,0.1620972615235088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08685753576382885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2275253627048563,0.0,0.0,0.18378207980581976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14583943890409293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12888584327640734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13172508995744206,0.0,0.13668459893316914,0.0,0.0,0.11395827371995605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1910093890641237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14031902723635484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.424183141157281,0.2532944361764133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15087104571883447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12581686872250475,0.0,0.0,0.15940427289942222,0.0,0.24227130968514984,0.0,0.13482275565397894,0.09510984639083414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10474287226174528,0.0,0.0,0.13761290446369695,0.15153441790306382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16717545174500806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1606304329181947,0.0,0.14495847305689374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1135421003615175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13118104795249536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.139990792709525,0.0,0.08308415149754272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10373077968932687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,AtlasRightClock,2019/04/03,"Having Bad Symptoms Hi! Lately I've been having a bad problem. About once a day I start seeing faces in everything. From the wall, to plants, to the fence. They are scary faces and I also see light glowing. Can anybody think of anything I can do to help? Does this happen to anyone else? Thank you for reading!",1.3170000000000002,3.969624366666668,2.085000000000001,93.4725,88.66666666666666,3.6666666666666665,19.166666666666664,5.148860815047168,-0.2923333333333331,242,7,46,1,8,75,48,60,0.206,0.716,0.078,-0.8639,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,1,1,0,2,4,0,0,4,0,7,3,2,0,0,4,13,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,3,0,0,1,4,5,1,9,12,0,5,0,0,3,0,4,2,0,0,3,28,6,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1821978509976858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15930602886620832,0.23344168292257084,0.1874870261914316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3804618329430646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14693334266214986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19937806583848586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1903251146098976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2047614783915879,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2014718403268492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15271155949862114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25700538296694736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24263455380692275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21800527174023845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2278945087654669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3631065739733947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1612612666818126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2368055709056724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20975788161663345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14598609332982335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,kuroiichan,2019/04/03,"Some things to help someone deal with schizophrenia living alone? Hi there, i didnt see this specific information in the sticky so i hope its okay if i ask. Before i start, i am going to help her get therapy and medication if she'll let me. And im sorry this is a long read, tldr; what tips for someone living alone with schizophrenia and how can i help? Will technology make it worse with someone who is hearing voices on a phone? Ive posted before, when my mom was first developing schizophrenia and was showing capgras symptoms. Now, due to financial and housing issues, she moved away from where i live, and i cant afford to move with her. She has family out there, and my sister helped her move but they dont understand mental illness and i dont think its helping. Shes called the police multiple times, is losing medication and thinks someone is breaking in, and is getting phone calls from people that arent calling her, including a version of myself. She ended up walking to a gas station alone today because of a phone call from someone she didnt know. My sister had to call family to pick her up. And i worry shes going to get into trouble and my family is talking about forcing her to get committed. I DO NOT want that, she has begged me before not to let anyone do that and i refuse to unless she is absolutely going to hurt herself. Im saving up to go visit asap, and i want to help her. She has depression as well and cant stay motivated enough to take care of herself. Ive been there and wanted to show her some of the techniques that help me on my bad days. (Meal prepping, meal logs, and general information about food and healthy eating, and also caffeine alternatives because she drinks 8 glasses of coffee a day and is not supposed to with her medication) But i was also thinking, she sits in silence alot and i know it doesnt help with paranoia when youre home alone. I was thinking of getting her an Amazon echo, and setting her up with her favorite music and some podcasts about stuff she likes. Is this an okay idea? Im scared that it might make her nervous, shes a little scared of technology and her phone doesnt seem to be helping. She was also talking about getting an animal to adopt, she has chronic pain so im not sure a dog that needs to be walked would be okay. Would a cat be a good companion? Shes also very defensive about all of this and wont talk to anyone about whats really happening on her good days, which worries me greatly cause i cant tell if shes actually okay or not Im sorry if any of this seems unfair or insensitive, im just so worried about her and i want her to be okay. I love her very much. If you have any tips or advice i would greatly appreciate it. 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I am schizophrenic and recently have been put on Geodon; I had been previously on Rexulti. Currently, I'm not having a ton of hallucinations and delusions, however they do creep in occasionally. The drug overall has helped a lot in that department but I'm starting to feel really sick from the drug. As in I get uncontrollable shakes and twitches, nausea, and occasional vomiting. It could be a host of problems besides the geodon, however, I think in might be playing a part in some of the changes I've been feeling physically. If anyone could give me some advice on how to cope with the drug, I would like to stay on it because of its benefits, but I need to learn to cope with it. Thank you!",5.699448275862068,6.975720220689657,6.503620689655175,74.26094827586209,67.48275862068965,10.489655172413793,33.12068965517241,10.577609850970193,3.684779310344828,612,27,113,17,10,202,93,145,0.078,0.8029999999999999,0.12,0.5191,3,0,3,0,0,0,18.0,0,1,1,0,2,8,0,2,9,0,15,7,0,1,0,27,27,10,0,6,5,0,2,1,1,2,7,0,0,0,6,7,0,0,5,1,0,3,1,3,0,0,5,2,9,5,23,16,5,18,0,0,0,0,7,10,0,5,5,78,15,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1655213138440071,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11843811088124513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1032556811731077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17918714340773192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27048069121058266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5892993694782248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17129255192650486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1857221926593162,0.13086663024556794,0.0,0.08849680624922926,0.162489774141104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2270707360602861,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08275308113778601,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1440052891798638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17969099113542794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12559702262350916,0.0,0.1635933377990926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18342772807155416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16207881604249352,0.0,0.17027896893328232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10851253370938674,0.0,0.16724750760415466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11989175751880103,0.18054214773068192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15594718805017954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10853523392663647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12032642746829995,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,HonorableDisdain,2019/04/03,"I can't feel any emotions, is it unique or common? I have seen it listed in schizophrenia symptoms but I don't know if other people are experiencing the same thing. All my emotions, like feeling happy, angry, sad, or feeling empathy are gone. I used to feel those when I watch movies and stuff like that, but nowadays it's all rational for me. &#x200B; I went to my psychiatrist and told him what happened to me: A voice told me to say a sentence three times and something changed in my brain, just like that, and from that moment (back in 2017) I stopped feeling emotions. Sadly I still feel emotional pain, but without sadness attached. &#x200B; My psychiatrist said they may never return, and after two years I am still in the same situation. It sucks because you need to feel emotions to feel satisfaction, without them the world is bland and I am filled with a sense of apathy everyday. I also see that I have grown to be colder with my opinions, now it's very easy for me not to give a shit about other people even though I still remember I am supposed to. &#x200B; I don't know, at first I thought it would be an advantage for me but the only thing I can think of is that I am not as suicidal as I used to be because now I am too rational to kill myself even though I sort of feel uncomfortable with the idea of living past a certain age. I am better with money now, I can actually stop myself from buying stuff (I used to suck at handling money). &#x200B; What do you think? Do you know someone who has experienced something like this? Thank you for reading.",6.324092409240925,6.581914165016503,6.5136138613861405,78.3452062706271,65.76567656765677,8.977557755775576,33.0049504950495,8.680891452615391,2.6080811881188115,1244,49,233,17,18,399,156,303,0.123,0.701,0.175,0.9304,0,0,2,0,0,1,49.0,0,4,2,3,16,17,4,0,11,0,26,4,2,3,4,55,57,19,2,3,12,0,9,4,0,2,2,3,0,0,22,10,0,2,17,1,3,4,8,8,0,3,7,17,43,9,38,45,4,32,0,3,3,0,13,7,3,6,25,178,65,1,0.0,0.0,0.06918352344523894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05669489450890713,0.0,0.30725983376768395,0.34458188579350296,0.04821119149062593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05451406027979358,0.0,0.08643415551717956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06270107488391878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07914252968951975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07499775917422732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3987379905611764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0936512693222064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32262085275956404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060303451411420565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06800917028728784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06269242294186653,0.07546929687172342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08003209189580701,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07843507448350638,0.0,0.1168865026853412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13854332475125927,0.0,0.06260179213128389,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0525679190849329,0.054678776453104205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053919021538353325,0.0754375294480189,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06767752459797355,0.0982996600146724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07091442112443723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08031048203676404,0.0,0.06743760415494852,0.05637873708765932,0.0,0.0,0.05649432414867993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07277294082531749,0.0,0.07968921550818317,0.0,0.0,0.06006930328617215,0.10915723239616017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16985108082691935,0.11854318332627226,0.0,0.0,0.16231616706173846,0.07754788127583667,0.0,0.0,0.07368729536655813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06527080811078233,0.0,0.0,0.0941992890277208,0.0908536090385274,0.1393084185686428,0.05628289820351738,0.04133958215829395,0.0,0.0,0.13548687203855966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06925434396115232,0.0,0.0,0.18369216373274205,0.0,0.05849599433981821,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06572059391746382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13668095494633575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050361941476060684,0.0,0.34458188579350296,0.04565420750658372 schizophrenia,HeresMyCardImGod,2019/04/03,"What to call myself / my mental illness? So I had my first psychotic episode last year and ended up in the psych ward but I did not receive a diagnosis of schizophrenia despite being put on an anti-psychotic for about 8 months. Now that I’m off medication my life’s improved, however I still struggle with what I’d describe as negative symptoms of schizophrenia as well as cognitive issues. If I smoke weed I get pretty fucked up and depressing thoughts rushing in and none of the enjoyment I used to have before my episode, so I’ve stopped that, especially being off antipsychotics it’s too risky. Although I maybe wouldn’t call it a voice (and I have had voices so I know what that’s like) I pretty much live with this impulse — or maybe it’s like an intrusive thought? — to attack people when I’m in social situations or even just walking past people on the street... it actually makes me flinch when it happens and I often feel like I have to clench my fists or put my hands in my pockets. Goes without saying probably but I would never act on these thoughts. I also get startled on occasion by things in the corner of my vision, but my “hallucinations” are extremely light, more like momentarily misreading things around me. So that’s me, and I know I don’t have it nearly as rough as a lot of people, but I do feel I’m living with something that impacts my life. But without positive symptoms rearing their heads unless I’m high or worse tripping, and without an actual diagnosis of schizophrenia, I don’t really know what to call myself. I thought of “psychosis survivor” but it sounds more than a little dramatic, and to be honest it really would just be easier to call myself schizophrenic or mildly schizophrenic, but then again I don’t want to be diminishing the experience of schizophrenic and schizo-affective people who’ve had multiple episodes, live with frequent voices and visual hallucinations, are taking heavy doses of medication, dealing with tardive dyskinesia from said medication, etc. I guess what I’m asking is, is it okay for me to call myself schizophrenic? Also, I’m wondering what you guys think of using the word “schizo” to refer to yourselves/ourselves. I’m a poet and have used the word in something I’m writing, and I think that’s maybe where some of these insecure identity thoughts are coming from. Sorry this came out so long and thanks for reading!",7.535531135531138,8.027506517006806,7.6145691609977355,70.68026295133441,63.19501133786848,10.594139194139196,35.555642769928475,10.389873798559362,3.8352776207919055,1918,82,321,42,26,620,214,441,0.106,0.7909999999999999,0.103,-0.3239,1,0,3,0,0,0,42.0,0,1,1,1,21,15,2,3,15,1,26,16,2,4,1,73,63,43,0,5,20,0,4,4,0,3,13,6,0,1,27,22,0,1,14,1,0,9,11,6,1,1,11,11,42,9,61,44,7,47,0,1,0,1,15,22,1,11,20,229,69,2,0.0,0.0,0.14957092216894718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12257120238578985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06822208704717013,0.07164410410356381,0.087184257011847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06521139962181796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3912684708716908,0.08765091004329878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06601493395051951,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07900811846067743,0.06600628029533763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06787654951840072,0.0,0.08546914633772269,0.05061720629877377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07496449272907868,0.0,0.0,0.07749870048558491,0.0547486126269541,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06518635065411073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07084853864784586,0.08007805831957635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0844229456232541,0.07588146543038404,0.06776876231117959,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07865041407514611,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08096990337239847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0799878379956573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12635105242643388,0.0624683846713069,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10826022785985648,0.1497614736245688,0.07680917900562206,0.20301237879094847,0.0678202488596881,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06515299497247687,0.0,0.0,0.05115497457613236,0.0,0.23097280814928856,0.0,0.0,0.2316074409981672,0.07723083578583795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06116994407092648,0.0,0.056336112094667726,0.0,0.059106233752563575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07315751829438752,0.21251838682264093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15593226748255998,0.08262632667243598,0.0,0.0,0.15408024066354895,0.0,0.0,0.07665651324520012,0.0,0.0981896790525245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07289817098072518,0.060943843830074125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08614182146933698,0.0,0.07812052114865264,0.0,0.11799592661558295,0.0,0.0857874753076603,0.0,0.0,0.06120142852313538,0.0640709390184047,0.0,0.08011635093494038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15930782607271446,0.057620564996397436,0.0,0.0,0.07055592483353024,0.0,0.0,0.10182680662894884,0.09821021978611516,0.0,0.3042012233340655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.198566110516638,0.0,0.0,0.0452017653741304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0689047648766254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2216224556389948,0.08310822839959006,0.0,0.0,0.07809840140943214,0.10887971085709902,0.0,0.0,0.049350926185894664 schizophrenia,nujabes996,2019/04/03,"How do I get rid of my maladaptive thoughts and how do I get more motivated(how do I increase my dopamine and how do i increase my desire to play a certain video game or increase my desire to workout or increase my desire to play and watch basketball)? How do I get rid of my maladaptive thoughts and how do I get more motivated(how do I increase my dopamine and how do i increase my desire to play a certain video game or increase my desire to workout or increase my desire to play and watch basketball)? Look I know i should be asking a doctor this and i am currently on medication. However, I feel as if I have been getting some maladaptive thoughts like ""why did i take this Nootropic?"" or thoughts about ""why did I message this person on Facebook?"" Some of my thoughts are intellectual but I am wondering about how to enhance my motivation as well. The thoughts I am getting aren't intellectual or logical. I am 22 years old and I just wish like there was something that can help me. A little bit about me (sorry if my grammar isn't the best. I apologize) I come from a Gujarati family and vegetarian household. I did nine sessions of ECT and i am currently taking Olanzapine, and Lexapro. I am five foot eleven and I workout everyday and play basketball. Please help me as I would appreciate it. 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I have an appointment coming up for an assessment with EIP soon with suspected schizophrenia, just wandering what I can expect? Thanks for any info.",5.687083333333334,8.619699375000003,5.901250000000001,71.75208333333336,70.875,10.516666666666666,29.416666666666664,10.504223727775694,4.013466666666668,148,6,23,5,3,47,25,32,0.057,0.8440000000000001,0.098,0.3313,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,4,0,2,0,0,0,0,8,4,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,7,4,0,4,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,18,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3920329214877336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4965950293019787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5639177718682218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.53075447422847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,FIYAHYEG,2019/04/03,"Your ""aha"" moment when you knew you were sick Or did you always know you were ill?",0.2747058823529436,2.508375588235296,0.9132352941176478,103.65455882352943,87.23529411764706,3.4000000000000004,8.5,3.1291,-2.339094117647059,63,0,15,0,2,19,13,17,0.289,0.711,0.0,-0.7269,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,5,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,0,3,5,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,5,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,5,0,0,1,2,10,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8344244961200145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5511222734338181,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,II-Ouroboros-II,2019/04/03,"I feel like i’m never going to get SSI Recently applied for it, and just got the little call from the SSA today. But i decided to read up on other people’s experience, and it seems like i’m not going to be deemed “worthy” of SSI. I was only recently diagnosed this year, and I was never hospitalized or had a bad or explosive episode. So my record is clean, i have a fresh diagnosis, and i just don’t seem like i’m “disabled” enough to get SSI. But work is so rough for me, i barely kept a job for 3 months, i get incredibly paranoid at work, like someone is going to kill me paranoid. But i have this achy feeling i’m going to get denied for the next 5 years. Funny thing is, my dad is pushing me so hard to get a job, and it is stressing me out. I’m so picky about my job because i feel like i’m going to hate myself while i work there. Do you guys have any tips or something for me? I feel really hopeless, and that my life has no direction.",4.80530909090909,3.9745532400000014,6.4869090909090925,80.93845454545455,69.1,9.472727272727274,29.181818181818183,8.841846274778883,2.0236000000000005,728,22,161,11,11,254,107,200,0.141,0.74,0.119,-0.754,3,0,1,0,0,2,21.0,0,1,0,3,9,10,2,1,7,0,16,2,0,0,2,26,41,17,1,0,9,1,6,5,0,0,2,0,1,1,8,7,0,1,7,1,0,6,5,5,0,0,5,6,23,5,20,35,1,21,0,1,0,0,4,5,0,5,15,99,31,7,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08023334511251347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09851193191440813,0.07192211201072404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12047512458468147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1197515440222558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12190928349828073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11541124922284968,0.0,0.0,0.23862555486137146,0.1685759630050474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3082095405955301,0.0,0.3352658798104852,0.0,0.09436279368230292,0.0,0.0,0.116822970440565,0.0,0.0,0.1056907257299218,0.1164850339644775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3512435291087272,0.0,0.1305321068695115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08333577460205906,0.2882057579401492,0.11825122772266468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09417391358374416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18199347520149528,0.0,0.1254776028592178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08973234905544507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08179543278798103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11801619183457393,0.0,0.07558374043293417,0.0,0.2329904531888025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21481688483617625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09996768368947682,0.090830050322142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13515057534632724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07838350217276906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1118352863712974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2576818472974359,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15195599500693768 schizophrenia,cloudcameron,2019/04/03,"What was it like when your schitzophrenia began to develop? When I was younger, I remember I would hear think I heard somebody say my name. I'd look around and realize nobody was there, and the voices would stop. I would look back on what had just happened and realize the voice was entirely in my head, but I heard it in my ears. I never thought anything of this, but I was diagnosed a year later. What was it like for you guys when you first started noticing things like voices?",5.514516129032259,6.252312655913979,5.427043010752692,83.76056451612907,67.60215053763442,9.210752688172043,30.553763440860216,9.2995712137729,2.4884279569892485,379,14,75,7,6,118,58,93,0.018000000000000002,0.8859999999999999,0.097,0.7912,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,3,0,1,7,3,0,0,3,0,10,3,2,0,1,18,20,8,0,3,3,0,0,3,0,3,1,8,0,1,8,4,0,1,5,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,11,10,14,3,7,6,0,15,0,0,2,0,9,4,0,0,14,55,22,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16688648544783272,0.18053430930524006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15594008867323142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2058369480452461,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.172500920168745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2008031202720598,0.17933468801475616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20813051602789712,0.0,0.2285694695273313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2972323777926839,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3406005513114829,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15641126720112206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2308882658004257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22973199255247925,0.0,0.0,0.16127408627445727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14354233773975836,0.0,0.0,0.16954923578090172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1347307961335526,0.1299455569538867,0.0,0.16099993454158815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4321882600135724,0.0,0.0,0.1305960541251713 schizophrenia,ConspiracyOfRaven,2019/04/03,"Voices So I was wondering if some of you would mind sharing your voices and the things they tell you to do. My voices range from the more mundane commands like putting mustard on my pb&j, to telling me to put nails in the rumble strips on the freeway. I also have a voice that I call the ‘motherfucker.’ He tells me to do all sorts of horrific things to small children. I don’t listen to him. Cuz fuck that guy. I also have a female voice that tells me that the world is ending and that Jesus is coming back to every negative news story. I’m a Buddhist and that pisses her off. Thank you in advance. ",3.1744999999999983,4.9590007833333365,4.036666666666669,87.495,74.5,6.133333333333334,24.5,6.742157984588678,0.8633999999999995,474,15,93,4,10,152,77,120,0.112,0.8140000000000001,0.07400000000000001,-0.7741,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,4,1,1,4,5,2,0,9,0,9,2,1,1,1,13,15,8,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,7,0,2,8,4,0,0,1,0,0,4,2,2,0,0,1,7,17,3,15,13,3,13,1,0,0,1,17,7,2,4,3,71,25,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2860863842675745,0.0,0.19380681372341788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13754087146895175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18264744072146274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1540816553477524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15842674502905513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15070665652597187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16536349369086042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17711055823354058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08738740760040828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1806088686719388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35962981581734754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6253650683675493,0.16468052063932082,0.0,0.0,0.23766808485976604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19397812947031126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1270649312110267,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,pinkbat7,2019/04/03,A bitter loss I had to separate myself from one of my best friends whom I love dearly because I realized that she is my worst trigger. Funny how this world can't let us even enjoy the little things. ,7.174499999999997,5.945243450000002,7.5500000000000025,76.55500000000005,64.5,10.0,32.5,8.841846274778883,2.6052499999999994,158,5,30,2,2,52,37,40,0.165,0.468,0.3670000000000001,0.9042,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,1,0,0,2,2,8,1,0,2,0,4,1,0,2,0,3,5,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,3,0,1,1,1,8,5,3,3,2,2,0,1,0,1,5,2,0,0,0,26,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21942085520617252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3777430387664288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2377421458318965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27809479924201097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.368071041630539,0.0,0.0,0.3607622856266807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32486696832661377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2439099639673644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23913334300082004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.432972918216921,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Justsomeguyinthesky,2019/04/03,"Raising awareness through tech Hello all, I am a student trying to create a 2 minute VR recreation of what someone with schizophrenia goes through to raise awareness and dispel some of the misconceptions about it. I am turning to you because I am trying my best to stay away from any hyperbole or misrepresentation so I would really like to know all I can about it. If this is against the rules, or seems wrong please let me know but also know that my intentions with this are nothing but good. Thanks for all your help!",4.929201030927835,7.096922577319589,4.588234536082479,83.76317654639178,70.64948453608247,6.911855670103092,29.650773195876287,7.6454224807358475,1.860753608247424,418,17,76,5,8,127,70,97,0.101,0.785,0.114,0.1033,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,2,0,1,4,5,0,0,4,0,8,0,0,1,3,18,14,8,0,2,5,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,6,3,0,0,4,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,10,4,17,12,5,2,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,5,1,58,16,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1815327071322095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15436854025696595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2132750170015669,0.0,0.0,0.13837777083485808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2382236620296125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1903977626239348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15215406029414855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3742616234404082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2321240166612268,0.0,0.11090127698024774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21781368907272625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2491790536554208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14542272494598665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20665328666159147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1923373054230022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2419529817717775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2089921252291205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3082377084019621,0.2469120246812522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1612550768772818,0.24819008057507966,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,AF905F2,2019/04/03,"How polish psychiatric hospital works? It is simple. Very, very simple. It is a prison. Metal grill in windows. They tatooing people and hiding it's from memories which is caused based on slanders or prepared work by other people which manipulates uncomfortable witness. Also when you trying not to be marionette and when you are buying a beer they can give you drugs in beer. This drug removes access to long memory. And yes, I remembered almost all things. Very, very simple. I played piano for 10 years, at 4.5 year in whole voivodeship i become a top winner. That's how rising stars or great masters can be destroyed. Poland really sucks. Is there free place in Guantanamo? It can't be worse.",3.686746666666668,6.802299648000004,3.991199999999999,81.29026666666667,80.52000000000002,6.213333333333335,21.93333333333333,7.554174236665415,1.3733733333333331,556,17,88,9,15,173,91,125,0.1,0.733,0.16699999999999998,0.8542,0,0,4,0,0,0,20.0,0,3,2,4,6,5,2,0,3,1,11,4,0,4,1,13,13,10,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,10,3,2,0,1,3,2,2,2,2,0,0,0,0,8,4,11,10,2,15,0,0,0,0,6,8,1,3,5,57,18,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16978887504564313,0.0,0.0,0.13559629443346946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1872646262333482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1741838302268368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3932692850084637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1626564712454354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18693942834716315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1500544051772407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2351017628221424,0.0,0.1771530967694309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10862385594642372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1920773265860837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11264748476090372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11511945071565145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5596158271665476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18930660085871945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2468819854686519,0.0,0.17279513664172672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2183809112553112 schizophrenia,pm_me_your_b0ob,2019/04/03,Anyone in the US have experience applying for disability? How is the process? Do I need a lawyer? Anything I should know when going through the process? How long does it typically take? Any advice would be greatfully helpful. My mental health might cause me to lose the job I’ve been at for almost 10 years and have been seeing a psychiatrist for 4 or 5 years. I’m in my mid 20’s if that makes a difference,2.031069444444441,4.610525412500003,3.5116666666666667,85.71777777777781,82.375,7.055555555555558,23.88888888888889,8.167268648758528,1.5929722222222218,323,12,65,7,9,106,63,80,0.036000000000000004,0.913,0.05,0.264,1,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,1,0,0,1,3,2,0,0,7,0,10,1,0,4,0,13,17,6,0,4,2,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,2,1,6,1,8,11,0,9,0,1,1,0,2,4,0,4,4,39,8,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20909005357943566,0.0,0.0,0.21426111894099864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14550766524754352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1496135474936197,0.0,0.17607995941627105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21980723033707775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2235542271393079,0.0,0.0,0.18724752562606714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2093047646732119,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1216046902693049,0.0,0.0,0.2359038604919576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2274412420888796,0.0,0.0,0.1434202981674983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2123332710867592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11759290446079446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1893576640204412,0.0,0.23937889608906576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14282735099957922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2156325124227777,0.22698949211856356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1586568374784438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1705072401749432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1608796159068827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25738085211914824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15199890927690235,0.0,0.0,0.2755807080313097 schizophrenia,_metaphysical_,2019/04/04,i’m scared of risperidone weight gain ((ED trigger)) hi so i’m 17f and i got off of seroquel almost two weeks ago. i cannot go any longer without medication and i’m being recommended cymbalta and risperidone together but i’ll have to start w risperidone first. i think i gained a pound or two from seroquel but it went away like a week ago. i have a healthy but lower bmi and struggle w bulimia. i would like to know if anyone else that has struggled w eating has taken risperidone and/or other antipsychotics and how you’ve pushed through thanks :),3.0798701298701303,5.738951809523815,3.4165367965368,87.56922077922079,78.52380952380952,6.103896103896104,26.688311688311693,7.348242739294969,1.4964285714285714,440,18,82,6,11,136,73,105,0.097,0.68,0.223,0.9337,1,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,3,3,6,0,3,3,0,7,3,0,2,0,17,18,12,0,2,6,0,1,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,3,5,2,0,2,0,0,3,2,3,0,3,3,1,6,3,9,13,0,11,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,3,8,43,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32350796727699344,0.0,0.18272337754896226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12408995241276782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12759147744693866,0.18696824868320205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17144222952747928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18671852582024545,0.1524353016716608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15521401119953282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10370532853383246,0.0,0.14594274439327282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10028404959831136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17829713437836464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1838253948373045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18269033134412369,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12915746765728148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38152711622912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16799940474370392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1169232669173004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3565051176214053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2927425163254829,0.2222066356187052,0.0,0.16915710065665182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1759003736541159,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12962573062302538,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,synthoceps_god,2019/04/04,"Do I have schizophrenia? This only usually happens when its night and I'm alone and sometimes with a fan on, but I'll get this paranoid feeling and start hearing voices that are usually either a young kid wimpering or voices kind of making wind like sounds. Also if I close my eyes I will whispering or breathing right near my ears. Are these common symptoms of schizophrenia?",6.289565217391306,8.045835927536235,5.69634782608696,78.80191304347828,66.53623188405797,7.838840579710146,32.64057971014493,8.238735603445708,2.6755484057971017,305,13,49,4,5,93,54,69,0.064,0.8340000000000001,0.103,0.3889,0,1,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,2,0,5,4,3,1,0,12,12,9,0,1,5,0,1,1,0,1,1,6,0,1,5,5,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,8,5,2,5,11,1,11,0,0,1,0,2,4,0,3,8,32,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2617072024617151,0.0,0.2020734531093321,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12776598184390164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13201836522738786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.223450003697659,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2847962620976687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2631343010884284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12344995206462653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1686703263917329,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23712933923277835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1921796127307326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2157930509049168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2499135956249112,0.0,0.1788529383455388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2626382208484106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5565973750757953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,doctafuckinj,2019/04/04,Anyone try getting off geodon cold turkey? The withdrawls are terrible but this medicine has amplified my schziophrenia to a new level and my depression and motivation in life. I am actually going crazy right now ,7.465833333333332,10.316198361111113,7.445555555555559,63.05500000000001,65.3888888888889,11.466666666666667,37.0,11.20814326018867,5.4189000000000025,175,9,24,6,3,56,34,36,0.236,0.693,0.07200000000000001,-0.7964,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,2,0,3,1,0,1,0,4,5,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,1,3,0,3,5,0,7,0,1,0,0,0,4,0,0,2,16,4,1,0.0,0.0,0.4199049584313434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3008716306006857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37061166678259094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22481090082444788,0.0,0.24454604588249196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3039294390918629,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41558071074245706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3674687993752411,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2921414399578447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,idontknow2228,2019/04/04,If I think people can hear my thoughts does that automatically mean I have schizophrenia For the last year or 2. Out of nowhere when I'm daydreaming I'll think that people around me heard what I thought. I looked it up because I know it's not normal. All the websites say that if you think people can hear your thoughts it means you have schizophrenia. I don't think that's the case though because I don't ever hear voices or see stuff that's not there.,3.9617582417582433,5.507269131868135,3.6140659340659376,92.30593406593408,71.96703296703296,6.079120879120879,25.08791208791209,6.18269132825596,0.4888197802197807,365,11,78,2,7,109,55,91,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,3,0,0,5,0,0,0,3,0,6,0,0,0,2,21,23,6,0,3,6,0,0,0,0,0,0,6,0,0,10,2,0,0,10,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,4,8,12,0,5,19,1,7,0,0,2,0,8,3,0,4,4,47,22,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13544386436426828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18549586262614529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13314562913779426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13762646193337874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.514445132578033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0836164920963493,0.12402082355858378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12776589406124728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3314672751696517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14907261167710772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31644053420503865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12099409553170665,0.0,0.0,0.1212421562834332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17417291374647756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.389960854721384,0.1494845129153738,0.3623652486991402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09797824197245222 schizophrenia,charzemon,2019/04/04,"Mixed emotions I haven’t been diagnosed, but I’ve been aware of my symptoms for about 4 years now. I’ve tried to ignore them or classify them as spiritual occurrences, but they’re getting worse and have now cost me my relationship with the person I thought I would end up marrying. I’m terrified of psychiatrists. More specifically of saying the wrong thing or them needing to meet some quota and locking me away. I’ve been trying to get the courage to set up an appointment at the low cost clinic (I don’t have insurance) for the past couple of weeks and finally got the nerve to call and they aren’t even taking appointments. I have to call back May 1st to set up something for July at the earliest. As much as I’m afraid of it, I was starting to look forward to possibly getting help and now I feel more defeated than I did before. Sorry for rambling, but thanks for letting me vent.",5.081165703275527,6.2440919479768775,5.7885693641618525,79.23907755298653,68.82658959537572,9.466088631984585,31.179672447013488,9.725611199111238,2.947489788053949,709,29,135,16,12,231,104,173,0.14,0.7959999999999999,0.064,-0.933,1,0,1,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,4,1,6,7,0,1,8,0,14,3,0,0,0,18,27,13,0,2,5,0,1,0,0,2,3,1,0,1,2,6,0,1,2,0,2,1,3,5,0,0,7,3,17,2,31,17,4,20,0,2,1,0,11,8,0,4,11,91,19,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.158283189662248,0.1295430955977756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14335563311965946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3440535838019701,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18640894365056207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1709935890446684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1895061691043315,0.14921448989928898,0.0,0.0,0.11127290163668536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0851835364559851,0.0,0.0,0.18455074232555674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2640559967115421,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13474091625089835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11292194614263187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17227207513987372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14147244032820835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1238448961940261,0.12491843264736142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16082375801432955,0.0,0.1471015791995345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18992470667257813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18087382210219569,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13397417273164747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12969650140631506,0.0,0.18858846624650852,0.1192439926022801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17510492337239847,0.126668536845932,0.0,0.0,0.15510461872481826,0.0,0.0,0.11192403795579776,0.0,0.0,0.13374642844573914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22876025680816614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13513653946714227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17168540845022173,0.11967631406720113,0.18419559003324484,0.0,0.10848921062036976 schizophrenia,MeepMeep27,2019/04/04,My “split” mind My mind feels split in half. I feel an evil presence on the left side of my head and a loving one on my right. The evil presence feels like a hard pressure that turns into stabbing and burning sensations. The loving one feels tingly and rushes in like water pushing the pressure away and cooling the flames and stabs. It feels like a 24/7 battle for my mind. Can anyone relate? :),3.4579428571428568,5.819498680000002,3.2205714285714286,91.056,75.53333333333333,4.819047619047621,22.714285714285715,5.288315135182226,0.202028571428571,311,9,58,1,7,93,46,75,0.206,0.606,0.188,-0.2023,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,0,1,11,3,2,9,1,1,4,1,0,0,14,9,5,0,0,0,0,6,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,6,1,0,5,0,0,2,0,5,0,3,0,7,6,6,8,9,0,11,0,0,0,2,2,9,0,0,3,34,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12523694220859194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16827848553109012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4528136101371004,0.2559105304040028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16044618223250742,0.0,0.18381716190334868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1946020872770045,0.0,0.0,0.2625103380049844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3233051238863103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5425460768737461,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2427373319108665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15295782024692112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19481879386028134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,ti850,2019/04/04,Its a Super Power!! We are better!! Learn to control it!! Wath if we are the real superheros on the world . Wath is if we are the only people who are thinking true? The most people dont think like use. Thats true. But that not means we are not normal. Wath if we are more normal than the most other people and we life in a world full of (normal psychopaths). Think about it. Wath did you think can you do if you have full control over all parts of your brain. You see open doors. Learn to control them. Dont eat that pharmaceutical food called medizin. ,0.7391168831168822,3.20460150909091,1.8488311688311685,95.8018181818182,88.45454545454545,3.8701298701298703,15.129870129870133,5.288315135182226,-0.9416493506493508,426,8,90,2,14,134,64,110,0.018000000000000002,0.8640000000000001,0.117,0.9092,1,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,6,5,1,6,1,5,0,0,7,0,13,4,1,4,3,35,20,6,0,7,7,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,8,8,2,3,7,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,1,1,12,5,9,19,7,8,0,0,1,0,14,8,0,6,1,64,20,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12728080323847513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1606563327320325,0.14695293720427496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.484237515386394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3373337705519057,0.0,0.0,0.14726060419037704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17402215292619974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10165116570066736,0.07030942328467099,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1567652320680914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4230173712188751,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10945356812366866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1558455298317545,0.0,0.29931687075301106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16380636628897924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11468133471987706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3688587590227741,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1242960411327462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Hafidh24,2019/04/04,A job with schizophrenia? did anyone held a job despite his suffering from Schizophrenia?? I am desperate :( ,5.230392156862745,8.723039882352943,3.972941176470588,76.671568627451,91.35294117647058,6.972549019607843,35.07843137254902,7.793537801064563,4.047760784313727,86,5,11,2,3,25,14,17,0.28300000000000003,0.591,0.126,-0.4915,2,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,2,0,2,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,8,2,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3322892698560023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.9431775236606122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Wishing-I-was-Asleep,2019/04/04,Which voices in my head should I listen to? Which voices should I ignore? When my brain gives me two answers to every question which one do I choose? It's so fucking difficult that I've taken to not thinking at all.,2.675465116279071,4.8295541627907,3.695523255813953,87.71444767441862,77.13953488372094,5.230232558139536,22.377906976744185,5.985473137389443,0.4470511627906975,171,5,32,1,4,55,33,43,0.145,0.855,0.0,-0.7279,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,2,3,1,0,0,0,3,3,2,0,1,9,8,2,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,3,0,0,5,0,0,1,4,0,0,0,1,3,0,2,1,3,6,0,5,5,1,3,0,0,0,1,3,2,1,1,1,25,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3981019960285052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30046481359530725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32968624248346035,0.0,0.3420990780282965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3659914513563729,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24165259512369075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3994921375372113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22850547769021326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34836253873535605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,antlionpetshop,2019/04/04,"Would anyone like to chat and maybe become friends? 😅 Disclaimer: I believe that my “schizophrenia” is caused by discarnate entities who insert thoughts into my mind—and do other stuff too. I know it sounds crazy, but I have experienced enough, researched enough, and spoken to enough other people in similar situations to realize that I’m not alone in this. If you also believe something similar about your situation, and would like a friend to talk to, then feel free to PM me. Thank you. 🙂 ",6.937765151515151,8.440761488636365,6.489090909090908,74.66196969696973,64.79545454545455,9.503030303030306,32.84848484848485,9.725611199111238,3.2791984848484863,393,16,65,8,6,122,66,88,0.018000000000000002,0.759,0.223,0.961,0,1,1,0,0,0,11.0,0,3,0,0,3,6,0,0,1,0,5,0,0,1,0,14,10,7,0,3,3,0,1,2,2,2,0,1,0,0,8,4,0,0,4,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,3,9,7,11,7,3,4,0,0,0,0,8,3,0,1,3,46,17,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17102919214936854,0.0,0.13205773136938484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1154656470992318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18237771031601047,0.0,0.3720993084563862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1696382748296435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5118832039793126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0834967950953893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2551644911012033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09075341795784107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16135242266081715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16589946337861494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16673843128234953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11448323705655752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37123543859715097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1271283472494418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18903910989180567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13272858593256354,0.0,0.15203335182857036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13109808063022016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2346131444919239,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,angsty_eggplant,2019/04/04,"Injection?? hi guys, I'm not sure what do to and I'm just really scared, my doctor wants to hospitalize me and give me an anti-psychotic injection and I'm really scared it's going to change who I am as a person. Will it make me a zombie?? my doctor didn't even tell me the name of the drug which is also worrying. it also makes me really sad because I've grown kind of attached to one of my ""hallucinations"" and I don't want him to go. Has anyone here gotten an injection?? im not sure what to do. 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I have read the FAQ, and I know that simply asking, “am i going crazy!!1?” is frowned upon. But I have a bit of a niche thing. My whole life, I’ve been an intense hypochondriac about mental issues. I am not proud of it. I have self-diagnosed myself (short term, before becoming ashamed and dismissing it) with almost every issue in the book. I am highly aware that it isn’t healthy for me, and that it’s probably not nearly as bad as I think. But is it? I’ve never visited doctors about it until recent. I’m almost 19. I’m on HRT with planned parenthood, and during those visits with the psychologists there, they *heavily suggested* that I have autism. But, this isn’t an official diagnosis. I feel like it’s true. I have extreme sensory problems. I have intense meltdowns. But the funny thing is, that I feel like I have never struggled socially until the last year. I have lots of memories as a child of doing weird things, but I was never checked for autism. I almost think these symptoms came up recently. I don’t think autism can just manifest. I have confirmed from outside opinions that I have delusions. I feel like everyone in the entire world hates me. Every other peer at my school, I truly believed in my heart that they are PRETENDING to like me. This wasn’t always true. I feel like I was a happy, normalish person with some identity problems (FtM) from middle school to junior year. Senior year got hard. I started having more freak outs. But they were quiet. I shut down. To be fair, the recent meltdowns happen in private. Maybe I didn’t lash at school because I’d be labeled a “tard.” I don’t know. (Thinking about it mid-writing, I can barely remember my life at all. It feels like my memory consists of 3 years total.) This past year, I have had extreme outbursts of screaming, kicking, clawing, bashing my head... But these NEVER happened at school. Or before at all! Unless I don’t remember them. I don’t know. They are almost always triggered by something menial, something any other human being would never react violently to. Such as misplacing an item, and failing to find it at all for an extended time. Or being forced to return to a place/situation where I previously had a meltdown. I go into this intense, cyclical, infinite mindset of “I want the world to die. I want everything to suffer. I am in agony. I am dying. Kill me. Kill me. Kill me.” It hurts. It physically hurts. I literally feel like I am physically dying in those moments. I feel the intense drive to tear my body apart. I wish I could put into words how truly intense this experience is. I need SOMEBODY to tell me, does this sound serious? Am I just crazy? Does “just crazy” exist!? Am I just autistic? I’m sorry if this is the wrong place to post this. But I really do feel like it set in, and is getting worse. I don’t have money to visit 20 psychiatrists. I am desperate for answers. Help. Any insight is appreciated.",2.019015895278166,4.765961464157709,3.6355976312918834,83.4009326788219,84.89605734767025,6.102166121240455,24.215988779803638,7.47871067723058,1.5652036465638155,2299,90,408,40,69,760,267,558,0.16699999999999998,0.701,0.131,-0.9879,1,0,3,0,0,3,105.0,0,0,5,3,11,31,5,2,21,0,56,7,3,3,11,83,88,26,6,9,19,0,9,8,0,1,4,3,0,3,37,14,0,0,20,3,2,8,16,19,0,1,10,12,69,12,62,72,11,64,0,4,0,0,16,30,0,11,32,288,106,11,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.252687364325598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10498575127424374,0.0,0.0,0.08580172782234471,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05897719728197545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0526744457526994,0.03845683780539443,0.06967388885402895,0.10736363106642252,0.0710766842481171,0.0,0.0,0.06887392702510249,0.07007468460958667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07215394871985246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05036929664885813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06403129130472099,0.19642093402918304,0.0,0.0,0.06457152621523092,0.1104145352194534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05270052897209068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10630589838811254,0.06028168646492424,0.05669792053698215,0.061710530575343765,0.0,0.0,0.2551867291705143,0.3154821792736459,0.0,0.0,0.05765975759234244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03296000070462367,0.0,0.07170682395774045,0.0,0.05045589666447964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1115740566342828,0.06715656540442902,0.05651295524141426,0.062284684538460575,0.06474476923479615,0.0,0.0,0.07475759815745868,0.04228543343964816,0.0666541654033872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1350704300955248,0.0,0.0,0.13169146465449094,0.0,0.0,0.2093870127810787,0.0,0.10401178211353104,0.051423774401873415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08911947320958634,0.24656633189041996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05363373701273184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06337869223358672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06357617692879547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.046777710175338105,0.24328031261166244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06022303500188785,0.0,0.055084545109169804,0.13182356350718333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060419260100119325,0.0,0.06801772776446519,0.12073018490453563,0.0,0.06341918057717992,0.0,0.0,0.06310339645081336,0.0,0.040414714825406886,0.0,0.18687040364897345,0.0,0.14292901519224138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25538691322538964,0.0,0.0,0.06581279496060424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06430856307303086,0.0,0.14570080391578027,0.0,0.07061997520729417,0.044652825110653833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06595152376770272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06557084636909953,0.0,0.0,0.05514022816395886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12573525215280798,0.16169267743397636,0.0,0.0,0.03678614308178908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07441989727752199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0704336282450316,0.07254615964976148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06429035417447379,0.0448147148154802,0.06897499226934561,0.0,0.2031276227215001 schizophrenia,depressive-realism,2019/04/04,"I have no goals in life When I was younger, I used to take part in modelling contests etc., got featured in the school's newspaper, used to dance on stage for major performances. I also play the piano and the harp nowadays. I have this delusion, or whatever you call it. I always had the idea of live streaming to hundreds of people, becoming a famous singer like Britney spears and shaking my ass on stage like Rita Ora. I started having this belief since I was 15, and was subtly trying to become famous till I was 21. Now I am turning 24 soon, time is running out, and I don't seem to have any concrete/realistic goals in mind. I have a college degree in media/communications and I am making some progress on the piano and harp, so I could do something front-desk and whatnot. But secretly I am harbouring the thought of becoming famous and performing to large crowds. I have mood swings, and I think my pdoc might be giving up on me, since my problem is bigger than it seems. My personality and unshakeable delusion of wanting to chase fame. I think I lean towards the histrionic side, personality wise. Jobless and sad. I think my paranoia, anger etc can be managed by cbt etc., but the core part of me and my delusion is impossible to change. I really have no clue what else I want to do besides become famous and dance provocatively on stage.",6.716067708333334,6.949633367187502,7.014437500000002,75.17014583333334,64.9375,9.639166666666668,34.25416666666666,9.3871,3.1158122916666664,1066,44,192,18,15,346,148,256,0.065,0.8759999999999999,0.059,-0.3612,1,0,1,0,0,0,33.0,0,1,0,5,5,9,1,1,10,0,26,2,1,4,0,37,42,20,0,4,3,0,0,2,0,1,1,0,0,2,5,14,0,0,9,3,0,4,3,4,0,0,7,0,31,4,31,31,7,28,1,1,0,1,7,15,1,5,8,132,36,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09383783391278752,0.09763740187946066,0.0,0.0,0.07979614071112165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5183772010184876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11981863625488808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.124131587688495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09368751853656264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0980236396664342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3925998637166068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1125645136346867,0.0,0.0,0.0938485956432248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13246409949368215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08288166456341711,0.11465411136527975,0.0,0.10361456042105097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07832626122046578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12448062734169064,0.11848131161504392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2541384909497146,0.0,0.0813497163196161,0.20491587869375025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11227982311345946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07517187247523413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11875570912573792,0.0,0.21364631308185197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1941319519195908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0903351027698021,0.0,0.0,0.08305481034266354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08822609067788298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22556279403594054,0.0,0.09315592346542316,0.06842268388001978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07966707306803962,0.12763369163131055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20269049974421166,0.0,0.0,0.13842193497921293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,x_casio,2019/04/04,Suicidal I feel very paranoid lately. I feel like people mean me harm and their thoughts stick to the back of my head and make sick and miserable. This makes me feel isolated because I have noone to keep me safe and the feeling of isolation and hostility makes me feel like I don't deserve to be loved and kept safe. I want to harm myself to purge this feeling. I'm starting to get suicidal impulses. I don't know how to cure myself and noone cares for me enough to help. I feel like just giving up. ,4.3644571428571455,5.412296360000003,4.8494285714285725,85.73900000000002,70.4,8.514285714285714,28.285714285714285,8.841846274778883,2.002471428571429,396,14,82,7,7,126,58,100,0.254,0.52,0.226,-0.8268,0,1,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,1,0,3,11,1,1,2,0,4,3,1,4,0,27,26,8,2,1,1,0,7,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,7,0,4,10,0,0,0,2,4,0,0,2,7,16,7,12,23,1,6,0,1,0,1,4,1,0,0,8,47,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12032753078280263,0.0,0.0953919819519849,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15954718504890164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1616911384570217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5538656607253468,0.3353793729969625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08175710671437049,0.15011495179877066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1605990562610626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10488879309106793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13909131816712672,0.0,0.0,0.08600022439334977,0.0,0.1765222261223402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2293524288256624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14123408620520506,0.0,0.3133654439048259,0.0,0.0,0.17045835892514588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10848719858369092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11076109555900963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34233902312420794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12423184278275752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12911675489716018,0.09229907999573153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Iwishistartedsooner,2019/04/04,"Terrified that im going backwards. When I was a teenager from 12 and onward, I was diagnosed with borderline personality disorder with psychotic tendencies. I heard things, saw things and so forth. I'm almost 30 and have been off meds for years with no issues. Two days ago I overheard my fiance saying some things that broke my heart. I confronted her about it and she says that the conversation I heard never happened. Yesterday at work I had a feeling like everyone was saying things to me and would hear them being very negative to me and when I asked them to repeat what they had said thinking I misheard they told me they hadn't said a thing. Today was worse. My self confidence from the things I thought were said to me is at an all-time low. I'm terrified that these things I dealt with for so long are coming back. I can't sleep, I can't eat. I really don't know if this is something I can deal with again. I'm getting married in two days and maybe I'm just under an immense amount of stress but honestly it's not a very large or traditional thing we're doing so I haven't felt any actual stress about it. I'm afraid to tell my fiance about this as she has an anxiety disorder and I don't want to scare her. TLDR; started hearing negative voices and not sure what to do.",3.13618963068182,5.061102285156252,4.2513068181818205,85.30846590909094,74.9765625,7.935795454545455,24.52698863636364,8.710501217029153,1.7112640625000002,1019,33,205,21,22,332,146,256,0.153,0.7959999999999999,0.05,-0.9671,0,0,1,0,0,0,20.0,0,0,5,1,11,10,1,4,9,0,24,4,2,0,2,32,50,18,0,3,6,0,2,1,0,1,1,11,0,2,20,15,1,0,5,0,0,2,12,7,0,2,18,14,34,3,26,30,2,23,0,2,1,0,26,7,0,4,15,142,54,1,0.0,0.0,0.09782731357545438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08886355496333173,0.0,0.10038361058356884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06817188707558246,0.0,0.07668923122406811,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0937180855254089,0.0,0.0,0.07708430857072215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08635453403096231,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1293029719127239,0.10335099720691572,0.0,0.10174932535548276,0.0,0.0,0.22978514379343176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10257844418213588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09579099224951204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050688259216118865,0.07161699102487816,0.0962535319085448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05237529600101054,0.0,0.056973089347539974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08864872750798079,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2259729318970891,0.1187940305860562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1082847399326934,0.10463257425109837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05509352507411202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.048975972165378925,0.0,0.0,0.08871607737321957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1007123087053027,0.0,0.11135261741938322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07731722155252717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08753244215704963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06422125626593743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2860756139573658,0.2391630311989597,0.10036545583291637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10458023492189786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10032011746135397,0.0,0.0,0.07717559232943913,0.0,0.0,0.07095585201622202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22966684856002234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09448228948798834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08762092566477019,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5328010443754798,0.06423469099480655,0.0,0.07958549170813856,0.0,0.0,0.0950231166714803,0.09579099224951204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19585491127848192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1654297351801966,0.059128702441566226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07298153392771241,0.0,0.10216099083473353,0.07121310386781582,0.0,0.0,0.06455624477294218 schizophrenia,tacoriemyers,2019/04/05,Invega sustenna No semen coming out when I ejaculate on invega sustenna is this permenant,5.870000000000001,9.653480333333334,8.575000000000003,46.9425,79.0,13.66666666666667,34.16666666666667,11.20814326018867,7.471666666666668,75,4,7,4,2,27,13,15,0.145,0.855,0.0,-0.29600000000000004,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,2,0,4,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,7,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,harshmall0w,2019/04/05,"Symptom progression during the week? Hello friends, I’ve lurked this subreddit for some time now, just want to say thank you for being open, transparent, and encouraging. It’s helped me feel not so alone. I debated on asking this question, but really needed to get some feedback: do any of you feel that your symptoms become more intense as you go through the week? A little background: most of my bloodline has had history of multiple mental/behavioral health diagnoses. So combine that with life’s crazy and occasionally traumatic circumstances, I’ve been living with (what I believe to be) schizophrenia for years. I never quite acknowledged it growing up, but this year has certainly gotten much more severe. So I’ve finally made the decision to get help and see a doctor :). Anywho, I don’t know if this relates to anyone, but it seems like I get more instead symptoms as my week progresses. I’m assuming it’s stress induced, but it makes no sense to me that I’d experience waves likes this weekly. I’ll do my best to explain: Mondays - I’m a little on edge, but not too unrelaxed, cautious at work because I’m fearful of how my movements will be perceived, not a whole ton of voices, no visuals. Tuesday - feeling okay, still cautious but glad I made it through Monday without freaking out. Voices are rather persistent, but I’m a little more focused on meeting work deadlines. Wednesday - the workload is really piling up and I just can’t seem to focus or organize my thoughts. Nervous my boss will notice that I’ve been on the same file for 2 hours, but damnit if only he knew I was doing my absolute most darnedest best. F*ck. Voices are incredibly antagonizing and I’m starting to see shadows in my peripherals. Thursday - omg, the voices are a little louder, inaudible but damn it’s loud. I start to get a headache and earache almost. The shadows have now moved closer and they follow so closely behind me. They’re also 109% behind the bathroom stall, which is annoying. Thankfully they don’t stick around while I pee. I have to finish my work, I need some sort of progression. Just have to do my best and ignore the psychosis. I still have today and tomorrow to get through. Friday - I’m really on edge. I can’t wait for the day to be over so that I can go home and not focus so much of my energy on looking and acting normal. I. Am. Binge. Eating. I’m talking everything under the sun. I don’t know why but I have to do it. Work is almost impossible to do, my brain is out of wack and my hallucinations are so distracting. But I continue acting and find myself counting down til clock out time. I pretty much I feel like a corvette being continually revved up behind the starting line just waiting to go. For the past 2 almost 3 weeks, I become completely unhinged Friday night when I get home, and my hallucinations are absolutely haunting. I lock myself in the a room and I just let loose. I’m screaming, I’m crying, I can’t control my facial movements, I’m pacing or in a fetal position, and my voices are so loud it’s deafening. The shadows are behind my back and every time I turn to catch them they disappear to another part of the room. After praying for my life I make it out of the room and my husband is there to keep me grounded. Saturday comes along and I have to put my entire life on pause so that I can decompress and prevent another episode. By the end of the night I’m feeling more lucid. Sunday is my favorite day because I get to go to church. My voices at this point sound suppressed behind a closed door and just sound like white noise at this point. I like to think that’s God holding them back for me. My visuals “feel” residual, no shadows, just spiders at a distance. I can function enough to finish off my chores and get my meals prepped for the week. Monday comes around and I start the process again... with caution. Sorry if that was long and dragged out. :/ TLDR; symptoms are manageable at the beginning of the week, full blown episode at the end of the week. I’d really like to get your thoughts. And also, thank you for never giving up on yourselves and others. 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Its been a year and a half since my last psychotic break and everything has good got a job and go to school time. However, lately I’ve been having dreams of relapsing and becoming full blown psychotic is this a sign. Does anyone else have dreams similar to being psychotic? Currently Im not delusional or hearing voices, but the dreams scare me a lot",6.024857142857139,7.6211717714285765,6.55857142857143,72.97642857142857,67.0,11.885714285714286,31.142857142857146,11.602472056035307,4.300799999999999,304,12,52,11,5,99,52,70,0.059,0.784,0.157,0.6261,3,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,6,0,8,0,0,0,0,9,11,6,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,2,4,0,0,0,4,0,1,1,1,0,1,3,2,2,1,4,6,2,8,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,2,5,32,4,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1734924891136468,0.2542300434036264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2740309669280222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2171330059707536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20727387475236586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22299582014301397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14101330231218184,0.20811274272146232,0.19844562113010572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2796512329320457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26801405615867663,0.0,0.24622254026865825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20225233375385196,0.2798921291546912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21094422968630197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2484131460509973,0.2511124465814483,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20524886662310016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14468178142567278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15978226500542 schizophrenia,amandapandananer,2019/04/05,"Support would be nice. I was very spiritual and somewhat of a psychic before my diagnosis at 18, now am on disability at 25 wondering what to do. But I had a hallucination of my cousin's baby before I found out she was pregnant. It leaves me wondering if there is something more to schizophrenia. What do you think?",4.273500000000002,6.330966016666667,6.003333333333334,73.39500000000002,72.16666666666666,8.8,32.0,9.3871,3.2079000000000004,251,12,45,6,5,86,48,60,0.0,0.904,0.096,0.6705,0,0,1,0,0,0,6.0,0,1,0,0,2,2,0,0,2,0,9,0,0,0,0,10,14,3,0,2,2,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,8,2,8,8,2,5,0,0,0,0,3,4,0,4,1,37,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4649059172358724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2995237743423422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2892543175158154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21030450508441714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3099972915708943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17504037858560395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22539910309212055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5924962104483454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19405664553264906,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,UncookedCupNoodles,2019/04/05,"Do I have schizophrenia? Hi all - I am 15 years old and recently have been thinking I might be developing schizophrenia. I have repeated intrusive thoughts in my head, such as ""they're plotting against you"" or ""you have special powers"", but I know those things aren't true and it is my own voice ",5.3982727272727296,6.956580781818182,4.790681818181817,85.20602272727272,68.45454545454545,8.40909090909091,33.75,8.841846274778883,2.7498181818181817,233,11,45,4,4,70,44,55,0.059,0.905,0.036000000000000004,-0.2842,1,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,2,0,1,1,2,0,0,0,0,11,1,1,0,2,10,14,5,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,3,2,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,1,9,2,3,10,2,5,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,2,4,33,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4039881653012313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21633422808965205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41758979240370253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4130589218885855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3886719725855292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2615168990032801,0.2522285926385293,0.0,0.31250615916580204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25349122900620963 schizophrenia,A2Spark,2019/04/05,"How can i know i have this illness? I tried looking the symptoms and i guess i kinda fit the profile. Some symtoms i found were depression , being unable to talk properly , not being able to form thoughts properly , trouble sleeping and withdrawal from my friends The only hallucinations i recall were in 2 different ocassions when i saw a third arm. Besides that i had some nightmares and i am constantly daydreaming. Should i be worried or am i just another angsty teenager?",5.989285714285713,8.472911738095242,6.228095238095237,71.78357142857145,68.52380952380952,9.085714285714287,39.38095238095238,9.606745405546679,4.536995238095237,382,23,57,9,7,122,63,84,0.14800000000000002,0.773,0.079,-0.7703,1,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,0,4,0,11,4,2,1,0,15,17,6,0,1,3,0,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,6,2,13,1,4,7,3,4,0,1,2,0,2,2,0,5,2,46,15,0,0.2621668213375065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27490477091862464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2833091973962683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22580389906118786,0.0,0.0,0.273908528934162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28745238777921395,0.2025494358324388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28880631065204776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14408002875239834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2201541015223252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19938968131659404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2623561550805129,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2724917092527133,0.0,0.21071976028839648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20813117182386387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1779940626060451,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2662431329485848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Drpsychos,2019/04/05,"I'm a doctor I've been a member of this community for three years now. I had a psychotic break down in 2016. It lasted a year and I was hospitalised for a month in December 2016. Recovery has been slow but steady. Today, I recieved an email confirming i passed all my exams and am now a doctor. You're all my brothers and sisters and I'll be a voice for us. With love.",-0.3133766233766231,1.964611688311692,2.3114285714285714,90.95857142857143,94.45454545454544,5.916883116883117,18.688311688311693,7.348242739294969,0.6861792207792208,288,9,62,6,11,99,53,77,0.0,0.913,0.087,0.7783,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,1,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,8,0,7,3,0,0,2,8,9,5,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,2,5,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,4,1,7,1,8,4,2,13,0,0,0,1,5,3,0,0,8,42,9,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6375122221662624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2538524843120562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2810727164154641,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2485760172820129,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2951939557343522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37460525729784055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4010942585216097 schizophrenia,tangisanbdarahiblis,2019/04/05,"stigma in my family i've had psychotic episode few times, and thank god, i was never alone at the time. i've had the worst so far with the voices,crying and trying to stab my own eyes with a knife. it took me hours to get out of there and my mom holding my hand tight so i would calm down eventually. my dad came home to me being hysterical. but he didnt bring me to the hospital, instead he read Holy Quran to me so the 'demons' would get out of my body. it is hard because here,people dont talk about mental illness due to stigma. my parents dont want to acknowledge the fact that my brain did something to me that i hallucinated and delusional. they dont care if i take my medicine or not, bc they believe it is bc of demons. my journey just started and i dont know whats gonna come on my way soon that i worried im going crazy",1.7666101694915284,3.2844725536723196,3.478666666666669,91.13935593220344,77.70056497175142,6.527909604519775,22.53446327683616,7.3011,0.612084293785311,650,19,149,8,15,217,111,177,0.125,0.826,0.049,-0.9226,1,1,1,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,2,0,8,4,0,0,7,0,14,5,4,0,2,25,28,11,0,4,5,3,3,0,0,3,1,0,1,0,7,11,0,2,2,1,0,6,7,1,0,0,7,4,24,3,20,17,3,21,3,0,1,0,8,7,0,2,7,92,31,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1410061801408609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08299332830120258,0.0,0.0,0.1533899022123302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15122749652055034,0.0,0.1519839445369366,0.0,0.15571473620992465,0.13880990453643355,0.0,0.0,0.11727771019083273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14954997071037826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6382483180356349,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12834631721252288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14226131504254833,0.0,0.0773749003009096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12196006003811252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13656552280812267,0.0,0.1340763699075824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1470610256939463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07482227238602683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13720313018681762,0.0,0.0,0.15945253121813188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10500417614142316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15117400365261138,0.0,0.0,0.09438648305961392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1361828272273771,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10481183012084344,0.0,0.0,0.09636482834958526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10236483653448177,0.10942898497411796,0.0,0.12534493045278308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1587756364769898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15126319789608692,0.0924341864082487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08030242889638707,0.10806634517649708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13826285562881366,0.0,0.19342840189965887,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,deenermeow,2019/04/05,"Please help me fix my life I'm a 19 year old female I was diagnosed with schizophrenia around this time last year been hospitalized twice. I'm taking 100 mg of zoloft and 2.5 mg of resperidone. I went to cosmetology school and with some difficulty (as my diagnosis and first psychotic break happened at the end of my schooling) graduated and am now licensed. I did hair for a while at a cost cutters but stopped taking my meds and spiralled almost killed myself ended up in the hospital again and quit my job. Since then I've been working part time at a sub shop I've worked at since high school, about 20 hours a week, and am about to start working at a bowling alley in the kitchen where my boyfriend works. I dont know what to do next I want to move out of my parents house in August so I have to have a steady income. My therapist has talked to me about going on disability but I dont know if thats the right choice because everyone around me thinks if I push through I'll be fine but I've never felt this low and i dont know if i can handle working full time again. Everything is so hard. I also want to go back to school in the fall I want to do something with music and writing. Like song writing or doing jingles for commercials. I'm also in the process of writing a poem book and would like to release my own music but I don't know how. I jsut need a job that I can actually do and not hate my life at. Please help what should I do? Any thoughts or comments welcome ",3.97663513087354,4.8824181456953655,4.788107852412492,86.3482671081678,71.18543046357615,7.73913591926837,27.957111321349732,7.957251820313856,1.5552899400819924,1168,41,249,15,21,378,166,302,0.052000000000000005,0.843,0.106,0.9157,4,0,1,0,0,0,18.0,0,0,0,7,16,7,2,0,15,0,24,6,1,1,1,48,46,28,1,9,10,1,3,2,0,2,4,1,1,0,6,17,1,1,7,3,2,6,6,3,0,2,7,4,30,4,41,36,4,51,0,1,0,0,9,21,0,7,25,156,36,13,0.0,0.0,0.0906730164851121,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09304236664189452,0.0,0.0,0.1486104450432294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06318634760278685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16543061535689535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07144698680073197,0.0,0.05664098341485459,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09430820410079804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3266920347971941,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16459272709390954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0887856152020978,0.08350728141099201,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08921432845809606,0.0,0.0,0.07903465408588094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10561307840949292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08216567783511293,0.0,0.08323485609376755,0.09173572205272512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1245598271113744,0.0981712926124844,0.0,0.0,0.09150395097661414,0.10721306629337636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18441040685657265,0.0,0.10279824512383083,0.0,0.20425772413406248,0.0757392786106081,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13125922182027894,0.09078853275676632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10320918919173357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09875544312736784,0.0,0.06889634347040732,0.07166286641417463,0.0,0.09881766015749012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09750014602782553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10317268157470262,0.10061942147383987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20398864008684445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09882804335120043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07935010967240935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3761454852208652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15372283528355046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07153159480494323,0.0,0.0,0.06576671590413947,0.0,0.0,0.07768228243281565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13972315912843966,0.07468269377664634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10788311791824076,0.0,0.05953708614308255,0.0,0.07376525366877103,0.16254092424883235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16441352466738798,0.0,0.07453194249413397,0.0,0.0,0.08613444645395041,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3382212792663564,0.0,0.0,0.06600515443963495,0.0,0.0,0.11967024816641003 schizophrenia,curvykitten1991,2019/04/06,Invega Just wondering what others know about this injection. My doctor just put me on it. I’m curious about the experiences of others. ,3.96125,7.20510929166667,6.213333333333335,64.76500000000001,81.08333333333334,11.533333333333333,24.66666666666667,10.504223727775694,4.475516666666668,109,4,16,5,3,38,21,24,0.0,0.905,0.095,0.3182,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,4,3,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,5,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,4,3,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,14,7,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4828697441131285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4614750472008037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25926878072389165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4742524343484366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5116071919819601,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,mlmkvr,2019/04/06,"Music inspired by Hallucinations / Delusions. Rokey Erickson? particularly The Evil One album He was originally with the 13th Floor Elevators (early psychedelic rock), I think up until he was commited. He went solo after he got out and recorded more music. I think a lot of it is inspired by his hallucinations and delusions.",5.922222222222223,9.439886407407407,7.805185185185183,55.13333333333336,73.81481481481481,9.525925925925927,33.074074074074076,9.725611199111238,4.5599851851851865,262,13,34,8,6,91,41,54,0.079,0.812,0.108,0.1832,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,3,0,3,0,0,1,1,11,7,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,0,4,1,0,1,0,1,0,1,4,0,3,2,8,3,2,8,0,0,0,0,5,3,0,1,4,23,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38465462179184107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4088811455101746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32589990639361666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6163386224058671,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4458396396956342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,humantrazadone,2019/04/06,"Is seeking treatment even advisable at this point? Hi there, I’m a young adult who hallucinates. I first broke down when I went to college, moved across the country on a whim, and continued to experience visual and auditory hallucinations as well as depression and occasional anxiety. However, after years of meditating and trying really hard, i’m mostly in control. I have a full time job, am in school and have rewarding relationships. The hallucinations are now mooooostly benign (nature noises, neutral sounds, occasional transient visuals like a garbage bag turning into a cat and back), although if im not taking good care of myself I have episodes of super heightened emotions and more negative hallucinations/voices. Here’s the thing - I’m coping well, I think. I’m content MOST of the time. My SO thinks I should see a doctor and get a diagnosis, but I’m very wary. I don’t want to go on medication, because the side effects seem like they will cause a net loss of quality of life considering I’m doing okay as is. I also worry that a diagnosis will stigmatize me in the health care system, or in other ways. I understand that if I break down like I did before, or if things get considerably worse, i should definitely see a doctor. However, as is, is it worth it? Just asking opinions, I won’t take any answers as “medical advice”.",5.926535147392286,7.6807865265306114,7.249761904761902,67.32829365079368,67.40816326530613,10.342403628117914,33.202947845804985,10.504223727775694,3.9755124716553283,1069,48,175,30,18,364,158,245,0.114,0.77,0.117,-0.2524,3,0,0,0,0,0,36.0,0,0,1,6,11,15,0,0,16,1,17,6,0,3,0,32,40,23,0,6,8,0,1,3,0,5,6,1,0,1,9,9,0,1,7,0,1,3,4,3,2,1,2,4,17,12,26,33,4,30,0,3,2,0,7,14,0,9,13,118,26,6,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12735963547511367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10422703720228894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08863072579261436,0.0,0.0997041818180989,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12184350905237618,0.0,0.0,0.1002178245157016,0.0,0.07944962258658199,0.0,0.1109035538870512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2657658091906966,0.1338876156530761,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1461792392651396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11225538948819924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26680214393082835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14660677909774206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08608353905794529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12749041896369992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11086095367365227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13618694442258594,0.0,0.07407109405555194,0.1093169104440485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11675252624522732,0.0,0.0,0.1385375975019393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1407817137562655,0.0,0.1293351239903639,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09205786169219872,0.1910219657527058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2625930278278974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13852306601693526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12320655724035864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08349448428577015,0.0,0.0,0.1399285765040289,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13190368103057598,0.20771662336676736,0.11865002256131353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1959879859085948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17317454925996795,0.16702390173304066,0.0,0.0,0.1519961261013603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08848736849762795,0.14176458440297887,0.0,0.13568096850275815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10753815191036753,0.07687362103914253,0.10345205469316718,0.0,0.0,0.23436955344883245,0.12081974658433965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13235921395495046,0.13282018664579695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08393000508153597 schizophrenia,saibonsai,2019/04/06,Help! Schizophrenic dad don't want to take meds anymore Hello. It's my first time posting here so please bear with me. My dad was diagnosed with schizophrenia years ago after long term use of meth. Now he decided to stop his medications and don't want to see his doctor anymore. His symptoms came back and a lot worse than before. He is saying that he is not sick. How will I convince him to see his doctor again? I'm scared of the things he might to do to my mom because of his delusion that she is having an affair. 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So I was doing relatively OK in January but since then I feel like I'm slowly getting worse. It finally got really bad this weekend. Hallucinations are back. I started having some delusions (which I know don't make sense but they still feel real) and I have a feeling like I'm not really a person but rather a voice in my head and someone else is the real person. I have a test for an exam tomorrow and I don't know if im gonna do OK. Part from that it's the second time I've gotten worse while at university and last time I had to drop my classes to only take 1. This can't keep happening. I haven't called my Dr because it just feels like it won't do anything. He's not a bad doctor but what can he do. It's not like he can give me something to get better at once. Medicine too like why am I taking medicine if its just gonna keep getting worse. It just feels so hopeless. If I'm just gonna be feeling like this the rest of my life what's the point of going through with it. It doesn't seem like I'll get better permanently. It doesn't seem like I'll ever graduate. I just don't know what to do. 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It's gotten rid of all of my most troublesome schizophrenic symptoms and I actually feel like a normal, functioning human being. I still have my minor auditory and visual hallucinations, but I consider those to be hard-stuck so I'm okay with them. So I'm on 120mg once a day and I take it with 1000 calories of food which is a hassle because it's taken away my appetite, but I don't consider that to be a bad thing. The only bad part about taking this drug is the fact that near the 24hr mark of taking my regular dose, my paranoia and anxiety return and are almost worse than they have ever been, so I take a valium to offset those symptoms. It goes like this: eat, take dose, sleep, wake up, feel amazing until it's almost time to take the next dose, pop valium, and repeat. I am productive and happy during the time after I wake up and throughout the day. I am making an appointment tomorrow to see if there is anything I can do about this but in the mean time, I'd like to know if anyone else has had/is having a similar experience?",7.182665847665845,5.855276373873874,7.961089271089271,73.93153562653565,64.54054054054055,11.135790335790338,31.443079443079444,10.230975488527342,2.9229585585585585,873,25,171,17,11,295,127,222,0.08900000000000001,0.809,0.103,0.4872,0,0,2,0,0,0,24.0,0,0,2,1,8,9,0,0,16,1,18,14,3,1,3,28,34,17,0,3,5,0,2,3,0,0,9,0,0,1,15,10,2,0,4,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,3,3,18,7,25,28,5,19,0,0,1,0,3,6,0,6,16,116,33,0,0.0,0.0,0.11362153764293775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2331810978302641,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0890707109687995,0.0,0.0,0.08141246397683913,0.11929907949427153,0.09581420662210943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10939237176965366,0.0,0.19443291311374625,0.07097630451348888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10297527771644747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1231703777546888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15017894239928836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27004997705693234,0.11913973849445356,0.09726459599391096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1053200597900642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1138935403885489,0.0,0.0,0.11774376177951765,0.08317955736698084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1407909053874714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12394479391012685,0.10430084606720166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06398837711374085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08223987240726849,0.17064943505872698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07771974371944143,0.0,0.0,0.12682936387704435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12382751703440713,0.0,0.11407934313165816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12399704525892305,0.0,0.08855232908511235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25217057571869056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0927818020565604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11651680482555075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09298331940333104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24203635164447046,0.5252574845276771,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07735272454483318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2036785634686472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11865488728580348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,dichoto-mouse,2019/04/07,"Chances of Recovery I know someone with what seems very much like paranoid schizophrenia. Their symptoms started 5 years ago, they are in very deep at this point. Can anyone tell me what this does to their chances of recovery? Everything I'm finding mentions that treating it early gives the best chance but nothing mentions the likelihood of recovery later on. I'm not having much luck finding answers on my own. I may not be using the right search terms. I hope this isn’t a discouraging post, this just seems like a good place to ask.",5.357803030303033,7.525228757575762,4.612007575757578,84.03801136363639,69.50505050505049,7.374242424242425,32.57702020202019,8.07648339933343,2.4767262626262627,433,20,76,6,8,129,72,99,0.081,0.732,0.187,0.8575,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,3,1,1,8,0,0,5,0,6,1,0,1,0,16,16,1,0,1,4,0,0,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,8,1,0,1,6,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,0,0,8,7,10,14,5,15,0,1,0,0,8,8,0,5,8,45,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1645849336187019,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1298245296563978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17357605028783726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1948488327751631,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16248075358794056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1668679008141123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33939737541552106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1781112375474708,0.0,0.15573088539653412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.184411846822268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10203917872613376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18141761560352654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2729770983479675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17815502757655274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1939852565309826,0.0,0.17551782398314575,0.0,0.17782019174887714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15856085848654672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3380533348543435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15731728385626725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13141792716673567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19298184809228436,0.0,0.0,0.16228344949845944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16035895586827376,0.0,0.30639379658429183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.119565161049562 schizophrenia,smooth_penetrator,2019/04/07,When did your symptoms start and at what age were you diagnosed? I started hearing voices about two years ago when I was sixteen and was just recently diagnosed last week,7.439032258064515,8.65483241935484,6.442096774193548,76.48314516129034,63.516129032258064,10.070967741935485,38.08064516129032,10.125756701596842,4.091761290322582,139,7,23,3,2,42,26,31,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,2,0,0,4,0,0,0,0,0,4,3,0,0,0,3,7,4,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,4,2,4,0,2,3,0,11,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,10,17,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2466829135160464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5649069528523747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3136474859639529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22683946481170245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2747729226149248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3939431933281916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28924472912814875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2718440656607695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22322348795619448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17920645367851434 schizophrenia,snakes_guts,2019/04/07,Issues with Trust I never know who to trust and to what amount. At this point in my life I refuse to talk to anyone about anything because I’m so petrified that they’re talking behind my back. I recently cut 3 people completely out of my life and ghosted them because I was convinced they were holding some kind of secret plan against me. I don’t know what to do. It’s getting so bad that I’ve been having trouble trusting close friends and families. I just want advice. Please let me know if you have advice or anything. This kind of paranoia has been very troubling.,3.42675675675676,5.635767216216216,3.728189189189192,88.10363513513515,75.03603603603604,5.881441441441443,28.21711711711712,6.742157984588678,1.3942533333333331,455,19,85,4,10,141,78,111,0.175,0.6759999999999999,0.149,-0.6563,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,1,2,1,5,11,1,0,0,0,10,2,0,0,1,18,16,7,1,2,3,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,8,6,0,2,4,0,0,0,2,4,0,0,4,0,14,7,15,11,2,8,0,0,0,0,9,5,0,3,3,58,22,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34767738729431075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12438957857135235,0.0,0.2927878165255699,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1367916579611573,0.14853639689310796,0.21688847568835454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18652140972898296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.167705270232154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13744262606164978,0.0,0.09294373535972528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18567803971958954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.370504282526224,0.2933022859340323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1819115304451397,0.2513075411502633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1372049788241518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12333124153118058,0.0,0.0,0.19527726453003733,0.16816997692814967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1756516279531791,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28597341777913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14678349051164286,0.1049281415380801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Sensible56,2019/04/07,"Does anyone else deal with this I keep having these thoughts which are really images of a particular person. I have the thought of the person's face, name, as well as weird scenarios that involve violence, sex, and romance. What I noticed about these thoughts is that they make me question my moral character and I start to think that I may have a severe mental illness like schizophrenia. Does anyone with schizophrenia deal with this? 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Hey very sorry if I posting this in the wrong place or if this is asked a lot. I've been talking to a guy on tinder and we've really hit it off and we're planning to have a date on Tuesday. He mentioned that he's schizophrenic and hears voices, and he tells me when he's hearing them. He sees a therapist I think but he doesn't take medication for it (apparently he doesn't like how he feels on it.) I don't have an issue with it and it doesn't turn me off from him. I don't think a mental illness should define a person and what does defines him is great. I do really like him. What worries me is that I'm going to be insensitive or uneducated about it and I don't want to make him uncomfortable or feel bad. ATM I just don't know what to say, when he says he's hearing voices how should I respond? He's kinda jokey? about it but I don't know if should respond in the same manner. I've read the FAQs but any advice or helpful links would be really appreciated. I've never really dated anyone before so I'm inexperienced all around. I don't wanna screw this up lol Thanks in advance x",1.4028500368459829,3.4149603940677977,3.761739130434784,86.36852247605013,80.65254237288136,6.307737656595433,20.43036109064112,7.423996415210882,0.6067190862196021,887,24,189,13,23,307,121,236,0.104,0.774,0.123,0.8167,1,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,0,1,2,9,7,1,0,11,1,22,4,0,3,2,42,42,22,0,9,11,0,2,2,0,4,3,7,0,3,15,10,0,0,7,1,1,2,10,3,0,0,1,10,18,4,22,34,3,21,0,0,1,1,32,11,1,9,9,115,33,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.130548811419843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09085010226622983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0934136773281657,0.0,0.0,0.11892907956652013,0.12489455726432852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11154737567425696,0.0,0.0,0.11368065783307095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1169110701026376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1351006619011718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07592588698488557,0.0,0.0,0.14729045245988906,0.0,0.13228139493232685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4517184029867548,0.0,0.08954682032320192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13943988466318913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14684212516050285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1305368611809015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11357884313508708,0.0,0.0,0.08917660401361938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13458427209760812,0.13463370312626294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10303774453536828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23330236737510346,0.1395797559056564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12794837815646634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13363250755912742,0.0,0.3423409824614316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2124823665082264,0.0,0.0,0.10645899774883312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14955018115498744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1004478323037268,0.10737968919771196,0.11676910232043886,0.12299757397651175,0.0,0.15511566449901307,0.0,0.17120629914345042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14531447052432284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11023098379492648,0.07879859123937663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13567358290421533,0.0,0.09490301716180614,0.14606664132585334,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,edrf14,2019/04/07,"Is this schizophrenia? I'm in my early 30s, I'm starting to hear voices say really bad things to me over and over, like ""Pedophile, rapist, fraud, thief, liar"", etc. Is this schizophrenia? It's making me feel suicidal.",3.4697500000000012,6.082838475000003,3.3550000000000004,88.82000000000002,76.75,6.0,22.5,7.1686216300943375,0.8514999999999997,169,5,31,2,4,51,32,40,0.383,0.5710000000000001,0.046,-0.965,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,0,0,5,2,0,0,0,2,1,0,1,0,3,8,1,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,3,0,0,4,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,4,3,1,5,8,1,5,0,0,0,1,2,3,0,0,3,16,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30833961629284745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4118531511146633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18672284309567425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4162138230727784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1804152067464584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24650225697962624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2365750124900403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2936722220586618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2613835753612091,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4039405596263551,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2453381891306338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,ilovemydogandket,2019/04/07,"What are the warning signs? How did your illness start? I think I might be in denial about being mentally ill. I briefly (for 2 months) had quite vivid visual hallucinations and mild auditory hallucinations, one word one was seeing patterns in my vision like black dots all aligned perfectly, which was also accompanied by vicious delusions consisting of thinking my neighbours were drilling through my walls and looking at me (which I was weirdly fine with), thinking I was going to find a dead body if I went outside and the worst one was thinking someone was going to break into my house every night. Though this was after taken mdma so I thought it might of been normal and brushed it off. Recently though, as of a month or so ago. I would hear screaming, crying or angry voices while drifting asleep. Then I’d hear weird intrusive noises that would be really loud then drift away from my ear and past walls n shit. Although overall the most worrying thing is I’m starting to hear voices, mainly whispering coming from above and behind me, like background noise in a TV show and this would happen every other day and brushed it off until out of the voices was a woman shouting “police!”, so thought that might be a bit weird. Recently I’ve been hearing people outside my house at 2 o’clock n shit and all normal until the sound jumps into my head and like explodes...:(???? **SUMMARY OR TDLR(?): am I fucked? Hearing whispering and noises jumping into my head. Also see neon stripes on things don’t know if that means anything?**",5.490196206671024,7.576817064748205,5.3403400915631165,79.28175277959454,69.0,7.2128188358404195,30.621975147155,7.84624498591911,2.262080575539569,1216,50,200,15,22,377,171,278,0.16399999999999998,0.784,0.052000000000000005,-0.9866,0,0,0,0,0,0,42.0,0,1,0,2,9,14,4,0,10,0,27,10,7,1,3,46,53,31,1,7,5,0,0,3,1,6,2,15,0,1,14,17,0,0,9,2,0,8,1,9,0,3,17,22,20,5,32,26,6,41,0,0,5,1,8,15,3,9,20,139,34,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08027416872987854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14483833785367847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07452148610424868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08508218561882795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09886583942358904,0.10058948016344413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07800766510243612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0994736682040559,0.058402393359571175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15259797624126933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08276833602431158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.083719375982117,0.0,0.0,0.1029323526215904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08008010609750055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18587718851436166,0.0,0.5103270196363799,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2089834575707213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04976828723032721,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13272613688263124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07604587987920786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0986441678221118,0.0,0.0,0.09126112552166653,0.2882030585218469,0.0,0.0,0.14456500145849285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08498251210720402,0.17745514957916406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18409325468801904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08644782089930449,0.06278148804858452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09631953883292196,0.0,0.0,0.05801374887223334,0.0,0.17883012356230782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14432594114054134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1859128918249797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07672946673029618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12819478220228395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12032537116397513,0.2321035401006147,0.1779454743613358,0.1437858116854689,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08394813737828333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09196600547920697,0.0,0.19298933239916888,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,ComebackKid50,2019/04/07,"Recovery from delusions, preventing in future I had a psychosis involving intense delusions of grandeur, some persecutory delusions, and delusional parasitosis. I was trying to launch my career simultaneously, so my care was less than ideal until I finally took time off to cycle antipsychotics. Abilify worked for me, I took a year-long course, and my doctor tapered me fully off. I would say I’m at 80%, and continuing an upward trajectory. Each day I find all delusions less and less plausible. For people who have recovered from delusions in the past with good outcomes, what are some things to watch out for in the future? I have a nice two-year gap on my resume, so I’d like to avoid having to take another gap at any point in my life. Side-note: it’s frustrating how stigmatized mental illness is. I wish it were just called brain health, or lumped into neurology. The gap on my resume is perfectly understandable when you consider I had a psychosis, but makes getting back to work a tough sell since I have to leave it at ambiguous “personal matter” /rant",6.830709134615383,8.257105171875004,7.193958333333337,69.79110576923081,64.98958333333334,10.699358974358978,33.519230769230774,10.727762888450028,3.959884134615384,851,36,140,23,13,277,128,192,0.052000000000000005,0.845,0.103,0.8171,0,1,0,0,0,0,26.0,0,1,0,4,6,9,1,1,9,0,13,7,1,3,2,27,22,11,0,3,3,0,0,1,0,1,6,1,0,1,6,8,0,2,2,0,1,2,0,3,0,0,7,2,19,6,29,14,7,26,0,0,1,0,6,14,0,4,11,95,25,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11672162268626825,0.17998033344661868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1319811723863276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1916078861202394,0.17526443668944308,0.0,0.17499922417340855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11069410975140703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17568162111551064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1880240951823624,0.1568765720851231,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08967522831124937,0.0,0.0,0.14396415080628927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18244613297334566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18174281312689075,0.0,0.0,0.12123496565834155,0.08385501984773529,0.0,0.0,0.151896697503503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11457155981638932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17297354549043886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1638505551558761,0.11899411186147475,0.1498701169139589,0.0,0.0,0.16225602530134778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1364956449822156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14198303477695054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12905251275834034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11403051377962953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10008512466709267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38139846527819105,0.11653282928595378,0.0,0.16766811097772588,0.17868411512665378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.197378437215388,0.0,0.0,0.2499130780032834,0.0,0.0,0.12192869225934085,0.0,0.0,0.22106208197157656 schizophrenia,TheBanisherOfRegs,2019/04/07,"Hey guys hope you’re all good. I need some opinions please So I made a joke post that people are attacking and that’s not the problem, any post that peaks at least 1k will have someone that it rubs up the wrong way. I don’t mind this but I do want to know that it isn’t insensitive to people who have schizophrenia, the post is already made and no I didn’t make it to karma whore, I thought it was a funny idea and didn’t really expect it to blow up. https://www.reddit.com/r/teenagers/comments/ba99mf/schizophrenic_ama/?utm_source=share&utm_medium=ios_app I know the true term is dissociative identity disorder but I just went with schizophrenia anyways because it was late and I didn’t think it would be a big deal. Please let me know if you find the post rude or attacking in any way so that I can know for the future.",5.270298582995952,7.7025189144736865,4.185789473684213,85.8778340080972,70.38157894736842,6.7821862348178135,22.21862348178138,7.61054688173877,0.6669275303643727,673,16,130,8,13,196,91,152,0.16399999999999998,0.7070000000000001,0.128,-0.8699,0,0,0,0,0,0,24.0,0,1,0,0,4,10,3,0,9,0,18,1,0,3,2,33,31,10,0,7,6,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,15,5,0,0,8,1,0,1,7,6,0,0,9,1,12,4,10,18,4,15,1,0,0,1,5,5,0,5,3,81,27,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14291329867301775,0.0,0.0,0.14031990043344364,0.0,0.1761372973952008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.294663969610045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07894577008324231,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13351519308056026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14842531117141172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11836630949677387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10862364599304912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12823148690999364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12862886584854832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14619672254058186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2846928558621218,0.0,0.14608862079258236,0.0,0.0,0.13242885139409766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24508377255346134,0.08644638602503563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13076433166901155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09602719732730533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17956656861735126,0.0,0.0,0.2843178085722619,0.0,0.0,0.4961245165919034,0.0,0.0,0.1239199315842324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0829649801351797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10973017270581514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08298233594661279,0.0,0.10281344717506427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07638610498632367,0.20559196780439087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12005353360827364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09199748013791967,0.14159468619714102,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,throwaway12332123123,2019/04/07,"Constipation I have been on quetiapine 300mg for almost a month now, and ever since starting it I have had terrible constipation. I will be on the toilet for ages, just straining and pushing. Then I start to bled and my stomach and lower back get very painful. I eventually have to manually help my self out. I am so embarrassed and disgusted about this problem, I don’t think I could tell anyone who knows me. I don’t know what to do? I am really struggling with this side effect at the moment. Can anyone give me some advice please? 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First of all, thank you for reading this. It's basically a special thanks to y'all post. I've been lurking around here for quite a while now, I've even commented a few times I think. I'm not a very active member around here (nor on most subs), and I do not have a diagnose of anything. I just wanted to thank you for - unintentionally - but helping me to find out that whatever's going on with me isn't normal. You encourage me to tell people close to me about my problems. I do experience many of the things you guys do, and I'm close to asking my family to find me a doctor who I can talk to about these more. Reaching out for help isn't by any means easy for me, but reading a few of your succesful stories made me think that maybe I matter, and maybe there's a life waiting for me that is comfortable to live. This very subreddit, this cozy corner of the world helped me a bit to gather a few shards of someone else's dropped confidence, even if it will go away. I haven't talked to many of you yet, but you are an amazing community, and you should know that the way you support each other under every post is absolutely amazing! Thank you for being the awesome people you are. I don't know you, but you always make my day a little bit brighter.",6.03876598110061,5.420477626459147,6.537379099499724,80.88888132295722,66.50972762645915,9.521845469705392,30.41939966648138,8.841846274778883,2.153613896609228,998,31,209,14,14,326,138,257,0.037000000000000005,0.746,0.217,0.9938,0,0,0,0,0,0,29.0,0,14,0,2,12,12,0,0,16,0,17,3,0,2,1,37,36,11,0,5,8,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,1,13,12,0,1,7,2,0,2,7,1,0,1,2,0,34,11,37,31,9,25,0,0,0,0,26,13,0,2,6,146,47,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09233516486077878,0.0,0.0,0.0754627803074026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09131809840643944,0.1975720176338411,0.10374111092147546,0.0,0.10425910438911813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2422989912168115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07156587694078266,0.0,0.0,0.1126312812378844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11358155646895228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0927004278547664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1465880627269953,0.0,0.0934962367197698,0.0,0.0,0.10854905442236723,0.10461177348204928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2028474591457299,0.0943902435293054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12613257192369412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10987683663010583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.223140707408584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12197140954653762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07838074358888457,0.0,0.11122017169048996,0.0979877314870201,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10500162747254237,0.07407272319319608,0.22501046150364032,0.22296671405482385,0.12087786080647367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10872613832023173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15386397677854372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21255540963983935,0.0,0.0,0.10618242372446082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11802927699674745,0.2219982214287548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0940237421426212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12592639796801502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17838548759490316,0.09699186787129603,0.40866168212484894,0.0,0.0,0.0737229264951332,0.14220901261778848,0.0,0.0,0.06470696346547926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18312222673804146,0.06545243902758091,0.08808209123692425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Jetlax,2019/04/07,"Schizophrenia Portrayal in Justice League vs The Fatal Five The new DC Animated Universe film that just came out got me really psyched for two reasons. One, being that it's basically a canon continuation of the JL and JLU series I grew up with as a kid, and two being they were going to portray a superhero (Star Boy) living with schizophrenia (as compared to linking it to villainy like with Joker or the Mad Hatter). &#x200B; I wanted to ask if those who have watched it feel it is an accurate portrayal of schizophrenia, as I only know one person living with schizophrenia. &#x200B; Thank you!",6.384166666666665,8.303545935185184,6.3916666666666675,73.28250000000003,66.5,8.362962962962964,33.87037037037037,8.841846274778883,3.1867370370370365,483,22,75,8,8,153,78,108,0.093,0.821,0.086,-0.4003,0,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,1,1,0,1,4,1,0,8,0,5,0,0,1,0,17,13,7,1,2,4,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,3,8,8,0,0,4,1,0,3,0,2,0,5,3,2,6,2,17,8,0,8,0,0,1,0,7,3,0,2,3,54,14,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3707757722802585,0.41581293998705293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15995635887864562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1956939876400571,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0865138178682609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09724065397846256,0.0,0.13684511788209264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09403264715917672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08359131683277872,0.0,0.3021706747541205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16525043350260946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2318849616336179,0.1301300375407642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14939881296872265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1096116961557718,0.17592034772462695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15752683315535396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3342816736062371,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10091981600720552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41581293998705293,0.0 schizophrenia,Objection8,2019/04/07,Anti psychotic weight loss med Risperidone makes me gain weight still and I'm Going to switch my meds. Is there a anti psychotic med I can take that helps you lose weight? ,3.766363636363636,6.097911090909093,3.3606060606060595,90.5609090909091,74.45454545454545,6.824242424242425,20.090909090909093,7.793537801064563,0.6405636363636362,138,3,27,2,3,41,27,33,0.242,0.606,0.152,-0.3818,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,1,0,3,2,2,0,0,1,0,2,3,0,1,0,2,6,1,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,3,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,3,4,0,1,6,0,2,0,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,12,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1071684174005966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12639419041892133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21096108543308803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12587163483782224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6283747600268411,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15059188136536475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14178082926385646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6888807107167737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,G-O-D-C-O-M-P-L-E-X,2019/04/07,"[PROJECT] Lethe - An interactive story about psychotic disorders Hi there! I'm working on my college final year project. The idea is to create an interactive fiction story, in which the user is also the protagonist. I've always been so interested in how people with psychotic disorders perceive the world, and I thought this might be an opportunity to show people what it can be like living with hallucinations and delusions. I want people to empathize and get to know mental illness, rather than staying in ignorance, making assumptions and feeding the stigma. I've made my research in fiction, and very often people with schizophrenia are portrayed as crazy, brutal, violent, insensitive and dehumanized beings. On the other hand, I stumbled across Hellblade: Senua's Sacrifice (a videogame which I believe treats mental illness in the right way) and I was fascinated. I want to get close to that game's vibe. So I'm about to begin writing the actual story, and build the fictional world's imaginary, and wanted to ask people that suffer delusions and hallucinations your experience. My idea is to try to depict all of these experiences through video and audio, to create a compelling and ""real"" atmosphere around the text that the user will be reading. I hope I have explained myself clear enough. Any comment or suggestion would also be much appreciated! I'll leave some questions that might help: What do you hear? Are voices clear or distorted? What do you see? Are your visions kind of blurry or defined? What triggers your hallucinations? What delusions do you have? What is your perception of the world? Thank you very much!",6.607619047619046,9.382441,6.66,68.09333333333333,67.57142857142857,8.80952380952381,33.45238095238095,9.408791572840183,3.709809523809524,1320,61,188,29,24,420,159,280,0.103,0.755,0.142,0.8814,0,0,0,0,0,0,41.0,0,8,0,2,11,11,2,0,17,0,24,4,1,5,3,49,42,21,0,6,4,0,1,1,0,4,2,3,0,0,16,17,1,1,8,4,0,0,0,4,0,0,4,5,20,7,31,29,5,19,1,1,1,0,20,14,0,9,4,136,36,6,0.0,0.0,0.11550614368989233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1893112205195087,0.0984882906362336,0.0,0.0,0.08049154675079473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10536901257309726,0.11065431787299512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1333556420890372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2713106888735641,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12230160388174235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23156531612539696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1296619246660583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12368056005191735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13340477719241206,0.0,0.07933686253107547,0.0,0.0,0.1175621123074213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2672369907160581,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12325784246544788,0.06504973295300379,0.0,0.0,0.12533033556896464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057826648525139676,0.0,0.10451753881665683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1119988340236994,0.07900885757954172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2385660497698399,0.2511308979594662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1740222488215037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4102933071668991,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13259471595617228,0.0,0.11839598372823945,0.13472409140978228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10108216892877862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0943207457183918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12616022481885447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10897362500432528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09396775711090856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0803613543112285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19532531420855664,0.20944237812923244,0.09395179631367448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08617036731833763,0.0,0.0,0.08408235601414915,0.0,0.0,0.0762225048638589 schizophrenia,seliscoming,2019/04/07,"""What lead to Psychosis"": Kinda Long For me, it has been hard going back to normalcy after experiencing the **""other side.""** I have always believed that I am an intelligent person (like many of us are) who unfortunately lacks motivation in many daily mundane activities. As a result, I have developed an[ impostor syndrome](https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Impostor_syndrome) that has been hard to shake until I am experiencing another psychosis. I have never really told anyone what my experiences are like, not even to my therapist as I feel they will hear it but not be able to understand it. This post is more of what happened before a major break from reality. When I am under psychosis, I feel connected to nature and all life experiences around me. Life transitions from being a TV show that I am watching to one that I am actively participating in. I begin to have enormous amounts of energy and work out to a point where I get in shape almost night and day (lost 20 lbs in two weeks). My brain starts to click and I see connections that others don't notice or can imagine and I initially become ""uber objective"" in the way I conceptualize my environment. If the connection is absurd to others, I will find credible theories via Wikipedia and go down a rabbit hole of information and begin a new journey of understanding. I become an addict to information and need a fix as much as I can and begin to seek topics that I am not or have not been interested in the past. Once I have reached my capacity of knowledge for the ""day"", I'll meditate in a dark room and process all the information and try to seek meaning and connection from it and apply it to predicting how events will unfold. In this meditative state, I become ever increasingly objective, which results in widely accepted aspects of life become irrelevant such as the 24hr time period. I realize its usefulness; however, conclude, it has no intrinsic value to the grand scheme of the universe. *""Time as we know it only has any value on this earth.""* I begin to think of the universe beyond what I have experienced, and in my mind, I attempt to visualize how the universe began and see it through the pitch black that have enveloped me. Sometimes I see it and sometimes I don't. My meditative state is usually broken when I cannot imagine a concept as a result of lack of new informational nourishment. At this point it usually hits me, ""How long have I been here in this dark room. What have I missed and what am I missing."" I will start to feel alone and feel like as spec in the cosmos that has no knowledge or care for my existence. ""The anxiety, the shallow breathing, the adrenaline, it all overwhelms me. I feel something in my chest. A rhythm a beat. I snap out of it and have to get out of the darkness before it consumes me. Before I fall into the void. I am not an objective machine."" ""There has to be a purpose. I have to have a purpose."" As an aside, there has been two common themes throughout my delusions my view of the **other side**. These themes are two people. The situation has always been strange for me as I genuinely care for them even though I really don't know them. Hearing these people during my episodes confuses me, motivates me, and ironically relaxes me. Whenever I am not going through an episode I will try my hardest to ignore them and not look to see what they are currently working on. I have never done anything that would affect them in anyway, at least I hope, it is more of knowing how I felt so connected to them when I created a reality where they were involved in were at the center of it. With that said, a few months before my last big break from reality, when I was doing okay, but in retrospect was really slowly sinking, I looked on ""her"" Instagram. **She looked as beautiful as ever**. I could sense a sadness though. I felt as if something was wrong and thought I couldn't be the only one who is noticing this. Since it was the first time I had looked in what seemed like years, I tried to find out. I did some simple googling/searching and concluded there was nothing wrong and nothing to support that there was. I felt alone and got wasted. For a month that continued, and I really don't remember much during that time period. I still had the feeling that something was wrong and the spiral continued. I did have something wrong with me, besides what is related to this sub, and more of less focused on that. In the past two years I had gained 40lbs, extremely passive, and apathetic. Life was miserable for me. One medication I was taking made what ever went into my stomach feel like acid and come out like acid. And even after 6 months of transitioning away from that medication that side effect didn't go away. My thought process at the time began to focus on the mentality of ""If I'm going to feel miserable no matter what I do, I might as well be in control of the misery."" Thus I was drinking almost out of control. I was only in control enough to barely make it through work a day and continue the process of living in hell. In a drunken stupor, I looked on her Instagram and my worst fears became reality. There was in fact something wrong. She had a disease analogous to what I had. My heart sunk. My world faded in. I felt a genuine emotion for the first time in such a long time and it happened to be one that I never want to ever feel again. I felt powerless and felt so disgusted that I was complaining of what I had when she was dying and almost died. Seeing and knowing that the photo that she posted could have been her death bed.. I finally woke up to a new reality. I stopped drinking and tried to do it cold turkey (I know its stupid). As I am sure many of you have experience, besides the physical agony of going through withdrawal, it was the mental aspect that really got me. I was having constant nightmares and hearing voices... again. Somehow, I made it through this phase and ended up feeling better with more energy (probably hypo-manic). It did feel like no matter how good I was doing and how I was starting to get my life together.. it always ended up with a bit of sadness. I knew that at any moment one of the shining lights in my life (at a distance) could be gone at any moment and I was doing nothing to make it better for her. I again lost hope and posted something on a twitter account that I had created with no followers or friends, which accurately represented how I felt about life at the moment. There were people in real life that I would regularly hang out with but never fully divulged what I have been through in the past as a fear of being misunderstood and stigmatized... They probably would have understood.. but I guess that is neither here nor there. What I had posted was something like this ""I hope we appreciate and love ""her"" this time around before it is too late. ""She"" has the exact name to someone that passed away that I had always felt no on fully appreciated her till she was gone. ""I just want her to be loved."" Fast forward, a month, and I began to focus on my personal health issues again. I went from taking a medication (unrelated to this sub) that went from twice a day (the one that fucked up my insides), to one that was once a month, to the new one I am on that is every six months. The new one that I am on is nice since I frequently would forget about the underlying issue that I had and why I was taking it for. On the flip side, all the pressure and knowing every six months everything has to go right for me to get the infusion really got to me a week before. I stopped showing up to work and was having severe anxiety issues. When I finally got the hours long infusion, I began to reflect on how she must have felt when she was going under for her surgery and the shear fear the must of overwhelmed her. I had decided from that moment that I was going to take it all serious and since I knew that I could not go to work for a while that I was going to stop taking all the medication that at the time I viewed was holding me back mentally (was not a good idea in how I did it and don't condone it. It is just how it happened). I was taking a few medications for my mental well-being. The medication that I did not realize would send me into another break from reality was the steroids that were used in my infusion. It crazy how it is always the lack of sleep that compels me into another reality. So from earlier, after my infusion, I had went through that process of becoming super rationale to realizing that it was not solely for me. What followed , no matter if I want to admit it or not, was probably the most interesting parts of my life. To this day it is hard to talk about what actually happened during this episode. Mostly because a lot of it actually happened, parts of it were hallucinations, and some of it I don't actually know. I'll probably post what happened later sometime. It just feels good to open up a little bit even if though this will probably go to the birds. 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Where do we come from? where are we going? 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My brother in law is going through something, and after hours of research I think he may be schizophrenic. A few things that have happened are: -Put on administrative leave at his job after saying he feared he would be shot there (this happened in October, so it’s been about 6 months now) -Thinks he is going to be the president -Accuses my sister of being a coke snorting, gay prostitute and invents scenarios in his head with her past coworkers or friends -Thinks there are cameras in their house -Tells everyone who tries to reason with him that they are sell outs -Told my parents to watch out for my sister because she may be suicidal now that she is being “exposed” and tried to convince my mom to meet him alone in a parking lot with their daughter without telling my sister I’m probably forgetting stuff. My sister left in the middle of the night with my niece about 7 weeks ago, and is on leave from her job and pregnant, but her husband refuses to seek help because “it’s all going to come out that he was right” I know I could be reading too much into all of this, but I do know there is something wrong with him, and he needs help. My sister called the police twice on him after she left, but they said he seemed okay, although now I understand that they would probably not do much since she was in another state when she called. I don’t know what I’m expecting with this post, tbh. I know that no one is a doctor here, but if you have anything to say I greatly appreciate it. I am afraid he won’t be able to come back because he is letting it go on too long. Thank you.",5.535,5.89784430769231,5.633653846153845,83.61509615384615,67.46153846153845,8.715384615384616,31.01923076923077,8.548686976883017,2.2032,1300,48,261,18,20,410,171,325,0.08,0.841,0.079,-0.1054,3,1,3,0,0,0,30.0,0,2,5,0,14,10,0,2,8,2,35,5,1,1,2,54,61,16,1,9,9,10,0,0,1,5,2,3,0,0,18,18,1,1,10,1,1,7,5,3,0,2,5,5,41,7,46,41,7,45,0,0,1,1,54,21,0,8,15,185,59,5,0.09594595315723084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18751454997702752,0.08505029842633617,0.0,0.0,0.0993710716853968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10060769756712233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0789553443233769,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07377651558766651,0.0,0.17546328751952214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19594309114838254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16529788601932802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07660503640278482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0982047486345688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09168046991522699,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10796587186466787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0741276054050492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2181131850184499,0.0,0.0,0.10578075207481684,0.0,0.0,0.16968937902112588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09846822834747486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12862109989479936,0.0,0.0,0.09529598038373223,0.09448743701938853,0.11070874799318713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19042310761022144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21091754660706785,0.0,0.0,0.2031858217830385,0.2084911176788028,0.09811123764047824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08490914930107994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08156981831452383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11237074073112477,0.07658314443231448,0.0,0.1410626305068535,0.2134281256179858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09003877748094577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06501546096012423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10653662654307236,0.0,0.09159126879946992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09188970121352476,0.0,0.20689193052489,0.0,0.0,0.09645218337309837,0.0,0.0,0.09597191749477224,0.0,0.0,0.09864841962156624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08193731975649364,0.0912665728547212,0.15260014587841667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08734559227635466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07936748392978388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14772776447119454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10983516149685316,0.1049493000956659,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1677219840969802,0.08833414292183332,0.0,0.0,0.06374222796496366,0.18443487796609384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09168046991522699,0.0,0.13028200827197206,0.0,0.0,0.09988312095245196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07696205625205184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09248847500424774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13631450459803504,0.10490183792937294,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Nipple_Stimulation,2019/04/08,"I had the worst day at work yesterday and need to vent. So I am a waiter at a restaurant and worked last night. When I woke up that day I knew it was going to be a bad day. I recently added a new anti psychotic to my meds and have been feeling strange since I started it. I figure it takes a few weeks for my body to adjust to the new medication. Anyways about an hour before work I started having visual hallucinations and felt depersonalized. It was awful but it was too late to call in sick to work so I go anyways. I proceeded to have the absolute worst day. I was hallucinating constantly at work and hearing people scream my name. It was very busy at work and I was super stressed out but had to keep calm. I fucked up one of the tables and forgot to put someones drink order in. The table then berated me for forgetting and told me I need to write stuff down. Well I do write stuff down but I was having trouble concentrating. So i get this guy his drink and say sorry and the lady says ""If you're sorry then you need to comp this drink"". I'm like ok sorry and comp the drink but they were nasty to me for the rest of the time they were there they tipped me 5%. It was just awful, I was already on the edge of a panic attack the whole time and seriously considered just leaving mid shift because I could barely deal with my tables. I didn't though and finished my shift with 1.1k in sales. It just sucks when you have to work while you are hallucinating. Like its fucking scary and the job is really stressful already. I don't know it just sucks and I wish people would be more understanding when their waiter messes up. Like I'm human too and I make mistakes. I'm feeling much better today and have the day off, but I know that I'm going to have to work and eventually I'll have another day like this. It stresses me out so much.",2.8326437775663758,4.5187107855227895,4.192661074115716,86.43405431116493,75.19302949061662,6.957675343768918,22.75611865432846,7.717688229018142,0.9176514572342822,1445,40,302,20,31,477,180,373,0.2,0.7120000000000001,0.08900000000000001,-0.9933,1,0,4,0,0,0,29.0,0,3,4,10,19,26,5,4,20,3,32,9,1,1,0,55,64,35,0,8,10,0,3,4,0,1,2,4,0,2,18,22,4,2,9,4,1,4,2,17,1,1,20,7,42,9,41,40,8,51,0,0,0,2,19,17,4,1,33,207,60,9,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17094906343807234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08121928366442327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08811728877141267,0.0,0.0,0.06467245630205573,0.047216408771746016,0.0,0.06590928143005102,0.0,0.0,0.06850346519689282,0.0,0.08603606385476938,0.0,0.0,0.079091152500766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08370233077867867,0.0,0.061842247980779586,0.0,0.0,0.2997159565507819,0.07985365051329699,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.303509247962613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07832807899216887,0.0,0.07436982811406384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14321349640489564,0.04046752034740226,0.0,0.13205994973554655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07669353655005089,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0872984490563181,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07627847705074513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07686304709904092,0.06884637891773446,0.0,0.0,0.08513549391315052,0.06313691117901317,0.08737364939210775,0.08201463354717732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15136419659360312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05170242680633053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08603606385476938,0.07802868873933745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11387802403431513,0.1722977455573748,0.0,0.14961481677519609,0.0,0.07268713215650217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052486134699291545,0.0,0.0,0.0908778311148076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10739636204240854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0778645911880271,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04962024452572858,0.0,0.0764783748010385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1231921098985747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06407233588388195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06562814807695228,0.0,0.0,0.26011667680880746,0.10964739503060096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2661764775624505,0.0,0.17733699018385793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05823721092524273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07610004629680411,0.0,0.09033033749030968,0.0,0.07341915370373306,0.07401244907294056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08063434240220768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06390924429659364,0.0,0.0,0.06213046545431933,0.0,0.06964217248000222,0.0,0.0,0.08647676648099535,0.08907048328250743,0.0,0.0,0.4511106471489684,0.0,0.0,0.05502246192015611,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,ThunderCatKJ,2019/04/08,I’m thinking of writing a book and was wondering if one of you may be able to give me some information? If you could please PM me so I can ask you a series of questions that would be great. I’d really appreciate it ,1.6241304347826109,3.2284503260869606,4.286304347826088,84.81467391304348,78.34782608695652,8.078260869565218,24.54347826086957,8.841846274778883,1.7208434782608697,169,6,38,4,4,60,36,46,0.0,0.802,0.198,0.8553,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,3,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,0,7,0,0,0,0,12,12,4,0,4,2,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,4,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,6,1,4,6,1,0,0,0,0,0,8,0,0,6,0,27,8,1,0.3151598949736484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2946319583417963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2516295313424033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3023300889395186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3474648968206154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2135605012363345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34595092394083776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3530512101008158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20189949885044814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20194173510030652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3417774622778831,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22388054701014734,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Mappltini,2019/04/08,"Friend having a hard time Idk if this is the right plave but i need help. I have a friend over and shes having a schizophrenic episode and idk what to do. I've never helped her through one but shes in my livingroom talking to her voices. Idk if I should call her mom since they don't have the best relationship. Nothing i seem to say to her is helping? Help and thanks?",0.2201298701298704,2.5779471818181854,1.3584545454545456,99.03768181818184,90.16883116883116,4.638441558441558,18.089610389610392,6.2581,-0.3314561038961039,291,8,67,3,10,91,50,77,0.119,0.642,0.239,0.924,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,1,1,0,4,0,0,5,0,11,1,0,0,1,11,14,7,0,4,4,1,1,0,2,1,1,2,0,0,2,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,3,12,4,7,13,1,5,0,0,0,0,18,3,0,3,2,45,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22233185078174067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21633065686536213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32736185746884977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18978311249356455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5680156797346103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2481254737009612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1570899874988627,0.16339791376549234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2032834194745864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14356043168939345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2274561555948692,0.0,0.18092553404994907,0.0,0.16847794735783145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19286752332725848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17525108776893916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1702833973590181,0.0,0.19505033885015055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12353607594704907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,adviceneeded4gf,2019/04/09,"Well I unsuccessfully tried to have my girlfriend committed. She had been hurting herself and was threatening me over my thoughts she was hearing because her telepathy. She said she has sneeze tourettes which usually comes out as fuck my life. Today it change to I’ll fucking kill you. She thinks I been fucking my dog and I found marks on him today like she’s been hurting him. I recorded some of her ramblings for proof to try to get a hold. She’s been up for like 72 hours, she said she is sleeping but I think it was a lie. She was rambling how the neighbors are watching her, friends in the FBI who been tracking what I’m doing, how her friend in FBI gave her a murder pass. Her New Years Resolution is not to murder anyone but she doesn’t think she can follow through with it, a friend of her supposedly wants to murder someone with her. Called the hospital I stayed at for my attempted suicide. They told me to call 911. She calls her dad when the cops are here. Play the recorded of her talking about punching herself repeatedly in the abdomen to miscarry (she wasn’t pregnant according to any test but always thinks she is) and her talking about murdering people. The dad tells them he is taking her to a hospital out of state and they let her go so that plan failed to get her help. She is on no meds at all and progressively getting worse and worse with delusions of demons trying to tell her to kill people but also some angels have been helping her out. I wish her the best, I doubt her family takes her to get her help though. They kind of suck and enable her. I still worry, she left me like two weeks ago for not even 24 hours and told me she almost kills some guy because he was going to kidnap her and put her in the sex trade in California. Luckily she got picked up by her dad, her sister was there and didn’t hear them talking about the sex trade thing. I’m afraid she is going to get in legal trouble for hurting or killing someone or hurt herself. Sucks it is out of my hands now.",5.353787878787877,5.880412378787881,5.307802020202022,85.2210363636364,67.8888888888889,8.053171717171718,29.72888888888889,7.839951260653429,1.7465793131313134,1586,55,322,17,25,494,198,396,0.214,0.6809999999999999,0.105,-0.9962,0,0,0,0,0,1,30.0,0,1,5,6,15,31,13,2,15,0,31,9,3,3,3,46,66,23,9,2,8,4,1,3,5,0,1,4,1,1,9,18,0,1,6,1,2,7,6,21,1,1,23,6,75,10,54,42,5,40,2,5,1,5,87,18,5,7,16,221,84,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07023010503173546,0.0,0.07933456542063767,0.0,0.0,0.06335793843169216,0.06592335137081906,0.0,0.0,0.05387719174081376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05539747869381182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09659229373453386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0831440259459801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2426993930570261,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08381183966272393,0.06824719084740155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0523287979205427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0746883239032482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08686850148368662,0.1836321427322208,0.21973272329484728,0.2069646291292877,0.0,0.13507987781418032,0.0,0.06336520459530691,0.0,0.0,0.07844735339566554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17858955505449164,0.0,0.1593129040470004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15604560474996107,0.0,0.33925729215329953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3506124961026569,0.08250290471656746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08608055094273588,0.08101514811558515,0.055960492496082086,0.1161191785752397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08800352428111702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07651809352364368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10985228671847018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07964518754393174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15072636113146964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07928438592192437,0.0,0.13425784639715707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08444562065223928,0.06327091951167749,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08666166380485507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11913794230232035,0.1910393921303684,0.1384960755836046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05263501066740547,0.20306228338975732,0.07784029129202986,0.06289752243167884,0.0,0.0,0.1501961848596904,0.15140991038572246,0.0,0.16137014144537284,0.0,0.07739343196288279,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08725753353215973,0.0,0.04673023698607317,0.0,0.06355125606903497,0.0,0.0712347397386645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09110733437915693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08045903590590364,0.16147850757107496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05101969927636766 schizophrenia,GabbyTheCrabby,2019/04/09,"Can anti-psychotic medication cause male infertility? The question is in the title, I am mostly asking about clozapine but if any other anti-psychotics cause this effect I would like to know. Thanks in advance.",6.942499999999999,9.662881583333338,7.773333333333331,60.70500000000001,66.5,9.244444444444444,31.44444444444445,9.725611199111238,3.80501111111111,171,7,22,4,3,57,31,36,0.0,0.809,0.191,0.7964,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,2,1,2,0,0,2,0,4,1,0,3,0,9,7,2,0,2,2,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,4,6,1,3,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,3,1,17,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2181175064237344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29985315059483136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6589866574172143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1762729891272579,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15669973916882954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3231167065476752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3593076537448709,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2952987774665153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.227847948863746,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,JaniMiru,2019/04/09,"i think often that people say things to me. they sounds the same way like they really sounds, but its comming from my head and it's not fun. really not fun. for example: “my boyfriend“ :,,we should break up.“ me :,,huh?“ my boyfriend: ,,i didn't say anything.“ ooofff.. I'ts reaallyy annoying. Anyone else? And.. do you even scared that they use that to confusing you or hurting you or to make you feel like an idiot?",1.015839160839164,3.621417576923079,1.6985314685314703,95.51465034965037,91.17948717948721,5.4004662004662025,18.62937062937063,6.980632752743323,0.32252307692307713,313,9,65,5,11,96,56,78,0.263,0.685,0.052000000000000005,-0.9698,0,0,0,0,0,0,24.0,1,4,3,0,2,9,2,2,2,1,3,1,1,2,0,16,7,5,0,1,5,0,1,2,0,1,0,4,0,0,6,3,0,0,2,0,0,0,3,5,0,0,1,5,15,4,6,5,1,3,0,1,0,0,10,1,0,4,2,42,21,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17704534057901428,0.25943627213930004,0.20836439551252636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2115185155054532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1672381138704747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12802698375054375,0.1808881876789567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2598592033590348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2710589193290511,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2474042742659473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16901488819251,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17553899540221865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3244164964254312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40271418513294255,0.25350025393948755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16821674216432894,0.16224218127416254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21868599125091875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20098066009187407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,LouisBear,2019/04/09,"(Maybe) a stupid question Is there a “mild” case of schizophrenia where you don’t necessarily hear unknown voices in your head? But you are still extremely paranoid, think the government, your friends, everyone is spying on you, you think that people that are sitting in parked cars are there to get you and sometimes you get hallucinations “in your head” (I’ve no idea how to describe that) or you hear your friends talking right when you are about to fall asleep even though you are alone?",10.55090909090909,9.046383181818186,8.14227272727273,75.8709090909091,58.09090909090909,11.072727272727272,39.04545454545455,9.516144504307137,3.4381727272727267,392,15,72,5,4,113,59,88,0.109,0.826,0.066,-0.4684,0,1,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,13,0,0,9,3,1,0,3,0,8,3,3,1,0,8,14,6,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,0,0,3,0,0,3,1,0,0,4,0,0,2,2,1,0,0,0,3,13,2,9,14,0,11,0,0,0,0,19,6,0,2,2,48,16,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20791554652870964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1325929010721115,0.0,0.0,0.19182438797462015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3101965457200613,0.0,0.20976626015552308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4120530284184842,0.0,0.452517698606577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22662132227648624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20167947450198914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13917416378954614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22488495904962505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17143865240986994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19854601375332676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1603185073024581,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16135453917159626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2572638616107535,0.19723499206651407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Modest_mouski,2019/04/09,Mum with Schizophrenia Could anyone here point me in the right direction for people who have parents that suffer from severe mental illness? I know this may not be the right place to post and if it's not I do apologise. Advice welcome!,3.3086363636363667,6.227270772727278,3.396545454545457,86.38481818181822,79.9090909090909,5.3381818181818215,22.43636363636364,6.742157984588678,0.8663599999999998,190,6,32,2,5,58,40,44,0.224,0.716,0.06,-0.8061,1,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,2,0,5,1,0,0,0,8,6,2,0,2,3,2,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,4,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,3,1,5,3,0,6,0,1,0,0,4,5,0,2,0,24,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27967180257177304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2001180343129124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2285077997357306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15728830232331625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.288422774828203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3177917701732167,0.0,0.0,0.19841538099940967,0.0,0.2990185932150861,0.0,0.2705519674544489,0.0,0.2741009524787969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4888273025641097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3233250854649511,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,KattiannaWhite,2019/04/09,"Dear Schizophrenic friends. What helped you study back when you had exams? As you already know. It's such a crappy situation to focus and study when you hear voices and see things most of your present time. Which tricks did you used to help you focus and study for your exams? &#x200B; Also, i should mention that with my condition i have annoying memory problems. So if anyone has any type of advice for me in regards of keeping information in, it would be awesome.",5.25064784053156,7.429814197674418,5.1177076411960165,80.2533720930233,69.81395348837209,7.70498338870432,28.564784053156142,8.418075326091056,2.2070784053156154,375,14,64,6,7,116,66,86,0.108,0.76,0.132,0.5204,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,8,0,0,6,5,2,0,1,0,7,1,0,1,0,13,12,9,0,4,1,0,0,0,1,2,1,2,0,0,6,4,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,2,3,12,2,11,7,1,7,0,0,1,0,14,2,0,2,5,48,18,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22978900270634586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2594974231091833,0.18805194317968274,0.0,0.2547884130554364,0.2857368982219703,0.1599122517353945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.164424597351094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1808183092151088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1816787926176672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26503476668357817,0.0,0.3152364899197434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20901498446667294,0.0,0.0,0.12923405862117096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2250098711355676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18738666906088094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26432206914899553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1562253488717968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13711973225176347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20309687868746606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16704609892848066,0.0,0.2857368982219703,0.0 schizophrenia,forensicfairy,2019/04/09,Hi everyone! What is a good job for a schizophrenic? Staying out of trouble and out of a hospital is all I'm doing atm,0.2578666666666685,2.521768120000001,3.708000000000002,83.32066666666668,87.8,8.133333333333335,28.333333333333336,8.841846274778883,2.9491333333333336,93,5,19,3,3,34,20,25,0.108,0.763,0.128,0.126,1,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,3,0,3,1,0,0,1,4,4,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,5,4,1,3,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,14,1,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4942719222949776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4338600158932417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5133088624813823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5513390654923821,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,SmallTownCryptid,2019/04/09,"Activities With Your Hallucinations? Hi, all. I got really curious about this, and wanted to ask as many sources as possible. Do you do activities with your hallucinations, if they aren't malicious? (I just plain don't acknowledge negative voices.) For example, I have 5 main voices that are typically pretty chill. If they get bored, they argue, so I prevent that by painting with them, making collages, etc. I ask them to pick between activities. Typically they pick finger painting, as they can tell me what they want on paper and it doesn't have to look good. Is this a healthy or unhealthy way of dealing with them? My last therapist thought this was a good idea, as long as I didn't get carried away, but I'd like some input from outside sources regardless =) Note: I'm on meds, they just aren't helping very much. Trying to find some good ones. 👍",3.2417536071032167,5.99740772955975,4.384691083980762,80.28516093229744,78.62264150943396,7.766333703292638,27.59193488716241,8.671277953709913,2.4719564187939334,675,29,123,16,17,220,103,159,0.048,0.7909999999999999,0.161,0.9451,0,0,0,0,0,0,29.0,0,3,10,0,4,6,1,0,2,0,13,1,1,3,1,26,24,12,0,5,6,0,1,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,7,6,0,1,4,0,0,0,6,2,0,1,4,4,21,4,22,20,6,6,0,0,1,0,20,3,0,5,3,82,28,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.330381732510903,0.0,0.16601568670391695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1821701826414968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1970674697981191,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1615008129195955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18463715873596034,0.0,0.0,0.4446233190360455,0.14132331921185115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1184384423438432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19947305645385566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1440342747885467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08632680898617329,0.0,0.0,0.15637414688859075,0.14838369368777135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11794877846880016,0.17914630334188356,0.0,0.0,0.19627412604723649,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1298950035711237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11973665177303333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.199202964430836,0.0,0.17976766312400252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1131986947354712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15444379312191206,0.0,0.0,0.2051625911459987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14028024839526934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11996786015498825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1457961988106211,0.20844475262429427,0.14025642123721616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,TheStephmeister7,2019/04/09,"Communicating with parent who has schizophrenia Some background: My mom was diagnosed with schizophrenia seven years ago. She had been showing symptoms for quite a few years before that. She also was a meth addict (along with other drugs) for quite a while until the symptoms started. She eventually quit, and then the symptoms got much worse. She then got court ordered to go to a mental facility where she got diagnosed. For a court order, there had to be proof that she was endangering herself and/or others (sad). Once she was out and on medication, you couldn’t even tell she had schizophrenia. She and I had the best relationship we’ve ever had. Of course, that came to an end once she stopped taking her meds. Now she’s back where she started (and possibly using again). On top of that, her dad died. This lead to much worse symptoms. She inherited some money and his house, but she only gets $400/month through disability. She’s definitely in no condition to work right now. She can’t afford any of her bills with this small amount monthly. I would help, but I’m a broke college student struggling to pay my own rent. She’s currently living by herself in an old farmhouse with no water, gas, or electricity. She’s also way behind on her taxes so she’s likely to lose her house at any given moment. Me and all of my family members have tried various approaches to talk to her. She won’t listen to us though. I really just want to find a way to get through to her. She also holds a grudge against my uncles because they were the ones that got the court order. I KNOW the meds were working because she was so happy, conversational, and not showing even the slightest symptom. She’s also in denial that she even has schizophrenia. Any advice from people who suffer from schizophrenia or have experience with it would be appreciated. I just wish I could talk to her. I want my mom back. I know there isn't much I can actively do. But if anyone can help me find a way to communicate with her would be super helpful.",4.531775463550929,6.5304177139107615,5.02947252561172,80.8941808483617,71.33595800524935,7.435814071628144,26.726018118702914,8.155646560271837,1.7650075522817712,1603,55,292,24,31,511,199,381,0.083,0.812,0.105,0.9162,4,0,2,0,0,0,50.0,1,1,1,10,22,9,0,1,18,0,31,11,0,2,3,47,51,24,1,9,9,4,0,1,0,4,10,1,1,0,13,17,1,2,4,2,6,4,7,5,0,2,19,1,55,4,47,23,11,44,0,4,0,0,54,13,0,5,22,217,68,7,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08372958327602474,0.0,0.07505367099965712,0.06808364596021926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2456860599598112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15669159171077074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05370435263871443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11811773175140088,0.0,0.09364012094436988,0.0,0.06535601970812767,0.0,0.08060287569918091,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08784529449523662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06132312612323409,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1559123995670074,0.07971222227359345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08907026325887966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06802708013891624,0.0,0.0,0.15218838201378873,0.06947518051419252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07513074236444175,0.07240560724910075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14039809258088887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.080255648369366,0.0,0.04365046667329975,0.0,0.24571423630446065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08176112839154329,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15444378662297334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1772470018925479,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08442084175889855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03752340035058389,0.0,0.06782086724203136,0.0,0.0,0.08592596636599102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17062770410779413,0.07737369317946075,0.07740211151679746,0.0,0.0,0.17990788673955893,0.12261120274765505,0.0,0.16938314805498494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08059469412164995,0.16359119278439466,0.05204555078408607,0.058414219099415625,0.0,0.0,0.08528367445573347,0.0,0.0,0.05324742283584196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08658692094779727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24507704600538835,0.0,0.0,0.04920371772809239,0.0,0.0,0.08246061089296915,0.0,0.065591674249822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10872698283276168,0.0,0.0,0.06421302989184896,0.0,0.08029402590671256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3991528122708711,0.057748350799666816,0.12346707377016428,0.06713159387027115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07546124032381986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05214604939839134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09238783703894868,0.06633549097014901,0.0,0.0,0.0906040197194428,0.18289444174869746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08832279968037735,0.0,0.0,0.11183097321772524,0.0,0.15654320230171495,0.1636817620046374,0.0,0.0,0.09892074462823096 schizophrenia,Maddening_Disdane,2019/04/09,"Talking to yourself Is normal to talk to yourself in your head or whisper what you think very quietly? Do any of you have dialogs with your inner voices, and i dont mean voices that you actually hear but like very loud uncontrollable thoughts if that makes any sense? It might be because im alone all the time, who knows. just want someone elses point of view.",6.854130434782608,7.025978144927543,6.1867753623188415,81.430597826087,64.65217391304347,8.63913043478261,33.19202898550725,8.07648339933343,2.3116637681159427,288,11,55,3,4,88,56,69,0.08900000000000001,0.847,0.064,-0.4267,0,1,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,5,0,0,1,2,0,1,1,0,6,1,1,1,1,15,13,4,0,3,4,0,0,1,0,1,0,6,0,0,5,2,0,0,4,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,7,6,1,7,10,1,4,0,0,1,0,9,3,0,3,2,31,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.20475739069497265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21731378386487396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2853742417363271,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12790640942586382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2459114857575002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17528054359992876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2153393631539636,0.0,0.2364862440347648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2266452996647059,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11531346436966525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10250912450537483,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1400587622699185,0.0,0.0,0.2285592164099793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2225894906816349,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2055824020375476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19835095298486555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17778270300842838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3372962343276314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13444637534741133,0.0,0.16657635811256247,0.1223497236571467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3462525922551385,0.12375928955440835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,beatisachemical_,2019/04/09,"Do negative symptoms come along with positive ones or not? My father is schizophrenic and I fear I might have schizophrenia too. I'm 16 and I'm writing this post cause I experienced something strange 10 minutes ago. I was laying down in my bed with my eyes closed because I was really tired and I don't know why I started imagining the door of my room opening with a classmate of mine behind it saying ""Hi!"". And then I thought again about the door opening but this time my mind decided to put noone behind it. And I don't know why I was so fucking scared about this thing, my head started to get heavy and I just had to get up to breath. I heard some noises at my left but I'm pretty sure it was my mind messing with me. It was horrible. This might sound stupid but yeah, I literally scared myself. The door in real life was open by the way. And I don't know, I'm so worried about the fact this might be my first sign of schizophrenia. Also I don't know if I have negative symptoms (I am pretty cold with my family because I dislike them, but I love my friends) or if it's just my personality. Can someone please help me figure this out? Thank you?",1.4837768240343363,3.8121721931330486,2.832782832618026,91.3528824034335,82.43347639484979,5.788085836909873,23.053905579399142,7.087006719466742,0.7946344721030045,903,32,190,12,25,292,126,233,0.155,0.72,0.125,-0.8221,0,0,1,0,0,0,23.0,0,1,1,1,10,10,2,3,6,1,21,10,3,1,2,50,39,19,0,2,11,1,0,0,1,3,5,3,5,1,12,19,0,0,8,0,0,2,7,6,0,2,9,6,37,4,25,26,1,24,0,0,1,2,11,12,1,8,8,130,49,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10992281707343572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09916663335801364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15118441058982934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12738713916311598,0.0,0.10681919772019166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11690073597680613,0.13953993110833035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10547846165230318,0.0,0.0,0.09580583913045844,0.11464048519208328,0.12957483152371688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12726475100566031,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08311783672202919,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2725992891529625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13473163183485415,0.0,0.08758829247381232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1119192181627734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3946486470449135,0.2504190964089273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08402889530428546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1082762515093028,0.0,0.1361200868135986,0.0,0.0,0.11876236773202432,0.25231502501634034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1246591241350839,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14114466686826546,0.07944068192702658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09861363352711404,0.2483009743773146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1050689065858531,0.0954649914879449,0.0,0.0,0.17554254147692766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11687310313382215,0.2577770385166199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11416700485942903,0.0,0.0,0.08238331192352734,0.0,0.0,0.09844599904137298,0.0723082249746661,0.14252533267092488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09842927759693802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22379017793940245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12593294402440525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,revv1,2019/04/09,"Can not fall asleep anymore since reducing Seroquel xr. Can anyone share there experiences? I need to take lorazepam to fall asleep now… feels like I have brain damage from taking this medication, I used to be on 600mg xr now im on 400mg xr, anyone else have experienced this? The reduction happened 3 months ago now and I still CAN’T fall asleep without the help of other medications…",3.3491666666666653,6.227745583333334,3.9811111111111153,82.55000000000003,79.27777777777777,6.933333333333335,24.277777777777786,8.07648339933343,1.6804944444444452,310,11,56,6,8,98,51,72,0.083,0.851,0.067,-0.2773,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,4,3,0,0,2,0,6,5,4,1,0,6,12,1,0,1,2,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,1,0,0,3,3,1,0,0,0,2,4,2,8,11,0,10,0,1,0,0,2,2,0,0,6,29,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20587798612198635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2303322488669144,0.3247929458332406,0.2379703154246848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25927079972362993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1940173108329553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2271876853198897,0.0,0.0,0.1174339326369496,0.16592135989160395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20538027652788324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15567407468929234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2508727474866949,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11346692715517975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23397013931826385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18538187211970872,0.0,0.0,0.17221241820834102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19212181564754235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18547728902390573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34925021998522576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2005917441220345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22388329407051166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,harutotanaka02,2019/04/09,"Regarding diagnostic criteria for schizophrenia, what constitutes ""two voices conversing with each other""? I regularly experience auditory hallucinations, often consisting of what I call ""radio chatter"". It usually manifests as what sounds like a radio playing in another room. Sometimes it's music, sometimes it's the ""hosts"" commenting on news or the music. It's rarely distinct enough to distinguish exactly what's being said or what song is playing... just barely clear enough to make out that it's a radio... and it often seems as though it's an old timey radio show, like something from the 1940s. These arent my only hallucinations, nor are they my only symptoms. I'm just curious as to whether are not this symptom, on its own, is sufficient to classify as a significant Criterion A symptom. Have any of you experienced similar symptoms, or had experience with similar symptoms in others (patients, friends, family, etc.)? Included with occasional, mild visual and tactile hallucinations, social withdrawl, and long-term employment impact, would this still warrant a schizophrenia diagnosis despite not having a ""running commentary? Symptoms have been present off and on for 25 years (onset at 17), and persistent for 18 months. *As mentioned, there has been long-term employment impact, so I am currently without health insurance. Thanks for your time, attention, and sensitivity.",8.674847058823527,11.284569608888884,8.713986928104577,56.161176470588245,61.8,12.227450980392153,41.6797385620915,11.78182255692154,6.317452287581697,1122,64,142,39,17,365,145,225,0.011,0.911,0.078,0.9089,4,0,1,0,0,0,53.0,0,2,1,1,8,6,0,0,10,0,15,7,0,1,3,31,20,18,0,1,9,0,0,2,1,1,7,4,1,0,19,11,0,0,3,8,0,1,5,0,0,1,4,5,8,6,28,14,5,18,0,0,0,0,10,9,0,6,10,107,27,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07794233984236182,0.12018414404795875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11703504434175226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2368565037650383,0.12782636573299755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.224231528573172,0.10804911198653804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08855150273155686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12183071286933192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11199050020110958,0.0,0.0,0.20286188189094276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07650660816703221,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0914848454409588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12026948549318445,0.0,0.0,0.17434021316511544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10902540465571532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1043414718549944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1168358727738068,0.0,0.0882364637817285,0.2267149408566788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09153193311265563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7147751432745437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10552237665699173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11260895828606884,0.0,0.06683310787184098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11196250176952166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12623256915630682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11048506696289842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0814194264087311,0.0,0.0,0.07380850061346735 schizophrenia,eevie_2019,2019/04/09,"My (23F) husband (29M) has paranoid schizophrenia and is completely being distant towards me? I'm on a holiday at my parents for 3 months, Should I worry that he's being distant again towards me? Just last week he was being all loved up with me on the phone, then his birthday came this weekend and now this week he's barely calling me babe or texting me, he's not even answering my calls and I'm starting to really worry. it's happened in the past but everytime he does this I get really worried. Is this just another phase again? please somebody reassure me. I just miss him so much",3.3238260869565224,5.350309600000003,4.5941304347826115,82.60771739130438,74.73913043478261,7.382608695652173,30.630434782608692,8.238735603445708,2.458147826086956,464,22,85,8,10,153,78,115,0.096,0.8140000000000001,0.09,0.3293,1,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,0,8,3,0,0,3,0,8,1,0,0,1,14,16,7,0,1,6,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,6,5,0,0,1,2,0,1,1,1,0,0,2,0,14,2,10,10,2,19,0,1,0,1,15,7,0,1,11,58,20,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19164081695096494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3732387776643112,0.20902986671045568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19162140455499815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15993536036004247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12071189997527285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09548506597766278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1616149261432733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14897458697246085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1649489149207933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14587806617769794,0.0,0.1343503449800633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20293443384183216,0.0,0.17446602996351526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2006166678735391,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23416272021080736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12935915839290946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29319965948985593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5568079229984114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Itpaints,2019/04/10,"Unmedicated Schizophrenics, how do you cope? I was diagnosed with schizophrenia 2 years ago and have been on Latuda for 5 years. In the past I was on Thorazine, Seroquel, Abilfy, and Risperidal. I stopped taking my Latuda 3 weeks ago because I want to start painting again and lose weight. I thought I was doing well until a week ago people around me have been gently suggesting maybe I go back on it. There has to be a way to live without an antipsychotic. How do I do this? (I've never posted on Reddit before, so I'm also not sure how to do this...)",3.4865005192108,5.394805915887854,4.3756386292834915,84.86684319833853,73.95327102803739,6.250882658359295,24.973001038421607,6.937597516519254,1.0272147455867078,431,14,82,4,9,139,75,107,0.07,0.866,0.064,-0.1336,0,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,1,0,1,10,3,0,0,4,0,14,3,0,3,2,15,20,9,0,1,2,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,3,5,1,1,1,0,0,1,3,1,1,0,6,1,11,2,14,13,0,23,0,1,0,0,2,6,0,0,14,60,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4921000582485857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14798233691309992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16473141608831254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1422900263719171,0.0,0.1128031759591072,0.0,0.1574617058750407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18781921323032216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10516670040976547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16340024220487925,0.0,0.0,0.2070207044947647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18590498283456194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14271996075075366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17664867944905513,0.128288565775963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1772242549655708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13097750037372485,0.0,0.0,0.15470791017155686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17440498218376926,0.0,0.1391326134760771,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14690696360833866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10914574944949627,0.14688201087635352,0.29686772075129364,0.22533787807779385,0.1663798336381965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17837908774391673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2383289139264008 schizophrenia,mzclita,2019/04/10,"How to Help I would like to know what is the best way to help someone with a mental disorder. I believe my nephew, 15 years old, may be schizophrenic. He has not been diagnosed. We have been waiting for a year to find out if he has Autism or something else. He has incredible difficulties learning, communicating, understanding basic concepts, understanding basic human interactions and expressions. He is also extremely lazy and his parents do not help him. He plays games and is on his phone all the time. Last year, he had a breakdown and was taken to a children’s mental hospital for two nights. It was the most heartbreaking thing I have experienced. He was suicidal and was hearing things. He seems to be having another episode. Last weekend, he said he felt something in his heart like he wanted to hurt someone. I took him outside and told him to breathe and try to calm his thoughts and brought his notebook for him and told him to draw the sunset. That seemed to help him. Yesterday, he was texting me asking weird questions (what is an alpha, beta, omega; what’s a wolf pack; what’s a black sheep and white sheep) and last night he was pretty worked up. He was saying things that didn’t make sense at all — that he was trying to understand “them” but he can’t say who them is. And a lot of other things that don’t make sense. I spoke to him pretty sternly and told him that he needed to sleep so he could think better in the morning. I said when he doesn’t get sleep, he doesn’t think clearly. To stop worrying and go to sleep and tomorrow will be another day and he should wake up and try to make it a good one. In the past, I’ve told him to try to think whether the stuff he is thinking makes sense or not. And if it doesn’t make sense, he should stop worrying about it. But the thing is that I don’t know what makes sense to him because of the way his brain works. I don’t know if saying “what you’re thinking is not correct. Think of it this way” helps him or not. I just read on another thread that someone was upset because their family goes along with their delusions. So is correcting him good? Also, he had a doctor visit today and she said he was having a paranoia episode. Also, it is so hard to try to help him. I feel awful and I don’t know if I can. He is not on meds. He was last year but it was terrible, he was a zombie and had drooling and other bad side effects. They changed the meds a few times and overall, it was the same, no improvement. In fact, when he was on some meds, he had several panic attacks (he constantly worries that he doesn’t know the future and can’t see it anymore; also he worries about dreams he has).",3.7611406844106448,5.189156131178709,4.367017110266161,87.17482224334603,72.28897338403041,7.465323193916353,26.45798479087453,7.993328176185818,1.4557902661596964,2079,70,428,29,40,661,227,526,0.116,0.7909999999999999,0.094,-0.9266,1,0,2,0,0,0,61.0,1,0,5,5,13,16,1,2,25,1,62,11,8,8,6,97,106,45,1,10,18,2,3,2,0,5,3,8,0,2,33,29,0,3,23,5,0,4,18,8,0,2,35,16,40,8,45,62,8,45,0,2,3,0,90,13,0,14,27,268,73,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19403288477238148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19081576495170707,0.0,0.0,0.06015648694463682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05670708912682958,0.06900728949978306,0.0,0.0,0.05064693860787384,0.07395316934238304,0.0,0.0,0.06834085128235337,0.06365688185735915,0.053647116479529335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06771444535199198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06416817462176179,0.0,0.0,0.06554980359001668,0.0,0.04843051765695645,0.0,0.0,0.039119424556697834,0.0,0.0,0.06156664457218133,0.0,0.0,0.06951938121688722,0.062086085146361936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05067201785061344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05718301172861494,0.0,0.030670532981310082,0.0,0.05824124108073182,0.0,0.05544035938478952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.031691327898158386,0.0,0.03447336805216581,0.10175418997421616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0543376989308853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06836603158023864,0.07188008208247504,0.24394687642048254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06493569778507433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16668039147267136,0.19777762882172265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05926891918641015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05156930551386911,0.0,0.0,0.24293831897537604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2021322596947865,0.0,0.1222580962675252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.044977175964796036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11384694290004135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06365042037928187,0.0,0.04110346496604488,0.0,0.0,0.07116915293570016,0.06735358685527981,0.0,0.057904972951028026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12342208895654687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06795089897986095,0.0,0.06067446558427021,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1730990901782194,0.14471314954854825,0.0,0.0,0.048336612947186185,0.11044162231723792,0.0,0.06852633161168538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18210557151914855,0.0,0.15418610842972735,0.0933950617558195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10142569286941804,0.0,0.0,0.06943895568770507,0.06635006221579963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20149256771573645,0.2332033775672431,0.0,0.04815571664950822,0.07074039427129067,0.0,0.05749673946057968,0.2318454673753567,0.06739332617606095,0.2059141734762662,0.0,0.05925410152976829,0.18944150985654207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03577768987180825,0.1444426116285923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0883195666204571,0.24640477940516456,0.0,0.0430897388203213,0.0,0.0,0.15624718347624122 schizophrenia,Lawkbutt,2019/04/10,"Anyone Else Really Lazy? Hello, I was diagnosed with schizophrenia at 20(I'm 25 now) and over time I've noticed that I've become more lethargic in work and in my various hobbies. Is that ""normal"" for us, or am I just lazy?",3.004069767441859,5.2397763255813965,4.24436046511628,83.77956395348839,76.44186046511628,7.090697674418602,24.703488372093023,8.07648339933343,1.6486790697674418,174,6,32,3,4,57,35,43,0.185,0.815,0.0,-0.799,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,1,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,0,6,3,3,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,4,0,6,2,2,6,0,0,0,0,2,4,0,1,2,22,6,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2272165238631602,0.3329554323583024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3588879498723392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32982311224473904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2714587216397029,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3183875112580082,0.0,0.36996412514991,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20817489000438916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18948423421567626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.390881598004652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23657156027655224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Bobo9062,2019/04/10,"Do you truly believe your delusions? If someone asks me I say no, I know they arent but I still get a very real physical response from the fear and paranoia I feel. I know aliens arent targeting me, but that didnt stop me from flying down a gravel road at 40mph because I was convinced aliens were going to jump out of the bushes and grab the door handles and open them and get me. I was convinced they were following me. The worst delusion I had was when I thought if I thought about any one of my animals, the animal I thought about would die. I love my pets more than anything. I was constantly trying not to think about my favorite goat, my dog, my horse, but because I was trying so hard I ended up thinking about them :'( I am diagnosed with bipolar 1, not schizo but I only went to the psychiatrist during my first psychosis and lied the whole time so they would let me go and continued to lie after they let me out of the hospital so they would leave me alone. I even went as far as to pick up the prescriptions they gave me every month just to throw them away because I was convinced they would know I wasnt taking them and come and find me and lock me up again. Sometimes I feel like I'm faking being crazy and I could just shut up and not say anything sometimes I feel like a poser but why cant I be normal? I feel like I have a disease where I have to constantly act like I'm crazy but I dont want to I just end up doing it and i cant stop. I told everyone after i got out of the hospital i was just like that because of stress and it was all a scheme made by my mom and I was normal and she was the one that was crazy and looking back I'm embarrassed because I obviously am crazy",2.310069936862554,3.777818557746482,3.643292860611947,90.74521126760565,76.09859154929578,6.699368625546383,24.354055366682854,7.372421405659032,0.9159839728023312,1328,43,293,16,29,435,164,355,0.16,0.725,0.115,-0.941,2,1,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,2,11,1,17,14,0,3,16,0,36,3,0,2,2,65,68,30,1,10,15,1,6,5,0,4,2,2,2,0,5,22,0,2,13,0,0,9,11,5,0,3,25,9,67,9,37,34,4,41,0,0,1,1,21,16,0,2,21,209,72,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09845413746841374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06464448394889435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1564535873878887,0.0,0.08886885100820925,0.0,0.08931258526062154,0.07309575195691606,0.0,0.2897403697258224,0.0,0.0,0.10710077036051176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08188631015728852,0.0,0.20545352683611676,0.0,0.07589817294766052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09648453214241813,0.09865791936317034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1114103431142004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16839099439034047,0.0,0.0,0.06278664547909055,0.0,0.08009267547912348,0.09083449977051022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10696963019694647,0.19226203057344635,0.2037339859013852,0.0,0.0,0.0868836879810391,0.08085851803904245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09933050490159072,0.0,0.10805028635227946,0.0,0.07602866480282246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.085155647111731,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15672849836441233,0.0,0.0,0.10065547492932833,0.0,0.19441185677121706,0.0,0.23220909544546914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07982698235866377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08579592439033773,0.08994866070539805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11133385368324923,0.07587648298262757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18627845607692284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1288310777447524,0.07229788799253999,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10819980129879984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15119204699310407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08054455805887421,0.0,0.1880347752559849,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.075915536958212,0.15894987605265998,0.10889162338187088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07147375865390941,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12182201869730133,0.0,0.2264025507576579,0.05543061419267024,0.0,0.0,0.09083449977051022,0.0,0.12907984722836327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07843497018550658,0.056069218850652164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17624430126085386,0.08577742724160489,0.10613179165752404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2701133588882472,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,kinarose,2019/04/10,Developed incontinence due to aps I am so pissed off!!! Now I have to wear incontinence underwear probably for the foreseeable future wtf!!!,4.380652173913042,7.685900000000004,6.148152173913044,61.224836956521756,92.47826086956522,12.734782608695653,31.83695652173913,10.125756701596842,6.242921739130434,112,6,16,6,4,38,20,23,0.35200000000000004,0.648,0.0,-0.9069,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,2,1,1,0,1,0,2,2,2,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,4,2,0,4,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,3,11,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,rgmt16,2019/04/10,"I visited my best friend (who has Schizophrenia) at a psych ward and she said really hurtful/mean things to me. What do I do when she gets out/returns to normal? I (23yo female) have been best friends with a girl (24yo female) for the last 10+ years. In the past few years it almost feels like I’ve kind of taken on the role as her secondary caretaker (after her parents of course). We spend a lot of time together and I help her with regular ""adulting"" things (e.g., I taught her how to drive, helped her start classes at comm. college, apply for jobs, budgeting, basic computer skills, etc.), but also fun stuff like dating, exercising, etc. She had her first manic episode (and psych ward visit) at 18yo and they diagnosed her with bipolar disorder. Last year, she went to a new psychiatrist and they also diagnosed her with Schizophrenia based on her symptoms (which seems more accurate since she was adopted from Russia as a baby and her birth mom had Schizophrenia). She has random periods where she goes on/off her meds, and we can usually tell, but it just got really bad the past few weeks after she dropped her classes and wasn't working/doing anything, but being alone with her thoughts. Two weeks ago, she ended up back in the psych ward for the first time in \~7 years and after a week of being there and being off her meds, I decided to visit her, along with her other friend. I never visited her the first time she was there, so I only heard some things about it through her mom, and she did warn me it could be bad. It was the worst experience of my life. I sat down with her and she flipped me off immediately and ignored me. However, she smiled/laughed at her other friend visiting, so that was strange. When I tried to talk to her, she would turn her head towards me slowly and stare creepily into my eyes for several minutes before breaking the glance and turning back to her other friend. She looked like she wanted to hurt/kill me, so I was getting scared and so was her other friend. Her lip would shake a little, but she just had this flat stare/expression and wouldn’t blink or say anything. I was absolutely horrified. Then she told me she “hated me” and that she “never knew me”. She told me to get the “f\*ck” out, so I left and called her parents. My heart was literally broken! I was crying and very shaken up, I still am. It was so scary to see her like that and for her to say those things to me. When she gets out and back on her medication, what do I do? Do I just forget what she said to me and pretend it didn’t happen? Is that fair to myself or to her (to not know the truth)? Also, I’m kind of scared to be alone with her now. Seeing how she was off her meds and how she quickly turned on me, frightened me. How do I know she won’t act like this again the next time she randomly decides to go off her meds? I really don’t know what to do or how to react when she gets out. Any advice from people in a similar situation (from either side) would be appreciated. &#x200B; TL;DR I visited my best friend of 10+ years at a psych ward and she said really hurtful/mean things to me. What do I do when she gets out/returns to normal?",5.185494093921059,5.602163807383629,5.5652006420545765,83.6149261225666,68.22953451043338,8.701140058443428,27.37082767419846,8.617729084823388,1.7415307980409105,2464,71,505,36,39,788,265,623,0.116,0.7909999999999999,0.094,-0.9576,4,2,0,0,0,1,104.0,2,0,2,7,33,27,1,3,21,0,46,11,4,6,3,85,82,54,0,8,12,4,1,5,7,5,7,6,0,2,31,40,0,1,9,2,2,11,8,8,0,4,31,13,109,19,79,39,12,88,0,0,6,0,101,29,0,9,51,370,140,10,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05975463631776791,0.05420538994767033,0.0,0.0612324451602541,0.12666499212557492,0.0,0.1467038283974568,0.0,0.06625551606386072,0.07430340109722483,0.04158379353521588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10064174510117803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14106069715464428,0.10211464651609266,0.0,0.0,0.05203376646098873,0.0,0.19251805245846584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.062440531425349464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04882294297608981,0.0,0.06716991355799723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12413101996835844,0.0,0.0,0.07008268647728583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05416035457451725,0.0,0.1363958334263138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05981599735863213,0.0,0.0,0.030919051772259905,0.04368525349885215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15604133783590576,0.0,0.0,0.3307079553922471,0.0,0.19168870823573853,0.0,0.03475270065305388,0.0,0.04890688434326619,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054074348532620393,0.0,0.0,0.06037252460967095,0.06275708391139917,0.0,0.0,0.07246251575271469,0.0819745139558142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06546186213679471,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06068149667928153,0.0,0.0,0.12735570080540767,0.10081858681434508,0.0996900958431346,0.0,0.0,0.06643916919464696,0.0,0.04319173830144635,0.1493729161739063,0.0612879175361487,0.0,0.0,0.05135022433725794,0.0,0.0,0.05198716396661392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13321958152824326,0.27169347665202226,0.06160174225884778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14323523685962858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09432461138099904,0.059058620169045166,0.06503324426115366,0.0,0.11982715901460955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04650699121816358,0.0,0.0,0.1357986860088042,0.0,0.1167483367592701,0.042393401202569854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15669588011692068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17450168649540174,0.09725715919239586,0.12244274208799767,0.0,0.09745655474069954,0.05566825722135193,0.0,0.06908159033805772,0.0,0.0505835428585306,0.06873466060924746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04328196896011622,0.0,0.04883411270605915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07000160927193991,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06355780021091614,0.0,0.04914969509212209,0.05344740535301033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2031252321805048,0.0,0.0,0.04854591529673587,0.14262718643963312,0.0,0.0,0.11686203844763204,0.0,0.04151653311166445,0.199539465203513,0.05973422874764121,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06734759443753259,0.05045478603732753,0.036067591199422544,0.0,0.1471514508769274,0.0,0.0,0.05668624906328984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13031666579617715,0.0,0.07430340109722483,0.1968915391083848 schizophrenia,MoonKatUltra,2019/04/10,"Diagnosed with schizoaffective few days ago, feeling lost Lately I've been crawling in my own skin, discovering my inner world - which is a disorder to society. I'm having this really scary 'delusion' that life is a dream, and the only way to wake up is suicide. At least I'm aware of it. Anyway, just wanted to ask for advice or reading material so I can get to know myself better.",4.074018264840181,6.011681904109594,5.804315068493153,75.11871004566213,72.42465753424658,8.702283105022829,27.235159817351605,9.2995712137729,2.6398146118721457,301,11,52,7,6,103,62,73,0.16399999999999998,0.7559999999999999,0.081,-0.8221,0,0,0,0,0,1,9.0,0,0,0,2,3,2,0,0,3,0,6,4,2,0,0,7,14,3,1,1,2,0,2,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,4,2,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,2,4,1,10,12,3,9,0,1,0,0,1,5,0,1,3,35,8,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2601084834568827,0.2359529342543265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.248842816175234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2354150027801515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1716643884166082,0.0,0.0,0.2701675831664723,0.0,0.0,0.30506588977047483,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1345888480291194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13906831410218426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14628583005727255,0.0,0.30026317435819283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1880111442350993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2905674363681431,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20244224885863984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2662525112539002,0.0,0.17052203081116593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2911582412254328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15700014303383925,0.2112816745773132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Texas--Toast,2019/04/10,"what's it like? I'm just going to make it clear that I do not have schizophrenia. But I've been trying to find out more about it as I have come to find it (and just mental disorders in general really) quite fascinating and thought this would be the perfect place to find out more about it. I just want to know what it's like to have it, or any past experiences with it.",5.933961038961041,4.807087818181817,6.322694805194807,84.01832792207794,66.92207792207792,10.297402597402598,28.34090909090909,9.516144504307137,1.93385974025974,290,7,67,5,4,94,48,77,0.0,0.7959999999999999,0.204,0.9371,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,2,5,3,0,0,1,0,7,0,0,1,2,23,14,5,0,2,6,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,12,6,0,0,5,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,2,0,3,3,13,10,2,7,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,1,3,46,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15390941589512488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19495977686323326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2593891615719381,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2213902203716684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6205734898532541,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12862626046274395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1243828303353087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2211428667219408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15107433775942833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2280833382799966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21605374101005906,0.0,0.0,0.2364624603203013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2407255206751414,0.0,0.0,0.14499020731203818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17967753377496268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15366047245775202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1334929168871089,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.160775470513565,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Au5tin370,2019/04/10,"I don't know what happy feels like. After looking back throughout my life (medicated or not), I don't think I've felt happy. I feel like a fraud with a fake smile. When my voices were more active I always felt like I was trudging through mud only to feel content once on medication. Now years later, off medication and in a better spot in life I'm still only content. Its hard to tell someone you love them when nothing brings you joy. How do you deal with this?",2.9552173913043482,4.8901473478260895,4.029782608695655,86.65380434782612,75.52173913043478,5.9043478260869575,23.45652173913044,6.6274283507984215,0.6704086956521733,364,11,72,3,8,118,65,92,0.166,0.6409999999999999,0.192,0.4069,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,3,1,1,6,9,0,0,3,0,5,6,0,1,0,13,16,5,0,0,2,0,6,3,0,0,5,1,0,0,3,3,0,0,7,0,0,1,3,1,0,0,4,8,11,8,10,12,1,13,0,0,1,1,7,4,0,1,11,42,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13339935725339852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12327643750894995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14179030327220882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16528322021565292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2431883272570474,0.2290657510550909,0.3078653160766953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34132794409004663,0.14361552523450372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0881078604307044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2264779801187535,0.2349732449067557,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1346286991898818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1446953568226798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4845175966712383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15383168015172394,0.0,0.0,0.17073591877589395,0.0,0.2438616700022371,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13583889504390453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12803202234383645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14012703450896635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1027267937814208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10324103597897176 schizophrenia,erika19831983,2019/04/10,Reality or delusions? I have this thing where I think I remember when I was all out someone with me in the bed premonitioning my future for me. Could it be just my twisted memory and a visual hallucination rather than reality? Because I feel I know what is going to happen to me and I don't know what to do about it.,3.368437499999999,4.855857718750002,5.995750000000001,74.87425000000003,73.375,8.870000000000003,26.8625,9.3871,2.3484412500000005,250,9,50,6,5,90,47,64,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,5,0,0,0,2,0,7,0,0,0,1,14,13,4,0,2,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,6,4,0,0,5,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,1,12,0,9,10,1,6,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,1,2,44,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24038168052957798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3148427397181096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19938656656219494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22410847890855934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3487072880637245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4334301068615982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4467023139319213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3341169931208728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2619772619479612,0.2526726048537337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,SJenkins114,2019/04/10,"Antipsychotics/weight gain Hi everyone! I am wondering if anyone has had any experiences with APs that don’t cause massive weight gain (or have a lower risk of causing weight gain, I should say). I am going to see a psychiatrist in a few weeks, but have been managing without any APs for the last several years. My issues are mostly related to anxiety and depression, which have gotten kind of bad these last few months. I have been on celexa and mirtazipine for the last few years to help. I also have auditory hallucinations, but they are manageable (currently, they haven’t always been). I’d like to know if I have any options with a lower risk of weight gain because I just lost the 75 pds I gained from seroquel a few years ago. I really don’t want to go through that again, but I’d also like to have some assistance in managing the psychotic symptoms given that my mood stuff is not good right now. If anyone has any recommendations, I’d really appreciate :)",6.7822451029633335,7.34983405524862,7.256002009040683,72.34800100452038,64.80110497237571,11.443696634856856,31.924158714213963,11.20814326018867,3.7052607734806617,768,28,140,22,11,252,103,181,0.133,0.6940000000000001,0.173,0.8507,3,0,0,0,0,0,22.0,0,0,2,6,5,10,0,2,9,0,22,4,0,2,0,23,31,11,0,5,10,0,3,2,0,1,1,1,0,0,6,4,3,0,2,0,0,2,5,5,0,0,7,5,13,4,19,23,6,18,0,2,1,0,5,4,0,8,14,90,19,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1034513044232825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1866567442371546,0.09710731157505567,0.0,0.0,0.3174516547700943,0.0,0.08927845626502631,0.0,0.0,0.1632046949109971,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09744320069471438,0.07114184707227013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23977489049194475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1005172270428926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1115159426640276,0.0,0.1141591815519458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13265146577715206,0.09788601471011874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07822442017648497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1218089496409255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12152955072161567,0.06413762128406326,0.2853886983289999,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11403163440844785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12739650985994191,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09315224443593843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14952750281382712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09966481913168776,0.0,0.09280792918074576,0.0,0.0,0.09299820296706228,0.0,0.0,0.1318426200605914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13359848158831245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12130043422695172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06883520920314548,0.0,0.09361313549380086,0.5684575004381689,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11249876320653568,0.12656081551325113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2254611938443833 schizophrenia,dontgainfame,2019/04/10,"What are your hobbies? Hey there, I'm curious what you do as a hobby or spend your time with? Lately I've struggle a lot, to find something that I would like to do. Maybe I find interest in something you're doing.",1.946590909090912,3.82615047727273,3.45,89.92000000000002,78.31818181818181,6.218181818181819,24.63636363636364,7.1686216300943375,1.0112454545454548,167,6,35,2,4,55,33,44,0.053,0.759,0.188,0.7059,0,0,2,0,0,0,6.0,0,3,0,0,1,3,0,1,2,0,5,0,0,0,0,6,6,2,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,5,2,5,5,1,3,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,2,3,23,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5538548688054845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3417859957239571,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1480256433422319,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25759132206861285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3043942494544774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4665131165260926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31675100684722496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17667594611193685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2152354521689781,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,m4ttyyy,2019/04/10,"Some people ""play along"" when im having an episode and i dont find out until after, which stresses me out and causes another episode It just complicates things and makes my parents consider upping my Invega again (I'm a minor so they have main control over my meds). It makes me confused. It makes me hurt. It makes me wish I had normal thoughts...",2.6175053304904026,5.153945462686568,3.4652452025586378,87.26626865671642,79.44776119402985,6.216631130063965,24.49680170575693,7.447530270364453,1.3272831556503195,274,10,51,4,7,87,49,67,0.125,0.802,0.073,-0.5574,1,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,1,1,4,4,0,2,2,0,4,0,0,6,0,19,11,6,0,2,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,6,6,0,1,2,1,0,0,1,3,0,0,2,0,10,1,7,9,2,8,0,1,0,0,2,4,0,2,4,38,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22019659599368052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21572126938052344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23552567500391264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2461109315770033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19193034318133906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2248024886366156,0.0,0.2268291196981171,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5606894261419484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2332555464511394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20574913906702585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2331730382536924,0.0,0.0,0.14558311940765134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2405469557164354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1395104147928038,0.0,0.0,0.1667114593997238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2414822728966189,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,logan___keith,2019/04/11,Schizophrenia I love shitting on the floors at school and watching the janitors pick it up with their bare hands in disgust and horror.,12.353749999999998,10.16070354166667,9.011666666666667,73.20000000000003,55.25,11.266666666666667,44.83333333333333,8.841846274778883,4.1936333333333335,111,5,18,1,1,31,22,24,0.31,0.565,0.125,-0.7351,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,1,0,0,3,2,0,2,0,0,3,2,1,0,4,1,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,2,1,5,1,0,5,0,0,1,1,2,5,1,0,0,12,3,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5306756973485283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5950680378201528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.603553920216352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,mh8010,2019/04/11,"Seroquel side effects I'm diagnosed schizoaffective, and originally posted it on their subreddit but this sub seems more active. I'm on 200 mg of Seroquel and I'm being introduced to it in my system, starting at 25mg and then gradual increments by 25 over the past few weeks, I'm at 200mg presently. I've been noticing that I've been having general (I can't really determine which side of my chest its from) chest pains recently and occasionally it spreads to my left arm and slightly less occasionally my entire upper body. Sometimes this triggers a dissociative,depersonalized state. In the hospital this past November and December they told me that my heart rate is much higher than normal, and this was before I was put on seroquel. I'm aware of tachycardia but was wondering does this usually happen?",7.78748299319728,8.667063938775513,8.27931972789116,64.79544217687075,62.673469387755105,12.247619047619047,37.421768707483004,11.855464076750405,5.019674829931971,657,31,105,21,9,218,95,147,0.026,0.945,0.029,0.0745,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,2,1,0,1,0,0,3,0,9,7,5,3,0,16,19,10,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,12,7,0,0,3,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,6,0,10,0,16,12,4,25,0,0,0,0,3,12,0,2,9,64,22,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17275726886910675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22551232684234895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2060636529910608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17766643469950744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17953220386949054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2405827440189065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22058463564433656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14924496208669671,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19891903023422566,0.0,0.2311425617967695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21603034754026051,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3876160650154672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19443951845352966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20409377592030387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1300614684136677,0.0,0.2004603125918968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18482413890745186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.200794530575159,0.0,0.14370043257262696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1939967829527157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22360069760960555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16285247377254378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22016933606895733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Paranoiadestroyer,2019/04/11,"My new subreddit (mostly) for people experiecing mental health issues in the UK! Hello all! I'd like to introduce [My brand new subreddit](www.reddit.com/r/MentalHealthUK). As someone from the UK who has dealt with mental health issues for years, I've noticed a lack of active UK spaces and would like to try and change that if there is the demand for it. Anyone is welcome to participate but I would prefer it if people who are not from the UK only talk about their specific healthcare processes/systems if relevant to a comments discussion rather than promoting it - just so we dont get swamped out due to uneven population. I'm hoping it can be a sub where people can either ask questions, give support, vent or promote their own blogs or work if related to mental health/therapy. My inbox is always open too! Thanks for reading if you got this far 🙂",7.842222222222222,8.157236859872615,7.748365180467091,70.58111818825195,62.566878980891715,10.544656758669495,33.36801132342533,10.25414643259724,3.4997365888181173,685,25,112,14,9,220,111,157,0.018000000000000002,0.8220000000000001,0.16,0.9722,0,0,0,0,0,0,23.0,1,1,2,3,7,6,0,0,7,0,11,2,0,0,1,26,19,12,0,11,12,0,0,2,0,2,2,0,0,0,8,6,0,0,2,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,8,6,19,15,5,10,0,0,0,0,14,6,0,10,6,75,16,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11494000995256705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09658772832402407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12913827943864664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1461293075163747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1618940703994033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07217022811276448,0.1325123986139012,0.0,0.0,0.11047977833928704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4404955286852507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13719996835530984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2883556687329018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13497230003823188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4176250388409417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26682473655464545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1572684671082079,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10505846262761012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2872978087319062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1547436540243224,0.0,0.13817313165004105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11704197283824865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15675481229235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11102828348477356,0.0,0.1271768396187027,0.15797026895139032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09378510688595704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10056447130114242,0.0,0.0,0.1962553472025856,0.0,0.0,0.08895489414087136 schizophrenia,Anonschiz41,2019/04/11,"Stuck in a dream I've had 5 episodes of psychosis and diagnosed with schizophrenia this past year. I'm 23 and Male. After the first 4 episodes I've had doubts about what I experienced but this time the beliefs stuck even though I'm on 6 mg invega. I now believe I'm stuck in some kind of dream/simulation and you are all part of my mind. My brain isnt ""awake"" enough for you to tell me the truth about this so you go on living undercover until the next time I'm ready to wake up. There is a way out and it requires me to be off my meds and possibly the use of psychedelics or some other method such as meditation or hard work to lift myself out of depression for me to leave this realm or experience true reality. Music, TV, peoples conversations, the environment, it was all connected to my mind. It was my mind and it was trying to tell me something. Where do I go from here?",4.971695607763023,5.2295151685393275,5.702931562819206,82.99697139938716,68.66292134831461,9.394075587334015,28.541368743615926,9.339509955726095,2.0728471910112365,692,22,151,13,11,226,108,178,0.09,0.846,0.064,-0.3919,0,0,2,0,0,0,16.0,0,3,0,3,10,5,0,1,8,0,10,3,2,1,4,26,20,14,0,0,4,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,10,9,0,1,1,2,0,2,1,2,0,1,8,2,16,3,29,11,6,21,1,1,0,0,7,9,0,6,9,98,26,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1860195965762248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1843145581362241,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1422068353224295,0.16758062229210513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17060016852918156,0.0,0.1090519370036309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16150680245659227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14044034281680398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18766877782054964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14790387658828666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1719340387185865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17482498750023456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14579293460139786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1833971955666576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5001344804895926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1755936839274604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17879531718402222,0.15761377720632508,0.11446474147101113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1861338820399978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12710780875592628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2886224394591772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16221726620229393,0.0,0.19255100510266032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11209714471107997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14259985591527335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1310546368650277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12020021586098308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10632380739719728 schizophrenia,michigan14,2019/04/11,"Got released from the psych ward today!! Sorry this isn't a meme guys... Just wanted to vent... I got released today, and was diagnosed with Schizophrenia/schizoaffective disorder ,i was hospitalized because i has a severe psychotic episode and my family found out i has been self harming for a year,still feel akward just walking around, still have symptoms and still hear voices, thankfully the visions have somewhat stopped but i still can't trust what's real and what's not... The voices right now are telling me to kill myself and self harm again, i feel like the drugs aren't working but i've been told to have patience, eating, sleeping and walking are much harder. Anyway just needed to tell someone and be listened so thank you for reading....",5.6745858585858615,7.9646061555555585,4.92969696969697,81.57818181818183,68.92592592592592,6.983164983164983,30.79124579124579,7.686295010490155,2.208407407407408,601,25,98,7,11,180,90,135,0.168,0.755,0.077,-0.9166,0,0,1,0,0,1,25.0,0,1,0,1,11,7,1,0,7,0,15,5,1,0,0,24,27,10,1,2,6,0,2,1,0,0,3,4,0,3,3,10,1,1,3,1,0,2,4,3,0,0,8,6,10,4,10,18,2,13,0,0,0,0,9,3,0,1,9,67,13,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1281202474509221,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08773293619586685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1460768361403872,0.0,0.0,0.16494599192740358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16690272598179925,0.14726716398343456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13567595720603962,0.0,0.1455416143524431,0.10281722680970076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15780200269484002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.230213622096048,0.0,0.0,0.14250446664226854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16220948310747327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15922731804354362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07031255525108714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10579853144922384,0.10671563488836876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14395999698615666,0.16381366312081194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12290779024854966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3002820861334799,0.16258982089572954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14402498796712607,0.0,0.12194383854397572,0.0,0.0,0.1611078323799715,0.0,0.0,0.344806609096223,0.12032444207951648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1495890772382291,0.0,0.0,0.2515866823899681,0.26500633270132484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27284065412863723,0.1375227307863724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0848883641004403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10477623842306973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0926804375025535 schizophrenia,fernmcklauf,2019/04/11,Schizophrenia is when your layers of abstraction become topological and intersect I finally understand and had to share. It's when you become unable to traverse one layer in a cartesian plane. 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I heard Rexulti is a good one to take I’m thinking about switching from Invega,3.5571428571428565,6.0207354285714345,5.362142857142857,75.32035714285716,75.66666666666667,9.914285714285716,29.54761904761905,10.125756701596842,3.6239333333333335,88,4,16,3,2,30,17,21,0.0,0.7340000000000001,0.266,0.7003,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,6,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,1,2,4,5,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,8,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24960923114866174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6157347742211506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3697681768650402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24872521443085255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5519576878055494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2351933109099509,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Lord_Webthryst,2019/04/11,"Im beginning to believe my dog isnt real. Ive had hallucinations for years. Mainly voices and demons and all that typical stuff. But lately the medication has been helping tremendously. But not for my delusions entirely. Thats what im not used to. Voices telling me things is one thing. I can tune them out pretty well now. But when my own mind starts to come up with its own ideas, i get a little worried. The most recent one that actually scared me was that im going to take off a virtual reality helmet at any second and theres going to be a bunch of unimaginable beings around me laughing about how i actually believed i was in this wacky world where the sky is blue and dogs exist. So now every time i look at my dog i get scared and the one line replays in my head. ""You actually believed in dogs?""",2.925962732919256,4.8536265341614975,4.652763975155281,82.18734472049692,75.58385093167702,7.58136645962733,24.54347826086957,8.418075326091056,1.6226447204968943,636,21,126,12,14,215,104,161,0.049,0.882,0.068,0.4576,0,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,1,1,0,10,4,0,2,7,0,12,2,1,2,1,21,22,11,0,0,5,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,10,9,0,0,1,0,0,3,3,2,1,4,4,4,17,2,19,16,6,25,1,0,2,0,4,13,0,1,9,92,27,0,0.0,0.0,0.3686223602517135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08562599066374893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1120903554601327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4255866395446575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1084639554793253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10608816505104758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1315699711061665,0.0,0.1431199113249928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1292243209251899,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08439765074224925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14214183349530193,0.40802690940138103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14203673004019246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12619913212840164,0.0,0.0,0.10573623654513066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12684533466288492,0.0,0.0,0.12713747296258027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.255968212281511,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12810003362796313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14331795398281594,0.0,0.0,0.12432510660941865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2521242099278877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08912273640809243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1441416627102684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09467182684977356,0.0,0.11005458239116156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16730363207031967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07342159707082989,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10874946259343043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11321200980816645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12787200733170745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08108463252727714 schizophrenia,HilariousHeathen,2019/04/11,"Informal Poll on medication, what worked for you? I am curious, I realize that we are not all the best examples of this illness because just based on the fact that we are on this sub a good portion of us are highly-functional despite our diagnosis. I was just wondering what everyone is prescribed because when I first started getting treated they were basically just throwing medications at me until one stuck. So I want to know if certain medicines are more popular based on doctors or if there are certain ones that are more effective. &#x200B; My current meds are 20mg of Saphris before bed each night and 25mg of hydroxyzine as needed for occasional bouts of anxiety although I really only need it once or twice a month. &#x200B; I settled on Saphris after trying at least 10 or 11 other medications that all had one or more side effects I found too unpleasant to continue. I literally remember my psychiatrist telling me something along the lines of ""There are maybe 2 or 3 more medications we can try before we have run out of preferable options.""",11.6178125,9.24197682291667,10.978333333333332,59.100000000000016,56.8125,14.6,49.52083333333333,13.023866798666859,6.533320833333333,858,49,137,24,8,280,129,192,0.068,0.8420000000000001,0.09,0.4915,1,0,1,0,0,0,20.0,6,1,1,5,8,6,0,0,5,0,15,6,0,2,5,37,24,13,0,6,11,0,0,0,0,0,6,0,1,0,10,8,0,0,9,0,0,2,1,0,0,5,5,0,21,6,23,19,10,20,0,0,0,0,10,9,0,9,9,106,31,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2694458370368168,0.3021747213322885,0.0,0.0,0.0951201695011773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15159367299212728,0.0,0.2116092755921761,0.0,0.13048772105095593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12726780708294766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11881271039003385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10576399617559226,0.0,0.13633297955865822,0.0,0.0,0.06496279795443985,0.0,0.0,0.10429094207656757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0683343066532426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12491678064829495,0.0,0.13811430463273872,0.5010400338550862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09924742934463812,0.0,0.0,0.1843938634664863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1166851697270756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13241861252017445,0.2527690949142972,0.09456658042451736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07965573111231489,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1408535882473164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09572341913666396,0.0,0.0,0.08800887116945418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10867910876210864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16883812367195244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14956635484113406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07333926952786192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13484200699092508,0.09052139090268058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3021747213322885,0.0 schizophrenia,bearyweek,2019/04/11,"Tomorrow I’m telling my SO that I’m schizophrenic. Help! I got a huge medication change today and when I tried to tell my boyfriend about it today, I realised I haven’t told him yet that I’ve got this illness. I told him that tomorrow, I would explain everything, from start to finish. I didn’t want to text it out. He said he’d be there for me, but didn’t want to push my boundaries about it. I am terrified. Sure, I’m very high functioning and I’m lucky enough to have never been hospitalised, but the word in itself is so... negatively connotated. What if he hears the word and dips out? I know that means he doesn’t really deserve me if so but like. I have real feelings for him. And if he looks at me tomorrow with pity or like I’m actually crazy, I don’t know if I’m going to be able to take it. So, friends, how do I say to someone I really care about, “Hey the reason I’m so upset about this medication change is because I’m actually schizophrenic”? How do I make it sound like I’m not someone who he should leave and avoid forever? How do I just make him understand? I’m really paranoid he’s gonna leave. I don’t want him to.",0.7355404089581299,2.9345491898734224,3.0012869198312258,89.78035296981501,84.52742616033754,7.021681272314183,21.773612463485886,8.139509932561175,1.1918771178188896,886,30,198,20,26,302,116,237,0.109,0.742,0.14800000000000002,0.8567,0,1,0,0,0,0,30.0,0,0,0,0,17,10,0,2,4,0,20,5,0,6,2,42,53,22,0,9,10,0,1,3,1,3,5,4,0,0,14,8,0,1,7,0,0,2,9,3,0,0,8,6,28,7,21,39,1,18,0,1,1,0,24,6,0,6,13,115,42,0,0.12511323643237193,0.0,0.24418494191333145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07626786767009773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12756128290290786,0.0,0.2647064294446397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1292754181108718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11244370955735992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06326101157234186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09666217611084874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07110473550018201,0.0,0.20012896897325586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14101171041233826,0.0,0.08386076510678236,0.13218900348414128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13751792549885755,0.0,0.0,0.2649537049133087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18337202282153814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10506360802940597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16702811367762194,0.0,0.0,0.13628499267693994,0.0,0.25207684625113297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0964950409230142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1424062538333311,0.2404522288982768,0.12863724463258092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1190113384900432,0.0994950672886297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2120160784427012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08855579270112672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11791774468317676,0.0,0.09406958326275383,0.0,0.2187089664620269,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2371854380622693,0.23910211804217826,0.0,0.08494367488904896,0.0,0.0,0.1302472914813659,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10323152297481067,0.22138508525998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08887685348743808,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,future_best_friend,2019/04/12,"Paranoia creeping back I’ve been on meds that have been working decently for a little while but the past few days I’m starting to feel that uneasiness again. I keep seeing flashes of light and hearing a camera shutter. Logically, I know that probably no one is taking pictures of me, right? But I still can’t bring myself to change clothes or even go to the bathroom because I can’t shake that feeling that I’m being watched or observed. I hate feeling like this. I have an appointment with my pdoc on Tuesday. I just really don’t want to start going through different meds again. I thought I’d finally something that kind of worked.",4.472066115702479,6.536809305785128,4.732305785123966,82.68573140495869,71.64462809917356,7.4846280991735545,33.58760330578512,8.238735603445708,2.7551447933884305,510,26,91,8,10,160,86,121,0.125,0.802,0.073,-0.8009999999999999,1,0,1,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,2,6,4,1,1,5,0,9,0,0,0,0,15,27,6,0,1,5,0,3,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,7,2,0,1,6,0,0,4,4,2,0,1,3,7,11,2,12,23,1,19,0,0,2,0,1,4,0,2,12,59,18,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13780678226071089,0.0,0.10924899730555797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18958778369320745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11558011498339775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1872435821073304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11837111392625625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2718524443101737,0.12803263428480946,0.0,0.19632342307672368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20370626043128345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17693964770981033,0.0,0.0,0.20199054256409527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1592962713712727,0.0,0.18662688847316425,0.09849295601967473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08755635559744092,0.17962247906354634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3981392889784969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1214420524030467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17108287015036044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1932261980268145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11481097570758746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15305030730669267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14281271633345738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1379699739827967,0.0,0.0,0.25370137788682584,0.0,0.14312289827692815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1347488524638122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1422782500133972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10570680821827012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2609441672763188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,jcampp96,2019/04/12,"Opinions if I have schizophrenia before next meeting with dr? Hello, 23 year old (M) and for the past few years I’ve seen a increase in my “social anxiety” and focusing and what not. So ending of last year I got my first doctor for mental and after my 2 cents and his we believe I have add. This is in regards to me not ever wanting to go out when I used to be very active and party and socialize and what not, staying motivated to start something but not finish and I always have to be moving. Not a lot of moving but wether it’s twitching my foot or shaking my leg. So I been on adderall for about 4 months now (I am aware of the addiction chances but I take it correctly and don’t take on weekends no problem so I’m not worried about that) and I been seeing help with my confidence but still not wanting to go out socializing wise. However when I am with people already I talk a lot cause of the adderall. But I rarely go out of my way to make plans. Anyways, if you guys are still reading my question is the title. I recently discovered schizophrenia as I never heard of it before and things starting adding together quick with relating symptoms... the following is what strongly relates to me that I saw... •belief that an ordinary event has special and personal meaning ; this is my number one thing. I’ve had many relationship trouble and (I’ve worked on this) and still some what in my current one. I overthink a lot when it comes to my gf. I been cheated on a lot, some in very hurtful ways but I’ve grown past them and could be friends with them at this point, so I thought I been like this cause of my past and blamed it. But we go through a cycle where I ask what she’s really doing in other words when doing stuff, or why did that actually happen? And honestly I trust her but I feel the urge and believe with (this is my mindset) “how I’ve actually seen girls do guys even the good long term ones why wouldn’t she do this to me?” Don’t get me wrong we all know you never know but as far as I know, this girl is my first legit one I could trust any day compared to others. •The speech symptoms pretty much all of them ; all my life I always been the “mumbler” but honestly every. Single. Time. I can’t exaggerate that enough, I’m trying extra hard in my head to make sure I talk right and loud enough but perfectly. Then end up speaking too fast (even before adderall), drag on subjects and completely forget the last main subject, and even when I swear I talked normal (with anxiety that maybe I didn’t) I still get the response “huh?” “What?” Or the yeah to pretend they agreed or my girlfriend hearing something 200% different which is always a crack up for us. But seriously, once again, I can’t exaggerate enough how often people don’t understand what I just said. All my life. I’ve had phases where I tell myself to not care to talk cause they won’t hear me or understand anyways? And I feel like this is a big role why I have anxiety cause I mean... it’s human verbal communication and it lowers my confidence. Anyways I’ll stop and say more to, if anyone, that’s interested or give their input. If you did read all this story pretty much, and help out I’ll pass out goodies. Cause I can say I know I have some kind of mental thing going on, not to the extreme, but in certain ways and I been on a journey to discover for a year or two now. Thank you, love ya Redditors!",3.2819601728759764,4.863556237813889,4.411113572952568,85.76692365556103,73.77104874446086,7.200930028995023,26.42182285683024,7.857877913537022,1.4954614256797414,2651,94,535,37,54,867,305,677,0.084,0.763,0.153,0.9957,4,0,2,0,0,0,73.0,4,5,6,7,33,26,1,1,23,2,45,12,3,11,12,132,91,66,0,11,34,0,3,2,3,2,8,9,0,6,38,44,0,1,13,4,1,14,20,7,0,7,18,16,85,19,68,66,24,93,0,1,4,1,53,28,0,21,49,383,123,5,0.0,0.0,0.1148581051768195,0.06415512157320888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06494237258712947,0.0,0.14690359425753546,0.0,0.0,0.04001997749733845,0.0,0.13506012989515748,0.0,0.0,0.04114924663113389,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05501675008148452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15023089423818647,0.13260746031057466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06000143634308318,0.30227549857517383,0.0,0.050694012692954815,0.061703042803718786,0.0,0.0,0.09397377743337766,0.0,0.0,0.037953343000091684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061485662108106916,0.0,0.060235407647102675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10424715914792497,0.18242315992719094,0.0,0.11660949174842382,0.05323314028107594,0.04958361293300996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059512596180865025,0.0420424091541583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10011545841865943,0.0,0.0,0.04546731794092652,0.0,0.06149332979598976,0.056454225260936026,0.1672288865287306,0.049360537860042464,0.04706767335271896,0.0,0.0,0.11654138666778527,0.05204080790815879,0.0,0.05271798725900505,0.0,0.060397017020725675,0.0,0.13265631974515552,0.0,0.07889174904373981,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06300007832209424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06128315681533364,0.12936955265859065,0.09594111198563712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08313490655589081,0.05750221647218477,0.0,0.0,0.05208034532170165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20012845921163092,0.05311436883275472,0.0,0.07856558433926379,0.05966460266477936,0.059122675064320576,0.12820967501317848,0.0,0.0,0.11861379646457908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.046973460936629165,0.12509634633550604,0.08652295505557604,0.0,0.09077740398350068,0.0,0.06258757921415245,0.0,0.057660446530371785,0.0,0.0,0.06175311278553304,0.06267326583240207,0.15951297055380187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16853678125833685,0.08159827749845422,0.05138549797702333,0.0,0.0,0.05563221562487276,0.0,0.0,0.11974309256943386,0.0,0.056311445069416925,0.0,0.0,0.06592540164821227,0.0,0.11773173198544876,0.0,0.03770077873543539,0.0,0.05810721639883563,0.06318281197458596,0.0,0.05025752751945897,0.055979769786030205,0.09359966928073916,0.0,0.0,0.04689578314191052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1799703091572453,0.0,0.09061111847890067,0.0,0.0,0.08330858137593725,0.06272620619332138,0.18799055357409025,0.04920118526942767,0.0,0.0,0.06736910199085255,0.0,0.0,0.055465372331766336,0.12233524255391108,0.08849566237518326,0.1892054114708908,0.05143744179345218,0.0541811183474796,0.0,0.0,0.11729185622453454,0.0,0.0,0.04672027904615706,0.034315873484395784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.039955246494989896,0.0,0.057487840503944974,0.12252972674516785,0.07078923225474543,0.05082745334798545,0.0,0.09711472812776853,0.06942243915104601,0.14013703026289484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1593087529650236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.042843457483729024,0.05976497108279266,0.0,0.0,0.06434317136861759,0.0,0.15158972849095045 schizophrenia,jameswlf,2019/04/12,any of you is afraid of going to hell? do you think that your schizophrenia experience is literally how hell is? Because that's my case.,2.649102564102563,5.435423653846158,3.674615384615386,84.15371794871797,81.69230769230771,6.543589743589743,24.051282051282055,7.793537801064563,1.4167589743589741,109,4,21,2,3,35,20,26,0.294,0.706,0.0,-0.89,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,3,0,0,1,3,2,1,0,0,4,0,0,1,0,2,6,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,0,0,4,0,3,6,0,1,2,0,0,0,3,0,2,0,0,14,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4280018392712112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3836658708631976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6156570796181824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3576927099388472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4032830404168508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,tlfachu,2019/04/12,"Audial Hallucinations as I’m falling asleep Occasionally, as I’m laying in bed falling asleep (or trying to), I find myself having audial hallucinations. It probably could just be me on the verge of dreaming. They’re like faint, short and brief sentences/voices or sound effects or tunes. it doesnt seem like any voice reoccurs. it also seems random and harmless. there’s only been a couple times in my life where a “voice” would get loud or “yell” and repeat itself or be threatening. when i was younger it wouldn’t just be occasionally when i’m trying to fall asleep but also if it was just really quiet. i liked to pretend i was hearing sentences from people all around the world speaking at that very moment in time and it somehow travelled to me through airwaves or something. but now I wonder what the real cause is- if it’s me just on the verge of dreaming, but only audially, or like my brain repeating things it heard but i didn’t consciously pick up on or something. and not sure if it’s schizophrenia because i don’t experience it very often. i also am not sure if it’s psychosis/psychotic in nature because i know they’re not real sounds and i (normally) don’t feel threatened by it, but definitely hallucinations or at least my brain being weird on me. Also should mention I’m diagnosed with depression and social anxiety and on the SNRI, Cymbalta. what do you think? anyone else experience the same thing?",4.801168831168829,6.951489157894741,5.7607928913192055,75.2958099794942,70.95488721804512,8.295010252904989,28.632262474367728,8.97023862654752,2.5802466165413525,1140,44,194,23,22,375,146,266,0.095,0.84,0.066,-0.7635,0,0,2,0,0,0,28.0,0,1,0,1,16,9,0,0,8,0,20,8,5,3,3,60,33,34,0,9,25,0,1,4,0,3,3,10,1,0,18,10,0,0,9,4,0,5,8,2,0,0,6,11,19,7,25,19,3,31,0,1,0,0,6,18,0,19,12,137,37,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3904402481824722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08300390067669751,0.0,0.09337434541656996,0.0,0.0,0.08534607448289344,0.12506325968902374,0.0,0.10865785796236674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1488113410558867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27251509330271456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12538760404051488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09745370407583202,0.13505530308185748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10512872501241466,0.12388671134134527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10196413483574754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2387930817052007,0.0,0.0,0.06171639680129067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1115591705133674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06377047861914957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13756869289838314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06708010705513635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08621346085202837,0.2385262842821243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1195913210370822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18566183369371392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08461992915065653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1315996044113704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2778583727992648,0.07819373945920746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22223477467647806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12442317229385423,0.0,0.1879330461624406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23007720363301856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1621803607942929,0.078210097153684,0.0,0.0,0.14234647455872934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16573928917394665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2014219335405142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13236713310606898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08670678858823454,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Notgonnablink,2019/04/12,"Should I be worried? I had a friend who was schizophrenic and she didn't hallucinate so much as she fell into the paranoia rabbit hole easily. That is about the extent of my knowledge here. Okay so I am 23 and I have never had hallucinations before. I have struggled with anxiety and depression but these days it is just depression I gotta fight. There was a brief period of time (about 2 months) where I would stay up for over 24 hours on a regular basis and the later I stayed up the more paranoid I would become. Like chain smoking, rocking back and forth outside and convincing myself no one could be trusted and legit driving myself nuts with tears streaming down my face while shaking. I am on a good sleep schedule now and this no longer happens. Except when I stay up really late I can feel it starting. But I just attribute this to sleep deprivation. For the past few days tho, I have been having small hallucinations. I am well rested, eating well, not super stressed or anything. But I am hallucinating images (a person in the middle of the street that wasn't there, glitches in the sky, I thought a bag in the road was a dead deer and even saw the ""blood"" etc), sounds (soft music, train sounds but no train, etc) and smells (I keep smelling things that apparently no one else is smelling). Also, since I was like 12 I was very eccentric...spiritually. I am technically an agnostic atheist but I have always dabbled in the metaphysical. Lately I have come to the conclusion that we are all God and God is everything, I have started to put faith in various Gods and Goddesses as aspects of myseld, I am starting to believe that reality is all perception/hallucinations, and that by believing something I can make it come true??? This is so unlike me. I have always been into this stuff but I never took it seriously until now. I am unsure if I should be worried I might be developing something a little more serious than just being a little bit weird. I can't afford a therapist, I can't even afford to go to a regular doctor. Most of the time I am fine but these past few days I just don't know what is going on in my head. I feel fine emotionally, happy even, but I know that hallucinating probably isn't something I should ignore. Sorry if this isn't where I should post this.",5.350793287566745,6.508193846681928,6.238368421052632,76.28141228070176,68.19908466819221,9.12186117467582,29.44080854309687,9.3871,2.5919883142639204,1809,65,333,36,30,598,225,437,0.138,0.735,0.127,-0.5231,3,0,3,0,1,0,55.0,1,0,0,2,25,26,1,3,25,1,55,8,5,2,5,62,73,34,1,9,17,0,3,2,1,8,2,2,0,1,23,20,1,2,7,1,0,10,14,11,2,2,14,9,48,15,39,45,14,64,2,3,1,0,7,25,0,5,27,259,71,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0739813423875837,0.1539538106770844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0707709766156212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07612900921687793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07113556508801992,0.0,0.0,0.10217158579690946,0.07872039743577773,0.2084573622130009,0.0,0.0,0.10099850115956922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1593807790484175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07386283439511505,0.0,0.0,0.17898662150156872,0.0,0.15935988640758658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09468934975854096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0946622695078263,0.07728141353922881,0.10406288629043664,0.0,0.0,0.2063493563156438,0.18330874448499407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08314329152470792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09355309866620937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07147408707373894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10515273421254576,0.07759418282818048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08180753570395595,0.09848011783036296,0.0,0.0,0.09494339778612138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0911051053652165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08222839322212906,0.0,0.0,0.10168370480335327,0.0,0.2087138034682013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09039280549615304,0.18544147597210556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061752085567918724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09813998819011382,0.0,0.0,0.07384172608337257,0.0,0.06800653198363503,0.0,0.14270100745934802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12537625335153935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17662522040464115,0.0,0.0807773962279676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08860035974220154,0.0,0.09974294850338364,0.0,0.0,0.09299952042416164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05926517912460275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0765263956150208,0.0,0.1851564443563146,0.0,0.0,0.2136594129136084,0.0,0.10355895120170892,0.19644015973153534,0.2958145670099797,0.0,0.0,0.10597150935921557,0.09671301372578832,0.10590343305558246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1074128791179885,0.06146047112877065,0.0,0.0,0.07344372714029421,0.10788829605571994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10278358216068653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07633160310186933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16635773830230674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18789965806564424,0.0,0.13143490495633767,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,fubetiz,2019/04/12,"Solving Schizophrenia Has anyone actually investigated and solved their ""delusions"" instead of brushing them off as unreal and fucking their head with medication, what we see literally isnt made up you know its solveable if u have balls and smarts",12.369999999999996,12.155169048780492,10.824512195121956,53.96896341463415,53.634146341463406,13.078048780487805,47.32926829268293,12.161744961471696,6.158941463414633,205,11,28,5,2,64,38,41,0.0,0.835,0.165,0.7269,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,1,1,3,0,1,2,1,0,0,0,3,3,1,1,0,8,7,5,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,5,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,2,5,1,5,6,0,2,0,0,1,1,5,2,1,1,0,20,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.3920280482862057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28089717866087194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3713905607758724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41228826939976987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22077890436347855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3801242333093641,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4046981491964734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3201247715113213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,MansonsRib,2019/04/12,Hey guys. Trying to figure out if I’m amongst you I often picture someone I like with me when I’m doing things. I also have conversations deflecting thoughts in my head. Like two different people basing actions off of each other. A little background I have OCD and Bipolar disorder. I’ve always thought hey maybe my thoughts were normal. I think I might have something more.,4.113354037267079,6.9325879130434815,4.5006625258799176,80.35173913043481,75.66666666666667,6.2616977225672885,30.146997929606627,7.447530270364453,2.251665010351968,302,14,48,4,7,95,54,69,0.042,0.879,0.078,0.3182,1,0,1,0,0,0,7.0,0,1,0,0,3,2,0,0,1,0,6,2,1,0,0,13,12,4,0,2,1,0,0,2,0,1,1,0,0,1,2,4,0,0,5,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,4,0,10,2,6,7,2,6,0,0,0,0,5,4,0,3,3,33,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17638662404957545,0.1835286576893466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2304446209952977,0.252787850332628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2183951083888808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2263644436668196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21551490261296255,0.22106516893224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2215882854684116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23398576779575464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2161079395021948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1529127563019372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18688493395103448,0.16980255347268294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1465343107469711,0.1413298456575147,0.0,0.525314518626611,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1497498981001887,0.0,0.2154610223352056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,mizake_the_mizan,2019/04/13,"Does this count as positive symptoms? I've never had voices, but recently sometimes when I'm about to fall asleep I ""hear"" noises in my head like a short scream or a bang. Is this normal or I'm slowly going into psychosis?",2.91,5.0288472727272815,4.2545454545454575,84.1518181818182,76.27272727272728,6.218181818181819,22.363636363636363,7.1686216300943375,0.9394272727272726,176,5,32,2,4,58,37,44,0.08,0.787,0.133,0.3313,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,2,0,2,3,2,0,1,6,6,5,0,1,3,0,0,1,0,0,1,3,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,1,0,0,1,3,2,1,5,5,0,8,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,2,4,18,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30487121272521345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1979933741261456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3575401784736889,0.0,0.3926515461936614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1702017231500237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2686934787731427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3413401416210212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34398494406966545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34455845387214484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36210202601014013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,sundown73,2019/04/13,"Episodes 8 yrs apart? So I've had 3 psychotic episodes at ages 19, 27, and 36. In between those episodes I'm very high functioning with no positive symptoms whatsoever. I have never taken antipsychotics. The episodes occurred naturally and we're not drug induced. I have never had mania so I know I'm not bipolar. I do still struggle with severe anxiety and OCD. I cannot be schizophrenic correct? From what I understand schizophrenics would have constant or more frequent episodes right? Thanks",4.01258620689655,7.35474304597701,3.784626436781612,80.84176724137934,84.0574712643678,7.037931034482759,34.836206896551715,8.07648339933343,3.548924137931035,403,24,63,9,12,122,64,87,0.111,0.8109999999999999,0.078,-0.212,0,0,1,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,1,1,0,9,5,0,1,3,15,15,6,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,1,5,0,0,0,2,5,0,0,3,0,0,0,6,1,0,0,3,0,6,1,6,10,1,11,0,0,0,0,0,5,0,1,6,37,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1986574276838105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2806259778943063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3011508115557444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2743702357933812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14271544776969572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.400568374571575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22176858144252407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2933688244180722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20738385097923348,0.0,0.0,0.2714779341631037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2699109421081607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2390819912944937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2703400368660685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2142663652298933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18447195005027534,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,drug_slug,2019/04/13,"For once, I wasn't having a hallucination that someone was trying to break into my house They actually were. I think it was two dudes. One helped the other onto my roof. The other was up top. Started turning lights on, dog barking, and we hear the roof guy jump off and start booking it. Didn't see him though. I don't know what to do now. Didn't call the cops because what are they gonna do? Two people did get arrested last night breaking into cars around here. I wonder if it was the same dudes. Anyway this is going to be my nightmare fuel for a while. I'm usually home from 12-3pm by myself, which is the most common time for home invasions to occur. I just know my hallucinations are gonna play on this. We think they were checking the chimney or maybe going to cut through the roof, which apparently is a thing that is becoming more common. I kinda wanna get some cameras now. We have some but not enough.",2.4782708468002568,4.599577357142858,3.756722689075634,87.19710084033615,77.62637362637362,6.040594699418229,21.694893341952167,7.048011613610866,0.6035949579831931,717,20,144,8,17,234,114,182,0.021,0.96,0.018000000000000002,-0.128,1,0,0,0,0,0,22.0,3,0,3,1,7,2,1,0,11,0,22,0,0,0,0,24,39,7,0,2,5,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,2,1,14,8,0,0,5,2,1,4,5,1,0,3,10,3,18,1,20,26,6,26,0,0,1,0,11,9,0,7,11,107,32,1,0.0,0.0,0.16192739555904415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14771621000868793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10115166873020437,0.1832607808310029,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1694369026649656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17145391194457674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17338706263330542,0.0,0.18860793857707694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1643004922369427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18701938646569316,0.0,0.11122188925269404,0.0,0.33289014444439946,0.0,0.0,0.19146525910093765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1823856896680896,0.13525814627497587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1667027464350196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1557175758195896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17671401929880792,0.11244099769842153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11503756340998285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13222770853099275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14059512077142658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2348975127032956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11023900472376262,0.21264728299640834,0.16302905861772712,0.0,0.09675729912325444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11265811836079424,0.1804882617734047,0.3241863088299053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18275257341578474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1799480644917192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,supadexx,2019/04/13,"Is this thought insertion? For a while now I have this experience where thoughts where I believe are coming from two people I do not know are in my head. But the thing that confuses me is that I can have conversations with these thoughts because they can respond to what I am saying very quickly. They don't say anything mean or violent, they just talk about things that relate or can potentially relate to my life. These thoughts are constant and they are always seem to be around at all times of the day. Anyone with a similar experience?",7.2256765676567625,7.707430198019804,6.630445544554457,77.50758250825083,63.851485148514854,9.901650165016502,34.65511551155116,9.725611199111238,3.1935927392739263,434,18,80,8,6,134,70,101,0.067,0.933,0.0,-0.7622,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,4,0,7,2,1,1,4,0,15,2,1,0,1,19,23,5,0,0,5,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,10,5,0,0,7,0,0,1,2,2,0,1,4,2,12,0,12,18,1,12,0,0,0,0,9,5,0,4,6,66,22,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14756452001825918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12400313672906815,0.0,0.1459391054388024,0.15787387175371154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10810733348660226,0.0,0.0,0.1998061006996078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15276626188712247,0.0,0.19164599812833014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11437229030105105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3469531708406897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18200623760587487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0974636939936338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12526340126004348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1931797440079947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12294808763086275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28206233498412003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1614474322171935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14254249123210475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23563911493521925,0.0,0.0,0.5631657077480926,0.10341078634580286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17323944251450607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14632747737017468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,flint4c,2019/04/13,"My sporadic case of schizophrenia has been possibly cured ? Hello brothers and sisters who may or not suffer from a schizophrenic disease. About three years ago this time I was thrown into a psychotic episode from a heavy fake acid trip. I am not isn't certain what research chemical it was. Three years ago around this time I was fully convinced I was being persecuted for a heinous crime I did not commit. I would hear voices asking me if I did it and I would randomly respond out loud ""I didn't do it"". At first it was around my family hysterically crying. At this time I was also completely delusional. Through the voices I was hearing I became convinced my house was bugged and there was a tracking device on my phone and in the cars of my family. By the time it got this bad I was also convinced I experienced a paranormal event one night in my room where I felt that i couldn't move and was hearing people in my life yelling terrible things. Since then every time I smoked weed I would hear voices and people in my head telling me things were going to happen. At time they were against my own life in many ways. After receiving prolonged dosages of a couple different anti-psychotics I have gotten to the point where my symptoms only involve intrusive thought in moments of stress or anxiety. To this days when I smoked weed I have intrusive thoughts in the characters of an unknown person but I have the ability to control these and stop them by concentrating on the theme of what they say and if it is delusional. My faith in Jesus Christ has rejuvenated during these times. I have changed the characters in my thoughts of mind during prayer. I can note one character during a trip to Italy where a it spoke in a wise mans voice and got me through episodes with positive thoughts of my past that I have not remembered in many years. Another instance I was convinced there was a demon in my room and I was told to recite Our Father prayer and eventually got me not to be scared. Prayers and the best thoughts to those experiencing any debilitating symptoms of a mental disease. &#x200B; TLDR: Persecutory psychosis and auditory hallucinations cured because of immediate and consistent usage of anti-psychotics combined with a sense of direction from faith in Jesus Christ and readings of the bible.",7.756226415094342,8.303819264150945,7.360720754716983,72.49748679245286,62.72641509433962,10.36890566037736,36.53547169811321,10.17224662633116,3.7890610566037743,1864,83,317,38,25,587,212,424,0.048,0.853,0.099,0.9786,1,0,2,0,1,0,29.0,1,0,3,3,11,15,0,2,24,0,39,6,1,1,2,49,58,24,0,6,10,3,1,0,0,4,5,12,2,2,22,21,0,2,7,1,0,6,8,6,0,5,32,16,49,9,56,19,2,57,7,1,0,0,24,28,0,6,22,231,71,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1525214785886934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13759692436123208,0.0,0.09321387858728317,0.10453632572755382,0.058503607126902175,0.09021035242828726,0.06581300367148017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15317055178506014,0.08042679015449705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0718317721135848,0.05244331990535695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09028357402688766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0910087326711297,0.0,0.09020121450501237,0.0,0.09649038420477203,0.0,0.09519097689976247,0.0945003305246102,0.055482476674995534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08988343434599311,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07248430389942426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16220356768492747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08260265421596641,0.0,0.0,0.07317739555256488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04889304637113709,0.0,0.20641905686138606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07607637911910338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08829198756177092,0.0,0.3878499538780318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0992675055176249,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12153160036137008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17444260051945887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08669838643282067,0.0,0.08686615724562863,0.0,0.0,0.0914366768385872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08073368186712772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.116592821192183,0.06542997912341877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08212573031245153,0.1192852636990861,0.07511840769695413,0.0,0.0,0.0813265146571639,0.09698632485925272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08605365901198357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09745564762000404,0.0,0.0,0.06841480956820276,0.0861314164686591,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07116521767010378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0719252481681669,0.09854750729822367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17883700630826896,0.0,0.0,0.07519434228810246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11430952080872818,0.0,0.0,0.3414925521081805,0.3511550366255856,0.0,0.0,0.08220571290110062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06828690964803305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18334053653308136,0.0,0.10453632572755382,0.16620222838764975 schizophrenia,ZombieMewtwo,2019/04/13,"I don't like my Schizophrenic Mother and it makes me horribly guilty I've been dealing with a some warring emotions lately in regards to my schizophrenic mother. I dislike her, terribly so, and sometimes I teeter on the cusp of hate, and then feel overwhelming guilt for feeling as such and feel like I am the worlds shittiest person for thinking so. I know she has a mental illness, and it is not her fault she has these paranoid delusions, and consequently screams and rants and acts out. However, for the first 6 years of my life she just fucking traumatized me. It was the height of her illness and she was concurrently on meth amphetamines, and she would scream and cry and self mutilate in front of my brother and I. There were solid months where either the water or the electricity would be shut off, the garbage piled high enough along our house that it was almost as tall as the roof and smelled like death. Sure I had good memories from being young, but most of them are outweighed by all the terrible shit. Now I am 23. I was lucky enough that at age ten my grandparents raised my brother and I until adulthood and I moved on to go to college and graduate. But following my graduation I moved back in with my grandparents to work while I applied to graduate school. Concurrently, my mother had been kicked out from her government subsidized apartments due to getting in a fistfight with a neighbor she believed was one the bitches **™** that break into her house every morning and do surgery on her genitals. So she moved in around the same time. It has been 2 years since and I will be going off to my desired program this fall. But living with my mother fosters these strong feelings of dislike and may have destroyed any vestiges of a relationship we may ever have had. The entire 2 years, she has done absolutely nothing but sit on her ass and eat. In the first few months she acted cooperative, would go to free therapy sessions and would take the medications the low income mental health centers would provide her. Then rather quickly she stopped going. Believing her therapists were in on it, and were just fucking with her. She refused to take the meds they had prescribed and never returned. She has gained 200 pounds since moving, which hurt her back, her doctor gave her meds and now she is addicted to her painkillers and constantly takes too many too fast, runs out of them and flies into large explosive schizophrenic rages when she is jonesing. I called her doctors office more than once to say I think she may be abusing her medication but it has never led to anything. She begs my grandparents for their pain medication and flies into rages when she doesn't get any. Additionally, she talks to herself and the people in her head every night and I hear it through the walls as I try to sleep, so that anxiety is the last thing I usually feel before I drift off. &#x200B; To top it all off she is extremely obsessed with herself. She spends what little free money she has on makeup she never wears, hair products, and clothing several sizes too small for her. Everything that happens is framed in how it effects her, example, when I was happy and told everyone in the house I was accepted into my graduate program, which is in Scotland, she got very upset and told me that I couldn't leave because she didn't want me to be away from her. Or another example, my grandmother will come home from a 12 hour shift from work at 6am, and then my mother, who would have just woken up, will poke her head out and ask what she was going to make for dinner. I am so unbelievably frustrated with her, and maybe when I move for school some of these feelings will dissipate, but also the thought of her fucking up like the last 10-15 years my grandparents have to live also makes me very upset. I know long term I should seek therapy to work some of this out, but if there is anyone who deals with guilt like this it would be lovely to hear from you.",7.2513240810202575,7.494351274193548,6.716777944486122,77.72394598649666,63.81182795698925,9.985446361590398,33.96899224806201,9.706407341189486,3.112881632908227,3164,124,580,57,43,981,345,744,0.15,0.792,0.058,-0.9967,8,0,1,0,1,0,69.0,2,1,4,9,30,39,11,6,28,0,68,28,7,6,7,122,109,67,2,13,16,7,7,5,1,15,14,5,2,2,30,58,3,2,13,0,4,19,8,25,0,4,26,13,105,16,98,61,13,113,0,3,0,5,83,50,6,12,47,428,135,16,0.0,0.07183315622622377,0.0,0.06609244791201277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06070924635617965,0.0,0.0,0.09696688126985507,0.0,0.06568939778004525,0.0736685178994203,0.08245696409956839,0.06357276206451383,0.046379537498027035,0.0,0.0,0.04239185232442158,0.0,0.04989090735371425,0.0539709400407383,0.05667812015443535,0.0,0.056961121712231326,0.09323693881920872,0.0,0.036957695081246654,0.0,0.051589165493109206,0.1366118783411509,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06190701016416157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0522248467651442,0.0,0.06551631729262626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06659598223202529,0.0,0.1250076803198488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1241087365981236,0.0,0.062042535045553925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06203662134171376,0.0,0.06819728605800962,0.0,0.1252879260951324,0.0,0.0,0.05484064973994412,0.1021618313457574,0.057931757120224636,0.054487695258516766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18392918913125533,0.04331198615134592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1031386981812802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16814622933008455,0.06335027659233526,0.0,0.17227878618656636,0.05085110428324945,0.04848900092651814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053612311872001515,0.06453863626230175,0.0,0.059856673371131174,0.12444171575384333,0.06444373326236362,0.13666221321007266,0.0,0.0,0.06405582105681656,0.06081388774090773,0.0,0.05970544498060652,0.20986647338596132,0.06490252520532283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0666380969345627,0.09883829678812883,0.06838996815661168,0.06419530620148595,0.0,0.0,0.04282268777984671,0.14809660374021585,0.06076424475001047,0.1070696153058486,0.05365304321785636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05471829168700759,0.0,0.12140710663358932,0.061466326415000064,0.06090803393846673,0.0,0.1346859999161114,0.1832261640201379,0.12219564038290337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09678388705595108,0.322184868153037,0.0,0.0,0.1402779863222813,0.0,0.0,0.05689439193812172,0.0,0.058173302378733464,0.0,0.0,0.0645658437850043,0.041082467147954715,0.0,0.06451146990076878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04203117204853584,0.052937213198228895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06509077696313921,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.048213074146072864,0.0,0.12271564961330216,0.0,0.0,0.06324724931641246,0.06849132474677125,0.062232809266080574,0.10030266656606474,0.0,0.06067084746241545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059961715855797876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05068693963767498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057140289689490885,0.0,0.13675201946184207,0.048729736986161724,0.0,0.0,0.1386646612201325,0.07039269334774413,0.040277926936704685,0.07769474832687663,0.0,0.04813111616925568,0.03535212817318971,0.0,0.0,0.11586351424044927,0.0,0.04116179633091868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06677214492257708,0.100047353241307,0.035759412740567965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1324116724905271,0.0,0.0,0.3014740841614004,0.0,0.0736685178994203,0.15616736417296725 schizophrenia,thoughtoftoi,2019/04/13,"What was your recovery process like? For those who feel like they have fully recovered, what did you do to get there? How long did it take you? I got my SZ at age 13, and it wasn’t until 14 years later that I really started feeling like I fully recovered. Now, at age 27, I am: - no longer anxious. I feel optimistic about my future - nearly done with my master’s degree - have a handful of close friends (mostly don’t know I am ill) - finally comfortable driving - over the “could have beens” and “should have beens.” I have gotten over disappointments and hold no grudges. The world owes me nothing. Still, I could use more self-discipline. I have also never dated (though it is not something I’m looking for at the moment), but at least I’m not shy anymore. Things that helped my recovery: 1) I’ve been keeping a regular journal all this time. 2) My extremely patient mother has been my best therapist, and I’ve seen ten of them. For a few years it was typical for us to would talk for two hours a day, with her helping me to sort out my delusions and paranoia. 3) Staying in school helped to socialize me and gave me endless cognitive work outs. The only break I had was one year between my bachelor’s (took 5 years part time) and my master’s (nearly done). 4) A close penpal I met at age 10, before I got ill. Possibly due to a lack of awareness that I was very ill, she continued to text me with enthusiasm. We lost touch for awhile during undergrad, but when she messaged me again via Facebook my last year, I realized I was worthy of having friends. Just by socializing with me, she taught me some social skills.",3.745239616613418,5.449326054313102,4.63656996805112,84.12017124600642,72.80191693290735,7.947297124600638,27.53597444089457,8.608573733854374,2.028216204472844,1257,47,245,23,25,407,190,313,0.071,0.8170000000000001,0.112,0.92,1,0,1,0,0,0,52.0,2,3,2,6,10,9,0,0,10,0,32,4,1,2,2,40,54,14,0,5,5,1,5,3,2,2,3,0,0,0,13,16,0,2,5,0,1,2,7,2,0,3,24,7,44,7,36,26,9,47,0,2,2,0,25,15,0,3,31,170,57,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09187167246778498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12978477747486844,0.113932791791939,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09775673617632824,0.0,0.12056233060041012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18344901322658705,0.0,0.0,0.0740898526395095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23512982511682345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1742644705062321,0.16414448122970507,0.0,0.12584840815851325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17751621437662735,0.0,0.06002148141320034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.183764417420573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23101040379142865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1131363412738094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10211304317889124,0.0,0.0,0.06313654038651542,0.09364475283599344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16837768723794844,0.0,0.0,0.10166759513886094,0.0964725537770961,0.0,0.12540806361136328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08860463864959854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11023307159142184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07784750662407425,0.08737348802680626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12440679429839015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.129513009286913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07359681440700529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11626744946627085,0.0,0.0,0.11984773558953644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3513254072221005,0.0,0.08844233320351608,0.0,0.0,0.08131458298330749,0.12244969760601696,0.09174549137799608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08637751073202267,0.09233838145985054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13338769655531152,0.07632297672670807,0.0,0.11287169253602475,0.0,0.13397807985709154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1276389328793399,0.0,0.0,0.11222372773567324,0.0,0.13818977122003276,0.09922178735571957,0.0,0.09479027837014274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08363599094627595,0.0,0.0,0.081609390619882,0.0,0.0,0.3699035367428187 schizophrenia,Malbii,2019/04/13,"Seeing other dimensions it felt like in my psychotic episode, anyone else? I could look at a 2d painting and it would feel 3d same with photos. I could see strange godlike creatures and landscapes with my eyes closed but also on walls and floors like I was watching interdimensional television. Does or did anyone else have these symptoms?",7.978220338983053,9.699022372881359,6.5625000000000036,74.28408898305086,62.5593220338983,8.611864406779661,35.08898305084746,8.841846274778883,3.1578101694915244,276,12,43,4,4,82,48,59,0.024,0.885,0.091,0.6072,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,6,2,1,0,0,14,11,6,0,3,2,0,2,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,4,6,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,7,5,2,5,5,1,6,0,0,5,0,0,6,0,1,2,28,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17942918100382962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3137704438544587,0.459788628126954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35828351999088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19634832610611594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3748658861991484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11344857589976386,0.0,0.21543107396504124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2192323974582984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18841489273684503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3575888235146101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2332070845626428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15938651956381528,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,SLUTHOARDER00,2019/04/13,Week 3 Was high as shit 1 time up for 3 days and would have bet my life that i was looking at fuccin elmo and grover across the street so i gave them the finger walked the same 3 streets for an hour ended up across from where i initially saw them and it ended up being a blue and red newspaper dispenser,6.899166666666666,4.8617335,6.742500000000002,84.7191666666667,65.5625,9.783333333333333,29.14583333333333,7.793537801064563,1.550839583333333,240,5,54,2,3,76,48,64,0.061,0.939,0.0,-0.5574,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,2,0,2,1,1,0,5,0,5,3,2,0,0,7,8,6,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,2,4,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,4,5,6,0,10,2,1,17,0,0,4,0,3,10,1,1,6,35,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21050836473687948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5782072741429365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3448715900318394,0.0,0.0,0.3214495014552483,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23055404146601235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27410338682165875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3350566354415257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19033312590409615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2618275550020093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2318733099680021,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,thcncm,2019/04/13,"LSD I believe my usage of LSD caused my first psychotic break. I'm curious how many of you have used LSD and attribute you developing schizophrenia to the drug? If I hadn't started using heavily last summer I'm not sure if I would have ever lost my mind. My friend from the hospital said LSD made him go crazy too. He was using stuff like bath salts as well.",3.213749999999997,5.007999541666671,4.167777777777779,86.555,74.41666666666666,7.5777777777777775,24.5,8.344100000000001,1.4622333333333333,285,9,58,5,6,92,55,72,0.08800000000000001,0.779,0.133,0.5327,0,0,1,0,0,0,5.0,0,2,0,2,4,5,0,0,2,0,5,1,0,7,2,15,15,5,0,3,3,0,0,1,1,1,1,1,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,2,1,1,1,5,2,10,4,5,9,0,7,0,1,0,0,6,0,0,2,6,32,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2359537324606508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.215140330576194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2428700869420559,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18943969080628945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17813942017716186,0.0,0.0,0.16180361720239073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11902280568311605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17071183941248544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10231598259702404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2286154917163191,0.0,0.0,0.1981659156309912,0.0,0.21232720484299533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2114626623140604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1992140652172415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14823427487123605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2397450494871789,0.0,0.0,0.1973834894861695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5426358653203345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18830099766892933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1487717011806484,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,teareee,2019/04/13,"How to cope with a loved one suffering from paranoia schizophrenia? Recently my mom has been showing signs of paranoia schizophrenia (which runs in the family/ a fourth of her family members suffer). My family thought she was fine up until recent events and now she believes that because she quit her job that the police are somehow out to get her, that they're circling the house, and that security cameras in stores are following her (this is just one example). I don't even have enough energy to explain any farther at this point, I just want some advice on how to cope. Everyday is like groundhogs day. It takes the whole day to convince her that everything is okay, that she did nothing wrong, and that no ones out to get her and when she wakes up the next morning it's the same thing all over again. She's ruined some friendships recently because she's been accusing people of taking about her behind her back in the most insane ways, she thinks people look at her funny, etc... I don't know what to do and I don't know how to help... I'm completely lost and exhausted at this point.",5.690248447204969,6.825325937198068,5.510728088336787,81.88836956521742,67.40579710144928,8.812836438923396,30.24465148378193,9.04235418022936,2.461036162870946,867,32,161,15,14,269,124,207,0.101,0.7809999999999999,0.117,0.3621,1,0,0,0,0,0,25.0,0,0,0,2,12,12,0,0,9,1,15,3,1,3,1,27,30,11,0,1,2,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,15,9,0,1,5,1,1,2,4,6,0,3,6,1,23,6,28,24,8,31,0,4,1,1,21,15,0,4,14,119,38,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12918436979065046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08990057495762957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10165368684947827,0.0,0.16117586055682706,0.0,0.0,0.1489441982617875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13860924896967927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1705162056874863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13659800253621468,0.1474380137596918,0.08731689362225369,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1188128907084612,0.0,0.3738793566204309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13813815125423987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08861091437291435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15254112111901655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1311881619491255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14530739262399786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06458627222530658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11101475598211764,0.0,0.14431198340797613,0.0,0.11931571667909645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1548311139166252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14059626487627822,0.0,0.0,0.1268495241885713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2687465485257944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18330175380910974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2499435773633558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14061103792646812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.391594835138786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1987959870620704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08782784642274019,0.08470846122033128,0.0,0.10495208171243346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07797502128849472,0.10493425518398357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14759664720717378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14454001382236434,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,ShorelineDoThatShit,2019/04/13,"Difference between severe anxiety and mental disorders? So Wednesday I'm going to a doctor to find out what's been going on with me this past year. I was diagnosed a few years ago with depression and social anxiety disorder. This past year has been hell as I have been dealing with insomnia, paranoia, auditory and visual hallucinations (very few times), memory issues, major waves of depression, suicidal thoughts, weight loss and gain, agitation, becoming extremely less social, and just not being happy anymore and having a hard time enjoying things. Wednesday I am going to get an opinion from a new psychiatrist as I stopped seeing my old one a few months ago because of no progress. Can I really just have bad anxiety or is there a chance that I might actually have a disorder like schizophrenia or schizoaffective disorder. I dont mean to sound like one of those people that jumps straight to the conclusion that something is wrong but I have put much thought into this and I am still not sure what's going on with me. Any advice or thoughts would be appreciated.",9.450628272251313,9.278768329842936,9.15742931937173,63.42755759162306,59.41884816753928,13.085026178010473,40.04240837696335,12.340626583579946,5.340404816753927,865,40,136,26,10,280,123,191,0.198,0.715,0.087,-0.922,0,0,1,0,0,0,19.0,0,0,0,4,5,11,1,0,9,0,20,4,0,0,1,32,31,14,1,1,8,0,2,2,0,2,3,1,0,0,10,13,1,1,6,0,0,6,4,6,0,2,7,4,12,5,20,20,6,27,1,3,1,0,3,5,1,5,18,97,22,1,0.0,0.0,0.10120723876822987,0.0,0.0,0.10134545251335146,0.18386756614819694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07052721985683162,0.0,0.23801651251906625,0.0,0.10285371156561354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08659457823808335,0.06322142744060767,0.11454094928398065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10692176518971122,0.17865272937228333,0.10526475571483382,0.0,0.10835620309455976,0.475448401133014,0.10615287923576712,0.0,0.0,0.12154883577308916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09479022168473678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05418485793175242,0.0,0.23576601855729296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11040257517691623,0.09290492674746677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10824762060953153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10133617550531136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11297197678370426,0.0,0.0,0.10451656678051853,0.1100212678734239,0.0,0.0,0.08278134606982883,0.0,0.07623971645502804,0.0,0.0,0.10016499061289252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10882753151369604,0.0,0.14055488093430935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19800828434681944,0.07190033599412908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10425847136710137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06644009509562186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08264445446596723,0.0,0.0,0.11716421460456054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2114411577314378,0.0,0.07984200234570163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0828239540102759,0.08670726541374008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1134432961117718,0.0,0.09774664438888472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06890115927654535,0.0,0.0,0.24700549061627894,0.12094975085751393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08557265908581622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12629238660514475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07367351042526382,0.11339199262923336,0.0,0.2003599722794015 schizophrenia,TerminallyRory,2019/04/14,Medical word for type of hallucination? I have this recurring type of hallucination which is basically like looking through transparent paper or onionskin. Everything is the wrong color or looks like it's been photographed on an old-fashioned camera. Anyone know if there is a word for this kind of hallucination?,8.529423076923079,11.209432326923077,8.314615384615388,58.60538461538464,62.269230769230774,11.353846153846154,38.0,11.20814326018867,5.254176923076924,259,13,36,8,4,83,40,52,0.058,0.8420000000000001,0.1,0.3094,1,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,0,3,0,5,1,0,0,0,6,8,3,0,1,3,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,3,1,3,7,7,0,2,0,0,3,0,0,1,0,3,3,24,5,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22370314072964584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28753328510318515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33315882490652954,0.1758256688387308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31260417812877106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5373227987658675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3222967473519048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3357136864202931,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34979424164658035,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,LizardS567,2019/04/14,"Whats the point? Whats the point in working on myself to get better, feel better and do better? If I'm just going to get back into a bad place? If I'm just going to be told that I was fine two days ago I don't need to take time off? If SSA is going to give me an IQ test say I'm real smart therefore I'm perfectly functional? If the hospital is going to say, well you're thinking of killing yourself and you say you hear voices, but you don't look upset, have you tried therapy? Am I actually completely normal and just a lazy waste of life with an overreactive nightmarish imagination? I cant really tell right from wrong",2.8955384615384645,4.176225938461542,4.910769230769233,83.0092307692308,74.23076923076924,8.276923076923078,23.76923076923077,8.841846274778883,1.5929846153846157,492,14,103,10,10,170,84,130,0.127,0.754,0.12,-0.7170000000000001,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,4,0,5,5,11,1,1,7,0,10,1,0,1,1,21,28,8,1,6,8,0,1,0,0,0,1,5,0,0,3,5,0,0,3,0,0,4,3,4,1,1,2,7,10,7,14,25,0,16,0,0,1,0,11,8,0,4,4,58,13,2,0.0,0.0,0.14504067014833294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1317508279904229,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1142866891095297,0.12409918313873125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3943513773499591,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15583490019559915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09585354546165377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07515139501084013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15530525685640226,0.1425786826614589,0.3378776236358352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16751592310902924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16443620098688502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10498120738647672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12481110421784665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11020667686023604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14562507004521047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15528589163028594,0.0,0.2810052916560413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16917258146598513,0.09521567858852582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12692853430237067,0.0,0.3545877429522645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1117506697185845,0.0,0.12990848172104175,0.0,0.1699704562166366,0.0,0.0,0.09523559717779524,0.0,0.0,0.08666688831824235,0.0,0.0,0.14202158070431778,0.0,0.10090947815400203,0.0,0.14518914271198405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1336355105550582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10820383594776173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1625027102859916,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,FeistyRule,2019/04/14,"signs of a good therapist? So I've been reading lots of articles about how to spot manipulative/bad people lately. And it got me thinking about my experiences with therapists. And I've honestly had tons of terrible ones, and maybe a couple of good ones. So I wanted to find out whether any of ya'll have signs that you look for to know that your therapist is a good person, who will respect you/your illness, see you, have your best interests at heart, etc.",5.4720689655172405,6.6918653448275895,5.933965517241383,78.34508620689657,67.9655172413793,9.937931034482759,30.59195402298851,10.125756701596842,3.0448022988505747,363,14,69,9,6,117,61,87,0.06,0.723,0.217,0.9349,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,4,0,1,5,8,0,0,3,0,6,2,1,1,0,14,12,7,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,4,5,0,0,3,1,0,0,0,1,0,2,3,2,7,7,14,8,4,3,0,0,2,0,6,2,0,1,1,47,11,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11253674961741228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13817462802570185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17366826532234295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18310807930130926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18456160982711148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16187791794809445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1512520054748894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4164076172086174,0.132354971252079,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19610274336816133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09094725850748346,0.0,0.18667640282001824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13896729585640352,0.0,0.0,0.14069102304664988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1662538086351388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22427637833050632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11472776221159015,0.14449675590624467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16553165784953122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13187161351863902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5764290494569755,0.0,0.10603730727330213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0976084463452145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,NeitherManner,2019/04/14,"Bored to death? Anyone else just so tired and bored with life that they want to off themselves? Not many things interest me and most importantly they last for such a small moment and only bring little joy, only to make rest of the time even more unbearable. Like just now I bought little bit of candy to revitalize tiredness, but now it is back to boredom. I know all of this sounds like a first world problem, but whatever.",5.077541666666669,6.749022337500005,4.802500000000002,84.37916666666669,69.375,7.833333333333335,24.583333333333336,8.344100000000001,1.4068333333333336,337,9,64,5,6,103,62,80,0.183,0.703,0.114,-0.7441,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,2,1,8,7,0,0,3,0,1,2,0,1,1,15,6,6,1,2,5,0,0,2,0,0,2,1,0,0,4,4,0,0,1,0,1,1,1,3,0,1,1,1,5,4,11,5,5,13,0,0,0,0,2,5,0,1,9,43,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16138922975571124,0.2364943352607932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17748030477243112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25198710019635323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19281394350653072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15244925562617767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19632870639972333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12684832753179578,0.1881427174605085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16302945537667224,0.2255263263719283,0.4626688440902194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15406890988166502,0.2340073040477912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3510860987621325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22085606639777774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15334134386778714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.134588427333462,0.2652846254499949,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1361389928081086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Angelo_Maligno,2019/04/14,"May Have Found The Secret To Hallucination Control I've been doing research into a way to control hallucinations. I've cross examined several scientific effects. Namely : The placebo effect, cognitive bias and accuracy of eye witness testimony. I may have discovered something important. It seems beliefs effect the way we interpret information. Not only that though, in the case of something that's entirely a mental creation it seems to change it. It's most interesting. I want you all to do an experiment and next time you suspect something is a hallucination form a positive belief about it. We could be on the verge of unlocking something very useful. I see images myself and it seems to work for me. It doesn't give me complete control but I'm able to see more pleasant images. Need to know if it does the same for you.",4.7619819819819815,7.739272135135138,6.197189189189189,68.20546846846847,74.27027027027026,8.811531531531532,32.83963963963964,9.3871,3.8761255855855854,668,34,101,18,15,225,95,148,0.019,0.872,0.108,0.897,0,0,4,0,0,0,15.0,2,3,0,7,2,2,0,0,11,0,11,1,1,7,1,37,23,6,0,4,3,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,10,6,0,3,15,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,2,3,11,2,16,17,5,9,2,0,3,0,9,4,0,7,2,71,21,2,0.14215194636652484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15037791058034156,0.0,0.14904361121134355,0.0,0.478306485826199,0.11349676216451945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1243981262104079,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13905188036638735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15586227197649774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13636509998047364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07812299212847865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14325572744285056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10540386703000602,0.0,0.0,0.15118020763946985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10811296082377307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2265533935591629,0.3882293793550677,0.0,0.160591237451316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.43774205291478174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13966356556025722,0.0,0.08288994308199152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12277364051166816,0.0,0.11729024310854655,0.0838449009969088,0.2256671967945625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10348830997634016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,raddestandsaddest,2019/04/14,"Schizophrenia, drug induced psychosis, or something else? A bit about me: I'm 24 and about five years ago I was diagnosed with PTSD, MDD, and GAD. After years of therapy I was able to shake most of my PTSD symptoms (frequent panic attacks, nightmares, flashbacks, etc.) and some of my anxiety but what seemed to stick was severe suicidal thoughts, depersonalization and intrusive thoughts. I tried a myriad of antidepressants to no avail. All the while this was happening I would occasionally smoke weed. I hadn't smoked since I was a teen because of a bad reaction to it and when I picked it back up again I would start to have what could maybe be classified as psychosis? It first started when one time I smoked with my ex boyfriend and suddenly I completely forgot where we were and who he was, he took me inside his house and I couldn't recognize anything and started having a panic attack. After that whenever I smoked I started to ""hallucinate"" that I was doing something for the very first time, or I would believe that nothing was real or many other delusions, or felt like I was dying. But there seems to be symptoms while I am sober as well? I still experience depersonalization, have horrible intrusive and repetitive thoughts and the constant fear that other people can hear them. I've heard it's relatively normal but I often see bugs crawling on my arms and tend to smack myself a lot. I see patterns when I close my eyes and see them sometimes when they are open. Also, when I was 13 I would constantly see monsters outside of my room and would cry and scream about how they were going to get me. Doctor chalked it up to sleep deprivation. I haven't seen anything that vivid since I was 15. Anyway, without my doctor knowing of any of this he put me on seroquel because of the severe depression I was still feeling. I started to feel great except for the extreme sleepiness that came with taking the drug. I have since switched to abilify and it has curbed the suicidal thoughts and lessened the feeling of being ""out of control"". But I am still experiencing the symptoms above and have been experiencing them since before I started antipsychotics which doesn't seem like it makes any sense? I apologize for how long this is, any insight is appreciated!",7.503204819277112,8.174827609638559,7.062795180722894,73.99226506024101,63.26506024096386,9.820722891566266,35.877108433734946,9.692545771848811,3.4731465060240967,1818,80,313,33,25,569,215,415,0.163,0.782,0.055,-0.9943,0,0,8,0,0,0,43.0,1,0,5,3,21,14,2,4,15,0,41,11,3,6,1,71,76,38,3,8,10,1,4,2,0,5,8,3,1,0,22,26,0,3,14,0,0,5,6,10,1,4,26,16,50,4,43,40,6,47,0,2,7,0,15,9,0,11,35,227,72,3,0.07284505679756577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0645727476318209,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058254165602819215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14861140975734166,0.0,0.055726269064449385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1198905498866118,0.0,0.0,0.16574353672215256,0.0,0.056013352220317586,0.06082257968591226,0.08881134100084717,0.0,0.061985778042778175,0.08207143387493514,0.0,0.0,0.07952793531864212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0833153388318576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07637665611704457,0.15743925543526774,0.08170192533937408,0.05816085039663711,0.0,0.0800168743517764,0.0,0.0,0.06274134067883605,0.07393619927312989,0.07560166820460605,0.0,0.0,0.14912000468331796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16895427822053036,0.0,0.0608526976808379,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08124149405042493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07125644341851325,0.0,0.08197094102856094,0.1104979483977212,0.0,0.06994267815604004,0.0,0.0,0.12392393619818988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03805853560788462,0.0,0.041399524493049296,0.0,0.0,0.0803119322849578,0.0,0.0,0.06441664315159293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08210167322832428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08405341517984945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04003373815312702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0711768304106912,0.0,0.0,0.06446558296559086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061930262325407937,0.0,0.0,0.0486246410635114,0.0738534541089651,0.07318265059426256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07137268919159401,0.06989679663931055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04936169573091831,0.0,0.0,0.17093595761531527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050501590335404065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1703039463956959,0.07322940202124689,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08291362244813211,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2321923159454513,0.1989462115185176,0.0,0.16458835932037996,0.0,0.24103273497197114,0.0,0.07289766462640024,0.0,0.0,0.1121593672204879,0.07204562381607182,0.0,0.3093606367966006,0.0,0.17452246936899582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15936133781078393,0.0,0.0,0.227141717660288,0.05477041703259481,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08330467095766682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2313233529018533,0.08495307684617924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08093353841933668,0.049457011890435866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06010480080949766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0654964544006401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0702200352709396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2587351916110376,0.0,0.0,0.0938196565172608 schizophrenia,djfnfnf,2019/04/14,"I'm realizing that I have schizophrenia at 22 and now I fear I'll die alone My family has a history of schizophrenia. My great grandmother on my mother's side had it. I've always had paranoia. I was diagnosed with PDD-NOS (aspergers that isn't quite like aspergers) when I was about 5. I eventually began talking to myself a lot, having mostly auditory hallucinations, and over the last decade my above average schizophrenia developed into very severe schizophrenia. I'm going to see a doctor this summer. I'm also a Two Spirit trans person. I'm kind of overweight but working on it. I'm a social person but awkward and I don't function at all in loud, impersonal environments. I've never had any sort of relation, barely any friends, very lethargic. I really am kind of mean sometimes though I really don't mean it. I refuse to ever have sex unless I adore somebody because it repulses me. All this together just makes me feel that I'm going to die alone. Like, so much of this stuff already repulses people, but paranoid schizophrenia too? I really want a relationship. I want to adopt older queer kids and smother them in all my love and get them what they need to be happy and teach them skills. But this just seems impossible. It's so unfair. I want and need this. I can't rely on myself. I'm sort of losing my grasp on reality right now. Or maybe this is what's real. Can't tell anymore. Seriously, why does this all have to fall on me. It's so unfair. God I'm just so tired all the time. I am very suicidal and chronically depressed. It takes me so much energy to do anything, and recently I struggle to even shower. I never missed a class before this term. Now I have missed lots. I need a gender dysphoria diagnosis and a schizophrenia diagnosis just to get medication that will help. It's miserable.",2.762357875116493,5.383839908045979,4.625234544889718,78.65403075489284,79.51724137931033,7.670208139173656,24.63529046287667,8.605353355243054,2.148503324013669,1440,53,257,34,37,488,179,348,0.191,0.6709999999999999,0.13699999999999998,-0.9742,1,2,0,0,0,0,44.0,0,0,4,4,19,19,1,4,11,0,22,9,0,1,8,50,51,24,3,6,10,1,1,2,1,1,6,1,1,3,23,12,1,1,6,0,0,3,7,10,0,1,6,3,35,9,30,43,11,30,1,5,1,3,16,13,1,7,16,167,58,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2143029626037132,0.11416868299250947,0.08273547548090013,0.0860855001909426,0.0,0.0,0.14071023100152347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10260272234706316,0.0,0.0,0.08513727342835174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06306715107636741,0.0,0.08803529784271084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08910838563485368,0.10500788293527537,0.21474653018649095,0.0,0.0,0.1058938392089105,0.09053695741899204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06833315736697666,0.09358385404370673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09753117200410273,0.11641922446978803,0.0523115683702397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07993153932823882,0.0,0.10810526619139203,0.0,0.11759534475075688,0.0,0.0,0.11406301739328782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11013316481099153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06934584254074802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2154715642346793,0.0,0.08433223151449704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10108888946075537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11574324867449128,0.0,0.17591290329636214,0.09337505385221767,0.0,0.06905914378564243,0.0,0.10393765546572123,0.2253925928485889,0.0,0.10422323995041667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15210734430840472,0.23013880622972765,0.1595866649985809,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0717248808854122,0.18067139820246364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1100405177459779,0.0,0.1177580677038838,0.198833893090766,0.0,0.10215247925713404,0.11107537565283586,0.0,0.08835272717605606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08244278097525704,0.09418444864145308,0.0,0.11687830411851155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10546259376172704,0.0,0.0,0.10232279324677676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10815696116831784,0.1184348729847299,0.11316646561331466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0777876817663941,0.08315577250317646,0.09042701632410244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10164714432053623,0.0,0.06032730135005088,0.11890996767058785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1010636165103642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2560915200930071,0.1830669591883681,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09335492268315207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07531879296834174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,lavender_latte123,2019/04/14,My Schizophrenic Brother is getting aggressive My brother has been starting to hit and shove my mom during his acute episodes and also when she mentions taking his medicine. He is really avoidant about taking his medicine and sometimes pretends to take it but then just hides it so we don’t really know if his treatment just isn’t working or if he’s just not taking the medicine. So far the worst has just been some bruising and a fall once but my mom is getting older and my brother isn’t getting better and I’m scared that he might really hurt her one day if this continues. I know he doesn’t mean to and he shows remorse once he’s realized what’s happened. We don’t want to involuntarily commit him because we think the trauma from that would just make him worse and even less likely to comply with treatment. I’m afraid to talk to a therapist about this because I’m afraid that they’ll alert the police or something like that. I really don’t know what to do. Does anyone has any advice/ experience/ insight with this? Are my concerns proportional or am I just reacting to the stigma associated with schizophrenia?,5.770422535211267,7.208469985915496,5.7367323943661965,79.22481690140846,67.45070422535211,8.309107981220656,32.04037558685446,8.648137234880735,2.5979254460093903,909,38,162,14,15,285,113,213,0.135,0.8029999999999999,0.063,-0.9531,0,1,1,0,0,0,11.0,3,0,1,2,13,11,1,4,7,0,20,1,0,2,1,44,40,21,0,5,15,5,0,2,0,3,1,0,0,0,11,14,0,1,7,2,0,1,7,8,0,1,2,0,21,3,15,34,3,8,0,1,0,0,25,1,0,8,8,106,32,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13525394387238351,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11068748577329136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09412444662708924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09678041594437876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16874851681100142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12241356817576372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0892638534784114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12112468234482116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09141937409482112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1353928338947889,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21694261217499075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12239667667748835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14817218500247206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2282017316575281,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13524156293279874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0923906335324516,0.0,0.0,0.15077050847488532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14683254177349614,0.0,0.3242113395810127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29480708554519425,0.09379109523623733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3546793534423339,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13857388134606075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10655579935864973,0.13689233857610042,0.0,0.0979682475061289,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.416272360498744,0.11124977928044004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16070621518265385,0.0,0.0886883875965609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0816385849920774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10076509232208863,0.0,0.1410529639370742,0.09832343333438996,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,november3333,2019/04/15,"Vraylar Hello, even though I don’t have schizophrenia I do have psychotic depression. My dr has me on 3mg of Vraylar for psychosis and it has helped greatly with my psychotic symptoms. Also it doesn’t cause weight gain for me, anyone else had experience on this drug?",7.250533333333338,7.824915519999998,6.958000000000002,74.86233333333338,63.8,9.866666666666667,36.66666666666667,9.725611199111238,3.633866666666668,216,10,37,4,3,68,38,50,0.07400000000000001,0.858,0.068,-0.0772,0,0,1,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,1,3,2,0,0,0,0,8,4,0,1,0,3,8,3,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,3,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,1,6,1,6,7,0,2,0,1,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,27,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2252497168139073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19694874386480746,0.2886020481742066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2893505209422029,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.242600148404645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3266453388341967,0.0,0.2352973865152692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1860389906076624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2755252527453515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3105398526743119,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1887960551835021,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2927607954450345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27673728035114514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34299561882359103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Athleticnerd31,2019/04/15,"My doctor has my Geodon at 8 PM and I have been so unstable. When I had my old psych doctor, she had my Geodon at 6:30 PM with meals, and now this new psych doctor put it at 8 PM. I have been having rapid crying spells, mood swings, and I have been completely unstable. Isn't Geodon supposed to be with food? I will have it switched back this Thursday because I spoke to the admin at my mental health center. I think my doctor is a quack because he has messed me up so bad on meds in the last two months. I just want to be stable again. I have schizo-affective disorder and my mental health sucks right now. I have been eating a little bit at 8 PM because I usually don't eat meals right before bedtime. I meet with the counseling center at my college on Wednesday morning and in the afternoon with my new therapist.",4.433752771618625,5.19629606707317,5.046496674057651,85.43641906873617,70.03658536585365,8.158758314855879,26.494456762749444,8.296473431620573,1.5703,641,19,131,9,11,206,88,164,0.135,0.843,0.022,-0.9594,0,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,0,0,8,4,1,0,6,0,21,11,0,0,0,12,25,8,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,6,1,0,0,4,9,5,0,1,0,0,1,2,3,0,1,7,1,23,0,18,15,1,31,0,0,0,0,4,16,1,0,14,86,27,7,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10119679964581572,0.10988541421708227,0.24067717227997726,0.0,0.11198691227785007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14367953742584247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13798626328046076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14456288154673155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15083174247268868,0.5388167870319712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2693313452855388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15913835480569732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27978179661283514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1072763589632278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13190366778385193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14618446638446542,0.0,0.2652555498716826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1050465593506436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2542115616819815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1380982345768366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13230026111236726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22478140814498407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15280457242496712,0.0,0.08432773511808155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12855982354770354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14494528578965518,0.0,0.07762455894387969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,cynicalskeptic_,2019/04/15,"Anyone experience this? When I have some hallucinations it's more of a deja Vu type of feeling. Like I've been through this before and I'm redoing my life over. It makes me very vulnerable and scared about my future. Basically wondering why everyone else doesn't see what I see....even when I try to explain to this to my boyfriend he tries to understand. I usually get over it by using the touch feel smell reality check and say I'm okay, this is reality. Does anyone else get this way? Or am I the only one with this type of schizophrenia? Help",1.7454780733285418,4.398643130841123,3.7209345794392563,83.04525521207765,84.98130841121495,7.404457225017973,23.18404025880661,8.384062270229773,1.801651905104242,433,16,86,11,13,146,73,107,0.052000000000000005,0.86,0.08800000000000001,0.4182,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,1,3,1,5,1,0,2,0,13,17,6,0,0,1,0,3,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,10,4,0,0,5,0,1,0,1,1,0,1,1,6,9,2,13,16,2,7,0,0,1,0,4,2,0,3,5,49,19,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26789274151436737,0.19628049505388329,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16300730233042485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16763940773441008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3200551610931333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1265265628113455,0.0,0.0,0.1830481140209672,0.0,0.18738686489175527,0.0,0.0,0.19372156054816791,0.13685373573345838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.200169116722428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12840166384844792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13530769003160634,0.0935887511621602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12787080870515352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1298090806249015,0.14569345433914133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1523398000042825,0.19178950934359493,0.0,0.30530425074281553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2601194772136273,0.0,0.0,0.1994254275723104,0.0,0.16545024437073425,0.2109812614840473,0.1580607963056009,0.0,0.15205500423590734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17285718886343254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20774355697689148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Mobilefootwear,2019/04/15,"Difficulty following conversations? I don't know if anyone else is experiencing this, but I have a hard time following conversations. Especially with people who don't know me. Sometimes I only hear a few words. Sometimes I get whole sentences. Inevitably, I fail to follow conversation. Sometimes I act appropriately and give a noncommittal laugh or general agreement. But this is based on the tone of the conversation and the speaker's body language. I can only follow the conversation when there is something important going on (you've got a doctor's visit tomorrow) from people I know. Still, I frequently find myself talking with those people I trust and have to have several sentences spoken back to me to understand what was said. I don't do it in public (mostly to do with anxiety I think). I can follow text without a problem. Anybody relate?",5.284854586129754,8.370526791946311,6.4987651006711395,66.16206263982104,73.02684563758389,9.074004474272929,32.08098434004473,9.558583805096642,3.953168769574944,688,33,99,19,15,230,92,149,0.069,0.782,0.149,0.9117,0,0,1,0,0,0,20.0,0,0,0,1,4,5,0,0,9,0,14,2,1,0,0,21,30,8,0,2,5,0,1,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,6,6,0,0,6,0,0,8,4,2,0,0,3,5,16,3,14,27,3,17,0,1,0,0,12,3,0,3,6,73,22,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12425773389568327,0.0,0.0,0.1135741275060614,0.16642769674300434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1248978683060194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18042199254102226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16625295548705193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13568857994987915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1484571555648435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08486244403971457,0.15581668931917408,0.09231213903654092,0.0,0.12990930265855144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1455044720621213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18306927837922826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.267800177499459,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2470691347047899,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3378234329279039,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15542260833338367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1545071667637324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1834985267998665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12504577320503332,0.4819392776214242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12971600241524553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.130554270652024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10407793914615687,0.0,0.0,0.09471365115223844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16909430849834112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18134616831545064,0.0,0.15657575149613362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,buildingelevator,2019/04/15,"How is your family treating you? Not being a functioning member of society comes with a cost. Many of us stay home and indulge in hobbies or other non-productive endeavours that don't benefit anyone. My father never accepted that. He used to call me good for nothing, for example. One day he removed me from his inheritance and we haven't been speaking since. My mother was always more permissive, so she took it in strides. I live with her now and it's not going so bad at all. Apart from that my other family members try to take as much distance from me as possible. They act surprised when I show up at family reunions and they can sometimes snap. For instance one time my uncle called me lukewarm, as for saying that I have no personality, no emotions. &#x200B; What about you? Were you more lucky, or is it all a shit show for you as well?",3.8353439153439126,5.960172851851857,4.947548500881833,80.20111111111113,73.56790123456791,8.085361552028218,28.23809523809524,8.841846274778883,2.4512243386243378,670,27,121,14,14,220,111,162,0.102,0.8390000000000001,0.059,-0.8091,0,0,0,0,0,0,23.0,2,5,2,0,7,9,1,0,3,0,10,1,1,2,3,19,15,14,0,0,4,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,1,10,8,0,0,1,2,2,5,7,2,1,2,4,2,23,7,24,10,5,17,0,0,0,0,21,6,1,3,5,94,33,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1308288219822774,0.17035976769428304,0.19105292512728425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1099395999686365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13128135204545033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32110094555983065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1354406200003584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10140101432004156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17686375888427402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.44467029795536295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08935802423298235,0.1318779377716221,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15771555438546614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1388378901850853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15940759761785062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11558290668336628,0.0,0.12126627213372106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15086742479257187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21308764568274471,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13728808068891382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.177254374809361,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12503643493360336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16139540455267676,0.13006314224806814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1555055203573111,0.0,0.0,0.16758736990402912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11821817550756787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09168268467385192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17468947230421233,0.10674955621141133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1891295834875692,0.1357971371527896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14136958893065166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19105292512728425,0.0 schizophrenia,carneadevada,2019/04/15,"Does anyone sometimes recognize visual hallucinations as just that, hallucinations? Sometimes they start and before it takes over I sometimes have a ""God damnit it's happening again"" moment before I get lost. Same with auditory sometimes. I find myself curled up pretty often telling myself it's not real and the voices argue with me but there's always a little voice in the back screaming telling me it's not real but I can't always hear that voice over the rest.",5.071071428571429,7.9106875357142865,5.362142857142857,75.32035714285716,72.45238095238095,6.5809523809523816,24.785714285714285,7.6454224807358475,1.6273857142857149,379,12,58,5,8,120,55,84,0.112,0.8420000000000001,0.046,-0.6486,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,1,1,5,3,1,0,5,0,2,0,0,0,0,14,8,5,0,0,5,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,0,0,6,4,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,3,0,0,1,5,9,0,7,7,2,9,0,1,0,0,5,5,0,1,4,42,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2669635221444111,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11216894865395424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12335258816985885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2730101252010281,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14038406574395276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14662039168186702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0838124961834445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1418583130448847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1808042811998726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16078234556015553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17511668498220287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16320416413072494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3651847110770052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6346354082911622,0.0,0.11354565091504056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1206153966564864,0.0,0.2804271883342381,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Anonforthem,2019/04/15,"Want a cure? I found a way to hurt your voices back- without hurting yourself or anyone else. Without meds. It give physical relief, and theres no drugs involved. I spent 18 years feeling in my bones I was normal... and I was right. Message me. Throw your paranoias in the trash and risk messaging a stranger who fights for our rights. If your body is like mine it'll work. If you have tactile, or trouble crying and emoting, I'll explain everything I found out about my body and maybe itll work for you. Keep an open mind. I love all of you out of empathy. You had your human rights taken, and that's not right. We didnt deserve this. Let me help you fight them back. Worst is you feel like a dumb ass and it doesnt work.",0.7558295281582943,3.184848205479452,1.6363470319634708,97.77756468797566,87.4931506849315,4.3403348554033485,20.439878234398783,5.82211442006289,-0.12210989345509835,562,18,122,4,18,174,100,146,0.198,0.6779999999999999,0.124,-0.9208,0,0,1,0,2,0,23.0,2,10,1,3,4,12,3,1,6,0,11,6,4,0,1,28,22,11,0,4,7,0,2,2,0,2,1,1,0,1,7,11,0,1,5,0,1,1,6,8,0,0,8,3,24,4,12,11,2,14,0,2,0,2,24,9,2,4,5,76,31,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09357734810724197,0.1371250905006992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20581467904652986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2973108748083914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14700644275173136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1552008100172379,0.0,0.11179815120718864,0.15054122024630362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12027816071226875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13533737274715854,0.09560848566566718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2934763167769024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12838234285850136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08970371595417696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2865364857236353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.118954634988726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13685068158198932,0.0,0.13076557575866718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12078718782663099,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1344506545920408,0.0,0.1486554374041957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1351305831556516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13112540614313872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4571618226555234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07893665482050463,0.10622836574367242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2580155168196162,0.0,0.2922904400421771,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08618240887639476 schizophrenia,throwaway007700007,2019/04/15,"Schizophrenia and color blindness Hello, I am curious about something. There are some researches that link color blindness to schizophrenia. Some are hypothesizing that in the future they would be able to diagnose schizophrenia with some ocular tests. I would like if anyone would be willing to answer in the comments whether he has color blindness. Mild color vision impairment is also considered color blindness. Color blindness is very harmless if inherited. If you want to test for color blindness [https://enchroma.com/pages/color-blindness-test](https://enchroma.com/pages/color-blindness-test) I would like to know the results in comments whether if you have or not. This seems strange, I realize that.",11.191176470588234,15.655258705882357,7.476235294117651,59.629058823529434,59.98039215686275,8.00156862745098,36.67058823529412,8.841846274778883,4.108969411764705,596,27,64,10,10,165,61,102,0.0,0.863,0.13699999999999998,0.8881,0,0,1,0,0,0,30.0,0,2,1,0,3,3,0,0,3,0,14,7,0,1,0,25,17,9,0,9,8,0,0,2,0,5,7,0,0,0,4,2,0,0,5,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,13,7,3,11,10,3,4,0,0,13,0,7,3,0,10,3,53,11,3,0.2587209413777559,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20689904334648984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1809036977728428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2625963094653903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1421862632440657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.252795966915277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23552982815130896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19917602063416692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21347187208556587,0.15260031445305142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7351517347532479,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Lockedinforeverhelp,2019/04/15,"Need help please I need someone to talk to and I have nobody,,,,,, psychiatrists are all USELESS!!!!!!!!!!!!!@!!! &#x200B; I cannot live independently anymore and my life is DUMB!!!!!!!!! I can't type properly or read even though I was a real good reader....... this is the best I can type!",2.9529411764705884,5.851820274509804,3.226960784313725,87.06632352941178,81.54901960784316,5.752941176470588,22.225490196078432,7.1686216300943375,0.8358078431372551,218,7,41,3,6,67,40,51,0.0,0.741,0.259,0.9227,0,0,0,0,0,0,44.0,0,0,0,1,2,4,1,0,2,0,8,1,0,1,1,8,10,4,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,2,0,0,1,0,7,2,2,9,2,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,1,1,0,27,8,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26194927974544896,0.2937675767447806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23976317287336574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2537145492454017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1596816755733021,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20277869171308352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16204812945318972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17076381577214936,0.0,0.0,0.21348048208556752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.358527266598124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26538233331213845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2418276584912415,0.27517835100530313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20484435648716626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.194319326057025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23753016760481965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2937675767447806,0.0 schizophrenia,rjones2990,2019/04/15,"Wondering about signs and how to interact Hi all, I come seeking some insight on some things. Please forgive me for keeping things brief, and I'm more than happy to fully elaborate if anyone has questions. I believe my girlfriend may suffer from un-diagnosed schizophrenia. Perhaps it is something else, hence my asking here. I don't seek any diagnosis on her here, but more a general overview of what the signs are that I should look for and most importantly, how I can effectively deal with them without more trouble arising. As I'm unsure whether this request violates the thread's rules, I'll wait to see the preliminary responses. Thanks folks.",6.37185823754789,8.565714155172415,6.01770114942529,74.87519157088123,66.93103448275862,8.948659003831418,36.1647509578544,9.444778638647367,3.7658842911877413,526,27,84,11,9,163,92,116,0.075,0.763,0.162,0.8687,0,0,1,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,1,1,5,6,1,0,4,0,7,0,0,3,1,27,17,9,0,2,4,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,6,5,0,2,5,0,0,2,2,3,0,0,0,2,10,3,14,15,7,4,0,1,2,0,10,2,0,7,0,58,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16181231825094694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16637827925082085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2224485976762491,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26808511538582896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20497052293034115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24531321001950265,0.0,0.2415114928238159,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1987744298968396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2532993171503955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2114984863179944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1998157968844572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26119467259612994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2665554240511874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18961318473731975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18318345058236524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21906989742354688,0.0,0.0,0.31616321571579964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2293726985042481,0.2580436882303984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Last_Painting,2019/04/15,SSA Psychological Evaluation Question Does the government mandated psychiatrist test for drugs in your system?,15.9,19.465767000000007,14.646666666666668,16.77000000000001,45.66666666666666,19.333333333333336,55.0,15.903189008614273,11.527000000000005,95,6,8,5,1,31,15,15,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1.0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,1,0,4,1,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4770133673176604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6321332470535936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6106273866849955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Stella1597,2019/04/15,"Out of control schizophrenic adult An adult relative has a schizophrenia diagnosis. For years, he’s been in and out of a psych ward and jail for various reasons. He’s out of control and always seems to get himself into trouble. It’s seems like we’re always chasing him around picking up the pieces. He even almost died in a single car accident and that wasn’t a wake up call for him. It’s taken a huge toll on my family members who put all of their energy to help him. It seems like no matter what we do, he doesn’t appreciate or want help. It feels like there is no light at the end of the tunnel. He won’t take his medication. We don’t know what else to do. We don’t want to see him in a psych ward because he seems to get way worse, but also don’t want him to be in danger or have another accident to happen. Can anyone relate? Are there any resources or success stories out there?",3.1336263736263734,4.473449175824179,4.586593406593405,85.33340659340661,73.72527472527473,7.617582417582418,25.08791208791209,8.192908349453996,1.4306879120879132,698,22,145,11,14,233,105,182,0.107,0.765,0.129,-0.3743,0,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,3,0,1,3,6,6,1,0,10,0,15,3,1,4,1,33,30,9,1,3,4,0,1,3,0,1,2,0,0,2,8,13,0,2,7,0,0,2,8,2,0,0,3,3,12,4,29,25,4,20,0,0,1,0,23,15,0,8,5,93,20,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14570668921890487,0.0,0.0,0.11636384967472953,0.24215102760134066,0.0,0.0,0.09895141154859056,0.15257933907754095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10174358640213074,0.0,0.0,0.1295342548189536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08870120640036759,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14858141110069792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32640242839103684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1510158297365401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12155446897160767,0.0,0.1288781777588927,0.0,0.0,0.09610761532984907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1371733536517306,0.0,0.07357394687952404,0.10395197575970706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15204535746030504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1286735206431297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19506382600875768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07996818493856359,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2132656928957685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1465854563077155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14627718104605936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14960794284016354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11595218757624876,0.5298653309095405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1094049929005364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2574757200050523,0.11549862362002584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14828655450144193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09370331112407997 schizophrenia,Aphantinaut,2019/04/15,"Aphantasia, Schizophrenia, and hallucinations. Let's share our thoughts! Hello fellow observers of the Universe, &#x200B; First off, I'd like to start out by saying thank you for sharing your various experiences and insights. I personally have not been diagnosed with schizophrenia, however it has been of interest to me as I am fascinated with how we all have different ways of perceiving the world. These unique differences excite me as I feel they will help illuminate the mysteries of consciousness. &#x200B; Below here, I will be pondering the difference between seeing ""reality"" and ""non-reality"". If deep thought about the nature of your reality is a trigger, please be careful and use your best judgement. &#x200B; &#x200B; &#x200B; &#x200B; Now, for a little information about me and my personal experience. I recently found out that I have been living my entire 29 years of life with a condition known as Aphantasia. For those of you who don't know what Aphantasia is, it is the inability to produce images in the mind's eye. What this means is that I have never visualized a dream, had a daydream, or even seen anything in my mind other that pitch black nothingness. There's a subreddit for it if you are curious, and a few interesting articles on the internet if you search. &#x200B; The thing that interests me about you and I, is that I have never seen anything other than reality. I do not grasp the concept of being able to see anything in my head. Yet, from what I understand, your condition means that for some reason you ""hallucinate"" images and sensory input in your minds eye. From what I understand, the difference between visualizing with your mind's eye and hallucinations is that visualization is voluntary, while hallucination is involuntary. Please educate me if the things I am describing are not correct, as I cannot fully understand your experience. &#x200B; So, I'd like to have a discussion surrounding how we perceive these things in the minds eye and why you for some reason seem to ""uncontrollably hallucinate"" (again, I apologize if this is an incorrect understanding. It is hard for me to visualize.). I have a few things I can't grasp that I think you could help me with: &#x200B; Why do you have such a strong response to the images you hallucinate? I understand that people can relive memories and experience large emotional responses from those, but isn't a visualization (seeing in your minds eye) a common occurrence? I.E. Would you be able to close your eyes, realize you are still seeing something through your minds eye, and thus determine it is a hallucination? &#x200B; And if you are able to discern your illusion in the moment, what causes your negative response to the visual stimulus? it is an uncontrollable experience in the moment? Is it possible to ""know"" that it is a hallucination, yet you are still gripped and compelled to respond as if it were real? &#x200B; Also when sharing, it'd be helpful if you explained what level you can normally visualize at. For instance, I'm a 0 as I cannot visualize at all, while someone who can ""imagine vivid, life-like images in their head"" would be a 10. Also, I'm curious if you could explain how whatever medication you use to help with your condition affects your consciousness. Does the medication just only stop the hallucinations while leaving your ability to visualize with your mind's eye intact? Is there a discernible difference in your ability to visualize with your minds eye while on/not on medication? Also, does it affect your ability to non-voluntarily produces images in your minds eye? I.E. dreams, daydreams. &#x200B; Thank you for taking the time to read this if you reach here. I'm looking forward to try and ""visualize"" your experiences!",8.907603971232023,9.813770746951224,8.957804878048778,60.79876485303315,60.280487804878035,12.764790494058785,40.29612257661039,12.230961643895464,5.589447670419013,3054,154,464,99,39,1000,263,656,0.027000000000000003,0.8640000000000001,0.11,0.9911,2,0,1,0,0,0,142.0,3,41,2,5,24,16,0,2,39,0,60,17,12,15,5,114,94,45,0,15,16,0,3,2,1,4,5,1,0,2,42,28,0,1,33,3,0,1,12,2,0,1,10,23,77,14,80,70,8,49,0,0,19,0,66,26,0,14,25,365,119,3,0.09889647592742308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07908747606884761,0.0,0.4286171613954068,0.4806801720421328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08138337316241225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.034595250019378535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0336105161042058,0.033864641021844125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05264052583237362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.033459280437290136,0.0,0.1722096138370621,0.0,0.0,0.05769664835711904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03708174143886748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02177339654506154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19347946040583686,0.0,0.0,0.01666834324517503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02804043063419264,0.0,0.03614496042793791,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02953060572781377,0.0,0.06766421062368794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08838429755454509,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03623394453561867,0.0,0.0,0.034905696161098856,0.0,0.03370944902567784,0.046569003775865814,0.03221054845612357,0.033040083305240414,0.02910913337044868,0.0,0.027682710688368417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07181816985356519,0.0,0.09962779505992224,0.0,0.0,0.332857494901586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050850039339719336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.032299182899613484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.025071742129562456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.022854121393490655,0.05756839210994896,0.0,0.07237242167597822,0.0,0.037163639046536544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03297441290610973,0.07504389386625845,0.0,0.06778803229213153,0.03254944633952542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02621548235712591,0.0,0.0,0.10507691619233883,0.03001054579748409,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.027931554374036976,0.0253784462711972,0.0,0.0,0.023333144892932717,0.0,0.052652568950283966,0.02756062738879323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0247859473597113,0.0,0.0,0.06070039191559355,0.0,0.0,0.08760323225120842,0.021122956169872,0.0,0.052341836695210066,0.01922244347255749,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02238140513984843,0.0,0.0,0.1715911986866605,0.0,0.056943201476714875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.026166473113047786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059492458107786785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.046835479346885464,0.0,0.4806801720421328,0.02122869601631051 schizophrenia,dceb5301,2019/04/15,"Dont know if my brother is schizophrenic or is using drugs. My older brother whose in his early thirties has not worked for about 5 years or paid rent. He lives with my mother, but treats her badly and always complains that she pays people to follow him. He doesnt refer to her as his mom and verbally abuses her and destroys her possessions. Recently dented her car by punching it. When he does work, he does it as a lyft driver. When he earns money, he does not help or pitch in with anything. He has stolen and sold my mother's television and used to ask us for money until we finally told him to stop. Our relationship is non existent now. I feel like he is using drugs such as meth, but have never actually seen him do it. He does smoke marijuana frequently. He will not leave my mothers house, or pay rent. I sometimes feel like he might be schizophrenic. Any advice would be deeply appreciated.",4.16030553261767,6.037992780346826,5.0535631709331135,80.84047687861275,72.06358381502889,7.948637489677952,25.073905862923198,8.634040054169528,1.7994957886044602,713,22,132,13,14,232,110,173,0.14800000000000002,0.7879999999999999,0.064,-0.954,2,0,4,0,1,0,19.0,3,0,0,3,5,6,1,0,1,0,15,4,0,3,1,29,27,18,0,2,10,6,2,2,0,3,4,0,2,0,5,8,0,1,4,0,8,2,6,3,0,0,4,3,21,3,16,18,0,16,0,0,1,0,37,2,0,6,14,78,26,5,0.0,0.16062325127345295,0.13229262085214094,0.0,0.0,0.13247328637372285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11280156773734347,0.0,0.0,0.09218936184636113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11155906504927744,0.0,0.12673568047883355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11319174246949155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4745380214962581,0.0,0.15888205469939304,0.0,0.3144264720144163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1370922375980599,0.19369640428524634,0.0,0.1485056577151295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09086686767589183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15642467935181056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07450339335359359,0.0,0.0,0.14354455992584172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13246115997128138,0.0,0.11970704495332285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14381384230610675,0.0,0.15877297328367698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1045566672777966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09398422488924528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13385482785024874,0.14554688632653734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.134077997663942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11333904104205901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12953888802170566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16306891096060314,0.3512558563086222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1973869677952398,0.0,0.0,0.09630202246556308,0.0,0.0,0.08729990123665911 schizophrenia,lunarwishes,2019/04/16,"Advice Needing Hello everyone, first time poster. I hope it's alright for me to ask for advice about my best friend. &#x200B; She was diagnosed with schizophrenia at the beginning of the month, after a week long stay at a mental health facility. For almost a year, our communication has been spotty at best. I realize now that this was the result of her schizophrenia beginning to manifest. What started off as her isolating herself due to believing she was being followed and that her phone was tapped has morphed into a delusion that her ex's sister and other unrelated people are a part of a Satanic cult that has it out for her. She believes that she is being attacked demonically and that these attacks will kill her someday. She has even made me promise to get justice for her if ""something happens."" I'm genuinely lost as to what I could do to comfort her. I've thought about giving her a cross, but I don't know if that would actually make things worse by encouraging her delusion. I want to support her to the best of my ability, but I don't even know what to say at this point that won't sound dismissive. Is there anything I can do to make these episodes a little bit easier on her? Thank you.",6.051149927219792,7.038702615720522,6.492384279475986,75.707018922853,66.5109170305677,9.425443959243085,33.60727802037846,9.558583805096642,3.205752605531296,965,42,172,19,15,313,134,229,0.052000000000000005,0.77,0.17800000000000002,0.9805,1,0,1,0,0,0,24.0,1,1,0,5,6,15,3,0,12,1,23,2,0,4,0,24,44,9,1,7,4,2,0,0,1,3,2,2,0,0,19,6,0,0,4,0,0,2,3,4,0,1,8,2,31,11,34,30,5,25,2,1,0,0,29,10,0,4,12,135,50,0,0.0,0.0,0.12127776514952784,0.0,0.0,0.2428867764495347,0.0,0.0,0.12444683907041627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13465556574700796,0.15101182672896155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10227051217368192,0.0,0.1161835028603474,0.2827691824932548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2800383378058185,0.39126745681552383,0.0,0.1356797960280476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09922616860372242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1261399330470966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16416938717791413,0.0,0.0,0.11875331169669814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1057111209978931,0.0,0.0,0.09601716306793928,0.0,0.06493032074470985,0.11921914021399198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10989895523631064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13210209949479726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12343646659333075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13749560688717766,0.0,0.13660028781316247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12455957933120028,0.0,0.10998244972103836,0.0,0.0,0.1356645254755071,0.0,0.0,0.11759520191596334,0.16591355867597293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1252433698865191,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09919781203012146,0.0,0.0,0.0921508392128677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13458136764413642,0.0,0.08615897606728709,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11748323326272098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09883115076317588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0956755635999989,0.0,0.0,0.0879648724092857,0.13246421037023653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1410296254643389,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11441882897804495,0.0,0.0,0.08256502909250578,0.0,0.0,0.09866314651730426,0.07246771899875255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07330260462251763,0.0,0.09968861485297392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12665027997872558,0.0882837908023356,0.0,0.15101182672896155,0.0800311978971968 schizophrenia,machvertigo,2019/04/16,"Voice of God Weapon to mimic schizophrenia Woody Norris: Hypersonic sound and other inventions &#x200B; [https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1pefJgkG0lw](https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1pefJgkG0lw)",38.96875,47.763333375,16.462500000000002,5.532499999999999,-3.5,13.9,47.25,13.023866798666859,7.846450000000001,178,5,8,3,1,35,16,16,0.13699999999999998,0.75,0.113,-0.1179,0,0,0,0,0,0,25.0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.533352051341659,0.5981369363823156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5981369363823156,0.0 schizophrenia,nebulafoxx,2019/04/16,"Hearing music that isn't real About 1 week ago when I was home alone I decided to play my old piano. I'm not very good so I was just playing a few chords. When I was done I closed the piano and walked out to sit in the living room. When I was sitting down I began to hear the most beautiful piano music being played. It was very loud but it did not sound like it was coming from my own piano. I quickly got up and walked over to my piano and I continued to hear the music. It sounded like it was very far off or like in another dimension but it was also loud. I've never heard music that wasn't real before. My mother and grandmother were diagnosed with schizophrenia so it's obvious why I deal with symptoms. When I hear things it feels so real to me and it really leaves me feeling confused.",1.6446951219512194,3.7206008475609775,3.589207317073172,87.58612804878052,80.15853658536584,6.295121951219512,20.615853658536587,7.413659706084162,0.7328243902439024,625,17,126,9,16,211,92,164,0.09,0.8490000000000001,0.061,-0.679,0,1,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,0,11,8,0,1,5,0,14,2,0,0,2,26,25,16,0,0,6,1,2,3,0,0,2,9,2,0,12,10,0,0,3,3,0,3,5,1,0,0,15,11,17,7,17,9,3,26,0,0,0,0,7,10,0,3,14,89,29,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11557876001501545,0.0,0.0,0.13503991707576346,0.0,0.10426913013633744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.136720424830079,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11094834318649614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11231544775686153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13442158721221156,0.0,0.1323384019669671,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1334294983180871,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13185351745012042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10936105896467443,0.1042810881731406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5878151347062399,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1307871531375034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1380592765036295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.191099111522384,0.0,0.11513266700724326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10056123231323263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.136817508507292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.44522127471864653,0.08352820421022347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1355203190079715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0866222436028942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3227447461948124,0.0,0.0,0.10458727593439683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1176525127285266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,bear_the_dog,2019/04/16,"Auditory hallucinations or mild schizophrenia? As the title says, I’m not sure which I’m dealing with. I will say, the hallucinations occur mostly when I am under the influence of marijuana. I believe I have aphantasia. I cannot summon any mental images and see them. So I believe my imagination is expressed through auditory hallucinations. The tricky part is that it seems to blend into schizophrenia. While stoned I don’t see things. but I hear stuff. when I’m with people, I hear them. Not that they’re talking out loud, like they’re speaking in their mind and I can hear them and we’re talking. The anxiety that I’m battling is that everyone can hear what I think, And my “family” wants me to stop thinking because everyone can hear each other and I’m the only one who still thinks out loud. They’ve also told me to get into my mind, implying I got out of my mind. A friend told me I was never in my mind in this anxiety auditory world. I feel blind to something I can’t fix and nobody can help or understand, or that if I try to talk to people they dont understand or won’t tell me, as if it’s some great conspiracy",3.6403153153153163,5.399088797297303,5.2190990990991,79.61126126126126,73.18918918918921,8.356756756756758,26.74774774774775,8.998388855275968,2.149790990990992,891,32,174,19,18,301,119,222,0.095,0.8270000000000001,0.078,0.0693,0,0,1,0,0,0,22.0,0,0,5,0,5,5,1,0,7,0,16,1,0,1,2,42,40,20,0,3,9,0,1,1,1,2,1,10,0,0,14,14,0,1,8,0,0,0,8,1,0,1,4,14,30,4,22,34,4,16,0,0,3,0,24,10,0,9,7,116,44,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07883949595659878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06704212203782936,0.0,0.15083662838938244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06009734486178574,0.0,0.0,0.22214619030856306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10163823336436817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11554250824004625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1884070301705575,0.0,0.0,0.09293846921366772,0.0,0.0498482381232093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07616759600454816,0.0,0.05150731682657009,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07884853761248446,0.10869183680042513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5555701010848578,0.0,0.0660803753265474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04816432760900823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09935188767256832,0.0,0.3981765775492332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07603589727835224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0668046854798699,0.07497938778048029,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10675944709181827,0.0,0.1366947714673716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1567996996259459,0.0,0.0,0.15712116862977438,0.08974934167818406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07589661517739081,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07873121390130368,0.08242263173331853,0.0,0.0,0.11285782350952313,0.0,0.0,0.0929165005399422,0.0,0.0,0.23772000409469465,0.08616884530381627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0654964131315978,0.1895105230677356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1884070301705575,0.0,0.06693368360206634,0.0,0.0,0.2052638059143773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05814880378228275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,healthstudy2020,2019/04/16,"Survey of Women’s Mental and Reproductive Health \[This post has been approved by the mods\] &#x200B; You are being invited to participate in an anonymous online survey to understand women’s experiences of mental health and reproductive issues. We are exploring the intersections of opinions about pregnancy options and mental health. If you (a) are currently located in the US, (b) identify as a woman, (c) are between the ages of 18 and 44, (d) have a mental health condition/disorder, (e) have had sex with a male partner within the past 12 months, (f) are physically able to become pregnant when not using contraception (to the best of your knowledge), and (g) are not currently pregnant nor actively trying to become pregnant, you are eligible for this study. If you choose to participate in this study, you will be asked a series of multiple choice and open-ended questions about mental health and pregnancy. The survey should take approximately 15-20 minutes to complete. At the end, you will have the opportunity to enter for a chance to win a $25 Amazon gift card. No identifying information will be collected as a part of this survey. Please contact [eklann@iu.edu](mailto:eklann@iu.edu) with any questions. If you would like to participate, please follow the link: [https://iu.co1.qualtrics.com/jfe/form/SV\_cCQfwkwwwpAGoPH](https://iu.co1.qualtrics.com/jfe/form/SV_cCQfwkwwwpAGoPH) Indiana University IRB# 1810940452",11.583413886997953,12.859158287610624,10.560796460176993,50.310854322668504,54.61946902654867,12.971545268890402,39.950987066031324,12.367839424501927,5.699274063989107,1167,51,150,34,13,371,135,226,0.018000000000000002,0.861,0.121,0.9688,2,0,0,0,0,0,80.0,2,8,0,4,3,4,0,0,19,0,21,6,0,1,0,28,26,14,0,5,5,0,0,1,1,5,5,0,0,5,4,10,0,0,8,0,0,3,4,0,0,0,2,0,10,4,32,16,2,17,0,0,0,1,20,6,0,7,8,103,14,0,0.10414347620853967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11283941296126798,0.12654572266489006,0.07082113505377638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09736009191908733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2300365746699084,0.0,0.0,0.10929215313897513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10919245339210236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11935744630263352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1844804169987032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10187230329826676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5534982262058913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10869873183715167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05087924198531744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5247606460559461,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08312632912293735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11277723602617867,0.09941673212101174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22863652635604176,0.0,0.0,0.0997406622920117,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23332905541553606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07830293329329165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07070658418827931,0.0,0.0,0.10841703155004226,0.12527177903085746,0.0899465257879416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07398053747624088,0.0,0.12654572266489006,0.0 schizophrenia,ndiphilone,2019/04/16,"Am I schizophrenia? Hi, I am taking Risperdal and Citoles for 3 years but never asked for my diagnosis or my psychiatrist told me what it is. I was extremely aggressive, paranoid and had several instances of sound/visual hallucinations before start to taking meds. I was scared to death if I ever get eye contact with someone else. Is this just anxiety or some kind of schizophrenia?",4.82993697478992,7.872181279411768,5.204453781512608,75.05147058823533,74.44117647058823,8.003361344537815,31.77310924369748,8.841846274778883,3.2458462184873933,309,15,49,7,7,98,53,68,0.231,0.769,0.0,-0.9507,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,0,2,3,1,1,0,0,7,1,1,0,2,11,13,6,1,1,5,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,4,1,8,1,7,9,1,4,0,0,1,0,4,0,0,4,4,35,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20465962313992184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2501043205008113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2276482202603235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2234868829995471,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2419960895255341,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13977331850008942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2785911976033265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2971653823221879,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2063355333284388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2678440771823076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3022326109143391,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2266771960570529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18935902344336647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40229834501008027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2556362615854679,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17228046905251065 schizophrenia,emphaticZen,2019/04/16,"Signs of upcoming hallucinations - ""natural shadows"" Hi, when I realize I'm about to start going through an auditory hallucination episode, I start to see what I call ""natural patterns and shadows"". For example, if you look at a rock or a tree, you can see the dark and light parts and kinda make out faces or patterns that occur naturally, or least I can when I'm feeling non-episodic. Another example would be carpet. The shadows are close to the quality of texture. These really start standing out and are more pronounced right before I start internal, auditory hallucinations. (Sidenote: the upside of this is I can start heading home, getting food, and getting into bed which all help weather the experience) I had one other person tell me she has had a similar experience. Can anyone say this is true for them? I can try to explain more. Any insights would be greatly appreciated. Much love.",6.34556603773585,8.370052943396228,7.388820754716981,65.68813679245285,66.73584905660377,10.331446540880505,37.778301886792455,10.504223727775694,4.672852830188679,714,39,111,20,12,240,103,159,0.0,0.873,0.127,0.9587,0,0,0,0,0,0,27.0,0,2,1,0,3,3,0,0,9,0,16,4,2,1,2,24,33,11,0,3,4,0,1,0,0,2,0,1,3,1,7,9,1,0,4,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,6,13,3,15,27,6,15,0,0,3,1,12,6,0,5,7,78,20,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10822562307644848,0.166879822953822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11127949424951797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13542263265341306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16250718956196653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3113531995869914,0.0,0.0,0.0804696579726904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1924415498701362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16629579396088193,0.0,0.09044707954748957,0.0,0.0,0.17546046281786998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16333104633708534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1066730821677421,0.0,0.15963772046017832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13364365180653295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14363665400910008,0.0,0.10623206020102796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11699157904234232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10784233092152844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1723410197888667,0.0,0.0,0.1389612859234312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10195383716498012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13591092674744598,0.0,0.126560322633005,0.0,0.0,0.2536395904035084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5632263990918935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13910175706433467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10805057167713167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2261073550379303,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Faye_Phillips,2019/04/16,"Over Ten Years Diagnosed. Coping Very Well These Days! I recently just turned 30. I'm a single male living alone in London and since I was first diagnosed (at 18 roughly) I've come a long, long way. I've come to terms with the fact that, yes, I \*am\* Schizophrenic. And you know what? I'm not thrilled about it. But I'm prepared to do everything in my power to make life easier for me. I'm taking my meds every night (20mg Olanzapine) and on time. I practice sleep hygiene and mindfulness exercise which clear my head and thoughts a lot. Music is and always had been one of my biggest therapies and medications. It keeps me focused and provides a lot of profound context to many of my hallucinations, delusions, paranoid thoughts and helps combat my anxiety. I'm highly active. I get out of my home at least once a day and make myself productive. I do occasionally hallucinate sometimes in the night but I usually stay calm and repeat my calming exercises. So, in short, life is pretty good! and I will continue to try and keep it that way. I hope you all are well and if you're going through a bad or rough time then my thoughts and prayers go out to you. I like to believe that when things are bad, they can only get better. So stay happy, stay calm and stay positive! Namaste 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schizophrenia,forkliftenthusiast,2019/04/16,An anxious mind Hi I’m 17 years old and last year I developed DP/DR and I have always had problems with anxiety and depression and I had this fear I was developing schizophrenia but after I talked to a psychiatrist it calmed my fears and over time my “symptoms” went away but now fast forward to this year I took acid a couple weeks ago and I’ve been having strange visual disturbances similar to what’s experienced with macular degeneration or retinal detachment but the one that is freaking me out the most is that things look distorted like when I look at a things they seem to slightly move and straight lines look wavy and this has shown up after taking acid also when I type on my phone the letters appear crooked and it looks like my phone distorts and Reading got very difficult because it seemed like letters were moving around I feel like I’m going crazy because I can’t stop noticing these things I also smoke a lot of weed so that may be related but I’m just really anxious about this shit I also have very loud random thoughts but I can tell they are thoughts but I feel like I’m just on the brink of losing my mind and I know this will probably seem funny and I know this isn’t the place to ask but I’m just super freaked out over all this thank 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schizophrenia,anarchistcandy,2019/04/16,"First Episode I had delusions and auditory/visual hallucinations yesterday. In the daytime right now they are on the sidelines but are still kind of waiting to come back until the evening. I am waiting to get to see my therapist until tonight. I've never had anything like this where I saw something so bad I screamed and hid under my blankets; I had to ask someone to come stay home with me. I felt then like I had powrs someone gave me to change colors and all this other stuff, but sometimes I knew it wasn't really happening. Does anyone have advice for when this happens? I already have psychiatry and therapy, but idk how I tell my therapist who I've seen for years that this happened out of nowhere. I can't see my regular psychiatrist for a week.",6.325833333333335,7.012699361111113,6.5472222222222225,76.62000000000002,65.80555555555556,9.455555555555557,36.138888888888886,9.444778638647367,3.3924222222222227,604,29,110,11,9,194,96,144,0.13,0.87,0.0,-0.9527,0,1,1,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,1,1,8,5,0,0,4,0,11,0,0,1,2,18,27,13,0,0,3,0,1,2,0,0,0,1,1,0,9,8,0,2,2,0,0,2,3,2,0,1,10,7,18,3,18,17,1,22,0,0,5,0,5,6,0,0,15,79,27,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14882000460860495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16806029552415688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10648755618139104,0.0,0.12532504499003894,0.0,0.14237439916547498,0.0,0.0,0.11710474084393388,0.1271591888227447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1611069347411836,0.26237571604126464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13327356873068336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1005887982604326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14622619205466475,0.0,0.0,0.12954125987468829,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07956736693299246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4040194348286419,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15276337155213185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15859084038268365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14880638185252615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11745857698619412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09756348225909774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13005830539840246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2427173156660496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25807654604697483,0.11724341706878452,0.15062273139332572,0.0,0.0,0.1623252174197282,0.1216222426545316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17434027644415934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13311173159274767,0.0,0.17416154393359468,0.3536503113976448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12216111835077588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09807238923414698 schizophrenia,BillyRothbard,2019/04/16,"Is it possible my antipsychotic (Risperidone) is causing EHS and hallucinations? I am diagnosed Paranoid schizophrenia and prescribed risperidone (risperdal is the commercial name) and I believe it may be causing some worrying side effects. Since starting on it (a few months ago) I have been occasionally waking up to hallucinating large spiders by my bedside and experiencing exploding head syndrome. Sometimes when I look at the hinges of my bed I can see this vague, semi-transparent spider legs crawling towards me. When this happens I also experience a loud screeching sound in my head which ""blanks"" my thoughts for a second. I have not experienced this before starting on risperidone. Admittedly it is quite startling and I need to know if i should quit my antipsychotic. I have told my psychiatrist but he is not taking me off the drug.",7.811658130601794,10.35410837323944,7.393841229193345,65.04494878361078,63.859154929577464,9.67067861715749,40.37387964148528,10.018931242160765,4.769104225352113,687,39,98,16,11,216,97,142,0.034,0.956,0.01,-0.2854,1,0,1,0,0,0,18.0,0,0,0,3,3,1,0,1,6,0,14,6,4,3,0,20,25,10,0,3,4,0,0,0,0,2,2,2,1,0,8,5,0,0,4,0,0,0,2,1,0,1,3,6,19,0,12,19,2,14,0,0,2,0,4,8,0,3,6,74,27,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15819582312568295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1427160220993365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15185804444119574,0.20106559675884586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3666593319214537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1811352053576456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2069592985735919,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17457011096807315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15781338505933212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3663070611950476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09807806531700153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14986315963344762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14244669090157536,0.0,0.0,0.13232733505946928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20118912608262315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3796326756128423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14221113353378573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1476256366173864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1765035123977021,0.0,0.2526326888435241,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13418123780036412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14167891859408865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17052811890308064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.181236855722794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,-S_h_y-,2019/04/16,"I cant Every day it's worst i can't keep going like this. Help plz.",-4.1896078431372565,-3.0366621176470585,-0.19176470588235264,106.53039215686277,111.35294117647058,2.266666666666667,5.666666666666668,3.1291,-2.812827450980392,52,0,15,0,3,19,15,17,0.333,0.429,0.237,-0.4186,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,4,1,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,7,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3769712574703398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4924888149440279,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33219989943941464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3917958141524086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5195540403969223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28557013872004394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,i_am_a_loser_reddit,2019/04/16,"Thank you :) I'm not schizophrenic but almost two years ago I went through my first psychotic episode. After my very public episode, I was devastated. This community helped me accept my situation and made me laugh when I was at my lowest point. Thank you <3",3.23070921985816,6.318461468085108,3.784148936170212,81.88416666666669,83.25531914893618,7.388652482269504,24.854609929078013,8.344100000000001,2.1266482269503544,207,8,37,5,6,65,36,47,0.145,0.605,0.25,0.6597,1,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,2,0,1,1,4,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,1,0,6,7,3,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,4,0,11,4,3,3,0,8,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,1,5,23,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25261650287888865,0.0,0.2853650932875824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2424028133653886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19101527597814508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2696538217891814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2693970700274133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.320328100331684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5247403638223481,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2783828689907845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2351373473109763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2641781935987235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1835169974942308 schizophrenia,DisGruForEmp,2019/04/16,"I Need Some Advice My partner whom I have known for awhile has been consistently displaying behaviors associated with Schizophrenia. Now the only reason I am thinking this is because of the research I have done on my own, a person I have spoken to who is in University majoring in psychology, and also the fact that he has a history of mental illness within his nuclear family. I'll try to detail what he thinks and what he talks about and behaviors he exhibits in the most fact-based manner possible. For each example I will provide a written part, so you get a better idea of what I am talking about. This post will be lengthy and incredibly personal for me, so please only read on and comment if you have real advice or information that I can use. Behaviors: Constant pacing(walking), addictive behavior with many different substances, talking to themselves, inability to maintain a conversation, repetitive speech Pacing is self explanatory, but he will also talk to himself about things that I will get into more detail about later on. In terms of the addictive behaviors, he smokes frequently, and smokes a lot of marijuana when he can get his hands on it. He drinks to get drunk almost every night, when he can afford it. He eats to the point where he is unable to move and complains about the pain in his stomach. His inability to maintain a conversation is a bit trickier to explain. When he is under the influence of alcohol or marijuana, he is able to maintain short conversations, can ask relevant questions and responds quickly, and is emotionally invested. When he is not under the influence, he does not respond to his name, physical touch, or any attempt to get his attention. In order to get his attention, I must pull his arm, touch his neck or say his name several times, and even then he doesn't engage, just focuses a little bit more on me. When I want him to answer me, I say his name, give him a couple seconds to let him look at me and not stare into the distance, then ask, and then give him several seconds to respond. Sometimes even with all these steps, he still is not able to responds, or just says, ""What?"". I can sometimes just look at him, and then he can recall my question, so I know he is able to listen and that that part of his brain is functioning, just not very well. He usually has a far away look on his face if he's not looking at me, even if he is staring deep into my eyes, he is not thinking about me, and I have gotten this information from him by asking him. He uses the same phrases again and again to describe may different things. Things like Fraud, Placing remotes, Engineers, 25,000 Hours, 3,000 meetings, At times, Repeats ""over and over"" many times to emphasize a point. Lying: Involvement in movies, music videos, music, tv shows, photography, art, porn He literally believes that he has been involved in most movies, more specifically he worked as a cameraman. The same goes for music videos and porn and tv shows. Any music or band or group we listen to, he has worked with them and influenced their sound in some way. Any photography, especially pornography and war photography, he has taken the photo. He also claims to have several pieces of his own art that he made in a prestigious art gallery in my city. I can literally count on my two hands the times that he HASN'T claimed to have involvement in something I am looking at, reading about, or watching. He also claims to have several properties in many parts of the world, and even claims to have been owner of several buildings in my City, all of which are in fact places I used to live. He has been to the majority of countries in the world and has been to outer space even and worked with Elon Musk on his Space X projects. He wholeheartedly believes that he knows all of these actors, writers, and anyone he sees in a photo. This is the only behavior I can't explain myself or find an explanation for. This next part is a little more complex, but I will do my best to explain. - ""Engineers"" control a lot of his movements (ie; losing and erection, craving something, having a muscle spasm or itch on his body) -Describes these engineers as ""they"" or ""monkeys"" ""pieces of shit"" When I have asked his to go more into detail about who ""they"" are, he just says it can be anyone in the world listening in on his life through microphones -Engineers ""place remotes on his head"" place ""pieces of his identity onto others"", uses the repetitive speech I described earlier when talking about anything -These engineers also speak to him, and when he is talking to himself, he is actually insulting the engineers and telling them to stop -He has missed thousands of ""meetings"", (ie; job interviews, dates). He has been “messed with” for 20,000-25,000 hours. This number has changed over the last month or so, as in it has increased, so he has some concept of time regarding his situation -He believes that his mind has been erased because he doesn’t remember certain things, whether that’s true or not I don’t know, but he receives “memory guidances or guidancing” if we watch something which will cause him to remember his involvement in projects. This goes back to his constant lying -He describes most behavior by other people as fraudulent or that genocide is being committed. This part I don’t really know how to describe more clearly, because he doesn’t really go into detail, just talks about his feelings about it -Has accused me several types of being “led to fraud” and honestly, I hadn’t done anything out of the ordinary -He will go off on tangents about this that, if I didn’t interject, would last for 30 minutes, all the while he isn’t saying anything that makes actual sense -He talks about “calendar years being erased”, and that some events, even something as sensational as the fire at the Cathedral in Paris is a repeat event -He claims to have met me several times in my life, which I assure you that this is not true. He will interject himself into my memories that I speak to him about, claiming that that was in fact himself. I think this covers the majority of what I wanted to speak about and get some feedback on. If anyone has any questions or wants more clarity, please don’t hesitate to ask. Just one more note, this is not a personal attack on this person, I am legitimately concerned, and anyone who wants to judge my involvement with him, please do not contact me.",10.223293944353523,8.300766057872345,9.501478723404258,67.18790384615387,59.059574468085096,12.885270049099836,41.23445171849427,11.550464897139252,4.74625139116203,5078,219,875,113,52,1621,438,1175,0.073,0.879,0.048,-0.9862,4,0,8,0,0,0,172.0,2,3,5,8,55,19,4,0,48,0,104,24,12,14,14,173,158,88,2,13,44,0,6,1,1,11,8,14,0,6,59,49,4,2,27,15,1,10,22,9,1,5,17,31,103,10,163,124,43,138,0,2,11,2,176,78,1,37,48,632,162,12,0.1301346042461957,0.0,0.08466173440129494,0.0945772848115898,0.0,0.08477735276538141,0.0,0.04635810515961987,0.04343700274930939,0.0,0.0,0.1734476599989086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11799465785752007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12132418809226628,0.0,0.10708969110773192,0.0,0.20276381348319064,0.049348966390498405,0.040755248152839006,0.03335515931186415,0.0,0.07932884688275367,0.0,0.0,0.1466171355581866,0.045522746163108176,0.03836449405977275,0.09471552217989697,0.04818340285700238,0.0,0.04842441881211981,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04456136192912774,0.04588838535324461,0.0,0.0,0.09375285068333757,0.048652341410703036,0.0,0.04799715479956132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09064197579910754,0.0,0.0,0.037960556379156137,0.08878192127560579,0.0,0.042494123133335705,0.0,0.04438672942780801,0.0,0.048794638046032485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1719053575518583,0.0,0.036548005578959375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.040893107733376,0.0,0.021933322004744186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03964689023129552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15864323909215122,0.08322464692438328,0.07395849454624473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04451854926361025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08543758104179988,0.0,0.0,0.04896870938516163,0.0,0.0,0.0430461715385011,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0953581002397242,0.0707180475299377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04435714991030821,0.06127861301103695,0.02119239809397611,0.08695270736126487,0.03830374657528784,0.0,0.1821338205486967,0.04852911166962905,0.0,0.07375719124841937,0.0,0.04104550302028179,0.028955286282032814,0.13193606327184454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04371502436486356,0.0,0.04379961769435183,0.0,0.0346240665175896,0.046104163183454866,0.0,0.03216438670632369,0.0,0.0,0.046133209320241966,0.0407075035083996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0293941919157505,0.09897323061908717,0.04615746469658565,0.0,0.0,0.23487182479003785,0.0,0.03007298303651412,0.15150468920279614,0.1812839515982151,0.14284871677410274,0.08201284282267783,0.04890240440133261,0.04154432611356751,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14578053945903147,0.0,0.08677988034551093,0.049373889907593206,0.05557837317806608,0.0446000156842734,0.0,0.0,0.09827809225730312,0.0,0.0,0.17248043419521467,0.0,0.0,0.034566810333402816,0.0,0.04525292451046243,0.3430351433968275,0.044527100391402334,0.0,0.04875891586630116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1335786348670005,0.08580430075513465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.034641887684244366,0.0362661187305557,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2789260412850534,0.03791446000868028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1152741981227402,0.11117999972792987,0.0,0.0,0.15176506850144453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02945095134113176,0.0,0.042374199683656716,0.0,0.0,0.1498593538180641,0.04777496043292642,0.035791559100464936,0.10234234834098743,0.034431597194465584,0.0,0.0,0.039002212585005136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09473954178688668,0.0,0.0,0.03081462970409923,0.0,0.0,0.02793413950131785 schizophrenia,ThisGirlsThrowaway26,2019/04/16,"Having a hard time with work I've been really depressed and anxious lately along with having hallucinations of monsters in dark rooms at work. All of this combined has made it difficult to actually make it to work and I've been calling off at least twice a month. I'm worried I'll get written up for so many call offs. I don't know what to do. Some days it feels so impossible to go in that I have a panic attack or cry my eyes out. It makes me feel like a loser that I can't do something that everyone else does and work. It honestly feels like I can't keep this up for much longer without losing it, but I have bills so I have no other choice but to risk it. I hate it.",3.1832394366197216,3.9786926760563417,4.656450704225354,86.96988732394367,72.94366197183099,7.651830985915493,24.76338028169014,7.908726449838941,1.1058597183098584,528,15,118,7,10,177,89,142,0.195,0.7559999999999999,0.05,-0.9569,0,0,1,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,6,3,11,2,2,4,0,13,1,1,3,1,21,26,9,0,0,4,0,4,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,15,7,0,1,4,0,1,1,5,8,0,1,4,5,9,3,22,22,4,15,0,3,1,0,2,10,0,2,6,78,24,4,0.0,0.0,0.1510021961548421,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17481016112455788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17603708111188354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31601007752582233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16997268526007495,0.09979336043562864,0.0,0.13327581511264305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13541247225912256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1292639398117396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14785901475635602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23472090302253745,0.22109005208278792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0808443412310658,0.0,0.08794130492573549,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13861506492237222,0.1527719715609784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1375384531092444,0.0,0.0,0.08504008723173337,0.0,0.17455146906505487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1511945710353477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1731125045188178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14641705942296293,0.2065779469224883,0.15688028321933362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1235105829319602,0.0,0.11375040717488233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1815519786216973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0991292756751388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11912505317144978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0902291092324454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14916213674614506,0.0,0.4506051121738577,0.15714418887094198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,stealerofsweetcakes,2019/04/16,"It’s been a long night My husband is schizoaffective. He’s been doing really well on his new meds the last few weeks. We are in the middle of moving, so tonight he was with our 2 year old at the new house while I was cleaning the old house 4 hours away. He calls me in full freak out mode. He says the voices want him to hurt himself and others, he can’t take his medicine because it’s poison, if he moves something will hurt him, etc. the same delusions and hallucinations he’s had before, but he says it’s harder to ignore them now than it ever has been before. This all sounds much calmer typed out than it was in reality. He tells me our son (asleep in his bed at the time through all of this, thankfully) isn’t safe with him. We’ve been through a lot of ups and downs through all this, but hearing him say our child isn’t safe with him while I’m 4 hours away has by far been the worst. So, following the plan we set when he was well, I told him I was sending my parents to pick up the baby, I would call the police to come check on him because he was not safe for himself either, and to not come out of our bedroom until the police arrive (to avoid accidental confrontation with my parents). I’m so thankful to the police who responded. They kept me on speaker phone the whole time, de-escalated as much as possible, and got him to the station for screening safely. They tried to not have to use handcuffs, but when he broke a window and wouldn’t stop hitting himself and clawing at the “microphone in his head”, they ended up having to use 2 sets of cuffs to restrain him. They called me for updates every step of the way and when I finally arrived let me sit with him at the station until they knew what would happen next. Unfortunately, due to the level of escalation when he was at his peak, he has to be involuntarily committed to the state hospital instead of inpatient in the behavioral health unit like we usually do. More unfortunately, they consider our residency to be our previous address so he has to go to the hospital 4 hours away instead of the one 20 minutes away. And because it’s an involuntary, I can’t go with him. I’m not entirely sure why I’m posting this. I guess I’m just hoping someone out there will understand. We were so hopeful that things were going to be better, and now I feel like I can never leave our child alone with him in case next time he doesn’t call me. He was so excited to be back at work and now after one day he might lose the job because he’ll be gone for who knows how long. And usually I’m his advocate through this whole process, and I can’t even be with him or know what’s going on (because he won’t remember to sign releases if I’m not there to remind him). It’s just been a long night and I don’t know where to go from here.",6.537925561029012,5.396449209876543,6.9776768229641775,79.85984126984128,65.71957671957671,10.219278720428148,32.77923736544426,9.314750747691287,2.5882281700419636,2190,75,465,34,29,718,255,567,0.079,0.821,0.1,0.9513,3,2,1,0,0,0,51.0,11,0,7,4,27,25,2,1,29,0,49,4,2,4,7,84,87,37,0,8,14,4,1,2,0,8,2,7,5,2,19,32,0,9,7,0,1,13,15,10,2,2,22,9,61,15,86,49,15,97,0,4,1,0,82,34,0,8,46,316,80,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0760986911577192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2761314462554097,0.056498296528118726,0.0,0.22395059749279195,0.0,0.12504485911188604,0.0,0.0,0.06498330711822799,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3001077179684046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12658566083530795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04738576361743997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0650776828955658,0.0,0.08194485491949148,0.04853002287156697,0.06646299910832604,0.06190646662499725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03715153385671215,0.05249107205343747,0.0,0.08048906440192229,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20878973657311228,0.0,0.0587652487821542,0.0,0.08094179393857281,0.0,0.06497434025747495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0754072907816234,0.07810125895051148,0.08281248123239482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14595594586627406,0.21707636335413186,0.16956224138678355,0.15731456484577655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07291331878356358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1211410094011834,0.05989252190162477,0.0,0.07780018287639684,0.0,0.07513390613257866,0.0,0.0717930548890839,0.0,0.0,0.19507111132657048,0.0,0.08220054102339873,0.0,0.0624664332026161,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0816149656758027,0.0,0.0,0.07794613210944916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15618613350727426,0.10802622303221099,0.0,0.05666900814187336,0.14192662458746638,0.15628453251258853,0.1379039795692978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1542008252126464,0.0,0.09957810457645136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16317219292861768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08283283911109147,0.07036943322259384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04707043037938536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08323367228823167,0.0,0.0,0.1752925349631368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.062255742681445736,0.056565202192368935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061428995460803985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06925000051405289,0.0,0.05524460043571234,0.0,0.06422102152910389,0.13529315014680027,0.0,0.0,0.04881400630324029,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12853285698076394,0.0,0.0,0.07020920321118672,0.0,0.04988519366221743,0.0,0.0,0.07649082015834559,0.0,0.12691886928739202,0.16184625928010676,0.0,0.04333788582667974,0.058321609860748615,0.05893779397015988,0.0,0.13212700028067664,0.0,0.06630041267749465,0.16406604421175167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05349120231313796,0.0,0.0,0.10439009270791423,0.0,0.0,0.04731595739199264 schizophrenia,schizofriendinya,2019/04/17,Has anyone here been on Amantadine? My psych mentioned this medicine,5.726363636363633,9.288009363636368,2.6459090909090897,85.88886363636364,91.72727272727272,5.836363636363638,32.77272727272727,7.1686216300943375,2.9627818181818184,57,3,8,1,2,15,11,11,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,6,2,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,perfnat,2019/04/17,"I seem attached to weed? Excuse me? Hey everyone i got something to share and would like to get some opinion about it. So I pretty much exactly one year ago I got diagnosed with a paranoid-schizophrenic psychosis. I went to the hospital some time after the peak of the psychosis when i started to realize that something was off and being nervously stressed. I got on meds (Risperidon) and time took away very most of the symptoms. Some minor weirdnesses occur when im with strangers but thats it. Theres just these descriptions of the way i appear to people that i can not quite comprehend: ""You have what all these stoners out there wanna have"", my psychiatrist. ""Yeah you are attached to this weed thing"", the one woman of the therapy-circle. ""You appear like you are on something"", my mom. ""(something something) weed hangover"", old highschool friend. I feel actually normal, so i dont get what they mean. I maybe am not so good with conversations when its about me and what i want, maybe i just appear ""stoned"". What is even my doc supposed to mean with his statement, this freaks me the fuck out. I act like i understand what they mean but in reality... Well as a teenager i got used to the stoner image due to my chill and desoriented nature as a teen, but now as an adult getting this kind of feedback seems just inappropriate. Anyone got similar things said to them?",5.265702786377709,6.9436684000000035,5.377543859649123,80.41263157894737,68.92156862745098,8.348813209494324,30.283797729618165,8.841846274778883,2.484450980392157,1082,43,196,19,19,340,146,255,0.059,0.8420000000000001,0.099,0.8440000000000001,0,0,5,0,0,0,44.0,0,4,3,1,16,13,1,2,13,1,11,3,0,1,2,43,36,17,0,4,8,1,1,3,1,1,2,1,0,2,18,11,0,0,9,0,0,6,3,5,1,2,9,2,32,8,34,25,6,26,0,0,0,1,17,7,1,10,15,140,50,2,0.0,0.0,0.10350248669703613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09401872114529093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07416192954733766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09964996723972394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1076520228260734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12430540454181015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07005381320925826,0.0,0.0,0.10134803398596708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05362879428520475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08194424700087101,0.09805381718005532,0.1662410991205452,0.0,0.0,0.0889608688103044,0.4241425737914244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11456657087625192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11044861158499374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15545152132625142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21310969321381515,0.34660210079351805,0.11781242254230362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12422006193005812,0.0,0.0,0.0779687336025753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10391952036414792,0.0,0.0,0.11129559772461137,0.0,0.14374248197228326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07353094166304691,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10790451249957647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11281138136538399,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10089049211915924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1931121003793668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4082635731508973,0.0,0.0,0.07507215378782084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12149515850447655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11024038569609186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14092749507300348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12369273316316777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1178402353781756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11041564191668987,0.0,0.091604642195609,0.0,0.08751333517696967,0.0625588857977877,0.08418811534584793,0.0,0.0,0.09536364965310053,0.0983217471288206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07534432937329101,0.0,0.0,0.06830129154746159 schizophrenia,PurpleCheesePuke,2019/04/17,"I have schizoaffective and I was wondering how you can tell the difference between a belief (delusion) that is causing you problems or if it’s simply an emotion that is causing problems or a mixture of the two. I often just describe myself as being in pain like a really bad head pain. But I don’t know the root of the head pain. A few of my delusions I really like a lot, but 90% of them are subliminal and I don’t think about those strange “beliefs” a lot. I’ve been in a state of depression with psychotic features for months. The only way to describe it is like an extreme headache. I just started taking an anti depressant that works, so hopefully it helps more. But how do you deal with the fact if you have thousands of small delusional beliefs, with new ones popping up all the time?",7.340844155844157,6.5634069480519495,7.472045454545455,75.7780681818182,63.93506493506493,10.557142857142855,38.08116883116883,9.827888789773867,3.6837948051948057,626,29,117,11,8,203,94,154,0.161,0.745,0.094,-0.8344,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,4,1,1,7,12,0,0,17,0,13,5,2,5,2,33,19,13,0,5,9,0,0,3,0,0,3,0,0,0,7,5,0,0,6,0,0,0,2,8,0,3,2,0,14,4,17,16,5,10,3,2,0,0,8,4,0,9,7,91,21,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1227502499223829,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3020470132668242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15156460908088706,0.2532452680752152,0.0,0.0,0.15359796515121965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16537055923784635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30175681931426696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09854014501001368,0.0,0.0,0.14601771767719246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08079485265176599,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21547031793241425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2499714815602708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11734488608564952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.141986691099771,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0996202482507704,0.11181049907993328,0.4692986394944373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2813444006565135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18836140654052527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10405701215740502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.110535962364999,0.0,0.12849640259492054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09420040534846397,0.0,0.0,0.08572483663463587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14361096586743227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11669258573307552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15943002306855522,0.10702768196548228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Owlettorexic,2019/04/17,"I'm not on any mood stabilizers or antipsychotics, yet I still feel like my treatment team managed to brainwash me anyway So I don't really know how to organize this.. i feel like a lot is going on in my mind subconsciously and fighting to become conscious, but I've been trained so well by my therapist and support specialist to basically not be depressed anymore. My psychiatrist no longer checks in with me and it makes me suspicious. i've been lying to her and said I'm still taking my antipsychotics, even now when my therapist asks.. I hate this. I used to be reluctant against pills. I used to believe it was a form of poison that would rewire the brain.. which it does technically.. right? Because I guess my brain has an imbalance.. but they ""fixed"" it now? So even without my pills, I stopped taking it for no real reason.. and then I felt fine. For the longest time.. but now? I am fine.. but I'm not. It almost feels like I'm supposed to figure this out. It feels like The effects of the pills are slowly running out, but are strong. I get any sense of a negative thought and my mind automatically shuts it down and replaces it with a ""Who cares? You're fine."" Basically. It's like an automatic thought, but instead of it being negative it's ""positive."" But it feels too unnatural. It really feels like if i try to go back to that thought, I keep getting cut short by my own mind. I don't know what's happening and I can't help but think I've been successfully brainwashed. I keep getting this phrase repeating in my mind. ""Don't think, just do it."" ""What's the harm?"" &#x200B; Just take the pills. It's better for you. What's the harm? Just keep pushing forward. Keep pushing to get better. Keep getting ""better."" &#x200B; I'm afraid to say what may be happening or what's to come.. but I think everyone reading this knows.. the fact that I'm even writing this means I'm close to admitting it.. if not soon, then now. I think I'm close to having some sort of breakdown.. even though, yes, i've been getting mini breakdowns every weekend... crying myself to sleep.. wanting to die all of a sudden.. cutting myself in obvious places with a steak knife.. but why? The week starts and I'm better. I'm mentally happy again.. why? I'm not happy am I? Is this happiness? Artificial. &#x200B; And don't even get me started on the different versions of me in the head and the one that keeps taking over.. I'm hesitant to call her another personality, because she's still me... but she's such a different version of me. She takes over so smoothly.. so easily.. her thoughts are sewn into my mind so well that it feels natural.. like she and I are the same, but we're not. She makes it very clear that we are not the same. I've accepted her, she has not accepted me.. she just exists to protect me however way she deems fit. &#x200B; Recently.. becoming ""happy"" has made her a little more silent. I don't hear her as much.. and then one day I tried seeing her. It's so easy to see her.. this time I only see her in her own world, but when I try to talk to her in our shared headspace.. mind palace, it's zoomed in.. I can't see her eyes.. just her mouth.. i can barely see her. I can't see her full body.. her weapon.. her clothing.. nothing. But today.. she popped into my mind this time. Still in the dark. Still difficult to see, but she had a smirk. She's been given a seed and she's going to use it to come back. I don't think she's happy that I told my support specialist about her.. he thinks i'm hearing voices. She's not a voice like that.. she's inside of me. She's me.. I don't want to lose her. When she got quiet.. when she became lost and didn't know how to react, I was lost too. I was so used to having her guide me that I'm looking for another voice to guide me. If it's my own she kills it.. unless it's absolutely only ME. Not other versions. Me. The.. physical body.. She's not a voice.. I don't know what she is. He wants to talk about her next time. I don't want to. I want her back. She's an asshole.. but she protects me. entertains my mind.. she's the confident, asshole version of me and i'd rather have her than me who won't shut the fuck up.. who can't even have their own thoughts because they've been replaced by ""trained thoughts"" by these ""trained professionals."" &#x200B; What am i supposed to do..",0.7611207227989247,3.2056033886966584,2.443947520184544,91.83905469050366,87.77739331026527,5.6563244905805465,21.63792772010765,7.131043867949952,0.7412698193002702,3346,118,709,53,108,1095,316,867,0.087,0.763,0.15,0.9961,3,0,0,0,2,1,211.0,2,1,2,11,53,48,8,1,33,1,52,14,8,12,4,146,155,57,2,10,40,0,9,8,0,3,5,9,0,1,56,28,0,9,33,4,1,9,31,16,2,2,25,27,124,31,80,123,17,78,0,4,9,1,73,32,1,11,46,464,180,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.041906397314355706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2267204888824255,0.2542596363773329,0.05691841863130528,0.08776605164281816,0.0,0.0,0.04150362529927545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.039123790275495465,0.0,0.0,0.09653943436248033,0.0,0.07653350750613701,0.0924393406546736,0.0,0.0471502447752092,0.0,0.14805052182000636,0.0,0.09297109359670573,0.0,0.09343613997352604,0.04273319008545288,0.0,0.04266852564425295,0.0,0.0,0.0720995666914156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0459698951718406,0.02698957371328365,0.0,0.03604505771203998,0.0,0.043433348157329764,0.08744799159182337,0.0,0.0,0.036622926473079666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16584786606044288,0.0,0.035260150238232355,0.03998915118721071,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14812314702316492,0.14948705585005329,0.040182244169345835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0386893436950072,0.15305306968349047,0.0,0.07135239222452609,0.0,0.033471002527047385,0.0,0.046102127458098136,0.0,0.0740150463758986,0.22274874880401144,0.0,0.04131788297106588,0.04294983298149481,0.0,0.09433523471927496,0.0,0.028050950296799246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2231874466837364,0.04630045708057096,0.0,0.11499741530427005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1635650709503482,0.04194436162262604,0.0,0.0,0.035143180998677914,0.04681907374404522,0.09136771248682732,0.035579091162043,0.0,0.03959916772947377,0.0558699566951623,0.0,0.0,0.04558655708557692,0.0,0.0,0.04217462218131151,0.0,0.33804987731950725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.030764321253044256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.044507596675535714,0.0,0.0,0.0401558851228139,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056716836208292376,0.06365711664079256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03654151586702939,0.043723995795911685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.041860993098897084,0.04763408422455564,0.05361993786559314,0.043028428740318016,0.04132149835302546,0.0,0.0,0.035739387795972084,0.039808617730697965,0.033280535703869074,0.0,0.0,0.23344136962148254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.041879891314115264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0592428207968272,0.0,0.16710599455878794,0.03498819633904017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09498101457537636,0.0,0.0,0.1573287103441126,0.06727435577721619,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0971813801855208,0.0,0.16089346457322032,0.041117086312297685,0.1993437703579985,0.09761151179126208,0.0,0.039668591895968636,0.03998915118721071,0.0,0.0852395324311492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14457870536364875,0.0,0.034530358938915845,0.12342009232352595,0.033218318504309584,0.03356927932402271,0.0,0.07525575492209467,0.0,0.07552563211292371,0.0,0.0,0.04034158652807189,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.029728803410480724,0.0,0.2542596363773329,0.0 schizophrenia,methbath,2019/04/17,"should i talk to someone? i woke up with my lips chewed up as if i was on molly which i haven’t taken in a week, theyre very sore and i did it in my sleep. side note i have dermatillomania, i scratch my skin but ive never bitten my lips like that except when on drugs. the past few days have been the same im v depressed i literally do nothing except to lay in bed and get high and cant get myself to do anything. something weird asf happened to me today i was laying in bed and i felt like i went in some kind of a trance and literally felf as if i was having sex or as if someone was penetrating me which scared me sm bc it felt so real. am i delusional and should i talk to someone idk",0.00769039735099497,1.935644052980134,2.5475786423841065,93.60693087748348,85.29139072847681,5.099503311258278,18.709023178807946,6.322622252153567,-0.2040698675496686,536,14,127,5,16,185,91,151,0.097,0.857,0.046,-0.7466,0,0,2,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,0,2,6,0,1,4,0,17,8,4,0,1,22,25,16,0,5,7,0,4,2,0,2,2,0,2,0,5,7,1,0,2,0,0,1,3,3,0,0,11,4,23,3,21,12,3,18,0,1,0,1,2,11,0,5,8,86,28,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1465996528559602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1148899604671496,0.0,0.15343759407115748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20659375204371286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34209776657756863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.186148720265237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1575346436078752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.188221895099162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1924291345516784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18551249790562066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1740670743351074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1373978091330409,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17093667737378254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17006129636577014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2027700812019326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17835604367538158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1782754743947317,0.0,0.4528296646184189,0.13714612464967788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28637532988871234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16886235414945513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1469897826306151,0.0,0.0,0.14289863246522694,0.0,0.0,0.16514388589010098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,beckiiplymuni,2019/04/17,"Research into Inpatient Medication Expereinces [This post has been approved by the mods] ​ I'm currently in my final year of university completing my dissertation on 'exploring the experiences of medication for schizophrenic inpatients' and would be really grateful if there is anyone that would be interested in taking part. In order to complete this study, participants must have had a schizophrenic/schizoaffective diagnosis and have been hospitalised. The survey is completely anonymous and has been approved by the university ethics commitee. I believe this is a great opportunity for previous or current patients to share their views and stories. If you are able to take part, or know anyone else who may wish to, I would be extremely interested to hear your responses and the link to my survey is below. https://plymouth.onlinesurveys.ac.uk/inpatientexperiences Thanks again for reading! Beckii - Plymouth University",11.932691705790296,14.12483014084507,10.922488262910798,44.85576682316119,53.92957746478874,14.761815336463226,44.6510172143975,13.5591,7.500368388106416,768,41,91,30,9,245,94,142,0.0,0.809,0.191,0.9804,2,0,0,0,0,0,20.0,0,2,1,3,2,6,0,0,7,0,21,3,0,0,1,19,28,9,0,7,4,0,0,0,0,5,3,1,0,0,5,6,0,0,3,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,2,8,6,19,16,2,14,0,0,1,0,6,6,0,5,5,73,13,2,0.155648659077025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2176663228764772,0.15948044493195807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1753627382934411,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4895839731077936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13002448225915195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15225425521337654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1705054979725307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17160319612045705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1754273509797824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08554043246463884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3135992979013244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3371046598586361,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14906839013246814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15569077981468155,0.0,0.09971251661644064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2340568418225931,0.0,0.0,0.14330037322126962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17898827644302126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3317050248903714,0.0,0.0,0.10023263330386124 schizophrenia,Zahadii,2019/04/17,New!! Hey y’all I’m 16 about to be 17 I been diagnosed with this for about a year now it can be very hard and confusing my first psychotic episode scared me a lot my great grandmother committed suicide because of schizophrenia but I feel like it changed my mindset and I hope I can learn a lot about it and myself in this group!,1.7036247334754788,4.013078850746272,2.584648187633263,93.57970149253731,81.38805970149255,6.813646055437101,25.989339019189767,7.957251820313856,1.5168353944562902,261,11,57,5,7,82,49,67,0.109,0.7170000000000001,0.173,0.7541,0,0,0,0,0,1,3.0,0,1,0,1,4,5,0,2,3,0,5,1,0,0,1,12,8,4,1,1,1,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,5,4,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,1,2,10,3,8,5,2,5,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,4,5,39,15,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1607988261449013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2790459759005064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26773278995126043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13337591193151752,0.18844564077467674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2243725097196144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29082016533737115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2362965179504196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2619946656418388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12887037454647468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4485153978105751,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2547619306207389,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26409141693074384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2885342768623513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21764746049151865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1698667137246522 schizophrenia,theLegbeard69,2019/04/17,I’m in acute psychosis right now. I just met John Lennon and he’s refusing to take me to the hospital. He said mark chapman is there watching over Kennedy’s body. They are outside now. Where is big John?,1.1653658536585354,3.68016212195122,1.7104390243902436,97.40468292682928,86.3170731707317,5.231219512195122,25.27317073170732,6.742157984588678,0.8628692682926841,161,7,35,2,5,49,34,41,0.07,0.93,0.0,-0.4019,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,1,0,5,0,0,0,1,0,3,1,1,0,0,3,7,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,3,0,4,5,0,7,0,0,1,0,6,5,0,0,2,17,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5994753077295649,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4608933738048615,0.5133699613757016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40578065030558863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Shineegirl7,2019/04/17,"I think my grandma has schizophrenia I'm 95% sure my grandma has schizophrenia She got all the symptoms for 10+ years now She thinks it's real (as in what she sees is real irl) and I understand how she feels but sadly she doesn't want to go to a doctor and my aunt's and uncles won't do anything about it they basically ignore her when she starts hallucinating or something like that I found medicines online but they could be very dangerous if used without a doctor specially that she's old with some health issues And I honestly don't know what to do *I'm from a tiny country where having any mental health issue is you lying or you not being fit for society and treated as a shame and that's why everyone is ignoring her*",3.4933333333333323,5.286768767123292,4.5919863013698645,83.81049086757994,73.65753424657535,7.3324200913242015,25.865296803652967,8.07648339933343,1.5978968036529682,584,20,113,9,12,191,96,146,0.181,0.7609999999999999,0.058,-0.9635,0,0,1,0,0,0,6.0,0,2,2,0,5,10,1,1,5,0,14,5,0,2,2,31,28,15,0,3,7,1,1,1,0,1,5,0,0,0,7,7,0,2,6,0,0,1,5,5,0,0,2,2,20,5,12,22,2,9,0,1,1,0,14,3,0,4,6,76,27,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11275494058097656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13644563210952615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13238397861886736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33942247021861305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1584363892892022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08383736905698362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1817996151371719,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09423235265549017,0.0,0.13261158661380035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3524917219139844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3461203789015522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09112359086144553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08100528045058053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16709519106222795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.173987318290876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3774509879594548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13212729172614215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1276468893659891,0.0,0.0,0.117359563027665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15627182104202786,0.1723377156576733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2124857936916636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17261169199150006,0.0,0.14320464029535254,0.0,0.13680874008877789,0.09779769368914863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14961568444822618,0.0,0.0,0.15983273257747416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1067747403769794 schizophrenia,whimsicalscarecrow,2019/04/17,"I feel like other people can hear my thoughts I got pretty high a few days ago and things have been different for me ever since. I thought really deeply about stuff and realized that I need to open up more. I have like no friends at school, but for the past week I have been talking to people and making jokes and trying to make some legit friends. I haven't had much success yet (lol) but I'm still trying. Ever since then, I've also had the nagging thought that other people can hear what I'm thinking. I started thinking this because I notice people coughing or talking to each other whenever I think about sexual stuff or other ""unsavory"" thoughts. I'm a teenage boy so It's gonna happen lol, but it is really unnerving. Since that night, I've also been able to hear things better and feel like I'm in the moment. That's definitely a factor in why I'm trying to make friends and better myself. I can hear people talking to each other in class now and it's a constant struggle to figure out whether they're talking about me or someone else. Writing this down right now is a big help because I'm struggling to put what I feel to words and it seems impossible even though I've experienced it and I feel like it might be real. Someone wrote ""Understanding that we are all waiting for our cue in one way or another"" on the **What Helps You Get Through The Day** megathread and it resonated with me because of all the coincidences between my thoughts and other people's actions. My mom is schizo-affective btw, so this is a little spooky. I had more to write but it slipped my mind. Sorry for rambling, I just needed to share what I'm going through and get this off my chest.",3.242382445141068,5.296683000000002,4.080658307210033,86.0740909090909,75.06060606060606,6.491118077324972,26.530825496342736,7.372421405659032,1.4041358411703238,1330,50,255,16,29,426,164,330,0.052000000000000005,0.8009999999999999,0.14800000000000002,0.9852,1,0,0,0,0,0,32.0,2,1,0,3,16,15,1,2,12,2,20,2,1,3,4,62,59,27,0,2,10,1,4,4,3,2,1,4,0,1,31,18,0,1,16,1,0,3,2,3,0,1,13,9,27,12,34,43,9,35,0,0,0,0,22,15,0,7,20,170,58,3,0.07790741810171914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06906022548255017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1246050682175398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.081692720752573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1424749168928899,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13780556046358491,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08419024185062231,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1004876791114341,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08139667016761322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06508165096244357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05145711489382603,0.14094343991373284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15756932579289987,0.16697122517551904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18057323390304525,0.0,0.08140682089609448,0.0,0.04427658108436169,0.0,0.062309679234032085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0688932725341508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3512292893572717,0.0,0.1044394002713801,0.0823134646385341,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15224651691523367,0.0780836999510282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1560114196317406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08264745899873015,0.0786642833743219,0.09124422648856498,0.0,0.0,0.057270916447180666,0.11553472672222885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0731108342952247,0.0,0.0,0.08869811187569766,0.0,0.0,0.05279208276555295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07437144598619767,0.32406716551782866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07925985243183288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07831847336549545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08867569790419287,0.09981897393882952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06653250937996769,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07884646639748569,0.0,0.07092398744181334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19333746398036014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13202140507691815,0.0,0.0,0.08721097619060972,0.05514327151967716,0.0,0.0622169647331475,0.0,0.0,0.16289149782781215,0.17837070907998576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.250476126358458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10351645361557936,0.1497597832677441,0.07654364272737199,0.30924893814858073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15868206874149787,0.0,0.0,0.08110436979655776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06183928219732442,0.0624926314981817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07029932711308788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,FlyingBananas56,2019/04/18,"Help I’m on ADHD meds and I know that it has some serious symptoms but I’ve noticed it getting worse. I hear my name being called angrily when no one is calling my name, my heartbeat feels like it’s not my own, my fish tank sounds like angry whispers telling me to do things that I know I shouldn’t do. Like Morally wrong things. I’m not seeing things I’m just hearing things, it’s not very often but it happens and seemingly random times, sometimes at school, sometimes alone, sometimes with friends, sometimes when I’m about to sleep. It seems random and I can’t pin down what’s causing it! I’m always on the meds and I don’t have an episode every day but they normally last 20 minutes to 3 hours. I haven’t had one in 2 days but it’s not frequent. I can’t afford to not be on the meds for a week or long enough to test to see if it’s the cause, I’ve had these hallucinations for quite a while, maybe 4 years? It’s been more prevalent this last year. I also am on anxiety meds if that’s relevant.",1.5161428571428566,3.4727999952380983,2.7773809523809554,93.85178571428574,80.0,5.533333333333334,23.357142857142854,6.508806274219699,0.4681714285714289,789,27,175,7,20,254,120,210,0.123,0.8,0.077,-0.8588,1,1,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,0,1,1,6,6,0,0,6,0,16,2,1,2,0,33,32,15,0,4,13,0,1,3,1,1,1,4,0,0,20,5,0,0,5,0,0,0,11,2,0,2,3,7,16,4,17,26,4,21,1,0,2,0,10,7,0,9,17,104,36,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1226896456289886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10573212851665273,0.0,0.0816395426376745,0.0849451921618126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07809685491582195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20848602861848325,0.0,0.0,0.20974449624911407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13167631591126708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10548394307912198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08601333854271066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051618637489932825,0.07293151422050388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07887274805822769,0.0,0.05333663967778096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09027586663941208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2301206440015963,0.0,0.06842727180745839,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10053587693782784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11220952318436568,0.16643029535854706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14962476470988031,0.0,0.0,0.0903444527051504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10256087374529646,0.0,0.4535859373366288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1000243268807654,0.0,0.11622758833076002,0.0,0.0,0.1383546128106312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10858289612982837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1033182606031656,0.16270145045946452,0.18587372021436813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1021614838676169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40386960942792427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1061082685494356,0.0,0.0,0.08922919958915952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2712902789442188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0595281922555736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08423309127576703,0.0,0.0,0.08188864107564656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10403614630019717,0.0,0.111616936614074,0.0,0.13148233725833694 schizophrenia,Goodako,2019/04/18,"I've been seeing strong lights in the dark I've always had strong alucinations of stuff happening in the dark, people chasing me, crawling at me from the corners of my eyes and plain staring at me, I get how my brain can make this kind of stuff up, but last month I was alone at home at night with all the lights out. I heard a noise and opened my room's front door which was locked, when I opened the door the corridor just outside of my room was bright as day, I found it weird since I didn't let the lights on and turned back to talk to my friends on my PC, since I was on discord at the time about how weird it was that the lights were on, I turned back to the corridor laughing with them and the corridor was pitch black, I've never been afraid of the dark and my hallucinations have never really shaken me, but I nearly shitted myself, I closed my door and started dialoguing with my friends about how weird it was. Since that incident, I've started seeing light where there's none, I'm freaking out mainly because I don't see how the human brain can emulate light through hallucinations. It someone has had an experience like this, can you please enlighten me?(Pun intended)",17.007255747126436,7.282886133620693,14.290862068965518,61.47367816091954,56.19827586206897,17.880459770114946,51.597701149425276,11.855464076750405,5.700497701149424,941,30,194,14,6,291,121,232,0.064,0.789,0.147,0.9694,0,1,0,0,0,0,20.0,0,1,1,2,12,14,1,1,15,0,20,4,4,6,3,28,33,14,0,0,3,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,6,1,11,14,0,0,2,0,0,1,5,6,0,0,15,14,27,8,31,17,3,35,0,0,7,0,7,22,1,0,13,127,38,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14281551953031446,0.0,0.0,0.1147379885413066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21206234820827294,0.0,0.08405826813438723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3078682931148945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08892955117111624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13488577381393316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15119251252519986,0.21307151664775714,0.0,0.07204337993047923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1219382885413719,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13831788131759518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14359429760702735,0.0,0.11240116618607088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14100489345377729,0.0,0.0673675346886229,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09204462111243177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1100648445655578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2127031021407604,0.0,0.0,0.12940320121057272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09559761566005133,0.0,0.0,0.15136506087120702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08833776070096731,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3296485065848898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14154514118221684,0.3421994427250915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11683625696490525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19520269269683607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3157088956739963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11083313742093838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08040649349399218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2999758855926424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,NewCityScum,2019/04/18,"To the person asking about daydreaming My husband is Schizophrenic, I have the maladaptive daydreaming condition you've asked about... I think we may be able to answer your questions. When my husband hallucinates - he sees, with his eyes, something that is not there. The same way you see all the stuff that is there. It is added visual information that doesn't actually exist. (Speaking of visual only - he also had auditory but those are different) When I daydream - the visuals exist only within my brain. I am in control of them, they do not exist without me thinking of them. This is not the same as hallucinating. Please stop asking people if their hallucinations are the same as daydreaming. Thank you.",5.796274944567628,8.562250756097562,6.231071692535108,70.30496674057652,69.89430894308943,9.025572801182555,29.881005173688106,9.573946990214177,3.335982113821137,565,23,86,14,11,182,82,123,0.023,0.927,0.05,0.5267,1,0,1,0,0,0,21.0,1,3,4,1,7,1,0,0,7,0,14,3,2,1,1,20,22,7,0,1,6,2,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,1,7,2,0,2,5,0,0,0,5,0,0,0,1,4,17,1,13,19,4,6,0,0,3,0,20,2,0,3,3,72,24,0,0.18486460806056387,0.0,0.18040119042680164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14783616027628962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5184703609467193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20637004099218653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20734137729660684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19314416899715955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28119572949667954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12816184260428232,0.1614166451981462,0.0,0.20292582585059035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20709066928091305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29462631624555785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1423178069526141,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15455509002782505,0.0,0.0,0.2116257477593703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1701984937587737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.236907552678997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1467369211392557,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17820288526146094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Zufeldt90,2019/04/18,"What are the details of your most notable hallucinations? Personally I have only experienced externally injected content. Virtual reality in injected ""dreams"" and ketamine assisted sessions has been incredible from an experiential and scientific standpoint. Think being ""flown"" in into computer generated cityscapes, manipulating your perspective of view of artificial architecture by moving your body in real life. Going on otherworldly and alien like ""dates"" with AI (ha, or real interfaced) women in the ""dreams"" has been something that has been happening recently at night. They all usually behave like cultmembers and rarely treat you to anything. Usually it is 1984 like social exclusion. I'm incredibly thankful that I don't experience hallucinations, but given that I believe the source of some of your hallucinations and my injected phenomena may be the same I and out of curiosity am interested in hearing what are your most notable experiences.",12.791761744966445,13.706741959731545,12.8979110738255,35.7641820469799,52.22147651006711,16.845973154362422,50.83976510067114,15.078166124597352,8.965542953020135,788,48,91,35,8,268,105,149,0.033,0.892,0.075,0.7444,0,0,1,0,0,0,21.0,0,6,1,0,0,7,0,0,5,1,15,2,1,1,1,21,22,8,0,0,2,0,0,3,0,1,1,1,0,2,6,9,0,0,1,2,0,2,1,0,0,0,4,3,12,7,19,15,5,16,0,0,1,0,11,9,0,5,8,70,18,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15207834783620788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2082113741250345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2052761257546558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36154850229715546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10502864974865928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16342199903018026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20828808994471174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13053287568601465,0.2708584150288724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19641792481007106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17342649364445895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14055214126466015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16136415129039344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4206959339815369,0.0,0.0,0.18247213761045855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1883849032504202,0.0,0.1422715241307863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17014314392778154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11841525428001387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4070720706405182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Redditkev2018,2019/04/18,"Risperidone post again Hey all, I'm just curious what peoples experience are with risperidone dosages. I'm debating the cost/benefit of the drug. At 2mg I feel good as in I'm not paranoid and no OCD but lose interest in things and exercise. At 1mg I feel alright but a little on edge every now and then and a little paranoid that complete strangers dislike me. But I regain interest in things and excercise at 1mg. What's the advice, accept a bit of madness for healthy living or take the full dose and feel more at ease but less productive..",3.6185565939771536,5.559661551401874,4.7064797507788185,82.49488058151611,73.67289719626169,8.120041536863967,31.515057113187954,8.841846274778883,2.7799250259605404,434,21,82,9,9,142,70,107,0.09,0.6609999999999999,0.248,0.9417,0,0,1,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,1,3,7,1,0,7,1,1,3,0,0,1,19,8,13,0,0,7,0,3,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,5,7,0,0,4,1,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,3,4,5,13,8,5,15,0,1,0,0,1,11,0,1,3,51,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22394527902063485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.250197645364832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24028361159835926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2657680123073838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19308820197957388,0.0,0.0,0.2241752446980136,0.0,0.0,0.3476303816512382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1922195043958793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4593832592416043,0.2023640261114947,0.0,0.0,0.2563860535620897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1588797563833597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21948445899165286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17230963336719354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3045048190395787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,ibarrons123,2019/04/18,"IamSchizo And I have seen it all. But now I’m on meds that keep me in the herd and I feel normal. Which is interesting- kinda dull and monotonous...but I still paint and am creative. One of the things I liked to do when I was deep in psychosis was to do magic tricks and make things change or disappear or change colors....It was magikal... To be honest I would like to go off my meds but not rush it- I’d like to taper off eventually in the future. Anyone done this and lived a decent life?",0.17540746382330494,2.513143920792082,1.8102970297029728,95.92150799695357,89.990099009901,4.691850723533891,15.690022848438687,6.297961479604792,-0.566677684691546,380,8,86,4,13,123,69,101,0.045,0.8240000000000001,0.131,0.815,0,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,0,0,3,7,1,0,4,0,11,1,0,1,1,18,17,11,0,2,5,0,1,3,0,1,1,0,0,0,7,6,0,1,1,0,0,3,1,2,0,1,5,2,8,5,12,10,1,14,0,1,1,0,0,7,0,3,7,58,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15437307568329495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4671075930701204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2259324948783412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11163196493841723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12547319657123698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19623758571303407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1559419949618959,0.3235828627067085,0.0,0.19495097431103545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14737099570774395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4904690622955415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21631551498274387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1496048524077846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17631355571817586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2933501190644646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1568343209466521,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Amelia_graceh,2019/04/18,"Having a hard time telling people I’m schizophrenic I’ve been schizophrenic since I can remember and it makes it kind of easy to “hide” it from people. I don’t get jumpy too much anymore around people anymore it’s more that my train of thoughts wanders off and it takes a lot for me to explain things to people as my way of thinking is different. Long story short; I haven’t been able to write my dissertation. It’s like my brain is separated from my fingers. I fog up and feel sick and anxious, I’ll start to hear voices more. Since I haven’t made my university aware of my situation I feel as if it’s such an excuse to ask for extra time and help to write it? I don’t want it to be seen as my disability or that I’m lying. People always assume I’m exaggerating (or maybe that’s just in my head lol). How do I bring it up?",2.8931525122276547,4.0338125260115625,4.605780346820811,85.74387727879059,74.02890173410405,7.635215651400622,24.29035126722988,8.139509932561175,1.1900461538461542,649,19,143,10,13,220,97,173,0.097,0.84,0.063,-0.6655,1,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,0,5,2,0,0,3,1,12,6,3,3,0,24,30,12,0,2,4,0,4,1,0,0,3,2,0,0,14,6,0,0,7,0,0,1,4,0,0,0,5,7,18,2,24,24,5,12,0,0,1,0,8,6,0,5,5,88,32,0,0.149994844542538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1248077264958617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.169451479998,0.2975091619382941,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13352721239659696,0.14022493183162285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1674438527828927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15671268777166644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15168380048303134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07836611546457141,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.134365918720128,0.0,0.1539379840143422,0.0,0.16905509109269132,0.0,0.10053838254123763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15619654876249892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07327990451123499,0.0,0.0,0.1327407173576534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12752025296366545,0.0,0.1419287486297655,0.10012272346120024,0.0,0.15068998202036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11026346936677638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5199376954678275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16991491911924336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2481545708190848,0.1686004898034414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1061671229864364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1127774560072628,0.0,0.13110210542056935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09964990976463284,0.0961106398564879,0.0,0.11907915198005453,0.17492640015868244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0884708455436063,0.11905892591253947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Zook,2019/04/18,"I keep getting so angry. Don't really post on Reddit anymore.. but I've noticed something. I currently take olanzipine with Effexor and a few other meds. I notice after a little while when I take the Olanzipine that I get pretty on edge. I go to the doctor tomorrow to talk about my meds again but I just wanted to see if anyone else has felt this way before. First time actually talking to this community so I hope I'm doing everything correctly. I take the Effexor in the morning and the Olanzipine at night. Not sure if that makes a difference. I know that there probably aren't any doctors on here.. just trying to figure out if anyone felt this way before. Just tired of spacing out and also having such a short fuse for anger.",3.0469908814589637,5.5314751631205725,4.573318135764946,80.21250000000002,77.51063829787232,7.149138804457954,24.965045592705174,8.192908349453996,1.907879027355624,582,21,101,11,14,194,93,141,0.099,0.833,0.067,-0.5502,1,0,1,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,0,1,12,3,1,0,9,0,5,3,0,1,2,25,20,13,0,5,9,0,2,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,7,6,0,1,4,0,0,1,3,1,0,1,2,3,11,2,17,18,1,23,0,0,1,0,2,10,0,4,9,72,18,2,0.0,0.0,0.13232534390477302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10843870100767823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09221216521453376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1344780563173958,0.18962834894427752,0.13893749415019946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2307700121477264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14167239431893286,0.0,0.27758323262869505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11327580476070995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12186789587039418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2603931610985787,0.0,0.0,0.11534068444746348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14169006184765431,0.0,0.07706419981997928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13468068835382974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.120526876901503,0.0,0.0,0.07452182203424312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13590610901605238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09051357717218096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3012404788842851,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12725074531833214,0.0,0.0,0.3087613745162404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12986663406191162,0.1379532239372971,0.14619896613552008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08686837561814605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.108055075823928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10439095609193888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1278007234632407,0.0,0.30586136537380765,0.217979141332575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07906903484477441,0.15585143321065822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09206301505862814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07997997286502613,0.21526480515280288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,kdbisgoat,2019/04/18,"I'm scared shitless, somebody help me I'm a normal male, 21. Last month my cat died and since the last couple of weeks I have heard a cat meowing for a few seconds for a total of 4-5 times. I know I'm hallucinating because my friends denied hearing anything. The first few times I didn't suspect anything but after the third time I knew I was hallucinating, and checked up on Schizophrenia. So I took some personality disorder tests, all of them showed me very high on schizotypal and low on schizoid. No offense to you guys but I'd prefer not having schizophrenia. How does it start? I've heard it starts in the 20s, did you have any sort of abnormal behaviour or symptoms before 20 or as a child? Because I have been pretty much normal all my life bar the schizotypal symptoms. Should I start worrying?",4.506462365591397,6.224596845161294,5.0539516129032265,81.83426075268817,70.87096774193549,7.747311827956989,30.336021505376344,8.344100000000001,2.2396344086021496,641,27,121,10,12,205,101,155,0.139,0.799,0.063,-0.8933,1,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,2,1,1,2,4,1,1,10,0,9,4,0,1,3,21,21,10,1,4,5,0,0,0,1,1,3,3,0,4,2,3,1,0,4,2,1,1,3,3,0,3,8,3,16,1,14,12,7,20,0,1,0,0,12,7,0,4,12,72,18,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1045099034828508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25293649695433396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.187367807586306,0.0,0.13077315579882914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17004763119397134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1594989858471932,0.0,0.17613435852977935,0.0,0.13448927791735893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1307229232846434,0.0,0.0,0.11873532437509092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1521706137043412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17321223098986527,0.0,0.10301066609423844,0.16237482786969845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08446031399485464,0.2505447774008157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10855104879543967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12266853146204452,0.0,0.11297489713119735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3011539775137557,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13419031618281366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15635115047230938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15386377804799525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12712840105578008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.326333459313094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3194715537436441,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2688418772366202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1707477838183811,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12680480472623176,0.0,0.0,0.12327546079127664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15607283537161973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,AE86iknowwhatihave,2019/04/18,Nothing feels good Nothing tastes good. I don’t love anything.,2.240606060606062,3.3910651818181847,0.8581818181818193,95.44060606060609,124.45454545454544,1.4666666666666668,30.93939393939394,3.1291,0.8971575757575754,51,3,8,0,3,14,9,11,0.321,0.4,0.28,0.0997,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,3,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2866025957808669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1760995000256405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5842370587721071,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31433391906478303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6683630485485269,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Akakios_delta,2019/04/18,"Do you feel unsupported? I only ask because I do quite frequently. I know that this might not be true all of the time, but I was wondering if anyone else here felt this way all of the time. I don't have schizophrenia, but I believe I do have something wrong with me that has not been diagnosed",4.3858474576271185,5.214390254237292,4.962500000000002,85.75527542372883,70.1864406779661,8.611864406779661,28.309322033898304,8.841846274778883,1.945945762711864,231,8,49,4,4,74,41,59,0.138,0.862,0.0,-0.7695,0,0,1,0,0,0,5.0,0,1,0,1,1,2,0,0,2,0,11,1,0,0,3,14,16,3,0,1,5,0,2,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,4,1,0,0,4,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,3,2,9,1,3,11,2,4,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,3,3,37,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18023471340432412,0.2641098715322844,0.0,0.0,0.2409747199568706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15713065638359738,0.0,0.0,0.2904119705835441,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26162522469252064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21532890330327206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13033331828352254,0.0,0.247494043081287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14166045648223932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2734470690866218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19604128009786204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2741639425138962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19843946496378306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30060874154617256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20460121431608305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2795342661519393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28182467482585233,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,5n0wy,2019/04/19,"Should I be worried? I am eighteen years old. My mother was schizophrenic. I have ADHD, panic disorder, anxiety disorder, insomnia, and intense dreams almost every night. Between the ages of sixteen and seventeen I was a stoner. The last time I smoked was when I was seventeen. Time was moving very slowly and my auditory senses were unbelievably heightened. I felt like I was falling and voices seemed very intense. I am in a midtier college holding a 3.97 gpa. I am also holding very rigorous internships. I never thought about schizophrenia while I grew up. However, I feel as though I may want to prepare myself. Does it seem like I'll probably get it? Should I be worried about my life trajectory changing? Thanks.",3.8264665354330702,7.046739259842521,4.880428149606299,74.20993356299212,81.5984251968504,7.584448818897639,32.34694881889764,8.472884824447931,3.5882917322834658,574,31,84,14,16,187,84,127,0.152,0.73,0.118,-0.6492,1,0,1,0,0,0,21.0,0,0,0,0,5,4,0,1,5,0,16,3,0,0,1,17,24,9,0,3,0,1,2,2,0,3,3,1,0,0,2,4,0,2,5,1,0,3,1,1,0,0,9,3,19,3,8,10,0,15,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,4,12,59,21,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19129881416591035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15939193334248206,0.0,0.0,0.12729311928132558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12176932828269547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16838727344130086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3648593441667896,0.0,0.13929613207776376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13411278173733512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08048425024019328,0.0,0.15283407772201096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08316297491646812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1297498170287719,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11243083065313764,0.1555308649566568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16917906945282946,0.0,0.0,0.1227664690708338,0.0,0.0,0.14937604519346914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16702860575723846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1867589297437376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17161882484905006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28981599938058233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14654802402232192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1563897710310151,0.12636809251657513,0.18563380030239365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3940110118985259,0.09388622448828557,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3233022383098115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10250422956368556 schizophrenia,dandelion_kisses,2019/04/19,"Abilify So I’m starting on Abilify on 10 mg, can someone give me some input and there thoughts on it? Thanks!",0.6484848484848484,3.149439000000001,2.824545454545458,87.87348484848488,90.8181818181818,6.56969696969697,30.06060606060606,7.793537801064563,2.531133333333334,86,5,17,2,3,29,19,22,0.0,0.862,0.138,0.4926,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,6,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,3,5,1,4,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,1,1,10,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5043996487844348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4455125000390477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3721671760840628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.484090197658369,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4174300901849217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,beansterkins,2019/04/19,"Seeking advice I’m not sure if this is appropriate and please feel free to delete if not. Quick backstory - I had a family member diagnosed with schizophrenia that has long passed, but I remember their struggle and isolation from family/friends - which leads me into my question. I’ve come to discover through social media/finding help for her from her family during a crisis an old classmate that’s been diagnosed with schizophrenia. She’s out of the hospital but still seems to be struggling heavily with paranoia and pushing/fighting everyone (posting chat screen shots) family/friends super close trying to suggest she might need more help/that they’re there for her. She’s not posting anything suicidal at the moment so I don’t think a wellness check is totally necessary? But, I don’t know...we weren’t super close in school but enough to where I wish I could help. I reached out to say it’d be cool to see each other sometime soon if she’s free and I’m here if she ever needs an ear - to which she was receptive, but I wish I could do more. I suppose I’m asking if we do chat further - how can I help support someone struggling actively with paranoia/delusions and/or when someone has obviously pushed family out of the photo and old friends - when it’s appropriate to call for a wellness check. The other day was dang close had we not located her family, but like I said - while I don’t know how long medications take to work or the details of her last admission to the hospital - it’s extremely apparent that she’s not in a good place mentally. I know I’m kind of inserting myself, but again, the people I talked to or messaged me to find her help the other day were her “close” friends and they had all broken ties at one point or another and it seems like she’s burning every other bridge of those close right now. I just don’t want someone to struggle alone - memories Of being young when I remember my mother having to buy my relative under garments to wear to another family’s funeral and my parents being the only ones to basically be there and help my family member out through the years. Any thoughts or advice, criticism, anything is greatly appreciated.",5.693924626928593,7.15897392909536,6.211078323918728,75.65202933985331,67.65525672371638,9.748958772447518,32.929854143832735,10.004066432519934,3.4973997302082456,1743,77,302,42,29,565,201,409,0.096,0.708,0.197,0.9936,3,2,0,0,2,0,40.0,2,0,2,4,20,20,0,4,17,1,30,5,2,3,5,76,52,32,2,12,22,2,1,2,2,1,3,3,0,0,15,27,0,0,11,2,5,4,10,4,2,2,10,7,44,18,45,33,6,46,0,0,2,0,39,20,1,13,22,208,59,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14747104221744678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07815049823869875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05131321810229104,0.15824608828636352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12418905004899328,0.0,0.07054193112422924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07704983925380776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06499936013124694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12049224509573395,0.0,0.0,0.09732679970668576,0.0,0.0,0.15317414693063194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0779670552694639,0.0,0.0,0.06825500433363232,0.06357561657550477,0.07210221527364233,0.0,0.0,0.4268037880569807,0.0,0.03815323019441218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13793231405256548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23319097590038726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06328959193011044,0.0,0.08319139905105867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3034626537774934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07857665566831601,0.12440726769163428,0.06150737097019528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07372877147166318,0.0,0.0,0.133553804147583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07601479728713174,0.07604271651992417,0.08004775072291086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11190053652638854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15835845710158994,0.0,0.10226297414479954,0.057388303970824166,0.0,0.0,0.08378585743113028,0.0,0.0,0.05231225092927542,0.0,0.07883630594562148,0.08282891776691595,0.0713310749378265,0.0,0.1445335309571276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08452889593655648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.170955711868431,0.06443970317223195,0.07177670543512042,0.060006283667004785,0.0,0.07636631983646679,0.060129307883759676,0.1373860911344985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07691871496210148,0.19180292990945955,0.0,0.07462871419279585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060259905676853874,0.0,0.0,0.31553536360271217,0.0,0.08253750264710406,0.0856274934139259,0.07111715012268527,0.0,0.05673413015870001,0.060649325362471924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04834967682639313,0.0,0.05990427827338968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05123022065328667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04450638136400207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1356894677901718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1735432144350078,0.0,0.0,0.054933456128630466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.048591711481100516 schizophrenia,nanashay,2019/04/19,"What should I do? So I am the adhd daughter of a man who is schizophrenic. I have always known that he had a mental illness, and I can remember the times he was not home, his eyes were different. He has since moved many states away, but he still has a problem with YouTube videos of myself and the family, as well as the many terrifying emails to my mother. I love him and I always have, but how can you even talk to him when he refuses to take the medication that would stop him from snapping, and how do you deal with being one of the delusions of grandeur? He literally told my husband in a YouTube video that he owns me until my husband pays for me and he wants 50 shekels of silver for me. Like I am not even a person and like I am a slave, or a cow for sale on the market. But at the same time he tells me that I am not his child and that I am going to burn in gehenna and I will be ashes beneath his feet. I wish that he would just take the medication because maybe I could have an actual conversation with him about things. I wish that he wouldn't always bring up the fact that I was molested under his care and I wish that he wouldn't have the need to throw that out to my husband as if it makes me less expensive than the other cattle for sale. I really wish that he could get better so that he didn't have to see things this way. Is it just me? What can I do to feel less horrible about my entire life as I have known it to be up to this point in my life?",5.008292220113852,4.199345612903231,5.7959582542694505,85.9874667931689,68.67741935483872,9.229601518026566,26.94497153700189,8.4952907291091,1.4445540796963952,1140,27,265,15,17,375,149,310,0.065,0.804,0.131,0.9734,1,0,0,0,0,0,20.0,0,2,0,1,13,8,1,0,20,0,37,9,2,3,1,48,54,24,0,15,10,5,1,2,0,6,6,0,1,3,23,13,0,2,4,2,4,4,6,2,1,1,6,3,42,6,42,37,4,24,0,0,2,1,41,12,0,2,8,197,65,2,0.0,0.0,0.11118110547332677,0.0,0.1369240108009469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2844014182963229,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10704277618491813,0.0,0.0,0.06945183247756948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.100763512362562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11616117142698205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1819307125859833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1174587924503602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11903459269879033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15050189891621818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1074048613860443,0.0,0.05760739499219621,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059524718568436025,0.0,0.06475012779538745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11428299125273175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16094694928279346,0.11132274878994436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1028279934490071,0.0,0.0760504320139187,0.2310181409203935,0.11445991316106215,0.0,0.0,0.2295488182918185,0.11481656427309395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12109158561204154,0.0,0.08447906474323176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07720320815063005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09948094584335627,0.0,0.0,0.10770247730592257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10901744729255428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07298769643741157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12906263990747427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09078897834381616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09424565006131401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09098616737901843,0.09525217502816552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1713252287650113,0.09157415045496836,0.0995815076787474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15138259179865693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1328692213198007,0.0,0.0,0.10886681871799686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0671999900885165,0.09043384396420838,0.0,0.0,0.10243846625094047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5240642771912448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16186791444709933,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,SIVERsErIfto,2019/04/19,"Got diagnosed with schizophrenia and can't convince them that i have other mental illness Hello 3 years ago I got obsessive thoughts and compulsion that took more than 20 hours a day. I was sane when i sought help but it took 3 months to get in a mental hospital and there was no treatment only pills so finally i lost my mind. &#x200B; I got kicked out of the ward after 4 months with a diagnose of severe schizophrenia ... and every-time i sought help and asked for cbt for the obsessive thoughts they told me i suffer from psychosis. i never got treatment and the obsessions lasted for 3 years (20 hours a day extreme stress). now i am not severe mentally ill now have cognitive problems but i have a job and hobbies i am a functional person. &#x200B; Now some people from the health care visited my house and start telling family i suffer from schizophrenia and told my family that i maybe hear voices and other things which ain't true. I have psychological problems and maybe suffered from psychosis due untreated obsessive thoughts &#x200B; I even tested positive for autism and personality disorders but i can't get those diagnosis because of the schizophrenia &#x200B; I live in the Netherlands which i thought one of the best health care in the world. &#x200B; I even went to the hospital to get a explanation and they just read the medical files and told me i am sick. &#x200B; i can't go to a lawyer because they won't believe me. &#x200B; I read much about schizophrenia and i know it isn't the case but one of the symptoms is lack of insight. &#x200B; the diagnosis in it self is not my problem but i am scared that i will lose another 3 years of my live because i will never get the right treatment. &#x200B; i told my environment this and they told me not to worry. but the last 3 years i couldn't leave my bed and i informed my family and health care who didn't do anything.",5.665183201199912,7.262765384401118,5.5392896935933145,79.9416407756589,67.85793871866295,8.642854081851297,32.192093421898434,9.057496981413335,2.8224205271052067,1539,66,275,28,26,479,161,359,0.16699999999999998,0.7290000000000001,0.104,-0.9689,1,0,0,0,0,0,55.0,0,0,5,3,10,20,0,6,23,0,23,11,0,0,3,48,52,26,0,5,10,0,0,0,0,3,11,2,1,3,15,21,0,0,7,2,0,5,14,14,0,2,20,2,47,6,30,28,5,35,0,5,0,0,22,7,0,1,23,184,62,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03917174659084867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4309183753136895,0.483260908423627,0.0,0.04633704181063422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03636458421727087,0.0,0.04131166144203468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08081339585968607,0.0,0.0,0.0497869693950004,0.04637465248595539,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13516387394220813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05699775629389184,0.0,0.0,0.08970378892132834,0.0,0.0,0.05064553982075217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058374123479409935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12497512694497108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.048407957653083665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09234975231044272,0.0,0.025114181166176728,0.0,0.1413710394403097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14091563111169375,0.049805313484906334,0.0,0.059239217551706774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08703644801782745,0.050989298121455966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04385173158921995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.024285654607113082,0.07204145520869032,0.0,0.04679080302482479,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07804111509329886,0.0,0.0,0.04943727869728125,0.048238577837294856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08878953890177632,0.0,0.0,0.04451675081846853,0.13359930370227935,0.0,0.04461927763135158,0.0,0.07054403293907915,0.0,0.032484716208485025,0.0,0.06816406593262732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0598885414475767,0.033608467284516316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03063576464691805,0.07716996341343561,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12685151434285047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08840386692350381,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0377379972230742,0.0,0.0,0.0442418740054265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04609978142853282,0.09984418720823236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03127789176861217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05061946709100413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04593030409221874,0.0,0.0,0.038623985925526405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.029357855847411,0.0,0.0,0.14032761641308114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21112707429002636,0.09819337642992508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04096454957037636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04487706467227775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.483260908423627,0.11382758036839535 schizophrenia,BongMonkey,2019/04/19,At anytime have you ever had a LITERAL physical feeling in your head? A bulge or movement in your brain.,3.1165000000000016,5.641849650000001,4.830000000000002,78.24500000000002,77.5,8.0,35.0,8.841846274778883,3.685500000000001,83,5,14,2,2,28,17,20,0.0,0.919,0.081,0.128,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,2,2,2,0,1,3,3,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,3,0,3,2,0,5,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,1,1,12,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6078022561552021,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4924991566110973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27529752398650364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.558777479357306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,WhimsyMoth,2019/04/19,"Disorganized schizophrenia keeps messing up my social life and career I can't really talk about this to anyone in real life because most people just don't understand and/or I'm really terrible at expressing myself. Ever since I started my new job as an apprentice cook I have been feeling awful. I moved pretty far away from my friends and family and within the year I worked here I barely managed to make any friends. My coworkers all treat me like I am mentally disabled or just stupid and there is really nothing I can do to fix it. I was diagnosed with disorganized schizophrenia a few years back and basically just am really bad at social interactions. I jumble up sentences a lot, react inappropriately to sensitive topics and just can't manage to express my thoughts properly. In stressful situations my boss tends to yell at me (pretty normal for a kitchen) and my brain just shuts down. I really love my job and I love being a cook but it makes me feel awful that everyone at work ridicules me and thinks of me as stupid and unstable... I tried taking lots of different meds over the years but most just had extremely bad side effects or made me gain weight which is terrible since I also have a long history with anorexia. I don't even know where I am going with this post. Probably just wanted to rant to someone who might understand what I mean. If anyone is or was in a similar situation, I would love to hear if and how you managed it.",6.235531135531132,7.318520263736267,6.9660256410256425,72.13314102564105,66.14285714285714,10.60879120879121,32.01648351648352,10.62613485830676,3.6359582417582414,1164,46,201,31,18,385,160,273,0.13699999999999998,0.764,0.099,-0.9159,4,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,1,0,4,16,16,3,1,9,2,21,11,1,7,2,55,43,22,0,5,14,0,3,1,2,2,3,2,1,0,9,14,4,1,9,2,0,2,4,9,0,0,6,5,34,7,32,34,6,28,0,0,0,3,14,17,0,10,9,144,43,10,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08138924279055064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06921033019711886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14232656412127478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0956207419264528,0.07825851209430815,0.169955355260114,0.06204095209735973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11361429666205144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1032992441206656,0.0,0.1063329677577547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06722127241378682,0.09206110164674228,0.0,0.0972501494075993,0.0,0.0,0.0959441907083908,0.0,0.10292075833474397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1572618619327405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057840944342958216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1147075569058902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20199150029310292,0.09046208738915686,0.0,0.0,0.055932749197260816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14377305269655594,0.04972200933109958,0.0,0.0,0.09006746434914074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.173050531385216,0.27556709686088593,0.09630174344234492,0.1358708918467449,0.0,0.0,0.11086255536647308,0.11304882042306465,0.0,0.1025650254275297,0.10796694231933124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10817046857296854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09829470222393984,0.0,0.0,0.09971766085939833,0.09765563188640504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07055780740456111,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0974720917148215,0.2070830493621804,0.109730410268275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11584196388778918,0.3259976027149856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16837827461865507,0.22879820008360954,0.0,0.2074931122134171,0.08623342810258508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07203670249022033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11658264943251193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07652195724505986,0.08180270093763159,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06521315991930057,0.0,0.08079779504876311,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06909838475569947,0.0,0.0,0.21190223926437246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06002939328305256,0.0,0.0,0.12393424547384298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14818648208546906,0.0,0.0,0.07229787298668737,0.0,0.0,0.19661883550624226 schizophrenia,raluqqq43,2019/04/19,"Need advice for a friend Hi there So today i talked with one of my friends and he told me that for some time he has been hearing unfamiliar voices whispering to him. it all began like a month ago when we went on a trip in the mountains and after that we went to one of our friends house he sat on the couch and after a bit he said that he suddenly heard a voice whispering to him ""let's go"" or something like that and when he asked if someone called after him no one answered. well from that moment till today he is hearing strange voices but cant understand what they are saying he also stopped eating properly, doesn't sleep, drinks lots of alcohol and coffee, cries without knowing the reason and his hair started to fall really bad i dont think its a start of schizophrenia but more likely due to stress anyway, i'd like to hear some opinions *sorry for any mistakes*",4.768352713178295,5.893667424418608,5.024418604651164,84.56922480620159,69.52325581395347,7.593798449612403,27.70542635658915,7.793537801064563,1.6083356589147288,695,23,134,8,12,219,117,172,0.1,0.8190000000000001,0.081,-0.7422,0,0,3,0,0,0,10.0,3,0,1,0,7,11,0,1,9,0,8,5,2,1,1,27,26,15,0,3,5,0,1,4,3,0,1,11,1,0,8,9,3,1,5,1,0,5,5,3,1,3,8,12,12,8,23,17,6,26,0,0,0,0,30,3,0,6,22,86,20,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1213990210404889,0.11012503263798534,0.1327672638999409,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09934906169530397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08448268013010964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11614105728173775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1037293412265578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1356302278251077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12685575304943067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13646408466033025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1456001162905677,0.12170101519063957,0.0,0.12712134370690878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2879462547098697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07060446013524488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4200587604907896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1433481682209475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06827519166245131,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1270366294677826,0.0,0.2427758167187869,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10561842898107793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09916157187188236,0.0,0.0,0.09211717354094816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2525504281354857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0795868221258658,0.12773218473677547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11817400409345287,0.0987950445581164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.124322690153875,0.0,0.1052621928282142,0.09564061023264614,0.0,0.13906863947046022,0.17586547201193678,0.0,0.0,0.1038643261959795,0.14230844806947074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09985375589756457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07960347124547175,0.0,0.0,0.07244124420510545,0.0,0.2355166598754204,0.1187099272840863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12933090369341407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1117003603388313,0.23033041674439814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11975615038319905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,RamoSeif,2019/04/19,"Amisulpride (solian) question. Important Hello people. I have been prescribed this medication after taling and discussing with my psych my issues. I have very severe Depersonalisation/Derealisation, I do not have Schizophrenia i never heard a voice or saw things thst weren’t there. I do have alot of the negative symtoms of it though, like anhedonia, cognitive decline, and especially blank mind. I can’t visualize anything at all in my mind no inner monolgue nothing. I am complete dead zombie, this is al due to lots and lots of anxiety and panic in the past. Which to be frankly I don’t feel anything of this day. I have ZERO anxiety ZERO emotions nothing. It’s like my brain is so worn out it shut it self down and can’t produce anything at all. I do have anxiety about taking medications, actually alot of anxiety for that. So you can say I still Have some anxiety but it’s only the fear of things making worse so, I don’t like to insert anything in my body of which I can’t control and don’t know the outcome. I have never really tried medications besides a few years back I tried lexapro for 8 weeks. It did help my anxiety back then because I did not feel ANYTHING lol. After that I tried citalopram, was oke on it. Nothing dor my dp/dr. And then I added lamotringe and I got heavy light sensitivity to bad. But whatever, I am rambling.. my new psych wants me to try this med Amisulpride 100mg. But I am way way to scared to take it even tough I did some research myself. But I don’t know. Could this med help my in some way with my symtoms.. i really need help. I am nothing left, no emotions no love nothing I am bystander watchinf my life pass me by. Could it be that my brain receptors are dead of all the anxiety I have experencied in my life. Can this med make my brain damage of make things worse.",2.501273802211305,5.026176463068187,3.9429975429975457,83.7378746928747,79.82386363636364,6.646314496314497,26.27487714987715,7.824948511530503,1.7277901412776415,1433,59,273,25,37,472,169,352,0.155,0.759,0.086,-0.9595,1,0,0,0,0,0,42.0,0,1,0,2,10,10,0,3,9,1,39,10,4,5,5,46,55,19,2,4,7,0,2,3,0,0,5,3,0,1,23,11,0,1,5,0,0,1,16,6,0,2,10,7,45,4,34,41,11,32,0,1,1,1,11,13,0,9,18,193,68,4,0.0,0.0,0.07191510540391853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3946321085265584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3032210666817231,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11333289187330965,0.061531747108137726,0.044923423200877895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08185786694981279,0.0,0.2468019731197824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07726717796956098,0.0,0.08265453774225118,0.1176779661987607,0.0,0.0,0.04752679243804057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1657925655807404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04867445721992004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08292669004885586,0.07452420742304741,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058940145061023026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14818741191784146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07691780885046266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08100103167449757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08006918295144913,0.0,0.10410507048689163,0.10801008650255924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12530468978546996,0.06651207465402366,0.0,0.1475747559176753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2455736008494384,0.22271806966465368,0.0,0.0,0.14882067538141378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05464346499856927,0.11367533123966367,0.07117451227184253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3535588293598107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05604791320401708,0.0,0.08646450191678656,0.0,0.0,0.0703496450103756,0.05109041907008432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08255459553382355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0944210414195768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058604746018870925,0.07378095208113238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07687933300727882,0.0832536975161433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058852444302512075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1108180372243386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14687785751685914,0.0,0.07240437539255302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20013464500068365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06080559921156412,0.04346686741226319,0.1754855573637327,0.059113203775508126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1502017822125295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.047456778456320174 schizophrenia,mentallyillbluesman,2019/04/19,"Anyone else been numb for years? Sup, I been numb for over a decade, no fun, no feeling, nothing. And when I wasnt numb, I was in hell. Did anyone else experience this lack of feeling, joy for a long time? Any tips on how to overcome it?",0.675918367346938,2.6595414897959238,2.1993469387755127,96.74922448979594,83.08163265306122,4.736326530612245,20.004081632653055,5.6839178017228535,-0.3209297959183668,179,5,42,1,5,58,36,49,0.315,0.521,0.16399999999999998,-0.8506,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,0,2,6,1,0,2,0,5,3,0,1,0,5,7,3,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,3,4,0,0,5,2,3,2,8,2,1,7,1,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,4,26,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1827486112927333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3758106899526378,0.5507003127704311,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.448986225731175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2628738150386037,0.0,0.0,0.2717603803550766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2378214926237764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25785791024730303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.156701193172523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1730561465820793 schizophrenia,shaababic,2019/04/19,Are your voices funny? My voices are always funny and cute. Is that normal? They make me laugh a lot lol,-0.6378571428571433,1.2429489047619064,1.628928571428574,92.73482142857144,107.57142857142858,2.1,5.25,3.1291,-2.3329142857142857,81,0,15,0,4,27,18,21,0.0,0.491,0.509,0.9388,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,1,1,0,0,2,0,0,1,1,3,0,0,1,0,4,4,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,4,2,0,4,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,11,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4954361443327388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.506203776212114,0.0,0.0,0.3974466762949556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5833840101848855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,_____BOOP_____,2019/04/19,"I decided to stop taking the meds. What do you guys think? So I've been off the meds for about 2 months now with no ill effects. I've had 3 episodes, which have all been extremely mild (only a few hallucinations, some paranoia, etc), and I retained awareness the whole time. The last episode, I finally dragged my sorry ass to a doctor, who diagnosed me with psychotic depression. They encouraged me to keep taking my medications, but I really don't want to. I only have an episode approximately every 3 years, and it only lasts a few months. I'm concerned about the long term health effects of taking antipsychotics. After each episode (during which, I can still function at 80% and get decent grades/ hold a job), I go back to normal completely. So what do you guys think about me not taking any more meds? At least for the forseeable future.",5.686363636363637,7.068754509554143,5.83496236247829,78.6500926462073,67.59872611464968,9.021192819918936,30.8332368268674,9.339509955726095,2.7413363057324847,666,26,121,13,11,211,102,157,0.106,0.875,0.019,-0.8299,1,0,0,0,0,0,27.0,0,2,1,2,8,2,0,0,11,0,9,6,1,2,1,21,20,6,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,5,0,0,2,6,6,0,4,5,0,0,1,3,1,0,0,3,0,15,1,17,17,10,19,0,1,0,1,7,3,1,1,15,78,21,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09098738547857088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10288258106303087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14028489998916405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11524022063532532,0.1358023884250051,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13694815933892715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14922039595931888,0.0,0.0,0.1127307806121597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14656942247625004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06990405358024895,0.0,0.07604061827747767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26496256959800063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14222126327475526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13277409924370293,0.1189260157122617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2181268327814641,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1184072243908158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.44585901724939225,0.13478764183240488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2135929435636445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1310938587028035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.305278752442247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08571457312467258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14977616581282502,0.0,0.0,0.10685144041818387,0.11186131252596836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4023984744243178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17146500827126804,0.0,0.0,0.07801882469739617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07891766346344073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14938094713090638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08616167426453011 schizophrenia,EvilSubie21,2019/04/19,"Just need insight. I don’t have schizophrenia but do have bipolar 2 and GAD. Recently I’ve been feeling super paranoid, but I know the things I’m paranoid about is kinda silly. It’s a weird feeling. I’ll catch a thought and know that’s it’s not feasible, then get super anxious that I had the thought in the first place. No auditory or visual hallucinations.",2.9482857142857126,5.431854971428574,4.155714285714286,83.07928571428572,77.85714285714286,6.2857142857142865,30.0,7.447530270364453,2.0208571428571442,288,14,53,4,7,94,49,70,0.17800000000000002,0.631,0.191,0.6067,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,3,2,4,0,0,5,0,7,1,0,0,0,16,16,6,0,1,5,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,5,2,0,0,7,0,0,1,3,1,0,1,4,2,3,3,2,12,0,6,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,2,3,32,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35578777662089006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3184819756304363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2678842046431623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16454094106398412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.346160925259561,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2335208825401729,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32904084845539866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31096107823702523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20922933122832266,0.0,0.0,0.5000476446164376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,bambiepo,2019/04/19,"When I dream I see dead people When I dream I see dead people tying me down and disecting me. I see Jesus Christ pulling me up to heaven to save me but I just fall back down into the underworld, scares the shit out of me.",0.5065957446808511,2.5693656170212797,2.6377021276595762,92.89400000000002,84.31914893617022,5.4621276595744686,15.782978723404256,6.742157984588678,-0.3654476595744685,172,3,39,2,5,58,29,47,0.155,0.609,0.235,0.5187,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,4,4,1,1,2,0,0,1,1,0,0,6,3,4,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,2,0,2,0,2,0,0,0,3,11,2,8,3,0,10,3,0,3,0,0,5,1,0,3,27,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2397689529388597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.43235096477853374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3121844212199345,0.0,0.7454362165610909,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3200769073962297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,JessicaM2098,2019/04/19,Being lonely Schizophrenia and lonliness is the worst combo ever.,9.475,13.579648500000005,8.370000000000001,52.86500000000001,64.0,8.0,30.0,8.841846274778883,4.018000000000002,55,2,4,1,1,17,10,10,0.452,0.5479999999999999,0.0,-0.765,0,2,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,1,2,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,6,0,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,alexlsa3,2019/04/20,"I think i need help. I was doing really well for a long time. but the last few days it got really bad again. delusions that last for days on end, hallucinations, extreme paranoia, worsened anger issues, the works. should i go see a doctor/phycologist/therapist?",3.913829787234043,6.822874851063838,4.897276595744682,76.69400000000002,77.08510638297872,8.01531914893617,24.293617021276606,8.841846274778883,2.2517863829787244,206,7,35,5,5,67,38,47,0.312,0.621,0.067,-0.9436,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,1,2,3,1,0,4,0,3,0,0,0,0,4,8,1,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,2,1,4,1,3,5,1,10,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,8,20,6,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2061862933818424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3185143809391938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2527556476025121,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21871735620621569,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14034285535195318,0.0,0.1975021125300247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16552004791657168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2577433381512504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40258145231961856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.218535939629892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18310439789390254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3163947955734417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19678083872701574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2867187481120988,0.0,0.1582304918006135,0.0,0.0,0.14399389270193688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22203055563012808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17977675033384616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,fakemarx,2019/04/20,"Anyone help? hey , i smoked with my ‘friends’ today and i think they were trying to fuck my high up as they have before to others aswell and try make me feel crazy/uncomfortable. They were talking about me , looking at me , putting on ghost stories on youtube but there was a period where they were all talking in complete disorganisation.Like those videos on facebook of people un/intentionally speaking in loose association/tangential speech (complete disordered talk). Im asking because i know that disorganised speech is a symptom of mental illness but is ‘hearing’ it possible aswell or am i right and not paranoid in thinking i need to find new friends bc they were genuinely trying to throw me.Bearing in mind they were laughing as this was happening and they’ve done it to others",8.683214285714287,9.177818464285714,7.8392857142857135,70.02821428571433,60.78571428571429,10.142857142857146,38.92857142857143,9.827888789773867,3.944857142857142,635,30,103,11,8,197,95,140,0.07400000000000001,0.838,0.08800000000000001,0.4606,0,0,1,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,6,0,3,4,1,0,2,0,12,3,0,1,1,18,23,9,1,1,4,0,1,0,2,0,2,4,0,0,7,5,0,0,5,1,0,2,1,1,0,0,8,6,16,3,20,15,1,17,0,0,1,1,16,12,1,1,3,68,23,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11003495027891494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1471172829478561,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09592971096347963,0.0,0.13390807310146102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32999346538840235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18035668263574786,0.0,0.0,0.1610414946407632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07956968957939557,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1438309594784682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2431633372923117,0.14548363242326842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13915947871366954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17736450533577852,0.0,0.10548005606591758,0.16626730606441026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16998380445249234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0864850116333784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1321489882821621,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10504396646552376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15858933352255214,0.0,0.15889622114160107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11668593864532853,0.0,0.15198642275486832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10909874593662887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17740810703724896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15819770967898472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13439090614020513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1635649912675895,0.0,0.37945788346369946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2016693609813222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14916590179549888,0.0,0.0,0.32052641941674764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,LightWarrior007,2019/04/20,"Ever think this illness is more spiritual than it seems? Does it ever seem like this illness is portrayed to you in a way that tries to make you feel like you're less human than everyone else? Does it seem like it's trying to confine your fate to a certain style of living? As if trying to keep you confined from living to your true potential. I.e. if the stigma surrounding the illness trying to portray how a schizophrenic person is. Then being told that there's something wrong with your sanity. People trying to gaslight you into questioning your own self only to make you more spiritual susceptible to being used for your energy. In my experience of my illness it seems more like someone instigating the illness on the person using certain methods that aren't explained. Then another group of people prescribing medicine to certain individuals in an attempt to make other members in society feel better about themselves. Essentially using science to hold the person captive. Will post more if anyone is interested.",8.651279837480956,9.776490156424586,8.489324530218386,63.181868969019824,60.843575418994405,10.531437277805994,38.06043676993398,10.436869588844218,4.4983698324022345,834,39,116,18,11,269,102,179,0.1,0.764,0.136,0.6387,0,0,2,0,0,0,13.0,0,10,0,2,5,11,0,0,9,0,8,6,0,7,6,31,24,7,0,3,3,0,2,4,0,1,6,0,0,5,11,2,0,4,9,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,2,12,10,29,20,6,13,0,0,0,0,19,7,0,8,8,84,23,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12262234827660545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08176754180572668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1034244010601538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20467090228311385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09768881238395866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21155881964991624,0.0,0.11174169356780532,0.0,0.11439028338182065,0.0,0.0,0.11825729738887615,0.08354234231654452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10394212153008067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22852495606827844,0.0,0.20652127155577185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2341761476050288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08893854720477794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16214368701423512,0.3063238964038763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11199670818150438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13100016346960225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4258330881448436,0.12199448287843925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09908333670475028,0.09002653784530541,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0749307736458999,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11174169356780532,0.0,0.3969747389816521,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3029972300901515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09282195437880274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1278561185325764,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,oliviapaigee,2019/04/20,Help.. please I’ve been stuck in an episode for a few days now. I keep coming in and out and having very serious violent thoughts. I haven’t left my house due to these thoughts because I’m scared of what I might do. Suicidal thoughts have been a huge problem as well. Is there any way I can talk with someone or seek help for this without going to a hospital? I just recently got my insurance taken away as well as losing my job. I need these thoughts and anxiety to stop. I’ve tried reaching out to family members and others around me and nothing is helping. I’m still taking my medication as directed as well so I’m not sure what the trigger was for this episode,3.313800410116201,5.09469410526316,4.208161312371839,86.42738892686262,74.11278195488724,7.843882433356117,30.13602187286397,8.575989854853784,2.3111864661654136,528,24,107,10,11,170,87,133,0.198,0.695,0.107,-0.9199,1,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,1,9,9,1,1,5,0,11,1,0,1,1,25,26,12,1,2,4,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,7,10,0,2,4,0,0,2,3,5,3,0,10,0,11,4,21,15,1,17,0,1,0,0,4,8,0,2,6,71,18,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09734091611493484,0.0,0.10950261674910623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1274260046927239,0.0,0.0,0.13448585770651542,0.0,0.0,0.08725753939620973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1233034585639768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0923142242520994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1349407724665004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08135043562515601,0.0,0.11448308395118093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2878335623628682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16516571203156868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1420455416840308,0.12723046451375533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1555233191951379,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1601383748701502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14419968732949334,0.0,0.1518501796705708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10613737689884878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13734783007871307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1571260395356147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13696678493078654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14133465411187682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14330930000863026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12128306377573718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11431273735144325,0.11967244230422767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1565732265221006,0.0,0.13490887534329976,0.0,0.10762435896386002,0.11505146453233618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4545524558379149,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09718347037249117,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11810647075999114,0.0,0.1136188120739093,0.0,0.0,0.3861033547588067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13798299687871626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,UnstableBear,2019/04/20,"Am I alone? Is there someone I can talk to a bit, I am going insane I just wanna know if I am alone of having thougts 24/7 just making your head fucking hurt like a bitch. I have schizo but I really don't know who to talk to anymore, I just wanna talk to someone who has the disorder as well. Because I know so little about the disorder because my doctor is crap and hasn't explained shit to me. I don't know why it happens, I just wanna know if I am alone. I just wanna talk I guess......I never usually let out shit but I guess I trust the internet people who I can't see then actually facing an indevidual. I have to admit tho my voices are my only friends because real people suck ass and if I tell them about my condition they will leave....I am at the end of my straw.... So if someone would be willing to talk please talk to me....",1.0229445378151285,2.9292556171428608,3.5287058823529414,88.09847058823532,81.4,5.946218487394957,21.722689075630253,7.048011613610866,0.6344050420168066,643,20,138,8,17,224,92,175,0.168,0.6920000000000001,0.14,-0.5052,0,3,0,0,0,0,28.0,0,1,2,0,12,11,6,0,7,0,22,8,6,1,1,30,36,13,0,9,11,0,0,1,1,3,1,1,0,0,4,3,0,0,7,0,0,1,5,7,1,0,0,2,29,4,19,31,1,8,0,1,1,2,16,3,7,5,5,101,33,1,0.0,0.0,0.10415294590834864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3316198360292815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10584734044269788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.195184593294246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11652136266810187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24464332891651985,0.10924253268461827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09453097551207136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08245922390603275,0.09867003434183053,0.0,0.0,0.06065703816418312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2351499438905716,0.0,0.09438086137223027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1095356263643952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11425652094123298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2932796949656801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1091385114639508,0.0,0.05214281771946131,0.10697135713586052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07124300930568192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08231664654608979,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08117286680491652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1479860906538117,0.0,0.0,0.11715733423499353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1214819450887994,0.06837388031588201,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08504987884642211,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21911333195887855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2712955882133853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5147125043415299,0.09328660061960473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11754786043381538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09596296051335848,0.0,0.09630709650978553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0758178292342603,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,parallelspaces,2019/04/20,"Increased Anxiety Since I started taking medication(oxcarbazepine and Olanzapine) my anxiety has become crippling. I can't even leave my house for 5 minutes without having a panic attack. It seems my meds are making it worse. It didn't start to get bad until the end of March. I started my meds in February. My question is, is it the meds doing this to me?",3.0336363636363615,6.003124712121218,4.6123484848484875,76.68852272727275,82.18181818181819,6.330303030303031,26.431818181818183,7.6454224807358475,2.0494000000000003,285,12,46,5,8,95,49,66,0.14400000000000002,0.7340000000000001,0.122,-0.3603,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,0,1,3,1,1,3,0,8,0,0,1,0,5,15,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,1,0,0,2,0,0,1,3,3,0,0,1,0,9,0,7,14,1,8,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,2,6,34,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2694807418259523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20037538838768454,0.0,0.0,0.14706272435511092,0.0,0.19452377267327195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15600052622249574,0.0,0.0,0.1163334152155262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0920216136895931,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20323248851878248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18649818077267905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11756936687849286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5869282844698672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2066527574707636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19730796373946494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1603438066209809,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14569807317771385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3740010559440125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13242921928785914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16978480269307356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17949338620556002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,hthiennguyen,2019/04/20,Has anyone tried bacopa monniera while on Abilify? I have severe memory issues and am interested in taking bacopa to see if it will help. I’m currently on Abilify 20mg and occasionally take 25mg seroquel to help with sleep. I’d like to know if anyone has tried this combination and experienced any adverse effects? Thanks,5.465423728813561,7.901982661016955,7.612000000000003,61.505457627118645,69.84745762711864,11.499661016949155,30.444067796610174,11.20814326018867,4.57880745762712,263,11,40,10,5,93,44,59,0.077,0.713,0.21,0.8299,1,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,1,0,4,0,0,0,0,5,1,1,1,0,8,11,6,0,2,2,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,4,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,1,3,7,10,0,5,0,0,1,0,2,3,0,2,3,21,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1836542261416469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37767302826970667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3620392620298857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2818788693936077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14842127960582074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13194066723714284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21520773625639472,0.0,0.0,0.30509785028212905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2702611637899517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4061122321092666,0.0,0.0,0.2486406036149601,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3667143428965762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,ActiveAnxiety9,2019/04/20,omggg!!! ugh im so horny and gay i literally want to pound a black bitch from glascow in a 3 way with her sista!,-2.9160000000000004,-1.726766599999996,0.04800000000000182,103.62400000000004,115.0,3.6,13.0,5.6839178017228535,-1.2358000000000002,85,2,23,1,5,29,23,25,0.298,0.652,0.05,-0.816,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,1,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,2,0,4,1,0,2,0,0,1,1,1,1,1,0,0,10,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7375788980538988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4027537325879462,0.5420025830492633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0