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EDAnonymous,brattyfawn,2019/01/01,"Just switched gyms and burned 802 calories in 52 minutes. Also I’m moving to a new place in a few days that’s walking distance from this gym and it’s 24/7.

Shoutout to the Stair Mill Gods™️ for this calorie loss and the two shots of whisky I’m about to have, although I can’t really feel the tips of my fingers rn lol~",1.6582608695652148,3.2710579420289885,2.576159420289855,97.0755434782609,78.27536231884058,5.179710144927537,24.54347826086957,5.46131890053228,0.22388695652173896,254,9,59,1,6,80,55,69,0.038,0.962,0.0,-0.3182,0,0,1,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,1,3,1,0,0,5,1,2,1,1,0,0,5,5,5,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,3,0,0,1,2,0,2,1,1,0,1,0,2,2,0,10,5,1,8,0,1,0,0,0,4,0,0,2,31,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3312091277416682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2671033933321005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2094152336709002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4401938796218902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4000049818499838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4327162692969268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2653259274544844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40458088959123256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,rqrqsj,2019/01/01,"How do you guys deal with vacations/holidays? Heading to Japan for a vacation with my SO and I’m so scared of being the fattest cow in the pasture. I’m American and as a country we are just fat fucks, it’s a thing. My BMI is 23.5 right now so naturally I feel like a fat piece of shit. I’m hoping to get it back to 20 before we go. I know that in Asia the average body weight is much lower and I’m so scared! I’m pretty sure my SO is going to propose while we are there too as he has asked for my ring size and keeps playing up the romantic spots he wants to see, and I just want to feel good about myself and not stick out being so huge. 

What are your travel stories? How do you deal with when you know you will be in a hot place with skimpy clothes and bikinis? How do you deal with eating, binging, purging on holiday? Do you prep for this kind of thing?",1.7258876811594206,3.0377379293478306,3.3668260869565247,92.7723768115942,77.31521739130434,6.6457971014492765,22.59275362318841,7.3011,0.5841931884057976,665,19,156,8,15,221,109,184,0.083,0.78,0.13699999999999998,0.8219,1,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,3,7,0,0,17,10,2,2,9,0,15,8,5,3,1,31,34,20,0,3,3,0,4,1,0,1,2,1,0,1,7,16,4,1,4,3,0,3,1,4,0,0,0,6,18,6,26,30,2,16,0,0,1,1,17,9,2,1,5,102,25,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14845460941151442,0.0,0.0,0.1221057905362422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13512532512153505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1763886792316355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4911410162710828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16248990554732495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1605859889580942,0.11344525840686005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14680610866650995,0.08296535366734968,0.0,0.1804970231442307,0.13319215252630834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15723489675796842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16297246853281386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15772215490246216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14114687844946913,0.0,0.1653635864541321,0.17454235647533178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07758063747887052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11673473513867515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16591001720654647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16155456302665758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1356125472122471,0.0,0.0,0.3179688202240235,0.0,0.12654137438267882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16300377230232269,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1496651505801633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21099655016790766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18732624288601152,0.0,0.0,0.19337307358795214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,xStingx,2019/01/01,"New year, old me. At the end of this month, it will be one whole year since I've had an eating disorder. At the beginning of 2018, I weighed around 205 pounds, give or take a few. Today I'm 133 pounds and exhausted because I thought I'd be 115 (my goal weight) by now. I'm scared because everytime I lose a few pounds I expect to look pretty and become happier but I'm not. Death is becoming more plausible because I just do not see myself being happy. I see lots if posts about people getting more attention, feeling better about how they look and just all around reaching their goals. I just feel like I'm on the outside looking in?  When you're 200+ pounds, feeling bad about yourself every single day, getting no attention, unhappy, and repulsive, you think losing weight will solve all of those things. So when you actually do lose weight and everything is still the same, what are you supposed to do? I'm at a dead end with no turn around. I feel empty and hopeless, fat and uncaring that my ED could kill me. I'm not afraid to purge harder or restrict until I see stars because I've reached the finish line long ago but only to realize that there is no cheering crowd or gold medal. 
What more do I have to do in order to fucking love myself!? I've destroyed my body just to mold my body into something that I still dont like. I'm tired of myself. 

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EDAnonymous,darlingadoring,2019/01/01,"does anyone here have a ED tumblr? i don’t follow many active people. i’m darlingadoring on there too :)

i also have a semi popular poetry blog",0.3782142857142857,2.6451518214285765,4.2940000000000005,74.25100000000002,102.21428571428572,6.525714285714287,12.742857142857144,7.554174236665415,0.9588199999999998,113,2,18,3,5,42,24,28,0.0,0.7020000000000001,0.298,0.8176,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,0,2,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,5,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,1,5,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,12,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.433522662313617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37905372307363694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4744013688193165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5496112718302434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37582864103741376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,heatheringly,2019/01/01,"Just purged with my fingers for the first time. I used to absolutely need a toothbrush. But I didn't have one and I needed it gone so fucking bad and it finally worked.

So many things about ed give me this bizarre mix of pride and disgust. I don't remember the last time I felt proud of myself that I wasn't also ashamed about something

IDK thanks for coming to my Ted talk",1.7261842105263163,4.062584250000004,2.399210526315791,94.78197368421051,81.5,5.378947368421053,22.657894736842106,6.6274283507984215,0.4301105263157883,297,10,64,3,8,92,58,76,0.156,0.71,0.134,-0.4167,0,0,1,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,4,6,7,2,1,3,0,4,2,1,1,0,12,13,7,0,2,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,5,0,0,2,0,0,2,3,4,0,2,4,2,10,3,9,9,0,7,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,0,5,41,15,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19118278584296824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19961199523121967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20593612095238872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2295430021324127,0.2618875722991133,0.0,0.20335132354766414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22101473638099356,0.0,0.2293360407673002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19487252431416488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2423776729881518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3545321427503946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1619988271416114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2708177133263384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1840464116317172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1921539962594581,0.0,0.22010191635299187,0.0,0.0,0.15882631634421016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27880522756295895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.206478201750782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1740445266352711,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,orthofuckyrself,2019/01/01,"Was Doing So Well, Then Got Thrown A Curveball Was managing to have a super healthy attitude about bulking, and a kinda healthy one about cheating at Christmas. 

Then, this evening, I realized that the nutritional information for these candied fruits I've been merrily eating for the past 2 days cannot possibly be right. 

I figure, I'm out 1000 calories total, worst case scenario. 

My advice to someone else dealing with this would be, ""if you fuck up that bad, just pretend it didn't happen. If you have to cut like 2 days sooner, that's life."" 

I'm trying to apply that to myself, but like... fuck. Straw that broke the camel's back. 

Used my remaining calories for booze to dull the pain. :p ",3.768666666666668,6.163436661538463,4.156538461538464,84.55762820512822,74.69230769230771,6.7948717948717965,27.756410256410252,7.793537801064563,1.8317948717948718,546,22,99,8,12,171,93,130,0.2,0.695,0.105,-0.9398,0,0,0,0,0,0,24.0,0,2,0,1,7,13,4,0,7,0,11,7,0,1,1,14,18,7,0,3,4,0,0,2,0,1,2,0,0,0,9,3,3,0,3,1,0,0,2,9,1,1,5,1,7,4,15,10,2,10,0,2,0,2,4,4,2,3,8,63,16,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21230322458859288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.167058952599583,0.18140239878461545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2802284856188934,0.2239847468784012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2223104515316517,0.1814922252364744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14349768557221568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40170535142259906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17376206919645146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19212163722246864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15345663336013127,0.2122837906754512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14722049048075636,0.0,0.23117915986451554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20739853747530812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2449271605182233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1855382123742542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18408305745103834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14750476944538946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18764223588336484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19534215749344852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15433473769318093,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,dortuh,2019/01/01,"I need some exercise recommendations or I'm gonna go crazy... For several months I've been going on walks. Walking my daughter in the stroller or walking alone. But now the cold is bone chilling, and there's snow on the sidewalk. I can't subject the baby to that and I can't really stand it either. 

I don't wanna just do a bunch of mindless crunches in my apartment... The gyms will all be completely clogged for a few months and memberships are too expensive.

AND I have really bad joints and can't try new exercises without supervision because I'll hurt myself (so links to workout videos won't help.)
I have Beachbody DVDs, and I've only done one of the workouts and it makes me feel like I'm gonna pass out. And I can't do it when I have my daughter cause she loses her shit when she doesn't like what on TV and she will get under my feet and not allow me to exercise. 

I need some cardio though. Things I can do with a two year old around. Indoors. Something free. I can't think of any good options. Walking around the mall get old pretty fast and she starts losing her shit. And my power walking usually freaks other people out. 

What do",2.0618695652173926,4.325274317391308,3.342173913043478,88.91195652173914,79.73913043478261,6.086956521739131,23.91304347826087,7.255503002510835,1.0093043478260864,903,32,183,12,23,293,137,230,0.125,0.8109999999999999,0.064,-0.8992,1,1,1,0,0,2,25.0,0,0,0,3,10,11,2,0,10,0,23,8,4,3,1,37,37,19,0,3,7,2,1,2,0,5,4,0,0,0,8,17,0,0,3,9,2,8,10,7,0,2,2,2,25,5,21,29,6,32,0,3,0,0,9,11,2,5,14,119,33,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15029938218430974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09868580690435144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25837311986772543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12116819356150292,0.0884631152806873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14907705276091193,0.0,0.0,0.15215437259912729,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1485069866498769,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07337646023754109,0.10367294863813788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15163723844063226,0.0,0.16494879444548968,0.12171882176283184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09727011856759338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1553527501275254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1417954978041564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3247017877200276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09686797157679262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2316649926117312,0.0,0.0,0.21520760436663114,0.0,0.14015670747076225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3045556816967747,0.0,0.0983363009877935,0.11036943878560053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10060715123435142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.147638060418986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1859337262584064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16394301493858845,0.297924866160815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11171959482224593,0.0,0.0,0.10271588203276673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0964105279302666,0.09298631127881243,0.14257855147272944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09852618584512124,0.0,0.14176004790851693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15982793139126264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13988941063569355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09345179339203714
EDAnonymous,stupidthrowawaynya,2019/01/01,"i saw something i wish i hadn’t i’ve been struggling with an eating disorder for a few years now, and my boyfriend developed one too. i wanted to see a picture and he was using my phone for directions, so i borrowed his. he had a thing open showing his weight. he’s taller than me (5’6.5) and 121 lbs. i’m shorter and 134 (5’5.5) i feel horrible. i’m so disgusting and i want to die. why can’t i be skinner again? why can’t i be back to 110? he’s getting me ice cream now and he made me promise i’ll eat it but i fucking can’t. at all. ",-1.5143270189431703,0.4662710169491575,1.2170588235294133,98.6998753738784,97.30508474576271,4.471385842472583,20.50049850448654,6.2272716619740125,0.09293758723828516,412,16,100,5,17,141,75,118,0.108,0.845,0.046,-0.7487,1,0,1,0,0,1,18.0,0,0,0,0,7,4,2,1,4,0,9,4,0,2,1,16,21,9,1,3,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,8,3,0,1,1,1,0,4,3,0,1,6,5,17,1,8,13,2,8,0,0,3,1,8,3,1,0,5,57,19,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16667216662363268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22495875252136888,0.0,0.2484214263843105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4435914872358772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10959846618043942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20038764826447106,0.1132461875043414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20509999231554826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1468796358291235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17272665729667702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16686954092879294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22660068164824296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14400321234626134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18720779412369687,0.0,0.0,0.2556968889858617,0.0,0.0,0.2639507020922893,0.0,0.0,0.3911775790797265,0.0,0.2492589752057949,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13958390994089492
EDAnonymous,citrus_juuiice,2019/01/01,"I’m between abc, 2468, and Russian gymnast Recovery took me from 118 to 132. I’ve gotten down to 127/128, but I’m still to big for comfort (I’m 5’5” btw). I’m going back to school soon and I think I’ll try each of them for a week and then decide which to stick with. Until i go back I’ll just try to stay below 1000 Caliries and fast when I can. ",-1.3090909090909086,0.668904649350651,0.8987142857142878,102.33378571428574,93.41558441558443,3.5994805194805197,16.790909090909093,4.935628992294339,-1.002495064935065,266,7,67,1,10,88,53,77,0.0,0.952,0.048,0.5023,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,1,0,6,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,10,10,8,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,6,0,0,2,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,2,0,5,1,15,8,1,16,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,9,36,6,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.472637618951177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3493269355696277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.311035696666013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3275742882145094,0.2454351837742775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19692549604953635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.341456397229639,0.41731557590757457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24652264156696824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,gkelleyr,2019/01/01,What’s your resolution/affirmation for the year? I’m telling myself “each day I get skinnier” as my affirmation. I believe in law of attraction and setting an intention with an affirmation you can believe. It’s hard for me to believe that I’m skinny now (5’5 sw 117 cw 126 lw 108) but telling myself I’m getting closer is encouraging. ,4.693125000000002,6.5095658125,6.5488750000000024,70.90862500000003,70.5625,9.495,36.2375,9.888512548439397,4.020003750000001,268,15,47,7,5,93,49,64,0.02,0.872,0.109,0.7506,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,2,0,0,1,2,0,0,3,0,2,1,1,1,0,6,7,3,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,8,2,7,7,1,6,0,0,0,0,5,2,0,0,3,27,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8148663900700361,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15548096378661208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2519156792882614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2159663107384412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.42144076872197456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15525191737304195
EDAnonymous,RedditRabbitt,2019/01/01,"Anyone obsessed with numbers.. but like, other people’s numbers? I’ve been liking kpop as thinspo lately and I wanted to see where I would need to be weight wise to look like some of the girls my height. I literally found a list of kpop stars with their heights and weights.. then went through hundreds to find EVERY SINGLE GIRL that was my height. Wrote down all their weights. Then averaged them. Then got the median.. then the mode! Then I averaged the averages. What in the actual fuck. If that’s not disordered.. idk what is!! I also constantly am figuring other girls BMIs. And if you post your BMI lol best believe I will find out your weight if I can find your height! Creep status right there! ",2.1487165775401067,4.9771807878787895,2.456417112299466,91.28109625668448,85.81818181818181,5.833155080213904,20.64349376114082,7.285733465282438,0.7870467023172902,552,17,106,9,17,168,89,132,0.042,0.7759999999999999,0.182,0.9691,0,0,0,0,0,0,22.0,0,4,3,1,3,7,1,1,6,1,8,5,0,0,1,22,17,14,0,6,5,0,4,3,0,2,0,0,0,3,6,6,4,0,5,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,6,6,16,5,13,8,4,18,0,0,2,1,11,9,1,4,10,69,22,0,0.0,0.0,0.13700636480290798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11227472977287717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0981682343902667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15817835454388451,0.14733707056106754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15171833358799508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1609061216455128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1182897898461441,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38495854199603824,0.0,0.0,0.15393710356233906,0.0,0.12979395447967532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11228760592662404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15837294328545806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2057713637579812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11789738463312388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10410194711723232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09733299497699154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13446067787903354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11989752292749516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11187753381387562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08280927157202878,0.0,0.0,0.6838586251988893,0.0,0.1301486136716772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09973337844686933,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Isaidbiiiitttttttchh,2019/01/01,"Finding a middle ground I’ll label this as a tentative victory over my disordered brain. 


I spent a week with my parents and my best friend who convinced me to eat what I pleased for a week. Cookies, rice, quinoa, butter, regular bread. Pretty much everything I haven’t had in 9+ months. 


I came back home yesterday and I’m back to eating healthy foods. I’m not spiraling into over restriction and over exercising and I’m not still over indulging. 


I feel in a relatively balanced place and I’m so grateful.  I want 2019 to be the year that my disordered thoughts stay gone they’re still in the back of my head but they’re not winning right now. 


TL;DR **in a place of moderation for the first time in a while** ",1.4405355715427643,4.0986591007194235,2.7871342925659484,88.83435451638692,87.48920863309353,6.542126298960831,24.268984812150283,7.793537801064563,1.5979541167066342,561,23,112,12,18,181,89,139,0.041,0.833,0.126,0.7881,1,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,0,0,3,7,4,0,0,10,0,3,7,2,0,0,17,13,9,0,1,4,1,1,0,1,0,1,0,1,0,4,8,4,1,3,1,1,2,4,0,0,1,5,2,12,4,19,7,2,32,0,0,0,0,3,15,0,0,14,68,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35219659183413504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16022464870349018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1704375536801497,0.0,0.17462133117040832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3499611702162587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3124525090900988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1372158632260383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07719786500838646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1395436258773681,0.12986661883759984,0.1846171235612964,0.0,0.11795754505583445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15669021572190567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15314705573265594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12186498755127588,0.0,0.1122348516641366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16952927127327758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31902905589583763,0.16759303419340885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15532696755101494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1303849629853627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16273291736370873,0.24385542404434085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12120814840603568,0.08902694014027969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09005260113082629,0.0,0.2449358823433059,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0983187102200811
EDAnonymous,littlejanedoe-,2019/01/01,Does anyone else look up stats of their thinspo? I’m sick of looking at my thinspo and directly comparing myself these images. I thought about looking up the height and measurements for some of these models to get a better idea. Obviously there no use in striving for a body type you can never achieve right ?! So I’m only 5’1 and I saw Corin Jamie Lee is only 5’3 and hella goals! Her stats are US 34-24-34 but I couldn’t find her weight. Anyone else try to only follow thinspo of their height? ,2.3100000000000023,4.699489795918371,3.2830204081632672,88.97983673469388,79.61224489795919,5.5526530612244915,22.044897959183675,6.742157984588678,0.6056008163265303,392,12,76,4,10,125,70,98,0.053,0.926,0.021,-0.4449,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,1,1,2,3,3,1,0,0,3,0,4,3,1,1,2,13,14,6,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,4,1,0,3,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,2,5,11,1,13,11,1,9,0,0,4,0,6,7,0,1,1,43,13,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2481666861273055,0.3636550937035135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15694791789620716,0.0,0.19711675967311,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15529542176700428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29648817006922923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1621941596093126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09271491657673492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2003294235574001,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4470621799791623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13686719299971456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4048963202518741,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15154887487076593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14088249208741707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12048289978362665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21346112772894107,0.1532674555956043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21609705248504768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,sugafreedreams,2019/01/01,"If your family/friends don't know about your ED, do you think anyone has ever suspected anything? I'm 99% sure that nobody who I know in real life has any idea that I purge. I'm so fast, efficient and silent that I have no problem purging in our house's only toilet 3 meters away from my dad sitting on his computer. I don't use my fingers or any object to throw up, all I do is bend over, open the stomach port and push all the food out manually. No gagging noises, no redness, a whole meal comes out within seconds. I've even came up with ways to get rid of the sound of vomit hitting the toilet water. You wouldn't be able to tell even if you had your ear to the toilet door and were trying to figure out whether someone is throwing up in there or not.

A couple of weeks ago I went out to McDonald's to eat with my family. I had a 1500 calorie binge, went to the bathroom, hands-free blasted everything out in 30 seconds, came back to where we were sitting a minute later like nothing happened. No puffiness, redness or wet eyes. Almost immediately after I had sat down my mom pointed out that I had a tiny stain of Big Mac sauce on my right index finger and handed me a tissue to wipe it off.

I had no idea that the minuscule skin-colored stain was even there myself, but then someone else immediately notices it after I had returned from the bathroom after a big meal? The only explanation I can think of is that she was looking at my fingers on purpose to see if they were irritated and red, because that's what usually happens when you use the gag reflex to purge. That explanation is even more probable because she herself on-off struggled with bulimia in her 20's. Then her child lost a lot of weight, is underweight, but is eating a ton of food without gaining weight. Any person capable of basic logic would connect the dots from personal experience alone. The speed and lack of redness unfortunately outsmarted her again.

It feels so criminal and wrong, but yet so thrilling to be fooling everyone daily. The average person has absolutely no clue that it's even possible to throw up without sticking things down your throat, but here I am using that as a tool to maintain the illusion of normalcy. Unless I somehow get caught red-handed (no pun intended), there's no way that anyone will be able to tell that I truly have a problem. If your cat is still in the bag like mine is, do you think anyone has had any suspicions about your weight or eating habits?",8.68454167454167,6.7931834199584245,8.735570780570782,71.37438622188624,61.993762993763,11.406577206577207,38.07985257985258,10.018931242160765,3.7101634095634095,1959,78,362,32,22,644,249,481,0.128,0.828,0.044,-0.9896,0,1,0,0,0,0,47.0,2,11,1,2,23,10,0,1,26,0,39,21,8,4,4,66,65,28,0,9,17,2,9,2,0,3,2,2,1,4,19,21,11,0,11,0,0,10,14,6,0,2,19,18,45,4,67,39,7,66,0,1,7,0,30,34,0,11,20,256,64,1,0.1646026762679802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07295517047719415,0.0,0.08241290173752869,0.08523936552190536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.223870928657013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17264102767413594,0.0,0.06772698875579553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07732481637126586,0.06328464886661593,0.0,0.10034026366615548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1882616109972696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07089531534392393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09106486524879047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2526444463879848,0.06875220733390207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27179628817547113,0.07444627218272477,0.0,0.07864245553338957,0.07396713589391246,0.08050650108366124,0.07758637696120671,0.0,0.04161402943906615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1990382095152732,0.0,0.06358580968502439,0.0,0.08599810462509473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14555760301508852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09496469421744773,0.0,0.18581638599993355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09046132614500832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058131869063766474,0.08041655322220463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06911239591087613,0.0,0.0898416327067585,0.06996965455781523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09639033252526764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07897035361892768,0.09370061895514403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12518775258246506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21558706184400656,0.0,0.0,0.07780136668002713,0.09278239274278637,0.0,0.0,0.08873476249393902,0.1575025311114573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09367694085243328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07028489307955592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06558351090262117,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13946731344598562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06572595494677698,0.0,0.0,0.08603922815395583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07756803719495675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14386999421485214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05467735203548802,0.1582061228816374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055877206191258674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.213245794235665,0.0906432965091194,0.0,0.0,0.13065394279759673,0.06601716911089882,0.3006625732128471,0.0,0.15258832998406413,0.0,0.09188650487637202,0.0,0.15867110606213247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058464509269637366,0.08998359336901009,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,mxrikruz,2019/01/01,Barely ate today. :/ I feel so weak and tired. I’m craving for more food but I’m giving in. ,-3.4160000000000004,-3.2061305999999963,0.13000000000000256,101.255,130.0,1.6,9.0,3.1291,-2.1737,68,1,16,0,5,24,17,20,0.252,0.613,0.136,-0.1646,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,3,5,3,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,1,0,2,4,1,2,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,7,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2294158118792405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5486432465978652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4352521231938941,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.521487457240945,0.430076033298676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,claryberries,2019/01/01,do laxatives... hurt? i've never used lax and only ever purged.. i'm not asking if i 'should' use them i'm just curious.. do they hurt? i mean they're obviously going to make you shit but is it like overwhelming diarrhea or something i've heard mixed things ,0.7757983193277305,3.3117271960784365,2.984761904761907,86.64000000000001,90.76470588235294,6.835854341736696,19.050420168067227,7.957251820313856,1.2014067226890757,201,6,40,5,7,68,41,51,0.14,0.795,0.065,-0.4234,0,0,1,0,0,0,9.0,0,1,2,0,2,5,1,1,0,0,4,1,1,3,3,14,13,4,0,2,5,0,0,1,0,1,0,1,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,2,4,0,0,1,1,5,1,1,11,0,3,0,3,0,0,5,0,1,2,3,20,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2437090938553413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2358081922643662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14815560839923364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5581460910705552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12735951369677576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17401198125278944,0.0,0.0,0.2839668253274841,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2010594849258883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1982657879608376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26759358837207153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20069118536632394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1731902372444472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4503033196277786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,CorrithLavellan,2019/01/01,"My mom just asked me if I'm an alcoholic I told her no, but the truth is maybe. I feel bad that most of my calories in a day come from alcohol. But alcohol makes everything easier. It's easier to cope, easier to purge, easier to be pleasant.

I don't know why I'm making this post I just feel horrible because she seemed genuinely concerned amd she probably has a right to.",2.1568609022556373,4.142424723684211,4.636390977443612,81.15973684210526,78.07894736842105,10.132330827067669,25.330827067669173,10.290406445055957,3.0366300751879702,293,11,60,11,7,103,57,76,0.123,0.631,0.246,0.9022,0,0,3,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,4,0,4,3,0,2,1,14,15,3,0,1,5,1,2,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,3,1,3,0,4,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,1,2,10,2,7,13,1,5,0,0,0,0,6,2,0,3,1,35,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6407006442367985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18682228343786134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16685703437709107,0.1218198657059448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1721434143946838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12887948111940126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17960221016020828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2020889837250915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10982616748179426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2667878754043461,0.0,0.20076491508698432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2340487643653681,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19139031109876234,0.0,0.21546000489744832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17066122657591068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1819257202723026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19095451859161566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18032341639278446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,DudeWhereIsMyPie,2019/01/01,"I just had the worst binge omfg I fucking hate myself Jesus Christ i just had a 2000 cal binge and I can’t purge because my entire family’s just like wondering about the house 🤮

Why am I like this lol
Gonna fast tomorrow though so whatever 🙃",0.12932773109243811,2.5046888235294134,2.2906442577030823,91.61647058823529,92.13725490196079,6.0515406162464975,17.089635854341733,7.447530270364453,0.5035635854341738,194,5,41,4,7,65,41,51,0.158,0.682,0.161,-0.2127,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,0,6,5,2,0,3,1,4,1,0,0,0,5,8,3,0,0,3,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,2,0,7,2,1,5,1,2,2,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,4,23,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2111926551624005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3266021506458327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32028736775656264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3420475695426224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3997566915948425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3385158613996017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3403852866722237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31261716531418604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3757101588971905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Lunar_Heart,2019/01/01,"I went to a New Year's Eve Party I ate, drank, and was certainly very merry. 

I drowned my social anxiety in a couple drinks, calories be damned (pineapple juice and rum was simply too sweet to spoil with calorie counts and my assorted internal bullshit). I talked to people. I danced. I smoked under the stars with strangers and felt very much alive and entirely unashamed of that fact. 

Today, I woke up before the sun, and stumbled into the kitchen. I drank approximately a metric fuckload of orange juice straight from the jug and decimated a leftover taco bell burrito. 

I then went back to the couch and passed out to the lullaby of the original Bat Man tv show.

My stomach was full. I heard the slosh of the orange juice as I walked back to my makeshift bed. 

But I gave not one single fuck.

I kicked off 2019 with a real (albeit not the healthiest) breakfast and a hangover nap. 

Happy fucking New Year. ",4.4788403361344535,6.527145388235298,4.6245378151260494,83.53470588235297,71.58823529411767,7.4453781512605035,28.61344537815126,8.192908349453996,2.023756302521008,716,28,131,11,14,223,111,170,0.049,0.802,0.14800000000000002,0.9436,0,0,2,0,0,0,22.0,0,0,0,0,3,6,3,0,16,0,4,9,1,1,2,22,15,12,1,0,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,3,1,1,14,6,0,1,6,0,5,2,3,0,1,12,3,17,3,21,2,3,23,0,0,0,2,5,8,3,0,10,79,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1439502569237014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2893836812921101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16011961368800476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2082075701929553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18433588745041496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18067361514637587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34792201070492834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20031146864840674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13832729488395015,0.0,0.0,0.3634733400859573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12750950138860642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13045403946618508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21417972985199565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1918165802293687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15124467679913312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17836405242588424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31052147090158233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34887270012410004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2423518366990203
EDAnonymous,exqueeze,2019/01/01,"'Normal' People Fasting Makes me Mad When non-disordered people do 24+ hour fasts and feel great I get really annoyed. Whenever I do fasts, I feel like death and want to lay down and never get up, but these people can exercise??? And it's not like I'm underweight either.

Sorry for ranting ",2.4130952380952384,4.968523642857143,4.064285714285717,82.54738095238098,80.42857142857143,7.3047619047619055,21.833333333333336,8.344100000000001,1.6403547619047625,228,7,41,5,6,76,43,56,0.13699999999999998,0.705,0.159,0.3168,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,0,1,5,2,0,0,0,3,1,0,1,1,13,10,6,1,2,3,0,2,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,4,0,0,2,1,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,2,4,3,4,10,1,8,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,8,22,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2918993178484256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2575600501207371,0.1819521530539983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26613231686636746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28079904112998305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2508205055595404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2488594802958925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1700090160634936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19643431996114435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2495442721606836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5297144921655697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.163162340140215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2851070572993973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15022405385329418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Grumblepuffs,2019/01/01,"Went for lunch with my girlfriend's family and holy shit I get it now! OK, so I don't have an ED but my girlfriend does and I lurk this sub and EDmemes because of her. Today, I went for lunch with her extended family. The moment we sat down, her great aunt who I had only met once before looked me dead in the eye and said ""nice to see you, you used to be skinny but now you have padding"" and pointed at my belly. When I went to put sugar in my coffee, she told me to use honey instead ""because its healthier"" and then shamed me when I put the honey in! To cap it all off, she told me in one sentence that I ""ate too quickly"" but also that ""I didn't eat enough.""

I don't have an ED and I am usually pretty confident in my body. I am a 6 foot tall \~170 pound guy but I left this lunch feeling ugly, fat, and disgusting. I went home and immediately went for a run. My girlfriend told me that this is pretty standard for her extended family. Anyway, I know its not really comparable at all but I feel like I got a little taste of the shit she put up with. ",2.242114467408584,3.3340421621621634,4.279517753047166,87.63975357710653,75.57657657657657,7.38569157392687,22.51828298887123,7.928766900206844,0.915192050874404,808,21,181,12,17,278,122,222,0.121,0.75,0.129,-0.2999,0,0,0,0,0,0,30.0,1,3,0,0,10,8,3,1,9,1,11,14,7,2,2,27,32,19,1,0,6,1,2,1,5,0,1,1,1,1,11,13,9,0,3,0,0,9,4,4,0,1,15,10,39,4,24,16,3,32,0,0,3,0,24,14,2,0,10,124,50,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0886895598973272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1352115967287221,0.0,0.09437078563599496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12318888573561755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09705247792752636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1134820584566781,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1145930536314005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3136501000702395,0.0,0.11215237355749648,0.07922954600038651,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05794254777269853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0886997312013356,0.12227159817927492,0.0,0.10981198915227794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11124534209523572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06094971202666821,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12049707373388725,0.0,0.0,0.05418189153245203,0.11115453139869674,0.0,0.0,0.09313108281186568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1181087025735208,0.07515114198029217,0.08434717679172632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10483973862659396,0.0,0.0,0.2256576407448845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3344662155710897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07104767883583889,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10549470961786328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08837580153987575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22768188035759196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10512363456889526,0.317919395310212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1915701851599724,0.12214463472540148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5140436895790587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,zombeezinthetrap,2019/01/01,"I miss the feeling of exhaustion I got from over exercising?¿ Today I rode my bike to my favorite coffee shop after bringing in the New Year with a binge episode. It’s been awhile since I have ridden but it was so much less stress on my body. Plus, it was actually enjoyable because I didn’t feel like death the whole time!!


But the disordered part of my brain is unhappy because I’m not tired nor as sore as I used to be from biking. (Context: I was riding 10+ miles three times a week on 500 cals a day before I entered treatment) I miss that feeling of accomplishment I got from being able to do that when my heart felt like it was beating out of my chest. 


I don’t know what I want or what I’m going to do. I want to take care of my heart and get better at cycling. But I also want to stop gaining and losing the same 5 pounds and finally get below 110. 


Why am I like this 🙃",2.5914131274131265,3.699715805405408,4.170057915057917,88.70141891891895,74.72972972972974,7.015444015444014,24.56563706563707,7.447530270364453,0.9567528957528956,684,21,152,8,14,229,118,185,0.13699999999999998,0.662,0.202,0.8834,0,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,0,5,3,11,0,1,8,0,14,8,5,1,0,22,35,14,1,3,5,0,4,3,0,0,3,0,0,0,9,6,0,1,5,3,1,6,4,5,0,1,9,4,22,6,26,24,5,25,0,3,0,0,0,8,0,1,14,97,31,1,0.14818334580272885,0.0,0.14460556979884873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.118502168101274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1806623844265076,0.0,0.12609311305899254,0.0,0.0,0.1310561273706467,0.0,0.16459829164278808,0.0,0.16542162109066288,0.0,0.0,0.15108279694817706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09556599914042528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1698309522929433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22477785614766335,0.10586221184990198,0.14227925022239518,0.1623276121821693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1548393642797487,0.0,0.08421601030623489,0.0,0.23703151688940244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3511959565024524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08143769152389428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21718469318789985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1657792601213549,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1089318093593002,0.0,0.0,0.1431163987651492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16046812314272313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12257879493246078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12388791230207763,0.16974352195776155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11141543439872607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17281380119294304,0.1703149573494631,0.1404604851971483,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12798283310515887,0.0,0.0,0.26220712995765866,0.0,0.11886374172131907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13371242114193466,0.16544141365638615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09542521631512456
EDAnonymous,flightless_bird666,2019/01/01,"um exercise routine?:) hi guys:"") can we share our current exercise routine here so we help each other?  kind of, motivation?
I'm bored lol 
so here is mine (i only workout home) :

10 minutes (jumping jacks, high knee and jump rope)
10 minutes of abs workouts ( leg raises, crunches, burpees, etc)
and i repeat this 3 times during the day so its 1 hour. 

if you share yours please be real 😂💔


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EDAnonymous,wordsmithem,2019/01/01,If I haven’t lost weight I’m gonna riot I got extremely drunk last night and woke up to the worst hangover of my life. I’ve been throwing up from 11:30 last night to around 2:00 this afternoon,1.5010975609756088,3.5413370975609766,2.222134146341464,97.38734756097564,80.46341463414635,6.051219512195122,20.006097560975608,7.1686216300943375,0.17684878048780428,155,4,36,2,4,48,34,41,0.29100000000000004,0.7090000000000001,0.0,-0.9134,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,1,0,2,3,0,0,0,3,7,2,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,2,2,0,0,1,0,1,1,2,0,0,4,1,3,0,7,2,1,9,0,1,0,0,0,3,0,1,5,17,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2710594645880733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2435273986265888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4963977982959884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21506934682008352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3323853434386801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5714839654514309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37078516067897055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,qyubot,2019/01/01,"SO trying to gain weight while I'm trying to lose weight. How do I deal with this? So basically some backstory here:
 I've been with my SO for a couple years and he was my best friend before we got together. He knows about my ED and is mostly supportive. We also kind of live together. 

So recently SO is bulking up and is planning to put on muscle weight of 30kg... (He's 65kg now and his goal is 95kg.) While at the same time I'll be trying to get from my current weight of 48kg to UGW of 35kg.... Tbh I'm not that triggered about him putting on weight (Men's weight gain is something that I'm super okay with cause I'm really into muscular and thick guys) but what worries me is that I'd get jealous and resentful when I see him eating his heart out when I have to starve. It fucking sucks. I also help out with his meal preps since I'm not working atm so it's kind of stressful having to handle all this food you can't even eat. Like here I am eating a couple spoons of oats and pumpkin juice (mostly liquid diet basically) and ur just. Enjoying your time. Eating all the things. No restrictions, no suffering. Just kill me already. What can I do to cope because I really want him to keep putting on weight but it affects my self control-- ",1.7561900129701689,3.697251653696501,3.37068579766537,89.96915450713362,79.1556420233463,6.462321660181582,21.992380025940342,7.492282038375204,0.786522827496758,973,29,208,14,24,322,146,257,0.161,0.746,0.093,-0.9754,1,0,1,0,0,1,31.0,2,2,0,9,19,17,5,1,4,1,16,17,2,5,2,38,31,23,1,1,6,0,8,1,1,0,0,0,0,3,11,17,14,3,1,0,1,3,5,8,0,0,3,9,24,9,31,27,7,22,0,2,1,1,20,9,2,3,11,126,35,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09130201980546497,0.13232903845386942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05043553210670337,0.0,0.07040284863181394,0.0,0.08682707549328689,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08499339478424561,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09279625850023313,0.0,0.18309319777469,0.0,0.0,0.0852979178016365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.338641249200529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05464681840727717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10004556136974062,0.0,0.06392217896835138,0.07648875765795837,0.08645303507205318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06617210726142722,0.0,0.0,0.08192235338663352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09804340287078014,0.05545667448487107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0735401917397298,0.09153591410095477,0.17231510874623948,0.04546993352919045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04042097861575532,0.0,0.07305803309079563,0.0,0.0,0.09256121824161356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24951974478768804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10600651345671208,0.0,0.08169252232614545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06593044803638826,0.0,0.08631243551704175,0.0,0.0,0.06844066369479443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06369476356023597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09477462482056637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09388864105881058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05496659552880042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09648888501295888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16851839075898392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.048800256764630914,0.0,0.0,0.7052571863879329,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060233312210235736,0.08402314784778282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05327973032713301
EDAnonymous,dostoyefski,2019/01/01,Anyone else already binged in 2019? Why am I like this!!!!!,-0.2681818181818194,1.804562636363638,0.5004545454545449,101.2706818181818,104.45454545454544,2.2,14.590909090909092,3.1291,-1.451763636363636,43,1,9,0,2,13,11,11,0.0,0.71,0.29,0.5673,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,4,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5197866390639493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3293508960996837,0.4826196974763424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3934800678490903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23011850851848986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.42502584973091206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,wisver,2019/01/01,"My thoughts on meanspo (TW?) I absolutely adore receiving meanspo. It gives me genuine *inspiration* (haha) to achieve my body goals. After crying for a bit depending on the level of meanness, it actually improves my self confidence.

I feel more in control and happy about what I have accomplished, but still aware of what I need to do. Meanspo improves my mental state significantly.

In a less tangible way, I just generally feel good being “told the truth” I guess? I am very insecure about people lying just to appease me, and insults and criticisms in general —but especially meanspo— relieve those anxieties.

I honestly think the “tough love” style of motivation is what works best for me, but it’s so difficult to get it. Asking for criticism is awkward to do, and asking for harsh criticism is impossible. Maybe I’m just not a social butterfly, but I couldn’t even dream of being able to ask friends to give me the insults and criticism I desperately want.

All this being said, the goals that meanspo helps me work towards are probably not the healthiest for me physically. I just really feel like expressing how amazing it makes me FEEL to receive it. I have been having strong desires about wanting meanspo and it feels good to be able to express this somewhere. I would die of embarrassment before being able to tell someone I know about these feelings.

I’m really conflicted about wanting this so much as it concretely helps me, but at the same time it supports goals that are probably not healthy to have. ",6.80098854146436,8.464807785977866,7.171893571567296,69.04793163721114,65.23616236162361,10.723713342396582,37.51039036706156,10.771109862388434,4.623822140221402,1214,63,193,34,19,395,152,271,0.175,0.5920000000000001,0.233,0.9668,0,0,0,0,0,0,31.0,0,0,0,11,14,23,2,3,10,1,20,2,1,5,2,47,48,14,1,7,11,0,6,1,1,1,0,1,0,1,19,6,0,2,12,1,0,2,4,7,0,0,4,7,26,16,36,37,7,15,0,0,0,1,20,8,0,2,4,139,45,8,0.3429304274831735,0.0,0.111550209638232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08744694612759032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3205936574918738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0972695119229072,0.0,0.11996144217251155,0.0,0.12479706953653565,0.1269727989342914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12820854479616586,0.0,0.0,0.12556432393931505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11863588066515153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07550077103291547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34679185608387025,0.0816631886382395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08831573253259797,0.0,0.059722331476176824,0.2193134094673306,0.0,0.19175584823263733,0.0,0.0,0.1259255093969893,0.0,0.0,0.12168527227374205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15323935791920146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06282186484642861,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05584616159443444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10316936656712186,0.0,0.07630290774780961,0.0,0.11483990246304455,0.12451725634296835,0.0,0.0,0.11519773760189732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08403110742694643,0.0847595222410348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07924825981639311,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24649133476722884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1464600087207836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10873512227140417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11925040873738488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1165247948573436,0.0968546127850644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09128822745645143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12971779506616007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09991210296357828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07324532366915139,0.0,0.09074948457372474,0.06665516334629462,0.0,0.0,0.10922823980692853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09431783908445338,0.20226925115057934,0.09073407041287944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16643829032628624,0.0,0.0,0.08120264550980386,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,bumblebatty00,2019/01/01,"Just another rant about our other sub being banned without mediation input I found out almost immediately.

I was posting a reply to someone asking for advice about being in an abusive relationship. I escaped my own abusive relationship in 2017, which started my recovery from AN B/P. And this post rang true and I felt like I could help someone struggling.

Tried to post. Error. Error. Error. Try again. Error. Wtf. Copy my reply, exit and try to find it again to reply. Isn't loading. Am I banned?? Go on desktop not logged in.

Oh.

I don't know what the username was.

I hope she's okay.

Fuck heartless admins.",0.9511722488038288,3.1950597631578965,2.9923125996810214,82.8386124401914,104.87719298245615,4.1779904306220095,21.84848484848485,6.11248444174946,0.9054350877192996,479,19,79,6,22,160,81,114,0.301,0.606,0.093,-0.9826,0,0,0,0,0,0,23.0,1,0,0,0,5,7,2,1,4,1,8,1,0,0,1,17,16,3,0,2,3,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,5,4,0,2,4,0,0,1,4,3,0,0,4,2,13,4,14,9,1,13,0,0,0,1,6,6,1,2,4,52,18,0,0.0,0.38088642166741,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15706716061770035,0.0,0.0,0.1609516330725351,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16854335191683156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15026435915242015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12833282066138388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15432960679156388,0.0,0.14690773591822032,0.0,0.0,0.1762362609819779,0.0,0.14859576220556667,0.0,0.0,0.09134869445685168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1077364447637621,0.0,0.0,0.1596448815197179,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08833506566312366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07852639146477404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4618155058810752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3451357899820475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2723783702078835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11376817581747165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1680338149454279,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3273829970211485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1549415995778252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,polyloneials,2019/01/01,"Disappointed in myself for being terribly out of shape One of my New Years resolutions was to run everyday as it really helps my mental and physical health. 

I just ran for a measly 15 minutes and feel like I’m actually dying. I have a headache, my TMJ hurts so bad (I clench when I run sometimes without noticing), and my neck/back is terribly uncomfortable. 

Less than two months ago I could’ve done that run and felt as if I had done nothing at all. I worked so hard to get in the best shape of my life and let it all go. 

Eating under 200 calories probably didn’t help.",5.304962406015036,5.5923713508771975,6.287744360902256,78.98921052631579,67.94736842105263,10.023057644110276,30.32080200501253,9.957137785484203,2.72674335839599,450,16,92,10,7,150,84,114,0.17800000000000002,0.7240000000000001,0.098,-0.8769,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,2,4,7,0,0,3,0,9,3,0,0,2,13,15,11,1,1,3,0,3,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,3,6,1,0,2,0,0,5,2,5,0,2,7,3,13,2,16,6,4,18,0,2,0,0,2,7,0,1,7,60,16,1,0.0,0.0,0.17623314681502442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16008518844053407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13886520822224904,0.15078797925675466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18952167386411167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14418916705689525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18742747900337106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3696195802585508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18479217462783296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09131346964099436,0.1290159898339927,0.1733980235204923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09435261883693796,0.0,0.10263541389947528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16177625034134466,0.0,0.0,0.1919623821080133,0.0,0.0,0.2420959525723643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19332901296262028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18466902828581372,0.12755848766582742,0.08822883280314676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1819957117910765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14414796108486544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17441826998988055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17328427659905948,0.20560682874585226,0.0,0.0,0.12237478894167865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19471027320138734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11569278221496627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17861153021817686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17641354991907213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1740856319564409,0.0,0.13147417539527878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11629625456413573
EDAnonymous,Arceliaz,2019/01/01,"Embracing my ED? So I posted a short while ago about throwing out my scales and body tape. After an exhausted meltdown I bought a new one this afternoon and I’m going back to daily weigh ins from tomorrow. 


Without calorie tracking or weighing I *think* I gained weight, but what was worse was the feeling of having no idea what I was consuming or how much weight I’ve gained and I felt even worse than when I was heavily restricting. 


Right now it feels like I’m going to be obsessed with food and my weight regardless, so why not just embrace my disordered behaviours and then at least i’ll look better while I’m at it... 


If anyone has truly recovered from their ED I would love to hear about it because right now, recovery just seems like gaining weight and pretending to be happy about that while still hurting as much inside as ever. ",4.930354166666668,6.565276993750004,5.0975,82.26416666666668,69.6875,8.583333333333334,28.958333333333336,9.075114841892004,2.439270833333334,669,25,123,13,12,210,106,160,0.129,0.672,0.199,0.9326,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,1,4,15,8,0,1,4,0,9,10,1,1,1,27,23,20,0,3,8,0,7,2,0,1,1,1,0,0,7,8,7,1,6,1,1,3,3,3,0,1,6,9,13,5,20,14,3,26,0,1,1,1,3,7,0,4,17,85,20,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1156773064801947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09124621297659152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10034378200409334,0.0,0.07954947782653596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11541358242776815,0.0,0.14495223444424446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1495603372730061,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08619173205079872,0.11804158892728632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13196594033875905,0.09322675222021727,0.12529714026161082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1577969307231271,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14832837872170146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13891599037808994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14707908157665994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13969924202136855,0.14731470635844618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12750803284153495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10958422482011927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11777821971019704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.191859939870486,0.0,0.0,0.12603436876272606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08842783085528333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12497961002284895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22288665942417515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11879914632159935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1042147031437408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08361691179171178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.63563850514728,0.0,0.0,0.11775282734729695,0.0,0.0,0.12579400504066024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2659742399904267,0.0927009958685814,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,small_moon_child,2019/01/01,"VANITY SIZING seriously why the actual FUCK do brands think its okay to have “vanity sizing”. my disordered ass brain cannot deal with the fact that i’m different sizes at different stores. am i a 4? maybe. a 2? sometimes. 0? sURE. 6? fuck it why not. all the numbers. all the sizes. 


 i’m never wearing clothes again ",-0.04833333333333202,1.89815147540984,2.2547950819672127,87.95082650273226,108.01639344262293,6.6234972677595625,18.19808743169399,7.492282038375204,1.3232939890710385,244,8,48,7,12,82,46,61,0.265,0.675,0.06,-0.9352,2,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,0,1,5,2,0,6,1,4,5,3,0,5,8,9,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,3,3,0,0,0,0,2,2,3,9,2,3,0,0,0,3,1,1,3,0,2,23,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.22099947411923312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.252812469947327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2334779030276629,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.473220378164722,0.2595512136781321,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41873084838252855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22751690144326225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1746655885658095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22398200885148925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21344280576938648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1451111393252603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4087031335885963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,InTheGecko,2019/01/01,I haven't eaten yet this year. It's been 16.25 hours now. I try this shit every damn year. Anyone else in the same boat? ,-1.3326923076923087,0.6790815000000023,0.10653846153846304,105.87596153846157,99.3846153846154,2.6,6.5,3.1291,-2.680892307692308,93,0,23,0,4,29,23,26,0.258,0.742,0.0,-0.7876,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,2,2,2,0,1,0,2,2,1,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,2,0,2,0,1,1,1,6,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,5,12,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2626042071510097,0.3848113501803732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3137368759912572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31643022480280186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3698564743465558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3855127020879026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2549843967107123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4837038794348631
EDAnonymous,ThisIsNotGumpy,2019/01/01,"ED Wars: Return of the Boobs Hi! I have finally chosen  recovery and I’m about 7 months into it.

I was wondering if anyone got far enough in recovery to see the Return of the Boobs ™️? I miss them and my butt so much. It would make sticking to recovery 10x easier if I could see them again. 

I am kind of aiming this specifically at the other “older” ladies because I understand that teens probably bounce back faster.

Also, will we ever see the restart of the adult ED subreddit again? 

Thanks!",1.9208238636363648,4.512136177083335,3.669886363636365,84.2955681818182,83.0625,7.657575757575756,21.227272727272727,8.575989854853784,1.70045,387,12,74,10,11,129,69,96,0.055,0.875,0.07,0.3493,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,1,0,2,0,7,4,1,0,6,0,6,3,3,1,1,12,16,6,1,4,2,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,5,4,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,2,3,10,2,10,11,2,14,0,1,3,3,5,4,3,3,10,49,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1803977433136768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15773209149482484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1734585369374925,0.0,0.13751261674958135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18010877080093193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23308637790580336,0.0,0.0,0.2040517200385047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24711391685369705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18041843211055208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2349088085266251,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15057765271416895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18005729982621566,0.0,0.16582863333520856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2432154140593497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.539278642710169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20768548190164254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23483868663566024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2446339199136684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16024689118610974,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,lilllyyy,2019/01/01,"rant/freaking out about ""recovery"" weight gain okay so i tried to stop restricting and try self ""recovery"" back in early November and have been gaining weight ever since. i was 119lbs back then and this morning i am now 137 FREAKING POUNDS and feel so disgusting. my clothes fit tighter than i'd like. i'm so aware of all the fat jiggling around whenever i walk. my body image is worse than ever & i feel so uncomfortable in my body. i don't want anyone to even look at me. i'm trying not to relapse and start the new year with going back to old habits but it's so hard not too. i can't stand being like this.

also how TF is it possible to gain nearly 20 pounds in like 8 weeks?????? i know i have been eating more but oh my god? like? is this really all fat or could some of it be water weight?? SOS. also idk if this is TMI but i haven't gotten my period back yet. i haven't had a period since june. i thought once i started eating ""normally"" it would come back but it hasn't but yet i am still gaining weight and looking worse than ever??? ok.

basically starting the new year with a breakdown. any advice/encouragement would be appreciated :(",1.4366086956521755,3.7867833565217417,3.0301739130434804,89.72395652173915,82.82608695652175,6.288695652173913,20.50434782608696,7.554174236665415,0.7327182608695648,892,26,187,15,25,293,132,230,0.116,0.7290000000000001,0.155,0.9133,0,0,0,0,0,0,38.0,0,0,0,4,24,8,1,0,5,2,23,11,4,1,5,38,38,22,0,6,9,0,7,4,0,2,2,0,0,1,9,11,9,2,4,0,0,3,7,2,0,0,6,9,20,6,20,26,4,39,0,0,2,0,1,8,0,3,31,119,29,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1573975156580269,0.0,0.10662762254750698,0.0,0.06692244366329808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06881083677876529,0.0,0.0,0.0876061163243931,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37835759863365664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.218623529014164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08477184198158058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07857269318218355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.201396805819288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06499913818174692,0.2670535108410049,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.099518505862114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05592889570384855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08815638471105745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05408377978296209,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1923133936110025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16527989407207996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19009074666302087,0.0,0.0,0.0964212932100236,0.0,0.0,0.1032651558011988,0.10480385957595233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11094293463691507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06304421938149356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10266350514979328,0.0,0.0,0.16281219241689676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20896615362307086,0.0,0.07859066907040968,0.08227549727082542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07812686158076801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2004425964101538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05804500106682463,0.0,0.07893888334922307,0.4793493998398452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2005772011604756,0.1398158430438836,0.0,0.0,0.12674613654574096
EDAnonymous,skelekey,2019/01/01,"I can’t let go of my ED for 2019 I want 2019 to be MY year. I want to look good, I want to be successful, I want to feel confident.

But I can’t let go of my ED, no matter how hard I try. It breaks my heart. I treated myself to some pizza and soda last night at a party, and immediately when I woke up I just went right back to usual and took a large dose of laxatives. 

I keep telling myself that I want to be happy this year, but the fucked up part of my brain would rather be thin and miserable than fat and happy. I keep looking at my bathing suit in my closet, and I keep thinking that this will be the last year I’m too fat to wear it. I thought these thoughts would change, even just a little. But it’s gotten so much worse. ",2.356329331046311,2.8242062452830226,3.85104631217839,93.19759862778734,74.59748427672956,7.039679817038309,22.001715265866213,6.980632752743323,0.2704792452830187,559,12,139,5,11,186,88,159,0.111,0.7490000000000001,0.14,-0.5052,0,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,0,1,9,7,1,1,5,0,12,9,5,1,0,29,34,12,0,8,6,0,3,0,0,3,3,0,2,0,8,6,4,3,4,1,0,4,3,2,0,0,6,5,24,5,19,18,3,22,0,1,2,1,1,8,1,1,9,90,32,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10159287727850358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1474907072595722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1397664768473359,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08726466036830516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06680433662163028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12214371583847737,0.0,0.0,0.15017479384799845,0.11081680849565224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28129047721018463,0.11835444570968805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1565639958964601,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35230558938082474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2153924631842156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.270205304380558,0.0,0.0,0.1324199300832678,0.0,0.0,0.2218966931773844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09712412137868312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12398658838880434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1430741448360299,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11283059391249645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11547955885111065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08465778833925455,0.0,0.20977859806153126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14679126869625705,0.08970147188805505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14551259212607853,0.0,0.3896418818670424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12247747091775706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13464256470564562,0.18770990506392665,0.0,0.0,0.25524473557785377
EDAnonymous,RoughPotential,2019/01/01,"I’m a psycho and drunkenly stole some pens from a NYE party Pro Tip: EAT before going out at New Years

I don’t know the host but was one of the few outsiders at the party so if they notice the 4 missing sharpies (was in a cup on a table where people were signing things) it’s reasonable to assume it’s me. I am thinking about discretely driving by this morning and leaving them in their mailbox. What would you do?

Ugh, drunken me is an idiot. ",2.321126373626374,4.148314230769234,3.8880082417582433,87.44761675824181,77.02197802197801,5.868681318681317,25.660714285714285,6.6274283507984215,1.0382186813186816,349,13,69,3,8,116,74,91,0.12,0.821,0.059,-0.7615,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,1,3,0,3,3,1,0,9,0,8,1,0,1,0,12,13,5,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,5,3,1,0,4,0,0,2,1,3,0,1,3,0,8,0,11,9,2,11,0,1,0,0,4,7,0,3,2,50,13,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2758667037159886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3317331861377255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18424791489146192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17816950485174832,0.0,0.0,0.3432764873509717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3131102739653475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3690990082718694,0.0,0.0,0.2196834293460407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22475651186677809,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3333272240479015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21538124973210307,0.20773154510360944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2302993580101639,0.0,0.0,0.20877143277383145
EDAnonymous,thebluestbanana,2019/01/01,"Starting the year... at a new record weight. The holidays have not been kind to me. I'm now officially at a BMI that's out of the ""normal"" range. Guess it's time to restrict :(",0.4708333333333314,2.6345033055555582,2.342222222222226,94.30000000000004,85.3888888888889,5.822222222222222,20.11111111111111,7.1686216300943375,0.3300777777777779,133,4,31,2,4,44,30,36,0.213,0.72,0.067,-0.6884,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,5,0,2,1,0,0,0,5,5,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,1,1,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,1,1,6,4,0,8,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,1,5,18,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4184897373727087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39559515455810695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3668984399757615,0.0,0.0,0.3722098279924862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26888685927798434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2215158940940743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4626015471345663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2446355784693943
EDAnonymous,UnderwearFighter,2019/01/01,"i'm so sad, and i'm so tired, and i want to cry i don't even know if this is the right place to post this but this is a cry for help in its most unadulterated form because i've broken down too many times today and i keep binging and i dont know what emotional void i keep trying to fill and i dont know how to fix this i dont have friends i can talk about this with and i'm embarking on a fast hoping i can fix my emotional dependence on food once and for all but knowing me im probably going to fuck it up soon enough and im so full, and so sad, and so tired

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im so tired",1.1944444444444464,1.8248212222222229,3.397962962962964,94.74583333333337,77.51851851851852,7.177777777777778,21.64814814814815,7.554174236665415,0.3923481481481477,455,11,120,6,10,157,74,135,0.279,0.664,0.058,-0.9868,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,0,11,5,1,0,3,0,9,5,0,2,1,26,22,20,0,3,3,0,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,0,8,11,1,2,4,0,0,2,4,3,0,0,0,0,11,2,14,22,5,15,0,2,0,1,3,8,1,4,4,73,19,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12763541676488438,0.14313895852764474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07180931739029234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25879384601797845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41417946160658775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2650165573870512,0.0,0.12171809457216524,0.0,0.07780528059217756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14244329681484266,0.0,0.09101139308109593,0.10890349017889048,0.0,0.0,0.06694801723802819,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07895834093846997,0.0,0.0,0.11700121543601752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3817301493731817,0.0,0.0,0.20941073679598726,0.0,0.0,0.2589575049276944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11942993015789448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12545233567019873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12307512332798776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11281909986908753,0.0,0.1270074941138256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10059989899338824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0946825591231302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06868967847778573,0.40617865863262337,0.11165989637892286,0.0,0.0,0.07997794479833144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06948103807699066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14313895852764474,0.0
EDAnonymous,amyvas,2019/01/01,"how do you folks feel about having your food ""planned"" for you? not forcefully, I mean.

it makes me so happy when I know what my family is fixing for a day. It helps me focus on not eating mindlessly.

or, another example, when you know you're going out to eat somewhere.

pardon my question being vague, I'm just curious in general. ",2.1286160714285742,4.6662365937500025,4.200714285714287,81.23000000000002,81.5,8.032142857142857,23.205357142857146,8.841846274778883,2.1925919642857146,258,9,47,7,7,88,52,64,0.021,0.802,0.177,0.8895,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,4,0,1,6,1,0,0,1,0,4,3,0,2,0,13,11,5,0,0,4,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,3,0,5,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,1,10,1,7,10,0,7,0,0,0,0,6,3,0,2,3,33,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27718700368971816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1704795630751165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5409783885524106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24919934189431844,0.0,0.1336599175776849,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3196449735488339,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15023239196024107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2813983634943205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17718374514698235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2905523343807491,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17645120867042666,0.0,0.0,0.287947353915524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2961249992790265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,shi7863,2019/01/01,"New year “ABC” variation After hitting tons of plateaus last year I have decided to each day consume as many calories as the first number of the date in hundredths. (Jan 1= 100 calories Jan 2= 200 calories, Jan 15= 150 calories Jan 20= 200 calories etc). ",4.587765957446809,6.826875382978728,4.30739361702128,85.10875000000001,71.7659574468085,6.402127659574468,35.15425531914894,7.1686216300943375,2.5134297872340428,201,11,35,2,4,61,35,47,0.0,0.972,0.028,0.0772,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,7,1,3,9,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,8,15,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2497667178675438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4319250318431226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3294243336742789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3156888794902358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3926460965616929,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3740421647250183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4987975492373006
EDAnonymous,Exoarmyl,2019/01/01,I haven’t eaten since last year! Now if only I could keep it like that 🙃,-1.6647058823529406,0.08726047058823383,0.9132352941176478,103.65455882352943,91.35294117647058,3.4000000000000004,8.5,3.1291,-2.339094117647059,56,0,15,0,2,19,16,17,0.0,0.8109999999999999,0.189,0.4199,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,3,4,1,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,2,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,4,8,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3988086086870545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.443976884505506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4071576394170877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2440295534991307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3798908326976548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4131900110927771,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32166041613887353
EDAnonymous,girlinamber,2019/01/01,"starting the new year off right! just kidding lol

i woke up, had a waffle, then glanced down my shirt while aimlessly standing in the middle of my room for the past 15 minutes. you know how that ed brain be

i have that stupid little fucking weird roll thing under my titties and i dont know if it's from my bad posture or because i gained a gorillion pounds again and look like a twined christmas ham, but im literally so close to just killing myself because *how could i let it get this bad again *",2.730055555555559,4.761752250000004,3.139333333333333,92.34522222222223,76.5,5.644444444444447,26.11111111111111,6.42735559955562,0.8273777777777775,395,15,82,3,9,122,79,100,0.16399999999999998,0.772,0.064,-0.9231,0,0,1,0,0,1,7.0,0,1,0,1,7,7,3,0,6,1,6,3,2,2,0,13,13,10,1,2,5,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,6,3,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,6,0,0,2,2,11,1,9,8,0,19,0,0,2,1,2,10,1,2,9,52,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3812707988755326,0.27836020033562703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25487760350784405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1822927768644311,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2675861622085681,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2110756545608317,0.11928636001780787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24662185148885346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2525992521813801,0.0,0.2509544219669461,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2334698969014353,0.0,0.11154429461990646,0.2288339046127201,0.0,0.0,0.1917290195233523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22051026038453647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21795468692427816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1949817172425108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16160415224792338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1516838615957685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1470288483951352
EDAnonymous,eightstone,2019/01/01,I reached my goal weight in early December and haven't stopped binging since. Someone please reassure me that I can't have ruined a whole 6 months progress in one month.,6.881875000000001,7.7068484375,5.400000000000002,84.845,64.625,8.9,37.875,8.841846274778883,3.189887500000001,138,7,26,2,2,40,28,32,0.0,0.604,0.396,0.8784,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,2,0,2,0,0,1,0,3,1,0,0,0,2,3,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,1,0,1,4,1,2,3,1,6,0,1,0,0,1,2,0,0,4,14,5,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5308581625393346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2253367134359667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3650274454296017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2750793075725234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28175881651938445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2780171003593083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40494234195806106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3712673920272526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,paavanilla,2019/01/01,I like to convince myself I'm recovering when all I'm doing is just binging I hope you're all having a better 2019 than I am ,2.3914285714285732,3.0852867142857145,5.462857142857144,80.83214285714288,74.71428571428571,7.028571428571429,24.714285714285715,7.1686216300943375,1.0940142857142852,100,3,21,1,2,37,22,28,0.0,0.623,0.377,0.8519,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,1,2,4,0,0,1,0,4,0,0,0,2,4,7,1,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,4,2,7,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,15,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.624228736974036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7010253846898971,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3448215392868923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,MythicalDisneyBitch,2019/01/01,"About last night. Currently trying to wrap my head around recovery, it's not going well. 

Last night I went to see a few friends and one of them pulled me aside to ""talk"". 

Told me I had lost a lot of weight and she was worried for me, I'm too skinny, people are concerned, etc. 

It's nice to know people care about me but all I could do was laugh. Now it's the morning after the night before, a new year, and yet the battle continues.

Good luck for 2019, guys. ",0.7717894736842119,2.871140757894743,2.0265789473684244,97.45355263157896,83.52631578947368,5.063157894736842,16.868421052631582,6.2581,-0.5079684210526314,352,7,81,3,10,112,68,95,0.079,0.736,0.185,0.9143,1,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,1,1,7,9,1,0,6,0,6,3,2,0,1,11,14,4,0,1,2,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,3,4,2,0,1,0,0,3,1,2,1,1,6,2,10,7,12,7,4,16,0,1,1,0,6,1,0,2,12,51,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15871172511475753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15170766798691615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1817737562496805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14234631330626207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19883524891237275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13774278871364792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10132365060051816,0.14953725984192726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1765304874705039,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18297216398885052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0979809441420302,0.29065264712468664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19461947709585808,0.1515717955289945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17218906394347233,0.0,0.5019260598595419,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12081074052259645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2472011723117301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1420703098711435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14329897933266267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1703592545273409,0.0,0.12104402294218468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21710347796835908,0.1602999054343589,0.16527226909020107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1810573870891192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11480989471281942
EDAnonymous,taikutsuu,2019/01/01,"to linear weight loss in 2019 this time last year i weighed a whopping 152 pounds. my ed developed, i slowly but surely lost a few pounds, then very quickly got down to 120, legit within a month or two.

BUT THEN THE FIRE NATION ATTACKED and festival season hit and i ate and drank like a whale out of a sudden, i got together with my boyfriend and have been eating fries for the past two months, and now i'm back at 132lbs.

legit can't wait to get this shit over with. to the continuation of shitty ed's in the new year.",4.270485175202154,4.877198339622645,4.787412398921834,87.71028301886793,70.32075471698113,7.566576819407007,23.633423180592988,7.447530270364453,0.7735838274932614,408,9,88,4,7,130,75,106,0.204,0.7020000000000001,0.094,-0.9357,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,2,3,7,2,0,9,0,3,6,1,0,1,13,12,10,0,0,3,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,8,5,1,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,2,6,2,6,3,16,5,1,24,0,2,0,0,0,8,1,1,17,52,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2415995420930871,0.0,0.16329807502796942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2173057368600312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11095364510065292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33970057840202417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.173108467619696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1037523994898676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2318250308902762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33902062101389235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20510657855689385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2027295239573921,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2179929561273852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2001545617220979,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12383363400675228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4149058425711479,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17522604670267056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25860731534907805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2735163796088029
EDAnonymous,grape_fruits,2019/01/01,"sushi calorie estimate help? hi i’d really appreciate if someone could help me guesstimate how many calories i just ate. i looked it up but i kinda don’t trust what i found and the calorie counts vary :(

i ate one piece of the following, all nigiri sushi (fish on top of rice)

tuna
surf clam
masago (smol roe)
octopus
mentaiko (cod? roe)

also each piece is a lil bigger (i think) than what websites like calorieking etc. base their servings off of since i’m in japan rn and not the us... i’m guessing each is anywhere from 50-100 cal each? am i wildly off?? 🆘 also im on mobile sorry",1.025012315270935,3.4887725603448274,2.798325123152712,89.75775862068967,86.32758620689656,5.383251231527094,21.216748768472904,6.868970318607317,0.6513197044334977,451,15,90,6,14,149,87,116,0.046,0.816,0.139,0.8702,0,0,0,0,0,0,22.0,1,0,1,1,4,2,0,0,4,0,5,2,0,1,1,16,14,7,0,2,4,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,5,2,0,2,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,3,1,10,2,11,10,7,9,0,0,1,0,5,8,0,3,1,50,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3859517246541199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19266674138789835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26912491508351016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26458442932051995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2658306423487725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32349058696560423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2606566716395161,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11789208620598035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2026399841861683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24465089912505356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16351819137786985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.154589639474524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1996144799214788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2044615428151754,0.0,0.0,0.27012726810414944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1546219787654858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2902667334734316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,shostakovichbanana,2019/01/01,Binge free 2019! Speaking it into existence ✨ ,2.3537500000000016,3.9966868750000017,3.6700000000000017,75.87500000000001,117.75,6.6000000000000005,29.0,7.1686216300943375,3.4113,37,2,5,1,2,12,8,8,0.0,0.626,0.374,0.5562,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,2,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,quincess912,2019/01/01,"I want to recover so I can enjoy life. I’ve been flirting with recovery on and off, noncommittal as fuck, for about 15 years. I am ready to get better. I want a normal sex life with the person I intend to spend the rest of my life with after a ten year, torturously abusive marriage. I want to enjoy my life, my kids, and my boyfriend. I want to live. 

Idk what I’m going to do or how I’m going to do it but here I go.",0.08467643467643171,1.8201531208791228,3.0060805860805893,91.51947496947498,83.72527472527473,5.8026862026862025,18.902319902319906,6.937597516519254,0.11129206349206333,318,8,75,4,9,113,57,91,0.093,0.7440000000000001,0.162,0.2566,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,1,4,6,2,0,4,0,5,6,0,2,0,14,16,7,0,5,2,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,2,2,5,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,2,0,1,1,0,12,4,17,15,1,8,0,0,0,2,3,2,1,1,3,49,14,0,0.0,0.24220611894468602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18079425589079828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18898443634656487,0.1068018268554126,0.0,0.34853244688850155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5775559674572829,0.0,0.0,0.18050798087209025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2002897240130961,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1784930195202765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4822925251040128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2632815622289706
EDAnonymous,Literally_a_Gorilla,2019/01/01,"Is ""likes the sense of control"" a meme? It feels like the primary psychological drive normies diagnose us with is ""desire to have control in his/her life."" And when ed-sufferers are accused of it, that's the answer they give, because it's easy to understand, it doesn't indicate a deeper torturous psychological issue... I think it's often a cop-out answer.

In reality we all got here from a vast diversity of experiences and mindsets and they don't all boil down to a desire for control or body dismorphia. ",6.516561403508772,7.335365726315793,7.850263157894738,66.98100877192985,65.42105263157895,11.385964912280702,35.833333333333336,11.20814326018867,4.401070175438597,404,19,70,12,6,139,67,95,0.024,0.797,0.179,0.9246,0,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,2,0,2,3,3,3,1,0,8,0,6,4,1,3,2,19,11,5,0,2,1,0,1,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,6,5,1,3,5,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,1,1,5,2,12,10,2,6,0,0,0,0,5,4,0,2,3,46,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12787738240369564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23301362649691146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.70584420178781,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21291802423827125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20520098809609466,0.0,0.0,0.10606894902416,0.14986387553561695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2012360651584544,0.0,0.0,0.16777687299552105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2189514368048596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1481708534241417,0.20497172226290625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1344158641483623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21838400900171512,0.2523344619236162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,crossdressingcarp,2019/01/01,it’s nye and i ate an embarrassing amount of calories telling myself tomorrow will be a fresh and clean new start because its the new year ......as if that pound of fat i gained in 1 single night is gonna be magically gone when i wake up 8 hours from now just because its 2019 🙃,1.0252298850574704,3.1371957758620717,2.624827586206898,93.46126436781613,82.6206896551724,5.935632183908046,21.735632183908052,7.1686216300943375,0.4885080459770115,217,7,50,3,6,71,50,58,0.047,0.815,0.138,0.6124,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,1,3,1,0,1,3,0,4,3,2,0,0,4,8,5,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,1,0,4,2,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,2,0,4,0,6,2,2,12,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,9,28,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4122139485243775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33296742626611064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6530919651131933,0.0,0.3172906467536606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23931397382144046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29552054291385643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21772991279239887
EDAnonymous,OscarTehOctopus,2019/01/01,"Things fueling my relapse in 2019 1. The 16lbs gained since my LW
2. My husband hasn't touched me since early November. 
3. I don't fit into my LW uniform pants comfortably. 
4. My husband's (desired) Weight gain from underweight to healthy BMI.
5. The sexy sweater dress I just bought that my husband promised to take me out for fancy Italian in. 
6. The calories in all the booze I just consumed. 

EDsnonymous this drunk adults needs commiseration and support for 2019. Apparently I never learn my lesson.",2.3339751552795036,5.261353391304347,2.877204968944098,86.13891304347828,91.17391304347824,5.6720496894409935,29.39751552795031,7.1686216300943375,2.168525465838509,400,21,70,7,14,124,68,92,0.048,0.753,0.199,0.9353,1,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,0,3,2,3,0,0,4,0,2,3,0,0,2,11,6,1,0,2,2,3,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,3,3,0,2,1,1,0,3,0,0,0,1,2,13,3,10,5,1,8,0,0,0,0,4,6,0,0,2,37,16,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2679268270355634,0.2786853909434294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5978034453762098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41004097620196095,0.0,0.0,0.2716804753560504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24005626490013654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.440011154124012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Lemon_bird,2019/01/01,how do i help my friend when i can see her getting deeper into her ed i have some heavily disordered habits myself (restriction and purging) but my friend is getting bad fast with purging especially and i don’t know how to help her even when i’m going through the same stuff :/. Maybe that makes me dumb but i just want some advice from other people. And obviously just a lot of anxiety around food when she doesn’t need that extra stress. Maybe this is just a rant haha,3.467173913043478,5.529261586956526,4.158043478260872,85.73423913043482,74.43478260869566,7.208695652173913,23.45652173913044,8.07648339933343,1.2658434782608698,374,11,73,6,8,119,65,92,0.168,0.6709999999999999,0.161,-0.4215,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,0,10,6,1,1,3,1,7,1,0,3,1,23,16,10,0,2,5,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,5,6,1,1,1,0,0,1,2,3,0,0,0,1,13,3,7,16,5,7,0,0,1,0,8,2,1,3,4,54,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20840946235144067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1631544786492467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1898596031694149,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17807537531860296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24443115896820694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14086585616744526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2578924824692899,0.0,0.32955084050296257,0.0,0.2228543428262457,0.0,0.12120886519745902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2859069259362548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11721013781130354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18131843082168586,0.0,0.0,0.14236244585204122,0.0,0.4285259861939716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1581404071174547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14785774788908518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16995223657727748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24430532384881964,0.0,0.2441483816338217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12579487975141593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,mrsnoire,2019/01/02,"ED and drug use Hello there, this is my first post.
Im curious,  does anyone here use drugs?(any kind)
And if so, what kind, with what objective, and how does it affect your tracking, ED mood,etc.",1.912105263157894,4.294683631578948,2.399210526315791,94.78197368421051,81.10526315789474,5.905263157894738,20.026315789473685,7.1686216300943375,0.3433999999999999,150,4,32,2,4,46,31,38,0.0,0.85,0.15,0.7165,0,0,2,0,0,0,12.0,0,1,0,1,4,2,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,4,0,9,3,6,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,4,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,2,1,3,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,1,17,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16624727120729788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17093837609271684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4278728563569991,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.283506371672524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2726475049945452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20794516649686692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26406842027481586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5091535892140722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2341336794710324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4222853659565792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Redditnotes,2019/01/02,"How close has anyone been to exposing you, how did you respond? e.g parents finding purging evidence or your MPA account etc. My mother found some purging bags in my room. I realised and refused to engage with the fact that my parents knew. I was so humiliated. I kept refusing to talk about it, they started threatimginh to keep my locked in th house unless I ate, so eventually I left home and moved across the country to get away from the situation. 

So I took it very poorly and my shame led me to leave home. But I’m curious as to your experiences, have friends confronted you or parents discorvered things? How did you react?",4.467542372881353,6.6562515169491565,5.0120000000000005,80.14613559322035,71.96610169491525,7.770847457627119,32.13898305084746,8.548686976883017,2.7177057627118644,501,24,90,9,10,160,82,118,0.135,0.8029999999999999,0.062,-0.8031,3,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,6,1,0,7,4,1,1,3,0,6,1,0,5,1,23,15,14,0,0,4,4,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,0,4,5,1,4,3,0,2,3,0,2,0,0,9,0,19,2,16,6,2,11,0,0,0,0,16,7,0,3,1,62,23,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12375968379736195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16629352163947894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19739727132988866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17313600223497552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1617710920049132,0.0,0.0,0.19406692378533544,0.13674663212972973,0.0,0.0924730787834217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35508273899921866,0.0,0.0,0.2042295626932004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15732213308250412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18741315514995324,0.19230661786356215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18811868423094985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5895991701858851,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19895086395555325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12527864460210994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1422626403485018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11758824463606013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1966490132878866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14604019549735578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,pugsaremydrugs,2019/01/02,"Are there even any downsides to Adderall? Little introduction, I'm about 99% that my inability to focus, the constant music playing in my head, my tendency to forget things or misplace them, my inability to formulate thoughts, and my ability to read pages over and over and over again without really gaining anything can be attributed to ADD or something. 

Too bad I don't have the ability to see a doctor until March.

But regardless, every time one of my friends' with ADD tells me about Adderall/Ritalin, I'm just floored by everything it offers. It's a wonder drug; it gives me the ability to be focused on shit, use my memory like a functional human being, and numbs hunger. The only downside it that it may worsen my depression but at this point I really don't care. The only things worth living for are my grades, everything else is just a distraction from something that'd make me less than dirt.",9.370494011976046,8.202514455089826,9.22669910179641,66.09238398203595,60.1377245508982,12.900898203592815,40.036676646706574,11.93303328291395,4.952365868263472,722,32,120,19,8,236,110,167,0.171,0.748,0.081,-0.9321,0,0,3,0,0,0,20.0,0,0,1,1,8,9,1,1,9,0,12,6,2,3,0,22,21,9,0,1,7,0,0,1,1,1,3,0,0,1,11,7,1,0,2,2,1,0,3,5,0,1,1,1,15,4,24,15,2,14,0,1,1,0,6,9,1,4,6,86,26,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11660578265207887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14110556610300085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14317065934792125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1748255467035035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18529863518049655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1476872431216871,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17550726640274958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.198851278073036,0.0,0.1432415542888134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1132546118238938,0.0,0.14447124547123705,0.0,0.3082131591871485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1324776405470303,0.0,0.0,0.16449007551306105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17597814591527494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08377179817772627,0.17185843291008412,0.1514115445230275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11445785360582768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11619281130168732,0.2608220005322403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16209499478201664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1715168474552621,0.0,0.21969671578804173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13663974440536142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17601194781671214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2640126518790557,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14987272689858802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2278346890572598,0.0,0.0,0.1361283799887938,0.09998579547686673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14809541005484156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1652913901562661,0.185952383290563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,LevyMevy,2019/01/02,"I don't know what I'll do with myself if my life doesn't improve when I'm skinny Like literally I've shaped everything around how much better things will be when I'm skinny and pretty. I'm naturally outgoing and friendly but I've isolated myself because I'm fat and nasty looking. But I comfort myself thinking about how things will be better when I'm thin.

But if it's not...the idea is too devastating to even think about. I can't imagine. ",2.878,4.892624522222224,4.530833333333334,82.61625000000002,76.0,7.166666666666668,25.69444444444445,8.07648339933343,1.6624444444444442,357,13,69,6,8,120,56,90,0.163,0.662,0.175,-0.441,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,2,10,5,0,0,0,0,9,4,3,2,0,17,18,13,0,2,5,0,1,1,1,2,2,0,0,0,4,5,3,0,5,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,2,7,5,5,14,1,6,0,0,1,0,1,3,0,2,4,41,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23677123841048475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16213390440445902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4704607811788262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17567182622180988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2390382504872827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20548910700997508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3002497209368714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14617111286745066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1878637060989968,0.12994035770171872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2233492754027252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1955198324358455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2705888787488521,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3533996122436312,0.3408479038063809,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,biobitch535,2019/01/02,"C/S question Okay so developed the c/s habit quite a bit ago.. however today I started to get paranoid because I started to try and eat less carbs and more protein...like I know you absorb minimal calories depending on how long its in your mouth, how much you accidentally swallow, and what kind of food it is.. but like... what about the carbssssssss... anyone know?",3.9771078431372544,6.232046808823532,4.794705882352943,80.87284313725492,73.55882352941177,7.47450980392157,31.92156862745098,8.344100000000001,2.6605215686274515,285,14,51,5,6,92,54,68,0.051,0.926,0.023,-0.1901,1,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,3,0,1,4,3,0,0,3,1,1,4,1,3,0,10,6,7,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,3,3,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,6,3,6,6,4,7,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,2,6,30,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22718224299004156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17920126219327412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15622968195938405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2797981406811413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2622447531087685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30990227685463884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13389895585076214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2668826273039721,0.2816963738560656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12520848635573725,0.0,0.0,0.2268052122745107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1883998374701703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2870991853595609,0.27259190873047273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36280136712888506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24292934027047544,0.0,0.0,0.17400149916057608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,summerservice,2019/01/02,"6 weeks until valentine’s day last year was the first time I was in a relationship on the day and he’d made me feel so loved but now I’m alone.... lol

I just wanna be desirable is that too fuckin much 2 ask!!!!!!!

but 6 weeks is enough time to lose [mutters inaudibly] pounds sooo ;-))))",-0.5079310344827589,1.7114377758620698,1.2754310344827609,98.83142241379312,93.65517241379312,4.968965517241379,15.870689655172415,6.6274283507984215,-0.41917931034482736,213,5,51,3,8,69,48,58,0.059,0.762,0.179,0.8055,0,1,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,0,0,2,5,3,1,0,3,1,6,2,0,1,0,8,11,5,0,2,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,3,1,4,1,5,6,2,13,0,1,0,2,4,2,1,0,11,29,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26456869435050845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23881084618932275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3294876540014244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26394767122267104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12916296793091436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2172852568188892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2082254777290577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28578270509794435,0.0,0.0,0.2305531923818733,0.2417125408166705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18778481172569936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2742572174823854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2979093738687508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4098124412223287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16450113502213584
EDAnonymous,yeehaw_lemons,2019/01/02,"Too fat for chinese walked into the kitchen to my grandmother eating chinese takeout. she questioned me asking if i had eaten anything today, yet afterwards she says she wouldve ordered something for me if i wasnt ""too fat""

she gets onto me for not eating but says im too heavy to have gross fattening food

im constantly belittled from her for being ""too skinny"" and not eating but then she turns around and does this.. im so sick of her",4.850503875968993,5.9962229651162815,5.504651162790698,81.12620155038762,69.34883720930233,8.058914728682172,29.449612403100772,8.344100000000001,2.1736263565891467,349,13,64,5,6,113,57,86,0.16899999999999998,0.831,0.0,-0.9452,0,0,1,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,0,7,1,0,0,1,0,4,10,3,0,0,11,8,8,0,2,6,0,0,0,0,0,3,2,1,0,1,4,9,0,1,0,0,1,3,1,0,0,3,2,13,0,11,4,0,10,0,0,0,0,11,3,0,3,5,45,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1445814674272752,0.15640520734964142,0.16425048606251932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18986315938176002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15375129638200846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5393374999711714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2124502870604381,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09179303842588574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5693400927063202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19681786453303893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2794383738022069,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13525808259107527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16653768600762314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19110498438313175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,elevenbravo274,2019/01/02,"Farewell, myfitnesspal You were there for me before I developed an eating disorder. I was a normal weight but didn’t feel it, and you gave me a sense of control for over a year.

Then things went too far and I dropped way too much weight. Recovery has been a very very long process, but I managed to not use you for a few months.

Yesterday, I deleted you. I’m still nowhere near recovery, but it took a massive amount of willpower to delete you and I am trying to celebrate the little things.

Thank all of you for being here for me, I hope I can help support you in the same way. We are here for each other!!",4.455901639344262,5.055517991803279,4.865696721311477,87.33985655737708,69.90163934426228,8.395081967213113,29.1844262295082,8.472884824447931,1.858406557377049,473,17,102,7,8,150,79,122,0.015,0.825,0.16,0.9616,1,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,1,7,0,1,6,3,0,0,9,0,9,3,0,2,1,16,18,7,0,2,4,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,5,3,1,1,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,7,3,19,3,15,10,6,16,0,0,0,0,10,5,0,1,6,76,24,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1569665295021589,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2068937114141813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21141341138114506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1887542289349309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0932712848267066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12364331700759555,0.0,0.0,0.18321583506551609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18488286300159112,0.0,0.16324613725843562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14723857924132094,0.0,0.13560334623129305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18073699608818591,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1473143636168315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20932923074956106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1698310222010488,0.0,0.0,0.2451013249144543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2049479259136769,0.12523994634109764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15931894027370208,0.0,0.3044066651216161,0.0,0.2928402098203626,0.0,0.4492584973685148,0.0,0.1710013399208875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11878971554116667
EDAnonymous,Boaty_Mc-Boatface,2019/01/02,"These goddamn shitty legs warped my fucking jeans. Saggy in weird places and makes my butt look even bigger.
I appreciate hourglass figures seeming to be the 'ideal' body type, but I feel too sexual no matter how much I weigh, and what I wear. I don't want my thighs and backside to be the centre of attention.",5.503474576271188,6.6096091355932245,5.762500000000002,80.01968220338985,67.8135593220339,7.933898305084746,28.309322033898304,8.07648339933343,1.8950983050847456,245,8,44,3,4,78,48,59,0.16699999999999998,0.782,0.051,-0.7034,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,1,3,3,1,0,2,0,3,7,5,2,0,13,9,5,0,2,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,3,1,0,4,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,2,8,1,4,7,1,3,0,0,1,2,0,3,2,1,0,28,10,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4278615995839683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2544157562493638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1947647048713223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3561038993906435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3234643598318615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2571187249229711,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28316052209821463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4024437716650535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3506644307295649,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22719628684335916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,crazyloco43,2019/01/02,"What's the saddest meal you've ever eaten? Whether it be restriction or binge-motivated, what's the most pathetic thing you've eaten?

My dinner of exactly 6 mac and cheese pizza rolls and rice cakes with chick fil a hot sauce is ranking pretty high for me.",6.402733333333337,6.766542340000001,6.722000000000001,76.55433333333336,65.6,9.866666666666667,30.66666666666667,9.725611199111238,2.790266666666668,207,7,38,4,3,67,43,50,0.199,0.741,0.061,-0.8049,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,3,0,2,5,0,0,2,9,4,4,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,4,3,5,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,2,0,3,1,1,2,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,2,1,20,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4897790941865202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5720793273484913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5508566947589868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3597201467217731,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Sp00nful017,2019/01/02,Does anyone feel bigger / worse about themselves after a few days of restricting? This is day 2 of restricting for me after the holidays and this ALWAYS happens. I feel so much bigger / fatter / more bloated / worse about myself a few days following the start of my restriction. Usually by day 4 or 5 it’s so bad that I binge to comfort myself and the cycle starts over again. I always feel so much fatter the first week of my diet than I do on day 1. What kind of fucking sense does that make? :(,5.508125,5.991891895833334,6.137500000000002,79.55750000000002,67.54166666666666,8.9,27.458333333333336,8.841846274778883,2.0432208333333333,386,11,72,6,6,126,63,96,0.204,0.747,0.049,-0.9446,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,1,6,4,1,0,6,0,2,2,0,1,0,10,11,6,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,6,2,1,3,3,1,0,1,0,2,0,1,0,3,9,2,15,11,5,18,0,0,0,1,0,4,1,1,13,51,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2863125191171681,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12029873593915745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14365142958457744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5547779803241671,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3011176597027282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2609752551678118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14634244951913153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15905398272088714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1521399277299843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17915969070665466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11484220560655088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25294757437991805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2435504378062419,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18948463418534647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13800512140103258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35065964733719784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ifuckpineapples,2019/01/02,"I really like the idea of getting a new therapist and also really hate it Do i want a place to word vomit all my dumb problems that im too afraid to usually talk about? hell yes.

Did i hate my last two therapists and feel like they never really helped me, i never really wanted to talk to them, it was awkward, and i constantly wanted to cancel my appointments? well, also yes.

Do i want to give an intake for the first time and explain all by background bullshit again and also pay like 100 bucks a session? nope.


guess thats a no from me, dawg. just gonna keep all my bullshit in my head still lol",1.3687831021437589,3.6501425491803294,3.3519672131147544,87.74568095838589,82.52459016393442,6.704665825977299,20.040353089533426,7.882392219407189,0.9573044136191672,469,13,95,9,13,158,79,122,0.22,0.619,0.161,-0.9111,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,2,1,9,11,4,2,7,3,4,2,1,0,5,22,17,8,0,5,1,0,1,3,0,1,1,0,0,0,4,5,0,1,3,0,2,0,4,7,1,2,2,1,15,4,12,14,3,12,1,0,0,0,7,2,2,1,13,64,19,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3338299169029924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15036960022615353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07035743099961103,0.0994073890553001,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11835925349783448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07269910885603023,0.1334834812570286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15328725602506948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2747597672648017,0.14280603537119205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09326799948223792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1570812023350267,0.15030376335556964,0.0,0.0,0.12368117325491565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11342422612585988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2039421141435893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21463909649253451,0.13439004611402167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1453800878082833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13314588390394436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35656719534784626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11112380613904756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2236838507575712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3231232033468955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08113834232780617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13592741809753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1532519096487852,0.0,0.3282924816487763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12511080082570766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,CallMeDaring,2019/01/02,Anyone else happy holidays are over and no one will judge you for not getting wasted and stuffed? I want to look good and feel good. Im having a good time don't need your damn guilt trip friends!,3.487916666666667,4.764572625000003,3.4750000000000014,93.89666666666668,72.75,6.333333333333334,23.333333333333336,6.42735559955562,0.35558333333333403,155,4,34,1,3,47,35,40,0.08,0.464,0.456,0.96,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,2,0,0,0,7,1,1,1,0,4,0,0,0,0,7,9,3,0,2,1,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,1,1,0,1,3,2,0,1,0,2,3,5,3,8,0,3,0,0,1,0,3,1,1,0,1,17,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18428887451008488,0.2700507025108963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2201724656128249,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1332650080772885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2036275639609358,0.0,0.13770041332185806,0.0,0.0,0.6631906082497091,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2805669482940581,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28469249023230514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22132593559078215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19542809125275734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1785966221729004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15368528515136756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15545586158084398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,rachelcoiling,2019/01/02,"Mirrors and cameras and weddings. My fiancé’s mirrored medicine cabinet is directly across from the shower. Every time I open the curtain I have to remember to avert my eyes. Even putting on make-up is hard now because I *have* to look in the mirror. Curl my hair? Mirror. 

I feel like a toddler at this point. I’m so shaken up by seeing myself in a mirror or in a photo that I’ve deleted every form of social media but Reddit. I can’t believe I’m behaving like this at 29. I can’t stand it. But I don’t want to see this body. I don’t even want to see my face because it’s attached to this body. 

It’s to the point where I’m desperately trying to convince him that we don’t need a wedding, because the thought of spending five hours with people photographing me and touching me is unthinkable. But it’s so important to him to have a wedding with all his family and friends. He loves me and he’s so kind but he doesn’t understand. And how fucking selfish would I be to deny him because of, what, my selfish dysmorphia? 

Guys, I really don’t want to do this. I cry almost every day working on the guest list and looking at dresses. I’m crying right now. I’ve devolved into a toddler. I’m so embarrassed. I just don’t want to be seen or touched at all. I know how selfish I sound. I’m so scared of something other people want so bad; I’m really sorry. I just needed to tell someone other than him. ",0.9614583333333327,3.2469877847222257,3.161666666666669,88.42500000000004,84.34722222222223,5.544444444444443,24.625,6.9077264865688965,1.1104249999999998,1094,45,219,14,32,372,141,288,0.16899999999999998,0.721,0.109,-0.9726,1,0,1,0,0,0,33.0,1,0,0,1,15,13,1,2,12,0,18,7,5,2,2,39,44,21,0,8,8,0,5,2,2,1,0,1,2,1,14,12,0,1,5,0,1,1,8,7,0,1,2,13,30,6,35,39,3,24,0,0,7,2,18,17,1,3,7,141,44,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11547312541409953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09628471762730664,0.2811842225215461,0.0,0.0,0.12992255305058384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2561819540402418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25334019675475755,0.07436980103272815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1523313277890854,0.0,0.2914781521329636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10871042334852367,0.0,0.05830764284586652,0.08238235044864818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08909347955858138,0.106608530510742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1141817696868032,0.0,0.0,0.10330120915273873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11356382676373665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12008470977122702,0.06337510170638454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11267593471191495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.193674150343655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10407792120081133,0.0,0.0769748645767114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1710119034428987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15989230941155091,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21802331388945756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11592524243534184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14774979971205515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13063146343432314,0.09847992367918668,0.0,0.0,0.11545224166836884,0.0,0.2756776968128547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1175509632426896,0.09770755693087163,0.08877651242227227,0.0,0.12908772507270766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10079197270718243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09154866428624864,0.06724215791195576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07829254282129586,0.0,0.0,0.12004886366150498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34008420462839706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0839520094082721,0.0,0.0,0.08191775157568994,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,illbecountingclouds,2019/01/02,"I will never fit into every item in my wardrobe at any one time My weight has *wildly* fluctuated over the past three years, leading me to have a closet with clothes every size, 8 to 18 (women's), 26 to 38 (men's)

If I'm heavy, I can't get many of my jeans past my ass. If I'm skinny, many of them are honestly too big to get away with wearing a belt because of all the folds. T-shirts have never been an issue, but fitted shirts? If you're my height and spilled coffee on your shirt, just give me a sec, I probably have your size. 

Point being, I have to have a rainbow of sizes on hand because I learned the hard way not to throw out clothes every time I drop or gain 20lbs. Never will I be able to fit into everything in my wardrobe at once. 

So, reasons to recover, I guess? ",3.9418404907975457,3.8833579386503057,4.955957055214725,88.56289263803683,70.84049079754601,7.7469938650306736,26.729447852760728,7.1686216300943375,1.0682741104294475,596,17,136,5,10,196,104,163,0.068,0.86,0.07200000000000001,0.5484,0,0,0,0,0,0,25.0,0,2,1,2,3,1,0,0,8,0,13,7,6,2,4,21,19,7,0,3,7,0,3,0,0,2,0,0,1,2,0,6,2,0,2,0,0,2,5,0,0,2,1,3,19,1,25,14,2,29,0,0,0,1,6,17,1,5,8,82,19,2,0.16254217141431151,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11053425037028963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1527137206048379,0.0,0.0,0.1981683980645473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4108463694087797,0.0,0.14608242288746745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16984315176650885,0.15592526182374875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17905852697930316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14560585905107368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16965179717463486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3295844996230282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37608762900520776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.173102107753638,0.1101427819747973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31032978929003946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15365489025931073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1752479522534198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1671204235743332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18955929456240436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1290184099533609,0.0,0.19793257566670247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10467182923639384
EDAnonymous,sofdesoft,2019/01/02,"pants dont fit and now im upset recovery made me gain weight and now my pants dont fit and one pair of shorts dont fit either and its making me freak out

i wish i had a doctor to call but the system in my country is weird and i have to go to some exams and another doctor first before i can have proper treatment??? so i wont be able to have a number until the 15th or 20th maybe ",0.15616279069767458,1.6845175813953546,2.7350581395348854,94.60049418604652,82.48837209302326,5.230232558139536,15.401162790697676,5.985473137389443,-0.7239953488372093,296,4,71,2,8,103,57,86,0.135,0.797,0.067,-0.5431,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,2,3,3,0,1,4,0,11,3,0,2,0,14,15,10,0,1,3,0,1,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,1,7,1,0,0,0,0,1,4,3,0,2,2,1,9,0,8,11,2,12,0,0,0,0,1,6,0,2,4,48,10,3,0.1881546825772376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1972965901912247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1601057766260368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1921269678660135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38516858082871946,0.0,0.0,0.6615476600327022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16004427688133413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10693264213500564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2032393446890524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1780365100444819,0.12559471166536074,0.0,0.18902666835705575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12749848239579487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2291217142124655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21636859924708846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,giveMeSteamKeysPls,2019/01/02,Is weight restoration just bullshit? My ED brain is convinced that I don't need to eat above maintenance and that doctors force patients to eat to make them fat because they don't know how else to treat EDs. This thought process is stopping me from gaining any weight,7.438933333333331,8.06010956,5.07,88.39833333333334,63.4,7.466666666666668,38.66666666666667,6.42735559955562,2.4706666666666663,218,11,41,1,3,60,40,50,0.097,0.755,0.147,0.4215,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,2,1,2,2,0,0,0,0,5,7,2,2,0,8,9,2,0,1,1,0,2,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,3,1,5,1,2,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,2,5,2,5,8,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,21,8,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16704885573968994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14974455442341314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2742240674045426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25143082409607714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5027178345579646,0.2052071277606948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1350015485429145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16397174342822854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18214465272989752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20537247180713655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1950168301573532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5982654275569157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Artist_juller_22,2019/01/02,I can’t get this god damn burger up And I seriously want to cry. Fuck. It’s stuck in my throat. I ate too fast and didn’t chew properly. Shit shit shit shit. Fuck you cookout. ,-1.9828195488721791,-0.3621480789473655,0.5008270676691708,101.14078947368424,108.73684210526315,4.276691729323309,13.323308270676687,6.18269132825596,-0.8507639097744355,135,3,34,2,7,45,30,38,0.5660000000000001,0.366,0.067,-0.9803,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,1,0,0,1,8,7,0,0,0,2,9,5,0,0,3,8,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,8,0,0,3,0,5,0,3,5,0,3,0,0,0,2,1,2,7,0,1,15,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2336346182312487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3932647664307759,0.11112395365629657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8733102596899214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12545256431098326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,brutalbabyboy,2019/01/02,Sleep My favorite thing about starting to eat more (I used EXTREMELY extended dry “fasts” lol) is the fact that I’m no longer scared of dying in my sleep. I remember being so terrified of falling asleep because I knew that night would be the night I wouldn’t wake up.,10.772307692307693,7.032923923076925,9.52692307692308,73.06807692307696,59.769230769230774,13.476923076923079,41.384615384615394,11.20814326018867,4.314892307692308,212,8,42,4,2,66,41,52,0.212,0.736,0.053,-0.8434,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,1,2,1,5,5,4,1,1,6,9,1,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,3,0,1,0,2,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,1,0,6,0,6,4,1,7,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,4,25,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1600715750924963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2725255124571568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26869369612348465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4928432312374478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2974616985413207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2628970004943892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5255564825758516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18586156469655213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17445219979344345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2267922428343308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18653540949299507,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,abhlancome12247,2019/01/02,"I wonder if I’ll ever be able to eat normally... I was at the grocery store today and everything I looked at I put back because it’s not a safe food... can’t get cereal, I know I can’t control myself... protein bars are a no, I always binge and eat all of them... etc. 

Nothing feels safe anymore so I just bought my diet coke and oatmeal and left. I just want to be able to get basic foods like cereal and crackers without freaking out.",0.5493333333333332,2.7325008222222245,2.9977777777777765,89.60000000000002,85.22222222222223,5.377777777777778,22.333333333333336,6.742157984588678,0.7121333333333335,334,12,69,4,10,115,64,90,0.085,0.84,0.075,-0.2216,0,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,1,1,5,4,0,0,3,0,6,7,0,1,2,21,14,7,0,3,5,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,6,7,3,3,1,2,1,5,1,0,0,2,2,12,3,8,10,2,8,0,0,1,0,1,4,0,2,4,45,13,0,0.3602572879117273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1498814615760892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17863921279371853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13850780852442318,0.0,0.10980474946186722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20202959084598385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3686331438642209,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20089105286743933,0.0,0.1629366710175653,0.0,0.0,0.1618880104255188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09107845464425818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4356245425441304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18821956386265848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.098993991947136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1957102987073449,0.0,0.0,0.08800175678758422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1512626943646917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17648782614436462,0.17283829197204367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18107903904094108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17074089258064962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10624454117740716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17363758486780312,0.19534183059662136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,lonelybeet,2019/01/02,"DAE think their flesh prison of a body looks okay naked but not in clothes? Or maybe the other way around? Feels like my clothes are baggy and tight in all the wrong places :/

 I'd just like to be able to get ready and make it out of the house without having a fucking breakdown for once : ) also I think I'm starting to weird my male flatmate out with my incessant nudity and states of undress tbh

help me ",3.81111111111111,5.091405111111111,3.514506172839507,93.91027777777781,71.96296296296295,6.387654320987655,24.61111111111111,6.42735559955562,0.515533333333333,318,9,69,2,6,95,63,81,0.121,0.7190000000000001,0.16,0.5661,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,1,0,3,6,1,0,5,1,3,3,2,1,1,18,12,6,0,0,5,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,7,0,1,3,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,0,3,6,3,14,11,1,9,0,0,1,1,3,6,1,1,3,39,8,0,0.23851067897017444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19073690380091365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21232507148387456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2649315959521898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1205981657313704,0.17039207671297968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2204992793980481,0.1246119855966734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15986868052437112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2752093004748372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2330485402101603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20028889988546528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15920773027836635,0.0,0.239616035039702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2540060889567597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2491928951135447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.168819086182817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30565602488994664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1893186752082419,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22991578325382084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2607739854202316,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,yourpsychedelicface,2019/01/02,"How many hours of fasting until you feel better? I am on vacation and I don’t mean to be ungrateful, I’m having a fun time, but I can’t wait to return home and fast/restrict because I feel more bloated and uncomfortable every day of three huge meals with family. After a traumatic event in July I have basically been overeating consistently and I look and feel so uncomfortable in my own skin, the scale says I have gained ~7 lbs since my LW in June. But I feel awful in my LW clothes and I feel like I’m unrecognizable. When I get home I want to fast for at least 24 hours , ideally 48, maybe more, just so the chipmunk-cheek feeling will go away, it’s hard to think about anything else. 

When you are stuck feeling this way how long of a fast makes you feel okay again? In the past just a day has made me feel so much better, physically and mentally, like things are starting to fall back into place. Is there anything else you can recommend to make the yucky jiggly-puffy feeling go away? :( ",3.486938775510204,5.243313357142862,4.3589285714285735,85.62982142857145,73.59183673469387,7.553061224489795,25.005102040816325,8.278499904357787,1.4415673469387755,782,25,160,13,16,252,124,196,0.138,0.687,0.175,0.6411,0,0,0,0,0,0,23.0,0,4,0,4,13,7,0,0,8,2,14,2,1,5,0,33,39,17,0,2,4,0,12,2,0,1,0,1,2,0,3,9,1,1,12,0,0,3,2,0,0,1,3,14,19,7,25,34,5,37,0,0,1,0,5,13,0,0,22,96,22,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19867710448638376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2268323293831635,0.09282275076921123,0.0,0.07358703455897471,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21352605977393835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15570299271169358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2016845829274864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10170799609285057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11379980865399512,0.0,0.610373724481978,0.08623916114709758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06306885457375676,0.0,0.13721077534753487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10813735677966747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2421749326638381,0.0,0.2377608578396579,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11795096932901515,0.0,0.0,0.1068293987703245,0.10137059801373838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1142239034575186,0.16115703701959516,0.12238654700111387,0.1212749222725057,0.13149454380143344,0.0,0.0,0.12165280859703223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08873976556149482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11523658238246068,0.0,0.0,0.1261219808630441,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09599779276229142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0998570903126969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08544303619557145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08019799922422995,0.07734960361586295,0.0,0.0,0.07039016561760275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07120111617794246,0.09581832708653704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,icecreamqueen69,2019/01/02,"Welp I only take lax the night before I have a day off from work so I can ~deal with it~ 

Guess who was -supposed- to have today off. 😬",-2.1020000000000003,-0.3485338666666635,0.12333333333333485,104.86500000000002,104.33333333333334,2.4000000000000004,9.333333333333334,3.1291,-2.2734666666666667,104,1,26,0,5,34,26,30,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,2,0,4,0,0,0,0,2,6,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,3,0,5,5,0,5,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,1,3,17,5,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32466520510017965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24606383297883874,0.3933543388636753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.42031290717405095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3580524951524475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2901808358185575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2868730415392683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36165838980966203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2777680313032454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,DontMindMeJustBingin,2019/01/02,"Does anyone else have a fear of trying new foods? Even if an unknown food is really healthy, or relatively low cal, I don't want to try them because I get I'll like it and then constantly binge on it from them on. Does anyone else feel this way?",2.676764705882352,4.01453466666667,3.958970588235297,89.38786764705885,74.88235294117645,7.452941176470588,22.553921568627448,8.07648339933343,0.9095450980392156,192,5,43,3,4,63,43,51,0.129,0.768,0.103,-0.0999,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,2,0,1,3,0,1,2,0,3,2,0,0,0,5,6,4,0,2,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,2,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,1,4,1,5,6,0,7,0,1,0,0,2,3,0,2,4,22,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27408679349840803,0.4016375450225759,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11947597928004665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21179963063580576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3430309270057805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3274552806124785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12945203254593116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22054747381420248,0.09910033594416637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4739928743879791,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10239865225485488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09575265297802472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1892919984176964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12555862381415014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26613380053875657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11560219992795664,0.15557072696638016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,usegao,2019/01/02,Boss brought in a croissant sandwich platter I grabbed one of the roast beef ones and gobbled it down like a street urchin. It was the first unplanned meal I've had since early June. Now I'm just sitting here waiting for the sky to fall. Pray for me.,2.3157999999999994,4.64227498,1.9980000000000009,98.54900000000002,79.2,4.0,28.0,3.1291,0.3847999999999998,199,9,42,0,5,58,43,50,0.0,0.9,0.1,0.5859,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,1,3,1,0,0,5,0,2,2,0,1,0,4,5,1,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,2,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,3,3,1,2,1,6,2,0,11,1,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,5,24,4,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4557607136686218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2617702763473141,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7261590412440531,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.44322854275964296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,HerculesMulligan26,2019/01/02,"Help - gained WAY too much. I’m “in recovery” ...not because I want to be. I was 113 at my lowest. Have to see my PCP, therapist and nutritionist regularly. I never weigh myself now because I’m in the “weight restoration”  phase - but today at the doctor, after I told the nurse I didn’t want to know what I weighed...she told me. I’m in such a bad place now- I’ve gone months without knowing. I have gained WAY more than I thought and I need to start losing. I joined Orange Theory, do Pilates, I don’t want to start purging again. What are other quick ways I can get this weight off?? I’m using MFP to track everything. ",0.14447058823529346,2.5187597200000056,2.004047058823531,93.79096470588236,91.8,4.861176470588235,18.552941176470586,6.522977012572876,0.06753176470588196,475,14,102,6,17,156,82,125,0.085,0.816,0.098,-0.4956,1,0,0,0,0,0,24.0,0,0,0,3,6,2,0,0,4,0,9,4,0,1,1,14,28,3,0,4,3,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,4,2,3,0,3,0,0,1,5,2,0,0,6,3,16,0,15,21,2,21,0,1,1,0,3,7,0,0,10,61,20,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13875416908896793,0.2026047545152673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1700932651264153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14935274098784654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08682269828548665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1113876016661183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1826574308964757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18591399868450773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13264406529477,0.0,0.12216213443769147,0.12322108404777996,0.12816900927868116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1736237444876072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1324247180661612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2352474926757539,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1929489152940312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13192912808253138,0.0,0.0,0.15752012912261826,0.31758607792445914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14352700240147273,0.0,0.0,0.2940535262271762,0.3957201581864216,0.0,0.4047273056167593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16019252550174215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,BunnyAwesome,2019/01/02,"I’m back bitchez Disappeared for a while just after proED was banned and sought medical help and admitted my issues and now I’ve gained I hate myself so much so now I can with the least pride ever say I’m back on my bullshit 

Oh no indeed...",0.13362857142857365,2.5180076200000023,1.8277142857142863,94.681,92.8,5.257142857142857,17.142857142857142,6.868970318607317,0.09588571428571456,191,5,41,3,7,62,39,50,0.285,0.6,0.115,-0.8731,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,2,8,2,1,0,2,0,2,1,0,0,1,8,6,6,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,4,0,1,1,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,1,1,5,1,4,5,2,9,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,7,28,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5476947466911938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3221463096932045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3516115605569968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2387111269924268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.371714505277854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35877056440329336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2618016758708251,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28321444017847697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,refinnejjjj,2019/01/02,Just weighed myself for the first time since Xmas and it was fine!!!! Jk I gained 8lbs since 20 December 😭😭😭 I genuinely thought I would be ok at eating under maintenance without tracking over the holidays but obviously I’ll never be free from counting cals unless I want to be a fat bitch forever lol! I’m so so upset and angry with myself and blegh :(,1.785,4.337196571428573,3.6682142857142885,84.34803571428574,83.28571428571428,6.928571428571428,24.464285714285715,8.07648339933343,1.8088571428571427,280,11,53,6,8,94,55,70,0.274,0.59,0.136,-0.9577,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,2,3,5,1,1,3,2,5,3,1,0,2,13,8,7,0,2,4,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,4,3,0,1,1,1,0,2,2,0,1,2,0,6,4,9,2,0,6,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,3,33,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3651080268591668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3035043315654405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2751956166653614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5903175880086888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28326908324502936,0.20806010197571295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2104571194397456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3439542919831735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2534691966426133,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,messystressy05,2019/01/02,"Upset with therapy So I just finished a session with my therapist, and this is the second session that I talked about my issues with eating (mostly restricting and the occasional purge). And I’m so pissed. 

She spent the entire hour taking about nutrition, suggesting that I go on the paleo diet, stressed the importance of eating whole food, and called refined sugar the enemy. 

I KNOW all this stuff!! Just because I know what proper nutrition is doesn’t mean that I will magically eat that way!!

Also who tells someone with disordered eating to go on a diet and stop eating refined sugar?? 

Now I’m off to buy vast quantities Diet Coke. Hope you’re having a better day than me.",5.861644444444442,7.4698681600000025,6.629866666666668,72.26737777777778,67.4,9.395555555555557,29.08888888888889,9.725611199111238,3.0265022222222213,540,19,86,12,9,178,81,125,0.154,0.7829999999999999,0.063,-0.9168,0,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,0,1,8,5,1,2,9,0,5,13,1,0,1,19,15,8,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,9,9,12,2,3,0,2,2,1,3,0,1,1,2,10,2,13,13,3,12,0,0,0,0,6,4,1,2,5,61,19,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1136836364152764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08665814792311456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12572712696079846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14515912944489576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09168009728444727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1629252910886071,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7273152041898299,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17189791986109973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16158324272712188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14119488950620873,0.1399969146228004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14837593358546605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1562525489962289,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15485164874655674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12044994339713075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11885038564324482,0.16284141584315193,0.0,0.16273680620103195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10688506327082707,0.1142611503969047,0.1242522870165982,0.0,0.1625699694922299,0.1650563007088234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11283833914731126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15871423974343088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,RevolutionaryRest5,2019/01/02,"Why are my legs swollen 80% of the time during a normal menstrual cycle? I missed 2 periods in a row so I began maintaining during the holidays. It seems like I did ovulate and I've experienced mood swings (I'm very calm when I'm experiencing oligomenorrhea except when I'm worrying about my oligomenorrhea lmao), so it's probably safe to assume I'll get my period soon. I'm supposed to be happy, and I really would be if it weren't for my calves that somehow grew in size in a matter of hours.

This isn't just ""PMS water retention"". It happens throughout the entire cycle. I wake up, my legs look thin, I continue EXISTING for a few hours and there it is. Is it because I'm sitting down for too long? Is it the carbs? The sodium? Am I eating too much? Am I eating too little? Am I drinking enough water? Well, it doesn't seem to matter. I can only make a connection with hormones because I have no problems with this when my body is incapable of menstruating.

What causes this exactly?",2.3085567010309305,4.728981969072169,4.433206185567013,80.55547938144333,79.82474226804123,7.797525773195876,24.64845360824743,8.697196308434329,2.1535410309278347,778,29,144,19,20,267,117,194,0.065,0.8270000000000001,0.107,0.7728,0,0,1,0,0,0,26.0,0,0,0,0,14,8,0,0,10,0,17,11,4,2,1,21,30,9,0,4,3,0,1,1,0,1,2,0,0,0,13,5,5,1,3,2,0,1,4,2,1,0,3,4,17,5,18,24,3,21,0,1,1,0,0,7,0,5,13,96,30,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2179290736982771,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19855131074406746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18362581916074205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17510726405280105,0.0,0.36581240779895535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18469686502003435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09338966530479564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1580683189171212,0.1902830410212777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35206612021563666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08732837802794427,0.17915478147695255,0.0,0.15818840952955138,0.15010525059050714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1193172275799908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13140205353376516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17513736272410013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1359476742528626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19272307933613067,0.17103991685957412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11451203307784052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3254551584922657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10423074990349372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14748773543581936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16071800602489258,0.0,0.16129436226537602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18152962816909565,0.0,0.1269790997534916,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,arcoalien,2019/01/02,"Poll Time: What does a binge look like to you? ​

Hi,

I hope I'm not breaking any rules with this. Reading through all of these posts and seeing several people talk about their binge eating made me wonder what others personally consider to be a ""binge"". I always thought binge eating was eating 5k-15k calories a day like they show in some bad talk shows, but apparently some people feel they've binged if they've eaten just over their personal daily budget of like 800 calories. And then there are some more extreme individuals who would consider eating anything no matter how small to be a binge... So I'm curious what you all think is your minimum. Check the link below to vote please.

[https://linkto.run/p/4Z9PEJZP](https://linkto.run/p/4Z9PEJZP)",7.620697674418602,10.11977715503876,5.814643410852714,76.35080232558141,64.27131782945736,8.26077519379845,27.62868217054264,8.841846274778883,2.2333528682170543,619,19,97,10,10,179,93,129,0.038,0.838,0.123,0.8449,1,0,0,0,0,0,35.0,0,3,3,0,5,5,0,0,5,0,6,5,0,2,2,22,17,7,0,3,4,0,1,3,0,1,0,0,0,2,7,3,5,0,5,3,2,0,2,1,0,0,4,3,9,4,12,10,6,9,0,0,2,0,12,4,0,6,6,56,16,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12371920757892085,0.161101928024093,0.1806705597760748,0.10111202373885378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12235644772490754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12414714585714652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09589059160888704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1301166933297637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6085742688471818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07518044004648222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14767939703308547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21792236679889174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12485934208448925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.140690907575539,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2061612096613995,0.2596549031858475,0.0,0.1632132968705396,0.0,0.0,0.14240071421816508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14872689121477836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.118484013106013,0.0,0.0,0.16797359760513733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2390174014645138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09527240449606293,0.0,0.11804059520810767,0.08670038394210708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16124433425117649,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1056227333243222,0.0,0.1806705597760748,0.0
EDAnonymous,Pinkatoki,2019/01/02,"Small victories Just wanted to share something that really made me happy and is a major step for me! Yesterday my boyfriend and I went to Whole Foods and got ingredients to make lamb curry. I'm still struggling with my disordered eating habits and as of late have been surviving off low cal drinks and water. But!! I had a **great** time. We laughed, we drank beer, we chopped, we trimmed, we seasoned, and ultimately made something so delicious and satisfying. For a moment I forgot all about calories and pesky macronutrients and enjoyed the moment with my best friend. I savored it like the delicious rice and naan we had. It was so much fun working together and putting love and effort into a dish. We pigged out then laid about all cuddly. It brought me such happiness and serenity that I've been longing for. And though Im sure the scale has went up, I'm okay with that. For once I finally feel okay. I hope everyone is having a good new year, mine is off to a wonderful start ❤️",4.034552139037434,6.161802679144388,4.491119652406418,83.68020889037436,73.01069518716578,8.311363636363637,28.265040106951872,9.017664075816787,2.4003264705882357,779,31,148,17,16,246,121,187,0.037000000000000005,0.6659999999999999,0.297,0.9956,0,0,4,0,0,0,25.0,7,0,0,4,8,18,0,1,9,2,11,8,0,3,3,39,28,20,0,2,2,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,6,26,7,1,2,2,0,5,0,2,0,0,13,2,20,16,20,15,6,25,0,1,0,1,10,7,0,2,14,93,26,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15965460415860408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17435804214230607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1490328018351798,0.0,0.1556704354192656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1453699711632197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07692321175009584,0.0,0.0,0.1666546896404268,0.0,0.0,0.1839602958819708,0.0,0.11753787769733913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12760226740461048,0.12167496752761955,0.16772759665126705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32389763952417644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15110278048490958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16433016457779276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17161308741504305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07432468851378929,0.0,0.0,0.13463326046217666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13730632178363475,0.28790457911805595,0.10155021740325897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11183554440738837,0.0,0.0,0.14693137352316324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16201709245028728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1529360738283927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09746054354596816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23423942832144776,0.0,0.0,0.10768079460532393,0.0,0.12149391967079945,0.0,0.0,0.15904284817678244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14338391716966278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1494702806656709,0.0,0.08871020159857887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08973221350980283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2820583484986611,0.0,0.16985149399990418,0.0,0.0,0.16498216902478546,0.11075491790380884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0979689135759648
EDAnonymous,starruby-xx,2019/01/02,"I had a really upsetting dream last night I'm in the ""normal"" weight range but I used to be obese, and I've been stressing about loose skin, so much so that last night I had a dream that I had a really disgusting flap of loose skin under my chin and I woke up crying 😭 I don't even have any loose skin jfc",2.001044776119404,2.8778249253731336,3.5494328358208977,93.48176119402989,75.86567164179105,7.748059701492537,17.877611940298507,8.238735603445708,0.22189791044776144,238,3,59,4,5,79,45,67,0.322,0.616,0.062,-0.9635,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,4,3,1,2,4,0,7,5,3,1,0,5,10,5,0,1,1,0,4,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,2,2,0,0,2,0,0,1,3,0,0,5,5,7,0,6,4,1,7,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,4,33,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17576793979645852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28391631255087435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17071648883940274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4213738400182324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19000462401848664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.485111726638902,0.25324496734315577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33116401464695056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2960756298720623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2232344273724332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31474589031902594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,yikesmonster505,2019/01/02,"people think my body is beautiful now that I’m skinny Between September and December I’ve lost 20 pounds through constantly restricting and fasting, and never in my life have I’ve gotten this many compliments on my body or told I was pretty. Lately I’ve been seeing family for Christmas and friends who are on break for college and my body is always a topic now. It’s validating, but it’s kind of making me feel crazy? How fat was I before if people Im not even close to can notice I’m skinnier? :( It’s hard to tell myself I don’t need this to feel good, when it is making me feel good. The whole “nobody cares if you’re stomach isn’t perfectly flat :D” body posi mindset I used to have is completely being conflicted by the fact other people see my body as beautiful now. My mom proudly mentions to family members over Christmas that I lost the weight “when I got the flu.”  My boyfriend always tells me my little portions of food that I know aren’t enough or good for me  are “cute” and he tells me he loves my “perfect body”. This is all so confusing :(",4.275428571428569,5.437227114285713,5.210000000000001,82.64500000000002,70.71428571428571,8.266666666666667,27.333333333333336,8.648137234880735,1.9625619047619047,834,28,162,14,15,273,123,210,0.1,0.6559999999999999,0.244,0.9914,1,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,0,5,8,15,0,1,5,0,17,14,9,4,5,31,37,16,0,3,6,1,5,0,1,0,3,0,0,0,12,7,4,2,5,0,0,0,5,3,0,0,8,7,22,12,18,28,4,16,0,2,2,1,11,6,0,5,9,98,34,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16200615479576205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08283776047163989,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6488040556553144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09925490965651074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10206972219792404,0.10520086818608164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10058867121278954,0.0,0.06429881946159817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18354601081554967,0.0,0.14766939886857638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11771612101008523,0.0,0.07521244172800111,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2449579222344768,0.07785976388388276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08720656340202468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10515480770621294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1013751430614363,0.05350106615785978,0.0,0.10981514716645673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06876125091677596,0.0,0.09757036974195303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21253825651282052,0.0,0.08786226132677218,0.0,0.12996388838287434,0.09869771639003372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.114015254411501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07218386174959253,0.07508239452565706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11083372812190843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2024708945697499,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09904004436670827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15515084313671512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25526482111088666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06237800990079805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09302218739450988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08407922539184966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11854618915540854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10868790423268744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,olivia2070,2019/01/02,"Experiences with university counseling centers? Does anyone have any experiences they can share about utilizing the counseling center at their university for eating disorder issues? Its a new year, and I want to make an effort to seek help. Thank you!",7.359878048780487,10.855298097560981,7.690426829268294,58.18246951219513,68.02439024390246,11.904878048780489,32.201219512195124,11.20814326018867,5.308068292682926,206,9,27,8,4,67,37,41,0.059,0.738,0.203,0.6859999999999999,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,1,2,1,1,2,0,0,3,0,2,1,0,1,0,4,5,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,2,6,5,0,5,0,0,0,0,5,3,0,0,2,17,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19286501328859787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19830720791527764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32504245307239016,0.0,0.2481896500551416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29020456743960976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5548514045825824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19009828564613165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2960159046350687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18931235616794506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2739129981987589,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2611106443218941,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16728094924945694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1826360034920464
EDAnonymous,careleus,2019/01/02,"My boyfriends mom tries to make me gain Literally. He's an only child and she really loves him but doesn't like me. Whenever I go to their house she makes a plate for me with massive portions, while everyone else is allowed to get their own, and expects me to eat it all or else she makes a huge deal of it. She also badgers me to eat more after I finish. She usually doesn't eat anything. She also tries to get me to eat sweets that I'm allergic to (she knows I am) and gets angry when I refuse. I literally had a few cookies with egg to please her and now I feel horrible. I hate going to his parents house. It's stressful and uncomfortable for me. I often am on the verge of tears and horrendously full just from how his mom treats me.",2.3265485829959545,4.027612039473688,3.952894736842108,87.54757085020245,76.63157894736842,7.3085020242914975,24.19230769230769,8.139509932561175,1.2850854251012145,578,19,125,10,13,193,93,152,0.212,0.7020000000000001,0.086,-0.9741,2,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,2,1,7,6,1,1,5,0,6,7,0,5,1,22,19,13,0,1,3,3,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,4,8,5,1,2,0,0,2,2,2,0,0,1,2,30,4,19,18,6,12,0,0,0,1,21,4,0,2,7,85,34,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.218242179322191,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1122888578723534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14067663220543808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5585002739944837,0.22797726518046266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13038630056272796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06899453117616082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21387254457063185,0.0,0.15509830678663514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1347186861371534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31489594466761217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07499077680145809,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06666384465956324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1231537930288403,0.0,0.273249497044031,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31962325649012313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1037783460872447,0.0,0.0,0.1515144569200885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14978397163326185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08741502541486773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15630598474040833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18528470790095536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1502832537778099,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,innocentkitty,2019/01/02,"psyllium husk and energy drinks?? so psyllium husk is fibre which you're supposed to take whilst drinking a lot of water (as it bulks) but does it have to be water or can it be any liquid?

basically can i take psyllium in my protein shake and then chug monster to make it work because i hate water and i'm so bad at drinking large quantities of it lmao",2.149738430583497,4.387470211267605,4.154446680080483,83.34281690140848,79.28169014084506,7.437424547283702,25.635814889336014,8.418075326091056,1.9784913480885304,279,11,54,6,7,95,50,71,0.17,0.746,0.084,-0.8392,0,0,3,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,1,2,3,1,1,1,0,6,6,0,1,0,7,11,9,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,6,3,6,0,0,3,0,1,0,3,0,0,0,0,3,0,8,9,1,5,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,2,2,33,9,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1707128171866243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20960424122940696,0.15302897245708535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21968294630024787,0.0,0.0,0.737757956743433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2478456841138755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2134214910135074,0.0,0.0,0.167568213117574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37749506065735816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18275690748574655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Alexithymia115,2019/01/02,"DAE not want to lose more weight? I don't know if this is a side effect of my previous recovery and the last few years in therapy but I feel like my current state is unrelatable. I don't want to lose more weight. I've been underweight and I wasn't satisfied. I felt sick and disgusting and I actually don't ever want to go back to underweight because it reminds me of a highly traumatic time in my life and battling Anorexia. I'm likely at a low healthy BMI rn. (I killed my scale when I hit my weight floor but I've probably still lost some weight because I just keep steadily high restricting.....). I don't want to lose weight. I just don't want to EVER GAIN WEIGHT EVER AGAIN. I have a disproportionate fear of gaining weight. Which is odd because I can recognize that I'm skinny and half the days I think to myself "" okay you can keep this"".

And yet I can't get myself to eat ENOUGH to keep this. Because I'm afraid that the minute I give myself more than 1200 or even 1150 or 1000 depending on how bad my Disorder is that day I will balloon and explode and gain weight again. 


I feel so fake :( ",2.372488789237668,4.300387986547086,3.627558295964125,88.91416255605381,77.20627802690584,7.329955156950674,24.154484304932733,8.238735603445708,1.351522152466368,863,29,185,16,20,281,120,223,0.231,0.636,0.133,-0.9757,1,0,0,0,0,0,24.0,0,1,0,8,14,15,3,2,7,1,16,12,1,3,3,39,37,17,1,6,8,0,11,2,0,1,2,0,0,0,8,9,10,4,7,0,0,1,8,12,0,1,4,11,29,3,17,31,6,26,0,5,0,0,2,9,0,5,17,113,37,0,0.0,0.0,0.07670226677135357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06043855221800109,0.06562772111766492,0.19165533423237666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10138100172125186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09008241540714196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08042742770995122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08121481635372703,0.0,0.05191456206125111,0.21329461359110174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08844685781752483,0.07948504846903562,0.056151859334407,0.07546833100389473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04106525855889484,0.07540028698311331,0.04467019422497595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16609044161418754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20958988790242736,0.08695926006178155,0.0,0.04319650722443105,0.06406949474339585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05551750806653922,0.07679998448527023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2637999017466687,0.0858011904457653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08474409943942916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06277006558891232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0898859558677168,0.0,0.0,0.05036370952636813,0.0,0.0,0.045832295046834025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23180159726142885,0.0,0.0,0.7657090497854442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05061582626933555
EDAnonymous,ianratman,2019/01/02,"does eating at maintenance when you're ill make you gain? I'll basically be in bed all day except for peeing lmao,, i'm still hungry though :( will i gain weight if i eat at my usual maintenance while not moving for 2 days?",2.5116666666666667,4.435302777777778,4.0063888888888926,86.37625000000004,76.7777777777778,7.166666666666668,17.916666666666668,8.07648339933343,0.5446666666666666,175,3,36,3,4,58,37,45,0.117,0.737,0.147,0.3527,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,1,0,2,3,0,0,0,0,0,2,5,1,1,1,5,4,4,0,1,3,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,6,2,1,10,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,1,6,19,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3649405663808157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2475991594307883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5790282305894595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18886194588143004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3007161416830921,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.225953017812574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2779831376023835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.311613979702547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3445397677662709,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,bugkid,2019/01/02,The only thing keeping me going I’m American and will be living in Scandinavia for a few months this time next year. I do NOT want to be known as the Fat American my whole time there. The thought of it just makes me want to hide. I hate how my entire life is controlled by my ED. I know I won’t be able to enjoy my time there. Spiraling!!! ,0.20916666666666828,2.3078449166666672,2.1783333333333346,95.47500000000002,85.94444444444444,5.822222222222222,18.722222222222214,7.1686216300943375,0.19535555555555506,262,7,61,4,8,87,53,72,0.121,0.8340000000000001,0.044,-0.5454,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,1,4,2,1,0,4,0,7,2,1,3,0,12,16,3,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,3,1,1,2,3,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,1,0,10,1,8,10,2,8,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,6,40,13,0,0.2507606515781169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.281249393355854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14251305707332718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2475742282953433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2228875888785994,0.0,0.0,0.1378114961497472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1771196640831231,0.0,0.0,0.2214262494915844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1673846821167642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2001547596934882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26668679777089466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19071477523288405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16659423447846106,0.0,0.0,0.1990759471164343,0.4386616574968258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2958102585704547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2799653123078301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16148163810539856
EDAnonymous,Flesh-And-Bone,2019/01/02,"This is not very nice but fuck all the NYRers. THIS IS THE YEAR I'M GOING TO DO IT YEAH I WENT TO THE GYM FOR 30 MINUTES AND DIDN'T DRINK SODA

Wow! Congratulations! You spent **one fucking day** doing what I live. Why are you celebrating? Why are you posting this to Reddit? You haven't earned any accolades. Come back when you've been doing it for six months and have made some progress.",-0.2769736842105281,1.4123324868421072,1.0124999999999993,96.26375000000004,112.28947368421049,3.478947368421053,13.960526315789476,5.602791699666715,-0.8330368421052627,303,7,63,3,16,95,57,76,0.116,0.684,0.199,0.8725,0,0,1,0,0,0,12.0,0,4,0,2,2,4,2,0,3,1,11,4,0,1,1,8,19,4,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,6,3,2,0,0,2,1,3,3,2,0,2,5,0,6,2,5,14,2,9,0,0,0,2,4,0,2,1,5,41,12,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17100918031908144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19336598984750505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2166203506307283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16217825402940994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2463462430370264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4649625278751126,0.0,0.0,0.1429169959570957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22205385985861664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2379483259575525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20072207816852405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17040353375062228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24084009512256085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20749024727893248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2331165139964224,0.453827662513729,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16193934151858014
EDAnonymous,origami-apple,2019/01/02,"Everything is triggering whenever I see people skipping meals or me failing to reject foods I feel that I'm failing

I need to be smaller but I keep failing",3.5090000000000003,6.131837233333332,5.223333333333333,75.42500000000003,76.66666666666666,8.0,36.66666666666667,8.841846274778883,4.010666666666667,127,8,20,3,3,43,23,30,0.335,0.665,0.0,-0.8625,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,3,0,4,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,1,0,6,7,2,0,1,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,1,1,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,2,5,0,2,6,0,0,0,4,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,12,6,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4026908209397497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2265545025491195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5418004835488008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3982596618914893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33223360457994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3106309983746135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35704880993859184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,anonxrandom,2019/01/02,What things did you do that caused you to lose weight abnormally fast? I’m curious to know because I would like to use a few tips just to help myself not gain anymore weight because I’m extremely unhappy with myself right now.,9.159318181818184,7.3091544772727275,8.544545454545457,72.9868181818182,61.04545454545455,12.436363636363636,37.90909090909091,11.20814326018867,4.0247636363636365,183,7,35,4,2,58,34,44,0.171,0.679,0.15,-0.2661,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,2,0,2,2,2,0,0,1,0,3,2,0,2,0,7,7,0,0,1,2,0,2,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,1,2,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,2,5,1,5,5,1,3,0,1,0,0,3,1,0,0,3,21,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26392715247930354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32445793284634306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2733864403269006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17837977725531232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14625681561492762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13001654406607427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.297728806239972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22727158854985996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17680340839018596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22984887308409524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.648143649249793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18904947156223872,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,lovelysilliness,2019/01/02,cried because i was too tired to go to the gym i wish i had the energy to be a gym rat. fuck me. ,-1.4962499999999963,-0.8718514583333317,2.3649999999999984,99.48,84.41666666666667,6.466666666666668,16.166666666666668,7.1686216300943375,-0.5194333333333336,71,1,22,1,2,27,18,24,0.312,0.521,0.16699999999999998,-0.6369,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,3,0,3,2,0,0,0,1,6,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,1,0,0,2,0,4,0,3,3,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,14,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2623440528285156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4727313173193698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3978617819943639,0.0,0.0,0.24458405690724444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4946366263260512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4948938765057088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Goldfish_Crackerz,2019/01/02,"Got my period two months in a row ... and I want to cry.

In October I went for a long overdue checkup with the dentist. I had two cavities, one of which I got filled. Later, a small bit of my tooth fell off from a molar when I was chewing gum. I decided then and there that I needed to stop purging. 

It was hard at first, but I did okay for the most part. Then in November I got my period. My periods are extremely irregular. In fact, I got a maximum of 5 periods in 2018. I didn't think much of it.

Except I got it again in December. At around the same time too. I know it's normal and even healthy, but I felt fat. I feel like a failure even though I've lost weight, and I'm terrified of getting it again this month. I feel like I'm on the brink of relapsing and purging daily like before even though it'll screw up my teeth even more. ",1.5537288135593244,3.018716576271192,3.7453333333333347,89.22749152542373,78.15254237288136,7.8838418079096035,23.664406779661018,8.648137234880735,1.4330447457627133,642,21,148,14,15,221,104,177,0.112,0.79,0.098,-0.3716,0,0,0,0,0,0,24.0,0,0,0,2,12,6,1,0,10,1,7,8,3,0,1,23,24,12,0,3,3,0,5,3,0,1,3,0,0,0,9,7,3,1,6,0,0,3,1,2,0,4,13,5,21,4,25,10,6,33,0,1,0,1,0,14,1,1,19,100,30,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11987836056704708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11458804641290085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14701680016221835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14792066182840902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35577379527457353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13617902298803836,0.19240613147767469,0.1292973179308292,0.0,0.0,0.11454403091421693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07035570710483999,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5385103476257244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12063133621341562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07400710276487213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1973681916437692,0.0,0.0,0.11917225928499058,0.0,0.0,0.14700025364728436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2149729780659005,0.0,0.09899258511339104,0.09985069192275546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13194086256456652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09125093626364436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1458265903377829,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11258405396198157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08628642605692034,0.26461085443138144,0.0,0.07852290815685645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26309179756592554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07942755436432868,0.0,0.0,0.16398290040280664,0.0,0.12483367975115604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,3-months-to-45,2019/01/02,"Vacation weight gain Nothing unique here just another gal who spent two weeks scale less and with family...

Tbh it wasn't as bad as I thought it was (50.5->53) buuuuuut 50.5kg meant an 18.5 bmi for me so that sucks. Told myself I was just gonna wait for the scale to bounce back but er... caved and used way to much lax and now I'm gonna die on the first day back to school I'm a bit scared right now ",1.1967441860465122,2.9835544302325587,2.186220930232558,98.53537790697676,80.27906976744184,6.16046511627907,17.726744186046513,7.1686216300943375,-0.3145767441860463,315,6,80,4,8,99,66,86,0.127,0.826,0.047,-0.8387,0,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,0,2,8,3,1,1,4,0,3,1,0,1,0,11,14,7,1,0,3,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,4,4,1,1,2,0,1,0,1,3,1,2,7,1,4,0,9,5,3,10,0,0,0,0,2,2,1,0,7,40,8,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24264172104476064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3558626456575821,0.19320825539608386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2526274570647058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14923302332676966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2401553254445201,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21814210765864286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.196827622556542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17010467523346534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2220333008924315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1976132320317362,0.0,0.0,0.2316704742351185,0.23418784597624326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.183704726424534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2211113815777523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22604291387217484,0.0,0.0,0.19985418757714926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18367352344619808,0.1856140855592356,0.2817812867995077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Hairless_Human,2019/01/02,"I just ruined $40 of binge food. Crushed it all up and poured it into my trashcan. well over 5k in calories destroyed. Could of just given it to my bro but noooooo I HAD to put it in the trash can. WTF is wrong with me. Doesn't help that I ate at least 3k worth before trashing the rest. I don't even know why I threw it away one second im pigging out and the next I just snap and start crushing it all up and tossing it away. My bro knows about my ED so he most likely would not of taken the food and would of just told me to eat it anyways.

Pros: I didn't binge on over 8k calories

Cons: Ruined food I could of just given to someone else

still ate 3k calories worth of binge food

​",0.2644379194630879,2.292103442953021,1.5049622483221476,100.85932256711409,85.04026845637584,3.725,18.708473154362405,3.1291,-0.9084197986577184,539,14,128,0,16,170,89,149,0.16899999999999998,0.7909999999999999,0.04,-0.9703,0,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,0,0,11,6,1,0,4,0,10,7,0,0,2,24,20,7,0,4,7,2,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,9,8,7,0,2,0,2,2,4,4,1,2,9,0,14,2,24,7,5,17,0,2,0,0,5,12,0,1,4,85,23,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15357179811443006,0.17222576459173708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2663328384666534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12060760451066856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2263306540348905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14503216364216825,0.11840293575459705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0936158406984248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6855549588246033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09500321071846214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1531001005823699,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15578971211505346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06924545664790384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15073872866334662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09604454545334484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14248466400528306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12009315769028744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10032205911325716,0.0,0.11319121702053855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13543561685054625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12743843376059352,0.0,0.12789544500900324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2013715574645545,0.15496697542952895,0.17222576459173708,0.0
EDAnonymous,Jenny_Roberts,2019/01/02,"DAE have a GIANT collection of GW clothes? (on mobile, please flair!)

I mean, about 3/4ths of the clothes I own are GW clothes. 

I have a sad pile of leggings, sweatpants, and stretchy dresses I've been existing in this year. The rest is all Future Skinny Me Aesthetic. Evening dresses, day dresses, lingerie, silk robes, crop tops, swimsuits and cute skirts. UUUUGHHHHH.


Please tell me I'm not the only one!",3.6500342465753413,6.570351863013703,3.4865582191780864,86.31833047945206,78.31506849315069,5.8417808219178085,31.042808219178077,7.1686216300943375,2.0004260273972605,318,16,57,4,8,96,55,73,0.041,0.807,0.152,0.8118,0,0,0,0,0,0,20.0,0,0,0,1,2,2,0,0,5,0,5,2,2,0,1,5,7,2,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,1,1,5,1,6,6,3,7,0,1,0,0,1,4,0,0,3,30,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2140851351993495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2192548080804409,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3615990508266251,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22494300348574056,0.2524686489534554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7287793336259424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2901454999796271,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21376975618945745
EDAnonymous,Imaskinnybitchyall,2019/01/02,"My mom got the whole family fitness trackers for Christmas.... I know she didn't mean anything by it. I know she thinks it's an awesome gift for someone as health conscious and active as I am. But fuck, I thought I was recovered and this thing on my wrist is the best/worst thing ever.... I'm so conflicted. ",3.046721311475409,4.715067114754099,3.8696393442622967,89.04872131147543,74.57377049180329,6.847213114754098,28.593442622950818,7.554174236665415,1.6159875409836069,238,10,49,3,5,76,47,61,0.056,0.754,0.189,0.8074,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,0,2,1,1,0,3,0,4,3,1,0,1,11,12,6,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,5,2,0,1,6,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,4,0,9,0,6,8,1,3,0,0,0,1,3,2,1,0,1,33,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21502288975220948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2742121765838514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2363555928010929,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24632494794293255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2415623076376116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.208980867525579,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2777435506284173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2872009536501401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2846260203753923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3060246472568273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22139375538504816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3471845553642285,0.1674267936777855,0.0,0.20743843386809385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2917256793888876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Postana,2019/01/02,"Anyone else disturbed when people from here post in progresspics? And especially when they reply to concerned people with things like ""everyone is so fat they just don't know what healthy looks like"" or describe their routine for weight loss as if it's not disordered?

Even if I'm proud of my progress I feel like I'm just gonna call it like it is. Yeah, it's unhealthy but I don't care. But presenting an ED as not only fine and healthy but as what should be the *norm* is narcissistic at best.  

Not targeting one person here because I see this a LOT. Idc if you're gonna be pro but don't do it in healthy spaces.",3.8646044444444456,4.976811336000004,4.269866666666669,89.18737777777778,71.64,7.475555555555558,27.488888888888887,7.793537801064563,1.3931422222222225,487,17,105,6,9,153,83,125,0.142,0.7190000000000001,0.139,-0.101,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,3,4,8,10,0,1,3,1,10,2,1,0,0,20,19,16,0,4,13,0,2,4,0,3,1,0,0,1,9,3,2,0,2,0,0,0,6,2,0,1,0,4,7,8,11,14,2,8,0,1,2,0,5,4,0,5,7,64,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1491819230181552,0.21860615959632787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13005848341670026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2239016282067408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2178580627691436,0.0,0.21752839700205026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24452191486954974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17822970541812302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14091815885994513,0.0,0.0,0.20386867893566946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1078780812398523,0.15241998236701615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11725365726990485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4169355180678497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17916343986038288,0.0,0.0,0.18138575332544826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1445740423079211,0.16226516303955346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29582529326255685,0.1862922904075201,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.204333943876124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17001533887765893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14174277051207726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25980742501221266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,leftshoelauren,2019/01/02,"Moved back in with my parents and I am about to shit my shorts First post in the new PC ED sub, long time no see!

Anyway I haven't lost a single pound in 3 months and I fucking hate myself. I have been living with my best friend and roommate for the past year and have lost about 40lbs from may-august. It was the best I ever felt but then this past semester started and I got back into depression eating. I have managed to maintain and not gain, but I can't stop thinking about all the progress I could have made in the past 6 months.

Fast forward to now, my lease has ended and I am SUPPOSED to be graduating this August. I have moved back in with my parents because I want to move post-grad and don't want to get tied up in a year-long lease and be stuck here till December. Also I can save money for my move. Unfortunately, this now means I'm living with my two parents (for which I am grateful) BUT I have an unlimited amount of food at my disposal. 

I don't know how this will go. I'm much more of a hermit at my parent's house, so I likely won't be going out to eat a lot. At the same time, I'm nervous that I will idly eat as there is an infinite amount of snacks available to me. I'm just so stressed out about college and super upset that I had to move back in, I've been finding myself idly snacking and I just. Need to end this now. This could potentially be really easy for me. I can just stay in my room all day and *not* eat. God help me.",2.2362770562770566,3.4276934285714304,3.628636363636364,91.9046212121212,75.75324675324677,6.432034632034633,22.248917748917748,6.816661863887847,0.3597917748917747,1128,29,260,10,24,371,158,308,0.099,0.775,0.126,0.7711,4,0,0,0,0,0,31.0,0,0,0,8,22,15,3,3,12,0,30,9,1,2,3,46,53,22,0,5,8,4,1,1,1,3,0,0,1,0,10,19,7,1,5,0,1,8,8,9,0,3,10,2,36,6,43,34,11,56,0,3,1,1,6,18,2,1,31,180,46,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06760060325017844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.260001073638239,0.0,0.05153022247411631,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1774232700660374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13498463265829608,0.0,0.0,0.05451646409184417,0.0,0.07280771142671756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3459913711884208,0.0,0.0,0.1497413945420009,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07646447852096636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08116444871115902,0.0,0.07726116618252586,0.07190329444637036,0.10221702477578087,0.0,0.06530959356789716,0.07814892664450547,0.044164738079895995,0.0,0.09608352642391056,0.0,0.0676083559810253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08345833495823245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05666034746761878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0975391461296726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04645684684530267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04129830565254474,0.0,0.14928747815033694,0.14961719053915928,0.0,0.0,0.18455440126090272,0.07186650172252693,0.0,0.07998668776781219,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09208066525346753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13494605713205302,0.4492233051120189,0.06214110799668113,0.06267977165368456,0.0,0.08164200745465659,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3754533141387008,0.0,0.2420874857743867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16191752064668827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05415367890412078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06736145160411032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08677138819454225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059832532869539164,0.09010038898411547,0.0,0.07067294836216262,0.09683168389246738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05416500755191817,0.0,0.0,0.09858315166533872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08257596155741563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09971890779521304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1088723065837618
EDAnonymous,taglilie,2019/01/02,"im officially off the goop the second the doctor left me alone in his office, i ran to the scale
i don’t have scales in my house to prevent obsessing while i swap fat with muscle fml",2.5815384615384644,3.78423587179487,4.305641025641027,87.34769230769234,74.8974358974359,7.2512820512820495,20.69230769230769,7.793537801064563,0.6055230769230766,145,3,32,2,3,49,31,39,0.121,0.8490000000000001,0.03,-0.5106,0,1,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,4,0,2,2,1,0,0,2,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,1,1,0,6,0,6,2,0,6,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,0,1,20,6,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4300883412583712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.42504037369805225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4791589843966445,0.0,0.0,0.4485564571799619,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4511856290202297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,SpaceWhale88,2019/01/02,"Last binge for the year I went out to dinner and a movie tonight and I ate so goddamn much. Tomorrow is a new day, I'm gonna eat veggies and proteins. Only one bread a day. I'm gonna weigh myself in a few days once the food weight is gone then I'm going to stick to under 1500 calories and hopefully a daily average closer to 1350 like my dietitian suggested. I need to lose 5lbs by my birthday at the end of the month. I want to be 10lbs down by March. I did it last year I can do it again. ",0.09492424242424492,1.9284844351851864,2.4427946127946143,95.03621212121212,84.27777777777777,5.779124579124581,20.003367003367003,6.980632752743323,0.2281740740740741,381,11,91,5,11,130,74,108,0.067,0.868,0.065,-0.294,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,1,2,3,0,0,9,0,6,7,0,0,0,8,18,6,0,3,0,0,1,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,5,7,0,0,0,0,3,0,1,0,1,4,1,9,2,15,11,2,24,0,1,0,0,1,6,0,1,16,51,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4155694425697461,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21978596077031196,0.0,0.0,0.19024206386105055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2597274830324397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.122071311181795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21333703920398567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3501684900088731,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10493657983265127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2402974395981737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17144502024463354,0.0,0.15789692185062626,0.15926563470586189,0.0,0.2074475670997796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2287465968055737,0.14554869877893592,0.1633590854937651,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12668995692844334,0.0,0.0,0.261558935753446,0.0,0.1991144463336986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2766381649530901
EDAnonymous,not_so_jollyrancher,2019/01/02,"Finally Didn’t Binge (for a whole day) I never had a single day (that I was not sick) of restricted food intake that didn’t lead me to binging. I have been binging way more (+ purging) and have been miserable the last six months of 2018. Today was the first day of me getting a handle on my food intake and I feel pretty good rn. I am refusing to let myself purge anymore too. Today was probably around 1280 cals and was the first time I didn’t feel urges to wolf down everything in sight. I even had a vegan donut! 

I hope you all have a successful and happy 2019!💕 ",1.7488479623824489,3.7470771293103446,3.4761755485893424,88.92274294670847,79.43103448275863,6.97680250783699,20.890282131661447,8.00094639256281,0.9427689655172418,441,12,93,8,11,147,75,116,0.051,0.7829999999999999,0.166,0.9241,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,1,0,4,3,5,0,1,8,0,16,3,0,1,2,14,20,4,0,1,1,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,5,2,2,2,0,0,1,5,1,0,3,11,3,13,4,11,8,4,18,0,1,1,0,2,4,0,1,12,65,15,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17593504110697422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15792532538387793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3432286982016363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11717229889536646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15943741199659733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17939948806537392,0.0,0.0,0.1943351384125552,0.0,0.301795974975674,0.4290302257892808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09268518425333652,0.0,0.0,0.14879631861145962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18884764882476407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17620014068259168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14460624707362446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1814054885125723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14160052468690038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13682330168432374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1804815357158636,0.19126928081219285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1034444895817896,0.0,0.3363125652541425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14081339134637702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1980629148046706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,hydroflower,2019/01/02,Water went out So great job on me for straining my relationship with my s/o by staring at him until asking him to go to the store so I could purge all this maccas into a gallon ziplock ,2.7023076923076914,3.9350012820512816,4.910769230769233,83.0092307692308,74.64102564102564,6.2256410256410275,23.256410256410252,6.42735559955562,0.6934717948717943,146,4,29,1,3,51,35,39,0.057,0.836,0.108,0.4754,1,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,1,2,0,1,1,0,0,1,5,4,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,1,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,0,0,1,1,6,1,10,2,1,7,0,0,1,0,4,4,0,0,1,23,7,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3801797507857567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3246913642854498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2311188367561128,0.0,0.0,0.4483529845965143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4035553111439429,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4366093176144449,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3769853766004676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,FeatherMahogany59,2019/01/03,"Depression after cardio Hey y’all- I just finished my workout (40 minute elliptical- nothing crazy) for the first time in a couple weeks. I have had such a mood crash it’s unbelievable.

I really never experience the endorphin rush from exercise like people talk about... I usually feel awful after I work out. I know that exercise is supposed to be this cure all for any mental illness... but it’s not for me. 

I was doing okay when I started my workout but after I finished I walked home from the gym and I just couldn’t stop thinking “I just wish I could disappear” and “you should just die now”.  I made myself dinner and literally took 2 bites then just threw it away. I’ve been lying in bed for 3 hours just ruminating. 

Anyone else crash like this after working out? It’s happened to me before but not usually this bad. 

Thanks for listening y’all ❤️❤️❤️",2.2729166666666707,4.7935280773809525,4.134523809523813,82.04380952380954,80.72619047619048,7.066666666666667,23.619047619047624,8.167268648758528,1.6983904761904767,679,24,126,14,18,229,109,168,0.179,0.726,0.095,-0.9467,0,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,3,0,3,10,7,0,0,5,2,10,5,0,1,2,27,21,8,1,4,11,0,1,2,0,1,4,1,2,0,8,5,1,1,3,5,0,5,4,2,0,1,6,2,22,4,19,11,1,28,0,1,0,0,6,5,0,0,20,85,30,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11916059633532962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1225230265969432,0.17954111171510298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16463184899610694,0.0,0.1463075051477001,0.0,0.0,0.14910555564907296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13990476830714796,0.1938857128674778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15092304653543948,0.0,0.18185830849562087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14637995338518653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17140595673674874,0.0,0.0,0.0886002053705198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14904828130332848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15495295329741135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17576730377620794,0.0,0.1725636277310512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09630036051030837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17121444923062354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16580434082655834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17658793937673567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13514612287283848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16813535346450167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12148057063872872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1122551175027414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1240268093262574,0.0,0.0,0.14649789789361944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1408410940650965,0.0,0.16132578717292168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11227860064766117,0.0,0.0,0.10217646795129444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1946840162001768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3859763062804775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1405567982732996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2015027870674731,0.0,0.0,0.2551351730853931,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,oopswellfuck,2019/01/03,"Effed up thought of the day While upset over something completely unrelated to my ED I thought ""I'll go look at my thigh gap in the mirror, that'll cheer me up"" and then immediately thought ""wtf is wrong with me"" (but did it anyways)

Hit me with your recent super fucked thoughts!",6.846111111111113,6.619292870370373,6.507777777777778,80.465,64.74074074074075,9.422222222222222,34.66666666666667,8.841846274778883,2.6462666666666674,221,9,45,3,3,69,44,54,0.214,0.6779999999999999,0.108,-0.7901,0,0,1,0,1,0,8.0,0,1,0,1,1,5,1,1,2,0,3,2,1,0,0,8,11,4,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,4,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,5,1,7,2,9,4,0,10,0,0,1,1,1,5,1,0,4,27,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26013460998730176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1600079612029782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2293701660753733,0.0,0.0,0.14100446006899434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20834670460238092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2449749216330032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19100425923080572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7878743748071684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2712651601731492,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,bootlegdnyh,2019/01/03,"fluctuating weight makes everything worse When i was overweight borderline obese I never worried about weight fluctuations bc i was too big to notice them physically and too scared to weigh myself.


But now it makes everything worse. I swear i eat one thing and i put on 5 lbs ik its water weight but still. Or like last week being able to see my hip bones and collar bones quite prominently and now the fat is slowly building up. It's making everything worse and my view of my body even worse which shouldnt make sense. I'm finally a healthy weight but i hate my body so much more. ",3.8090178571428552,6.074353294642857,3.949428571428573,86.69557142857144,74.08928571428572,7.694285714285716,22.807142857142853,8.548686976883017,1.3719257142857153,467,13,92,9,10,144,79,112,0.18600000000000005,0.745,0.069,-0.9187,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,1,1,9,3,1,1,2,0,5,15,6,4,1,15,12,11,0,1,4,0,4,1,0,1,3,0,0,0,5,5,10,0,0,0,0,1,2,2,0,1,2,6,13,1,7,8,2,12,0,0,2,0,1,3,0,1,9,53,18,0,0.11573172295228867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2571037087012833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1184224450365003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07643971151811219,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3120366304948271,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12677844557230547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11426111640277666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09433680071341352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05654067399936062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3090072949688375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08507613263264502,0.0,0.08925943937521337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13176133364587567,0.0,0.0,0.07842281063300245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11634234688341845,0.0,0.12309493305911927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11586764423754745,0.0,0.0922231993562919,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09242350344645876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07688701424554918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09283300732241108,0.5637202409927891,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11753118240956754,0.4717620517043305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,pinkietim,2019/01/03,Caffeine pills Does anyone take caffeine pills for appetite suppressant? Does it work well? ,6.471904761904758,9.77825571428572,3.087142857142858,81.24119047619047,99.0,4.723809523809524,33.23809523809524,6.42735559955562,2.8909809523809527,76,4,9,1,3,20,11,14,0.0,0.841,0.159,0.3527,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2993524657048589,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7493039157525135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32189404308743996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3849325905692373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31167750778143866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Little_Bear716,2019/01/03,"Calculated the cals of a single Starburst Candy So that way I could figure if it was worth it to eat the ones I don’t like. It’s not worth it. 



Thank you for all understanding. If I told a “normal” non ED person I did that they would look at me like I’m crazy. ",-0.15368421052631476,1.7158016140350902,2.399210526315791,94.78197368421051,85.49122807017544,5.203508771929825,14.76315789473684,6.42735559955562,-0.7360736842105267,200,3,49,2,6,69,44,57,0.08199999999999999,0.759,0.159,0.509,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,1,1,0,1,3,0,0,4,0,5,1,0,0,1,9,10,3,0,5,3,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,1,6,0,1,0,2,0,2,0,2,0,0,1,3,1,7,3,4,5,2,2,0,0,1,0,4,1,0,2,2,33,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2589717479730182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3318970034428575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31692776259168265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2723772174475204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3177998593801642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21979191396223668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2832150115708171,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29862328212840544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30993590844466884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3376658721242581,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2574585710618997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2304130850105949,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,VengefulBodied,2019/01/03,"Keto is easy You just gotta throw up any bread/carbs you eat! Just (almost) kidding, don't purge just do the best you can. Diets and eating styles can be hard to adjust to and stick to 100%, but you know if you stick to it 75-90% of the time then you're doing good. See the big picture, don't get stuck on one badly drawn stroke. It'll all come together. ",1.7601754385964874,2.9070353684210564,2.857894736842109,97.13359649122809,76.89473684210526,5.592982456140351,16.614035087719298,5.46131890053228,-0.8302912280701755,272,3,66,1,6,87,57,76,0.067,0.7809999999999999,0.151,0.6859999999999999,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,5,0,1,3,3,0,0,3,0,9,4,0,0,1,12,15,5,0,1,5,0,2,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,2,3,3,0,2,0,0,2,2,1,0,1,1,3,5,2,7,11,2,7,0,0,1,0,6,3,0,2,2,36,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29263664647521515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19873356120297725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24400861042103256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30668837471126503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2517393138167021,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.598069978387862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1526835993523353,0.0,0.0,0.2451174659574213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2617900859172653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16060773592880995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1980297258933426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23287784181823284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17040778555655964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Roseemacculate02,2019/01/03,"Fucking RElIEF Just weighed myself since probably before Thanksgiving and I'm LOWER! HOLY CRAP IM SO HAPPY! I was at 105 and now its 103. I was not even heavily restricting or counting calories, which makes me sort of mistrust the scale... but wow I'm so happy I almost cried. I was about to skip dinner too but not anymore ! You're the only ones who would understand, hope you're all having a good day as well 😸 ",1.5181481481481498,4.1384401358024725,3.010975308641978,87.90238888888894,85.91358024691358,5.709135802469136,21.680246913580245,7.1686216300943375,0.9725298765432092,325,11,61,5,10,106,65,81,0.078,0.622,0.3,0.9734,1,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,0,8,9,2,0,3,0,5,4,1,1,1,16,11,8,0,2,6,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,2,2,1,1,0,0,0,2,2,1,1,3,0,6,7,5,7,1,3,0,0,0,1,1,1,2,4,2,38,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2313146974292781,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2290914787139495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19656531620661116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2537443701677324,0.14897689797578315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15257435386013207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21355722286062925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19375315140981295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4918109189472075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22943667460785735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2495213283137173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15419533718663486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.156532637585775,0.17568709813598038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2490587554253961,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19108688017601566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2404807739896768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2076981474813265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16409688273236775,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,pelicandreaming,2019/01/03,"Facebook memories are the bane of my existence It never fails at least once a week a Facebook memory of me shows up on my mother’s page. And it also never fails that when this happens, she will wait until I’m alone and come in and proceed to show me whatever picture it was along with telling me how much better I looked and how I need to put on weight because I looked “so much better!!!¡¡¡” Every time this happens I stay silent and usually she will drop it but damn, I don’t want to put on weight and I’ve made that clear, why keep pushing it? ",2.7070436507936506,4.1860799821428625,3.8026190476190496,89.9646031746032,75.07142857142857,6.7634920634920634,24.051587301587304,7.3871296695380915,0.9181218253968262,426,13,91,5,9,138,74,112,0.06,0.841,0.1,0.528,0,1,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,3,6,4,1,0,3,0,5,2,0,3,3,20,16,13,0,2,1,1,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,9,9,2,2,0,2,0,4,3,3,0,0,2,4,12,1,14,12,4,20,0,2,2,0,4,6,1,0,8,60,21,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1732048811228132,0.0,0.13373765832447188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10194481935498403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29581128960687064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14405802519908545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1409025835975682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29577047145278296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1486460288825071,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2808703289744646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15824166952488908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2458737309904793,0.12400253077999353,0.2579636697881701,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17809966954633882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3362344527804532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17825011105692812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14617064012940972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09751599261012404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1841855731834053,0.0,0.0986394542209245,0.0,0.13414571844718126,0.4072940159557884,0.0,0.0,0.15090345078864167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,thinraindrop,2019/01/03,"First date tomorrow  I'm so freaking nervous. We will be going out for drinks in my hometown. I was wondering if any of you have some last words of advice for me? I really like this guy and I do not want to fuck it up. I allready told him he won't be spending the night. Also, I gained 3 kg the past 2 months so I'm freaking out about that too lol. 


Thanks

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EDAnonymous,sendmecats,2019/01/03,"""Everything about your body is fine but..."" ""The cellulite on your butt, you don't need to diet but you could do some exercises to get rid of it, it's the only thing I don't really like."" said by my amazing fiance and when told I've had it since a teen and there's not much I can do about it.  
""I haven't seen any other girl have it though"" (comparing me to his Korean exes. Thanks mate).  


The joys of being pear shaped. Feeling like shit because this was part of my body which I was okay and didn't obsess over  since my ideal body is skinny but curvy and I thought that it was the part of my body he liked most.. apparently it's the worst fml.  


All those days I walked around in just my underwear and probably made him want to throw up lmao. Anyone got some tips? Would be appreciated. I'll just be here contemplating my existence.",2.5817497886728624,4.189030171597636,3.780579036348268,89.45823964497042,75.68639053254438,7.432121724429415,20.355452240067624,8.192908349453996,0.6909759932375317,645,14,144,11,14,210,111,169,0.055,0.7190000000000001,0.226,0.9851,1,0,0,0,0,0,25.0,0,4,0,1,9,12,1,1,6,1,19,9,7,1,1,24,30,10,0,5,6,0,1,3,1,1,1,1,0,1,13,6,2,0,2,1,0,2,5,3,0,0,11,3,19,9,16,14,8,10,0,0,1,1,11,6,2,3,5,96,32,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10057463008121724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10341260832348803,0.0,0.0,0.1316591603634173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09015627853973487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6571182806257435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11808324858909736,0.0,0.0,0.09538094899812567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1329197564922743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07478086846077595,0.10565722453701687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07726976979316491,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11828626931507145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2167641455167489,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13994315870628982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10872087820173157,0.10966331369624993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11248188393384724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3203147982958014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15945734386701965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09474622706478047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1406833534235776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15181353907944234,0.2446828766060389,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13616314340873426,0.0,0.0,0.09825580280170836,0.0,0.14530747147646067,0.1174132289972175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14132135729096074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08723313421923608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10506136599240797,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,islea,2019/01/03,not skinny enough my dad just told me we could go on a trip to london and it’s obviously great news but guess what my first thought was???? that i can’t go if i’m not skinny by then. spent all evening trying out apps for fasting. i’m so tired of postponing everything because i’m not “skinny enough.” my mom told me that we could go to spanish classes together and i said no because i’m not skinny yet! what correlation does my weight have with taking spanish lessons? i have no idea. i haven’t bought new clothes in a year because going to the store and seeing myself makes me cry. i told myself i can’t throw a birthday party unless i’m at my ugw. i let everything in my life be affected by my weight and i just want it to stop,1.392127192982457,3.4448895723684245,3.0343684210526334,91.35624561403507,80.90789473684211,5.895438596491228,22.63333333333333,7.03164865440522,0.6640301754385964,573,19,124,7,15,189,89,152,0.151,0.8,0.05,-0.9469,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,2,0,0,2,5,1,0,0,4,0,10,8,4,2,2,30,31,9,0,4,9,2,2,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,6,8,6,1,3,0,3,6,9,0,0,1,8,4,22,1,15,19,3,18,0,0,1,0,8,5,0,2,7,79,28,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2590896134746037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2262304502826235,0.0,0.1556223249089319,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1239799425559867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2927743940169225,0.0,0.09357439399934812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2546550566824455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12050790048512006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3220665792772033,0.0,0.0,0.15619617388661935,0.15606997212975973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15993279223764914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14487134600711438,0.10006859284589584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09456854884007317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16592697078380433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1368297097581435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13476449357789774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1128958995404018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1184458750296863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10652127696681198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11247339475562927,0.0,0.16283351441674548,0.0,0.40612696563427897,0.0,0.09618740091748476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08356304331808681,0.0,0.0,0.3450417256190704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0912334628642578
EDAnonymous,lykaeria,2019/01/03,"The thrill of referencing your ED in public but no one noticing I’m an attention whore so maybe I’m just weird and the only one doing this, but does anyone else feel a rush whenever you mention your ED discreetly in public? Because I know people w/o EDs won’t notice and if they do notice anything they just think it’s a minor “oof that’s tough” and not a full on ED. It’s like having an inside joke with myself and seeing how far I can push it without people actually getting it. 

For example, I complained about my nails and how they stabbed my throat yesterday and GOD it was great because I knew y’all would get it but everyone else wouldn’t. I feel like I’m getting away with something huge under their very eyes and they’ll never notice. What a rush.

Looking back it’s a little sad that my life has went to hell so much that this is what I get high off of but DAMN it feels good and you betcha I’m going to keep doing it (unless someone actually pieces two and two together please host my funeral if that actually happens jfc)",2.6170334928229657,4.663114913875599,4.000478468899523,85.9733492822967,76.89473684210526,6.696650717703347,23.44019138755981,7.669130373188453,1.1384105263157895,823,26,163,12,19,271,128,209,0.161,0.71,0.128,-0.8677,0,0,1,0,0,0,11.0,0,5,5,0,9,13,2,0,9,0,12,4,2,2,1,35,32,20,1,4,11,0,3,2,0,4,1,0,0,0,17,11,0,1,7,1,0,5,6,7,0,4,3,6,21,6,16,25,3,19,1,1,3,1,14,11,2,2,5,106,38,0,0.0,0.0,0.3465484232074092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08276999122374644,0.12128835414625246,0.0974118784008106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11121645518424443,0.09102245106837507,0.0,0.14431962416336433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10359005793508606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1977729051189889,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11311161851860953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17956065299621848,0.08456655034072857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2473825298994431,0.0,0.06727478436928316,0.0992866606307183,0.0,0.13050797063280592,0.0,0.0,0.10467791190558386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12506883884496364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10521642569692397,0.0,0.0,0.06505536318901793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08361119642967874,0.11566330716605765,0.11864204390470855,0.0,0.0,0.09940451259001004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1189227919544874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08701865546651562,0.0,0.0912974786438003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5390792336951858,0.0,0.0,0.16042683953808382,0.09002891133846784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16413152767929004,0.0,0.0,0.1299393217421098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09432890944228912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10029807339637203,0.0911302404695543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07584940601241483,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23126878101255505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09767111007993716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10973406701562886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11410850218941655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0840896335768307,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,epnos,2019/01/03,"S.O. Keeps Accidentally Triggering Me...? So my girlfriend has recently started complaining about her pants being too tight or how upset she is with her stomach/weight and it's making absolute alarm bells go off in my mind. She knows I'm a (somewhat) recovering anorexic and has had many talks with me about not eating... I don't know what it is about this situation that's making me freak out but I'm panicked at the thought of her developing an ED as well. 

And in addition to that, I'm starting to view myself more critically even though I've been doing really well at not restricting lately. :( I really don't want to relapse.

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TL;DR: My S.O. is having trouble with her weight and I don't know how to respond or tell her that she's inadvertently fucking up my recovery. ",4.184334719334721,6.470493878378381,5.4337837837837855,76.38231808731811,73.05405405405405,8.607900207900206,28.95218295218295,9.265573868473778,2.815669854469854,626,26,111,15,13,208,96,148,0.118,0.8079999999999999,0.07400000000000001,-0.5669,0,0,0,0,0,0,28.0,0,0,0,0,11,8,1,2,3,0,13,3,0,5,0,29,28,12,0,1,5,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,7,9,2,3,4,0,0,1,5,6,2,0,3,3,19,2,19,24,2,12,0,0,1,1,13,7,1,3,4,80,26,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18636510290041447,0.20900238672940127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17600193807005196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11360631313225085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1590139372584168,0.0,0.0,0.0977532289844531,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15288410732942045,0.0,0.0,0.2835849363518632,0.0,0.1940267970721869,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22962658293171,0.17438397419319526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17367392687652575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22037896281657374,0.0,0.16983214288485596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1933385000717636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2434891184368683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1382494398585413,0.15033814224272635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1689920055158846,0.13655111358502942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10145178461475844,0.0,0.0,0.4189064620033272,0.3093025817613195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20900238672940127,0.0
EDAnonymous,jellyboness,2019/01/03,"Getting called “tiny” should feel like a compliment but does it ever give you a feeling of despair? I was talking to my health insurance agent on the phone yesterday and he needed my height and weight to fill out a form. I let him know and he said “wow. You’re tiny. You’re 5 foot 4 and you weigh ***** pounds? You’re so small.” 

I was just like “uhhh haha yeah...” it made me so uncomfortable and I wanted to die. The worst thing is that I lied and added several pounds to my real weight so my insurance wouldn’t think I’m underweight (I know this probably isn’t allowed but sometimes I black out and lie about stuff to protect myself idk). 

WHY is this the worst feeling on earth? Shouldn’t it make me feel good or accomplished or something? ",0.07191780821917604,2.3301013150684966,1.3163671232876728,96.02657808219179,100.91780821917808,4.801753424657535,18.168767123287672,6.55674776486733,0.18322882191780865,576,18,121,9,25,181,90,146,0.16,0.6559999999999999,0.185,-0.3938,1,0,1,0,0,0,20.0,0,2,0,1,6,9,0,0,6,2,9,5,1,3,1,31,24,14,1,5,5,0,6,2,0,3,1,1,0,0,8,9,3,1,7,0,0,1,3,3,0,0,4,8,17,6,11,16,3,9,0,1,1,0,10,6,0,2,4,70,25,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17899779359031578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18193056668260774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1534035493346706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15856613453757265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3545416363892385,0.12523218188936794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09158542548973553,0.16816081543703892,0.0,0.1470307715426073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1863324692001326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19267724751549312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1792530163848618,0.0,0.1712824782681182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1658702202530294,0.11701208073189134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12998047324807505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1889997695685628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19952631570076165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1667475497482449,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1980356663524858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13495216257637335,0.17337317388799844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20067307758949796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1408970547863557,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11645950972182165,0.11232321256661792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10339468767226297,0.0,0.0,0.4269289393695484,0.0,0.0,0.15817823898348887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,orthoreXXX,2019/01/03,Yall...this intermittent fasting thing is no joke I haven’t had a single binge since I started IF two weeks ago...and I used to binge weekly. I’m not even hungry. What the fuck is this sorcery ,-0.06461538461538296,2.262118307692308,1.468076923076925,96.11442307692309,96.69230769230772,3.6256410256410256,16.756410256410255,5.46131890053228,-0.6448666666666663,150,4,32,1,6,48,33,39,0.159,0.78,0.061,-0.5423,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,2,0,4,1,0,1,0,3,8,1,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,3,1,0,1,1,0,3,1,1,7,1,4,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,4,19,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31385080303089435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2338517825309008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3273206536669239,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2928802017958696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2506038740428717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2352202144371004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3458629423933159,0.0,0.0,0.3057921886644341,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5680074874407673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ceruleanmuse,2019/01/03,"Store employee said 'This is a dress that is for if you're very tiny. I'll get you a bigger size.' I'm in Jerusalem right now and went to try on dresses in a high end store with a ton of different brands. I grabbed a cute dress in a zero, since I usually wear either a 0 or a 2. When I asked to try it on, the saleslady said, 'This is a 0, I will get you a bigger size.' I said, 'I usually wear a 0 or a 2, it's fine.' She said, 'This dress is for if you're very tiny though, I'm getting you at least a size up.'

Obviously, I didn't buy anything and started crying outside the store. My husband asked why I was letting this ruin our entire vacation and 'why would I let her affect me so much.' I've been hospitalized for anorexia before... I wish I could just let it go. ",1.8864171656686644,2.4942033053892203,4.039895209580839,90.88563123752495,75.82634730538922,7.243313373253492,24.695109780439118,7.492282038375204,0.8804295409181635,580,18,142,7,12,201,94,167,0.053,0.907,0.04,-0.4404,2,0,0,0,0,0,22.0,1,3,0,0,5,3,0,0,15,0,13,2,2,1,1,15,28,10,0,5,6,1,1,0,0,2,0,4,0,0,8,4,0,0,0,0,4,2,1,1,0,1,8,5,19,2,14,14,4,19,0,1,0,0,13,11,0,4,6,86,27,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11077674266856433,0.0,0.2516938602367762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.114547520048073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10747918937508537,0.0,0.14786834671444646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14064410949649764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11922900691969955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2109924731864706,0.0,0.07650485339678265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14222822518192385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4129591258755001,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09895757439678364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11496054463952915,0.5121990787076244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11135498703585474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.095281248012212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13225863474317814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1827896088398789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2965189894453074,0.2221430816262379,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12478952981225085,0.2429383472238704,0.0,0.15480070102604165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09562669207040897,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,eattillithurts,2019/01/03,"[discussion] should we remind younger people how what they do affect them? Like, if i see someone underage, with stats or whatever, and they claim o do something, like rectriction, but are talking about something completely different, would you/should we tell them that like restriciting leads to stunned growth and whatsoever?


they most likely dont know what they are doing, but, they are here to vent? i dont know....",9.353750000000002,9.749769097222224,7.655000000000001,72.24000000000002,59.41666666666667,11.644444444444444,37.444444444444436,11.20814326018867,4.3086277777777795,333,14,55,8,4,99,50,72,0.022,0.8320000000000001,0.146,0.8438,1,0,2,0,0,0,18.0,2,0,7,1,3,4,0,0,0,0,10,0,0,3,0,17,13,7,0,3,4,0,0,4,0,2,0,0,0,0,3,5,0,0,2,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,1,11,4,4,11,1,2,0,0,1,0,12,0,0,3,4,37,14,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24161498022273464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24076376721792145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5401546891808852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2532907656309741,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4503310133306096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15976008076873968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1836331435453855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19525350836998548,0.35481238208758115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18522126168070613,0.20141723838753675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16370001354399516,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,deanhipchester,2019/01/03,"just got called a cow boyfriend: ""Hey google, what does a cat sound like?""

google: meows

boyfriend: ""hey google, what does a dog sound like""

google: barks

boyfriend: ""hey google, what does a cow sound like""

google: moos

boyfriend: ""aha sounds like deanhipchester""

anyway, i'm upset.",3.1534574468085097,6.185357191489363,-0.2434308510638292,107.27187500000002,94.10638297872343,3.201063829787234,16.513297872340427,5.148860815047168,-1.0929127659574465,216,5,43,1,8,52,24,47,0.054000000000000006,0.79,0.156,0.5994,0,0,0,0,0,0,21.0,0,0,0,0,2,5,0,1,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,4,0,0,0,4,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,4,0,4,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,4,9,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29005193160331977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7457353787471543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2271847460078712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5550997325160233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,SeaGreenBones,2019/01/03,"Triggered My friend just told me I look ""scary thin"" and that ""[I've] lost too much weight"". I don't look thin though, so idk where she's coking from with that. Anyway, I'm triggered to lose even more weight; it appears that comments like that fuel me. Fantastic 🙃",2.338269230769228,4.5344470576923115,2.308307692307693,97.03669230769232,78.42307692307693,4.929230769230768,20.015384615384615,5.6839178017228535,-0.28381230769230736,205,5,44,1,5,61,41,52,0.175,0.662,0.162,0.0602,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,2,7,4,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,2,0,6,7,3,0,0,1,0,4,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,5,2,3,0,0,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,2,6,6,2,3,5,2,4,0,2,2,0,4,3,0,1,1,25,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17118977555003914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20024630507682545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12662508922610238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.43530158646132944,0.2899626114977977,0.28293191642466003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19053138428703936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2546487311874804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2476631377462621,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6312369553206868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,skinemergency,2019/01/03,ED as a personality trait? I feel like I'm a hella boring person lol but my ED makes me feel more interesting (plus the attention I get). This honestly influences my reluctantance in trying to recover. Does anyone else feel this? ,2.592142857142857,5.5917925,5.682857142857145,66.7871428571429,88.28571428571428,9.466666666666667,23.66666666666667,9.2995712137729,3.346352380952382,183,7,30,7,6,66,34,42,0.039,0.6970000000000001,0.264,0.8843,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,3,1,0,0,0,2,0,8,6,3,0,0,1,0,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,1,0,0,4,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,5,3,4,6,1,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,16,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21806538303056036,0.3195456591574545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.272917821154627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26052572720018524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4730695508592031,0.22279858821989895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16293817765355245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1523629700018112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20817433664750007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5446222818620242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21173792582676834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,graffitiedhearts,2019/01/03,"Finally worked up the courage to tell someone. Posting from mobile so excuse the formatting. 

I’m home from school for winter break and obviously my mom has been noticing I haven’t been eating much if even at all, and after I do eat I either immediately go take a shower aka go purge or go to the gym for hours. So I decided to try and be honest with her and tell her my disordered eating has gotten worse (she noticed I was low restricting and going to the gym a bunch over the summer), and it just spiraled after I left for school in the fall. I told her it took a lot from me emotionally and mentally to admit this to her and said specifically not to tell one of my relatives who’s a nurse because I know I would get the whole health and nutrition spiel from her and I want to take recovery at my own pace instead of having food shoved at me 24/7. And guess what she did? She told the relative I told her not to talk to. So now I’m having a breakdown because I’m not sure if I’m ready to start recovering yet and because I know I’m not ready to go from eating 400 calories a day to being force fed 2000. Sorry for ranting I don’t know where else to turn to and I’m just really distraught because I trusted my mom with this information and she went behind my back with it. I understand she’s doing it with my best interests in mind, but it still sucks. ",3.6084408602150555,4.6282102293906835,5.076306451612903,83.51445967741941,72.15412186379929,8.304014336917563,26.13637992831541,8.697196308434329,1.7303790681003584,1070,34,224,19,20,360,147,279,0.052000000000000005,0.879,0.068,0.3016,1,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,0,2,12,9,1,1,14,0,15,7,0,0,3,45,47,21,0,4,11,2,0,0,0,1,1,1,2,0,9,18,6,1,7,2,0,8,6,3,0,1,12,1,35,6,40,32,8,32,0,1,0,0,25,10,1,5,12,156,44,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07728359521883889,0.0,0.24507227140253546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10547578126746417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0648186299337927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11518960453502256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4113745640503279,0.0839606106244499,0.11305672445875588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06638385356805485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1101003862954582,0.0,0.0,0.12153333148519195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052510702251357684,0.0,0.2856019115396453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11071967162624154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10683412516356147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10081660645177556,0.0,0.0989790420122892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16570787634815007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1092010310941383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08544736452351177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10128730660249333,0.0,0.1014833085634871,0.2354249118958701,0.0,0.0,0.07388412931783128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2288555229988509,0.0,0.0,0.06810607044511123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09625781885737757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06438728796728352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09560506913793697,0.0,0.0,0.20343667889228093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08515916254300653,0.0,0.0,0.11250923579586816,0.07113929471908556,0.0,0.08026493294107417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09472655526824347,0.0,0.15113734751189134,0.08078363181059584,0.26354235812713983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28811592428685384,0.11166685397128508,0.06823758150806272,0.10932263607109333,0.0,0.10463121804269772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05928156832485116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09317089484419876,0.0,0.11221235443538198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07317021364139924,0.0,0.1024251084198716,0.07139721164584414,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,chorusabyss,2019/01/03,"big sad/happy all at once. so im down to my lowest weight in six years (bmi 20.2) which im really proud of myself for. extatic even. but........ im still really unhappy with the way i look. i thought when i got back down to this weight that it would be okay again, but its really not. i still dont like myself.

im sad and scared. what if im never satisfied with the shape and size of my body?",0.2289705882352955,1.8210525294117657,2.574926470588238,95.52591911764708,82.52941176470588,6.602941176470589,15.330882352941178,7.6454224807358475,-0.196735294117647,295,4,74,5,8,101,59,85,0.171,0.7609999999999999,0.068,-0.8740000000000001,1,0,0,0,0,0,21.0,0,0,0,1,7,5,0,1,2,1,3,3,1,0,2,12,6,7,0,2,4,0,2,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,6,4,2,0,1,0,0,0,3,2,0,1,2,3,8,3,11,2,1,14,0,1,1,0,0,6,0,1,8,46,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.106014572614554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15314401029357588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16158421787704513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0910627390534356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11026832872965314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14676663620930624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7446236878488921,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0673569868338549,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11577722632707055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10633489941880607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14682850855148608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2649717885018056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13803329241293658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22020850705997108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.109454466754626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10943587547817173,0.0,0.335780369818002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09793986494898398,0.0,0.0,0.08878464146727033
EDAnonymous,rinserepeatbehavior,2019/01/03,"I Fucking Hate Resolutioners: A Rant by Me. Does anyone else get so fucking fired up at resolutioners? Like I’m at the grocery store and I just had a full convo with an overweight woman (stranger!!) who says she struggles with a fit lifestyle so, she said, perhaps because I’m “trim and young” (who even says that) I could “give her some insight into fitness”.  She also asked if I had tried paleo or keto. 

Like: 
#1 - I don’t think she’s interested in my actual tips and tricks  (lol) 
#2 - I don’t think that a fad diet on Jan 1 will help her attain goals, coming from me or ANYONE. Like Christ. 

So now I’m weirdly off-put and angry and resentful!! And she was all huffy because I was like “sorry I don’t know anything about fitness” and she literally FOUGHT ME ON IT. Like she says “clearly youre into fitness.” And in my mind I’m like “if you mean ‘fittin dis finger down my throat’ then you’re right 😎”

Anyways I totally ran outta the grocery store as fast as my legs would carry me. But now I’m embarrassed by the weird attention and I’m ashamed of myself and I hate everyone. AND I’m hungry and stressed about the lbs from Christmas and now my gym is fucking packed! 

SO I’m staying in my bed until everyone forgets about goal setting so I can go back to my ED-riddled life in peace. WAKE ME UP WHEN JANUARY’S OVER - THANKS ",2.026741573033707,4.045356962546819,3.689806741573033,87.6307550561798,78.625468164794,6.069752808988763,24.91220973782772,7.087006719466742,1.0543664119850185,1027,38,210,12,25,342,155,267,0.157,0.7,0.14300000000000002,-0.7319,0,0,0,0,0,0,34.0,0,2,0,3,17,22,8,4,9,1,12,10,4,0,3,38,38,29,0,4,6,0,2,6,0,2,2,4,1,1,5,18,2,0,6,1,2,3,3,14,0,0,7,6,35,8,28,28,4,34,1,0,0,3,22,20,3,5,15,126,40,2,0.0,0.0,0.1293688785509988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10601592051017812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18539159710820732,0.13583329751126327,0.10909354614535466,0.0,0.12393474972628503,0.0,0.0,0.10193789637269156,0.0,0.16162648577173122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1141970357466986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10584609750475657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1160126152073794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11074495177130124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08756101947222499,0.0,0.0,0.2533520095703851,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3676755826174271,0.06926218312436036,0.12717291131051545,0.07534240088063125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2617702144490976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08885865812433097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07285682590846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0936378813930516,0.388601078578718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14440723926543012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1338575795110125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13326913849602326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11321377736345492,0.12610411825291698,0.31627417748932346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14840089655578315,0.0,0.14130163367219506,0.0,0.0,0.1518581138162168,0.1385906073687806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12205234464667099,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16989058851459865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09000610663615162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0941736928962003,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,button_eyed_coraline,2019/01/03,"I’m getting my hair done today I’m nearly a year postpartum now and my hair has mostly fallen out. It used to be thick and curly, but postpartum hormones as well as 8 solid months of restricting have ruined it forever. It’s thin and flat. The last 6 or so inches are nasty, split-ended hay. 

I’m cutting off a bunch of it. My stylist is really good about telling me “no”, she has a toddler and went through postpartum hair loss way worse even than me, so I know she won’t make me look bad just to appease me. 

On the one hand, I think a new hairstyle might revamp my desire to care for my body and maybe feed it occasionally. On the other hand, looking perfect and put-together is part of my ED lifestyle so it could just fuel restriction even more. 

Oh well, at least I’ll look cute! ",3.8967066895368765,4.747176383647805,4.890040022870213,85.74854202401374,71.32704402515724,8.045969125214409,27.033161806746712,8.296473431620573,1.6155106918238995,611,20,129,9,11,200,109,159,0.172,0.624,0.204,0.8067,0,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,0,0,2,11,10,1,0,7,0,11,7,6,2,1,22,24,13,0,2,4,0,7,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,7,7,1,2,2,0,0,2,2,4,2,1,2,10,14,6,18,18,5,18,0,2,3,0,3,9,0,3,6,82,21,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1483625249436374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19737193234300987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1811653285087716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14186985593629567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18183708829465445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15737932276447208,0.0,0.0,0.2347232351689017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0928349383995452,0.0,0.0,0.14903673314839092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09765298522361204,0.1448398915901824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.447640913366753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11860849309440835,0.0,0.17851204076349972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18849948150706244,0.0,0.0,0.14182931277043306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1716127178011808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12040636638493092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19241939407773334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1786260799868923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11383184105106875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1553076327519586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11385565403776683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16842797762058412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15346586422365774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14104090763569238,0.0,0.0,0.3195267086636078,0.16471907463907628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18107982226574912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11442560642877166
EDAnonymous,pen15clubVIP,2019/01/03,Raise your hand if you are “short”. Is it me or is there a lot of us that are shorter who suffer from ED? As in under 5’4. I am just curious! ,-2.1225000000000023,-0.3896982499999986,1.1737500000000018,100.89625,94.0,4.45,14.25,5.985473137389443,-0.9833375000000002,104,2,28,1,4,37,30,32,0.096,0.7440000000000001,0.16,0.3164,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,1,2,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,5,1,1,0,0,4,5,3,0,1,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,5,0,5,5,1,3,0,1,0,0,4,3,0,3,0,24,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.577170052485964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8166239835526199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Bomby57,2019/01/03,"Do you know about r/gainers??? So I just discovered this sub. And it's upsetting. How come a community promoting obesity and getting to the obese status be public but ED communities have to be quarantined, deleted or private? 

I just don't get it, Reddit. If this is not a promotion of unhealthy behaviour and self-harm, I rest my case. ",3.5571428571428565,6.020735428571433,5.549444444444443,73.97750000000002,75.66666666666667,9.914285714285716,32.72222222222222,10.125756701596842,4.1394888888888905,264,14,46,9,6,91,52,63,0.034,0.858,0.107,0.6513,0,1,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,1,0,2,5,1,0,1,3,0,6,2,0,1,0,12,10,8,0,1,6,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,4,4,2,0,1,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,0,0,5,0,4,8,1,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,2,0,34,9,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.479731760186925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5819287481041139,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3060651540222516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5809823507571198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,anyeducation,2019/01/03,"Store clerk should mind her business I went to the store this morning with my boyfriend and I decided to treat myself to a Naked juice smoothie because I haven’t had one in a while. While I’m ringing out the cashier decides to start telling me about how bad the juices are for you because of how much sugar are in them and how she could never bring herself to drink them. 

So it was supposed to be a really calm morning with my boyfriend but now I feel incredibly gross and disgusting and I just want to throw up.

Fuck you, lady. Fuck you. ",3.3544444444444466,5.229950280373839,3.3831152647975067,91.98273104880579,74.23364485981308,6.250882658359295,27.77673935617861,6.937597516519254,1.1769343717549328,428,17,89,4,9,130,74,107,0.185,0.7709999999999999,0.044,-0.9649,0,0,1,0,0,0,6.0,0,3,2,0,7,7,3,0,6,0,8,4,0,3,1,20,16,11,0,3,2,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,2,7,2,0,3,1,2,3,2,5,0,1,3,3,17,2,16,10,1,12,0,0,0,2,9,4,2,0,5,65,19,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2320084649166158,0.33877193304191905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2218552663903889,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.272205196517192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14049858630669385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.513769622434844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2805678212128113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2042652085189094,0.0,0.21430920085409225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18829078462885412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17800957964906405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.196676647662344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2428691846428481,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16389395161054238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2575867434449219,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,playboyhunties,2019/01/03,"DAE have trouble sleeping during high restriction? And also acting fucking nuts. I’m like literally so out of character right now I’m aggressive, combative, tried to punch my boyfriend with my weak tiny Spongebob arms, I verbally attack everyone, and at this point I’m surprised I still have a fiancé. Idk if it’s the lack of sleep or the lack of food that’s making me a nutball.",4.522083333333335,6.6412914861111165,5.315000000000001,78.33000000000001,71.6388888888889,8.688888888888886,31.44444444444445,9.2995712137729,3.1275111111111107,305,14,53,7,6,99,57,72,0.27,0.67,0.06,-0.9236,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,0,4,7,3,0,4,0,2,6,3,1,0,10,7,6,0,3,2,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,4,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,5,0,0,0,0,5,2,7,7,2,8,0,0,0,1,0,5,1,2,3,31,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2161219767256317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3074528698094973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25823921941283345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3267921347949853,0.0,0.0,0.2498454110371024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2855381236621519,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13203242314296562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1803966022939968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2554773253763873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2307953865666469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5408982246920151,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2158251441349316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18348468409247606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,waitingdaisy,2019/01/03,"What's your favorite coffee sweetener? I'm always looking for the perfect sweet, low-calorie, and health-conscious sweetener for my coffee. 

Right now I'm using zero-calorie sweetener in my coffee, no cream. They seem extra sweet compared to sugar? And I'm not sure what the difference is between the saccarine vs. other 0-cal sweeteners. I'm sure I'll end up googling the difference by the time this box runs out 😂 

In my quest for the perfect sweetener, I was wondering how you guys like to take your coffee. :) Share your coffee creamer creations here. ",4.933091309130912,7.46897991089109,5.25993399339934,77.33949394939495,71.67326732673267,7.657205720572058,32.014301430143014,8.515128840125781,2.996801100110011,445,21,69,8,9,141,66,101,0.055,0.7040000000000001,0.241,0.968,0,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,4,1,2,3,8,0,0,6,0,2,1,0,2,4,13,11,3,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,4,3,1,0,2,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,1,5,9,8,11,10,1,9,0,0,2,0,7,5,0,2,4,40,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20279074682282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5092614677326309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2158595168955236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24131657524351136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2590580868259265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11906703999957098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20465956519296027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2081316306244847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2218693582163255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4593977840288702,0.0,0.18324365943200527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.142112416927901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21049186595401412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2642989686373945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,alldocsarebastards,2019/01/03,"someone please help me reality check how i gained 2kg in 5 days. i know i ate way more than i'm used to but it still averages out to below maintenance! I WAS EXPECTING A WHOOSH TODAY BUT I'M STILL INCREASING????!!?!? someone please help explain this to me because my weight just refuses to stop climbing. someone who isn't me please read and help me understand why it’s higher when i expected a whoosh. i can’t have gained so much weight in fat right?

i normally weigh myself as soon as i get out of bed. i am very meticulous about counting my calories accurately. i've been losing over 1kg per week since october so a gain like this is a big deal to me.

**Wednesday 26th to Friday 28th** I fasted for three days

**Saturday 29th** - I hit my lowest weight (56.9kg) and break my fast. intake = 1955kCal

**Sunday 30th** - my weight is a little higher (57.3) but that’s okay. intake = 495kCal.

**Monday 31st** - My weight is a little higher (57.4) but i'm not worried. I drink a bunch of alcohol and eat junk food at a party. intake = 1930kCal.

**Tuesday 1st** - My weight is even higher (57.9) but i felt very bloated after the party and expect to lose it quickly. intake = 486kCal.

**Wednesday 2nd** - I forgot to weigh myself in the morning. was active the whole day, then came home and weighed myself (58.2) but still not upset because it was with a full stomach. intake = 1374kCal.

**Thursday 3rd (today)** - i had a 662kCal meal at 2am and weighed myself a few hours later. was expecting to whoosh and be well under 58kg but i’m 59.0kg. what the fuck???!!

someone please tell me if this is actual fat i’ve put on? it can’t possibly *all* be bloat, right? extra info: my period started today after being almost a week late. i also haven’t had a BM since 2018 (lol) and i did eat a few hours before my weigh-in... but i don't think that explains an entire **2kg of gain**!

i’m tempted to fast for the rest of the week but that makes my mum suspicious. i think my plan of action is just to low restrict (under 500) until i get below 56.0kg, at which point i'll hopefully feel safe enough to eat some more",-0.8299754930563665,0.9297327033492876,1.5009195938849338,93.38107130353599,109.52631578947368,3.952899988330028,16.820049013887267,5.950424286874398,-0.1032619675574744,1602,49,323,20,82,535,221,418,0.054000000000000006,0.79,0.156,0.9913,1,0,2,0,0,0,116.0,0,0,0,8,15,10,1,1,21,2,24,22,3,3,1,52,48,27,0,7,14,1,8,1,0,0,3,0,2,0,14,12,20,5,9,2,1,5,7,5,1,1,12,8,41,5,41,32,14,65,0,3,0,1,10,22,1,4,37,190,55,1,0.0,0.0,0.07324245887481794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0802105374920363,0.07515633621280939,0.0,0.0,0.060021133251005825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0915051700981602,0.0,0.06386593310664135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08584246297465835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14521201579462004,0.07737799277050005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07352493043107759,0.0,0.2303987671191041,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07755146095676167,0.0,0.04957285275688168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03794985884191959,0.0,0.07206418222790112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0907563153228564,0.0,0.0,0.06938676452625532,0.07842585722139132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15092254071238306,0.0,0.07528587929832647,0.07454614880945523,0.14782731679360062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04124804307742802,0.0,0.08466485336032235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03666788441870319,0.15044884534905326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16793378925343094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0500995255936531,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055173763903121606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07353756841457477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32954963144837895,0.07095085294585002,0.08461277975400265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07545059913099199,0.0,0.0,0.07507490677240941,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1281924296705844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12417187469686215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2543740622900699,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05312402930514257,0.0,0.17981609179179692,0.06274900292218351,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06560102501052048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09618390900400242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21342894312230729,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07813448130856708,0.0,0.06482307288319898,0.0,0.12385580399549775,0.0,0.059574844747602274,0.18061280890163892,0.5483776681219128,0.06748309543822557,0.0,0.0677250988337688,0.08379577600486089,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07622158540657438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,socioanxiety,2019/01/03,I finally weighed myself. I have been so afraid to weigh myself since before Christmas. I've felt so huge like I gained a ton of weight. I just stepped on the scale and... I lost a pound. That feeling of relief tho. ,0.3361240310077527,2.7696980000000018,1.2003488372093043,99.22129844961245,92.25581395348836,3.7968992248062015,18.794573643410853,5.46131890053228,-0.456268217054264,166,5,36,1,6,51,34,43,0.052000000000000005,0.6509999999999999,0.297,0.873,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,2,4,4,0,1,3,0,2,3,0,0,0,4,5,4,0,0,1,0,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,3,0,2,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,3,3,7,2,4,2,1,4,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,2,23,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3287634341031656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19535494605186385,0.0,0.37096565997901904,0.4232378909212032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1887557108523202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4217569782887632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3196005284711265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4704817226428818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ribbet-the-rabbit,2019/01/03,Most extreme thing you’ve done to lose weight ? This is by no means a post meant to ask for weight loss tips or anything. I just wanted to share an experience that I still feel ashamed to think about. The most extreme thing I’ve ever done to lose weight was eat food that had gone “bad” in hopes of making me sick to the point where it would clear out everything in my body. The worst part is the food tasted revolting and it didn’t even have the desired effect. ,6.3554838709677455,5.685316591397855,5.49410752688172,88.8011612903226,65.88172043010752,8.730322580645161,27.20215053763441,7.554174236665415,1.1267479569892465,365,8,81,3,5,109,69,93,0.22,0.691,0.08900000000000001,-0.9349,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,4,6,8,0,1,7,0,9,9,1,2,2,18,18,2,0,4,2,0,4,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,7,2,7,0,5,0,0,1,2,6,0,0,7,5,4,2,13,10,4,9,0,3,0,0,2,5,0,4,2,52,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12204768845199512,0.0,0.13865118751219274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12383386786320548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16474058930282445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3035482170860148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1517596419012451,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0979583156170072,0.13415619977629842,0.0,0.0,0.133292770328492,0.14507705928056774,0.0,0.0,0.07499072664406163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3586775941353847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1473067367924531,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3318451574922509,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09899904620042513,0.0,0.0,0.16155465076364106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1606068502109432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14020226110954678,0.0,0.14204137442200598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11844171754746252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19706307778333815,0.09503199020741863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08747793730117898,0.0,0.0,0.5418101814177684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10535620059187832,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,evaa98,2019/01/03,"Cravings I am really craving nut-butter lately, it's crazy! I think about it every day, all day.
And it just has an INSANE amount of calories in it! 

I will buy cashew-butter (my favorite) on saturday, so I'm already fasting :'D

What are you craving lately? ",1.38826666666667,3.9329323600000015,3.4720000000000013,85.01266666666669,85.4,4.933333333333334,24.333333333333336,6.42735559955562,1.0785333333333342,198,8,35,2,6,67,40,50,0.135,0.865,0.0,-0.7519,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,1,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,0,4,0,0,0,1,4,6,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,5,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,0,4,5,2,8,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,6,23,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35798887452411704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41842864693007226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2733251201272793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7318857156600087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20782208611294348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2078655613350472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,oharacopter,2019/01/03,"Will my friend be ok? She has anorexia, and has fainted twice recently. Is that normalish? Like she won't die soon or anything right?",1.4770000000000003,4.1606054000000015,1.9515,92.20325,95.0,5.7,26.25,7.1686216300943375,1.6960000000000002,105,5,20,2,4,32,23,25,0.0,0.633,0.3670000000000001,0.8906,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,1,6,1,0,0,0,2,6,2,1,0,1,0,0,1,1,2,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,3,3,0,3,0,3,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,1,3,14,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3971164910262427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5008346232716053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3728347308076441,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23576080985362186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4764826553479336,0.0,0.0,0.4121147363062036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,1caru3,2019/01/03,"me, ranting about gaining weight and my inability to stop it at 3am hey sorry this post will have no real value other than for me to write all my shitty feelings out on the internet because it’s 3am and i feel like mold

before the winter break, i was ~108 at 5’1. a week and a half later, i’m at 113. 5 lbs in 1.5 weeks. what kind of fuckery is this??? to top it all off i’m home all day with my mom who always forces food on me, not to mention i’ve been stuck in a b/p cycle for what feels like forever. i don’t even know what to do anymore... 

my winter break ends next tuesday and even though i don’t particularly enjoy school, i find myself craving the structure of the day that let me restrict better. 

i have yet another family thing today AND friday, so there’s absolutely no room for restriction and i am gonna gain again. when i got under 110lbs, i told myself i’d die if i got over it again, and look where i am now~~~ goodbye thigh gap 2018-2018. 

plus i have a dentist appointment on friday for the first time since i started purging, nice. i love not only being humiliated for my shitty oral care but for having the balls to claim an “eating disorder” while not even being skinny",3.6113916786226703,4.383251569105692,5.163285509325682,83.81808464849355,71.92682926829268,7.576853180296509,24.633189861310377,7.724431198458867,1.149035198469632,930,25,194,11,17,315,157,246,0.1,0.802,0.097,-0.1963,0,0,0,0,0,0,30.0,0,0,0,5,13,8,0,0,11,0,16,7,2,0,3,28,31,14,1,1,5,1,4,2,0,2,1,0,2,0,13,10,4,3,5,1,0,0,7,0,0,2,6,5,25,8,30,20,3,39,0,0,1,1,7,15,0,1,23,127,38,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11850784774932385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14934356681617955,0.0,0.0,0.14124594468989596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08682010700018117,0.0,0.12119199691201933,0.0,0.0,0.12596210370485342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14521035619634826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18370288419006536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14781321504544068,0.0,0.1632297890545564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1457349028660158,0.0,0.0,0.12614503947681446,0.0,0.0,0.2822083414110759,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.134264298366607,0.0,0.21604096042416795,0.203494902146012,0.0,0.0,0.13017259372972867,0.12114544470742585,0.17221918715237713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2278183333412677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14286248720748185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14831226671154704,0.07827228799615961,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1456377844667729,0.0,0.1391619575281723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1195999569621432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1285428630949372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16680480353271174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15146911849222627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10831956860790913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1364024430013932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16210924171611793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14414029076491108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11781427689856205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15943156415703474,0.10080815988004972,0.0,0.0,0.11907251015466262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09461991389621643,0.0,0.13993046769285147,0.0,0.08304834876561024,0.0,0.13500092332806066,0.13609185694154904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22848724835434334,0.17343358038961626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,goddamnroommate,2019/01/03,"My fast has made it past 24hrs! And I haven’t even used my bronkaid! For a while there I was trying to be healthyTM and high restrict at 1500, but lmao who am I kidding??

My goal is to do two on/two off as a fasting pattern and I’m excited!",0.22169811320754812,1.8210107924528351,1.9024905660377376,100.30241509433964,82.58490566037736,4.994716981132076,23.807547169811322,5.6839178017228535,0.0756218867924523,184,7,47,1,5,60,43,53,0.033,0.758,0.209,0.8882,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,2,0,7,0,0,2,0,7,10,6,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,2,0,6,1,6,7,0,7,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,4,31,8,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2281210887541018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3649143021564473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3268081334098678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32970552790599383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2344912286781871,0.0,0.6747746809929481,0.0,0.0,0.29829854729207705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,watermelements,2019/01/03,"the pity party (for me) nobody asked for hi everyone, I made a post so I could comment a bunch of times while I waiting for this feeling to pass. Sorry mods, and everyone 

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EDAnonymous,RichardStarrkey,2019/01/03,"I am an idiot I eat one orange and I drink 6 calories of soup. I'm feeling light-headed and I was wondering why that was the case. So I have some more water and I have 5 calories of coffee. Still light headed, so it's dehydration right?

It's malnutrition guys! Where's my god damn Pringles at",-0.2820947176684889,2.003789606557376,2.1418579234972697,91.77850637522772,95.55737704918032,4.67832422586521,18.25318761384335,6.42735559955562,0.0715231329690349,230,7,49,3,9,78,43,61,0.117,0.816,0.067,-0.5707,0,0,1,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,0,4,2,2,0,2,0,5,4,1,0,0,6,8,5,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,3,3,0,2,1,0,0,0,2,0,1,2,2,7,0,3,6,2,4,0,0,0,0,1,3,1,2,1,30,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2917762283436789,0.0,0.304771378863856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1506001653337168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2949149125850482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6113529795501781,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2018285311001004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25435932691264185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23786064015249475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26876018496125675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3230018789772769,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,dragaynite,2019/01/03,"Y’all I’m nervous I’ve been invited to hang out with some work friends, and I was so excited to be included. We’re going to just be going and hanging out in the city, which means going to a restaurant and eating out in front of people I’ve never hung out with before. I’m so nervous, but I’m so so sick of isolating myself and not making friends. 

I’m still going to fast the next few days to undo the caloric damage, but I’m excited to finally be included in something social! Wish me luck 😭",2.080474649406689,3.820327252427184,4.339352750809063,84.33539374325781,77.44660194174756,7.2962243797195265,26.00755124056095,8.167268648758528,1.7660839266450925,389,15,78,7,9,135,60,103,0.119,0.7070000000000001,0.175,0.7573,0,0,1,0,0,0,8.0,0,1,0,1,6,8,0,2,4,0,5,2,0,1,1,21,17,10,0,2,4,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,1,10,1,0,1,0,0,7,2,3,0,0,2,0,4,5,18,12,2,20,0,1,0,0,4,7,0,2,6,48,5,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1957154462433225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14833278133681085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2353502894118976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2519568300370432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35539919263957426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5228635771790565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15352865809958605,0.0,0.0,0.2505404818878201,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17739234216305294,0.0,0.2446105920617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.159454984684872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2344588943963419,0.0,0.1770673959337675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1836805368938396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2644918743537702,0.0,0.0,0.1674447810995616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,0xyt0c1n,2019/01/03,"How do you combat inability to sleep? I find whenever I’m not eating, even if I don’t feel hungry, I have an impossible time sleeping.
It seems to have a direct correlation to the amount I fast and I feel exhausted but I just can’t seem to fall asleep.
Does anyone else experience this? Any tips in combatting it and getting a good night’s rest?",2.2020496894409973,4.5465614202898585,4.3296480331262925,81.57782608695653,79.72463768115942,8.000828157349899,22.900621118012424,8.841846274778883,1.821375155279504,274,9,55,7,7,94,53,69,0.093,0.845,0.061,0.2709,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,1,0,0,3,2,0,0,4,0,5,5,3,1,0,12,11,5,0,1,4,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,2,1,0,5,0,0,1,3,1,0,0,0,2,7,1,5,11,2,5,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,3,3,33,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16358621302335707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16820222913915944,0.2464778748238709,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2105120274114181,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2461486683356572,0.20095352803902167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15888485660252805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23530976022731356,0.0,0.0,0.24326451050762016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2198636700628228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12568049230151795,0.0,0.0,0.2017668166319534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22574535022136874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.43798598493613056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4814591119464339,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14027003863943388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,asheristrasher,2019/01/03,"any other trans/nb folks over here? feel like the only one. i'm a trans guy who got and ed because of dysphoria (thought process: 'lol if i starve myself my curves will go away'). this sub is hella cathartic but it also feels like i'm in a reverse sausage party (taco party?). a big reason i haven't sought treatment for my ed is because i'm already treated like a ''''''''''''''guy'''''''''''' that needs to be tiptoed around lest (~~s)~~he finds offense in something we do, and eating disorders are seen s disorders only girls get. i don't need to give those guys another reason to see me as a butch lesbian who likes strap-ons a little *too* much. so uh, any of you guys out there? and how has being trans coincided/affected your ed?",1.775957446808512,4.154006312056744,2.972453900709219,90.494,81.6241134751773,5.4621276595744686,24.293617021276606,6.742157984588678,0.8775310638297866,554,21,111,6,15,178,104,141,0.032,0.8340000000000001,0.133,0.9314,0,0,1,0,0,0,27.0,1,2,0,0,7,6,1,0,7,1,10,2,0,3,0,17,24,9,0,3,2,0,2,4,0,1,0,0,0,5,7,6,1,0,6,0,0,1,2,1,1,1,3,4,10,5,13,18,1,9,0,0,2,1,11,8,0,1,4,60,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15239732588223975,0.1104389127420524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1878261390675,0.14481040599573766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12293871597618615,0.0,0.0,0.12974995726550592,0.0,0.0,0.1683695549974979,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3165502542561225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14131127909749902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13965551538951418,0.19731803669921716,0.0,0.0,0.12622134685401135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07215180664927509,0.13247857480071967,0.07848569155076977,0.0,0.11045157835632714,0.0,0.0,0.5469647927922623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2698756966695535,0.13841297226230054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1015197509161548,0.20479952839281104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0935804667565748,0.2100632928728888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28398061066264196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11004821137989901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1063165049356386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10963636386326688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,frameworkautoco,2019/01/03,"I didn't do it **Tldr; an entire fucking novel about how I don't want to puke anymore**


I didn't binge or purge today. I had time and money and the house is full of food. I haven't been able to say this in years.

 I switched the time I take my birth control to the very beginning of my lunch break instead of afterwards. I used to take it after lunch, after b/p. Today I took it right at 12 with coffee and stale granola bar so I'd have to keep everything down.

I came home and ate the recipe I'd spent one million years at work plugging into mfp. I checked what my weight will be if every day is like this for 5 weeks. It's 5lbs less, cool, dope. Threw stuff in a crock pot and logged that recipe too, for dinner tomorrow (and logged a backup meal in case it turns out inedible, I winged the recipe and have never used a crock pot). 

I'll take my pill, drink my kombucha and coffee. I'm aiming to spend $6 or so on lunch because, while my ED brain says it's ok to spend $30+ on a binge every day, my sane person brain tells me $6 for one meal (drink) is *look at this fat cat* territory and has to be worth it.

Me and bulimia are breaking up for the last time. She's ugly, she's a bitch, she's abusive, and I've been giving her all my time and money for 9 years. I don't want to die doing some embarrassing, disgusting tedium, bent over making out with a toilet. This isn't full on cured maybe, but I can do better.",1.5378289473684177,2.8483920197368455,3.2037157894736867,93.75181052631581,77.8157894736842,6.1797894736842105,19.396842105263158,6.742157984588678,-0.041913789473684286,1090,22,258,10,25,362,169,304,0.048,0.888,0.064,0.5005,0,0,2,0,0,1,46.0,0,0,0,3,6,8,3,1,13,2,23,17,3,5,2,33,43,20,1,3,4,0,1,1,0,1,2,2,1,1,14,18,13,2,0,4,7,3,7,4,0,3,10,5,28,4,37,30,5,45,0,0,1,1,9,19,2,4,22,146,42,1,0.12103833465553294,0.14341063423185502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12003750400755302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07378384536880757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10704857092688462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2702376225124174,0.0,0.1384356098656578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13575478441467814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15611942520245292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12561868188386746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2371429763743169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20396003457570852,0.0,0.10878145059152043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14636003471368916,0.0,0.0,0.11189799000329972,0.0,0.11611099973414515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12141131852208027,0.0,0.0,0.139661987274599,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1075844332173806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0986623975155868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05913321643025505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10164171682709858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08079402826064011,0.0,0.12159927581940315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09335222546298984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1640374161186222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10568600515500454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10336607645360042,0.0,0.192509083682212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1385599350127329,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27301729276306264,0.0,0.10579283946949004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.282313705208578,0.0,0.22946037722489984,0.0,0.13447804338019895,0.0,0.13165495107247002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20907651800719665,0.0,0.09986930225068108,0.14278309154989835,0.0,0.09708965114087004,0.14739208369323242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08811734918883625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23383415736144025
EDAnonymous,death-crush,2019/01/03,"my perception of my body may be slightly messed up so my body is pear shaped. i have tiny arms + a thin upper body, but my thighs are just... huge. and my inner thighs are flabby and disgusting. eugh

my bmi oscillates around 18.5 (old bmi) but i can't see myself as thin or even ""normal"" weight, and it's mostly because of my thighs. i went from 50 to 45kg and i can barely see a change in how i look. it fucks me up a little honestly and whenever i see a tall person with skinny legs i feel so bad about my short stubby legs, ya feel me?

but recently... two things happened that made me realize that my perception of my body may be a little skewed. 

1. i wanted to buy some leggings & i was going to try an M but the only sizes left were XS and L.
guys, the XS actually fit me.  slightly snug, but it fit me. and it didn't look (that) bad. i honestly almost cried

2. i hosted a party a few days ago, and most of my girlfriends were wearing dresses. they wanted to play twister at some point and they asked me if they could borrow some leggings/pajama pants so they could play a round or two. 
this beautiful, skinny friend of mine frowned at the leggings i gave her and said that they might be a little too tight for her, and afterwards apologized for stretching them out. these leggings were slightly loose on me to begin with.
i was like ???? how? you're thinner than me? and she was like, ""what no, you're thin too, what are you talking about?"" 

i guess what i'm trying to say is that... i may not look as bad as i think i look. and even though i still have some weight to lose, i definitely made some progress, even if i don't see it

anyways!! sorry for this super long and nonsensical post, but i can't exactly talk about this with other people hahah. thanks for reading",1.7710273635916778,3.7699730083565486,3.0889439619859083,91.7228080452237,79.36211699164346,6.117679829592004,20.58667868261511,7.1686216300943375,0.42029601835163,1366,36,295,17,34,443,187,359,0.107,0.731,0.163,0.9726,0,1,0,0,0,0,64.0,0,2,6,3,18,16,2,0,13,0,27,19,16,4,1,61,53,33,0,7,12,0,9,2,2,4,0,2,0,2,19,19,4,1,6,3,2,2,6,7,0,2,12,19,53,9,35,32,8,36,0,1,9,1,22,25,1,17,10,197,72,1,0.0,0.0,0.0904079011061492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08212397126564386,0.0,0.09277032361026204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10038053600706097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08247345954113765,0.08661032485067345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23206346189146995,0.05647537300102959,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4116296790996984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09800584961494828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1479385710514529,0.0,0.1017658955369221,0.05974819235120979,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18357292908149897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09368792740933536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07157709554126833,0.085648568354143,0.0,0.0,0.05265214017628484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10205862487597303,0.09173285720162687,0.08192543673956519,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10065878000549168,0.0,0.0,0.090523079624177,0.27856310139243706,0.0,0.08198767866090062,0.3111929903670829,0.10364576534189184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17532538420819427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09828142755927127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09077217388584133,0.0,0.0,0.0972150690648533,0.0,0.0,0.07046049874632747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06422819696664481,0.08089381262637325,0.0,0.0,0.08757922378723916,0.0,0.0887280505970729,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09266980998868372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09147550302440068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0881263622270137,0.073674814945573,0.0,0.0,0.295303448933784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1037082003813624,0.0,0.0,0.07398620824473894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14892866378628716,0.0,0.08529482846401837,0.0,0.0,0.061549047971145375,0.0593630079248095,0.09102298569092772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12579939285015765,0.0,0.18100089640467645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1092885348169945,0.0,0.0,0.2256326669440107,0.0,0.08588260122701734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,invincibletitan33,2019/01/03,"Bodies are weird So before and over Christmas I put on 1kg. Then went to my bf's for a week over New Year's, ate way too much over TDEE most days so promised myself I wouldn't weigh myself till mid January.

Yeah so just weighed myself and I've lost the kilo??? Wtf??? 😂
I won't believe it's real until I've weighed myself ten more times 😂",-0.001756756756755351,1.977336864864867,1.890472972972976,97.98408783783786,85.75675675675676,4.2405405405405405,17.35810810810811,5.148860815047168,-0.7550216216216215,264,6,62,1,8,87,56,74,0.126,0.7909999999999999,0.083,-0.4569,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,1,5,3,0,0,2,1,3,5,1,0,0,6,6,8,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,1,2,4,0,0,0,0,2,2,2,0,1,3,0,8,1,8,1,3,16,0,1,0,0,1,5,0,1,8,34,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25090672206758385,0.3322096632349297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32752635581845396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19016226186928614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3218778305447314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2167582554841504,0.0,0.0,0.2847805531732797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2964187883136694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3356186835124165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1719370048587604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2340485496132476,0.23652133795785565,0.0,0.0,0.2733409842518334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18988212478358274
EDAnonymous,mayuhbee,2019/01/03,"Raise your hand if... You used to be a fucking boss at restricting and you got super small and it became your whole identity and fast forward and now all you do is binge and you hate yourself for it and you are mentally worse than ever but you look normal so no one thinks you’re struggling and you’ve lost your identity and self esteem and you want to die now. 

🙋🏻‍♀️",-0.06870129870129915,2.2700584935064967,1.5451948051948072,96.45207792207796,93.93506493506493,4.877922077922078,17.38961038961039,6.574015621080383,-0.06979480519480498,292,8,64,4,11,94,55,77,0.248,0.684,0.067,-0.9526,0,0,0,0,0,1,4.0,0,10,0,2,4,5,2,1,1,0,4,2,1,2,2,19,12,12,1,3,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,9,0,1,1,0,0,1,1,4,0,1,2,2,10,1,5,9,2,7,0,1,1,1,11,3,1,1,5,41,12,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27099812371675364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23619519099100614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2413983723106129,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20883904346706045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2577988857904259,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21927243733506108,0.0,0.28503994859585163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26314442621825856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25583912782446505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1769395734807497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2724018807724842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2729760850437596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16731317013097338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2255211694768579,0.0,0.0,0.15401351665300814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2915277008834153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26610043538097755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ihate-chicken,2019/01/04,"I was supposed to gain weight before my next therapy appt but lost weight.... I’m screwed Titles says it all. I was threatened with IP if I didn’t gain the weight..

Basically very scared and want to lie about my weight by water loading but I know that’s not rationally a good idea... help",1.912105263157894,4.294683631578952,2.8132456140350897,91.81355263157896,81.10526315789474,5.905263157894738,21.780701754385966,7.1686216300943375,0.5709438596491232,225,7,48,3,6,71,45,57,0.263,0.565,0.172,-0.8153,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,3,1,4,1,1,2,0,3,6,0,0,1,10,7,4,0,2,4,0,4,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,2,5,0,2,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,4,5,6,1,5,3,1,1,0,1,0,1,2,0,1,1,1,24,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14707681842586434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14497266160316452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11585314234043513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19511891532092154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09499009326288617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1886787522001382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18382068622715714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13745183672106204,0.1730461791492922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1976612434550963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14261372776639958,0.10194738768089892,0.0,0.0,0.8419057317928014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,saltsplendasriracha,2019/01/04,From 11% bf to 14% in three months. Fuck this.  Fuck being late 20s.  My hormones are truly fucking with me because I track calories like religiously and I exercise vigorously. ,2.637096774193552,5.601874645161293,3.9570322580645154,77.73554838709677,92.87096774193549,6.350967741935484,28.780645161290327,7.554174236665415,2.642285161290323,138,7,22,3,5,45,29,31,0.185,0.633,0.182,-0.2732,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,0,5,3,0,0,0,2,4,0,0,0,2,5,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,0,1,0,0,4,2,4,4,0,3,0,0,0,3,1,1,3,0,3,13,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19075895966143272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8678950272057294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3529981820607003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.152881579853773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24977739502146545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,idkhowigotheretbh,2019/01/04,Guys please help I've turned into a greedy and selfish pig. About 4 days ago my mom cooked some chocolate fudge and not too long ago I snuck into it while she was asleep and ate ALL of it. Can anyone give me some advice? I'm so tired of eating up everything to the point of other people not being able to have any.,4.4468181818181804,4.410924439393941,4.790454545454548,90.10568181818184,69.75757575757576,7.206060606060608,21.045454545454547,5.985473137389443,0.04152727272727308,247,3,55,1,4,78,54,66,0.13,0.7979999999999999,0.071,-0.6299,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,2,0,4,5,1,0,1,10,8,5,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,3,5,3,0,0,1,0,0,2,1,0,0,2,0,4,0,9,5,3,9,0,0,0,0,5,4,0,2,5,33,7,0,0.23630588875023226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2309153795851467,0.4189418249912544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1606961076243637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16523057179974546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1523977491454796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24179991802128725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21237649571704212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2266861409151163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2339799818216353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15839085611492704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20912327543129647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2767586009018574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16382474957321444,0.0,0.0,0.25939290452117675,0.2233854456822449,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27159885711786663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2570329500161065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,LilMama351,2019/01/04,"Harm Reduction / Nutrient Needs Hi everybody,
I'm not trying to break any rules just looking for some sources if anyone has them about what are actual basic nutrition needs. 

I'm fairly new to having disordered feelings/behaviors about food and eating or at least newly recognizing these patterns. I am currently obese and trying to make it safely to a healthy weight (anywhere from 105-130lbs since I'm 5'2"" and weigh about 175lbs) but I'm having a hard time mentally with it. I feel that if I do the recommended 1200, I wont lose anything and will stay obese forever so I've been going lower averaging like 700/day. This is resulting in a couple pounds or so a week in loss but I'm also concerned about my longterm health since I have kids. Can anyone point me to actual sources saying you NEED a certain amount of calories?

I feel like I am okay on my restriction since I take multi vitamins and have plenty of stored fat. Can anyone tell me why this is wrong (if it is??)?",5.3327354997943255,6.573578818181822,5.858502673796793,78.68060468942822,68.30481283422459,9.390209790209793,28.82311805841217,9.661875296680813,2.6612841628959285,777,27,143,17,13,251,126,187,0.08900000000000001,0.797,0.114,0.5721,2,0,0,0,0,0,21.0,0,1,1,2,8,9,0,0,6,1,17,9,1,2,1,26,31,15,0,6,9,0,4,2,0,2,5,1,0,1,8,6,7,2,2,0,1,1,2,4,0,0,1,6,14,5,18,28,3,12,0,2,1,0,6,5,0,6,6,82,22,0,0.0,0.0,0.28787960143690844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11795657999155396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10030580909994828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.309408605549344,0.0,0.12138084110887275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16320716663220125,0.0,0.09512600995153576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16904904467287113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15093045361199006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14916198071218706,0.1053748185390504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1783589210711847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08382827686129173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1321320174776945,0.0,0.0,0.15678677663895388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14412317819685078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12386377869182474,0.1650160066331732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0984581326299369,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14864642072309325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3281106000589128,0.0,0.1424574858800661,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1394362203388736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11729879857274418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3660433136724269,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15721655176866914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11090247385782454,0.0,0.12892246672219768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0860090802163169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.200287135480492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11831648891405767,0.17961660827277662,0.0,0.0,0.1330968044973972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16126930267801975,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Mukbangs,2019/01/04,"My antidepressant's side effect of causing weight gain + slowers the metabolism is making me feel mentally worse I been on lexapro and xanax for over half a year and it's made my mood and anxiety so much better. My doctor nor family know about my ed, but the lexapro def helped with my eating :)!! 

Howeverrrr, had a really bad past two weeks mentally. Nothing really caused it, so I visited my doctor to see if my antidepressants were at fault. Told them about my insomnia, panic attacks (which i haven't gotten in years up until this past week), etc.... My doctor didn't focus on those two aspects because they noticed my weight / weight loss. 

They got worried about my health and put me on a new antidepressant (paxil) because it's common to have weight gain (i've read stories of people gaining 40lbs in one year from it...) and slower the metabolism. 

I don't really know what to do. I've Googled and looked on other subs on here about Paxil and everyone seems to despise it for all the side effects it has :/. I feel dumb for going to the doctor, I wish I didn't go because I genuinly enjoyed my lexapro and thought it made me a lot happier... She's already suspious of my ed but I'm afraid to ask to go back on lexapro because I know she'll begin questioning it more...

sorry if there were typos, i know this isn't super ed related but the weight gain is making me anxious and i feel like this medication is just gonna set me back and revert me back to fasting / high restricting methods etc.... 


thank u to anyone who read this, i hope you had a good week so far <3 ",5.11568403908795,5.8293951205211725,6.0017117263843645,79.37331677524429,68.47882736156352,9.136742671009774,30.007980456026047,9.255337874911486,2.5072854723127027,1230,45,238,23,20,406,164,307,0.141,0.741,0.119,-0.6587,3,0,1,0,0,0,49.0,0,1,3,9,13,16,3,2,11,0,17,14,0,8,1,40,45,20,0,4,6,0,8,1,0,2,8,0,0,0,17,11,6,1,12,2,0,5,6,8,0,4,13,10,37,7,33,30,6,37,0,1,2,0,12,15,1,6,17,149,54,6,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08906978719126772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06174590665822989,0.09118372396215788,0.0,0.056437030162376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07545659369217678,0.09182370468598,0.0,0.1861920029390608,0.06739272861880755,0.1968097582591937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07138487856251996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16583080203978198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3304563554901585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08259046203124293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18003465125616486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07712558297600101,0.0,0.0,0.07608987427393125,0.0,0.12243410732918066,0.057662020760714035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1376146950778203,0.06769898338626171,0.06455427299780586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08579509312474365,0.0,0.0,0.054100820608650034,0.08527865867698063,0.0,0.08016710700938717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17743297735035055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.039432730743954585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06777934118844225,0.0,0.0,0.06862006484664905,0.0,0.15274687288070635,0.10775429967956973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.081310754923722,0.16268123858385486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059333997873424624,0.0,0.0,0.07795398010855281,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07744715649290508,0.09189330131050318,0.0,0.0,0.054693822289955264,0.0,0.0,0.09470036179206287,0.0,0.0,0.15410108626630153,0.05595685006896189,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08113975505183192,0.09041803157756584,0.0,0.161471469178838,0.0,0.15512215854471892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06431852207145299,0.07347889611524648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09035259424572482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07431050774315744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06407781462826583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07712558297600101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15769148910912156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1942314473614656,0.4914388816411441,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0928169927514142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08196887553953633,0.08225435179762276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1559313009270957
EDAnonymous,shonamairead,2019/01/04,"2019 will be the year I get down to the 120s And this time, I’ll keep it off",-2.3021052631578947,-0.966235684210524,-0.08499999999999908,112.5925,90.05263157894737,3.8,9.5,3.1291,-2.5566000000000004,58,0,19,0,2,19,17,19,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,4,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,3,2,0,4,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,2,11,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3875150858899405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6592697108813554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4324995476683773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4776396631235466
EDAnonymous,_idealixtic,2019/01/04,"I just outed myself to my husband Itty bitty background: when we met in HS i was diagnosed with ANBP and in IOP shortly after we got together. I did great with recovery for about 5 years, and relapsed earlier this year. I’d expressed that I had troubling thoughts, he was aware of my erratic fasting, he knew I had gotten diagnosed with OFSED, but he didn’t know I had begun purging (vomiting) again. I told him I was tempted and I wanted too, but not that it had actually progressed to that. 

Now: He got drunk a couple nights before Christmas and insisted we eat pizza, and I told him, if I ate the pizza I would need to purge, and he said fine, and that he didn’t care. (I didn’t think he would agree, this had really shocked me)
I obviously continued purging afterwards, but I just assumed he knew. I didn’t try to hide it. I talked about all my disordered thoughts very openly, went to the shower as I was still chewing literally every single time I ate, like I truly thought he knew. But he swears he didn’t. 

Tonight he asked me if I would go to the store and get snacks, I said no, because I’ve been really exhausted and bitchy from all the purging lately, and that I’m really trying to get it under control. Since I thought he knew, it’s been a much much more frequent thing. At least once per day. 

And now I don’t know what to do or say, he’s so upset with me. I just want to die. Fml. 

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EDAnonymous,shamfulanon,2019/01/04,"Finally got about back to my pre-Christmas weight Got high & blew all of it for tons of cereal, Ice cream & chocolate. Oops

Now to hate myself tomorrow :)",3.0380000000000003,5.543852133333335,3.6500000000000017,86.70500000000001,77.66666666666666,8.0,23.333333333333336,8.841846274778883,1.845333333333334,124,4,24,3,3,39,26,30,0.107,0.807,0.086,-0.1779,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,0,3,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,2,2,0,6,1,2,5,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,4,13,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6100048921242598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2164542176077187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3083667744287563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4502785651717305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2779205230723367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29741758589819245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3427881443301135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,cereal_boi,2019/01/04,anybody disillusioned by recovery blogs/instas wtf all those girls r fucking skin and bones theyre skinnier than me at my lowest weight like.. after “recovering”?? is eating vegan and exercising all the time rlly considered recovery lmao. just want a recovery blogger that actually looks normal,7.018124999999998,10.6389395625,7.820666666666668,56.09100000000001,70.04166666666666,11.340000000000002,34.6,10.793553405168565,5.62512,241,12,29,9,5,80,44,48,0.179,0.7240000000000001,0.097,-0.6662,1,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,2,0,1,6,2,0,2,7,4,2,0,2,1,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,2,2,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,2,1,4,4,2,3,0,0,1,1,1,1,1,0,3,16,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.3707337640541269,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38873900685341134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3512172691023672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18560303708101436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.319025625123713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37222752972178863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22152642905069966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2240785892877512,0.0,0.0,0.4626235477555774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ZoAbii,2019/01/04,"I bought a pair of skinny jeans online that I was sure I'd fit but they're too fucking tight I usually buy my jeans and shorts from this one shop in Australia called Glassons, size 6 AUS. Short pants are fitting loosely now, and the long skinny jeans in like a dark blue denim fit perfectly and the quality is amaze. 


So I decided to online order a pair of black skinny jeans, ""super skinny"" or something. What could go wrong? I got them yesterday and let me tell you THEY ARE SUPER SKINNY. The part of the thighs are so tight they are giving me a fake thigh gap, but giving me thigh rolls at the same time, and the highwaist part starts to give me a muffin top. 


Like yea they zip up, but you can totally tell they're too small for me. I wouldn't even be able to sip any water in those things in fear of bursting out. Wtf Glassons? Surely these are size 4 not 6. Why on earth are the black ones too tight but the blue which is exact same style fit perfectly? Time to lose some fucking weight. ",3.9876571428571417,4.94190828,4.200428571428572,90.39200000000001,71.2,7.114285714285713,22.785714285714285,7.1686216300943375,0.5791714285714278,776,17,166,7,14,241,120,200,0.08800000000000001,0.674,0.237,0.9891,0,0,1,0,0,0,20.0,0,2,4,6,7,15,2,1,13,1,14,12,8,0,6,27,23,12,0,2,6,0,4,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,7,6,7,3,1,1,3,1,2,6,0,2,3,8,18,9,18,16,6,25,0,1,4,2,12,16,2,2,9,96,25,0,0.1537903989783487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10458274500277036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1570371921543086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1227891195455526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1015771080934026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.173056955126629,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28435349142001903,0.0,0.4425892926990841,0.08740262784053081,0.0,0.1230002310833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15726110257367953,0.0,0.15026844137542428,0.0,0.0,0.13609966359421327,0.0,0.17205211839621673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20842470894907605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33308003065715264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11839536265262655,0.0,0.0,0.1088536359517147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2898912620049631,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2688391745866032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10217150747813307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17935283678780534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16937839713073935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18727527458092133,0.0,0.0,0.1387719145115998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16814565886153274,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,adegreeinbirdlaw,2019/01/04,"Terrified of going back to school at my size Happy New Year, everyone! Hope your 2019 is going better than mine so far :(

I meant to get back to restriction this year but the last 4 days have just been the same binging behaviour that caused me to regain over the past three years and now I've actually slipped back into the overweight spectrum. I injured my ankle (because I'm fat) so now exercise is difficult, I can't control my appetite, and I can't purge because I'm at home with my parents for the vacation.

I know I can get back on track when I go back to uni, but I'm so afraid for people to see me and realise how big I've got. I'm genuinely disgusting. I study abroad, so I haven't seen any of my friends in six weeks. Any time I send snapchat photos all I can see is double chins and mounds of body fat, non existent jawlines, a fat face with tiny beady eyes peering out. My clothes don't fit anymore. I don't want anyone to ever see me like this. I just want to stop existing until I'm thin.

My roommate is recovered from anorexia, probably the same weight as me, and brimming with confidence. My best friend is half my size and beautiful. My tall, thin, gorgeous cousin is coming to visit this semester and truth be told I'm dreading having to introduce her to my friends, my crush, my FWB. One of my biggest fears is that they'll prefer her. I know they will. I need to loae the weight in the 40 days I have before she arrives. 

My crush took three days to text me back and because I've binged today I've just sat here all day lacking the confidence to reply to him. 

(And because my 2019 resolution mandates that I think of five positive things, no matter what: a girl I really want to be friends with asked me if I fancied being gym buddies this semester! My crush did text back even if it took him ages lol! I read a poem I really like today! The world has not ended yet! My dog is still uber cute and loves me no matter what I look like!)

I'm just feeling miserable right now. Any advice? Virtual hugs much appreciated. ",3.7660309698451515,4.9733373105134495,4.758295843520784,85.23041850040751,71.98288508557457,8.093920130399349,27.814262428687854,8.548686976883017,1.8987476120619389,1596,58,328,27,30,521,220,409,0.115,0.682,0.204,0.9946,1,0,0,0,0,0,46.0,0,1,2,3,25,22,1,4,13,1,26,13,6,3,4,51,61,22,0,9,9,2,5,3,4,2,6,0,1,1,11,17,6,3,6,3,0,8,8,6,0,6,9,11,56,16,39,47,8,57,0,1,6,2,20,17,0,3,35,200,67,2,0.0,0.0,0.08693423246693555,0.0,0.0,0.0870529542697904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18174282198296085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08834850728225803,0.062290391556837535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08328256736947,0.0,0.0,0.4795067419458491,0.0,0.2172218642423264,0.0,0.07580488094890322,0.0,0.09348934380953132,0.07878855467949494,0.0,0.09895349238095888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0915149642134142,0.0,0.07673894806721115,0.0,0.0,0.09991654407198347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2298101462278485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07890297992842342,0.0,0.0,0.05883988565951365,0.08058259684879457,0.0,0.08512465572341893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10024553409092177,0.04504411650473862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2753077900032985,0.0,0.09308660315126643,0.0,0.15188739052550007,0.0,0.07124951348664346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0948327733489278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08935964511492697,0.08848163114228952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0979177111415134,0.07261626786943509,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1305674783628374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07480906932815842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08040280449225351,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06548781800768992,0.06605549226832721,0.0,0.08603896998841037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0603663870401995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09891849010807978,0.0,0.08504183313016665,0.061760409629182826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09604883337841452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08910923387950466,0.0,0.11414042597081946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07607821100416033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09015890372123024,0.2129679350239166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07114349684264225,0.07447915445368886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05918419937832387,0.05708215175588141,0.0,0.0,0.05194625347868759,0.0,0.16888456633493604,0.08512465572341893,0.1979537061039148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15763414660953504,0.0,0.07145871468896356,0.21696336802703545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1721037014664015
EDAnonymous,WhyRedTape,2019/01/04,"Feeling like I'm slipping and I need to open up about it I'm in recovery and I know it's okay to slip up. It's not an easy road but right now it feels like I'm falling back into everything I was before. 

I've spent stupid amounts of time looking at weight loss photos- like I used to, and instead of focusing on writing like I should be, all I can feel is this anxiety inside that is desperate to get out. I want to restrict again, I want to see the pounds fall off like in those photos. I'm so honestly tired of being this big, and I'm ready to just become something else. I'm truly ready to just give in-

I don't want to mess up my recovery though - I don't want to feel this way anymore, but right now this anxiety is unreal. It's in my stomach and my throat and I can't really cope.

I just want to be honest and admit that I truly want to give up on recovery and give in to it all again. I want to purge and take laxatives again. Everything was easier. Whats worse is I was smaller then.",0.7566398390342073,2.6483593521126783,2.9910663983903447,91.683661971831,82.23943661971829,6.874044265593561,21.410462776659962,7.957251820313856,0.9276462776659952,774,24,177,15,21,264,108,213,0.126,0.625,0.249,0.9738,0,0,1,0,0,0,19.0,0,0,0,1,13,11,1,0,2,1,15,4,2,1,2,38,44,14,0,9,6,0,5,5,0,1,1,0,0,0,14,12,1,1,6,0,1,2,4,3,0,0,4,7,18,8,33,36,3,31,0,1,2,0,5,20,0,0,13,109,32,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19639440115499973,0.0,0.12730141834936534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09870307981026544,0.0,0.0,0.14176664197122,0.10922729946947357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10723065907994396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23072843883076105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2596163804342538,0.18340483846759087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06706427179704272,0.3694119202409292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07054484503068294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3135579328048092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1077924338941607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0951793993378795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08223250490619205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21924228182759126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1022885427475863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09881996466386384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09651286040418088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12611581200932226,0.0,0.07484938850914304,0.14753417057628684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1108642565751286,0.0,0.0,0.5299819899881437,0.1018884261383644,0.0,0.15631132505417838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13081267275823255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,highfunctioningmess,2019/01/04,Boyfriend and his roommates are currently HOUSING domino’s pizza and jalapeño bacon cheese bread.. ..and I’m sitting here eating a bowl of plain spinach. SOS send help / will power ,4.475645161290323,7.884011322580644,3.038951612903226,87.07842741935484,80.93548387096773,4.390322580645162,30.330645161290327,5.985473137389443,1.6530580645161286,145,7,22,1,4,41,29,31,0.0,0.909,0.091,0.4019,2,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,2,3,0,0,0,3,3,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,2,0,3,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,9,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6085039714629797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3986000730606922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6861784742104579,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,killveemaim,2019/01/04,"Weight loss and disordered eating habits Long post ahead:

This is my first post in a sub like this and I’m feeling vulnerable but looking for support and guidance. I’ve been following for a few weeks and have begun acknowledging that I’ve established some not so healthy habits in the past year of attempting to lose weight. 

In December of 2016, I weighed 196lbs. My partner of 8 years had told me he was no longer attracted to me. He had gained himself, but that’s not what this is about. 

I started to track my calories and lost about 1-3lbs a week for the first few months, weighing in at 170lbs going into May. At this point, I really didn’t do much besides track my calories and try to get in 10k steps a day. 

Once people started noticing the weight loss, I put even more effort into it. I increased my physical activity to include cardio and weights at the gym, and began hiking. In June, I left my partner, and it became one of the few things I felt very in control of. I also started partying a lot to cope with my emotions. Lots of alcohol and sometimes drugs. The alcohol made me feel guilty and I started getting really sick. I would throw up every night I went out. When I realized how easy this was, I started throwing up whenever I ate more than my 1200 calories.   The drugs made it easy to restrict because it killed my appetite. 

Fast forward to now: I ended 2018 at 146lbs, or 50lbs lost, but I regularly restrict and purge. If I can finish a day at under 1000 calories, which is sometimes easy, I will do it, and feel powerful the next day. If I fck up and binge I will purge, which happens 1-2x a week. If I need to go out for dinner, I will even throw up in public restaurant bathrooms. 

Recently, I was called out by my best friend about “getting sick a lot” when we were on a vacation together. It was embarrassing and now I feel like she doesn’t support my weight loss as much because she thinks I’m being unhealthy. I opened up and said I think I have some issues and I wish I hadn’t now because I feel so ashamed. 

The thing is, I know that I’m not treating my body right, but I have so much weight to lose still. At 5”3, I want to reach a goal of at *least* 120lbs, so I need to keep up calorie tracking and exercise. I’m worried about how to continue what I’m doing and don’t know if I’ll ever be able to have a normal relationship with eating again. 

I’m writing today because I let myself eat whatever I wanted over New Years and weighed in at 150lbs this morning, and today I binged and purged twice already and am worried if I stay home alone I’ll do it again. 

Thank you to anyone who reads all of this. How have you managed to continue a weight loss journey while teaching yourself better habits? Is it common to develop an ED when trying to lose a ton of weight? Any sources would be helpful. ",4.719647975377512,5.41496246619217,5.283249975954604,84.23790179859576,69.355871886121,8.139732615177456,30.669616235452537,8.186683628785799,2.0700594786957773,2214,87,447,29,37,712,271,562,0.139,0.746,0.115,-0.9497,1,1,4,1,0,0,59.0,1,2,0,20,24,22,1,2,23,0,38,25,1,6,2,83,85,46,1,13,13,0,14,2,3,6,8,1,1,2,25,32,18,4,12,3,0,12,8,12,0,4,20,16,60,10,72,55,18,96,0,9,1,0,19,36,0,12,49,297,85,4,0.06029673592404411,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12887774658893072,0.0,0.06244923387320653,0.06653894746550428,0.0482192779338474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04100384809152797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04216087972703248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1470253222609131,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0632777043393007,0.05332756296254617,0.0,0.06697608068552076,0.0,0.0,0.06156970895767544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06762791647433829,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11665921933950965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06910528323317125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13985014145038355,0.18509584184076847,0.0,0.06782571219576933,0.05340501100930324,0.0,0.0,0.07965085081154191,0.054541849696577216,0.05080260059290328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15243920698699331,0.04307600019199463,0.05789432227796797,0.0,0.0,0.1025767455487802,0.0,0.0,0.04658510860239598,0.0,0.09450766759294227,0.0,0.06853604912891785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0533202044446038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.040415631089242746,0.0,0.06048254242715849,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06293412672089951,0.0,0.0535945093569562,0.06670940459529437,0.0,0.0662750183359619,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06551258000734217,0.061657497711181126,0.0,0.05891587893342591,0.0,0.0,0.05336071386515386,0.05063407205520303,0.20236987257383166,0.13164202004796124,0.15378638595282215,0.0,0.11410845889082588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04812827935015607,0.0,0.13297511620658287,0.08941853134102401,0.0,0.058234963288185386,0.06412626270677578,0.05658440205180455,0.05907799899633314,0.0,0.06864823349359908,0.0,0.06421405588653,0.0408586287539233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05756005715738278,0.04180216462264976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05699990507563678,0.0,0.1154952109159104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06061487367387621,0.0,0.0,0.06031305307711478,0.0,0.07725526603821352,0.0,0.059535752472570876,0.06473612895893795,0.0,0.05149308302336585,0.05735600367735703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11927002722484994,0.0,0.2133917001631752,0.06426829775903455,0.04815305119741066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1368480427559139,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055513133316901615,0.0,0.0,0.08011694418242332,0.07727142740928104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11430851068743507,0.057616115135275,0.0,0.08187505142145961,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0497511219223685,0.07112915416512036,0.0,0.14509921354567315,0.5874014425620113,0.0,0.05589567828873621,0.0,0.0,0.06933827057799373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1224685244081594,0.0,0.08566614240514403,0.0,0.0,0.1164873630868286
EDAnonymous,speedayyyy,2019/01/04,"I lost two pounds from this morning to just now I like triple checked to make sure the scale wasn’t lying. I actually had a massive shit today. Turns out it was a two pound shit. Last night was the first time I ate more than 500 calories in a while..Thank god for chipotle burritos I guess 💁‍♀️

ps the burrito was still only 750 calories and I didn’t even finish it. ",-0.07884615384615401,2.1915567564102574,1.6725128205128217,96.96415384615385,90.41025641025641,4.6584615384615375,19.33846153846153,6.2581,-0.09699384615384599,289,9,66,3,10,94,60,78,0.17,0.7390000000000001,0.091,-0.7906,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,2,4,5,2,0,6,0,6,3,2,1,1,6,11,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,2,1,0,0,0,1,0,2,3,0,3,8,0,6,2,7,3,2,10,0,1,0,0,0,2,2,1,9,38,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.2173836078222496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1471322201340947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18948126922625627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2453974908550068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1815807863956074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1088302758891608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2431710706822341,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14869538504087412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20904707517916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1694205621303818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.457324045976478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17789804519901292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20995057733404307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20508934853291366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12989433130776276,0.0,0.21115235790082876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24230112130447296,0.4352122701456412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,fishonthesun,2019/01/04,"Gym gains Today at the gym (I was doing fasted cardio and then cardio) a guy there challenged me to a plank contest. I beat him easy. His friend said ""of course she beat you, she's in excellent shape and looks like she weighs 100 lbs soaking wet!!""
And like
My ED brain was so happy that he said that. But like, I do not look 100 lbs. I weigh 118 but I stg I look like 130 still.

Anyways, little things like that are cool",0.35241379310344456,2.5605663678160937,1.3662183908045975,100.76312068965521,86.47126436781609,3.9397701149425286,14.447126436781607,4.935628992294339,-1.2715094252873569,322,5,75,1,10,100,62,87,0.013,0.7090000000000001,0.278,0.9685,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,1,0,5,4,10,0,0,3,1,5,5,1,0,0,6,10,7,0,0,3,0,1,5,1,0,2,2,0,1,4,3,2,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,4,7,14,10,4,6,0,8,0,0,3,0,11,4,0,0,9,41,18,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2334224344239237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16154853628839272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20703981767366886,0.0,0.22258862673670995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.510773415120341,0.20957105041121896,0.0,0.0,0.5267687769059971,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3978000146146332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16698587106785526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1389153685895204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1982003814187895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,modest_butt,2019/01/04,"Working in fast food has triggered me so hard. I recently got hired at a fast food place, those in the US may be familiar with it. We sell fun things like quesadillas and burritos, sometimes mashed together. I’d been working the front counter until this week. Now, I’m working on the line, cooking and making orders. 

BOOOY, let me tell y’all. I haven’t eaten this little in years. Being in front of food all day has made me repulsed by it. I get home from work, and just go right to sleep, which stops me from eating. I eat a little before work, but way less than I have in years. I’m averaging about 400cal a day on days that I work. I don’t even feel hungry. I’m just soo food-ed out that the thought of MAKING or eating food seems gross and like a chore. ",2.4295384615384634,4.061115993548391,3.3722580645161275,92.12146401985113,76.16129032258064,6.317617866004963,21.60049627791563,7.010146845296331,0.4012481389578171,589,15,129,6,13,188,100,155,0.062,0.889,0.049,-0.2103,0,0,0,0,0,0,22.0,2,1,0,6,6,4,0,0,8,0,10,10,1,4,1,21,23,8,0,0,4,0,2,2,0,1,0,0,2,0,9,7,9,1,3,1,1,3,2,1,0,0,5,2,14,3,19,14,2,30,0,0,0,0,4,13,0,3,14,73,23,7,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08754531844753569,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19905185044304352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3158230445593237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.067952834474483,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0520204170791234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6220288453938054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053751791534176314,0.0,0.05847042127662407,0.0,0.08228442904124683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.092162394544203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10319940470875767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10520419288406588,0.0,0.10052625749232144,0.20623032398437266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09734978522066252,0.1373495605190095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10749017829869724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10158392765080584,0.0,0.0,0.08786098105961597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09366024482422176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10295666950240696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10175329372128797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0860142673233197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08992372530502575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06835047449161348,0.0,0.0,0.0816771089820331,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12375482243830645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08166323580026086,0.0825260307118446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4493975401056777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1325057451206575
EDAnonymous,bluediner,2019/01/04,"Aeropostale.... Saw that there was a jean sale at Aeropostale today, so I decided to check it out even though I don’t usually shop there. Tried on the 000 jeans and they fit, yet I STILL feel like I look chubby in jeans. I’m underweight. I don’t know what else to do at this point. ",3.441896551724138,4.157446810344833,3.8994827586206933,92.9312931034483,72.27586206896551,7.8689655172413815,23.12068965517241,8.07648339933343,0.7930206896551724,217,5,51,3,4,68,45,58,0.0,0.904,0.096,0.6124,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,1,0,7,1,0,0,2,0,4,0,0,0,0,5,9,3,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,0,3,1,3,0,2,0,0,0,2,3,6,1,7,7,0,11,0,0,2,0,1,7,0,0,5,31,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2914556217837215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2304407647130985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17641095894107264,0.24924947628020602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19174265875513552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17045166569891382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2929825398236256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.329816984511116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2786266770070046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34278594127200385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3307100972261166,0.0,0.0,0.23687568014968924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3842567296245124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,satanic-sloth,2019/01/04,"Old habits Over the last year and a half I’ve gained about 30 pounds. I made a new years resolution to lose that 30 pounds (I still would be 20 pounds up from my lowest) by eating healthier again. I’m vegan and haven’t the time recently to prepare meals so I’d been living on “vegan junk food” aka chips, protein bars, etc. I can feel myself slipping into old habits and honestly I’m not gonna stop it from happening. I have lost 6 pounds in 3 days and I forgot how much of a high I get on when I’m losing weight. It feels so good. I know it’s not healthy but I love it and I can’t stop. ",1.167556818181815,2.6035083125000043,3.05286931818182,93.90065340909092,79.15625,6.842045454545455,18.66761363636364,7.686295010490155,0.20505312500000009,456,9,111,7,11,153,88,128,0.098,0.818,0.085,-0.3683,1,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,4,7,6,0,0,5,0,7,6,0,2,0,18,20,10,0,1,3,0,3,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,5,6,5,3,3,1,0,0,4,3,0,1,4,3,11,3,13,13,2,21,0,3,0,1,1,7,0,0,14,58,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11401905797731615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18090686395545896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19717473035655667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17878715332955675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21378291986332432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09236882684102744,0.0,0.0,0.14828844004708872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15634048083860216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18679511319048595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0971626829094058,0.1441126702576913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15611446844602928,0.0,0.0,0.395579918406726,0.1929941654129013,0.0,0.15956566195910027,0.16728903720988106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12996570326922996,0.0,0.0,0.17075107376139576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3710361823440124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1745651252766664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14118984082047906,0.2956194291382445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10309140800456276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21529039726123786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1255910966088185,0.0,0.0,0.227702182144186
EDAnonymous,35ants,2019/01/04,"About to cry I can't do this anymore Yesterday I had only 600 calories which was good and I felt like I was finally getting back on track. Today has literally been nonstop eating. I've had over 5,000 calories in nuts, chocolate, chips, peanut butter, ice cream, more fucking nuts. What do I even do at this point? I keep gaining weight and it just isn't stopping. I don't want to be I've just lost all motivation. I'm up to 98lbs of flab from 88 just 2 weeks ago. I need advice. Anything. Please. ",0.690953846153846,3.1666714799999984,2.16,93.27730769230772,89.2,4.676923076923077,21.69230769230769,6.297961479604792,0.3522538461538467,388,14,81,4,13,125,74,100,0.1,0.7440000000000001,0.156,0.5436,0,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,0,3,6,4,1,0,0,0,13,3,0,1,1,12,21,2,0,2,3,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,2,2,2,2,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,7,4,8,2,11,13,2,13,0,1,1,1,0,6,1,0,8,46,13,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2176673230781178,0.1974531660367011,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.220906725560148,0.0,0.0,0.1833030924126792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17127989967675322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2446788429571681,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22792739474849344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1471233286585129,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21387355733629132,0.2440101688548384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2059274621941135,0.11637693339835713,0.0,0.0,0.1868309309677312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19798916230214644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10882369907179378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24315637539907184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16516524105654234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16941032372855613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24451103800023435,0.2105693958696989,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18622777723101347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21113959756843792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13138287687845548,0.0,0.17867546561079076,0.2712477475382238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,scream_de_la_cream,2019/01/04,Got my wisdom teeth out recently 10/10 would recommend. I was put under general anesthesia so I wasn’t allowed to eat in the morning and after the surgery I didn’t feel hungry at all! Just had a small amount of mashed potatoes today “to promote healing”. Still not really hungry. Food smells nice but I don’t want anything in my mouth right now. Going to make myself eat a little bit everyday but this has been a weird dream. Just pay $1400 for this sweet weight loss trick.,2.5219565217391278,5.14170554347826,3.26104347826087,88.06873913043479,80.52173913043478,6.288695652173913,22.243478260869566,7.554174236665415,1.0933486956521734,378,12,71,6,10,119,74,92,0.084,0.74,0.17600000000000002,0.8290000000000001,1,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,2,5,6,1,0,5,0,8,7,2,2,1,14,13,4,0,2,5,0,2,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,2,2,4,0,1,1,1,2,4,3,0,0,6,4,7,3,11,6,3,16,0,1,0,0,0,8,0,0,6,43,9,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19851080720334466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2633594499357949,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4936747167736174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12197256554132375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2916949089354298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13709592678859814,0.0,0.19293276520636865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24177470233016646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1610221448916458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2425016437076045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1545373920939908,0.0,0.23818440852727205,0.0,0.0,0.2060081381992565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19264568837897547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2286567640197693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1422830384286294,0.0,0.0,0.2937517780369826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17136206911118584,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,BadBovines,2019/01/04,went to the dentist today for the first time in four years. Bulimia has officially destroyed my teeth. I’m 21 and they’re as bad as my 53 year old mother’s. Please please guys get help. There is some damage that can’t be reversed. I want to fucking cry. I’m not even thin. It’s not worth it. It’s not worth it. It’s not worth it.,-1.6833333333333336,0.17411955555555814,0.5166666666666693,102.04500000000002,103.44444444444444,3.5111111111111115,14.333333333333336,5.46131890053228,-1.1147166666666668,256,6,63,2,12,84,51,72,0.232,0.659,0.109,-0.8655,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,1,2,4,2,0,2,0,4,3,1,0,0,7,10,3,0,1,4,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,7,1,0,0,0,0,3,1,5,4,0,2,1,1,3,0,6,8,1,9,0,1,0,1,3,2,1,1,6,32,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21108622114616307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2777004810066612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16697896165432732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2150404959532897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.233719248516297,0.13208306035868134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2503221578762085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16945356000913414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26528210947262565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5550200584853132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1474158450595371,0.0,0.23963480902422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1491141925645483,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2343578813414265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3256033674620116
EDAnonymous,Swanabe,2019/01/04,"Losing at less than half the rate I should be. I didn’t indulge over the holidays, I ate below maintenance even on my highest calorie day. I’ve been fastidiously tracking my calories and have increased the intensity of my workouts. I should be losing at LEAST 3lbs a week. I’ve lost 1.2 since last Friday. I’m pushing myself so hard that I often feel weak and disoriented (not terribly so, but I promised myself I wouldn’t get to the point of passing out), doing OMAD and making sure most of my calories are protein, working out intensively twice everyday and walking my dog for an hour and a half every single day, restricting, getting enough sleep, chugging water, taking my vitamins. 

I should have broken into the 170’s before New Years. But here I am on January 4th: 181.2. Losing at a snails pace when I’m fat enough that I should be dropping lbs like crazy. The math isn’t adding up. Given how much I workout, and how little eat I should be like 177 right now at MOST. 

My period is coming but it’s late and it’s taking its sweet time. I am hoping I’ll let go of an absolute FUCKTON of water weight go once it gets here, but at this rate I’ll have to shed upwards of 7lbs of water weight for things to even out and start making sense again, I usually don’t shed that much, and I know it’s uncommon in general so I’m worried that won’t be the case, and that for some reason my body is just stubbornly holding onto this fat and defying physics. 

I am so tempted to restrict more heavily, but I promised myself I’d never go too low to get all my protein in.",5.394084008097167,5.634125368589742,6.244979757085023,79.53686234817816,67.75,9.004318488529014,30.844129554655872,8.841846274778883,2.4042538461538463,1233,45,240,19,19,408,174,312,0.116,0.79,0.095,-0.5845,0,0,0,0,0,0,33.0,0,0,0,5,17,15,1,0,12,0,27,13,4,5,3,49,49,23,0,7,7,0,4,2,0,7,4,0,0,0,13,16,9,4,3,3,0,8,7,8,0,3,5,5,29,7,33,31,13,47,0,5,0,0,0,21,0,5,19,163,42,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1053082315871399,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1374663103690432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10660583874886087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15962626546666253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.126634474985053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2557484659848002,0.0,0.1634808795430882,0.0,0.1042707484400224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06257534070552162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2586320416206809,0.0,0.211002145197052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11086211073756724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1229187881690741,0.12187587775326145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06801370091408575,0.10087860647050982,0.13960347169863727,0.0,0.0,0.12655008519744787,0.0,0.12092299842319935,0.12403719070056415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4153578326447538,0.13509556397074313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16521773618535382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18195151073553825,0.0,0.09544915441710723,0.11952544036268407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13179734087457798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11699052201821986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1272429765227243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1056879420279246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10237320509630732,0.0,0.1238465401424934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08759595779437856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1166396626512772,0.0,0.18609997141641804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08221876080292381,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0721637976729393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13630103208426653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09927053220302706,0.3014057712394242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09009668947727316,0.12568140755935814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07969555620586997
EDAnonymous,snefferu,2019/01/04,"„You look well!“ I used to hate these words so much after forced recovery or accidental gain! I saw it as = „you look fat!“ it meant I looked normal and normal to me was too much.

I had similar today from husband „you are looking good“ but also got „your skin looks so much better too“ he said my ass and tits are juicier and I’m FINE with that!! 

I’m happy about looking well, I want to look well! 

Well doesn’t mean fat. I’m cool with it!

Still very UW though... I feel like I do look well, and don’t need to gain more... the numbers say I do though. Let’s see how I feel when I reach my goal will the „you look well“ still be welcomed 😏 watch this space!",-0.8297521982414082,1.2644863165467657,0.9195083932853728,102.22428257394087,92.30935251798564,3.9521982414068746,14.197042366107116,5.46131890053228,-1.2200314948041568,494,9,123,3,18,159,87,139,0.079,0.615,0.306,0.9877,0,0,0,0,0,0,20.0,0,0,0,4,18,14,1,0,2,1,11,5,5,2,0,19,35,14,0,4,2,1,3,1,0,1,2,2,0,0,6,6,2,0,4,0,0,0,2,1,6,0,6,18,13,13,10,26,4,6,0,0,12,2,5,1,2,1,6,69,19,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07437539080233174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08225461902014956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09405139254726733,0.06644218838938734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07800747439265261,0.07438392049524566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09900465459953853,0.0,0.0918223503902542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09510305182201784,0.0,0.04543713331987245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7029006141417349,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10130879214524256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20510626991176412,0.06896140401130811,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.182248654540209,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08846825110520752,0.07396063861055073,0.0,0.0,0.07411227189092925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14854647993881095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18275222421429527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08815706620570027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08032573058115597,0.0,0.0767381697607965,0.054856261490766174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.501731439302836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,_koala_master_,2019/01/04,"Fitbit friends? Hey guys! Anyone wanna be friends on Fitbit? Drop your usernames :)
Mine is koalamaster ",4.042083333333332,3.238202375,2.4125000000000014,82.51583333333333,150.25,3.5666666666666664,27.66666666666667,5.46131890053228,1.9789916666666665,82,4,10,1,6,23,14,16,0.084,0.521,0.395,0.8295,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,2,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,5,1,0,0,0,6,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35603585316694064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7867942506661755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.504175840732517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Silphidae,2019/01/04,"Gained 20 FUCKING POUNDS in treatment!!!! I’m so frustrated because I went to have one of my weekly weigh ins and heart check ups (yay purging and fucking up all my internal organs) and they weighed me facing away from the scale

Well my disordered ass thought it would be a good idea to wait until the nurse left to hop back on the scale and see what the number she wrote down was 

I HAVE GAINED 20 LBS SINCE STARTING TREATMENT 

And i wasnt 😡 even 😡 underweight 😡 to begin with 😡😡😡

I just started crying and the doctor tried to reassure me when she came in but i just feel so disgusting 

(On the bright side I’m no longer orthostatic so i guess that’s something and i don’t have to follow this stupid eat 6-7 times a day diet plan) 

I feel awful ",2.4461288711288702,4.113727798701298,3.5118181818181853,90.98388111888113,76.20779220779221,6.556643356643357,23.534465534465536,7.321109707123232,0.804508091908092,587,18,127,7,13,189,104,154,0.166,0.745,0.08900000000000001,-0.9541,0,0,1,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,1,3,9,10,5,0,8,2,8,10,3,0,1,21,25,13,0,1,3,0,2,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,4,9,4,1,4,0,1,3,3,5,1,1,6,4,16,5,19,17,1,23,0,0,2,3,5,11,3,1,9,75,20,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17929145082574172,0.1467368051133136,0.0,0.11632844598404808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21825914987258124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20961824336723373,0.12306982667375232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21870818126244532,0.19532300958926946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1952671490718669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12604168525161893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19297917700863346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35283927588098746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16005949301867667,0.0,0.0,0.2102212097098396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22613495324717606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2154243035842772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2073377975294744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1293116237364409,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1520671289217095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1578568861509864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14691057182876094,0.0,0.0,0.2701414911025893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15149802862809747,0.11127474599201444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12956132114194996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1530726432310003,0.0,0.17157945532696894,0.17690170081080284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13556044722355812,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,sunglowfox,2019/01/04,"FAE 'feel' fat the moment they eat over their TDEE? I had a blip day today and ate 200 cals above maintenance but I've been stressed, borderline self-harming and sobbing since, hiding my body in baggy clothes and unable to cope with the feeling of my legs/arms touching. I feel so fucking fat and hideous and I hate that I do this to myself. I know it's so unrealistic to even think I'd make a huge gain from just this but the thought freaks me out so much and I have to spend so long pulling myself up from the meltdown that follows. I just hate my fucking brain and how the idea of getting fat or staying at the weight I am puts me in the most awful kind of panic attack. ",3.5591304347826096,4.637226652173915,3.9862028985507263,91.06278260869568,72.33333333333334,6.389565217391305,26.84347826086957,6.2581,0.8197513043478271,530,18,115,3,10,166,93,138,0.221,0.7190000000000001,0.06,-0.9793,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,2,1,8,10,5,2,9,1,5,10,5,2,0,24,19,15,0,0,5,0,5,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,5,9,6,0,7,0,1,3,0,9,0,0,4,5,17,1,16,15,2,15,0,1,0,2,2,7,3,2,4,72,22,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20761748907387556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20271381242408226,0.0,0.20372779774309105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11769592400092806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18674071588614533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12053801495673415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2768289738212556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3374323806331321,0.0953475201145698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3603574080644614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2060176986339693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1900432793774461,0.10029596758909197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16150472871152033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12181863720753346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1341568138349788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2141217390094876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1834606027445848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19038491071458,0.0,0.0,0.15096398993639032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1945182746346708,0.0,0.0,0.2090505079179321,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11693716235154684,0.0,0.14488279495973175,0.0,0.0,0.17298648828654392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.222233043174496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,abillionbells,2019/01/04,"Kelly Osgood's How to Disappear Completely has kept me from relapsing three times now [Amazon link to book in question](https://www.amazon.com/How-Disappear-Completely-Modern-Anorexia/dp/1468306685/ref=sr_1_1?ie=UTF8&qid=1546629821&sr=8-1&keywords=how+to+disappear+completely)

It's good, y'all. It has the perfect mixture of support and shame to keep me on the straight and narrow. It's also just generally a good reflection on having an eating disorder, although she can be extremely condescending. But I think her no bullshit way of looking at eating disorders is helpful. ",9.684333333333337,13.840975211111116,7.7144444444444416,57.565,63.55555555555557,10.666666666666668,38.888888888888886,10.504223727775694,5.661555555555558,499,26,58,15,9,148,71,90,0.153,0.6579999999999999,0.189,0.4939,0,0,0,0,0,0,39.0,0,1,0,1,4,5,0,1,4,0,6,2,0,1,1,12,11,6,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,2,2,2,3,1,0,1,1,1,0,1,1,1,6,4,10,9,0,10,0,0,1,0,4,6,0,0,2,39,9,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13770224152338226,0.0,0.5597113488754885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36108101930717895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3946949357213907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3523917322458832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2888537179722447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11541697080586635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15305256295881445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1445982917666967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19289495415238253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19540195377282185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11033397031128374,0.0,0.0,0.10040680340172008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13667835337005824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ontheluz,2019/01/04,"Damn she a freak When he thinks you’re a freak for swallowing his nut........ first of all, I haven’t eaten in 4 days ",1.022400000000001,2.0589010399999985,2.501000000000001,99.3955,78.6,6.6000000000000005,16.5,7.1686216300943375,-0.5005999999999999,86,1,23,1,2,28,23,25,0.34700000000000003,0.653,0.0,-0.8176,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,1,1,3,1,0,2,0,1,2,0,0,1,2,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,1,3,0,1,1,0,3,0,3,2,1,4,0,0,0,0,3,1,1,0,3,12,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5180082352432268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.68321559889851,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5146687416600583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,hypermagical20,2019/01/04,"I hate how damn easy it is to get triggered Title pretty much says it. I've been doing really well thanks to therapy and meds, and even made it through December being pretty at peace with my body and what I ate. And then all it takes is my partner making ONE comment about how he's disappointed in me for one little thing and BAM, back to feeling like a terrible failure who doesn't deserve anything nice and who should just starve because I'mnot good enough. We've talked about it since and he apologized and said he didn't mean it to sound as harsh as it did, but I can't unhear it. That was on Monday and I've already fallen back into almost every unhealthy coping mechanism I have. So that's my life I guess. Should be pretty easy to exist as long as nobody ever says anything critical of me ever 😑😑😑😑",5.265365853658533,5.48426456097561,6.059658536585367,80.82802439024394,68.02439024390246,8.511219512195122,27.985365853658532,8.238735603445708,1.821226341463415,644,19,125,8,10,212,108,164,0.149,0.6990000000000001,0.152,-0.1187,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,0,12,9,2,0,1,0,14,3,1,5,3,27,25,18,0,2,2,0,1,1,1,2,1,4,0,1,14,11,1,0,2,0,0,1,3,4,1,2,7,5,10,5,19,14,3,13,0,1,0,0,12,5,1,2,8,84,24,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14854597562124985,0.0,0.16370227126492531,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24415040384478404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2281361221251323,0.0,0.09042966602397344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16477772712480568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1532799230134905,0.0,0.09798039856877012,0.2683728857883941,0.12498696507837945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0750076319633162,0.10597761667471,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07750408057344113,0.0,0.0,0.12442465275974073,0.0,0.0,0.1634186172127092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14645986364566518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10478038053150693,0.07247381843521992,0.1486805480391196,0.0,0.131280556557828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14036751859242072,0.09902136376630044,0.0,0.0,0.16159107037271062,0.16477772712480568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10905056048073863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20104466880108735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4527602420654562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09503353298598616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14110995785634334,0.2359396160087248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12271242320365558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11153689302369724,0.11923400069748145,0.0,0.13657604087772324,0.1696453062873344,0.0,0.0985537510663759,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13337986861718013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,leogrl,2019/01/04,"It’s triggering AF to get your period while underweight I was diagnosed with AN when I was 16 (I’m 26 now) and had never gotten my period. My doctor made me go on birth control and I got my first period when I was 17. 4 years later I went off BC because it was giving me headaches and I was worried about weight gain. I didn’t have my period again for 2 years, which was the BEST. 

Fast forward to now. I’ve had my period for 3 years, kind of inconsistently but lately it’s been like clockwork. When I relapsed in the summer/fall of 2017, I lost my period for a few months and I was thrilled. I honestly didn’t lose that much weight, I went from a BMI of 17.8 to 16.2 in a couple months but nothing drastic. 

Now I’m relapsing again and at a BMI of 17.1 but I’ve had my period consistently for about a year and it’s triggering AF. I’ve been exercising more than I ever have before, running 5 days a week and getting in at least 20K steps a day, usually more. I’m never hungry so I’m really not eating that much but I’m still getting my period :/ I have noticed that it is lighter than it used to be and only last a couple of days but I just want it gone completely. 

Anyone else triggered by getting their period while underweight? ",1.8713111413043464,3.682277734374999,4.146182065217392,85.16104619565219,78.296875,7.889673913043477,22.458559782608685,8.716276077567194,1.5123758831521736,964,29,204,22,23,334,133,256,0.048,0.87,0.083,0.8029,0,0,0,0,0,0,26.0,0,1,1,6,14,7,0,0,11,0,19,6,0,6,3,26,39,19,0,1,7,0,2,1,0,0,3,0,0,0,11,9,3,1,0,1,0,7,5,2,0,1,21,2,27,5,27,17,7,54,0,2,0,0,3,8,0,0,42,133,38,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0874950761442115,0.12821233425947082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07627919441928628,0.0,0.10647796016300892,0.0,0.13131812227931672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1311983297491576,0.0,0.1403459733218684,0.0,0.27691195168432003,0.0,0.2420990108631469,0.0,0.0,0.12700616059663752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12807771733719445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1280410883318702,0.10453157682396456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.113188892716306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10643705990628813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26150483974063343,0.1200378413278366,0.07111529545852005,0.0,0.10007934533632894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13030553195737854,0.0,0.10199913225376504,0.1411541403185095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06113308530037725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13999049612484646,0.1365961602609672,0.0,0.0,0.11840275112843525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1997580455481724,0.0,0.18397256719353966,0.0,0.1930187433298187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12006735356207325,0.14246340341036387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09516838574316287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0801626463716887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09993043096755386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1080737137368048,0.13781501831066592,0.0,0.07380598792107562,0.0,0.10037319603575433,0.30475368562595395,0.0,0.2319968966335205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1270774345523285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32232315103822284
EDAnonymous,rainbowfuze,2019/01/04,"first day back today is my first day back (on my bullshit) on my plan. Staying under 1,000 cals per day. Chugging earl grey tea and watching mukbang videos to occupy me 🤦🏽‍♀️",1.125,3.451149277777777,2.6700000000000017,91.95000000000003,84.0,4.711111111111111,22.88888888888889,5.985473137389443,0.4253555555555559,138,5,28,1,4,45,29,36,0.0,0.964,0.036000000000000004,0.0516,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,2,4,0,4,1,0,12,0,0,2,0,0,3,0,0,8,14,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4629101572812636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5823720174852937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5120711984062367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3208324077443792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2853185473110531,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,QuasarCzar,2019/01/04,"Safe foods/snacks? What are your safe foods or snacks? Asking for some variety for myself, if the alternative was to just eat nothing.

I like apple slices and frozen grapes when I'm craving something sweeter.",4.580945945945945,7.698272972972973,3.644527027027028,85.4084121621622,76.02702702702703,5.8621621621621625,25.466216216216218,7.1686216300943375,1.3461945945945957,168,6,28,2,4,49,32,37,0.054000000000000006,0.789,0.157,0.6187,0,0,1,0,0,0,6.0,0,1,0,0,2,3,0,0,1,0,2,3,0,0,0,7,4,4,0,1,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,3,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,3,3,3,3,1,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,3,2,16,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.412542885244961,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4515457938517559,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5336048403635941,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21559007262589053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4234258641987125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3397235587088865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ZerOxCalx,2019/01/04,"Did anyone else seem to go downhill after the proed ban? I seemed to binge a lot and work out a lot less, like not even at a healthy amount, and just barely used reddit, i got peach after the fact, but slowly stopped using it, I was fasting but not like beforehand, after I got a new phone I didn't download MFP for like a week, and honestly got so depressed because I wasn't in my routine, the last week or so I actually started to work out, and finally installed a fasting tracking app, and finally just feel back to myself? Idk. Did anyone else notice a change in their patterns? ",6.829507246376814,5.97039926956522,7.0710869565217385,78.5043115942029,65.0,9.405797101449275,34.81884057971015,8.344100000000001,2.698797101449275,456,18,88,5,6,148,71,115,0.116,0.7859999999999999,0.098,-0.2695,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,1,2,6,5,0,0,10,0,5,0,0,2,1,24,15,10,0,0,7,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,7,0,2,3,0,0,1,4,1,0,0,8,1,10,4,13,7,4,20,0,1,0,0,2,5,0,5,17,58,11,2,0.0,0.0,0.14641932587412962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20982567813333172,0.3074714734428021,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11537301888284125,0.0,0.0914641966258228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1587245169589058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1292309350528117,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2506816378704975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09910131082198932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0758657318994338,0.0,0.0,0.3287273039279515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08527231332790501,0.0,0.3600068271451704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12230423720577308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21990879335413496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2551206468266645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1449114764934393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17082378544646615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27318516161306705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10620048368216142,0.0,0.0,0.12544181132480772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.259176187650108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2407092473398041,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21846469269982585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,digiskunk,2019/01/04,"Just a reminder regarding scales and weighing yourself. Like some/many of you, I weigh myself excessively—perhaps even *obsessively.* A matter of fact, I weigh myself every morning after a shower; I weigh myself after a workout; I weigh myself at my friends' homes; I weigh myself at the doctors and have them re-weigh me to ensure the numbers are correct; I readjust scales and re-calibrate them; I move the scales around on the tile floor to ensure that they're balanced correctly so that the numbers yield ""correct"" results. In other words, it becomes an obsession to figure out how much I truly weigh.

But you know what? All scales are different. Some aren't truly calibrated correctly, and some are simply faulty. And a majority of the time, many will yield different results. I can be [x]lbs at home but then I'll be [x]lbs at a friends' house and the numbers can vary wildly, often times within 5+ lbs.

You also have to consider other factors, such as *when* and *how* you weigh yourself, as well as whether or not you have just eaten or had a bowel movement, etc.

Don't trust what the scale tells you. Don't base your life and your future on the numbers that scales yield, because scales can lie.

I just wanted to post this as a reminder for those who, like me, constantly weigh themselves to see what the numbers yield. Just forget that shit! If you have to, throw it out.

Anyway, that's all I had to say. I hope you have a wonderful and healthy day. Just keep on fighting—you can do this. We all believe in you. ♡",3.6189823717948713,5.884588232638893,4.094583333333337,85.4356730769231,74.6597222222222,6.375213675213676,26.70192307692308,7.321109707123232,1.4576865384615387,1193,45,219,14,26,375,146,288,0.05,0.8270000000000001,0.123,0.9583,4,0,0,0,2,0,54.0,1,11,2,0,16,10,1,2,20,0,21,14,2,4,8,53,28,25,0,3,12,0,0,2,2,1,2,1,3,0,16,13,10,5,3,1,0,3,4,3,1,0,3,2,34,7,31,22,8,27,0,0,1,0,19,14,1,8,11,161,50,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12899645715964372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.143596658233354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09833072215656162,0.17814995193160832,0.0,0.18173677529021628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1743146259056439,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.104029111969504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3370611557431392,0.0,0.16510366337516102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17989897886982892,0.1065411802571597,0.0,0.13590737505384387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2492494381334607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3236064091965453,0.16021338769297847,0.0,0.18612562137263647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14337630355521788,0.0,0.0,0.08864963278025771,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1139352929023423,0.15761205846518228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3270782039524321,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17144289265745016,0.1185785686834904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15448668733175186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1282771121886554,0.0,0.0,0.12854010450029665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16557842861987385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1409886710570649,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18811780796389496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09514253718865816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14503358664177396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17492962156997646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ri-ri,2019/01/04,"My ED and my menstrual period In 2018 my ED died down a little and the monster, it appears, crawled back into its closet for a little bit. In the past couple months I have been steadily at a weight that is healthy on the scale (my mind, however, is a different story). Now, I have just had my first, fully natural period that has lasted over 2 days. Its gushing out of me. Its real. Its here, and I feel like I have battled a part of the demon that has been taken my life away from me. 

At 16, I plunged deep into it. Anorexia took over my life. I dropped 40+ lbs in 4-5 months and looked emancipated. No, I was on the brink of death. Since then, my period had been lost to the monster. I have yo-yoed with my weight, ranging in the spectrum of ""healthy weight"" and ""underweight"". My friends, my family, my colleagues... we all see the effects that this ED has had on my body. I have lost and gained weight like no ones business. 

That said, in the past 11 years, I can probably count on my fingers the amount of times i have had a full, naturally-induced menstrual period. Many doctor visits, birth control pills and ultrasounds were taken to help figure out what was happening and if it was really just because of my ever-so-fluctuating weight or was it something else? Was it cancer? Was I dying? Can I ever have a baby?

In 2018 my ED died down a little and the monster, it appears, crawled back into its closet for a little bit. In the past couple months I have been steadily at a weight that is healthy on the scale (my mind, however, is a different story). Now, I have just had my first, fully natural period that has lasted over 2 days. Its gushed, it oozed out of inside me. Flashbacks to when I was 13, 14, 15.... those paranoid thoughts - is it leaking through my pants? when I stand up, will I see blood on the chair? - and cramps. The cramps are real. The tampons, the pads, it's all coming back to me..

Its real. Its here, and I feel like I have battled a part of the demon that has been taken my life away from me. 

Thanks for reading. I just really wanted to share this with someone who hopefully understands. ",2.922616758241759,4.6921838028846174,4.135813186813188,86.5806153846154,75.15384615384616,7.1581318681318695,24.866483516483523,7.957251820313856,1.380488543956044,1626,54,328,25,35,532,174,416,0.07400000000000001,0.8340000000000001,0.092,0.7724,4,0,1,0,0,0,86.0,1,0,0,7,14,11,2,0,30,0,42,17,3,2,3,46,63,16,4,3,6,0,9,3,1,1,8,2,2,0,30,21,6,1,6,1,0,5,2,4,0,3,26,14,47,7,51,36,8,73,2,2,3,0,7,37,0,5,32,238,77,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13750500808714064,0.16880653383800764,0.0,0.044608217045852716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15978136845692645,0.08128350948412197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06303578441687192,0.0,0.0,0.08207459041898912,0.0,0.16193863264242386,0.0,0.09438663937470708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2278395249724316,0.15290945559391064,0.0,0.07490009113507891,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06113026366636176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13238615672092366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0689850677451277,0.0,0.07400130673551347,0.10455578870266677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12448918754762475,0.0,0.0,0.05653661841876504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06471046527816958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.049049217262715,0.0,0.0,0.07268159345438943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11929857059198767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1550619225661205,0.10725223143176084,0.29337160907647714,0.0,0.0,0.06145052135020745,0.0,0.15976338530944653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07419032014046974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14777647194514695,0.0,0.17522832379733175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.049586848078223285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15848782000335285,0.2095681056865808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07889753126444989,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07319712607294812,0.2498754432402197,0.09375853417282816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06960839184917639,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11662570466056922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06053303798600801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06200290852035064,0.05633547855841179,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06737184756517403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058094620674187476,0.04267028566353052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08130269867367935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07618017424018235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.043161881211929716,0.0,0.0,0.5346615937971513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04712379696022604
EDAnonymous,pikapika350,2019/01/04,"Going vegan so I can relapse? Uhhh this is dumb. But yeah I used to frequent proed back in the days when I was dealing with disordered eating. Somehow I was kinda mostly able to move past it, but I miss it??????? Im kinda Troubled™ so my dumb ass wants to suffer and stuff. I miss stressing over food all the time and I miss the high of barely eating anything all day and other dumb stuff like that. Please don't tell me that I shouldn't cos I Do Anyway.

So anyway. I've kinda wanted to go vegan for a long time for unrelated reasons but I haven't yet cos I'm a fat bitch. And I kinda want to trigger a relapse cos I lowkey feel empty without my issues. I realised last night that I could go vegan and kinda force myself to get all fucked up again via extreme awareness of what I can eat and using it as an excuse to hardly eat anything and all sorts of shite like that.

Uhhhhh please don't tell me not to or that I'm stupid or probably faking it or whatever. Just wanted to talk about this and I don't really know where else to go 😅",0.8250871568823896,2.956855760368665,3.0978601482668817,89.65685233420156,83.5622119815668,5.432899218593469,18.190542977359247,6.7026698264267655,0.09397030655179296,808,19,169,9,23,276,121,217,0.224,0.706,0.07,-0.9913,0,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,0,0,0,13,14,6,1,7,1,12,8,2,7,4,45,31,19,0,6,9,0,2,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,15,9,6,0,3,0,0,5,7,12,0,0,2,2,21,2,22,27,5,23,0,4,0,2,5,5,6,11,15,109,36,0,0.1172120514106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1929110623937936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09012883246660196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.093584285419936,0.0,0.0,0.15118415289751955,0.12084047824042242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1343351656924529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4797487624550301,0.09791562863162487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059265935021287186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14173327782591008,0.0,0.0,0.108360652799266,0.061238459113022364,0.0,0.2664572398777149,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10499897527071136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12384096770347935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12660912921245465,0.12233892902567148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06441667809530251,0.09554346598374462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11452777541962575,0.0,0.0,0.10372897705022636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1245778609756624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10999557008672883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11189216589148528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2573272686608081,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1263744160078423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07508904151973975,0.12051351048969228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1342660088726588,0.0,0.2683595122550611,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09421060701024464,0.20489699852631565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13669457954373862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2024671575922788,0.0,0.0,0.27653881912602885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11298823483800972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,_Pulltab_,2019/01/04,"Just a Vent About Food Options I don’t have a diagnosis, but I have significantly disordered eating. If I were to guess it would be classified as EDNOS or OSFED. I restrict calories significantly and part of my restriction is attributed to what I feel safe eating. I have been vegetarian for several years, I went vegan for a little while, but went back to vegetarian when my restriction kicked in. I don’t feel like that’s part of my ED. But I also have an unreasonable fear of carbs so essentially follow a keto diet. But I don’t like to add fat to my food because it adds calories. So essentially, I’m stuck with eggs and veggies. And it makes me so sad and bitter that I’m basically afraid to eat anything else. 

I guess I’m just venting that so many foods that I want to eat gives me so much anxiety. ",4.726140651801028,5.782621842767298,6.671172098341912,72.97873070325905,69.56603773584905,10.058547741566613,29.54888507718697,10.230975488527342,3.018215094339624,639,24,124,17,11,224,91,159,0.171,0.757,0.07200000000000001,-0.9527,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,0,0,11,7,1,2,5,0,12,10,1,2,0,28,26,19,0,3,8,0,2,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,8,7,10,4,2,0,0,3,3,4,0,0,5,3,18,3,16,19,3,9,0,1,0,0,1,2,0,5,6,83,26,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10499961043604446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10044322980635416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10804773274830133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1009606798327511,0.0,0.08003853553556317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15047981076178965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5374058431781991,0.10968330735409497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14774766381098658,0.13277724623560516,0.09379989566636644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4763011244885673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12595378204861016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28928088261399737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12829193222249666,0.13159590044843555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08764297482297306,0.13311638456327554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09651973233979184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2843676311979308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1483302818958517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07744343961588512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24343062347086802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09327090704716748,0.0,0.0,0.0845521284496704
EDAnonymous,CalmConcern,2019/01/04,"Might’ve gotten caught c/s today (: So I’ve never struggled much with binging before, i usually just restrict and over exercise, but I lost a close family member recently, soon after the passing of a friend caused by an ED, and I started binging a little, but I quickly started c/s because I’d done it before once or twice, and it just seemed easier than the guilt I feel from consuming the food. 

Anyway, I usually do this after dinner with an empty bag of crisps or something, and today was no different. But I was doing it while watching something on my phone so I didn’t realise my mum was walking past while I spit. 

She’s been worrying about me because she knows I over exercise, and a cousin of mine was recently admitted to inpatient for anorexia. I’m not 100% sure if she saw me do it, but when I looked up, it looked like she was trying to avoid eye contact, which makes me suspect she did. 

I really don’t want to worry my mum at this time because she’s mourning, and I’ve been weaning off
 c/s recently so it’s not much of an issue anymore. I just don’t know what I’d say if she were to ask me about it... :(",3.289566563467492,4.480978070175438,5.011640866873068,83.01942724458205,73.12280701754386,7.996284829721363,28.32404540763674,8.4952907291091,2.079069865841073,872,34,174,15,17,297,126,228,0.151,0.77,0.079,-0.9487,1,1,2,0,0,0,30.0,0,0,0,1,12,8,0,3,10,0,16,6,2,2,2,35,33,20,1,3,13,3,1,1,1,0,2,1,0,0,11,9,2,2,6,2,0,3,7,5,0,1,15,7,28,3,24,18,2,30,0,2,5,0,16,8,0,5,20,122,39,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1289557965832228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12156141792316008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2377970443448046,0.0,0.22129358171114846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1335776401034439,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13585470346277698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13306684327452395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12258164003622453,0.0,0.0657475729238784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15723398299971594,0.0,0.100461616323685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13571856505183716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14292325731682745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06352657106908721,0.13032520716485282,0.0,0.0,0.21838655623329387,0.0,0.14194418030671865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08679669208102397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1379423262782562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.191175470813522,0.0,0.10028791165666852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13847875509145965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12412928833264444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08330117851561736,0.0,0.38516973139354294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10340585819821736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11837532496678305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20020840972221604,0.0,0.0,0.18407320065665056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13593661809773944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12255266434857355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07582211293572583,0.0,0.2465083389893035,0.0,0.0,0.08828250324140714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2864215183016797,0.0,0.07669564383925295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26410555389770124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,rotting_the_crown,2019/01/04,"Electrolyte source! I just mentioned this in /EDAnonymemes, but I HIGHLY recommend [this stuff](https://www.ultimareplenisher.com/)as an alternative to Gatorade/Powerade/pedialyte. Wayyy more electrolytes and sometimes I’ll double up the scoops or put the fruity flavors (like raspberry) in my protein shakes. Zero cal and so much better for replenishing dem electrolytes. That’s all foooollllks. Have a magical day! ❤️ ",9.109677419354838,13.669026016129036,6.27443548387097,63.88165322580645,71.09677419354837,8.906451612903227,36.782258064516135,9.188382445141503,4.779993548387097,351,18,42,9,8,99,55,62,0.0,0.8440000000000001,0.156,0.892,1,0,0,0,0,0,22.0,0,0,0,1,2,3,0,1,4,0,1,0,0,0,1,6,1,5,0,0,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,1,0,1,3,2,5,1,4,7,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,1,2,27,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3497960182616926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25507091237313845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4178775091951733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1932259671961236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2907449956014747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3975962950613155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3911690156412899,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.45276376077133096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,lostandlonley333,2019/01/04,"I vow to never discuss my ED with my bf again I spend far too much time when we are together talking about my ED. Not even venting, just talking obsessively about calories and food and exercise. Its so fkn draining. Why on earth would he care how many calories are in a bowl on oats and how long it taked to on the treadmill to burn a square of chocolate. I sometimes feel like Im talking to myself as I go on and on discussing the same old things to do with food and exercise, he must think Im a bloody nutcase to have a memory stored full of the calories in most foods on the planet  

In 2019 no more rambling about food and calories to someone I love very much but gee wizz he must get sick of me and my ED sometimes.",5.832567567567568,5.086340770270276,5.976351351351353,85.16560810810813,66.97297297297297,8.751351351351351,33.364864864864856,7.6454224807358475,2.1043486486486485,566,22,122,5,8,180,91,148,0.063,0.893,0.044,-0.4118,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,1,0,0,0,11,4,0,1,8,0,7,8,0,2,3,23,14,13,0,3,3,0,1,1,1,3,3,0,0,0,3,10,4,0,2,2,2,1,3,1,0,0,0,2,12,3,25,11,6,18,0,0,1,1,11,11,0,1,7,80,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14162934149726927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09174961209387987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07023773364102524,0.09923826972099843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6718884440061595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07257542765877822,0.0,0.0789465003569568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3000961105549904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06786505082163573,0.0,0.0,0.12293214066888407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12537288338920435,0.0,0.0,0.1408342683296955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20423159670462948,0.0,0.10713696815107064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1457640555338117,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11769910467084467,0.0,0.2747736809038773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10444401960559664,0.33495495442541073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09228650386015967,0.08900876033975272,0.0,0.0,0.08100030367121107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11461638114608028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12534585365687625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09867861115316673,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,BabiiGhoul,2019/01/04,plans to eat RUINED You guys ever prepare food to break a fast but when you look in the fridge it’s gone and now you feel like you can’t eat for the rest of the day. I’ve never been more stressed because I had the exact amount of calories all planned out and already written in my journal and now my plans are ruined and I’m PISSED( I’m realizing I’m being hella dramatic but I’m angry),1.97664371772806,3.5230893493975937,3.5354905335628253,90.83373493975904,77.19277108433734,5.7067125645438885,23.9053356282272,6.18269132825596,0.4967913941480209,308,10,67,2,7,102,57,83,0.079,0.846,0.07400000000000001,-0.1122,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,4,0,3,4,5,1,1,5,0,5,4,1,0,4,13,13,7,0,0,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,5,3,0,2,0,0,1,2,4,0,0,4,2,7,1,8,8,4,12,0,2,1,0,5,3,1,0,8,40,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3052286115779122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16860927580707075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1783803967604674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5660498997542458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25019531702704045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13985435379121328,0.1975989737100773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3344588417264228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2738717745201571,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1351299698275568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2322694917883678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21332652224367915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.316837756803574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,emmetthale,2019/01/04,"the other day my coworkers kept commenting on my weight and eating habits i don’t even know how they know i don’t eat since i just started this job a few weeks ago and i don’t even take my breaks in the regular break room but they kept saying things about how little i eat and now i’m overly worried about being found out as having an ED, that’s the last thing i want ",3.938734177215189,4.134131987341775,4.6125063291139226,90.1347088607595,70.89873417721519,7.838987341772152,22.129113924050635,7.554174236665415,0.5491650632911389,293,5,67,3,5,94,56,79,0.04,0.939,0.021,-0.3291,1,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,2,0,8,0,0,0,5,0,5,4,0,2,0,14,14,7,0,1,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,5,4,4,2,3,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,3,2,11,0,7,10,1,14,0,0,0,0,4,6,0,0,6,44,16,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17697643617920342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12875682930947396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6128710747950403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2637320323338411,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2189043829831049,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19812042740928507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.219443296595308,0.16274025425989436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20010034494473128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15876857858047225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16515138352593825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14131230537728995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15011089925652638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2652753146805763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11775791592320313,0.0,0.16014606284196034,0.243118206937378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20275284262506707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,OldEyeHoles,2019/01/04,"proED mourners out there? Im no promoting.  I just came back after a very long absence to find my support community banned. I'm heartbroken.

 I've been drifting around Reddit again wondering if any of you out there are stragglers?  What happened?  Why banned?
Do any of you miss it?
Will EDAnon get banned as well?",1.5281034482758606,4.137995948275865,1.930620689655172,91.55144827586209,98.13793103448276,5.078620689655172,23.04137931034483,6.742157984588678,1.072001379310345,247,10,46,4,10,75,48,58,0.293,0.604,0.103,-0.9268,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,2,0,1,7,3,0,0,1,0,4,0,0,0,0,11,11,2,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,4,0,3,2,0,0,2,1,1,1,0,2,0,4,2,8,8,0,9,0,1,0,0,2,3,0,2,4,27,6,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3750698978749752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2454962438933897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21205224751464613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3154105967850161,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2520513274095594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14407989689716816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24386496105279465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2978819282422406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24405023469095136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3129436858357689,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22754142705015626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24795285069295436,0.0,0.24884204274042415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2990638192382832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,XSkeletonGirlX,2019/01/04,"I miss Ensures sometimes. There was a point in time when I was on a certain drug (yes it was sometimes done willingly, but I was also forced by another person to do it for a long time as well), and it made me completely lose my appetite. Trying to eat anything, even if the bite was less then a cm squared, was like trying to do the cinnamon challenge. Id be sitting there for half an hour, maybe even an hour, till Id have to spit out the food cause it was physically impossible to swallow it. I couldn’t even wash it down with a drink.  
  
I ended up living off of Ensures (“meal replacement drink” thats like a gross chalky milkshake) for a while. Id chug back 1 or 2 a day. Im pretty sure that I would’ve ended up dead or in the hospital without them.  
  
I was at my lowest weight in years at that time though. I miss it. Of course I don’t miss all of the other stuff going on at that time, but I miss being so tiny. I wont go back to the drugs, but I still wanna go back to just drinking Ensures all the time since my stomach cant always handle solid food properly now.",3.3818666666666672,3.83842967555556,4.734666666666667,87.83400000000002,72.24444444444444,7.6,26.11111111111111,7.554174236665415,1.159444444444444,827,25,185,9,15,276,130,225,0.135,0.7909999999999999,0.075,-0.9247,1,0,5,0,0,0,24.0,0,0,1,2,16,12,0,0,17,1,19,14,2,2,4,19,27,15,1,3,8,0,1,2,0,2,3,0,0,1,13,3,9,0,0,3,0,3,5,6,1,1,10,2,17,6,32,12,3,39,0,5,1,0,2,14,0,3,23,127,30,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08984558367657419,0.09348350227987268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11780789149488452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09245378695585316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25916871034914024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11541353662455713,0.0,0.0,0.11779595805881335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07245591460460536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11497219877432555,0.0,0.33017821881506937,0.26057871714916864,0.11496123997754355,0.0,0.0,0.19901601977397645,0.0,0.0,0.22261668428496054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2717061035291467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19155185231065955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22128258567061151,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12135637338391395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1097762504418672,0.0,0.09920636773300863,0.09942547230156924,0.0,0.12568997365807372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10630749288226232,0.0,0.0,0.11286983324883645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09809895411135007,0.0,0.0,0.10620627185781856,0.0,0.0,0.11429948726362912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09293638718631707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.222232386512274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08972218531713969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12861291035222824,0.0,0.0,0.10588775489878176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1103824805194217,0.0,0.3275584971212965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15255541141869647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13681101138596685,0.10101538857311952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10830058227461543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07980962071093138,0.0,0.0,0.07234917634560598
EDAnonymous,yssjfs,2019/01/04,"Hey gurl, wanna send me a link to your fave cutlery 😎? I feel like I’ve been scourging the internet for hours trying to find the perfect pieces! Personally I’m partial to small functional ends and long handles, but these have been hard to find :(. Can’t a girl get a  teensey fork up in here?!",4.335172413793103,5.272590965517246,4.713275862068965,87.09681034482759,70.3793103448276,7.8689655172413815,30.017241379310345,8.07648339933343,1.8566413793103451,228,9,48,3,4,72,48,58,0.028,0.848,0.124,0.6591,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,1,0,1,1,2,0,0,5,0,4,0,0,0,1,8,7,2,0,1,1,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,1,0,0,4,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,2,2,3,2,8,5,1,7,0,0,0,0,5,3,0,0,4,25,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2922871017403311,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1668607988642151,0.23575613997141126,0.0,0.0,0.6032384674829357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1724143591954175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2956202899237469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3249891426063327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16122411712391066,0.0,0.0,0.29204466224571995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28814825071397165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.224052210013122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,peyton2724,2019/01/04,"Anyone else see the Elle Mills video? I won’t get into it but by bit - just one part that I want to talk about.

I thought the video was great and positive and affective and everything in between... and then at the end of her video talking about struggling with an eating disorder she promotes a calorie counting app?

I get it, for some this may help keep them back on track, but with calorie counters having a pretty big use among those with EDs the advertisement of a calorie counting app just felt like a fucking slap in the face.

I feel kind of gutted. This really, really shocked me.",6.040803571428572,6.656875044642861,5.821428571428572,81.82357142857144,66.41071428571428,8.9,32.07142857142857,8.841846274778883,2.524753571428572,463,18,88,7,7,144,80,112,0.084,0.695,0.221,0.9574,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,1,1,5,6,1,1,10,0,4,4,2,2,0,21,14,7,0,1,4,0,2,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,6,8,1,1,3,3,0,0,1,3,0,1,3,3,9,3,18,9,3,10,0,0,1,1,6,7,1,2,4,60,15,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1392357745678797,0.20403140904008868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1531180720233799,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2173975247918397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22821932796468605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20375889588367094,0.1663469043891955,0.0,0.17636937658392304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17896449524494054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10068571242709827,0.0,0.19119527053622748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18409174717720636,0.2080735883612647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21954065851256874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13347211291116182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1769951924915991,0.0,0.2073624308030907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09728447426564607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.134935107122215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2156375309031842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20258599619711945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2551345435845199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15868020010822975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20817308730084605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32010503442184085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1580863508713016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17198370360600967,0.0,0.0,0.11745156812025252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Byrdnest47,2019/01/04,"I felt normal for a week My husband and two kids traveled to see our family across the country for the holidays. I stressed for WEEKS because I didn’t want them to see how horrible I looked. I had a baby in July and even though I’ve lost all the baby weight and then some, my body is just so ugly I can’t even look at myself when I walk by a mirror. I packed all oversized clothes and ate next to nothing for the days before we left. 

But then we got there. All the people I always thought were goals suddenly were bigger than me? I got to be the smallest in every picture. So many people told me how they thought I looked great. I wore some form-fitting clothes I had packed and actually felt really good about myself. There was even one night where I mentioned how much I weigh in a conversation, and the girl I always wanted to look like said, “yeah, you definitely weigh less than me.” 

For those days that I felt I looked good, I actually ate food I would NEVER eat at home. I told myself I was splurging for the holiday, but I ate whatever I felt like eating and still never overdid it. I felt normal. Like I could be thin but also eat what I wanted. I made smart choices and gave my body what it needed. 

Then we came back home. I stepped on my scale immediately. I opened MFP right away. I planned out my minuscule meals for tomorrow. I walked by a mirror and started crying because I look like I gained 50lbs since yesterday. 

How does it just come and go? I was so happy for a week. I felt normal. I didn’t even gain weight. I never once felt like binging. It made me feel like I COULD be normal. But then it all slipped away in moments when I walked by my own bedroom mirror. Does this mirror somehow make me look bigger than others? I just don’t get it. I’ve been battling this illness for 14 years and I’m just so tired. So, so tired. ",1.9086788799523404,4.011752723860592,3.1296537086684566,91.07879393803994,79.40214477211795,5.753023532916294,21.62116473041406,6.816661863887847,0.4396297885016387,1438,42,303,15,36,464,178,373,0.079,0.782,0.139,0.9599,0,0,0,0,0,0,39.0,4,1,2,5,29,14,1,1,14,1,19,17,2,7,7,64,62,33,0,11,8,1,11,6,0,1,3,1,3,2,13,18,12,0,10,3,0,8,7,3,0,2,33,21,62,11,32,23,9,50,0,1,9,0,16,18,0,3,30,201,75,1,0.0,0.0,0.1308550573149256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053616911231031336,0.11157580457931236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12598443371465332,0.0515544751636425,0.0,0.08174161860316526,0.0,0.05705147304942616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14894667554518606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07668311922598066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05775446083015257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10706204854428024,0.0,0.07364722513330714,0.08647864886721703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1173453583446777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2058153449503064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1771338261554847,0.0,0.05648940927801025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06320529568733352,0.0,0.0339006297040097,0.04789789846398436,0.4506248143806654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08107266622193503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03502893062075274,0.0,0.03810396401323287,0.11247053050070642,0.10724612050266076,0.07391879532657471,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0713720455093858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13450583448358552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0728460138202081,0.0,0.0,0.19653264749456026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3941141103899965,0.0,0.07318896928390826,0.0,0.0,0.1268816824559827,0.04475393367263132,0.06797443671348016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04928675353569701,0.04971399057342063,0.1551307465355759,0.0,0.07130451310042367,0.06291842167431062,0.2627646006843149,0.06433274431042567,0.0,0.0,0.07140213378922848,0.04543231596968822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09296294120838727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.042951584084101414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05725718384384861,0.06377639586296859,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10685445979482328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055461401862991616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04745572449585171,0.0,0.053543271118594964,0.0,0.07680132350889939,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0658726608174287,0.1064545646638098,0.0,0.1541197447411914,0.0,0.1281312480424542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06549450430576333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11863695522489046,0.0,0.1613415211866917,0.1632886905006904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.047627776168101266,0.0,0.0,0.043175626525224664
EDAnonymous,robreinerismydad,2019/01/04,"Hoping this will go in my favor My SO of 4 years, with whom I just purchased a house, informed me tonight that he’s not happy, but he doesn’t know why, and wouldn’t I mind going to stay at my dad’s for a couple of days while he “figured it out”. I am beyond heartbroken. I can’t even describe it. But I am hoping this will be motivation to fucking stop eating and lose some god damn weight. If I get skinny enough, my next BF will love me more, right?",2.5008928571428584,3.3562500416666694,3.893988095238093,91.57125000000002,74.625,6.3190476190476215,22.047619047619047,6.18269132825596,0.17698690476190526,348,8,80,2,7,115,71,96,0.16899999999999998,0.6559999999999999,0.175,-0.0743,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,2,4,8,2,0,2,0,9,5,1,1,0,19,17,7,0,4,5,1,1,0,1,4,0,0,0,0,6,4,3,1,4,0,1,2,4,3,0,0,0,1,12,5,10,12,3,14,0,1,0,2,8,5,2,4,6,52,18,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2316443853474743,0.0,0.13501494180975246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2142197115397184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21631693350667727,0.0,0.13827524796116306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19354286744691904,0.1093779584063704,0.0,0.23795952186379696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.222859461786659,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4158682277870824,0.0,0.24156449539141775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11505457255841152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2342117213221336,0.0,0.0,0.18894866302551488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21138618656944266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22264859160342346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17878575685744974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22314174219428728,0.0,0.17502793274644024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2549347536637903,0.0,0.0,0.1889079266904536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13481604486798698
EDAnonymous,LuKiOMFG,2019/01/04,"My story I just wanted to share my messed up story for everyone to either judge or relate with. I'm sorry if it triggers or offends anyone. I've just never really shared my whole story before. Feel free to add yours.

I hit puberty at 8, and it hit hard. 

When I was 10 a 'health' nurse came to school and told all us girls that we were too old for full fat dairy and we needed to switch to lite to maintain our weight (studies now suggest that full fat should be used until at least late 20's/early 30' s) (she also poured liquid onto a pad but it didn't absorb and now I'm terrified of using pads in case it happens again).

 At 11 I was mistaken by a senior (18 years old) for a teacher at my high school orientation day (i admit I was very curvy, but I didn't look like an adult).

When I started high school (12) I was one of a few that had hit puberty and I thought I was fat. I stopped eating breakfast and at school and no-one questioned it.  I also started taking diet pills. I would binge after school so I gained instead of losing.

I decided that diet pills were fake and I would go for meal replacement shakes. I would have them for breakfast and lunch on the weekends. But would still binge after school, so I still gained.

I then started packing lunch for school, but not eating it until I got home. That was all I allowed myself to binge on. I also started walking very evening (on top of to and from school). I lost I little weight. Still, no-one questioned my behavior.

At around 14-15, I was maintaining my weight, but because I wasn't eating properly I was always moody and tired.

At 15 my family decided to do a weekly weigh-in to try and motivate us to lose/maintain our weight. I started weighting myself everyday secretly and recording it. But I was too ashamed of my weight so the calender we would write our weights on so I lied. At one point I was taking 20lbs off my actual weight because I didn't want them to know I had gained that much.

This continued until I was 18. Managed to lose 30lbs before the formal (prom) by not eating and using studying for finals as an excuse. But I had already bought my dress, so I have pictures of me all dressed up in a baggy dress. It's embarrassing. So I then ate my emotions of ruining my own formal and regained the weight.

After school (18) I got my first serious job. I lost 60lbs in less than an six months by overworking myself and barely eating. Then my father past away and I ate my emotions and gained it all back.

At 19 I moved out of home. Could barely afford rent so I decided that food wasn't an essential. Lost 70lbs in 4 months.

Alas, I had to move home for financial reasons and regained the weight (plus a little extra).

Finally (20) I got a good, stable job. Good pay, great perks. I decided that travelling was more important than eating (I see a trend emerging), managed to lose 60lbs again. I was also prone to 3am walks around the city. I would not advise this, especially during winter. But finally, colleagues noticed my weight loss and complimented me regularly. For the first time I felt great.

At 21 I received news that my brother-in-law had passed away. I returned home to help my sister (now a single mother), I slowly regained the weight, but I fought hard not to.

I started at university (finally), and turns out sitting at a computer for a minimum of 40 hours a week doesn't burn many calories. So I slowly gained.

At 23 I moved out of home again. Finally, I thought I was free of gaining! I was so wrong. Still studying and still gaining. I binged almost every day and reached my HW.

24, and forced to move back for financial reasons (again), I'm slowly losing, but I'm determined not to make the same mistakes again. I really don't want to redo this...again.

Looking back it's not really that hard to see why I have problems and all this time no-one has questioned anything I do.",2.3493503595338443,4.579342457404984,3.6490405936736217,87.26546411745954,78.55439056356488,6.431008465870852,23.67909390386455,7.534196372845213,1.1615494810669116,3017,102,592,44,74,984,321,763,0.133,0.757,0.11,-0.8027,5,0,0,0,0,0,116.0,8,1,2,19,39,31,2,3,27,0,44,35,3,9,6,107,92,61,0,15,22,3,17,1,0,7,7,0,6,2,23,37,31,1,17,2,5,12,14,21,0,5,42,21,100,12,92,38,18,115,0,9,4,0,32,40,0,7,63,394,123,19,0.0,0.0,0.037811941203406085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03879999401439036,0.0,0.042758796518433534,0.1239453506238925,0.032240998926943806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02709313185666077,0.0,0.03188586620462261,0.06898692624994213,0.0,0.0,0.07280904686317421,0.08938323777438413,0.0,0.04724019598349273,0.0,0.06594248594674837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.044316783087539585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0309367017808855,0.0,0.0,0.04997782513590685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23789000996087795,0.0,0.08717137667379712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.025592338413051082,0.0,0.03264641453015713,0.03702486794713819,0.0,0.0,0.036527666156938865,0.0,0.01959188499748181,0.0,0.037203647489909765,0.21222979640616715,0.0,0.0659171561545557,0.04685359437059397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02202108006292125,0.06499907873141908,0.09296967391135301,0.08543844464454631,0.0,0.0,0.034264259640567035,0.0,0.10413036667446482,0.0,0.0,0.041186748558445216,0.0,0.0,0.02597161229225809,0.08187765860276916,0.19433435777603286,0.0,0.03815845273852984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07690177002660792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.021294596106678654,0.0,0.04370883373436533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.018930056568185385,0.07767028827065547,0.0,0.0,0.06507623178231225,0.21674253782798414,0.1268923216306769,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.025864237017267373,0.03928385279231531,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06185572155563561,0.16472971359286218,0.028483848695482906,0.02873075794120573,0.029884437469500456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04411425126350952,0.08131790320514974,0.0,0.0525125767526441,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.036988844358529865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03662888331623699,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0370760957054922,0.0,0.0,0.1302181020884308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0744678641532007,0.07967770481673196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3529305732342645,0.06175343366912765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.043374620217396166,0.1645539516367636,0.0,0.15471889745169345,0.03239461980817964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058266550320250785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061522325884809936,0.045187922560204825,0.044534516632496864,0.0,0.03702486794713819,0.0,0.026306988591016038,0.04214612060250462,0.0,0.0,0.09321687080698578,0.10039611960623378,0.0,0.0639414412121618,0.06856278492498137,0.0,0.06216176623674071,0.5662077560701841,0.0,0.0,0.03496356477428132,0.04326016635794524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16515054525861106,0.04236427562313405,0.0,0.024952100210586244
EDAnonymous,PoorLama,2019/01/04,"I don't even feel like I'm alive anymore I feel too sick to eat, I can't sleep since I only have nightmares, and I have no one who loves me. 


Life. ",-0.24803921568627274,0.9574745882352927,1.671176470588236,103.26696078431374,82.52941176470588,4.533333333333334,17.215686274509807,3.1291,-1.1985960784313725,112,2,31,0,3,37,26,34,0.218,0.602,0.18,-0.0798,0,0,0,0,0,1,4.0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,4,5,1,0,0,3,8,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,2,0,0,0,3,0,0,1,0,2,6,2,1,8,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,1,17,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3447479023990508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3557043862724253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22960124378457836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35153654901751985,0.2483414331567575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2455359035651388,0.16983069162415093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31374268845481434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2355578599763992,0.2643824157099364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28755675019635235,0.0,0.3478733382718139,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ZygomaticArdvark,2019/01/04,"I feel like I don't deserve treatment because I'm maintaining I have an appointment with my primary care tomorrow to discuss a recent ED diagnosis (AN) from my therapist. There's looking especially at my heart because I've had some concerning blood pressure & pulse  readings, plus chest pain. 

I felt an extreme amount of pressure to lose weight and be ""sick enough"" for this to be worth it. I didn't end up losing anything (I've been maintaining around 98-102 at 5'2"" for about a month) and I feel like a failure. I'm maintaining, I'm eating junk food, I don't think I need this. 

I feel like complete shit for not being Sick Enough anymore. I want to lose weight but my horrible ""recovery"" brain can't do it anymore. I used to be so good at restricting and now I eat cookies and Pop tarts and ice cream like nobodies business. I don't need treatment to make me fatter, and I'm so embarrassed to go to this appointment tomorrow and tell her than I'm eating 1400-1600 calories Every Day. I feel like such a failure. I can't go back to ed and I can't recover enough to actually be happy. 

Any advice to make it through this appointment? Anything helps",4.2654659031754285,5.753178539823011,5.206210307131703,81.41492191566894,71.12389380530973,8.857470067673088,31.878188443519,9.325443323948027,2.9239711608537218,914,42,176,20,17,299,122,226,0.14300000000000002,0.7120000000000001,0.145,-0.1412,0,0,0,0,0,0,29.0,0,0,0,3,8,16,1,3,7,0,16,14,5,3,0,27,37,12,0,3,2,0,7,5,0,0,3,0,0,0,7,11,6,1,6,1,1,2,8,8,0,0,4,10,22,8,26,28,5,15,0,3,2,0,4,5,1,1,13,98,29,1,0.0,0.0,0.1010443210303095,0.0,0.0,0.10118231228669433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11219022874541804,0.0,0.07041368909301736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.205376286856215,0.0,0.0,0.17041630757741455,0.09217639852705467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07961919158305282,0.0,0.12623931426352675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1155897066073608,0.0,0.0,0.10557033631708844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10856425075109416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06677752115744777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3178550713263193,0.0,0.0,0.09170953498862497,0.3209668887828154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08724055642973995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2094204798029391,0.2958883349796196,0.09941878625713826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12520620418662173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11769324782042802,0.08684806398435115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11022485530206023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12270051915269632,0.0694035758708221,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2529326255306538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0869511514931487,0.3475188293888815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.138233276853893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08264808930076918,0.0,0.0,0.15355360430920156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11017845816009267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10357234175053152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1022375254918722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10628675772625938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09050230061786506,0.0,0.0,0.12022293757560522,0.0,0.06634702007998809,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08942904822155164,0.0,0.0,0.061073123376765626,0.0,0.0,0.2521781764056994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,relapseandrecovery,2019/01/05,"Have you ever purged cum? As someone who can't purge- though not for lack of continued trying- I had a thought the other day after swallowing post-BJ. If I could purge, would I see the cum come up? How long after would I still be able to see it in the vomit? When do you pass and/or digest the salty protein supplement? Speaking of which, does it count as a meal plan exchange serving of protein? There are big questions to be asked here friends.",3.0640517241379333,5.268268551724142,3.163893678160921,91.74859913793104,76.12643678160919,5.729310344827588,25.81752873563219,6.6274283507984215,0.9175528735632184,352,13,70,3,8,107,68,87,0.0,0.927,0.073,0.7203,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,2,0,1,7,1,0,0,6,0,10,4,0,1,1,11,15,6,0,5,2,0,0,0,1,2,2,1,0,0,5,1,3,0,2,0,1,2,2,0,0,0,2,3,6,1,12,8,1,13,0,0,2,0,7,3,0,2,8,49,11,0,0.2441468927223744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2282443872875139,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2103109298370376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.194931427425345,0.0,0.0,0.15745454803743722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21365459109822624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22084484214078476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18862728368475346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2160623172046368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2338252347934355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2735003954903448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3891069273899456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20686486991705488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1949760239054864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23987308249825146,0.19382536134900788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16575971393555067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3468698953468254,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,trashwitch420,2019/01/05,"im so sick of this god i cant even go a month without thinking about my body. im so tired of this. rant below bc i was out with friends and we got sushi and i ""stuffed"" my face and ~ruined~ my day (god fucking overdramatic im at 1300 im below TDEE stfu) 

i remember the first time someone called me fat and its been downhill since. binged all my feelings. yoyo-d my way up from a healthy weight to pretty obese from middle to high school.

i was 180+ before i went to college at 5'1. a whole month of hardcore dieting only brought me to 176.3 which is my first official SW, but i didnt weigh myself for two whole months binging for half and starving for the other. so who knows ¯\_(ツ)_/¯. 

ive lost 50 pounds now, 33 in the past 3 months... and god. im sick of it. im still so huge. baaaarely a healthy bmi and i still look Fucking Huge. 

no matter what im doing. in my room by myself? better put on a baggy sweatshirt and suck in your gut. having sex? ""hey babe can you turn off the light?"" doing my makeup? ugh your face looks round as fuck today wtf have you been eating... every time i eat? ""why am i doing this? its just making me fatter"" 

gained 5 lbs (132->137) from the holidays (thenk u binge drinking egg nog and drunk munchies) and its like any semblance of confidence i had is gone. not even a healthy bmi anymore... give me a break. but even borderline shouldnt be as big as i am right???? why does my 26.5"" waist look massive on my frame??? if i were 3"" taller id look tiny. i hate it. i feel so disgusting and it makes me desperate for attention. i cant believe anyone actually thinks im not fat... 

its driving me insane. i wish i knew what i looked like. i mention wanting to drop 30 more pounds and Now people are like woah woah what the FUCK youd be nothing and im like ???? no ???? thats still technically a healthy bmi first of all but also What. guy calls me tiny in bed?? nah fam my bmis barely healthy you're fucking lying. i thought getting to a healthy bmi would help but i look in the mirror and see worse than what i saw at 170 :( 

and now its at the point i dont even get the gratification of quick weight loss. its a ducking snails pace. fuck being short, really. my tdee is 1600 or 1700 MAX. wanna lose even a pound a week? 1100 baby. two pounds? lmao 600. my goals seem fucking impossible and i cant even lose 5 lbs/month without eating <1k or under a day. like i gained 5 lbs in 10 days because im a black fucking hole and i have to spend all of fucking January just backtracking it. im tired of being so fucking HUGE. i hate it. i hate my body. i hate my height. i hate food. i hate it. i wish i could be locked in a closet for 3 months with only electrolyte water and re-emerge 25 pounds lighter.... and thats what gets me. if i wanted to lose 25 fucking pounds in 3 months i couldnt eat. period. GOD. makes me so fucking mad.

what do i do if i hit 120 and still look huge? 110? 100???? theres only so low you can go. its infuriating. i hate this i hate this i hate this why do i take up so much SPACE",-0.8232117295885466,1.3289089731861239,1.1207601506054736,99.16948085207424,96.49211356466877,3.925619890777111,17.227298938299242,5.711242833559606,-0.5902580780841897,2315,66,540,19,93,755,299,634,0.226,0.639,0.135,-0.9976,0,0,1,0,0,0,127.0,1,6,0,12,28,39,24,0,24,0,39,39,8,3,3,65,99,42,0,12,15,0,5,5,1,2,7,0,3,2,31,24,17,0,10,3,1,7,13,32,0,6,15,16,76,7,57,73,7,72,0,7,11,13,17,36,13,6,31,298,107,3,0.0,0.0,0.04049215124322972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03318273092856774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02821733788970645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04115089093755335,0.029013564442278626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02529435278439356,0.0,0.035308331565766835,0.046749520467973454,0.0,0.03669806452286773,0.0,0.09218094335990193,0.0,0.0,0.08474001159850036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03312957673184649,0.0,0.0,0.0802805776351625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03631167258861232,0.0,0.04863065035134047,0.040648315866232416,0.0,0.1698348538586638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16443834482570813,0.0,0.03496047842646112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04196121887476832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10588430684537664,0.05017470061473934,0.0,0.032058155788897175,0.4603263309241237,0.06503669567025601,0.03980481872073454,0.047163984501634386,0.0,0.033186536468300866,0.0,0.0,0.041085576396919885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3687005449011575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02781254861556557,0.04384068141000663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4930269571020322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0228040131972238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10135934432438087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2439115230616678,0.13926349205972424,0.04529559459742906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08309268689433941,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23184076338627616,0.0,0.03050285895564838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03981460504412089,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09467415359725567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.039610711124848534,0.028766709920627038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03922523509525814,0.0,0.0,0.04221430788179257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.041712923328067586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02658211420417689,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04700460489878569,0.035435643001351214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04199413581746815,0.0330653398944488,0.03777457250059962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03432425950481998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03515772531684359,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13254862451199154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.031198318479564363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05317535006862222,0.0,0.03294159523788991,0.04839096159681805,0.09538248107001454,0.03933145326429631,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04513354870017327,0.08106720300666084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04894846387114859,0.03293599997693738,0.03328397802249913,0.1010570089950771,0.0,0.0384653468944413,0.11232562315910356,0.09265312190929803,0.09543208750650853,0.07999745639056445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04228592343842271,0.029476141855733582,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,spacetimesymmetry,2019/01/05,"Been eating at my TDEE for two days and then hopped on the scale Just to prove that I couldn’t magically gain 2 lbs in two days. 
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And i went from 110 to 116 😦🙃 meal plan is cancelled for the rest of the weekend",2.8382269503546063,2.827573106382978,3.826382978723405,95.53333333333336,73.25531914893618,7.117730496453903,22.04964539007092,6.42735559955562,-0.007660992907801313,164,3,43,1,3,53,39,47,0.044,0.8809999999999999,0.075,0.34,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,3,0,3,2,0,0,1,5,4,3,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,2,0,1,1,0,1,1,0,0,2,2,0,3,0,9,1,1,8,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,4,26,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4745683280970146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3764838505581079,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7188275444879547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3410744398537689,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,sad_fat_cat,2019/01/05,just pissed myself while purging stay strong bitches ,9.06375,13.574947875000005,3.7550000000000026,82.39000000000001,70.25,3.2,33.0,3.1291,1.6613499999999997,45,2,5,0,1,11,8,8,0.494,0.305,0.201,-0.7003,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,1,1,3,2,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,3,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,baswild,2019/01/05,"I miss my old resting heart rate. I have a fitbit. One thing that I didn’t realize I would miss would be my resting heart rate. When I was restricting and a lower weight, the lowest number was around 54 (I think). Now, after gaining 20lbs and going to treatment, it’s around 80-85. Shits wack. ",1.146822660098522,3.640837672413795,2.289704433497537,93.40431034482759,86.06896551724138,4.693596059113301,18.630541871921178,6.18269132825596,-0.07411133004926151,227,6,46,2,7,72,43,58,0.237,0.6920000000000001,0.071,-0.8225,2,1,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,1,4,3,1,0,3,0,7,4,3,0,0,9,11,3,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,3,4,1,1,2,0,0,1,1,3,0,1,3,1,8,0,4,5,2,7,0,2,0,0,0,2,1,0,4,32,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.444037276098384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14173961559697962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5910797684770619,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2617030660738927,0.0,0.1689997134940547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25600524179866285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16569010054637007,0.1598052784895677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3037016859304237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3543328291755283,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Twinkleno,2019/01/05,"Anyone have experience with chocolate mono while breastfeeding? I’m doing a chocolate mono today, any tips on avoiding binging? I’ve never tried a mono. 
I have a 10 month old that is still mostly breastfed, should I increase the amount of chocolate or should it not matter since chocolate is high calorie anyway?
TIA!",4.185535714285717,7.485102196428574,3.7550000000000026,82.39,80.60714285714286,4.628571428571429,27.642857142857146,6.18269132825596,1.4824214285714283,257,11,38,2,7,77,43,56,0.062,0.809,0.129,0.6899,0,1,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,1,4,0,7,3,0,0,1,9,8,2,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,0,2,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,3,6,3,9,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,2,6,25,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2398437391705644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2466115623558077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3450020127808056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.372640147637642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2815166628610135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2720190435520319,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.370092598799908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29175178665241736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2816615607851899,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3343122889477958,0.0,0.0,0.2394557997809291,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,kerrie-j,2019/01/05,"Plateau + Binge = weight loss? Man I’m pretty lucky. I binged on spicy Cheetos leech rings and slim Jim’s. My go to for some reason? And then I weighed myself right after like a big dumbo, but I still lost weight after being stuck for a week?? Thanks god, appreciate that. Also I’m moving into my apartment next week, and it’ll be just me and my sister. They’re always out of the house and never eat at home, so I’m gonna have the pantry have foods never over 100 calls. Man I’m so pumped, gonna be skinny by my birthday :):):):):)",-0.1172467532467536,2.1355376909090964,1.5270129870129878,98.10909090909094,90.27272727272728,3.5064935064935066,13.311688311688313,4.65589566412798,-1.3831038961038966,406,6,91,1,14,131,81,110,0.065,0.7829999999999999,0.153,0.8645,0,0,0,0,0,0,26.0,0,0,0,2,5,5,0,0,4,0,6,6,1,1,2,14,16,10,0,0,2,1,2,1,0,3,0,1,1,2,2,7,6,0,1,0,0,2,2,2,0,0,2,3,9,3,12,8,1,19,0,2,0,0,4,8,0,2,10,47,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1555625854454603,0.1618614373245517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19863306795511546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1990489346844276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2352219342158189,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11055376039992122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19512570651081906,0.0,0.0,0.22445719453005586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09503570815856244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21234839953450532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20675063660884135,0.0,0.0,0.30006129856024005,0.0,0.20688089181481625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19790314700194486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2000054007876874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16612436915090456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15534892811197953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1790936512322571,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3120744754996771,0.4737611750672712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,turtlecauliflower,2019/01/05,Hahahaha can’t stop eating Home for Christmas vacation. Mom keeps making desserts. I keep shoving them down my throat. And I wonder why I don’t loose weight?? Anyone have tips to avoid it? I’m only here a few more days so maybe if I night restrict (like 200 a day) it’ll make up for it???,-0.35001883239171505,1.9097257118644075,1.3666666666666671,96.94043314500942,96.96610169491528,3.9781544256120527,16.725047080979284,5.82211442006289,-0.5197585687382298,223,6,49,2,9,72,50,59,0.18600000000000005,0.8140000000000001,0.0,-0.8504,0,1,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,1,0,2,2,0,1,2,0,4,4,1,2,0,10,10,3,0,1,1,1,1,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,3,1,3,5,1,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,1,6,1,5,9,2,6,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,2,5,25,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1676302722806713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3092221482496564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24531166147919134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2404766010798193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4261800159020496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1171237992566478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3200537402965796,0.0,0.2408488837677808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2807780613470435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22497772305024424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1823314307235308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20043156943256646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29193610401467435,0.0,0.0,0.21632611224216092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2599854615226581,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,killingtiimee,2019/01/05,"I feel very out of control. I’m in this math class, four hours a day and five days a week. If I don’t pass it, it sets my entire graduation off a whole year. Aside from it being four hours a day, there’s about three hours of homework a day as well. This doesn’t even take into account my job. 
So, naturally, in times of stress, I look to lose weight! Hahahahahaahahaha.
I’m restricting so hard. I’ve been in this coffee shop for 3 hours going over each section, note taking. My head is buzzing from not eating. I’m hangry and weak feeling. I want more stamina, but all they have is cookies and cakes. God I just want to be perfect in all aspects of life why is that so much to fucking ask.

Thx for hearing my rant :)",1.1885714285714286,3.2995252721088484,2.680979591836735,93.29616326530613,81.99319727891157,5.00843537414966,20.6843537414966,6.079149491110277,-0.07882095238095221,553,16,125,4,15,180,101,147,0.08,0.767,0.152,0.895,1,0,0,0,0,0,23.0,0,0,1,3,8,6,1,1,5,0,9,6,1,1,3,19,23,9,0,3,4,0,4,0,0,0,2,1,1,0,7,6,2,2,2,1,2,2,3,4,1,4,1,6,10,2,21,20,7,23,0,1,1,1,3,9,1,1,11,76,17,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13710963535247686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16449445971824533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3783407061626012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1500723472741435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09686919510018327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14831392892441514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13558711384289332,0.0,0.0,0.0833516760564578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13138078855790647,0.0,0.15051803255961402,0.0,0.16529929158411918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5777320608053171,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1455398964335749,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10359205792834117,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12315955836397548,0.16407781770079194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1078138094282056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16800139312534146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2205438885533291,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08552008058052632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12101191856327455,0.17301067953271934,0.0,0.11764380738041633,0.17859540846682098,0.13186719695211194,0.0,0.13234009033698033,0.16374343865573274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0944458386118395
EDAnonymous,cinnamonbicycle,2019/01/05,"Why can't I ever be bad enough (tw) I was looking through photos of myself before treatment. Objectively, I was pretty bad. Bad enough to be admitted to inpatient against my and my parents wills, bad enough to be kept at the highest level of care for over three weeks. But I just didn't look thin, at all.

At my lowest weight, I looked like some people do at their natural weight. I still had fat all over me. So much fat. My BMI was less than fucking 15 and I was still a cow. And now, weight restored, I'm an entire fucking barn.

Why can't my worst be, well, worse? Why do I have such an unfortunate body composition that 80lbs on me looks like 100? What's it gonna take for me to get that frighteningly thin aesthetic with tiny thighs and protruding bones?

I'm so frustrated. Fuck me. Fuck recovery. I just wanna starve to death.

^(i'm such a cringey edgelord lol)",1.2886215538847097,3.844378730994155,2.3529657477025907,92.69631578947373,86.2514619883041,5.830242272347536,21.00835421888053,7.2636822038024595,0.6653161236424396,677,22,143,11,21,214,108,171,0.175,0.664,0.16,-0.7857,2,0,0,0,0,0,29.0,0,0,1,0,11,14,5,0,5,1,16,12,5,0,3,15,33,7,1,1,3,1,5,2,0,2,2,0,0,0,4,5,5,1,1,0,0,0,3,10,1,1,7,9,20,4,21,20,9,15,0,0,4,4,3,10,4,1,7,92,24,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37262827215215255,0.0,0.0,0.0949386456862054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12393015377071707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11375400115653625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3458477931541858,0.0,0.0,0.10092229570097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4125821158313456,0.05829120713656604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10901584358212366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37476593265006986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0820174726583319,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12388631664121455,0.0,0.0,0.0773492362737459,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11350774848743128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17820138110035533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08388745581534324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0894954719290448,0.4075900139838394,0.10031566714793444,0.0,0.3020262375955389,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1137003116490144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,give-me-brie,2019/01/05,"Falling back into old habits? I haven’t really experienced disordered eating for a few years ever since I recovered from bulimia, but the past couple of months I’ve been waaay more aware of what I’m eating. I’ve not restricted or changed my diet, but it’s on my mind. I accidentally fell down a spiral looking at subs like 1200isplenty (ofc) and am on the edge of starting to count again and reinstall MFP and get up right now and run around. I hate these urges and I’m so worried that they’re getting strong again. Not sure if there’s any advice just kinda needed to get it off my chest and pray the outlet stops me from succumbing to old habits. Thanks for reading ",5.957041984732825,6.360586793893133,6.199303435114505,79.78231393129774,66.55725190839695,9.603435114503815,28.588740458015266,9.516144504307137,2.328090839694657,534,16,104,10,8,171,96,131,0.125,0.752,0.123,0.1738,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,1,9,5,1,0,5,0,3,4,1,0,2,22,13,11,0,2,7,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,8,3,2,0,1,0,3,3,1,0,0,1,2,8,4,18,12,2,24,1,0,1,0,0,9,0,3,13,61,13,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17674353138964136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12299742699306475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16101215536851254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1390774411925323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1913358936683627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20012860414282305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20729205732920536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3701491990493392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16360677078763122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2834904645803107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1785711344920099,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08836367627827027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15188478327862567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18262658250817898,0.0,0.14436826788692889,0.0,0.0,0.13411240398577473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3795841205527031,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17266035402649454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18091839395224985,0.0,0.11586959988675145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15446152043283146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14961707653063885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12802032630283336,0.0,0.0,0.15121495741848298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17046731434252532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16652028724378778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18368170416855664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11647399454562528
EDAnonymous,romeodendron,2019/01/05,"I can’t wait until I move out and can “stock” my own kitchen. By stock, of course, I mean keep it completely devoid of food so I can finally lose more fucking weight. ",1.96843137254902,3.724463294117648,3.0594117647058816,93.31401960784315,77.82352941176471,6.886274509803924,23.098039215686285,7.793537801064563,0.8949333333333342,128,4,29,2,3,41,28,34,0.096,0.904,0.0,-0.4522,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,1,1,2,1,0,0,0,3,4,0,0,0,5,7,3,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,2,3,2,1,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,0,1,5,0,5,7,2,4,0,1,0,1,0,1,1,0,2,18,6,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32423491882613314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3387600861008629,0.0,0.0,0.3739373059742542,0.0,0.0,0.28588974447581444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2748689777286015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3459633002512453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3368557828084732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32867587931250364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3765741023906996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,dimensionwitch,2019/01/05,"the amount of times i have re downloaded MFP and uninstalled in a single month is WACK. its like, do i really need to track and log every single thing onto myfitnesspal, if i want to recover mentally. , ? it gives me order and power when i see everything dropping down QUICKLY again . thats why i need that app. ",3.868813559322035,5.908812830508477,5.212000000000003,78.71223728813561,73.23728813559322,8.787796610169492,25.359322033898305,9.3871,2.3857566101694916,243,8,44,6,5,81,49,59,0.0,0.929,0.071,0.4215,1,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,1,3,1,0,0,2,0,3,0,0,0,0,7,8,5,0,4,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,6,1,6,8,3,10,0,0,1,0,1,3,0,1,6,31,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2731079043018094,0.0,0.2913225040362813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3109514260452774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15836189523587876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32666402726127525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2587311152887973,0.0,0.0,0.4807019210686657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2076569265916932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2583032638582237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2153489237693004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1890127753350958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1911903524827624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2924923315423752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,R3sin6,2019/01/05,"Am I helping my friend incorrectly? My Internet friend just confessed to me she has anorexia.  I sent her this     ""ouch. My sister has an eating disorder. I'm not gonna give you the ""Just eat"" advice, I know you've heard it a thousand times already, and I know its really hard to struggle with every meal. Do you have counselling of any kind? Its offered free in most western countries schools. You need to focus on not letting it get worse. I know its extremely hard. But, letting it get worse is the worst thing you can do. I got to the point a few weeks ago where I cut myself 30 times in to days. I now only cut one or two times a day. Anorexia is even harder to beat then Self harm, and the deeper you dig your hole the harder it is to get out. ""

I then recommended that she tells her parents, (I'm the only person who knows about it) and she said it wasn't a possibility. She also told me she hasn't eaten in 3 days. I didn't say anything Negative about that. A bit later on, she asked me if I can forget she said that, and she just wants to deal with it alone.  Am I doing this wrong? Should I agree to not do anything? I'm just lost, and I want to help her.

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EDAnonymous,min_imalist,2019/01/05,"Schrodinger's Fat Or, when you catch a glimpse of your wonderfully thin reflection in a store window, and then when you do a double-take, you look like three full grown whales smushed together.

*????????*",1.7506428571428572,3.6437250285714313,1.6248214285714295,91.20580357142859,113.0,6.321428571428572,21.517857142857146,7.1686216300943375,1.5819285714285711,156,6,29,4,8,46,30,35,0.0,0.7979999999999999,0.202,0.8105,0,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,4,0,0,2,1,0,0,3,0,1,1,1,0,0,4,3,5,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,2,0,1,2,0,0,0,1,0,2,4,1,2,3,1,8,0,0,1,0,4,3,0,2,4,17,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3355446623677589,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5767542781213981,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7448250010741929,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,smileyslimey,2019/01/05,"What is the biggest lie your ED made you believe? My biggest false belief that I still can't shake despite knowing that it's false: That my life will magically turn perfect at my GW.

I just realized that my life consists of always just... *waiting*. I feel like my life hasn't really begun, that it isn't worth living fully until I've reached my GW. 

Then, I imagine in my head what my life at my GW would be like - absolutely perfect, living in a beautiful big house with a loving husband, being surrounded by friends, having my shit together, finishing grad school and working in a well-paying job.

But I've been at my GW before, and I was still depressed, socially anxious and poor. And I wasn't satisfied with my weight and set a new UGW because what I am addicted to is the *waiting itself*, imagining up all these fantasies about my perfect life that seems just out of reach. But surely losing ten pounds would change EVERYTHING about my life, right?

Ironically, my ED prevents me from all the things I want to do. Won't go out and meet new friends because I isolate myself, pick fights with my boyfriend because I feel so insecure, can't focus on school because I'm too preoccupied with food. I'll never have that perfect life, I won't even have a decent life with this illness.",7.484221388367728,6.919903219512197,7.427398373983742,75.51588180112573,63.55284552845528,10.170856785490932,36.809255784865535,9.466822959209583,3.3948734208880547,1016,44,186,16,13,326,140,246,0.113,0.72,0.16699999999999998,0.9202,1,0,0,1,1,0,35.0,0,2,0,6,10,16,2,2,8,0,21,15,2,2,8,42,33,11,0,3,5,1,3,2,2,5,10,0,0,0,16,13,2,3,8,1,2,2,8,6,0,1,4,3,31,10,24,22,2,27,1,2,0,1,9,15,1,1,11,121,47,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11804966252523455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09010410652903099,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12233436690113905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2640448989185472,0.0,0.09214492379715747,0.1220032442782322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11455411128729323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0932681050126209,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07152305646365888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09732207294861928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10950710906431352,0.0773608106522364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1309420116914532,0.0,0.16732573821807986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0615424400580712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1111345018447433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12494955748224948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10745891115919833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059512131135781264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6118948836713394,0.10580787757136928,0.0,0.19124018481489452,0.0,0.0,0.1211463252864942,0.0,0.0,0.0977339480027723,0.10246451437838253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08351821056827544,0.20917002266679768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06937192382338557,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09247717123027614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.219186026256749,0.0,0.09858112661184752,0.0,0.0,0.11115584857196384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11038575325760124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17295751970502718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1020599497754798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07194158837064082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1177860074732319,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06387093744423641,0.0,0.0,0.13186534140922668,0.09736371778000336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07883479250517887,0.0,0.0,0.15384906194571624,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,gigi-has-issues,2019/01/05,"Question about post binge weight gain? After a period of restriction, when I binge (or eat TDEE), my weight shoots up a lot. Example: last night I ate just under TDEE and today I am up 4lbs. Was I dehydrated before or am I bloated now?",2.8528260869565223,4.762324500000002,4.542826086956524,82.9755434782609,75.73913043478261,8.078260869565218,22.369565217391305,8.841846274778883,1.5810608695652182,181,5,36,4,4,61,35,46,0.049,0.863,0.08800000000000001,0.3939,0,0,0,1,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,1,4,0,0,0,2,0,3,4,0,0,0,7,4,4,0,0,3,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,4,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,6,0,6,2,1,11,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,4,7,24,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2356323815603695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.283350906939159,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2257208760691061,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2354213444303854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2598638869550889,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2652058990199149,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3102056898708844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2624809384049759,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6744103345275284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,itsveronicalodge,2019/01/05,"Sobbing at the airport because I ate breakfast, as one does So yesterday I'm on a long haul flight and I am woken up at 5 am by a lady asking me, ""Do you want breakfast??"" to which I apparently said yeah, ok, thinking it will be like something small I can put in my bag and pretend to eat later. Lady pulls out a full tray of weird UK food and the couple sitting to my right are eating their brekkie as normies do. 

I feel like I can't not eat at least some of this food without the strangers next to me calling me out but also I'm not even hungry and this food looks gross. I debate trying to return the tray to the stewardess who has now continued down the aisle but I feel like she might say something that outs me as the ED lizard I am and alerts even more strangers to my weirdness.

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So I start eating it. There are no macros on the packages, no way for me to track this other than estimation. Trouble is, once I begin to eat (unless it is CAREFULLY tracked) I spiral into a fat monster who can't eat fast enough. Even though I am still not at all hungry and this food is actually disgusting. 

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I then spent my layover sobbing around the airport frantically because I ruined my streak of perfect eating and exercising and 2019 me was already a fucking idiot. Several airport employees (at different points) came up to me asking what was wrong and I lied and said I was nervous I would miss my flight (it was 4 hours away so they were just like..... ummmmm...). 

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I then binged the rest of the day because the day felt ruined to me and today have started fresh. I can't explain to anyone my behaviour because they are right, it doesn't make sense. But I can't turn off how important thin is to me.

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EDAnonymous,WorthwhileTree,2019/01/05,"Spotting instead of period: should I be worried? Sorry if this is a bit tmi but I want to see if any ED ladies have experienced something similar to this... 


My period was due a week and a half ago. I got all my usual lead-up symptoms including bad cramps, a headache, and craving all the food ever. Then there was no blood. A week later (3 days ago) the lead-up symptoms came again but this time with some very light spotting afterwards which is ongoing.


I'm normally like clockwork with heavy periods and obvious lead up symptoms. 
I took a pregnancy test which was negative. The only thing I can think of is that I recently just hit a new underweight LW (only 0.5kgs off the slightly underweight weight I'd been maintaing for ages though). But if it is due to a low BMI then it's not matching the experience I had when I lost my periods about 5 years ago...  Back then I got no ""light period"" phase or cramps with no blood or anything... It just went from all to nothing. No symptoms no spotting... it just stopped when my weight was low enough. 


I won't be visiting the doctor's for another week and a half and am slightly panicking it's something serious! So if y'all have experienced a similar thing when you hit a low weight then it might put my mind at ease before I get to a doctor!",4.38192797540624,5.54385457312253,5.376251646903821,81.55201032059729,70.46245059288538,9.416688625384277,30.656346069389553,9.725611199111238,2.8658794027228813,1009,42,201,24,18,332,136,253,0.172,0.7879999999999999,0.041,-0.9839,0,0,2,0,0,0,36.0,0,2,0,2,14,7,0,0,18,0,19,14,2,1,5,36,32,23,0,7,13,0,3,1,0,3,8,0,0,0,14,9,4,1,1,0,0,6,8,6,0,2,12,8,18,1,17,13,6,45,0,4,1,0,3,6,0,8,34,131,32,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28527807760969537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07295058474749039,0.11248704623709603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08827807098601084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08248774716849981,0.08957002886621765,0.0,0.0,0.0912830063647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11711636531936462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12269386373785572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0691834113390717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2196007336911588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11084360878729113,0.0,0.0,0.0970362542484673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10493539943322297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12971718890288195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05604668776970289,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1715950137159909,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05240907889318069,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1171031840524235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11380167603826373,0.10831702995834754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10360673015710248,0.0,0.0,0.10510658811519252,0.10293312327377796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16317473302854213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10784086578981747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10592098445397516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08548417606235273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16517085943138138,0.0,0.12008542524673367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08968658805250614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4459986255678133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14253730316344165,0.0687373999776499,0.10539700721570673,0.0,0.06255283469297453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11918631879640887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.118148104775341,0.08851299585295158,0.06327349298238223,0.0,0.25814827064352713,0.3918956455693472,0.0,0.09944487178176356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10894282957046976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06908149396050754
EDAnonymous,goneralphio,2019/01/05,"evil ed thoughts how tf are you going to come at me for drinking diet soda because it's ""unhealthy"" when you're literally obese...

 i hate that ive been thinking such mean thoughts about people and their bodies and their general appearance 

-i judge myself so harshly on my looks that i cant help but project it onto others 
-im hangry
-im just a bitch
???????",3.700049019607846,5.886173220588237,4.1005882352941185,85.84931372549022,74.14705882352942,6.298039215686276,27.509803921568626,7.1686216300943375,1.471109803921569,281,11,52,3,6,88,59,68,0.181,0.8190000000000001,0.0,-0.9159,0,0,1,0,0,0,15.0,0,1,2,0,6,3,3,0,1,0,4,5,1,1,0,12,13,6,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,5,3,4,0,4,1,0,3,1,3,0,0,3,1,10,0,6,10,0,7,0,0,1,0,4,3,1,1,1,33,15,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1572637439600691,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2865604112925479,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2222290895569139,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25272464542913003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14661740598830522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2547043189421089,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17292023882318694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5573307629573111,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21664033435584826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28101858421760056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17885258982875898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16530477592094164,0.0,0.4096185929947253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Kraye5,2019/01/05,"I just have to make it a week I just need to vent. I’ve been deep into my binging and purging the past few months. Plus purging without binging. So. Much. Purging. 

Because of this, I haven’t been traveling anywhere. Just easier to stay at home in my comfort zone. Until now. I’m heading to visit some family for a week and I’m freaking out. I will not be able to purge there without probably being heard. I don’t want to, but the struggle is real. I’m hoping I can hold out for the week. And really hoping that a week off will help me slow down on the purging for a while. I’m exhausted. ",-0.2371745419479261,2.0535262950819733,2.2006268081002887,92.06727579556414,93.42622950819671,4.837801350048217,21.110896817743487,6.522977012572876,0.5375288331726136,456,17,95,6,17,155,77,122,0.068,0.8009999999999999,0.131,0.7684,0,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,0,0,6,6,0,1,8,0,11,2,1,1,0,22,21,8,0,4,7,0,0,0,0,2,1,1,1,0,3,7,0,1,0,1,0,2,5,3,0,0,3,1,9,3,22,14,3,22,0,0,0,0,3,9,0,3,10,68,12,0,0.17886775119164974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10903612093598596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16862059700129273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1835699160701008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11989128325338586,0.0,0.17941893843022136,0.3553120720143088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11939561285127682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1427705325032883,0.0,0.13148837791309154,0.13262817108356248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1707495078203456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19284968847014455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2035906599903491,0.11458726158390267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19064922365871986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18699140989795768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10550083395646878,0.0,0.5739076834780416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3448442584763284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,paroi_ny,2019/01/05,"Currrently inpatient bulimic Hey, i'm currently inpatient at a emergency psych ward (i'm norwegian and i don't know what to call it sorry) for teens who are at a danger to themselves, so not only ed sufferers. I'm going to stay here for two weeks, there's two other girls here an i don't think they have any eating problems (thank god, i would have a mental breakdown if i knew i had to ""compete"" with somebody). 
I  feel really bad and like i'm faking my ed because i eat everything they give me, i've been trying my best to purge everything but it's really hard. Earlier today they told me my potassium levels are above healthy(the reason i got admitted in the first place), my mood has plummeted since then (Oh my god! I'm consuming something!!). 

Sorry if that was really confusing, i'm kinda flustered rn. I was just wondering if any of you have experienced no weight gain after being inpatient for 2 weeks? They don't weigh me so i have no idea atm. Btw they give me a normal meal plan, i am underweight but they decided not to put me on a high calorie plan (this also makes me feel invalid, even though i should be happy about it).",3.2416564849624048,5.130216638392857,4.916823308270678,80.8097556390978,74.58035714285714,9.001503759398496,26.07518796992481,9.549672527348893,2.525976785714286,893,32,171,24,19,302,141,224,0.113,0.789,0.098,0.3838,2,0,1,0,0,0,32.0,0,1,6,6,10,11,1,1,7,0,19,5,0,2,0,28,39,12,0,7,8,0,4,1,0,2,0,0,0,1,8,3,5,0,10,0,1,2,7,6,0,3,7,5,30,4,17,28,1,17,0,1,0,0,15,7,0,6,8,106,38,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1058690654608454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18005408889382613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11053681060627367,0.08070129901259046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13893097760816933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1351809447870188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2709279308475541,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08743972846449391,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2379600663892994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13387671549496105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11260749491274888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2539934984781207,0.07523803531039495,0.0,0.1058812069851819,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14092739743154833,0.11859188532611947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13987311592995502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1494477209857836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07275590339878857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06467713029675838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08836870727599724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13341398713984706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12971020743237213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10068554620790136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1383152310823401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12667555768794356,0.0,0.1330845318273816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25442965452371896,0.13611489425867093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10951109733051978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1019172385994846,0.0,0.29639065823899546,0.0,0.14110590025513972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12188327567091713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08482762659645456,0.13006860857967922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12548648299236584,0.12650053103707548,0.0,0.08988142865225365,0.0,0.25864384219355946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21238418595786115,0.16121052730120866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14356700924051874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09404324190120293,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,peanutbutterismylife,2019/01/05,"My weight is at the highest it has been in almost 2 years and I want to die Sorry if this is against the rules because numbers are oncoming.

I started a new job in August, and I have quickly grown to absolutely loathe it. My round trip commute time is around 2.5-3h, and I have to wake up at 3AM to have time to run beforehand which is fucking miserable. I am one of 2 women in our office of ~60 people (tech industry), and being a new grad I have practically no experience and I'm perpetually confused AF. All of my coworkers / managers are workaholics and make themselves available 24/7, so I usually have to end up working at least 50h/week. We have catered lunches, which I never used to eat (literally would hide during lunch to avoid it), but during my last performance review my supervisor shat all over me for not doing group lunch so now I have to. I can't quit until next August or else I'll have to pay back my sign on bonus, so I'm stuck.

When I started the job, I was running 50 miles a week, on my way to recovering from b/p (max 2 times a month), was at my goal weight at a BMI a little less than 13, had a relatively healthy relationship with food, and was actually happy for the first time in maybe 10 years. Now I'm lucky if I get myself to run 30 miles a week, I spend practically every waking moment outside of work b/p, and I'm miserable and hate myself. I knew I had gained weight, but I couldn't face it and hadn't weighed in hopes I could get it back under control.

My mom has been making so many comments about how happy she is that I don't look like I'm about to die anymore, that I couldn't take it anymore and I weighed yesterday. 

90.8 pounds, the first time I've been above 90 in almost 2 years. I spent all day yesterday crying and b/p I'm so upset with myself, I've gained 13 pounds in just a few months, and I can't get myself back under control.  I would kill myself if I didn't have to support my mom and disabled sister. I was determined to not b/p in the new year, and I've already fucked that up as well.  I look practically obese, which I know sounds ridiculous since my BMI is still low, but all I can see in the mirror is a whale. 

I just don't know what to do anymore, I've hit a new low.",5.451594827586206,4.5784624525862085,6.474693103448278,81.69961724137931,67.79310344827587,9.406758620689656,30.413448275862063,8.608573733854374,2.0397190689655167,1734,55,381,23,25,583,224,464,0.154,0.77,0.076,-0.9869,2,1,0,0,0,3,57.0,2,0,0,12,20,20,5,5,18,0,45,16,3,6,5,57,75,31,3,10,11,3,4,1,0,2,1,1,0,1,14,19,11,3,3,0,4,5,12,12,1,3,14,8,50,8,54,54,7,75,0,4,4,2,10,28,2,9,42,234,64,9,0.0,0.0,0.08073708997087263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16569361465774046,0.0,0.09129975059952827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2461516428739249,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07365138490897957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19085353146133335,0.0,0.050434278589978086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1855879043134492,0.0660568909077964,0.0,0.09088013507009804,0.05335700887240846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17173102232796233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08465820816614174,0.0691141890934361,0.0,0.07327834857084622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0697075162835139,0.0,0.0,0.08093036943707511,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14074811283677294,0.10004307485320696,0.0,0.0,0.1529737132369849,0.1296763295730223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17614516023873167,0.0,0.08168334452764044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08217418169558971,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1642027605025026,0.0,0.09153363908184628,0.0,0.0909376068533312,0.06743978736516053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04041997399915606,0.08292186082748174,0.0,0.0,0.13895254814107827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11045205110511416,0.0838799558116835,0.08311808258787255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19379565914374627,0.13207602671297752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06381006739973014,0.31962258658452114,0.08798924562255378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05606314432619858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05735779344190778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08799849102848897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08882605832913201,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06592880941147708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06843896268138093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0926146741873409,0.11712003118178305,0.0,0.06607200342640092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.093886307565399,0.0,0.0,0.062206165113187925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24121621723373995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07145617921572378,0.0911205352950828,0.0,0.04879904389077993,0.06567091922198781,0.19909425251692706,0.3022455677303765,0.0743883920830825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12046363036207175,0.0,0.0,0.11754465218236447,0.0,0.0,0.2131136244846229
EDAnonymous,2queer4ubabe,2019/01/05,"I miss being sick? (TWx10!! Recovery and wanting to un-recover.) I've been in an ED recovery center since mid November and I'm ""graduating"" this Tuesday the 8'th. In my case I recovered quicker than most because a lot of it had to do with being improperly medicated and using anorexia as a coping skill for my depression and lack of control over my life. Since being on my new meds m depression is almost completely gone and I'm going back to work soon and everything. That's why I believe personally my PHP to IOP treatment was faster. I came in close to death and underweight and now I'm almost completely weight restored and eating chocolates with ease. Here's the thing... I miss being as sick as I was. If I ""tried"" to get back to that state it wouldn't work because I'm better than I was. I now realize the major impact anorexia had on my life and I'm to the point where I want to live my life now. I want to be better. I want to be able to eat like non ED folks. I in fact AM eating like non ED folks now. I still miss being sick. I want to have that sense of control over my life again. I miss the high of restricting. I miss being able to focus on my food intake instead of other shitty things in my life. I miss the sense of accomplishment I got from seeing the numbers on the scale go lower and lower. I miss being so brain fogged that nothing else mattered. Anorexia was all I had and now it's almost gone. I don't know what to do. ",1.907040816326532,3.960787629251705,3.756700680272108,86.8305612244898,79.17006802721089,6.648979591836735,22.744897959183675,7.7094869923839395,1.084171428571428,1129,36,231,18,28,380,140,294,0.155,0.774,0.071,-0.9749,2,0,0,0,0,0,33.0,0,0,0,8,14,13,0,0,11,0,24,15,1,3,2,38,51,17,1,8,1,0,1,2,0,1,9,0,0,1,12,16,5,3,2,0,0,5,2,9,0,0,12,2,32,4,41,29,5,36,0,9,1,0,1,17,0,6,15,151,44,4,0.20736421158313406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3114679563033079,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1594502788785345,0.0,0.126407298696052,0.0,0.0,0.11681422822050673,0.0,0.18339679387136965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11574351979450838,0.0,0.1185847077974078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21741743057569204,0.0,0.2325765958272893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1786024915827976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3182780354725803,0.08661309519162481,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0931827912246855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12537281387775984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05416962095498943,0.0,0.11784986015282628,0.0,0.08292405154213374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10954583731140977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05698097382172832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36616868782366335,0.10130767940860903,0.0,0.09155319895818867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08814681863680025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11516744607682144,0.10444881367425056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10013682385759058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09948577682886528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09053121557194503,0.0,0.0,0.09801310299128167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08262121454838964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1715338186642045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08280066361678141,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13776356804592274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07039334396030444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08954804988125181,0.0,0.0,0.3057719615329908,0.0,0.0,0.12625687273220138,0.0,0.0,0.09355697375696134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1509636157283619,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,shiveryourselfskinny,2019/01/05,"Hello? Ugh still awake, fuck insomnia/possible mania. I'm losing my crap, I just want to sleep away all of my thoughts, I'm so sick of all the thoughts about food and working out and the way I look compared to everyone else except I can't stop and my mind can't stop racing and I just want it to be fucking done with, at the same time I've thrown away my chances at recovery and at this point my ED is the only way that I know how to cope and fuck I'm so overwhelmed. I hate myself so much, when did I get like this?

Is anyone out there? I feel so fucking alone and I need help.... ",1.1701381818181815,2.7159401520000017,2.6242181818181827,96.48810909090912,79.47999999999998,5.825454545454545,20.96363636363636,6.574015621080383,0.06403999999999987,449,12,108,4,11,146,75,125,0.199,0.7090000000000001,0.092,-0.9593,0,1,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,0,2,11,10,6,1,4,0,7,8,2,1,2,27,24,13,0,3,3,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,4,10,1,2,4,0,0,0,2,9,0,0,4,2,15,1,16,19,4,15,0,2,1,4,2,8,5,0,6,67,19,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15857563809802286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10705797318606698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28770350463800204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1566845440598039,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1279036403176806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14630303136873787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07741694499631127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18514104889519173,0.0,0.0,0.5661903887629216,0.07999358179549299,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15116428703640442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1026263108707355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08414517417396537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07480174308417155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12857371960651098,0.17129076790259526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15459731057473464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11255336319220352,0.11352902017965835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11644694693744626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14473830595340376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15322043281098496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1222737309395928,0.2560133953612533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24310425054463375,0.08927958988608288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1806163232043418,0.24306295832090735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11146580066477084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,gdktsmgy12,2019/01/05,"Confused and disoriented So, a long while back, I had my very first brush with an ED and I’ve looked back on that period ever since. It had its own characteristic “feeling” for me, one I can’t really explain, and it’s a huge source of nostalgia for me. You know how some memories just have a Flavor, and if you concentrate so hard, you can feel it? It’s like that.


Anyway, I don’t know what caused it, but I’m awash in the Flavor of my middle school ED episode. I have songs stuck in my head from that time; a sudden heat wave outside reminds me of how hot it was during my episode; I feel woozy and strange; it’s like I’m transported through time.


I’ve never felt this before and I don’t want it to go away. I miss that period of my life so intensely and to relive it even for a minute makes me so indescribably happy. I think I’m on day 3 or 4 of unintentionally low restriction and my brain has just quit on my LOL.


Has this ever happened to anyone, or am I just nuts?",2.877356321839077,3.910319921182264,4.5106600985221705,86.82773070607556,73.92610837438423,7.9749096880131365,23.38555008210181,8.447377352677275,1.1502363875205246,756,20,171,13,15,255,117,203,0.1,0.8009999999999999,0.098,0.5096,0,0,0,0,0,0,22.0,0,3,0,2,15,6,0,1,7,1,12,3,2,4,3,35,30,19,0,2,7,0,6,2,0,0,1,1,0,0,17,9,0,1,8,1,0,2,4,3,0,2,5,11,23,3,20,25,2,25,0,2,1,0,4,9,0,5,16,112,40,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12530720326590675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16837289397087032,0.27560154614378285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15249378577022926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20005667745360314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1840971606688144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11557507500841745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11836595224725405,0.32420986899120313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2718405899395681,0.12802705130651296,0.1720688860525792,0.0,0.0,0.15243520993935514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10184868881819176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15847405793659775,0.19077147067635275,0.16053619655421622,0.0,0.1839202879292655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19697732229129206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12658072124228487,0.17510507524744154,0.0,0.0,0.15859445680464593,0.15049054953978494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11962349802846915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1382171430121078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12143675681300722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1906109884376299,0.0,0.0,0.11480596927161775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.181369225533266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14824365931593955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1148299860405102,0.0,0.0,0.2089965909948341,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1478663155938833,0.10570219877772108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,queerasfolx,2019/01/05,"Every time I get close to my goal weight I end up binging. It’s all in the title, but I just need to vent about binging away all my progress towards my GW. Also, I’m on mobile, so please forgive my errors.

I (5’7” 21F) have a GW of 115, which puts me right at underweight and is honestly where I feel my best. But whenever I get back close to that size, it’s like there’s a switch that gets flipped in my head and then all I can do is eat. 3 days ago, I weighed myself for the first time in about a week and I was back down to 116. But then immediately I started binging and now I’m back up to 126. Now I know that it’s pretty much physically impossible that it’s all fat, most of it is water weight, but some of it is fat and you can definitely see the bloat in my face and midsection. It drives me crazy but I can’t seem to stop. Then I usually hit 130 and I feel so unbearably fat that the switch flips again and I hate myself enough to low restrict back to 115 pretty quickly. I just wish there was a way for me to safely exist somewhere in between the two habits, but it’s impossible. I’m also terrified that one day the switch won’t flip back and then I’ll head down the same track every other woman in my family is on: towards obesity. Anyway, thanks for reading I have nowhere else safe to rant about this. I know this is textbook ED behavior, it just drives me crazy.",2.9056582633053196,3.8392912975778586,4.271952545724172,88.94625144175319,73.74048442906575,7.580886472235953,24.488548360520678,7.957251820313856,1.0607309606195416,1071,31,244,15,21,355,145,289,0.111,0.738,0.151,0.9408,0,0,0,0,0,0,28.0,0,1,0,4,23,9,1,0,11,0,15,12,6,0,4,39,33,23,0,2,9,0,4,1,0,1,4,0,0,1,19,11,9,4,6,1,0,3,2,2,0,3,2,5,33,7,36,29,10,49,0,1,1,0,3,21,0,3,25,166,52,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10983387419637178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19817278746495945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11641236800665206,0.4763746090039144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13003014137319147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15981632015666378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12678524889319648,0.10350632095905006,0.0,0.10974262110301597,0.12802648298484007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2087897911656128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11680614699095684,0.0,0.12529968868055172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10539311487810826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19420498114259926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1223300538802036,0.2543235521747965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13618935917028274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060533486058225935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09108407318710482,0.09187362589286532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08396090421832307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13600994669465216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2521108670002987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12455825753206153,0.0,0.0,0.12393804263526645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1058137765138738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09873585434340976,0.11279801448313377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08770025154926472,0.0,0.0,0.1035897203717626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11407462784300675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14449943508861704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12103670450151785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1364633152168318,0.0,0.0,0.0983496345949674,0.09938872597376364,0.30176463185832064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14248407428759075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Morbid_bones,2019/01/05,"Fitbit Username Thread? As the title states! If you guys want to share your usernames, let’s do so here! :)

Mine is morbid-bones",0.3987499999999997,2.2895647083333373,0.5403333333333329,99.73800000000004,110.25,1.92,13.133333333333333,3.1291,-1.5803566666666666,99,2,19,0,5,29,24,24,0.0,0.731,0.269,0.7478,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,2,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,0,0,2,4,3,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,2,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,1,0,12,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.64264081963447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6636761972735247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3828141613264722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,laurdoor,2019/01/05,"FitBit buddies Hey friends,

I recently got a FitBit and love it. Have been tracking my food for 8 years, and being able to track activity, sleep, and water intake as well has really motivated me be more active i.e. focused on productive output rather than only controlling my intake, which to me seems like a step in a slightly healthier direction!

If anyone wants to add me, dm me for my link! ",7.889931506849315,7.7888431643835645,8.500102739726028,66.62631849315069,62.56164383561644,11.683561643835617,34.688356164383556,11.20814326018867,4.144482191780821,313,12,51,8,4,105,59,73,0.0,0.738,0.262,0.9667,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,2,2,4,0,0,3,0,5,4,1,2,0,11,9,5,0,3,2,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,4,2,1,3,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,2,0,8,4,9,5,1,5,0,0,0,1,3,2,0,2,3,34,10,1,0.2903270923854153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2030034534370128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32562652112398943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35106467253357404,0.0,0.2243059913894806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23220109766524585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14183915235162753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26203153600431617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22080683639894155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18599096963217446,0.0,0.2866629784091969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2643028809846672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29053676313939203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17124244120450474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2610389229365967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18696112874858048
EDAnonymous,sagittorius,2019/01/05,"DAE go to bed bath and beyond... Just to weigh yourself on all the scales and then average the numbers?

I don’t own a scale because “recovery” and find myself doing this from time to time.
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EDAnonymous,lightningmcqueef69,2019/01/05,accidentally did a salt water flush by rapidly eating a ton of beer salt to suppress my appetite (fasting currently) and then chugging water bc my mouth was dry. i was about to crawl into bed when my stomach made this godawful noise and i booked it to the bathroom just in time. #rip my digestive system amirite pals,4.6671186440677985,6.905397745762715,5.212000000000003,78.71223728813561,71.54237288135593,7.4318644067796615,32.13898305084746,8.238735603445708,2.664570169491525,253,12,43,4,5,81,48,59,0.043,0.957,0.0,-0.34,1,0,1,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,3,0,3,7,2,1,0,6,4,4,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,1,0,2,3,5,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,2,6,0,8,0,1,8,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,5,28,8,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6773079889522563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6263233958567808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3859700660723324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,tseokii,2019/01/05,"how do you personally log calories in restaurant food? short story is today was a planned binge day. it went pretty well! I went and took one of my friends on a teriyaki date and got chicken yakisoba (oh my god, so good) and because I planned to binge I didn't gaf about the calories today BUT

I ordered so much the leftovers will be perfect for lunch tomorrow. the problem is, I'm going back to calorie counting tomorrow.

so I want to know how you ED people count calories. PLEASE don't comment something like ""oh my god gross restaurant food unsafe omg I never eat out"" lol that's unhelpful af. it's indirect food shaming and u know it.

but I do know some of you are paranoid overestimators of calories and THAT is fine I'm still curious how u guys count and log restaurant calories!!! I'm just looking for a method I feel safe with",1.4035025097601768,4.085951840490799,2.646784718349138,89.28287088678196,88.87730061349693,4.926826547685443,27.654489682097047,6.574015621080383,1.4316527607361964,662,33,125,8,22,212,99,163,0.06,0.787,0.153,0.9199,0,0,2,0,0,0,17.0,0,3,0,3,11,10,0,1,6,1,11,5,0,3,2,25,25,14,0,2,3,0,1,1,1,1,0,0,0,2,5,8,5,1,4,0,0,4,3,3,1,1,6,2,14,7,13,17,2,18,0,0,1,0,7,4,0,2,10,71,19,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12251425433594995,0.0,0.09712554942701553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10275409795481054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16303346080332504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08056158765117101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5779841934776837,0.0,0.12309727871489982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09055040757387603,0.13363770201641226,0.12743004794541093,0.0,0.0,0.15776087315183449,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2626893437203686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07784015737411222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1337963282096776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1171252318814031,0.0,0.12288443551575293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10796553152978232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11045874666428893,0.13912003726720515,0.0,0.17489552220688034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16209498940925746,0.0,0.15245644481504098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12265933654320532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12724043674153065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3020507415722241,0.0,0.1770205088103683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09397643987212437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14325600869201954,0.29539937098753705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,pringlesbutthole,2019/01/05,"I literally can't afford food So why am I here binging on uncooked microwave oatmeal packets lol.

I made a post a lil bit ago like ""I never ever binge lol hehe"" ... BIGLY in denial. I guess what I really meant is that I don't b/p. I'll go through cycles of restricting/purging, and then separate cycles of just binging/""""recovery"""". Big stupid. 

Anyways it's super fucking annoying cos I'm always Bingey Boi when I have a limited supply of food. I'm BROOOOKE right now. Like I'm struggling to make rent, I can't even buy a can of heckin diet Coke without buyer's remorse, let alone spending anymore than like $20 on groceries a week. 

I'm just OVER it. Putting my foot down, time to get out of this funk and be an AdultTM again. Firstable, fuck my job. Getting shit hours, shit pay, they already fucked up my first paycheck. Missing a whole fucking $50. FUCKED up, hopefully that'll get resolved tomorrow. Also sidenote in all the food service jobs I've ever worked, being fulltime means working at leeeeast 38 hours a week. I'm only getting 30 hours max here.. this is not what I signed up for. 

Back to food tho.. I don't have plans to go back into full restricting (yet lol), maybe 1500 calories a day (I'm tall as phuck so that's still relatively low for me). I just need.. some sort of control. Everything is just overwhelming and painful and I'm so so so .. Ugh.

ANYWAYS. I'm falling apart :) At least getting a better job is higher on my list than not eating. ?? Silver linings my guy. This post is a mess.. send tweet.",0.8515588547189807,3.4058356421404703,2.211336976914918,92.19747532425156,90.57190635451504,4.656203605514317,24.015090953585123,6.345904618129536,0.7844703646300677,1183,50,235,13,41,379,186,299,0.161,0.745,0.094,-0.9682,5,1,0,0,0,0,65.0,0,0,1,9,25,23,9,2,12,3,17,16,3,4,4,32,45,14,0,2,7,0,0,3,0,1,1,0,1,1,10,6,7,3,3,0,4,5,8,16,0,1,2,0,19,7,31,39,6,49,0,3,0,5,3,21,7,4,24,127,29,7,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08068034931067235,0.0,0.0,0.09426531033159886,0.10043861458266527,0.07278560386550911,0.0757327504198443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09026359080996857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13997164404291002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08049641220737333,0.09936609230335253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10208238177070876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05869790458603263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09313227128686252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06011532651601735,0.16465868574612447,0.0,0.0,0.08179947113270519,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07741831366253021,0.4402284900391789,0.0,0.0,0.4207149451174972,0.2377609796476772,0.0,0.10345318171807097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10026458022257237,0.09012032477525192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0903996003249968,0.2688978016037333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2709585349448769,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09307020751951947,0.0,0.13339772003594813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0861217073586806,0.06075400490123972,0.0,0.09143798320448653,0.09914329906210924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06748734198542243,0.07019728667351369,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06922190395627019,0.09684762944807224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17433667674621134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09149639672409353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05830729359008949,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07772731785603143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18685359551052805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07268563652443437,0.0,0.0,0.09514986993350616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0530722647427544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14601537436017775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0821279430838561,0.10161631124801417,0.0,0.08773634671037739,0.0,0.13252172171023754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Sams_Jam,2019/01/05,"Tired of always feeling alone Told a guy I’m seeing for months that I was just in the ER for ED related issues, he didn’t respond. I’m so done with everything.",4.524705882352944,4.248803823529413,5.963529411764708,82.58588235294121,69.58823529411765,9.15294117647059,28.764705882352942,8.841846274778883,2.0347529411764707,126,4,27,2,2,43,30,34,0.151,0.802,0.046,-0.5267,0,1,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,0,3,1,0,0,0,3,8,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,4,2,1,0,5,4,0,2,0,0,1,0,4,1,0,0,1,14,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3368833988999162,0.0,0.0,0.2706521230315613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3328658953610639,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2923332429126253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16446715192584418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32207013601772594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3394991611839617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25962877885106583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25919944299663833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3738519858544661,0.0,0.3108110619513629,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,mikey-way,2019/01/05,"Food recommendations for intense practice days? Hey guys!

So I’m currently in color guard, which if you don’t know, is a fairly intense sport, at least in my case. I’ve been doing it for three years and while I’ve been struggling with an ED during that time, usually I’ve kept myself together enough to eat well for practices. 

This week, though— major TW!— I’ve been doing really badly. Purging everything I eat, barely eating in general, you get the gist. We had a two hour practice and I was running on a single bagel that I’d eaten 5 hours beforehand. 

Basically, I nearly passed out. I crouched down to pick up my flag and next thing I knew I was flat on my back with the girl next to me asking if I was okay. I stood back up and I was dizzy, light headed, my vision completely fucky, and my hearing fading in and out. I sat out for a bit and had a granola bar, but a while later I felt the dizziness and weird vision come back and had to sit down again. 

Obviously I can’t keep this up for the rest of the season. I have a three hour practice tomorrow and I really, really want to make the best of it. 

Sorry for the long context, but my question overall is what are some good meals to eat before practice? Something that’s not too difficult to make or too calorie-heavy (I’ll burn a lot off at practice, but the ED still gets antsy if I have too much). I just want to keep my blood sugar up (I’m assuming that’s what happened) and keep myself stable during practice. 

Thanks in advance, you guys!",2.8979734219269098,4.597015501661133,4.198623255813954,86.40509767441864,75.04651162790698,6.9422458471760775,24.00013289036545,7.699297019823105,1.1431710564784052,1170,36,237,16,25,385,167,301,0.031,0.85,0.118,0.9752,1,0,1,0,0,0,39.0,1,3,0,2,11,9,0,1,17,1,19,11,2,3,1,46,42,21,0,5,9,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,3,12,18,9,5,5,2,0,4,3,4,1,3,16,5,30,5,38,26,10,48,0,0,1,0,11,20,0,8,23,159,42,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10259001563773844,0.0,0.0,0.2531447492987017,0.09162646688078824,0.0,0.0,0.0933787726243384,0.0,0.11516303527042387,0.0,0.11980523958701506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09452938509103616,0.11505797991982646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07077179306514929,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.44915660125759005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11338846685720234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09862524539283128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1053654829622821,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13269536544005325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11466692700029753,0.0,0.0,0.09204284774089473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21731532057026234,0.09704076102625532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11262262695364594,0.0,0.12368245940503506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32420884024710706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2926199568625699,0.0,0.0,0.06030901684775562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0971144866437742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09329514070564547,0.0,0.0,0.14650164748036762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08066989870383286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2334147589887897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12293143408138935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2109025055621136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08448150834005573,0.0,0.12284246615203588,0.0,0.0,0.08763673700440719,0.0,0.0,0.1147217597050701,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10103180886376534,0.0,0.0,0.07290490833205346,0.0,0.10781681677705092,0.0,0.0639889850304263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1071978706038536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12086066674595702,0.0,0.12945237782252486,0.0,0.088025031995842,0.0,0.09866744786129664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07066753576580719
EDAnonymous,feduprunner1,2019/01/05,"Fuck all the stupid little ED bullshit that makes me hella anxious and fills my head all day First of all I already had to log 700 cal from what I ate from today towards my intake from tomorrow bc I'm a fat kid.

I bring lunch to eat at work but I'm too anxious to eat with anyone else in the break room bc I'm worried they'll judge my food or something (this like a new thing too that came up over the past 3-6 months). So I'll dart in and out at odd hours and eat my ~healthy~ aka sometimes obviously sometimes only low-key disordered AF meals.

I have therapy tomorrow for the first time since before Xmas and get to tell her about how shitty I did and how much I purged over the past couple weeks. 

I have a new roommate thats gonna be a dietician and can't wait to see how long it takes her to question my eating/grocery shopping habits and call me out on my shit. 

I haven't been able to work out as much recently and I gained like 3-4 lbs since October and its fucking with me so bad. Plus my sis bought me jeans for xmas that are like half a size too small so once I lose that I'll fit into them. I wore a pair today and felt so self conscious even though I had like 3 other layers of jackets and stuff on too.

I'm going out to lunch with coworkers Monday and have to plan for that and figure out what I'll get and how I'm gonna eat the rest of the day. I'll probs need to grocery shop some before then too and thats its own fucking ordeal. 

fUck all this I want to go back to OMAD and purging if its over 1200 cal but I can't/shouldn't/don't *really* want to (or do I?). Its a constant fucking fight and no side ever wins. I just want a fucking guarantee that I'm gonna lose weight or at the least not gain. Why the fuck am I like this?",2.8234748010610105,3.3854239336870044,3.930782493368703,92.70688992042442,73.58885941644563,6.9671087533156495,23.518567639257288,6.8449194561589275,0.4820790450928385,1361,34,323,11,26,443,197,377,0.156,0.755,0.08900000000000001,-0.9845,0,0,1,0,1,0,29.0,0,0,2,10,19,19,10,0,17,0,14,20,3,5,6,57,48,35,0,5,8,1,2,5,0,4,1,0,1,2,21,28,11,1,4,2,3,5,4,13,0,3,9,3,32,6,46,34,10,52,0,2,1,7,11,23,8,6,28,186,53,2,0.08224119674343604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0907552056632897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18581828658824026,0.0,0.0575049569660796,0.08426582487864097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06323840384958634,0.0686679640636862,0.0,0.0,0.13996240215661215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08397745699208105,0.0940620197696902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08887351695924968,0.0,0.0,0.09099831994404993,0.0,0.10607753651012544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09425553651112016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33661310322324073,0.06870196691926883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05431953481384024,0.07439187085180904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0789644460155865,0.0,0.0,0.13990863987406374,0.09944638154945404,0.0,0.0,0.5322146282062231,0.08593526183645445,0.0,0.09347913471683478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08440319444460029,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0809910125647537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20089447282768286,0.08242728467452873,0.0,0.07278087113840541,0.0,0.18401372534497787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054896637439602235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06564413861382637,0.0,0.12091348479960827,0.06098080531083772,0.0,0.1588581205842895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08758419046945834,0.0,0.0625481360536413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1570170561539824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09212896213471933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052685816540042965,0.0,0.08120326013224126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06553558600088166,0.0,0.08579550434194977,0.0,0.08441940661938349,0.13606153560649545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06331329119443885,0.16267729296242764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09414649423730292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06183514490784488,0.0,0.07188243088124273,0.0,0.0940499758674856,0.0,0.05463739676795792,0.0,0.08080155823906282,0.0,0.047955503187282415,0.0,0.15591007660409342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14552396590563688,0.0,0.0659689273150691,0.10014762172610582,0.0,0.0,0.07420988826109037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11974514143429454,0.08351992737564927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,godisamango,2019/01/06,"Old Facebook Photos: Can't move past the past. I went through FB trying to get the privacy under control, and I'm just horrified by the way I used to look. I had always tried to avoid photos at my biggest, but tagged photos *do not lie*. You'd think it'd give me reassurance and a sense of accomplishment in my progress, but instead I just feel like I've paid insufficient penance for being that fuck-ugly for so many years.

It's not enough to have a normal weight now, down from obesity. I want to be unrecognizable, scarily so. I'm too chickenshit to kill myself for real, but at least I can kill that horrible lard-ass in those photos. ",3.1372727272727268,5.1355834920634935,4.516955266955268,83.08006493506495,75.19047619047619,7.756421356421356,24.946608946608947,8.575989854853784,1.7305968253968262,504,17,100,10,11,167,90,126,0.163,0.75,0.087,-0.9194,0,1,0,0,0,1,18.0,0,1,0,3,7,5,2,1,5,0,9,2,0,2,0,17,20,7,2,2,7,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,5,2,2,2,2,0,1,2,3,3,0,0,3,3,11,2,19,13,2,15,0,0,1,0,3,7,0,0,6,63,16,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15848076089366098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21362083705096704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19679954963664376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09630399010829724,0.1360670518559184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17608029353727214,0.09950923677403553,0.18270979590868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.42143894390790015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09305076978179244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15994124053542022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1930999376125984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2024323936980629,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1866136390832283,0.0,0.0,0.1998592413875128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3636376287099543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21678898455238685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12204122102118305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2586242180753847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1644991776053008,0.0,0.0,0.1123402157247146,0.1511809380681804,0.0,0.2319330433103332,0.0,0.17656142915629025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1226521497125162
EDAnonymous,hello_imdaisy,2019/01/06,Red splotchy skin after binging? So I've unfortunately started occasionally binging towards the last third of 2018 and have noticed that sometimes when I do my chest and jaw line will get a sudden rash that is red and splotchy. Does this happen to anyone else? I assume its because of the sugar? I've tried to look it up but haven't been able to find a clear answer. It was so embarrassing when it happened while my family was over and my mom freaked out when she saw my face. I know it can't be good and I wanted to know exactly what causes it so it'll help give me another reason not to binge (I've already been doing a little better but I will take all the scary info I can get 😅).,3.168064935064937,4.6379043000000015,4.545064935064937,85.14538961038964,73.85714285714286,6.8051948051948035,24.870129870129876,7.348242739294969,1.0645714285714285,542,17,111,6,11,180,93,140,0.13,0.7959999999999999,0.07400000000000001,-0.8025,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,1,6,4,0,1,6,0,15,6,5,2,3,21,27,14,0,1,3,1,1,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,11,6,1,0,7,0,0,0,3,2,0,1,5,6,12,2,12,18,1,13,0,0,4,0,4,5,0,1,8,72,23,0,0.19350552182514186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21353815515366512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2029074116909209,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13530356008762345,0.1982692745344671,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11795917005128773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17113990899490295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1987834744636022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16933798615988174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16164903339867567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1824197844263239,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17686054130007242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20219729701550734,0.1856281289488775,0.0,0.16230325089962971,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3422325877763465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1297026723580531,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21269114837702488,0.15773282712544714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19394336859339575,0.0,0.0,0.16249590272210446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22663132844613654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2203073191438871,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19895590473539546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19138190900844645,0.0,0.13696420431529036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14549207035318085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13137754728321993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1141345703276622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,anexiareverie,2019/01/06,"book recommendations not that anything will ever top Wasted, but gimme all your ed book recommendations. i feel like I've read everything already.",8.31625,11.377838125000006,7.773333333333331,60.70500000000001,63.58333333333334,9.8,32.83333333333333,10.125756701596842,3.935983333333336,121,5,17,3,2,38,21,24,0.08199999999999999,0.738,0.181,0.3716,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,1,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,5,2,1,0,0,2,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,1,1,2,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,8,3,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4694296667615352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35006063700567525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3847906121583244,0.0,0.0,0.3823140993595796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2150905262647729,0.3038994932408736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20782460850480988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.42550622583921865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ibehapa,2019/01/06,"I've watched this video SOOOOO many times (calorie counting) I'm obsessed with this video [Counting Calories with a Ballerina](https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5356zt0JiDY) I found on YouTube. I love her physique and personality, but what I love the most is how she has such a healthy relationship with food. She counts calories to lose weight, but maintains only a small deficit and loses weight very slow. She also is very aware that she needs to eat a lot to be able to dance on top of functioning like a normal human being. She doesn't get anxious about her calories in food, nor does she stress about losing the weight as quickly as possible. She seems so happy. This is the mental state I hope to be in one day. :') ",6.087209302325583,8.205407062015503,4.442550387596898,86.18801162790699,67.52713178294573,6.710387596899222,29.17906976744186,7.1686216300943375,1.4816474418604648,577,21,105,5,10,164,84,129,0.096,0.6609999999999999,0.243,0.9767,0,0,0,0,0,0,26.0,0,0,0,4,7,10,0,2,8,0,8,8,0,1,0,15,16,10,0,3,2,0,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,5,5,6,0,2,3,0,1,2,5,0,1,1,4,13,5,17,12,2,12,0,3,1,2,14,6,0,4,5,64,18,0,0.13315713022870754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10648570893555136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15042965548820542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08587533318298059,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11652670199320772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13625298693797244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3220282608499684,0.14599992035145373,0.0,0.0,0.069569104686625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1417482411752347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13225507541140807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06505384780329908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4469063053533415,0.0,0.11320543037640868,0.2403590176657436,0.0,0.0,0.13500043021389976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13419106837926462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09873432483671596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13046571568842175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0902307175765888,0.10127199782902452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11626767000576453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15011465710640592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1429609252007676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1212212503281554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1525310427860032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07764499345763502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2197371555629909,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4864485356364695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,fatpigeon_,2019/01/06,"Terrified of just being settled for by a romantic partner I hate reading posts of women asking for support about body insecurities, especially related to being naked with someone/sexually intimate/etc. All the reassurance boils down to is , “it doesn’t really matter if you are chubby/have small boobs/no ass/scars/flaws/etc., whoever you are with is just going to be too excited to fuck!!”. 

Makes me scared that there is a fair possibility I’m never going to be a first choice, just an option to settle for. This isn’t even about looking perfect, I’m bisexual and don’t have strict standards of attractiveness for men or women, I genuinely find a variety of bodies beautiful and think a lot of other people do to. 

It’s just the fear of not knowing. If I’m in a relationship and ask my partner how they really feel, why would they tell truth? They would never benefit from saying they find me perfectly adequate but nothing special to them. Of course they will lie and say I’m so beautiful, just to keep me around for convenience.

This fuels my desire for weight loss. I didn’t start overweight, just so very average. Average face, weight, breast size (this is most unattractive on me I feel, everyone who takes off my shirt must be disappointed with my B cups...). Maybe I can be petite and dainty. Maybe tiny is a quality that will set someone’s heart off and think “Wow!! Look at her. That’s the kind of lady I want to love.”. ",4.1343429951690815,6.265286144444445,5.420853462157808,77.10644927536234,72.74074074074073,8.99194847020934,27.294685990338174,9.54385415503706,2.7130048309178743,1129,42,204,29,23,376,164,270,0.107,0.753,0.14,0.7226,0,0,0,0,0,0,44.0,0,2,6,4,15,19,2,3,11,0,25,12,6,2,7,47,49,13,0,7,11,0,4,0,2,5,1,2,0,5,10,10,4,1,7,1,0,2,7,7,0,1,1,8,23,12,38,37,3,16,0,2,2,3,23,8,1,6,4,136,33,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10956779041190344,0.2301274124680561,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2734295048240236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2745347120835218,0.0812935471637726,0.0,0.0,0.11760874680987375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13849984516855166,0.12446645565282033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2249867987931058,0.1046922589930165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11378599174471925,0.0,0.0,0.139899033984279,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12151656868921468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14585105277256435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10939965435994138,0.0,0.1281694600726069,0.06764185534718352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20671333866615976,0.0,0.0,0.10463868824353507,0.11108500816798876,0.0,0.08215722760003742,0.0,0.2473019255152381,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18985462662143796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11809911403785435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08532856100532044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13875483493604376,0.11787715109280285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12311386444613008,0.0,0.15769711307132073,0.0,0.0,0.13214245671211086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1957571981945493,0.12322510923328656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10428575661881584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08711705180710493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13967035762580698,0.0,0.0,0.09254126137442192,0.0,0.10757783190002627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15773010242843924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10155434964570646,0.07259610148449998,0.0,0.0,0.2997579209038617,0.0,0.0,0.11106105882619108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17486579281942569,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,IDontLikeLollipops,2019/01/06,"Guess who had sex!! Hey demons, it's ya gurl. She got laid last night after a 4 month dry streak and she's hella happy about that. 

Unfortunately, there was some weird shit too. My mental health came up and I made it clear I didn't want to discuss it. Then he went through my phone (just like, looking at the apps I had), and was like ""you have a lot of diet apps"". Then later we were talking about our tolerances depending on whether or not we had eaten and I was like oh yeah, I haven't eaten today so I'm low, and I told him what I had eaten, and he was like whoa, you really haven't eaten (like wtf does he think that means??). Then later, after the sex, he told me he thought my self harm scars were sexy. 

So yeah, I'm a bit... confused",-0.2735042444821758,1.8915698193548425,1.447062818336164,99.2179626485569,89.51612903225808,4.295415959252972,14.60950764006791,5.750287758089431,-1.0018387096774195,562,10,134,4,19,182,97,155,0.103,0.718,0.179,0.912,0,0,0,0,0,0,31.0,3,3,0,0,7,11,1,1,5,2,14,9,1,2,1,24,32,13,0,1,4,0,0,5,0,0,1,0,0,1,7,9,5,0,3,0,0,2,4,5,0,0,22,1,20,6,10,10,3,17,1,1,1,2,22,4,1,6,16,75,27,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1991445563084947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2086285293197207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15962828443245713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14588999913904802,0.0,0.20094526089366985,0.0,0.0,0.19417891498756928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1938933780964247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14868855573222586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4455817397619347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1531785204670057,0.0,0.0,0.15507852132018138,0.0,0.17260082189924086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19869804522863385,0.0,0.0,0.1838264506343718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14559798025808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17117949704609967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11685656386787133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1902934886677019,0.0,0.1872413189953712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14661430739170436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11688100960972415,0.0,0.1448132228406866,0.0,0.0,0.17290342089017285,0.3486012842046816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.107590187346616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16909596548809538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,lorabore,2019/01/06,"How much validity should I be giving MFP?? I fast until about noon every day and stop eating at 7. 

So today I had a smoothie for my ""breakfast"": 1 cup blueberries, 1/4 cup pineapple, 8 oz Orange juice and 3 cups of raw spinach. 

Then I had 1/2 a chicken breast and half of a sliced bell pepper and 1 cup green beans for my midday meal. MFP tells me it's only 140 kcals? No way...it's got to be at least 250. 

So just now I go to add my 3 oz of baby carrots and 2 tablespoons of hummus and suddenly MFP is squacking at me that I've exceeded my sugar limit for the day. My randomly generated and seemingly arbitrary sugar limit of 60 g of sugar. 

I *know* that yes fruit counts as ""sugar"" but it's not really the same, right? Like maybe I should have just eaten 3 donuts and then not eaten the entire rest of the day and called it good. ",2.1728488852188264,3.5568995838150315,4.303274153592074,86.21966763005783,76.28323699421965,7.254995871180843,21.60569777043765,7.957251820313856,0.9196113955408758,640,16,137,10,14,221,109,173,0.02,0.907,0.073,0.8559,0,0,0,0,0,0,26.0,0,0,0,2,7,2,0,0,7,1,8,11,1,1,0,25,15,17,0,2,5,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,5,10,10,3,2,0,0,1,3,0,0,1,5,6,14,2,18,6,4,17,0,0,1,1,3,4,0,2,13,78,19,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2494377719473853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4726222722470904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24996000558881554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20581691412148487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23433617973791504,0.13883027613908053,0.2048909504730185,0.1953734855389166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13425021158422729,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11934314634797075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2454126639134976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17957432462888467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1857863795298474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1564923869058844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20861427019055126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22238385440535596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20422949285592407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21351198337513247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23154941531474615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19389854440972912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,roseofdeathh,2019/01/06,"Please help me find this book So a long time ago I read this book and one of the main characters had anorexia and was in the hospital. She talked a lot about feeling like she was floating above the bed. This is all I remember, I'm hoping someone knows what it's called. I've looked everywhere and I can't find it.",1.1833186813186811,3.4467665846153857,2.191428571428574,95.89,83.15384615384616,6.175824175824177,21.59340659340659,7.447530270364453,0.6474175824175821,248,8,56,4,7,78,49,65,0.0,0.812,0.188,0.8689,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,5,0,5,0,0,0,1,11,10,4,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,6,3,0,0,5,3,0,0,1,0,0,1,3,2,6,2,3,7,3,4,0,0,1,0,5,1,0,2,4,33,12,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2231818787843942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2570887347044061,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12730416793286986,0.17986692763318796,0.0,0.0,0.4602325512687215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16875836567874794,0.0,0.0,0.25006774033912504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13836804570748007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12300373857057373,0.0,0.0,0.2228114870568361,0.2114261986612994,0.0,0.0,0.21404869401257606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17060813419345738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27637152616875016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25184147796466283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28521011906312266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21332673777808026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20236587732197234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14681106189836327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,psybeams,2019/01/06,"you ever have a panic attack at the mall ahaaa left my house for the first time in mad long to go walk around the mall because it’s too cold for an actual walk outside and i feel like a disgusting blob. proceed to compare myself to every girl thats smaller, skinnier, and prettier than me, which causes me to start tearing up and freaking the fuck out (on the inside ofc can’t let people see me like that) 

only got 1000 steps in and i wanna fucking die i legitimately hate myself more than anything in the world lol. also i don’t recommend driving while bawling your eyes out and shaking uncontrollably that shits scary.",5.577249999999999,6.579093558333334,5.993333333333332,78.81000000000002,67.58333333333334,8.0,30.0,8.07648339933343,2.12075,497,18,89,6,8,160,90,120,0.263,0.644,0.093,-0.9765,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,2,0,1,4,13,7,3,9,1,4,4,2,1,1,12,12,7,1,1,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,5,8,0,0,1,2,0,6,2,11,0,1,1,4,12,2,18,10,1,24,0,0,2,2,3,11,3,0,9,59,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.1932701049732165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15838204918625004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16297985536839418,0.17630819859765384,0.0,0.2253126511536593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1207306124217516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2034538781586852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20554662500504495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17914930068433502,0.16686728484265825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10014100174643786,0.14148833150333004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16846286231370855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3661916180793857,0.0,0.0,0.11255747046917057,0.0,0.15840021312768365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1955352685750243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2285253251767965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2151839910020218,0.20252150703274135,0.0,0.1935163286328473,0.0,0.0,0.17526971721971368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15062741002226038,0.0,0.2323712559142501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13730426453998898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15782173868679553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20329745020361056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14018216862371358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11548566747408433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,cleanandlovely,2019/01/06,"I think I'm losing control For the past eight months, I have kept spreadsheets charting my daily weight and calorie intake. Paradoxically, my calorie intake has been trending up the entire time I've been losing weight -- not just gross intake, but net calories as well. Weird, but okay. It's helped me realize that my TDEE is a lot higher than I would have previously assumed, and that I don't actually need to starve myself to lose weight. I'm 5'3"" and you can see my data [here](https://imgur.com/D2c43Eu).

But now I've stopped losing weight. In fact, I've started gaining. Exercise has become a burden that I dread, as the time and exhaustion can easily eat up entire weekends. I'm in better shape athletically, and I weigh less than before, which means I have to work out harder and longer to burn the same amount of calories. 

Then on my rest days (like today), I'm so fucking hungry that I end up eating healthy foods until I feel uncomfortable. Not bingeing, just... so full. And yet simultaneously starving. 

I can't really articulate how anxious I feel right now, how bad it feels to be this full, how tired yet antsy I am in my own skin. I really should go for a run, but it's cold and rainy outside (as it will be for the next four-five months here!) and I don't really want to, but I'm just also having a mini-meltdown and feeling really emotional. What should I do? ",4.540171102661599,6.161679015209128,5.286788973384031,80.58052566539925,70.63498098859316,7.845551330798478,26.077756653992395,8.395991825355821,1.7271780988593155,1083,34,203,17,20,351,153,263,0.185,0.725,0.09,-0.9795,0,0,0,0,0,0,52.0,0,1,0,8,15,15,1,1,9,1,22,13,1,4,1,43,40,26,0,5,10,0,9,1,0,4,3,0,0,0,11,11,8,3,8,2,0,2,5,11,1,1,3,11,24,4,24,31,8,32,0,4,1,1,2,12,1,2,19,131,35,1,0.0,0.0,0.10418390217092566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08537719747364814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12061019765837812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08914146040827545,0.0,0.11790977799616845,0.09084624177090403,0.0,0.0,0.0944219421968111,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11974219082007448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06885238735383829,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21848750012489065,0.0,0.12009240851498125,0.09455907193962887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21592745201220231,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12909652709981684,0.0,0.0,0.0986993609774329,0.0,0.0,0.060675066604801674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07156003707194193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05215831556969255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.47775560076909795,0.0,0.09076487803810032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11629465955733813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17043215021935587,0.0,0.0,0.07916235928065735,0.0,0.0,0.11354215220465436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10191600905476753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27357680940277396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09117380653945603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08507515730934749,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07556639628267968,0.0,0.0,0.0892574618902586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06840851003662535,0.0,0.0,0.1245070724614282,0.1227067316938376,0.1011974951519257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06297074636435245,0.0,0.0,0.520027373976078,0.09599148255445307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07772370223725185,0.0,0.0,0.07584036375413708,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,KimHyorin,2019/01/06,"Rip good grades. Got my first university exam tomorrow morning. Am I revising? That would be a no. I’ve tried, but for the life of me I CANNOT focus. My brain is foggy and I’m so COLD and so fucking HUNGRY. I’m so done with this. When I was in sixth form last year (high school) I got the second best A-levels in the school, wtf happened? ",-1.0211779769526252,1.0642851408450724,1.5526248399487876,95.42729833546736,99.0,4.271959026888603,14.905249679897564,6.11248444174946,-0.5534056338028166,259,6,58,3,11,88,54,71,0.093,0.7959999999999999,0.111,0.3204,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,2,4,3,1,0,4,0,7,3,1,0,0,5,13,7,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,2,4,1,7,2,5,7,2,8,0,0,0,1,0,3,1,0,5,37,9,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2562348593403996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.272567566519518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2498643538387979,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20768561566607965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.225725511866678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2047930231154212,0.3905602140820825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21591325457391566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25797247527399514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1990260967202606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17246012278343795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4942136306007274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16577120253899472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17344696823793862,0.0,0.0,0.1572334911490008
EDAnonymous,crueltrashcan,2019/01/06,"Would love more Netflix/Hulu/Prime doc suggestions i feel like i’m indulging my ED whenever i just workout and drink water and watch shows like my 600-lb life, or supersize vs. superskinny. i’m being a shut in before my classes start up again and i’ve watched most of the common suggestions, i’ve seen the big ward on netflix. what do y’all watch? i hate running out of ideas 😩",2.285899999999998,4.797817506666668,3.327583333333333,87.90337500000004,80.6,6.416666666666668,25.375,7.6454224807358475,1.4853000000000005,303,12,59,5,8,97,57,75,0.051,0.821,0.128,0.6705,0,0,1,0,0,0,9.0,0,1,0,0,2,4,1,0,3,0,3,4,0,0,0,11,10,4,0,1,3,0,1,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,4,2,0,2,4,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,5,7,3,6,7,2,10,0,0,4,1,4,6,0,2,5,28,8,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3013627477657383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3469404420506328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17907314872901306,0.2530108605750689,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3496581382315597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3998017708808603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25015258015314584,0.3460478494763519,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31964181971593136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.250675166947816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2515839947472646,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,PMMECUTEASIANDUDES,2019/01/06,"I want a diet center were they just lock you up in a room for days with only water, WiFi and occasional electrolytes and vitamin supplements I'd be all over that shit. Just lock me the fuck up and don't let me out for a month. I'd pay double what other shit diet center goers pay.

I feel like there HAS to exist something like this, specially in Hollywood/LA but idk",4.282,4.962134533333334,5.678666666666667,81.06600000000002,70.33333333333334,8.666666666666668,24.333333333333336,8.841846274778883,1.6047333333333331,290,7,58,5,5,98,56,75,0.14800000000000002,0.7659999999999999,0.085,-0.5574,0,0,1,0,0,0,6.0,0,1,1,0,3,6,3,0,4,0,5,7,2,0,1,11,8,4,0,1,3,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,1,0,4,5,3,0,1,0,2,0,1,3,0,0,1,1,6,3,10,5,2,11,0,0,0,1,2,9,3,0,4,38,10,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19990564624704074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1567306468806483,0.2214433382515004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28656318682120124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31696633996987555,0.0,0.3028723383993225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24741588810699205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23574690685162114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6363615367115433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2386308130570745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18282892184888944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,_cymru,2019/01/06,I just got dumped It was out of the blue and completely devastated. No legitimate reasons were given. The only thing I am trying to think about is getting a revenge body. ,3.9208333333333294,6.4147552500000025,5.532500000000002,74.39583333333336,74.625,8.016666666666666,29.416666666666664,8.841846274778883,2.804091666666668,136,6,23,3,3,46,30,32,0.34,0.66,0.0,-0.9165,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,2,1,1,0,3,0,4,1,1,1,0,5,8,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,4,1,2,0,4,4,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,18,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4463062408098757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4212768426854455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2099225147216572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3213540195361041,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3055849654946362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4131145614431583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2669362839483236,0.2574554970675146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2727940037847468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,sabriat7,2019/01/06,I’ve had an epiphany Okay so this might be tmi for some of you but I normally weigh myself every morning after using the toilet but today I weighed myself before (245.2) and after (242.1) how the hell is it possible I pissed out three whole pounds???? Clearly I knew after a bowel movement you might weigh less but not after peeing ,3.4076190476190478,5.834073492063496,4.051031746031747,84.72035714285717,75.98412698412699,5.469841269841268,21.61111111111111,6.42735559955562,0.6002825396825395,262,7,45,2,6,83,49,63,0.201,0.7290000000000001,0.07,-0.9064,1,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,2,0,0,2,3,2,0,4,1,5,6,3,2,1,14,7,6,0,1,4,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,2,3,0,1,0,0,1,1,2,0,1,2,0,8,1,7,2,3,7,1,0,0,0,2,1,2,3,5,37,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2558981426468941,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2533770670730903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.638051674414546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2946504694550798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.339026647384698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28505583219612995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2597332121301127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3357530752035506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,aleksndrars,2019/01/06,"I feel like I can't ever be skinny because I used to be fat I ran into someone last night who I hadn't seen since June or July and the first thing they mentioned was my weight loss, and it's true (175 to 138). however, I felt so triggered the rest of the night by other people's bodies who haven't had a decade of massive weight fluctuations. For people that met me a year ago their first impression was that I'm a fat POS and it feel like I need to be even thinner for even longer to balance out, BUT without letting anyone realize I'm disordered. I don't really know what I'm trying to say here but I hate my body and I feel so big rn ",3.4052716950527184,3.7577349124087616,4.902871046228711,87.02386050283863,72.13868613138686,7.840713706407138,25.441200324411998,7.793537801064563,1.169717599351176,501,14,112,6,9,169,87,137,0.055,0.889,0.056,-0.431,1,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,2,3,6,6,1,0,6,0,11,7,5,2,2,21,25,9,0,1,4,0,6,2,0,0,2,1,0,0,9,6,5,0,6,0,0,1,5,2,0,2,8,8,15,4,13,13,1,13,0,1,1,0,7,3,0,1,11,70,24,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14029547653312002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11066501564492448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09647900905736878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3516012504903473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18138941359049554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20906970414896625,0.14316291996404398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24007592823494736,0.2261340971076261,0.15196258052783704,0.0,0.0,0.2692462117597324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15625737805406806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08698022892907399,0.12900995192034476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16184026502795695,0.0,0.15464399002380502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11735408788749545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2970485330886807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2194469011039704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10139085427207073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12586146422272093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13092133931555738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1341003870782203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10514655930775886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10745392298675556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1366931689021662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3854567922434549,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15256518689092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10191972544139027
EDAnonymous,pushthemushroom,2019/01/06,Vape and Restricting DAE find that vaping hits you a lot harder/makes you a bit noxious when you’re hard restricting? Sorry for the dumb question but I’m curious and can’t really talk to anyone else about this haha. ,3.4450000000000003,5.880738976190479,4.800238095238097,79.3489285714286,75.90476190476191,8.961904761904762,22.404761904761905,9.516144504307137,2.3146476190476197,175,5,31,5,4,58,37,42,0.181,0.647,0.172,0.5574,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,2,0,0,2,2,1,0,3,1,1,0,0,0,0,8,3,4,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,2,2,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,2,1,3,2,2,1,0,0,0,0,4,0,1,2,1,16,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2286270523244057,0.3350223732025807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.356969718666299,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2731438994886375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29884730456277986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2929034920017874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2779806646639903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3662844762929252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20946721066080712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3660193889159364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2628084293752724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,tpdorgap,2019/01/06,"Found out I've been having sugar in my tea instead of sweetener all Christmas 🙃🙃 Been home from uni over Christmas and my mum is one of those 'cuppa?' people for any situation so I've been drinking a LOT of tea over the holidays. I thought this was great as it gave me an excuse not to eat, and with sweetener and a dash of soy milk is very low cal. NOPE TURNS OUT every time she made me a cup of tea there was a fuckton of regular sugar in that bc this ed gremlin has a sweet tooth
Of course she didn't do this on purpose, I've managed to hide my ed from my family but I'm quietly freaking out upstairs over how much sugar I've eaten these last couple weeks on top of general Christmas binging..
Going back to uni tomorrow and I'm just gonna fast for like a week where no-one can judge me",2.008214285714285,3.503037678571431,3.84,88.905,76.97619047619048,6.942857142857143,24.5,7.7094869923839395,1.142114285714285,622,21,136,9,14,210,110,168,0.042,0.878,0.08,0.6374,0,0,1,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,1,7,5,0,0,8,0,12,11,1,2,1,18,22,8,0,0,3,1,0,1,0,1,0,1,1,0,7,8,10,0,2,2,0,1,3,2,0,1,11,5,10,3,27,10,3,21,0,1,0,0,5,13,0,1,8,82,17,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15092142517246984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17065207091934415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2455636259506059,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2174089485468587,0.0,0.227091923842132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1869873497442033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20921781412527293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24333707127098264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1261291158227151,0.0,0.0,0.24468090233297726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22261597206158668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18090426655620756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10842480435096638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18867871854624704,0.0,0.20999750074183696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16314561506174674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15038692145113675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15385976082200947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2494609571661293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1761892819297672,0.12941038091907006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2413983742742107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18311720908956686,0.0,0.0,0.3560410566155639,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,fluxoldrums,2019/01/06,i finally got my vyvanse refill! i'm so ready to get back on a track after a month of non stop binging every single day. i've gained about 10 pounds and i'm hoping to lose 15 soon! ,0.17275000000000065,1.966942775000004,2.765000000000004,93.05,83.75,5.0,17.5,5.985473137389443,-0.36250000000000027,141,3,32,1,4,49,34,40,0.114,0.672,0.214,0.6514,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,2,4,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,5,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,2,1,6,4,1,8,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,7,15,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28259343848336826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2370143296116532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3096440484574089,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4025905711746223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19200944086993346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2939322906561355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3650215594457336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41115104278293374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2933439447852444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30725583100028825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,onlysaysNOO,2019/01/06,"Double ED bullshit Hey y'all

I've got 2 big yikes that I don't know what to do about and need some help. 

Yike 1: 
I live with my best friend, recovering Ana boi who I love more than anything. He's my angle. 
I'm really really worried that my bad/ED habits are going to trigger him back into a relapse. We've lived together for just under two months and he's... idk I worry about him a lot. Maybe it's warranted, maybe he's doing okay and still working on it... I just want to make sure I'm not fucking up his progress and encouraging him as much as I can. 


Yike2: I'm now dating his other best friend. He's known about my ed sitch since we met, but my habits are so irregular and fucked up, and I constantly think I'm completely obese and he doesn't really know how to react super well but he tries super hard. 

One thing that really fucks me up is that he like... doesn't have any dysmorphia. Like he's not super tall and he works out, so he's small, and he knows he's small. 

(Jesus I'm the fucking worst human let alone gf) 
But like since I'm ""small"" and see myself as a literal My 600 lb Life candidate, I like don't see him as small as I know that he is? 

I don't know how to handle a new relationship with someone who already very much knows about my ed, but that my ED also fucks with. ",1.9301454545454533,3.192108687272725,3.7453636363636384,90.47404545454548,76.67272727272727,7.181818181818183,20.5,7.84624498591911,0.5493636363636369,999,22,232,15,22,337,143,275,0.114,0.713,0.173,0.9258,0,1,0,0,0,0,36.0,1,1,0,8,15,22,5,0,5,1,14,8,0,5,1,42,41,24,0,2,8,0,1,4,3,0,2,0,0,1,13,16,1,0,8,0,0,1,7,6,1,2,2,3,28,16,26,38,9,21,1,0,2,6,33,13,5,2,11,124,41,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1069921838024144,0.11399895332107282,0.08261247620735636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0702505215760108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08501070350508344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07943469243290158,0.08625484315458623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21682314908814346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10831267808874816,0.11163533636743488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15962541709199246,0.4775161783066339,0.0,0.0,0.05871026040432008,0.0,0.08262195056500753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.092540434377528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06924274905870524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34064031711133297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10563572871535233,0.07296693941310511,0.20187720991179034,0.0,0.1824393221922674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0878256905738858,0.09323623717504048,0.0,0.06895647652631,0.0,0.20756627164589248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08245657137733346,0.0,0.1518812128606568,0.07659888958770314,0.0,0.09977201495388764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07000172214170214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2647177270564185,0.0,0.0,0.11091024466840037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16464043367609627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17090890305449968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08752946683306262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08249901215474909,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09736315658781568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06863084049243501,0.06619327613237394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07013689365911789,0.0,0.10091336957771252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0852369332809089,0.06093160047084234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09288304492644256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15041363951550316,0.2098212269519948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,justadumbkid1,2019/01/06,"First binge of 2019 2000+ calories and counting, and I hate myself. Tomorrow I’m only drinking a protein shake and using the stationary bike for two hours.

This is going to be another awful year WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO




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EDAnonymous,smolbeanbaby,2019/01/06,"i love my boyfriend to pieces but i’m gaining weight (not asking how to lose weight just ranting)

i freak out about weight gain or go into denial. but he wants to eat out whenever and doesn’t seem to understand CICO and the fact that i have to eat way less than he does(5’9, muscular ish guy) to maintain an ideal weight that i feel good at. like i tried explaining that i could eat 1200 cals of fries or fruit and veggies for a month and lose weight, i’d just feel worse and more bloated if i only ate fries, and he tries to tell me that’s not how it works(like fyi i survived on oreos and milk for a week and still lost weight, it’s just math).

i’m trying not to get all self hate-y but i’ve gained roughly 15 pounds and he likes to tell me i’m beautiful just the way i am but if i want to lose weight to do it healthily and i’m like i! can’t! he wants to go to jack in the box or denny’s or this one really good mexican restaurant and i have NO self control. and then my mom is constantly talking about dieting and how she’s losing weight and i feel like a big ol blob now!

he’s precious and i love him but i am going CRAZY. ",1.121643070044712,2.7616081762295117,2.614962742175859,96.06871087928468,79.94262295081967,6.075707898658719,20.517138599105813,6.980632752743323,0.16726885245901668,881,23,211,10,22,287,131,244,0.116,0.655,0.229,0.9874,0,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,0,0,11,11,16,0,0,7,0,9,18,1,4,2,53,31,30,0,7,18,1,12,4,0,0,0,0,0,3,8,18,15,1,6,0,0,3,6,6,0,1,2,13,21,10,25,28,4,18,0,5,0,2,19,7,0,7,10,115,29,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07110470891189527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08219254021442714,0.08530640932576901,0.06072676121231234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2334814152459943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11537284068299684,0.05433642046165305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03973758272427064,0.0,0.1296779029732711,0.12758902229138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07531016793002385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07509231648635784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14863394722471993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3403613593317919,0.08302716268764328,0.0,0.13729206938972144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08907914492397008,0.06070940689038198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05153940991653064,0.05784614319115581,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.048725213571586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06924107309635527,0.15869182816465194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06074065430198097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06113318074617016,0.13295748369283847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15491679355768054,0.0,0.0,0.07917989103650577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13458434896130347,0.12074386715394204,0.0610097799295217,0.7409530044705172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07751041300865108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,poopnugget998,2019/01/06,"Does anyone else HATE when people hug you? Let me start by saying that I am very affectionate and love to hug others, but when someone else hugs/touches my body, or they touch me in a way that they can feel my fat or make me ""jiggle"" I am 100% triggered and I HATE IT.",2.896071428571428,3.715270750000002,3.9878571428571448,91.40714285714287,73.64285714285714,6.314285714285715,21.142857142857142,5.985473137389443,-0.006699999999999928,206,4,47,1,4,67,42,56,0.141,0.7170000000000001,0.142,-0.4474,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,1,2,0,2,6,2,0,1,0,4,5,2,2,0,8,10,7,0,0,3,0,2,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,4,2,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,3,11,4,3,9,0,5,0,0,0,3,5,1,0,2,3,30,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17248748320766066,0.252757341637659,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2740107812587102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21587519962709004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4121463606106419,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12473105554531005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4870995899851985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2522515343593446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22264232160191127,0.0,0.16466376688371204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17101991739916364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19617335316035664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20901490981134813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17460450321177656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20354048261579824,0.0,0.1958066115679004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,silversandpiper,2019/01/06,"Am I weird for watching videos of food hauls (dumpster diving, extreme couponing, etc)? Do you watch any kind of haul videos? Is it weird I get satisfaction out of those videos even though I would never in my life need that much food?

But yeah, for whatever reason I got addicted to these kinds of videos, hell even farm videos showing someone who got like 600 lbs of meat from their cow in their freezer, and I honestly eat meat like once a month maybe. And then that resulted in beehive videos, and now I want bees so I can fuck around and make candles or something. I am about to click on a bath and body works dumpster dive video, send halp. I will sometimes watch clothing haul videos but most of them are a HUGE range of styles and I am not adventurous with clothing.

Also I know the extreme coupon show is mostly fake, but I am so envious of those walls they have with like 200 boxes of pop tarts. I honestly would LOVE to have a similar shelf, even if it were all like toilet paper or something I'd actually use. I live in a dorm room (thankfully without a roommate) but that means I'd have to move all the stuff into and back out of the dorm for summer, especially for the long lasting items.

Do I need a shelf of 200 full size candy bars? NO. Do I want it? YES


Surely I can't be the only one? Do y'all watch any kind of haul videos or similar?",4.148929824561403,5.179210403703704,4.4617348927875256,88.384649122807,70.8888888888889,7.610136452241718,26.06237816764133,7.85451343220497,1.244851851851852,1059,32,225,13,19,332,156,270,0.08199999999999999,0.765,0.153,0.9652,0,0,2,0,0,0,29.0,0,2,4,1,11,19,3,0,12,2,21,9,1,4,4,41,35,20,0,7,10,0,0,4,0,3,2,1,4,0,11,13,4,0,3,13,2,2,5,6,0,1,3,7,24,13,34,28,8,23,1,0,5,2,9,13,2,6,12,139,35,4,0.0,0.0,0.12095982600643145,0.13512659521886233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09912482385605254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1685839935251283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11034406500081824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.095311873665517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13768335995468697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12683442186840166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13823987871454782,0.2456085064414664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29976787451115805,0.0,0.0,0.11459215178165925,0.06476010083248526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19827238384292786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3872325757470523,0.06812108973947775,0.10103788665833162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08755136449953357,0.24222785457767995,0.0,0.10945238847056724,0.10969412213042984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11187203206183592,0.0,0.08273930165521222,0.0,0.12452701492516526,0.1350206845051196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09893775721038588,0.13174196338594085,0.0911193996537996,0.1838185171666401,0.0955998618839816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13200543955816804,0.08399346800233874,0.09427151348946047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1274438841869818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10502460863494764,0.1908494852597997,0.12259225922243627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1418960349812156,0.0,0.0,0.1168238284325521,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11411887107236847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12178276872984115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1070552209416585,0.0,0.0,0.14622087222708835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11948585230548435,0.0,0.09023894578040972,0.0,0.0,0.1761046958850607,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,whatsupbitchezzz,2019/01/06,"Taking a university course on eating disorders: great or terrible idea? For the last class I need to take to finish my psychology minor, I picked the advanced seminar on eating disorders. When I was taking the general psych course, I breezed past the eating disorders units without studying because it was like taking an exam about my own life lol.

But now that spring semester is starting in a couple weeks I'm getting cold feet about taking a class exclusively on EDs. I love talking about eating disorders but it's for some reason just now dawning on me that it's a class ABOUT eating disorders, not a class of PEOPLE WITH eating disorders lol. I have this bizarre desire to have normal people kind of look at me with suspicion but I'll also probably get pretty annoyed by people expressing shock/disgust at behaviors that are a part of my daily life and having to pretend to play along. What do you guys think?

pros: minimal effort/easy A. 

cons: may be so triggering I stop showing up and end up getting an F because it's a ""seminar"" (read: participation/attendance is like half of the grade). 

extra pro: class may be so triggering I can use it as thinspo even thought that's kinda fucked up.",7.4020351845463965,7.760372991031393,7.821076233183856,69.5422318040704,63.484304932735434,10.987098999655053,35.5394963780614,10.727762888450028,4.0566208347706105,959,41,158,23,13,316,135,223,0.096,0.7809999999999999,0.123,0.6465,0,0,0,0,0,0,25.0,0,1,0,1,12,9,2,0,15,2,14,11,1,5,0,29,31,11,0,3,7,0,0,2,0,2,2,0,0,1,11,5,6,1,4,4,0,1,2,3,0,1,3,2,14,6,31,24,4,22,2,0,1,2,5,10,1,5,13,105,25,9,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06906694569835166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1052959561402842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09556245625445564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5938982559319079,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5302445414029455,0.0,0.0,0.07649473723890568,0.0,0.0,0.057044000071667315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0798440755471554,0.1353681810556054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09521893942956816,0.0,0.08551602579366199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09749682388464057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08993701154211085,0.0,0.07039990549129335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12200587304925953,0.08438823610440806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07252577921056598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0779487848049002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06403937505067582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08462044898815943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09352607910045246,0.08244622301348034,0.17962615520873335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08786538143716048,0.09311727235207423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08638948031311824,0.0,0.0,0.08879874370835346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0611303760619088,0.0,0.0,0.07220593385546469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3246828256761805,0.06941780645603764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0553399149633959,0.0,0.06856504289566095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07459258784903346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06927768264925932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08325384653281538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Daeloy,2019/01/06,"Subs that are for healthy people without ED’s! r/1200isjerky
I mean most of y’all already know about this one, but then there’s also

r/intermittentfasting
Like really. People losing a hundred pounds in a few months. Definitely no ED here!

Does anyone know any others?",3.863125,7.082612395833337,4.24666666666667,78.86500000000002,81.29166666666666,5.7,22.583333333333336,7.1686216300943375,1.1790583333333329,217,7,35,3,6,68,43,48,0.128,0.6940000000000001,0.17800000000000002,0.3852,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,1,0,1,4,2,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,6,4,3,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,2,1,0,1,0,0,2,1,5,4,2,3,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,1,3,22,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32100591781705656,0.23262576519796954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1978161421545766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20339804593042232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25456104380703165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31973263629255805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14211485536968918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3254330942428456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3168660364649841,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2321867578948704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19711555597868707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4033349709473552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18635249373049026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2804089504689464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ISetMyGnomesOnFire,2019/01/07,"How do i help a male friend? Ive always been open with my only friends (2 dudes) about my ED. Since im a female, i dont really think they know how to help.

Today one of them confessed to me that hes been purging. Ive spent the last 2 hours trying to calm him down and talk him away from it while currently fighting todays internal battle. 
How do i help? Its bad enough one of us is struggling and i would HATE to see him fall into this vomit stained rabbit hole",2.8720408163265283,3.6852715102040814,4.078163265306124,90.75969387755104,73.6938775510204,6.824489795918367,22.16326530612245,6.868970318607317,0.4141673469387759,360,8,81,3,7,118,73,98,0.147,0.695,0.158,-0.1263,1,0,0,0,2,0,9.0,1,0,2,0,4,8,3,1,3,0,10,1,0,3,0,12,15,6,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,1,0,0,1,4,5,0,0,3,0,1,1,1,5,0,2,3,1,16,3,12,11,1,11,1,0,1,0,16,4,0,0,6,51,20,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1586048605983729,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17908670811039282,0.0,0.15915346652861534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22339641764427265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1969536551940605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2945334725232283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1881903703833324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3832906005607178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18771490582403674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2058941975200673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10475563907469093,0.15537461934517285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25832791143931144,0.14496938730567185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1221112414438514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1518934751487753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15767662073755914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19926956003967725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15320709848421105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12213678643496582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36135670391028346,0.0,0.0,0.12941336798203842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2292833549180603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13540564333340813,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,mightywidget,2019/01/07,Just a small question I'm on holidays with my brother and I'm trying to loose wieght. All we seem to do is eat though. Anyone have any ideas how to get out of eating? I'm thinking my best bet is to pretend iv got food poisoning. ,-0.14074829931972846,2.0557194489795947,2.0439795918367345,94.95399659863949,89.20408163265307,4.899319727891157,20.41156462585034,6.42735559955562,0.19903809523809451,179,6,40,2,6,60,40,49,0.138,0.737,0.125,0.0772,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,1,0,0,1,3,2,1,0,1,0,4,5,0,1,1,12,11,3,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,4,3,0,4,2,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,3,1,8,10,2,3,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,3,0,22,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18298945426760144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18815298397044092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2823918515771623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5506895679650887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3253829655872954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1405876710102369,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21521471022897434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3037682406740725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.301440780939497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24496812683376004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17242108960773894,0.2643781526714097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18269347482096773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,rizzie_,2019/01/07,"I HAVE GAINED SIX POUNDS IN THE TWO WEEKS I’VE BEEN HOME FOR WINTER BREAK!!! HA HA HA HA EVERYTHING IS FINE spoiler: everything is most certainly NOT fine

I need to get back in the gym. Thinking of starting stronglifts 5x5, anyone here ever done it?",2.1283687943262417,4.9423261276595785,2.2777659574468103,92.6841666666667,85.59574468085106,5.686524822695036,22.72695035460993,7.1686216300943375,0.9577120567375887,196,7,38,3,6,59,38,47,0.031,0.608,0.361,0.9643,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,1,3,7,0,0,2,4,5,0,0,0,2,6,9,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,2,2,0,2,7,5,7,1,8,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,5,22,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2156339045731458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23713336485241465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3155906936810545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2789569878252254,0.0,0.0,0.5543232406958036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16112138003373275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3093409546128821,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22866775052013805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21828048089890376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19760426860258565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3012528424752429,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2473723680176193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ChubbieToad,2019/01/07,"Online shopping gave me motivation I have slacked off hard during the end of the year. And I gained 5lbs. I've been ON A BINGE SINCE THANKSGIVING. not really. But most days. Today I ate a half tub of ice cream and French fries. Then purged. I went weeks without purging and just bingeing. And after I purged I got SO SHAKEY like low blood sugar shakey. Like I almost blacked out. I have a child so I grabbed a soda and carrots. Because I can't be doing this to myself. I feel pre diabetic like I use to when I was 210-230. 
I'm not sure why. Or if it's because I've adjusted to eating too much again. But whatever. I need to get back to calorie counting. 

I was shopping online and seeing the beautiful thin photoshopped girls made me snap out of this self loathing and gluttony. all the beautiful dresses and swim suits for this summer. The pretty lace bras.

I want to buy EVERYTHING. ITS ALL ON SALE TOO except I can't. Except I'd rather saw my gut off before putting new beautiful clothing on my body. I need new everything. even underwear and bras. so. I'm going to lose 15lbs and look at those clothes everyday. 

I've never found motivation in shopping. I've always hated clothes and dressed pretty blah. 

Maybe it's me growing up.. maybe it's because my birthday is in 10 days. But damn I want to be pretty so bad. Just some times I forget. I've felt so damn low cost lately. 

But those girls in those clothes. They make me feel so hopeful and happy. And I know skinny doesn't mean happy, but from my perspective it sure does help.",1.1215148448043202,3.690764039473688,2.3940789473684205,91.78175775978407,87.88157894736841,5.223211875843456,21.610661268556004,6.788186056548923,0.6355394062078275,1204,42,242,16,39,385,172,304,0.084,0.7809999999999999,0.134,0.9155,0,0,0,0,0,0,40.0,0,0,1,4,15,15,3,0,9,0,12,9,4,5,5,56,38,28,0,7,15,0,6,4,0,0,1,0,0,4,11,15,5,0,9,4,6,5,7,7,0,1,11,12,31,8,29,25,5,38,0,3,5,0,7,15,2,6,21,137,42,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11851770523947655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0984827267249733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09100943180528608,0.09882337333380946,0.21644847242567286,0.0,0.10071331595175564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1314682408037915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1526612902509897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10357524108273997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12110903105424302,0.0,0.0,0.10482940738898842,0.0,0.0,0.07817385794703914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21274375794223555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11968997986732065,0.0,0.1136415362694946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12977263313728818,0.0,0.0,0.061836786475322814,0.0,0.06726516181894884,0.0,0.09466111777190278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2519870210286237,0.10602486261059407,0.11685329660649355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0793323805438266,0.0,0.0,0.11755547085637948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06504605809034428,0.0,0.13351215134129946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17347014515126313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09939029441101736,0.1324115060513972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11199250685963004,0.07900439412231741,0.0,0.23781156401393655,0.128925760308681,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0870062088804715,0.17552082609701786,0.09128442004254453,0.2286203700906088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3612356692185714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11898174283839998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07582269531836418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0943154172447652,0.0,0.12347244121120997,0.0,0.0,0.0979063535154584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22310064503141505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06901507361558283,0.0,0.11218884902761493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1022226765143811,0.0,0.0,0.1396203640499324,0.0,0.09493905959468532,0.0,0.0,0.10971837136393488,0.10679902328084744,0.0,0.0,0.11409218084678892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07621819881640532
EDAnonymous,homefrie,2019/01/07,"What apps do you guys use? Whether to track your food, fast, or burned calories, what app do you use as a go to?",1.0549999999999995,2.313067833333335,1.3816666666666642,106.53,79.0,4.800000000000002,20.333333333333336,3.1291,-0.9215166666666668,84,2,23,0,2,25,19,24,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,2,0,4,5,3,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,3,5,0,2,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,1,1,13,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5043017787837831,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2370206596879817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4129477407033523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7203992547501579,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,jd060087,2019/01/07,"I Think I’m Developing An ED I apologize for this post in advance for being a little all over the place. I’m 22F and I’ve struggled with binging for the majority of my life on and off. In my 3 year long term relationship, I’ve gained a lot of weight from going out to eat on dates with my boyfriend and binging obviously. In the last year I’ve become extremely insecure. Sometimes this even interferes with me having sex with my boyfriend. I’ve become antisocial I guess. But the biggest thing I’ve noticed is for the last maybe 3-4 weeks, I’ve had no appetite. This is extremely unusual for me as I binge or just eat ‘normally’. This is also unusual because I smoke marijuana daily and I used to experienced the munchies (duh to have an even more insane binge) but now I don’t at all. The sight of food and the idea of eating is very unappealing. Even food I love. I wake up every morning sweating with the same stomach ache. I instantly feel better once I drink a couple glasses of water. I don’t eat breakfast but sometimes I’ll eat a tangerine or half a banana so nobody around me gets worried because that’s all I can stomach. I just drink water or coffee throughout the day and I don’t experience any feelings of hunger. My stomach does growl. Dinner is the hardest because my family eats together every night and I have to slowly chew tiny bites so I don’t gag. I honestly think I eat maybe 400-600 calories a day. Medically, I feel absolutely fine besides the stomachaches in the morning. I can see my face shape changing, I’m starting to see my cheekbones. Friends and family are telling me I’m looking different, looking better. A few days ago after my boyfriend and I were intimate, he said he thought I looked like I had lost weight. It made me feel amazing and I felt this overwhelming sense of satisfaction. When he was leaving to go back home for the week today though, he interrogated me. We were by his car and he held my face and forced me to look at him and he asked me if I was eating properly. He’s aware of my binging btw. This shocked me because I didn’t see it coming at all and I became overwhelmed with panic. But I just made an excuse that I was stressed because I have some things going on right now that he knows about. He believed me. I felt so guilty when he kissed me and left. What I’m trying to say is that I’m worried that I’m becoming anorexic and I don’t know what to do because I don’t want to fix whatever is wrong with me.",2.5680668489284777,4.707460545638945,4.051851574212893,85.10167541229387,77.41784989858012,6.964441308757388,27.350251344915772,7.967736418589885,1.8025462033689048,1951,82,387,33,46,646,237,493,0.106,0.7979999999999999,0.096,-0.5719,1,0,3,0,0,0,42.0,1,0,0,5,18,18,0,6,24,1,30,32,7,3,5,66,71,32,0,3,11,0,8,1,1,0,2,2,1,0,17,27,20,2,12,2,0,6,8,9,0,1,16,19,60,9,51,54,11,50,0,3,8,3,22,21,0,7,23,233,77,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059235299713990976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053438998426187184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04544250074911784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059487382539825565,0.06247126718045155,0.0,0.0,0.05138340597916246,0.0,0.24441114534179326,0.2214050341502767,0.0,0.07528758124492531,0.0,0.1182005071555629,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07069075918025472,0.05756281871794141,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07393930479694451,0.0,0.12928754029118789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06981668709317677,0.0,0.0,0.058477990207987815,0.0,0.0,0.13092384061329052,0.0,0.5470197439506891,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13240954262116747,0.0,0.11260392977492925,0.0,0.0,0.0653665352218751,0.12599113299190856,0.0,0.1351525595790634,0.0,0.128322726082375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16160729826351286,0.0,0.05162793081851039,0.0,0.034912696858785834,0.0,0.11393257982508427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07361399040690486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06702975714424665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07543597831710548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07344926660680932,0.1089406922722149,0.0,0.07075679494162078,0.07260429458754615,0.0,0.047199652394796544,0.03264675142917027,0.06697504007636351,0.0,0.059136993054359877,0.22446077277072535,0.0,0.07294611204894287,0.056811236702026875,0.06031112200480119,0.1264606608885183,0.0,0.0,0.13426705230301128,0.0,0.0,0.06731798570455079,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0627096443945414,0.06547317236310662,0.0,0.07607938150085575,0.0,0.07116520567079282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07840337489566207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06981668709317677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06399876417513824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07174379297633146,0.0,0.05706719180698469,0.06356477163452434,0.053140997414229514,0.0,0.0,0.1597498394919235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13218096724517892,0.0,0.04729825587527809,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07654647968131792,0.0698587835998987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0584069790490789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08878957623440792,0.0856360332350653,0.06565408071686905,0.0530506624021761,0.0,0.0,0.06334118411215127,0.0,0.0,0.045368998993078336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057714339969211374,0.0,0.0551366640072448,0.03941443049707865,0.0,0.1072041028202589,0.1627468624046793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13572570066444598,0.0,0.0,0.07306137574198983,0.0,0.08606472043827004
EDAnonymous,originalthrowawayna,2019/01/07,"(throwaway) if anyone ever thinks EDs are glamorous it is currently four in the morning and i recently arrived home from a one+ hour walk on an empty stomach all because a voice in my head told me that ""i'm fat"" and ""need to exercise right now""

i have an appointment in less than six hours and cannot get to sleep because i'm a fucking moron and decided to go out at three in the morning despite feeling physically & emotionally exhausted, yet somehow suddenly full of energy at the same time (doesn't even make any sense lol)

my brain is constantly telling me to be active and i'm currently being told by this stupid voice that i shouldn't sleep because it won't burn any fucking calories and i may as well stay up because i usually sleep all day anyway and will be at my appointment soon (rip)

i always have to attempt to function properly even when feeling physically weak but won't be able to because of this disgusting disease, yet i still see people who portray eating disorders as a diet/lifestyle/miracle that should be praised and i fucking hate it.

sorry i just needed to get this off my chest as i have no one to talk to. i'm exhausted",5.38130952380952,6.3672929642857135,6.248285714285718,76.86338095238098,68.01785714285714,9.544761904761904,35.022619047619045,9.725611199111238,3.5172104761904768,920,45,167,20,15,304,136,224,0.139,0.8109999999999999,0.051,-0.9565,2,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,0,0,2,13,13,7,0,9,1,19,16,8,1,3,27,39,14,0,5,3,0,2,0,0,6,5,2,1,0,10,9,2,0,4,1,0,2,6,10,1,5,2,5,16,3,29,26,5,33,1,0,1,3,6,13,3,3,17,117,26,0,0.1215069656636841,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10110352915225963,0.1316527465315277,0.0,0.16525780660539766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08496049556971877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3703475924085037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13564195844688498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13130586374207018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07836194083260795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13925750952040808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1243319601211813,0.0,0.13667898198117784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16050840972275526,0.10991000684786882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12287514543076135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.336993695456748,0.1269647490884204,0.0,0.06905520871579422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11996297292808805,0.12470120153138255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12188139363309275,0.0,0.2393197709287463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08110684309756043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1801917508609005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16467252911740027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0842376308374357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11997346988332765,0.0,0.0,0.10376628477400518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09682532007407957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3647841496234002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13601710013869595,0.0,0.1295102583812746,0.09703561973596428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09766269639841324,0.10620244362636193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07785675736105126,0.0,0.0,0.07085168881162816,0.0,0.0,0.23221022551653855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13382275630374058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10924935453159763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,mavienoire,2019/01/07,Battling Hair Loss? I’m starting to look like Gollum.... What do you all do to combat hair loss?,-0.16701754385965015,2.1185266842105257,1.1642105263157916,97.99614035087721,97.94736842105264,2.533333333333333,16.859649122807017,3.1291,-1.032382456140351,73,2,15,0,3,23,15,19,0.379,0.521,0.1,-0.7149,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,1,0,2,0,4,1,0,0,0,2,2,2,0,1,1,5,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,3,1,1,2,5,1,1,0,2,1,0,1,0,0,0,2,7,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4064412999184419,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6986156682661263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5888477033781152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,OkWorking7,2019/01/07,"Water weight loss in the fasting sub Not sure if this is allowed, delete if not.

I subscribe to r/ fasting because of course I do. The ones who fast for 5+ days and lose lots of weight, how much do you think is just water weight? And do you think they’re able to keep it off or they just end up gaining it all back when they start eating again? I think most of them, especially the successful ones, are pretty overweight so they have a decent amount to lose which would increase the amount of water weight they store.

They all act like they’ve found this great secret to losing weight but it seems really not sustainable. Unlike an ED which will have you in its grips for years if not decades lol 😂 ",3.100011990407676,5.0373991870503625,2.9346942446043194,94.65345623501202,75.11510791366906,5.784412470023981,20.216426858513188,6.42735559955562,-0.03769112709832178,553,12,118,4,12,165,90,139,0.095,0.816,0.08900000000000001,0.2162,1,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,3,6,6,7,8,0,0,6,1,10,10,0,2,3,28,17,10,0,4,11,0,6,1,0,2,1,0,0,0,9,2,10,1,6,0,1,2,4,4,0,2,1,6,12,4,14,14,8,16,0,4,0,0,11,4,0,7,11,76,21,1,0.12183301329158808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09368206691812753,0.0,0.07426827408940634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07857221457935874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1246655882424066,0.0,0.0,0.1079078878221549,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13358361062751864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13432132726229615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10829078010238412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059521456271063186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4088999345862265,0.0,0.10357807111072352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08956128305549409,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16511440573909358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12394797427645365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07804934802719217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11091219957268997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08623403387886408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11482617319283428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2341970265473577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7417989409213827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08654667708242489,0.0,0.0,0.07845646610753705
EDAnonymous,petite-bby,2019/01/07,"I think my friend basically confirmed she had an ED today So I posted [this](https://www.reddit.com/r/EDAnonymous/comments/a8j4do/my_friend_might_have_an_ed/?st=JQN32G1G&sh=5a2014ef) around a month ago and tl;dr basically I have a friend who eats a lot and I have an ED myself. I’m in an ED discord and I mentioned how she sometimes makes me get plates for her and she doesn’t care that I don’t eat sometimes. There’s a lot more other shit too she does that might indicate she has an ED (read the post). The discord suggested that she could possibly be bulimic, so I started paying more attention. But then we got out for Christmas break.
Well, today, we returned from break and she flat out said “I didn’t eat for a few days” in English class and I YELLED “WHAT”
And she repeated it. I was kinda shocked in the moment honestly. I didn’t question her until we were on the way to lunch, but I asked “what do you mean by you didn’t eat for a few days?” She said “exactly what that means. 2 days specifically” and I ALMOST said “that’s the longest I went too” but I didn’t... she said “I’m trying to be skinny” and I kinda just went “uh huh” because honestly I’ve never really been confronted with shit like this that hits so close to home. God. I don’t know what to say.
She also proceeded to try and put her hands around her waist and make her fingers touch (like I see in thinspo gifs) which worries me more
I swear this shit sounds really cliche but it happened???? I’m kinda shocked
I think at lunch she found out I had an ED bc she saw this girl I follow on Instagram who has an ED and looks extremely skinny... today’s been a stressful day back lmao. 

What do I say to her? I know that it’s damn near impossible to “warn” people or just recommend her to not starve herself because we *never* fucking listen. I think the best bet would be to tell her about mine and be there for her.",2.0221091644204847,4.496899455525607,2.84881334231806,91.15780222371971,81.3989218328841,5.974150943396228,21.673921832884087,7.268377926160553,0.7173702964959574,1482,46,302,21,40,466,183,371,0.098,0.792,0.11,0.6796,0,0,0,0,0,0,57.0,4,2,0,1,16,18,6,1,19,1,26,15,8,3,3,58,58,25,0,2,8,0,3,2,2,2,0,9,1,1,22,24,9,0,10,1,2,4,10,9,2,0,19,15,59,9,32,31,8,42,0,0,3,1,46,14,5,10,21,201,81,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07953094377286593,0.0,0.08984114232582081,0.0,0.0,0.07174867012798335,0.0,0.09721106568561072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15973879422618611,0.08387564275925619,0.0,0.0,0.06898877513102028,0.0,0.10938437694806236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09415510413335412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09147503319081728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07163373857112383,0.0,0.0,0.2314466800950893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07851415918611776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3672218821281173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09837282606953664,0.13863416182113275,0.08294425329196735,0.04687474773052233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0717568985771595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0793386778852427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08999599685133032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09861500694466263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08766485405886494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07534180288036163,0.0,0.0,0.15255266010745608,0.0,0.0,0.11977695657145022,0.0,0.0,0.1954617254519503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09517823564388876,0.0,0.0,0.0716132672840764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1383944543408285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06220022050643024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10114528157596743,0.1718530045334988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09019290131309764,0.10050639903695176,0.0,0.08974380237668106,0.0,0.11495324766641744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.341375247746497,0.14269713153445446,0.0,0.0,0.07149484380485419,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2762874031645997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17746980473767032,0.0,0.06350394016294454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10277341046537866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07841881764967414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1724659428676938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2551308515253655,0.0,0.0,0.12182733354508488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07121518125701012,0.0,0.0,0.08066862605816139,0.16634179336407262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09111453069534586,0.0,0.06373417496002208,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,vitaminsplz,2019/01/07,"Almost fooled by some mf iced coffee So there's this thing called Free Fridays if you do Click-List through kroger, and my mom got this free iced coffee that looked pretty good! So i declared that i'd like to drink it. Well i just went down stairs to get it and checked the nutrition label real quick expecting it to be like, 150-200cal. NOPE that fella read 300cal. The audacity

I was really looking forward to trying it :/",4.702845528455281,6.127321073170734,4.849756097560974,84.63406504065041,69.97560975609754,7.417886178861789,24.642276422764226,7.793537801064563,1.2253105691056914,336,9,64,4,6,105,63,82,0.051,0.725,0.224,0.9429,0,0,1,0,0,0,10.0,0,1,0,0,6,7,0,0,2,0,3,1,0,0,0,8,8,5,0,2,2,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,10,2,1,0,0,2,3,2,1,1,1,0,3,2,5,8,7,4,1,5,0,0,2,0,3,3,0,3,4,38,15,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2497163669294331,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25464314900170576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24429581631014546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13028988057107033,0.0,0.0,0.20916670487822994,0.1994506253029031,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2436673031559065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4188299660074588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2920688768123892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2537074066706269,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24944580738592104,0.2838471263787649,0.15975813881513234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16567587617663165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16931151106276246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22422106067370745,0.2311762029736813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,breathypedantic,2019/01/07,"So I was browsing mpa looking at before and afters TW child exploitation (sort of?)

​

and there was a poster who was saying she's 11, and one of the photos is a picture of her w/o clothes on with her 'parts' covered by like flowers and shit. I reported it but like wth. Do I need to contact the authorities? Technically that's child porn and girl (literally- she's fucking 11 years old) could really ruin her life. I don't know could it also ruin mine because I happened on it? I feel so creepy, I forget that there's a lot of young people in this community, while my old ass is over here edging towards 30 in a couple years. 

​

Just a reminder to all of the under 18's on here- please do not post this sort of stuff online, there's a lot of dangerous creeps out there who do not have any good intentions and lots of free time. ",3.139146238377009,4.884870526627222,4.2693364327979735,85.95409763313612,74.50295857988166,6.958748943364327,25.08918005071851,7.7094869923839395,1.26943753169907,665,22,134,9,14,217,106,169,0.183,0.7490000000000001,0.068,-0.9753,1,0,0,0,0,0,27.0,0,0,0,0,10,9,3,0,9,0,12,5,2,1,1,25,18,11,0,3,4,0,1,2,0,0,1,1,0,3,10,8,0,0,2,0,1,0,3,5,0,1,3,3,14,5,23,13,5,19,0,2,1,3,12,10,3,5,10,94,24,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11466961802932962,0.0,0.3107278713461603,0.34847117686725143,0.09751070111084524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08740973665878783,0.0,0.12201505965905028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2289718659680056,0.1586592579973386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07250272665581455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13256253845196106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12026944928345508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1268000629394873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07880386603774668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1012812041884412,0.140107061379613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12041220753668826,0.0,0.0,0.3657173415063231,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10632250495005216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3009291708819624,0.0,0.09716535695209516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15527832681452575,0.0,0.09940916694469333,0.0,0.0,0.15740010356793252,0.0,0.0,0.1373288058991014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0918598559222488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11403016625777852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14718865604378428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16414822743898244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08361236292341828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34847117686725143,0.1846780237112615
EDAnonymous,kalenurse,2019/01/07,"I made a bullet journal spread on the effects of anorexia/bulimia on the body and just wanted to share [Imgur](https://imgur.com/u4yRbr6) 

(Low key sad this sub doesnt allow photos, but oh well! I understand why. but i was proud of this page and this was basically the only place where i thought i could share it)

I made it to remind myself why I DON'T want to purge or overly restrict. there are still many days when i eat too much and/or fast but i still haven't purged since christmas, so i'll take it as a win. it was also something i could do instead of binge eat (sigh). 

i also want to add i made it super ""pretty"" and decorated it NOT because i want to glorify ED's or act like it's some cute hobby to have but because of the hope that i will look at it more and remind myself why i made it if it's also nice and organized. ",2.650252100840333,4.244379705882352,3.861008403361346,89.0088235294118,75.47058823529412,6.504201680672269,22.731092436974787,7.1686216300943375,0.6901092436974787,650,18,137,7,14,212,102,170,0.06,0.708,0.232,0.9892,0,0,1,0,0,0,25.0,0,0,0,4,13,13,0,0,6,0,12,3,1,6,0,32,25,18,0,8,9,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,14,6,2,1,3,0,0,1,4,2,2,0,8,1,17,10,15,14,4,13,0,2,1,0,2,7,0,5,6,93,31,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3206816909712327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16296500410376455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14847452256422172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2134453351734885,0.0,0.0,0.08620451618380554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2735505617791099,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13276204430439034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06530321651071906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1122470827933042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5059178972835043,0.0,0.13551792278229285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0982610343355138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10166020034200764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13965414731075196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13598795975990505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11057118438137924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1029038157367092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21349416727191955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10050136768452317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10611710939762613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13915264081184595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3153623531556176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12018318651534075,0.0,0.3618425384336257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Bleare,2019/01/07,Currently failing through college b/c ADHD and I'm gonna start treating it but I'm more excited to use it to lose weight. :): My ED seems to be more important than bipolar and ADHD to me.,1.0773076923076914,3.1763530769230783,3.643269230769232,86.30798076923078,82.33333333333333,6.976923076923077,30.262820512820515,8.07648339933343,2.388789743589744,146,8,30,3,4,51,30,39,0.13,0.7290000000000001,0.141,0.1227,1,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,2,0,4,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,0,5,7,3,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,2,2,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,2,2,6,5,2,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,16,4,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7386992780676944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3438224500234624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2797807064935979,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21752899153901709,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26543351205059035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37424382992453104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,GlassSnowdrops,2019/01/07,"Heart feeling weird on a night? I get palpitations during the day but they're a lot worse at night. Them, occasional pain and just this weird sensation of pressure on my heart/chest? 

I'm not anxious or worried and it's not a panic attack, I've had them before. I also had an ECG 3 weeks ago so I imagine something would have popped up there if there was an actual issue, maybe? Is this just normal during restriction? ",2.7073170731707314,5.047152597560976,3.9489634146341466,85.00685975609757,77.90243902439025,6.5390243902439025,22.445121951219512,7.6454224807358475,1.088068292682927,331,10,63,5,8,108,63,82,0.205,0.6559999999999999,0.14,-0.7804,0,0,1,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,2,0,6,6,1,2,6,0,6,2,1,0,0,15,9,7,0,3,7,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,3,2,0,1,2,0,0,0,2,6,0,0,3,1,6,0,5,5,1,9,0,0,0,0,2,4,0,3,5,40,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.19190897287793926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17432466390014614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15726662116652054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22216655998592388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2237258548873678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16734071756567828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12682756800173442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09943574455444128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10274522413394696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4660792484343687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2052589314804737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1671908438321503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1975685012028177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3690987548019137,0.19268221519573211,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20925703219318886,0.230734748423924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15139625237450394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.157746472821883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.199714842882385,0.20041039769700345,0.13969956977487266,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,snailfoosh,2019/01/07,"How long does it take for hair to grow back once you start recovery? I struggled with anorexia for a little over a year, I lost nearly 100lb and along with it my hair. I was practically balding. I've been in recovery for 3-4 months and my hair seems to be getting better, lots of baby hairs, I've even been able to go out in public without a beanie,  but I don't know if it'll ever look normal again or if it will, how long it would take. There doesn't seem to be much info on this online, nobody tends to go too in depth. ",4.935029761904765,3.87612434821429,5.807857142857145,86.67047619047621,68.91071428571429,8.538095238095236,25.809523809523807,7.1686216300943375,0.946334523809524,405,8,94,3,6,134,77,112,0.032,0.948,0.019,-0.0691,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,1,0,2,8,3,0,1,3,0,10,5,5,2,1,21,22,8,0,4,5,0,4,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,6,6,0,0,4,0,0,3,3,2,0,0,4,5,7,1,20,13,2,20,0,1,1,0,2,9,0,6,8,61,13,0,0.19877973777986133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1528493484117623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17580452440223898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17395348808417088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13129214206724205,0.17980765317664418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10385420865885883,0.0,0.2259422117222999,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10924414534456292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1992295185662718,0.0,0.35182762540324525,0.16692491577883736,0.0,0.21699156533869893,0.1689954246297463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15866409022656566,0.0,0.14612597915796813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19476193808970568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21169393326672264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36192321525990173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14069732151428133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20780774163575347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2989152487337112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19161657374830168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1412074224495158,0.0,0.0,0.1280076338805254
EDAnonymous,UQ4120,2019/01/07,"My boss just confronted me and it didn't go the way I expected Background: I'm 5'8"", F, 30, and have gone from 193 lbs to 119 in about a year. 

PSA: I've had disordered eating/unusual attachment to my food habits since childhood. This is not something 100% new. I've been down this road before. 

I was at an awful place before I started the weight loss, eating constantly, and felt so unattractive that I just completely took my health in my hands last January. But then it got really bad really quick. I am really dizzy, I can't sleep. My hands shake and I bruise so easily. 

I went through a breakup that I could see coming a mile away in 2018, I knew I wanted to look different. I didn't want to mess around so I just **lost the weight**. I started out very healthy/on keto and got so much praise and so many compliments. 

Eventually I started working out and rather than stalling my weight loss, the exercise actually accelerated it. I no longer saw plateaus and even lost more quickly despite taking frequent cheat days.

Then the behavior got suddenly really obsessive. I was so stressed over the calorie content at a small meal at lunch so often that I switched to intermittent fasting. I ate once a day, and IF is so trendy! I'm fine!

Once again, I've been through this 100 times, but it never got this bad. Not even when I was a teenager. I started purging, then Binging then Purging. Then I stepped on the scale. Then I made spreadsheets depicting the continued freefall and dreaming of even lower numbers.  I started incorporating Nicotine through a Juul (*I know, ICK*).

I lied to my mom and told my boyfriend (no longer my bf) that he's not allowed to bring food into the house. I can't fall asleep if there's pizza in the fridge.

Everyone asked me how I did it, I could never have the audacity to say, ""Oh I just hate myself"".

Recently, my boss (M, 55) asked my coworker and very close friend, ""Is UQ4120 losing this much weight because of her breakup?""


*My reaction: what a misogynistic way of seeing what's happening!*


So judgmental, like we can't be motivated to lose weight, or even lose control of the weight loss a little bit unless there's a man involved??

Anyway, today I was recovering from an injury in the gym (he's experienced in this kind of recovery, he recommended Epsom salts). We were talking about exercise, and he told me straight out, ""You should really stop losing weight"".

I was surprised but I told him, I know, my parents are concerned too. It's been a crazy year and I'm on a health journey, just trying to find a balance.

Then he told me that his oldest daughter was anorexic. 

I was skeptical, some parents call their daughters anorexic without knowing what it means. 


*Me: Did she ever go inpatient?

Him: No, but she went to Renfrew. Twice. At her worst, her BP was two points above being sent to the ER.

Me: Oh that's awful. Is she ok now?*

He told me this is something that people suffer with for the rest of their life. It's not something to be ignored and it put a big strain on him and his wife to watch her suffer through it.

I was really floored. I thought it was a miscategorized PSA when the conversation started. I never expected that he's been affected by it so closely.

I have an appointment with my Psychologist next week, and my Psychiatrist in early February. I'm not ready to talk to my psychiatrist about help, but my psychologist has already told me to try to stop fasting and take notes at how I feel during mealtimes. 

I don't know. This is awful. Why am I embarrassing myself like this? I have to be a professional. I'm 30 years old. 

I wanted to get my life on track, and I thought I was in that process. Too bad, all of a sudden I am paralyzed with fear at the thought of being near a birthday cake on my birthday (next week).

I am terrified that bartenders are giving me regular coke instead of diet so I log the calories of a vodka with regular coke.

I've bartended before. I know that what I'm going through is paranoia. 

I don't know what the point of this is, just I guess I'm... disappointed in myself for not expecting his concern to be genuine. I thanked him and he told me he's here if I ever want to talk about it. And he apologized in case he was way off. I said he's actually not that far off, I'm just trying to get stable right now. ",2.6329390681003595,4.925563954599767,3.947765830346477,85.16387096774194,77.91278375149344,7.239665471923537,26.82078853046595,8.246614768655522,1.903629390681004,3358,138,663,65,81,1100,360,837,0.163,0.778,0.059,-0.998,5,0,4,1,0,0,138.0,2,1,2,13,47,38,4,6,41,4,55,27,4,9,6,106,127,53,0,14,26,6,11,2,2,1,6,2,0,1,40,35,17,4,15,5,0,15,21,28,1,2,49,20,106,10,87,69,8,116,1,12,5,0,62,46,0,7,54,430,146,5,0.0,0.0,0.10087137729151983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057034081812145976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.046009316398924534,0.09663428360200207,0.0,0.04855839585742836,0.0,0.12946081445108645,0.03150581192553921,0.0,0.13193668126610258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056425049880773334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05277468237174295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04452080132176997,0.0541892180887627,0.055851555843449724,0.057967495247531774,0.08253021712658935,0.0,0.0,0.06666322721140197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053998308704272996,0.05923382511596721,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05288517371527585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13654598741429272,0.09350145850723156,0.0,0.04938584617718663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05815836181058614,0.02613275542773553,0.0,0.049624312361901984,0.0,0.04723782770620055,0.0,0.12499190585841385,0.0,0.03993058195929823,0.0,0.054005042667332866,0.0495795699156772,0.08811885629374673,0.0,0.1653442229327084,0.0,0.0569352563756054,0.0,0.045703591931784936,0.0,0.0,0.051026804825721216,0.0,0.10987439208425637,0.0,0.0,0.03464239363311835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05963587669125136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05382046328570707,0.1704235622227578,0.04212899076635778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07301123862686658,0.05049994307267234,0.05180049412396108,0.0,0.0,0.04340116455216997,0.23128268597221535,0.112837398656238,0.0,0.0,0.04890422397507289,0.0,0.052399006905802716,0.0,0.056298536706521976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060531148255405474,0.0,0.0,0.07598671099747199,0.0,0.11958461815996115,0.049916293945400654,0.10993208197113452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0542331908499256,0.11008258640763006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11477693025695747,0.0,0.0,0.035830865497970384,0.0,0.053998308704272996,0.0,0.0977153193189238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0519562421082933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1986588305710817,0.0,0.05103126975413371,0.0,0.0,0.04413746868233567,0.04916289076932026,0.04110083280515581,0.0,0.0,0.08237019455277662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04275316603908065,0.0,0.05172087451102647,0.0,0.0,0.11936556377307052,0.0,0.0,0.21949129312180451,0.0,0.0,0.08641952285147099,0.0592033310681269,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07771919390771595,0.1246238374951614,0.0,0.047583268263841315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12309289503535488,0.030137093207342418,0.0,0.048989961509021636,0.3457009232403064,0.057422324923203226,0.10526921207085696,0.0,0.05048731772321168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08528868177355713,0.12193718573577902,0.12307198721762015,0.0829148514412783,0.44055647567005546,0.0,0.0958223359369459,0.04663636435419676,0.0,0.0,0.049821097164377895,0.0,0.03762623941655111,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09984753365417524
EDAnonymous,tomorrowsaffair,2019/01/07,"I don’t know if there’s any way out Lately I’ve been trying my hand at, not DIY recovery exactly, but trying to cut back on some of my neurotic ED behavior. I’ve stopped weighing myself every day, incorporating small portions of different foods into my diet that I’m a little anxious about, stuff like that. Small things so that I feel less controlled by my illness, even though it’s still very much still present. 

Even though I’ve been maintaining, I’m scared. I’m not sure if it’s the possibility of weight gain itself that’s scaring me, so much as losing all the benefits that come with better fitting into the standards of ~conventionally attractive~

People are so much nicer to me now than they were 50lbs ago. People who I never thought would give me the time of day will approach me and talk to me. I feel like they don’t dismiss me as easily. I’m still not entirely used to it. I feel like I’m treated like a person for the first time in my life. I know realistically, it could be a lot of things—mainly, not being a teenager anymore and the fact that people grow up—but I didn’t really start to see it until I was underweight. I have trouble convincing myself that anything else is contributing to it.

I can’t go back to living like that and feeling like that. But this isn’t sustainable either. I know enough to know that. It’s a zero sum game, y’all",4.20238007380074,5.556733767527675,5.282691881918819,81.32234040590406,71.10332103321035,8.224428044280444,26.83413284132841,8.697196308434329,1.912072915129151,1085,36,212,19,20,358,152,271,0.109,0.731,0.161,0.9425,1,0,0,0,0,0,26.0,0,1,2,5,15,17,1,2,11,0,17,7,1,2,5,39,37,15,0,4,9,0,6,6,0,2,2,0,0,1,22,8,4,2,9,1,0,4,10,5,0,2,6,7,27,12,28,26,10,33,1,1,1,0,8,10,0,4,24,142,49,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09511772393105948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07296978764117969,0.0,0.0,0.1212219604883836,0.10641584208601093,0.0,0.0,0.08830130855728059,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16501892108799904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09490087213552614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0924321194615912,0.0,0.0,0.12034955091855165,0.08567279408901586,0.0,0.0,0.1384032451879178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11210890129321717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0896379712919913,0.0,0.0,0.11087278631949388,0.0,0.1417453712193995,0.0,0.09040748977044803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2170226860113457,0.22997206843306295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09127196212060316,0.12975133455636506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10293491117059696,0.06098282458196759,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2358839103635075,0.0,0.12104257069539905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07579135292312587,0.3145372476897209,0.10754589582587214,0.09475060326325388,0.0,0.0,0.12004472193051036,0.0,0.0912252585012098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2366403750569052,0.0,0.08275876581557493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22317137664598552,0.09369292812493532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12096812276424287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06874111357046067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2148582447341776,0.0,0.08550667819240039,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07594968652961342,0.0,0.2570771830224319,0.0897101963898716,0.0,0.0,0.12283637756109235,0.0,0.0,0.10113190195464554,0.0,0.0,0.08624616728302206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07128741173757756,0.0,0.21084950206134095,0.08518667559874231,0.12513860114211608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14570352280104604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09267542635152967,0.0,0.08853629526385236,0.0,0.08517220630312344,0.0,0.1306662682859534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07622504362747821,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,bhbubeepy,2019/01/07,"I realized that I don't even see food as a basic human need anymore I don't know how many people here have had many years of eating normally, but I did. When I'd have something unhealthy like a sugary drink or a dessert, sometimes I'd feel a little guilty knowing I didn't need it. But I realize that now I feel that way about *everything.* Food isn't something I need to stay alive, it's something I use to treat myself and I shouldn't treat myself too often. Yesterday, the only real food I had was half a bagel with cream cheese and I feel bad about it because I know I didn't really need that bagel. It was an indulgence and a lack of self control.

But holy fuck I KNOW how wrong I am. When I look at it objectively, I know humans need to eat to stay alive and that having half a bagel is shockingly little food for a whole day. I know that it is so unhealthy to live this way. I guess I just can't wrap my head around the idea that food, something I love so so so much, is something I can have a satisfying amount of every day. Just now I ate two slices of cold cut turkey from the package and thought to myself wow you pig, always snacking. But it's two slices of turkey jesus christ I know it's nothing.

Lol what the fuck is wrong with me",2.4410915750915763,3.8815102153846186,3.6254945054945082,91.12141025641027,75.69230769230771,6.490842490842493,22.380952380952376,7.07126945348624,0.532287545787546,976,26,215,10,21,317,128,260,0.168,0.7140000000000001,0.118,-0.9261,0,0,6,0,0,0,22.0,0,1,0,1,19,12,3,0,14,1,22,15,1,4,0,44,46,19,0,8,7,0,3,1,0,1,0,0,0,3,17,8,11,1,14,1,0,0,7,7,0,4,9,7,31,5,20,36,4,16,2,0,3,3,5,4,2,3,9,137,48,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07032544610238849,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08381878718683336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07523861736965795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07056869814796364,0.05152116818761211,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0947937186675622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10901377019595283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08279510988632527,0.0,0.17296528882070247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05582310336535583,0.0,0.07120975595945744,0.0,0.07595900408285698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1282039730428296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5109953219933807,0.0,0.0,0.15627039046281455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09310570781242222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08673948081467467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0954101267559848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3251407879501525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04129104919849578,0.1694177554458525,0.07463062355253185,0.0,0.07097353033514335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07628046886440301,0.0,0.0,0.17137524048185634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.062130189289784934,0.31334379149563185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08280934129363507,0.08109695394408895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0642794728673397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058593889025668915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09619957629405997,0.0541441636546126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06734961563964369,0.0,0.08817032994809815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32532903778177297,0.08359010594770462,0.0,0.0,0.18016911520037035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06709756454676802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16512290455529854,0.0,0.0,0.07299610364901735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13417233551719546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09436092549364516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18481354059483893,0.0,0.054426588409285284
EDAnonymous,cerulean-,2019/01/07,"How many calories do I burn being nervous? (Rhetorical question) My current thought as I sit in the airport: ""how many calories am I burning by being nervous?"" I have to fly out of state for the job interview of my life and I have been insanely nervous for the past few days. I know that I'm burning more calories because my heart rate is ~ up there ~ but I just wonder how many more. I should probably get a Fitbit for answers to questions like these. 

I just had to chuckle at the absurdity of the thought. Like, would a mentally healthy person wonder that? Probably not. 🤷‍♀️",1.3987969924812025,3.98191910526316,3.1120300751879704,87.2542105263158,86.01754385964912,5.713283208020051,30.07268170426065,7.1686216300943375,2.0520997493734345,454,25,86,7,14,150,73,114,0.029,0.841,0.131,0.9192,2,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,0,0,6,6,0,3,7,0,11,2,1,3,0,19,18,6,0,2,4,0,0,2,0,2,1,0,0,1,3,2,0,0,8,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,4,0,12,3,15,10,3,9,0,0,0,0,4,4,0,4,5,60,15,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10371658445767697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10972709180822594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0888918302150852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2016183125192763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1688390312499254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09350523339751654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12017586335022555,0.1662449335755393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5174898559753026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17146245765965407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16241916529067235,0.0,0.1485608594247581,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36688229240277626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38119448919849214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2701464452388938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3690220608941442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12086352959198501,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,RockinWeasel,2019/01/07,"Broken Scale Woes Just a rant. This morning I woke up and tried to weigh myself. My scales were not working so I changed the batteries. Still dead. Changed them again. Cried. The thought of getting new scales that won't be the same and might weigh me slightly differently to throw off my comparisons for a few weeks fills me with dread. 

I finally made them work only for them to tell me I had gained 4kg in my month of ""just eat anything and don't care"" (I ate EVERYTHING and I am also very constipated). I just want to die. Back to restriction. Possibly get new scales.",1.279729729729727,3.932205441441444,1.966270270270272,94.14562162162164,89.18018018018017,5.842882882882883,21.814414414414415,7.3011,0.8572349549549556,448,16,94,8,15,138,79,111,0.224,0.741,0.035,-0.9711,1,0,0,0,0,1,15.0,0,0,3,3,8,3,0,1,5,0,7,4,0,1,0,15,15,6,2,1,4,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,5,4,1,1,0,0,2,3,2,0,0,6,0,17,1,13,6,2,13,0,1,0,0,4,3,0,1,8,59,19,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14731378278187576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15159027891681995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14164718894315825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1878157901101112,0.0,0.3897424521138781,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20234756304829415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1911823405689943,0.19246169613752334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1884942413569357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.165557320158827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20179457459434927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19248569744392216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17430527215358982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19541917510381185,0.0,0.0,0.147035774770023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35582501852954435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14010106369391628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2076706650160252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14711145476113724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16100887512826598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14624326779521174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12506744249574697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15199368970396418,0.10865265112964156,0.0,0.14776326635315906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2682161731044336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,kitmunk,2019/01/07,"Looking at old mfp entries for motivation I've been going through mine from early 2018. I was a total maniac back then, spent most of the spring and early summer eating 40-400 calories with tons of fast days thrown in. With the added knowledge that I was walking so much, it's sort of crazy to look at the numbers again but makes me crave the drive I used to have. (not just lack of drive either. I was still in the healthy bmi range so even though I lost a lot from my hw rapidly everyone just assumed I was one of those inspiring nutrition+health gurus instead of an anorexic because I *did* look very healthy. Hair loss, etc hadn't set in yet.) Today I had 1700 and feel so depressed. I weigh less but I still feel like garbage because now I'm being watched to make sure I eat enough to gain, and I don't look good anymore. I look like a gargoyle with thinning hair and constant bloating from all the extra food with the added bonus of turning yellow which might be tied to organ failure. Just peachy.  


It wasn't fun back then for me, don't get me wrong. I still felt miserable. I just miss the constant state of anorexic mania where hunger stopped existing and I could live off of a rice cake and a single cashew for my incredibly filling dinner after fasting the day before and skipping breakfast and lunch. I miss feeling unstoppable and in control. Lettuce and cukes back in season when 🙃 ",4.6658888888888885,6.158489181481483,4.446851851851854,87.22583333333336,70.14814814814815,6.7333333333333325,29.42592592592593,6.961326702584282,1.5131259259259262,1109,43,213,9,20,338,169,270,0.155,0.722,0.123,-0.8064,0,0,0,0,0,0,25.0,0,0,0,6,21,15,1,1,15,0,16,10,2,5,3,44,36,19,0,2,8,0,7,2,0,1,0,1,0,0,5,14,8,2,8,0,2,5,5,8,0,1,12,15,23,7,34,20,13,44,0,6,7,0,0,10,0,5,29,143,28,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1166791727047501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.271401383700218,0.0,0.14343913775591294,0.0,0.10011318887191097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25428003669432625,0.13195672525163205,0.09393555077571338,0.0,0.0,0.15175161734966716,0.0,0.101333497582661,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2407747413626133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1215659692169995,0.1312130829832186,0.07770803822254091,0.0,0.0,0.11242153050592367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17846516293246042,0.08405061428191664,0.11296437295036466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14226526874765094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06146831553636384,0.0,0.06686434446171853,0.09868091795619728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12505857728146064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11495765143565395,0.0,0.1038888739244001,0.0,0.4939902545345377,0.0,0.12843105907033364,0.10002352547372614,0.0,0.0,0.15706725085424175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12481018253978672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0864877592437938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12345598570274045,0.0,0.07972404193001784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2818711241516182,0.09836234241787647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11088562024993016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11559249536286775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1115203419317873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12797159438314867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.101613555508179,0.0,0.09707522379403104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12863399570060174,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ehloveeash,2019/01/07,"Dealing with the consequences of ED This is just a post to remind everyone, that this disorder is NOT glamorous and that no one should EVER want this. 

I am 25 and have been a bulimic for 17ish years (YES 17). For my 25th birthday, I got the pleasure of going to a gastroenterologist, because after years and years of making myself purge, the lining of my esophagus is too thin and now I cant even enjoy normal meals without unintentionally wanting to regurgitate. But it doesn't stop there kids, that was just a diagnosis upon meeting me, I still have to have a colonoscopy and endoscopy ""to fully assess the damage"". So next time someone wants to ask for tips, or thinks that purging is the easy way to get rid of that full feeling, remember this post,  because no one should ever willingly choose to go through this hell. EVER. ",9.694545454545457,7.9773193636363695,9.157532467532466,68.59201298701302,59.90909090909091,11.657142857142858,38.883116883116884,10.290406445055957,3.9334000000000007,658,26,115,11,7,211,102,154,0.114,0.8170000000000001,0.07,-0.8429,0,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,0,0,0,11,5,1,0,10,1,15,1,0,1,3,27,26,8,0,6,6,0,2,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,11,6,1,1,4,0,0,2,6,2,0,2,3,2,8,3,21,20,1,20,1,1,0,0,4,3,1,1,12,89,19,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15481708462376886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20190093077549112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17073012098818333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18979616288847256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1093796678600133,0.4493940248094303,0.0,0.15824141167786396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08373419572645678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08652108702097831,0.0,0.18823277375644315,0.0,0.1324483899485031,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11054174138923846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17612139090809814,0.0,0.16225644402323805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.224434676932396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3172050939994199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1875966853291948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14031545946096352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13225131163710754,0.13845209053906332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10611215045391016,0.0,0.0,0.09656483673251708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.293032020818684,0.13144849184415774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15963603657505052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31993001843691
EDAnonymous,dullfiremaiden,2019/01/07,"Sibling is struggling with body image, it’s getting dangerous. How can I help from 1,500 miles away? Sorry is this isn’t the right place for this. My sister has a history of starving herself to stay thin. She thinks her size is the only good thing about her. To me, that’s obvious it’s not true, but I’ve learned that reasoning with her is nearly impossible when it comes to that. 

She lives 1,500 miles from me so it’s not like before where I could keep an eye on her and makes sure she eats. 

She is very small, maybe 5’2 and she recently said on the phone that she’s about 95 pounds. 

I bought a ticket to fly to her ASAP. I am trying to make psychiatry appointments on her behalf. The doctors won’t schedule the appointments without her consent so idk what to do. I don’t know what else to do. She’s saying some very scary things, is suicidal, is considering running to lose weight but I can tell she’s not eating. And obviously, she’s got no weight to lose. 

I tried to convince her that eating more protein and doing strength training will get her what she’s looking for, she’s not listening. She’s not open to therapy. 

She attempted suicide at 12 already. I don’t want her to get to that point again. Please help me, how do I calm her down, what do I do to help her?",2.2510149156939043,4.314979190661482,3.3247714007782108,90.29833738651104,78.10505836575877,6.617963683527888,23.54880025940337,7.6454224807358475,1.0127874189364463,1000,33,212,15,24,321,138,257,0.157,0.741,0.101,-0.9479,0,0,0,0,0,1,31.0,0,0,0,4,9,11,1,1,8,0,23,8,2,5,4,32,38,11,2,2,8,1,3,1,0,2,1,3,0,0,18,8,5,1,4,1,1,2,11,4,0,0,3,8,40,7,32,32,2,23,0,2,2,0,35,16,0,1,5,142,58,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1335176158631346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1136759116483478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10295523055592136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13439477108686929,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1042238440583279,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09660221991215076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12384037877265767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3714148848172188,0.10107324159675336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1896398866894768,0.0,0.0,0.10148229992602692,0.0967683082697426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2432950435278776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1075431966579428,0.0,0.0,0.06649400671757456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05911055097279851,0.0,0.10683810082971634,0.0,0.10160275808026174,0.2707180675156935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1615261206510255,0.0,0.12155266744294048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09201982345287366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12641082682075713,0.1328128183327934,0.114376492565794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12439986682027394,0.1194649454423128,0.0,0.0,0.10332645676859528,0.11509104303773425,0.09621764797070964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1354405725123486,0.0,0.1289613109196977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12648704719789824,0.0,0.26469109195800244,0.0,0.11403347278023815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10575228961871318,0.0,0.13836482941155887,0.0,0.16076333914092408,0.0775267505349191,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1642911720257099,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19966204572245497,0.07136418176295724,0.0,0.0,0.29467117813257165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11663191379117993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,yikesbecca,2019/01/07,"hahahaha :) tw / self harm 

god i just fucking LOVE it when my grandma makes comments on my eating habits! and on how it looks like i’ve gained weight during the holidays! it really doesn’t make me want to throw up my dinner and slit my wrists :)))

the worst part js that she often tells me to watch what i’m eating because i’m gaining weight not because i’ve ~~actually~~ gained weight, but in order for me to avoid gaining it. i don’t gain weight regardless of my shitty diet, but that doesn’t stop me from feeling like shit after each time i eat too much to the point that i throw it up, so thanks for accentuating that granny :)

whenever she comments on my weight i feel like absolute shit for such a long time afterwards. it’s almost as if she didn’t know about all of the bullying i faced because of being overweight in the past. well, she doesn’t know about how i lost it all to eating disorders, so how can i blame her for making such shitty fucking triggering comments :) 

i want to try and not cut at all in 2019, but stuff like this makes me feel like cutting deep to my fat, so i can see face to face what makes me so fucking disgusting",4.237167030567687,5.240547179039304,4.8320496724890845,85.91130594978168,70.6593886462882,7.995742358078602,26.102893013100434,8.278499904357787,1.4754735807860269,900,27,187,13,16,288,120,229,0.181,0.611,0.208,-0.3592,0,1,0,0,0,0,27.0,0,0,0,6,16,20,8,1,6,0,8,23,7,9,3,35,30,16,0,4,7,0,8,5,0,0,2,0,0,1,15,4,13,2,5,1,0,2,7,12,1,0,2,11,28,8,29,27,7,22,0,1,3,4,11,11,5,3,13,116,43,0,0.0,0.0,0.09126093678302016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0936456497136908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1710247240180833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10718073876798764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3827726457023067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14185786722219346,0.20042972003326334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2593700933156158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1027910616203164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22844300514417154,0.0,0.0,0.08276126608087032,0.07853230600903123,0.0,0.102086904947942,0.0,0.08440444057219766,0.0,0.3121228934896979,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06874713734351777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1012718338732658,0.08927435300192127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08840556973188693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059910589323209175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07452243956341796,0.0,0.09756058772481108,0.0,0.1919915731794319,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07818597131844546,0.0,0.0,0.1070567435959556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08173962327806016,0.08609962020060531,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10906322216938663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06349318089334391,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11031971702708024,0.0,0.0,0.5694040095562249,0.08408470443675732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Yoni1660,2019/01/07,Balding I looked at myself in the mirror and I realized how thin the sides of my head is getting. I’m already taking biotin. What do I do? I am absolutely freaked out. I’m actually considering shaving my head. Y’all please help. ,1.0880844155844152,3.679697613636364,3.75688311688312,79.32318181818184,95.5909090909091,6.150649350649352,26.740259740259727,7.447530270364453,2.209835064935064,181,9,32,4,7,63,34,44,0.059,0.8240000000000001,0.118,0.3626,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,0,4,3,3,1,0,4,9,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,8,0,4,9,0,5,0,0,1,0,2,5,0,0,0,21,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.3152713648219133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35651764250851736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16879162321527127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6631295182166882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21654814308418013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27129885108396146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3546356979251101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24290970336740356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,acrsita,2019/01/07,"recovery i trust future me to recover. i don't think i'm gonna have an ED forever. 

i trust that one day, i'll be how i used to be. i won't take 100 bodychecks a day, i will find comfort in things other than the elusive thigh gap and bones that stick out. one day, anorexia won't need to be my identity.

but i'm making a huge mistake here. i'm treating my future self like a seperate entity, like this is going to happen overnight and not take actual, difficult decisions on my conscious part. 

i know that recovery needs to start today, but i'm just not ready. i've heard that people often begin recovering and feel 'ready' for it when they realise their lives are at risk, but i realised that ages ago. i don't know what could push me into recovery.

i'm still counting on it. ",3.8374614065180097,4.673215993710691,5.186895368782164,83.6202401372213,71.45283018867924,8.54911377930246,27.66209262435677,8.841846274778883,2.0021773584905667,609,21,126,11,11,204,102,159,0.056,0.825,0.12,0.8294,0,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,0,2,0,7,9,0,1,5,0,12,2,2,3,0,26,33,8,0,4,6,0,1,2,0,4,0,1,0,1,11,5,0,0,7,0,0,2,6,3,0,2,1,2,16,6,13,24,1,21,0,0,0,0,4,7,0,1,14,74,27,0,0.0,0.0,0.1976499842705351,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17953963569876927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.161711840909756,0.0,0.0,0.3918649520867917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10241039307533867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18511804148607972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11510824330977512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1791055990108637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22262155560282632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1979017878407758,0.0,0.17884667640336946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1351971328880569,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3003619319416658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2744929151701533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2193312613006558,0.0,0.14041584822633088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2112935644642736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14335897125593292,0.0,0.1617488374012762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3045699952918185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13455868585069794,0.12977955951896564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19198439402068668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17492967238620538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Sirensing,2019/01/07,"I’m sick of being alone I’m sick of waking up everyday and thinking about how I can avoid eating/how to avoid calories. I’m sick of being a disordered monster that can’t eat a full meal without feeling like a complete fucking whale. I’m sick of binging and purging and passing out on the shower floor in a puddle of my own vomit. I’m sick of my brain telling me that if I don’t walk 10km and eat under 800 calories a day, I am a failure and a disgrace. I’m sick of looking at myself in passing in windows of stores and seeing nothing but a overstuffed sausage in skinny jeans. I’m sick of seeing the scale go down and my self hatred and disgust grow. 

It’s been a week since i promised myself that I would at least try to stop purging, and that’s been a success thus far, but to cope, I’ve instead been restricting. I just want to enjoy my last 2 months abroad but this silent internal hell never ends. ",5.883031914893621,4.987603792553191,6.429234042553194,82.45300000000003,66.92553191489361,8.371063829787236,34.22553191489361,6.742157984588678,2.141285531914893,715,29,146,4,10,234,109,188,0.263,0.667,0.07,-0.987,1,3,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,1,4,9,3,2,12,0,10,15,3,2,1,27,25,14,0,3,6,0,1,1,0,1,8,0,2,1,6,10,4,4,2,0,1,5,4,5,0,0,3,4,13,4,26,19,3,27,1,0,3,1,2,14,2,1,9,87,19,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20756732529916225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22372707936938474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21012911493038705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12924974216632978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2296905488684403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4101448641509423,0.0,0.0,0.17750634563876366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10133478508081784,0.14317501736838245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18527849866346807,0.0,0.0,0.11389927083128693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16336326403796125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09791162076295112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16829636255974614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15996766647683225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1545707852318553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19230158481643556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31940627099780944,0.0,0.2090743654132419,0.0,0.0,0.1657836237007239,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1675541601259206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17516971006963025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12841649540455197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1360672051380855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11820872223045993,0.0,0.1607591414163008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1931908859593323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1423675755881605,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,erikafei,2019/01/07,"""dark chocolate is better for you anyway"" My dad when I said they stopped selling the white hot chocolate in my favourite café. Little does he know that hot chocolate was the only thing I ate all day. 🙃🙃🙃
Thanks Dad, for constantly commenting on what/how much I'm eating, for teaching me everything I know about yo-yo dieting, and being a large contribution to the eating disorder I have today. 
(The ironic thing being, that he is overweight/possibly obese/the heaviest in our family, but still feels the need to comment on the eating habits/ weights of everyone else) ",7.73,7.987848619047616,7.5302380952380945,72.2439285714286,62.80952380952381,10.809523809523812,36.54761904761904,10.504223727775694,3.9974761904761897,455,20,76,10,6,145,74,105,0.047,0.912,0.04,0.09,0,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,1,1,1,1,4,2,0,0,7,0,6,6,0,0,1,8,14,3,0,1,1,2,4,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,4,1,6,1,3,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,3,6,10,2,11,9,2,11,0,0,1,0,10,5,0,0,6,45,14,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16552488067031695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20224989019382644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12070058013480922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21449777798570865,0.0,0.16378207816448598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5745240440629771,0.15634539670454525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1788362350094966,0.1682043624907774,0.0,0.1764346681402729,0.0,0.0946320444597158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2057128413910063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1875801683649209,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13758169959047908,0.13877431207885174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14234109419207427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17802886794374315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14946357212987674,0.15647137079138992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1723087322473213,0.0,0.0,0.2486771734680615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17740265577510222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2279064246615224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,thinsponeeded,2019/01/07,"Meipai美拍 is the worst Meipai is a Chinese microvideo blogging platform, and I use it to practice my Chinese, keep up with memes and local trends and stuff, but it's super triggering. I don't want to give it up, because I enjoy a lot of the vids, but I watched one the other day where a teeny girl literally sits on her boyfriend's outstretched arm. He stands with his left arm straight and palm firmly pressed against the wall. Then, his gf climbs up on a bed/chair and seats herself on his arm, swinging her legs. LIKE WTF?!?! I've been doing better, ED thoughts are still intrusive, but I'm trying to be more okay with just mild restriction (1200 a day) and not getting so upset over maintenance days. But seeing that makes want to fast again...

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I feel like my New Year's Resolution of developing a healthier relationship with food is already shot.",9.969947089947091,7.6741800864197565,8.586331569664903,74.72277777777778,59.8641975308642,11.47936507936508,41.04409171075838,9.606745405546679,3.7873869488536136,682,29,129,9,7,208,113,162,0.106,0.741,0.154,0.8877,0,0,0,0,0,0,29.0,0,0,0,3,5,8,0,1,10,1,8,6,5,3,0,26,19,12,0,2,6,0,2,2,1,0,0,0,0,1,6,10,1,2,2,1,0,1,2,2,0,1,2,4,13,6,18,16,3,25,0,0,2,0,11,13,0,1,11,76,19,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21425409099974926,0.0,0.0,0.2103660960575039,0.23591871803627795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11835465533659087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1717136949558094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3756403722689632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09817024455535056,0.138703866180413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23477214256053494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10143760501135972,0.1862504900040267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1725732570507709,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21094920814306972,0.0,0.0,0.18970796153450672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1650630374415447,0.0,0.0,0.1295994986469676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1875154266631947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1315639741326905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2084490511685716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1547158348012478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15505186971155865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2222602152262624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15413682191637146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13181802076863988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1676869720196057,0.0,0.0,0.22903446552306236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23591871803627795,0.1250289995147334
EDAnonymous,RachAgainstLeMachine,2019/01/07,"Which chain has the best coffee? Just a fun little question out of curiosity. 

My friends are always hyped about Starbucks, but I honestly don’t like it. In my opinion, McDonald’s has the best coffee. 

I could just be bias because I work there so get their coffee every day for free and I get to make it EXACTLY like I want it, but I just think it tastes better. 

What’s your favorite place to get coffee?",1.6778194444444452,4.169536587499998,2.9216666666666704,89.9477777777778,83.125,5.555555555555557,21.38888888888889,6.937597516519254,0.6248472222222219,317,10,63,4,9,102,57,80,0.017,0.599,0.384,0.9888,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,1,1,4,6,9,0,0,3,0,6,1,0,1,1,14,12,4,0,2,5,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,6,2,1,0,2,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,10,10,7,10,2,5,0,0,0,0,4,4,0,2,3,42,16,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2011706933903125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14737978502817953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5074420824490657,0.21382452069173116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1930324107690418,0.0,0.0,0.15592063011931032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20370032152604373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1867896818250545,0.0,0.37894206301809,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23623167597063524,0.24231547202737905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16138229794197884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2525965414739849,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2708359620872672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15491544157530476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1426012783224975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1760102894582112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,PandaApex22,2019/01/07,"Helpful Depression How fucked up is it that as much as my depression kills me and makes my life absolutely miserable,  I don't want it to go away or get medication like the therapist suggested because it makes it SO easy to not eat.  The thought of food makes me feel sick and nothing sounds good,  all I want to do is sleep and cry and as fucking horrible is that is.....  It's better than eating.  ",7.03923076923077,6.050538179487183,7.445769230769232,76.4117307692308,64.64102564102564,11.902564102564106,36.16666666666667,11.20814326018867,3.848605128205128,310,13,64,8,4,102,54,78,0.326,0.5589999999999999,0.115,-0.9692,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,1,2,9,3,1,2,0,6,9,1,4,1,15,17,10,1,2,2,0,1,1,0,0,3,1,0,0,7,4,3,0,2,0,0,1,2,6,0,0,1,2,6,3,10,16,2,3,0,3,0,2,2,2,2,1,1,41,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1712410913691281,0.0,0.0,0.11110518630887796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1611958736696413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2002061816096976,0.0,0.0,0.3139638819472107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3729989306417493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09215711270748997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22039186008476644,0.0,0.0,0.3369964513170101,0.09522434053364312,0.0,0.10358366015113593,0.15287266705843586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12216633578241702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20164583113000054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12873699762843244,0.08904397698014514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3649837786716147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.183609728595226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13398349647877708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17488524608428724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1823935663739396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2116201589950724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14469562069505051,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21500562771041995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,xerox13ster,2019/01/07,"What level of activity is enough to count as exercise when estimating TDEE using losertown or JustCICO? I went to calculate my TDEE and estimate where I'd be in a few months but I'm not sure what my activity level counts as.

I live a mile from work so everyday (6d/wk) I ride my bike at least 4mi (2mi round trip and I go home on lunch), and once or twice a week pack on an extra 6 or so miles to go to therapy or run errands. Otherwise at my job I'm basically sedentary.

My problem is I don't know if that's enough bike riding to say I actually exercised each day. It's not like I'm riding very long when I do, It's only a mile each way and I can make it in about 5 min. But it's also not like it's a leisurely ride either, I do usually try to push myself.

I can say I exercise every day (or 5-7x/wk), but then it seems like the numbers are wayyyyy off, for instance JustCICO says I will hit 200 before March if I exercise 5-7x/wk, but saying the same on Losertown puts me at 200 two weeks later, but it calls my daily activity ""Very active, strenuous exercise 6-7x/week"". So I do exercise 6-7 times a week, sometimes ""twice a day"" considering errands, but in my mind I'd hardly call my physical activity strenuous. When I think strenuous I think of putting 5-10mi in a single ride, or a dedicated workout for a set amount of time.

Even so, do my daily bike rides count enough to say I exercise every day? Should I just pick 1-3x or 3-5x weekly?",3.8766108714408993,3.9283597672131134,6.262001725625543,78.75862812769631,71.0,10.093183779119931,29.495254529767042,10.064110947511567,2.712901639344263,1119,41,244,28,19,403,156,305,0.054000000000000006,0.916,0.03,-0.6745,1,0,0,0,0,0,45.0,0,0,0,1,13,5,0,0,13,0,13,8,0,3,1,38,26,30,0,4,20,0,2,3,0,2,7,5,1,0,10,6,1,0,4,11,0,14,4,1,0,3,1,7,29,4,27,21,12,54,0,0,1,0,7,17,0,10,24,140,39,2,0.0,0.0,0.10291293186049663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08433565572952517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08973798153396792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2153711959413934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2720497466701914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3269025237437464,0.0,0.06965478352684644,0.0,0.17770778897376174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11986974695738775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09447069707891116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10578414058338106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1046519481256754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0579575988001909,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15456606244337867,0.0,0.09312237433312102,0.09332804195424098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07039481119107424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1064836930915908,0.0,0.08417649894504169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.112310568351366,0.0,0.08020644675539541,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10091017783156983,0.0,0.21203117662864585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4193268020582744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09600606256906608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10430181024989334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09939401445999384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1206017454347876,0.0,0.0,0.13514794868265154,0.0,0.0,0.12298817377132835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07159985015734184,0.0,0.1030182798764052,0.0,0.0,0.09108285801844257,0.11614837051097494,0.17402971053854274,0.0,0.0837085760404149,0.4229649027166024,0.0,0.0,0.0977617020187308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07677552775058206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Waterweightless,2019/01/07,"ED culture is wearing gloves inside because your fingers are cold all the time I look like a freaking maniac right now sitting at my desk and studying while wearing a huge sweater, several pairs of socks and of course gloves. What a glamorous life🙃",10.75304347826087,8.733007782608697,8.771304347826089,73.1421739130435,58.1304347826087,10.93913043478261,46.91304347826088,8.841846274778883,4.496469565217392,202,11,34,2,2,60,40,46,0.118,0.72,0.162,0.29600000000000004,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,1,0,0,1,4,1,0,4,0,2,3,3,0,1,3,3,3,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,3,3,2,3,3,1,7,0,0,1,0,2,3,0,0,4,18,4,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2988786553021401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34630913296750554,0.23953286958715034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4117234537728064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4187083741689999,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5538926330545036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2858943585968737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,whatismyu,2019/01/07,"Decided to not let a small binge get the better of me, went for a run to burn it off. Still gained 3 pounds. Like normally I’d go all out and eat everything, I decided to be positive and I’m still punished??? Wtf??",-0.6193333333333335,1.5523522888888903,2.2816666666666663,92.0625,92.77777777777777,7.444444444444445,20.833333333333336,8.344100000000001,1.4970000000000003,163,6,38,5,6,57,37,45,0.13,0.63,0.24,0.6966,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,2,2,3,1,0,3,0,2,1,0,0,1,8,6,2,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,1,0,2,0,0,3,1,1,0,0,1,0,2,2,7,3,1,8,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,3,21,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.296664086041039,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34323269055850425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3014664216301746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17525040381101442,0.0,0.19063485415575968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3430039587391573,0.0,0.16387609339437542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32865406937290464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5357560004607843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3109506490071217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,rabbitdoll,2019/01/07,"Is anyone else frustrated that where they lose weight last and gain weight first happens to be their biggest insecurity spot? Honestly the biggest problem I have is my stomach. I gained about 20 lbs from a medication and the first place it went was my stomach. But i'm currently 1 bmi point away from being underweight and for some reason, i'm losing weight everywhere except my stomach. Ive lost a little bit there so its not as big as before but its frustrating because I feel like its not gonna go away until im underweight. It makes me ridiculously insecure.",7.620786163522013,7.763427367924527,7.664150943396231,71.5806918238994,63.0566037735849,11.217610062893083,35.59119496855346,10.864195022040775,3.974621383647799,455,19,79,11,6,147,77,106,0.194,0.725,0.08199999999999999,-0.8922,1,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,2,7,4,11,3,2,4,0,7,7,3,2,0,13,16,9,0,1,5,0,4,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,6,3,3,0,2,0,0,2,2,9,0,2,3,4,10,2,11,10,2,16,0,3,0,0,2,9,0,1,6,50,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1082590588085952,0.15863917429714244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2909312562261168,0.0,0.0,0.09438146874572563,0.0,0.1317468851859392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16903164071392435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12933859391228664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07828548730855478,0.11060886936460604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2633925572866912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08799209386988903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13691353657769076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16724037804429664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12620515969248136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07564094539189971,0.15517793125688836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34642496516363824,0.16901261646251706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1033486261797162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15597251970439086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16176189007092734,0.0,0.1463621280110807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14814910459999836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15918856072314574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5656149230604275,0.0,0.14352673763414686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,parawhour,2019/01/07,"Wanna know what sounds good rn? Canned water chestnuts raw with olive oil, salt, garlic, and pepper. 

So that’s what I’m eating during this binge phase I’m in. 

Oh AND yesterday I put smart balance butter on a glaze donut and I did it again today. I posted it on r/confessions lmao ",0.5735714285714302,3.0718563571428597,2.100714285714286,92.46928571428577,92.57142857142857,4.228571428571429,14.142857142857142,5.985473137389443,-0.5979928571428572,220,4,43,2,8,71,46,56,0.0,0.826,0.174,0.8591,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,1,0,2,2,0,0,0,6,5,4,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,6,4,2,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,4,3,2,5,4,0,8,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,3,22,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4632567952972452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3797292485969771,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2488090950389586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4335911121691618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4551196587603039,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4291360125351983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,imperfectcontrol,2019/01/07,Might eat expired shirataki noodles 🙃 They expired back in November but I have four packs of them and HATE wasting food. I can’t believe I’m actually planning to do this...this is a new low folks. ,0.6600000000000001,3.166710769230772,2.6783333333333346,87.43750000000001,95.15384615384615,5.676923076923077,29.57692307692308,7.1686216300943375,2.177953846153846,156,9,30,3,6,52,35,39,0.299,0.701,0.0,-0.9239,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,2,1,1,2,1,0,1,0,5,2,0,0,0,3,7,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,0,0,4,0,3,6,0,4,0,1,0,0,2,2,0,1,2,17,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.3376068002346893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2660216846779958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.389778155348996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35400318221630905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4183358899734401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34156361826260107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3670086118007023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33413007199808803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,spookyblacksgirlfrnd,2019/01/07,"When I start to feel hungry I look in the mirror naked Sounds a little goofy but I do it a lot. Actually, just did it! While I’m fasting I feel so much better and I look so much better. If I start to feel hungry or want to eat, I stand in front of my mirror and touch my stomach and legs and think to myself “do you really want to stop looking like this?”. It helps. I’m not at my GW now but damn if I keep this up I will be! 

Also I’m not saying this to encourage anyone to fast but I’m just getting it off my chest ig ",-1.3501465201465166,0.5096167264957288,1.6880891330891323,97.84480769230773,91.13675213675215,4.368498168498169,13.485347985347984,5.773587663045528,-1.08332673992674,395,6,99,3,14,139,67,117,0.055,0.757,0.188,0.9466,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,1,0,2,7,5,1,0,3,0,5,4,3,0,0,23,22,15,0,4,10,0,4,1,0,1,0,2,0,0,7,4,1,2,4,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,1,9,15,4,13,19,3,16,0,0,3,0,4,6,1,4,9,66,22,0,0.0,0.0,0.19104396078044894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15655775629271926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1368874237902703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3462865461166308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20032229804753093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2969626411619,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10228210945774187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13122097205948874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17400999131603384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09564367418032264,0.19621366999333836,0.0,0.0,0.4931942401005146,0.0,0.0,0.1664372464347196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2878279770817953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12541572199953901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1556847165431158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2771350150441357,0.0,0.0,0.16367306938406911,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12544195826956792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2309412596009325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,LikeaPandaButUgly,2019/01/07,"Freaking about residential My outpatient therapist suggested I go back to a higher level of care. Mostly for depression and anxiety. But because I have less than “ideal” eating habits, I’m stuck in the ED residential program, which I’m headed to the day after tomorrow.

The thing is my disordered eating stuff isn’t a high concern right now. My BMI is on the higher end of “healthy” and I cant stand the idea of gaining lbs. 

Last time I was there, there were a couple people larger than me and I think that helped because when I saw them I was like “regardless of your weight, I know you deserve to be here” and that made me feel a little less horrible about being there at my weight. But this time, i just know I’ll be the biggest and look like an fat moron for taking up space there.

Today was gross. I purged twice. I ate half a tortilla with cheese but couldn’t get it out.

I’m so conflicted. I want to fast in my last day of freedom. I want to waterload to prove to them I don’t deserve to be there. I want to put all my body image shit in a little box and focus on recovering so I can feel like a person. I’m so scared and ashamed and disgusted with what I am. 

I’m sorry. I just don’t know how I’m going to actually do this or if I even can. ",1.4443243243243238,3.4324509150579168,3.4395891891891885,88.85473513513516,80.3899613899614,6.615042471042472,21.5569111969112,7.699297019823105,0.8660723088803088,973,29,209,16,25,329,143,259,0.131,0.768,0.101,-0.8676,0,0,0,0,0,0,22.0,0,2,2,2,18,13,3,2,14,0,20,9,4,2,2,37,45,18,0,7,7,0,4,3,0,0,1,0,0,1,9,11,6,1,8,0,0,3,5,8,0,2,8,6,31,5,32,32,4,33,0,1,2,0,7,15,1,3,17,141,40,1,0.0,0.0,0.1280658921279006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10039399482985872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10091119121407456,0.0,0.15999860494805526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14577188894787538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13380226780518378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14520842249394664,0.0,0.16927072662605258,0.0,0.11303203924247332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15040604899646035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2685712095558026,0.0,0.0,0.11623477000187032,0.0,0.0,0.08667911633722973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13271216186296855,0.09375391710049084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06856458347554215,0.0,0.14916712414774924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.134684406550427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08796368534256503,0.13865640139843913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1481477198196096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21636906446311704,0.21394718429785026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19234356967247476,0.2630627902890289,0.0,0.0,0.11020388552245408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12417720943950858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09098144347629837,0.11458885954514315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13192686916491933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1120735030064032,0.0,0.0,0.13138857820267136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13471027674590874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14690622213676086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1502320473602116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09867197385922573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15237331101703802,0.08718633705247647,0.08408973636452753,0.0,0.0,0.15304772598022084,0.0,0.12439491349131825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2322164358332432,0.0,0.0,0.3196164099800876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,blondecurlyhair,2019/01/07,"I’m so tired My life is bullshit. 

My boyfriend has a lot of growing up to do. I’m being bullied at work. My depression is at a high. 

And I’m relapsing again. I don’t care because I look disgusting and want to kill myself all the time when I see my reflection but I’m already so tired and feel like shit all the time it’s just going to get worse. 

The only thing keeping me going is my doggy tbh and the hope that one day I can be a normal and happy person (ha ha ha). ",0.8000862998921257,2.221921155339807,3.3082847896440164,91.7276267529666,80.16504854368931,6.131175836030206,22.124056094929887,6.937597516519254,0.5083169363538298,361,11,84,4,9,126,67,103,0.228,0.608,0.163,-0.8375,0,0,0,0,0,1,9.0,0,0,0,1,5,11,3,0,7,3,9,4,1,0,2,16,23,9,1,3,2,0,1,1,0,0,3,0,0,1,3,5,0,1,2,0,0,3,1,4,0,1,0,3,11,7,7,21,3,12,0,1,2,0,1,4,1,2,6,52,14,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21243726775642954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1173510362795766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19627464612698925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12415167737126973,0.0,0.16580678240543922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09733778445492357,0.1375276907018538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10057743847884976,0.0,0.21881336531985046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20492825185125954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20339517830404116,0.0,0.19120379327325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17110987727061253,0.21298148205950335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1359740312861594,0.09404964178742238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1616581616107773,0.0,0.0,0.1636633425202603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1886168803286913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13044834322420962,0.14641094171271068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16809048326493986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15340388167370236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19760660511725409,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12789370264634825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2245058230331764,0.4425190512638636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11354615412648165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14014805259649427,0.0,0.19618200860230925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,travelers-unite,2019/01/08,"First Compliment on my Weight! Picked up my mother in law from the airport—first thing she says is that she almost didn’t recognize me because I’m “so skinny”

Now it finally feels like the last few months have been worth it!",3.231136363636363,5.4297462045454585,3.45,89.92000000000002,75.5909090909091,7.127272727272729,22.363636363636363,8.07648339933343,1.0819272727272726,179,5,36,3,4,55,39,44,0.0,0.825,0.175,0.7955,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,1,2,2,0,0,2,0,4,2,1,1,0,4,6,1,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,4,0,2,0,1,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,2,3,5,2,4,4,1,8,0,0,0,0,4,3,0,1,6,23,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3115377254505838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1896534210943276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1573095935824412,0.222261326901878,0.0,0.34081236208797205,0.0,0.5292702078496415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25360105763896595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15199555865178968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24832981665409865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2474119241791405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2066916408434132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3788554632103846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,duskedfur,2019/01/08,"i've got those bulimia bloat blues!! so i'm in a weird ""recovery"" place right now where i'm recovering from my bulimic tendencies, but keeping my restrictive tendencies b/c i still want to lose the rest of the weight. i'm extremely determined to end my B/Ping once and for all and i really think i can do it but i'm having a really hard time dealing with the ""bulimia bloat"" of actually eating food and digesting it. my calorie limit daily is 650 and today and yesterday i went over (yesterday i ate about 750, today about 950... sad face) and i'm so fuckin bloated. i feel really horrible about overeating and i want to purge SO BAD because of the guilt but i know it will only set my recovery back :( i've decided to stop purging because my digestion is so fucked from it and b/ping basically ruined my life but i guess i didn't think about how tempting it would be to purge even when i'm at a deficit. i want to be able to digest food in less than 24 hours but the weight ""gain"" from undigested food and water retention is killing me. i know if i keep it up in a few weeks things will start to get better, but fuck this sucks so badly, i want to cry :( has anyone else gone through this? ",2.222791399471898,4.188163925311205,4.056546586193889,85.49041022255754,77.79668049792531,8.365220671444737,24.647491512636734,9.095868883498916,2.013695435684648,930,33,195,24,22,314,136,241,0.277,0.6759999999999999,0.047,-0.9973,0,0,0,0,0,0,30.0,0,0,0,4,16,13,5,1,9,0,13,16,1,1,1,36,40,23,1,6,7,0,4,0,0,3,4,0,0,0,10,10,11,5,6,0,0,2,1,12,0,0,5,5,22,1,30,30,4,27,0,3,1,3,1,10,4,2,14,116,32,0,0.11864691282055954,0.0,0.11578227188993187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0829606801222652,0.12156778322813767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09123215232215176,0.1981304326406158,0.14465211362916552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10493355265068474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13032806250356485,0.0,0.12231975734953765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12140541204968988,0.0991142712222514,0.0,0.10508594848954547,0.0,0.0,0.07836516693229464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059991444062924226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4304049538150683,0.0,0.0,0.2193743181034498,0.061988114978005514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0948927747843578,0.0,0.13070295084307354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10628432925853193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11684330952766846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21091765522252034,0.13126523003334195,0.0,0.13041048080269724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08380382333123187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13273554674126578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12635508993755612,0.0,0.09023632363468964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12396077118935535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2280247514420583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10132381527304006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08397889556670098,0.0,0.09475157784096416,0.0991941317750638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07882373685895594,0.1520483019660986,0.0,0.0,0.06918396899886654,0.0,0.2249268006690217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27992409286831443,0.0,0.0951713967931958,0.2889599523020563,0.0,0.10998687685721298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08428336272149457,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,saladsquares,2019/01/08,"Noone will answer my questions. So ive had an ed for a while.. but no bulimia or anything.. just anorexia..this is a gross topic and im not sure my problems belong on this sub but i want answers. 

I had problems pooping regularly, ive thought about using laxatives to encourage it but im really afraid of falling into the habit of abusing them when thats not what i want out of it.

My questions are, does using them actually make you loose weight if your using them just to be able to go, or do you stay the same.. i dont want a  weight loss to trigger me and i start using them

Second question, do laxatives screw up your digestive system in anyway like..i know holding stuff in can weaken your muscles down there, but would using laxatives and just physically not being able to hold it in for whatever reason also weaken the muscles or destroy my stomach or anything?

Any answeers are greatly appreciated❤",3.7048484848484833,5.73148872727273,5.211000000000002,78.60066666666668,73.6590909090909,7.420606060606061,29.915151515151514,8.238735603445708,2.4047110606060604,720,32,127,12,15,242,109,176,0.16899999999999998,0.742,0.08900000000000001,-0.9543,0,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,5,4,1,9,10,2,1,7,0,15,6,2,8,1,45,28,16,0,7,15,0,2,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,7,5,3,2,8,0,0,2,5,7,0,1,3,2,21,3,19,21,1,16,0,1,0,1,13,8,1,8,4,94,28,0,0.24146566696568625,0.14304866529813898,0.11781782955864765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09655000331665832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08210246687360334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19870566970455703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10565411618504343,0.0,0.14149798167066766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06861525155753917,0.0,0.0,0.13310837513917892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26082435603942833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06635160784580159,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05898396398873908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08059010385561415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2310500326355262,0.0,0.0,0.4057452135232695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07734454466999613,0.12413346084538428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08545532094764,0.12868513647806226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1382102092605182,0.0,0.0,0.11378926674318535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09584838379701036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5213720203928307,0.0,0.0,0.21363405980410274,0.0,0.0,0.2940401311347826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08576514091199326,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,thrawoway11,2019/01/08,"so im really gonna have to spend thousands of dollars to like how i look anyway like i did all of this work for nothing. the body i want doesn’t exist on me. 

i think im really ready to start saving up for a tummy tuck/body lift kind of procedure. the 70 lbs ive lost has been a lot on my 5-foot frame, and i don’t think my skin is as elastic as it should be since i was obese from elementary school even though im only 19. im where i always wanted to be but im surrounded in loose.. stuff. i can see my ribs and my spine and my pelvic bones but other places are droopy. i don’t look perky and thin, i look weird and sunken. i really don’t think losing more will help. think surgery might be my only option here. healthy weight loss hasn’t helped, restricting and purging hasn’t helped, and i feel like the more i lose the worse i look but at this point i can’t stand how food feels in me. 

has anyone had success with.. idk... snapping back over time lmao. or working it out with a therapist. or any other procedure short of a tummy tuck/body lift? i might try to post on weight loss subs for recommendations too but idk if they still like ban users from ED subreddits ",3.266757532281204,3.9530185691056943,4.15596843615495,91.04003586800577,72.65853658536584,7.576853180296509,21.787661406025826,7.724431198458867,0.5407018651362985,912,18,212,11,17,294,143,246,0.138,0.7440000000000001,0.117,-0.5151,0,0,0,0,0,0,27.0,0,0,1,8,11,13,0,0,8,0,25,9,5,2,1,36,41,20,0,4,7,0,6,4,0,5,1,0,0,0,7,10,4,2,6,0,2,0,7,6,0,1,5,11,26,7,27,28,4,21,0,5,5,0,4,15,0,7,8,122,33,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.078491029591597,0.0,0.0,0.06414838085905124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0659584964817274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07253479104911609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.314341750755025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06230480005438754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09539327417100474,0.06739015470042108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11406553719219953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.189684438152086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5094688614622289,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0982313216916834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1843416370107972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31685745507509216,0.21106473765236747,0.10297353580378066,0.08019692554235315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2001407742561527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09051323190394486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14348610031188294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09855591924168594,0.0,0.08917337737570039,0.0,0.09034311561066694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18129274908995405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0954681064810291,0.07516967139401359,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07803165840897147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06676803613003401,0.0,0.07533293609033527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10798653779675133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10952567443819164,0.0,0.24177423269682094,0.0926798240710458,0.0,0.0550052213781089,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06404462295483154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11127785034666199,0.0,0.0,0.2297397269307113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13734832450456014,0.0,0.09613144699571946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,kickkkasss,2019/01/08,"I’m so tired!!!! I am so tired of having an eating disorder. Every single day is consumed by thoughts of food. I wanna eat everything all the time. I’m constantly bitchy when I’m restricting. I’m depressed when I’m bingeing. Over Christmas I tried to relax with the obsessive thoughts and I just ended up gaining 10 pounds in 2 weeks and hating myself. The worst part of it is, recovery wouldn’t be any better. I’d still obsess about food, just with no chance of being skinny. I’ve had an eating disorder for 8 years and I am just so tired. I wish I could just be normal about food. ",1.8824358974358968,4.181455811965815,3.4415598290598304,87.75413461538461,80.62393162393163,6.293162393162394,21.71581196581197,7.492282038375204,0.949473504273504,458,14,90,7,12,151,74,117,0.276,0.623,0.102,-0.9725,0,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,0,2,12,7,1,2,5,0,11,10,1,0,1,18,20,8,0,5,4,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,1,5,7,1,2,1,0,0,2,5,0,0,3,0,8,2,15,12,4,12,0,1,0,0,0,3,0,0,9,58,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0911312859535424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1185208124539278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14481702815562644,0.0,0.10699595200903396,0.0,0.0,0.08642525983589712,0.0,0.11542247801526895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3071737712599644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4113765628521077,0.0,0.0,0.11869294117901252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11290906920445935,0.0,0.12043940234223005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4861356879831543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13230697192842428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1313011892952143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14511959653778247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1070204305803552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21277768633766936,0.07814221483407968,0.4620737890650252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09098388408442644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10749460954452017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15410470133101534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08629794266905448
EDAnonymous,Danie99,2019/01/08,"Housemate knows about my bulimia Broke, decided I had to b/p drove to the shop at 1am 

And when I came home one of my housemates came down as I was putting on the pizza and just said, so it's been one of those days.

She knows, I know she knows, she knows I know she knows. Neither of us will state that we know.",-0.08785714285714262,1.7329250882352945,1.3868067226890766,102.42205882352944,84.88235294117645,5.0621848739495805,18.537815126050425,6.18269132825596,-0.5187126050420168,238,6,62,2,7,76,47,68,0.045,0.955,0.0,-0.4215,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,2,0,0,0,4,1,0,0,2,0,4,1,0,0,0,15,16,5,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,3,5,1,0,9,1,1,4,1,1,0,2,7,1,13,0,10,8,1,10,0,1,0,0,7,3,0,0,2,40,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4096297015639736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11548898729178148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17962748970785547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7873224038733734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2426926058808289,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18002050112410736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17034196227194207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.215405972123286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,PeachyyAsian,2019/01/08,DAE have a hard time looking in the mirror? I always try to avoid looking at myself in the mirror. Even walking past windows is difficult. Fitting rooms are an absolute nightmare. Maybe if I force myself to look it'll motivate me to lose weight faster. ,3.5129787234042524,6.3224620000000025,4.144085106382981,82.09400000000002,77.93617021276594,6.313191489361702,28.54893617021277,7.554174236665415,2.1194459574468087,202,9,33,3,5,64,39,47,0.17800000000000002,0.769,0.053,-0.6369,0,1,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,2,1,3,0,1,4,0,4,1,0,1,0,3,7,1,0,1,1,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,1,0,1,1,1,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,0,5,5,0,6,6,0,9,0,1,3,0,0,5,0,1,3,21,6,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2245287562359813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17822698130641895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24172391772344015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6797937037736843,0.3018822869118868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2710908626428322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2575931110957753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15734605606235771,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18320385922406304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3285928048984907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,arielperro,2019/01/08,we love recovery🤪 gaining enough weight that you actually want to have sex again but being afraid of your disgusting morbidly obese body is such a good look !!!!! we love recovery ‼️,7.515454545454546,8.241736454545453,7.293484848484847,72.16022727272728,63.24242424242425,12.660606060606062,34.68181818181819,12.161744961471696,4.597436363636363,145,6,26,5,2,46,30,33,0.098,0.552,0.35,0.8972,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,2,2,0,1,2,5,1,1,1,0,3,6,1,0,0,4,7,1,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,4,3,2,6,1,1,0,0,1,3,6,0,0,0,1,15,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.31249979254963683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35570505385059803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3308847877749452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26859502544736125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2689138442071413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5780429414567977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1888808612991991,0.0,0.0,0.3899557491642112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,violaceousmeep,2019/01/08,"does anyone watch mukbangs to stop themselves from eating i feel like this might be a common thing, but whenever i have the urge to binge (which is often bc im a fatass) i try to cope with it by watching ppl eat food??? like massive amounts of food that is probably equivalent or a little more than what i'd binge on. not because i feel ""full"" when i watch them (in fact i get even more hungry), but because watching someone eat food makes me not want to eat? like, i feel like by me watching them eat while i sit there and continue fasting or restricting or whatever, it gives me a sense of really fucked up and short-term pride and like a messed up self-esteem boost? i mean all these mukbangers are way thinner than i am so jokes on me :)))))",7.5040637065637075,5.723270777027029,7.166525096525097,81.33986486486488,64.20270270270271,10.34903474903475,33.98069498069498,8.841846274778883,2.5669100386100383,577,19,121,7,7,182,96,148,0.101,0.737,0.162,0.8693,0,0,0,0,0,0,24.0,0,0,2,1,5,9,1,0,6,0,7,9,0,1,2,23,16,11,0,1,7,0,3,5,0,1,0,0,0,0,8,4,8,2,4,1,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,8,16,7,17,14,5,15,0,0,5,1,3,7,1,5,11,74,24,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08622707703944098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1503474769907595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10791674342386763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6309274346826467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08145062548090308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1870604313259277,0.17619734745357168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4473512157334468,0.0,0.0,0.1140058531324906,0.06442876261212915,0.1182982248596892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13320500954314482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3012356516591869,0.12359741143663484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08231597475158589,0.0,0.0,0.1343298654245423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13082131098379068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1329580686246284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07900091055391764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12864796276423246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10448726131041654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10309968565618537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0819272506042256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0837250836822529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07273637428411649,0.09788438828439804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ClarityByHilarity,2019/01/08,"Just a reminder to get your protein!!! Some ideas below! Don’t let your bodies eat away at themselves ladies and gents. It’s possible to pack on the protein and not the calories!! 

Egg whites! Again I say I’m sick of them BUT I make them many many ways!

Egg whites with veggies scramble, no oil and approx 120 calories! Add the tortillas I have in my profile which are low carb, packed with protein and under 50 calories with some salsa and I’m full nearly all day! 

Rinse your ground beef in hot water when you cook it! Then throw it back in the wipes out pan. Research this, when rinsed even the leanest is lower in fat and calories then ground turkey! Add veggies and eat up mofos! Get crazy with it, make a taco salad with rice cakes 😂 (or a sensible amount of baked tortillas and loads of lettuce, that’s probably better, but much less 

Bumblebee thai (or any variation) tuna package! The key is to get bumblebee brand, it tastes the best and not so wet and mush! $1 and 90 calories and full of protein. 

Lunch meat. It’s easy, I’m lazy. And it’s like 50 calories for 1/4 of the package. 

Fat free feta!! I can’t emphasize this one enough. It’s 35 calories for 1/4 of the package. Toss it with lemons and spaghetti squash (cook the squash but after seeding) in a little bit of water in the microwave for 10 minutes, fork that shit, put it in a pan and squeeze out a whole lemon, garlic, salt and sprayyyyyy butter. Toss with feta! Eat up! I prefer this cold like pasta salad and you can eat a heaping bowl for 150 calories!!! This is BY FAR my favorite dish! I cook it multiple times a week, again I like it cold like a pasta salad. 

Hope this helps everyone get their protein on!!! 😘👍🏻",1.5709686033338741,4.000858577844312,2.4155704806603,93.82226816636995,82.98203592814372,4.688655122188057,22.20067972163781,5.946609106918303,0.2503069428710152,1311,44,267,9,37,410,181,334,0.049,0.8290000000000001,0.122,0.9839,1,0,0,0,0,0,57.0,0,5,3,2,8,10,1,0,20,0,9,25,4,2,1,44,19,27,0,2,8,0,3,4,0,0,3,1,1,0,20,28,22,0,2,4,1,2,5,2,0,1,0,12,17,9,41,18,12,39,0,1,2,0,10,25,2,5,15,153,37,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09283267146530033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12825728320100094,0.10496910969681476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14326065994821646,0.12073354972676395,0.14903547521292065,0.15163378033285227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08803878567826999,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5587424034557874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1410531300632633,0.0,0.09016472367196283,0.0,0.0,0.13044282759805215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2852870210953085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09150094875474993,0.0,0.0,0.1355869701745274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1541051499440492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1395925137469529,0.0,0.26677098309932445,0.13682063683313192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18224530685783807,0.2768029770959021,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10035184379370804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09250389502880174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.153896487318399,0.0,0.0,0.1471827557703437,0.0,0.0,0.13723201395920365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.108559623105454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14012735006796098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07960109946172725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10835667337546902,0.1095014919160074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1524104942156499,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,KrustyKup,2019/01/08,Holiday weight gain :( Feeling super on edge because I have gained around 5 lbs from the holiday season. It’s insane how sensitive I am to those 5lbs because I feel like I’ve been pumped with air. I’ve been constantly bloated for the past few days and def feeling the “oh well I’ve fucked up I might as well binge” feelings. How can I debloat and get motivated again ?:( ,2.7491071428571416,5.0870526805555585,3.6630952380952384,87.12000000000002,77.75,6.8920634920634924,26.952380952380967,7.957251820313856,1.7614380952380957,291,12,57,5,7,93,54,72,0.114,0.568,0.318,0.9325,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,4,6,5,1,0,3,0,6,2,0,3,0,12,12,5,0,0,0,0,5,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,4,1,0,5,2,0,0,0,1,2,0,2,5,5,4,8,9,1,9,0,0,0,1,0,4,1,1,6,32,7,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2186054528470595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2993890291079299,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2653691820045289,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15836950115102766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4966613965649023,0.1754321184543708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2270214463529401,0.12829789412599307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11997095140942275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2605063022405815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23442015787136505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29903275313546296,0.441585943237416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,happy_but_unhappy,2019/01/08,"My pancake addiction too upsetting So I'm currently sobbing my heart out... I just discovered it and I was like great time to trigger myself... no. Honestly that site is the most dangerous thing I've ever come across. Personally it didn't trigger me because I saw how scary some of the sub communities are especially the challenges.
There are so many people out there more vulnerable that could literally DIE from these challenges. My heart sank when I found one where there was a BMI one where you dropped points and a hall of fame one where someone dropped like 5. I'm not shaming anyone at all on this site as I understand there's supportive groups on there also but the site just took me by total shock. If I were in a worse mentality right now it could easily be me on there too.

It just kind of put things into perspective for me tbh. I constantly miss proED but now that it's gone I realise how toxic it could be and how supportive and safe this community is and I'm so grateful for it ",3.953737046632124,5.905545031088085,4.827328367875648,81.93767648963733,72.78238341968913,8.762823834196894,28.12467616580311,9.354420925462401,2.5038707253886017,793,31,155,19,16,257,118,193,0.115,0.743,0.142,0.669,1,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,1,0,2,25,16,1,2,7,0,13,3,2,5,3,32,25,17,1,4,7,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,1,15,9,0,1,2,0,0,4,3,6,0,3,8,1,17,10,18,12,5,31,0,2,1,0,3,18,1,3,9,113,32,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1649310867532748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12098850634344675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1057871889184542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0922264646902006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1303250371958596,0.0,0.16349337560519087,0.0,0.3623840979097248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1570176624880791,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13685266994356096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16588434698101698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16680044470919064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3585645300158268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15754779050165835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14782768422716175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15338678373440726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15246719104499604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3075590101718566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10488712557155712,0.132102719422604,0.0,0.0,0.14302025397976104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1520906853491292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12920291362643874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12818958999109992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34336972676731,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2010239436337257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08821983604552612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1680914630759319,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1575007614053184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15417991747519305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,GingerWithSunscreen,2019/01/08,I finally found vegan Halo Top! So excited I finally found it! They had the chocolate and birthday cake one so I got the birthday cake one and it's actually good! Plus I had 1/2 cup and stopped which is usual for me lol ,0.4273333333333333,2.8589858444444483,3.3305555555555566,84.5425,90.55555555555556,7.444444444444445,25.277777777777786,8.344100000000001,2.2914444444444446,173,8,35,5,6,61,31,45,0.04,0.73,0.231,0.8469,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,1,1,2,2,0,0,2,1,3,0,0,0,0,7,6,6,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,4,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,5,0,6,2,2,1,0,5,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,4,23,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.2466533655100228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5537636194184352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5542677484383548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2119997150888312,0.20215203831374956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3425479722917875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21131530796375506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2783749910445784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,shortLavender,2019/01/08,Recovery is hard... ... and I'm not sure I want to keep trying. It's so hard to explain my feelings/emotions. I want nothing and everything all at once. ,0.375,2.7936541666666663,2.6750000000000007,89.2425,90.66666666666666,5.666666666666668,27.5,7.1686216300943375,1.7559999999999998,115,6,23,2,4,39,24,30,0.222,0.778,0.0,-0.506,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,9,6,3,0,2,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,3,1,3,6,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,13,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34120351949561106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2726119244040902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5434451682253593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2696121371413266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29105169222456234,0.0,0.0,0.3230347483316002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28588334043775704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20594001006029006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.357821789911095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,uncommonlyaverage,2019/01/08,"I haven't purged for a week, and I gained 10 lbs despite not eating over maintenance. Any advice? Hello fellow ED sufferers, 

One of my main goals was for harm reduction and I want to stop purging Towards the end of 2018 I was purging several times daily. I had gotten to around 102 pounds at the beginning of last week now I'm at 112! I have been eating no more than a net of 700 for the past week mostly averaging around less than 500. I am drinking more water, drinking less caffeine, and not purging. I wanted to stop purging completely, but I am panicking because mathematically/scientifically there is no reason why I should be gaining weight eating a 500 calorie net at 5'3. I have been weighing mostly everything I eat as usual. Am I just retaining water from not purging after doing so several times a day for months? I wanted to be able to work on increasing my calories soon after I lose a bit more and focus on maintenance, but if I am gaining weight now I don't think I could eat 1,600 a day without gaining a lot of weight. If anyone has any advice on what the cause of this is or if anyone has been through this before please help! Thanks! ",5.276175595238094,6.236046290178575,6.1956071428571455,77.24105952380955,68.24107142857143,8.651904761904763,30.11190476190476,8.841846274778883,2.4483711904761902,915,34,167,15,15,303,124,224,0.08800000000000001,0.797,0.114,0.8312,0,0,2,0,0,0,20.0,0,0,0,7,8,4,0,0,11,0,23,13,0,2,0,31,31,12,0,8,11,0,3,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,3,6,13,3,2,2,0,1,8,3,0,1,7,3,20,1,33,20,11,31,0,2,0,0,3,10,0,7,20,121,23,2,0.10326516714508956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20181905237609987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1404477095442583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14441081180515156,0.0,0.0,0.18385578449187334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06294948741901794,0.0,0.08787105140152499,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11273881707863373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10608177235745647,0.0,0.0,0.1082715630496041,0.0,0.0,0.08244883320222736,0.0,0.0,0.13319497978890646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2023211006849261,0.0,0.5283302308333322,0.0,0.0,0.0914622873650764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09280807365359066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06921646480105206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08417489384150745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1155273078285815,0.0,0.0877923523094322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0824252712080487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06997514978104415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09857828673720652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11335414357761428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10617379061445327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2333204912254671,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1726686072827848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09507269179444168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06616814944187678,0.0,0.0,0.12042949879755588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11373199241739143,0.0,0.18272541327119374,0.0,0.2484992646747904,0.3772474613541515,0.0,0.0,0.0931807514791734,0.0,0.0,0.09954393610178328,0.0,0.07517827156383003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,els4,2019/01/08,"Overshoot How normal is weight overshoot?

I have been in recovery for the past year and I started with a bmi of 18. Before my ED it was about 20. However, while right after starting recovery I maintained around 113 lbs (5'4) for awhile, I was still doing some disordered things like purging and overexercising. Now that I've stopped doing that, my weight has shot up to 121 lbs. Is this normal, or am I using fat logic to justify eating way to much and gaining more than necessary since my post-pubescent weight was originally lower?

I can't tell if I'm seeing things or if I've really let myself go. My pants are a little tighter (but also pretty small in size: 26"") and my thigh gap shrank. But maybe this is normal. I know you're not actually supposed to gain weight after puberty but my situation is a little more unique.",4.112935735150927,6.065702727848103,4.982911392405068,80.98492210321326,72.35443037974684,7.8995131450827625,26.077896786757545,8.617729084823388,1.9491483933787728,653,22,120,12,13,212,109,158,0.021,0.923,0.056,0.644,2,0,0,2,0,0,21.0,0,0,0,2,6,1,0,0,4,0,16,7,2,3,0,24,23,14,0,5,8,0,4,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,7,6,6,1,2,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,4,5,14,1,16,18,4,21,0,0,1,0,1,8,0,5,12,78,21,0,0.0,0.0,0.12644840487954778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10362263467456992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11535095136906635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1102604348835602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14850640294484854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13258956182878667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07364156293119313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07121209926141506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13250120354434075,0.0,0.06330474927087389,0.2597402763726485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13017745578487813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09525396257756157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3808736776834505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12369585423592698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12409889322503655,0.13182633500212693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08301030783110444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1106580015096421,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10325604735935577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1071873864390406,0.14564991323531284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1834304546735857,0.0,0.10348031423325416,0.108332126599592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11325595970530215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17217032676531732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11191287528291016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10285214621420964,0.0,0.631159234418901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08344330308381638
EDAnonymous,cigs4breakfast,2019/01/08,"I feel like I’m completely losing control After a relapse a few months ago, I’ve been doing really well with not restricting. One of the ways I counteract restricting is by exclusively eating things I really like, but now I’m spiraling in the other direction. Im about to have Taco Bell for the third time this week (it is TUESDAY) and I’m disgusted with myself but I’m doing it anyway and I just feel like I have absolutely no control over myself and I don’t deserve to get better. ",3.5571875000000013,5.436738677083337,5.68375,75.68625,73.6875,9.383333333333336,26.583333333333336,9.827888789773867,2.855670833333333,387,14,70,11,8,135,63,96,0.102,0.738,0.161,0.4008,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,4,5,7,1,0,5,0,8,1,0,2,0,15,15,5,0,0,4,0,2,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,5,1,4,2,0,0,0,3,2,1,2,1,2,8,5,11,14,1,10,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,10,51,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18792118554884527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1874927580716008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22227320800421613,0.0,0.4755418728328151,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21692428184329635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2143825501743827,0.3028992001139165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11075887884569703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2289914770278643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3107108225590232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23716869508372074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1692127548175959,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14365361120059192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.271619442186644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14084036470578135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12361625842516415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16827212976515882,0.17004997184917614,0.0,0.19060937952327134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,VakariansFemshep,2019/01/08,"So I went to a office party... A few weeks ago were I met my old department. Thanks to birth control and binge eating I put on a lot of weight since the last time I've seen them. *anxiety intensifies* 

One coworker told me ""You look great!"" [Thank you for lying to me] ""Now you actually look normal, you were waaaaaaay too skinny."" 

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EDAnonymous,losemore,2019/01/08,"Had my first appointment with my ED therapist today. Proceeded to get so drunk last night that I slept in and missed it. Yikes. That’s all, folks. ",1.4146428571428549,4.12182975,1.8900000000000008,93.98000000000002,90.78571428571428,7.085714285714286,17.714285714285715,8.07648339933343,0.9554,115,3,24,3,4,35,26,28,0.181,0.8190000000000001,0.0,-0.6504,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,1,3,4,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,2,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,2,0,3,0,3,2,1,6,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,5,14,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3887233899232381,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2387632838477781,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37251544240155976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4288629058112765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5306114361821279,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4331819218261877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,helloaveragejoe,2019/01/08,"Scared of intimacy I feel like I really need to share this with someone.

I haven’t kissed a guy (or had sex) since I broke up with my ex 4 years ago. I’m really embarrassed about this which, again, results in me being anxious about future dating.

To be fair, there were enough guys interested and I have been in situations that a guy wanted to kiss me. However, the moment this happened I got incredibly self-conscious because of the lack of recent experience so obviously nothing happened. 

I had romantic experiences in the past but I just stopped being confident and started to be ashamed about myself (being overweight).

I’m currently seeing a therapist about trauma, body dysmorphia and ED. I’m just too embarrassed to bring this up and work through this.

Now I’m 26yo and scared about ending up alone with 40 cats..",4.839679062659194,7.196200079470202,5.663178807947023,75.14869587366277,71.3841059602649,9.149465104431993,30.158430973000502,9.661875296680813,3.2251717778909827,656,28,112,17,13,214,97,151,0.193,0.7140000000000001,0.094,-0.9411,2,1,0,0,0,0,20.0,0,0,0,1,12,12,0,5,6,0,11,5,1,1,1,19,24,8,0,3,4,1,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,3,7,8,1,1,1,0,0,1,1,7,0,0,5,2,12,5,23,14,2,20,0,1,1,3,5,6,0,1,14,75,19,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13801346047884674,0.0,0.0,0.16125217346146772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17589006088032352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09490970224142653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1729410900764396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1378987949871159,0.16087366560595806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30459748727674946,0.0,0.0,0.07872363493618978,0.11122792425426242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12452282616118315,0.0,0.0,0.462485028435473,0.2753596264626425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07606429206718965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11544523152796315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14939272579170326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14862767315991907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19948330487606986,0.0,0.15372917951816453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3117539890848028,0.0,0.12406807126648275,0.0,0.16242294296258608,0.0,0.0,0.1287918009615925,0.17500673594783406,0.0,0.0,0.13191913901692226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11020111317879017,0.0,0.0,0.1301672720110179,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1807728958994668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09183243727928654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11334718774838795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10026192110263478
EDAnonymous,kriegers69,2019/01/08,"hahahahahhahaahah My (now ex I guess) boyfriend broke up with me unexpectedly last week on the day I was supposed to move in with him and while I’m trying to pick myself back up??? My shit ass brain is refusing to let me eat.

I’d bought over a weeks worth of groceries the day before he decided to end it so I’ve been going home(to my apt) to no food.

Last night was the first night in years I’ve vomited from low blood sugar Lmao. ",1.4018601747815254,3.5374445168539346,3.3812734082397,88.43373283395756,81.35955056179775,6.652184769038702,20.001248439450688,7.793537801064563,0.6021300873907616,338,9,76,6,9,114,67,89,0.179,0.7609999999999999,0.06,-0.8919,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,1,3,3,1,0,4,0,5,8,4,1,0,7,9,3,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,3,3,1,1,0,2,2,1,3,0,1,4,1,9,0,15,4,0,23,0,2,0,1,4,7,2,1,14,41,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15813667473548582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17499800372635602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2295799727817028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26526205385800633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2104373038206606,0.0,0.0,0.18215006478068504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17493078358739886,0.24867990232821005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11687897402052674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22655313393741736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20628961239776333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3352739759270957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2102970674484111,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21857965027618687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3859882173797158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2111028019885655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13962684061372838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32992947849490123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13243564184579834
EDAnonymous,number1wifey,2019/01/08,"Does anyone else eat really weird foods or food combos?? Does anyone else eat really weird foods that would gross anyone else out? My most shameful thing that I love is to make a Little tiny bowl with like a tbs of kewpie mayo and next to it some Korean chili sauce or ssam sauce, and I’ll sit and dip my finger in it, a little bit of each, as a meal. Or I’ll pour malt vinegar on chicken or chicken nuggets before dipping in some super fattening sauce when I binge cuz I love the tang. When I was younger I would spray I can’t believe it’s not butter right into my mouth. I feel like I’m always searching for weird but delicious good combos. :/ please tell me someone else eats horrifying foods like this!",5.988670212765957,5.747981581560289,6.0128280141844,83.34562500000001,66.51773049645391,8.752127659574468,26.84485815602837,8.07648339933343,1.4704815602836887,557,13,113,6,8,176,92,141,0.11,0.7140000000000001,0.17600000000000002,0.9031,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,1,2,12,0,1,5,0,5,12,2,2,0,21,10,12,0,2,6,0,2,3,0,2,0,0,0,0,7,7,8,0,1,0,0,0,2,5,0,0,1,4,11,7,12,7,5,12,0,0,0,2,3,8,0,7,6,56,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09037852321584908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22784380087407424,0.333874622938399,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09242555589784172,0.12237481142833873,0.0,0.0,0.11858225972674515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19010394293662086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3334286855811421,0.3629441842064626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054920309296229416,0.07759641697659307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5253632092682936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09110326822453108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15919518134985305,0.21772668916237392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1960632035277812,0.0,0.0725030744556681,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11551602279615256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11922947963386883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13916639916472387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0927588152075919,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09203131845695636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09493654768875624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07216069017504903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15431761717006232,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,LittleBookOfSorrows,2019/01/08,"DAE pig out while sleepwalking? I sleepwalk a lot and sometimes do some crazy shit.  Worst thing I did was when I was staying over at my friend's and during the night let opened the front door, opened the gate and let her dog out.  The dog was missing for three days.

Last night for the fourth time in my adult life I raided the kitchen and ate and ate.  Fortunately I never have much in but I ate my whole day's worth of calories and then some, so now I have to wait until tomorrow morning to eat.

As a kid I did this a lot.  I'd go downstairs, turn on the taps (for some odd reason) and eat bowls of cereal.  I'd do it eating with my hands and leave a mess of cereal and milk everywhere.

Adult life - one time ate stacks of cakes and biscuits (pre ED), two times before during my ED (embarrassingly it was a housemates bag of bananas and cucumbers (phallic or what?), then it was a stash of protein bars - MANY.  (One reason I don't hoard any more). 

Last night I ate curried chick peas, cous cous, spinach pasta and 3 Nakd bars.  Sucks I didn't even get to enjoy it.

​

Anyone else do this?  I'll expand it to drunk eating where you're pretty much in a state not knowing what you're doing.",2.6532572614107863,4.287315186721994,3.3576327800829917,92.45238278008301,75.55601659751038,6.14780082987552,21.593568464730293,6.742157984588678,0.2790546058091285,924,23,202,8,20,291,140,241,0.095,0.846,0.059,-0.6848,0,0,0,0,0,0,38.0,0,0,0,0,5,8,2,1,14,0,17,19,2,2,1,30,29,21,0,0,3,0,1,0,1,0,2,0,3,4,10,17,15,1,3,3,1,2,4,6,0,4,13,1,17,2,24,14,10,33,0,1,0,0,6,11,2,6,18,120,27,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12986572715484407,0.145640178913835,0.08150732053920763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08380726439273475,0.12280833927137548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1019900427844903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15459655336631298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4905772446109234,0.10012569715164528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07916485562312779,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09260173266503276,0.0,0.0626206816712763,0.0,0.06811787167355862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06587063671674301,0.1953999841209657,0.0,0.12691195842133812,0.0,0.2451251608567467,0.1693180231572772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20379739687590995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12151685728873925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17621834575452486,0.0,0.09244161824794138,0.0,0.0,0.3374348903981588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1624373079914223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12193833228744247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2464672784641717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12303216807208035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11854229288475555,0.0,0.0,0.1277523205690831,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07962810509299256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2096699004786965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1303707187175491,0.11708352018372598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1338167997267796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.145640178913835,0.0
EDAnonymous,premium_chaos,2019/01/08,"I Extinguished dat Binge I’m incredibly happy. 

I’m doing keto and atm high restricting to get to my UGW. Yesterday was a sugar binge (but remained around maintenance calorically). I had such strong cravings for sweets today but instead chugged ~1.5l of water and had pork rinds instead. No more cravings and no carbs! Also, remained below my calorie limit.

I win this time, gut bacteria.

This is helpful for anyone struggling with binges: https://youtu.be/kefX7cWTwcM",6.1531024531024565,9.834750688311688,5.370043290043289,71.80046176046177,74.58441558441558,7.578066378066379,31.93217893217893,8.515128840125781,3.4744499278499283,381,18,50,8,9,115,59,77,0.129,0.693,0.17800000000000002,0.6644,0,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,0,0,3,5,5,0,1,1,0,5,3,1,0,0,9,8,6,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,5,2,2,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,0,3,2,5,4,8,5,1,6,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,3,33,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2975339621393834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2601510045354815,0.0,0.0,0.33120973718889946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1943845006697462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3960617461699214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24938205974057326,0.3930987980130272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3889549072186577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2169495115792369,0.0,0.35266666723778234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,FavorFusion,2019/01/08,"Fucking period so for the last two fucking weeks or so I’ve been on my period. Like wtf. I’m underweight fucking body, stop making me lose all my iron. I’ll need it later",-0.8983333333333334,1.1540947222222258,2.1555555555555586,90.29500000000002,101.77777777777777,5.7333333333333325,17.11111111111111,7.1686216300943375,0.6384777777777781,134,4,28,3,6,47,29,36,0.222,0.716,0.062,-0.7564,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,1,2,5,3,0,1,0,1,4,1,1,1,5,7,3,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,1,1,0,3,1,2,6,1,7,0,1,0,3,0,1,3,1,7,13,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2929938858930595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7315655251529039,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2150113350239993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1288668441989118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2950960738331594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.176071454938469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19558536943563504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2205272027934484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25766925311956745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2115839066805052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,VanillaPeppermintTea,2019/01/08,Feeling like shit because someone eats less than I do I'm mostly recovered. I'm staying in a dorm abroad and the food here is super tasty and healthy. I was super worried about what the food choices would be like but they're great. It was going wonderfully until a new batch of students showed up yesterday.  One of the new students is a girl and she sits next to me now. She's so much thinner than me and her meals were TINY. It completely ruined my mood/meal. Ughhh.,2.009354838709676,4.473947838709684,3.009043010752688,90.05356451612906,81.36559139784947,5.440430107526883,24.35376344086021,6.742157984588678,0.8979169892473116,371,14,73,4,10,118,70,93,0.08199999999999999,0.6990000000000001,0.218,0.9187,1,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,2,4,7,1,0,6,0,8,5,1,0,0,9,13,7,0,1,1,0,1,2,0,1,0,0,1,1,3,4,4,0,2,1,0,1,0,2,0,1,3,1,8,5,9,8,3,11,0,1,0,0,4,2,1,2,8,46,11,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1268129031874085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2181150602794383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21286619847330845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10518600796290806,0.14861637595608773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5031003960251514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11822800629689235,0.0,0.0,0.2293533501211047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2032654929503086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1529256799987561,0.0,0.0,0.4018325359481421,0.22124182200324533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14096622956817076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2135393779073769,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17626279094380393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.221731856700788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2255992092628309,0.0,0.2112641399515643,0.0,0.14777824739582804,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,HannyLannyPanny,2019/01/08,burn all the food well...if you let your dinner burn at purpose you won't be able to eat it. thats a clever one. pizza is gone. what will burn next? ,-2.1445454545454545,-0.3278672727272713,-0.143272727272727,107.84509090909091,100.51515151515152,2.64,9.630303030303027,3.1291,-2.351176969696969,112,1,30,0,5,36,30,33,0.0,0.903,0.097,0.4588,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,3,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,5,4,0,0,1,1,6,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,3,0,4,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,1,0,3,1,2,1,1,3,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,1,17,6,0,0.3792258974515814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3880427669420547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4585614604935097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3877841734848795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4033110441637631,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25697328255655805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3409696250083687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,thegoldengarden,2019/01/08,"Is it okay if I take a laxative for constipation? I have had bulimia for a year, I am recovering, I haven’t purged in like a month now !! But I am just wondering, is it okay for me take just one lax for constipation. Or is it damaging ?",0.675918367346938,2.6595414897959238,4.125877551020409,82.93697959183675,83.08163265306122,9.634285714285717,24.08571428571429,9.888512548439397,2.577845714285715,179,7,42,7,5,66,30,49,0.069,0.778,0.152,0.4486,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,0,3,4,0,0,3,2,8,0,0,0,0,6,11,3,0,1,5,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,1,0,6,3,5,10,0,4,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,3,4,32,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21451196150824656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.350468898854412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.297531489208377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6602659614088029,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4761627582848982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2827526658805053
EDAnonymous,strawberrybubblegam,2019/01/08,u know it’s bad when 4 days into my fast and my ED voice is telling me that i look like amberlynn reid bc i had 2 tbsp of whole milk in my coffee as opposed to 1. like ??? fuck ,-2.8494308943089415,-1.200397853658533,0.6018292682926827,102.91867886178864,100.70731707317074,3.7089430894308943,14.150406504065039,5.46131890053228,-1.1827105691056916,132,3,36,1,6,47,37,41,0.16899999999999998,0.718,0.112,-0.5484,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,1,4,1,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,4,5,3,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,2,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,2,6,2,5,4,1,5,0,0,1,1,1,2,1,0,5,18,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34258404202615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2646100821637238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3793164917220496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22549059748433206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4009045059684015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3445493474755366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3586209968177049,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4580862069633371,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,defyangravity,2019/01/08,"Websites like MPA? Are there any other websites you like that are similar to MPA? I love MPA but I’ve been having issues with logging in and I’m ready to give up the site but I want somewhere else I can go that has the diets, thinspo, and discussions. Any suggestions? ",0.7225000000000001,3.2525954716981147,2.1333726415094354,91.56722877358492,94.28301886792453,4.914150943396227,21.71933962264151,6.6274283507984215,0.756096226415095,212,8,41,3,8,68,38,53,0.0,0.7909999999999999,0.209,0.8534,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,1,0,0,1,3,0,0,2,0,6,2,0,0,0,6,11,4,0,1,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,3,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,4,3,5,10,0,4,0,0,0,1,5,3,0,0,2,25,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.514151253136221,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3157983376284145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.362644015288054,0.2148450522618109,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3945685786167691,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3693759780256033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3411898382091353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22297385154487645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ilovemymom4118,2019/01/08,"Plasma donation gone wrong I tried to donate plasma today. They forced me to eat crackers and then told me my blood pressure of 86/60 was too low to donate.

So I ate the crackers for no reason and I can’t even get the money I needed.

I need to purge I’m not ok I’m not",-0.9780932203389838,1.1156446440677958,1.6862500000000011,96.10869703389831,94.08474576271186,3.6279661016949154,14.154661016949152,5.148860815047168,-1.039527118644068,210,4,47,1,8,72,42,59,0.244,0.7559999999999999,0.0,-0.9098,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,1,0,3,4,0,1,2,1,2,3,1,1,0,7,10,4,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,1,0,4,1,4,3,0,0,4,0,9,1,6,6,0,4,0,1,0,0,2,1,0,0,2,28,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35137529692187397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2268068888716201,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17940791879285575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5092409859855083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3530637187240879,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32549505016472025,0.32812535433223994,0.0,0.23314033057904615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.375444767817031,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,wannabegrapefruit,2019/01/08,"He doesn't want to commit to me because I'm too fat Major life changes in 2018 happened. I quit a career I had been very invested but unhappy in and moved to a new city for a new job. New job in December 2017. We moved in together in January. New apartment in March. December through September I was studying for the LSAT constantly. And working on law school applications. I gained about ten pounds when I already needed to lose ten. Submitted my application right before Thanksgiving. Haven't really lost any weight because every pound I lost I put back on at Christmas.

All my friends are getting engaged and I really though we were headed there but he acts weird when I bring up the future. 

Last night he told me why. 

Cons: my relationship may be over? What was left of my self esteem is definitely gone for good lmao 

Pros: no appetite today so restriction is back on and bingeing is cancelled today yay",3.2892982456140345,6.013938309941522,4.193362573099417,81.91881578947368,78.18128654970761,7.776608187134503,27.628654970760234,8.680891452615391,2.5024058479532165,725,31,130,17,18,233,119,171,0.109,0.716,0.175,0.9503,2,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,2,0,0,6,9,8,0,0,5,1,13,4,2,0,2,15,23,10,0,2,2,0,1,0,1,1,2,0,0,1,1,6,2,1,0,0,1,6,3,4,0,2,9,1,17,4,22,12,2,36,0,3,0,0,9,15,0,1,15,76,18,6,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1390954795561487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08571596232259895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1938440014660591,0.0,0.15367358882090204,0.0,0.10725631276751836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13334051494884466,0.0,0.0,0.13621151944883658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10619963737528006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09738323595492464,0.0,0.0658541092412503,0.0,0.0,0.10572184863712136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11146252968757944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1293601036055102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2501634622938066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10274474468027923,0.0,0.0,0.13694992301773345,0.0,0.08903039136530548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14101382496302606,0.2751893530898452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26793502594803176,0.0,0.09346190443224488,0.0,0.4869460942227408,0.0,0.11828612923091465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12671157634818606,0.0,0.1340659994079805,0.0,0.0,0.16149726869957065,0.0,0.0,0.1353268009960686,0.0,0.10764304741479233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12756581707210973,0.0,0.0,0.1314940199075801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1238400751781088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2389547433052025,0.12044286046240987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10400158742871428,0.074345508802569,0.0,0.0,0.1534907156960491,0.0,0.0,0.11373738751450935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0917633746218228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,metaphoric_mayhem,2019/01/08,"Shout out to Ads am I right? So I do the daily challenge on my spider solitaire app because, you know, ~party hard~, and for the past few days every time I get on the app I am met with a new calorie counting app as my ad. Like. Thanks solitaire. I appreciate you reading my mind since I never actually had any on my phone besides my fitbit but that's cool. 
But in all seriousness, I hate this time of year because diet culture is so mainstream that it comes up almost every day. So yes, it makes sense to have ads like that but ya girl is trying to not be spiraling back into my ED.",3.110774976657332,4.344464764705883,4.638935574229695,85.3539402427638,73.62184873949579,6.633426704014939,25.827264239028946,6.937597516519254,1.0655034547152185,453,15,93,4,9,152,84,119,0.051,0.813,0.136,0.8196,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,3,0,1,4,7,1,0,4,2,8,1,0,1,2,15,15,8,0,0,4,0,1,2,0,0,0,1,0,1,6,5,1,0,1,1,0,1,2,2,0,0,2,3,16,5,14,12,2,18,0,0,0,0,7,8,0,1,11,60,22,2,0.0,0.0,0.2059632525201103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21134521822023752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14352743706583398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16229143304895266,0.0,0.2573193574513218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18180874081917092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2722313399224649,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3556528179063845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1102696774735752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18906751257062795,0.2083771823049736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11599257101453793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2062256470885408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14088359947908632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2131095419497594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16278180238992118,0.20384221036325464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20147980898575726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2111162325655596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18024333268586404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17459028258319714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19431487822029786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2461405367965684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1432952861390523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13591515148439756
EDAnonymous,MagnoliaPetal,2019/01/08,"Constantly sucking in your stomach? So this morning while getting dressed in front of the mirror I noticed that apparently I continuously suck my stomach in a bit. When I relax and I mean *really* relax, my belly will expand to twice its size, hanging in front of me like a 5 months pregnant belly. It's all taught and round. The thing is, I really have to put in an effort to relax, the slight sucking is actually my default mode, when not consciously doing anything. 

Does anyone else have this? ",3.8010024154589352,6.421977771739132,5.198840579710146,75.9964009661836,75.63043478260869,7.132367149758455,28.700483091787444,8.167268648758528,2.428285990338164,393,17,64,7,9,131,64,92,0.031,0.821,0.14800000000000002,0.8738,1,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,1,0,1,3,7,3,0,6,0,6,2,2,0,1,6,12,6,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,6,2,0,0,2,3,0,4,1,3,0,1,1,1,10,4,10,10,2,15,0,0,1,0,1,5,3,0,7,47,16,1,0.0,0.0,0.2634884602252308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18879558595493734,0.2766546854964764,0.22219324165369547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29477835854763706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29178228444019144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2362854628568517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2255566960676287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14106782239811552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.131912070588917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29411742256407536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21551748349998626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3074054325030002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2714322060387767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.345947554088566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17938104612344452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,110_percent_bot,2019/01/08,"I told myself I'd never do it but I purged today I woke up at 5am. I usually skip breakfast but I was hungry at 9am. I needed to concentrate and couldn't afford to be hungry so I ate the only food I had in my room. 5 gummy bears. Small treat, so far so good. Then a fuckton of pretzels. Ok but will she stop? Then an entire chocolate bar. Uh oh. Then more pretzels. Oh no.

It was around 1100 calories. I felt disgusting. Historically, my ED has been bingeing and restricting exclusively. I know the dangers of purging. But I don't know. I felt so bloated and just wanted the food to be no longer in my body. I tried to throw up with my fingers but it didn't work. Then I googled ""how to induce vomiting"" and a normal website (not anything ED related) said to use a toothbrush so I tried that. It worked. I kept throwing up small controlled packets of food. The use of the word ""controlled"" is ironic there because I was not in control. I would look in the mirror and told myself ""you have read so many stories about why this is bad"" and then I just went and did more. I stopped when my throat felt dry and sore. It never felt that acidic, and also I stopped way before my stomach was empty. Afterwards I rinsed my mouth with water, cleaned the toilet, and chewed a piece of gum. My legs were shaking. 

I'm scared. I always told myself that I don't have a real ED. I just binged and restricted, and the binges weren't that huge and the restrictive diets weren't that crazy. I thought I had it under control but maybe I'm getting worse. I don't want to purge again but I'm scared the next time I binge, I'll be tempted to, now that I know how easy it is. I know all of the horrible side effects of purging, but the same part of me that binges without caring about the consequences likes the idea of me emptying my stomach instantly without caring about the consequences. I told myself I'd never purge and I just did. As an isolated incident this isn't awful, but if I can break one of my personal ""rules"" that easily, maybe I'm losing control. I really hope this doesn't happen again but honestly I have no way of knowing anymore. ",1.500935595286471,3.838022240654208,3.0092563998374646,90.0597785453068,82.43457943925233,5.777813896789922,23.089394555058927,7.079830092131019,0.8808505079236091,1661,59,338,22,46,543,206,428,0.184,0.735,0.081,-0.992,1,0,0,0,0,0,57.0,0,1,0,9,22,15,2,3,22,2,33,18,7,11,4,79,67,41,0,8,19,0,5,1,0,2,2,1,2,1,18,17,9,12,13,2,0,4,19,7,1,1,27,8,54,8,38,34,6,45,0,1,1,0,8,17,0,2,22,228,72,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06539959687387037,0.0680476781749183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08110398400029327,0.0,0.0,0.06729813696955261,0.07280171694385336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06828305154018055,0.04985245122970355,0.0,0.06958892731466247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09083936684066758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16676072975379366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.458617244425481,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3140872696981866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29666682955073365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04272677946047242,0.0,0.0,0.0685933522283866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07231796130778773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0812261917856445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09231989215776776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2247212975651893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0399536751359268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06867477163461047,0.0914911259068225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08291228749889525,0.164318407018586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06063898251213306,0.189221796877725,0.0,0.08697417111481033,0.0,0.08012723300783826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05541638041514535,0.06219752771367869,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08855998782800206,0.0,0.0,0.07140731675499568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08180233148424762,0.09308377224782882,0.05239049060641582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07779169824860292,0.0,0.16375249494494745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20511572873106385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0649243443397682,0.04768669262912053,0.0,0.07751806786143497,0.3125779451492364,0.0,0.1110467760288094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14126367181231742,0.09006933714176815,0.0,0.096472162332255,0.12982663336338487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07581106527746008,0.07379391094547992,0.0,0.0,0.15766639009129196,0.0,0.11907392006934678,0.0,0.08334101108993798,0.05809430811803287,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,cinnamonspiderr,2019/01/08,"I feel like I'm never going to win. So I have low self esteem. Like practically non-existent. And im fat. BMI of like 38. Relevant information.

You see, I'm insecure and think I'm unlovable, but don't you know being insecure is the most unattractive thing for a woman to be? Men like confidence! Confidence is sexy! But don't be a confident fat woman because fat women are gross! Fat women finding men attractive makes them feel gross not flattered! The only thing that makes women ugly to men is being fat. But don't let that make you insecure. That's also ugly. That's what will make you undateable. 

If you get skinny and hot, you're still not allowed to hate yourself because then you'll be fuckable but won't be marriage or girlfriend material. Don't tell them about your problems, it'll make you ugly and insecure to them anyway. And if you spend a bunch of time making yourself look good and care about your appearance too much, you're self absorbed, you're shallow, you're high maintenance. Maybe you're even a narcissist. 

So what's the answer? Be super hot and beautiful and sweet and never troublesome, love yourself genuinely but don't make it obvious? What am I supposed to do???? I WANT TO FEEL PRETTY AND I WANT TO FEEL WORTHY OF LOVE BUT WHY IS IT SO HARD FOR ME

AND WHY DO I TAKE IT OUT ON MY BODY?",2.297222937222937,4.747722374517377,3.8236979836979854,84.73403975403977,80.08108108108108,7.080280280280281,24.264407264407268,8.167268648758528,1.7008892034892031,1041,38,198,21,27,344,128,259,0.19,0.568,0.241,0.9689,1,0,0,0,0,0,35.0,0,10,3,2,10,23,1,4,7,0,26,9,7,8,3,48,54,25,0,5,11,0,7,4,1,4,5,0,0,10,13,12,6,0,9,0,1,2,10,10,0,0,0,10,21,13,17,42,3,11,0,1,2,2,30,4,0,5,9,118,34,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09757348908778084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14875558378262946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.135528571930848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1244000500208222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08058821860786347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24677309054525806,0.08716587669448478,0.0,0.0,0.1115173710435788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06374658482196394,0.0,0.06934261283396306,0.10233843976223124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10929938767663018,0.1204622524623692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.128913086097968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13179462239049802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06705497319213465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12476622292758956,0.0,0.2384369122281035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10245991414318256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22024239892653089,0.0,0.5701108383543179,0.0,0.12257812785200345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08969335230008871,0.0,0.1882073877654708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09279613455969643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1241307509716198,0.0,0.11674964818051033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09722830192367236,0.0,0.2545716521018249,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09743947684160216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09173834408855502,0.0,0.10664445256711297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16211959435922418,0.07818079305812561,0.0,0.0,0.07114656978472733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14393246944251134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.220194915827081,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,songfireleaf,2019/01/08,"my body hates me (tmi) literal shitpost lmao

A few years ago I had to have pepto bismol like 60-70% of the time in the mornings bc of tummy rebellion that was almost definitely ED related. Repeat morning tummy rebellion has been happening again and I don't have pepto rn and also don't have time to grab any so I'm Suffering™. My ED has thrown my digestive system so far out of whack and I do not have time to poo this much??? If I shit myself on the bus today I'm just calling into work and telling them I died. Press f to pay respects.

EDs are so glamorous y'all, I LOVE being scared of shitting myself in public!",2.2555619183965625,3.9984712204724415,4.336349319971369,84.53683607730855,76.95275590551181,7.137866857551898,24.14387974230494,8.00094639256281,1.4107543307086607,483,16,97,8,11,166,89,127,0.145,0.7020000000000001,0.153,0.6342,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,1,1,1,6,8,3,1,4,0,14,5,3,0,0,10,19,9,1,1,3,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,6,1,0,0,0,1,0,3,4,0,0,3,2,14,4,13,15,2,15,0,0,0,1,6,6,2,2,9,61,16,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19588333863966548,0.0,0.22127717931076896,0.0,0.0,0.176715733284438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15027236809557734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24545633443738124,0.0,0.0,0.2256428700880156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22933989519982376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19540979108461928,0.0,0.0,0.21816966346085614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10795850947935186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19944094133813048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16244398627776996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22123716050698103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4536607295103297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19314419123785226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3865615045968981,0.0,0.20946095786103308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16087434866524655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14230235062485802
EDAnonymous,navillanavilla,2019/01/08,"My boyfriend sucks! But ya girl is already codependent on him and won’t drop him. We’ve only been dating for a couple months but he thinks he knows me way better than he does. I try to tell him I’m depressed but he thinks I’m just horribly lazy and always live like a slob (I’m not the cleanest person but the state of my house is very obviously at a level of mental illness). On top of this he’s constantly commenting on my body in a negative way and telling me I need to go to the gym and eat better. he says stuff about my big thighs and butt (usually he means these as a complement but it’s usually followed with a comment about how I would look even better if I started going to the gym) and how my stomach has gotten bigger. I’ve been in a horrible binge episode for the the past 6 weeks and his comments don’t help. He will blatantly encourage me to not eat and has shamed me while I’m eating and has taken food away from me before.  Usually I would’ve liked this kinda shit. Like some physical entity of my own self hatred literally taking food away from me. but since the binge started I have absolutely no control over my impulse to eat so it mostly just makes me feel worse.

Honestly we have nothing in common. There’s absolutely no intimacy or even compatibility. Our entire relationship is based on mutual codependency and it’s awful but I can’t bring myself to break up with him. 

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EDAnonymous,sunnshine67,2019/01/08,Anyone have experience with donating plasma while high restricting? I wanted to donate plasma this morning and I ate a real meal last night so no worries there but for future reference does anyone have problems with donating while fasting or high restricting? I wouldn’t think so because they put your red blood cells back inside you and basically only take the liquid plasma part but anyone with experience can let me know,6.069092664092661,9.131047878378382,6.2328571428571475,69.20500000000004,70.21621621621622,8.552895752895754,28.138996138996138,9.23628265651192,3.1418671814671804,349,13,48,8,7,111,57,74,0.17,0.83,0.0,-0.9018,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,2,1,0,4,1,0,0,2,0,5,3,1,0,0,17,10,9,0,3,3,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,5,2,2,3,0,3,1,2,1,0,0,1,1,7,0,5,7,1,10,0,0,1,0,4,2,0,1,7,33,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4225680256424028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1548998490411845,0.0,0.12279985725605608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.176287104422828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3941064725183779,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4256783690056468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1107096745804892,0.16420570479749347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20599259505140494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18904380246961505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15320906668614284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2181468231876426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.192757001340014,0.0,0.20250927446461334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22929010836839014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1514626244275075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12907872072529447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11881830753916202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20457860026306454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,PunkRockSuperstar,2019/01/08,"Work Comments Are the fucking worst. A bunch of course workers were talking about food and someone said ""I never see Punk eat"". I just laughed and said i had food in my bag. This fucker. He says "" yeah, I bet you binge though"". 
Fuck you.",0.8337681159420285,3.348098173913044,0.9956521739130472,101.5794202898551,89.0,3.066666666666667,20.71014492753623,3.1291,-0.6737855072463765,180,6,39,0,6,53,39,46,0.224,0.68,0.096,-0.8399,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,2,0,2,3,5,3,0,2,1,3,6,0,0,1,5,8,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,1,2,3,0,0,0,1,0,1,4,0,0,4,4,7,1,3,4,2,2,0,0,1,3,8,1,3,1,1,23,8,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2369086554264192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5599237418700032,0.0,0.0,0.4280836732031719,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17856694108941956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.44046803785656535,0.18411857904066894,0.0,0.0,0.18449605690785692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1961710271696364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.186091637793821,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22747288605792124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16855351250085546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,qiaozhina,2019/01/08,"The Big Bulimic Disappointment Has to be when you manage to get some semi-decent gobfuls out hands-free and you're like 'finally....is this my moment when I level up and don't have to coke on fingers and objects anymore....' and then your body is like '*nope*. that's it. three heaves, that's all you get. You're done now. See you again in another 6 months or so.'

:(

I guess it's for the best. I'd just abuse The Power if I mastered it. But still, come on man, it's been like 6 years...when you gonna let me evolve... ",-0.8652777777777771,1.268203768518518,1.2031851851851876,99.26033333333336,94.64814814814815,4.361481481481482,15.533333333333335,6.079149491110277,-0.6894933333333331,389,9,93,4,15,128,77,108,0.098,0.792,0.11,0.0772,1,0,0,0,1,0,30.0,0,5,0,3,7,5,0,0,3,0,8,3,2,0,1,13,14,11,0,1,4,0,1,3,0,1,0,0,0,1,7,6,1,0,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,1,2,2,10,4,9,9,3,16,0,1,1,0,6,7,0,4,11,57,17,1,0.0,0.3057160379918482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27056047601965905,0.0,0.0,0.25589029943407304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2707800835263251,0.0,0.0,0.286606300143973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2222646765998938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26404795497727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2696135960461413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2842423309947934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26384684075664955,0.0,0.3781722200226448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20595215389821755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20561158054438375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2060581584212757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,not-creative-enough-,2019/01/08,"Why does recovery seem like it has to come with weight gain? Like if your underweight I understand. But for those with a normal bmi, do you have to gain weight? Are you not allowed to maintain or is it just hard when trying to recover? What about those who are overweight already and want to lose weight while still recovering? ",3.805956284153005,6.447022737704923,3.4635245901639347,88.33878415300549,75.72131147540983,7.3453551912568305,24.92076502732241,8.344100000000001,1.6442109289617481,261,9,50,5,6,78,48,61,0.092,0.7120000000000001,0.196,0.8156,1,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,3,0,3,4,3,0,0,1,0,6,4,0,1,0,14,10,6,0,3,5,0,4,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,6,4,4,0,2,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,4,4,2,9,10,0,4,0,1,0,0,4,0,0,3,5,35,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22426065525677452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17505785593011086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1778410406737369,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18204709645711045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1985681186419224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22735356236869456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19911452270935512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18500577928814407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16229344204374074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1379744749530168,0.0,0.0,0.21156138676207445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11986566761669723,0.0,0.0,0.7424093562422095,0.0,0.0,0.18337634790569315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,scienceofspin,2019/01/08,"You tried it! There’s this guy who works in the cafeteria at my work and this morning I was down there getting coffee (having a massive internal struggle as to whether or not I can afford one packet of sugar in my coffee) and he walks up and hands me a Boston creme muffin. 

I accepted it but screamed internally not knowing if I’d be able to throw it away before shoving it into my face.

I threw it away but holy shit it was hard. ",4.047537878787878,4.832671102272727,5.282272727272732,83.31424242424245,70.93181818181819,7.684848484848485,28.303030303030305,7.793537801064563,1.6986303030303036,339,12,68,4,6,113,65,88,0.13,0.853,0.018000000000000002,-0.8702,1,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,1,0,2,2,4,1,1,3,0,5,5,3,0,0,13,8,9,0,1,7,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,9,4,2,0,2,0,0,3,2,3,0,1,3,4,9,1,12,4,0,11,0,0,0,0,4,8,1,2,0,51,18,3,0.27951354439777765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5252243519698887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.237845439137194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1460342904517351,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2767623540106492,0.0,0.0,0.250389233725134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15361333409032366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18940561155132052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28691663660675515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.292208245501528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18977134889516226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.406978378623658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,shoqer,2019/01/08,"I need encouragement :( I was doing so well, trying to eat regularly trying to recover. I was purge free for like 10 days. My face got slim again after being super puffy for more than 1 years of purging multiple times every day.  
Today I don't know why. I simply didn't have enough strength to resist the urge to binge and to purge. I tried every single way possible (like I was doing the recent 10 days) but I was just delaying it. And now I wanna cry. I wanna recover but I'm scared that tomorrow will be just like this again. I gained 2kg and I'm avoiding the mirror because I'm so paranoid that my face gets fat again.",1.6206776556776568,3.872630896825399,3.6423809523809534,86.21159340659344,81.30158730158729,6.416605616605617,20.009768009768013,7.61054688173877,0.7949189255189251,487,13,97,8,13,165,80,126,0.14,0.732,0.128,-0.545,0,1,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,0,3,9,10,0,2,3,0,12,4,3,0,0,13,19,7,0,3,4,0,0,3,0,1,1,0,0,0,4,3,2,2,1,0,1,0,2,2,1,0,6,0,13,9,12,10,3,15,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,17,61,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12073853934562355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2175650186870529,0.3832064715833703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2026698642940207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2046540126638554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33375648201123176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10348074800234262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.158410613360115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1088513024278647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2902935517758719,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14686263153209633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22328844209594306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19556521779627656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19829754170717967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.115493250025651,0.0,0.1877423889019918,0.0,0.0,0.4034192463771088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1572147175695467,0.0,0.0,0.17808415338701147,0.0,0.1787227869519396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12754731729244045
EDAnonymous,stlib,2019/01/08,"A shout out for the boys You matter.  You’re here, *you’re valid* and -we care-.  

Chant this in your head every time you are told to “man up” or anytime you feel you’re alone. You’re a human person, I’m sorry society has tried to tell you that you’re a rock. 

I hope here you can find a tiny bit of reassurance on your road to recovery ❤️
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EDAnonymous,kittenbun,2019/01/08,"girls who seem effortlessly tiny are so triggering to me i watch a lot of haul videos on yt and omg... seeing these girls who are like 110lb / 51kg / 8st just looking cute and perfect and miniscule in everything really *gets me*. 

every single time i'm like 'welp guess i don't need to eat anymore today!'

the thing is, i don't even want to be that weight. so why does this happen?",0.7702453102453113,3.114920974025978,2.305108225108224,93.77448773448776,86.01298701298703,5.500144300144299,17.646464646464647,6.937597516519254,0.02185252525252501,293,7,64,4,9,95,62,77,0.016,0.8270000000000001,0.157,0.895,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,1,4,4,0,0,2,0,6,2,0,1,1,11,15,5,0,2,1,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,6,3,2,0,1,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,4,5,4,6,14,2,4,0,0,3,0,4,2,0,3,4,34,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2467770007523025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2177567836214173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25461985696766143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16435286746015162,0.0,0.20965383286694406,0.0,0.2236364404309096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13000577736134813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27411930067247514,0.0,0.2200435627427672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2431359751461829,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2089583437883544,0.0,0.0,0.2115502282788536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18450765911772488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15940977868295875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19828891239292992,0.22652962047758324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1653146121399389,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14509742188212044,0.0,0.23586604932859045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14676905931253054,0.0,0.0,0.3030134344192928,0.0,0.0,0.2245344694391609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,genrewhy,2019/01/08,"(24F) Relapsing when I thought I had recovered for good... Have felt like I’m not coping recently and have relapsed significantly over the past 5 months after nearly 4 years of recovery. Just need to vent because I feel like I have no one I can talk to about this..


I have been restricting to 400-500 calories a day and doing intense workouts daily - sometimes twice a day. I feel like a shell of a person, constantly thinking about food, calories and exercise all the time. It’s exhausting. Today I binged and it just came out of nowhere. No one was home and I felt out of control, my heart racing and like I couldn’t eat fast enough. I feel like a complete failure and full of anxiety. I was eating, whilst preparing my next snack... I just don’t know what to do anymore - I don’t enjoy feeling like this, I just hate myself immensely. I feel so safe and in control when I restrict, but this binge has me riddled with anxiety and worthlessness. 

Does anyone have any strategies to stop binging in its tracks? Stopping obsessive thoughts?  I feel like when I’m asleep is the only time I’m not having constant self loathing thoughts. 
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EDAnonymous,ital21978566556432f,2019/01/08,So I've been binging since New year... someone please kill me thanks.,1.3846153846153868,4.071303230769232,0.560384615384617,102.6221153846154,93.6153846153846,2.6,21.884615384615387,3.1291,-0.5597384615384615,54,2,11,0,2,15,13,13,0.249,0.476,0.275,-0.128,0,0,0,0,0,1,4.0,0,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,3,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4506815149771461,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3934291070139339,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4471569978734714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3369709288748948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.345153297640159,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3750407184140017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2623253377349037
EDAnonymous,leorio403,2019/01/08,"just spent the whole day binging i feel disgusting. today was the worst day ive ever had in terms of my ed. this morning i went to the store to buy binge foods and ate everything, including an ice cream pie that was almost a year expired. purged that, then again. binge. purge. i was hoping i was done but nope, bought food from home and from a fast food place and ate it + purged in a park at night in freezing temps. then thought i was done but nope! purged some more because i was paranoid and then blood came out so how did i cope with that? i binged again. im too scared to purge but i feel so huge and disgusting. 

i dont know what to do. according to lose it, if my calories were correct (didnt count exactly how many calories so im hoping i didnt underestimate) i literally pushed my goal date back three weeks. i binged enough to gain at least a pound and a half of pure fat, probably more like two. i miss the days where i was losing 20 lbs a month and i could heavily restrict like it was nothing. i feel like im faking my ed especially since i only restricted, never used to binge and purge. im literally so paranoid now im scared im going to break my new loft bed because im convinced i gained 50lbs today. ughhggh fuck eds honestly ",0.7751432291666658,3.12590039453125,2.3036250000000003,93.74554166666668,86.0703125,5.757083333333334,20.252083333333328,7.1686216300943375,0.4464217708333327,975,30,216,15,30,316,142,256,0.177,0.693,0.129,-0.9085,0,0,0,0,0,0,26.0,0,0,0,5,15,17,3,2,11,0,19,8,2,3,5,36,36,21,0,4,5,0,4,3,0,0,1,0,3,0,8,11,6,2,5,0,4,4,6,10,0,3,22,5,25,7,19,13,8,36,0,3,1,1,0,9,1,5,25,123,33,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08943427694000251,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06867634427936194,0.0,0.10888900572306097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1021505170921174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07130932942040702,0.0,0.0,0.1727988921495434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18279684214063946,0.10467441506727304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0922844191961384,0.0,0.0,0.0807889102697219,0.0,0.0,0.0802689527552769,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13547832517641173,0.06380537392203567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32399365832531685,0.0,0.0,0.08256862198604897,0.0,0.0,0.05075875455379788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0895884301727119,0.1774163364897812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6753151390204404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04908420359095568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13090176671015186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1998372695170786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09054957504877907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07128895084208843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0688838522978181,0.08625925321240079,0.0,0.08381439583476365,0.0,0.08569843224424363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06792671959066751,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0933132934239492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09629474458213956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17883620483441498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0738808089204442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07090471108235853,0.0,0.0,0.16931695687563514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0872460268838272,0.0,0.0,0.07713793599414302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07164166848369187,0.0,0.0,0.08279423897164492,0.0,0.0997150076129424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05751477795694007
EDAnonymous,lewdpup,2019/01/08,"give me the strength oh lord! it’s my birthday and my parents just gave me 2 bouquets of candy and strawberry cheesecake


i felt my soul leave my body as soon as i saw all of it
yall please.. i’m trying not to lose my mind rn",-0.7783333333333324,1.2282009000000012,1.3480000000000023,100.24066666666668,90.0,4.133333333333334,20.333333333333336,5.46131890053228,-0.3504666666666667,175,6,43,1,6,58,38,50,0.025,0.855,0.12,0.6757,1,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,1,0,2,2,2,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,1,7,5,4,0,0,2,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,3,2,10,1,5,2,1,1,2,1,1,0,4,0,0,0,1,24,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3629305424510608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3137182345416317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3134353788088137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34596672730690003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3655345155923741,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32991067600884544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36280216503276697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3586585089000114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2218326044272606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,areddittoshowoff,2019/01/08,"Peach thread? :) I don’t want to connect my accounts, but I’ll add anyone here. :)",-1.7674999999999983,-1.1481827499999984,-0.017499999999998298,102.3125,126.5,1.6,16.5,3.1291,-1.241825,60,2,13,0,4,19,15,16,0.0,0.627,0.373,0.7311,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,2,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,6,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.764368906904165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6447791669696935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ijuanaexpire,2019/01/08,"i tried to purge The whole day I was thinking about the chicken nuggets and sweet chili chicken tenders in the oven. I eventually gave into my urges and just thought to myself, 'hey, it's okay, this won't count because i'll make sure to purge after.'

I've never purged before. I was convinced that I HAD to do it, otherwise it would set me back days of work.

But I couldn't do it. For 30 whole ass minutes I stuck my fingers down my throat, and nothing ever seemed to come up. Now I'm sitting here thinking I'm a failure because I couldn't even do this one thing.

I'm aware that this b/p cycle is hell and something you definitely don't want to get stuck in. But got damn I feel miserable either way.",4.4910727969348665,4.665627241379312,5.097471264367815,87.21187739463602,69.6896551724138,7.547892720306512,29.90421455938697,6.937597516519254,1.4578812260536398,550,20,119,4,9,177,96,145,0.154,0.75,0.097,-0.8527,0,0,1,0,0,0,15.0,0,1,0,1,7,8,2,1,4,1,12,4,3,1,3,23,28,6,0,4,4,0,2,0,0,2,1,0,1,0,10,6,0,0,5,0,0,1,5,3,0,1,8,3,15,5,15,16,3,16,1,1,0,1,3,5,3,1,7,73,25,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16198548209036456,0.0,0.2568342603479414,0.0,0.17925719031262838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18146599593431595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2717181308279228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13913975524544814,0.1905551426028481,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10651664726176133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1100617976558151,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16848502944508906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14061800645608946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16247492698962282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2021351312033061,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1427495010175514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19177807139104064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16217730639205394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19854571566496693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13995396020227166,0.2699664193828251,0.0,0.16724148508011666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14302514661701002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12425345116233805,0.16721307844879366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4703914790257942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15336388398851067,0.0,0.0,0.1496476932214543,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,i_b_p_r,2019/01/08,"snapchat memories made me feel better but also worse so i was looking through my snapchat memories as one does, and i went all the way down to my first saved memories.
and maaaaan did they make me feel weird.
like on one hand i’m definitely thinner now than i was my freshman year of high school, but on the other hand i’m upset that i even looked that gross to begin with???? 
idk i just needed to get this off my chest.",2.8718991596638617,4.52107857647059,3.4445378151260506,91.99470588235296,75.0,6.739495798319329,25.084033613445378,7.447530270364453,0.9744621848739504,329,11,72,4,7,103,60,85,0.147,0.642,0.211,0.8253,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,1,2,5,6,0,1,2,0,3,3,3,2,1,13,15,7,0,1,3,0,4,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,3,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,3,0,3,5,6,12,3,12,10,1,11,0,0,2,0,1,5,0,0,5,46,16,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1967955721792768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21764382868898172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21535226860156934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16253804942421815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24885781991772696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20932135649412445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12857022693148945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.260004277567881,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12022560894685135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4133019658876232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2328533360528881,0.16426488923296131,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18247028774289384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3335096487807325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2490530391896715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19533229421987802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2281249836688073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2507835330403493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1584718688776826
EDAnonymous,CS191,2019/01/08,"Help me find some self control (or excuses to never leave the house again) Why does entertainment/fun always revolve around food? My best friend asked me to go to the movies and I said yes because I always feel bad about saying no. She bought popcorn and I dug right in like the pig I am, I promised myself I wouldn’t purge for the rest of the month so now I’m lying in bed unable to sleep because of how full and disgusting I feel. I’d been doing relatively well, restricting but not too low, almost healthy, and I went and ruined it. I feel like shit, physically and mentally, and she invited me over to her house tomorrow and I’ll probably cancel like a shitty friend because I just want to eat healthy and restrict in peace and I have no self control. It’s the first time in probably six months that I’ve had movie theater popcorn and not purged it, and I wish the remorse I’m feeling was enough to never ever have it again, but I can’t control myself. 

On another note, does anyone struggle with trying to out-eat people?? Like I know a lot of people don’t eat in public, but whenever I’m with friends I stuff myself and lose all control. I usually purge, but I’m pretty sure I’ve hurt my stomach and I’m trying my best to take a break. I think it all goes back to establishing some form of fucked up superiority, like “look at me, I can eat more than you and still be skinnier”, except I realise why I do it, I realise my friends don’t care if I’m skinnier (this particular friend is bordering on overweight and gaining, calls herself ~curvy~ and eats and drinks like she had the magical metabolism she claims to have but doesn’t), and yet I can’t stop myself. 

I’m crying in bed, sick of not having self control and ready to never leave my house again. It’s been probably two months since I’ve lost weight, I can’t exercise anymore (no motivation or energy) and overall, it’s been a terrible day. I’m trying so hard to be healthy, restrict but not starve, and I just can’t do it, I always fuck up and I’m so tired of this. ",3.5404154209284044,4.879186775609757,4.735381589299767,84.66885523210071,72.70731707317074,7.7293469708890665,27.372147915027536,8.259297600419973,1.7350133752950432,1598,58,328,25,31,527,198,410,0.184,0.599,0.217,0.878,0,0,1,0,0,0,47.0,0,1,0,12,18,30,4,1,12,1,26,16,3,7,7,74,54,36,0,4,16,0,6,6,5,1,4,2,2,3,13,26,8,9,8,2,1,2,18,12,1,3,10,9,45,18,38,41,12,39,0,5,1,2,22,16,3,7,26,207,58,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06949029251584928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1732296488709943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07276799000246313,0.0,0.0,0.06882240534494381,0.04852345227660502,0.0,0.0,0.061777350830257885,0.06487610018534272,0.0,0.0,0.053361411487606515,0.05794294706004829,0.1269098792714287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1456541081002389,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07086130207991527,0.0,0.0707540737992151,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3891688217673438,0.0,0.0,0.07622849176108529,0.044754822471261925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12145820383032245,0.0,0.0,0.06798187857901786,0.0,0.3550483017396123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07170484856602599,0.0,0.0,0.06277285621088978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14035526076699384,0.049576675181260486,0.0,0.0,0.06342689009683791,0.059028391361273275,0.08391418764198695,0.0,0.2680767465840457,0.12831137883051946,0.0,0.0,0.03943947245249022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.062165384504161314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.046514825095794514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2402217701616331,0.07429009141498058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03813834898817614,0.0,0.0,0.1469611590930806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20342093369038552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058275348969189004,0.07763662205055008,0.07575417447109722,0.05899818669097271,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0699350700595967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1661742080328352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16056793467470507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09622120568918696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0706009066196349,0.2244625952499488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05926399479414799,0.0660116991209402,0.05518666144927194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2171861842939665,0.0,0.07123422509004332,0.057405272327895114,0.0,0.06944633956765578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05541991288792622,0.05801834932178657,0.0,0.0725479992355815,0.07944207179962147,0.0,0.0,0.06540511838455572,0.0,0.05217732281275582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04446629724658388,0.0,0.0,0.04046549537775125,0.07976074910466159,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1413464392589446,0.0,0.06779002566398598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07643013479952794,0.0,0.040931689992625184,0.0,0.0,0.0845059034877404,0.062395538129997624,0.06433099345820653,0.1252385937307381,0.0,0.07980223100459527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,AsianMemes,2019/01/08,What makes EDs glamorous? So I’ve been lucky and I’ve never been around someone who thought EDs were glamorous. What things have you heard from people about why they think it’s so amazing? ,3.0874999999999986,5.901087194444448,1.6866666666666674,99.00000000000004,79.83333333333334,3.6,22.88888888888889,3.1291,-0.2938111111111104,153,5,30,0,4,42,29,36,0.0,0.6609999999999999,0.339,0.9422,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,1,1,0,4,4,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,1,1,7,8,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,5,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,5,1,2,4,3,3,0,2,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,1,1,18,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.385671249113454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2891879125524689,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3341377549177245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3003507927307831,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3670788456052579,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2878222684588029,0.2775996732145491,0.0,0.3439404183104844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3909274534453561,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,7kgs,2019/01/08,how many calories in a fried egg? i fried it with like 1 spoon of olive oil. please help ,-1.4064912280701771,0.5711974736842116,-0.6989473684210523,111.35403508771928,100.57894736842104,2.533333333333333,11.596491228070176,3.1291,-2.231329824561404,68,1,18,0,3,20,18,19,0.0,0.634,0.366,0.7579,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,7,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.392198905179088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2858639416557763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5932278629061175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6422947363237443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,averybluebitch,2019/01/09,I'm so bitter lol Was just minding my post mini binge business scrolling thru insta when one of the girls I follow for thinspo posts a gorgeous mirror selfie.... With those size stickers that come on clothing saying 00 glued to the mirror :))) what a great night lmao,2.351836734693876,5.291800102040817,2.5522448979591843,89.23204081632656,88.79591836734693,3.6163265306122447,21.285714285714285,5.288315135182226,0.20744081632653044,211,7,35,1,7,64,45,49,0.052000000000000005,0.693,0.255,0.9183,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,0,3,3,1,0,4,1,1,0,0,0,0,4,4,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,3,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,1,1,2,2,2,6,3,0,7,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,2,20,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2934277848844429,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3755524346039684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3439452941058069,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31966384647953633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2308237951759353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6524703280869578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2708874496610982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,e_liz,2019/01/09,"So apparently I’m completely fine & it’s all in my head 🙃 Opened up to a friend tonight about the real reasons behind my weight loss & how I’m trying to get a handle on it all. She’s a sweet girl but so oblivious & just didn’t understand what I was trying to say at all. I tried venting to her about how I appreciate my family’s concern, but them saying I look sick in photos & being upset & stuff definitely doesn’t help, especially since I haven’t even been diagnosed with anything yet for them to worry about. She proceeds to say “oh well I think you look amazing in your recent pictures! You don’t look bad at all! And if there was something wrong, your doctor would say something.” 

Cue my brain: Well apparently things aren’t even bad, I’m completely normal. Forget trying to eat more, if there was something wrong my doctor would tell me & I would actually have a diagnosis. Ignoring the fact that I haven’t even seen my general doctor in almost a year & he has no idea I’ve lost this much. I know this wasn’t her intention, it just made me feel like I’m making it all up & I’m actually completely normal so now there’s no reason to change my eating habits. ",5.105854341736695,5.557392386554621,6.166067226890759,79.11520728291319,68.41176470588235,9.37187675070028,27.63137254901961,9.3871,2.18420918767507,940,28,188,18,15,314,129,238,0.179,0.705,0.116,-0.9615,3,0,3,0,0,0,33.0,0,4,2,2,20,15,0,1,7,0,17,10,2,7,6,37,34,10,0,7,6,0,2,1,1,3,5,4,0,1,10,3,3,1,7,0,0,0,9,8,2,0,9,11,28,7,23,21,7,16,0,2,4,0,19,10,0,3,7,116,38,3,0.0,0.0,0.14433269178257846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07405210363466391,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6410144594537753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060856078168207976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12349342520352465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0825547310669468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07823126027865472,0.0,0.23261134889852955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07505957936937029,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2270785813402527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15134242602151388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14653351459645267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06971523033696382,0.0,0.037392281496070635,0.05283122225377646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057135022177543834,0.0,0.03863679364406004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07589594159523752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04956837169387966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08348264642415694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04064200724271312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.036129142449800464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18630280683715647,0.0,0.08072718901582743,0.0,0.0,0.06997503628270353,0.049363439574857566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0543631247656812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14491423908312198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08417340472097168,0.0,0.1520696537291335,0.07301853832540271,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23523794331189554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06117374127662267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17079526014324256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08465718477895637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06463718360171046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04913032855336489,0.04738536467093985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2008338294830997,0.0,0.0,0.07698649240856116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09005344050592069,0.13298320351405524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07510170168146149,0.0,0.15759983478703735,0.16170949550601782,0.0,0.04762257205533448
EDAnonymous,-wemeyeo,2019/01/09,"holy shit i feel so DISGUSTING uh. this is the highest weight I have been at in so so long im only 3lbs below my sw and I have been feeling like an even bigger piece of shit for like two weeks, not sure what to really do anymore haha every time I try to get back on the restriction train I fall off and start eating everything?? but like I gotta, I can’t just eat normally because! Nah!
thanks for coming to my tedtalk I seriously hate myself so much and I am so uncomfortable in my skin lol 🤠",-0.6986538461538458,1.4705999038461568,1.9219230769230795,92.86057692307695,98.03846153846158,5.292307692307691,17.076923076923073,6.9077264865688965,0.21343461538461608,386,11,85,7,16,132,77,104,0.209,0.64,0.151,-0.7818,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,0,8,11,4,0,3,2,8,6,3,0,1,12,16,9,0,1,3,0,4,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,4,3,1,2,0,0,2,2,5,1,1,2,4,13,6,12,13,2,14,0,0,0,0,0,7,2,0,8,54,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1856656047482708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14395571739190385,0.0,0.1141236847959666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16126795617639272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3831325413689547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12365283002904286,0.0,0.15773554888976365,0.0,0.1682555296067964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18932166232271655,0.1337454471810837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09781138923392373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18483469030535865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2022228350832904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27438935389416785,0.0,0.0,0.16567816199246774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1376235514109717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18342959789931035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.142384393801983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11993383853330335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3843441801787881,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1325107634685153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17644662080083673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1723611478967339,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10916576706513648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12710575861883755,0.0,0.18288050305305745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15017147301508393,0.2279757529137713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Moose--And--Squirrel,2019/01/09,"I can't let myself buy new clothes All of my clothes have become baggy at this point, but buying clothes is a hellish experience for me and it just makes me hate myself more.

No matter how thin I get I absolutely hate the feeling of the fabric touching my skin the way it does in anything fitted. But, all of my baggy clothes are just making me look fat. I'm becoming especially self conscious of it with the new semester starting.

I really don't know what to do. I'm just sick of this right now. I feel like all I can do is lose enough weight that even fitted clothes will finally be loose. ",3.704472455648929,5.0856224537815145,4.638935574229695,85.3539402427638,72.36134453781513,7.641830065359478,27.507936507936506,8.167268648758528,1.6888647992530348,468,17,96,7,9,152,79,119,0.223,0.726,0.052000000000000005,-0.9801,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,1,6,5,3,0,5,0,12,4,2,3,3,18,24,4,0,0,5,0,6,1,0,1,2,0,0,1,7,2,2,0,4,0,2,0,3,4,0,0,0,7,14,1,10,21,5,13,1,1,1,0,1,7,0,0,6,63,21,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14905582556613597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4000911144652933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15850943292999492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18715730228334576,0.0,0.11963567512468062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17718140438422028,0.0,0.0,0.1831710999447825,0.12940040971648692,0.0,0.19842075049833893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09463375470771634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3576597956706549,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09954515842251932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18521927361777066,0.0,0.08849172205883073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15210487604127762,0.2026398637184648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2418134214392519,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3498759437147653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17122785397236126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11603750387157435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1546853470863094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18895970151048466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12820583762716334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14377378697129806,0.0,0.2205694208979321,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,thatgentleman28101,2019/01/09,"My dad saw my “health” apps I let him use the screen time settings on my phone, and when he was checking to see if it worked he saw my calorie counting and weight logging apps.

He didn’t say anything, but he gave me a weird look and I know he could tell what they’re for 🙃🙃🙃",2.6413934426229524,2.7903294918032806,3.3181557377049167,98.43493852459018,73.75409836065573,6.1000000000000005,25.08606557377049,3.1291,0.00217704918032835,213,6,55,0,4,67,47,61,0.037000000000000005,0.963,0.0,-0.2617,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,2,0,4,2,0,1,0,8,11,6,0,2,2,1,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,3,1,0,1,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,5,7,8,0,3,4,0,4,0,0,5,0,11,1,0,1,2,25,10,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2652140251357463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2573192508266677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3425750863200813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1771200290075068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3295594043527829,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2706391800821094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25629486687409825,0.0,0.0,0.25682031976550634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2816922837036096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1879276346580305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27835173969043103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39245768299237377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23462814167182075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,fastingfrycook,2019/01/09,"Quasi Recovery In the 4 weeks between Thanksgiving and Christmas, I lost 10lbs in a binge/restrict cycle and got back down to my gw1 when my bf arrived back.

I have binged almost every single day since and haven't weighed in, am off my workout routine, and have eaten multiple fear foods in single meals. I've purged twice. But I feel okay.

Part of me feels frustrated for not insisting on counting my calories and continuing my deficit for the 3 and a half weeks we're having together (a little under 2 left!) before I go back to school and he doesn't see me again for about 2 months. 

But like... this weird quasi recovery, I don't *have* to continue it. I can try working on why I have this disorder and be honest with my therapist about my behaviors. I can continue trying to tackle fear foods.

But I could also just go back to fasting and restricting, quickly take bacj off the 5lbs or so I've gained back since he's been here making me eat OIL and RICE and BEANS and GRAINS!!! AAAAAA (it's been so nice being a person again and eating food instead of numbers)... And then after that 5lbs, I can get back down to my GW1, maybe be at GW2 by the time he visits for spring break, and then when he leaves after that I can keep going and make my GW3 or even UGW by the time I see him again, by the time I see any of my family again

I can handle 2 more weeks of this. It's nice. I want to recover for real some day, and this is nice practice. I feel guilty that I've resolved not to maintain this and am just planning out relapsing in peace at school, with occasional days I can try to relax -- but still overexercising, and working out times I can pull off multiday fasts since I haven't been able to do those with my bf around.

At any rate I'm excited to go back to school, even if part of the excitement is being back in control",3.9062351469668566,4.884935292682928,4.687005420054202,86.73712476547844,71.41192411924119,8.06174692516156,25.574421513445905,8.384062270229773,1.4516123827392122,1429,42,302,22,26,461,184,369,0.048,0.873,0.078,0.8917,0,0,0,0,0,0,44.0,0,0,0,7,28,15,1,2,11,1,29,8,0,3,0,50,49,33,0,3,11,0,3,1,2,0,0,0,0,1,12,25,8,3,4,2,0,6,6,5,1,2,6,7,34,10,53,38,6,66,0,1,3,0,9,22,0,5,38,202,46,5,0.08363935583938181,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08375273319322138,0.0,0.0,0.06688636264668668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11375526017300355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07445675927023243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5145080151292654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0711709314896726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09380864957264837,0.06677921984142014,0.0,0.0,0.16182139561539494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0958579479658974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17116788322352733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11048601142071986,0.0,0.07046976463051696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07884774097332373,0.18823505688874398,0.1268717141815378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3034111232343265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.043698111338970315,0.0,0.19013669357292956,0.0,0.06689403346531833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07434250246630743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08856200126429208,0.09087440484494066,0.0,0.0,0.04086196447607182,0.0838286073982402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09130223709021623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11165983898605868,0.0,0.08402697483416903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06676013586499442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18114654355664847,0.0,0.0,0.07303065939860144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09519989793052387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25394248020465376,0.1999492133402462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2075620183667745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06679449761469072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06288638654494969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09711173863231043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.195083123999304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17035689715029226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.049332659095054174,0.0,0.20127133861854066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07547150937544563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12178089438198055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,aerienne,2019/01/09,"I've gone 9 days without sweets and I'd kick someone for a twizzler. BUT, I feel great otherwise. No more bloating or cravings or overeating. 

I want a twizzler, but it's not the binge-monster that is uncontrollable. For the first few days, I literally didn't leave the house. I wanted to make it 3 days so I'd have some motivation to continue. Since then, I've gone to the store several times and stood in the candy aisle staring. BUT DIDN'T BUY ANYTHING!

I haven't even had fruit or sugar-substitutes. Just whole foods. Still disordered eating, mind you, but I'm tackling my issues one at a time rather than the 'all or nothing' approach that always fails me.

And I'm kind of pissed that I didn't think I could go days without sweets. 

The best thing is no more bloating. I've always had stomach issues and would also over-hydrate to compensate for binges. 

I just wanted to say 'Go me!'",2.7160387623257383,5.083080046242777,3.5210200612036746,87.94403264195853,78.01734104046244,6.151513090785447,25.20537232233934,7.285733465282438,1.2117659979598772,700,26,136,9,17,222,107,173,0.165,0.7879999999999999,0.047,-0.9718,0,0,0,0,0,0,24.0,0,1,0,4,7,8,1,1,10,0,11,5,2,2,1,30,24,15,0,6,14,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,6,4,3,0,3,0,2,5,9,3,0,2,8,6,12,5,15,14,7,18,0,1,1,0,2,3,1,5,10,86,18,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11826399359155886,0.2461051920891676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12169717887773285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15519672506789253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.118074550848165,0.0,0.0,0.3814956938257965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16948961335843313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15132380236878298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09767698847400384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07477536027372708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.125791344230276,0.17882375277470985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16809349335535306,0.0,0.0,0.16304430330067754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1706400297955221,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3087081133575552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15400000751609888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15658940829688986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09871473017628568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14932221358161146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1419001409475491,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10021105284370056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1176044978897986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16706853896615245,0.0,0.122332426913611,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1253029176687008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11810156398520325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09824856550490224,0.0947590671979673,0.0,0.0,0.17246646710589095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.261680126480658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16510889714453195,0.0,0.2851127199349857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10505362741344508,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,PsychologicalUse1,2019/01/09,"i literally just want to fucking die (wooo!) I look so fucking huge. I screamed at my sister yesterday because she wouldn't give my scale back, and then she eventually gave it back, then I weighed myself and had a mental breakdown! I literally just want to die I broke my fast and went to eat with my mom and I feel like I gained 10 fucking pounds I hate being alive so much and school is soon and I'll barely have lost anything I really just want to die maybe I should post this in suicide watch but like. I don't want people to tell me it'll get better or that I should hang in there or whatever the fuck I don't want to I just want to eat whatever the fuck I want and then jump off a skyscraper. I want disappear or never have to leave my room again but I have work tomorrow and on the weekend and then school on monday and I feel like all my coworkers feel like I'm fucking humongous and I can't deal with being alive anymore ",1.5859940005454052,3.678637269430052,2.9840141805290443,91.76100627215708,80.45077720207254,6.342950640850832,22.074993182437957,7.475848149327749,0.7440735751295335,735,23,161,11,19,239,99,193,0.15,0.6679999999999999,0.182,-0.3791,0,0,0,0,0,4,9.0,0,0,0,4,11,15,7,0,5,0,14,9,0,0,2,38,39,22,4,11,9,2,3,4,0,4,0,1,1,0,4,13,3,0,3,1,0,4,5,10,0,0,4,6,30,5,16,29,2,27,0,2,2,6,8,8,6,3,18,102,34,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09779227658668853,0.0,0.0,0.08114568113289651,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15164636821678568,0.0,0.06011029864034721,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08721043929431375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1016601411403508,0.0,0.0,0.3070174688687988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20180045467071173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14957694822487455,0.211335940989329,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5469670139363438,0.05151841905376501,0.09459342806764773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09735462409240284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10441124692967972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1926988370649277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08280557786403211,0.0,0.10764188123538254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09906462244436426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09937330263450274,0.0,0.0,0.1154880695433239,0.0,0.0,0.07248795716724933,0.0,0.07605228655775105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06836211778053558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09443885601372934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06317057554011647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1995923806905054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10786074728271586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08618741870574494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4652907004754628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09141026492506296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07178753219842256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,yeasomerandosaidso,2019/01/09,"finally clicked for me I've never been formally diagnosed with an ED, never underweight, never hospitalized.

What I do have: fucked up teeth, iron deficiency, diagnosed gastritis, possible IBS, colorectal problems. Despite striving to eat nutritious, healthy foods, my mouth will crack and bleed if I don't take a multivitamin on the regular. Once-weekly shits, 750 ""high-calorie"" days, blue nails, lollipop head, etc.

For anyone who knows they have problems but feels like it's not ""real"" ED. Take care of yourself, because your behavior can still hurt your body. Some damage can't be undone. Stay safe.",6.447549019607841,9.316086303921573,6.182941176470589,70.91990196078433,68.31372549019608,10.023529411764708,34.86274509803922,10.25414643259724,4.419345098039216,481,24,72,14,9,150,89,102,0.153,0.731,0.117,-0.4767,0,0,0,0,0,0,28.0,0,2,1,0,1,9,2,0,3,0,9,11,5,0,3,15,15,3,0,3,3,0,1,1,0,1,3,0,0,0,3,2,2,1,2,0,0,0,6,6,0,0,1,3,7,3,7,12,2,9,0,2,2,1,4,2,2,2,7,39,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11749549081181425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10243389436282904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18665140584700093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1713250858695034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10837006819879236,0.0,0.0,0.341108364791412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17194396737063986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18740585437979704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08496463811886021,0.12004578219280082,0.0,0.18407649750911734,0.0,0.0,0.20319120343841626,0.0,0.0,0.15534764866370834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17245460705592794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17754048765848782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17988725747500348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.092348829748837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08209446952614073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3888018557644921,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1894366522409446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3215777404657356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.191263078507292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17248773215563726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17910525676237074,0.13419469473020912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25268606686037504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13478927560601514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,SleepyHufflepuff,2019/01/09,"Fasting and calories? If I was fasting for about two days, and then I ate like 700 calories, how much weight will I gain? Or will I gain at all? ",0.8399999999999999,2.7999216666666698,1.6833333333333336,100.80500000000002,82.33333333333334,4.0,23.333333333333336,3.1291,-0.3076666666666665,110,4,26,0,3,34,22,30,0.0,0.7,0.3,0.8702,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,2,2,1,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,1,1,6,4,6,0,1,2,0,1,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,1,4,1,3,0,2,5,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,5,19,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3383956363544096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2563476310222129,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3857234715163946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5125670845365656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6389574889901674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,bitchincoffin,2019/01/09,"What’s your dream ed technology? This is what I think about at work when I’m bored lol. Mine is a chip that could straight up be implanted into my body and tells me the exact calories and macros as I’m eating. Like I would be eating dinner or let’s be real shoveling handfuls of popcorn in my mouth and simultaneously watch the number increase on an app or something. 

What do you think? Too far a la black mirror?",4.156425702811244,5.367235746987955,5.15921686746988,82.71223895582331,71.04819277108433,7.461044176706826,25.88152610441768,7.793537801064563,1.3328730923694785,329,10,66,4,6,108,65,83,0.025,0.815,0.16,0.8496,0,0,1,0,0,0,6.0,0,2,0,1,3,2,0,0,5,1,9,6,3,0,1,12,13,7,0,2,2,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,5,4,3,0,2,1,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,3,8,1,8,7,1,9,0,0,2,0,3,7,0,2,2,42,13,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3120244348177057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2242814421012064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5748761333532704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28724651664731393,0.0,0.13723700788276175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31973375020626005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21625599053159905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2455251653922511,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.359987822789258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20450369648841088,0.0,0.0,0.1995483267562772,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,highriskpatient,2019/01/09,"hospitalised for anorexia (follow-up) og post : https://www.reddit.com/r/EDAnonymous/comments/a8ec3g/hospitalised_for_anorexia?sort=top

talked to a trillion doctors and finally got the medication i needed (reglan)! 

it took me so long but i think it was worth it.

on my way to my first appointment with the ed specialist, wml!

♡",10.253768115942028,15.10780017391304,6.6391304347826114,61.11855072463769,69.0,8.284057971014493,27.231884057971016,8.841846274778883,2.9803449275362324,272,9,35,6,6,75,40,46,0.0,0.932,0.068,0.4468,0,0,0,0,0,0,22.0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,3,0,1,2,0,0,0,5,5,3,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,2,3,0,5,0,5,2,0,7,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,3,22,8,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32700962422810564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34998361422784835,0.0,0.2717564279527632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2555238318720698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2827369286366707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3218506646527705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2368963895278101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30598130011088104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25679244535666457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2047150841373829,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3549630519682916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25359479524728873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,molotov-cocktail,2019/01/09,"upped my calories i've gotten to a point where i know if i lose any more weight my mum'll intervene. I know she's already worried and i do have moments of clarity where i can see that parts of me are verging on unhealthily thin. I don't want to make her life any harder than it already is, or has been. Getting smaller has been in large part for me about decreasing how much of a burden i am. And now becoming small is adding to that burden. What the fuck am i supposed to do with that? 

I'd love to get smaller, just a bit, but i'm starting uni in a few months and i can't afford to let my bullshit derail the rest of my life, so i'm gonna try not to let it. I'm not gonna jump into the rabbit hole. 

I upped my calories to maintenance and even though i'm already struggling with it a little, i got a good feeling going forward. I wanna be able to live as normally and happily as i can, without arranging my life around food or lack of food. I don't want my mum to worry about me.  

lets get this bread yall  😤",2.3428211009174302,3.2005104724770628,4.121915137614678,89.77810206422018,75.0091743119266,7.101376146788992,26.01032110091743,7.413659706084162,1.1233293577981651,785,27,179,9,16,266,127,218,0.14400000000000002,0.789,0.067,-0.9247,1,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,1,0,1,11,7,1,1,9,0,21,9,0,2,0,27,43,14,0,6,8,1,3,0,0,2,3,0,0,0,8,9,4,0,3,0,0,3,6,5,0,0,4,4,27,2,32,33,8,21,0,1,1,2,5,15,1,3,5,123,35,0,0.12194854818312112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4037197660884751,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16585838911685166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10856006247658948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1346825904574192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1331362302189001,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08054586595080185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061660850105278185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29492133704848045,0.0,0.0,0.1127394677425696,0.19113924955490905,0.0,0.06930617023786344,0.10228465640632207,0.09753339419392862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13403946570277658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.374101958352492,0.2584075980863006,0.0,0.1222244823126055,0.1076828022466692,0.0,0.0,0.1364292321863536,0.0,0.0,0.11006332592446967,0.0,0.08140160285822909,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09733816770275308,0.0,0.08964621449438588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1194836850910504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26411678776610564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1152807952872586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09717720417018937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08631581006974601,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12748710042951214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11981382942331847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0827950593034002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14385682659267998,0.0,0.0,0.1485004785568828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1175540487044386,0.0,0.0,0.2476893404067118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Ureseth,2019/01/09,Buddy group Hey guys for all who needs support getting trough ed be free to join the buddy group i created. You can talk with me mostly about food and with the others. I am a chef and passionate about food. We can make recipes with ingredients you like or discuss pros and cons about certain foods (habits). Im a big fan of veggies and fish. Not vegetarian myself. Be welcome. Send me a pm for the link to this group and get trough this together.,2.4057471264367827,4.860600379310345,3.235172413793105,89.0854022988506,79.6896551724138,6.16551724137931,23.459770114942533,7.3871296695380915,0.9736804597701147,351,12,71,5,9,111,61,87,0.0,0.754,0.246,0.9661,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,1,2,0,0,3,6,0,0,6,0,5,4,0,1,2,17,10,6,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,4,9,3,0,1,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,8,7,11,8,2,2,0,0,0,1,13,1,0,2,1,43,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8200965989521146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23622517268124996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22384549089668287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2441951009580089,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11044670259978584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15090391745672074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16762852590371136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25654229985610955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18170702881604595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,someone52207,2019/01/09,"DAE lie about their weight and insist it's higher even though they're still in the ""healthy"" weight range? I'm about 5'7"" and I keep insisting that I'm 140 lbs even though I'm actually 125 lbs. Really unsure why I refuse to let people know my actual weight.  
Then I even get a little offended when people actually believe me, wtf is wrong with me. ",4.241739130434779,5.489378971014496,5.1833043478260885,82.4801739130435,70.8840579710145,8.998260869565216,22.495652173913044,9.3871,1.5888817391304348,275,6,56,6,5,90,51,69,0.195,0.805,0.0,-0.9074,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,1,0,9,2,1,0,2,0,2,3,0,0,0,6,8,6,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,3,3,2,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,4,7,0,5,7,0,5,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,3,28,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.4665852844991754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17956268592008096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3157999330216078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0832676188690776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14166111466738315,0.0,0.0,0.08758913072179329,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1629732216633096,0.0,0.0,0.15973707598060882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22098313080966436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10210063710078626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12727824154202078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31317311248937035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5822327518408588,0.0,0.0,0.14381245975141738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17425313243320886,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,empTXistence,2019/01/09,"Just re-downloaded MFP Deleted it 6 months ago, but whaddya know, I lost 18 pounds since my last login. Graph looks halarious. I'm bout to yeet another 20 pounds asap 


But anyways, idk why but lately I've been feeling very very fat. Havnt put any weight on but it's time to stop maintaining and get back into active dieting for me. ",1.6174230769230782,4.258007107692308,2.82798076923077,89.25889423076927,85.61538461538461,6.3269230769230775,21.971153846153847,7.6454224807358475,1.2021153846153845,262,9,51,5,8,84,56,65,0.11,0.81,0.08,-0.2617,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,1,3,1,0,0,0,0,1,3,1,0,0,10,7,5,0,0,5,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,2,3,1,2,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,2,3,3,0,5,5,0,10,0,1,1,0,0,2,0,0,7,19,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22164699695354065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17003701971177845,0.2621906618643633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19226673425332502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12642866291688756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1306365368566111,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13741645142713846,0.20381746530163167,0.282058076974351,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2099721638056956,0.0,0.2729501961355965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1995810043557186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25136110266298123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20683718686809088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.209046167256264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.145801402723956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4126213949536477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3044835890911193,0.0,0.0,0.22562386139917315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,thinandmint,2019/01/09,"I WENT TO THE DENTIST! I've been so scared to go ever since developing bulimia and I'm so proud of myself for finally going. 2 years of bulimia and avoidance landed me 7 cavities, despite baking soda precautions. Luckily they aren't that deep and I'm privileged enough to be on my parent's dental insurance ($2000 bill turned into $200). I think I got off pretty lucky and now feel a new sense of motivation to recover. I'm too vapid to risk losing my teeth down the line. 

The hygienist was nice about it all and I only felt sort of anxious with lying about being in school (not wanting to explain taking time off for ED recovery) and explaining my shitty flossing.  No one mentioned EDs, I'm not sure if she could tell. I hope this post can motivate some of you out there to go sooner rather than later, and take pristine care of your teeth in the meantime (really mad at myself for not flossing!)",4.420083041958044,5.83385010795455,5.847954545454549,77.24914335664339,70.64772727272728,9.051748251748252,28.311188811188806,9.466822959209583,2.666983041958042,713,26,129,16,13,241,128,176,0.141,0.7040000000000001,0.155,0.5966,1,1,0,0,0,0,20.0,0,2,1,4,9,12,1,3,5,0,7,5,2,2,3,32,27,10,0,5,5,1,2,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,3,10,2,1,7,0,1,4,5,5,0,1,5,2,15,7,29,19,3,23,0,1,0,0,9,11,0,5,7,82,18,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21070261845070687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19015883952709028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14891263902858354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19271414435408116,0.0,0.0,0.1687084976158097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09430479432432967,0.0,0.17907834417677304,0.2043120128782956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31799289752879434,0.0,0.14916866477688845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.185245991570886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2086563947657765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1801320127520014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1263836468705077,0.1418488598478697,0.0,0.0,0.2070966995996991,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1786245206556232,0.189747187002244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11948274525638812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18672852088360767,0.18875754552857546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15428256469848975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17578297253149888,0.0,0.2804638269694681,0.0,0.1630175015104065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11950774038075025,0.0,0.0,0.10875517449014184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2028687507862798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11000812039414422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1728961514831263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12010598666855428
EDAnonymous,NueNesta,2019/01/09,"Does anyone else feel like a fraud if ...? You've had your eating disorder, especially for years, but have never been hospitalized for it? ",5.7650000000000015,8.192918833333334,6.298333333333333,71.28,69.0,9.8,24.5,10.125756701596842,2.7189,108,3,18,3,2,35,23,24,0.175,0.759,0.066,-0.4329,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,3,1,0,0,1,4,4,2,0,1,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,1,1,1,2,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,3,11,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2574361985287996,0.3772383246099454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4219599194557835,0.0,0.3221920206333881,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37673446882105066,0.3075625846582332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.186160109597118,0.2630239646100825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17987148280351714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28395890213144304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23709233238547744
EDAnonymous,Biased24,2019/01/09,"Any other trans folks out here? I was suggested to create a thread for the other trans people who might be in this sub. A few questions for the MtF crew out there, do you ever relate to the guys more than the girls when thinking about issues in ED and stuff, or feel invalidated because of your junk? i know i feel these things. Now for the FtM guys out there, you guys are valid too and your issues too. How is it for you guys? ",3.847931034482759,4.664330517241382,4.170747126436783,90.98646551724138,71.41379310344827,6.719540229885059,20.24712643678161,6.42735559955562,-0.0417494252873567,333,5,74,2,6,104,60,87,0.0,0.968,0.032,0.3899,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,5,0,0,10,0,0,0,7,0,6,0,0,1,1,14,10,5,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,5,8,5,0,0,5,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,8,0,14,7,2,8,0,0,0,0,13,5,0,3,3,57,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12841251222135644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11511048273771195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17080972315337914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1909586776981128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7478950851866961,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3941839457920376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10377735259188686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20032134307980465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13091261492099476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21153551236783932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21616792846316574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12545186065218147,0.12099618180233825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,laisserai,2019/01/09,"Food scale for my birthday gift? I go back and forth with counting calories.  I stopped because it really fucked with my head but I need to get back to it because just counting in my head isn't really working anymore.

Anyways, my birthday is coming up and I want to ask for a food scale but is that too obvious? I mentioned it in passing to my mom and she said 'Why would anyone want to weigh their food? That's ridiculous!"". 

Have you guys ever asked for something for a gift that you ended up using to fuel your ED even more? Or am I just a weirdo?",2.28108108108108,4.205533189189193,3.3029639639639647,91.1522837837838,77.46846846846847,5.521081081081082,25.51441441441441,6.2581,0.7810100900900903,428,16,88,3,10,137,67,111,0.07200000000000001,0.838,0.09,-0.3712,0,0,1,0,0,0,11.0,0,3,1,1,8,2,2,0,3,0,6,7,2,1,2,19,17,6,0,4,5,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,1,6,6,4,1,0,0,0,3,1,2,0,0,1,1,16,0,16,15,1,12,0,0,0,1,11,4,1,1,5,62,22,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15459913141006856,0.1090006014375982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2914687066706376,0.0,0.0,0.2397366911386307,0.0,0.1900559079501472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13428381623484048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13807060852345582,0.0,0.0,0.10296263621259076,0.14100973364258707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5655016178558682,0.0,0.0,0.1441160594271784,0.08144511116142837,0.0,0.08859481376546027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15435375224523576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3199723795339165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18257428769230435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11558906928582212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19973184897723284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14828530470346166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12001029447354288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13032945253857092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13463728835997926,0.0,0.0,0.18389370985479364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14066478578267985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1134884114709234,0.0,0.0,0.11073845120708622,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,RedditRanOutOfNamess,2019/01/09,My roommate just made a big deal about washing all the dishes I haven't eaten since Sunday and he's whining about me not doing the dishes? BOI,4.49758620689655,5.4753444482758615,5.120172413793104,84.17956896551725,70.0344827586207,5.8000000000000025,24.84482758620689,3.1291,0.5231931034482757,115,3,21,0,2,37,26,29,0.073,0.927,0.0,-0.2263,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,3,0,2,4,0,1,1,5,4,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,2,0,3,0,2,2,1,2,0,1,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,14,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6342108827479549,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5820865481748722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5088730751748634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,tigerchik,2019/01/09,"Recovery success: 9% increase in bone density after 13 years at a healthy weight. Ask me anything. I am a 31 year old in a very strong recovery from AN. At age 18, I was diagnosed with osteoporosis in my spine and osteopoenia in my hips after 4-ish years of AN. I went from 93 lbs at age 17 to 115 lbs at age 18, and have been from 115 to 125 lbs since age 18. I am 5'6"", so the key point here is 13 years at a healthy weight. 

Based on a bone density scan done last week, I have a 9% improvement in my spine (osteoporosis to osteopoenia) and my hips are NORMAL (up from osteopoenia). 

I lift weights very occasionally, but am going to do more of it SO I GET MORE OF THAT GOOD BONE DENSITY STUFF. 

Basically, what worked here was 13 years at a healthy weight and pretty normal eating habits. I'm an ovo lacto vegetarian. I don't take a calcium supplement. I've been on birth control pills for those 13 years.

From ages 18-25 I had some stress fractures in my feet and legs. I am a long distance runner and at age 18 once I hit a healthy weight, I REALLY upped the running mileage because that was the reward for the healthy weight. In retrospect, that was a bad idea - my skeleton was still adjusting to the new pounds. I haven't had a serious running injury for 6 years. 

I share this in hopes of providing hope to any of you who have been diagnosed with bone loss. You can turn it around.

I tried to think of all the details that might be relevant here but I am happy to answer questions if there's a way I can help anyone else with this MISERABLE illness. 

Thanks for letting me share. Not a lot of people in my life are aware I even have this issue. ",3.411596385542172,4.693674412650607,4.4813686746988,86.58652289156629,72.94578313253012,8.324048192771086,26.834216867469877,8.841846274778883,1.832193108433735,1283,45,277,25,25,419,168,332,0.07,0.747,0.183,0.9892,0,0,0,0,0,0,40.0,0,2,0,6,9,15,0,2,23,0,31,22,10,1,1,28,43,11,0,5,4,0,6,0,0,1,5,0,0,0,13,10,7,1,5,1,0,6,3,5,0,0,12,7,29,10,50,27,6,51,0,2,1,0,8,22,0,7,22,169,42,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06066978839910572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.062381746368036776,0.09141210762358314,0.07341698364092633,0.07942095728915037,0.08340470921234609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0744914481086755,0.05438511021556373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10006308123110612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18110427344411767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.091298715980196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09129001366706684,0.07452833462463268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05892617997411119,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.046611561774706635,0.0,0.05070338263229105,0.07482996179680476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09497185467251984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05979945542494825,0.0,0.0,0.17722279581794045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10071375401291403,0.0,0.09311809327545477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07272276656490649,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09122917758854444,0.06301574244589167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07895315609885417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07584806409384039,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09464384183627203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08616515435910736,0.0,0.0,0.17482504033033294,0.0,0.0,0.09361695133220813,0.09501189191287313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06185098717124424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08433774732529327,0.0,0.0,0.09076451990665446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0999420893824614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05715391190593465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07380021351599889,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07124783557867641,0.0,0.1021963723035678,0.0,0.10213072115531854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06707916203723675,0.0,0.0,0.0821379018913018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05716586818575401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060571657004214005,0.09704114753997198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14722472061210534,0.0,0.07081533194677032,0.0715635157220891,0.6518446966126933,0.0,0.08270392004751337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06495014895989859,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4021642519754569
EDAnonymous,thegreenjellybean,2019/01/09,"I can’t do this anymore I finally went to see a psychologist. After a lot A LOT of patience and pushing from my close friend, I went. 

She made me tell her what the problem is right away. She pressured me into telling her I was struggling with this fucking ED when I wasn’t ready to tell her yet and she could SEE how much trouble I had getting it out. She made me weigh myself and check my BMI and do all these things I WAS NOT READY TO DO IN FRONT OF A COMPLETE STRANGER. 

I feel like I’m spiraling out of control. I was going to eat dinner, now I’m not. I was going to eat tomorrow, now I’m not.

I can’t believe she did that. I wasn’t READY. 

I’m losing my mind. I can’t do this anymore. I want to sleep and never wake up ",-0.14889054355919384,1.7813042151898768,2.075212211466866,96.73817944899479,85.96202531645571,4.730305286671632,21.319434102755025,5.900188976854957,-0.02406150409530916,558,19,133,4,17,188,84,158,0.122,0.8140000000000001,0.064,-0.8179,0,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,0,2,6,8,1,2,5,0,17,7,2,4,2,26,33,7,0,3,3,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,8,10,4,1,1,0,1,6,9,6,0,0,12,3,29,2,18,20,4,22,0,1,2,1,12,8,1,2,9,95,37,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29324150264156096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13890357543346907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16656868560396734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15501080728805994,0.0,0.16581874682281186,0.11804078406793254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3025610540364739,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07475397613007354,0.10561922860193572,0.0,0.16195502512061652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1142233079439178,0.13667867806162193,0.07724198241592059,0.0,0.1680454222341177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07222873128445567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16539875056685172,0.0,0.2513820438514972,0.0,0.2797856660620155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14927951064237846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10868178053048172,0.0,0.1140258084172529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1414659984846238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1262573052981384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2356238160363535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14794999437833214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15455783769001674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3876644820871818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09822046852976472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08720176386553576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27410429922578744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,strawberryrhubarbjam,2019/01/09,Tea? How do you drink yours? Plain? Milk & Sugar? I’m curious! ,-2.7392307692307694,-5.470308000000001,-0.05292307692307574,100.07292307692309,167.46153846153842,4.116923076923079,10.292307692307693,5.6839178017228535,-0.7210492307692307,48,1,11,1,5,16,13,13,0.0,0.7559999999999999,0.244,0.5502,0,0,1,0,0,0,7.0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,1,0,1,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7417706936757329,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6706535901669517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,cisheterpatriarchy,2019/01/09,thinspo/forcing myself to think things doesn’t make me eat any less lol does anyone else just feel completely unaffected by thinspo? like i see it and think ‘wow wish that was me’ but it never stops me from eating my entire body weight in food. and also thinking about how fat i’ll be or looking at myself in the mirror when i feel particularly bloated doesn’t stop me from binging. i just feel hopeless literally the only way for me is to absolutely force myself and deal with not eating as much for a while and then maybe i’ll be used to it but it’s so difficult,3.687777777777778,5.3620909734513305,4.865958702064899,82.53889872173059,72.89380530973452,7.146116027531957,24.944936086529,7.793537801064563,1.312076499508358,452,14,88,6,9,149,79,113,0.101,0.838,0.061,-0.8195,0,0,0,0,0,1,4.0,0,0,0,0,7,4,0,0,3,1,6,7,2,3,1,24,17,14,0,1,6,0,4,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,6,5,6,2,6,0,0,0,4,2,0,0,1,6,12,2,14,14,2,10,0,1,2,0,1,3,0,1,7,60,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13228045058141066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1124862862641845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11566038327765407,0.16948482560243086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1837361841753878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17343203495434095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1705331971317845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1447537401826987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5077753630619072,0.13818105855636936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2509128446200703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2000176543453525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08081227411166653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13890498060594755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11041424012653557,0.0,0.16617925765779906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12159734336997027,0.0,0.12757644668199378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12580378755059882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1318124800903471,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2765847937381819,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1098928263732617,0.3179692751348782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14286343533704413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1312968762781291,0.0,0.2014280668016052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19021640446744326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,vydka,2019/01/09,"Body image and intimacy issues I've struggled with anorexia/bulimia for years. Started in high school and I'm 27 now. In college I was hospitalized for 3 months and improved slightly. Then relapsed a year later and attempted suicide. After that hospitalization I did much better. 
I started a relationship with a truly great guy and now he's my husband. When we got together I was in such a better place mentally and didn't have any problems with sex. 
Now I can't even look at myself. I've been struggling so much with my body image and going through patterns of restricting then emotional eating. My sex drive is absolutely gone because I'm so ashamed of my weight and the way that I look. And I feel so guilty because we're newlyweds and this is where we're supposed to be spontaneous and lovey. 
I feel like such a failure of a wife because I'm on the verge of relapsing. If I lost weight I feel like everything would be better. I'd feel better about myself and would be able to be intimate again. 
Has anyone else gone through something like this? What's helped or not helped?",4.385626598465471,6.396524777777778,5.0631713554987225,80.44979539641947,71.7536231884058,7.962375674907644,30.533958510940607,8.671277953709913,2.5573793123046307,867,38,157,16,17,279,118,207,0.118,0.727,0.155,0.7105,0,0,1,0,0,1,17.0,1,0,0,6,13,13,0,3,8,0,16,7,2,0,0,28,32,20,1,4,3,2,6,3,0,2,0,0,0,1,5,17,3,1,4,0,0,4,3,5,0,0,9,8,17,8,21,17,2,28,0,1,2,2,8,9,0,2,17,98,22,2,0.11632156120831655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07910265045795342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08133474020786688,0.11918518570405467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21272563216467832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4115078724694008,0.0,0.25841406336714434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11902599682569888,0.09717173833282408,0.13084609990524826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07682929412332151,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10454231875646992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23526270567510346,0.16620029313873655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06610822386611627,0.0,0.09303297867513463,0.12824493188335426,0.0,0.11517663364603475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15593578104931624,0.1229001159134622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1214094886111054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17048651753212415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1953616301623704,0.0,0.12697872495026036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11722477457480368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09284676038405122,0.0,0.17101946323697015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12153127368042307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1113040245063749,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1248858246086884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11772363005458428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08955002077546605,0.0,0.0,0.16466599945407262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2432091037871797,0.0,0.12723690820854547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09233064096415876,0.0,0.2832966486813757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16526299930750848,0.0,0.0,0.14981454333192953
EDAnonymous,doses_and_neuroses,2019/01/09,Yeah sex is good but have u ever eaten an entire cake and lasagna and woken up to find it was only a dream?? I am feeling very blessed this morning,3.79258064516129,4.1026897096774215,4.919516129032257,87.39927419354844,71.25806451612904,6.2,28.403225806451612,3.1291,0.8585354838709676,115,4,24,0,2,38,30,31,0.0,0.622,0.378,0.9177,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,2,1,4,2,0,0,1,6,7,3,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,1,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,1,2,2,4,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,15,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4596946571567891,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2569604418734494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.464484241399376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.42625280809731536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.386507875521128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4193170026777445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,quiteapear,2019/01/09,"Daily calorie limit? What is too little? Just curious what everyone’s usual calorie limit is daily and how they divide it into their meal(s).

I’ve always had a problem with bulimia, but a recent breakup from a long term relationship has triggered me into limiting my calories. Since the breakup last Tuesday (happy New Years am I right?) I’ve barely gotten past 500 calories. I avoid fried foods and high fat food, but usually eat whatever I’d like as long as I’m at or below 500. I have also been exercising every night to burn off whatever I may have left (2hrs worth)

I’m just looking for advice, helpful insight, or just support. The plus side is I don’t find myself needing to throw up since this change. 

Thanks",4.49225935828877,6.4496003382352995,5.4568181818181785,77.96090909090908,71.35294117647058,7.592513368983957,29.275401069518715,8.296473431620573,2.357935294117646,570,23,96,9,11,187,101,136,0.034,0.8440000000000001,0.121,0.9144,0,1,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,0,2,3,6,6,0,1,5,0,11,5,1,2,0,24,18,11,0,2,7,0,0,1,0,1,2,0,0,0,4,6,4,4,2,1,1,1,1,2,0,0,3,1,10,4,14,14,1,24,0,0,1,0,4,11,0,3,13,56,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1553426675693501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12712745236317194,0.13227494325829214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1681681241203885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16266497429040472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13393823930047072,0.15190169256079267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1452947866018672,0.0,0.3844518931228309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16922545717824364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10655357019393848,0.16795947716049475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1295809528164758,0.0,0.0,0.17272028431238182,0.0,0.0,0.0776642238693297,0.15932870127777438,0.0,0.28136512617479315,0.1334939231562573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11787349967202022,0.0,0.1535332513988799,0.0,0.1491816382279325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15175389881066964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1521118643623823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15696270995069322,0.17067321417989742,0.0,0.1357586579389801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2630016001090177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18039613803749927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14635729761355487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3501637904268928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10237082439689098
EDAnonymous,The_Immortal_Unicorn,2019/01/09,"A confession I guess? I have ADHD and I have always taken medication for it. In 2016 and 2017 however, I was off meds, simply because I was an annoying teenager who wanted to be rebellious. I started taking them again in December 2017 and I'm so ashamed of the reason why. See, they suppress my appetite. My mindset around food and weight wasn't as bad as it is now, but this is where it started getting out of control. I decided to start taking medication again so I would be able to eat less. It worked. I went my first whole day without food in the same month. I nearly passed out at school because my body was still used to getting new energy every few hours. I knew it was bad, I've heard how bad eating disorders are at elementary, I knew that what I was doing wasn't healthy. But to be completely honest, I liked it. I felt so proud. I wanted to keep going. So I did.

I have never told anyone this before. I'm so ashamed of what I did. I let it spiral out of control. I stayed on the meds, partly because they really help with my ADHD,  but also because, and this still hurts to say, I'm scared that I won't be able to stop eating if I stop. I don't really know what the purpose of this post is, but I needed to get it off my chest.",1.8452429667519217,3.666449019607846,3.819403239556692,87.42644501278772,78.41176470588233,6.6308610400682015,22.851662404092075,7.586124646067393,0.9894450127877236,960,30,201,14,23,326,133,255,0.106,0.777,0.117,0.6897,1,0,0,0,0,0,32.0,0,0,3,5,14,11,1,3,6,0,25,10,2,5,1,38,52,19,0,5,6,0,2,1,0,2,2,2,0,0,18,10,6,6,7,0,0,3,6,8,0,1,16,5,34,3,32,29,5,35,1,1,1,0,9,14,0,2,17,145,52,2,0.19663339575662486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23631513003954524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07862382777244188,0.08180736862121125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06874532113360385,0.0,0.0,0.0875227054620963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.246271008111531,0.2397317859360871,0.0,0.08366026852748094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10920768742982684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10308318717195594,0.0,0.22054107341806897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06340613659403035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11267945352779254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30180758016014003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08283605832688742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09439944808028786,0.0,0.0,0.08362813299018416,0.23776988266332386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15409925030807686,0.0,0.05587564511343667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10830692703548914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06589961016078671,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09682214301949628,0.0,0.10525005851304503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08738839845363959,0.0,0.0,0.05403228595014268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10053548474065324,0.0,0.04803257241511034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21841537485965368,0.19808745934237526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07847545025045784,0.0,0.0,0.0729005857104133,0.07582789843592189,0.0949548794609964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10646740290994572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0941602193219512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12596838840755378,0.10108594004181384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07818538429613799,0.09843216606280948,0.09950174713084294,0.07834567910323001,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2087671943746092,0.10479251848537924,0.15703168385295269,0.16439432351316133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14784384228094236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09394581809225352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08491406013170659,0.0,0.0,0.11597947141287003,0.0,0.0,0.11972325134316485,0.0,0.09114056392604217,0.08871552765106464,0.10976708208943878,0.0,0.09477378831514773,0.0,0.07157572700163177,0.0,0.0,0.06984136132888487,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,drugstore-diet,2019/01/09,Why call it “binging and purging” when you can call it “eat and yeet” instead That is all,0.8633333333333333,3.1244908888888894,1.6866666666666674,99.00000000000004,84.55555555555556,3.6,25.66666666666667,3.1291,0.06646666666666734,68,3,15,0,2,21,15,18,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,3,2,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,1,1,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,11,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8315238136215388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4166323638103917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3674038932919167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,snaafuuu,2019/01/09,"It's my birthday and I think I might eat Because I'm so amazed I made it to 24 and I deserve to enjoy a day that celebrates that. I want to be kind to myself because  I haven't been in a long long time.

And also because I hate myself and look forward to fasting and being disgusted by the two meals I'm expected to eat today, never mind that it won't be nearly enough to make me gain.

That's how EDs go I guess",1.684395604395604,2.664264252747252,4.003076923076924,89.51692307692308,76.8021978021978,6.518681318681319,23.98901098901099,6.868970318607317,0.7386000000000004,321,10,73,3,7,112,57,91,0.076,0.7190000000000001,0.205,0.9004,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,1,3,5,2,0,3,0,7,3,0,3,1,15,17,8,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,7,5,3,0,1,0,0,2,3,2,0,1,2,1,12,3,10,10,1,11,0,0,1,0,0,3,0,2,8,50,19,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16282784852982835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3723585969494265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13131241632085872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4166902947004921,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2103848570323833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11571696948372252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22430075474202624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2010239623578341,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2120297914513649,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36037911005630535,0.17098217493766552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1926618943334003,0.1359120950060186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2159993670839488,0.2055893263606204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15703755350851994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1304658719189382,0.0,0.0,0.11872736126000835,0.0,0.1929996638421131,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1988986120569909,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12009519466822215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ilonacamille,2019/01/09,"almost killed myself trying to donate blood hello dramatic clickbait title, but for real.

So I've been a vegetarian/flex-vegan for 12 years. My iron levels are usually low but still safe. 
I'm also a blood donor. Last time they told me my iron levels needed to be higher or I wouldn't be allowed to donate next time. 

I mean I would've incorporated a bit more iron into my diet if I actually ate. Nah ya girl decided to full on restrict for the last 2 months. So yesterday was donation day. I realise my iron levels will be low af. No worries, I'll just take my supplements. 

So apparently when your doctor tells you to only take 1 a day, might want to listen to that. 
I actually overdosed on iron. About an hour later I feel nauseous, dizzy, my stomach hurts worse than any period cramp ever managed to. 

I'm like.. hmm let me google if my iron supplements have anything to do with this. Oh hell yes they did! There are people literally dying and going into coma. 

After giving an oscar worthy performance about how I forgot I already took it and accidentally took it again my dad brought me to my doctor's office. 

He gave me something to flush the excessive iron out and if things got worse I should go to the ER. 

After a few hours I felt much better and went to the donation anyway. Iron levels were okay :) 

tldr: accidentally overdosed on iron because I wanted to donate",3.5618884331419203,5.638785969811322,5.423478260869565,76.7004347826087,74.20754716981132,7.627563576702213,23.974569319114032,8.456263369488248,1.7700762920426585,1082,33,191,20,23,371,168,265,0.17,0.741,0.09,-0.9729,2,0,1,0,0,0,31.0,0,3,2,2,14,9,2,0,11,2,16,9,3,2,1,33,39,16,2,8,7,1,2,1,0,4,4,1,0,1,5,8,2,3,4,0,5,6,2,5,1,0,14,3,31,4,29,17,5,40,1,3,0,0,14,13,1,6,22,119,36,3,0.0,0.0,0.2486967533590048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12759768785500072,0.0,0.14061660857965724,0.1019016920087697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08665334029119236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10485988223232152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07767707102061876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11269701931337202,0.1391150501783418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1643571112149681,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1322469874731521,0.0,0.0,0.2608496857235969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11526316874744945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06442988690855432,0.0,0.12234794154154653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12223762976220708,0.14483707904988216,0.0,0.10191337853748393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2509758295197114,0.0,0.13641105184477595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14097683525008553,0.0,0.0,0.20773669413881374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13030065175210478,0.0,0.06225339746622065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13880313398825622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1351777424894588,0.0,0.0,0.10170938490576267,0.0,0.09367200503709676,0.09448399095783093,0.0,0.0,0.13551788728533384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09691242172348144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08834042082755973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14503749784431005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09809795725447262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10176173519505753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1916154187393338,0.0,0.11137502882736107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08465547930810427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14860503420475996,0.0,0.0,0.12176000701029464,0.2831476314129216,0.08651318135246551,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1403405875812294,0.0,0.15031708211230907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11812421167762605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1294062291033253,0.2597138346331133,0.0905190333928738,0.0,0.0,0.08205749446291782
EDAnonymous,audreyhepburnwho,2019/01/09,"WE HAVE HALO TOP IN GERMANY NOW FINALLY

It's sold at Edeka, i haven't found it myself yet but saw it announced on HaloTops Instagram. Helllll yeah! Can't wait to try it out. There's other similar ice creams available but I'm so curious to finally try halo top after seeing so many talk about it around here! ",0.7025089605734821,3.2339996451612905,3.464408602150538,82.49439068100361,92.87096774193549,6.62652329749104,23.017921146953405,7.793537801064563,1.8679512544802868,246,10,45,6,9,86,47,62,0.0,0.821,0.179,0.8844,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,1,0,0,2,8,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,7,9,4,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,6,3,0,1,1,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,3,3,3,0,9,6,0,12,0,0,3,0,2,7,0,0,5,29,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26905245286527674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.662165432184049,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3313841234061255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30641797007964977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2408414710540303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2429243450959032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4103942699095194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,flippdipp,2019/01/09,"went to the dentist over break I always dread the dentist as a bulimic and so far neither a hygienist or my dentist have been suspicious of me that I know of. This app was not different, but when i got home i checked the samples i got and the toothpaste was sensodyne. checked my brothers stuff as he went at the same time as me and his was just normal toothpaste. I wasn't even asked if my teeth felt sensitive. Not that I think they know anything but they must be able to tell my enamel is weakening or something RIP. don't purge friends",4.141518691588786,5.561418794392524,4.403820093457946,87.31171144859816,71.33644859813084,7.966822429906544,32.06658878504673,8.472884824447931,2.392701869158879,429,20,87,7,8,134,70,107,0.098,0.902,0.0,-0.8414,1,0,1,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,2,0,4,2,0,1,7,0,10,4,1,0,1,18,19,13,0,3,8,1,1,0,1,1,3,0,1,0,4,3,0,0,4,0,2,2,5,1,0,0,10,2,16,1,9,7,2,8,0,0,0,0,8,3,0,3,2,62,20,0,0.2301547643669635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1915072012670752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18939776061716854,0.0,0.21516363607369213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2404627428189547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1520150512230999,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22098466687908036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17781700002633805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3681515802042291,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2308639943325127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.252974078858006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2255028025961641,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17718438195412134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2634721411552363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20116540853860326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1474738797642796,0.0,0.0,0.13420509395796296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4267115447801787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,zagadatbae,2019/01/09,"How do I lose weight in a healthy manner without obsession? Without repeating today's weight in my mind? Without weighing daily? Without comparing myself to any other woman who may have remotely the same skin colour as me? Without feeling inadequate? Without suddenly expecting more from myself despite achieving goals? Without feeling inferior when I see a normal but beautiful woman in real life or instagram? 

I feel so insecure but am trying so hard to keep the journey healthy for my mind, body, heart and soul. This is so difficult.",6.002415458937197,9.170169,6.60971014492754,65.88118357487923,70.95652173913044,9.306280193236717,39.570048309178745,9.725611199111238,5.174046859903382,436,27,56,12,9,142,69,92,0.158,0.696,0.146,-0.3048,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,3,5,5,0,2,4,0,5,7,3,1,0,23,10,10,0,2,10,0,7,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,3,1,3,1,3,0,0,1,7,5,0,0,0,9,8,0,15,9,2,8,1,2,2,0,3,3,0,2,4,46,11,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08214309127005923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1341733170111491,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18322906179025544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1082064186387478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14313977968586614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10736598828128292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0853193660266619,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1351359907817785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2439321277209192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11835107409372475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1374883920570241,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09625604100009927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11449723456909608,0.0,0.0,0.08201022751134589,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.294185622534932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8150781039557089,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,DisguisedAsMe,2019/01/09,Suddenly have stretch marks?! It's been in the past 2-3 weeks I got some white stretch marks on my butt/hip flexor area...anything I can do to reduce them? I am so sad because they appeared out of nowhere ,0.6007142857142861,2.9363366904761925,1.4526666666666692,99.609,86.85714285714286,4.312380952380953,25.06666666666667,5.6839178017228535,0.3490038095238104,159,7,36,1,5,49,38,42,0.12,0.88,0.0,-0.6852,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,2,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,5,0,0,0,0,3,7,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,2,1,6,0,5,5,1,9,0,1,1,0,2,5,0,2,3,20,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4569513905804477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3384959515827801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4441113135934887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5300813770316709,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4454153031398192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,pwdump,2019/01/09,DAE hold their breath when walking past a bakery? Can’t get hungry until 1 PM! Breakfast is cancelled.,2.064035087719297,4.903719263157896,2.406315789473684,89.09087719298245,93.21052631578951,2.533333333333333,22.12280701754386,3.1291,-0.005540350877192513,82,3,13,0,3,25,19,19,0.133,0.867,0.0,-0.3164,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,2,2,1,0,0,1,3,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,3,0,4,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,6,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4800985589104627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8772145539901268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,konmarimylife,2019/01/09,"Triggered by Marie Kondo I don't even want to be as tiny as she is! Doesn't matter, triggered anyway! She did her magic on the (enormous) house of this Asian American couple who reminded me of my aunt and uncle, who had such an excess of stuff, they had three different rooms acting as closets, and a basement piled high with Christmas tchotchkes. They have been living in piles of garbage, essentially. And here comes little Marie Kondo with all the whimsical solutions to make your life perfect and better. I experienced some of the secondhand embarrassment that I'd felt when visiting Tokyo, just this major anxiety and concern over being offensive or judged. I just kept thinking ""Oh my God, she hates this place and thinks it's disgusting, but she's just being polite!""",8.333902877697843,8.807606661870508,7.570422661870506,71.7331879496403,61.5179856115108,10.691007194244603,34.64118705035971,10.411451182825502,3.703193525179856,622,24,101,13,8,193,104,139,0.09,0.85,0.06,-0.4809,1,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,1,2,2,8,6,3,1,5,0,11,1,0,3,2,26,19,12,0,1,5,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,8,9,0,1,3,0,0,3,2,4,0,1,6,2,14,2,16,10,3,12,0,0,0,0,12,8,0,2,1,73,22,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18932501201229476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21887998286513027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21318603579373305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2738369598654161,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2585686921722399,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16346121866723815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23762398962596296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24433976741332286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2614810268764558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28556395584629884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17480566464603292,0.0,0.2480445469664964,0.21853340177005728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16519786642805592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2585686921722399,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28331061254516793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31715622780636543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14597280636851187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,msfixir,2019/01/09,Anyone else happy for the distraction of school starting back up? I struggle so badly with binge eating on winter break but I'm finally back to classes and I'm psyched! Like I barely ate anything today because I had lectures and I didn't even notice! Winter break always ruins me for restricting and fasting. Plus so much walking around campus!,4.003333333333334,7.044391555555558,4.589841269841274,78.18571428571431,77.8888888888889,5.504761904761906,28.04761904761905,6.868970318607317,1.9455142857142849,280,12,40,3,7,89,50,63,0.205,0.7140000000000001,0.08199999999999999,-0.8162,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,6,6,0,2,1,0,2,2,0,0,0,8,6,7,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,6,2,1,0,0,0,1,1,4,0,0,3,0,5,2,9,3,1,14,0,1,0,0,0,3,0,0,9,27,5,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20039457537010352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1683979043628353,0.2467646106985032,0.19818724081291925,0.21439481176237032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3703755378793741,0.20108772974142414,0.14681119272953405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24643502123347905,0.20118730393336465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15906969261815948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2638237110957211,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2563740554159707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11766014621039975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1770419327630507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27419301336638296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24373856170822594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.170464731042416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2517737395795052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2282840606651129,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,pushthesky_away,2019/01/09,"A question about time lapse between overeating and gaining fat, and some anxious rambling. I'm underweight even though I promised myself I'd toe the line, and now I'm dealing with needing to stay under the lowest I weigh in at (comorbid OCD as well probably isn't helping that). I have eaten above my TDEE several times this month, which logically I know isn't that big of a deal but I'm keenly watching the scale and it's quite steady. Is there a specific window for weight gain after overeating, like a week or something? I'm just freaking out and finding it difficult to calm myself.

And about that: I have noticed the shift in my mindset. At first, when I started into this in June, I was overweight and wanted to get back to my 2014 weight (healthy BMI but close to under). Now I'm several kilos under that and want to go a little lower. I'm body-checking more frequently and keep getting upset and agitated about gaining - more so than before. The recent instances of overeating are breaking a long restrictive pattern that I'm clawing my way back into because I feel like anything else is unacceptable. I've gotten more secretive and deceptive in the last two months, lying about what I've eaten, hiding then throwing away food given to me. Fear for my health is there but much more muted than before. Last month I reached out to an eating disorder specialist to arrange group and individual therapy. I came clean to my current therapist about my food issues but I feel like I'm careening back and forth between the pre-contemplation and contemplation phases of accepting that I need to recover and to get help. My chief need seems to be the new gold-standard number on the scale and now I'm ghosting the specialist because suddenly I'm in deep.

I feel like if I know that I'll be getting some delayed weight gain, at least I'll have certainty and can plan for it. I only purge sporadically but I feel like it'll increase if I keep feeling this panicked. 

I feel weird, guys. Just tell me I won't put on 5kg from a week of overeating. I'm bouncing between detached wonder/worry and all-out cornered-animal panic about a number.",6.209011529011526,7.0420353906633935,6.576916461916465,75.7905721980722,66.1007371007371,9.111661311661313,34.32706482706483,9.162432508145574,3.1487358533358534,1712,76,298,29,26,554,214,407,0.13699999999999998,0.716,0.147,0.0375,3,0,1,0,0,0,42.0,0,0,0,7,21,16,0,3,19,0,15,13,2,0,0,61,53,31,1,7,10,0,9,5,0,2,3,0,2,1,16,25,11,4,15,0,0,5,3,6,1,2,6,10,31,10,57,43,9,62,0,0,1,0,9,26,0,7,33,189,47,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0995173238632277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07249107245781408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08276403497825585,0.2032087422193834,0.0,0.10739844569329116,0.0,0.14991725475286335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10075219889840484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1816351173491893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10095947955504456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09013869362681272,0.0735884074434074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0581830221064036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0991264354222497,0.2672475784393245,0.2517278191899079,0.0,0.0,0.08051322856816992,0.07492983430884811,0.21303904887710773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18409484750874755,0.0,0.050063928017396106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08722356098719125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0936362071800696,0.0,0.0,0.11809056818104526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09194371808816132,0.0,0.15659797684148666,0.0,0.0,0.0968245993019526,0.14361122124474196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21518313059281172,0.08828994104653072,0.0,0.07795742450449344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2109392715464271,0.0,0.06475673975456622,0.1959542302208421,0.0,0.08507846738207367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10029175197071094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06699688418163882,0.0,0.10335535954132276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09497658489835956,0.0,0.0,0.0885554014554971,0.09868165216979392,0.09369521508029216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08697885752479655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08019438978877604,0.0,0.1990346477264554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06781646112802513,0.0,0.0,0.06235099252005955,0.0938928775061618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07699508251237351,0.0,0.10073929837135467,0.10227999658924047,0.0,0.0,0.08654858450771191,0.0,0.10273269502884028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08605173330417966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1039162571907968,0.06992223195091639,0.14132195975030454,0.32181192137027154,0.07920404445850185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0955305170667732,0.0,0.08946029816854165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,einhornschlag,2019/01/09,"Exercising triggering the B/P cycle? Hey everyone! I’m really struggling here. 

DAE workout regularly and struggle even more with their ED? 

Between *trying* (and usually failing) to restrict, having massive binges only to purge every crumb I can out, and actively working on getting stronger in the gym I feel like I’m just digging deeper and deeper into the rabbit hole. Things seem to just be getting worse. My weight is consistent on the scale but my body looks so flabby and disgusting... wtf is happening?

Nothing works. Last year, while I was still in college, I had 0 appetite. I got super skinny because I was simply never hungry. I would drink a monster and a frappicino a day and run for 20-30 mins at night and be perfectly fine. Fast forward to now: 20 pounds up and this intense all-consuming hunger overpowers everything and I have to eat. This triggers the binge, which triggers the purge, which makes me dizzy and lethargic when it’s exercise time, which leads to a half-assed workout where I only worry about cardio and calories burned. 

How do you folks cope? How have you tweaked your lifestyle? How did you break this never ending cycle??",4.0304784688995205,6.939209918660289,4.431746411483257,80.20972488038278,76.60765550239233,6.8622009569378,29.11722488038277,8.00094639256281,2.423495693779905,919,41,148,16,22,289,149,209,0.117,0.79,0.092,-0.6582,1,0,1,0,0,0,36.0,0,4,1,6,13,8,1,2,10,0,14,9,2,8,3,33,24,19,0,1,3,0,2,1,0,1,3,0,0,0,8,15,5,1,2,6,0,3,2,4,0,0,5,3,17,4,18,16,1,28,0,1,1,0,6,10,0,1,17,96,25,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1033306120642935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.188285373008626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10931875182609407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16605348212080098,0.0,0.17344918398043846,0.0,0.0,0.15013393312204165,0.0,0.0,0.1119585529789573,0.0,0.14281795089438448,0.16197232830762565,0.15234302054437865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08570842800865817,0.12109667631869568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17712205375193754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1355711749098127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14989552210269594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13817178912345127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08281313364092753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14234417789574516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11314802514807845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2614703136286419,0.0,0.0,0.15907194236728942,0.0,0.16264766856756546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2578372155835313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10859127940902573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15431387907905988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1353694500097552,0.0,0.0,0.3544135038858339,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1126137015282231,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09884158181078392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.115084926134851,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1866893102648235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20641529518183496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24680794500891645,0.17214378300424596,0.17274331499369228,0.1204137463096554,0.0,0.0,0.10915770916574567
EDAnonymous,dethleib,2019/01/09,"GIV ME SUGRRRRRR Help me, fellow sweet fiends. This isn't a sweet tooth, more it's like an insatiable lust for happy tooth rotting endorphins. I'm thissssssss close to ragequitting my retail drone position and fantasies of absolutely exploding myself with milkshakes, whip cream and an entire restaurant dessert bar are dominating my mind rn

Truly, what can satisfy these cravings ¿¿?? 

ps: the ~naTuRal cAndY tHAt is FrUiT~ won't cut it - need the hard shit to get thru",5.108148148148146,8.423615864197531,4.673086419753087,77.5888888888889,75.54320987654322,8.538271604938272,29.987654320987648,9.150863307647796,3.3589358024691363,379,17,59,10,9,115,70,81,0.075,0.684,0.241,0.9437,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,0,0,6,2,0,5,0,5,7,3,0,0,6,8,2,0,1,0,0,1,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,6,4,3,0,0,2,1,0,2,2,0,0,0,5,5,4,6,7,1,1,0,0,1,1,2,1,1,0,1,30,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2223816235841629,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4531063631584796,0.3812937643038903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2853004593822681,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2079483466124869,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4297794917503193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3156099185059129,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4369178450112392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,roorose28,2019/01/09,"so frustrated with myself i am CONSTANTLY fluctuating between losing weight in a healthy way (w/ weightlifting/exercising) vs eating absolutely nothing until i lose all the weight i gained through binge cycles. i'm so tired of being at this weight. and so tempted to just starve it all away (even though logically, i know that'll just trigger another binge cycle.) it's so hard talking myself down from going on some crazy prolonged fast every single night. 

can i please fast forward to the part when i'm at a healthy weight, comfortable with my body, and at peace with myself. please. god. i'm so sick of myself.",4.3512662337662364,7.122647892857145,4.500551948051946,80.93081168831169,74.53571428571428,6.929870129870131,27.14610389610389,8.00094639256281,1.986507142857143,492,19,83,8,11,153,77,112,0.163,0.649,0.188,0.3023,0,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,0,3,10,4,1,0,4,0,4,8,1,1,2,14,9,10,0,0,3,0,5,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,4,5,5,0,2,0,0,2,0,3,0,0,0,5,10,1,18,7,5,16,0,2,0,0,1,8,0,1,7,56,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1512041901618501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13547878052660758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16017148604293835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15582682546599724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14755056703108355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09524142804781273,0.0,0.12149304570415548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08195105419824739,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12917309684840225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07924745719473619,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3226413856877922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13532006756328396,0.0,0.13836188313307146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15615239678228673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3165722342599791,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.115900901243135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14167381627163814,0.0,0.0,0.1657344042987121,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11445767136531627,0.0,0.7023773337879328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,northernmountaingirl,2019/01/09,"back on my bullshit after a lengthy hiatus and gaining a few pounds, i'm backkkk on my bullshittt

this time of year is particularly triggering because it's the season that i was at my lowest weight a while ago. i'm restricting to 800 calories/day or less and can feel myself slipping back into that awful competition mindset where i'm excited (in a sick kinda way) to see how much weight i can drop quickly. anyways, glad to be back! peace n love to y'all ",8.869333333333334,6.664936488888895,9.049444444444449,70.25750000000002,61.88888888888889,11.222222222222225,40.27777777777778,9.516144504307137,3.833444444444444,364,16,67,5,4,121,69,90,0.17800000000000002,0.6629999999999999,0.16,-0.2003,1,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,1,0,1,7,3,0,0,5,1,5,4,0,2,0,9,11,5,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,4,3,2,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,4,7,3,11,9,3,18,0,0,1,1,2,6,0,2,10,46,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21851426749861355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5686477846824459,0.0,0.15026885052980402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1589771206236432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12464173685106855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22248288960350932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18121157683726494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.196434779757707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14374066490588955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19566639636012692,0.0,0.6003601163118032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1587429238549087
EDAnonymous,anotherlurkinlesbian,2019/01/09,"I was doing so well today And then after work I had fries and soup...and two pieces of pizza...and then two poptarts with butter to top it all off

Said I wouldn't b/p in 2019. Lol.",-1.4160000000000004,0.4922794000000046,1.1000000000000014,101.425,92.5,3.2,10.5,3.1291,-1.9926500000000005,136,1,34,0,5,46,33,40,0.0,0.8029999999999999,0.197,0.7462,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,2,2,1,0,0,0,1,4,0,0,0,1,5,5,5,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,2,3,2,3,1,6,1,2,7,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,4,24,4,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3605956433056856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35932725699056123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7406198670701872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3408419948435113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27597762855824404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,watchmedisapr,2019/01/09,"What do you think? (Peeping a potential ed'er at work) So my team at work just got a new member. She's skinny but not what I'd consider obvious ed except that she has those lines at the corners of her mouth like I've seen on ana girls. 

Today however I realized I've only ever seen her eat soup and cliff bars. Today she had two red bulls, a meal replacement shake and a cliff bar. 

My ed-radar is going off. What do you think? I'll check her knuckles tomorrow. ",1.6466198830409375,3.6158379894736825,3.4319298245614043,89.2579532163743,79.63157894736842,7.169590643274852,21.08187134502924,8.167268648758528,1.0305204678362578,359,10,77,7,9,120,69,95,0.023,0.935,0.041,0.3736,1,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,2,0,3,3,2,0,1,5,0,5,6,2,0,2,11,11,4,0,0,4,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,5,2,5,0,3,3,1,2,1,1,0,1,4,3,11,1,7,7,0,13,0,0,3,0,10,6,0,0,6,41,16,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2850257304547046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2519640159743485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15830612890472884,0.0,0.22278152177198965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13608524044662254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2690248919286425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21184948531781894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3569666096479053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5280648084558881,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2721024363128936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4055747810040125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,UnderseaK,2019/01/09,"Easy trick to kill your appetite! Anxiety medication withdrawals!

Sure, tapering off one med since I found another that works better is withdrawal hell, what with the nausea/dizziness/fatigue/sweating....but hey, my appetite is gone because I can’t even sit upright without puking! Yay for unintentional fasting! 


For real though, I’m dying. Effexor is the devil, send help. 😂",5.573333333333334,9.004341888888893,5.900952380952388,68.78571428571429,74.55555555555556,8.044444444444443,35.984126984126995,8.841846274778883,4.203450793650793,301,17,40,7,7,96,56,63,0.268,0.547,0.185,-0.8523,0,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,1,0,2,2,7,3,0,2,1,4,1,0,0,1,5,7,1,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,0,2,2,4,0,1,2,0,4,3,6,5,0,5,2,0,0,0,4,1,1,0,1,21,6,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2687106708927067,0.1960379922480186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15621355305990858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2266409067037289,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26595714183361274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16925713500474374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2809755673273766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17176549548125175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28351342351350417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2846467907166439,0.25815471836289844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17364822528950025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2916796754497145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21198069699994584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2415217630765392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2517738838952301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2470252353370261,0.0,0.18656013568016105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,xxobutitoldyouso,2019/01/10,"I just spend all of my Christmas money on food Because i can't really buy anything else  (i am too fat for nice clothes)

So...
Frozen strawberries, light natural yogurt, light jello, cottage cheese, all bran bars (in 2 flavors), cinnamon, Quaker cereal (didn't even knew they made cereal), lettuce, zucchini,apples,oatmeal,stevia, and gum.
Also diet coke
Copious amounts of diet coke.

 My cart sure looked cliche af yet shopping alone and reading the labels in peace was so nice. 

But i don't even know how to show up at my house with all this

My parents will be like: ??? There is food here. 

Now i have no money and like three bags of explanations to give.

But i also have a solid safe food™ suppy which is nice ",2.98608547008547,5.348553488888894,4.018518518518519,84.74794871794872,77.07407407407408,6.820512820512822,23.71794871794872,7.882392219407189,1.4099743589743592,551,18,102,9,13,178,101,135,0.03,0.78,0.19,0.9663,1,1,0,0,0,0,30.0,0,0,1,0,13,7,0,0,2,0,11,8,1,2,4,16,16,10,0,0,3,1,0,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,2,4,8,1,2,4,5,0,4,0,0,1,4,4,11,7,12,10,4,7,0,0,1,0,3,5,0,0,4,61,13,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19258008971003174,0.0,0.2973958940507491,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15301462523239426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1133486673677233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15533088702687478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.245626199769094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6745263061758404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.178372745698116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2145523869130862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1021889956455458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18168397827555224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15614465597085364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17594304915321765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20646685951042332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18599256471039044,0.0,0.1191193641736154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17524836641113867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Altedd,2019/01/10,"36 Hours in... I'm sorta mad about how easy this is, it is a lot easier than i remember. Should've been water fasting the whole last few months but I didn't :/ 

Trying to drop those holiday 5 from December. ",0.4885714285714258,2.79634023809524,2.8574285714285743,89.53757142857144,87.09523809523809,7.1695238095238105,17.923809523809524,8.238735603445708,0.9604323809523811,158,4,34,4,5,54,39,42,0.103,0.6729999999999999,0.223,0.6543,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,0,2,1,1,0,2,0,4,1,0,1,0,5,5,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,0,2,0,5,3,3,6,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,4,21,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4025508823331716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3331977811512239,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3475171236524303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.326272077384753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4630507122251361,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2775243939110039,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4563711808913765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,lonelysweetpotato,2019/01/10,"Favorite low calorie meals/snacks On the old subreddit I would look up threads about your recipe ideas all the time, but alas all that information is gone. Could we start a new one?

​

For me:

Instant miso soup (35 calories)

Wellness wraps (50 calories) popped in the toaster and slathered with a laughing cow cheese wedge (30 calories)

Bowl of frozen fruit (65 calories) with low fat cottage cheese (70 calories)

Plain greek yogurt (100 calories) with sugar free pudding mix (25 calories)

and a new favorite, candy canes (40 calories)",6.990276497695852,9.158604279569893,4.690353302611367,85.09838709677422,65.34408602150539,6.174500768049157,36.94162826420891,6.18269132825596,2.369382181259601,430,22,70,2,7,119,74,93,0.065,0.759,0.17600000000000002,0.9294,0,0,0,0,0,0,26.0,1,1,0,0,2,5,0,0,6,0,3,3,1,0,2,13,6,3,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,1,6,3,0,2,0,1,1,0,2,1,1,1,3,4,4,9,3,2,11,0,2,1,0,3,5,0,0,5,30,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.287638141023495,0.3225767971187318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21195730395342227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2996848869291109,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22292910759719825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5127878469911348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2785675675543127,0.0,0.17989028486247086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1879020167849102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15479850284225893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23869066216526005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18858325928094946,0.0,0.3225767971187318,0.0
EDAnonymous,yooolivia,2019/01/10,birth control cravings got the nexplanon implant a couple of days ago and the doctor warned me about cravings and mood swings so i’m scared as hell. does anyone have any experience with this particular form of birth control? i know it affects everyone differently but i’d just like some insight.,5.3760377358490565,8.255564716981137,5.24211320754717,76.35901886792455,71.64150943396227,7.258867924528303,33.241509433962264,8.238735603445708,2.9497728301886785,242,12,38,4,5,75,45,53,0.118,0.823,0.059,-0.2935,1,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,2,3,4,1,1,3,0,1,1,0,3,0,11,4,5,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,3,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,2,1,5,3,2,4,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,5,20,4,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2261292821406608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17347561543015813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1783706870974142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5722289480956855,0.0,0.2822614555246939,0.0,0.16451732225513271,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2665234650630167,0.0,0.2611039552174293,0.2232382719528564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2437573910008656,0.0,0.2495351210699385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20402544210005116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14019537346607586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12462816092005348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2553979355044099,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,hahaeereemah,2019/01/10,"I just want to sit down with a huge meal and EAT I hate this mood 😭 I haven’t binged in a fair while but today the urge is strong - maybe cause I’m home alone, I weigh 0.5kgs more than yesterday and I’ve generally been feeling shitty today. 

I just want to sit outside (it’s a beautiful day) with a huge meal (or 3) and EAT. Icecream, cookies and fast food. Blah 

What should I do? I usually don’t eat at all during the day 😣 My friends are busy today so I have no one I can catch up with/distract myself with either.  ",-0.7216969696969677,1.4389368909090905,1.322727272727274,98.6407575757576,93.72727272727272,4.387878787878788,16.424242424242426,6.079149491110277,-0.5605030303030301,398,10,94,4,15,131,76,110,0.128,0.657,0.215,0.8394,0,1,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,0,1,3,4,1,0,6,0,9,7,0,1,1,19,14,8,0,3,5,0,1,1,1,1,0,0,1,0,3,7,7,0,1,0,0,1,3,1,0,1,1,1,11,2,10,12,3,18,0,0,0,0,1,6,0,1,9,54,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19014033696683053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1885939957572285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2367963213185087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5635647317982991,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09282689437731956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22199362932131966,0.0,0.1418385414508074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1812537462828031,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18415231515986016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18443740201893166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1244030223821016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5220558538255483,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20219468829339365,0.0,0.21656825075838507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ae_eliza,2019/01/10,Accurate Bathroom Scales? What’s the most accurate bathroom scale you’ve found? I hate that the scale in my bathroom and the one at my doctors office weigh me so differently 😭,4.48,6.988797606060608,4.790909090909089,80.30636363636367,72.93939393939394,8.036363636363637,32.21212121212121,8.841846274778883,2.9972303030303036,143,7,25,3,3,45,26,33,0.127,0.873,0.0,-0.6199,1,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,3,0,0,2,0,0,0,3,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,4,0,2,1,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,15,6,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4781075082828131,0.0,0.468385631269938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5017483223536243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4517974561845575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31008997169200386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,PuzzleheadedSpring,2019/01/10,Stopped myself mid-binge and threw the food in the trash And then proceeded to dig it out an hour later and keep binging. Digging food out of the trash is like a normal procedure and my stupid ED brain doesn’t even care that it’s gross. ,9.115624999999998,6.118305979166667,7.782500000000002,82.01250000000003,62.125,11.266666666666667,34.416666666666664,8.841846274778883,2.501966666666666,189,5,41,2,2,57,39,48,0.158,0.7340000000000001,0.107,-0.4019,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,1,4,1,0,5,0,2,3,1,0,0,9,5,5,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,6,2,2,0,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,1,0,2,2,5,4,0,9,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,6,23,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31923626091607205,0.0,0.0,0.2915647112419729,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1888799938904672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.691590309227172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2816221090780717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2541826106504715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.139710131651029,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2801891499160602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2390830995081201,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,TurnTechAstraeus,2019/01/10,"I just keep fucking eaten what the fuck is wrong with me??? As the title says since Xmas I've been stuffing my face like the pig I am. I haven't stepped on the scale cause I know I'll be around 125 again if my stomach's anything to go by. I need to stop. I need to eat more veg and smaller portions. I need to lose weight I was 110 before Xmas and now I've put it all back on. Like for fucks sake??? Please help guys I have hella self confidence now (wearing crop style tops) but I can see the fat. I dunno if it's water weight cause I live on tea or maybe it's all the junk I've been eating but I swear it's there. Why am I such a fucking pig? I was doing so well. Maybe the seroquel is making me gain weight cause apparently that can happen. 

On top of this I sometimes wonder if I was too fat for my ex to and show affection to cause they were all over my tall, skinny, perfect friend while drunk before Xmas. I'm a hot fucking mess. 

I'm gonna lose the weight. I'm determined. No more binge eating, gonna fast until the evenings and then eat one meal, especially if I'm drinking (I am tomorrow). I'm gonna get back to where I was and then I wanna try for 105.",0.002023809523809205,1.958599916666671,1.863492063492064,98.32595238095242,85.54761904761905,4.685714285714286,17.666666666666668,5.82211442006289,-0.5887523809523807,897,21,217,6,27,295,141,252,0.095,0.7559999999999999,0.14800000000000002,0.9475,1,0,1,0,0,0,30.0,0,0,1,6,14,14,5,0,11,0,18,25,6,6,4,34,43,18,0,8,8,1,5,2,1,3,2,1,0,2,7,7,17,2,2,3,0,3,2,9,1,1,8,7,27,5,22,31,6,25,0,2,1,5,7,10,5,7,14,120,34,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07531878694679729,0.08147828832670262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1407569736246288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15576519131994832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3760930887537245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08966145406706465,0.0,0.3746192092766433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06045261157507718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07071340599202605,0.4230754224422522,0.047818993868464436,0.0,0.05201680979759859,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09062595687984028,0.0809368782769174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06134850846930477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0813532567123169,0.0,0.0,0.050300755105235566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0894307771600242,0.0,0.08081987251226436,0.0,0.0,0.2047902343215306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06109487335058225,0.0,0.18390201641494675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2035979661621952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.062020952403769786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10046898028222268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09200974946392476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07278581313249773,0.0,0.0,0.07293503779872074,0.0,0.09548245058884852,0.0,0.0,0.07571194405950858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0905223805509926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07652053269925146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06214071326095295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4458201122026893,0.08229361696043598,0.0,0.08258873286474701,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09925694872367792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10007022639239592,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,SemicolonButterfly,2019/01/10,"Restriction to Disconnect from Reality I’m feeling pretty lost today. I’m nominally in recovery but I have enough weight that I can engage in fairly extended bouts of ED behavior and tell myself, nbd.

Lately I just want the fuzzy sense of reality that comes from intense restriction (and, I suppose poor electrolyte management).

I’m 6months clean from self-harm too. Which partly I’m proud of but partly I feel like I’ve lost part of myself or I’m a faker who isn’t actually in pain. I know my brain lies to me, but the emotions are so conflicted and confusing.

I mostly know I just have to ride out these bouts of self-destructive urges (thanks, BPD) but gosh does the reality of it stink.",3.3076048951048933,5.829220704545456,4.72909090909091,79.24248251748253,76.80303030303031,8.606993006993005,26.06293706293706,9.265573868473778,2.5829503496503503,551,21,101,15,13,183,85,132,0.188,0.6579999999999999,0.154,-0.7894,0,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,0,3,4,9,0,1,4,0,5,3,1,0,0,22,19,9,0,1,7,0,3,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,6,5,1,3,4,0,1,2,1,5,0,0,2,4,12,4,16,17,5,8,0,2,0,0,2,4,0,3,3,60,18,1,0.0,0.0,0.15818034159422498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20415169273389594,0.1809504887508132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1396296105043514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1418495337385838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18233390961501328,0.0,0.16748641121180896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16391917276636844,0.11579997129869216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17816522395110782,0.0,0.18284906912328244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07919093067043688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3538894529508519,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17247942259774027,0.0,0.0,0.5265959513663668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1649078509263497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3381987438751615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1416772826104989,0.14923435825391132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15364613935605395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09560722878295384,0.0,0.0,0.19738679858364766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,throwawaythecalories,2019/01/10,"Fml. I've been craving strawberries a lot recently, so I walked to a nearby store and found out they were out of stock. Anyway, I'm the sort of person who doesn't like leaving stores empty handed, so what did I do? Ended up buying a 24 pack of Coke Zero and two packets of rice cakes. 

^Why am I like this?^",1.4922395833333333,3.3829570781250027,3.135625000000001,91.58020833333336,79.78125,5.516666666666668,18.479166666666664,6.42735559955562,-0.07934583333333345,239,5,51,2,6,79,51,64,0.109,0.8909999999999999,0.0,-0.6575,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,1,0,3,2,0,0,4,0,6,2,1,0,0,7,8,4,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,4,1,0,1,0,3,1,1,0,0,2,4,1,4,2,8,4,1,6,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,2,4,33,7,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3075961793525813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3807859562673354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3677303484224448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3393370569657613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2952538464183266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30324054834786895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3429073348988478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3392522202576688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3133755340033222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ultravegan,2019/01/10,"Feel like i let my bf down. My boyfriend is so sweet, he is the most amazing man ever and has been nothing but understanding.  Through this understanding I've been able to get a lot better. I went from bing purging  multiple times a day with large restriction periods to pretty comfortable with food. I wasn't eating a ton, but I wasn't tracking, I wasn't purging, and I was eating what I wanted when I wanted to. All the while he was super vocal about how proud he was. This last week has been completely different though, I felt really bad about the holidays and started restricting hard. I have no idea how to tell him. I know he is going to be so disappointed, but I know if I hide it from him I will never get to where I was at the end of 2018. This suuuuucks.",4.659803921568631,5.285195666666667,5.87896078431373,80.16432352941176,69.45751633986927,9.518692810457518,28.3718954248366,9.642632912329526,2.3938789542483665,599,20,123,13,10,201,93,153,0.136,0.675,0.189,0.8765,1,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,0,3,10,9,0,0,7,0,19,3,0,2,3,27,32,14,0,3,4,0,3,1,1,1,0,0,0,1,5,5,3,2,7,1,0,2,5,2,0,0,12,4,19,7,16,17,4,16,0,1,0,0,9,3,0,3,12,88,24,0,0.17109885783853004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14286039949110618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1513230355569798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17939389715170334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11034460865050597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1787618899057169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3501536928910053,0.0,0.0,0.1515428032133692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1547687125094256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08651272346861888,0.12223305822701415,0.16428173540893246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2068934180562529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1787841827514008,0.0,0.0972394238843628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1532709693826765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1931497842751459,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18806291529271507,0.13946840539875394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17496017444218084,0.0,0.0835902594027696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1454621303812606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1319619870750788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16417396865778375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1740690495715169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10961030956801053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12110465221909987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14954794323830578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16810375911000522,0.0,0.09976911994621344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3562398902704386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20183707874342532,0.0,0.13724518323406087,0.0,0.0,0.158610355382422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,lighghtup,2019/01/10,the vending machine gave me regular coke instead of coke zero i don’t know if i’m more pissed i wasted my money or the fact that my dumb binging ass might just drink it anyways even though i cant afford the calories,2.407,4.304639422222223,3.744166666666669,88.25625000000002,77.0,5.3888888888888875,26.805555555555557,5.985473137389443,0.9828888888888884,174,7,34,1,4,57,38,45,0.297,0.703,0.0,-0.941,1,0,1,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,0,5,2,2,0,3,0,3,5,2,0,1,6,6,3,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,3,0,1,1,1,0,2,2,0,1,1,0,6,0,1,4,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,3,3,0,24,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5032885918632394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33933321816662365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2823487135021928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5450175023065296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5047659720228859,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,MudBulli,2019/01/10,"Feeling like I ate more calories when I ate less than a serving size So recently I’ve been eating these bumblebee chicken salad/cracker kits, and I really like them. I must’ve gotten a bad one today, the chicken was soggy and way too sweet. So I only ate the crackers. 
I still logged it as consuming the whole kit (220 calories) but I feel like I ate way more calories than that, even though I didn’t eat the whole thing and the crackers are LITERALLY ONLY 80 CALORIES.
I’m thinking it’s the buttery taste, whenever I eat carby or buttery food I feel like I’m eating more calories than what it really is, and the chicken usually hides the taste of the crackers but keep the cronch. You could put zero calorie toast in front of me and I’d still feel fat for eating it. Next time I only eat the crackers I’m gonna try to convince myself not to log the chicken along with it.

-sincerely, mudbulli



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EDAnonymous,isukatdarksouls9,2019/01/10,"Any advice for losing post- re feeding syndrome edema/water retention? I've been out of refeeding syndrome for a couple of months now. But, the water weight is still holding on in certain areas. Does anyone have any advice or experience on this? I currently am back in the throws of high restriction and there is no way it is possible for me to weigh as much as I do. It really sucks knowing your weight has not been accurate for months now after so much anxiety and hard work fml",5.8957971014492765,6.811577565217391,6.5508695652173925,75.40644927536233,66.82608695652173,9.611594202898553,30.55072463768116,9.725611199111238,2.96362463768116,384,14,67,8,6,126,68,92,0.141,0.8370000000000001,0.022,-0.8531,1,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,1,0,2,6,3,1,0,3,0,9,5,0,0,1,10,11,7,0,0,3,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,3,5,2,1,0,0,1,2,2,0,0,2,3,4,1,16,9,2,18,0,1,0,0,1,7,1,1,8,49,7,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3642273291707714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2534691028086277,0.0,0.14256867065962656,0.0,0.0,0.13031070076861126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14330313691024826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2062092637973825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16308921678741595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1823006740745763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16694638238246567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1969047935518921,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10242129835438836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20849469998639653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2975094376356245,0.0,0.27399935184554514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2100984704537703,0.17848609857423106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1193901541035714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1488312835573523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14792781652348402,0.0,0.4538845851197356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13567589749822567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,lotsofsqs,2019/01/10,"Grams of protein per calorie guide I just commented this on a different post, but I figured some others may find it helpful. I created a guide (protein (g)/calories) to get the most ""bang for my buck."" Of course, it's not all-inclusive and will vary a bit IRL.

Tuna - 22%

Shrimp - 19.8%

Scallops - 18.7%

Turkey, roasted - 18.5%

Pork - 18%

Greek yogurt - 18%

Cottage cheese - 17.3%

Seitan - 16.7%

Anchovies - 16%

Salmon - 14%

Nonfat string cheese - 12%

Regular nonfat yogurt (11%)

Soynuts - 10%

Hamburger - 10%

Tofu - 10%

Edamame - 9.5%

Skim milk - 9.3%

Lentils - 8.9%

Egg - 8.5%

Soymilk - 6-8.8%

Black, red kidney, fava beans - 7-7.4%

Spinach, cooked - 7.3%

Peas - 6.8%

Most nuts - 2-4%

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EDAnonymous,0ClandestineCat0,2019/01/10,"That moment when You fast for 51 hours and then binge on 5 guava pastries, each 300 calories at 12am and now have to essentially fast for another day. I could have had a good lunch and dinner for 1,500 calories but no I just had to wolf down all the pastries so that they could no longer tempt me. Why am I like this? Aaa",2.985223880597016,4.1064505074626885,3.5494328358208977,93.48176119402989,73.77611940298506,6.554029850746268,22.35522388059701,6.742157984588678,0.2738382089552238,252,6,58,2,5,79,51,67,0.083,0.841,0.077,-0.1027,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,1,1,0,4,2,0,0,2,0,7,2,0,0,1,9,7,7,0,2,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,4,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,2,0,6,2,8,3,2,11,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,9,39,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4023639365524073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6127384832795872,0.0,0.0,0.24746769216288014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.321846178032688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3778869612685866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1874662372243144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3462476672784401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Ednosonline,2019/01/10,"Imagine if water had calories This just hit me, coming back from a longish walk. Shit. I don't think I've realised how much I actually like water.",2.2433333333333323,4.657846896551725,3.642068965517243,86.16816091954023,80.0344827586207,5.2459770114942526,26.90804597701149,6.42735559955562,1.1640252873563228,116,5,22,1,3,38,26,29,0.128,0.7829999999999999,0.08900000000000001,-0.2732,0,0,0,0,1,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,3,2,1,0,1,0,2,3,1,1,0,6,5,2,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,2,0,2,0,0,2,1,1,0,0,1,0,3,1,1,3,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,2,13,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.4585521676377808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3613221654982979,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4047750808848106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22956817863837384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3454287229454303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4823430218502662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3010913385707247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Recoveryviacoffee,2019/01/10,"Is this orthorexic? Howdy. I'm diagnosed with AN, but my eating has gotten pretty limited at this point. Part of my AN has always been whether I feel the calories are ""worth it"", but I've gotten to the point where I don't even consider meat worth it - even shrimp, cod, turkey etc. 

My daily food intake is basically coffee, low calorie steamed vegetables (green beans, runner beans, etc), or things like carrot and coriander soup, country vegetable soup, crushed swede & carrot (or just crushed swede), etc. I've even started cutting out other old safe foods such as porridge, glass noodles, etc.

Is this just an extension of AN and the obsession to be at extremely low calories, or possibly developing into orthorexia?",7.6468700787401565,8.725312771653545,7.139832677165357,72.14864665354331,63.01574803149607,10.444488188976381,36.34744094488189,10.411451182825502,4.072213385826773,570,26,91,13,8,178,86,127,0.139,0.75,0.111,-0.4871,0,0,0,0,0,0,30.0,0,0,0,1,7,6,1,1,7,0,9,6,0,0,0,16,14,9,0,0,8,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,7,5,5,2,1,1,2,1,1,4,0,0,3,2,5,2,10,10,5,12,0,2,1,0,0,9,0,3,3,58,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12658162405001824,0.16482924588625722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1544054263554115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15566362089853406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6786460570020298,0.3014348066791199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07691984441306877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3679044859279594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07432143492790846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15963141023288646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16473842143890027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2876178587278904,0.17150002800131445,0.0,0.15476757259905954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10767608084573783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1010662381937006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,idkhowtocomeupwaname,2019/01/10,I was not even hungry but I forced myself to eat like wtf??? And now I feel like my stomach is gonna explode like why did I even eat THAT much food and I can’t wait to see what my scale says tomorrow morning :’) ,-0.3449999999999989,1.5626658043478263,1.5936521739130465,100.02308695652177,86.6086956521739,4.549565217391304,17.895652173913042,5.6839178017228535,-0.6317599999999999,161,4,40,1,5,53,35,46,0.16899999999999998,0.642,0.189,-0.2477,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,0,0,0,4,4,1,0,0,6,8,3,0,0,2,0,1,3,0,1,0,1,0,0,2,2,3,1,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,3,8,3,2,5,1,2,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,5,24,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5690979232085539,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3673432098299481,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14060743112720045,0.19866298998616366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33625981085392465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4075728229551036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20442345359838976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22114325195834494,0.0,0.0,0.2215966373990061,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2509272092293852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,merkupferkup,2019/01/10,"Deleted MyFitnessPal before the holidays and basically maintained. I could cry! Hope everyone made it through the holidays okay!

I just weighed myself for the first time since the  holiday break and I only went up 0.4 pounds!! 

In December, I realized that MyFitnessPal was more of a chore than I wanted and after years of logging my food, I finally felt like I could mentally track my food without it. 

Of course, without that record, I felt like I was going wild on food during vacation and family visits over the holidays. I literally went to a buffet and a steak house in the same weekend and ate SO much that I wouldn't have been able to log it anyway. 

When I weighed myself this morning for the first time since I've been back home, I was only up .4! I was over the moon to realize that I can basically maintain without MFP. I feel stronger and motivated going into this year and I feel confident I'll hit my goals by my beach trip in May!

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EDAnonymous,I_am_Xander,2019/01/10,"Got a discount while buying binge food Such a nice surprise 
But funny thing is
I got the discount as a reward for using their store
I go to this store to buy either safe foods or binge foods
Anyway, a really nice surprise",1.917045454545452,4.490042068181824,2.860181818181818,90.23027272727276,82.86363636363637,4.42909090909091,17.89090909090909,5.6839178017228535,-0.2372763636363637,177,4,33,1,5,56,32,44,0.0,0.616,0.384,0.9538,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,1,1,2,6,0,0,5,0,1,3,0,1,0,5,5,4,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,3,1,0,0,6,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,3,6,4,3,1,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,21,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8637431992070579,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13531909628317976,0.0,0.3808645237345154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1525345116369819,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15818467246839182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20564404859094765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,LittleGreenNotebook,2019/01/10,"Today I’m eating every time I’m hungry and not ignoring hunger cues Today is the day I take back control of my life. I am finally feeling happy with myself and can actually feel real hunger, not just “oh shit I should eat or I might die”. 



I am going to eat all my meals and not skip any. I am going to the gym again. I am no longer going to be called skinny (in a negative way) by everyone I meet. I will not get fat. I will no longer get light headed just from standing up. 



This is it; I’m feeling so happy and positive and right with the universe again! It’s good to be alive and I’m going to live the rest of my life without punishing myself by withholding food anymore. 



Love you all and wish me luck! 




(Possible warnings ⚠️)



I just ate a full breakfast with protein, carbs, and coffee and it feels good man. Feels good. 💚",1.172394220846236,3.1954601988304105,3.307210182318542,89.26739938080497,81.51461988304094,6.128792569659443,21.169934640522875,7.285733465282438,0.6847885104919159,638,19,135,9,17,217,101,171,0.07400000000000001,0.6759999999999999,0.25,0.9841,0,0,0,0,0,0,20.0,0,1,0,1,7,10,2,0,6,0,13,16,4,1,2,36,32,11,1,2,9,0,5,0,0,4,3,0,0,1,4,12,11,3,5,1,0,4,8,3,0,0,1,6,18,7,16,25,4,18,0,0,0,1,5,4,1,3,8,85,22,0,0.0,0.0,0.12443030436571445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08671043237282765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12645457766673282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09804648238528572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13020085512150414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14301208669180854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08223269944994467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13233411920724875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3914203476854087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10743175745948776,0.12184022933336708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32236168466208465,0.0,0.0,0.139679780100336,0.0,0.0,0.1541842820710714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13323628717706734,0.0,0.28986501168516904,0.3208452763586081,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2714712148897139,0.0,0.0,0.13086092965055882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18012663033644466,0.0,0.0,0.11259270503764585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11508177102309212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13526680516936876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14374713929271918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1451330566841572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10889191383207032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13088606543218115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09587083286318998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07435147176884595,0.0,0.2417270779922093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10121063899771704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14662895561366093,0.1229140406417062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,escokebar,2019/01/10,"My friend found out about my eating disorder She caught me mid purge. That was the most awkward talk I may have ever had with somebody. I really hope I did not trigger her into an ED, I do not want her to become like this. I’m scared ",0.9642857142857152,3.0195323673469434,2.680979591836735,93.29616326530613,82.46938775510203,5.5526530612244915,17.963265306122448,6.742157984588678,-0.05725632653061208,182,4,40,2,5,60,42,49,0.16,0.6779999999999999,0.163,0.29100000000000004,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,2,5,0,2,2,0,6,1,0,1,1,12,11,0,0,2,2,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,2,3,1,0,1,0,0,1,2,2,0,0,5,0,10,3,5,5,1,5,0,0,0,0,5,3,0,3,2,29,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3522648997376457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3655543812115256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.326374447621827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2885164662257525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3497218257624609,0.2464267528050054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31679802514884753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15582714272635886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20433315407044708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3193333693930753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2563669756289809,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1881301451959664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,pyragonal,2019/01/10,"I can’t stand being juuust underweight i’ve been maintaining a 18 BMI give or take .5 points for what feels like forever (about a year probably) after losing a ton of weight super quickly. it’s driving me mad that at this bmi any small binges completely cancel out my hard work restricting. i wish i could just lose weight as easily as someone heavier. the craving to be lower is real and i can’t take this long without results 😓 

my ugw is bmi 16.7 and apparently i’d do anything to get there besides not eating so much lmao

anyone else relate at a similar bmi?",4.602094594594593,5.9040132072072105,5.873502252252251,77.66538851351353,70.08108108108108,9.153603603603603,29.190315315315317,9.516144504307137,2.758863963963964,450,17,82,10,8,151,89,111,0.14400000000000002,0.722,0.133,0.1742,2,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,4,5,5,1,0,5,0,9,3,0,1,0,13,15,6,0,2,4,0,4,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,3,3,1,1,0,0,1,4,3,0,0,1,4,7,2,12,11,2,11,0,2,0,0,1,5,0,1,5,48,12,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1222384710731282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12568775168190446,0.1841785931404989,0.14792172624752362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18846801234178576,0.0,0.0,0.14351845744024325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1839325962618936,0.15016089418693054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0908887163570399,0.12841585969349895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09391372866160833,0.17243583362768602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1610237327350322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08781842800065769,0.0,0.0,0.15907609606998765,0.0,0.4021961346891259,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1321394263580732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16992505757523987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19380455985715556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20459871396974436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15230446635108433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2703043615170845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4377824130350697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20670753055638344,0.1732758560914617,0.0,0.13086261077098071,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11575529148134048
EDAnonymous,Ednasucks,2019/01/10,"Threatened with hospital So I have been denying that I have a problem for some time. Been seeing an ED clinic which tbh made it worse because when I started to track my meals in recovery record I just used it to eat tiny meals out of panic because my clinician kept mentioning being careful about binging or going too far the other way with recovery (not that there's anything wrong with that) but super triggered me.

I've also been denying anorexia because I'm not technically underweight. I'm 66kg and 180cm. I don't see a problem. My gf is worried. My friend has offered me free training in order to get me to agree to a meal plan (I've been wanting to tone for a whole because I lost 62kg and prior to developing an ED had asked him about training).

My doctor is great and kind and wonderful and said to me that she acknowledges that I'm about to start my career and that hospital treatment is not practical but she needs me to commit to stopping losing weight or else it won't be a choice and she'll essentially force me (I tbh needed to hear that). My gf generally eats dinner with me and will eat a slightly larger portion or have seconds so that I'll eat. Feeds me snacks while driving. Calls me on my lunch break to make sure I've eaten. She's a fucking angel and she agrees with everything the doctor said. And she has been very vocal about how she would never force the hospital on anyone because of her own experiences. 

But I still don't think I'm sick. I am fine? It's not a serious life threatening eating disorder I'm just not skinny and need to be?

I think I need it drilled into my head that is serious. I'm valid. I'm sick. I'm unhealthily skinny. I need to be better.",3.2320756302520977,4.9707142411764735,4.589831932773109,83.78352941176473,74.23529411764707,7.4453781512605035,27.142857142857146,8.192908349453996,1.833021008403361,1342,51,262,22,28,445,175,340,0.092,0.738,0.17,0.9863,0,0,0,0,0,0,27.0,0,0,0,5,14,18,1,1,13,0,26,24,3,5,3,56,61,23,0,9,13,0,1,0,3,4,6,3,0,0,16,18,16,2,4,0,1,2,9,9,0,1,12,6,39,10,34,41,4,21,1,2,2,1,19,7,1,5,9,165,55,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07927536733887655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06931499953765506,0.0,0.08157671888670133,0.0,0.0926745036341945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30214799271623505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08767369243775816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10122427177909396,0.0,0.10107109784198852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11361320509366744,0.20293043469964175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5071809963280772,0.08281158801760542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08909293566009592,0.09696955863686996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07658869554295153,0.09164540801439867,0.051792079750409364,0.0,0.05633867514673437,0.0,0.0,0.10929274958625257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10173744477984836,0.0,0.11172832426591013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10323012774447583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07001945942218796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11090271135002372,0.10821366415784066,0.0,0.0,0.09380055428716308,0.06617099811046538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3675234897071446,0.07645626870827221,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11630937196636244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1897107776451054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1885933782272892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15798982741716006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14033147025313275,0.0,0.07916648663631025,0.08287831281027963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0934301979327953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12703883291396514,0.0,0.0,0.057804332993679874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0856177255660905,0.0,0.08179381017127361,0.058470284775722074,0.07868591353935435,0.0,0.1207153734196687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11067669942936714,0.0,0.0,0.10750380524984683,0.0,0.10067277731975306,0.10102339439936092,0.07042012239367469,0.108384654855201,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,tastefuldebauchery,2019/01/10,"Mean Girls I remember watching this movie and thinking those girls were so pretty & thin and I’d never look anything like that. 

But watching it now- as an adult 10 years+ later I’m noticing they aren’t as perfect as I thought. 

I mean those outfits were horribly unflattering, but it’s nice to look back and realize I’ve grown some when it comes to insecurity. ",2.1736031746031763,5.006493471428573,3.120476190476193,86.54341269841271,85.71428571428572,5.968253968253968,26.34920634920635,7.3871296695380915,1.647015873015874,293,13,55,5,9,93,51,70,0.103,0.777,0.119,0.2854,1,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,1,1,4,4,0,1,1,0,3,0,0,0,2,15,11,10,0,0,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,3,7,4,0,0,6,0,0,2,2,1,0,0,3,5,4,3,5,8,1,9,0,0,4,0,4,1,0,1,7,31,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2654957088574885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2016432219057638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18841706576755787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21107626467079055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11971189908317074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4115359752770128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5338306805647415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18898637463760645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27897438004820085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24928905167530144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2775772947030711,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15700876380856715,0.0,0.19453070415178134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1577947372509728
EDAnonymous,shmegadee,2019/01/10,"My obsession with food knows no bounds My biggest problem is and has always been that I LOVE food. Cooking is my only real talent. So naturally this pairs wonderfully with my binge/restriction calendar. I’ve eaten chicken broth and raw veggies all week in an effort to, ya know, not be a fat sack of shit. But tonight, ooooo lordy tonight. I fell HARD off the wagon. I made some over the effing top quesadillas. Braised shredded chicken, full fat cheese, a jalapeño sauce I made to dip it in and guacamole. I’m talkin MULTIPLE quesadillas because got forbid I eat just one. I ate three. 



I deserve to be as fat as I am. ",2.9253954802259905,5.457162754237288,3.745000000000001,85.72704802259891,78.23728813559322,6.6451977401129945,28.477401129943495,7.793537801064563,1.977353672316384,487,22,91,8,12,155,88,118,0.124,0.7659999999999999,0.111,0.101,0,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,1,0,2,2,6,1,1,5,0,7,11,4,2,1,19,17,7,0,1,3,0,1,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,3,5,9,2,3,1,0,1,2,4,0,2,6,1,13,2,12,9,3,11,0,0,0,1,2,7,1,2,3,53,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1810248741079979,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1326207440117853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22261515119459532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5261416398209574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17400022823734124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19488836311366636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2391273042207551,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.196353710333714,0.4117154374070082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14742227151947426,0.16546192208432264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20817269256176305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2476275253557685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22331916123738768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1745111237532531,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2359313147865683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,plasticlash,2019/01/10,"Dealing when My Fitness Pal is down Lately my fitness pal hasn’t been working and syncing. It won’t work with my Fitbit and now it won’t even let me login. 
I’m panicking because I don’t know how much I ate today. I can log it by hand on paper or other apps but it breaks my routine  and it’s horrible and I hate it ",0.18957142857142628,1.9879422428571445,2.975714285714286,91.53928571428571,83.71428571428572,5.142857142857143,22.857142857142854,6.18269132825596,0.4481428571428574,247,9,55,2,7,87,49,70,0.166,0.7609999999999999,0.073,-0.8608,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,2,4,1,1,0,0,0,8,2,1,1,0,9,12,8,0,0,2,0,1,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,7,5,1,0,1,0,0,0,4,1,0,0,2,1,9,0,4,7,1,9,0,0,0,0,3,4,0,1,4,39,16,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20292081916802016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34318510444215244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21986438316285545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3286505061108601,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1829423776027223,0.0,0.3755036219305897,0.0,0.0,0.34039279087448543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2447054162249896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31553172296956483,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4846818322069274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,usr687,2019/01/10,Recovery chat or discord? Does anyone know of a recovery focused chat or discord or something?,5.236875000000001,8.797568937500003,5.967500000000001,66.5275,78.375,8.200000000000001,45.5,8.841846274778883,5.905725,77,6,9,2,2,25,11,16,0.28300000000000003,0.589,0.128,-0.4871,0,0,1,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,1,3,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,3,0,5,0,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4769302306687378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5968978550742471,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3748565018945576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.525102950543418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,honeydewmellow,2019/01/11,"Confession: I LOVE going through the “dieting” subreddits to find ~totally not disordered~ profiles and stalking them You guys know the posts I’m talking about on r/1200isplenty or r/fasting where the poster is like “HELP omg estimate how many cals in this sugar free gum I just ate I feel soo guilty ;( “

I see you (and stalk your profiles) 👀",3.661797235023037,6.654172000000003,3.6610599078341046,84.59016129032258,79.0,8.058986175115209,29.82488479262673,8.841846274778883,2.9784949308755766,272,13,48,7,7,83,53,62,0.041,0.75,0.208,0.9075,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,3,1,0,4,3,0,0,3,0,1,4,0,1,1,11,8,4,0,0,3,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,2,3,0,4,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,1,3,8,4,5,7,1,5,1,0,1,1,9,3,0,1,1,26,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3876994749813712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17104510031749634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3091828185179559,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19225295825011804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33495149687555986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2267427065087096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18591045873102952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16526706976573846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3053119214523564,0.0,0.0,0.3429639640383241,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3239798068975105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2695662581278789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2718975533120601,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,theprincessofpirates,2019/01/11,"There is no safe food left. I used to have foods I could eat and still feel good, but these past weeks I feel physically sick after eating anything at all. Ratatouille? Sick. Raw carrots? Sick. Soy milk? Sick. Diet Coke? Sick?!?!!? It’s like I can’t stand the feeling of having something in my stomach but I also get dizzy and weak when I’m hungry. I can’t tell what is hunger and what’s stomach pain from stress/sickness. I just want to eat one meal without getting ill after. I’m trying to pick gentle, low calorie foods, but nothing is good enough! Maybe I just have the flu and my ED is making it worse but I’m tired of never being satisfied.",0.6929548563611476,3.1813777209302323,1.822124943000457,95.51433652530784,89.62015503875969,3.6554491564067484,18.44094847241222,5.0885558068054335,-0.5095803921568631,502,14,103,2,17,158,86,129,0.316,0.556,0.129,-0.9879,0,0,1,0,0,0,24.0,0,0,0,0,6,7,0,0,2,0,11,23,2,3,2,22,22,10,0,2,7,0,3,1,0,0,10,0,0,0,5,4,11,1,3,0,0,0,5,3,0,1,0,3,10,4,11,20,2,12,0,1,0,0,1,4,0,0,8,58,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1160358080441916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1194043094514962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11584993454930753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.44541823299550504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14992630011654465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22009960312493868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5263637229021136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15161672599858886,0.0,0.0,0.243404712956594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1576507464222236,0.0,0.0,0.07088815834252757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09685486794424657,0.0,0.14577168703125382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11190947727412864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13922663201531504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0983229987297498,0.0,0.1543958192740468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13851364079922146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11170448216431657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11587643873785088,0.0,0.16621068665851768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1268231293432868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16677022888870258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0985128579007608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12531915401286542,0.0,0.0,0.08558328984491151,0.0,0.1163898563104945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13987048735894664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1478685194908997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,aus_tiefem_traum,2019/01/11,"Water retention from exercise - even light exercise? I upped my step count goal for the new year - I used to do 15,000 on Friday/Saturday/Sunday and 10,000 the rest of the week. 

Now, I do 20,000 on F/S/S and 15,000 the rest of the week. I weighed myself after I went for a walk this afternoon, and I'm somehow up two pounds from last week. I don't usually fluctuate that much week to week, and my cycle is totally out of whack, so I don't know if I'm close to my period or not. I know resistance can contribute to water retention ... but walking? It's barely exercise! My lower legs and feet seem super swollen, and my socks feel tight and are leaving indents on my skin, but I don't know if I'm imagining things because I want to believe it's just water retention and not real weight. 

I'm definitely not eating more, and in fact I've dropped calories by a fair amount in the new year. Why does my body not behave, ugh.",4.4208645276292335,4.84521635828877,5.694986631016048,81.98797014260252,69.9090909090909,9.655793226381462,28.95231729055259,9.725611199111238,2.4971108734402856,717,25,150,16,12,241,109,187,0.014,0.89,0.097,0.9387,1,0,0,0,0,0,31.0,0,0,0,2,5,2,0,0,8,0,8,14,4,1,2,34,20,15,0,3,10,0,4,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,5,11,6,1,6,3,0,4,7,1,0,1,1,5,18,1,22,19,6,29,0,0,0,0,0,9,0,5,15,90,23,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.095338646228121,0.0,0.0,0.17620676169189764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17372269658124115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13686476726192578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16003399244144753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10329927077206977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07907942606206132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25785641941385384,0.12748507977239887,0.0,0.1656026863686901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.114970377131496,0.0,0.0,0.30209993640073474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1780149343313948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14237868170618706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10390374774668068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15277792347634106,0.0,0.0,0.13507748264718586,0.1722500791424265,0.0,0.09224747358036194,0.0,0.6272644002398576,0.1904503845498313,0.0,0.14498232593141308,0.14112468686852994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20143010883841134
EDAnonymous,ebizzle0415,2019/01/11,Fasted all day for a cheat and it was terrible So today was a minor cheat day. I’ve been doing keto to control my extreme sweet tooth and my uncontrollable hunger. My garlic wings I ordered were breaded and gross (I meant to order real wings not those fake Tyson frozen shits) and the meat in my cheesesteak was GROSS. $15 literally in the trash. My boyfriend is trying to be supportive by telling me to eat something else but I wasn’t even hungry to begin with. My brain was telling me to order food. Am I being a baby bitch for wanting to cry? Lol 😿,2.238727272727271,4.546059236363637,3.435454545454548,88.24318181818184,79.36363636363637,5.454545454545455,22.72727272727273,6.574015621080383,0.624545454545455,436,14,85,4,11,141,76,110,0.194,0.73,0.076,-0.9192,0,0,1,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,1,2,11,4,1,5,1,12,7,3,1,1,12,16,6,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,5,4,1,1,0,0,0,2,9,0,0,8,1,12,2,13,6,1,10,0,0,0,0,2,2,2,0,5,53,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2630450025704141,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2642830948800564,0.0,0.0,0.2588324217388398,0.3039283296076497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2411119770322944,0.19684161919182844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1556337564405936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28492905872644897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2682025993547626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2418744824249299,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1814022409245122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2673941927630936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41190826756781,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.223353080728641,0.0,0.0,0.15997973256604622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13898278979281975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,astro-bandit,2019/01/11,"I had the dumbest trigger My friend told me her ""name"" for Spanish class was Ana and I immediately went into fight or flight mode....smh",2.1056410256410243,4.756979307692311,3.220769230769232,87.40756410256414,82.84615384615384,5.005128205128205,24.051282051282055,6.42735559955562,0.6725282051282053,106,4,21,1,3,34,25,26,0.203,0.687,0.11,-0.4019,0,0,0,0,1,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,1,0,2,0,0,1,0,5,4,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,4,0,5,1,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,5,1,0,1,0,12,5,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5019283848837645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6207812857097904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6022445448158706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Needanameo,2019/01/11,"Omfg, I want oreos so fucking bad right now. The whole fucking pack. And a half gallon of milk. Right now. ",-0.6378571428571433,1.2429489047619064,1.0670238095238105,96.76339285714286,107.57142857142858,2.1,14.773809523809526,3.1291,-1.2533904761904764,81,2,16,0,4,26,18,21,0.182,0.76,0.058,-0.5819,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,3,3,2,0,2,0,0,3,0,0,0,2,3,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,3,1,4,0,0,0,2,0,2,2,0,2,10,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2842650734629922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6294889262638936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5814921293668429,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20080873433413385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3801050057809661,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,DistortionPuddle,2019/01/11,"Finally considering recovery for reals, I think? After fighting this alone for over half my life, I'm finally going to see a counselor who specializes in eating disorders, OCD and overdrinking. Literally my Big Three. I've been in therapy before, for DV-related PTSD, but never for my Big Three. I've also always  bailed on therapy when it gets uncomfortable, but I'm determined to not  do that this time. Terrified because what if it, like...works? I genuinely don't know who I would be if I was ok with my body. Scary. Bonus scary because I'm literally 10 lb above my goal weight. I keep thinking I'll try to be healthier once I hit my goal weight. In reality though, what I'm doing now is clearly not working. I've been 10 lb above my goal for months now and it's time. I have a heart condition, a family I'm making sad and scared, and I'm frankly getting too old to fuck around like this anymore.

I start next Tuesday. I'm going to do the work. I'm going to learn to have a better relationship with food, a little bit at a time. I'm going to stick with it, even when it gets difficult and uncomfortable.

Wish me luck?",3.0249681378333726,4.881306134529153,4.914722681142318,80.73107387302338,75.09865470852017,8.820297380221856,26.535048383290054,9.414487439383343,2.436323766816144,880,33,175,23,19,301,124,223,0.168,0.713,0.119,-0.918,0,1,1,0,2,0,34.0,0,0,0,7,9,11,2,1,7,1,13,8,2,1,2,27,39,13,0,4,6,0,2,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,13,9,4,1,4,0,1,4,4,5,0,3,3,3,16,6,24,32,1,30,0,1,1,1,4,10,1,3,17,96,29,6,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12572127131189714,0.0,0.09707387180911364,0.10100446950459796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1203841938236544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10806098012684527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14799389266498206,0.0,0.1032921750650157,0.0,0.0,0.1073577463773024,0.13252416404006878,0.13483460867379127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1391210672028846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12421014162220348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08017557305372862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1144337230612103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26594905508538125,0.0,0.0,0.14678274871410932,0.0,0.0,0.11222117144477588,0.1902605265363332,0.0,0.2759501980337033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14384526379408746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10789515633409218,0.0,0.0,0.06671162354316168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08573987426684097,0.11860800750585425,0.121662580629452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08102737588837827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0968906756845225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09362184341402942,0.0,0.12909742477137928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1273761971996221,0.1292741678551075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14189597679347649,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1381660225233696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13032519260449196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12153047925788862,0.0,0.09673045214838308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0859189910524488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2776353198423833,0.0,0.0,0.15556094906950987,0.11926301021636256,0.0,0.2123468083239531,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08241442620682969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29563555687199083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13959011163103782,0.0,0.0,0.2651155436381289,0.0,0.0,0.08623049206198158,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,iris-bae,2019/01/11,"I want to end it all. It’s almost 2am and I’ve just finished up purging in the shower for the 5th day in a row, blowing vomit out of my nostrils and spitting up blood. 
This illness is so fucking exhausting. I’m fed up of the cycle of restricting → bingeing → purging → self loathing → and repeat...

I’ve had this for 8 years and I’d give anything for it to let me go. This combined with BPD, anxiety, CPTSD and agoraphobia is just a fun(!!) game of Russian Roulette, seeing which will kill me off first.
I’m so, so, so done.",0.8257272727272706,2.7821039363636366,3.0063636363636377,91.31954545454546,82.36363636363637,5.454545454545455,26.363636363636363,6.574015621080383,1.0070000000000001,403,18,88,4,11,137,73,110,0.17600000000000002,0.812,0.012,-0.9569,1,0,0,0,0,1,19.0,0,0,0,1,6,4,2,0,5,0,6,8,3,0,1,13,14,9,1,1,2,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,1,1,7,7,1,1,0,1,0,1,0,3,0,1,3,2,4,1,17,9,1,14,0,0,1,1,3,7,1,1,6,52,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2707753500661918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20686198982369688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22252339988810954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34057041414106143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1743913039226629,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27672208360800704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2395019328599865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2300095848790313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2499885758315479,0.0,0.2594007583251516,0.1536795511015191,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2991672698602877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2765113160367221,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21548080153499127,0.0,0.28209534959302035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15949411472150676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1741343997863075
EDAnonymous,AuBenseiter,2019/01/11,"MY BODY IS A F*CKING PRISON I was playing a song I've listened to a few times and actually listening to it for a change (it's called Prison Décor.) The lyrics.. man. Made me realize my body is a fucking prison keeping me away from true happiness and that's really fucking sad. I keep trying to make it look nice and appealing for not just myself but everyone else and even if I do it's a goddamn cell that I can't ever escape from.

Here's those lyrics:

""Spend all day decorating my prison! Spend all night getting everything right. Am I still here if I love it from the inside? Now everybody wants to come in here. What do you think of me? What do you think of me? What do you think of me? What do you think of me, now?""

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This song definitely isn't about having an ED but damn do I identify with that.",2.1392727272727257,4.066689836363641,3.5751515151515143,89.0227272727273,77.9090909090909,7.309090909090909,23.12121212121212,8.238735603445708,1.2285030303030302,633,20,137,12,15,208,93,165,0.14400000000000002,0.758,0.098,-0.8429,0,0,0,0,0,0,26.0,0,4,0,0,10,9,3,0,9,0,13,5,2,2,4,26,30,8,0,3,6,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,1,14,6,0,2,5,3,2,1,3,4,0,0,2,5,21,5,17,28,3,11,0,1,1,3,10,3,3,2,7,95,35,0,0.0,0.0,0.1560382753090576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17325040755840754,0.19429468348963166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15023029415906658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3552232957898472,0.0,0.0,0.16327466994866524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16915185019238602,0.1377387568239384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1031215720445753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13357502567177654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10561172529112342,0.14463772297056138,0.0,0.15279026556554134,0.14370683442806614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2956479406148144,0.08354058348434114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1702153682873951,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2842510050626704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13427481699894553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14431501362543556,0.1513002195329351,0.10673376737387766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1500542998441319,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1024353393716438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1365527997064078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12769548004008044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4098270730948389,0.0,0.0,0.09323834318850653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1085608672201,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09431252288378712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19429468348963166,0.0
EDAnonymous,mermaiddreamsss,2019/01/11,"Anyone else just eat junk food and fast? I usually heavily restrict and then break my fast with junk food.. chips, or two slices of pizza, then start the cycle again...I don't even count the calories, it's never a binge. But it makes me feel gross. 

I want to try clean eating for the next 30 days. how do you guys get over sugar /junk food cravings?",1.7371428571428569,3.919893285714288,2.3014285714285734,96.37357142857144,80.42857142857143,5.142857142857143,17.142857142857142,6.18269132825596,-0.4798571428571426,270,5,59,2,7,83,58,70,0.086,0.856,0.057,-0.4696,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,1,0,0,3,1,0,0,4,0,2,7,0,2,1,12,7,7,0,1,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,2,3,7,1,1,0,0,0,2,1,0,1,0,2,5,0,5,7,0,11,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,1,9,29,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13310917288186533,0.19505369351759205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12277109566865305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3895863427710535,0.15902736867319842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12573574056690398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0962553764920424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6905783236365408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0994590051704965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1884934580323213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12707158459211462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14682292082917972,0.0,0.2024576774528544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13474288436331222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12924683314165944,0.0,0.1859610935004341,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2096625765294051,0.0,0.11228350712799827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,bandsandstories,2019/01/11,"What is wrong with me I’ve been struggling with body dysmorphia for YEARS, I am 17 now and I have such an unhealthy relationship with food.

Apparently according to people I am not fat but I don’t believe it at all. I want to be skinny. I am jealous of skinny girls. Even girls who are bigger than me have better bodies than me because their shape is nice. I just look so fat and disgusting.

I have this problem where I binge for a day or two then feel really fat and nasty and gross. So I starve for a couple of days. Then I’m SO hungry that I binge again, feel fat, starve. It’s a never ending cycle.

I hate it so much and idk what to do :( I hate myself.",0.5671046228710459,2.7194533503649687,2.5282043795620446,93.20408272506084,84.83941605839415,5.405158150851581,17.162530413625305,6.742157984588678,-0.15622783454987887,507,11,113,6,15,169,85,137,0.265,0.629,0.106,-0.9789,1,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,1,1,10,10,4,1,4,0,13,9,8,0,2,18,20,13,0,2,4,0,2,0,0,0,4,0,0,2,8,8,7,0,2,0,0,0,3,8,0,1,1,3,18,2,14,18,2,13,0,0,1,0,5,4,0,1,9,81,26,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11807084938336394,0.0,0.0,0.2182208668064532,0.0,0.17130193786234774,0.0,0.43028902032941774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21431289087857824,0.0,0.2498264091110772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17155072103855362,0.0,0.0,0.12792957654923015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19586967873564126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23420917584392356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38245503409535936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16264974776758284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1423834994400985,0.0,0.14938468572826893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1342793746590306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1853339521832651,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12408195731456816,0.0,0.0,0.2079492053323609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20248551034758974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1892057408568228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11424262867171008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2117682156984376,0.0,0.12472918896408483
EDAnonymous,eth_HTML,2019/01/11,"DAE get itchy when fasting/heavily restricting My arms, scalp, neck, and torso are ridiculously itchy all the time despite moisturising daily and my skin doesn’t seem dry at all. Does anyone else experience this or know what could be causing it?",11.117441860465114,10.034446906976747,9.534534883720934,64.99854651162794,56.67441860465117,13.251162790697675,40.1046511627907,12.161744961471696,4.94933488372093,199,8,32,5,2,61,38,43,0.199,0.8009999999999999,0.0,-0.802,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,1,0,4,4,4,1,2,10,7,4,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,1,2,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,5,2,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,2,17,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2571123964366105,0.3767638359426148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3777409512228176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29358767287631643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3217867689595213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30717573382311164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35969235762573765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.192114056551782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20208459712611,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3347506949489067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21441550428563505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,tired_platypus,2019/01/11,"my roommate just made fun of me for eating a piece of candy and told me that candy slows down ur metabolism which doesn’t even make sense.

but since i’m petty af

a couple hours laters as she was sitting on the couch watching TV with a huge bag of cheetos, i whipped out an entire head of iceberg lettuce and sat down next to her and ate the whole thing as loud and obnoxious as i possibly could ",17.078518518518514,6.262142345679012,14.918580246913582,60.238611111111155,57.641975308641975,17.68148148148148,52.84567901234568,10.125756701596842,5.590427160493828,314,10,65,3,2,101,65,81,0.076,0.861,0.063,-0.2732,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,6,0,3,3,1,2,0,11,9,8,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,3,6,2,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,5,2,7,1,14,3,2,10,0,0,1,0,4,5,0,0,4,42,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2267700662993557,0.3142671725450362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2906274760254387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18759518450893595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29149058233363384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2797064444259437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2687503922626388,0.18958823680460526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3020627642210423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32019440373163943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.234947601853967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1886929363975601,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27139711978880177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3171026718553967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,edthrowaway125,2019/01/11,"Latest ED thought: take a semester off school and devote my life to getting skinny School makes losing weight so hard! I get so fatigued from restricting and then I can't focus enough to be productive. Clearly the best solution here is to take a semester off, restrict to my GW, and then come back to school ready to eat at maintenance and with more energy! So much more logical than just decreasing my deficit! =P (I'm not actually going to do this, it was just such a ridiculous ED thought that I had to share.)",4.120833333333334,5.981025464646468,4.850391414141416,82.3289204545455,72.13131313131315,8.990404040404039,29.546717171717173,9.516144504307137,2.7994535353535355,407,17,78,10,8,131,70,99,0.155,0.6659999999999999,0.179,0.5793,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,2,8,6,1,0,4,0,6,5,1,1,1,16,16,9,0,0,3,0,2,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,3,6,3,2,3,0,0,2,2,3,0,0,4,2,6,3,14,11,5,9,0,2,0,0,1,3,0,0,4,53,9,3,0.0,0.0,0.19160673819834814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1509790302083581,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20605448182292646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1691358986521581,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20091240759709364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2028793503756955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20516682431816446,0.0,0.1115887518115821,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17588870315298616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.138685974760565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2196625160218497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13106341365042534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14433793045740606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5961421515327995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2952576169754411,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31175580554701515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2390982359682036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,uandtehbae,2019/01/11,What if we lived in a world where starving yourself was healthy Just think how great it would be if all we had to do was not eat to lose weight and our bodies efficiently used our fat storages as energy.  And also we didn't feel sick from not eating. I wish we could rewire our bodies to use the fat like that,2.9268750000000026,4.304621687500003,3.598875,92.05862500000002,74.3125,6.370000000000001,20.6125,6.742157984588678,0.12406624999999982,244,5,54,2,5,77,51,64,0.066,0.6829999999999999,0.25,0.9186,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,7,0,0,1,4,3,0,0,2,0,8,8,4,3,1,20,13,7,0,5,5,0,2,1,0,1,3,0,0,0,3,6,5,0,2,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,4,2,8,2,6,6,1,3,0,1,0,0,7,3,0,2,1,38,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17515293962182027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4865712602545047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17487236856728572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4482312496765796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1107448156068255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2414740796791734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1070037734674291,0.0,0.193401681268952,0.0,0.0,0.2450311686598884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1403413555681771,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3783318026779021,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26671150474293537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2518661091667604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15558794439961895,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,publixbogo,2019/01/11,"food delivery service is the worst thing to ever happen to my eating disorder like damn, I'm glad this exists for like, busy families and the disabled and stuff but jfc

I shouldn't be able to deliver 5000 calories of mcdonalds to my house in 30 minutes

I totally understand how people get to 600 lbs, I'm basically half way there rn with no end in sight",4.67914285714286,5.941214342857144,6.052857142857146,76.60214285714288,69.85714285714286,10.171428571428573,31.142857142857146,10.355215969177356,3.4248000000000003,284,12,53,8,5,96,57,70,0.125,0.799,0.076,-0.5499,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,3,5,1,0,2,0,3,2,0,1,2,9,8,4,0,1,1,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,3,2,0,1,0,0,0,2,2,0,1,0,1,4,3,10,6,2,5,0,0,1,0,0,2,1,0,4,32,7,1,0.26169876557257865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2999294578639504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.267783170349196,0.0,0.0,0.2317874299884201,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2367215159974791,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2467063055881345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31644718611453004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13672680379344915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23141935412238565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3019652391219097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2557055958870377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1814289731004637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29958247569949803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17386103138649914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2724376442637205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2077242990366412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,inthemoodforlove2000,2019/01/11,"anxiety!!!! be gone Thot so I’ve actually been eating normally for a couple days except yesterday I ate a bunch of saltine crackers (prly around 300-500 calories I wasn’t keeping track I’m so dumb) and pizza at night and a ton of other stuff and I couldn’t fall asleep. 

I posted on here before about failing a class, and I just keep remembering how bad I did last semester and hating myself. I hate myself so much for failing this class. The only good thing is that I can still graduate in four years but my gpa is abysmal right now and I just can’t believe I let myself get to this point. I have so much anxiety the only thing that helps is just shutting off my brain and imagining I’m in an alternate timeline that I’ve made up in my head where I’m stronger and skinnier and more beautiful and smarter. I wish that version of me was real because the me that I am is pretty pathetic. ",2.981973929236503,4.746494050279335,4.291932960893856,85.54613035381752,74.97765363128491,7.454897579143388,27.0171322160149,8.238735603445708,1.7980186964618246,701,27,141,12,15,231,113,179,0.1,0.7490000000000001,0.151,0.9244,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,0,2,14,7,3,0,8,0,15,6,3,2,0,26,27,16,0,3,5,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,11,11,3,2,2,0,0,2,3,6,0,1,7,0,21,1,16,17,6,22,0,2,0,0,1,12,1,0,7,100,32,6,0.0,0.0,0.15213312567354986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23852177935194596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1387815116996553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13016760474921502,0.09503345297374524,0.0,0.13265698853963204,0.1756426975146584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17403277277296492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17249722639707227,0.0,0.10054076186396263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15952169971550414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08144982415943952,0.0,0.0,0.13075912924064825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3078323115916753,0.15999544771483787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10449457052596113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2771370921037212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12707698098015255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.159415393732406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1475136486035204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22920467954530374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14629891038483386,0.15274610259143329,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23713360844889586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14737319300414306,0.0,0.14930637153499265,0.15860344311236033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17744508192331576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1766010756343344,0.13313531053623567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12449966185799136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17846493364853142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20714227264467994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17927402368310005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10039265047873766
EDAnonymous,black-coffee-skinny,2019/01/11,"Why god why I hate that my antidepressants make my appetite so much higher

That is all",2.214117647058824,4.9294907058823565,2.995588235294118,88.72514705882355,83.11764705882355,5.752941176470588,20.264705882352946,7.1686216300943375,0.5173764705882355,70,2,14,1,2,22,14,17,0.187,0.7070000000000001,0.106,-0.3818,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,2,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,3,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,9,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4322253413903496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29222711050976696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32182479594976243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7900717504473894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ricerollers,2019/01/11,"Just ate 1000 fucking calories at Olive Garden I decided to ""let loose"" and do the unlimited SS&B for my best friend's birthday at Olive Garden today. I had two bowls of soup, an entire bowl of that salad, and three bread sticks. I couldn't help but look up the calories when I got home and holy shit I wanna purge so bad but I'm not gonna.  

Holy shit.  

I mean yeah it's Olive Garden but damn.  

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EDAnonymous,gracias_sta,2019/01/11,"i'm scared of not knowing how much i'm weighting now I get extremely paranoid when I know my exactly weight  so I avoid meeting up with scales and only weight in the appointments with my psychiatrist, witch is every 2 week, and the doctor is on vacation. It's been almost a month and a half and I'm going crazy™.",3.2948437499999983,4.763985046875,4.889500000000002,82.80550000000002,73.53125,8.245000000000001,26.8625,8.841846274778883,2.0460975,249,9,50,5,5,84,48,64,0.177,0.823,0.0,-0.8611,0,1,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,4,3,0,2,4,0,3,4,0,1,1,13,10,7,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,6,3,1,2,0,0,1,1,3,0,1,1,3,5,0,6,9,1,8,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,1,4,30,6,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21690918100694967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22171519189486685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18250794151987265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11317268321523513,0.0,0.12310760768584532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23809248009988496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17290046357031194,0.0,0.15923735169061073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16474588512394134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21686995217195834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17375592634571108,0.7913381417237835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,CepheidVox,2019/01/11,"Plateau I've been trapped around 121-126 for two months and I am viciously angry about it. I've tried increasing intake, eating more protein, drinking more water, exercising more, and none of it is working. I feel tempted to eat less to achieve the loss I want but I'm already putting myself in danger by eating as little as I do now. All I want is to maintain a weight between 110 and 120 and it's so unfair that I can't have that despite suffering so much for it. I'm trying to adopt a mindful acceptance of It but I just can't. I feels like a personal failure that I'm not willing to harm myself more to get what I want. Fucked up, right?",3.2250000000000014,4.49716422727273,4.486787878787879,86.40518181818184,73.39393939393939,7.098181818181819,29.10909090909091,7.554174236665415,1.6986309090909089,506,21,104,6,10,167,85,132,0.21600000000000005,0.664,0.12,-0.9497,0,1,1,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,3,6,8,3,0,4,0,9,8,0,0,1,17,19,10,0,3,4,0,3,1,0,1,1,0,0,1,9,5,6,0,3,2,0,2,4,6,0,1,1,3,11,2,18,17,9,9,0,2,0,1,1,5,1,0,3,71,20,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20513736025324147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16548403013163934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1821042031097512,0.0,0.570644319385297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1879860004495627,0.13280187478521502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17185492575558886,0.09712133115099143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09081784685329,0.1863134513044788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18769876605559666,0.0,0.1483778832621302,0.0,0.13665261904004036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16231444880093462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18687363793947906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15875146098742424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25241805827938546,0.0,0.18159028347504216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3289332220811692,0.0,0.0,0.2263673869326433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13533219410089664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,madcapmango,2019/01/11,"currently 23 hours into a fast (majorly nsfw) even though fasting is supposed to reduce your sex drive, i still felt the need to masturbate. can’t tell if the massive headache and the stars i’m seeing are the result of a really intense orgasm or just from not eating. i’ve never passed out during a fast before but i’m genuinely terrified i’m going to right now. 

at least i got myself cleaned up, i guess ",5.586624999999998,6.0898894125000025,6.580000000000003,76.385,67.375,9.4,29.75,9.3871,2.6640750000000004,323,11,58,6,5,108,64,80,0.075,0.908,0.018000000000000002,-0.7354,1,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,1,0,0,5,0,0,0,7,0,3,3,1,1,1,13,12,5,0,2,5,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,3,1,0,1,0,0,3,3,0,0,0,2,2,5,0,9,10,2,16,0,0,1,2,2,5,0,3,8,36,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2502543537340321,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3009340126617694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19424788186701825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2823786402791873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16714174725296288,0.0,0.23521573714340285,0.0,0.32398031356165224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2896256879755159,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21806873543322616,0.226825254712852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1884056684655201,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25115669716466904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23435673393030465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23486574481576555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2570531943984186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2889481950330208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,drippycup,2019/01/11,"Food is painful Sometimes it feels like I dont even want to look at food because thinking about eating it just feels physically painful, and then sometimes I eat so much more fucking food than I knew a single human body could handle and vomit into the fucking toilet like a dog. And either way, I'm still thinking about it and torturing myself over the thought of food in general. What a wonderful world",8.27342105263158,7.863436868421054,7.501578947368428,75.12105263157899,61.89473684210528,9.705263157894738,37.42105263157895,8.841846274778883,3.299957894736842,326,14,56,4,4,101,55,76,0.13699999999999998,0.7559999999999999,0.108,-0.32299999999999995,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,6,7,3,0,5,0,3,12,1,0,0,17,15,6,0,2,2,0,2,2,0,0,3,0,0,1,4,5,6,0,7,0,0,0,1,5,0,0,2,3,4,2,9,12,4,8,0,0,1,2,1,5,2,1,4,38,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08429736655714583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15360366873643755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1104094695544316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16206920942087372,0.0,0.0,0.2830005387355936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09133606190005417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1398422912348013,0.09879096531565604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6688599887363575,0.0,0.0,0.25568485440591343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13511831475326122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11612472917403352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10165552383738756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2942903778717981,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2735351720273522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1104347290714907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1772151284022928,0.0,0.10978299197514384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08156418621434891,0.10976434489737437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14996438659027075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,WWEisVegan,2019/01/11,"My weight isn't acting the way I expect it to and it's killing me I've always had a good feel for how my weight fluctuates. Based on how/how much I've recently eaten I can generally guess how much water weight/food weight I'll gain from a meal or binge, and also how much of it will come off overnight or how much will come off with a fast or how much will come off if I purge with laxatives etc. I'm used to seeing pretty big fluctuations on the scale, and it's taken me a few years but I had predicting them down to a science.

And then. Right before new years. I went to a weight lifting class with my mom. I thought I wanted to get into weights and all, and while I was super sore for a couple days after I don't really mind soreness and I know it would have been better if I had kept going. But the weight. The water weight. The water weight for the recovery of muscles. That water weight.

I ate my normal, restricted amount the day I did that class. And I had weighed myself that morning, and it was where I expected it to be. And I weighed myself the next morning, and I was *more than seven and a half pounds heavier.* And I stayed right at that weight, did not budge for four days. I fasted, I used laxatives, I use diuretics, I sweat my ass off doing cardio, I shaved my body and cut my nails and exfoliated like fuck in the vain hope that I could remove enough dead skin to make that number drop, and it didn't. For four. Days.

And finally it went down... a little. And then as soon as I broke my fast it went back up, which I expected. But then it should have gone back down, leveled out, and it didn't. It's been *two weeks* since I did that class, and those have been two weeks of my weight patterns being completely different and unpredictable.

I was 148 before the class, and 155.8 after. I haven't been below 150.2 in two weeks, and have mostly hovered around 152.4. I'm losing my shit, let me back into the 140s!

It doesn't drop at all if I restrict. If I eat a single bite, it goes up. Purging does next to nothing. It only drops when I fast, but it doesn't drop as much as I expect it to. I eat restricted for one day, I have to fast for two to get back to where I was. And you know what? It's stressing me out so much, along everything feel so futile that it's triggering binges. And my weight goes up when I binge, but it goes up about the same amount as when I fast too.

It's not going up like I expect it to. It's not going down like I expect it to. A fucking decade of building intuition around my body and it's out the window because of one bodypump class? Is this the end? Is this just the way my body is forever now? Because I liked the way my weight moved before, and I hate this.",1.7561209964412825,3.495999729537367,3.0291871886121022,93.36447829181496,78.39501779359429,6.133010676156584,19.602989323843413,7.003673034542,0.12875860498220604,2096,47,473,23,50,678,223,562,0.129,0.8109999999999999,0.061,-0.992,1,0,0,0,0,0,76.0,0,1,1,4,24,18,6,1,27,0,42,36,7,10,2,95,76,59,2,16,16,1,16,4,0,5,3,0,1,0,40,41,24,4,5,0,0,13,10,10,0,10,27,17,64,8,67,40,18,92,0,2,1,3,3,34,4,10,41,333,104,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03674346479517195,0.03823123668843698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0818043979296548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1413203408936787,0.0,0.05601721950195978,0.0,0.11729147073420305,0.0,0.0,0.040636017715047684,0.0,0.15310888310044032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11873673526993453,0.04817411675490153,0.0,0.0,0.03668460678977911,0.05083901874655434,0.0,0.14815872069238112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04800439865778952,0.0,0.0,0.04020816328486185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09402964733647884,0.0,0.0,0.04069503372900329,0.04747510120414418,0.051242584039423535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04129382499019834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04646394450796045,0.0,0.0,0.05033223441450047,0.0,0.0,0.055558788986194575,0.0,0.0,0.08495374883907658,0.048010385138755836,0.0,0.07833750367923555,0.03853781281935596,0.0,0.0,0.050615339819369824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04536273709056564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04563532286105189,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050833085112075314,0.0,0.050502079404167684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.046983492776836236,0.0,0.08978871589229627,0.04605054547570185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051402472255468984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.030669700073921217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04639294963116058,0.053812081189059634,0.0,0.0488339449737401,0.23643216967921105,0.0,0.0,0.0443754949288773,0.09772942180697483,0.0,0.04501789469491893,0.04408698433897936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06226918575008175,0.03494444582436517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04674419169556111,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.029434556774274867,0.0,0.04536670640383925,0.0,0.0,0.07847625946865541,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.036613476900604035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0471635058574118,0.03800748719117362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.048972942717939526,0.0,0.0,0.05263165411398458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03647645359647485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1795325361333585,0.0,0.0,0.11904928318020915,0.0,0.0,0.027100484328715924,0.10941077377731832,0.11056672918322946,0.7833078182192232,0.0,0.12777882469883126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03263913337648817,0.0,0.0,0.059176184409553474
EDAnonymous,Rabb1tH3ad,2019/01/11,"I just cried over a burrito. I ordered a burrito to be delivered from a local place a little while ago and asked for extra cheddar cheese. They gave me extra queso blanco instead. It was like chewing on a hot, gooey mouthful of semen. 

I took three bites trying to force myself to enjoy it before purging those three bites and the banana I had this morning. I sat criss-cross applesauce on the floor between my toilet and my tub, crying for about five minutes.

I would feel stupid telling anyone I know that I cried over a burrito, but this burrito mattered to me, goddammit. 

I wasn't anxious at the thought of eating it and thought maybe I could just enjoy something for once. I was so looking forward to feeling normal for a second. I might have purged it later but I also may not have. I wanted it and not even getting that just felt like a confirmation that I should not have had it in the first place.

I hate that I think this deeply and negatively about what I put in my body. I'm exhausted.

Thanks for taking the time to read about my bitch fit. I'm gonna go take a Zantrex now.",4.0975,5.506466915887857,4.734661214953274,84.93974883177572,71.42990654205606,7.032242990654206,27.393691588785053,7.413659706084162,1.4720476635514013,856,30,165,9,16,274,127,214,0.101,0.7929999999999999,0.106,0.0026,0,0,1,0,0,0,20.0,0,0,1,1,11,9,3,0,14,0,14,5,2,0,0,29,36,11,0,5,8,0,4,2,0,5,1,0,0,0,15,6,2,0,7,1,0,4,5,4,0,5,11,5,26,5,25,18,2,24,0,0,1,0,4,14,1,2,9,122,41,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12916457102562634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11652554036334666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1646126702602344,0.0,0.10188496184298906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13622070734428066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1239898676177698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16185277606202214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1163388823842654,0.0,0.4801721606793826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1490993776326972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09624115943781276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14735235970218216,0.0,0.13990601843240172,0.0,0.0,0.12394224069658745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07612831428027188,0.0,0.0828112790290264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14386007093520348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08007930287533106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1423746875288639,0.14604133620757834,0.0,0.0,0.12236107340976082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1463869204454924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15457701612379424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14276646295030265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15517813376146952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3044752869441668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1464804371105366,0.0,0.0,0.145751064759116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11217593400347224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21911402814222405,0.0,0.12735838984866574,0.13415169480324748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09336613092658097,0.0,0.23135752110270635,0.08496562505523962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16189098582461678,0.0989286341269061,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08594449647347832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10350936349874046,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,notyourpeach,2019/01/11,"Can’t help but eat - and I hate myself for it I hate that I don’t have enough self control to stop myself from eating. I just can’t. And every meal feels like I’m binging even when is just normal amount of it. 

I hate feeling this fat. I fucking hate being fat. I want my old body again but it seems like I’m never gonna reach it. ",-0.41476027397260395,1.4959599041095937,1.5468321917808223,100.22517979452057,86.94520547945206,3.65,14.60445205479452,3.1291,-1.4158753424657538,255,4,62,0,8,84,49,73,0.285,0.579,0.136,-0.9482,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,1,5,7,5,0,0,0,6,7,3,1,1,14,18,5,0,2,4,0,2,2,0,1,2,0,0,1,6,2,5,2,3,0,0,0,4,5,0,0,0,2,10,2,4,16,2,5,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,1,7,37,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19077366439123924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19263034368243215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3514828144627307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17746192462493654,0.0,0.11343814482475947,0.0,0.14470536610255733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17368222097289898,0.12269703332642305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15877855329110901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6782636309277892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11511927784759388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16781510652638282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13246289147000642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1682768868837222,0.0,0.0,0.1802209694899821,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15635321909466726,0.17917095351073614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14358928496621118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10130160832225983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,SowoneulMalhaebwaa,2019/01/11,"A different kind of sickness So I recently went through some serious health issues. I got hideously sick and it destroyed my appetite (GOOD) and I got a few fever blisters in my mouth which made me *unable* to eat anyway. While it was painful, I was excited. I couldn't eat more than a few bites of things for over a week. I dropped 11 pounds during that time (most of which was water weight because when I went to the hospital for fever, they couldn't get a vein because I was so dehydrated). 

The power I felt by not eating and not being hungry transported me back to when my eating disorder was at its worst. I felt exactly how I had felt then and its messed up and sad but I had been chasing that feeling since I ""recovered"". Now I'm mentally trying to make deals with myself. Maybe I can engage with just a few of my behaviors and it'll be okay. ",4.1729684418145965,5.269807869822486,4.984156804733729,84.41260601577912,70.89349112426034,8.473570019723866,28.284516765286003,8.841846274778883,2.0834611439842208,666,24,135,12,12,216,107,169,0.098,0.845,0.057,-0.5574,2,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,0,1,1,9,11,1,0,8,1,14,14,2,3,1,24,26,14,0,2,4,0,5,0,0,1,6,0,0,0,10,8,6,0,4,0,0,3,4,6,0,0,16,5,22,5,19,5,7,17,0,1,0,0,2,4,0,2,9,99,32,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10804097566548967,0.0,0.17130315454341916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14485623314623014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14679959118198513,0.16103284565431386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.575093706990598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0710444068583727,0.0,0.40472538541774056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07340894905383187,0.0,0.0,0.117850349657725,0.22475207940081154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14935204663235696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1466524850269479,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1463161013215517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13295083232939914,0.09378931011346313,0.0,0.1411578607345476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14159770125698593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14950903017545208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1387334106783167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11622859024427044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0933464049578674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0819305839092171,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09539482295444948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1127059956743747,0.17109930205706228,0.0,0.26050222829540903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,alwaysrelapsing17,2019/01/11,"Why do people take EC stacks 3 times a day instead of 1? So I bought bronkaid for EC stacking, which has been kind of confusing to me. I want to start off slow and I don’t plan to take it regularly. But everywhere I read people say they take it 3x a day for weeks at a time? Why do they need so much of it? I just planned on taking one with a cup of coffee every couple days, but will that have an effect on me?",1.4835714285714303,2.477441611111111,3.322063492063496,94.145,77.33333333333333,6.476190476190476,20.63492063492064,6.868970318607317,0.0944920634920634,315,7,78,3,7,106,62,90,0.032,0.954,0.014,-0.3413,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,2,3,4,2,0,1,5,0,7,0,0,1,0,9,15,5,0,2,3,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,5,2,0,0,1,1,1,0,1,1,0,1,2,1,9,1,14,12,1,12,0,0,0,0,3,4,0,1,8,49,14,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2128594981032826,0.0,0.3721982646843528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16208440180884154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20032916574253765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14141790587006547,0.14264377210897786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13035841321151406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26673748068414393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19242725795881133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1529844792206942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13616415564659712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5785688315265756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22435105056909915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11346787634364636,0.0,0.15431178034200296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3471773891928704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,GoalsandGossip,2019/01/11,"Recovery was going well I had been doing really well as far as not starving myself or purging, but I gained weight. That's okay, I'll just try and lose it a healthy way.

Meal planning and the gym. My goals being mainly health with bonus weight loss.

I forgot I'm poor. I can't afford my cheap ass gym membership. I can't afford decent shoes that support me while working out. I can't afford most food.  

I want to fully relapse and just forget ever trying to be healthy. I can't afford it. I'm so sad.


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EDAnonymous,throwawaykfkdjqnski,2019/01/11,"My S/O is my thinspo Does anyone go through this? I love her so much, but her body is so thin and she doesn't even try. She expresses how she needs to gain weight and can't when she tries because of her metabolism. My goal weight is above her current weight, and I can't help but feel... jealous. It makes me feel horrible and unfair to her but it's ridiculously hard to internalize that she can be beautiful and thin without even trying, while I struggle to even get my weight below the high 120s.",3.283200000000001,4.8812295200000015,3.916999999999998,89.24350000000004,73.8,7.4,25.5,8.07648339933343,1.3153,392,13,84,6,8,124,63,100,0.198,0.693,0.109,-0.8586,1,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,2,7,4,2,1,1,0,8,6,1,2,0,14,15,13,0,1,4,0,9,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,5,4,0,2,0,0,1,4,3,0,0,0,9,18,1,8,14,1,8,0,0,0,1,13,4,0,0,3,56,22,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10660583103447596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09294016612209507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16935227127943542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13342159458766584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.302101564234787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15417997393128632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0796557417532233,0.0,0.08664836360759473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1365771017046755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10219288513301583,0.16108576676711162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13760401205020695,0.0,0.10177038578951053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11207801214371987,0.1130495486006211,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15938766484112185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3105375630544096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7426365310757806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14696910709001113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,bingeyboa,2019/01/11,"How long for food and water weight to go? So over christmas I was stuck at home in essentially forced recovery, otherwise my parents would keep me there and not let me go back to school. I faked it as well as I could, ate when I was hungry, snacked, ate candy, and my parents refused to let me exercize. My tdee through this was maybe 1400 from taking the dog on short walks. I was stuck there for three weeks and purged every night, whatever I could get up. I have gastroparesis, so oftentimes I would get stuff from breakfast up as well. But I get back home a few days ago, go back into restriction (OMAD that always gets purged bc I'm an addict), and I'm up from 95 to 108 pounds. How does that happen in three weeks? I assume some of it's gotta be water and food weight, because if not that means I had to have eaten 2167 kcal over my tdee every day. Is that possible? Like I can accept a little gain, bc I was eating again, but 13 pounds?? I was trying to eat at most 2000 kcal a day, because in my mind a 3 pound gain was acceptable if it kept me out of php. I fasted yesterday in hope's of getting some of that water weight gone, but no cigar. How long gg does it normally take you guys to drop the food and water weight. Honestly my stomach is still distended...",4.121956224350207,4.6751247751937965,4.827273141814867,87.4843707250342,70.62790697674419,8.241130870953032,24.866393068855448,8.313332769828598,1.2442888280893758,984,25,215,14,17,317,142,258,0.054000000000000006,0.8540000000000001,0.093,0.8995,2,0,0,0,0,0,34.0,0,1,0,2,15,8,0,0,7,0,20,21,1,3,0,37,44,21,0,8,7,2,4,1,0,3,1,0,2,1,11,9,19,4,4,0,0,5,3,1,2,2,15,4,26,7,34,21,4,39,0,0,0,0,5,16,0,7,18,134,37,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10238213296868737,0.0,0.0,0.08325072956248858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07814550603825789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.216646461948792,0.0,0.11450045418386336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14996831961069373,0.0,0.0,0.1817038506523976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16437277676213666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19219871001270705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15825629904176766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3406902357552116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2453357625032347,0.0,0.16012361610680678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09299145145069047,0.08304947110062086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1884104988612708,0.09327962438826293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08347671773495881,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19207062792196625,0.0,0.0458825377341967,0.0941283487338754,0.0,0.16622513398862582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09435108891489556,0.10230188699816133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09482823051421074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08813365799880837,0.09201758735613816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2085648621802074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10587600352198344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09504784852857877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07500131470765198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10751117274616576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14122605413675468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06376269359537788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1506672510305643,0.4574567899416018,0.16888324603125748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13343024266475212,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,loosesleeves,2019/01/11,"I don’t want to recover I feel like I need to recover for everyone else in my life to be happy, but I just don’t have any motivation to recover for myself. I hate recovery, I miss restriction, and I miss being in control of everything.  I don’t know how to make myself want recovery and I just want to give in and relapse at this point. Anyone else only recovering out of guilt?",2.2371428571428567,4.188868558441564,5.097402597402599,78.10896103896107,77.70129870129871,9.594805194805195,26.584415584415584,9.957137785484203,2.9929012987012986,297,12,59,10,7,107,45,77,0.17800000000000002,0.68,0.142,-0.7096,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,2,3,6,1,1,0,0,6,1,0,4,0,18,17,5,0,4,3,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,4,0,2,3,0,0,0,3,4,0,0,0,1,12,2,15,15,0,6,0,2,0,0,1,6,0,0,1,41,13,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15938654938925542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16388406092782185,0.2401501767350309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26287728471652066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3915891055826747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22396029172986165,0.21064577931686765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11850965372350715,0.16744123665582242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22483881115082455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2495020438471465,0.0,0.2314018889908237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12880920907349125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1655496419334926,0.11450630958432025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15645058008114301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17378992247370942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17825667700235265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2215650142211398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4147304815653629,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,SickPuppyii,2019/01/11,"Anyone else not eat an entire day so they can eat at the party? And then end up not eating at all, oops.",0.4978260869565218,1.8223990000000043,2.7471739130434787,95.84945652173916,80.73913043478261,4.6000000000000005,11.5,3.1291,-1.653504347826087,79,0,19,0,2,27,20,23,0.0,0.8909999999999999,0.109,0.4019,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,1,3,0,0,1,4,1,3,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,3,1,1,6,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,3,13,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19497974294340206,0.2857167406184267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1798364166502538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8560053750222318,0.23294499389899104,0.0,0.2469800294941906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,leeisnotmyname,2019/01/11,"I can't escape the thoughts of food Kind of dramatic title but the past few nights I've had dreams where I binge super hard, gain all the weight back, and then have a panic attack. Even in my dream last night I stole a giant cake from some random person's baby shower and fucking devoured it (which thinking back to it is actually kind of funny). Honestly, most of my dream last night was me just wandering around Target looking for the perfect junk food to binge on.  

I was hoping that sleeping would be my one break from obsessively thinking about food but I guess not.",9.05227272727273,7.175521500000002,8.222727272727273,75.29409090909091,61.27272727272727,10.618181818181819,33.81818181818182,8.841846274778883,2.688945454545455,455,13,85,5,5,142,81,110,0.099,0.6629999999999999,0.238,0.969,1,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,3,7,10,2,2,6,0,8,6,1,0,2,18,15,5,0,2,4,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,4,3,4,0,3,3,0,0,2,4,0,1,4,3,9,6,13,9,4,15,0,0,1,1,1,5,1,5,9,56,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.1419593918146548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1295006522003431,0.0,0.1654950564152355,0.0,0.22371751125952505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0960826839512882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5277148606626606,0.0,0.0,0.1344862398594391,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1602534749681043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13031406703880485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14448621891848418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3029727734614464,0.0,0.2371576979532386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12215958757195973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4095459995861089,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09857538678487926,0.0,0.0,0.17067969290628704,0.0,0.0,0.13886919533744607,0.0,0.12702027479352154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14557675500926578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18642477921039385,0.0,0.11548827814272447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17714533675150065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10333891982540848,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,luckycharmsinahoe,2019/01/11,"Can men have eating disorders ? Everywhere online always has something to do with women and ed. I’m male and really think i have an ed/body dysmorphia, i just want someone to talk to",3.9161904761904758,6.0225261428571475,5.48,76.55333333333336,73.28571428571428,9.23809523809524,25.952380952380953,9.725611199111238,2.8042380952380954,145,5,25,4,3,49,28,35,0.0,0.958,0.042,0.0772,0,0,1,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,5,1,0,0,0,6,8,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,3,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,4,8,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,0,15,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30562662859495704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4079923103305369,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4209625865498409,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3758440295512673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23530456062461916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3112157687946813,0.2827688198565376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2952253090472143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2353537850272152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2166456117068531,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,MymlanOhlin,2019/01/11,"I don't know how, but every single little thing is related to my ED First of all, I'm sorry for constantly venting and putting all this shit you. 

I bought a $1600 laptop in July 2018, as it is crucial for my job as a freelancer. In October, it broke down. I got in contact with customer support but was bounced around quite a bit until I FINALLY got someone on the phone to say ""yeah no, that is most likely a manufacturing error, you will have to send it in for repairs."" Thank goodness! 

So I sent it in, when I finally got the postal pdf sent to my email (and had to deal with UPS drivers lying and wtf this is all a mess moving on) in the middle of December. So holidays got in the way, but there has still been 2 weeks of for sure business days so I mean I could hope for some progress being made, right? So I emailed the repair center about an update because I desperately need this computer to earn a living. I received a reply really fast, props to them for that, but that gratefulness faded quickly when I found out that they only. Started. My. Repair. Yesterday. 

I'm in hysterics and somehow apathetic at the same time??? I need to stuff my face but all food tastes the same so there is no point because it won't bring me joy like it usually does. My mouth is so dry and I need to fast for a week but I really need to drink this melted ice cream right now. ",2.0009531772575206,4.036632528985511,3.642028985507249,87.85821070234115,78.78260869565217,6.7099219620958745,23.658862876254183,7.748469712250963,1.1769575250836108,1062,36,220,17,26,353,162,276,0.157,0.718,0.124,-0.9071,1,0,1,0,0,1,34.0,0,2,2,4,17,11,1,0,16,1,16,6,3,2,5,36,38,23,0,6,6,0,0,2,0,2,0,1,0,0,16,9,3,0,3,2,1,7,4,3,0,1,12,3,26,8,41,22,10,50,0,1,1,0,14,21,1,4,23,153,42,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10808304386998607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14802410985559364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13255122264264574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13120399590583054,0.0,0.09693816140355807,0.0,0.0,0.07830114719301971,0.12517116235048806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1062490718405224,0.0,0.0,0.11893822357337527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10229543612587563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26600335619974336,0.0,0.10327358048429566,0.14681271861500536,0.13312275865351758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.101835212263027,0.3884193093836625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12059020609267294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12048337033239567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06672524463122358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11863222472662148,0.12168742152878224,0.10720963836751307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1148836322516842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13225402350923154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12904248550255204,0.0,0.3601039141505332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09233982931565722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11477424542829995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12205329778039364,0.0,0.12913735129460074,0.0,0.0,0.15556016897102648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20737156459966594,0.0,0.0965522520842422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12462839166746242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10287258659933356,0.0,0.0,0.1359115772984522,0.08593653387454123,0.0,0.09696033895002698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13898849361529392,0.0,0.13777769300499387,0.1144300327656193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11178050172808683,0.0,0.0,0.08066120287706584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07079672166829218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13371893584793013,0.0,0.0,0.09637174985947948,0.1947798886664298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,starsinmyeyess,2019/01/11,"Old stretch marks coming back?? Hey all. 

So I was fat in middle school. Got up to 185 ish, and had some stretch marks from gaining weight and childhood obesity as well as just growing up (puberty etc). Then i got down to 150ish in the first part of college, and my senior year went back up to 195ish. Im currently working on it and am back down to 175 but its still wayyyyy too much (so was 150 if we're being honest).

Anyway, those old stretch marks from middle school had mostly faded, but since i gained the weight back pretty rapidly and have been losing relatively rapidly as well, theyve become more prominent. My boobs were like the only thing i didnt hate on my body for a while and now i feel like the only thing you can see on them is stretch marks. Does anyone have any advice for this since they are older?? Do i just have to wait for them to fade again? Sorry if this is rambly and unintelligible, I'm just feeling really low right now.",4.440343698854335,5.422464638297871,4.674468085106383,87.30653846153848,70.17021276595744,7.273977086743042,24.567921440261866,7.321109707123232,0.8956288052373163,744,19,154,7,13,233,120,188,0.039,0.8029999999999999,0.157,0.9713,1,0,0,0,0,0,23.0,0,1,3,5,17,8,1,0,5,0,17,6,3,0,1,21,27,18,0,2,7,0,4,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,7,8,4,1,2,0,0,3,1,3,2,1,10,5,13,5,25,16,7,41,0,2,1,1,5,18,1,4,22,105,20,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12783231721839164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08895966930614878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09146990082006616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4023590892557661,0.0,0.0,0.14447648710667654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1453075812764245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11268678512542615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1144783536300385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1458949172838908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13228945159082658,0.09345529530686167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11127240231394113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2092517246790644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12915415761444127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1413042101157418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12782061564318314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14635014175181912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09616513989352836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2745397091935734,0.0,0.0,0.19898360430671652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14166146326986007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.133087355151322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08380436518515452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11171653028973044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2647864550314125,0.10424377076260664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21642543224044625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14643830142574946,0.0,0.0,0.10447018292141168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17381726818366944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3185983786425888,0.2352393911229292,0.12126815622547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09523593085323584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0842415023700393
EDAnonymous,Vikite,2019/01/11,"Feeling bad about not feeling hunger Whenever I have a nice fulfilling meal it takes me five seconds to start feeling terrible about it. Like being hungry is the norm for me. I LIKE feeling hungry in a way. Event at the moment I feel my stomach grumbling and it actually makes me feel... safe? Like ""yeah, you do that""
And it's so stupid when you think about it. why on earth would I feel like this
And yet here we are. Dumb ED brain.",0.6099612403100778,3.111549802325584,1.7491860465116282,95.28641472868219,91.67441860465117,4.7271317829457375,19.95736434108527,6.42735559955562,0.18256899224806225,337,11,71,4,12,106,61,86,0.18,0.627,0.193,0.0764,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,1,2,0,0,7,10,2,0,4,1,6,4,2,1,0,16,17,5,0,1,1,0,7,4,0,1,0,0,0,0,7,4,2,1,8,0,0,0,1,4,0,2,0,7,11,6,8,15,0,9,0,0,0,0,3,3,1,0,9,46,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.2007760720236986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17178730976947598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22967789799919816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.728211012632714,0.14698326696910655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4020637163800849,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13733544877482007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14562637707437145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15469358000875835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13183218954127765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16330969090331468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18565159512873702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14615434839849434,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,stopshop,2019/01/11,Cant stop thinking about nachos Like wtf. Ive had nachos probably 20 times in the last few months. And i still obsess over it. Last time i had them it wasnt even that good. Why do i still crave them. Chips and dairy gives me the worst break outs and i just want clear skin :(  ,0.009926108374383348,2.2215632931034506,0.6621182266009882,105.07327586206898,88.48275862068968,4.0039408866995085,11.733990147783251,5.288315135182226,-1.696869950738916,213,2,53,1,7,64,44,58,0.229,0.647,0.125,-0.8367,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,2,0,5,4,0,1,2,0,6,1,1,0,1,9,9,3,0,1,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,4,0,1,1,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,3,1,8,2,4,6,2,12,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,0,9,31,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.183619984394782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26668816935923306,0.0,0.23317778996412325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4532231095808419,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13581942515537973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2219013058412374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29973690615474363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4440310389326535,0.23242501281631395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17813467339634118,0.0,0.0,0.3242144387675836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16397482317817078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2508566866623463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,WinterSpades,2019/01/11,"Finally did it Ordered a food scale off Amazon. I already have a scale for my weight and I was trying very hard not to buy a food scale because I know this will make things worse but welp. Here we are. Two days away from a food scale. A part of me is excited to finally know Exactly how many calories are in what I eat and a part of me is dreading what this will do to my ED

But hey, at least my gf's parents won't look at me weird because they're trying to diet and hopefully they'll understand the importance of having a food scale if they wanna lose weight. ",3.5476271186440687,4.1679760932203385,4.662500000000001,87.90612288135594,71.96610169491525,8.272881355932205,26.614406779661017,8.472884824447931,1.5621322033898308,441,14,98,7,8,145,76,118,0.114,0.7909999999999999,0.095,-0.3284,1,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,1,0,2,1,2,5,0,1,8,0,13,8,0,2,1,16,19,7,0,3,4,1,3,0,1,4,0,0,0,0,6,4,8,0,3,0,1,0,2,3,0,1,2,4,13,2,15,13,3,9,0,1,1,0,6,5,0,2,3,67,19,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14544051966037574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12382698384871026,0.0,0.0,0.1606836303200258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08499772504270632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1348605413305865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28875285920100074,0.0,0.0,0.6374745472808541,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11806361789618855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1309034867016872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14486362460542987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11067571749684614,0.14744637314860295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0879750689612792,0.13362078518540485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14634421955434732,0.28544514851903474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0875596206382272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1789621038434745,0.0,0.12874585673366026,0.13720462020194846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10874576923278284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32098483034978764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13431171272570938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,deviroxx,2019/01/11,"Today I hit my ultimate goal weight :-( And I didn’t feel happy. I thought I would be so happy.

I weigh as much as I did in middle school and it still doesn’t feel like enough. Now that I’ve hit this point, I don’t even know if it’ll ever be enough, if I’ll ever lose enough weight to be satisfied. 

I just feel so numb",-0.17209255533199294,1.48895211267606,1.8276861167002032,100.02450704225357,84.21126760563381,5.183903420523139,14.368209255533195,6.18269132825596,-0.9875649899396386,244,3,63,2,7,81,43,71,0.115,0.708,0.17600000000000002,0.6579,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,2,8,5,0,0,0,0,9,4,0,0,2,13,16,8,0,3,3,0,5,1,0,2,1,0,0,0,4,2,3,0,5,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,3,5,9,3,4,6,4,8,0,1,0,0,0,3,0,2,6,41,13,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5354425517469629,0.0,0.11408946803430865,0.31249637908892297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2620191677379712,0.12340151792172192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36775804515344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09493033042175952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08438932186916802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1932456537741812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12697968793583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1632898778061301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17481647438328193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13794594632366014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13713185014879112,0.0,0.0,0.16373205111116992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.42068802418099394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12270558965753013,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,101_honey,2019/01/11,a peach thread / 2019 version hi!!!! im just looking for more active peach users. i know a swath of us joined after the 2018 proed disaster but like i wanna find more of us that are still active!,1.5603846153846168,3.7794147179487183,2.433012820512822,94.98490384615386,81.30769230769229,4.925641025641027,17.442307692307693,5.985473137389443,-0.4340307692307692,150,3,32,1,4,47,31,39,0.059,0.698,0.242,0.8340000000000001,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,2,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,5,3,1,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,4,1,5,3,3,2,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,0,3,19,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29386453008036995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3472980434659697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1766996298626704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15707900596568222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2699968107210423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25676722653500234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7735007739068978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Serenescence,2019/01/11,"Drunk me has more sense than sober me Drunk me has the sense to tell my bf to take these cookies away from me cause I'll ""get fat"", but an hour before sober me was snackin down a whole pack of oreos, idek the logic behind this :)",3.84,3.9094446666666687,3.6791666666666663,97.18250000000002,71.08333333333334,6.4,20.166666666666668,3.1291,-0.5887583333333333,176,2,43,0,3,53,38,48,0.065,0.8440000000000001,0.091,0.5187,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,3,3,1,1,0,3,5,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,3,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,6,0,8,4,2,3,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,1,26,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36906498146237343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33425876868371496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4035317893940002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20523093606113046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38684612034665505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2953498808222457,0.0,0.3433398179244001,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4385667216591331,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,alyssawww,2019/01/11,"I'm so fuckin hungry I'm not eating I'm just walking around on my phone Not Eating. Like that is an activity itself. I'm alternating between living room bathroom and hallway mirrors. 
I'm going to go to sleep soon but rn I'm just waiting for my stomach to get flatter.",1.5651515151515127,3.9563648181818216,4.0759090909090885,82.16719696969697,82.63636363636363,5.121212121212121,27.34848484848485,6.42735559955562,1.4007575757575754,215,10,39,2,6,75,39,55,0.031,0.937,0.032,0.0116,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,5,3,1,0,1,0,1,5,2,0,0,8,11,3,0,0,5,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,2,2,1,0,0,0,3,2,1,0,0,0,0,2,2,7,11,0,7,0,0,0,1,2,3,1,0,2,21,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30417207726757944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6992580809571979,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17851630166179644,0.0,0.3883749011890527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1669300240534362,0.0,0.30171410091465845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3419317449037879,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,broketreebranch,2019/01/12,"I go through all the body positive hashtags and I still hate myself. Why, why does this take up so much of my brainspace? I'm supposed to be studying pharmacology, not fantasizing about slicing off my thighs and stomach. The visceral hatred for my body is just too much to bear. I don't even expect that I will ever ""love"" my body, but I would be satisfied for ""moderately discontented"" instead of this ever-present and distracting disgust and repulsion. The only time I don't feel this constant repugnance is when I'm underweight and actively restricting. I feel so trapped.",5.993269230769229,8.043358711538467,6.385769230769231,72.4342307692308,67.65384615384616,10.2,37.03846153846154,10.411451182825502,4.414080769230769,462,25,77,13,8,149,70,104,0.217,0.706,0.077,-0.9538,0,1,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,0,0,10,4,2,1,3,0,8,6,5,0,2,15,16,9,0,2,3,0,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,4,5,0,1,2,0,0,1,3,3,0,0,0,2,12,1,10,12,3,8,0,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,5,56,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6305756553505868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2044904183987764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16559645920193014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12498463863427678,0.3423387599914466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19136076016608472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1075437769530715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1868254610061716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17078747438085648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27821166465217306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14391795159335713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15111933247985088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1422774194899029,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11034154207926404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3415013070045368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13442357165816884,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,imtoofat_throwaway,2019/01/12,"Feeling invalidated by my treatment team - help? Hi,

I've been in recovery for almost a year now with the help of a treatment team offered through my university's health center. This includes a medical doctor, a dietician, and a therapist. I was never ""that sick"" even at my lowest weight but when I first started seeing them I was diagnosed with AN-R and they helped me a lot with issues I was having. 

Lately, things have been really, really bad. Being home with family over these last holidays was immensely triggering and I've been dealing with a restrictive episode for weeks now (since \~early Nov.) And through all of this, I've gotten so little support. Here's just a few instances of what I've experienced, just so you know what I'm talking about:

* Medical doctor only asking me about how I am and how my health has been if my weight is low enough, otherwise dismisses me with ""you're doing great!"" even if I explicitly state that I'm not doing great
* Dietician giving me the OK for exercise with no hesitation, saying that I ""appear to be healthy"", then checking my weight chart later that day and taking it back, saying she didn't know my weight was that low and I actually can't exercise
* Dietician making sure that I'm exercising regularly when I tell her I'm eating more, even though she knows as part of my ED I am active at best and compulsive at worst
* Therapist repeatedly ""reassuring"" me by saying I do not look ill/emaciated, and I was never that all severe so I will probably eventually completely recover whether I try to or not and I don't necessarily need external support to do so

It just feels so clear that they don't give a shit at all. I have been through hell with this disorder and it breaks me to constantly feel like I'm being told I'm not sick enough to be cared about, not sick enough to eat more, and not sick enough to get better. I feel like I have so many reasons to recover but now I'm even deeper into restriction because I feel like I need to prove to them that I am sick enough just to have their support. I feel so terrible for admitting that, but I almost want my weight to be so low and I want to look so gaunt that they take me seriously and stop dismissing my emotional and physical pain. 

I just don't know where to go from here, so I'm asking for help. How would you deal with a situation like this? Am I in the wrong and just attention seeking? Thanks in advance for any responses, I really do appreciate it. ",5.2531851464435135,6.205297443514645,6.405081066945609,75.74665925732221,68.2887029288703,10.410146443514646,30.20946652719665,10.481140341803084,3.20397259414226,1950,73,372,53,32,655,217,478,0.115,0.693,0.191,0.9888,1,0,0,0,0,0,54.0,0,2,6,6,36,27,2,0,13,1,39,24,1,6,9,84,83,41,0,7,19,0,11,4,0,2,16,3,1,0,23,26,7,3,14,6,1,3,14,11,0,1,14,18,55,16,52,62,15,41,1,3,3,0,33,15,2,7,25,264,78,4,0.0,0.0,0.06629285416350256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13605026681407473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.046196801310163765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1270164568390528,0.0,0.0,0.05223631969032713,0.056721256466976275,0.0414113547641249,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07129154142315602,0.06008125932563399,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06926226865695259,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0712265070320317,0.07341148987455735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04381119518991074,0.14007197652843864,0.0,0.0689506124669688,0.0,0.0,0.07785715701314905,0.13906470382673178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13902493264808505,0.0,0.07641553405022254,0.0,0.3509649846791783,0.0,0.1794765467335035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06404123058503343,0.0,0.2060939375642284,0.14559414650528704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05778381485784645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03549221309125725,0.13033513712855718,0.03860791598296863,0.0,0.0,0.14979284772259158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14441930399531594,0.0,0.0,0.18213635706453526,0.0,0.06814238480749557,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07090445124234007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14933690355400994,0.05537450000029878,0.0766314356838164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13275462083586692,0.06808675949041129,0.0,0.0,0.11409329978188225,0.0,0.0,0.05775424703402065,0.0,0.0,0.045345836211168083,0.06887344688632048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13687079535357435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1007429867700987,0.10478830717876214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05166614323004383,0.07228555137280455,0.0,0.0,0.07356486959796349,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0732433142048104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.130558947810142,0.06984648628701468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1620692562138591,0.0,0.0,0.05413384293470549,0.0,0.0,0.07674500644908068,0.06973229625982534,0.05619491826835708,0.07635959082467729,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.048083360135718914,0.0,0.0,0.056795068919453275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2312688492102512,0.06402609260275753,0.0,0.10215439356080512,0.054602009715709034,0.05937647712553705,0.0625436223502986,0.0,0.1577510064205744,0.045131697684949804,0.0,0.06674387351223257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06491293737179178,0.0,0.046122079497681434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08013734210972749,0.0,0.05449179244078034,0.4136207483314772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04825768731345383,0.07427412230752826,0.0,0.043746654831476633
EDAnonymous,plaidandsad,2019/01/12,"Surprise fried food! Had a nice low calorie dinner planned out tonight and my wife ""surprised"" me by ordering delivery from some local fish place, getting me a huge order of fish & chips with a side of hush puppies. I told her I appreciate the thought but made it clear to not order for me in the future. 

Was doing pretty good with not purging but ya boi reset his streak tonight. 

Extra annoying because I just dropped more than usual on a really solid meal plan for the week earlier today and she thought to spend too much on one of those Uber Eats-esque services. Fuuuuuck that. ",5.312636363636365,6.849674400000005,5.648863636363636,79.05329545454545,68.63636363636364,8.045454545454545,31.931818181818183,8.472884824447931,2.5759090909090907,464,20,82,7,8,148,88,110,0.043,0.778,0.179,0.9329,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,1,0,2,2,6,1,0,7,0,3,3,0,1,1,15,8,4,0,0,5,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,3,5,3,0,2,0,1,0,2,2,0,1,6,1,11,4,16,2,4,19,0,1,0,0,6,9,0,1,6,53,14,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2835150305534386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15950918115019286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3164075980805939,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13670969905816927,0.0,0.0,0.21947304849430496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2475947212370087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19235463726738525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1773116716287088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27338530507547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2662084197387106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16762995701417086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4154671935641613,0.0,0.0,0.2480287974597172,0.2500331019162459,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.288188160458274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20989270312800928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,t_h_r_0_w_away_____,2019/01/12,"I ignored my boyfriend for over a week and even though that was a shitty thing for me to do, I honestly find it triggering to meet up with him because 1) he is underweight (though not due to an eating disorder), and 2) he eats. A lot. And every time we meet up, he always suggests that we go for fast food or pick up some snacks, and I hate myself for declining his offers because I've seen how much it upsets him to see me slowly wearing away. 

Deep down, I know that he only wants to help me and doesn't want me to become underweight because he knows what it's like, but I feel like I cannot bring myself to consider recovery, even for him, which I know is horrible for me to say, but the truth is that I don't want to recover, I like having control over my weight and how much I can eat, because the rest of my life is falling apart and I hate it. I've even been having second thoughts about our relationship, he's the first partner I've ever had and after almost a year I'm starting to consider that maybe we weren't supposed to last this long. Or maybe I'm just too fucked up in the head to truly be loved. 

It's disgusting of me to put my ED over my boyfriend, but we met up yesterday to try to settle things between us, and it ended up with me having a panic attack in a fast food place before I walked away, and now I'm back to square one: ignoring him again.

I guess if I wasn't such a fuck up I'd still want to be with him 'forever,' but things such as the incident in the takeaway shop are just too much for me to handle. 

In summary/TLDR: I'm a piece of shit.",9.711164658634537,4.736457626506027,9.736746987951813,74.53224899598395,63.09638554216868,13.235341365461847,38.20883534136545,10.125756701596842,3.468547389558232,1220,35,274,18,12,409,168,332,0.14800000000000002,0.772,0.081,-0.9728,0,0,0,0,0,0,32.0,6,0,0,2,19,17,7,2,15,0,20,14,3,5,2,50,45,22,0,5,10,0,2,3,1,0,1,1,0,1,17,17,7,3,6,1,1,5,6,11,0,3,8,6,41,6,52,35,7,43,0,0,3,3,28,20,3,7,21,191,58,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10169128915842372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0845007538769278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11553191272998907,0.19082595309592626,0.07808847148326771,0.0,0.2476245964304151,0.11215800358133186,0.08641465774130025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11390102920277614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1163892560048675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31174414333491546,0.0,0.0,0.08994637178942823,0.0,0.0,0.20122564076967966,0.09186107067812124,0.0855633116525917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051348565716236506,0.07254993221133653,0.0,0.0,0.09281817629111297,0.08638146418950186,0.2455981004267393,0.0,0.0,0.18776938554395053,0.0,0.0,0.05771526715774185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1118727706176248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2005263660870806,0.10422332066066184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06806925626181666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16743365445311356,0.08277976108975872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0717303308298773,0.1488419190642165,0.0,0.0,0.08987176516878405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0863372630248461,0.0916561142853334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2040485383385831,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22396080470756136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06881536663416099,0.07723611035746067,0.0,0.11915130163256744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10610192678435257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10208944554828256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10903059120303647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08075952113521423,0.0,0.0,0.08092509340908298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10424333988744768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0718801806681083,0.0,0.0811008585887787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2024031540825761,0.0,0.1995518479992732,0.08062223706697763,0.05921673722209786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0689482473297335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1221565106448324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2395958440862025,0.0,0.08146019484737882,0.12366496032817327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06539720693471246
EDAnonymous,emurash,2019/01/12,"I’ve relapsed after four years of being ED free Throwaway account.

I started restricting calories and binging/purging when I was in middle school. I continued until I was twenty. I was dating a guy then who made me feel great about myself, and made me feel comfortable about my body. It was a long, hard battle and I had a few times where I almost slipped up. When we got together I weighed 100 pounds, at the end of our relationship I was 140. 
Me and that guy broke up a few months ago, and I’ve managed not to go back to my old habits until about a week ago. A new guy came around, much older than me, and I fell for him so hard so quickly. He plays hot and cold with me. I’ve started to blame myself for it and tell myself if I was better he wouldn’t break away ever. I keep telling myself if I was prettier and skinnier this wouldn’t be a problem. 
I was emotionally eating about it last week and afterwords I purged for the first time in years. It felt so good after. For the past week I’ve been fasting for a day, then I’ll binge out the next day and purge everything after. I’ve gone back to all my old foods I used to binge on, because they were the easiest going back up. I’ve been obsessively drinking huge 7/11 cups of Diet Coke like I used to. I know I should stop but... I’m already down 6 pounds. 
I hate myself and am disgusted but so proud at the same time. Ugh ",2.045176056338029,3.809752771126764,3.341104225352116,91.34192394366195,77.6267605633803,6.2341408450704225,22.275492957746486,7.087006719466742,0.5634412957746475,1073,31,234,12,25,349,158,284,0.084,0.8240000000000001,0.092,0.6419,0,0,1,0,0,0,31.0,2,0,1,3,17,15,3,1,14,0,18,7,1,4,2,41,36,26,0,6,5,0,6,1,0,3,0,0,0,3,7,17,6,3,4,2,2,5,3,7,0,2,18,7,37,9,37,13,5,64,0,1,0,0,13,15,0,3,44,151,44,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19619763378909605,0.0,0.1108161094603358,0.0,0.12212278882366745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09851628801553848,0.0,0.0,0.10397444009784863,0.25528619044249623,0.0,0.0674610249565099,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09787516872779103,0.0,0.12292508477136872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1265725320405287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14274095348561347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10841064305799936,0.0,0.11323904402995405,0.0,0.12448446275157815,0.09801731361915443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10010381958627257,0.0,0.0,0.0994595512944395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1119122065642601,0.0,0.10625680692209677,0.0,0.0,0.09413252472446376,0.13381788256091548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12578818531685498,0.09282147080809408,0.08850978651209032,0.1220097615265012,0.0,0.3287305018188064,0.0,0.0,0.1982701699603807,0.10925985852815072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0983651109254592,0.0,0.0,0.060819192193589826,0.09020763864771268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05406586454555516,0.0,0.0,0.0979360125017412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2094298716603971,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08833262201168242,0.0,0.0813523139647802,0.0,0.0,0.10688200512164793,0.11769464857631777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2322509034234565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10564331076252036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10589250809002387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11881397147456615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1119999973336818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1566600646892472,0.0,0.0,0.09252181155640836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1934540914206259,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1935908715936763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1911599501029317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26630900080745923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14253067498804556
EDAnonymous,honeybunlover,2019/01/12,"Do I deserve to recover even if I'm not underweight? I was diagnosed by my therapist with anorexia last week. I want to recover, but I'm not sick enough. I'm 5'1, 98 lbs., and a BMI of 18.5 . You can see my ribs and hip bones clearly, and I honestly hate it. I hate having anxiety over calories, and I hate having fear foods that I once loved. Should I keep restricting to get underweight, or should I take steps to recover? ",2.8164873949579814,4.451903858823531,4.555126050420171,84.03235294117653,75.11764705882355,9.563025210084033,28.61344537815126,9.957137785484203,2.9135210084033623,328,14,69,10,7,111,57,85,0.243,0.5870000000000001,0.16899999999999998,-0.8644,0,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,1,0,0,1,6,3,1,1,0,7,7,3,0,1,16,19,7,0,4,5,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,2,5,1,2,0,0,0,1,2,4,0,0,1,1,12,2,8,16,1,4,0,0,1,1,2,1,0,2,2,41,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16370790478659453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21720349260937594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22111716699378836,0.0,0.14134367845775786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2408072751766555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2587672634842252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1118051365758404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6338362420388695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1902112788619004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17443695380261698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19314157425487055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2279009144338979,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17052872096557792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16089988379312112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24846820304610964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12622158072202566,0.0,0.1716563089610363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,frenchient,2019/01/12,"Purged at a restaurant for the first time Went out for dinner with my boyfriend and his friend at a new sushi place across the street. I was really looking forward to it. All week I’ve been like restricting and purging. Ate nothing today until dinner and figured I’d stop the cycle, would stop purging, with one good meal and it still probably wouldn’t be too high in calories. And maybe I could get on track on a  high restrict or OMAD type of situation. 

And then we’re served the sushi (really late) and it was terrible. Everything about it was bad. I felt so guilty for eating as much of it as I did but I was just so hungry. So I went to the bathroom and purged. I hated myself the whole time cause it was a crowded bathroom with like a mother and her toddler daughter and I just felt so gross but I had to do it. What a waste of calories. I’m even more upset cause I couldn’t get it all out so now I’m contemplating going to the corner store and getting batteries as an excuse to like, puke on the side of the road cause I can’t do it in my small apartment bathroom while I’m with my boyfriend and his friend. 

Sorry for ranting, just felt like I hit a new low today. ",2.3589107142857166,4.174237212500003,3.3713095238095256,91.24750000000002,76.875,6.071428571428572,23.095238095238088,6.868970318607317,0.6041488095238097,921,28,196,9,21,295,125,240,0.161,0.754,0.085,-0.9605,0,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,0,0,1,13,13,1,1,17,0,16,5,0,3,2,41,32,26,0,4,6,2,3,4,2,2,0,0,0,0,10,18,5,4,4,0,1,4,3,6,0,2,14,4,19,7,32,12,5,40,0,1,1,0,9,21,0,1,21,130,29,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10235552046206714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3777936818844058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09787621872676128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12543771263850098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08096794965366166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11017382494968786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3531099434852073,0.0,0.0,0.10427294479102524,0.0,0.0,0.18942174199010997,0.0,0.19214087466951466,0.0,0.06966935467470217,0.10282065767730096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12102986963888633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25904104707086656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13828414551675364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2395604250641154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10294270444457017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12315571501654568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0901159866635034,0.0,0.0,0.2367917242595165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11762610260190892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08306852625322943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12807794423969465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13217016005568974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15706550343981746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13779359182003995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1372267750342763,0.0,0.0,0.09789861088231266,0.20497743530467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1429636237125716,0.0,0.2323974105492953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0983323734980079,0.0,0.0,0.2272798554907013,0.0,0.13686467079119688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08708270953306642,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Funktionierende,2019/01/12,"I just ordered a pizza. I haven't had pizza in a couple of years. The last time I ordered a pizza was in 2016, and I c/s'd the whole thing that time. 

I'm gonna eat this pizza, and I'm gonna like it, and I swear to god I *will not purge it*.

And/or RIP me, and/or it's gonna sit in the fridge untouched for four days, and/or I'll have a nervous breakdown from having it in the house and throw it out right away, and/or I'll be completely convinced that I have food poisoning within minutes of my first bite. 

Either way, I'm trying. ",0.4901410658307199,2.175737637931036,2.3572100313479645,96.94515673981192,82.10344827586206,4.907836990595611,18.304075235109718,5.565023196281405,-0.5344724137931034,410,9,98,2,11,136,70,116,0.07,0.856,0.075,0.1263,0,0,0,0,0,0,20.0,0,0,0,1,1,4,1,1,8,0,8,7,0,0,0,8,14,4,0,0,3,0,0,1,0,4,1,0,0,0,9,5,6,0,0,0,0,1,2,2,0,2,2,0,9,2,12,7,2,19,0,0,0,0,0,8,0,0,7,56,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2478259890918724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.276563843055956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2918628373256119,0.0,0.17011352957610718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2699084319581936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2243675082414612,0.3189586697714288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3043617867806768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2150124323869687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1288675019023896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.225263039255405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1752408797721338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30761950845297664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17908641160621072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20937290330636746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29449619182858033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16986292723289914
EDAnonymous,unhappy_anon,2019/01/12,"I think I have an eating disorder.. I think I have an eating disorder.

I'll give a little backstory. So, I used to be very overweight. I was overweight for a period of about 3 years, and I don't want to go into an explanation, or say my weights or whatever, but I lost the weight. My BMI is healthy, it is 22.2. During my weight loss (I am only a few lbs until my goal) I realized how much I fear gaining weight, how excessive I am with calories and exercise, etc. I am not saying this makes me having an eating disorder, because many people can be this way and still be healthy

I say I may have an eating disorder because I want to get down farther than my goal weight which is healthy and that I am so close to. I want to be as thin as I can get to, not caring about my BMI. I hate the way I see myself in the mirror.

I am scared and don't know what to do.",2.5725824175824172,3.3114348296703326,4.5875824175824205,87.1074175824176,74.32967032967032,8.017582417582418,25.538461538461537,8.384062270229773,1.454756043956044,657,21,149,11,13,227,94,182,0.206,0.718,0.076,-0.9671,0,0,0,0,0,0,24.0,0,0,0,5,7,6,1,2,11,0,23,12,0,4,0,25,39,15,0,3,5,0,6,0,0,1,3,3,0,0,6,8,11,0,4,1,0,1,4,5,0,0,2,10,30,1,19,32,3,14,0,2,1,0,4,7,0,3,4,107,36,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11849609343053602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09909490168497484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4455671157930049,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3978114578012548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10839606249548307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10936932352610984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1015588266182865,0.0932365330380758,0.055237111240796805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09595812109811076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053414817557155256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09741307740247633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10609781272443262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06487718736769399,0.09853860666488816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07144815397168565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07391977599204855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06738149767063657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23187569974373376,0.0973073061697234,0.0,0.07745036290990777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0776185811519992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12455490171348912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08394368200815389,0.0,0.08019453385213555,0.1719811274950527,0.1542948089544832,0.0,0.5917754094048011,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06258920684568925
EDAnonymous,depressedsecret,2019/01/12,Anyone got pointers to lose some more weight ? Getting a bit more fat need some new tips pls ? ,2.171666666666667,4.757782833333334,1.6866666666666674,99.00000000000004,81.77777777777777,3.6,20.11111111111111,3.1291,-0.6540888888888885,73,2,15,0,2,21,16,18,0.158,0.775,0.067,-0.4137,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,2,1,0,0,3,3,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,2,5,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,6,0,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2679334413841182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4183412427347822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20019952761349089,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.306469856237804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.42868852786616657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2841284975649215,0.0,0.3700846430079823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4666188508120841,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,cattivity,2019/01/12,"Being bisexual and having an ed.... *looks at porn for the sole purpose of hating my body more*

*inadvertantly gets horny* 


*masturbates* 



....... 

*soul crushing sadness ensues* 


A never ending cycle, brought to you by me. ",2.4495873015873,3.9743443714285753,4.132380952380951,72.3620634920635,119.57142857142857,4.984126984126983,23.88888888888889,6.42735559955562,1.97236507936508,163,7,22,3,9,54,35,35,0.214,0.7859999999999999,0.0,-0.8271,0,0,0,0,0,0,21.0,0,1,0,0,0,2,1,0,3,0,2,2,1,0,1,2,6,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,1,1,3,0,5,4,1,4,1,1,1,1,1,1,0,0,2,16,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5198247032220621,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4144949019760063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2445023146366896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4620372940081077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3929886790868997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3609380962831388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,mcsweeniesweenies,2019/01/12,"New motivation My boyfriends friends all have ridiculously skinny and bubbly girlfriends and I feel like I won’t fit in with his friends until I lose another 50lbs. On one hand I have no energy to workout, on the other I don’t want to remain the whale of the group. ",3.0628846153846148,5.4390395192307714,3.896769230769234,85.64823076923078,76.88461538461539,7.236923076923077,25.784615384615392,8.238735603445708,1.7694569230769237,213,8,41,4,5,68,40,52,0.119,0.5529999999999999,0.328,0.8979,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,2,0,5,1,0,3,0,4,2,2,1,1,7,6,3,0,1,0,0,2,1,3,1,0,0,0,0,1,3,1,0,2,1,0,0,3,2,0,1,0,2,7,3,8,5,1,6,0,1,0,0,5,4,0,0,3,28,8,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38331653104249386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18483570753070006,0.26115272869922634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5648541263831849,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1785918200227517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4089627959390758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3530555181684494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24770968387122325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2156139453233319,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ImNotUnique____,2019/01/12,"Anyone else have extra issues with eating after quitting weed? I've been a heavy regular user for a number of years, originally started using it to help with my bulimia recovery when I was younger. The last year I've relapsed (more restrictive than b/p tendencies this time, thankfully) and it's also been some help with that. 

But now I'm quitting, for a few various reasons...




**AND MY BODY FUCKING HATES ME FOR IT.**


What little appetite I have left (basically vestigial it feels like now) is ruined by terrible waves of nausea, anything solid makes me gag, and even when I convince myself to try it takes me forever to figure out what sounds okay and then when I make it, it just disgusts me and I don't want it anymore.

This fucking sucks because I was doing okay maintaining, and I do legitimately love food and cooking even with my issues around it and my body. I made a giant of quick pickled cukes, usually some I can get down on, and now they're just sitting in my fridge mocking me.

I knew it helped me majorly in terms of stress/anxiety, and honestly I've been feeling okay in that respect so far, but I had no idea it would affect my eating habits THIS much. Hopefully my body will readjust sooner rather than later... fuck you too, stomach.",3.7891036414565806,5.997346873949581,4.844285714285714,80.51738095238095,73.95798319327729,7.726610644257704,28.560224089635852,8.563005593585519,2.380857703081233,988,41,176,19,21,323,150,238,0.097,0.797,0.106,-0.438,0,0,0,0,0,0,37.0,0,1,0,2,16,19,7,0,5,3,15,12,4,7,0,39,35,18,0,4,5,0,2,1,0,2,0,1,0,0,18,16,4,1,6,1,0,0,2,9,0,0,8,3,26,10,25,25,9,30,0,1,0,4,5,11,4,3,19,125,44,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0976108909835393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0933751383833417,0.0,0.12105016726404835,0.08534679927085162,0.12506432176885793,0.10044451992264307,0.10865878072193702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07440630240626167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4067415683371349,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24979456092523164,0.1019650007499392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16123821941045854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12343384183594172,0.08719928914149573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14759476073202268,0.0,0.0,0.3385259594924087,0.06377102017979278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12050842808498502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2454416114875392,0.0,0.0,0.12123256610721347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1377902519246932,0.0,0.2547966890307109,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09949473558849016,0.0,0.0,0.13261793994344115,0.0,0.0,0.05963207748216045,0.12233562619146073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11016341115069844,0.1154955944837327,0.1629512495406661,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08972773357972026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2596504804992513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1254974344666612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08639430067781538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13981867743399495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09177350925498222,0.0,0.0,0.11237593420176734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07117384170675796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08287034834424466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10542016715943836,0.13443122999153256,0.0,0.07199382083746754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08670752493184078,0.0,0.0,0.1572045564407887
EDAnonymous,BladderPatrol,2019/01/12,"Question about new goals in Lose It! App I’m obsessed with looking back at my weight loss because I love to see how much I weighed in comparison to now. I’m worried that when I hit my gw and set a new gw my progress chart will be gone. 

Does anyone have experience with this? I’m just scared my little record will be gone. ",1.1412366737739852,3.3110070895522408,2.232409381663114,96.10507462686569,82.5820895522388,5.0226012793176995,23.004264392324096,6.18269132825596,0.2144473347547975,253,9,58,2,7,80,49,67,0.168,0.735,0.097,-0.4753,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,4,6,5,0,2,1,0,5,3,0,1,0,6,14,3,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,3,3,2,0,1,0,0,2,0,4,0,0,2,3,7,1,8,7,1,12,0,2,2,1,2,4,0,1,5,31,10,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17147140697177432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1885677105911779,0.0,0.14949070697635894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21460353830895115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2398832397576984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24578615864962,0.0,0.0,0.20593250501955246,0.2743510651232484,0.0,0.0,0.2213307970328507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18027320125358026,0.0,0.0,0.4736917803720419,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2747151479377349,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24551928375266374,0.0,0.19541757321754955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29862562304640794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24904426005797506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,waystosaygoodbye33,2019/01/12,Flair? Do only the mods get to add flair to their usernames? I can’t find a place to add my dx and such. ,-1.9262500000000031,-0.14470445833333126,0.3133333333333326,107.065,93.58333333333334,3.2,12.166666666666668,3.1291,-1.9944833333333327,79,1,22,0,3,26,20,24,0.179,0.821,0.0,-0.6553,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,2,1,0,0,0,4,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,3,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,12,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5483341342737237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3134437987028817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4562812737744231,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6268094299288925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,whatever171,2019/01/12,"Ate at what I think was my maintenance for the past ten days Stressed as hell for university. Some days I binged, some days starved, most day like a normal person. Either way the calories worked out to be at maintenance for the past 10 days, but somehow I’ve significantly gained a lot of weight????? I have more energy now but good lord my tummy and thighs. Face puffed. I don’t feel better, I feel like shit. I can’t do anything. I hate myself. Also haven’t pooped for god knows how long. 
It’s about 72 hrs until I see my bf next week, I be damned if I consume 1 more calorie within these 72hrs ",1.7819999999999998,3.975891866666668,2.765000000000004,93.05,80.33333333333334,5.666666666666668,19.166666666666664,6.816661863887847,0.0399166666666666,464,11,101,5,12,147,86,120,0.152,0.672,0.17600000000000002,0.495,0,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,0,0,3,5,9,4,1,5,0,8,6,4,1,0,17,15,8,0,2,4,0,3,2,1,0,0,0,0,1,3,2,2,0,4,0,0,0,3,5,0,1,2,4,14,4,13,11,7,17,2,0,1,0,2,4,3,6,14,59,17,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14210920098679386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14623460892408024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15716405736264213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5730193800228226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17970417502893218,0.12695121601342696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14904903002661066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17544513993033498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09766104247796617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17363363450091793,0.0,0.0,0.1572617578775282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1510769230817091,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1889893906754738,0.0,0.17411142582403316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3392756624274563,0.0,0.15516359754073195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1416064591811972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18240980186532232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20355843833580006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1138650481588184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1410525447860013,0.14254280434667999,0.2163946486701285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12937006073642185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,pumpkintoskeleton,2019/01/12,"I’ve gained 16 kg from my lowest weight and I truly want to die. Summer 2017. I had finally reached my goal of 46 kg (starting weight was 75 kg). Keep in mind I’m 160 cm. 

And then I snapped. I hadn’t had a binge in YEARS, but one day I just started stuffing my face and from then I couldn’t stop. I’ve been binging nearly every day since September 2017. At first my binges were so bad I would reach 4000+ calories in a day and be in so much pain physically. Now my binges have gotten smaller but I’m taking in around 2800 calories, and it’s still bad for my health. 

This morning I weighed myself. 62 kg. I’m almost overweight, *again*. You’d think seeing that number would be a slap on the face and I’d stop binging. But nope, I’m currently laying in bed eating peanut butter with a spoon straight from the jar. God, I bought this 500g jar three days ago, and it’s almost empty already. And I have a fucking peanut intolerance!!! 

But yeah, I literally can’t stop eating. I’ve tried everything. At this point I feel hopeless. I’ve gotten so fat, it’ll take me months to lose all this weight again. And I’m impatient. So I get discouraged and end up binging because what’s the point? 
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EDAnonymous,angelicemma,2019/01/12,"Study finds that the majority of comments in a certain ~banned~ ED community provided “esteem/emotional support to the comment author” To see the abstract click [here](https://www.sciencedirect.com/science/article/abs/pii/S1740144517302528)

Article found in Body Image journal, titled “A content analysis of an online pro-eating disorder community on Reddit”

I thought some might find this interesting :) currently doing research for my MA thesis ",21.775692307692303,16.93965772307692,17.961923076923075,24.170576923076936,41.0,20.384615384615387,69.42307692307692,17.122413403193686,11.15946153846154,372,24,35,12,2,115,57,65,0.042,0.789,0.16899999999999998,0.8034,1,0,0,0,0,0,21.0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,6,0,2,1,1,0,1,8,6,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,2,3,8,3,2,4,0,0,2,0,3,3,0,2,1,21,4,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3071094613755964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31687262220668183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2829103749117505,0.0,0.3110053279716928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5053995518035963,0.0,0.0,0.30314852636969386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2933039847560847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22032056420898827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3137487911423801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21949603034247028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,lisztomaniac2,2019/01/12,"Does anyone have a download link for these books? Elena Vanishing: a Memoir by Clare B
Second Star to The Right by Deborah Hautzig
The Best Little Girl in the World by Steven Levenkron

Thank you in advance ",5.478596491228071,7.549023000000004,4.876315789473686,82.66254385964915,69.0,7.171929824561403,28.456140350877188,7.793537801064563,1.8997087719298245,166,6,28,2,3,50,32,38,0.0,0.831,0.16899999999999998,0.7717,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,1,0,2,0,2,0,0,5,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,2,7,2,1,6,0,0,0,0,2,5,0,0,0,17,2,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3146747881722526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4722837459254646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3938284764264003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4510530867777398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3843272507030859,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4143315694637563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,burningbambi,2019/01/12,"Break-up whoosh Wen the love of ur life tells u he doesn't love you any more, kicks you out of your own home and four years goes to waste but you stopped eating and lost 6lbs in five days 

(:",0.5820731707317073,2.394049097560977,0.4953048780487812,109.76783536585368,82.41463414634147,4.1000000000000005,12.689024390243905,3.1291,-2.035102439024391,147,1,40,0,4,42,36,41,0.145,0.664,0.191,0.5106,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,4,0,1,0,3,0,0,1,0,1,4,0,0,0,5,4,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,3,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,2,1,0,4,2,5,3,2,5,0,1,0,2,9,2,0,0,3,18,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2176956043968176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20645378783219384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3275672328031194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3211109259732355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22611336713471694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34945365437884435,0.0,0.5778496315232069,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2676383754833492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2798028804637985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20614965092360207
EDAnonymous,Throwaway413vander,2019/01/12,"Really not doing so well rn So idk I think most of last semester I was doing good mental health wise or at least doing well enough at repressing it. But some stuff happened at the start of this semester that acted as a catalyst for my mental health to decline.


I started restricting again and have been at like 500 calories a day for the past week, and I've never been able to restrict that hard before cause normally I don't have the willpower. and today I was drinking as a coping mechanism which I almost never do, self harmed which is really rare for me, and binge/purged which i havent done in months.


Its just like all this unhealthy stuff is coming to the surface and I feel trash and all I wanna do is lose enough weight until someone loves me and thinks I'm not ugly. Like I've never had a bf despite years of trying. Objectively I'm not even fat, my bmi is in the 19s.


Idk what the point is of this post is, my life is going to shit, nothing is really going good for me, I'm perpetually single, all my destructive coping mechanisms are coming back and it fucking sucks. Whenever I drink it makes me realize how much deep seated sadness I have repressed.


I'll probably be back to pretending everything is alright tomorrow but for today I just need support and advice",4.309227368421052,5.869796588000003,5.400778947368423,79.77733684210527,71.12,8.463157894736844,26.757894736842108,8.99025400887824,2.19096,1017,34,187,20,19,336,142,250,0.101,0.797,0.102,0.3119,1,0,2,0,0,0,18.0,0,0,0,1,11,20,4,2,10,1,27,10,2,3,6,42,46,18,0,3,8,0,3,3,1,0,4,0,0,1,15,11,4,4,4,3,0,5,8,9,2,0,6,3,20,11,24,39,10,33,0,2,0,2,3,9,3,4,21,135,35,0,0.11077152051688592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10824464782770013,0.0,0.0,0.11092167688467416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17035292351916476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09425840525187408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11379286499049047,0.0,0.19083971308911768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0714384668341412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11335772453924545,0.0,0.21702783789649766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2289131835757109,0.0,0.07316354459031196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09955430005170172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05600940908512452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10240648576935953,0.0,0.0,0.12590801568087664,0.18581979178073965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0979548897645178,0.0,0.09922952463913423,0.0,0.0,0.2354898927992508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09029357369916016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07824120084412704,0.1623521089167767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12392499720078975,0.0,0.0,0.09997562207539727,0.0,0.07394085009997486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2232632778826872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08841677085462807,0.0,0.08142981311441692,0.08213567888243092,0.25630147641075063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10853257108581416,0.1062882614603812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10574395039217427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.104714891408055,0.0,0.10608849657873624,0.0,0.11943043438924247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2128892175300229,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1155588542700698,0.0,0.11370537398106055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09385634986678656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15680930471947804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2536137782754879,0.0,0.12570220878065475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14195583517851806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20999689855216025,0.0,0.0,0.07520659119739141,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0888542321235296,0.13488986996819294,0.1991938001389884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07133322742591522
EDAnonymous,AyN19,2019/01/13,"Fuck it I need help I just can’t do this anymore! All I do is fucking eat and I can’t stop, I’m so depressed and I’ve gained some weight. My ribs hipbones and thigh gap are non existent and I feel like shit! I’m so embarrassed to go anywhere! I’ve tried to kill myself already 6 times in the past year, but for class I’m an idiot and couldn’t do it right! I used to restrict so well now I can’t at all! Help please I’m so ready to die! I just want my happiness back, I want to restrict and loose the weight!",-2.0262280701754385,-0.20246713157894547,0.3361403508771943,103.93298245614037,101.89473684210527,3.5859649122807014,15.982456140350877,5.46131890053228,-0.9524701754385964,393,11,101,3,18,130,68,114,0.255,0.544,0.201,-0.8521,0,0,0,0,0,1,11.0,0,0,0,1,9,10,5,1,3,0,9,8,3,1,2,21,21,11,2,4,3,0,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,6,3,3,1,0,0,1,4,7,1,0,0,3,12,3,8,20,3,10,0,1,0,2,2,3,3,1,7,54,15,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20214909347785687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18167019857958666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14085788156999826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15777688684157626,0.0,0.1901170061126244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18744388592375494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09262379005583074,0.13086732990446034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33870297841709457,0.0,0.0,0.10410820075826403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1950037334655952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2455699555891373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20266695189877296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08949488962098175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13582928299309516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17487071584549566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2010820119476568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15643890458216075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1880366684789504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15315077974564212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10681658892989417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12437052323288915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15821293877580947,0.0,0.0,0.21609440158006926,0.0,0.0,0.446139718332093,0.1647052256564238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11796507031632987
EDAnonymous,delaneyjay,2019/01/13,"Is anyone else touch starved because of their eating disorder? Which, first of all, hello irony, but really— do you prevent yourself from physically interacting with anyone because of your body, self image, dysmorphia, confidence or self esteem issues, etc?

I’m having a really hard time trying to satisfy the part of me that wants cuddles, hugs, sex, hell, even piggy back rides. Whether platonically or romantically, I can’t bring myself to either ask for that affection or initiate it. I feel people would think less of me if they hugged me and felt my stomach fat, if they scratched my back and felt my love handles, if we got naked and they noticed every flaw and mark on my body. 

It not only destroys my self esteem and confidence, it also makes me feel incredibly lonely, even if I’m surrounded by friends and family. 

I wish we as a society recognized that people need that physical contact as well as social or emotional connections 

I don’t know. I guess I’m just overthinking it",8.30715083798883,8.496455720670394,8.530664804469271,65.7838184357542,61.62569832402234,12.076201117318435,36.33575418994413,11.602472056035307,4.5671537430167595,790,33,127,22,10,260,120,179,0.08,0.6779999999999999,0.242,0.99,0,2,0,0,0,0,23.0,2,2,4,1,7,8,2,0,3,0,6,10,4,2,1,37,24,20,0,8,13,0,7,0,1,1,1,0,0,3,9,9,2,1,6,0,0,2,3,3,1,1,3,7,23,5,15,20,5,8,1,1,0,5,18,2,1,9,4,86,32,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10831155136809653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18940600050226666,0.13877458319551794,0.0,0.0,0.12661838850875207,0.0,0.0,0.2082904463064391,0.0,0.16512628793737744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3008872598032594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15522630689296327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13858922987234534,0.11314298338222785,0.15235209703157082,0.0,0.0,0.1510517259153337,0.17891406899585982,0.0,0.1141142862259383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1276810519926452,0.0,0.13696536078980828,0.0,0.2600878374800223,0.0,0.0,0.11520544189733775,0.0,0.0,0.10464083245499924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10832397300732738,0.0,0.14920274964324254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1213278970908641,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1413644747747702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07443444158128147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1222401501052354,0.0,0.09040744561022247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10042725923737517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1541996684100444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1030084440875245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1466686360359363,0.0,0.18779448779947736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08676651823191535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4238812842187425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13806431975208758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08678466930393014,0.0,0.0,0.07897632256411112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09195506670555187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07988619246532527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12177708687153195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1557496498762712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09621289638918792,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,JuBelen,2019/01/13,"Yes no yes I went to my gran's house for dinner and I ate two empanadas. I usually only eat one, but I said fuck it; then I felt guilty and wanted to purge it, but I didn't want to risk them finding me or hearing me so I decided not to. Then I got home, forgot about and went to bed. Now its almost 1am and I just got Super sick and throw up everything. I actually had to make an effort to stop and keep something in ? (I had eaten some crackers and tea earlier). Now I feel better but bad because I made a fucking effort and it was for nothing I ended up vomiting anyway. Now I'm drinking room-temp water in my bed and feeling weird.",0.8229743589743599,2.6481774740740747,3.4066666666666663,89.1346153846154,81.66666666666667,5.931623931623932,22.236467236467234,7.010146845296331,0.6909373219373225,489,16,106,6,13,171,89,135,0.17600000000000002,0.7070000000000001,0.117,-0.8612,0,0,2,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,1,4,7,7,2,1,2,2,4,11,0,2,0,29,24,16,0,2,6,0,3,0,0,0,2,2,3,0,4,9,7,3,5,1,0,3,3,5,0,2,14,5,19,2,14,10,1,15,0,0,0,2,3,4,2,3,8,69,23,0,0.0,0.0,0.16974123029588556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1741766888943103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14523338869807864,0.10603276016062477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15383659376780767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17039586519236075,0.0,0.1779849684197228,0.0,0.0,0.1540600118849162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15632686806767807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1758994940459973,0.0,0.16701054469699808,0.0,0.1589788343661217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32161112441807715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2782328602672361,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19604403960349734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17447690823497414,0.0,0.0,0.2007044485987748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15460666691109906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16458708837104927,0.1161069035931929,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1669009878812951,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11786685766873554,0.13228989499956273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16545763105761044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13390820530616682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1454223836757832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16991498787431886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19157133074510094,0.0,0.2051897027815152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3224899199057576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,trixieevans,2019/01/13,"How to Suck at Bulimia: A User's Guide 1. Make it past breakfast and lunch eating like a Normal Person^(TM.) This means no **binging**, no **purging**, no slipping **9 double-stuff Oreos** into the crumb-lined pocket of your sweatpants when your apartment-mates look away so that you can scarf them down later, in the privacy of your room, alone and re-watching the same show on Netflix you always watch (which is, after all, the #1 scientifically proven method of obtaining maximum enjoyment from your food).
2. Feel overcome with pride and disbelief at OFFICIALLY beating your eating disorder (*for the fourth time this week, too!*)
3. Hear the clock strike 5. Remember that it is now an acceptable time for Normal People^(TM) to eat dinner. Make yourself a salad and pan fry a fish. Once again, feel proud that you have FINALLY CURED your eating disorder. Think to yourself, about yourself, *""Wow.* ***She*** ***really*** ***did*** ***that****.""*
4. Finish eating your he@lthy d!nner. 
5. Realize there are 6 mediocre protein bars, an un-opened bag of kettle corn, and a 16-serving jar of mixed roasted nuts in the pantry. 
6. Realize you have the apartment to yourself. 
7. **;)** 
8. ......
9. **:(**
10. Experience **intense self-loathing**. Pick the crumbs of kettle corn off your chest as you 'awaken' from your binge. Head to bathroom. Try to purge. Maybe get out 4-5 almonds and an inexplicable green bean (you didn't even eat green beans today?)
11. Fall into bed. **Cry** and google how to get your doctor to prescribe xanax. 

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EDAnonymous,Amoosedcow,2019/01/13,"I hate ordering take away Yesterday I was reminded why I try not to eat out, since I tend to be anal about my food. I ordered a small falafel kebab which comes with hummus 99 percent of the time. The guy at the counter asked what sauce I wanted so I said that just the hummus that’s on it is fine.
He DOUBLED the amount and I just freaked out internally. Like my mind was going haywire over the amount of hummus on a damn kid-sized kebab. 
Then I only ate half bc I estimated it to be at least 1/2 cup of the stuff which it most likely wasn’t that much (maybe!).
Fuck ordering out, guys.",1.3617493112947656,3.423697619834712,2.7755578512396717,93.12273071625349,81.06611570247934,6.0168044077135,20.82713498622589,7.1686216300943375,0.4073796143250696,456,13,102,6,12,148,82,121,0.106,0.857,0.037000000000000005,-0.8439,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,0,0,4,7,3,0,9,0,6,5,1,0,0,13,16,3,0,1,3,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,2,10,6,3,1,0,0,0,2,2,4,0,1,5,1,12,3,17,9,7,18,0,0,0,1,5,10,2,1,5,65,22,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.205913671113338,0.0,0.2069418260616281,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18973476698663644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2253813007406295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2663396595432048,0.0,0.0,0.20362712142934672,0.0,0.0,0.12517901871821213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4361847024744353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21746147050921696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21521613823798452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2212811016736589,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22240013930178876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16191668250742364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1675179026328317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2095180083819659,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18220161712137514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2521453755447094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1656083528224718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12843556691675312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14954230255033815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1299152465572943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19875068420029995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,fish110,2019/01/13,Let's play a game to see how fast I can lose water weight from a binge My puny brain cells are no match for period cravings. fml,0.2263095238095261,2.2385928214285715,1.5357142857142847,100.67595238095241,85.07142857142857,5.161904761904762,12.904761904761903,6.42735559955562,-1.0798238095238095,101,1,25,1,3,32,27,28,0.173,0.742,0.085,-0.3612,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,2,0,3,3,1,1,0,1,4,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,2,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,2,2,1,3,3,0,2,0,1,1,0,2,0,0,0,2,12,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.469174999998001,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4297680038210697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4701893492173952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33491126245682695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5117916611577659,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,l0nelyiamsol0nely,2019/01/13,"tfw when your crush gets a gf who is skinnier than u lol i want to die, i've been dieting lazily for the last month, but after hearing this and seeing her body im going to fast for a week... :'( we had something in the summer but i moved and he stopped talking to me about a month after, i guess he found her in that time. RIPPPP -\_- i don't know where i went wrong... the worst part is... I DREW A PORTRAIT OF HIM, like a photo realistic portrait as a gift (he kinda asked me to do it as a joke, but who cares, i did it anyway bc i rlllyyy rlly liked him) and he said he'd draw me but never did (he's an artist too). Oh well, i guess i wasn't pretty or interesting enough. I have rlly rlly mixed feelings :(",-0.7037674760853534,1.3101230860927158,1.9041832229580569,96.35206585724801,89.66225165562916,4.415158204562178,16.335908756438556,5.82211442006289,-0.6576757910228106,530,12,126,4,18,182,99,151,0.161,0.695,0.14300000000000002,-0.6032,0,0,1,0,0,1,30.0,1,1,0,0,6,8,0,0,11,1,11,2,1,0,1,18,25,11,1,1,5,0,1,2,1,0,0,2,0,0,6,4,1,1,3,2,0,3,3,2,1,0,8,4,21,6,15,16,3,18,0,0,1,0,19,3,0,4,14,80,27,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16869499006185712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20043760586457698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18397927345039655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18727705532004807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1864515388821968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09124018418406228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1978524678945119,0.0,0.0,0.0942768942498492,0.0,0.10255304178904502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3975687364956281,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20337857568746914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1949153466418593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0991697772393164,0.14708961279037314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17631604596678174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2880645444937874,0.19178819968997887,0.0,0.0,0.1391730085851758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19540814244969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18358099834194733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17164784713260547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14379409287808909,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1389180723020949,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1508630271283689,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14503767016616853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10522097230098493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1064332013914878,0.0,0.1447449033458454,0.0,0.16224487376203664,0.16727756864388985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19729210901227465,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,jjfmish,2019/01/13,"This has been my day today Its 8:30 pm and I’ve eaten an Indian takeout, a full pint of ben and jerry’s, a shit ton of tostitos and probably 15 stale peanut butter cookies that my roommates grandma made for her.

I feel like I’m gonna die I almost threw up but I fucking can’t because of my phobia of throwing up I can feel myself getting fatter I’m resting my hands on my stomach like a man with a beer belly I feel so nauseous I wish I could fucking purge. Now I’m lying in bed with my hands shaking from feeling nauseous and almost throwing up and feeling so fat and I want to die. I’m probably seeing my ex in a month and I wanted to lose weight, not gain it. 

Fuck. ",0.3636451048951059,2.5167145034965053,2.8312893356643367,90.68231861888115,85.7832167832168,4.6938811188811185,22.92351398601399,5.985473137389443,0.4820772727272726,526,20,109,4,16,181,91,143,0.181,0.7,0.119,-0.9057,0,0,1,0,0,1,9.0,0,0,0,2,3,8,4,1,6,0,5,11,5,1,0,23,26,10,2,4,2,1,8,2,0,1,1,0,1,1,4,9,4,0,5,1,0,4,2,6,0,0,4,10,18,2,16,20,3,15,0,1,1,3,3,7,4,2,6,64,22,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31751583261342303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09664634326333192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1265836873663931,0.0,0.0,0.10224712118737722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3290852134081923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4008205307412345,0.11326315322958867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4397113554442506,0.08283217559848062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15491220618326226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17736906695314103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1500172231235355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12654751263851646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3418723452396941,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12633824699121507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1627421145541905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15028022917321754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18702554209738986,0.0,0.0,0.19306266627485888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1823166294490243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,succumbmum,2019/01/13,"I'm not gonna freak out but I am worried that I have ruined myself. Hello all.   
I have a problem. I am a ""classic"" laxative/enema abuser. So today before my shower I gave myself a full bag enema like I do almost every day, and earlier I ""only"" took 2 stool softeners. I am trying to wean myself off from 6 laxatives a day, now I'm at 2 softeners a day. I digress, Anyways I gave myself the enema and have been going to the toilet off and on for the last couple hours, except now my watery BMs are a dark pink. Not very blood red, but also very unnatural. I can't go to the doctor right now, but if it continues through the night I'll make it in the morning. I am not gonna lie, I think this is my ""coming to Jesus"" moment, and if I survive this without irrevocably ruining my colon I am hereby swearing off enemas and laxs.   
Stay safe out there. ",2.3142857142857127,3.6716601714285697,5.333000000000002,79.09150000000002,75.85714285714286,7.9714285714285715,23.357142857142854,8.634040054169528,1.6688285714285724,650,19,128,13,14,238,106,175,0.109,0.8240000000000001,0.067,-0.8396,1,0,0,0,1,0,26.0,0,0,0,1,7,6,0,0,12,0,13,6,2,1,1,24,25,12,0,3,10,0,0,1,0,2,4,0,1,0,5,8,0,1,1,0,0,4,5,4,0,0,4,2,23,2,17,19,2,27,1,2,2,0,3,10,0,3,13,92,28,1,0.0,0.2289738490702056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19351550930809724,0.0,0.0,0.1545447896426055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16444453249521412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16647081666935373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2138313711464442,0.0,0.3738976460292375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1978031915555617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1628244461208814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21966088563364689,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19031581327994146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15752743189961127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.094413920184236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12899824153079786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18135536007291272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14697802886061953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18491754253732745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16503747100512278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20598256513680302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1238290680206206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1831817635550773,0.0,0.2147117985575061,0.13120647115730644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31890882657033504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18628952054063086,0.0,0.0,0.19625835509674466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,goldmetalflowers,2019/01/13,"My long-awaited tattoo is coming up and I’m not sure if I want to get it because of my weight and I don’t know what to do Well not that long awaited, I booked it in August and this was the first slot she had available- she’s an incredible watercolour artist. 


But now it’s coming up in 2 weeks and I’m shoved into these feelings of panic because I’m still well in the overweight category and I’m fasting but obviously I’m just fucking fat and still have 60lbs to my GW and will losing 60lbs fuck it up?? It’s going to be on my arm, it’s long and narrow. Will I even lose 60lbs or will I be stuck in this binge cycle forever? 


Do I just cancel and try to pretend I never wanted it??? I haven’t done anything to deserve getting it and if i were paying I would have only booked it when I got to my GW, but also my boyfriend is paying so how could I even explain waiting to be at an unhealthy weight or why I don‘t want it? Do I suck it up and get it? The only solution I can come up with is to kill myself which is really fucking unhelpful of my brain so I thought I’d ask you guys for advice because hopefully you won’t just tell me to kill myself ha ha haaa 😐",1.0275575957041383,2.7116962629482124,3.286804087995844,90.93515329984407,80.39442231075697,5.7994803395115175,22.06842196431665,6.7026698264267655,0.445676805820197,906,28,203,9,23,311,128,251,0.185,0.7509999999999999,0.064,-0.987,0,0,0,0,0,2,15.0,0,2,0,3,15,15,6,1,5,2,26,9,3,1,3,43,54,23,2,8,12,0,3,0,0,5,2,0,0,1,18,16,4,1,4,4,2,4,7,9,2,1,7,3,30,6,27,38,0,28,0,2,0,3,8,13,4,5,11,143,48,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11405678271773295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09334040955085364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09605006708011132,0.0,0.1091168217128614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2134530687032555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1302973785928783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30163011465057216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0931908909804265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11944440317944957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1541840391310492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05901680249668559,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09928140621529312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3237154315899617,0.18294310443477255,0.0,0.06633428753813972,0.0,0.09335111423450423,0.0,0.0,0.1155704916444897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11592863518945355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2582653002129494,0.0,0.06414589371242613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3098788140045859,0.0,0.2611581590902287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09002114620868534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1775406267730337,0.0,0.13694499033395074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0747733943865762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18642442245011487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11000659135625042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10201784287928556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09266211383813344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07924476639986952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20653226256995924,0.0,0.09362520965467074,0.2842654098570283,0.209889398109882,0.0,0.10532104476567987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08291406631708438,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ED2134,2019/01/13,"I get up in the middle of the night to make sure i did not gain weight I dont know why, but I feel the need to weigh myself multiple times a day. That wouldnt be to bad. 

But lately i wake up in the middle of the night needing to check my weight to make sure i did not gain. 

Any tips how to get back to ""healthy"" weigh ins beside throwing out the scale ( if i dont weigh in daily i either end up binging or restricting) 

​",4.6335483870967735,3.535693645161296,5.367225806451613,89.71083870967745,69.53763440860214,8.300215053763441,26.126881720430106,6.742157984588678,0.8143823655913982,331,7,80,2,5,108,55,93,0.062,0.845,0.093,0.4259,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,2,2,3,0,0,7,0,6,6,1,3,2,19,14,5,0,4,7,0,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,5,1,2,0,1,1,5,1,0,0,2,3,10,2,17,10,1,18,0,0,0,0,0,10,0,2,7,50,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1868173479688609,0.20950956482884628,0.11725173220665755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13258058554032548,0.14396376773012268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11119684437828896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40415066894818896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15271322914324748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08718089597608854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18016500479578196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0947577003574587,0.0,0.1944976344808902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2301838089793921,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2556949695966857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.323609586185295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3250082278941477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10053967692754212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4199230062953268,0.0,0.0,0.1555825232708154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20950956482884628,0.0
EDAnonymous,paperklipp,2019/01/13,"When your ED saves the day My SO is leaving town for work for a few days so I took him for breakfast this morning so we could have a “date day” before he flies out tonight. The place we wanted to go wasn’t  opening for an hour, so we thought we’d just walk around for a bit and enjoy sunrise, but it was colder than we’d expected so we decided to pop into a really popular breakfast place in the same neighbourhood as we were passing instead, because we could see empty tables and usually there’s a massive queue outside, especially on Sundays. 

Anyway, he ordered waffles with bacon (I obviously ordered a Diet Coke lol) and popped to the bathroom while we waited for the food. The waffles came out about ninety seconds after we ordered them... not a sign of excellent food but whatever. I texted him it was ready and he came straight out but by the time he cut into them they were cold. 

My SO doesn’t have pathological food hang ups like me but he does have some things that stress him out (which I think is true of everyone?) and one of those things is that hot food has to be piping hot and cold food has to be freezing. He hates room temperature food or leftovers because they’re the wrong temperature. 

Anyway he started stressing out because he didn’t wanna eat these gross, cold cardboard waffles but he also didn’t wanna make a fuss or have to deal with the server asking if something was wrong with them or whatever.

Anorexia to the rescue. 

I dragged his plate over and covertly knocked half of the waffles into a napkin on my lap, folded the napkin up and stuffed it in my pocket, then ran to the bathroom and hid the napkin in the paper towel trash can. 

He got the cheque and we went back to the original place he wanted to eat at, and I feel like a superhero 😂",5.499965941839143,6.096921628242079,5.82995153261724,81.35767029080435,67.58789625360231,8.268745087765259,31.334686926905945,8.150884317080207,2.2124593659942366,1403,54,267,17,22,449,187,347,0.099,0.821,0.08,-0.7317,1,0,1,0,0,0,27.0,11,1,4,2,16,14,2,2,28,1,25,13,0,2,2,66,43,31,0,8,11,0,4,2,0,0,1,0,1,0,11,35,12,1,4,0,1,9,5,7,0,3,15,8,31,7,48,22,4,53,0,0,1,0,33,25,0,5,18,184,42,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07416286189207512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0825568342512234,0.08669788163275867,0.0,0.0,0.07131010223630316,0.0,0.169597396570823,0.0,0.07891354461417101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10124630955683804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21213603879958315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1480881262603715,0.0,0.0,0.17942578037321166,0.09560921429667303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08115599541992675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18978906284559535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0886155117336565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04689131956817666,0.06625232873633369,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6728378204031823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052705367686650184,0.0,0.07417136721125038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09155996650419833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09132863947596424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09819657115073864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09061459191869847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061903599552551175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06284193731672923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2906756568317062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05941059127314061,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07390049484731705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07139454814088891,0.0,0.0,0.06564071411367124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21246303890861146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12322253922523775,0.059423019637705826,0.0,0.0736239275601334,0.054076504574851636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1030357704057432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1021382413723186,0.0,0.10939901763118416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08596942233308649,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06751465690287171,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2027897557355024,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,OtherEgg2018,2019/01/13,"my partner is constantly pressuring me and offering me food. I am average weight. my partner is constantly pressuring me and offering me food. I am average weight. I am not under weight, Its becoming frustrating because i'm sick of when he constantly asks me if I want food, or some of what hes having etc. We've talked about this before how much it makes me feel stressed out about food. He said he'd stop. It feels like it's all the time when hes like ""you want some"" ""want this etc"" How do I calmly bring this up with him?
I appreciate the he wants to know I'm eating but its becoming annoying. He will legit ask me like 5 times if I want something.",2.8390909090909098,4.5402841212121245,4.376363636363639,85.05954545454547,75.21212121212122,9.042424242424243,26.393939393939394,9.573946990214177,2.3751121212121213,512,19,108,14,11,171,75,132,0.11,0.774,0.116,-0.29600000000000004,0,0,1,0,0,0,16.0,0,1,0,0,6,9,2,3,2,0,11,9,0,3,1,24,26,10,0,7,5,0,5,3,2,1,1,1,0,2,9,4,8,1,3,0,0,1,1,5,0,0,1,6,21,4,9,23,6,12,0,0,0,0,17,3,0,5,11,66,30,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20657186250967027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06734891600317278,0.24403779175968385,0.09401220411151222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3581759853106181,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1130508596566618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2464336872797422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11172622717317236,0.07892849678057309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5343819983836664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060718120856710085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16192804833301602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07374771802262545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08121712000981103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1050938604191976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08505458556052649,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09236805576243502,0.12655697242905026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08880139727120133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12884610393778045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3258262832263808,0.0,0.0,0.4036126206720317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,bayareagoddess,2019/01/13,"i can’t wait to move out i had to move back in with my parents for my junior of college bc sf is expensive as shit. i’m planning on moving back out for senior year but that won’t be happening until august of this year ://///


living alone (well with roommates) meant no one would judge or force me to eat. my roommates had their own body image and disordered eating issues so they’d never judge me. 


but my mom, keeps telling me to eat. shes not being malicious or anything she just wants me to be “healthy”. we have a ton of snacks and tv dinners. i can’t really cook like i used to on my own bc of certain rules she has so i eat the food she makes and snacks all the time. i just eat and eat and eat all day, ruining my 20+ hour fasts. my dad told me that i don’t eat enough because i did a 20 hour fast. if i was living on my own i don’t know how long i’d go without eating. i feel like living with my parents is my excuse to binge. idk. 


i needed to vent, i’m sorry. this is my first time posting on this sub since proed got banned (im more of a r/edanonymemes gal myself, laugh thru the pain i guess). i almost feel like this post is too personal so i’ll just leave my peach username (sveltedeluxe) in case anyone wants to add me and see all of my whining/breakdowns/mediocre memes. 
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EDAnonymous,feiturdrengur,2019/01/13,"An annoying side effect of going down in clothing sizes The smaller the size, the shorter the sleeves.

The sleeves on some XS hoodies barely even reach my wrists.",7.096206896551722,8.719400172413796,5.527068965517246,81.26232758620691,64.51724137931035,7.179310344827586,38.63793103448275,7.1686216300943375,2.9794,131,7,21,1,2,38,24,29,0.126,0.8740000000000001,0.0,-0.4364,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,1,1,1,1,0,6,0,0,1,1,1,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,4,1,1,5,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,1,0,13,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7580143060495591,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.65223792577878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,greentea-dietcoke,2019/01/13,"thanks dad :’) my dad bought a shit ton of bagels for breakfast and obviously theres no way my restricting ass could fit a cheese bagel into my calories. so i took two and put them in a ziploc and put it with the rest of my stash of shit food for a big planned b/p sesh. it was perfect bc then if he counts he knows i had two, plus then i can use the excuse of already eating a shit ton so i can heavily restrict for the rest of the day without being anyone suspecting. when i saw him i was like ‘oh man im so full i had two bagels’ yknow. like a liar. and then he said ‘oh you piggy i thought you were on a diet? i didnt even have two bagels yet’ like haha cool thanks dad im gonna kill myself!! i know he was just joking but still. i didnt even eat them but now i feel like idk. i gained weight just by touching them ugh time to never eat again!!!!",-0.5923963133640555,1.3433388387096803,1.5040706605222738,100.05467741935485,88.03225806451613,4.403072196620584,15.846390168970814,5.622346879071545,-0.9195158218125958,648,13,162,4,21,215,112,186,0.132,0.7170000000000001,0.152,-0.3697,0,0,0,0,0,1,18.0,0,2,3,3,13,16,5,0,11,2,13,11,4,1,3,25,25,15,1,2,6,3,3,4,0,1,0,1,0,1,2,7,7,2,5,1,1,3,5,6,0,4,13,6,24,10,16,9,5,21,0,0,1,1,16,6,4,1,15,100,26,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13442760608387552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08517697300567338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0972606130002361,0.0,0.0,0.07856160529918288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3739462654956136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16091738154846008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061594114271824235,0.08702577672242888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14730107113628926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.263165583054315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13477197798590307,0.0,0.13389439414693324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23805367734299665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09395244289572888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.244918582918073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1158754468258199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3751288531360365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09728286431729408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22430464869841507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09670874372997944,0.07103221732460523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1353426833559158,0.0,0.0,0.4759883244184728,0.0,0.0,0.1052103981532646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0966923173652678,0.0,0.1483397557775523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1174268193943856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,punk_wannabe,2019/01/13,"I have a hard time trusting safe foods I recently discovered those bolthouse dressings that are around 45-50 cal per 2 tbsp. Like, that's the dream. But every time I eat a salad with it, and I end up feeling full, I get that little voice saying ""you just ate way more calories than you thought"". It happens with lean cuisines too. Does that happen to y'all?",3.2433333333333323,5.182547428571431,3.457142857142859,91.0561904761905,74.71428571428572,5.80952380952381,25.952380952380953,6.42735559955562,0.8653809523809524,280,10,56,2,6,86,58,70,0.021,0.8029999999999999,0.17600000000000002,0.8481,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,3,0,0,3,3,0,0,3,0,2,4,0,0,0,9,8,2,0,0,2,0,2,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,7,4,4,1,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,4,8,3,6,6,2,9,0,0,0,0,4,4,0,0,5,32,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2261741816443108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22233641849414015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2599747577742608,0.0,0.0,0.2250286337553584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21406305488166089,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1284642988765894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3072197571310829,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13273992406281018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4493425815654419,0.0,0.22759481877856866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12412467942919635,0.2546426524939999,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25086127285257936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2020448889960698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20170143049188485,0.2962979208040709,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20166717070179416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,pizzadeliverysivir,2019/01/13,"Sims 4 giving me weird motivation I bought sims 4 out of boredom and it got me out of binge mode. I made a sim that looks like me, a sim that would look like me if I was thinner, and a sim that I desperately want to look like but will never look like. For the two sims that look like me, I also selected the traits glutton, gloomy, and clumsy. So I started playing and my sims’ lives started mirroring my own life. The fat sim would constantly be crying because of loneliness (I kept her in the house for days and didn’t let her talk to people much. Literally, she started talking to plants for social interaction). But the 2 skinny sims never had that problem and I realized I was more social when playing them. I also had them form romantic relationships with other sims, but I kept the fat sim alone because I felt like she would look weird with normal sized sims. I even rejected a date because I just felt she didn’t belong in a relationship. Overall, I treated her more poorly than I would my other sims... not intentionally, but I was thinking about it today and realized how unconsciously biased I was because of their weights. But she’s also my most successful sim career-wise (she’s a style influencer/beauty guru) and I put a ton of effort into leveling her skills in comparison to my other sims. In my mind whenever something good happened to her, like a promotion or having a not negative interaction with another sim, I would think “really? But she’s so fat” even though I know it’s just a frickin game. Idk where I’m going with this... I guess I think sims 4 has become a mirror to my reality and is showing me how badly I treat myself and how small my world when I limit myself because of my weight. 

Btw, the 2 sims that look like me are struggling with weight issues. They don’t know how to portion control and get really upset when they are hungry, so they got fatter since I created them. It’s been a bitch to get them down to their original weight ",5.315953002610968,6.09435723237598,6.282450130548303,77.30713211488252,68.06005221932115,9.261159268929504,29.41921671018277,9.3871,2.5377833733681467,1552,54,292,30,25,516,179,383,0.113,0.736,0.151,0.9202,0,2,1,0,0,0,41.0,0,0,9,7,20,22,1,2,19,0,23,10,4,9,2,65,54,33,0,9,12,0,6,8,0,6,4,0,0,0,14,19,9,4,10,4,2,2,8,8,0,1,17,13,64,14,33,29,8,27,0,1,7,0,30,12,1,4,21,204,78,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08105590306992988,0.0,0.1877584499872389,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08206460536027299,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06534556037253605,0.23853916074859186,0.08643430880840344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08457349576571241,0.08777756751499788,0.0,0.0,0.08596721021661499,0.05047256140988458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10338271972921302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1502877228050549,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0817774040199537,0.07507610993116384,0.044478138565067035,0.06564251213285502,0.12518665529462092,0.0,0.08621449467762217,0.0,0.06920689102296486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09030392240046453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08168526912014762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08602157511018514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08002827013312898,0.05527881531327925,0.305879158216952,0.0,0.0691068426225843,0.0,0.4600430025150848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07405346398718719,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07902238181801632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05753162721919775,0.0,0.1207210678958128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07668021308211312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054257065997738135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07488623253394627,0.0,0.07867499760015037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1002733735428859,0.0,0.0,0.16804835123107745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06473919396465741,0.0,0.0,0.1595566514544456,0.0,0.06024996588355332,0.0,0.0,0.1661828902446302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08181650924731958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12580817649612508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15044152526062549,0.07689208751272578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07418329247369708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07645067155612628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.046160997244257006,0.0,0.0,0.3812084747757904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2779756493596208,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,minzimin,2019/01/13,"I just had my first B/P session... ... and it was surreal. I usually have restrictive behaviours and fast a lot ( diagnosed atypical anorexic) but I binged today and couldn't handle it so forced myself to throw up. I found it strangely exhilarating and kept eating, then throwing up because it made me feel high(?) and kinda numb. I hope it doesn't become a habit though since i know how much worse it is in the long run...",3.4775357142857146,5.570701825000004,4.649642857142863,82.08250000000002,74.5,8.071428571428571,26.42857142857143,8.841846274778883,2.140232142857143,326,12,62,7,7,107,63,80,0.174,0.745,0.081,-0.8371,0,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,0,0,1,4,2,0,0,3,0,6,3,0,2,0,18,12,10,0,2,2,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,6,5,1,2,3,0,0,3,2,1,0,1,5,1,9,1,4,6,2,13,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,3,6,42,15,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15241648812639602,0.27613943473403113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25377605408562304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2558439843000104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12642311256015334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21267611700568165,0.0,0.2741459264097065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2641713252969319,0.0,0.24833705445706464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13741041869445764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22126943811246924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2125672912042864,0.0,0.2365852399056921,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1838014468867217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20682810648911248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2456540449504863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23700001460999015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.275373662004429,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2548028013447575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,nietzsches_hoe,2019/01/13,"Therapist told me my binging was probably caused by my restriction. So I stopped restricting, kept binging, gained weight, and now I hate myself even more. I’ve never hated my body then I do now. Probably.

In September, I went to an eating disorder clinic to get assessed for their outpatient program and they told me I’d be waitlisted until April. In the meantime, the woman I spoke to recommended I stop restricting calories or carbs to compensate for binges, as feeling deprived probably triggered more binges. Until December I followed her advice, but I still found myself binging for the usual reasons and now I think I’ve gained at least 10 pounds, bringing me up from mid-120s to maybe mid-130s at 5’1”. I’m terrified to weigh myself. All my clothes fit me poorly, my stomach and thighs have never been bigger. I avoid going out because I look so terrible and I always try to wear clothes that hide my thighs, and I wear platforms all the time so my legs look a little longer and thinner.

I feel so desperate to lose weight that I’m back to skipping breakfast and lunch and feeling lightheaded until eating a small dinner. I might sustain myself with a protein bar or kale smoothie if I have to but I feel guilty because I’m so fucking fat again. I always thought I’d feel beautiful during my early 20s, but I’m turning 22 next month and I look worse than I ever have. I can’t believe I used to be fit and toned when I was 16 and 19 and I still thought I was fat. 

I want to hide my stupid ugly body in my house or at least be invisible or not need to eat or at least stop binging or SOMETHING I hate myself so much ",4.7063975155279465,6.118244730158732,5.259875776397519,81.74534161490685,69.95238095238096,8.017943409247756,31.47342995169082,8.456263369488248,2.4785955831608004,1290,56,238,20,23,414,167,315,0.187,0.731,0.08199999999999999,-0.9892,1,1,1,0,0,0,27.0,0,0,2,3,16,9,5,1,8,0,13,22,10,4,5,55,46,35,0,3,11,0,7,0,0,1,3,1,0,1,2,15,12,8,10,1,1,4,4,9,0,0,12,11,49,0,33,30,8,43,0,2,3,1,7,15,1,8,24,156,51,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09714603405500387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1654405237589614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07644309091339334,0.0,0.121203483547367,0.0,0.0,0.1120053314505704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2208526849280779,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10212537764618937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11393685020494634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3051754687729436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0656618903289221,0.08992549148249022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2513330714995295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1090021220460797,0.0,0.09190647439528783,0.051939617647965966,0.0,0.05649916473746582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2944516957911962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11471020039832205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09963876430382687,0.0,0.0,0.2504477116556078,0.11121863519291172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.099874544031148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10546235248392882,0.0,0.0,0.07935116243483345,0.0,0.07308059619259444,0.07371408765211583,0.15334813286645113,0.0,0.1057277250940754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3215547358475184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1022139640172247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07653361533783071,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15878400968790066,0.2493432142184107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11542710701075948,0.0,0.0637003615204604,0.0,0.1578469364475316,0.05796899774166156,0.0,0.0,0.18998833005021803,0.0,0.06749545789323459,0.10813368845497606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08586162114403356,0.10949027733946258,0.0,0.058636846592256923,0.0,0.0,0.24211850035234275,0.0,0.09215760686196893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.101311175451706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,TacosGetMeThrough,2019/01/13,"Unsupportive partners My problem is binging as always for winter I have put on my typical 30 lbs. I have been trying to get off weight the right way by eating 1200 cal & logging. It has been EXTREMELY slow & frustrating to say the least and I've only binged 2x this month so doing well by regular standards I guess.  I also gave up drinking and only drink 1x a week now which is very hard for me. 

The worst part is my fiance doesn't really support me. He says he does but then I feel like he undermines me. Yesterday he wanted to go out to eat & he complained because I'm vegetarian & on a diet we can't eat anywhere. We went to his favorite restaurant & ate probably an insane amount of calories.

This morning he kept saying we could go to my favorite breakfast place and get breakfast bagels I said we could just make the same thing at home plus we ate out yesterday. He runs to the store which is 5 min away to get eggs & he is gone for over an hr. By then I'm sooooo hangry & started saying wtf is taking so long to get eggs.

When he comes home he has the stuff and a bagel from the bagel shop that he says I can't eat because it has sausage so he knows I can't steal it. I got so angry and frustrated I wanted to cry & punch him as he sat there eating it all smug.

How do you deal with it?!?

Am I just a crazy person??? Its not like making healthy meals is hurting him as he has also gained 30lbs but he just doesn't give a fuck at all.",2.094147267206477,3.737487812500003,3.4094736842105284,91.4436234817814,77.125,6.2558704453441285,22.547570850202426,7.010146845296331,0.5517959514170041,1141,33,251,12,26,372,171,304,0.152,0.7609999999999999,0.087,-0.9722,0,0,2,0,0,0,36.0,5,1,0,1,14,13,3,0,14,0,25,17,0,3,2,37,55,21,0,5,6,0,3,2,1,0,0,6,2,2,13,15,16,1,2,3,2,7,6,9,1,0,11,9,27,4,33,42,7,33,0,1,0,1,36,12,1,1,15,142,40,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12092789845716448,0.0629121822604848,0.6553726980122743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07103650908657498,0.0,0.0,0.09218026483822216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06512987613761348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12073418850250413,0.0,0.08305219340402861,0.0,0.07794886189035287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06616535367535292,0.0,0.0,0.1481347458745364,0.0,0.3868309544450885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03822984029064856,0.054014601631993904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06989867701941113,0.15800891427396635,0.07253039369678231,0.08593990562329976,0.0,0.0604708834969433,0.0,0.08329109282660647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06773020713904654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1516826270002791,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08094027439946935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0415523574335409,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07387681577221263,0.0,0.0,0.06691098731030155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10093828649328056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060349842713927786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11500707458720595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08187644670108937,0.0,0.0,0.06601827199562421,0.07899460596254375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0815185610261357,0.07234695475213085,0.0,0.07600724858099811,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04843662828986753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06456909541074787,0.0719208300684187,0.30063386891956057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05351596074154478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08655344162124813,0.0,0.08579942985226925,0.0,0.0,0.05684804992772605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050230810714762236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05133308880139524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06238478548156631,0.08919149664605275,0.06001436815689129,0.06064843673083719,0.09207056939081262,0.0679809632933924,0.07008967365259859,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Death_by_Hedgehog,2019/01/13,"If the scale gives you more than one number, which one do you go with? I got 2 different new LWs 3 different times today and I'm not sure which one to record or ""accept.""

Also, after almost a year of maintaining, I'm suddenly dropping 1+ a day this week and I'm officially UW. So that's cool af.",0.1904761904761898,2.284512174603176,3.0914285714285725,88.92857142857146,85.98412698412699,6.774603174603175,18.52380952380953,7.957251820313856,0.7536095238095242,229,6,51,5,7,81,51,63,0.035,0.8909999999999999,0.07400000000000001,0.2915,2,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,2,0,0,2,3,0,0,3,1,1,0,0,0,1,9,7,6,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,3,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,3,1,1,3,3,5,6,1,10,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,3,8,27,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.246087203564968,0.0,0.0,0.19652944223780447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15849104542893486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5135213973841812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2357496987937193,0.13966770227218825,0.0,0.19655198108799068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2373508137029233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4995879571626776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2316203040650603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1433011754283625,0.0,0.2329461245692616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1971290925481232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15825756472072222
EDAnonymous,softsoul97,2019/01/13,"Not believing the number on the scale???? My scale at home says i am always around 105-108 lbs
Then, i went to see my therapist and he sais he had to weigh me. And the medical scale said i was 101-102lbs ???????? I dont believe it and can’t believe i would be 101lbs because i look so much bigger than this. Like am i the only one ?? ",0.18957142857142628,1.9879422428571445,2.3014285714285734,96.37357142857144,83.71428571428572,5.7142857142857135,18.57142857142857,6.868970318607317,-0.0648571428571425,247,6,60,3,7,83,52,70,0.019,0.921,0.06,0.5593,0,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,4,0,8,2,0,0,0,6,12,5,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,1,1,2,1,0,2,4,1,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,1,4,4,10,1,6,6,1,6,0,0,2,0,4,4,0,0,2,38,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16956029368027525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1814063438534487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12422167071536945,0.0,0.0,0.6887668074184237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23882724678157116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.204406760791362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09955603293678716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17112287676969468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20528571170643906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14980087189278746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13808579498827522,0.15498296706331496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19384031247935085,0.16205308820214254,0.0,0.0,0.16238532764492178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23660290379549515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1889049977519837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14475861939514115,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Kittyscatsspeed,2019/01/13,"Medication! What meds did everyone find made them out on weight. Mine was Venlaflaxine, diazapam and pregabs.
I am still on the diazapam and pregabs and now on a low dose of quitapine. 
I've heard people put weight on with that too. 
I'm restricting. Trying to go to the gym (I'm so low ATM I find it hard to leave bed).
On gym days if I don't go I hard fast. Yesterday I ate a sandwich because I felt like I was going to faint and I was out with my mother. 
Today is under 1000 calories. Which I can do easy. 
Meds are fucking my progress up though.

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EDAnonymous,JayLenoBlows,2019/01/13,"Walked 12 miles while fasting yesterday and now my day is ruined I spent four and a half hours walking home from the city because I got hardcore triggered last night and now I'm miserable with blisters all over my feet and I :)))) weigh :)))) more :))))) than I did yesterday :)))))

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EDAnonymous,OriginalJokeGoesHere,2019/01/13,"My friend went on adhd drugs and I’m so triggered Holy shit literally every time we meet it’s to get food and every fucking time he’s like “oh I have no appetite it’s so terrible” because he’s on these drugs. And it’s fucking constant, like all the time he’s complaining about how he doesn’t want to eat.

This guy *knows* my eating is fucked up (I got drunk and told him about purging) and he still goes on and on and I’m so frustrated. Like wow, guess I’ll just restrict harder?

And he thinks eating once a day is “starving yourself”? Honey, you have no idea what starving yourself is.

I wouldn’t even mind if he didn’t still try and force me to eat? Like if you’re not hungry then let’s do something else, don’t drag me somewhere where I *know* I’ll binge. 

Anyway, I’m bitter sorry
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EDAnonymous,TrashyChannn,2019/01/13,"Why is she so mean about it? My mom love to say that i should do certain thing because ""im overweight and this requires walking"". Yeah no shit, but why doesn't my younger brother has to do it, he's even more overweight than me? She doesn't know.

I've actually built up my confidence and self worth, but no, im fat and i need to relapse. 

 Thanks mom.",0.046103500761034866,2.298843260273973,1.4747031963470327,98.9364687975647,89.0,4.3403348554033485,23.179604261796044,5.82211442006289,0.14364353120243534,270,11,63,2,9,86,52,73,0.142,0.655,0.203,0.7236,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,1,3,4,1,0,0,1,7,5,2,0,1,11,12,6,0,2,2,3,0,0,0,1,3,1,0,1,5,3,3,1,2,0,1,1,4,1,0,0,0,1,8,3,6,11,1,2,0,0,0,1,9,1,1,0,0,36,13,1,0.0,0.0,0.20764203907507828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12970837132576465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.140538812969134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4596766154269729,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11693801524457775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19204175154449246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2317791879633258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4984094155861162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15777325821471094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16921075057163695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22197536079107974,0.0,0.2184150368464476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1958987200027276,0.0,0.0,0.14136120480059658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3840006967117245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,EndlessRoses,2019/01/13,"Advice Needed on ED Recovery I've just taken a hard look at my life and I realised I've wasted 1.5 years on this ED. From anorexia to bulimia to just binging it's been going on long enough.

Currently I'm in a bulimic phase for the past six months or so and I'm sitting here on a Sunday Morning exhausted after purging last night. I don't want to move. This disease is ruining my life. I can't put full effort into my workouts because I'm so tired from not eating enough. How am I ever supposed to compete in a triathlon in Summer if this continues?

I'm going to try to stop and just have some questions for people who have recovered before or just can offer advice.

How long does it take your bowels to start working again after eating normally?
How do I get a more relaxed attitude over food?
Was it worthwhile to recover?
Did you find it easier to exercise and get better results in whatever sports you were doing?",3.2010164835164825,5.246747934065934,4.92537087912088,80.01025412087913,75.15384615384616,7.626923076923077,27.85851648351648,8.472884824447931,2.3175593406593404,732,30,130,14,16,248,118,182,0.095,0.841,0.064,-0.5618,2,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,3,0,4,12,4,0,0,6,0,13,9,1,4,1,25,27,12,0,4,8,0,1,0,0,0,5,0,0,0,8,5,3,1,2,4,0,4,3,2,0,1,5,2,11,2,26,22,5,34,0,1,1,0,6,12,0,5,17,90,19,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.307570521603215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.095934484143952,0.0,0.1339147359736119,0.0,0.0,0.1391856087045237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1377201309670167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3220683136958355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32522137901129816,0.0,0.0,0.14235491232217903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14383811608428101,0.0,0.19029876200359375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1644441324574442,0.0,0.17887994849701475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14097730125316835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1282818232467018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2223175689277067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2785442659528857,0.13215556362742242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12561541321431866,0.16726497178625555,0.0,0.11669174459468608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14768599960761986,0.15419431893268845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15023247167968806,0.10910417436957663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15820558113206248,0.1762962831402215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11139100318746928,0.0,0.0,0.13157274544005348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11832659309402803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18087968480197456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10684745595644156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09282399259519332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11457104731135688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10134449327209598
EDAnonymous,BEDBulimic,2019/01/13,"UM holy mOLY the burps are REAL y’all bulimic babes ever get in a b/p cycle in one sitting and each successive purge you start begins with a motherfukin buRP to end all BURPS???

I swear to god do any of y’all have this constant burp-iness or feeling like you need to burp?? Like air in your throat that’s uncomfortable???

Literally purging in my workplace bathroom today and this VELOCIRAPTOR fukin RESONATING SQUEAL OF A BURP just ripped outta me as I was starting. 

I could see the last remaining shreds of my soul float up to the mouldy ceiling wit the FrAgRaNt scents of my vom.


Not to mention I finally shat my pants (at home thank god) the other day and they were so far gone i had to chuck em.

whew what a week lads, what a week.",1.2719939117199388,3.829215438356165,2.4445662100456644,91.98304414003044,86.39726027397259,5.710197869101979,21.124809741248093,7.1686216300943375,0.6741914764079158,578,19,120,9,18,184,105,146,0.027000000000000003,0.873,0.1,0.8541,0,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,5,1,1,3,4,0,0,10,0,7,6,1,0,2,14,16,6,0,2,3,0,1,2,0,0,5,0,1,1,6,5,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,1,1,4,3,16,4,18,11,2,22,1,0,1,0,8,8,0,1,14,68,22,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15847368466228232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2518310568487212,0.0,0.1860617084616179,0.0,0.0,0.15029009226394427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20640230778297816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2107960177400727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11783090584230554,0.1664822398059028,0.0,0.2552815021166263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12175262411843575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2337558985873576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18995689750165065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2277009806215244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1727945643915027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1579124338386265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2652480172183489,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18570094273831494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32989068660796683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2145498823486174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.220892571307698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3738577081977691,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,AleksDoesThings,2019/01/13,"Drunk and Realizing Some Things So, I’m really drunk and high rn, and earlier a friend of mine made a joke about me finally eating cuz I said I wanted taquitos lmao

But like ???

Damn guys, I realized I never eat around ppl but it’s become so normal for me to not eat that other ppl don’t even say anything anymore, but they still worry. 

Granted, I’ve known this kid for the past 3 years and have talked to him before about my struggles with food and eating behaviors, but still

My dumbass brain was still like OoO

Anyway, thanks for reading I guess???

Sorry",3.551977573904182,5.383500752293578,4.289296636085627,85.88167176350662,73.58715596330275,7.413251783893987,23.120285423037714,8.167268648758528,1.2405282364933736,438,12,86,7,9,140,81,109,0.16399999999999998,0.6920000000000001,0.14400000000000002,-0.5328,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,1,0,10,7,1,1,3,0,3,8,1,2,1,22,9,12,0,2,5,0,0,2,1,0,0,2,0,2,5,7,7,0,3,4,0,0,3,2,0,0,3,2,12,5,10,6,1,9,0,0,0,0,8,2,1,2,9,53,17,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14243272845452062,0.0,0.0,0.11818725536891952,0.1278525008148705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15861731849978786,0.1222102823902566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16032773350187493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5878376159211899,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09485984216645106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1573289995246428,0.0,0.0,0.17366621584915162,0.0,0.11096067409966487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15821393321825372,0.1422066597590871,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15174271390644856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14033123111128593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1358969840240828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11076881587906544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14071738351073187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13710181075052685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14365914832495028,0.0,0.09200683066464103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13661577750137655,0.1142126132488218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16077114804615592,0.0,0.0,0.3440860297068549,0.0,0.0,0.15014310271850304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.115436542943832,0.0,0.13222626025843712,0.0,0.0,0.0954149340850704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08471096377238893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14585336851207534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09248675324215896
EDAnonymous,p7mplemousse,2019/01/13,"What is considered chubby? Fat? I don't mean when you are viewing yourself, because I realize that a lot of people with ed's think they are fat when they aren't at all. But from society's point of view, what is considered ""fat""? Does overweight (bmi > 24) = fat? Is chubby thinner than that? ",1.146822660098522,3.640837672413795,2.696600985221675,90.48706896551724,86.06896551724138,6.0729064039408875,23.802955665024644,7.447530270364453,1.2639921182266014,227,9,46,4,7,74,41,58,0.066,0.934,0.0,-0.5362,0,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,1,2,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,7,5,4,0,1,7,9,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,5,0,0,0,4,1,5,0,3,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,5,0,6,9,2,4,0,0,2,0,3,2,0,1,2,28,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2773277568762606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3981218572091047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3867744938858641,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4955640228265074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3153987454432841,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4300662110091117,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2915077662066078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,calibrateichabod,2019/01/13,"who would win Nearly eighteen months of dedicated, hard-earned recovery OR the offhanded cruelty of two literal teenagers I passed on the hiking trail who, thinking I couldn't hear them, said they'd better step their game up if they wanted to stop getting passed by fat bitches. 

haha hahaha hahahahahaha ha I mean it's still recovery because I have worked too hard to go backwards now and quite frankly this fat bitch still lapped your rude asses but also highkey want  the ground to swallow me up about it. ",8.735806451612905,8.656854193548389,7.7779784946236585,72.42696774193551,60.82795698924731,10.450752688172043,36.879569892473114,9.888512548439397,3.600941505376344,412,17,70,7,5,127,76,93,0.124,0.735,0.141,0.1779,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,1,4,4,6,7,3,0,3,2,4,4,3,0,0,11,12,5,0,5,3,0,1,0,0,1,2,2,0,0,5,1,3,1,2,1,0,4,1,3,0,1,1,3,10,4,11,8,0,15,0,0,0,1,10,6,3,2,5,42,15,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18970548182971889,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14460766935861682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20980262376582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12393813833766175,0.0,0.1348181140387853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4250066938619904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26736521444659794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25840312259438303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1893474729398166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25231364560915137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2256514153606275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3788898619140745,0.19832730888145603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15200158522135487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23173036661859264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2798380863675837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17269965305500246,0.0,0.0,0.16851493342306534,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Geeawf0,2019/01/13,"I didn't binge yesterday and I told myself that today I won't binge and it would be two days straight!! How wonderful!!! Nope guess which loser just ate at the pasta It was me I ate all the pasta 

I was so excited and now I am sad",-1.1851714285714259,0.8716493400000012,1.5917142857142856,96.37300000000002,95.6,5.257142857142857,15.142857142857142,6.868970318607317,-0.2289142857142852,177,4,42,3,7,61,36,50,0.059,0.701,0.24,0.8611,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,1,4,3,0,0,2,0,7,4,0,1,1,9,12,5,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,4,3,4,0,1,0,0,0,3,2,0,1,6,0,8,1,1,3,1,6,0,2,0,0,1,2,0,2,4,32,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2616359986683813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4469124368681629,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3845459645537876,0.3876534552903037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.396299439590919,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4399526764158056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.288189997076126,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,fishysandwich,2019/01/14,"I'm so excited to buy carrot cake tomorrow. I'm going to go to Whole Foods and get a slice of vegan carrot cake.  It's all I can think about because I've only been eating just a salad everyday. Plus, I'm going to pair it with some coffee made with caramel and splenda. It'll probably be my only meal that day, but that's okay.",2.7951428571428565,3.5892739428571434,5.210000000000001,82.64500000000002,73.85714285714286,8.457142857142857,24.0,8.841846274778883,1.6223714285714284,256,7,54,5,5,91,50,70,0.0,0.933,0.067,0.4933,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,2,1,4,4,0,1,1,11,13,5,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,5,5,4,0,1,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,2,1,2,2,9,9,3,6,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,29,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17238254017100044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18237232657036748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28935869369022305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3419436116042766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14774300149826675,0.0,0.4821380994966833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26757711795647765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.43014004548092455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3048890485492124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18119660932710147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3157183076720715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,tiflis,2019/01/14,"help a girl out Sorry if this is obnoxious. I’m below the weight I should be, in some hellhole state of prolonged quasi-recovery, hating how I feel in my body when I gain weight even though I logically know I need to. My body *feels* big but *looks* grossly twerpy. I don’t even like how I look in the mirror or in pictures. My legs especially make me appear weirdly immature, and persistently chubby cheeks don’t help that situation. I’m 25 but still get mistaken for being a teenager. 

I desperately need to be taken seriously for some upcoming functions and I’m wondering if anyone has tips on how to dress to look, like, bigger? More healthy? Shapely? Older? I feel like I’m playing dress-up in my more suit-like outfits and it’s depressing as shit. Fitted clothes accentuate the weird proportions, but looser stuff somehow makes me look smaller. Googling this has just led me to sad pages of advice for guys trying to look more muscled... And I know this is the opposite of the goal of many people of here but idk where else to ask.

Anyone have any advice on this..? 😞 ",2.2781991869918703,5.000460517073171,3.6280792682926832,84.2647205284553,82.85365853658539,6.538617886178862,24.15142276422764,7.793537801064563,1.5836544715447154,846,32,157,16,24,276,126,205,0.16399999999999998,0.7290000000000001,0.107,-0.8927,0,0,0,0,0,0,32.0,0,0,0,3,12,11,2,0,7,0,11,7,5,6,0,33,35,17,0,5,8,0,5,3,0,1,0,0,0,2,7,5,2,0,7,1,0,2,2,7,0,0,1,10,17,4,25,30,6,20,0,2,5,0,5,14,1,8,6,95,24,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2470215246589613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0859522600518121,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17675525917577511,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11816133606081622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2807905000273603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10886297436042408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10558597562175318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16696410119898636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1917258253194813,0.09029590496554443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06603565274903356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12514994010596894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12478791601445274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16943847932450218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13892568322455073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18524918451421613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5306956702034774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16873796435043176,0.12814368634945428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1874391116199359,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08762569104134936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12974163344975678,0.0,0.14207216131582334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14148774454607474,0.0,0.0,0.10093841850085328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14469090029248302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12418147166666528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08581323508740157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.307827703348721,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13706891066915505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Bowdownpeasantz,2019/01/14,"Have you guys seen the show Binge?? Because I stumbled upon the pilot/maybe stand alone thingy on YouTube and I feel so called out lol

Here’s the link if anyone else wants to watch it: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aN9syJfWp8U ",5.796052631578945,9.550654921052633,1.9687368421052616,94.48415789473684,78.73684210526315,4.092631578947368,18.12631578947369,5.6839178017228535,-0.4834905263157898,189,4,32,1,5,47,35,38,0.053,0.851,0.096,0.3826,0,1,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,3,1,1,0,0,0,0,6,4,3,0,2,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,3,0,4,3,0,4,0,0,2,0,3,3,0,1,0,16,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3828888308503105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2584968452788346,0.37879256059258026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2253604658312065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3774962864470411,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30882975399072954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1869270961994635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3660526408671847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.371404733738411,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21805358519649712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,jobbluetooth,2019/01/14,"too disgusted by my own body to shower I literally shower about once a week at this point, I feel disgusting saying that, but I feel even more disgusting when I have to see me own naked body in the shower for any amount of time. can anybody else relate??",9.91,6.5351088,9.5,71.48,61.0,13.2,35.0,11.20814326018867,3.5340000000000007,200,5,40,4,2,65,40,50,0.182,0.818,0.0,-0.8541,3,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,4,3,3,0,2,0,2,2,2,0,0,3,5,2,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,2,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,4,6,0,8,5,4,6,0,0,1,0,1,3,0,0,3,27,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1976884644089044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6458124863448194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2428456141955785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1920070324942238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29397702067086035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30958992125176993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2748089320959156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23117922655655185,0.0,0.0,0.2316531876409433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16951164788714845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2331849492821177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,FlabbyWhiteThighs,2019/01/14,"So not to jinx myself or anything but... I’ve managed to not binge for two weeks (all year I guess, ha ha). I haven’t even eaten over 2000, even though my TDEE on weekdays is easily 2500. What’s more, it hasn’t even been that hard. Binge eating is a habit that was bestowed to me by my first bout of anorexia eight years ago. Not bingeing has always taken a lot of effort for me. What changed???

One of my New Years resolutions was to drink more water, so I’ve been trying to hit 60 oz a day—which is probably still not enough, but considering the fact that I’m a diet soda addict and given the opportunity will drink that shit like water, I figure it’s a good place to start. Even if I drink a lot of soda that day I will still drink my 60 oz of plain water, even though I fucking hate the stuff. Sometimes I’ll count green tea with stevia, but nothing else with artificial sweeteners like soda or Powerade zero. 

So I’ve been 2 weeks binge-free with not much effort, which is blowing me away right now. The scale is not budging even though I’ve been exercising 20+ hours a week and eating 1000-1500, but I’m trying not to let it get to me because Aunt Flo is in town and it’s not my fault. 

And because I’m drinking water, my skin is clearing up too!! I started using hemp lotion all over my body as well and I don’t feel like a horrible scaly monster anymore. It feels good to like...feel almost healthy and like I have my shit together for once. 

I really hope this continues. Also, happy cake day to me. ",5.048284789644015,4.815293197411002,5.883640776699027,83.45549352750812,68.48220064724919,8.549514563106799,27.19902912621359,7.984000788550335,1.4649106796116511,1174,31,250,13,18,387,164,309,0.066,0.787,0.147,0.9741,2,0,5,0,0,0,42.0,0,0,0,4,18,17,4,0,12,2,21,24,4,1,4,37,38,21,0,2,15,1,4,4,0,2,2,0,0,0,15,9,17,0,3,6,0,0,11,5,1,5,9,5,24,12,29,25,8,27,0,0,1,1,1,9,3,8,22,153,39,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09768263824187252,0.0,0.0,0.07942939518276765,0.0,0.08972642922293017,0.0,0.0,0.07165705828550689,0.07455850913848253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08886404789167468,0.0,0.0,0.07373725150987874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08418681440691267,0.0,0.0,0.10924471018779383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09953091632772687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09479017197193494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17336336913259906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4388937645766025,0.0,0.1833764985778117,0.07485345055453173,0.0,0.0,0.09258588195369936,0.0,0.3550994065230376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13592088817732978,0.06401380503247983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07621793761211627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08283834643887368,0.04681489600090069,0.0,0.0,0.1503127870377321,0.0,0.0,0.09870997130498968,0.0,0.0,0.09538615163758164,0.0802684485974307,0.08846635214749557,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08899794857021777,0.08824284116204703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0916271478243616,0.0,0.21888229934022554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15235787419376318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06586995949081864,0.0,0.0,0.08654103374008977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08597838075481605,0.0,0.0,0.09542636353291267,0.0607186434044588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09361811717423896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0966093077499335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05740323516413243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07652215067525298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1839564182100474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08862160176154199,0.0,0.12684571110512266,0.0,0.1431172818892744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10257624733736606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26410927003665363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12167177907320198,0.0,0.0875310308756141,0.0,0.0,0.07738992018714022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2156270945510176,0.0,0.0805656248255246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17310797929594515
EDAnonymous,Sushisavage,2019/01/14,"I've been trying to not let my ED control my life for the past year or two. I have a question for all you guys. Obviously I still have an ED... Just trying to not let food or body image control my life.

I feel like because I'm a plus size woman, people think that the best way to compliment me is to ask if I've lost weight...or if I wear a flattering outfit, I get up and downward hand motions and ""you look great"" or just something about how my body looks in general.

In the moment, my ED brain gets all excited and I go ""Oh really? Thank you!"" But I find myself being pissed about it later, because it was the perfect opportunity for me to say, ""Please do not talk about my body. Thank you.""

For those of you who shut those comments down, what is a tactful way to do it? 

By me saying thank you or giving any positive/neutral response, I am letting these people know that it's okay by me to equate my weight with something bad that needs to be shed, or that I only look beautiful when I am thinner, which is NOT true (to me). I am always beautiful and worthy, whether I have lost weight or look thinner or not.

So... What do y'all (who shut down this ignorance) say in these situations?",3.5015133024163987,4.3872466348547725,4.725545521113009,86.43260434464243,72.27800829875518,7.662289480107398,26.20966560898218,7.928766900206844,1.3600776665853065,913,29,196,12,17,302,129,241,0.055,0.738,0.206,0.9898,0,0,2,0,0,0,42.0,0,7,0,7,9,18,1,0,9,1,19,12,7,3,5,40,38,19,0,3,18,0,4,1,0,0,2,3,0,2,18,6,3,3,5,0,0,2,5,5,0,1,4,11,32,13,27,29,3,19,0,2,4,0,20,9,1,10,7,135,50,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08204828360284208,0.0,0.0,0.06705561862001655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0921835153810904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08233208433114836,0.1202188867128524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10348115620404442,0.0,0.0,0.32858788129495137,0.0,0.11007716514360873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2211905460700665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04985827331932581,0.07044431132664736,0.0,0.0,0.0901243089845521,0.0,0.11923504626645955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10303537204010232,0.09459208213791703,0.0560401936161326,0.0,0.0,0.10871371809331776,0.0,0.09763567181369123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054191405934033404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3024946567714765,0.13929699456710773,0.04817402380874515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3312175986344709,0.0,0.21528069928950225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07311527105677397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07499448225301136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0941308052814022,0.1367222901699662,0.0,0.0,0.10824003104648483,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11046154612625486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06316967671281461,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23524689862705464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1108375353943293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15182378860303916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07874706367256415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07925595356268711,0.0,0.2723501087842589,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06318289145710226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1338943167079481,0.0,0.09632395991170273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15653807329060998,0.0,0.3602274750655422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06349918001001532
EDAnonymous,miracleunicat,2019/01/14,"I can’t lose weight like a normal person anymore I recently hit 122 lbs, which at 5’6 makes my BMI above 19.5, the arbitrary limit I set myself for weight gain in recovery. I’ve been trying to lose weight like a normal person but I just keep gaining. The only way I can lose if if I totally starve myself, which I can’t do because now my family knows about my ED and won’t let me restrict heavily (or at all, but it’s easy to hide a little restriction). I just don’t have any self control unless I go all out. I feel so fat and like none of my clothes look good, I just want to be back to 114, which with ED behaviors would take like a week and a half. Honestly it’s just so frustrating to have to be normal.",5.277799999999999,4.259059413333337,6.4331666666666685,82.33575000000002,68.2,10.166666666666668,28.75,9.516144504307137,2.1655999999999995,552,15,123,10,8,187,93,150,0.13699999999999998,0.6829999999999999,0.18,0.7139,0,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,0,7,9,10,1,0,7,0,13,4,1,2,3,31,22,11,0,7,10,0,4,4,0,2,1,0,0,3,5,5,4,5,2,0,0,1,5,4,0,1,1,5,18,6,15,15,4,12,0,3,1,0,3,5,0,3,8,79,23,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09083848093680183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13247473721916858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10271420955187437,0.0,0.08142868020345975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14982050435210464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12592664294244107,0.0,0.06754169007259714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07591617472565028,0.1120399499906753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11873138847046427,0.0,0.0,0.07341167073220818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13659384889793444,0.0,0.2610403264309578,0.1338815162221544,0.0,0.0,0.11217293993657006,0.4483230883829956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08916519675411541,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39263795487928493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1015930504661984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2332725238900664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13189340922261358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1393523061168379,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10043498325545484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0906915526702067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07878851151063211,0.10602900308079544,0.10714922913407307,0.4879906755030013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09489087739312524,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,alyyy30,2019/01/14,DAE b/p when a boy doesn’t text you back 😔 My biggest and most stupid trigger. I just like to think of it as me ‘getting over’ the guy...(until he then responds and the cycle continues lol).,-0.3562499999999993,1.8152458750000025,1.6900000000000013,97.195,90.25,4.2,20.5,5.6839178017228535,-0.13015000000000046,145,5,33,1,5,48,38,40,0.097,0.838,0.065,-0.2944,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,1,0,0,3,2,1,0,3,1,1,0,0,1,0,6,3,5,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,4,1,4,3,1,6,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,1,5,20,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4869142477243351,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3308361756695784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6269965669498364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3093638521982017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4057477692083856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,goodbyeruby2sday,2019/01/14,D E A T H There's a potential I could join a gym with friends soon which will be fun and hopefully will break the fact I've been stuck at this weight for three weeks. Or it'll make things worse and I'll hate myself more. ,0.19530612244898293,2.0595566938775534,1.236081632653061,103.65534693877552,84.10204081632655,5.5526530612244915,15.922448979591836,6.742157984588678,-0.7223583673469389,174,3,46,2,5,54,42,49,0.17600000000000002,0.599,0.226,0.3612,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,2,4,1,0,4,0,6,1,0,1,1,8,10,3,0,2,1,0,1,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,4,3,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,2,1,2,3,3,3,1,4,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,2,2,25,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2965786290707466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28698718282349833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3667374289797499,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3689411629485581,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24795080001971864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24677989165574876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2979608418131297,0.4523352264404196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3785469794518253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,0kye,2019/01/14,"Trying Ballerina Tea for the first time tonight.... What to expect? After 6 years on and off of having an eating disorder, I’ve never tried laxatives. But lately I’ve been bloated and noticing how my bowel movements never seem proportional to what I eat. So I bought Ballerina Tea to try it. I don’t want to overuse them, but I want to try it at least once. I’ve been reading the reviews on Amazon, and lots of people said they experienced cramping and pain. People said they kicked in anywhere between 4-10 hours. (I’m hoping it’s 4 for me because I plan on drinking it when I get off work at 8 pm tonight). What are your experiences?",3.6223199999999984,5.304578792000001,5.049800000000001,81.12190000000002,73.08,7.240000000000001,28.5,7.908726449838941,1.8886,499,20,95,7,10,167,83,125,0.053,0.873,0.07400000000000001,0.1053,1,0,1,0,0,0,19.0,0,1,3,3,3,2,0,0,3,0,5,8,1,1,2,15,14,9,0,4,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,7,4,5,0,1,2,1,1,3,1,0,1,5,3,12,1,19,9,2,20,0,0,0,0,6,8,0,3,11,60,19,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10145410161856054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19074304533951572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16303790825043493,0.0,0.3405986045308367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16280034441750169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14156515907020525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08695273588941979,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16530240965562382,0.16389989334907148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1877401381173188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1414927205561757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25672194559935035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1894815056262137,0.0,0.17724237569609202,0.0,0.0,0.17709311169127515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2307630273362554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1664749043692587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3166258294032171,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15151149941413294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09704659330703537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4519798173104739,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1963292941308208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12116292467919736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10717537714051437
EDAnonymous,tryingwithmarkers,2019/01/14,"MEDS TALK! Share your experiences with meds! Comment under each one your experience! If you don't see one you'd like to comment on, please comment it yourself then reply to your own comment.

**Reminder that our brain chemistries are all different and just because something didn't work for someone else does not mean it won't work for you.**",3.260161290322582,6.3666304193548395,2.848629032258067,88.44294354838709,83.51612903225806,5.035483870967743,28.717741935483872,6.6274283507984215,1.544993548387097,274,13,48,3,8,81,47,62,0.0,0.875,0.125,0.7829999999999999,1,0,1,0,0,0,10.0,1,6,0,2,1,2,0,0,0,0,5,1,1,0,1,8,7,3,0,1,3,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,4,0,0,2,1,1,7,2,7,4,3,3,0,0,1,0,13,2,0,1,2,31,10,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12962897984092828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23738683681924155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22217315608350666,0.0,0.0,0.1860907497456835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17764112177655764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41602344760661103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10388965880338018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23163732129968265,0.4724106503286823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2881932054491197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2334249665116255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16945388226163735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1801769788378192,0.16370774485048267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1709193736120791,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3096223034877125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,hollowedheart_,2019/01/14,"Bowels getting “used” to laxatives? NOT asking for advice or help, just wondering if others have experienced this. 

  So sometimes I’ll take lax pills (stimulant kind) and usually take 3- that’s the highest amount directed. After a while it seemed like it wasn’t helping anymore so I bumped it up to 4 after a binge. Now that seems to almost not work overnight. I bought Ex lax maximum strength yesterday and took 2 and nothing happened this morning. Took another 2 when I woke up because I was mad. Anyone else have this problem? It’s like I’m building a tolerance to them! ",3.1008566978193097,5.939052971962617,4.0987149532710285,81.55841510903426,80.02803738317758,7.304984423676013,30.41199376947041,8.344100000000001,2.8284834890965733,456,23,78,10,12,147,77,107,0.06,0.79,0.15,0.8237,1,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,1,2,5,6,1,0,4,0,4,2,1,2,0,15,18,9,0,2,5,1,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,10,3,0,0,3,0,1,2,3,2,0,0,6,1,5,4,9,12,1,11,0,0,0,0,5,2,0,6,9,45,15,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18019811419319925,0.0,0.0,0.1846546448151564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1933643802802096,0.0,0.0,0.1828798865884297,0.1289400363841912,0.188944381476625,0.0,0.0,0.17239347832626628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11241137829937484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15404644367374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09634383166666374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16306844509915625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24720513314126716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19202909205945465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1801816191328613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17694125908674346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17645036958230514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3357501807345708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.182380938793068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2772987323142349,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.409760758112019,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15926643184389286,0.20309569701929855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19997900386371684,0.13424879965109449,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,NobodysWaifu,2019/01/14,"One of the phrases I hate the most.. ""why are you dieting,  what are you trying to lose?"" to me asking for diet,  refusing certain foods,  eating small amounts,  etc

Like do people think you diet,  get to a weight then wham bam you can eat whatever you want and stay at that weight? 🙄🙄",0.15303571428571414,2.5468696607142896,1.8900000000000008,93.98000000000002,93.46428571428572,4.942857142857143,17.714285714285715,6.6274283507984215,0.09397142857142884,215,6,45,3,8,70,45,56,0.111,0.7909999999999999,0.097,-0.4329,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,5,0,1,0,4,1,0,3,0,4,8,0,0,1,6,9,2,0,1,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,8,1,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,2,7,2,6,9,3,4,0,1,0,0,7,2,0,1,2,27,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20624037677507304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.45147778806020794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2460382353006345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26676223796768184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1152595117622817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21780649807946265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10777880166549816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2468059291095751,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14949090549152055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15294305343875442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2351406867875909,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14135784783191654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.149779568568898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.130121371999896,0.0,0.0,0.5372865916797852,0.0,0.0,0.19906602496155626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,throwmeawaypllzzz,2019/01/14,"An unexpected ED perk So there's this guy who I've had en enormous crush on for months now. I've of course never even made the slightest of hints that I'm interested because any kind of rejection would send me spiraling down a hole of self hatred. Anyway, today I found out he just started dating someone else. He posted a picture with her today. I thought I would be heartbroken but instead I just literally don't give a single shit. Wanna guess why? I'm much skinnier than her. That's literally it. She's a very pretty girl who is by no means overweight but I'm still much thinner than her and that's all that matters to me. Like I'm just sitting here still in shock over how little of a shit I give.  I was seriously obsessed with this guy but now I really don't care. It doesn't make any logical sense. But I'm very inexplicably happy about all of this. Perks of my ED I guess? You guys got any similarly irrational ED perks?",1.3570357833655713,3.8496732819149,3.2459187620889765,87.01136363636364,84.79787234042553,6.184139264990328,22.375241779497102,7.520522993642371,1.076512765957446,739,26,150,13,22,247,118,188,0.152,0.725,0.123,-0.4151,0,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,1,0,0,15,11,2,1,7,0,9,3,2,3,3,27,26,7,0,3,7,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,0,5,11,4,1,0,4,0,0,1,5,6,0,0,6,0,16,5,21,17,5,20,0,1,0,0,17,7,2,2,11,90,27,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2713980701666077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08109480488710492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13563454262162214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11113079905491932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0878660914504399,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14586224027385652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25523199073242786,0.0,0.0,0.10639749206930244,0.0,0.29309852530632696,0.3951664820186475,0.0,0.14161457049378984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13853189942868965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06499250106562966,0.1333325728588204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12587767967341285,0.08879960003561603,0.0,0.0,0.1449103695672105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10618452286815612,0.0,0.19558700841979204,0.0,0.10260214104940918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12740746220572324,0.13534092333962916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08522342450305745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13878093132391134,0.0,0.27310997149116484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1127172100091438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09416042365029163,0.0,0.21247835306318152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10561219973712464,0.0,0.0,0.2521967298852843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2195299401853655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12004029214945534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18900360827498056,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,demon_floof,2019/01/14,"There's no winning So today I woke up and decided to hop on the scale because why not start my day off with mental strife. . And y'know what? I'd lost. Like. A believable amount of weight but more than I've been down in a while. And my first reaction wasn't to be happy. It was to assume my scale was broken. I moved it around to different surfaces, hopped on and off, and the number was consistent. I'm not going to mark it down as my new weight because I'm convinced it's a lie. In my head, I've forgotten how to lose weight and now I'm permanently stuck at the high end of a healthy BMI. 

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It just struck me how different this is from my response to weight gain. If the number on the scale goes up, it's the word of god. I've fucked up somehow and now I need to perseverate on it. But good news? Hell no, can't be true. Not me.

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The only thing I've changed in the last few weeks is that I've made a conscious effort to avoid purging triggers. For me, the big one was ordering delivery. I'd say about 75% of the meals I get delivered get purged and I order them with some intention to purge them. Perhaps sticking to foods that I feel ok keeping inside my body has had an effect? I guess this should be something to be happy about but honestly, if I get back to a more comfortable weight by stopping purging, I'm probably just going to feel super foolish for waiting so long to recover.  

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Welcome to eating disorders where bad news is bad news and good news is bad news and no matter what, you lose.",2.7395473658174616,4.432095585209005,3.872427652733119,88.60400630719765,75.46302250803859,7.099727924808311,25.466361612663864,7.882392219407189,1.34683418253772,1201,42,252,18,26,390,164,311,0.198,0.6629999999999999,0.139,-0.975,2,1,1,0,0,0,45.0,0,1,2,10,15,22,2,1,17,1,18,11,2,6,1,51,39,21,0,4,10,0,7,1,0,1,0,1,0,0,14,13,8,4,6,0,0,3,8,9,0,2,11,8,21,13,46,23,5,39,1,3,0,1,5,20,2,6,15,156,35,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2804113319922025,0.3144721664101338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07679607210674344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06633412972951094,0.2160884538118407,0.10517533377095614,0.0,0.0,0.09719356056987044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0958233797069235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0912592285541027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05563518874532458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18026166583046535,0.09886965207921193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08827285280228403,0.0,0.0,0.07640710826638758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08723854763567758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07337881178784905,0.10431460589236677,0.0,0.0,0.07975260972147379,0.1352131092814453,0.0,0.09805524288781538,0.14471362063718965,0.0,0.0,0.09503301496866234,0.0,0.0,0.1836660158347989,0.0,0.0,0.08853500577260183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09114600281230616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07667822553594303,0.0,0.0,0.047410181232530095,0.07031925848724775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04214578234513866,0.0,0.0,0.07634373187857403,0.0,0.19302179666136848,0.09417080802078996,0.0,0.0,0.08162808328101606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08693701835554289,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09168835061129607,0.0,0.06396601438772112,0.0,0.08331737154916727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058456867844729324,0.06561007107627183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0930106013418266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06860311708142948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06641268305385416,0.0,0.0,0.06106034781895635,0.0,0.0,0.07212321794556226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057312075331771524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08177119138073859,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06919832121384413,0.5252508703004642,0.0,0.0,0.0778427040447176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3144721664101338,0.0
EDAnonymous,Ughleigh,2019/01/14,"I want to be even more better than her I like to look at pictures of my boyfriend's ex to fuel my eating disorder.  She's heavier than me, I don't think her face is as attractive as mine,  she treated him like shit,  but I still feel a horrible jealousy and looking at her pictures gives me motivation to starve myself thin. So that I'm just that much better than her. I want to be better than her than I already am, so that I won't feel jealous anymore. Gotta find motivation any way I can. Though I hate looking at her photos. I guess I'm a glutton for punishment. 

Putting my feelings into words makes me realize I sound fucking insane. Then again I probably am. ",3.0088195386702843,4.675480641791047,4.483297150610586,84.61672320217096,74.67164179104478,7.260786974219811,29.34599728629579,8.00094639256281,2.005307462686567,522,23,104,8,11,174,83,134,0.192,0.622,0.18600000000000005,-0.7090000000000001,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,5,7,12,5,0,2,0,8,5,2,3,0,17,25,8,0,2,2,1,4,2,0,2,0,1,0,0,3,2,2,0,8,0,0,1,2,5,0,0,0,8,29,7,18,21,2,10,0,0,3,1,11,5,2,1,5,72,32,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1861337687318653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11470275783580372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1672773206454614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4475300849919746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.193312748359021,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17259358581568954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11140627864558518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25585692452104897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1541631708321667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15593456485222176,0.0,0.16180557146349495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18581124664743065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16652869980163626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.164809258362767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4249260478351484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11258988333132264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1239933425954312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1818569661548774,0.0,0.0,0.1695619679582949,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1731394049887501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13470169331967774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10807821995107984,0.16571940358158072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19897425546635625,0.13388399870325213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,noodlesandshit,2019/01/14,"""I would never have been able to tell you have anorexia!"" So I told finally told my roommate about my anorexia and the fact that I've started recovering recently. And that's what she said, alongside with ""usually what comes to mind are the cases worse than you.""  

My ED brain: ""She thinks you are fat. You're not skinny enough to be sick LET ALONE to recover. You don't have anorexia. Don't eat."" 

I feel fat and gross and awful. I want to skip my dinner. I feel like a fraud, like I'm not actually sick. I'm 5'8 and 93 pounds.  

End my misery okay thanks bye.",-0.1834617386777708,2.1226665309734543,1.5173971889640825,96.02274856845392,96.07964601769913,4.782717334721499,17.266527850078088,6.522977012572876,-0.1079480478917234,430,12,95,6,17,139,72,113,0.21,0.7020000000000001,0.08800000000000001,-0.9533,0,1,0,0,0,0,21.0,0,4,0,0,2,5,0,0,3,2,11,8,4,0,2,17,23,6,0,2,2,0,2,2,0,1,4,1,0,0,4,7,5,0,3,0,0,1,5,1,0,0,4,3,16,4,8,16,1,7,0,0,0,0,11,0,0,0,9,52,20,0,0.19834362502739109,0.0,0.193554766614852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2054241782208294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2214170817057189,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17085547041630053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20295504494329267,0.0,0.0,0.17567358026736932,0.20494198524631554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20057699274593285,0.1416967253504984,0.0,0.21727574625770826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20281979478224316,0.0,0.1938013529297996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2002705198659464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1529748311177489,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1958404013613341,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18867020763415748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14038863866342288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17336107062309378,0.182608161618786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12709058615299065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3790516670859789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21844748119139454,0.0,0.11698820894728044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2021290988728557,0.14089762046284712,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,edub12345,2019/01/14,"Mortifying experiences that push you towards recovery? Hi friends! I remember a thread like this on the old sub but couldn't find one like this here so I'd like to start it. DAE have experiences in mind that we're so awful that it felt like the final straw at the time??

Caution / trigger warning my story is NSFL, graphic and so gross:

I was housesitting for a family I only sort of know... binging on all their expensive organic snacks (I always go shopping before they come home to replace them). I usually purge in a trash can at home but didn't want to stink up their garbage outside so I thought the toilet was my best bet. But boy oh boy I thought WRONG.

The toilet got clogged with all the puke and I tried to plunge it... but every time I thought I maybe got it and tried to flush, it would fill up more. Long story short... the toilet overflowed all over the bathroom floor about an inch deep of puke water. As it was happening I started screaming and crying, and facetimed my dad to tell me how to turn the plumbing off. It only took a matter of minutes to flood the whole bathroom... every second I felt my anxiety rise more and more. Even once the water was off it took me hours to clean up and sanitize. Probably one of the worst emotional breakdowns in my life :( I ended up having to call my brother to unclog it before the family came home. He doesn't know about my ED didn't ask any questions.

On the bright side, this experience caused me to go 14 days b/p free. Anyone else want to share their horror stories? (Can mods mark this NSFW)?",3.0241362085769983,5.071440753289477,3.9004532163742702,87.15224658869398,75.67763157894737,6.7405458089668615,25.07504873294347,7.662118739084242,1.299949463937622,1215,42,240,17,27,389,175,304,0.161,0.726,0.114,-0.97,1,0,0,0,0,0,43.0,0,1,5,1,10,14,0,0,19,1,14,4,0,3,3,38,36,17,0,4,4,2,2,4,1,1,1,1,4,2,16,10,3,0,10,1,4,9,4,5,0,3,16,5,29,10,38,18,9,42,0,0,1,0,18,22,0,3,15,146,45,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08544657764198156,0.0,0.0,0.06983294312993865,0.0,0.07855781836890433,0.0,0.0,0.07180346365819174,0.10521837444153023,0.0,0.0,0.09600159270179172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17476380797386867,0.0,0.10776716172237663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1048583043857434,0.11745037601076767,0.0,0.10549125222760464,0.0,0.08845862308770508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1128005012232986,0.06622676495739467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08578459049789149,0.11551279509040455,0.0909531487957341,0.0,0.0,0.06782599187468556,0.0,0.17304205742534734,0.0,0.0,0.301352530879737,0.19361460043044146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1971976340444501,0.11249223274783,0.09385709763722247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07933829118846264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11672255761183738,0.0,0.16426166939836714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0908087162050055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3090203097213116,0.0,0.10112928578946312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11287183524970484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07253321421802883,0.20067722491920725,0.0,0.0,0.09087770709715748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10316623505675693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1036879556108748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10775622283984576,0.10936184581644837,0.1391712451851334,0.15620124076136493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11071753996931913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11503666698523625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11632812115630392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14536948267521138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0897558712458188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24457394484008385,0.11975910989202093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22818546146506904,0.13943998126500062,0.11169758649632508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11309888618775267,0.0,0.12113882986313622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11465008177585025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07294826131179245,0.11227575096171397,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,alixdyer,2019/01/14,"I’m not sure I will ever understand myself.. Me yesterday: I am going to choose happiness because I deserve to be happy! Eating means better moods, better energy, and fewer explanations to people about my habits. 

Me today, seeing my thighs have grown ever so slightly: Haha jk time to starve bitch! ",4.931698113207549,7.700861792452834,6.355320754716981,68.37788679245286,72.58490566037736,8.013584905660379,23.807547169811322,8.841846274778883,2.4614709433962263,237,7,32,5,5,80,43,53,0.127,0.5710000000000001,0.302,0.8999,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,2,4,8,1,0,0,1,4,2,1,0,3,8,9,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,3,0,0,2,1,1,0,0,0,1,8,6,5,7,0,7,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,5,22,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14293410052860928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41474908557085866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2399269936022394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.424193063217351,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13325784137567934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4992071016991581,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2554125798834144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16255580218716506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18684663160868814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22099040247928925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13672456117998066,0.0,0.22225537623891456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2440972853037517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,GuavaSama,2019/01/14,"No i'm not naturally skinny Today at school, someone told me i'm so lucky that i can eat soo much and still be so skinny. Lmao what?

First of all, im not even skinny. Also, i would've loved to tell everyone how much i struggle with food.. But no hAhA im naturally skinny, no work at all. I didnt weight those cucumber silces :)",1.521739130434785,3.1006274782608765,4.115289855072465,86.04076086956526,78.56521739130434,6.918840579710146,20.195652173913047,7.793537801064563,0.6908434782608692,252,6,55,4,6,89,49,69,0.115,0.657,0.228,0.8955,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,2,6,4,0,1,0,1,3,8,4,1,2,9,7,6,0,0,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,2,7,0,0,0,0,0,6,1,0,1,2,1,5,3,5,4,4,5,0,0,0,1,3,2,0,1,3,34,8,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17274661743115186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22103663340093047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1426754572318968,0.0,0.0,0.20641099215125472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1837417167979757,0.2612054393737348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4666651859316489,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1949614069619505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31759084072440513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2186180796881482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18302827871920566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1725093586999314,0.0,0.0,0.22582512622137016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18880608473672725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2047563693502152,0.20641099215125472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2630473138149657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15726103752533488,0.0,0.0,0.15345041405603665,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,blackandwhiteyes,2019/01/14,"Is medicine that effective? I’m asking because i was at my doctor/therapist, told her how i relapsed, lost motivation and as a result stopped taking my medicine (i was prescribed fluoxetine). I was also telling her some other stuff like how i feel about my body, negative thoughts, etc. but all she could say throughout this whole time was I should just continue taking my medicine, which i don’t disagree but that was the only thing she kept saying over and over. So, does anybody know how effective it really is? I haven’t had much success with it but it helped a bit. I’m curious. ",3.3948181818181813,5.989295390909097,3.971818181818183,84.3977272727273,76.9090909090909,7.2727272727272725,29.09090909090909,8.296473431620573,2.3294545454545466,463,21,85,9,11,146,75,110,0.078,0.762,0.16,0.8796,0,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,0,5,7,3,0,0,3,0,12,1,1,7,1,23,23,11,0,2,4,0,1,1,0,1,0,2,0,0,10,3,0,2,6,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,10,3,16,2,6,11,6,6,0,1,0,0,10,3,0,1,4,64,26,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16171017693397668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1890424590010665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12326755965324218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22076492485112667,0.2246137711323393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16145113934677266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20697423173260396,0.17695852133791146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22552166426771436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1022452935415613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13553954215793246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11113132963245738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09879137157150783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2207400780980895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14865029431509005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15379258729733006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1295432374294384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3216168097226886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16905965974587578,0.0,0.0,0.2314862415933669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30407898688226903,0.0,0.17674363656443826,0.0,0.0,0.23478562468032396,0.13434175888037272,0.0,0.0,0.16053504474583488,0.11791240116240305,0.0,0.0,0.19322380118499385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2257643105037317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,LucifersLittleGirl,2019/01/14,"Love you guys I went looking for proED after unsubbing to recover and was so sad to see it was banned. It gave me a sense of community and acceptance when I felt crazy in all other aspects. The reassurance that other people understand is so comforting when you feel like a nutcase bc you happily made banana brownies then THROW THEM ALL AWAY CRYING (maybe I’m projecting). I’m just so glad y’all are here, love u. ♥️",2.252750677506775,4.829743109756102,4.080406504065042,82.03600271002712,81.3170731707317,8.034688346883469,24.96476964769648,8.841846274778883,2.3160607046070463,333,13,63,9,9,112,64,82,0.129,0.604,0.267,0.9341,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,4,1,0,7,8,0,0,3,0,4,2,0,1,2,11,16,8,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,5,2,0,1,4,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,6,4,8,7,7,10,2,8,0,1,2,2,10,2,0,0,5,39,13,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25179239089547684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2943825733444721,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13550754413625635,0.19145740497482847,0.2573195435210368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2653595727800408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13092999863182725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22505032955216825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4837562560369749,0.2535856315296251,0.0,0.0,0.2692394220673541,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.185795661744622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2135592399496082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2789947577562213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24843628625617206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Brdbrnz,2019/01/14,Got a new scale And I swear it’s fucking with me. My old one died and so now I have to trust that this one is accurate but it seems to fluctuate based on what kind of flooring I put it on. So now I’ve literally been weighing myself in 3 different areas of my house and I feel like I can’t trust any of the readings. It also has additional readings like body fat and bmi which I don’t trust either but I can fixate on them still. I want to throw it off my balcony!! ,1.0624972497249736,2.637023148514853,3.2737953795379537,91.57909790979099,79.89108910891089,6.469086908690867,22.113311331133108,7.3871296695380915,0.619870407040704,362,11,85,5,9,124,69,101,0.033,0.775,0.192,0.953,1,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,1,0,6,7,1,0,2,0,7,4,2,0,0,12,12,9,1,1,3,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,9,6,2,0,2,2,0,2,2,1,0,2,2,1,14,6,12,10,1,14,0,0,0,1,1,7,1,1,7,59,23,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17520627112493953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.148988778632191,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2433597070360957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2273809304430736,0.22890252003484185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1107785357801308,0.15651800881321015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.202545263969432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17522636454123175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2528005559187876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22814862115424275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21407270909646134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2115985805680978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2298982014985988,0.0,0.2969222391539842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2202460602101708,0.0,0.0,0.4382987710558064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19945139552907828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17496563418392658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12922501542473158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,thyme1999,2019/01/14,"DAE feel incredibly guilty and privileged for your ED being your biggest concern? Not to say that EDs aren’t extremely harmful, emotionally traumatizing , horrible to go through and VERY dangerous, but I sometimes just feel so guilty for my biggest concern in life rn being how little I can eat. There’s so many people who can’t even afford food and would love to eat, meanwhile I’m over here fully able to afford food and everything essential to life but I’ve made this decision NOT to.  It’s like I’m wasting food even though I don’t waste anything, I just avoid it. I feel ungrateful and wasteful. 

I just feel so invalid and unable to talk to anybody about this because it’s just FOOD, it’s just EATING, but I’ve managed to make something so vital and easy so complicated for myself.  I’m hurting myself on purpose but I still need serious help. It feels as illogical as like, if I held my breath and then complained that I couldn’t breathe. In my brain it almost feels like nobody would take me seriously if I tried to talk about this because there’s nothing stopping me from being free and happy and healthy besides anorexia. A mean and degrading voice in my head that I encourage everyday I starve.

I know people stigmatize EDs as a rich white girl problem and this probably contributes to my guilt. And I just feel so stupid, other people have “real” problems like money relationships grades jobs and I choose to fixate on FOOD. 

God the self judgement with this illness just never ends does it",5.779468085106384,7.267403648936174,5.935241134751773,77.62350000000002,67.47517730496453,8.760567375886525,32.53971631205674,9.120678840339163,2.9486192907801425,1207,52,210,22,20,383,157,282,0.229,0.635,0.136,-0.9807,4,1,1,0,0,1,21.0,0,2,0,0,23,23,2,2,3,0,11,16,4,3,1,56,30,32,0,8,15,0,7,4,0,2,3,2,0,2,17,15,8,3,11,0,3,1,7,12,0,0,2,10,26,12,29,22,0,16,0,1,1,1,13,9,0,3,10,131,43,3,0.09451469893157766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0946428183600006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07777754404642775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11523056642994127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10550966189528163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08271044995834012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29013639788237816,0.0,0.10631631496733626,0.08371196980447337,0.0,0.0,0.12485213450990358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08494371705673373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33452630140130657,0.06752131980164887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5714377455682895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053714881494907184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1006126545063497,0.0,0.0,0.09699934859510058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06335121040948859,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10117994000575288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09379125483229987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05194280675987961,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13351705397418442,0.18470043110448206,0.09472855823176383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08530320588596542,0.08943209339887404,0.06308929545549316,0.09582307004803073,0.0,0.10295421506992858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07008145166636319,0.07289556246239971,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0906894027003752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1965737751861876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10190283113289997,0.1808756047772308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10757841928504852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10147341551385647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0751618821326307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09859944387554707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07276203280793454,0.0934774539779242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0754795606563717,0.07901852039486702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07106329109713365,0.15193466969607522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09286021182293763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06416927646676232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07798452499857132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1342810607236067,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,isthischick4real,2019/01/14,"For those who like supersize vs superskinny and shows like that I found a show called ""my big fat pet make over"" where a dog trainer goes around doing interventions for the owners of obese cats. May not be up your alley but I thought the show was hilarious (esp ep 3 w Beau Nugget)",6.74793939393939,6.31856112727273,6.578181818181817,80.55393939393942,65.0,10.242424242424242,29.24242424242424,9.725611199111238,2.218151515151514,222,6,47,4,3,70,49,55,0.0,0.867,0.133,0.7227,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,1,0,0,2,2,0,0,4,0,4,2,1,1,0,9,7,2,0,0,3,0,0,2,0,1,2,0,1,0,3,2,2,0,2,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,0,4,2,6,2,0,5,0,0,0,0,4,5,0,1,2,25,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3954391936213682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4535859142039695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4870510160494962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4340350678857151,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2965122113916108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3526514407883288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ceruleanohara,2019/01/15,"He saw my wrist bone. He thought it was a growth.  ""What the hell is that???"" Then he checked the other arm. Sames. He then checked his own (obviously no outward poking bone because hey-- YOURE FUCKING NORMAL) 
.
Are you sure that's okay? Do you need a doctor?

No, that's what happens when you have an 18 bmi.

Oh.

Goes on upon his life. Forgets the whole conversation.

Me? Probably up all night.

Fuck.",-0.2769736842105281,1.4123324868421072,0.8572368421052623,97.37690789473686,112.28947368421049,3.478947368421053,19.223684210526315,5.602791699666715,-0.15040526315789424,303,11,63,3,16,94,59,76,0.158,0.762,0.08,-0.8253,0,0,0,0,0,0,24.0,0,4,0,0,1,5,3,0,6,1,5,8,4,0,3,8,11,3,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,7,0,0,0,1,0,2,1,2,3,0,0,3,1,8,2,3,8,4,9,1,0,1,2,12,4,3,0,4,38,15,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17285631203408167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2902369648918762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5242956308204005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2507522855373532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20028770367682647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21025708112625585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26610303332568025,0.27782982881647994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3057269979866724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2672531315216231,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22511596615567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3165860199745255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,velocity2ds,2019/01/15,"I told someone I have ED and they asked if it was for overeating triggeredT 
This girl was maybe thinner than me but also much shorter and just diff body frames like I have boobs so I’m not going to look delicate tiny ever anyway. Lmao now I’m like oh maybe my heavy winter jacket made me look more blah blah but wow lmao

I just met this girl tonight too and so few people even know I have ED but somehow I just told this girl cause of what we were talking about (wasn’t anything about overeating) and then that lol ",0.24267857142857,2.650076285714288,0.792232142857145,101.07120535714287,95.66666666666666,3.0059523809523814,17.038690476190474,4.557286568694721,-0.9752738095238098,410,11,88,1,16,123,71,105,0.034,0.7340000000000001,0.231,0.9784,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,1,0,1,0,14,3,0,0,0,1,7,2,2,2,1,18,18,12,0,1,8,0,0,4,0,0,0,0,0,3,6,5,0,0,1,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,8,2,11,3,8,10,3,8,0,0,2,1,10,2,1,2,7,57,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17407644061617314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17912985253338787,0.0,0.20349887070910924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2417903840897853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22361452652864888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14377378919220918,0.1969015602603592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12371101349365705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11962973926655948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21269224550758115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.365588180286104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20597150371230136,0.0,0.0,0.4373721672425696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16001784563925334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15091001647816615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1844372513067722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17496075063209046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41599993507327215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,sorrowfulspookyghost,2019/01/15,How to deal with heavy guilt/shame from my ed? Pls help I just feel so guilty and horrible for making my dad spend his money on food just for me to eat it then throw it up. Wtf. He just wants the best for me and wants me to he happy and i do this? And when he buys me food specifically (like tapioca and rice pudding cause he knows I never tried it) and i just b/p it I feel so so so horrible. Like right now I feel like crying just thinking about it. Why am I like this lol ,-0.26301573426573555,1.5927136250000018,1.7126573426573408,99.62325174825176,85.82692307692308,5.320279720279721,15.223776223776223,6.574015621080383,-0.7258346153846151,363,6,93,4,11,120,62,104,0.146,0.6629999999999999,0.191,0.5436,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,1,13,6,0,0,1,1,2,3,0,3,1,23,10,13,0,2,5,1,3,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,7,7,3,0,5,0,3,1,1,0,0,0,0,3,14,6,11,10,1,8,0,0,0,0,8,3,0,0,8,56,21,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21122862905658252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2067677410202437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2210942076369576,0.0,0.20750856960526987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2059574343724347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30531630414730426,0.14379289768489512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4867718197639947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2142639565952908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13491226390991548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11061701281655416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3933366567801337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13435449178264305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1552378446634385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1718901380271305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12897068444035184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1366544112674998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23743771802608224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18162190413821036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,fuck_you_get_pumped,2019/01/15,am i allowed to ask for mfp usernames? my feed is so lonely. ,-1.5138461538461527,0.4529333846153882,1.468076923076925,96.11442307692309,99.76923076923076,2.6,21.884615384615387,3.1291,-0.3081999999999998,46,2,10,0,2,16,13,13,0.228,0.772,0.0,-0.5009,1,2,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,1,0,1,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,2,3,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,7,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,PiggySmiggyGiggy,2019/01/15,"Finally getting back on track. I fell off the track a little bit and went through a binge cycle, and just didn’t care. 

Then I weighed myself last week, and that sure did put me in my place. 

I’m back on track, I’m not *loosing* any weight, but I’m not gaining either. Which is what I was aiming for. 

I am so happy, but I will be happier when I am smaller. ",0.05289473684210577,1.9736898157894769,2.088684210526313,97.0082894736842,85.05263157894737,4.852631578947369,20.026315789473685,5.985473137389443,-0.16581052631578966,270,8,64,2,8,90,55,76,0.039,0.767,0.194,0.918,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,1,5,3,0,0,3,0,8,2,0,0,1,10,14,8,0,0,6,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,3,2,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,0,0,4,1,9,3,6,8,2,16,0,0,0,0,0,6,0,0,7,43,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17379645438652144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3930353139139237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2790163932694502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2605707835597845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2799645886500583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13352484628052105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2720591590004497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20832376897404373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2561484140569249,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26701639376752145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2569185727176471,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24087182590570794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20500294502620187,0.31121557113044024,0.0,0.23691607383842544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,erinaceoushuman,2019/01/15,I'll just have a breakdown for lunch Wanted to grab some quick protein because it was my first day back at college. I went to the food court and ordered grilled chicken nuggets and the cashier accidentally rung it as a meal. They were super apologetic and then she gave me fries AND 12 extra FRIED nuggets. I feel like such an ass because I was trying to be polite but wanted to scream SCREW THE MONEY DONT GIVE ME ALL THAT FOOD. ,4.802499999999998,6.095210440476192,4.479523809523811,87.88214285714287,69.59523809523809,6.552380952380951,29.47619047619048,6.42735559955562,1.286633333333334,343,13,68,2,6,104,65,84,0.118,0.833,0.049,-0.7184,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,1,2,4,4,1,0,6,0,6,6,1,0,1,11,12,7,0,2,2,0,2,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,3,4,4,0,1,0,1,1,1,2,0,1,5,3,8,2,7,6,3,8,0,0,0,2,4,1,2,1,6,44,11,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1980366457128002,0.0,0.3139947776002565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1660955862035072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3018414895171054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1302227783877892,0.1839906064098425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2190681299673644,0.6228502502109879,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24706117820391635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12582375619619893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17485653604940524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30381409949691235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2387473232936169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,animeprofilepicture,2019/01/15,"need help breaking out of binge cycle for the past two months ive been binging (2000+cal daily) and i just feel so nauseous and heavy and sick all the time. i really need some motivation/help to break out of it to try and achieve normal eating patterns again (yes, non ed eating patterns)",11.930727272727275,7.6048563454545475,10.367727272727274,69.71159090909093,58.27272727272727,12.454545454545455,42.04545454545455,8.841846274778883,3.81609090909091,229,8,42,2,2,71,42,55,0.06,0.8909999999999999,0.049,-0.1531,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,2,1,2,3,0,0,1,13,5,5,0,3,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,6,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,3,0,7,4,2,8,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,4,24,4,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5651217177194299,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1396250271916747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3701825600736493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22041285984672648,0.0,0.0,0.40950963720886335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27055924060916164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26360752934248904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1769027934887839,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16101985380719738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1874813984373532,0.0,0.2697493239636149,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,SarcasticVerbacity,2019/01/15,"Sometimes I think my troubles with food, and my constant warring on what to do is just a manifestation of how much I don't like myself. I have a lot of trouble sticking with any sort of plan when it comes to losing weight. I've never been noticeably overweight, just middle healthy BMI and I could have lost all the extra weight quickly when this first started 8 months ago. 


I've never liked my body. Not even when I was a kid, or when I was in middle school and my breasts went from an A cup to a D cup so fast the stretch marks can still faintly be seen. I just didn't like it, and I was constantly reminded of it as a competitive swimmer.


Then in high school I quit and I gained about 10 pounds and lost all the muscle. Still healthy and normal BMI but have wanted to lose weight since, and so I started 8 months ago.


The whole situation just reminds me of how much I loathe myself; my personality, my voice, my reactions, my facial expressions. I just don't like anything about who I am. And just like my body, this goes way back to when I was a kid, from elementary school until now. 


It's like my inability to curb myself for any substantial amount of time, is exactly like my inability to get past gaining and losing the same 2 pounds for the last 6 months.


Sorry for the really long post, just been on my mind today.",4.889251336898397,5.4570038787878765,5.439955436720144,83.72037433155083,68.92424242424242,8.484491978609626,28.02941176470589,8.4952907291091,1.754358556149732,1040,33,217,15,17,335,139,264,0.174,0.772,0.054000000000000006,-0.9815,0,0,0,0,0,0,26.0,0,0,0,10,24,15,1,0,15,0,19,10,4,2,5,39,29,24,1,3,10,0,3,7,0,0,2,1,0,3,8,13,5,1,1,0,0,2,6,8,0,1,11,5,31,7,28,16,9,42,0,5,1,1,5,8,0,3,37,148,39,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17312310462405428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13281180055732925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08035829731839922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07508744627124513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21693607512790644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08411752734837491,0.0,0.21105167187605745,0.0,0.07796622691086373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06449743990241362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08306173021392176,0.1180797486480712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05101851851999553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10317344354881994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07959844449645335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3339507771057127,0.0,0.0,0.08641789511604155,0.0,0.32773883923154384,0.213194791773533,0.08301922774828023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09859948230425393,0.0,0.2338318378296686,0.0,0.14356916431594896,0.0,0.15062865132508646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0956770618517662,0.0,0.1111760958997483,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09321874881341073,0.0,0.08526492186705177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09352248405595297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10386365790235844,0.0,0.0,0.06255761021604328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2964835031160871,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08077776020988756,0.1097636033191662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09657914930871384,0.10931208846999632,0.13823549370000085,0.0,0.1559681281030484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06257069691943122,0.0,0.0,0.056940973360907275,0.0,0.09256155111062432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05759697855493071,0.07751066874541926,0.0,0.3567371426754222,0.0,0.0905232804044324,0.0,0.10902364351422894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,everybhodyhurt,2019/01/15,"electrolytes are important!!! please do not forget this. im serious, they are so important. water w/ electrolytes is good for you <3",3.3567391304347822,6.4076715217391325,3.5829347826086964,79.61614130434783,94.65217391304348,7.517391304347825,27.48913043478261,8.07648339933343,3.1550956521739133,107,5,16,3,4,33,20,23,0.045,0.5589999999999999,0.396,0.8419,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,1,1,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,0,0,2,4,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,1,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,10,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.478294820323603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6159629302766106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6259582521036556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,woulddieforabba,2019/01/15,"Anyone else gain over Christmas, big trigger I gained so much weight over the holidays and now I feel like I’m spiralling out of control and I’m just going to get bigger, I have no self control whatsoever I feel so disgusting, I can’t see my ribs anymore and I have a double chin and I just want to die ",1.0128571428571431,3.311152825396828,2.9041269841269863,90.27142857142859,84.23809523809524,5.504761904761906,23.285714285714285,6.868970318607317,0.8088476190476189,240,9,50,3,7,80,44,63,0.157,0.6579999999999999,0.185,-0.0171,0,0,0,0,0,1,3.0,0,0,0,4,5,2,1,0,2,0,3,2,1,3,0,13,11,6,1,1,2,0,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,5,1,2,2,1,0,1,2,1,0,0,0,4,8,1,6,11,2,7,0,0,1,0,1,5,0,0,2,31,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2495668045743817,0.17595785661506966,0.2578427098083493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5644883743987799,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2611704841066169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2102192833825558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2544811806508311,0.17977709939657355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1314754873159606,0.0,0.14301713322477566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12294230866192868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1849899447255281,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20053056037464348,0.0,0.26252333446877074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14842827747866774,0.0,0.0,0.3064389888060762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,philoqueen,2019/01/15,"Every time I've ""recovered""... ...I end up relapsing, and it's always worse than before and I hit a new low weight I never would have been able to achieve during the previous bout. 

And that tends to be the only motivation to ""recover,"" so I can relapse worse than ever before. 

How totally messed up is that. I don't even trust myself to recover. I don't trust myself to do it for me and not so I can relapse. 

UGH. When will this END.",0.6860227272727286,2.9532628295454586,3.262454545454545,87.34618181818182,85.47727272727272,6.701818181818182,20.163636363636364,7.908726449838941,1.0454509090909083,331,10,69,7,10,115,57,88,0.22,0.753,0.026,-0.9501,0,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,0,0,2,6,5,0,0,3,0,11,1,0,2,3,11,13,8,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,5,4,1,0,1,0,0,0,4,3,0,0,1,1,10,2,10,8,1,10,0,1,0,0,0,3,0,0,7,52,15,2,0.2338991133994897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.194622799615684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3980618360384848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4143303790739661,0.0,0.0,0.1544881584452867,0.21157513904679706,0.1970700910251112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18039741567664128,0.2259012212388565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17789081563802786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13638845399008626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2848261073325542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4767263582287529,0.16615521926558802,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,sensitivebaby,2019/01/15,(TMI maybe) I noticed a bunch of these weird feathery things on my breasts! I was checking out my breasts and freaked out because I noticed all of these weird fucking white feathery hairs on the tops and sides and pretty much all over them. It's like they're not really hairs because they come right out like nothing. Not like plucking a hair where it hangs on before coming out. These white things just slide right out and they're like little tufts of white fibers. It's so weird. Anyone else??? Is this just the beginning stage of developing a bunch of lanugo or something?? I know lanugo is a side effect of being anorexic but when I look up lanugo it doesn't really fit the description of what I have.,4.313919191919194,6.265982533333332,3.88080808080808,89.09818181818181,71.81481481481481,6.390572390572393,25.60606060606061,6.980632752743323,1.0070000000000001,562,18,108,5,11,168,78,135,0.066,0.838,0.096,0.5943,0,0,1,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,2,2,5,9,1,0,7,0,6,6,5,1,2,21,12,8,0,0,6,0,3,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,11,11,0,0,2,0,1,4,3,5,0,0,1,7,10,4,17,10,5,25,0,0,4,3,2,18,1,1,6,69,21,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12828670966681596,0.18798701853507285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22368360139390506,0.0,0.15611972425548226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31608686042220124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15326590521422834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16961534918359447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10083048658466504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35853731252441645,0.18388545432531536,0.0,0.0,0.15406885584575708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1843205908164398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13487179138695926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17604471480764206,0.4177643377629301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18665526842767294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2350715627530504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3133652919216609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1412444115087786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2437790488307361,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Alixxsupergr8,2019/01/15,"People commenting on my weight loss is such a double sided sword. On one hand- yesssss. Tell me I'm skinny. 😏 


On the other- comments about my body send me into such an anxiety. Please pretend I'm a floating, talking spirit. 😫 

I've been treating my body so positively recently, i don't know what to do now.",0.990860655737702,3.5491279836065566,3.246045081967213,85.3710348360656,88.8360655737705,5.67295081967213,24.018442622950825,7.1686216300943375,1.3826868852459022,241,10,45,4,8,82,48,61,0.087,0.726,0.187,0.8001,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,1,5,2,0,0,4,0,4,5,4,0,0,2,7,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,2,0,1,1,0,1,1,1,0,1,1,2,6,1,6,6,1,8,1,1,0,0,5,5,0,0,2,28,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2223692491848382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6457594511012305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15975001457351246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19697215339286397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20152077133561894,0.0,0.0,0.31907912775250663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2870112318015759,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2336374101843594,0.25406695492913683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3539696833205772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,SpiritedStrawberry,2019/01/15,"Does anybody else stop showing up at a foodplace when they're recognized as a regular? I know I made a post similar to this on proed, but since it's happening again I'm making a post about it here lol

Does anybody else stop showing up at a place when they're recognized as a regular? I was given free food at a fast food place because I'm ""there all the time"", and now I haven't been back there in 6 months.

Two days ago I was at the grocery store (AGAIN, I go several times a week and just pace around until I buy one or two things). I usually go to the store in a hoodie and hat to kinda hide, but decided to forego the hat this time. I stopped at the in-store starbucks, and the guy said (probably just trying to be friendly and make conversation) ""oh hey, no hat today?""

Guys I wanted to sink into the fucking ground. I NEVER go to the starbucks itself which means this employee recognized me from pacing around the store. This is the closest store to my house and I never want to go there again. I'm 26 hours into a retaliatory fast now.

Anybody have similar feelings? Why am I the way that I am ",3.220244222689076,4.501911397321432,4.562216386554621,85.82248949579831,73.41964285714286,7.949159663865548,26.569327731092443,8.4952907291091,1.7186415966386552,859,30,181,15,17,285,120,224,0.065,0.875,0.06,0.711,1,0,0,0,0,0,26.0,0,0,0,0,17,3,1,0,21,1,9,3,0,3,3,31,28,14,0,2,5,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,2,10,10,2,3,4,2,6,4,4,1,0,3,6,2,16,3,28,21,1,51,0,0,0,1,6,18,1,2,26,114,26,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10573581854461582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2123715796592652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09172008105048544,0.0,0.07271287176993221,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07692667472669122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20876802147842208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1992887103586921,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06031229091644536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2884712333217148,0.0,0.09215656122645788,0.11027378903543564,0.0,0.0,0.2711616135394732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2362148004819657,0.1054802024278989,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11746821210840355,0.13763479147869115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06555397173366856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11286700292986215,0.1592426035083226,0.0,0.0,0.12993248007862898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09520932451853524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18399443307946106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08082820530757295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2492474789024069,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22847733525702965,0.0,0.12860559003959396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11346398501956992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13475409932130353,0.0,0.09867085753274354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2991739285295467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07924530277304606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.208661938224258,0.0,0.11306487824018965,0.0,0.0,0.08098428248435012,0.0,0.2330413111264637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13137167783015602,0.0,0.14071059287960824,0.0946800720046554,0.09568039342902072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1076329659148916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,fiercepusheenicorn,2019/01/15,"This pain is so unbearable I’m trying really hard to not engage in bulimic behaviors.  Yesterday I binged but I refused to purge.  Like 3000 calories of various snack single serving bags. I buy everything in single serving bags bc it helps cut down my binge behavior.  Clearly it doesn’t always work.

I ate my daily maintenance calories over the course of the day so it isn’t like I was restricting or even that hungry.  The binge started because of my night snack.  Peanut butter jelly toast.  Was still hungry so I ate 2 belvita snack bags and a sigis yogurt.  Then all hell broke loose and I ate the rest of the bags of belvitas, the rest of my bags of goldfish crackers and the rest of my bags of Annie’s cookies.  I didn’t purge.  I just couldn’t.  I passed out soon after.

I am in so.  Much.  Pain.  Right now.  My stomach and intestines are in such distress.  I will not go into tmi.  But like.  No stomach medication I am on (doc put me on omeprazole again a week ago) or can take (alka seltzer chews) is helping.  Luckily I only had one class today so I can live on the toilet the rest of today.  This is so bad.  Why do I do this.  Why did this happen.  Why can’t I stop this???

I know I’m ignoring some emotional triggers and not dealing with it.  But therapy isn’t until Thursday morning.  I’m beyond my ability to cope with my past trauma and current circumstances.  I can’t do it all right now.  I do not have a safe person/friend to talk to about anything.

I do not know how to self care in the meantime.  I don’t know what I can eat that will not increase feelings of gastrointestinal distress.  I know I need to eat something soon (it has been over 6 hours since I woke up) and I am hungry despite being bloated af.

I feel so sick and defeated I just cry.  Tears just come out.  I can’t do this right now.",0.6942301225078076,3.1467562707182317,2.473605572904156,91.34462887340858,88.50276243093924,5.247273600768676,21.95796300744655,6.800593979768761,0.7092167187124669,1398,51,285,19,46,460,187,362,0.209,0.7020000000000001,0.08900000000000001,-0.9942,1,0,1,0,0,0,47.0,0,0,0,2,22,17,2,2,13,0,35,16,3,2,3,47,55,23,0,2,14,0,3,3,0,2,4,0,0,1,15,14,9,5,6,0,1,5,16,11,0,1,10,4,39,6,39,41,12,47,1,2,0,0,6,19,1,3,26,194,54,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1091695097880524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1024748567510438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1013461021820574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10282931192916553,0.07507416763464615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12556476834736655,0.0,0.0,0.10608715971385434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13528002552350551,0.07942481067562017,0.1269674357034337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2520366976271824,0.0,0.1385328407112944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08134274061248027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11068380641354156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1245417744747392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09514927629372713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0699918457881674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10890559273004867,0.0,0.11032272327726488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16509645096750605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12128290401556067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2707311507993753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1805019912233069,0.0,0.10874815421223516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12406574348013515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09053312279194642,0.0913178996421702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1155726597246911,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08345304052999288,0.09366495542058884,0.2620912854571003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11756541835493015,0.0,0.10753422823090136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12380482810355364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07889627043863222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31552118675671004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1284775629857932,0.0,0.0,0.10187511947686044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09481076449939456,0.0,0.0,0.08716976925355863,0.0,0.09835177184781244,0.10296312567330276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09259726119179484,0.09898735392585847,0.0,0.0,0.14083851818351126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2334731503784413,0.0,0.0,0.08361418619578896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09878754229879724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3333847967802356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08965833390028226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,batsinabox,2019/01/15,school & ed food went back to school today and at lunch i ate coffee and ten pickles as a meal and lemme tell you i do not recommend. stomach ache and constipation ensued. 0/10. ,3.5124761904761925,5.518538914285713,4.131428571428572,86.22190476190477,74.14285714285714,6.9523809523809526,23.095238095238088,7.793537801064563,1.0476666666666667,142,4,28,2,3,45,30,35,0.062,0.875,0.064,0.0191,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,5,1,0,0,5,3,5,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,4,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,2,0,3,0,3,1,0,4,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,2,15,3,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3452982355881799,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2450513443106624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3853587061350881,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6450583918034111,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2785472947999149,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30207889144613004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29542690098134505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,daintyyeo,2019/01/15,"Vent about my ED phases # I'm sorry for my bad english i hope you guys still get what  i mean

I'm so fucking tired of everything repeating itself in the same order it makes me want to rip my stomach apart. its just so mind torturing because there is no good,just evil. back in the day i was pro ana, but now i absolutely dont get why people still are? of course i'll repeat everthing ana blogs already said, but its just true, and i want u 2 know that, because i didnt get it, and i dont wanr anybody to experience the same circle of hell i am in rn.

I've been in this comunity since january 2016, which may not seem long, but if i know one thing, the its that ed's make every second feel unbearebly long.

First, i get into thinspo posts again, it doesnt matter on which social media plattform, or maybe rl trigger, and everything is great. From all phases i like this one the most. Usually everything feels great and i do the most to restrict as much as is possible. This phase usually lasts about 3 weeks, depending on how stressed or determind i am.

Secondly, i start to binge. I mostly binge because i'm forced to, by my parents.

After that, my hunger regenerates and i binge on my own, mostly on fear foods. During this part i feel horrible, like the worst human being that has ever existed.

Afterwards i try to keep up a healthy diet, which is followed by forced recovery. I usually forget counting calories and eat what i want again until smt triggers me again.

Do you guys also have smt like this? please let me know, i would be happy to read your story!

Thank you for reading this mess of a post. 

xoxo <3

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EDAnonymous,bighugegiantmess,2019/01/15,"Am I the only fat one here or...? Am I the only one who feels like everyone around me is model-thin and gorgeous? I’m in college, and when I go out to the bar it’s, like, every single fcking girl there is so hot and thin, I feel embarrassed to even be there. I have drunk-cried in the bathroom over it. My roommate is one of them, too, and I can’t take it. She doesn’t know how to cook, so she just eats ramen and pizza. One night, she sat on the couch and legit only ate graham crackers dipped in icing. She weighs no more than 120 lb at 6’0, probably less. She always laughs about “forgetting” to eat, meanwhile I’m still thinking about the cup of soup I ate 4 hours ago.

Gah. Just needed to rant. Sort of looking for advice but not really... just validation. <3 ",0.25157894736842223,2.5275687070063704,2.138364063023804,94.44916862219245,88.04458598726114,4.833925578276903,16.543412671806905,6.339386263674448,-0.3459477707006364,585,13,128,6,19,193,107,157,0.034,0.91,0.056,0.507,0,0,0,0,0,0,32.0,0,0,1,0,16,5,0,1,6,0,9,9,1,1,0,22,22,12,0,1,6,0,4,2,0,0,1,0,1,1,4,8,9,0,4,2,0,1,4,1,0,4,3,5,15,4,20,18,3,15,0,0,1,0,8,9,0,2,7,84,19,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1710503883990118,0.1551654160283448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14565013446603306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15582574081328016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19227695976131498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3582262036136013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11561451739158175,0.0,0.1474816173321952,0.16726147373123526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17701440893889678,0.12505104270990355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09948120030398183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17238249301692693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0961992769940399,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17103473070753092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14699237345458682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12979246601291128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1642663767795595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4744557625222135,0.3993851892344744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.188726395243672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11213728677047648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1397898884543752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13161085530020933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11216074526586377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,wheresmywinegums,2019/01/15,"Struggling hard with my mental health and restricting I have terrible depression on a good day. I’ve been on and off meds for it, but I’m permanently off anti-depressants and working more toward stabilizing my mindset— learning how to live within the darkness, as it were. 

But I’m also a fat POS and I hate myself for it. I lost a bunch of weight in the spring restricting before I even really knew what it was. I finally looked good enough for me to not hate myself as much. But then I ended up binging for like two months straight and gained most of it back. I’m still a normal BMI but I’m short and it all just shows up as FAT. I feel fat and ugly and stupid and worthless. I definitely have body dysmorphia too.

I’m back to restricting to try and get this awful binge weight off me but I’m hungry 24/7 and I’m scared I’m turning into a huge angry bitch from being hungry all the time. Eating more is out of the question because any time I get even close to maintenance, I freak out and binge. I high restrict between 1000-1200 cals. 

I’ve tried to purge but never been able to. I’ve been to therapy and it only made me feel worse. I should be smarter than this. I’m an adult with a master’s degree.  

I can’t stop crying in yoga class because all I can do is feel my fat. I feel like an utter failure. I was at my goal weight and binged it all back like a fucking idiot, of course I hate myself even more now. 

I’m scared I’m going to push away my friends and my boyfriend because I’m just a sad angry fat bitch. Halp pls. I’ve lurked this community for a long time and I know y’all are extremely understanding. I just don’t know what else to do other than starve back to where I was in hopes that this self-hatred fades a little. 

And my god, the fucking mood swings make me want to die in and of themselves. ",1.7667743161094231,3.697794864361704,3.1927993920972675,91.306,79.07978723404256,6.1056534954407296,20.849240121580547,7.110495986334442,0.41955677811550096,1423,38,309,17,35,465,188,376,0.276,0.623,0.101,-0.998,0,0,0,0,0,1,33.0,0,1,0,5,17,26,9,3,17,1,20,13,6,3,5,62,55,30,1,4,10,0,8,3,1,1,6,0,0,1,16,24,9,5,10,2,0,2,4,18,0,1,10,9,35,7,49,42,11,46,0,4,1,2,4,25,4,3,22,192,51,4,0.0969458231447942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07752753974333074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06592648415238897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09108379210588413,0.2981814155592469,0.0,0.17729182191140494,0.0,0.08249375509895203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10768495464247466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10649043449940387,0.06252203580054819,0.0,0.16699859083701005,0.0,0.1006144586527396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09919977962840512,0.08098579542115585,0.0,0.08586522426148686,0.1001709505606169,0.0,0.1920954056079084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19607488431227896,0.06925811542533238,0.0,0.10619941058072346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07490010247715591,0.17924970266636026,0.10130038260372748,0.0,0.05509654541055763,0.16262711378085634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08684441543745948,0.2871417887991773,0.0,0.10304887661184793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10242858484751287,0.0,0.0962890768884381,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10655777809614517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1420884967976124,0.09716518337265387,0.08560493796666907,0.08579400277599993,0.08141007501215411,0.0,0.10582781802707858,0.0,0.0,0.09173248191154383,0.06471208974580411,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10768495464247466,0.0,0.09769858782900147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07738123111707143,0.0,0.07126633474080109,0.0,0.07477059532968604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0949863231346654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07373166704771726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10860150901608563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.062105976746231376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19411936260705376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10113563663842157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0774210595934576,0.08105104909565226,0.0,0.10134882354583664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1108659976783368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16958966728016234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13163970044870366,0.10544921688762483,0.09470198243340963,0.10092402087181444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05718115827046635,0.0,0.0,0.3541616857006293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07057771386859123,0.0,0.0987960760979253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,megalita,2019/01/15,"Never lost my period? When I was around 15 BMI, I never lost my period. I wasn't taking any hormonal birth control, either. I'm curious how many of you with lower BMIs still had your period? I think for a long time, I used this as a measure that I was ""okay"" or ""still healthy."" 

Does anyone know what causes some people to lose their periods and others to keep menstruating normally?",2.8866602316602297,5.158175581081082,4.797722007722007,79.49418918918923,76.97297297297297,8.552895752895754,21.382239382239387,9.23628265651192,1.9561915057915056,299,8,55,8,7,102,58,74,0.069,0.835,0.096,0.2177,1,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,2,1,4,5,4,0,0,2,1,4,0,0,4,2,16,12,5,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,3,0,2,2,0,0,0,3,3,0,0,6,0,11,1,7,6,2,13,0,3,0,0,3,1,0,2,12,38,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1444039832977082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14847872224892475,0.0,0.0,0.1890348209956757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.218139982964552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2381664398721862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18582724502550066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1887447396828548,0.0,0.0,0.116700957181857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1879213779286618,0.0,0.23756319678322135,0.4636060503845748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2152876344631177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3275518765475202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2080560429666398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14721542886664776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33916291882279603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15965933704479807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13606408218190344,0.0,0.0,0.12382187925559215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1834005709977139,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,shouldntbeinwriting,2019/01/15,"DAE use your ED to punish/discipline yourself? This is my first post here as a long-time lurker. I guess I didn't want to participate because that'd be admitting to myself that I actually do have anorexia but....I'm spiraling lately. I had a presentation today, and I was really excited for it. I was super proud of my material, I worked for an entire month on it and it was on a subject that I'm really passionate about. I offered to go first, got up there in front of my very small class and as soon as I felt their eyes on me my whole body began to shake terribly. The paper I was reading off of shook in my hand like a leaf and I felt mortified but I pushed through, kept my voice level and spoke with conviction. I cracked a few jokes too, but I knew my classmates probably saw through it. I'm just so embarrassed and angry at myself...I wanted to knock it out of the park but my body betrayed me and revealed my weakness. So now I know I'll fast for way too long to punish myself, exercise to make myself black out, probably self harm, the usual.... it sucks. ",2.1877570093457948,4.239059224299069,4.077392523364487,84.88758411214954,78.25233644859813,7.644485981308411,24.25140186915888,8.548686976883017,1.7168437383177566,830,29,169,18,20,281,130,214,0.16899999999999998,0.763,0.069,-0.9774,0,0,0,0,0,0,31.0,0,1,1,5,11,14,2,3,9,0,11,7,4,2,0,26,30,15,0,2,4,0,3,1,0,0,2,2,0,1,10,10,0,1,6,3,0,5,1,8,0,2,14,8,31,6,32,14,2,31,0,0,3,1,6,12,1,1,13,115,41,4,0.0,0.0,0.15897671401048044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09930845769418292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3619126922083122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3128384017807229,0.0,0.0,0.2771424197978762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0925855387464098,0.0,0.1302940534186011,0.0,0.17946379266299448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08953110598075277,0.0,0.18376963835154544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07958962416273765,0.0,0.0,0.2883405450935889,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10874372699550812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13003325196613266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.156022800572669,0.0,0.3512891868194289,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16295414117267346,0.0,0.2087287060767331,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16995071714305932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15441968394455402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14070198184698052,0.17942241026168232,0.13441785702459672,0.19217714305552036,0.1293104191360599,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18188325899843927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1186004605791734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Dense_Necros,2019/01/15,Another case of classical conditioning I often use nicotine as an appetite suppressant and smoking to sate my oral fixation when it comes to binging. Its gotten to the point now that any time I feel hungry I immediately start craving a cigarette. S.O.S. 🙃,6.070333333333334,8.877856866666667,7.153055555555554,63.81625000000002,69.22222222222223,10.722222222222225,37.91666666666667,10.686352973137794,5.294666666666668,209,12,30,7,4,70,41,45,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,1,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,1,0,6,5,3,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,4,0,5,4,0,6,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,4,19,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3029037287335617,0.4670661086183151,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38369350582927575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2252198578946928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4210698407215289,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31527353977089284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2597304317291015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3847034932031097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,IkarosFalling,2019/01/15,"Is it possible to over hydrate? I've just put an end to a short binge cycle (about 3 days of 2000cal) and I was not really drinking water and drinking tons of beer. For the last few days I've been getting at least 4L of water and eating about 800-1000cal, so not even restricting super hard. I'm also back in the gym. I'm hoping to keep this going and push my water intake more because the bloat literally came off me so fast after I stopping binging with my water intake going up so much. I'm also drinking energy drinks and coffee which I know are mild diuretics. 

My main question is: is there anything wrong with drinking tons of water? If so what could it cause? What symptoms should I look out for and what precautions should I take? I also happen to love salt, so all my foods are pretty salt heavy. I've mostly been eating lettuce wraps with low cal salad dressing, salt, and some plain squash in them!",4.373553932101416,5.668348117318437,5.139776536312851,82.73744305973358,70.62011173184358,7.071938117748172,25.50107434464977,7.321109707123232,1.2758746024924794,719,21,133,7,13,233,113,179,0.064,0.848,0.08800000000000001,0.7499,0,0,6,0,0,0,19.0,0,0,1,1,15,5,0,0,5,0,11,17,0,1,1,29,25,16,0,5,4,0,1,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,7,12,15,3,2,7,0,5,2,2,0,0,4,5,12,3,23,18,10,22,0,1,1,1,3,9,0,5,8,90,19,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3112903332562689,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10677568102435857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09977206436100534,0.0,0.07909623758520229,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1484028900019284,0.0,0.13329209519996474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.103597229571974,0.0,0.0,0.16735992934164418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6355428179165705,0.0,0.2655394677530796,0.0,0.0,0.11492266431590567,0.0,0.0,0.08570064697390033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15689786864356678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06779059837768711,0.0,0.14748326456124078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11474016840058715,0.0,0.11623322117737388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12887402735756606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11533044730450848,0.0,0.0,0.07130886728426512,0.10576603043133916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10895985893035016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1171071678040902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0953834003798854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14627703599671354,0.0,0.13200546992343992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13043762463714148,0.14535307945913575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0831231080918509,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10847933593355226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13486307088789254,0.09755812420869547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1418645600447256,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Itotsigt,2019/01/15,"Periods. I haven't had my periods over 1 year and 4 months. I have been in the low healthy weight since summer. Maybe not in the weight i should be if i look at my old shcool height/weight charts when i was in my early teens and my eating was pretty normal, and besides i'm adult now.

When i should get them back? Does somebody be able to tell when they had them again or something? And is there going to be problems if i don't have them  anytime soon? I'm glad i don't have them because i'm never going to have kids or anything like that and i would cut off my uterus if i could but i need to be atleast 30 years old to do that in here.",2.398695652173913,3.1885677101449303,3.2166376811594226,96.5801739130435,74.79710144927536,6.0997101449275375,21.771014492753626,5.6839178017228535,-0.12053855072463725,496,11,121,2,10,157,79,138,0.04,0.894,0.066,0.509,0,0,1,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,5,0,9,5,1,0,2,0,22,3,0,0,1,20,30,14,0,10,7,0,2,1,0,3,0,0,0,2,2,5,3,0,0,0,0,2,5,3,0,0,5,3,21,2,12,17,0,27,0,1,1,0,8,8,0,5,18,81,23,0,0.16841771276454084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13859342748608428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12950282531093782,0.0,0.1026658745045703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13446783936847154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14738347538718802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17233336568621022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08799130373472305,0.0,0.19143133470360454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08228038734948727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1414284616373691,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16919822935115253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13442941152995205,0.0,0.0,0.12487960000181733,0.12989412270666748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1650136000429944,0.0,0.0,0.35345211727537984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17134136114221662,0.0,0.1611530058067328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13931687237945034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1296561834311317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14720450426738646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6152622064536786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11963911100768695,0.0,0.0,0.2169109704575029
EDAnonymous,hotcheeto01,2019/01/15,"RANT I’m still on break before i go back to school next week and i’m like SPIRALING. I cannot like really put into words what’s going on right now but like i’m just struggling to exist right now ? i can’t even respond to anyone on my phone i have like 10 missed calls from friends and i just CANT. 

the only thing i can even think about right now is my weight and food and calories i just DONT KNOW what to do. i start classes next week and i have to do well this semester because last semester didn’t go well bc i was more focused on going to the gym then going to class. don’t expect advice just thought it would help to put what’s going on in my head into words sorry for the nonsense ",0.8681632653061229,2.8995354081632674,2.2796190476190468,96.1737142857143,82.6734693877551,5.00843537414966,17.963265306122448,6.079149491110277,-0.38725632653061215,543,12,123,4,15,175,83,147,0.08800000000000001,0.738,0.174,0.9228,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,14,9,0,1,3,0,14,3,1,0,0,19,28,7,0,2,5,0,1,4,1,1,0,0,0,0,6,7,2,0,3,1,0,8,6,2,2,0,3,1,13,7,19,24,1,32,0,1,0,0,5,11,0,0,16,76,19,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12923709029253486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09247508054740423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10169517200281214,0.0,0.08062081843769309,0.0,0.11253842360646918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1350461335722708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15500071758710368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1747050557805108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15992207679345416,0.0,0.10217912193027573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4509780183405789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1357307720328645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08864707673439623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07268334648825114,0.10780467183531092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25845052025308657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2813072852087987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10058513604422599,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2659036225834926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08472530691780451,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33883261196516984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13384812128013082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14804753911573607,0.09361007070298202,0.0,0.10561822516309376,0.0,0.0,0.13826060921263067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08786368921200592,0.08474303097978922,0.0,0.1049949129499172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21217238265860647,0.16104975769681,0.2378244804791893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.093949455874633,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,smallerism,2019/01/15,"ec stacking is wild i just wanted to get some thoughts out real quick so that i can get my work done lol

anyways i take my first dose in the mornings and on tuesdays and thursdays i have a class about meditation and idk if any of yall meditate or anything but it feels so dissonant to be meditating just after taking a stack (is this the hip way to refer to it?). im trying to breathe slowly through my diaphragm and everything but my heart is racing and i feel like i cant catch my breath. the instructor is leading in ""breathe in"" and ""breathe out""s and its going way too slow for me because i need so much air for my heart and im trying to stay still and open posture and whatnot by my entire body is trembling and im so hot but im just tying to focus on my breathing but all i can think about is my  heartrate and how fast it is and maybe if i meditate hard enough itll slow down?? but guess what it never works lol

anyways i think thats all this is just gonna be my life every tuesady and thursday from now on i guess. back to work luv yall",1.0551842751842777,3.038463396396395,2.6968058968058948,93.7008353808354,81.70270270270271,5.297624897624899,23.15397215397216,6.351523495107088,0.4210738738738744,822,29,183,7,22,270,124,222,0.029,0.926,0.045,0.6531,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,2,0,5,18,2,0,1,5,2,16,11,9,2,3,45,31,27,0,4,12,0,4,1,0,2,2,0,0,0,11,16,0,0,6,0,0,3,2,1,0,1,2,4,24,1,25,25,5,29,0,0,0,0,2,10,0,6,14,125,35,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08699880631243342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1052779333562698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09837255676429887,0.0,0.07798675081573082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14210468876284446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13091984524297473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13218895619871546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1077890445619688,0.0,0.1149779038792288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12937350673506687,0.09139533901921733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10881971855712178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13367939271789195,0.0,0.07270725482004338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2818651785320144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11460281213382828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30320236981473625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5527582421505751,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09036283983092204,0.06250158678539892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12852586328755036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0940454527861748,0.09486067589943263,0.09866979294567728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14561572745603255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.136359523532702,0.10216743475210044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19237934331624995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16394856238027766,0.0,0.10156448758297726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1737161771874728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07545818007818994,0.20309447290172394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27941017655218364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,HoldenCaulfield7,2019/01/15,"Just wanted to say this is the sweetest, most loving, understanding, non-judgmental, supportive, encouraging sub on Reddit. There’s rarely any trolls on each thread. If Reddit decides to take us down again, I will be genuinely shocked. The respect on this sub is not found in many other communities. I do not believe Reddit will come for us again. (Fingers crossed. Knock on wood)

The harm reduction posts are so important. 
Posts encouraging users who have never purged to not do it or to stop before the cycle takes over their lives could honestly be life changing. I’m not exaggerating. I imagine myself reading through some threads in this sub at age 18 around the time when I was tired of restricting and starving and thought, why not making myself throw up? Just once or twice. It won’t hurt. It won’t turn into a vicious addictive cycle. I won’t be 27, still battling it. 

I genuinely think this sub is helping individuals. I wish I had it years ago.

I think this community will be here for good. ❤️",3.9440860215053775,6.562368354838711,4.490537634408604,81.27247311827958,75.12903225806451,7.574193548387097,28.075268817204304,8.515128840125781,2.28676559139785,798,33,144,16,18,253,125,186,0.119,0.7290000000000001,0.152,0.7702,0,0,0,0,0,0,28.0,2,0,1,0,10,12,2,0,6,0,20,5,1,1,1,32,35,7,0,4,10,0,1,0,0,6,3,1,0,0,12,6,0,2,7,1,0,3,9,5,0,1,4,2,14,7,20,20,3,27,0,1,0,1,9,12,0,5,10,96,26,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1690350197934345,0.0,0.0,0.1374486769455858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10544407870345884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13803360605135487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13194208847981692,0.17469614372701678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16402974862149808,0.13356787780666707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12380039924317048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17001199972266845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1300544569098152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10393144018852662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16599172794039604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1095213463134386,0.0,0.0,0.13691817381763216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13994499841630348,0.0,0.10350175308073968,0.1572034631857052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11958951914413884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16513064694936685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2970034930015766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15509896293911948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12330755177101685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12382872234180713,0.1296345969259483,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1759568487152589,0.0,0.0,0.2331671373134613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1987085323086128,0.0,0.1230979398006452,0.09041498498361747,0.17821521435136378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16865749277657932,0.0,0.16141980778587442,0.37302896423283705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09145663735213007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1399148270128421,0.0,0.1783079003626083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09985162574553404
EDAnonymous,pignoises,2019/01/15,"DAE feel like they don’t deserve to be here? I woke up this morning and I’ve gained back 4 of the pounds I lost because I’m a fat POS who can’t stop binging (and recently, purging). But I’m still firmly in the obese category, because I apparently can’t even be good at eating disordering. 

So I’m here at work reading posts from you lovely people, heart a little jittery from the Bronkaid. I’m going to Europe in a few months and I don’t think I’ll even be able to enjoy myself knowing I’ll be an absolute cow in the pictures. I wish I felt more like I belonged here, but I really just feel like a fat girl that can’t put down the damn fork. ",4.4597992700729945,4.1024563211678835,5.903348540145987,83.23998631386863,69.72992700729927,8.601824817518247,29.53375912408759,8.07648339933343,1.7957452554744529,504,17,111,6,8,172,85,137,0.055,0.81,0.135,0.7935,1,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,1,1,3,9,8,1,0,10,0,9,6,3,0,0,13,23,6,0,1,3,0,3,3,0,0,3,0,0,1,3,3,4,1,5,1,0,2,5,2,0,0,3,3,11,6,13,16,2,16,0,1,0,1,5,8,1,0,8,62,14,2,0.1886726326609147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1450776084496589,0.0,0.2300261713480605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21623518285973092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19305920538649626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2492329889171128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1907971041033368,0.269575532943064,0.18115531517433173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10722700510372372,0.1582496527635493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22357797812649186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10368954469482386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2765277542859981,0.18909954400530105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2059584661642156,0.0,0.17028441724786525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1505966953480299,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13080184738715298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1806962281563824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18966810755503252,0.0,0.0,0.18872369015482696,0.0,0.12086851972145267,0.0,0.18629146311665098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15067420816138166,0.1577387691057726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12089380474210915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21696421628170104,0.0,0.0,0.13735592365735566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,relativeletter6,2019/01/15,"i’m going to b/p today i’ve got it all planned out. after school i’m going to the store and i’m gonna buy my favourite chips, ramen, gummies, probably some candy and a slice of cake... maybe a bit more, i don’t know, i’ve only got $15 for that. 

then i’m heading over to taco bell. two crunchy tacos, quesadilla, nachos, those cinnamon delight things. $10 for that. 

going home. eating. some stuff i have at home too. purging. then i’m just gonna get high out of my mind and go to sleep so i don’t eat again. 

i already ate a nutrigrain bar for breakfast and i’m gonna eat 100 calories of goldfish for lunch but honestly keeping down 235 calories is really low for me so whatever. 

i’m so sore. my whole body is bloated rn for absolutely no reason. my chest and stomach are all being assaulted by sharp pains every other second. sucking in hurts horrendously. but i’m still gonna b/p. because i’m angry. because my life is going to shit and i’m in so much pain from bloat when i ate at a deficit yesterday. 

who cares. who cares. ",-0.21942902967121114,2.059520786046516,2.174867682437853,92.67465116279072,92.30232558139537,5.012028869286286,20.902165196471525,6.647476241863616,0.4880280673616682,799,29,172,11,29,271,131,215,0.196,0.741,0.063,-0.9865,0,0,0,0,0,0,35.0,0,0,0,1,9,10,3,0,5,0,8,18,6,1,2,19,37,15,0,0,3,0,1,0,0,4,4,0,2,0,9,8,8,1,2,1,2,5,3,7,0,2,4,1,11,3,25,28,8,23,0,2,0,0,2,10,2,2,8,87,20,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14473324903114942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1599022331372586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14318773155474626,0.14568408630168533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2674433496195113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4026141619636929,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11050408404573284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06852328503379511,0.0,0.3726931911317535,0.0,0.2097939147368308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1346032822171895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13857288461724188,0.2631191267245468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14040457195400752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11657694876348948,0.0,0.0,0.07207957969530285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09263894014337032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13176323119380307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1324295692253594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09641431242882743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.099749594370075,0.2791171927097356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14140770774624725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08402150984033242,0.13484959859077153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13273627028768206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1346291368303005,0.0,0.0,0.13125012225793492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10474087457090657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15014155823095646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08713382218722998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12431998681885792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12811977149060053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14643032406008466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Imaginary_Air,2019/01/15,"So I thought I was over this and I don't know what to eat Title says it all, it has been a long journey from restricting to bingeing to getting stuck in only being able to eat what I planned out to in the end not giving fucks anymore, while maintaining my weight and exercising. However, I just don't know what I want to eat anymore and as I had mostly been eating with people this was no problem. Just now I have not and I'm stuck, yes I am a bit hungry, just no food seems worthwhile to eat plus the preparation of everything is just so much additional work as well. I can't decide for anything to eat, so I just don't.

On one hand I don't find this problematic at all, even though my weight is healthy I could stand to lose a bit, on the other hand I just want to be normal. :(

Any tips on what is healthy and tasty to eat but requires no effort at all?",4.257034027425089,4.2908191117318415,5.193235144743525,86.81315388522093,70.1731843575419,8.296800406297614,28.004570848146265,8.00094639256281,1.492001117318435,667,21,150,8,11,219,99,179,0.151,0.7879999999999999,0.061,-0.8566,1,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,0,5,13,4,1,0,6,1,19,14,2,0,3,35,31,14,0,5,9,0,4,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,10,9,10,2,6,1,0,1,10,3,1,1,8,5,16,1,27,20,7,15,0,1,0,1,2,9,1,2,4,109,26,2,0.10656832738929478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07247011700837992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2113742900127704,0.0,0.0,0.08769665323142402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23269002510860626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08508613787662991,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7633220261194316,0.0,0.0,0.09438790691153892,0.0,0.0,0.07038737517079653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09577674109208023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09740152058578183,0.0,0.12886284449026816,0.0,0.0,0.09852070145225324,0.05567755261539879,0.1022300502430208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11713433146124767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09430961622983322,0.0,0.11922269922617898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07833998254003773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10441433424317598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07221345664897663,0.08105001513230785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07388106000794865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10197149694456988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08474741127942853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0970158028287503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10470284058303032,0.08460334814941711,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12571352116872211,0.0,0.0,0.2595430261712165,0.09581772466458802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07758301156206007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Slutty-Muffin,2019/01/15,"My Past to now from what I can remember (TW ed behaviors, self-harm, sexual assault, and rape are mentioned) My ed began to get bad at the beginning of middle school. A boy had slammed me into the side of a locker and gave me a bruised ribcage so bad I could barely breathe almost fractured my ribs. I had started self-harming and attempted to purge. I was very isolated pre-ed but after I begun to really start restricting and over exercising and behaving numerous damaging behaviors to myself I started shutting everyone else out. my two close friends at the time even tried to get me help (one of which was a model receiving help for her ed). I had my head bashed into a brick wall by a random guy too. when my chorus group took a trip to a neighboring big city I couldn't even let myself enjoy that because I was so anxious and insecure about how I looked. I was also anxious because that day I was trying to fast. by the time eighth grade started I had lost over 40lbs ( keep in mind I struggled with binging so at one point it was the same 10lbs over and over again). I had begun to frequently self-harm and even tried to kill myself in seventh grade. I was bullied alot heavily and when a boy found my blads in my pencil case he mocked me in front of the whole class with them. My body was and still is lined from all the scars. and then when I could hurt myself with a blade I started burning myself and hitting myself until I bruised.  I had even destroyed my singing voice and my teeth with purging. When I got to 8th grade and started bingeing again to cope with the bullying and sexual trauma that the previous year gave me I became really aware because my smaller clothes stopped fitting. I even popped a button on my jeans in class. zi started restricting again and managed to drop down to an even lower weight (which was still considered a healthy weight because I started as obese and also I'm really fucking short) I thought it would make people like me and for the most part, it did. But I could never go out or go to sleepovers. I wouldn't even leave my house. Because back then I was also bullied for my sexuality (I'm pan and in 7th grade a dated a high school freshman girl). Then on the 8th-grade trip, an older man sexually assaulted me and I never told anyone about it,  The rare times I saw my mother or when she actually wanted me around I was always so anxious because of food and the way everyone ate and how tiny she was. she would pick on me for my weight and size.  I had been so insecure about myself and so wrapped up in hurting myself I had limited social interaction with anyone online besides creepy pedophiles who took advantage of me and things got so bad the police had to get involved. My one ""ex"" from that time online actually made me drink my own piss if I ate and wanted to still be with him. The summer before high school started I was doing a lot better but after my mother abandoned me and told my dad she hopes I kill myself without her I relapsed. At the start of my freshman year, I had no friends really beside the couple I had to fix problems for because it was my only guy friend whom I had a huge crush on but he was with an unstable girl (granted he was hella unstable too). I was (still am) on my school's academic decathlon team. I met this amazing upperclassmen boy who understood me and loved me the best he could. He became my world on and off through freshman and sophomore year. ( problem with this is how much drama occurred AND THE FACT THAT ALL THE GIRLS I KNEW WERE HIS EXS.) He tried so hard to help me get better and did all these little things and for a while, it worked. Until he cheated on me with his skinnier, older, and prettier ex. I broke it off and started relapsing. I dated a whole bunch of people in between all of that. But because my ed told me so that even when someone did care for me friend or family I couldn't believe it I refused to. A teacher since 8th grade (he transferred to my high school and was my honors english teacher) started bullying and harassing me ( he had screamed at me and threatened me the day before 8th-grade graduation and prior to that incident had been making unwanted advances towards me). He would use the fact that i transferred out of his class as a way to tell students my name and present me in a bad light) I spent all my school dances so conscious of myself and others I couldn't enjoy the moment. It was the same at competitions. I was so focused on my body I couldn't enjoy the experience. My friend at the time had her birthday party in the fall and me and another one of her friends got wrapped up with someone's family friends. The guy who was into me out of that group was 27 and knew I was 14 and didn't bat an eye when he forcibly kissed me and coerced me on camera to get naked for him and his friends. He also when on to sexually assault me and when I ignored him he would give gifts to my friends to give to me. He would seek me out on every social media platform. he was also a substitute teacher at my school. He even lied to his family about my age and told people about me and wanted to propose and it just kept getting worse. ( i still see him around town and he still drives past my house and honks and he still stares at me and tries to talk to me until my dad said something to him) I had all these opportunities and when I was finally starting to heal and let go a bit I was sexually assaulted almost raped. That incident was the reason why I had to transfer out of all my honors classes ( ie the whole English problem).I was suicidal all the time after that. the one day in the hallway my ex ( who was my friend/ maybe a bit more we had no labels because we weren't sure if we could date again) was giving me a hug and I was just very anxious and upset and had to travel to the other building.  that day I was going to run out into traffic because I couldn't take it anymore. he actually wouldn't let me go until I calmed down. A girl ended up stepping on my neck and severely threatening me for no reason even though she used to be my friend too. granted later on in the year he fucked me over but we became friends again. Then in the spring/ summer, I met the kindest most loving and caring and considerate person you will ever meet. We dated for six months but I ended up cheating on him and destroying him mentally with how unstable I was and how flip-floppy I was with recovering and relapsing and all my self harm.  My nudes got sent around the school by some random ex of mine too. We ended up finally breaking it off and I was back to relapsing. I ended up back to fucking around with my ex after becoming friends again and it was an on and off thing all the way up until spring. during that time I was relapsing for awhile and I was losing even more weight. I managed to even get down to my lowest and almost fit a size 0. But during that time as well I was helping my ex's friend ( they were no longer friends at this point ) cheat on his gf for six months with me while I was still messing around with my ex. The friend knew about it but my ex didn't.t I ended up choosing the friend over my ex every time and tbh it was the biggest mistake. In the end, I told my ex (after his side hoe messaged me on fucking valentines day when I thought he was finally mine) goodbye and I gave up on him. we fought but then didn't talk for a long while. I even went to semi-formal with his best friend since we had academic decathlon together and he liked me but that didn't work out. That friend was still an on and off buddy in between relationships and we used each other and he took advantage of the fact that I liked him. I then went back to the six-month ex and dated him for a  month maybe but started relapsing and pushed him far away and forced his hand for him to dump me. I then had a whole bunch of summer flings and was on an off involved with that friend. Towards the end of the school year, I did actually admit to the whole cheating mess because I hated having the secret. It made people hate me even more. After freshman and sophomore year there were so many rumors and stories about me the truth got drowned out by the words whore and slut. I spent my summer relapsing on and off and comforting friends. I had to leave the spring semester of the sophomore year because I couldn't handle seeing my attacker every day. But then I finally started living and said fuck it to calories and started going to concerts and doing things and dated and hooking up with people. But then the guy I was with got a little too handsy and pushy about sex wouldn't stop touching and kissing me and wouldn't get off of me (he was 20 and I had just turned 16). After that break up and making so many people hate me I just went back to starving myself again. I used to go roller skating all the time but to avoid my ex I stopped Then there was this older drummer from a band I really liked he was 22 and into me and things kinda got a bit steamy between us until he randomly ghosted me one day (turns out he had a gf for 3 years).I was a mess but a smaller shaped mess at the start of my junior year (technically I'm not a junior due to missing al that school but credit recovery shall change that). Then I met this beautiful girl with pink hair (3 weeks before school started) and god did I fall hard for her and I thought she liked me too and I told her everything and got really close to her but she was still in love with her ex so she broke my heart and left me over some random guy who dumped her. SHE ALSO TRIED TO HIT ME WITH HER CAR OVER THE STUPID FUCK CHEATER DUDE THAT SHE WAS A SIDE HOE FOR TOO IN FACT HE WAS HOW WE MET AND SHE STARTED DATING HIM AFTER EVERYTHING WAS SAID AND DONE. I made some new friends and started dating an underclassmen boy. He wasn't the right fit for me and so I left and was crushing on a new senior on the academic decathlon team. When I started dating that new boy he tried to force me into recovery and didn't understand how bad my depression and anxiety was and we would fight a lot and he was mostly just with me for the sex. So I finally dumped him after meeting a guy at a party ( it was an open relationship because I wasn't ready for commitment.) AT one point the school unenrolled me for some weird reason and after that situtation, I decided to start partying with my friends. We were with this big group of guys that were all really into me. That night I had slept with that guy who I had helped cheat and he ended up leaving me alone on a bathroom floor and when the whole school found out because it was at a party he ended up telling me how disgusting he felt being with me and regretting it and never wanted to touch me in the first place even though he instigated and begged me for it all. Later that night I ended up playing strip uno with a whole group of people ( I hadn't eaten and we were all drinking so we all know how that mess was). I ended up getting close to a guy whom I thought was a good person. With him, my friends, and his friends we all ended up in threesomes and different variations of orgies. I started smoking ciggerets (ed me was happy about that) and drinking again ( a year prior at a Christmas party I gave myself alcohol poisoning and swore off drinking) Turns out he had 3 kids, did meth, other drugs I don't know the name of, coke, and was an alcoholic. He ended up abusing me physically and forcing himself on me. It got so bad his friend pulled him off of me ( he was also 20). So I broke that off and was wary of dating other people. I even stopped partying after having partied with these boys every weekend and staying at the main guy's house and hanging out with them all the time. I started relapsing and my depression kept getting worse and worse and I couldn't stop blaming myself and I was back to binging, purging and starving. It got so bad my acid regurge would choke me in my sleep I ended up waking up one morning choking on my stomach acid. The holidays were all really rough and difficult because I spent Thanksgiving with my abusive ex. (that ex I had on and off freshman year became my friend again and when all the shit went down with my abusive ex he was there for me over text and comforted me and said if he hadn't moved away he would've kicked the guys shit in for me, we still are sorta friends now) . Then my friend's introduced me to this guy (My current bf who is an actual good person). Low and behold this guy was pink haired girl's ex and he told me the full story of their relationship and how crazy she was. That night we met he ended up pulling me onto his lap and holding me really close and we snuggled at my friend's house. They started shipping us and I was crushing hard. The next day we all were at his house hanging out and having fun. He and I were still bickering from the night prior having tickle fights and playful slapping. Then the gals and all of us thought it would be amusing if we pretended he and I were dating to piss off our mutual ex. (she had been my friend's ex-best friend too). So when we all went out to dinner they took cute photos of us acting like a couple and overtime that night him and I got closer. At one point when we were playing games, he claimed me for his team and we were curled up on his bed and I ended up cuddling into his side with his arm around me. IN the big group chat for our friend my one friend said him and I were a thing and I freaked out because even though I had a crush I didn't want it to be one-sided so my friends put quotations around boyfriend and girlfriend. Since the night I met him we had been texting non-stop and after that, we were still texting and he finally admitted to liking me and wanting to actually date me and so I finally said yes. Then the group of us all started hanging out together and he has become the best boyfriend I think I'll ever have. He treats me with kindness and respect and love and doesn't care about what I look like but does notice and appreciate when I put in an effort to look nice. He is just as clingy as I am. He even rn is standing by me while I'm considering filing a PFA against my abusive ex since he's been threatening the other girls and staying down the road from my one friend's house and I don't wanna risk running into him and him getting violent with me. And this action could cost me two of my close female friends.  Which brings me to right now I have a concussion that made my academic decathlon competition really difficult and I didn't have enough points to make it to regionals. But I did medal in economics in my division. But lately I've been stuck in a cycle of blaming myself for everything that's happened and yeah some stuff was my fault I won't lie I've done some stupid shit and asked for a lot of trouble but I keep blaming myself for my ex forcing himself on me and slamming me into the wooden part of a couch so hard I reinjured my bruised ribs and for covering me in bruises and spraining my wrist. I keep blaming myself for my childhood sexual trauma from people on the internet who made me do all kinds of depraved and disgusting things. I'm currently relapsing back into my ed and self harm and I am so terrified I'm going to hurt everyone around me. The suicidal thoughts have come back heavily too. Everything is all so heavy and scary and I just don't know what to do anymore.  There is a lot more in between all of what I've mentioned but my memory is very hazy. I just feel like I've become a magnet for tragedy.",4.0018247827537765,5.222596629068644,4.7324431823043085,85.58809971936951,71.42990654205606,7.619009294459544,27.45873818941989,8.010368400189675,1.63253673265096,12232,426,2465,165,226,3936,804,3103,0.16399999999999998,0.701,0.134,-0.9989,5,2,9,2,3,6,221.0,32,1,6,23,157,186,44,6,154,2,208,66,25,27,38,504,397,303,6,42,40,25,16,9,42,15,7,9,3,33,107,287,17,18,30,25,5,45,36,94,1,16,217,38,438,92,400,142,69,503,0,15,10,21,341,214,11,31,244,1763,545,43,0.0,0.07615356019128444,0.09408246301565834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03434440006061916,0.04827045221282925,0.01664198458141562,0.0,0.08994908361437287,0.01337017043026446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0168490861906426,0.0122922584989052,0.07261073431407887,0.031871009202399284,0.022470754782381013,0.0,0.0,0.11443404263147555,0.015021756182884862,0.01828008973250304,0.030193523706618867,0.09884467292594944,0.0939149200610164,0.15672206010479564,0.05323875424299843,0.041018996233699485,0.018103549681385358,0.06745104877347939,0.028422333647488682,0.05262749266546224,0.035696671775193825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04914832006800146,0.0,0.016998204081909597,0.013841477322411292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0769757121293848,0.03555868991046393,0.0,0.08290215093088879,0.0,0.02767932578799313,0.0,0.0,0.01678802589326451,0.0,0.0,0.014061538217755291,0.03288704113273128,0.0,0.06296353831078197,0.018634206966025142,0.0,0.013423060664324762,0.0,0.22770889304209074,0.016602920786118358,0.0,0.1910341142718056,0.029069519845038895,0.0541531764812026,0.04606204625355865,0.057764856767340673,0.0157179484095726,0.04544348545571294,0.0,0.008124650295731506,0.011479246206282118,0.015428154341455,0.12321479172108465,0.0,0.01366774667965147,0.01942993588457969,0.03523627502872025,0.4593321423986117,0.08912969072317806,0.09234565711997236,0.04624273186479127,0.07305619634600202,0.026954771544717454,0.14136477043233708,0.0,0.0,0.2068327537604165,0.014209205865466012,0.017105077861907906,0.05757641081192968,0.047592563983229405,0.016490782580125957,0.0,0.0,0.01904109493318757,0.053851446024218805,0.0509313429973401,0.0,0.015959516278921414,0.0,0.11124444443731617,0.05160456486372743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04284691467206322,0.03555453970706339,0.0334654678233077,0.02649226655493036,0.0,0.01812582040838004,0.05104224885459058,0.03491666042163296,0.049292988685248965,0.0,0.07065174215917501,0.03220945461086781,0.014188664438210654,0.014220001148456438,0.04048014975561666,0.017976395066509106,0.017540523174012227,0.05464301172063015,0.05800932241411896,0.07602139752930473,0.04290304500219773,0.03258160878828974,0.03228567330424858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.01619313688811369,0.0,0.016224472370230586,0.0,0.051302476152169665,0.017078133579668805,0.011812100252582731,0.0,0.037178750858667405,0.04655679346406323,0.017088892994215586,0.09047445626699108,0.0,0.0,0.018293944897089496,0.0,0.0,0.130660114317075,0.01222071888676868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03480095610371515,0.030678153255281268,0.10025805640452662,0.04209084074234031,0.01678802589326451,0.0,0.07594901350886618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.046125777888689316,0.0,0.032306298428999694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1029380879877155,0.049562879331341125,0.0,0.05175424548117973,0.018202330024369214,0.027444599095140444,0.09170819268542442,0.0,0.0,0.2114066179577083,0.025608819834681648,0.0,0.08381406756968192,0.018152683578519718,0.049481850394321014,0.05316768437425718,0.0,0.01607997363896486,0.032759357835743706,0.027229354251623133,0.012370215681883942,0.0,0.0,0.29570513601279946,0.0342534873222381,0.16681886576274216,0.0806032571460476,0.0,0.016798148362179726,0.018394438473149147,0.03515237592590242,0.0,0.015144247861364047,0.0,0.012081413946425444,0.025830293096089738,0.028088925941578316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07472577379818346,0.010295962206198982,0.047361273627991786,0.07653894200456328,0.10306554864000947,0.0,0.0,0.10747810792497016,0.07141019789650557,0.0763655757801217,0.052433314802698236,0.03139292387325008,0.016727739075784325,0.0966413488373486,0.05551164766799619,0.0,0.039774262353060606,0.0568652430216413,0.03826297078044276,0.012889076587154387,0.07826777963414229,0.014447393693686897,0.07447769640677843,0.0144992039775501,0.12557832306950292,0.0,0.01548933456058851,0.0,0.02339592838178076,0.0,0.049125123089669716,0.10273057645153012,0.0,0.0,0.10347502977948203
EDAnonymous,sincereenfuego,2019/01/15,"I just finished watching the ""Thin"" documentary and I feel so lost. Why are we doing this? Why us? Why can't we be ""normal""? Why can't even treatment really work and if it does, it costs $30,000? Why?",-0.5518699186991861,1.6678221463414682,1.7530487804878057,94.66502032520329,95.82926829268294,4.684552845528454,16.589430894308947,6.42735559955562,-0.2349056910569103,152,4,34,2,6,51,31,41,0.101,0.899,0.0,-0.6061,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,3,0,0,2,3,1,0,0,1,0,5,0,0,0,0,8,7,4,0,2,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,4,0,0,1,0,1,0,2,1,0,0,1,3,5,0,0,5,0,2,0,1,1,0,3,1,0,1,1,20,8,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17047152951926814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12866411888926324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09849715879402712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2126481305058363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1908634649638298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12479440750583926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2343214276558412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8788873025796855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14181733299737453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Aleph0-4,2019/01/15,"How do you deal with binge urges? I've been trying to get back out of a month long b/p cycle for the past week and eating around 700-800 kcal a day (compared to my TDEE of 1200-1300) to try to lose weight I put on during winter holidays. 

Only a couple days of 'normal eating' and the urges to binge have been really frequent. I've been reminding myself how horrible purging feels, listing reasons to not purge, watching people on Youtube eating foods I've been wanting to binge on, distracting myself with studying etc. etc. but I'm scared I'll eventually snap and fall back into another time/money/soul draining cycle.

What things do you do to deal with binge urges?

Alternatively, what things in your experience have been counter-productive and backfired?",6.646312056737585,7.581495191489362,6.504397163120568,76.33333333333334,65.17021276595744,9.10354609929078,30.56028368794326,9.150863307647796,2.6134028368794326,606,21,105,10,9,191,92,141,0.076,0.911,0.014,-0.8069,0,0,0,0,0,0,20.0,0,3,0,1,5,3,0,2,5,0,10,5,0,3,0,18,14,7,0,2,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,10,5,0,2,1,0,2,1,3,0,0,5,3,7,0,22,9,2,19,0,1,1,0,5,7,0,0,10,60,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15763515798781844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1338264593795563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23119051467594795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16633838887324395,0.0,0.1939021130234692,0.30996931385351423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4614784204109743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3353175997873567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14705256135275668,0.0,0.0,0.07601186903979902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18178083833174868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07854174126547081,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13303820173160374,0.0,0.16818193249758248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1199927675885597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14729245879722433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11433349741604157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14350794697271152,0.10422058490333418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1511241737158789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.096305886143067,0.15456530253979248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15050755348223446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1997464690820275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08765921329847423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20412975799611086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08866911699055416,0.0,0.12058645799209865,0.18306265497703575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,smolcal,2019/01/15,"Just got a cold (or the flu??) for the first time in ages Guys help me out I’m feeling so lost rn. I woke up last morning with an intense aching sore throat and 10h later my nose is stuffy etc. I haven’t been sick in nearly 2 years and have no idea the side effects decongestants and other pain relievers have. 

For those of u taking Sudafed or iboprofen, do u experience  water retention or increased appetite?

My first priority is to get better so if I experience fluid retention so be it. I truly feel on verge of death and can’t sleep but I want to be prepared if I’ll experience a “false” rise on the scale and not let get down to me or just avoid the same completely till I get better ",3.1344220779220784,4.595905364285716,4.629350649350652,84.54110389610392,73.92857142857143,7.948051948051948,25.584415584415584,8.575989854853784,1.64,541,18,114,10,11,181,96,140,0.118,0.746,0.136,-0.1415,0,1,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,6,5,6,0,1,8,0,11,9,3,1,0,24,22,16,1,3,10,0,2,0,0,0,5,0,0,1,3,7,1,1,4,0,0,2,4,3,0,2,4,4,10,3,17,15,3,20,0,1,0,0,2,10,0,6,8,72,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3202645864657913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18983729765367813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2019290509949184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5313323997159388,0.0,0.0,0.18309810865030984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3080180039097202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2837881331719399,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14480971294316275,0.0,0.0,0.179277235809928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1213602746729784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20439398257889085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14758754678581726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18514546615280086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1976476833461918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19265992821812966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1811901222375149,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13613410810888374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.105577170798951,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10679350357878296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11659629372055222
EDAnonymous,Pinus_virginiana,2019/01/15,"I re-downloaded my fasting app all because ive gained 5 pounds since before the holidays and i cant seem to get myself under control & back on track

All I want is to lose 10 pounds so I’m safely within an acceptable weight range (which of course has been arbitrarily set by yours truly)

...ED brain is in full control 😑",5.172692307692309,5.445548076923082,6.178269230769235,79.71048076923078,68.23076923076923,8.961538461538463,28.55769230769231,8.841846274778883,2.063384615384615,255,8,51,4,4,85,56,65,0.042,0.769,0.189,0.8214,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,1,0,4,2,3,0,0,2,0,6,2,1,2,2,9,10,2,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,1,3,2,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,2,7,2,8,9,3,8,0,1,0,0,1,5,0,1,2,29,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2895022764949885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2054540531180244,0.0,0.1628776822685187,0.0,0.22736059938836506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29827448946693985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5993567977326619,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13959672268178014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2989193543799409,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2432414408870712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22102387364414589,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15759668598549897,0.0,0.0,0.3253677123587576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ifearfearingfear,2019/01/15,"Ice cream, hot dogs, cheeseburgers, soda, and a CBD drink. You guys were fun. Unfortunately I lost my job today so I have to get rid of you. I'm so sorry. We'll try again another day. It will most likely end up the same way.",-1.0366869300911823,1.060126000000004,1.841337386018239,93.82000000000002,97.51063829787232,5.238905775075988,13.097264437689967,6.868970318607317,-0.4723714285714285,170,3,40,3,7,59,43,47,0.135,0.7959999999999999,0.069,-0.2827,1,0,1,0,0,0,10.0,1,2,0,1,3,3,0,0,2,0,4,2,0,0,0,3,7,3,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,2,0,0,0,1,1,1,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,2,6,2,3,3,2,6,0,1,1,0,4,1,0,1,5,21,7,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3287997742875232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20222319630281105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30717388692014536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2777251232958621,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16382453717736928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3104782062737452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3111644353037569,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15319180196423365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.342292750790441,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35100984546366554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29722253234723617,0.0,0.0,0.21288974874397826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2488929471472196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ffc1,2019/01/15,"Been plateauing for over 2 months Let me preface this with a TW, will be mentioning a few numbers.

I've always been quite thin, typically around a BMI of 19-20 at 5'8 (174cm). Recently relapsed again and got down to a bmi of 17, been restricting below 800 for the past 2 months but have lost nothing, just been bloating up with water weight. It's really frustrating, I kind of want to get below 100lbs(45kg) be in the single digits.. but nope, I'm a weakling and have only gotten to 115lb (52kg). Bagsgh",4.111315417256012,5.0276166237623805,5.342093352192364,82.46128712871287,70.88118811881188,8.147666195190949,27.299858557284303,8.418075326091056,1.8310214992927865,393,13,78,6,7,131,76,101,0.097,0.861,0.042,-0.7308,0,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,0,0,2,3,3,1,0,7,0,10,2,0,0,0,10,16,4,0,1,3,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,5,2,1,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,7,2,2,1,18,5,2,14,0,1,0,0,1,9,0,0,5,48,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21466080895680556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2296577322218195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1347843936648033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20633092516232426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26864745040228644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2638029904521047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2816166715074987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4118358509246817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2475396702386462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19620613035189172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24627199890335566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2743944857726764,0.0,0.0,0.16526919649350172,0.0,0.2547250557369339,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1521638427899159,0.0,0.0,0.3141512851153995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,dumbidiotbabyy,2019/01/15,"DAE keep toxic men around to purposely trigger themselves? Does anyone else do this? 
I feel like I’m constantly involved with some really shitty dude that constantly reminds me of how much more attractive every single girl in the world is than me. My feelings stay hurt, but I guess ultimately I’m kind of seeking these kids of people out because it always throws me into periods of intense restriction and gets me closer and closer to my goal. So I guess all in all I don’t even mind THAT much 
Pls tell me I’m not alone lmao ",3.7693137254901963,5.97264161764706,4.679019607843138,81.7022549019608,74.0,7.670588235294117,26.03921568627451,8.515128840125781,2.008462745098039,423,15,76,8,9,137,76,102,0.112,0.804,0.084,-0.7201,0,1,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,1,4,4,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,2,2,20,12,5,0,0,2,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,3,5,6,0,2,2,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,0,2,11,3,13,12,7,13,0,1,0,0,5,8,0,3,4,47,16,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1969980552734711,0.0,0.0,0.15826823781451427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13299780957613294,0.1948905054845276,0.0,0.1693253871345416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11594899074407207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4110944067614816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16645224429211378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15889432139257947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12563054610573288,0.0,0.1602583874760826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19234969245476755,0.13588458561416286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09937579464968237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4190709657068111,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2036215266605591,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16906555071744564,0.0,0.19807229263301449,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09292598847711238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19205579053010466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2796494332836518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1318662315954632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12185207267764725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20273634901545526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16625011753077792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,TheElectricBodySings,2019/01/16,"I can't go one day without people grilling me about food and its starting to really get to me. My husband is having a mental health crisis and told THE WHOLE FAMILY about my ED. The more people ask me if I've eaten, what I've eaten, if I'm going to eat soon or how much weight I've lost the more I want to restrict. Seriously it's constant. I've started throwing away food to make it look like I've eaten and just straight up lying to everyone about anything to do with food or my weight. I'm so stressed behind my husbands health as well and that makes eating even harder. Why am I like this? I hate myself rn

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EDAnonymous,pizzaparlez,2019/01/16,"honesty at work? xpost (am i doing this right?)

I have a very hard time being honest about having a problem. Part of me feels that if I say anything about having an ED or BDD and then someone sees me eating normally then they will judge me or I will feel like a failure. Does anyone else feel his way?

One of my coworkers noticed my habits and knows, to an extent, of my disorder. I'm pretty close with her and a few of my other colleagues and we've all endured some tough situations together that we have helped one another through.

That said, I'm up for a promotion and have been trying to prove myself professionally here for some time. I don't want anyone questioning my ability to handle stuff or pity me.

One of my colleagues, who I am not very close with, has been doing some things lately that anger and trigger my ED. I want to empathize with them and yet I feel it is more for attention. Short of just leaving every time they do this, should I say something to one of my friends in this group? Do any of you have experience with this? I'm worried about how I will be perceived as a team leader, or just as a friend in social situations regarding food.",4.124726432057535,5.496488161572057,4.915931158489599,83.81038787567431,71.31441048034934,7.833650141279218,27.007706139224247,8.313332769828598,1.731430824556897,915,31,181,14,17,296,131,229,0.1,0.8059999999999999,0.094,0.5602,0,0,1,0,0,0,23.0,1,1,3,3,8,8,1,0,9,0,23,2,0,2,2,42,35,17,0,6,8,0,5,1,2,4,0,3,0,0,13,14,2,0,9,1,0,0,2,4,0,4,3,9,30,4,30,26,8,16,0,1,1,0,18,8,0,9,8,136,43,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08697318429433566,0.13410936508553445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17885472379691836,0.1310438406473284,0.10524692795253976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14657908499062774,0.0,0.11192203192339524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13086881283758126,0.1068401053225635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10775729961088762,0.0,0.0,0.12510613678417973,0.0,0.0,0.25867080988823554,0.09136842217828972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1546514947843735,0.0,0.19762317072308935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11456906046008687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08572551832818981,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07028790774682259,0.0,0.1442714601324952,0.13542264763352765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0624831794433257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12531023144411393,0.0,0.14560963765625176,0.0,0.0,0.3466606393328282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13849813795927868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1301154911782207,0.0,0.12237852183271401,0.0,0.0,0.14327199728209222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10922188058247287,0.12165771044420715,0.20341493912094266,0.0,0.0,0.10191598908569692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28751933368051524,0.0,0.13037314398692204,0.10836526589799003,0.0984600442004924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14640951068960473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08496794905594007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22373031986172034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08683250801841341,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21105402040049734,0.15087191377975614,0.10151732977466256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09310929582073636,0.12988387723793846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,bp4455,2019/01/16,What is this? Is there an eating disorder where you feel a compulsion to eat frequently? If I don't every 3 hours or so i get really weak and can barely move ,0.3931818181818159,2.70684460606061,3.360833333333337,85.66125000000002,87.78787878787878,8.148484848484847,17.340909090909093,8.841846274778883,1.4525818181818186,124,3,26,4,4,44,31,33,0.2,0.8,0.0,-0.7591,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,1,0,0,3,1,0,0,2,0,4,3,0,0,0,4,6,4,0,1,2,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,1,2,0,1,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,1,3,0,1,6,0,4,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,2,2,18,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3768301558401381,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6728833808636864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2770258799738011,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16624977841775834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17178300240311986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3237990787185857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34945946226146896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21063594980446598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,bongothebean,2019/01/16,"I drank and purged.. a lot So I drank tonight. Didn’t have dinner but then after a few drinks had peanut butter.. popcorn .. soup.. vegan meatballs, and a string cheese. 

Downed water.

Purged. 

Does anyone count when they purged. 

“I’ll stop after 10”
“I’ll purge 10 times but I’ll drink more water and do this 2 more times”

Then there’s me..laying on the bathroom floor after chugging water, massaging my stomach so the food is more mixed into the water which I’m SURE does NOT work. Just so I can tell myself I purged 30 times I HAVE TO BE SOMEWHAT OK.

Then to avoid my hangover.. 1 ranitidine, 1 milk thistle, 2 tums, 2 cider vinegar, and 2 ibuprofen. I’m probably going to die. ",0.9676293675364852,3.4946731578947414,2.1889960194604186,93.30314020344984,88.09774436090225,4.332419283502875,18.34984520123839,5.900188976854957,-0.20126678460858027,522,14,105,4,17,166,86,133,0.087,0.845,0.068,-0.3272,0,1,2,0,0,0,27.0,0,0,1,1,6,3,0,1,6,1,8,13,1,0,1,14,13,13,1,0,4,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,5,11,2,0,2,0,1,2,1,0,0,4,1,9,2,9,8,6,17,0,0,0,0,2,4,0,2,12,56,11,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16444515941310914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24408243382315256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4116197993714704,0.0,0.0,0.4607788743637754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2843837632398066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1336597053657216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1999438572543418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25356664682296026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19662320497559985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22165684044635045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20555998002468615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4114106391395228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17121575174574327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,beefbitch69,2019/01/16,"Hi mom Please stop calling me fat and pretending like you didn't mean it that way. Pointing to my stomach rolls in my jeans and telling me to cover it up isn't subtle. Telling me to change every time I feel confident isn't subtle. Yes, you clearly meant it that way. I would 100% have no eating issues if it wasn't for you. ",2.0091542288557207,3.840367253731344,3.0306716417910486,93.22322139303483,77.95522388059702,5.6606965174129344,23.106965174129357,6.42735559955562,0.4340069651741292,254,8,55,2,6,81,47,67,0.093,0.7390000000000001,0.16899999999999998,0.6643,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,3,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,6,3,2,0,1,9,9,3,0,2,1,1,1,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,6,2,2,1,3,1,0,0,5,0,0,0,3,1,10,1,6,5,0,7,0,0,0,0,8,3,0,1,3,32,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2456496223696934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2544919437654283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24616392497833425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20269122369286927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12163979419305747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2510933497149193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11753071158354444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2620520609580829,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2817535424619781,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2640744298467535,0.227417108087418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20112791020036064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4205388596765434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1402787327748614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3819077106119291,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1708945509727688,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,pinpeach,2019/01/16,DAE get a stomach ache or feel sick when they eat nutritious or actual full meals? Everytime i eat something somewhat healthy i feel sick and get bloated for days but for example when i eat only cereal or toast or something very simple and not nutritious i feel fine.,3.917200000000001,6.641424319999999,4.594000000000001,79.93700000000003,75.8,8.8,30.0,9.3871,3.293200000000001,216,10,37,6,5,69,33,50,0.161,0.805,0.034,-0.6468,0,0,2,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,0,7,1,0,0,12,5,9,0,0,6,0,3,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,4,0,3,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,5,1,2,5,2,4,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,5,3,20,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.231207302277348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15279879524303774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.727308697878112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3593933608773125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2475699362843303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1801942267537808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3647971073105926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.195490203040116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,edimalo,2019/01/16,"Strange day - help So I had a really good day, ate on track, etc and then I just felt this overwhelming depressive type heaviness that I haven’t felt in a while. The type I would usually cure with weed and/or bingeing. I couldn’t smoke weed because of where I am so after scrolling through ubereats menus for at least two hours I ordered food. I knew I was wrong, hated myself for doing it, felt ill about halfway through but decided to go for it and then I purged. 

Not sure how much or if I even got anything reasonable out but now I feel this strange sense of calm and it’s freaking me out because usually after a b/p I’m emotionally a wreck but this feels so peaceful, I’m genuinely worried (whole still feeling cry at peace). Because I hate purging and know it’s horrid and I don’t want to like it, hadn’t purged in months before today (and I don’t purge often, I’m more BED). 

Anyone know what’s going on? Any help? Thanks loves 

(Mods sorry if this is too glorifying of ED behaviour, pls remove if so)",1.8231376709099507,4.14785570792079,2.9406364922206523,91.11226072607263,81.02970297029701,6.223856671381424,23.97548326261197,7.447530270364453,1.073799811409713,791,29,165,12,21,253,129,202,0.183,0.649,0.16899999999999998,-0.2847,0,0,1,0,0,0,25.0,0,0,0,0,13,12,2,1,5,0,11,4,0,2,1,35,32,21,0,6,9,0,6,1,0,1,1,0,1,0,11,9,2,0,11,0,0,3,6,6,0,1,9,6,17,6,22,21,5,27,0,2,0,1,3,9,0,5,15,101,28,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09325216704335977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09588352269338747,0.0,0.11284517389884599,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2507770102541533,0.0,0.11668635950219595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15062935501769095,0.17687323694941398,0.0,0.1181086833990846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1542512456244698,0.0,0.0,0.1529346647019762,0.09057216323262958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2080090584987632,0.0,0.3949949526597709,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16581647713773456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15586671493845156,0.11501698425944612,0.10967428800083523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2707722538571496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18382885299370585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13504407273609026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1507246116723322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06699411932683152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12376393752655332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10945475984234616,0.0,0.10080531727515694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08784810827380847,0.14099106479035442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15350426831179775,0.0,0.0,0.10951109671182734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1292421057994849,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12624961368534585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12998190205597795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1339547406290378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3020556131387417,0.0,0.08088201564707734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15309921217845482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13926077462499314,0.0,0.09741224047670904,0.1499286241469,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,haleul,2019/01/16,"is it common to involuntarily cry while purging? not necessarily sobs or anything like that, just tears flowing down without even realizing it’s happening. ",9.123600000000003,12.172244760000002,10.053,45.25150000000002,61.4,11.4,44.5,11.20814326018867,6.3686000000000025,129,8,16,4,2,44,24,25,0.165,0.659,0.17600000000000002,0.09,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,5,2,2,0,0,4,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,2,0,4,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,1,3,12,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3982399208950179,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5315834107401403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31963663021500216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.42794496976241936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23642776965423784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.46649917475551,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,TreatmentTime,2019/01/16,"Experiences with Bupropion (Wellbutrin)? After months of deliberating and procrastinating on finding a new psychiatrist, I finally found someone accepting new patients. I have previously tried pretty much every SSRI, a couple SNRIs, mood stabilisers, lithium, and mirtazapine to no or detrimental effect. Because of my fear of weight gain and the relatively well-controlled status of my ED at the moment, she was willing to prescribe me bupropion, and I've a prescription waiting for me at the local pharmacy.

For those who've been on it:

1. how much of an appetite suppressant was it?
2. did it seem to give you more energy/pop? Any trouble with insomnia, or conversely, sedation?
3. did you find it helpful? Had you previously tried a bunch of other shit and had this work?

Basically the only options left for me after this are trintellix and ECT, so I'm *really* hoping the atypical mechanism of bupropion works, but I'd love to hear others stories to give me some hope, false or otherwise 😬",7.366896551724138,9.057322643678162,8.375344827586208,60.84163793103448,63.94252873563219,12.236781609195404,38.06321839080459,11.855464076750405,5.520549425287356,796,41,117,28,12,270,119,174,0.045,0.84,0.116,0.9282,0,0,0,0,0,0,31.0,0,3,0,4,2,8,1,1,10,0,10,4,1,2,0,25,20,12,0,2,4,0,1,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,9,8,1,2,6,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,8,2,12,4,23,11,5,13,0,0,0,1,10,6,1,8,7,82,21,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10653711333654786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0955011184931307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17571236207047142,0.0,0.173346095952489,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13199645079837732,0.0,0.0,0.1532477715035422,0.0,0.1762909210454857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1716181104874394,0.2863767099092618,0.0,0.0,0.17177434622920112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3005733921440281,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17657208043706266,0.0,0.10500879479193076,0.0,0.0,0.31120604805264346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17021624764661905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14139567001282613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12504796965336587,0.0,0.2303326099966444,0.0,0.0,0.3026147628941681,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1191502788257004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15938394049805416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1003631782971471,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1426213176971633,0.0,0.0,0.1608136784183859,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13274117428710955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2127295860928228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19077494239257367,0.1408600429203247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2281069891144825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,a180life,2019/01/16,"(Rant) I’m sick of r/EDanonymous telling/assuming that other people on dieting subreddits have an eating disorder It’s ridiculous. Yes, the majority of people on r/EDanonymous are on those subreddits? You want to know why? Because we’re OBSESSED with food and dieting culture!!! 
Most of the people on r/fasting or r/1200isplenty are just trying to get more healthy, with the majority of them being overweight and trying to fix that. 
The posts accusing them of having an eating disorder comes across as snobby and ignorant. Some people don’t binge after fasting. They keep the weight off. Some people don’t cry when they go over 1200 calories. They casually move on. We need to get over ourselves ",4.012284946236559,7.221673508064518,4.572709677419359,77.00239784946237,80.04838709677419,7.500215053763441,29.23440860215053,8.447377352677275,2.9874286021505383,561,26,86,13,15,178,80,124,0.197,0.7390000000000001,0.064,-0.9537,0,0,0,0,0,0,21.0,1,1,5,0,2,4,1,1,7,1,7,8,0,0,0,17,16,6,0,2,2,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,5,7,7,2,1,1,0,3,2,3,0,0,0,1,7,1,22,15,6,16,0,0,0,0,8,9,0,4,3,58,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10328673921804264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14595428953768322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18611771742385866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3883771452771624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3467510793843536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20488293422298745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17704685001050358,0.0,0.09629450117240684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15060268602295127,0.0,0.0,0.0931177083004746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18008387364940434,0.0,0.12563480067047006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5873286600885289,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16227304993945035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2300721251166495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0999378649075863,0.0,0.0,0.2063276539075947,0.0,0.0,0.15288982282106672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,lifeatmach_2,2019/01/16,"My roommates eating habits are the most triggering thing in the world. She daily eats a container of macadamia nuts. I just looked at the container and it's 8 servings at 220 cals each. She considers this A SNACK but cannot figure out why she isn't losing weight. She loves to tell me that keto is a great diet because ""you don't have to worry about counting calories!"" Idk if I'm the only one like this but something about watching other people carelessly eat crazy amounts of calories drives me insane and makes me want to scream because calories don't rule their lives (and they rule my life) 🙃🙃🙃",6.330732600732597,6.65199276923077,5.855067155067157,82.8546153846154,65.75213675213675,8.395115995115995,31.244200244200243,7.957251820313856,2.0877482295482306,482,17,91,5,7,148,85,117,0.123,0.71,0.16699999999999998,0.8237,0,0,1,0,0,0,9.0,0,1,2,1,3,6,0,0,7,0,7,8,0,2,0,16,12,6,0,2,4,0,1,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,6,5,6,2,1,0,0,1,4,3,0,1,0,4,13,3,11,12,3,6,0,1,2,1,9,5,0,2,1,54,19,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24963506708305305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6285504045720218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22574453192114066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14462542256894,0.10003358036313456,0.0,0.18080355485287608,0.0,0.17194371391014626,0.2290699132126657,0.0,0.0,0.1848005454064079,0.0,0.13667641313583198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13874816083458869,0.1557263847635337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14195222985158162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15763139507043472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1789660219378968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13603098043190273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1207705645430249,0.0,0.0,0.2493379988285753,0.0,0.0,0.1847607033836244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2079399509965986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Youre_the_Worst_,2019/01/16,"Social media is a twat I was having a pretty decent day... ... ... and then my boyfriend looked something up on Facebook for me and the first thing that pops up in his search bar is a fling that he claimed “would drop everything to marry me” before we started dating.  She’s thin with money and has fake tits. 

I am a 30 year old damn baby basket case. 

On the plus side I found out my waist is back to 24” so I’m heading in the right direction 👏

Wahhh!",1.241219806763283,3.2264065760869585,2.7618840579710167,93.46814009661837,81.06521739130434,4.958454106280193,18.917874396135264,5.82211442006289,-0.24758357487922744,343,8,74,2,9,112,73,92,0.151,0.815,0.033,-0.8832,0,0,1,0,0,0,13.0,1,0,0,1,2,2,1,0,7,0,8,4,3,0,0,9,12,6,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,7,2,0,1,1,1,0,0,2,0,1,2,2,10,0,12,9,0,19,0,0,1,1,5,10,2,0,8,47,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21677835591238825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23989235640122306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1818144716191453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2533706735803521,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2398002090784612,0.0,0.3091096988069413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2893302900081617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2367410079228419,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2958266303949049,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2868130365420172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2407573375239439,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28738097955762626,0.0,0.21703506630524352,0.0,0.0,0.19954376224737316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18729449704110815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20026721212294352,0.0,0.0,0.18154663206087845
EDAnonymous,HotMessCentral,2019/01/16,"[discussion] lgbtq stereotypes I’m gay and I absolutely despise the whole “lesbians are fat lazy and dumb” stereotype like it’s absolutely so triggering to me. It makes me so self conscious and I have to bring up or prove that I’m not fat at all to break this stereotype so they will stop shoeboxing me.  I actually make kind of a show out of being UW and drinking Diet Coke for lunch because of it 

It’s absolutely stupid because I have a completely lgbt friend group and like only one out of 7 is overweight and most of us are quite slim .

I saw this one flair on fatlogic that was like “rare lesbian shitlord” and while u totally have the right to say that that’s a stereotype that many of us hate and I can’t stand ",2.844125874125872,4.9466115944055975,3.8006993006993,87.40566433566435,76.4125874125874,7.197202797202798,27.08391608391609,8.139509932561175,1.7279762237762246,570,23,117,10,13,183,89,143,0.184,0.743,0.073,-0.941,0,0,1,0,0,0,5.0,2,0,1,1,3,9,4,0,5,0,10,10,2,3,3,21,17,13,0,0,2,0,0,3,1,1,3,1,0,1,11,10,7,1,2,2,0,1,2,4,0,2,2,2,12,5,16,13,4,11,0,0,1,3,8,6,1,2,5,74,23,0,0.0,0.0,0.19196688954883476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2398330579179987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20625346699727787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19270724134578715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15198265003259184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19421677920982766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2048499229107487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28831717939284424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2626195309068869,0.19943961589985146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26660033049272464,0.14961173321025215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20923217091208576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1679947831191038,0.0,0.1564368256551162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20521817141343196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16446377003604185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4732513637961729,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21962690390388687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,intromniac,2019/01/16,Real tired of these modern public bathrooms All of the newer public bathrooms at my university don't have doors going into them. Hows a gal supposed to upchuck that Einstein Bros sandwich she just ate when there are people 5 feet from the entrance to the stall???  ,7.210748299319725,7.9470821836734675,6.914693877551024,74.57911564625853,63.89795918367346,7.34965986394558,32.65986394557823,6.42735559955562,2.1661374149659856,213,8,33,1,3,67,43,49,0.109,0.8909999999999999,0.0,-0.6416,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,1,0,4,0,0,0,4,0,3,4,1,1,1,5,5,2,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,2,1,2,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,3,0,7,4,1,6,0,0,0,0,5,2,0,0,3,24,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3073060692905121,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3748701321798599,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.615462610191355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6214830160455824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,edthrowaway12121,2019/01/16,"Oh how I missed ProED like community. Well, here’s my latest rant! So I’ve had a very bad month so far. My period is pretty late due to stress, so I’ve been (I’m guessing) hormonal binging despite using an EC stack. My parents have been trying to get me to gain weight and they’re clearly happy they’re succeeding and my willpower sucks right now, because my dad got a box of captain crunch and my mom screams to me from the other room really happily,

“OOH! HONEY! CAPTAIN CRUNCH!”
Well I’m frustrated so I stormed out from doing a workout and said I’m not eating it because I’ve had way too much junk and sugar. Her response?
“Ha, you ate the whole box last time”

God. I’m sorry, forgive me, but YOU BITCH. My mom knows I’ve struggled with eating disorder and a past of binging. She of all people should know not to say that. Now? Time to get back on track. That box isn’t being touched by me. Please someone comfort me. My heart is racing (and it’s not the ec stack)",0.36165950800468494,2.7690362182741133,2.1000253807106617,93.50178348301444,90.37055837563452,4.655134713002734,20.77489262007029,6.297961479604792,0.2833843811011323,753,26,157,8,26,246,123,197,0.129,0.726,0.14400000000000002,-0.5964,2,0,0,0,0,0,28.0,0,2,0,2,12,16,3,2,8,1,11,6,1,2,2,22,26,13,0,1,4,4,2,1,1,1,0,3,1,0,5,9,5,0,3,1,0,0,4,8,2,0,7,7,19,8,15,17,3,18,0,1,0,0,14,5,2,1,13,84,24,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11391286517602545,0.12369326320923595,0.1806132629545049,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16978477584954738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3031746589869328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1547972639968286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11848353442347626,0.0,0.16319627717344373,0.0,0.0,0.15770103704171606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1755502337735931,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16283109779940275,0.1207563624336252,0.16711181899961253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07237521380918989,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3470067117340148,0.11824637334773655,0.0,0.10890219118039357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16449533132652272,0.0,0.141419308989422,0.10270374157262199,0.0,0.0,0.16261658815970825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1507147455973033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09490423462441616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12651335975897854,0.14091796997818326,0.1178093035759735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12552112998619994,0.0,0.0,0.1658340217219638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16969736928636878,0.15487128667187874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17276681372333824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10057941016143608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12794803501936391,0.0,0.12223353539195393,0.0,0.11758906178011505,0.0,0.1803983313449824,0.26639679590330045,0.0,0.0,0.16539643071323062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,maebird-,2019/01/16,"Kind of wish there were a subreddit just for normal bodies... Not porn, not sexualized, not thinspo. Just to see what normal means to non-disordered people. It sounds stupid but I legitimately do not know what a normal body should look like.. ",4.8661627906976745,7.56436858139535,5.067616279069767,77.87723837209303,72.48837209302326,8.020930232558143,22.377906976744185,8.841846274778883,1.7210046511627906,191,5,33,4,4,60,34,43,0.054000000000000006,0.901,0.045,-0.09,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,0,3,3,1,0,2,0,3,3,2,0,0,14,8,1,0,5,7,0,0,1,0,1,0,1,0,0,3,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,4,1,0,0,1,3,1,2,4,6,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,1,21,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4865980965314582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25103364467845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2280917538322502,0.12037617549349368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10700967513720376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.183934643752788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2385938580166425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6438248154624663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15185162768619148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17454292468006255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2518800005516673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,kurtisskinny,2019/01/16,FUCK STOMACH NOISES my office is being renovated so now we all have to sit at a conference desk and my stomach won’t stop growling! Literally the worst I hate this sooo much 🤬,3.3779047619047624,5.350543171428576,5.48,76.55333333333336,74.42857142857143,8.095238095238095,28.809523809523807,8.841846274778883,2.528523809523809,141,6,26,3,3,49,33,35,0.35,0.65,0.0,-0.9385,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,1,0,0,0,3,3,2,0,2,0,4,3,2,0,1,4,6,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,4,0,2,4,3,4,0,0,0,1,1,1,1,0,2,20,5,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5277354447247244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5635895898547759,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.419635517369212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4772505706133795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,singinginthereign,2019/01/16,"I lost some weight, but now feel like i have no idea how i did it, and can't anymore???? I lost about 15 pounds a few years ago, which took me from pudgy overweight to normal bmi (though still stodgy and thick looking)

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i have been trying really really hard to lose 10 more pounds, since i want to be 120 exactly, and it's still a healthy-slim bmi for my height, but ???? like 1200 doesn't work for me anymore???  im not even that short but eating ""normally"" at a little deficit doesn't do anything, and switching back to keto for a few months sees water weight gone, but nothing else.

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i just feel like i'm going insane and **i literally cannot remember how the heck i even lost any weight in the first place?!!??**

i feel like my ed is really just a terrible obsession with ""disordered eating behaviors"" but even those behaviors don't help me lose weight, or control my eating. YES I suppose i binge a few thousand calories every so often, and YES december was a horrible horrible month for me, but besides that, i still have been tracking my calories, like nothing still adds up!!??!!?!?!

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anyway, just ranting.. haha .... i know what i have to fix ... i just am having a hard time with discipline

PS I actually really wanted to post this in loseit or xxloseit but knew i'd get mean/patronizing comments :( 

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EDAnonymous,npozero,2019/01/16,"I made an appointment to give blood today I’m scared about my iron level I’ve lost a lot of weight really quickly and I’m not sure how my hemoglobin has been affected. My brain is so dumb on one hand I love giving blood I’ve done it almost every time I’ve had the chance since I was 16 except the times my weight was too low, my iron was too low, or when I was in treatment. I love being at work in the ER and wondering when blood is used in an emergency could it be mine. Who is my blood helping. On the other hand I feel like if my hemoglobin is normal I might feel like I haven’t done enough with restriction. I want to lose a bunch more weight, but I don’t know if I want to stop being able to give blood. ",1.4368431568431568,2.8537597272727315,3.2053246753246762,93.18128371628372,78.35064935064935,6.816383616383617,18.33966033966034,7.61054688173877,0.12898861138861184,554,10,133,8,13,185,90,154,0.132,0.735,0.133,0.0512,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,3,8,11,1,1,8,0,20,13,8,4,1,27,36,10,0,6,6,0,7,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,3,3,2,4,0,0,0,3,6,1,1,10,7,19,5,14,21,4,16,0,4,0,2,7,9,1,7,9,84,23,1,0.13374823494012805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13392953740002916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14930726339021147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10678708240676398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27374176147816137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13819767984998302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11268865645112998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13525425254107673,0.19109953153077688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3849104826773744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08964862258857466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07350453210457139,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13068526341489373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14963006342446386,0.1460019979153365,0.11370796646395386,0.24142600782639506,0.126555813797379,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14188574121317002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13104487280220015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09063126542695747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08568254412193442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13390531574330286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11063792205859768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11181951325946587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12605612858572715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15597934273680492,0.0,0.12677768795261346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11551553204393067,0.0,0.0,0.1577763485299295,0.0,0.0,0.4886079545183907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14504425547484462,0.09737030797020327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,arabella_05,2019/01/16,"BED makes me feel like an addict right now I am sat in bed with a bag of popchips next to me, and it's as if i'm trying to become less impulsive by letting the bag sit there beside me and remain unopened. 

i'm watching netflix and trying to focus yet all i can think is about is food. why does this feel like such a challenge when everyone else seems to be maintaining a normal weight with no effort involved. i feel like my whole life revolves around me killing myself psychologically to restrict and then when i break, and binge on everything i'm back to square one. I'M SO TIRED OF THIS. i know all of you here will understand but it feels so alone in the real world where no one seems to struggle with such a trivial thing.",4.484178082191782,5.410163308219179,4.8135890410958915,86.55572602739728,70.02739726027397,7.4838356164383555,26.928767123287678,7.554174236665415,1.2950926027397258,577,18,119,6,10,182,98,146,0.131,0.825,0.044,-0.9162,0,1,0,0,0,1,8.0,0,1,0,2,14,6,1,1,7,0,7,5,0,1,2,26,22,13,1,2,2,0,5,3,0,1,3,0,2,0,5,9,2,1,9,1,0,0,2,2,0,2,1,7,12,4,20,18,4,16,0,0,2,0,2,7,0,3,10,79,17,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16650944355711042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15819285941410874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13597122634043202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11744784231946295,0.0,0.0,0.1686896320196073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13366404274352855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1275948994057988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14594987698467451,0.1372731091800883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30892028669626925,0.32735304597954257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18469414514702104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1689844824064364,0.0,0.08394205987838789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15618727824674578,0.10788497232444236,0.22386354744472264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10195531868910863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16244101379564793,0.0,0.14965303831699225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2070015247087217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17385187048118594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1304393591129269,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2780980171605817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15967729745664722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10147385085196192,0.0978697999538506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1755524755244199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2074012393063942,0.0,0.0,0.15900801151363333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18599650480004706,0.0,0.0,0.13782433971237115,0.17052906082725636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,DenverTheLastDinosau,2019/01/16,"all I can think about is food I have essays that I need to write and the deadlines are coming up super soon, and I can't focus and write them because I'm trying to eat well and all I can think about is food. I'm not even restricting much, I'm aiming for around 1200 calories, but I'm recovering from BED and this is a nightmare. I kind of just want to binge and eat what I want until I've handed my essays in, but I can't live like this, hopping from excuse to excuse. 

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Just wanted to rant.",3.6039757412398927,4.045143952830191,4.6760916442048535,88.5083962264151,71.73584905660377,6.811859838274933,22.69002695417789,6.18269132825596,0.3478291105121292,393,8,86,2,7,129,64,106,0.059,0.825,0.116,0.1598,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,1,1,8,4,0,0,2,0,9,5,1,0,2,24,20,9,0,4,5,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,4,8,4,1,2,0,0,1,3,0,1,0,0,1,10,4,15,20,3,6,0,0,0,0,5,3,0,0,3,57,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21355445209297305,0.2394943553781693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17545806353614934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1201484652077649,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16978156161385596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4033587497540853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13018066997352326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4766608042914242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20524613286689306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09629160911010608,0.0,0.17404020896193811,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14488892913011314,0.14614488356898006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2525835213926685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1338158844452392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3487586453699353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1772138194087668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2394943553781693,0.0
EDAnonymous,xxxanon1117,2019/01/16,"Couldn't recognize myself My college put photos of me and a few others up on a bulletin board in a hallmark I walk down semi-frequently and I only noticed yesterday. I walked passed it (maybe for the 10th or 12th time, I dont know how long its been up) and actually paused in the hallway, walked backwards to look at the board because I recognized the photoshoot and other people, but I still cannot see how that is me in those pictures. 

The person in those pictures has an angular face, thin neck and arms, a thigh gap, and obvious outline of how my body is just a ribcage and hips beneath my shirt. I have a hourglass shape when my ribs end and then my hips are just these giant knobby things. I just still dont understand how that's me. 

I'm not thin. I feel like I am am disproportioned and have a wide and rotund body. My legs are massive. My face is fat. If I wasnt wearing my glasses in those photos, I swear I would never have noticed it was me. Man, this has be messed up. I didn't realize how bad my body dysmorphia was until now. ",2.9685363813771986,4.526659530805689,4.182341789796489,87.18397825480905,74.54502369668245,7.23958739894062,26.155840535266236,7.928766900206844,1.4642281014775582,815,29,169,12,17,267,125,211,0.038,0.942,0.02,-0.316,0,0,0,1,0,0,23.0,0,0,0,0,12,3,0,0,13,0,23,15,15,5,2,30,29,21,0,3,7,0,3,1,0,1,1,0,0,2,13,10,1,0,4,0,0,5,8,2,0,0,5,5,28,1,17,21,1,34,0,0,2,0,2,18,0,2,12,123,41,2,0.0,0.0,0.15962058871858395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13657400129109454,0.09971066882685127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.545067722854148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3834053168586076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14487434639301328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08270583624844778,0.1168543411020627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0898937176694416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07991197166089056,0.0,0.0,0.14475417939586388,0.1373574867897023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1643279102655612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12615516026391355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3724507408747703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12440224973355635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11339874598030793,0.14282289310037166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16443288821096064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13034400144434072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26125420394872384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10866854723999744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09537890111523734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1702819934952064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1161953359282526,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,edwarides,2019/01/16,"Cookie party for one, please So I was high at a party and hadn't eaten all day, and finally I was like ""whatever, I'm gonna eat something."" So I ate a taco, and then a little bit later, I eat half an oreo. Not too shabby.

I grab a couple more oreos and go downstairs. I sit next to some guy, and I'm eating the oreos and he's all, ""So, how many have you eaten?""

And I'm like, ""uhhhhh, three? No, two and a half.""

And he teases, ""oh, are you sure you didn't have six... or seven... or eight?""

And now, I'm trying to figure out if he's making fun of me because I'm high or if he's calling me fat. 

Cue going back upstairs without even answering him and eating cookies all by myself. :(",0.03265306122449019,1.6208469251700706,3.1947959183673484,90.85913265306124,83.14965986394559,5.28843537414966,17.302721088435373,6.18269132825596,-0.29096462585034066,506,10,116,4,14,183,92,147,0.051,0.816,0.133,0.8895,0,0,1,0,0,0,40.0,0,3,0,0,8,5,1,0,7,0,7,8,1,2,4,28,19,21,0,2,7,0,1,2,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,12,8,0,2,0,0,2,5,1,0,8,7,1,13,4,8,11,6,15,0,0,0,0,11,5,0,6,9,75,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12155336484865865,0.0,0.09636378566411573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1725818533306954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1614168266027122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1749119413431625,0.0,0.10194818901763383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6470191032375561,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10441000771209892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17316834688466698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1796804263908798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1565235415014143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3340393061465675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15445930109042122,0.15843717104812374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10551928248429616,0.16026778431919034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16811932366182158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10711874888559862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17352380207868948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12169730916409476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14898804203884472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1073255924229795,0.0,0.15442068515275748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15238298064007216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,LecheFrijole,2019/01/16,"I've lost 10 lb in two weeks and I'm dreaming about food. 5'9. On New Years day I was 153 lb. Now I'm 143 lb and my goal weight is below 130. I'll probably be there by next month. (The only problem I'm anticipating is my coworkers noticing and getting concerned.)

I've been fasting on and off since New Year and also going thru a breakup. I'm probably averaging 500-700 calories a day.

I just got this total meal powder like Soylent but it's called Huel. Each meal is 400 cal. It's pretty delicious and makes it easy to restrict.

Anyhoo, oh my GOD I'm dreaming about food every night. My dreams are usually full of sex and conflict, but now it's like 100% food. Chocolate, booze, cake. Everything.

Right now I'm sitting here just thinking about cake like fantasizing about sex. The very idea of cake is so out of reach for me, that it's gratifying just to day dream about it.",1.276186440677968,3.6777950790960494,2.8614999999999995,90.30987711864408,84.08474576271186,5.799887005649718,22.97429378531073,7.1686216300943375,0.8695222598870059,687,25,144,10,20,225,111,177,0.051,0.742,0.207,0.9848,0,0,0,0,0,0,26.0,0,0,0,2,15,5,0,0,4,0,8,9,0,1,1,21,20,11,0,1,5,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,8,9,7,2,2,4,0,1,0,2,0,1,4,1,7,3,19,15,3,26,0,1,0,2,1,8,0,0,19,69,15,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11342381678599114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14482737377284838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2744116977221091,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11950043859650095,0.0,0.12747037510454032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5145151611001348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07410190027205396,0.0,0.08060697518426953,0.0,0.1134368247220285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1601122183367584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2078773514743923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1548274984928457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0946746438164654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1132097653292574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27396643374045776,0.15084102840366456,0.13310068350823706,0.0,0.0,0.16147783608751048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10787040479077499,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14429517369258105,0.3058399740159632,0.13571504748735536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1211246261837597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11732574180739855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09088087379995942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13855025375961622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1562090361765711,0.1170270974518092,0.0,0.0,0.11376989534887105,0.17271441126820827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18267163251967367
EDAnonymous,PrivateThoughtsForMe,2019/01/16,"Body image issues coming back up I created this throwaway to get some of this out. Hopefully I don't come back to it often, but I'm feeling suffocated right now, and I don't want to talk to anyone IRL about it. 

I've never been formally diagnosed with an eating disorder (or been brave enough to talk to a professional about it), but I've had a fucked up relationship with my body, and often food, for probably going on 8 or 9 years now (20 years old currently). I've had several times where ED-type issues have popped up hard and then gone away. The last time was a year ago. I dieted myself down (I'm noticing here that I wanted to post my weight, but I feel like that's feeding into the pride I have in what I did, so I'm not going to do that) then had a horrible binge spree and jumped right back up. 

I've been applying to grad school and it's ridiculously time consuming and stressful, so all last semester I told myself to just bury my feelings about my body and food and push through; I would lose weight over break. So slowly over the past month my thoughts have been shifting to weight loss. I've always found with losing weight or trying to be healthy, I have to make myself go all in because it takes concentrated effort, but then it completely consumes my life. At this point I'm just trying to be more mindful of what I eat, but there's this daunting voice in my head saying that soon enough I'll be in a dark space and at the end of it all I'll go on a binge spree and lose any progress. I don't believe that I can do this in a healthy way.

My brother's wedding is in June, and I want so badly to look nice. To not have fat arms and to be radiant and beautiful. Have pictures of myself I want to look at. I went to the seamstress to get my dress tailored, and I asked to have it taken in, and she remarked that it only needed to be taken in a little. It hurt; I had felt really proud when I first got the dress and my sister said I should get it taken in. It's stupid expensive, and there may not even be time, but I want to have to have the dress taken in again closer to the wedding. 

My way of ""turning off"" my issues is to do everything I can to avoid thinking about it. Looking at calorie counts scares me. I wear baggy clothes most days, so nothing feels tight or makes me worry about showing fat. I avoid mirrors and scales. I never EVER look at myself naked below my boobs. I can make these things a habit, and I don't feel it so much. It's like I have this knowledge all the time that I'm gross, but I put the volume of the painful feelings way down low. But lately I've been feeling so emotional about a lot of different things, and I can't ignore how much I don't like being in my own body. Even going back to school this week - I want to feel pretty and cute, but my clothes scare me. I've been KonMari-ing my stuff just a bit and trying to be an organized person, but step one is sorting clothing and the last thing I want to do is look through my clothes and all the shame I have at what I ""can't"" wear. People used to compliment my style all the time, but right now I can't imagine my clothes ""sparking joy"". 

I guess I kind of feel like this is the period before the storm. Part of me is hoping my motivation kicks in and I get skinny. The other part of me is afraid of fucking up this important time in my life by getting too self-invested. I've had an emotional dam break recently, and I don't know how to lock these feelings back up.",4.486974134651959,4.5662205955369615,5.264250982629644,86.34448602130091,69.68340306834031,8.414974007861039,27.313585647267658,8.150884317080207,1.4963085076708509,2705,79,592,34,44,881,293,717,0.121,0.765,0.115,-0.5453,2,2,0,0,0,0,74.0,0,0,0,10,40,35,4,7,31,0,58,28,12,7,9,112,124,54,0,12,21,2,17,4,0,3,6,3,0,1,41,33,13,4,18,1,1,13,14,21,0,2,25,25,73,14,93,88,18,107,0,6,5,3,13,45,3,14,47,397,114,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04926729164139728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04624605041522877,0.0,0.0,0.037795519700770684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0388620198954966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05195871641145766,0.0,0.05221815334488904,0.21368350123379093,0.046406013088581714,0.033880347349476224,0.0,0.047293502544834415,0.06261832454766891,0.0,0.0,0.0606777026946721,0.2469422646752057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09575250538684676,0.0582733603496041,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03584375636306823,0.0,0.0,0.056411356586763786,0.0,0.05806806247395905,0.06369817018238139,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11374206507330127,0.0,0.1250374372567078,0.049226358980172,0.1148556057261406,0.0,0.07341860437856769,0.050274246215183484,0.0,0.0,0.049950681111812605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2810233341020101,0.07941107430955104,0.05336440602685316,0.0,0.0,0.04727533619010384,0.13441231720561722,0.06093933356804754,0.0,0.10276349111570524,0.1451882599087475,0.0,0.15793368888712972,0.0,0.04445147865439052,0.0,0.061226362519904425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.049787727296078964,0.0,0.057039928291474785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11040466511436464,0.0,0.0,0.0594983018551464,0.0,0.0,0.17402961944115813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057876813171456785,0.030544679070052188,0.13591252725247613,0.06269535671182506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0785139621521244,0.10861206284571144,0.055704602628305934,0.0,0.0,0.2333611547409958,0.1865355292662652,0.0,0.047251145526763016,0.0,0.0,0.11129792954886177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05611878854556447,0.0,0.044362502911497716,0.0,0.0817136904334693,0.04121100848107884,0.08573166141513694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053329399648023655,0.06327688210235356,0.058320647257354176,0.0,0.037661662987539334,0.04227021522990894,0.05913980846095556,0.0,0.0,0.12037294355108236,0.0530562953363112,0.03853137229958322,0.04852930267773541,0.0,0.0,0.05253997211235912,0.0,0.05322916900107817,0.056543665154987065,0.059923393968157726,0.0,0.0,0.05587208905337022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.035605230550774546,0.0,0.05487740322455696,0.05967087849797944,0.0,0.14239208692209268,0.052868207932731184,0.04419852740448282,0.11128823701195484,0.11249751438706464,0.0,0.0,0.0579808554356062,0.0627882736665544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06366537785392586,0.0,0.06362447909141973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.041788373706062615,0.08934433880199041,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11077234271231624,0.0356126789665575,0.0,0.04412339380330661,0.2268592956331433,0.0,0.0,0.053107967081925916,0.0,0.11320316005807138,0.060453822246831324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04800227622520646,0.0,0.0,0.22947289472468976,0.1323476978082007,0.044581996075834365,0.27072023514789,0.0,0.05152214507365633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0564430137954452,0.0,0.03948161603924715,0.0,0.0,0.1073728596548168
EDAnonymous,sammakle,2019/01/16,"I want everyone to know and sympathise with how much I'm struggling and suffering but I don't want them to stop me it's a stupid position to be in. I want to cry about it and explain what I'm going through because no one irl knows.

I want to tell my friend but a) I don't want her to worry about me and b) I'm still struggling and i know its a shitty mindset but i genuinely feel like I haven't lost enough weight to let people stop me (I mean I'm still ~80kg and classed as overweight)

tldr fml I'm sad and suffering and can't tell anyone even tho I want to tell everyone ",-0.03380952380952351,2.004519269841272,2.154920634920636,95.64285714285715,86.46031746031748,5.822222222222222,20.904761904761905,7.1686216300943375,0.4719428571428571,452,15,107,7,14,152,69,126,0.292,0.579,0.128,-0.9825,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,1,1,7,9,1,2,3,0,6,2,0,1,0,27,25,14,0,6,3,0,2,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,4,9,2,2,6,0,0,1,5,7,0,1,1,2,16,2,14,22,2,6,0,4,0,0,7,1,0,0,5,63,20,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10050347952015024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08762006723094311,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15788713088445985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14851760213330156,0.0,0.09493620276817448,0.0,0.0,0.2746916138856529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0726771870828018,0.1026849518116267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11104999560440676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08168842128789504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23698046593730646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14697969061841412,0.0,0.07022209771396999,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15690470824543107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15657052682494074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10566242098429576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09739916208528283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09964837126860723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2295753421743101,0.24033928788147935,0.0,0.3005279308585619,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3768945218510327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5086749281706426,0.0,0.0,0.1750315969296103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14597077805787054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,alittlewiser,2019/01/17,"Postponing my life until I reach my GW I keep on telling myself I’ll start doing things when I reach my GW.  I make empty promises to others, telling them I’ll go out when they know I’m lying and that I’ll end up flaking last minute. I miss my friends’ get-togethers , avoid updating social media, and never allow others to take my photo. Why do I endlessly torment myself like this? Maybe it’s because I’ve made up my mind that I’ll never be good enough. I often dream of the ideal, Platonic version of myself - utter perfection through and through - and then I have nightmares where I obsess over the delta between that perfect self and the reality of the mess I currently am. My tomorrows keep on piling up as empty yesterdays while time keeps on sliding forward. 

 The harsh truth is that the world keeps on rotating while I’ll forever be stuck in the same place, rooted to the spot because of my insecurities. I can’t keep on postponing my life, but I know others can’t wait for me any longer. I have to move forward too, but I just can’t.  Not yet anyways - but when I reach my GW I will. I promise. ",4.136077981651376,5.439169339449542,5.204483944954131,82.01663417431195,71.20183486238533,8.018807339449541,28.762614678899087,8.472884824447931,2.1041091743119265,868,33,167,14,16,286,125,218,0.107,0.797,0.096,0.1935,1,2,0,0,0,0,23.0,0,0,2,3,9,14,0,3,8,0,12,2,0,4,5,33,28,16,0,1,5,0,0,1,1,1,2,0,0,1,10,6,0,7,2,1,0,5,6,5,0,0,2,0,33,9,25,23,3,37,0,1,0,0,7,16,0,1,21,113,43,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10095840159867384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1810005916622566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13149215987786378,0.15339964181683416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11470040793001267,0.0,0.07756461489260102,0.0,0.08437366605810544,0.12452183424471272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6597936841275912,0.0,0.0,0.16318029230295544,0.12101532683662143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.209724437838478,0.07253042388390643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14047715220277115,0.09909870409204236,0.0,0.1491487788349842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1499030370813667,0.0,0.0,0.15779028327423153,0.0,0.0,0.22900416693289802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15510988650814342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15487694135300434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15133703951518573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10508128366297843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11162400856433,0.0,0.259522480048227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09863072616468448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08656865778291152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1339627361617617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,violettheatre,2019/01/17,"Kinda ruined my boyfriend's birthday with my relapse :/ So it was my bf's birthday on Tuesday. He had been away for work the whole weekend until Tuesday morning so I wasn't going to see him until he got home after work on his birthday. My ED issues aren't really with body image so idk if it's as much of an ED in the traditional sense - I struggled in the past with heavily restricting food for long periods of time as a form of control when I was anxious. It got to the point where I was passing out occasionally and struggling at uni cause no food = no brain power or focus. 

I would say the past two years have been really good! I eat healthy normal meals and exercise control in slightly more healthy ways (hopefully). But....the few days my bf was gone I was feeling really down and anxious and totally relapsed. I think I ate like a few pieces of fruit and a couple of cucumbers+dip over four or five days. 

Of course, I am not really used to eating like this anymore (well for more than like a day or two at a time) and Tuesday aka my bf's birthday rolls around and I feel SO sick. I have no energy, walking to work makes me feel like puking, I'm sweating bullets at my desk. I tried to get some food in that day so I wouldn't be sick at night when he got home but it was too late :/ 

We ended up cancelling our plans cause I was super sick and fatigued. I felt so horrible. He was really nice about it though, we don't really celebrate birthdays or holidays anyway and we were just going to see a movie. I still felt awful that he had to take care of me on HIS birthday though, although his response made me realise how great he is.

Sorry, this is pretty long. It still makes me feel a bit emotional and was totally not worth it. Still struggling again this week but eating a bit more, we'll see how we go I guess. ",2.9289855072463773,4.539656391304348,4.200521739130437,86.79520289855074,74.76086956521739,7.189275362318843,25.58188405797101,7.908726449838941,1.4036225362318846,1424,49,293,21,30,468,186,368,0.153,0.7340000000000001,0.113,-0.8949,1,0,0,0,0,0,39.0,6,0,0,8,23,16,0,3,14,1,26,17,3,10,2,56,54,34,0,5,10,0,6,4,3,3,5,1,2,0,12,19,9,3,7,3,1,6,9,5,1,4,23,11,39,11,44,27,14,55,0,2,3,0,20,19,0,9,33,194,51,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17789121795412988,0.07808174229334004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07008884916062927,0.0,0.0,0.07397202021486625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1719115657222392,0.08745434788650502,0.0,0.08789179920657042,0.0,0.0,0.08027329659439393,0.161760465943515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17661097136921247,0.0,0.08711630197353835,0.0,0.20310446849803346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2416898089438005,0.0,0.08856375842399979,0.0697338566826579,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15923859745666522,0.0562466998336059,0.1511915940535296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2856118995569793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0411346177870241,0.0,0.13423692657002728,0.06603730405788473,0.18890934284207733,0.0868031464036333,0.086733012101976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15795075651921575,0.0781993961536239,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08217654654989079,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0888139832030138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15385939934215728,0.0,0.0,0.13935203093615106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0744988416647424,0.10510945800891007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0578776380759119,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.073885362226909,0.07714138874329297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15031865739188044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07442790735081281,0.0,0.0,0.08009952236805243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3026293346677288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06261145125216741,0.0,0.0,0.18821944966377066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08813487943504981,0.0,0.0,0.1886282527185308,0.0,0.0,0.2469257279726684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059197237483960226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05044877383963589,0.1547090748887372,0.0,0.09181941160067413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053454376226181405,0.0,0.15382093338425099,0.0,0.0,0.06799982611101107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06249440057750496,0.06315467138715826,0.0,0.07079020711499551,0.0,0.0,0.08790231539061495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17195516204257402,0.0,0.0,0.055929494106796686,0.0,0.0,0.05070131640782161
EDAnonymous,Perfect_Difficulty,2019/01/17,"I cant feel anything but food lights my brain up a little yknow but I dont wanna get fat again I'd rather die than gain weight. I miss when restricting was satisfying, now it's really not worth losing even more energy. It's all in title",-0.054771428571427805,2.282813579999999,2.299714285714288,91.29700000000001,93.2,6.057142857142857,13.142857142857142,7.447530270364453,-0.03591428571428601,189,3,41,4,7,64,43,50,0.214,0.542,0.244,0.4204,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,2,5,2,0,0,1,0,3,4,2,0,1,8,6,3,1,2,4,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,3,1,1,0,1,0,3,2,0,0,1,3,4,0,4,5,2,6,0,2,0,0,0,3,0,0,3,24,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24867829340777786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3373462479412831,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3136276186185371,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3541668101853833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1995949866950521,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15279737092758985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36541180387975214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15788286388741932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30287580415232057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3380755854022864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19359195338043414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3679884832310853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,mojomastrblastr,2019/01/17,How do you experience your “ED Voice”? I’ve heard a lot of people with eating disorders talk about their ED/Ana/Mia voice.  It always confused me that everyone was calling it a voice (it makes it sound like psychosis or something). I decided to research it a bit and found an academic article about the “ED Voice” and it stated that most people with eating disorders experience this voice as separate from their own voice/internal dialogue. For me it’s just my own internal dialogue which explains why I was so confused.  Now I need to know if I’m the odd one out- how do you guys experience this?,3.9769911504424797,6.245006389380535,5.211690265486727,77.82390707964602,73.60176991150442,9.47575221238938,29.88407079646018,9.888512548439397,3.3333865486725665,474,21,86,14,10,157,72,113,0.068,0.909,0.023,-0.5803,0,0,1,0,0,0,12.0,0,3,2,0,7,3,0,2,6,0,4,2,0,3,0,20,11,8,0,2,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,7,0,1,12,5,2,0,4,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,4,7,11,1,11,7,5,3,0,0,0,0,10,1,0,6,2,58,23,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1500034269357119,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1968138524493296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18408115848049464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4132220473359583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36893311741323404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17226070093230164,0.0,0.529031280072017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1976624768668988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17850081342489976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09907454785913042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08807336781806899,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15326354774111628,0.0,0.0,0.12033511109438098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13367179346417993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12215915654428353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2499602814760566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13878467397963995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14489839540103305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16267034858054533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,dikeid,2019/01/17,"Im so ungrateful and i hate it Sorry just need to rant

My sister offered to get me some stuff from the grocery shop (I cant drive right now and its really hot out) and I asked for sugarfree jello and the cookie dough halo top...

She came back with REGULAR jello and the candy bar halo top (it has nuts in it and i dont like them)... im just trying not to cry because i was looking forward to finally eating something and she could have texted me to ask if she wasnt sure but she didnt. And now she has spent her own money on me and im never going to eat it and i feel so guilty and sad and im so mad at myself like ??? I should have been more specific and just arghhh im so upset",-0.2889000000000017,1.58349896,2.5409166666666683,93.543375,86.06666666666666,5.3500000000000005,16.708333333333332,6.6274283507984215,-0.24196666666666644,524,11,122,6,16,184,91,150,0.219,0.7609999999999999,0.02,-0.9847,0,0,1,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,1,2,10,7,2,1,3,0,12,3,0,0,2,29,22,19,0,4,6,1,2,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,6,16,3,0,1,2,3,4,6,4,0,0,6,3,19,3,13,14,3,16,0,1,1,0,11,8,0,2,8,83,25,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25486775474931883,0.0,0.0,0.10481597304128193,0.0,0.08309489394145131,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15590529691164665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1088345168711522,0.0,0.14973298709055347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15975734851542364,0.0,0.0,0.2789636344768389,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06892374479342693,0.0,0.0,0.1493237871388051,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07121770585299357,0.0,0.07746959021694384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13458046868258491,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7362049807552087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13319089898684525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.114468250300022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10107406348679117,0.10513267823426477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08732534014068401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11641021306388827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10494009682432147,0.0,0.15259079229792755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1560453110957654,0.0,0.0,0.1284730095070606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09254730558921892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,girl_snap_out_of_it,2019/01/17,"Let's share little gleaming moments of pride! What was something delicious you ate this week? Feel free to share details, recipes, etc. Let's take a moment to celebrate ourselves. Like the title says, I just wanna take a moment to hear about any particular moment that made you proud this week: a food you cooked for yourself that you enjoyed, a new food discovery you made, if you restrained yourself of making any poor choices, etc. I'm sitting here eating dinner which I made last sunday while meal prepping, and knowing I'm eating a plate full of food that I carefully crafted, whose ingredients I picked off the supermarket with my own hands, a tomato sauce I made myself, fills me with happiness, fills me with the joy of knowing decisions like this help me show myself some much needed love. Also I got my pots/cookware set which includes a dutch oven so I'll be to cook more generous, delicious meals, yaaay!

PS: I also discovered PB2 this week. What the heck my dudes. What. The. HEEEEEEEECK.

What about you? Tell me about any little rays of sun that shone upon you this week!",4.752452941176472,7.026435010000004,4.515235294117649,83.64482352941178,71.4,7.105882352941178,27.264705882352942,7.928766900206844,1.7782088235294118,862,31,152,12,17,263,120,200,0.014,0.741,0.245,0.9938,0,0,1,0,0,0,30.0,0,8,0,2,8,12,0,0,12,0,4,13,1,6,0,20,22,6,0,3,2,0,2,2,0,0,0,2,1,0,16,4,11,1,4,3,2,2,0,0,0,0,7,4,24,13,19,12,7,21,0,0,0,1,16,5,1,2,14,90,40,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1822537945498356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23247258853850264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1161810516896001,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2332014702857844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2541718761631575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05761725413985388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41337147312213024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09113734810336477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12130338936179433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1284315149818968,0.0,0.07637922466659666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12524942401833697,0.09288560382976536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23304606376991305,0.0,0.11134180098659598,0.22841848750037425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10284559182107188,0.4312942979282721,0.0760634475727503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08376739396845817,0.0844935228101761,0.0,0.1100549768632268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09061873079717216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08772535860187954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1713545500132314,0.0,0.09959855043494756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3656197740549037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,camelno9,2019/01/17,I posted a picture of myself without a shirt to my Snapchat story. Not exactly a big deal but I don't think I'd have ever done this at a higher weight. Basically one of my friends told me I was getting fat even though I've maintained a 22ish BMI for the past 10 months. The reason he made the comment was because he saw me after doing this 5 lb eating challenge at a local pho place a few weeks ago and I was bloated as fuck. He brought it up again today so I posted the picture and here we are. For anyone wondering the challenge at the pho place was free if you ate it all and with how much food I've been able to b/p before I knew I'd be able to finish it lol.,4.545624999999999,3.747421201388892,5.852222222222222,85.165,69.625,8.033333333333333,29.11111111111111,6.6274283507984215,1.3446694444444445,519,16,116,3,8,176,98,144,0.034,0.855,0.11,0.8573,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,1,1,0,2,7,5,1,0,13,1,11,7,2,3,3,18,21,9,0,1,4,0,1,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,5,5,5,0,4,0,1,1,3,1,0,1,12,2,13,5,15,8,3,20,0,0,1,1,9,8,1,2,9,74,18,2,0.3433843218389377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15219474134290634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1200511509564734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10466194770748544,0.0,0.146097383217289,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17700707893048534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17570069086566426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1756839436155796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11340105301997455,0.15530538911337716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20761084249677475,0.0,0.13264893762556187,0.15872663615942625,0.08970206774780931,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16245927400477986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13704304480715793,0.0,0.12621349342903995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11634305166708155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16389959497058562,0.0,0.0,0.3587635306943485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32886726012800904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17652813671423506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11001340409158854,0.1686866763746633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1627440931142166,0.16405921746446678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13772109517809986,0.20907479786245955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16550511627731776,0.1861928246199234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,thisistotallymyrealn,2019/01/17,"Having a person recovering from an ed while you still have said ed? So my classmate had anorexia, it got pretty bad but he’s in recovery currently. But problem is, im still anorexic and trying to trigger him or really give any hints that i have one is a confusing mess. Does anyone know what I should do like? We generally don’t talk, mostly because I avoid any and all conversations with him for that reason but still, pretty small school so kinda hard to avoid people. im just trying not to cause him to come down this shit hole again, thanks bye fam.",3.7152777777777786,5.6340947870370375,4.604814814814816,83.4216666666667,73.35185185185185,7.392592592592592,23.11111111111111,8.167268648758528,1.2833444444444453,439,12,84,7,9,142,82,108,0.198,0.6940000000000001,0.108,-0.8837,1,2,0,0,0,0,11.0,1,1,0,0,7,9,1,3,3,0,9,1,1,3,1,24,15,9,0,2,6,0,1,1,0,1,0,1,0,1,5,5,0,2,2,0,0,1,2,7,0,1,3,2,9,2,9,11,2,10,0,0,0,0,12,3,1,4,8,53,14,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23384802674433966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1202233325511838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14356138870099394,0.10481205756414401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17662810749872832,0.0,0.14810971391461167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15046445940123832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16493898802827073,0.0,0.0,0.13751485164768604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15402304130819974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37144597056128936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09449285238860183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08400042114179447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11650991497501245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11920044295389474,0.15012998578024336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3498463475584059,0.0,0.1645218355442752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1101481468173346,0.17678131959377053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1635527993854591,0.0,0.0,0.1740108481199267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17649230485925652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4119307038853351,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.138197579336349,0.0,0.15829778531487526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2334697852231044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,plzbeanonymous,2019/01/17,"I just remembered how little I used to think 100 calories were. I remember just 2 years ago those little “100 calories packs” were like basically nothing! It’s only 100 calories, it’s basically free food! I can eat 10! Oh how times have changed..... 100 calories just for this coffee? Or cookies? I’ll just eat 1/2... Or even 1/4th.... you know, I’ll probably just pass it up all together. :( ",0.8387899543379014,3.3382129589041085,2.461952054794523,88.2467180365297,97.4931506849315,5.721004566210046,23.89155251141552,7.1686216300943375,1.4889826484018265,298,13,57,6,12,97,48,73,0.04,0.862,0.098,0.6293,0,0,0,0,0,0,25.0,0,1,0,0,8,2,0,0,0,0,4,3,0,3,1,15,7,4,0,0,7,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,0,3,0,4,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,5,3,3,5,1,7,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,2,4,28,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18789926349880315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22423692714099372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4337979528419662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14000466871870068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25631584938679103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11649357027467686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10355819213860942,0.4249007184538357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20339163333015686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1612132927348089,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2285402996154251,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4802430341231987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13582228545749409,0.0,0.0,0.12360183790203208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1830746535578508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1365022010664507
EDAnonymous,Rosalie_aqua,2019/01/17,"Donating blood burns 650 calories! Just saw a post on how skiing by in Antarctica, you can lose 1kg a day! So I had a quick google and it turns out that donating blood burns about 650 calories + you lose how much a pint of blood weighs. And everyone thinks you’re a hero when you’re suddenly donating blood every couple of months. 
Only thing is, at least in England there’s age and weight requirements, so us shorter people might need to bring in a few layers.

Wonder what else I can do!",3.3753865979381423,5.157177917525775,3.979987113402064,88.12400128865983,73.94845360824742,7.73659793814433,23.465206185567013,8.472884824447931,1.3563206185567007,386,11,79,7,8,122,70,97,0.069,0.8909999999999999,0.04,-0.3971,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,1,2,0,4,9,3,0,0,6,0,6,6,4,2,0,12,12,8,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,4,2,1,2,1,3,1,0,2,0,0,2,2,5,1,11,9,3,14,0,2,1,0,3,6,0,2,6,46,9,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24780583080383384,0.0,0.14443471088629944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18708859680876028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18869470335354044,0.21400195318648435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5011045711223853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2375845865189376,0.0,0.0,0.17876154545054232,0.0,0.16463527334667485,0.16606239689293373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1703305382949248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15526463135646312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2144903440787307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14878808210269406,0.1435035697241032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2436025468354509,0.0,0.0,0.2693945114282175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27272112957826583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24287344992732404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Ohealyeal,2019/01/17,"I want to kill myself so bad that it hurts And it's all because of my weight. I fucking hate this, I'm crying",-1.2493333333333323,0.6402158000000036,1.3480000000000023,100.24066666666668,91.0,3.333333333333334,16.333333333333336,3.1291,-1.1908666666666663,85,2,21,0,3,29,22,25,0.534,0.429,0.037000000000000005,-0.9606,0,0,0,0,0,1,2.0,0,0,0,0,1,5,3,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,3,4,2,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,0,0,0,1,4,0,2,4,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,13,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2897211333407643,0.21152113656762767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38115087592958097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.320785531125721,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3425795779413591,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3714586601615499,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38389166880262426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20466296962642452,0.0,0.0,0.4225388485518464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,taoshka,2019/01/17,"Had a scary wake up call....then continued as usual I've had an ED for most my life, and so has my mother. She and I were out last week, and her front tooth broke in half apropos of nothing. Her teeth are terrible, from years of starving and purging, and it scared the hell out of me to see her just loose a tooth out of nowhere like that. I told myself I needed to do everything I could to stop purging again, so my teeth don't fall out in 25 years.

  But it's less than a week later, and I've purged almost daily. I don't want to, but I clearly have no control over myself, even with irl terrifying warnings in front of my face. It's partially because I was able to sneakily weigh myself, and I've gained 4lbs since the holidays. I'm short af, and even a couple lbs are so visible on my frame. 

  I hate myself for not being able to control myself and not purge. And I kinda hate my mom for passing this shitty disease on to me. I'm never having kids, this shit stops here.",4.544240924092406,4.3599902722772255,5.462128712871287,85.88382013201321,69.54455445544555,8.317491749174918,27.22937293729373,7.793537801064563,1.3831966996699672,753,21,165,8,12,248,120,202,0.235,0.7140000000000001,0.051,-0.9903,0,0,0,0,0,0,26.0,0,0,0,3,8,8,4,1,7,0,14,9,7,2,2,32,22,16,0,3,5,2,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,6,15,1,4,0,1,0,4,6,7,0,1,5,1,26,1,30,15,2,28,1,1,1,0,8,12,2,3,13,110,32,0,0.32669037632539083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16356661078139512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0995737105887565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16679370020100015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36641103609546544,0.13041784122898142,0.18073834382688933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21577591247260125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14680412256209605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32253911170380795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1331481297444427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1153755370904289,0.07980220805214013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1913079101796772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1211183872832748,0.12598187902250182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15673411348619287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16353702914932844,0.0,0.1301649665928642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16767148831557924,0.13512082761078095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.273127782834739,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15608332729371066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17990164752684898,0.0,0.0963452241062512,0.0,0.2620513142285028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2103778913888296
EDAnonymous,SuspiciousCranberry,2019/01/17,Coworkers are appetite control I have a new coworker who is somewhat overweight. I can hear her literally eating at her desk all day. It’s keeping me motivated to keep my fast up. I feel so messed up for thinking that way but it just motivates me to reach my goal weight and be the female here that actually has self control. ,3.258095238095237,5.647411555555558,4.800238095238097,79.3489285714286,76.30158730158729,8.009523809523811,31.13492063492064,8.841846274778883,2.9083777777777766,260,13,48,6,6,87,53,63,0.06,0.888,0.052000000000000005,-0.131,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,5,3,1,0,0,2,0,6,3,0,4,1,13,11,3,0,0,2,0,2,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,5,1,3,4,4,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,9,0,6,10,2,7,0,0,0,0,5,3,0,1,3,35,14,4,0.0,0.0,0.2389552212312051,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5492791324167744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1579191901013711,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2505604409160149,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12381229487069755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2759833116141162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4352987218386672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2364944225613906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2554500605078834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15690111724823375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19436431306612634,0.0,0.2981824773439284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,tyler199696,2019/01/17,"I need mental recovery! Hello. I battled with anorexia a few years ago. I am now a 22 year old male college student. During my recovery I was able to relearn how to eat a healthy amount and to regain my weight. However, I still struggle with the mental aspects of anorexia. I have seen three different therapists over the years, but none of them have helped. I still feel anxious around food and guilty when I eat, especially if I eat while other people are around. My mind tells me that they are either judging me for how or what I am eating, or that I should not be eating in public because I appear glutinous and/or fat. I also still have food rituals that I have not been able to break, such as only eating at a certain time, or eating certain foods a certain way and in a specific order. Because of these things, I find it hard to eat with family and friends, and I often schedule my day around my meals instead of my meals around my day. I am always thinking about food, ALL DAY LONG, and it is a living hell! I don't know what to do. Please help me... I seem to have only recovered physically from anorexia but not mentally.",4.871787878787881,5.861645027272727,5.5236363636363635,81.58378787878792,69.18181818181819,8.048484848484849,29.666666666666664,8.238735603445708,2.0959939393939395,886,33,167,12,15,287,126,220,0.08,0.8240000000000001,0.096,0.555,2,0,0,0,0,0,28.0,0,0,2,0,16,7,2,1,9,0,17,16,1,2,4,39,24,18,0,3,10,0,3,0,1,1,1,0,0,1,10,13,16,0,5,0,0,1,5,3,0,1,3,4,31,4,26,19,5,29,2,0,1,0,9,8,1,7,17,125,41,2,0.1598915805916092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07086711944426645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06393261961593645,0.06652130184984201,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09031598736976572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2846748114203172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0974684234686489,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1546752629717338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08352633526502642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6544360156882828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07536577609775444,0.0,0.040422993675786174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07306900399025715,0.0,0.3866830678464693,0.0,0.061765919268431335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07161572515151406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10717195610068753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04393611558353532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0705935975059714,0.07074950866448004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2416996595028554,0.0,0.08072245821575383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0592787905149085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08388965858600285,0.0,0.0,0.12160475203048325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05542434487735564,0.0,0.0,0.08775647047453987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07277964493140314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19153443420125055,0.0,0.0,0.08357669810921653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06987614447187826,0.0,0.0,0.09282322435467788,0.053112430719443104,0.05122603435202287,0.0,0.0,0.04661703322849885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0634572471665736,0.0,0.0973524350589881,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15444740347441094
EDAnonymous,wildhcnt,2019/01/17,"My mother called me fat for fitting into a size 8 and now I can’t have dinner I bought these really cute plaid trousers from H&M (UK) the other day in a size 8. I wore them out today and when we got back she commented that they looked snug and a size 8 was too big so I must have gained a lot of weight since “h&m already have large sizes”. For context I’m 15, 173cm (5’8) and about 130lbs. I thought they fit great (apart from being to short on the ankles) but I guess not.  

I ended up sobbing my heart out because I was really hungry and hadn’t eaten all day and now I can’t eat until tomorrow without feeling guilty. Oh well...",2.796818181818182,3.9626323181818215,3.861030303030304,90.89154545454548,74.30303030303031,6.492121212121212,23.04848484848485,6.742157984588678,0.5202975757575756,494,13,108,4,10,160,95,132,0.013,0.87,0.117,0.8909,0,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,1,0,3,1,8,4,0,0,6,0,10,6,2,0,2,19,19,10,0,1,3,1,2,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,3,10,5,0,2,0,1,0,5,1,1,0,8,3,17,3,15,9,2,21,0,1,1,0,8,11,1,2,10,68,20,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22228394447736524,0.0,0.0,0.4365004691184262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15488788491418326,0.0,0.12279037246251345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20568341232825574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2598124599419005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2061140399616065,0.0,0.0,0.17840793932244495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10184948669239853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16110264644516575,0.22207821585218615,0.2218987834096147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23869651916283205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16915117671821686,0.0,0.0,0.17124929973899314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25808351229969656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1666256751071032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15991358953708998,0.0,0.0,0.1909328867586075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24528850135492,0.1811105189989623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19417214486531076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,EggsAndBaccon,2019/01/17,"Dr Dray on youtube So, Im watching skin care videos on YouTube trying to pretend that if I have a skin care routine that means I have my life together. You know, normal stuff. Anyways, I can across Dr Dray and couldn't help but notice how tiny she is. Have you guys seen her? Do you think she has an ED? I love her content and her videos are very informative but my goodness she is SUCH goals. Let me know what you think, shes pretty small.",1.020333333333333,3.3204859222222254,1.6866666666666674,99.0,84.22222222222223,4.488888888888889,20.11111111111111,5.6839178017228535,-0.3330888888888888,343,10,78,2,10,105,62,90,0.029,0.777,0.193,0.9573,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,4,0,1,4,4,0,0,2,0,12,6,2,1,0,14,21,7,0,3,3,0,2,0,0,0,3,0,0,1,4,2,0,0,6,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,4,18,4,4,18,0,4,0,0,2,1,15,4,0,1,0,48,22,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4606219976456317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18946671062964152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2236676720052199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1514100213972394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2440011166969049,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2482876469797677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23098892176485106,0.1595535418223024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20387550837564825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2460615954441037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22132528556560727,0.0,0.2571784782773083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2298124256068609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2585912290597696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2894837507696007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15336520739030166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18638378844484896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,snackqueen18,2019/01/17,Gained 5 pounds over the holidays. FML. Halp. Why do I do this to myself? ,-2.285,-2.1312916666666624,0.03250000000000064,101.50875,132.33333333333334,4.166666666666667,10.416666666666668,5.985473137389443,-0.9273333333333332,55,1,13,1,4,18,14,15,0.0,0.679,0.321,0.6369,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,2,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,8,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,wavybabyyy,2019/01/17,ribs hurting Does anybody else’s ribs painful hurt or just feel super sore after they haven’t eaten for long amounts of time? ,4.783750000000001,6.967949875000006,3.3483333333333327,92.43000000000002,71.08333333333334,4.800000000000002,28.66666666666667,3.1291,0.7043166666666663,103,4,19,0,2,29,23,24,0.355,0.525,0.12,-0.765,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,1,1,1,4,0,0,0,0,1,5,2,0,0,3,3,1,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,1,1,1,1,3,2,1,3,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,1,3,7,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29912615594976905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2855440475587586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17283282765818767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7318438366226606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3024970821306129,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3637171395796008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19931610544578132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Schweppss,2019/01/17,"I’m finally under 100lbs for the first time in about 2/3 years i’m not even sure if this is a rant or a rave. i weighed in today at 98.9lbs (height is 5’9) which i don’t think i’ve weighed since i was about 15/16. 

i’m fucking scared, to be honest. 

about a month or two ago, i referred myself to an ED specialist, and they weighed me about 3 weeks ago when i was around 103lbs. i’m fucking terrified to go back there weighing less and less, out of fear of getting body-slammed into inpatient. 

in conclusion, please euthanise me. ",3.481238317757011,4.737140616822433,3.742137850467291,92.055636682243,72.73831775700937,7.219158878504674,28.328271028037385,7.6454224807358475,1.4239168224299061,414,16,91,5,8,128,75,107,0.142,0.805,0.054000000000000006,-0.8475,0,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,1,2,9,6,2,2,5,0,6,6,0,0,1,13,15,6,0,1,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,5,4,0,3,0,0,1,2,4,0,2,2,0,9,2,18,12,2,21,0,0,0,2,1,9,2,3,11,54,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3940129505775104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1978448596514289,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1708924197085643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1467904971773173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25008702216321993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2434581539795139,0.0,0.18904118819223856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4109232007399672,0.1161136583115768,0.0,0.12630675785254855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17739356157823974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2439578900277929,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22250566840985592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18384307346183185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2094629551667277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14240539970937405,0.0,0.0,0.129592644329053,0.0,0.21066194452973552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2171007324368636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1782712549365571,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1431182698671392
EDAnonymous,kernalmustache,2019/01/17,"Measurements not changing? I've noticed something very strange. It seems that whether I gain or lose weight, whether I look bigger or thinner than usual, my waist measurement always stays the same. It's always 23"". I literally look thinner than I ever have today so I expected maybe I was down to 22"", but I'm still at 23. Has anybody else noticed the same thing? I starting to feel like measurements don't actually mean anything... Even weight can be really weird sometimes. Recently I gained 5 lbs, but I look thinner after gaining weight despite not exercising ever. I don't understand it.",3.8491744548286597,6.873234906542059,4.5398364485981295,78.39579828660437,78.43925233644859,7.304984423676013,32.28115264797508,8.344100000000001,3.1320348909657323,473,25,76,10,12,151,73,107,0.057,0.8170000000000001,0.126,0.8412,0,0,1,0,0,0,18.0,0,0,0,4,5,3,0,0,2,0,7,5,1,0,2,17,16,7,0,1,8,0,4,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,5,0,4,0,4,1,0,0,4,2,0,0,1,7,11,1,7,14,2,12,0,1,3,0,0,3,0,3,9,47,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.13851828059221907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.236219966169499,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11680900851131144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1501594618450762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11857720709530292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09375362915751873,0.2567955670488354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07177188308880611,0.10140585584314336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06934737556140808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3575952773258285,0.1588006471797958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14260328047924228,0.15462020473672974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32321166489511105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09093388819849957,0.0,0.14015400468562014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12922180403453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10927654008320044,0.14038767681845532,0.0,0.10046971811877606,0.15129496027460887,0.11335781749391854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09430224784270748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13454768670198705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14777021651233435,0.0,0.0,0.15633285619126286,0.1171198596714636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5185539430977133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,lilmisssuccubus,2019/01/17,"Hit a weight loss goal I have had since high school yesterday....and my best friend was kind of rude about it. So I have lost about 70 pounds in the past year and a half. I have been back and forth between anorexia and bulimia since I was 12. Even at my sickest (junior year of high school) I was a size 2. I know this is still tiny for most people, but my little sister was a 0 and that number hung over my head for years. 

​

I will never forget one night on a sleepover with two of my friends, we grabbed a pair of my sisters size 0 jeans and tried them on....and I couldn't even close the zipper. My friends got closer than I did, one of them got them completely closed but they looked *painted* on. We dropped it and went on about our day, but I will never forget the way I felt, bulimic, tired, and drowning in self hate standing in front of my friends spilling over these size 0 jeans. 

​

Fast forward about 10 years, and I am now 26 years old. Yesterday I had an errand to run at the mall and had to kill time there while my item was prepared. So, out of complete masochism I decided to go to the store I always bought my jeans at in high school and try on some 0's. They FIT. So I try on a different pair with a different cut and fabric, they ALSO fit. So now, I am thinking there is something wrong with the store. I go to another popular store for teens and try on a pair of 0s there and THEY STILL FIT. They were low rise so naturally I hated how they looked, but they fucking fit y'all. 

​

So naturally I take photos and send them to my best friend and I am just elated. She replies with ""What? Was that some kind of goal for you?"" with a laughing emoji. I say yes since high school and she immediately goes ""I haven't fit in a 0 for years."" Which I still don't believe because she is literally 5'1 and fucking TINY. Like has a waist to hip ratio that would make you cry...but is still so fucking little. 

​

Anyway, she just made me feel so stupid and I really didn't get to celebrate with anyone but my sister....who has gained about 30 pounds of relationship weight and is currently a size 4/6 and trying to lose weight so I just ended up feeling bad. 

​

Just wanted to tell someone who would understand. ",2.210208136234624,4.235559675496692,2.9431393882056165,93.17226821192057,78.0728476821192,5.991989908546201,22.264742983286038,6.971451493551832,0.4785259539577429,1755,52,381,19,42,550,212,453,0.117,0.7240000000000001,0.16,0.9616,3,0,1,0,0,0,82.0,3,3,11,8,33,27,9,0,20,1,33,11,3,3,2,61,59,37,2,4,9,2,7,1,5,4,2,1,0,1,10,31,4,0,7,1,4,8,6,15,0,4,20,10,60,12,56,33,6,69,0,4,2,3,34,34,3,3,27,245,70,7,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.047075161777958265,0.04898127223745292,0.31890672228453165,0.3576434915346441,0.0,0.061726189801445175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04116051336508958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0452643616162206,0.04915069590025183,0.03588419988569854,0.0,0.0,0.06632188422976228,0.12355258296472438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12343987440429005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03796373469017885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12300499397465538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05213785109900747,0.0,0.0,0.07776094641751878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05952889083126756,0.0,0.056520642864034236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2273988348508817,0.16326215393148186,0.030755083387318288,0.0,0.06690986963330653,0.0,0.0941611211240236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11623608166151833,0.06041355382706357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24878087029964285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06512656655172326,0.12259987249651932,0.032351243565724844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.028758980338596005,0.11799850070300065,0.0,0.0,0.0988653184208016,0.06585605659951725,0.06425925123803009,0.0,0.0,0.05570048321636619,0.039293547865170614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0908022589916382,0.0,0.0,0.05524180358636066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06177002089320573,0.0,0.07977832273868755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05619430897222722,0.04081030962304722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03771110127299585,0.0,0.0,0.06320011153633666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04681264851496588,0.0,0.2383023557149029,0.0,0.0,0.06141013209025582,0.0,0.0,0.14608382347218993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04987701616838768,0.045317963978891616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18804202570849615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04425994631928713,0.0,0.051451525452801836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03771899022519667,0.0,0.0,0.034325269229121595,0.06765786904067489,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19983093154835274,0.0,0.05750358077278759,0.0612816377967341,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0347207235666833,0.046725133340316034,0.0,0.21504898394954872,0.0,0.054569421419807966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08363351102329528,0.06436078863875072,0.3576434915346441,0.22744685102598675
EDAnonymous,sniperwolffiie,2019/01/17,"Ah, the loneliness First time posting(from my phone) so apologies for any mistakes.

Well, I am a 24 year old woman with a 10 year old ED. I'm currently at my parent's house for vacations, but I live alone in another city. 

The fact that they don't care about my terrible eating habits hurts me so much, and honestly, it just makes everything worse.  I wish they at least tried to save me because I can't do it myself.

Last night I binged and had a breakdown. I told them everything about my ED, I told them about my suicidal thoughts, about everything. My mother just stood there without saying anything. My father said I AM DELLUSIONAL, because to have an eating disorder, *you have to be thin*. That absolutely broke me. I lost it and said *""When I'm back to my apartment, I'll do everything to be sickly thin!* 
My dad replied,*""If it makes you happy, do whatever you want""*

Then they just left the room and now they are not talking to me. I feel completely alone and it hurts so much!  I don't know what to do with myself.",1.6031700167504184,4.209378804020101,2.705056532663317,90.43704878559464,85.08040201005025,6.532747068676716,22.36201842546064,7.793537801064563,1.2300601340033501,798,28,162,16,24,254,113,199,0.207,0.71,0.084,-0.9812,2,2,0,0,0,0,37.0,0,3,6,2,15,11,0,0,7,1,15,3,0,2,1,23,31,11,1,3,6,4,3,0,0,0,1,3,1,1,8,7,2,0,3,0,0,0,5,6,2,1,8,6,35,5,19,21,3,21,0,4,0,0,22,8,0,0,13,107,43,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2492538206196959,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08182939295679623,0.12617783313109485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09902238597793747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0925273224407462,0.0,0.14670565605248215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12268575395418152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12616505185569676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13791006552495375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2462578689825733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4325839618577633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06084310790888135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10235372057037156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12809487919605012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1388461347216213,0.2576342360847375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06613092149944859,0.09808604907270142,0.0,0.0,0.13074028176740782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1062547199047454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13135580060785526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16064412015737625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17691466441970932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11292274960113187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2525348612586704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13361364002325066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22892519516067705,0.0956922591811696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13162288368503114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09671772033001216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09552959077434303,0.07016613380647395,0.0,0.0,0.22996337882846465,0.0,0.08169703659482627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07097450334258712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10819226692980273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13837502708053462,0.11599505453198106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12262784884629276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1549787910516066
EDAnonymous,82326,2019/01/17,"Why do I do things sometimes My brain. *You have been doing really good for a few weeks and are at your thinnest and you feel light on your feet and confident and you arn’t even hungry because you had half of a nature valley bar 3 days ago”

Passes by McDonald’s at 11pm on the way home when I hate McDonald’s

Brain *You gotta*",1.0416149068323008,3.0979024782608704,2.619503105590063,93.83869565217393,82.18840579710145,6.2616977225672885,18.552795031055894,7.447530270364453,0.27398385093167743,257,6,58,4,7,84,53,69,0.055,0.85,0.095,0.4005,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,7,0,0,2,2,1,0,3,0,7,4,3,0,0,5,10,5,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,4,1,0,1,1,0,1,0,1,0,1,2,2,10,1,7,7,1,10,0,0,0,0,7,4,0,0,4,36,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2381728297160607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1637877368766791,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5998821068352035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17327944354610555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17746375106150952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13585508857782916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2253600304327335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2652705761782982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2695127231787233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17212633839699734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2657360995504035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17850221677906009,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21326945757320606,0.2155227090025328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2424462061724628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,my-destructive-side,2019/01/17,"Elevated heart rate? So I know that typically EDs (or at least AN) can result in a low heart rate, but have any of you experienced the opposite? My average RHR is normally in the low 70s during the day and low- mid 60s overnight, but I was trying and failing (seriously, it was around 3:30) to fall asleep last night and felt like my heart was beating out of my chest. It finally occurred to me to check my Fitbit, and my HR was in the 120s. It remained in the 100-130 range for another half hour at least. Took 10 mg Valium, a calcium/magnesium supplement, and drank some coconut water and eventually it dropped down to the 90s and I was able to fall asleep. Was in the mid 70s when I woke up and now just above 100, but that’s not unexpected since I just got done running up and down the stairs. But I am confused and concerned about last night.

Has anyone experienced anything similar or have any ideas what’s going on? Could it have just been anxiety? I’ve been off the charts anxious lately and do have a history of heart palpitations due to stress. ED-wise, I’m underweight but not nearly to the extent that I used to be. I’ve been restricting probably a bit too much but it’s not like I’m eating nothing. Haven’t been purging, don’t smoke, only had one drink last night and didn’t even finish it because I felt nauseous. I’ve been taking robitussin and sinus pills because my sinuses are fucked, but other than that my only meds are benzos and sleeping pills.

I know everyone’s knee jerk reaction will be “go to the doctor” since yeah, that would probably be the smart thing to do. But for a variety of reasons that is absolutely not an option right now, so for the time being all I can do is ask Reddit and try to do whatever I can at home to keep things under control.",4.36971590909091,5.517005948863641,5.4557454545454585,81.0256181818182,70.47727272727273,9.154727272727273,28.28454545454545,9.490545024520769,2.4244885000000003,1402,50,280,31,25,464,193,352,0.112,0.852,0.036000000000000004,-0.9803,0,0,2,0,0,0,39.0,0,1,0,3,12,12,2,2,20,1,41,19,9,4,1,52,58,28,0,3,17,0,2,2,0,2,5,1,1,0,17,17,4,3,6,1,1,6,7,9,0,2,20,5,20,3,39,31,7,48,0,4,0,1,2,25,1,5,18,183,37,2,0.1023173784939686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1391586519766184,0.10728869256750086,0.07827251449290565,0.11558951421428068,0.0,0.07154269004052821,0.0,0.08419848449489027,0.09108415940357607,0.09565293706103488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12474344850870164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11170407734671813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1147576402042705,0.08169210108657174,0.0,0.0,0.065986244623079,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.104726172447128,0.0,0.10470620203438437,0.0,0.1002320782912725,0.0,0.10469622176087356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06757966351708744,0.0,0.0,0.09776863986591428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19648145772363565,0.11208368690619283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09459076769740213,0.0,0.0,0.11629864820607007,0.0,0.08183255445203305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4849863446172914,0.0,0.0,0.10263267307856674,0.0,0.10076200755017672,0.0,0.0,0.11550386620557627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09094438720500543,0.0,0.0,0.11246191077934084,0.2502069587735332,0.11541845957250994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09997420576347284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11365154170493592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0752150459815242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28805378564185496,0.10024930688766702,0.09817628417992083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0693329036620815,0.15563395388463747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22063087880499807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.105199306027124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08737848218119107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16927598561765214,0.0,0.1023912708810603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11720421137050432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0769299350725988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13595023969488804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05966208621439487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11367837225139125,0.13893356741657534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08836936367318687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07268333005311257,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Itsemurha,2019/01/17,"Dae want to read up on how to recover but actually reading is too hard because your brain is full of fluff. The struggle. The books are always massive novels.

 Maybe audio books? Even YouTube becomes mumbling nonsense that doesn't stick.",4.189285714285713,7.4162231666666685,3.700285714285717,83.49471428571428,79.23809523809524,5.2647619047619045,32.20952380952381,6.742157984588678,2.203289523809523,191,10,30,2,5,57,38,42,0.175,0.8,0.025,-0.7876,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,1,0,0,3,1,0,1,2,0,4,1,1,1,0,3,5,2,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,5,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,2,1,0,5,5,1,3,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,18,2,4,0.0,0.0,0.2796946077077254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23848639503767236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17471766409137515,0.3165434238337314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3199568002926075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18930630972516374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2567504790863307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2879429951119165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5733845346260654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29963192070731004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16905277911883906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,MuddyWalruss,2019/01/17,"I'm making a pledge I pledge to try my god damn hardest at recovery. This includes eating everything on my meal plan and not cutting corners. This also includes not exercising or participating in any active activities (e.g going for a hike). By doing those things i will (hopefully) recover from this terrible disorder.

Im making this pledge because i'm finding recovery quite difficult at the moment and i need some motivation to keep me on the right track. Wish me luck on this journey!",5.157954545454548,7.835139795454547,6.53409090909091,67.80863636363638,71.5,9.854545454545457,33.72727272727273,10.125756701596842,4.321018181818181,394,20,60,12,8,133,63,88,0.123,0.726,0.151,0.1887,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,3,1,6,2,0,4,0,2,3,0,3,0,15,11,4,0,3,3,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,7,2,2,1,2,1,0,2,2,4,0,0,0,0,7,2,11,10,1,11,0,0,0,0,0,8,1,4,1,38,14,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20538300559006376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17464993095396328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1565582474359165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2943439093395999,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2627962780891222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2308179137725581,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2347335639481689,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.145959669705928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25508535524682885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2774152684323531,0.0,0.0,0.22827802253608284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34286560708642955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19043261854173812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2731651947364841,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21932730251470453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1706232392929216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1743674404130451,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29533628506969145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Anonimityformeity,2019/01/17,"I just binged on the worst grilled cheese of my life I’ve been on a liquid diet because not hungry/having hard time with school work and my friends depression. Let me describe to you this fucking monstrosity. 

Created at 12:30am, most of the bread loaf was moldy, very thick slices of mozzarella and Kraft singles, end up burning one side cause not paying attention, cheese isn’t even fully melted, try to make it better by cutting the top off, makes it worse, it’s 80% cheese, which is too much cheese, slide mozzarella off of kraft cheese, eat a fucking toasted slice of bread with just kraft cheese on it. 

I couldn’t even finish it cause it tasted so fucking horrible. Not to mention the 2 granola bars I munched on while waiting. ",10.064330900243306,7.9678770510948915,8.301861313868617,76.21099148418494,59.510948905109494,11.17712895377129,39.62165450121654,9.2995712137729,3.5310545012165453,584,23,108,7,6,174,94,137,0.115,0.8059999999999999,0.079,-0.7962,0,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,1,0,3,6,8,4,0,6,0,6,10,0,4,0,17,12,4,0,1,5,0,2,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,8,4,6,1,1,1,1,1,5,6,0,1,2,3,7,2,19,8,4,16,0,1,0,3,3,11,3,1,4,63,15,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11691451811870512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16962428594842166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3940460774142292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16519002030422344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19625092078751966,0.0,0.0,0.16987063265731767,0.0,0.0,0.25335338694515463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14817789044777693,0.5319253631046784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17180780601225334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19612013828516767,0.13546823997877028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2560450687747732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14098906133082784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12996310617238416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1941035690757033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11183535717671042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1302140615736502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15824834405317995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13962673491487282,0.0,0.1954522578279988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Lilaniiloo,2019/01/17,"37kg and terrified They want to hospitalize me, I barely have the energy to function. I calculated my BMI and it’s 13.0 now and I’m so conflicted... I just want to lose weight. 

I’m so lonely in this ",-1.4228571428571437,0.2629737380952406,2.471785714285716,86.6919642857143,109.23809523809523,6.861904761904763,17.1547619047619,7.6454224807358475,1.2032761904761906,155,5,34,5,8,57,31,42,0.229,0.669,0.102,-0.8179,0,2,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,1,1,4,2,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,7,5,5,0,2,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,3,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,6,0,4,5,0,2,0,2,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,21,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5507624913261526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5807475636910009,0.0,0.0,0.5994939077381658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,rugbyspank,2019/01/18,"Protein supplements  I was wondering if anyone has tried to restrict all food intake, all but protein powder along with full workout regime? I'm planning to do this because I went on a binge spree during the holidays and now I'm overweight again. I don't want to feel bloated it makes me feel sick. I also have to attend a close family wedding in Feb and I'm not sure if I can lose close to 15 kilos in less than a month. ",3.005182724252492,4.6266294186046535,4.294451827242527,86.15569767441862,74.5813953488372,6.774750830564784,26.239202657807308,7.447530270364453,1.3794039867109642,334,12,66,4,7,110,63,86,0.193,0.768,0.039,-0.9086,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,2,3,2,0,0,4,0,6,3,0,1,3,19,15,6,0,3,4,0,2,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,6,2,1,3,2,0,2,2,1,0,0,2,2,6,1,11,13,4,11,0,1,0,0,1,6,0,3,3,42,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24177496959921585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.211397719979631,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18429891706753976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2850119130784656,0.0,0.3057365121524386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3655813242705267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3382324240833039,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20180910658059967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24131869607650305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2849445423354429,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20526373388995045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17832337835380924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2802649997689099,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.327866399344143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,coolestcitrus,2019/01/18,"how tf do you “”recover”” Because of new circumstances in my life I’m feeling really uncomfortable w how I’m acting irt food (I deal with bulimia, so lots of purging and eating what I consider binges). But the thing is, is that I don’t WANT to recover. For some messed up reason I get super panicky and anxious about having to give up purging (even though it’s super detrimental to my health??). And I definitely do not feel like I should try to recover bc I’m not even skinny, and if I can’t prevent myself from binging then I should at least allow myself to purge. 

Idk it’s a messed up mindset and I recognize that it’s illogical and wrong, but I don’t even know how to stop believing in it. 

I don’t really want to recover, but I feel like I should want to ",3.0782688172043,4.44167428387097,5.206209677419358,80.74264784946237,73.90322580645163,9.03763440860215,27.110215053763447,9.516144504307137,2.4454408602150544,594,22,121,15,12,207,86,155,0.131,0.762,0.107,-0.5316,0,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,1,0,2,9,7,0,0,2,0,12,5,1,5,0,32,24,16,0,7,6,0,3,2,0,3,2,0,0,0,8,7,3,2,5,0,0,1,6,3,0,0,0,3,18,4,20,21,3,10,0,0,0,0,3,6,0,3,5,84,26,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.205968663072274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11114001772138266,0.0,0.0,0.2054111673686487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18796296380921768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18655793279682525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3612600945709906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2765580117292005,0.26049757149771313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22046095280713449,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09525419331005984,0.17489707270740612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19379665428446827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.100197797210365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12877735660372405,0.17814378443222942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15500116031960512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17608490162986426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23359653982108156,0.18745437737864268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15242691291190302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12112469415868435,0.0,0.17912756844577976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12378268622015838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3226095477780185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19933729085941615,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,carrotlime,2019/01/18,"Why am I like this I just binged right after saying to myself that I would never binge again because I had restricted so well this month :^(

oops",4.49758620689655,5.4753444482758615,4.713275862068965,87.09681034482759,70.0344827586207,7.179310344827586,21.396551724137925,7.1686216300943375,0.5176758620689652,115,2,23,1,2,36,25,29,0.087,0.737,0.17600000000000002,0.3902,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,4,3,1,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,1,0,0,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,1,1,5,2,2,1,0,5,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,5,18,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26401290122987325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21159011096222502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3456951895643501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3340323584052246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3698638583670361,0.0,0.3444174090005593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3894076759052236,0.0,0.3908041438533474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30766083618462914,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,alenasch,2019/01/18,"Is there anything else that gives a similar feeling of control? Three years into recovery and I'm about to relapse, and not because i think i should lose weight, I actually would even gain weight **just to lose it again** (I'm 5'7"" and 105 lbs) but because restricting gives such an incredible feeling of control and power. I always turn in this bad bitch who's studying her ass off, whose nails are always done and her room is clean, who's an extreme perfectionist. 

Other than in relapses I'm a lazy slob sleeping all day. Anyone else feeling this way? So I'm wondering if there's something that could give me that feeling without me destroying my health and slowly coming to the binge-purge-cycle",3.0350636132315536,5.9016960687022895,3.6694351145038198,84.30959796437662,80.6793893129771,6.241424936386768,27.05394402035624,7.554174236665415,1.84452631043257,559,24,98,9,15,176,90,131,0.18,0.688,0.132,-0.8992,1,0,1,0,0,0,18.0,0,0,0,6,8,5,2,0,5,0,7,5,2,2,1,26,22,9,0,4,5,0,6,0,0,2,1,0,2,0,10,8,2,3,6,0,0,1,2,5,0,1,1,6,9,0,12,18,1,10,0,2,0,1,8,5,2,2,3,61,19,0,0.0,0.0,0.13731349559117992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2341654050605231,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09838830071532338,0.14417489822790364,0.1157930433922022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1174876854840915,0.1715520609748934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12120994121742,0.0,0.0,0.31563837500106634,0.11234616706778884,0.0,0.0,0.09074686002682564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14399605727269288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23509172556982955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09293819190462296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2845905424165092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4049480182284341,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14956905772628407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3148389060732289,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14081247356456705,0.0,0.0,0.10832608981847858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09016183350382068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1530530028703219,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11168972624986093,0.0,0.3426958245747316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13564024185091952,0.15259491869746775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0999569533967155,0.0,0.0,0.09061317650489677
EDAnonymous,crybabykiddo,2019/01/18,"onision is over weight. Not a huge deal, and not by a lot. But I looked at his bmi and he's technically overweight, which is interesting for such a chronic fat shamer lol.",0.5329411764705867,3.021655823529411,2.3325882352941183,90.45064705882356,93.70588235294115,6.249411764705883,21.50588235294117,7.554174236665415,1.0875482352941177,134,5,29,3,5,44,29,34,0.128,0.715,0.157,0.2589,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,3,1,2,4,1,0,0,6,3,3,0,0,3,0,1,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,2,3,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,2,1,4,3,1,3,0,0,1,0,3,3,0,1,0,19,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5171814430860034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.42126154631406776,0.0,0.0,0.4264868043656968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6108772955565591,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,PsychadelicSpaceCat,2019/01/18,"I keep trying to shop for clothes online, filling up my cart with cute stuff... ...and buying none of it because what I really want is to be thin 

Then I get sad and binge and purge and the cycle  starts YET AGAIN 😭😭 I'm a potato forever",1.8702000000000003,3.1172742199999988,3.6810000000000014,90.93550000000002,76.8,6.6000000000000005,20.5,7.1686216300943375,0.3452000000000002,181,4,41,2,4,61,42,50,0.064,0.8420000000000001,0.094,0.1263,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,7,7,5,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,5,0,1,0,1,2,1,1,1,0,0,0,1,4,1,6,6,1,7,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,4,25,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2884774407558106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24724385033149576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.420629770711772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3031641228721592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33495558775847445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5417366802173027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3212930253456378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27912411333152337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Panda_Melody,2019/01/18,"Gotta love binge/restrict cycles! I had finally hit my goal weight last summer and got too complacent. 
Started binging cause why the fuck not food tastes good. 
Gained back 20 lbs since then. 
Last weekend my bf and I got steak and shake (usually my favorite) and I got so nauseous from it that on the drive home he had to stop while I puked my guts up on the side of the road. Very gross. Was sick from it for the next 2 days. All this week I’ve been fasting/ restricting and I’m very much back on the restrict end of this terrible consistent loop. 
Thank fuck 
I’m so tired of being fat. 
Working at a restaurant is triggering as fuck. 

I was over on proed and it’s gone.  Haven’t been there in a few months cause binge cycle.  Why did they take that away? ;—;
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EDAnonymous,WITCH79,2019/01/18,"I’m so done I’m done with this shit, I’ve been dealing with these feelings for 8 fucking years and I’m so irritated at it. I just want the stupid fucking obsession to go away. Treatment helped but I’m stalling making my 7th month appointment because this fucking disease makes me want to suffer. I don’t want to suffer anymore.

I’m lightheaded sometimes and I’m almost sure my heart is fucked up because of this shit. I need to see a cardiologist but I’m terrified they’ll tell me I did permanent damage. I’m torn every morning between weighing myself or staying mentally fine and not falling into it again. I know why I’m like this but today it’s not making it any better",2.014666666666667,4.561787800000001,3.740740740740744,84.27333333333334,82.1111111111111,5.9703703703703725,27.51851851851852,7.3011,1.7560962962962965,543,25,100,8,15,181,86,135,0.28600000000000003,0.603,0.111,-0.9867,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,1,1,4,15,7,1,2,0,7,8,3,3,1,24,31,9,0,4,7,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,9,6,1,0,2,0,0,2,3,11,0,0,4,2,11,4,13,26,0,11,0,3,1,4,4,4,6,2,5,54,20,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14408880913230473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0978526869866391,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14270393847474402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13519291849222956,0.0,0.0,0.17543259362137054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1272623319325117,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14834814192883966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29450653819072403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1212366937568411,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07275700550101173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5321098272711052,0.0,0.0,0.08177813638055316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17051479120609733,0.09644895009647324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07908024400278896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07029921980671865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2881505942669629,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14501105977030204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1148546215453715,0.0,0.0,0.10669539525396464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1146646918800457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2954097411619291,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14231460197186416,0.0,0.0,0.1533715959960913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13561816014860775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12576948329226034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13639445365272376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2546167926461761,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1298417316631009,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09266285977672704
EDAnonymous,ksck135,2019/01/18,"Gym Hi all!

I need a little help.

I need to get my ass to gym, but damn, I am so anxious about people judging me there (yeah, everybody is there to do their business yet internet is full of stories about people doing dumb stuff in gym). I am afraid I would just run around doing random stuff until I either hurt myself, my panic makes me leave or someone comes to me and says I should rather try some other sport.

Anybody else has this problem or some reasonable advice for my paranoia? Or at least some tips on exercise?

Thanks!",3.2236785329018325,5.247475553398059,3.8811003236245964,87.62083063646173,75.01941747572816,6.131175836030206,23.09492988133765,6.937597516519254,0.7929771305285866,414,12,79,4,9,131,76,103,0.258,0.696,0.046,-0.979,0,0,0,0,0,2,13.0,0,0,1,0,9,7,2,2,1,1,10,2,1,2,1,22,16,7,0,6,7,0,0,0,0,2,1,1,0,0,4,3,0,0,1,5,0,2,0,6,0,0,0,1,15,1,13,14,7,10,0,1,0,1,4,6,3,7,2,61,19,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19630528537177352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2269460939086331,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.178832780240537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1730470978937389,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16781602416470595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10495561207070787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.134650893612113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2150546019457592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21271123085384144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20134240425789285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13409420207649905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2979115957379254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23569861228043684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2785406868412659,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19222254522415294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20654617113880988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15975408408631114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1702116262956483,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4599370603323542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18495054529332156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13638966584603934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14270496731430968,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,butlb,2019/01/18,"TFW you have been making an effort to eat a little more and be healthier and people comment on it, destroying any progress you’re making :)(: I bumped into somebody that I hadn’t seen in a while today and they wouldn’t shut up about how much weight I’d lost. I felt happy at first.... but then it reminded me of how much more I’ve been eating recently. My mum always comments on my weight and joked about how I’m going to get fat again because of how much I’m eating now (compared to what I usually eat)


I’ve been trying so hard to ignore the panic while eating, I haven’t counted any calories in weeks. Any progress I’ve made has just been curb stomped in to the ground, nobody is ever going to compliment me if I put on weight. 


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EDAnonymous,rose-starling,2019/01/18,"What are ur limits on cals?? This isn’t like “oh what’s ur limit, haha, I should do that” kinda stuff. This is just to let peeps know that eating disorders aren’t defined by your limit!! If mods do wanna take this down then you’re free too (obviously), but this is just to make people feel better about how much they eat!! (I hope) ",0.5430223880597005,2.869405895522392,2.1180410447761204,94.79407649253734,87.05970149253729,4.544029850746268,12.852611940298507,5.985473137389443,-1.0006701492537315,253,3,55,2,8,82,52,67,0.0,0.8370000000000001,0.163,0.8828,1,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,1,1,4,5,5,0,0,0,1,9,2,0,2,1,16,14,4,0,4,4,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,9,0,2,3,2,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,4,6,7,12,1,3,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,3,2,37,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2506052005417409,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3247503242423778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.579887497659533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14327321900770176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2814362696063605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15572495102257233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2897505290025112,0.0,0.13843334323728468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18914221347860868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20829913471086114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19644325122630416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3243746273327953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.213048316329173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,sofieex,2019/01/18,im having a panic attack i just accidentally had a gul\[p of gatorade with 80 cal for 12 fl oz thinking it was gatorade zero and im having a panic attack please i dont know know what to do ,-0.4085714285714275,1.6763686190476186,2.8574285714285743,89.53757142857144,89.0,4.312380952380953,17.923809523809524,5.6839178017228535,-0.3438533333333331,150,4,33,1,5,54,30,42,0.334,0.615,0.051,-0.9169,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,1,4,2,2,3,0,6,0,0,0,0,6,9,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,4,0,1,2,0,2,0,4,7,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,20,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5146234796695177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2650805929244761,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4886251671702033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24860458561443194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5307456269386907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24827708011451666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14492663807002146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,avoao,2019/01/18,"Waiter called me out on my small meal order Watercress soup and mixed vegetables - two appetizers. I had been planning on having only half of each 😬. He's the sweetest guy but I was so embarrassed. I said I'd order more if I was still hungry, idk if I can get away with eating as little as I had planned?? Big oof.",1.8602083333333328,3.8423204375000033,3.8731250000000017,86.29270833333338,79.0,6.7666666666666675,21.604166666666664,7.793537801064563,0.9817479166666664,244,7,50,4,6,83,52,64,0.105,0.895,0.0,-0.7447,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,2,2,1,0,1,1,0,7,3,0,0,0,7,9,7,0,2,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,4,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,6,1,8,0,8,3,2,10,0,0,0,0,4,7,0,2,1,34,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3260064657791976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3543133453820565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3550551510321056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18128680718700707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34357248118196765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3477729384749695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2638998622531221,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3300648628149234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2771049100108036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3389566670600341,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,seedlesssunflower,2019/01/18,Anybody else binge while drinking because they know it’ll cause them to throw it all up later? Drunk me feels like I’ve reached a scientific breakthrough lol,3.3087931034482736,6.476144620689657,2.2926724137931025,91.53831896551728,85.55172413793103,4.279310344827587,27.9396551724138,5.985473137389443,1.0944413793103451,130,6,23,1,4,37,28,29,0.077,0.7070000000000001,0.215,0.5106,0,0,1,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,1,2,0,1,1,4,3,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,2,0,2,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,1,2,2,1,4,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,3,10,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29090410874892325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4902283514516578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4674862488083449,0.0,0.0,0.3986495324655205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24129281114309475,0.3409204687090021,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2622633277705398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2331417607352407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,RusselToveysEars,2019/01/18,"What happens if I tell my doctor the truth? The last time I went to the doctor, she was concerned because of my high resting heartbeat. I'm pretty sure this is because of EC stacking, but I just played it off like I was nervous about being at the doctor. I'm going to go back to the doctor in a few weeks for a pap smear, and I'm wondering what would happen if I told her the truth? Have any of you told a doctor about EC stacking, and what was their reaction? I'm at a normal weight and don't fit the criteria for an ED diagnosis (I think?), so I'm not worried about being hospitalized or anything. I'm just not sure if the benefit of my doctor knowing what's going on is worth the risk of admitting to abusing OTC meds...",5.686,4.768646500000003,6.826500000000002,79.51575000000003,67.33333333333334,9.366666666666667,32.083333333333336,8.472884824447931,2.341733333333334,565,20,117,7,8,192,85,150,0.095,0.733,0.172,0.8878,0,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,1,1,0,7,9,0,2,14,0,10,8,0,0,4,22,28,9,0,5,9,0,1,1,0,1,7,0,0,0,6,3,1,0,4,1,1,4,3,2,0,0,6,1,13,7,19,19,2,15,0,0,0,0,8,7,0,5,5,78,19,6,0.0,0.1433258603270907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08226156235089845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09954535752892082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09301599130937917,0.0,0.1474804594843131,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7428877853152405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2062446358492237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2139410580534604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12780805054720393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06648018182319225,0.09860407550386427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059098261186629523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13436682881646736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1185217662292358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12306670932217514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2280195277315604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10573030246066936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07751063180195568,0.0,0.0,0.07053670548540171,0.0,0.0,0.23117789515936876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09703225882206816,0.14730495624600404,0.0,0.11213742218610613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13118331890963125,0.0,0.12284764266680948,0.0,0.08593133379934803,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,thisisfine23,2019/01/18,"Ugh So I was doing semi-okay before thanksgiving. Kind of all over the place but still managing, maintaining. But since the holidays I’ve been an absolute dumpster fire. I’ve been binging like crazy every single day, and I’m so exhausted that I only purge afterwards like 20% of the time. I’ve gained a crazy amount of weight and I’ve lost all sense of control around food. It’s like I’m a black hole or something, I’m never satisfied. I’m terrified to weigh myself and I feel disgusting. Thanks for listening to my self pity ramble, just needed to vent. ",3.289722222222224,5.577910750000001,4.355333333333334,83.07300000000002,75.75925925925927,8.394074074074075,24.68888888888889,9.120678840339163,2.189926666666667,443,15,83,11,10,144,75,108,0.234,0.578,0.188,-0.6224,0,0,1,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,0,3,5,10,1,0,6,0,4,4,0,1,3,14,13,8,0,1,4,0,3,3,0,0,1,1,0,1,2,4,3,1,1,1,0,0,1,5,0,0,4,5,5,5,10,9,4,8,0,2,1,0,2,3,0,1,8,41,7,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20679983535239424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1976736169851686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2605487195036977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14981687938857774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19572616194617512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11745989601111355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2809029515651112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24190889622376496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3404760404018317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2535872872069877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17225049251403118,0.17916718671885454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17667768056122346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2427082648333467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2423437637968369,0.0,0.0,0.19216429170597546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1788389893399482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18551829604926634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2138743370401653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1354583462888367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2828837218285276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,krykry10,2019/01/18,Afraid to throw up when i probably should. Holy hell I am very hungover and nauseous. I drank pickle juice not too long ago with a cup of water and my body wants to reject it. I'm afraid to make myself throw up because I've gone a week without doing it. It's been years since I've thrown up naturally- I don't even know if i can do it anymore without sticking my fingers down my mouth.,3.0551851851851843,4.147725320987654,4.0972222222222205,89.73250000000004,73.56790123456791,6.387654320987655,25.84567901234568,6.42735559955562,0.7967679012345679,305,10,66,2,6,99,58,81,0.098,0.902,0.0,-0.8074,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,3,4,1,2,2,0,7,5,3,1,0,11,13,4,0,3,4,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,3,2,0,1,0,0,3,4,4,0,0,3,1,9,0,11,9,0,12,1,1,0,0,0,4,1,1,5,40,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.245928002123908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27513942046714873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16912084787546114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30816600511330783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1832421683027457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15247016121547938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24551986102366397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1851889732015773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.299120168129764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2294958056303431,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22891164033185776,0.16363742892835795,0.0,0.22254036827170104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5348718651935596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17865803712424888
EDAnonymous,Doctordoomduck,2019/01/18,"Crying makes you lose weight! I’ve been stuck at the same weight for the past two weeks. My fuck buddy came over and left literally within five minutes of cumming so Obviously that meant I had to drink 3 cocktails and eat two hamburgers with fries while crying. 

However, when I woke up this morning I was 1.8 pounds lighter! Crying burns more calories than running!",5.93776119402985,7.792327253731344,5.134507462686567,82.11758208955227,67.50746268656717,7.748059701492537,29.817910447761196,8.238735603445708,2.1121964179104484,294,11,52,4,5,88,58,67,0.247,0.753,0.0,-0.9544,1,0,1,0,0,0,7.0,0,1,0,1,2,2,1,0,2,0,3,5,0,1,1,8,9,5,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,4,5,0,1,2,0,2,0,2,0,3,7,2,5,0,9,2,2,11,0,1,0,1,1,5,1,0,4,31,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21162227889697946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6097323807820121,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18125660418387404,0.0,0.1893294237809906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1710550318048197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2010330253750336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20699855266331013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12350735766885315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1766297775146647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36149015314749455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14841797751086178,0.4506275325085114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Grellous8,2019/01/18,"That feel when you binge and then find out weight was lost. 💯💯💯 I had been feeling like shit and was binging so much this past week on chocolate and peanut butter because I had a big project and was stressing about an exam coming up, so imagine my motherfuckin surprise when I went in for a doctor’s appointment today and she tells me I lost weight. The shit eating grin on my face was wild.

Doesn’t matter tho. I’ll probably just end up binging it all back and then some. But anyway, feels good man.",1.6744734473447345,4.088708544554457,2.361206120612064,94.48773177317734,82.36633663366338,4.86084608460846,21.063006300630068,6.11248444174946,0.1210910891089112,397,12,82,3,11,123,75,101,0.134,0.742,0.124,-0.4767,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,1,0,2,9,9,2,1,4,0,8,7,3,0,1,18,15,14,0,0,2,0,5,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,3,8,3,0,5,0,0,2,1,5,0,0,10,6,9,4,8,5,3,18,0,2,0,0,4,7,2,1,10,52,12,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13771257368845433,0.0,0.10917431163415793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1542740066243241,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1833107537699307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18325832864309813,0.0,0.0,0.15862452059539794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27166659837267504,0.1279451075935948,0.0,0.0,0.16368907854543846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15021592374080686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0874964996228836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3910054866701554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13165502425550846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17096591311334086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19309410319127707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36767574913684303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20515208213289976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15653643920525862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1697605932953526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14365876130638874,0.4361775723967774,0.0,0.16602234517582684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,LumosErin,2019/01/18,"I had a hardcore breakdown over my ED last night This last semester, I let my anorexia get out of control and I lost about 15-ish pounds in three months. I dropped all the way down to 113.7, I'm 5'6"".  

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Because of the holidays, I was basically a walking vacuum cleaner and overate a bunch of shit I shouldn't have. I have no idea how much weight I've put on bc I'm afraid to know, but my ""skinny"" clothes (size small, size four, etc.) still fit me and I've been on a new workout regimen.  

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My SO knows about my ED, and he's very supportive of me. I was visiting him before I go back to school and I got uhhhhhh...quite intoxicated on sangria (oops). I was sick and felt I needed to throw up, but here's the thing: I don't purge bc I can't. I can't stick my fingers or a foreign object down my throat, it's too hard. SO knows I don't purge and I often tell him I can't throw up on my own, adding the very macabre joke ""It's why I'm not bulimic"".  

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After I made that joke again, I LOST IT and I'm crying over I hate how I'm cursed with the disease, how bad it truly got that I couldn't dance (my sport, been a dancer for nearly 20 years and I could hardly do it this year), and how I'm terrified for us to have kids because I'd probably starve it unintentionally bc that's all I know. SO knows that it makes me emotional sometimes but I was truly drunk and that just really set me off. I've never broken down that hard over my ED before.  

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It's just so hard.",0.7675632911392434,2.750064664556966,2.7125158227848125,93.20364715189876,82.73417721518987,5.8487341772151895,20.950949367088608,7.04035,0.35787215189873395,1158,35,268,15,32,387,158,316,0.14,0.762,0.098,-0.9451,0,0,0,0,0,0,61.0,1,0,0,3,18,9,2,1,11,0,20,8,4,7,3,42,43,23,0,4,7,0,7,0,0,1,2,0,1,1,17,13,3,1,7,7,0,7,10,6,0,2,13,7,42,3,32,26,6,41,0,2,0,0,7,19,1,2,12,164,59,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.370774767741611,0.41581181342971146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06578288411812089,0.07143090982139498,0.1043013124880338,0.0,0.14559397330554974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09595191278121536,0.06830493677301377,0.0,0.09397296473657296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09623254951824173,0.0,0.0,0.09541117567256732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08214168425329284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.044696490003873164,0.0,0.04862019526272387,0.0,0.1368447471291473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30654498604823915,0.0844631893310963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09657585217265732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2350809809939472,0.13946979183118355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0874809568462182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18677647167760944,0.0,0.0,0.08094974284211491,0.057105475776290826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06828541678152192,0.0,0.0628892988650506,0.06343444813588174,0.06598164944372056,0.08262499289573029,0.0,0.08028314183702788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09223767063464013,0.0,0.0,0.08600165989450682,0.0,0.09099325268292546,0.0,0.0,0.05480569959301548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0865814500156955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08781613236431737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08461141379414322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06832056360033757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.097081443192014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0747747149348798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0568358042156037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10290645253243136,0.0,0.0,0.14117588003096684,0.0,0.06790582971191808,0.0,0.10417719287133648,0.0,0.0,0.07719582062047793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41581181342971146,0.11018315005325133
EDAnonymous,jungkookiedough,2019/01/18,"Does restricting get harder every time you try it? Why is that? 😥 I feel like every time the restrict-phase of the binge/restrict cycle comes on restricting gets harder, whereas my binges become more and more extreme.

I remember when I was a teenager and was totally fine and not even really hungry on 800 cal a day. Then a couple years later I managed to do 1200 and still lost weight, albeit more slowly.

Now even eating at MAINTENANCE which is around 1600 calories for me feels like too little. It's really hard to eat only so much so that I don't *gain* any weight, but my body is asking for more. That is with eating high-volume whole foods with enough healthy protein and fat. I love healthy food but if I listened to my hunger cues I'd probably eat 2500-3000 of healthy, whole foods and that would just make me gain weight and I can't handle that rn.

This has been really distressing to me. It seems impossible to lose weight anymore and I'm scared that I'll just keep gaining and gaining and never reach my GW. Has anyone else experienced this?",3.561519607843138,5.713236426470591,3.984901960784317,86.6787254901961,74.44117647058823,6.886274509803924,23.098039215686285,7.793537801064563,1.1193450980392163,837,24,160,12,18,262,128,204,0.098,0.746,0.156,0.9483,0,0,0,0,0,0,22.0,0,1,0,6,11,8,0,2,5,0,13,15,2,1,2,31,26,17,0,2,6,0,7,2,0,1,1,1,0,0,12,14,13,3,4,0,0,1,4,4,0,0,4,9,16,4,15,21,9,16,0,2,0,1,4,5,0,2,12,96,28,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06745566162418917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09837428978834084,0.06935910088966632,0.10163648766411852,0.0,0.08830413558595959,0.09273346736404378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.109552532096091,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1101827278637868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08544727859518993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1097568277029142,0.0,0.06397224643845036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08680577553842589,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40600295033724143,0.08286427651242094,0.0,0.0,0.10249443501296586,0.0,0.13103406364273087,0.0,0.16715128919481928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1003114394709599,0.14172914144977844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3598391499572532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10365006444940718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08885878834610196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1048044355610916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08816862944247042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0969228445279995,0.09941894847733243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11097327269381477,0.108282514607632,0.0,0.0895269091943633,0.0,0.06621309910592195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07291937107338481,0.0,0.07650491366019117,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07544188723702727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10694844835819528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1906396104431909,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11236803185419766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09931099926743324,0.0,0.0,0.0903029474487878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07921685595201293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11568222147330465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06734655430169482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4831687120996148,0.0,0.0,0.08950760766498732,0.2214942339482109,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07046492687505787,0.0,0.0,0.06387800587511773
EDAnonymous,topiramate,2019/01/18,"Can somebody who is very well into recovery describe what that later phase felt like? I see many posts here about people who are a few days or weeks into recovery, but far fewer posts from those who are very well into recovery (over 9 months to multiple years). By this point, I would imagine that many thoughts and behaviors have calmed down and changed. ... but what is your sense of what kinds of other things changed from the 9 month to the several-year mark? Physically, emotionally, behaviorally... anything goes. 
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EDAnonymous,samema,2019/01/18,"Creatine vs. Water retention The neverending struggle.

Wanting to take creatine supplements to have more energy in the gym, but rather dying than retaining water lol",6.169230769230772,9.717774384615383,6.861076923076923,55.13392307692311,93.6153846153846,12.849230769230768,35.96923076923077,9.888512548439397,7.434055384615386,138,8,14,7,5,45,22,26,0.055,0.6940000000000001,0.251,0.6055,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,2,1,1,2,0,0,0,5,3,1,1,2,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,3,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,10,0,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5910561030816626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5953701038502003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4281967584079144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33590870566312353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,buddyflies,2019/01/18,"Cancer sucks Cancer fucking sucks man. I’m sorry for the language. It’s shit it goes on for ages and there are days where you’re so hopeful and get good news! Oh my god! And then when it gets bad it gets REALLY bad. He’s got 2 weeks and he won’t even make it to 21. That’s fucked that is so unfair. 
Before now my ED was all about how I looked because I so desperately wanted to be loved and accepted. I didn’t realise until now how much I rely on food for comfort but also rely on restriction for some shallow feeling of control. 
This sucks I am so sad and so angry it’s unfair and it makes no sense. ",0.6920035778175304,2.6402450697674453,2.8241860465116275,92.48865831842579,82.7984496124031,5.209540846750151,19.22540250447227,6.297961479604792,-0.04562898032200336,470,12,104,4,13,159,86,129,0.317,0.594,0.08900000000000001,-0.9881,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,1,15,14,6,0,1,0,7,7,1,5,1,21,24,19,0,2,1,0,1,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,10,7,1,2,2,0,0,0,3,9,0,0,3,2,7,5,12,19,3,12,0,1,1,3,4,4,6,2,8,64,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16287297146618646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.340108014016564,0.1241539283845197,0.0,0.17330619628653968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22843062323234745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1313488056845835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1345205829220785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10298049939272334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2462757691384993,0.0,0.0,0.3765749797343721,0.3192238728319119,0.0,0.0,0.17082678845575164,0.1628916504460963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20228796276106675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17102955760511304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18381803444444786,0.0,0.271899518070089,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14971918034760934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13047473210110155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20906194847386605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2279892951357816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12012847550976652,0.0,0.1633699292083452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,fefebear,2019/01/18,I actually enjoyed walking in -25c and blizzard today I saw that post about losing 1kg when you go skiing in Antartica. Today it snowed the for a whole day in my city and reached  freezing temperatures at -25c. What's wrong with me,5.5379999999999985,6.5300948000000005,6.517777777777781,75.05000000000003,67.66666666666666,8.666666666666668,32.77777777777778,8.841846274778883,2.7581111111111114,186,8,34,3,3,62,39,45,0.152,0.748,0.1,-0.34,1,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,1,0,1,2,3,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,2,3,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,2,0,0,1,2,5,1,7,1,1,11,0,1,1,0,1,4,0,0,4,21,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.3102123797534994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20501116283494794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1806628126896005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35563484081253793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3044483876944554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6026404298942218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35491008203571456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3475601182941054,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,bluelanced,2019/01/18,"Fuck being drunk and opening up So my friend and I were drinking the other day and I drank probably too much and ended up them the milder aspects of my eating issues,  like ~sometimes skipping meals~ or whatever. This led to them telling me that they and another friend of ours is apparently really worried about me, and instead of feeling bad for worrying them all, I wanted to know is where I slipped up. What did I do wrong?

I don’t know what any of my friends know but the topic hasn’t been brought up since. I’ve been avoiding everyone more than usual– I’m fucking terrified of having this conversation. 

I should probably be glad that I have friends that care, and I am, but like. There’s a part of me that’s hoping the conversation was forgotten and another part that knows it wasn’t. 

I’m not sure where I’m going with this. I‘m just scared.",4.106723818350325,5.79115253614458,4.815301204819281,83.28266450417055,71.83132530120481,8.240222428174237,29.034291010194625,8.841846274778883,2.3044129749768305,675,27,131,13,13,217,102,166,0.159,0.684,0.157,0.1404,1,1,1,0,0,0,16.0,1,0,4,0,8,16,2,2,5,0,17,7,0,1,2,27,34,12,0,3,5,0,1,2,4,1,0,0,0,0,12,10,5,1,5,2,0,3,4,6,0,0,8,1,20,10,16,23,5,12,0,0,0,2,12,7,2,2,4,94,32,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09286971749181497,0.2864031931118199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1140270952636265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1392383702028779,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0880739186453286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13378291126436015,0.0,0.13974134413182482,0.0,0.0,0.1209571422177328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1304948824228629,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06905198778396329,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.42204291319905896,0.25250655273285155,0.0,0.0,0.07761373403784076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13564107783310106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1425396600855036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3002129076220701,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13343872068094348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1003918904390032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2957758313618124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2944829817413549,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08748782206622087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1367266175103242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11296899430371952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13506749060341838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12871205285840165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1193649018962411,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15040840523292368,0.0,0.08055029905975254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2773792654298506,0.0,0.0,0.14931373082177168,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ikeafamous,2019/01/18,Any other ‘recovered’ lurkers? I actually really do feel recovered in the sense that I can genuinely enjoy food at times and it is no longer a slow mental death HOWEVER I am still constantly trying to be skinnier and lurk this thread to help keep me ‘on track’ .... anyone else like this?,5.190283018867923,6.927825339622648,6.27561320754717,73.66926886792454,69.18867924528303,10.58301886792453,28.34433962264151,10.686352973137794,3.4475698113207547,225,8,39,7,4,75,47,53,0.13,0.725,0.14400000000000002,0.2168,1,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,2,0,5,1,0,0,0,4,7,2,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,2,1,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,4,2,5,6,0,7,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,5,25,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.2958538765234338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20616856708093625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2119861565380722,0.3106373656460661,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32762315237146644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2532627912827125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15329377282497642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3665989389179546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20321099450816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2694747861923839,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14811539530271567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30552786361209777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19422088706164492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24211497281388875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17678306952768996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20583509617878987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,jaquelinm,2019/01/18,"The Effects of Treatment-Please Read Hello, My name is Jacqueline Moreno and I am conducting a research study over the effect of inpatient or outpatient treatment has on the social skills of anorexic patients. This study is being conducted in order to attain further knowledge over how the curriculum of treatment can impact the after life of the patient who attained recovery. Most present research tend to rather focus on the causes of anorexia nervosa along with weight trajectory of patients but lacks dominance in the actual feelings and experiences suffered along. I am writing this message in order to ask you, the community, if you could share your experiences with me through a 12 question interview that can be conducted through private messaging in Reddit. A consent form would be signed electronically, and your anonymity will be protected as your name will not be mentioned in the study but referenced as ""individual X."" I know that this is a difficult issue to speak of for many of you, but please consider this a way to bring awareness into what the negative and positive impacts of treatment can have in the way you interact with others. Thank you for your time, if you have any questions please send me a message. Please consider joining my study, I will greatly appreciate it. Also, feel free to comment below as well.",10.454159420289855,10.495328082608696,9.379782608695656,61.95213768115943,57.30434782608695,12.188405797101453,45.68840579710145,11.538034831475384,5.767449275362319,1089,61,154,26,12,341,134,230,0.049,0.797,0.154,0.9769,0,0,0,0,0,0,20.0,0,10,0,5,4,7,0,0,18,0,21,2,0,4,0,36,28,15,0,6,8,0,3,0,0,4,1,1,0,0,10,10,1,1,8,1,1,2,2,2,1,0,0,4,18,6,41,18,3,22,0,1,0,0,29,13,0,6,3,127,28,4,0.0,0.0,0.14318811154511368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1173405816112494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0997819874026328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13717350700483474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15073296826795293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11715261804755787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2870617895820582,0.0,0.0,0.14838302002573525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1617712441182774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15314885143567716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08063941986550488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1036403156302454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1487620184663033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6442654999899999,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32874419268291233,0.0,0.14677052477907393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14957359002655168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13509002269599762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0855599195666225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23293618608796895,0.0,0.17867860600296046,0.1319286264478544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10423336272270947,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,octopihomie,2019/01/19,"Anybody else feeling out of control and it related to your ed? When one aspect of my life goes awry then the  rest follows like dominos. 
I fucked up my schedual and for got to send and email> missed 4 days of gym>friends bday binge>missing work>failing an audition

And I always resort to binging when I start 'spiraling' which definitely doesn't help

Anyway just had to vent hopefully things are gonna go better tomorrow!!
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EDAnonymous,th3Y3ti,2019/01/19,Little bit of a TMI but I’ve been binging all week and honestly been gaining steadily since I hit my lw  at the end of October. I feel so gross and huge that even though I’m super horny I can’t even bring myself to get myself off because I’m so disgusted by how I look and how I feel ,1.5419047619047603,2.6638050952380965,3.7462222222222223,90.64600000000004,77.4126984126984,6.9447619047619025,23.711111111111112,7.554174236665415,0.8952120634920635,223,7,52,3,5,77,46,63,0.172,0.611,0.218,0.5384,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,2,7,4,1,0,2,0,3,0,0,2,1,9,11,9,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,2,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,2,3,8,2,6,8,2,7,0,0,1,0,0,4,0,0,2,32,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1989188614262323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3562519418553186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2890186213113361,0.0,0.0,0.4310565366949656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32998977889546194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17048634747217506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32705379365582643,0.0,0.0,0.27402278213601217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26993150124046633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.320603259706235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26175056023003923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,littlestardust90,2019/01/19,"I do not regret the chicken tendies. I ate my entire days allotment of calories on chicken tenders from McDonald’s. I fit those delicious fuckers into my 700 cal budget and I regret nothing, especially since I planned and ate accordingly yesterday. However I think my body is mostly salt now. What non ED food have y’all eaten today?😭",3.5098617511520733,6.464499387096777,5.373963133640554,72.30951612903227,79.32258064516128,8.058986175115209,33.05069124423963,8.841846274778883,3.766075576036867,270,15,41,7,7,92,51,62,0.062,0.742,0.197,0.7625,1,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,1,0,1,1,4,1,0,1,0,3,7,1,0,0,9,7,2,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,3,4,0,1,0,1,0,1,3,0,0,3,1,10,1,4,4,2,6,0,2,0,1,1,3,1,2,3,26,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4524948492699855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2627191445597061,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4925919124778478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3908813047799701,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3369796416662297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2610254477461396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3861379449527078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,TheCalorieKoala,2019/01/19,"Behold! The whale woman's boating adventure ft. self hatred and a surprise fast Morning Guys, Gals and Non Binary pals!
It's me, the long time lurker you've never heard of. I'm usually content just browsing this sub but I've always wanted to be more active in the community. You're all so supportive and non judgmental. Also I really need to vent today.

Background: my aunt hired a 40ft catamaran for the day for her birthday and invited my dad (her bro), me (25f) and my bro (and her 15 year old son and his best mate). I've been really looking forward to this: a few drinks, some treat food, snorkelling and lazing about in the sun.

Got on the boat this morning and...shit. She's also invited her friend and her 2 daughters. Fuck. These girls my dudes. Tiny. Flawless. Model looks and mermaid hair. Prancing around on deck in itsy bitsy teenie weenie (not yellow polka dot) bikinis. 

I was feeling good about myself this morning. Not skinny because that's a looong way off. But not fat!!! I never feel not fat. Now my day is ruined because there is no way I'm wearing togs in front of these people! And I sure as shit ain't gonna eat today. I just want to cry. I feel so fat and ugly and even if I did get skinny, I'm never going to be pretty. Fuck everything ",1.6628296296296303,4.052785680000003,3.3611111111111143,87.45685185185188,82.19999999999997,5.623703703703704,21.259259259259263,6.937597516519254,0.6993081481481482,980,30,188,12,27,325,158,250,0.118,0.723,0.159,0.8628,0,0,1,0,0,0,46.0,0,0,0,1,12,13,3,0,10,0,8,13,8,0,5,35,27,21,0,4,9,6,4,0,3,1,3,1,0,4,8,14,8,0,3,1,0,3,9,4,0,0,5,8,22,9,20,19,5,27,0,1,3,2,21,9,3,2,15,106,30,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21731314700509294,0.11305616393248374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12095464630274945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16565229115308555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14258899816061668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1492487155120638,0.17525205110292458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1331025686276945,0.0,0.1390307003461624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08974199631958404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12211274998862773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20610248773997605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16429663541104467,0.0,0.10497416166050147,0.2512224502100551,0.07098737109844158,0.0,0.07721903540288262,0.11396276084948707,0.10866903471041453,0.0,0.0,0.1345343745599634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1202422055384524,0.22819606629312386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1007471662731564,0.3143779635275249,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14257452469508095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09419634983165501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1382303963194359,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17408581904225442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14174384705758464,0.0,0.2789407569156089,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15418562920816795,0.12805749767953212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07922789849519048,0.0,0.25758102621353146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14964351493396288,0.0,0.1602813335014968,0.2156973101507431,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08749693947944956
EDAnonymous,elite-alien,2019/01/19,"Not going to gym? I know if I went to the gym I'd lose weight faster... But I don't. Anyone else in my boat? Why don't you go to the gym? I just blame depression and the ""chubby"" feeling I get when running. ",-2.3760248447204972,-0.6184976086956517,0.5685093167701893,102.69108695652176,101.17391304347824,3.4981366459627328,13.093167701863356,5.288315135182226,-1.3532136645962731,154,3,40,1,7,53,33,46,0.208,0.758,0.033,-0.8334,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,1,0,1,2,2,0,0,3,0,2,1,0,0,0,7,8,4,0,1,4,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,2,3,0,4,3,2,0,0,1,2,7,0,4,7,0,7,0,2,0,0,1,1,0,1,2,22,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2267495624900291,0.3322711629079911,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2793085979189073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2709008364328961,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1639696501326332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16942698553253593,0.0,0.3686004479838469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1782200882547353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3627950868543943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39489516398049695,0.0,0.3006180297734134,0.29261929029113004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,SundownPanicButton,2019/01/19,"I actually liked myself today I went to the mall to get my phone fixed and had to hang around a bit to wait. I went back to my car to drop some purchases off and caught a glimpse of myself in a store window.  I’m much thinner than I perceive myself to be, especially my legs. Maybe seeing that will help me realize I can have a healthy diet and still be happy.

I still torture myself daily by restricting what I eat but maybe I can convince myself to let up a little. ",3.384017857142858,4.458722104166668,5.000238095238097,83.64000000000003,72.75,7.5690476190476215,25.17261904761905,7.957251820313856,1.3572994047619051,366,11,75,5,7,124,64,96,0.064,0.82,0.116,0.5647,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,4,4,1,0,6,0,8,3,1,0,0,10,15,4,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,2,4,2,2,2,1,2,5,0,1,0,0,4,1,17,3,15,7,3,15,0,0,1,0,2,5,0,1,5,57,19,0,0.0,0.0,0.21387412261835406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1951039520091392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16852490639528525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2392721971480763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22426124102946587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11450504025598955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23330597878322895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14690215882093874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22411179232285755,0.0,0.10707329776741953,0.21966162313698803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4403628367981665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16111201791437232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17464669922137818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3500520459074368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2077434712637712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40633762670906615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,glitterfitte,2019/01/19,"I miss the daily food diary thread from the old sub That thread was so helpful to me. I was kept accountable and it was easier to properly plan out my meals. It helped me to think about the food that I already had so that I didn't binge or waste my money. It helped me eat better and more nutritious meals than I would if I didn't plan. I would always use it to chat about my day with other users, and we could give eachother tips and positive encouragement. I rarely saw people encourage eachother to restrict more, but I saw so many people trying to eat at maintenance or who were trying to recover who found help and comfort there (or even just if they had a shitty day and wanted to talk about it). I use a notebook and my phone now but it's not the same :(",6.48448051948052,5.494343129870131,6.6291883116883135,81.82092532467534,65.75324675324676,10.037662337662338,28.990259740259727,9.188382445141503,2.0623012987012985,598,15,126,9,8,192,88,154,0.062,0.8,0.138,0.8774,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,1,0,1,3,10,5,0,0,6,0,11,6,0,2,0,30,21,17,0,6,9,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,12,10,6,2,2,1,2,0,3,1,0,0,12,2,19,4,16,6,3,6,0,1,2,0,14,2,0,5,4,89,31,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1812238690173988,0.0,0.1366464690840324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14524166151488602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13111848900968354,0.0,0.0,0.21182015336421955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3360817072818558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1084675660227311,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39715756010814507,0.18006174982816753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1575374091921333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4403001438259633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16649607502082564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17232413256610826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2277027303489045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13199601177097736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10522729598981684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22299291106592398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2836714268689581,0.0,0.0,0.09686282251775057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2333182348353817,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,jayrambling,2019/01/19,"How do you ask people not to comment on your food without telling them you have an ED? One of my best friends (and fuck buddy but that's not really important) ALWAYS comments on my food. I'm vegan and have been for about 5 years, not ED related, and he always mentions how I'm basically eating all carbs and says how bad it is for me. He always follows up by telling me that I have an awesome body despite eating mostly carbs but I can't get his comments out of my head. It's not like I'm eating a ton of bread or anything, it's literally 70% fruits and veggies. 

He knows that I had an ED when I was a teenager, but I don't want him to know that I'm still struggling because it's honestly embarrassing. I go to group therapy and I'm working on it, but this is something I don't want to bring up in case I trigger anyone else. How can I tell him to knock it off without mentioning my eating disorder?",3.4581196581196565,4.159090269841276,5.188994708994713,83.75465201465204,72.22751322751324,8.143426943426944,29.88237688237688,8.384062270229773,2.07688897028897,707,29,150,11,13,242,106,189,0.122,0.8029999999999999,0.075,-0.7929999999999999,0,0,1,0,0,0,16.0,0,3,1,2,7,8,1,2,5,0,13,11,2,5,1,29,28,16,0,2,11,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,11,7,8,0,2,0,0,3,9,4,0,1,3,2,22,4,22,25,4,14,0,0,0,1,22,8,1,2,4,99,33,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32112041549977577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08994921630390712,0.1318085484962111,0.10586109761880204,0.0,0.12026255541877184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10741038474921097,0.07841874149579894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13500145043655284,0.0,0.0,0.14289184684415207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14743444893769064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5265299972386172,0.10746357199380903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31110793074444604,0.0,0.09938820151163046,0.11892711078023975,0.06720994035018331,0.0,0.07311000087789375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13202342188198435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14139614729207273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0628478007601875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0871708953765317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08918390631216823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0824111199822949,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10230098467631876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0990346089280639,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10273336908271076,0.0,0.0,0.13448415909193795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33731535496678194,0.0,0.14711291111254696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15175232857890592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2480118746854715,0.0,0.0936526361942048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08284098977383465
EDAnonymous,homgerygorl,2019/01/19,"DAE feel like hard restricting is the only way for them to lose There just doesnt seem to be a ""healthy"" for me. Im either eating and gaining or starving and losing. If i dont starve the weight off im obese but if i *keep* starving the weight off in disordered. I restricted to 1800cal a day and went for walks like mad for 2 years (BMR is like 2200) and i didnt lose a fucking pound, infact in that 2 years i GAINED over 60 ): if im trying to recover and i dont starve myself i feel like i just gain and gain and gain ):",0.37893000804505306,2.1326501592920337,2.3048592115848763,96.8347304907482,82.80530973451326,5.525020112630734,19.12228479485117,6.574015621080383,-0.13164778761061946,400,10,97,4,11,133,63,113,0.22,0.52,0.26,0.823,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,1,8,3,9,2,0,6,0,7,5,0,0,0,21,13,12,0,3,8,0,5,4,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,7,4,3,3,0,0,2,4,5,0,0,2,5,11,4,13,10,1,11,0,3,0,1,1,5,1,5,7,54,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09092008718478503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16157467224781802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3304537485933641,0.0,0.0,0.1442571806410529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14256689939919345,0.20143150529560694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1303332367988038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12628990278362429,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.456846019074065,0.0,0.0,0.12530901949152498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2755017672597006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4731598555731588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10722123024981887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12834240334183478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0957157975466162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1119029313552035,0.0,0.3433499984350512,0.0,0.13068936956815627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18157229694735733
EDAnonymous,inathrowfarfaraway_,2019/01/19,"Do you log any calories for c/s? Pretty self explanatory. I was c/s some pretty high calorie candy and I don’t know how to log it, if at all. Any tips?",-2.8043137254901964,-1.307294176470588,1.1964705882352966,96.57745098039216,108.41176470588236,3.443137254901962,14.490196078431374,5.46131890053228,-0.9069450980392156,114,3,28,1,6,42,27,34,0.0,0.8,0.2,0.7757,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,1,1,6,4,3,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,3,0,3,3,2,2,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,2,0,15,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4665954283972174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3624697270111751,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18854096634707607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6980461143282553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3578942993111185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,jaredkushnerswife,2019/01/19,"Reached my goal weight but wondering how to keep it there Previously when I reached my goal, I gained about 5lbs back in the months following.  

So now I’m back to the ideal weight I want but I don’t want to gain 5lbs when I go back to eating normally.  

Should I lose 5 extra lbs as like a buffer? Would this work? ",2.7506153846153865,3.995307446153853,3.640000000000004,92.12000000000003,74.53846153846153,7.661538461538463,22.23076923076923,8.238735603445708,0.819061538461539,244,6,57,4,5,78,45,65,0.05,0.644,0.307,0.9465,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,7,10,3,0,0,3,0,3,3,0,1,0,11,10,7,0,6,2,0,2,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,0,3,1,1,0,0,2,1,1,0,0,0,2,8,2,7,8,1,10,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,8,35,10,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5145019801789809,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22822116733380346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12675630890269488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1982443478981432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10896396048905167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24951986005025625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17802494079541345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2185275978207103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26310442903943804,0.0,0.0,0.5431947102992756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2418726658192387,0.16237262126163884,0.0,0.0,0.1584381379904637,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,DopamineDarling,2019/01/19,"Confession: I Plan to Keep Myself on My Medication Longer than Needed Because It Made Me Lose Weight A few months ago I went to rehab for an opioid relapse; the cravings were absolutely unbearable. I was put on Naltrexone to reduce cravings, prevent pleasure from use, and reduce the risk of overdose in case of a relapse.

Right now I 100% do need this medication to not relapse; but ever since I've been on it not only has my appetite been suppressed to nothing, I've also lost a ton of weight, more than if I had just been restricting.

I plan to tell my doctor I think I need to stay on it to prevent me from relapsing even when I don't *really* think I need it for that reason anymore just for the weight loss.

I'm *critically* underweight and any more weight loss at this rate will probably bring me close to death (I didn't see any rules about numbers, so I'll spare them unless I'm told it's ok) but ever since getting sober my ED has come back full force and I can't talk myself out of this.",3.377400000000001,4.99882654,4.5070000000000014,85.01350000000002,73.6,7.4,26.0,8.07648339933343,1.54365,788,27,158,12,16,258,119,200,0.094,0.87,0.036000000000000004,-0.9195,0,0,1,0,0,0,20.0,0,0,1,6,11,7,0,1,7,1,13,8,0,3,2,31,31,10,1,5,8,0,4,0,0,1,4,0,0,0,9,6,4,5,4,0,0,4,5,5,0,0,11,5,22,2,29,19,5,22,1,4,1,0,5,10,0,1,7,103,31,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10726898728580106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09677248651433218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1645833163207845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1200104369613144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09305002168121168,0.0,0.0737672079789287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10424029757599597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1238599290960848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07992665191492222,0.21892283088394265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06322327486381515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10756017419223238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13538040249811525,0.13209784712338504,0.0,0.0,0.11450357380229845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2438117874819029,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09658985915883396,0.0,0.0,0.3589126170741145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11611335842127915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09203435035700652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1304703703316876,0.0,0.0,0.121649520617471,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07752277212757963,0.1244195054684655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10334276861832008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09643013306878144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20020316876239705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1289816696699135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09726409168954676,0.10576898442767364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15507797891886016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1156312363819698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10451468685493072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5894353940431966,0.0,0.11217844823033374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,rosecoloredidiot,2019/01/19,"You ever just feel useless as fuck? I've been sitting at the same weight, about 5-6kg above my GW for at least 3 months. I gain/lose about 2kg difference but I'm not losing and I'm so fucking stressed out. I'm at the lowest weight I've ever been which I love, but I don't feel good enough. I don't feel thin enough. I feel like a failure for maintaining and not continuing to lose.  
  
To make it worse, I have a vacation coming up and instead of being excited I'm afraid of embarrassing myself by being so fat. This happened on my last vacation too and I'm so tired of it. 
  
Starting today I need to restrict a lot harder, I'm so tired of feeling this way. ",0.7615000000000016,2.70192415,3.0599999999999987,90.93500000000002,82.5,6.0,22.142857142857146,7.1686216300943375,0.6767142857142859,511,17,114,7,14,175,83,140,0.254,0.619,0.126,-0.9694,1,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,1,0,2,11,12,2,3,5,0,7,8,1,1,2,23,26,11,0,1,5,0,8,1,0,0,3,0,0,0,5,6,3,1,5,0,0,1,4,8,0,0,2,8,11,4,19,22,5,17,0,3,0,3,2,7,2,1,8,69,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1272044102353277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15428345421701706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30516464356914874,0.0,0.0,0.2671514782403405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3733313016969075,0.10549529574071936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2730366005209986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12385837644014065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13058386832035696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12037055185760198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07214397859833402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3304093456686296,0.0,0.1255435369631839,0.13327771078834327,0.0,0.09857070184206236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1178685820620888,0.0,0.0,0.10949524522329272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10452140596615908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16915519462596534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33944929887021336,0.1399736522298236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11721337057225548,0.0,0.35964393528534305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1504880865147108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,spookyoneoverthere,2019/01/19,"Fuck plateaus Basically the title. I've been having a 10 day plateau and it's starting to make me super paranoid. I weigh all my food, so I know logically that I'm not underestimating calories, but I'm still freaking out. I'd been losing steadily and even though I know this happens, I hate it so much. And I know I could eat more or less it might kick me off the plateau, but the amount of calories I'm eating makes me feel ok, and eating less makes me want to binge and that makes me feel awful.

 Fuuuucckkk youuu plateauuussss🖕🖕🖕

(It doesn't help that I'm waiting to hear back about a job offer, since I've been unemployed for 2 months)

I've missed being here and love you all🖤

Tldr I'm just bitching about goddamn plateaus, lil fuckers",2.74981151299032,4.587259569536428,4.022119205298015,86.91425878757003,75.82119205298014,6.2355578196637795,25.522669383596536,7.010146845296331,0.9760989302088636,589,21,123,6,13,193,94,151,0.233,0.6920000000000001,0.075,-0.9791,3,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,1,0,2,10,10,4,0,5,2,8,8,0,4,1,27,31,12,0,2,5,0,2,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,8,7,5,1,6,0,0,0,2,7,0,0,3,3,13,3,9,25,6,7,0,2,0,3,5,2,3,2,5,66,21,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12700198931144888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13187112371644807,0.0,0.0,0.10651801229903987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5070162804788829,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10909018191285892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16702516697740855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19971864433274505,0.0,0.0,0.15269274095715862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1460552082803309,0.0,0.0,0.16306662762576965,0.0,0.0,0.18615339758247,0.0,0.11070687890278263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1639011634307189,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2723117355138338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1847778229429144,0.0,0.0,0.14906821231978012,0.0,0.4409967195201087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17521437716456173,0.0,0.0,0.1318334379599775,0.0,0.12141556529996395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13662651679109772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11690491263966145,0.0,0.13190129323825234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16227415638500492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09741882588975896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,c0nstantheadache,2019/01/19,Why does eating anywhere near 500 calories feel like a binge? I can’t weigh myself rn but I ate 468 calories yesterday and I feel like I woke up 10lbs heavier? Also my wrists look fat? Can someone please just reassure me I’m crazy. ,0.6957142857142848,3.2161878260869616,1.8511180124223607,93.49543478260873,94.65217391304348,4.367701863354037,21.7888198757764,6.18269132825596,0.4796124223602485,184,7,36,2,7,58,39,46,0.064,0.698,0.238,0.8171,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,1,0,2,5,2,0,0,5,8,3,0,0,2,0,2,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,3,7,3,2,6,0,3,0,0,1,0,1,2,0,0,3,16,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2539884985310763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27793816065915233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32498907053992643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3211811288672701,0.4537939629249071,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31033139174063834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2667080986459146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3486347705774145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2691055743487759,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2865889934753844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,versperalaxis,2019/01/19,"had a major fight w my dad last night so now i don’t want to leave my room and this is actually perfect, i have no reason to eat lmao",1.9693548387096769,1.8266183548387112,4.5388709677419365,90.12830645161293,75.12903225806451,7.490322580645162,21.951612903225808,7.1686216300943375,0.3295032258064512,103,2,27,1,2,37,28,31,0.171,0.569,0.261,0.6326,0,0,0,0,1,0,1.0,0,0,0,1,2,2,1,0,1,0,4,1,0,1,1,4,5,2,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,4,1,2,4,1,4,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,3,16,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.3960671344602821,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.415302730492299,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33083534890799543,0.0,0.4297539964888396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3808781943724768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41729833516577736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2393905636826341,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,jnjusticar,2019/01/19,"Does anyone else get extremely saddened by seeing someone with an obvious ED and know that's the path you're headed down in the future? I work at a small family restaraunt and I had a lady come in yesterday.  She was likely only in her 30s but looked much older due to her tiny figure.  I'm a server PT for some background.  She got a salad, a glass of merlot and a slice of pizza.  I watched the visible cringe at the words creamy Italian when she wanted Italian dressing, she ate her salad completely dry and she picked her one lonely slice of pizza apart with her fingers.  I hurt because inside I know that this is the future I'm heading towards and I don't want to be in my 30's in a burning and purging cycle still.",5.108245210727965,5.436090475862072,6.155402298850576,79.62704980842912,68.3793103448276,8.099616858237548,29.214559386973185,7.793537801064563,1.9285019157088128,569,19,106,6,9,190,97,145,0.086,0.914,0.0,-0.8893,0,2,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,1,2,3,0,0,13,0,5,8,3,1,1,19,17,8,0,2,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,9,5,0,3,0,0,1,1,2,0,1,4,4,17,1,18,12,2,19,0,2,3,0,10,11,0,1,8,68,20,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15628069316934795,0.22900845800630645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13624727131612635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19253075309516046,0.2343419403631838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19559173343132547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18671070423675387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2107017017104836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1167727357435679,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17875828161252227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4587635720270207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2392679505935537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2456662639018513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1091938125818284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1876888701091345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16430273332045642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15145354805103886,0.16998649463697113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1781054599087625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18937603112174975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1784922958930895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2636594300082181,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16271513530609102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,hesitantskeletn,2019/01/19,DAE find irl thinspo infinitely more depressing than Instagram? I always manage to convince myself that pictures of thin people on social media are all down to poses/lighting to make myself feel better but holy shit I saw the most perfectly tiny woman earlier and I am FLOORED. She was so small and dainty and I feel like I’ve gained 50lbs just by looking at her ,3.790966386554622,6.575155323529412,4.683865546218488,78.78382352941179,76.64705882352942,6.8268907563025225,25.890756302521005,7.957251820313856,2.009963865546218,294,11,47,5,7,95,58,68,0.08800000000000001,0.703,0.209,0.8588,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,3,2,6,1,0,1,0,3,1,1,1,2,12,8,5,0,0,2,0,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,3,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,2,5,8,4,9,6,3,7,0,1,2,0,4,6,1,1,2,32,9,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2846050765016636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3025070055871877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2945989609666643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3458918838808238,0.2443537845505035,0.0,0.0,0.31261879867429104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16710369954656745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2872278549249128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22831467386095394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2371277992947436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3510996335803888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34866719132774715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,nycthrowaway51,2019/01/19,"Binge free 2 weeks If it's ok, I wanted to post this to keep me accountable for the next two weeks. Christmas break really messed me up and I gained 10 pounds, but I'm determined to bounce back. I can do this!",1.518409090909092,3.2916185681818213,2.6454545454545446,95.68818181818185,79.22727272727272,7.127272727272729,17.81818181818182,8.07648339933343,0.2694272727272731,163,3,39,3,4,52,36,44,0.042,0.754,0.204,0.7266,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,1,1,3,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,0,0,5,5,3,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,5,3,5,5,0,7,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,4,21,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2768212268650006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3199885270711226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3828688534761952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3447847817637873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2306280912416551,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3516720707036193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2123399723796288,0.0,0.5775477647336266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,tzt-t,2019/01/19,"I can't get out of this cycle I've been purging absolutely everything lately. I'm hesitant to call it b/p because I'm not so much b-ing as I'm just eating ""normal"" amounts and then bringing it back up. I can't stop. 

I've been really stressed lately (moving out PLUS the inpatient ED clinic won't accommodate my needs so I feel really alone) so maybe once I'm in my new place it'll be easier.

But I'm flabby, bloated and in pain 24/7 now. no idea how much of this is real weight gain, I'm too terrified to check.

I just can't get out of this cycle. purging continues to feel like some amazing life hack, and I'm so miserable I've started feeling actively suicidal.

does anyone have ANY suggestions? I'm desperate :(",1.5730612244897983,3.779513108843542,4.125877551020409,82.93697959183675,81.17687074829931,8.001632653061224,24.765986394557824,8.841846274778883,2.1654647619047624,565,22,113,15,15,198,92,147,0.179,0.7040000000000001,0.116,-0.8961,0,1,0,0,0,0,21.0,0,0,0,1,10,5,0,2,1,0,10,5,0,1,0,21,26,12,1,2,4,0,4,1,0,2,3,0,0,0,6,7,2,1,4,0,1,2,6,3,0,0,2,4,6,2,14,21,4,18,0,1,0,0,2,7,0,1,10,56,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17289309687362353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11352072460446155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11672401102186235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1283618063099879,0.0,0.10176130957884308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17045809844382018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1460849141748048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17081497684586258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15002935689712796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2532202713754829,0.11925755709419646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1744320660161826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1884479678414376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3766172487961024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11791029658595599,0.08155543416683764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16770746346127166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17742423621204895,0.2454311363238892,0.1237793151540468,0.0,0.1612257272788729,0.0,0.0,0.163559703939862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17777907424099604,0.0,0.0,0.1776293582575038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17441031584192124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1900072379757716,0.21388416425190304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11815661970568456,0.0,0.0,0.13956415151795734,0.1912221311788743,0.0,0.0,0.18259850880651696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20328042518259126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Future-Scone,2019/01/19,"DAE tell themselves that you'll treat yourself to something you used to love to eat, either later or the next day, but when the time comes you don't actually allow yourself to have it? I used to love pizza, nacho bowls, and McDonalds. I'd pretty much eat one of those things everyday.

Some days I'll daydream about those foods and how amazing they taste, and if I've been somewhat happy with how I ate the past few days I'll tell myself I can treat myself to one of those things later. However, when the time comes, I think about how there's at least a (normal) days calories in one meal and that I shouldn't have it. I won't allow myself to have it and then I forget about it for a little while.

Then, a few days later I go back to daydreaming about those foods again and the cycle continues. I keep telling myself I'll let myself have it, but I never do. 🤷🏻‍♀️

I want those nachos so bad. 😭 Maybe on Sunday...",1.9873904881101367,3.8546739468085134,3.221877346683357,91.66029411764707,78.14893617021276,5.700125156445558,19.037546933667084,6.522977012572876,-0.017400876095118978,714,15,152,6,17,231,103,188,0.073,0.78,0.147,0.9516,1,0,1,0,0,0,23.0,0,3,1,0,13,7,0,0,8,0,12,10,0,7,1,30,23,19,0,4,5,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,14,9,8,1,1,0,0,3,4,1,0,3,2,1,20,6,19,17,7,30,0,0,0,2,9,4,0,4,23,105,34,0,0.0,0.0,0.128303432020241,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10109836387260718,0.10977852688714043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2265130806875415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4239617357483551,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26906936230470085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31796711667847066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07472190157247974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13996063395731712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11686356899455715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13444502663157865,0.0,0.0,0.1317753629404894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2373278159287168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13208718895879498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09665136008532982,0.0,0.1014038361771758,0.0,0.13982820285346478,0.0,0.12882039400314535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.267278415514818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12551050082650642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13376025761285507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10121808523776622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3447523519362333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17469610500092198,0.08424570815835232,0.0,0.0,0.15333160281696656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22710932573215906,0.0,0.0,0.07754905227265732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,sioclip,2019/01/19,"sleeping early because you can't wait to eat for the next day I do this all the time. I go to bed before 9:30pm  and usually wake up around 3am because I'm just so excited to finally eat..
it's pretty exhausting because eating food and losing weight is the only thing that is actually keeping me going now. 

but hey everyday is exciting because I get to try new junk food!


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EDAnonymous,igotmadattumblr,2019/01/19,"Why do people like to discuss your weight? I walked into a group of people at my party and my friend was like ""I was talking about you! You've lost heaps of weight since I last saw you"" and I was like haha no you're wrong. And she's like ""no I'm definitely righr"" and I'm like haha "" I weiyh myself every day that haven't lost weight in 3 months (horrible time for me rn but at least I'm not putting on weight/ ) and shes like ""haha you must have got thicker then"" and fuck now I'm getting worse with resticing and I think I was getting better but I keep thinking about the fact that 7 people we're talking about how fat I used to be??? Sorry this is badly written I'm not used to writing stuff like this I hadn't made myself vomit for 27 days but here we are",-0.03426864707781618,2.105413619631907,1.7275686147885057,97.95681627381336,87.65030674846625,3.9223764933806913,17.167904423635775,4.9825596385082,-0.8175325153374233,592,14,136,2,19,193,96,163,0.133,0.67,0.197,0.8443,0,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,1,4,0,3,6,17,1,0,2,3,13,7,1,4,2,25,32,12,0,1,5,0,4,7,1,1,2,0,0,0,5,10,5,1,2,0,0,2,6,5,0,0,11,5,22,12,16,19,1,14,0,2,1,1,13,5,1,0,14,76,27,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10023201192035508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10616946584078232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15483734007467867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10114253621639012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09274596140695393,0.11097906048107646,0.1254364288532243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09601042713709344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10670092751891187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09785216142637976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4105332152724313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2620851614859973,0.0,0.0,0.11358885963776863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09581824907376292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2496708967607736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12067772090919995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0993019208066497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13437981350624734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.137422052063479,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1929741909679541,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15383913528094315,0.0,0.0,0.06999882161434637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20735953824022504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5847266772223796,0.0,0.0,0.10832134760680036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12233544091253155,0.0,0.13124964389384491,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,sussoandso,2019/01/19,There's an estate agent coming to my late father's house this morning and I had to get up and rush over to try and quickly dispose of a bunch of puke bags I forgot were there. Wish me luck,0.8118292682926835,2.680871097560974,2.222134146341464,97.38734756097564,81.92682926829268,4.1000000000000005,17.567073170731707,3.1291,-0.9238829268292684,149,3,34,0,4,48,33,41,0.081,0.784,0.135,0.3182,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,7,6,3,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,3,0,4,1,7,3,1,6,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,2,23,5,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3706163084718369,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22478424644216646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4964427372286693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4853329230182933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2921068026266819,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4947582973460659,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,cerareece,2019/01/19,"calorie counting apps making it flare up again back at my thinnest i never used MFP or loseit and it made it so much easier. like i still never got the calories i needed but if it wasn't staring me in the goddamn face i could sleep at night if i had too much. i've been using MFP for awhile bc i've gotten incredibly fat and thought i was cured of 10+ years of disordered eating and behavior. as if.

everyone around me figures i'm just on a diet and counting calories because i use it and yeah, it's *set* at 1200 a day but i knew i'd never be able to follow that. it always leads back to this and my mom and boyfriend are aware of my ED but it helps avoid the subject because i'm using it as a ""healthy"" diet tool. i'm staring at 1,972 remaining because of the exercise input from walking to work and home and i'm just sickened by how happy and in control that makes me feel. it's like that number reinforces me turning food down. i don't think i could be without it now because i'm horrified at how many calories i must have been putting down when i can't see it. ",1.0662376811594214,3.152294893333334,2.9621062801932365,91.24965217391303,82.28888888888889,5.51304347826087,24.44927536231884,6.7026698264267655,0.8354521739130436,841,33,179,9,23,281,129,225,0.07400000000000001,0.8340000000000001,0.091,0.2063,0,1,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,0,3,13,5,0,2,7,1,14,8,3,11,4,45,36,23,0,7,10,1,1,2,0,1,2,0,1,0,16,11,5,2,5,1,0,4,7,2,0,0,10,4,19,3,25,21,2,29,0,0,3,0,2,12,0,4,14,115,35,2,0.1312559146994126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10921543572201,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11684559195238008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20185539291950527,0.0,0.3200495493096294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14721466925235502,0.2095943349929929,0.0,0.0,0.08464920645022178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15043064972468773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13430756881252645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1254206513439405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06636693427098839,0.0937692516874322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15871517306029695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10497734544111924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1397243618913411,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08797807286707902,0.0,0.1316603843966463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1282500198595827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12419752012383173,0.1752286845614782,0.1330728960747716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1537253409317218,0.0,0.0,0.19297639960635413,0.09732459761195823,0.3036979592599776,0.0,0.0,0.1231747844258896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13194844739980996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10459397025486857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1313507061512637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1048211430291279,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08410349025783713,0.0,0.10420253484338828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14276874410824136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4534518702905557,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1265260178919949,0.0,0.09555586915157163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08452450567221792
EDAnonymous,smelllykat,2019/01/19,"My dentist called me out for eating a bagel I got my wisdom teeth out today. My appointment was scheduled for the morning but got pushed back by 8 hours. I had already been fasting prior to the surgery so when it got pushed back, my mom took me to the bagel shop next door. She’s in the medical field, so she’s notices my weight loss and eating habits and other symptoms, but there’s been other stuff going on in my life so I’ve been blaming it on that. I’m not sure how much she knows. 

A few weeks ago I wouldn’t have even touched one but I felt trapped so I had one. I felt like crap about it, felt like I undid so much progress but told myself it’s okay because I’ll be able to restrict easily after the procedure.

When I went to the dentist later in the afternoon, they asked what I had to eat so I told them. My dentist says “that’s one of the fattiest things out there! It’s so fattening it’s crazy. You really have to be careful about not indulging too much.”

I felt like he was saying it because of my weight. He’s super fit, vegan, runs triathlons and crap. I’m not skinny so he probably thinks I gorge myself on bagels every day. If only he had seen me a few months ago before this latest round of restriction.... lol

Needless to say I’m hype for my chicken broth and sugar free jello diet for the next few days.",1.693846153846156,3.69464052747253,2.9848534798534807,92.3643131868132,79.62271062271063,5.811721611721612,21.48901098901099,6.8449194561589275,0.4264241758241756,1036,30,222,11,26,335,146,273,0.097,0.764,0.139,0.9017,0,1,0,0,0,0,26.0,0,1,2,3,21,12,2,0,12,2,14,17,4,1,1,26,34,20,0,2,8,1,8,3,0,1,6,3,1,0,15,7,8,2,6,1,2,6,4,3,0,3,21,13,32,10,27,10,6,37,0,1,2,0,18,10,2,1,24,138,47,0,0.10374618786725144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18392947171507654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1144864981239002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09698868094996672,0.0,0.0,0.15954882919983626,0.0,0.12648542637314986,0.0,0.08828036460723453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10593645733164543,0.0,0.10577615285162996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13381541693279236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3184747513571789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06852337863271864,0.0,0.0874106378145516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3984504397096009,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058961349396796627,0.0,0.24892591149620286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10216909697112957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057016191654633425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07327900062992072,0.15205544090871978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10451336962372633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12150628134955248,0.08280921735927295,0.0,0.228796155815402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.220670495543324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1181157225119691,0.0,0.0,0.21090330561388554,0.07890365085531656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11185593756768022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06646246452072814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24750939797734026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1187645640500228,0.0,0.0,0.09777955427918364,0.10783201289993312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06892435730658962,0.06647636809787262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09833925537481207,0.19826785690473311,0.11526583203782333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08321893403352572,0.25266981487314666,0.0,0.09617375554152116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ShoopDaWhoopBurrito,2019/01/19,"Coworker projections My boss has always been struggling with her weight for as long as I’ve known her. She would make snarky comments once in awhile if she sees my healthy lunches or if I’m fasting. 

Once she started losing weight, she was empathetic with my “fitness” goals. 

Since she’s gotten pregnant though, she’s gained the weight (and more) back she’s back to her snarky comments, only they’re even more nasty:

-	I ate a handful of nuts and she asked if I could stop stuffing my face 
-	During a fast she asked me why I was choosing to be anorexic
-	Came into work wearing leggings and she told me I was wasting away

I’m a pretty non-confrontational person, so I just laugh it off. But I’m actually very hurt and triggered by her comments and I don’t have anyone to confide in that could relate to me— wondering if you guys have experienced similar things from coworkers? It’s hard to call someone out in a workplace setting imo. ",3.714196927374304,5.960831826815642,4.066979748603353,85.83052548882685,74.30726256983242,6.486173184357543,28.505935754189945,7.413659706084162,1.6753824022346366,743,31,139,9,16,232,116,179,0.118,0.7879999999999999,0.094,-0.528,0,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,1,0,4,6,4,0,1,5,0,12,9,4,3,0,27,25,15,0,7,7,0,5,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,4,10,5,1,3,0,0,1,1,3,0,0,8,7,27,1,20,13,2,17,0,2,1,0,24,8,0,6,7,87,31,4,0.0,0.0,0.13768071286724007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11739581662667148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09865142040089628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26379489228719405,0.0,0.13255602802009964,0.2169746294159348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14406576147532366,0.16136612121161534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2252932285089794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09318673637234796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13969846681917594,0.0,0.0,0.1263863800568903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15103671927592352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.124857693921126,0.0,0.15784043964462485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09417677265360436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3005064345868951,0.0,0.1073031402972789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12319186324070612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14353636010717347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11242819727011846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11670875397250985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.119542690022501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09986221568029467,0.0,0.0,0.11795518046165855,0.0,0.14749492948348802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09373203776755833,0.0,0.13861741511416573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13481482437929482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11641168011570036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.515418443259408,0.0,0.0,0.12730921421377192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1530030030605047,0.10271313041384864,0.0,0.0,0.10022426812781007,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Internalheterophobia,2019/01/20,Anyone still use mpa? This sub seems kinda dead since the banning and I want to go back to mpa but.... I felt like they were really negative and I’m not sure I want that right now. Reddit was better but it’s gone :(,-0.5146666666666668,1.6830156444444455,1.495000000000001,97.7025,92.55555555555556,4.777777777777779,11.944444444444445,6.42735559955562,-0.9458888888888892,164,2,38,2,6,54,37,45,0.209,0.669,0.122,-0.7454,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,1,1,3,3,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,1,1,13,10,4,1,2,3,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,1,2,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,4,1,4,3,2,6,0,6,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,2,4,21,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22494507279622844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2473728893641896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2845237720446336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30888925050005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18283354925567916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15716983091123565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2060937954256619,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2747360914712239,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29287004628123703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.266119423842222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2569156923928461,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3032051188854364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2778516286312491,0.0,0.0,0.3795023458997765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Thisismythr0waway9,2019/01/20,"My doctor offered me a pill to lose weight and then asked me if I've heard of fat acceptance I dont know where else to post this or where to even start but I have to rant. I've gained 40 pounds in the past year from nonstop binging after losing 90 the year before doing a keto diet and counting calories. January 1st I decided enough is enough, even if I'm never skinny I can't be making myself miserable and binging until I'm sick and in pain. For over two weeks I've been eating keto without counting anything or weighing myself and I'm almost 3 weeks no binges.


So Thursday I had a doctor's appointment to get checked out for migraines and much to my delight I weighed in 7 POUNDS lighter than my last appointment which was a month ago. I explained what I was doing, how I had gained so much weight binging, the doctor basically said she supported whatever helped me eat healthy and then suggested that she could prescribe me Topamax for my migraines which might have the added benefit of suppressing my appetite and urge to binge. I ultimately said no because I only get migraines 1 or 2 times a month and didn't want to take a pill daily. 


But then...THEN she asks me if I've read about fat acceptance, suggests I read the book Land Whale and tells me I don't have to lose weight, I can be perfectly healthy at the weight I'm at. I wanted to scream. It's almost impossible for me to be healthy at this weight, I'm only here because I've spent so much time gorging myself on absolute crap. I didn't gain nearly a pound a week eating salmon and quinoa! Why even offer me a pill to help me lose weight if you're going to turn around and tell me Tess Holiday is beautiful no matter how big she is? I don't have anything against these women, I just can't accept the idea that loving myself includes what basically amounts to harming myself with food. Maybe I'm just being oversensitive, it was just so surreal and nobody really knows about my struggles with food and I don't know where else to talk about it :(",6.176302173913044,6.105529165,6.4146086956521735,80.04882608695655,66.1,9.256521739130434,31.89130434782609,8.841846274778883,2.475501086956521,1606,58,312,23,23,516,197,400,0.145,0.716,0.139,0.3119,0,0,0,0,0,0,26.0,0,0,0,8,20,17,1,2,16,0,30,30,4,3,2,53,57,32,0,7,13,0,6,0,0,1,13,4,0,1,12,18,17,1,9,4,2,1,13,10,0,1,12,10,44,7,43,39,6,37,0,5,0,1,21,16,1,10,19,196,56,6,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06627026350095673,0.0,0.1497227592863143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12304228368230448,0.06655228444746639,0.1397810885494467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0911460513273732,0.0,0.06361528655445399,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0596898075826261,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22956020223826215,0.0,0.0,0.08761820851454309,0.0,0.0,0.2294945502103776,0.1249048385875373,0.0,0.0,0.1544942090877529,0.0,0.14813490134959809,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1808002709754354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07811806917604865,0.0,0.0424878528107837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10022015606675186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08439498381311085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12325848629501247,0.06093940958950798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3345494414900005,0.0,0.0,0.06747385370876242,0.0,0.049902906320349695,0.0,0.07510650725648027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07930858677712088,0.0,0.0,0.1193454991967378,0.0,0.164871691224999,0.0,0.0576595506173718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11371675641997082,0.07954995209865531,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07136691616649632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07159945144365082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14956053955717125,0.0,0.047893195099636784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14222783326622096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052915540144553616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07815542454203417,0.0,0.0,0.08483680591392315,0.0,0.0,0.0562102450634869,0.06008928720725123,0.13068713792506048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0871863594826957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08131745416610624,0.07302969470294794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08819081552362296,0.0,0.1799039806479833,0.5462255196270056,0.0,0.0,0.06745930670182128,0.0,0.0,0.07206600944077586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09628602757340646
EDAnonymous,emma_ballerina,2019/01/20,"Recovery sux/terrified of going from AN back to BED I was officially diagnosed with anorexia nervosa back in November and shortly after started PHP, now doing IOP. My BMI when I started treatment was 17.6 and now I’ve gained about 5/6lbs and it’s around 18.6. I am just so frustrated. I had a couple of good recovery weeks but lately it’s just been me skipping meals and trying to avoid food as much as possible. Things don’t feel like they will ever change. Before I was diagnosed AN I was definitely dealing with BED for 3 or so years. I gained 40 lbs from binging. Before that, I was diagnosed with EDNOS, and was basically using all the symptoms/behaviors in the book (restricting, over exercising, purging, binging/emotional eating). My ED is basically all I know, and has taken up almost half of my life. I’m in my late 20s now. I am just so terrified that I am going to go back to BED. I know that I am eating only a fraction of the calories I was ingesting when dealing with BED but I’m still scared. There were a few weeks during the initial refeeding process that I was dealing with INSANE hunger and was eating like crazy. I know that that is normal, and now my hunger has kind of evened out, but I’m just so scared to get out of control again or to gain more weight than I already have. Feeling utterly depressed today after eating around 2700 cal, most of it being junk food. So worried that I am just starting a trend and that tomorrow I’m gonna keep overeating and that my weight is going to sky rocket. Idk what the point of this post is exactly, but I guess I’m just looking for reassurance that today doesn’t have to be a trend and that I am not destined to end up back with BED. :(  ",5.442429282160624,5.934082161194032,6.200383795309168,79.02184079601993,67.68656716417911,9.1272210376688,31.176261549395882,9.107695989026183,2.5866560056858563,1344,51,257,23,21,442,170,335,0.134,0.789,0.077,-0.9715,0,1,0,0,0,0,38.0,0,0,1,4,29,10,1,3,12,0,32,17,0,2,4,52,56,26,0,1,13,0,4,2,0,2,6,0,5,0,17,21,12,4,5,2,0,4,3,5,0,1,13,5,28,5,44,39,6,46,0,1,1,0,5,14,0,5,29,184,45,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09254545607958203,0.0,0.10198796225960324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16454710150113666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28426164198658155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15728552521683026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09776829160568992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10365708589929437,0.0,0.10226116675415238,0.0,0.0,0.2858434295356738,0.07960136206299133,0.281413599273971,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3782756506000229,0.0,0.1039602584522248,0.08185684407037283,0.0,0.0,0.061042654534956726,0.0835993402406506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.093460835683542,0.06602499211688596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2235096870574858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04828572739652005,0.0,0.21009806311126664,0.07751765868470012,0.0,0.0,0.10181124327733948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08214729877494578,0.0,0.09624139118179173,0.15237513500585778,0.0,0.2085079678699542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06527910341512674,0.0903036592255789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07760967112521999,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06793946327537062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0905521497035186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07028970837127035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08736693904977676,0.10418986192092734,0.08851298119919483,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1850574377768545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1962464285210155,0.0,0.07380687184377666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06139985820986869,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17520704065818704,0.0,0.0,0.06274723280454593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07982135834121692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14826778078774722,0.22508575216909196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09385717479077947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05951556315384195
EDAnonymous,frankxcastle,2019/01/20,"I haven't purged in 21 days! The last time I purged was the 31st of December 2018. I swore to myself it would be the last time...though I said this after every purge. But something about entering a new year made me stick to it. I kept saying that 2019 is going to be MY year. I will not taint this year by purging. 

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Yes, I've binged. No, I haven't lost any weight. But I haven't gained any, either. So that's something?

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I am not cured. It's only been 3 weeks for god's sake! But I feel stronger than I have for years. I still have days where I don't eat. I still binge. I over-exercise. I am always ALWAYS thinking about food and losing weight. But I have not purged. I am by no means close to recovery, but I'm proud of this. I forgot how good it feels to not be bloated all the time from purging. When I binge, I have to live with the uncomfortable feeling of fullness, which makes me less inclined to binge as often. My skin is clearer. I'm less secretive around my family. I'm still a fat fuck and hate myself, but I'm also starting to feel a bit of pride. If I can conquer purging, maybe I can sort out the rest of my life?

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I don't post here as often as I used to, but I want you all to know you can get through this. I'm not trying to change everything at once, just baby steps, but I already feel so much more positive about the future. For so long my ED has dominated every decision about my life, but now that I'm making baby steps to change, I can start thinking about other things. I want to date. I want a career. Don't get me wrong, my ultimate goal is to be skinny...but it's not my only goal now. 2019 is going to be my year, I can feel it!",0.8760482897384279,2.797425997183101,2.4924748490945667,95.25830985915495,81.98591549295773,5.409255533199196,18.875251509054326,6.474141703775902,-0.14660724346076526,1299,31,299,12,35,425,167,355,0.06,0.8420000000000001,0.098,0.8966,0,0,3,0,0,0,66.0,0,2,0,8,22,8,2,0,11,1,32,9,2,5,2,52,67,21,0,5,18,0,9,0,0,2,3,2,0,0,16,6,5,2,12,0,0,5,14,5,0,0,7,11,47,3,42,53,10,38,0,2,0,1,5,7,1,4,25,193,63,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09557158500846306,0.0692585770535449,0.14412582301636126,0.28151184145578484,0.3157063518929701,0.11778974278441035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07709746792951201,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0945510347488172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1832347736989044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11170707205136768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08861929069121008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14593813837325187,0.0,0.07783565256739328,0.0,0.08164418167788355,0.0,0.26274277879252084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1047240016545095,0.0,0.0,0.08006560884715216,0.0904958467319012,0.0,0.09844007299430657,0.07264078370135546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08550523581977124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04759624843867996,0.14119047048427347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1223443873784739,0.0,0.0,0.07647445297448008,0.07664335243534914,0.0,0.0968896674631482,0.09454039317515507,0.0,0.0,0.08194844293804783,0.11562000467946584,0.0,0.08700710400219165,0.09433903756742172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06366518210574451,0.0,0.0,0.0836443610300104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09223228401800793,0.0,0.13173513206834173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08294435656532402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08238188895365484,0.06887235862399829,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1333466559263715,0.0,0.0,0.12259997363389795,0.0,0.20749036171556745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05753700376398591,0.11098691931067828,0.08508969745175224,0.0,0.15150150614470606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05879961086741702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07479955050754324,0.0,0.0,0.15324692370726448,0.0,0.06946989870972776,0.21092491330364493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061522231137371326,0.09468977844811063,0.3157063518929701,0.2788562776068395
EDAnonymous,tinyfleabite,2019/01/20,"I got so fat over the holidays My flair isn't right, I'm a normal weight right now and I'm too embarrassed to change it. I feel disgusting none of my clothes fit anymore and I can feel my fat rippling out over my waistband and it's so disgusting I can't even deal with it. I get out of breath just walking up the stairs. My thighs chafe so much and my boobs are so massive and sexualised I feel disgusting. I just want to cut it all off. 

I'm so sorry this is so pointless I want to vent. My BMI is 18.4 (new) and I know that's normal and healthy but I feel obese. I don't even have body dysmorphia I am just objectively fat. I feel ashamed to go back to school looking like this. I'm a pathetic waste of life. ",-0.041067251461988974,2.1259487236842105,1.7546491228070202,97.5230994152047,88.07894736842104,5.746198830409358,20.944444444444443,7.1686216300943375,0.44263479532163785,554,19,133,9,18,181,83,152,0.163,0.763,0.07400000000000001,-0.9351,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,0,0,14,7,4,2,4,0,9,10,7,0,1,25,25,14,0,4,4,0,6,1,0,0,5,0,0,0,7,10,5,0,6,1,0,2,4,6,0,0,1,7,20,1,15,24,3,15,0,0,1,1,1,10,1,0,4,80,27,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1826245705516684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14159785331697872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.204546059764492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19480335253234868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1898477084897492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.243255017666515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.465551863048238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09620932739871826,0.0,0.1046551146144958,0.0,0.14727936218483906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10120250186848526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13006863459228638,0.08996503505466663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15463729472844748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13536940247118254,0.0,0.0,0.17785054245049767,0.0,0.0,0.36085037493341937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3145214569067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18636682814453626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20613774788708725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21722961496016285,0.0,0.0,0.2242417168679086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ch1ckmunk,2019/01/20,"do you guys like blair walnuts? Just discovered her YouTube channel like last week, her content is so good. Its like a mukbang/diet/comedy/vlog channel and I'm here for it. Could this be the new supersize vs superskinny?",2.8885365853658564,5.831327121951222,3.725073170731708,82.96078048780491,82.65853658536584,7.182439024390242,30.151219512195123,8.238735603445708,2.758479024390244,176,9,31,4,5,56,37,41,0.0,0.7340000000000001,0.266,0.8909999999999999,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,1,0,0,3,4,0,0,2,0,4,0,0,0,0,4,5,2,0,1,2,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,4,1,3,0,3,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,6,17,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30822225278541543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3237927982347628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3822411924107952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3146748643994361,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5658002642421094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3728407147397068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3096587309518325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,BigFrameSkinnyAddict,2019/01/20,Tazo Lemon Loaf Tea Omg its so good😍. I added some sugar cause I got a heavy sweet tooth and my life has changed... Its too good!!!! Totally recommend!!!!,-1.3891428571428577,-0.3610688666666633,-0.15190476190476154,103.785,121.0,4.380952380952381,14.285714285714285,6.18269132825596,-0.5144285714285712,114,3,27,2,7,35,27,30,0.0,0.857,0.14300000000000002,0.6331,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,1,0,1,4,1,1,1,4,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,3,2,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,12,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4150152537917783,0.4273742782763398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6777054787386161,0.3231125660852935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28535437461753393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Haybaybay2792,2019/01/20,"Is it self care when... You go to the bar alone and drink a long island iced tea, a bucket of miller lite, and eat a fried chicken melt with raw fries?


Asking for a friend.

At least i am eating after a fasted six mile run.

I mean, my friend is.",-0.5210897435897444,1.477831634615388,1.1784615384615411,102.04987179487179,88.42307692307692,3.466666666666667,10.589743589743591,3.1291,-2.0063179487179488,183,1,45,0,6,59,44,52,0.038,0.779,0.183,0.8225,0,1,1,0,0,0,10.0,0,1,0,0,1,3,0,0,6,0,3,5,0,0,0,4,7,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,1,3,5,0,1,2,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,4,3,6,7,1,8,0,0,0,0,5,2,0,0,4,25,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2777697246036414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2507266520750521,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2734432555851484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2627295532437189,0.0,0.5488620417428725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41441446066066345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15242172170288998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2373446378072668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2921435974687195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2797864684088199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,byouguessedit,2019/01/20,"anyone know any ed books that aren’t super depressing? like the main character has an ED but it’s not super sad? 

having an ED fucking sucks but a lot of us don’t spend all day drowning in sadness over it, as is evident by the ED memes out there. i’d love to read something more lighthearted. ",0.8405854800936794,3.1666463606557405,2.703653395784542,91.19983606557379,85.39344262295081,6.108665105386418,21.82903981264637,7.447530270364453,0.925143325526932,232,8,49,4,7,77,52,61,0.119,0.586,0.295,0.9417,1,0,1,0,0,0,5.0,1,0,0,2,1,9,2,0,5,0,5,2,0,0,1,7,9,3,1,0,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,1,2,1,0,3,5,0,0,0,0,1,4,7,9,4,4,0,3,0,2,2,3,2,1,2,29,4,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2392060254862577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24595585389926675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2268534092397327,0.0,0.3029667795084397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3251925951739058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19331580404096094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17185012984922987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2990502263393741,0.3174733685329881,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3518510184535394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27079882188394183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4231189509291305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,warmcorgi53,2019/01/20,Seeking tips on how to avoid eating out of boredom I’m still on winter break from college and am mostly just sitting at home bored all day.. what do you guys do to keep yourself occupied and take your mind off food?,4.467131782945739,5.517630441860469,4.54418604651163,88.01224806201557,70.16279069767441,6.663565891472868,28.286821705426355,6.42735559955562,1.1957193798449617,171,6,34,1,3,53,39,43,0.145,0.855,0.0,-0.6808,0,1,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,2,0,0,3,2,0,1,0,0,3,2,0,1,1,10,6,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,3,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,0,9,6,2,10,0,0,0,0,3,5,0,1,3,22,3,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22909820011562426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3634956967369721,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4295534713669909,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35174005521073753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35633124463535776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31575058617592466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3586876698477144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2836923842417509,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2670936914324712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,rejected_desk_puppy,2019/01/20,"Best resource to double check calorie count You know when you want to attempt to eat something not pre packaged but it doesn’t have a definitive calorie count printed on the label? Yeah that wigs me the heck out. And lose it has so many options many of them varying in calories... does anyone have a good reliable resource website/app whatever for double checking? Also because I’m 4lbs from my gw and 11lbs from my ugw I’ve decided it’s time to jump in and get a food scale if anyone has recommendations for that as well. 

As most of us here, I am a control freeeeeek. And I’m having a really hard time with inconsistency in information. How the heck am I supposed to succeed if my data is skewed?!?!! ",3.4922549019607843,5.626768029411769,4.7079411764705865,81.49490196078433,74.58823529411767,6.886274509803924,29.715686274509807,7.793537801064563,2.06581568627451,556,25,103,8,12,183,93,136,0.04,0.823,0.13699999999999998,0.9273,0,0,1,0,0,0,16.0,1,2,1,5,6,5,0,0,8,1,9,2,0,2,0,18,14,13,0,3,4,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,6,2,1,3,0,2,1,2,1,1,0,0,1,10,4,19,14,4,9,0,1,0,0,5,5,2,4,3,69,15,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17446105017494046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30508260051377983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13298722639074848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2289435932001927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24468299474418986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19091172896694847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22323032290706732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2637977862733579,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.113978666101615,0.0,0.0,0.18298076497112384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19542691499315049,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11989405269732528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24406324611106645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4423563887514774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13975774236044988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16794885644449212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2544196255977201,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.262417478237761,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.128675370779365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19615044004540305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,evelynssecretacct,2019/01/20,"Buying bigger bras makes me feel like a whale- a rant I went on birth control 6ish months ago and guess what— my boobs got bigger. I didn't gain any actual weight, so i'm certain it's because of the hormonal change. I figured they'd go back to normal after a few months, but alas they have not so I finally bought some bigger bras and it made me feel so f a t. I can't even really complain about this anywhere else because what woman would be upset about going from a 34b to a 34c (possibly even a 36c). 

I know it would be dumb to go off the pill because of this but i'm god damn tempted. Has anyone experienced something similar??",0.9100256410256408,3.264401746153851,2.7669230769230784,90.66141025641028,85.38461538461539,5.620512820512822,20.2051282051282,7.03164865440522,0.5216820512820517,497,15,103,7,15,165,89,130,0.142,0.787,0.071,-0.8726,0,0,1,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,2,2,8,6,2,1,9,0,9,3,1,3,1,18,23,7,0,3,3,0,3,1,0,2,1,0,0,1,6,2,1,1,4,0,2,4,3,4,0,0,5,4,11,2,11,13,2,16,0,0,0,1,4,5,3,2,8,58,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.17537387720572822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15930465231659036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1222109420765666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12565944588215486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1381881355184449,0.0,0.3286539674735335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19011243072256184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2015633109496348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1501270768567278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2373973655631076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1817364951084616,0.12838693950389804,0.0,0.1968667096677868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30640496636636955,0.0,0.14373283198798512,0.0,0.19797403244401826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09876551596937946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08779865064921298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1700487016343512,0.11995976356478374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28689026194700057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17608049608475865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20259930475539584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11512869257820467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13835177884163355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21884191061896308,0.0,0.16659566893397368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25532579147275425,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,DrKBird,2019/01/20,"DAE have weird weighing rituals/habits? Someone posted a few days ago about irrational things we think might affect the weight on the scale and it got me to think about weighing myself.

I have some weird habits/rituals, and I'm curious what yours are or if you have any?

Mine:  I wait until the absolute last possible minute to get on the scale.  I.e. seconds before getting into the shower or I will prepare all of my lunch (I don't eat breakfast) BEFORE I weigh myself, I will brush my teeth first, etc etc.  Basically, until I am ready to either eat or get ready for work.   Its like those last few minutes might make the number miraculously drop.

Oh and *obviously* I will only weigh myself if/after pooing, that's not even a question.",2.8904556354916053,5.5832552158273385,3.72903597122302,84.83221103117509,79.57553956834533,6.2965947242206255,22.21630695443645,7.554174236665415,1.1366888249400475,581,18,105,9,15,185,93,139,0.059,0.856,0.085,0.5514,1,0,0,0,0,0,23.0,1,2,0,2,3,3,0,0,8,0,11,10,1,2,2,22,20,9,0,1,6,0,1,1,0,5,0,0,1,0,6,5,9,1,3,0,0,0,2,2,0,2,1,2,18,1,12,14,7,12,0,0,0,0,4,3,0,8,8,73,24,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15056995017045485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1155100945965068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28907537168446784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1095451450587602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3476167757510993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37887586201822704,0.11219041309728216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1444821661041799,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26623329594305856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1358519354932577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2769158708770394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0829846351694302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11338234859904328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3603875804401439,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12918559126789628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19149074919020334,0.16267817972304827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19028120096279785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14392116623546067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11284691842382055,0.2176778596420889,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2068427701133297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12365953546865645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,YouSmellOfButterfly,2019/01/20,"Lost only 2 lbs in 10 days Are you shitting me

Guess I just have to restrict harder :) :) :) :)

^I ^was ^already ^going ^insane ^with ^my ^low ^calorie ^allowance

^^time ^^to ^^die",1.7513824884792657,3.6930178709677435,2.1242396313364083,87.72064516129034,112.22580645161293,1.7714285714285716,23.783410138248854,3.1291,0.2661023041474655,138,6,20,0,7,42,31,31,0.168,0.569,0.263,0.6486,0,0,0,0,0,0,24.0,0,1,0,1,1,3,1,0,0,0,3,1,1,1,0,5,6,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,2,0,5,0,4,4,0,5,0,2,0,0,1,2,1,1,2,13,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4053601745482901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2368988555594796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.381232789405773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20876333257413796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40465778932645297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40098644671375133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2793726614696008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3770611851121439,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21419433739888508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,especiallygirlgiants,2019/01/20,"Will my ED haunt me forever? I’ve was in recovery for two years until I fell back  into my disorder for about a year, and then since that have been in recovery for almost 3 years with some small slip ups along the way. But recently the thoughts are back. And they’re strong. The little monster that is my eating disorder is trying to get me again and I’m trying to fight it but it’s feisty. I hate myself. I hate my body. I’m ugly, I’m gross, and I can’t stand myself. I was trying to convince myself I’m fine and I don’t have an eating disorder anymore, but when my friend asked me if I wanted a donut and I screamed NO and broke down crying, I know it’s still there and it’s still nagging me. I haven’t engaged in any behaviors, I’m making myself eat normally and I haven’t purged. But I’m so exhausted by the monster in my head I don’t know if I can stand it much longer without giving in. I just feel so ugly and worthless. ",0.5780735930735936,2.650301035353536,2.6881529581529584,92.58318181818184,84.10101010101009,5.791630591630592,19.529581529581527,7.07126945348624,0.32989148629148657,727,20,161,10,21,245,105,198,0.28800000000000003,0.645,0.067,-0.9942,0,0,0,0,1,0,18.0,0,0,0,1,11,14,4,0,7,0,15,6,2,1,0,30,32,21,0,4,8,0,1,0,1,1,1,1,0,0,7,13,3,0,4,0,0,1,7,9,0,1,4,2,28,5,20,27,2,26,0,2,0,0,4,10,0,4,12,108,35,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13367755931347464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09078226440631064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13239275357052774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12480129837667713,0.0,0.0,0.2053012871562833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14828462567998865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1466397443419174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4589960005955842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.409801041526372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06749989105261978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10313914043138812,0.0,0.06974646256529342,0.12806210110519325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2636005051992278,0.13700602327656508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1467324780025098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13379866197072607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08911001575647669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0981353598161446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1307983219894183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13181178533607696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11042976534842087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.213221111151134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1059813870656704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2719062812043351,0.0,0.13040677839271728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07873975225448854,0.10596338570561296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12868595659638393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2579022966853529
EDAnonymous,stupidminnow,2019/01/20,Tell Me Your Experiences with the Halo Effect I find these type of stories soooo interesting and motivating. If you were once fat and then thin (or vice versa) please tell me in great detail the differences in how you were/are treated.,6.438759689922483,7.978963418604652,6.465116279069767,74.2401550387597,65.97674418604653,9.454263565891472,28.286821705426355,9.725611199111238,2.6217658914728683,189,6,33,4,3,60,36,43,0.0,0.7509999999999999,0.249,0.9062,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,3,0,2,1,3,0,0,2,0,1,1,1,3,0,9,1,6,0,1,2,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,3,1,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,6,3,4,0,0,4,0,0,0,0,5,3,0,2,1,20,7,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3390767250713829,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31746379862906354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2966249925682809,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3578080784733445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.345626037020054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35624903831725746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5673270389024244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,aha98,2019/01/20,"I need to get my shit together (again) so I promise this week I will eat like a normal person, at normal times of the day and normal amounts of food.
I will not binge and I will not purge. 
I will lose weight the healthy way.
I will go to the gym every morning before class and I will attend every single lab and lecture even if I feel like shit. 
I will study in the afternoons and get shit done. 
I will keep my room clean and organised. 
I will take care of myself and stick to my skincare routine.
I will talk to people and not isolate myself, and I will ask for help need to.
I will stop using my phone all the damn time and maybe play guitar, paint or read instead. 
I will go to sleep early. 
I will get my shit together cause I can’t keep living like this. 
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EDAnonymous,nomeatonmybones,2019/01/20,"DAE just HATE being short? So, I’m 5’0”, thought I was 5’1” until I went to the doctors and turns out i’m a whole inch shorter, which sucks. Even before I found this out I hated my height, because the shorter you are, the more stubby/fat you look. And also I have a lower BMI now because of this, which brings me down even more. 
But like... Every time I complain about my height on ED forums everyone’s like “no, I’d love to be short!!! It would make me so small and petite” but it’s kinda ... I don’t know. 
I guess I understand but when you’re short, you have to eat less in general. For me, my BMR is around 1200 and I don’t work out at all so even if I wanted to try losing weight in the healthy way I couldn’t, because nothing below 1200 is recommended... sigh. And when you’re short you have to try much harder. 
And if I were to fast for 1 week I’d only lose 2 lbs which fucking sucks. 
I don’t know. I’d have to get down to 95 lbs before I would even be underweight which is crazy to me. 
There’s a LOT of other shit too that goes along with this too, sigh.
My point is",1.0033116883116904,2.4333633896103923,2.6556255411255414,96.59486688311691,79.60606060606061,5.485800865800866,18.476406926406924,5.985473137389443,-0.4436668398268395,817,16,199,5,20,269,126,231,0.14,0.8140000000000001,0.046,-0.9678,1,0,0,0,0,0,36.0,0,4,0,3,17,14,6,0,7,0,20,6,1,1,1,33,41,18,0,6,6,0,1,2,0,2,1,0,0,0,11,12,2,0,5,0,0,2,5,9,2,0,5,2,27,3,28,30,7,30,0,2,1,2,6,20,4,5,9,127,38,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11037289243692078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12286522329738556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2524033556921501,0.0,0.23488619369061234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1412672043860538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1412268033132585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3646381765066005,0.0,0.11628606256711235,0.1318820511411077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15132954145521055,0.0,0.12759535654842022,0.072108674349504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15204231524392242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2725282729569481,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15170209475317242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13485718258300794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11590030436082692,0.3088135303990257,0.0,0.1173379124307934,0.12456657455847595,0.0,0.09212804307383464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10145906247975173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1324319306151489,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10496885859134486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13047155953805414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1416734264982055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10957082332129614,0.08047936757740659,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18741023571953508,0.1501238799996431,0.0,0.1436815373848436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08140655374979375,0.1095522122812163,0.11070966202445404,0.16806866209748722,0.0,0.12794400811881168,0.0,0.15409209507882507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1004787001761127,0.0,0.0,0.19608796162689596,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,toastandbuttr,2019/01/20,"Dysmorphic and overwhelmed with my body Ok so, I’ve never been diagnosed with an eating disorder and don’t think I have one, but certainly have disordered eating. 

Lately I’ve been especially stressed about my body because I honestly don’t know what I look like as I’ve gained and lost weight over the years. I’ve never had a positive relationship with food or my body for as long as I can remember. In high school I was really thin, I gained weight and had a really rough time with that in college, and now I’ve been losing weight since my second year of college (~3 yrs ago). Now I weigh less than I did in high school, when I barely ate... I look smaller than I feel in photos, but my weight is like 126 (5’7”) which seems like a lot more than how I look (how people say I look). So then I wonder if I’m actually quite fat. Or something. It’s like my perception of how I should look, how I do look, how much I weigh, how much I think I should weigh, and how much I eat, those don’t line up at all.  I see photos of myself and think, hm, is that what I look like? I feel so disconnected from my body, which is only made worse by the harm I’ve done to my body over the years which complicates the relationship even more. 

There’s a whole other level to this mess, being a struggle with intimacy because “good” things happening to my body feel wrong. 

Well thanks for listening to this rant I just need need need to get this out and don’t know where else I can share. If anyone has any thoughts on this or can relate.. lmk.",5.170226537216827,4.967522349514564,5.692702265372169,84.82442556634308,68.22330097087378,9.455663430420714,26.228155339805827,9.150863307647796,1.6503475728155332,1182,28,262,20,18,382,154,309,0.12,0.738,0.142,0.6042,0,0,1,0,0,0,40.0,0,0,0,5,19,20,0,3,10,2,25,20,7,8,4,53,55,30,0,7,8,0,9,5,0,2,2,2,0,0,15,14,13,0,13,0,0,0,6,8,2,2,12,19,35,12,34,40,9,28,0,3,8,0,5,15,0,8,18,166,50,4,0.0,0.0,0.06980310256440614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06340715710811007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.048642951049408835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05001554010697323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08720822418663211,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4767231905154061,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07260159084476736,0.0,0.0,0.1639594850738518,0.0,0.0,0.07320017243317133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.219579585652838,0.05975425707918584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04724498574403462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10850337071184923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08649453451141631,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.037371548139056514,0.0,0.0,0.05999609137856761,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06325387044049711,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15115104962311993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07862219334923734,0.0,0.08068911849084448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17473007707681842,0.0,0.0,0.06330192685111638,0.4204711416452792,0.08002393485533937,0.07808360233586625,0.06081237080700756,0.0,0.06768355213588792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15774865944259306,0.15911608710074285,0.11033691407386476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04847067704442366,0.054401898070328934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.049589995625776664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0760811133642621,0.0,0.0,0.09164808424364257,0.0,0.0,0.15359321130293915,0.08102970961064754,0.0,0.0,0.05688364181822252,0.0,0.1447846498429963,0.057000264029317724,0.06511835695632054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059170474600626265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0550673997879494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08193753870852276,0.07477883776207199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06585534656419921,0.0,0.0,0.04752144951608877,0.1375008847680889,0.0,0.056786944640538115,0.04170980241631029,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.348417782071528,0.06431419021976106,0.0,0.0,0.07986085170800251,0.0,0.0,0.07757139030499449,0.0,0.0,0.07289532811118224,0.0,0.07820698388587402,0.0,0.1381892033123121
EDAnonymous,lecollecteur,2019/01/21,"How the FUCK is the sub fasting okay and ""healthy” but subs for supporting people with eating disorders are being banned Yes I know intermittent fasting has many benefits, such as fasting for 16 hours a day can promote longevity, lower your risk of neurodegenerative diseases, lowers cholesterol etc. but there are people on the fasting sub who are literally not eating for WEEKS on end, trying to beat their own personal record for longest fast and this is seen as absolutely FINE and HEALTHY. Wtf???? people praising other people for not eating for a month straight?? How is that kind of behaviour encouraged and seen as being perfectly fine ????  ",7.710454545454542,9.843053090909097,7.043409090909094,69.05511363636364,63.54545454545455,9.5,35.56818181818181,9.827888789773867,3.929545454545454,520,24,76,11,8,161,75,110,0.092,0.602,0.305,0.987,2,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,1,1,4,4,11,1,1,5,2,10,4,0,2,1,14,15,11,0,0,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,4,5,3,1,1,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,2,2,3,9,15,11,2,13,1,0,2,1,6,3,1,0,10,51,7,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11996184182469513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2131849613790659,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5710077153016988,0.0,0.0,0.16475072059326878,0.0,0.20745166847077415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17196436586760186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18318357228417484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19370205055141734,0.10222689614537993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1885861708516232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14847237279795852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5158270067758459,0.1624178133764916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21108331624431045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12628940117573054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14920697226334506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,noctif,2019/01/21,Watching Amberlynn Reid helps me eat vicariously through her I spent the whole day watching her videos and the anxiety from all the food she eats filled me up. Couldn’t bring myself to go to the grocery store today (and probably tomorrow) and I’m running low on meals so I’ve been rationing my food. Watching her videos is like allowing myself to live my worst nightmare except I don’t really have to live with the consequences. ,5.7251666666666665,7.557501850000005,5.6875,78.03416666666669,68.0,9.333333333333334,32.083333333333336,9.725611199111238,3.2278333333333333,348,15,61,8,6,109,57,80,0.096,0.841,0.062,-0.4215,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,5,0,5,5,0,1,1,8,9,4,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,5,0,0,2,2,4,2,2,0,0,2,3,12,1,10,6,3,10,0,1,3,0,5,3,0,0,4,39,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17603292310268953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14840141013513167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.470918356814624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5564979632937318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13077637232710485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15423735935579685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11241974139599774,0.0,0.406381313280038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2480966580310845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1474138583132896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2181166341482236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2569087259296149,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Gyuu,2019/01/21,"Can I share a poem/lyrics about my ED? I wrote this thing (intended as song lyrics but it ended up being some sort of poem) about the feelings I can’t seem to shake lately. I know it’s very angsty and I’ll probably be embarrassed later, but right now I feel so alone and I think sharing might make me feel better. So, here it is...


Downhill, downhill, picking up speed
Picking up vices: gluttony, greed
Picking up a new incessant need
Up again down again up again.

Think you can manage it
Bandage it, balance it
Think you control it by setting allowances
Think you’re not sinking, you think you can drink away
Up again down again up again.

Stressing, obsessing, the way that you’re dressing
Your sweater’s a shelter, you know it’s depressing
Lower your head like a sinner confessing
Up again down again up again.

Each time, believing and trying in vain
Never achieving the feelings you feign
Best you can be is alone with your pain
It goes: Up again down again up again.",2.991285917496441,5.569829772972971,3.0052062588904715,90.85913229018496,78.29729729729729,5.6244665718349935,24.871977240398287,6.8360192770164,0.9721351351351356,768,28,146,8,19,232,105,185,0.177,0.7340000000000001,0.08900000000000001,-0.9531,1,2,1,0,0,0,26.0,0,10,0,4,18,13,1,4,7,0,11,3,1,7,1,34,26,8,0,1,3,0,4,1,0,1,1,1,0,0,12,5,1,1,13,2,1,1,3,8,0,0,1,5,18,5,25,21,3,42,1,1,0,0,14,19,0,4,21,99,30,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32129494203917136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1457312137536432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1747561691674513,0.1627786690653883,0.13718243754542456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1739693680467626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13359625667283412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15194902306554586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13738166869807875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3137136719584127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15918789635158545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17048910654477933,0.0,0.17497115169864882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07577904776836443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10353731619153234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16454749495216986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11501230704756675,0.11963060999711835,0.14980647474650982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16504827375356784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16723511606279542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13246333140772826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1412065731597247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17767830140329993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10304837762185633,0.4969420209613018,0.0,0.0,0.09044605149246956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10530969825155248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12798222526545128,0.0,0.1231193202850482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,NorthofBoston,2019/01/21,"I’m really sad. TW: Weight gain, self-loathing, general fuckery
idk if I chose the right tag and if I violate any rules I’m sorry feel free to remove 


I was ALWAYS thin. It’s basically what I was known for in my social circle - that and being a smart kid with good grades.
Then I went to college and got really fucked up by a couple of really fucked up things and I began binge eating and left college. I went from 100 pounds to 130 in a few months. 
This last September another really fucked up thing happened and even with therapy it got worse. I’m working on my disorders with my therapist but I just weighed myself and I’m 150. 

One hundred and fucking fifty.
I gained half of my original adult body weight.

I’m only 5’1. I hate my body and I don’t want to even leave my house but I have to for work. I got back down to 118 last year which should make this better bc it’s fixable but it somehow makes it hurt even worse.
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EDAnonymous,imnotverycreative685,2019/01/21,"Phantom poops?(tmi) So I’m just wondering if this is just me or if others go through this too.. 

So I will get the feeling I have to poop but if I don’t go immediately, it goes away and I can’t go for a few days or have to take laxatives. Am I alone on this one?",-0.5472316384180793,1.122018372881353,2.645,93.613488700565,85.61016949152544,6.6451977401129945,21.69774011299436,7.793537801064563,0.7377774011299434,200,7,52,4,6,72,42,59,0.055,0.921,0.024,-0.3839,0,1,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,0,5,0,0,0,2,0,7,1,1,0,0,11,15,9,0,3,8,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,5,1,0,0,2,0,0,3,2,0,0,1,0,1,6,0,6,14,1,6,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,6,1,40,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36600550255462944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3320215736312179,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22790733931008916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17868462141772273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1846317092421608,0.0,0.6025191074914229,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23946623558481894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2657053286763601,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3832364216491754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,DinosaursAndStarStuf,2019/01/21,"Ughhh period bullshit I just had TTOTM less than two weeks ago, but the past three days I've been cramping, bloated, and moody af. I chalked it up to the stress of starting a new job and too many sugar alcohols... until I started bleeding like a mf'er this evening.







Ughhhh I know it's because of rapid weight loss, so I'm not 100% upset about it, but stilllllll. I haven't weighed myself since mid-October (yay for the one recovery goal I've stuck to!!) but I know I put on weight during December due to drinking too much and then eating semi-regularly, because I actually eat when I'm fucked up. I've been low restricting, OMAD, and hardly drinking for almost 3 weeks and I'm almost comfortably thin again. But goddamnnnnn I am not a fan of this side effect.







Thanks for literally being the only people on earth who get it.",4.3416041666666665,5.830295618750004,5.540000000000003,79.09166666666668,70.9375,8.333333333333334,28.333333333333336,8.841846274778883,2.257708333333334,649,24,122,12,12,216,109,160,0.179,0.742,0.079,-0.9504,1,0,3,0,0,0,25.0,0,0,0,3,8,10,1,2,7,1,6,12,0,1,0,18,17,13,0,0,7,0,4,1,0,0,3,0,0,0,7,5,9,1,3,2,0,1,3,6,0,3,4,5,10,4,16,12,2,22,0,2,0,1,1,7,1,2,15,70,17,3,0.0,0.0,0.15081745760676996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13699829775180355,0.16516580032487999,0.3095168492370937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18842318136351413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09967127161186602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30279821973978804,0.0,0.3162842685008452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10207810788938693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1428779915116613,0.0807454349462621,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13844548099255688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15336596154218018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16987209560576574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07550479856635554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1566883533237355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1136112430726427,0.0,0.0,0.14926431556973346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10472635186342588,0.11754142229393408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14753443722861484,0.10714476560851573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.155364357104567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12784446846640435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2187810502463571,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17703527231004587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1422878865514759,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15097184364588098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2479396520199572,0.3763979117442008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Automatic_Breath,2019/01/21,"I’m relapsing and I need help. So, I used to be 54 kg. (119 lbs) However, I’ve since gained a lot of weight and unfortunately reached 68 kg. (149 lbs) This is also the highest weight I’ve ever been and I’m considering starving myself like I used to. 

I don’t know how to lose weight. The only time I lost weight is when I would water fast for up to seven days at a time. I believe this also made me really unhealthy and I suffered a lot of health scares because of it. When I lost weight, I lost 15 kg. 

My family is commenting on my body and telling me that I need to lose weight. I’m scared to lose weight because I don’t know how to control my weight loss and I don’t want to be miserable again. 

Please notice that I can’t afford to go to the gym right now or “eat healthy”. Thanks for your advice in advance! ",0.7984165526675788,2.7089798197674457,2.7628590971272224,93.27489056087549,82.19767441860466,5.907523939808482,20.582763337893297,7.048011613610866,0.31731012311901496,627,18,145,8,17,210,94,172,0.213,0.6859999999999999,0.102,-0.964,2,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,1,0,10,10,13,0,3,6,0,11,12,1,6,1,22,27,14,0,4,1,0,8,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,5,6,10,1,2,1,0,2,4,11,0,1,5,8,21,2,19,19,2,16,0,9,0,0,4,5,0,3,10,82,26,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07877519508883861,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12893418167400927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09828325113596216,0.0,0.0,0.09082451920798963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08954412555458824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0904156018356342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05198944497158672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08248838058691745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07292009605849657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07599582752720778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04581486797526193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08568905077061685,0.0,0.0,0.05403395223461386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0886068354891207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03938399206385715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2705597743663538,0.2639995379869087,0.13707050150241562,0.0,0.07627903921205119,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11954871224703527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09177972159813803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061310678668064764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08849010704712089,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05164347608186057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06884402676661726,0.0,0.0,0.16141761526086493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06668484158743891,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07046030305139174,0.07421866028556467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09401349526257104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13924945103647904,0.0,0.0,0.04754830266240205,0.0,0.0,0.7853303445850929,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0572659651982427,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,reynita1,2019/01/21,"hi i guess i’ve been checking out this sub for a little bit now, and my nerves always get to me when i work up the courage to post. i think i’ve re-written this five times now. so hi lol",-1.4665116279069783,0.3127376976744216,0.661674418604651,105.63623255813955,90.6279069767442,3.44,15.576744186046513,3.1291,-1.4980102325581397,143,3,39,0,5,47,34,43,0.034,0.8109999999999999,0.154,0.7076,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,1,4,1,0,0,2,1,1,0,0,0,0,4,4,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,5,1,5,3,1,8,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,1,4,21,7,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32454822470134714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.425827514170316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2037821244313007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4296779310306813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39092700302807576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37355476081778255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24992473155392306,0.0,0.0,0.22743805299097505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2839570019376565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,dollysteak,2019/01/21,"My housemate’s eating habits are triggering me and I’m scared I’m going to relapse I knew my housemate for about 4 years prior to us moving in together about 8 months ago. She has always been a thicker girl until now. She began dropping a lot of weight really quickly recently and it’s really hard to ignore the fact she’s always fasting and restricting. Keeping up my healthy eating habits is becoming increasingly difficult when she’s constantly practicing unhealthy eating habits around me.

To add to this, she gave me a top the other day because she bought two of them for herself. She handed me the top and said “it should fit you, it’s stretchy” and my heart dropped into the pit of my stomach. I’m a size 8 (XS/S) but that comment made me feel absolutely horrible and I can’t stop thinking about it. 

I’ve battled an eating disorder on and off for about 8 years and have been pretty stable over the past year. I have recently put on some more weight due to the medication I’m taking. I’m struggling with being at a healthy weight, and my housemate’s behaviors aren’t helping.

This is mostly just a rant, but I wouldn’t mind some advice/ideas on how to nip this in the bud? I’m on the verge of relapse and I’m really not okay.",3.055079777365492,5.157780587755101,4.358079777365493,83.65240723562152,75.77551020408163,7.393320964749536,26.646567717996287,8.296473431620573,1.9244285714285716,984,38,187,18,22,324,137,245,0.141,0.779,0.081,-0.9278,1,0,0,0,0,0,20.0,1,1,1,2,10,6,1,2,15,1,13,11,3,3,1,36,31,15,0,2,4,0,6,0,1,2,1,1,0,1,9,14,7,4,3,0,1,4,4,5,0,1,8,7,26,1,32,20,6,41,0,0,0,0,17,16,0,4,19,119,35,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10519252360942473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19748350632121853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10564018283856966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0723392563243854,0.13106010770915086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1282385619460873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07653140779316417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13600445747168075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.48571027417932705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06000239250514351,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06744208071313318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10630372615513743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14062282194583411,0.0795410382896684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1339623665016741,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1054780738537644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10088777109111276,0.0,0.11228706633045787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11954609556727384,0.0,0.0,0.11982142294282976,0.0,0.09472011712877963,0.12612590536246548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1132825737695704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12072859362907515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1192946851967006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2280663659731756,0.0,0.23434178506669004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11288098098899425,0.0,0.11880793635401166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09921223471019387,0.0,0.12405815077563187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08922399306360132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0760380253952644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11592194565693895,0.0,0.14274367348983846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.43351903126659935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22925599719307865
EDAnonymous,AbleBadger,2019/01/21,"DAE weight go up and down ~30 lbs every few months? I feel so alone. I'll go weeks or months either eating very little or non-stop binging. But I won't restrict one day and binge the next. The phases come and go in months, not days. Because of this my weight will go up or down about 30 lbs every few months. It's so embarrassing and stressful. 

I'm really curious to know if anyone else is like this?",1.5193072289156646,3.520823987951811,2.8152861445783164,93.3573870481928,80.20481927710844,5.595783132530121,17.60391566265061,6.6274283507984215,-0.22174578313253024,313,6,69,3,8,101,60,83,0.114,0.8029999999999999,0.083,-0.5617,0,1,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,2,2,0,3,3,0,0,0,15,11,11,0,1,7,0,3,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,3,5,3,1,2,0,0,5,2,2,0,1,0,3,3,1,8,9,3,19,0,0,0,0,0,6,0,4,9,35,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16712839656462986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11283213242999147,0.16534040217850615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09836832591795376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13900408930576647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20813778983293293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16511956640085296,0.1348021081766634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27191869785445233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08159241885672079,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3668362055825042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08868353428698376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07883616633577244,0.16173294948689518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.515209020724735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17161650830858086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1093470117397624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1033763581900414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13491072392640874,0.18484629374738307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13314535212807918,0.0,0.0,0.12943953244707235,0.393005066461109,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Capt_butter,2019/01/21,"time for a ranty thingy Sorry if none of this makes sense 


i really feel like im faking that i have an ed, ive only purged one time in the past 2 or so weeks (was basically all water sadly), and i always end up eating way too much (today as at 3pm, im already up to 900). i really feel that i dont burn enough calories with how much i end up eating. also i really feel out of place here and in similar places since there are so few guys, and i just feel like people (in general) hate me. ",2.58781041388518,2.7056783551401864,5.038718291054738,86.16299065420563,73.85981308411216,8.357276368491322,19.958611481975968,8.418075326091056,0.6825471295060082,372,5,88,6,7,133,77,107,0.078,0.867,0.055,-0.3057,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,0,8,5,1,0,3,0,5,3,0,2,1,16,11,10,0,1,3,0,4,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,5,3,0,4,0,0,0,2,3,0,1,1,4,10,2,14,10,6,18,0,1,0,0,1,10,0,2,9,54,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16525482298408567,0.11975645156559572,0.1246054848200715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17550798142385138,0.0,0.0,0.30646693145989634,0.0,0.0,0.2652712727498708,0.15473362922140402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3028760162403217,0.21396541597779128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1482778150603137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14784888843642746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.323515259328575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14632231970820722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.099960482004313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2201695911646277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1014756878383528,0.11389298361438285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1429550273759362,0.10381903498922804,0.0,0.3129174929389081,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2878044919560556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12387622735942595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16763486743453238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17464294488470775,0.0,0.14194718596217418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1188659997422584,0.12012185225328036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,netflixandnothing,2019/01/21,"Call NASA, my body defies the laws of thermodynamics I've been eating on average 600 cal a day and my weight has not budged in two weeks. In fact it has gone UP. WTF

Is my scale broken? Am I broken? Am I sleepwalking to McDonalds in the middle of the night? lmao

If I don't shed some pounds when I get my period in a few days I will actually lose my damn mind",0.4486038961038936,2.430107545454547,3.0286850649350647,90.49159902597404,83.93506493506493,6.966883116883117,16.118506493506494,8.07648339933343,0.28144285714285777,279,5,66,6,8,97,58,77,0.202,0.7509999999999999,0.047,-0.9148,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,1,1,2,1,0,5,0,8,3,1,0,1,7,10,3,0,1,2,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,0,0,1,2,2,0,1,2,1,10,0,9,7,2,14,0,1,0,0,1,7,1,2,6,40,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.27662549610732345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3148708873900282,0.0,0.0,0.2894542155560935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3656289582757504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2900602293439696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14810119700233382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3171300395909088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2862235473840199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26601707212672954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27690866700370925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2273822617522332,0.34518967738296585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,blueblackbird_,2019/01/21,"i just wish there wasnt any brain fog when fasting i currently very depressed and food doesnt give me any joy at all. meaning i can fast for days without getting any cravings. the only problem is that i get heavy brain fog starting day 2. and no matter how much caffeine and magnesium i take, everything just feels dreamlike and unreal. which in turn reduces my ability to do anything even more in addition to my already unmotivated state.


so everytime i fast i feel incredibly guilty for being unproductive. and i end up forcing myself to eat something. this usually ends in an b/p... 


so either i fast and feel like im wasting my time or i binge and feel a little bit less like im wasting my time.


i wish i could function without having to eat. i dont even care that much about my weight anymore. i just never want to see food again.


i dont even know what im trying to say exactly. just take this as a rant.",1.9148033545401968,4.2744424120879145,3.6413938692886094,86.01676402544827,80.92307692307692,6.468941584731059,26.61191440138809,7.669130373188453,1.6782483516483513,717,31,141,12,19,239,114,182,0.14,0.764,0.096,-0.7927,1,0,1,0,0,0,18.0,0,0,0,0,14,6,0,0,4,0,10,7,2,1,3,32,28,13,0,5,8,0,5,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,6,8,5,0,6,0,0,0,8,2,0,0,1,7,22,4,17,25,7,23,0,1,1,0,2,6,0,1,18,88,28,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11908454088671525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22015336628670026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10702057485614316,0.0,0.0,0.08880310127802027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1178129102120646,0.0,0.0,0.24093291465987626,0.0,0.0,0.11002436798675884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08615964966501688,0.0,0.0,0.1391897538149898,0.0,0.09294520103362436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2529461714025282,0.0,0.0,0.2208436230231947,0.0,0.0,0.1911575538639204,0.0,0.0,0.2138263083823076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0969851337066882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21825596789419827,0.07709297939765453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2609773533784658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11276004640153987,0.10351986274129636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3496932685350437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059306093885000764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10544155958225228,0.10815705038918016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1175487565202165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1586567593466268,0.0,0.08322906174824185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0820726041093705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10325804733669347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08581664943401084,0.0,0.0,0.0859925897761879,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08307660325171218,0.0,0.0,0.07638128828575612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16227410401853742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12584973034464572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07326575847668339,0.11737821993988301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1188507858971384,0.08903942335119934,0.06364980954804733,0.0,0.0,0.1314088097425115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2481889609672575,0.20804832106647145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,grandeicedcovfefe,2019/01/21,"Medicine = weight gain ? Help I was just prescribed a round of antibiotics and steroids for an allergy + small infection and I’m low key freaking out they’re going to make me gain weight 

I know I should be concerned about healing my body instead of losing weight but my brain can’t justify this right now 🙃",3.0380000000000003,5.543852133333335,3.0599999999999987,90.935,77.66666666666666,6.666666666666668,28.33333333333333,7.793537801064563,1.7943333333333331,248,11,49,4,6,75,51,60,0.095,0.7929999999999999,0.113,0.25,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,3,4,3,0,0,2,0,4,7,2,1,0,8,8,3,0,1,2,0,4,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,1,3,3,0,1,0,0,1,1,3,0,0,1,4,6,0,6,5,0,6,0,2,1,0,1,4,0,0,1,25,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2526669219439794,0.0,0.2539307753853737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12927594746036444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15246776164300072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1250110839073659,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2544797698624737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15183740925480815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1942573924265522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8309883520271559,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,mglwmnc,2019/01/21,"Canker sore infestation Haven’t eaten more than 800 calories since 5+ canker sores popped up and though the pain is making me break out in tears, I sure do like the ease of not being able to eat. Was ready to go to the doctors for treatment, but stepped on the scale with positive results. Questioning a cure.

So. Glam.",3.989838709677418,5.8067105645161305,3.7105161290322606,90.54577419354843,72.38709677419354,6.895483870967742,25.30322580645161,7.554174236665415,1.065538064516129,253,8,52,3,5,76,56,62,0.103,0.723,0.174,0.705,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,5,0,5,6,0,2,1,9,8,4,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,4,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,1,0,0,2,2,1,0,0,2,0,2,2,11,5,1,7,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,1,1,29,2,1,0.3328356901287007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34067143230249874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3405740035227933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18915819290162955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16260670601678726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.222170407672398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35416064095791794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37285214597023264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2753251223035804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31369369899770405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3270093756523473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,MonikerOfApathy,2019/01/21,DAE just wake up and feel the need to throw up? Past couple days i’ve been fasting and i keep waking up and immediately needing to throw up but it’s all bile and water.,0.4708333333333314,2.6345033055555582,2.6700000000000017,91.95000000000003,85.3888888888889,4.711111111111111,17.333333333333336,5.985473137389443,-0.4768666666666661,133,3,30,1,4,45,27,36,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,3,2,0,1,11,5,5,0,2,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,4,1,1,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,6,4,1,9,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,3,17,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4595827843062467,0.0,0.2678698332653046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21001614029250606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3691869112445239,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.615961444370039,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3965036711402274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,peachypetrina,2019/01/21,What if makeup had calories This is just one of those thoughts that I had before I fell asleep but imagine if each makeup product had a calorie count and shit,13.517741935483876,7.522862064516133,10.964516129032258,71.6667741935484,57.38709677419354,12.4,47.1290322580645,3.1291,3.868522580645161,128,5,24,0,1,38,26,31,0.154,0.846,0.0,-0.7096,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,1,0,4,2,2,0,0,8,5,4,0,2,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,1,0,1,4,0,2,0,1,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,19,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5025325521605015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4001862962421682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.606212800103899,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4688475267176084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,jewishtemptress,2019/01/21,"I’m finally relapsing. Ugh. I thought I was doing great, eating around 1400 - 1800 calories every day for a month. I just stepped on the scale and I gained four pounds. Fuck that.",1.225588235294115,3.8863397941176494,1.6384705882352968,95.42711764705885,92.23529411764706,5.072941176470589,21.50588235294117,6.742157984588678,0.6146070588235295,139,5,28,2,5,42,30,34,0.17,0.649,0.181,0.1027,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,1,2,3,1,0,2,0,2,2,0,0,0,4,5,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,2,0,1,2,0,4,1,3,3,0,6,0,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,3,15,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3249970998225281,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2354453098223201,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3735662562784133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3075942245481334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3999254471958026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3375090177363507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4025001291146588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2914020265256893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2898314010173261,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,rot-and-poetry,2019/01/21,"Dreading dropping to an UW BMI The closer I get to an UW BMI the more I panic that I'll never be able to look in the mirror and not be disgusted. I haven't been uw in years but from what I remember I looked the same as I did at a normal weight. I was hoping when I started losing again I'd notice some kind of change, but I look fatter than everyone I know that weighs more than me. I have the same waist size I did ten pounds ago ffs. I don't know what to do anymore, I just want to give up on everything.",2.055,2.6652973571428578,3.8825,92.1625,75.42857142857143,7.028571428571429,21.142857142857142,7.1686216300943375,0.3096392857142858,392,8,95,4,8,133,71,112,0.123,0.81,0.066,-0.794,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,1,3,6,1,2,8,0,10,3,1,0,1,15,20,5,0,3,4,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,1,3,0,3,0,0,0,4,4,0,1,4,4,15,2,15,14,5,13,0,1,3,0,1,6,0,2,6,66,19,0,0.1963545501110205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17405646131780286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1947309516685873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20771707833324185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1876251872204644,0.17647080862530515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1025871481978192,0.18836117648696266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1950243729922879,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20447304808837394,0.21582265125180966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4946651068083998,0.21967051602547247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1514407339196649,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1923857690903392,0.0,0.22355095673059225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23037975760404164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22243142824383988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13898076119990335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.115815001026451,0.0,0.0,0.23910694381143785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12644589253469293
EDAnonymous,hyuminfytre,2019/01/21,"(Vent) Fluctuating hell Tw: weight talk, death talk, numbers, negativity and Boohoo 

The past 5 years I've dealt with EDNOS cycling, the depths of my restriction made me lose 60lbs in about 4-5 months. Nobody saw it as bad since I went from 240lbs to 170lbs. 170lbs is my lowest weight, which is downright pathetic to me. I've fluctuated 170-190 the past year or so, bingeing and purging and restricting 300-700cal a day for weeks. I've lost so much weight initially that if I was average weight when I started, I'd be so small. nobody notices its an issue that I'm dealing with, even when I bring it up. Its like my ED doesn't want to even try hard. It makes me feel like im not hurting as much as the rest of you. I must not be struggling if im stikl this fat, right? Im not as pure and frail as the others.

Fuck, it is trying to destroy me. But my body is frail and cold and malnourished under the blubber of a weight-loss underachiever. Which sounds illogical, if I was so properly fucked, couldn't I be 100lbs by now? 

I wish I was like 130 when I got an ED so I'd be like 80lbs and skeletal and might actually have people force me into recovery instead of thinking me talking about my ED being no big deal because I'm not on deaths door. I am screaming for help every hour of the day in my own mind and I honestly want to plunge into restriction so that maybe I just go ahead and die or look sickly enough to get forced into treatment to help me out of this pit inside my soul, I hate everything about me",3.0773484848484856,4.477666821428572,4.164999999999999,88.05916666666668,73.96753246753245,7.341125541125543,24.52164502164502,7.9370924344782425,1.1474216450216457,1183,36,255,17,24,385,176,308,0.194,0.7290000000000001,0.077,-0.9899,1,0,0,0,0,0,34.0,0,1,0,3,17,16,5,1,11,0,18,10,3,2,2,42,39,30,3,8,11,0,6,4,0,2,2,2,1,0,14,16,5,3,2,0,0,3,8,11,0,0,8,11,30,5,37,23,5,31,2,3,2,2,8,13,3,6,19,151,44,0,0.0,0.0,0.09263055453737162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07925622613311978,0.05786380454345556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10543737044143142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12243417051790563,0.19572162074925886,0.0,0.0,0.09851444878213862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09808019752430816,0.0,0.12539067943411766,0.0,0.07997620289626801,0.0,0.08531011854313487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04799560969341808,0.06781257044144094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1755084297922414,0.049593028115717176,0.0,0.05394657858921316,0.0,0.07591810219634611,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08503181184084638,0.09371620283555204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12724894688267285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09347942805802592,0.0,0.1016163758210978,0.0,0.3075973920155929,0.09907430779110954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.185497129375296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07971089615276228,0.10619386803148258,0.10361899570256493,0.0,0.0,0.08981785532557929,0.06336142872716825,0.0,0.09536229364936663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10069764947701687,0.09584454899829284,0.0,0.0757661416824012,0.0,0.13955774900990792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10806976387585568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1812283133624736,0.06580722955807207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0810631977018587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07852077734565242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06718655230029194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09923348612147474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2288850511555884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060822431179164735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12889213639074498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11197536344515899,0.0,0.07614101120273972,0.5779494603085146,0.0,0.08799400140293133,0.0,0.0,0.10915605759356753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1222538069095732
EDAnonymous,WanderingWombats,2019/01/21,"Today I said goodbye to my scale I’m not ready to throw it out, but I’m putting it in a drawer where I can’t access it as easily. I’m done with weighing myself 5-10 times a day and letting the number on it dictate my mood. Hopefully I can be able to celebrate me instead of just a number",5.7952604166666655,3.483643421875001,7.664375000000002,78.1097916666667,67.90625,10.408333333333333,33.83333333333333,8.841846274778883,2.665527083333333,225,8,50,3,3,81,48,64,0.025,0.7440000000000001,0.231,0.9193,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,4,0,5,1,0,0,0,7,10,3,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,4,3,1,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,2,1,7,1,9,6,0,9,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,1,3,35,11,0,0.3615693407657925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23318231290868546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37001096979721704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3591199385815805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3697291480053451,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3634770535916476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3439352416141771,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21083399026414906,0.0,0.3427254578526396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,silverblades,2019/01/21,"Anyone else triggers themselves with their own photos? I just looked through the folder in my pc where all of my ""progress"" photos are stored. My bmi was 16 and i used to hate how i looked. But since my ED relapse i don't hate those pictures now?? I look at them and see ""goals"" instead of the sick person i was. Anyone else relate?",2.410454545454545,4.4052267121212125,2.645454545454548,95.68818181818185,77.33333333333334,4.4,21.60606060606061,3.1291,-0.3356484848484844,257,7,54,0,6,78,49,66,0.172,0.828,0.0,-0.9129,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,2,2,5,2,2,0,2,0,4,1,0,3,1,9,11,4,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,3,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,2,0,0,2,4,12,0,7,9,2,4,0,0,4,0,3,3,0,0,1,36,13,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2980169405843692,0.4367039756409865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3560449580978945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4207955466325754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5368653835350916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18607568973000665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16981766329211526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17628324892312053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1840549145436928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,doublecouponn,2019/01/22,Orthos how do you do it?! I mean I know fitbits aren’t super accurate BUT i “burned” more than i ate today. I feel semi immortal  and not invincible because I feel hungry. Like ???? How do y’all move past that? I take phentermine and I STILL feel hungry. ,0.32202857142857155,2.753201660000002,3.007714285714286,86.22100000000002,92.4,6.057142857142857,19.142857142857142,7.447530270364453,0.9384857142857141,193,6,38,4,7,67,36,50,0.069,0.742,0.189,0.7193,1,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,2,0,1,3,2,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,2,0,11,11,5,0,0,2,0,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,1,0,5,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,1,3,10,2,1,10,1,4,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,4,25,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20856944117460705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5189989271310167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1880348680839894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16715558594252092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3726980395737391,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3636477748835124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3266177219183797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2732387815827614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2572517235896598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32431504762520985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,obviouslynotjackie,2019/01/22,"Exercise bulimia I really needa stop working out/dancing like a mad woman after eating anything I hadn’t planned to eat. Like,,I’m honestly trying so hard to recover (though I’m not even underweight to begin with, almost there though) but I have this overwhelming urge to do SOMETHING. And I can’t control it, I’m midway through a workout when I realize “holy shit I have to stop” 

BUT I C A N T

And my boyfriend, bless his heart, he always asks how much I’ve exercised, what I’ve eaten, etc, and I feel strangely proud when I say I’ve done over an hour of exercise and on an empty stomach.

Gorl. 


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EDAnonymous,sadboyofearth,2019/01/22,Ugh I hate food So I didn’t eat all day and I just ate dinner and my stomach hurts.  Like I didn’t even want to eat and I felt pretty okay before but now I just feel gross and bloated and sick...,-1.813560606060605,0.07588052272727097,0.4109090909090938,105.17803030303033,96.04545454545452,2.9333333333333336,11.87878787878788,3.1291,-1.957730303030303,149,2,39,0,6,49,31,44,0.233,0.624,0.14400000000000002,-0.7184,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,5,6,1,0,0,1,2,7,1,0,1,12,7,7,0,1,3,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,5,5,0,2,0,0,0,2,4,0,0,4,2,7,2,1,3,1,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,22,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2441554762553217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.185045491128686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5872000713397976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1895139221403273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14507994181968006,0.0,0.27549687097539355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3469557291808503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2832830198802074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3071634673717529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1401790336105273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2919099823923951,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16923817946716305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Belarie,2019/01/22,"Anyone not strict about fasting at all? As long as I get the hours in I’m good.

Like- “Drinking diet soda will spike your insulin!!1!!” That will be really important info for someone who wants the best results or needs to lower their insulin spikes (Type 2 Diabetic?) but I will do anything to get me through a fast - diet soda, gum, (never c&s before but thought of it :/) i even ate a candy cane which i’m pretty sure broke me out of ketosis but i’m not sweating too bad so there’s that.

Fasting just feels like a time of suffering and major (basically no calorie) restriction for me.",2.8798149637972656,5.254694938053099,4.288930008045053,82.60995172968623,77.49557522123894,6.586967015285603,27.086886564762672,7.686295010490155,1.8202106194690264,460,19,83,7,11,152,86,113,0.116,0.7,0.184,0.8294,1,0,1,0,0,0,23.0,0,1,1,1,6,8,0,0,5,0,5,9,1,1,3,19,15,8,0,2,7,0,1,2,0,3,2,0,0,0,5,2,6,1,3,1,0,0,4,3,0,0,2,1,8,5,14,9,3,10,0,2,0,0,3,3,0,1,9,53,13,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2624627071097117,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16937710949517476,0.0,0.19933966586299626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20225702064060916,0.0,0.0,0.2061250748285219,0.0,0.2542118363248728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2372991522970757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1599946557879846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12248184772405794,0.17305351426183774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2531167228271378,0.0,0.0,0.2031761431942102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23855375826812986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2366886398414751,0.0,0.0,0.2143713208451831,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17961499465742245,0.1868274094059328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24644119348321794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1551826449015413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2052458567246836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2283046522538328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19230840094308688,0.14124981467319042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14287712461559607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,tentaclebarn,2019/01/22,"Torn Recovery is actually going ok and I'm feeling much better....and I like having energy to do things and make good work and art and have a conversation with people and not forget everything 24/7 and feel like I'm dying....but I also wish I could be losing. But I know that if I lose weight, along with that goes the small bit of happiness I've worked so hard to achieve, and I know it will destroy my body and everything else in my life.  I can't have it all, and doing the right thing is so so hard, and I still feel sad a lot--even if it's much easier to manage now.  

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It's not like I ever actually got skinny anyway, and it's not like anyone actually wants to date me either way....so I guess I should just settle for being ""average"".....I really hope my life is worth it and that things pay off one day.",3.893415814954274,4.296743946745565,5.553297471759013,82.6125067240452,71.07100591715977,8.98569123184508,23.055944055944057,9.095868883498916,1.4146284023668638,633,13,137,12,11,217,103,169,0.108,0.695,0.197,0.9264,0,0,0,0,0,0,35.0,0,0,0,5,9,12,1,0,4,1,14,5,2,1,2,38,28,19,0,7,8,0,6,4,0,2,2,0,0,0,12,15,2,0,5,1,2,1,4,4,0,1,1,6,15,8,11,22,5,10,0,3,0,0,1,4,0,4,9,88,27,5,0.0,0.0,0.3710754100507176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10136363968379082,0.0,0.13733588954132336,0.15401772247607928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08862804265268212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11210196645345943,0.13838050716229874,0.1407930520932614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1012012689959854,0.0,0.0,0.08174464364747255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10588514757146557,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0837185923153486,0.11465456633166565,0.0,0.0,0.2278332988358777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1922690697099724,0.09055175335620913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07203616154087762,0.10631368039455713,0.10137526450632706,0.0,0.13963177116049716,0.0,0.0,0.13493000880515932,0.22709003959355864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12589347382255978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13931932136892236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17905756842185966,0.24769877027418724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2836064429745365,0.0,0.10776013579313026,0.0,0.0,0.08460803696202801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18635481275858265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08589052968956395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08787397353037657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08120066585314849,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10824563405840942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10122442185770028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25262546674220504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07476169555771273,0.10060994803213814,0.0,0.15434995795478282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14575870432583554,0.0,0.0,0.18455413345931665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15401772247607928,0.0
EDAnonymous,dorianthrowagray,2019/01/22,"omgomgogmgomgkgmgkgmgmjdndjahdbbcjskdnz I'm sorry I've lurked here forever and I've never posted but I'm having a mental breakdown and I have to vent

I was browsing random thinspo on tumblr and there's a picture and I am so so so sure that it's my best friend and I can't find the pic on her insta or anything but it looks SO familiar and she has other pics up in the same outfit but holy shit my world is shaken

It wasn't even like she posted it it was just in the midst of a dump of a bunch of randos and I have no idea why this is affecting me so much but I just. I want to??? cry?? die??? lose a bunch of weight maybe (exactly that fuck my fat ass)

Idk we go to college together I have to see her every day and I try not to think of her that way because I know she's struggled with ED :( and I'm sorry for just ranting at y'all but I just feel some type of way",-0.6274822695035454,1.5019877765957474,2.0894680851063825,94.03416666666668,91.44680851063828,4.6226950354609935,15.812056737588652,6.21433560688645,-0.5581390070921985,674,15,158,7,24,233,110,188,0.219,0.7,0.08,-0.9789,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,1,1,0,2,12,9,3,1,8,0,12,5,3,1,3,35,23,20,1,1,11,0,2,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,10,11,2,0,5,0,0,1,5,5,0,0,3,4,23,4,19,20,6,14,0,1,2,2,9,7,3,3,3,108,33,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14075394877105585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1042663241877244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17949924633494296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1878828822452111,0.11030868965147313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17751579826002264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11297239556878932,0.0,0.14411124128941558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08648456214321654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1563303516563566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1321475229209296,0.15812664741611787,0.0,0.0,0.09720777084018446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19308691081898505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0940008488483604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08356304938785936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14363317803129047,0.19135354749450686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17183584631844612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.172371277841884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12573640478693587,0.0,0.1319190312610695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3276241376194385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13629925533967574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17557334816971756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.382937633424448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1788114507135352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1612061562780764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10959755199728917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11612707965022485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10088568871446334,0.2715322016984805,0.0,0.20828449241491664,0.0,0.0,0.15433984993574462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,FridgethatRidge,2019/01/22,"I can't stop binging I tried ""recovery"" for a good two weeks and it was basically just me binging for two weeks straight. I started to restrict again but now I'm just going back into the restrict/binge/purge cycle that I've gone through for the past 3 years. It sucks and just feel so fat and gross. I've even tried restricting to a healthy number (1,200) yet I still binge. I just feel gross and bloated and disgusting. ",2.0778580990629187,4.5811823012048185,2.5078714859437774,93.50817938420349,81.40963855421687,5.616599732262381,24.88487282463186,6.937597516519254,0.9124977242302544,333,13,69,4,9,102,54,83,0.246,0.645,0.109,-0.946,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,0,11,5,2,0,4,0,2,1,1,0,0,16,9,7,0,0,5,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,6,1,3,2,0,0,2,1,4,0,2,2,2,6,1,7,7,0,15,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,11,41,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20210836019026596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17360387737862115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2658004240038017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1493784905969604,0.22045840266120773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25091129605884155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18604007952856774,0.0,0.2099050119442138,0.21974668801809602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3569033159726073,0.0,0.5135145620121525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.42167009005704603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16926086531774853
EDAnonymous,stagvelvet,2019/01/22,"I said it out loud I work in an educational setting where staff takes ""working lunches"" - we eat with the kids, don't get a scheduled lunch. I've been dodging the question ""Why don't you eat?"" All year. Coming back after a long weekend without medication left me with questionable judgement.

Again, I get the question from coworker. I consider myself lucky, she's trustworthy. She's seen some shit. So I told her, ""I just eat at home. So much. I'm doing much better than I used to."" It didn't click for her. I blurted out: ""I have an eating disorder. Food is hard""

Fireworks behind her eyes, you guys. She lit up and was immediately supportive. Not in a prying way. Not in a pet project way. But genuinely concerned and informed way. Bless it, she even promised to stop asking.

...it felt good to say it out loud",1.1454369501466282,3.784656754838714,2.6119208211143707,88.8851539589443,91.12903225806451,5.39882697947214,23.819648093841643,6.980632752743323,1.1531935483870974,627,26,122,10,22,203,107,155,0.086,0.789,0.125,0.802,0,0,0,0,0,0,37.0,1,2,0,3,7,7,1,0,9,0,8,10,2,1,1,24,20,5,0,0,5,0,2,0,0,0,1,4,2,2,5,9,7,1,5,1,0,1,6,1,0,0,7,10,21,6,19,13,4,23,1,0,4,0,20,10,1,5,8,78,26,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1190692095047254,0.0,0.0,0.09793592811118376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11264411292808345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10971378732899836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14597148071273622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5213053251148656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08412347138322021,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12229050446491488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1540104284970562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13308605393407327,0.0,0.0,0.10682783361464483,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12611150935456442,0.0,0.0,0.11409414515239467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12775761652801296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1383825933643379,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11271413776720147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12830697543141034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18725606014935187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4280343049475715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12115341103949252,0.10128586852781092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13073848222876694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10648295706397742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14453244744196306,0.0,0.0,0.09576273178626313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12170284594354353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11000258434602968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30328955074644115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11492722522161927,0.0,0.0,0.12277544645444426,0.0,0.18544667242181373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08201897201179782
EDAnonymous,vanillacokezerobunny,2019/01/22,"I deleted My Fitness Pal off of my phone Last week Wednesday I made the conscious decision to not log food in MFP. This was a huge event in my life because prior to that day I hadn't missed a single day of logging in well over a year. Today I made a bigger step and got rid of the app off of my phone. Counting calories had me feeling isolated and trapped in a whirl of numbers and macros. I can't believe how much time I wasted inputting everything in. 

Having MFP definitely made my ED worse as before my problems with eating and self worth were around but I didn't find myself restricting straight away, rather skipping meals sometimes but mostly crying about my weight in the shower. MFP gave me the tools to begin the obsession over calories making the feelings of self hate even more prevalent than before. The thought that I was a disgusting fat fuck for going over my ridiculously tiny calorie goals was a constant. 

Now, I am trying to recover now so it felt only right to let it go. 

I am hoping that now I am no longer tracking things and just listening to my hunger cues, I will eventually forget all of the calories counts that are stuck in my head and can move on from the numbers game my life has been. Hell, I don't even enjoy math and numbers yet I found myself thinking about them always. But now, it's time to let go. It's time to get better.",5.038352059925097,5.988214876404495,5.221217228464422,84.048829588015,68.7752808988764,7.581273408239702,29.44007490636704,7.594959193182576,1.7616501872659174,1080,39,207,11,18,340,161,267,0.188,0.731,0.081,-0.9884,1,1,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,0,1,2,15,12,5,1,16,0,20,10,2,5,1,35,43,13,0,3,6,0,4,0,1,1,3,1,1,2,10,9,6,1,9,1,1,5,6,8,1,0,17,5,30,4,37,23,5,44,1,1,0,1,9,20,2,2,19,142,40,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10456819888164176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11187368357728668,0.0,0.0,0.11807188279158072,0.0,0.0,0.07660777229643144,0.0,0.21387324260188764,0.14158799197216684,0.0,0.11114563771017646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13580552320215106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1380435070821547,0.16209457933749002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12859263412770264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16600879762355947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11294483982687255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12708589653348756,0.0,0.12066370581949422,0.0,0.11486086304480275,0.0,0.1519616679857154,0.13779157993046487,0.0,0.11618065845921748,0.06565782245663065,0.0,0.21426488845701386,0.0,0.1005104440007424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12407392814830301,0.1289745288997349,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12481949134555975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10243850053238594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2570138788279543,0.17753004928190527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35673833737125143,0.08388625571037506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13356820528208696,0.09238252084102497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09557833011130784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12025001329120415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10732220323502664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2622041695704101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12429166550257001,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08349011616000625,0.08052479430020151,0.0,0.0997686024456223,0.21983901696241456,0.0,0.11912125372181913,0.0,0.0,0.08532224516975309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10080556048226932,0.15303321654527366,0.11299316975520007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12806931340475833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08092789504591721
EDAnonymous,windyy3,2019/01/22,"My bf treats me differently when I'm at a lower weight :( We're in a long distance relationship. When I gained 10-15 pounds 6 months ago, my SO was less affectionate when I was over his house and more prone to getting irritated with me. When I went back home, he was also less clingy over text... like usually he would always ask what I'm doing, where I'm at, who I'm hanging out with... but after I gained weight he wouldn't text me less and wouldn't really care what I'm up to. I lost weight during last semester and I hit my lowest weight ever and guys, he was so clingy and loving. Then I graduated, went on vacation, cut my hair short, and gained 10-15 pounds again. Guess what? I went over his house and he was less affectionate, and now he hasn't texted me in 3 days when I know for a fact he would be all over me :( I just feel so....................................... gross. I know he's not doing it on purpose and when I brought it up to him before, he told me I was overthinking and crazy. But I know for a fact I'm not crazy, just fat and gross",1.9966911764705881,3.185027356481488,3.514368191721136,92.49686274509804,76.3611111111111,7.119389978213508,19.65032679738562,7.724431198458867,0.2591457516339868,783,15,190,11,17,259,105,216,0.162,0.735,0.103,-0.9102,3,0,0,0,0,0,70.0,0,0,0,4,17,10,1,0,4,0,14,7,2,0,4,33,36,24,0,4,6,0,6,1,1,4,1,0,1,1,6,14,5,0,4,0,0,5,5,4,0,0,12,6,27,6,21,18,6,38,0,1,0,1,19,15,0,1,19,111,33,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1135508453861361,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10243965130894277,0.1065875136518904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11975401888627528,0.0,0.0,0.09849919247348447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10900167263761164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13060410021295354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08261239254769924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1338347890492243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11587166594089912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06477002509653038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06692573958714472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14111401281517674,0.12683682150777892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1284923960291682,0.0,0.0,0.29561499862708096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.211197369384416,0.10441668873280913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06258204553353088,0.0,0.0,0.11336239687043526,0.0,0.0,0.13983372635544988,0.0,0.11561313816082593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10224632897848944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08206264023272512,0.0,0.0,0.13752894613524186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12240280230514305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14108147345655495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.623953753900823,0.0,0.35624343865728075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18199380274844745,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ssenkradeht,2019/01/22,"I think other people are fat and ugly too Everyone always seems to say ""I only see myself as fat and ugly but not other people, other people can be way bigger than me and I still think they are prettier/skinnier than me"" and that is true for me too, to a degree that is. 

But usually I see other people and I think about the same stuff as when I see my own body. Not even just talking about overweight people, but also people that carry their weight rather awkwardly. 

Obviously I don't say anything, I don't make snarky remarks. I keep it to myself. 

I just wanted to know if I'm some special kind of asshole. I know that body dysmorphia is a thing that does this stuff, but somehow I don't believe that I'm the only one with thoughts like this. ",4.439,5.158129566666666,5.5213333333333345,82.19400000000003,70.0,7.6,25.666666666666664,7.554174236665415,1.327066666666667,585,16,113,6,10,194,83,150,0.07200000000000001,0.855,0.07200000000000001,0.25,0,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,2,0,12,5,0,1,4,0,10,6,4,1,2,31,25,14,0,3,10,0,1,1,0,0,3,2,0,0,16,6,4,1,7,0,0,0,5,1,0,1,1,6,20,4,13,23,3,5,0,0,3,0,5,1,0,4,4,89,36,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10481533296675867,0.10905938853529204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10785810573282724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14766917660982395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2911748370638124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1146988191281941,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08656942624017483,0.0,0.0,0.12524145011959734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11649959485387106,0.0,0.1364875443022022,0.14406350347659827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06403338801452221,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08748915877038024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08881532368201395,0.19936681229370465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5451978533978054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2084616666553621,0.0,0.0,0.3133335786758849,0.1193197269643235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10467137441473634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3000838654667796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10534779588038512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0870760050812097,0.25194996917514845,0.0,0.10405365009734764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1443532990091193,0.0,0.07730752405385649,0.10403597617108044,0.0,0.1596059719925669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,vodkabipolar,2019/01/22,"What are the odds? In my deviance crimj class we got assigned random deviant behaviors and behaviors unacceptable to society... and I got assigned disordered eating. Overeating, undereating, anorexia, severely overweight or underweight.... This'll be great for my mental health. 🙃 ",7.209817073170732,10.980365195121953,6.267286585365857,59.25751524390245,92.17073170731709,9.854878048780488,44.14939024390244,8.841846274778883,6.984582926829268,227,16,23,8,8,69,36,41,0.179,0.735,0.086,-0.5267,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,2,3,0,0,0,6,4,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,3,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,4,1,5,1,0,3,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,2,0,16,5,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3707397584269399,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33100405873135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5174381119854298,0.3566413564868417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3438475018190537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3259949691910488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3654439263252429,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,standingbymountains,2019/01/22,"Sauce recommendations? My go-to dinner is usually some sort of protein, vegetable, and rice, as dinner is generally the one meal I eat. I’ve been doing a lot of “stir-fry” type dishes with a 15 cal teriyaki sauce, but I can tell I’m gonna get bored of it. Anyone have any other low-cal sauce recommendations? I like the basic format of my meal but I want to switch up the favor. Sauce+veggie combination ideas are also very welcome! ",3.634285714285717,5.5329862380952415,5.244761904761905,78.83357142857143,73.52380952380952,7.180952380952381,23.904761904761905,7.957251820313856,1.3358047619047615,340,10,64,5,7,115,63,84,0.032,0.807,0.161,0.8932,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,0,5,0,7,7,0,0,0,10,11,5,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,2,7,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,6,3,8,9,2,2,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,3,2,35,8,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26754168917140125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2275073217808265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2339270404380057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3423309535563761,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1747899879529062,0.0,0.1901340204455212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3776692987824693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16344555999460672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2844247586745243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2267015812440975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29241382313280245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36846255563212615,0.2760410310486945,0.19732786211333164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,swagzilla_xo,2019/01/22,"Olive Garden My bf works at Olive Garden and they have to weigh out all of their portions, so the calorie counts on the website should be close to accurate !",5.695,6.726089833333332,4.813333333333336,87.27000000000002,67.33333333333334,7.333333333333332,28.333333333333336,7.1686216300943375,1.3913333333333333,125,4,24,1,2,37,26,30,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,2,1,1,0,0,0,2,0,3,1,0,0,1,5,3,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,0,0,3,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,6,1,2,4,0,0,0,0,3,4,0,0,0,17,3,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ItsAFetish,2019/01/22,haven't binged in 6+ months... ... but only because i moved in with boyfriend and his family and don't want them to notice it 🤦🏻‍♀️ does anyone else's living/financial situation affect their eating?,1.1744999999999983,3.726197450000005,3.4600000000000013,84.50500000000002,87.0,6.2,18.0,7.554174236665415,0.7583500000000005,158,4,30,3,5,54,37,40,0.041,0.959,0.0,-0.0857,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,1,0,6,3,3,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,1,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,4,3,0,4,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,1,14,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2151457232843792,0.3152672882159366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18756646863005053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26926374655843605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.314846203618074,0.25703756934596794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2900650687710323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24559718720913876,0.3270283919635884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3503099067855923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2340139821213719,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34585921853076057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18148498582738248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,radcherrywinter,2019/01/22,"This video has really opened my eyes to what I am doing to my body. Warning - graphic content https://youtu.be/rZZu7oLPQOQ

I’m not gonna sit here and say watch this your eating disorder will be cured! Because it doesn’t work that way. But it is a huge heartbreaking eye opener into what we are doing to ourselves. ",3.9486781609195374,6.7867584655172415,3.845517241379312,84.70954022988506,76.41379310344827,6.625287356321839,23.459770114942533,7.793537801064563,1.3840252873563217,253,8,44,4,6,77,50,58,0.141,0.821,0.039,-0.7263,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,1,1,0,1,1,1,0,0,1,0,9,4,3,0,0,7,11,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,7,5,1,0,0,1,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,4,5,0,4,8,0,6,0,1,3,0,3,4,0,0,0,30,12,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2454352674364549,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4472234312324719,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4614408840813519,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4119838836373668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2579306284031083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3201820005539119,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3195834276342607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2931143674587671,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,celinat0r,2019/01/22,"please talk me out of starting EC stacks I’ve struggled on and off with EDNOS since I was 13 (18 now) and I’ve never tried an EC stack—  I never planned to before, but recently I’ve been gaining again and I’m freaking out lol please give me reasons not to buy bronkaid rn",1.003157894736841,3.1599755438596517,2.1921929824561417,96.26618421052632,83.03508771929825,4.5017543859649125,23.535087719298247,5.46131890053228,0.17690877192982454,214,8,47,1,6,68,42,57,0.087,0.721,0.192,0.765,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,2,2,2,0,1,1,1,2,0,0,1,2,11,5,4,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,6,0,0,1,0,1,0,3,2,0,0,2,0,4,0,8,3,0,10,0,0,0,0,2,4,0,0,6,24,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2253316006179841,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25402739571382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4084715965369301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5813580286483593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2722661195154227,0.2614653692571257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21905142472795186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18743204666901933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27683419918198304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21284216419922228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17978684793411215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,httpram,2019/01/22,i got called fat today we had a thing where we had to sit down for a meal in one of my classes and i am picky and also a freak so i only ate the dessert and someone thought it would be funny to say “of course the fatty only eats dessert” thanks!!!!!!!! I thought i didnt even look that fucking bad today but i guess i did! im gonna go crawl in a hole and die i hate school 😊,-1.5538823529411765,0.2256099058823544,0.9132352941176478,103.65455882352943,91.11764705882356,3.4000000000000004,16.735294117647058,3.1291,-1.2709764705882356,282,7,75,0,10,95,60,85,0.194,0.782,0.024,-0.9429,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,2,0,0,0,4,5,2,0,6,0,7,7,1,0,0,11,18,7,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,1,0,0,3,6,6,0,2,0,0,1,1,4,0,1,8,2,11,1,8,7,0,8,0,0,1,1,4,4,1,1,2,45,14,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16367036297699894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17088655534547614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20898563904909287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.212409745271773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20942318036625254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13517916715423195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18920930546777792,0.0,0.0,0.11631571975557772,0.0,0.16368913340523122,0.0,0.2254613462998445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20206411362214885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22107309973986208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1718668820310424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13868616216260066,0.3113135989753172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16275765998422115,0.0,0.2071316995260664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17341181702134806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18842784606672897,0.0,0.0,0.13597019591349702,0.0,0.0,0.32496197261359866,0.0,0.0,0.3879965905180007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1453879985669299,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,cloudjm,2019/01/22,"Idk how to cope with getting this bad again i’ve had an eating disorder for almost 10 years now, my whole teenage life was spent in and out of therapy and hospital being treated for anorexia, i had a terrible time with therapy but after years i finally was able to recover in a way and the past 3 years i’ve been dealing with it alone, it hasn’t been great but it’s been manageable. 
the past few months i’ve been restricting badly again. i think i relapsed before i even realised, i’m really struggling again but where i live now the doctors are terrible and unhelpful (i tried to go back to therapy last year and it was the worst experience of my life) i just don’t know who to talk to about managing it again i’m scared. 
my weight has dropped 20kg and my periods have stopped again and i’m constantly fighting the thoughts. 
i’m so sick of it anorexia took away my whole teenage life and now it’s back to take away my 20s. ",3.3008687943262416,4.888775718085107,4.299063829787237,86.5636666666667,73.7340425531915,8.630354609929078,29.022695035460988,9.21078282632365,2.4129669503546105,737,31,155,17,15,239,104,188,0.231,0.742,0.028,-0.9908,0,1,0,0,2,0,11.0,0,0,0,0,16,10,1,2,8,0,15,7,0,1,0,23,27,13,0,0,4,0,1,0,0,0,5,0,0,0,9,12,2,2,3,0,1,2,2,8,0,0,12,1,14,2,22,14,4,34,0,0,0,0,4,6,0,1,24,98,23,3,0.12305204768139495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12321885092145635,0.12744481084204254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23122289884476305,0.18923885823477365,0.2054866398529988,0.0,0.0,0.10470822936530662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13297554850277274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12686125796223632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14102830737233313,0.12594898496362114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1259129647554481,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0812747169620601,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12036851446911798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13479750349839548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06428961612755557,0.0,0.06993331443288837,0.0,0.0,0.1356653169806277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06762618731663456,0.10030384239836164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2607459010762648,0.0,0.0,0.108657212520693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09821897047427593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2349342062826221,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07883029267246203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12319656633235698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10287702176760403,0.0,0.12864071770053614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09251982584012423,0.0989045747975826,0.0,0.0,0.422162221847905,0.0,0.0,0.0788467835303229,0.0,0.09768958081192068,0.07175263856137581,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1367153526460429,0.08354426302711866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0976729878481301,0.0,0.14984424366128465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27476643358862696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31696593714784105
EDAnonymous,reddotm,2019/01/22,why does my brain work like this Whyyy can’t I stop comparing myself to every single girl I see. I even do it with my friends now which is messed up and I hate being so obsessed with looks. I seriously just want to end my day and crawl up in bed when I see someone that I think is prettier than me lol I will always find something wrong with me and get triggered when I realize I can never be perfect. It feels like my mission is to be the most attractive person ever and I get destroyed every time I realize I never will be. I want to be the skinniest. This started a little while ago when I went through some shit relationship problems and now I can’t stop. I’ve had my ED for about 7 years but these comparisons really started getting bad in the past little bit and I know being disordered is making it sooo much worse but I don’t know how to stop and it honestly gives me good motivation to keep restricting. I’m fucked up,2.4704108309990644,4.435103809523814,4.042178649237473,85.88392156862746,77.04232804232804,7.410021786492376,24.874260815437285,8.313332769828598,1.6061986305633362,736,26,150,14,17,245,114,189,0.206,0.672,0.122,-0.9527,0,0,1,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,3,12,17,4,1,4,1,18,3,2,4,4,38,39,15,0,3,3,0,1,2,1,2,0,0,1,2,9,10,0,5,8,0,0,1,5,10,0,0,2,4,27,7,18,29,5,28,0,0,3,1,5,7,2,2,22,103,36,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11900670985084555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11170880558184093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1120952005067587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1465689206453792,0.0,0.0,0.14987015084373612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08658173346553136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15386495592452767,0.0,0.11748523679198768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11890783570583842,0.0,0.0,0.08867248693647109,0.12143904064888893,0.22622698396889945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06788208011559096,0.09590998778751468,0.0,0.0,0.12270432077880003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10372312139524473,0.12411424053388287,0.2104241156157789,0.12878719760031734,0.0,0.11260459803773128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13254651476766902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11932975937860615,0.0,0.0,0.1475632874660614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13117794604443572,0.2691124785423841,0.0,0.0,0.1127382582134256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08961456284377148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09869100902724083,0.0,0.2070875547477684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12815916878093042,0.0,0.11722407403820755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12846147776883285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08600556677988955,0.0,0.0,0.14413690477735172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21396366568501995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1378082260147527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11375167788917545,0.10335410650301488,0.0,0.0,0.1900491713751145,0.0,0.0,0.33672321638509073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08602355866510179,0.0,0.0,0.07828369194396585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15837116438170978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12445338002955615,0.12114196798518755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09773739342510857,0.0,0.13681473129632032,0.0,0.14678399512135726,0.0,0.08645418578993178
EDAnonymous,StressedCookie,2019/01/22,"It's back again as soon as I saw the scale and my mum is catching up I was pretty strict with my ""diet"" until Dec but a lot of events happened by January. I tried to eat less and trying not to count the calories, but more on proportions.  I went back to school on Jan 2 and I actually felt good. There came a time that I was really hungry but not enough to binge. Just a normal human eating 3 times a day unlike before.   


But as soon as I stepped on the scale, I realized I got bigger and I'm back to square one.   
I came home pretty late today and was coughing because my throat was dry. My mum called me from downstairs and said ""You're not throwing up are you?""  


I think she's suspected for a while with ""Are you eating well?/ Did you eat?"" questions and I just evade it. But this one hit me hard. I stopped purging but the fact that I did purge before made me feel..bad? worried she knows? It was a complex emotion. ",1.1376524644945682,3.1887012169312143,2.586828181565025,94.2336591478697,81.80423280423281,5.248788638262322,20.000278473962684,6.339386263674448,0.00730052910052903,706,19,156,6,19,229,112,189,0.052000000000000005,0.884,0.064,0.6261,0,0,0,0,1,0,26.0,0,3,0,0,10,2,0,0,10,0,10,7,1,1,1,34,23,19,0,1,11,2,2,0,0,0,1,1,1,1,6,11,5,1,7,0,0,6,3,0,1,2,15,5,26,2,21,7,4,27,0,0,2,0,11,6,0,2,15,106,32,1,0.0,0.0,0.12317955235332262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2911828080370399,0.10539445116192887,0.07694693804566807,0.0,0.2148201240526111,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12889209852568545,0.2887406109671348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08140611050245536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5166478102543398,0.0,0.14198862601285792,0.0,0.13042645470610334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06382427209344638,0.0,0.12119792049462637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10587339827971258,0.10095543409800968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1116223084537874,0.0,0.11307479017759335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1266161875633396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06937117567847056,0.0,0.142389795443772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1073138634008393,0.0,0.11943924191748967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1236758691286042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17106965396231807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2568369122474804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14140336811648335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08086438551033721,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1200709862394092,0.0,0.0,0.12774867950057986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10553160297065617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08088130188908263,0.0,0.0,0.14720820713222826,0.0,0.11964863949557893,0.0,0.0,0.17139998504564574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11349342465009968,0.1170138919789984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12818986301496854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,whoopsie__daisy,2019/01/22,"Ended a whole week binge free with.. A binge. BUT I am not going to get dragged into the cycle, posting for accountability. 
I binged last night after eating my daily calories (1,000). I ate: Half of a quesadilla with cheese, beans, garlic, salsa and sour cream, two vegan chocolate chip cookies, a gluten free brownie and a strawberry almond bar. It was actually all really good and I feel like I was able to scratch an itch and now I am back on track today. He whole time I tried to stay mindful of the fact that I was MAKING THE DECISION to give in to my urge to binge. I didn't feel out of control or crazed. Definitely not gonna weigh myself for a couple days, I'm gonna eat around 400 cal today, work out and then I'll go back up to ~1000 a day tomorrow. Thanks for reading lol. ",2.4771428571428578,4.406120777070065,3.965737033666972,86.60409235668794,76.89808917197452,6.778707916287535,22.042311191992717,7.7094869923839395,0.9101559599636024,610,17,125,9,14,202,109,157,0.02,0.818,0.163,0.9755,0,0,0,0,0,0,24.0,0,0,0,2,4,5,0,0,11,1,6,6,1,2,2,23,18,8,0,0,4,0,3,1,0,2,1,0,0,0,2,11,5,1,3,3,3,2,3,0,0,2,5,5,12,7,23,11,3,26,0,0,1,0,2,7,0,1,16,72,14,2,0.16218010541458153,0.0,0.15826438812316948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14437467799804213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2494129805666856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18189877867672608,0.0,0.17944920192632932,0.0,0.20918550233407626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33190147229363953,0.0,0.0,0.14364343579171931,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1640062685290885,0.11586149971329435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08473241134211855,0.15557793512499635,0.1843413826982052,0.13602897783876675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13219843180320692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07923300747201444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10825647971339064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16375567411761674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15219504254994554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1553237102653216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1622239936543761,0.0,0.10389672838752123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1728624136222872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14931365148140147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09456852368510196,0.0,0.3074555534220807,0.0,0.0,0.11010964579478692,0.0,0.15842639729904606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13009109801042246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3621365918198344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11806904829754845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,dancar22,2019/01/22,What does being inpatient at a hospital do for you for binge eating? I'm curious about what happens when you're inpatient at a hospital. I'm at my wits end. I can't stop over eating and I can't stop purging. I just can't and I don't know why. I need help but am afraid. Has anyone ever been?,-1.095069444444448,0.9854539375000044,2.1177083333333364,92.54534722222223,95.5625,5.969444444444445,18.04861111111111,7.3871296695380915,0.5874152777777781,228,7,52,5,9,81,40,64,0.0,0.872,0.128,0.5787,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,1,0,0,4,1,0,1,2,0,9,2,0,0,1,9,14,4,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,2,2,1,0,0,0,4,1,0,0,1,0,7,0,7,12,0,9,0,0,0,0,2,4,0,0,5,33,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19590792276006644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2451868457228413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5733868635462499,0.0,0.0,0.2481557510077953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2534382713721492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24776168242966665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18779831884423545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15397924873895275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20774944503878487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4684849805329789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2528182929701617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ghostsportclub,2019/01/22,"Recovery is slipping away I mean, I don’t know if I was fully recovered but I was doing bloody well. From October onwards I’ve been eating normally, as I wanted to try really hard to just enjoy myself when I was with my bf (we’re in a LDR and he came home for two months! It was amazing), and also I’m a university student and I know I need the brainpower that comes with food. So, I’ve been doing well. I’ve gained weight but my clothes still fit (mostly... rip black jeans waist 25). But recently I’ve been feeling guilty every time I eat. It’s not the same feelings I had when I was deep in my ED - I want to eat. I just overthink everything I eat and regret it after. I really hate this and want to be better but I feel I’m just slipping back into this fucking disorder. My grandmother died yesterday and my bday is coming up and my bf and I booked a holiday to Paris over Easter - all of which bring food anxiety. I hate this. I wish I could just think of food like a normal person",1.3555882352941209,3.3767463235294137,3.5429019607843166,87.82905882352941,80.86274509803921,7.021176470588236,21.47450980392157,8.07648339933343,1.1187733333333334,766,23,162,15,20,262,122,204,0.161,0.68,0.159,-0.6597,1,0,0,0,0,0,24.0,0,0,0,2,12,10,3,0,6,0,16,10,1,0,1,43,37,18,1,10,10,0,5,1,2,0,0,0,1,1,8,14,9,0,7,2,0,4,2,4,2,1,10,6,27,6,19,25,3,21,0,1,1,1,4,8,1,2,10,106,35,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09290608452035744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08887449352558162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10915138692443667,0.08933234528034388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10274842934521072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13287465078686458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20015106040679012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09275726167922882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12057257886047602,0.0,0.13314801797057882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4755091231358344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09788347952894437,0.0,0.10441169922582587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17622656898321382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4214422543579787,0.0,0.0,0.10740304723524008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10407107754825566,0.22939993872132725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1165342253040938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.127694829100437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056757834856935974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1265499663822425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0927307537715383,0.0,0.0,0.0861431981815717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2276560663383197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1014405978465927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14885092817100748,0.0,0.11471000579453128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09277848271799656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07444103347777485,0.0,0.0,0.06774329059614566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0788760302249491,0.0,0.1134872899789218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20557124116807352,0.0,0.0,0.14147134301999426,0.20891275552095875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13359692435984385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,PM_ME_BrusselSprouts,2019/01/22,"Holy moly the girls at the hospital... I started volunteering at my local hospital and last night was the nursing unit training.  At least 85% of the working women I saw (from cashier in the cafeteria to doctors) that was under the age of 40 was slim and beautiful. I work in the oil field right now and it was such a huge contrast from what I see in my daily life I couldn't believe it.  Idk if HR there hires on appearance, or they have awesome weight loss incentives or WHAt but seriously all the nurses and secretaries especially were almost all 8.5+. It was like Grey's Anatomy in there!

This is why I was so much skinnier when I was in college... When you see it all the time it reminds you.  Now at work (it's winter) I wear 2-4 pairs of pants, 3+shirts and it's so easy to hide under all those clothes and just forget about it all.  It's so easy to grab crap food on the way home or tell yourself you're fine... Ugh

Idk if I'm happy or sad about it all, but I think I'm going to start volunteering immediately after work for 3 hours most days so I don't even have time to eat. Also all the stuff in the cafeteria is ""healthy"" and has calorie counts/labels, so if I do grab something I will be forced to put it in MFP. Last night we got a free small meal & drink during training and I spent 5 minutes reading all the labels before settling on a 250 calorie bowl of fruit and cheese and a large hot tea.  That was my dinner and I was so happy. Tonight after work I'm going to the gym.

Anyways just thought I would share with some people that might understand.",2.992695924764888,4.404512369905959,4.0346758620689664,88.8629103448276,74.20376175548589,6.859485893416928,25.612664576802512,7.404127859558343,1.088973567398119,1222,41,262,14,25,396,178,319,0.07200000000000001,0.8009999999999999,0.127,0.9599,0,0,2,0,0,0,40.0,1,2,1,6,20,11,1,0,18,0,22,14,2,0,8,43,38,29,0,5,11,0,4,1,0,3,2,0,1,2,19,13,10,0,3,3,2,4,2,5,0,0,14,10,22,7,35,19,12,44,0,2,4,0,8,20,1,12,20,166,41,11,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13171050795950107,0.0,0.0,0.10518626036280232,0.0,0.14251509396777065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11192422242303993,0.1481917580070816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08482739369650441,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13462878985226326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12885149040984914,0.0,0.13459028730269554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08687578382110665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15904926974964412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14950557156418529,0.0,0.105198323580084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2800369655472085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1319375305427705,0.0,0.12953273114620475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21443261211710388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09290508939254204,0.06425999358074802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13953488834639155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09669130822371268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.246868136634484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0911878725716108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13222619992082466,0.0,0.0,0.13156780391752154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11232778817654487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20962828277209355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10125992090435544,0.0,0.0,0.18619834965939186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15057291099611975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11496494856180807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08428052876723667,0.0,0.10442188199994233,0.15339497814952668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1369296687529258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1044041455280221,0.0,0.16017079610663992,0.0,0.0,0.11868736048741545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4787850750437124,0.0,0.0,0.09343670773820524,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ttammyt,2019/01/22,"Fought through a binge!! Like most of y’all, after the demise of ProED I have been out of control. That plus a breakup has caused me to binge uncontrollable for the past couple of months. Today was the first day that I decided not to order a crazy amount of food but instead I ate a boiled egg. Might not be a crazy feat but I’m so happy I didn’t wake up to my stomach in pain. ",0.879249999999999,2.848920425000003,2.0275,98.3375,82.25,5.0,18.75,5.985473137389443,-0.44562500000000016,294,7,70,2,8,93,59,80,0.096,0.745,0.159,0.7325,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,1,0,2,2,5,1,1,8,0,7,7,2,2,0,11,10,4,0,0,4,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,2,2,4,1,1,0,0,0,3,3,0,1,5,0,7,2,15,3,2,10,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,2,7,47,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2939208691012711,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3209044304792304,0.0,0.3165829059603755,0.0,0.18452172955578386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24337088754785804,0.3459736891574228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3045767585834346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1397822641962394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3035248144386918,0.0,0.0,0.22837577852435614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3044485525534127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2731309542480269,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27120536483627705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,spoopygayleo,2019/01/22,Books about eds or mental illness in general Does anyone have any good book recommendations for books about eating disorders that aren’t winter girls and letting ana go. I read a lot of young adult fiction books about mental illness but I’ve read quite a bit but am looking for some new ones ,5.8264545454545456,7.491112690909091,5.434318181818185,80.5914772727273,67.54545454545455,7.6818181818181825,28.29545454545455,8.07648339933343,1.8689090909090909,238,8,42,3,4,73,44,55,0.07,0.893,0.037000000000000005,-0.1901,1,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,1,3,1,0,0,2,0,4,3,0,0,0,7,6,4,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,2,1,1,1,0,0,6,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,1,1,1,7,5,3,5,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,3,3,22,2,6,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15456322911188278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15892463795743775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24813897884801606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2604910568727107,0.0,0.1989007393853676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23257175721842055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12917266984662465,0.19063789135950665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23241677034618904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19086417602724792,0.0,0.0,0.19323162347475448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4581044904386625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21951559163281614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15401582756801882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2417481320996145,0.4546978235011726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,catunicornmermaid,2019/01/22,"Full-blown relapse feels inevitable This past month, I FINALLY made a break through in recovery/therapy/self-care and made the most meaningful progress so far in my 7-month-long recovery.

But I’m afraid my therapist pushed me a little too soon to process my sexual assault last week before I was ready to handle it because a couple days later it felt like I was reliving that overwhelming, unbearable disgust and shame towards my body that I’ve only experienced after being used for someone else’s sexual pleasure. And it’s like everything I’ve worked towards went out the window and I was right back where I started when I felt more worthless than trash.

I’m starting my first job tomorrow, I bought my first car this week, and I finally feel like I’m learning how to be a responsible adult. But I’ve been low restricting since that session and I’m not even forcing myself to starve this time around. My appetite is just...gone. I used to have to fight the urge to binge. I had just reached a healthy weight and for the first time, I kept it on and didn’t immediately lose it. But I can feel the spaces between my ribs becoming more pronounced and my hipbones have started poking through my back again when I lie down (I don’t own a scale).

I’m flat out broke for the next two weeks until my first paycheck, which means postponing therapy plus the worst/best excuse to stop buying groceries and justifying not eating until then.

Sometimes I read about how people relapsed suddenly after they were triggered by something. But I think I’m watching my worst relapse coming from a mile away and there’s absolutely nothing I can do to stop it. I’m in too deep at this point. Not eating feels far too natural, like the only thing that’s right in the world. Not sure what the point of this post is...I guess I’m just scared for what’s about to happen.",5.936715248009797,6.812018228169018,5.852663808940601,80.5929210042866,66.71830985915493,8.990814451928967,32.05450091855481,9.085049710711278,2.672428046540111,1481,59,277,25,23,464,197,355,0.126,0.7829999999999999,0.091,-0.9258,1,0,1,0,1,0,37.0,0,0,1,7,21,18,3,4,17,0,16,5,2,7,1,50,45,24,0,0,10,0,7,4,0,0,0,0,1,1,19,16,3,4,10,1,2,4,6,12,0,5,14,9,32,6,41,29,5,67,0,5,1,0,4,26,0,2,39,172,51,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08705012407622865,0.0,0.0,0.09187300997218407,0.15038254080017008,0.0,0.059609336801722625,0.10799677102944273,0.08320854248183329,0.0,0.10262019989474908,0.0,0.0,0.10861801735506732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08423383745653286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10819816542398812,0.0,0.0630637733210269,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20011864092009327,0.0816875167173947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06458662112834164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08788360234788188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19777382325909032,0.06985821936057912,0.1877794710465236,0.21423920286455828,0.0,0.3327063218452077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10772212064259644,0.0,0.08647169007892931,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09703735166057548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07970850602560703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1910928765905928,0.09800709494580036,0.0,0.08653738596467411,0.0,0.1093973356178543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1850546410196732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10651744014452272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15610343956286205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10399634383362724,0.0,0.0,0.0938281450382431,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14874106633737927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09334764326738028,0.06779238492293467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18487844064250106,0.0,0.09365179848754222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0978122962528531,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16701713591631576,0.0,0.0,0.09790067872810797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10201195117813547,0.0,0.0,0.08088945239013745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08285361983593548,0.07528031241021771,0.09671269022053093,0.0,0.20763994985536866,0.0,0.0,0.16350667159673068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09216199131360893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11182662331885912,0.11353689013672436,0.06496456305424493,0.0626572140194415,0.0,0.0,0.11403941237680935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09552255099761243,0.0,0.0,0.16891112840387634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2353136930945813,0.119076802176156,0.0,0.09064844780849846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0711892517883448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,qiankgs,2019/01/22,"Surgery Recovery i had my wisdom teeth removed five days ago and i’m having the worst time recovering. i didn’t eat for three days before or three days after, and i pretty much knocked out before the doctor even gave me my anesthetic. now it’s day 5 and i’m still bleeding in spots and am in intense pain (like i’m curled in a ball holding my jaw without ~4 advil pain). has this happened to anyone else? is there any chance my doctor will catch on during out appointment? ",2.1099999999999994,4.5710170212765995,3.014297872340425,90.19400000000002,80.91489361702128,5.4621276595744686,22.16595744680852,6.742157984588678,0.6015736170212764,376,12,74,4,10,119,71,94,0.077,0.815,0.107,0.2168,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,0,4,5,0,0,3,0,7,9,2,0,0,9,12,5,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,1,6,0,0,0,2,6,1,1,0,1,0,2,2,3,0,3,3,0,8,2,10,8,2,17,0,0,0,0,1,6,0,1,10,44,10,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16829934413157654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12911124124807652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1327544551798476,0.19453390215808872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32311357879850106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4897757101019583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3886593014160751,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19427407428179866,0.15860358253169976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12540067205141578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16789248082465688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09275595599389226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13956887062742473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4040486352890007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19315577218341912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15162235983564715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11070883336645937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18301816655501124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,suicuned,2019/01/23,Purged after eating an apple I just ate an apple after dinner and then got too anxious that I ate too much today so I threw it up. AN APPLE. This has gone way too far. It scares me and I want this to stop but I don't know how. I'm just deathly afraid of gaining any weight. :(,-1.116500000000002,0.9317013500000008,1.2983333333333356,99.1125,93.83333333333334,3.0,12.5,3.1291,-1.643,211,3,49,0,8,71,43,60,0.141,0.78,0.079,-0.4215,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,1,7,2,0,2,3,0,2,5,0,1,0,9,10,6,1,1,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,2,5,1,1,0,0,2,1,2,0,0,5,1,6,0,5,5,1,10,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,5,33,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2226517813242801,0.0,0.0,0.3698830202313546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33502480718046995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2618617493093089,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1799373909597782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.240685918299752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3277971093839089,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27373157679143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3103488417510441,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19311642219045247,0.2598848655824721,0.0,0.3987003160256624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,vctrlcs,2019/01/23,"what i ate today (tw food) - apple
- burger + fries from a restaurant w no calorie counts (aaaaaaaAAAAAAAAAAAH)
- a fucking chili cheese hot dog
- one (1) lindt milk chocolate truffle ball thing

someone pls convince me this isn’t an insane amount of food, i feel guilty as fuck",4.136326530612243,6.9794320204081695,2.680979591836735,93.29616326530613,75.73469387755101,3.92,26.126530612244892,3.1291,0.3451926530612246,215,8,38,0,5,60,46,49,0.222,0.713,0.065,-0.836,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,3,0,1,6,0,0,0,1,5,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,4,0,1,1,0,0,2,2,0,1,1,2,3,1,3,4,1,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,2,0,1,15,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14572027920692107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6969741660292855,0.0,0.0,0.5328641006096229,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19528869598953136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24418707019644326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19146425165515596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2731755895076521,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ana-wrecks-ya,2019/01/23,"Homewood Health? Has anyone gone through the ED programme at Homewood Health in Guelph, Ontario?
I might be going and it would be nice to know what people's experiences with it are",4.908181818181816,7.5233295151515165,4.075757575757578,85.43363636363638,72.03030303030303,5.612121212121212,29.181818181818183,6.42735559955562,1.4314727272727281,146,6,25,1,3,43,29,33,0.0,0.905,0.095,0.4871,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,6,2,0,0,0,5,9,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,5,4,0,4,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,17,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23704641317513706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3316206624160613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19266942156318767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7207118813564138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18631318275817654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3596401919247729,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2350295641578441,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2408257597939739,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,noonesgonnaseeit,2019/01/23,"My sick patient is my thinspo I just need to get this out of my system on here because I know my friends and coworkers will judge me suuuuper hard about this.. 

So I work in dialysis and there’s this patient who is sooo tiny, our small gloves fit her super lose but idk if it’s body dismorphia or what but I was shocked to learn I’m 1 pound heavier than her. Like I look sooo much bigger than her and idk if it’s because I’ve started to get skinny fat but despite sometimes carrying extra fluid due to her kidneys not working, she still looks tiny!!

Small gloves fit me perfectly so how insane is it that I wanna get smaller than her and I want the small gloves to fit me lose too 😭 I know she’s sick and has other health issues going on but man I wanna look as tiny as her 😭 ",1.6586094069529658,3.5168632453987776,3.1989202453987744,91.48263394683028,79.12269938650307,5.819059304703478,23.136605316973416,6.742157984588678,0.5774281390593052,611,20,133,6,15,201,96,163,0.136,0.731,0.133,0.3646,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,1,0,0,6,11,7,0,0,1,0,6,7,4,1,1,24,19,17,0,6,9,0,1,1,1,1,4,0,0,1,10,6,2,0,3,0,0,1,1,3,0,0,1,4,25,4,18,17,2,16,0,2,3,0,12,11,0,3,4,85,35,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23209542950915354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2114580260665517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14707930067469874,0.0,0.2983812225620082,0.0,0.1081915925421883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17053402422166578,0.0,0.0,0.20235428532299424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19869669996232872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20924462004055025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09300510970277982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4795882717642869,0.425950412463726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13994376948313125,0.14115685732586258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18828068369879236,0.0,0.13474478420844802,0.0,0.15202963582023005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11228509030083783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2771830866900985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,hunnyangel,2019/01/23,"My gf is moving across the country for a few months... prepping for an ED free for all My girlfriend has an amazing opportunity to take a spring job across the country. She’s going to be gone from March to June. Meanwhile, her loving and watchful eye is the only thing keeping me from going into hardcore restriction mode. I’ve gained an amount of weight that I absolutely hate (not sure the exact amount bc I have no access to a scale), and my mental health has declined a TON. The only thing that will help me cope (especially with being alone) is to control my intake and work on dropping this weight as fast as possible. My ED is giving me all these thoughts to plan ahead and try to drop 20-30 pounds while she’s gone. I know it’s not good for me and my whole brain is like ...yikes! But my ED is just like ;-)",3.2628062678062655,4.872472203703708,3.910740740740741,89.21987179487179,73.87654320987654,6.219183285849953,23.57264957264957,6.67199483983844,0.5824581196581198,635,18,132,5,13,201,103,162,0.071,0.754,0.175,0.9556,1,1,0,0,0,0,23.0,0,0,0,6,1,9,1,0,12,0,12,6,2,1,4,20,23,9,0,0,4,0,2,2,2,1,1,0,0,0,7,7,2,3,2,0,1,5,3,1,0,0,3,4,17,9,22,17,7,18,0,0,2,1,8,4,0,0,9,86,24,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1851891316886931,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19960667462448106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20054617731942265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17152704592930434,0.20323918550109532,0.14997402241339855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17653394553145513,0.0,0.1900624584838456,0.0,0.0,0.11984991910811273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17743740383239615,0.15893102341731966,0.0,0.0,0.09826712304596293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17471119797097195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1613794315690672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18019443203755411,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1427212747016623,0.19004252245337375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27198010047186266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20157694326831055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16852257600672474,0.0,0.1344398889065597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2375815747686875,0.0,0.0,0.1419520224170946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12139756358334228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4354751706066013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1996305574047383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13017292621792226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,iceleo,2019/01/23,BAD start to the semester I came back to school after losing significant amount of weight. After being back I’ve done NOTHING but purge and drink at night!!!!For the last three days the mornings are ok. The nights are a big mess. I’m so stressed at school the only solution is what I find at home.!!! Fuck. ,3.788983050847456,5.809154338983056,3.812000000000001,88.74952542372883,73.40677966101694,6.753898305084746,23.664406779661018,7.554174236665415,0.9603328813559324,242,7,48,3,5,74,45,59,0.244,0.655,0.102,-0.8995,0,0,1,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,1,3,6,1,1,6,1,5,3,0,0,0,4,9,3,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,2,2,0,1,1,0,1,0,5,0,1,2,1,2,1,8,6,1,13,0,1,0,1,0,4,1,0,8,28,3,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3151005140061155,0.1710772999875654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2343432864654494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13213919170993454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2096769255906635,0.0,0.2007173750297538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1872687126723105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18942050207817498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20552462927839452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16701534024952394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22922312989704735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3845568584899555,0.0,0.1966005932103344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15583054458098675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4147258024496565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14502449238122528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23470451825170255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2495047721116097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,KMedici,2019/01/23,"I hate my body type more so than my weight *tw just generally being ranty and depressing* 

I’ve had various phases of ana/BED/bulimia/yo-yo dieting since I was 14 (I’m 20 now) and have fluctuated drastically within my normal BMI range (actually I think I went a few lbs overweight when I was super depressed and in a relationship with a guy who was tall and loved to go out for fast food almost every day, but anyway). Honestly, I think it’s always been my body type that I hate more than my weight. 

First of all, I have tiny hands and fat fingers, got em from my dad (he’s a normal weight). I’ve had people laugh at my fingers and express shock that my fingers are fat and I’m not- I wasn’t offended, like I know they are disproportionately chubby. As are my toes, so I literally never wear shoes that expose my toes and always wear socks (yes even during sex, screamed at a guy for trying to take my socks off once). Then I swear all my fat goes to my cheeks; at the higher end of a normal BMI I even get a double chin. I find it so unfair that some of my overweight friends have chiseled cheekbones and sharp jawlines when my face is round even at my lowest weight. 

My shoulders/collarbones on the other hand are the first place I lose fat, and they look stupidly thin compared to my face (if I complain about my weight to my mom she always says ‘where?? look at your shoulders they’re so bony!!’). Also, I have small tits- I read that gaining chest muscle makes your boobs look bigger, so I started strength training and working out my chest. I gained muscle and... it looks terrible. When I see photos of myself in a low cut top, espeically in certain lighting, my chest has a slightly athletic look and I hate it. Thinking of getting a boob job eventually but I’m worried about it looking fake since I don’t have much boob to start with. Also hate my nose but I’m basically guaranteed a nose job for this year; going to a consultation soon. 

One major thing I can’t change is that I’m short (between 5’3-5’4 I’m not sure exactly) and it makes me feel invisible sometimes, I only ever get hit on if I’m wearing heels. Tall girls always look so graceful and I just feel awkward and stumpy all the time. Urgh and my chicken legs- I actually get complimented on my calves a lot but never my legs as a whole because my thighs are so fat in comparison. Yet when I start to get happy with the size of my thighs, my calves and ankles begin to get too skinny for my liking. 

I feel like I’ll always be trying to lose weight but it will never make up for all the deficiencies in my body type, many of which surgery won’t fix (there’s no such thing as finger lipo- what the hell?). I’m currently in the high 110s and I don’t know if there’s a point to losing weight any further because I doubt it will make me happier. My ED brain tells me to keep going anyway but logically I know it won’t. 

Sry for the long rant just had to get it off my (tiny) chest",2.7821344537815094,4.510880465546219,4.103436974789918,86.83818067226895,75.43697478991595,6.776806722689076,23.496638655462185,7.554174236665415,0.9564110924369746,2307,69,480,30,50,759,286,595,0.157,0.7440000000000001,0.1,-0.9853,4,0,0,0,0,0,73.0,0,2,2,11,32,35,8,2,24,1,30,54,41,4,11,73,83,45,0,6,14,2,19,3,1,4,7,3,0,3,23,24,17,1,11,1,0,4,12,21,0,3,10,33,74,14,59,66,14,62,1,6,9,6,20,33,5,7,28,291,97,8,0.0,0.0,0.11628636599302787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059662505558935125,0.0,0.0,0.09529499112628076,0.24788390134686344,0.0,0.0,0.04051762601449791,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07264095078017256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1985456425754437,0.0,0.06651292616206665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06302958014919763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03842529291226982,0.0,0.10263532987504136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05277173641227532,0.0,0.0,0.1180595310608942,0.053895094509470505,0.050200185279987465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09037895318788562,0.04256520661387125,0.0,0.0,0.05445663050166988,0.10136039438670437,0.07204647592354987,0.0,0.04603270414970248,0.0,0.217902998253567,0.0,0.1015850268827758,0.0,0.04765295998491868,0.0,0.0,0.11799057909341287,0.0,0.06342586963070941,0.0,0.2352985300981891,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06295137906114782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1182513657090454,0.05295898769570192,0.0,0.0,0.0982336975195502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0873258850100415,0.0,0.0,0.052727964541982836,0.350235586031112,0.1999701782926628,0.0,0.050654264271724266,0.0537748461379016,0.0,0.15908509514181962,0.060406532143500585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06978141321163531,0.0,0.0,0.04379943410568122,0.0,0.13785933183302335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17513236296811505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06345260804490355,0.04037412868229619,0.04531459775648648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04130647613844195,0.0,0.06225023646541888,0.0,0.05632400236098111,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05959786317899304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06396849039460027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0473817906975322,0.0,0.0,0.0474789323189223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09857326125355048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058927863880584574,0.0,0.12651678568084196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0561550843711206,0.0,0.04479805307563471,0.0,0.05207706650680165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07916692049394597,0.11453271862632408,0.0,0.0,0.03474259145433159,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08090418016395658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5078815511987013,0.0,0.05523286945348037,0.0,0.06652088438091272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04337621598136136,0.0605081486430351,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03836868678302036
EDAnonymous,boxxfive,2019/01/23,"Currently eating a pie found in a thrift store parking lot These are the depths to which I've sunk, friends. Title is not an exaggeration. Found a pecan pie in a snow drift between parking lot dividers, still sealed in the box, cardboard was only slightly soggy so it hadn't been out there long. I couldn't bear to leave it. If I get sick, well, at least I'll throw up.  ¯\_(ツ)_/¯  ",2.034700000000001,4.484225453333334,2.3835833333333305,94.671375,81.13333333333333,4.816666666666666,22.708333333333336,5.985473137389443,0.19103333333333386,299,10,63,2,8,91,59,75,0.047,0.863,0.09,0.2612,1,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,0,7,0,6,2,0,0,0,8,9,2,0,2,2,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,4,1,1,0,2,0,2,2,3,0,1,0,5,0,2,2,9,3,3,12,0,0,0,0,1,7,0,3,3,37,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27802230433026354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5958215698658377,0.20991880388521547,0.0,0.141954780073731,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2876966309788872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2404505981651445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4619881783623041,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2066440878347311,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21698416541341067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2442956522511559,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,throwawaybunnyrabbit,2019/01/23,stop making me fucking eat if you wont!!!! why is it okay that I have to gain weight but he keeps enabling his own eating stuff??? you need to eat too!!! dont tell me to gain weight when you're  not trying to get better !!! it's not fair!!! I dont care if u weigh less!!! it's not by much and do u not think that I think I'm fat too??????? you need to eat too!!!! I'm not gonna eat if you dont eat!!!! why do you get to lie about eating and make meal plans and count calories but I cant??? I care about you too!!! I dont want you to do thise things!!!!! so I try not to do them!!!!! and its hard!!!! but you're not!!!!! I just want you to be healthy!!!! I'm not eating unless you do now. I'm not letting you starve yourself ita not okay I love you too much to let you do that I'm not gonna let you starve upurswlf!!!,-2.7906557377049173,-1.1429281420764994,-0.03246775956283798,108.33306885245905,98.18032786885244,3.1465792349726778,11.145136612021856,4.2716492549557765,-2.0869429945355202,582,7,170,1,25,197,79,183,0.062,0.782,0.156,0.9593,0,0,0,0,0,0,67.0,0,13,1,5,11,7,1,0,0,2,18,15,1,2,0,33,40,13,0,7,19,0,3,0,0,3,1,0,0,0,9,4,13,2,2,0,0,0,17,1,0,0,0,3,26,6,14,33,4,3,0,0,0,2,18,0,1,3,3,101,35,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0772377851543278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17808096187972458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40940837317581263,0.0,0.0,0.7148969911412141,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08073674254819414,0.09125440978313652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0782320428611616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07762442101604243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2679077177058169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07882026221245449,0.0,0.11658916588078955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12839768512266098,0.12951068694783993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07301320545314124,0.0,0.0,0.09997389408234804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07633174861710004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05801929600954552,0.11191724461509736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1185849733210516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10302098994235227,0.0,0.0,0.21269294854056764,0.0,0.0,0.15760653795938245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,TallGlassOfBees,2019/01/23,"MA resi??? Hey Mass friends,

I’m getting out of IP and have to choose a residential. Can anyone tell me anything about Cambridge EDC or Klarman or Walden? Which one is “best”? 

Thanks y’all ❤️😘 ",0.4646153846153816,2.8700011025641032,1.9750769230769265,94.79492307692308,89.25641025641025,4.1456410256410265,23.18461538461539,5.6839178017228535,0.2376215384615384,149,6,32,1,5,48,38,39,0.0,0.735,0.265,0.9034,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,1,0,1,1,3,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,0,0,5,6,3,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,3,4,6,1,2,0,0,0,0,5,2,0,2,0,16,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30639267571935697,0.0,0.3605930800378072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4598534298008429,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33854455044051746,0.0,0.2289362187354217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2969289225270053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3829974231248816,0.4034265310556423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,bunnywithbpd,2019/01/23,"If you guys love the Kpop Weight Loss videos on Youtube, the youtuber is doing $1 patreon for 40 minute videos! There was a youtuber who posted super detailed/unbiased videos of idols who cycle through weight loss then all her videos got removed for some reason :( she has a patreon for 1 dollar a month and there is so many videos! Merry christmas guys! LOL  

[https://www.patreon.com/user/overview?u=13316214](https://www.patreon.com/user/overview?u=13316214) ",10.834313725490189,14.792418117647061,5.488823529411764,75.89637254901962,59.0,6.886274509803924,27.509803921568626,7.793537801064563,1.7556686274509814,384,11,52,4,6,96,50,68,0.094,0.6990000000000001,0.208,0.9028,0,0,0,0,0,0,30.0,0,1,0,3,3,4,0,0,5,1,5,3,0,1,1,5,7,4,0,1,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,1,2,0,1,5,1,1,0,2,0,0,2,2,3,2,6,5,2,5,0,2,0,1,8,1,0,2,2,29,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2068730686380056,0.0,0.0,0.5122257499881364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2334496627199031,0.0,0.0,0.26223942173290393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2064589837633562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2477236273267685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26594432255168465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6299534625482567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,missfizzel,2019/01/23,"Body dysmorphia bullshit I'm honestly just so confused about how I look. In the mirror all I see is fat. Bloated belly, wobbly thighs and everything. But in person I can feel more bone sticking out in random places. Hip bones, collarbones etc - doesn't that mean I must be losing a little? On the scale my weight goes up and down seemingly at random. I just want to know out of all these perspectives what is the truth? Will I always see myself as fat? No matter what the scale says? Is anything changing or is it all in my head? Any advice would be appreciated.",1.9999572649572668,4.701598796296295,3.1648148148148145,87.169358974359,84.18518518518519,5.915669515669517,20.344729344729345,7.321109707123232,0.8163609686609692,442,13,83,7,13,142,81,108,0.107,0.795,0.097,-0.4859,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,0,1,5,4,0,1,5,0,11,9,8,1,5,24,20,7,0,3,4,0,2,0,0,3,2,1,0,1,5,4,3,0,4,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,6,9,2,14,15,5,12,0,1,3,0,2,12,0,5,0,58,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21252916914524653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1809694929879404,0.0,0.0,0.14790097697103738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.178976124579985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2415828813180645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23007607797172056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2425593639195857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19546640965106726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10996971597270568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22320796717328936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11952707388318826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21798258671230455,0.0,0.0,0.18263721756723947,0.2433162028790024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2369108802328712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18990428851316707,0.2272312495954025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17295715035956713,0.0,0.0,0.3466234903791112,0.19799515458685565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12828151358699486,0.0,0.0,0.2648447989417741,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1544989890555986,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,martpogboi,2019/01/23,"About to take my first shower in probably a month without intentions to purge while I’m in there 
Little progresses I guess 🎉",2.587500000000002,5.490152750000004,3.7550000000000026,82.39000000000001,84.0,8.200000000000001,24.66666666666667,8.841846274778883,2.5905166666666672,102,4,18,3,3,33,21,24,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,3,3,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,6,3,0,6,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,1,3,12,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3406296611290657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4411500117832281,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4013644628630072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.319642027987183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.43176182394552404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3010948355267445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3860275512965925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,OriginalPainting,2019/01/23,"I feel bad for wasting so much food I'll go to the grocery store and I'll buy ""normal"" groceries, and then I'll throw out everything except for the spring mix and broccoli. I usually have to hide what I throw away in the trash, because I don't want my roommates to see new, unopened bags of food in the trash. Sometimes I'll go to McDonald's just because I want don't want to go home, and I'll throw out everything I ordered except the diet coke. It's a waste of food and big waste of money I cannot afford to waste, but I keep doing it! What the fuck is wrong with me :(",4.502810304449646,3.9967581803278702,5.425175644028107,87.20893442622953,69.65573770491804,8.282903981264639,28.903981264636997,7.447530270364453,1.4547128805620602,446,14,101,4,7,147,68,122,0.23,0.77,0.0,-0.9703,1,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,0,2,3,1,0,7,0,6,6,0,0,0,18,16,8,0,4,4,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,4,8,5,1,1,0,3,6,3,3,0,0,0,2,10,0,19,16,1,17,0,0,1,1,0,6,1,0,4,56,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1591377596657457,0.0,0.14142493529329267,0.20650452873284725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30445502097365784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08564344186478103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6144436463591569,0.0,0.0,0.15658875988559573,0.0,0.0,0.28878708053016205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16990160236914872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1505524181444862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12451353405506198,0.0,0.0,0.16358792437482667,0.0,0.0,0.16595609727101754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13497365381310486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16752080788038085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18654775804342497,0.0,0.29971352351062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18519006093287013,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,brucie239,2019/01/23,"i hate bmi: from an athlete I'm a national/international level athlete and whilst I know that muscle is more dense than fat but I'm 125lb at 5""4 and I feel enormous.

However, I'm already lean and I know that the more weight I lose the more my performance suffers.

I just feel huge compared to ""normal"" women and my quads have NO CHILL so my thighs are enormous. I've hated them for as long as I can remember.

I need to lose 10lb for my bmi to be under 20 but I just don't know how I can. I'm so hungry I am not sleeping properly and my performance has tanked.",0.04721428571428632,2.208802816666669,2.601190476190478,91.68000000000004,87.5,5.761904761904763,21.07142857142857,7.1686216300943375,0.6376428571428572,438,15,98,7,14,151,73,120,0.205,0.77,0.025,-0.9738,1,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,1,4,5,5,2,0,4,0,9,4,3,1,0,19,21,12,0,2,5,0,3,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,2,5,2,0,6,0,0,0,3,5,0,0,0,3,17,0,11,20,3,8,0,3,0,0,2,6,0,0,2,60,19,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24722237863669136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2265523263249882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4423659560188979,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3693626432632059,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19825926183058892,0.0,0.501263928047995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1661152066148027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2195015700322192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2537820128530676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22419152225332675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27280785798439683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,gothicusmaximus,2019/01/23,"The Truth Behind Calorie Labels This is why I *deliberately* overestimate my caloric intake, even though I count calories meticulously on MyFitnessPal (I create a new, manual entry for every new packaged food I eat), and weigh food. I rarely eat out. This video just confirmed to me what I already knew to be true... but it still shocked me. 

(Trigger Warning: I'd advise against watching this video if you're easily triggered, as it mentions numbers, and shows how wrong calorie counts often are in restaurants.)",6.692987012987014,9.10678972727273,6.208311688311692,72.94318181818186,66.5,7.755844155844157,35.298701298701296,8.418075326091056,3.227283766233766,408,20,61,6,7,126,71,88,0.113,0.818,0.07,-0.7096,0,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,0,0,0,6,4,0,0,2,0,3,5,0,3,2,13,4,7,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,6,3,5,0,1,3,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,1,9,2,9,2,0,6,0,0,1,0,2,3,0,2,3,39,15,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2483466896623361,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4605617345665538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14864245589464795,0.0,0.1896131238028104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5442592405846862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4347066163836232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1797240761618245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22110907425717724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2030713274809806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2460552790912269,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,zaniathin,2019/01/23,"My friend has an ED but now I feel like a fraud This is absolutely ridiculous. 

So basics about me, I’m 5’4” and 147.5lbs. I’m on the heavy end according to BMI and body fat. 

That being said my ED presents itself like a rollercoaster and typically rears it’s head when I’m super stressed out. Lo and behold right now is super stressful for me due to an upcoming international move. So I range anywhere from 130-160 depending on my stress levels. I use my ED as a control measure and I’ll lose a massive amount of weight in a month whereas if I’m not stressed I can gain a massive amount of weight in a month. Regardless I’ve never liked my body, but I take “better” care of myself when I’m stressed out. I typically just call it disordered eating but I know it’s more than that. 

Anyways, my friend just admitted to me that she has an eating disorder and she’s been inpatient before she was in the military. I found someone I can actually confide in now and it’s amazing. However, at the same time, I feel like an absolute fraud because she’s tiny and petite and doesn’t rollercoaster like me. 

I’m heavy and she’s tiny and light. How the fuck am I not going to feel conflicted? Like she’s excelled at her eating disorder and I consistently fail myself by not being stressed all the time. 

It’s such a fucked up way of thinking. I wish I would have never found this version of control. Cutting was replaced by starving and restricting and exercise which supposedly according to my old therapist was healthier and easier to maintain. 

I don’t know where I’m going with this. I guess more of a vent than anything else. ",3.0853057905009784,5.260760198113211,4.419885057471267,82.90500000000003,75.94968553459121,7.908219475168076,28.261114725656036,8.74248658614541,2.35525838212969,1285,55,248,28,29,424,161,318,0.205,0.635,0.16,-0.9555,1,0,0,0,0,0,27.0,0,0,0,9,14,26,4,6,18,0,17,12,4,5,3,51,43,25,0,4,9,0,5,6,2,1,2,2,0,0,13,18,6,4,9,1,0,3,7,12,0,0,7,8,36,14,32,33,7,33,0,2,0,2,12,14,2,3,21,157,49,2,0.0,0.0,0.08324564877247774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07019897774084997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052001307492123776,0.0,0.07258851105762032,0.0,0.0,0.07544558874014284,0.0,0.1895098728728841,0.0,0.0,0.08710622955212734,0.0,0.08697441922746499,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19135425248137186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29330172741492155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2618657966957354,0.07126161609914919,0.0,0.07555515897286594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12939873955565911,0.12188421951095182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18706567500915133,0.13181329690613142,0.1577267152945683,0.0,0.0,0.09696191404970364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0939733843688298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08754782882884247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09376310296857547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2500551080159319,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09543478913723978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13617972278886287,0.09066601345838196,0.0,0.0,0.13158538314478352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08951354246420515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07285024383115749,0.08114485689622053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07227888772282896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5863014666705466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06413895490119101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0990460060868964,0.0,0.054660179556478936,0.0,0.0,0.0994843906576762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07367637352004344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0677113613841124,0.0,0.2077577016412012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09809686314850287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060598424058795765,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,fruitluvr22,2019/01/23,Wishing skinny girls you know get fat I feel bad for this but I’m just going to say it but I’ve been hoping that the girls who were skinny in high school and were bitches to me got chubby after they went off to college. This actually happened to a lot of people I know and it’s a little gratifying to see we are now on opposite ends of the scale. Does any one else secretly hope this.. ,2.03275132275132,3.709859506172843,3.9277954144620817,87.51222222222223,77.39506172839506,6.603880070546737,21.447971781305114,7.447530270364453,0.6722119929453263,304,8,65,4,7,103,62,81,0.086,0.767,0.147,0.6609,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,1,1,1,0,2,4,1,0,4,0,4,3,3,0,0,14,17,4,0,3,3,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,2,7,3,3,0,4,0,0,2,0,2,0,1,5,3,6,2,12,12,1,10,0,0,1,0,8,5,1,3,3,41,13,2,0.0,0.0,0.21796714546565585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15189246319649566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18649627498070265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19546384615825205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18658862380728192,0.0,0.19783066826147636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11293753008395775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1166963841182636,0.0,0.12694063855555868,0.0,0.1786414008590586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19751651535615206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2359921093055317,0.0,0.4436937675515838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24550563549478424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22386540446017053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18989268939116516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15135452044431055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15484970428401265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17762484152289135,0.0,0.2260522503595317,0.1779890060014954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20705696300414356,0.0,0.0,0.25685298336798384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,LilacOrange,2019/01/23,"Underweight at a normal BMI? Hey ya'll, I just came back from the doctors (I just needed to update my prescriptions- nothing ED related.) The nurse there weighed me and measured my height and told me I was underweight, I'm 5'10'' and weigh 61kg according to their scale (\~134lbs) . This gives me a bmi of 19.2 on the old bmi and 18.74 on the new bmi scale.

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I guess I'm wondering is there another way to measure if someone is underweight that she could have been basing this off? Has anyone else experienced something like this before? 

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EDAnonymous,lolstraightwhiteboys,2019/01/23,I just found out that I’m at my highest weight ever I was a month and a half without eating disorder symptoms too 😂🔫,-0.2493589743589765,1.8170538076923108,2.7669230769230784,90.66141025641028,87.84615384615385,5.005128205128205,24.051282051282055,6.42735559955562,0.7982974358974362,93,4,20,1,3,33,23,26,0.0,0.894,0.106,0.3089,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,2,0,1,3,0,0,1,6,3,1,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,2,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,2,1,3,0,3,1,0,4,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,2,15,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3928619643121317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3507552177846946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3100691757056425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3758466879169047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2736081740764705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35628546069379435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4174204810543355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33043306012846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,thrownawaykalbi,2019/01/23,"I will never deserve recovery I hit a LW of 79 pounds today. 


Yesterday I was crying out of anger toward myself for collapsing 4 times on the way to the bathroom and having to call my older sister home for help. She ended up finally drawing the line at this and getting my mom involved, and now they are bringing me to the hospital this Friday.


That morning I had weighed in at 81.1 lbs, and lying on the bathroom floor, blinded, deaf, in a cold sweat and hallucinating voices, my first thought was not fear, but frustration. Frustration at my body for doing this when I was so close, just a few more days and I could have lost more weight. I could have gotten to 79 lbs. At 79 lbs, maybe I could forgive myself for eating. Maybe I would finally deserve recovery.


But I don't


Now that I am here, I'm not angry anymore. I'm just devastated.


Because I still don't deserve it.


I don't deserve recovery. I don't deserve to eat a hamburger. I don't deserve any food at all.


Why did I think anything would change with some arbitrary number? It's been like this every single time. 99. 95. 89. 85. And now 79. Every single time I thought to myself, just a little bit more. Just lose a little bit more, and you can finally have that burger you want so bad. You can recover!! You will be ""sick enough"", and it will be okay to eat all the things you have been dreaming of.


But it's all a lie, a lie, a lie. I don't feel any different, I don't feel like I deserve recovery any more than yesterday. There is no difference between 81 and 79. I felt like shit then and I feel like shit now.


Not that I have a choice anymore anyway. It's all out of my hands now, they're going to force me whether I like it or not. As terrified as I am, a part of me is also relieved. Because I know this never would have ended if I hadn't collapsed. 79 would not have magically given me permission to eat, it would not have set me free. I tried to recover on my own and failed miserably. I'm trapped, and the only thing I can do now is close my eyes and let it all happen. Let them wrench me out of the grasp of this shit disorder, even if it breaks my mind. As much as I hate to admit it I was never in control, and it's time to hand the steering wheel over to people saner than I. I'm too tired to struggle anymore.


This illness is so goddamn fucked up.",1.6337106918238966,3.583733419287213,3.4362431865828107,89.30618867924532,79.58700209643604,6.420293501048218,23.5979035639413,7.471455274886353,1.0191229350104831,1799,62,382,26,45,602,211,477,0.184,0.71,0.106,-0.9943,1,1,0,0,0,0,66.0,0,5,2,5,21,24,8,3,20,1,52,21,8,1,8,69,76,32,0,11,17,2,7,5,0,8,5,2,1,0,24,21,7,1,11,1,1,2,18,15,0,1,15,12,57,10,51,45,20,55,0,4,2,1,15,23,4,4,32,277,81,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06346479467399091,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16190417472919005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2361137348483158,0.0,0.0,0.065307167763617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06626294431246754,0.09675520133220794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1732828556933203,0.08815194650170215,0.0,0.0,0.08103623912612314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08395319240348835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08900987358545519,0.19008939825800072,0.0,0.08717410074695596,0.05118114385956689,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16583026784481875,0.09095434023914804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3248236003187995,0.0,0.0,0.14058020789600073,0.08200091000791666,0.0,0.05241705298136398,0.0,0.13372977587746795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08930295177654511,0.1203815990563126,0.11339072772148424,0.07619880333342703,0.26080759724808383,0.0,0.06750424698925094,0.0959633816516874,0.0,0.0,0.073367771070493,0.041462737006918465,0.0,0.045102565530954535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07017848404313493,0.0,0.0,0.07835234949539296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05319386433404222,0.0,0.07960534253056749,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04361461443364255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16230356820027772,0.0,0.19385836535530848,0.15908071977059302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08878442372308637,0.08663167648709999,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15945715969326388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08013177415563948,0.09294639747998257,0.0,0.0,0.0583393116364424,0.0,0.1836237998507672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060357456532818425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08594000135314085,0.0,0.05501877896936717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2443881298646212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06337762899233859,0.0,0.0,0.08296512823806425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10544756434181196,0.05085118944983053,0.0,0.12600720432003562,0.1851036581907754,0.09121355306221596,0.07522474901242182,0.0,0.0,0.05388076667711705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04680904980179389,0.06299290074763965,0.0,0.0966400616641026,0.0,0.0,0.07161076872351207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28187813936752226,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Beanutpean,2019/01/23,"seeing people that used to be thinspo long story short i used to be overweight and id see girls around me constantly that i wanted to look like, size 8s looked so petite to me and i wanted that body and then as i got smaller i started envying smaller girls but now im noticing that no one looks skinny to me anymore, only like children like im literally seeing shapeless scrawny children and thinking wow goals and now i sit here watching the bachelor and cant help but think ""all of these girls are at least a little chubby"" like i know they literally only pick skinny pretty girls to be on that show so i know that these girls can't actually be fat but i see them that way now and i feel so awful, I hate seeing these women and thinking like wow i never want to be that big again. i really miss having a normal perspective",2.773092369477908,4.832525867469883,4.222385542168677,84.50112851405625,76.4698795180723,6.354377510040162,23.717269076305215,7.3011,1.086310522088353,658,21,125,8,15,218,93,166,0.127,0.711,0.161,0.8471,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,2,1,9,9,1,0,3,1,9,5,4,3,2,27,32,16,0,4,3,0,1,5,0,0,2,0,0,8,11,9,4,0,6,1,0,0,4,2,0,1,1,10,18,7,12,26,2,17,0,1,9,0,11,6,0,0,14,78,29,1,0.0,0.0,0.1241423976869122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12616198722696048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11324732559547272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14130594421867168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1374730125258876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06432316092183453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10174456238078636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12559737097789533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08526878332989074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27482564443068114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1398268448708654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.310751383813075,0.12750172971923826,0.0,0.11258028209058836,0.3204828629040773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09811518803097567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1246425939720794,0.0,0.14483384744927222,0.0,0.0,0.08620341854075468,0.1935037789742432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08819408782850535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12942225187444126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08149647009543852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5068649662711993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09004264021231059,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2445405561082685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2197438976457024,0.0,0.0,0.2251021302210358,0.10097645795089066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,suddenlystevie,2019/01/23,"Did anyone else have weird behavioural issues around food as a young child? When I was a little kid, I was generally a bit of a menace, but my behavioural issues around food were through the roof. Exampled of this include; I wouldn’t eat anywhere but home. I had extremely specific preferences over which cup or bowl I’d use. I was very afraid of germs and would obsessively wash or and to avoid touching food with my hand. I had foods that were firmly, non-negotiably off-limits due to various sensory issues or irrational connotations. I was obsessively vigilant about use-by dates. I wouldn’t go to certain restaurants.

It went beyond normal ‘fussy eater ’ behaviour, especially considering that my preferences were usually quite adventurous for kids (I loved greens, brussel sprouts were the best. I was also super into flash  cheese) and also because most of my food issues weren’t about the food itself, more the conditions around the food. It’s also important to note that I didn’t have any significant body image issues until I was older - none of what I did was with the intention of losing weight. I was diagnosed with OCD, depression and anxiety which were managed, and the ED in a more ‘typical’ sense came after that.

I was wondering if these kinds of childhood experiences with food were common among people with ED’s, or if was just a coincidence.",7.80181693989071,8.719146586065577,7.680229508196723,68.97187431693993,62.64754098360656,11.424699453551913,33.889617486338786,11.20814326018867,4.124089945355191,1093,43,178,30,15,350,142,244,0.091,0.7759999999999999,0.132,0.937,1,1,0,0,0,0,29.0,0,0,0,4,11,13,0,4,13,0,27,15,2,2,1,37,33,19,0,8,9,0,3,0,0,3,2,0,1,3,12,15,10,1,3,0,0,3,5,7,0,0,24,4,19,6,31,6,7,22,0,2,1,1,4,9,0,8,10,126,31,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1879548710774595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053276568431793486,0.0,0.059932902704612274,0.0,0.0,0.05477990721524398,0.08027262886207931,0.0,0.20922816005715647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.047757741085393685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08221713576526726,0.0,0.08553129591788097,0.08702246037909611,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08960460084339332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0674775241477718,0.0795174540082787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08016541327420453,0.06544631231638473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07663541023245893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7578704642640463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04452466879829238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.078585363582379,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.408853615574916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08158316175978837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0785212135562271,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08764683370405188,0.0,0.0,0.07070846818986767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07676043110187715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054313826330262036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08332842796484502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1353280269429351,0.08628478594020733,0.06464195862151814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09540181778102184,0.0,0.07262562095986924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08496066531275194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055653290002779215,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,norwegian_twat,2019/01/23,"dinner with dad or? As I live alone and study about an hour away from home, and my dad rarely works from our hometown anymore, I rarely see him. This week his work has brought him to my student town and yesterday he asked me out for dinner later today. I really wanna meet  him as I so rarely see him and it's nice just hanging out. Maybe even tell him I'm going to therapy finally? But fuck........

Yesterday was a mess. 

Ate over 6000 calories, started from when I woke up, and ended before I went to bed. Only break I had was going to therapy, which I didn't rly wanna do as I just wanted to sit at home and eat. Either way! This means I just really don't want to eat today, and the binge urges are still lingering. I might be able to fight through, but if I am to meet up with my dad and eat dinner...... I'll go straight home and binge. Or as I decide whether to join him or not, I'll binge before too aswell. I'll probably not purge either cause I don't want to smell like puke meeting up with my dad. But I'm also starting to feel like I'll binge either way, cause then I won't have to leave my room if I cancel. Honestly I just don't know what to do, I just wanna binge and sit by myself in my room tbh, but also wanna meet up with dad, but also not, but also fuck. I was doing so well with restricting too I really fucking do not want to enter another binge phase

So idk I just wanted some insight? Do I go? Do I say I'm sick? Cause in some way I actually am, so wouldn't really b lying. Dunno when I'll b able to see him again, possibly month or two?idkkkkkkkkkkkk small vent my thoughts r just mumbled rn i dont know what i want to do or what i should do or what im going to do

(still dont know how to flair sorry)",0.927525575447568,2.6202699239130496,2.964328644501279,93.08770460358059,80.73913043478261,6.0685421994884905,18.7039641943734,7.048011613610866,0.07901476982097178,1324,29,306,16,34,447,168,368,0.081,0.83,0.08900000000000001,0.782,0,1,0,0,1,0,51.0,1,0,0,2,26,10,4,0,3,0,29,11,0,4,0,75,62,41,0,14,29,5,1,2,0,4,1,1,6,0,8,17,7,1,8,0,0,9,12,5,1,0,10,6,45,5,49,47,5,49,0,0,3,3,23,16,3,12,20,194,53,3,0.1674712428047926,0.0,0.08171388748013547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08672485043077269,0.0,0.2678533847305983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08780410008374014,0.0,0.0,0.083043235998502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0782815025332398,0.0,0.07867237271565151,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14250569278700834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2580586476562409,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1962750493064833,0.0,0.0,0.2570473359463549,0.0,0.0,0.0741649065133324,0.0,0.0,0.05530658820682885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04233924615496259,0.05982074466104019,0.0,0.09172828028148644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23223669806606465,0.0,0.0,0.2379444166556714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2519809669555609,0.0,0.08246271982490598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09044884021936347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13805672294121674,0.0,0.0,0.0886639325958744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08181798993519858,0.0,0.07394008780601642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08412368653118818,0.09121263964579104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0888302616774182,0.0,0.0,0.06683697411896554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0636847133481348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09439933162289324,0.0,0.0,0.090281162443887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2145727329740132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06658992704093293,0.0,0.0,0.2001793469107805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0937351726236856,0.1185370076269884,0.0,0.13374275083533074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07318862390260716,0.0,0.19151796141081426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0664767300338277,0.0,0.0,0.1587431562805043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08179753484847473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2963366341096491,0.19939631609060499,0.06716766463418118,0.0,0.0752883798846126,0.07762375995131378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12192105933476427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Sparklewhores,2019/01/24,"Just watched Le Grande Bouffe I don't think I'll ever binge again. It was like watching a mukbang kicked up to 11. 

Flaired as shitpost because it's not really related to anything but if you're 18 and over (and if you're here I hope so!) then it's worth watching for the comments on consumerism in general. 

This isn't to put anyone off eating but it's definitely made me think twice about making a huge vat of mashed potatoes and then sticking my head into it. ",2.374086021505377,4.602418021505379,3.285161290322584,89.91440860215056,78.46236559139786,5.853763440860216,26.46236559139785,6.937597516519254,1.1749913978494628,368,15,74,4,9,117,72,93,0.0,0.838,0.162,0.9293,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,0,6,3,0,0,3,0,3,2,1,2,1,17,8,11,0,3,6,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,6,4,1,0,2,0,2,1,3,0,0,1,2,3,4,3,13,6,0,12,0,0,3,0,1,7,0,3,5,45,10,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2201735587631224,0.0,0.25912193074092993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1919497923197072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3222039836786432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28482975751378997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32316086598943444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31274993023583525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15383595902663905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2979499673824397,0.21018688939,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31654444919462715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2017221529407409,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4035287041816468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,SppookyGirl,2019/01/24,"I binged so much today :(((( Binged 1500-1600 now I feel like actual shit and have a sugar headache 

Bruh i can’t even purge bc my family is still awake 😭😭😭",-1.5450000000000017,0.4276039117647059,0.9443529411764722,100.40358823529414,98.11764705882356,5.072941176470589,9.741176470588236,6.742157984588678,-1.1036282352941176,119,1,30,2,5,40,29,34,0.116,0.804,0.08,-0.2732,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,4,2,1,0,1,0,3,2,1,0,0,2,4,2,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,2,4,1,0,4,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,4,14,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.3853716310282869,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26083191928736416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3722825603909555,0.0,0.1996765158335239,0.2821211748731933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19293129479642254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2903016052704641,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.405365692638882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3153727207027732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3743250439851352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Aprikoosi_flex,2019/01/24,"Anyone else get their period and be relieved? Like I’m not getting laid but at least I know where the excess bloating was. Like okay, so my pants finally fit somewhat normally (large as they are) and I can go back to restricting instead of panicking 🥵",6.195,6.849370166666668,6.629166666666666,76.0325,66.08333333333334,10.566666666666666,34.75,10.504223727775694,3.7952,200,9,36,5,3,65,44,48,0.128,0.653,0.219,0.4854,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,2,0,4,4,0,0,1,1,4,0,0,0,0,8,9,5,0,1,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,5,4,4,7,2,7,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,1,5,24,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25264850381321285,0.3702225982141496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2778384500932345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3018426596061404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39581648079875775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3775572832892267,0.0,0.20535067557648312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19857607729231053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35305261085020845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3540241131432537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,catacomical,2019/01/24,"I am so tired of my flesh [creative writing, tw, please remove if not allowed] The first time I overeat because of you I can feel a whole pan of brownies turning in my stomach in horrifying, sludgy tides—my lips stained with the greasy residue of butter, sugar, eggs. My face is flushed, almost post-coital. I imagine dark slices of chocolate wedging its way underneath my skin, shifting my organs around, slithering into my stomach. I pinch my thighs with powdered sugar fingers, leave behind white bruises. And I say to myself: “this is almost how it felt”. This is almost how it felt. I don’t know what makes someone try and replicate trauma. I don’t know why I make myself relive you again and again – slipping through the bedroom cracks, pressing myself against strange men in corners. I am so tired of my flesh, these arms, these breasts, these thighs, this belly. I am tired of this anger.",5.733139059304705,7.452248730061353,4.692776073619632,85.61110685071576,67.83435582822085,6.169529652351737,33.21523517382413,5.985473137389443,1.8309799591002047,705,32,123,3,12,207,104,163,0.14,0.846,0.014,-0.9611,1,0,0,0,0,0,28.0,0,2,0,1,7,2,1,0,4,0,9,19,12,5,0,24,17,8,0,1,2,0,6,0,0,0,3,1,1,1,11,7,4,0,6,0,0,1,3,2,0,1,2,11,24,0,19,15,1,13,0,0,1,1,5,7,0,4,4,80,35,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.48101527894382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1425419703298806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09760850323813948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08096217767115918,0.0,0.30748325834705537,0.0,0.0,0.13619915870393873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17599703894199958,0.0,0.0,0.1695454150878754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21376452066660487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17576518481879486,0.0,0.0,0.15335201440564727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1273349431982182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13567032035514567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0933680606889057,0.5521078929203864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10871190212543383,0.1741660746175605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12709689343717004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1444846345125181,0.17876979551513505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,beautifulchaos22,2019/01/24,"I need some help or support Hi everyone, 

I’m 25 f and new to this sub but I’ve been dealing with ED symptoms for over a year with bulimia symptoms coming on in the past month or so. I know that it’s not that long and that some people have had EDs forever but I just need some support.

Also disclaimer: not here in place of medical advice and I know people on the internet can’t diagnose/treat or whatever. Just looking for some support.

I’m in the hospital right now due to severe depression and anxiety and so I’m being followed by a medical team. I recently (Sunday) started restricting extremely by not consuming any water or food for about 3 days straight. 

I then had a chat with my psychiatrist who after those 3 days really made me see things in a different light and I began to eat again, but everything I eat, I want to throw up and I do. I throw up juice and crackers and anything that goes into my mouth now. This is now seeming to be the same situation as a month ago when I started purging started.

I literally hate hate hate the feeling of food going down my throat and food in my stomach and it makes me gag things get stuck in my throat and I’m not getting enough nutrients I know. 

I’m at a loss of what to do because I told my medical team about this this morning and they said they would monitor it. 

I’m so distressed, I’m at the point of asking them to shove an NG tube down my nose because the act of eating food is repulsive to me and I know that there will still be food in my stomach with an NG tube but I just don’t know what to do. I feel like I’m going insane. 

I’m currently in an inpatient general psychiatry unit of a hospital in Ontario, Canada and so they don’t really specialize in EDs. I tried calling a couple local programs that specialize in inpatient and outpatient EDs, and the wait times from referral to consultation is 3 months. 

I can’t wait that long. I literally can’t wait. I have no idea what to do. 


I know this is a hard post to reply to because of no medical advice but any kind words or experiences would be appreciated.

Tl;dr: have bingeing and purging problem and am in hospital and can’t get anything down without barfing. Medical team is “monitoring” it but I need help now 😔",2.99984844924812,4.828349287946427,4.890484022556394,80.99859492481205,75.09375,8.64436090225564,28.97697368421053,9.276330184999452,2.693075,1763,77,347,44,38,603,201,448,0.125,0.804,0.071,-0.9811,3,0,0,0,0,0,32.0,0,0,4,4,19,14,3,1,20,0,29,22,6,2,0,75,79,39,0,7,19,0,3,1,0,3,7,1,0,0,23,26,9,4,10,4,0,7,13,7,0,0,8,8,39,7,58,64,6,65,0,2,2,0,18,28,0,10,30,230,62,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14278775507395464,0.06476372730625024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058426457505967165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0993672941924802,0.0,0.055891084487571414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12024513690705348,0.0,0.06830170745628987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13361101272342754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07460294177373558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06293515374156787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0808400564562688,0.0,0.09423596002094284,0.07532217006960454,0.06292690380345985,0.0,0.0,0.07633267504613186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22427740109832028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07549102945402948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06981244114083024,0.06566206873788583,0.07146719072080637,0.0,0.0,0.07388317063965834,0.05219443763130184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4417252485415349,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11451329138902624,0.0,0.08304393457635696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06544785975391118,0.2163963615639659,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09794182964133308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08247641444203413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07608127056940678,0.2409128490782635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.035693671125197834,0.0,0.0,0.12931249138187692,0.06135242139764145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06913161405696193,0.04876845278687962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3680038499025128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17494858833089405,0.0,0.0,0.1625203107191825,0.0,0.07056228864701376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0697445166673928,0.10130190660811564,0.0,0.07633267504613186,0.0,0.06906579016622222,0.0,0.06997176566993374,0.0,0.0,0.0699090339192291,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09360885752968637,0.0,0.07213843219918363,0.0,0.0,0.06239326999552754,0.06949726862697159,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05821976136991688,0.06651153757547652,0.0,0.08253757205427772,0.0,0.0,0.0821230659992011,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15513779926959245,0.0,0.05834621172527571,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.248724577517182,0.0,0.15187567306567515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09707630299242866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.042602166583210366,0.0,0.0,0.06981244114083024,0.0,0.049603285424945166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04309297734575388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07042771730347328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10380016962927006,0.0,0.0,0.0470485682698105
EDAnonymous,LoveAnonymousAnon,2019/01/24,"I hate it that my boyfriend lives with me because I always buy us food and feel obligated to eat. I also don’t like how much my boyfriend wants to eat (I feel like I have to eat, again) I love my boyfriend and I love being with him and around him, he’s literally perfect for me. 
I just hate that when he’s here I buy us food and eat. I would never eat if he wasn’t here, if I just buy him food he feels insecure about eating and I feel insecure about eating if I eat. It’s a bad cycle.
My boyfriend wants to eat 2/3 big meals a day and I can’t handle that, I don’t mind if he does but I cant.
This goes back to me feeling obligated to eat.
I don’t want him to feel insecure about eating and the only way is to eat with him. 


This is basically me saying, I have to order food for us whenever he’s hungry and I feel sad that I have to eat. 


I’ve always grown up never wanting to waste food, I felt like I had to finish it even if I wasn’t hungry because we’d throw it away to I’d get yelled at. I have restrictive/binge cycles and I can’t just throw away food I bought because I see all the money I spent and feel terrible.
If I leave it in the fridge I throw it out anyways, I can wait for my boyfriend to eat it but again, he’s always asking for me to order food.


I just don’t wanna eat ",0.845438443670151,2.068873083623693,3.0939590592334514,94.17952163182348,79.48780487804878,6.17706155632985,19.62383855981417,6.816661863887847,-0.02138548199767687,993,22,247,10,24,341,110,287,0.092,0.83,0.078,-0.6759,0,0,0,0,0,0,24.0,4,0,0,1,18,14,2,3,5,0,20,25,0,1,4,49,43,21,0,12,12,0,9,3,0,1,0,2,0,0,13,15,23,1,9,0,6,4,11,8,0,0,6,12,51,6,33,34,2,23,0,1,1,2,20,8,0,6,11,157,64,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04100583714164716,0.12799858756726235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04564699923746297,0.0479366508257497,0.0,0.09635201007804016,0.03942850052242283,0.04281377599913085,0.093773123717245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.033069131643920884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04487245295496597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7870306515717072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03386767654476899,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2074157080256961,0.03663197634377258,0.049233527594778906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.43402664010011227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.026789880119937205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10124995123919353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05429446088980601,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07515339424769463,0.0,0.0452781315698079,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09255817360330504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05177469647190108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.037694162948267586,0.0,0.07909527028005202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03899812558415328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0407771692899983,0.0,0.0,0.04086077018988441,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18503812223328614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12097694684352216,0.040700937305580685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03642538870903208,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,cbunni666,2019/01/24,"I want to go but then I don't I don't normally post. Just stare from the outside I guess. My husband and I are taking a trip to MD from FL next month. I'm in thr process of trying to lose weight. Being a size 12 at 5'3"" doesn't fly with me. I finally started taking control and began exercising and eating MY way. Without all the fast food and excessive amounts of portions. Its like I found a way to cut back without all the hunger craves without making myself sick. But now I'm going up to MD for 10 days. 4 of it will be car travel. I'm nervous about it. I really want to see my parents since its been almost a year. My mom was never very encouraging of me losing weight. She never even said anything when I was almost 200lbs. Said ""I didn't want to hurt your feelings."" It wasn't until I could barely walk without taking a breath that I realized I was huge. A size 16. That was about 5 yeara ago. She always buys sweets. Tempting sweets that I have a hard time keepinf my fingers off. So I guess this is a test. A real one. Plus I won't be near any gyms. My best bet will be to walk around their apartment complex and the mall. I'm just scares I'll add the pounds I lost again. The best I can do is get an idea on what restaurants we most likely will go to and check their menus ahead of time to plan it out. 

Wish me luck.  ",0.6900147783251249,2.7222521000000017,2.3355172413793106,95.515,83.35714285714286,4.862068965517242,19.298029556650246,5.935793293072707,-0.2473337438423644,1028,27,233,7,29,336,168,280,0.08199999999999999,0.755,0.163,0.9762,1,0,0,0,0,0,30.0,1,1,2,8,11,15,1,2,16,0,25,9,2,2,4,45,51,13,0,6,8,3,5,2,0,4,2,2,0,0,11,12,5,1,5,4,3,8,12,7,0,1,12,11,34,8,36,30,7,41,0,4,2,0,12,10,0,7,22,147,45,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09231689172848978,0.0,0.20856925909349774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08665569969073851,0.0,0.0,0.07082112257021753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08570119221392143,0.09270975718289864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08007989069563158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2185842677483496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11680574347818655,0.08315007686396371,0.0,0.0,0.06716391474077567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10656475682462532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06878577171043405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05265806145039943,0.0,0.0,0.11408406758408528,0.0,0.0,0.12593068261966334,0.11418792613882388,0.0,0.0,0.05441065836459096,0.0,0.17756138125144938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22945152012090506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09329208237494546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11148772557603437,0.11756528752884955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10175846603378562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2330197809415171,0.11368488655500092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06951656680293994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12197155915343826,0.08312631447035629,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16064370987088175,0.0,0.11075774890661737,0.0,0.10203847694448392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07057030229390812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1156389853965506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09974064471084153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11853805493928064,0.06671696584518297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19812855405691668,0.0,0.10426576928225648,0.0,0.08298885240853683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08614854452338626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07371327549057936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2349087584727749,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1214537755451811,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07070657172491221,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0859292595125454,0.18427952911392856,0.165328458726808,0.0,0.2536373505039524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1197598368926162,0.4015623080027367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06706497237884243
EDAnonymous,Thatza_Latza_Matza,2019/01/24,"One of my coworkers told me that he chews and spits He also told some of our other coworkers rip him. 

For the record, I don’t know if he has an eating disorder or if he just has disordered eating habits. I’m not gonna ask, it’s not my business ",2.1687735849056606,3.1558454528301887,4.271839622641512,88.03530660377363,75.60377358490567,8.318867924528304,22.683962264150942,8.841846274778883,1.309645283018868,191,5,44,4,4,66,41,53,0.054000000000000006,0.946,0.0,-0.4019,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,0,3,4,1,0,0,9,9,5,0,2,6,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,1,3,0,1,0,0,0,3,0,0,1,2,0,6,0,3,6,1,0,0,0,0,0,9,0,0,4,0,27,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20398664743105052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2384645058516855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5846854474198898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5220191570451098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1401847910013444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17284818552399506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4874779825848957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,spicy_buns,2019/01/24,"Ended my 5 day fast early by B/P, feels like a new low point So I decided on Monday at some point that I wasn't going to eat again untill Friday dinner time. I'd had a lot of unhealthy food over the weekend with my mom and felt disgusting. My mom even said I looked ""healthier"". I love her so much but ffs.

I allowed myself water, sugar free energy drinks, dioralite, and coffee. I've never done a fast underweight before and was shocked how hard I found it compared to the fasts I used to do when I was a more ""normal weight"". I've basically felt like shit all week but pushed through, even yesterday when I didn't even lose 0.1lb. Today though was really rough at work, and I feel stressed out as fuck. The thought of waiting another 24hrs for food was unbearable. I went to the kitchen to scout out some acceptable options and settled on beans on toast with some low fat cheese. 

I remember from past fasts my appetite ""reset"" itself so I was hopeful that this meal would fill me up and make me feel better. Spoiler alert: It didn't and within 1 minute I was back in the kitchen shovelling food into my face. After the purge and a shower I still felt like shit and a failure for not completing my fast. I'm hoping not to B/P again tonight and hopefully I've lost some weight in the morning, then back to OMAD (~800 cal a day).

So not only did I not successfully reset my appetite to be happier with appropriate portions, I've barely lost any weight, and I feel worse than ever. God fucking damn it I'm so sick of this shit. ",2.935646910466581,4.772285239344259,3.957459016393444,87.58335119798237,75.29508196721312,7.0529634300126105,24.51765447667087,7.882392219407189,1.2708108448928122,1198,39,244,18,26,387,177,305,0.197,0.6609999999999999,0.142,-0.9694,2,0,1,0,0,0,38.0,0,0,0,6,19,25,7,1,14,0,15,23,5,4,3,54,41,25,0,5,6,2,12,3,0,1,2,1,3,0,8,17,15,1,12,2,1,4,8,14,0,0,21,15,28,12,36,18,9,51,0,5,1,3,5,17,6,9,33,146,36,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06302340147416566,0.09717970459294258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14252547596415746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07886113014452865,0.0,0.0,0.08196509758609231,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09716986070407012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1195377370384864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09484054227195116,0.0,0.09078798078328977,0.0,0.09483150236282067,0.0,0.0,0.08208413615372298,0.0,0.0,0.1836364554339912,0.08383147071704251,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1874406971930954,0.06620832386124836,0.2669527826647802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33619546036364395,0.1016153267750634,0.0,0.17135641495994258,0.0,0.0,0.05267036071911238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08302020849849773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2761469185717348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1358316083994012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0778251700738846,0.10368163248993144,0.2023353481808216,0.07879050052026905,0.08364442961558978,0.0,0.06186248310853178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21708389423891264,0.0,0.0,0.06812811093611201,0.0,0.07147806088115832,0.08950783016638186,0.0,0.0,0.09080358606161043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07048488196286452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08847049142822239,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1752190620525404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05937113068816821,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10498474722349237,0.0,0.08815685880610462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2853942077109702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07401181155110895,0.0,0.106160960353473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0910544846614068,0.07357502646039292,0.054040586896571416,0.0,0.08784676922135826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08004299848675704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07433973813435071,0.3385661224263725,0.0,0.08591232134112016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06746981358792557,0.0,0.09444557597822603,0.0658349391195061,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,marigoldpony,2019/01/24,"Craving the GOOD STUFF You ever just subconsciously crave food that will sustain you because your body is so desperate for nutrition it doesn't even want junk food, it literally just wants something other than Adderall, yogurt and string cheese. Okay body, you win. You've got me stoked on dinner tonight and lemme say it feels nice to be excited about food. I can't wait to eat that can of tuna with that 1/4 cup of rice and a scrambled egg. I've been thinking about it since last night and just wow, what a p r o t e i n  p a c k e d  t r e a t I'm in for.

Okay, okay, but really. I've been struggling in my recovery (did I ever even start? I can't tell) and while it does feel nice to look forward to eating instead of fearing it, I can't help but feel a little sad that I can get so excited about plain rice, plain tuna, plain scrambled egg. New zero calorie drink? A sweet treat. 17 mini saltines for 70 cal? A salted i n d u l g e n c e. It can make restricting a lot easier to see food that way but it certainly doesn't help me live a well balanced and healthy life.

Idk, I wish I had a support system, or even just someone to talk to when I start slipping, I just wish I didn't have to do this all on my own because it's hard, very hard. EDs are so incredibly lonely.",0.9894505494505524,2.661509307692309,3.0189831501831503,92.86768351648355,80.46520146520146,6.1262417582417585,22.27531135531136,7.087006719466742,0.5311903003663003,983,31,229,12,25,332,156,273,0.124,0.68,0.196,0.9556,0,2,2,0,0,0,31.0,0,4,0,1,19,19,0,2,11,3,19,13,2,1,4,32,37,15,0,4,9,0,5,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,18,7,10,2,4,1,0,1,6,4,1,1,6,10,20,15,23,29,3,18,0,2,2,0,9,6,0,2,11,122,38,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13652831587134232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24877705034864644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09799759549597196,0.0,0.0,0.10970128699333964,0.0,0.2291743415143369,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22189231797202566,0.20259113924244693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1260126736394149,0.16986680565757314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5416440130071827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05850680456479579,0.0,0.0,0.09392652345780246,0.0895635079545411,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2006306041871323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15012048163240008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09128157325835556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07909732236837275,0.0,0.1122369777481418,0.09888356285858853,0.0,0.09403801300482363,0.0,0.0,0.09520444485437657,0.0,0.0,0.07474991683985946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10815445040760993,0.0,0.10508901457138456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07173955616755602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08905384658963213,0.0,0.0,0.08923642379748747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09263398402933952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0948833336098936,0.0862104396985886,0.0,0.0,0.15852512476727867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11706956399688966,0.12819442033668016,0.0,0.1270776524781095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09000816892055084,0.09787859477789487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07175456368286079,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09239819079215268,0.13210164722895054,0.08888736246226983,0.0,0.0,0.10068669737548792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2575512071490735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,cat_whisker,2019/01/24,"Oof ouch owie So, just heard my mam talking about my ED to her boyfriend on the phone (not in a good way either - she said that everyone was mollycoddling me and that I should JuST eaT!11!!). AND OOF OUCH OWIE NOW I FEEL LIKE #*SHITE!* I've told her plenty of times to y'know *not* talk about me and my problems to people, but nooo! :))))))) I now want to commit scooter-ankle.",-0.3225799086757988,1.888386684931508,0.845513698630139,99.83575913242012,99.95890410958904,3.5292237442922367,14.302511415525114,5.46131890053228,-1.0389625570776255,280,6,62,2,12,87,53,73,0.025,0.848,0.128,0.7673,0,0,0,0,0,0,26.0,0,0,0,0,7,3,0,0,2,0,2,0,0,0,1,14,7,5,0,3,6,0,1,1,0,1,0,2,0,1,2,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,4,3,11,2,9,2,1,6,0,0,0,0,10,2,0,0,4,38,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3073146620672124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2869801413635439,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1518569069357129,0.2145572743919028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2519042718730961,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1650546386741824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14672706781058564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20821242606420493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2873772082580203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2856845520516245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4827910460190363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17512603181687794,0.0,0.0,0.2869801413635439,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17714362266051212,0.2383895996090765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,probablyfuckedurdad,2019/01/24,"Anyone else get stressed out trying to self diagnose?? I’ve been diagnosed by many doctors as bulimic and see my psychiatrist bi weekly. I’m not really sure what’s been going on lately but I spend a lot of my time trying to sort out my own issues and labelling them and preparing what to say to her in our appointment that it actually stresses me out. I’ll have really bad moments but then good ones and be like who’s that eating disorder never heard of her, but then go right back to being awful. I know this is kind of a weird issue but I’m just wondering if anyone else gets stressed out just trying to figure themselves out? I’m trying to just relax and let the doctors do their job but I’m having a tough time",3.708564263322881,5.109091455172415,5.257115987460819,80.84993730407525,72.3793103448276,8.307210031347962,24.905956112852664,8.841846274778883,1.8368620689655173,571,17,110,11,11,193,94,145,0.17600000000000002,0.755,0.069,-0.9428,1,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,1,0,2,0,4,11,0,3,4,1,9,6,0,0,2,27,21,14,0,1,10,0,0,1,0,0,4,2,0,1,7,10,1,0,3,1,1,2,2,6,0,1,3,3,11,5,19,15,2,19,0,0,1,1,9,8,0,4,10,72,18,3,0.0,0.0,0.12102542705975144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17343504453789632,0.2541458660593451,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09536356487170332,0.10355134612775282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25175495685447585,0.0,0.0,0.14213742636475798,0.2538790248502229,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12690320893553386,0.20720524492371947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12959044533128491,0.0,0.14096661182219072,0.1040219175688841,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25888888328377097,0.12307050713231618,0.0,0.0,0.1291475288352976,0.06815803436305863,0.0,0.1398997274572278,0.0,0.0,0.12681864006240712,0.0,0.060589805958534464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10543719228874174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12573660355512506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09565170927698714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08403902081234907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1589005091078975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10591222485598313,0.0,0.09862551650067744,0.0,0.0,0.09882771743994694,0.0,0.12937969091494633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.42619275863593903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11688718637916196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1446338762766068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3368051919637416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09948119649715707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13449417424703106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,matchagreentit,2019/01/24,"starting to dislike my favourite foods i’m not sure why but most of the foods which I used to find tasty, now taste absolutely horrible to me. I get nauseous and I start to feel like throwing up whenever I get a whiff of them. 

I hate having to go through this but at the same time, I feel grateful because that means I’d have more reason not to eat. AHHH why am I like this :/",1.1376923076923084,3.251735782051284,2.433012820512822,94.98490384615386,82.2051282051282,5.438461538461539,23.852564102564106,6.6274283507984215,0.5616102564102565,293,11,66,3,8,94,55,78,0.193,0.688,0.118,-0.7681,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,1,0,1,4,1,0,3,0,3,4,0,2,1,14,14,3,0,0,4,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,1,4,0,5,0,0,2,2,1,0,0,0,4,10,3,11,14,3,8,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,6,40,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12863080307137542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21591769739635755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21338776001596008,0.15074683496944924,0.0,0.0,0.19286091491806087,0.0,0.5103124866608041,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22048985833536905,0.0,0.11992283918476605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20833041530277974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2061793629648036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2298536538407045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2169552209529691,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2987104026833633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19887607531617515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12304264719979925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18224640014494287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38081056367550997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,NindeNehima,2019/01/24,"I can't say it outloud Hello all. I used to be a pretty regular contributor to  proED in the past, but I ""recovered"" and left the community. I have been struggling lately, and last night it really hit me as the why. I'm sobbing in bed but I can't tell my partner what is going on because I've never told anyone. This will be kinda long and wordy, so feel free to ignore. I just need to vent.


So previously I was pretty extreme anorexic/exercise bulimic. I ate less than 1000 cal a day and walked 7-10 miles a day on weekdays, more on weekends. Then obviously it caught up with me, and I started binging. It was not a lot, but I gained all the weight back and then some. I'm 5'2"" and weight between 115-120 lbs. I used to be 90 lbs. 


The binging has gotten a lot worse with my new(ish) job.



One of my huge binge triggers currently is work. I have a 45 minute drive, so I'll stop at a gas station and get donuts or cookies or something on my way to work. And if there are treats in the breakroom I will eat them all. I will eat too much, so much that I will make myself sick to my stomach and just turn around and go home.


That is what I did this morning. It's a viscous cycle, going to work makes me depressed, so I binge, which makes me more depressed. So I go home and feel even worse about letting my coworkers and clients down, which makes me either want to binge or kill myself. And repeat.



So essentially my binging will probably either make me have a mental breakdown and quit my job or get me fired. 



I have a good job, but I can't stand the sedentary nature of office jobs. All I want is to leave here and get a job in my city that I can walk/bike to, so I can leave all my money at home and just eat what I have brought to work. 



I have looked at going back to being a barista or daycare teacher, because I have done and enjoyed those things in the past. But my salary will literally be cut in half. Part of me thinks I need to be a responsible adult and stay, save money to travel with my partner and his child, and save to start a family one day as I want so desperately. But I don't think I can. 



I woke up at 3am this morning suicidal, wanting to take the pills I have hidden. 



I feel like I can't tell anyone the real reason behind my depression and suicidal thoughts. Its vain, I still want people to think of me as cute and little, not a BINGE EATER. 


So yea, my inability to confront my binging or even tell anyone about it is causing me to ruin my career, possibly ruin my relationship, and want to end my life. 

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EDAnonymous,MsFaceless,2019/01/24,"ED tells spilling over into public... I love body checks, I love running my hands up and down my spine and feeling the bones go pop, pop, pop.

You sure get some funny looks while sitting in public doing that. 

I was sitting at my desk at work just running my hands up and down my back, absentmindedly, then a colleague came and asked me what I was doing. Whoops!",4.41,5.605222857142858,4.367142857142859,88.68785714285715,70.42857142857143,6.171428571428572,25.42857142857143,5.6839178017228535,0.5617999999999994,280,8,57,1,5,86,48,70,0.0,0.7959999999999999,0.204,0.937,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,1,0,1,2,3,0,0,2,0,4,7,5,0,1,10,12,6,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,6,0,0,1,0,1,4,0,0,0,0,3,4,11,3,9,9,1,18,0,0,1,2,7,9,0,1,3,37,13,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28181446782421066,0.0,0.0,0.2317959577990485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3348422926369792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34477777169847085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15242185876762607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15749485370845012,0.0,0.17132062359964784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2531415484300723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5441396507155415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2841124632625093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2634800358761831,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21945873125264212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,bunnyalert,2019/01/24,"“How are you gaining weight if you have an eating disorder?” I finally worked up the courage to tell my dad that I was dealing with this and he rolled his eyes and said that, along with, “is this your way of punishing us for suggesting you lose weight?” 

It’s an EATING disorder, you donut. You can eat too much or eat too little, and all sorts of weird patterns in between. I binge on ~4000 calories a day and purge maybe 1500 of that, so of course my 5’1’’ ass is obese. Then I fall into deep depressions and eat more because I’m sad and the cycle continues. 

I wish I had never said anything because now he thinks I’m fat, completely deficient of any willpower, AND an attention-seeking liar. 

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EDAnonymous,mangpd,2019/01/24,"Really bad restriction during the school year is impossible So I had decided over break that once I got back to my dorm, I would restrict under 500 cals every weekday, fast on Saturday and have a free day on Sunday. Cut to yesterday, literally 1 day after I got to my dorm, and my classes yesterday sent me into a panic so strong that I ended up binging really bad because I was hungry AND upset. So I decided to revise my goals, and restrict under 1000 cals on weekdays, 500 cals on Saturday, and still have a free day on Sunday. Hopefully that works out, so even if I lose myself a bit, I'll have a cushion of calories to fall on lol",9.823095238095236,6.311174166666667,10.626888888888887,63.75700000000002,61.3015873015873,13.889523809523807,40.27936507936508,11.979248473330829,4.7754241269841256,499,19,91,12,5,175,75,126,0.187,0.695,0.117,-0.831,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,4,7,10,1,2,6,1,7,0,0,0,0,15,11,10,0,3,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,3,7,0,3,2,0,2,2,0,6,0,0,5,0,14,6,19,5,1,30,0,1,0,0,1,12,0,2,15,62,17,6,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16147007081729894,0.35066732698110875,0.12800852789867867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.229255719196124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4062803523588605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18598964413985367,0.0,0.0,0.13869703533339406,0.0,0.17692642370221048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3358978753537505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.208568384920276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2349261481478943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22363349763249515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2463791228991657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2690511464527929,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2125220420618149,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16769903586190485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15287590522850855,0.0,0.0,0.14917153877181313,0.0,0.0,0.1352272804733313
EDAnonymous,im-stressed-af-fam,2019/01/24,Why didn’t we bring back the daily food diary thread? The previous sub r/proed had one and it was the bomb. r/1200isplenty currently has one but it doesn’t feel the same. Is there a reason why we didn’t make one here?,1.0726666666666669,3.3858176,2.0800000000000023,96.18000000000002,84.1111111111111,6.2666666666666675,15.666666666666668,7.554174236665415,-0.04953333333333322,172,3,39,3,5,54,34,45,0.0,0.932,0.068,0.4329,1,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,2,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,5,0,7,1,0,2,0,8,10,2,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,3,1,0,2,0,0,1,3,0,0,3,4,1,2,0,0,6,1,3,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,25,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22975103816737436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15107718281102284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3612980089965592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19944462029189985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6074034345564595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3072058451268813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5392229351905721,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,lunasouseiseki,2019/01/24,"The pros of starting at a new work place Your old work bestie isn't there to have lunch with anymore. 

***I can finally not eat lunch without question***",-0.6540613026819919,-1.0581523448275831,-0.09195402298850652,101.4609961685824,141.41379310344826,2.668199233716475,20.46360153256705,5.033348758259628,-0.13900306513409966,118,5,24,1,9,35,27,29,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,1,0,2,1,0,0,0,2,0,3,3,0,0,0,4,4,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,1,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,5,4,0,6,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,1,4,14,2,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2968513512212258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3062856277456411,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3278974334194993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28909129632653296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3140926981453894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3127323731171544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33531406508882056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2118647621368404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2885399621096521,0.0,0.4358263592534001,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,VoiceOfAsh,2019/01/24,"Been watching food stuff on YouTube for hours now And usually I’m fine when I do that but the last couple of days I’ve felt like I’m dying. I’ve never felt so hungry in my life. But I feel like crying. All the food I have is tasteless. I know I could eat every single thing I have and not feel full or satisfied. I don’t like meat much but my mouth is watering watching this man eat.  I’m so starved for a good flavourful meal. 

Yesterday I binged so much I threw up yet still felt like I was starving. I’m so fucking hungry I want to die. ",-0.2336945812807869,1.9174330689655184,1.6793596059113334,97.78017241379312,89.0,4.693596059113301,18.630541871921178,6.18269132825596,-0.243249261083744,420,12,98,4,14,138,73,116,0.152,0.6579999999999999,0.19,0.2463,0,0,0,0,0,1,9.0,0,0,0,0,8,7,1,0,3,0,9,9,1,0,2,17,22,11,2,2,5,0,5,4,0,0,1,0,0,1,4,2,6,0,6,0,0,1,3,1,0,0,6,8,13,6,7,15,5,15,0,0,2,1,1,4,1,1,14,57,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.121915439904924,0.16895537058196647,0.1677295357596406,0.09847637573149616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31694896391142124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3124925363061446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1286530806338816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15441550912259586,0.10908615034286136,0.4398367106414514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3692815484517584,0.0,0.0,0.14116511757424804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12807427457977918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1503749360438759,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08391780320769222,0.12446773123479962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1078537968892615,0.2983984770298108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2244984593697498,0.0,0.11776867379755496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.121943331761904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17480054392912514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10144452803348564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16817322147932073,0.0,0.09006413745975976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,itsaani,2019/01/24,"I made a terrible mistake. My boyfriend and I play Scrabble often. Its fun (mainly for him cause i suck :c). I have a habit of reading the word+meaning outloud and sometimes try to make silly puns. Oh boy. He laid the word PURGE down, and my dumb-ass went ""Purge, me after every meal"" while laughing until I realized what I said. He didn't find it as funny as I did (he knows about my ED and tries to support me as much as possible). ",1.9812931034482768,3.916578666666666,3.2995258620689683,90.7761853448276,78.42528735632183,5.729310344827588,24.66810344827586,6.6274283507984215,0.8060586206896551,332,12,69,3,8,108,65,87,0.092,0.736,0.171,0.7351,0,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,0,0,0,2,8,1,0,4,0,3,1,0,3,0,13,10,10,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,3,4,1,0,3,2,0,1,1,3,0,0,5,1,13,5,12,5,2,5,0,0,0,0,6,1,1,1,3,43,16,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27342249824660525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22425362598260126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24326796366750866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14627610595173945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2518496628411668,0.17766572586517085,0.0,0.0,0.2899293013056646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19566027215641932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3000585485458001,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2662348125641716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2531817593274051,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2632418002628047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30203837439891523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3614141194444897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2467355683905101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,-dreams-,2019/01/24,"Surgery Recovery Sucks Had surgery recently, and came home to find out I gained 25 pounds in water weight from my hospital stay 🙃

It's coming off so slowly, even worse since I'm still recovering from the surgery I'm worried I'm totally screwing up my body and it's recovery from still being under 1000 calories every day

Anyone else ever deal with this? I feel like the water weight will never come off and that my body is never going to recover",8.988793103448277,7.236863712643683,8.76146551724138,70.98633620689658,61.298850574712645,11.9183908045977,36.69252873563218,10.686352973137794,3.813439080459772,361,13,65,7,4,117,62,87,0.116,0.826,0.058,-0.6318,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,1,5,3,2,0,2,0,4,7,2,0,4,14,13,4,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,4,8,4,0,2,0,0,4,2,2,0,0,2,3,5,1,12,9,1,18,0,0,0,1,1,6,2,0,8,38,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12029221232603547,0.1762721517052734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3821884633694014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.196764401730196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2963891413703688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11094957911563776,0.1773625071669429,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1437147687414811,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11362876106719423,0.155617240599196,0.14494852234589348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0869870342953707,0.12290320777935244,0.0,0.0,0.1572386252984629,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09777254444381664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17256705464334232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08404854765744592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26537095204381045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16986570071091034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14231071540699924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18336846313256006,0.2747778080670085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4189892354403584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17471183994195424,0.17532031580528326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ogoodgrief,2019/01/24,"I wrote this in my journal and I'm kind of proud of it. I realized today I've been dealing with this shit for 7 years and I guess this is what I have to say about it.


having an eating disorder is so lonely because it just lives in your head all day, it's so shameful. you don't want people to know even though anything within the idea of consuming calories brings your stress up to a 10, but you can't show it because they literally won't be able to comprehend that. its lonely because you stop seeing your family because its just too exhausting to hide it and being a convincing actor in front of your mom is hard work. its lonely because you're grieving alone; in comparison to if somebody dies, everyone knows that everyone else is just as sad as you are which gives a sense of togetherness in your pain. but with an eating disorder, you're grieving your freedom all by yourself. you're constantly being weighed down by shame because you're living in constant and chronic agony over something that seems like it should be such a simple fix. it makes you feel stupid because you literally don't know how to feed yourself. you feel alienated because unlike everyone else, something went wrong with your natural instincts to know when you need to eat, like your instincts are defective. trying to cope with all these things from the minute you wake up until you're finally able to fall asleep is very, very lonely. ",8.120228359001594,7.5558070371747235,7.563794476898567,75.05666356877327,62.27137546468401,10.659691980881574,35.94291024960169,9.957137785484203,3.4539854487519914,1139,45,205,20,14,357,151,269,0.243,0.691,0.067,-0.9948,0,9,2,0,0,0,19.0,0,17,1,2,12,21,2,3,8,0,19,12,4,2,3,34,36,15,3,4,6,1,3,2,0,2,3,1,0,0,21,8,5,1,9,2,0,4,4,16,0,0,3,5,23,5,39,27,3,24,0,7,1,0,23,11,1,3,11,131,44,1,0.19842289224899803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10275313757833547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08164256679740567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4838270136811532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2144246554972727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06398317519214512,0.102282644594378,0.0,0.0,0.10296581760993513,0.0,0.22740982507055016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3045542326501202,0.16575686540461645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0655282244797986,0.0,0.0,0.2844023651552355,0.0,0.0,0.09352772181358754,0.0,0.1003285762619244,0.0,0.0,0.10868128981221373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0951726593675442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10929259310347286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08887396861356972,0.0,0.10181956622663584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11199764661583246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.103313454070007,0.21809606474623466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09693940242543493,0.0,0.17521104913177118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06622441067760783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11619524662751073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07356403019764679,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10556797360351544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06878072485667809,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07889692401407053,0.0,0.0,0.07905867761199475,0.0903183744304169,0.0,0.0,0.10183912374000816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1527556365187044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08294521135456699,0.11364637633512695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06591167639179296,0.0,0.09747474209329487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09404085043611726,0.0,0.0,0.06735805950817311,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16371966663177856,0.05851748140416355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09197000451435622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07222711438125577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1084721418634066,0.0,0.06388891852914487
EDAnonymous,clonedanmarinoplease,2019/01/24,"Trying to transition to Keto but terrified So after around 5 years of disordered, restricted eating, I’m attempting to get my life in order and try “normal people” dieting in the hopes of a more functional life. I started a new, mentally challenging job that requires all of my brain power, and eating disorder brain wasn’t going to cut it. I convinced myself that Keto would allow me to eat more normally without getting fat. Anxiety has gotten to me, and now I’m certain that I’ve blown up in past two weeks despite being in ketosis. Has anyone else made this transition and can offer words of wisdom/guidance?",8.493923303834812,8.228957168141594,9.193938053097343,62.69084808259589,61.38938053097346,12.489085545722716,38.302359882005895,11.855464076750405,5.083933333333333,492,22,73,14,6,167,82,113,0.122,0.75,0.128,-0.2899,2,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,4,3,5,1,0,3,0,6,9,3,2,2,18,15,6,0,4,2,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,5,5,5,2,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,1,3,0,7,4,18,10,3,15,0,0,0,0,1,6,0,1,7,50,12,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1173110426665417,0.0,0.0,0.10722470867579274,0.1571234724906818,0.0,0.13651251373823525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34237487390233634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3515009131976893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4707408347969484,0.12810284151186918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1602363326839298,0.0,0.0871513823859586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15230947960463614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1521745424519581,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2166289024961187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14510188522190096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15453903548772951,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14810475999905487,0.0,0.0,0.3004975831881894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14638832016840264,0.10631241455825842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10854072795429813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20822688220266586,0.0,0.14979902319213087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1230067699587232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14782230520740947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1089342445205314,0.0,0.0,0.09875128833699368
EDAnonymous,-igaveup-,2019/01/25,b/p so i have been binging and purging so much lately and i really dont know what to do. i only eat when i b/p bc i cant bring kyself to and im purging around 1-4 times a day. i feel like i have no one to reach out to. i dont see my therapist anymore bc i was doing well and now she's on medical leave and i never told her about my eating issues anyways bc it kinda went away for a couple months. what should i do? i feel like i cant do this anymor and i need to do something. oh and its nepot just b/p thats just my main problem rn sometimes i restrist and fast mainly and chew and spit soooo. idfk how to deal with myself anymore,-1.7951070780399263,0.07043128965517552,1.5463157894736843,97.56894736842106,94.72413793103449,3.88021778584392,15.90744101633394,5.399115186594226,-0.8089310344827583,487,12,119,3,19,174,90,145,0.049,0.885,0.066,0.2732,0,0,1,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,0,11,4,0,0,2,0,14,5,1,1,1,24,22,14,0,3,2,0,2,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,6,13,3,0,3,0,0,2,6,1,1,1,4,3,21,3,13,17,3,14,0,0,1,0,4,4,0,1,10,81,27,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4482291730701185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1341152915649217,0.0,0.0,0.14154575481795506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.166697390229113,0.0,0.09716030202010112,0.15531915398635052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35313413142413635,0.0,0.0,0.30831627363416103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15235184470888885,0.21525656757355036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16273373891405954,0.1572451485838894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08279629549683988,0.0,0.16994591001224693,0.15952236892322133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14720528621811285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1517695164060169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12025174308153265,0.0,0.11074909059856856,0.11170910743886718,0.11619477087454914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10208803210756326,0.11458025873717527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14415691946081444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0965137392065584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12005288845112234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11598192598960105,0.14900209258284602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17492258954998333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08784840460086532,0.0,0.0,0.14395773894585795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13545734279942875,0.13965911176758727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,justcallmeamess,2019/01/25,"Drunk I’ve had 432 cal of merlot, my calorie total for the day is 1359. H e a l t h. 🙃",-4.69536231884058,-3.5543356086956504,0.7391304347826093,103.4185507246377,100.7391304347826,3.066666666666667,12.014492753623188,3.1291,-1.8726985507246376,63,1,20,0,3,26,23,23,0.138,0.862,0.0,-0.34,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,2,1,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,2,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,8,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Scarab-Beetle,2019/01/25,"I’m so screwed up I follow parismelodyraven and that poor girl is so sad and going through something awful and feels like she is worthless, and all I can do is look at her body and want it. That’s so fucked up, why would I want that. 2017 and 2018 were hard because all my ED thoughts that I thought I was rid of just came back after years of recovery. Gaining 20 pounds really sent me into a spiral.",6.91329268292683,5.343146548780492,6.363536585365857,85.95189024390245,65.21951219512195,9.175609756097561,32.69512195121951,7.1686216300943375,1.854673170731708,315,10,69,2,4,97,61,82,0.249,0.667,0.084,-0.9559,0,0,1,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,1,5,5,2,0,1,1,8,3,1,0,2,17,20,9,0,3,1,0,2,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,5,8,0,0,3,0,1,4,0,4,0,0,6,3,9,1,8,13,2,11,0,2,1,2,4,4,2,0,4,44,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20666162179204076,0.0,0.16383500573728893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2985343312195036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3073924762692493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13589429612393475,0.19200384342149768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2484664189369017,0.0,0.0,0.15274381078819801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2407582337648548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13130368585005825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2256926455415605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17217601376373806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20690635188003806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4267344960986744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3170459401558228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24251617573272105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19092102933848748,0.0,0.0,0.1730741118257552
EDAnonymous,figglygiggly,2019/01/25,"Does anyone else feel like their ED mindset only kicks in at certain times of the year? I feel like early February to July is when I revert to rigorous fasting, working out and calorie-counting. My mental health takes a massive nosedive, which results in weight loss, which results in a (temporary) self-esteem boost that makes me feel less viscerally insecure and self-loathing for the other part of the year. It’s a stupid cycle, and I hate myself for it, but when the good months arrive I genuinely just do not feel the need to restrict, or fast more than a couple of days a week, resulting in me blowing up like a balloon till something happens to make me spiral. 
Right now, I’m restarting my behaviors full-swing, and it feels ridiculously good. I have a deadline (there’s an event next month that I’m horribly anxious about) that I can’t possibly meet, and it’s keeping me laser-focused. Hunger feels like it’s beneath me. It’s so odd, if I had tried to do this a month ago, I couldn’t have lasted at all. Does anyone else feel the same way? ",7.9544334975369475,6.753499837438426,7.556556650246308,77.04232266009855,62.9408866995074,10.287487684729065,36.556157635467976,9.120678840339163,3.1631994088669937,829,33,156,11,10,262,129,203,0.146,0.7509999999999999,0.103,-0.8342,0,0,1,0,0,0,30.0,0,0,1,2,7,12,3,1,15,0,8,3,0,5,2,30,24,12,0,3,5,0,8,4,0,0,1,0,0,0,13,6,2,2,7,0,0,0,3,5,0,0,1,8,17,7,22,22,5,30,0,1,0,0,2,10,0,2,23,95,30,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10669319509520883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13597421958482672,0.0,0.1683190990356827,0.24664913202939884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13317769488792208,0.0,0.0776232011782962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21065829490731508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2010931541197704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4260086862684507,0.2579588088289552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20190700780006265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1064352645227146,0.0,0.0,0.11883204885691925,0.0,0.12793863120446824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10698281898560943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09811067548005674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2352101693601828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1606844529832942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12129606851060867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2882141693011861,0.0,0.0,0.08924651673459329,0.0,0.0,0.12800580577555365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0915403337587086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13033976013904494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1356894907592726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1027880513544564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2511265594141268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09266015221190327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09049685826013844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07018375037692409,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08171754822234034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.095537345178433,0.09654672393349216,0.14656786430992175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08762459526754321,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1550177014866374
EDAnonymous,doubledigitsplease,2019/01/25,"Unnoticeable weight loss I feel so down about myself rn. I’m 5’3” and I’ve  lost about 20. It’s been 4 months now, I’ve never received a single comment about my weight loss. Honestly, I’ve never noticed a difference in the mirror, but I assumed that was some body dystrophia talking. 

I posted a progress photo to imgur so that I could link it to a different weight loss reddit here, and some random/anonymous user jumped on it to comment “what did she progress?” I have no idea why that got to me so bad.

I’m ranting because I know I’m still at a “healthy” weight (108-110), and I was content with staying here for good, but now I really wanna go for another 10-15. I’ve been under 100 before, but I felt like shit all of the time, and I was not proud of the person I was at the time because I was always starving and weak. :-/

Even if nobody reads this, it feels good to get it off of my chest. I’m unsure what to do at this point. I want to move beyond this feeling of constant dissatisfaction so badly.",2.8512743902439044,4.204696478048781,4.20004573170732,87.77080030487808,74.46341463414635,6.490853658536586,25.007621951219512,6.9077264865688965,0.9096402439024384,778,25,163,7,16,257,120,205,0.211,0.669,0.12,-0.9702,1,0,0,0,0,0,28.0,0,0,0,7,14,13,1,0,9,0,11,8,3,0,3,27,25,13,0,4,5,0,8,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,13,6,4,0,8,1,0,4,4,8,0,0,11,8,18,5,27,13,4,25,0,4,0,0,6,10,1,4,10,105,31,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10396129062244924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13101199833796318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.208641774595417,0.15232628972910314,0.0,0.10631596684412233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13878177873764402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1350173151756492,0.0,0.09975557680549672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26107443401263397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08252264570015543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1895224451339184,0.0,0.11996338009494464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06527674795065556,0.0,0.07100710215055953,0.20958991157502155,0.0999270867348474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14104368284507438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06866455036180692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06104007871604353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1363883457488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09972706893911837,0.1327929825296804,0.0,0.0,0.1927250886918876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1422466625984344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10909405006667308,0.0,0.0,0.11811004963722638,0.0,0.11965936676595172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1249752553667935,0.0,0.08004068861520462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12825059725831306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.133170955782242,0.09977839892124664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10042320034107872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14570872200799698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0736937010504525,0.0,0.0,0.6085800796151807,0.0,0.0,0.11274022020633602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,frozenmargaritas,2019/01/25,Is there anything better than a huge shit? Guys and gals and non binary pals I just finally took a really great poop and I feel incredible. I’m dancing around. I feel like air. All hail fantastic bowel movements. ,1.3268928571428589,3.863792475000004,3.158571428571431,82.59500000000001,99.25,7.2857142857142865,20.714285714285715,7.957251820313856,1.9921785714285716,169,6,30,5,7,56,33,40,0.076,0.5670000000000001,0.35700000000000004,0.908,1,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,1,3,4,1,0,2,0,1,3,3,0,1,8,5,3,0,0,1,0,2,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,4,0,0,2,1,0,3,0,1,0,0,1,2,3,3,2,4,1,7,0,0,0,0,2,3,1,0,2,14,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2587069584205942,0.2798637764201773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2780424931723096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31791872580145136,0.2245922713116463,0.0,0.34438659914154457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3466037272491041,0.0,0.3112844299377868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15358959753695034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2013991038278017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3227053115119997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3492864046163001,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,junglebooks,2019/01/25,"how do i increase my sex drive/can i do this without gaining more weight pls send help so basically i’ve been underweight for a hot minute (aka the last two years(?)). i dipped to my lowest weight and bmi ever over my first semester at college - got down to a bmi of 16.8, 112 lbs at 5’8.5”. 

i’ve been trying to eat more and have gained back 8-9 pounds so i’m resting at a bmi of 18.1 and 121 lbs. the thing is, i hate my body because i feel like my stomach is distended and bloated all the time which makes my already small butt and boobs look completely flat. basically i look like one thicc ruler from the side. i also psychologically hate being over 120 lbs/ a bmi of 18 and am dreading where all the weight i’ve been gaining is going to go. i haven’t had my period in a few months and my sex drive is close to zero (although it’s getting a little bit better as i gain more). 

my gyno said the loss of a sex drive is bc i’m not eating enough. but idk what to do? i love my boyfriend and i want to have more sex w him (lol) bc his libido is like 100x mine but i don’t want to gain more weight and feel like trash about my body. is there any supplement i can take? does anyone have any advice on this?

alternately, will my stomach ever stop being so gross? i don’t recall it sticking out this much when i was this weight and younger. and how long does it take to regain ones sex drive after regaining to a healthy bmi?",2.233661616161616,3.6251255690235737,3.5392803030303037,91.72892045454547,76.13804713804714,6.431481481481483,21.802609427609426,6.996647511020387,0.36999225589225615,1102,28,251,11,24,360,161,297,0.076,0.795,0.129,0.942,1,0,0,0,0,0,34.0,0,0,0,8,13,11,2,1,14,1,26,20,6,3,4,29,45,22,0,2,4,0,8,4,0,1,1,1,0,0,10,13,7,1,2,0,0,7,5,5,0,5,7,11,30,6,29,35,13,34,0,1,2,8,6,14,2,0,17,152,40,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10010483766005847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11304695658888865,0.08192258559787384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13932772944998725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0716296142604617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07877133925802468,0.0,0.06244750576988574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09060135341550966,0.1118397975688855,0.22757925618451436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10740816701570184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1792948333424563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20964685490609372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1058496541859948,0.0,0.0,0.1853287540541028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1035951969251526,0.14636873317696894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08713685249600718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0535215569359347,0.0,0.11643995082229693,0.0,0.08193198083587294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20227992830681654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06866450804059977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08350365323640409,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20019134843201694,0.10267348968292396,0.0,0.090657675446301,0.17205044454635232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09245762833236283,0.0,0.06838062614870967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08176798271742494,0.0,0.07530643210630511,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13883428599230188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09744550980743677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08564584313288802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15404680956813327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06805770947699635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059734575525334316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06955118570633544,0.0,0.10007064957658147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12084553046585812,0.0,0.0,0.6237319260646557,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09875013727586326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06596909218648611
EDAnonymous,bee_yonce,2019/01/25,"social crutch Besides when I’m in social eating settings, I’ll plan when I eat for when I see my boyfriend or friends, just to “regulate” my mood, knowing if I see them while I’m hungry, I won’t be able to focus, low energy, I’ll be hangry and withdrawn. It’s funny, my boyfriend was the first to point out how much happier and alive I am after we eat together, and since then I’ve used it to my advantage? It’s impossible to hang out with anyone when being super hungry.",4.6193127147766315,4.797352597938146,5.921185567010308,81.4052147766323,69.41237113402062,8.940893470790376,28.537800687285234,8.841846274778883,2.0674481099656363,370,12,76,6,6,125,64,97,0.021,0.775,0.204,0.9509,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,1,0,1,4,6,5,0,0,1,0,6,3,0,2,0,13,12,12,0,1,3,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,3,7,3,0,1,0,0,1,1,1,0,1,1,2,11,3,11,7,1,15,0,1,2,0,5,5,0,2,8,47,14,0,0.21273955919842247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14875244623266545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6530570386474905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.180956160376124,0.0,0.0,0.1643620557134075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11691609811533445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15638805413824958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20110764694490596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3390517703951246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17598036175888065,0.0,0.0,0.4337223793567439,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1837386742232363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,JanuaryEmber,2019/01/25,"School Play I was watching The Wizard of Oz ( in-school play).  One of the characters said “ you need to eat or you will wither away.” 

I almost cried then and there. That’s the cold hard truth. I might just eat today.",0.11705426356589045,2.4962165581395332,0.9259302325581408,101.18874031007752,92.72093023255816,3.7968992248062015,11.817829457364342,5.46131890053228,-1.4371984496124033,164,2,37,1,6,50,34,43,0.087,0.802,0.111,0.2484,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,2,0,0,2,3,0,0,3,0,3,2,0,0,1,7,5,3,0,1,2,0,1,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,4,5,3,4,1,0,3,0,0,1,0,3,1,0,3,2,22,6,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24942586166674596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23402657284233425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27361170247957434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5097588476808863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22313411031128555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26424322779981585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1846957515809437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16878861759632652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23693992840181466,0.0,0.0,0.5041811335494647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23610649802551745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,chpbnvic,2019/01/25,"Hmm let’s try moderation and high restriction to get out of this binge cycle... ~see ex is going to the same party as me in a month~

FUCK MODERATION! TIME TO FAST! I CANT BE THIS FAT FOR THAT

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EDAnonymous,basicvodkaboy,2019/01/25,"a broken iphone and body dysmorphia or why i don't trust my judgement anymore so. ya queen’s iphone kicked the bucket last week. so i ordered a new one (this bitch is broke now, [pls send $$$](https://media.giphy.com/media/ld10X9zBw1MvC/giphy.gif), (for real)), and low and behold, thanks to the wonders of icloud (i pay .99 cents a month for that shit (totally one of the reasons i am broke)), a backup to restore all my data was available. HELL YEAH! so i went on and controlled whether all of my things were still there. contacts? yes. apps? all there. photos? praise the LORD, all there. 

but wait? whats that in my camera roll? is that???? me????? oh boy, yes that's me!!! that's me, six month ago!!! i sure did look good 6 month ago. i was so skinny. i wish i would be so skinny now!!! unfortunately i am not, i am a fat person and totally not skinny. i am absolutely fatter now than i was 6 month ago. fake news. 

PLOT TWIST: according to his fitbit data, ya boi was actually 10 pounds heavier 6 month ago! but he still thinks he looks fatter now than 6 month ago!!! you heard right!! ya boi thinks he is fatter now, with 10 pounds less on his luscious hips! totally fatter than on these fotos!!!

what is this hell???? like seriously??? somebody please step forward and shoot that body dysmorphia of mine!!! 

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EDAnonymous,pinkie-pie-promise,2019/01/25,"Good mobile games to distract me from binging I’m on day 6 of being binge free and I haven’t gone that long in literally m o n t h s. The catch? I’m off work these next two days, and I’m sick and bored all alone in bed 😬 my 3ds is at my boyfriends house, and dumb mobile games usually distract me pretty well (but only good ones ofc). I like things like Piano Tiles and Disney Emoji Blitz, ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ hit me away w your suggestions friends I’m desperate ",1.4978830409356725,3.43015848421053,2.8108771929824563,93.71058479532171,79.94736842105263,5.906432748538013,21.08187134502924,6.937597516519254,0.3162046783625727,356,10,80,4,9,115,74,95,0.166,0.62,0.214,0.7269,0,1,0,0,1,0,12.0,0,1,0,1,1,11,1,2,1,0,3,1,0,0,1,7,9,6,0,0,1,0,0,2,1,0,1,0,1,0,3,5,0,0,0,2,1,2,1,4,1,2,1,0,8,8,9,6,1,13,0,0,0,0,5,6,1,0,7,34,11,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24936687653422496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22621294538061515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3105556662197994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1860196243363564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4038957706586239,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27781822439711856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2352577893545679,0.0,0.0,0.21307538493116665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25606344294741873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16315314055772212,0.18311773351835972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24495138602171224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1599580242153252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23519897321294034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26517602038504084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2164826810065764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17528467099705786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,sstephenn,2019/01/25,"What do you think I should do? TW this post discusses numbers. Ok so I’m an 18 year old 5’10 male and I weigh 128 pounds or around 58 kg. I was originally 120 pounds and I saw a dietitian because my doctor was concerned about my weight loss. I told them it was just appetite loss and didn’t give them the whole truth. At this point it is more appetite loss than anything else, but I know I’ll be uncomfortable if I gain more weight. They are no longer concerned with my weight because I’m not losing any now. I have no desire to lose any more weight, but I assume I’ll feel this way if I gain weight. My BMI is barely normal and I’m not sure what I should do. My appetite is still not there most of time, but I feel it coming back. also lowkey don’t wanna have to buy new pants but that’s dumb. I’m looking for other perspectives pls ",1.3190016806722724,3.2988462514285715,2.3824201680672275,96.31675630252104,80.77142857142857,5.260504201680673,18.865546218487395,6.2272716619740125,-0.2921092436974786,654,15,150,5,17,207,107,175,0.134,0.754,0.111,-0.4883,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,1,3,7,9,9,1,0,3,1,17,7,0,1,2,32,30,13,0,7,11,0,7,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,10,7,6,0,5,0,1,1,7,6,0,0,6,9,21,3,10,21,5,14,0,5,2,0,8,3,1,5,8,89,31,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1000892397240376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17022419899656524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10299481474048484,0.11141763631307904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09623919216954678,0.0,0.15259096937810834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10781300045900627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12810506975724245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1045539007040041,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1265678374727663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1200634767430042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06878386075216161,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10510165214605983,0.2800407853024166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1208788984536054,0.0,0.0,0.12262879614399562,0.0,0.0,0.13133283445950222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11831527571171135,0.0,0.11986728490832965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09995177222175664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11796044335418596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08019653915594213,0.0,0.0,0.07298095154023049,0.0,0.0,0.11959434912430182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09934502390231296,0.0,0.7620469229067063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13973504094529454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08059799668239119
EDAnonymous,Call_me_Cassius,2019/01/25,"How do I un-take laxatives? 😥 I used stimulant laxatives yesterday, and planned on fasting but failed. This morning I weighed in higher than yesterday, panicked, and took more laxatives. Then I went back to bed for about an hour, and when I got up again weighed myself again. Weight was slightly under where I was yesterday. Checker it a billion times, even used a second scale, and yup. Not sure where the higher number came from, if my scale glitched or if I just exhaled a lot of water weight in my sleep or what. But now I reeeeeally regret taking more laxatives. I know it's gonna hurt, I know I didn't actually eat enough yesterday even if I didn't fast for it to make enough of a difference, and I was really trying to break my laxatives-every-day habit. I tried to throw them up, but it had already been an hour and a half since I took them so I doubt it's effective at all.

I don't actually expect there to be a way to un-take laxatives, but I can dream right? I felt like I needed to tell someone at least, to express how stupid and weak I feel for giving in and taking them so quickly. I didn't even second-check the higher weight. Is there at least an effective way to counteract/neutralize them?",4.2725735294117655,5.377840541666672,5.1083823529411765,83.58308823529413,70.66666666666666,8.813725490196077,28.284313725490193,9.168548406835145,2.238762254901961,950,34,192,19,17,309,129,240,0.138,0.78,0.08199999999999999,-0.9447,0,0,0,0,0,0,32.0,0,0,4,4,19,8,1,1,11,1,13,9,1,8,2,39,30,23,0,6,11,0,5,1,0,1,1,0,1,0,7,9,7,0,6,1,0,5,5,6,0,3,14,5,30,2,27,14,8,37,0,3,0,0,7,13,0,7,17,136,37,1,0.0,0.0,0.24610200037610985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1391494990994223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0969596416558652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14421963830694834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08132115377407648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13174293982962687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1290271570690809,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2605806791135843,0.0,0.2498546283516466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06375766405487587,0.0,0.12107143639229065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12096227553999235,0.0,0.0,0.1008500753805854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24835729802106835,0.0,0.13498782062485276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1385975576039154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06160388279990876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10720186892415984,0.0,0.0,0.08416971286808662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09349820158156293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08077999413488733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.107684851995908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10430748510771304,0.0,0.1261865458779202,0.0,0.10684029205037217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11884349877999105,0.0,0.18961621821649927,0.0,0.11021300847781257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07352728913786492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2801934386006505,0.1712211092599856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2178120198606082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2001774474767392,0.0,0.4606509774509692,0.0,0.11689177439622657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,technicol0r,2019/01/25,"Binged on my roommate’s food... I’ve been so good about staying under my calorie limit and haven’t had a real, uncontrollable binge in months but I ruined all that last night—my roommate keeps a ton of snacks in our room (but still stays thin as a rail ugh) and i just went HAM eating a bit of each thing so maybe it’ll go unnoticed? but I’ve never eaten so much of someone else’s food and feel terrible and SO bloated, I can’t even keep myself from literally stealing??",4.821249999999999,5.1344136250000005,5.522916666666667,83.96375000000002,69.0,8.066666666666668,27.458333333333336,7.793537801064563,1.4697833333333334,372,11,77,4,6,121,71,96,0.166,0.8079999999999999,0.025,-0.9357,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,1,0,0,1,8,6,0,1,4,0,5,5,0,0,2,16,11,12,0,0,4,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,3,5,5,3,1,0,0,2,3,5,0,0,4,2,7,1,10,6,5,14,0,1,0,0,1,6,0,0,4,47,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2121304220670297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19882222957736964,0.16231665503741016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12833643037515133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09824630107325698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4699080603514457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11042784612599227,0.16297357450169112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3454139132727367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15838427456261184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19520520049142828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15509216810530566,0.0,0.14283632100847882,0.0,0.14985977313621632,0.0,0.0,0.18234181054569976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22116130205766446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16463375274384498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4142059418899089,0.1551719947592098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12908741744975238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18012241556457487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,lemonytaurus,2019/01/25,"im a minor. if i come clean about my ed will i be sent to inpatient? backround info : im a minor(younger than 16) and i think im bulimic. ive been purging for about 4 or 5 months now but i was restricting for 6 months or so before that. im still overweight, if that matters.

so my question. if i tell my therapist about my eating disorder will i be sent to inpatient against my will? i would probably tell her if i wasn't scared of being forced into a mental hospital or anything but im just sorta suffering in silence here because im scared of being sent off.",0.7828205128205141,3.02398061538462,3.4516239316239314,86.34615384615387,84.72649572649573,7.018803418803419,25.23931623931624,8.139509932561175,1.874500854700856,440,19,90,10,13,154,68,117,0.161,0.758,0.081,-0.9012,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,0,9,3,0,2,3,0,12,2,0,0,0,20,17,12,0,5,10,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,1,0,2,3,2,1,3,0,0,4,1,3,0,0,6,0,15,0,14,3,0,11,0,1,0,0,7,3,0,9,4,61,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10382028338576836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07690696722384209,0.0,0.10735426684379913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1086770852350903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14459217421544102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12909485815380414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8176573501355804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12714126366869932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2014020412594677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1360235905586644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14132991478648574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25261962954491074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10075285190928723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22054167540139816,0.0,0.0,0.14648339265183175,0.0,0.08083928732438425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08962161217988933,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Soybeansandsprouts,2019/01/25,"Am I healing? Thinking I have found a ""set point"" weight and unsure whether to be happy or sad. Or maybe I am just to damn tired and busy to gaf. I am graduating from college this year with solid plans to pursue a PhD and I don't know if I am just experiencing another ebb and flow of disordered thoughts. For the past year I have maintained a weight just below ""healthy"" for my height and I'm not sure that is the kind of accomplishment I should be celebrating. 

It is the most consistent my weight has been in the past 5 years, which to me is a sign of progress. I'm not nutrient deficient and don't restrict the type of foods I am allowed to eat, just the amount.  Taken from google ""Set point is the weight range in which your body is programmed to function optimally."" If you stray from this range, some physiological regulation mechanism will try to return to that point.  I remember learning about it in psychology and at the time I thought it was total butt because I was recovering from AN and had ballooned up 45 pounds. Does anyone have experience with something similar?

But fast forward 5 years and I am below my a pre-ED weight with minimal effort. I still binge, I still restrict, but it is nothing like before. The ED is a muted whisper now running in the background because I actually have a life with ambitions and sometimes I am even proud of my accomplishments in school.  

Over the holidays I ate more than I would have liked, and while I would tell myself I was making ""poor decisions,"" I didn't feel the immense guilt that would have destroyed me even 2 years ago. Got back to school and have been eating one meal a day of dried fruit and nuts because I am a broke ass beesh who does not want to go to the grocery store. Yesterday I got on the scale for the first time in months and found that I am still barely underweight, and I have not gained anything over the break even though I SWORE to myself that I looked bigger. Clearly I still have no idea how I look, but I feel okay? Is this progress or am I just indifferent?

That is all. Thanks for letting me vent.",5.200740740740741,6.109068432098766,5.439753086419753,82.7788888888889,68.38271604938272,8.666666666666668,29.814814814814817,8.841846274778883,2.163888888888889,1645,60,332,27,27,521,209,405,0.109,0.8029999999999999,0.08800000000000001,-0.8064,2,0,1,0,0,0,39.0,0,2,0,9,17,13,2,1,26,1,46,17,3,3,4,66,66,27,0,7,18,0,7,2,0,5,3,3,0,0,16,19,11,2,12,1,2,4,8,5,0,2,15,14,43,8,46,43,6,48,0,2,2,2,4,19,3,7,26,230,59,10,0.0,0.0,0.0830834939950509,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07547068773875971,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08927578465559717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05953124823216504,0.0,0.07006223666454132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0654667234964854,0.0,0.15570004135225385,0.0,0.07244711539276744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09457036263763677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05490768527629547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0975768009809873,0.0,0.1490116251588708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17423713766104132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16870074589044134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08328239060347949,0.0,0.0,0.08609778856809285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07241928704581463,0.1029505548417899,0.18670128848153567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04838652063193846,0.0,0.13618705446486376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09063217022208564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0961116967640398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08865928588019434,0.04679023058453552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08706051262172808,0.06013627422272207,0.08318934131142303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1429908261895647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0568310198450519,0.0,0.08553368368938026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06795722868050286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08169327629022002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057692467200017014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1625498363923701,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2414519469401793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09644601951102727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17233065786305096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06554424963251036,0.08420476094604708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2719688263175598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08024260755417029,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0744153384698106,0.0783846575553026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054553706613078415,0.0836487474273355,0.13518189308809486,0.09929060432214494,0.09785488730409968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057803869864070025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05021725543398376,0.0,0.0,0.5183825224279811,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1814411519030552,0.0,0.0,0.2741339907488544
EDAnonymous,lightfeathers,2019/01/25,"Can anyone help me find out why I can't fucking find Kirkland Signature Protein Bars anymore? I'm from the Philippines and I used to see those bars when I go to a membership shopping place called SnR. Well they're G O N E. And I'm freaking out because quest bars are so ridiculously expensive and I'm depending on those kirkland bars to not want to kms while going back on keto. I just didn't want to think about food I wanna eat or food I have to cook. I'd just take a fucking bar and deal with it, especially because I have PCOS and need to watch my carb intake. It was just cheap and inconvenient and now it's gone.

I know I'm overreacting, but hormones are on an all time high rn and I feel like my plans are falling apart because I was depending on these to get through my day to day, especially because I'm starting work soon.

God, I feel so pathetic sobbing over protein bars.",2.5901666666666685,4.5333002944444445,3.809722222222224,87.78625000000004,76.6111111111111,6.9444444444444455,27.91666666666667,7.8658589789855275,1.697833333333333,703,30,146,11,16,229,110,180,0.112,0.833,0.055,-0.8311,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,2,11,7,3,0,4,0,10,12,0,3,1,31,32,14,0,4,6,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,6,11,10,0,6,8,3,4,3,5,1,0,4,4,15,2,21,28,1,23,0,1,2,2,3,10,3,3,10,79,21,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1587591546921421,0.11193363887192688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12309381717322315,0.0,0.3903400363923113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16346247072020387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20648036779076132,0.1650383715018539,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16380470277533707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16188538052601034,0.11436320780674455,0.0,0.0,0.292625618243236,0.0,0.3871455939369717,0.0,0.0,0.29598799894332745,0.08363667301272959,0.0,0.18195752608990665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1073001484886884,0.1691363021117126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08797733843171447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0782083860566117,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11869939218994498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16725248848184104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12756529182362245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11330745306538965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1203623677831933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10257461545807216,0.0,0.0,0.09334558721351843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13826016934969926,0.0,0.0,0.18884200489012395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14393369194858427,0.0,0.14444985739651509,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11654220892540144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,itsmarta,2019/01/25,"i couldn’t resist a cup of nestum i’ve been eating less than 400 calories. i skip breakfast, lunch and just eat when i’m at home. sometimes, when i can’t really deal with hunger, i eat a cup of nestum, and purge afterwards. but today, i decided that i could eat a cup of nestum before going to school. and so i did. and for some mysterious reason, i couldn’t purge it. and i cried. and cried. and i’m still pretty sad because that means that i can’t really eat dinner. i just don’t know what to do. i feel like i lost.",0.6972727272727289,2.621744363636364,2.8990909090909125,92.08863636363638,82.63636363636363,5.8181818181818175,16.363636363636363,6.980632752743323,-0.17354545454545445,400,7,90,5,11,136,61,110,0.152,0.774,0.07400000000000001,-0.7895,0,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,0,1,6,3,0,0,3,0,9,9,0,1,0,20,16,11,0,3,3,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,5,8,9,0,5,0,0,1,5,2,0,0,3,1,13,1,9,10,2,7,0,2,0,0,1,1,0,1,6,55,18,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08979639237198474,0.0,0.12534658713370786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11761188343851064,0.0,0.3236175274328253,0.0,0.15186605505072162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.753654249701773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0744823579121233,0.1052354616354239,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0837174149944653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14775996482581988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08095554506447994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07196628853168285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16080193946305035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16045945757612504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1498631962073386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1887360374468981,0.15145513891438028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1490815728447664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14568943632572065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11763879072633712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13962889819660626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,couldntfindquiet,2019/01/25,"Lentils are Murdering Me My roommate is upset I’ve been backsliding into restricting lately. I cooked a big batch of red lentils so I’d have something easy and yummy to eat while also not being too high in calories.

My diet apparently has a lot less fiber than it should because one small bowl and I’m bloated and in pain and so damn gassy I wanna die. All the digestive solutions I can find are steps I should have taken before cooking the lentils, I can’t find any damage control for the aftermath. 

I don’t want to just throw them out but I don’t think I can eat them again if it’s going to be like this. Any ideas?",1.8075824175824198,4.1059583174603205,3.174126984126985,89.56873626373628,80.90476190476191,6.099145299145299,23.184371184371184,7.321109707123232,0.9752363858363852,492,17,100,7,13,160,91,126,0.123,0.7959999999999999,0.081,-0.6183,1,0,1,0,0,1,7.0,0,0,2,1,6,6,2,1,5,0,16,7,0,1,1,22,21,10,2,5,4,0,0,1,0,2,2,0,0,0,3,6,6,2,4,2,0,3,4,5,0,1,2,1,13,1,11,15,3,14,0,1,1,0,2,7,1,2,5,66,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17311370158346354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2944186734620424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13196017678866065,0.0,0.18420292131000846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2427933277497727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22466521481084975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4430126663271125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3957055358519115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12302682314001225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22871603470990046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24437212192668276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24419142667521915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10575796985389213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1840379454455261,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1466879797519986,0.0,0.23034296252207326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16665180099891425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1387074153599962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12768162128970242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,slug_93,2019/01/25,"Not coping Currently on a weight gain plan and REALLY not happy about it. I’ve gained around 5 kilos from my lowest, and have 4 to go at least. How the hell do I make this feel okay?",2.0984615384615397,3.181174230769233,3.7005128205128233,91.68615384615387,75.92307692307692,7.2512820512820495,15.564102564102564,7.793537801064563,-0.1434512820512821,141,1,33,2,3,47,36,39,0.237,0.595,0.168,-0.6454,2,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,3,3,3,1,0,2,1,2,1,0,2,0,8,5,3,0,0,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,3,1,0,1,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,0,2,2,2,6,5,1,5,1,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,1,20,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4045095570759577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2297567134358625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2582442160218422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4837139236234229,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3033134429574963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2910982740494647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5533329793317522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,thebitchybulimic,2019/01/25,"Food budgets So it’s happened. My husband got a pay cut (and is actually currently looking for a new job) so there goes my healthy expensive food...and my binge foods. I’m stressing out that I will have to eat what he eats. I hate not having my *own* food, it gives me so much anxiety. For now I’m just going to fast/“IF” and eat the remaining oats I have. At least I’ll lose weight without much effort. *fuck*",-0.005389610389606503,2.3041142619047608,1.9977056277056282,94.34123376623378,90.90476190476193,5.435497835497836,21.92207792207793,6.980632752743323,0.6814428571428577,314,12,70,5,11,104,62,84,0.173,0.794,0.032,-0.8651,2,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,0,2,6,5,3,1,3,0,5,8,0,0,0,6,14,5,0,0,3,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,3,7,0,0,0,3,1,2,5,0,0,1,2,8,0,7,12,4,6,0,1,1,1,3,2,1,0,3,40,12,2,0.0,0.0,0.13996595755036778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10972274807279866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4402908443225003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6937393841251367,0.0,0.0,0.1325977457261242,0.0,0.13759011058465162,0.08151397307849516,0.0,0.1147132274268232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12683373975823226,0.0,0.0,0.14160638607178447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14233109351871578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12044418780541905,0.1604602984321678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2108735510793576,0.0,0.0,0.13852456597756765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16429736850273888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17465781141397202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13826038184586778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ponygg89,2019/01/25,"I’m biting the bullet. I’m going into inpatient in 3 days I’m so scared, I know I need to get better. This has gone on too long. 

I still can’t see how sick I am, my Psyc and GP called the inpatient hospital and asked for me to skip the waiting list because I’m so underweight. Should ring alarm bells right? 

I usually would have put this off as much as I could, but my gut feeling just told me to say yes. I’m exhausted and I can’t do this alone. 

This is a horrible disease we all have, and we all deserve to get better. My dream is to one day just walk down the street, free, a normal weight, sober and content with those facts.

Big loves, wish me luck.",0.3152038369304577,2.3683726546762607,2.1160863309352536,96.3962398081535,85.0431654676259,5.7210551558753,18.61918465227818,7.03164865440522,0.062372278177458274,505,13,119,7,15,166,93,139,0.11,0.691,0.198,0.9388,0,1,0,0,0,0,18.0,2,0,0,2,7,8,0,2,6,1,12,5,1,1,3,26,30,11,0,6,3,0,2,0,0,2,2,2,0,0,5,9,1,1,2,1,1,4,2,3,0,1,2,5,15,6,14,25,3,17,0,0,1,1,7,8,0,1,5,69,20,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20733121244581484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1871458843881471,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12203087385540486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35409460132861426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20441119316289452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15983137554487314,0.0,0.0,0.2582054349164201,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10121951431161423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20917672475378568,0.0,0.1137697076556214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11001640095667402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1771573615314313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18067471295927015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14715895540693816,0.14843458732976356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19613872582730948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13565048781261188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20124114375159066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17095683443424878,0.0,0.1591950893140557,0.20042003513588846,0.0,0.15952146931923594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15986794182286948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19128527712074025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2204754159097023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24377131176274994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23020278738758626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1422056290272178,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,hoarderline,2019/01/25,"Does anyone else grocery shop like this? To prevent a binge I don't grocery shop anymore. Like I literally buy my ""meal"" everyday at the store. So I will get like x calories of food just for that one day.

Also, when I DO grocery shop, I would rather (for example) pay 4.00 dollars a small thing of cookies than 2.00 for a big, affordable set of them.

It's inefficient and I'm too poor to be wasting gas and money like this but it's soooo effective",1.8866666666666667,4.106555222222223,3.518888888888892,87.64500000000002,80.1111111111111,6.666666666666668,26.66666666666667,7.793537801064563,1.6326666666666667,350,15,72,6,9,116,66,90,0.06,0.797,0.14300000000000002,0.7269,1,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,1,1,6,4,0,0,4,0,5,2,0,1,0,8,7,6,0,2,3,0,0,4,0,2,0,0,0,0,6,2,2,1,1,3,9,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,7,4,10,4,0,7,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,7,42,13,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2308478075546805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2862812277960388,0.20184347560978608,0.29577462302359897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1861670696141675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2526154349311825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2411451901858393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3490586611620094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1508171890011024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5641146887598435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1956090026995813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19177828562537166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2050615646197072,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,livipup,2019/01/25,"Should I bring smoothies? So I'm going to the movies with this girl on Saturday. She has an eating disorder too and she's in a really bad place right now. I talked to her the other day about it an we talked a bit about maybe increasing her daily intake to like 500 calories. Basically I suggested a really healthy smoothie I like to make, a meal replacement shake, and a multivitamin. She would at least get all of her vitamins and most of her minerals that way even though it's still such a small amount of calories. Do you think I should take a couple of smoothies with me? I wouldn't make her drink one or pressure into drinking one of course, but I was thinking that if she's feeling bad at any point (which she probably will) I could offer her one and we could each have one. She did seem open to trying them when I mentioned what a huge boost to her health it would be while we were talking about it. I mostly just want our first date to be as perfect as possible, so do you think bringing smoothies might make her uncomfortable? Or do you think she'll consider it more thoughtful and be happy I was looking out for her? I know I could probably tell better than anyone else, but I want second opinions. How would you feel if a date brought snacks of some kind?",5.279019999999999,5.895572292000004,5.4661500000000025,83.70282500000002,68.08,8.81,28.825,8.841846274778883,2.0327,1003,33,203,16,16,317,148,250,0.061,0.784,0.155,0.9756,0,0,2,0,0,0,20.0,4,4,1,3,14,10,0,2,13,0,24,7,0,4,2,52,46,19,0,13,7,0,2,2,0,9,2,0,0,1,11,14,5,0,9,2,0,6,1,4,0,6,6,3,40,6,28,25,10,28,0,0,1,0,33,12,0,10,11,151,51,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07765172193262877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07984286991042101,0.11699904927584424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1906843378731474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10098996272908296,0.12466366739921612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2735093604700562,0.12634679521011347,0.0,0.07364178146409013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13086928391987915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2237214391387209,0.0,0.11684278029566104,0.09538938026787633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07542006429627117,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11547371735610533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09712821226349294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05965849114167045,0.0,0.06489564366544551,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12155519649983232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1213764515886598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1189091786094696,0.06275471125803077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11157292940269332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0958891193521832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2286640306953973,0.0,0.11471714406418924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12113537038501065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3095068415497033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1193021044846868,0.0,0.10794452191998273,0.12872975700288372,0.0,0.0,0.24622784724295596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14630344993083966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09751588571537828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10395242142989426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0911906446790671,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0858551278228298,0.27533984746736795,0.09980530167305976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2926681115942651,0.11218908148816284,0.09065247768688244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07752612281665915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13470202328825354,0.09063708000304264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2433475312208437,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,peachparks,2019/01/25,"Ode to Halls I swear, my dinners have become “mmmm lay on bed, eat half a package of sugar free cough drops”

I’m not even sick



But they’re 5 CALS

EACH 

now that’s what I call nutrition amirite",0.9267073170731701,2.8242820975609746,2.222134146341464,97.38734756097564,81.6829268292683,5.0756097560975615,20.006097560975608,5.985473137389443,-0.21534634146341425,150,4,35,1,4,48,39,41,0.031,0.8109999999999999,0.157,0.7005,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,1,5,0,0,0,3,2,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,2,1,3,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,3,2,3,2,1,4,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,16,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5706477624346538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5276021903932849,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5287068010180695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3412714146801197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,HolisticlyImprobable,2019/01/26,"How to suck at the disease that has taken over your life (anorexia) 1. Be restricting just fine
2. Get drunk and binge eating because you're so damn hungry
3. Fast to recover
4. Get drunk because hell, maybe it'll distract you from wanting to eat. And you want to have fun don't you? You want to keep your friends right?
5. At the end of night takeaway get the largest greasiest thing you can find
6. Binge 
7. Try to purge but fail and cry
8. Fast (until you get drunk again so like two days)",0.3141538461538467,2.6962834000000058,1.0980000000000023,100.89130769230772,90.0,3.8769230769230765,19.69230769230769,5.369823440869387,-0.4576461538461536,380,12,86,2,13,116,73,100,0.22,0.682,0.098,-0.9389,0,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,8,0,1,5,9,3,1,3,0,6,6,0,1,0,12,16,8,0,3,2,0,0,1,1,1,1,0,0,0,3,3,5,2,1,3,0,0,1,5,0,1,1,0,8,4,12,13,0,11,1,1,0,0,9,4,3,0,8,41,11,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25413002754036235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22896502016016934,0.13442859215310538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4265787748782127,0.0,0.0,0.18461876784058812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1905132691754648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16104266598495992,0.0,0.4356117853050016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18527385527134296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14722956614205732,0.10183479760953117,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2094091678090893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19560978245994184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17800931711128845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1384803713975037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14151922099296538,0.0,0.20361867635346176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3688355236146337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,IdiotsOfBOCO,2019/01/26,"How the hell did I become an almost 300 lb bulimic Here I am. Trying to accept the fact that I am a 290 lb bulimic.  I am not officially diagnosed, but I don't need a diagnosis when my teeth have visible cavaties , shitting 5+ times daily, and am freezing when everyone else is hot. I am terrified of friends, family, ect not believing that I have an actual eating disorder because I am fat.

 I can feel my body dying. I have been struggling for so long, not getting any help, destroying my body, because NO ONE thinks a 300 lb girl is a fucking bulimic. 

I only started vomiting in October. But, when I read the dsm-5 criteria, I know I have been suffering for year(s). I eat one BIG meal a day. It started as OMAD. I thought I was healthy. I listened to r/omad's bullshit. I had no idea fasting was a form of purging.  I ate up the ""hunter-gatherer"" bullshit like I ate everything else. 

It started as binging occasionally. Then every day. Then I stopped eating regular meals. Just one big binge every night, 500 calories from my TDEE. I thought I was curing my binge eating, but I was only falling hard into bulimia. I gained so much weight. I lost so much weight. I gained again. I lost again. I have a psychiatry appointment tuesday and I am getting evaluated. I am terrified he won't believe me, because I am fat. 

And the worst part, I don't even really want to recover because I have no idea how to lose weight without it. (CICO, duh, but still)


Someone, please believe me. ",2.5336113886113867,4.8425021363636365,4.608256743256746,80.21645104895106,78.33566433566433,8.141658341658344,30.494005994005995,8.942964678507748,2.9783880119880117,1145,58,214,29,28,393,155,286,0.262,0.665,0.07200000000000001,-0.996,0,0,0,0,0,0,54.0,0,0,0,5,14,13,4,1,14,1,29,20,6,2,1,28,47,19,1,2,9,0,7,1,1,1,4,1,0,1,5,4,13,1,8,1,0,1,10,10,0,3,14,8,42,3,15,32,5,25,1,4,0,1,5,5,3,1,20,142,47,1,0.0,0.0,0.09129578519178684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09368140873606642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06362032985573803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2281200407948569,0.1033236953084057,0.0,0.31621196064583706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20783611997322526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12066994295308553,0.0,0.0,0.09495594033560516,0.09709489486725267,0.0,0.107221666226418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3829188091988951,0.15630571187183648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06179192487750292,0.0,0.15764755542139547,0.08939542068661932,0.08408083376050259,0.0,0.08819494204441405,0.0,0.04730401210057866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07228004476638791,0.08648971165985922,0.0977568247210718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08380653734679264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06270767015539466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21122349097910148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051415156430161535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04570604743143279,0.0,0.0,0.08279286885125707,0.0,0.10466365674811696,0.20425177460496446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1375467775086838,0.06936954363933223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08779464588762108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1901850357782513,0.14230496404286835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10131050498916457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1026948467628795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09357990798345313,0.0,0.05993346645749886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09603244302267487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07926850117391745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19865526263613748,0.0,0.07471281704832179,0.07821582699146801,0.0,0.09780357116531392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059946004204638366,0.0,0.14854378986426547,0.054552434231384256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06351742605671462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055180921559403455,0.0,0.0,0.3417728634588769,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09018328701100364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06024608915620595
EDAnonymous,malamala1073,2019/01/26,Do you ever want think about how thin you’d be if you were taller and want to cry If I weren’t 5’2 and ate the same amount of food I did now I could lose weight so easily. I think about this at least twice a day. Fuck my stupidly low bmr,1.3688888888888897,2.0425934814814823,2.3490740740740783,102.26583333333336,77.14814814814815,6.140740740740743,15.351851851851851,5.985473137389443,-1.1076148148148148,184,1,51,1,4,58,43,54,0.245,0.664,0.09,-0.8781,1,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,3,0,1,6,4,2,0,2,0,7,4,0,1,1,12,13,6,0,5,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,3,0,2,0,0,0,1,4,0,1,4,2,8,0,5,6,3,7,0,2,0,1,3,4,1,2,3,33,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23896413134637026,0.0,0.32876346790193245,0.1930216681592379,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2707310799573881,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.361910864271314,0.0,0.0,0.2766950578519461,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33483654880025515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38355459355967547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3530660003411483,0.0,0.0,0.36446285695762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,throwawayorup44,2019/01/26,"What would you eat for a 10000 cal challenge? Love them or hate them, I think most of us have seen them. When I watch them I usually find myself planning  what I would eat on a day like that. Someone posted a little while ago they tend to trigger a b/p, but I’m still never eating the things I would plan on eating.

So, what would you eat to get to 10k cals? 
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EDAnonymous,coolcucumbah,2019/01/26,"i told my boyfriend about my ed he was so sweet and understanding i'm so lucky i have him like he's actually perfect


i told him everything & then i said i didn't want to talk bc i was ashamed & he said :


""Aw babygirl you shouldn't be ashamed I love you so much everything about you I'm so sorry you deal with that I won't be so harsh about you needing to eat now that I'm aware it's a serious problem.  I love you so so so much. You shouldn't be embarrassed.  You are loved "" :)

he's the only person i've ever told and im so glad i don't have to feel totally alone in this anymore",-0.8824999999999967,1.137163115384617,1.6479807692307702,97.71889423076924,90.92307692307692,5.403846153846153,19.66346153846154,6.9077264865688965,0.15442307692307722,455,15,114,7,16,155,69,130,0.183,0.629,0.188,0.5611,0,1,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,8,0,1,14,13,0,3,2,1,13,4,0,0,3,14,28,12,0,5,0,0,1,1,0,3,0,2,0,1,4,3,1,0,2,0,0,0,5,5,0,0,8,4,22,8,8,14,3,4,0,0,0,3,25,1,0,1,4,66,26,0,0.0,0.0,0.14883180655615047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15795865991642627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33049802803107986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15125305155663252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15723538817020494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1560600470703012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13795777711103108,0.0,0.0,0.2741397614147196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07711573500894199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16474144978145824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07451070819393325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.412949915304574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22423089236364813,0.11308730713174625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1159938809656762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13316946998097032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1459354407173379,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29015175742368937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17072710049227752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12258509382538392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.43720140849942174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1587726052091901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08995679511235616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,BaoBeii,2019/01/26,"I fit into my sister’s jeans :))) For my entire life my younger sister has fueled my ED and relationship with my body. She’s super tiny and athletic and gets guys left and right. I’ve always been the “fat sister”, and her body and her talking about how “fat” she is (like okayyyyy you’re still a size 00) has been so triggering to me for as long as i can remember. 

Today she asked me if i wanted some of her old jeans and i straight up laughed in her face. She said that they were stretchy and were too big on her anyways. 

“Just try them on!! Don’t look at the tag though because you won’t even try then” 

They were a zero. 

...and they fit. 

They were a little tight because i am DEFINITELY not a zero but like six months ago i couldn’t even get a size 8 pair over my thighs. But i could get these jeans up!! And i could button them!!! I almost started crying. ",0.6841659232827837,2.8151504406779684,2.043157894736844,97.00659232827832,84.14124293785311,4.856259292298543,17.790365744870652,6.05967700443912,-0.4612983050847457,656,15,151,5,19,210,107,177,0.038,0.885,0.076,0.5247,0,0,0,0,0,0,26.0,0,1,6,1,10,4,0,0,7,0,16,7,6,2,0,27,24,19,0,5,5,3,1,2,0,1,3,1,0,1,2,12,2,1,1,0,0,0,4,0,0,3,7,3,33,4,16,13,1,23,0,0,1,0,24,15,0,3,10,102,35,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14879646158113,0.0,0.1680860737761003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1396717463987113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1569250692040481,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20465000753180035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3729059785339093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2680427598005565,0.0,0.1843847165713437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22173795599059035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2630974663042837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1662063384413969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18237878735117125,0.0,0.11856344608899168,0.1640144008128273,0.16823834817642436,0.0,0.1485495195858401,0.14095889154487293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13398307964968184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1761392936348027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1802172452377384,0.19015099592706225,0.14335027009655466,0.1596719041871554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11881113368517306,0.0,0.13405204135844428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13491833053058802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1649201564979103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15911026218747892,0.0,0.0,0.2279298508910364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09900731188189586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,_Stormi,2019/01/26,Trying to figure if I should be freaking out or not Just like the title; I’ve eaten 1200 calories as of 1pm today and it seems like I’ll eat 1900-2100 in total today. My matinence is normally 2000 and I did 70 mins of sparring (-700) and biked 5 miles (-150) so I feel like they counter each other out but idk. Should I be worried about gaining weight? (13 year old 5’7” 125 pound ish girl) ,0.18074074074074176,2.468852814814817,1.6998641975308644,97.30238888888893,88.75308641975309,3.7338271604938273,17.976543209876542,4.935628992294339,-0.6652479012345678,302,8,66,1,10,97,67,81,0.138,0.816,0.046,-0.5048,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,1,1,3,4,0,0,1,0,6,3,0,0,1,18,9,8,0,4,5,0,2,3,0,2,0,0,0,1,2,6,3,0,3,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,2,6,3,8,3,2,9,0,0,0,0,2,4,0,3,8,34,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2751027261579158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1359396548244962,0.1920679303264584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3940425369000583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2634178880230168,0.0,0.0,0.2821149596932783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2447527733739012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5096805406393253,0.0,0.0,0.18253286751092768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3273893201574125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27303226748501563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1731318803784991
EDAnonymous,llanowho,2019/01/26,"“No one looks like that in real life, it’s all posed!” I don’t care Whenever I mention that I struggle with comparing myself to women on social media, almost always the response is something like “it’s all posed!”, “it’s photoshop”, “no one looks like that”. I get that the comments are attempting to make me feel better and to be fair they do. Subs like r/instagramreality are great for giving me a confidence boost when needed. But that only lasts for a little while then I remember that most people around me don’t realize/care that everything is posed. The same people who tell me to feel better also still go on about how hot Emily Ratajkowski is, how Bella Hadid is goals, or how Kylie and Kendall are their wcw...  like I don’t have a problem with you finding these people attractive, but please stop lying to me and feeding me bullshit about how I need to get better. Let me chase an unattainable beauty standard in peace lol",6.22714946070878,6.8432079039548075,6.485454545454547,77.22476117103237,66.00564971751412,8.922239342578326,29.085259373394965,8.841846274778883,2.264665536723164,737,23,132,11,11,237,108,177,0.097,0.665,0.238,0.973,0,0,1,0,0,0,19.0,0,1,2,5,10,13,0,1,7,1,14,2,0,5,2,29,26,14,0,3,3,0,3,5,0,0,1,0,0,1,12,6,1,1,4,0,0,1,5,2,0,2,0,5,18,11,17,24,4,13,0,0,2,0,10,6,0,3,11,91,30,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1440326738659117,0.0,0.0,0.11502695243320185,0.11968448453454407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12804604358810415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3816382561775497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14665211596112748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12927204523065658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14545732049412968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13146504705766282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.150298517530688,0.1379822233275054,0.08174627660255587,0.0,0.0,0.15858156612774987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11724691888962692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1470837880671763,0.10159681750733164,0.3513591603825336,0.14416315754339482,0.0,0.0,0.2415748740901328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09601277808746707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21330765602341853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19493628886816428,0.10939504834535954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2991568398173283,0.0,0.0,0.15789059506118475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13763324806158206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16371878657453795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16294006853966436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1466244157732891,0.0,0.11073328460466968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1148689687389548,0.12025475334123073,0.0,0.15037038894518484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12572048501480051,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,patri3110,2019/01/26,"I feel weak on maintenance. Hey guys so idk what i'm doing wrong. Im trying to force myself to up my calories (from like 600) and for this whole week i've been able to eat around 1500 calories which is my BMR (sedentary, so like 200 more than my BMR). Anyway I thought it would help and I would stop wanting to sleep 24/7 and i'd be able to actually have a conversation. I probably feel even more tired. How am i supposed to recover if I feel like passing out 24/7 all while still having the guilt of eating more than I ever did for the past year. Is this normal? ",1.7082445141065854,3.696388758620692,2.9675548589341716,92.5692946708464,79.51724137931033,5.942319749216303,20.890282131661447,6.980632752743323,0.3295793103448279,440,12,97,5,11,142,80,116,0.128,0.7859999999999999,0.085,-0.6321,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,0,0,8,6,0,1,3,0,11,5,1,1,2,18,17,8,0,5,1,0,3,3,0,2,2,0,0,1,5,5,2,1,4,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,3,3,11,3,16,11,5,12,0,0,0,0,4,4,0,1,10,63,16,0,0.3513975570703443,0.0,0.17145666299682394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15640916320050754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3595674273792568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11604738616783587,0.15892960412996826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2665157447549805,0.1255192424918029,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17396941407243158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11776718768082554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1897848308797567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2575126449125393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1721474985815729,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16772436484300746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1894329999642478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17582566609177452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14031327149755307,0.1468920461259198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13948520441291756,0.0,0.2019398995917364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11928793745465845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1036316917784279,0.0,0.14093496215396806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1961614116694071,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2496227424543219,0.19209903267187856,0.0,0.11314425286591967
EDAnonymous,throooowaawayyy,2019/01/26,"I feel like absolute shit I’ve been in recovery for 3/4 years. I’m at my highest weight. I was having sex with my boyfriend he tried to pick me up but he couldn’t. I know if I was at my lowest he would’ve been able to. I’ve never felt so fat and disgusting in my life. I feel so awful, I can’t eat bc I just don’t want to. It was probably one of the worst feelings in my life ",-0.9508045977011506,0.6703617356321843,1.8788505747126472,98.80954022988509,86.816091954023,5.705747126436782,17.712643678160926,6.937597516519254,-0.2196528735632186,289,7,77,4,9,101,57,87,0.238,0.727,0.035,-0.97,1,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,0,3,4,2,0,1,1,9,7,2,1,1,14,16,5,0,3,3,0,5,1,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,2,3,0,5,0,0,0,4,3,0,1,6,5,13,1,12,9,1,8,0,0,0,1,3,6,1,1,3,45,14,0,0.2599572918683951,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2660012079904293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39432665283397994,0.1857135412527044,0.2495997669408709,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1428657291403624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3672310461942236,0.12700200185688934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20049508934760732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17615378871761744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2802779283485666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2668424244162442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17649393713384204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1533295460051671,0.0,0.0,0.3165579485935288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18466620160423355,0.0,0.0,0.16740397292864173
EDAnonymous,d_hatesthis,2019/01/26,"I kinda hate that so many cooking youtube channels are doing the 10,000 cal a day challenge. I just want to watch cooking videos not this. One of my favorite youtubers is documenting it on her Instagram stories, guess I'm silenting her for the day. I'm sure there are people that enjoy the content so it feels stupid to complain about but I do hope this fad dies soon.",4.056384976525823,6.1292293098591575,3.9827464788732416,87.58473004694841,72.80281690140845,5.860093896713615,30.143192488262912,6.42735559955562,1.4902938967136148,295,13,55,2,6,90,55,71,0.083,0.725,0.192,0.7432,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,1,6,7,2,0,4,0,5,2,0,0,1,9,12,3,1,2,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,6,0,2,0,1,4,0,0,1,3,0,1,0,2,6,4,6,12,0,4,0,0,1,0,3,1,0,3,3,35,12,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4212557621698387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3389558571019365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16513712680603368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35978313415253593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3224466689826601,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3243842587169365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3311178368405057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22131040599788046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2264210597948796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3078135659300904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19263522133078295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,atleast14dogs,2019/01/26,"I'm slipping back into disordered thinking, and it's been months since I've weighed myself. Now, I'm terrified to check, and it's making everything worse. I guess the title is misleading, since I never really stopped having disordered thoughts, but they were less intrusive for a while, and I've been better about not letting the compulsive thoughts affect my behavior too much.

But lately, I'm stressed the fuck out. I'm in medical school (first year) and on top of that, I'm getting married this summer. I want to lose weight for the wedding--which, for the record, I don't think is disordered inherently... like, doesn't pretty much everyone feel this way? Anyway, it's occurring to me that I'm at that time where I need to get serious about a diet/exercise plan if I want to accomplish this in any sort of ""healthy"" or ~sustainable~ way. Which is (was?) my hope.

So I decided, hey, I'm gonna get a FitBit and make sure I exercise every day and track my food with the goal of ensuring I'm getting all my necessary macro and micronutrients while eating at a healthy deficit. Sounds pretty great, right? Recovery queen right here.

EXCEPT FOR ONE MAJOR FUCKING PROBLEM.

Every. *Single*. Fitness tracker. They all require you to input a starting weight. And the thing is, I haven't weighed myself in months. It's enabled me to be slightly less neurotic about how I eat. Because I know... *I know*... that I've put on more than I'd be happy to see on the scale. And I have been able to force myself to be okay with it, because my clothes fit, I'm healthy by all metrics (I've been to several doctor's appointments for various things recently, so I'm actually confident in this), and I actually do think I look good right now. I could look better IMO if I lost weight, but I'd say I'm still a decently attractive individual.

But I want to lose weight/get in shape for my *own damn wedding*. And I want to do it without fucking up my recovery. Fuck me, right? I've been procrastinating getting a FitBit because I'm absolutely fucking terrified to know that number right now. I know it's going to freak me out, because there's no way it isn't drastically higher than what I would feel comfortable seeing. It's been taking up more and more of my mental energy over the past couple weeks, since I started putting this plan of mine together. My eating habits have already gotten less stable and more emotionally-driven. I know where this leads.

I feel lost and I don't know what to do.",3.591204481792719,5.750294310924372,4.720336134453781,81.40603641456585,74.37815126050421,8.230812324929971,28.35014005602241,8.976282227363876,2.501340896358543,1956,81,366,44,42,641,222,476,0.133,0.7040000000000001,0.16399999999999998,0.916,1,0,0,0,0,0,85.0,0,1,2,16,17,25,6,1,16,1,29,17,0,5,5,67,86,26,0,11,10,0,6,1,0,2,3,2,0,0,25,19,9,2,15,1,1,4,9,14,0,2,13,12,45,11,53,66,16,56,0,4,4,5,6,27,6,6,23,225,70,7,0.06790460969831996,0.0,0.13253020741569949,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07493442535718342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.046177463143143575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05221445335659745,0.0,0.16557607921718176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12011221813717733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05421630539572858,0.07513515906487267,0.0,0.04379285564721711,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2334736970812939,0.06950324539091253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20845010437733075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11442512474527194,0.06488576455486363,0.06102828468234055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10300383290610723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05775962632030501,0.08211052358701061,0.0,0.0,0.3138835873289684,0.21286413544777774,0.0,0.03859175455389981,0.05695516490256505,0.0,0.07486507191672886,0.07480458321608904,0.0,0.0,0.0722857197049482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06744459918149669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2239115857874111,0.0,0.0765993574563153,0.0,0.0,0.0694370640945965,0.0,0.03317476230427626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11404553986724543,0.15193577785189352,0.14825180591061873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09065370852312876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06840675034379366,0.0684318752412555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1084016232268669,0.0,0.0998354026655924,0.05035040767511898,0.05237222118574579,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04601392091669345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06482263352379017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13816680042208415,0.0,0.0649755407634372,0.0,0.13652577625171955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04350143176964954,0.0,0.06704761000393743,0.0,0.0,0.2899508282894068,0.0,0.054000471123568365,0.0,0.068723090268792,0.10822236458021227,0.0,0.0,0.07671288068039997,0.0,0.16851418454797504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0961264644951578,0.0,0.05422870902103855,0.05677129427494241,0.07778450098369788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06399929102262021,0.0,0.051055815660189685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0902256107491906,0.13053159608015233,0.0,0.10781735016391658,0.03959572398949625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1602075925913629,0.16169855543733855,0.05446898195707661,0.3307580840167661,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0654576205675325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06920059853569234,0.04823748645125537,0.0,0.0,0.04372834230563688
EDAnonymous,plumtree18,2019/01/26,"So do all thin people have disordered eating or what I just found out last night that a friend of a friend was just diagnosed with an ED. Here I was thinking her effortless skinniness came from a natural disinterest food. Another close friend who I was always envious of body-wise once revealed she was a childhood anorexic and was dealing with intense binge-purging episodes up until our sophomore year of college. And then I have another stick skinny acquaintance who casually dropped on days she’s feeling anxious she straight up doesn’t eat and ends up routinely fainting!! 

At this point I swear that almost all young women who seem “naturally skinny” aren’t really naturally skinny at all. And on one hand it reassures me like “duh CICO” but also makes me incredibly sad that so many people are being silently tortured by FOOD, out of all things. And that it’s such a common thing but for some reason it’s so taboo to actually bring up. 

I wonder who else is silently struggling around me. 

This is just something that’s been on my mind since last night, didn’t know where else to share + was curious to hear others’ feelings/experiences ",7.326065934065932,8.182948295238099,7.1176190476190495,72.80456043956045,63.66666666666667,10.271062271062274,35.201465201465204,10.214889679676881,3.7256849816849815,922,40,155,20,13,292,137,210,0.08199999999999999,0.799,0.119,0.213,1,0,1,0,0,0,15.0,1,0,0,0,11,11,2,1,6,1,17,11,5,2,4,35,27,14,0,0,6,0,3,1,3,0,2,1,0,1,18,12,8,1,8,1,0,2,3,4,0,1,10,4,15,7,25,16,5,32,0,1,0,0,17,17,0,5,13,106,33,1,0.0,0.0,0.1263931135761583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1296958551753314,0.0,0.0,0.10357732425300102,0.1077712518714836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2716266215344217,0.0,0.14632105434166082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11530051257978716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14813670020223124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08352986817988378,0.13352972550051187,0.0,0.13146036179388446,0.0,0.0,0.14844146647856155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2650631704401905,0.2163951550634847,0.0,0.11471652789231905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12669569066349798,0.0,0.0,0.06548934719687673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31323288285449274,0.14201230608613732,0.3002011501929579,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14597877322051164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07118096079202102,0.21115263646663165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06327706839896992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08645579525522155,0.13131323887811738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13077856467230248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2430920250204709,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13793487528544487,0.0877662963925771,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17958611348504913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.122438532955826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08297401043281685,0.13316842343817106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11791040203519446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10714051728075608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09971104234686416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13540272261729214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17209504292301886,0.08299136813333788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14045922294117566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08340681635240191
EDAnonymous,whooptidooo,2019/01/26,"Chest veins + translucent skin? Does anyone else have chest veins visible? 
Not popping out in a solid way, but very blue and visible under your translucent skin? 
I've always had them faintly visible from shoulder to shoulder but I could barely see one vein. Now I can see an entire network and them even meeting near my sternum and up to my throat. 
I was hoping it was a weird mirror thing at home but conducted a thorough inspection in a trial room an hour ago 😭

I have been eating fairly nutritious food and not on high restriction or anything (maintenance/losing a little bit) and water+sleep and my caffeine consumption isn't too high either.

I just want to know if it's an ageing thing (I'm 22 but a light skinned brown person) or an ED thing? 
I only have one chest bone visible but not too harshly (collarbones too) and my boobs haven't lost any fullness or gone down in size. 

I just don't understand why my skin would get so translucent 😭 I feel so ancient and gross 😭",3.8645039682539695,5.898283820105824,4.438039021164023,84.28340773809526,73.23280423280423,7.264682539682537,27.68551587301588,8.07648339933343,1.9132246031746039,778,30,143,12,16,247,119,189,0.038,0.894,0.069,0.539,0,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,1,2,1,9,4,0,0,10,0,13,18,15,0,0,32,24,19,0,5,15,0,5,0,0,1,1,0,2,1,5,9,2,1,3,0,0,1,6,3,0,2,6,10,16,1,14,16,3,22,0,1,4,1,5,15,1,5,5,91,21,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14856298599077528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1394525883414578,0.0,0.0,0.113970447263263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11718642379068167,0.1717210339123397,0.13791652621619122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18297049411594848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13381108779749654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14666364282758948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17149167588753886,0.14000424025017238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11069501418046776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0847411421580913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20265671739530816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08756154724252893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3541469495212297,0.16811159763970498,0.16645979685759327,0.1650474606432299,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09210590997788796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1679743664443092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18294990106801093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2271336184474061,0.1274636616669906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14633761819771965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2671032676017864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16771618253573048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3340283066160538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1744724589253069,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13828354852658356,0.09885196013263094,0.13302922703433753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15122855270290878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11905478411976067,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,MacaroonRiot,2019/01/26,"Has anyone else lost weight because of their ED and then had their SO become more attracted to them? I knew my boyfriend found me more attractive. During my study abroad I’ve been depressed and eating about once a day. Don’t even like eating anymore. Over the months I’ve lost about two or three pants sizes. All my teachers and acquaintances bug me about becoming thinner and keep saying how they’re concerned for me. It feels like no one else’s business and it’s annoying.

I brought this up to my boyfriend today about these comments over the phone and I finally got my boyfriend to admit that he finds me more attractive than I used to be. It makes me feel like shit because he told me before it was the same amount of attraction. I knew he was lying to me but it still hurts to know that it is true that I’m more attractive when I’m thinner. Now I have even less of a desire to eat.

He says he does find me more attractive but it’s not healthy to eat like that. I feel conflicted and it’s upsetting me.",3.2112754804892276,5.053932346534655,3.4728305183459547,91.32787711124055,74.54455445544555,7.129178800232964,25.24868957483984,7.928766900206844,1.2590561444379729,802,27,169,12,17,247,115,202,0.112,0.732,0.156,0.8565,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,3,2,11,18,2,1,5,0,9,6,1,3,2,30,27,14,0,1,4,0,4,4,0,0,0,2,0,0,14,7,5,2,10,0,0,1,3,7,0,3,12,6,24,11,20,14,9,12,0,4,0,0,14,3,1,1,12,103,38,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12182910858872348,0.08589599428960618,0.12586909363055832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14977019363822214,0.2713450304468905,0.10453194238103204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07922478296700489,0.0,0.10580611256057157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10750237970666024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.502803909745127,0.2052422632596066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16227576537222396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18634218267231345,0.17552080936006953,0.0,0.134570558152041,0.22455598412531785,0.0,0.0,0.13469306696484898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09825027023632757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1315079815751716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10919017106580138,0.0,0.0,0.06751233173248132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24006320708663625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2681993894700875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08199990930889876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09805360881924254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13082578479037965,0.0832428679109813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19538235365807124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12609850092032618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0981040774637324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11644257952907285,0.1173835443826307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1200015947779839,0.0,0.0,0.10609853156413616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14959196559311302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Sjkyordanuise,2019/01/26,"Thank you to all of you for helping me not feel so alone. No one in my world knows about my ED (though I'm sure some are suspicious at this point), so you guys are my support system, even though I almost never comment or post. But reading all your posts are so comforting. Reading things you guys say and thinking ""omg, exactly!"". 


Don't get me wrong, I'm still a sad little bitch. But it feels nice to have you sad little bitches with me. ",4.047537878787878,4.832671102272727,4.343636363636366,90.0437878787879,70.93181818181819,7.2303030303030305,26.03030303030303,7.1686216300943375,0.9981757575757579,339,10,73,3,6,106,65,88,0.195,0.635,0.171,-0.5655,0,1,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,6,0,0,8,10,2,0,1,0,5,0,0,0,5,17,14,9,0,0,4,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,3,2,0,0,4,2,0,0,4,5,0,1,0,3,13,5,8,14,3,11,0,2,0,0,11,6,2,3,2,48,16,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17613939472902826,0.18218033746623707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11618091992754925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17788161326918167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0919009874494565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34833919545520703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1179027003869812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09667056308922048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3525979297663909,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1356656582406437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1191950375229678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1662832559852795,0.0,0.3369289772732069,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35189710687298315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13988349728954594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14047472760009427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1996103159686875,0.1657845656903591,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16194596369292594,0.0,0.0,0.1168607765273144,0.11271022756261916,0.34564358476066603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1923200777717904,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,trashbabyx,2019/01/26,"Tired Some weeks are particularly hard, and you just don’t want to participate anymore.  Today I unexpectedly broke it off with a with a man who has been nothing but kind to me, ditched my friends (one of whom needed my support), binged and purged twice, and spent the rest of the night crying into my vodka.  

Started part one of my suicide note, for the millionth time.  This is a new theme, betrayal.  Taking away the names, because the information alone is enough to dox me.  I should have never gotten clean.  This was easier with opiates, but now I don’t know how to get any.

Here’s to the people that let me down.

———, you were abusive before I knew what that meant.  I was a child, but so were you.  Emotionally destroyed me.  Physically controlled.  Threatened me, I have the letters still.  Left me alone and pregnant.  You still hold my hand and try to cheat on your girlfriend when we are drunk.  I like the attention but not enough to let you use me again.  

———, you were my best friend since we were 10.  When we were 19, and you had been living with me because your dad kicked you out, you started sleeping with my boyfriend.   When my actual best friend died, you laughed.  

———You promised me you would love her.  You took away the light.

———You didn’t believe me.  You hit me.  You raped me.  You assaulted an innocent man.  You made me think I was insane, and that I couldn’t (wouldn’t be allowed to) live without you.  You drugged me.  You stalked me.  You broke into my house.  You held me hostage.  I thought you were going to kill me.  I told the police I was fine and they followed us because they knew I was lying.  I forgave you every time.  I paid for everything, I let you come back.  You made me feel worthless, you confirmed all my worst fears.  Ugly, fat, stupid, useless, whore.  I still am.  

———You were my friend, you gave me drugs, but they weren’t free.  I didn’t know that for a few years.  And then you snapped and wanted me to pay up.  You didn’t care that I had a boyfriend, and that I didn’t want to touch you.  I laid there and cried. 

——— who I’ve known since I was 15.  Who has been telling me he loved me for all these years.  Who forced me into his car, drove drunk, wouldn’t take me home.  Years later you invited me over.  We drank and talked all night, like old times.  Had sex.  I came over again and said I wanted more, not just sex.  You agreed.  And then you got what you really you wanted.  You knew I was uncomfortable, but you did it anyway.  And ghosted me.  


Did I ever trust anyone of you?  No, I don’t think I did.  I just didn’t value myself.  But SHE was important and she didn’t deserve to die.  I would be texting her right now.  It’s been almost 10 years and sometimes I still forget I can’t call her.  She’s the only one who knew me, and I led her right to you.  

I’m drunk.  I’m sorry.  ",0.8666625310173686,3.2288536756272417,1.7995770609319024,97.45064764267993,85.72043010752688,4.652484146677695,18.799669148056246,6.050645929021933,-0.3264265012406944,2133,57,478,17,65,664,255,558,0.22,0.642,0.13699999999999998,-0.9959,3,2,3,0,1,2,98.0,5,41,3,3,21,31,6,1,18,0,56,16,3,7,5,91,103,33,5,12,13,1,4,2,5,5,4,1,2,3,20,34,5,3,14,4,4,8,19,13,0,4,52,6,129,19,39,39,13,55,0,4,0,6,84,15,0,2,34,332,149,1,0.0,0.0920931640368786,0.07584982831821431,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.077831838066916,0.16100237594732086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05285666897950087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07708377838475207,0.05434815919330128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1460531654504719,0.05976686221285081,0.0,0.14214401486787265,0.0,0.06613950618180071,0.08757112162687364,0.1631382822694731,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0793674222545094,0.08889838188214008,0.07924732239771651,0.0,0.0,0.0669544766318854,0.0,0.0,0.08717685195980418,0.0,0.0,0.17075776808626436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16133562115239294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1802760710867671,0.0,0.0,0.08743182371147745,0.0,0.16062445444249007,0.0,0.0,0.07030804739366214,0.06548790827736234,0.0,0.06985554472409722,0.0,0.0,0.0874638946557222,0.03930084164405005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24020512994532325,0.0,0.04060887562580556,0.0,0.044173747472234216,0.0,0.06216496324130603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0696276553878645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07796599277645512,0.0,0.0,0.08968591745436373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08599282946913465,0.08094016379750235,0.08543287688450096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08445004351083367,0.2384417632717936,0.0,0.07594646003636578,0.0,0.1372678045034491,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14030235832265245,0.14709334172466473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05763319702550272,0.0599474499141513,0.07506871478711251,0.0,0.14588206462862113,0.0,0.07458064993914126,0.0,0.08156086147664075,0.0,0.1580084149796168,0.05911448742571448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0841701990307328,0.0,0.05388575172637326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04979357077401759,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1327559714895325,0.07393567778306838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12859228816724005,0.0,0.07778260905056697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0768734721449534,0.08700842623125862,0.11003039942320247,0.0,0.24828985628989034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08502014913810038,0.08820308377272085,0.0,0.0,0.11688127342394973,0.0624735971172912,0.06793636588650409,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09960797462299104,0.0,0.061706139748251176,0.1359687995047799,0.08933515004263423,0.07367561085314156,0.07427097863576533,0.08635697467419914,0.05277117504927373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09349538032226347,0.06713071932297217,0.0,0.0,0.22922544660353805,0.0,0.062347490593646526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07492554911036843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11042931682295057,0.0,0.0,0.2002132085174574
EDAnonymous,hce692,2019/01/26,"“Calories in a day” from r/infographics https://reddit.com/r/Infographics/comments/ajp1qs/how_much_people_eat_not_oc/ 
I feel like a terrible human for saying I’m jealous of those who are on UN refugee status but... b/p is a bitch. Also Madonna, you too ",9.927432432432433,14.372698432432433,7.4715540540540575,57.97057432432436,64.67567567567568,6.943243243243244,28.16891891891892,8.07648339933343,2.3080864864864874,210,7,27,3,4,61,34,37,0.258,0.677,0.065,-0.8126,0,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,1,0,0,2,4,2,0,3,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,4,2,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,2,2,1,5,4,0,3,0,0,0,0,4,2,1,0,2,17,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4873541123077488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3930264182009033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3081417955033056,0.4353708046839455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2977325367441436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4846363963526107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,CallMeFrida,2019/01/26,"I tried on wedding dresses today. Don't get me wrong, it was such a beautiful and enjoyable experience. My girlfriends came with and we had so much fun. I love my fiancé and I'm loving the engagement period. 

But I am 1.5kgs away from my goal weight. I've been steadily and healthily losing weight for the first time in my life, and I'm proud of myself for that. It's been hard to get back to recovery, but the ED mindset and the body dysmorphia, even though I've made an effort to get better, hasn't gone away completely. I'm okay with this, I've come so far from the worst of my eating disorder. 

When I used to weight 1.5kgs less than I do now, I was so, so beautiful. I've weighed even less, but that weight was the first goal weight. 

I looked at the pictures and... I want to cry. I don't look beautiful at all. I look fat. My stomach sticks out, my arms look thick, my hips and my legs are wrong- I look at them and I want to cry. I want to be beautiful. I want to pick a wedding dress and I just want to hurl my phone at the wall looking at pictures of myself in those wedding dresses. I just thought- maybe 1.5kgs away from goal weight I'd look moderately skinny, but I don't, and I just can't understand it. 

Maybe it's because I've had the flu and retaining water. Maybe because I'm ovulating and retaining water. Maybe because I couldn't go to the gym I lost muscle mass and went up in body fat. Maybe the flu meds upset my stomach and I have colitis again, like I used to constantly in recovery because of all the laxative abuse, so my stomach is bloated.

I don't know. All I know is that so close to my goal weight I look fat. I've been so good for the past few weeks, eating well, and eating at a calorie deficit, and I've barely lost any weight. I want to feel beautiful and delicate and tiny, but I don't. It's frustrating, and I'm going to go to bed now, and tomorrow is a new day, and I will have my engagement party and I will wear a lovely white dress, and I will force myself to be happy anyway, I will not let my ED get the best of me. Tomorrow is a new day and I will feel better. 

​

But today I feel like crap. Today I'm going to wallow in self-pity and rage and today my ED brain is going to win. But just today. Tomorrow is a new day. ",1.829158690954,3.459912094936712,3.4820716270453858,90.68921735103427,77.83966244725738,6.9872594422146745,22.53143974477719,7.8500785054351265,0.9126997633014304,1759,52,393,28,41,585,184,474,0.104,0.687,0.209,0.9942,0,0,0,0,1,0,68.0,1,0,1,15,22,28,3,1,22,1,35,35,15,4,3,69,83,43,0,7,12,0,13,2,1,5,6,0,1,0,10,34,18,2,7,1,0,9,9,10,1,2,15,22,56,18,49,59,9,57,0,3,9,3,10,22,1,0,28,240,66,4,0.0,0.0660355653726028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060387664266483884,0.06772279661956414,0.03790096752866609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1570915190477873,0.042855933749779584,0.0,0.13589948807887325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058489296226514234,0.09858422203275907,0.0,0.12381561133447508,0.0,0.062217471818389124,0.0,0.06374474120517623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04800982532039772,0.05843594044697225,0.060228552952960576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12244215816957665,0.10783127657279172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06387588525919001,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17108910060437846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07362343903675267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0545184549279848,0.0,0.0,0.08454221303151374,0.039816313846868616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0948144645732368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11647466298462385,0.0,0.1583743168921553,0.04674695638585459,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05932977969861236,0.04992663285263129,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06125979474672859,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056991695350981336,0.03936650631653977,0.05445754284803245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.374419555262161,0.06235198504686874,0.12168028513101113,0.0,0.1509060794876543,0.05273676979674618,0.0,0.0,0.2799610004740403,0.0,0.06190780566723754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.040970834007386873,0.0,0.0,0.16148446221621407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05320432005309467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05814261945720469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05475828003199807,0.044246496120003614,0.03249888900453268,0.0,0.26414613222056343,0.0,0.0,0.03783966395551257,0.0,0.0,0.05802096209291705,0.0,0.09627240090451844,0.0,0.0,0.19723981195638451,0.0,0.044706377872583185,0.5429510652546367,0.05011147519967833,0.05166588957907764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12187255472072955,0.06772279661956414,0.0
EDAnonymous,cerealslut,2019/01/27,"Did you know they make fruity lucky charms I do, because I just ate 4 fucking bowls

Why am I like this lmao",1.5217391304347814,3.1006274782608725,1.7210869565217382,103.2059782608696,78.56521739130434,4.6000000000000005,20.195652173913047,3.1291,-0.8100260869565221,84,2,21,0,2,25,21,23,0.0,0.539,0.461,0.9157,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,1,1,0,1,4,1,0,0,0,3,2,0,1,0,4,7,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,5,3,0,5,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,1,1,10,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3503872091397904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5313849424576554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3158900569415682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28081380915957965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38367740168466297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5186594012912029,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,daddysindanger,2019/01/27,"How do I explain to my boyfriend I have an ED? Back story: I was dating this guy for a while. I am completely and totally head over heels for this man. Besides having an ED, I have a lot of other mental health issues. Him and I split for a while because he couldn’t handle me being erratic every day. I completely understand this break because I was out of control. I was off meds for other issues, which was the cause behind a lot of the chaos, but had somehow gained a little bit more of a rational head with my ED while him and I were together. 

While we were apart, I completely went off the wall and emerged myself more into my ED than I ever have in the past few years. I have always restricted and would binge occasionally. But now it’s restrict, binge, purge, a never ending cycle. Him and I started hanging out again and i think he wants to get back together. I was at his house the other night and he ordered pizza. I felt so fucking nervous/stupid/scared because i was trying to slowly pick apart my one piece I would allow myself. He thinks it’s because I’m on a “diet” but idk how to tell him that it’s way more than that. He’s not judgmental, he’s very understanding and a great guy. But, I’m scared if i admit to him i have yet another issue he didn’t know about it’ll just scare him off even more. I cooked myself some eggs and turkey bacon a few minutes ago and ate one bite and threw it in the trash. I hate my liiiiifeeeee. ",2.766020408163264,4.34333616326531,4.278656462585038,86.20533163265307,75.12244897959185,6.940816326530613,23.1343537414966,7.6454224807358475,0.9917374149659856,1128,32,232,15,24,376,157,294,0.087,0.862,0.051,-0.8737,0,0,0,0,0,0,30.0,1,0,0,2,13,5,2,2,18,0,23,10,3,6,3,51,41,24,0,5,7,0,1,0,0,3,1,0,0,3,14,17,5,3,8,1,0,3,4,4,0,2,14,1,40,1,29,22,12,40,0,0,0,1,21,15,1,5,19,171,54,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09946390788502403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09336443602435532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11765784422270704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17255907824580727,0.0,0.2735991068808301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12249996357474975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11526653894788942,0.0,0.0,0.35293777795735043,0.0,0.12584864473042795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07236363035945344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09938127045337396,0.0,0.0,0.07411104872690917,0.10149681112842693,0.09453845049069537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10773542016533318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10373270047675492,0.05862303864666438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12370758451236853,0.0,0.22220329382803972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11078026064123422,0.2303115914975317,0.11926980176853595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12947073574348492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3513419443340486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061665519743092735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1124599562915318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1907871705367618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12463564490896215,0.0,0.11307732395106157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08654023582108368,0.0,0.0,0.1052977924257562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15206746924329978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10711338691931024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22467569428035766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07942003143760229,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09807304786216813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1437942335475272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07618055379936654,0.0,0.0,0.23362094491151256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09258175608772698,0.0661820452201774,0.08906395287841674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10401614785211802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15941594067979464,0.0,0.0,0.07225702804877124
EDAnonymous,candystarfish,2019/01/27,"Actually fearing food/eating I've gotten to the point where I'm afraid to eat. Not like ""I'm afraid if I eat I'll gain weight"", but like ""I'm afraid if I eat something bad will happen.""

I'll preface this by saying I'm going through a very rough time with several family emergencies and deaths. 

My eating before was ""I don't want to eat, so I'm not."" But now I've turned a corner and I'm afraid of I eat anything, more bad things will happen. More emergencies, more family members will die. If I just don't eat, these bad things won't happen. Wtf, brain?!

Two days ago I had dinner, then yesterday was an anxious mess all day.  Yesterday I also had a huge inner debate about whether I should buy food just in case I could eat but decided against it in case even having food in the house would make bad things happen. 

Now my brain has decided if i don't eat until this coming Thursday things will be ok. Seriously wtf? Even typing that out sounds insane but here I am with some hot tea and no plans for food anytime soon.

DAE have this problem? What should I do? I'm scared to eat but I'm scared my disorder is turning into something more than I can control. Advice or commiseration is definitely appreciated! I think I just want to talk to someone about this, idk. If anyone reads this far, thank you. Send me some good vibes, I think I'm fucking losing it.",2.2251809954751103,4.371593735294123,3.5436764705882347,88.28933257918554,78.55882352941177,6.3904977375565615,21.490950226244344,7.468242284971852,0.7389486425339369,1064,30,219,15,26,347,147,272,0.245,0.667,0.08800000000000001,-0.9937,0,0,2,0,0,0,38.0,0,1,0,4,14,21,1,7,6,1,25,19,2,2,1,41,50,19,2,12,17,0,3,2,0,8,0,2,0,0,14,8,16,1,4,1,1,3,7,16,0,1,5,5,21,5,22,35,7,26,0,1,0,1,4,11,1,8,14,127,35,2,0.0,0.0,0.06346103278798343,0.0,0.0,0.06354769839725864,0.057646200933802634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052005396374309946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07346670213605701,0.0,0.04547130018624455,0.0,0.05351510491882736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21719321407091552,0.0,0.0,0.055336728684148746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1451925667106566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05601858739893825,0.0,0.0,0.07293797735921564,0.05192209084182085,0.0,0.0,0.08387943857630313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06749207856389464,0.0,0.07453134514022522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7319742461309716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08590493772403847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12261118291621576,0.07317813645174231,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3145437545871671,0.0,0.0,0.0601202609292344,0.0,0.0,0.0369587077368556,0.054545052902384865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23002736546201216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07503722914590961,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06354188133793982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07275323541661184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04340880529141215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061475467567625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06222603892668448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06504875987822324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0517153898022704,0.13021507492344578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07346670213605701,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05510069212378962,0.1001283305499955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05226958429504618,0.0,0.05987195631767995,0.0,0.0,0.17281525634711825,0.08333868492061305,0.0,0.0,0.03792019325042872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1414704591363809,0.0635259954099869,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05365751887012865,0.07671412793035437,0.0,0.0,0.07919043523730301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04619627131030045,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,kalstl,2019/01/27,"I feel like an alien Tripped on acid yesterday and it was going great until I looked in the mirror and saw my puffy, swollen-from-crying (happy tears but I cry a lot on acid lol) face and just couldn’t get over how disgusting I looked. All my friend’s faces started to look plastic and weird and I had to get dressed up to go out toward the very end of the trip and all my flesh felt fucking disgusting. I’m so so fat now and so many people’s faces that I saw last night looked insanely weird and I feel like I know now what I look like to other people (disgusting). I can’t get over this feeling that I’m so awful and ugly and FAT (which I already knew - 210 lbs at 5’11 thanks to binging a fuckton this last year)  and it won’t stop haunting me. I want to hide in my room and I’ve been kind of seeing this guy (I can’t tell if we’re dating, all the things we do together are super casual) and now I want to die because I know he doesn’t like me because I look so abnormal. I’ve done acid many times before and usually liked the way I look and the rest of the trip was so incredibly positive but I feel like I can see myself in the real light and I’m disgusting. Fuck. ",2.3498673684210516,3.4237785720000042,3.7959789473684222,91.28293684210527,75.28,7.1831578947368415,22.757894736842108,7.669130373188453,0.7390399999999997,913,24,211,12,19,302,134,250,0.183,0.6709999999999999,0.146,-0.9253,0,0,0,0,0,1,20.0,1,0,0,1,11,21,6,0,11,2,13,8,6,1,3,40,46,27,1,4,4,0,5,6,1,1,2,0,1,1,11,18,2,1,8,1,0,5,5,8,0,0,9,20,27,13,22,35,5,33,0,0,11,2,5,12,2,2,21,119,38,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11071003618160813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12231316670253045,0.0,0.0853683405462829,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22040242116175007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1041204799059522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10266629067359097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08885729225254634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2029073288816295,0.21501447143962005,0.0963267794012879,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07751007876355676,0.18549585531276408,0.1572454584448954,0.0,0.11403289002641065,0.0,0.0,0.1106075716352338,0.0,0.09933653961698896,0.0,0.10679677072056483,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10447201477350032,0.11027090083916577,0.16355491116348034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2940794528695688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5897282890613629,0.0,0.0,0.08529188293268543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20342559277201688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09414728421602432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13910406864317598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1141906834208518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1598904888003645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07100984835435721,0.0,0.0,0.08387536186868329,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08768760387376175,0.09236486647545493,0.0,0.0,0.06665081224642379,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058499735130001486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11049271978469387,0.08277781236254893,0.1183473969928685,0.07963252687333516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06460537110604153
EDAnonymous,thinthrowaway44444,2019/01/27,"Making food less appetizing I binge sometimes. Food just tastes toogood. I wanted to know if there was a way I could make food way less appetizing so that even if it was right in front of me, I wouldnt be able to eat it.

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I was thinking of just putting  alot of hot sauce on everything.",3.070508474576272,4.912227915254243,3.612000000000002,90.18342372881357,74.9322033898305,6.753898305084746,25.359322033898305,7.554174236665415,1.06931593220339,233,8,50,3,5,73,42,59,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,0,5,0,0,0,2,0,6,5,0,2,0,12,11,3,0,5,4,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,0,5,0,2,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,3,2,6,0,7,5,3,7,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,3,0,33,9,0,0.18475481677508088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20018176678605298,0.2244973248041515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14751168755863547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1890503016514801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1220288140157648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1660457162580859,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6702187734244248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10153641554370657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24665054968406105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1857296204817609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15777960404275074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18272723795898735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1183834265169388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10897317776618624,0.29329954785440604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2244973248041515,0.0
EDAnonymous,itsonlyathrowawayman,2019/01/27,"anyone else find the last few kilos the hardest? for context, i've been in weight recovery for about 13 months now. i've already had to gain back around 12kg, but i'm still a couple of kilos away from not being underweight. it's these last few that i'm finding the hardest. i seem to have such a mental block about moving from being underweight to a ""healthy"" weight, to the point where i can feel myself tending back towards restricting and exercising. for the record i am perfectly healthy right now, there is nothing physically wrong with me, but CAMHS are insisting on me reaching this target weight dead on. does anyone else find that weight gain just doesn't get any fucking easier as it goes on, lmao",8.071055437100213,7.533259858208963,7.286162046908316,76.91992537313435,62.358208955223894,10.343710021321963,34.0682302771855,9.606745405546679,3.0232230277185503,567,20,104,9,7,175,90,134,0.086,0.713,0.202,0.9582,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,0,3,12,3,1,0,8,0,10,6,0,0,1,15,17,4,1,0,4,0,5,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,6,3,4,2,5,1,0,1,2,2,0,0,2,5,6,1,21,13,2,19,0,0,0,1,0,10,1,1,8,66,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14254750629068846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08784323342054265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18064392350738173,0.264709514218795,0.0,0.11499287987852325,0.0,0.0,0.12136389364084453,0.19865475935356386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14292936135027146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11304166054074835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2158177922694855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06531461540834071,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3541900383854739,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11941993930305295,0.06748845527755215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21058926120938568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13017772699182184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10310602233350777,0.13729227548838233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12394661956092172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1221118553393156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11031449783610668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11759580590137325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10315909147852524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6291999950268015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14123226885690648,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,sssscccarr,2019/01/27,"What's wrong with me? About a year ago I purged for the first time but I stopped after a week as I hated shoving my fingers in my throat. I never binged when I threw up. I'm 15 now and have recently started again.

If I feel I have eaten too much for dinner I will throw up, for example I went out to a restaurant and went to the bathrooms after I had finished. I just feel guilty for eating normal food, and I've always wanted to lose weight. I ate some candy last night and proceeded to throw it straight up. I hate how it feels but I feel like I have to do it.

I go to boarding school and only purge then, but never at home, as I feel too guilty. My mother was bulimic when she was in her twenties.",1.985450450450454,3.3331952027027083,3.4118918918918912,92.56801801801802,76.70270270270271,6.014414414414415,21.792792792792795,6.42735559955562,0.2414576576576577,542,14,122,4,12,178,92,148,0.177,0.785,0.038,-0.9705,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,0,2,9,5,2,0,5,0,8,8,2,1,2,24,24,15,0,3,5,1,7,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,4,7,6,1,5,0,0,6,2,4,0,1,8,7,23,1,23,15,2,35,0,1,0,0,3,8,0,2,22,86,27,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1489966077754878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13985961893414633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17199222133676878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4249424120137157,0.12007947156961606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1429724364603098,0.2032482265582055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09552619238309808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3318969341745223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16860227740433986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13701115446065246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08211750833240106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1880433594264888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12356131500004205,0.0,0.2592739788253114,0.0,0.0,0.15773574768267648,0.16468694561358949,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1278356992919039,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1659629878480307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17011030511734646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11897094660008875,0.0,0.0,0.1405260175764048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0980113185080994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09914048666627036,0.0,0.1348271025634775,0.204681419200061,0.0,0.3116316966301838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18377381725977188,0.0,0.1082407910178864
EDAnonymous,humsalot1991,2019/01/27,I keep fucking up & binging After almost 2 weeks on track I just binged on an almost full 155g tub of candy. I am so full of self loathing right now. I feel like a complete mess in control of absolutely nothing. I can’t believe I’m almost 30 and I’m still acting like a idiot teenager. My confidence is shot. Just after purging but that’s another thing I suck at barely got anything up. Sitting here with 2 herbal teas and a litre of water with little cuts in my mouth stinging. Will I ever be free from ED? I’ve even thought about if I drank boiling water to burn my entire mouth would it prevent me for gorging on food. What a mess 😓,2.017954545454547,3.9152391287878814,3.628787878787879,88.63818181818182,78.16666666666666,5.3090909090909095,25.393939393939394,5.985473137389443,0.7688212121212121,503,19,101,3,12,167,97,132,0.123,0.777,0.1,-0.6137,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,1,9,9,4,0,5,0,6,9,2,1,1,18,15,5,0,2,4,0,1,2,0,2,0,0,0,1,4,4,6,3,2,0,1,1,1,6,0,0,3,1,12,4,20,9,2,20,0,0,0,1,1,12,2,4,8,61,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5585755533512886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20146569601071826,0.0,0.0,0.1949740930726225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15301261260269358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20949048159558709,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19495434303002607,0.0,0.2085472968915605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12281148450110192,0.16819319468466964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0940167499304631,0.1328354305333302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22483914466880925,0.0,0.0,0.1718983492434751,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1487130442759649,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1652718379822306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18168158855254207,0.1863605281040538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17841425327442598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1587915735539556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19397576374440745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1484917647597715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12353014121613826,0.0,0.0,0.14761543181261225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14914969213699272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13208629930584506,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,brokenchalkboard,2019/01/27,"My ex-best friend gained a lot of weight And honestly it’s my motivator to keep losing. I know that’s terrible. But she would always comment on how I couldn’t fit into any of her clothes, she’d secretly eye my clothes and steal them for herself, she would parade her skinny body. And now she looks like she’s 180+. I’m under 130. It feels good, man. I know it’s terrible but still. ",-0.1311363636363616,2.180386250000001,1.8488636363636388,94.76068181818184,92.75,5.40909090909091,18.522727272727273,6.980632752743323,0.2708750000000002,300,9,67,5,11,99,57,80,0.105,0.747,0.149,0.3291,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,1,3,3,8,0,0,1,0,4,4,3,2,0,17,10,6,0,3,2,0,2,1,1,2,0,0,0,1,4,4,2,1,5,0,0,0,1,4,0,0,0,4,15,4,7,6,1,6,0,1,2,0,13,4,0,1,3,39,19,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2215805196125568,0.0,0.0,0.18109115955047267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27946237696806703,0.0,0.0,0.29579604544464605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13464781496901918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20574047869267245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22335737289468924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2366970978754348,0.0,0.0,0.29269984350975936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13009931175452016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22362249515633725,0.2979183384664531,0.0,0.2263962713378211,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2126652078548228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3242781266459762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37833963845868296,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,kitt_3n,2019/01/27,"I cannot tolerate myself I'm back at a BMI of 20.

I cannot do this. 

I cannot sit comfortably. I feel warm, chubby, slovenly, etc... there is no way I will be able to maintain this weight. I physically cannot even look at myself. I feel uncomfortable even using my computer because I'm afraid of glimpsing my appearance in the reflection of the screen. 

I don't know what the alternative is ... I can't function if I don't eat enough but everything just hurts so bad right now. ",1.62125,3.901610291666668,3.641500000000004,86.05350000000004,81.5,7.5900000000000025,24.18333333333333,8.548686976883017,1.7787658333333334,372,14,78,9,10,126,63,96,0.17600000000000002,0.8079999999999999,0.016,-0.9325,0,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,0,0,7,5,0,1,4,0,12,2,0,1,0,9,20,3,0,1,3,0,4,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,0,2,0,4,0,0,1,8,3,0,0,0,6,14,2,7,18,2,9,0,1,2,0,0,4,0,2,2,52,17,1,0.2553608766385336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19635675164881236,0.21321566556223254,0.1556656202248848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2612979277139609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2638560478327108,0.2847948790512025,0.3373269013079309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22950189015833555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2582362639285676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2733690999408234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1403396595366735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21443882209616144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21807679338118252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22054980793809734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2026935778052433,0.0,0.31096075312503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,BasketCaseSensitive,2019/01/27,"Yesterday would have been my Granny's 67th birthday, may she rest in peace. She had an ED, and it contributed to her untimely end at 55. I don't think she ever sought treatment, but it was definitely there. I think drunkorexic, and my mom caught her purging a few months before she died. Her safe foods were Mr. Goodbars and pink wine, and she would have huge dinners on the weekend. 

She just collapsed one day. They found cancer, and she gave in after that. Checked into hospice and very quickly withered away because she had no body fat to sustain on. 

The last time I saw her was in the hospice. It didn't even look like the end because she had always been so thin. She was smiling. I think she was glad to finally have a physical ailment; almost a validation of the internal demons she suffered for so long. I don't remember what she said. 

When I would stay with her on the weekends, she would just spoil me to death. New computers, video games, a puppy, CDs, SNACKSNACKSNACKS, and so on. Mostly she left me alone, which was fine by me. I liked the quiet. 

She would pass out drunk with her eyes open -- I remember this vividly. I used to sneak and steal her candy and I feel so bad for that now. 

I'm so like her in many ways. My food hoarding habits definitely come from her. My inability to portion meals comes from her. I'm not saying this to tarnish her memory. It's important to remember how disordered she was so I can model healthier habits. 

Rest well, Beverly. I will always love you. My mother's mother. You were imperfect, but you were mine. I carry your memory with me. ❤️",2.24561938604284,4.768039648208472,3.29746520580397,87.99112131082819,80.85667752442997,6.717954792221893,23.63527786003356,7.898369717300924,1.3794243213897932,1240,44,245,23,33,397,176,307,0.154,0.73,0.116,-0.9466,0,1,1,0,0,0,48.0,0,4,1,0,16,11,0,0,12,0,28,11,3,2,1,42,44,19,2,5,5,3,2,3,0,7,2,3,0,1,10,17,7,1,8,6,1,4,5,3,1,1,20,10,56,8,30,17,5,39,1,1,5,1,42,16,0,3,20,170,66,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11719515968059932,0.12121452882739175,0.0,0.0,0.1947675051755845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10995965450609638,0.0,0.09772059790247786,0.1426887413842099,0.0,0.09958945054731964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13000117950980908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2016331818723984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07547886727919775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12146542053180995,0.0,0.1341339809484232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2073192205898866,0.0,0.0,0.07730151158799306,0.10586622448832876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059177176415858165,0.0,0.0,0.12820777688562046,0.0,0.0,0.2830420268536769,0.12832449322205167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09540037695974582,0.0,0.0,0.1271605114320523,0.0,0.0,0.17153438230803209,0.0,0.0,0.1035736291367538,0.09828119267635936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10563002041048576,0.0,0.0,0.11865665234785963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13707174694494084,0.09341742632979254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1130345914345386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07930696864905884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39773865550780096,0.0,0.11132852286528784,0.09307213089240453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12474534831310798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22497681118682086,0.0,0.0,0.0682449306321236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10108196807282407,0.0,0.0965673784677348,0.0,0.09289813467453452,0.0,0.0,0.10522987873211467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4156968966658117,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,minicemilo,2019/01/27,Shit. Okay. I’m chinese and i have to celebrate chinese new year which is coming up reallllllly soon. Why are all the activities my friends are planning related to food. shit. What the hell do i tell them. They won’t understand. Shit. I’m so stressed out. ,0.1178849721706854,1.6765423469387777,2.763599257884973,83.18302411873842,115.32653061224492,5.863450834879407,24.86270871985157,6.980632752743323,1.8218408163265307,201,10,40,5,11,69,39,49,0.28800000000000003,0.573,0.139,-0.8858,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,2,1,2,7,4,1,2,1,6,4,3,0,1,5,10,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,2,3,1,0,1,0,0,1,1,5,0,0,0,0,5,2,4,9,1,6,1,0,0,0,4,2,4,0,3,23,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20529744420150656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2881857250630852,0.0,0.1841307024659099,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2301775185252772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7339171378670241,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2730025560110224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2083081369079916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2481066146001485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2150528769590036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15347465200124838
EDAnonymous,4gotmyfuckinpassword,2019/01/27,"Anyone else get weird salt cravings???? Idk randomly at some point I shifted from being someone who always craves sweet so someone who NEEDS SALT. I’ve had like an entire baggie of soup mix because 1 cup wasn’t enough I needed that savory saltiness. 

Anyone else??? Is this from restricting or just tastes changing?? ",5.28089285714286,7.911806732142857,4.5815714285714275,82.16342857142858,70.96428571428572,5.908571428571428,27.271428571428572,6.742157984588678,1.495854285714286,251,9,39,2,5,75,48,56,0.115,0.7909999999999999,0.095,0.4137,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,1,0,4,1,0,0,0,7,7,2,0,2,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,4,2,2,4,4,2,2,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,3,1,20,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19255527689730906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3236205874697532,0.4742226964352823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1410680394688821,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24480569719142534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.386633988924748,0.0,0.0,0.23911288385961674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12090444627358367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11305736191450523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3431816156425055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21876135988773512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3921532545155822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,kitty_do_the_dishes,2019/01/27,"Just binged on food that’s been sitting in my trash can for the past 48 hours And after restricting all day, it was the best fucking food I’ve ever had :’) 

didn’t even mind having to dig through the trash can like a sad raccoon ",1.2080851063829776,3.4450881063829826,1.884510638297872,98.294,82.82978723404256,4.611063829787233,20.038297872340426,5.6839178017228535,-0.29480936170212724,179,5,40,1,5,55,42,47,0.109,0.763,0.128,0.25,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,1,3,4,1,0,4,0,7,3,0,0,2,6,8,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,2,1,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,4,0,1,2,6,4,2,8,0,1,0,1,0,2,1,0,6,26,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2954769841676241,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18158114650175386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1859659214087716,0.2546846701778843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6809203370018713,0.0,0.0,0.26029515916667256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.277277195562364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13755466011763606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2842925797501658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2687782730894103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,yellowposy2,2019/01/27,"I ate dinner! I haven’t eaten much today 

The boy I like made me a PB&J and I ate it 


Total win ",-3.7713043478260886,-3.0593942173913025,0.569217391304349,99.17469565217392,121.6086956521739,1.84,8.947826086956521,3.1291,-2.101097391304348,75,1,18,0,5,28,19,23,0.0,0.695,0.305,0.7644,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,2,0,1,4,0,1,1,3,5,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,4,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,4,0,5,2,0,1,2,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,12,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5597505328685771,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2523912706193034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4888322036306994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37977037936923896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4896892107406658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,pandatopixie,2019/01/28,"Just got judged for being ""unhealthy"" Gotta love when you're drinking Gatorade because even though its calorific your brain somehow allows it and then someone comments on how many preservatives and calories it has. The person in question was eating Cheetos while lecturing me. 

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yay i lost another safe food :))))))",7.153396226415095,10.47437641509434,5.0194716981132075,77.9552452830189,67.86792452830188,6.504150943396226,38.90188679245283,7.554174236665415,3.5039237735849063,262,15,35,3,5,74,50,53,0.038,0.7859999999999999,0.17600000000000002,0.8481,0,0,1,0,0,0,15.0,0,1,0,1,6,4,0,0,1,1,3,5,1,2,0,8,7,7,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,3,2,3,1,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,3,0,3,3,3,2,0,5,0,1,0,1,5,2,0,2,3,23,6,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2545104001289463,0.2854251157891341,0.0,0.2463095972430541,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14319080522654776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2622223237122011,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2301092710140448,0.0,0.2403578941794437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15514700854651914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.284037937015661,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1878682929775594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2564174192914277,0.0,0.2120033792707896,0.0,0.0,0.2381483140204747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20510267665881005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26313798387049786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19902715206687246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2307847460338308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2854251157891341,0.0
EDAnonymous,aenema_onodi,2019/01/28,"Fullness and stomach pain I just binged and now my stomach hurts so badly 
I dont know how many calories I ate, i was supposed to only eat minestrone soup and then i had so many high fat things and I feel disgusting ",1.2747727272727258,3.6882442045454593,2.323818181818183,94.07572727272728,84.22727272727272,4.42909090909091,24.70909090909091,5.6839178017228535,0.4984054545454546,171,7,35,1,5,54,33,44,0.295,0.705,0.0,-0.9299,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,0,5,4,1,0,0,0,3,6,3,1,0,8,6,8,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,4,3,0,2,0,0,0,1,4,0,0,3,1,7,0,1,3,1,4,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,2,23,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2390348010966252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3355221813387032,0.0,0.0,0.2929395361891765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14475356166098402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3024742822024609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30647245481709506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15733394877369153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5804931590997323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21773153557720604,0.30462587521519546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19019406570367334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,cautionmindthegap,2019/01/28,Dizziness/ Blacking Out Today I was cleaning my room and blacked out and fell when I went from crouching down to standing. I know this is pretty common here and I was wondering if there are any specific foods/nutrients that can combat it. ,4.729772727272729,7.30060788636364,4.522727272727273,82.22909090909094,72.4090909090909,7.127272727272729,31.45454545454545,8.07648339933343,2.558290909090909,193,9,32,3,4,59,37,44,0.056,0.8690000000000001,0.075,0.2023,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,5,0,0,0,0,8,8,5,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,3,5,0,0,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,3,2,5,0,5,5,0,10,0,0,2,0,0,4,0,2,3,25,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3125685722374528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2526041922948539,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4676155487870307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4356816450544725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4260876276283956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4984561625276019,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,thisideofiveam,2019/01/28,"i feel like a shitty person for this but i just need to get it off my chest one of my closest friends was one of the smart people who noticed that she hated herself and wanted to not eat to lose weight and she went to a therapist and talked about it and all that. she'll still get insecure about weight sometimes, but she's always been eating normally (except for a day or two before she told someone). after she told me this, i just felt like i could never talk about my own eating stuff because she has this pretentious air about it, like she knows exactly what it's like to have an eating disorder. and sometimes she'll say she wishes she had let it get worse because it's ""easier to explain recovering from a disorder than what? some bad thoughts?"" and i know i'm an awful person for thinking this, but it annoys the hell out of me. like, i understand what she means, but eating disorders aren't easy to recover from whatsoever. 

and even though that annoyed me, i didn't mention anything, but she's also clued in on people's eating habits because a surprising number of our friends have tried to not eat to lose weight for a bunch of young teenagers. and i used to always go to her house every wednesday and eat dinner with her family and all that but i've been avoiding it because i know i'll feel too guilty to throw out her mom's cooking but eating it will be awful, and then what if she suspects something? so i've barely even been hanging out with her and now i'm going to her house this week and i'm fucking terrified.

sorry for the convoluted rant, i just have no clue what to do lol.",6.152991988854057,5.901641228840128,6.413829676071058,80.64380964820623,66.17868338557994,9.220550330895158,30.57488679902473,8.680891452615391,2.2236414489724825,1268,41,250,17,18,408,159,319,0.205,0.6729999999999999,0.122,-0.9889,0,1,1,0,0,0,25.0,1,0,0,2,15,19,5,2,11,3,18,16,1,1,4,57,46,26,0,6,15,1,6,5,2,3,0,1,0,2,25,18,14,1,12,1,0,5,6,10,0,3,11,7,37,9,41,29,5,22,1,2,0,1,34,8,2,3,14,176,62,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057240802361376665,0.11911705526482552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058902493925036985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05976453746926377,0.1745328377832708,0.0,0.06090750135113281,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05714911042451501,0.0,0.0,0.04616180916276219,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24610334471020304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6591783382937949,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09455302535790552,0.0,0.06030744848506081,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06747725214982397,0.0,0.07238385055237385,0.05113524961720324,0.06872598681186004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1106017803979277,0.06617259387844371,0.11218945936403099,0.0,0.08135871400231412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0706683347051514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16518251961283456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11801198779676696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0731932287626678,0.0,0.17484667577362167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16015467085989474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0779692918060447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08383114442713248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053074088821467816,0.05520527136393761,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07013112201916565,0.0,0.0814918873579078,0.0,0.0,0.0970060437847612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09924617480691114,0.1249980825848792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05692160070095405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060647702887059375,0.05510414667869104,0.1415847011516814,0.08012557311319257,0.0,0.0,0.05716218501798517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08193954428628028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11506317239116536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0831074320393936,0.0,0.04586421338146325,0.07032490071315707,0.05682483899651448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13679145771586015,0.0,0.048596679974894204,0.0,0.06992118513818422,0.07451509426669177,0.0,0.06182030398938071,0.0,0.0,0.04221848636227269,0.0,0.05741545540322144,0.2614877129117933,0.0,0.06635340906950311,0.0,0.0,0.08231102605227072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07294397171280484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Beat0e,2019/01/28,"I'm never telling anyone about my ed ever again I'm so, I can't even describe right now. I was talking to a friend and the thing I said was kinda of stupid (it doesn't even matter anymore) but she said I don't have an ed and I don't eat because I think I'm fat then said again that i legitimately don't then had to say that they're a ""serious thing"". I don't even wanna go to school tomorrow and I don't ever wanna even look at her. I'm in tears right now and I feel stupid. I feel this would never happen if I weren't so fat and disgusting this would never happen. I feel she might be right because I am so fat. I'm never talking about it again and I'm never talking to anyone again.
I feel as if I repeated a lot of the same things, I'm sorry if I did as I'm obviously super upset.",0.09766377005347593,1.7537710056818203,2.9294652406417114,92.49949197860964,83.26136363636363,5.504812834224597,18.307486631016047,6.522977012572876,-0.14665868983957253,611,14,145,6,17,216,79,176,0.133,0.82,0.047,-0.8879,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,0,1,17,7,3,1,6,0,18,4,3,0,8,32,38,17,0,7,4,0,4,0,1,3,3,4,0,0,9,6,4,0,5,0,0,1,13,5,0,0,8,9,21,2,14,26,2,23,0,0,1,0,12,5,0,6,17,102,30,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1169700655061776,0.16494022151457272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14379674581610846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12068750838970978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3116070884132048,0.21337659055059696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2385467924837365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09112426237198497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06703104393365683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20859731555023392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0990443642903304,0.0,0.0,0.10027289408732896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12512134675876474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4548335129855047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3021739788874675,0.3365790282241739,0.0937948531794934,0.0,0.11936696157802842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13203013045184264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28439994381470035,0.1030894091404312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2350728911388219,0.07557459922653229,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16756994393956778,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,paprikashi,2019/01/28,"Anyone else just not believe the calorie count? Like, ‘well it says 360, so it must be 500’? I don’t understand how I even feel so full and like I overate today when I logically know I didn’t.  I totally didn’t.",0.3113636363636374,2.4855474090909127,2.860181818181818,90.23027272727276,86.27272727272728,6.247272727272727,22.43636363636364,7.554174236665415,1.00886,162,6,36,3,5,56,33,44,0.0,0.8540000000000001,0.146,0.6832,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,7,3,0,0,1,0,5,0,0,1,2,10,8,5,0,1,2,0,1,2,0,1,0,1,0,0,2,1,0,0,4,0,0,0,4,0,1,0,2,2,6,3,1,4,2,4,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,4,26,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23467458295535015,0.3438842206672432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3781308649962851,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28036896792222465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22167504944462246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16970047853522294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18444897721593104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3279357406122793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2668999453394233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3181302459471844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3493941551508173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30176432636042283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,okokokstop,2019/01/28,"Work food rant I AM SO SICK OF THE ENDLESS FOOD AT WORK! 

We've always had a snack cabinet, with some healthy, some unhealthy stuff. There is more and more unhealthy stuff lately. On top of that, this new girl has started bringing in baked goods multiple times a week. And other people are baking too. It's like a daily office bake off. And then there are all these leftovers from events. And then just random things-- like someone brought in a huge ziplock of candy. 

I am so sick of it. I am super depressed and I cannot control myself. I have no shame anymore. I just go back and back for more food all day. I work in an open office and I don't even care that the guy who sits next to me must have noticed my problem by now. It's disgusting and rude and selfish but I can't stop. 

It just makes me so mad. Without all that crap I have a chance of not piling on the pounds. Yes I sometimes binge and make bad decisions but not nearly as bad as when I am confronted daily with an endless array of junk. I want to quit and I want to die. I'm so sick of this battle. 

If I posted this in one of the diet subs they would just yell at me for not taking ownership of my decisions. Thanks in advance for understanding. ",1.6840456989247308,3.740988237903232,2.85693548387097,92.98456989247313,79.92741935483872,5.423655913978496,22.026881720430108,6.42735559955562,0.3301123655913982,945,29,202,8,24,303,144,248,0.21600000000000005,0.68,0.104,-0.9872,0,0,0,0,0,1,26.0,0,0,1,8,16,18,6,1,11,1,17,12,1,3,4,43,30,23,1,6,11,0,0,2,0,2,3,1,3,2,16,14,8,2,3,0,0,4,8,12,0,1,2,1,22,6,33,26,8,35,0,1,0,0,4,14,1,4,17,144,38,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10935841758529384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13034101365422096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20211965648264288,0.21947336528174416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13399935170723845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1474073986735514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08476002687760678,0.0,0.11319852965938867,0.0,0.13640125614091553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08680679024556187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4767688758802133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0746934198489615,0.11023536228943573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1301341368834253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14825622811873593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12841792128015106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17545808916581587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12693374123714887,0.13977490458174105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14963136601533186,0.0,0.0,0.08905884569532177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09111545449262123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1258714558123912,0.0,0.0,0.12575860834153993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13978959132809587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11135830722421083,0.0,0.12998540668933728,0.0,0.09302523886423752,0.0,0.0,0.10987948507821103,0.0,0.0,0.3009066629757016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09881731263375176,0.0,0.0,0.12100101557272755,0.0,0.0,0.08731475807099894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0766365787292812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13682092420951106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1550389858500071,0.0,0.10542341453750513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12669166229630904,0.0,0.28704290485096684,0.0,0.0,0.09336250371643474,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,lemoncaketeaa,2019/01/28,"I can't stop drinking my restricts are fine 
I am okay at not eating, like I trip up sometimes but mostly when I'm high and crave some some dang mcdonalds, but that's every so often and not a hugeeee issue

what is a hugeeee issue is every night I'm tracking like four hundred calories of vodka because I can't stand being myself and need a substance to feel okay 
I do love weed but I'm in a illegal state and it's harder to get 
I wish my vice didnt have calories lmao kill me ",2.4458823529411755,3.726306676470593,3.958970588235297,89.38786764705885,75.37254901960785,5.8843137254901965,25.495098039215684,5.985473137389443,0.7245450980392154,379,13,80,2,8,126,70,102,0.197,0.657,0.146,-0.8198,0,0,2,0,0,1,2.0,0,0,0,0,3,7,1,0,4,2,10,3,0,0,0,18,18,9,1,2,5,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,4,2,2,1,2,0,1,5,1,0,1,1,1,10,6,6,16,3,10,0,0,0,1,1,4,1,4,5,49,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1411800195857786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2268779153607901,0.0,0.2369826201770601,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.390262685987465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11710293109847933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1210004204862969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2446960518372089,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4834563791563989,0.0,0.0,0.25622892444625056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22629421418913545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20902627923871853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17172701697812864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2173390778425688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2290563900240091,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19362633722310446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2663263238661205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,_Spicy_Lemon_,2019/01/28,"Tried on clothing aka make way for the panic attacks & self dread :) All I needed was a new sports bra because my other one is too baggy & I'm tired of my micro tits popping out on the treadmill. Dumb ass me thinks it's a good time to try on pants. Well I haven't been going to the gym as frequently or meeting all my daily cardio goals & on top of that I've been eating meals semi regularly with my SO & IT REALLY FUCKING SHOWS..... I haven't been this repulsed by my saggy & fat drippy skin in forever. I'm still at my lowest weight but I'm parked in my car trying not to cry (cause my skin is already so shitty for some fucking reason)......

All I want to do is go to the gym to lift & cardio & start a huge fucking fast. But it is impossible to date without getting called out. Maybe I'm just & pathetic idk. I can't admit I have a problem (I'm not even underweight) but it's wrecking me mentally again. I'm so tired of being torn between being healthy & fasting/exercising till my brain feels so mushy & cold. Also extra facial hair is making me so self conscious..... 


I'm sorry guys. Idk why I wrote this.... I'm the worst at articulating. ",1.1652301255230135,3.3443981087866135,3.2957221757322195,88.46130711297073,82.55648535564853,5.4976401673640165,21.275481171548115,6.742157984588678,0.5076997824267786,904,28,186,10,25,307,143,239,0.187,0.7290000000000001,0.084,-0.9767,1,0,0,0,0,0,57.0,0,0,0,2,12,11,5,2,9,0,16,18,8,4,3,27,39,12,0,3,8,0,5,0,0,0,5,0,0,3,8,3,4,0,5,4,0,3,6,9,1,1,5,6,19,2,28,32,6,25,0,0,0,5,7,12,6,2,9,105,27,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08473613960273467,0.061406373592906835,0.0,0.8319846216253485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0873560665683762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0468085185698818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08571946005541747,0.07840790472740898,0.0,0.0,0.07888119212579668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08434669056428945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07857206288710962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05071695503856928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03882571160560253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21296446871890187,0.040117932026883414,0.0,0.08727941225428358,0.06440512196198321,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07603100115358931,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1025115661367392,0.0,0.07714265814997735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07738303064419341,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056936436804268985,0.0,0.07416116675885276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05203272071388956,0.0,0.0,0.09009276130872396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0734745941755059,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04919158821571582,0.07894961584881657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16021075110950198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08595653229791905,0.05435008993632171,0.0,0.06132203504837176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04920187882179775,0.0,0.0,0.044774998669202,0.1765102540659539,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.156399583660982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.045290842181451366,0.06094978510338912,0.0,0.09350563191878464,0.06904055197285074,0.0,0.06928814061559317,0.0,0.0,0.07401973189271352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,poutineitin,2019/01/28,"Praise Thread - Share the good things that have happened to you this past week Having an ED really sucks but I was wondering if we could also start a positive thread where everyone can share the amazing things (can be related to ED or not) about their week. 
Maybe we could make this a weekly thread?

For example: 
Maybe you've started recovery for first time or maybe the nth time, found a really nice flower when you were walking your dog, gotten a new kitty, a new job or promotion, you went on a nice date, etc. 



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EDAnonymous,lowkeydeadinside,2019/01/28,"i have never hated myself more yesterday, i smoked weed with my roommate. i smoke fairly often, and while i don’t love it, i haven’t had any bad experiences until recently. i had a full blown panic attack on wednesday while i was high. since then, the couple times i’ve smoked have been bad, and yesterday my eating disorder completely took over my brain. i just couldn’t stop thinking about how fat i am and i legitimately heard a voice in my head screaming at me that i’ve always been disgusting and fat, even when i was underweight i was never skinny. it kept telling me that i have never been pretty, i’ve never been skinny, and i never will be either of those things. i just kept hearing this voice telling me over and over again that there is not a single person as ugly as me and no matter what weight i am, i’ll still be disgustingly fat and no one will ever want me. i came down in a few hours, but i can’t stop thinking about those things i was thinking. it was absolutely horrible. the worst part is, i legitimately don’t have any idea what i look like, and i frequently buy clothes too big for me because i think i’m a lot bigger than i am. even when i was underweight, i have no fucking clue what i looked like and i just remember thinking everything that i was hearing in my head yesterday when i was at my low weight.

anyways, sorry for this rant. but i am so horribly depressed today and i hate myself more than i ever have and i just needed to get it out somewhere to people who might understand what i’m saying since no one in my life would.",5.7884380546680845,5.622600284345051,6.497736954206605,79.4485365637203,66.92332268370608,9.511466098686547,29.209975150869717,9.150863307647796,2.221559602413916,1231,37,247,20,18,406,152,313,0.218,0.74,0.043,-0.9946,0,0,3,0,0,0,27.0,0,0,0,0,21,16,6,1,7,0,37,14,8,1,7,51,61,25,0,4,8,0,2,2,0,4,4,7,0,1,19,15,8,4,8,0,1,2,15,13,0,2,19,11,49,3,25,35,9,46,0,2,2,2,9,17,1,3,29,194,68,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08151246683724576,0.0,0.0,0.13323542307046546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11144623891477633,0.0,0.0,0.16358882840668187,0.0597168983072581,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10935830561354516,0.0,0.11204275400839478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10271158964588692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10839340258302396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08437477058123351,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11227326307793878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1002398715570558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12940632769526553,0.17722498637562406,0.0,0.0,0.08804218308518923,0.09582591001119233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09056455185295292,0.051181249489240965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1934349460298665,0.20107512842768732,0.0,0.22082122466700768,0.0,0.0,0.10350253022079982,0.0,0.0,0.0964731155029651,0.0,0.0,0.11058749320710656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06919365739045187,0.09571884616465047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1645272901459531,0.0,0.0,0.08328402962394016,0.0884147848786704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10392250113942868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07263779137855217,0.3777727581738594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13276355614127916,0.0,0.0,0.1149376316462803,0.0,0.10608360585619016,0.0,0.06791471225246706,0.08553688671002589,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09966285962626699,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09672593595112383,0.0,0.11097216974239056,0.0,0.0,0.07790353915556493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16207082519904967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10966075524086684,0.0,0.0,0.07823280554180932,0.1638017096680405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17124670596001268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13016357549455873,0.3138513761913692,0.0,0.0,0.05712259485940625,0.0,0.09285678961154607,0.0,0.10883970062760323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10198219116119372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05778069247720344,0.0,0.0,0.2385833383773363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06958959498561286,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,OodietcokeheadoO,2019/01/28,"My friends calorie counting is driving me nuts? I have a friend who's trying to lose weight eating around 950-1100 Cal's a day. I guess she kinda whirrs on the line of Ed/disordered eating. I don't wanna get better, I don't want my friends to know how bad my Ed effects me or burden them with it or anything it's just... Sometimes I do well and I'm low or fasted and feel great. But when ive binged that day or she's had less than me I cannot take it. I become completely fixated on getting to a lower number than her and start worrying about crazy things, ""aww I had more than that/she's going to think less of me/think I'm gross/not wanna be my friend,"" even though I know she's not like that. I crank up the behaviors up to 11 to compensate I freak out that I'm going to be bigger than her (she's not fat at all i just don't want to be the fat friend). She knows I purge and stuff but always wants to count Cal's with me when she diets and at first I liked it but lately it's been a fixation that I don't even wanna have right now. I don't want to get into my problems with her and I don't want to sound whiney but it's driving me nuts!!! I know it's my problem and not hers but I feel really guilty for even wanting her to stop? If that makes sense. What do I do? ",0.09799949161159204,1.8618628861209991,2.09759405185562,97.89857206405695,83.83985765124555,5.153075749872904,17.153152008134214,6.18269132825596,-0.5391638027452972,985,20,242,8,28,328,131,281,0.174,0.768,0.058,-0.9737,1,0,1,0,0,0,29.0,0,0,1,4,13,17,0,0,7,0,20,6,2,3,1,53,45,21,0,12,15,0,3,2,5,0,2,1,0,0,16,13,6,1,8,0,0,4,10,7,1,1,3,4,44,10,35,39,4,26,0,2,0,0,18,12,0,7,12,157,60,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09490562338694693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09386024348189596,0.10153604818721287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09523389698213816,0.0,0.12596840571653284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10087527705783164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11958793326511175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14711630557089198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13072066685668848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2334201838681912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22600324852129736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11534258372233624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0970179120522654,0.0,0.0,0.440605708940454,0.0,0.17877222627299155,0.0,0.1296438944563135,0.0,0.0,0.12574965292755672,0.125648051033419,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2507337843789524,0.0,0.12866270435590302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11144622556048724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12760203685775592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07613478549822933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21827673414568052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07306865280206674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09740514525653746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11280655230253007,0.0,0.08073103543441679,0.0,0.0,0.09535782666799213,0.0,0.0,0.1305694388304465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08575762949033568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0757752510376757,0.14616787671395928,0.1120616779346824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07743808302345126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40364716113138976,0.0,0.0,0.1388922537680684,0.10255208876861563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11583171669792575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,thetexangypsy,2019/01/28,"Jealousy Does anybody else get super fucking jealous of their SO's exes? I know shes with me now, and she loves me, but goddamn. Her ex is taller than me (who fucking isn't lol), yet pulls off the tiny and dainty stereotype so well! And she's been in IP and rehab for like.... ever, and she needs it. My brain sees pictures of her and I'm like ""must look like her!!!! Must lose weight so you can see the same on me!!!!""

Also, fuck Facebook memories for sending me on this self loathing trip.",2.455681818181816,3.9022902626262628,3.1817045454545467,94.29255681818184,75.66666666666666,5.354040404040403,24.49621212121212,5.148860815047168,0.2531909090909088,372,12,82,1,8,117,72,99,0.209,0.6679999999999999,0.123,-0.91,0,0,0,0,0,0,26.0,0,1,1,2,8,11,4,0,2,1,7,7,1,0,3,14,18,11,0,3,1,1,1,3,0,2,1,0,0,1,3,7,1,0,1,0,0,3,1,5,1,0,1,4,16,6,10,15,1,11,0,1,3,4,14,5,3,0,6,53,19,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1638415954510578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22871262826543326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17929092042550204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17115004519173574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1853247094533169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5682217706033411,0.10704077777100526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11259609442523337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3002804692066342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17204668973039414,0.22920710149172965,0.0,0.0,0.18491122108807564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15191512052402514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3265239412693412,0.0,0.21373339227139465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2494873255144102,0.1842107508423226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,liteandlil,2019/01/28,Almond butter rant Wtf. Justin’s vanilla almond butter is the best thing I’ve ever eaten. I was high and STARVING last night and my boyfriend had a jar of it and holy shit it was so good. I ate a few spoonfuls with some toast and logged the calories and wtf why is it so many?? I haven’t had a nut butter that isn’t powdered in soooo long and now I keep craving it but I can’t just eat 1 Tbs for 90 cal I end up eating hundred of calories. I guess I just have to keep it away from me at all costs now 🤷🏼‍♀️,-1.1859875776397502,0.7421470782608708,1.0553105590062124,102.12706521739132,91.2608695652174,3.2857142857142856,16.040372670807454,3.1291,-1.3015714285714282,394,9,99,0,14,131,78,115,0.109,0.843,0.048,-0.6658,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,1,7,3,1,0,5,0,10,5,1,0,2,16,15,9,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,7,7,4,2,0,0,1,0,3,1,0,0,6,3,10,2,10,9,4,12,0,0,0,0,0,5,1,2,7,60,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21203577805767088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2368394584623356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4618582948809738,0.0,0.0,0.19988736978820412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20414239550167293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18929145244475185,0.0,0.0,0.2486142956608329,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2384455475705376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40119327036877017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18396104686317752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1997215718702596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2288062445749326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2117873788136317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2316594501090121,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1499331705530707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20364300811453606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,fgsn,2019/01/28,"Is weight gain necessary for recovery from ednos? Hey everyone 
Please delete this if it isn't allowed
I struggle with restrictive eating followed by out of control binges. I will usually restrict for about 2 months and drop some weight, then binge just as long and gain it all back. I've never been underweight because of this. The lowest BMI I've ever had is a 21. 
I'm coming out of a binge cycle and I reallyyyyy want to normalize my relationship with food. BUT because of my binging, my BMI is overweight (like a 26 or something rn). I do actually want to get down to my LW and actually a little lower, but I want to do it the ""healthy"" way. 
Do you think it's possible to recover from ednos and lose weight at the same time? Thoughts, opinions, anecdotes?",5.193904109589042,6.296168253424658,6.02591780821918,77.8639452054795,68.52054794520548,9.401643835616436,33.09315068493151,9.642632912329526,3.201530958904109,599,27,111,13,10,197,95,146,0.08800000000000001,0.833,0.08,-0.4875,4,0,1,0,0,0,19.0,0,1,0,4,4,3,0,1,7,0,10,6,0,2,3,31,19,11,0,5,5,0,3,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,6,10,6,3,2,0,0,2,2,2,0,0,3,3,10,1,22,15,3,17,0,1,0,0,3,5,0,4,9,72,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.29803186862282505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11741905039184793,0.0,0.18617245551255346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13153996670597778,0.0,0.0,0.171269208291647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15625311726690802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1381284520252727,0.0,0.14591409788298496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1846488680235509,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07978092603358218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07460288935977538,0.15304835200904576,0.0,0.13513719916286146,0.0,0.17083540676062586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12188594193742837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1177738362315936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1496163513982588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16762185140518987,0.0,0.17214949666392965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1639456918485784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11755809882418758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1596381531258588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09784580751482133,0.0,0.1212289898503058,0.08904224810460283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16818059341563416,0.0,0.27020425636513445,0.12120839862427908,0.0,0.5578527252229942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ribcage666,2019/01/28,"I'm in recovery and my boyfriend never has food at his house. I'm recovering from bulimia and eating regularly helps stop my binges. I need to eat meals and snacks. 

I'm always at my boyfriends house and he has NO FOOD. his fridge is literally empty with basically condiments, some sad old vegetables, flour and oatmeal. I bring some of my own food and it isnt enough so I end up bingeing on sad ""cookie dough"" made of flour, melted butter, sugar and oats or I have to go buy something expensive when I'm starving. I eat out with him more than I ever have because he waits until he's starving and then FEASTS (he's like 6'2"" and rail thin, prob an 18.5 BMI).

This is making my eating disorder worse and idk what to do. It's so embarassing and triggering to have to ask for food when I'm starving. And we end up eating out constantly and it's making me poor and fat.

I've tried to explain to him but he doesnt get it because he doesnt have an ED

Omfg please help",2.8250824873096434,4.3903164416243685,4.1864942893401,86.97740640862945,74.93908629441624,7.361548223350255,24.495241116751266,8.07648339933343,1.2865941624365478,757,24,160,12,16,250,114,197,0.113,0.835,0.052000000000000005,-0.7065,0,0,1,0,0,0,21.0,1,0,0,0,5,3,0,0,2,0,12,14,1,4,2,33,27,22,0,1,2,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,6,19,14,2,1,0,3,2,5,2,0,0,1,3,17,1,23,26,5,22,0,2,0,0,15,9,0,3,12,89,23,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09482103666995914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.106534056637028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1389337956245337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12314662233122678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13060415919721316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.583030357533021,0.0,0.0,0.201863482311579,0.11774765092936935,0.0,0.0,0.10308028688120532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5511871887096788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059537630535997005,0.0,0.06476417324692035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15276544049533933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26298127861913234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055673448334637436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1078285091491562,0.15213385740385926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08449738975122473,0.08789037050550262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11957830306702907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12509014817051867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08772937345152601,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09527283691491872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07736906463466649,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11613153131186855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,RavenPotter01,2019/01/28,"im trying to leave my eating disorders but i’m overweight im crying, and it’s horrible, i’m 20lb overweight and trying to leave my eating desorders... But how???  i’m constantly surrounded by flawless skinny girls and it’s horrible... what am i supposed to do???Do i even have to leave them? i’m horrible, and i’m not even loosing weight because i binge like 2000calories every time after i restrict.",1.2911904761904758,3.94757403896104,3.4631493506493527,81.66234307359309,94.32467532467531,6.203030303030302,27.19588744588745,7.492282038375204,2.4012432900432903,319,16,53,7,12,108,44,77,0.321,0.5920000000000001,0.08800000000000001,-0.9613,0,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,1,0,3,2,0,0,0,0,2,6,1,1,0,9,7,7,0,0,3,0,1,1,0,0,2,0,0,1,3,4,6,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,7,2,6,7,0,4,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,4,28,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11249135464706164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19941771984243645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20270399003138995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21149409651686846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3776525325572762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2437684058445596,0.0,0.15547943095537378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3986608161094473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5861905300679111,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0901549056928039,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.107604350842664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2505754873940208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2247149775947325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,cdg2m4nrsvp,2019/01/28,"The only thing worse than dealing with an eating disorder? Getting through recovery, feeling like you’ve beaten it and then reverting back to all of your old ways. Goddamn, I feel so hopeless.

I was diagnosed with BED a little under a year ago. I started treatment and I’d largely gotten my binges under control. They still happened occasionally, but I was feeling so much more in control of them and I wasn’t dealing with the constant self hatred an eating disorder brings. I lost 50 pounds and regained my life, my self esteem and my joy. I really thought I’d reached the light at the end of the tunnel.

But I fucked up. I convinced myself that my eating disorder was just a phase and that I’d beaten it, it would never be a problem again. Now I’ve been out of control binging for two weeks in a row. Every morning I wake up to my stomach hurting so badly. So now I’m trying to restrict during the day and exercise like crazy to even things out. 

I feel like a failure. I knew eating disorders are a life long thing. I knew this wouldn’t be something that just went away and yet I convinced myself it would. And now I feel even worse than I did a year ago at this time, because at least then I didn’t have hope that things could get better. Now I know how much better things are when your eating disorder doesn’t control your life. And I’m overwhelmed thinking that this is going to be something that follows me for the rest of my life. I just needed to get all of this out.

Fuck this disease, I’m so exhausted.",3.6129,5.292819090000002,4.428333333333331,85.57750000000001,73.1,6.6000000000000005,28.166666666666664,7.1686216300943375,1.5248666666666666,1197,47,229,12,24,385,147,300,0.213,0.6659999999999999,0.121,-0.9884,0,0,2,0,0,1,28.0,0,3,2,9,20,20,4,1,17,0,19,16,2,5,3,47,47,21,0,7,5,0,5,3,0,3,7,0,1,2,20,16,5,5,10,1,0,4,5,11,0,1,13,6,34,9,33,27,7,43,0,4,0,2,9,14,2,1,27,166,54,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1369337016272541,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07256766905009883,0.0593912752777109,0.0644905264555159,0.04708358446765766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1366215167069293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0834668680629521,0.3465160606323901,0.06166827978275302,0.0,0.0,0.04981213778449516,0.15925802901145122,0.0,0.07839497173363869,0.0,0.0,0.4426073536497778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3951689214667531,0.0,0.0,0.06840996661487883,0.0,0.0,0.1020299769981335,0.0,0.06507636914266555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1952693364104387,0.11035772409160348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14281062305025324,0.121061043948797,0.0,0.043896150793866634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0683013323472293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07671478869321577,0.0,0.0,0.08268490556435472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04244799978576756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2182220111705659,0.11320379590090718,0.07741279438587853,0.0,0.0683532235097821,0.0,0.0,0.08431443067231502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11355767418800565,0.05727101846983364,0.059570728129719586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08104831668417219,0.0,0.0,0.058743000144426065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07390636078184339,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0494806580002119,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16115221466001978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11892321365386213,0.0,0.0,0.054669473175511685,0.0,0.061682388273369484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2565675660965095,0.0494910090780816,0.0,0.06131836600458662,0.04503811477676413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05243955041370391,0.0,0.07545032942443756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061307950836271274,0.061955686472788776,0.0,0.0,0.07160042500473103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1574242966385997,0.109735356873917,0.0,0.0,0.09947751430338024
EDAnonymous,racheneko,2019/01/28,"Scale recommendations? My scale definitely sucks. I decided to replace my old one with a new Taylor one a while ago, but alas it was a regretful decision. It says I weigh the same with and without a heavy robe on and even reverses the heavier weight when holding heavy objects. I get the same reading before and after peeing and everything. I've looked up how to fix it and nothing has helped. 

Which scales do you find reliable?",3.70525,6.376831025000001,4.535,80.36,76.25,8.0,28.75,8.841846274778883,2.670500000000001,342,15,61,8,8,110,59,80,0.11,0.867,0.024,-0.7757,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,1,0,0,3,2,1,0,7,0,3,3,1,1,0,17,6,9,0,1,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,4,7,2,1,3,1,0,0,1,2,0,2,1,3,6,0,8,5,2,8,0,1,1,0,3,2,1,0,6,42,10,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23816529604559786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22862371076958735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17745813768646085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2414689007316559,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24556523679197634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14037225815131638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18008803555631994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2256203929737899,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2594892089178612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2578021204728301,0.0,0.2819305416810752,0.0,0.3641239782484803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2687489704930689,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21366214811822715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3271753063819446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25899432968211217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,cratanoia,2019/01/28,"21 Year old male, really scared that i've redeveloped an eating disorder. Hello everyone,

im a 21 year old male and ive been suffering really severely with anxiety for the past 8 months, and since them I became obsessed with food and whether my food/diet was the source of my anxiety, prior to that I had been vegan for 3 years with no issues, healthy weight and BMI and never worried at all about food or got anxious about food. However, I became obsessed with the link between my anxiety and my diet around a few months ago and everytime I eat I cannot stop thinking about whether it is doing harm to my body and causing me anxiety. I have lost over a stone in 7 months, and now weight 51 kilos, i'm 5 ft 7 tall and im just really scared of what is happening to me. Part of me when I eat gets incredibly anxious straight away, because im scared the food is going to cause me to panic, but I know rationally that I am causing my own anxiety when I eat. I just dont know what to do, ive become obsessed with healthy eating to the extent where ive restricted my calories so bad. 

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For background knowledge I USED to have SEVERE bulimia when I was around 13-15 but somehow just overcame it and never suffered from it, but now I fear with the anxiety coming back into my life im clinging onto food and health as a way of controlling my anxiety - aka giving me orthorexia. Please if anyone has some advice for someone with quite bad health anxiety and now who is concerened might be developing orthorexia I would be so grateful, I just want to be healthy and well and I know based on previous experiences with bulimia that my relationship with food is becoming bad. 

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Thank you. ",5.288467453996155,6.196171344410878,6.3200233452348265,76.54875789618238,68.1842900302115,10.006097226036806,32.568113155726444,10.125756701596842,3.3627752265861033,1349,58,251,33,22,450,169,331,0.206,0.6940000000000001,0.1,-0.9854,1,0,0,0,0,0,33.0,0,1,1,3,21,17,0,8,11,0,26,18,1,5,3,60,41,28,0,3,11,0,2,0,0,2,3,0,0,2,10,28,14,3,6,0,0,2,5,15,1,0,7,2,37,2,41,29,6,36,0,3,0,0,8,12,0,5,21,168,47,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05829725870858018,0.05288335493122534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12927917225719496,0.14498237671992326,0.0,0.0,0.3651066028946226,0.13479346849410592,0.0,0.041714369168834635,0.0,0.0,0.10621681260912512,0.0,0.0,0.056050800545134255,0.045873438795642325,0.14943620276324293,0.03636705762348125,0.13177549041492284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06626676135047803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.183856076656112,0.0,0.051390218126703885,0.0,0.0,0.06691169378329817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06837341428758377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06991891346932398,0.0,0.0,0.3052259317228081,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057005923794467936,0.0,0.0583571231926491,0.0,0.06713201044466208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5049721456941502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.031168923741485905,0.05722953848427099,0.033905104367449763,0.0,0.047714076511619886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05275550953301926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12682765826561815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2577641796058687,0.06226761425166787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09835968554630263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04213831925011649,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06512392362262384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0632878748636305,0.0,0.0,0.1428557106923433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09202409404723146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12520239639631156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0699959909451409,0.0,0.06460396833118573,0.056950459506251126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06548673929475146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06345379141892563,0.0,0.0,0.11465562537900345,0.0,0.0,0.06405053213875372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17918466212058934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13479346849410592,0.0,0.04934984239111615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05054816122028049,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04987688898100684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05492521389242272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.038226536898930505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05152549138689203,0.0,0.0,0.03518792556892912,0.04735386666178247,0.0,0.14529512182846488,0.053639846093508935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06058575238230656,0.0,0.042379441708694884,0.0,0.14498237671992326,0.1152536877496049
EDAnonymous,jadewillowx,2019/01/28,"What’s the most triggering/worst thing someone has said to you? My personal favourites I heard in recovery.
 
“have you lost weight?! You look great.” 
“You’re so lucky you can eat ice cream without getting fat.”",2.69736842105263,5.682331894736844,1.9687368421052616,94.48415789473684,85.31578947368422,6.197894736842105,26.02105263157895,7.554174236665415,1.5588778947368418,164,7,32,3,5,47,34,38,0.056,0.753,0.191,0.7611,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,4,0,1,1,3,0,0,1,0,3,3,1,0,0,3,8,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,2,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,3,5,6,2,3,5,1,1,0,1,2,0,7,1,0,2,0,17,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3290387981818028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16800317637874562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3545238803721169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2700315801328587,0.0,0.351023542474298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28077604216860985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30587965127942485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2724589310669347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21363189009773464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3915765937568948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3099748527502821,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,lets-get-this-carb,2019/01/28,it’s opposite day on the day where i lose i’m bloated and on the days i gain i’m not so it literally never looks like i’m losing weight :) i hate my life :))),-3.2894047619047586,-2.117712083333334,0.8379365079365115,98.21500000000002,114.27777777777777,4.27936507936508,13.476190476190474,6.18269132825596,-0.6751142857142858,119,3,31,2,7,44,25,36,0.261,0.588,0.151,-0.5733,0,0,0,0,0,1,6.0,0,0,0,3,2,4,1,0,2,0,0,2,0,0,1,3,5,2,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,0,2,4,1,2,5,0,7,0,2,1,0,0,3,0,0,5,15,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5316207713657589,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2712830894085507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19408146800382509,0.13424101919080786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2307415101504964,0.6148051185209935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21192315666884806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3346015104551793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,diet-coke-addict,2019/01/28,"Why am I like this Me: *tries to restrict*
Also me: *eats 1000 calories in chocolate*

Fucking why??? I was going so well and then I eat two pieces of flatbread that wasn’t planned and suddenly everything’s ruined??? and I might as well binge on every food I’ve ever even slightly enjoyed??? 

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EDAnonymous,hahalolkms,2019/01/28,"hhhh screw this i planned on actually fucking eating at school today but my hair is so dirty and i cant cover it up hAhA guess im not eating today 


they even had fish fingers :-))) i was looking forward to eating fish fingers :-))) now i cant :-))) i might have some at home ill eat them frozen idc i want fish fingers :-))))))) haHa",-1.1135128205128204,0.7185257384615404,1.590192307692309,93.30939102564103,107.0,2.7820512820512824,17.724358974358974,4.7782277997778095,-0.5404102564102562,243,8,49,1,12,83,48,65,0.136,0.735,0.129,-0.1436,0,0,0,0,0,0,24.0,0,0,2,1,3,4,2,0,0,2,7,11,4,0,0,7,11,3,0,1,2,0,4,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,2,1,4,0,0,0,0,1,3,2,0,0,2,5,9,2,5,8,1,8,0,0,1,2,2,5,2,3,4,30,11,1,0.0,0.0,0.18065523517755405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7577161134483411,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1222732757856087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17114502238550602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2039359906964219,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18569540726962555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19996670095200603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15545832325640593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19638830447417904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18735632089814716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3509535908159216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1091914850251488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,linedryonly,2019/01/28,"I Hate That I Spend So Much Money On My ED I was going through my financial statements from last year and I hate myself for how much money I spent (and continue to spend) on my eating disorder. Even my accountant was like ""Wow you spent a lot this year!""

Like yeah no shit. I'm always either buying expensive binge foods or expensive low-cal diet foods or expensive specialized organic ortho foods. I know it's a waste of money, but I have no idea how to eat (and therefore grocery shop) like a normal human.",3.787803030303032,5.565278424242425,5.088775252525256,80.61982954545458,72.83838383838383,8.586363636363638,25.506313131313128,9.188382445141503,2.2120797979797984,400,13,74,9,8,133,66,99,0.154,0.7390000000000001,0.107,-0.5707,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,1,0,0,4,8,3,0,3,1,3,7,1,3,0,15,10,9,0,1,4,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,3,6,0,3,1,13,1,2,3,0,0,4,0,13,5,8,6,4,7,0,0,0,0,2,2,1,3,7,46,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14073251633313186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19384149987067076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34613133201579005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11171099852950986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6135502423451671,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09612239424251727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33396838247947314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19093099249571305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09295127924482942,0.1378662739102272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2478900701438464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1437911464849029,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2486649815566052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16571479630822536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17361297811256662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21783269546885226
EDAnonymous,throwawayfemcelite,2019/01/28,"my friend is being quite disrespectful, should i confront her i've told her in the past i struggle with ED. she was probably not trying to offend me, but on her finsta she posted about how she ""accidentally gave herself an eating disorder"" because she takes so much adderall (she likes druugs) she's lost weight. she's very understanding, but i don't want to sound like i'm easily offended and a wet blanket. should i tell her? should i comment something sarcastic like ""yea and i accidentally got bipolar haha"" ? sorry this is a dumb post",3.3684545454545467,6.227954500000003,4.829454545454548,76.6297272727273,79.0,7.636363636363638,26.09090909090909,8.575989854853784,2.3978000000000006,430,17,73,10,11,143,74,100,0.24,0.583,0.17600000000000002,-0.6789,0,0,1,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,0,2,3,11,4,1,4,2,8,3,0,1,0,12,16,6,0,4,3,0,2,3,1,3,1,1,0,0,1,3,2,0,1,0,0,0,2,6,0,0,5,3,20,5,6,7,1,5,0,1,0,0,17,2,1,0,4,47,21,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12453573564032615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2341386409289039,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20904377987984835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15783704957676425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16339258678262514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29942321000392097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22301105082780456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15017960773910574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19502175411315756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3913143894715705,0.0,0.22026350181456966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2172918324968208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15727551400922665,0.0,0.2286904245181677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2135724619526364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15360367492743027,0.0,0.17856197414158706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1952116866066345,0.0,0.1387022262908751,0.0,0.0,0.21267727491680516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1685639581605836,0.12049790339799687,0.0,0.0,0.2487750737108793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,publius-esquire,2019/01/29,"I Miss Having My Own Bathroom And Other College Thoughts For the past 8 months, I've had my own bathroom. It was the best (not just for ED reasons). 

Now I'm back at my school, where they have dining services open 7 AM to 12 AM with UNLIMITED food (you can go in at any time and as many fucking times as you want), the food tastes awful bc this area knows fuck all about seasoning, there's 6 dessert options a day, unlimited cereal, and everything - from veggies to stir fry to pita bread - is  d r e n c h e d  in oil. Calorie counts? Sure, if you know how to measure 6 oz of something or the portions are in anyway uniform to each other (they never are). 

Also I'm stressed, because I just moved in fully a few days ago and keep getting reminders that I'm graduating this semester, and my ADHD meds won't be here until Thursday at the earliest. Tonight I had way too many vegan nuggets and cake and brownies and I feel disgustingly full and all I want to do is purge but I share a bathroom with 20 people and someone is always in the handicapped section of the bathroom. UGH. ",4.021249999999998,4.928946402777778,5.2130370370370365,83.3356666666667,71.08333333333333,7.797037037037038,31.06666666666667,8.021203637495839,2.1212911111111112,837,36,169,11,15,278,147,216,0.08199999999999999,0.877,0.04,-0.8176,0,0,1,0,0,0,25.0,0,3,2,1,12,9,3,1,10,1,16,8,0,2,4,34,31,18,0,3,6,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,6,14,6,1,5,0,0,2,3,6,0,0,4,3,15,3,25,25,10,30,0,1,0,2,6,13,2,3,14,107,21,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1915112860718031,0.0,0.14125678063689676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12743450129552497,0.13259442484428735,0.0,0.0,0.1083654744874029,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12253258684974305,0.0,0.0971400828826055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16723109596678812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20553894728509595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14321616166426598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08057364254572033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3853804537219,0.0,0.0,0.2946384799812221,0.08325534242986465,0.0,0.09056395715310513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14164022906879548,0.0,0.0,0.17515243429364225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32311777178291395,0.0,0.0,0.1770052105010269,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12719400911836684,0.16936697338459467,0.0,0.0,0.12290282342188888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15212042761105113,0.11047527524300628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16384137890743916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16127369886329554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13501924245119384,0.12267769076648502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1825382726360497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15018827511215022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12650844712137546,0.1858399801865729,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1879810042166135,0.12648695915853606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ffj_,2019/01/29,Slightly TMI question because I kinda need help K so I kinda just crapped myself. I haven't really been eating much (max 600 per day but usually under that because my appetite has been gone) and I've been super gassy and taking Pepto. But then I crapped myself when I thought it was a fart... so I made myself eat even though I don't eat past 6pm. Any advice?,1.3272945205479445,3.670699315068497,3.0016267123287683,89.79504280821921,83.24657534246576,4.745890410958904,21.453767123287676,5.985473137389443,0.31617945205479403,282,9,55,2,8,93,54,73,0.021,0.871,0.108,0.7711,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,1,6,3,2,0,1,0,7,5,2,1,0,11,12,9,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,3,0,2,0,0,1,2,2,0,0,7,0,11,1,1,5,1,7,0,0,0,0,2,1,2,3,5,34,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21043023977313535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14644031297852778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2625416297465206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13887812475368014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6610475424082607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14223171805499646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14433956668462722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2037623200165276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1583015460092188,0.15967376630640398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20556882286691205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.241232930509304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1379539465737719,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16191079188295182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21157295417291647,0.17095792436211155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23716938666096204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,milovsflo,2019/01/29,"I’m just so hangry I’m starving just so I can get to my goal weight and then binge on whatever food I want and hopefully not feel as fat as I do now. I used to be so scared of food and calories and now I’m literally addicted to junk food and carbs in general. I’m never not hungry. I could binge all day every day. But I won’t let myself. 

So now it’s 12:20 AM and I’m here almost crying because I’m craving sushi and I’m so damn hungry.",-1.081666666666667,0.8656791414141445,2.0497222222222256,95.06125000000002,90.91919191919192,5.3202020202020215,17.340909090909093,6.816661863887847,-0.08075151515151502,341,9,83,5,12,121,59,99,0.138,0.82,0.042,-0.878,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,1,11,3,1,1,0,0,7,6,1,1,2,21,19,16,0,3,5,0,2,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,1,7,5,0,1,0,0,0,4,2,0,0,0,2,8,1,8,15,1,9,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,2,7,48,9,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21107481043691284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19388285759150084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1180291959203028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15459013069717345,0.0,0.2126829126407624,0.2497382744431388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1631335339092065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09790028955950372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7023796520407696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10115866521281296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1923087404459597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19798997248634687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14933198525629482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1938477931530442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16722585535395862,0.0,0.0,0.11420232574225507,0.0,0.0,0.2357774799669721,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,cole-ck,2019/01/29,"i feel like a fraud hi y’all

this is just a vent but,,, god i get SO sad when i see people post things about losing so fast or whatever.. like i’ve been sitting between 188 and 184 for so long i might as well be maintaining and i’m just getting so discouraged and so mad at myself 

fallin into the Big Sad u know ",-0.41794117647058826,1.643691617647061,1.7808823529411768,97.43397058823533,88.70588235294119,5.1647058823529415,17.323529411764707,6.6274283507984215,-0.2448294117647061,242,6,58,3,8,81,53,68,0.265,0.617,0.118,-0.9247,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,1,0,1,10,8,1,0,3,0,4,0,0,0,0,12,10,12,0,0,4,0,1,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,4,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,5,1,0,1,2,6,3,6,7,0,8,0,4,1,0,2,3,0,2,5,35,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16355442440018303,0.2310845928719959,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3379958800206905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17776877566961327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31605886889091195,0.0,0.0,0.28625774872152004,0.0,0.3618763689358856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34314692956017284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2242510017164589,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3097915738951135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2577609887917175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21489682591263864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2908353065848536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Nahr_Fire,2019/01/29,anyone got tricks to get appetite? I want to eat food and weed costs too much money. what else can i do to force myself to eat?,0.16555555555555654,2.253401851851855,1.468148148148149,100.56666666666668,86.03703703703705,3.6,12.703703703703706,3.1291,-1.6753851851851855,98,1,23,0,3,31,22,27,0.071,0.879,0.05,-0.1431,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,0,2,5,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,3,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,3,0,4,4,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,13,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2379079704943626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6963133654450785,0.2842319407068742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4114269109251644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.177764533842467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2721258725248355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25012001827115626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20068595366090455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Waff3le,2019/01/29,Does anyone else actually not understand people eat so often? Discussion... So 26m with anorexia. I don’t get it.  I feel like I’m all alone in this especially because I’m a guy but it repulsed me watching someone eat when I was out the other day. I came home and SH because of what repulsive thoughts I had and how judgmental and how it hit me so hard that I shouldn’t judge people like that. Do other people get (almost borderline)” scared” of overweight or obese people? I just don’t understand at all how you lose all self control like that.?,3.442481827622018,5.33985403738318,4.7064797507788185,82.49488058151611,74.04672897196261,7.746209761163032,27.77673935617861,8.515128840125781,2.1142240913811,430,17,82,8,9,142,70,107,0.173,0.753,0.07400000000000001,-0.9009,0,1,0,0,1,0,13.0,0,1,0,2,9,5,0,1,2,0,6,4,0,4,3,24,16,12,0,1,4,0,2,3,0,1,2,0,1,2,10,6,4,1,4,0,0,1,4,2,0,0,4,3,10,3,6,10,3,6,0,1,1,0,4,3,0,3,5,52,20,0,0.0,0.0,0.1578955349562905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16202145714357494,0.16757820579886126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11313580874190655,0.16578539920606192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19726614870494094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18505852782079926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18147484287308768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1043489858578738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14159413102299034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3311279381423431,0.13516491446391374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0818120166282511,0.1155914713032686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16906986563001325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16020954345476693,0.0,0.0,0.1449429239193027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16230072514060612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2371450377943484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18101519186246287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4486928861414128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1619921549583109,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16879490538305827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13709441648095946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12845281474813913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3368834393131001,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,hera-fawcett,2019/01/29,"a no good very bad day missing all of your classes and sleeping 14 hours. check.

wanting to die. check.

being too afraid to call your psych or therapist bc you've recently had a solid 9 months of wanting to be alive- which is such a contrast to the 14 years of treatment resistant depression- that letting them know you are not okay (lmao their job) makes you feel guilty bc you think you're letting them down. check.

realizing how dumb that sounds bc you're only letting down yourself by not getting help early on? check.

proceeding to eat your weight in bullshit food you cant taste bc you're trying to see if you're alive or not- like, shit please let this be a dream. check.

hardcore thinking of skipping work and school tomorrow. check.

jfc, how did shit get like this. literally had a solid time of happiness and overnight turned to wanting to overdose again.

🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃
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EDAnonymous,khakitomatoes,2019/01/29,"Confused about instant noodles. One uncooked pack is ~80 grams and has about ~70 calories. But the calories listed for the cooked noodles are more than 300. How can this be if I only add water? Is it all from the flavor packet? 

I get that the noodles now weigh more, but isn't it all water weight?",1.7152709359605929,4.350474862068968,2.289704433497537,93.40431034482759,84.86206896551724,3.3142857142857145,22.07881773399015,3.1291,-0.18135270935960568,234,8,44,0,7,72,43,58,0.039,0.961,0.0,-0.2937,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,1,4,0,7,5,0,1,2,9,8,5,0,1,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,2,5,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,2,2,0,5,7,4,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,33,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31259539896768873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4054343848041113,0.4550462552050792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7285876623897616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,realityisgone,2019/01/29,"Recently feeling depressed/lonely has been triggering purging and im becoming addicted I didnt used to do it that much, maybe once a week, but something changed in the past month and now any little thing that happens will make me want to purge

But since i am more less always in a state of depression i am purging a lot more often and its becoming a problem but i cant stop, anything that happens now, my mind just says 'its because youre fat' and then i just get the urge

Not helping that ive been stuck in a binge cycle for the past two months

Im haying myself more and more each time i just cant deal with any of this anymore",7.518717948717949,5.448440769230771,7.473846153846158,80.0694871794872,64.38461538461539,10.512820512820516,36.282051282051285,8.841846274778883,2.8952051282051277,500,19,105,6,6,161,85,130,0.11,0.8490000000000001,0.041,-0.8859999999999999,0,2,1,0,0,0,5.0,0,1,0,0,6,2,0,0,8,0,11,2,1,3,0,24,19,9,0,2,7,0,1,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,9,7,1,1,1,0,0,0,4,2,0,1,4,2,11,0,9,14,8,16,0,1,0,0,4,4,0,2,11,72,20,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16745737632137847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12781567479625913,0.0,0.0,0.208919888788536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15233966421331074,0.0,0.0,0.12640779259482454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09363911987993127,0.3392999530496113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16249882051883666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15836497835767624,0.13230391197892388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07766973992208179,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08025479039230693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2716733111946694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1029614236892522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3318499280964866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1539573933399037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13059357493609175,0.0,0.0,0.1025357469519876,0.0,0.15432170970286122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15510212790707606,0.0,0.24521978393280874,0.0,0.1129208915039284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16358944390449234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2932759070109527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14698385128036048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15167116459102825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12215669347937715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12706762959931445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11825634332800265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12842468683842465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10205153813434137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08957112072986839,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15005447273897185,0.0,0.0,0.13266956361447022,0.0,0.0,0.09060305111259756,0.0,0.123216531163935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Akazure,2019/01/29,"They say binge eating isn't a real ED ?TW? I got stressed so I ate a whole garlic bread.

Body wouldn't let me purge it...

I guess I got the bread lads",-2.9428431372549007,-1.4802309705882344,-0.5388235294117649,109.01862745098042,108.70588235294115,2.266666666666667,8.607843137254902,3.1291,-2.5275333333333334,113,1,31,0,6,37,27,34,0.099,0.901,0.0,-0.4137,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,1,3,0,3,5,1,0,0,3,7,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,4,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,3,1,6,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,15,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3263411399514574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30062666854760484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4699510222984746,0.0,0.3236494322445235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.300426329574271,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3344041840320147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23363838241826695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3365423413706389,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3280127575380657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,NoZiffy,2019/01/29,I’m bloated Like a fucking balloon 🎈 I’m gonna pop any moment  ,-1.9800000000000004,-0.1462713333333312,2.2816666666666663,92.0625,95.66666666666666,3.0,27.5,3.1291,0.5750000000000006,50,3,11,0,2,19,13,15,0.0,0.7829999999999999,0.217,0.3612,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,3,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5451979963120709,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7411784504338138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3916805451255321,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,thenewbroken,2019/01/29,"Do you guys think it's possible to switch from AN to ARFID? I think I could be developing ARFID. Sensitivity to textures has always been a thing for me, but I'm finding myself loosing interests in many foods. Now I feel only comftorable eating toasts, boiled eggs, coffee, certain brand of yogurt, and froot loops. I'm not concerned about calories or weight as much, now I just feel uncomftorable around foods I don't usually eat. Sometimes I'll cry thinking about it.",5.305415282392026,7.498184558139535,4.8432890365448475,82.22081395348839,69.69767441860465,7.239867109634551,29.727574750830563,7.957251820313856,2.05684584717608,376,15,66,5,7,114,68,86,0.051,0.8859999999999999,0.063,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,1,0,0,6,2,0,0,2,0,6,7,0,0,1,14,13,4,0,1,4,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,2,7,0,6,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,3,8,2,11,10,1,5,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,1,3,38,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15886695866663544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1699659366312116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15244005727746382,0.0,0.20972487207741555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39073295532081853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19307734175043184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1745042582440075,0.0,0.4617405345983824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1890482232815115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19357049798501816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.140353666572977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14520895245031287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21524204689493964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18883216022831092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12684373427983878,0.3670158605928333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21027964575147995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23249823509954815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,littleBlueBird777,2019/01/29,I just want this to kill me eventually I'm too much of a coward to actually kill myself so I'm just taking the long route instead. Recently I cant make myself eat less than 1000 calories and it drives me insane because I know that every calorie just adds a bit more time to my lifespan. God I just wish I could have someone to talk to about this but it seems like I'm sorrounded by abusers and im too deep into whatever hole ive dug myself into. I just want out already,1.3133333333333326,3.423352303030306,3.40837373737374,88.2592272727273,81.52525252525253,5.9802020202020225,23.03131313131313,7.1686216300943375,0.8843204040404036,374,13,78,5,10,127,68,99,0.146,0.76,0.094,-0.802,0,0,0,0,1,2,3.0,0,0,0,0,10,3,2,0,3,0,4,1,0,1,0,19,14,4,2,4,6,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,6,1,0,2,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,0,0,13,1,12,13,4,8,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,1,4,51,18,0,0.0,0.2487298835293792,0.20485905941680904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2316603315719735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12796991912930786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2291865731686312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.167610110102457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2148083477257481,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17687306076147166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22675783644713374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4645075816844438,0.0,0.11537072126521952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10256002362862336,0.0,0.0,0.1857793238062165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14012830601285076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15432094377110955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2072781834328372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1911102066635388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17787097791815515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1578394326524754,0.16873185645378205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12241047428489713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2476414801551884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24140638475011536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Johnjo01,2019/01/29,"Maybe this isn't normal... I pride myself in being quasi-recovered from AN, despite the fact that still weigh myself, over-exercize, and fast.  But today, half way through my hour-long elliptical workout, it suddenly occurred to me that perhaps it isn't normal or healthy to be constantly dizzy while exercising.  Perhaps, since I have to keep an iron grip on the handlebars in order to not fall off...perhaps that means I should not push myself so hard?  Of course I kept going and finished my hour and hit my 800 cal. mark, but it was one of the first times in a LONG time when I really recognized that my behavior was crazy.  Maybe I'm not as ""recovered"" as I thought I was...",5.910639534883722,6.430692806201552,6.157664728682171,79.63556686046513,66.67441860465118,9.860852713178298,31.62887596899225,9.827888789773867,2.8963713178294577,528,20,102,11,8,169,86,129,0.077,0.923,0.0,-0.7294,0,0,0,0,0,0,26.0,0,0,0,2,4,1,0,0,6,0,9,2,0,0,1,17,16,11,0,3,6,0,2,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,8,3,1,2,2,2,0,3,5,0,0,3,5,2,15,1,14,7,0,22,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,1,13,68,23,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2136106875079456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16813771849213335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11234022753744932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17707319611242814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3893296106162728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17569788315615098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3498628714880381,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3971714999254843,0.21532021713557828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.387348610493799,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13394608266519398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12663225084471869,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16351439190606598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15785925208393975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15692763635535795,0.2305255458793617,0.0,0.1873677322125524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15690098157225674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ThatChicBitch,2019/01/29,"I'm growing persistently annoyed with Mukbangs lately Of course this would be my first post on this sub lmao. But hello, guys! I'm usually on mypancakeaddiction (under a different username) since it's pretty much my base but I like the vibe over here as well so I've been lurking for a bit. You guys are chill af. 

So, to my point! I am growing increasingly irked with Mukbangers lately. I can't even watch Quang Tran anymore because he gets to eat this phenomenal food all the time, thoroughly enjoys it, *savors* it and I'm just over here, in front of my screen. Chewing some gum but no more than 4 because I'm willing to spare 10 calories on sugar free gum in one sitting but, shit, not *20.* That or I'm just chewing on some tasteless rice cake that tastes like the nothingness inside myself that I feel every morning that I am subconsciously forced to get out of bed because maybe, just maybe, if I close my eyes and broaden my horizon really far, I can almost pretend that it's not a rice cake- no, not a rice cake, but black bean ramen with fried eggs and carb infused dumplings on the side. 

This rarely works, though lol. But I think because I'm always watching Mukbangs only when I'm fasting, low restricting, waiting to get my hours in so I can eat my OMAD or just hungry in general, seeing them constantly enjoying such amazing food without any fear or shame at all pisses me off and turns me into such a bitter bitch lmao. But I also hate it because there some Mukbangers that I do genuinely like, like Stephanie Soo, Zach Choi, etc. So I just stop watching the ones I actually like so that I *won't* grow to hate them and just stick to Nikocado or something. You know, the ones you never really liked to begin with but the videos are satisfying enough so you're like *eh, fuck it.* 

Anyone else like this or am I just an asshole? ",3.4715098942802918,5.528210344537818,4.138825336586248,85.90075088099758,74.406162464986,6.735303153519473,26.362067407608205,7.601502580125103,1.4411410318966291,1451,53,280,19,31,461,203,357,0.163,0.68,0.156,-0.4492,1,0,1,0,0,0,47.0,0,3,2,3,23,24,8,2,13,1,14,13,3,0,3,52,34,29,0,2,25,0,1,8,0,3,0,0,1,2,18,12,9,3,3,2,1,5,10,11,1,4,1,12,31,14,35,29,11,40,0,1,7,1,9,21,4,10,20,173,49,1,0.0,0.0,0.10111559892792077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10375782116183484,0.0,0.0,0.08286276744723886,0.08621794630947717,0.0,0.0,0.07046335976891907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1027605808981061,0.07245166916404194,0.10616823293240024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3158209125423677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11312332331387435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1119735582442852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10825809010117177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2120528601160207,0.08655901057520896,0.0,0.0,0.1070644342481834,0.11556074932847048,0.06843829076854131,0.0,0.08730209698328463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11659834028336437,0.05239205189150318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08813687570730666,0.25058905234316303,0.0,0.0,0.09579258206956742,0.1624073859521206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2051949593746523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20460138722680776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10204223004746553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056945392665029876,0.0,0.233769796568558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4049776756680373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2081951357336561,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0761706838885221,0.0,0.07991609785641829,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21064141963889868,0.07880567344583916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09795189976251722,0.0,0.099236790900565,0.10541610889366614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13275987153066596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0825696226189386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10636173370271604,0.08571335310735198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07976970802729151,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08662875482444962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06639382207792183,0.1018035326750851,0.0,0.06042011740952383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1127059360503488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11411988596962133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0931644529358133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09988343996658644,0.0,0.0754346740605029,0.0,0.0,0.07360680147427817,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,rutsuma,2019/01/29,"I just had the biggest binge in my life and it scares me. I was feeling extremely lonely and completely lost control over myself. 
It never happened like this before. 
I don't know what to do. I don't know how to fix the damage (over 5000 kcal) i have done to my body. 
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EDAnonymous,noxfoxen,2019/01/29,"I don’t feel attractive At all. I’ve put on 30 pounds and I’m so upset with myself. I don’t feel like myself and I’ve been in more of a binge phase for a while and haven’t been restricting enough to keep the weight gain off. 

So anyway I’m seeing this new guy and I am really into him. It’s rare for me to actually want something more than casual... with him I do. He’s sweet to me and spends most of his free time with me etc but has never complimented my appearance. On Instagram he comments on other girls pictures all the time and I know it’s stupid to feel jealous because he’s not even my boyfriend (haven’t had that talk) but I can’t help but feel so shit about myself. Especially because I used to look like the girls that he comments on but now I just feel like a blob and have no idea why he’s even spending time with me. I am starting to pull away from him because I’m already scared to lose him. It’s only been a month but I have fallen for him hard and I don’t want to get hurt. 

My self esteem has been so low lately and when I feel bad I eat... 
I wish I could get into a healthy routine and mindset.

Feeling so low right now. I know in my mind how I want to look and I’m frustrated that I don’t and I wish I didn’t care this much. I wish i didn’t think I had to starve to lose weight and that anything less than that is a failure so I might as well binge.  I hate that food rules so much of my life. 

Anyway this post is derailing. Sorry. I’m tired and sad. 

TLDR; I’m so far away from my goal weight right now and the guy I’m dating never compliments my appearance, and I’m jealous of how he talks to other girls online because they look how I wish I did. Just feeling defeated. ",0.3138792485300428,2.2518580653950977,2.2594127348343642,96.06547934891728,84.14986376021798,5.389043453319949,18.649720349921125,6.5966054737557815,-0.14466866485013608,1318,33,313,14,38,438,158,367,0.232,0.639,0.129,-0.9945,0,0,1,0,0,0,30.0,0,0,1,5,23,27,6,2,10,0,27,8,1,4,4,65,66,35,0,8,8,0,12,3,0,1,2,0,0,6,14,22,5,2,12,1,3,5,13,16,1,0,9,17,48,12,41,55,10,38,0,7,4,0,24,17,1,4,18,198,62,1,0.0,0.0,0.08424027629983223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09526125129583868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07103772230807688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16220945102730486,0.0,0.0720773660622138,0.2104904977345716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08801359848565952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06892310267298703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08833153200762325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08919630223800969,0.09627465550380024,0.11403305889410564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3491861571547637,0.1233405046341184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1043839488215315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09020199461999044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17094968784564565,0.0,0.0,0.07732981152410465,0.08522758888864182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05786150421853665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09241218104014777,0.09744987243231124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07672919723560417,0.0,0.0,0.09488339411457412,0.0,0.0973778154027883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06097355939877,0.1265213960132581,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2174725591210888,0.19315010752118186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09157667097054016,0.08716315399139242,0.0,0.06890340602379402,0.0,0.1269169054972481,0.0,0.13315757876345186,0.0833727566080869,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06565368524201799,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08267502515147464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08677998275079682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05530169616680873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1474413319936985,0.0,0.0,0.0864259011242527,0.0,0.06878946371420452,0.0,0.09005529808939272,0.0,0.08861087636174693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06645683075433434,0.0,0.09663322948319304,0.061100937565112826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13876875397860922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055313264973418916,0.0,0.0,0.15100956050138634,0.09921733364123253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.074556666367769,0.0,0.0,0.15274931045979004,0.0,0.0,0.3153600178702525,0.07761610809653749,0.0,0.07789444982917787,0.0,0.3970757380178562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,quietpandaa,2019/01/29,"Does hand soap have any calories?? Asking for a friend I was so tired this morning and accidentally put a drop of hand soap on my toothbrush instead of toothpaste. Obviously I spit it out as soon as I realized that it tasted salty, and it wasn't that much to begin with. But I'm irrationally worried that it had calories that I now need to account for.

Why is my brain like this??",3.66,5.351617600000001,4.703666666666667,83.60350000000003,73.0,7.133333333333333,28.5,7.793537801064563,1.7062000000000004,300,12,60,4,6,98,53,75,0.161,0.6940000000000001,0.145,0.3751,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,0,2,0,5,6,4,0,1,8,9,6,0,1,1,0,2,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,10,4,1,0,1,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,3,3,6,2,11,6,1,7,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,4,42,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2211991717280946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3040896149930446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3631161453288659,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28465165396034325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2513078142010387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15891366576883734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2391156516146644,0.24118840048409865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32699272080843544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3738574824550427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29351144443832194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3303340713459037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,lonelycatgirl69,2019/01/29,"Should I tell the guy I'm dating about my eating disorder? So I've been dating this guy for about a month. He's really great, kind, funny, talented, and the first guy I've trusted in years. We get along swimmingly. 

 The thing is I struggle with bulimia daily but am trying to get better. Since it's such a huge part of my life I feel if it's wrong to hide it from him. Maybe if he knew he would be more understanding, and not offer me certain trigger foods? I don't know what I expect out of it tbh. I don't want to be an emotional burden or seem like a hassle.

 I'm just scared of his reaction. I mistakenly read some r/Askmen posts about dating girls with eating disorders and most of the answers were along the lines of NOPE fuck that and it made me feel pretty shit. I didn't want to date until I was better but that's not how things worked out. I feel bad about it but it is what it is.  

Have you told the person you're seeing about your ED? If yes - How did the they react? If not- why? Did this effect your relationship at all?  

Thank you for your time and I wish you all the best on this January Day <3 <3 <3",0.5663371522094921,2.7437100085106394,2.3460638297872367,94.34096153846157,85.08510638297872,5.657937806873977,15.846972176759412,7.010146845296331,-0.24776923076923074,872,16,198,12,26,287,140,235,0.13,0.674,0.196,0.9616,0,0,0,0,0,0,31.0,1,6,1,6,10,17,2,2,12,1,17,6,1,6,3,49,36,17,0,10,12,0,3,1,0,2,1,0,0,5,17,12,3,0,9,2,0,1,7,7,0,1,9,4,25,10,27,23,7,18,0,0,1,1,22,6,2,8,11,128,42,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1066569920380651,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13405452981067018,0.2259500863229969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08238129032400689,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2928006427534801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26141841803473365,0.0,0.14368953571266954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1937665068357502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10865499576530976,0.15446288629290586,0.0,0.0,0.1180929380079452,0.1334770392927205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14083304533468166,0.0,0.37944601387885535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13302083912775342,0.07020218664682915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09022605562075887,0.0624069767643064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12087002810663988,0.0,0.0,0.12833131087277214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10196030223041208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13832922963473904,0.0,0.0,0.11153704239646564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1223389530038666,0.12995680608732058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12777388269879145,0.0,0.08183307590157593,0.0,0.0,0.13714421880446556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12788933824434626,0.0,0.10179169529219244,0.11628907448247383,0.0,0.0,0.13112257080042547,0.10566728108037253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1335408668259153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11164979132142204,0.1176051985895501,0.0,0.0,0.16972864920404532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07448582161084122,0.0,0.0,0.12206038927331417,0.0,0.08672660960229696,0.0,0.0,0.1329811314946686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15068791475599946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.115264862870669,0.0,0.1468939076926174,0.0,0.0,0.09299574241570237,0.0,0.0,0.09074234409040514,0.13966288769009386,0.0,0.08225993052127317
EDAnonymous,ash_alah,2019/01/29,"Need ur low cal pancake recipes!! Im sorry if this doesnt belong here but im rlly craving pancakes but i feel like i would just start a massive binge if i made normal ones, so pls post ur low calorie ones, im desperate and u guys always managed to help me out 😩",-0.9280263157894736,1.1934278421052649,1.6799780701754372,95.70838815789476,95.14035087719299,3.5517543859649123,21.160087719298247,5.148860815047168,-0.1054543859649124,205,8,45,1,8,70,45,57,0.14400000000000002,0.6920000000000001,0.16399999999999998,0.4932,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,1,0,12,6,6,0,5,5,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,0,2,1,1,4,1,2,4,0,5,0,2,0,0,4,3,0,2,2,20,5,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18137850621026935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11021826100173772,0.1557264015574833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2158364749240165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14610875587683228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7063739757279874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10649500626805898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20625986176916095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16163090881498027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21357610163223387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2954205218712052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20876652327158035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2440130295061804,0.1542887985910094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1548481756964896,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,gearsandglue,2019/01/29,my gender is linked to my ED too much ! so i’m nonbinary and a lot of my gender issues stem from the way my body looks and it just fuels my ED so fucking much like if i lose more weight then i’ll lose curves and my chest will get flatter and i’ll look more masculine. so literally the only possible way i can see myself being happy with myself as a whole is getting to my GW and half of that isn’t even for ED reasons it’s just dysphoria ,0.9525146198830434,2.749333631578949,3.4319298245614043,89.2579532163743,81.10526315789474,6.3274853801169595,20.029239766081872,7.3871296695380915,0.4866257309941524,345,9,77,5,9,120,62,95,0.057,0.8540000000000001,0.08900000000000001,0.465,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,2,7,6,1,0,4,0,6,4,2,1,0,12,13,11,0,1,3,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,6,1,0,2,0,0,0,1,3,0,1,0,4,11,3,8,11,6,3,0,2,3,1,1,0,1,2,2,53,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21962063225570436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13059117550541693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18278752664165293,0.20659946553388006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21047497304361049,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20636669926690115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0965952504896034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3320674128621749,0.4423927558342929,0.0,0.16809316086969414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2906916299734947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15037379537419307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22289785147218985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20328750279975205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15755601079099948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3138794147795776,0.0,0.2407678138280321,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22074559526623766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,annjovi,2019/01/29,"Kinda wishing to be sick?? Ok so I am kinda stuck binging and gained like 10 lbs in 10 days (I have a talent I know). And now I am low-key hoping I'll catch some sort of a virus because a) I'd get time off school 
And b) Most importantly I'd lose weight.
I was in math class today and prayed that a virus would catch me. Not bad enough to kill me but bad enough to make me lose 10 lbs. It's sick. I know. Who would rather lay in bed and feel like death instead of learning moderation and healthy habits? 
This bitch.",-0.2860489510489508,1.816527863636363,1.2263636363636363,101.34108391608395,88.54545454545455,4.1118881118881125,15.734265734265733,5.369823440869387,-1.0784125874125876,395,8,98,2,13,126,72,110,0.214,0.598,0.188,-0.8556,0,0,0,0,0,1,15.0,0,0,0,3,4,11,2,0,4,1,7,3,0,1,0,23,15,8,2,5,3,0,2,2,0,2,2,0,1,0,4,6,1,0,4,0,0,2,1,6,0,0,2,2,9,5,9,10,4,10,1,2,0,0,1,4,1,6,6,49,13,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3287804630337015,0.12001888923360512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12697413578086947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4068683853596146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09955065708076036,0.14065423877106345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10286396124729946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19555061134045668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21782339308201987,0.0,0.2164050100295848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1923755238641956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4405265151546308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13142185094963746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1992575013916695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1148048639413999,0.0,0.18662336897731666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2397521310832461,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2264073178192205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2797220260642568,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,urjustassaneasiam,2019/01/29,Scared of doctor sending me to hospital I really need to see a doctor for a UTI/sinus infection/strep throat that has lingered for 4 months and four rounds of antibiotics but I’m terrified the doctors are going to try to send me directly to the hospital. Last time I went to urgent care for another round of antibiotics for strep they tried to send me to hospital because of my heart rate. I’m 5’10” and my weight has been around 90-100 lbs in recent months. I need to get rid of these infections but don’t want to end up in the hospital or gaining weight. What should I do? ,3.037130434782608,4.992405626086956,4.286304347826088,84.81467391304348,75.34782608695652,8.773913043478261,25.41304347826087,9.3871,2.2554521739130435,457,16,92,12,10,150,72,115,0.065,0.8340000000000001,0.101,0.4939,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,1,1,1,2,0,1,5,0,7,8,2,0,0,10,17,5,0,4,3,0,4,0,0,1,4,0,0,0,3,3,2,0,0,0,0,5,1,1,0,1,2,5,10,1,23,14,0,15,0,0,3,0,4,4,0,1,6,54,13,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1817829313671209,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15432703205955245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10567856311832907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.176751933658626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5323234954975364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1535453822509897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0905733729972762,0.0,0.0985244049443142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20543227177013204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1413114259786799,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27674837661262913,0.0,0.0,0.2570882828333821,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11105876705720542,0.0,0.1711719499394682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17356346524554234,0.0,0.13814536544380251,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10108752995295472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2353999340087669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1022521385078493,0.0,0.0,0.4222112182378124,0.0,0.16070632936537094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Jellygator0,2019/01/29,"I got fired from my first day at work because I drank a Monster Ultra instead of having a normal 'nutritious' lunch I was told that it showed I was someone who ran on adrenaline and sugar for work. They also told me that because I asked for their business details (I need it to send through paperwork which takes over 2 weeks to process so I can work in my state) that it seemed like I was money minded. I just wanted to show them I was organised and hard working...

I feel hurt and in pain and the failure feels crushing. I keep telling myself that the head lady spoke about certain people in a way that was mean and degrading, and she'd have been a bully to me too eventually, but I feel like that's just me making an excuse. Especially since I asked her a question she didn't know the answer to - I wouldn't have asked if I'd known she didn't know! 

I can't believe that my food preferences are a judge of my character. I never even got to show them my actual work in the clinic. I feel utterly crushed. ",5.381091954022992,5.361337778325122,5.9464162561576375,82.56014983579642,67.76847290640394,8.934154351395732,30.217159277504106,8.59863814320734,2.1175060755336617,791,27,162,11,12,257,121,203,0.11,0.847,0.043,-0.8929,1,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,4,6,8,6,0,0,11,0,16,7,1,1,2,31,39,10,0,6,4,0,6,2,0,1,2,1,0,0,12,6,4,1,12,3,1,2,5,3,0,1,15,8,35,3,20,22,0,15,0,1,0,0,19,7,0,3,6,110,47,5,0.0,0.0,0.12805514852369174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10493933779796176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36802860845368585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1599851824695407,0.0,0.0,0.14784388092837256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08462826314895919,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0866718447202236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26540205695502617,0.09374605196980207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11161859128341506,0.1586759048872834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20990274539418208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11755042759811116,0.0,0.13467310771095425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14047740686859522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11663742309126895,0.0,0.0,0.14423394199857298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12821828915689226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08759266536677547,0.0,0.0,0.14294079595612427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13249826710484566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09730051825606674,0.10120760682763193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12857111011925898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13963099241935506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0909738109318104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14700028503081425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11946089164111848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10854938584154306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1111851951297924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09866369614674476,0.0,0.11469507072921158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2507792413267461,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07739898497087776,0.10415905896153664,0.10525952853253394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4776611370091307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,rip_me69,2019/01/29,"Selfie Thread Have you taken a selfie that you really like recently?? Share share share! I really like being able to put faces to a community that I get so much support from, and I miss the weekly selfie thread that ProED had. ",3.5517441860465127,5.92347993023256,4.793197674418604,79.84468023255816,75.27906976744184,8.020930232558143,17.726744186046513,8.841846274778883,1.1937953488372086,179,3,32,4,4,59,29,43,0.033,0.637,0.33,0.9257,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,2,0,0,1,7,0,0,3,0,3,1,1,0,0,1,7,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,2,0,5,6,3,4,1,3,0,1,0,0,5,0,0,0,4,20,8,0,0.3465552986237103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.181060839988422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3386188274465118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2547580196521529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3483837943325895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4440243967078673,0.0,0.342181548648169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3932668460120949,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27798575666257314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,rightclickundo,2019/01/29,Bulimia relapse. Was doing so good on having a generally healthy diet and restriction. But my friends peer pressured me into eating pizza with them. Time to do the deed. ,3.671999999999997,6.9095498666666675,5.035,72.3225,83.66666666666666,7.0,30.83333333333333,8.07648339933343,3.269333333333334,136,7,19,3,4,45,30,30,0.107,0.639,0.254,0.7609,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,1,0,1,3,0,1,2,0,4,3,0,0,0,6,4,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,3,2,4,3,0,3,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,1,16,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6241801962498043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4712829084746755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5116373452416821,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3556947142469931,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,doReMiyea,2019/01/30,"[TW] Feeling fat when smiling ? My post might be triggering, please don’t read if in a precarious state of mind.

I would like to know if someone has any insight on this. My eating disorder might be linked to my sensory processing, if that makes sens. 

For instance, I feel the fat moving throught my face when smiling, up to my ears. Or the fat rolling up around my stomach when i move. Never knowing if I experience hunger or fulness even when I fast for long periods. The list goes on...

I do not always experience these sensations, it really depends on my state of mind.  I don’t even know if these thought are real. I can’t trust the mirror, people could be lying out of pity when giving compliments. The number on the scale is my only comfort. Its getting worse, again.

End of my “little” rant. Thanks for reading and sorry in advance for the typos.",2.9667592592592587,5.4134209074074136,4.019243827160493,84.28034722222225,77.58024691358024,6.76604938271605,26.79166666666667,7.8658589789855275,1.8106777777777785,665,27,123,11,16,215,103,162,0.096,0.75,0.154,0.8524,0,0,0,0,0,0,26.0,0,0,0,1,9,6,0,0,8,0,14,8,6,3,1,30,24,13,0,7,8,0,2,1,0,3,3,1,0,0,6,3,5,0,8,2,0,3,5,1,0,0,1,3,17,5,21,16,0,28,0,1,0,0,1,11,0,10,12,84,23,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12230826066114317,0.0,0.0,0.0999588988438888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13085312550501685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1173603272648746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16846438414423073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15040845670294226,0.0,0.0,0.13019036850686916,0.0,0.0,0.1941722962520103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2875707443167396,0.0,0.0,0.14864610011277288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0767967140043998,0.14100713056481134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2423471757675132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07181236221365664,0.14732356595028678,0.0,0.13008238123354748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09811761261112367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3118683767305961,0.2968379507348475,0.0,0.0,0.3124562733680334,0.0,0.0,0.1133684963053895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11179325490766348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10190502939245784,0.0,0.0,0.16135194241583284,0.0,0.0,0.14077671538445702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2940614918894434,0.16730790211746416,0.09416617808447912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12454497026842515,0.0,0.0,0.1645443544614845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13532953456819574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11669440962188594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14979635428484767,0.10441816636218627,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,cheryshyne,2019/01/30,I hate not having self control I can barely get to a 24 hour fast and when I do I binge on every food as soon as the 24 hour mark hits and sksjsjs I gain weight and hate myself and fast again and it’s just one big cycle of fuckery,0.07384615384615145,1.7075956153846192,1.854461538461539,100.29053846153843,83.23076923076924,4.16,16.16923076923077,3.1291,-1.2176584615384614,180,3,45,0,5,59,39,52,0.14,0.795,0.064,-0.6124,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,2,4,2,2,0,2,0,3,2,0,1,0,8,7,8,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,5,2,1,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,0,1,6,0,5,6,0,9,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,7,28,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2944247060947233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22117405840957505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31742535182378595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1371494382072641,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5183440115745029,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5170344110538981,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17788201070591955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2738527810295383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3196636575953837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Hamm103,2019/01/30,im drunk and im eating and it;s a lot of food god help me,-5.810833333333332,-5.178828749999997,-0.9724999999999984,111.53416666666668,117.75,2.1333333333333333,5.333333333333333,3.1291,-3.0488916666666666,44,0,15,0,3,17,13,16,0.14,0.581,0.279,0.34,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,3,0,0,0,3,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,6,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3541451375541189,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4185036427382808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2319825084522867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7476914750312448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29424054190296395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,coldfaceemoji,2019/01/30,"Confused about ICD codes I sought counseling yesterday at my college's health center for my issues with restricting/excessive exercise. Among many other processes/procedures, I had some blood work done, and was confused about the ICD code ""F50.00 - anorexia nervosa, unspecified"" that was underneath my results. Is this a diagnosis? I'm not underweight so I'm confused why the PA included this code. I didn't feel comfortable around the PA so I'd prefer to ask others before reaching out to them. Thanks in advance!",6.306544943820224,9.221210932584269,6.249873595505619,70.06896769662923,68.8876404494382,10.292696629213484,35.84410112359551,10.411451182825502,4.776335955056181,419,22,61,13,8,132,69,89,0.114,0.831,0.054000000000000006,-0.6362,0,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,1,2,5,5,0,3,4,0,6,3,1,1,0,12,11,3,0,1,1,2,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,5,4,0,0,2,1,0,1,2,3,0,0,5,1,7,2,12,6,1,9,0,0,0,0,4,7,0,4,1,39,12,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2945781396301901,0.3093541668947657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2815782045775577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3386336153838489,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16731694969267208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35173956653195243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34538181884570696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33548861797785057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30465548588360003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2985928617469336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24090485310637744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,sweeetlikesucralose,2019/01/30,"I feel like I’m losing my mind So for the longest time I’ve been stuck at 135 and I hated it.  While I was 135 though, I looked pretty decent in my head.  I’ve broken the plateau it seems and now I’m about 132 but if anything I look so much fatter.  I look as if I’ve gained 20 pounds or I’m at my original 178 weight.  It’s driving me insane because my measurements are the same and my weight went down.  If anyone sees a difference they won’t tell me and they’ll call me crazy so I’m just ahhhhhh!",-0.5857762237762252,1.4423555272727278,1.870000000000001,96.72653846153848,89.18181818181819,4.83916083916084,16.643356643356643,6.297961479604792,-0.4897762237762238,388,9,94,4,13,132,71,110,0.138,0.768,0.094,-0.5707,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,2,2,7,3,1,0,4,0,5,3,1,1,0,15,18,15,0,3,6,0,3,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,3,4,2,0,2,0,0,2,1,2,0,0,4,7,16,1,7,12,2,10,0,1,4,0,4,4,0,5,5,52,19,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13401662997106253,0.0,0.15772397060110102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11683720985774056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19571140251886726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20024913945893266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0969115868934741,0.13692551995452135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1892295147918402,0.19670359348203495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09363784149620498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4828510037611508,0.21442411785214732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1935270204471988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14089583407965406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19499221786878074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15273219636000496,0.17448462477609142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16752366489926174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18830989714499374,0.0,0.11176140744731153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.466792689585573,0.0,0.17767538255137755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Logfa,2019/01/30,"I can’t separate professional failings with ED failings Basically, I no longer know if my depressed mood periods are due to *actual* unproductivity and fuckups at work... or if it’s because I feel shitty due to eating above my allowance / failing to stick to my calorie limits. This disorder is figuratively eating into my life. 

I hear stories all the time about people whose EDs started to prevent them from succeeding in their careers (ex. stories like dropping out of school due to ED, a doctor who worked her entire life only to have to take a leave from work, etc). I’m so scared that everything I’ve worked hard for my entire life will be for nothing. 

Whenever I feel like I haven’t accomplished enough at work, my ED brain will say “Well, at least you ate below 500cal today, so the day hasn’t been a total failure.” But now I’m scared that I will start to substitute *actual* success with ED success. 

I’m so thankful to have this community for support because therapy is not an option for me due to personal reasons. ",5.923052884615388,7.124008885416668,6.825208333333332,72.4348557692308,66.91666666666666,9.449358974358978,34.0400641025641,9.661875296680813,3.4568112179487187,814,37,138,17,13,271,122,192,0.162,0.706,0.132,-0.7572,0,0,0,0,0,0,24.0,0,1,2,13,6,15,0,2,6,0,13,8,1,2,2,21,26,8,0,2,5,1,3,2,0,3,4,2,0,1,7,5,3,2,5,0,0,0,5,6,1,0,2,5,18,8,28,20,5,19,0,4,0,0,10,7,0,4,13,89,25,16,0.0,0.0,0.2549209030937791,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15924220020412885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14580845363815456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08423524363489104,0.0,0.11249767226642103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14969499374061554,0.133688993841423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26730152012909786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13495920786280932,0.14566916921496434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11738746772415885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13208475571250575,0.09331068881309723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11700451527267687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14721150404872355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07178205479229406,0.0,0.0,0.13830139812330458,0.0,0.0,0.27676965537459164,0.127622834543693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1253276840393413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09933785517132304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0905513222544472,0.11404713259077875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13429297612000946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10386951876662412,0.2615348587755289,0.1321883710614375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1848985647736556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14821925289446455,0.0,0.0,0.09820549510996457,0.0,0.0,0.12025184986734327,0.14936852592343264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0761620910046104,0.0,0.12380682772197235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1174376986856649,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4754428456136647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,hiptotheboness,2019/01/30,"Boyfriend interrupting my eating habits--help!!! Hi friends! Looking for some advice

I recently moved in with my boyfriend after living alone for a few years. I never really noticed **h o w** disordered my eating habits were until someone is always around to ask questions and point things out.  For example, I typically would only eat one calorie-dense meal around my boyfriend and friends and then spend my time alone in a fasted state. Now that my alone time is gone and I feel like I'm constantly eating to not raise any red flags. Im starting to panic because I feel like have to continue to eat 3-square meals a day and gain weight OR start lying and feel my best. 

Just to give another example: Last friday, we went out with friends and got ice cream after dinner. We ended up eating this calorie-loaded-amazing- donut-ice cream-sandwich. I justified eating it by either purging when I got home or fasting the following day. It wasn't until the car ride home that I realized I wouldn't be able to do either because my boyfriend would be home all weekend with me. 

Can anyone relate to this? Any advice? 

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EDAnonymous,bravegeorge,2019/01/30,"writing down weight related numbers hey, just wondering if anyone else does this.

I write down weight (my HW/SW, CW, GW, UGW) and all the numbers in between over and over. I group it into different numbers, organize it by BMI, like... anyway possible I list all those numbers over and over. I'll do it in my journal, on school notes, on my computers... Ive done it since high school and anytime I'm back to restricting or B/P I start up again or buy a new journal. Any one else do something similar?

I also usually don't revisit what I've written. I keep one large ""weight loss chart"" that I can mark off in the front of my journals. But when I do write my weight out, its super compulsive. I'll sometimes get up in the middle of the night to journal and write those numbers. Let me know if anyone does anything similar 😅",2.070314417177915,4.273236533742335,3.585578987730063,87.50082246932516,79.3680981595092,7.0197852760736215,27.365414110429448,8.07648339933343,1.9130125766871164,637,28,128,12,16,210,101,163,0.032,0.942,0.026,-0.0,1,0,1,0,0,0,30.0,0,0,0,2,6,3,0,0,5,0,8,4,0,0,2,23,15,12,0,2,6,0,4,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,10,7,4,2,2,0,1,1,1,1,0,2,2,4,15,2,23,12,2,27,0,1,0,0,6,19,0,5,8,80,25,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10780782188809822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0916756895000101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18852512136300184,0.13812917790174195,0.1109374661407603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1036608702061826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14084816685617124,0.0,0.0,0.23594696526450265,0.13795783632687655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2252335682812893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07043286579900998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14243458089924174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11982567069671855,0.0,0.0,0.07408826592339361,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13785275964588595,0.0,0.06586154806330119,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1302007167848043,0.0,0.12651042071626367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18270202126784216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1519784615033662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27287062805650897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11151654946973394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10378362610864504,0.13333092491851106,0.0,0.0954194894214355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14847460107263136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6566509579780062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14619611964869045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,vexinglexa,2019/01/30,"What logging app do you use? I really want an app that lets me log future days without having to pay for premium like my current app would make me. If I don’t plan out what I’m gonna eat I either eat everything (aka yesterday, a whole pack of oreos and 4 boca burgers) or nothing. If I plan out what I eat beforehand I’m able to keep it more balanced because I feel like if I wanna eat more I could just “schedule” it for the next day. ",1.5005645161290315,3.0238346881720446,3.788911290322584,88.60336693548389,78.46236559139786,6.800537634408602,24.528225806451612,7.6454224807358475,1.1806354838709678,338,12,74,5,8,117,65,93,0.0,0.905,0.095,0.7086,1,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,1,0,2,1,2,0,0,3,0,6,4,0,2,0,18,14,5,0,7,7,0,1,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,6,3,4,1,1,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,12,2,9,10,4,9,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,4,9,46,18,1,0.1782549537640257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1086625653118864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1423220758429748,0.0,0.0,0.2299193970268111,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7295972763943641,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16020405849733588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09013106058517384,0.12734537458604386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1584411932258557,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18227776736633275,0.0,0.17417273280719894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11898656580988773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18957616558640095,0.0,0.0,0.1710404356992712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11419468786019175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15395504720294276,0.0,0.0,0.1051393901566222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19901529002614196,0.0,0.17183141438566174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12662720476948827,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,flamespond,2019/01/30,"My therapist told me I have an ED but I’m doubtful So for the past year or so my appetite every day has been terrible. I’ve always been someone who constantly has to be distracted while eating (I used to read books at the dinner table and now I watch YouTube videos or scroll through Reddit) because the act of it kind of grosses me out. I’ve also never been one for eating in the first place, and I don’t ever really finish meals at all when I do have them. 

Right now I’m in college and I usually eat one, maybe two meals a day. It’s definitely only one on the weekends since I don’t have access to the dining halls. When I do eat it’s only because my stomach gives me nausea and I feel like passing out from exhaustion, not because I’m actually hungry. That’s the problem - I just never have an appetite. 

The thing is, though, I don’t have any problems with my weight or body image (outside of gender dysphoria, which I think is different). Whatever I have doesn’t fit into either anorexia or bulimia, since I know I’m skinny and I don’t purge. Does what I have even count as an eating disorder, then? Is there even a name for just not having an appetite ever and not enjoying food? Maybe it just all falls under depression, I don’t know. ",3.527374711679599,4.869857187250997,5.029037534074232,82.53627594883626,72.74501992031874,7.834011323128539,26.756343048857204,8.371475516178862,1.8358318725099605,978,34,191,16,19,329,138,251,0.14300000000000002,0.8170000000000001,0.04,-0.9797,1,0,0,0,0,0,26.0,0,0,1,1,16,11,0,2,14,0,25,15,3,1,6,37,36,20,0,2,12,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,9,10,12,0,4,4,0,3,11,8,0,5,4,3,25,3,22,31,3,35,0,1,1,0,5,13,0,5,20,137,34,3,0.0,0.0,0.10560537303447516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08654207223924479,0.09004622905679617,0.0,0.0,0.07359210124407797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19790646923764946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12020604748457175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1169454516786733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1395835997558829,0.0,0.0932081951775844,0.0,0.0,0.1130650078756266,0.12402745685829883,0.0,0.09470249447088322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5536712839811941,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1429542286864304,0.19577915301754892,0.09117851861000968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05471838413366696,0.07731111870873829,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09205036350324354,0.13085790239901374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10381277853879578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11269262410781407,0.11894780822634456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052869956469382584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21743949703337875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16692912696096934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21999440178695215,0.16460966714766426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1033065370958743,0.0,0.0,0.1130650078756266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2071004446229121,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1082475063921514,0.0,0.06932736346149272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09241776944364932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17903846142255594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09169294747583126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12564969550504307,0.07189537741040994,0.06934186635952791,0.10632385268314024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1034071477599118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1057134771990086,0.0,0.0,0.09346579700131913,0.11918708148150847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13178063902517173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06968898625324213
EDAnonymous,Ronskyroo,2019/01/30,I'm so hungry that soap is looking good right now [Look.](https://scontent.flhr4-2.fna.fbcdn.net/v/t1.0-9/51249271_856174628067223_6972288009534177280_n.jpg?_nc_cat=111&_nc_ht=scontent.flhr4-2.fna&oh=7d55e5cd2119f059d4e8760173ef1068&oe=5CFA2C83) [At.](https://scontent.flhr4-2.fna.fbcdn.net/v/t1.0-9/51270127_856174671400552_3017944339167838208_n.jpg?_nc_cat=110&_nc_ht=scontent.flhr4-2.fna&oh=2390bb7dbb689a87348d2694236ccebc&oe=5CFEC7BB) [This. Shit.](https://scontent.flhr4-2.fna.fbcdn.net/v/t1.0-9/50932989_856174708067215_6560017448865628160_n.jpg?_nc_cat=109&_nc_ht=scontent.flhr4-2.fna&oh=4c24cf61ca7ab74a6c5f045d4ed4d4bc&oe=5CFE1D6B),67.065,85.76906327777779,15.453333333333335,0.3000000000000398,-56.0,16.933333333333334,53.444444444444436,13.023866798666859,11.118411111111113,642,16,19,12,4,84,26,36,0.0,0.7909999999999999,0.209,0.5329999999999999,0,0,0,0,0,0,100.0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,3,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,5,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.9732106234544148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08370847685438837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16761567542917602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08522964419573283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10244445518854292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,katkicksthesky,2019/01/30,"Why are coworkers like this I had a meal replacement shake and a snack size portion of pistachios for lunch (actually my only meal of the day oops) and my coworker said ""that's a lot of food for you"" in a joking way and I'm just fighting back the urge to cry and purge. Like I've lost 78 pounds in less than a year and I am still so fat and don't fucking point it out god I don't need any more motivation to starve but thanks anyway",1.6018548387096772,3.150283096774196,3.2813844086021504,92.24207661290323,78.24731182795698,7.230645161290322,21.302419354838708,8.07648339933343,0.7241838709677421,340,9,81,6,8,113,69,93,0.099,0.7659999999999999,0.135,0.513,0,0,0,0,2,0,5.0,0,1,0,2,5,8,2,1,7,0,5,7,1,1,0,12,11,8,0,1,2,0,0,2,0,0,1,1,0,0,3,7,6,0,1,1,0,1,2,4,0,0,3,1,6,4,11,8,4,10,0,1,0,1,3,4,1,1,6,47,9,1,0.0,0.0,0.25124933524155263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1750854713667602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1979751930018048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28281392766648233,0.16604404511615015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3113284868386676,0.0,0.0,0.23802284534958046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2515694237043366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28105417179774395,0.21888808918809466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1909075176776074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19581422922336744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2433882601884491,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24490879288079695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20561240125139227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23703977958702194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20436424950637594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23232270355963194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16579943772433645
EDAnonymous,BED_bitch,2019/01/30,"The back seam of my pencil skirt ripped. I've got to stop binging. I've been in a hardcore binge mode since mid-December and I just can't stop eating. I tell myself every damn day: ""You've got to stop. You're getting fatter and fatter every day."" I mean, I noticed most of my tight-ish clothes were getting a bit snug, but that's nothing new to me. 

But today I put on my pencil skirt, looked at myself in the bathroom mirror and noticed that the back slit was awfully high, almost to my butt. The damn seam at the end of the slit had ripped. 

Fuck. Me. 

This WILL be my wake-up call. 

I will stop binging. 

Starting today. 

I promise.",0.6146511627906968,2.9108113953488406,2.125240310077519,95.14320930232564,86.2093023255814,4.0601550387596905,19.452713178294577,5.2151,-0.34041333333333323,486,14,103,2,15,157,76,129,0.14300000000000002,0.833,0.024,-0.9153,0,0,0,0,0,0,24.0,0,0,0,0,3,4,3,0,8,1,8,3,1,0,0,13,16,5,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,3,3,1,4,1,0,0,1,1,3,0,0,6,1,16,1,12,7,2,20,0,0,1,2,2,6,4,2,13,56,19,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15057416239204513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23125100061914475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16416545243778252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1535449171444969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19395284327168247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15386638538315803,0.0,0.0,0.13318347819641865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2533869732638998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1390149450613356,0.15712457998952392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2405297755436351,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15887450727648658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12627320365845954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16379736959985505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14522859965350787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1442843850814058,0.3423952298081061,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15116371205160972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12438788908088988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10643289200344178,0.0,0.0,0.5028653088777589,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13143029438062442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2850669769200694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,smittenkitt3n,2019/01/30,"swiss miss has 35-calorie hot chocolate and it’s frickin delicious i’m so happy!!! i used to drink abuelitas (it’s sooo fucking good), but it had so many calories, i ended up restricting after. but this!!! this cup of hot cocoa is just 35 calories!!!! it helps my sweet tooth too ahhh",0.37166666666666615,2.566132462962962,1.5937777777777808,93.25400000000002,104.0,3.641481481481482,22.06666666666667,5.6839178017228535,0.4234355555555558,219,9,41,2,10,69,43,54,0.077,0.7020000000000001,0.221,0.8708,0,0,1,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,0,0,5,5,1,0,0,0,3,3,1,1,0,6,7,5,0,0,3,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,6,1,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,3,3,3,4,6,0,3,0,1,0,1,1,1,1,0,2,24,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3796348677375711,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3432392691545245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3582680734170245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32504434804048943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4125361532062612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2597552442236926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.392897701586175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3347041412494063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,fuckfuuck,2019/01/30,"I want to cancel date night bc I don’t want to end up eating out or consuming too many calories But we really need the date night. Ugh. 

I’ve been getting high lately and consuming like 4000 calories a day. Which has me up like 4-5 lbs and I feel like shittttttttt. I need like 2 weeks to undo it but date night is Friday & I really can’t cancel so fuck me",-0.024949494949495943,2.1222188571428617,2.151861471861473,94.87318903318905,87.7012987012987,5.500144300144299,16.347763347763347,6.937597516519254,-0.14658903318903338,280,6,64,4,9,94,52,77,0.157,0.723,0.12,-0.7806,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,1,0,0,0,2,6,1,0,2,0,5,2,0,0,0,13,12,6,0,5,3,0,1,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,4,1,0,1,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,1,1,8,4,6,11,0,14,0,0,0,1,1,4,1,1,14,30,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2110664201675886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12563030217498813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1993296944163084,0.0,0.0,0.17253555377989044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09849706047504242,0.13916562148922254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18009005962785818,0.10177529821283113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2058175793699383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2197436152866716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38067902640959467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1974972813833218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2888844236062512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5484216345322747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2495885658743512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2297969379996268,0.0,0.15625732922183527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,lavender___cat,2019/01/30,"Balancing work/ concentration Hey guys, 

So I started a new gig at a large corporation. They have two cafeterias and I'm scared to death of them. Public eating is one of my things, especially in a new enviorment. This goes to packing lunch too. I  haven't had lunch at work or school since Jr high. I'm so fucking over this. Would like to eat here. I would like to push myself and will plan on taking baby steps and be a normal cubicle slave-
Buuuut, as of now, you know the whole feeling weak and not being able to concentrate at all thing. 

This is like a a vent/ looking for advice post.

What is small, quiet, healthy, low-cal food can I eat at my cubicle and not feel bad about?

I am sorry. This doesn't make sense. 

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EDAnonymous,Private-Wierzbowski,2019/01/30,"Google predicting my searches and adding 'calories' to them It would be offensive if it wasn't so darn convenient. It also means that no one else can use my phone, laptop or any other devices I own because that search history is.......something else.",10.334666666666667,8.494223466666671,9.180555555555557,69.31750000000001,58.77777777777778,12.555555555555555,42.5,11.20814326018867,4.803000000000001,196,9,33,4,2,61,40,45,0.115,0.885,0.0,-0.6369,0,0,1,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,1,0,2,1,1,0,0,0,4,0,0,1,0,6,6,5,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,6,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,1,0,1,1,0,4,0,1,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,2,0,23,10,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.287187917683914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24421373058694115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21891605368316328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5999969049960203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3911866646400535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24334882258829094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2764679125301772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31016414237541123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2551083519655677,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,mossalto,2019/01/30,"TMI rant incoming I apologise to anyone who reads this gross nonsense rambling, I just had to get this out of my system (HA).

SO I posted elsewhere that I had an audition last night and felt like shit because all of the other girls were so thin and pretty and infinitely better than I was and now all I want to do is binge because ED logic dictates that I'm already fat so why not make things worse??? But I have another audition tonight so binging beforehand would be a disaster but now all I can think about is how to fit a full scale binge (the kind that would normally last all night) into the hour and a half between getting home from work and the audition.

Then I made everything worse by weighing myself this morning, but because I had to run out of the door in about 30 seconds I didn't have time to use the bathroom and get undressed which I KNEW was the world's worst idea but did I let that stop me? If you guessed fuck no you are correct.

So now I'm at work trying not to cry over what the scale said but also craving McDonalds (my usual binge of choice) big time. I in my infinite wisdom decided that if I ate lunch at work - something I don't usually do - told myself that if I ate now then I could fend off the urge to binge and keep my calories in check, so I grab a steak slice from the canteen because it's the only hot thing available and I figure that hot food might satisfy my binge-urge more and eat that and a Fibre One brownie (this is important folks pay attention), then promptly feel so shitty about myself I have to fight the urge to purge because doing it at work without people knowing is Mission Fucking Impossible. Cut to five minutes later and I suddenly realise that I took three times the recommended amount of caffeine pills this morning to prevent me from passing out at my desk and so the addition of the Fibre One bar has put things at Defcon 1. 

RUN to the toilet and feel like I've just completely shit out my insides and then decide 'hey while I'm here' and throw up my lunch so violently that I get splashback right into my eye and now I can't see properly. Plus there's a fly in the office who is attracted to the vomit smell and keeps landing on my face but honestly at this point I feel like I deserve it so what the fuck ever.

But hey, at least I don't want to binge any more, right?",6.447948717948716,5.736041811965812,6.763364102564104,79.91496923076923,65.7094017094017,9.881162393162393,33.463589743589736,9.174902378510234,2.7326763076923077,1840,69,371,28,25,597,239,468,0.12,0.77,0.11,-0.9034,0,0,1,0,1,0,30.0,0,2,0,5,25,19,8,0,26,1,31,18,5,4,6,76,62,46,0,9,15,0,8,3,0,3,3,1,2,1,28,26,9,4,13,2,5,6,8,10,0,8,16,12,45,9,53,40,10,65,0,0,2,3,10,30,5,5,30,258,73,7,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10457864992004727,0.07578579431325652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06444536979130594,0.09937232602828132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06626386573939072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2888479283895605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08381443876972408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0993622600362255,0.0,0.0,0.07566439583558827,0.0,0.1040980042965364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09697114238021992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08572292202799359,0.0,0.0,0.08517120920850106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1437523772360283,0.13540430426465433,0.09099197225812508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11459362849620615,0.0,0.0,0.2628339776154274,0.19804910578297305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10439744194048843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09505985399067776,0.0,0.0933272167450511,0.0,0.0,0.10698133769209817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16846799191055833,0.0,0.09868610503855042,0.052081917470925436,0.15449684949259854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0969065203717956,0.0,0.13889631514470954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0896716061029246,0.06325825815307641,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10053368482983414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17786636544495052,0.0928523460371452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12843425979603715,0.07207520026756044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06570007651892369,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0895862249920813,0.0,0.09076137878555092,0.09641294627295777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09526783779040872,0.0,0.0,0.09479346914272704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16186240714421546,0.09014590187945057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07551768579665763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19455561819916026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0729569005625371,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0792301439717125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.188878593157668,0.06072339482110791,0.0,0.0,0.1657796401730086,0.0,0.0,0.09055471665837232,0.10529053900645102,0.06434113151721915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08184897222341311,0.2087467380486144,0.0,0.11179303544588794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08551322062841857,0.0,0.0,0.09135280017564107,0.0,0.2759684171097434,0.0,0.19315301702859208,0.1346406857612679,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Izzy570,2019/01/30,"Anyone here lift weights? / Active life / higher intakes? Hi everyone, hope I’m okay to post here. :) fee trigger warnings for numbers and exercise as I’m relapsing basically.


Ive been dealing with (undiagnosed) eating disorder/issues since 2014. was 120 pounds when I started and about 93 at my worst.. I’ve had anxiety issues all my life which also contributed to this. Im 25 years now if anyone is interested.


Started slowly gaining a bit when I met my bf 3 years ago but I was never a healthy weight until I started gym in March last year weighing 108 pounds and have been slowly gaining/losing/maintaining since (it really helped my anxiety and stopped me being housebound but u know how it is with weight) last week hit 116lb, panicked. Caught the flu (again!!!) and have spiralled into weight loss and my eating disorder. As of today I am already down 4lb but I’m assuming it’s mostly water weight from not being at the gym recently 


I am going back to the gym tomorrow since I’m finally starting to feel better, I usually train 4-6x a week (heavy weights as I can)  and have recently started running outside which I aim to do 2-3x weekly. Walk to and back from the gym 75% of the time as well, then groceries and stuff so anywhere from 1-2hours walking. 


My tdee is around 2500+ but I’ve been eating around 1500. Is this going to be okay? Enough? Not enough to keep up with everything and lose 10lbs or so until I’m comfortable again? Does anyone else here lift weights or are fairly active with higher calories and mind sharing what deficit they found most comfortable?


I always feel guilty seeing people post about their hours of exercise on <1000 calories a day, but I know I’d never have the energy for anything if I did that.",2.848007745266784,5.467268370481932,3.8546092943201415,84.32206024096389,79.15060240963855,6.685851979345955,26.05197934595525,7.859703344183488,1.8158005851979344,1377,55,248,24,35,443,190,332,0.113,0.78,0.107,-0.4944,0,0,0,0,0,0,49.0,0,0,2,4,19,12,0,0,10,2,24,17,0,2,3,46,47,33,0,3,11,0,9,0,1,0,5,0,0,0,10,18,12,2,6,6,1,6,4,3,1,0,10,10,22,9,37,33,7,54,0,2,1,0,8,9,0,8,37,148,32,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06641107786108752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08267486085892306,0.059912611271245336,0.062338520194052886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11462549541327922,0.0,0.0,0.15715509477795364,0.07676325887961732,0.061651865030788476,0.13338739611953188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1152160077428978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0662596722041574,0.08179202679576204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04831648778236077,0.0772380884982793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08586354148269068,0.0,0.06556202770331078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2299821916732928,0.06258512130816983,0.0,0.0,0.15482248608632398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07158821237005647,0.06733226978816853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07576248622584811,0.0,0.0,0.08206998473604485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08214469867448171,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08515626623777188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05021655442567627,0.0,0.0,0.07441136468902736,0.07378001785877487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08092526005520605,0.15639171847813255,0.0,0.06659135397634176,0.0,0.0,0.08234692804825088,0.12213779337090133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1058348587866344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0838150772059893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07564672445760791,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1155641370108726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05193932689679304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14350317905607252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04799496094854543,0.0,0.14794673613834505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059700657547212266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1859210462194219,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2651398886131424,0.0,0.0,0.06263554878267845,0.0,0.0,0.0857642077337372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04368580870322388,0.0,0.07101435006147186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08251257563621955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18028624959610004,0.6386171946536487,0.06736108176203097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14473593138844248
EDAnonymous,thisisodd101,2019/01/30,"I ate slightly over maintenance tonight.. ..and even though I know that I purposefully did this because of my health, I still want to die. I feel like a fat fuck even though I have a BMI of ~21.",3.064615384615383,4.387297512820513,3.3979487179487187,93.85538461538464,73.87179487179488,7.2512820512820495,25.820512820512814,7.793537801064563,1.0191128205128217,149,5,35,2,3,46,30,39,0.194,0.7070000000000001,0.099,-0.6808,0,0,0,0,0,1,8.0,0,0,0,0,5,2,1,0,2,0,2,4,1,0,0,4,7,3,1,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,1,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,1,7,1,4,5,0,3,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,3,23,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1810874088391625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3083054493898389,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3924158359524006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1502044441013147,0.2122225243371523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27463080790547223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31576505641785085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1632585619493379,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14513042639828647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2372356308409012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5837275877141624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17521599711680813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ichigofieldsforever,2019/01/30,"How often do you guys have a bowel movement? 

I've been struggling with pretty intense on/off constipation for about 2+ months now, but for the past three or so weeks I've been extreeemeeelllyy constipated to the point where I can FEEL the poop in my body, but just don't get the urge for it to come out!!! 
So if I get scared enough,  I end up using laxatives around the 5-7 day mark of not having a movement. 

I'm on day 5 again and I'm starting to really freak out bc I don't wanna take laxatives again, and I've legit tried everything like prunes, drinking a shitload of water and upping my fiber intake but alas, here I am, still a constipated cow :) 

Does anyone else go for really long periods without having a bowel movement??? 
Like ugh I honestly just want to die at this point lmao.  

Btw sorry if the format is weird I'm on my phone and never actually post 😂 
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EDAnonymous,Strawberry2point0,2019/01/30,"DAE get mad at their stomach? I was on the bus home from work and my stomach grumbled and cramped, apparently unsatisfied with my daily offering of shredded carrots and a protein bar. I'm 90% sure the guy in the aisle across from me heard me mutter, ""fuck you, you've had enough."" Oops.

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But that got me thinking of how often I target anger towards my stomach/hunger cues for having the absolute AUDACITY to ask for food when it has all this excess fat to gorge on. I can't be the only one, can I?",4.458657142857142,5.5298933800000025,5.321428571428573,82.355,70.2,7.7142857142857135,30.285714285714285,7.957251820313856,2.0056714285714285,398,16,78,5,7,130,78,100,0.131,0.847,0.022,-0.9034,1,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,1,1,1,3,4,3,0,6,0,7,7,3,1,2,10,14,6,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,1,1,3,4,3,0,1,1,0,0,1,3,0,1,4,1,12,1,15,9,2,7,0,0,0,1,6,6,1,1,1,53,15,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28802740891632395,0.3230133483690045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2485157824858179,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2746741326698765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3214434891112894,0.0,0.0,0.24575616152020935,0.1388855480310525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21260906279839287,0.0,0.0,0.2632141471172976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2666498263660865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18013373488575232,0.2021761956265011,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2505422509595865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17033355307904874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19352788641999505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3230133483690045,0.0
EDAnonymous,petewentzpetegoez,2019/01/30,"I fucked up and purged for the first time This is bad. I know purging is bad for me. I've read countless horror stories of purging going wrong and all of the ways it takes a toll on your body. I still found myself sticking my fingers down my throat for an hour trying to make myself sick. I moved onto a foreign object (I don't wanna name it but if you know, you know). With tears streaming down my face, snot dripping out of my nose, and enough poking and prodding, I threw up. I kept doing it. Repeating the process. Each time, before I went to repeat the process, I sat there for a little bit. I told myself I'd never make myself puke yet here I am. I forced myself to stop after a little while. It still is calling my name right now.

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I feel like I ripped open a door that should have been kept locked. I remember this similar feeling I told myself that I wouldn't let the self harm or drug use get out of hand, yet it has. I know at this point it's only a matter of time before this gets out of hand. I just hope, I'm able to control myself in the meantime. I know if I don't my health will suffer more than before. I'm so scared of that is to come yet I'm no where ear deserving of help. I'm sorry, but no combination of words could convince me otherwise :/

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I just had to get this off my chest ",1.6695255474452573,3.495419631386863,2.9391445255474444,93.51132992700731,78.96350364963504,5.259912408759124,20.084087591240877,5.927762680638738,-0.10865588321167864,1025,25,224,6,25,331,154,274,0.165,0.737,0.098,-0.9542,0,0,1,0,0,0,39.0,0,3,0,2,12,10,1,1,13,0,17,13,9,4,2,45,47,11,0,7,7,0,5,1,0,3,3,1,1,1,14,11,0,4,9,1,0,5,6,7,0,1,10,7,41,3,35,32,5,41,0,1,0,1,10,18,1,4,18,150,55,1,0.10874172445351936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2356432260271513,0.2642661951717832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18158959554764767,0.0,0.0,0.2775935949104801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11871779924353193,0.12078754180087135,0.0,0.0,0.11103745872069884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09367136696639493,0.0,0.0,0.1219630904711315,0.08682141858148455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12610587715345226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11235926985570842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10996616641387738,0.07768510967721816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09249565526942788,0.0,0.1192296881272886,0.0,0.10052997201647516,0.17043918863340116,0.0,0.06180042796095848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11558736810180985,0.0,0.0,0.07288728572401904,0.0,0.0,0.10800506847260216,0.10708869423438803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29880803958939034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11119578073096252,0.0,0.053125713811324124,0.21797555075692146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14517189093210592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11557524391215653,0.0,0.0,0.08386832161322386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08270298153667324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1027960780401052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10877115150849813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1231831758735336,0.09286483852861747,0.0,0.0,0.10886943632518198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11344133429390607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12172745770960745,0.0,0.0,0.17368256323198486,0.090912950775243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08176024371446151,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19022452201989185,0.0,0.0,0.20781475547912567,0.0,0.07382849290967845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.093917935898338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08631411936056052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10080466800513094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1188920051280342,0.2642661951717832,0.0
EDAnonymous,tomathoe,2019/01/30,"Boyfriend prefers underweight girls and now I want to die. My boyfriend and I were talking about my eating disorder relapse, which led to me discussing how I want to look super underweight. Right after that was brought up, he was was like, “I’m not into super underweight girls, I’m into fit girls” so I decide to show him pictures of girls I use as thinspo & girls that are fit. He immediately takes a liking towards the thinspo girls and claims that they must exercise hella and ignores the actual fit girls. 

We end the conversation with me basically forcing him to admit that he likes super underweight girls and now I feel like shit because I’m hEALThY lOOkING as fuck. 

He also didn’t give me any compliments throughout the entire conversation or like assure me that I don’t need to look that skinny. I was kind of baiting him the entire time into telling me that I look great but I guess this is karma for baiting. 

I don’t know what to do. I just feel super sad right now and I have no where else to vent. I know this situation‘s kinda my fault but it still hurts :(
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EDAnonymous,jbh4y,2019/01/30,"Just Discovered this Sub As the title says, I just discovered this sub an hour ago after googling ""binge eating therapy reddit"".

I don't think I have an ED, but I know have bad tendencies and cravings. I though that reading the posts here would give me some context from the perspective of those with real struggles.

And then I read one word that I had never heard before, but I instantly knew the definition of.

Restricting.

I started losing weight in September. I started counting calories. And it was so easy to just keep cutting that number down and enjoy the results. By Christmas I had lost 80 lbs and was eating less than 300 calories a day. And then, just for the holiday, I decided it would be okay to eat what I wanted.

I binged for three weeks straight and gained 20 lbs. I have begun controlling my diet again as of a week and half a go. Only change is that I have been eating less than 200 calories now.

I don't feel like I have an ED, but this sub has given me a lot to think about. I think I'll be lurking here from now on while I figure stuff out.

I am still unfamiliar with how this sub runs itself, so my apologies if this was inappropriate in any way.",4.5770217391304335,5.6347898652173924,5.202336956521741,83.3678532608696,69.91304347826087,8.184782608695654,27.85326086956522,8.472884824447931,1.866891304347826,919,31,182,14,16,296,138,230,0.102,0.8009999999999999,0.096,-0.1035,0,0,0,1,0,0,25.0,0,0,0,4,15,8,1,1,13,1,20,6,0,3,1,40,35,21,0,4,8,0,2,1,0,2,0,2,0,0,15,11,6,3,8,3,0,2,3,5,0,3,10,4,25,3,24,21,4,27,0,2,0,0,4,6,0,3,18,134,40,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11820555984369947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09068167575217792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11134057859678756,0.0,0.0,0.11346990587532585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14106522301776267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14956188452928176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08599886753745414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5457959644962842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0674250997567704,0.095264324299316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12792020560963774,0.07578512839296139,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13132158966786892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11852643461062687,0.0,0.0,0.07328494766876635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06514742979939192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14918306468689227,0.14556583751242366,0.1133682799310608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10284672341712003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09036051728782556,0.10141768076746972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12771117534905135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2667695339498079,0.15177999263764966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10604422329812103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1887697654055175,0.0,0.10649242884264376,0.0,0.0,0.13940499440868814,0.15265233627020872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15249583809398912,0.0,0.0,0.2563333510648292,0.13101440196356298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07865250695654602,0.10584597605048723,0.2139285367440651,0.1623827690265477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1894541539414256,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,morotatari,2019/01/30,"Old coworker told me I look “healthier” She worked with me when I was at a lw and tried to get me to eat more back then when she noticed. Today she came in and we were talking and she asked me about and and told me I don’t look at skinny, and that I look healthier than I was. Lol.ol.olololololololihatemyself. And food. But this is great motivation to get back on track. ",3.258423423423423,4.922344121621625,3.5713513513513497,91.4247747747748,74.0,7.636036036036036,21.792792792792795,8.344100000000001,0.8491603603603601,291,7,65,5,6,90,46,74,0.0,0.909,0.091,0.7579,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,1,0,0,2,5,1,0,0,1,0,5,3,1,1,0,12,14,11,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,10,3,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,6,3,15,1,10,8,1,12,0,0,3,0,9,4,0,0,7,47,17,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1896650618807481,0.0,0.0,0.3120038159792938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2320402423238509,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20759650449923955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2453228468776846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21199246018231807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22367550189656726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5111033633396732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23097979681648184,0.2128880375603768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16306695697968882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19230616163954364,0.3877203502561133,0.0,0.13774194745616505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14769878269438858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,galacticmarble,2019/01/31,"i am thoroughly drunk and got the courage to post here so hi friends hello guys i’ve been lurking and i seriously love this community. i used to post a bit in proed before the whole debacle and i just wsnted to share that my friends and i got drunk on franzia and i ate a sushi roll and as of right now i only care a little that i’m chunky and not as much as normal

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EDAnonymous,tofuxhoe,2019/01/31,"I feel so guilty for having a healthy, young body and not taking care of it I realized the other day that I would probably be an *extraordinarily* healthy person if I didn’t starve myself, eat almost exclusively things with no nutritional value, abuse bronkaid, drink excessively, and smoke. Even while doing all these things I have less health issues than a lot of people. I have a strong constitution, no allergies, plenty of energy, I never get sick, I can physically do all the things I want or need to do. Good health is a huge privilege that too many people don’t get to enjoy, and I’m here taking advantage of it, testing its limits, and slowly throwing it all away.

I feel so guilty. There are so many people bed-bound or hospital-bound or otherwise chronically unwell that would love to have this level of health, and would appreciate it and take care of it. And I know this, I know what I’m doing to myself is wasteful and ungrateful. But I still can’t stop. It’s like some kind of compulsion to destroy myself. My sick mind is willing to give up my health for a skinny body. And for what? What the fuck do I *need* to be skinny for? I don’t even know. I wish I could give my body to someone who needs it and would treat it well.",3.557314049586779,5.394854772727278,4.683545454545456,83.0353181818182,73.58677685950413,7.815206611570248,22.843801652892562,8.548686976883017,1.3729547107438016,973,26,193,18,20,319,129,242,0.133,0.679,0.189,0.8984,0,0,2,0,1,0,34.0,0,0,0,3,10,14,2,0,9,0,26,16,5,0,4,43,49,19,0,11,6,0,2,1,0,5,7,0,0,1,23,11,4,2,6,1,0,1,8,2,1,0,1,2,23,12,23,40,6,11,0,0,0,2,5,4,1,7,7,140,46,1,0.0,0.12217494895366755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10325523009490337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09688036142556324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34361406408279216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21026615102025786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08232929777200458,0.0,0.0,0.06650093595551798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10101388641239743,0.0,0.10551285010799699,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13621356696736306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10427654151995903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0953285737134998,0.10774713538264023,0.19783547491386053,0.0,0.08648834878531449,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4384276139512711,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10762574156191627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10737887533434463,0.1700086670083745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050377001242128426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08766506977314889,0.09306572124769744,0.0,0.0,0.2090857672596764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10411721152125313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22937640306747736,0.07952899338143121,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2144618127311808,0.09003643526221583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11117589753008283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08736938778376699,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08234813309754258,0.08620913500373023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23258996088719985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20551597309551234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060820165167642826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0927131749379064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11857768079745452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2930010340491642,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,californiabeautiful,2019/01/31,At a restaurant during a fast I’m 46 hours into a fast and losing my mind. My husband owns a restaurant and he needed to be here a little later than usual today. I went with him so we could have some time together but I’m really regretting it. I’m currently sitting in the restaurant smelling all the delicious food. I want to eat soooo bad. This fast is suppose to last 120 hours. I’m not even halfway there and I’m ready to dive headfirst into this food. His restaurant is the reason I gained 15 lbs since we got married. Ugh. I have to be stronger than this. ,1.2575101214574929,3.6741026052631582,2.73526315789474,91.07107287449392,84.35087719298245,5.2620782726045885,22.80431848852901,6.67199483983844,0.7073557354925772,443,16,89,5,13,144,74,114,0.117,0.747,0.136,0.3205,1,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,2,0,0,2,4,4,0,0,8,0,7,3,0,1,1,18,16,5,0,4,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,8,3,0,1,0,0,1,1,4,0,0,2,1,10,0,12,11,3,18,0,2,0,0,6,5,0,1,11,53,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17229000209213946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16475021428330136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21114311837171293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13628935842689066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.49902796795665993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16503346960112014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4064178082019238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16819924866187014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2068125543354223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23084800574009265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2083502880858911,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1530026879032036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13219030978538082,0.21215769921324967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17069125737120625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12032181028119092,0.0,0.1955915527027415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2272605856734653,0.0,0.12170801300727485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1912844886197712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,edgaranalhoe,2019/01/31,"""You don't know what a healthy female body looks like"" ...As said to me by a guy on a Russian social networking site.

This was in response to an ironic picture of an overjoyed girl getting a case of instant noodles from a guy kneeling in front of her.  As expected, lots of comments from GUYS (!!!) berating the girl for being fat. She looked no more than a BMI of 24. I don't know why I had to intervene and say that she is completely normal and that the people commenting apparently don't know what overweight looks like.

Honestly, this is one of the sickest parts of Russian culture. Women with BMIs of \~17 are widely considered ""ideal"", while anything over 21 is basically whale territory. The ""perfect"" weight formula for a young woman is her height in cm, minus 120.  In ""American"", this is like 20 lbs below a BMI of 19-20 for average height. What. the. fuck.",4.257144879660217,6.080332392638037,5.298773006134969,79.40539405379897,71.69938650306749,8.450967437470505,30.943369513921667,9.057496981413335,2.8230258612553083,672,30,122,14,13,221,106,163,0.057,0.84,0.103,0.8284,1,0,0,0,0,0,36.0,0,1,0,2,0,7,1,0,15,0,12,6,2,0,1,11,21,5,0,3,0,0,1,3,0,0,3,2,0,7,8,3,3,0,3,0,0,1,4,1,0,1,3,6,8,6,29,17,3,14,0,0,3,1,18,11,1,1,5,80,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14359226629795124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19382156982479,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1829518198803492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16131528715766005,0.091165006501112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5183243276204951,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2876891562457437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25574432003795666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4395886665169982,0.0,0.0,0.14834708370496855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17096537137402407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11824047458312605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18895811872615545,0.0,0.12097096584792913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16598210223467227,0.13876325264528108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17787288972380405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2124845701432037,0.0,0.0,0.1574521285254101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Gloomy_Shroomy,2019/01/31,"Does anybody else actually love their ED? Ok, so I don’t technically “love” having an ED. There’s so many things that I strongly hate about it- for example my neurotic need to overestimate calories, my obsessive body checks, the nausea from hunger, the disappointment and shame I feel when I go over my daily calorie limit... tbh the list goes on and on and I know we can basically all relate to most/some of this. 

HOWEVER. I get a little high from feeling hungry. I know if I’m super hungry that my body is likely consuming my fat and that pleases me greatly. I love being able to notice actual changes in my body within 24 hours. I have a sick sense of pride in being able to lose 7+ lbs in a week if I try hard enough. I also feel that the “control” aspect of having an ED benefits the entirely of the rest of my life. All my food is prepped ahead of time so meals always feel organized. My brain seems to function better when I’m fasting. I feel exhilarated watching myself lose all the weight I put on over the last few years. I’m getting very close to my goal weight and it brings me immense joy. I feel that when my ED is “going as planned” and doing what it “needs to do” I just feel 1000% better in every other aspect of my life. Everything feels organized and even my stress from work is greatly reduced when I’m feeling a little bit skinnier than I was the day before. My fiancé notices the changes in my body and showers me with compliments, thus my ego becoming even bigger. 🙄🙃

Anyways I just wanted to bring this topic up and get feedback, does anybody else feel that their ED is more beneficial to them than negative? 

Disclaimer; I do truly realize how unhealthy this thought process is, I realize that it’s just the ED trying to tell me I’m fine and everything should continue, and I DO plan to eat at maintenance once I reach my goal weight. My stats are f/23/5’2’’ and my SW: 165lbs CW: 126lbs GW: 110lbs 
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EDAnonymous,BluntCakes_,2019/01/31,"I think I’m relapsing, sort of? I was doing so good. Eating normally. Eating TOO fucking much, but I would force myself not to think about it because I wanted to get better so badly. For so many reasons. But fuck that I guess? I don’t know. I’m pulling away from my therapist and the doctor now trusts me so I have 6!!!!! Weeks without seeing her instead of weekly but.... the thoughts keep coming back. And back. They never went away but I was strong (weak??) enough to eat anyways. I tried pasta for the first time in months. I could EAT BAGELS WITH PEANUTBUTTER and the thought makes me want to die. I had stopped fasting and forced myself to eat if I had gone the day without. I still felt fat. I hate it. I hate myself. Of course that didn’t change. I gained like 4 pounds since the start of December ish? I hate myself for it. So so so so much. Then lately the thoughts keep coming back and stronger and I can’t stop them, and there have been triggers EVERYWHERE. all of a sudden there’s talk of anorexia left and right in my life, and today in a class We had a guest speaker who talked about the benefits of fasting and that was the straw that broke the camels back. I had already skipped breakfast which I tried not to do and now.... I’m fasting again. I love it. I feel great and strong. I’m so scared of being obese or becoming truly fat. Of falling down that slope. So. I don’t know what I want. Fuck. I’m ready to keep up with my bullshit :)) ",0.3470828942746742,2.760050445205483,1.3526027397260307,98.70058131366352,90.78082191780823,4.090762205830699,18.446083596768528,5.716464563530887,-0.4153011239901656,1118,32,245,8,39,347,155,292,0.181,0.6609999999999999,0.158,-0.9133,0,0,0,0,0,1,54.0,1,0,2,5,25,19,6,1,13,0,19,17,2,3,2,54,55,29,1,7,10,0,2,1,1,1,6,1,0,0,12,17,10,5,10,0,0,6,9,10,0,1,15,4,37,9,33,37,4,40,0,1,1,4,9,9,3,4,26,164,49,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0987543751706551,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16815749074331365,0.2752489628914616,0.07472036271406231,0.05455223740076425,0.09883460893569082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07914658046657913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09466849160537266,0.15417532033248105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07145043600315451,0.0,0.0,0.05771360860866385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09287643008908376,0.0,0.0,0.09159674659804813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4578527540116728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09246703119290578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.045248803027174836,0.0,0.08592437722964116,0.0,0.0,0.07612009807459534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24819602521999884,0.04675480059662554,0.0,0.0,0.075059916665595,0.0,0.09866297584857613,0.09858325916551493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2650583686496344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2386283140502601,0.0,0.0,0.09836266238784014,0.0,0.10094855132357296,0.0,0.0972310827098172,0.0,0.06320939184030422,0.0437202648472668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0807681656475535,0.0,0.05973523049940933,0.09072875414369164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0714300170997961,0.0,0.13157080691760056,0.0,0.06902015935726223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08768114163873861,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09201056384755946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07642392062512653,0.0,0.0,0.08959504255912737,0.0,0.07131189665275235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07402700393534782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06334144082198834,0.0,0.07146678245889228,0.14963519549333226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1438572494687202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10390471890477544,0.0,0.11468308145848352,0.0,0.21313505102443447,0.052182304239657085,0.0,0.08482600025705297,0.0,0.0,0.12151559129160057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1583504573686397,0.0,0.1435668653949886,0.0,0.0,0.08295807184214622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17253021928151252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06357108647447587,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,onesingleplease,2019/01/31,"How does weight work I'm curious about this: if you reach your goal weight, can we eat normally again? or should we continue restricting ? ",3.4606666666666683,6.520066800000002,3.2360000000000007,86.70466666666668,81.0,9.733333333333334,24.333333333333336,9.725611199111238,2.942733333333333,110,4,21,4,3,33,23,25,0.095,0.768,0.13699999999999998,-0.1431,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,2,2,0,2,3,0,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,1,0,8,3,3,0,3,2,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,2,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,4,0,1,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,2,2,12,5,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28797769229830794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33672814965136444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3224258052904377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8014547985899819,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2395721350049158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,anonfortheed,2019/01/31,"I'm disgusting and this sucks so fucking much I just threw a trash bag of puke and food containers into a gas station garbage can, one of the big ones by each pump. As I was driving off I saw a guy from inside the gas station go and grab it out (what the fuck, why?! The can wasn't by any means full?) And then the shame of thinking what if/when he realized puke was in the bag. And then getting super paranoid like is this illegal or something? Was my license plate reported for being shady as fuck?

I'm a grown-ass woman with a career, a young child, and husband (marriage is in shambles, btw, doesn't help any of this). I was in solid recovery for several years. I can't believe I'm back in this place. Nobody knows except my husband and therapist. I am so fucking disappointed and disgusted with myself. 

I just needed to vent... Any kind words of support or just telling me I'm not alone would be greatly appreciated right now. ",3.2711531531531537,4.938235610810813,4.400540540540543,85.4799099099099,73.97297297297297,7.311711711711713,28.54954954954956,8.021203637495839,1.860268468468468,728,30,146,11,15,238,117,185,0.194,0.71,0.096,-0.9675,0,1,1,0,0,0,28.0,0,0,0,1,7,14,7,1,12,0,15,5,0,0,0,28,33,16,0,2,7,2,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,3,7,13,1,1,4,0,0,3,4,9,0,2,7,2,11,5,23,23,3,20,0,1,1,4,9,11,5,2,7,93,18,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16285356390455868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3207864555583344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12090811029944208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17715600988052702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19013563495152072,0.0,0.0,0.5814646169139334,0.08215158419753059,0.0,0.08936330491454518,0.0,0.0,0.17335802236718806,0.0,0.15569265107448926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10539488080347703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16374161014561525,0.08641517489041685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07681968424431268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1712808193461991,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11558973714464316,0.1165917146202576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21310023826199526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16428268120697756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1342823853342154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1776368197393335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12105129050008398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1784344666374343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1374349817913402,0.0,0.0,0.18256814604493204,0.0,0.10075325637415768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14188494346762165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11169902119983216,0.0,0.0,0.1012576191996782
EDAnonymous,teapip99,2019/01/31,Polar vortex It’s freezing and I’m soooo hungry! Deluding myself into believing that the cold makes me burn extra cals so my increased appetite is justified? Does anyone know if this is accurate or not? ,2.2169111969111945,4.822559648648653,4.011969111969112,75.71324324324324,101.16216216216215,6.4386100386100376,24.204633204633204,7.447530270364453,2.521744401544402,165,7,23,4,7,55,36,37,0.036000000000000004,0.818,0.146,0.652,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,1,0,7,5,4,0,1,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,1,5,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,16,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3865720367874237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6228830443116881,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4838108485313534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3038369810133458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3690378372133325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,megastarstrike,2019/01/31,"Y’all. My LEGGINGS just ripped I spent all day outside, only to reach for my pocket and discover a seam on my leggings had ripped 🙃 leggings were the only pair of pants I felt safe wearing I’m not sure what I’m gonna do now",-0.061875000000000575,2.182736562500004,1.788333333333334,96.49000000000002,89.625,4.033333333333334,20.5,5.46131890053228,-0.16989999999999972,177,6,39,1,6,58,38,48,0.045,0.8640000000000001,0.091,0.2589,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,1,0,0,2,2,0,0,2,0,3,4,4,0,2,7,8,1,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,1,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,4,1,6,2,4,3,1,3,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,21,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30268072284818737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4506329310734505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7138972361680285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.44234045444645903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,thatmujigae,2019/01/31,"mom asks me for the meds my psychiatrist prescribed me so she can lose some weight so, my psychiatrist prescribed me a few meds to help me with my BED and my anxiety, one of them I believe is called bupropion hydrochloride in english (cloridato de bupopriona in portuguese).

enters my mom, who yoyo diets like crazy but lately hasn't been able to stick to a diet for more than two days in a row, has gained a shitton of weight, and it's desperate to lose it.

so what did she do? she asked me to give her some of my meds until she can get a doctor to prescribe her some.

and she asked me this last nigh, when I had just got home from a hangout with a friend. me and my friend smoked some weed, and I was pretty high, my mom knew this (she's okay with me occasionally smoking). so she knew I was in a vulnerable state, and I wish I had said no.

I'm so upset.

after that I had a massive binge, and now my stomach hurts, and the results of the second call of the university I wanted to get into came out, and I wasn't called, and I want to scream and cry, I feel like a failure.

I didn't get into any of the universities I took entrance exams to get into. not even on second calls.

and now I have a week less of my pills, and I'll probably have to lie to my psychiatrist to get another prescription when they run out earlier than they should have.",4.052753623188405,4.510766304347829,5.182753623188408,85.21514492753623,70.73913043478261,8.307246376811595,26.56521739130435,8.344100000000001,1.4839869565217394,1044,31,229,15,18,346,141,276,0.133,0.763,0.104,-0.8074,0,0,1,0,0,0,31.0,0,0,3,3,11,10,0,1,16,1,19,7,1,1,0,37,39,22,0,4,3,3,3,2,2,1,2,2,2,0,7,22,4,0,3,1,0,4,5,5,0,4,15,5,45,5,39,23,7,26,0,3,0,0,28,11,0,4,12,164,52,2,0.10258624332710932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06976216329461286,0.10757062078780556,0.07847819535434289,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2877128681578106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11557956649132856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.419008097066344,0.1173313330791598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11268617121594955,0.06615964019782207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.105001366996626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06775724620365225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05187068699791213,0.07328763273058754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1585157542366907,0.0,0.2679853902368276,0.09841007235914116,0.0,0.0,0.08204759022036562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06876139647695978,0.10838799845068584,0.10290236642810542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10982069522082144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08362148031509865,0.1157217508152205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10023691331664336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2295355314764972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3418505697699521,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36044330496982224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06951509343129422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10436708988387544,0.11060532116691063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09758300941742401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11397709097383076,0.0,0.0,0.10021185336642402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1210160484644872,0.0,0.0822884964901998,0.24984481495511746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11796911704068787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,TallHoe_InA_Tahoe,2019/01/31,"I have a huge crush on my assistant manager & he offered to buy me lunch Work was super slow so I got sent home & my manager offered to buy me lunch for the inconvenience. A nice gesture & all but while I was doing my work to leave I couldn’t stop overanalyzing every single thing on our menu trying to order the right thing so he wouldn’t think I was sloppy. So I ended up clocking out and running away before he could bring it up again. Now, I’m home and hungry lol 🙃🙃",2.5767000000000024,3.999251870000002,4.388999999999999,85.85950000000003,75.3,7.0,22.5,7.6454224807358475,0.8634999999999997,377,10,80,5,8,128,65,100,0.07400000000000001,0.826,0.1,0.5499,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,1,0,0,3,5,2,0,0,4,1,8,2,0,0,1,10,13,7,0,3,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,3,3,2,1,1,0,2,3,2,0,0,0,5,0,12,2,11,5,2,19,0,0,0,0,7,8,0,0,7,49,15,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6341284002598709,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1832901818206732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1660042365559373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1557606901517743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17278872786351746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1643687841778924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15602848976578115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3913753172757293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20656842758729488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1666027988989259,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1631010433582805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2592135944543075,0.1250035473255677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13245092278334736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2840505804243045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,frantrum,2019/01/31,granola binge this is the first day i haven’t taken bronkaid in three months and i had 800 calories of granola for lunch because i ate my actual lunch for breakfast— today isn’t going to end well,2.5265384615384607,4.985538000000002,3.0381410256410284,90.64644230769231,79.25641025641026,4.925641025641027,25.134615384615394,5.985473137389443,0.7313538461538459,158,6,30,1,4,49,32,39,0.0,0.94,0.06,0.2732,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,1,0,4,3,0,0,0,1,7,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,3,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,2,3,0,4,1,5,4,0,7,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,5,19,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.4012504528341171,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2506503161049217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2651758191885758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3641816983693118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3497478298491872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23368195511600864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3281983877932205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3897487031035803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36969843748030856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,oofnoa,2019/01/31,"getting triggered So lately i’ve been kind of letting myself go (as in: eating everything i see) and i swear it’s like the universe is against me because everywhere i look i see really skinny people, everywhere i go i hear someone talk about how much weight they lost, i’m not even safe from triggers while watching youtubers i like (ex: pewdiepie, he randomly lifted his shirt up and we could see his ribs and i’m-)... i’m even drEAMING about my family saying how skinny my sister is and how i’m not...

anyways this post is a mess and im just ranting but can the universe give me a break... i know im fat... just let me binge in peace please...",1.5766629464285702,3.9771915546875007,2.9100892857142884,90.48312500000002,82.671875,5.5321428571428575,23.986607142857146,6.868970318607317,0.9312638392857142,501,19,100,6,14,162,86,128,0.052000000000000005,0.878,0.07,0.6183,0,0,0,0,0,0,25.0,1,0,1,1,11,6,0,0,4,0,8,7,5,5,0,20,23,12,0,1,5,2,1,2,0,0,1,2,0,0,2,6,5,1,1,1,0,2,2,2,0,0,2,8,18,4,9,18,1,9,0,1,5,0,11,3,0,1,4,60,20,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10109292206898604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13240764637383656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16969303180120066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21906803889278909,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14904393573188413,0.0,0.15633671415993725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0866431816231873,0.1590863174561282,0.18849839924065506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18691076972534784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3582656368692192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17269410207607566,0.09113988203839096,0.0,0.18707177777071396,0.0,0.0,0.3391598951926777,0.0,0.162039525329469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13926162436776074,0.0,0.1810310804841598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12190954912225345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11497075212698706,0.0,0.0,0.18203963324769495,0.0,0.0,0.15882635966263411,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10623966632306024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13188053358415175,0.0,0.0,0.3964527407710293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14051346622204944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13329379694146398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20194524093867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Bakedalaska1,2019/01/31,"Worst Ever Chick-fil-A Service So I go up to order my nuggets and diet lemonade, watch guy put it in the register as regular lemonade. Correct him and say diet lemonade. Watch him go pour me regular lemonade. Say ""I said diet lemonade."" He then asks ""Do you want me to switch it out?"". YES I WANT YOU TO SWITCH IT OUT, GIVE ME WHAT I ORDERED. Fuck you dude, what if I was diabetic? Obviously I'm just disordered lol, but WHAT IF?!",-0.3948504983388688,1.8081402790697685,2.310365448504985,89.43953488372097,99.69767441860466,5.2478405315614625,23.584717607973428,6.868970318607317,1.2167368770764122,328,15,67,6,14,113,55,86,0.056,0.855,0.08900000000000001,-0.2141,0,0,0,0,0,0,20.0,0,3,0,0,3,2,1,0,1,2,2,5,0,0,3,13,11,8,0,4,4,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,1,6,4,3,0,0,0,0,3,0,2,0,0,2,5,14,0,8,9,1,11,0,0,2,1,12,4,1,2,2,41,20,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2603927330340474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.319225372923196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25195095793997463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2575012255483453,0.0,0.2671962626880456,0.3165958493801441,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2757935550632897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2800047224746405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2649506782500205,0.4430046060335557,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32857445482797504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,softdyke,2019/01/31,"getting help?? so my partner has told me she is really concerned about my eating and how obsessive i am and i kind of see it and think i should speak to someone but 
1. i’m at the high end of a healthy weight
2. i don’t think my habits with food are too bad, i don’t restrict that often atm and it’s mostly just that i think about eating/not eating all the time and get stressed by unplanned food

i just feel like there’s no point getting help bc i’m not bad enough at all. 

however, i have lost over 40lbs and i see no physical difference in the way i look and even feel bigger but i know i can’t be because all my old clothes are too big

idk just does anyone have any advice???",0.1981849315068516,2.2611459931506883,1.8701198630137021,97.90737157534248,85.64383561643838,5.019863013698631,19.39897260273973,6.322622252153567,-0.15375205479452034,529,15,125,5,16,172,92,146,0.187,0.733,0.08,-0.9465,1,0,0,0,0,1,11.0,0,0,0,1,12,7,0,2,4,0,12,5,0,1,3,28,28,11,0,1,6,0,3,1,1,1,0,1,0,1,4,8,5,1,6,0,1,0,6,5,0,0,2,7,18,2,11,24,5,12,0,1,3,0,6,8,0,2,4,76,22,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14780381175302684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10285801354343127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1057604234677206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2525818065501905,0.09220313026830854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15802840134687982,0.0,0.0,0.13236353214831864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3095415266780656,0.0,0.0,0.13396628856443785,0.1562859770529558,0.0,0.0999019442423033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1529572930015584,0.10805600004309074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3657942542660008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23707216287442645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2027649463857305,0.15980832138912415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1575079289865924,0.08312532909563686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07389514100884552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12701539761799155,0.0,0.16511177988408748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15871579417219375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14298406810885414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0968972861122977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2410599605090355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12815715645930326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17326112590570475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2907526694534655,0.0,0.0,0.08819751534961252,0.0,0.0,0.14452982894862673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12005850959207978,0.0,0.1841868152216119,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,basementbats,2019/01/31,Vegan chicken? I am considering going vegan (again) for ethical reasons but chicken breast is one of my biggest safe foods and I don’t know what I could replace it with that is vegan and has a similar enough nutritional profile for me to feel okay with it..any suggestions? I was thinking maybe 70 cal ‘turkey’ boca burgers,4.823,7.016948633333339,6.593333333333334,69.165,71.0,10.133333333333336,33.66666666666667,10.355215969177356,4.287066666666667,258,13,41,8,5,89,49,60,0.0,0.852,0.14800000000000002,0.8276,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,1,7,2,1,1,0,11,11,3,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,4,1,1,4,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,1,1,6,2,6,9,1,3,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,1,29,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24920240547385206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2925850144395954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3786466419262775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18529098529917795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.443119621560214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20826518850714024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20139443931309706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3681539512374158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24831982957093626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3767774370298447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2348099810267517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,LawrenAnne4,2019/01/31,"Munch monster So I’m in a weird semi recovered state where I’m weight restored but still have lots of disordered thoughts. I’ve been weight restored for a few years now and always stuck to my calorie allotment, so I maintained pretty well.  However, for the past few months life has been stressful and for the first time in years I’m like emotionally eating. Not anything crazy, no binges, but like 200-300 over my calories for the day. And now I’ve gained almost 8lbs. Like, I feel like a fraud having all these ED thoughts and casually eating an extra 300 a day and thinking nothing of it until I step on the scale. This is so gross. ",4.057804878048786,5.934577747967483,4.172853658536585,87.05293902439026,72.33333333333334,6.871219512195122,26.934146341463407,7.554174236665415,1.4181453658536585,505,18,98,6,10,156,81,123,0.13,0.63,0.24,0.9241,1,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,2,8,9,0,1,9,0,6,5,0,0,1,16,14,11,0,0,3,0,3,4,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,5,4,0,4,1,0,1,2,3,1,1,5,3,5,6,12,9,6,19,0,0,0,0,0,5,0,3,16,59,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17058752531597027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14175033683310256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1401889651422454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.219731825408185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1952434207447807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34863465942431804,0.0,0.19162824380403445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0861374147830012,0.1217027879201402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14490523555366475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12032790347757145,0.3329105156934198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14483108793141405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1359770115286111,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1634617506866094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16262464940275434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17331390485312068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1360469995233037,0.0,0.19514290786719704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10915762954270222,0.0,0.270488220190961,0.09933630248571784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41489688497932137,0.15317104094686187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2194081279899851
EDAnonymous,stevemurkle,2019/01/31,"just wanna know god dammit to make a long story short, i was starting to get suspicious if my scale, which to be fair i’ve had for about 4 years, so i bought a second one that was definitely too much money. they consistently come out with roughly 1 lb difference and i /know/ i did it to myself but now i am EVEN MORE CONFUSED",0.8242164179104492,3.2204417761194044,2.646399253731346,91.00601679104479,86.46268656716421,5.738059701492538,18.82276119402985,7.1686216300943375,0.3512701492537316,257,7,55,4,8,85,57,67,0.114,0.8079999999999999,0.078,-0.6472,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,1,0,6,1,0,1,2,0,6,0,0,1,0,12,13,4,0,2,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,4,0,0,2,0,2,1,0,1,0,2,5,1,8,0,9,7,2,7,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,2,4,40,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3280541568993633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3978897304193352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2515367954377041,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19896967501214874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4185920315966609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3370254763421588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25420917740158405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2799562864072033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25806249244110857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26955576185393626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24524415178921766
EDAnonymous,PinkyOutYo,2019/01/31,"PSA for Peaches: It's no longer on the Google Play Store I'm posting here for Peaches that might not see the post going around. Mods, I hope that this is OK. If it's not, and people have posted, would you please give me ample time to make a note of interested people before deleting the thread?

 It has been suggested in the event that Peach is going down, that we set up private Twitter accounts to keep the community going.

I have set up a Google Spreadsheet to record people's Peach handles and their new Twitter handles. That way, we can find each other again and also know whether someone adding you is from the community.

If you're interested, either message me here or add me on Peach. My handle is the same as my username here.",5.0075352112676015,6.2560997535211325,5.1550422535211275,83.39523943661972,69.07042253521126,7.088450704225353,28.284507042253523,7.1686216300943375,1.47424,583,20,110,5,10,183,91,142,0.015,0.8740000000000001,0.111,0.9141,0,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,2,2,1,0,6,5,0,0,9,1,11,0,0,1,0,23,21,9,0,4,7,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,10,8,0,1,2,1,2,3,3,0,0,0,1,1,12,5,15,18,3,20,0,0,1,0,8,7,0,5,4,75,22,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15109066214326505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16819155077404074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16076914244730975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17268249387179624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.181242961284742,0.3221270875658249,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18765435395477495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16793345427310544,0.0,0.0,0.10383333008091916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12611508788667616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20042939638339274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18247388887016894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3929496874998504,0.0,0.0,0.20739308526705527,0.0,0.0,0.542840394113776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15055614649074406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16008338822407506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11016908833018904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14996722408347068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13421347989708168,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,heyimhayley,2019/01/31,"HOW do I stop binging? I had been doing well for almost a year, losing weight in a healthy (normal amount of calories) way.... then I fell off my diet around the holidays and I was planning on getting back on track in the new year but I can’t stop binging. Yesterday I ate about 1200 calories by 6pm.... obviously I got hungry for a snack at night so I had some popcorn and a glass of wine . 1450 calories for the day. I dont even feel bad about that number , it’s under my maintenance , I’m ok.... but a few minutes after I finished that snack I suddenly feel HUNGRIER. I get MORE popcorn. I’m still not satisfied. Some tortilla chips? Ok! Now I have some... I’m going to finish the bag. I feel disgusted with myself as I’m eating them. I log the calories under the next day... I’ll restrict tomorrow. Ugh all those carbs, I’m still not satisfied.... I’m not even hungry anymore I just want to keep eating, I convince myself if I have protein it’ll keep me from eating more... I have a handful of nuts, probably >200 calories.... I’ll log that under Friday.... I’m even more disgusted with myself, I can’t sleep because I can’t stop thinking about what the scale will say tomorrow... one more glass of wine will help me sleep.... I wake up this morning, I still can’t stop thinking about what I did last night. I lost 30 lb last year, and gained 6 lb back in the last 2 months. I was 4 lb from my goal weight when I started binging again. Now I’m 10 lb away and it feels impossible. I guess this is more of a rant than anything else. It’s 9:30am and I’m hungry again. ",-0.002829335860610627,2.329503711598747,1.988522271633741,94.01922286214187,91.82131661442007,4.722927753882044,20.2712692279653,6.388778183573513,0.24714618356783544,1200,41,257,14,43,397,158,319,0.135,0.785,0.08,-0.9633,0,0,2,0,0,0,72.0,0,0,1,5,22,10,2,0,15,2,20,15,4,1,2,38,46,13,0,3,7,0,7,0,0,3,0,1,0,0,12,8,11,7,6,3,0,2,8,6,1,1,9,8,37,4,35,34,11,52,0,2,0,0,3,13,0,6,36,158,49,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1066185903763505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10559385460226886,0.0,0.0,0.08761924309588562,0.09478466450842894,0.0,0.0,0.10003607140143077,0.16374426606431075,0.0889015589678922,0.06490572012710229,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13733417752821914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12478703875951927,0.0,0.0,0.3268492453534636,0.08894558105172526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21097573198248648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21534633850431545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1112568116988191,0.0,0.060511775182301136,0.0,0.08515719166091536,0.0,0.11729340048158796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07136745153555055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18927842748061108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2603721964424533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1191174609420908,0.11622923152022067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0849867378398039,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10283350298222467,0.11323658254342875,0.19983775891972255,0.10432216735347057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07214971358398027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11479725983457086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08467260444984111,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21310230719814785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07536302865520582,0.0,0.25509144271668577,0.3560689930462283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1364488120583249,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06280127670696041,0.08451431095435312,0.0,0.2593139266549449,0.09573314603153922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2056977960147717
EDAnonymous,throwcatchexception,2019/01/31,"I miss eating anything I want anytime I want I’ve been restricting for a few months now and I get so fucking jealous of other people eating the things I used to eat. I miss eating a shit of food, but I know that if I did eat outside of my diet, I’d lose all my control and hate myself afterwards. I want to buy food but I am too afraid that I’ll just chew and spit it out. I hate beating myself up for eating but I do it anyway. I don’t want to smoke anymore to suppress my appetite. I’m trying my best to get myself out of my disordered eating habits, but I only find myself reaching for a bouillon cube whenever I crave or think of food.",2.6861764705882365,3.6407599705882383,4.5507647058823535,86.65894117647059,74.29411764705883,6.616470588235294,25.364705882352943,6.742157984588678,0.9692876470588242,500,16,105,4,10,171,77,136,0.193,0.711,0.096,-0.9375,0,0,1,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,4,5,10,5,1,4,0,5,15,2,2,1,24,20,10,0,5,7,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,6,5,12,3,3,0,1,0,1,9,0,0,2,0,24,1,16,18,3,6,0,3,0,1,0,3,2,2,3,72,30,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10547497609534297,0.0,0.0,0.0875206005675259,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11161237022348468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11928549130833023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12189134446568507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7617896429422103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0972059852200068,0.0,0.3858124497932392,0.0,0.0,0.0983229193100544,0.11113155778409167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21000588200469475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05844959105514986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11898335743806646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08489105900943111,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08088730571812562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07373274240463383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10917125245600837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07065713056936185,0.06814759838202047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07220764917701962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09185604499706622,0.0,0.0,0.2509222978694573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,rgb519,2019/01/31,Trans ED support sub? Does anyone know of any trans-related ED support subs? I was a member of one that got shut down with proed and I don't know of any others. Fat redistribution has got me on the struggle bus. :(,2.1277906976744205,4.145850558139537,3.695523255813953,87.71444767441862,78.30232558139534,6.16046511627907,22.377906976744185,7.1686216300943375,0.6689116279069771,166,5,35,2,4,55,34,43,0.113,0.762,0.125,0.1431,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,1,2,0,3,1,1,0,0,4,9,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,2,1,0,2,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,3,0,3,2,6,6,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,18,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3691486202148269,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1897825606945046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2375207024520313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4341573324481231,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2983297021150511,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18392062123916847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28374619739968204,0.0,0.0,0.6160064056632151,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,honeyeyedbutts,2019/01/31,Can I die plz :) Weighed myself this morning and somehow I’ve gained 4 lbs in 2 days 🙃🙃🙃 Tuesday I was 75.3 and as of this morning I’m 79 lbs and I’ve been eating the exact same amount as usual. This is why I can’t trust recovery or my body. I have to go to work and pretend to be a normal human and all I want to do it crawl into a hole and die 🙃🙃🙃🙃 ,-1.9197803617571048,-0.5055202906976728,1.8575968992248053,98.7640180878553,89.11627906976744,4.28733850129199,17.695090439276484,5.033348758259628,-0.7723111111111107,269,7,73,1,9,100,57,86,0.113,0.747,0.141,0.0772,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,2,1,1,0,0,3,0,8,3,1,0,2,14,11,9,2,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,4,7,2,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,2,0,7,1,9,8,3,6,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,2,3,41,11,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3320062483372301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1927632937531873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6204140412499463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3058453874049001,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16986957369145714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29285477151372824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3291918884365467,0.0,0.17629669711971785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26970729074007704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21759996162441606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,SurfingWhiskeyWaves,2019/01/31,"An Ode To Fresca You are delicious

You are refreshing

You are filling

But better yet

You are zero calories

And do not say DIET

So I can look normal drinking a regular soda 

Thank u",-0.33999999999999986,1.1436488888888905,2.881666666666668,82.41750000000003,115.66666666666669,5.133333333333334,21.166666666666668,6.6274283507984215,1.4715666666666674,144,6,24,3,8,51,30,36,0.0,0.767,0.233,0.8442,0,0,1,0,0,0,0.0,0,4,0,1,2,2,0,0,2,0,6,3,0,0,0,4,8,3,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,2,5,2,1,8,0,2,0,0,1,0,5,0,0,0,1,20,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4000689401412807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4431331422668941,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3798620903863468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.443209311116102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3597287867061536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4164653169246205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,bananafishu,2019/01/31,"Surprise! Binging makes you gain weight. I don’t know where to post this or if I should post it.  Im not even looking for any help really I just want to write this out.  I used to b/p regularly but lately I’ve been mostly just a good old fashioned binge eater. 

I feel so uncomfortable in my own skin. I was 150 last March and now I am 210 again. I haven’t been this big since high school.  I answered every pound gained with “I need to fix this!  When it gets bad enough.”  We’ll, now it’s worse than I could have imagined.  

Every day there’s a new excuse. I need to eat this because work is dragging today. I need to eat this because I have to focus on homework and can’t do that if I’m obsessing about restricting. I need to eat this because everyone else is and it’s just one meal, right?  I need to eat this because it’s here.  And on my days off where no one is around to see, all I do is eat. 4 peanut butter sandwiches. A giant bowl of stir fry. Any candy I can get my hands on. 

My stomach has never been even close to flat, but now it is HANGING. I can hear it slapping when I do jumping jacks and when I have sex. I am so ashamed of my body and I feel so sorry for my boyfriend while he is nothing but supportive.  I bait and switched him (I started gaining when we started dating).  He has put on some weight, too, but nothing close to what I have and he’s already losing it (I’m 20lbs heavier than him now).  I don’t know why he is sticking around.

I am going to really try this time. Starting today, I’m going to eat 1200 calories for 200 days. No excuses. Today might be rough but I’m just making tomorrow harder by indulging myself.  I’ve proven that I can’t trust myself with moderation.  I either need to do something now or get used to being a doughy monster. ",0.17608599508599454,2.404374370270272,2.040896805896807,95.40788083538084,87.72972972972973,4.660933660933661,19.76044226044226,6.11248444174946,-0.06470270270270273,1367,42,305,12,44,450,188,370,0.11,0.825,0.066,-0.9624,0,0,1,0,0,0,44.0,2,1,0,5,27,8,0,2,4,0,37,15,4,4,2,57,68,25,0,11,15,0,7,0,0,3,0,1,1,0,20,16,10,1,6,0,0,5,9,4,0,2,4,11,43,4,36,58,6,53,0,1,2,1,14,17,0,7,29,193,63,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09118829976231976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11238744625821796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1471229553396989,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.068995655349393,0.2014908511429397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09178736897848967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06597625436994475,0.0,0.0,0.15987562575564396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5073291884962643,0.06902982047044567,0.0,0.0,0.08538266121353587,0.0,0.10915750754687184,0.0,0.1392448467560369,0.07896000430153433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08356412376054953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1295180319281532,0.0,0.09392522771318036,0.06930919434413968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09313414161191848,0.0,0.0553876011453267,0.08730699978058834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0892585339193994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09082659808987904,0.06735746270694783,0.09321436891032306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06939146344553256,0.09244592982023538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11031722079631016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08766125586324025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3676308756368101,0.06373217358964488,0.07980810474532639,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15857845280013627,0.0,0.08671012677260165,0.0,0.1119894145792334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15828041042537347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08306965290507662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10587447842277026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0705686950166295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08362967656257363,0.06584832922443583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06835541831638063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06361542937600184,0.0,0.09250161820517017,0.17546559176962065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09377169928320908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04818435226866166,0.0,0.2349811456670709,0.0,0.0,0.056102831623133335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14273790338759432,0.0,0.0,0.04873947423959371,0.0,0.0,0.2012510749923304,0.0,0.0,0.07456402623544305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0601582893917053,0.0,0.08421076018033062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,fatandignored,2019/01/31,"I've gained everything I lost and then some, and now I feel like just giving up and becoming a lardball. :( I lost a ton of weight after my boyfriend fucked up and broke my heart but now that everything is getting better, I'm gaining it back. I moved to be near him (he's a good guy, he changed a lot after what happened and I'm proud of him) but it's killing me. 

I was always insecure about our relationship because his type is the typical big tit ass but no tummy and just... whatever those ""cosplayers"" are. I'm.. far from that. I'm fat, no ass AT ALL(!?!? it's literally concave), and definitely not as beautiful as them. But I was at least going towards it... I finally hit 118 in July. I moved here in late July. I gained 50 pounds since then. It's more than I gained in my 4 years of high school where I was 130-155 in 4 years. 

I want to cry and give up. I feel like it doesn't even matter. I can't stop eating or thinking about food, even to the point where I feel disgustingly nauseous after eating. 

I'm on Lexapro and it's really saving my life but I feel like it's fucking up my already binge prone self. 

I used to just restrict and fast because if I let myself go, I would binge for days. That one binge has turned into half a year of self hatred. I feel like my boyfriend is losing interest in me appearance and sex wise because everything is just dying down. I want to honestly just disappear and it's purely because I got so heavy. None of my pants fit. My jackets don't fit. I can't even wear some of my underwear. I feel like a failure and I haven't been able to lose any weight. I keep saying I'll do it tomorrow but I can't stop thinking about food. 

Thank you to anyone who reads this, I've been so frustrated and I have no one to talk to about this. It sucks and I hate it. I wish I could be as beautiful and sexy as those cosplayers on Instagram y'know? So he'd like me more and be more proud of me. ",0.7978244864030444,2.8894524239401527,2.729082650516567,92.50177265170409,83.3640897755611,6.3128132050825325,21.26831730198314,7.536579438409214,0.7161000593753712,1486,47,335,25,42,496,194,401,0.202,0.608,0.19,-0.897,0,0,0,0,0,0,56.0,1,1,1,11,21,28,7,1,8,0,26,16,6,1,2,58,61,34,2,6,14,0,8,6,0,1,2,1,0,3,21,18,7,4,8,1,0,6,11,13,0,3,8,9,52,15,47,45,10,49,0,5,0,6,18,25,6,6,24,214,73,3,0.08512914395256209,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09394212722191693,0.0,0.07083426732206825,0.0,0.0,0.05789073709047559,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05952427680281772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06545905699106164,0.0,0.2075757440533382,0.0940184512384423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07528980987953669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0900553465801438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06796869442463252,0.0,0.09351036727524484,0.054901255291037385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08835061126424723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17421673355511455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16868099012576754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2295257562770196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25826311816196484,0.3040813872465881,0.0,0.09325481612034896,0.0,0.0,0.2058769975562296,0.0,0.0,0.15740104366278654,0.04447646413937021,0.16332726386188925,0.09676170862026656,0.07140228702253082,0.06808555311416277,0.0,0.0,0.08429123649798285,0.07527942085393534,0.0,0.0,0.08404740531204602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10087844546463344,0.0,0.08994361450021242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07566669459293106,0.09418278485150933,0.0,0.04678475119688028,0.0,0.096029382343004,0.0,0.0,0.087050317367459,0.060129231941577224,0.2495387981764045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19047547378242785,0.1858570336043711,0.07237375394147211,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1809576154101908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11537142220363633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08047455720619394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08515218110791321,0.0,0.054535909472323736,0.0,0.0,0.09139684191229157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06769811210472444,0.0,0.08615523850808111,0.0,0.0,0.1776165262379026,0.0,0.0,0.0704197075778598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14234355235015536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06842358127440877,0.0,0.0783754782903235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1090946361612512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09259606317132596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07352424770709398,0.0,0.0,0.10042274944657388,0.0,0.0,0.2073287268186268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09789431429408348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060473301389438364,0.0,0.0,0.16446113291049105
EDAnonymous,theorganicmeme,2019/01/31,"The limit does exist. So lately I've been stuck on this cycle of eating nothing or everything and It's making me  m i s e r a b l e. I used to be stuck b/p-ing several times a day for the past year and a half or something, without giving my weight that much of a shit. But a while ago I finally opened up about my ED for one of the most important humans in my little world, and actually discovered they're quite problematic with food too (people really be out here having ED tendencies without knowing).

So long story short they did the ""plz chill with the purging if you can"" thing. And it kinda worked. 

I've actually purged about 4 (four) times the last MONTH, and it was only when I got panic-y after accidentally eating too much. And though not b/p-ing is really amazing and all that, It sent me straight to a binge/fast cycle with a hint of laxative abuse (well hello again). And last night I had probably my biggest binge this month, which led me to dry fasting today and well that wasn't fun at all. So that kinda sent me over the edge, and I've decided to set my old 500 cal limit, which allows me to have at least 2 pretty decent meals without unleashing a binge. 

So now I just ate some oatmeal for the first time in almost a year and oh boy doesn't that tastes like heaven after a dry fast. Hopefully I'm able to up my cals all the way to my BMR until the end of the year. Lez go bois.",2.799047021943576,3.973671951724139,4.565391849529782,85.80924764890284,74.3103448275862,7.6175548589341675,22.492163009404386,8.150884317080207,1.0435862068965522,1086,27,233,17,22,369,174,290,0.087,0.84,0.07400000000000001,-0.5507,0,0,1,0,1,0,34.0,0,1,1,5,16,8,1,0,21,0,12,8,1,4,3,42,25,23,0,2,9,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,14,16,7,2,2,0,0,4,6,1,2,4,11,2,20,7,35,12,8,51,1,0,0,0,8,15,1,9,31,145,34,1,0.11841365763590896,0.14030082115396292,0.2311092969543556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10496656282296843,0.0,0.118574173304956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07636701305768125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10362458977274112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2423334675271432,0.0,0.0,0.1048793536297518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10642256012643356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12971637392627974,0.0,0.10072259669345912,0.14318626484319602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11359317037376035,0.06729721047829812,0.0,0.09470621930492606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1176114804628123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0650770494520147,0.19304587086723585,0.13357576354918865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05785093181602395,0.11868159333523158,0.0,0.104792360747282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07904203596909,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18903330358558254,0.0,0.17409532642493128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11112319613014324,0.0,0.11362109813566168,0.0,0.12425521436764796,0.0,0.08024015898363869,0.09005892255588166,0.0,0.13893291358791673,0.0,0.0,0.11303923499812113,0.08209312053478003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12046926029408,0.12766995075164486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1259475007210149,0.0,0.0,0.1517176424731171,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13377372802097054,0.12154991791327635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0911606188160104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07866877247885702,0.0,0.11634081740830213,0.0,0.2071438680747248,0.0,0.11224230169327493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10227138077151496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0939912497293085,0.0,0.1441959341754363,0.21293619824653595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3424396210793681,0.0,0.08620655305879753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2287635395197756
EDAnonymous,godonvideocall,2019/01/31,"i wanna go vegetarian again but now i’m questioning my motives i used to want to be vegetarian for animal rights/environmental reasons and now all i can think about is how easy it’ll be to skate by on egg whites and fruit and that one real meal a day i can/have to cook for myself that won’t ever be over 200.


it just really sucks that something i used to passionate about is reduced to this. i’m doing it anyway though, i’m hoping it’ll at least reduce the guilt i have about eating when i need to. 

i just wanna be normal lmao",4.27776061776062,4.528444729729732,6.115006435006437,79.46432432432434,70.17117117117118,8.865379665379669,23.96525096525097,8.841846274778883,1.426314285714286,419,9,89,7,7,146,71,111,0.07,0.762,0.168,0.9187,0,0,1,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,1,13,4,1,1,2,0,12,6,0,5,2,22,23,7,0,6,3,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,8,3,5,0,4,1,0,1,1,2,0,1,0,2,10,2,18,16,2,10,0,0,1,1,1,3,1,2,6,65,18,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1671993008474476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26528460862985503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2345127763024326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14734171326638268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25750067362412754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1922357616612477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2540167896779609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1756792356382858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2904271453411004,0.0,0.0,0.295091195713634,0.16608665660766406,0.2665593491165262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1995886852265008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16612140101053066,0.2547186612627652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4478295713565415,0.0,0.0,0.15291648075837916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,halfwayamused,2019/01/31,"I can't stop purging Before about four weeks ago, I'd purged maybe five times in my life. But something happened, suddenly a switch flipped, and now I can't stand to keep food inside me. I didn't eat for two days because I didn't trust myself not to purge. Broke my fast two hours ago because I was feeling dizzy and weak.

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And then I purged it. I only stopped when I noticed how badly my saliva glands are swollen. The shape of my face is changing. I'm horrified.

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But it's just so fucking easy to purge. Why let that food turn into fuel for my body, when I can donate it to my toilet instead? And it's strangely cathartic, too. I want to B/P right now. I always want to B/P. I want to eat just to have something to purge.

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I thought I wanted this. I was wrong, but I'm addicted now. I can't stop purging.",0.9778855569155454,3.2537563662790703,2.1416891064871493,95.83146266829868,84.17441860465115,4.318727050183599,23.006119951040397,5.399115186594226,0.12423953488372108,653,24,140,3,19,207,102,172,0.095,0.825,0.08,-0.5062,0,0,2,0,0,0,37.0,0,0,0,0,12,6,1,0,2,0,12,12,2,1,0,22,24,12,0,4,6,0,1,0,0,0,5,0,0,0,6,5,4,4,2,0,1,0,6,5,0,4,5,1,24,1,15,18,0,22,0,1,0,1,0,4,1,0,17,83,30,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11520587710659187,0.0,0.0,0.1873563880905565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08793352222725621,0.34350995886528896,0.3852352192058602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08823767968862896,0.12884206326693254,0.0,0.08992517674247798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11738571685959386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11179453278146954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06815431195876373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21627231552737308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05343455575938077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25557530592331523,0.0,0.0,0.09769867533593367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09345172721017446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10407267962274908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09393248807950308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10806409533844896,0.0746443120446487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10616891482156374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12031641770183485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08037375899339738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0902494204220452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16271395212086004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.265057515190591,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08389744410405663,0.06162236477001061,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11494857343566388,0.2064663561010715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2493292132304263,0.0,0.08476944317776584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09535899948974733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11554356552629275,0.3852352192058602,0.0
EDAnonymous,roseology,2019/01/31,"Extreme Hunger! (And other issues) I am so sick and tired of extreme hunger. I can never give into my ravenous craving to just eat everything in sight, so it just drags on and on endlessly, leaving me starving every day, even when I eat. I don’t restrict as much as I used to, as I’m in a weird sort of nebulous “quasi-recovery” (I sometimes still struggle to eat my maintenance and feel guilty whenever I do), but this is getting ridiculous. On top of the mental toll I deal with every day, eating at maintenance has done nothing to restore my hunger cues, energy levels, or period. WHAT THE HELL!!!
Has anyone been through this? Did eating regularly/in higher quantity do anything to help abate all of this and advance them on the road to “recovery”??? Or am I just screwed?? 
I don’t know how much more I can take :/",4.181730769230768,5.781877557692307,5.288974358974362,80.29769230769233,71.5,8.533333333333335,30.30769230769231,9.075114841892004,2.7034076923076933,633,27,117,13,12,209,98,156,0.249,0.7020000000000001,0.048,-0.9847,0,0,0,0,0,0,30.0,0,0,1,2,9,5,3,1,4,0,14,11,0,2,2,21,21,15,0,0,6,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,6,7,8,1,2,0,0,1,3,5,0,0,3,2,16,0,23,18,4,18,1,0,1,1,4,11,2,3,6,85,22,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09923910811344663,0.0,0.11679435734165584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18306317697700386,0.14632116812604887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14524125522750528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7261370563862575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09374186978772248,0.0,0.2391603213844149,0.0,0.12755541416852348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07176288085474013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07415133572898537,0.13614992795255754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09513110753632843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14813558555032294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07799972097885484,0.0,0.0,0.15028088142388102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14302968261621318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20866629632433176,0.0,0.10946334800405076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1361834014682472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1403700682136325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11334359920170757,0.0,0.0,0.1483735884766244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10671192457964916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16312494746840814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12257991460080593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,icy271,2019/01/31,"After hitting goal weight?? So I relapsed recently after gaining like 25 pounds (lmao kill me PLEASE) and all I've been thinking about is getting back to my lowest weight of 105 pounds, but I had a precious rare moment of self awareness where I suddenly realized that even if/when I do get back to my low weight, like... what am I gonna do then? Because I can't see myself actually being able to maintain that weight, I'll start eating again, and before ya know it I'll be back to my starting weight (or HIGHER). Do I just resign myself to a neverending cycle of gain weight, lose weight forever, or am I going to be restricting forever to maintain 100-105?

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Has anyone here been able to maintain a low weight without just fuckin losing it like me and bingeing forever?

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Also this is my first post on this new subreddit and also after a long time off reddit, so hi! RIP proed I'll miss you",6.611420454545453,6.5386282102272775,6.8285454545454565,77.4528181818182,65.19318181818181,9.312727272727274,32.372727272727275,8.841846274778883,2.6492540909090905,719,26,131,10,10,232,108,176,0.126,0.77,0.105,-0.4265,1,1,0,0,0,1,31.0,0,2,0,6,14,12,2,0,4,0,15,10,0,0,1,15,26,12,1,0,6,0,8,3,0,1,0,0,0,1,7,4,9,1,3,0,0,1,2,8,0,1,3,9,18,4,18,18,1,24,0,6,1,1,4,5,1,2,20,85,25,1,0.16420493598998787,0.0,0.08012016533972204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13131462798558394,0.0,0.17791597954105426,0.1995269703537237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05740795459956481,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18939519001574687,0.0,0.05004890244219157,0.0,0.06986315313123698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08401132166248389,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054227905783876214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06983631733447662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08579030174596831,0.0,0.04666072461367248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09083421634381086,0.0,0.04512136924501532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12033335611952252,0.0,0.0,0.07265810056157326,0.0,0.18370332137684356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0792950752024258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09012385495009168,0.0,0.0,0.07863146912084637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08106628222951559,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06542503714964491,0.0,0.08565078000170885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1162250988518807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052607946338834664,0.0,0.0,0.047874609338438776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.799829499873966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07914384931377139,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1995269703537237,0.0
EDAnonymous,luluaelita,2019/01/31,"Just googled “how many calories does a panic attack burns” I was going through shit but at least I am being somewhat positive, right? 
What are the craziest things your eds have made you google? 
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EDAnonymous,imrevolting,2019/01/31,"Everything’s fine Typing in “peanut butter cheeseburger” in MyFitnessPal and getting no results. I’ll just put in ,5000 calories. Everything is fine. Totally fine.... no guilt over here. *whistling*",5.0072043010752685,8.251225903225809,4.315322580645162,73.32631720430109,96.41935483870968,8.518279569892472,34.19892473118279,8.344100000000001,4.660156989247311,157,9,21,5,6,47,25,31,0.197,0.698,0.105,-0.4877,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,0,2,4,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,4,2,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,0,1,0,3,4,2,1,5,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,11,0,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8459792182235613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24589504663189635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4731329500000498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,The_Truth_Was_a_Cave,2019/02/01,Is anyone else's relationship with food really messed up from MinnieMaud and/or Maudsley could use some solidarity right about now lol,8.476363636363633,11.977762090909096,7.472727272727273,61.07909090909092,64.45454545454545,11.672727272727276,29.181818181818183,11.20814326018867,4.462381818181818,114,4,16,4,2,35,22,22,0.105,0.701,0.195,0.3197,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,1,0,4,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,2,1,3,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,1,8,0,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2574823885934753,0.3773060099731984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2940101540083888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30761776856693895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.44527799357254616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23590435683187894,0.0,0.0,0.3953525927485622,0.0,0.3144754592110021,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3180416451236036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,dothprotestaf,2019/02/01,"Today I gave away all my binge food to a homeless girl So, today I had a couple of wine glasses and, as usual, alcohol triggered my BED. On the way home, I bought all of this binge food. Like, a loooot of shit but all of it kinda real food cause idk, I guess it just makes me feel better about myself. Of course,  I left feeling anxious. I knew I was fucking up, but, at the same time, I could not stop it. 

So I'm on my way home, beating myself up, when I come across this really young girl with her two children selling lollipops at one a.m. 

So I gave her all my food. Left feeling lighter than I've ever been. Maybe I can do this. 

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EDAnonymous,whoawy,2019/02/01,"i’m so mean to me i don’t eat, don’t get enough sleep, then i overeat and purge, then chug coffee to give me energy even though it gives me anxiety, beat myself up over ever little mistake, exercise even though i’m exhausted, i never ever feel like i’m doing enough 

i lose my shit when other people are treated badly but i treat myself worst of all. sometimes i just sit and try to force myself to give me a BREAK but i just cannot ",2.6678021978021995,3.8919254505494494,4.2624175824175845,87.65758241758243,74.71428571428571,6.958241758241758,20.69230769230769,7.447530270364453,0.5595890109890109,340,7,72,4,7,114,61,91,0.2,0.743,0.057,-0.8738,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,2,10,9,1,0,1,0,5,6,2,0,4,13,14,10,0,1,4,0,1,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,2,2,0,2,1,0,0,4,6,0,0,0,1,15,3,7,14,4,11,0,1,0,0,3,3,1,0,7,51,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13306559390550105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1452347846831498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1779866792133704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3594583558696874,0.0,0.2297748608204024,0.3146820352884999,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08795059239702012,0.12426461045888718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09087781631280226,0.5005847037750897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08497955605063019,0.17433615667735636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1945972488308799,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1894744573765388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13415523719295505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12058988021216545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1785495537930073,0.0,0.0,0.17406819442043386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17203365454612518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3417953939053575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11809559065188965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,lavenderelf,2019/02/01,"I can't stop binging after reaching LW I reached my lowest weight on january 12th(?) and I'm sure I've gained since then from binging off and on. I can't stop shoving shit in my worthless fucking mouth and I can't stand this anymore. I'm fasting. 

I'd rather rot than keep doing this. I don't know what's wrong with me and I'm crying out of frustration",0.32066666666666777,2.6001661333333352,1.9773333333333305,95.72866666666668,87.66666666666666,4.4,23.0,5.82211442006289,0.2770000000000006,280,11,61,2,9,91,51,75,0.152,0.623,0.225,0.3927,1,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,1,1,6,3,0,0,0,5,4,2,0,1,12,11,5,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,6,1,3,1,0,0,0,4,5,0,0,0,1,8,1,10,11,0,11,0,1,0,1,0,5,2,0,5,32,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2834992220874838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3140070156928557,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26427568101626336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25408811502720946,0.0,0.0,0.15710279545821265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29343419919448743,0.23646877738593966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4779884346409228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2694224372081407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34810404810029594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.312546248570039,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,sakurahmilktea,2019/02/01,"I binged. I’m bloated. I feel awful. Now I have to go out with friends to a dance in front of tons of other people I know and have a “fun night”. It’s just been a rough past week and I binged after school from all the stress. There’s a school dance tonight that all of my friends have been excited about and that I kind of have to go to since it’s my last year and my friend group is uneven without me. I really didn’t want to go to begin with but am pretty much obligated to.

Usually before any events where I have to dress up I try to keep a good mentality about my health but stupid me binged and now none of my clothes are fitting right and I feel so disgusting and awful. I just want to stay home and cry.

They also planned on going out to eat afterwards and I’ve already had so much food today and I just have so much anxiety right now and I know it’s just going to keep getting worse. I don’t know what to do or wear. And I can’t even dance without feeling horribly self conscious. Fuck

Apologies that this was all over the place but that’s that state of mind I’m in.",1.3403722187564997,3.105316794759826,2.6270492825951344,95.65050946142652,79.74235807860263,5.933957163651487,20.51174880432523,6.868970318607317,0.1274464961530457,842,22,198,9,21,271,120,229,0.149,0.746,0.105,-0.9393,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,1,1,16,11,3,1,7,2,17,5,1,0,3,41,37,20,0,2,10,0,4,0,3,0,1,0,1,1,11,16,2,2,7,3,0,9,6,4,0,0,5,4,23,7,34,32,8,38,0,0,0,1,7,12,1,1,15,130,34,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13397548067464587,0.09708901605816213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08256082289880848,0.0,0.09287590983532948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10330828941581673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13335972661305426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12422951933202404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08018808104195761,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18416085743164665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14680564791923134,0.0,0.28139589916968105,0.11223867878570297,0.06343006953317726,0.0,0.3449915604070911,0.1018303077437743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12904980693655946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12178097193833948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21582397756870186,0.0,0.12642655425898625,0.2001660931641137,0.09896278872080484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12234955209455965,0.0,0.12258631179270578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26774401745353515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11393210671852155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11589657815549885,0.08416822495522074,0.0,0.12684432070110474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12351441551457815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07777633849320509,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20736157730933244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2457404326068101,0.0,0.0,0.126653824978173,0.0,0.0,0.10042900294800516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1294035510386122,0.0,0.0,0.1390711393148674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11507950041208205,0.0,0.0,0.0824272834728726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13371249576614755,0.0,0.1432178142612399,0.0,0.09738525390397744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2340637467372815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1237239547457718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07818203251146355
EDAnonymous,sepibad,2019/02/01,"do you guys have any REALLY MOTIVATIONAL fitness apps? i'm talking meanspo. a while ago i saw someone on r/proED post about this app called ""burn your fat with me"" which is basically a bunch of hot anime guys insulting you while you work out, then you eventually date. 

yeah, ik it's unhealthy but it motivated me lol. i haven't exercised in a long ass time

i deleted the app to go into ~~recovery~~ but obviously that didn't work out and i'm bummed that all of my progress was lost

do you guys have any fun/motivational fitness apps? ya girl is desperate ",2.210932721712542,4.784946293577985,3.9745183486238527,82.74569189602448,81.4770642201835,7.670030581039757,25.59709480122325,8.59863814320734,2.068320489296637,442,18,89,11,12,148,78,109,0.125,0.7120000000000001,0.163,0.6767,0,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,7,0,6,1,2,1,0,4,2,9,3,2,2,2,11,14,6,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,4,6,5,1,0,2,1,0,1,2,2,0,0,4,2,13,0,10,10,2,16,0,1,1,1,14,7,1,0,7,50,19,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19845557800994212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30449133526552724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2286058963366661,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12723582105334008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6650274061722684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19812622194939186,0.0,0.0,0.2443908091990577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21441457707859232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14342287496871245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18969228721128847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17994577952369697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13054587722796046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3259737359292641,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,sweatyandsweet,2019/02/01,"I'm back I deleted reddit thinking it would help me. Went on a 2 week binge-fest and gained 7lbs and I hate myself for it. I have exams at the moment and am struggling to keep it together, so I'm back. I feel so bloated and unmotivated.",0.06946666666666701,2.2865740800000047,2.764,90.08866666666668,88.2,4.933333333333334,20.333333333333336,6.42735559955562,0.23273333333333346,184,6,40,2,6,64,37,50,0.182,0.713,0.105,-0.5945,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,1,4,2,1,1,2,0,3,0,0,0,0,8,10,6,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,4,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,1,1,6,0,4,8,0,7,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,4,26,9,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5323422563173791,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17502590851646854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3417554990713151,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2320197897075358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3076776597406468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3618754126598651,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2218015635870456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2776639310605464,0.0,0.0,0.32088830911673005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2458979336733369,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,thekroganrebellions,2019/02/01,"2 month long b/p cycle :/ When I went home for winter break, I went from b/ping a couple times a week to b/ping at least 4x a day. I've been back at school for over 3 weeks at this point but I think I've only gone three days without b/ping. I usually only do it once a day now but I'm kind of scared that I'm now addicted to it.

 I keep telling myself that I'm probably royally fucking up my teeth,esophagus,stomach, electrolyte balance,ect but my ed is like ""it hasnt happened yet so  ¯\_(ツ)_/¯"" . Even when I tell myself that purging isnt an effective way to lose weight my ed is like ""well ur underweight and you've lost 6 lbs in 3 weeks so ¯\_(ツ)_/¯"". 

I hate that I'm like this. I just feel so lost rn.

Anyways, thanks for listening, fam. 
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EDAnonymous,alphaglucose,2019/02/01,"Yo British dudes, how do you figure out whether someone's talking about money or weight? Im sick and sober so sorry (ooh sibilance!)

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Anyway, if I said I was 7 stone 2 pounds, that could mean I'm 100lbs, or I'm 98 lbs and really cheap. 

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\*How do you knowwww\*",0.7618636363636355,3.308089254545454,1.2512500000000024,98.336875,92.8181818181818,3.4772727272727275,21.420454545454547,5.148860815047168,-0.16259090909090898,219,8,45,1,8,66,45,55,0.106,0.894,0.0,-0.6523,0,0,0,0,0,0,21.0,0,2,0,0,5,0,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,2,0,12,8,9,0,2,4,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,3,1,0,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,4,0,2,5,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,3,0,21,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4341492679042083,0.4868842491251617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1599598509622052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21640788673441666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2182353531713689,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1283466752617175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1905747725895177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16975238009746232,0.0,0.0,0.2242707653407245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16103039723811702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2439672596541169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4868842491251617,0.0
EDAnonymous,NopeEwNotThat,2019/02/01,"Low cal snack options for work? Alright. I'm embarrassed. I got yelled at today for eating too much candy. But basically my employer keeps two baskets FULL of fun sized candy. Like. Bags of it. Snickers, M&Ms, etc. Chips too. Doritos and cheetos and ugh my fat ass grabs one every damn time I walk past them. 

SO. What snacks can I buy to replace them? Recommendations? Low cal. Healthy. Cheap preferably.",1.1798325722983272,2.5978457123287697,1.8327625570776256,89.14600837138512,119.27397260273972,3.814003044140029,23.233637747336374,5.82211442006289,0.8870614916286148,319,14,55,4,18,98,61,73,0.189,0.688,0.122,-0.6946,1,0,0,0,0,0,20.0,0,0,2,1,3,8,1,1,0,1,1,5,2,0,0,6,4,4,0,1,1,0,1,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,2,4,1,1,0,2,1,0,5,0,2,1,2,7,3,6,3,3,8,0,2,0,1,2,4,2,1,4,27,9,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33474685288120626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3161326554866073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3445605641465385,0.0,0.0,0.26030343315128884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2470952849020724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27460867398239835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15093720965574722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22711356550187056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20935230114943995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.294927431186351,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18015104489545425,0.0,0.2928481753206417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3017989485326154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2249190490848918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,lmaothrowaway19,2019/02/01,"How to eat? I feel like I dont know how to eat anymore and I'm really scared. 

I lost 30ish pounds over last summer in a (sort of?) healthy way, but then somehow I could never bring myself to up my calories to maintain my weight. Last semester I was obsessing over the smallest calorie, exercising constantly, and restricting to the max. 

However, this winter break my mom told me I looked way too thin and just kept buying me sweets and unhealthy food, encouraging me to eat more. I dont know what switch flipped in my head but I started to CONSTANTLY binge on all the foods that were taboo to me before, and now I'm afraid I cant stop. 

I'm stuck in an endless loop of having a huge binge one day, feeling like a fat bloated fuck, then not eating for 2-3 days just to maintain my weight. I dont know how its come to this point, but even the smallest meal/amount of food makes me binge and I'm sick of it. I have so much shit on my plate bc of uni, I don't have time to be dealing with this crap. Im imo thinking about food and I cant even sit down to have a meal with friends because I'm always lying to them about having eaten already/being full. I really want to stop this but I'm afraid I cant. 

Sorry for the long rant, but would anyone have any suggestions on how to at least curb the urges/stop binging? I'm too afraid to reach out to anyone or ask for help.",2.32637731833384,3.7150487097902136,3.4525722103982983,92.45705229553057,75.88811188811191,6.5123745819398,22.924293098206142,7.079830092131019,0.5533264214046825,1065,30,241,11,23,344,156,286,0.138,0.733,0.13,-0.8572,1,0,0,0,0,0,31.0,0,0,1,1,15,14,3,5,11,0,18,19,4,5,2,44,44,20,0,3,9,1,5,2,1,1,3,0,0,0,8,11,13,6,6,1,1,2,9,9,0,1,7,7,28,5,41,34,5,39,0,1,1,1,9,16,3,3,19,142,36,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07851674836255948,0.0,0.0,0.06416940004460035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09358175434851597,0.13196021755798154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0882157378865935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057522203158757536,0.0,0.08029511720797745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0812845129804635,0.0,0.20394361202641012,0.0,0.07534038366495448,0.0,0.0,0.12171137528324627,0.0972830849969879,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3317747055751809,0.0,0.0,0.3862235594786016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12465043032570047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09542453121760648,0.13482447220423213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4564116499508323,0.0,0.07290385193495888,0.08723615422662066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09684264182710332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06324886370741509,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10192715932540647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15557667252609386,0.15383525880641966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09220101966574644,0.0,0.0,0.08350740611064718,0.0792403195511001,0.0,0.10300727663755888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06298737188869351,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11051564122865293,0.0,0.0,0.069366932007539,0.0,0.0727777964344802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0639421375265029,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08920259637920445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12090143493099205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09447282981708556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0968612433722948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10563054043852192,0.0667899136851862,0.0,0.0,0.2366725873670749,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060463363418663464,0.0,0.0,0.05502324466940376,0.0,0.0,0.09016694074366917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055657156107242506,0.14980033670433748,0.0,0.22981500462102386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06703206184457093,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,coconutfi,2019/02/01,"You can be in recovery even if you practice bad habits. The definition of recovery: the action or process of regaining possession or control of something lost or stolen.

Your eating disorder has, in some way or another, stolen your life from you.  I used to think black and white about this.  My ED has stolen a part of me, and recovery would be my being whole again.

I would picture myself now, a mess, and imagine recovery as some low but healthy weight with happy healthy meals and being zen and one with the world.  Wonderful to fantasize about, but obviously can't happen yet based on my current behaviors and how I feel about myself.

But guess WHAT.  It's not black and white.  It's the action/process/journey of gaining your life back.  Some days that means choosing to eat at maintenance, but maybe other days it just means adding creamer to your coffee again.  Maybe still restricting but choosing to incorporate healthier foods to be kinder to your body.  Maybe you had x amount of B/P sessions today and on that day recovery is giving your body rest and telling yourself it's okay.  Just giving yourself at least one kind thought that day is recovery.

Recovery doesn't have to mean taking significant positive action every single day.  If you have the desire to get better, just taking one small baby step or one tiny win each day as you go is you recovering.  Even if 99% of your day was filled with bad behaviors.  That 1% or even .1% of effort you give is enough to say ""I took a step towards recovery today.""  And some days you'll realize you can give 5% or maybe even 15%.  Taking each day as it comes and doing your best, whatever that is on a given day, is enough to be in recovery.    


I'll get off my soapbox.  I've just been proud of myself lately even though from an outside view I still would be considered quite sick.",5.16037572254335,6.617411881502893,5.324941040462426,81.53595491329482,68.91329479768785,8.888601156069365,28.868901734104053,9.281916038205594,2.448932393063584,1445,52,271,29,25,455,175,346,0.07200000000000001,0.7559999999999999,0.172,0.9934,1,0,1,0,0,0,44.0,0,18,0,9,21,12,0,0,10,1,29,10,2,3,1,62,53,31,0,7,20,0,2,0,0,4,3,1,0,0,13,17,5,2,11,0,0,8,3,5,0,4,7,8,31,7,41,35,15,43,1,2,5,0,24,13,0,16,21,186,44,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08149136536487382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05975833989333393,0.12977821344324905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08155750996894118,0.06873294935947832,0.0,0.17264856319376182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06694492941087002,0.0,0.0,0.08716442117526288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5011999905071197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08906857296805266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1590444967808584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16060155056444966,0.0,0.25665141960050303,0.0,0.06547857017831936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.039295237630096964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0939737613227776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08120617019145535,0.29820674468438346,0.044167448617379236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08561226675834592,0.0,0.06872346509631316,0.08272948062984475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08092862231929701,0.0,0.0,0.08766634799801266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10978536034763026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08483553152326483,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3123022304614528,0.25396453706082256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2106478455063493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08415819697301419,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08265988630207244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06180239953416316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0598291061229505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12412722598182535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.175296910507683,0.0,0.06792667865522803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0497968856254212,0.0763549787348486,0.06169734090187349,0.0,0.0,0.14733021049461684,0.0,0.086344660798191,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06712114697103187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06168686136316474,0.0,0.09463641164714204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08676646056117003,0.0,0.0,0.08427902825507919,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1656203556092569,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,dwaiiiii,2019/02/01,Little poop balls I’ve been pooping little balls for like 3 months now. Not all the time but 75% of my poops are little balls. Does anyone have any advice? 😭😭,0.3931818181818159,2.70684460606061,1.5729545454545466,98.47943181818184,87.78787878787878,3.3000000000000003,11.280303030303033,3.1291,-1.7780242424242425,124,1,27,0,4,39,28,33,0.0,0.947,0.053,0.1576,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,3,3,3,0,1,3,3,1,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,2,2,1,6,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,4,11,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.271770160778608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1891273205103528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1944640462849733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24337977476035105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13587264167644572,0.8362310389109928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22198825080881746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16217073594076015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,incerta,2019/02/01,"I literally ONLY look good/normal when I don’t eat As soon as I put any food in my body, no matter how little, I blow up. I get so bloated. Thanks IBS, you’re the real mvp. ",0.7699999999999996,1.5227547179487182,4.003076923076924,89.51692307692308,78.74358974358974,6.2256410256410275,18.128205128205128,6.42735559955562,-0.2231948717948717,130,2,32,1,3,48,34,39,0.064,0.812,0.124,0.2682,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,0,1,0,1,3,1,1,0,3,4,5,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,1,6,1,4,4,0,6,0,0,1,0,0,3,0,0,2,17,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2086364463483973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34078878239376154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3139358903528695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37098720204476615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16029181680097854,0.0,0.0,0.25733165916072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30749703746982354,0.0,0.0,0.2576371084529737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23333737865682186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3084215854801079,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3492087902879825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2824628272705021,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,suicidalretarded,2019/02/01,"My mom is controling me I have ed since I was a teenager (always been underweight) and now with 21 years old, my mom always ask me if I already ate some food and I always lie about have eaten something and hide in my room. But now I have a stock pile of food in my bedroom, thinking about what should I do. I'm almost 2 days without eating, only with water, coffe, and cigarettes. At least my belly is flat and I lost almost 5kg. I am doing this for 2 years now, spending days without eating and then eat 1 chicken breast after 3 days",4.1966883116883125,4.499443318181823,5.342207792207791,84.75045454545456,70.36363636363636,7.376623376623378,26.623376623376625,6.868970318607317,1.1682467532467538,415,12,85,3,7,138,72,110,0.042,0.958,0.0,-0.4588,0,0,2,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,2,5,1,0,0,2,0,11,9,1,1,0,18,17,9,0,2,4,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,2,8,8,1,1,0,1,0,2,1,0,0,5,0,15,0,12,11,2,15,0,1,0,1,3,4,0,4,11,56,17,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2889816867049831,0.0,0.1592333897627565,0.0,0.3601956065060039,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1348965746123877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16183938569789094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2791754851868885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4429501735442465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3489647633549535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15751530408803674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3379936913751645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1514135853914123,0.0,0.0,0.10974303517216408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1193625168529144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11108552837542586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09245856589905817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2781909318471433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.185842812321379
EDAnonymous,Lana_Del_Rayquaza_,2019/02/01,"I Ate Cereal For The First Time In 4 Years I measured everything out so I knew my calorie limit. With my cup of coffee and creamer, I am at 635 calories from one bowl of cereal. Does that scare the shit out of me? Absolutely. Am I proud of myself for making an effort toward recovery anyway? Yes. Very much so. 

I have to remind myself that if I want to feel strong and build muscle that I have to eat more and not just deprive myself of things I used to love because fuck that. 

My next goal: Girl Scout Cookies season is among us and I'm going to get a box of Thin Mints and eat them. I haven't had a thin mint since I was 14 years old (23 now) and they used to be my favorite. 

I'm dedicated to recovering and not letting food control me. I just wanted to share this with some people who understand the small feats.

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EDAnonymous,snooze_schmooze,2019/02/01,"People wonder where all the food goes I eat all the fuckin time at work and I'm one of the few that's not overweight. 

They say ""you're metabolism is so good, it just goes right through you!"" 

And I'm like haha yes straight into the toilet the same way it went in kek",-0.17120300751879824,2.0219687719298283,1.2488721804511298,100.61210526315791,89.35087719298247,3.9588972431077702,15.160401002506266,5.288315135182226,-1.1322862155388471,208,4,50,1,7,66,45,57,0.0,0.7390000000000001,0.261,0.9354,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,1,1,1,3,4,1,0,5,2,1,4,0,0,2,9,5,3,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,3,3,3,0,1,0,0,1,1,1,0,1,1,1,3,3,5,4,4,9,0,0,0,1,3,6,1,1,2,28,6,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33574666680196824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3967616329968309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2752098421391665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1603018990882258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22234127376070476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22747573307295985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2802110109527729,0.0,0.2609326328662524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19132826614017065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2604448252830128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3041687077480013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35583001475291925,0.23887383894043765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,titiparisienne,2019/02/01,"I think I just purged blood I was b/ping coffee and chocolate ice cream when I noticed a few red spots in one round.  I did it again, and the next one was like 1/3 red.  I haven't eaten anything red since having strawberries two days ago.

How fucked am I?",1.3769811320754712,3.2632383962264164,2.1251320754717007,98.70618867924532,80.13207547169812,4.994716981132076,18.147169811320754,5.6839178017228535,-0.5968309433962267,197,4,46,1,5,61,42,53,0.09,0.8590000000000001,0.051,-0.4404,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,0,4,2,1,0,2,0,6,3,1,1,0,5,9,4,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,3,4,5,7,1,1,5,1,6,0,0,5,1,0,1,1,0,6,27,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29090518295953866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2700580634166597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2116441589412234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3033902533365169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1603285413156136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3490152517767537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3736266466417081,0.0,0.0,0.4447564539043896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27146774156976505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2102797321568356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3205769160512485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,FrankWest21CP,2019/02/01,Today has started off so well :/ I ate some peanut butter and started freaking out so I bought laxatives and took the max dose. I can’t wait to do this full time shift with cramps and sludge shits :/,3.7892307692307696,5.291889974358977,3.3979487179487187,93.85538461538464,72.33333333333333,6.2256410256410275,23.256410256410252,6.42735559955562,0.3580871794871792,155,4,33,1,3,46,33,39,0.245,0.696,0.06,-0.8184,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,3,3,1,0,1,0,3,4,1,0,0,7,9,5,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,5,1,1,0,0,1,1,1,2,1,0,3,1,3,1,4,6,2,8,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,1,4,20,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40770353371723467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.562257573371358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2316011080105592,0.0,0.3764838662051108,0.0,0.4412858926127655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3571159979859762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,princesszelda00,2019/02/01,"""What happened to counting calories?????"" Trying to bring myself down from a couple days of binging, trying not to go super low at first so I don't binge again you know?? I was at like 900 cals for the day and I was making 150 cals oatmeal for dinner and my roommate (a clueless guy) was like ummm food at 9pm?? What happened to counting calories??? ....... time to count calories until no one can deny I am counting them when I get back to underweight aka normal to guys sigh.",2.8528260869565223,4.762324500000002,3.9015217391304375,87.57336956521742,75.73913043478261,5.034782608695653,25.630434782608692,5.148860815047168,0.6738869565217391,362,13,68,1,8,117,66,92,0.138,0.799,0.063,-0.8023,0,0,0,0,0,0,25.0,0,1,1,2,4,5,0,0,3,0,6,2,0,1,0,6,13,5,0,1,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,2,2,0,1,0,0,2,3,1,1,2,3,0,9,3,16,10,0,15,0,1,0,0,4,5,0,0,10,46,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17821781167641146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2564505183469239,0.0,0.2989466095606215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19714453650890068,0.28025875765359143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1210909303368868,0.0,0.13172096236223813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4589800220990238,0.4099091635459377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12737543682109415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22646348513409,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15470913238337947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22708664946806545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15705422091502955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13514770006223914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3147149771182813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,operadiva31,2019/02/01,"Stopped myself Had a rough day yesterday. I purged at work, I had a small binge in the afternoon. I felt really shitty all day. And I planned this huge binge for when I got home from work, but I stopped myself halfway through, AND I DIDN’T PURGE!!! I stopped when I was full instead of when I hated myself, and I was okay. ",3.2212499999999977,4.672112375000001,3.7832500000000016,90.73675000000004,73.6875,6.995000000000001,26.8625,7.554174236665415,1.2881287500000005,248,9,53,3,5,78,40,64,0.241,0.6940000000000001,0.066,-0.9024,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,3,4,2,1,0,3,1,5,0,0,0,1,9,8,7,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,3,0,3,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,7,2,14,1,6,1,2,15,0,0,0,0,0,5,0,0,10,39,15,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3443871091695033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2563628284097958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21354508825794585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2636082070908342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2678237698611514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17104767559084727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6696743668644844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.388759811477274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Cheskaz,2019/02/01,"My life is just an endless cycle of waiting to eat and waiting to weigh myself I fast until 6 pm so I can scoff down the 400-800 calories I'm allowed and then I stare at the clock, planning tomorrows meal, screaming at myself not to binge until I finally fall asleep so I can wake up and weigh myself.

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And then I stare at the clock, adjusting today's meal, screaming at myself not to binge, until 6 pm finally rolls around.

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My psychologist has always emphasised how small one's world gets when restricting and goddamn it, I'm so bored but I'm also completely incapable of forming any interest in anything or finding any motivation to do anything.

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I almost can't stand when I'm not rostered to work on a day, because at least that's something to do.",6.653933333333335,7.0801343933333385,7.036666666666665,74.29833333333335,65.06666666666666,9.6,36.66666666666667,9.444778638647367,3.570266666666667,629,30,108,11,9,205,90,150,0.092,0.8590000000000001,0.05,-0.4696,1,0,1,0,0,0,24.0,0,0,0,3,9,4,0,0,5,0,7,8,2,3,0,21,14,19,0,0,6,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,2,6,5,3,3,0,0,1,4,3,0,1,0,4,13,1,22,14,2,29,0,0,2,0,0,12,0,2,15,72,15,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13304226360065058,0.0,0.0,0.10624982315501824,0.11055196236359903,0.4318682918881848,0.4843262088912227,0.18070165274465624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2186684778949769,0.11827549282274875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08099154092976457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13930344931787852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08568510324321779,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13595116106391752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2910880090023677,0.1214336093017362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06941499609567853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09384447440294733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09003083964502055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1022837835632725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12593779465461627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09672523650369523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4843262088912227,0.0
EDAnonymous,Braseford,2019/02/01,"So close to unsubscribing, then suddenly back I haven’t been following my ED subreddits since mid December. I’ve been so close this week to thinking “why do I still follow these? I should delete and move on. I don’t look at them anymore anyway. I haven’t tracked my calories since December either. This is my recovery!”
And then suddenly I’m back, with new vigor. On my subreddits, in MyFitnessPal. 
It feels like a big fuck you to the world. A way to fight back to all the things I feel are so unfair and I feel so powerless against. 

Thanks for reading ❤️",2.0380886850152926,4.569171944954132,3.3249770642201852,87.40257262996944,81.8440366972477,7.670030581039757,24.679663608562695,8.59863814320734,1.9493296636085635,438,17,89,11,12,142,71,109,0.133,0.7959999999999999,0.071,-0.8288,1,0,0,0,1,0,13.0,0,1,1,0,9,5,2,0,4,0,9,1,0,0,1,13,19,9,0,1,1,0,3,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,5,6,0,0,4,1,0,3,3,2,0,0,2,4,13,3,12,16,2,23,0,0,1,1,3,9,1,0,11,59,18,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21569638808115926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5017202027348845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3299157008959506,0.1553783207092799,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2010704277534356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10625696781253396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18264084528610044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2311625405338472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21005782249871946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21755364616497885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35982787395709565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17369161943387945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20023998035206494,0.0,0.0,0.1444938735251643,0.13936187872770972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1726372399481497,0.17446120064132428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1962552179097045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,kiara47,2019/02/01,"I feel like I failed I haven’t gotten my period in 3 months and it decided to come back today. Up until 2 weeks ago, I was super crazy restricting down to less than 150cals a day and then I saw an ED nutritionist who wanted me up to 800. I tried, but I can’t bring myself to eat more than 400 and most days I’m still below 200. But I guess my body is thinking that’s enough to start repairing itself and I am SO MAD that I got my period because it feels like I failed. Like, I should be glad my body is showing signs of recovery, right? ",2.8363695652173924,3.4618014521739155,4.586684782608696,87.78176630434784,73.6086956521739,8.184782608695654,22.20108695652174,8.472884824447931,0.9916304347826088,417,9,96,7,8,142,81,115,0.145,0.73,0.125,-0.5169,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,3,3,8,1,0,2,0,8,3,2,0,0,17,20,9,0,2,2,0,2,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,6,5,1,1,4,1,0,2,2,3,0,0,4,3,18,5,14,14,4,21,0,2,1,0,1,6,0,2,16,62,24,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1827176178233885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15849761175340324,0.0,0.12565205337010238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4579174218646639,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17755867130115308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2658674978187214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2109176137362868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21298250799632915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2084462630243712,0.29451187275018104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16485721089715427,0.0,0.2270702272220713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3021071901186669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16452722653544485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1760298570816517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14589652930701166,0.0,0.16461190945741894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13207675210647993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1953826574182312,0.0,0.0,0.13994553009898944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12157802666761434,0.0,0.1653412608933313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,pistachiocreams,2019/02/01,good morning i weighed myself for the first time in 2 months and i gained 7 lb!!! which i know could be a lot worse but my progress is gone. i don’t know if i can ever get back into the heavy restrictive crazy mindset i was in over the summer because at school everything is so much harder. i’m constantly wanting to go out to eat to socialize with friends or on film sets where they cater and it my lack of willpower makes starving impossible. i dont know what to do but at least i cant hide from it anymore. i guess fasting tomorrow and everyday after that for the rest of my life LOL because now i don’t know how i am ever going to get to 90lb if i am 20lb away from it. i honestly wish i could ask for tips but i know we can’t ask for tips on how to literally starve ourselves but make it easy.,2.8788759689922507,3.5348899883720932,4.406976744186046,88.99596899224808,73.53488372093022,7.826356589147288,27.124031007751928,8.07648339933343,1.4363007751937986,626,22,145,9,12,210,107,172,0.08800000000000001,0.741,0.171,0.9413,1,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,1,0,1,3,8,3,0,0,5,1,15,3,0,4,2,33,33,13,0,7,7,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,7,7,2,1,5,1,0,3,5,0,0,1,2,0,21,3,27,28,5,28,0,0,0,0,6,11,0,5,13,99,28,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15656309478050334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2951714044691833,0.0,0.14832261770615274,0.12139110341294335,0.0,0.19247029953271536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17059972471052212,0.0,0.25209024367307803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18502066290006594,0.0,0.0,0.1615388495601296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2856021258579994,0.0,0.0,0.14188199513253144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1342828339857586,0.0,0.0,0.12196878290877815,0.0,0.1649595122802209,0.0,0.17944057121293047,0.13241257675093387,0.0,0.0,0.1739099102489987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.433801893255567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11150716414624716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13421412181803674,0.0,0.0,0.2107568498504158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.126009101018395,0.0,0.11605148488756975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1597713127570623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16092701719027647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09205437032334604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09311490971177404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1815409414106736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16088145088322367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Starbar_,2019/02/01,"'Self recovery'. Why do I do this. Just today...

Tell myself my bmr is 20% lower because I *definitely* don't have much muscle.

Tell myself my activity level *can't* be above sedentary.

Tell myself my workout only burnt half the calories all the sources I can find claim because *everyone* knows it's exaggerated. 

I'm not going to measure the amount of milk I'm putting in my tea because *that's* disordered but it was *at least* 200ml so I'll log it as that.

Eww I can't eat this bruised part of this banana. It's only a *tiny* piece anyway how much difference does it *really* make?

Same thing with the milk in my tea but for butter on toast or bread since it's always *so much more* than you expected.

Cooked myself dinner for the next few days and split it into three equal portions. Oh no, I must have portioned it wrong! This looks like half and not a third! *silly me!*

Wow look I've eaten my maintainance calories today again! I am doing so well!! I'm basically recovered!! 😮

I'm fully aware of what I'm doing. I'm not even in denial. Who am I even trying to fool?",-0.2340394600207673,1.971974261682245,2.0021651090342694,91.2957814122534,100.77570093457943,4.433852544132918,17.15939771547248,6.286939319323684,0.016294288681204968,828,24,167,11,36,277,135,214,0.073,0.8690000000000001,0.058,0.457,1,0,0,0,0,0,44.0,0,1,0,0,10,6,0,0,7,0,16,9,0,2,2,19,28,10,0,2,7,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,17,4,9,0,2,2,0,2,7,2,1,4,2,3,19,4,16,24,14,14,0,0,2,0,6,7,0,1,6,109,36,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1266578805003484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.278372722472782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09816825803187113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15903580201286874,0.1744554433213647,0.0,0.1332073242091278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1557573971892425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2010775998466848,0.0,0.0,0.14545117881167138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13912483547853854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08650920938951419,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08365523708165565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07436620832099439,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2556501926994852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1016069461367731,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3356940564190324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16188596682696035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2315378641524291,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1648376646532784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15302150810907428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0975149876756248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.158796960889285,0.0,0.0,0.12591661133039325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3991367025402822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10112712343380327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2885704388200698,0.0,0.0,0.1033462835576225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13686259823991542,0.0,0.13735340580115493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16642689550399012,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,medievalrockstar,2019/02/01,"I did a thing! Or I guess I didn’t do a thing?

I got into this bad habit of binging whenever my SO wasn’t home. It was like the most deluded, indulgent “self care” (it’s not self care it’s abusing my body)
So yesterday I get out of work early, absolutely starving. I run through the grocery store on my way home. Grab cookie dough, some stuff for dinner, and I’m looking at the ice cream. I don’t know what flipped, but I just...walked away. I realized it wasn’t good, or healthy, or real self care. It was my ED. 
Still got the cookie dough, but didn’t eat it all. Didn’t have a massive binge. Actually made a nutritious dinner for me and the SO. 

My SO doesn’t really know about my ED, so I wanted to share my little victory with someone. 
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EDAnonymous,RainyDayDaydream,2019/02/01,"So sick of this My weight...I just want to loose some fucking weight to be skinny and wispy again. Like 5kg. Is that asking too much? Im trying my best, but goddamn I cannot for the life of me fast or restrict well. Like in the good ole days. Why. Im sick of being hungry and just binging. Im gaining and dont know how to stop the binging and the ""little"" snacks between meals. 
I recently worked on a job and the model had my goal body. I wanted to kill myself everyday I was on that job, because I had to look at her and compare. 
Ive been drinking fluids, lots of diet sprite, filling up on high volume low cal foods and it just doesnt work. Im still fucking hungry. Fuck me and fuck my body. ",0.18918918918918948,2.2157092027027048,2.129662162162159,96.269222972973,85.35135135135134,4.2405405405405405,18.70945945945946,5.148860815047168,-0.5134675675675675,534,14,121,2,16,177,97,148,0.222,0.6679999999999999,0.11,-0.9731,2,0,1,0,0,1,22.0,0,0,0,5,9,11,5,0,6,0,11,16,3,1,0,21,20,12,1,2,5,0,1,2,0,0,3,0,0,0,4,8,7,2,1,1,0,1,3,6,1,0,4,2,14,5,17,14,4,17,0,1,1,4,2,9,4,3,9,74,18,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11223086577248813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0731815752643545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12598542921590866,0.0,0.0,0.2666977369191301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07742254018188557,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14069810875085628,0.1176036332018472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14516535215202325,0.0,0.0,0.443938433212555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10069253256187184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1268397793608107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5186998878375507,0.0,0.2382628841392116,0.0,0.13281791838734625,0.0,0.06597652932047447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08479510807948078,0.11730106792844185,0.12032198276377327,0.0,0.0,0.1008120532726408,0.0,0.0,0.10206250918933488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08825081580336196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11853523144154927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09587235956968107,0.10036746284798834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08150630307396177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14161760624573658,0.0,0.0,0.2923779537987137,0.10793967647044277,0.0,0.10832676257030308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17479616004086404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,chimpansies,2019/02/01,Nothing like a good ol’ divorce to trigger my eating disorder! Not even posting this on my alt account because idgaf. My soon to be ex-husband is a POS and this whole process has depleted any sort of appetite that I had before. I went from bingeing constantly to not eating for 2-3 days at a time. I’ve lost 25 pounds in less than a month and I feel really good about it. Hoping to lose 50 more.  It’s all about cOnTrOl right??? ,2.089568965517241,4.05174765517242,3.435158045977012,89.80377155172415,78.19540229885058,6.189080459770117,26.96695402298851,7.1686216300943375,1.3266333333333329,334,14,69,4,8,109,69,87,0.177,0.7909999999999999,0.032,-0.8923,0,0,0,0,1,0,11.0,0,0,0,3,4,6,0,0,4,0,4,2,0,2,1,10,8,2,0,1,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,2,2,1,1,0,1,1,2,2,0,0,3,1,6,4,13,4,4,11,0,2,0,0,1,4,0,2,6,42,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14137838991181745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12673324764004734,0.0,0.17690666237730787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2246648673749012,0.23317630879157164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13407759975579106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23827016567073125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.425464979781204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13731527121193354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10511993701248876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34875148884320184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20649053004427914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10156890745052184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23258570502361706,0.22694622218841634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16594292878470376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19948461396729214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1991096899657925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.133185367142998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.177544535654037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1212275279756006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1927243750842796,0.0,0.2321117117256196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,dipledcongress,2019/02/01,"I CANT GET MYSELF TO DO THIS SHIT i want to restrict so badly. 

i used to be so good at counting calories and refusing every single food that i was offered / saw.

i hate my body too much. wayyyy too much. i look in the mirror and it’s like this big fat elephant. ESPECIALLY when i’m tying clothes in the fitting room. it’s like i’m taking up the whole space.

i barely fucking eat or i try to be healthy at least and work the fuck out but IT JUST ISNT WORKING.

smoking to suppress my appetite doesn’t work as it used to!!!! 

WHY?

seriously, i need to get my shit together. ",-0.5895103578154419,1.610750237288137,1.7666666666666693,94.07263653483992,97.47457627118642,3.9781544256120527,20.962335216572505,5.82211442006289,0.14066516007532925,440,17,94,4,18,148,78,118,0.177,0.75,0.073,-0.9282,0,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,0,3,6,10,5,0,4,0,7,8,4,2,0,14,21,9,0,2,3,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,1,0,7,4,3,3,0,0,0,0,3,7,0,0,2,2,13,3,14,17,5,11,0,0,2,2,2,10,4,1,3,61,20,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14968918395691294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19913683391171766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18344559001326732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15104898544383444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21678300652396654,0.0,0.0,0.3314782309850769,0.1873301384833861,0.0,0.0,0.15036942093741024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17699936787845796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17517181474109242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15054790746080082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2635791102274944,0.13293195900709612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3680514562878968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13479433251476952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1217176217953382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30967631468403245,0.0,0.0,0.10574248608072608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16177001556408166,0.20015687273905589,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39154836061865467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,tobethinspo,2019/02/02,"I vow I vow not to comment on:
- Other people's weight, regardless on if it's changed or not
- How much or how little someone eats
- How fast or slow they eat
- Someone's food choices (e.g. diet vs regular soda)
- 

I will not say something to anyone that I would find triggering or hurtful in return.  You never know who is struggling, and even if they aren't, unsolicited comments can have a bigger impact than we intend",3.536410714285714,5.644199962500004,4.797142857142859,81.02500000000002,74.375,6.571428571428572,27.67857142857143,7.447530270364453,1.781107142857143,327,13,57,4,7,108,62,80,0.08199999999999999,0.918,0.0,-0.7351,0,0,1,0,0,0,14.0,1,1,2,0,4,2,0,1,1,0,6,6,0,5,1,22,7,10,0,4,10,0,1,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,4,2,6,0,2,0,0,0,5,2,0,0,0,2,8,0,6,5,1,9,0,1,0,0,8,5,0,6,4,41,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15723605587831088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23788525065030014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4602013417643416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14852614212564147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20552935884700527,0.0,0.2719166769471596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2407306244070065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12358402568777305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22538128576683675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16530713572750838,0.0,0.17343550774072092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15589825295383936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17882760966615754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3810674192391211,0.1731178096170175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2350855251732649,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2738340810357353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1597429470317488,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,lilyhearts,2019/02/02,"PSA: don’t binge on 10 fiber one bars... ...after eating a pound of sugar free gummies :(
RIP my stomach",1.4680000000000002,3.583901800000003,3.0599999999999987,90.935,81.0,4.0,20.0,3.1291,-0.3584999999999998,76,2,15,0,2,25,20,20,0.125,0.733,0.142,0.1027,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,4,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,1,2,3,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,7,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8337539001546567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5521362458459859,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,cummo22,2019/02/02,"Experiences with Topamax / Topimirate for controlling binges and weight loss? I think it may just be making me lose focus. It worked for what like, a day? I guess I take it pretty irregular. Anyone else have any tips? I definitely noticed anger outbursts coming out of nowhere. ",4.255625000000002,7.572599979166667,4.492500000000003,77.1025,80.45833333333334,7.366666666666666,26.75,8.344100000000001,2.525725,221,9,35,5,6,69,42,48,0.16899999999999998,0.677,0.154,-0.212,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,4,1,4,1,0,1,0,3,1,0,2,0,10,8,1,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,4,1,1,1,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,0,1,5,1,5,6,0,3,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,2,2,20,9,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1783327537752287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18336488240140048,0.26869671563172043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2258972505432384,0.0,0.0,0.2941253842817192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16912363762903865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2190685594691868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2565218471408345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2888878342792668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12811762091003187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29338040482343664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1750477871722028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2985629176410847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2667931965340239,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1971724642970988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16803333198484535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3193386770364758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19091444403819205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Heartfr0st,2019/02/02,"Hot with my current body, but also not?? Wtf brain So, woke up today, and for once in a very very long time, I looked at my body and the little bit of fat on my stomach, and I though, you know I actually look super hot.

It was the most empowering feeling. 

But my ED brain went, yeah! You’re super hot! But you still have to starve yourself, just cuz. No reason in particular, you just have to do it.

Like wtf, my brain literally told me I look great, but I still have to suffer??? I thought I was starting to understand my brain and then this happens, I’m just so confused.

Has anyone else experienced anything like this at all?",1.1583657142857149,3.5110872880000024,2.8073428571428565,90.8381,84.12,5.491428571428571,20.92857142857143,6.868970318607317,0.4085771428571428,481,15,103,6,14,158,78,125,0.132,0.654,0.214,0.9311,2,0,0,0,0,0,25.0,0,3,0,2,9,7,0,1,3,1,7,8,8,2,1,22,20,14,0,0,8,0,4,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,4,5,1,0,5,0,0,1,2,2,0,0,6,8,17,5,13,14,3,16,0,1,3,0,4,7,0,2,10,67,21,0,0.0,0.0,0.13055253175546475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1069859071518016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09354391349664637,0.137076096549743,0.110091691347878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14605596382558034,0.29720464746249936,0.0,0.5973825619724134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11175820641577787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06764450876837698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14749580294742815,0.0,0.0,0.11830352270831485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0735234252978933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1307188540231913,0.13408532401660242,0.0,0.11839340246785185,0.33703110231435307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14247411647976002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13755080745962767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0946920219416938,0.0,0.2136779348521063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13144073786139254,0.1062084509300886,0.07800971739680489,0.0,0.1268102741795958,0.12783501969412855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13927241806105772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22076933287913228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1240178224109827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,HoneyBeeControversy,2019/02/02,"Made my boyfriend buy me Bronkaid I saw someone post something here about bronkaid a couple weeks ago and have been wanting to try it but have been scared of buying it behind the counter because of the pharmacist interaction (yay social anxiety). Boyfriend was going to Target and asked if I needed anything, and I just blurted out ""Bronkaid! It's behind the counter, you'll probably need an ID."" I have a history of asthma so he didn't question it, but I feel so guilty and dirty for having him play a role in my unhealthy habits... ",8.540399999999998,7.650400240000002,7.432000000000002,77.40100000000002,61.6,10.0,40.0,8.841846274778883,3.5126,424,20,77,5,5,129,72,100,0.171,0.8,0.03,-0.9502,0,0,1,0,0,0,13.0,0,1,0,0,5,3,0,1,7,1,9,1,0,1,0,15,17,9,0,4,4,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,4,5,0,0,2,1,2,1,1,1,0,0,6,2,10,2,11,10,0,6,0,0,1,0,8,2,0,2,2,51,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21935805239243888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18930595796810648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2036382102968296,0.0,0.23134137187381945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15084910822895106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2738094003714106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1251230363831266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14063702406699458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23415230792032274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36697639575307295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2369979443467808,0.0,0.2668033609250598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27721144626030336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24775028332000065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25225395390390604,0.20967176178061767,0.19050653141891705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16800886137435342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1459581153761635,0.0,0.1984972078868069,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,finnkat,2019/02/02,Have any of you found a style that looks good on you? I work retail and some of the clothes are soo cute but I don't even want to try them on because I know they won't look good on me. My shoulders are too broad and I have no hips so feminine looks never look good on me. I've looked at more androgynous looks but I like feminine styles ): I'm not sure if this comes down to me not liking my body so nothing looks good on me or if it really is certain styles that dont look good on me. Anyone found a style they like on themselves regardless of how you feel about your body?,1.3543237250554299,3.0170254227642315,2.48960827790096,97.12935698447895,79.32520325203252,6.098743532889874,19.31189948263119,6.980632752743323,-0.06214796747967455,449,10,109,5,11,143,74,123,0.094,0.698,0.208,0.9525,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,4,3,1,6,11,0,0,3,0,8,4,4,1,3,21,23,10,0,4,7,0,1,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,3,0,0,4,0,1,1,7,0,0,0,2,9,19,11,15,20,2,12,0,0,8,0,7,10,0,4,4,67,23,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07455515166706983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07665892175411343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06683211277874555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24355820665556616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09444032808831453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12849070053256356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07241248735252996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055434446891687465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2404169220386881,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4597806666393495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0602521991685506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16068549028650245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7365222723819393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08455680818889595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10519716385831594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07023460412425166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10332912472877707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07443456115204569,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06466520977364842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07981514909281262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,HappinessIsClose,2019/02/02,"I’m going to try again I fell into a really dark place. I naively thought 2018 would be the best year of my life, a year for myself, because I would “make” it that way. I’d had that feeling all through the beginning of last year, and things really seemed to be going for me at some points. I got to experience a lot of little victories, just stupid things, like this guy I’d idolized for years started giving me attention, I’d gotten better at art than I’d ever been, got into a good college, graduated high school, etc etc. I was genuinely happy some of those days. I mean, it’s not like it’s my nature to be happy with things no matter how great they are, so all things considered... I was really happy.

...Then I fell into a dark pit of hell, lol. Turns out I was an idiot and poured an incredibly sad amount of time and heart into someone who tossed me away for someone else without telling me so he could continue to take advantage of me. That’s a story I’ve told a little too many times, honestly. Well, it sapped me of what little self confidence I had, and lo and behold, my eating disorder is the worst it’s ever been. I’ve never been so consistently low. I fasted for a month, lost 30 pounds. Now I’ve binged for a month, gained 30 pounds. Things I’ve done before, but turned to the absolute extreme. I just keep thinking, what’s the point? I feel completely stuck. Won’t say I haven’t seriously considered offing myself entirely, but that’s nothing new and I genuinely want to be alive because it’s pretty cool not gonna lie. And I can’t fuck over my family like that, because I’m lucky to have a lot of them who really love me and I don’t want to say goodbye to all that. I just want to quit kidding myself I guess. And I want to believe something, really badly... that I can be fixed. That I won’t be stuck bingeing and fasting for the rest of my life. I’ve wasted away a great deal of my youth constantly fixated on eating and not eating, so much so that I can’t remember a time when I felt genuinely carefree.

I’m going to go see a school therapist this week. I want to reverse the damage that an aforementioned somebody did to me this past summer, and even more strongly I want to reverse the damage I did to myself. I want to work on the trauma I experienced as a little girl, stuff I should’ve gotten help for years and years ago but never did. I’m going to try again, even though statistically “trying again” is a really shit strategy for me. 

Sorry for announcing this stuff on here, it’s just to make myself feel accomplished before I inevitably fail again. Maybe one day this’ll work. Thank you so much for reading, if you did (definitely wouldn’t blame you otherwise). Hope you have a good day.",3.5099763220205205,4.9752860000000005,4.837778216258879,83.40531767955802,72.97790055248619,8.118021573270193,24.71494343593791,8.704169506293173,1.669327492765062,2130,64,427,40,42,708,249,543,0.11,0.713,0.177,0.9801,0,0,1,0,0,0,70.0,0,4,2,11,25,36,5,0,28,2,35,9,2,3,7,71,83,28,0,13,12,0,4,3,0,6,2,2,0,4,33,19,3,1,10,2,0,7,14,15,1,1,23,9,57,21,61,47,16,68,1,6,1,2,21,22,3,9,41,279,90,9,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05708746906845904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1210134397314258,0.0,0.053772020919430834,0.11777448385553375,0.0,0.1096007624416982,0.07255770606903196,0.06758472035992916,0.05695731961094131,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.067523067447814,0.0695944415751712,0.0,0.05141883952258988,0.0,0.0,0.12459966427024036,0.06639444999334958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07380895516790795,0.0,0.0,0.06590443051183642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19769444611195355,0.053798647633745734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14364794588339705,0.08507230998241341,0.11650851427513068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06299639025393082,0.060711391200042035,0.0,0.09768901653759796,0.0,0.061834916775795966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059537549406362175,0.0,0.061779164961675515,0.1830024399318888,0.1080327574050578,0.10301448803804454,0.14200433211506558,0.07094479846731383,0.06376696800401847,0.0,0.20566771163144265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07631531902361338,0.0431665332024388,0.06804303538883394,0.0,0.06396457664656717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057242435792156626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05249528938331397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09097645185016398,0.09438900898942684,0.2581862873779053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07030113691270465,0.10950260178060144,0.058124282793489974,0.0,0.08597613682185055,0.06529235523759473,0.06469931132509249,0.07015140696477458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10280829038434733,0.0,0.09468407171728216,0.0,0.09933981362011456,0.062198743619058486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061794353848505915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04363968363670545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06147789979901545,0.0,0.0,0.06728518272277141,0.0,0.12175924159394025,0.0,0.0,0.06551881842923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06849823275424395,0.064418279215902,0.0,0.24754100702805115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07295361047550261,0.0,0.0,0.1024282838374954,0.0,0.1303541996908507,0.05131914058407566,0.058628116415857176,0.06718413334622446,0.0,0.06610654852870476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10913326485746017,0.049578921772427786,0.0,0.07209148060151548,0.04558325411214634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14744713423931294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.048421425491178026,0.0,0.05628918273302644,0.05929165147029612,0.0,0.07477435220645234,0.213925320347714,0.041265465204505684,0.06327350954986588,0.05112708239121432,0.1126579631018387,0.0,0.0,0.06153777338007131,0.0,0.13117185221598035,0.1400992663735646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2658970351972438,0.05111839825294917,0.051658478418384085,0.0,0.05790409966770129,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06208012262963426,0.0,0.0937691737042515,0.0,0.0,0.09149703421161612,0.0,0.0,0.24883222113983056
EDAnonymous,ScrunchiesandDraino,2019/02/02,"the urge to binge right now is real i’ve been in a binge cycle for a few months now and i’ve gained like 10-15lbs. my bmi is..... i don’t even wanna type it it’s so high i’m def obese.

i just feel so fat and helpless and ugly and fat and i don’t know why but i feel like eating will help that?? i know it won’t. but god i’m alone right now and the grocery store is like 10 min away and i want to binge.",-3.691470588235294,-2.420689999999997,-0.7272303921568621,110.33448529411768,110.45833333333331,2.258823529411765,7.730392156862745,3.1291,-2.692165931372549,304,2,89,0,17,103,56,96,0.07200000000000001,0.735,0.192,0.8828,0,1,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,1,7,4,0,0,4,0,8,4,2,0,0,17,15,11,0,2,3,0,2,3,0,2,3,0,0,0,4,7,4,0,4,0,1,0,3,1,0,0,1,2,7,3,6,12,1,10,0,1,0,0,1,5,0,0,8,46,11,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25969243324003344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2355797651747225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25657101279969874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16561230598028895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25356473492699233,0.17912968038678756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16806665074237334,0.2649220174924775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27560179216350816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3674986947260449,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2001393643591281,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2853985662551575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4282635092856205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14789375284370576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2262550804895209,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,SergeiBobgodsky,2019/02/02,"Two days without binging, but the urges are pulling at me I'm so tired of having to fight this every minute I'm awake. It's actually embarrassing how much I can't control myself. Why is this so god damn hard?",1.0527906976744212,3.4577742790697705,2.857023255813953,89.8966976744186,85.27906976744184,5.300465116279072,22.55348837209302,6.742157984588678,0.6110595348837209,166,6,35,2,5,55,38,43,0.334,0.598,0.068,-0.9356,0,0,0,0,1,0,4.0,0,0,0,1,3,3,2,1,1,0,4,1,0,2,0,4,6,4,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,3,0,1,0,1,3,0,4,6,1,3,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,1,21,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.3308914849105953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3803051191334569,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21867743688246066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2856880719976749,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.303747533685599,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24926154782997645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38972059802565934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33123020581559903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3059654039895625,0.0,0.0,0.3268593581894507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,bakermillerfloyd,2019/02/02,"I drank for the first time in a month last night and didn't eat all day to make up for the calories and now I have the hangover from the Underworld last year i got into the habit of drinking every night to cope with stress but i gained a lot of weight from the constant alcohol binge followed by pizza/fast food/whatever i could get my hands on, i quit drinking on new year's day but i got invited out with some work friends last night. i don't get to go out often and rarely get invited anywhere as more than an after thought so i figured i'd break my streak for one night to go drink with them. i didn't eat all day because i knew i'd be consuming around 1000 calories in drinks (it ended up being closer to 1500 i drank a fucking lot lmao) but i totally did not think about the hangover at all... my tolerance to alcohol is pretty much gone after a month's break, so i drank as much as i used to without thinking much about it and now today i'm still fucked. i went to bed at 5am and woke up at 3pm and i'm so sick i could die, i need to eat something so bad but now my brain's like ""hey you're already 39 hours into a fast basically let's keep fuckin' going!"" but i'm getting real tired of puking up liquor while i'm still a lil drunky... this is just a dumb rant because i'm so frustrated with myself rn sorry y'all lmao",1.9695469107551489,3.288380038596493,3.4440122044241046,92.44098398169338,76.68421052631578,6.500381388253242,23.26849733028223,7.079830092131019,0.6122295957284516,1041,31,239,11,23,343,154,285,0.165,0.7559999999999999,0.079,-0.9826,1,0,7,0,0,0,19.0,0,1,1,4,15,9,5,1,15,0,12,21,2,2,4,43,43,20,1,3,8,0,2,1,1,0,4,0,1,0,3,15,14,1,5,5,0,6,5,7,0,2,13,2,25,2,47,25,11,55,0,0,0,3,4,17,4,4,31,140,28,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19771425982026744,0.0,0.0,0.10207890109471994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08234691098544711,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07723579337188538,0.11277743262524367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10326347560689872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0999624305990947,0.0,0.14771157181313252,0.0,0.0,0.17896954139406446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0960030773797195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3624692628436872,0.0,0.2839597085917707,0.0,0.0,0.08192983274355706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07793741618720436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07868265025472951,0.1118544911250277,0.0,0.07146726653552915,0.1710342957244717,0.19331512786380303,0.0,0.157714049746894,0.0,0.14796553256457345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09109641150317936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08222054643568011,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22620585507928215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09459015885200972,0.0,0.045192089803280586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1572847771052289,0.0,0.0,0.061746192768494565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14766935921824173,0.0,0.2040001270285767,0.06858949355584258,0.0,0.08933957154689222,0.0,0.3472296332035916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06268214455300608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0941083826801362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09838788390105567,0.0,0.10528819139517233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07121300803169879,0.0,0.10354906890992242,0.0,0.0,0.14774536531819235,0.0,0.10596139684489987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11854384080916047,0.0,0.0734367186457791,0.05393900031436152,0.10631811203268993,0.08768163309764332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07989253204823253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11264322633986106,0.0,0.08575082163143961,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0891691895141532,0.0,0.06734298247526846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11913726189201393
EDAnonymous,NevermindForgetIt,2019/02/02,"I end up eating more when trying to count calories It seems very odd but whenever I count my calories on MyFitnessPal, I eat way more and I end up maintaining weight or gaining. I end up going way over my calorie goals almost every time. 
It’s much easier for me to lose weight and restrict when I’m not counting calories. And I have NO IDEA why this is. 
Part of me thinks MyFitnessPal makes me obsess about food all day long so I eat more but I’m not quite sure. 
Anyone else with this issue? ",1.5769696969696985,4.015377404040407,2.938181818181821,90.02727272727276,83.04040404040404,5.62020202020202,20.11111111111111,6.980632752743323,0.4387898989898989,389,11,79,5,11,126,66,99,0.16899999999999998,0.762,0.07,-0.8596,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,4,4,3,0,1,0,0,2,6,0,1,2,17,8,9,0,0,5,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,4,6,1,3,0,0,1,3,2,0,0,0,2,12,1,11,8,6,16,0,1,0,0,0,5,0,3,8,47,16,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15235567441689574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10638641785760314,0.1558950693927609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09812379418984833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4670605476277814,0.12710132388454598,0.0,0.40427769916404893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12819245542127916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18397969253654986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0864700263389342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17175818476149096,0.0,0.15880447339290418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13464745610605466,0.0,0.17021629185491471,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10156092479248097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11184733627483527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16476300390216095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16182964534883806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13851112511308872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14339903547712254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09749121007485004,0.0,0.0,0.08871955514484167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10329947440649896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1255392126536681,0.0,0.2415382682865753,0.0,0.3705540285399514,0.0,0.0,0.13729119363340053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Suppup00,2019/02/02,"(drugs tw) mom said i look like i lost more weight I've been on a drug binge this past month and that in of itself made me not that aware of food like i would eat normally or even binge for a week  and then unintentionally starve when i'd do pills or coke or half assed purge sometimes, my mom sent me to a friends house to detox and when i came back she said i look ""skinnier all over"" than when i left and i ATE A LOT there since i was sober the whole time, for the most part i purged everything i ate and i remember her telling me i looked ""sickly pale"" before that week too, this confuses and fuels me because i feel like i actually GAINED weight but i know my mom and she would never lie to me about my weight, shes painfully truthful about looks lmao and the friend also said i didnt gain but i dont understand how they think that when I've been eating so much, i haven't been purging like i usually do i just dont get it.... but it feels good to hear those things, i just never want to eat again. i dont understand anything that has happened so far, im scared to step on a scale, do i even have an ed if I'm so empathetic to things that usually would cause me to freak out or did the drugs just change me? idk guys whaatsup",3.1441379310344857,3.785732091954024,3.854272030651341,93.25543103448277,72.9080459770115,7.485823754789273,22.92911877394636,7.594959193182576,0.5389785440613029,960,22,233,11,18,305,145,261,0.094,0.772,0.134,0.9052,0,0,3,0,0,0,20.0,0,0,1,3,20,13,0,2,10,0,19,18,1,3,4,44,43,26,0,6,12,3,5,4,2,3,7,4,0,1,14,10,10,0,7,0,0,3,8,5,0,1,15,13,38,8,20,25,7,26,0,1,4,1,17,7,1,8,20,146,52,0,0.0,0.0,0.08193329938863451,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06714315106084713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06909230626260345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0645604126440567,0.0,0.0511815182916954,0.0,0.07144416911104089,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09602840111063844,0.0,0.08625052236228882,0.08881903594809684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2952031081850648,0.0,0.29210244042329403,0.2577375398797841,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11091018649224392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07545824936905211,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0849058645495712,0.059981370769510475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10152532382161092,0.0,0.12973528920809665,0.0,0.04386587601129695,0.0,0.0,0.0704220519787418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08313405754272671,0.07424595918941071,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09462954264082543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09687910030467607,0.0,0.0,0.09069170655782864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.046142474113743406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0912232875376829,0.0,0.0,0.16407536274336598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2820225681099951,0.0,0.09165276230558103,0.07138018226719774,0.0,0.07944541914478924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2950004347426453,0.06701643967252041,0.0,0.06172060012346951,0.0,0.12951096845717855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08226342618455032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08933985113226868,0.0,0.0,0.0909209983686927,0.08014976122394996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09511083623793913,0.0,0.23959687810580274,0.0,0.08405906939979996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06945296172111418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08303904369924359,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07338514442251014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11155920030892703,0.05379847382147094,0.0,0.0,0.048958020535880116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1748116037603853,0.0,0.0,0.1849411739134537,0.0,0.049522055779132435,0.0,0.1346960362654537,0.30672367060386746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09373885732923913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1789293096072401,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,thoughtsandfigures4,2019/02/02,"At my lowest weight but still feel / look the same ? I haven’t been diagnosed with body dysmorphia but I’m currently at the lowest I have been since I was a teenager ( 36 lb difference ) but today I took a comparison photo to my highest weight and the only difference I could see was a small change in my thighs and face. I’m really panicking, has anyone else had this problem ? 
I’m 96 lbs now ",2.739890109890112,4.7618004615384635,4.4890476190476205,82.72500000000002,76.43589743589743,8.559706959706961,23.96336996336997,9.23628265651192,2.0782139194139195,308,10,61,8,7,104,53,78,0.185,0.815,0.0,-0.933,3,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,6,0,9,6,3,0,0,10,16,5,0,2,3,0,3,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,3,2,0,1,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,6,5,8,0,5,9,1,9,0,0,2,0,0,4,0,0,4,37,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14420763625910146,0.21131700751189425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22908588113176975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2181743208042124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16466566733876625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2093290161814052,0.0,0.4309533088621492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1722868562726302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10428102001254652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17318945649447892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15685463181945974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19734359806361004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13212247201753255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.164346387627364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17060366158668866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1647033396077299,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19549117851974065,0.0,0.2291399631027115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5022889353559997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,lunainterlude,2019/02/02,"new day, same guilt was in a heavy restriction period for months, been binging/purging since christmas time, told myself I would stop purging in February because my teeth hurt, which will make me stop binging and I did so good yesterday I fasted 24 hours and then I saw my legs were turning purple (I worked earlier, walked to a store, and exercised on an empty stomach for 2 hours) I got nervous and I ate late and it turned into a binge on all the ""bad"" foods, still didnt purge I fell asleep in pain from how full I was I thought I was gonna die last night. now it's the next day and all I can think about is how I heard ""abs are made in the kitchen"" and all my progress is gone I feel the fat added on my body from my binge. just another set back again. anyone have any tips to stop binging late at night? really need to get this under control",2.3326782273603084,4.099613982658962,3.0270751445086717,93.902077071291,76.80346820809248,6.463044315992294,23.09402697495183,7.3011,0.6690380732177266,661,20,147,8,15,207,118,173,0.147,0.815,0.038,-0.9409,0,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,0,0,3,9,6,0,2,8,0,14,11,6,5,3,27,30,11,1,2,1,0,1,0,0,3,3,1,1,0,4,8,4,5,3,1,1,3,1,5,0,0,15,4,21,1,18,12,5,39,0,1,2,0,2,11,0,0,24,86,25,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09776031104184042,0.15074270708563028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10051887585555462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11054096205322944,0.12003185323732853,0.08763348992983555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15968263431189392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16123672429195535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18542392319003065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14919801805996633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07268832065105152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1738326399783268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07510757656290834,0.0,0.0,0.1205773175337546,0.11497633618818412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2831451745008466,0.0,0.1538958199773561,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11718188684688415,0.3243303768040092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13602721394308664,0.09595952374912227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11474619525165924,0.0,0.0,0.1065946715207104,0.0,0.13884228894456954,0.1528881722069506,0.26981412731571913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15296855595241332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09209500070160914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1189180318351767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11480525564733927,0.3605641589293512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09211426646245792,0.0,0.1141277256294722,0.08382639559780072,0.0,0.0,0.13736684723038836,0.0,0.0,0.31273465814509505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1046574733830314,0.0,0.0,0.10212149733590284,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,IridescentLesbian,2019/02/02,"My 12 year old sister might be heading down the same path as I did and I'm scared My mum found my sisters diary yesterday. I don't condone this, but she read it and came to me this morning very worried. Apparently she wrote about trying to make herself sick but being unable to, wrote lots of very self depreciating things and is upset that she can't do ""what she's supposed to be doing"". She also wrote about trying to starve herself. My mum told me she has noticed my sister going to the bathroom after meals and spending more time alone in her room.

I don't know what to do. It's like listening to something straight out of my own teenage diary (though, I unfortunately  got the hang of bulimia pretty quick). Obviously neither me or my mum want to approach her directly. What my mum did was a breach of privacy and I dont want my sister to feel like she has nowhere to express her feelings privately. But I also desperately don't want to see her go through what I went through, or have been going through. She's so young and all I want is for her to be happy and healthy. 

Do you guys have any advice? I have no idea how to deal with this. I know when I was younger there was nothing anyone could say to me that wouldve made me stop. I just want to help her.",4.411294117647056,5.123542207843137,5.114117647058826,85.11352941176473,70.05882352941177,7.7254901960784315,29.117647058823533,7.724431198458867,1.6442941176470596,993,36,207,11,17,321,141,255,0.116,0.765,0.119,-0.3307,1,1,1,0,0,0,23.0,0,1,0,0,11,5,0,2,4,0,28,3,1,3,2,40,53,19,0,6,6,8,2,2,0,1,1,2,1,2,12,10,1,1,6,1,1,7,7,2,0,0,15,5,43,3,32,32,6,21,0,0,1,0,36,5,0,4,11,147,55,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13215386868758064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14006669413616096,0.0,0.21630096751993835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09196707618066988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0945621696052764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15467725107807698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1079772414761544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1394253473273889,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15849896057022325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13676168276304138,0.09661468314809804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1482824519155269,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2305781168620476,0.0,0.108162886927267,0.0,0.0,0.13390775377859615,0.0,0.14396430289537462,0.0,0.0,0.13879410766284664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09064777078915694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15266823458846018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14864750368241775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13214177152414666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11497525989026475,0.0,0.12796629853186495,0.0902730027845274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1434670804343204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12976535311404042,0.15397036164219624,0.14191045530493654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13758656057683333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1352754779173484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10754738575002608,0.1353977118494576,0.0,0.10776787820660537,0.0,0.14108364671482662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10411349727169346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11306575957354392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08984670283311495,0.0,0.13287151330414754,0.0,0.07885887869765901,0.0,0.0,0.1292265457147397,0.0,0.1836366448964924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22317247930950276,0.3988369777617177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12536779699007172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1373416476526571,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08708940496819037
EDAnonymous,snowalmond,2019/02/02,"Totally Stuck i’ve always been very thin but ever since i started purging and restricting 24/7, i only like myself when i know i look sick and absolutely HATE myself when i have even a little bit more weight on me. however, everyone i know prefers me bigger, including the guy i like. i cant choose whose happiness is more important to me. ",4.707076923076926,6.437707092307697,6.0,75.20000000000002,70.38461538461539,10.123076923076924,29.92307692307693,10.355215969177356,3.460292307692308,271,11,48,8,5,91,49,65,0.266,0.612,0.122,-0.9158,1,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,0,4,4,1,0,2,0,4,2,0,0,2,10,10,5,0,1,1,0,2,2,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,2,1,1,4,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,3,13,3,2,8,4,8,0,0,1,0,2,4,0,0,6,32,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.215272683429132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2824511880715277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17087967335899792,0.2340237013311635,0.0,0.2472145076723661,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2561698081519809,0.0,0.2754083076803622,0.0,0.255428779894264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2843674203030534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2527914277180135,0.2593016955930154,0.0,0.0,0.21725652910101195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19676540115246174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21401279337942367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1831207257669152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21346803899064185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31504674969854723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,theHBIC,2019/02/03,"This sucks. CW: suicidal thoughts   


  


  
I've had ED behaviors for the last 12 years. I've been in ""recovery"" for a month and a half but have engaged in behaviors (purged) so many times since then. My boyfriend loves me and tries and today he lost his temper and told me how ""silly"" and ""insignificant"" my triggers are and I just want to die. I just don't think I can recover and I think that I'm going to destroy everyone in the process. Why not just let myself go?",1.4468478260869588,3.799565641304348,2.748000000000001,91.74700000000001,82.80434782608697,6.723478260869566,23.33043478260869,7.908726449838941,1.2313921739130431,357,13,77,7,10,115,67,92,0.204,0.7,0.096,-0.9042,0,0,0,0,0,1,15.0,0,0,0,1,5,7,3,0,4,0,7,1,0,2,0,18,18,11,2,1,5,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,7,0,0,3,0,0,2,2,4,0,1,5,0,10,3,7,12,0,11,0,1,0,1,4,3,1,0,6,46,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2516688648992777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23171191525727514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.275628080278281,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19766370112006293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2479649461107432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26470914016011543,0.0,0.2188588918525384,0.0,0.0,0.245849270338743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19355514963267928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20059224966370734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26524736786976644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3107587243192313,0.0,0.19251190824238185,0.14139929003760035,0.0,0.22985447629890665,0.23171191525727514,0.0,0.1646364470436084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1430283220548081,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2188117070299158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1561571789463543
EDAnonymous,betty_draper_,2019/02/03,DAE just eat hot sauce? Not much more to add... I just straight up drink hot sauce when I’m too hungry to stand it. Kills my appetite and my salt craving pretty quick. Anyone else?,0.3558333333333329,2.7926095833333378,0.65688888888889,103.17700000000002,92.05555555555556,2.8800000000000003,15.533333333333335,3.1291,-1.40616,139,3,31,0,5,41,30,36,0.08800000000000001,0.7759999999999999,0.13699999999999998,0.2406,0,0,1,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,0,5,1,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,5,1,2,1,0,3,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,2,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,3,3,0,3,1,2,5,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,2,16,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2634787066833138,0.3860928123070043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3691365021556317,0.0,0.3855771300821597,0.3147816526698087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4168913874705621,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2770033252469473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3833576279934117,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,lightsflicker,2019/02/03,"has anyone been referred to ed services/clinic/inpatient in the uk? sorry for odd title! i’m hoping to try recovery this year as my ed has gotten so, so bad. i was referred in early december, but i have no clue how long it’ll take to go through. i’m getting worse, i was about 46kg at the time and i’m 39kg now. i know mental health referrals can take ages from previous experiences (6-8 months!!!!) but i’m pretty hopeful it’s not gonna be this long as it’s specifically eating disorder services? has anyone been through this and how was it?? if this doesn’t help, i’ll have to be sent to inpatient, and unfortunately there’s no inpatient treatment in this part of the uk so i’d have to be sent 3 hours away from home and take medical leave from uni. i’m pretty scared and the ed services are my only hope :( ",1.94464285714286,3.746912273809525,4.0196666666666685,86.19200000000004,78.04761904761905,7.337142857142857,24.29523809523809,8.238735603445708,1.4505566666666665,634,22,135,12,15,217,96,168,0.18,0.6990000000000001,0.121,-0.8359,0,0,0,0,0,0,25.0,0,0,0,0,8,5,0,1,4,0,18,3,0,2,0,17,36,15,0,4,4,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,1,0,9,5,1,0,3,0,0,3,4,2,0,0,8,0,6,3,21,23,1,17,0,0,0,0,3,5,0,4,9,76,15,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21427349610515206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1439576006014669,0.0,0.12793440345523746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17560628162384154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15678488922484082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14988102491155694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0800524422758476,0.0,0.08707988869757709,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16286837294249973,0.0,0.0,0.10270182485347368,0.0,0.1536946797968016,0.456553602540256,0.15089331712379855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08420708945841986,0.0,0.0,0.16224052428830532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2711942157891485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1543555683061976,0.15441226107126635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12230075302806305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11653263035202426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16592505690978926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3117647731110896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15340247164233015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17152006577507908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34561279706864656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08934528315082492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10402803277262207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15614683727005774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0986702787919658
EDAnonymous,CansOfCorn,2019/02/03,"I can't tell if ""over""eating is recovering or an excuse to binge? I've always had a history of binging, going on five-six years now. Whenever someone would leave, i'd eat all the food in sight.Made me feel better. That caused me to gain a lot of weight, and with depression going on as well, that was a huge self hatred shit show. Fast forward to 2017-2018 and I went to a 1200 deficit (usually 900-1100 per day) and heavily exercised. Lost 30 lbs in 2 months. Got diagnosed with the high risk of anorexia and sent to an ED doctor. After being scared shitless I convinced those around me I was ""fine"" but then accidentally lost another 8-10 lbs. I've obsessed over calories and refused to eat over my maintenance each day in fear of becoming fat and disgusting again. Every day I go to school, eat a little, then come home and binge the rest of my daily calories. I don't go over, but the whole idea of consuming until I'm in physical pain and then STILL EATING isn't a healthy habit. Body dysmorphia as well. Baggy clothing 24/7 and streetwear really helps with that. 
Basically, I don't know if going over my calories some days to teach myself ""it's okay and safe"" is recovery, or just feeding into my need to use food as a comfort. I want to call my psychiatrist about what's going on but I don't even think I look skinny enough to be satisfied with myself yet. ",3.797252611081607,5.386954159851303,4.846606479022835,83.12998760842629,72.45724907063197,8.246486103735174,26.935917861568427,8.841846274778883,2.032440113294389,1075,38,212,21,21,352,168,269,0.152,0.736,0.112,-0.9011,0,0,0,0,0,0,38.0,0,0,0,4,10,18,2,4,13,1,13,16,4,2,1,40,33,24,0,5,8,0,2,0,0,1,5,0,1,1,6,18,10,2,4,2,0,10,5,10,2,0,8,3,20,8,40,22,7,43,0,3,1,0,7,17,1,6,18,127,26,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0883572965614234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11134784803982076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.094530233311617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1172767996674496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09391505426790613,0.0,0.11795142891960153,0.0,0.0,0.10843027951756212,0.0,0.0,0.10908478858878054,0.0,0.09147194667437912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2739310606991094,0.0,0.09145995595291707,0.10777904099087238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10868837765077914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.43462917524654016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10972105429293796,0.0,0.07013646940611752,0.0,0.0894683485720921,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11949152783119055,0.053692070671952204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25680698927175794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3620960577799605,0.0,0.08492860356278999,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0711758793418652,0.11219392704476648,0.10651567292315503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11987383418041665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05835839477607317,0.0,0.0,0.11243823561636347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10642872310333973,0.0,0.0,0.08917155333367242,0.0,0.2318344730177179,0.09027762242806267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08475860729216872,0.0,0.0,0.07873738979359292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11299199710792378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0680270398588821,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10631316267199796,0.10746838002243367,0.0,0.0,0.11077771166641867,0.0,0.1090009174403752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08997312866486516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08480223293808217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09281338530636826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06804127073646707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09171272612411584,0.11695157493058125,0.0,0.06263269876160671,0.0,0.0,0.12930892415335607,0.19095233763710245,0.09843775654092712,0.0,0.11855561165603773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07543322782771641,0.0,0.0,0.06838187995145076
EDAnonymous,probablyjustnew,2019/02/03,Does anyone have a low cal muffin recipe? Been craving muffins but they’re usually like 200 cals a piece and I wasn’t planning on binging them (but who knows),1.7408064516129007,4.469904290322583,1.89701612903226,95.26552419354843,86.74193548387099,4.390322580645162,23.87903225806452,5.985473137389443,0.4998322580645169,127,5,25,1,4,38,29,31,0.054000000000000006,0.833,0.113,0.4019,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,1,1,0,2,0,0,2,0,3,0,0,0,0,4,4,3,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,0,2,1,1,2,1,3,0,1,0,0,2,2,0,0,2,13,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4031308643873285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5045349042555386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3168518494163653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28166880475863004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6349784457077684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,lonely_tardigrade,2019/02/03,"Yoga at Home? Hey guys, want to work in some exercise and some stretching cuz my body's a mess and i've also heard it helps with anxiety. Also hoping it would keep me from those binge urges. Don't have the time to go to classes/gym so I was wondering if there's any videos online that you would recommend? Thanks!",0.3768055555555563,2.822907375,1.7489583333333345,95.18909722222223,92.4375,5.344444444444445,16.48611111111111,6.937597516519254,0.03132152777777808,248,6,53,4,9,79,55,64,0.063,0.747,0.19,0.8202,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,1,0,1,4,3,0,0,2,0,5,2,1,1,0,13,12,7,0,5,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,1,1,1,4,3,0,1,1,3,0,1,1,1,0,0,2,1,4,2,7,8,2,5,0,0,0,0,5,3,0,5,1,32,8,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4180803516195769,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17775985002699835,0.0,0.1999690316033352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29035465236040137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14855871316522382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2588254755688167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17520981214089187,0.0,0.2622038704051452,0.2596275546465134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23234287485158034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24066049193514796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1524234871080906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15417952662291065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2834753732970556,0.19030112092022655,0.0,0.0,0.3713797932413136,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,magfrack,2019/02/03,Good...youtube videos/creators? I am super depressed and just need background noise.,6.456923076923076,10.403450461538466,2.3757692307692326,89.60673076923081,82.84615384615384,2.6,37.269230769230774,3.1291,1.9387230769230768,68,4,9,0,2,17,13,13,0.217,0.526,0.257,0.1531,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,2,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6097706736325132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5938088712248418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5249483308216443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,DoNotEatAllTheDonuts,2019/02/03,"Does anyone else put their life on hold because of their weight? So I'm not overweight (23ish bmi) but like I put my life on hold because I don't feel thin enough to deserve anything? I've got some crazy cat lady hair going on because I don't feel like I deserve a haircut (why put lipstick on a pig amIright?), I need a better job, and I'm definitely well qualified to move up but I don't want to until I'm at my goal weight, I need to get back I'm school but I don't want to be the fat girl in class so I'm putting that off. Every time I have someone interested in me, I'm like ""nah brah, you don't want any of this jello"" and I ghost them. Anyone else like this?

Also so freaking happy I found this place. I loved proed and legit cried when it disappeared.",0.712216257668711,2.5778193742331297,2.499689417177916,95.2860985429448,82.25153374233129,5.056595092024541,20.616947852760735,5.985473137389443,-0.09250889570552134,590,17,137,4,16,195,94,163,0.125,0.65,0.225,0.971,1,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,1,3,2,7,10,0,0,4,0,7,8,2,0,0,18,25,12,1,5,4,0,6,4,0,0,4,0,0,1,5,3,4,2,3,0,0,7,6,1,1,0,2,6,19,9,17,22,2,22,0,0,0,1,6,11,0,1,8,68,24,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09898647088707714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0841743466365987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17309909532029655,0.25365357740403705,0.10186003269620636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0951788426023861,0.0,0.2263646160609635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1094729636124533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1359660364462195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10832032870625737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2068038817499724,0.0,0.0,0.12789737574836854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10428961942309163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1251733312570005,0.08842814371435334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13571790064459816,0.0,0.0,0.06466971225096978,0.0,0.07034677749760332,0.0,0.098997823085569,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13176564525554202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1228321156313893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1748583302552379,0.2418897662810689,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11171588724181036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13155808521028262,0.0,0.18356195340578446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1293232969911783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4977305911942147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1252715248625016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10487802107135988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07217685792065473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21902517778203245,0.0,0.0,0.3014603198380593,0.11129269142637896,0.0,0.1116918018858122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,throwawayfthoi,2019/02/03,"Anyone else paranoid about how often they talk about food? I feel like I'm keeping tallies on every mention of food. I'm paranoid that I mention eating, dieting, recipes, etc. far more often than the average person because it dominates my immediate attention most of the time. I feel like a boring person with a lack of variety in talking points. I could be engaging; talking about hobbies, the news, entertainment, aspirations and dreams, but no. Just eating. The thing literally everyone partakes in. The least unique activity on earth.

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The paranoia stems less from people catching on to my ED and more from people losing interest because having an ED makes me a boring person to be around.

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 Can anyone relate?",6.389415584415584,9.195480611111114,6.670923520923523,67.63720779220782,68.28571428571428,8.708802308802309,35.264069264069256,9.339509955726095,4.048533333333333,591,30,80,13,11,190,84,126,0.139,0.757,0.104,-0.6864,0,0,0,0,0,0,27.0,0,0,1,1,8,8,0,0,10,0,5,5,0,2,0,18,11,4,0,2,2,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,3,3,4,5,1,3,2,0,1,1,3,0,0,0,2,8,5,18,8,7,10,0,1,0,0,9,8,0,3,3,59,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28257294787838155,0.31689634815002216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1823550082990056,0.1336084400874452,0.0,0.1160821086999794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15897915339194385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10411241010902728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26685997377598275,0.1089310244603021,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14542854323424748,0.0,0.0,0.10986616874113786,0.1246011376146994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13186656936564625,0.18631310407554516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3153562177857776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11590397617228244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1274120186937129,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1458823125118062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08704185955474371,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18080348716708886,0.3415762259530247,0.0,0.0,0.12326851610316095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3144275764779686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08663081816524207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07603628141881955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31689634815002216,0.0
EDAnonymous,nodamncatnodamncradl,2019/02/03,"mods can you change the Rule in the sidebar about ""No Memes"" ​

could you change it from ""sister site"" to sibling site or partner site or side site or something

also rule number one is so weird, the way it says something specifically about weight loss is a weird reflection of current ED perspectives, you know what I mean?

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EDAnonymous,unsurebanana,2019/02/03,"Purged for the first time in 8 months last night. Idk what to do. I was doing really well for 4 or 5 days, completely binge free and eating a healthy 1300 cals, focusing in school and getting work done. Last night I overate, and was super aware of my self overeating bc a lot of times when I start binging I stop thinking. I told myself that it's ok, a small binge doesn't have to trigger anything like it used to. But then I had homework due at 12 and it was like 10pm and I got very stressed so I went and binged thousands of calories of candy, then without even hesitation I purged it back up. It's been 8 months of me being purge free and I don't want to have purging becoming a crutch to support bad eating habits again. It was so easy last night too, I purged everything up within 10 minutes. I'm scared of relapsing. I binged this morning as well and this time it was a mindless binge. I know I have the ability to eat normally, but it's been a struggle to maintain a healthy mindset about it because I still need to lose weight. I think my main trigger at this point is stress from school. Sorry if this is a bit ranty, I just need to get it off my chest.",3.1620688052068817,4.383184372384935,3.8075801952580193,91.41328568107856,73.47698744769875,6.817387261738727,26.666899116689912,7.1686216300943375,1.0738728963272894,911,32,200,9,18,288,140,239,0.103,0.775,0.123,0.3902,0,0,0,0,0,0,21.0,0,0,0,4,12,15,0,4,10,1,19,5,1,3,0,26,34,18,0,5,6,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,1,1,16,8,4,1,3,0,2,1,3,6,2,2,12,1,22,11,31,21,3,35,0,1,0,0,2,12,0,3,24,127,38,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09444740047071122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08825241879135141,0.09582964706876522,0.06996381531139008,0.12675642018402827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12530106439168798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12033603371946575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07401830696670643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11745138472069346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35232056884657004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0758056820400564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10314948049194143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09762482231574388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1199270420324631,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09179348165514176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06307557189893599,0.2806629712827757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11214339432744813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12840027075262692,0.0,0.09757486795474576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1832194887753424,0.0,0.0,0.17020364971027396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3231166381773977,0.11245198166369984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10849643503998806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07352574484193904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11490657962151893,0.2323103490758255,0.0,0.0,0.11973200331890554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1284776176268193,0.08123606067099369,0.0,0.0916568963454317,0.09595435201556536,0.2629413855741236,0.11998439007746647,0.0,0.0,0.1302416623458794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14708225203591807,0.0,0.0,0.20077305369852652,0.0,0.0,0.10966935970745564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09912597275655133,0.0,0.09469874310587137,0.06769537286145265,0.0,0.0,0.1397611153272008,0.2063872378278155,0.10639459522647618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11063590580866137,0.0,0.08355522694109,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,asadnlonelydood,2019/02/03,🤔 Should I have water or sleep for dinner?,-1.91,-0.8163014444444414,0.5872222222222234,98.86750000000002,119.0,1.8,4.5,3.1291,-2.6659333333333333,33,0,7,0,2,11,9,9,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,3,1,0,0,2,2,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,5,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,libbybird,2019/02/03,"How do you pack a lunch? Please help me I started treatment 8 years ago when I was very sick. I’ve been in recovery and relapsed several times since then. Right now, I’m on a bit of a downward slope, but I’m working on it. It’s hard. 

I start student teaching tomorrow and I have to pack my lunches every day. In college (last 3.5 years), I’ve gotten very into the routine of not eating any lunch at all—partly because of class schedules, partly because it was an excuse and I know it. I don’t get very hungry at “lunch time” because my body is used to that routine. 

I have to bring a lunch though, or else I’ll get questions or be given a cafeteria tray (my CT told me this was also a choice, but that’s so out of control that it scares me, and I don’t want to eat in he cafeteria with my students). I don’t want to raise red flags that might concern my CT or anyone else here, I’m trying to make a good impression. 

I have a relatively small number of foods that feel “safe,” and most are weird to combine. I still haven’t planned what I’m going to pack for lunches for the next 12 weeks because I feel panicky thinking about it. 

What foods do you put into a lunch? What sounds/looks reasonable? I’m honestly feeling really distressed over this, and I know it’s not a big deal, but I can’t make myself stop stressing. Any ideas/advice would be really welcome.",2.563604488078539,4.141469555555556,3.8168552282998327,89.30325385694253,75.66666666666667,6.429234844943122,25.750506467196512,7.079830092131019,1.0689793049711702,1062,38,223,11,23,347,154,279,0.085,0.802,0.112,0.6341,0,0,0,0,0,0,34.0,0,2,0,3,9,9,0,3,13,0,20,15,1,6,0,38,45,18,0,3,8,0,4,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,17,10,13,3,8,0,0,3,7,4,0,0,7,5,25,5,28,34,3,36,0,0,1,0,9,15,0,6,18,128,42,8,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11091615306801432,0.10061567936879028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09077021906531478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15437511440528165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07936560754931603,0.11629968510510395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2767673279570976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12391848781945265,0.12607889990184762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12730594601039266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07320158623392163,0.11701907268628475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23228870045178696,0.1896383766567146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09563318619644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.172175206331401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2745023353346435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11860376262141792,0.0,0.06450772864991629,0.09520293558082417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10167853436282327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07608027006680644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12475918741807293,0.0925220418973104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09531594021223437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1515314579012228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12041128127162908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12071426954421682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2458305518632666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12459483276651492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1141042669602481,0.12715201329553166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14542891811566144,0.11670244481832286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09693298254676748,0.0,0.0,0.1136386961781366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12822878223826645,0.0,0.09389283122037784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16067939795452582,0.0,0.090645550765997,0.09489558815154872,0.1300200403072494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07272967051738645,0.11151846899663648,0.0,0.1323718109392511,0.0,0.0,0.10845926394203104,0.0,0.0770627088579136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09803221311214133,0.0,0.28096150103081285,0.1338968392342197,0.0,0.0910471770081575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08263327548108132,0.0,0.0,0.08063097215249958,0.0,0.0,0.1461874989810551
EDAnonymous,SourRoach420,2019/02/03,"Good ways of getting potassium?? So I’ve been restricting for the past month (less than 700 cal a day) and I always compulsively put everything I eat in mfp. I noticed that I should be getting around 4000mg of potassium but I barely get to 500mg.. I take a daily multi-vitamin but it contains no potassium. Are there any low calorie options that would get me anywhere near this range?? 

I know spinach has a lot but I can’t stand the taste of spinach in salads. Any other suggestions? Anyone take potassium supplements?",2.1404552590266874,4.993726326530616,3.364285714285717,84.36917582417584,86.75510204081633,7.097017268445839,26.926216640502357,8.139509932561175,2.405328728414444,412,19,74,10,13,133,72,98,0.094,0.883,0.022,-0.75,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,5,0,7,3,0,0,0,12,14,5,0,2,3,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,5,2,3,2,1,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,1,2,9,1,10,10,2,11,0,1,0,0,1,5,0,2,3,45,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18871447688788984,0.0,0.0,0.3084614433014644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1585827479219801,0.0,0.0,0.2018987024698144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14626623616545512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2320714322383307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20383182069760936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4739713125412288,0.0,0.0,0.19022777750759448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12464249553547226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19281592980100826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18102835712915152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2582115358571267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21650478105918974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2279950820377143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34104841443231143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1800220511441165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16111111004371356,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,prettypuzzlepieces,2019/02/03,"My mirror has literally been lying to me I thought my BDD was getting crazy bad cause every time I looked into the (only) full length mirror in my house, I'd see myself as monstrously wide and fat. I happened to mention this to my husband (""I know I've lost weight, but I just can't see it"") and he said:

""Well, it doesn't help that the mirror is distorted.""

I was like, wait, what? And he showed me the huge bend in the mirror, like one of those funhouse mirrors that make you look you half as high and twice as wide as you really are. How has he never pointed this out before?! I asked this and he said, ""I thought you knew, it's super obvious.""

Well yeah maybe it's super obvious if you trust your brain to see your reflection how it actually is??? I am seriously FUCKED UP over this y'all and no one in my life can understand by a longshot. My entire mental image of my body is based on that stupid mirror which is apparently wrong and fake and I might lose my mind today, cause what do I even actually look like holy shit. Cross your fingers for my sanity please.",1.8280243632336663,3.9535390139534914,3.3861129568106314,89.02100775193799,79.79069767441861,6.513842746400886,20.47065337763012,7.62386473244151,0.6723444075304541,828,22,175,13,21,273,130,215,0.177,0.682,0.141,-0.8438,2,0,0,0,0,0,33.0,0,9,0,4,6,17,3,0,5,1,16,8,5,5,3,30,36,16,0,1,3,1,2,3,0,1,2,2,0,0,16,10,2,1,6,1,0,1,4,9,2,4,9,10,32,8,20,26,1,19,0,2,6,1,19,15,2,2,6,112,48,0,0.0,0.0,0.24831908427518504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11894423104925235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10623294654110646,0.0,0.0,0.10826459316806236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14132545900843435,0.0,0.14203237650420392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26140349395267864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08403517297621611,0.0,0.10719798432705782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11762342562410626,0.06647318149844376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11251035131391704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08528055921369522,0.13442701273562482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14680801122722795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0699230776962072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0898673360294482,0.1864765797265842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32052712258279564,0.14233944834357376,0.13888815766505155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08492798104512066,0.0,0.12782109289779892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12821937674813672,0.13497246255126388,0.12846749519577855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0981287380431676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1724306470011691,0.09676525122355048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1396619255443614,0.12027484537465692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08150772501106934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2420524898926879,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3041609795383534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13060125537013734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20201511929807187,0.07418968183943206,0.0,0.12060053810348367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13245242682268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15493363011580216,0.2287927074091796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13910761777777447,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,koshele,2019/02/03,"How to make food disappear completely? I received a box of chocolates as a sign of thanks last night. Carrying the box home I kept considering what I should do with it. I can't eat them, I can't even keep them in the house, but I don't want to throw them out either - they're nice chocolates. So I brought them home and put them on a shelf.

This morning I had a proper (yeah) breakfast and sat at my table clicking things on the computer, considering what I might do today... but there were the chocolates. On the shelf. And I couldn't do anything while they were there.

Took the box, read the label - 70 kcal/unit. I could maybe eat one today, but I can't eat ""in ones"".

Now I only had a very narrow window for eating them, so I hastily gobbled 8 precisely and just as hastily proceeded to get rid of the rest.

But how to get rid of chocolate? If I throw it in the bin, I might take it out again. That cannot be allowed. 

So I decide to dump them in the toilet, as I have done with food before. But what if they get stuck, I mean it's lumps of solid chocolate? So put the chocolates in a bowl, pour boiling water on them, stirr until it's... a horrid liquid mess... then pour into the bathtub to avoid toilet backsplash. Wash off with water. Yay?

TL;DR Received chocolates, melted them in water and poured bown the drain to avoid eating them if merely thrown into the bin. Felt like disposing of corpses / murder weapons.

Also, hi, this is my first post, it's kinda boring but I want to try actually posting, not only reading. Thank you all for being here for one another.",2.9364283947563656,4.677877138263668,3.910369774919616,88.33198058372497,75.04501607717042,6.199406381399951,23.537101162503088,6.8449194561589275,0.7346798417017073,1214,36,245,11,26,391,162,311,0.121,0.8290000000000001,0.05,-0.9678,1,2,0,0,0,0,57.0,0,1,12,1,14,12,3,2,21,2,22,14,0,4,2,46,39,27,1,8,12,0,1,1,0,3,2,0,3,0,13,12,12,4,3,2,0,9,7,7,0,4,11,2,35,5,40,21,3,39,0,0,1,0,16,17,0,6,12,169,48,4,0.0,0.0,0.10377268396226412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08504021011308588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11150695933779932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08750891414739842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09048766786431932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11149566415923476,0.0,0.0,0.08490398732698372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10882293309071556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5440628021152372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0702366914120143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10210325707546887,0.0,0.0,0.09045290979006576,0.2571739554422975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16667507797249634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21333575850038844,0.0,0.0,0.12270229971796068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09452004534111956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08668144644861363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05195244452197364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07098290139296541,0.0,0.10683301217634217,0.11583563968398365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2256202698366752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09979306297805532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2161765909642876,0.1617530100525434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20368901037503606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21380252106953515,0.0,0.0,0.2127379308033656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07995458735414092,0.0,0.0,0.1958075161466188,0.0,0.0,0.07064769588875543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20159612883273592,0.0,0.11814786189372208,0.07219800745930711,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08774179214056914,0.1254443964023349,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Chasee89,2019/02/03,"Why am I gaining so much weight So back in November I weighed 118 lbs and my goal is 115 lbs. Between September and November, my husband was deployed and I was taking care of our son while living in an almost empty house because I had to sell it because we were about to move. This was a really hard time for me and I was really depressed and anxious a lot. I was so happy though with how quickly I lost weight during this time though and broke a long plateau and felt so close to my goal once I saw 118 lbs because it took so long to achieve after having a baby. I started doing cardio kickboxing and ballet beautiful in December once we were settled in our new home and I am now up to 125 lbs. My clothes are getting tighter and I’m so upset. I don’t eat very much and barely eat carbs. I really don’t know what to do, do I stop working out? I enjoy it but if it’s just going to keep making me heavier I feel like I will have to stop. I hate my body type so much because I have such a big hips and thighs. I’m 5’5” and have short legs even for my height. I just want thin legs and I have no idea what to do to achieve it because I thought the kickboxing and ballet would help but clearly they are not.  I did eat more during the holidays but I don’t understand how that could make me gain 7 lbs!I’m sorry if I’m rambling but I just need some advice.",1.5190850202429154,3.307031884210528,3.1762280701754366,91.81430161943324,79.28070175438596,6.0688259109311735,23.59311740890689,7.010146845296331,0.7489271255060728,1057,36,232,12,26,350,153,285,0.092,0.795,0.113,0.8734,0,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,4,0,1,8,20,9,1,1,8,0,29,12,5,4,1,51,51,33,0,6,10,2,6,1,0,2,1,0,1,0,10,20,6,3,6,3,1,3,5,5,0,0,14,7,38,4,23,34,6,27,0,3,1,0,8,11,0,5,14,157,48,6,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10750498072411327,0.0,0.0,0.11016371686436087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12428516840417445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08459442626842559,0.0,0.3353193542383193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12220140465342401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1121672030843597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08783769539868029,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09475540219699198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3377171616633549,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07266359684969567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055626680532507765,0.07859444261943642,0.10563125568730336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05747808079227276,0.0,0.06252382482840947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11711257310458224,0.09855146048951494,0.1086166278364385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07374045836229055,0.0,0.11035360035940288,0.0,0.0,0.12694206204751984,0.0,0.12419307720318908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09778601939822064,0.0,0.0,0.06046113964262498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05374756994113099,0.0,0.09714489549192784,0.19471889429448,0.0,0.0,0.12009391708667724,0.09353046733329884,0.0,0.0,0.14687118161029614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11692809489004545,0.24262013868347584,0.08157442194345678,0.0,0.10625277324260173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23432388839449814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2114344837018344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1231523226255192,0.07786889060816518,0.0,0.0,0.18395424098020915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08271727760785841,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21617754543857004,0.08733929297898158,0.12830078027240868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12223025362824012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11452906448030972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09077355557043697,0.06488945353192899,0.0,0.0,0.2679362566524567,0.0,0.0,0.09927105269485666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08009192928208203,0.0,0.0,0.07815120581855718,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,desperate_housecat,2019/02/03,"Outed myself at my new job.. I started a new job 2 weeks ago in a hospital call center. I really like it so far, and I really like my coworkers.

Now, the campus doesn't have a cafeteria and I'm garbage at bringing my own food. I'll usually bring a coffee, an apple, and maybe a granola bar. As such, I've had to dodge some questions regarding my lack of lunch and have settled on ""I'm just so bad at planning, haha. Anyways, I don't really get that hungry until the evening so I'll just make a big dinner when I get home!""

This brings us to Friday. There were soft peppermints in the break room and I was grabbing them left and right. Couldn't stop myself. I made some self-deprecating comment about it, and my trainer told me I can get away with eating whatever I want because I'm small. But then she followed it by clarifying that she meant people won't judge me for overeating the way they would judge someone larger. And then we ended up talking for like 45 minutes and she told me she's had an ED for years (she's 42). 

I know this isn't making a lot of sense, but basically I found a friend/ally who understands and isn't judgy. I wasn't going to tell anyone at the new job about my ED, but I'm glad she got it out of me. I'm beginning to think she clocked me from the beginning and reached out on purpose.",2.2494405370843964,3.8764742573529465,3.9457033248081856,87.83740409207162,76.64705882352942,7.083375959079285,24.32608695652174,7.893859768569023,1.2289761508951402,1026,34,219,16,23,344,158,272,0.018000000000000002,0.915,0.067,0.8307,4,0,0,0,0,0,33.0,2,0,2,1,13,6,0,0,16,1,15,6,0,3,0,38,43,22,0,4,5,0,2,3,0,2,0,0,2,0,9,16,6,1,6,1,0,5,7,1,0,0,11,2,36,5,31,29,5,46,0,0,0,0,19,21,0,4,21,139,45,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11401847182982687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08993772486940754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12084760188353948,0.0,0.10739666256850017,0.0784087231335667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13134070210054094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.131615682640138,0.0,0.0,0.11392374205424262,0.0,0.0,0.08495572616466959,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15553409262315776,0.14103088390429314,0.099375504202475,0.0,0.20160406189469535,0.0,0.0731006607321885,0.0,0.10287331610676767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12902155494464873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3829219673392879,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07068904163535375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13975164736440626,0.0,0.0,0.18851931497611826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10935253848302433,0.0,0.12170826661397965,0.17171662878422506,0.0,0.12922129367625124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3726810355881665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08917251264961155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14408965219927092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24720177472492635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10984521109657132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13418412727601758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10898370770234632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09104157286540376,0.0,0.0,0.10753641989310456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10338405702303326,0.11242408711574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08241782931946742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24581376596646254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13390336099121591,0.15472026866773406,0.0,0.14166247686061414,0.0,0.07586647075339073,0.10209669032971692,0.1031753703996749,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09137164589710073,0.0,0.0,0.08283040644863203
EDAnonymous,MSplinterED,2019/02/03,I'm going back to ABA tomorrow. Wish me luck It's an hour and a half drive to get there. But fuck it. I'm worth recovery,-2.986071428571428,-1.5547417499999998,0.5011428571428596,101.44385714285715,109.35714285714286,5.097142857142859,12.742857142857144,6.742157984588678,-0.5497514285714282,93,2,25,2,5,33,24,28,0.113,0.643,0.244,0.4767,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,2,2,1,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,4,6,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,1,2,6,0,5,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,3,12,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36935309466347904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4440681339791534,0.2509586973092019,0.0,0.2729892406539056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4730397876877496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5523692151479704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Peanutbuterjely,2019/02/03,"Do I have an eating disorder? Hello, I was told by a doctor's examination that I look anorexic. So I took a BMI test, I know this just calculatoe your weight and has nothing to do with mental illness. And I have an BMI of 16.3 and I think it's decreasing from my last test of 16.7 (last year). I find most food nauseating. I almost never eat not because I'm avoiding food but because I find allot of it sickening. Idk if I'm just full of shit when it comes to food.",0.9975257731958748,3.092322412371136,3.5208350515463955,87.09671649484541,82.6082474226804,6.35422680412371,22.07113402061856,7.554174236665415,0.918798762886598,362,12,78,6,10,126,64,97,0.162,0.821,0.017,-0.9229,0,1,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,1,0,0,4,3,1,2,4,0,6,9,1,0,1,20,14,7,0,1,5,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,5,5,6,1,5,0,0,2,2,3,0,0,3,2,12,0,9,11,3,8,0,0,1,0,3,1,1,4,5,50,17,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16246942184578475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19781155962222693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13976356435289514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18595196588286586,0.16606922249377776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33204345656081924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29658617888704525,0.0,0.5885781620969348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08916807349527991,0.2645099700493119,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13624870341027912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16350931889854434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12513680481639974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15568275627870276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1665467642602337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10396291832600298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15503633549677973,0.1802651472217011,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1975761618657373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1044833484651693
EDAnonymous,trashy_panda,2019/02/03,"what the fuck am I doing A few months back I started to actually recover, and now I realized I've barely eaten a single, proper meal in 2 weeks because every time I eat, I binge and purge. My throat is killing me, I feel so shit all the time, and I can't even afford the food I'm buying to binge on. AND I HAVEN'T EVEN LOST WEIGHT :(


lol how the fuck did I get back here",1.0047857142857168,2.48378005,3.17464285714286,92.65750000000004,79.75,6.071428571428572,20.17857142857143,6.868970318607317,0.1577321428571432,284,7,67,3,7,97,57,80,0.227,0.7090000000000001,0.064,-0.9394,1,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,1,8,5,4,0,6,1,6,9,2,1,1,8,14,6,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,4,5,0,2,0,1,0,2,5,0,0,3,2,11,0,4,11,3,10,0,1,0,2,0,2,3,0,8,43,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.21451721329683146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3380632761779807,0.0,0.13400310689500092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22493556437389026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2903843041849771,0.0,0.18521180469072684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11114998170242607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2658129198723747,0.0,0.0,0.4064488165613277,0.1148493414885361,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2432034791672512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2399646457234876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1754619915333046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2256469126152413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15559306583515792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2563631200562368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17633012802730014,0.2676872836851488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,bananishokolad,2019/02/03,"Binging Have you had days or weeks or even months when you know that you need to stop binging and start eating like a regular person but you just can’t seem to muster up the willpower or whatever drives you to actually achieve that? 

I feel so bad lately... I’m constantly eating even though i feel full. I know i eat out of stress bu I can’t seem to stop myself. What scares me is that if i can’t learn to control myself again I might start purging again.  And that really scares me because getting ahold of the purging was one of the hardest things I’ve overcome. 

I just want to be normal. But I’m not. If i tell someone I’m a bulimic in recovery they’re probably going to ask: then how come are you so fat.

It’s really fucked up. And it’s been getting worse ever since i broke up with my toxic boyfriend. I thought it would be all better and I’ll finally heal but I didn’t. It feels I’m even more down the limbo and I don’t know what to do with myself and how to even stop myself from self destructing anymore. 

The sad part is I don’t live in a place where even therapy is well developed. I’ll just pay money and they’ll only give me drugs that are going to make me feel like a blob and nothing more.  I wanna learn how to actually heal from within but i have no idea how to start. Or even if that’s possible. I just want this to be over so i can actually live a normal life. 

With all that binging combined with depression I don’t do shit all day. I ate all day today and watched movies. That’s it. That’s how productive i am. Lol. And I’m bloated af from all the gummy bears i ate. It’s my go to these days. ",0.9795872033023728,2.9547645438596533,2.8586721706226363,92.48318885448916,81.92397660818712,6.128792569659443,20.87753697970416,7.285733465282438,0.5034434812521509,1262,37,285,18,34,421,160,342,0.175,0.773,0.052000000000000005,-0.9935,1,0,1,0,0,0,28.0,0,6,1,3,25,14,3,3,11,1,27,12,2,7,6,69,60,32,0,10,16,0,4,2,0,3,5,0,0,2,20,16,6,4,13,0,2,5,9,10,1,1,7,5,39,4,34,47,9,38,0,3,1,1,12,12,2,10,23,189,59,4,0.0,0.0,0.267719207434939,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09069151731707856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08549122824077225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07635498585614317,0.05574565170536045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08087803394656723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07877407159010914,0.0,0.09882244541451067,0.10256633944042497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2359047311311924,0.0,0.07876374538644552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10605026612223332,0.2807213933680075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3624019470194032,0.08271965426896606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1849547614413344,0.0653302347279088,0.0,0.10017645410355072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08454189865104157,0.09555526789728158,0.08772493921924554,0.15591545722533684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10323328997385316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15077174593230366,0.0,0.1031569565314614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06459219474631278,0.08935342610192208,0.0,0.16149993850929925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061042030769444575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09701152801106544,0.0,0.0,0.07299265885834025,0.0,0.0,0.06780728962179286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17919860360678894,0.08774650707589804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06196730883222451,0.06955007489772844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0990289166272581,0.0,0.0,0.07984857937469987,0.09554335297948106,0.0,0.0,0.10309350925044272,0.0,0.0,0.09859605672560086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11716743991429132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18311014451473584,0.0,0.0,0.16650105103591012,0.09539986527741802,0.0,0.09386972056472824,0.07564645878508798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07748331522737102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19418139750921348,0.0,0.0,0.22936304416502154,0.10475299863152042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07992929553222351,0.0,0.10457838200171872,0.0,0.060753769451570364,0.0,0.08984687285581912,0.07259923629607108,0.0,0.0,0.08668169980178016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10787641185098974,0.0,0.0733538059671525,0.0,0.08222243902204512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0931929897606339,0.06496180200828637,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ManicPixieBallerina,2019/02/03,"Sugar Monster Because my post history from the old sub is gone, so is all the evidence that I've got a massive sweet tooth. What wasn't there is I'm also a very defensive eater. And when stressed, the two combine into inhaling entire resturant desserts in five ish minutes. 


I wound up having dinner with my mom (who seemingly can't solve any problem without throwing a lot of money into it. In this case she impulsively decided on purchasing a yorkie), sister, and boyfriend tonight at a local resturant, and she would not stop making digs at me over desserts. 

""[Waitress] better set that down quickly, Pixie will take off your hands if you don't."" 

""[BF] oh you know all about this, but she'll take that spoon and stick it in your eyes to have that all to herself."" 

Needle. Needle. Needle. Here's the story of Pixie's absolute disaster of a graduation, where she ate an entire mini cake in 15 minutes. More needling. 


Needless to say, I ate half of it. And I want more sugar.",3.8277364864864873,5.9542745675675715,4.546402027027028,83.06122466216216,73.5945945945946,7.003378378378378,28.859797297297305,7.8658589789855275,2.013006756756757,765,32,138,11,16,245,129,185,0.049,0.897,0.055,-0.4546,0,0,0,0,0,0,33.0,0,4,0,1,8,5,1,1,11,0,11,11,3,1,3,25,22,10,0,4,4,2,1,0,1,3,1,1,0,0,11,8,7,2,3,0,2,2,5,3,0,3,5,7,15,2,24,14,6,24,0,0,1,0,14,15,0,3,5,95,26,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18943118913984566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16108511027361155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14439858300949235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20949927287969827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1894529139315308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13018191138065238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20138513897926055,0.0,0.0,0.1581178527379571,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2774285600598266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24856353263711656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22686357076700125,0.0,0.0,0.2266601808878256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1883748316533184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21564476424324125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19804055000393847,0.2713428600374999,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3562054359823353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23139531069415614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1954490940267744,0.13971673605829812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22834186440003265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1682712798716413,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,dietpeps,2019/02/03,"I started working at a grocery store Sooo I recently started a job as a grocery store cashier. And I really enjoy it so far, it's a fairly easy part time job to have while I'm in school.

However... as you can probably guess, since I'm posting here... it's a trip. I don't have an ed per se, just disordered thinking issues, but still. It's a trip. And low key completely up my alley, since I'm thinking about weight loss and food constantly anyways. 

But being in that environment makes me such a weirdo. Like whenever I'm waiting to scan things I will see something interesting on the conveyor belt thingy and be like ""hOw MaNY cALoRieS????"" Like I need to Know this information even though this food is not for me??? And as I scan it I'm trying to take a peek at the calories without looking like I'm judging their food choices or something

But more often, it's a lot of seeing something really delicious when all I've had is coffee and being like ""will I ever get to eat that ever again in my life??""

Anyways, I'm probably the last person that should be a grocery cashier, and this is probably the last job I should have taken, since it feeds into my obsessing over food. idk. I worked in food service before and it wasn't like this at all. ",4.8236487854251,5.421134024291497,5.813620951417004,80.87767839068829,69.08097165991903,8.928036437246963,31.22697368421053,9.017664075816787,2.5439637651821863,972,39,192,17,16,322,134,247,0.057,0.8059999999999999,0.13699999999999998,0.967,4,0,3,0,0,0,38.0,0,1,1,3,17,11,0,1,15,0,18,9,0,2,4,33,40,20,0,3,7,0,1,6,0,4,1,0,0,1,16,9,8,1,4,0,2,2,4,3,0,0,3,6,17,8,23,29,5,29,0,2,5,0,4,13,0,4,19,124,33,7,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07930344551904434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09771486587011564,0.1007124199308515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10681138204835797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09536339217224417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06155547780480423,0.1686033273580111,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5634685158124554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04869137890035935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1026665660853413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09727304105511722,0.2774497461870665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0512184161076298,0.15193534164803393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06582751736470176,0.2731869182377785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07826167496780242,0.0,0.0,0.07923241974818311,0.0,0.0,0.06220945667249761,0.09448672839569078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06910410077506669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10092283989561386,0.0,0.0,0.08137567961545188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08925658445151614,0.0,0.30144510470745883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11940826156825933,0.0,0.09202040286019417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09431993850280944,0.14853125393387046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2312795810149105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2152418961737161,0.0,0.0,0.1319300715991384,0.0,0.07442692812482297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07007224754365682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061915682370781065,0.119433241111049,0.09156518997859577,0.0,0.054343689101528384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0632743763461539,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11348835603051832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08983820026605484,0.0,0.13569647496159687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,fragilmountain,2019/02/04,"ate a fear food tonight and surprise surprise, the world didn’t explode peanut butter is my killer. i could down half a jar in no time (hell thats what i used to do daily). 

haven’t eaten it in a few years. calories are very scary. however i had some calories to spare tonight... so i had roughly a spoonful. and oh my god it was bliss. 

today i rediscovered my love for peanut butter and i couldn’t be happier",0.3882694414019737,2.8056121204819315,1.8539320920043807,95.21009857612269,90.44578313253011,4.463964950711938,22.00328587075575,6.11248444174946,0.2821421686746989,318,12,68,3,11,102,59,83,0.147,0.657,0.196,0.5279,1,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,0,1,5,1,1,5,0,11,4,0,1,0,7,15,4,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,3,3,0,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,1,6,3,9,3,6,6,2,9,1,0,0,1,1,4,1,1,5,43,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29631270009618993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4176182208471088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4487651966099458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33495433455138457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21640566988018095,0.0,0.35178261436246194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3205323942890772,0.0,0.3062165648395624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2389919985277077
EDAnonymous,beezythegiraffe,2019/02/04,"Well guys, my body is finally taking revenge So about 5 days ago, I woke up with searing pain in my back teeth. As time has passed, my gums and cheeks have steadily become more swollen and my pain has gotten worse :/ I finally buckled down and made a dentist appointment, but I'm terrified that they are just going to have to pull all my back teeth. 



So much for my inner self saying, ""oh, beezy. You only purge small meals, not constantly like a *real* bulimic! You restrict more than you throw up!"" Haha, younger self, what now?! 



So girls and boys, if you're reading this, take it to heart. Don't be me. If you are going to insist on purging (which I know some of you are), make sure you at least have dental insurance. 




On the upside, less teeth means there's less food I can eat! I'll lose so much more this way! *sobs internally* ",2.85578439964943,4.708416055214727,3.5016345311130586,90.69480061349695,75.56441717791411,6.620333041191938,22.685801928133216,7.447530270364453,0.7654280455740579,639,18,134,8,14,201,117,163,0.152,0.8,0.049,-0.9519,0,0,0,0,0,0,35.0,0,6,1,1,11,8,0,0,3,1,12,13,6,2,2,19,23,12,0,2,5,0,0,1,0,0,4,1,0,5,6,5,3,1,2,1,0,5,2,4,1,0,3,1,18,4,17,19,10,24,0,2,0,0,13,9,1,3,10,84,24,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1351634588097806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2344939220736435,0.0,0.0,0.1684011074372978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16936982685575164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16477566076637504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09833635918189028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15602411270519884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3340666454651656,0.0,0.0,0.1843782466507971,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1733146916859166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15097821104838127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18068838306763396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08379848645615293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0744935513684514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17058503039608394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14427934366495368,0.10178093562011488,0.0,0.0,0.16609436292158622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22417926098902866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11596717223050335,0.32449687403616223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1525202916064491,0.17355451647244358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12125744361537105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31813776257355225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14370967995521974,0.0,0.229290506539682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08891174778974535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12103075560065216,0.0,0.0,0.1370969587207877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15538915680736304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,tiredandtwisted,2019/02/04,"My mom calls me out - all the time My mom lost all this weight after her divorce. I’ve always struggled with my weight and making the number go down has become a source of control for me now. But sometimes I lose it. Sometimes after a week of accomplishments, I’ll feel sad or angry and ill think “fuck it. What’s anything worth anymore.” And I’ll binge. 

Tonight my mom was sick and she had to take care of the dog because the drying machine was on and he couldn’t sleep yet. I went up to get a drink and then I said “you know you can go sleep if you want? I can look after the dog.” And she said “so what? So you can eat without me watching you?” 

I felt my lungs break. I couldn’t breathe. It was so quiet. I felt so ugly and fat. 

I just sadly and defeatedly said “no, because you’re sick....” 

It went quiet again. 

“No, it’s okay. I’m feeling better.”

And now I’m downstairs, in my bedroom in the basement. Feeling gross. Disgusting. A huge lard of fat. My mother is even disgusted by me. She always says it. She knows I’m too fat, she knows I’m too big. 

No more failures. No more steps backwards. I don’t care if it’s my birthday. I don’t care if my grandpa passed away. No more excuses. ",-0.796737060947585,1.3582870809716638,1.1544042017726248,98.6761932377722,97.21862348178136,3.4799868694605536,18.011708064339643,5.229147296764682,-0.610810832695043,907,28,205,5,37,296,130,247,0.206,0.703,0.091,-0.9861,0,0,1,0,1,0,40.0,0,5,0,6,12,15,3,1,10,1,13,15,7,2,2,35,43,20,0,6,7,5,7,0,0,0,6,6,1,0,10,12,7,1,9,1,1,6,10,10,0,0,12,15,34,5,20,29,5,28,0,5,2,1,24,10,1,4,11,125,44,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18564318931118576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11063127104024738,0.0,0.0,0.0917991702054408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10480835054936456,0.0,0.0,0.13600417074441387,0.12320227060896635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09866016094385084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1139087754543862,0.0,0.34120922146428745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12511693302657811,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10928013336943117,0.0,0.11414725976304554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0736801507871322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16921467091289338,0.0,0.21421804546707424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10312957573772116,0.05828219140444822,0.0,0.12679704944071302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1839209485395488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09367699217227372,0.124800028910275,0.12177401481882175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07446294483409005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3919509506122354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3183392737004587,0.08871196044369757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22326847708837966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22065887559957856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11662012286016285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08387448118560356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07147909112136894,0.0,0.0,0.06504784545782763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06579724825096049,0.0,0.0894816299237012,0.2716846488115382,0.0,0.20682275017538587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10753376268213916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,faceless_dream,2019/02/04,"Do you find it very hard not to tell your friends? I've been dropping hints about what's been going on to a couple close friends for months now. ""I just think I would look ideal at a lower weight"" ""That ben and Jerry's would be more than my whole day's worth of calories"" ect. One of them straight up asked if I had an eating disorder and I just laughed it off and started pondering the semantics of such a thing. I told him that people who abuse food are all around us. Never gave a conclusive answer and I doubt I ever will, unless it's to someone who I think has one too.
I don't want people to interfere with it. But I want to say the things that come to my mind. I want to be understood, but I don't want to live with the knowledge that other people know. I don't really trust them. Maybe it all comes down to wanting attention from them and validation. 
It seems like I should be able to keep it all inside if I actually try.",2.769550949913647,4.078586300518136,3.857015544041453,90.32662867012093,74.5958549222798,7.219205526770295,22.71122625215889,7.793537801064563,0.8109698791018998,728,19,162,10,15,236,119,193,0.097,0.8240000000000001,0.079,-0.062,1,0,0,0,1,0,18.0,1,2,3,2,8,7,0,1,8,0,16,3,0,0,5,48,35,10,0,11,8,0,2,1,2,4,0,1,0,0,17,11,3,2,11,0,1,3,5,1,0,2,6,4,24,6,26,22,5,18,0,0,1,0,16,8,0,4,7,115,41,0,0.13475638200378692,0.15966427714783332,0.13150278999389473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11996174999543853,0.12597902639912567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2321613819014968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14910537357984074,0.0,0.0869067182751084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15444248852176565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13788942075752195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12189486247089262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1231648918337611,0.0,0.16294795201946233,0.0,0.2082248929169342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07658515735479403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12071524942448515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11977766400671075,0.0,0.0,0.07405858336543487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06583516143927542,0.0,0.11899235416071033,0.0,0.11316142162112205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13538089821160873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13606553109748545,0.0,0.10756125846454627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10393242926875687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18262882393668764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2802693236116967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08632838894599525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10716368369454132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12267714908049154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11417864517082035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09538126076957214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11778301749927632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17905230473541367,0.17269289672761073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12876549786250094,0.0,0.09149073773933987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16209533543486582,0.0,0.0,0.11118812798313098,0.3974140276165025,0.0,0.0,0.16409696969993315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15045068807938838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19145413485201696,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,goodbyeroad,2019/02/04,someone told me i looked like i was “shrinking” it made me feel so great. it’s so euphoric when other people notice my weight loss. it’s the most amazing high and i hope i continue to “shrink”,0.5853846153846156,3.020766512820515,1.9750769230769265,94.79492307692308,89.0,4.1456410256410265,20.620512820512825,5.6839178017228535,-0.011096410256410394,150,5,31,1,5,48,31,39,0.047,0.556,0.396,0.9579,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,1,3,5,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,1,0,5,6,4,0,1,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,3,3,7,4,1,3,1,3,0,1,1,0,1,1,0,2,3,19,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15751908228949654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34346326028303803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3291488706874969,0.0,0.3094198847377761,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1521979706746993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2616069946951492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29477750641088785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35467931624799925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21597588767422787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26395861587450026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2976805560910867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3793599838778237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,dreamly,2019/02/04,"tfw you vow to stop binging but someone buys u a bunch of food wow. i went all out last night bc i SWORE it would be my last binge but i just received a care package from my aunt with those big bags of almonds & cashews from trader joe's, two bags of peanut butter pretzels (TWO!! 4200 cal..... kill me), and three boxes of larabars. kinda going insane rn. 

i wouldve been so happy to receive this like three weeks ago but im almost positive ive gained back all the weight i lost over winter break  and i hate myself so much for it lol. im not gonna throw the food away but i wish there was some way to guarantee that i wont eat it until i lose weight again. this is a true test of my own (nonexistent) willpower, someone slap me if i break my diet of coffee/kratom/kombucha/broth ",-0.038250073035349885,2.247397386503067,1.336529360210342,99.30513292433541,90.47239263803681,3.8409582237803095,16.964358749634822,5.288315135182226,-0.7759211802512413,606,15,137,3,21,192,116,163,0.121,0.648,0.23,0.9701,1,0,0,0,0,1,24.0,0,1,0,3,6,9,2,0,5,1,7,6,0,0,3,20,14,10,1,3,7,1,2,1,0,3,0,0,0,0,7,4,6,1,0,0,1,5,2,4,0,4,4,3,19,5,17,6,6,22,0,2,0,0,4,4,0,4,11,78,26,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1325358678362331,0.0,0.14971749611770152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16199924636532698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14047409629790006,0.11496766854749745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1524403249119938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15299098856195764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3615878306928642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08497271849076107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15916130744488072,0.0,0.14761493184223415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3230033276594058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1654159972571425,0.0,0.0,0.2437490696036392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07304538938083383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16726884057645322,0.16321308936337225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1099105970197188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14030953133793372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2533668457142444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12500108540137253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2921085100297097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11867790577172417,0.11993177101737408,0.364137545527326,0.0,0.13860173723013444,0.0,0.0,0.17193466566411958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10621103923118262,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,laksa-girl,2019/02/04,Why is it so hard to start eating healthy without it becoming an obsession :( The thin line between healthy eating and orthorexia is so precarious.,7.2395999999999985,9.820304359999998,7.221,65.55550000000002,65.4,11.4,44.5,11.20814326018867,6.237800000000003,119,8,17,4,2,38,20,25,0.213,0.626,0.161,-0.1941,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,1,2,0,2,2,0,0,0,2,3,3,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,3,3,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,12,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3798244125507037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7038168317754366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3080781104531838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24342308640064755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31032760128586506,0.0,0.0,0.3315194439049385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,gnatig,2019/02/04,"Hi! I’ma be trying a eat every other day type thing. The days I can’t eat I’ll be exploring smoothie recipes, I’ll allow coffee, maybe a snack if it’s really bad. But the next day I’ll allow one full meal. Maybe it’ll work. I’ll update below or whatever :)

CW: 160 GW: 145 UGW: 135 5’7 :3",-2.5339160839160826,-0.9068479999999984,1.237622377622376,96.71419580419581,105.92307692307692,4.209790209790209,12.062937062937063,6.11248444174946,-0.8620769230769231,220,4,53,3,11,80,47,65,0.06,0.7759999999999999,0.16399999999999998,0.6807,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,4,0,4,4,0,2,0,6,4,3,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,0,4,0,1,0,0,1,1,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,1,1,8,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,2,5,18,5,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2036569796302453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4719106861585357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4991673252670565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2055070335646889,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4900863349870441,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2594040042961964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16528160945982434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15625676998297153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16204481015778507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1656007639787143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17757140583989994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,bby_gsta,2019/02/04,"[TW] Depression, Anxiety, ED I don’t wanna make this too long. 

Depression makes me not hungry, but anxiety makes me binge. ED makes me feel bad about it. ED makes me purge. 

I stopped all of my bad habits (binging, purging, restricting, self harm, planning for death), but SURPRISE! They’re back. It was a good 2 months. 

On the plus (?) side, my doctor prescribed me Clonazepam. Not too sure if that’s such a good idea. Any advice would be appreciated. Help me help myself. ",1.4599469496021236,4.176110609195405,2.210804597701152,91.1319628647215,92.33333333333334,5.435543766578249,21.634836427939877,7.010146845296331,0.8854480990274092,361,13,70,6,13,112,65,87,0.245,0.544,0.211,-0.4604,0,0,0,0,0,0,27.0,0,0,0,1,5,9,0,0,3,0,4,1,0,5,2,19,10,4,1,3,5,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,4,1,0,2,2,0,0,0,3,5,0,0,1,1,11,4,6,7,1,6,0,2,0,0,3,2,0,1,4,38,15,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1700194438121425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1183180734438527,0.0,0.2662012885828382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13378633442737778,0.29054608103400364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2997118956017808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17808449258584114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08797375918352562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29186641817282305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2332415043984467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1964117175704824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1539742525633383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5806930162960757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13887587521461398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1815078391851713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14546208709437433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1639820011787116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12359636229895213,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Ravenclawprincess25,2019/02/04,"Can't stop I babysit a couple of kids at their house. Their parents stock the pantry pretty well. I can't help but join them in ridiculous  snacking. Today it was 2 ding dongs, 3 chocolate chip cookies,  a bag of chips,  2 fun size chocolates and a couple of handfuls of mixed nuts. 

This happens every day I am here. 4 days a week. I don't know how to stop myself. I'm up almost 10 pounds in the last 2 months. ",1.3926176470588238,3.273721600000002,2.436102941176472,96.52121323529413,80.05882352941177,4.25,21.213235294117645,3.1291,-0.41814705882352987,316,9,70,0,8,100,65,85,0.125,0.728,0.147,0.1815,1,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,3,0,3,3,1,0,6,0,5,2,1,1,0,7,8,3,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,1,1,2,1,0,0,0,3,1,1,0,1,1,8,2,9,7,0,12,0,0,0,0,6,4,0,1,8,35,10,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22473232142671135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.496650843164087,0.0,0.28947511328184594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1890903519443806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19846102574490807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15042942324859485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2589598926274234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1233398132773732,0.18293885376817454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17913636653612094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24920084338935616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2283240588725721,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3752638780577052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21273159507452935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18002268280229794,0.0,0.2017878126995229,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,dynamicsystem,2019/02/04,"my hair is actually thinning out huh. Didn’t ever think this would happen. Even when I first started heavy restriction, before the huge binge cycle I went through during the summer, my hair was still as thick as ever. I’ve been complimented on how thick my hair is my whole life. Fuuuuck. It definitely doesn’t feel or look as voluminous as before. Don’t know why it’s finally happening now, when I’m binging like once a week still. Though I guess I’m still at a deficit on average..

feels bad man :( ",3.860953608247424,5.763348123711343,5.074832474226807,80.27451675257736,72.91752577319588,8.561340206185568,26.55798969072165,9.188382445141503,2.2238463917525766,396,14,77,9,8,131,70,97,0.113,0.784,0.104,-0.2263,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,0,1,11,3,0,0,4,1,8,4,3,1,2,12,20,9,0,1,1,0,8,1,0,1,1,0,0,1,3,1,0,1,4,0,0,1,3,1,0,1,4,9,7,2,9,15,1,22,0,0,1,0,1,8,0,2,14,45,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.17785111042113524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15217233553186835,0.0,0.0,0.31016509537211634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12037535392720328,0.3297137139993199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18430360310257984,0.0,0.0,0.1996475386029014,0.0,0.155022977461351,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20077050280079248,0.0,0.32232868405518394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1001606223591934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12872957831718185,0.08903884523874699,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15304530415731255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19409183017344905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12899850369732718,0.0,0.4366386941134677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.116779360522594,0.17906110949275786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14619110787609454,0.0,0.0,0.16894890609336008,0.16445357264088512,0.2034772185425523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12946619033607515,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,b-carbonate,2019/02/04,"The biggest binge night Tonight has been.....something...

I was coming home after a day fast with a nice panini and a cookie but instead of giving me a Diet Coke the lady gave me a sprite, it escalated quickly after that...
I went outside on an impulse and bought honey, panini bread and biscuits, I ate them so quickly my jaw hurt. After that I spent an hour purging on those awful things!

But it’s not over!

On an other impulse I re downloaded Uber eats and ordered 20 chicken nuggets, a wrap, fries and a McFlurry and right now I’m waiting for them.

I’m seeing black dots and I’m very shaky for some reason and guys I’m so scared, I’m afraid that my medication will be purged and I kinda need my meds !

Idk what I’m doing guys help ",2.0592277992277985,4.125228783783786,3.442316602316602,89.21175675675678,78.72972972972974,5.039382239382238,23.40926640926641,5.773587663045528,0.4310563706563704,572,19,114,3,14,187,97,148,0.13,0.812,0.058,-0.9086,0,0,1,0,0,0,22.0,0,0,2,0,6,5,0,3,12,1,5,7,1,1,0,20,21,13,0,1,3,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,1,2,9,11,5,1,1,0,2,2,1,4,0,0,6,3,13,1,11,13,1,20,0,1,2,0,8,6,0,3,11,69,22,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19121124155071573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1431550877616017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2271351688537207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2129380163355572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4395789966708666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1487847231006179,0.0,0.22265836471971714,0.0,0.2186000145375094,0.0,0.23762812517372697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2465634545494501,0.22361579769630888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16459116271450824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20830788395959496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22822659438790505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1895648760825069,0.0,0.0,0.2222350410892676,0.0,0.1768848122631259,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17088669393355654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14746989017106127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18315208001626115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2057724398351504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,dansla116,2019/02/04,"Looking for ED related novels. I really enjoyed *Wintergirls* by Laurie Halse Anderson when I read it a few months back. I'm currently considering picking up *Second Star on the Right* by Deborah Hautzig. Are there any other recommendations? I have access to that google drive folder shared back in the /r/proed days with a bunch of PDFs - novels, diet / exercise books, etc. Not sure if I'm allowed to share it here.

In particular, I'm looking for something where the character actually gets forced into inpatient and has to deal with being essentially force-fed. Does such a novel even exist?

Reading is my best distraction from bingeing. And truthfully, I need something else to read after I crank through all the posts and comments on this subreddit.",4.246818181818185,7.517631787878791,5.059318181818185,73.48397727272727,79.60606060606061,8.451515151515151,29.46212121212121,9.017664075816787,3.468566666666667,604,28,92,17,16,195,102,132,0.056,0.812,0.132,0.8858,2,0,2,0,0,0,23.0,0,0,0,1,8,7,0,1,7,0,5,2,0,2,3,14,12,5,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,5,6,1,0,0,8,0,1,1,1,0,1,0,2,6,6,20,11,5,17,0,0,2,0,4,8,0,1,7,62,11,4,0.0,0.0,0.1840746366957439,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12827414847308746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2900880250412701,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19795443645526206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12165006228120825,0.1944681558523263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16507045771447346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1575752761523229,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21037113140267827,0.1245876367530306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09855083647760572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3168016066252133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1505618213523651,0.0,0.0,0.13986596989483335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18065438394816244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5660399610306962,0.0,0.12084052994237393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16108808525317395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2904315492393273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17778054488094716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,kinkyveggielover96,2019/02/04,"Wet ears after purging? Kinda gross. Weird question. I tried googling it but I only found ear infection results. I do not have an ear infection, thankfully! 

I've noticed after purging the inside of my ears are wet. Is the force making the wax discharge? Are my ears purging too? Does this happen to anyone else?",1.4882775119617229,3.865569087719301,2.5782775119617227,85.807033492823,103.73684210526315,4.1779904306220095,24.480063795853273,6.11248444174946,1.2754350877192988,246,11,39,3,11,78,42,57,0.054000000000000006,0.861,0.085,0.591,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,4,0,5,7,5,2,0,7,9,1,0,0,2,0,2,0,0,0,2,5,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,7,5,1,4,8,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,2,23,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22256210729290152,0.3261350072625491,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2785456570401573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2658980258300002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3489984960226268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2814708122627361,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21246709773314387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36238559553761795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2420807822802649,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3565677993204305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2930470145175746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2161041716521757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,general-zorp-zorp,2019/02/04,"feel like a bad girlfriend! reee Oy. I'm procrastinating on a bunch of hw problems to type this drivel lol

oh ALSO IF THIS IS NOT ALLOWED PLS TAKE IT DOWN,,, thx

So lately I've been made aware that I really don't show affection (or think about the feelings of people other than myself.) I have a really awesome and talented and superb and supportive SO who is an adorable pile of snuggles and netflix binges. 

For some reason I can't hug that well. Or cuddle for long periods of time. Or kiss either. Or do much of anything. I get self conscious whenever his hands go near my abdomen. Even when he's all ""oMg it'S totaLLy ConCave i SwEar"" I just...hate the FEELING of having someone run their hands over something that isn't **ROCK HARD ABS RAH.**

But he's starting to feel sad about it. He feels like he's doing something wrong. He's tolerated all of my self-loathing and existential dread and constant ""i NEED TO BE AMAZING AT EVERYTHING"" spiel when things don't go according to my (extremely detailed and elaborately calculated) plan. And yet I haven't even once asked about how he's doing. I haven't offered to cook things or taken him out to eat (c a l o r i e s.) He's so fuckin patient, I have no idea how he still has hope for me.

To be honest, I feel like my massive, childlike egocentrism and obsessive tendencies are hurting him almost as much as they hurt me. Like the other day when we were talking about our futures (I have two pretty distinct pathways after my undergrad), I didn't like what he was saying, so I basically did the young-adult equivalent of I CAN'T HEAR YOU NAH NAH NAH NAH and told him to fuck off, I do what I want. But when I looked up I saw that I hurt him a lot when I said that. And I didn't even apologize - HE was the one who said he was sorry. For what, dude?! For trying to help me?! 

man I really gotta stop doing this...

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EDAnonymous,notria17,2019/02/04,"Salad Bar Disaster So I went to the salad bar at my grocery store for lunch and I was just going to get plain veggies but the lady that was making it kept asking what else I wanted to add and then when I said nothing she would give me this stare because I wasn’t filling the bowl as much as I could. And then she just put bacon on it and said “don’t worry, it’s good” and then wouldn’t let me not get dressing and got super confused when I said just balsamic vinegar and kept saying, “are you sure you don’t want oil?” LIKE YES I AM VERY SURE THANK YOU. And now I want to just throw out my salad instead of eating it because it has all this stuff I don’t want on it. ",1.5456249999999976,2.9255523125000025,3.1025000000000027,94.1925,77.95833333333334,5.355555555555556,20.333333333333336,5.46131890053228,-0.22130833333333344,519,12,119,2,12,171,84,144,0.058,0.713,0.229,0.9827,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,3,0,1,9,7,0,1,3,1,13,7,0,1,3,30,31,17,0,7,6,0,0,1,0,2,0,4,0,0,11,10,7,2,0,2,1,5,6,1,0,0,10,6,19,6,12,17,2,15,0,0,1,0,11,4,0,1,7,82,30,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15634998364325628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20390002370229224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13353022981948506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17113172959214315,0.13971038337719632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17475552615398934,0.1604350890059314,0.09504826669958576,0.14027581192290828,0.1337598085660164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1710176866325582,0.0,0.08170666743820214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11163625448771068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12294312720825555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16047453321680813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16812578933691022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4772602567819418,0.132998648042488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19145365690867147,0.0,0.0,0.3152498118843733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15397523399428664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13799330323771627,0.394577913441452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1550362883436299,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16984377007719792,0.0,0.11880489835550267,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,skinnypod,2019/02/04,"Fucked up teeth fucked up thoughts Just had to have an emergency root canal (result of shitty dental work years ago and putting off getting it fixed). I've got loads of follow up work that need to be done to sort it all out now. 

My first thought was ""ooh this is a great excuse to not eat at social stuff for weeks"". Before even freaking out at the cost, I was thinking in terms of my ED.

Great.",2.3589107142857166,4.174237212500003,2.4371428571428595,97.94500000000002,76.875,5.071428571428573,20.17857142857143,5.288315135182226,-0.4077678571428569,307,7,69,1,7,92,64,80,0.185,0.7170000000000001,0.099,-0.8519,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,3,3,5,2,0,3,0,7,4,1,2,1,13,16,1,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,3,1,0,3,0,1,2,1,3,0,1,7,0,3,2,17,8,2,17,0,0,0,2,2,9,2,1,6,42,8,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18103056430006614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17377796035014947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20899010658757675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20897018629265365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13488676704127495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17371120885359698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3776000702764294,0.10669761517371608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16333506463779374,0.450311159267132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15142809503325333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2052996110193383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20817870656714968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23378543795452705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13085727172662087,0.0,0.3242590616584621,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16381464534271553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29735223345205797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1315123328698841
EDAnonymous,SongRiverFlow,2019/02/04,"Becoming obsessive about my dog's weight. My dog is a healthy weight but I'm so scared of him being overweight that I can feel myself getting obsessive about how much he eats/exercises. I know it's just me projecting onto him, but I feel like it's one thing to fail myself (and be fat) and another thing to affect his health since he has no control over his food.  


Basically rambling now, but wanted to know if other people have felt this way/dealt with this. ",5.171666666666667,6.072773055555558,5.731111111111113,80.69000000000003,68.44444444444444,9.111111111111112,28.333333333333336,9.2995712137729,2.287666666666667,365,12,71,7,6,118,66,90,0.204,0.7440000000000001,0.053,-0.9394,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,2,6,5,0,3,1,0,6,6,1,3,0,17,14,8,0,2,5,0,5,1,0,0,3,0,0,0,8,3,5,1,5,0,0,0,1,4,0,1,1,5,12,1,9,11,1,3,0,1,0,0,6,2,0,1,2,49,20,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2226220766084194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2344760598392544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23812000647582904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2146972838868212,0.15167194228973085,0.2038477172511229,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25672209317771943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1109214832792028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2256720843544204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23335640986859715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10372232507325524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15606984601913962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14386450818974322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14718672745782574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2125560346382692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17562228850178851,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2820942631698745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1252239868785964,0.16851916905104208,0.0,0.5170647071459481,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,throw-edaway,2019/02/04,"Teletubby probs Made a throwaway so ppl don’t stalk my post history

WHY is it that the top of my stomach (sternum?? I think, idk that under boob bit) is so bloated/fat??? It makes me look 10x bigger than I am, like my stomach would be so much flatter if it would just go down. It’s not even bloat because it’s permanent and I’ve barely eaten for a week.  My legs aren’t that fat n my arms are skinny so I look like some kinda weird ass teletubby

Seriously if anyone has any answers I’m dying to know why tf my body is like this and why it’s not disappearing fast enough",0.6516346153846158,2.798354791666668,2.7600000000000016,91.71576923076924,84.41666666666666,5.6923076923076925,20.89743589743589,7.010146845296331,0.4785512820512818,445,14,98,6,13,150,82,120,0.066,0.831,0.102,0.6381,1,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,1,6,6,0,0,3,0,11,10,9,2,0,16,20,8,1,4,5,0,0,3,0,2,1,0,0,0,10,2,3,0,3,0,0,2,4,2,0,0,2,2,10,4,6,15,4,9,0,0,2,2,1,4,2,4,5,55,20,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13567454793685094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13950296286379402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12162025676524672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21781470259233954,0.22161211429001432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20706126481836296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2061485396718802,0.0,0.13177535377312935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11338688825238538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1096462109137507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2924134787088321,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3350785429190489,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1887824472135614,0.13317536397082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1466637857818193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1910767069338184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12783880623579216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16003595694936165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5400838379369527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2834542533268541,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,spencersins666,2019/02/04,"The last 10 lbs are the hardest Hw: 150 Cw: 131 GW: 120 ? Ugh I’m happy I’ve already lost 20 lbs but these last 10 lbs are KILLING me ... I’m trying to do omad + keto but have binged lately bc of social situations, and this makes me feel worse bc when I binge my face bloats up and looks fat and makes me want to stress eat on account of how ugly I am. Why am I like this ?",0.4444750430292608,1.6103667349397632,2.540309810671257,97.9686746987952,80.44578313253012,5.224784853700517,17.881239242685027,5.288315135182226,-0.7540519793459549,281,5,73,1,7,95,60,83,0.238,0.691,0.07200000000000001,-0.9605,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,1,2,6,1,1,2,0,6,3,2,3,0,10,14,7,1,1,2,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,3,2,0,1,0,1,0,0,4,0,0,1,2,7,2,6,13,0,6,0,1,1,0,1,2,0,0,5,31,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2531522909427503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2347368881474005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11599322185930222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2442041219176297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25380080755681683,0.0,0.0,0.3739886814602217,0.2587769604207681,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11207488465785168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.192641029483976,0.0,0.2504208454510777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3062570225326535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2578589665749489,0.0,0.2338478164042363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2627807517039171,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1557498099075236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13530803398306973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20700083357862525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2337816026534818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,dietingdietdie,2019/02/04,"Trainer asked if I was bulking. Cue emotional breakdown. I’ve gained a significant amount of weight in the past week and a half, probably 15-20 lbs (including water) from daily binges and a personal trainer at the gym this morning asked if I was bulking. I lasted about 10 minutes before having a complete break down in the gym and I’ve been crying ever since. I don’t know how I’m going to keep it together through work. I’m so ashamed and disappointed in myself. ",4.4142380952380975,6.136015566666668,5.550952380952385,78.165,71.1111111111111,8.253968253968255,31.74603174603175,8.841846274778883,2.831603174603175,371,17,66,7,7,123,65,90,0.121,0.81,0.069,-0.7547,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,2,4,2,0,1,7,0,5,2,0,1,1,10,12,8,0,2,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,4,2,1,1,2,0,1,1,2,0,1,3,1,5,0,10,9,1,11,0,1,0,0,3,5,0,2,4,39,7,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4552786523264988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2072002888976679,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2553047765500015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2674729592154907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27390436030883103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2202593967326337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13838647680224278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21643369934858428,0.0,0.0,0.13382105335931874,0.19848473466186592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23244799242986924,0.0,0.21261452406272302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2625338339058416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2014254474853933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1953207516781081,0.296517005057464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17727066352801799,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,China--Doll,2019/02/04,"Found out I got my height wrong I've never had my height like officially documented so tbh have no idea how tall I am but I've always been a little bit taller than most of my female friends and around the same height as a lot of my male friends, the only person that has ever made me feel short is my 6ft 7 friend. My partner guessed I was 5ft 6-7 and last year we used a tape measure and he said I was 5ft 5.5 and I wasn't too surprised although did think I was taller. The other day we did it again with a different tape measure and I was 5ft 4!!!!!! He was like 5ft 8 which is a big no because I swear I'm like 1inch shorter than him. 

I don't know if I'm completely in denial, the tape measure is wrong or I'm shrinking but I'm gonna have to measure myself again and again until it makes sense. 

Anyway it has upset me because it means my bmi is even further away from my goal but also find it really funny that I've been going about thinking I'm super tall for so long ffs. 

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EDAnonymous,Pollyhotpocketposts,2019/02/04,"What food or ingredient makes your ED slightly more bearable? Shout out to xanthum gum, shirataki, sugar free jelly and mushrooms from me.",7.255652173913043,10.258706956521742,6.338478260869567,70.10163043478265,66.39130434782608,8.078260869565218,37.58695652173913,8.841846274778883,3.9812782608695656,112,6,15,2,2,34,23,23,0.0,0.87,0.13,0.5106,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,4,1,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,2,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,2,3,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,9,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8754671884153509,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4832775620780674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,balletarius,2019/02/04,"I hate my boobs Weird right? 

I hate them so much. I’m only a 32B but at 5’3 and doing ballet next to a thirty wonderfully skinny people with absolutely no boobs at all I feel like the most disproportionate person ever. I  was discussing body image woes with a fellow dancer and she thought I was a C. At least.

 I just stood in front of a mirror for an hour wasting KT tape trying to tape down my breasts, I finally smooshed them down with an ace bandage and tried on a leotard to see that they’re really the only thing holding me back from liking my body enough in class. But I could never actually do that for ballet so I’m back to being the whale that everyone knows and hates me as. 

Maybe they’ll go away as I lose weight. Ugh I want to chop them off. Honestly they ruin my lines so much and are so distracting while I dance. I’m crying just thinking of going to class and rehearsal tomorrow :(

Rant over.",2.7169467213114764,4.61764865573771,4.023630464480873,86.58659323770495,76.10382513661202,6.760792349726777,21.820013661202182,7.6454224807358475,0.8324866120218575,716,19,146,10,16,235,116,183,0.23,0.6859999999999999,0.084,-0.9839,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,5,2,9,12,3,1,11,0,8,7,6,0,3,25,24,15,0,2,4,0,2,2,1,1,0,0,0,1,4,9,2,1,5,3,0,4,2,9,0,0,4,3,23,3,27,17,6,25,0,3,1,3,9,12,2,2,11,98,27,2,0.0,0.0,0.14411989432477376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13875553338244032,0.2271223035628397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3280909363393798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11791497737272028,0.0,0.16222575605894274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1525987593742987,0.0,0.0,0.1335901291436743,0.0,0.14111997126054962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07467430408481254,0.10550666067716122,0.0,0.16178241506347116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.167866321092222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4374270234039148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1454406201123155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0811641730868558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14430350124013794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16522247022133074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1483700896745677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21713189713656156,0.0,0.11390428084321012,0.0,0.15706536841263308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2246431895696533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10238663707760837,0.12895341651115938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09461121161537657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12612274151621006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11768634525678495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0981157861299865,0.09463100375352423,0.0,0.1172459125734386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20053772935618208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08710882509174471,0.0,0.0,0.17984133974091307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16015879183975204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,nintentions,2019/02/05,"i’ve just realised how cruel we are to ourselves i’m on the second day of a fast, and i’ve been dealing with tough cravings for the past few hours. i finally gave in and made myself a coffee and went to my front porch to have a smoke where i briefly saw myself in the window. i immediately thought “i wish i was that small” and a little part of me said 


^^maybe ^^you ^^are


i just got so fucking angry at myself, the window is probably distorted, it’s just my one (1) ok angle, i am NOT SMALL. “you’re a fucking pig, shut up and drink your espresso” was the final thing i thought before i kind of stood back and was like...... god damn. that’s harsh.


idc tho bc i’ve got coffee in me now and those strawberries seem waaaay less enticing. i’ve never loved myself but always wish i could.

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EDAnonymous,Brie_Bean1011,2019/02/05,"Need help. I keep on binging and purging, then I try to eat at least 1000 calories a day. I need to be healthier, and stop my harmful actions.. Any suggestions? ",1.1330645161290356,3.71121383870968,2.6583064516129045,89.80745967741936,88.03225806451613,5.680645161290323,30.330645161290327,7.1686216300943375,2.0662838709677422,123,7,24,2,4,40,26,31,0.07400000000000001,0.836,0.09,0.128,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,6,4,3,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,2,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,0,4,3,1,6,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,3,14,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2662431362430669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25249432166535546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40061685045782336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26242376935998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34799588138052456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5806057560583472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3273234692318304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2658124966936424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,curvylucifer,2019/02/05,"Back on my bullshit Sorry for the foul language. 

This is the most I've B/P'd in the last few weeks. Probably about 6 times tonight.

Brb going to try on bikinis to stop myself from round 7.",-0.4269230769230781,1.80982207692308,1.16551282051282,98.28365384615387,97.46153846153842,3.6256410256410256,19.320512820512818,5.46131890053228,-0.31230256410256363,147,5,32,1,6,47,35,39,0.181,0.8190000000000001,0.0,-0.743,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,8,2,2,10,0,0,1,0,0,3,0,1,6,18,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3103786169589336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2294011453620742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3290251079474081,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4351983198499968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4518482984978395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3374658675383574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23536904552874496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27404892478309856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3237802217623413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,fatbitch2001,2019/02/05,"EDanonymous/proed/what ever you want the chat to be on discord. For minors that are under 18. Please excuse the title lol. Someone else posted a link to a discord chat but that one was for adults so here's one for minors. https://discord.gg/2nKCFpH
Just drop your age and reddit username, ok? Thanks. ",2.290555555555553,4.9616273148148125,2.0308148148148177,90.1206666666667,99.92592592592592,2.900740740740741,16.511111111111113,4.935628992294339,-0.5948977777777777,241,6,40,1,10,71,44,54,0.108,0.68,0.212,0.631,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,2,0,0,4,2,0,0,4,2,3,0,0,0,1,6,5,3,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,2,2,7,3,0,6,0,0,0,0,6,2,0,0,2,26,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.307329968021261,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3327830674308671,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4985918109998719,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4038394194764014,0.0,0.0,0.35234274942992644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31171715529946503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3387092827007024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21699464024885504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Koala-ty,2019/02/05,I bought girl scout cookies today and told myself I wasn't going to binge Yet here I am 1.5 boxes gone and 1000 calories over my tdee. Fuck 2019 has been so stressful 😭,0.97757142857143,3.329222114285717,1.9825000000000017,96.43375000000002,85.0,3.5,17.32142857142857,3.1291,-0.9162857142857148,134,3,28,0,4,42,32,35,0.217,0.7829999999999999,0.0,-0.8290000000000001,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,3,2,1,1,0,0,4,1,0,0,0,2,9,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,2,1,2,0,0,5,0,5,0,2,4,0,5,0,0,0,1,2,1,1,0,2,16,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.44575479117546496,0.0,0.0,0.27402610691841023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5523196400252819,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4570370858757715,0.4607303726126412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ABlueSongbird,2019/02/05,"DAE chew way TOO MUCH GUM Srsly tho I been chewing the same piece of gum for 6ish hours. And when I spit it out I just pop another one in. I do this every day.

I think I gotta problem.",-2.2300000000000004,-0.4280549523809505,0.3447619047619064,105.05857142857144,98.5238095238095,3.752380952380953,14.142857142857142,5.46131890053228,-1.2760285714285713,140,3,38,1,6,47,36,42,0.07400000000000001,0.926,0.0,-0.4019,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,0,1,0,2,3,1,0,0,6,4,3,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,2,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,6,0,4,2,3,6,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,3,24,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4227988736174852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26003588293643337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3397202340827383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3970787813342781,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2964043643282188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27322425943922096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3858157195274451,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2583594845640175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3200478404622004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,hibyelxsa,2019/02/05,"My mom goes to an ED specialist, and now she wants me to go, too. I'm just scared and want to go but also I don't want to. I'm scared they'll tell me I'm actually ok, cause how can I be sick when I'm so fat. I want this to end but I don't at the same time. ",-2.874527472527472,-1.6189511999999997,0.9206593406593412,105.00076923076924,91.76923076923076,4.945054945054945,12.362637362637365,6.18269132825596,-1.447043956043956,192,2,62,2,7,71,42,65,0.16,0.733,0.107,-0.7506,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,1,0,7,3,0,2,2,1,5,2,1,2,0,12,15,8,0,4,3,1,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,0,0,2,2,2,0,0,0,0,9,1,6,13,1,7,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,0,4,34,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.2382624268502458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19525260471018252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2508169319248846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2162510089522286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27752058268738394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2859542254823044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4888883524382468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21340435128734106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14237015808838616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5760415011035711,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,hmmmam,2019/02/05,"entertaining youtubers/videos to watch? I have already gone through supersize vs superskinny, secret eaters, and legit countless what i eat in a days. As for particular channels, I especially like oat fiber, blair walnuts, and sometimes even recovery youtubers like rebecca leung. If anyone has any recommendations or favorites, food/ED-related or not, I would love to hear them! ",9.976639344262297,11.947474491803279,9.121434426229511,56.82838114754103,58.18032786885247,12.001639344262294,44.758196721311464,11.698219412168324,6.212668852459017,308,18,40,9,4,97,53,61,0.054000000000000006,0.763,0.184,0.8025,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,1,0,1,4,0,0,1,0,3,2,0,0,0,9,6,6,0,2,5,0,0,2,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,2,1,0,1,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,2,5,4,6,4,0,3,0,0,1,1,4,1,0,3,3,23,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3480458706522399,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.214479196811862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.220531292588702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20340347576472614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3227274946049591,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20831521067617384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3813764973219054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.355472725001541,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3081718175547756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2846560112927563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31193340178479684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22404733058239665,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,fart_away,2019/02/05,"Everyday woes you're sitting at a table full of all sorts of food with your friends and they're laughing and cracking jokes and munching down without any thought while all you can think of is that youre dying to pick something up and shove it in your mouth but you're telling them that you already ate. On one hand you're wondering how they can possibly eat all meals of the day and on the other hand you're cursing them because if you were genetically perfect like them you would eat twice that amount every meal. You've successfully restricted all day but then you give in. You're guiltily eating little pieces of food and as soon as you realise your stomach is almost about to get satisfied you can't fucking deal with letting yourself sit at that damn table so you make an excuse to go to the nearby disgusting washroom to puke because now that's how low your standards are. You puke while worrying what if it's on your clothes and to not tear up so much so it ruins your make-up. You have such an underwhelming purge. You can feel that it's still inside, but since this is not your home and you're not comfortable and time is of the essence here (make it seem like it took a little more time adjusting hair or something but like not crazy long), you have to leave. Now there's still food at the table but you hate it so much for bringing you down that it's easier to look away. On your way out you still pick up a carrot slice though.. *oh it's just a little carrot.* You stupid loser you ve to feel guilty about eating a finger-sized piece of a carrot too. the rest of the day with them you spend thinking that I've already ruined myself today haven't I.. I can have a 120kcal cappuccino too but I swear that's it.. that's it. That's it. That's it.   
You wonder if you could have a good puke as soon as you reach home but you know damn well nothing's gonna come out after that long anyway. You feel like you're not even good at your disorder.",3.4232462229481437,4.949989341772157,3.7783421804818333,90.66851776235201,73.30379746835443,6.61576153532054,23.881175990200084,7.1029339738359605,0.7196794610044921,1550,44,328,15,31,482,184,395,0.166,0.703,0.132,-0.9608,0,0,2,0,0,0,29.0,0,33,5,3,25,24,6,0,17,0,19,16,5,6,5,61,42,34,1,5,18,0,6,4,1,2,0,0,2,0,29,15,10,1,11,1,1,4,8,11,1,2,4,7,42,13,47,34,12,50,0,5,1,1,43,23,3,9,24,218,71,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0931151094749734,0.0,0.20523147593040197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06323574825866465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0873662811251784,0.0,0.0,0.11337053348489386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08010183976456348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07424419632779729,0.0,0.0,0.17991074910185773,0.09586763579556724,0.0,0.0,0.0965079612593888,0.0,0.106573516810473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3806040848407368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061418395893772175,0.0,0.07834729205920747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1410541853963947,0.06643140170773316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3373282145993962,0.0,0.07184311564143958,0.08596688583490691,0.048582944890771904,0.08920357781250418,0.05284782466862152,0.15598962024591434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09180744331861182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18655121433629704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051104354473954686,0.0,0.0,0.09846198599898022,0.0,0.09508761213875017,0.0,0.1817190269730733,0.27959839604327563,0.0,0.16458478049901326,0.07808738893595367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18621275511972665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.136715314366532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08922550920392233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06301179236421882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10483119117816904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08465374609622485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07692150980704915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1431750399646993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22278354582299764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08127653546373882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11916726743143323,0.09136127748089604,0.07382292517615324,0.10844533518689528,0.0,0.08814275418149131,0.0,0.10331426509293254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07381038605873477,0.0,0.0,0.08360833079526142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08963813371446049,0.2016853337873655,0.0,0.09443490232669903,0.0,0.06605675890870685,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,monstersona,2019/02/05,"Who knew rapid weight loss could raise your risk of gallstones? Not me! And now I have to fucking have surgery for it so thats cool!

Granted Ive had this pain for somewhere around 3 years so it didn't start it, but the 70 pounds I lost last year didn't help! And probably are what caused my gallstone to be so big! So great!

Please be careful. This disorder is a fucking disease and now I have to pay for it.",0.10998930481283507,2.4369888117647065,0.8895187165775411,102.4482887700535,90.2941176470588,4.032085561497326,20.668449197860962,5.565023196281405,-0.3345294117647053,319,11,75,2,11,97,62,85,0.183,0.66,0.156,0.4053,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,1,0,2,7,9,2,1,2,1,12,4,0,1,0,9,18,8,0,1,2,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,9,4,1,0,1,0,1,0,3,6,0,0,5,2,7,3,8,10,0,8,0,2,0,2,3,2,2,0,6,48,16,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20465948304492526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2343980758718041,0.23617033047035965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.183556210945008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2634849846908555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4250771538000903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25346524136709125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1540969292158085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18739894756725303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2509626906525785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24462950006788475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2523608434699012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2478707708104821,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16272419768814728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27995591085745325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2960957507503407
EDAnonymous,wondermadness,2019/02/05,"Not refeeding syndrome so what’s wrong with me? Every time I eat a decent amount of food after heavy restricting or starving I feel so sick. I get terrible migraines, nausea and stomach pains. I looked up refeeding syndrome and those weren’t listed as symptoms. I don’t know why this is happening but I feel awful. ",2.9814043583535117,5.902439101694918,3.4971428571428578,85.00203389830509,81.71186440677965,5.405326876513318,27.072639225181604,6.868970318607317,1.6084944309927365,253,11,42,3,7,79,48,59,0.279,0.721,0.0,-0.9227,1,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,1,1,3,7,1,0,0,10,9,7,0,0,3,0,2,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,3,3,2,1,3,0,0,0,3,3,0,0,1,3,7,0,5,8,1,3,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,2,26,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31041654985375955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.255596795305871,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3067793564118185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.366828294685241,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15849488468878994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2682633019184137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16672062156081874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2547488986696547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3228001054777961,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3153107861663031,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17689367054763416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27373833351654525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3316803159111138,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,biryaniluver69,2019/02/05,"All I wanted was my apple :( I live at home with my mom with my older sister. My sister usually eats from out and my mom doesn’t grocery shop so it falls on me. I have a job, an internship, am studying for the LSAT, and go to the gym every day, so my schedule is pretty tight. 

I try to limit my grocery shopping to once every two weeks but that can be hard since I only feel safe eating fresh fruit in the morning. I try to buy lots of frozen veggies, but I like to have fresh fruits & select fresh veggies (like mushrooms, carrots, spinach) in the house. 

I lived by myself in college, so for a long time, I bought only enough produce for myself. But then, my family would eat all of it. So, I started to get more of these things. But then, they would go bad. Like they wouldn’t eat them when I got enough for everyone. So I just continued getting enough for only me to reduce waste. 

Anyways,  my mom hasn’t gone grocery shopping in months and it’s really beginning to frustrate me. I have such little time to get it done and then when I do, all the food I purchased for myself is gone. The other day, she went grocery shopping and bought $70 worth of frozen meals! She didn’t buy a single piece of fresh produce. So I made a quick trip to the shop and got two apples, two cucumbers, baby carrots, and hummus. I don’t eat much these days, so the carrots and cucumbers are a great snack for me. Apples are usually my breakfast. 

Today, I came home from the gym and my mom tells me she ate my apple. I was upset, but didn’t say anything about it to her because she’s very difficult to deal with. I don’t feel comfortable eating anything else now. I have no time to grocery shop today and I’m so hungry :( I wanted my apple so badly

And now I’m so stressed about having to take the time to go grocery shopping this week that I feel too mentally clouded to study :( She really disrupted my whole day by doing this and I feel so frustrated since she bought herself all of those frozen meals but still goes and eats the only food I feel comfortable eating 
:( 

I don’t know if any of this makes sense but I feel so frustrated and just needed to vent 
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EDAnonymous,sundaeys,2019/02/05,"DAE try to guess the weight of literally every single person they see? whether it’s someone i saw in public, someone on a commercial or a person in a movie, i cant stop thinking about their weight ??? is this normal?",2.772142857142857,5.040760261904765,4.238333333333333,83.37750000000003,77.33333333333333,6.104761904761905,24.785714285714285,7.1686216300943375,1.2413142857142856,169,6,31,2,4,56,35,42,0.0,0.925,0.075,0.4306,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,4,0,2,2,0,0,0,6,6,2,0,1,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,2,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,4,4,0,6,5,1,4,0,0,2,0,5,3,0,2,1,21,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2046981821446624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2676398602930997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2380421249730846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.42427396481599533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19360189771505326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4117061770671967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20311938941645016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15567432117454064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16494897892407046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5917020294153634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,hairyfishstick,2019/02/05,"Anyone else can’t see their weight loss? I know I have lost weight because in December I weighed 127 naked and a week ago at the doctor I was weighing in 122 with my doc marten boots and two coats on. My size 25 pants that used to squeeze me uncomfortably now fit perfectly around me and even have some room! 

My teacher even said she noticed the weight loss on my face. 

Despite all of this I still feel gross and I can see absolutely no progress made. There’s just so much to do. ",5.056323024054984,5.342905783505156,4.583041237113402,90.999029209622,68.48453608247422,8.116151202749142,28.537800687285234,7.793537801064563,1.3313656357388317,379,12,86,4,6,114,75,97,0.149,0.758,0.094,-0.5728,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,1,5,8,5,0,0,3,0,6,7,1,2,2,14,14,5,0,0,1,0,5,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,2,6,5,0,2,0,0,0,2,4,0,1,4,8,14,1,10,10,3,12,0,3,2,0,3,8,0,1,4,51,16,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1586158809901771,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12511614333600826,0.18334097754497952,0.0,0.15929088963696886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10907766520242132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18314847813946755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14947798579533395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23637095173282616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09047536861135852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09833849231094337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19532967476010585,0.0,0.0,0.1693134772195188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13153847679920636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20371971071661135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17020901897062748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2851774944039093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14289844269588325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1747943761168918,0.0,0.0,0.15454316808024593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14353158755589615,0.6536871700661335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,zootsplootwyatt,2019/02/05,"I went to the grocery store for the first time in a month. I just need to share this because I’m mostly proud of myself. 

I’ve spent nearly $1000 on being a drunkorexic this past month because I broke things off with my ex and I still live with him. 

I’ve been restricting to have as much beer as possible. Obviously I didn’t lose weight. Now my nails are shit and clearly showing nutrient deficiency even though I’m definitely overweight. 

I didn’t drink at all last night though. And when I got up I went to the grocery store and bought vegetables, lean protein, and even some god damn avocados. 

I’m going to eat things that my body actually needs today and I feel really okay with that. ",3.7303475935828843,5.4984479705882405,4.675935828877005,83.5594385026738,72.97058823529412,8.180748663101605,25.59893048128342,8.841846274778883,1.804994117647058,548,18,111,11,11,178,91,136,0.123,0.767,0.11,-0.4417,0,0,2,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,3,8,7,2,0,5,1,6,8,2,0,3,19,18,11,0,2,1,1,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,6,9,6,1,1,3,4,3,2,4,0,1,8,2,14,3,18,9,4,20,0,2,0,0,3,6,2,2,11,68,20,0,0.0,0.0,0.16662452164207928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2081716729560158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18966151612440427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16726713644041233,0.0,0.17471689212291378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22555367484770755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08633485512449626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1452373808736075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09703950166926782,0.0,0.13656203965978753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13918166128377193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15077280179389158,0.0,0.0,0.1910223095439752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2725773839430654,0.0,0.12551875181120495,0.25321359581171365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16023456989859636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16299741037305376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1924916799340913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1093849530715329,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17526942615323446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13635884038958615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2268735486664217,0.0,0.3355162826173184,0.0,0.09956399672909684,0.0,0.16184826897155602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2079239465598834,0.0,0.31656851163987243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,imthrivingthanks,2019/02/05,"I feel like my ED has made me super judgmental I no longer see people as people. I see them as ""too fat"" or ""skinny and beautiful"". I use people as thinspo and fat shame them in my head. It hit me today because I went to text my friend about how fat my professor is and realized that's not something okay to say. 

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I see my English professor almost every day. She's really nice and sweet but all I see is fat. All I see is what will happen if I eat. She's probably a great person who's smart and whatever but all I see is fat. I see in a black and white of weight, too fat, skinny, bones, thinspo. 

​

I feel so alone in this disorder. I can't tell my friends because they won't understand. Most of my friends are heavier than me and sometimes I do judge their weight. I can't talk about these thought with people because I know they would take it personally. I just feel like such a judgmental bitch. Have I always been like this? ",1.5231250000000005,3.7791133958333347,2.9654583333333338,90.900375,81.70833333333334,6.34,22.62083333333333,7.554174236665415,0.9714220833333332,740,25,156,12,20,241,107,192,0.121,0.746,0.133,0.3311,0,1,1,0,1,0,31.0,0,0,5,1,8,14,1,1,3,1,14,13,10,3,3,30,33,16,0,2,6,0,5,3,3,3,6,1,0,2,8,8,11,0,7,0,0,1,5,2,0,0,4,16,35,12,14,25,4,6,0,0,9,0,16,3,1,4,5,97,43,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0998974432592703,0.10332356343670818,0.0,0.0,0.08301015097404442,0.21618462693367746,0.2424440107088488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18244235280297336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06433837269258706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11433613629994778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10208164707104553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08405396510977355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1513283135419195,0.14254028632196833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23122810923469486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1099881893393248,0.0,0.0,0.08821939333276553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10238480943801408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05482670191925889,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1462163306943069,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0943974157858302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2766502222877182,0.17421702851482246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10756053620820992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06391022664526136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07933491400312934,0.0,0.0,0.5564829589428747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07680182363347532,0.09866737716178757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07500876678449828,0.0801850859266801,0.08719656923113164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07920005164146035,0.0,0.0,0.09456291072640499,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10385597950136326,0.0,0.08616251897783732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2429669927440439,0.0,0.0924805686684644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07086821206763905,0.0,0.2424440107088488,0.0
EDAnonymous,kayteesays,2019/02/05,"Antidepressants that don't cause weight gain? Hi all. So I'm really feeling low and am at the point where I'm considering asking for antidepressants. I'm absolutely terrified of antidepressant weight gain and am concerned that if the antidepressants start making me gain weight that my ED brain will kick in and I won't allow myself to take them. Can anyone recommend an antidepressant that's worked well for you that hasn't caused weight gain as a side effect, so I could go into an appointment with a list of options to discuss? ",9.228571428571428,8.728981040816329,8.670326530612247,67.81038775510206,60.02040816326532,12.329795918367347,33.885714285714286,11.602472056035307,3.890997551020409,434,14,76,11,5,138,67,98,0.191,0.7440000000000001,0.064,-0.9208,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,1,1,6,4,2,0,0,6,0,8,5,1,5,1,15,17,7,0,2,1,0,5,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,5,5,4,0,2,0,0,1,3,1,1,0,0,5,7,1,11,14,1,9,0,1,0,0,5,7,0,2,1,46,12,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11665619912627508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15596992601877233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18624509200835548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3427747882616133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13320564275679764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08435772023762665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09481722210583904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11136488759212022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15771474219070528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10687995313258053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11808797552281006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12544054213668254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8126493101451979,0.15000635732164272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12145920804534233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,algorthin,2019/02/05,"""Why does my stomach hurt? A mystery for meee :("" I'm literally sitting here like ""Ughh I have so much stomach pain right now it's horrible :(. What could have caused it? It MUST be because I ate yesterday"" as if I didn't take 7 doses of max strength laxatives. 

For some reason whenever I feel sick I automatically blame having eaten regardless of what I ate or how much I ate, and also regardless of another obvious reason that I feel sick. When I took laxatives more often I'd be like ""Why am I having stomach problems?? This is what I get for eating!"" Anyone else do this?",2.5827518427518434,4.945442099099104,4.7166257166257175,79.2197542997543,78.45945945945945,8.0003276003276,27.208026208026208,8.841846274778883,2.5047225225225227,447,19,83,11,11,154,75,111,0.199,0.731,0.07,-0.9452,0,0,0,0,0,0,20.0,0,0,0,1,7,6,0,0,1,0,12,12,3,4,2,17,22,8,0,6,2,0,2,2,0,1,4,0,0,0,9,1,5,0,4,0,0,1,1,3,0,0,6,2,12,3,7,12,4,6,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,4,5,55,21,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15844781493740756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20776094078194102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13854001044461767,0.2030118597549336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12078074398308965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2035383593053288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15819400320794605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17338853727180306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2027407083525474,0.16551566537430226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2003651675665237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1035169201100874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2121067145406973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19359668336230795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29130280815467713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2108287140994161,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1895876310446455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4074298281909189,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16920548873909347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14897222906245236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2201343403513794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3575705204283463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,pumpkin_boots,2019/02/05,"My body is lashing out after I started eating healthy Just started a workout/meal plan ""challenge thingy. Goes for 8 weeks and I'm prescribed a healthy balanced meal plan. 

I have been shitting my brains out for two days now and haven't been able to go to the gym to work out. Turns out kale can cause diarrhoea? At least I'll probably lose weight? I haven't kept any food down or anything. ",3.0323376623376603,5.181570675324679,2.7987012987013,94.58948051948052,76.01298701298701,5.43896103896104,27.883116883116887,6.18269132825596,0.9386155844155843,310,13,64,2,7,92,56,77,0.075,0.8290000000000001,0.096,0.1431,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,5,2,3,1,0,3,0,7,7,3,1,0,10,13,3,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,6,4,1,0,1,0,1,2,2,0,1,3,1,5,1,12,10,1,13,0,1,0,0,0,6,1,1,6,34,5,2,0.2282867505647496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1552428186702699,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1878605444230377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.253575116313436,0.0,0.2548435125915834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23451337730957986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14722606842259314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2335943376774958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27604524494178256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12974062121617844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2553944803926513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24613172824598475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23433306888595976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32316507407037315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2483104304237995,0.22300298393953025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1831178612585213,0.2779917613791915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1661954732932146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,fulltimepizzalover,2019/02/05,"did a “do I have an eating disorder” quiz bc I’m feeling invalidated af I ate so normally today and enjoyed the foods I ate today that I began to question if I ever really had a problem.


95% of the time I feel like I’m just faking it and it seems like today proves that I can eat normal if I let myself to. 


Cue me googling if I have an eating disorder and taking a freaking quiz LOL, quiz said I have strong tendencies towards anorexia. Is it dumb I feel validated now?? ",0.7994001874414245,3.090384010309279,3.906822867853794,82.75877225866921,85.18556701030927,6.413870665417058,23.25117150890347,7.686295010490155,1.4405340206185566,367,14,72,7,11,132,61,97,0.166,0.653,0.181,0.1567,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,1,4,8,1,0,7,1,9,6,0,0,2,17,20,7,0,6,4,0,3,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,5,3,6,0,6,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,6,4,13,4,4,13,0,8,0,0,0,0,2,1,1,5,9,48,18,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36743920865023655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.492085890314209,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14500204002644673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2431600261021028,0.11451954671076744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19383741842766916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16391932068281678,0.0,0.1566305998572327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31412320714477954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1533870511637908,0.0,0.0,0.1795745597212482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10269335602519752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15248359905738704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14593262193923492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12052690776966014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0934731942217531,0.0,0.4558417252331417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,rainbowcatvomit,2019/02/05,"so uhm. fuck me. i haven’t purged in about 3ish weeks. which is so incredible for me. but holy shit, i’m a bit stressed out right now and all i want to do it b/p. please help me fam. i already ate two packets of ramen and two vegan burgers.  sigh. i can’t handle this. life is a bitch. ",-2.567316017316017,-0.9940098095238064,0.31665223665223863,102.99324675324678,107.4126984126984,3.560750360750361,13.663780663780663,5.565023196281405,-1.180415873015873,214,5,56,2,11,73,51,63,0.224,0.6459999999999999,0.131,-0.8587,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,0,4,5,3,1,2,0,5,4,1,0,1,6,9,5,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,4,1,2,1,0,7,0,6,8,2,5,0,0,0,1,1,3,3,0,2,32,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30235372600843163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2991250762632645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2532984585107218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18364908244378014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1935265663786201,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3007576957168284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2339851486807432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2812458189284461,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3138535270808349,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5352949725766861,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1616058384512448,0.0,0.21977748635700176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,fatass_1,2019/02/06,"back to 22 bmi fuck me. i just need control again. it's all i want. i miss feeling light and pretty. i have 3 large fat rolls on my stomach and my thighs are massive. i have neck rolls. NECK. ROLLS. my jeans are tighter than every before. i'm fixing this shit, i just have to but i dont have the control to just stop eating. i hate myself",-1.4870833333333309,0.4191133472222219,0.35277777777777963,103.22,103.02777777777777,2.4000000000000004,14.333333333333336,3.1291,-1.5613833333333336,259,6,61,0,12,83,49,72,0.199,0.737,0.064,-0.8891,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,2,5,4,3,0,1,0,7,8,6,2,1,13,14,3,0,2,4,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,2,2,3,1,0,0,0,1,4,0,0,0,2,13,0,5,14,1,4,0,1,0,1,0,1,2,0,3,37,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1969173073631904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21791362279097387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5744531439909859,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30013542772483576,0.0,0.0,0.26204387632690784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21576676581915324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12948673607947025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23675096402980736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.252835734360957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1898873983475415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2605354701340217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2628725778757306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2141026035032202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1510484440810681,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,DaynaDuffy,2019/02/06,"What to expect I’m going to see a dietician on Friday for the first time because I’m in denial about how bad my eating/restriction has gotten. My therapist believes I desperately need the nutrition counseling. The dietician I am set to meet specializes in eating disorders, and I’m pretty anxious. Can anyone share with me what I can expect to experience?",6.0113846153846175,8.065973523076927,7.633846153846152,63.48615384615386,67.61538461538461,11.353846153846154,33.0,11.20814326018867,4.7566000000000015,289,13,42,10,5,100,46,65,0.124,0.794,0.08199999999999999,-0.4019,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,1,2,3,0,0,4,0,4,1,0,1,0,6,11,2,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,1,1,1,6,2,10,10,0,7,0,0,1,0,2,3,0,0,2,29,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32113956462692683,0.0,0.1987653334130537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2373501606125049,0.17328585995215054,0.0,0.0,0.32027033566329177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3257933598960885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29087499244994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2780666058131257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2417964373779012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16155486726227306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21077956995176786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2892006253702077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22652312581624665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33005463068776425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16575773781786354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,coffeehearts,2019/02/06,"freaking out over work food right now It's been almost 3 months since the banhammer dropped on the old sub. I want to say this was a blessing in disguise. I began diverting my energy toward other things. I started reading books on the train instead of scrolling reddit. I started putting more effort in at work. I started cooking and baking again.   


And a couple pounds later I am shocked, disgusted, and self loathing all over again. The final straw was an all-day marathon work meeting with a disgusting amount of snacks available. There were chips, candies, donuts...all the best foods for mindless eating. My greedy little hands couldn't shove the mini reese's cups down my gullet fast enough. And on top of all that, we ordered lunch in. I ate, in one day, FIVE TIMES as much as I would have eaten three months ago. I'm done with this shit. Nope nope nope. I'm letting my self hatred take the wheel again, she's a real bitch to be around but it turns out she's a way better driver.",2.6832539682539718,5.272098000000003,2.6425899470899488,92.94801190476193,79.58201058201057,4.838201058201059,22.67751322751323,5.985473137389443,0.337315132275132,778,25,150,5,20,233,130,189,0.125,0.807,0.068,-0.8113,0,0,0,0,0,0,27.0,1,0,0,7,7,9,4,0,13,0,11,11,2,0,2,18,22,7,0,3,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,1,2,7,10,9,0,0,4,0,1,4,6,0,3,8,2,15,3,25,10,7,39,1,0,0,0,7,18,2,1,17,94,22,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12753115503091084,0.0,0.14406398448923502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12807387894886796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15098160052614748,0.12724040627440214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15918827098818072,0.0,0.18556715814220506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14722789925666213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14721386594560265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14865509724632173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1576014165686307,0.0,0.0,0.3479338419571256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14711576195866585,0.0,0.0,0.1441944965319853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2296696671514047,0.0,0.10576024148709504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15096627517131692,0.0,0.09748933260114513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1446280445621047,0.0,0.0,0.1439078958581244,0.16375437667447704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12286330820735784,0.0,0.11441037375439535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3001734098640788,0.0,0.14767942293715436,0.11900989278984506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30549357723417064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10817155536756767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09558014618439276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08389114921512171,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15648811859374856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08485764181911883,0.1141964861800218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3142149553290777,0.0,0.0,0.10220038342317377,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,lamekittenx,2019/02/06,"peach :(( im a sad gorl i feel so deprived and it's sad how reliant i am on that app but i love and miss my peachies :( i know mpa is a thing but im not a huge fan of forums, anyone know of any backups we might have? 

i know peach always comes back up it's just been down for a lot longer than i remember it ever being and im sad thinking about how i might lose touch with some people i am not connected with outside of peach :(",-0.5172631578947353,1.2619183789473707,1.778157894736843,99.23460526315789,86.26315789473685,4.6421052631578945,17.921052631578945,5.6839178017228535,-0.6095473684210528,326,8,82,2,10,110,61,95,0.275,0.6579999999999999,0.067,-0.9625,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,1,0,0,1,7,7,0,0,4,0,8,1,0,2,1,25,16,8,0,0,5,0,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,5,7,0,0,6,0,0,1,2,6,0,0,1,2,10,1,11,12,2,7,0,6,0,1,2,4,0,4,2,53,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15961327179636578,0.0,0.0,0.13044717342386192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13412808420269046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14750112692692488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16523973972122116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17351615658964584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0969921829094714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6216098243032459,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3162650292446744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21460244255187205,0.0,0.16308224953128786,0.17312901494974886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4069907601556335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13298688956830587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2172996570732065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1274396111387627,0.12291333327384088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,secretweightloss,2019/02/06,"Food vouchers are the last thing I need I’ve lost my job and i’m trying to figure out applying for benefits, I went to the citizens advice place today for help and the lady there was just completely condescending and not very helpful. She told me I had to apply for something but it might not be accepted, and when I asked what happens if it isn’t she said i’d need to come back and ask for another appointment to see someone for more advice. 

I told her that having to get the bus to all these appointments and services that just keep bouncing me back and forth between them is using up all the money I actually have left, and she does “oh don’t worry, you can always come here and get vouchers for food uwu” like I don’t fuckin eat I don’t need fuckin food vouchers I need money to take public transport instead of walking miles in snow ",3.787431318681321,5.324110755952379,4.69166666666667,84.44307692307693,72.39285714285714,7.550183150183152,26.613553113553113,8.139509932561175,1.6633575091575097,669,23,131,10,13,217,105,168,0.059,0.898,0.043,-0.3809,1,0,1,0,0,0,6.0,0,1,1,1,8,6,2,0,5,0,13,6,0,1,2,29,34,12,0,5,6,0,0,1,0,1,0,1,0,1,7,12,4,1,2,0,2,5,6,3,0,0,7,2,18,3,19,25,3,16,0,1,1,2,15,6,2,2,6,86,25,2,0.0,0.0,0.12257174933594335,0.0,0.0,0.24547827908340686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10451290023845147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13170713666937675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2348462667004513,0.0,0.0,0.19316401938355446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2163940910245145,0.13169379529915431,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10991723318835532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12852463067858924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4556439189768248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13124620145845362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11107153217161313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16837992710356828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12464295906530524,0.1116429378369615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1023843281343675,0.0,0.0,0.13646951870731808,0.0,0.0,0.061363952094102885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13711201051455302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13324639058957552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37253620401630266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13122983618905068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11947852177317468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10009042317621457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1064241775862334,0.0966963827598189,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09443885679004196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08344596420756922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11905825900854687,0.2400407219930949,0.0,0.08527712433529007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10848185004554572,0.0,0.10363676202545853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.116436512087114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1275573376968504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,corgstiel,2019/02/06,"All time low I don’t post often but I have just found myself at an all time low and really need to vent.  I am sitting in my bed crying after hovering over the toilet for the last hour trying to force myself to purge. (I was unsuccessful and now just have an incredibly sore throat). This is all because I drank a protein shake after reaching my calorie limit. Earlier I had a HIIT class where I almost passed out due to eating only 500 calories that day and at the time I convinced myself that I needed the protein.  But the guilt over those extra calories has really hit me hard.  I wish I could just purge it all away but apparently my body is not capable, instead I will try to eat even less calories tomorrow which will cause me to feel even more weak then I do at the moment.  I am stuck in this cycle.  I am just so fed up with everything right now and wish I could just stop thinking about food and calories and my fat rolls for one evening. Sorry for the long post I just needed to tell someone how I feel as I feel so alone and helpless at the moment. ",4.5748893360160965,5.221797464788732,5.412116029510397,83.35869718309861,69.65727699530515,7.963648558014755,26.48189134808853,7.957251820313856,1.4748849094567404,832,24,167,10,14,272,123,213,0.19,0.754,0.056,-0.9813,1,1,0,0,1,0,13.0,0,0,0,1,18,7,0,2,12,0,16,10,3,2,4,41,30,15,0,7,10,0,4,0,0,2,3,0,1,0,7,9,6,2,5,0,0,2,2,6,0,1,6,4,28,1,26,19,7,37,0,3,0,0,1,15,0,2,17,126,35,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13759576547011002,0.14231480144366992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1291007484765585,0.0,0.0,0.08376355579972414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1526309777248463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14115740766958046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21942060924456253,0.0,0.15093788347640427,0.08861775988362171,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28120844560026675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2722730363933429,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1234947983674738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20843511565216133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16615611280911194,0.15066242429784493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12309192200684542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13532067844561307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1120070822864051,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12160308345864315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3056622093800156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09311223337313056,0.10450611664498076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2632006349759981,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17605608851870014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11734696219126645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11642662342346262,0.0,0.0,0.1538186853475913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1148804947744707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1201019595525196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08804645923557859,0.0,0.0,0.2403737533710467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18658406138164849,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3160282872257424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,cold_melon,2019/02/06,"Body hair doesn’t grow as much? Anyone else??
I stopped getting my period (not happy about that) about 5 months ago (wow that scares me) and ever since then I noticed my leg hair doesn’t grow in as thick or as fast. Same with my bikini line. I used to have a happy trail that now does not grow AT ALL. it’s completely gone. Armpit hair still unfortunately is in full effect lol. ",1.5402631578947386,3.830484868421056,2.399210526315791,94.78197368421051,81.89473684210526,5.378947368421053,16.07894736842105,6.6274283507984215,-0.4662052631578954,294,5,65,3,8,92,57,76,0.084,0.78,0.135,0.7219,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,1,5,4,0,1,1,1,4,6,6,2,2,11,7,6,0,0,3,0,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,1,1,0,0,4,4,1,0,0,1,4,7,3,10,6,4,18,0,0,0,0,0,5,0,1,9,38,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2090037105047192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16486204305661825,0.2415832787691427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2618971323470779,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24720962185816664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20633164676030671,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19696296155825185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21327545419550029,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12318470949661145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5019819067524642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18819641605767928,0.0,0.17332457225311249,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2684357655546269,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23605574506030946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1950386881842137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18829328162061632,0.19712166293192526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2036372106014163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,heyy240,2019/02/06,"Eating before your ED Notices I was wondering if this ever happens to you? Like for me sometimes I'll be walking in the kitchen or something and if I'm distracted sometimes I eat something I didnt plan. I usually end up eating way more than I expected and while I'm eating I dont think so much about it. Right afterwards though I'm like ""why TV would u do that youre such a failure blah blah blah"" etc

Tldr: I feel like I'm eating quick or indulging in cravings before my ed gets a chance to scream at me.

Does this ever happen to u guys?",3.3887831858407083,4.271039238938052,4.85149336283186,85.43794800884956,72.53982300884954,7.419911504424777,28.28429203539823,7.6454224807358475,1.6328061946902657,426,16,88,5,8,143,74,113,0.122,0.789,0.08900000000000001,-0.3527,0,0,2,0,0,0,8.0,0,3,0,1,7,5,0,1,3,0,6,6,0,0,2,13,16,9,0,4,4,0,1,6,0,1,0,1,1,1,4,2,6,0,3,1,0,1,2,2,0,0,2,2,13,3,10,12,3,14,0,0,0,0,4,5,0,5,10,52,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22275221491150293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11454103235080222,0.0,0.15339984357758032,0.0,0.0,0.6696558607513595,0.0,0.0,0.11592798064033155,0.0,0.1459747970733123,0.0,0.23679150612331906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0661809410856115,0.09350646356856956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0683836145211725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12959976778119545,0.2314877765876972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1918358991971517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09621779183828004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.149016935546602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1117776968682554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20152806224513545,0.25890329663419753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08386779041383803,0.12859686450588506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14415471769825966,0.0,0.0,0.10389285785881162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11810612510062644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14194252891933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09297912977253582,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,isaezraa,2019/02/06,"ideas renforced in health class lmao ohhhhhmygodahahahahaha

I'm in PDHPE right now, and for some reason the principal walked in and kinda took over the lesson (hes a very strange man) and anyway he gets onto the topic of weight and goes on about how the best way to lose weight is to""just eat less, we all eat too much, we all need to each much less"" (no one in this room would have a bmi higher than 22 so ????) while im sitting in the back of the class browsing this sub on day 3 of a fast lmao what",3.7153952843273252,4.39483754368932,4.583522884882112,88.40873786407771,71.62135922330097,6.662413314840499,21.510402219140087,6.18269132825596,-0.014868515950069659,389,7,90,2,7,126,74,103,0.044,0.838,0.118,0.8798,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,2,0,0,3,7,2,0,0,9,0,4,5,0,2,2,17,8,7,0,2,0,0,2,0,0,1,1,0,1,1,3,7,4,0,3,0,0,2,1,1,0,1,1,2,3,1,17,6,9,20,0,1,0,0,5,11,0,2,5,57,6,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15278091727593168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2085136770204311,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12813909225900005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40662046752371506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10380771280177367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21119896910388386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22429766465011056,0.214620098443566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22228411881201346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29212111619155634,0.14732666867707062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13463798992786616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20428717617728587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16968080929022855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2207527267687427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1639406719355628,0.0,0.1577114638686416,0.0,0.4839035958817153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14114420344069215,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,isaezra,2019/02/06,"ideas renforced in health class lmao ohhhhhmygodahahahahaha

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I'm in PDHPE right now, and for some reason the principal walked in and kinda took over the lesson (hes a very strange man) and anyway he gets onto the topic of weight and goes on about how the best way to lose weight is to""just eat less, we all eat too much, we all need to each much less"" (no one in this room would have a bmi higher than 22 so ????) while im sitting in the back of the class browsing this sub on day 3 of a fast lmao what",5.306762820512824,5.050512048076925,5.693076923076927,85.11858974358975,67.94230769230771,7.702564102564103,25.025641025641022,6.42735559955562,0.5631333333333335,399,8,90,2,6,128,75,104,0.043,0.84,0.117,0.8798,0,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,2,0,0,3,7,2,0,0,9,0,4,5,0,2,2,17,8,7,0,2,0,0,2,0,0,1,1,0,1,1,3,7,4,0,3,0,0,2,1,1,0,1,1,2,3,1,17,6,9,20,0,1,0,0,5,11,0,2,5,57,6,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19963226440347434,0.22388107579784586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1416750788677577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19335655370835705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11882449932571927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3770627106631602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.096261798662402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19584664850873731,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20799318328326555,0.1990190916230884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20612600464274825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2708864622185113,0.13661730650858014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12485098389072025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18943728256531367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15734649632402195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20470593142695528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15202361682484156,0.0,0.1462472177829976,0.0,0.4487280305243573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1308842525017165,0.0,0.22388107579784586,0.0
EDAnonymous,irlnyc2018,2019/02/06,"Have been doing better with BED and now I’ve purged I had bulimia 16-17 with a relapse at 21, followed by a restrictive period as a vegan. When I ended the veganism at 22 that’s when the BED really kicked in and I’ve been battling it ever since. And my weight has seriously ballooned because of it. 

I have depression and anxiety and am tapering off lexapro at the moment to swap to welbutrin. Have been really struggling for the last five weeks with the taper but was delighted that welbutrin was dampening my appetite. In the last two weeks I’ve been very nauseous and throwing up a bit and when I’m nauseous I stick my fingers down my throat to help the process along. It has felt a bit triggering and brings me back to old memories but I figured why delay the inevitable. 

With the binging I’ve made good progress - only two binged in the last 16 days and the quantities of the binges are smaller. Today was the second binge - I ate a big slice of cake when I meant to eat half and just kept going and going. Afterwards I purged. I feel pathetic even saying that because it’s laughable that an obese person like me would be engaging in bulimic behaviours. I feel like shit now and can’t tell anyone about this so just needed to be able to vent. ",6.4717447306791565,6.454728680327872,6.827634660421548,77.15401639344262,65.47540983606557,10.414051522248243,33.412177985948475,10.125756701596842,3.257991569086651,994,39,188,21,14,323,142,244,0.086,0.802,0.113,0.8340000000000001,1,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,0,2,13,10,2,1,20,0,20,7,3,2,1,34,33,20,0,2,4,0,5,2,0,1,1,1,2,1,9,17,4,3,5,0,0,5,1,5,0,5,13,6,16,5,29,17,2,37,0,1,0,0,4,11,1,0,23,125,25,0,0.14695195485776022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1124178432409983,0.0,0.0,0.10275222363968378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11299698248278385,0.0,0.17916109544511688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12996706214774567,0.3208669489641061,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0947718538513517,0.0,0.12656950338818007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15036853641523734,0.0,0.0,0.13015581435292647,0.0,0.0,0.09706038024665643,0.1329264563270341,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14860664757657385,0.10498250591277286,0.14109692180733818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16703236490958753,0.12325632764641463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09849879772689278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3593563698756525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14358660462709488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13904949283603416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1089630125055703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15420135664366735,0.0,0.0,0.11176358357802413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12831277878066286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18828237040348195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11686209272247293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15084406990515592,0.12156017561793984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1536260899074602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12844248571528166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.139293270564082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2871014138837008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12125075281137157,0.0,0.0,0.2357519883632441,0.17894789192961685,0.0,0.0,0.1326012823447097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10439045247339196,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,AS123x,2019/02/06,"I bought new batteries for my scale... but I’m too scared to put them in. I’ve been averaging ~2000 calories a day in an attempt at “recovery” and my scale battery conveniently died during this time so I haven’t been able to weigh myself.

But now I don’t know what I weigh, and I’m terrified I might have gone over my original starting weight from 2016. I’m scared to know but I’m also scared to NOT know. 

Idk what to do. ",1.1213888888888874,3.2226654318181818,2.839242424242425,92.12191919191922,82.18181818181819,6.638383838383841,21.141414141414145,7.793537801064563,0.7660944444444446,330,10,75,6,9,109,55,88,0.233,0.721,0.047,-0.9664,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,1,1,4,3,0,3,2,0,7,3,0,1,0,11,17,7,1,0,4,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,2,3,0,3,0,1,2,3,3,0,0,4,1,10,0,11,12,0,12,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,1,6,43,13,0,0.22214211266821526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17764696724303702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14326328531253868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2305484412330616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.366250486812948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2356576767140033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21454623667008296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2233141792947776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6672090233572975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1572333307057419,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1295328523163848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27050924779630003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,iamspecies8472,2019/02/06,"Worried about ending my fast.... I'm just about to hit 40 hrs, which is pretty good for me. I should probably end this fast but I'm so worried about what will happen after that first mouthful. So many things are possible: binge? barf? Eat like a normal human? Eat like an ED freak? 

I'm finally at the point where it would be easier to just starve but I can't break this fast in front of my family. I just don't know what will happen   *sigh",0.11333333333333327,2.46699577777778,1.7572222222222216,95.8225,91.22222222222223,5.222222222222221,14.166666666666668,6.816661863887847,-0.40633333333333294,340,6,75,5,12,110,65,90,0.131,0.718,0.152,0.2757,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,0,1,9,5,0,0,3,0,9,3,1,0,0,9,16,4,0,3,5,0,0,2,0,4,0,0,0,1,8,0,2,0,1,0,0,1,2,1,1,1,0,0,6,3,10,10,0,14,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,0,10,45,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3964439401241287,0.0,0.0,0.3431534621687654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18262017682680906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21220870110394108,0.0,0.16477651023672948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16248154481745555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3426085382797659,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10646239728946952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1892817495084784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19639974020098103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18980260007869867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18312621231918114,0.21838804224063815,0.0,0.19708094264559192,0.2088608677452544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12869769266497794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3934602517920925,0.0,0.13761177463219101,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,kcvis,2019/02/06,"Peaching slack Hi... I heard peach might get turned off
So here's a slack (18+), if you are interested. 

https://join.slack.com/t/peaching/shared_invite/enQtNTM5NjIyMzU5NTg2LTIxZWVmNTJjMGM1MTdmNmZjYzgxY2YwY2RlODY3YTMzZWZiZGFmZTlkZmZiMDkyNmI0ZDIyMmFhYzZhN2ZmMDg
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EDAnonymous,bannaberry,2019/02/06,"Envy towards Co-Worker She’s literally 98lbs and always saying she wants to gain weight. Girl. Feel free to take some of my fat, please. By all means 😭😭",0.6772580645161312,3.142196000000002,2.277661290322584,92.53649193548388,89.0,4.390322580645162,14.201612903225806,5.985473137389443,-0.7553290322580644,120,2,25,1,4,39,28,31,0.06,0.684,0.256,0.7845,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,1,6,4,1,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,1,2,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,3,2,5,4,2,1,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,1,0,11,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3168131549433999,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1925178221495276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41474660821421183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4179473868460129,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3027863954897964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28627539854542666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22457526055575974,0.0,0.0,0.4636489550682738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2771893567894925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,nextlvlrattata,2019/02/06,"Even anorexia is damn expensive Theres this whole mantra about how ""you'll be able to wear cuter clothes when you lose weight!' Sure. If you can afford new clothes every month because your current ones no longer fit. There's also the extra cost buying ""special"" low calorie foods, which in part gets wasted because you can't bring yourself to eat and it goes bad. You'd think you spend less on food, but you don't.

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Anorexia is taxing on my wallet AND my mental health. Why cant i just be NORMAL.",4.063673469387755,5.9632951122449,3.5160714285714287,91.67267857142859,72.36734693877553,5.308163265306123,24.494897959183675,5.148860815047168,0.3561591836734692,403,12,78,1,8,119,80,98,0.117,0.826,0.057,-0.6049,2,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,8,0,1,8,6,1,0,1,0,10,6,1,1,1,9,13,7,0,2,3,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,3,2,4,0,1,0,5,1,4,4,0,1,0,1,11,2,6,9,4,10,0,2,0,0,8,5,1,1,4,46,14,1,0.1867737621938141,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1493629101468915,0.0,0.20236929330374398,0.2269505644725007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15594828988657608,0.2277111037239285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19111618684512052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1233623084237104,0.0,0.15736495013459814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4516951492449066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09758158194351747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19853177527715385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20895206501675712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18822402263366864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14908103505747122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18038726338776465,0.0,0.0,0.18299863112536205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12656273500548673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20225778348564408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17603206049098774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11967708521982008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22744012520757306,0.0,0.0,0.16853426957959078,0.20852623541381307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2269505644725007,0.0
EDAnonymous,pillbus,2019/02/06,"The only thing I enjoy is eating I was at the store yesterday. Close to hitting my calorie limit so I was having trouble picking a snack to buy. Then I thought to myself ""What if I don't buy food? What if I buy an activity to make me happy instead??"" It was so brilliant. Then I abruptly realized that nothing would make me equally or more happy than stuffing my face. 

Anyways I bought cereal to c/s and then had a lil b/p sesh today. :) Life is great. 

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EDAnonymous,HungrHrts,2019/02/06,"I Hate Food Every time you've been rejected, every time you've felt pain, every time you've felt isolated, you can trace back to food. You ate too much so you were romantically rejected because of your fat. You ate too much so your needs were ignored because of your fat. You ate too much so you stayed home and lost out on so many missed opportunities because someone might see your fat.

Food is the root of all the pain. It takes everything from you. When are you gonna get it through your dumb, basal, animal brain? If you don't like feeling like this STOP.FUCKING.EATING.

He's never going to tell you he found someone else if you just stop fucking eating. You're going to get to wear whatever you want and go anywhere you want if you just stop fucking eating. Everyone will give you a chance including yourself(!) if you just stop fucking eating.",3.653148148148148,6.031602956790124,3.918296296296294,86.20633333333332,74.98765432098764,7.03604938271605,24.997530864197532,8.021203637495839,1.4619945679012356,677,23,130,11,15,210,89,162,0.228,0.715,0.057,-0.9827,0,2,0,0,0,0,21.0,0,21,0,2,12,15,5,0,3,0,9,19,5,1,2,25,34,11,0,7,7,0,3,2,0,3,5,0,1,0,3,3,12,4,4,0,0,3,2,12,0,0,10,4,22,3,11,21,4,15,0,4,1,3,25,2,4,5,11,71,25,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07962217903769384,0.0,0.18936607648297893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11559404374013732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3178669978177735,0.08650123939400353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2617314895549124,0.09894474863313336,0.09306245104501687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0523570844085868,0.07397485930994763,0.19884503325605246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3756327064428226,0.11353526359726115,0.0,0.2871859446649889,0.10819932805179476,0.09933287495054924,0.17654649582275644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10223241612422156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10386729377878694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10117684640627446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1130350992306734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1049816287103622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10984828335533096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2283595382408325,0.07677968295770059,0.07986276028543854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22036518450627526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08251451403349287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17547211843598307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11036861044721476,0.0,0.3462837483782579,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07785536444570418,0.0,0.09050569642624526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18113937551471615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12215082989943475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Letsnotbeangry,2019/02/06,"Peach Down, Lets not lose touch! It looks like peach is down again!

Just in case this is the final days, why not let each other know our current usernames in here so we can catch up with each other outside of peach, should we wish to :D

I'm letsnotbeangry :)
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EDAnonymous,cumbanshee,2019/02/06,"Holding on to weight with Mirena I’ve had a Mirena IUD for a few years. I haven’t found it increases my appetite but it’s like even at lower BMIs it puffs my stomach out more than without it, and my water weight fluctuations have been INSANE pretty much since having it placed.

Is this something anyone else has noticed? I really want to keep this thing in because without it my periods are extremely painful, but this thing is triggering bad headspace with all the fluctuations and bloating, fuckin yikes ",5.977373271889397,7.894120193548389,5.578525345622122,78.73064516129034,67.49462365591397,8.325038402457759,31.565284178187408,8.841846274778883,2.7475542242703543,410,17,69,7,7,126,69,93,0.157,0.753,0.09,-0.8422,1,0,1,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,1,4,1,0,3,0,9,6,1,1,1,15,12,4,0,1,4,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,11,5,3,2,1,0,0,1,3,3,0,0,3,2,6,1,12,9,5,8,0,0,0,1,0,5,1,0,3,50,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14003590959909382,0.20520389993438368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1672200331120733,0.12208488574128253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16730283677043084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13227877852587053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21958958977201876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17801231653395486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09784353113227948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14722408919197302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2280127426630373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2131051575192517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20924321404457333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20375018085364036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12830035237671591,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16566833456934985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15418034878898176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2661056701265173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1181265176037147,0.0,0.0,0.4877584139702488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3861130745777035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1289695878602587
EDAnonymous,loveisdivine,2019/02/06,"Why do I have zero will power in the evenings? This is my first post. I'm getting really frustrated. I'm 5ft 4in and about 62kg/136lbs, I desperately want to get down to at least 120lbs but I'm really struggling. 

I can restrict easy during the day, I barely even think about food. Then I get home and start making the dinner with my husband and I just can't stop eating. My portion sizes are out of control, I can't even tell when I'm actually full anymore, unless I'm so stuffed I can barely move.

At this point it would be easier to just constantly restrict but I can't because my husband would freak out. 

Why can't I just be satisfied with a smaller portion? ",2.5116666666666667,4.435302777777778,4.0063888888888926,86.37625000000004,76.7777777777778,6.87037037037037,26.064814814814817,7.793537801064563,1.5065925925925927,525,20,106,8,12,174,82,135,0.17,0.7490000000000001,0.081,-0.9194,1,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,0,3,10,3,1,1,4,0,15,3,0,2,0,22,27,9,0,3,6,2,0,0,0,3,0,0,1,0,3,7,3,4,1,0,0,1,4,3,0,2,0,0,14,0,15,22,4,17,0,0,0,0,3,8,0,0,7,69,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.1784958248010175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18139965385077997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.111501518798983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19766300003786613,0.20515147415811288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11796317294853845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1871647429730663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3624351520899557,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15558493933240616,0.22117803809866626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.286692069439904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1834757506461178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12209524748838553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19440661574884086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1729110574858029,0.0,0.1751792308032437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23435635075687544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12946612625037185,0.0,0.0,0.1529227063659862,0.0,0.1912194420253284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15987323810439366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11720268839962605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10788629602489093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3300994412742274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2598710165279579,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,metalhair,2019/02/06,"DAE need help badly but does not want to talk to anyone? Spiralling and you know, I'm at the point where I'm willing to admit I need help. Not just for my disordered eating which is the least of my concerns right now but also the dread and fear and panic and anxiety and social withdrawal and the constant invasive thoughts and memories shame guilt hatred insomnia lack of control etc etc ect. But at the same time, no I do not want to discuss this with my GP, or anyone else, much less anyone I know. Even anyone online, anonymously, no way. Actually I'd rather never bring it up except here, but at the same time, fuckkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk. Feel me? Has anyone actually opened up to someone about this and had a positive result? I'd like to hear your experiences.",4.685625000000002,6.8454529791666685,4.905277777777782,81.26750000000001,71.29166666666666,7.855555555555558,25.88888888888889,8.59863814320734,1.935705555555556,615,20,109,11,12,193,94,144,0.235,0.6679999999999999,0.097,-0.9759,0,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,2,0,1,8,7,0,5,7,0,5,2,0,2,1,36,18,14,0,6,11,0,1,1,0,1,1,1,0,0,4,10,1,1,5,0,0,1,6,6,0,0,2,2,9,1,17,15,8,16,0,0,0,0,9,9,0,1,6,76,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.27489664049483714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1126369058526196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10774911042286676,0.0,0.0,0.4924245285249199,0.14431645992224498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11760304367768687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15220774693501546,0.15797414617820002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1614251729802345,0.0,0.12325792158334604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14412370462931498,0.11766127810133373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3141677654118185,0.09302944556997488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13777736279747124,0.0,0.15849429945036966,0.07121749367212868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15874707571665495,0.0,0.1888162506381196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15481386948451858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06881171383106126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10354023180970892,0.20887551883203426,0.10863144289856892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16525597067183687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13314784494327825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12028428863080658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1435778325496544,0.11934091274857282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11320910243278193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11181838437085688,0.1642603858384054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16615279581881268,0.11179939157359473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,deadgirlaesthetic,2019/02/06,"I confided in him and I regret it I told him all about my depression and all this shit. And how it all stems back from the loss of my father and my sister. I told him these were incomprehensibly tragic events for me that triggered these disorders. Tonight he tells me how I’m messed up, and I’ve made ‘broken’ my identity because I don’t know who I am without it, and that they were tragic but “not incomprehensible”. And I’m “labeling it as an excuse to succumb”. I’m never opening up to anyone ever again. I regret all of it ",3.5017924528301885,4.819954226415099,5.3850471698113225,80.0541745283019,72.77358490566039,7.941509433962264,25.514150943396224,8.472884824447931,1.6484188679245282,412,13,83,7,8,142,65,106,0.172,0.8140000000000001,0.014,-0.9257,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,1,1,6,8,1,0,2,0,4,1,1,4,6,24,11,11,0,2,3,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,11,8,0,0,1,0,0,0,4,8,0,0,5,0,17,0,12,6,4,10,0,6,0,0,12,4,1,0,6,65,28,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19763844889258672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2173436988162188,0.0,0.17230342931476125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24344972245529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3239462999091495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2556769840562064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15533940360178058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2674543198187396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2180004105375333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2901405628479855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24705230455832705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5401765665364558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2724686452751787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Iamaloneanddepressed,2019/02/06,"I had irony for dinner. I work as a cook and pull 4 ten hour shifts a week. Tomorrow is my day off because I work two days on and two days off. My single day between work days and my weekend are my worst binge days.

When everyone left and I was closing the kitchen, still cooking,  I made myself a bunch of beautiful food only to consume them with all senses besides taste. 

I made a big-mac-esque burger with white cheddar cheese, a house made bun, some scratch made onion rings and bacon.

I prepared ratatouille with grilled eggplant and pine nut cheese topped with spicy and sweet harissa sauce.

I cooked some fried chicken tenders that I cut into fun shapes to mimic those little dinosaurs that come in kids tv dinners.

I fixed some fresh rotini pasta with butter, extra virgin olive oil, parmesan cheese and sauteed broccoli.

I finally played a solitary slice of buttermilk cheesecake with a cream cheese topping, citrus compote and strawberry caramel topped with ginger snap cookie crumbs on top.

I threw it all out because I dont deserve it.

10 plus hours on my feet.
2 five minute breaks
8 large glasses of water
2 monster zeros
1 cup of coffee
13,000 steps all day.


I am sick. I wish I could have tasted any of these. I don't trust myself.",5.775920212765957,6.98019966382979,5.101529255319151,84.6471875,67.25531914893618,7.0664893617021285,30.43218085106383,6.9077264865688965,1.7084521276595739,991,37,179,7,16,298,162,235,0.06,0.838,0.102,0.8175,0,0,0,0,0,0,26.0,0,0,1,7,2,7,1,0,8,0,9,15,1,4,3,33,16,12,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,1,1,1,6,21,11,0,0,6,0,4,2,2,0,5,7,11,25,5,26,8,10,36,0,0,2,1,2,16,0,3,15,100,31,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08626199977537995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15465253758057032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10926959946000976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10127899207825324,0.0,0.0,0.5726519676070765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14866665190319814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12121011910304713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1389574106588829,0.0,0.0,0.15338690099243193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2498423820351639,0.1463672747577694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13782233680271452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1271365087040349,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4801121998714621,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09647474953475277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10130216272148207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24782703013604554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1017510055669692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14587064774196035,0.0,0.0,0.2770438079394514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,vanilla_soy_latte,2019/02/06,"relapsed after getting rejected honestly I was doing so well not binging :( I relapsed after I got rejected by my top internship choice
I got cocky and thought I would get it for sure, idk everything sucks",5.74072072072072,8.021184513513518,6.44162162162162,70.84639639639641,68.72972972972973,10.33873873873874,39.36036036036036,10.504223727775694,5.097944144144144,165,10,25,5,3,54,29,37,0.254,0.487,0.259,0.0637,0,2,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,1,2,6,1,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,5,9,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,3,1,0,4,0,6,3,4,4,0,3,0,2,0,0,0,1,1,0,2,18,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3328688940037107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38701098301315495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5924449559914955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3490737668706859,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2940361366068244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3330113310536397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2631035567872452,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,luvsonitsway,2019/02/06,I just saw a friend for the first time in 2 years and she said “so I see you still don’t go to the gym” I’ve gained sixty pounds in the past two-three years and I already feel so disgusting. I don’t know how to get back to my dream weight anymore. I was already so nervous about seeing her since I got fat and during her whole visit I wanted to fucking cry and hide in my room. I feel like it was enough motivation to finally lose weight again though... I haven’t felt good about myself in so long. It’s killing me. ,1.2400909090909096,2.9441728272727303,2.4309090909090934,97.22636363636366,79.81818181818181,5.490909090909091,19.18181818181818,6.2581,-0.3007090909090908,401,9,96,3,10,128,74,110,0.17,0.696,0.134,-0.7374,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,1,0,4,12,8,3,1,4,0,5,4,1,2,0,12,18,10,1,1,1,0,5,1,1,0,1,1,1,0,2,4,3,0,5,2,0,2,3,5,0,1,6,9,17,3,12,12,2,17,0,1,3,1,7,5,1,0,11,57,19,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3608376474452593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16214133325695998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12571618733330753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17958961510225102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1689321913294335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16533415968481982,0.1167995825203656,0.15697912160430433,0.1790988210343419,0.0,0.1390672416542271,0.0,0.0,0.12631444916366533,0.15114683896432393,0.08541845475152049,0.0,0.09291695944579066,0.13713034840353416,0.13076045613001624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18088101430458625,0.0,0.08985159298295896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07987452447503936,0.0,0.0,0.1446863467977448,0.0,0.1829070830313213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15607276942765247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15551948311572453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2605658430684385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13524327353239768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13056588940178773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16063124958951075,0.0,0.09533420604186957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15970911053735415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0964325317402234,0.0,0.0,0.3981813710494748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18253433126867835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2105685349428574
EDAnonymous,Smaylin,2019/02/06,"ADHD, an ED saviour or curse? Theres no doubt in my mind that I have an eating disorder and have recognized this behaviour for maybe 7 or so years. I also have ADHD and fluctuate between thinking my ADHD has saved me from full blown hospitalization and plagued me from reaching my goals. I get frustrated at my lack of motivation to stick to restricting due ADHD and losing the drive to complete anything and blame my ADHD or not being able to control my binging, considering the dopamine rush I get from unhealthy, fatty foods. I basically feel like a fraud. Anyway, I know they're comorbid disorders so perhaps one of you can understand my rambling and relate somehow?",8.170433255269323,8.575330680327871,8.230093676814992,67.09909836065576,61.8688524590164,11.233723653395783,39.55971896955504,10.914260884657429,4.66627025761124,541,27,86,13,7,176,87,122,0.23,0.7020000000000001,0.069,-0.9693,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,1,0,4,6,5,1,1,5,0,6,2,0,2,0,22,12,12,0,1,4,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,6,2,2,5,0,0,2,2,3,0,1,0,1,16,2,13,11,2,7,0,1,0,0,1,3,0,5,3,62,18,2,0.13292882580092347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7987730831346063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10630313396713653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10938909736416667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13937334477552252,0.0,0.1490909813032177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30469590156248005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13601937451208646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06721280838926669,0.094964379712615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1607380638046786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13889965009205113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07305420627106485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06494230979198587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1487133541944344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13354487236558313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13422022031030406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09007601258775726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08517542414249564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13838359564559108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08560180557304597
EDAnonymous,ErinNeeka_,2019/02/06,"Petition   Hi everyone. It's been called to my attention that there are triggering and potentially harmful subs out there that glorifies overly skinny/emaciated girls for sexual purposes. These subs are r/skinnytail and r/skinny_girl_porn. They're obviously NSFW. Examples include listing the women's weight in the post title and really harping on how much/little they weigh. These women do not seem okay, and these people are getting off on it. A typical title would be something like,""Sexy 100 lb *Sheila J"". Maybe if enough of us get together, we can petition against it, and get it taken down or at least heavily modified. It sucks that these subs get to exist, among others that we know of, that encourage/glorify unhealthy behaviors, yet we can't have our own understanding community. ",6.401372549019609,9.258440705882355,7.050588235294117,64.69931372549021,68.41176470588235,11.5921568627451,34.127450980392155,11.20814326018867,5.178977450980393,640,31,92,24,12,210,102,136,0.057,0.919,0.024,-0.5213,0,0,1,0,0,0,24.0,5,0,1,0,4,3,1,0,3,1,10,2,0,2,1,20,19,8,0,2,3,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,15,9,2,0,4,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,2,1,7,1,15,15,3,11,0,0,0,0,11,9,1,3,1,65,22,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23913190171445695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24197857358594915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22377645460641454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4894137861121223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.128703476426482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11441231742880052,0.2347176735684874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23527309664562104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17215496038287387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16235631597457595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22428715266641644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15002668518275705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21319575459389895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.180289190330627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2437977325206868,0.2816990581637416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2851776190103263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16636027595944805,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,incognitomiscreant,2019/02/07,what the fuck is happening to me i barely ate all january. why am i suddenly so fucking fat? i can feel it everywhere and it's disgusting. my stomach's a giant hard lump. FUCK FOOD,-0.7109266409266404,1.1675171351351388,2.736293436293437,84.85918918918921,107.37837837837841,7.519691119691122,24.204633204633204,7.957251820313856,2.602825482625483,142,7,28,5,7,51,32,37,0.317,0.6829999999999999,0.0,-0.9106,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,1,4,4,0,2,0,3,8,2,0,1,3,9,2,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,3,1,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,1,2,5,0,1,8,1,2,0,0,0,3,0,1,3,0,1,17,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14714135982959076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3518855684115831,0.0,0.0,0.8070909772627016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25733561409304,0.0,0.2606841855527431,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2625876206418615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,bonesandflesh,2019/02/07,"Doing the scariest things tomorrow (and next week) Telling my mom.

Getting tests done to start treatment.

Starting a partial hospitalization program.


It's so strange though, I still don't feel sick enough to be getting this level of help. My stomach dropped when they recommended the PHP. Isn't that for people that really need it? That's not me. I'm not even underweight. Not sick enough. This is going to break my mom's heart.


I'm still struggling a lot with the fact that I have to give up veganism for a little while.  Makes this whole thing worse to know that if I had just been a little less sick, maybe I could have gotten help without contributing to the suffering and death of innocent animals.",3.337467532467535,6.095062227272727,3.552294372294373,86.3877272727273,78.24242424242424,6.8017316017316025,26.095238095238088,7.957251820313856,1.7278965367965378,562,22,105,10,14,173,88,132,0.111,0.7609999999999999,0.128,0.1128,0,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,1,0,7,2,0,1,8,0,11,5,2,1,1,16,24,7,1,3,6,2,1,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,12,3,0,0,2,0,0,1,6,2,0,0,4,1,9,0,13,18,5,16,0,1,0,0,7,4,0,2,9,72,21,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12665285954731034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1623331965221426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3278136445217722,0.0,0.10477338099816724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08020791215650064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16575487916870038,0.15217200495945965,0.0901528799043623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18797688690269865,0.21265220754081385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08717870149565367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.317977145107964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1348612470852301,0.0,0.0,0.10588651632768037,0.0,0.15936479442451468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3715702337954634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11762186790266005,0.0,0.0,0.1687044215123938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1099738188841126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10162220918252388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2245577509869184,0.0,0.253363670465626,0.0,0.0,0.16583414167788094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13864929704581944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2107729680652093,0.0,0.1558528156700983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12724312863336712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17710432781529994,0.0,0.152913312029078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16165715503774186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ahcas19,2019/02/07,"Thanks to my abusive ex I am no longer bulimic! There’s always a bright side :) due to my ex boyfriend’s need to diss my appearance and tell me that nobody likes me, I’ve managed to completely lose my appetite and motivate myself to go to the gym everyday. I’m already down a kilo since I last saw him (2 days ago when he showed up at my house uninvited) and am only 4kg from my goal weight!

Always a silver lining amiright?",7.472931034482759,5.3444978735632205,8.08330459770115,75.84840517241382,64.51724137931035,11.458620689655175,35.543103448275865,10.125756701596842,3.291599999999999,333,12,69,6,4,112,65,87,0.1,0.743,0.157,0.6587,1,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,3,2,4,0,0,4,0,2,1,0,1,0,6,8,4,0,1,0,2,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,1,0,1,2,0,2,1,1,0,0,1,3,12,3,10,7,0,12,0,1,2,0,5,4,0,1,7,35,13,3,0.0,0.2925022534557681,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21883661058214327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2724287410085525,0.0,0.4108335810030966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25883997762572264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15921163700492633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14030271208881892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2848564628330534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20123314954455196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12060890151265545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2761859617728992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.183052023243214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18775683260247136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2042145823705705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2157764946097463,0.2272860271317612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3006228711889715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,teasnob22,2019/02/07,"My GP gave me purging advice lmao :’) I went to visit a new GP to renew my mental health care plan and get that Sweet Sweet government money, and oh my god y’all. I’m never going back to this dude. 

He asked if I drank soft drinks to throw up, and when I said no he told me that a lot of bulimics did that to make it easier?? Like yeah mate I know, but why the fuck would he give me tips?? 

He then proceeded to ask why I started, and if it was because of peer pressure (????), then questioned my responses to the mental health screener he did and asked me to stand on his scales. 

It was honestly a pretty awful experience. I’m fine and everything etc etc, but it made me so thankful for my old GP who gave me the screener, didn’t ask questions and mostly just trusted that I knew what was best for myself without him asking awkward and prying questions. ",3.7551550387596886,4.628815755813957,4.81860465116279,86.0448062015504,71.67441860465118,7.593798449612403,25.96124031007752,7.793537801064563,1.3250798449612402,658,20,137,8,12,216,106,172,0.073,0.7020000000000001,0.224,0.9823,0,0,1,0,0,0,24.0,0,1,0,2,4,12,1,2,6,2,7,5,0,2,1,25,31,16,0,3,6,0,1,1,1,1,2,1,0,0,11,8,2,0,5,1,1,4,4,3,0,0,14,4,21,9,15,16,5,16,0,0,0,1,24,2,1,7,10,85,32,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11610257081666135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5553700191403362,0.0,0.0,0.09135977049965403,0.0,0.07242722859801291,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1246867869252319,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12113764917393904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11639138943236002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2650155349496684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10678135504911307,0.11622179461302815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1098405926272494,0.06207482574892278,0.1139761404200809,0.06752409749737961,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2525850700614167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06529645138050247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05804597148226773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.101010461412455,0.0,0.11242361941416333,0.07930851970289858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2394708750163373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0916358172977462,0.11475021944819368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12467413061979035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12087541251294336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39929285013355054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11301825633645395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08409636767853973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10938693648431742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11353079803291505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11014072968668608,0.21442028728188836,0.0,0.0,0.1145313760475784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08440126073080931,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,cozwc,2019/02/07,"Oops guess I messed up I find it difficult to believe or say I have an ED, and I've always imagined that I don't because at any point I could just go back to eating normally again.

Anyway, after having a temporary 'revelation' that I 'deserve to eat' or some nonsense like that, I prepared a meal, of good food I had been missing. 

I made it past the cereal with 2% milk, and the slice of sourdough bread with butter, before crying while trying to open a fruit smoothie, and putting it back because too many calories. 

In conclusion, I feel like trash because I 'binged' (not even lol), AND because turns out I might have less control over this than I thought :). cool. Have a good night.",5.849179389312978,6.225933717557254,5.838998091603056,82.36552003816797,66.78625954198473,8.38206106870229,32.405534351145036,8.07648339933343,2.282212977099236,531,21,102,6,8,167,93,131,0.099,0.785,0.115,0.2732,0,0,0,0,0,0,20.0,0,0,0,2,7,8,0,0,7,2,9,7,0,2,0,24,16,7,0,2,4,0,1,2,0,1,0,1,0,0,7,8,7,1,5,0,0,2,2,3,0,0,4,5,13,5,15,10,2,16,0,1,0,0,1,7,0,5,9,68,20,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13468791394347615,0.0,0.0,0.11007642077970904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2489344258971797,0.0,0.3946951808605608,0.0,0.13773853428890087,0.1823708496668465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18154976512612664,0.12923916646009054,0.0,0.17780541504192518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3312646449760672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10691289936766514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0818457928834852,0.11563919347414925,0.0,0.0,0.14794526636881575,0.0,0.19573254851155736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0919938412323345,0.2715359515510045,0.0,0.0,0.17831687186496284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15816196239938124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1531642921336681,0.0,0.16410968519458033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17171735114097206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.151903022270478,0.15859717999704606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15452220624798596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1530184562557104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.162722979685731,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12872466733987376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12850584675046936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10989837577574857,0.17606691025995466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,mewme-mow,2019/02/07,"My mother wants me to 'just get over it' this is just me venting, but i skyped with my mum today and kind of told her that i've been relapsing pretty bad, except this time it's so controlled (lol i have experience) that it's scary because there is nothing telling me to stop. she said that i was provoking her and should just get help, otherwise she doesn't believe that i have an ed. she also said that i should gain at least 10 lbs so that i'd start looking my age (i'm 23), because she is embarrassed that people always think that i look a younger. apparently being skeletal, like she said, means that i don't have my shit together and now she doesn't like what i look like. when i was a teenager, though, she bragged to her friends about my weight, and i would restrict/purge all the time because i wanted to live up to her expectations so much. 

i just thought that for once, she'd give me some unconditional support instead of telling me that she's tired of my issues and i should just get over it like an adult. at times like this i feel like my ed/depression/whatever else isn't even real because i could feel worse and i don't even know why i'm doing this anymore. back when i was a lot younger i'd wait around for her and wouldn't eat until she came home because it felt like it wasn't worth it alone, and now i don't have anyone like that so it's easier not to sometimes. 

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EDAnonymous,velvetviolets_,2019/02/07,"I’m relapsing and I want to fucking die I’m 16 and throughout my life I’ve been naturally about 115 lbs at 5’9. When I was 13 I had anorexia and my weight dropped to a little under 100. Now I have BED/EDNOS? I’ve binged my way up to 125 lbs, I feel like a fucking whale I’ve never been this big before, I’m a model and my agency is going to drop me, and I ate like 3300 calories today. Anyways peace ✌️ I’ll probably delete this later but I just needed to scream into the void a little ",-0.4013888888888886,1.5456420092592609,2.5607407407407408,92.73333333333336,87.24074074074073,4.711111111111111,18.259259259259263,5.985473137389443,-0.2356629629629632,379,10,86,3,12,134,71,108,0.081,0.847,0.07200000000000001,-0.4208,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,0,5,5,2,0,5,0,6,5,0,0,1,12,16,7,1,2,2,0,2,2,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,6,2,0,1,0,0,1,1,3,0,0,5,3,12,2,10,11,0,16,0,0,0,2,0,7,2,0,7,46,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20371887258422205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2484680695868617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12105205517152742,0.17103337306966487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.44265832358396096,0.0,0.0,0.13606128246751112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16910119774474264,0.2339256536455422,0.4799001230425917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17751825798618465,0.18464647856972444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2581226934723325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2269311225079249,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14120924768119028,0.1900312046814757,0.0,0.2915348733041101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,nodfvther,2019/02/07,Binge Guilt I’d classify myself as restricting/overexercising (normally net 200 or less) but today I randomly binged 500 calories in ten minutes and I feel awful thanks for coming to my ted talk.,5.800190476190476,8.374466542857142,6.491428571428576,69.30190476190478,69.28571428571428,10.380952380952381,31.666666666666664,10.504223727775694,4.191666666666666,159,7,24,5,3,52,33,35,0.14800000000000002,0.7490000000000001,0.103,-0.1779,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,7,3,4,0,1,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,1,0,1,4,1,4,3,1,3,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,2,1,13,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.413023894407831,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2424361668686517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4697821481111194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3853825715181735,0.0,0.4414347043069566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4544847372154494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,FreshOpportunity,2019/02/07,Shoutout to the hot guy at the gym I've been really tired from restricting lately so I've only been going to the gym 3x a week for 30 mins each time but today THE MOST BEAUTIFUL MAN I'VE EVER SEEN was there so I somehow ended up spending an hour there so I could check him out a little and now I feel so motivated to restrict so that one day this man could only be 100% out of my league instead of 10000% too good for me. That is all.,1.6018548387096772,3.150283096774196,3.40826612903226,91.33239919354841,78.24731182795698,6.370430107526883,20.227150537634405,7.1686216300943375,0.30923763440860164,340,8,77,4,8,114,68,93,0.075,0.762,0.163,0.9234,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,1,12,1,0,0,7,0,7,1,0,1,2,15,10,7,0,2,1,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,3,3,4,0,2,2,2,2,1,0,0,0,1,4,3,6,1,12,3,3,16,0,0,1,0,4,5,0,2,10,53,9,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3935420025662128,0.0,0.0,0.1589404514352679,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21828235968272133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22292896168779425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12461298735988335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1400637341370926,0.20671133424383276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24402515224844826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24270450696246446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2780073661291798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2470085612424153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16700151782110878,0.3748740518630488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15788276652353847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.143707510112936,0.2832590717492036,0.2336066501355491,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19768805786994534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,LosinW8nFeelinGr8,2019/02/07,"12 Packs of Bang are BOGO 1/2 off on Vitamin Shoppe! I was excited to post this to Peach but they're still down, but there with free shipping and taxes it brings it to about $1.75 per can. Better than my regular $2.50!

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EDAnonymous,cankle_skank,2019/02/07,"Ever dream about B/P I wake up SO relieved it didn’t really happen and then... like worried because, uh, this has transcended waking life and is now my ENTIRE life... oops. ",0.7100000000000009,3.23567878787879,2.717333333333336,87.33600000000001,94.45454545454544,5.064242424242424,18.72121212121212,6.742157984588678,0.5951866666666663,132,4,24,2,5,44,31,33,0.061,0.716,0.224,0.7119,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,0,0,0,3,4,2,0,1,3,4,4,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,1,0,2,2,2,3,0,4,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,4,15,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25650596502462936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3806231355390994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37209782059453217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5944242372134134,0.2055737630593212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26956494654981844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4273264843821904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,basedgore,2019/02/07,"I need to realize i’m sick I just made a post on a public instagram acknowledging i now am a good amount below the bmi marker for even extreme anorexia diagnosis, and i’ve lost about 100lbs in the last year. since i started out big it’s fine i’m just being healthy, i kickbox so it’s fine i’m just being healthy, i don’t look nearly as bad as other people my weight so i’m not really that sick, i eat lunch every day so i’m okay, i get compliments on my abs so it’s fine, i work at a bakery so i’m okay, i love sweets so all is well, i’m not on a fucking feeding tube so i’m alright... no. i can’t do this anymore and i can’t lie to myself anymore. i’m moving to japan in a few months on my own and i don’t want to die before then- and i WILL DIE if i don’t finally at least face the fact that i’m sick. i still think i have a few pounds to lose when i look in the mirror. i have an obsession with exercise, fuck i’m on the treadmill as i type this. i saw a sickly thin girl at school today and envied her, forgetting that i look just as small. i can’t do this anymore i really really can’t ",-1.7347556925996201,0.17704509274193825,1.6240607210626197,96.41050284629982,96.05645161290323,4.853130929791272,16.165085388994306,6.522977012572876,-0.3111493358633779,845,22,208,12,34,302,124,248,0.157,0.7090000000000001,0.135,-0.8524,0,0,0,0,0,1,21.0,0,0,0,3,17,17,2,1,14,3,16,13,1,1,2,23,41,19,2,3,7,0,2,0,0,1,5,0,0,1,10,7,4,0,3,1,0,1,10,6,1,0,3,7,29,11,26,35,6,30,0,2,4,3,4,17,2,1,11,126,39,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4246027739941836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11916049689430645,0.0,0.0,0.12143937580583156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0920389306150628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2962298671256769,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14603237910190128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09426146308170176,0.0,0.12024297070153768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15633656288770545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2638741802827718,0.07456234243145067,0.0,0.0,0.1197020014603629,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11633121948120215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3595322584814975,0.15966082034370213,0.15578954005289086,0.0,0.12880524668535673,0.13503974126399226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11391320948685152,0.1516827376779918,0.0,0.1058208607308505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0989401408061831,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13668086968238494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2742793454180985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1444345120550272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.118054761140402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10101393098469187,0.0,0.11397184114091832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09144557437614824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13527648920639807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0841766041549503,0.0,0.0,0.17378759557510598,0.12831731392352072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10389772544265212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09190334368240692
EDAnonymous,bribear33,2019/02/07,"Do you guys trust prepackaged meals? I'm going insane with paranoia Not talking about bread, but like quick frozen meals TV dinner type things you put in the microwave or oven... or even canned soup. In the past I've trusted them because I thought since they were are frozen and/or pre-packaged, they have to be accurate with their calories. But now I'm so paranoid about everything... I've been adding 20% of calories to whatever frozen meal/prepackaged food I'm eating because otherwise I feel uncomfortable. Has anyone eaten these and lost weight without adding on extra calories? Do you guys trust them?",7.653730158730159,8.958603685185189,5.7234391534391555,81.50833333333334,63.07407407407407,8.023280423280424,33.94708994708995,7.957251820313856,2.5195645502645503,490,20,82,5,7,140,77,108,0.112,0.765,0.124,0.5292,0,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,3,5,1,6,5,0,0,2,0,9,8,0,0,0,11,17,6,0,0,6,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,1,2,2,3,8,0,2,1,0,2,2,1,0,0,5,2,10,4,11,11,1,8,0,1,0,0,11,3,0,2,4,45,12,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16302936112821184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28426167234951605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23857864635148104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15399853377345754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20954720448078207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11789159375650435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2819353479402349,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1325089558861259,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4617257755350888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11390912814213655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25451929092795705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22257551089131336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23438799650053824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19287054885663932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1874034148827003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15489968793547773,0.0,0.0,0.1851012562369452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28392339808457995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22475580746347346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,lostinagrocerystore,2019/02/07,"Peach will be resurrected One of the guys who’s worked with the peach devs has said that a beta version of peach will be out soon!! They’re updating it and for some reason took the whole thing offline, but it will be back! ",8.241333333333333,5.880956355555563,7.607222222222222,80.5975,63.22222222222222,10.777777777777779,31.38888888888889,8.841846274778883,2.138555555555555,176,4,38,2,2,55,35,45,0.049,0.951,0.0,-0.2792,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,4,0,7,0,0,1,0,6,9,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,0,1,0,1,5,3,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,5,1,3,5,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,1,3,28,5,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2818102139101552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.362885328328082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24834489423491984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3768154678221179,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34861842165036355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2434814216262507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4071868022600865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4091759385320202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2668110030304084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,FakeStegosaurus,2019/02/07,Could someone explain the difference between Anorexia B/P subtype and Bulimia to me please? I've looked it up but my brain doesn't understand the distinction ,7.606071428571429,9.59512175,7.1485714285714295,68.74642857142858,63.64285714285714,11.314285714285715,46.14285714285714,11.20814326018867,6.180085714285713,131,9,19,4,2,41,27,28,0.0,0.936,0.064,0.1655,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,2,1,1,0,1,6,5,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,3,4,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,12,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4316940778526268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3087549126507044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4040276075295133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3247373686098496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.42448931464024897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3276564773845961,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4025767199274242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,AgitatedSink,2019/02/07,"How tf am I supposed to maintain?? My tdee is 1500. It's not physically possible for me to eat only 1500 on the weekends, because I eat with my family and it usually totals to 2000-2500 calories because we have at least 2 meals + coffee and snacks. And no ""low calorie"" stuff, just normal food that any other normal person eats..

This always results in me restricting/fasting on the weekdays to make up for it. How tf am i supposed to have ""normal"" eating habits and still maintain my weight? Sometimes all it takes is one meal to put me at tdee.

Not sure what the point of this post is, just wanted to let my thoughts out. I know I can exercise to raise tdee but I'm lazy and depressed so no.. Why can't they invent pills that increase my bmr to 2000 or something .__.",2.915298582995952,4.762593414473685,3.952894736842108,87.54757085020245,75.38157894736842,6.2558704453441285,26.16599190283401,7.010146845296331,1.1824538461538454,597,22,118,6,13,193,100,152,0.085,0.895,0.02,-0.8369,0,0,1,0,0,0,24.0,1,0,1,0,6,3,0,0,3,0,10,11,0,4,3,27,16,10,0,4,6,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,11,8,9,0,2,2,0,2,5,2,0,1,1,1,15,1,20,14,4,15,0,2,0,0,3,9,0,1,3,80,26,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11976038354531213,0.0,0.0,0.0978765947582014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1754754560352913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1239657598209142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5891008298485428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13568336759300248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17403941003854956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07909956521375343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14717706259693453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09607366546903763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4230593202361599,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0975299547495354,0.10946442221603812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1256731731615785,0.0,0.0,0.13605934247660886,0.16225822101439713,0.13784411075390265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14468830861080464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1108035071301146,0.1423493728616445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11494181394632763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16476416797638485,0.0,0.0,0.13565129493613765,0.0,0.10821662861667614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11426347802156862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15851736093100185,0.0,0.0848930005565935,0.0,0.0,0.17526663846796314,0.0,0.0,0.12987345512982876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,unpollutedfantasy,2019/02/07,"Depressed w/o Peach (It’s cucumber btw)
I’m just really sad about peach being down 
I emailed peach and DMed them on Twitter 
It’s been down for over 24 hours and idk what to do now. Nothing else is the same as peach and now I feel really lonely in my ED. So I guess if peach doesn’t come back, still really hope it does this is goodbye, some of you have me on ig so that’s cool, but we all know ig is not peach",0.2119999999999997,2.0159415333333364,1.9455555555555544,98.925,83.66666666666666,5.777777777777778,16.666666666666668,6.937597516519254,-0.3849999999999998,318,6,80,4,9,104,66,90,0.085,0.87,0.044,-0.3731,0,2,0,0,0,0,8.0,1,1,1,0,8,5,0,0,1,1,8,0,0,0,1,16,14,8,0,2,4,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,6,5,0,0,2,0,0,1,2,3,0,0,1,2,8,2,11,12,3,12,0,3,0,0,4,6,0,4,5,50,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21732848113363196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.243464591794752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2434326769157949,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.247335351743776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23610485421123406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14290849319404786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31135376140317034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28071982676285623,0.2783380457868397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15532852725362728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2711954212270423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5431886854624155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2257122732836361,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,tahinibitch,2019/02/07,"My dad is in the hospital and my disordered ass went looking for his scale Sorry for the dramatic title. My father will probably be fine, it's nothing serious, but they chose to keep him overnight. I haven't weighed myself in one and a half month, yet the second he's out, I find myself on all fours crawling around the bedroom looking for the scale I KNOW he has. And now I'm overjoyed that I am eight pounds lighter than I thought I was. I can't share this with anyone but you. I'm not sure what I'm trying to say other than I feel like a malfunctioning person with zoom vision on my weight all the time.",4.55225806451613,5.051052774193551,5.109838709677419,86.03475806451617,69.64516129032258,8.135483870967743,28.403225806451612,8.07648339933343,1.6629709677419355,480,16,101,6,8,154,86,124,0.068,0.82,0.111,0.7299,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,1,1,0,3,5,0,0,8,0,8,3,1,0,3,18,18,5,0,0,3,2,2,1,0,1,0,1,1,1,5,7,2,1,4,0,0,1,3,1,0,5,3,5,18,4,15,13,2,11,0,0,2,1,11,6,1,0,5,69,23,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16110609063085604,0.0,0.0,0.20511128155224628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2640666441430037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1165008171344956,0.16460296928995605,0.0,0.0,0.21058803166198492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2047965302830692,0.0,0.0,0.12662578650783116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1125653329875754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3869680829408538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18390885069511226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2210819488047059,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15612990027011908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20118270374200214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2484179609166748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18322907509504252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2579220273533948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21715608506413844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18291760181616856,0.1343523071810298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15643138307493867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2805739309010851,0.0,0.21358980814824996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,_itsanotherthrowaway,2019/02/07,"Overestimating clothes size when shopping. **Meaningless vent ahead**
Today, after a therapy appointment, I browsed some of the clothing stores in my town. I tried on medium sized items, only to find that they were too big and wouldn't fit correctly.

My delusional ED brain was content about me going down yet another size, but I refuse to believe it. I have never wore size S clothes before and even though it seems like I've reached a new goal, I still feel like garbage. 

I never expected an eating disorder to cure my problems, but I didn't think it would make things worse either. The first time I lost a lot of weight in a short amount of time I felt an incredible sense of accomplishment, a ""high"" of sorts, but in the end restricting only accounted for so much weight loss before it caught up with me and came to a hault, resulting in me plateauing at the same weight for months.

I'm not entirely sure what the point of this post is, other than simply typing out my insignifincant thoughts for an online audience to read as I don't have anyone IRL to talk to. 

TL;DR I'm a sensitive cunt who can't handle going down a clothes size and I would like to apologise for wasting the community's time with this post.",5.451767241379309,6.6665211594827625,5.527068965517246,81.26232758620691,68.00862068965517,9.248275862068963,29.15517241379311,9.516144504307137,2.5107362068965524,967,34,185,20,16,304,148,232,0.15,0.7879999999999999,0.062,-0.9689,0,0,0,0,0,0,26.0,0,0,1,6,8,8,1,0,17,0,11,5,1,2,4,36,25,11,0,5,5,0,5,3,0,3,0,0,0,0,11,8,4,2,6,2,3,4,7,4,0,1,9,5,19,4,35,13,7,37,0,2,0,0,4,16,1,4,18,117,30,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13220033104077053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08815437191533089,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21456059277037767,0.1420430303348637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1407410770390136,0.0,0.14419588695241806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14449254567013378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.129005907745566,0.0,0.0,0.11166477628401768,0.0,0.0,0.08327116003358853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06374716388374266,0.09006780138686722,0.12105149728661126,0.0,0.11523000521801847,0.10723908793551044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14330233153660205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13320485808381194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18478121199706984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13762544413361358,0.10718421398045716,0.0,0.0,0.08415585106178539,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10063163446654257,0.0,0.09267942166177798,0.0,0.1944731845033355,0.12176374509782248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19177100337753092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11918135635947065,0.0,0.24148945286340145,0.0,0.0,0.12063647522487622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12610883232827874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11477368524592645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10068343003271787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1188239265906118,0.0,0.0,0.10133408006659847,0.0,0.0,0.14417742380262585,0.0,0.08375843839008837,0.08078358651869746,0.12386776709608285,0.10008924080536637,0.22054554005764376,0.0,0.11950408802507435,0.0,0.0,0.08559645553323714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.460575113409091,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1284809051638594,0.1791197201535791,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,gabyisacat,2019/02/07,Fasting apps??? Hey what are you guys using for fasting apps? And are they just counters or do they have additional stats? I need something to keep me accountable 😅,2.7300000000000004,5.733579666666667,3.068333333333332,86.4225,85.66666666666666,5.666666666666668,27.5,7.1686216300943375,1.7559999999999998,130,6,23,2,4,40,26,30,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,1,0,0,0,5.0,0,1,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,1,0,7,7,2,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,2,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,0,2,7,0,2,0,0,0,0,5,0,0,1,2,15,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5176433538742511,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4646789297793824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38764145753484897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4024685530936855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4515218871548067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,beaglesarebest,2019/02/07,"My ex told everyone about my relapse My ex and I have a really close friendship, and he knows about my latest relapse and how bad it really is. Last night he promised me not to tell my parents or friends as I wanted to tell them myself. Well, he obviously changed his mind and told my friends today, who in turn told my parents. My mum called me and was freaking out, and now they want me to move back in with them in my hometown, far away from all my friends and my studies. 

I'm terrified of losing my friends over this. They supported me so much last year when I got ill, but our friendship is relatively new and I'm not sure its strong enough to take this one more time. That's why I was afraid of telling them in the first place, I feel like such a burden and like the worst person in the world for not admitting to them earlier that I've relapsed. 

What am I gonna do? I'm having a really bad anxiety attack. I haven't eaten in over 70 hours and now I never want to eat again. ",4.847446633825946,4.695147763546796,5.4232635467980295,86.31088875205255,68.90147783251231,8.934154351395732,29.23193760262727,8.59863814320734,1.844747454844006,768,25,171,11,12,248,120,203,0.166,0.7070000000000001,0.126,-0.9325,2,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,1,0,6,3,11,19,1,1,6,0,9,3,0,1,4,30,27,16,0,3,5,5,1,2,4,1,1,0,0,1,8,13,2,0,3,0,0,1,5,8,1,2,7,1,33,11,24,19,5,31,0,1,0,0,30,14,0,1,18,112,41,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09104006851057593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13538770127351082,0.11181104217223796,0.09150907658553327,0.1987318338211856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12151950516690566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12589368050725824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12177392362643832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12296609658660396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11371633745566465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06017354090086417,0.08501866122997423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10122733704400133,0.0,0.0,0.3677782105094069,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0951808104284649,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11719797338902024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06540316309315355,0.19401326094385196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1162816679771023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13313844958385215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12016319671973165,0.0,0.0,0.12648566178984044,0.08748387583491678,0.0,0.0917855745172778,0.11493775172882326,0.0,0.1116800558896151,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08064225788996679,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2642864938751364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10391236688228593,0.1243370392524895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22871689324424735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13504779152188195,0.11216273746297488,0.0,0.0894784919699794,0.0,0.3120522248622016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0693939686444429,0.0,0.11280476950647825,0.3411490123669939,0.0,0.0,0.1294454980831877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21058032667560075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10700163129417292,0.0,0.1073853534387144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07663663924003017
EDAnonymous,teeandcookies,2019/02/07,"I’m thinking of telling my mum about my problem But I’m worried she won’t understand. I keep getting sick and I’m worried it’s due to not eating properly; I restrict and then binge, constantly. But I don’t binge on anything with protein, just junk food, and I hate it. I’m gaining weight and getting ill constantly.
So I want to tell my mum what’s been happening. I want to ask if I can order these meals that come with everything fresh and you prepare it again, like I used to. I want to loose weight gradually and healthily, but I’m unsure how to explain.
My mum will likely just think I’m greedy. I don’t know why I’m posting this really, just needed somewhere to share.",2.1635373385738355,4.267268576642337,3.506861313868616,88.69028635597981,78.56204379562044,6.55115103874228,27.32678270634475,7.61054688173877,1.5927241998877033,533,23,109,8,13,174,81,137,0.14300000000000002,0.753,0.104,-0.7157,0,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,1,0,1,7,5,1,0,0,0,6,7,0,2,0,31,30,13,0,6,8,3,2,2,0,2,2,0,0,0,7,9,5,2,5,0,0,1,4,2,0,0,1,2,16,3,12,27,0,9,0,0,0,0,10,1,0,1,7,59,23,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13262538741960514,0.0,0.15066788804628345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13882971672675165,0.0,0.3483250726083837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16491243346841242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14484506449298273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1948818346512472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1684045334479592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14251802602174055,0.0,0.0,0.1591174608072954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14325120765605232,0.0,0.0,0.08857228592970877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15747454186247922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1195020978372824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1543518976169826,0.0,0.0,0.15421351659044444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1032466785361781,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28173131673698304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2065365543317504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1677788593859133,0.0,0.13919515491863324,0.0,0.0,0.2851785758269427,0.0,0.0,0.3925120643678111,0.0,0.0,0.14542670078341066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.327342562359823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,theaxiomofhope,2019/02/07,"Please help me eat post being abandoned suddenly without an explanation by my boyfriend I can’t think about it without filling in the gaps and validating all the ways I hate myself and should be alone as not to hurt others and as to not be a burden to those I am around. Not eating numbs me out and makes me think less. Eating also feels like taking up resources I don’t deserve. I just..: I don’t know how to stop. 

(Yes therapy and yes CBT and yes antidepressants (please don’t advise these it feels condescending))",4.131,5.939602699999997,4.743000000000002,83.32150000000003,72.0,7.4,25.5,8.07648339933343,1.4788,410,13,79,6,8,131,67,100,0.1,0.698,0.202,0.8442,0,1,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,0,5,6,1,0,4,3,9,4,0,2,1,25,17,10,0,1,6,0,2,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,5,8,3,2,5,0,0,1,9,5,0,0,0,2,11,1,14,13,2,9,0,2,0,0,2,4,0,0,3,57,16,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1850769348907227,0.0,0.14290449392477247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15907884779137793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5485571070168911,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18070986262926614,0.1276616795503563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17642699247626714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11977730805886633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19129959420051604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09820758792934464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08730267461351238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11928210886808285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3923128467791525,0.0,0.0,0.17114300933037754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14939928690414114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13435843852706242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20435640475809927,0.0,0.0,0.22900455382009965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14184192430522502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34451643071127136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,bluecokezero,2019/02/07,"Using Vent while Peach is down Peach has been down for an entire day and a lot of us are dying without it. I just remembered this app called Vent exists and it’s basically the same thing as peach (except it has moods too!). You make a profile, have a bio and can choose if your posts are public or only to your mutual followers. You can even post on private (it goes under a tab called my diary only you can see). It was literally made for venting. 

I’m really bad at explaining things but if anyone joins my username is @levidoll feel free to add me ! Or drop your names below ✨ (I hope this is allowed lol)",2.3763561847988086,4.327961926229508,4.114143070044708,85.32035022354697,77.27868852459017,7.059314456035768,20.926974664679587,8.00094639256281,0.9508754098360659,473,12,96,8,11,159,89,122,0.041,0.888,0.07200000000000001,0.7038,2,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,1,6,0,0,3,4,0,0,6,1,13,0,0,4,0,24,22,10,1,3,8,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,9,4,0,0,4,0,1,1,1,1,0,0,3,2,12,3,14,19,2,12,0,0,1,0,12,6,0,6,2,68,21,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14335470878830128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17118308595973508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.418696562071442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1322209002291698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21277832893309545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13541373658182804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10366424167154416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20363106007999512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17430062114933206,0.0,0.1939948241175796,0.13685240175474306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31185380538619994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3927048589709095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13134102320651878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23224762542983074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16337434791871575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2724122759448946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2466137440180596,0.17707140153663228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19763190571584832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,roithamerschen,2019/02/07,I spent $60 getting bronkaid shipped to Europe because it's illegal here. Now I can't afford to go food shopping for the next week. Win/win,1.5936781609195378,3.84683296551724,2.8282758620689665,92.00264367816094,81.41379310344827,5.2459770114942526,30.356321839080447,6.42735559955562,1.4985080459770113,112,6,23,1,3,36,26,29,0.141,0.8590000000000001,0.0,-0.5574,1,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,2,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,3,3,0,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,10,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2973007141185231,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5897353630905621,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2548059670537213,0.0,0.2771742450287613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5186802763851476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3912078920991244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,throoaweigh,2019/02/07,"been threatening to go veggie for months now and finally did it as an excuse to dump half my food 👌 (except my tuna that shit's expensive and i have to wait for it to run out lmao)

new year new me or whatever, now i can pretend i'm being healthy instead of just finding an excuse to restrict my intake even further",7.446256410256409,5.357981523076923,8.290769230769232,74.21256410256413,64.53846153846155,11.12820512820513,37.05128205128205,9.725611199111238,3.46874358974359,249,10,49,4,3,85,50,65,0.146,0.7759999999999999,0.078,-0.6908,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,5,2,2,0,2,0,5,2,1,0,0,9,8,4,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,3,1,2,1,1,1,2,0,2,0,1,2,0,6,0,11,5,0,11,0,0,0,0,2,2,1,1,7,36,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.207896934252418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3448057251959168,0.2876862146396569,0.0,0.3806107308812958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17888615569703914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2512395442307444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6079970375990758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.323098050963175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2026960199265961
EDAnonymous,sxxbrinx,2019/02/07,"ED Manifests In Other Ways? Even when I’m doing okay eating-wise, it’s like my ED/self-destructive tendencies come through in different ways. Like I’ll turn to plastic surgery, “fitness”, buy expensive clothes/makeup, overshare excessively, etc. Does anybody else experience this? ",6.412826086956521,9.998973760869564,5.954521739130435,68.75786956521742,72.26086956521739,9.76695652173913,39.63478260869565,9.888512548439397,5.351500869565218,227,14,31,7,5,70,41,46,0.0,0.789,0.211,0.8105,1,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,4,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,4,4,1,7,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,3,12,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2520459262435503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30570100557238955,0.0,0.0,0.25605311788249163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2444267818641858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3263223768440554,0.19325719018362966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2862154648134708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28589568357059914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3052419015799081,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3182609073591641,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4644988723167366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,fawndofyou,2019/02/07,"Cheap, healthy meals? Anyone have some cheap and healthy meals they eat? I'm tired of all food so I have no idea what to eat anymore, but I'm hoping y'all can help. :-( 💕",-1.9810714285714253,-0.4844201388888862,-0.8009523809523795,109.96500000000002,111.5,2.0571428571428574,13.476190476190474,3.1291,-1.931780952380952,129,3,33,0,7,39,27,36,0.16,0.578,0.262,0.6565,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,1,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,3,6,0,0,1,6,6,3,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,5,0,1,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,2,6,2,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,2,0,15,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2969478041971645,0.20936397868375792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6127702922156346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36206426724531104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20069736164526694,0.0,0.0,0.2973952462551985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3380128559389763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34414343975686496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,mediocremermaidd,2019/02/07,"Measuring tapes LIE Y'all check your tape measurers just noticed the one I've been using since september had a manufacturing flaw and I am THRIVING my waist and hips are 1.5"" smaller than I thought !!  this is the best part of 2019 so far- my life is blessed

[https://imgur.com/a/edumeHs](https://imgur.com/a/edumeHs)

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EDAnonymous,R0b0t_Skelet0n,2019/02/08,"Mistakes I did so fucking good all week. At or below my limit. Had a date tonight, so I figured I'd be real good and just eat a little bit. NOPE. My fat ass ate my whole curry dish, and the appetizer and then came home and chowed through most of my cereal box. Ugh. Why can't I just hold it together :(",0.06799107142857252,2.0938017812500007,2.5413392857142867,93.126875,85.875,5.5321428571428575,20.080357142857142,6.868970318607317,0.271341964285714,230,7,53,3,7,79,51,64,0.117,0.743,0.14,0.3803,1,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,1,4,5,1,0,3,0,4,7,2,0,1,15,7,8,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,1,5,5,2,1,0,0,1,2,3,0,0,4,0,7,2,4,2,4,8,0,0,0,2,0,3,2,2,4,33,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3001946142427291,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31449095089570345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28136163558849764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2542041409259221,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4612614150537516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2758160349679095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2755908835523058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.312974589451586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22056331271307505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2481164914620999,0.30699274419225103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,MissEmilyPost,2019/02/08,"If only I had more self control I wouldn’t be taking 4 lax pills. Instead, I would have NOT ordered Chinese food 3 times this week and would have been a few pounds lighter. But here I am, hating myself yet again for my choices. Knowing full well that I have to be seen by people tomorrow. 
 
I’ve been the same weight for months and it’s all because I can’t break this f’ing binge habit. I’ll fast for 3-5 days and then ruin it all. Get. It. Together. ",0.32985493230174256,2.5673653510638346,1.6767698259187647,98.26136363636364,86.97872340425532,4.269245647969052,19.18375241779497,5.565023196281405,-0.40290212765957456,349,10,79,2,11,111,71,94,0.083,0.892,0.025,-0.7184,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,1,5,3,1,0,2,0,13,3,0,1,2,14,18,6,0,4,3,0,1,0,0,3,1,0,0,1,6,3,2,1,1,0,0,0,3,2,1,0,4,2,8,1,5,9,6,12,0,1,1,0,1,1,0,1,9,52,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16469162986753932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3030158782835893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17423571827990575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32668767186071984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1411513932567353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2667345210319325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14847701907948646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.215645159541464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2054745947335457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1873001607567468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2818436742783803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2031323735903691,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15753687007075048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2167121110283101,0.3289912903248229,0.2429130717817557,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3838385497195039,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,still_not_clever,2019/02/08,"Tips for soup? You guys, how do you eat soup and not go crazy? I am always craving some kind of low cal soup or just broth from Pho (#tastyshit), but the bloat and water weight from all the sodium is insane!! 

I feel like I start all over with losing every time I eat soup even though it’s impossible that I’ve truly gained. What do you do to feel okay about the temporary weight when it feels totally not temporary? ",5.256024096385541,5.369501108433738,5.1008674698795184,88.05828915662653,68.03614457831326,8.567710843373495,23.828915662650605,8.238735603445708,0.9734115662650606,324,6,71,4,5,100,61,83,0.093,0.741,0.166,0.7811,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,3,0,2,6,5,0,0,3,1,5,5,0,1,3,16,10,7,0,0,5,0,5,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,4,3,5,0,3,0,0,1,2,2,0,0,0,5,7,3,8,10,4,6,0,2,0,0,4,2,0,2,4,42,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18398313868881502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4525061479897166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14604258256044672,0.0,0.1862966412983844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.335403053376364,0.15796266456206134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1256632102644963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21893593088706303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2302544249505094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1080242963582924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24736809481201624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15650441732270212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2172417028345832,0.0,0.1289323547681046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5385104038277088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,circa90melancholy,2019/02/08,"I'm losing my mind. Is the final 10lbs actually worth it? I thought I slowly began to gain 10 pounds on my own, away from the scale and measuring tape and without ever seeing a number in my clothes. I was wrong. Between the last time I weighed myself and the time before that (months), my weight stayed the same. I felt better mentally and physically and thought it was because I gained weight (I understand the irony). I was wrong. I thought because the dumbest aspect of female biology had come back to punish me after months without it, I must have gained weight, and I will repeat a third time: I was wrong. 

I'm scared to look for others who have gained 10 pounds as a reference point. I Googled for images and one of the first results was of someone I can't convince myself gained *more* than 10 pounds to look so much larger. I go to bed every night scared my life will end when I close my eyes and I still can't bring myself to say ""yes, this is worth it."" I don't want my clothes to be tight or too small, or my thighs to be on the verge of starting fires, or my boobs to be large enough to show through baggy shirts again. Does 10 pounds really make this much of a difference? I'm scared. Every direction on the scale scares me. I don't want to die, but I don't want to live with me, either. What if 10 pounds isn't enough to feel better? 

This is fucked. I'm doing an equation where my life is intertwined with the math, and it's sick because my life should ideally take priority, but I hold this cheap, poorly constructed concept of nihilism in the back of my mind where whatever I do - whether I die from this disorder or something else - doesn't matter, so I might as well cut out the insufferable middleman and just die young. *This is fucked.* 

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EDAnonymous,Eusea,2019/02/08,"I have been in the ""zone"", aka setting myself up for future anguish I got discharged last sunday from an inpatient facility (I started lying half way through my stay because I was prepared to bang my head against the wall because it was so fucking miserable to be there) I was at for a week because I was very suicidal and the entire time I had to eat at maintenance or above (didnt tell them shit about my extremely likely ed because I dont want them to stop me), the only day I ate less than maintenance was a singular time when they forgot about my dinner because I was in family therapy during the scheduled time. I still want to die but I've shifted from being actively suicidal to just starving some days and eating at most 1100 when I go on rampage mode. I've always been very shit at restricting except during the first month of my hardcore ed, and now I've reverted back to that but 10 times better and I'm not really scared I'm just impatient because I want to die but I want to die thin as well. even if I cant die I could use my ed to temporarily lift me from the pit of depression and do something productive relating to my music. Yet here I am with a massive headache and no energy typing out a shitpost because I'm failing 2 classes because of late work and not doing anything with my hobbies because I want death. toodles this was a rant/shot post that is very incoherent that I'm just gonna post anyway because I crave death and maybe some advice.",8.656899367755532,6.421494558219184,8.889863013698633,71.33311380400423,62.321917808219176,11.998314014752367,39.927291886195995,10.560738912317856,4.140055532139094,1169,51,220,22,13,389,168,292,0.256,0.691,0.052000000000000005,-0.9967,1,0,1,0,0,3,16.0,0,0,3,4,17,11,3,3,13,0,21,8,3,1,0,35,38,17,8,7,11,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,5,11,4,3,0,0,0,1,6,8,1,2,14,1,33,3,37,20,4,39,0,3,0,1,4,11,3,5,23,146,38,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08944383090912693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07616180308624616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07532288526833991,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07038231631728033,0.0,0.5579694525599339,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08095245269318548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07308070678928777,0.0,0.0,0.11806089771923202,0.0,0.07883621870119611,0.0,0.3799822945615868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10727460625485047,0.0,0.0,0.187319796716805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060455900983342616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08628804967702125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07785691563751593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08461968864947915,0.0,0.0,0.052019640188538406,0.0,0.07320635457019098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09393804979199573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0746106463479273,0.10325187490466392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.044717821678681546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09195601153815723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07305982199175863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0696140703875856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17532435533433774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058637624915002635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09163931532549738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1879121868456654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07046566353151594,0.0,0.0,0.0647866902326304,0.09756073679316314,0.07309742621894617,0.07652469641139191,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20024190022455265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08000284131098859,0.0,0.104674608278894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21349175115233301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07905410033354704,0.0,0.22657000170898925,0.2699391819059079,0.07265369481200723,0.07342130140483044,0.0,0.0822980948034401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06663625193586477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,umsooooyeah,2019/02/08,Why do people who weigh the same as me are sooo much smaller Recently I’ve been talking to some of my friends about how much we weigh. One of my friends weighed the exact same as me butt shesss so much skinner then me. What also confuses me is that I’m a lottt talker then her. If anyone could tell me why it would really help because this situation has got me into a really bad headspace.,2.635515370705246,4.5759428227848105,3.7481374321880665,88.2913924050633,76.46835443037975,7.0459312839059685,25.20976491862568,7.957251820313856,1.3934904159132009,309,11,64,5,7,100,60,79,0.071,0.821,0.108,0.4767,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,1,0,0,0,5,4,0,1,4,0,7,4,1,1,1,11,9,8,0,3,1,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,5,2,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,2,0,10,2,7,5,6,4,0,0,0,1,9,1,1,3,3,47,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17382273179020036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15198318189013416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18148653999467404,0.13250065250244686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17354429154668655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3358636290290683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17384266653619138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1456918416031658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4793538798083639,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1472887768446494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1506900717057852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27849279299378943,0.0,0.2146168001139483,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2443217727775152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17470575296280755,0.1899822405531611,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3922672249727884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15440632391073147,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,almondbones,2019/02/08,I think I'm finally getting bored of food again. Thank god! I've been doing nothing but binging for the past six months and have gained so much. I finally put my foot down this week and today is my ninth day binge free. I've been eating around 600 calories each day and today I was so incredibly bored with food. It was in the back of my mind and I didn't feel like eating all day. I hope I can keep this up. I hate being excited about food and feeling like it's the only thing in my life. I keep forcing it in the back of my mind hoping eventually that will be my permanent mindset. ,1.3351366120218555,3.36251073770492,2.9799180327868875,91.8059972677596,80.96721311475409,6.033879781420765,20.8224043715847,7.1686216300943375,0.4514240437158468,458,13,101,6,12,151,77,122,0.108,0.7140000000000001,0.177,0.8505,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,1,7,10,1,0,4,0,12,7,1,0,1,19,23,8,0,2,1,0,2,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,7,8,5,2,3,0,1,1,1,3,0,1,5,2,14,8,12,15,3,20,0,0,0,0,0,6,0,2,15,64,21,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11839671321203846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2045350163961166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2573187653616761,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2721809944423652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1344959061330574,0.1900280706296379,0.0,0.29138634470088576,0.0,0.0,0.4824663347559753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0694861394293349,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13130831861737444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26419470687944924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2364300576667091,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09394065547519076,0.12995253451188454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2685808045315318,0.0,0.10615800012618244,0.0,0.09776907737433843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1276154870219652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10115122500329947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1269619574495903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13370005855193776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12244699567970975,0.0,0.0,0.08835818239780338,0.0852199612309447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2521337362529481,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10668323999855464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,tipsytoess,2019/02/08,"Was told it's perfectly healthy to be underweight today I was chatting with a guy on Tinder and he mentioned that a certain actress was hot. I told him yeah she's pretty but distractingly underweight. He said that there's actually no such thing as underweight, BMI is bullshit, skinny girls get bullied way worse than obese girls, just a bunch of nonsense. He tells me his ex had a BMI of 17 and she was extremely healthy. He tells me underweight doesnt necessarily mean unhealthy the way overweight does. He's met tons of girls that were 90 lbs or below and they were perfectly healthy. There's absolutely nothing wrong with being underweight. There's no reason to try to gain weight if you're underweight. And on and on and on. I eventually unfriended him and told him we wouldn't be a good match. I'm not about to speak to someone so triggering..it actually sounded like he had some sort of fetish for underweight girls.",3.0863793103448245,5.973583327586213,3.807597701149426,83.25967241379313,80.66666666666667,7.617931034482758,27.66551724137931,8.548686976883017,2.4665365517241384,745,33,137,18,20,236,105,174,0.16399999999999998,0.652,0.184,0.3079,0,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,1,0,1,3,7,7,0,1,6,1,14,4,1,1,3,23,22,12,0,2,5,1,2,1,0,1,2,3,0,5,5,10,4,0,2,2,0,0,5,2,0,0,13,5,13,5,20,5,3,8,0,0,0,0,30,5,0,4,2,80,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.3455366065517701,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15493140941216216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09249759288020816,0.0,0.0,0.1484951603848279,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17530027685042865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0864942039502406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19285158832700192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16987740951951472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18011624778573754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18202955775335306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16840831265356773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15000785000392616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30948654532742004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11761941662306305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16781594055177312,0.507516150506276,0.0,0.1202004879548076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2810567805365232,0.0,0.21559052115234975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18042181066217808,0.0,0.1935685866945518,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,captain-stardust,2019/02/08,"Does anyone else not count alcohol as breaking a fast? I know alcohol as bomb calories but I always feel like physical food is the shit that 'breaks' a fast you know? Alcohol is empty calories...

Hope y'all are having a good night (or day) of some sorts on this strange little planet

Peace ✌",2.4130952380952384,4.968523642857143,3.4321428571428565,87.07952380952383,80.42857142857143,6.590476190476192,23.619047619047624,7.793537801064563,1.4096404761904768,228,8,43,4,6,73,46,56,0.099,0.595,0.307,0.9541,0,0,3,0,0,0,7.0,0,2,0,0,0,4,1,0,4,0,4,5,1,0,0,9,8,4,0,1,3,0,1,1,0,0,3,0,0,0,2,0,4,0,3,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,4,3,4,8,1,8,0,0,0,0,2,2,1,4,5,22,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6730139922870068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1746681994337284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14677921639917715,0.21508531433582306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13537943951245426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1837002433569797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17535915861028686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1061406094698571,0.14996512394255962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2538331080948826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17606886301187447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20849547033166294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23073036713596776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1025551008340607,0.21039251036351228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1969933798192224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2154773258901088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,neuromolecule,2019/02/08,"I sure hope I can recover and still lose weight Hi, just last week I finally opened up about my disordered thoughts/behaviors surrounding food and body image and I'm going to start outpatient soon. Cool! Looking back, I can't believe I dealt with it in silence for so long and would've gone on for much longer if I hadn't gotten hospitalized. I'm glad it'll likely be over soon.

But I'm *still* overweight! I did lose quite a bit, to the point that I'm now almost in the healthy BMI range. I'm just worried that I might be stuck here if I quit what made me lose this weight. I can't imagine trying to do the whole ""eat healthy and exercise"" thing again without spiraling into restriction and purging.

Surely others here can relate, right? What's your experience? Thank you for reading - I'm beyond grateful for this open, supportive community.",3.170277777777777,5.667488543209879,3.800725308641976,85.84701388888892,77.14814814814815,7.2598765432098755,26.174382716049386,8.278499904357787,1.86857901234568,672,26,128,13,16,212,111,162,0.09,0.735,0.175,0.9174,0,0,0,0,0,0,22.0,0,2,0,5,14,11,0,0,4,1,11,7,1,1,2,24,27,10,0,3,6,0,2,1,0,2,2,1,0,0,10,10,5,1,1,2,0,2,4,3,0,0,6,5,14,8,17,17,3,26,0,3,1,0,3,12,0,5,13,78,24,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13396358018288113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10287027824586102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15072676253232628,0.0,0.0,0.14605554765529738,0.14860190030539636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15332602780699794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13689262173717884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13086469334027925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1465518955364242,0.0,0.0,0.16177000553127205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07603152525303675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13287594215720144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10905037446217708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06535924077715154,0.0,0.0,0.11839306511897192,0.1123433806605256,0.4490042911025927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1265879822956162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1419218063379489,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09834533343533902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1264674511373429,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28458774185639546,0.13381843501059146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1142492948457934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09469175212727107,0.0,0.2136773260005108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15181449107247666,0.2521763401436785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12316870468327927,0.0,0.0,0.08887897015108019,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09082935358638583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1073120366007867,0.3258214339858969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14936308398573425,0.0,0.12896129726968114,0.0,0.0,0.13586235017320647,0.0,0.09503505895642213,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,saffronkeys,2019/02/08,"Going to a work party tonight. Ugh, wish me luck. Drunk me doesn’t care about sober me and will probably eat everything in sight. But these things would be weird if I didn’t drink. Was also in charge for bringing chips and queso. And a dessert. So will have to ignore those things before I even get there. Buying them now. Send help. ",1.09357264957265,3.712358938461541,1.205128205128208,99.28598290598292,90.3846153846154,4.11965811965812,14.914529914529915,5.82211442006289,-0.8412905982905983,261,5,55,2,9,77,54,65,0.128,0.6779999999999999,0.194,0.7096,0,0,1,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,1,1,6,5,0,0,2,0,8,4,0,0,0,9,13,7,0,3,2,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,4,3,4,1,0,2,1,3,2,3,0,0,2,1,6,2,6,7,0,7,0,0,1,0,3,2,0,2,2,36,10,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23100800017003786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2458057801784573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2945206433123401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2829811138435938,0.0,0.2955845469253092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19079489102947048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25961634221307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15092184583195062,0.0,0.16417060071438022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19362243719917585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31144905352105057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.383822733320624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33218446869831125,0.0,0.0,0.21029967662244756,0.0,0.0,0.2052038633432414,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,nordic_alien,2019/02/08,Anyone have info on Russian rhythmic gymnasts? They’re athletes so I’m assuming they eat insanely healthy.... anyone know diets and exercise rituals outside of routine/choreograph training??? ,7.693965517241383,11.950488655172414,7.5823275862068975,53.61418103448278,76.24137931034483,9.796551724137933,52.07758620689656,9.516144504307137,8.021682758620692,157,13,13,5,4,50,27,29,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,4,3,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,3,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,6,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7692690638992296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5628776641062035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30231414551414404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,biochembiscuit,2019/02/08,"it’s about time that i tell my doctor i am currently sitting in my exam room waiting for a doctor to see me for my routine check-up. the doctor i usually see is currently out of town, and i’ve always been too scared to tell her about the bulimia i’ve been suffering from since i was 18 (i am 22 now). Since i am seeing a substitute doctor today, i spontaneously have the courage to open up about it... something about her being a stranger is more appealing to me. I hope opening up to her doesn’t make her take away the ritalin that i am prescribed  to treat my ADHD. Anyways, pls wish me luck, i am really trying hard to maintain my recovery because my ED is severely interfering with my ability to study for the MCAT and apply for medical schools. 

anyways, i’m super nervous, but other people’s success stories about telling their healthcare provider has been inspirational 

thanks for listening, hope everyone is having a great day, xx ",6.335749111223973,6.885837150837992,7.104966988318948,73.10700863382428,65.75977653631284,10.531437277805994,36.384459116302686,10.436869588844218,4.006973184357542,746,36,131,18,11,248,109,179,0.047,0.7509999999999999,0.202,0.9834,2,0,1,0,0,0,19.0,0,0,1,2,9,13,0,2,9,0,18,6,0,1,0,14,30,3,0,3,1,0,1,0,0,0,6,1,1,0,5,6,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,4,5,25,10,26,25,1,17,0,1,3,0,9,9,0,3,7,91,30,8,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16254182830838446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11253718086154267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12706995980124666,0.0,0.0,0.08244593307073728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08722377924968419,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5537282868192064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12923527183457506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1491114112078108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12115565374981625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2686635864982296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0902790985370358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.136248143743841,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09376394252888938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08664334000704127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1354068546819344,0.13687820915926388,0.3233254659412624,0.0,0.0,0.1527917572669133,0.0,0.22375710704746965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10412052761401702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10168967354929606,0.0,0.3546381725701777,0.12451819873232665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0788642037028411,0.0,0.12819930167984928,0.0,0.0,0.09182452254962883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14895657803264342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15552853963942576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,SpecialistBiscotti2,2019/02/08,"How do I make unsweetened peanut butter taste less like shit? Not sure what other sub to ask so I'll just ask here since I do have an ed lol

I was craving peanut butter the other day but I accidentally bought some organic unsweetened one and it's absolutely disgusting. It has that thick, sticky feeling like regular peanut butter but without the good taste that is supposed to come with it. And at 90 cals/tbsp, it's basically not even worth eating at this point.

Is there any way to make it taste better? I'm considering adding artificial sweetener but I'm not sure how that'll turn out... Do you guys have any idea on what I could mix/eat it with?

It was kinda expensive but I'm considering just throwing it out at this point -_- I tried putting it on a crepe and it was the worst thing I've ever eaten.",2.3805625,4.723122931250003,3.5762500000000053,87.23375000000001,79.0625,6.75,21.875,7.8658589789855275,0.9901875000000002,639,19,131,11,16,207,94,160,0.152,0.778,0.071,-0.9394,0,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,1,0,1,9,9,2,0,5,1,13,6,1,4,3,30,25,10,0,1,10,0,2,2,0,1,0,0,0,1,20,8,5,0,2,0,3,3,4,3,0,1,5,8,7,6,13,18,3,16,0,0,0,0,4,10,1,2,4,80,27,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23391356655338744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3215685024458668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15210816824222448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14815122413175238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13731730261091168,0.0,0.0,0.11091712663214152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3519704493956312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11359552492945828,0.1555717229327701,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08696159079826725,0.12286725888838874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14425419727689653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17029377020734224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1941519331431236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16804792732115129,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2296047772936699,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1165425688215552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3251658493048009,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17289403247702673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1765417697708058,0.14226908986700262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3241906636053928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11426025255749946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11676760951182925,0.1870720297735777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1365149549670693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16578894164872865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Teotalot,2019/02/08,"I haven't had an appetite in a week and a half I'm not quite sure when it started. Maybe when I got a (non-hormonal) IUD two Tuesdays ago? Maybe the day before? All I know is I didn't eat Tuesday, Wednesday, or Thursday, and I attributed it to feeling weird and crampy from the IUD. On Friday my psych doctor thought it would be good to start me on four new media at once, and I ate a salad with that because two of them should be taken with food, and then I spent all of Friday nauseous and almost of Saturday throwing up. I took the mess that one time that Friday but haven't taken them since, because I'm too scared they'll make me sick and because I don't want to eat. 

That Sunday I felt physically great. No nausea, no cramping, nothing. And that's when I realized my appetite was just... gone. There was no desire to eat, and I couldn't attribute it to any sock feelings. And I thought back and realized my previous days of no appetite were sort of the same, not really because of the cramping or anything (except the throwing up, that definitely killed it.)

And so I've spent the last week just... not eating. A couple potato oles a friend offered me, licking sugar scrub off my lips, drinking broth, I'm taking in small amounts of calories, but I'm not eating. But I feel fine! I'm not tired, I'm not cold, I'm not weak, I'm great.

I've gone from 153lb to 138. This is the lowest I've ever weighed as an adult and I'm on a cloud. Next Friday I have to see my psych doc again, so my weight loss will be discovered, but a huge part of me is pushing to see if I can keep not eating til then. 

The other part of my recognizes that my appetite just disappearing is probably not food. But I don't have a fever, I don't feeling bad, I'm HIV-, I don't know what it would be. So I should probably try to eat, and if I can't I should tell my doctor right away.

But this feels like a miracle. I've been wishing for this for so long. I wish on shooting stars and eyelashes and white  horses for this. I watched a short horror film about a family where one by one each member just stops eating for unexplained reasons despite feeling great, and I just dream about that being me. And now it is. And I don't want to throw it away. My weight is just flying off. My TDEE is in the 2000s (I haven't been recalculate as I've been getting smaller but I'd guess around 2100) so it's not even like it's all water weight. I might be able to break into the 120s if I keep going til Friday, and I would lose my mind if that happened I'd be so excited. 

Rational brain says something might be wrong. ED brain says I have been given the gift of a lifetime and I'm a fool if I waste it.",2.271294633951726,3.6709084254937214,3.621893476959908,91.14157350887692,76.0556552962298,6.459190105725115,23.68837023738281,7.03164865440522,0.6905429004588073,2071,63,460,21,45,679,249,557,0.108,0.754,0.138,0.9654,1,0,2,1,0,0,72.0,0,0,3,3,27,20,1,1,28,0,48,31,3,4,5,101,96,50,1,17,31,0,10,2,1,10,9,2,0,1,26,26,19,3,14,3,2,9,25,10,0,7,22,19,52,10,53,55,8,61,0,2,4,1,9,21,0,12,32,294,78,4,0.06729564664390521,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05965353036284951,0.0,0.06738686927785352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.045763347383908616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05537858322723229,0.059907393018689574,0.0,0.0,0.12645295051834618,0.05174619835679856,0.05618905400662266,0.1640912063140597,0.0,0.05726363873538405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15024839532236053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07446135302782515,0.0,0.08680024971075227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13775989180148998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06592411399077558,0.0,0.5508819751465395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04444813992794014,0.060872765137892276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06344034649669747,0.0,0.2041602057065869,0.04807602340871188,0.06461437414480188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16274832608880224,0.0,0.05199244966301197,0.0,0.03515919784605444,0.0,0.03824566681651682,0.05644439558457839,0.053822476195446826,0.2225810639982245,0.07413374175654938,0.0,0.059509318079919375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11963092557058255,0.07445266233192711,0.0,0.07396785492457711,0.0548549338450926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06575450743160245,0.0,0.0,0.05955452960935473,0.0,0.07528661503477338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04492036669406692,0.0,0.13521504440697876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14278009289265509,0.06794941927792597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06499455487440042,0.07156968365825901,0.0,0.0,0.06457198792845374,0.0,0.0,0.07166766738344651,0.1368038153728029,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14574925480491482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1451121781787114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07157720379067282,0.0,0.0,0.04311131444360127,0.06919113282405592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05747011453672875,0.0,0.10703239852142094,0.0673746821110254,0.0,0.10725183515690004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05566765431786257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051807476554306016,0.0,0.0,0.09526441012669702,0.0,0.0,0.05626217389389113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06342535055061604,0.0,0.050597951229657004,0.0,0.058819361342466576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10685045287717247,0.03924063273531585,0.07734644622763126,0.0,0.0,0.07476793954933961,0.04568932666894989,0.0,0.13147613666238225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07938543192131642,0.0,0.1079610170538206,0.24584390417854926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15477334499811493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14341468970820814,0.07357722535751647,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,cozyday,2019/02/08,"I physically can't purge and I wish I could OK so I'm a bit of a mess right now so this will be all over the place - my apologies.

I really can't purge. I've had my head in the toilet for 20 min and it just doesn't happen. No matter what I try.

I was doing so well these past few days. I had no problem restricting and was productive af. Today my mom and sis were in town and we had hamburgers (I prepared for this, only had 150kcal before, and they were pretty small). But they brought me a donut and I was sure I had enough self control but guess what??? I fucking ate that motherfucker. It was a huge one with tons of filling and I feel disgusting. I knew I was gonna regret that. I thought about throwing it away as I ate but still I finished. How fucking stupid.

I had 1.5L of water right away and tried to purge but I just can't. No matter how far in my throat I stick my fingers it just doesn't happen. Fingers, toothbrush, electric toothbrush, more water... Nothing helps. I feel terrible. Now my face is red and swollen and I'm pretty sure I'll get those red dots on my eyelids that will make me look sick af. If I managed to purge I'd at least feel a bit better - now I feel disgustingly full of food & water and I get all the downsides of purging without actually getting rid of the food.

I don't really know what's the point of this post. I guess I just needed to vent. I'll probably have a self care evening - smoke one, watch my 690lb life and sip on peppermint tea. Life is fun. ",0.5504134129536062,2.7629022958199383,2.2934350022967402,94.44622508038587,85.52733118971061,5.226311437758382,20.782820395039046,6.610729790773281,0.23934094625631586,1158,37,259,13,35,380,164,311,0.139,0.7390000000000001,0.122,-0.8166,0,0,1,0,0,0,42.0,1,0,2,2,16,16,5,0,11,1,27,19,5,4,4,50,54,24,0,6,10,2,6,0,0,3,4,0,0,2,15,15,8,2,7,0,0,3,10,9,1,2,18,10,40,7,25,31,10,31,0,1,4,2,9,18,2,3,9,164,55,1,0.0,0.0,0.10886058534079082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12086868263561253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20961725865891911,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09492421428952263,0.0,0.0,0.098660423370355,0.2435760915666885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1137367096826262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12511726582554206,0.0890667698403517,0.0,0.0,0.07194308365559951,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.115265073885841,0.0,0.07368034676922074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2256201613434443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2697830127823952,0.0,0.0,0.2062597001048745,0.17484703928835366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2457785549081605,0.0,0.19729361900123568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11448655914342612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07477227633382158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06130714591717248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15758773968966192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09367724134402997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0744631428983352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13065066438797596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08271585713992627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10703904527522697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1511837176593064,0.08484182292788077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10649088938036996,0.0,0.0,0.11655015824700275,0.0,0.10545456147662416,0.0,0.106837869322991,0.2269809888916021,0.12027405000499758,0.10674208602354136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14292866261810575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1905329660497784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2327502447441573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08908714656710585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2102765978556145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08856139349365116,0.0,0.0,0.10574012230014934,0.0,0.0,0.15147564951325704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10030041840306726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12828156305957064,0.10753404871156734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,isdrunknskinnyathing,2019/02/08,Well christ I mean come on and post your peach vents here please cause I'm going to so I was the same username on peach but recently changed because of personal security reasons and went to hurricanedisco so please for the love of god tell me about your day because I'm actually dying to know. Tell me everything. I need it. I love you guys,2.5472068230277185,5.066186492537317,3.641364605543711,86.00358208955225,79.59701492537313,7.410660980810236,25.989339019189767,8.418075326091056,1.9032533049040512,273,11,55,6,7,88,47,67,0.0,0.6970000000000001,0.303,0.9735,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,3,0,0,5,4,0,0,2,0,1,2,0,2,0,10,11,5,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,3,0,1,3,0,0,3,0,0,1,0,2,0,9,4,9,9,1,8,1,0,0,2,9,2,0,0,2,30,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.18605113331858536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23244223177119475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19585452501684325,0.20168701152903729,0.16423183195424124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1229562766602413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19786910416020376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17134782705084164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1083532548769737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1887777709259728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.104778639052052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34414597042576783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20767846815762606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1413677771079831,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16647201553686292,0.0,0.4185624251125024,0.0,0.0,0.18259415569610424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.196024414637053,0.18824815973324105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33328059263899296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1714211480472956,0.1767384829769918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,handzie,2019/02/08,"Why does everyone look good at my weight but me? I’m currently 5”7 and 140 pounds and I feel like a whale. I’ve been in recovery and it’s the weight I’ve been easily maintaining at. Now I am trying to lose weight the “right way” and having an awful time so here I am. 

Particularly I used to be able to wear a forever 21 XS and it was B L I S S. Now I am a MEDIUM. Yarf. Hit me with a carving knife and call me a ham. 

This took me to progress pics and seeing other people my weight looking just so good? Even people shorter than me looking fantastic and goals at my weight. Then look at my gag? Could my body get it the heck together? 

Anyway I’m eating at least 1100 calories and going to the gym 3 times a weeks, woo hoo. Taking vitamins and junk. Stay hydrated friends ",-0.24470899470899354,1.9958522716049387,2.2049911816578494,92.99388888888888,91.09876543209877,5.801763668430335,18.208112874779534,7.2636822038024595,0.3849520282186947,596,17,134,11,21,203,103,162,0.062,0.762,0.17600000000000002,0.9655,1,0,0,0,1,0,15.0,0,0,0,3,8,5,0,0,11,1,9,9,2,1,0,16,23,14,0,1,2,0,6,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,5,11,6,0,1,1,0,2,0,1,0,0,4,11,16,4,13,16,1,18,0,1,5,0,2,7,1,0,8,75,21,1,0.11738649717755426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13038993547276606,0.0,0.0,0.11986473821547218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0937235661700677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10272571473372273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1201156921837852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07753267428735268,0.0,0.0,0.11216782854097453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059354140042568074,0.08386093703857593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09069251652958203,0.0,0.06132959982627244,0.0,0.0667134515188931,0.19691644893579305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05734911309995066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3943003723374696,0.13132546403857814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16276203360903985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1002474272007076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09354184016948736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12511838722083735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08826003694769588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13689802100287207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.130420717573638,0.07969772613151314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10138424392896564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09317593756785043,0.09416036739147653,0.7147256472789943,0.0,0.0,0.10592305540109223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,cheapsexsadfilm,2019/02/08,"Did anyone else get a late start? Hi, new here. Anyway, did anyone not have any disordered eating issues until like later college (21+)? In middle school and high school all my friends were bulimic, but I rode my high horse and embraced my ""natural"" sub 95 lbs weight. In reality I was so afraid of my abusive father I never left my room long enough to eat enough to gain weight. Then I go to college and actually start enjoying life, and what do you know, I gain weight. Now I'm in grad school and probably over 125 lbs and I can't stand being alive in this body. I just feel like I have a late start to this mindset I guess?",2.02452380952381,4.107450579365082,3.301825396825397,90.09178571428572,78.92063492063492,6.422222222222223,20.81746031746032,7.492282038375204,0.6206793650793645,487,13,103,7,12,158,84,126,0.064,0.7759999999999999,0.16,0.9155,0,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,1,0,2,5,5,0,1,2,0,9,7,1,0,2,14,18,10,0,0,3,1,4,2,1,0,1,0,1,0,3,6,5,0,2,0,0,2,3,1,0,0,4,4,15,4,11,13,3,25,0,0,0,0,4,10,0,1,14,58,18,6,0.0,0.14715645927703244,0.12120109335812895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08446012619445599,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17368678248274874,0.12725737717758098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13795798418924332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14234373636222716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2541748134637545,0.10375299986297473,0.0,0.0,0.2566631979285288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0627991530471231,0.08872836529993842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09595646102673344,0.0,0.06488927180221439,0.0,0.07058561120137702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1368200872960398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2624478254336573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12963232799321844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06825696456220871,0.0,0.28020557894745396,0.0,0.13494345121934445,0.0,0.08772599509009991,0.12135550201207998,0.0,0.0,0.109912918826961,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0957905460661676,0.11995294532529242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13390839593211104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3770904992278897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26372778307636663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4537257075377114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,mariamazing,2019/02/08,Black coffee stopped suppressing my appetite? Did this happen to anyone? It kinda has no affect to my appetite anymore. I loved the feeling.,3.74625,6.9522811250000025,3.958333333333332,77.37,91.91666666666666,4.066666666666666,31.0,5.985473137389443,2.26945,113,6,14,1,4,35,21,24,0.134,0.665,0.202,0.4476,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,1,0,5,5,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,3,1,2,4,0,1,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,1,1,11,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.49440718876393297,0.3485833357459027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2520714350081061,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4408478866733961,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.44994223174310544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4167928865772449,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,minifries,2019/02/08,On a whim last night I threw out my scale and measuring tape and deleted my calorie counting app This morning I'm freaking out a little bit.... really hope I made the right choice. ,3.5124761904761925,5.518538914285713,4.131428571428572,86.22190476190477,74.14285714285714,6.9523809523809526,28.809523809523807,7.793537801064563,1.8822380952380957,142,6,27,2,3,45,29,35,0.083,0.83,0.087,0.0334,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,1,0,6,4,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,2,0,4,1,3,2,1,8,0,0,0,0,0,5,0,1,2,13,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4198050140796551,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3819230947652961,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31344166463659473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38539810263335705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3638497170634437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3608535051104523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24633850078160166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3283848344091939,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,specialwondergirl,2019/02/08,"Cooking recipes for myself and bf? So my bf is aware and understanding of my food issues to a certain extent, and i try to be mindful of him aswell and eat similar meals with him in the time we spend together.

I have a hard time cooking up meals that can be a low cal for me and a higher more balanced meal for him when we eat together. 
I am vegetarian and fearful of high carb foods, and he likes to have carbs/balance in his meals.
Ive realised i often essentially resort back to making stir fry veggies and tofu where i eat just that and in his plate i add a serving of rice or potatoes, or buddha bowls where i put lettuce instead of rice under the toppings in my bowl, but there are only so many ways to mix this up before it gets repetitive to him. 
I was wondering if any of you had ideas for new type of meals i could make for us that would fit our differences without having to resort to eating two entirely different meals nor me having to have a tiny-sized portion next to his? 
Thank you!!",9.545346534653463,5.935554896039605,9.445618811881186,72.31516089108912,61.92079207920793,12.278217821782178,39.11138613861386,9.827888789773867,3.6244237623762383,787,28,159,11,8,260,125,202,0.038,0.906,0.056,0.6751,1,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,4,2,0,1,10,5,0,1,8,0,16,14,0,2,1,29,22,17,0,3,6,0,1,1,2,1,0,0,0,0,5,13,14,0,3,2,1,1,2,2,0,1,2,1,29,3,31,16,3,22,0,1,0,0,16,13,0,5,8,114,34,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09401553588907503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10630661537769004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11764156230753656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11038230900438717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2888860931005125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5658618421261402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15557100146042874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3343477251331661,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07223052979924956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12384589230412266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14606995077333507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15606874203411866,0.0,0.14429830186105935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06754253793373054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1845674579548537,0.14016498618748655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13959426991155635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1335238407087597,0.1470316868671355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1051462440111756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13898061027290526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1272831019669229,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16123073709133054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09386346884019074,0.0,0.13505130362563314,0.14392434282421834,0.16629913412741673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10973734304694696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13326919360216213,0.14992749559493035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09820966397826332,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,blondebynature,2019/02/08,"Peach no sugar Coke! PSA for fellow Aussies, Coles has peach no sugar Coke! Not sure if I’m late to the party but it’s the first time I’ve seen it and new flavours make me so very happy. ",-1.3560162601625976,0.6639451463414652,0.3140243902439046,104.98209349593495,97.53658536585364,2.7333333333333334,11.711382113821138,3.1291,-1.9710032520325207,145,2,36,0,6,46,34,41,0.102,0.7170000000000001,0.181,0.7691,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,2,0,1,4,0,1,1,6,4,4,0,1,3,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,4,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,1,1,4,1,2,2,3,0,4,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,4,16,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3357925495716472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4202417443412891,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4453195973458689,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2635131306450739,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38127290336876135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3720675924059542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2301945140163429,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3257279412596972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,the_magic_panda32,2019/02/08,Peach?? Newbie.. please explain ? What is peach? Why is it so great and why does everyone seem to use it? Am I missing out on something awesome?? I feel like I am.. please explain to someone out of the loop.. thank you in advance!,-0.2681818181818194,1.804562636363638,1.036818181818184,97.42522727272728,104.45454545454544,3.1090909090909093,23.681818181818183,5.148860815047168,0.2414181818181822,172,8,35,1,8,54,33,44,0.039,0.603,0.358,0.9583,0,0,1,0,0,0,14.0,0,1,0,1,1,4,0,0,1,0,4,0,0,1,0,8,11,2,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,0,4,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,4,3,7,11,0,5,0,1,0,0,3,4,0,1,1,21,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22079596196997295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2410905942001416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12757423476263394,0.18024850265711745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2781698697251088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12326468234220585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5539156578086554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22969123917167156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2137792954335847,0.1942386123737762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2322908142255053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21791263974088226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.455336484593089,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,squishysponges,2019/02/08,"really thought I’d get my shit together this month....... well that was a lie I knew January would be tough. But it ended up being really terrible. I quit my job for a new, better paying one and ended up getting fired just a few days in (it’s a whole thing. The guy was a shithead who didn’t want to legally pay overtime, etc I posted about it in the advice sub) 

So I was like okay! Well February can be a fresh start.... NOPE. A bitch kept binging :-) since fucking NOVEMBER. I have no fucking impulse control and I want to die :-)",0.8046855345911972,3.0932798773584937,2.9946226415094337,89.3257704402516,85.13207547169812,6.174842767295598,22.98427672955975,7.492282038375204,1.154669182389937,401,15,83,7,12,136,78,106,0.196,0.589,0.215,-0.4998,1,0,0,0,0,1,27.0,0,0,0,3,5,11,4,0,9,1,10,3,1,1,0,11,20,4,1,3,2,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,7,2,0,2,2,0,2,0,3,6,2,1,7,1,8,5,8,9,3,11,0,0,0,2,2,4,4,0,7,55,15,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17553573528716065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1588711950546317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20147419669034788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11584871913001307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18643116801352366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31820384992701595,0.0,0.20033878863617044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33213647304414,0.1877021344835862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1778653644695527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17825848828328986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0877598335069358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14338171166105307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1734911122425475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12172427948729575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17203919663631054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1910622931544444,0.0,0.0,0.23015558480282874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1843911623199848,0.14859465200128005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12714548550989932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11934048697599713,0.0,0.0,0.1426088996924727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21190493429025545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32302410210339505,0.0,0.0,0.2005543397813284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12760645399438367,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Ashtrashbdash,2019/02/08,"Hey guys. Trying really hard not to B/P rn. I have this weird habit I’ve created where I get off work (usually on Thursday or Saturday nights), go to several bodegas and get a bunch of junk- like really horrible shit I would not normally eat. And then sit at my desk and B/P it all until I sink into this horrible depression. 


I’m trying really hard to break this habit right now. I am on the bus on the way home and I just need to get into my fucking house, change clothes and take my dog for a walk WITHOUT ANY MONEY. 


I realize this is kind of a shit post and I’m sorry. I just really really am trying to recover. I want to break this cycle. 


I have to believe that giving up my insane restrictive food rules and gaining this trivial amount of weight has been for something. That there can be real change. 



I don’t post/contribute a lot here, but you better believe this community is my freaking lifeline sometimes. Thank you for being here. ",2.30653073286052,4.479189877659579,4.23758865248227,83.2838888888889,78.41489361702128,8.007565011820331,24.274231678487002,8.841846274778883,2.0130132387706854,739,26,144,18,18,251,115,188,0.129,0.79,0.081,-0.7017,0,0,1,0,0,0,22.0,0,2,0,3,7,10,3,0,6,0,13,6,2,0,1,25,25,11,0,4,7,0,3,1,0,1,0,0,1,1,10,9,3,1,1,0,1,2,4,6,0,0,1,3,18,4,23,21,4,24,0,1,0,1,5,10,3,2,8,92,28,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08432450078506089,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27941189851512666,0.0,0.10966824662072927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2623518899587699,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10680133322132593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12688333076912905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14994173433069374,0.0,0.0,0.11463633991365894,0.19435521935273967,0.11895244975218693,0.07047226537953265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12277985728769228,0.0,0.0,0.2221599429087358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12438247710304967,0.0,0.0,0.14307977333422986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1291272991177791,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060580315148527526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10542067656726274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.091944699914922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11636594313267515,0.12149403055113313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2375161468213932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14113956322672647,0.3971890471808806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.105895634725224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1400851178659682,0.2545691867809925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09546153957504667,0.1226395322934838,0.1388082572681629,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0932328429211,0.0,0.0,0.11416287670155165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2525643260037926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1365688841065038,0.0,0.07313862838981539,0.09842571849859627,0.0,0.15099903944960588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1195319275081198,0.0,0.0902737430190134,0.0,0.0,0.08808630200232652,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Gingyshae,2019/02/08,"I kind of hate recovery😅 while some things are getting better, after a week of trying recovery i feel as though i liked my life better when i was fasting. i feel gross and dont know what i look like and uhhhh i really wanna hop back on my bullshit tomorrow. :/",5.53238993710692,5.156323622641511,7.107547169811323,75.57125786163523,67.49056603773586,10.840251572327047,28.9874213836478,10.504223727775694,2.9047157232704413,204,6,40,5,3,71,41,53,0.21600000000000005,0.599,0.185,-0.4404,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,2,3,7,1,0,1,0,3,1,0,0,0,7,9,6,0,1,0,0,2,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,3,9,5,6,8,1,8,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,9,28,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20676169895761576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4756270475150461,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31513995282954954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27192020755075896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14048520879760554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2654756287990964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28001011197607983,0.14777626026750112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18992669196188816,0.2627345409403023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22580193859781866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1722593910608291,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17864019795999675,0.0,0.2641854702669041,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1825603253240812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21568930680979506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ZeenyxThePhoenix,2019/02/09,"Binged at a social event cause I was gonna purge right after I left on the side of the road somewhere, but I was too fucking cold. God I suck. Now it’s been an hour so there goes that chance.",0.4171428571428599,2.100834761904768,1.4288095238095266,103.52035714285715,82.33333333333333,4.2,15.261904761904766,3.1291,-1.4603523809523808,148,2,38,0,4,46,37,42,0.102,0.765,0.133,0.0828,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,4,2,2,0,4,0,3,1,0,1,0,2,6,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,3,1,4,0,4,2,0,10,0,0,0,1,1,6,2,0,4,22,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4255010191414363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3829243957008806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40790694261189175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4500332375226012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3537274651742963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4222282339707118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,spookiestghosts,2019/02/09,"Was this the right choice? I just want to give a heads up that this will probably end up being fairly wrong. Plus ignore any grammar/spelling mistakes, I’m on mobile.
Just for some context, last year I asked the person who I like out and eventually I asked them to be my s/o, to which they agreed. It was great to have someone who had similar interests as you along with someone to talk to about more serious topics. We would basically go to each other with our problems or with anything that happened with our lives. Now granted I struggle with anxiety, depression, and am eating disorder while my s/o struggles with similar issues. But as time went on, I started to get worse. I tried to open up about me falling down the rabbit hole of sh and relapsing in my eating disorder again with the addition of accidentally dragging my s/o down with me. My s/o tried to offer their best advice for my problems, but there’s only so much they could do. Plus with all my problems, I am almost certain added to their issues they have. I realize that I need a good amount of help but the issue of me being a minor, not having insurance or the money to pay for what I need goes into account. So today my s/o asked to take some space apart, since currently it isn’t good for any of us. They still care for me, but currently it didn’t seem like our relationship was going very good. I was at first taken slightly by surprise since I thought everything was good, but then I realized I was quite oblivious to what my s/o is going through. I really care for them, but I’m thinking some time apart until our issues get sorted out would probably be the best thing. 
So my question is was this the best choice? 
And my next thing is what should I do regarding my mental issues?",6.515263157894736,6.093864971098268,7.029446303620322,77.09987070276848,65.47398843930635,10.174383936720414,32.37237602677213,9.682069395223575,2.8813317919075145,1384,49,267,25,19,455,179,346,0.085,0.752,0.162,0.9894,2,0,0,0,0,0,38.0,6,1,8,5,11,25,0,2,11,0,29,3,1,0,2,59,53,22,0,11,11,0,0,2,0,4,0,0,0,1,18,23,2,1,6,0,3,5,3,10,0,1,12,0,48,15,56,32,11,39,0,1,0,0,27,17,0,9,19,197,66,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0822016543432297,0.0,0.0,0.08423460674895453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.114409754057716,0.0,0.06435201121463148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06922406739547447,0.0,0.2359241523672553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.264838067440751,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17153306934214022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06716343584115153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07245292977206001,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1928189383871388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17215270214670145,0.0,0.0,0.0745058629788265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07560215054935926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07155291988742424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08789905914636137,0.08069612268088032,0.1434229875344397,0.2822253959088116,0.0,0.09274323319749044,0.0,0.0,0.07438754849541407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08633198086656177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056384249628061385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4390001362739742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06856949774041313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08219412972925501,0.0,0.07428001071810332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08477375632124602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06183830318816154,0.12474868402707888,0.0,0.0,0.08946318804696005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06397748948431563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07345084322043269,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18139241953751334,0.2414760945875734,0.0,0.0,0.09423429822305283,0.08947258832632259,0.0,0.0,0.053889795705062464,0.0,0.0,0.09031401853196996,0.0,0.07183851319547341,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07658021402163402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1391708212698632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14255018394900246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05954097742029017,0.0,0.06717880151549292,0.0,0.0,0.17588218338953915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06324820502580705,0.06761293342248009,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11177194710245604,0.05390106914996537,0.0,0.06678234183832538,0.0981027699449987,0.0,0.07973647110669209,0.0,0.0,0.11422470002915988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10118669672838504,0.0,0.0,0.06940828590682542,0.04961649584814331,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07798061771700927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08572605466191413,0.11951368883437614,0.09197264556266417,0.0,0.05417089363518197
EDAnonymous,yeeeahhimbitchehh,2019/02/09,"Is this en eating disorder or am I just severely stressed? So I've never felt like I have an actual eating disorder. I've struggled with my weight since having children, and binge and purge from time to time. It's never been a habit though. 

But now, I dont know what is going on with me. I just dont eat. I've lost about 25 pounds in the last couple months but wasnt actually trying to lose weight, even though I needed to. 

My problem is I will go days (like up to 4 or 5 days a week) without eating. When I do finally eat, it's one thing. Like I'll have a sandwich or a bowl of pasta and that's it. The cycle will start again. I still drink, but not much. I'm writing this post now because its Saturday and I've just realized I've not eaten a meal since Monday evening. I have no appetite and have to force myself to eat. I don't have hunger pains. Everyone keeps asking how I've lost weight and all I say is I dont eat and laugh. 

I dont know what's wrong with me. I know it isnt healthy. I can barely sleep at night then can barely stay awake all day. I only go to the bathroom, like #2, once a week IF that. I've had an almost constant headache. 

I just dont know what to do. I dont know if I have an eating disorder. I feel like I'm being overdramatic about it all. ",0.6357357859531767,2.3323278913043524,2.744202898550725,94.2951672240803,81.68115942028984,5.840356744704571,19.31103678929766,6.8449194561589275,0.038370568561872716,982,24,233,11,26,332,137,276,0.141,0.7979999999999999,0.061,-0.9558,0,0,1,0,0,0,34.0,0,0,0,3,17,14,0,2,12,0,30,19,1,1,5,44,49,21,0,4,15,0,5,5,0,2,1,1,0,1,14,10,17,1,8,1,0,3,15,8,0,1,7,6,25,6,20,39,4,32,0,3,0,0,4,4,0,6,28,142,39,0,0.0,0.0,0.1329525479211833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06821334609336559,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06368394368351953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0415259321553666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07361460559112598,0.0,0.0,0.07537459595762219,0.0,0.1317972374580102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2342177191511696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4790238606319499,0.06673265061490477,0.0,0.5576383534353843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08998656220722707,0.0,0.0,0.06509253919994397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03444402675575109,0.04866565932970241,0.06540684725939798,0.07462323086034042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11614421036698933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0605490788996908,0.0,0.0,0.1871876131739308,0.05552771077515718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16640240972378756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07620997951974541,0.14872424720432914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05437353599545037,0.0,0.05007677651742453,0.05051086178624948,0.10507823661810464,0.0,0.0,0.06392694821604616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07254664671798157,0.046160555732998335,0.051809093682656085,0.07248555183035874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06524109206511683,0.0,0.0,0.06518260150276013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05417255707073024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07695734537592447,0.0,0.11270079797098274,0.0,0.06817020081999861,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04821639770471094,0.07260792716363453,0.05440152230509115,0.0,0.07803238066414853,0.07121486471091253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0452565685618507,0.0,0.13385708238921987,0.0,0.07944381124636847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04624969057386058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10928512186133403,0.2488590952568105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06566621757418734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07447962476498797,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,luckyskunk,2019/02/09,"cleaning blues im trying to go through my old shit and donate more of it because lately i've been holding on to too much /stuff/, but now i'm remembering why i avoided going through these clothes. 

god, these jeans are so much smaller than the ones i can fit in now. i remember them being a little loose, even. i didn't even realize how much of a difference there was. i didn't have a solid image in my head, just a vague concept, but now this is slapping me in the face hard and i wanna cry. these are jeans ive held on to for when i 'get back to that weight'. UGH. ive gained so much. ive been losing lately and not feeling too bad about stuff but this has me feeling so defeated. it seems so far out of reach. i need to get rid of these jeans but donating them feels like giving up. 

sorry, just had to rant. ",1.2817941176470595,3.1353721647058816,2.7831617647058806,94.0329779411765,80.29411764705883,5.661764705882352,21.801470588235293,6.6274283507984215,0.302617647058824,628,19,142,6,16,205,106,170,0.204,0.687,0.11,-0.9403,0,1,0,0,0,0,20.0,0,0,2,3,18,7,1,1,6,0,16,4,3,1,0,24,28,13,0,2,7,0,5,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,11,4,1,3,7,0,2,2,3,6,0,1,7,6,17,1,23,20,5,20,0,2,1,0,3,10,1,1,9,101,28,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10934663688962327,0.1187349849986878,0.08668666551059963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15620518604870415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1485736452641921,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18784972699278815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2157089079933921,0.10159106643007668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14859217342670095,0.13641570652415874,0.1616364167721601,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12738747977195314,0.0,0.14594304873996827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15360547895742238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3208261922633286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06947403361308786,0.14252646838685604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1590906852730106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4181472685139012,0.1054429835297717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14921991173854035,0.0,0.09636158532548884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3221804089672516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12945781847344798,0.0,0.0,0.14597108149666824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1591865197065898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3255807197247821,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0965476570578766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17316701500389742,0.0,0.0,0.12831762364852994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,w_alnutcreek,2019/02/09,"Toxic drinking habits Not that I’m too far down this road or anything, but I just realized that I deprive myself of calories and nutrients constantly—but I just, without hesitation, grabbed some alcohol from my secret stash to chug before going to bed because I’m hurting so fucking much. lol. ",6.34556603773585,8.370052943396228,6.720896226415096,70.47681603773587,66.73584905660377,9.073584905660377,39.66509433962264,9.516144504307137,4.432475471698113,238,14,35,5,4,77,44,53,0.134,0.7490000000000001,0.117,-0.242,0,0,2,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,4,3,1,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,0,10,4,4,0,0,6,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,3,1,2,0,2,1,0,1,2,3,0,0,0,1,5,0,6,4,2,4,0,2,0,1,1,3,1,2,0,24,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3859358616492322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2971774627766914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22014019461407594,0.0,0.3072932147598568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3537678248501338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3338568920218427,0.0,0.0,0.20523728785365689,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3865948484675572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2654705326528534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34811437494687675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,pdxfonix,2019/02/09,"restricting the second time around is so much harder so back in november i decided to try recovering and getting back to a healthy weight and all that fun jazz and it was literally just me binging for 3 months straight and 0 actual recovery. now im sitting like 10-20 lbs heavier than i was back in september (my lowest) and restricting again and NONE OF IT IS COMING OFF!!!! 

i know the body loves to hold onto fat especially after being deprived for so long but its all sitting in the worst places and it wont fucking budge and im so frustrated!!!! this sucks!!!! :( ",3.2056880733944944,5.435719339449546,4.6830183486238495,80.90177522935781,75.78899082568806,8.396697247706422,28.33119266055045,9.120678840339163,2.6410579816513766,444,19,84,11,10,148,78,109,0.142,0.7759999999999999,0.08199999999999999,-0.872,1,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,0,0,0,11,8,3,0,4,0,6,5,2,0,2,19,12,13,0,0,2,0,1,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,6,10,2,3,2,1,0,1,2,5,0,1,2,1,5,3,14,8,5,20,0,1,0,2,1,8,2,0,10,60,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.21032102795636815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19186268653050514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4971755972444896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23939936716357996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18565545451758367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19924912224302704,0.11260276595406275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4656073438440279,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11844674461381235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10529448713768512,0.0,0.0,0.19073258691705386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1945194661702148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17202976795849173,0.0,0.15843546105080625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2251774507205578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1256741920885422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14632713123970845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2624510350952803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Chibi-Bunny,2019/02/09,"I'm going to die I don't know why I'm posting this. I'm 19, in college. Been AN for like 6 years. I've been restricting under 100 a day everyday since the semester started. Today I just can't. I didn't drink the electrolyte water I'm supposed to take, I didn't take any of my vitamins. I don't know if I can bring myself to eat anything.
My everything hurts, my head and legs and chest. I've had heart problems in the past. It's harder to breathe. My BMI is 11.6. I just want to get smaller.
I feel like this is it, this is how I'll die. Too afraid to eat a goddamn apple or sip on my stupid propel. 
I love you mom. I'm so sorry I'm hurting you so much. I love my friends, and I wish I could be ok for you. I'm sorry to my dietitian and my doctors, I'm sorry to everyone I'm letting down. 
Please don't miss me.",-1.1709440559440552,0.7498938736263767,1.8352647352647369,96.63928071928072,91.03296703296705,4.847552447552449,19.811188811188813,6.351523495107088,0.017980219780219908,623,21,152,7,22,219,102,182,0.168,0.6890000000000001,0.14300000000000002,-0.6644,0,0,1,0,0,0,26.0,0,3,0,0,6,12,1,1,6,1,16,13,5,1,0,17,39,9,2,5,4,1,1,2,1,0,2,0,0,0,5,4,4,1,3,1,0,2,6,6,0,0,5,1,25,6,16,31,1,14,0,3,0,2,7,5,0,2,8,81,30,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09231198574617533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11170745318584753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10838219491154308,0.0,0.0,0.08754498820688171,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2817659880524442,0.0,0.0,0.1389418595376322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13297947416288727,0.0,0.2778042469825605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12971119167267667,0.12199981900794896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06863729409557091,0.09697702290891194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10487708060202597,0.0,0.07092172133267427,0.0,0.07714762253734704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1393146354142635,0.0,0.0,0.16085975214434886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2906379611264832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1492049852077394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13880955848715545,0.0,0.1326373506258675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2450322646449481,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1589841620887539,0.0,0.0,0.0997889840685004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12958498831623572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14900842626998068,0.0,0.0,0.13000721590840011,0.0,0.0,0.1298906606066997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11229055577609373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.455869850888943,0.09608177037357228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2041283087757748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12867140647008266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08006655193399702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12248971849060683,0.0,0.15610128666393872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08741602151484124
EDAnonymous,runner_618,2019/02/09,Anyone here in their late 20s or 30s? Just wondering...I feel guilty and shameful for still having my ED at my age and it would be super helpful to talk to others who are currently struggling. ,4.085855855855858,5.955290918918923,4.528108108108111,84.56531531531532,72.24324324324324,7.095495495495496,25.84684684684685,7.793537801064563,1.511187387387387,152,5,28,2,3,48,34,37,0.189,0.667,0.14400000000000002,-0.2732,1,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,1,1,3,3,0,2,0,0,4,0,0,0,0,6,5,3,0,1,2,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,3,1,5,3,0,6,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,1,4,21,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30236690532072064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21865089895953269,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2898504342925951,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4878027708778459,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3453412065065581,0.0,0.0,0.4520724100797133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3475729170039145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3071876884153281,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,heavensdoor90,2019/02/09,"Just a whole lot of... ugh... icky feelings. I’m just venting. Ugh, going through a really tough time lately. I got into a fight with my boyfriend a couple of days ago and literally can’t bring myself to eat anything without feeling incredibly nauseous. Skipping meals and seeing the number on the scale go down just makes me feel like I’m actually accomplishing something, feel way more in control of things and generally just less shitty. I’ve gotten rid of all laxatives/cleanse pills, and that’s helped a lot over the past few months, but many days I struggle to not feel like a failure when I eat food that isn’t healthy. I weigh a lot less than many people I know, but I’m petite in height anyway, so I really struggle to ever feel like I’ve reached an acceptable weight. I wish I wasn’t so obsessed with this, then again I’m terrified of gaining weight. It’s such a catch 22. 

The first therapist I saw wouldn’t prescribe me Wellbutrin, because she said it’s unsafe for people with an active eating disorder. She then prescribed me Prozac, which would help me “feel well and not worry about gaining weight.” 

So I stopped seeing her, of course, did not take the Prozac, and went to another doctor who WOULD give me the Wellbutrin (that would help my depression and that I felt comfortable taking without affecting my weight). However, now I’m afraid of telling him about my eating disorder because he might change my prescription. ",7.085522388059701,7.575736171641793,6.573097014925374,77.77031716417912,64.14925373134328,9.53582089552239,33.91417910447761,9.354420925462401,3.0223164179104485,1146,46,205,19,16,355,156,268,0.127,0.6940000000000001,0.18,0.9485,1,0,1,0,1,0,35.0,0,0,0,5,16,15,1,4,16,0,9,15,0,3,2,48,38,15,0,5,11,0,12,3,0,5,4,1,0,0,10,11,11,2,10,0,0,5,9,9,1,1,8,16,26,6,27,25,9,28,0,1,3,0,13,7,0,4,18,126,36,2,0.0,0.0,0.08393479470855522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07624398514395184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0901905336089873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07078011730718481,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10486359667535933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09098873845118736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09646918568999782,0.0,0.09517006385908164,0.0,0.1109405748357754,0.0,0.07408155951337363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1971532097372935,0.08803639181166055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3520448569738035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07780230562406279,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3044299115614803,0.1843398500771824,0.08258450677464138,0.0,0.0,0.0731613187992848,0.10400541997297592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08251004664255089,0.09776460956600956,0.0,0.06879123583290851,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17295504091743158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.047269658624526464,0.0,0.09702469298544904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12606258985684005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21937164704321369,0.0,0.0,0.057413329103087586,0.17440427624419724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09124458531744516,0.0,0.0,0.06865354072133896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08210768764921912,0.11925905724913036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11020230983751486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08181661150668018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13708002320440785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06621583749906765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07190944650618268,0.0,0.17983574269675495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1293398535980324,0.0,0.07517782242045896,0.0,0.0,0.09986595467983783,0.05714220375384565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0501539842003037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06827190731308548,0.0,0.4189552317391701,0.07733464781113115,0.07973350132930047,0.0,0.09602874295131396,0.09890895429774127,0.16582398991387995,0.0,0.0,0.08734883046998647,0.0,0.1833002574202512,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,shapay199,2019/02/09,"Celebrating that you were born when you want to die is wack. Happy birthday to my depressed ass.

Can any day be more shit than everyone applauding you for wasting another year to a stupid illness and gorging yourself on irresistible foods in ungodly quantities? And despite not even making any big deal out of it being sad that certain friends forgot about it?

I used to be a birthday person. Sometime last year I decided I never wanted to turn 20. Yet here I fucking am, and I don’t know how to feel about it honestly.",5.515408163265307,6.985187887755108,6.125102040816326,76.08418367346937,68.08163265306122,9.273469387755103,35.42857142857143,9.606745405546679,3.6530448979591847,415,21,71,9,7,135,76,98,0.218,0.6,0.182,-0.7545,0,0,0,0,0,1,8.0,0,3,0,0,7,9,3,0,2,0,8,5,2,3,2,16,17,5,1,2,1,0,1,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,5,4,1,1,3,0,0,0,3,5,0,0,2,1,9,4,14,12,1,12,0,2,0,2,6,4,3,0,8,49,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2921028429874547,0.2252057753810354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13850931565293975,0.22141913187952225,0.18498166474960454,0.0,0.2228980492132307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1418540030467785,0.0,0.0,0.20522258051657896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10859450470175257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2597015486169632,0.0,0.16593128812281827,0.19855202513329545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22862737357135196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11803234437757598,0.1750667624203822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1433610910200777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16564438213617638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18752946635730688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22045900806834698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21241368589237425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2336088177588624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18549290320998016,0.0,0.0,0.2533546132614986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2766105419652461
EDAnonymous,PursuingPeace,2019/02/09,"Does anyone else think they thought themselves into an ED? If there was ever a tally of how many times I've thought about the perfect way to eat, the perfect time to eat, the perfect exercise routine, the perfect this, the perfect that, I wouldn't be surprised if in total that figure clocked over a million times... Seriously. If you consider the 6 years I've been at this. I've gone over and over things concerning food and eating to the point where I used my own ability to think to create the obsession with food purely because I decided to constantly think about it a million different ways there by keeping it firmly locked in my mind. You'll probably become obsessed with anything you do a million times. I've turned food into something it never was at the beginning. Before dieting food never crossed my mind until it was time to eat. Anyone remember those days? Yeah I would emotionally eat on the occasion but before dieting it was just as effective as taking a walk or calling a friend. I never felt shame or guilt afterwards. I felt good. The shame & guilt only came in after dieting because I knew eating more = diet ruined. There was no wrong before trying to lose weight. And I'm also beginning to think having an ED is synonymous with being a perfectionist. Whatever a perfectionist is defined as. Maybe there should be a dark side of perfection called an obsessioner. 

If I thought my way here would it be farfetched to say I could also think my way out of it? Not in the sense of thinking about not wanting to think about food but to proactively and repeatedly choose to think otherwise instead of further engage in the thoughts that come up to dwell on food or binge eating. If I eat a satisfying breakfast and immediately I have a thought to eat something else because that's what I always do, technically that thought is a lie, I don't need that extra food no matter what my mind says. I don't have to accept the lie. What's going to happen if I don't accept it? It's like the build up of lies I've believed as facts so I crumble at any temptation or desire to engage in more disordered thinking and eating. 

When I think about it, my obsession with food is much more unhealthy than the food choices I'm making. I must be lying to myself when I say I want to be normal around food but I ""just can't"". The truth is, I can but I just don't want to abandon this disordered way of eating/thinking which has become my sole refuge, my identity, my enjoyment because I lack the bravery needed to experience life without it. ",6.570596898675916,6.910544782340863,7.023786730864548,74.61587268993844,65.24229979466119,9.920526800254905,34.0415634072081,9.753983421225431,3.2955584365927897,2027,84,361,39,29,663,218,487,0.108,0.7340000000000001,0.159,0.9773,1,0,2,0,0,0,45.0,0,3,1,8,23,29,0,8,33,1,36,28,0,4,15,99,74,31,0,20,20,0,3,1,1,6,2,3,0,0,26,16,26,2,26,1,0,6,14,13,0,3,17,6,39,16,67,44,8,56,0,3,0,0,10,24,0,10,22,255,65,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07531011329208445,0.039179739612920345,0.05101820254625378,0.0,0.032020434331481086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06584795054568789,0.04824568317278607,0.038748177066731865,0.04191696748126602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1148139722401596,0.10400667862021054,0.1202014289946428,0.0530503605982991,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09616116117135796,0.05385441145252577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.040560850004025685,0.0,0.05088377818460088,0.0,0.03759473839517787,0.0,0.0,0.030366896814857932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04919537013710736,0.10793041564229952,0.0,0.04120571303127982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4818124415593664,0.07866945666544885,0.05296597427887012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04259243455951655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04605963171138045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09042084735702162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5693718211178492,0.0,0.0363789127181002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.026760342780182925,0.03949392178491832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04163843601089588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04185264425820907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.033258587116943746,0.023004085229491395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05267774869126194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03143060405540137,0.04773831998452616,0.04730471761320894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1426318249579893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03461399498171902,0.06982808551118229,0.1089480336375499,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0461347721090657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03581140467607518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.044511961738346935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050767210417210884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05333982498001125,0.0,0.0,0.11233522297151144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07249897552162919,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03540318764414513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.031282178008096136,0.3318824037794278,0.0,0.22428852598611831,0.13728258261859155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03196864232809851,0.05121659023786941,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.040667617373693565,0.0,0.0,0.08331851213991118,0.18687535807336172,0.0,0.057338671226019475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04538970524172009,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06689779654807526,0.051481695451354885,0.0,0.03032216189273433
EDAnonymous,rsmason03,2019/02/09,"When giving your body what it needs feels wrong Yesterday was the 1st day in weeks that I've gone over my calorie limit. I've just been so frustrated about my weight and so HUNGRY. 

We got Mexican last night, so I went over my limit by about 600 calories. Then today we had Panera for this first time in ages. I got the Green Goddess Cobb salad (half) and Turkey Chili (half). My side was a sprouted grain roll and my drink was the plum ginger unsweetened iced tea that I cant remember the name of. This plus my small breakfast left me with only 264 calories left for today.

Honestly, I've felt the best physically in a long time. I feel like my body has what it needs right now and I have been beating myself up for this. 

It's just crazy to me that me doing what's natural is something that I keep telling myself is wrong. ",3.413608391608392,4.959855442424246,3.877575757575759,89.86867132867134,73.36363636363636,6.773892773892776,22.995337995338,7.321109707123232,0.7289114219114219,648,17,135,7,13,203,104,165,0.093,0.8220000000000001,0.085,-0.3327,0,0,2,0,0,0,16.0,2,1,0,5,9,6,1,0,7,0,12,7,2,0,0,20,23,10,0,2,2,0,4,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,13,8,5,3,4,1,0,2,1,3,0,3,11,5,21,3,16,12,1,28,0,0,1,0,6,11,0,0,16,85,34,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16386174387597596,0.0,0.0,0.3468778614426197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10069888659719398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1529600410344272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15790050889343393,0.11154811294691984,0.1499211247948765,0.0,0.0,0.1328145875569159,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1497859523855305,0.0,0.0,0.2497625730269803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1387864786990028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12727684035405026,0.0,0.0,0.3392982004611111,0.0,0.0,0.07628325620230406,0.0,0.0,0.13818105001923198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23155512092856576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1465290009048156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11875327928133532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1768788236586714,0.13334469810275024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12020599534709872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13647528013529914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18209569852544893,0.0,0.2960093463674435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12524796010896388,0.19013929499038068,0.0,0.14474550578526982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3414342561042166,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,gierschotel,2019/02/09,"Bless and curse of parents house I almost never weigh myself, because I only have a scale available at my parents. It had been about three weeks since I weighed myself, until I weighed myself this morning. I always eat loads of bad food at my parents, because there is so much available and I can't just go to sleep at 21 to avoid cravings like I do at home. So yesterday evening I ate loads of calories. I'm talking bananas dipped in chocolate, yoghurt with cranberries, some bread. 
But when I weighed myself this morning, there was still progress!! All the weeks of restriction have paid off! 
I was 1kg less than usual, so I'm sure a big part of it is water weight, but it felt so good to see the number on the scale!",4.5268085106383005,5.703613489361705,4.470702127659576,88.12350000000002,70.13475177304964,6.491063829787233,30.41205673758865,6.2581,1.4356405673758856,566,23,111,3,10,174,91,141,0.056,0.835,0.109,0.8136,3,1,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,0,1,11,6,0,1,5,0,10,11,1,0,3,14,17,10,0,0,3,3,2,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,5,3,10,2,1,0,1,1,2,2,0,1,7,3,16,4,19,10,5,17,1,0,1,0,4,8,0,2,9,76,21,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16903315173770134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1404587243434086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1409445637359617,0.20580310432096705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17272897059248074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11149366725910917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16207862787364086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20411886465147328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09593539025607303,0.14158506228047146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16932450542967456,0.0,0.0,0.1947775315387604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08246926850314945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12409060467461877,0.0,0.1301923049654184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12838329880294405,0.0,0.0,0.5623116920571641,0.18279863842252092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1345151950261421,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13963668530726106,0.0,0.1689262374466208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1348073551760978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1590960823455646,0.0,0.0,0.13567852543901174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18591411987444104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2708093011736412,0.20555819654546456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,westcoastfleur,2019/02/09,"what is wrong with our brains I restricted pretty heavily this week (<800 per day). Then, yesterday, my food plan for the day was ruined when I stopped by Whole Foods before work and they didn't have Engine 2 hummus, which I was planning to have with Lundberg rice cake thins.

I didn't have much time, I panicked, and instead got: a vegan chocolate chip muffin; Taza stoneground chocolate with almonds (yum 😍); packet of chocolate hazelnut almond butter; tub of freshly ground almond butter; fruits (apples, bananas). I ate more calories than the previous three days combined ( >3000).

I didn't want to beat myself up over it — just made sure to drink a lot of warm water before going to bed, got up and went on a *short* run this morning -- not as punishment, but because it's a great way to start my day. Tried to appreciate the energy I had on my run and the energy I will have today. I knew I shouldn't try to make up for yesterday by fasting / heavily restricting today because it will just continue the cycle, so I packed a nice amount of healthy food to bring to work, where I'll be until late tonight.

Out of curiosity, I entered it into MFP: ~1400 for honestly so much nourishing, energizing, good-for-me food. I hit ""Complete Diary"" where it shows you what you'd weigh in 5 weeks if every day was like today and. I'd be well within the underweight range (a goal....).

So??? Why is it so incomprehensible for me to think of eating like that regularly?? Why do I feel the need to starve myself and have a 1,000+ calorie deficit when I could have a reasonable 500 cal deficit and HONESTLY REACH MY GOALS FASTER because I'm not rebounding and overeating?? It would be so much better for my body and mind, why can't I do that? Logic and reason are not at play with eating disorders. This is the difference between order & disorder. I don't think I acknowledge to myself that this *thing* is a mental illness, but it was so clearly painted in front of my face today. ",6.485367272727274,6.672715424000003,6.7281272727272725,77.18506363636371,65.42666666666668,9.69818181818182,32.24545454545455,9.457814108942452,2.84572,1544,57,286,27,22,498,213,375,0.086,0.753,0.16,0.9868,0,0,1,0,0,0,76.0,1,2,1,8,14,15,1,0,17,0,32,15,3,4,2,46,49,24,0,6,8,0,3,2,0,4,1,1,1,0,19,16,11,3,8,3,0,7,9,3,1,1,14,8,33,12,47,25,7,52,0,1,0,0,4,18,0,2,27,185,52,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09940179723042712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16777416615406987,0.0,0.15613039366881698,0.0,0.0,0.08113783640791165,0.0,0.1019040431628494,0.0,0.1024137726306106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09618914018012677,0.0,0.0,0.07324806395326106,0.0,0.0,0.2958281524100322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09585026447396136,0.21028724563443787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08987167159609531,0.0,0.1877487650630604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07729610856019233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.046387221735031625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4437363880874811,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0521387668340697,0.07694835586454943,0.14674799894323,0.10114524653784464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10348832501192398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08964045385096668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07799528006413065,0.0,0.0868079559227685,0.06123811453985178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09245378004875954,0.0,0.09263268817455224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20232151303577248,0.06802510526197614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09333401233876418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18865093180912407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06493505383250375,0.0,0.0,0.07669994042212996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08646520871482292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060948927247442324,0.11756840342663795,0.0,0.0,0.053495163528549744,0.0,0.3478405809282193,0.0,0.0,0.12457281298958801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054111470259160604,0.07282007410484814,0.14717887708280844,0.0,0.0824865600817853,0.0850452214380396,0.2483471037177163,0.10242602635725402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13357770218279538,0.0,0.0,0.06517047716063086,0.1003048480137006,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,tinybutterflly,2019/02/09,"Feb 11! I’m so tired of not staying on track, feb 11 is the day I get back on track!! I miss having a routine and set rules and stuff :// ",-2.3614516129032244,-0.6512562580645174,0.37443548387096826,106.18165322580644,95.45161290322581,3.1,14.201612903225806,3.1291,-1.6959741935483872,100,2,28,0,4,34,24,31,0.193,0.807,0.0,-0.7365,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,2,0,2,1,0,0,0,3,5,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,3,5,0,6,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,2,15,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3422506802532898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2870495365168922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23254383437022424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4744121859097475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5095274348293047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5115713748487062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,4amsolitude,2019/02/09,"Why the white Monster? I don't understand. 

I know it has 10 calories instead of the 15 calories that the other Zero-Monsters have, but it tastes so bad.  I would rather choose the 15 calorie option and cut the 5 calories elsewhere instead of drinking this. 

I tried it and I instantly got sick. 

Personally, I drink the blue monster or the yellow citrus flavoured (my rec).

Are there any other reasons why white Monster > all others? 

(Not trying to be rude about those who drink it, I just personally really don't like it)

Have a good day y'all!

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EDAnonymous,oiyouz,2019/02/09,"Today I’m having a bad food day. I’m feeling panicky about eating today. My anxiety is through the roof. I’m doing lots of “okay when it hits 1 you’re allowed to eat” etc etc. Most days are better than this, but today is not good. 

It hits 4 and so it’s time that I get to eat my shirataki noodles. 90cals per serving, looks like fucking dog food with some noodles mixed in. But I can do it. Mentally I’m prepared to eat two servings. 

And then ohhhh my goooooddddd my coworker comes and sits next to me and is just heavy mouth breathing. She’s a smoker so her breathing is basically all I can here. She isn’t even talking to me. She has no reason to be in the area I’m in. She came to just sit near me. And breathe. 

I fucking couldn’t. I managed one serving and put the rest in the bin. I’ll try eating again at home where my SO is understanding of my eating habits. ",-0.37335164835164747,1.8775351373626417,1.837112087912086,94.85788791208792,93.23076923076924,4.230681318681318,20.466813186813187,5.927762680638738,0.04930391208791196,673,24,147,6,25,225,111,182,0.065,0.875,0.06,-0.2209,1,0,1,0,0,0,20.0,0,0,0,1,11,7,2,0,6,1,15,14,4,2,1,23,30,13,0,1,5,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,6,9,8,0,3,0,0,3,4,3,0,2,1,2,19,4,19,25,7,23,0,0,1,2,6,8,2,3,11,95,25,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08645249378425025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09435879667732697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09994833834694614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12925356269883345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09734828081325983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1457644599788552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6938258866210396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2520724921058184,0.07464217136760394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057141352767149614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27330476518039604,0.0,0.0,0.2089522180138548,0.05904316524892445,0.0,0.0,0.09478759414444132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1133584450284906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055211075422493074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09490010577103354,0.0,0.0,0.09607723087566114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11388770145794172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12018762992119975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07657863634153976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11360646476699066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1161933075657317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0908333181218874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06589715650533845,0.0,0.3213613673893389,0.0,0.0,0.07672650771040354,0.0,0.11039454451203226,0.1176476038640584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Vanilla_peach,2019/02/09,"I got arrested, bye recovery. I feel so fucking worthless.

I got arrested the other night. I got pulled over with weed on me. Spent the night in jail, which was so awful. I was in recovery, but for the first time I seem to be keeping food from myself as punishment. I've dropped 5 lbs below what I said I'd never go below. 

  


Cant believe I got arrested for using the one thing that's kept me in recovery. And if I get probation, who knows how I'll be able to boost my appetite.

  


I'm such an IDIOT. 🤦♀️",-0.3234004313443606,1.8159048411214973,2.6181308411214985,90.95179726815245,89.37383177570094,6.282961897915169,21.31488138030194,7.61054688173877,1.016698634076204,386,14,86,8,13,136,75,107,0.212,0.755,0.033,-0.9597,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,0,1,4,4,3,0,5,1,5,2,0,2,1,12,21,7,0,1,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,6,2,1,2,3,0,1,2,2,4,0,2,9,2,13,0,14,10,0,15,0,1,0,1,3,7,1,2,6,53,19,0,0.1987100363377105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2238781644840633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10047376494089197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16902265539778746,0.24028096469696655,0.0,0.0,0.1837042266233463,0.10381779253215598,0.0,0.11293149292530527,0.0,0.6357062742661925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1766226104716192,0.0,0.0,0.10920583925480704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15325743010880802,0.0,0.0,0.3729518162318321,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13465106327859375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18901874869761706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1808981540548199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13201411855701578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1158694201723012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17162167097229175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Raunchey,2019/02/09,"eating out of the trash using reddit as peach post:

so i’ve been popping adderall and restricting for a couple days in preparation of my friend taking me out to eat for watching her cats......we went to our favorite restaurant and i got my favorite meal, which is carbonara, but was just in one of Those Moods™ where you can’t eat in front of other people, ya know? i kind of end up picking at it and getting it in a box to go so i can binge on it later......it’s an american restaurant serving of italian food, so it looks like 3-4 portions, idk. 

get up, feeling shitty, ready to binge and i open my box and it’s her gross gluten free pasta that tastes like ass with marinara sauce and not my beautiful carbonara 

i texted her and ask if she’s gotten my box, and she said yeah, but “she threw it out :(“ 

and i’m like...well how bad is it......and she told me that it was in a box within a bag and i’m telling her that that’s FINE, lemme pick up my carbonara, i’m deadass....! and she’s a little disgusted but ¯\\\_(ツ)_/¯ little does she know that i will eat food that has been in the trash and it’s Not in a box or a plastic bag lmao ",0.9017701863354048,2.7593782563025218,2.3280051150895145,96.80254475703323,81.56302521008405,4.979466569236389,21.27219583485568,5.7926816847441245,-0.08307877237851669,867,26,201,5,23,280,130,238,0.133,0.733,0.134,-0.4907,0,0,0,0,0,0,49.0,1,2,0,0,6,9,1,0,10,1,10,10,1,4,0,33,29,22,0,1,8,0,1,2,1,1,0,1,0,0,17,17,9,1,3,0,1,4,3,3,0,1,10,5,27,7,30,18,1,27,0,0,2,1,18,20,1,2,4,120,44,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13777321217096955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12304971963957324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16306465335716902,0.0,0.09504294546669304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12896649797393706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6031946416848959,0.0,0.0,0.13052812056542648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07451586588018894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3564063544240592,0.0,0.11385947792703885,0.0,0.1539918944782152,0.0,0.08375507761077883,0.0,0.1178670957047389,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1534655782815359,0.1619839303530021,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2159959937270862,0.2954115331115754,0.0,0.0,0.12375562025047995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09986328846933576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10216940097270136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14114193153649154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14018481078198688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11080563328957747,0.0,0.12880989101037724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14082055374126934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12728235498917173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13661560398306974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,dalishmage,2019/02/09,"if i drink ""gut healthy"" drinks after purging will it help relax my stomach? i know purging fucks u up but if i drink yakult or something will it help?

can't stop making myself sick because im a fat mess lol :) ",0.7241860465116297,3.0475521162790757,2.0337674418604657,95.79902325581396,85.97674418604653,3.44,22.55348837209302,3.1291,-0.21289395348837206,163,6,34,0,5,52,34,43,0.173,0.479,0.348,0.8335,0,0,4,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,1,1,3,8,3,1,0,7,6,4,0,2,4,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,2,0,4,1,1,4,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,5,1,2,4,0,3,0,0,0,1,2,1,1,3,2,17,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1581020481315915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7622154296254263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2397720166643566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3476840018293278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2801508246321121,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1425362104669232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17312328031914995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19966623040331385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21683465250258907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,wispybubble,2019/02/09,"the past 4 days i have been on the biggest binge i’ve had in years, i’m not gonna binge today. hi i have eaten 3000+ calories everyday for 4 days now. somehow w my exercise and restricting im only 400 calories over for the week. today i’m gonna work a ~9 hour standing shift and i’m not gonna binge after. i feel like an endless pit because of PMS and girl scout cookies tbh, but i’m gonna tell myself i’ve got this.",1.7191793313069894,2.5128148085106403,3.957781155015198,90.60500000000002,76.44680851063829,6.648024316109423,25.130699088145896,6.868970318607317,0.826959270516717,328,11,77,3,7,114,62,94,0.024,0.954,0.023,-0.0129,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,5,0,4,3,0,0,0,9,15,4,0,0,3,0,1,1,0,4,2,0,0,1,1,3,1,1,1,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,4,1,5,1,7,7,0,16,0,0,0,0,3,4,0,1,12,30,6,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16745500372504155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35431846630048586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13889693329724148,0.19624624280189087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21970325294701104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27052486605708204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29672390672192595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13420489170910338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2089222691777432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2622329116503656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2401005293082149,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5207683081693798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2203483406454522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1999853892529081,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17689825144550134
EDAnonymous,anxiety-and-theatre,2019/02/09,Can therapists tell your parents about your ED if you’re a minor? I may be getting a therapist soon. Can someone tell me the rules on this?,1.7402380952380982,4.128544928571428,3.2214285714285715,88.59023809523809,81.85714285714286,6.590476190476192,27.190476190476193,7.793537801064563,1.8144619047619053,110,5,22,2,3,36,24,28,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,1,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,3,0,4,0,0,0,0,2,5,1,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,2,3,0,2,0,0,0,0,5,1,0,2,1,16,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15992942607105284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3398980479520288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25936533708882936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5351058771337811,0.0,0.0,0.7108327636291597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,crazyrunner92,2019/02/09,"Favorite vegan Costco buys? Any non-triggering binge foods that you like to get at Costco? I live alone, *heavy sigh*, and can't keep too many ""good"" foods in the apartment or I'll binge on them. I'm also really into fitness and trying to lose that that 10 pounds we all love so much. (F/5'5""/CW:125lbs GW:115) So Costco can be a bit tricky. Any favorite deals there that you have?

   
**What I usually buy there:**  
 * Orgain vegan protein powder  
 * Frozen vegetables (multiple types)  
 * Toilet paper    
 * Occasionally frozen fruits for oatmeal and such
  
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EDAnonymous,balienated,2019/02/09,"I can't talk to my therapist about my ED My therapist is a lovely lady, I can talk to her about a lot of my issues and my anxiety but I just can't talk to her about my ED. I have touched on it, but haven't told her anything in depth. She believes in starvation mode, and that people shouldn't go more than a couple hours without eating. If I tell her how I restrict my calories, I can already imagine the response would be ""Its super unhealthy and bad for your body, plus you have to eat to lose wait"". I'm not trying to debate on CICO with my therapist.",4.3964039408867,4.311132827586206,5.622857142857144,84.26500000000001,69.86206896551724,8.352709359605912,29.5024630541872,7.957251820313856,1.8135014778325125,432,15,92,5,7,145,73,116,0.14800000000000002,0.787,0.065,-0.872,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,2,0,2,5,4,0,0,4,0,11,4,1,1,0,18,16,8,0,3,6,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,3,5,2,2,1,0,0,1,6,2,0,0,1,1,22,2,19,12,2,7,0,1,0,1,13,5,0,2,1,70,25,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1783972667471577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12367045356243155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13303347713067568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1349804345935038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18213692791982405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17956926261763267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17887515584319186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33083974151906664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0918758434267878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15920381830484004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1687323983889027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18085764560602444,0.0,0.13743865791850754,0.14590563675589746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11207559176768728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3898116928384406,0.14129910347988242,0.0,0.0,0.5631036950832251,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15447430192747344,0.0,0.10975741234818677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15583572625476733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11483955066897793,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,darkstar256,2019/02/09,"How do you imagine your ED looks like? I am not speaking about real numbers, just your fantasy. I have seen several description of Ana - extremely bony demon-like woman with hissy voice or spiky malevolent presence in the air telling people they are fat. BED can look like HAES activist etc.

But I imagine my ortho looks like excel spreadsheet - thru day I fill numbers and spreadsheet sums them, then compares with maximum for carbs, fat, calories and BMI, target protein range, minimums for vitamins and minerals. Sometimes numbers starts blinking with red background and I must take some action - mostly not eat for some time or take vitamin pill.",9.969729729729726,10.251074756756758,8.208783783783787,69.16020270270272,58.189189189189186,11.003603603603604,42.82432432432432,10.504223727775694,4.877389189189191,522,27,76,10,6,156,86,111,0.0,0.887,0.113,0.8934,0,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,3,2,1,3,4,0,0,1,0,6,6,2,1,1,21,13,9,0,1,6,0,0,3,0,1,5,3,1,1,0,7,3,0,2,1,0,2,2,0,0,0,1,8,11,4,10,11,4,8,0,0,5,0,8,2,0,5,7,44,11,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14757286064152267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2341445710672785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2551997843266418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3353762504402272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5764648016057976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15863808405281446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2604523564444868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2585065322356483,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2263132636153647,0.0,0.16196314603438805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3440950656452217,0.0,0.2000026830185477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1334293955473864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,showmeurguacamole,2019/02/09,"""I like your thigh gap"" Actual thing said to me by this guy I'm interested in. The worst part is my ED is loving it and totally feeding into it by ""complaining"" about other guys calling me skinny or ""confiding"" in him how kids used to make fun of me for being gawky and awkward. Which, while yes, that happened, it's not like it's caused me any kind of trauma or whatever. I never think about it. But it happened and that sick part of my brain loves using it to feed the fucking compliment machine. 


And I wonder how much of him I actually like and how much is what my ED likes - that I can obsessively discuss nutrition, calories, recipes, share food porn with him, without him raising an eyebrow. That I can casually talk about only eating one meal a day and he won't get genuinely concerned where it becomes A Thing but he will still show enough concern to placate the sick need for attention and care.",5.6875168831168805,6.262017897142857,6.257974025974027,78.53184415584417,67.17142857142858,9.335064935064935,32.48051948051948,9.339509955726095,2.8491714285714287,712,29,135,13,11,232,114,175,0.07400000000000001,0.78,0.147,0.8608,0,0,0,0,0,0,21.0,0,1,0,0,8,19,1,2,6,1,8,14,3,7,2,28,23,15,0,1,6,0,0,4,0,2,2,1,0,3,18,9,6,0,3,2,0,0,4,6,0,1,1,1,18,13,20,19,7,8,0,0,0,4,18,4,1,3,8,97,36,0,0.0,0.0,0.278417201479388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09700882772638464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15754886183323627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15924775536762462,0.14566450631917285,0.0,0.14544408481811108,0.1465437693918555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09199928493166047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14596947579099065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14739852444825008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17249638882248264,0.0,0.0,0.1318802583630307,0.07453022477208612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28249749273349894,0.2522948829464084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1485509881264449,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27877190145878683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2574995278912903,0.0,0.09522188308198397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2097325127662131,0.10577527849392247,0.11002266986618747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0966652610037496,0.1084939183178323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30895826373903945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13569552465882412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11392274787679132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11465895481512982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1895444256550864,0.09140618428039164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2464125156458917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13751225391769178,0.15470092739541566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,_sumi,2019/02/09,"Eating before bed So I used to hate eating before bed. I usually would eat dinner at 4 or 5 and then go for a long walk or try to do some exercise. But I don’t sleep very well from the hunger and I can’t really take it anymore. I think I am going to do OMAD an hour or two before bed and then exercise in the morning. I feel weird about eating before bed, it goes against all my instincts. Does anyone else do this or something similar? How do you find it?",1.1479610538373421,2.912409752577325,3.3329209621993137,90.36359679266899,80.34020618556701,6.372966781214204,20.0561282932417,7.3871296695380915,0.4983846506300118,354,9,78,5,9,121,66,97,0.08800000000000001,0.8859999999999999,0.026,-0.6839,0,0,1,0,0,1,8.0,0,1,0,0,4,3,1,0,4,0,8,9,1,2,1,16,15,12,0,1,5,0,1,0,0,1,2,0,4,0,4,3,6,0,3,2,0,3,2,2,1,1,0,1,9,1,9,14,2,10,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,5,5,50,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14656908118025755,0.1033389893920436,0.15142947047820995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5030374407645831,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1293330075285044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6049088589654645,0.12346051897527173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07472763232528128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13507840879754562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16798620189523078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14591313649625345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14554448572523726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13079049298222822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0946787776878817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14789785580360088,0.0,0.0,0.11377682676950507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11112053153011683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09469858396047516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10034047113218007,0.0,0.1443704521072289,0.0,0.0,0.12764407838217876,0.16277104201608725,0.12194315426680913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13288196841747485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10498657331842128,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,little_milkee,2019/02/09,"Why did I puke water instead of food? I wasn't trying to purge but: I had a big meal and afterwards I coughed (like not a bad cough just a regular cough) and basically projectile vomited gross acidic water everywhere. 

My question is, why did no food come out instead??? Considering I ate a LOT. 

Now I feel like my body is gross and plotting against me by not taking this prime opportunity to have slightly less calories in a day when I've already gone over 😞",4.0846709470304985,5.7879050112359565,5.278683788121993,79.86258426966293,71.92134831460675,8.681219903691815,31.815409309791328,9.23628265651192,2.895660032102728,362,17,70,8,7,120,65,89,0.153,0.731,0.115,-0.5477,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,1,5,6,0,0,5,0,7,11,1,0,0,12,12,5,0,0,4,0,1,2,0,0,4,0,0,0,1,5,6,0,2,0,0,2,4,3,0,0,6,2,9,3,8,6,2,10,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,2,6,44,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2591190684021764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19605684045575136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2608213729479018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20226833143404213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15143325519463768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11872717200077185,0.16774856629687787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5678672326227828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22943295986518555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1996273690266977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2630413392458894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17654816631103154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15942081936829233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4237596504113596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,FowWithSocks,2019/02/09,"Just finished a binge! Everything went perfectly as planned :) Just kidding.
It went horribly.



In other news: global warming is the topic of literally every single news outlet...and it STILL ISN’T GETTING ENOUGH ATTENTION!",6.898714285714284,10.721034800000002,7.039642857142859,60.17660714285717,72.42857142857143,9.214285714285714,37.32142857142857,9.516144504307137,5.282857142857143,178,10,19,5,4,57,31,35,0.079,0.672,0.25,0.7494,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,2,3,2,0,0,2,0,2,0,0,0,1,6,5,1,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,2,1,0,2,3,3,2,6,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,2,15,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3924105865834409,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31997803311379697,0.0,0.3413185791221273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19841751693571472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3032899582059545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7041131355346336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,AlcoholicRacoon,2019/02/09,"Well then Can’t sleep, can’t really do anything because I have roommates in my hotel room. So I sat in the bathroom and tried to fix my laptop while also stuffing my face with candy and goldfish crackers.

Let myself eat maintenance yesterday, but I danced for like two hours so I knew I’d have at least a little deficit, but now I’ve ruined that.

I swear to god if my weight goes up and doesn’t come back down in a day from this ima flip my shit.",3.93845614035088,4.116920968421058,4.86921052631579,88.35364035087721,70.89473684210526,7.596491228070175,26.35964912280702,7.1686216300943375,1.0638070175438594,352,10,78,3,6,115,71,95,0.142,0.78,0.078,-0.7912,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,0,6,4,1,0,3,0,7,5,3,0,0,9,10,11,0,1,3,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,5,2,0,1,2,0,2,3,2,1,1,2,1,11,2,11,7,1,17,0,1,0,0,0,8,1,1,8,50,13,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21437859933603715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22060197663422784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2061322803072929,0.0,0.16341536001672108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2309219261964929,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17288548697576991,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27430652232209474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2639987901035313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2741237232133986,0.0,0.13096736560144107,0.2686804712831177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17173500344951834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2751740039174933,0.0,0.0,0.26826749771040515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18200457987341367,0.0,0.2618692456336695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3264417881712461,0.2410306286355312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,throwaway-m1,2019/02/09,"the constant calorie struggle Calorie talk tw!!!

Wanting to eat enough calories to recover/survive vs being proud when I don't is a constant battle 😬 I'm at a ""healthy"" weight (lol I'm definitely not healthy but I'm not currently underweight). I'm trying to maintain this weight, or at least not lose a lot more, and part of me is ""trying"" to eat the amount of calories I need, part of me panics when I go over the amount I'd need to eat to ""lose weight fast"", according to online calorie calculators. I normally eat between 1/4th and 1/2th of what I need to, depending on the day. That makes me so sad, but also makes me so excited at the idea of losing weight. ",4.436098388464803,5.3716955954198475,5.489720101781174,81.62905004240885,70.14503816793894,8.570313825275656,32.1128074639525,8.841846274778883,2.619146904156064,517,23,102,9,9,171,72,131,0.124,0.763,0.113,-0.5348,1,0,0,0,0,0,24.0,0,0,0,4,5,9,1,2,8,1,4,8,0,3,0,19,15,10,0,5,7,0,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,2,8,0,1,0,0,1,4,7,0,0,0,4,9,2,19,14,8,13,0,4,0,0,1,5,0,3,7,62,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09023310152593697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24386637715691406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07276842813117185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4618283420933897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11658741631438538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06412601499052364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12737555887387572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3786962816572497,0.0,0.09592721121502093,0.0,0.0,0.15063479592723691,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25099436664721786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11055310883540616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.132386083109476,0.0,0.2443758908248739,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11795832442022572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09069148656163868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1532134064199248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06655226357848555,0.0,0.0,0.5496043934533333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Lulus_lemon,2019/02/09,"Can people tell that I have an ed??? This is kind of embarrising but I have an eating disorder obvi and I went to an upscale grocery store and I was ravenous. So I opened up several packages of food in my cart and began eating the food in plain sight. With my hands. Like a savage. Several employees and fellow shoppers clearly saw what I was doing and even stared at me. But no one said a thing. Was it because they thought I was homeless? Or did they know I have an eating disorder? What difference does it make? Wouldnt they kick me out if I was homeless?? I have done this several times at the same store so I am very curious. For reference I am a petite 5’ less than 100 lb caucasian female under the age of 20. 
But would having an ED prevent them from stopping me???
I was basically binging in the middle of the store??!",1.0792073170731695,3.57260387195122,3.1494634146341483,87.08760975609756,86.5,6.206829268292682,23.44390243902439,7.554174236665415,1.3767107317073175,641,25,126,12,20,216,101,164,0.102,0.8270000000000001,0.07,-0.7443,1,0,0,0,0,0,22.0,0,0,4,0,3,2,0,0,13,0,20,6,1,1,1,23,27,12,0,3,5,0,1,1,1,2,0,1,0,0,8,8,5,2,3,0,3,1,2,0,0,1,13,5,22,2,17,12,2,15,0,0,3,0,7,10,0,2,5,97,30,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09132041295934692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15651549820822824,0.3433815566179403,0.0,0.13109633459697065,0.1533036600077285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4598671427214585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09894552144922693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3622922807557773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15600000865015073,0.08232951916388805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0731876973480191,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0999967403234576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1015124957628574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10385669290792196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14249991391874767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5077147841274607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12524461412385873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1309371413241627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09952452156229548,0.0,0.0,0.11892931621163386,0.08735314625737065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12360572802769093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13887176291746062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10641796094402096,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,srkchrstn,2019/02/09,"Email from Pinterest Just thought it was interesting. I received this email from Pinterest that someone was concerned about my well being. I have a private/hidden board that contains a lot of thinspo. I know it wasn’t a user who flagged it because it is hidden so it must be someone working for Pinterest. Didn’t know people monitored that kind of stuff. I guess it was a nice gesture on their part it linked to some suicide hotlines and mental health links. 


[email ](https://imgur.com/gallery/NB9NyZs)",5.008275862068963,8.372832873563219,4.078862068965517,81.3148448275862,76.58620689655173,6.238620689655173,31.68850574712643,7.554174236665415,2.5278009195402302,408,20,63,6,10,120,60,87,0.054000000000000006,0.856,0.09,0.2732,0,0,0,0,0,1,17.0,0,0,1,1,4,4,0,0,4,0,10,1,0,0,1,12,14,2,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,13,1,0,1,5,0,0,1,2,0,1,0,6,0,6,4,8,5,3,2,0,0,0,0,6,1,0,3,0,48,19,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15361946052249045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27761110838220354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.267868748742478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2624236618488391,0.2769899064005058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21424501378387545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25396102641892165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27289606064365424,0.0,0.17470802659715687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4270447907806315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28848459117699893,0.2756517632404792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2000632367362712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22658209813690916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1834621057956348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,study_boi,2019/02/10,"Literally all I think about is food I think at this point I am actually obsessed. 

I am constantly thinking about all the nice food out there that I REALLY want to eat but I know I can’t because I need to restrict.

Though, I decided that yesterday I was going to cheat and have Burger King, so after a 1100 calorie burger and 280 calorie medium fries I feel quite disgusted, even if it was the fucking tastiest meal ever. I was going to order a bunch of sides and make it 2000+ but thankfully the store was about to close and I didn’t feel as hungry when ordering.

To make up for that I’ve decided to go on a 3 day  food fast. But honestly I’m still thinking about that burger I ate yesterday and how nice it was and now I just really want to binge again. I’ve tried to purge a handful of times but I can never get it to work, so I’ve gave up on that (thankfully?).

It’s a sad existence, I just hate food constantly being on my mind. ",2.35569587628866,3.884220484536087,4.344935567010307,85.507506443299,76.11340206185567,8.148969072164949,24.496134020618552,8.841846274778883,1.7232278350515466,730,24,156,16,16,250,107,194,0.12,0.787,0.094,-0.7928,0,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,0,3,17,11,4,1,8,0,13,9,1,3,4,36,36,17,0,4,7,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,11,8,7,1,9,0,1,3,3,6,0,0,8,3,18,5,26,27,3,29,0,1,0,1,1,10,1,1,14,104,29,1,0.0,0.0,0.12562750326099895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07847610683410072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2782351823581065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08302389655775197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13172879188857578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08502873629647315,0.11644883909514038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13018530750219992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6226710284899202,0.0,0.0,0.11901410903873035,0.06725910616044611,0.0,0.2194904482052477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12709988228108712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0707497911160522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1718642003990694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12998639004124934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09545591345161257,0.09928893217771642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1216968770130956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1369262964844632,0.0,0.0,0.16494281169750566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10280852120017528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2370451301248271,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3299546336287847,0.12648220223901566,0.0,0.07506684010550789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08740311102322422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1518633393334904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09372114552061912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,quietcasserole,2019/02/10,"Fucked up thought Got dumped recently but in the back of my mind I keep thinking about how skinny I’m about to get from being too depressed to eat. I’ve been taking the break up really badly. As much as I want to be skinnier, I can’t let another thing defeat me. It’s hard juggling two sources of sadness and stress at once. ",3.3367164179104485,4.545245358208955,4.253910447761196,88.43101492537315,73.02985074626865,7.151044776119402,26.832835820895525,7.554174236665415,1.3386143283582093,257,9,54,3,5,83,56,67,0.338,0.644,0.018000000000000002,-0.9783,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,1,5,7,2,1,2,0,5,3,1,1,0,8,14,5,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,2,1,2,0,0,0,1,7,0,1,3,1,5,0,14,8,1,7,0,3,0,1,0,4,1,0,2,35,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.251933975178259,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1847454150752339,0.20060739599770805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2069359280711606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2458463674330505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22211686572820044,0.12552614116681673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1921581878642167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2152261239603866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21355448035022606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2456825343004568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24259451065495016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17661903667452178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.255869481791392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1539169626801314,0.0,0.23722815702742056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2752174732637984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18064591793633267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15961833205871875,0.15394916125085706,0.0,0.19073991804826407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23469949688573355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14171180721436952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,mthrowawayacc,2019/02/10,"reminiscing on a breakup + ED twisting thoughts For some reason, I’ve been reminiscing on a breakup from months ago. I went through my snapchat memories to look at how my life was back then and holy shit was I thin. My body dysmorphia was so bad that I couldn’t see how gaunt I looked. I came across videos and photos of my ex and I.  I started wondering if the reason why we broke up was because I was fat. I started thinking he loved me way more when I was skinnier.  I know for a fact we didn’t break up because of my weight but now my ED is latching onto every single problem and twisting it around. Reasons to relapse are everywhere now and I can’t escape. I can never escape this disorder. ",3.403564935064935,4.931896850000001,4.29220779220779,86.95824675324678,73.35714285714286,7.090909090909091,29.870129870129876,7.686295010490155,1.8279285714285711,549,24,112,7,11,177,94,140,0.11,0.841,0.049,-0.8455,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,2,0,0,0,8,5,1,0,4,0,13,6,3,5,2,25,25,12,0,3,2,1,2,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,3,9,2,0,7,1,0,2,4,4,0,0,11,5,22,1,16,13,3,23,0,1,3,1,5,9,1,3,10,77,25,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1504552790280492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1510955592677415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13051178471846964,0.14171734258586996,0.20693149325665275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18853161041385352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19412574206593528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1945251230395126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1430047265375808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09327909164881748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11988521887074598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2850606678883274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15318782438073547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13547675408086898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1309061307209584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16240855247816904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.523531690345353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13525272256854678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17422526110835734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2402713354913344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10875604021122086,0.0,0.13474654898145147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13472366174425,0.0,0.20668524268690494,0.0,0.1573412796790943,0.15315479789385086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1840647918188856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,meimeiya,2019/02/10,"Suffocated by the expectation to be a beautiful and feminine daughter I feel so suffocated by my mom’s fantasy expectation of me to be her thin, pretty, feminine daughter 

It was never this bad when I was younger and smaller; my older sister was overweight since middle school, so I’m sure there was a lot of hardship pushed onto her by my mom that I didn’t see. I still suffered in silence from my own eating habits and various other things, but most of the time I wasn’t overtly insulted by her or other people for the way I looked. 

But I gained enough weight in college to be noticeable and eventually her appearance-related criticism came for me too. She started bringing up my weight at frequent, random times. It really felt like she would just be looking at me, and no matter what was happening, all she could see was a human container for fat.  

For a really, really long time, almost every time she called me, like a broken record she would tell me to get an office job (I’m a freelancer), exercise more, and think about my future marriage to my hypothetical husband. Repeat, repeat, repeat. (Last month, she asked me if I wanted to visit my dad’s old medical school in China with him this summer. “Why?” “You can look for a husband there from the current students, and he can take over the family business.” I can’t make this up. Am I in Pride and Prejudice or something?) 

My sister’s still overweight on paper but she’s a healthy and strong 28-year-old person with a good job and a long term relationship. All other aspects of her life are probably satisfactory to my mom except for her appearance, disinterest in femininity, and lack of desire to have children. It honestly feels like now she gave up on making my sister into the ideal daughter she wanted and started focusing on me instead. 

It’s not like I don’t want to be thin or pretty, or feminine by my own definition of the word. I feel like that's the whole fucking problem. I know so many people who are happy with the way they are, even if they're not skinny. If I were like that then I could just brush her off and be confident by myself, but instead all I can do is pretend I don't care on the surface while silently agreeing with her.

I couldn’t take it anymore after my trip back home last holiday and I snapped. Something in my brain just switched, and now I’m back to the same habits I had when I was a kid. Part of me feels disgusted and weak for bending to her will, and the other part just wants to use more drastic weight loss against her as part of revenge for all of the insults used against me for not being up to her standard. 

I just needed to get this off my chest. It's not something I can talk honestly about to anyone around me.",6.511581600504093,6.396363387523634,7.102122873345937,75.55077725267803,65.40831758034027,10.002293635790801,33.51235034656585,9.642632912329526,3.0744086452425963,2148,84,402,39,30,709,248,529,0.112,0.738,0.15,0.9769,3,0,3,0,0,1,55.0,0,1,1,5,26,25,5,0,25,0,38,15,4,4,6,88,76,36,0,19,21,12,10,6,0,3,7,0,1,4,20,24,8,1,7,4,0,6,12,10,0,0,14,16,72,15,74,49,19,68,0,2,5,1,51,27,1,12,39,305,92,7,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07860475165465629,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07784926332237764,0.05488786674425312,0.0,0.0,0.06988016806502069,0.0733853543964916,0.0,0.0,0.1207207610176217,0.06554283769571392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08763011197424903,0.08015558505019837,0.08978119242588899,0.08003429253480321,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1253490791570101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08032340222854685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08110977245752247,0.0,0.05184741534943788,0.0,0.06613823975349613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07400125179724172,0.0,0.15876448373703095,0.11215846413649007,0.07537071965802679,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0725704533848316,0.0820242888468573,0.0,0.0,0.06584068594920021,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06941582564880078,0.08356294600932786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07874023859532908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15579498626992214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.043140636514811766,0.12797325348792196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05544570127540548,0.2301019523042605,0.0,0.0,0.13893712706999692,0.19775651393034932,0.0,0.0,0.06673648426305348,0.0,0.0,0.10479650727396712,0.07958499920471031,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07907882233149713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27580893247233473,0.06265662862598645,0.0,0.0,0.05820552683541452,0.060542761546766126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08937088401903345,0.1647416126958031,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2550181682403085,0.0,0.1088417346262441,0.06854172546177248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1597220714005267,0.08463449074011631,0.07511231301153266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15086414616053892,0.0,0.0,0.08427784341413377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15888902829398333,0.12510603263453465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06493464067622022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18129557903696852,0.0,0.0,0.11112306269431227,0.0,0.12537775656317904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07398375947818622,0.0,0.11804196969716492,0.06309399480140414,0.06861101191311123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05215081118696492,0.050298568699687914,0.0,0.0,0.18309206075224446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13559472965918998,0.0,0.0,0.18520142657001226,0.12461666207331297,0.0,0.2867695033298856,0.0,0.0,0.07083254510360402,0.08764059684762382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11152594156646436,0.0,0.0,0.05055035935283368
EDAnonymous,DecaturWolf,2019/02/10,"New GRIP song/video spoke to me. Anyone else see it as about fighting your ED? The [GRIP music video](https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LMlCPQVbsFc) by Seeb/Bastille?

Imagery is kinda gross when you see it that way, but it's the truth.

For many of us this video is definitely the struggle with an ED

You think it gives you control, but it's actually controlling you.",5.050909090909091,7.701506818181822,4.2545454545454575,84.1518181818182,71.72727272727272,7.4303030303030315,27.66666666666667,8.344100000000001,1.9163212121212123,294,11,54,5,6,87,50,66,0.106,0.7979999999999999,0.096,0.3478,0,0,0,0,2,0,21.0,1,5,0,2,2,4,1,1,4,0,2,0,0,2,1,8,7,4,0,0,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,7,1,0,2,1,1,0,0,0,3,0,0,1,5,7,1,7,6,0,3,0,0,2,0,9,0,0,1,2,30,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.2351490739757971,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1684897591722706,0.2468992116389178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5405300569559868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20129704414381155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23115754472344074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24430276024766376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23272747161253315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38403907019756783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2519110728138907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15440195128020082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2898536831429549,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19126842257704546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,juniorasparagus13,2019/02/10,"Fuck it... I’ll be headed back to treatment soon. Might as well use all the bahaviors. My weight dropped to slightly less that it was the last time I checked into treatment. I’ll bring it up with my therapist tomorrow and already left a voice mail at my old treatment center. But I don’t feel like I’m sick enough to go to treatment. I know what they’re going to have me do. I was there less than a year ago. Honestly, it will probably be at least a week until I can get scheduled for an intake. I might as well use all the behaviors I’ve been using as much as I want since I’m going to be forced to stop them soon.",2.460769230769234,3.633470461538465,3.73076923076923,91.4692307692308,75.15384615384616,7.046153846153848,24.538461538461537,7.554174236665415,0.946446153846154,480,15,109,6,10,157,84,130,0.094,0.8190000000000001,0.087,-0.4588,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,1,0,6,5,1,0,7,0,13,4,1,3,2,15,27,7,0,1,1,0,2,1,0,3,1,1,0,0,6,3,1,1,2,0,1,4,1,1,2,0,3,3,12,4,19,18,7,24,0,0,0,1,2,6,1,2,14,72,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1495904953078502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18622455445253894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12976163179962388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1743682915890163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08532723910899949,0.1205580979096554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15601062107750796,0.08816715102067851,0.0,0.2877208544571615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17319058631338186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0927429440279832,0.13755726901751114,0.0,0.0,0.18335202896361516,0.0,0.0,0.08244482158547033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35804326560385136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12405381966545967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1770792389685864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18194566588864616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13959529186928527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14108614207223846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1959367364749208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09840198310752488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4372485702298629,0.0,0.0,0.09953565203186153,0.0,0.1353645116792451,0.20549726155234013,0.3034607450983418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10867222940590282
EDAnonymous,tulgeywoodd,2019/02/10,"Worst mom award I tried to tell myself that becoming a mom would take away all my shitty self image feels and channel that energy elsewhere. How wrong I was. I still have these awful shitty feelings and bad habits to deal with them. And an awful gross weird flabby fucked up body. I look at pictures of myself from 4 years ago when I was around 115 or so and I get so angry.. why the hell didn't I appreciate what I had then? Why did I think having a kid would solve anything?? 

Now I binge in front of my son then go puke in the bathroom and he hears it all and cries on the other side of the door. And I can't stop until everything is up and I feel somewhat better without that weight in my stomach but my face is blue and red and the patches don't go away for days. 

Then I restrict. Fuel myself on coffee and diet coke. I work near food and I can avoid it. And then I can't. And I'm back in the bathroom puking with my kid in tears on the other side of the door.

What the fuck is wrong with me? When will this fucked up cycle end? Will it EVER end!? ",1.1469305019305018,2.9863387252252283,2.565289575289576,95.49959459459463,80.66666666666666,4.949292149292148,17.328185328185327,5.622346879071545,-0.6074571428571431,815,15,185,4,21,264,129,222,0.245,0.72,0.035,-0.9936,0,1,0,0,0,0,20.0,0,0,1,3,10,13,4,1,12,2,18,10,3,1,3,35,32,26,0,2,3,3,4,0,0,4,0,1,2,3,12,18,4,3,4,1,0,3,5,11,0,0,5,8,26,2,29,23,4,38,1,0,3,3,11,18,4,2,17,130,38,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11815871868560444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10969111797663113,0.11866155709187695,0.0,0.0,0.2504716571907548,0.10249627234967863,0.11129645781557096,0.0,0.14721478168171934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11788933744679912,0.0,0.14806162776170506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14641922007936534,0.0859647888819692,0.13742215703487984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23612109815134774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1205737177295789,0.0,0.0,0.1197977051510114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20219514390973106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1611818576529359,0.0,0.0,0.3696895658362657,0.06964157430807606,0.0,0.15151019424427914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15023409822849793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.111934933366705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3122289512962015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1390566308461317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10645022923120467,0.11144129001808313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10022188207550356,0.0,0.11650643856041915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08541059139760879,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09049912492979996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16231842182523207,0.0,0.0,0.24055752375849046,0.0,0.0,0.12849243214769798,0.0,0.09704095835651401,0.0,0.0,0.18937907919884767,0.2914761496865356,0.0,0.08583815005682177
EDAnonymous,Noodle-The-Noodle,2019/02/10,"*Hears noise outside while binging* (possibly triggering to anyone with PTSD but meant to be a shitty kind of funny)

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What if someone is breaking into my house? SHIT I'M SO FAT RIGHT NOW. What if they rape me but see how bloated I am and decide to kill me instead? What will the dr think when they autopsy me and see the sheer amount of recently eaten food in my body? Will this be released to the public like the Jon Benet pineapple??? Will I look skinny and sick enough in the crime scene photos? \*Begins fantasizing about being raped/murdered while restricting\*

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Just normal ED thoughts :)))",5.00809090909091,7.648053627272731,4.361818181818183,83.38272727272731,71.81818181818181,6.581818181818183,28.272727272727273,7.554174236665415,1.8520181818181816,489,19,81,6,10,146,84,110,0.249,0.728,0.024,-0.989,0,0,0,0,0,1,29.0,0,0,2,0,7,5,3,0,6,0,8,9,4,2,0,18,18,12,1,3,5,0,0,1,0,3,3,1,0,0,4,5,4,1,4,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,3,4,9,2,11,9,2,11,0,0,3,1,4,4,1,2,7,54,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3549676836209659,0.3980846839562681,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11453703438101165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1819516505786832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16925549028694903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19807498733223647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1846213806987828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18901024732828775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1812271806740557,0.17057884685120855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08002738669917561,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13755586907544848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16049519948384278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18466676636549806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19148056602077734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16173876285313968,0.0,0.0,0.1398895150864222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2610645086262889,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16814460854378974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13879237766130958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1049603352106051,0.0,0.1300437467390079,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3980846839562681,0.0
EDAnonymous,fakedeepusername,2019/02/10,"Let’s talk about sex I recently entered into my first relationship since I’ve been struggling with an ED and the sex aspect of it has been stressful to say the least.

First, I just have... zero sex drive whatsoever. I used to have a super high drive, but since my ED, that’s totally changed. At worst, sex repulses me. At best, I’m just not interested. Does anyone else experience this? Are there any ways to increase drive, or at least maintain an active sex life?

Second, for those with vaginas, do y’all have trouble  getting wet? Honestly, for me, I can sometimes get turned on, but my vagina is just consistently dry and it can get very uncomfortable. I use lube, but it’s frustrating. It might not be an ED thing, and I understand it happens to a lot of people, so does anyone else experience this?

Lastly, how do y’all cope with your own body during intercourse? Is it possible to enjoy sex without thinking too much about one’s own body and letting that interfere? Does anyone have techniques they use to deal w this anxiety?

I’d love to hear y’alls thoughts, since it isn’t something I’ve seen talked about a lot on this sub. What are your experiences with sex with an ED?",4.619757938573663,6.195468216814161,5.206210307131703,81.41492191566894,70.3716814159292,8.503487766788131,28.78084331077564,9.007467420416297,2.3075994794377928,931,35,179,18,17,299,131,226,0.108,0.7709999999999999,0.121,0.7411,0,0,1,0,0,0,35.0,0,5,1,4,10,11,1,2,9,0,20,13,4,4,1,32,35,10,0,0,10,0,1,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,16,10,0,1,3,0,0,5,4,5,0,5,4,4,17,6,26,27,11,17,0,0,1,10,13,7,0,4,4,120,33,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07341975602131051,0.0,0.08259276495735528,0.0,0.0,0.226474463783957,0.22124536169360304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11330238088410002,0.0,0.0,0.23984907427313126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11421242683428405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11130695254303352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28344213255717865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1803814481375635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31683082943283897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18366958181194573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16922143212823446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09547290275270667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12168415925548695,0.0,0.0,0.11407072295451665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08800570958425914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22080261485383626,0.07625872049270746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18357559857718467,0.09744243362420926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1145335752751862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07936653950949478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07315973241784987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07484918783492732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12171407299936422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.106602200147757,0.11591377431991175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.085857930363957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26792875730938576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08311656611977586,0.1067799329462548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1236732963601627,0.11286823487480845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17355600898361725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07172700574244177,0.06917947475495599,0.0,0.08571197944937685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1174346831332901,0.0,0.11239514869275424,0.0,0.2797407288078921,0.0,0.08908225455262761,0.0,0.08569742092880994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10407419993831622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,under_glasses,2019/02/10,so relieved and disgusted. I always had this idea that I weighed x amount at x time in my life but I’d honestly started believing that I was making it up or misremembering but oh my GOD I found a picture on my phone from 2014 that confirms I am a fat ass now in 2019. I’m so relieved and disgusted with myself omg. ,2.8681818181818173,4.051720969696973,4.9337575757575785,83.20063636363638,74.15151515151516,8.31030303030303,29.86666666666667,8.841846274778883,2.3337066666666675,248,11,53,5,5,86,48,66,0.16399999999999998,0.652,0.184,0.1175,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,3,5,2,0,2,0,3,4,2,1,0,9,7,7,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,5,3,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,3,0,9,3,7,4,1,8,0,0,0,1,1,5,1,1,3,34,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3335331735216698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4516123716397712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4395032469746524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4525025311136645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28312699924894524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2675655637293731,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28371847198503103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2337345572094104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,letsmakeitbrahs,2019/02/10,Dependent Leg Edema? Anyone get leg swelling that gets worse throughout the day? Been to the doctor to rule out main causes but nothing was found.,4.279487179487177,7.470756692307699,3.220769230769232,87.40756410256414,78.23076923076924,5.005128205128205,24.051282051282055,6.42735559955562,0.9240666666666666,118,4,19,1,3,34,23,26,0.08800000000000001,0.912,0.0,-0.3421,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,2,3,2,2,0,5,5,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,3,2,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,10,1,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2594874318184711,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3812302739344631,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2393340415755738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3798448942455077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40690090753965785,0.0,0.0,0.3877773599542558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3560882576947614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37819088712586496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,bovineuniversitygrad,2019/02/10,Fucked up ed things I thought we could have some fun... what’s the most fucked up experience y’all had with your ed? Mine:on a first date and we went to a Italian restaurant. I had the spaghetti and he got pizza. I drank and ate too much... so I excused myself to a bathroom. I purged and the fucking noodles came out my nose... ,1.0006396588486126,3.1354891492537327,2.0562899786780378,97.36776119402988,82.88059701492537,4.425586353944564,23.004264392324096,5.288315135182226,-0.02555266524520228,251,9,57,1,7,79,50,67,0.14400000000000002,0.856,0.0,-0.8777,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,2,2,0,1,2,4,3,0,6,0,4,7,1,0,0,13,13,5,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,9,3,0,1,0,0,2,0,3,0,1,8,1,11,1,6,4,3,7,0,0,0,3,6,3,3,2,2,39,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30109674407390563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21018989939342128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2575166038861137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.223926915651154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7301326694288527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21055127923753247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.193524743977075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17489675760510673,0.0,0.0,0.2089972547779356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2440425804204063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,solimba93,2019/02/10,"Tried to build breakfast meals into routine... big mistake?? So long story short I've been a long time restricter, consistent OMAD, IF, extended fasts, diet based off rice cakes n shirataki noodles... until Nov/Dec of the last year. After some shitty personal things happened I spiralled into a binge/purge spree for over a month for the first time. 
Starting January I thought if I started incorporating small, planned meals I could eventually get some balance w food and dive back into restriction as I currently hate myself for that month (and try to be less black/white about food)
Anyway, two months on and it feels like my body is all over the place - it's like just by eating something in the AM, my hunger switch is jammed at ON constantly. I'm hungrier and more obsessed with thinking about food than EVER and it's driving me crazy! 

Has anyone else had similar experiences?? Any advice on attaining some kinda balance? ",5.0713453815261085,7.701609789156631,4.9332289156626485,79.40474297188756,71.59036144578313,7.800160642570282,29.74136546184739,8.648137234880735,2.626129799196788,739,31,122,14,15,228,126,166,0.118,0.851,0.03,-0.9252,1,0,1,0,0,0,28.0,0,0,0,3,7,5,1,1,7,0,8,10,1,0,2,25,17,10,0,4,3,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,5,9,9,2,3,0,0,1,0,3,0,2,3,1,9,2,25,12,6,35,0,0,0,0,1,15,0,6,21,74,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14137428611957548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09838364832348401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10115980224134376,0.14823616310947346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11124579105860193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1607007994357248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1563417812032028,0.0,0.11551084794150195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14803817249178242,0.12085701396566728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1308664042331451,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14151946101950458,0.0,0.0,0.07315179442398656,0.10335552030657237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12306008984463865,0.5248230842304982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07558647594555783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12793521795575186,0.0,0.0,0.14283615621957746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11792905958013927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14136134493320282,0.0,0.0,0.25606483057301394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3464335127350024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1263242279992481,0.15115410192778994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11137752907555457,0.0,0.0,0.20480276814157755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09611533585337224,0.09270160355094904,0.0,0.11485542448288105,0.16872177546958864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19644903199171626,0.0,0.14132600357890776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09316566043982626
EDAnonymous,LuckyPeaceful,2019/02/10,"If I eat an entire loaf of bread before 7am on Monday, I don't have to log those calories FOR Monday. I'm so committed to starting a new, healthy eating, binge free lifestyle tomorrow that in order to avoid future temptation, I'm eating all of the possible binge food that I already have. Because that's 100% logical and how it works hahahahahaha end me :) :) :)",2.816397515527953,5.313498507246378,4.842691511387166,77.89956521739133,78.42028985507247,7.421118012422363,27.248447204968944,8.418075326091056,2.341809937888199,283,12,50,6,7,97,55,69,0.029,0.737,0.234,0.9386,0,1,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,1,2,2,0,1,3,0,3,5,0,1,2,7,6,4,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,1,5,1,1,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,4,2,8,6,1,10,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,7,28,9,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2659433082557989,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14690794673192334,0.0,0.2050684805842176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7397922930633335,0.0,0.0,0.21344950358005832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2914113797664837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2327538890067961,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27168497097173105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17057707360082672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17544679023010715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Itotsight,2019/02/10,"Stressed about everything I just want to cry my eyes out, but it will make my nose clogged so i can't breath through my nose and need to go to sleep right now because i have to wake up early and i can't sleep if i have to breath through my mouth.

Well fuck then. I guess i'm going to cry anyway ¯\_(ツ)_/¯",3.8759090909090936,3.6982152272727298,3.7177272727272737,97.79659090909092,70.96969696969697,7.206060606060608,27.10606060606061,5.985473137389443,0.5303151515151519,239,7,61,1,4,72,43,66,0.188,0.7559999999999999,0.056,-0.8705,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,0,6,3,1,1,0,0,5,10,9,1,0,10,13,6,0,3,3,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,2,1,0,0,3,10,1,11,12,0,8,0,0,1,1,0,3,1,2,3,37,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14545085037839112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5241908201330157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21444198814583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22058565422090695,0.0,0.0,0.2712084278838943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26284932684532897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15927009574068485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17692192369499635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20376660562082805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4775528526433368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2733202010297059,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14073488567707607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21453374945102446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,corgifreaksanonymous,2019/02/10,"Sponsors needed Hi there,
I’m reaching out on behalf of the GSB of EDA. We have an incredibly long waiting list (11-12 month wait) for sponsors. Currently, there are NO sponsors in EDA who are able to assist with the waiting list. We desperately need sponsors who are willing to step up and work with folks who have been waiting. 
Please PM me if you can help out. Thank you! ",2.302500000000002,4.921112027777782,2.997777777777781,89.60000000000002,81.5,5.266666666666668,25.66666666666667,6.6274283507984215,1.0089666666666668,294,12,57,3,8,92,52,72,0.07,0.809,0.121,0.4694,1,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,2,2,0,1,2,1,0,0,3,0,8,0,0,0,0,14,16,2,0,3,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,7,0,4,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,5,1,12,14,0,9,0,0,0,0,9,5,0,1,3,36,8,1,0.3615191918210564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2423186937801497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31993310841611505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28856116981729124,0.0,0.0,0.5361237998845337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39683951044372817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3328383001935936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26319027731852285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,zeyhrr,2019/02/10,"My face Yesterday while I was getting ready to go to an event, I looked in the mirror and I was shocked. Is my face really that slim? When the fuck did my face slim down? Why the hell wasn't I informed? Every other day I've looked in the mirror I've wanted to smash it and cry. Why was yesterday so fucking different?",0.9824675324675312,3.1551367272727298,2.7477489177489183,92.1559090909091,83.24242424242424,6.195670995670996,20.034632034632033,7.447530270364453,0.574335930735931,248,7,54,4,7,82,41,66,0.204,0.7609999999999999,0.035,-0.9179,1,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,0,2,4,3,0,5,0,6,5,3,0,0,4,13,5,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,4,0,0,5,2,7,0,6,8,0,10,1,0,2,2,1,3,3,0,6,32,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29073730967376904,0.17069597442651252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27653308449738545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22300336297560716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4893826995638029,0.1382837850440739,0.0,0.15042310100700962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4445271784388468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16956006122749032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1561144547652159,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4776630229379544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,thingsarestranger,2019/02/10,We could always make a peach subreddit I think if worst comes to worst and they never bring back peach we could always try and make our own subreddit for it but then you can’t pick who you want to follow and would have to search for your faves. Food for thought. ,2.4433962264150964,4.594525415094342,2.1251320754717007,98.70618867924532,77.86792452830188,5.749433962264153,16.260377358490565,6.742157984588678,-0.5381516981132077,209,3,47,2,5,61,39,53,0.095,0.878,0.027000000000000003,-0.5647,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,3,3,1,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,5,1,0,3,1,18,13,6,0,5,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,6,1,0,2,0,0,3,2,2,0,0,1,0,8,0,6,9,3,6,0,0,0,0,8,0,0,1,3,33,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4643096545251311,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2145379156593022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24033843050866416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4455261869701494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3373744136272838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3724765160426709,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21518614960694926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17877538210518898,0.0,0.2214991069436633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18942633899105848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16456460222140218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1981974172786884,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Duckerino117,2019/02/10,"I don’t know if i’m more addicted to the weed i smoke or the feeling of having no money so i can’t eat. I haven’t eaten in 2 and a half days and i really don’t want to, i’m hungry but i’d rather just drink tea and smoke, i think i spend all my money on weed partially because i’m addicted but mainly because it ensures i can’t buy the food i like eating. I’m super fucked up at the moment🙃",-0.06532608695652442,1.1193733369565244,3.388478260869565,91.25163043478264,81.93478260869566,6.339130434782609,19.108695652173914,7.1686216300943375,0.21019130434782607,305,7,75,4,8,113,58,92,0.093,0.773,0.134,0.3483,0,0,3,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,1,3,3,1,0,5,0,6,9,0,0,1,14,16,8,0,3,6,0,1,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,3,6,0,3,1,4,0,6,1,0,1,1,1,10,2,7,15,3,5,0,0,0,1,0,4,1,2,2,44,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5436163277778763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3039803656530951,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16079820630579192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24424997202979595,0.0,0.5102567894962089,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12606951011483888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3014926685298209,0.0,0.0,0.23050297627500266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13702608501465746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12181078841081715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1597281587810304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1597615730215912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14706219281967092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,PuppoProtecc,2019/02/10,"three days doesnt feel that long anymore i was talking to a friend and she said ""i never go more than maybe 8 hours without eating because i need to sleep and stuff""
and it fucken hit me. 24 hours is a long time to go without eating. i'm so desensitized to it though, maybe you are too.
or like when my boyfriend said ""one time i went a whole day without eating, it was the worst""
and my answer was ""just /one/ day??"" because it doesn't feel long anymore. what the fuck is wrong with me? i can live my life just fine and go to school and do chores and make tea and work out and alllllll the things humans do on literally 0 calories and i cant help being proud about it.
saying ""i havent eaten since sunday"" on a wednesday is such a power move!
i pulled a muscle in my leg when i was running in cold weather because i didnt wanna let myself go and take a day off and now i have to fast for like a year to make up for all the working out i havent been doing!! i feel so fat and lazy and worthless holyyyy shit

i need them endorphins bois",2.68375,3.5970219041095888,3.9189012557077625,91.34492722602741,74.2511415525114,6.205593607305938,23.276541095890412,5.985473137389443,0.26327602739725986,803,21,184,4,16,263,125,219,0.122,0.831,0.047,-0.9531,1,0,0,0,1,0,23.0,0,1,1,4,11,10,2,0,12,0,22,11,4,2,2,34,41,20,0,3,6,0,3,2,1,0,2,3,1,1,9,17,6,0,4,0,0,8,10,5,0,3,10,7,24,5,24,28,4,35,0,1,0,1,10,8,2,1,21,124,33,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21386258352665385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1971834210095468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2781472664609215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3309890726989663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1635554140875709,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08330366443970283,0.09968048499258862,0.0,0.0,0.24511283583718926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07227138180813296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21236757087244454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11025616669400244,0.0761584658232521,0.10535359380031248,0.0,0.09520954966559562,0.28625948090140235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14394517580321198,0.0,0.2166450851899704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11459862302968173,0.0,0.15989855026635272,0.08315962698716843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1461271037589965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2051284381333467,0.08574505594942257,0.0,0.10912247796191818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1106786034062603,0.08919217358476647,0.0,0.10790071577685187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12343136388958804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08106936253035202,0.08666392048803682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07163270875968006,0.0,0.10593540012985216,0.0,0.12574473882156373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0999528597762028,0.0,0.12038035855287975,0.0,0.31181213169617217,0.0,0.1569926341508988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1178873573242572,0.0,0.06943437861852063
EDAnonymous,kalianda,2019/02/10,"i want to learn how to lose weight like normal people do. but....do they actually? i want to learn how to lose weight like normal people do. in my mind that means... actually eating daily, but less than I need ...not a big enough deficit to trigger a binge ...not fasting for days on end...not gaining and losing the same 10 pounds over and over because my ED can't decide if it wants me to binge or fast

but do normal people actually lose weight though?  most women in my country look bigger than me irl (I'm BMI 22) and I read statistics about how most people regain what they lose",5.173763975155282,5.3552146000000045,5.695403726708076,83.49043478260869,68.21739130434783,7.962732919254659,25.12422360248447,7.447530270364453,1.0567267080745328,449,10,92,4,7,145,70,115,0.149,0.773,0.078,-0.8912,0,0,0,0,0,0,23.0,0,0,2,6,5,7,0,0,3,0,4,4,0,4,0,28,11,11,0,8,6,0,3,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,3,4,0,4,1,0,0,3,5,0,0,0,4,11,2,15,11,5,10,0,5,1,0,3,7,0,4,5,54,14,3,0.0,0.0,0.3218556141155061,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06701816853487498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07090195623098418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1124956720183252,0.0,0.0,0.09737386657998433,0.11359701041920756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.107421884693677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09232158712308404,0.61497153542327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11975647001834765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11100767031474353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0815188310612111,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3231524392577657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30487314383373965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1099693656525867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1080151129851041,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1945356990867868,0.0,0.0,0.4016304974192383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,IJustLikePornThanks,2019/02/10,"I don't want to be better Is it weird that I don't want to get better? That I just want to ""feel"" anorexic and ""be"" anorexic?
I know it's unhealthy. I know I'm torturing myself. I'm not even good at being anorexic.

But I've had an eating disorder and wanted to be skinny for as long as I can remember. It's kind of a part of who I am by now. 

I'm not depressed. I don't want to die. I just don't like being ""fat"" (by fat, I mean that one lille skin-fold I have on my belly, and my thighs touching) 

And I know it's horrible and sick, but I miss the ""good old days"" when I was 12 years old, and I had Ana-buddies and I posted thinspo on secret forums and me and my best friend challenged each other to be the skinniest one, while counting calories together and doing workouts when our parents weren't home. 🙄💀

I wish I had a friend who I could tell how many calories I ate today, what I weighed this morning, how much I hate looking in the mirror and all those, stupid, triggering, unhealthy thoughts 👀",0.9992924528301899,2.791740910377364,2.9600377358490597,92.72033962264156,80.93396226415095,5.560754716981132,22.864150943396226,6.508806274219699,0.4738766037735851,771,26,172,7,20,259,120,212,0.208,0.688,0.105,-0.9311,1,0,0,0,0,1,32.0,1,0,0,4,8,16,3,0,6,0,21,8,4,3,1,37,41,20,1,7,6,1,2,1,2,0,3,0,1,0,13,12,6,0,8,1,0,0,7,6,0,2,7,3,28,10,17,27,5,15,0,2,1,0,8,4,0,0,11,116,41,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14920689334026302,0.2514895280139589,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11351745281283887,0.0,0.0,0.09169295820117046,0.0,0.12245758326009333,0.0,0.14755817262748433,0.0,0.16294814630650994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14548344644517985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09390713621478286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.071889398439052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2196925252917316,0.0,0.07428206414677171,0.0,0.0,0.23850408828425115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14037120246779422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1426159869594394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1480563632112878,0.23441170223923916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06946092115582489,0.0,0.0,0.1258229328223808,0.11939359474884773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14414603525749606,0.0,0.1548733713910343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10451708695770907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.298383496253406,0.0,0.19268679627903865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15787168891682174,0.1539647682260449,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13616708915385306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16105980048501045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12426971717170622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11287334013543815,0.0,0.0,0.134767987714683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41930093030835147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16349752334651999,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0915578809369567
EDAnonymous,carlacoutoure,2019/02/10,"Maltitol, sucralose, assholes Ok. Heads up. If you’re trying to recover from bulimia AVOID artificial sweeteners. I don’t understand why I buy these high protein artificial sweetener bombs that end up triggering my binges because of glucose spikes.

I was literally doing SO well .... almost two weeks purge free and I ate one of those Sinfit protein cookies which led to an entire bag of Skinnypop, another protein cookie, a quest bar, almonds, peanut butter etc. 

I hate bp’ing uhfnmmmm

If anyone has ANY recommendations for protein bars or snacks  that do not  contain artificial malodextrisucralosfragilisticexpealidocious it would be greatly appreciated 

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EDAnonymous,blahblahjj,2019/02/10,Tumblr deleted my blog it had all of my favorite recipes and thinspo on it i never encouraged any unhealthy behaviors and deleted asks asking for advice on how to lose weight. i guess it against the rules to have a blog with skinny women on it now fellas,6.441768707482993,6.9871065102040815,6.433061224489798,78.03217687074832,65.53061224489795,8.165986394557821,34.70068027210884,7.793537801064563,2.6922598639455777,205,9,35,2,3,65,38,49,0.091,0.799,0.11,0.242,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,1,2,2,0,0,2,0,2,2,1,1,2,7,5,3,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,4,3,2,0,0,2,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,1,4,1,9,4,1,5,0,1,0,0,4,3,0,1,2,27,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3177771113910965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2211439748379054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6080274681060123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.358239317244846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3638103909054346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2508106850349021,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3960003020439751,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Cuddle-A-Caribou,2019/02/10,"Roommate almost heard me purging in the bathroom because I’m dumb :( This week has been truly awful so things have been bad lately. I was purging for the fourth time today like ten minutes ago, when I thought I heard my roommate come out of her room. The sound was so quick I thought I imagined it and I was going to resume purging, but paranoid me decided to go check. I spray all air freshener and make sure my face isn’t dripping liquids, and go out to check....

My roommate is standing by the door wearing a clown mask from last Halloween. I screamed at the top of my lungs of course, but not because she scared me. The fact that she was so close to the door means if I had kept going she would have heard and who knows what would have happened. She’s close enough to my family I think she’d definitely tell them. Ahhh I was SO CLOSE to ignoring the sound and continuing.

Now I feel super disgusting because I can’t finish and I have an insane amount of food in me. I’m gonna have to fast for like 4 days to not gain and I’m just so so so tired of life in general. I  feel so broken and sad. 

I don’t know what the point of sharing this was, but thanks for listening.  I hope you guy’s days/nights are going much better. Ily all ❤️
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EDAnonymous,TotallyNotARadar,2019/02/11,"My Apple Watch is giving me ridiculous calorie counts and it’s stressing me out For the longest time I didn’t update my Apple Watch (jailbreak ftw) but recently I decided it was time. Like before the update I was getting 200 cal for an hour of  competitive squash play. Seems reasonable, right? I update and now I’m getting ridiculous stuff like 450 cal per hour. Like even things like elipitical are off the charts. No way can I be burning 430 per hour. 

This lack of data is doing a number on me because I am really active and so like to have a reasonable estimate of where I am with an activity offset. With this garbage I really don’t have any idea where I am anymore ",4.283587786259542,5.863988236641222,5.372435114503819,79.87743129770995,71.21374045801527,8.293435114503817,28.367175572519088,8.841846274778883,2.3263123664122136,533,20,98,10,10,176,83,131,0.08800000000000001,0.711,0.201,0.9436,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,0,5,9,2,1,7,0,15,0,0,2,0,13,20,5,0,1,1,0,0,5,0,0,0,0,0,0,6,6,0,0,5,1,0,0,3,3,0,0,3,2,14,6,11,16,1,17,0,0,2,0,1,6,0,1,15,64,20,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1159161844911668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16904692726642412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10390862792942676,0.0,0.1450458257915873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11258483224476608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17811284781662284,0.16351729310911678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5035955993098772,0.0,0.0,0.19242450648024706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41638188912550417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21839744530831007,0.35051509891980626,0.16830511253544647,0.0,0.0,0.14556881828339202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15517708765332489,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19525720888195727,0.0,0.1951317752713692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11324364559624228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19878897343494525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13530034139473024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,LittleBlackHeart8,2019/02/11,"Florida, skiing, and anxiety. I used to post/lurk a lot on the dead proED sub.. so here goes nothing.. 

I’m full on freaking out. 
My boyfriend’s family has a couple trips coming up and I’m so worried about looking like a huge whale in front of his family and his brothers perfectly stuck up wife, that basically has a perfect body. 
My family is not rich, not even close, so I’ve never been skiing or traveling anywhere before at all so I’m already anxious enough. Add that to the fact that I’m a giant fat blob, and will look outright and all over disgusting walking around in a swimsuit/summer stuff, and you have a recipe for disaster. I just stress ate a bag of Haribo peach gummies and of course, pushed myself further away from a goal I haven’t even set yet. I have no idea what to do. I don’t want to look fat or feel ugly and stuff... I know my boyfriend likes me how I am but I hate it. I hate all of it. I’m huge now and all I want is to go back to my low weight. 

I’m 150 now. I was 120.. which I know probably doesn’t sound low to some people.. but I’m quite tall so it was thin for me. I want to go back to it so bad. I don’t know if I need motivation or what... I just don’t know. Oh no 😫😫😫😫😩😩😩",-0.4827404718693274,1.3982606766917307,2.09400829660358,96.38665413533836,86.96992481203007,5.473476795436869,18.570910033704948,6.8039241337230125,-0.05231226341716333,924,25,228,12,29,318,144,266,0.184,0.737,0.079,-0.9807,0,0,0,0,0,0,38.0,0,1,0,5,20,13,3,1,11,0,17,5,3,3,8,47,44,22,1,5,10,2,3,2,0,1,2,1,0,0,12,14,4,0,7,3,1,8,10,8,0,0,5,7,26,5,28,38,8,36,0,2,3,0,5,21,0,6,8,139,38,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1414872523045659,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09808330018086807,0.14484523838144475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11413757442675132,0.0,0.0,0.12046120123076715,0.1971771852735423,0.10705327023075208,0.0,0.0,0.10910060509672743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14241676472619302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1104449418535788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14186626716469836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13247925623180304,0.0,0.1693681738937702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3626060276567227,0.0,0.06482881188121667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14573385429771818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2531694095629383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14473791284831128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28185207605369234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12527769291391988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3230022115301484,0.0,0.0,0.10900289238667174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09506899933388747,0.09888648157822702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12302471709573305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08888739059042197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1227934966607352,0.0,0.1382362944080501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13637128930594505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14686861564102455,0.0,0.29354853391361474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11073566347143587,0.0,0.0,0.2268716811335531,0.0,0.0,0.15613001721834385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1302074624887051,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,centipede_soul,2019/02/11,"what happens when people find out you have an eating disorder? I'm pretty sure I have an eating disorder. I always eat under 1000 calories aside from two ""cheat days"" per week. I'm 10 pounds below my goal weight but it's not really about reaching my goal weight anymore. I know if I keep this up I might seriously fuck up my health, but the thing I'm most scared of is what happens when people find out. Do I go to the hospital? Do my parents find out? Will I be able to go back to college when I get better? Is it possible to get better on my own without seeking help? ",2.3341025641025652,4.033904504273508,4.00035042735043,87.22103846153848,76.60683760683763,6.731282051282051,23.66581196581196,7.554174236665415,1.054231452991453,445,14,92,6,10,149,74,117,0.179,0.731,0.09,-0.8856,1,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,1,0,4,5,7,2,1,4,0,9,7,0,0,1,16,21,6,0,1,5,1,2,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,6,3,5,1,4,0,0,2,2,4,0,1,0,2,14,3,16,18,2,16,0,0,0,1,3,8,1,3,6,60,20,3,0.13383063762667066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11135781145424202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13272403116057327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10290749946265253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23672464669876314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08630968973678993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3067630105257177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4108264594421848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36695633473305106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12372426796769267,0.13984196900813595,0.0,0.15211807098298266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2366919817415935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14225570959439807,0.0,0.0,0.0897038553723901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11895481986894504,0.0,0.0,0.07354981846607879,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1419731574416032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14860308529624872,0.0,0.0,0.18556262656312145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15087393550126324,0.0,0.1361538714490392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08573533339297502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13398781520779693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12613379214259784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08891112893856098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13073308660903915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10735086496449647,0.3259393248911856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12900795891466976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,yifans,2019/02/11,"ode to my boyfriend i’ve been bulimic for nine years. in the past few months i’ve stopped purging and now just have a serious issue with binging, but i’m getting better. i started taking recovery seriously the day i met my boyfriend. 

i told him about it all on our first date. i told him all about my cigarettes and my bruised stomach and my hopes and dreams. i thought it would scare him, but somehow he’s still here. 

he’s held me as i sobbed over chicken tenders. he’s talked me down from the ledge countless times. sure, he’s flubbed in our time together, but nobody’s perfect. i’ve been able to open up to him more than i ever could to anybody, and he listens and holds my hand. he doesn’t expect anything in return. of course, i’m just as there for him as he is for me. he doesn’t believe i owe him my ears when he’s the one on the ledge. 

this past weekend, i was at his place. we ate brownies at 1 am and destroyed a local boba joint at noon. i had no guilt. i had no shame. i don’t have an eating disorder when he’s around. he makes me feel so much less critical of myself and he doesn’t even do a whole lot; he’ll wrap his arms around me and lay his hands on my pudgy stomach and i’ll feel secure when i would otherwise be self-conscious. even though we have our issues (which mostly stem from my self-hatred) i know he loves me. i know he wants me to be better and he supports me even on my worst days. 

i don’t smoke anymore. i binge about once a week when this time last year it would be five or six days a week. i’m so grateful for him, and i love him so much. i told him this (well, a tldr version) earlier today, but i want to scream it from the rooftops. i want everybody to know i have the best boyfriend on the planet. i love him infinitely. ",1.5204574042309886,3.2008573881401645,2.7573486890468044,95.31773993302298,78.8921832884097,5.790770236053255,22.83272073838112,6.574015621080383,0.3398276729559755,1365,43,317,12,33,439,185,371,0.113,0.721,0.166,0.9776,1,0,2,0,0,0,44.0,5,0,0,5,25,22,1,3,15,0,24,12,6,1,5,52,54,28,0,9,7,0,4,0,0,4,1,3,0,0,8,18,2,4,6,2,1,0,7,9,1,6,12,7,60,13,40,34,13,49,0,1,0,3,43,19,1,5,30,204,68,0,0.10570178600503237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10482776879981284,0.0,0.0,0.08698356350628705,0.18819399924896613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11908971619971953,0.11092750313031984,0.18696927991384654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08439427509241056,0.0,0.0,0.2045067224480024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12114340433504353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10815931556295318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2094450982771129,0.09561331698300617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10689199797490663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08990988517809813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05522482050729837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10498572367251416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22065040480618914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1742728117435446,0.08616106342354793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08986387852984057,0.2861999662283968,0.0,0.07055676294617898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08437015713535513,0.0,0.15540594983415054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11256895236225486,0.07162626578073314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20180863029638565,0.0,0.0,0.11043586889692343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1058259276166964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22054003101238695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07481626817846876,0.0,0.08441358284418213,0.0883714261128748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1199491341356754,0.09962268238048884,0.0,0.07947458832620714,0.08495909167835376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10385146807266343,0.08391541108392465,0.18490668435234126,0.0,0.10019293374734002,0.3030077588349999,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18703695607383,0.0,0.16957519379958466,0.0,0.09503859989269947,0.0,0.0,0.11801226924622008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22526254813673102,0.0,0.0,0.13613696923611335
EDAnonymous,ramenramenramenn,2019/02/11,dont wanna get better the hunger kinda empowers me in a weird way. it makes me happy. esp when i look in the mirror i get more motivated yikes. deep down ik i need help but i dont want help ,-0.745000000000001,1.2563792619047618,2.295523809523811,93.56614285714286,89.71428571428572,5.2647619047619045,13.16190476190476,6.742157984588678,-0.6564723809523807,147,2,35,2,5,52,32,42,0.138,0.631,0.231,0.7193,1,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,2,1,3,0,0,3,0,2,1,0,2,0,7,8,2,0,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,1,6,2,4,8,1,6,0,0,1,0,2,4,0,1,1,19,7,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2455099892893888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6506779364047303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29006358900248713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2955047628921367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3721318059410574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23310966782190826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1852966447021919,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2058329825349993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16373257005487768,0.2203417838707676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Judiroo,2019/02/11,I'm a binging idiot Reached my gw today so ended up having a celebratory binge. I was binging on cookies with this icing my friend made only ton realize it was infused with cannabis. :) Nothing better than binge/purging while high for the entire fucking day.,3.23070921985816,6.318461468085108,4.537340425531916,76.4841666666667,83.25531914893618,4.835460992907802,31.23758865248227,6.42735559955562,2.206435460992908,207,11,30,2,6,68,40,47,0.111,0.741,0.14800000000000002,0.2249,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,1,1,4,2,0,3,0,3,1,0,1,0,4,6,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,3,0,3,2,6,3,1,7,0,0,0,1,1,3,1,0,4,20,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3157950861837602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23027746615338454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.316253717916427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2758676295840814,0.3301009540894948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3772589084528085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3378636544391967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3426136172234842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2715641172846208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3384559876609097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,OatmealCum,2019/02/11,"DAE think theyre not too fat, but then see a candid shot of yourself and suddenly you see the ugly truth Went on vacation last weekend and got pics taken. People day-to-day call me skinny, so I started believing it, but now I know the truth ):
I look like a stumpy goblin. In the mirror, I think I look alright, but in pictures I am so w i d e. I dont know what to believe anymore. ",1.3349735449735434,2.8387704691358024,3.636437389770727,89.60111111111117,78.87654320987654,6.110052910052911,23.917107583774253,6.868970318607317,0.7939403880070546,292,10,64,3,7,101,59,81,0.102,0.752,0.146,0.3612,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,1,0,0,4,4,0,0,5,1,2,2,2,0,2,12,14,8,0,0,4,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,2,2,0,4,1,0,1,2,0,0,0,3,4,10,4,5,11,0,10,0,0,4,0,2,3,0,0,7,35,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2127191630590654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4833197357719817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21902107019022696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2766601466841441,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2513838948822097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17154943918659749,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2357592018633334,0.17484021180243692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10479031875940163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3602397619661683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14870225938885878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3418458880651813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15181906600071485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2748765750694257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1988369197298516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,kmsrip_,2019/02/11,I just found out this sub existed and I’m mad that I didn’t know about it Lol I gained 7 lbs after I had surgery and I am triggering myself on purpose to get rid of my fat thighs. I hate it but I can’t think bout food. My BMI used to be 17.3 now it’s 18.2 :(((((,-2.830127504553733,-1.1771133934426228,0.20743169398907213,105.64735883424412,100.96721311475409,4.0225865209471765,13.335154826958108,5.82211442006289,-1.2588047358834242,197,4,56,2,9,68,48,61,0.08199999999999999,0.8490000000000001,0.068,-0.1901,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,1,3,2,2,0,0,1,5,3,2,2,0,10,12,3,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,5,3,2,0,3,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,3,0,10,0,7,8,0,4,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,2,32,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.521779450055706,0.4731246751330949,0.0,0.0,0.22544436993476746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4260233969105833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2371447227253637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27649198276605896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3726831262330712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ForgottenLover3268,2019/02/11,"I can’t say no to food, I hate having roommates. I can’t say no to getting food for my roommates and it’s even worse because my boyfriend lives with me.
I always get offered to go eat, to eat dinner with them and to help bake food with them.

WHY CANT I JUST SAY NO TO FOOD.
I can easily just drink Diet Coke, halo top and fruits/maybe the occasional salad but I can’t fucking not say no. What’s wrong with me?!?",-0.00977272727272549,2.0846484772727294,1.9215454545454562,96.95981818181819,86.95454545454545,4.42909090909091,17.89090909090909,5.6839178017228535,-0.5345490909090911,318,8,74,2,10,105,52,88,0.175,0.748,0.077,-0.8603,0,0,1,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,2,1,3,3,2,0,1,0,6,13,0,0,0,11,11,4,0,0,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,2,7,12,0,0,1,0,1,9,3,0,0,0,4,13,0,11,11,0,2,0,0,0,1,8,1,1,0,0,45,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1192439154089124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08735935797957649,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14038749310146595,0.0,0.2932801626140478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09465372471110972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6931554517141886,0.0,0.0,0.13248613591540864,0.14974525545407255,0.0,0.0814453613607307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14148719353303474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09605647598663472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1265437797416296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14397236431994567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4558577794814761,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12931337424704406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14604331467351678,0.0,0.15668503665818972,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,LanayruPromenade,2019/02/11,"Take your vitamins This would be a Peach post:

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I got a stress fracture in my foot from being malnourished (haven't been taken those vitamins) and taking too many ballet classes. And like a dumbass, I didn't heed the doctor's warning and continued to dance and take daily yoga and pilates classes and now my foot is even worse. So now, no dance, and no exercise 😔

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I'm a fucking dumbass...",6.2110389610389625,7.171858675324677,6.6601558441558435,74.74166233766236,66.14285714285714,9.796363636363637,34.88051948051948,9.888512548439397,3.6498800000000005,326,15,55,7,5,106,55,77,0.215,0.753,0.032,-0.924,0,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,1,0,0,5,3,1,1,5,0,7,7,2,0,0,8,14,8,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,4,0,0,0,2,7,0,0,0,5,0,2,4,2,0,0,4,0,5,1,3,7,0,7,0,0,0,1,1,1,1,0,4,36,7,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3982148907738624,0.4465850167635648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18808951162099466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12137391837610992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16988619830483676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14697228822481853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08977746010073014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18630713088265846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17599443269861464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2105002251250188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4145013680552044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18727048944624827,0.13054016711609914,0.0,0.4465850167635648,0.0
EDAnonymous,miranya,2019/02/11,"I think I may have a binge eating/emotional eating disorder Hi, I'm pretty shaken by my own thoughts recently so please be gentle with me.

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Background: been slightly chubby all my life (never obese), eaten relatively healthily with the occasional indulgences. Had a habit of eating crisps or other treats on the weekends. Nothing big, but still enough to make it hard to break out of even now. I've always felt ashamed of my own body and a few years back I lost 10kg just through diet. Gained all that back until now, and I want to lose it again and more - just so I'm in the normal, healthy BMI. So about 2 weeks ago I started an intermittent fasting diet. Weekdays are great. I go to work every day and prepare a healthy lunch for myself, it makes me feel good to be healthy and I lose weight. I also walk to work which I really enjoy and it's exercise that I really, really needed.

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However, on weekends I seem to completely forget what I'm trying to work towards and why. I make reminders to myself to make a meal plan, to eat healthy, to stick to my fasting cycle, but it's like I subconsciously decide not to give a damn. For me the hype about eating pizza and watching a film just takes over me completely - even if it ALWAYS ends up in me eating the pizza and paying zero attention to the film because I'm too busy distracting myself from the fact that I really hate myself for giving in to the temptation again. And I don't even really enjoy eating the pizza, it's not even tasty to me anymore. Yet, I repeat the same every weekend. Earlier last week I also started using a workout app for some daily exercise, along with yoga. On the weekend I decided to sit down all day on my PC eating cheese toast and pizza, instead of doing anything, so I missed my exercise for like 4 consecutive days. So now from what weight I lost over the week, half of it I gained back on the weekend. 

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SOME days I've managed to get my ass up, cook REAL food and maybe clean up the apartment, go food shopping or something besides just sitting and eating, but that's super rare. I'm very introverted as well, and I have no social contact with anybody except through text, so I can't just go out with friends either seeing as I have none.

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So - would this classify as an emotional eating disorder? It feels that I definitely have all the signs for it and I'm not sure how to tackle it to break out of the cycle. I thought of using an app or something for emotional eating but I'm not sure where to start.

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Help is much appreciated. Sorry for the long post.

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TL;DR: Want to lose weight and weekdays are great. On weekends I always binge. Don't know how to break out of it.",4.52390551257724,5.9753174952561725,5.398406072106261,80.42650805235246,70.44212523719166,7.833970709872037,28.123826205420126,8.303829127061777,2.0158046903128497,2148,77,393,32,39,702,242,527,0.099,0.731,0.17,0.9923,1,0,2,0,0,0,83.0,0,0,0,12,36,23,2,2,28,0,17,32,2,8,8,84,57,39,0,6,19,0,7,2,1,2,5,0,1,0,22,26,26,0,11,15,2,4,10,10,1,2,8,9,44,13,78,45,15,70,0,6,2,1,7,23,2,8,39,270,66,6,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04271016995490351,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0770617762051499,0.12027310252941513,0.31322911108314433,0.3512762356828572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04778329961597805,0.0,0.0,0.039649433773828346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1111462597215568,0.0,0.029371117128984006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05351900694123318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1010351915624132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12429284217462055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11044080499119226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4930190770036628,0.0,0.1625937823464284,0.0426746851360837,0.04978457590628914,0.0,0.12729423381680804,0.0,0.08119032066180827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.048724230461677065,0.0,0.04626198792373346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11652300584472512,0.0,0.037225061919586515,0.0,0.02517294963682904,0.09244055405647728,0.08214831141608328,0.04041252401585428,0.0,0.10624098874822874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.043161339372208535,0.04756945368670781,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.032295177900236734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.026479402273530656,0.039274516246367235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0340321596299442,0.047078289761265976,0.0,0.0,0.04263928833261383,0.0,0.16170899377987633,0.10519203441875777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12864663561538392,0.0,0.0484049937359485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03541909337597257,0.035726120060573484,0.037160697367013766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04720783608113477,0.04623164064180458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05288903793469077,0.0,0.0,0.04614474997209027,0.04901811055944948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05484132294521296,0.15433215399538194,0.0,0.047573616091272586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03839457681434435,0.04386281012483356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04911517551112059,0.0,0.07418525324855202,0.0,0.05393546848431808,0.10230976580303366,0.0,0.03847796787895519,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09082136413348547,0.0,0.036226642132389325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03087288788436332,0.0,0.07650177574376259,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.032712211587249664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08322703795952549,0.0,0.03975494851661274,0.05683763003931772,0.0,0.11594536045458925,0.1760169912153593,0.04332113471219876,0.0,0.04347649008869797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10523055437884614,0.0,0.0,0.034226897297386434,0.0,0.3512762356828572,0.031027435117134745
EDAnonymous,NoMindNeverMatter,2019/02/11,"do any of you guys let yourself have the weekends? I have a need for like, a ritualistic schedule rn. Sunday from 2 pm to Thursday at 6 pm I fast, then I eat a protein and veggie dinner, and do OMAD Friday, Saturday and Sunday of whatever I want (I usually still restrict tho)

sometimes I feel like I don’t have an ED because I can eat sweets on Saturday or food that isn’t usually safe for me at Vegan Sunday (an event in LA with a lot of vegan food vendors)

idk guess I’m just wondering if anyone is like me",2.8352830188679228,3.9878998396226417,5.3850471698113225,80.0541745283019,74.18867924528303,8.69622641509434,28.34433962264151,9.188382445141503,2.44228679245283,397,16,81,9,8,142,71,106,0.04,0.813,0.14800000000000002,0.872,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,1,0,0,3,5,0,0,7,0,10,5,0,0,0,15,16,7,0,3,3,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,4,5,2,2,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,11,5,12,15,1,18,0,0,0,0,2,4,0,5,17,51,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13141402510848793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13512221815564052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11780107410925672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39547816020980103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09771107204275194,0.13805510541762106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.467348081677227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21288244758089767,0.191344094518255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19760730588644015,0.0,0.2832309583296975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16429098670476106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14328958951100682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1911254075157755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15432664429400933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4256667184014876,0.0,0.11398160034316325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20956723252432585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,poppybasket,2019/02/11,"how 2 be perfect fast n easy, by my brain don’t buy food > reach gw > have more money > buy nice clothes > be hot > die sooner

boom that’s it chief that’s the only way to completely satisfy everything my brain tells me i want between food issues and suicidal thoughts we have a plan lads and ladies!!!",7.046354166666667,5.045478843750004,7.111250000000003,82.07541666666668,65.25,11.033333333333333,33.83333333333333,9.725611199111238,2.7634958333333324,242,8,54,4,3,78,51,64,0.114,0.6679999999999999,0.218,0.6777,1,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,1,0,0,2,1,2,0,0,2,0,5,4,2,1,1,7,7,3,2,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,3,3,2,0,1,0,3,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,5,2,3,4,1,2,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,22,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5114802315523712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2401964229440447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2377591687638232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20589124867170214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5540328822418573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2391103574903849,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17423320766790112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2505871901426798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20023468799556654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1818718072224177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13512317057990264,0.18184091557269733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,eprj,2019/02/11,"I’m getting my teeth professionally whitened today In an attempt to prevent myself from going down the binge/purge cycle further. I’m hoping before I binge I’ll mentally remind myself that I just got my teeth whitened, and don’t want to ruin them. Hoping it works. ",5.073,7.115572900000001,5.805,75.70750000000002,70.0,6.6000000000000005,28.5,7.1686216300943375,1.8406,215,8,34,2,4,70,38,50,0.076,0.763,0.161,0.29600000000000004,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,1,2,1,3,0,0,2,0,1,2,2,0,0,6,9,1,0,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,1,0,7,2,5,8,0,5,0,1,0,0,1,3,0,2,1,19,9,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2885299731117815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17715399568008014,0.0,0.19270555385424806,0.0,0.2711912472283381,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6735609194236389,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34171036202131777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3214058169714665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1999966911251416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2468524539872029,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Current_Selection,2019/02/11,"TW for assault etc .

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So this guy I was kind of in to, did not respect my boundaries and ended up raping me because ""I owed him"" on Saturday. I was kind of okay with it (I have a past history of assault), until I took a shower and noticed all the bruises, scratches, pain etc and my friend told me to go to the hospital (Sunday). Anyways I decided to take all the medications they gave me, including the 28 day course of HIV prophylactics which cause extreme nausea and loss of appetite. The thing is, I was already not doing great, my doctor told me if I lost any more weight I would have to discuss treatment options, and now with this I just have an excuse to not do anything to recover. I already am struggling enough, but I feel that in a sick way this gives me an excuse to restrict (yeah that sounds FUCKED UP) and no one can really say anything to me. Idk why I made this post, but I guess I just want to know if my mindset if as bad as it seems.",4.009615384615387,4.73531941666667,5.104375000000001,84.7723557692308,70.97916666666666,7.782692307692307,29.87339743589744,7.882392219407189,1.8717070512820515,736,29,152,9,13,243,118,192,0.199,0.765,0.036000000000000004,-0.9876,2,0,0,0,0,0,30.0,0,0,1,2,5,15,4,1,10,2,13,8,0,2,2,31,29,15,0,5,10,0,3,0,1,1,5,2,1,1,10,8,1,1,4,0,1,2,4,9,0,1,10,5,27,6,26,18,6,16,0,2,0,3,12,5,1,6,7,113,37,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3123982201348904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09625587456966908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23295996755870066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11818467930848052,0.08628489542323993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14540634101191655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09128521432975348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1448779386124842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12536740526471235,0.14625446171829354,0.31572156164613324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07156971782007726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1093577939425915,0.13085664371712458,0.0,0.13578345530069064,0.08044363706703951,0.0,0.0,0.1560545443938248,0.15592845706928685,0.1401524163527539,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2947959606445267,0.07778977033824958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15451376345885584,0.0,0.0,0.13393388691003075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1425923195563969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16115062512765724,0.0,0.0,0.09591497450793916,0.0,0.15061451807939855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13512130933654426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1355615759587246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09067774786675628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11256275727102194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1288578152465259,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14797421358709098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1064246897454144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09403661959866008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2705058090778806,0.15726239059217947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08348727327105543,0.1123523237733639,0.0,0.17236443105011234,0.0,0.0,0.12772290492726646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10054994643198717,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,androjennous,2019/02/11,Sos I’ve plateaued I’ve been yo-yoing in the 120’s for the past six months and it’s killing me. When I eat at maintence I peak at 127 (and that’s UNCOMFORTABLE for me) and when I restrict I sit at 120-121 but I can’t seem to get any lower than that. Any explanations or advice is welcomed. Love you all and have beautiful days! ,0.05637323943662054,2.14882229577465,1.831813380281691,97.73673415492958,86.60563380281691,5.240140845070423,20.142605633802816,6.6274283507984215,-0.013635211267605474,257,8,63,3,8,84,50,71,0.126,0.68,0.194,0.8432,1,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,1,0,0,2,3,1,0,2,0,4,2,0,0,1,9,7,8,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,4,1,1,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,1,0,8,2,8,6,1,10,0,0,0,1,3,4,0,2,5,35,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3265222507883027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4544595933687362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21549563374883127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3419133607063405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17457677016331205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3696815091424539,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3015785611495673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2667110439755048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3189788445176465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30419270813925364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,unforgettable_potato,2019/02/11,"A food stealing rant. Lots of foul language ahead, just mad as shit.

Someone ate my HALF BAG of lightly salted rice cakes and my half jar of extra crunchy peanut butter. I am pissed as shit.

I am in an airbnb, so basically a temporary roommate situation. I typically alternate between restriction and binging because my brain is dumb around food. I am also on a -tight budget-.

I try to be respectful of the shared spaces in an airbnb, so I put my groceries in an unused cabinet to one side. My peanut butter,  my rice cakes, my lentils and rice noodles. I didn't put my name on them. Because I didn't think I had to, we are all adults. Did you buy this food? No? So don't eat it. Wow. So simple. Much manners.

I go downstairs to take my cold medicine and enjoy my cronchy breakfast when lo and behold my peanut butter and rice cakes are gone. The fuck!!! That was my food. My carefully portioned until I get paid again food, you thoughtless fuck. My I based my meal plan for the rest of the week on these calories and macros food, you stupid fuck.

Now my BPD is kicking in and I think everyone in this house is a stupid fuck. (that's unfair). But my all or nothing mentality is starting to activate. The universe says this fat bitch can't eat??? Well watch this fat bitch universe, watch me. I am gonna not eat. Oh baby, am I ever gonna not eat. (we all know this is a lie. My longest fast was only like 5 days. Plus long fasts just trigger binge urges).

I am just upset. I can understand the peanut butter because it is delicious... But it was going to be my sole fat source of the day! I needed that fat to take my vitamins damn it. BUT THE RICE CAKES. CMON. I always buy the sad ass lightly salted kind. They are just air with texture.  I am less likely to binge those (I still do, just less likely). But this ass hat took that from me.

""just go to the store, you dramatic hoe"". I WOULD IF I COULD. But you see, the last couple hundred bucks in my account? I need for gas to get to work and I need to get an mmr booster shot so I can KEEP my job. Sooooooo. And even if I did had funds, the last place a hungry and mad me needs to be is the grocery store. I will buy pastry, I will buy full fat dairy and 🍫 and twizzlers. Alllllllll of the trigger foods. So no. Just gonna have my watered down protein shake a little earlier. Eat my clif bar a little earlier. Go to bed a little earlier. STAY IN MY ROOM AND AVOID THE OTHER GUESTS. Because I will glare at people like an immature brat and I am 31 year old lady with a basketball game tomorrow. So we gonna hide our ass from humanity for humanity's sake.

I am just pissed as hell. That was my food. My money. My calories and macros. Ugh.

I hope that the stub their toe in the dark later. Ass. ",0.455793184488833,2.8218339009009057,2.19596553074814,93.64492361927151,88.36936936936938,5.019193106149628,20.295730513121818,6.567769168759029,0.2380137093615353,2105,68,457,25,69,689,264,555,0.177,0.7879999999999999,0.035,-0.9976,1,1,0,0,0,0,95.0,4,5,3,3,24,35,17,3,32,0,43,38,15,2,4,64,77,38,0,9,18,0,1,4,1,8,6,1,2,3,19,23,23,4,4,2,12,9,8,23,1,3,14,14,76,12,49,51,11,53,1,1,3,8,20,23,17,5,24,283,95,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05397210347811208,0.05615747655119468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0600808260004393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16456625331169955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08500188277849842,0.0753416835664319,0.0,0.0,0.06881103089760214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0538856475498188,0.07467691998592507,0.0,0.08705153799697866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34529799274139683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04457681809356365,0.0610489928893139,0.0,0.06449003513395751,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6528779416960162,0.0,0.0,0.24957540334076855,0.1057829530711579,0.0,0.1534255548430931,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06703326377749183,0.0,0.07787493949713366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06697387628715093,0.05998862962735961,0.0,0.07028093749306788,0.037090996598389984,0.11002747973307517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13188973582977376,0.2029295402183741,0.0,0.0597269410451792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05737798305176965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06801451857532853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04961326008629306,0.20017330964679927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06475892499647881,0.0,0.07081989383739598,0.0,0.045733288294069634,0.05132954272362851,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04678939319078914,0.0,0.07051317523281586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1356931241785646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05367112962142241,0.0,0.0,0.053781165575667915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13855599262164586,0.0,0.07586211461812532,0.0,0.0,0.05718445515953879,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.047770101154885565,0.07193585979805578,0.053897975527111126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10148886641952004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08649033446242604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07498439408094107,0.045821598092542985,0.0,0.0,0.07025995815105553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054136783071310327,0.0,0.0606820366883724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04913386505976256,0.0,0.0,0.04794329260596005,0.0,0.0,0.043461649114973126
EDAnonymous,abbiwan,2019/02/11,"I need to break up with my mirror. I don’t know what to do anymore. Any time I’m in front of any mirror anywhere, I body check. Even in my reflection in windows as I walk through town, or in the mirrors at work, and i can’t stop. And then the whole day becomes about hiding myself or obsessing about food and calories and It fuels more behaviors and it’s getting to the point where I can’t stop myself anymore. Any mirror around me or any reflective surface for me to criticize and scrutinize and hate myself in and it just never ends. It’s so bad that I am exercising at work now while I have down time because I’m so ashamed of how I look and I need to do SOMETHING and restricting obviously isn’t enough. I don’t know how to stop doing it, I would love some advice, because I’m losing myself to this again. ",4.211208492106697,4.783893964071861,5.3105498094719685,84.02904735982581,70.437125748503,8.228415895481763,28.95427327163854,8.296473431620573,1.8882502994011967,640,23,133,9,11,212,92,167,0.185,0.79,0.025,-0.975,0,0,1,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,3,12,6,1,2,3,0,11,4,1,2,2,32,22,20,0,3,4,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,8,12,1,4,4,1,1,2,6,5,0,0,0,1,20,1,25,21,4,29,0,1,1,1,1,14,0,4,12,96,28,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14916962907588105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4152339928389264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30277924905015263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13589251784315545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1274579252981825,0.18611031175218745,0.16859198409953075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1695618015269707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09844781994543526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13520423686515914,0.15773017590172975,0.0,0.10082511262622122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18458723283173525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07975429541985597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1507121063294176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16778693811667222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1281891145084987,0.17077838245726934,0.0,0.0,0.13777426192337902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22637883717429466,0.1177345237079659,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14430534741010492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11751885831300507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3828713661793837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1780250521833595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1704303481328066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2222647416428048,0.0,0.0,0.10843950024700744,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,RaggedDoll,2019/02/11,"Raise your hand if comments from your Asian relatives shaped you into this mess From my own experience, I give you the Curse of Mrs. Chou, who warned 11-year old me that I'd get fat if I kept eating white rice like that.",19.302954545454547,6.91252884090909,15.515454545454546,62.19318181818183,56.04545454545455,19.41818181818182,53.09090909090909,11.20814326018867,5.6420272727272724,175,4,39,2,1,52,37,44,0.16899999999999998,0.7170000000000001,0.114,-0.4166,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,4,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,3,2,0,0,4,3,2,0,2,2,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,4,1,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,2,8,1,4,2,1,3,0,0,1,0,8,2,0,2,2,20,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4598434412167298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4395946995222347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2347904234644635,0.431100787657714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21955177578511886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4715646249525299,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2893957496148988
EDAnonymous,chili_jones,2019/02/11,i didn’t weigh my snack of roasted nuts :( i don’t think it could have been more than a serving tbh but i feel so full and now i’m just stressed ,-1.3195454545454552,0.5687169696969718,0.14265151515151686,108.73397727272727,91.42424242424244,3.3000000000000003,17.340909090909093,3.1291,-1.3883272727272726,112,3,31,0,4,35,29,33,0.218,0.782,0.0,-0.6908,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,1,1,0,5,2,0,0,0,6,8,3,0,1,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,2,0,2,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,2,1,4,0,2,5,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,20,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4936539636205301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3126258174612583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7082486889981386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3961750332754934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,pokipokitoki,2019/02/11,"Psychologist at Walden Behavioral Care found to have ties with white supremacist, hate groups Link: [https://northshoreantifa.wordpress.com/2019/02/10/dr-jason-arnold-eating-disorder-psychologist-supporter-of-proud-boys-and-the-american-guard/](https://northshoreantifa.wordpress.com/2019/02/10/dr-jason-arnold-eating-disorder-psychologist-supporter-of-proud-boys-and-the-american-guard/)

 Please be aware that a psychologist working for Walden Behavioral Care in Massachusetts has been revealed to be active in a number of hate groups that promote white supremacy and has broadcast multiple questionable social media posts in which he displays contempt for trans + Latinx communities and bodyshames individuals.

I don't believe WBC hired this individual knowing of his bigoted proclivities and would still highly recommend the program as a whole to those seeking intensive recovery programs. I do hope they seriously reconsider this doctor's position on their team, because his beliefs are so extreme that I can't see them not affecting every aspect of his life. I'm posting this because I feel it's potentially dangerous for such a bigoted individual to be treating people like us at what is often the most vulnerable points of our lives.",23.57808333333333,22.631670975,16.71375,22.72958333333335,33.0,17.166666666666668,54.79166666666667,15.021129683784007,8.229916666666666,1076,45,105,26,6,297,117,160,0.117,0.733,0.15,0.4215,0,0,2,0,0,0,58.0,2,0,3,3,4,10,4,0,6,0,13,2,0,1,0,17,23,5,0,2,1,0,1,1,0,1,2,0,0,0,10,4,0,0,7,1,0,0,3,5,0,0,2,4,12,5,19,17,2,11,1,0,3,0,14,8,0,4,2,70,22,7,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21724967307408027,0.0,0.0,0.20076256001900225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3633594048733616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18238814942534828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1501353399591286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09009976614185096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19537949476210614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3518575141819047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18827075325574888,0.0,0.17698591719367246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0979302466068744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12586302933493565,0.08705612910981952,0.0,0.15734773820598955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12353663244408175,0.0,0.0,0.1956024714697609,0.1684500404761608,0.0,0.34131939215989104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19961701059922354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14199679951061006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1816453861102443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14230520932431315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21434431299653076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19894618984387766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12972667124992532,0.0,0.0,0.12658323848464634,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,jakisaur,2019/02/11,great peach advertising i'd never heard of peach before but holy cannoli yall makin me so excited to sign up with all these posts about it.,1.0782142857142851,3.7018403928571466,2.732857142857142,87.93714285714289,91.5,7.085714285714286,17.714285714285715,8.07648339933343,1.0721857142857143,113,3,23,3,4,37,26,28,0.0,0.7809999999999999,0.219,0.7733,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,1,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,5,1,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,2,2,5,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,13,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4580125952042283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5934244546598118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4151329318302509,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5154963900513881,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,naggingforce,2019/02/11,"weird dream last night so last night i dreamt that everyone in my grade was taking formal photos for publishing in a school book. i dressed up as if for prom and for some reason i had to have my picture with my sister, and my mom was the photographer.

true to real life, my sister criticized my every move and after hours i left the set and ran to the cafeteria where one of my friends was (who has disordered eating in reality too). i saw how beautiful she was and immediately gorged myself on the buffet of food, and when my friend said i should head back to the shoot i promptly made myself throw up twice. 

i have “recovered”, but only from the purging part of my disorder. for the last month ive been only restricting, but the feeling of being able to quickly get rid of everything inside me in the dream is suddenly really appealing to me again, purely on how quick and easy it was (even though i know the consequences arent pretty).

another thing about this scene that disturbed me was that it made me realize my disorder started not only from my dad forcing me to eat too much as a kid, but also from the ever present insults, sometimes about weight though mostly my general appearance, from my sister.

the good thing is that my sister hasnt lived with me for about two years, but she still comes over sometimes. shes moving far out of state in a week though and i hope that helps me to reform my relationship with food.

thanks for listening to my rambling",8.85463180947167,7.144933444839857,8.50334519572954,72.59716397481522,61.52669039145908,12.062523952915411,35.138516287982476,10.891193690592663,3.608843197372023,1162,38,218,24,13,373,160,281,0.075,0.815,0.11,0.8641,1,0,0,1,0,0,23.0,0,0,0,0,21,9,1,1,15,0,19,8,1,5,3,38,34,23,0,3,6,6,2,0,2,1,1,2,0,1,11,13,6,1,4,3,0,6,3,3,0,3,13,5,39,6,45,19,4,42,0,0,1,0,18,14,0,5,20,166,50,6,0.10328630815386176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0825980233143279,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10830469979843216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07942079548700204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08897200887981142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3551251723512449,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.211375357392998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0682196324192536,0.09342837897790554,0.08702316932157138,0.09869449367851052,0.09282707382909501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05222466080891264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2497884276063437,0.0,0.15959749093381675,0.0,0.05396283302523349,0.0,0.0,0.08663165489376032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10600155026648596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06923063517359873,0.0,0.0,0.10258660914659684,0.10171620808915452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05676345379104796,0.2525763797559289,0.0,0.0,0.11222087602082974,0.0,0.07295417398809467,0.0,0.0,0.09120370239274604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1954640042672749,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12096767578735505,0.08244214575955366,0.2195539994911748,0.07592732076802121,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19385440679199892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06998947547572178,0.2356616748309304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11184900655337962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10507930749053088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11756243092965638,0.06616785380043763,0.10619552709250113,0.0,0.11089084113547723,0.0,0.0,0.09824893138089777,0.0,0.0,0.10453125804452898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20430559957646044,0.0,0.07310658052301391,0.0,0.08248457911203733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07765844959205445,0.0,0.0,0.09509215559493499,0.0,0.0,0.13723766731909876,0.0,0.3044348200438176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10089571497876326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0828500462669612,0.12577489783798074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06651299607645496
EDAnonymous,Ahlome08,2019/02/11,"Therapist says I don’t have BED just severe anxiety So this might sound a bit rambly, I apologize.  So I finally went and saw a therapist for what I thought (still think) was BED.  She says I just have severe anxiety and eat to make it go away.  Is that not similar or the same as Binge eating?  Like I HATE that I feel like shit after I eat so much that I can’t breathe.  My stomach is currently in my chest because i couldn’t stop eating or drinking yesterday because of all the stress.  Like yes, I know I have horrible anxiety, but wouldn’t eating continuously without being able to stop until you feel physically ill be considered an eating disorder?  Maybe she’s right and I just use it as an excuse and have self control but no motivation to stop?  Idk I feel crazy.  Like I feel so sick.  Spent half the night using the restroom and tried to throw up this morning because I felt so ill, that I thought if my stomach just didn’t feel so distended that I might be able to sleep.  I seriously can’t even lay on my side without feeling like I can’t breathe or like my stomach isn’t laying on top of my diaphragm.  ",4.534189189189192,5.37514386036036,5.596414414414415,81.2994864864865,69.85585585585585,9.163243243243244,31.016216216216225,9.3871,2.6645600000000007,875,36,177,18,15,290,118,222,0.219,0.6759999999999999,0.105,-0.9741,1,0,1,0,0,0,18.0,0,1,0,3,12,10,2,1,8,1,20,18,8,5,1,43,39,20,0,3,13,0,7,6,0,3,3,3,2,1,10,5,7,4,12,1,1,3,12,4,0,1,8,11,29,6,19,24,4,22,0,0,1,0,8,8,1,6,17,115,39,1,0.18005835907469722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20661622777611288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08458537775470434,0.0,0.0,0.16464285667600329,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09828854670171576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10097538018765548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10318123951213087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08819432147998679,0.0,0.5527339588561122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059463423999004436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2731287494895481,0.128633727700325,0.08644213081653522,0.09862256559163543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05116565745433183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08888517599452223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04947768260727769,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2639022574346184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060095176429216364,0.0,0.09044641158945577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19101346459171506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06618180585011511,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0844862862519235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07688442741381601,0.0,0.1431896341495481,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09392006889193592,0.203414694180145,0.09241365904101476,0.0,0.0,0.0900941975341136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07189741907395877,0.2258052759990857,0.1031281209831866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20906163288253676,0.0,0.0576870630285917,0.0,0.14294622439142868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061123903235306774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15551261036664604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08345795139487541,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17356983275048055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Catoverloadzzz,2019/02/11,"Woooo Down 8lbs, drunk af, the guy I'm (I think?) I'm in love with loves my body. I hate myself still. Why do women get so much... Expectations. It kills me. 

Is this what happiness is. ",-2.1981578947368448,-0.9860277894736812,0.2361842105263144,101.82953947368424,116.36842105263158,4.0052631578947375,10.013157894736842,5.985473137389443,-1.3055368421052629,136,2,34,2,8,45,33,38,0.192,0.579,0.23,0.4404,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,0,2,5,2,0,1,0,3,4,1,0,0,3,10,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,3,1,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,5,3,3,10,1,3,0,0,0,2,4,2,0,0,1,18,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3278287549684272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15419599895390795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29223032150528805,0.0,0.3141769862704141,0.0,0.29138498017658376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3265234517953547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5327422137096263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21695838445405966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2356954103674621,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1891107659849538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2663136786492587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,pineapple513,2019/02/11,"boyfriend said i broke the car because of my weight so for context i just started dating this guy two months ago and on a date a week ago, his car basically broke down (long, awful, but sort of cute? story). today I texted him about his car and he goes ""you weigh too much that's why it happened."" 

so that shit hurt really bad and I just don't know how to feel. he immediately backtracked and apologized a lot and said it was a joke. he said I was gorgeous and he wasn't serious, but not once mentioned that I was skinny and that. kills. me. I b/pd after because i just can't help the feeling that he does think I'm fat and I feel SO PATHETIC that I'm letting his words affect me like that. like if I were skinny enough he wouldn't even think about making a joke like that, if that makes any sense? 

he has no clue about my ed and not planning on letting him know now, but is this even a relationship I should go forward with? he's always been so caring and gentle so it really surprised me. I don't think he realized how insensitive it was, but I'm afraid justifying it will make me lose what little self-respect I have (which is already a pretty fucking small amount).

it's such a new relationship but my friends who know him tell me that it's his sense of humor and he won't do it again because he realized I was hurt. they also don't know about my ed, so im unsure if my ed is causing me to overreact. I kind of wanted to vent and get another perspective, because I don't know how to emotionally deal with this. ",2.3984615384615395,3.957903025477709,3.926369426751595,88.42278294953456,76.07006369426752,6.996374326310632,23.86036256736893,7.748469712250963,1.0229558059774622,1186,37,259,17,26,394,155,314,0.16399999999999998,0.685,0.15,-0.7129,0,0,0,0,0,0,33.0,0,1,1,2,23,23,3,1,10,1,25,7,4,8,0,54,52,30,1,6,13,0,4,3,1,4,1,3,0,1,24,14,5,0,13,2,0,5,11,11,0,1,11,7,36,12,19,35,4,23,0,5,0,1,33,6,2,5,17,160,60,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18782936055837476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11691397542037894,0.08472492712736257,0.08815550630495775,0.0,0.0,0.07204686984865763,0.11109355199764576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08846043159766295,0.2583346380989439,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10801894316982376,0.10883566091826012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10922560844237883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09271400297237736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11917491860893795,0.0,0.10947047351979196,0.0,0.13995258369274094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16070834641337525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08185356771565715,0.09794531108743992,0.055352379054522206,0.0,0.06021151722772791,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10490313391348627,0.09368764173911548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07101332797932347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2268346324597021,0.0,0.11443979181443015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11721348152081487,0.1103263894459425,0.2911255798242394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21667379621910196,0.0,0.15527949908728791,0.106185661351044,0.0,0.0937588198622882,0.0,0.11852640300223233,0.0,0.09007144653436946,0.0,0.0,0.2121592058560422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08456503571665919,0.0,0.07788245360988665,0.0,0.0,0.10232324564513576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11282896465190895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10778510565378893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1357433596221085,0.0,0.0,0.22749257324334785,0.0,0.0,0.3023365409088619,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11052471770080652,0.0,0.10875198131465304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07498907914263102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09260141824135744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20365763456454936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10042435985164426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10349378539614534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06248965830158704,0.0,0.08498343968540553,0.12901360863348768,0.0,0.0,0.09559972883864756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,throwaway794797,2019/02/11,"i just need to vent. i just took my first laxative hi, i’m using a throwaway because my bf and a couple of my friends know my reddit account. i’ve been lurking on this sub for a long time. i’ve been restricting for a little over a month now and today, i binged on tons of snacks and cookies and i felt so horrible about myself that i took my first laxative ever. i hope this doesn’t become a regular thing but it probably will, knowing my personality. i hate myself for eating so much today. my life is just going downhill.

BUT i’m really thankful that this community exists. in the future i’ll post more instead of just lurking. you guys seem like very supportive people.",2.1954135338345857,4.6483588796992485,4.173646616541357,82.06016917293233,80.50375939849624,6.807518796992482,24.53759398496241,7.957251820313856,1.7091894736842104,533,20,98,10,14,181,86,133,0.095,0.784,0.121,0.6579,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,1,0,2,10,6,1,0,7,0,5,3,0,1,1,19,20,8,0,2,6,0,1,1,2,1,1,0,0,2,7,4,2,1,4,0,1,3,1,1,0,2,5,1,17,5,12,14,3,19,0,0,0,0,6,5,0,2,11,68,24,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10266475473121396,0.18600210309973447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1863489632936168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17233148605179188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1523418016863474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16170565194068154,0.0,0.0,0.28650891590506233,0.0,0.0,0.1301176878988123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09571462338412944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16675819538592165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1662758101435767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16727496545756765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1851139218098383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11895711375356192,0.08227948991997673,0.16879695202780073,0.0,0.1490427503781072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1344279453127297,0.0,0.12380504691998324,0.12487823794407894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11675836276970628,0.14705424667860065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1612958546048233,0.0,0.1815807990675139,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10789152259680436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1533194881050007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19111634008256348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1550547110851268,0.0,0.0,0.11188802442760606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09820465156574727,0.0,0.3192771158859281,0.0,0.3742324697595196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1454572429369438,0.0,0.138960735503739,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ConsistentWing,2019/02/12,Venting like a whiny baby lol I wish I had someone to call me pretty. I'm 22 now - a big girl - I should be over this desire but I'm so not. 11 years - that's half my life - of torment for being ugly just didn't help. I try so hard - why am I still not desired or told that I'm pretty like all the other girls?,-1.9308253968253977,-0.1173766857142855,1.0976190476190482,101.04626984126986,94.42857142857142,3.111111111111111,13.492063492063492,3.1291,-1.5895555555555556,232,4,59,0,9,81,55,70,0.153,0.62,0.227,0.5596,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,0,5,2,0,0,3,1,6,1,0,0,1,10,11,4,0,4,5,0,1,2,0,1,1,0,0,2,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,1,3,1,7,2,4,5,1,5,0,0,0,0,5,2,0,1,5,35,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2813812246746578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24685084116045106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18470445880632366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19463870568779806,0.2692528915227984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5606944547919822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2334841267971632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22006543066596404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2633128093703409,0.0,0.1870895821117804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2486532694583047,0.0,0.3168845171165364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17745391058572507
EDAnonymous,EmilyVS,2019/02/12,"Traveling with ED You would think I would be an expert at it by now. My fiancé and I are going on a holiday to celebrate our 6 year anniversary, engagement, and Valentines Day. He likes to have three meals a day and we will be together constantly throughout the trip. I won’t be able to hide how I have been keeping it under 500 calories a day and how anxious it makes me to go over that amount. It has gotten bad lately. I am supposed to be recovered. I don’t want to raise suspicion and worry him.

This is supposed to be a fun, relaxing, celebratory trip, but my ever-present eating disorder insists that it comes along as part of my luggage.

I want to enjoy myself, be indulgent, create wonderful memories that are untainted by mental illness, live in the moment. It is more difficult than it sounds.


Anyone else struggling with something similar to this at the moment?",5.169909090909091,6.671497096969695,6.2925,74.43875,68.93939393939394,9.863636363636363,32.53787878787879,10.125756701596842,3.6133333333333333,691,31,119,18,12,231,111,165,0.129,0.721,0.149,0.384,0,0,1,0,0,0,20.0,2,1,0,0,3,8,0,1,8,0,20,3,0,3,0,21,30,9,0,4,1,0,0,1,0,4,1,1,0,0,12,10,2,1,2,3,0,6,2,3,0,1,2,1,16,5,23,18,3,21,0,0,0,0,5,6,0,1,10,91,28,0,0.1851314991058616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2091458984034615,0.0,0.12944824869657634,0.18968909866234315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15457706880551073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1594743938164825,0.0,0.2000613813634625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3581835041294621,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2121767370162164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18943574171471572,0.15465361194784286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1674620399196011,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2104289945978645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1645533826838525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2088363947519201,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09044589910989864,0.0,0.163474505476771,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12357671322281287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1865690077054131,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20047937259876109,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14252327271840098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1935396392233708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1186247893447372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2183907095287667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20076721359928135,0.0,0.18801002383882176,0.0,0.2630242105652082,0.0,0.0,0.11921861564955165
EDAnonymous,some-kind-of-rescue,2019/02/12,"In a new relationship; having a boyfriend around is making everything harder. This is my first post here, so I hope that this belongs. I've had issues with food my entire life, but the past year or so has taken that to new heights.

In January of 2018, I started heavily restricting the types of foods I'd eat. I did eat some, but because I'd categorized so many *entire food groups* as unsafe, there wasn't much I ""could"" eat. For about 10 months, I was eating an average of about 500-800 calories a day and I lost 50 pounds.

And then in October, I was diagnosed with a chronic illness. The root is neurological, but it manifests as fainting, dizzy spells, and heart problems. My doctor and I talked about the restrictions I had put on myself in terms of what foods I was ""allowed"" to eat, and she was pretty appalled. She essentially explained that I would not only never feel better, but also continue to deteriorate, if I didn't change the way I was eating.

I fought it for about a month and a half, until I ended up in the emergency room for a second time in early November after passing out during a lab (I'm in college). I started ""recovering""; my anxiety was at an all-time high, though. I had always been afraid of food, but that period was different. My birthday was in early December and I actually cried at dinner that night, in public, over being forced to order food.

I met my boyfriend that night. He's been one of the first people to make me feel decent about my body. Our relationship progressed very, very quickly and I got lost in it, which meant less focus on food and my anxiety around it. I started eating, and eating *very* unhealthy foods (he has a pretty awful diet). Between mid-December and now, I've gained about 20 pounds. I can't let go of how disgusting I feel.

We're getting more comfortable with each other now, and the excitement is dying down. With that, I'm feeling more self-loathing than I have in a long time. I've slowly started to restrict again, and over the past few days, I've decided to start fasting pretty much entirely.

The difference is that before, there wasn't really anyone around to worry about me and make me feel guilty. The person that I'm the closest to in the world is my cousin, who is a recovering/recovered bulimic. She's concerned, and has been pretty vocal about that, but she's also made it clear that she's going to stay out of it unless I bring it up with her and that my choices are my own. I don't really feel guilty when it comes to her because I know that she's been through it and doesn't take on my issues as her own problem.

My boyfriend, though... man. He worries more than anyone I've ever met. Not only will the weight loss freak him out, but my illness gets much, much worse when I'm not eating. The idea of being back in the ER/hospital doesn't really freak me out much, because I've been surrounded by doctors for the past four months, but the idea of putting *him* through that anxiety simply because I'm selfish and hate myself and don't want to eat is really killing me.

And at the same time, I've been dealing with this for a long time and I know that no amount of guilt will convince me to eat once I've decided that I'm going to lose weight. I just needed to vent, I guess. I feel like an asshole for knowingly putting him through this and I don't know that our relationship will survive it.

TL;DR - I lost 50 pounds through intense restriction and fasting, was diagnosed with a chronic illness and met my boyfriend, then gained 20 of it back. The amount of self-loathing is horrendous and I've decided to start losing weight again. I've never really had anyone to worry about me before, and I feel like an asshole for doing this willingly, knowing what I'll be putting my boyfriend through.
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EDAnonymous,mrsbertmacklin,2019/02/12,"ED sponsors? So you know how when people join AA or NA or lots of addiction groups, people have the option to have sponsors to call during moments of weakness or needing to vent. Is there any sort of network or system like that for people with EDs? I'm wondering because I've been in treatment for about five months now, and phone calls to my SO help immensely with my binge/purge cravings, but I don't want to constantly be burdening him every time my thoughts start spiraling out of control. Are sponsors for EDs a thing?",8.3049,7.356407690000001,7.5500000000000025,76.55500000000002,62.1,10.4,38.0,9.3871,3.4794,419,18,76,6,5,130,76,100,0.068,0.875,0.057,-0.2869,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,1,0,1,7,3,0,0,2,0,7,2,0,2,0,19,14,10,0,2,5,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,4,0,1,3,0,0,0,1,2,1,1,2,0,6,1,17,11,1,10,0,0,0,0,7,2,0,8,8,48,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2438212251673176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15209572837352953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13634039559354674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.456761507298566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2416958253990682,0.2508524856396083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1884422779832612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14991385282846942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12291708773621016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.109268445965655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19014680714206764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1785224081112313,0.0,0.0,0.16584024777438308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4651707806799054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1583069276460902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14858904161003353,0.0,0.0,0.17756019157712902,0.130417309023479,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1319198199055409,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2425485472170765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,thestoriesofaly,2019/02/12,"#1 - the cure (or lack thereof) I was so convinced that one day I'd find a magic solution to all of my ED struggles and I'd be set for the rest of my life. By that, I mean a diet or way of eating that would taste good, be convenient and easy, be healthy, and I would never binge or restrict again, all while losing weight quickly.  


That's why I tried so many different diets. Keto. Paleo. Vegan. Intermittent fasting. You name it, I've tried it. I was so sure that one day I'd find a diet and I'd go on it and it would magically work for me. But after so many failed diets, I'm realizing that there simply is no magic trick. The only way to lose weight is to eat less and move more.  


It's hard for me to accept that the answer I've been looking for has been right in front of me the whole time and I never noticed it. I always knew about the good old CICO but I also thought... I don't know what I thought, actually. I guess maybe I assumed that it was possible but difficult and that these other ways of eating made it much faster and easier. I was wrong.  


Tell me I'm not the only one who felt like this?",0.8176208247807429,2.7286634248927086,3.098208621011384,90.89338122784102,82.13304721030043,5.940585930210861,19.14331031908938,7.079830092131019,0.2347743608882253,850,21,190,11,23,291,129,233,0.09,0.805,0.104,0.4862,1,0,0,0,0,0,31.0,0,1,0,4,9,13,1,1,10,0,16,11,0,1,5,41,28,21,0,4,7,0,4,1,0,3,1,0,0,0,22,9,10,1,12,0,0,3,5,7,0,3,11,6,20,6,18,11,8,22,0,3,1,0,4,3,0,5,13,125,42,2,0.0,0.0,0.10903186898668303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08935003599812143,0.09296788948475536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14411256098025166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11673354083649892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3429814970324601,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10727783578012076,0.0,0.20423746676098795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06349844625669221,0.1874267972219524,0.0,0.0,0.12308263415354592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10008768072948332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061403607932685865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0789178458574413,0.054585387101653615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09382463518160948,0.24999344901311985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10572114874441824,0.0,0.2265523405901222,0.11224729420412216,0.12170617360735718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1187507701208214,0.08213403386236724,0.0,0.17234534738046106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12720476947571566,0.11724130904626752,0.0,0.22713239018253603,0.16995062984651885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12595821683847605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09541637741038003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11680392621986635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10530372584616236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09765650244708504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.177401475886786,0.065150366465724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15171398464099214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26605701531093084,0.0,0.2721128472219558,0.0,0.0,0.1008184899386612,0.12474198997899415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08134040233575476,0.0,0.0,0.2381082806202781,0.1221586621170668,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,impkidz,2019/02/12,"My girlfriend has recovered but im worried I trigger her I'm pretty far down the ED rabbit hole again (I basically recovered once in my teens but have been in a strong relapse since around April '18), and my gf always tries to help me but im terrified that my disordered ass is bringing back her bad thoughts. She's a recovered bulimic/orthorexic survivor and i know a lot of my Ana behaviours make her nervous. I HATE doing that to someone I care so much about. 

Lately, I've been able to eat 400/600 cals meals with her since she encourages me that eating together makes her happy and she likes to see me eat, and that dispels guilt and all since she's so sweet, but the minute I'm alone again it's back to fasts and 700cal daily limits. i know that would upset any caring partner. She found out I just smoke on my breaks instead of eat and weigh myself 5 times a day and got really upset and asked me to throw out my scale (which I have in my house for medical reasons for a family member, so i couldnt). We talked about EDmemes and tumblr pro-ana nonsense and laughed before, but I know it hurts her to see me still internalizing ED thoughts and struggling since she got away and healed from her disorder. I know the thoughts of b/p pop up in her head still; I'm terrifed if it's because of me.

I want to recover too since I think she's so brave for that, but I feel guilty and shameful to keep having these behaviours and hiding them, since I did it without hiding before and I know it makes her sad. I feel pressure to be thin and pretty but i feel pressured to rush recovery since I'm hurting someone I care about. I don't know what to do. ",4.914247104247103,5.323019189189194,5.441733161733165,84.29135135135138,68.81981981981983,8.625139425139427,29.37065637065637,8.563005593585519,1.991539510939511,1302,45,269,19,21,419,174,333,0.202,0.6409999999999999,0.157,-0.9413,0,1,1,0,0,0,28.0,1,0,1,2,17,23,1,8,8,0,14,10,2,5,1,58,47,29,0,4,10,0,4,1,3,1,2,0,0,1,14,22,6,2,15,0,0,3,3,13,0,0,9,7,53,10,36,35,3,28,0,3,2,1,25,13,1,2,12,166,67,0,0.08328679196397568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08625999849244524,0.0,0.0,0.0693012828798237,0.0,0.0,0.056637874561295175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0741429026732387,0.07786190759583707,0.0,0.0782506826836937,0.1280848040668802,0.06954099239829524,0.05077085534118518,0.0,0.14174185119851682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2547493055429447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05371309067237638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1909077584399605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3408927229982208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07851537512897219,0.0,0.1263369135152443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09131966851630884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1332241118536662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08866033875725568,0.0,0.08222846414662724,0.08547627679510238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055825381043226194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0961017756276872,0.17832046675167915,0.0,0.17992805481270174,0.0,0.0,0.0740291274945149,0.0,0.0,0.2746334563537208,0.0,0.09395112905267436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.040689719575237614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0708074521639065,0.0,0.0,0.16678374110547714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08390268068879164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06122537519462879,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08869771525479662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16946521913912094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05335565161231643,0.08563269353458047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1327375800359644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4822698648219269,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14113725711044206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13302587929673212,0.0,0.0,0.0870694384620225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06694276853303599,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05336681331725224,0.0,0.1983612287833695,0.0485651981688331,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056546264654930574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0491247077867246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08028549535717039,0.0,0.0,0.08458178007650709,0.0,0.05916454739640746,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,xrnz,2019/02/12,"People treat you better when you're skinny I've noticed I get a lot more random compliments from strangers / friends since losing 3 kg. Not only this but I think people are generally much more polite e.g. get less rude comments about what I'm eating even if it is unhealthy.

I'm still a long way to go from my goal weight but it is a little motivating to get some validation.",3.894909909909913,5.716918581081085,4.847027027027028,82.27882882882884,72.64864864864866,7.095495495495496,24.495495495495497,7.793537801064563,1.2917279279279277,301,9,57,4,6,98,57,74,0.128,0.721,0.151,-0.0672,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,1,0,4,4,6,1,0,3,0,3,3,1,1,0,10,10,4,0,1,4,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,3,0,2,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,0,1,4,4,5,10,6,6,0,1,0,0,3,1,0,4,3,32,8,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21089186467581947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24399644424626485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15749563187857665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.184227815289157,0.0,0.3737447792023851,0.0,0.13551805478587495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2389920555899627,0.0,0.21102296490388603,0.0,0.2667673613816912,0.0,0.20272379418578385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17529002923551246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2714797595069947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18135387654471294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3306258885652729,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19725037777067334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1904284799960653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15279073810245838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1892725008909077,0.0,0.29037091387003017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,lunarfroth,2019/02/12,how am i hungry and full at the same time?? i just ate a huge salad and was full for like 10 minutes afterward and now i’m STARVING?!?! why does my body do such strange things? it would be easier to understand my ed if could just behave normally. i also have lost 8 pounds since yesterday so i’m just not understanding what the fuck is going on,1.0448571428571434,3.4132199857142886,2.9939285714285724,89.18232142857146,84.85714285714286,6.928571428571428,20.17857142857143,8.07648339933343,1.0661428571428568,269,8,57,6,8,90,58,70,0.166,0.7340000000000001,0.1,-0.725,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,1,8,3,1,0,3,0,8,4,1,1,0,15,16,7,0,4,5,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,3,2,0,2,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,3,0,5,1,4,10,3,10,0,1,0,1,0,5,1,1,5,39,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21400319467315404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.297248234472779,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21366039082337085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2341824714372309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2473960165756064,0.0,0.0,0.15208578490107624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13073802480023902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29212188621053536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26219555874431794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22136517951564816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17778451624691655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15604231606671987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5571713730974245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2414714072353632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1900985346066069,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,quentintarrantino,2019/02/12,Vertical sleeve gastrectomy I can go to Mexico and get the surgery there but I don’t qualify for the surgery here. Seriously debating doing it. The thought of just not being hungry anymore is making me want to plop down the $5k. ,2.6663636363636343,5.425472909090914,4.737454545454547,76.77118181818186,81.27272727272728,8.974545454545455,29.25454545454545,9.3871,3.4354509090909087,184,9,33,6,5,63,38,44,0.049,0.916,0.035,-0.1531,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,4,0,5,0,0,1,0,7,10,2,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,1,0,3,0,5,8,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,24,4,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5722707210353365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3014806879187827,0.0,0.3279463312059033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3851800917582942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4581069821173183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3403543893572354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ArcticLurker,2019/02/12,"screw you mum I’ve lost about 7 kg over the last 2 months. My mother has noticed this and complimented me several times (unsuspecting of my relapse). 
About two days ago I was preparing a tea in the kitchen when she goes:
“I’m going to make some chocolate pudding do you want some?”

Referring to my recent weight loss I answered:
“Fuck you know what, why not I’m able to afford this”

This woman knows I’ve struggled with bulimia in the past so her answer threw me off completely:

“Yeah you’ve lost some weight but if you lost 5 more kg you’d be literally perfect.

Little side note here, she’s been saying this to me ever since I was ten years old and asked her if my weight was normal for my age and height, which was literally the first time I ever even questioned anything regarding my physique. 

I’ve been eating disordered ever since (18 years old now) switching between b/p and restriction.

After that conversation I obviously noped the fuck out of the kitchen and cried hard in my room. 

Thanks for that mum, really.",3.751440576230493,5.872338081632656,4.3789195678271335,84.20305522208888,73.79591836734693,7.672989195678271,25.81512605042017,8.4952907291091,1.783789075630252,808,28,156,15,17,257,126,196,0.134,0.7979999999999999,0.068,-0.8539,1,0,0,0,0,0,20.0,0,5,0,6,10,11,3,1,7,1,10,10,0,1,5,29,25,10,0,4,4,3,4,0,0,0,0,1,3,1,8,7,7,1,6,0,0,2,2,8,0,3,10,5,24,3,19,13,4,32,0,4,0,3,17,10,3,6,20,92,32,0,0.11830296034443667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10486843635317064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09735325629797917,0.0,0.11059729819629384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1240384031131312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12995024685930787,0.07629562246244008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13558544184254742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12105346279878634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07813798956570854,0.3210354018115297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10062843763388253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21873836105985128,0.0,0.0,0.06723429865653435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1059762153990772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13003242623121164,0.09643270236649734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11857064556795445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38742496850112174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07896814466745371,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09442829427085188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11591178304072795,0.0,0.1346887044588828,0.2482781123630731,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11293356190775122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1325263904901494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07578790571707526,0.0,0.1168099011646526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09407926239903654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13364867159033822,0.0,0.19572286261195612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12367594047853782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10891747138116666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13796681508809347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11556480216405075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06977815113515995,0.0,0.0,0.4321834040893411,0.0,0.0,0.10675002086247673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1523664554938073
EDAnonymous,stop-meowing,2019/02/12,"While it SUCKS that I can’t use Peach... ...it has brought me out of my binge cycle!!

I was hardcore binging bc of stress in my life, but for whatever reason, Peach being down has put me back on my game. So I guess there’s a bright side to all of this?
",1.805,2.587024129629629,3.0046296296296298,97.56583333333336,76.22222222222223,6.140740740740743,20.907407407407405,5.985473137389443,-0.20539259259259304,189,4,48,1,4,61,44,54,0.075,0.836,0.09,0.424,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,0,3,3,1,1,1,0,5,1,0,2,1,6,9,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,4,1,0,0,1,1,0,2,1,2,0,0,2,1,8,1,9,6,1,9,0,0,1,0,1,5,1,1,2,33,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3032507684222356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4344495802122156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27855940230565795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39645676528513296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4054841681745151,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4517563275737346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3406142043550608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,maybethisistherealme,2019/02/12,"Maybe it’s a sign of the universe or something First of all I made a lot of stupid decisions the last few years and I definitely don’t have my life under control (I probably wouldn’t post here if I did).  
I think I’ve had an eating disorder for almost four years now. It started when I was fourteen. And a few months later fourteen year old me had the awesome idea to wear a “motivational bracelet”, but not an obvious red-pro-Ana-butterfly-thing, instead I wore a self made bracelet and melted its ends together so it couldn’t just fall off. I think my idea behind this was that it would only come off if my hand were skinny enough and at this point I could stop losing weight. Even at my lowest weight my hands weren’t skinny enough (mostly because they have bones inside). So I just kept wearing it and remembered its “meaning” from time to time. 
Today it somehow tore. Maybe it’s a sign  that I should stop trying to lose weight, not because I’m too skinny but because it’s been going on like this for too long. I’ve been trying to recover for a few months now. My weight has been more or less stable since October and I stopped counting calories in December. 
On top of that it seems like perfect timing. Tomorrow is my birthday. Maybe I’m getting too old for this. Maybe I should let go of the past. Maybe I should try to get my life under control. ",4.331363725298374,5.432068479553906,4.802210917628647,85.84986695362946,70.52416356877323,7.596243396595581,27.54079436509489,7.85451343220497,1.5495234200743495,1067,36,215,13,19,339,146,269,0.084,0.821,0.095,0.5935,2,0,1,0,0,0,27.0,0,0,1,8,14,6,1,0,13,0,23,15,8,5,3,50,39,15,0,9,10,0,6,2,0,5,2,0,0,1,18,7,8,6,9,0,0,4,6,3,0,2,14,6,24,3,25,17,10,41,0,2,0,0,2,11,0,9,27,143,42,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08837534108076514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16139957771185334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07602447605232884,0.0,0.0,0.19797255769987845,0.07046499983442403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10114868522850867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09030762033194237,0.0,0.0,0.07816835986299975,0.18238347313682235,0.0,0.058292061474775315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07507025846540519,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09221992756361326,0.0,0.10031550318310432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19925989917742792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07194017974828351,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09024743892478734,0.12467523040347678,0.0862345599986994,0.0,0.0,0.0781035225932505,0.0,0.19747112022908606,0.0,0.0750318452145265,0.0,0.16701936596242942,0.0,0.0,0.4433235954116648,0.09613633691568917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14088972509244924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18521903454578845,0.0,0.0,0.06712244139179332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08425005774887552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0834301689654746,0.0,0.08452457024824164,0.0,0.09515457817633814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09997651051262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08034468011906397,0.09206994924569972,0.0,0.0,0.07300603203900524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06794355428714431,0.0,0.0,0.062467842979104175,0.0,0.0,0.22135716621511198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1131013856322234,0.0,0.0,0.15438783576261014,0.0,0.08365608984953145,0.0,0.0,0.17975949341718234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4298866948855586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06269432138525129,0.0,0.0,0.17050134332294992
EDAnonymous,problemproblem420,2019/02/12,"experience w ana and lexapro? Has anyone taking lexapro? I just started taking 10 mg a day because i've been feeling the lowest lows of my life, i was wondering how this will affect my body/body image/appetite. So far my appetite is nonexistent but thats also because my anorexic habits result from anxiety which makes my stomach upset. ",6.98322580645161,8.085814580645161,7.203387096774198,71.02508064516131,64.48387096774194,8.780645161290323,38.08064516129032,8.841846274778883,3.7312774193548393,272,14,41,4,4,88,51,62,0.152,0.8270000000000001,0.021,-0.7757,1,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,1,2,0,5,2,1,4,0,9,11,5,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,2,1,7,0,2,8,0,4,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,1,2,25,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2417226112722436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2312332368908989,0.0,0.0,0.21135194009198496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36851801129008893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3357502187879152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19493704825149305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29567488255745145,0.0,0.0,0.15283515121781074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2134999450592521,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2017654031848105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21394596185381196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4545339578238803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32779539722110057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,elephants78,2019/02/12,"Overweight former anorexic here So I’m at my highest weight over in my life (like, BMI overweight status). I miss my low weight, some 60 pounds ago, like crazy but I’m trying to stay alive this time. I feel like medically I should lose some weight or at least in better shape, but I’m afraid I’m going to trigger myself into relapse city one way stop to anorexia town. The hilarious (not) thing here is that I would love nothing more than to return to anorexia town but I want grad school more. So I feel stuck. Anyone else in this boat? ",2.6211320754717002,4.8164065849056605,3.0156981132075447,92.32128301886793,77.49056603773585,4.994716981132076,20.97735849056604,5.6839178017228535,-0.04466113207547195,422,11,86,2,10,130,70,106,0.145,0.665,0.189,0.8533,0,1,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,0,2,4,9,0,1,1,0,3,8,0,1,0,15,14,6,0,3,5,0,5,3,0,2,4,0,0,0,4,1,5,1,2,0,0,1,1,4,0,1,1,5,10,5,13,11,5,19,0,3,0,1,1,11,0,3,8,46,14,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1574453659398065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12419284153353492,0.1819880022172483,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15708641800779755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14837490437006762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17961540081142818,0.12688850186190012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10094294454848368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12545503406603287,0.2603217887136424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19870623888341174,0.0,0.0,0.1603048641626678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17892886411918113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17042679967165206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1203568151083903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17975630210112056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1893144206405204,0.0,0.14849445629473354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11799980239286975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10356898817457068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12058922100972795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1047621850971388,0.14098286455020095,0.0,0.6488632478584703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1261729085990793,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Strawberry_Smoothie,2019/02/12,"Went in for sterilization consult, did not expect blood work I didn't expect the doctor to be a good match, so I went there with the intention to check him off my list, instead, he ticked all the boxes and I made an appointment on the spot. 

As it's 100 km away from my home town, doing anything else but having the blood drawn then and there would have been highly impractical, so that's what happened.

Didn't mention my bulimia, only complicates things, and you know how doctors can get with sterilization even when you're an old hag like me: ""Ohhh, you have a mental illness, well maybe you're too unstable to make this decision! Fix denied!""

I've purged at least once a day, more frequently two times, during the last months and can amuse myself now with sitting here and keeping my fingers crossed they're not checking too many parameters or that mine are at least somewhat passable still. It wouldn't be a BIG issue, I set the date for April, so if the numbers were bad, I could still get a second draw, with plenty of time beforehand, but still... I don't need all that anxiety!",5.998750000000001,6.604376375000001,5.797115384615385,81.99788461538462,66.5,8.9,29.461538461538463,8.841846274778883,2.1458250000000003,858,28,166,13,13,267,143,208,0.08,0.865,0.055,-0.7163,0,0,0,0,0,0,29.0,0,2,0,1,17,5,0,0,15,0,18,6,3,4,2,31,28,16,0,7,6,0,1,1,0,2,3,0,1,0,8,9,0,1,2,1,2,3,6,1,1,2,8,1,16,4,18,15,6,30,0,0,0,0,6,10,0,3,16,112,24,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12222370922630132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13147720055845982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15010929286769795,0.0,0.1334013817671311,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12756344515028628,0.0,0.0,0.10303851394064756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3270629883934906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13346743917804468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10552666152142616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1669465933323877,0.0,0.0,0.13400760160699313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1412841949420484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16880591030976502,0.16026246342973616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16675850216180116,0.0,0.14201102915272024,0.0,0.0,0.08780548300498409,0.13023397708061474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07805561335628633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15117835648227462,0.10664779986807484,0.1619818310451128,0.1605105663237269,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16101070886613522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12752699043000335,0.0,0.0,0.11846752413095303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1676518712097418,0.17014997006093166,0.0,0.12151238048612595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3827778874796449,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10614417253210903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18632649083896885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15607219778160647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14365253106679762,0.2962170152955237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11631455472030724,0.0,0.0,0.11349611361745765,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,peachsy,2019/02/12,"Just purged my first ever “healthier” meal Usually in the past my purges have always been a planned b/p. Today where I live we have a huge snowstorm so I decided to make myself a nice and warm brunch. Baked apples lightly tossed in butter and organic brown sugar, in oatmeal with PB2 and chia seeds drizzled with real peanut-butter. 

To most that would be a nice “healthy-ish” breakfast but somehow after finishing it, I realized not only was it a huge portion, but I didn’t even feel full and it was insanely calorie dense. I probably only hot half of it up when I decided I need to get my shit together. 

Really just venting here but I can’t believe I have gotten to this place and I would really like to never return. ",4.67914285714286,5.941214342857144,5.8000000000000025,78.415,69.85714285714286,9.028571428571428,29.714285714285715,9.3871,2.7567285714285714,568,22,103,12,10,189,97,140,0.037000000000000005,0.86,0.103,0.6848,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,1,0,0,2,9,5,1,0,6,0,11,6,1,1,2,27,16,10,0,3,6,0,3,1,0,2,0,0,1,0,6,8,5,0,4,0,0,0,4,1,0,2,5,7,15,4,13,8,3,19,0,0,1,0,1,9,1,2,11,74,21,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18298845290492927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2477710037850809,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14525301846370342,0.19892739927577685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11119657716884296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1870611771667922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11489748777297415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1074402741882848,0.0,0.1941906251589943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1467962183206709,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16306557245202602,0.16961344748868673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3345133787395735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20993553640337556,0.0,0.0,0.2297663220943401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2371075812224366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25031354384201865,0.28176875626395376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22574150663116285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20845547843205803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2422073625403961,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31244526926473265,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,diabetomaximus,2019/02/12,"I put my scale away the other day I hate not knowing what I weigh every time I eat. I'm eating healthier, but still feel like I'm fucking up. I lost 150 pounds due to undiagnosed celiac disease and now if I gain back even a few pounds directly after eating, I feel disgusting. Even my boyfriend was starting to notice my obsessiveness, and I think that's what made me decide to put it away. I'm dying a little bit though having gone 3 days without it. I'm afraid the bit of belly I've gained back wont go away and my boyfriend won't think I'm attractive anymore, or that someone will see my love handles through my shirt. I'm worried I'll never learn to love myself. Just needed to vent a bit, sorry. ",4.723125000000003,5.011916729166668,5.645833333333332,83.08250000000002,69.20833333333334,8.066666666666668,28.5,7.793537801064563,1.6616583333333326,555,18,113,6,9,183,93,144,0.134,0.716,0.15,0.7486,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,3,8,10,3,2,5,0,5,8,1,1,1,19,27,7,1,2,6,0,2,1,0,3,0,0,0,0,7,3,4,0,7,0,0,4,5,6,0,0,4,3,16,4,13,20,4,20,0,1,1,3,2,5,1,2,12,63,23,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12559474512698893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35695273001894945,0.1947596234630788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4147804975999079,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16334711038676986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13143430850911322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3887588706723363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16729157447104548,0.0,0.10670127128358206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12806790982464353,0.09047300588268928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11707840521077888,0.0,0.0,0.07197351597617943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12503266747226455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0695990818211942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06187084034694395,0.12692846394794188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13824460489743542,0.0,0.22859853659865045,0.11983163741387592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09390337166844667,0.09767404829846917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14418265403055813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2546201967699979,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1009172059696714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1073032794627554,0.0,0.0,0.1417652500357581,0.08963779579408555,0.0,0.10113639299923692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16229404483712734,0.12442503368127662,0.0,0.07384591620902123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12207828211334612,0.0,0.0,0.12861100705541875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,daffodilhill,2019/02/12,"DAE think Alexandria Ocasio-Cortez's body is goals? I know I should value her mind and morals more than what she looks like, but I'm just so jealous that she can rock an all-white outfit and still look thin.",4.073571428571427,5.1852335000000025,3.074761904761907,97.95357142857144,71.14285714285714,5.6000000000000005,18.761904761904766,3.1291,-0.7972952380952383,165,2,37,0,3,47,38,42,0.127,0.79,0.083,-0.5926,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,1,3,2,1,0,1,0,3,1,1,0,0,8,8,4,0,1,2,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,5,1,1,7,1,2,1,0,2,0,3,1,0,0,2,19,7,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4303162293520427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21290597851252036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18926502276710644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6506401312385242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39116553036385227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3093796951236833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24823152488975295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,sendjubes,2019/02/12,"It’s 2:30am and I ate a block of dry plain ramen What the fuck. Why did I do that, I’m not uw or anything and I ate at least 700 calories today but here I am filled with 400 calories of plain fucking noodles to set me back. And I am pissed off.
Like nah you stupid bitch you couldn’t just hold off and go to sleep??? Nooooo you had to eat a dry ramen block. I bet I’m underestimating my food today as well because dinner was my Nan’s lasagna and y’all know you can’t trust the elderly not to load it with calories and then you can’t trust your parents not to give you a massive slice that’s definitely twice the size it should be like this is why I’m fat.
I’m just pissed off because I finally FINALLY broke my binge cycle that took me up from about 10lbs and have been restricting well for a couple of days and then this happens.
Now I can’t stop thinking about what to do about it. I’m going to be forced to eat 250 at lunch tomorrow and then dinner is a mystery meal because this bitch mooches off his parents who control what I eat and I cant exercise because I’m sick and everything is terrible.
I’m starting uni in two weeks and I’m starting it fat and I’m so angry like I’m gonna walk in there looking fat. I know logically I’m not “””””fat””””” I have a mid range bmi but I’m a trans guy so the chonkyness of my thighs ruins my life. I’m so afraid I’ll just read “big ol lesbian” because of my hips instead of gay boy. 
Uuugh I shouldn’t have kept it in my room but food hoarding yay. Now I’m full so maybe I can sleep but I’ll be burning in self induced anger.

On the bright side I’ve saved the seasoning which I’ll add to shiraki noodles one day.

Sorry about the rant I have no one to vent to and peach is still down",0.6379845353374805,2.511894772727274,2.4238199161728566,95.68863925422752,82.55614973262033,5.433617574794046,21.60543431131666,6.5153245180268975,0.1810115045526812,1351,43,320,13,37,446,186,374,0.204,0.7,0.096,-0.9935,2,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,8,0,1,20,23,8,1,14,1,27,28,10,2,0,46,58,27,0,3,12,2,0,3,0,3,7,1,1,3,17,17,15,7,5,2,1,5,11,13,2,4,8,3,33,10,39,43,2,43,0,2,2,4,16,18,6,2,22,179,50,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09239168601078608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08633154248847201,0.0,0.3422050169803844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12592449762840044,0.0,0.12422870987248524,0.0,0.1448144923467457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3446520625213849,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10090435910665983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2459806935882955,0.0,0.0,0.2715235993141737,0.0,0.0,0.20759044681256586,0.0,0.10770316032465874,0.12761545831844728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11116861133708532,0.09928325916529036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1234053749450617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07930223227738059,0.1645537710712071,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0942816283398454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11279401890369055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1521591250434409,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2493333068855125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11230407951504234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11712595159792878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22470955875844464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12568121142595104,0.15893580072847288,0.0,0.0896619191811042,0.09386583768962248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07194045140541447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2128446732264458,0.0,0.12474020807233398,0.0,0.0,0.10967508762889963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09005918721424314,0.0,0.2018950736493189,0.0,0.20261909635529146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,partytimez2,2019/02/12,"Thoughts on Eugenia Cooney? She posted a video recently and of course, the whole ass internet blew up. She really does look sick and ill. Do ya'll have any thoughts on her? ",2.5874999999999986,5.490152750000004,2.64875,90.32125,84.0,8.200000000000001,23.625,8.841846274778883,2.14885,136,5,27,4,4,41,28,32,0.267,0.733,0.0,-0.8813,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,2,3,1,0,0,4,5,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,3,0,4,3,1,5,0,0,1,1,3,3,1,0,1,14,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2403756122917418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30932898652388596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2968305815084794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3385320321486111,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2264455989014101,0.0,0.3490146320389054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5612404796033642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3946430204851725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,twa1238,2019/02/12,"It’s been “next week” for 2 days now ...so where is Peach!!!!!!!!


I’m fasting until it comes back up (can’t break it early without hating myself, I don’t make the rules) and there’s this guy who’s asked me out on a date for the second time now and I keep saying no and postponing because I can’t go on a date when I’m fasting!!! Get it together peach!!!! My social life depends on you! ",0.9695818815331024,2.324636585365856,3.0810104529616744,93.8376829268293,79.48780487804878,5.661324041811848,20.25087108013937,6.18269132825596,-0.04893240418118472,288,7,68,2,7,98,58,82,0.067,0.8959999999999999,0.037000000000000005,0.2892,0,0,0,0,0,0,22.0,0,1,0,0,7,1,1,0,4,0,5,1,0,2,0,9,14,6,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,6,5,0,1,0,0,0,2,5,1,0,1,1,1,7,0,9,13,0,23,0,0,0,0,6,6,0,1,14,43,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26992095579899683,0.0,0.0,0.22201339399824815,0.0,0.17600542066809066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2487129163228033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18620515757799352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15084804472467864,0.0,0.1640903209374703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2858853206788715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2850583336790459,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2566340007235272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20393655936229413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1927276473651401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3070646517216746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2296074573407936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2943210191515419,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16835915164503348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2315995433167157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27832271662403996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,properrank,2019/02/12,"i think my friends are the reason i’m relapsing so, for context, i was anorexic around five years ago and was very underweight, and somehow i woke up one day and thought “this is gross, i’m going to recover”. it was, surprisingly, one of the easiest things i’ve ever done. it was like something clicked in my brain and i realised being a little chubby really didn’t matter. 

cut to now, five years later, and BOY do i regret recovering. i despise my body, and i miss my collarbones and my hipbones and not having massive thighs. 

but i was going lose weight naturally this time—do it with exercise and a healthy diet. i was talking about it with my newfound college friends and i said i want to lose weight 

do you know what every single one of them said? “don’t eat”.

half of them are overweight and the other half are ex-anorexics themselves, so i didn’t feel like i could be angry about the joke. but i also didn’t feel like i could confess to that being triggering because oBvIoUsLy a 10 and a half stone girl isn’t anorexic

i actually felt so triggered and alone and here i am starving and all they’re saying how much better i look :)",4.074428910577684,5.594902668161438,5.082833025586918,81.98516222632553,71.64573991031389,7.758269585861251,29.26114481667107,8.313332769828598,2.1193916644684783,897,36,171,14,17,294,128,223,0.13,0.72,0.15,0.5806,0,2,1,0,0,0,22.0,0,1,2,3,12,15,2,0,8,0,25,9,3,4,3,41,41,22,0,4,3,0,5,3,2,0,2,3,0,2,10,18,5,0,8,2,0,2,6,7,0,8,15,10,27,8,15,21,3,13,1,4,2,0,12,4,0,1,10,123,37,1,0.0,0.0,0.1335802816490254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12134053636441552,0.0,0.0,0.14177186159853733,0.0,0.1094671042962438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12185691537224892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0834439926091613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12106390113709793,0.0,0.15204868102367594,0.0,0.15280923664881568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21858350593279424,0.0,0.0,0.0882796776016726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1400811610251588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1400678089192321,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12382056731410045,0.11533174729935305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13842661512248353,0.1955817344320756,0.13143132967808424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21151444652599066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15559011166323206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07522856682312147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2006256918475059,0.13719500576739174,0.0,0.0,0.1149491548632192,0.30627921579205925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10062642673442243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27827101318335856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08769221177929412,0.14074086005412773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2604184842908126,0.10885666419038333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10538097166335236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11002319825358793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0909404937247876,0.08771055650123961,0.0,0.10867161745527824,0.07981890416912489,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11294468697359256,0.0807384812789913,0.0,0.0,0.33337877365622953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17629925720738038
EDAnonymous,letsgetlower,2019/02/12,"Lmfao life sucks I literally ate 230 calories yesterday and woke to 2 pounds heavier guess its time to drive into oncoming traffic 🙃

My metabolism is so fucked from being bulimic for 6 years that I don’t know anymore what will cause me to gain or lose anymore. ",6.779533333333332,7.23693042,7.43,71.47833333333334,64.8,10.666666666666668,36.66666666666667,10.504223727775694,4.020866666666667,211,10,37,5,3,70,46,50,0.191,0.688,0.122,-0.6015,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,2,1,3,2,0,0,0,4,3,0,1,0,6,10,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,3,2,1,0,1,0,0,1,1,3,0,0,2,0,4,0,6,6,0,5,0,1,0,1,0,1,2,2,3,20,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6315072319127383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3270703914915621,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2943429660080933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3507383594374834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17497676140880866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22488563050940955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35619278373420216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1856535879987141,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20503031207185496
EDAnonymous,put_thelotion,2019/02/12,"i am going bonkers my stupid garbage body has just been throwing the biggest fucking tantrum these last few weeks I can’t take it anymore !!

I have been so fucking nauseous and in pain at any slight bit of food (to the point even thinking about eating made me throw up) yet any weight im losing is just going to my hands and wrists !! what the fuck !! my torso feels bloated as hell yet I’ve lost three of my rings in the past like two weeks because they just keep slipping off my fingers, even ones that I used to barely be able to fit on at all

in conclusion everything sucks and I want to fling myself into a pit ",3.805098566308241,4.9547001370967765,3.7720430107526894,92.55862007168459,71.82258064516128,6.156272401433692,26.681003584229394,5.82211442006289,0.6980799283154124,483,16,103,2,9,147,92,124,0.189,0.7659999999999999,0.045,-0.9689,0,0,0,0,0,1,9.0,0,0,1,3,9,11,7,0,5,0,8,11,4,2,1,15,22,5,0,1,3,0,4,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,4,4,3,1,3,0,0,4,1,10,0,3,4,5,13,1,18,17,3,22,1,2,0,3,1,12,5,0,7,64,17,0,0.1630654875961408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22178024663842014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16171714669176146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0994032077194716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17802527886397476,0.1811289962365579,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16685670315445886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21540643330002035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14655274572807342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0824508100982986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19717943487158535,0.0,0.0,0.4522542470411144,0.0,0.0,0.18534774889304625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17613870878199342,0.0,0.0,0.14494009778202666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13292013645156334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07966556048354287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18242857008374005,0.1780052423924144,0.0,0.0,0.1542965071220121,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11049739456313404,0.0,0.17351317577400846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15566445915503602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1541495932018778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12260495292197365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10448578015580172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15929128703936676,0.0,0.0,0.14083622536105486,0.0,0.0,0.0961802494653055,0.0,0.2616025963820788,0.19856983379397036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ijustneededaname,2019/02/12,"New LW Soo I just got off the scale, I'm 32 hrs into my fast, and apparently I lost 0.9 kg?! 0.1 below my previous LW. 

Hallelujah! Today could be a good day. I'm going to get a lot of food (all according to plan) and hide from people in my grandma's bedroom and watch Shane.

Honestly though, my sleep is terrible, I'm stressed and convinced this house is haunted, and I feel pretty ill :( gonna make some ginger tea and wait for the heart palpitations to stop",1.7663440860215085,3.8437275698924713,3.6658064516129047,87.18537634408602,79.75268817204302,7.1440860215053785,23.23655913978495,8.167268648758528,1.3456365591397859,356,12,75,7,9,120,72,93,0.195,0.6579999999999999,0.146,-0.508,1,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,0,2,2,6,0,1,4,0,4,5,2,1,1,16,15,7,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,1,7,2,2,1,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,2,2,7,3,10,10,3,10,0,1,1,0,0,4,0,2,5,37,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19290449865210998,0.0,0.0,0.1558173099680858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12216437226750965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2921536108187565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12623031955008965,0.0,0.13731151560378813,0.20264950647196192,0.1932361596779368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2863068963129425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2787834394561059,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.263743905866656,0.2054066631385988,0.0,0.0,0.16127535863949166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2333467181684319,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16750071393984725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24580241286496934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2417827000768628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2019952849978224,0.2767613922719817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2373788430661492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22901633590490794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,pourange,2019/02/12,"i don't know what else to do sorry, first time posting here. i'm usually able to have a pretty positive image of myself and be okay with my body through regular exercise and strength training. however, i recently had a surgery that left me on exercise restriction for up to a month. the most i can do is walk, and even that is difficult. i don't know how to cope with this. a friend told me that she underwent the same surgery a couple of years ago and gained weight, and im freaking out right now. i can't return to my daily life ten or twenty pounds heavier, and not being able to exercise to burn it off in addition to that. i'm already going to lose so much muscle mass. the only thing that i feel like i can do is restrict and try to lose weight and be skinny and pretty and look as frail as i feel. sorry, i don't know what i meant to accomplish by typing this out and posting it. i just had to get it off of my chest.",4.962520018841262,4.509000880829022,6.048582195007068,82.94760715967972,68.68911917098445,9.712482336316533,29.980687706076303,9.339509955726095,2.3147658031088074,722,24,157,13,11,242,110,193,0.091,0.774,0.135,0.8945,1,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,0,6,6,8,0,0,8,1,18,9,3,1,0,30,30,16,0,0,3,0,4,1,1,0,4,0,0,0,13,16,3,2,6,3,0,2,5,4,0,2,4,5,18,4,29,23,3,23,0,2,1,0,3,10,0,2,10,110,31,2,0.28128331618588626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1246703440673264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15520156698193796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15622117674900846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15561731963275185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11748805859325832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09289248874732094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14222529628158465,0.10047442864313062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11962972252703308,0.0,0.0,0.10865939616589064,0.0,0.07347946158319253,0.0,0.07992989538250221,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15191712497007784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2318789315723061,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15280757302992046,0.0,0.09933936237901128,0.06871041005965928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11810357129135435,0.3146840813262204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1122588296901017,0.0,0.10338780113489808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10696431853551812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2693916630158837,0.2861662557385915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13886667023072607,0.0,0.0,0.1201072075584092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3148736434658173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09343606829190416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08200928184424948,0.0,0.0,0.13438913137365574,0.0,0.0954864538842084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15489691668558514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3425273009478317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09056861669396683
EDAnonymous,throwupupupandaway77,2019/02/12,"My boyfriend cares too much about me/my ED I’m a 22 y/o F. I’ve had an ED getting worse for months. A few years ago in high school I had a ED but it was never serious. It went away when I starting lifting seriously and paying attention to what I ate. 

Over the last few months I’ve been under a lot of stress and for the first time ever, I realized I had an ED. It started with not being able to control my appetite, puking a couple of times. It started because my body was so full, not because I forced it. Then I went full bul and I’d purge by not eating at all for days at a time. 

I told my boyfriend finally and only him and he was suuuuper caring about it. Almost too caring. Now I feel like I have to hide my issues. He’ll notice if I don’t eat or when I binge and then try and ask me about it. That’s why I finally told him to begin with. 

Since I told him I’ve been trying to get better. I tried deleting my reddit account and tumblr to avoid looking at ED-related stuff ever since I told him about my ED. Recovery is hard. I fall off the wagon sometimes and I don’t know if I can/should tell him. 

The thing I can’t stand is that he’s the only person that knows and I can’t talk to anyone else about it. I love him so much and I know he loves me and only asks me about it because he does. But when I’m with him I want to GET AWAY from my ED, rather than obsess about it even more. 

It feels good to be back on Reddit and be reminded I’m not alone in this. (Will probably delete the app again in a week or two though)

Anyone have some advice? 💕",0.13811764705882368,1.9237085764705917,2.4700000000000024,95.16500000000002,83.82352941176471,5.294117647058823,17.941176470588232,6.37848985222837,-0.29764705882352915,1196,27,286,11,34,408,171,340,0.062,0.815,0.123,0.9734,0,2,0,0,0,0,32.0,0,0,0,3,22,13,0,3,15,0,20,6,1,1,4,44,52,27,0,4,11,0,3,1,0,2,0,0,0,1,18,16,3,2,7,0,2,3,9,5,0,2,15,4,42,8,39,32,10,47,0,0,1,2,23,15,0,7,29,187,60,2,0.09059703627916496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08853037532130532,0.08030880634910742,0.0,0.09071984511880694,0.0938312069486478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.126695108504815,0.09282736993042738,0.0,0.0,0.16939199844018865,0.0,0.17023779571268333,0.06966352867736847,0.0,0.16568133727346984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08012571629886017,0.0,0.10063288366630764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2771091493876834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10161227980944132,0.0,0.10024389745972596,0.0,0.058427593494250266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07928207697055105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18540677137697564,0.07568219865345971,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05983848802138965,0.16390041218543466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09161716735821276,0.06472254081997922,0.0,0.1984892497913539,0.0,0.07706179277754027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14199963660326093,0.0,0.0,0.075988495683691,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08115714943468276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09572074295138884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09455976802646944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14936928546552955,0.07384867639287541,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.044261135692935896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07607869302785653,0.0,0.0,0.07702236046386987,0.1635347247728018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14462738002377196,0.0,0.1331984917875685,0.0,0.06987401950861745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1031453262769427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2067093856473397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0791058375883749,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09767892818216964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09168903745944246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14988560922813182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08960278544031341,0.0,0.19237514573633888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10377859896234956,0.0,0.10371193138861867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07281846600645203,0.07918580293400566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060188645267748864,0.0,0.08901112815800191,0.0,0.1584835812493425,0.0,0.0,0.3462774024617522,0.0,0.18452832206371367,0.0,0.0885001401805021,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0534364792857225,0.0,0.07267147777415975,0.0,0.0,0.1679687205673048,0.08174973377438581,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09232611988981304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05834152102327075
EDAnonymous,PastaQueens,2019/02/12,"I’m doing it guys, I’m accepting inpatient treatment It’s been a year since my last attempt at inpatient treatment (which ended in catastrophe may I add). My therapists have wanted me to go inpatient again for over 8months now, and I finally (a tad unwillingly) agreed to it a couple months ago. So here I am, currently sitting in the car, on my way to the treatment center. 

I won’t lie, I’m scared to death, and not completely sure if I actually want this or not. But I’m willing to give it a try. I’m sick of this eating disorder ruining my life, and I really want to recover (at least parts of me does). 

Idk, felt I needed to get it out, to try and ease the anxiety I’m feeling right now and so on. 
So I guess this is it. Wish me luck guys...",2.542121212121213,3.8095019350649366,4.89292207792208,82.84033549783553,75.10389610389609,9.28917748917749,27.768398268398272,9.725611199111238,2.585213852813852,574,23,124,16,12,202,93,154,0.153,0.74,0.107,-0.8583,1,0,0,0,0,0,26.0,0,0,0,1,7,5,0,1,7,0,8,3,0,0,1,24,25,11,1,6,5,0,2,0,0,3,2,0,0,2,10,7,1,0,3,0,0,2,3,2,0,0,2,2,15,3,19,20,2,24,0,1,0,0,3,10,0,5,10,78,25,0,0.0,0.0,0.16856611669719368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15312067589919898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13214311450925778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18111115968370894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1911298901278444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19797124109970302,0.0,0.1511630637324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1767527836618524,0.0,0.0,0.15299345890503604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08734087348326952,0.0,0.1658543355552576,0.1892246284589115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0902478043715962,0.16570479738865065,0.09817025610285916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19028896656498376,0.3420730118236249,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1408034779446573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1220090505457756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13787679825860344,0.0,0.0,0.12808208575866112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1870570297498407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11065956308628104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14751621116708608,0.0,0.0,0.17293958631757142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14288959602267728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1628023100457127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2005606403052578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2345537820938691,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3056537706587759,0.13711036448278285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19863869793740085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11123678134670507
EDAnonymous,oil-of-okay,2019/02/13,"maybe this is a dumb q but is anyone here trying to maintain? i feel scared to keep losing and scared to stop losing i hope this is ok to post. i accidentally ended up under my goal weight after not weighing for a while, and while i feel like i still want to lose a little bit more i also really really want to slow it down and ease into maintaining. so i’ve been restricting higher but the problem is it feels harder than restricting lower. like once i hit what i think are maintenance calories or just under, i feel so hungry and end up eating way over. whereas when i restrict a bit lower (not super low but like 800/900) something just kind of shuts off in me and i can stay at that level. does that make sense? i don’t want to hit double digits, i just feel really uncomfortable with that, no shade to anyone who is there or wants to be. im also kind of vain or w and don’t want to look the way i did last time i restricted. i really want to find a sustainable place to be but i feel like i don’t know how to do like a smooth dismount and just stay here or a few pounds lower. ",3.7796,4.3349504266666665,5.154222222222224,84.82600000000002,71.4,8.133333333333333,22.555555555555557,8.238735603445708,1.0144222222222226,846,17,181,12,15,284,124,225,0.251,0.602,0.147,-0.9841,3,0,1,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,0,5,14,19,1,2,9,1,15,3,0,2,0,48,35,23,0,8,14,0,8,5,0,0,0,0,0,0,9,9,3,6,9,0,0,0,6,9,0,0,2,9,20,10,29,29,5,31,0,4,1,0,1,15,1,5,16,119,29,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16513870739574804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14439024139559975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2254455162900426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09035517130235003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10565099470467272,0.0,0.0,0.18289851827792286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31323920237214176,0.1475242951842643,0.0,0.0,0.09436904777352502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10255100153010042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11152821215452012,0.0,0.0,0.0917737508518814,0.0,0.21503892611621764,0.05674375130443283,0.08416290365864887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2522147911852306,0.10348408345700932,0.0,0.0,0.08670438015321211,0.34653255507613423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0689204822497868,0.0,0.10372896253745603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10995836769152736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10787475252877066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0988853973882543,0.0,0.0,0.0987967437143346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2645795482580191,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20674344063764136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07948724667777253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2201024999381444,0.08245594887184983,0.0863220058642241,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06615872420621546,0.0,0.0,0.0602061721874133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07010028322204194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3653987703765157,0.16391081477550315,0.0,0.12573124161067833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,polkadotfaceful,2019/02/13,"God I really hate it when this happens I binged again! This is why I should not be allowed to go to events where food is being served. I tried to stay home and ended up giving into peer pressure :(

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EDAnonymous,aliensdid9ll,2019/02/13,bless the restriction gods my school hands out donuts once a month for students’ birthdays and i was trying to decide whether or not to get one and i said fuck it and went to get one knowing full well I would regret it and the donuts were all gone. bless up restriction gods for watching over me 🙏,2.406497175141244,4.809382559322035,2.245000000000001,96.48128531073448,79.33898305084746,5.289265536723164,21.69774011299436,6.42735559955562,0.19269265536723207,237,7,50,2,6,70,43,59,0.161,0.721,0.118,-0.4215,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,0,1,5,1,0,3,0,3,2,1,0,1,15,10,6,0,2,3,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,2,5,0,2,2,0,0,2,1,2,1,2,5,3,5,3,8,4,2,7,2,1,1,1,1,4,1,1,1,33,7,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28640936202663714,0.32372023521389937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17026050693260325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2472830772648803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3299317897436665,0.4198632316598998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29469512063299313,0.0,0.0,0.31353879646715715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2103369883578976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2785515428483683,0.2871919694548903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22007630022708025,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,throwawayyolonot,2019/02/13,"Bulimia I know I can recover I know I can but do I want to? I’m fucking my life over fuck. 

With bulimia for idk 9 years on/off.  What a ride. ",-4.381136363636365,-4.2648611212121175,0.3217803030303035,100.10267045454547,129.9090909090909,5.286363636363637,16.24621212121212,6.6274283507984215,0.2722757575757577,105,4,29,3,8,40,25,33,0.22,0.7290000000000001,0.05,-0.7096,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,1,0,3,3,0,0,0,5,9,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,6,0,4,9,0,3,0,0,0,2,0,1,2,0,1,16,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7619640402627561,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4529613935856111,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2910801062174447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2430686675322749,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2653804286226916
EDAnonymous,prlncesss,2019/02/13,"New safe food: baby food I work in a daycare and my babies have these pouches that are like. 70-90 calories, and those puffs that are 25cals per half cup and i went to the store and bought some lmao. Im a mess. 

I’ve resorted to eating baby food. But it tastes hella good so hey dont knock it till you try it",-0.5114552238805956,1.5530213432835822,1.4135634328358222,99.84482276119408,89.29850746268656,3.9470149253731344,14.345149253731346,5.148860815047168,-1.1935059701492543,238,4,57,1,8,78,52,67,0.036000000000000004,0.7829999999999999,0.181,0.8748,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,1,0,1,1,4,0,0,3,0,4,5,0,0,0,7,6,7,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,7,4,5,1,0,0,2,1,1,1,0,1,2,1,4,3,4,4,1,4,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,1,3,30,11,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2590254543046142,0.0,0.0,0.22615135649880094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8017489707068635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18537512141052334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2387318409744728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10797573144491944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21345562081201086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1500532407283977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20488115791860068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16090001197337098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,hollyy___,2019/02/13,"Recovery is a bitch Sorry this is gonna be a shitty hungover rant (hello fellow drunkorexics). 

So towards the end of the year I hit my first GW of 117lbs (around BMI 17 i’m tall af lol). Hitting that made me realise that I was never going to be satisfied with my weight and I was going to starve myself to the end. Around the same time my parents started monitoring my food intake 24/7 and making stuff for me, and that made me start to more or less maintain. Having to maintain was mentally crushing but after a little while I suddenly had this weird breakthrough, like my body hadn’t gotten thinner and I wasn’t super mad about it. After that I decided to try recovery. I know you should consult a doctor etc and DIY recovery isn’t the best idea but idk I’m just terrified of going to a professional about it for a number of reasons. 

So I got into intuitive eating and just listening to what my body wants. I think it worked for a little while, but recently it’s gotten a little difficult. My weight has started dwindling again, kinda fast actually, and I’m now at my lowest weight of 113lbs (I weigh myself about once a week still just to make sure I’m doing ok, not obsessively). If I keep going like this I’ll be below 8st in a week or two. It just sucks because I feel like such a failure. I don’t even understand where I’m going wrong I feel like I’m eating plenty and I’m not restricting myself, I think maybe my brain doesn’t understand how much you’re actually meant to eat due to being restrictive for all that time. Any time you talk about it to someone too they just say something like “oh I wish I had that problem!” as if it’s cute and cool to be ~effortlessly skinny~. 

Not only that, getting triggered fucking sucks. Recently I feel like everyone has something to say about my body. “You’re so tiny I could pick you up with my pinky”, “you’re so delicate”, “you have the figure every girl wants”, or even just mundane things like comments about how I’m too small for something or the clothing size I pick up at a store. If I’m being honest a part of me still loves to hear stuff like that but when I see myself in pictures all I can see is a sick, deprived, grotesque body and I don’t know why people glorify it. My face is so corpselike and my hair just looks lifeless too. I cringe every time I see myself on someone’s story etc. That’s not the only thing though, other people love to tell me how horrible and scrawny I look, especially my dad. I mean it’s not wrong but I’m trying my best and it hurts to hear because it makes me feel like my hatred towards my body is justified and that people will always be disgusted by my body no matter what I weigh. 

I think the fact that my weight is going down even more is concerning people now though. I stayed over at my friends flat last night and before we went to sleep she made a massive speech about how she used to have anorexia and how she was worried about me and that she was always here for me (I haven’t really told her about my eating issues). It’s nice to have people that care about you but it also makes me feel bad for worrying people and being a burden. I don’t want the people close to me to hurt because I suck at something as basic as eating. 

Anyways yeah sorry for being a downer this is just some stuff that’s been on my mind. For the most part I’m not doing awful and I’m determined to kick this stupid disordered. Also I hope I didn’t sound like a bitch or anything at any point, I love all my friends and family and they’re incredible. ",3.2322432485708634,4.82142946067416,4.429331756357186,85.55471811551351,73.91573033707866,7.1313226887443335,24.148531440961953,7.793537801064563,1.1954855805243452,2784,83,558,38,57,914,300,712,0.14800000000000002,0.684,0.168,0.9504,2,0,4,0,0,0,57.0,1,5,1,5,50,46,9,1,29,5,46,29,11,17,6,113,120,55,0,11,28,2,10,10,3,3,2,7,0,1,40,28,13,3,18,0,1,7,17,20,0,2,20,23,86,26,75,85,16,66,0,3,5,4,32,27,6,12,41,377,126,4,0.0,0.0,0.09958565943426012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0816090042117373,0.08491341721090345,0.0,0.0,0.06939720698824539,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.041989050436980674,0.09084575301207096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04260356414336937,0.09331270596858504,0.0,0.04341833385659279,0.0,0.10709472769417354,0.0,0.0,0.3400622003246701,0.0,0.05696053493621769,0.0,0.0,0.052023168900705866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04073913887411062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05847882415583061,0.0522260295221971,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26105546687989484,0.0,0.0,0.09038562904996936,0.0,0.113812246068942,0.1011041677396951,0.0,0.08598116403653591,0.048756368658084415,0.0,0.0,0.04810162618027115,0.0,0.12899832202073389,0.14580846631158972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.043401656029572015,0.06169937252309901,0.0,0.07884324459094676,0.047171591502457186,0.026658344176558758,0.0,0.17399136699094742,0.0,0.0408091817434304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11501728205951225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050679124523674984,0.0,0.0,0.10924617526046357,0.0576007714731081,0.0,0.053256618853501116,0.0,0.04535317332870779,0.0,0.0,0.05608377481235468,0.04159200993798964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2492813257496515,0.15342071769616433,0.0,0.0,0.08569593690887453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13815558172846906,0.14484265579928246,0.13623776072605095,0.0,0.051261254699734624,0.05558094926075949,0.0,0.0,0.05142098209239025,0.0,0.051520487288691776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.037509087940053136,0.0,0.039353459747182094,0.0,0.0,0.047883304180742436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05433973072435872,0.0,0.07761329646931292,0.0,0.0,0.05665698533314323,0.11050973958731546,0.0,0.2476191289509583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04823491446479141,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.048823828168686884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.032687783816158444,0.05246197711523348,0.10076163896416346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08115391398631795,0.0,0.0,0.1219804422600489,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05106163445961195,0.0,0.08646626944701664,0.15712548926182912,0.0,0.114236138626781,0.10834681627496222,0.05438563171449537,0.08149691837710057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17523351365386214,0.0,0.0,0.04809025598082454,0.0,0.0,0.04101178937449048,0.04459791107233162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06779719974431002,0.09808386575503532,0.10026318433234513,0.0,0.1190118497861441,0.0,0.0,0.048756368658084415,0.0,0.06928495927973936,0.0,0.049843800724586,0.10623720127919953,0.0,0.04406903153443946,0.0,0.0,0.09028722054593387,0.0,0.08185800947091444,0.2485377677460736,0.0,0.047300486862759394,0.04604193203793551,0.0,0.05867598456572915,0.0,0.0,0.03714665116051313,0.1036362918783474,0.0,0.0,0.11157518471980804,0.0,0.032858288607477464
EDAnonymous,tipsybixh,2019/02/13,"Working out/gym TWICE a day? I thought about it- the day seems longer and more fulfilling when you fill it with more stuff, and what better way to fill it than BURNING CALORIES and gettin smol-er...

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I think if I went low to mid-intensity for about 30-60 min x2 a day, that would be ideal. Once as soon as waking up (hurr for that ""optimal fat burning"") then after an OMAD meal toward the late evening.

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Doing OMAD vegan-keto and gym twice a day UNF 

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So yeah who else does this? Just trying to relate and see others' take, not giving tips",5.4384155844155835,6.049585854545459,5.342207792207791,84.75045454545456,67.72727272727272,7.7402597402597415,26.623376623376625,7.447530270364453,1.2847012987012985,444,12,87,4,7,138,83,110,0.038,0.855,0.107,0.8185,0,0,0,0,0,0,32.0,0,1,0,3,7,3,0,0,6,1,3,3,2,0,0,14,10,11,0,3,3,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,10,6,2,0,3,1,0,3,1,1,0,2,2,1,4,2,14,6,2,17,0,1,1,0,3,3,0,2,10,54,14,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.42989241527937744,0.4821103276951373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11696817507595705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34117231274971,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11573662349410832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11048149172498777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08735271354155784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1268703694739098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14918860366767114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14084650627196618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1053895489041362,0.12039934168507198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1513995245032482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09943876946750722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08474321108509877,0.0,0.10499513609677752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08979198389156072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10497730225536923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12260105508024335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09628270081427603,0.0,0.0,0.09394965554646012,0.0,0.4821103276951373,0.0
EDAnonymous,oksurewhatsize,2019/02/13,"After five years of bulimia, I was absolutely horrified to go to the dentist yesterday But you know what? Two very small cavities. That's it. Nothing else. No worn enamel or anything. Holy shit I'm so relieved y'all don't even know. I've been b/ping since I was 13, and I'm 18 now and do it almost every day, maybe several times a day and I was SO worried my teeth were fucked by my dentist was like ""yah keep doing what ur doing"" so I guess there's my free pass to keep b/ping!",-0.8523529411764734,1.292287882352941,1.7541568627450983,94.59770588235297,96.64705882352942,5.072941176470589,18.564705882352946,6.742157984588678,0.23313647058823506,372,12,84,6,15,127,73,102,0.14300000000000002,0.74,0.117,-0.7043,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,2,0,0,6,5,2,0,2,1,10,5,2,0,0,11,20,8,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,5,3,0,2,2,0,1,2,2,2,0,2,7,0,9,4,6,13,0,10,0,0,0,1,3,1,2,3,8,46,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22088767026714268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18152566461161532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2845228624312344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18427351280598886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1456967237327544,0.0,0.18585545259278333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20393065356699933,0.0,0.0,0.12536561397563212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2430032687417317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3921386573433293,0.0,0.0,0.24245950767618546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10776847263999227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2216109493154743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21166076018791613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2492023878547887,0.22643108056907574,0.18247321181829185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12862701647368455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21548305949140198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18200873919773725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2240184829773104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14205185912514567
EDAnonymous,lilithbitch,2019/02/13,"anatomy class first post here 

ahhh 

so today in anatomy class, we learned the skin weighs 9-11 lbs... anyone else thinking what I’m thinking???",3.0114102564102545,5.8877198846153895,2.7669230769230784,90.66141025641028,80.92307692307692,3.466666666666667,27.89743589743589,3.1291,0.6786820512820508,111,5,19,0,3,33,23,26,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,1,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,1,0,0,4,3,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,1,3,0,4,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,7,2,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27600162084872765,0.4044434684540123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3297429513145951,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3357537629213454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37803842827096296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5058490085675801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3741541261804786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,nonfatchaitealatte,2019/02/13,"Valentine's Day AKA D-Day 2019 My boyfriend wants to go out for dinner tomorrow and we decided on a chain restaurant that has calories listed online.. No biggie.

We're also celebrating our anniversary/belated V-Day on Monday and he picked this dessert cafe with crazy Belgian waffle creations. I went there once before and mentioned to him we HAVE to share this desert (Cookie Licious- a waffle with a brownie and cookie dough and a million grams of fat and calories) and so now that's what we're doing. I don't even know how to start to estimate this.

Do I share it with him and count it as 1000 and call it a day? Or do I get a fruit crepe and estimate it at 800? Help me before I have a panic attack at work :) 

(menu attached for your enjoyment lmao what do I get)

[http://dspotdessert.com/wp-content/uploads/2017/11/Dspot-Menu-Web-Small-2.pdf](http://dspotdessert.com/wp-content/uploads/2017/11/Dspot-Menu-Web-Small-2.pdf)",6.978073593073592,10.372945422077922,5.3477662337662375,75.00783982683984,68.80519480519482,6.4443290043290045,24.552380952380954,7.554174236665415,1.298469783549785,761,22,119,9,15,221,98,154,0.07,0.7759999999999999,0.154,0.9226,0,0,0,0,0,0,52.0,3,1,0,1,6,5,1,1,7,0,8,4,1,2,0,22,15,15,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,11,16,4,0,2,0,0,2,2,2,0,1,1,1,14,3,17,14,0,13,0,0,0,0,12,5,0,1,6,76,25,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17936257401604125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25515932693720395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3817041609673884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2290225393921828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5785873412743808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1481397299615882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23436184654856645,0.0,0.12746771324030615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15033513427128414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12326250403424464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2388587893750519,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2631529696847645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15875179494572944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13229053529319262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20791669149410547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16328391781227852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,SatansKitty666,2019/02/13,"Im back and still complaining (new account) I had to make a new account from u/isetmygnomesonfire because i ignored reddits warnings about posting here but they cant keep me away!

Now to the complaining part.
As some of you know, my boyfriend is a butthead. Im trying to figure out how im going to survive Valentines Day dinner. I have no idea where hes taking me.

Pls halp.",2.0986486486486484,4.599432581081082,3.1661486486486474,88.83814189189192,81.29729729729729,5.321621621621622,28.16891891891892,6.6274283507984215,1.3910594594594596,297,14,57,3,8,95,59,74,0.145,0.833,0.021,-0.7574,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,1,1,1,7,3,0,0,3,0,5,1,0,2,0,11,10,4,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,2,3,0,2,1,2,3,0,0,1,0,9,0,10,9,2,11,0,0,0,0,5,3,0,1,6,37,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19429712076348385,0.1590178372267145,0.0,0.12606447219593742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1333700679281798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11753024209665425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23345408682974525,0.6701443705481045,0.0,0.0,0.18381496277749976,0.0,0.0,0.1136528739106907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13804182308946325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3994609797758135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2239462222584498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19805898169615466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16515220345657014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1554892345359267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1404048633900602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,heartbrokenandok,2019/02/13,"DIY Exposure Therapy? I've been playing a new game lately where I'm forcing myself to eat the things in my food hoarde. And its been going pretty well. Mostly because my food hoarde is primarily safe protein bars and other low cal high protein foods. 

And then we get to the nut butters. I bought so much different nut butters. I love nut butters. I even found macadamia nut butter in little single serving packets. But its 210 cal and 2g protein per little packet. They are literally labelled as ""fat bombs"" and it's terrifying. 

I have extra calories in my budget for tomorrow. I know I should add more food to make sure I don't end up making poor snacking choices. And I have room for a ""fat bomb"". But I'm terrified. My heart is pounding and idk what to do. I want to run. To have another protein bar. To eat a piece of toast with cheese instead. To have something that feels safe....

But no matter what I do, that nut butter will still be there. And one day I will have to eat it. And I'm terrified.",1.672121212121212,4.1341622727272735,3.1765656565656566,88.31818181818184,82.83838383838383,5.62020202020202,24.15151515151515,6.980632752743323,1.0454060606060611,782,30,153,10,22,256,122,198,0.102,0.804,0.094,-0.5574,1,0,1,0,0,0,30.0,1,0,1,0,7,7,0,0,5,0,17,14,3,2,1,27,30,15,0,2,3,0,1,0,0,3,2,0,1,0,10,12,12,2,3,4,3,2,2,1,1,1,4,6,18,6,18,22,6,19,0,1,0,1,4,10,0,1,7,96,28,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13795659760334467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08020035158290942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0848480634722495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1374566493699735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4038692482052999,0.0,0.0,0.11652688376045645,0.0,0.0,0.08689695272528973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06652284277224528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6363521002762504,0.14425342004237635,0.0,0.0,0.0687368955830519,0.0,0.0747710006918182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15590428121162447,0.0,0.1390048637609824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07230427643308064,0.0,0.14841021548682629,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2637239027979128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11874188099844475,0.0,0.1756403299371052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09671486886338804,0.0,0.0,0.12706558185513164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08915134728819113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13384815032855246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10128459477167416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10506738775158224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12399775777607505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15045519691544193,0.0,0.08740544815506089,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0776000090884234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11829206971022373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,hollisterm,2019/02/13,"Chew and spit? I was wondering how the chew and spit method works for some of you... like does it help curb cravings, do you still end up consuming calories, etc.",2.728602150537636,5.044987451612903,2.523870967741935,95.37247311827957,77.70967741935483,6.713978494623658,23.23655913978495,7.793537801064563,0.9266043010752684,125,4,27,2,3,37,27,31,0.0,0.843,0.157,0.6369,0,0,1,0,0,0,7.0,0,2,0,1,2,1,0,0,1,0,2,4,2,1,0,6,3,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,2,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,3,1,3,2,2,3,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,2,3,16,4,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3625608087181749,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36695096553081785,0.0,0.4620592236088825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27769968717264115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2024083344534028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3308642446879496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4492957416245495,0.3016187341474589,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,visvya,2019/02/13,"What are some good recovery-focused communities? Hey all, 

I'm a mod at /r/1200isplenty. Something I've noticed is that a lot of people turn to 1200isplenty looking for ""healthy ways to lose weight"" instead of returning to their disorder.

Of course, most of the tips/behaviors/recipes on 1200isplenty are similar to the ones ED sufferers use so it's not the right sub. Using our content with the same mindset would probably further a disorder.

Currently I just link people to /r/EDrecovery and the US helpline. I'll add helplines in other countries. What are other recovery-focused communities, on or off reddit, that I can redirect people to?",5.894336283185838,8.638574053097349,6.047088495575224,71.83452654867259,69.53097345132744,10.183716814159293,38.73362831858407,10.355215969177356,5.0262184070796465,520,31,79,16,10,165,82,113,0.107,0.8420000000000001,0.051,-0.7399,1,0,1,0,0,0,22.0,2,0,1,1,3,3,0,0,8,0,6,1,0,2,1,15,11,3,0,1,3,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,7,3,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,0,2,5,1,17,10,5,10,0,2,1,0,4,7,0,4,2,55,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4545073767276517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16631344075094345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16651085261598692,0.22183205009543724,0.0,0.16857622549639367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2257506739165361,0.0,0.0,0.13436417089106598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4124010052908245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21378655398658689,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16933572217337378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.152650756432665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21567894402535745,0.0,0.0,0.2385144347046272,0.3425120153625589,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1573907193213411,0.0,0.24145973022431103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14085715243928634,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Bookeisha,2019/02/13,"Recovery is a nightmare There's not a single day that goes by where I don't wish to go back to starving myself. I'm literally this close >< to relapsing. But I know I can't. I promised I would do better at least until I graduate. You always have to sacrifice something when you lose it to your ED, whether it's your relationship with closed ones or your grades; and I can't afford that right now. I'm eating, am at a healthy weight, but my mentally, it's a torture. I really want to go back to my LW and lower and just disappear. But I won't.",2.6278070175438586,3.9901658157894735,4.462280701754388,85.63096491228073,75.05263157894737,8.224561403508767,25.824561403508767,8.841846274778883,1.809445614035088,429,15,93,9,9,146,73,114,0.166,0.78,0.054000000000000006,-0.8944,2,0,1,0,0,0,17.0,0,5,0,2,7,4,1,0,4,0,9,2,0,0,0,17,16,10,0,3,7,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,6,6,2,0,1,0,0,3,5,2,0,1,0,1,17,2,12,14,2,15,1,1,0,0,6,6,0,1,6,67,23,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20695084205473707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3824930355477468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21996824618607813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16040062870534574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2544975833894458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28270098406707955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13668728458068333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2782485171394405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25064626752379154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16853575166899865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15933322689994284,0.0,0.0,0.26702687992651275,0.0,0.2124012899542989,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19147299319160274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14669857785728505,0.0,0.0,0.302867921271516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2860100279348822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17668003238420102,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,love_blue_,2019/02/13,"Stupid things that triggered me back into my ED (possible tmi) The first thing happened awhile ago, i was too fat to fit into my favorite jeans. I cried so hard and I don’t ever cry. The second was realizing I had stomach rolls and love handles again. The third was (TMI) realizing I had a BM everyday instead of every few days. The final straw was looking at ED related stuff and now I’m back in full swing.
I’m 5’8” 150 lb guy and at my lw i was 120 before inpatient was threatened.",1.6371428571428552,3.859511081632654,3.52383673469388,87.25330612244898,81.04081632653063,6.3689795918367365,24.08571428571429,7.554174236665415,1.2318253061224491,378,14,77,6,10,127,70,98,0.135,0.772,0.094,-0.505,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,1,8,2,1,0,5,0,9,3,2,1,1,10,14,5,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,4,6,1,0,2,0,0,0,1,1,0,3,8,2,10,1,7,6,2,17,0,0,1,1,2,7,0,0,10,52,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19343541424915128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3355894363361849,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18568583640929115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4794002982623796,0.1407313377565464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1973889637263209,0.18385648344201008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23904508112403625,0.0,0.18561451086579908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21606825582822492,0.19296778454611896,0.0,0.19547877167959687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18324657245439188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19694855812596346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2460058753592893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24980523709352795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28994617302244624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,hrrrrrrrrrrrrr,2019/02/13,"Unintentional Just need to know...

Anyone else UNINTENTIONALLY revisiting their ED? I don't know what's happening to me. I thought I was okay. I'm never eating and the thought of food makes me nauseous...like, literally throwing up. I know we could only hope to be so lucky (har-har) but I don't WANT this.",0.9272693032015092,3.5042615762711904,3.3666666666666707,82.60145009416195,94.25423728813558,6.012052730696799,21.80979284369115,7.3871296695380915,1.179054990583804,239,9,48,5,9,82,45,59,0.041,0.8490000000000001,0.11,0.3739,0,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,1,0,1,0,2,3,0,0,1,1,5,2,0,1,1,16,16,3,0,4,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,2,0,5,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,3,0,9,3,5,11,0,3,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,2,1,27,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1810971817422612,0.26537370355238044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20678855196808069,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26501925897972584,0.21635930614761856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31318099140035804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2290307701679116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2572431098174405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4270150119589608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17288294526162198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19204347876793326,0.19975495754097708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19697938682447114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4112304140737033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1527635267861235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,EDthrowawaygoaway,2019/02/13,"I am on a new flavour of ED. So I haven't really been restricting for a while. Lunch at school has gone from being non-existent to a daily occurrence. This is partly due to my gf knowing about my ED and getting annoyed with me if I don't eat. It's also due to my love of the food I get at lunch. 

You see, there's this sandwich. I don't think we're allowed to talk numbers but it isn't exactly low. Chicken, bacon and lettuce. CBL. Except I pick out the lettuce so.. CB. It's in this brown bread that I love, and I always eat it in a particular order:
1. Pick out lettuce (why would I want to eat tasteless leaves??)
2. Pick out bacon and eat it. 
3. Eat crusts first. 
4. Eat rest of sandwich. 
Also I don't bite any of this I just kinda tear it apart with my fingers bit by bit. 

As you can see, it's a sort of ritual for me. Also, I can't eat it in front of my gf, so I tend to only do this if I have a free period after lunch w/o her. I usually feel pretty guilty about eating this sandwich. 

Anyways, this has been going on for a while, but the other day I ate it and then ended up crying about it. There were other things stressing me out that day but even still, what pushed me over the edge was the sandwich. No one really saw this so it was okay. 
Then I'm in class and i feel like shot about it, so i end up leaving and going to the toilet. 

Where I throw it up. 
That was Monday. I have done this Tuesday and today as well. 
This is my life now, I guess. ",-0.5176666666666669,1.4626027492063507,2.057420634920636,95.89660714285715,88.17460317460316,4.769841269841269,17.003968253968253,6.139981653823899,-0.4366031746031749,1106,26,261,10,36,380,158,315,0.051,0.846,0.103,0.9415,1,0,0,0,0,0,49.0,0,2,0,1,22,9,1,1,13,1,24,22,1,4,1,36,43,27,0,4,7,0,3,1,2,1,1,0,0,0,30,14,18,1,4,0,1,6,7,3,1,2,10,8,34,7,44,31,4,46,1,1,4,2,8,19,0,5,21,184,64,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2192833719953726,0.07605410960677142,0.0,0.0,0.062156758732000425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19957547120210015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10040123221413264,0.11789395854040377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09353637801390656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7482196993096532,0.0,0.0,0.1619107736900891,0.0,0.0,0.060370415791713115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0924315882630121,0.06529788484965683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07774682525353854,0.11052413139576828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09550795134782042,0.0,0.10389216789218504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10069003610261487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050232362526950604,0.0,0.0,0.19356386463486291,0.0,0.0,0.06456021032677449,0.044654590273752036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16498844902946688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08827699670506113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06193662418973586,0.06951563546145932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09897988001488926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09298908920122308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1171094215644092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09250409724573704,0.14567173999504626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07299406579612043,0.0,0.10470112759866138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07346577788785086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060723685723059466,0.05856696010134142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08663877721858508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10066681807395124,0.0,0.05391149709149042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08218172455189172,0.0,0.08247643919507762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06492963456858943,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,LeastCurrent,2019/02/13,"Throwing out food. God damnit this is something that makes me feel so bad and guilty but I am about to fucking throw away the food that my dad just thoughtfully made for me. He is concerned about me not eating for days cause after all these years I don't even fucking try to hide my disordered eating and just let my family members be constantly concerned about me like the biggest asshole in history. 
Yeah, I wish I could fucking just eat it and be like ""no big deal it's only one small meal"" like a fucking NORMAL person but instead my brain is going like ""but you haven't eaten in three days why would you fuck that up now"". 
So now I am just sitting in my room, shivering cause my body fails to maintain a constant body temperature, silently and slowly bagging the meal that's on the plate to just throw it in the trash next time I go outside. 
I feel like an ungrateful piece of shit and I act like one too 🙃

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EDAnonymous,noano9913,2019/02/13,"i'm scared i'm developing an eating disorder hello, I've been thinking about food a lot recently. I've wanted to lose some weight for a while now because I hate having curves and thought that they would at least kind of go away with losing weight. 
so I downloaded an app where I track my calorie intake and my weight. it recommended eating 1300 kcal a day but since ive started I've always eaten less (always under 1000). It feels like a challenge, I'm not allowed to give in, I'm hungry but whenever I eat I feel guilty.
I'm limiting the amount of snacks I eat, usually eat low calorie vegetables as snacks. I don't have breakfast, I only take half of the amount of lunch to school as I used to. 
For dinner my family usually just eats bread, I cut the slices super thin but I have to eat with them because they would notice otherwise. 
I started working out again as well but that's actually not connected to trying to lose weight, it's just because I missed working out regularly. But of course working out and not eating enough aren't a good combination. 
Right now my bmi is like 22, and I want to lose like 8 kg (I'm 176 cm and weigh 68 kg) my bmi would then still be 19.6, so not underweight. 
Right now it's not an eating disorder I'm just super scared it will turn into one. I've lost half a kg in just a couple of days, it's not a healthy way of losing weight and especially my thoughts aren't healthy. What I'm thinking really scares me, in these few days I've already found strategies to avoid eating, to make it look like I'm eating more, etc. 
I'm scared I won't be able to stop when I've reached those 60 kg. ",3.320360360360361,4.561500591591592,4.523118318318319,86.35844324324327,73.11411411411412,7.730402402402402,25.332012012012008,8.238735603445708,1.411052948948949,1279,40,271,20,25,421,168,333,0.185,0.722,0.093,-0.9835,1,1,0,0,0,0,33.0,0,0,3,13,15,25,2,5,14,0,16,26,0,3,0,47,48,19,0,5,15,0,8,4,0,5,0,0,0,0,12,12,26,3,7,0,0,1,10,15,1,3,6,9,26,10,36,35,10,34,0,8,1,0,5,15,0,2,21,147,38,5,0.05917631776579585,0.0,0.05774754985295427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06530253816691488,0.0,0.09847887379424036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05559809850622656,0.0,0.0,0.10822000216591653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06547747005630057,0.0,0.11449148827294404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1356423739106835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6660736110416853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061144955078915125,0.06599723686201603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055786165832181205,0.0,0.05984264862357889,0.04227557323587194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07155623833621759,0.06488377802720065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05676731620545244,0.03363126510507985,0.0496342877405697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058424362482815566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06162302865595452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11564223899640022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.049693202986798315,0.3310158143203151,0.06459794125093779,0.05030958919933056,0.0,0.0,0.03950065162030693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06737262999435188,0.0,0.0,0.04009940441324444,0.04500625624789354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.037909864456986325,0.0,0.05842947470955449,0.0,0.0,0.1010725040761653,0.0,0.0,0.236983269902652,0.05988959285181085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.048951261567060984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08377060458693263,0.0,0.04725828380893048,0.049474051392310966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.044493226376265176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07583558997867483,0.0,0.09395877249440793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04017683532745872,0.0643668408217698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051109338632966884,0.1303487073036452,0.0,0.06980745084758372,0.04697140661162332,0.0,0.36030406422957134,0.05320661646151334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12924319236012724,0.0,0.0,0.12611147486795954,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,jdeneev,2019/02/13,"My whole school knows So, I've been a lurker and this is my first post!

I have a private Instagram that I basically use for shitposting and I only let some of my closest friends follow it. A couple of days ago, I typed out this huge rant about my ED and how badly it's affecting my life, and it had some of my most personal feelings written in it. I found out yesterday someone screenshotted that picture and spread it across my school like a wildfire. I walked into first period today and one person told me, ""Why do you think you're anorexic? It's fine if you eat a shit ton.""

So, now I skipped school and am sitting in my car with a coke zero and wallowing in my sorrow :,)

I think this really shows how ignorant the general population is about this disorder and just how much it affects people like me. Hopefully, none of you guys have to go through something like this and have people in your life that truly understand what you're going through",5.423846846846846,6.180820821621622,5.9857432432432445,79.60654279279282,67.81081081081078,9.626126126126128,31.092342342342334,9.725611199111238,2.864018018018017,752,29,144,16,12,244,112,185,0.094,0.797,0.109,0.2331,0,0,1,0,0,0,18.0,0,4,0,2,9,10,1,0,7,0,10,5,1,6,0,34,23,16,0,2,2,0,1,3,1,0,2,0,0,3,16,14,2,1,6,1,0,5,1,4,0,4,5,1,23,6,19,17,7,25,0,1,0,0,9,10,1,5,11,104,39,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13071630979167684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12312474627662764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16316407814740555,0.0,0.09510089563996443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16900441386810058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15089060631428938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07456130015537918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2508624803616675,0.0,0.16168464999374815,0.11392890103300493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16761229055072008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14601072494724662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14646320029706347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08104134809905804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15079005213092048,0.20831377284448616,0.21612769214195485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10840165672865487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09992417773199312,0.11215161956073227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20446339266511013,0.2575165450120531,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1412279894690213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0944680373493152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4477187435565345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1513677908259376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12494421184251273,0.11352357712285804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1889755990724088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13977688785155232,0.1409064157213396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15351331180440966,0.0,0.1273599623748624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13306166547896262,0.1646362383711918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,JoelleBirch,2019/02/13,"My Peach post (numbers talk, so tw) This ended up a lot longer than I expected.

I've lost 3 lbs in one week. Probably because I eat about 500 calories a day and walk around 10k steps. Today I have nowhere to go and nothing to really do so I'm afraid of binging. I know my body probably really wants those calories but I'm unwilling to give them to it.

I already broke one of my rules today and I'm not happy. I don't ever eat before 2 and today I made cream of wheat and ate it at 830. I thought I'd make today a normal eating day. You know, breakfast, lunch, dinner, no calorie tracking, etc. But I'm so agitated from eating so early that I'm probably just going to fast the rest of the day. 

I'm so close to being in the normal BMI range (like 3 lbs to go) and I'm afraid that once I get there my doctor will take away my Vyvanse. But I need it to curb my hunger. I do not want to gain weight back. 

I also am supposed to start talking about my food issues and disordered thoughts in therapy this week and I really don't want to. I stupidly made it a goal on my treatment plan and now I'm regretting it. I'm terrified of being fat, getting diabetes, and dying. I've never weighed more than 183lbs (at 5'4"" that's obese) but I'm convinced I'll end up on My 600lb Life. I'm messed up and I don't really want to change until I'm at my GW (89lbs). 

Anyway this is getting long. But I miss peach and all my peaches. Hopefully it's back up soon. ",0.7541450216450194,2.6031423149350665,3.1256883116883145,90.93900865800863,82.01948051948051,6.184588744588745,21.63030303030304,7.3011,0.6770412121212117,1115,35,249,16,30,384,161,308,0.14,0.826,0.035,-0.9823,0,0,0,0,0,0,38.0,0,1,1,4,17,12,1,2,7,0,11,18,2,3,3,44,48,24,1,10,8,0,1,1,0,1,5,1,0,0,13,14,14,1,4,0,0,5,7,8,0,2,6,3,29,4,37,39,5,43,0,4,1,0,5,15,0,2,23,139,42,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10228121337988336,0.07412089375072549,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0825101160313376,0.0,0.0,0.08708146936488043,0.14253949689541856,0.0,0.056500474275651365,0.0,0.07886888810132515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10295315842643102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0980494096945901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17932424482940493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09619334786420863,0.0,0.10622608997104456,0.09486796273591283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3793633256143623,0.0,0.0,0.16418442234690878,0.0,0.10336929705109917,0.0,0.08383971763065913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1120761778542402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14527369733523568,0.08891277651371415,0.15802662648375626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.098665881351841,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09205802816691752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.096740016023759,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10187551126639736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0654668037062517,0.045281656940674916,0.0,0.0,0.08202411923894926,0.0,0.0,0.10117762645152148,0.07879825152888244,0.0,0.17540331004353313,0.061868568824909424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06872543249161353,0.0714850925291603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1816250377129313,0.0889346364093777,0.0,0.0,0.09870747588129368,0.125612751183238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08876748702832324,0.0,0.29979328232536195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2375078852718756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06560356858425219,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06968827412677625,0.14899485722760689,0.0,0.0,0.10599442290687533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14716452879440153,0.0,0.0,0.35142164455845937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21867421928983646,0.0,0.1486941025992055,0.11286647627970757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,rosepetalmemories,2019/02/13,Break ups are the magic pill I got rid of a toxic bf (ex bf now) on sunday. I'm 5'5 and when I checked this morning I weighed 104lbs and have no appetite. My disease is happy about this. But my intelligence (what's left of it after dumbing it down enough to date an a'hole) is worried that this could be bad news for my body. ,2.8247058823529443,3.8136967647058846,3.943411764705882,91.01335294117649,74.0,6.028235294117647,25.364705882352943,5.6839178017228535,0.5164200000000001,252,8,56,1,5,82,56,68,0.13,0.7759999999999999,0.094,-0.1531,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,0,3,3,1,0,3,0,6,3,1,0,0,5,8,4,0,1,1,1,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,7,2,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,6,1,9,5,1,10,0,0,0,0,3,4,1,0,5,38,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.302457922983845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4023705092269991,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2892217018873909,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3742940369028114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2897189612411623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3856145991989183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3935782731465131,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3678755312793585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,riplorena,2019/02/13,"my digestive system is fuckt (tmi) i have acid reflux after every time I eat. I’ve never “relied” on laxatives , but I do take miralax which is something you’re supposed to take daily to support bowel movements, and my doctor said it’s fine to take for however long as my body won’t rely on it. I’ve been taking it and i can’t remember the last time I pooped

My stomach is in agony, i look 8 months pregnant. It hurts, it keeps making sounds, it’s so uncomfortable. I really don’t want to take a laxative, but I think I have to and then I’ll get back to just regularly taking my Miralax. The last time I took a laxative was 3 weeks ago I think. I can’t wear any tight clothes. This is horrible ",1.8363782051282056,3.6592279583333394,4.053611111111113,85.72942307692307,78.44444444444444,7.20854700854701,23.57692307692308,8.139509932561175,1.3760198717948713,542,18,113,10,13,187,89,144,0.126,0.818,0.056,-0.9106,2,0,1,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,0,4,0,13,8,5,1,1,14,29,8,0,1,3,0,1,0,0,1,2,2,0,0,8,3,2,2,3,0,0,2,5,1,0,0,4,5,17,2,12,24,0,19,0,1,1,0,1,3,0,0,13,64,25,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13117120844049335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1006283038424793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11378390062375698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16436724139541226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1514590282613568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.151415712424161,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12467560403207728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07731100642682992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1584106593742415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13152727909395145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2412393002599288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1309535172427815,0.1242620150230659,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09877468687956104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11811250268639738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1141277027291021,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09479679037650084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1676272114059412,0.0,0.1407584320464779,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11391864428719516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16792065949458973,0.0,0.0,0.6675542285967287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.189633242673382,0.0,0.0,0.25885682798078863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16440604476613505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08727968801134492,0.0,0.11869689006900468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,b_elle,2019/02/13,"Around and Around... Life is so cyclical. I made a post which was essentially the same as this one at essentially the same time last year. 

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I found out that the guy I have been dating since May has a girlfriend, which I guess made me the side chick. I want to hate him but I also just want him to like me. Like I know I need to call him out/block and delete his number, but it is so rare for me to actually \~have feelings for someone, I am almost afraid to let him go.

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I woke up this morning and weighed 83 kg. I am 6 ft/ 183 cm tall. This is the lowest I have ever weighed (still technically overweight according to my BMI l o l) but I just can't bring myself to eat. The kicker is that I have lurked the girl, and she def isn't skinny, but she's tiny like short and pretty and wears makeup every day and I'm just like.. is that what you want? because I can do that!!!!  


This post made me realize that I have lost about 10 kg since making the same post about a different guy last year. So I guess some things have changed. ",2.1452777777777783,3.674144453703704,3.0751851851851875,94.38833333333334,76.68518518518519,6.0962962962962965,20.796296296296298,6.691623216298621,0.0683907407407407,806,19,187,7,18,256,120,216,0.057,0.843,0.099,0.7762,2,0,0,0,0,0,39.0,0,1,0,1,13,7,1,1,11,0,22,7,2,4,1,38,41,16,0,4,7,0,1,4,1,1,2,0,0,4,14,10,5,0,4,0,0,2,2,3,0,1,8,1,31,4,17,31,4,22,0,1,0,0,14,8,0,5,13,120,45,0,0.0,0.0,0.11021076456166704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11309064991693338,0.0,0.0,0.09031612383135587,0.0,0.2447355924668331,0.2744629876900008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2010767404367109,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0688456867286509,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11532187325805247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1194729607194094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07283538141730513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11799570992543905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1155633160890156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10215848644488863,0.09515476304722564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05710462240384054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12383020235899148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06418501650451139,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2488269042876456,0.22365187564187092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1115024563752928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06206752796223922,0.1841183656748599,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11548630417183547,0.07977113673590888,0.2207023433525688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1232846850213384,0.0,0.0,0.32059274251869885,0.07538669652380699,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0837417677686233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0765294117257698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3244888834291686,0.11489809763742448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18684622905392206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09569162586950153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09019207920884677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07503069479489638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06585479792644132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1998404923569135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2744629876900008,0.14545616829533867
EDAnonymous,ablindbabywith7legs,2019/02/13,"Really want to act out- instead I'm posting here I just need to vent. I have really wanted to purge the last few days. This is the longest I've gone in 7 years without purging, it's been a month and a half. My ED has made my life miserable and left me hopeless, filled with self-hatred, and suicidal countless times. I have been through the pits of absolute hell, thinking I would never be able to go this long. I couldn't make it longer than a week without purging for a long time. This has been a difficult battle and it has been easy to forget that my recovery needs to be a priority in my life today.

In the past few weeks I have struggled with restricting and bingeing on fruit/veg sometimes too. I'm trying not to beat myself up for doing shit like eating too many carrots. For the most part I'm doing pretty good. I realized today that the last week I have not been taking as good of care of myself. I don't want to be responsible for myself and I want to be the victim, and my eating disorder gives me the perfect excuse for these things. I have been running from my pain and therefore running from myself and my self-responsibility. I feel like I forget all the time that the person or thing that I need to show up and save me is MYSELF. 

I will not make my eating disorder my higher power today. I will not listen to what this stupid ED is trying to tell me. I WILL regret purging so much. It is not worth it, it is never worth it.",3.7816960208741035,4.865834534246577,4.986966731898238,84.07440639269406,71.8082191780822,7.4797129810828435,24.863666014350947,7.793537801064563,1.2456981082844099,1132,32,228,14,21,375,143,292,0.171,0.716,0.113,-0.9604,1,0,0,0,0,1,28.0,0,0,0,3,6,18,5,2,16,0,31,7,1,4,4,48,52,13,1,10,9,0,1,2,0,4,3,1,0,1,19,13,3,1,3,1,2,6,11,11,0,1,8,2,35,7,36,35,6,34,1,3,0,0,5,8,2,2,21,168,54,0,0.10379347993660552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10582437026818764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06693820793875427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23791264050548394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3186199261374608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0524811021010749,0.0741500828056289,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09956816371956168,0.0589882265696567,0.1741140930450471,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16921107855912387,0.0,0.0,0.11277191964674545,0.0,0.1466248088341963,0.10141650297168994,0.0,0.0,0.18370792710712056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0982119003373703,0.13856590765452914,0.10523029762486286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0828469654378387,0.0,0.07630015038427114,0.2308846506317525,0.1601038607843633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11044358063700097,0.0,0.0,0.1123982241705617,0.09908262107654693,0.0,0.0906284631794916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09940546261140427,0.1055952835251285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13298552206267802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21655847218147048,0.0,0.10654251560254034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10265440564971272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10850748121032626,0.0,0.11353322068716508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07803977965437063,0.0,0.09072007634740777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13791155211213582,0.06650667094634466,0.0,0.0,0.18156843850826948,0.0,0.29515224818052965,0.0,0.0,0.1409379193879894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2448803346517859,0.0,0.2497706066368437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20010642155983752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07373191016654246,0.0,0.0,0.06683959807626189
EDAnonymous,_WinterSoldier_,2019/02/13,"Wow such bad I've been binging nonstop the past few weeks and I stg at this point I'm just walking nausea 

Like that's all there is

Is nausea 

It's horrible and I hate it and if anyone has any tips to help with the fucking nausea that'd be splendid cause it's getting old *real quick*",-0.9298360655737704,1.1331882295081996,1.1037540983606569,98.01399180327871,101.1311475409836,3.095737704918033,17.575409836065575,4.935628992294339,-0.6762275409836063,226,7,49,1,10,74,47,61,0.154,0.662,0.184,0.2732,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,4,5,2,0,2,0,6,1,0,1,1,9,10,4,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,6,4,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,1,0,2,2,3,7,2,7,0,0,0,1,1,2,1,1,5,28,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21148944910350492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2174571812695681,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25967051705850897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.319480832668646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2875128361255244,0.1624837300690504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30704634871453457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20845554629787244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15193801751564734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3263403085198526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2968829840411087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.293993834346714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.353984052032691,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2494640069685447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,riseaboveitx,2019/02/13,"Poop talk Ya sex is great but have you ever suffered through months of painful recovery bloat/constipation for a week on average after eating more and stopping laxatives cold turkey, and been able to poop three times in one week? 

Outstanding",7.774285714285713,9.805116428571434,6.446190476190478,73.78214285714287,63.28571428571429,10.361904761904762,35.42857142857143,10.504223727775694,4.135085714285714,198,9,31,5,3,59,39,42,0.196,0.654,0.15,-0.3437,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,2,0,0,1,3,0,0,1,0,3,5,2,0,1,5,3,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,2,1,1,2,1,7,2,1,9,0,1,0,1,3,2,0,0,7,20,2,0,0.3076116437848743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3147635069229857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2782523429023848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3391429232373244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2455326792828186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20844561088054495,0.0,0.3273204772205873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2571771081417751,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2472465871523117,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17937082323827086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4934950115918137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,bananabread98,2019/02/13,"advice for throat infections?? long time lurker here - 
basically i am a bulimic that has been throwing up for maybe 2,3? years a LONG time in my opinion.
Since moving out and living alone its gotten a HELL of a lot worse, i  b/p multiple times daily but recently ive been getting WAY more cases of tonsillitis/a throat infection. These are self diagnosed because im too scared (and not currently signed up to) go to the doctor. 
They go away on its own but lasts probably a week and a half to 2 weeks? im just wondering what i can do to limit these/ease the pain. 
Im very sceptical to go to the doctor, would it be obvious its ED related? 
thanks in advance :)",2.052965355255431,4.2887297633587815,4.193435114503822,82.94585437463303,79.61068702290076,8.305578391074574,24.580739870816213,9.057496981413335,2.21283863769818,513,19,102,14,13,176,93,131,0.14300000000000002,0.7979999999999999,0.059,-0.8851,1,1,0,0,0,0,20.0,0,0,1,2,3,5,2,1,9,0,10,8,2,0,1,15,17,5,0,1,4,0,0,0,0,1,6,0,0,1,7,4,0,1,1,0,0,6,1,4,0,1,3,0,6,1,17,12,3,25,1,0,0,0,2,7,1,3,11,61,13,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1431591533011478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15173092953962114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1376425808974091,0.0,0.0,0.08930569451742283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14869550558869396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2999001126344443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07654076419690096,0.0,0.2497798082459462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4747388966632924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11941792798737033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12936313175891312,0.2592976795230563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12454997360222235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14718001922489066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15570745605296932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15588747109803894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15795293539840888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14465213587479595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14667313170456375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15283257016168555,0.0,0.0,0.12118720174431585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1348785052660872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2562778619366076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1208787283162934,0.0,0.1162857329317009,0.2350286484053392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15887416468988294,0.0,0.0,0.1492971096421532,0.1040701591599738,0.0,0.0,0.09434188798680684
EDAnonymous,rachelrayromano,2019/02/13,"I'm terrified to take prednisone So my body sucks and I have a chronic health condition that causes some problems. Long story short, I have to start a month of prednisone tomorrow and I know I need to do this but I'm fucking terrified. Everyone I know who has had to take it for a few days (!) has had bad water retention, massive cystic acne breakouts, and hormonal changes that really messed them up. Just from a few days worth of doses! Wtf is a month of this going to do to me? 
Does anyone have experience with restriction and prednisone? I did see that it's a stimulant and I'm sensitive to stimulants and can usually restrict well on those but I have issues with my muscles because of my chronic health issue. Ugh. Idk what to do 😐",2.57191142191142,5.108453230769231,4.136391608391609,82.38663869463872,79.62937062937063,7.72941724941725,27.71515151515152,8.648137234880735,2.5247775291375296,584,26,107,14,15,194,87,143,0.241,0.727,0.032,-0.9867,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,1,0,3,7,2,0,6,0,14,8,1,3,0,21,27,9,0,2,3,0,0,0,0,0,5,0,0,0,10,8,1,2,2,0,1,1,0,6,1,0,3,1,12,1,18,24,3,12,0,0,1,1,2,3,2,1,8,74,22,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12527307048510494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1495913944826185,0.1092144760613076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19900674110349909,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18404701392650769,0.18952787645058575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23108718637869435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1567844147062694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17119537588280895,0.0,0.17525318379937316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16563084086276486,0.0,0.0,0.10182094596798218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3808781120257186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37399368057165006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19692366708560974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15855125681542412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2860081369456419,0.0,0.0,0.13284511675139926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1714322425033616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11477469695141783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1427675893960557,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1268106057964336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2694125472023714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19731979516518505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16108665561464725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ap0cryphal,2019/02/13,"using a blood drive as motivation disclaimer: I think it’s wonderful that people donate blood!! but I tried it once in high school and nearly fainted. I think it might be less safe for me to donate now since I weigh even less than I did last time and I’m not willing to eat the cookies and stuff they give you to replenish blood sugar lol

today, a volunteer for the Red Cross at my university approached me today about donating blood next week and I felt bad saying no so I signed up even though I had a bad experience last time. I looked up the weight minimum you have to be for my height to give blood and two weeks ago, I was under the minimum - but I was on vacation for a week and put on some weight since then. this morning, I weighed in at 3 lbs above the minimum. 

tl;dr my selfish disordered ass is using a blood drive as motivation to drop 3 lbs within the next week and a half so that I don’t have to give blood 🤪🤪🤪",4.4805846422338576,4.751469130890059,5.506505235602095,83.9329864746946,69.73298429319371,9.089179755671903,26.911431064572426,9.075114841892004,1.824277137870855,728,21,158,13,12,241,106,191,0.127,0.799,0.07400000000000001,-0.9213,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,2,1,2,7,4,0,0,12,1,12,15,8,4,0,22,23,15,0,0,3,0,3,0,0,2,1,1,0,0,7,7,6,1,6,0,3,5,3,3,0,2,5,7,21,1,26,14,3,34,0,0,2,1,7,13,1,3,15,101,28,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10939345358431224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20608049964626693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.141435881516915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1262768553094663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16301920448095586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12071638146995928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11849071623916425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35515164667441323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13038697905170668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20118744432905394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10363136189970856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13091603606367316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2624909144418216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13142514110597375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08555533999868897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12405879391557052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09813873251466836,0.0,0.12489515060039567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20416819999512087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1412722572812381,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15814930408180367,0.12124740933530105,0.0,0.1439200097509457,0.0,0.23395208322078898,0.0,0.0,0.08378570733126182,0.0,0.12055136188870134,0.0,0.0,0.21316920826113145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3959607565941256,0.3005545920155729,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13383035404554686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,akinamai,2019/02/13,"What is happening??? So about 5 days ago I gained 5lbs in literally 2 days (eating at or maybe 100cal over maintenance) I thought it was period gain bc I i was due and I had symptoms and stuff but my period never came and the weight hasn’t gone away. I’ve been having an upset stomach over the past few days but am normal physically otherwise, but I am so anxious about this I am basically non functional has this happened to anyone before/does anyone know what is happening?? Is it permanent gain??? What is going on???? (I’m freaking out lol)

Also ps there is no way I could be pregnant so it’s def not that. ",0.420780532598716,2.8798421570247967,2.927534435261709,86.04665518824609,94.37190082644628,6.325252525252527,19.945362718089992,7.594959193182576,1.209782001836547,475,16,93,11,18,163,84,121,0.117,0.812,0.071,-0.7707,0,0,0,0,0,0,20.0,0,0,0,3,7,2,0,1,3,1,17,4,1,0,1,15,26,11,0,2,5,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,10,5,2,0,2,0,0,3,4,2,0,0,7,1,9,0,10,17,1,20,0,0,0,0,0,7,0,1,9,65,19,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16590557185659455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14967135535985468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2114369209568068,0.0,0.26173249713800834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17584247689190532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21406056641941115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14943160231832653,0.0,0.0,0.3621071119671536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19151085559450545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10636703621119786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4965134864671938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10285794650898007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1880268370497416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1443489162832622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1833765365350379,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17866488546666606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2142528082235892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19453034467824945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14858370812168498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14855847058797625,0.0,0.22790980551700885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,whydiepizzapie,2019/02/13,"Fasting but dont get hungry? This is probably just a sign of how long I've been at this and how messed up my hunger signals are at this point, but I can fast for scary long amounts of time without feeling any hunger. This in turn makes me fast longer or occasionally makes me think I did eat and then I restart the fast.

What scares me about this is that it makes the process kind of addicting??? Has anyone find their way out of this train of thought? ",4.579267399267399,5.250880351648355,3.940384615384616,93.82544871794872,69.65934065934066,7.3853479853479875,27.25457875457875,7.1686216300943375,0.9199875457875448,356,11,82,3,6,105,65,91,0.18600000000000005,0.8140000000000001,0.0,-0.9518,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,1,0,4,3,0,1,3,0,8,4,0,5,0,18,16,8,0,0,5,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,9,3,3,0,4,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,3,1,8,1,13,13,1,15,0,0,0,0,1,6,0,1,8,50,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2360244700523499,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14723211099424974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15138665302167614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2537444651312427,0.0,0.0,0.22154060166615447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10947238997123143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19788337706473252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11311591515176762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22545861118770705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38320357294221824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4335600951250861,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20466899428621715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2334310484872643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21676116896686565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.138728874319457,0.0,0.17188228830622385,0.12624690991031176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2354973271313589,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17185309341601748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20870491795843488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,b00kfairy,2019/02/13,Music to drown everything out Anyone else struggling and the only thing that can help for a little while is music? What do you listen to when you want to drown out everything else?,7.156764705882356,7.534602911764708,6.657647058823527,77.60941176470591,64.0,9.15294117647059,25.823529411764717,8.841846274778883,1.845635294117648,145,3,25,2,2,45,26,34,0.248,0.6579999999999999,0.094,-0.8205,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,2,0,0,1,1,0,1,2,0,3,0,0,0,0,4,5,3,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,3,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,0,6,5,0,5,0,0,0,0,4,3,0,0,2,19,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20641026866607246,0.3024666475766304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.493202401944539,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5306123323526645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19786592038521095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2958673281873813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22451242898955132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.308606484304544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1961173495485158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17411624136248027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,buffy-icecreamslayer,2019/02/13,Grocery stores Does anyone else fucking LOVE and hate grocery stores? I feel like I could walk in them for hours staring at all the food I want to eat. It’s like fucking euphoric to look at the options even though I never get to eat it. ,4.919374999999999,5.256910520833337,4.662500000000001,90.1325,68.79166666666666,6.4,30.583333333333336,3.1291,1.034783333333333,187,7,39,0,3,57,35,48,0.07,0.649,0.281,0.9012,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,1,0,2,6,3,0,2,0,1,6,0,0,2,7,9,2,0,2,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,3,0,1,0,2,1,1,3,0,0,0,3,5,3,7,8,1,6,0,0,2,3,2,3,2,1,4,22,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15439030540770704,0.2262383475240201,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17629290188848434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19322583517698355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.451872347644113,0.18445223184903514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14583802878872254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11164442428719266,0.15774141499045513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26699536925430906,0.0,0.0,0.4082568744697305,0.11536024040542806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2179968455196397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2174460746493145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21574598539657536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18541856572376772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19928295891138245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17029657007775548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21693742439119015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1302350888554118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Bribear20,2019/02/14,"I’m a terrible human being I have a really good friend from high school and I have always admired her thin figure. We’ve kept in touch since and now we’re a year away from graduating college. 

In January, we were speaking on FaceTime about how stressful our workload is at the moment, and she said out of the blue “I’ve eaten no more than 400 calories a day in the past week” and then her eyes got super big as if she didn’t mean to say it out loud and that instantly alarmed me. I asked more questions and if she is ok, and she basically admitted to me that she starves herself and always has but that it’s not a big deal. 

I told her that I love her and support her, and that I really care for her. She broke down and told me everything and I listened. I helped her find meal replacement shakes with calories she was okay with that have nutrients and also a multivitamin to take. Because I know I can’t just tell her to eat. I also helped her to schedule an appointment with her psychiatrist to at least just talk. I’ve been checking in everyday, not even to ask if she’s eaten to make her feel bad about herself, just to be someone that she can vent all her problems to. I’m just trying to be a good friend because I know from experience what it feels like to be alone and isolated with no one to talk to, because you have a secret. 

Okay so here’s the part where I’m a piece of shit. It literally triggered me so much into hardcore restriction, because I realized she wasn’t just naturally thin eating whatever she wanted. I’ve lost 23lbs since January. I still have a really long way to go because I’m still fat (5’10’’ 170lbs down from 193 in January), but I am so ashamed in myself that her suffering is what finally made me restrict and stick to it. This is my lowest weight in years. I was 225lbs in high school, and every time I see the number go down, I get excited and then feel like a total hypocrite. 

I am sitting here everyday supporting and listening to her, and helping her stay positive, and then hanging up the phone and sinking back into the reality that I’m starving myself because I am so inspired by her starving herself to be thin. 

I’m telling her that eating is necessary for survival, and that she will always be loved and that she is beautiful on the outside and inside, while telling myself that adderall and Diet Coke is a full course meal, and that I’ll never be loved until I’m thin because I’m not living up to my potential. 

And like the logical thing to do is maybe confide in her and tell her what’s going on, but I know she’d secretly think I’m lying because I’m so fat. Plus, it would be so rude to make this about me. It needs to be about her, she’s actually sick. I just needed to get this off my chest cause wow what is wrong with me",4.7231105169340495,5.222533000000002,5.716020499108738,81.83716800356508,69.26737967914438,9.014081996434935,30.20008912655972,9.075114841892004,2.366005704099821,2187,82,447,39,36,724,251,561,0.132,0.721,0.147,0.8903,1,1,0,0,0,0,43.0,2,1,0,3,27,34,2,4,22,3,39,19,5,6,3,88,89,50,0,8,15,0,9,3,2,2,3,6,0,1,29,39,12,3,17,0,1,5,9,13,0,1,15,18,76,21,70,62,9,65,0,3,3,3,71,35,1,4,25,312,105,4,0.0,0.0,0.07701965591876041,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08174275323038392,0.0,0.12623298294088106,0.1970163840945556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14756890354480795,0.0,0.07415286756911382,0.060688643139253234,0.06589928449288933,0.3848967838610379,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08046954935677163,0.08107796957677901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050900254959520295,0.08136846400875368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2422806940158741,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052129381248273814,0.0,0.06649792457276499,0.0,0.07093292282871988,0.07720403608391681,0.0,0.0,0.11972092888767474,0.11276842438116495,0.0,0.0864587501973537,0.07213624586024399,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12195490002096207,0.0,0.08247036802313261,0.0,0.13456511002293287,0.132397505116171,0.06312372994386889,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1587057880719156,0.16677771339734745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13012575494941464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1156766669736311,0.0,0.06969243903377775,0.06984635991744048,0.0,0.0,0.08615623036607499,0.0,0.21369935045732466,0.07468097699605337,0.10536643040647464,0.0,0.07929101883477091,0.08597273165676418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05801913776303313,0.11704414110945074,0.06087201603442938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053481789934284284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08546835123691209,0.07534307879093834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07552080224304403,0.0,0.0,0.08841433947451423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15168460257649666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07507598354846648,0.06276452420152942,0.0,0.15975312706103142,0.06289320333241402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08101563180717107,0.13057555973490012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06687310561802602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08412381190968568,0.1260596083312007,0.0,0.09040860371983704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17912686986312462,0.0,0.0,0.05934196333769036,0.1268742477252402,0.2759365784190211,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05243442706737572,0.05057211138331026,0.0,0.0,0.04602194619615373,0.0,0.0,0.15083291145439787,0.0,0.05358506188929266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.046552155533327984,0.06264718736049266,0.06330907240521302,0.09610968819891104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0560662309568143,0.08629236764621315,0.0,0.1016505427389518
EDAnonymous,glitteryghost,2019/02/14,"Someone on my fasting app said they just finished fasting for 986 hours. They finished a 986h45m fast and said they lost  36.4lbs doing it. That's 41 days!!!!

I'm jealous and I'm mad at myself for it. Like, fuck, I'm not good enough body-wise and I'm not even good enough at fasting holy fuck. 😞",1.1332795698924727,3.053425016129033,1.952903225806452,99.46602150537636,81.09677419354837,4.133333333333334,23.23655913978495,3.1291,-0.2690408602150538,229,8,53,0,6,71,41,62,0.311,0.652,0.036000000000000004,-0.9583,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,3,1,2,8,4,0,1,0,1,2,0,0,0,6,10,3,0,0,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,3,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,5,0,0,3,2,5,3,5,7,2,11,0,1,0,2,5,3,2,0,9,24,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1516179815373082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4858356622015517,0.0,0.15527921362943534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4346863911491171,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3943760694765382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2315229831258117,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11485641719904555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.256635919709168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.447261770951802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1991967486410384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,unmerited-space,2019/02/14,"Can we take a moment to appreciate the people in our lives who really do give a shit? This Valentine's Day, my mom got me PB2, a vegan protein bar, and sugar-free dark chocolate 💕

My family isn't perfect, but damn I'm really thankful for them. Anybody else wanna share about their loved ones? 

Happy Valentine's Day! Hope y'all got to enjoy at least a little bit of it 😊",2.0329135338345883,3.9876918026315806,4.325864661654137,83.38605263157895,78.34210526315789,6.974436090225563,21.383458646616546,7.957251820313856,1.1261037593984962,291,8,57,5,7,101,66,76,0.049,0.596,0.355,0.9846,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,2,1,2,1,1,9,2,0,5,0,3,3,1,0,1,6,11,2,0,2,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,2,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,2,0,1,2,0,8,7,8,9,2,6,0,0,0,1,10,3,2,1,3,31,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2500728994204489,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29544797122385763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19134924709954088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2159362643384888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21973408666949196,0.0,0.0,0.3663985173125447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2438373670733724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2275070865291437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2295771077626441,0.2022631295122896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2067345228908448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2682709148058059,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15521618060725856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1588005405888845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2934818835567932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23512558113788776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17222372157570026,0.0,0.0,0.2108865811157124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,CA22TOR,2019/02/14,"I saved all my calories for this... So I have binge eating disorder but I have also suffered from non specified restrictive eating disorder as a teenager. 

Anyway, I gained a bunch when I started bingeing and have been working to lose weight. I saved all of my calories today for Mac and cheese and I ate like four bites and can literally not stomach anymore and I am irrationally angry about.

I guess I am too used to smaller portions or something. Idk, but I literally planned for a binge and now that I can’t I’m just way too upset since I realistically know this isn’t really a problem. But i know I’ll be upset about it for days so I’ll probably force myself to eat until I throw up. I don’t know why I do this to myself. ",2.702781875658588,4.681386643835616,4.631095890410961,81.86316649104322,76.39726027397259,7.232033719704952,26.98419388830348,8.139509932561175,1.8628531085353008,574,23,112,10,13,196,87,146,0.222,0.6970000000000001,0.081,-0.9692,0,0,1,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,4,11,8,0,2,4,0,12,6,1,1,2,23,20,16,0,1,6,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,6,5,1,3,0,0,1,4,5,0,1,2,1,21,3,15,17,4,9,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,2,7,81,26,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14247128608308274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1766828766432383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11489587930336607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40836441353903263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5468941835226906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19625891569554532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2937296295827481,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08703802091225811,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1993109896116528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1920822965951036,0.17047122821508046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1141312933413805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14737248136774306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13715319006641424,0.0,0.0,0.12609973132908495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1688710535050235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1538695799511916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14141193759030948,0.0,0.2169460083052264,0.0,0.0,0.1607580765028164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12969968732339426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,IvoryBoneGoddess,2019/02/14,"Just started C/S So the first time I did a chew spit was about 2 weeks ago. I was getting my toddler a snack of pizza flavored goldfish and 3 fell into the counter. I absentmindedly popped them into my mouth; mid chew I realized what I had done and I took the top off the garbage can and spit them out, then brushed my teeth to get rid of the taste so I wasn't tempted to munch more. Then today my company brought in iced cookies for Valentine's day. As soon as I saw then my first thought was,  ""I can chew and spit one in the bathroom"". Not, I don't need the empty calories, not i'm stronger than a cookie, not there'll be cookies tomorrow. I can chew spit one. Like, duh, why didn't i do this forever ago?!?!?!!11!1 This is *clearly* the solution to my inability to control myself. I just did it again with 3 dill pickle flavored chips I was giving my kid to go with her sandwich. On purpose, not as a gut reaction.

 I have no opinion of this habit, other than it's weird; I know it's supposed to be bad for me. Any ""seasoned"" c/s people here, please talk me out of this habit before I do any sort of damage 😮",1.9313043478260847,3.6119188695652182,3.3115217391304377,91.80336956521742,77.69565217391305,5.9913043478260875,26.28260869565217,6.742157984588678,0.9368434782608706,860,34,190,8,20,281,133,230,0.08199999999999999,0.858,0.06,-0.7645,0,0,0,0,0,0,39.0,0,0,2,4,8,4,0,0,12,1,20,15,7,1,1,24,32,12,0,1,6,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,9,10,8,1,3,0,0,4,8,3,0,4,14,5,30,1,29,16,1,29,0,1,1,0,6,10,0,2,16,124,39,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35683087778276384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2737436546998964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16805367042830413,0.0,0.0,0.1712676043705497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2257436055038175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12980375640659453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20597108413678836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34240363430116866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21031257250381752,0.1930783937498168,0.1143874870314794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11061379955176304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09833130772929158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14924060000753095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2727741634433621,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13953662705787828,0.0,0.0,0.22093615936495328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14246132156889305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16177476870296814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15978744535206935,0.1173632921515574,0.0,0.1907822737090004,0.0,0.2236205412916744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1614482170933938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18161662828366493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,lrn___,2019/02/14,"I know i should get help but i want to lose weight so badly i feel like I can't im telling myself im going to talk to my therapist about it but im pretty sure i won't and I don't know what to do
ive been eating like 800 cal a day and made myself throw up a few times  when I messed up but part of me feels like it isn't that bad and i can just try to do better on my own and im so afraid of them making me eat more so ill be fat longer if i tell someone
idk im really emotional now typing tbis out i just ate way too much and i feel really guilty its probably a mess im sorry",-2.3076386554621853,-0.6620198142857134,1.1917647058823562,101.18617647058826,93.57142857142857,4.722689075630252,11.80672268907563,6.2272716619740125,-1.240058823529412,446,5,124,5,17,161,86,140,0.175,0.621,0.203,0.5148,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,1,2,9,11,0,1,3,0,11,6,1,2,1,22,22,13,0,3,6,0,4,3,0,2,2,0,0,0,5,6,5,0,5,0,0,2,4,6,0,0,3,4,20,5,12,16,5,11,0,1,0,0,5,4,0,1,7,72,25,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18728438289512567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09918928350004533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07232872794185599,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2295188818074945,0.0,0.12615584552970602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17012218310791194,0.16024274719220205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058594763589629326,0.0,0.06373853622183871,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07517308624734388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7268600910549405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12327155447387347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16437532938509458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12546934172791505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10612088430353232,0.07486229573049501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0824445856709523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12144962985293198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11409884980817285,0.12091876799333673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14369481857473418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09502598104311716,0.0,0.0,0.12554492304353648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10570188311391657,0.0,0.0,0.09014348703994217,0.19605149056275065,0.0,0.0,0.1302170549843307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06539670240205234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07614381040370906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0661501243039899,0.08902099556324612,0.0,0.13657085796218493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,throwawaymyfeelingsk,2019/02/14,"Feeling even less valid after official diagnosis Guess I'm back to reddit for the time being since Peach is down. 

Anyway, I've been feeling especially shitty since the holidays, so I finally decided to start therapy again for the first time in 3 years for me. I've only had a couple sessions so far, but my therapist keeps saying she thinks I'm headed for inpatient treatment and outpatient likely isn't enough. After a shitty intake assessment with an ED treatment facility, I ended up getting hospitalized for ""suicidal ideation"". 

Didn't help one bit, and the unit I was kept in was painfully incapable of dealing with eating disorders. Got discharged with a diagnosis of major depressive disorder recurrent severe and anorexia binge purge subtype. I thought I might be a bit more ready to accept my problem with a tangible diagnosis, but I don't. My BMI is still in a normal range, so I don't feel I can accept an anorexia bp diagnosis. 

As if being male wasn't enough, I now feel like the psychiatrist was just humoring me and I probably don't even have a real disorder. Logically I know fasting for days on end and holding back tears every time I enter a grocery store isn't normal, but I can't convince myself I'm more than just a tad disordered. I have zero friends I can open up to about the depression alone, but trying to talk about an ED would make me feel like a laughingstock. I'm invisible and it's unbearable. 

I don't think I have the desire or willpower to ""recover"" either, and I'm pretty sure suicide would just be easier right now lmao. Hope you guys are feeling better than me this Valentine's Day",7.595196078431371,7.554432571895429,8.358758169934642,67.19441176470589,63.15032679738562,11.775163398692813,36.954248366013076,11.326091736570909,4.4765934640522875,1301,58,218,35,17,439,175,306,0.175,0.653,0.172,-0.6062,2,1,0,0,0,1,28.0,0,1,0,2,17,15,0,0,20,0,29,3,1,1,1,51,52,17,2,8,10,0,6,3,1,3,1,2,0,2,2,12,1,3,14,1,1,1,9,4,0,3,10,8,27,11,32,35,9,31,0,2,0,0,9,10,0,5,23,147,29,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.100529552111115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14927322293207682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08584566514757767,0.21193859584503444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.107400026507322,0.0,0.12519714913444205,0.10006924062999252,0.16720302861666814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4449773194045908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09932121887282122,0.0,0.0,0.17194067898910975,0.20058715740293304,0.0,0.12822037774892575,0.0,0.0817810302373562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2944723754406398,0.13868580084847,0.0,0.10632941869391352,0.0,0.08256301676952184,0.0,0.0,0.07499179433257723,0.0,0.05071219669123325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07763135015718277,0.0,0.10692749333691393,0.09610911854949207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0996161833122442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06506029041026908,0.0,0.0,0.09640695288359312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08627539021870029,0.0,0.0,0.05334411245939027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14226243992284876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06479130955166211,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10297009883542364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19020520862691967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06577341936405298,0.07382192851774629,0.1032834748773356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09874949499309252,0.10465195130892213,0.0928776206395666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11048065467608874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08289255531412386,0.0,0.07718958876591482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10965526021465342,0.0,0.16058552003761525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06870275489748573,0.0,0.0775158375759707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.212345624416623,0.0,0.09148214548058037,0.0,0.0,0.07801677087084058,0.0,0.0,0.11100171857449133,0.11269936936971076,0.0,0.12439002861449674,0.0,0.07705837326807212,0.16979727702619635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06590042613801582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13790367620139926,0.0,0.0,0.06250635762535217
EDAnonymous,_Jelly_King_,2019/02/14,"What’s plan b? I don’t want to be “that” person. The one who’s always doom and gloom, but what happens if this sub gets shut down too? Is there a backup in place? Because there should be. ",-0.5917500000000011,1.5212533250000035,0.8049999999999997,103.54000000000002,90.75,3.2,13.0,3.1291,-1.75015,143,2,35,0,5,45,36,40,0.124,0.846,0.03,-0.5484,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,1,3,2,0,0,2,0,5,0,0,0,0,5,8,3,0,3,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,5,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,0,0,1,0,3,5,0,4,1,2,0,0,2,4,0,1,0,23,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3805859983369509,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27882134158978833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2389679479568245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4044693991067304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3099400160326435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3993762265613926,0.477876301429336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2697810946507708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,smallblush,2019/02/14,"i’m really losing my shit over 309 calories i’ve been trying to eat more consistently because i’ve felt like so much shit recently but i can’t. deal. i can’t even tell whether the distention of my gut is from  my furious water intake or if it’s just because i’m actually eating. i feel so fat. i know that realistically the way that i’m eating isn’t sustainable long term, i just can’t fathom eating any more— i’m trying to work my way up to maintenance. my best friend literally has midnight breakdowns at me about how i’m going to die. i think i’m so so fat still. i can’t see what everyone else seems to see. i’m really losing my mind. 309 calories... that seems fucking colossal to me.",1.3203030303030303,3.5459753426573464,3.9713566433566463,83.5698554778555,82.2867132867133,7.169976689976691,22.82004662004661,8.238735603445708,1.5049173892773893,546,19,112,12,15,192,81,143,0.145,0.773,0.08199999999999999,-0.8481,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,0,4,10,9,4,0,2,0,8,11,5,1,0,14,25,9,1,1,6,0,2,1,1,0,2,0,0,0,5,0,7,0,6,0,0,1,5,6,0,0,2,4,15,3,12,23,4,10,0,2,2,1,3,3,3,4,5,58,20,1,0.0,0.0,0.13137305618249273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09154855452449184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1641303969988273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1412789929608598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13879085366182947,0.0,0.0,0.13971787472590064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.551013544913848,0.11246060825396466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0889175113780264,0.0,0.0,0.12863846452111286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06806965542047502,0.0,0.12925961260738708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10400973453506174,0.1244571994778185,0.0,0.0,0.07650960242275859,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07398552101985667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06577021189396022,0.0,0.0,0.11913750660292742,0.0,0.30121838438325804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13593129592307934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09896371717165947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17248644369709348,0.0,0.1329244042955555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21455490124758134,0.2451122443745519,0.0,0.0,0.2763780497874478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10751045178068616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11766681890167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08626126344987478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18280095547426836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2137156383421457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09800746648914947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,MurkyForPrez,2019/02/14,"My store manager decided to buy a shitton of girl scout cookies for the break room.. Im 8 thin mints, 4 samoas, one peanut butter, and two of the mercis in.. AMA",1.6254545454545486,3.4252515454545467,3.3606060606060595,90.5609090909091,79.0,6.824242424242425,23.12121212121212,7.793537801064563,1.0335939393939395,123,4,27,2,3,41,31,33,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,0,3,1,0,5,0,0,4,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,12,1,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6724603634905909,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4218556989915016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6081404679533291,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,radnuggets,2019/02/14,"Girl I’ve been crushin’ on pretty hard told me I should treat myself today At first I was like nah fam I don’t need food

But then I remembered how I’m literally never gonna be with her

Decided to drown my feelings in food

I’ve never binged before ( for why I’m here, see: purging disorder)

But good golly ms molly my stomach was genuinely hurting when I finished

So I then purged like I’ve never purged before

Now I’m typing this while crying in the shower (thank you LifeProof for making the best cases) because my whole body hurts so much

Also shoutout to whoever decided to make “oh no” a flair, it’s my favorite thing",1.3882666666666663,3.9329323600000015,3.1416000000000004,87.38146666666668,85.4,5.573333333333334,21.93333333333333,7.03164865440522,0.9068133333333341,495,17,94,7,15,164,91,125,0.132,0.711,0.157,0.6597,1,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,1,0,2,7,8,0,0,3,0,6,4,2,3,3,15,17,10,1,2,2,0,2,2,0,2,0,0,1,1,3,1,2,0,4,0,0,0,5,2,0,1,4,3,14,6,10,10,3,15,0,2,1,0,4,4,0,0,13,56,17,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12809401499481587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09764281342072532,0.0,0.2725987781273001,0.0,0.16809656958355815,0.0,0.0,0.17792126824037158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17594763562382412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.183577472869564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08099063653494963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1362470338157184,0.3873749190047288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1343494197041166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14348771920392214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3429469908892105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15650942533574475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2138396606338325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11774900868950948,0.1187697035833406,0.3706166527807053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16295826279176928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1814500614097085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12764085491835747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.147470066666281,0.0,0.0,0.10641491836026046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1518296904209063,0.15305661619831898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14453542203641734,0.17883263455191445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Allskinny,2019/02/14,"Being skinny DOES make you happier Proof in Marina (Diamandis). Got suuuper skinny compared to her usually fit but curvy body. Days she's in the prime of her life. Is gaining a lot of popularity. Writing amazing music. 

Skinny saves lives. ",3.377142857142857,6.57176766666667,5.682857142857145,66.7871428571429,86.61904761904762,8.514285714285714,28.42857142857143,8.841846274778883,3.736828571428571,190,9,27,6,6,66,37,42,0.0,0.6729999999999999,0.327,0.9517,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,1,0,1,0,3,0,0,2,0,2,5,4,1,1,6,4,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,4,3,5,2,1,5,0,0,0,0,5,3,0,1,2,15,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.42864446741732976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2488715793821997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33770098223031986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3086370074200933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2725703964510604,0.0,0.0,0.3407540372268775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32807574897423664,0.0,0.0,0.25758918074161163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4250109219440416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,wastedspacecat,2019/02/14,"Gained weight :( +27 pounds since October I was at my lowest I’ve been in my life at 135 pounds. No where near my gw but on my way. And now I’m back to being the chubs ive been my whole life . :( I just want the control back, the soothing whispers of control and promises that tomorrow I will be thinner than today. And I want to compare myself to other women (as shallow as that is) and know I come out the winner , the more eye appealing one, the thinner one. I want to be a 10 in my guys eyes , right now compared to all the other girls he searches for on the internet I’m at best a 2. :( ",1.223137829912023,2.8178505806451635,3.175718475073314,92.37221407624635,79.48387096774194,5.799413489736072,23.369501466275658,6.574015621080383,0.5394774193548391,448,15,101,4,11,151,76,124,0.094,0.736,0.17,0.8873,1,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,0,0,4,6,2,0,0,10,0,9,5,2,2,1,15,16,7,0,3,2,0,1,0,0,1,2,1,0,3,4,6,1,2,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,3,4,14,2,19,9,4,19,0,0,2,0,4,11,0,0,6,73,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31957705669081,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21807758576818376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17900483463636513,0.0,0.0,0.4661399432626465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20575873303928466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1142037005479046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2935563671134493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2816268766223246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17746356867314209,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1718977015192331,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19697399189614748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3677047321807239,0.1649452246006361,0.0,0.2530494148930268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2320058600616439,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,atla302,2019/02/14,yikes stress ate 4 quest bars before my physics exam :/ why do I do this to myself !!!!,4.524705882352944,4.248803823529413,4.92235294117647,90.05058823529413,69.58823529411765,6.8000000000000025,22.882352941176467,3.1291,0.03739999999999944,63,1,14,0,1,20,16,17,0.298,0.7020000000000001,0.0,-0.7482,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,3,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,7,4,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5040042685628952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6784784478085351,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5344592530115856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,regularsizedsnail,2019/02/14,"it's been a while i want to throw up. 

i deleted all my social media the other night so i came here. i cant tell if its good or bad. my little sister is sleeping, but would wake up. i'm about to toss in the towel and just do the damn thing but i think if i stay on reddit long enough i will digest the breakfast i made for myself. 

so... how is everyone else's Valentines Day",0.17999999999999972,1.8921105975609755,2.3660365853658547,96.35564024390246,83.26829268292683,4.5878048780487815,16.347560975609756,5.148860815047168,-0.8460780487804875,287,5,68,1,8,97,63,82,0.078,0.88,0.042,-0.5719,1,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,0,6,3,1,0,5,0,7,4,2,2,1,14,12,10,0,4,6,1,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,4,2,2,0,1,0,0,2,1,2,0,0,3,0,11,1,8,7,2,12,0,0,0,0,3,5,1,3,4,49,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21549905246388584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2951926187065608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16645031578651515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21560576282379007,0.0,0.0,0.26668175691911633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24662141439714136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2164783511738731,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2586796038988079,0.0,0.22840649175612954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2442163052842145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2422052447317601,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2582820020943306,0.26309597015250963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2750955779822395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22558693788186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17146725395365173,0.16537724450373056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15223147693911745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18334371517673406,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,tonithepony,2019/02/14,valentines day sucks so much. hopefully i can starve myself until im small enough for someone to love me ,3.5875000000000017,6.229834750000002,3.6500000000000017,86.70500000000001,76.5,6.0,25.0,7.1686216300943375,1.2574999999999998,85,3,15,1,2,26,19,20,0.203,0.527,0.27,0.4173,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,0,1,3,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,4,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,2,3,4,2,3,0,0,0,1,1,1,1,1,2,10,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2698963286806204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4324198892532125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4156625421977631,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4520492194053554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3777104206107546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3076438868117874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3545916559382729,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,annfartin,2019/02/14,"Is anyone else having trouble logging into Peach via iPhone? I just redownloaded Peach on my iPhone X and every time I try to log in I get an error message? I've tried to reset my password but haven't received an email, and i've also tried to create a new account with a different email and I get the same error message >.< ",3.867272727272727,5.298962090909093,5.112545454545458,81.9188181818182,72.03030303030303,6.492121212121212,28.35151515151515,6.742157984588678,1.5053733333333337,262,10,48,2,5,87,46,66,0.122,0.835,0.043,-0.6072,1,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,5,0,3,0,0,0,0,8,5,5,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,6,0,7,5,1,6,0,0,0,0,5,3,0,0,2,28,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23905421794213905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20901881079027088,0.3062891172457395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3123182324500989,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24971766230324505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2518614229525508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3123571806966404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28870846271993433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17430849053530165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6088615557468932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,BlastaImploder,2019/02/14,"I'm fucked please suggest something My mom may be starting to understand that there's something wrong with me and food, and I don't know what to do. Please someone help, i really don't know what to do. I'm sure that if I start eating like they want me to I'll get overweight. What should I do?",3.944516129032259,4.292362322580647,4.3485483870967725,91.4928225806452,70.93548387096773,7.490322580645162,26.79032258064516,7.1686216300943375,1.0098258064516128,232,7,53,2,4,73,39,62,0.151,0.648,0.202,0.1027,0,0,2,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,1,0,1,4,1,0,0,0,8,4,0,0,1,11,18,3,0,3,1,1,0,1,0,2,1,0,0,0,5,3,3,0,3,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,8,2,5,15,0,2,0,0,0,1,4,0,1,2,3,30,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2246722551127668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2655017596353376,0.0,0.0,0.20298651406889004,0.11471489900794378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14717139328992476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2413369908113336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10726953601673027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2571546735636213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4820381189202285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1406604924307854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1860387370932462,0.3380674079542781,0.0,0.0,0.3108218576141876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20693966667882446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22857739653512024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1295065354651964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.240062472788167,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Wollywell,2019/02/14,"I miss the Weekly Selfie, Progress Pic and OOTD Thread I wish they could come back here or on /r/thinspo... :(",2.4357142857142877,4.620770904761908,1.9907142857142863,99.49178571428571,78.04761904761905,4.2,20.02380952380953,3.1291,-0.6870190476190476,83,2,18,0,2,24,20,21,0.18,0.6,0.22,0.25,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,1,1,2,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,5,4,2,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,0,1,3,0,4,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,1,2,10,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3875536151088845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4341611472591445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4024120488337362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4042875010985513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5795881753759143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,NurseMaddie,2019/02/14,"Small gesture from BF that meant a lot... So I’m at work all day, and my boyfriend asks if I’m hungry. I told him no, as lunch for him usually means fast food and we already have plans to go out for pho tonight for Valentines’s dinner and I really didn’t want to eat much before that. He offers to go out of his way to grab my favourite low calorie spinach salad from the grocery store. 

He doesn’t realize how thoughtful that is. I could tell he knew I wanted something light and “safe”. And now I can spend the rest of my shift without going crazy 😅

Happy Valentine’s Day loves!",2.4892436974789938,4.14524267226891,3.1316722689075647,93.80523949579836,76.05882352941177,5.7684033613445385,24.50504201680673,6.2581,0.5169489075630245,454,15,99,3,10,142,88,119,0.062,0.828,0.111,0.7011,0,0,1,0,0,0,11.0,1,0,0,2,3,4,0,0,3,0,6,6,0,1,1,22,20,9,0,4,2,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,3,8,5,1,5,0,2,3,4,1,0,0,5,2,12,3,16,14,4,15,0,1,0,1,13,5,0,2,6,54,15,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23042773426447544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1952097615599561,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1776824754869517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16671830541142574,0.0,0.0,0.2693311773769976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2136654149273782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25249465541688904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3560156972216008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2222828096951758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17752333946571844,0.18845975561793565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2274560025077249,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1534998468725077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13376944324535467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1607526326686821,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18250970355177665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16577232423047628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19952751543936603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22997542003275284,0.0,0.2463238517999459,0.16574416714196616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20128600607563504,0.0,0.15201663325107095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,not_an_actual_egg,2019/02/14,"I hate college dining halls Overall, I love college and all. Its a great, fresh experience and I'm grateful to be able to seek a higher education. But god. fucking. DAMN do I HATE dining halls. Theres like, 8 on campus, they all have different foods, different hours, DIFFERENT PRICES, and its just such a struggle. It's exhausting, especially because I struggle with binging and theres so many options of food to choose from (including buffets for ONLY $5??!!). 

And I have to do it every single god damn day. I have to pull up the spreadsheets of their calorie amounts (at least we have that, thank god), think about the options, the price for each thing, etc etc. And then! Sometimes I go there, with a food in mind, AND THEYRE CLOSED! Yesterday I saved up all of my calories for a slice of cheese pizza, and.... they were closed. Its so frustrating. Plus, I take forever to buy food and I feel like everyone is staring at me comparing the calories and im just, so done with it omfg. 

I would cook in my dorm, but my roommate complains every time I steam a bag of broccoli or microwave zoodles, so its like I cant even have that. And I guess I get it, broccoli doesnt smell the most glamorous, but PLEASE!! I JUST WANT TO EAT !",2.3475,4.722419746835445,3.2477478902953614,89.36630537974686,79.37974683544303,6.144092827004219,26.330696202531644,7.333567415737692,1.364074683544303,948,39,189,13,24,301,136,237,0.085,0.7659999999999999,0.149,0.938,3,0,0,0,0,0,52.0,1,0,3,0,13,18,6,2,11,0,14,12,0,0,3,40,27,21,0,2,7,0,1,3,0,1,1,0,1,0,11,19,9,0,3,1,3,2,2,10,0,0,2,3,24,8,28,23,10,18,0,0,1,2,6,11,3,5,8,125,35,4,0.1166394203430804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07110230803318299,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07522277678279589,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3655901064701492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11936262335274728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11935124607418225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2601675718417185,0.07703923708403213,0.0,0.1965474845119888,0.11145396461036036,0.0,0.11409573444553382,0.0,0.0,0.058976395547910836,0.08332722519875481,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.56416340026428,0.0,0.0,0.1078312646045982,0.06093928301471909,0.0,0.06628887053746921,0.0,0.0,0.12859537270157267,0.12849147155242713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2303145593100244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11486633381591678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12599058939554894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17095238728480575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1052716307666428,0.0,0.0,0.11825406494695513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11777256438539647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08870953514449112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1280350573761498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11535936918156205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2438736945517245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08769832814303075,0.0,0.0,0.10738590725156567,0.0,0.0,0.07749004805889025,0.07473783086247414,0.0,0.0,0.06801338399142158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06879695214152479,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08285729766326635,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,skinnieme,2019/02/14,"How to shut my stomach up? So the following conversation just happened: 

My stomach: *growls loudly for an embarrassingly long time. Like fucking bellows out begging to be fed.* 

My office mate: Your stomach was growling like that yesterday, too.  Don't you eat? 

Me (internally: not when I can help it ✌️) : it's not even lunch time yet. 

Office mate: *judgement* 

So what would one do during their lunch hour (other than eat) to shut their stomach up? ",1.447407407407404,3.9090613950617272,2.5406913580246915,86.46511111111113,101.71604938271605,4.629135802469137,23.91851851851852,6.42735559955562,1.1615837037037036,347,15,61,5,15,110,61,81,0.059,0.8740000000000001,0.066,0.1486,0,0,0,0,0,0,22.0,0,2,2,0,8,4,1,1,2,0,6,10,4,1,0,6,10,4,0,1,3,0,0,2,2,1,0,1,0,0,5,1,5,0,0,0,0,1,3,2,0,1,2,1,9,2,8,6,0,13,0,0,0,1,8,5,1,0,9,41,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5972306831514947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1927512183851396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2697924904146629,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2580646475593664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19560775697645208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.287394146573671,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2851471724644441,0.0,0.0,0.2582607092482886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19775182295287164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.340337291153162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2073079339982851,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,mayonezz,2019/02/14,"French onion soup is depressing w/o bread and cheese Been craving french onion soup for a while now, so I bought a can of french onion soup. 150kcal for the whole big can!

Well turns out, french onion soup w/o bread is just sad. Sad beef broth with chunks of dehydrated onions... FML",2.8042138364779885,5.589443037735856,1.2134905660377378,102.0955817610063,80.88679245283019,5.0427672955974865,16.38050314465409,6.42735559955562,-0.7122176100628929,223,4,49,2,6,60,36,53,0.159,0.804,0.037000000000000005,-0.7901,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,0,4,4,0,0,3,0,5,2,0,0,0,4,7,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,3,1,0,2,0,1,1,6,5,1,4,0,3,0,0,0,2,0,0,2,22,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4317373295783317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5452305085570813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4506958890873658,0.0,0.0,0.55964255230183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,lalisas,2019/02/14,"rant: it hurts to sit down i'm only frickin bmi 20 and it hurts to sit down pretty much anywhere. on my bed (!!!), on the couches and benches at my school, on the floor, on certain chairs.

i'm literally hank hill. did this happen to anyone else at higher bmi's?",0.5825157232704434,2.815928415094344,2.326698113207545,94.1144496855346,85.60377358490567,4.2880503144654085,20.154088050314463,5.46131890053228,-0.21768930817610066,198,6,43,1,6,65,37,53,0.156,0.757,0.087,-0.6341,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,1,3,4,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,3,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,2,1,11,3,1,11,0,2,0,0,0,9,0,0,0,22,5,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21295687483756992,0.3120598235096589,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2544225218523634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2693232251731848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6520799719256309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22388815857938424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2316331718803941,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3098491086065092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30823306605378026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,rougoku,2019/02/14,"I don’t want to die like this But I don’t know any other way to live. I’m failing myself, my family, my future",-2.7819230769230754,-1.1301034230769211,1.468076923076925,96.11442307692309,102.46153846153842,4.138461538461539,10.346153846153848,5.985473137389443,-1.1862769230769232,85,1,21,1,4,32,20,26,0.257,0.607,0.136,-0.6597,0,0,0,0,0,1,3.0,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,3,5,1,1,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,5,1,2,5,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,12,7,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3127912351042225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4773699249392281,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4336130434182197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25278413864458377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2247151352441568,0.0,0.40615656396480937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27129863438138563,0.3650979462501685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,booooogara,2019/02/14,When you fast for three days so you can reach your first gw by Valentine’s Day but you’re still the same weight as when you started fasting 🙃🙃🙃 This is my longest and most difficult fast so far so when I got on the scale this morning I was especially disappointed. ,0.7391168831168822,3.20460150909091,2.063376623376626,94.2636363636364,88.45454545454545,5.324675324675325,22.402597402597397,6.868970318607317,0.5863506493506492,213,8,47,3,7,68,42,55,0.149,0.8290000000000001,0.021,-0.8441,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,4,0,1,7,2,0,0,2,0,3,1,0,0,0,4,5,9,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,2,2,1,7,0,4,3,2,13,0,1,0,0,4,2,0,1,11,31,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5427105349904454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3578980776414945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3365200555053599,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29781595765965024,0.0,0.3360193260943378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5123720926513753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,thinisme776,2019/02/14,Nedd help I need an ana buddy badly.😖 Pm me and we can exchange socials.,-2.2783333333333324,-0.7689404999999994,1.2399999999999984,95.67166666666668,110.25,2.1333333333333333,17.833333333333332,3.1291,-0.8145166666666666,56,2,12,0,3,20,16,16,0.0,0.828,0.172,0.4019,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,2,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,6,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4694961984935799,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5193740566216704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7140195437860415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,angeljaes,2019/02/14,"friends on twitter!! i’m a lurker and this is my first post so i’m a little bit nervous lol but i recently made a separate twitter acc from my main one so i could rant about this hell of a disorder without feeling guilty about worrying my friends and was wondering if anyone else used twitter to vent!! i wanna follow you so i don’t feel so lonely TT

(dw im not the type of person to tweet anything super triggering or pro anything)",1.3282954545454544,3.7550606931818216,3.396545454545457,86.38481818181822,84.11363636363637,6.247272727272727,26.981818181818184,7.554174236665415,1.8213599999999999,343,16,66,6,10,116,64,88,0.238,0.607,0.155,-0.8673,0,2,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,1,0,2,6,6,1,1,5,1,4,0,0,3,0,15,12,9,0,3,5,0,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,2,2,0,0,3,0,0,1,3,3,0,2,2,2,8,3,10,9,2,6,1,1,0,0,4,2,1,3,2,42,10,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14811867199769724,0.2170481074036309,0.3486412853790357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2312669482228178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1691315425627698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2427791556246663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17695942472775628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2142184228173816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18018517909138074,0.0,0.0,0.3273235504443808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22881616534382196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21231247854978935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2004416594724906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1435436326248597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18496454597393253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20287761277417107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2091596913943594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1829558377681789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20419960855443092,0.2297240276205457,0.0,0.21512685829019013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,slowelevator,2019/02/15,"Goal weight met.. I feel worse than ever I met my “goal” weight a couple months ago (F, 5’3”, 110 lbs) and still absolutely hated myself. Recently, I got myself down to 105 lbs and felt better. I binged hard because I CoUlD CoNtRoL mySeLf nOw. I went to donate blood at work and thought I’d get turned away for being less than 110 lbs. Nope. They had me step onto the scale.. back to 110 lbs. I feel fucking huge and terrible. I know that’s selfish because giving blood is important but god damn. 


Yesterday, I made biscuits and gravy (dairy free hell yeah) for the guy I’m seeing. It was fine, I went on a run before and felt ok about the calories. But after he lifted me up and kinda struggled a bit. Side note, he does have a broken arm he’s healing from, but it didn’t make me less uncomfortable knowing that. I made a comment about not wanting to be lifted up because I “don’t want to hurt his arm” i.e. “I’m huge put me down.” He told me how little I am and that I shouldn’t want to get “too thin” and should keep a little “biscuits & gravy” on my body. Keep. *Keep*. I have been thinking about that over and over and over and feel like I need to restrict to get back down closer to 105 lbs.


I feel so uncomfortable in my body right now and I hate it. I don’t classify myself as having an ED but I thought this community would be a good place to vent. Thanks, guys. ",0.4006113445378148,2.718894510714289,1.9924789915966377,95.44546218487396,87.82142857142858,4.57983193277311,17.878151260504197,6.068283710208149,-0.3348445378151266,1053,27,232,9,34,341,154,280,0.154,0.7240000000000001,0.121,-0.9297,0,0,0,0,0,0,42.0,0,0,1,5,12,16,5,1,11,2,18,10,6,5,1,48,57,20,0,8,5,0,10,1,0,3,1,0,0,2,8,13,2,5,11,0,2,5,6,9,0,0,16,11,34,8,34,34,3,39,1,1,1,1,13,23,3,1,12,135,42,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09399869882080976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11489507419311233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0996287456792272,0.1630775340495789,0.0,0.1939243132925856,0.0,0.0902328411768772,0.0,0.0,0.09378439820705807,0.11576900029841702,0.23557466617293266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11893368262482812,0.08466488511171162,0.1173320380952922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09279694735652004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09591990083038064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21446949376594932,0.07575551048546261,0.20363143833360964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0980329355373327,0.166205696243457,0.10172391972167724,0.0,0.08894192361130843,0.08481044958969873,0.0,0.0,0.20999396602914566,0.0,0.0,0.0949916552576302,0.2093865116850907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11351878234224196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28276158864271644,0.0,0.0,0.11655441136819505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05180613873628463,0.21256131566977746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2006765836069996,0.07078300301947517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08464068982049087,0.0,0.0,0.07862784913185257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11078998121770588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10660021073706133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1047024166727052,0.0,0.0,0.0905581942037028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08450072350764902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08468425477373806,0.0,0.0,0.1108567828862358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09762804657640832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0679466106792609,0.0,0.16836897125410458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10132645080341286,0.0,0.0,0.11534185137085615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1876366895775271,0.0,0.0,0.2582580551980551,0.0,0.1966016168549157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07719890600800858,0.0,0.10806455146513287,0.07532828396667253,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,kbkaitlineliz,2019/02/15,"Anyone else know this feel? Sudden tummy bug makes you lose your appetite for days and everytime you regain some appetite you lose it after you eat and you're losing weight and then all of a sudden youre no longer sick but you never regain your appetite and oh my god it's back


Sorry for run on sentence from hell but I had to get it out the way it was in my head. ",0.0977922077922102,2.425223779220783,1.6649480519480555,96.84027922077922,90.42857142857142,3.5994805194805197,14.193506493506494,4.935628992294339,-1.1270405194805195,289,5,62,1,10,93,56,77,0.203,0.748,0.049,-0.9001,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,8,0,3,1,4,1,0,2,0,2,4,1,1,2,13,6,7,0,0,2,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,5,5,2,0,2,0,0,1,2,4,0,0,2,2,11,0,9,4,2,12,1,3,0,0,8,3,1,1,7,41,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14960123746975038,0.21922060885446829,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16451700810923872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13798228506647015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2189278083471748,0.1787306661891963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10818130054121984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11178185491560293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21957798077755866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11758322905716273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7180776008388052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14281559933584656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16501410210446096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23950338756084574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16982630188910808,0.0,0.2605376811031339,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Common_Dot,2019/02/15,"tired of having to have a purpose driven life because I'm fat I have to have a purpose driven high achieving life and I have to be social and friendly because I have to make up for my weight. I have to be trying hard 24/7/365 and my efforts must be visible and constructive and show results in a reasonable time frame always. 

I'm tired of it. I want to go away, relax and just exist for a year. I have already made plans for world travel and budgeted for it, but  I feel have to become underweight first to make up for it... ",3.4573584905660373,4.764483933962269,4.605801886792452,85.6409669811321,72.86792452830188,7.186792452830187,27.400943396226417,7.6454224807358475,1.5588905660377357,411,15,82,5,8,135,57,106,0.052000000000000005,0.894,0.053,0.0258,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,6,1,2,0,0,4,0,13,6,1,5,1,17,23,8,0,2,2,0,3,0,1,1,5,0,0,0,3,7,2,0,2,3,1,4,0,0,0,1,3,3,9,2,19,16,0,13,0,0,0,0,2,6,0,0,3,58,12,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2233252923047747,0.0,0.16839179527547268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19013750382498035,0.0,0.0,0.24673123276517456,0.22350673468642465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10232662750407194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17213964569570325,0.0,0.0,0.15635403612408058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11501409165710777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18128780094292335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2138197696094074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2858861875182545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1914916444196261,0.2701730994524642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20807469067445716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20629531638376405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11800619797674528,0.4651994328379461,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13739900079307146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11936572301171508,0.0,0.0,0.24643762010290265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13032254242106414
EDAnonymous,moonbee_,2019/02/15,"update on peach! the peach twitter account (peachdotcool) just tweeted: “taking longer than expected. we’ll be back up early next week.”

💕🍑",3.1575000000000024,6.217299750000006,3.4666666666666686,80.89500000000002,93.16666666666666,5.7333333333333325,26.83333333333333,7.1686216300943375,2.2627833333333336,110,5,16,2,4,34,23,24,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,3,1,0,7,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,5,8,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4491367363896394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6211968253410081,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4391704010137116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4685296736440208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,cornpoppet,2019/02/15,"Is anyone else on this sub an identical twin? I have a restrictive ed, my sister does not and doesn't really know about mine. (I think she struggles with binging though). I've lost a lot weight so we have fairly different looks now. 

It makes me sad bc i know she dislikes her body a bit and kind of envies mine. My worst nightmare would be her developing my shitty eating habits. Scares me so much.

Have you guys had any similar experiences?",1.3949607843137244,4.094969976470591,2.5819117647058856,89.16776960784317,90.41176470588236,6.127450980392156,18.848039215686274,7.492282038375204,0.8127450980392159,348,10,68,7,12,111,68,85,0.249,0.7509999999999999,0.0,-0.9689,1,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,1,1,0,1,5,6,0,2,4,0,8,3,1,1,0,12,14,5,0,1,1,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,4,2,1,3,0,0,0,2,5,0,0,2,2,16,1,4,10,4,2,0,2,1,0,8,1,0,1,1,44,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1458698088087087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14998590988975682,0.2197842948476432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2341823835496302,0.23826515166443976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22411061517420644,0.0,0.0,0.187713552523236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21949074145700712,0.17919023964630934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20982568824599168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21239229573107848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22337249860875974,0.2357711459636855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18012900626819228,0.0,0.23415602668223545,0.18236329645814728,0.0,0.0,0.1431828237194169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15768483268588473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1374165037060086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2147555316624088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22424574438773595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1374452504726833,0.2107487053706465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2612076064459178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15237720842839456,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,vomitandthrowaway,2019/02/15,"A new low. Major trigger warning. I just saw a child athlete on my Instagram- can't have been more than 9- training in gymnastics with a BMI that looks lower than my self esteem after getting on a crowded bus. It's taken nearly 10 years, and I finally relate to there never being a small enough size. Not healthy, not slim, not skinny or sickly anymore. An actual child. The kid looks like she will never start puberty, much less mature or have a healthy relationship with food. How can I envy that. How can I envy a sick, small, likely unhappy child. And why am I now following that page for more hate fuel. 

(Want to add I'm not trying to body shame her at ALL- at her age weight isn't something you have control over.)",2.8664811783960715,5.032395822695037,4.205957446808512,84.22615384615386,76.58865248226951,6.60796508456083,23.61211129296236,7.61054688173877,1.2569875613747956,565,18,105,8,13,186,102,141,0.196,0.769,0.034,-0.9666,1,0,1,0,0,0,22.0,0,1,0,1,5,5,1,1,9,0,11,6,2,4,3,20,21,6,0,1,7,0,1,2,0,1,2,0,0,5,4,5,3,1,0,0,0,1,8,3,0,0,3,4,11,2,16,16,8,20,0,1,3,0,11,10,0,2,11,72,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.1996605256971582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20290866909354624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2272649766116745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2294768027410033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2114069584921232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2241297927081255,0.0,0.0,0.24740367685728665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10689529080281156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20200058628536807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.199914890671647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3436256969233877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15040487273121378,0.0,0.31560096125331066,0.1976043900181866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2196643142327669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21344289154923207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15751142265192086,0.0,0.0,0.14481725192138245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13891027554856833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12067864670706945,0.0,0.0,0.2491482290004677,0.0,0.0,0.18462008299248114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13175598201885091
EDAnonymous,HonestRaspberry,2019/02/15,Feeling horrible lately I can't sleep in the past few days and I spent the time eating and eating. I am so out of control. I just want to stop binging. Peach was a very supportive group and now I feel each might be gone. I'm lonely and have no one to talk to. I'm also stressed as my results are coming soon and I am sure I did very badly. ,1.4762612612612642,2.6975356351351394,3.4118918918918912,92.56801801801802,77.78378378378378,6.014414414414415,21.792792792792795,6.42735559955562,0.2414576576576577,263,7,61,2,6,89,55,74,0.211,0.69,0.099,-0.8625,0,2,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,1,5,5,0,1,3,0,9,3,1,2,1,17,18,8,0,1,1,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,8,2,2,2,0,1,2,2,3,0,1,4,2,8,2,7,12,2,11,0,1,0,0,2,2,0,1,7,41,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17058396742489598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17810497918002416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1837477176266588,0.0,0.0,0.2392453556998263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13756733353912942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4365388617441433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21571193790683474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2406230240147757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22628825063482105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14454440827478085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20362857628396452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21346409684699094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17833675058514628,0.2443459380041387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2420617133634976,0.20104219476575932,0.0,0.0,0.1714505356429431,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12438280373096615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35200625662625645,0.1258157923238645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,spicymaemaes,2019/02/15,"Does anyone else eat like one meal of junk food and then nothing else? My lunch is usually like chips and soda, and then that’s all I eat all day. Does anyone else like do this? ",0.7620270270270275,2.9308262162162184,1.7310135135135134,99.12733108108112,84.13513513513513,4.781081081081081,14.655405405405405,5.985473137389443,-0.932454054054054,138,2,32,1,4,43,26,37,0.0,0.8029999999999999,0.197,0.782,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,2,6,0,0,2,5,2,5,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,3,6,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,3,1,2,2,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,7,15,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27265751009793715,0.3995431213227708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12574062527876734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3412421198780837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3990094742846559,0.4886215439676317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23576056928029496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28575999171311794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18708061704138204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13211787863759586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2147337964753218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,sneeakyraccoon,2019/02/15,"Anyone else addicted to neglecting themself? Obviously I don’t advocate for neglecting yourself, I just want to see if anyone else feels the same way. I feel like shit pretty much all the time - between school, chores, work, and my dogs, there just isn’t a lot of free time. I shower for like 5 minutes, starve myself, get very little sleep, and spend a lot of time either doing school, working, or playing with my puppy. 

And even though I feel awful, I love feeling this way. Being tired and overworked makes me feel like I’ve accomplished something, and whenever I get adequate rest and free time, I feel guilty, lazy, and unproductive, because CLEARLY I’m not doing enough (/s). 

Anyone else? (Feel free to remove the post if you think it’s inappropriate or anything.)",6.7353492063492055,7.748511614285718,6.490952380952384,76.23182539682541,65.0,9.07936507936508,31.26984126984127,9.150863307647796,2.7170317460317466,606,22,104,10,9,190,92,140,0.142,0.625,0.233,0.9168,1,0,1,0,0,0,30.0,0,1,0,3,5,11,1,0,5,1,5,5,2,1,3,34,20,12,0,3,8,0,7,3,0,0,2,0,2,0,2,8,0,2,8,1,4,1,3,3,0,0,0,8,13,11,9,19,8,9,0,2,1,1,2,1,1,6,7,59,15,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12982215099879096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24980470359818024,0.36605538927160336,0.09799826020308973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07259418621916135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2984451321823145,0.0,0.0,0.12304846146341125,0.0,0.07865568471350211,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4214969234556095,0.17015121648038029,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.124435838486934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17453933325725016,0.11935622308565677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20248661692021028,0.10748045427585756,0.0,0.07949133992179568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08754247408968606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11405220161697124,0.12115405179984062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2410443265049231,0.09489673296477784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12224085227370758,0.0,0.0,0.11917276737844527,0.0,0.0,0.09167880924295166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07630599007720777,0.11700214132894356,0.0,0.2777617998315522,0.13687271723976388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09825905235658253,0.07024045904025777,0.1890510610032523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17339316551418235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,meafy--,2019/02/15,"how tf do people do this?? \[\[sorry for shit format im on mobile\]\]

  


SO the other day i decided im gonna at least try to eat like a normal person. cant deal with not losing at least a little, so im doing 1200 cals a day. well today i woke up a little late (at noon whoops) and went to make lunch. i made a pretty normal meal of a buffalo chicken wrap and some toast. i did the math afterwards, and somehow im supposed to eat 910 calories by the end of the day!! WHAT THE FUCKKKK how is that even possible without it being a binge. even if i have a big-ass snack id still need like 600 in one meal. i dont even know what im doing 😥

  


i guess it might have something to do with thinking 0-450 cals a day is normal and 700 is way too much. maybe.",-0.3061497326203231,1.4630221212121235,2.426809269162213,94.95080213903744,85.36363636363636,5.094474153297682,18.19073083778966,6.2272716619740125,-0.2606007130124772,570,14,136,5,17,199,102,165,0.024,0.885,0.091,0.8329,0,0,1,0,0,0,26.0,0,0,0,1,11,5,1,0,14,0,15,7,1,4,0,24,24,9,0,5,3,0,0,2,0,2,0,0,0,1,7,6,6,0,3,0,0,1,4,2,1,1,4,0,7,3,17,17,4,20,0,1,0,0,2,8,1,5,12,82,14,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2850162286575603,0.11390577887024775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12948827383218164,0.0,0.0,0.22610865682256945,0.0,0.0,0.0978574276992355,0.0,0.0,0.21892404552960174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1217123197348811,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5967169149370487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06071998387892024,0.0,0.1246325436942516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10795534452863056,0.22147114826874587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1236050999686618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10454412474360301,0.07374998083370532,0.0,0.11099761274611783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1172077377059656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08121961200554949,0.08192365566736584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32475722256056155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0748678866198612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07659678792164075,0.09647174453819854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12455588772949915,0.0,0.11240355247445108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11341185745706432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08505719530173288,0.0,0.12367955828608415,0.0,0.0,0.08823392481329774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07079469677108767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10472740861390664,0.0,0.0,0.07501245457519852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08769830864153431,0.0,0.0,0.0993398028463316,0.10242123713609726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10650415390438933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,amourexia,2019/02/15,"My boyfriend triggers me by accident The other day me and my bf were laying together and he mentioned that he really liked my body after I mentioned something offhandedly about what I didn't like about it. Then he said something along the lines of ""I wouldn't have so much sex with you if I didn't like your body"" he caught himself and apologized and tried to explain but I went numb and zoned out. I know what he means and I'm not mad at him but my ED made it out to be something worse. He knows about my ED and I know he feels bad but its been over two weeks and I can't stop thinking about it. I'm underweight and I do really like how I look right now, but I still want to lose a few more lbs to hit my GW. I'm afraid of getting fat and him leaving me and I'm afraid of getting emaciated and him leaving me. Logically I know he wouldn't leave me for such arbitrary reasons but god that scares me so much. He's done things before where we'll eat together and when I ask him to finish my food he'll say something like ""you ate more than I thought you would"" under his breath to himself, in a ""I'm proud of you"" kind of way but it still gets me. He never had sex with his last girlfriend bc he wasn't sexually attracted to her body and she's at least 50 lbs heavier than me. This scares me so much I don't know what to do. I also feel invalid when I do eat in front of him but if I don't he'll want me to. It's so frustrsting!!",0.92370271175092,2.677391621359228,2.580403972770899,95.5403883495146,81.00647249190939,6.074366700145074,21.334784064278537,7.0983637204850245,0.3322729829260127,1117,33,268,14,29,367,148,309,0.117,0.816,0.067,-0.9547,0,0,4,0,0,0,21.0,1,5,0,2,17,16,1,4,4,0,19,12,5,4,1,52,50,32,0,7,10,0,2,5,2,6,2,2,0,0,14,19,5,1,13,0,0,3,10,8,0,1,13,5,52,8,35,29,7,27,0,1,1,2,39,10,0,2,18,170,66,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08469259558172358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09900735273135396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08842667456088033,0.0,0.0,0.09011778603762942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3529114303368271,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0683002905874797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10837810313512757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21673554573456846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10709801275630967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12806135928793472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16599376875369107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1102842882271336,0.2910144845387089,0.08632712311915605,0.0,0.3364159206834818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2587004058156942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08893395278772886,0.1184811726085569,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10021035128888488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1153621442451759,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23355819958082535,0.0,0.08168085576592234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13569155913344932,0.10888849960012327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09044272420953836,0.10074038915088042,0.08422030979920582,0.2120597754848198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3261249330553315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1691525491809841,0.08854174587841229,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07035891290402928,0.06785997252566678,0.0,0.08407714269525503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07190288734501195,0.0,0.10345429154044858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1249316237385628,0.08406286185821217,0.08495100948980776,0.0,0.0,0.09817546589081293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10792675926160247,0.07523223350335959,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,definitely-not-julie,2019/02/15,"Does anyone feel like they’re really distracted by their own body when they lose weight? I have a flat stomach which is nuts because all of my life I’ve been struggling with the “pooch” type lower belly fat. It’s...weird. I keep going to the bathroom to look at myself from the side and feeling my stomach and flexing. It’s really weird. I want to lose more fat but this is WEIRD 

It’s also giving me weird emotions where I’m like “man I’m still so fat after reaching my goal! I must have been HUGE before!” 

And “what if I’m never truly happy with my body? For SO long a flat tummy was my goal. I have it now but don’t feel good and all of the cloths I wanted to buy I don’t have the confidence for.”",0.5939540816326527,2.7382603809523838,2.2815603741496595,95.0688711734694,84.64625850340136,4.76343537414966,16.670493197278912,5.985473137389443,-0.5111629251700682,544,11,120,4,16,178,90,147,0.156,0.677,0.166,0.6798,1,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,2,4,7,11,0,2,7,0,12,9,7,0,4,19,24,11,0,4,3,0,4,2,0,1,4,0,0,1,6,6,4,1,3,0,1,1,3,7,0,0,3,5,16,4,14,20,4,11,0,2,1,0,4,4,0,1,8,74,22,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14442045353439578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12627508400147694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11008804274865026,0.0,0.15367165738250968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4011970466181309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15803847595090725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20314323516094246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27394030378913986,0.12901594031976846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1732416173002135,0.10263537450968406,0.15147315139225406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1922450015393168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.160519685900395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1275584387109686,0.17645759788473092,0.0,0.0,0.15981945038449386,0.1516529480291665,0.4040755762858528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1392847409359325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23138547562794184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14422209935486166,0.0,0.0,0.1887954023837872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21303729844602007,0.0,0.0,0.2199140737288391,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,dgracieh,2019/02/15,"How do you deal with weight gain in recovery? This post will probably be kind of ranty, but I am just looking for some support I guess. I am 3 weeks out of a partial hospitalization program that I was in for 10 weeks. In the time I was there I gained 30 pounds to put me at what they believed was my set point. I have never weighed this amount in my adult life... so I am not really sure how they came to the conclusion that this was the weight I needed to be. Regardless, none of my clothing fits me anymore. Clothes that were way too big on me before I went into treatment won't even come close to zipping or buttoning. I am really struggling to stay on the recovery path because of this. I feel like I am inside someone else's body. I want more than anything to just be small again, or at least smaller. I recognize that the weight I was at before treatment was unhealthy, and I don't want to go back to that, but I don't understand what is so wrong with me being 15 pounds below my set point if I am at least confident and happy. I literally just hate everything about the way I look right now, more so than I did before I went into treatment.",4.4893705293276085,4.955835476394854,5.255982832618027,85.04634907010015,69.77253218884121,8.616766809728183,28.83805436337625,8.648137234880735,1.9298986552217443,898,31,191,14,15,292,129,233,0.093,0.804,0.104,-0.1014,0,0,0,0,0,0,21.0,0,1,2,3,15,8,1,1,7,0,25,6,1,2,2,32,40,12,0,5,9,0,4,1,0,2,1,0,0,1,11,10,4,0,3,0,0,6,6,3,0,0,11,6,34,5,33,23,7,40,0,0,2,0,5,21,0,5,8,139,45,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1212111808137124,0.0,0.0,0.10057812509694876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09398101772062473,0.0,0.07450527313169382,0.0,0.31200524198685514,0.1377021116504358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13576086372141094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13978917570151214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10528325600241067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12600530613874572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10210062837510746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08072634432801239,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10984507038731033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06179901300207068,0.08731527631764087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06946146393279802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1346410889874216,0.0,0.0,0.13010737579004975,0.0,0.12066872104623365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12727519375323249,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08632886986747401,0.05971139643467624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2052710545492581,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09062591393304584,0.0942649847104862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23107820779903604,0.0,0.11705469646136113,0.0,0.13177576925416934,0.0,0.0,0.12286666404038575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15659682586715856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10437674697262136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10355813211542904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13027217365314708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12777275959685971,0.0,0.0,0.1386958470320276,0.11519259739495698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07126851281011491,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12723720123471066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14417916525410754,0.19402794727060374,0.1960779067654684,0.4464996666190116,0.0,0.2266016609244039,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13363034850367247,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,minisxule,2019/02/15,"My mom doesn’t care about my eating disorder. No one cares because I’m not underweight I’ve always had issues with food. Growing up, my mother would criticise me whenever I ate anything unhealthy.

I was always a skinny kid. Like, thigh gap and collarbones kind of skinny. But when I was 14, I wanted to lose weight. So I developed a eating disorder. 500 calories max, with 3-5 day fasts every few weeks. I fainted all the time.

Then, I went to the US for the summer to visit family, and went from 86lb to 126lb in two months. I was the heaviest I had ever been, and hated how I looked. I started restricting again. I did a 10 day fast, and lost half my hair. Now, I’m at an average weight. 

My mom sees me weighing my food and restricting all the time. She tells me whenever I gained or lost weight. It’s super triggering. I’d respond, “I didn’t ask you” in a really snarky tone. She would  then agree to stop talking about my weight, but never follows through. 

I’m so fucking insecure because even my grandpas first words to me after not seeing me for 2 years was “you gained weight”. My family comes from a culture where eating disorders don’t really exist. To them, skinny=beautiful, fat=ugly. And I feel really fucking  ugly

I just want her to shut up. I don’t know what to do",1.6011269635394143,3.9009659883268486,3.641288370082144,85.90989047413174,81.72373540856032,7.07588989767978,22.358985444588555,8.167268648758528,1.45645738579046,997,33,197,21,27,338,150,257,0.132,0.7929999999999999,0.075,-0.9156,0,1,0,0,0,0,39.0,1,2,1,7,12,12,3,1,11,0,15,19,4,2,4,31,39,15,0,4,6,4,7,1,0,2,1,0,0,1,2,9,14,3,2,0,0,6,8,7,0,4,14,10,38,5,25,23,3,34,0,3,3,2,18,7,2,1,22,123,40,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14911329901540996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07373541236282573,0.0,0.08376645732072349,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1092419854173056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1827119104334912,0.0,0.0,0.07718481815758375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11557269674734573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30807747510949,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2750578872296573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059181758278272274,0.08105079938016056,0.07549416478451829,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16893895931502412,0.0,0.04530583268410469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07621603659204194,0.21669595421531726,0.0,0.0,0.16567256058646687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08846414562870741,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09352197087920423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09330745513407712,0.049243317241234034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04377536800002035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07524372640050743,0.10024253567867544,0.1956239294461618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2098832694944616,0.07152004443968503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0691071494154749,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06071712896620957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1722054102553784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14280355023735905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06342127366612679,0.0,0.0,0.07491189464838185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07201928049799594,0.0783167356540837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10449614517021004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08752884768551432,0.0,0.10778105201872937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10570002367703843,0.0,0.07187390546729391,0.5455599317492782,0.0,0.1661252572988063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12730241750835455,0.0,0.0,0.057701220551424036
EDAnonymous,nasihljeung,2019/02/15,"im freaking out this is the first time i've had really bad anxiety due to my ED. i ate a bigger meal for valentine's day and ended up totaling over 1200~cal. i wouldn't even log all my food in mfp because i'd feel so bad seeing my numbers in red by just ~50 calories. 

but anyways, anxiety is due to the fact that i weigh myself on an analog scale usually and according to it i've lost about 7lbs. but on saturday i'm going to weigh myself on a digital scale and i'm gonna flip out if i'm not under 125 like i thought i was. 1200ish calories should be maintenance for me but i'm just worrying that my analog scale had the wrong SW or something. i desperately want to at least be 126 because that was my lw about 8 months ago now. 


gaaaaahhhh >_<",2.3243281402142166,3.8328479177215193,4.236075949367091,86.3393524829601,76.15189873417722,7.8995131450827625,27.343719571567675,8.617729084823388,1.9684521908471275,593,24,127,12,13,202,103,158,0.173,0.8170000000000001,0.009000000000000001,-0.9734,0,0,1,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,0,2,8,6,0,0,6,0,10,5,0,0,3,21,22,9,0,4,8,0,1,1,0,3,0,0,0,0,5,5,5,0,2,0,0,1,2,5,0,1,7,3,14,1,21,10,3,24,0,1,2,0,0,12,0,2,12,75,19,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19147385862548646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3304838079807542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3607074021511431,0.2633471669518386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1393042343066752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1913147767208902,0.0,0.0,0.1426681171920789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10921773929845573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18373226407538648,0.2611920014751441,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12275963143371277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2333205890055329,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10552828293116416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2357930763105299,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17241174271514992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13837722053871573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17212663355583593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16628986383813665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17148246200877193,0.12595323896229496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23789707607578855,0.0,0.12740432021515016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21936179732649388,0.0,0.0,0.23616565793286795,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,forjeong,2019/02/15,"Almost binged again For the 3rd time this week.

 Already ate everything I had in my room and decided to go out and get ice cream and sandwiches from the bakery nearby bUT as I was leaving the warden at my hostel asked me to change into something else before heading out???Bc I was wearing something ""iNaPpropriaTe""??? 100% don't understand bc I was wearing something that went til my knees?? 
 I'd just rolled straight out of bed after binging on my bananas and oat cookies without looking at the mirror so I probably looked like a mess lol
But that shook me out of my binge mood and I just came back without buying anything so yay

Also I just moved out of my parents house and started living on my own in my home country after living abroad for  10+ years and everything is sO confusing. I'm in India now and the people here are super blunt about everything!!! Great!!! Anyone else here living in India? 
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EDAnonymous,attenuatingpixie333,2019/02/15,"Just recently started watching black mirror I'm watching it out of order, so I have seen a few episodes but I am only just now watching that episode in season one where they earn money by riding exercise bikes. 

It is showing this dude suffering by not buying more food than he needs to live, and mostly just grinding hard on the bike all day, and despite all the tension and drama and actual meaningful plot going on behind it all, all my disordered ass can think about is how much I wish I could just sit on a piece of exercise equipment all day long and earn money and skip meals. 

(Tagging as shitpost because it seemed appropriate. If not, please change it.) ",8.844026666666664,7.568458375999999,8.205400000000001,73.34036666666668,61.24,10.893333333333334,37.63333333333333,9.725611199111238,3.592813333333332,527,21,93,8,6,166,91,125,0.097,0.835,0.067,-0.6124,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,1,2,9,2,0,1,4,0,6,5,1,1,5,28,14,11,0,4,8,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,7,7,2,0,3,6,3,2,2,2,0,1,1,6,6,0,14,12,10,17,0,1,5,1,2,6,1,3,7,66,13,2,0.0,0.0,0.2327524831891103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14539418728001874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25231317822714283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19043175071195348,0.0,0.0,0.3076399289366716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27335444909583684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28840863729865096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13555138678490886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2136591479439044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2106097210006664,0.21107486807851036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17533314354300716,0.17685300045157448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16162133242627155,0.1813984823151199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2618136263856317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2355009929375972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21713159911185712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16881942424838794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15282831848791228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27427605920016634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,salveinou,2019/02/15,"a lil reminder to this sub since yall need it so bad Having an eating disorder and a distorted view of your own body does NOT make it cool for you to think the same way about other people's bodies. 

If you are using your ED as a reason to scrutinize the bodies of others, you're a bad person and you need to reflect on why you feel such resentment to an entire group of people who, as much as you want to claim otherwise, have not victimized you with their mere existence in this world. 

If you verbalize that hatred and say shit like ""DAE secretly ummm hate fat people? Oh I feel so bad for saying this, but they disgust me and I hate them"" then you're a bad person, and you need to realize that hating fat people will not actually distance you from the reality that any one of you could become fat at any time (because you don't always have control over your appetite, which is why you're here, and that terrifies you). 

And if you really felt ""so bad for thinking that way,"" you wouldn't post about it on a sub where the silent majority of people are suffering from EDs that include binging and weight gain. The majority of people on here are, in fact, overweight. And the majority of ED sufferers are also overweight. If you felt so bad, you would actually be ashamed of your behavior and of projecting your insecurity onto others, which forces them to either put up with with being insulted every day, or to leave this community and suffer alone. 

Hating other people for what you're insecure about isn't gonna stop you from having those insecurities. Work on your shit and stop being such a hateful bunch of bastards, thanks. ",10.095522241336935,7.297510392971251,9.897763578274764,66.98414352420744,60.08626198083067,13.081248463996069,37.1759646104694,11.362043627235082,4.042770164659621,1295,41,237,27,13,427,163,313,0.313,0.642,0.045,-0.9988,0,1,0,0,0,0,30.0,0,24,4,3,13,28,12,4,15,1,18,12,8,4,1,49,37,27,0,11,10,0,5,1,0,4,5,2,0,2,22,15,7,3,10,0,0,1,6,25,0,1,2,9,31,3,45,27,8,21,0,3,1,0,36,12,3,5,6,169,53,2,0.0,0.0,0.16420358786564432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08713654457637998,0.0,0.06728122989714126,0.07000550000458151,0.0,0.0,0.11442682048861726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4214858722398743,0.05128677228072965,0.0929184268777348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2803588072219264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09436245399644813,0.06717345456854341,0.0,0.0,0.05425890565159906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09642385053332288,0.0,0.07362546490351808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08608919102838712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07088578668791035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08508047212735567,0.0,0.16156198822666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4153202154407281,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0890848318167428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04110319528789021,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05615951443482285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061847527568871935,0.1871509390644707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05701078307821347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4082912100888784,0.14692359967284085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08057627748296901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08457702864056219,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05389783441192148,0.08650286514930748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1338120761723739,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17272288816729384,0.0695957906467769,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14067811994712942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0774584781242305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10781821907695414,0.0,0.0,0.049058701936679015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07266400737644463,0.0,0.0,0.049623897109556114,0.13356191755952082,0.0,0.10245148100606814,0.0,0.0,0.1518341190055772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06124991723106798,0.0,0.0,0.059765758308005526,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,CatsAreKids,2019/02/15,"Any Pancake users? I'm having trouble reaching mypancakeaddiction.com.

I either get ""bad gateway"", or ""this connection is not private"".

Is anyone else having this issue?

(And yes, I have made sure that I added the ""s"" after the http.)",3.8827500000000015,7.107111775,4.640000000000004,76.04500000000002,81.25,5.2,25.5,6.742157984588678,1.4925999999999997,181,7,27,2,5,58,33,40,0.14,0.6990000000000001,0.161,-0.1926,0,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,2,1,5,0,0,1,1,6,8,2,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,3,1,1,7,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,18,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26587005851693163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2733722828923333,0.400590525273636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32643999905489146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3266016449154556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2042634230909811,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4080665774745834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3699411647275256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3684805117266957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,idkman1768,2019/02/16,Just realized I used a 1/3 cup measure instead of a 1/4 cup measure for my cottage cheese and had a complete meltdown. Just eating disorder things !!!!! ¡¡!¡!! ,2.7038888888888906,5.730794111111113,3.649907407407409,80.91708333333334,89.37037037037037,5.662962962962964,36.37962962962963,7.1686216300943375,3.3498962962962966,119,8,18,2,4,38,22,27,0.139,0.861,0.0,-0.5951,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,3,0,1,1,0,1,0,5,2,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,13,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4863691004251847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5316463911548845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4746647999902086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3081810988403357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4006431715272365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,yungelectric,2019/02/16,"HOLY fuck been trying to “maintain” since December AND IVE GAINED 14 POUNDS I’M SO FUCKING MAD and I have no one to blame but myself 

LIFE PRO TIP DONT BINGE EAT ",0.4628124999999983,2.911842156250003,0.9185000000000016,99.8765,96.1875,3.8100000000000014,15.775,5.6839178017228535,-0.7433575000000001,127,3,27,1,5,38,30,32,0.242,0.6990000000000001,0.058,-0.705,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,1,1,3,3,0,0,0,4,4,0,0,0,3,7,4,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,1,1,0,3,0,2,6,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,2,0,0,14,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4158566343187707,0.0,0.0,0.3630783785813459,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6560668949979681,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2506260287767703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2404411336013733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29351799595592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24090541922012246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,invisible_lizz,2019/02/16,"I fucking hate EDNOS I hate my body so much I wanna cry. I was actually cute for once and I fucked it all up again. I hate all the weight I've gained. I reached my LW in August 2017.

  2018 took it away from me with all the binging I've been doing. I was underweight and now I'm back to being overweight. (I'm short but fucking still!!!!)

 I hate being so out of control. I hate how gluttonous I am. I want to get back on my depression meds so I can lose the weight again but that's a whole Thing™ and its hard to get into a new dr to get that done. 

I want my peach family back. I want my LW back. I want my meds back.",-1.9497445255474448,-0.0771192043795601,0.7763905109489038,101.69684854014601,98.7080291970803,3.9078832116788322,14.1492700729927,5.6839178017228535,-1.0822347445255476,467,10,120,4,20,159,76,137,0.259,0.6659999999999999,0.076,-0.985,0,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,0,0,3,13,11,8,0,5,0,9,9,1,2,3,18,27,9,0,5,2,0,3,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,5,6,4,1,0,0,0,1,0,10,0,0,5,3,23,1,15,20,5,19,0,2,0,3,0,7,3,0,11,80,28,0,0.0,0.0,0.1076571878357571,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10365002410382868,0.4241494314666481,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1225415398969884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12373415912021116,0.0,0.0,0.12118221966273793,0.0,0.0,0.09501914427014348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11289648201491485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10400063290866324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3059694085920495,0.17291419564082555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09882576850677788,0.5445947561422868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12342075738150185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2450830797939768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08109848242910786,0.0,0.0,0.10654851708457116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11748805261260678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0881023342075745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07329223815031069,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12257046917000655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2602802670371384,0.0,0.0,0.2686820301087822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12316923456402408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,pun_in_the_sun_,2019/02/16,"Bought my first form fitting dress Still in recovery from Ana and up till now I have never felt comfortable wearing tight shirts or dresses because it’s clearly visible how thin I am. And also where my body juts out at bony angles. But today, I did the thing and bought a fitted black dress.  It’s not huge but it’s a jump from hiding in over sized sweaters and men’s clothes. ",4.91,5.746114666666671,4.734666666666667,87.83400000000002,69.0,7.6,28.333333333333336,7.554174236665415,1.4767333333333341,300,10,61,3,5,92,58,75,0.08800000000000001,0.8859999999999999,0.026,-0.5076,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,1,5,1,0,0,3,0,3,3,3,1,2,14,6,10,0,0,4,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,4,5,0,1,1,0,2,1,2,0,0,1,4,4,5,1,9,2,1,18,0,0,1,0,1,11,0,1,6,40,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3145689550980876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23978792289271425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4369330404887797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3776862127648872,0.0,0.0,0.3345908633151901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3033826189092325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3141369105679094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26133016188765884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3728582250349757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,3owlsinatrenchcoat,2019/02/16,"Go get the skinny girl Ok my dudes, I've been having a huge struggle for the last six months about being able to successfully restrict. I've gained weight (idk how much though because I'm scared to get on the scale and avoid all mirrors) but within the past couple of weeks I've finally gotten back into the old routine and feel like I look more like a human than a bloated whale.

Anyway, I work at a hospital as a CNA and put one of my patients on the toilet and told him to buzz  when he's done so we could get him back to bed. I was busy when he buzzed so a different nurse aide went to go help with his transfer but he refused her help and told her to, ""go get that skinny girl."" and holy fucking shit balls guys, he was talking about me! Like I know my view of what skinny is and what other people think skinny is is hella different but at this point I'm going to take what I can get.

Have any of you had anything similar? ",3.6860821044240737,4.29379359067358,4.5678756476683935,88.75579115185336,71.64248704663213,7.181984854523716,24.172578716620173,7.010146845296331,0.7414738142686321,725,18,158,6,13,235,121,193,0.076,0.8029999999999999,0.121,0.8463,2,1,0,0,0,0,15.0,1,1,0,3,11,10,2,3,12,1,13,7,5,1,1,22,34,17,0,1,3,0,2,3,0,0,0,0,1,4,6,10,5,3,3,1,0,6,0,5,0,2,9,4,16,5,23,23,3,24,0,0,2,1,21,8,2,0,13,94,22,3,0.13801376217727934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09385409097411512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1135735667372492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21224812806640367,0.0,0.08413190842584238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11019275881651903,0.15270960278544904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2883900134867267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14123599606211118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06978390500639521,0.09859705927590197,0.0,0.1511873304058099,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12759149920875942,0.3605324721483112,0.0,0.3137456062949813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13665532304828598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18501543116436392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07584875432093534,0.1124996366259401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2022796585662476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11589680057469548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11016126824180833,0.0,0.10145599526730577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14482222699134847,0.0,0.09352169707556378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13174975258091587,0.09568136514045184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13046761524780073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13874195064506392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1381758526349343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1416691435639225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14428195022812856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10376917313268602,0.1109302341697022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08843364605173264,0.13559782060503225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2637561284204672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11070631515681156,0.16806358120791895,0.0,0.12794014023905312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10047566260103362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,LisichkaYenotik,2019/02/16,"I used to be so thin and then I moved country and I'm almost back to square 1 again 😐 2017 - January. I weighed in at 65kg.
2017 - August. I weighed in at 55kg.
2018 - January. I weighed in at 60kg.
2018 - September. I weighed in at 59kg.
2019 - February. I don't weigh myself but I just took a nude for my boyfriend and I'm gonna hazard a guess that I'm 65kg. I'm so sad about it. 

I am so so so mad at myself. My goal was 52kg. I was SO CLOSE. 

Slow and steady (ha!) Wins the race I guess. Today I ran 12km and did weights. Tomorrow I'm going to do my 500kcal workout (it probably doesn't burn that much but it certainly gets my heart rate going and it's a lot of bodyweight exercises which helps). 

Yesterday I consumed 512 kcal, today 921kcal.

God I hate myself so much. ",-2.0243940390094224,-0.20922752662721847,1.0948980933596353,98.36114179268029,102.37278106508877,4.633881218496604,18.68529476221784,6.42735559955562,0.02740613631382871,584,21,144,9,27,204,96,169,0.112,0.8190000000000001,0.069,-0.8664,0,0,0,0,0,0,30.0,0,0,0,2,11,6,2,0,4,1,8,9,2,1,1,16,23,16,0,0,3,0,2,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,7,7,6,0,0,2,0,5,2,3,0,0,5,3,21,3,15,16,3,25,0,1,1,1,1,11,0,4,9,77,28,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20845771514070732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1600741270854845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10876311850827157,0.0,0.2366218939696027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4586576164469585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20553023000259205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2466889967830861,0.13953566474666113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1769833850136694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22125763536596985,0.3060659244056473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22444842316013985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39465210848130095,0.0,0.2312906655444837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17979681211932355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2535017038953704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,CallalilySkies,2019/02/16,"Did anyone else's parent ever get them a waist trainer/faja? Waist trainers have gotten really popular, but I remember it being a big thing in Latinx communities for a long time before the popularity, though in Spanish they're called fajas. My mom always used to wear them and she even bought me one when when I was 13. I remember that was the year I ""suddenly"" started hating the way my body looked, at least from a weight perspective (otherwise I've had body hair issues for forever), and I tried on clothes the week before eighth grade and wanted to cry because I though I was so fat. A few days later my mom gave me a faja and I was so happy. I wore one all through the rest of junior high and high school (13-18) and then stopped once I started college. Truthfully, going to college in a different state was the best thing for me, because I got away from my mom and her constant comments on my body. But I keep thinking about a lot of the things she's said/done to me and how terrible they were in hindsight. 

Has anyone else experienced something similar? If so, do you know how that's affected you? My biggest problem is that I never realize how bad things affect me. I experience the consequences but it's always hard to pinpoint what started things. I want to say that my experience was just a blip and had no effects on me, but I know that's totally wrong. ",5.947794943820224,6.1878205280898895,6.695653089887643,76.78033356741574,66.56554307116104,9.821067415730338,32.417837078651694,9.673873057562805,2.9788578651685387,1079,42,204,21,16,357,152,267,0.11,0.789,0.101,0.1739,2,0,1,0,0,0,30.0,0,2,3,2,14,10,1,0,17,0,15,9,8,7,5,39,34,25,0,4,6,4,3,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,13,9,4,2,7,0,1,1,2,5,0,2,15,6,37,5,24,18,7,33,0,0,1,0,16,13,0,2,17,145,50,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15985570038963254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13433180462270858,0.1968452968436451,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09024953916120468,0.0,0.08020431645469618,0.11711198267454816,0.0,0.1634763597172793,0.0,0.10080681749662762,0.0,0.0,0.3200959459323194,0.0,0.0,0.09808583416579518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10380444179225352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10551506932732098,0.061949385153621625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10036003846489497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1604880637131653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0634453230015752,0.08688985078866902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18792607504933956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0501862770283667,0.0,0.05459190617466605,0.0,0.07682626072768861,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10225539816774057,0.08604899171132123,0.0948372683873491,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20298084578376285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10025946884301057,0.0,0.08538065626714691,0.0,0.0,0.1055817961118656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08500819996962895,0.08066442539398154,0.0,0.0,0.08166497349042633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3375054800608616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07408575790815322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1022985059281184,0.13018260933973466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10666090671983668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0919144171082344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06153713685952019,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2176297026238598,0.0,0.09137303976826174,0.0763890806998228,0.0,0.09721570162732794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07395004806080321,0.0,0.0,0.20397078305779145,0.0,0.0,0.0803086878608587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3190829319312464,0.06155001008556962,0.18875275640989986,0.0,0.056012121603165516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0652169942979737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08296316569068707,0.0,0.0,0.11331485137584905,0.07624627306233893,0.07705183624852363,0.11697261823076995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.105024211045397,0.0,0.0618581245635999
EDAnonymous,landfill7707,2019/02/16,9 lbs away from my GW... ...and I just found out that my FWB is visiting me in two weeks. DAE get these wild triggered highs where your ed brain is all “I REFUSE TO EAT FOR TWO WEEKS AND YOU CANT STOP ME. FOOD?? IDK HER.”,-1.83838905775076,0.05930029787234225,-0.41823708206687016,110.02,99.2127659574468,3.5367781155015194,10.969604863221884,5.288315135182226,-1.9196054711246204,162,2,45,1,7,50,40,47,0.097,0.768,0.135,0.4511,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,3,3,1,1,1,9,5,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,3,2,2,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,1,0,9,0,6,4,1,9,0,0,0,0,5,5,0,0,3,27,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24828566525489104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2950071361180291,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2704090673952741,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3195502852755949,0.2897529308476266,0.0,0.0,0.13806755463202028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2792104801743194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22093737183150106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5162970088487815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4239548833131183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,twentyfourthousand,2019/02/16,I feel so disgusted in the shower I cringe when I comb my hair and I have to take out the large clumps from the brush. It’s so much worse in the shower when the long strands gather on the shower mat. This sucks. ,0.33999999999999986,2.471174111111111,1.2933333333333366,101.82000000000004,85.66666666666667,4.488888888888889,13.444444444444445,5.6839178017228535,-1.2704222222222223,165,2,40,1,5,51,32,45,0.206,0.794,0.0,-0.8615,3,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,4,2,2,0,6,0,1,1,1,0,0,3,4,5,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,2,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,3,5,0,6,4,1,7,0,0,0,0,1,4,1,0,3,26,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2834061631740889,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4960257757718458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4120327509198665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.42142702118184977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5711984370007329,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,DootDeeDootDeeDoo,2019/02/16,"Overweight with ED- Do compliments make you lean into your bad behaviors? My boyfriend's co-worker (M) hadn't seen me in a couple months, I came in to pick my boyfriend up one night and M says:

""Wow! I didn't recognize you!"" clarified by my boyfriend later to mean he was shocked by how much weight I'd lost. When I met my boyfriend (and his coworker M) I weighed around 250-270lbs (I was in a period of denial and refusing to use a scale) that night I weighed 225.

I proceeded to heavily B/p (with a lot more p than b, some days probably negative in calories because of n.e.a.t. from my job) for the next week and lost an additional ten pounds or so. Back to ""normal"" (for me) levels of disordered behavior and I've gotten down to 212 as of this morning (ALMOST IN THE UNDER 200 CLUB WOO!!!! - *ahem* sorry).

I don't regularly see many people, I'm kinda a homebody when I'm not at work, but (almost) everyone who does see me is all compliments and support. ""You're doing so good!!"" ""You look great!!"" ""Your clothes are so loose on you!!"", ""How much have you lost!"". Etc. 

Only my roommate actually addresses the real issue, but she's bitter that she's not losing weight, so from her I get comments about how she wishes she could throw up to be skinny too, or ""I can't eat like that, I'll gain weight. Probably because I digest it, though"" (like, yeah, I have an eating disorder. BUT ***you***wouldn't have to have one to lose weight if you didn't do shit like eat snacks while waiting for your dinner to cook, hmm, Karen?- but that's a whole other issue). 

Anyway.... Does anyone who's overweight ever use this positivity to fuel their disordered behaviors, to get more, even though they know that if people knew HOW you were looking weight, they'd test you differently? Maybe even tell you to stop/slow down?

I know I'm hurting my body, I know this is not a safe way or timescale to be losing this much weight (I'm terrified about all the loose skin I'm gonna have if I keep losing this fast) ... But it's finally going away. I keep telling myself that as soon as I'm not ""fat"" (officially fat, whatever that is) anymore, I'll switch to healthy maintenance, but... Idk. Most people say the disordered habits never really go away.

I just... I think I'm at a point where I'm okay with that risk, or at least okay putting off dealing with it until I ""get there"", because having people proud of me for what I'm doing with my body feels so much better than the alternative.

I just keep thinking of all the people who haven't seen me in a while (I'm not active on social media, especially pictures. I hate my picture being taken and even more sharing it) and what they'll think when I suddenly start posting a ton of skinny/sexy pictures. How many of them wouldn't recognize me, when I finally reach my GW.

And, compared to that a little heart trouble risk seems... Inconsequential. I've actually caught my disordered brain trying to rationalize it a couple times like ""well, overweight people *are* supposed to do activities that get their heartrate up some every day, aren't we?"" ...

SMH. 

I'm a mess. Anyone else?",2.5831975443226805,4.8534717287853635,3.8245846003786816,86.09819883527456,77.96838602329451,7.006724424809227,24.005995754202765,8.047967983731553,1.4217143037466289,2403,82,476,43,58,783,290,601,0.132,0.7709999999999999,0.098,-0.9604,2,0,0,0,0,0,151.0,1,12,6,11,32,34,3,2,22,3,33,27,9,9,5,81,86,44,0,7,20,0,8,4,0,3,6,2,1,0,26,19,21,6,10,2,0,6,15,17,1,3,17,17,66,17,69,61,18,61,0,8,6,0,39,26,1,15,31,295,92,3,0.0,0.0,0.1127021759328175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11564716363221746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05726782608286046,0.08075372001280245,0.05916688915106525,0.0,0.05140556429951893,0.0,0.0,0.1085072300960714,0.04440257525571518,0.04821491777760163,0.10560300614147228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05107102978310714,0.0,0.12828403254986098,0.0,0.0644628580668965,0.0,0.06604524556727183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04610492738437336,0.12778816363138662,0.0,0.0744818893442474,0.059532874022253074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0603315534205082,0.3309056126050688,0.0,0.10106661135177156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17726358990037433,0.04823879273746793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0644012795247818,0.11442068832874687,0.05223393448967485,0.048652910123826526,0.05517811369192308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02919776133634237,0.0,0.0,0.12651431844815886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1206781543660899,0.0,0.06563597531613766,0.04843402225273458,0.0,0.0636644027871846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057011533788598724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06842846463606381,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06181754348034385,0.0,0.0,0.12054219175154435,0.05730330511504603,0.1539800413626161,0.0,0.0,0.09520592862144572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11284575707388625,0.057875965996712325,0.0,0.0,0.09698302559925566,0.2584089031452785,0.18910746581368293,0.04909299344724198,0.0,0.0,0.03854543958755522,0.11708935187700988,0.058012920520150016,0.0629015659251045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.046091751648726816,0.0,0.16979777418213565,0.0,0.044536739217154134,0.0,0.06141278713368624,0.10838011421885692,0.0565781385582381,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07825942646035004,0.04391790667000977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2401999426759211,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05458797829926438,0.0,0.055304040057440815,0.0,0.1245184113366743,0.0,0.0,0.058049981036485815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0657267993173551,0.0369931211324108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09184276876491916,0.0,0.0,0.0920310637900636,0.05256915704696432,0.0,0.0,0.059274725914583874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05886406656311127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0646411414381415,0.040872424198928926,0.0,0.0,0.048277660769361935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06552868797188237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10094388385765696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11100257966150376,0.11346893824273868,0.0,0.033671751808658675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.039205271695760484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09974680638555093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04583553540570049,0.04631980064856304,0.4219093499846516,0.051919964262593286,0.0,0.0,0.06447057099672142,0.06640425110528587,0.0,0.0,0.08407853978555631,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,percussivesilence,2019/02/16,"Anxiety vs. EDs I live in a city center in a huge apartment building. The store I want to go to is a 10 min walk. On that walk I have to pass a bunch of people. Even to talk the elevator to the lobby I have to see people. In the store there will be 100 people. Too many people that will be judging me. People will be hanging outside pubs and drinking. Watching me go get food to eat then throw up. 
It’s a Saturday night and I’m too petrified of people seeing me to go get bp food. ",0.2169638128861422,2.218270184466021,2.7258958517210954,92.19692850838484,85.01941747572816,5.2988526037069725,20.0432480141218,6.574015621080383,0.1921533980582524,371,11,83,4,11,128,61,103,0.054000000000000006,0.898,0.049,-0.3612,0,0,1,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,9,0,9,4,0,0,0,4,18,3,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,3,2,4,0,0,2,2,8,0,0,0,0,0,3,7,0,15,12,1,20,0,0,3,0,1,8,0,0,4,51,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12679624807603518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16236927542871607,0.0,0.16960088982727806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10947454334029676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4008446406723463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17319227012190208,0.0,0.2825940691514572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14635792243835494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16804176998898362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15554263417629244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6894499435083037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26415831337926915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13322141946413651,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09776206520169096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,orkestrels,2019/02/16,"can you gain weight on a plateau? i’ve been high restricting for the past four days (800-900) and i usually walk for 2-3 hrs every day, with exercise being higher on weekends, to give you an idea of my activity level.

i’m trying to get comfortable with a higher intake but increasing it has made me gain about five pounds, with the last two gained in the last two days. is this normal during a plateau, or is it more typical to stay at the same weight?? i weigh and measure all my food, usually overestimating weight by a few grams to compensate for any error.. i just feel really bad and i don’t even know if this is a plateau, or just something to get used to with a higher intake. or am i just doing something wrong? plz help :(",5.03720700152207,5.290632294520549,5.9311872146118745,81.43245814307461,68.52054794520548,9.502587519025877,27.86605783866057,9.444778638647367,2.1625610350076108,569,17,118,11,9,188,95,146,0.097,0.784,0.119,0.3227,0,0,2,0,0,0,21.0,0,2,0,3,5,3,0,0,11,0,10,6,0,2,1,24,18,8,0,2,8,0,4,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,4,7,5,1,3,2,0,2,1,2,0,4,2,4,10,1,20,15,5,18,0,0,0,0,4,6,0,4,9,75,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09953317335288936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12220860519793493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2831798195089711,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09667265769585608,0.0,0.12331876852884452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07400650778407464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17698505768816628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15293927276789954,0.14040658043282284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09810532919721686,0.15464258746686402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16522819349960668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0804383392782368,0.23861391055430944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13849403834561413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14340655789959372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13972188986895914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09376512382253528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22535775198422886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15600554386179138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09937218170619258,0.0,0.28595454332491577,0.0,0.0,0.12641230809056264,0.3224005903345114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5346991715242996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16002707723494353,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,thecowardlylion8,2019/02/16,"NON calorie-counting nutrition tracking apps Hi all,

I'm looking for some advice. Nutrition is still really important to be, but every time I try to track nutrients in an app I get completely obsessed by the calories and it destabilizes my recovery. Does anyone know of any nutrition apps that let you track micro and macronutrients, but DOES NOT include calories?    

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Thanks! ",5.31296153846154,8.871428661538463,5.369519230769232,71.0373557692308,77.76923076923076,9.403846153846157,35.817307692307686,9.516144504307137,4.9391923076923065,313,18,42,10,8,98,54,65,0.038,0.8759999999999999,0.086,0.4937,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,1,0,0,1,2,0,1,2,0,3,0,0,0,1,8,8,4,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,4,1,6,6,2,3,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,1,2,25,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24484692790059254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27148453349185464,0.3044610529377681,0.17039119849052842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17519923520515582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2627101780488816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4385381382009377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21110984466965055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13090864636054406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1377026831608463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2562172922766692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21040952553241984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16051685369349064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20009966104127255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2306844298300314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14610509990027876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1701155963098326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3044610529377681,0.0
EDAnonymous,noonelovesacowgirl,2019/02/16,"DAE an instacart (or similar) shopper? Does having an ED complicate things ever? Sorry if this is too niche a question. I just graduated college and the job search is about as terrible as everyone says. Basically, I quit my shit part time job too early and can't start full time work (as a substitute teacher) for at least two weeks. I need to get out of the house and do things or I will binge like crazy. 

I have a car and actually love grocery shopping most of the time--reading labels, comparing options for macros/calories/price, etc. And the idea of doing it for someone else seems like it will take the pressure off when passing the baked goods aisle or whatever. Almost seems like the pleasure of baking for others but not eating anything yourself in a way. 

Just wondering if being around food so much has been triggering for others, does it wear off after a while? Or if it's just awful or not worth it for any other reason? ",5.5833050847457635,6.7092676271186455,5.895833333333336,79.06375000000001,67.64406779661017,8.611864406779661,30.56920903954802,8.841846274778883,2.4976971751412425,738,28,133,12,12,236,122,177,0.09,0.852,0.058,-0.6766,2,0,0,0,0,0,23.0,0,0,0,2,10,9,1,1,14,1,12,7,2,2,1,33,20,20,0,4,14,0,0,3,0,2,0,1,2,0,11,7,4,0,6,1,2,2,3,3,0,1,1,1,6,6,22,16,6,19,0,0,0,1,3,7,1,15,12,97,17,5,0.0,0.0,0.14216027118262586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14587501978007758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09906572714195212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11988020826959693,0.12968390185246764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2549668053586038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14906449854801254,0.12169489719823699,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16246897251049713,0.0,0.13177368104080145,0.0,0.13920113859142322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17615386752490755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07611050544724493,0.0,0.0,0.12218741441191892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16809232966336538,0.0,0.16445221810979802,0.0,0.0,0.2891249730500937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2135120723444848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1314796733819409,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10708975857896386,0.10801805488463707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15775458672766932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16319219199560372,0.15494600254709492,0.145716968951264,0.0,0.0,0.1497807804024552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11584863207580935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2652387342048602,0.0,0.0,0.14953590807893827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12343211244036892,0.0,0.0,0.16307408655319186,0.10311131723800422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10953138520241884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19356337761535194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2548372466827841,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1423057951924793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.115632055710432,0.11685374069885135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15798108503266567,0.1060549888910656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,datnastaythrowaway,2019/02/16,"Was doing well until I got ghosted by the first guy to show me interest in forever Guess I’ll be going hungry until I feel like I’m good enough for anyone to be interested
 ¯\_(ツ)_/¯  ",6.5327027027027045,5.9603726756756785,7.889864864864865,71.4466891891892,65.48648648648647,10.643243243243244,32.013513513513516,10.125756701596842,3.1536054054054063,147,5,27,3,2,51,31,37,0.0,0.68,0.32,0.9042,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,1,1,5,0,0,1,0,4,0,0,0,0,2,9,2,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,1,1,2,1,3,5,7,5,1,5,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,4,18,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2479370723448013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3663855185950855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1792909964669684,0.2533186557082065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3016134642669169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20152126190346206,0.297412668476998,0.28359744317469626,0.0,0.3906200736433078,0.35109914011830257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17323441341771226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31881835124061797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ccyybb,2019/02/16,"worst fears confirmed! knew i had gained weight these past two weeks, so weighed myself and it was a whopping 3 kilos. i mentioned it to my friend at work and she said “oh i wasn’t going to say anything but you do look like you have!” yippeeeeee! worst of all is i just want to binge and make myself feel better lol. the cycle never ends ",0.1866176470588244,2.5893138382352947,0.7708235294117642,101.64770588235297,94.44117647058823,2.72,15.623529411764707,3.1291,-1.3346576470588234,263,6,57,0,10,79,56,68,0.128,0.657,0.215,0.7119,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,2,0,3,2,6,0,1,2,1,6,2,0,1,2,11,13,5,0,1,2,0,2,1,1,0,0,2,0,0,3,3,2,0,2,0,0,1,2,3,0,1,5,5,10,3,5,8,3,6,0,0,1,0,7,1,0,0,5,37,13,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22756341905818425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2445713125616333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2449265054374828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3111769463317671,0.1398235916569002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.213649012326256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15716029912168056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13510024686099287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2322184021718523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1845881861640421,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21327959929168014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26398241262198485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26304658085562943,0.21991045218321295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2701329416526146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1631065590582133,0.0,0.22181840644927436,0.33674317235555684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2013196025314996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,aprlls,2019/02/16,"Worried about a friend who might have an eating disorder Hey, so one of my friends has expressed kind of concerning thoughts and behaviors to me over the last month-ish. It’s stuff like him avoiding food for days and talking about their anxieties related to it.

I am looking for help phrasing questions  to be less invasive and maybe some topics that might be best to avoid I guess?

Like how can I ask more about their reasons for not eating? Should I ask if they find their thoughts and behaviors worrying? 

Are there things I shouldn’t ask about? Like weight and body goals?

Should I directly tell them that I am concerned they are developing an eating disorder? 

I’m obviously really worried, but I want to ask things pretty gently.

Also, does environment matter? Just whenever we have some time alone?",5.0255216016859885,7.581039191780825,4.711917808219179,81.28371443624872,71.46575342465755,8.601896733403583,29.723919915700737,9.265573868473778,2.8584695468914645,646,27,113,15,13,197,98,146,0.102,0.7290000000000001,0.168,0.9054,0,3,0,0,0,0,15.0,1,0,6,2,9,9,0,2,4,0,15,6,1,2,1,29,25,10,0,5,4,0,1,3,2,5,0,0,0,0,8,6,5,2,5,0,0,0,2,2,0,1,2,2,18,7,15,16,5,4,0,0,1,0,21,1,0,7,6,79,26,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12019481799901235,0.0,0.09280670035231924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08877942206019312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4339716195732229,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1217893588878874,0.0,0.0,0.12890755144615498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07484390529054039,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2660111718214337,0.0,0.10155784116977512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.356250343560585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10606937740239013,0.0,0.14033047536815355,0.0,0.17932289325751208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12784430379750975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07778717402602031,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12085024459060392,0.0,0.09459782632197654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17009135836716488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09745440732836834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11658977953606653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2462255531624051,0.0,0.0,0.0926315571595756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07863980295960138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11806655186397502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13000474074675625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07434584914029124,0.11932073028097193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13285171450904718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0932781592951566,0.10143451716407482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1541995141877144,0.0,0.0,0.1842645661052704,0.06767082375384112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06845044533819641,0.0,0.0,0.14132000727271915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35356915743113426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,carolineeo,2019/02/16,Down the drain again Made it almost a week without purging and just like clockwork I fucked it all up as soon as the slightest evidence of concrete progress reared its head,7.3234375000000025,8.258084468750003,5.400000000000002,84.845,63.6875,7.65,37.875,7.1686216300943375,2.6873875,141,7,25,1,2,40,29,32,0.12,0.736,0.14400000000000002,-0.0258,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,1,3,2,1,0,3,0,0,2,1,1,1,6,2,3,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,1,1,6,1,1,5,0,0,0,1,0,2,1,1,4,18,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.42249681094523206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39006274402655305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4330166425233515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2061311795075243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3992355142410847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3384426810479059,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4067205187963687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Smldcknick,2019/02/17,"When your ED makes you want to puke but general stomach issues that make you feel nauseous are the worst. Ughhh. Like I’m fine purging up pretty much anything, but when I get stomach issues that make me feel the need to puke, it’s the last thing I want to do and just start to cry a little.",1.4680000000000002,3.583901800000003,2.4700000000000024,95.165,81.0,4.666666666666667,20.0,5.46131890053228,-0.254,228,6,49,1,6,72,43,60,0.221,0.614,0.165,-0.8047,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,3,0,0,3,3,0,0,4,0,2,2,2,3,0,13,13,5,0,3,3,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,6,2,5,13,2,6,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,5,29,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1944285598646837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2595294735040088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23892855603481486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12344035915755047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.493205137967543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19259008027004174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11542868596041775,0.2368027607565681,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4731324834955027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17368427897572428,0.17518984287526185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24036965313871594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16723181587448127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15696606343751798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2787141581315757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,princessvana,2019/02/17,"My boyfriend’s little sister called me fat. It was so subtle, you almost wouldn’t catch it.

I’ve been playing Lovers in a Dangerous Space Time with my boyfriend’s family. I like playing as [Lover Upsilon](https://imgur.com/a/WrzBApH). I think she’s cute.

The first time we played, my boyfriend’s sister said “of course Princess picks that one.” I asked her what she meant. “Nothing.”

The second time, she said “Princess always picks the fattest one.”

The third time, tonight, she told everyone “Princess always pick that one because it looks the most like her.”

She never outright said it. She didn’t have to. I know she thinks it’s funny that I pick the fattest character because I’m the fattest person out of the family.

Their mom made brownies and I’m downstairs crying while they all eat. I was going to have a bite but my fatass doesn’t need it, if I’m being honest. 

The worst part is she’s SO nice, so if she’s saying it, it must be true.

I wanted to talk to my friends about it, but they’ve all struggled with EDs and I’m the thinnest of them, so all I do is end up triggering them, which means they usually just ignore me. I ended up deleting my social media over it. I’m feeling so ugly and fat and alone right now.

I hope Peach is back up soon. I’d love to give it a try. Maybe I won’t have to be alone for much longer.

But for now, I’ll just cry.",2.0432088714205534,4.117053405109491,2.6455474452554744,94.86546883773157,78.81751824817519,5.38326782706345,21.487366647950587,6.297961479604792,0.13911106120157246,1059,30,229,8,26,328,146,274,0.108,0.743,0.15,0.8392,0,2,0,0,0,0,45.0,1,1,5,1,12,18,1,1,13,0,18,6,2,6,6,40,42,16,0,7,7,3,1,2,3,3,2,4,0,1,16,8,3,1,6,3,0,2,5,4,0,6,10,6,37,14,21,26,7,26,0,0,1,3,36,9,0,5,17,140,53,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12093507225884845,0.2501654136999239,0.0,0.0,0.2009828936304112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11290491923022562,0.0,0.0,0.09286572153392482,0.0,0.1472422009309328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12332106222514595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26532333727642005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12357925250197567,0.0,0.0,0.21393515731380974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11540221060087792,0.0,0.0,0.2277049808047968,0.0,0.061065628695168225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10272805763439552,0.0,0.0,0.09330765361698333,0.0,0.0,0.11585489389777776,0.06863714740882575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11995321149454607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06637278134447773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11800557278892965,0.12104463110089085,0.0,0.0,0.10141752586364616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10900086817459596,0.11427678153363105,0.0,0.0,0.12133106450172695,0.13155541703623835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14144595789289371,0.0,0.0,0.08878084617540773,0.08955043360013241,0.09314631861666438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11588337772194815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2455133985996488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13078361445186235,0.0,0.0,0.10545289371160534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10313808207302684,0.3446436608954904,0.0960422333604382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12311119304055912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1262564483778631,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0970714449163357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15477082268354395,0.0,0.0,0.28169100634493915,0.0,0.0,0.11540221060087792,0.0,0.08199582621036683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13301259125691958,0.0,0.0712340775627891,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,kenziixoxo,2019/02/17,"Triggering post on Reddit, some guy says his GF is “naturally 110 lbs”, I purge quietly in response :) CONVERSATION SPOTTED ON REDDIT THAT TRIGGERED MY ED  :)


Poster #1: Bro 110 is a good weight I think my heaviest girlfriend has been 120...


Poster #2: You’re girlfriends might not have been that tall. Healthy weight for an average height girl is close to 130.


Me: Besides as a young teenager (before I developed boobs/butt) I was only ever ~110 when I was close to the peak of my eating disorder.  Like, my hair was falling out and I could count my ribs/vertebrae and had a 22.5 inch waist and like a 30A bra size.

It depends on the height and frame and age.... but at an average height and average frame, 110 is quite unhealthy. If you’re talking about a 5’2” or under woman or somebody with a small frame (most Asian women, for example), then 110 is MUCH more reasonable/healthy.


Right now I’m 5’5” and 130 and I have a 26.5 inch waist and 32C bra and I’m actually healthy and happy for once and look much better. 🤷🏻‍♀️


Poster #1: To each their own, but 110 for a 5’5” is not necessarily unhealthy. GF is 5’6 and some, 110lbs, 34B and she eats like a truck driver.


Me (wanting to post something but not wanting to start a fight so I never posted it): I mean, she’s a full BMI point/5 lbs below the lowest weight in the healthy weight range. Weight is all CICO, so unless she has a thyroid disorder, she’s not eating as much as you think OR she’s over exercising to compensate.

Not saying she isn’t beautiful, I’m sure she is, but it’s simply not possible to eat like a truck driver and maintain 110.",2.0046835443037985,4.2944559082278495,3.2726424050632907,89.18782436708864,80.10759493670886,6.481645569620253,23.48259493670886,7.6454224807358475,1.1165746835443038,1241,43,256,20,32,402,170,316,0.073,0.7979999999999999,0.13,0.9479,1,0,1,0,1,0,58.0,0,1,1,2,6,9,1,0,19,0,22,14,3,3,4,52,32,31,0,4,15,1,6,4,4,1,2,4,0,4,5,20,11,0,3,1,0,1,8,1,0,0,6,11,26,8,28,24,11,33,0,0,1,0,24,21,0,9,12,147,31,0,0.0,0.0,0.09744511466508436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08497015625057062,0.0,0.0,0.08831457444522474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07972694224242446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2288874023716628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4087107328275731,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0903255273223654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0837545293699101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09887320332846827,0.0,0.10629863761101166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19513851700765825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08385394489383947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1087725281868378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1059315044457987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22021709125985464,0.0,0.07701515297116497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10634344987795044,0.0,0.07594503683514796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09439625740461023,0.11257270921710044,0.28690352143966874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10620921625635876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08527653358686416,0.0,0.15881910104009542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07687407707549401,0.0,0.0,0.07067863649906425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09411315916260413,0.0,0.0,0.08026052226637452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1279674684031333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11779538819640566,0.0,0.0,0.6079889266739226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,jimmcluskeyPI,2019/02/17,Dizziness from bingeing I had such a binge weekend full of sugar and carbs. Have woke up today so dizzy and light headed I can’t even stand up without feeling like I’m going to faint. Wtffffff how do I stop this 😭,1.1677272727272765,3.55461122727273,2.055636363636367,95.99845454545458,84.45454545454547,3.5200000000000005,22.43636363636364,3.1291,-0.2361399999999998,170,6,35,0,5,53,39,44,0.198,0.802,0.0,-0.7328,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,0,1,0,4,3,1,1,0,6,8,4,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,1,1,1,1,0,1,2,0,0,0,2,3,3,1,6,6,1,8,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,4,22,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28571797757332323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2187277171778489,0.30903844796147084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2458477360689131,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4439564900562197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21133893240690851,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36166000568083095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4100395182257101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4169960140710829,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,bpd-ed,2019/02/17,My dreams came true! Sometimes when I am mid binge and I have a slight moment of clarity but still no control as I shove the fourth spoonful of PB into my mouth I think back to when I was at my most restrictive phase and I was so terrified of eating anything to the point where I would have nightmares of eating and now I am currently the worst nightmare of my anorexic self 🙃,6.662105263157892,5.851908894736841,6.57,81.80000000000003,65.31578947368422,9.705263157894738,33.473684210526315,8.841846274778883,2.5728526315789484,300,11,61,4,4,95,52,76,0.195,0.736,0.069,-0.9362,1,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,1,7,2,0,0,4,0,7,3,1,1,1,12,9,8,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,5,2,2,1,1,0,1,1,1,0,0,3,0,12,1,10,5,2,13,0,0,0,0,1,5,0,1,7,47,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2324231426410478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21717807392190366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3230348496994673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3167792334785534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5780109946226651,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26699604511787817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2946453618352174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27933928598547625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2255560638742648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18097543751620684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20063648520403168,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,beana0912,2019/02/17,"Husband left after 10 years & 3 kids So the short of is that my husband left me and our 3 kids after 10 years of marriage on Christmas day. So I find out that he has someone else.. which is typical to our marriage unfortunately. I'm an emotional wreck. Wicked wicked poor coping skills at the moment. Like the worst. They've all picked up right where I left them 10 + years ago. Some have gotten worse... the restricting is significant.  I've lost 57 pounds since our marriage started down hill around September.. and since Christmas I'm down another 10. Horrible cycles of restricting and then I'll binge on terrible disgusting food. That was me today. Applebees appetizer sampler and steak with shrimp and mashed potatoes all in my gut now. 

Let the self loathing begin. I dont know what his new girlfriend looks like but I bet she's prettier and thinner than I am. ",3.093605998636676,5.894201226993867,3.5784764826175888,85.53563565098844,79.67484662576686,7.057805044308113,26.233469665984998,8.167268648758528,1.961174778459441,692,28,128,14,18,216,112,163,0.16,0.778,0.062,-0.9081,0,0,0,0,0,0,23.0,3,0,1,2,5,6,1,0,6,0,9,2,1,1,2,19,17,10,0,0,1,2,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,3,5,9,1,2,2,0,2,0,1,4,0,0,3,1,15,2,17,13,4,29,0,1,1,0,16,15,0,2,16,68,20,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1455308686892417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17788310014070965,0.0,0.0,0.17215137271327915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14615019251814906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10587902900308307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19241139727673606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13714680388189038,0.18467431693926534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15005260138057047,0.0,0.1985205664221144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09022606136448713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5351285186153727,0.16787964188464408,0.0,0.1604148242115406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13786530753497084,0.0,0.17921595915345748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15856084247501126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14020420319346275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17126990296740816,0.0,0.0,0.27161383547607265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13910459770561326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11620362010913315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15561831529771628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1673079334769729,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31716916068679485
EDAnonymous,ehvll,2019/02/17,"Pregnant I recently found out I was pregnant and I was doing well with about 500-800 calories a day. I never considered myself to have an eating disorder, but I can’t do that to this child growing inside of me. I’m eating “normally” to make sure I have a healthy pregnancy and it’s really tough. I can see my body start to change. It’s really getting at me and I’m trying to be okay, especially with summer coming up. I’m so afraid of getting huge. ",1.7531763285024131,3.8655208152173914,4.301014492753623,82.4333574879227,79.97826086956522,7.567149758454105,24.352657004830927,8.515128840125781,1.896981642512077,353,13,69,8,9,124,63,92,0.046,0.778,0.17600000000000002,0.885,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,0,3,5,0,1,3,1,9,3,1,1,2,13,19,5,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,4,7,2,0,1,0,0,2,2,2,1,0,3,1,11,3,13,15,0,11,0,0,1,0,1,4,0,0,5,47,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25338538937485894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2413164222755943,0.19650168749343705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14711591269577487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26144063553247715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4668391210359338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2501173589655592,0.0,0.0,0.23836233181402405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15226916435951038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17593707936549238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2235051920918028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2922738306868852,0.0,0.22523697516461064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18177887356295944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16146163968325045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2149965781296017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15487575244902402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20510362980509875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,armheartbrain,2019/02/17,"Dentist and doctor appointment in the same week. 😬 So tomorrow I have a dentist appointment, first one in like 4 years. I have a tooth that is broken in half and has been that way for about 2 years. It never hurt so I basically ignored it and only chewed on the other side of my mouth. I brush and floss well but that does not make up for years of not going to the dentist with bulimia. It's rough in there. Looks fine from the front tho. 💁🏻 

A n d then the next day I have a doctors appointment. Full physical with a Pap smear and I really am not comfortable with that. I'm even less comfortable talking to my doctor about my mental health issues. I have been having serious anxiety problems and have already talked to my doctor about it and she said ""well you don't seem anxious"" like. I know lady. I know. But how do you want me to seem. I gotta talk about problems with depression.  I already worry that I'm just making it up or that I'm just oversensitive. If she dismisses me it will really negatively impact me. I kinda wanna just as for a referral to a psychologist. But I dunno. That's scary too. I'm just nervous about all the stuff I have to do coming up this week. 😬",0.6642499999999991,3.0892135916666703,2.9191666666666656,88.38250000000002,88.08333333333334,6.366666666666667,20.083333333333336,7.675431598112923,0.9729333333333336,922,29,190,19,30,313,130,240,0.172,0.758,0.07,-0.981,0,0,0,0,0,0,24.0,0,2,0,1,18,14,0,1,13,0,16,12,2,3,2,41,32,18,0,5,12,0,1,2,0,2,9,1,0,0,16,12,1,1,4,0,0,3,6,7,2,3,3,4,25,7,31,27,4,25,0,2,1,0,8,10,0,6,13,139,41,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2683646875427215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0930193136747634,0.1373669588855003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10474273062921452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07841827014986445,0.0,0.10472900028943484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4978277111922707,0.10640799933905948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0803118944045254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10342805723902887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06910484802690159,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12924906461086616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13016922280898074,0.0,0.0,0.12691286755012274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1336501046762069,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1188096749611985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10210859536931227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16233029109408004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12253846432760784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09378102726108134,0.0,0.12931692722903465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08239545075953646,0.0924779513513067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2326986643559763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15579285607217766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11566403280990376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22138978455856745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13919639278309912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2931986993314015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0717194739314018,0.0965159028470726,0.1950712406748272,0.0,0.21865577361484093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12348492326111958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23490824538274346
EDAnonymous,Stranger_Being,2019/02/17,"I disgust myself HAE ever binged, proceeded to purge, and then immediately binged again?!? 

I baked a cake earlier. Ate half in one sitting. Felt disgusted and promptly purged. After about 7 minutes of feeling repulsive for purging (because I'm trying to stop) I then ate the other half of the cake. It's taking EVERYTHING in me not to purge again. Uggghhh.

Seriously... what the hell is wrong with me? I didn't think I could disgust myself more than I do already but this incident takes the cake. Pun intended. 

Anyone else done this before? ",2.813312401883831,5.833705040816327,3.9663265306122457,80.05284929356361,85.3265306122449,6.688854003139719,26.926216640502357,7.882392219407189,2.341349136577708,426,19,70,9,13,138,72,98,0.138,0.8490000000000001,0.013,-0.899,0,0,0,0,0,0,20.0,0,0,0,0,4,6,4,0,5,0,5,3,0,1,1,12,13,5,0,1,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,5,3,3,1,3,0,0,0,2,6,0,3,5,2,10,0,12,7,1,11,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,8,50,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2895542319483504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18346940570342773,0.2688498805539994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15995069762069747,0.0,0.2232748279391369,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20949731172433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2685163872064225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2191934349028369,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2373470576179799,0.0,0.0,0.235819491696768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13267242473535554,0.0,0.25193584599542995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.177802464841189,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21937004830742865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39456971664267537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1681291158583967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17814579680842538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2868826133779641,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,7st1lb,2019/02/17,"Can't seem to get my fat ass back at the gym. SOS Everything is in the title... I just need to make that one leap and then I'll be back on the exercising train. But I've been putting it off foreeeever (well 17 days now to be exact). How do you motivate yourself? 

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heeeeelp ",0.4971674876847274,2.829823741379311,1.8828078817733989,96.32155172413796,87.44827586206895,5.383251231527094,22.07881773399015,6.868970318607317,0.4812334975369459,219,8,50,3,7,70,50,58,0.06,0.895,0.045,-0.2263,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,1,0,1,6,1,0,0,3,0,6,3,2,3,1,9,10,4,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,1,1,0,2,2,0,1,1,0,1,1,1,0,3,1,7,7,0,10,0,0,0,1,1,4,1,1,5,31,5,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3116010577618537,0.34945042696343026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4422742442520633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18547021839658304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25846520216869723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15025265767982252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1919669643570425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21324257050258694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19487680891265546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2891049825815429,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2618089611921957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2585758013312186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34945042696343026,0.0
EDAnonymous,NewBullMoose,2019/02/17,I was underweight and have recently recovered to a BMI of almost 20. Can I stop gaining weight or is it true that I need to overshoot? I want to be done so badly and just maintain. ,2.685585585585589,4.207227108108114,4.528108108108111,84.56531531531532,75.21621621621622,8.176576576576577,28.54954954954956,8.841846274778883,2.296322522522524,141,6,29,3,3,48,31,37,0.149,0.6779999999999999,0.173,-0.0071,0,0,0,1,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,1,2,2,0,0,1,0,6,1,0,0,1,9,8,4,0,2,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,1,4,1,4,5,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,22,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3839582167151383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32015508668813825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3923906578713857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2843147496334216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3785992076725269,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3205717106064606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2261619303605714,0.0,0.0,0.466924729056997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,fallen-fawn,2019/02/17,"Do you have any health-related obstacles that you feel makes your ED so much harder? I have two! And they suck!

1. I am allergic to all RAW fruits and vegetables. It varies for each fruit/veg, like an apple will just give me mild discomfort but a banana will wreck me for a whole day. I can however eat cooked vegetables or anything that’s somewhat processed like canned fruit or Naked juice.

2. Probably like some of you I have terrible digestive problems. My gall bladder just randomly quit functioning 3 years ago and I had it removed. No one could tell me why (or even more frustratingly, no doctor really seemed to care about what could have caused it). Honestly I highly suspect my EDNOS played a big part. But yeah I still have problems around that area.

These things are so frustrating and I have to be so much more conscious of when I eat, how much, and what foods. I have to walk a very fine line between eating how I want to lose weight but also minimizing these 2 health concerns.

And I feel pretty alone dealing with this stuff, so I was just wondering if you guys have any health obstacles you think are specific to you or anything where you have to put extra work into food planning to keep the balance while still trying to lose weight?",4.907510548523206,6.61270171308017,4.780443037974685,84.24045358649789,69.8438818565401,8.642194092827003,27.5126582278481,9.150863307647796,2.1985341772151896,994,34,190,20,18,306,150,237,0.201,0.685,0.114,-0.9746,1,1,0,0,0,0,25.0,0,8,1,5,17,16,3,1,6,1,22,18,1,4,1,42,33,23,0,6,11,0,4,3,0,2,5,0,0,1,13,10,13,1,7,2,0,3,2,9,0,2,2,6,27,7,18,26,12,16,0,2,0,0,13,6,1,10,10,132,40,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09498312097072724,0.0,0.0,0.11097638335813477,0.0,0.08568881860270508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14573305332145886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17635270328059194,0.09538733287910782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10924784406153397,0.11007385337624452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1711031136690186,0.0,0.0,0.06910369401791673,0.11046823722279006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10967384820567214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3289274475940516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07077239227954528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10835778647178462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2591354417860754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10278924595498333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10609658712665836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34169031512307657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11321118219136253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09524095729284117,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1570460699247074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2397496885709169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07152429366375182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23630550061184516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07260846237584563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1160343655800633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1090113462423751,0.1155271740870684,0.20505855675344925,0.0,0.1077166050058318,0.0,0.11396854746135633,0.0,0.0,0.06864383666978731,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0975464767431764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17114225869920513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12266254938929765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09365491832301928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07118653152032957,0.06865819657782735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07274866744132533,0.0,0.10467120485080372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08841100581256144,0.06320058542747786,0.0,0.0,0.2609627197638511,0.0,0.0,0.09668733984991593,0.11963054778931727,0.0,0.0,0.1162009635070737,0.07800738861443861,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06900189407473542
EDAnonymous,phosphatidylserine_,2019/02/17,my first thought after midterms... I can finally go back to restricting again. honestly eff my stupid disordered ass,5.038771929824564,8.617309368421054,4.269473684210528,75.73298245614036,86.89473684210527,10.954385964912284,37.91228070175438,9.725611199111238,5.943933333333334,94,6,14,4,3,28,18,19,0.358,0.528,0.113,-0.7579,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,1,2,2,1,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,2,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,1,1,0,3,1,2,2,0,6,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,5,9,3,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.351646692428394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5241221416029768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5009657814993669,0.0,0.3889915578110504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25990242110181144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3630567030224854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Disastrous_Example,2019/02/17,"Eating normally makes me miserable So, I’m back to restricting I guess? I was never recovered really, just eating kinda normally for two months. My ed just kind of let me so I went with it but yeah. I miss my eating disorder a lot. 

I don’t want to hardcore restrict or anything, I just want to feel somewhat in control and valid maybe? When my ed just kind of decided to shut up like two months ago it was pretty easy to eat most days, but I’ve been really struggling since school started. I didn’t really count calories strictly or anything but I did restrict pretty low on some days and then ate normally on some days. As I said I don’t really want to fully ”relapse” I guess, but I’ve already ”relapsed” enough that I felt like I needed to go back here for some support and stuff you know. 

Sorry if this made no sense, I just wanted to tell someone I guess. So yeah. Hi lol",1.5866357655502412,3.9565784829545487,3.2419497607655536,88.3181220095694,82.35227272727272,6.432535885167465,22.89952153110048,7.669130373188453,1.2163568181818178,687,24,137,12,19,227,102,176,0.139,0.6729999999999999,0.188,0.8937,0,1,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,1,0,1,12,9,0,2,1,3,8,5,0,3,1,45,29,16,0,9,12,0,2,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,5,4,5,4,4,0,0,2,5,4,0,2,10,3,21,5,18,18,7,20,0,3,0,0,4,6,0,13,14,87,26,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09039169402294617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1125282252123809,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16782791965713012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15681977245160267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11436984962248906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.197289789017816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11686831804875066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4173697234456824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10536394861305796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0515599181183986,0.0,0.09790875245194963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057952825114523474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33699972797288225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2123755137707492,0.05604093897886002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10427289659297087,0.0,0.09963637156483347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08669263006736957,0.0,0.09648801829455904,0.06806685232056871,0.0,0.10244420445018963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16278555835607245,0.0,0.0,0.07561066875997384,0.07864680448766896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2997316291906785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20748360664221635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2613025395418947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09699836779705308,0.0,0.0,0.10320072973397501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08435198295001646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08640022798077568,0.0,0.0,0.11414888700668832,0.07217604187942246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10660288413271543,0.11673311551732456,0.0,0.11571619300932312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08912769589248795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19922292350875412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24058202853925065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09452871911048087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,taifun92,2019/02/17,"New Account, New Me? Made a new account after someone irl found out about the last one. How is everyone?

I'm back to my bad habits but is set on losing this stupid weight. New account but same sh\*t as always I guess. ",0.32734848484848555,2.7485400681818177,1.4836363636363683,97.48712121212124,91.5,3.8424242424242414,18.69696969696969,5.46131890053228,-0.410684848484848,169,5,36,1,6,53,36,44,0.232,0.768,0.0,-0.9102,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,1,3,3,1,0,2,0,2,1,0,2,0,8,6,4,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,1,0,3,0,0,3,0,1,2,1,3,0,6,4,1,10,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,1,7,20,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1641166883008752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15166280472452,0.16468435935530526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18846806595634036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2162597999754147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.217278400279706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16077418987498834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22065735371821368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18663008175681192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7619695202423091,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13365265465747175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16711796860241487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2401810968157577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,beachedlandwhale,2019/02/17,"Anyone else watch disordered binging on YouTube? I used to be addicted to only watching overweight mukbang (Trisha, Nickocado avocado) but now I’m only watching disordered eating, binge/purge videos. I used to watch Kaufmann08 (way back in the day) and recovery flower. 

Right now I love watching Anonymous Brahette and I still rewatch brebek15 videos (although she’s recovered now). 

Does anyone else do this and what do you guys watch? I need to find more channels to watch while I’m restricting lol. ",4.996046511627906,8.38044023255814,4.915162790697675,75.14088372093023,76.90697674418605,7.626046511627909,34.181395348837206,8.548686976883017,3.7004781395348845,404,22,58,9,10,125,59,86,0.059,0.8290000000000001,0.112,0.7724,1,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,1,0,0,5,1,0,0,1,1,3,4,0,2,0,9,9,6,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,2,3,2,1,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,7,7,1,7,8,1,11,0,0,7,1,4,3,0,0,7,32,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2035485128649574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2611129946257764,0.382626177629383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14357344023629,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12041667658764753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4279865023287516,0.0,0.16339684130066578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1910575627957212,0.3119553037758634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17065547107589366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18487866098405054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16851890422077972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13844789675085492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2840125786523167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15945484531865525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1491120142645232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3225261612165927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14820684307993295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Psychology_tenz72_,2019/02/17,"Anorexia Research: Involuntary Treatment Effects [PAID] Want to MAKE A DIFFERENCE by sharing YOUR STORY? Research project at University of Missouri is looking for individuals who currently have an Anorexia Nervosa (AN) diagnosis or who are in recovery from AN who have also experienced involuntary treatment (i.e., tube-feeding). Earn up to $15 for participating! Take our quick survey below to see if you qualify!

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EDAnonymous,LeslieKnope2k20,2019/02/17,"Can we talk about ANYTHING else?! I saw a lot of my former coworkers at an event the other day, and no one would talk to me about anything other than my weight. In all fairness, I’ve lost almost 30 pounds in the nine months that I’ve been gone, so I expected some comments, but I thought they would be quick and in passing. It ended up being something that I couldn’t get away from. I’d try to change the subject by asking them about their lives, work, and kids, and I’d get a curt response before they started talking about my weight again. One woman actually asked the ridiculous, “what’s your secret?!” question. I ended up being so uncomfortable that I avoided them for the rest of the day, and subsequently didn’t get to talk to some coworkers that I would’ve enjoyed being around. I’m already focusing on my weight and body almost all of the time now, and I’m really trying to avoid a full blown relapse after two years of recovery. I guess I’m just upset that my body seems to be everyone else’s focus too.",7.389701492537316,6.1588370497512495,7.39526865671642,77.84245522388059,64.07462686567165,10.030049751243784,33.03532338308458,8.841846274778883,2.5719389054726367,801,26,157,10,10,258,119,201,0.112,0.865,0.023,-0.9488,0,2,1,0,0,0,22.0,1,1,5,2,12,6,1,3,11,0,11,5,2,0,2,29,26,10,0,4,2,0,3,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,9,9,3,2,4,0,0,2,3,5,0,4,6,4,21,1,28,12,7,26,0,1,1,0,18,10,0,8,14,107,30,1,0.0,0.0,0.11290203296683105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2317044861442313,0.0,0.1276727642248459,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1904149325761662,0.102993445639994,0.21631918520213464,0.0,0.10869964814830983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0984482743457235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2570230424068504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12239040536045112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14922793915157126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1932973422331183,0.0,0.2049435898441559,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11055192430014177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18133823304447705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12745154006802648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10216116854157296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12629520925604573,0.0983601020786852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09234697415683606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1567964109487774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1296053397151148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07411744355543083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10532475797970173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0890679806176266,0.0,0.0,0.08188980818067891,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3719663591960513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09184923392160096,0.06746292520595695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1570991807685025,0.0,0.11301760644190433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4226575303157995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08422763795022482,0.0,0.0,0.24656010392291386,0.0,0.0,0.07450405218321646
EDAnonymous,ssilverliningss,2019/02/17,"bulimia, pineapples, and mouth damage This is a bit stretch but here me out:
I used to not be able to eat pineapple (even small amounts in smoothies) because it caused pain/tingling/numbness in my mouth. I know a bit of pain is common but I think my mouth was super sensitive to it or something as it hurt quite a lot.
I've had severe bulimia for about a year now (throwing up 3-8 times every day).
I recently decided to try raw pineapple again after not having had it for a year or so, and I loved it. I've eaten a lot of pineapples this season with hardly any bad side effects.
DAE think that this could be linked to my bulimia? As in, throwing up constantly has damaged the inside of my mouth so that I don't feel the pineapple-mouth-pain I used to get?
or maybe it's just a random coincidence idk. 
thoughts? has anyone experienced something similar? ",3.381964285714286,5.217994220238097,4.401904761904763,84.87642857142858,74.05952380952381,7.180952380952381,28.66666666666667,7.957251820313856,1.9144952380952387,671,28,130,10,14,218,101,168,0.147,0.789,0.064,-0.9213,0,0,2,0,0,0,24.0,0,0,0,3,8,7,0,0,9,0,12,8,4,4,0,27,22,11,0,1,8,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,11,4,2,0,8,0,0,2,3,5,0,0,5,3,12,2,22,14,5,22,0,3,0,1,1,9,0,6,11,84,23,0,0.1500566669550579,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10204367919180594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1049231105262662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1252910490363073,0.09147315140017527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32764603195783765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15414953197412273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16215794837084754,0.0,0.11980803834149473,0.0,0.0,0.09677413630768528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1535454319829977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09911101330568438,0.0,0.12642921380061362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07587315951084138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07839841512348708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13442129945858647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16063876552119452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08246721983763378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2551456243359989,0.13543200053036855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15075209094323325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4790126202655345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1596037361469362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1481628556469321,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16952132172709736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2310419066549097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19230050632430207,0.0,0.1191282320699648,0.08749924922524423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10187862688417136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2592015622159332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1932631474359558
EDAnonymous,lilpeachiie,2019/02/17,"Goodbye sex drive, I’ll miss you I tried to have sex with my boyfriend last night, and ended up just tensing the hell up and crying myself to sleep while he held me. 

I want to have sex, I really do and I miss it desperately, but lately I honestly feel like my body doesn’t deserve to feel good. Everywhere he touched me, I could feel the extra skin, and fat, and softness and I was immediately repulsed by myself. I feel like he deserves so much more (well, technically so much less) than me. I hate myself for so many reasons, and I don’t want it to affect how I am with him but it already is. 

I don’t know, I just needed to get it off my chest. He asked if I wanted to talk about it and of course I said no, even though I really wanted to. 

Sorry for the rant. I hope all of you have a wonderful day and I’m so thankful for this community, even if I just tend to lurk most of the time. ❤️",1.174537815126051,2.817367026455031,3.292972300031124,91.25535014005604,79.7936507936508,6.351820728291317,20.64145658263305,7.285733465282438,0.38958487394958,684,18,159,9,17,233,106,189,0.146,0.696,0.158,0.8134,0,0,0,0,0,0,23.0,0,2,0,0,13,11,2,0,5,0,11,8,5,3,1,37,33,20,0,9,7,0,7,2,0,0,1,1,0,0,6,11,1,1,7,0,0,1,4,4,1,0,3,8,30,7,23,29,7,11,1,2,0,3,10,3,1,5,9,109,36,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17095627547043696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1448277651051274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17207938712195742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12368971398715073,0.0,0.1701705569162253,0.09990953367529942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1372116951254959,0.0,0.0,0.20464424688791452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31332553404964963,0.2213474314063954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08093845519805583,0.0,0.0,0.12993818013730415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15294981921326364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1538688983295159,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08513908562593983,0.1262791496226239,0.1747546710572722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15137058237579293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15706291351319787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22776565668512025,0.11487000965880208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14538039739076514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19848935165705406,0.15928188773541765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1473628474455961,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15503025190450154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1734184337745346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12451751897622156,0.0,0.1426280227301669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1522065136407412,0.0,0.09033414836417104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1051794052815437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3654994777227451,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13929022111506215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16800236574331565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,325tilly,2019/02/17,"Period changing after coming back? Hey I’m constantly cycling between months of very heavy restricting and then a month of binge eating and then a couple months maintenance. so I’m constantly yo-yoing between  underweight/ normal. I’ll often miss one period when I’m restricting and then it comes back again for about 4 months.

Each time it disappears due to my restricting, my period always seems to come back slightly different. It’s almost like I have pressed system restart on my menstrual cycle. For example, this time it comes back with no period pains and light and will last 6 days. The next time after a restriction all my periods will be really heavy and be shorter etc. Does this happen to anyone else? 

This time they have come back and I get such awful period pains on the second day that I throw up and they honestly feel like contractions. I’m not sure if these changes are normal or not?

Thanks x",5.0900338123415025,7.32031176923077,5.386496196111582,77.94463017751481,70.36094674556213,9.798985629754863,26.272612003381234,10.125756701596842,2.951686052409129,735,24,126,21,14,233,105,169,0.173,0.785,0.042,-0.9639,1,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,2,0,11,8,0,0,5,1,7,3,0,0,2,31,22,15,0,3,4,0,2,2,0,2,2,0,0,0,9,15,1,4,2,0,0,7,3,3,0,2,0,3,9,5,16,18,3,44,0,1,0,0,3,3,0,5,35,77,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10789309316415874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08965416591662705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07533923325955612,0.11039957198969193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4142541017286849,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22796415602819906,0.4640726574381247,0.0,0.2328725375358369,0.0,0.0,0.11922004665678625,0.0,0.13897584988107264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1125727204972956,0.0,0.0,0.09429015785498024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11025211755622198,0.09000882331194926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12016642749243495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054480139159578216,0.07697450450191995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0562933795475811,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0952803486575154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08782821566407784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10527951917500376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34401062670593385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.114590195826291,0.0,0.2111384380833385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07301218054005011,0.0,0.2293008874241104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06902551068983236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09808885545809144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1015503068960057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09919899506388366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2513126541656027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08890258940756114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,SadnGayRonnie,2019/02/17,"New here, sharing my experience Having various trauma from my parents I somehow cling on my eating disorders as a source of comfort and coping mechanism. I dont know how and when did this happen but now I'm suffering orthorexia and bulimia. I always try to strive in getting 1800 calories a day which is less for a male, but Im not that tall as well and asians in general like me have smaller, thinner frames. I limit my carbs mostly, and avoid all sorts of junk and processed food. I exercise in moderate amounts daily as well.

From what started as a healthy lifestyle, it spiraled into an obsession of being fit and healthy. I remember eating a piece of chocolate fudge and suffering extreme anxiety and panic attacks since I just ate a sugar loaded carb. Everytime I eat at gatherings and celebrations I struggle so much because I definitely avoid carbs and fatty food which are pretty much the bulk in most celebration. 

Then I discovered purging. During a christmas party, I once ate 4 cupcakes in a row and its so good and bad at the same time. I feel like Im throwing up and deep inside Im slowly breaking down because of the horror I've done. I went to the bathroom and I somehow imagined my face getting bigger and fatter because of what I ate. I cried and I forced myself to puke it out. It felt so cleansed and somehow I imagined that my face was ""thinner"" again when I saw my reflection in the mirror. And now Im doing the purging binging thing whenever Im in gatherings and celebrations. I still follow my diet strictly and recently also did intermittent fasting. So that's all I guess and thank you for your time in reading this.",5.204051003344482,6.800146721153848,6.190178372352285,74.84322742474919,68.96794871794873,8.759420289855072,34.719063545150505,9.20300075937882,3.4434889632107017,1315,66,220,26,23,436,182,312,0.158,0.708,0.134,-0.887,1,2,0,0,0,0,25.0,0,2,0,1,19,18,1,5,15,0,11,13,2,1,2,50,27,37,0,0,4,1,2,2,0,0,1,0,0,1,14,24,10,3,7,2,0,3,2,10,2,0,10,4,34,8,32,16,11,37,0,2,1,0,7,19,0,7,16,161,48,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08623672738947102,0.08972852055302899,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08249454822696257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1226794688840529,0.0,0.0,0.09003888681987328,0.1972081993724263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11845321804244935,0.06954555471535441,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12358985299462512,0.0,0.0,0.1103540737045122,0.1263834536750181,0.0,0.0,0.3310306652796737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10548468804311928,0.0,0.0,0.05452532223497601,0.07703834326764761,0.10353985172761676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26079239759235584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1126801328659246,0.0,0.0,0.09044805319301158,0.0,0.0,0.11879394842214162,0.0,0.09535936936568044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5824090656562859,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05926406339816497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10536683269009584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15854431861080534,0.0,0.0,0.10414906379371394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11484224296465112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1265227767438551,0.11973955683142185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10970838321216124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10786557864623006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10647543214868847,0.0,0.12215761588256165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08920338160637288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07632715653433747,0.0,0.08611828561139577,0.0,0.0,0.11273401550341045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09928126569943084,0.0,0.0,0.07164171023273799,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12576054009305382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07321383471479917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19391574232252246,0.09996542000169084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Liquipidgey,2019/02/17,"My boyfriend made me feel so small and skinny today. 

My boyfriend came over and we were lying in bed. I had only eaten 150 calories that day and it was already evening. He put his hand on my hip bone and slid up my stomach and began gently rubbing my ribs,  then my chest bones like he was fascinated by them. 

It made me feel so skinny and amazing. I’m going to keep restricting. 15 pounds to go!

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EDAnonymous,lavenderthin,2019/02/17,"eating ice to curb cravings does anyone ever eat ice ?? i mean i just always liked to chew ice even as a kid, almost like i’m eating cereal LOL but now i find myself eating ice when i’m restricting or trying to stick to restricting

it also feels really good now bc i feel like i’m working out my jaw w/o actually eating calories so hopefully that jawline comes thru",2.6242857142857154,4.881463561643837,4.803170254403135,79.20068493150687,77.76712328767123,7.4590998043052865,21.38747553816047,8.418075326091056,1.5511228962818011,292,8,52,6,7,101,53,73,0.08199999999999999,0.701,0.217,0.8798,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,1,8,5,0,0,1,1,0,7,1,0,1,15,8,6,0,1,3,0,2,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,2,6,3,4,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,6,5,7,8,0,6,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,3,7,26,8,1,0.0,0.0,0.1514666311445139,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1554245615207299,0.0,0.0,0.12412470840914835,0.1291506158313334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1085293502231738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1337032560301847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13582895818950338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7941141793866088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10251748942701726,0.14040009472914694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15696188684816845,0.1108850275733926,0.0,0.0,0.14186293113784396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1301862740924052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15416268375511807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2274893965639485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1690737238306654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09943416597009283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10538022673851576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11299775774036222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Rayotap,2019/02/18,I threw up for the first time in 3 years tonight Does this mean I'm going to relapse??? who knows!!! I got fucking food poisoning from a restaurant. guess this just means I should never eat ever again!!!,1.3099999999999987,3.9253589743589785,1.6725128205128217,96.96415384615385,87.46153846153845,4.1456410256410265,20.620512820512825,5.6839178017228535,-0.0949425641025643,156,5,32,1,5,47,35,39,0.153,0.847,0.0,-0.7774,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,1,3,2,2,0,2,0,1,4,0,0,2,8,10,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,3,0,2,0,3,0,0,2,1,2,0,1,2,0,3,0,5,7,0,11,0,0,0,1,1,2,1,1,7,19,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2318582893121024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2711085435760807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2396611607499819,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22536512825415744,0.32037687668864656,0.0,0.0,0.24494069446706365,0.0,0.0,0.15057638472870696,0.0,0.2119035843076816,0.0,0.29187073332166386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14560881150423968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5772133556426603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20434467977732532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15449364865561888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17061819994128233
EDAnonymous,krysalism,2019/02/18,why can't alcohol be zero calorie I mean it's probably a good thing it isn't otherwise my budding alcoholism would've been full blown by now but wouldn't it be damn nice if I could get drunk without worrying about the calories i'm ingesting?,5.768911564625852,6.1471277959183706,6.6738775510204125,76.30564625850344,66.9591836734694,11.431292517006804,36.74149659863946,11.20814326018867,4.336341496598639,198,10,38,6,3,66,41,49,0.063,0.7120000000000001,0.225,0.79,0,0,2,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,0,2,3,1,0,2,0,7,4,0,0,0,6,10,2,0,3,3,0,0,0,1,1,3,0,0,0,4,0,4,0,1,1,0,0,4,1,0,1,1,0,3,2,3,5,1,2,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,1,1,24,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6106290200869386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22809930966473616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14926063906918408,0.0,0.0,0.2396222631049999,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3111989233760342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30802091314074737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1897989855242976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2577897619764812,0.0,0.0,0.2753938682241288,0.0,0.0,0.2901309071199681,0.0,0.20294517081498287,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,TrueRusher,2019/02/18,"Life hack: get the flu so that your taste buds will be killed for a week thus preventing a good binge Seriously though eating like a normal person is so easy when i can’t really taste the food. 

The flu was horrible tho 10/10 would not recommend ",9.802499999999998,6.975784250000004,9.011666666666667,73.20000000000003,60.66666666666666,13.766666666666666,32.333333333333336,12.161744961471696,3.5092583333333334,196,4,40,5,2,62,41,48,0.301,0.5479999999999999,0.152,-0.7887,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,1,0,0,5,4,1,0,6,0,6,7,0,1,0,5,7,5,1,2,1,0,0,1,1,2,3,0,0,1,1,0,4,1,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,1,2,2,2,1,3,0,2,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,3,22,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32865703164385784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3883836042602338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1678082510648791,0.0,0.0,0.26939850411078736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3553485806971202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2268656343357743,0.15691696010874798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31469750361486104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28045027238659964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20576221077525628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3155670415531845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2576388337173096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2281637971598133,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,redneck_ancap,2019/02/18,"Lifting on very little food I was a fat strong guy, started eating a lot less and now I’m a little less fat , a lottle less strong, and have no energy. I’m still lifting, rather irregularly now, but it sucks I lost the muscle because even though I’m down nearly 30 pounds I still look like a fat mother fucker. Also, literally none of the fat on my face is gone. I still have no jawline and fat cheeks. A baby face is a death sentence for a male. Why is it so fuckin hard to look good",3.2719094766619534,3.979722386138615,4.757934936350782,86.64940594059406,72.66336633663366,6.9595473833097605,22.34936350777935,6.868970318607317,0.4846848656294198,375,8,82,3,7,126,63,101,0.215,0.6559999999999999,0.129,-0.9103,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,3,10,8,3,0,10,0,6,12,8,0,0,6,15,7,1,1,2,1,1,1,0,0,5,0,0,2,2,3,7,0,0,0,0,1,3,4,0,0,3,3,5,4,7,12,5,13,0,1,2,2,3,6,3,1,7,51,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16277722695746047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1240809447778932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20828037489854745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1344415053009762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24613099648337414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17072636831365748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20154447830819847,0.0,0.0,0.18233898777714524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0994432497485901,0.40801705196828025,0.0,0.0,0.3418580365312641,0.0,0.22219663890325486,0.1730491933368303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14407229098682608,0.0,0.4876609820376288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1999848334039169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1679483810532353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18367037052563626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,SayBone,2019/02/18,"Dumb ED thoughts. I just found out that the prosecutor decided to charge my ex who sexually assaulted me. This actual assault happened awhile ago, and the arrest came out of the blue.

I think most people would be bracing themselves to have to recount what happened in front of strangers, and to have to face their abuser again. But not me!

When we were together, he always complimented me when I lost weight and encouraged me. Honestly, all I can think about is how I want to try to lose more weight before the preliminary hearing.

In my head, he'll be impressed and it will make him feel bad for how he treated me. But I know that's not how it will work in actuality. He probably is just scared and mad, since, you know, being a registered sex offender is on the line. He'll be scared and mad no matter how I look.

But that's not stopping me from fasting.

Do you have ED thoughts in totally inappropriate situations? Is this just me?",4.381739824421388,6.127174312849164,5.2176576217079,80.42733240223465,71.23463687150839,8.913168395849961,29.54549082202713,9.424239791934726,2.643609417398244,738,30,144,17,14,240,109,179,0.209,0.716,0.075,-0.9823,0,0,0,0,1,0,22.0,1,2,1,3,11,16,6,2,6,0,17,5,2,5,2,40,35,15,0,2,9,1,3,0,0,5,0,1,0,0,9,10,2,1,9,0,0,2,4,11,0,0,6,6,21,5,19,20,4,15,0,2,2,1,14,7,1,1,6,99,30,1,0.0,0.18421236141163194,0.303442196460312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13781913924553865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1293675915478404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1298150672912481,0.0,0.0,0.1322977089968348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17782189398579287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07861279303875293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17047022920756755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2749719235383637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15956212647079762,0.0,0.17523153884457146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17088990434491932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13055977874263702,0.17393667093447546,0.1697192454910359,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1037807190071314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10778673613582347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16762826415291412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3113150433512671,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12861046371002302,0.17476032864344054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1299839981133432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19924410690660216,0.0,0.24685944576884336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10555726770773673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09170313835142917,0.0,0.0,0.3786531443214305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11318759631985005,0.0,0.0,0.11044492516775116,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,imTired1029,2019/02/18,"The pressure maintaining a weight is making me binge like crazy I'm on accutane and I have to get monthly blood tests and they can see my triglyceride levels and all of that in the tests. And I eat like crap, but had finally gotten to maintain a reasonable weight but then after my first blood test the doc said my triglyceride levels were a little elevated, not bad, but that I should pay attention to then. 

So that absolutely wrecked me, because after it just threw me back into my disordered eating habits. I felt like such a disgusting person so I tightened up and stopped eating such awful food (even though it was under my calories) and started eating healthier but then I just snapped or something and ate terribly again the last 3 or 4 days before my latest blood test, and I'm so scared to see my doctor Wednesday because I'm scared she's going to tell me that I'm too unhealthy to have the medicine anymore because I couldn't control myself. 

I felt like a failure and I'm so scared of what the blood test results will be that I've binged all day today. I feel so awful and completely out of control. IDK why I'm posting this but I just want to say this somewhere. I'm just so frustrated and scared. ",5.263983050847457,6.310633661016954,5.462500000000002,82.17052966101697,68.32203389830508,8.103389830508474,30.85169491525424,8.278499904357787,2.23755593220339,968,38,181,13,16,306,129,236,0.244,0.7,0.056,-0.9951,0,0,1,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,1,3,17,14,3,5,11,2,11,14,5,5,2,40,32,28,0,3,12,0,5,4,0,2,1,2,0,1,10,13,8,3,5,0,1,2,2,10,0,1,9,9,24,4,18,19,2,30,0,0,2,0,6,9,1,2,22,116,34,7,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10915538567139617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08463356405092114,0.09190008256143473,0.2012846942496592,0.0,0.09365762105426624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1154015669701766,0.0,0.2468956010379729,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1419662647075548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1261445814704889,0.11265668780185438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4504978762554556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07269721480981782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05565241632882042,0.0,0.21136025240299802,0.12057135889165248,0.0,0.09362164533930033,0.1330916213906483,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057504673142662034,0.0,0.06255275160248748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08971806054381834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2150897454525042,0.11031453124019464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07346956592983589,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08785322006474333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09610493610428457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10541230974826568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1131656499911972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10469748100572253,0.08752849140072393,0.4407790063754319,0.0,0.1754158826846023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08473378768895369,0.0,0.0,0.07790491680797793,0.0,0.0,0.09201967389102116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09620208524860424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10813878020870844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.104329210188809,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06491947476891367,0.0,0.0,0.2680602179037838,0.0,0.0,0.09931698064826752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,p34chesncr34m,2019/02/18,"Scale :( So I’m babysitting my friends kid earlier and went to use the bathroom. I try in earnest not to weigh myself or know my weight (I communicate with doctors not to tell me anything about numbers). It’s been a few years since I’ve known a number. I’ve been in recovery a few years now... but my usual resolve failed me when I saw a scale in her bathroom and well. I did it. 

Sometimes I see my body differently than it actually is and I’ve been struggling with that a lot recently so I wanted to know if the mirror struggle was true. 

It wasn’t. It was a 10 pound difference between where I thought I was and where I actually am, which is frustrating. I can’t unsee that number but it’s showing me how much my mind lies. 

I’ve been very stressed and anxious due to unemployment, which is probably why the difference between what I thought and what I do weigh. I realized getting dressed this morning that my clothes don’t fit right because they’re too big. I thought it was because I don’t wash my jeans often and they’d stretched out or something. 

I don’t go to irl EDA meetings in my area as they’re all pretty unhealthy. Anyway. I’m frustrated with things right now. I’m mad at myself for stepping on it. ",2.6079955290611068,4.617134926229512,3.72725782414307,88.09412071535023,76.78688524590164,6.731445603576751,29.533532041728762,7.686295010490155,1.8415311475409841,958,45,197,14,22,310,133,244,0.174,0.731,0.095,-0.9758,3,0,1,0,0,0,25.0,0,0,1,2,13,11,3,3,9,0,20,6,1,2,2,34,35,17,0,2,7,0,1,0,1,0,2,0,0,1,17,11,3,0,8,1,0,3,7,7,1,0,15,3,31,4,22,19,5,26,0,1,2,0,6,15,0,5,8,129,48,3,0.0,0.0,0.26400591087029146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15281537948543086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11131479743337457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16491735908535735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15025327853310014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4239816999938572,0.0,0.1384534738583349,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10450843385709978,0.0,0.07067242890802082,0.0,0.07687644584398437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14868052426920209,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11500080051794573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1365830507364496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0994382221675667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1376171240834603,0.1458427769161107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13356174185439867,0.0,0.0,0.23103784117694626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1077918177850492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1118958503968518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1041366250652111,0.13378442301969468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15495009352380748,0.2828248953401735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1182310003513674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08986666139800634,0.0,0.0,0.3221652439775109,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09183871898912098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11682891771281192,0.14897960731706855,0.11161102744478604,0.0797851150978599,0.0,0.0,0.16472110576017746,0.12162300633547535,0.12539564621806354,0.1220591626842354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1742175020527434
EDAnonymous,ShrinkingSkye,2019/02/18,"I suck I've been such a fuck up lately that being sick and unable to really eat or drink for 3 days didn't even bring me back to my recent low weight. I feel like trash, mentally AND physically",2.979674796747968,3.976156073170735,4.705853658536586,85.66577235772358,73.6341463414634,8.393495934959349,18.54471544715447,8.841846274778883,0.7468959349593498,153,2,34,3,3,52,37,41,0.266,0.677,0.056,-0.8519,0,0,1,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,3,4,2,0,1,0,3,5,0,0,0,4,7,3,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,3,0,1,1,0,1,1,3,0,0,2,2,4,1,4,4,0,7,0,1,0,1,0,2,2,1,5,19,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23768730024548995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19935104094146924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3028111276407361,0.0,0.31629775129480864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20416491869721728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15629582350303226,0.22082898016515606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2857681644355098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34869070351055115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15101603447875514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31151121253240177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19802443977582945,0.0,0.3052098487158592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3764139571059141,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ketothrowaway95,2019/02/18,"Tips for restricting when you have guilt over food waste? I’m torn between wanting to eat food in my fridge just so it doesn’t go bad, but simultaneously not wanting to break a comfortable fast. I feel shitty eating for the sake of eating/to get rid of food in my fridge, like a human garbage disposal. Especially if I know I would feel fine not eating it, but I feel guilty wasting it. 

Earlier this week I broke a fast to eat a 100cal Greek yogurt because I noticed it was 3 days expired and I didn’t want it to become inedible/waste it. I’ve cooked food after cutting around mold/ruined parts of fresh vegetables so it doesn’t go to waste. :( a head of cabbage usually takes me a week and a half to eat. 

I don’t eat out very much and I’m one of those freaks that actually loves leftovers! I would almost rather eat expired food and get sick rather than throw it out. I’m financially secure now, but I used to be very poor and I think that when this mentality started. 

Anyone else feel like this, and is it a subset of food hoarding? 

Do y’all just stick to frozen foods and packaged food, should I just give up on fresh food? Or force myself to be okay with throwing out food? 🤷‍♀️",3.87284110324628,4.850803352697099,4.725545521113009,86.43260434464243,71.4896265560166,7.662289480107398,25.794727849646076,7.928766900206844,1.2655548450085423,932,28,199,12,17,302,137,241,0.17800000000000002,0.701,0.12,-0.933,0,0,0,0,0,0,24.0,0,2,0,0,11,12,1,1,9,1,13,22,1,1,0,39,34,16,0,9,12,0,4,2,0,3,1,0,0,1,15,12,19,2,6,1,1,4,6,5,0,2,2,4,18,7,30,27,2,25,0,1,0,1,5,9,0,3,13,113,33,0,0.0,0.0,0.06371113207321809,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06537594908954897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.045650502118133436,0.06689470647509146,0.0,0.058119671058299134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05451229258003438,0.03979862273241207,0.07210485768053823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.042105003295614105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4676375131244683,0.05453928586048695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13204518286148442,0.04664136637415881,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7894584208178667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06821999457892759,0.06262966982005537,0.07420872325683743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06700375776375674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03588027437417648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06379229924648817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058924471415922386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06579439248651088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.047993786841813914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07433019303191467,0.0,0.0,0.044240464870543804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07069994469306294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04621079220054871,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.049088036275824816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04183356091543849,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05638739361429716,0.07190490096759433,0.10773796521330108,0.11552468629327202,0.0,0.10473930648809814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09275666069204208,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,influenya,2019/02/18,AN Stress I never actually wanted this. It just kinda happened. I got sad and slept so much that I didn't eat. Weight dropped and dropped again. BMI is really low and my psychiatrist is going to find out in a week and now I'm stressed and so I get depressed and I'm back to ground. Not to mention my hemoglobin is so low I have no energy and I'm tired all the time. Idk what to do anymore,-0.4061883899233294,1.81383002409639,2.1382694414019703,93.17154435925522,92.13253012048193,5.427820372398687,19.593647316538892,6.980632752743323,0.3570819277108441,304,10,70,5,11,104,58,83,0.262,0.7140000000000001,0.024,-0.9588,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,7,6,0,2,3,0,6,4,1,0,2,15,15,10,0,1,2,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,4,8,2,0,1,0,0,1,4,6,0,0,3,1,7,0,6,12,2,14,0,4,0,0,1,5,0,1,6,45,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.229385033923954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2331167454406333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18074693140644704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20245717048715864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2405254630695441,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21484093906174206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.122809352632406,0.0,0.13359023727721964,0.0,0.1879992680031427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2078631276228325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17279643391356905,0.0,0.18129306469254064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15058570565610646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5385217678242232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13706560440345594,0.2701673408825667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13864470892351247,0.0,0.18855126718148,0.2862402308208425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,queerjihad,2019/02/18,"No, you don't know what it's like to be bulimic I'm a fat (formerly?) bulimic dude. I haven't binged for 4 months and I've lost 24kg.

I meet up with a social worker on a weekly basis. He knows that I've been bulimic since I was 13 and that I've been in inpatient treatment for it several times. Today he asked me if I still had urges to binge, and then he fucking told me that he knows exactly what it's like to have urges like that because he's fat too.

It made me so mad but I didn't say anything. I really wish I did though. He's not even the first person to say something like that to me.",0.9836363636363644,2.2239791818181835,3.3036363636363646,92.75045454545456,79.15151515151516,7.2242424242424255,21.090909090909093,8.00094639256281,0.6839,460,12,113,8,11,159,78,132,0.049,0.847,0.105,0.7705,0,0,1,0,0,0,13.0,0,1,0,3,5,7,2,0,4,0,10,3,2,1,1,13,20,8,0,2,3,0,0,4,0,0,2,2,0,1,11,4,2,0,3,0,0,0,5,3,0,1,9,2,12,4,11,10,0,11,0,1,0,1,14,3,1,1,12,62,23,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16072784816606822,0.0,0.18259343783696605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11906239270158775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.129003912149364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16613509255101375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18056584556818855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3220205392409069,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3816847550373636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2132097198762271,0.0,0.0,0.18481205732605094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15589880730534264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17054178439643633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12512398111917308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3106451284210801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22065069225028566,0.0,0.16156683269142846,0.0,0.0,0.19909934949466893,0.0,0.15036325850591464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1559790491401617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19189628844074508,0.0,0.11388992084436007,0.0,0.1851360647174617,0.18663213712267365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1566701506761174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22460295339208505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,BohemianBougie,2019/02/18,Bento box recommendations? Does anyone have any amazon bento box style lunch box recommendations? I want to get some containers that are cute and fun to eat out of.,5.00436781609195,8.104656103448278,5.6765517241379335,71.58195402298853,74.17241379310346,8.004597701149425,20.011494252873558,8.841846274778883,1.6040252873563223,133,3,22,3,3,43,24,29,0.0,0.713,0.287,0.8253,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,5,4,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,4,4,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,10,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3696128312103847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3800424313211891,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4756387779712391,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5561575423793079,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2839672227197188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32058269255467803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,frickingdarn,2019/02/18,"First time in about half a year that I’ve gone more than 24 hours without eating and I’m conflicted. So I’ve been ‘recovering’ for a while, and it went pretty well, with ups and downs but I usually just kept eating, I’ve maybe ‘successfully’ restricted about three or four times but that was it? 

This is gonna seem weird but I feel like it’s different this time? And I’m so fucking conflicted, I haven’t really eaten anything since yesterday evening, I’ve been restricting a bit this week too. Since yesterday I’ve had 4 pieces of gum and 2 glasses of Tonic Lite. Somewhere I’m really proud of myself, I’ve never gotten rid of ED mentality and I hate the way I look now. And somewhere else I’m so disappointed in myself, because I was doing kind of well, and I might be throwing it away, I’m also disappointing my boyfriend and I really hate that.

But if I’m honest, the minute I started ‘eating normally’ again I wanted to get back to restricting, at the beginning of trying to recover  I  kind of thought  the feeling/thoughts would fade away after a while but it never does, even when I’m eating healthily, food and calories and insecurities are on my mind 24/7, and it’s incredibly frustrating. It’s as if restricting is the only way I can feel as if I’m actually doing something to help myself find control and maybe eventually feel less revolted by my own body, even though it always just gets worse.

I just wish that for once it just could be actually over, and that I could go an hour without thinking about food and calories.

This sucks",5.326196013289035,6.241027491694354,6.234981727574753,77.1665589700997,68.1029900332226,9.74093023255814,30.332392026578074,9.888512548439397,2.8813600000000013,1229,46,234,28,20,407,162,301,0.162,0.757,0.081,-0.9828,1,0,1,0,0,0,28.0,0,0,0,4,22,17,5,1,10,0,18,9,1,1,2,56,50,34,0,9,15,0,3,1,0,3,0,0,0,0,18,16,7,8,7,0,0,4,5,9,2,4,11,4,20,8,33,32,5,38,0,2,1,1,1,9,2,6,24,154,38,1,0.0,0.0,0.1855430763457542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0760249306224411,0.0791032400741495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07823192249941756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17863688177398604,0.07310054435444384,0.0,0.05795187321118035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10378838496063104,0.10559784604127223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10662556301974012,0.1518062981622219,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0993246308663302,0.0,0.0,0.08319364657709331,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3891085097749261,0.07941615971150727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1883722859332348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14420597692763595,0.06791578112350534,0.0,0.0,0.086889384360929,0.0808638193890057,0.2299104399483468,0.0,0.0,0.08788777674629826,0.09933701733567038,0.0,0.054028685241932384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18771767765392905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06372130984286375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18724340735680425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19799500307255788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.046444863967257465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07983221607776048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19101486997956085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0958050311695755,0.10085091122505488,0.0959904243309911,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1466428405017715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09314533455209922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10124309929436298,0.0,0.07230262807948626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.096717169991113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1827067873817325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08654529549820912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15728057182141258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07318711051267575,0.0,0.0,0.06728881018320845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060915002874441175,0.09340270361680587,0.15094492963489267,0.16630274521727395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06454415506350791,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10470271125093167,0.0,0.05607289493275831,0.15091929103831986,0.07625689776548393,0.0,0.17095304173693512,0.08812792820799492,0.0,0.0,0.1093221930325039,0.18328211397538907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09688124834066217,0.06753276710176136,0.0,0.0,0.06121993855664136
EDAnonymous,sugahoodie,2019/02/18,"DAE pick apart food to make it look like you're eating? In the middle of a 24hr fast and my coworkers are giving me brownies and dried fruits so im just picking off pieces and pretending im eating it, i feel bad about it but im just going to finish them at home when my fast is done and i can try them",0.016460554371001024,1.90686356716418,2.0562899786780378,97.36776119402988,84.97014925373135,5.0226012793176995,15.541577825159914,6.18269132825596,-0.7046571428571431,237,4,57,2,7,79,50,67,0.036000000000000004,0.89,0.07400000000000001,0.1027,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,2,0,5,2,0,0,2,0,4,4,0,3,0,11,9,7,0,0,3,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,3,4,4,0,1,1,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,3,7,1,7,8,1,10,0,0,1,0,3,5,0,0,5,33,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17700639383186825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21694378197022005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4338462071107878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1071906928463209,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.256344361125536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20336425927147467,0.12048125177706115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2126475778776285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6869706995803488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10356971161399976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17802182825875112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14150784807989095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14393022080997886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,SoFluffyle,2019/02/18,"I'm so not doing ok Last week I set new rules and it worked out ok. Until I broke one of them and ended up in a 3 day binge where I found out: I can totally finish one whole damn cake on my own. Then I saw the movie Burlesque and some pictures on instagram  and kind of feel like dying. I'm ready to bite the dust now. Sorry for the useless rambling but as y'all know, peach is still down 😑",2.221666666666668,2.714445662790701,3.720930232558139,93.91457364341088,74.93023255813954,6.663565891472868,21.310077519379846,6.42735559955562,0.062696124031008,301,6,74,2,6,100,69,86,0.124,0.833,0.044,-0.5349,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,1,1,1,4,7,1,0,4,2,3,0,0,0,1,13,9,9,1,0,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,6,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,3,0,2,2,2,8,4,13,7,4,19,0,2,1,0,2,8,1,1,11,46,9,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.174777785583334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2812635906017245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24003271107348456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.137029823364725,0.1936082197695873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2971463612257342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2822132016595835,0.14893894811532393,0.22090774848492026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1324008541371137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2617412833206409,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3672841647328104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3033713472524861,0.0,0.0,0.21642739523752386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2173863272613826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.302570832542136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1972971030699928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,carcinogenickale,2019/02/18,"I have to gain 5 pounds before my doctors appointment tomorrow.. so GOD HELP ME PLEASE, when I've been doing okay and not binging, I HAVE to gain weight.",2.41,4.759872000000001,3.256666666666668,89.525,79.0,6.666666666666668,23.333333333333336,7.793537801064563,1.2003333333333337,120,4,24,2,3,38,25,30,0.0,0.511,0.489,0.959,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,2,2,1,0,0,0,1,4,2,0,0,0,2,4,3,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,4,1,2,3,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,14,4,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3840645836492297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.461974619992225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30252958524434204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4954454426534366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5496212418340563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ghosttatt,2019/02/18,"I ate way too much 🥺 I feel so disgusting I can't believe I ate so much food. I'm not allowing myself to have so many snacks at home I feel so bloated. I feel like I ate over 3k calories every day for the past three days and I really don't want to eat today. But if I don't eat I'll be weak tomorrow and I will physically not be able to work at my best (server, I have to carry heavy trays with plates of food) i know I should eat but I don't want to binge againg. I finally made it to the lower 160s but now I'm fat again",-1.3265357142857148,0.4938462750000028,1.7161904761904765,98.02500000000003,90.41666666666666,5.428571428571429,15.238095238095234,6.868970318607317,-0.4709404761904761,403,8,105,6,14,142,72,120,0.099,0.858,0.043,-0.6062,1,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,2,7,4,1,0,2,0,10,11,1,2,0,18,22,10,0,4,6,0,3,1,0,2,2,0,1,0,1,3,10,0,4,0,0,0,6,2,0,1,4,3,17,2,12,14,3,12,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,1,9,61,18,1,0.16799939228687472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1892777852232009,0.1763049974662386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2166914195641516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5157159582112081,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1415467337560673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25483662167154675,0.12001879941760912,0.0,0.18403512250485116,0.0,0.0,0.4062910640164144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16851708829691225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0923280724371946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08207601709428311,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15896508703720913,0.0,0.1703250152316078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2469977671773573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16037442946529415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1076247125692688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15924378023462016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19818078856992594,0.1333500978692786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12230555844795005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Pinkshake,2019/02/18,"I want my boyfriend to sleep with other women. He fell in love with me when I was skinny, and I'm his first partner. I want him to sleep with other women who are tiny enough for him to easily pick up. I want him to know how amazing sex can actually be, I feel so guilty for not being the same person he fell in love with, because he's still as amazing to this day, my whole world, my hero.",5.9690963855421675,4.025776481927713,6.577198795180724,84.86531626506026,67.31325301204821,9.263855421686749,27.978915662650603,7.1686216300943375,1.2404240963855415,300,6,70,2,4,99,55,83,0.038,0.691,0.271,0.9652,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,2,4,5,0,0,1,0,5,6,3,2,0,14,13,5,0,3,1,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,4,5,1,0,2,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,1,1,13,5,15,10,3,10,0,0,0,3,14,4,0,0,4,48,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.23577673464134166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14728335544700386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15581861232184796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24964795709961365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1221653933429592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20551354070079544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13278266536304278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.43612533661926217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2109647360504596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4835694418947765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19295024411591352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4275239258563253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2697491966637978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,MrsBluebeard,2019/02/18,"Don't Y'all Just Love It When You Purge and Get Low Blood Sugar But gain 1 lbs. according to your scale. I swear all that ramen is up, but the big guy upstairs says I'm gonna be a big guy as well today, and a diZZy one at that. ",2.9970512820512814,2.1671235769230783,4.331538461538464,94.88012820512823,72.84615384615384,7.702564102564103,21.179487179487182,6.42735559955562,-0.06148205128205132,174,2,47,1,3,58,45,52,0.141,0.764,0.095,-0.0859,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,3,0,1,3,3,0,0,3,0,3,3,1,0,1,6,7,6,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,2,3,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,1,0,2,4,2,4,5,1,7,0,1,0,1,7,5,0,0,2,26,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1869783469123389,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7087180316404085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3230020854160474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24250981077277345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2846017851320771,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3392298780201431,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3217785071560653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,AbandonedDragon,2019/02/18,I’m a fat loser Even if all my calories come from alcohol losertown tells me I won’t hit 100lbs until fucking September and i can’t wait that long. I hate myself and I want to die. ,0.7149999999999999,2.7240568461538466,3.0381410256410284,90.64644230769231,83.1025641025641,5.951282051282053,22.570512820512814,7.1686216300943375,0.8110974358974365,143,5,31,2,4,49,33,39,0.28,0.687,0.033,-0.8934,0,0,1,0,0,1,2.0,0,0,0,1,1,3,2,0,1,0,2,3,1,0,1,7,9,4,1,2,1,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,1,3,2,1,0,0,0,1,2,3,0,0,0,0,7,0,3,7,1,3,0,1,0,1,1,0,1,1,2,19,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40045617675895495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.322783631651458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38889481577631385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2474955997898211,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34641780629654617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3699533001254081,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33161081768019396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32751726255156755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22101650507527487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,halconpequena,2019/02/18,"Purged for the first time in over a year last night I’m not okay, I’ve never been this upset over someone. I’m sorta in a breakup Idk, i just wanna write this here. I am not even numb this time I just wanna bawl my eyes out. And the worst loneliness is the person you care for sitting as far from u as they can. This is killing me.",-0.6833333333333336,1.4069228888888932,0.9688888888888912,102.365,90.94444444444444,3.755555555555557,14.944444444444445,5.033348758259628,-1.2292055555555557,256,5,63,1,9,82,51,72,0.221,0.711,0.068,-0.8972,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,1,1,1,4,6,1,1,5,1,5,2,1,0,1,11,8,3,1,2,4,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,4,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,4,0,1,1,1,7,2,12,7,1,14,0,0,1,0,4,6,0,1,7,43,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3433387176424233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22241997193152133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2864390855003955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37256360092775853,0.0,0.0,0.27449591514765515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2597220947877878,0.0,0.0,0.31601674025811083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29403681071848753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.285326890869773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3927228651508867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21685573779537465
EDAnonymous,That_Occult_Guy,2019/02/18,"Being a gay man with binge eating disorder makes me want to fucking die.   I’m 6 feet and 195 pounds, while it seems the gay ideal is a smooth guy with barely 120 pounds because he’s “just naturally that thin.” My best friend fits that description to a T and it triggers the fuck out of me. 

  As if that weren’t bad enough, the guy I’m into keeps showing me porn stars that fit that image, and I’m so obviously not that. Every time i see myself naked I just cry and realize I’ll never compare to the ideal... I’ll never be good enough. 

 Side note, my aderall does nothing to kill my appetite so I’m still a fat fuck except now I’m a fat fuck with adhd and high blood pressure 😂 

  Sorry this is so disjointed, I know nobody will probably read this or care, I just can’t understand how other lgbt people cope. Our body ideals/icons/standards are so unrealistic it’s unfair yet we’re expected to match up to that perfectly. I don’t know, I guess I’m just venting. ",1.2158569011360891,3.4602884923857893,3.1629876722262544,89.09404399323181,82.85786802030456,5.985883490452019,20.54846507130771,7.2636822038024595,0.6163378776891464,751,22,157,11,21,252,127,197,0.173,0.703,0.123,-0.8596,1,0,0,0,0,0,20.0,1,0,0,4,12,14,5,1,9,0,9,13,5,3,4,36,29,14,2,5,8,0,2,0,1,1,2,0,0,3,13,10,3,1,5,2,0,0,6,7,0,0,1,3,14,7,15,25,3,15,0,0,1,7,6,8,4,4,7,86,27,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16627296758278795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11551866171654428,0.08433847520648488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1451925427940293,0.0,0.0,0.15367857545788294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14105972048347046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15197386049048253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14358818023887832,0.0,0.1585640929595806,0.0,0.12107331325789845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14156927371742709,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2859104883412497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11656805248625113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10689089379807024,0.5116190845503669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11604361658342208,0.0,0.0,0.15241101291271278,0.27398169827327684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1461771429239554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12297416877846333,0.15306667937147114,0.0,0.15206996739833953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0923514505815212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2134121449844895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13275307373910675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09591628898723427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14916752843001851,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1383900637890038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11024912843797142,0.1259510323681037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1548744350287557,0.0,0.0,0.11048858392767028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08067452742592579,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14402996043928748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08160396199462121,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,olivegreenblack,2019/02/18,"I just stopped a binge/purge right in its tracks and... I think I'm ok. About 6 months ago I was going through one of the worst phases of my eating disorder where I was binging massive amounts of food and purging multiple times day. That period of time was one of the most painful months of my life. 


I've been ""recovering"" since then (not by active choice actually, I had a big medical procedure that broke me out of the habit, but all the same) and I've only had a few small binges/purges. There's still the issue of restricting but what can you do :/


Anyway, today I was feeling particularly on edge and anxious, so I got drunk and then ordered a bunch of food from McDonald's knowing full well I planned to purge it back up.


So I got the food, I took a few bites ravenously as if my body hadn't eaten for days (that jerk) and then just. Stopped. Mid chew. I just spit out what was in my mouth, threw everything away, brushed my teeth and watched a movie. Heck, I'm even a little proud of myself, I'm not even anxious about what I did eat. 


It's gonna be okay. Maybe eventually I'm gonna be okay too. ",2.4099859649122806,4.070281048888892,3.3981988304093598,91.79126315789476,76.28888888888889,6.870175438596492,24.28654970760234,7.669130373188453,0.9461111111111112,856,28,193,12,19,274,137,225,0.125,0.8,0.075,-0.8736,0,0,0,0,0,0,34.0,0,1,0,2,16,9,1,0,13,3,14,15,4,0,1,26,29,16,0,1,8,0,1,0,0,2,3,0,0,0,9,9,8,3,3,1,0,3,3,4,1,2,15,3,20,5,25,10,9,34,0,1,1,0,1,14,1,2,16,120,29,0,0.0,0.0,0.13024171048457608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1183078730792052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3015528909473638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12539391658311982,0.10262565568692804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14824852926630838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17214660831571385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15296142292876933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2731341900505814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17630356041681572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11994892847388873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06748345978754673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4841559633516226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07585072447574592,0.0,0.2134868680464564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.139301846741979,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07334837971138576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09426964178231834,0.0,0.13376609182510096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13408262859546036,0.0,0.0,0.13445104096942118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21305954474344596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18087745829883148,0.1015054631955596,0.14201521374980947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1139776133131094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11040288381249394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10658460373666873,0.2231639297024395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08551840709761557,0.0,0.0,0.15564798156820076,0.0,0.12650836252723452,0.0,0.14828352737536826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12000025550330405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ryanhennessy91,2019/02/18,"DAE C/S & flush/wash away said C/S just to get it out of your house. I constantly have started C/S just to get the bad food out of my house.

I feel more at ease if I C/S and flush/sink away because then I know that I will not see it again whereas I have been known to get food that I've thrown out in the bin (Whole not C/S)  and eat it.

DAE do the same thing?",0.5786434108527132,0.6633348488372128,2.4860465116279085,102.7680620155039,78.4186046511628,6.198449612403103,18.984496124031008,5.46131890053228,-0.7681178294573643,271,4,82,1,6,91,51,86,0.046,0.918,0.036000000000000004,-0.1832,0,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,1,0,0,3,1,0,0,3,0,5,3,0,0,0,14,13,4,0,1,5,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,6,5,3,0,3,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,2,3,8,0,12,10,3,11,0,0,1,0,2,7,0,1,4,46,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21287765560088068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3691843877484813,0.0,0.1640461643367643,0.1197676908479426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21231675887116205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2010402128642332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09934229850895544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4751501714898101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3079460038848233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4534053120030221,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10797603820812623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18689014956247152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15656298621342382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13906410559294255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13052746635704274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21935430717516172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,certifiedsnax,2019/02/18,"Treatment for laxative abuse? Sorry for the TMI in advance

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I've had an ED for about 6 years now, occasionally I would take laxatives because of real constipation but as I would see my weight go down I wanted to take them more. When I went to college, I took more and more, specifically laxative teas. But today I had an awful experience on the toilet where I was almost crying on the toilet because it was so painful. I go days without a bowel movement and its so frustrating because I just want to feel okay again. Is there any way to somewhat reverse the treatment and stop feeling constipated and in pain all the time? I'm already planning on throwing away all of the lax tea bags I have but I don't know what else to do from here to get back to a somewhat regular bowel. 

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Thank you, and I apologize if this isn't appropriate for this subreddit, I just made an account because I have no one to talk to about this. ",4.401703296703296,6.056485983516481,5.42945054945055,79.29054945054949,71.03296703296704,8.057142857142857,31.68131868131868,8.634040054169528,2.624259340659341,747,34,138,13,14,246,112,182,0.17600000000000002,0.76,0.064,-0.976,2,0,0,0,1,0,21.0,0,1,1,2,13,5,1,0,11,2,12,7,2,1,2,27,28,13,0,5,7,0,3,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,6,5,3,1,3,0,1,7,4,3,0,1,7,4,17,2,27,19,7,25,0,0,1,0,4,8,0,4,9,102,23,1,0.0,0.15570930706000455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13159653812907196,0.0,0.14502346557848247,0.0,0.0,0.2847835497387152,0.3193754660628058,0.08936901437116779,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12347190708479855,0.10105263292492686,0.0,0.3204457325256735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14435693475130149,0.08475399208394435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1097832048516948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1285524064331034,0.0,0.0,0.13289817725926872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0686606867112089,0.0,0.1493762035668755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07222411239178013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12435126185867715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08905250483185838,0.0,0.2796768735606234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14958290339009395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10472344513025514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14711213257289665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10987166181476236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19762055396257389,0.10562912696520944,0.0,0.12099240047208608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07663112231360199,0.0,0.12456927105437796,0.0,0.1460106711170575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15502794729417246,0.10431380404391226,0.0,0.16003219943159272,0.0,0.12182616775678558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12668264202969431,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1867117128772519,0.0,0.3193754660628058,0.08462913694123235
EDAnonymous,annaeatk,2019/02/18,"I’ve found my new thinspo So not like I was really even looking, because I’ve been “recovered” for like two years (personally don’t know if I’ll ever fully recover), but I just found the Australian show Love Island on Hulu and man does it make me want to lose a solid 50 lbs. all the girls on that show are so pretty and thin and always wearing bikinis! I’ve never been confident enough to just flaunt around in a bikini like I just want to be that thin and pretty so I can be that confident. 

I know that’s not really how it works, but I feel like it makes it easier to be confident when you’re not carrying unnecessary fat.",3.110859375000004,4.534303367187501,4.889500000000002,82.80550000000002,73.921875,8.557500000000001,23.7375,9.120678840339163,1.7664100000000005,493,14,101,11,10,168,80,128,0.159,0.665,0.17600000000000002,0.6717,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,2,11,6,0,0,4,0,9,3,2,3,3,27,20,12,0,3,9,0,3,4,0,0,1,0,0,3,8,5,1,0,5,2,0,0,5,1,0,1,5,4,8,5,9,12,2,11,0,1,1,1,4,6,0,1,9,62,16,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14834455793573276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1587084057333634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10867879754358613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15601541369193006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18421253171789215,0.0,0.1177533033957274,0.16126589759301252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09014452454357166,0.1273643976932219,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3909531048763161,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19595778983295065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3483975021579231,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14971162738699748,0.19945148742330832,0.0,0.0,0.16090608819381474,0.0,0.2380086805229297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1375017466306316,0.17218546268984902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15566860062686325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36275292424628375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2284234929828815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1741552001366403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2103101921787179,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12979111490737671,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11480749351764563
EDAnonymous,CrushedOats,2019/02/18,/r/thinspo and /r/edfood posts are showing up again I just checked my post history and omg my thinspo posts are back?? And my edfood posts are back but they have the tag “quarantined” on them. Is anyone else seeing old posts again? I hope we get proed back!!,1.6708666666666687,4.2857234200000045,2.056000000000001,95.16466666666668,84.8,4.933333333333334,20.333333333333336,6.42735559955562,0.16733333333333356,201,6,41,2,6,61,34,50,0.0,0.9,0.1,0.7162,0,1,0,0,0,0,10.0,1,0,2,0,6,1,0,0,1,0,5,0,0,0,0,7,8,4,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,8,1,2,8,0,13,0,0,1,0,3,2,0,1,6,26,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1208354847766945,0.17706824483539482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39864962546671934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14436382384737992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09028812098359942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1716431784371663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1813390992743955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8275396463953779,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13771029007486218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,mimooly,2019/02/18,"Just want to be normal Hey guys I just feel like I need to get this off my chest. I’ve been overweight my entire life and near the end of high school that turned into being obese and being diagnosed with diabetes.  I never had a healthy relationship with food, it’s always been something that comforts me emotionally and recently I’ve realized that I will never know what it’s like to have a normal relationship with food. 

After my diabetes diagnosis, I went all out in losing weight, I was/still am on “Keto” (not really because I was too scared of the fat so it was more like protein and veggies) and lost about 60 pounds since August. Everyone always says how amazing it is including my parents but the truth is I was starving myself. I would eat one meal a day consisting of a salad and chicken and as time went on I started thinking even eating that was too much. When I binged on snacks I would fast for the next two days to make sure my weight went back down. 

When I was on holiday and back home I started binging really bad because I knew I would never allow myself to eat those things in college. I gained about 10 pounds during the break but lost it again by restricting near the end of break. After I got back to college I broke down and bough $40 worth of junk food and binged and ended up giving it away to my dorm mates to prevent myself from eating it again but I was seriously considering asking for the food back. Along with the stress of school, managing my diabetes, and trying to get to my goal weight I just feel so hopeless. This I’ve been binging for the past few days and I feel pregnant and I just really hate myself right now. I guess all this post is really for is to get my feelings out and to try and find some reassurance. Please tell me things get better? ",5.911378517316017,6.103786872159091,6.2670292207792215,79.98587121212124,66.64204545454545,9.31839826839827,28.693722943722943,9.107695989026183,2.16622683982684,1417,42,277,23,21,457,178,352,0.124,0.768,0.108,-0.8722,1,0,1,0,0,1,23.0,0,0,0,6,21,19,1,2,13,0,23,23,2,3,7,62,50,25,0,7,8,1,7,3,1,4,8,1,2,1,18,24,17,2,9,1,1,3,4,10,0,2,17,8,39,9,50,26,6,52,0,5,0,0,11,18,0,2,31,193,57,7,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12723141331752244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07147400549709627,0.0,0.07183088492151052,0.23515308763023826,0.06383575006599282,0.09321108371976658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06761719490812486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1479191760075264,0.0,0.0,0.07759902263274368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31292539715271034,0.0,0.0860002622760908,0.2031461877053792,0.0,0.0,0.050497030097780934,0.0,0.0,0.07305490576584266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15462940360081853,0.05461862757332829,0.0,0.0,0.06987741061028398,0.0,0.3697930727447013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15977587136149254,0.07334147510818538,0.0,0.0,0.06114710772565126,0.0,0.0842225072817593,0.07570130641118876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07548232351230047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08077766330042345,0.07668941974169004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0420170225621381,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05400159732604831,0.11205443060906962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08553227360097503,0.16691676186166518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05103352159687948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05620235797378082,0.05668954220100751,0.1768977082902727,0.0,0.08130950981613444,0.0,0.1498170308559824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051807090192235485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08489292452265514,0.0,0.07298382651513782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0839233407626076,0.0,0.0,0.07322163018157199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19591311101367115,0.0,0.07548892833837262,0.1641655911592408,0.0,0.06529114847525637,0.0,0.0607991499569637,0.0765436159061908,0.1547507043483785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06324339376449231,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05885788937611704,0.0,0.0,0.10822882112084152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08757759777342716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07205682489546626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0668240125426647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10158504775534234,0.04898852373613991,0.0,0.0,0.04458083995199128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10381425669059396,0.08315980690080495,0.0746842774629462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04509444660175943,0.0,0.0,0.2793004847623889,0.0,0.21262038409813336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16293181029397732,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,cocainecalories,2019/02/19,"fasting is just... easier? TW:


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I’ve been fasting these past few days and I’m just realizing how easy it is to just not eat for me than restriction. I’m horrible at math so counting calories is draining and dry fasting is so much easier than doing so. Plus your weight is accurate no matter what time you weigh in the day bc there’s nothing there to fluctuate it.  I’m starting to get scared bc when I do break, I’m probably gonna gain it all back and I just don’t ever wanna eat or drink again???? But I know I have to bc I work and need hydration and sugar and carbs and calories and idk just wanted to have a go at a short rant. 

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EDAnonymous,spaghetti_girl,2019/02/19,"vent into the void hi frens,

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i used to be fairly active in proed some months ago. i'm working through recovery now, but still struggle a lot with food and body image and other areas of life. particularly with sometimes feeling like i can't say the things i just need to get out of my system. 

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the ed community has always been so supportive, despite it seeming like everyone has been through hell and back at one point or another. i wanted to create a space where people could get everything they need out and get on without their lives without fear of judgement or backlash or whatever. 

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so i made this site: [https://www.this-void.space/](https://www.this-void.space/) 

with those things in mind. mods, let me know if this isn't allowed, but i just wanted to share this with you all because i feel like you guys are the people i had in mind when i created this. 

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cheers,

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EDAnonymous,Eau_De_Chloroform,2019/02/19,"That one food that's oddly safe Avocados. Still on my safe list, some how, some way. I don't know why - foods that are half the calories per serving and much lower in fat make me physically ill to think about. No corn. No bananas. No oatmeal. But avocados are still safe?

I still eat half of one almost daily. It's probably what's keeping me alive at this point. 

How? How does one irrational food stay off of an irrational fear list? 

Avacados, please don't go.",1.1076666666666668,3.708297655555554,2.5438888888888904,90.18250000000002,89.11111111111109,6.1111111111111125,20.833333333333336,7.492282038375204,0.9246666666666674,359,12,74,7,12,116,64,90,0.194,0.675,0.131,-0.6747,1,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,0,0,7,4,0,1,2,0,4,6,1,4,0,15,9,5,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,6,1,5,4,2,0,0,1,5,1,0,5,0,0,5,3,8,9,3,11,0,0,0,0,0,5,0,3,3,44,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16743571760468612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14632577286005785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17109660942221055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1881566763666923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6065695674764561,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09502876060748792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14862309293545292,0.0,0.0,0.09189372500679542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11161334415870512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1229178964487121,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33991555392724226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18354533299653705,0.15806660590818186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1802796445873524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1782226072269211,0.4006001074982975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10714081232291472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1327227667572552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15088016652344066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,prismaticraptor,2019/02/19,"I just want to eat like a normal fucking person, it that so much to ask??? God I've been struggling with this stupid  bullshit for years and it's been getting worse and worse. 

I hate seeking help and I know I should but I feel like every time I reach out I end up doing something worse

I wish I didn't binge eat every other day, I wish I didn't have panic attacks over fucking food! I'm so sick and tired of this crap but clearly I'm not sick and tired enough or I would be getting better!

(Sorry for the rant, if this isn't an appropriate post I can remove it)",0.4828894634776972,2.6087766554621865,2.060672268907563,96.5925856496445,84.96638655462183,3.9976729153199737,18.397543632837753,4.713530739802397,-0.6759054945054954,438,11,98,1,13,142,77,119,0.3,0.487,0.213,-0.9522,0,0,1,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,1,3,11,6,2,3,0,11,10,1,0,1,22,24,11,0,7,6,0,1,2,0,2,4,0,0,1,8,7,3,0,2,0,0,1,4,8,0,0,4,1,13,3,9,17,2,9,0,0,0,2,3,3,3,2,6,59,21,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1313088499101922,0.15979074149565328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12422328979309673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09058350070129424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2874462800988665,0.0,0.0,0.1244037002716886,0.14513019696452992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.236683089385784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07101955811734692,0.10034290257621303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16984182833028524,0.0,0.0,0.25970148539281346,0.14676654656446206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13867275270240592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09414573578950176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07719179680658997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13724092937271795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10325246131725324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13761857812388895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16479667295509162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12264211592709505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1345195079081197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10813108497792573,0.0,0.15723072903618796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14683672902185224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08190192758070823,0.32287058571608485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08284550277309091,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3230385039650801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4294147326096698,0.0997770143830214,0.0,0.0,0.09045005783176883
EDAnonymous,terran400,2019/02/19,"I’m tired Everyday is a nightmare and just dreadful I mean, I get anxious whether I restrict, binge or try to eat “normally.” I never win. I don’t wanna live like this anymore, and I try to do that. I tell myself in the evening that I’ll do better the next day but I never do. I’m suddenly in a different mindset in the morning and it’s like I never learn from the days before. I wanna get away from my eating habits desperately but I can’t and I don’t fucking know why. I’m so mad because I feel like I could just stop it but I can’t cause I’m irrational. And I don’t wanna be irrational. GAah. I’ll probably read this tomorrow and think oh hey haha i can definitely eat more calories than i did yesterday. Sorry if this post is a mess cause I am. I don’t think if this is even worth posting but I’m just so tired I’m so fucking tired",-0.9307777305567342,1.194517955801107,2.0542817679558034,92.73367934551636,95.96132596685085,5.2155546111347215,20.77369315767105,6.8449194561589275,0.6186929876753084,654,25,146,11,26,229,92,181,0.218,0.6709999999999999,0.111,-0.9559,1,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,0,2,8,11,3,1,7,1,17,8,0,2,3,35,32,17,0,7,11,0,1,3,0,0,3,0,0,0,8,6,3,2,6,1,1,0,9,5,0,0,1,1,22,6,12,29,1,17,0,0,0,2,2,4,2,3,14,92,30,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13939917109922348,0.12237287797401455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11593195460774533,0.0,0.0,0.07521933732646187,0.0,0.1049985079720494,0.0,0.0,0.109131240403866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25351757246346585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09851941375678132,0.0,0.0,0.15915678626965582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1289196103590217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3787860853095397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1630000634829651,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06239129943498909,0.08815211255558739,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2281500134382949,0.12893568752726414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0678136648009984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18085102497570935,0.0,0.10895843874191982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13441134713564748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2855052824440521,0.0,0.13123004695657442,0.0,0.12089911769597125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23635311512006946,0.0,0.13303871823223826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12342657209879515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1381285628315157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10316222378778493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1078510782272665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1581307348860988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4254669261433112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16755173916403518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11134315250560144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,schizodepressive2,2019/02/19,"Telling my therapist tomorrow AH! I had an eating disorder for a loooooooooooong time from my childhood into adulthood. Then I recovered and got fat for about 10 years. Now, since June, I'm back to heavy restricting and purging. My fiance knew I had issues with eating in my past, but this ED behavior is pretty new for him (we started dating 8 years ago). He's getting more and more concerned and he wants me to tell my therapist about it. Sp....I'm going to try to do that tomorrow. 

The issue is I don't want treatment. I don't want to recover. I don't know what to do. I'm sick, but being sick is the only way I know how to live (even when I was in recovery for those ten years I only ate 1 small meal a day). Any idea of what response I should expect from my therapist? Any tips on a reasonable way to disclose this? Anyway to chill me out from this life-ruining confession?!

P.S. I don't know if this is an appropriate flair, but it's what I'm feeling.

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P.P.S Whatever happened to our chat?",1.9897761194029824,4.218785228855722,3.5931815920398016,87.20141417910448,79.79601990049751,7.20407960199005,24.97537313432836,8.238735603445708,1.6947629850746282,785,30,159,16,20,260,121,201,0.08900000000000001,0.879,0.032,-0.8661,0,0,0,0,0,0,39.0,2,0,0,0,8,0,0,0,7,1,15,7,1,2,0,27,32,11,0,6,4,0,1,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,11,8,5,1,8,1,0,1,4,0,1,1,6,1,22,0,26,24,2,27,1,0,0,0,9,6,0,1,18,99,33,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11597798256116988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14176046134995113,0.1589797355024825,0.17794556910707487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10060460217739488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08437822360240563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14994908436134075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26775523476225443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08641576728289442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06615447745533996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06835627011262174,0.0,0.07435696181107662,0.0,0.1046412872402601,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11569760603470038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14769761645486554,0.0,0.2731170247877562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21571169056590175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09241314703847177,0.0,0.0,0.11553034869600863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12636196560277044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.199012940288034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12489751090974445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1331069761054097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13452092352699152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10822866982771308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09260620477254213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22871239380273556,0.0,0.0,0.4557311083010038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07629136769246428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08882887398971277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2315109143493845,0.20770262889132166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1589797355024825,0.25276176606642675
EDAnonymous,snoopplatypus,2019/02/19,i can’t eat without binging i starve myself and then if i try to eat something small or normal sized i eat basically everything in my kitchen. I can’t vomit (i know this is probably a good thing) but i just feel like i will never be able to look at unhealthy food as anything but evil :(,2.43186440677966,4.114959983050852,4.0120000000000005,87.31562711864406,76.28813559322035,6.753898305084746,27.0542372881356,7.554174236665415,1.4554176271186448,225,9,47,3,5,75,46,59,0.222,0.672,0.105,-0.8921,0,0,1,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,1,3,1,0,1,0,5,6,0,0,1,11,8,7,0,2,6,0,1,1,0,1,1,0,1,0,2,1,5,0,2,0,0,0,4,1,0,0,0,2,10,2,6,6,0,5,0,0,1,0,0,3,0,2,3,32,12,0,0.21704609450039794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17861044224804407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6662770208724036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19506703452399335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10974502688485023,0.15505777327894454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26245299901023345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1820479663847288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1192828572916722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10603775835118796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18226405492459133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1673993285460024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21265908936107664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2340123998272605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16709268745917386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14419578084629986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14736005088594506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2092246897904393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,feistaspongebob,2019/02/19,"Can I please vent for a minute, I need it (possible abuse TW) I’ll just start off by saying this is gonna sound incredibly whiny and I’m sorry in advance lol. My life is just in complete shambles right now. I’ll try to nutshell it because I could write a trilogy on the shitstorm I call my fucking life. 

I got out of a 3 year relationship 2 weeks ago. he beat the shit out of me. I tolerated it for years because I thought I could change him (shocker, you can’t) so i just took it. even after him hitting me countless times, throwing coffee in my face, stealing my money and a billion other things I don’t even want to type, I stayed. but the sad fucking thing is what made me finally leave him is when he called me a fat, used up whore nobody will settle for. how pathetic is that. I hadn’t eaten for 2 days during that and he knew it. anyway. 

I feel like a loser because I’m at my parents house now (where there is endless amounts of food, just great) and I don’t even know what to do anymore. all my stuff is stolen, I have nothing left except my phone and my makeup. he demolished my car and shattered my windshield that I can’t afford to fix, let alone the bill for breaking the lease on my apartment. yet I’m still fucking worried about my body more. He says he doesn’t remember calling me fat and would never say that (plus the million other terrible hurtful things he screamed) which just makes it worse because he can’t take accountability for it. but whatever, it’s over so it doesn’t even matter I guess. the words “fat” and “used up” keep replaying in my mind and I feel like shit. I wish I could enjoy dinner with my family and be normal. 

now my mom is worried about how skinny I’ve become recently. she won’t stop freaking out over all my bruises either since she keeps trying to see how thin I am. none of my clothes fit at all, and my mom is trying to force me to eat food. im seriously at my breaking point. I can’t cope anymore. the only pet I had was my cat and I had to give her away because my family hates them but I had nowhere else to go. I miss her so fucking much it is killing me. I feel like I literally have nothing, I don’t even have friends to talk to about this. I want to get better, I want to eat more, I look up pictures of food to salivate over late every night but can’t actually eat because I feel like I look awful. 

I lost 60 pounds the past few months, I’m bordering on underweight bmi territory but I still feel the need to lose another 10 lbs. I tell myself that every 10 lbs I lose. im just so fucking sick of this life and the endless cycle of achieving something impossible. this really sucks you guys. 

again I know I’m just complaining and a lot of people have it worse so I try not to say anything but I can’t anymore. im trying to sleep but can’t stop hearing “fat and used up” over and over and over again. one day, one day without crying and obsessing over fasting would be just so nice. ",1.9086948694869468,3.7719316336633684,3.4278829882988333,90.11095139513954,78.37293729372938,6.18945094509451,24.384518451845175,7.13173024886023,0.9027350495049502,2294,81,493,27,55,756,282,606,0.17,0.738,0.092,-0.9952,2,1,1,0,1,0,59.0,0,2,1,8,37,34,10,1,18,2,44,29,11,8,4,86,95,36,1,12,19,3,6,4,1,5,8,7,1,1,29,23,13,4,10,0,3,5,18,25,0,4,12,17,80,9,66,71,11,70,0,7,3,6,38,33,8,2,33,312,109,2,0.0,0.07037513507942862,0.057962411971297124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05265140985442536,0.0,0.0,0.061516856728173336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.062282404848991675,0.0,0.0,0.17671609091704096,0.0,0.0,0.048878255233495184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05580496313080892,0.0,0.0,0.21724531569038052,0.06559876319899775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05253137383703108,0.0,0.0659761169866567,0.0,0.0,0.1819513897849284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06283361699005585,0.0,0.062276095907483675,0.0,0.0,0.14226980656803612,0.0,0.06524426172457473,0.11491747835850075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1823323310357616,0.04961815075005948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1961541268704416,0.0,0.10008821912651517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1119874604029998,0.0,0.1501632650132258,0.1697314742156108,0.0,0.06506595800360902,0.0,0.0,0.21546743590618256,0.0,0.04588958540914191,0.2745555168826378,0.03103221761872963,0.056978531154720416,0.033756397424657525,0.0,0.04750480376114253,0.06548484644089053,0.06543193667707951,0.05881186926551955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058641742827399077,0.0,0.0,0.06694416770873754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06853558156657356,0.06358517735091766,0.0,0.19247522425347527,0.0,0.0,0.10558866935734064,0.06571342241351598,0.0,0.06528552161117314,0.0,0.06700183452808284,0.06289231300330336,0.06453446660990605,0.06073694131488391,0.12586050489609688,0.1160725106963069,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09975619436767302,0.13289897180056345,0.06483829171659575,0.050496776793191284,0.0,0.056202400587585966,0.03964762224857901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059973528842482686,0.13912891630837024,0.047409716368471334,0.0,0.04366325875030594,0.08808349823022432,0.04581023933205576,0.0,0.0,0.0557395877928244,0.05819595493234491,0.11398507953699673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08049720565885511,0.04517371165649056,0.0,0.0,0.06595277961882152,0.0,0.056700676210143124,0.04117805155528681,0.0,0.0,0.06519951608822731,0.05614888728942201,0.06696062466335816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03805091622115744,0.0,0.058646874075271686,0.06376960810102345,0.06728465122353812,0.05072428297954528,0.0,0.18893791022846465,0.0,0.0,0.04733131715874082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12193929902453272,0.04913339521225693,0.0,0.059439391359949335,0.0,0.0,0.045726324410182005,0.0,0.06648951432075116,0.042041145524930185,0.06330876169647252,0.09486823673609332,0.09931626037787822,0.0,0.0,0.0679947773423343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.044658772947426296,0.04774065352197653,0.05191515544143595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1183811779046602,0.0,0.0,0.04715418310825216,0.034634574425469154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06599169244868032,0.2016316092096496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1538985055972728,0.0,0.0,0.10510077661295072,0.0,0.047644286286376535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0683030390026263,0.05725610249888925,0.0,0.0,0.12064004956448166,0.12106020745610012,0.08438713306703294,0.0,0.0,0.07649879196494724
EDAnonymous,AmbiguousCat,2019/02/19,"It’s weird to not have an appetite. Started taking nuvigil(armodafinil) and it has done wonders clearing the fog in my head. It has also completely killed my appetite. 

I normally get hungry around noon and can’t get food until later so I end up binging after not eating all day. Now, I still have cravings but I’m just not hungry. Other things seem more interesting or I get focused on something and forget or I feel sorta like even if I want something I don’t have any desire to actually eat. 

After being in a crazy b/p cycle for years, it’s weird to not have that drive to binge. I still feel hungry, but it’s definitely more physical than mental now.

Anyone else have their own experience with stimulants? I feel great about this (which might be bad). I’m usually so food obsessed that I’m glad to be focused on other things for once.",3.2478732106339483,5.500862049079757,4.5019877300613516,82.14030265848673,75.74846625766871,6.800654396728017,24.36359918200409,7.793537801064563,1.4320907157464218,666,22,122,10,15,219,103,163,0.081,0.737,0.182,0.9665,0,0,2,0,0,0,19.0,0,0,1,0,11,9,1,1,3,0,14,5,1,1,2,29,28,12,1,4,10,0,3,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,13,5,4,0,5,0,0,1,6,5,0,0,1,3,12,4,19,23,4,21,0,0,0,0,1,6,0,7,15,86,25,0,0.0,0.0,0.1454469315564831,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11919165186442268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10135606745360312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10421609601073696,0.15271475294132542,0.0,0.1326821160356563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1244467870820987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1562713964275019,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09612203288877064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15252531877056127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3050215610514957,0.12450841037596765,0.0,0.13201009539730854,0.0,0.0,0.09844316306082926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14579512227405994,0.0,0.0,0.2260856860769583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36045287899586254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2336104043223229,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1643232166216885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.152963707477252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16489678961003093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07281611455021501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15020283252522285,0.15811374772104414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1460329683675088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1587286189670898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1356854474850543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22948505248921405,0.0,0.0,0.1054951891710214,0.0,0.2380558963328112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11206368526377718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19803844704048748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1641525879274983,0.0,0.08791091181716726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16163351315253616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09598043094367044
EDAnonymous,clearandfull,2019/02/19,"Instagram Truth of Overeating Can we talk about all the before/afters on Instagram where the before is “1200 calories, sad, mad, bad, cardio, tired, restriction” and the after is “2000+ calories, no workouts, happiest person alive” but they look way thinner?

Is there any truth at all to this or do we think they were just underestimating before (or airbrushed the after?)

Believing in this “eat more to lose” stuff was what kept me eating more than I “should” have for a long time because I thought it was ok if they were doing it. 

Once I started to doubt that any of these girls were telling the truth, I got real (got restrictive) and got where I had always wanted to be. 

Dark but true. ",7.4727790178571425,7.248954023437502,6.844553571428572,78.55937500000002,63.453125,9.501785714285717,31.566964285714285,8.841846274778883,2.4084651785714284,537,17,100,7,7,166,90,128,0.134,0.737,0.129,0.2715,0,0,0,0,0,0,20.0,2,0,3,1,5,10,1,1,6,1,15,4,0,0,6,25,24,7,0,3,6,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,2,8,4,2,3,2,1,0,0,1,5,0,0,11,1,11,5,15,11,4,12,0,2,1,0,9,6,0,4,5,71,19,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15053030357585034,0.0,0.0,0.24604786801385065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15105098003501655,0.11028009799713584,0.0,0.3078794937651524,0.20382184681586926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3702289694168139,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.43406698622877865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16009826508125885,0.1519175157686785,0.202390255283194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19266157059375402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15796226053497248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20591339587565308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1280479157951236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2070968670079753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14540734097174374,0.15812193910162925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11591881529022208,0.0,0.1436210834087005,0.10548915863870913,0.2079276241869525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10670447744862016,0.1435966887965345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,cersm,2019/02/19,"I just want to be where I used to be... ...and I wasn't even happy back then. But I used to be so thin, and I didn't even realize until I got fat again. relapse sucks but whatever. I feel like I'm too old to do this again but here we are! ",-2.42942857142857,-0.7509346181818158,0.7761038961038977,103.4927272727273,95.1818181818182,4.5974025974025965,13.311688311688313,6.18269132825596,-1.122922077922078,176,3,50,2,7,62,36,55,0.076,0.8290000000000001,0.095,0.2366,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,1,0,0,0,10,3,1,0,0,0,7,1,1,2,0,12,14,8,0,1,4,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,3,1,0,2,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,3,2,8,2,5,8,0,8,0,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,7,37,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2488670144269466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.42753578937047865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16364725806732994,0.2312157567353774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2588526188429923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3445316400387161,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15811913212236406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33961642519384266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5590596887868485,0.0,0.0,0.19089726452007064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,barkinglambs,2019/02/19,"Peach is reaching out for someone to adopt and maintain the app The tweet: 
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EDAnonymous,peptobismolveins,2019/02/19,is peach down again for anyone else? it was working for me for a little bit but the loading times were suuuper slow. it isn't working at all for me now/crashes when i open it ://,0.634729729729731,2.7719113243243285,2.6877702702702737,92.26787162162165,84.40540540540543,4.781081081081081,22.763513513513516,5.985473137389443,0.2959243243243246,137,5,30,1,4,46,29,37,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,2,0,4,0,0,0,1,3,4,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,3,0,6,2,2,8,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,4,22,6,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2663238893270909,0.3902620470140174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4158281484218637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3181808317003635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3817471779718194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22209730773311226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5545781351269496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,hotoutthekitchen,2019/02/19,"anyone else develop a horrible gag reflex when heavily restricting?? I've been going between fasting and eating 500 calories max in a day for the past few weeks, and ur girl nearly puked on the dental hygienist today when she stuck that suction tube thing into my mouth. I can't even get through brushing my teeth in the morning without gagging like crazy. Does this happen to you guys too??",8.176250000000003,8.279806347222229,7.655000000000001,72.24000000000002,61.91666666666667,9.977777777777778,37.444444444444436,9.516144504307137,3.7294611111111102,315,14,50,5,4,99,64,72,0.209,0.765,0.026,-0.9236,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,1,0,0,4,1,0,0,5,0,2,3,2,0,0,5,6,4,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,3,3,1,1,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,2,1,5,1,10,4,1,13,0,0,0,0,5,5,0,0,8,32,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20780016308349145,0.3045033519888624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19166112409493255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2600704749931574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.304096644168823,0.24826172704384136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1962893077129612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1552680183272833,0.0,0.1688983042846213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2942619991640256,0.26280161256050816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14519062849065048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2836987591776968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1974379350555163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28169866611500044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2383856032202665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2864778044989193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,hmmsecretaccount,2019/02/19,"Peach is back! (For me, for now)",-4.877142857142856,-5.7747808571428525,-2.424999999999999,118.6825,143.28571428571428,1.4,3.5,3.1291,-3.5598,22,0,7,0,2,7,6,7,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,6,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,unecessarilymargie,2019/02/19,"Have you ever met someone with a healthy approach to food? Could you give some insight as to what their life is like? I realized that I literally don’t know anyone with a true healthy approach to food, everyone I know is either successfully or unsuccessfully on some kind of diet. What does a healthy approach to food look like? 

1) what do these people eat in a day? 
2) Does their weight fluctuate?
3) How do they eat in social occasions?

I’m just so curious I seriously want to shadow someone like that for a month. ",3.4809090909090905,5.741556484848488,4.790909090909089,80.30636363636366,75.06060606060606,8.036363636363637,29.181818181818183,8.841846274778883,2.538139393939394,408,18,77,9,9,135,64,99,0.043,0.705,0.252,0.9658,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,2,3,1,4,7,0,0,5,0,7,8,0,1,2,16,14,4,0,2,3,0,1,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,6,2,7,0,4,0,0,3,1,1,0,0,1,2,9,6,13,12,3,9,0,0,1,0,8,3,0,3,6,48,15,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11478294827675355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13106664298375406,0.0,0.0,0.1058681984037424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2873111881770402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3359488160241715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14849012528139047,0.0,0.15685980952715836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5955007779469078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1574751167674453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17094508392891047,0.18043366388344215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11594950649688975,0.2405976225381844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1378512049886692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13102918712951014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11380634680308813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1673382008061501,0.2781807367791748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09682452164618173,0.0,0.0,0.19989997195212533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,leointheskies,2019/02/19,"Since Peach is back, let’s have a new username exchange thread! I’m brand new and my account is leolio. Add me and share your account here!!",0.5735714285714302,3.0718563571428597,1.4685714285714295,97.00142857142859,92.57142857142857,4.228571428571429,21.285714285714285,5.985473137389443,0.15325714285714342,110,4,23,1,4,34,24,28,0.0,0.8859999999999999,0.114,0.4724,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,1,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,4,0,0,0,0,3,5,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,4,0,3,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,3,12,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3125580825279379,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41565341039875797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7851619671160035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33624451350894696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,smallmadscientist,2019/02/19,Peach is back up and running! Yay for one of our safe spaces being back and running! ,1.105882352941176,3.5459963529411773,2.301470588235297,93.70161764705885,85.47058823529412,3.4000000000000004,20.264705882352946,3.1291,-0.4285058823529409,66,2,13,0,2,21,14,17,0.0,0.685,0.315,0.7835,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,1,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,3,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,2,3,1,0,6,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,2,11,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.9151042849310356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4032172462840079,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,dolllheart,2019/02/19,"A Revelation I know that loving to cook for others is common among ED sufferers, but I only now realized that my incessant desire to feed others is not out of some sick satisfaction (as I previously thought), but out of this weird maternal instinct to want to feed others the way I wish I could feed myself. It just feels like eating and food in general brings me so much pain now, but it makes me so happy to know that I can still make my friends and family happy with my cooking. 

I offered to make chicken noodle soup for a friend, and I remember distinctly sitting him down at my dining room table, bringing him napkins and a drink, sprinkling spices and parmesan on top for him. He kept saying how amazing it was, and I was convinced that he was just humoring me, but when he left and I went to grab the bowl to clean it, it was completely empty that it almost looked like he licked the bowl clean! Another really close friend of mine that I go to community college with comes over maybe once or twice a week after classes, and she literally jumped up in joy when I said I'd make her quesadillas again.

I put so much love and energy into the food I make for others because I want them to experience just how enjoyable food can really be. I just wish I could experience it with them.",11.656848888888884,7.100326595999999,11.149733333333335,64.59975555555559,59.040000000000006,14.791111111111107,41.77777777777778,12.261556223090626,4.841004444444444,1019,35,193,23,9,337,141,250,0.053,0.6459999999999999,0.301,0.9977,0,0,1,0,0,0,19.0,0,0,2,1,15,17,0,0,8,0,11,15,0,7,1,52,34,22,0,7,10,0,2,2,3,0,2,2,3,0,18,17,11,1,6,3,0,7,1,3,0,1,8,7,33,14,33,23,3,33,0,1,1,2,19,15,0,3,11,137,51,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11355763777722627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11891389072210096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06912997282975142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09768742964017567,0.11890184525303348,0.0,0.0,0.18108759365029328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11109266148693718,0.0,0.11604051438744613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22186157497248246,0.10690711655158187,0.0,0.05734042585398244,0.0810157781556142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4113853854815289,0.0,0.2628467457794493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06445005719127304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.241441148398134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12464764970828013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12321368336475982,0.0,0.0,0.1108068473451374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0952307254725584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2047029182581616,0.0,0.378489962846625,0.0,0.11392947319965148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1667298490542713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12077146631506765,0.0,0.08624878606495529,0.12066975907570693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11400225500523525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1452989011702167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12846452673543518,0.0,0.10787309056333677,0.09018334337219117,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09056451146665094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09003003963671476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1337771322442516,0.09001474767645308,0.0909657786453054,0.0,0.0,0.10512656356008217,0.0,0.0,0.26081780675099275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,---t-away---,2019/02/19,"Catch me bringing 4 of my boxes of tea to school Why eat when I could drink, y’know, black tea, green tea, green tea with lemon, chamomile with spearmint, peppermint with lime or green rose? Can’t wait to drink so much I feel sick ✨",2.8528260869565223,4.762324500000002,1.977608695652176,101.366847826087,75.73913043478261,5.469565217391305,20.195652173913047,5.985473137389443,-0.38937391304347857,181,4,42,1,4,51,35,46,0.08199999999999999,0.918,0.0,-0.552,0,0,2,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,8,0,0,0,7,5,3,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,7,1,1,2,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,5,4,0,7,4,1,3,0,0,4,0,0,0,0,1,1,17,4,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27450696142334696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6736123292930447,0.0,0.35180686168942776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17384234613326813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18895081037997047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2527423514768605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34795743737260915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.310238046534307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ellewoulds,2019/02/19,"I thought I was recovered So for years now, like five, maybe even six, I maintained a board on Pinterest with what I see now is fitspo. At the time I created it, I was actually OK. I was eating balanced meals and was working out in moderation like a normal person should. I didn’t realize that the Pinterest board would be a wormhole back to unhealthy habits, but it all came back really quickly in different ways I hadn’t seen before. Like, instead of purging, I just wouldn’t eat during or after work because I sit down a lot at work. The calories matched up, none of my coworkers disagreed or looked at me funny for not eating, and I was steadily and slowly losing weight, so I thought I was still doing the “normal” thing. 

TLDR: Up until like, two weeks ago, I thought I was ~recovered~ ",7.312828947368421,6.664256730263157,7.5792105263157925,74.56447368421055,63.93421052631579,10.494736842105263,36.10526315789474,9.827888789773867,3.468181578947368,621,26,114,11,8,203,99,152,0.059,0.821,0.12,0.7761,1,0,0,0,0,0,21.0,0,0,0,4,11,6,0,0,8,1,15,5,0,0,1,22,22,9,0,5,5,0,1,4,0,3,0,0,0,1,5,6,5,0,4,0,0,1,5,1,0,3,14,4,18,5,18,4,3,25,0,1,3,0,1,10,0,3,16,88,23,3,0.0,0.0,0.1421844674203363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12915633450154687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2240722137818776,0.0,0.08881879497554299,0.0,0.12398196107248312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16664466304937492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15222793563187376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4472696097371886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09623502236306496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2847312172527998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12235327072888995,0.16300365084471252,0.0,0.12387092031882578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1463775856922733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28551471813046364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1272216645354578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09334065084179467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1161059019740442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1163580780774568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09679816143205217,0.0,0.0,0.3470141519580631,0.08496020699507698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.142330016198949,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1156517367414517,0.11687362966546473,0.17742619942253154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3182191196028495,0.0,0.0,0.10350276294753558,0.0,0.0,0.09382753084206852
EDAnonymous,FancyForager,2019/02/19,"For all the guys here I know that the guys here often feel marginalized or forgotten as people who struggle with an ED, so I thought I would tell you about the band Silverchair. I'm sure a lot of you are aware, but some of you younger guys may not know about them. The lead singer Daniel Johns suffered from anorexia and he wrote some songs about it. Supposedly the only song he wrote about it was Ana's Song, but I find lyrics in some of their other songs seem to be referencing ED type thoughts as well. I just thought listening to music by a guy who struggles like you do and spoke of it publicly would make you feel a little less alone. Love you, stay safe",6.7311886586695735,6.092715946564892,5.67040348964013,87.74076335877865,65.10687022900764,9.012431842966192,30.164667393675032,7.957251820313856,1.6320438386041445,523,15,114,5,7,155,88,131,0.08800000000000001,0.795,0.117,0.7264,0,1,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,6,2,1,10,8,0,2,9,0,7,1,0,2,2,32,22,8,0,2,5,0,2,1,0,3,0,6,0,4,7,3,0,1,9,5,0,1,1,3,1,0,7,8,13,5,17,11,6,4,0,1,0,1,24,2,0,8,1,71,20,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16254677933393294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15871132824632206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14344408494262728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.621597425106436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17250477087806138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07667497083871408,0.15729924173063098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13342828081654254,0.14164819832077813,0.0,0.1047614206498204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.119363077550733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10880529363089372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14287603497409745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16728155280840587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3281441467137366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1479179783671048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.137176080905987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3737883079870681,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14111161461480082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22297720375866065,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,averylynne-,2019/02/19,"Break up with your girlfriend, cause I’m bored WELL IF THIS ISNT ME during a restrictive, over exercising, hypomanic episode. 

Thank u for calling me out Ariana. ",3.06964285714286,6.005066678571431,4.2940000000000005,74.25100000000002,96.5,7.954285714285715,27.028571428571425,8.238735603445708,3.2691771428571434,129,6,20,4,5,42,27,28,0.071,0.747,0.181,0.4995,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,1,0,0,1,3,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,1,0,5,3,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,3,2,5,3,0,4,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,1,0,13,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5270184203043402,0.0,0.0,0.5301996196734013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4751759318357236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4640557959579323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Poems_for_your_dogs,2019/02/19,"My cousin triggered me into getting better. Growing up, we were always close but super competitive. She's always been perfectly slim, and I was rounder. She's always been a fussy/picky eater since childhood and she was my thinspo. I've had this Ed for 5 years and recently it's spiralled out of control. I'm so underweight I feel I could be snapped in half like a toothpick. My cousin is a healthy weight for her size, but still tiny. She said to me ""I still think I'm skinnier than you, you can see my ribs more, look!"" and showed me, when I was talking about my eating disorder. This pissed me off because its not a competition, and an awful thing for her to say. I pointed out that her bmi was healthy and that her jeans I borrowed were too big for me, yet tight on her. Then I realised how stupid this was. I eat about 700 calories a week. I don't feel hunger. I go days without eating (thanks ritalin!) and I have started fainting. I realised I'll be dead within the year. I can't get my degree if I'm dead. On Sunday I ended up in the hospital. And now I have an appointment to discuss further treatment, which may include inpatient. But I'm okay with that. My uni said they'll support me. And I am going to get better. I don't want this. I don't want to die. I want to fucking live. And I will.",0.9557610062893112,3.2818788716981184,2.4157547169811338,93.47595911949688,84.81132075471697,5.0427672955974865,23.550314465408807,6.42735559955562,0.5878955974842763,1011,39,215,10,30,327,152,265,0.121,0.723,0.156,0.8255,2,0,0,0,0,2,41.0,1,2,1,5,10,11,3,0,9,2,25,10,2,3,1,35,48,18,3,5,6,2,4,1,0,3,2,3,0,0,11,16,5,2,3,1,1,3,6,3,0,1,12,9,47,8,27,30,1,33,0,0,2,1,20,15,2,2,16,144,58,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3398171993124172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08298456224663622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2407946821717426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15268316934727152,0.10869000863326657,0.0,0.0,0.08779362266810654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1412831125028238,0.0,0.15601861202814307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4178898484322463,0.0,0.0,0.1205721951085161,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13766445851923084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12585147426631574,0.2133694333342988,0.0,0.1547334553699316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06650702542232677,0.0,0.12020670034398526,0.0,0.11431626170651085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12868836736592668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13441353587221722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2589846583807036,0.10825731539212403,0.0,0.0,0.10847926333857594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11260946954155165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09635464994897308,0.0,0.2174297495429095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15448053094222064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10941742669018048,0.0,0.12533169106929942,0.0,0.0,0.09043978872861268,0.08722763506482915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2408818411929536,0.0,0.1091965613655836,0.16577161955662026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13122600835059328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17532857940159674
EDAnonymous,navajohcc,2019/02/19,"I had my wisdom tooth yanked today *(Possible TMI if you're squeamish/TW - bp-ing)*

I have AN Type II (B/P subtype) and right now binge/purging has gotten pretty bad, sometimes three times a day or more.

After the dentist got the tooth out she gave me a long list of precautions I had to take so as not to disturb the blood clot, because (not to be gross but) there's essentially an open wound in my mouth right now.

is puking gonna knock out the blood clot? Or make it more likely to get infected/take longer to heal? What do you guys do when you have to avoid binging?

Anyone else here had their wisdom teeth out? How did you cope arghh its such a pain in the arse

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(ps. New here so I hope I'm doing this right)",0.9847972972972984,3.20892727702703,2.129662162162159,96.269222972973,83.66216216216216,4.781081081081081,18.033783783783786,5.985473137389443,-0.4059000000000004,559,13,124,4,16,177,108,148,0.116,0.7809999999999999,0.103,0.2561,0,1,0,0,0,0,29.0,0,3,1,0,10,9,0,2,10,0,12,10,6,2,0,15,21,10,0,2,6,0,0,1,0,1,4,0,0,1,4,5,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,5,0,1,7,0,12,4,14,12,2,18,0,0,0,0,7,9,0,4,10,72,16,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2128526997746064,0.2387073630327735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1373618958406798,0.20128549034018975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16402693306720434,0.119753650381001,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12669352600102585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16410815557311084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10263663437209032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15711842558127448,0.0,0.0,0.19451566100455225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1951184492024034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09597518929647067,0.0,0.0,0.17385142025938197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13113141182646626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1897319271625304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20903587182798244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2214670325962096,0.0,0.19985953031663328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5032998044086762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19429334922143973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14770540110368144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11455114795902716,0.0,0.1862109358297284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2387073630327735,0.0
EDAnonymous,flortotheno,2019/02/19,"Body dismorphia Tw: measuring
I was just looking for a pair of jeans and had to measure my waist and hips, and found a cool way to see myself without dysmorphia or rather someone with the same measurements as me. I took my measuring tape and looked up on Google my measurements ""waist X inches  hip X inches "". 
Even if I never or rarely get to see myself how I really am, I saw how my body looks on somebody else and I think I am content. 
I recommend doing it if u wanna see how you look like, I do think it can be triggering but people with bdd deserve to see a realistic representation of their body. If you think it can lead to restricting, binging, purging, etc. don't do it.",2.7824378109452748,4.805715925373137,4.439626865671645,83.1217288557214,76.31343283582089,8.048756218905472,26.092039800995025,8.841846274778883,2.0984099502487563,530,20,105,12,12,178,84,134,0.028,0.931,0.042,-0.0644,0,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,2,1,1,6,2,0,0,4,1,11,7,7,5,1,29,26,15,0,5,9,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,7,2,1,4,0,0,2,3,0,0,0,5,10,19,2,16,20,2,9,0,0,9,0,3,5,0,5,2,74,23,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4949331572677403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12407352402728948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16564456216790516,0.09809931811407764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16284992393826847,0.0,0.0,0.07759814785787662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07256178045273476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4988941502917096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11455158534812765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10296848818042093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09514887589841298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4734205711389797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1258446945697496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28550634153879584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16501666657988098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11789217931744965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.143172736220855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,avocadonut115,2019/02/19,wellbutrin :( hi there anxiety induced binge eating and serious brain fog distracted bullshit. It’s nice being extremely happy but not with this weird sinking anxiety lying below the surface. it’s been a good week but thanks no thanks. ,6.177999999999997,9.463752799999998,6.0100000000000025,69.785,71.0,9.0,35.0,9.516144504307137,4.414499999999999,192,10,25,5,4,60,35,40,0.337,0.398,0.265,-0.0941,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,1,8,0,1,2,0,2,2,1,1,0,6,4,3,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,2,1,0,1,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,1,0,0,5,2,2,0,3,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,15,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4720597520194471,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3444292080231472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3157102643373654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2587861045281761,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3284432561552761,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5681186293342501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24748968214562306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,throwaway_5555556,2019/02/19,"just venting/asking your thoughts howdy, i haven't posted here before but i've been lurking since proed was still up. i'm a 25 year old guy and i'm basically just a mess atm.

i lost a bunch of weight last year (33.5 bmi to 21) but due to a personal tragedy in my life and a career change, i've basically gone full back in to a binge cycle that doesn't feel like it's ever going to stop. a big part of it is that even though i'm only at a ""normal weight,"" not thin at all, i have all kinds of loose skin on my stomach, legs, and thighs. i've read that this effect could be hard to get rid of fat instead of loose skin but my brain just can't accept it for some reason. i'm less than 20 pounds from my big gw but i can't get myself to snap out of it!! i have a fucked up relationship with food so if i can't stay motivated to restrict i self harm by binging. i keep thinking ""if i'm gonna look flabby at lower weights, fuck it i'll be 300 lbs""

at least when my restricting game is consistent it's somewhat healthy (not mentally but i stay away from junk food etc) so while it doesn't fix my relationship with food it doesn't make me miserable like this binging does. 

idk i guess this is a dumb thing to post. it's pretty  narcissistic to tell strangers about my baggage and expect them to care but i just feel lonely in this issue because i stay secretive about it. is anyone out there going through something similar? 

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EDAnonymous,bulimicomrade,2019/02/19,"I don't know if I can stick with this I'm currently a few weeks into my treatment for bulimia and I don't know if I can stick with this. I can't weigh myself and I have to eat every few hours and I can tell that I've gained weight even though I can't check. I also had to delete my MyFitnessPal account and it's stressing me out. The thing is, I don't think weighing myself or using MyFitnessPal were really issues. Plenty of people without eating disorders use MFP and weigh themselves. I don't know if I can stick with this if it means I'm going to gain the weight back.

I'm just really stressed out right now.",2.8011627906976737,4.1031854341085285,4.2596046511627925,87.49963953488373,74.50387596899225,7.330542635658915,22.20232558139535,7.908726449838941,0.8767637209302328,487,12,105,7,10,162,73,129,0.046,0.9,0.053,0.204,1,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,2,6,2,0,2,3,0,14,7,0,2,0,25,25,12,0,4,7,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,7,11,7,0,5,0,2,1,7,2,0,0,2,2,17,0,12,23,2,10,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,5,5,71,24,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13453177754805615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12935685822028145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19280372891678046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3442782456393588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11111293036773157,0.0,0.14173924734425986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09560778292951244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16567057818813702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17558620325697769,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2773609354747825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1832494826786004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.116628032459482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2155421796097302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14366569321230607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3854089440242007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14703858500525582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11176313058199096,0.1077936349161825,0.16528304126665014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29058975559938505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13494226068603196,0.4097124821662301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1621656763379943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,zanzanzanzan0,2019/02/19,"Today I engaged peak awkward at my new job due to a ginger cookie My new boss, who I have been trying to bond with, offered me a cookie (of reasonable size) from a box and I took so long starting at it he adds ""it's gluten free!"" 

I'm panicking because (1) I already ate my snack for the day and (2) I don't know this guy well enough to eat a cookie in front of him. I don't know about you guys but I often choke and get flushed in the face, heart racing etc if I eat in front of someone who I know but don't know well. Like strangers are fine, family are fine, anyone in between is apparently no-go according to anxiety.

But I decide I should take it, and he starts eating his then like a TOTALLY NORMAL human being I say ""oh I better put it somewhere so I don't get any crumbs on these papers"", walk half the floor to my desk and put it down, then return to our conversation. 

So far it's been a really low-food office, thankfully. What are everyone's tips for staying calm when there's unexpected food at work?
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EDAnonymous,betterno1,2019/02/19,"He didn’t choose me. I didn’t expect this today. On social media, I was browsing along and all the sudden there’s this girl. I don’t know who she is, I didn’t know she existed as a romantic prospect. My eyes watered and I found myself crying in my office.

He didn’t choose me.

I clicked out of the image the first time, I didn’t remember her face - I knew I shouldn’t have viewed it again. But I did. Again. And again, and again.

I thought you liked me.

I stopped eating what I was eating in the moment. I didn’t hestitate, like a machine without thoughts I snapped the lid back on my Tupperware and put that back in the fridge. I don’t have any plans to return to it this week.

My mind instantly goes to “he would’ve chose you if you were skinnier”. At this weight? You know, that’s cute that you thought he could possibly like you. It’s cute.

Better luck next time",0.5404522479382834,2.834988418994413,1.7097047086991246,97.9866852886406,86.59776536312849,4.9737696195796754,19.13833466347433,6.42735559955562,-0.11143915935089098,673,19,153,7,21,212,97,179,0.03,0.8220000000000001,0.14800000000000002,0.9559,0,0,0,0,0,0,25.0,0,6,0,3,7,7,0,0,8,0,17,6,2,0,1,28,25,8,0,4,3,0,1,3,0,1,0,0,0,1,12,7,4,1,11,0,0,1,10,0,0,1,15,4,33,7,14,8,1,24,0,0,3,0,16,7,0,2,19,100,45,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11433022882470005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2585542814126112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14869220231628036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13423350223265415,0.0,0.1846765514723325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34406608057725124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14300636814021586,0.0,0.18433951977428506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2771900089034799,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24641099189634266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16975752646281272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17880200591352102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18953478697429169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16901126845083647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1904519574064147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17138146091301762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14055936864717705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4004155320519271,0.19606915911191355,0.0,0.1593620939470479,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13485910110949173,0.2047299962864628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16206574004742774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11943061590032933,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,tamagotchi-hands,2019/02/20,"MY PEACH APP JUST LOADED anyone else? is peach back?! (sorry...on mobile)
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EDAnonymous,hotelbell,2019/02/20,"Self-inflicted pineapple I absolutely love pineapple. But my body (my mouth) does not. I always end up visibly bleeding after a few bites and my mouth stings for hours. I can’t eat or taste anything else at this point. Thanks, bromelain!",2.745891472868216,5.777993860465116,2.8468604651162783,87.41664728682171,87.13953488372093,5.657364341085271,25.77131782945737,7.1686216300943375,1.5767550387596905,188,8,33,3,6,57,37,43,0.0,0.82,0.18,0.8264,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,1,7,3,0,0,4,3,3,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,6,2,4,3,1,6,0,0,0,1,1,3,0,1,3,18,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25663273536243075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2538059407537243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3425885469741789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2699031425999946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3155938401598149,0.2576479330004601,0.0,0.27317133125068843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3037346369346882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2783638990487059,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2915595307706635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3217525690408663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28395456238054634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,chronicallyvicky,2019/02/20,"my ED is back I struggled with purging disorder for about 9 months, thought it would kill me. I eventually got help, went on antidepressants, and thought I had beat it. The medication I went on caused me to gain an EXTREME amount of weight, very very quickly. I tried so hard to work out, lose weight in a healthy way, love myself the way I am now, but can't. I am so disgusted every time I look in the mirror, and its causing me to withdraw from any and all social situations, my depression is so severe from my body image issues, and for the past two weeks, I've gone back to restricting and purging. I hate how much comfort I find in it, I had how it instantly makes me feel skinnier, I hate how much I love my  empty stomach, because it's finally flat. I'm so scared to tell my mother and father about my relapse, even though I'm a 20 year old adult who no longer lives at home. I'm scared of  how much I love my ED, even though I want to hate it.",6.121384615384617,4.9047210615384635,6.598589743589745,82.48557692307695,66.58974358974359,9.851282051282054,32.32051282051282,8.841846274778883,2.30714358974359,737,25,163,10,10,241,114,195,0.254,0.639,0.108,-0.9887,0,0,0,0,0,1,24.0,0,0,0,4,18,14,5,3,7,0,8,8,2,7,1,24,27,17,1,2,1,2,4,0,0,1,1,0,1,1,8,8,2,1,4,0,0,3,2,10,0,1,8,5,27,4,22,18,5,23,0,2,1,3,10,7,0,0,11,101,35,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07459152683721593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16868643419262802,0.0,0.06686471990808797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12183851888129935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22535935674329066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09447401928337693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12571182532367095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1448956342500881,0.0,0.09241677847082024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055461493143925615,0.0,0.0,0.1201577224430448,0.10025274467157096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08772742614081029,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09825880491051256,0.32488224907901275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07352148082070242,0.0,0.11002589748571882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11448565978003053,0.0,0.0,0.12135339912628113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0968564168078363,0.0,0.09211020234375422,0.12271269229365984,0.0,0.0,0.2969928107900882,0.0,0.07321751858947809,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11049900983730077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08755182764219473,0.0,0.2418996609065727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1150989894966845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10470950284038592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21963342701633515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12391609474722345,0.0,0.0,0.1232937845639242,0.0,0.11181299095181063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.114669598851429,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0958720509083042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2155355908250779,0.17415986545946505,0.06395989098504733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07447087748654592,0.0,0.10714913065727694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1810079940677912,0.06469675967939544,0.1741302837137218,0.08798500941579708,0.26714060086068186,0.0,0.20336354665308135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07985409059535901,0.0,0.0,0.07791913024834282,0.0,0.0,0.07063540516565134
EDAnonymous,sunnyrai99,2019/02/20,"Who else waits way too long? To purge yeah, i hate that I do it at all but I hate even worse that I fall asleep after a mega gigantic binge and wake up  2 hrs later and wait one more to purge. A bunch of stuff still came up? But I know it probably didn’t save me anything aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa kms
I bought lots of healthy stuff today I’m gonna try to switch back to restriction but my bf was like “one last huge KFC smash please?” And I had to wait the 3 hours to purge for him to leave lmao rip bc our bedroom is right by the bathroom.",0.10066801619433363,2.2299286754386003,0.8721052631578949,104.42896761133603,86.80701754385963,4.560323886639677,15.786774628879893,5.873414542411696,-1.0012407557354923,415,8,105,3,13,126,85,114,0.121,0.688,0.191,0.8747,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,1,0,0,0,4,4,2,0,4,1,5,2,2,0,1,15,15,6,0,0,3,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,1,0,7,4,0,4,1,0,1,2,1,2,0,2,5,0,11,2,15,9,4,16,0,0,0,0,4,5,0,1,9,58,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16060775693617224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1500731937102505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22322175852587506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16303895990597644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12890752413292392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3853786815157129,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19220250951193354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1072599782489078,0.1590890804409399,0.0,0.20665617607942405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09534989278887283,0.0,0.0,0.17271874538032225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1659260138177618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26450362392720744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21423735324083631,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21042558407258294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16667357033558072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1558625060764489,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.44684445548061263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.184997736369489,0.0,0.0,0.13250718679663878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15491635663333198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19889425554236967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Rickticia,2019/02/20,"Watch out for certain new users A day old user, u/throwawayyourfood , is going around making very rude comments on old comments to those who dare to disagree with them.

For example, on my 97 day old comment, I received this lovely message: “So it's cool to binge like a pig and then puke it up because ""MUH DISORDERRRRRR"" but coping with an eating disorder by tossing a slice of day old pizza is wrong? Jesus christ you cow.”
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EDAnonymous,throwawaytrash58285,2019/02/20,"I gained 15 lbs and I want to ~~die~~ I had been overweight and finally pulled it together and got to 128 lbs which was great till a bunch of awful stuff happened to me and I became so depressed I didn't care how I looked. 

Now I've gain more than 15 lbs and I'm at 145 lbs and I finally am breaking out of my depressive episode but I care how I look again and I can't stand how far I've fallen now. I hate myself so much. I seriously feel like skipping my classes so people can't see me anymore. I don't have the iron will I had before and I don't know how to get it back.

I said I'd never gain weight again and was so good at restricting, I did it with practically no cheat days for over a year and I have no idea how I did that now. How can I get back to that? I feel so worthless",-0.1780888888888903,1.6178143942857126,2.0919523809523817,97.38065873015877,85.05714285714286,5.488888888888887,19.436507936507933,6.691623216298621,-0.07441587301587349,609,17,153,7,18,206,95,175,0.233,0.6559999999999999,0.111,-0.9704,0,0,0,0,0,1,12.0,0,0,0,3,18,11,2,0,3,1,17,2,0,6,1,26,33,23,1,1,1,0,3,1,0,1,1,1,0,0,7,12,2,1,4,0,0,2,8,6,0,0,10,7,26,5,15,22,3,22,0,3,3,0,1,5,0,0,14,103,33,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16579853998226424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25710360083158484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1422586410509899,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3409041597692161,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10781785649178573,0.0,0.2879853458168635,0.0,0.17350739023639838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16906338275567978,0.11943407558962665,0.0,0.3662770305826887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17469025079371953,0.0,0.0,0.14022341555890236,0.13370984608479522,0.1843175436009281,0.0,0.0,0.14783752669020214,0.0,0.0,0.165056537166655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1887268981881659,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0918782560400328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08167614804765208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28077971781491423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1228972050157056,0.0,0.12894022425595408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11590219303321968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15902732956142562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13322154037530232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.191382144397996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09860763229314376,0.0,0.0,0.20358130971920232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10765902487184444
EDAnonymous,thabigfloof,2019/02/20,"I feel so gross /vent i’ve been drowning in a sea of stress and anxiety lately from back to back exams in grad school, balancing a full time job, and just trying not to hate myself every single day. and this week i guess a switch flipped inside me and i just stopped caring. i skipped work for the past two days. i didn’t go to class. i didn’t even do anything productive. i just slept and ate and hated that i slept and ate, and stressed stressed stressed. 


i binged today for the first time in over a month— C&S’d over the kitchen sink like the classiest of all ladies. i’m so disappointed in myself. i feel disgusting and bloated. this is why i’m fat, this is my lack of self control. i want to go to the gym right now to run it all off but i need to get up so early for work tomorrow. ugh. ugh. ugh. i feel like such a failure. i wish i had more discipline. i don’t want to be fat and gross and uncomfortable wearing shorts on my upcoming vacation, but at this rate, i’m still gonna be a whale 🙃


also unrelated, but do any of you have friends who trigger your ED? a dear friend of mine lost a large amount of weight in the past year, and it sounds so vain, but every time we hang out, i notice how thin her arms have gotten, her thigh hap, the angular slope of her shoulders... and i feel so triggered. i used to be the skinny one in our friend group, and now she’s thinner and fitter than me by miles. i hate that i gained all this weight. i hate that i’m struggling so much to get my old body back. i hate being so uncomfortable in anything i wear. and i’m sooo tired of being stressed out by food and clothes and my shitty low self esteem. it shouldn’t be this damn hard to lose 20 lbs but i just can’t seem to do it when i’m knee deep in work and stress


i just want a break from it all 🙃 it sounds silly, but there are days when i feel so overwhelmed that i lay in bed and hide under the covers and daydream of everything just coming to a stop. at the same time, i feel like my problems aren’t of any true significance and i just need to toughen up and deal. maybe just go to the gym more. ugggggh.


thank you for coming to my shitty ted talk 🎈


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EDAnonymous,davidriot,2019/02/20,"frustration with GP after no diagnosis I went to see a doctor, finally. 5 years of debilitating anxiety and depression and 1 of ana, I just couldn't do it anymore. my heart was racing because of anxiety as he took my heart rate, 134bpm. said he was thinking I could be anorexic, but my heart rate wasn't slowed enough for me to actually be. 

I'm angry about that. I'm not sure if I'm justified in my anger, but it's certainly there. my thoughts and fears about food that are taking over my life are not enough for an anxious heart rate to prove me ""healthy"".",4.135337837837838,5.321325270270271,5.2356644144144155,82.2383614864865,71.07207207207206,9.153603603603603,29.190315315315317,9.516144504307137,2.493728828828828,439,17,91,10,8,145,72,111,0.223,0.722,0.055,-0.9531,1,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,0,0,4,6,2,1,2,0,10,7,4,0,3,17,20,7,0,3,6,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,4,4,1,0,3,0,0,2,5,4,0,0,7,2,11,2,15,9,2,8,0,1,1,0,3,2,0,1,4,55,15,1,0.0,0.0,0.14378846734078105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2254386145592429,0.16645907002518226,0.14612766563267635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0898207703857937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11764381282946755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.126908917066275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15081490212450474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30449566774020737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16580524490365653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16141037025911742,0.0,0.0,0.17817140060895592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6984230053103981,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1040748563437306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14015981348867895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11741570649002535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1388718865907254,0.0,0.11078587479434493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09441338446984954,0.0,0.11697628665279974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1637068574564978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1365912431389515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09488601039849777
EDAnonymous,krisgreg,2019/02/20,"Peach Hi guys, many of you are on the Peach app and a lot of you already know that it was down for a bit. Personally for me, it’s a way to talk about things and not feel judged so it’s a great outlet for me. Right now they’re struggling. As you know, Peach team has reached out looking for benefactors to support Peach and adopt Peach. If you are interested, we have started a GoFundMe to raise some money to go towards Peach’s server costs. Please consider donating. If you are unable to donate, please - PLEASE - spread this link around on all platforms. 

https://www.gofundme.com/45pnb5-save-peach?sharetype=teams&member=1727742&rcid=r01-155062330546-fbf57e740b0d44bc&pc=ot_co_campmgmt_w

Thank you so much! ",9.648220255653884,12.802964362831865,5.596932153392334,77.29819075712884,60.23893805309734,7.146116027531957,25.829891838741396,7.793537801064563,1.253226941986234,595,15,94,6,9,156,76,113,0.023,0.7829999999999999,0.194,0.9552,0,0,0,0,0,0,36.0,1,6,0,1,5,5,0,1,6,0,6,0,0,0,1,16,14,8,0,2,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,6,6,0,0,4,1,4,1,1,1,0,0,1,2,9,4,19,13,5,12,0,0,1,0,12,8,0,4,2,59,15,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17778049071180466,0.0,0.0,0.5236631087656585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1434152805976016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17588208203793118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0814582077238773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09155819944329673,0.0,0.0,0.1776159510010136,0.0,0.1595166921429905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17707531799792142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1352854308580345,0.0,0.0,0.13696348880812334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16333253494301034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1184287915180374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1406683907886071,0.0,0.5305261301300945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1375805587081704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11402909908817885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16841919453220544,0.0,0.0,0.18281708022740525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12948799665232047,0.0,0.14832143365575562,0.0,0.0,0.1070292677718233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1278755765280327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,shittypebbles,2019/02/20,"Got a gift from a professor... I'm a receptionist at the local university and over this past week have done a couple of last-minute favors for a professor. I'm used to getting gifts of gratitude from different faculty members when I solve a problem (Starbucks gift card, a small plant, etc) but this professor got me.... vitamins.   
  
Does that mean my weight loss has been rapid enough that she's concerned? Is it weird that I'm flattered?",3.6936111111111103,6.32080532098766,4.38344135802469,81.66923611111113,76.03703703703705,8.494444444444445,28.64351851851852,9.188382445141503,2.8264185185185187,345,15,63,9,8,110,61,81,0.087,0.7509999999999999,0.162,0.594,1,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,0,1,1,5,0,0,8,0,5,2,0,1,0,5,13,3,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,6,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,4,1,4,2,8,9,2,7,0,1,0,0,2,4,0,0,3,36,10,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2781707468001513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2626608410933291,0.0,0.0,0.22000296394726346,0.2572708053917107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2597647374392845,0.2803788944329704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13134679835963348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4021371567697956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20492560627605327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2738497067499554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2399909789409827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24055708303356915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2171299972917353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20165895137537165,0.3061390445772891,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,secretschuylersister,2019/02/20,"so we learned about EDs in class today and i’m currently a senior in high school & one of our required classes is a life skills/college guidance class.


we are talking about challenges/mental illnesses that college students face  & one of them was eating disorders. literally all of my classmates except me were shOCked at how many eating disorders there are, or that people even have them.


like i over heard soo many comments & stupid stuff like “why don’t they just eat” or like “i’ve never read a nutrition label in my life” and it’s so shocking to me cause i always forget  that not everyone is as fucked up as me or spends their whole day thinking about food and worrying about food ))): imagine having 100% healthy eating habits & not being concerned about food or your body image hahahahaha cant relate !!!! 


and the fact that everyone else was so shocked that these disorders even exist made me feel even more fucked up/different from everyone else and i hate it bye rant over :-( 


(but also i cant wait to go to college across the globe in the US and be away from my family so i can restrict OwO)",3.5571428571428565,6.0207354285714345,3.957380952380955,85.39178571428572,75.66666666666667,6.866666666666667,26.214285714285715,7.908726449838941,1.6861714285714289,880,33,162,14,20,275,132,210,0.179,0.777,0.044,-0.9848,2,0,0,0,0,0,29.0,4,1,4,1,16,10,4,0,6,0,15,14,2,3,3,31,25,19,0,0,9,0,1,3,0,0,3,1,0,0,9,8,7,3,4,1,1,1,6,7,0,2,5,2,21,3,26,18,3,17,0,0,0,2,13,11,2,4,9,107,30,11,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07613323508691054,0.07921592987187619,0.4126065558394329,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0894456831722317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10574827982754458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.097798974156369,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061397599684889385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09946612788403912,0.3273302089688991,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38966283042246425,0.15905859058373392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18864063947702425,0.0,0.0,0.2729095971370385,0.0,0.0,0.08974824406737641,0.0,0.04813713717540508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3453569525854139,0.0,0.0,0.17602596183933186,0.0,0.0,0.05410565404378735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09399254932418763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10058644393505467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1344883825529398,0.139533086767002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0900827065272392,0.0,0.1930403542982371,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0734258733176547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1290230680151972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.066001279212934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09522805080218902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09634979777117916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10898384248140824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0765199926636006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06100178186536503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0902406370387838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11451663016791487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08590525689064969,0.10628995435972152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09668254439961796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Nude-prude,2019/02/20,"I did a comic for the first time in years it feels https://imgur.com/gallery/VhM9B75

For some reason i cant post just a pic so heres the imgur link 

For all my comics you can find them on instagram @obsessive_ink",4.458846153846154,7.397784564102569,3.0381410256410284,90.64644230769231,75.15384615384616,6.976923076923077,17.442307692307693,8.07648339933343,0.3905846153846149,174,3,34,3,4,49,34,39,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,1,1,1,3,0,0,0,4,0,3,0,0,1,1,7,4,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,4,2,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,1,5,0,5,3,2,6,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,1,3,24,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2372095500358195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4287823335676609,0.3990473339618103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4493031608166386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4823505372222514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2735573115842958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30210857526790336
EDAnonymous,frodo-shaggins,2019/02/20,"Recovering from miscarriage with ED Trigger warning for miscarriage talk, obviously. 
Long, kind of complicated story I just want to get off my chest.

Early last year, I started recovering from my ED in hopes of solving some gastrointestinal issues I have. I went from BMI 19 (lowest ever, 19% BF, never underweighy) to BMI 20/21 and was able to eat pretty normally.  Turns out, those issues we're actually related to my recent diagnosis of scleroderma I got later last year. 

with that diagnosis, I am at risk of developing a heart condition that makes child birth too dangerous, so my husband and I decided to go ahead and start trying. I had stopped my birth control, and waited for my cycles to start. 

Previously, I had only one or two cycles a year, which began after I lost 30 lbs some years back. That weight loss was intentional and healthy (overweight to normal, 1.5 lbs/week) and is what actually triggered my ED. For some unknown reason, maybe unrelated to weight loss, but I have barely been able to cycle since then and my hormones are unbalanced. 

I began religiously tracking my ovulation, putting in the same energy I would for calories. I intentionally began to gain weight in hopes of jump starting my cycle. 5 lbs and months later, I detected ovulation, and eventually a positive pregnancy test.

I've been able to eat without guilt for the past 8 weeks, gaining an additional 5lbs in the process. Knowing the baby needs nutrition, and that I can blame the gain on pregnancy and not my lack of control, helped. Plus, the knowledge that I can lose it later while breastfeeding kept me sane.

Yesterday, I went in for my 8 week ultrasound. I was worrying that I might have twins because it was the first ovulation after so long without, and my hormones were out of balance (it can cause two eggs to drop). The technician spent one minute with the belly ultrasound and said she can't get a clear image. She brought out the transvaginal, poked around saying the OB will take a look and discuss with me after. 

I immediately clammed up and worried while waiting for the OB to call me back. Maybe my dates were off and I wasn't as far along as I thought? When the time came, the OB told me they saw the fetus but could not detected a heartbeat. I had miscarried and I can expect to pass the tissue in the next few weeks. My stomach sank, and I've been a wreck all night and day. Now, I lost my baby and I'm left with my fat body and a corpse. 

I woke up at 4:30 am this morning and went into 'solver' mode. I can heal. But the way that seems will get me there is to live my old life before I was sick and trying to conceive. Lose those 10 lbs, track calories, track ovulation. Exercise like you did before schleroderma. Fast all day and live on vegetables alone.

I know fixing grief with disordered eating isn't healthy, but suddenly sitting here 10 lbs heavier and no longer pregnant there's just nothing else I want to do more than get rid of this weight that constantly reminds me of my loss. I want to start trying to conceive again asap. I'm a little worried that I really do need the extra fat to ovulate. I can't stand the thought of starting the pregnancy at such a high weight knowing there will be more to gain.",5.424866126070995,6.805917075657895,5.916523867809057,77.82810893512854,68.21052631578948,9.208445532435741,30.91585067319461,9.530980864609335,2.87194273255814,2554,102,467,54,43,824,302,608,0.1,0.8170000000000001,0.083,-0.856,1,1,0,0,0,0,77.0,0,1,1,15,17,15,1,2,32,0,40,21,6,9,6,96,89,39,1,13,11,1,5,1,1,5,7,2,0,1,18,40,13,6,9,1,1,9,10,11,0,5,34,9,63,4,78,48,11,93,0,8,2,0,14,24,0,8,57,300,81,2,0.1983377860156722,0.0,0.12903271238780126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06847271025521415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05885422653548787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10167300985677014,0.0,0.040301624483460134,0.0,0.11251389842075796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07343618940339182,0.0,0.0,0.06750835167195793,0.07561519647094933,0.0,0.06791584696523663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07144422863119693,0.1483017946805573,0.052785527746993764,0.0,0.0,0.08527430926963875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0757707619846335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2029490701765934,0.05522859002242202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059802627501239713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056235339821341934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13816440947060854,0.0,0.03757331149625963,0.0,0.05287628199276668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07834374379592618,0.04431387906173604,0.06985158680854775,0.0,0.1313294491571994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13800874588387704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06884609436483508,0.10900126021300174,0.10778117826295963,0.0,0.0,0.07183152827818584,0.0,0.046697281269349744,0.032299274606237945,0.06626218893121998,0.11675726584568402,0.1170151328651508,0.05551792920177153,0.1479261664737867,0.14433941518732546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04413067076120331,0.0,0.13283797630872865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07013501596740104,0.0,0.0,0.052770442848285234,0.0,0.0,0.09804330346777312,0.05099010923731588,0.0,0.07031149517359718,0.06204219213520382,0.1295526127973632,0.06343681829390238,0.0,0.06937404747223064,0.0,0.08959921121764437,0.050281607902616834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06311195304674548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06726027736637202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06646141873661104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04235342148363546,0.06797475904524171,0.06527821201389511,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0628882177989642,0.05257538937849543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06018642378079352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054689022052764005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2807690115617501,0.0,0.0,0.05527309002908958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04970844388058702,0.05313879983253062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10497203170050648,0.03855078600532096,0.0,0.0,0.06317341803902222,0.0,0.13465833747043787,0.07191151901868885,0.12916479821988874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11698476494688505,0.052477100891735885,0.21212614452125986,0.4025366514274004,0.0,0.18386111469777652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1274603653458059,0.0,0.0,0.20142164924415606,0.0,0.04696449086548382,0.0,0.0,0.17029737524579386
EDAnonymous,Anavosa,2019/02/20,How do you deal with cravings? I don’t know how to deal with mine and I’m getting them like crazy.,-1.2783333333333324,0.7440454090909085,0.14272727272727434,107.1007575757576,94.9090909090909,2.9333333333333336,16.424242424242426,3.1291,-1.4425030303030302,77,2,20,0,3,24,17,22,0.11,0.7759999999999999,0.114,0.0258,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,1,1,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,2,0,6,5,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,4,1,3,5,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,1,12,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.9161650273216466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23214296808223864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24419097187671904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21707614870500788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,lhadnil,2019/02/20,"I just got fired! and my first thought was “at least this will distract me from the hunger”


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EDAnonymous,BumblebeePoltergeist,2019/02/20,Im at a birthday party with my favorite cake. But I know if I have any I'll spend the next three days in a depression spiral hating myself. Brains are stupid. ,1.9109090909090904,3.781606151515156,3.3606060606060595,90.5609090909091,78.3939393939394,5.612121212121212,20.090909090909093,6.42735559955562,0.15329090909090934,125,3,26,1,3,41,29,33,0.273,0.5770000000000001,0.15,-0.6908,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,3,0,2,1,1,0,0,4,4,2,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,3,0,1,0,0,4,0,3,4,0,4,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,1,2,15,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2679502427313139,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4398617703692375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2541132730525827,0.0,0.33937281447567313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.389017721766148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4256141878087287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21654561799301514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41904963698474856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,itsatummything,2019/02/20,"im happy my two jobs keep me busy and not eating it gives me an excuse to run out the door without eating, cuz ""im running late""
an excuse to not eat at home, cuz ""i ate on my lunch break""
an excuse to intermediate fast, cuz it ""works better with my schedule""",2.401,3.214857418181822,4.576136363636365,86.74420454545454,74.81818181818181,6.2272727272727275,21.022727272727273,5.985473137389443,0.10309090909090912,198,4,44,1,4,69,38,55,0.0,0.821,0.179,0.8176,1,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,2,0,2,0,0,4,0,0,5,0,3,0,10,3,4,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,2,3,5,1,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,1,1,0,6,2,8,2,0,9,0,0,0,0,4,3,0,0,3,27,8,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1828584139302024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6346873958566227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1983386893201735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22009504545081301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2073925970790006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4466627801897173,0.0,0.20517290391042253,0.18377376410887988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23322917900887585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20197005422886186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19930489774077656,0.0,0.15052044668031822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,deezisnibbas,2019/02/20,"Boyfriend loves my body and I hate it. Classic shit amirite. I'm overweight but it spreads out pretty evenly except for my big ole ass. 

I got retriggered by seeing an unrequited love with his skinny and tall girlfriend and lost 50 pounds. Then I found this guy and he has never made me feel sexier or more desired. I've posted before about how he loves me where I don't hate myself anymore and how I despise it. 

Anyway there's a woman on the new season of High Maintenance as the Guys new love who looks just like that past loves girlfriend and it's so triggering. I commented ""that woman is like ______'s dream girl"". 

My boyfriend replied ""ugh really??? He likes women that skinny???""

Have your own preferences, that's fine, and thanks for loving me but I wish I could just keep this goddamn disorder. 

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EDAnonymous,PlumeriaParfum,2019/02/20,"Please help! I'm scared I'll put on weight today So far I've eaten 500 calories and 100g carbs. Please someone tell me if I'll gain weight like this??? I usually eat less than 50g carbs a day and im freaking out, because I've heard that if you eat more than a certain amount of carbs the body will store half of it as fat?? I'm not going to eat anything else today, so is it possible to just burn that all off? TIA ",0.8049999999999997,2.2058675434782637,2.4906521739130447,97.68858695652176,80.08695652173913,5.469565217391305,20.195652173913047,5.985473137389443,-0.2472000000000003,322,8,80,2,8,106,65,92,0.058,0.728,0.214,0.9345,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,1,0,1,3,4,0,1,3,0,2,8,2,0,2,9,7,7,0,2,4,0,2,1,0,1,1,1,0,0,5,3,7,0,0,0,1,2,1,2,0,1,2,3,3,2,10,4,4,10,0,0,0,0,4,4,0,2,5,35,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13846382860654527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10256987152272602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18689917860049945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10851392540722103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5165166496505125,0.1405598274408511,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09562616351696593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11278128215157365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18174991677264515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08220344686102436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3693983992572412,0.0,0.1896881223047584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1691480000720561,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1684578386189916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14256634275318925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1470668531596666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3189820386003364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18531486638843034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4097912493531524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Annaniks,2019/02/20,"Dae do their best to balance ed w/ recovery Hey guys so my first official post on this sub, but I've commented a few times and lurked it for forever,
I was diagnosed anorexic and went through recovery last year after like 7 years.
Lately my life has spiraled out of control (not necessarily in a negative way just, things are crazy) and it seems the only thing that makes me feel normal is counting calories.
Im trying to keep myself to a reasonable amount of calories and not restrict too much but it ofcourse still feels like a crazy amount (TRIGGER WARNING NUMBERS), I'm 5'8 and have a bmi of like 21.5 and would love to lose like 15 pounds but staying at 1200 cals feels so high.
Does anyone else try their best to not completley give in to their ED tendencies without indulging them too much? I really don't want to fall back into it completely because it makes me so miserable, but I need to do it a little bit otherwise I feel like a disgusting cow",5.0854927234927185,6.338719362162162,5.523243243243249,80.81022869022874,68.8918918918919,9.151767151767153,31.52806652806653,9.466822959209583,2.876060291060292,762,32,144,16,13,244,125,185,0.13,0.7140000000000001,0.155,0.6487,0,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,4,5,8,11,1,1,8,0,9,3,0,5,0,33,23,13,0,4,9,0,4,5,0,1,2,0,0,1,10,8,0,3,6,0,0,2,6,3,0,1,2,4,13,8,21,20,8,22,0,2,0,1,9,8,0,1,14,89,23,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0933115595360038,0.13673561289076186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10261505089471283,0.0,0.08135007025631963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28009573395938714,0.0,0.1456931750518184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13992011090126594,0.0,0.14967587003041113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13544925541203098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11678326547381195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11148060992740827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2699059456156035,0.19067385607283824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11351276540308353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1280176973521822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13213678780004226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14099757930906362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14414923484874395,0.0,0.0,0.11861676708463048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10877981392039276,0.15053776222075355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09425990045636418,0.3259854028370455,0.13375226914499475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1492967614783032,0.0,0.0,0.1204441149064674,0.0,0.17815823619495824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19620266548916146,0.09895171382655192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13075296948985946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10149497415810894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12780850778350014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0854916856937934,0.1372091446650304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12148815006336974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1422402741936778,0.1065735898477108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17731691215464776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07781594886469824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18120800098790155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07871245034017442,0.10592664437491103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12370977423178725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12864133653015528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09479927125586113,0.0,0.0,0.17187524843319588
EDAnonymous,sorrywhatshappening,2019/02/20,"I’m saving myself I’m a relatively serial dater.. the last three were shitty, physically and/or emotionally abusive men. My last bf talked about my weight all the time, often comparing me to other women/telling me his “type” was tall thin blondes (I’m literally the exact opposite) and I think it ruined my ability to be with anyone until I feel good about myself... which will probably be never. I’ve lost about 15 lbs so far through restrict/binge cycles but I still haven’t been interested in pursuing a relationship (or even just casual/hook up sex) with someone because I don’t want to burden anyone with myself.. Fuck that sounds terrible actually typing it out.  And because I’m so disgusted with myself I have absolutely no sex drive. 

What really scares me is when I finally get to my goal weight and if I feel ready to pursue a relationship I will feel ultimately stuck in the act of maintaining this kind of unhealthy, restrictive behavior.. is anyone in this same boat?",6.0077435897435905,7.6723545777777815,7.116666666666671,68.70115384615386,67.1111111111111,10.871794871794872,30.512820512820515,10.891193690592663,3.820076923076924,784,30,130,24,13,264,121,180,0.205,0.727,0.068,-0.9845,0,0,0,0,0,0,25.0,0,0,0,2,10,11,2,1,7,0,12,5,0,0,3,24,25,10,0,2,4,0,6,0,1,2,0,1,0,1,8,8,2,1,4,0,0,2,4,7,0,1,5,8,20,4,21,16,2,18,0,2,1,3,6,8,1,3,8,86,28,3,0.0,0.1947263744394395,0.16038065609674554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3447493668345815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20037092476196186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18487020421131872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10855078832517973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24929897302800255,0.0,0.0,0.1800360040115249,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1519377556421351,0.08586542989780048,0.0,0.0,0.13784792000694696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17114391505226662,0.0,0.26793230592164113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17940605665011453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1267558748877169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17719573150215584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10528600693245026,0.0,0.0,0.3528980675041292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16454175288700604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13925214838091152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13124911069962444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13209728639542426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10530803217828152,0.0,0.0,0.09583306803621268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09693714102057296,0.0,0.0,0.4002649626701443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,cashmeremoose,2019/02/20,not wanting to try new foods because you’re a diehard foodie and trying new foods that you’re curious about would only make those fantasies TANGIBLE and you’ll know what they taste like for insatiable cravings to arise in the ⚠️🚨near future🚨⚠️,22.6926,7.479645460000004,19.014,47.79700000000001,54.4,22.4,66.0,13.023866798666859,8.1706,203,8,39,3,1,64,40,50,0.0,0.888,0.112,0.5859,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,1,1,0,1,1,0,0,2,0,2,3,0,1,0,7,5,2,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,3,2,3,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,2,1,5,3,0,3,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,3,16,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16169764580555898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6414974154553447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14577780583439398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12959072325234344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17706049474098373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5123719545705012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2017392035526527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3601829361493252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15645490994034436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1884303103593759,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,SilentProtagonist16,2019/02/20,"First step towards recovery today. I have my first appointment with an eating disorder clinic today and I’m very stressed about it. Are they just going to expect me to be able to gain weight right now? Will they want to force 2,000 calories a day down my throat? Maybe they’ll just immediately try to throw me in a hospital.  (I’m 20 years old, 5’4, 85 pounds) 

I don’t feel ready for recovery at all, I can’t come to terms with gaining weight and being healthy. I love being skinny. But I know I have to do it for my fiancé and everyone else who cares for me. I just hope the doctors understand I need a lot of mental help before I start being able to eat more. 

I would love to hear others experiences with their treatment and recovery! Wishing you all the best, I hope we can all get better eventually. ",2.591509433962265,4.779426389937111,3.832050314465409,86.4684528301887,77.55345911949684,7.007295597484277,22.549685534591195,8.021203637495839,1.1739866666666663,632,19,127,11,15,206,104,159,0.031,0.722,0.246,0.9881,0,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,1,1,4,6,5,8,0,1,6,0,14,10,2,0,3,27,32,5,0,7,4,0,3,0,0,3,2,1,0,0,4,9,5,0,3,0,0,4,2,1,0,2,0,4,23,7,21,25,7,19,0,0,0,2,11,5,0,3,10,84,27,1,0.27688391684095165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11780390988377812,0.0,0.14528629417220826,0.12244066185649274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1411508032825342,0.0,0.0,0.11925548869048742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08928361016374314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1586664783986575,0.14170121073142555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2833213710739116,0.11565049177620886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13228722407055468,0.0,0.1354228002642789,0.0,0.0,0.07000041389281289,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23551731821869895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0723302092935842,0.0,0.07867975536654019,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.156034148794939,0.0,0.09279472649800713,0.0,0.0,0.27500820451078845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07608407977789693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11769840231780547,0.2498985452188223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13908355509731266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13951693219171066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10265295797709724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14527154691822206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11822867605707693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09798993072686224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15858479562410313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2624535779786039,0.0,0.0,0.0939930021986818,0.0,0.0,0.14412296113360965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11422911451168663,0.0816566539838559,0.0,0.0,0.33717001775078537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15920141986456104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09834519516807096,0.0,0.0,0.08915208222488456
EDAnonymous,acw50616,2019/02/20,Drop your peach usernames!! I just made an account and I want to add all you lovely folks 💕 drop your username below!! Mine is: @doublezero,1.5657692307692308,4.297451346153848,1.9219230769230795,92.86057692307695,93.23076923076924,4.138461538461539,21.884615384615387,5.985473137389443,0.43603076923076944,109,4,20,1,4,33,23,26,0.14300000000000002,0.645,0.213,0.471,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,3,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,1,1,6,4,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,6,1,2,3,1,3,0,0,0,1,4,1,0,0,0,13,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6291630375946993,0.6596160948101701,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4111696481891525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,marychoo,2019/02/20,"Break up diet I'm going through a break up and it's been really difficult - more than it should be at least. I lost some weight (hooray!) but I am so devastated and lonely without anyone to really talk to about how I feel. So thank yall for being here ❤

It also got me thinking, I can't be the only one who is struggling/have struggled with a break up. Anyone wanna share their story to distract/comfort me? Thanks guys :)",1.5226928104575137,3.8249072823529424,3.3639215686274504,87.76653594771244,82.05882352941177,5.660130718954249,20.03267973856209,6.937597516519254,0.4874052287581701,329,9,65,4,9,110,66,85,0.185,0.6659999999999999,0.149,-0.5297,0,2,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,1,1,1,6,7,0,1,3,0,8,2,0,1,0,11,16,7,0,2,2,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,4,3,2,0,2,0,0,1,2,4,0,1,3,2,8,3,14,9,3,8,0,2,0,0,6,4,0,1,0,49,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1961790608956404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34306120480403995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12403910531971064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1394186965434695,0.0,0.1962015595625721,0.0,0.0,0.2429013395930197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26779131681362256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16623242325247978,0.18657381941409426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3143113333511982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25645747423334914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1971756524381213,0.0,0.4517078989206379,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15718854276514946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2987287147078738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2364758027680856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,princesstinytits,2019/02/21,"Woman I looked at myself in the mirror today and accepted what I had been denying to myself. 


I look like a woman. I have curves, I have boobs, I have an ass. 


I want my child body back; when I was a child people wanted to pick me up, hug me and love me.


Now I am a woman whose only attributes are parts you can grab hold of. 
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EDAnonymous,FeedMeDreams,2019/02/21,"Is Peach just not working for anyone else? I miss being there... Their Twitter says it's back up, but it's not working for me, I can't log in.",0.1456989247311853,1.8205530322580683,2.143225806451614,98.1015053763441,83.19354838709677,4.133333333333334,20.010752688172047,3.1291,-0.6346860215053759,108,3,26,0,3,36,25,31,0.049,0.951,0.0,-0.0772,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,1,2,3,1,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,4,4,1,0,0,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,0,1,4,0,4,3,0,3,0,1,0,0,2,2,0,0,1,19,6,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2959973868463174,0.4337445896923272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3255093695461952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3536321693328293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.336643557112128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6163685849378402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,catpotatotots,2019/02/21,"Part of your weight isn’t you I was reading my textbook for microbiology and learned that if you add up all of the microorganisms living within our body it’s about four pounds of organic matter 

Y’all can leave my body now thanks 🙃",9.497333333333334,7.448916622222224,8.656111111111112,73.07750000000001,60.55555555555557,11.666666666666668,35.833333333333336,10.125756701596842,3.2176666666666662,188,6,37,3,2,59,40,45,0.028,0.88,0.093,0.4215,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,1,4,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,3,3,2,0,1,6,4,2,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,1,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,1,8,1,7,3,2,3,0,0,0,0,5,2,0,1,1,27,10,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6597076398133817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.314436051019833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2622196934096438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32157699125307826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29703874493841803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2733993821697005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3616153103925717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,timeforamphetamines,2019/02/21,"~*rEcOVerY*~ accounts... You know the ones The ones where they're not weight restored (and clearly aren't trying to WR, or are losing weight), but still post all these super positive recovery posts. Idk I honestly just think their accounts are really harmful - I think they send the message that you can be recovered and happy and have your life be all rainbows and unicorns while still being underweight which is so so damaging. Like that's just not what recovery looks like - you don't get to stay in an unhealthy body and call it recovery.

Thinking of accounts like @allie_beks @meghanturnbull @balancedbrooke @storyofkorey

No hate towards them, just concerned about the message they're sending.

What are y'all's thoughts?",7.256451612903228,9.884671741935488,5.708903225806456,76.2183548387097,65.45161290322581,9.153548387096777,35.78709677419355,9.642632912329526,3.8868283870967764,592,29,90,13,10,173,85,124,0.153,0.643,0.204,0.8739,0,0,0,0,0,0,23.0,0,5,3,2,9,10,1,0,5,0,11,4,1,0,3,20,19,10,0,0,7,0,2,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,7,5,2,0,5,0,3,2,5,4,0,2,1,3,10,6,6,15,2,11,0,2,1,0,13,3,0,1,6,62,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20319117746606688,0.0,0.0,0.1867893960247466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09557205130165733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19472968983204034,0.0,0.18060300178277147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.100532151735631,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1292070795430602,0.26810736062939816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15361300057413746,0.2046490442113128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24791277128144545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35038789456620034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1171880192980032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1949763402357631,0.2921722224185295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35163760313545395,0.0,0.14522397536905735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12419574221978676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4455127470053801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,annabanana2608,2019/02/21,"I've stopped losing weight And no matter how restrictive I can be, or how much I have gone to the gym (haven't been able to much lately, considering I have a bad back) nothing is working. ",1.5402631578947386,3.830484868421056,3.020263157894739,90.32934210526315,81.89473684210526,5.905263157894738,22.657894736842106,7.1686216300943375,0.7707684210526313,147,5,31,2,4,48,30,38,0.266,0.705,0.029,-0.8442,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,2,3,2,0,0,2,0,7,1,0,2,0,7,8,4,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,2,0,1,0,1,2,2,0,0,2,1,3,0,2,5,2,4,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,22,3,1,0.3070519696304498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23610401145884444,0.25637556907208586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34636799598555684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34351261316440945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4514370550616335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2946246460978323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2567091954881265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3739065787276536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22353749086227584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,touchytascha,2019/02/21,"Are they worried because I’ve lost weight or worried because they think I’m crazy? So a little context I have AN and I restrict but I’ve gotten good at not restricting to heavily and keep it to about 1200 calls/day. I avoid the scale because I hate the anxiety it gives me about having gained or lost weight. So realistically I can’t always tell if I’ve lost weight, other than clothes being a bit baggier. I also look like I’m at a normal and healthy weight.

So this weekend I’m at my uncles as I have my reading week from Uni. My uncle is basically like my dad/close family. They always stuff me with food when I come visit which has been a huge issue with me not wanting to come. They also don’t know I have an eating disorder. 

To my surprise when I got here last night my uncle started talking about how amazing fasting was and all I could think was “this is the best fucking thing”. I was going to have to be careful and secretly fast all week and be careful not to consume to many calories but now I’ve challenged my uncle to a three day fast with me. He was totally on board but like 16 hours in and he is asking why it’s so easy for me and keeps telling me I’m such a healthy weight and why I worry so much about food and stuff. Is this concern coming from the fact that I have way to much knowledge about nutrition and fasting or from the fact that he thinks I’ve lost weight since I last saw him? Like sure there could be small differences but where is this sudden concern coming from? He doesn’t know I’ve ever had an issue with eating but today he was all oh you look healthy don’t lose any weight blah blah blah. I don’t know... I like never post but I’m just a little overwhelmed and I obviously wanna keep fasting but I don’t want him to think I’m weird because it’s easy for me? Anybody else ever deal with this? Also is anybody else deathly afraid of the scale? Like I’m gonna be devastated if I lost and I’m gonna be devastated if I gained.. I can’t step on that thing. Also if I step on it I’m gonna obsess! ",1.5851408450704234,3.504995061032865,3.1888521126760594,91.168911971831,79.61032863849766,5.668450704225353,22.387089201877927,6.6274283507984215,0.4534030046948354,1600,50,346,15,40,528,180,426,0.139,0.695,0.166,0.9655,0,1,0,0,0,0,28.0,0,1,4,10,25,27,2,4,16,0,36,12,0,1,11,73,82,40,1,10,18,0,7,9,0,3,0,0,0,0,19,22,11,6,9,2,0,8,11,13,0,1,15,10,44,14,38,56,8,44,0,7,3,1,20,12,1,7,28,212,63,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20224691830046596,0.10521802783372904,0.0,0.0,0.04299578026836643,0.0,0.04836764062294818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05910768185065714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1541676877668976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0663516815686712,0.0,0.06902630769213075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.128926038150079,0.0,0.0,0.21785405859491255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10096147319879406,0.0,0.0,0.08155095020682662,0.06518312690241948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06605760879878066,0.07246235930452981,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12939176060759858,0.10563425335220802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11438289302748783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059603751780625686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15290601906492218,0.0,0.0,0.058451325958761624,0.0,0.06065204471195655,0.035932736145046884,0.05303088538467849,0.05056752821391111,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06242248678359981,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.062264775843830424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13198282648171286,0.0,0.16859425555076446,0.0,0.0,0.10424190380720882,0.10307509468018893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18533388714772686,0.12673792415107185,0.0,0.0,0.10618766469520477,0.07073360980412917,0.345092694436372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0641011391409416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09295662307622987,0.0,0.04876371201441705,0.0,0.0,0.059333224330693116,0.06194795810069195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06055293517213976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0632430100616275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052301118032895375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04475161760832248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1447570582101653,0.0,0.0,0.05958966272378233,0.0,0.0,0.050818583654434216,0.11052444719966377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08400895740690685,0.16205041568276235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059930760612400234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07458454817049619,0.0501857766832041,0.10143200688216293,0.5389447933075566,0.0,0.0,0.11410308160496688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19262691224091186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,HaleyxxRP,2019/02/21,"Help, Tips, Comments, Friends??? Hello i’m a female.  Last year around this exact time i weighed 192 lbs. Last year in July i lost all that weight and my lowest was 154. I still to this day find that that was the lowest i could drop to. I always tend to gain weight around the school year and now to current date, i weigh 159. I’m going to have a quince soon to celebrate my fifteenth birthday the dress is beautiful but not for someone of my body type, i really need help to drop to less than 140 a goal being 130 or anything lower than that. I’m willing to go to extreme measures to reach this goal except for bulimia because i don’t have a gag reflex. I am fully committed, i was eating less than 350 calories in the summer each day, i just need someone or tips or just help in general to keep me in check. It is a terrible life to have to live in this disgusting body. please comment or PM any tips or help. 

Info- 
5’2
159lbs
Goal Loss- 
more than twenty pounds 
Goal date-
May 10

in no way am i looking to gain an ED, i had one but it wasn’t considered an ED because i wasn’t thin enough, please just help. it’s an absolute burden to be this fat and gross at such a young age. I don’t need a lecture just help me please...

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EDAnonymous,alizarincrimson7,2019/02/21,"DAE have Dory syndrome when restricting? Brain, “I will restrict, I will be thin. I don’t need food. I could fast for days if I wanted to. I will undo this damage I did and be a svelte goddess...ooh chocolate! Let’s eat it!” 🤦🏻‍♀️",-2.766472727272728,-1.8481241199999976,0.3427272727272737,100.70136363636364,120.2,2.6181818181818186,14.545454545454547,4.851557810540192,-1.1124,174,5,41,1,11,60,41,50,0.224,0.7759999999999999,0.0,-0.8602,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,10,3,1,0,0,8,12,3,0,5,1,0,1,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,2,1,2,2,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,1,7,0,2,4,0,4,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,3,25,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4296077408734429,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3072627291234896,0.0,0.0,0.2481894006620206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3937865032149595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4653490012451354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3935240821059211,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2853533371891515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2269880885769678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,TiredMama90,2019/02/21,"I’ve just written my “suicide” note before I attempt my LAST attempt at losing weight It’s not a suicide note per say, I’m not suicidal at all.

I’m resorting to illegal avenues to try and lose weight but I know absolutely nothing about it, obviously it’s not dosed or regulated because it’s illegal.

I don’t want anyone to think I actively killed myself so I’ve wrote a letter in case I accidentally kill myself.",4.4730894308943085,5.840499073170732,6.864390243902438,70.19016260162603,70.46341463414635,9.856910569105693,34.39837398373984,10.125756701596842,3.8699447154471542,332,17,59,9,6,119,54,82,0.343,0.585,0.071,-0.9809,0,0,0,0,0,3,5.0,0,0,0,4,3,4,2,0,2,0,1,3,0,0,2,13,8,4,5,1,6,0,2,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,4,1,2,0,2,0,0,0,4,4,0,0,2,3,9,0,7,6,1,4,0,2,0,0,3,3,0,1,1,32,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12374994464891725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10788659777485292,0.0,0.15059866517269965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3916087700104048,0.0,0.09726469067748897,0.1442639692070956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3959952241945749,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16981902310661104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14074320723875253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5807688193703944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11340293332055675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12015917536744945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10438858187788454,0.0,0.0,0.43103284652962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,beemei,2019/02/21,"Started with IF, now idk As the title mentions, I started IF March of 2018. My intentions were to, of course lose weight, and eat healthier. I did 16:8, then went on to 23:1, then continued to extend it to 48, 72, and my longest fast which is 5 days. Initially, i was amazed at the self-control i didn't know I had in me. I became better at moderating meals and even choosing healthier options when I do get to eat.

The problem is that, fast forward to almost a year later, I no longer have a structure. I've thrown the ""You have to eat 3 times a day"" and ""You have to eat or else you'll get sick"" ideologies out the window a long time ago. For the past few months now, I am spiraling between fasting for 2-5 days and binging. I keep having these thoughts of ""Well, I need to eat bcuz I wont be able to in the next few days"", ""I can easily lose this if I just fast"", ""Why can't I stop eating?!"" It's either all or nothing for me when it comes to eating. I thought it was normal until I started reading abt ED posts and relating to them.

I want to stop binging because sometimes I'd just be binging continuously for days by justifying I will fast tomorrow which usually gets pushed back and back and back. I'm worried abt gaining weight and it distracts me from studying for my exams.

Am I at risk of developing ED? I'd appreciate any feedback and advice",2.8293530192435306,4.334391397810222,4.4263968148639705,85.51042468480428,74.80291970802921,7.317584605175848,27.783012607830127,8.00094639256281,1.7237503649635029,1049,42,218,16,22,352,158,274,0.084,0.8370000000000001,0.079,-0.2987,0,0,0,0,0,0,44.0,0,3,1,4,12,8,0,2,11,0,22,11,0,1,1,36,37,21,0,7,8,0,2,0,0,3,1,0,1,0,10,13,10,3,4,1,0,4,4,5,1,0,9,2,30,3,35,23,4,51,0,2,0,0,5,8,0,7,40,140,40,3,0.09226399568724904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0901593087622219,0.08178646528579865,0.0,0.09238906417421557,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06274268093455386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21283595270076475,0.0,0.05624327540750016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08160000643129113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0794772626720697,0.0,0.0,0.10348191653004313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2975132220417671,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.660863709238812,0.07707472933935464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060939498988960575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14461238907179574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08200847864135567,0.0,0.0,0.05070587911777149,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08165073280459062,0.0,0.20643962191587065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07364424110769828,0.0,0.0,0.06841258372925077,0.0,0.0,0.09812380612559922,0.0,0.09039912627236288,0.08852979223563971,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08807642377220047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08836340374433299,0.0,0.0,0.08828418334790554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0922889636348082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09625146953157393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09125145091895026,0.0,0.1959147930828436,0.0,0.0,0.1542736634055766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14649461317469786,0.10759975570526756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10161575629037677,0.0,0.05441969513403951,0.0,0.0,0.2247053813638273,0.08295641258327217,0.08552964835549802,0.08325390536123188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09369856622132984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05941498822866587
EDAnonymous,ivorycircles,2019/02/21,"My sister is the main reason for my past disorders She’s always been thin, danced ever since she was little. Long torso, long legs, the perfect dancer body basically. We’re the same height but she’s 40 pounds less than me, and I feel that pain every day. I’ve always been short and stocky, not exactly curvy but just ‘squished’ I like to say. I can’t go to any of her dance recitals and be supportive because I just feel like absolute shit the whole time. She eats like garbage and can pile away bread like there’s no tomorrow, then LOSES weight. I exercise regularly and have lowered my carb intake by a lot, but I still feel like I’ll never be as good as her. Does anyone else have a sibling that overshadows them? ",2.5125227963525845,4.8642580283687975,3.150623100303953,90.41250000000002,78.64539007092198,6.58176291793313,21.418946301925022,7.7094869923839395,0.8256095238095247,566,16,116,9,14,177,101,141,0.135,0.727,0.138,-0.1676,1,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,1,2,5,11,1,0,6,0,10,8,3,1,4,21,15,11,0,0,6,1,5,5,0,0,2,1,0,0,2,5,3,0,4,3,0,3,4,3,0,0,3,6,17,8,9,10,5,18,0,1,0,0,9,5,1,1,15,66,19,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25821807774488764,0.0,0.0,0.10551697233466073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10849441178866852,0.15898405261807091,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14578186741396693,0.0,0.0,0.09458665212878344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1723524396296423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10006806834448867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17783160845823198,0.0,0.13578523129765466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1587717066552465,0.12961977337062247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14035489626896874,0.1307325251357997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2353670350713389,0.2216986615695543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08818338688262234,0.13014436372805205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3790269363020452,0.15551528490622585,0.0,0.274630856894162,0.0,0.17358904297695066,0.0,0.13191504852430472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11967219153704405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16510564169129646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14812177981685434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15953463339892998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12339279444479925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1592738147794993,0.12835342422217008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12391432530149506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1760784879177196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09047748898243428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18894818611232292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1732352807241565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,sickcupcake,2019/02/21,"Unearned Guilt I’m super heavily on my period, and after a day of only 450 calories, I got up to brush my teeth around 9PM. On my short walk to my bathroom, everything got blurry, my heart started racing, and I broke out in a bad sweat. I determined that I needed to eat more, for the sake of my health. I hardly made it down the stairs to the kitchen without falling. I ended up eating about 1000 more calories, brining my daily total to about 1450. I NEEDED to eat, so badly, but I felt immense guilt all night. I feel fat and undisciplined. I feel like I’ve ruined everything but eating that many calories, despite 1450 being how many I’m supposed to eat in a day. In hindsight, I should’ve just let myself pass out. That would’ve been so much better than dealing with the guilt of eating. I hate food. I hate my body’s dependence on it. I’m disgusted by it. 
Anyway, good morning, everyone. 🖤",2.3763908275174472,4.577908367231644,3.8039215686274517,86.33485543369892,78.32203389830508,6.198604187437687,23.97108673978066,7.285733465282438,1.1512707876370882,699,24,133,9,17,230,105,177,0.18,0.73,0.09,-0.9502,0,0,0,0,0,0,27.0,0,0,0,2,8,14,3,3,7,0,3,14,5,3,2,21,17,8,0,2,4,0,4,1,0,0,2,0,1,0,6,7,9,0,3,0,0,3,1,10,0,0,5,5,22,4,30,10,5,24,0,2,0,0,1,14,0,1,8,83,28,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10093582976609072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18934186597506536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10027896470761807,0.0,0.12594410204034648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14624664481269234,0.11689396118257367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6961210436154182,0.0,0.0,0.10042460065113347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1083433041989594,0.20380451883213274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11466074958829227,0.08100157710248634,0.1088664543804727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13710442492206865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09510114890490204,0.1813671408855416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10156982426935522,0.22388652075330226,0.0,0.12052192689531507,0.0,0.13436062713789393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11594285756658483,0.0,0.05539371214500023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10728671522070504,0.0,0.22990722987920525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08335031169801567,0.16814565021190425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10640323579646402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08623366773095904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08025380340215707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10929816340981452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08054476516127919,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,giraffle9,2019/02/21,"Between a rock and a relapse place Hello...

I didn't think I'd find myself back in this place at 24. At 19 I figured it was just a phase, just a way to lose weight. Cue to 2019 when it's still my coping mechanism when anything remotely stressful happens in my life. 

Regardless...I'm going out with my ""boyfriend"" tonight (we're dating exclusively but haven't had \*the talk\* yet so he's just a guy I've been seeing, I suppose). We're going out for food and drinks, the two scariest things we could do lol. My ex was also a healthy eater and didn't really care if I ate or not...my current boy realizes and will go out of his way to make sure there's something for me to eat and I don't want to be \*that girl\* who picks at her foods and doesn't order a drink when that was the whole point of going out. I ate a sweet in my office yesterday and I'd love to just stay empty today.  

I'm not asking for tips. Just someone who's been here to tell me my struggle is valid and not trivial lol.",1.7056512493354603,3.285484894736843,3.1096251993620427,93.4487652844232,78.04306220095694,5.984157363104732,22.137426900584803,6.691623216298621,0.3416887825624668,769,22,175,7,18,251,130,209,0.07,0.809,0.122,0.9268,1,0,3,0,0,0,33.0,1,0,0,1,15,7,0,2,11,2,16,10,0,2,1,33,31,16,0,3,10,1,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,3,8,14,8,0,4,3,0,4,7,3,0,1,10,3,18,4,24,18,1,32,0,1,1,1,15,13,0,2,11,107,26,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11499063295833972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11832879309593705,0.0,0.13442636962427476,0.0,0.0,0.1105673861994348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1466058109193398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11480643369100013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.281723380767584,0.0,0.14713539842181567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13142353729520406,0.0,0.34774838723215995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3268818616740869,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14237696244803802,0.12715503676692766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10156473856425374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16086677871098715,0.0,0.0,0.1297781451375633,0.0,0.09598246229098263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3004646522703008,0.0,0.13593018070915305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09211701545268533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11458382890878666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12183473072973465,0.11069832084477232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15326343643314613,0.11483269914705214,0.0,0.16471356890128488,0.15032290986792704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13552252053011232,0.0,0.0,0.11557478649515256,0.12568078908355515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09552920032174517,0.09213628581889732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13629826658236427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14046416200591652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08481241123580943,0.2282712349756177,0.0,0.1751002570318302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16053894353740372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,svidrigailovs,2019/02/21,"I have to quit coffee or else I am going to spiral completely lol I’m a university student back in school after over a year off (bulimia and its attendant mood and behavior disruptions) & I just had an awful two days where day 1 I slept in almost 5 hrs past when I was supposed to (I wake up 4-5 in the mornings) and I let it throw the entire next two days off. slept like shit, got through the next day delirious and bingey. ate a donut, 3 slices of cinnamon toast, a half bag of goldfish, and 3 mini eclairs on TOP of normal meals and drank like 10 cups of coffee to keep my stupid body propped up. then naturally I couldn’t sleep and was just lying there bone tired for 2.5 hrs with my heart pounding the whole time like 35bpm over normal. eventually tried throwing up lol but that didn’t work so I gave up and went to the library and now today’s a new day and my stomach hurts and my head hurts and my homework is due and this semester was supposed to be different :/ I know I need to stop drinking so much coffee but I have relied entirely on caffeine since like age 13,14 and I literally don’t know if I CAN (plus I’m scared I’ll be ravenous without it). I know the coffee isn’t directly tied to the ed but it sure as hell feels like it and I’m so so scared of bombing this semester ",2.8321990369181367,4.224349127340826,4.129620117710008,88.10078651685394,74.58052434456928,7.482718031032639,25.448368111289447,8.11559375814309,1.3676075976457995,1015,34,220,16,21,334,158,267,0.142,0.782,0.075,-0.9698,1,0,1,0,0,0,22.0,0,0,0,3,11,14,3,2,13,3,16,15,10,0,1,37,33,28,0,5,8,0,1,5,0,0,1,0,1,0,8,17,4,2,4,1,0,5,5,7,0,3,12,1,20,6,33,17,2,40,1,2,0,0,1,15,2,3,25,127,28,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11955976109456215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12936758692324676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09180962373516766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13262416303339067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1251864382741347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3850088759716471,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12474540467519578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1169644977363292,0.0,0.0,0.09974163401920312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060371171418797075,0.08529789163259463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06785658447242568,0.0,0.09549341680961906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12253670321022235,0.0,0.0,0.14148709967455367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2556358668152804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10612634949521868,0.0,0.0,0.1968539084445807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12209245367871167,0.0,0.29165894200387965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08777120284664304,0.08853203828439365,0.0,0.1153152466720182,0.2539620662450635,0.0,0.2339692048379303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11397881641501227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12699437556215584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23907627653103086,0.1208370605051741,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12256024007352324,0.09876718598538103,0.0,0.11948413896382758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09982200006470758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11253111830887026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06962188220510931,0.1372303348054212,0.11317525900550235,0.0,0.0,0.08106334423383463,0.0,0.2332688201343182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11068305989767947,0.0,0.13330350393220838,0.0,0.11509532569194646,0.0,0.08692310139061908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07688834021156843
EDAnonymous,c_marier,2019/02/21,"Healthy BMI... 18 weeks pregnant and I've gained 4lbs, which puts me in the healthy BMI category for the first time since college.  I'm going through such a mix of emotions right now.  This is a victory and I have a sense of, not quite happiness, but satisfaction or accomplishment about it, but then immediately I feel awful about being anything but horrified at weight gain and then I feel guilty about not being happy about being healthy for my baby.  My husband has been very sensitive to my emotions over starting to get a baby bump and watching weight go up, but he still just doesn't quite understand.  I don't understand.  There's not really a point to this post, I guess, I just knew this was the place to go to express all these confusing emotions.  The attitude in a lot of the pregnancy forums seems to be somewhat... defeatist.  ""You gotta gain all the weight for baby and there's nothing you can do about it and some people gain a ton of weight and there's really no control over the process.""  And that's supposed to make me feel better?  Haha.  Idk.  

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I'm very happy to be pregnant and so excited for this little one and most of the time, I'm ok with the fact that I will inevitably gain weight in pregnancy and that's good and ok.  But other times, I find myself just daydreaming about after baby's born and how good it will feel to be losing weight again.  I can't wait to feel so focused and in control again.  I can't wait to let myself feel good about the scale going down.  I can't wait until I can skip meals without being immediately nauseous and dizzy .  Trying to remind myself that pregnancy is temporary and plenty of people ""bounce"" right back to their former weight afterwards and I can too.  If that's what's important to me, I will make it happen.

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Pregnancy plus a history of disordered eating creates such a mental paradox.  Any thoughts?  Advice?  Experiences?",4.495245964275483,6.4167691024930775,5.019952239946509,81.24376731301942,71.27146814404432,7.9710000955201075,27.960741236030184,8.641336200584522,2.1745511701213105,1510,56,275,27,29,482,176,361,0.102,0.72,0.179,0.9868,0,0,0,0,0,0,50.0,0,2,1,13,24,13,0,1,19,4,26,9,0,5,3,62,54,31,0,1,14,1,13,0,0,4,0,0,0,0,17,19,9,5,12,0,0,5,10,2,0,2,4,14,26,11,47,38,7,38,0,1,1,0,6,14,0,9,18,191,43,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07171676292603854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15903807406091935,0.1783560148454462,0.04990834596785328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060394478308771975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056433091496719275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06490830948393693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1646283268317799,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0841123588232248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07509723876955511,0.0,0.2476647388479065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07179040767549617,0.0,0.0,0.22265194225838492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06707797624540987,0.06242628367071153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03834372943335195,0.0,0.1668390168435218,0.18467047870095551,0.0,0.0,0.0808483785165226,0.0,0.06489935297189303,0.2343780144257766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07504719362955478,0.0,0.0,0.07355698775901716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08210567287359857,0.0,0.062394340307985886,0.0,0.0,0.09797802521581392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0739607910937537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0704205723049551,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04973159043685487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10176005381423793,0.0,0.07667789660196607,0.0,0.06937814656565003,0.0,0.07028821942704945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07377815075699168,0.0,0.1561205661040668,0.0,0.0,0.09403221221254966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12535089861541673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06681234213222571,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06070973190854587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05194647475348844,0.0,0.05861008784355218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058264196937775035,0.12838451642024598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.049827620853495784,0.0,0.0,0.15280508326500336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12111039918243395,0.0,0.0,0.058869773499763474,0.6255926287202758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07074623314386094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1783560148454462,0.0
EDAnonymous,Bruiseviolet_,2019/02/21,peach? Hi guys I downloaded peach but it seems a bit confusing. I’m not good with technology & not 100% sure how to use. I really wanna make friends but I’m shy 😅 when everyone was talking about peach being down I was rlly sad because it sounded perfect from the way ppl described it ,1.3987969924812025,3.98191910526316,3.31904761904762,85.77000000000002,86.01754385964912,6.76591478696742,25.686716791979947,7.957251820313856,1.9350822055137848,227,10,44,5,7,76,45,57,0.217,0.64,0.14300000000000002,-0.4509,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,1,3,6,0,1,2,0,3,0,0,3,2,13,8,4,0,1,4,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,3,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,2,1,3,4,6,5,1,3,0,1,0,0,4,1,0,2,1,23,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3339558586433167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.187887835958893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3364960262261089,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29451708107571833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2381297346230304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2585200164376011,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3051859086548328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20573900767051664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19745339821924568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2805915906173732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2904933695735373,0.0,0.0,0.24773527702548254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2662028139211061,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2446504092655431,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,fuckinhelpmehdhd,2019/02/21,"pathetic didnt eat since monday (2900 calories) and then broke my """"""fast"""""" (hit my juul to suppress appetite ) but apparently there are like 3 calories in a pod so then I binged (3100 calories) and npw im high so im gonna eat even more dkskskdksj LOL",0.4162285714285723,2.87079868,2.063714285714287,92.98900000000002,92.2,4.457142857142856,23.142857142857146,6.18269132825596,0.5524857142857145,194,8,40,2,7,63,40,50,0.08199999999999999,0.754,0.16399999999999998,0.7365,1,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,0,1,1,2,2,0,0,0,4,4,7,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,3,1,2,1,1,6,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,5,18,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.607970017154566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19621724880208627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3138792682813015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6417905410766831,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14513732819283914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24574603111007565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,fatnihilist57,2019/02/21,"Drank two cups of senna tea. You already know how my evening is going, don't you? I am new to the world of senna tea and failed to do my research on it. I hadn't had a BM for about four days before I drank my first cup, and I had heard senna tea was a good way to find quick relief.

""This is gonna make me feel GREAT,"" I thought, drinking my first cup.. you know, like a child. 

9 hours pass.. nothing.

""Ah, I'm sure another cup won't hurt.. I better steep it for a longer time, too,"" I said to myself, you know, like an idiot. 

Four hours pass.

So here I am, working an overnight shift, fresh out of a before-work binge. It was a pretty big one for me, x boxes of doughnuts and x bowls of oatmeal, so I'm a bit uncomfortable the way it is. Then...it hits me. The stomach grumbles. 

I'm five BMs in (within the span of four hours) and I am thinking existential thoughts and think I'm losing my marbles. It did the job though, I guess?

Yeah. Never again. I figured you all could laugh at my rookie mistake (and maybe learn from it?)",0.4123636363636365,2.3391239720930272,2.0520613107822427,97.75661205073999,83.69767441860466,4.467230443974631,19.075052854122625,5.238671369647483,-0.5477906976744187,774,20,183,3,22,252,125,215,0.08900000000000001,0.802,0.108,0.6134,1,0,1,0,0,0,50.0,0,5,0,6,10,13,1,0,14,2,16,7,1,2,3,26,37,10,0,2,0,0,1,2,0,2,0,2,0,1,7,7,6,0,11,1,0,3,4,5,1,8,12,3,26,8,20,21,2,24,0,3,0,0,8,8,0,1,13,108,33,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1577385035449019,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1498856794714884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1216319202153714,0.0,0.0,0.12641934235237934,0.15605411094290994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1141264357482098,0.0,0.0,0.09218486006695896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14002736728360105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09441091640053673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07227506087067513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1306451163293939,0.24317039805535104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08123643550328173,0.1198917912302706,0.0,0.1575925131291371,0.15746518317264752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4223030853992617,0.0,0.15302086575919496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1418464867073827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2356692421414981,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13966711124802708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15991396557090484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09541395863832597,0.0,0.14360304249287106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11024460063294814,0.13805291957515406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13715535822225874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0968602480506898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14542197550913374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1359692410835405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1347198213067372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18318112610118267,0.14043841108148736,0.22695773524608145,0.08334981177354654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13963219346435493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2269191855721896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20812491447263154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ms_ireneadler2,2019/02/21,"Website for weight loss projections? There's this website where you can input your height, weight, and any calories at you wanted to get a weight loss chart. 

Can anybody remind me what the site is??",3.7416666666666663,6.717733166666669,2.6700000000000017,91.95000000000003,78.44444444444446,4.711111111111111,22.88888888888889,5.985473137389443,0.4253555555555559,158,5,28,1,4,45,30,36,0.138,0.862,0.0,-0.6298,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,3,0,2,2,2,0,0,2,0,3,3,0,0,0,2,5,1,0,1,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,3,4,0,3,5,0,4,0,2,0,0,3,4,0,0,0,17,6,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17902388224606422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13754098978501186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15527588155987804,0.0,0.0,0.9617288216125736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,rose_04,2019/02/22,"my dads ED blinds him from mine for the last 6 years my dad has been majorly obsessed with food and his weight. he doesn’t eat grains or sugar, he is completely paleo. 
he goes to the gym constantly and becomes depressed and withdrawn if he doesn’t. he is very very insecure and i suspect that he has an eating disorder as it is a major obsession of his. 
i have recently been in treatment for my anorexia which was developed 3 years ago and my dad has told me that i am being attention seeking and dramatic, and that if i wanted to “fix” myself i would stop eating carbs and exercise more, even though i cry for hours and punish myself if i exceed 500 calories and i exercise until i faint. 
he is not supportive at all and it really effects me and i work hard and eat less in order to gain his approval. its the worst. advice ?",4.099735772357722,5.374413323170736,5.3534146341463416,81.02308943089433,71.25609756097559,8.881300813008131,28.300813008130078,9.2995712137729,2.4675666666666682,651,24,125,14,12,217,104,164,0.187,0.7759999999999999,0.037000000000000005,-0.9722,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,4,2,7,1,3,5,0,16,11,0,1,1,26,19,20,0,5,5,3,2,0,0,1,4,0,0,0,7,14,7,1,3,3,0,0,3,6,0,0,4,4,23,1,14,13,6,13,0,1,1,0,15,3,0,4,9,89,30,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15064896755350154,0.13665861822044675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17026393710123694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16163983525629033,0.16659838624272064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16934381583979854,0.0,0.0,0.13278271773962388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17668728339393291,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6310001190890163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10182501099388773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18641781320990708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13810221325219987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1518221901766156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12566564654676188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09876251456860656,0.0,0.15222006013199935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1288894537448191,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17494544397376038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1514670474298593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14731196207697878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2544057463335641,0.09093094211869736,0.0,0.0,0.1877323272045801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11223448787621963,0.0,0.0,0.10951491168432982,0.0,0.0,0.1985553517819889
EDAnonymous,wowitsholly,2019/02/22,"binged 4000+ calories this whole week... my sweet friend bought me this HUGE box of chocolates (talking about $30 worth of chocolates and cookies) for valentines day and i ended up eating the whole thing (6,000+ calories) over the span of two days the beginning of this week. and of course, this gave my brain the excuse of going ‘fuck it’ mode and literally. eat. everything. in. sight for the rest of the week bc hey, why not! 4000+ calories since Monday! anyways I actually want to die and feel like i have no self control anymore. i gained 15 pounds since last month and am officially overweight again bc ive binged more this whole month than I did eating normally. this is great!11!",2.427063953488375,5.279526333333337,2.3729796511627903,92.40970203488372,84.11627906976744,5.085465116279072,22.79118217054264,6.6274283507984215,0.6217321705426362,543,19,105,6,16,162,86,129,0.063,0.7879999999999999,0.15,0.8723,0,0,0,0,0,1,25.0,0,0,0,2,3,4,1,0,6,0,5,6,1,1,0,11,12,6,1,2,1,0,1,1,1,0,1,0,0,1,8,6,4,1,1,0,2,1,2,1,0,1,3,3,9,3,15,9,5,18,0,0,1,1,6,5,1,0,13,58,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.137454790841243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13969095079130786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15724148356986348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15798158305726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1816804766462896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14618592126344235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.43239146843177895,0.0,0.0,0.1247562932926018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1265919712944966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07122084634660239,0.10062730092665824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1088247219133762,0.13021877407758878,0.0,0.0,0.08005150906863369,0.0,0.0,0.15529384586792044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11481615042108075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06881495324970066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22485926398293904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.138008625607111,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1469431572014908,0.0,0.0,0.2330344901991065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11321443192766227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0935782316793105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13759549803158794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08308030886027355,0.0,0.3389577063934404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12710031091131005,0.4717808921658667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,throwawayfmltbh,2019/02/22,Cancelling plans bc I feel fat I had nice plans for tomorrow but I binged today and I need to take lax I feel so fucking bloated. I’m not gonna want to leave the house tomorrow ): sigh. ,-1.2535164835164851,0.5988776410256413,0.8033699633699634,99.22615384615385,105.92307692307692,4.2798534798534815,18.391941391941394,6.18269132825596,-0.05525201465201457,144,5,33,2,7,47,30,39,0.205,0.715,0.081,-0.5695,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,2,1,3,1,0,1,0,1,2,1,0,0,7,9,3,0,2,2,0,2,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,2,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,1,2,5,1,3,7,0,3,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,3,14,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3909349540610151,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3573888339809964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4460637298495335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4093345248681805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2866456580703456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2906615567576682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3664345385418821,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22801608232513934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,teryakis,2019/02/22,"Need help for my friend Hi everyone💕 so...... I followed the old sub and still follow edanonymemes bc I can sometimes fall into disordered eating habits but rn I’m in a good place with my eating. So I hope that I’m somewhat educated on this subject but I’m worried about my good friend/roommate! She had a bad bf before who would make her feel bad about her body, and since I’ve lived with her I’ve noticed red flags about her eating and her attitudes toward her body and food and lately she’s been more open about body dysmorphia but not in a serious way, in like a “joking” casual way because she’s someone who will like hide her pain? If that makes sense? And I just want to know how I can help her without making it like an intervention style kind of thing because she’ll get defensive. Hopefully this makes sense and I’m sorry if this kind of thing gets posted all the time (it’s natl margarita day...I’m doing my best) thank you all so much ",2.415093567251464,4.575182099999998,3.3077192982456154,90.14847953216378,78.0,6.538011695906433,22.13450292397661,7.594959193182576,0.8443099415204678,749,22,155,11,18,238,116,190,0.096,0.691,0.214,0.9679,1,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,1,0,1,10,19,1,0,7,0,8,8,3,5,2,35,27,16,0,7,8,0,1,3,2,3,1,0,0,0,11,11,4,1,2,3,0,3,2,5,0,0,2,2,22,14,17,22,6,18,0,0,1,0,20,8,0,5,7,89,33,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18997530332205384,0.13869817370622134,0.0,0.09680423821334394,0.0,0.11938762511410585,0.0,0.0,0.3790963323962816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07336795421616556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13038266375478832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3492249475008325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05752217178697942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1375631035282806,0.0,0.17578657569182676,0.0,0.11887331782765086,0.0,0.0,0.1908386137048404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1525063610828786,0.0,0.0,0.2259853664139909,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23693406103586875,0.06252136614420478,0.0,0.12833002250675946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1667370902788103,0.0,0.10045512896368614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3037516982235517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08362915758368793,0.08435408813784785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1295203365964901,0.11937550669894215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12105223335316664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11885849535012805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10895384944250708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09410622496880544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09639132368154206,0.0,0.1125148695448624,0.1273487648411953,0.0,0.0,0.09085156429871112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10473801504887008,0.0,0.0,0.15115863947988167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06633632865186072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0671005757937605,0.18060011595979195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10966381702954882,0.0,0.0,0.11553221180337653,0.0,0.08081422517792597,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,goosegurl,2019/02/22,I'm drunk and wanna fucking die I haven't eaten in 3 days and will probably delete this in a few hours but I'm drunk w a bunch of people at a sports bar rn and watching people shove waffle fries into their faces I wanna fuckin cry I want to eat food and not hate myself ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ ,0.3612142857142828,2.6007928833333342,1.9128571428571417,96.61500000000002,86.83333333333334,4.095238095238095,15.238095238095234,5.288315135182226,-0.925190476190476,223,4,49,1,7,72,46,60,0.192,0.7170000000000001,0.091,-0.7269,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,1,0,0,3,3,0,3,0,2,9,1,0,0,10,8,5,1,3,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,5,6,0,0,4,0,0,2,3,0,0,1,1,5,0,8,6,2,6,0,0,1,2,1,4,2,0,2,27,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3247509251459857,0.19066584772317854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3068316763297892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30251750178353154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35749375909233017,0.0,0.0,0.2733180076064447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29188712895187496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29114967365674754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.409924489443693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3187541114178801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.174378423156466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,dewchild,2019/02/22,"My boyfriend confronted me on my bulimia and I don't know how to feel. I told him I ate three chocolate bars and he said ""don't puke please, it's your birthday and you deserve to be happy"" and I felt so many feelings at once. I had never told him I was bulimic so I don't know how he knew. I was contemplating purging at the time.  I want to lose weight. I don't want people poking their nose in my business. I also felt grateful because it's been four years of me struggling with food and body image on and off and counting calories every single day and I'm just exhausted. But I'm back up to my start weight of almost 150lb at 5'5... I've lost 8lb so I'm at 142lb. It feels so pointless if I'm not even skinny. It's embarrassing and I feel childish",-0.2844444444444427,1.8881267901234613,2.064061728395064,94.6912777777778,89.74074074074073,4.721481481481481,20.44567901234568,6.2581,0.11259160493827156,588,20,133,6,20,199,97,162,0.123,0.7979999999999999,0.079,-0.6990000000000001,0,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,2,1,2,10,7,1,2,1,0,9,9,3,2,1,29,30,18,0,3,4,0,8,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,4,10,6,0,9,1,0,0,6,6,0,2,12,10,23,1,16,17,1,15,0,2,0,0,10,9,0,2,6,79,27,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16223427211805208,0.0,0.0,0.12956305955502284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12457926767122493,0.0,0.09876262876810768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1799617560122961,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1044860481158831,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10700915038028888,0.0,0.136504332876956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3276779064252633,0.0,0.3111189485453811,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19590876163559653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17246761088215115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17807803259627378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18125295508293587,0.17685813241352102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1642574290447122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12495568836231498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17254031797220276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11232056091680877,0.0,0.0,0.17784343702376965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15411303608657298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1146748053536564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16937289257950852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0944720471137542,0.0,0.0,0.3096238880574653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19112088011431927,0.0,0.0,0.3945804009642071,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10433212474155992
EDAnonymous,milk-and-roses,2019/02/22,"Does fat ever redistribute normally..? Before my weight loss/gain, my chestbones didn't show at a healthy weight and only showed when I was slightly underweight. Now they still show at a healthy weight and I'm worried that from now on I'm only gonna lose fat from my chest (not even boobs) and everything else will stay pudgy while my chest is skeletal. Do you think there's hope that it'll ever even out? :( I'm not really a fan.",3.481428571428573,5.282000470588237,3.5833613445378165,90.99941176470593,73.70588235294117,7.2100840336134455,23.907563025210084,7.957251820313856,1.0879915966386564,340,10,71,5,7,104,59,85,0.175,0.7909999999999999,0.034,-0.8737,1,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,1,1,1,9,2,0,0,3,0,6,9,6,0,2,11,12,5,0,2,2,0,3,0,0,3,2,0,0,0,3,4,5,0,1,3,0,0,3,1,0,0,2,3,7,1,6,7,0,12,0,1,0,1,2,4,1,1,7,39,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1540858548611774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1584644434935649,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15126921430734766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23920343830871146,0.32759469224019105,0.0,0.0,0.1627431462221522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17985342900625345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2025823488242504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1774200820749265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27543919982208565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11600456916347887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1930073268719114,0.14461082705480607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1160288366727882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6615204512729275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18389566353998732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ratorture,2019/02/22,"Earning food with exercise? I've found more and more that my relapses are a descent into this behaviour. I exercise X amount, 'earn' Y amount of food. My recovery strategy now is to trick myself into overestimating exertion and under estimating intake, or eating something 'for free' behind my own back. But obviously the worse the period of relapse, the less possible clarity is. Is there a word for this? Exercise bulimia I guess? I hear a lot about exercising off calories, but not about exercising to have calories available and then eating those available calories. Means my intake is high when I'm working really hard (burning 1300 in exercise usually) and low when I'm lazy. Getting to eat if I've been productive is big motivation, and I actually want to eat/enjoy eating the food once I've earnt it. ",5.6604942528735664,8.027444882758623,7.188706896551723,65.04489942528741,69.13793103448276,11.17816091954023,34.8419540229885,11.038039088145766,4.933816091954023,648,33,99,23,12,222,93,145,0.08199999999999999,0.858,0.06,-0.4971,0,0,1,0,0,0,18.0,0,0,0,4,7,3,1,0,7,0,8,13,0,1,1,21,16,12,0,2,5,0,1,0,0,0,6,1,0,0,5,8,7,0,3,6,1,0,1,2,0,0,2,2,9,2,17,14,7,15,0,1,0,0,1,8,0,4,7,67,14,4,0.0,0.0,0.13134124171154998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10349204566826824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6886001331994601,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4882433221435957,0.14757190555666752,0.0,0.0,0.07031815717270913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14826698059105653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12056695339823167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15169365478727628,0.0,0.0,0.14220260858166894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11442431639547765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1466088778823387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14333484857465734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15173094579676247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08622233642077914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10361460164757293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14823279183575874,0.0,0.07938516264660696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09798373212697964,0.0,0.13715956107050706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,__coni__,2019/02/22,"Dad called me a walrus Hello, I'm new to reddit but I've been spying on this sub for like ages, that's why I decided to join and the first thing I'm gonna do is rant :)

So yesterday I was napping. It was really hot, so I was wearing a tank top and shorts. Thing is, my dad thought it would be fun to take a pic of me and send it to the family group with the caption ""the other walrus"" (the other bc the first is my cousin who is fit as hell but they call him that bc he's always sleeping)

Seeing my horribly fat body (I'm 150 cm and weight around 78 kg, not my highest weight but still obese), my fat legs, my fat arms, my fat everything... as soon as I woke up, plus all the laughs from the rest of my family, made me want to die so bad. I laughed of course, but damn. A walrus, jesus christ. 

Everyone in my family laughs at my fat body, I am so damn tired. I used to be ""healthy"", weight wise, I gained +40 kg after being medicated by my psychiatrist almost 8 years ago, and I've been diagnosed with an ed about 6 years ago now. I don't know why they do this, they know it hurts. I mean, they have to, I don't think they can be that stupid and oblivious.

So that's that, I'm going to go and cry now :) ",1.2454761904761928,2.3889326538461546,3.2170329670329667,94.04987179487179,78.23076923076924,6.9523809523809526,18.919413919413927,7.62386473244151,0.15567216117216146,910,17,227,13,21,308,143,260,0.16399999999999998,0.685,0.151,-0.8396,0,0,0,0,0,1,45.0,0,0,5,4,11,12,4,0,13,0,21,18,11,2,1,28,39,20,1,2,5,3,4,1,0,2,9,0,0,0,16,11,9,0,6,1,0,3,3,6,0,2,8,5,31,6,27,25,2,25,3,1,1,0,16,8,3,1,15,133,47,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21738419529256,0.0,0.12278267742200548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1020267211778941,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10915464972675996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10237962627847058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2723985006161559,0.0,0.0,0.2504102394732937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13468842877776954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12445313054991697,0.1272565316496968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11716528657349196,0.11019977206015844,0.0,0.3467756708206749,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20859500436260425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13937152510111278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13126346140759773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1347736045334697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05990421102461456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11602266358130192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13356527623768805,0.0,0.1235231882151126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11842374561764972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07855124702027036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09770944710823362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12270501678100935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09792166704898964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09219232159947036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16292186140087428,0.07856767950333607,0.0,0.09734377652950786,0.0,0.1409295884892346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10590125661240574,0.0,0.0,0.07232236772576213,0.0,0.0,0.4479414625786979,0.0,0.0,0.2212845751270886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08710321843965438,0.0,0.0,0.15792196617461787
EDAnonymous,dietdumbbitchjuice,2019/02/22,"What's wrong with me? When I wake up I keep shaking? I don't restrict super low, only about 900. I'm 92 lbs now and 5'3/4 so I'm not remotely close to my lw and I'm not underweight. I recently lost my recovery weight but 14 lbs in 1 1/2 months is normal. Almost every time I sleep I'll wake up shaking but not from the cold. It's like my arms and legs are spasming and I can't stop it?? Idk what's wrong with me.",-1.6972704714640194,0.2318608279569893,1.1569892473118273,99.50933002481388,96.63440860215051,4.581968569065342,15.75599669148056,6.297961479604792,-0.5438231596360628,319,8,80,4,13,110,62,93,0.14,0.732,0.128,-0.4814,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,2,4,8,0,2,1,0,4,6,5,0,0,17,9,8,0,1,5,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,7,1,3,0,0,0,2,5,6,0,0,1,2,11,2,8,8,0,13,0,2,0,0,0,5,0,1,7,40,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2552661509436095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2147815944541629,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2265851361806785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1245413253288978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2782759409271038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20347518545351576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24976805662516424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1938785983339229,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25170333199189443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.255104693860875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2131250305515171,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1486462479453378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3104246065795109,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5574313012430256,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,1-800-FixYourFace,2019/02/22,"I did a thing. I broke my 5 year hiatus from psychiatric therapy today. I just left an appointment with a new (to me) doctor today and I have another appt to talk to her again next week. I’m just a couple pounds shy of my UGW and I’m not open to the idea of gaining weight, but I feel like this is a step in the right direction. ",0.4249496981891312,2.234285338028169,2.824869215291752,92.87521126760565,82.94366197183099,6.874044265593561,18.593561368209254,7.957251820313856,0.5162378269617709,253,6,60,5,7,87,52,71,0.054000000000000006,0.865,0.081,0.4118,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,1,3,2,0,0,7,0,3,2,0,0,0,10,6,3,0,0,4,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,4,1,0,2,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,1,2,9,1,9,5,0,12,0,1,0,0,2,4,0,0,8,37,11,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2461018288858769,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25968941344163177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2402238479627349,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11867060766465495,0.16766864704901535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2649460258703205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2550005944275859,0.0,0.0,0.11466182638176944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22667326265110674,0.2496045050708538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2004312267719532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1886417548014062,0.0,0.0,0.2683981757272426,0.0,0.15592324701568794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4449334489675299,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18826097064602015,0.2857995308003197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15113813167442688
EDAnonymous,kindalost_,2019/02/22,"Does anyone meal prep? Sorry if this is already established somewhere - I’m curious in seeing how many people here meal prep vs. alternatives. 

I am not quite in recovery but I’m not really restricting as far anymore. I want to find a decent enough balance and thought meal prep would be a decent option. Like I said, was curious as to who preps and what sort of things y’all make? ",3.3340117416829758,5.7674685068493154,4.479882583170255,81.51849315068493,76.26027397260273,8.007045009784736,25.497064579256357,8.841846274778883,2.214821526418786,303,11,55,7,7,99,56,73,0.016,0.809,0.175,0.8912,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,1,0,1,2,1,0,0,2,0,5,3,0,2,0,16,12,7,0,3,5,0,0,1,0,1,0,1,0,0,4,2,3,1,2,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,3,2,4,1,7,7,1,3,0,0,1,0,3,3,0,3,1,31,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2969452993355272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.266862989932078,0.18815258623204525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2354807221825827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27803983579255115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24594155709175602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13146280465716448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1796183295258669,0.2728129970037382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1865517378852582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2862082107337583,0.0,0.0,0.17238466321439913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2559643085651761,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21442829708701452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3012219854800388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17877011042616076,0.0,0.0,0.21362581460643995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15871507425026904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1911523947129106,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,smanzis,2019/02/22,"I just flushed gifted ice cream in the toilet =) My colleague wanted to gift us ice cream, so i told him if he really wanted to bring some to me then it had to be either an ice lolly (later found out there weren't any) or an extra tiny vanilla ice cream cup (I am Italian dunno if that matters). It ended up being a small cup but if was filled over the top so that it almost was double :/ i started eating it while panicking over which calories i could cut away from the rest of the day.
I almost ate half of it while losing control and decided to go downstairs to fake having to do some work and flushed it down the toilet.
It was a gift, for me, paid by someone who wanted to do something nice to me, and i flushed it.
This illness sucks and i feel awful.
Sorry about my English...",3.681852272727273,4.4350061625000015,4.758977272727275,86.85011363636367,71.75,6.5681818181818175,25.17045454545455,6.11248444174946,0.7636250000000002,606,17,124,3,11,199,102,160,0.161,0.762,0.077,-0.9451,0,0,1,0,0,0,20.0,1,0,0,4,5,5,2,0,9,1,12,3,0,1,0,26,24,14,0,7,7,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,13,5,2,1,3,0,1,3,1,4,0,1,9,4,15,1,22,12,6,19,0,1,3,0,5,9,1,9,7,94,28,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4267137247906732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1448935722221994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20018443542749548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2389739221069839,0.17011749080120736,0.0,0.0,0.1374112578005177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21802179531962396,0.0,0.0,0.18871503968191305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10773360196712042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23361810604590125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12109147612339398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23836863377571765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13649684103143886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.180531857125425,0.16403018517851506,0.0,0.2385122243508776,0.15081065391811024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20359564109399755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2562946152815589,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3770191475610762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15511606925766688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,fuckidy-007,2019/02/22,"Always the girl who was fat Always the girl who no one wanted to be around
Always the girl who was stupid
Always the girl who was weird
Always the girl who was quiet
Always the girl who retreated into her clothes 
Always the girl who was looked down upon 
Alway the girl who had to prove herself 
Always the girl who overcompensates 
Always 
Always
Always
Always 
Always

always fucking stops today I’m so sick of this shit ",5.364599156118143,7.183320164556964,5.3779113924050685,79.95690928270044,68.87341772151899,6.279324894514768,19.495780590717303,6.42735559955562,0.36064388185653984,339,5,55,2,6,106,37,79,0.191,0.809,0.0,-0.9436,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,0,2,4,3,0,9,0,7,4,2,0,1,5,11,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,9,10,2,1,1,1,0,0,0,1,4,0,1,6,2,2,0,7,4,0,6,0,0,1,1,20,4,2,0,2,38,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.9818562914146658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07003013742155788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07272619634451666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06606030594958276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05330666499075768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08075034790469818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.065768973926066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0745669356833524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04639972152506399,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,otob130,2019/02/22,"Anyone else lie to themselves when they gain with bs like “I must be retaining water?” I GORGED myself last night on shabu shabu (so nothing but meat and salt and carbs) and when I gained this morning I was like, “yeah, must have been all that sodium making me retain water. Not the 5000 calories I ate at 8:00 pm last night!” 🙃",2.596145833333331,4.761047156250001,2.7668750000000024,94.22395833333336,77.4375,4.891666666666667,18.479166666666664,5.46131890053228,-0.4327833333333335,254,5,52,1,6,77,51,64,0.0,0.795,0.205,0.9134,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,1,2,3,2,0,0,1,1,6,3,0,1,3,12,8,7,0,2,2,0,0,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,4,3,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,1,8,2,4,2,1,8,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,8,30,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2133804884009768,0.3126805725412827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25492861883174034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4975051309381394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2981792387345921,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20370194025783414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5727587955404898,0.0,0.2928168266504552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ashycloudy,2019/02/22,"What to do after a binge? I hadn't eaten at all in the past three days, and have been restricting under 500 cals with no sugar and minimal salt, fat, etc. for the past few weeks after a while of straight binging everyday for like a month, but this afternoon I fell into probably the biggest binge I've had in years and currently forcing myself to stop eating before I make myself sick bc then I'm afraid I'll get back into the habit of purging. I'm in so much pain, I can even feel it in my chest. I didn't even have the urge to binge or want to binge. I just had a good night previously and decided that wasn't allowed, so did something I knew would make me feel like shit.

​

Anyway, what's the best thing to do after a binge? I don't mean to reduce the weight I'll gain from it. I mean, how to feel better and stuff. Whatever you guys do afterwards? Idek tbh",3.33874358974359,4.340439011111112,4.428888888888888,87.97115384615385,72.7777777777778,7.7606837606837615,23.84615384615385,8.139509932561175,1.123410256410256,682,18,148,10,13,223,112,180,0.108,0.7509999999999999,0.14,0.7288,2,0,1,0,0,0,22.0,0,1,0,3,8,8,1,1,12,0,15,9,3,4,1,27,28,12,0,2,3,0,4,2,0,1,3,0,0,1,8,8,5,2,7,0,0,1,5,3,0,1,9,6,14,5,24,18,5,29,0,0,0,0,2,10,1,1,20,97,22,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1723586451353774,0.19329460100686946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1223195294411011,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13536185394529798,0.0,0.16694031761249833,0.140689685117713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10259077997170732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16277433443730466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17741165149789792,0.21013623157510825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2413006277334296,0.11364383756667573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08311057957151206,0.0,0.0,0.1334252974467233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15751012706843168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15543287551689827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2123687648879456,0.0,0.0,0.3465605272107209,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12697284651440768,0.0,0.11693907233135012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14928193348782198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16926794769864498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30371184681802665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1715106994778984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1632891006854138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1224643810538211,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13299455524407608,0.0,0.0,0.1821038193978952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10568294352336136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09382707315172473,0.0,0.12760107238168752,0.19371156162194605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11300293816814452,0.0,0.19329460100686946,0.10243964860716208
EDAnonymous,freshgreenavocado,2019/02/22,"I lost control Got sick of being called 'fat'. I'm 5'5. I went from 132 pounds to 103 pounds in 2 months. I maintained for 3 months. Best months in my entire life. At the beginning, I got comments like ' wow you look so much better! Look at you, you're so skinny!' .. but after a while they turned into : ' you look disgusting. your legs look like two parantheses..' 'you're just bones.' The thing is.. I never felt skinny enough. 

I just.. don't know anymore... I've been binging like HELL for the past month. I don't know anymore.. I can't go back to how I used to eat... My past motivation used to be : ""YOu'll LOOK SO MUCH BETTER once you're skinny "" but ..... all of that motivation is gone. So is my thigh gap. Now my thighs are huge and flabby. I weigh 118 pounds now. I am disgusted with myself. 

I look disgusting when I'm fat and I look disgusting when I'm skinny. I literally gained 15 pounds. I can never win..  

I don't know.. what I should do... Help me.. I want to go back to my lowest weight, but at the same time, I don't. I just want to be like all my classmates who can eat and eat and eat crap all day everyday at school and still look skinny. Why must I be like this... 

How can other people eat normally and not overthink it? It boggles my mind and it makes me wanna cry so bad. HOW CAN THEY??? It must be a JOKE??? Right ?

What should I do..? If i continue like this, I will hate my body even more. If I maintain, I will hate myself just as much.. If I'm skinny again, I'll certainly be less miserable, but I won't be able to deal with my family and my friends attacking me with words such as "" You are disgusting "" ""You're a walking skeleton"". As I said.. I can never win... Please, please, please help me.",-0.7069414012023145,1.4743183553008627,1.279396595314342,98.07832743412551,96.10601719197709,4.685678970728691,15.15259284229451,6.42735559955562,-0.5026899151637729,1282,29,298,17,51,420,161,349,0.194,0.645,0.161,-0.9687,1,0,0,0,0,0,93.0,0,6,2,10,22,28,10,1,7,0,34,23,14,9,9,55,67,29,0,11,12,0,2,6,1,8,4,1,0,0,12,12,15,1,6,1,0,5,10,13,0,1,8,11,53,15,28,44,11,38,1,2,8,0,16,9,2,3,30,187,65,3,0.07665269741631434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15203775728551747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08720350925374999,0.0,0.11788238564901275,0.06400180055731243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08044227684280426,0.13558616349869376,0.0,0.08514386671585432,0.0,0.0,0.07827097434740705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08597251806355408,0.0,0.0,0.08419938877844241,0.0494346485140834,0.07902556522757134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3921742291188909,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07920272698865483,0.0,0.050628383714668775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07226134120873193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07359861026782466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059221683878607226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08712698880759319,0.0,0.12261232896199578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1513573384832962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10275737461728028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12637895357635914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0541420670747199,0.22469181648185704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5149516828363693,0.0,0.08367547409796816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05116627074334003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07739737316272383,0.0,0.24473380707324566,0.0,0.16904565712018718,0.0,0.17735785720909233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0751033685593162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08163262107496101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14634734623474782,0.053141328913779484,0.0,0.0,0.2524249301702745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06546098477030933,0.07291426853400038,0.0,0.0,0.07757662207751563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06121494317299444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050924646137322366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.044696804288116634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08337612341278522,0.07487854730318069,0.0,0.0,0.13240663891544746,0.0,0.0,0.09042349387810217,0.0,0.0,0.09334233509615596,0.0,0.0710578184554369,0.06916713685382829,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,FormerFeatherWeight,2019/02/22,"I just agreed to a foursome because I hate myself. The other girl is so much skinnier than me. Fuck my self esteem right. I know the guys are only going to want her and not a fat pig like myself. Also??? I don’t even want the foursome? I only agreed because my fwb (who probably only fucks me when he can’t find anyone else) wanted to. 


Kill me now pls. ",-0.3594520547945201,1.8935380547945224,1.9665890410958904,93.96522602739726,93.10958904109587,3.4679452054794515,15.519178082191784,4.935628992294339,-0.8318372602739723,270,6,56,1,10,91,53,73,0.219,0.6409999999999999,0.14,-0.8878,0,0,0,0,0,1,12.0,0,0,0,0,6,5,4,0,5,0,4,3,1,0,0,8,12,4,1,3,2,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,3,2,1,1,0,2,0,0,1,3,4,0,0,0,0,13,1,4,12,1,4,0,0,0,2,6,1,2,0,3,37,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1600903005991936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13997612984348007,0.20511630069627268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2440655381519195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.167231417070125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13222231020231126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18296823880446905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3701412282290598,0.0,0.0,0.11377147457477604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19821762982176394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19764424115455434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22147840225034626,0.0,0.11001810958448173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09780176282873347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14716124088329602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4567560681182633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21583656220918296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17095948950748052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20883978163551276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35422827216375724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,iron_blanket,2019/02/22,"I hate feeling like a failure No matter where my weight is I always feel like I failure. 
Because I can't restrict enough
Because I restrict too much 
Because I purge
Because I don't
Because I can't look after myself
Because I indulge and I'll be easy on myself 
Because I have no self control
Because I have too much control

It's just exhausting. 

I still want to lose weight, but mainly I just want to stop hating myself so much",2.1330103359173123,4.553886383720934,3.504108527131784,86.9593669250646,80.51162790697674,4.28733850129199,29.32299741602067,5.033348758259628,1.1921074935400515,343,17,61,1,9,112,48,86,0.249,0.589,0.163,-0.8797,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,3,7,6,2,0,1,0,7,3,0,2,0,14,14,3,0,2,3,0,4,2,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,1,2,5,2,0,0,0,5,4,0,0,0,5,17,2,4,13,5,5,0,1,1,0,1,2,0,0,5,46,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11213600548796296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6572162218746158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30230278073896644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13924917607438134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13628335329034508,0.19255353883471304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2661068056359887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13167960037637114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11316939498079398,0.15076854452572475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2972052777464377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14059020099980055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10762420341285174,0.11267030754294463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15897681177184986,0.0,0.0,0.3282170639619609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,anxthekitten,2019/02/22,"I’m always fighting with my ED mindset and trying to bargain with it i’m always thinking that i’ll binge and fast the next day and i NEVER do. since january i’ve been stuck in this cycle and it’s irritating!! but now somethings changed, i get to move out of my parents house in a week and that’s soooo exciting considering i’ll be able to eat as little as possible and not have to deal with them forcing me. how amazing it would be to go from 140 to 125 the next time my family sees me. 

my current fuel is this guy i met on Tinder and he likes me and i actually like him a lot too, and we’ll probably meet up in two weeks or so, and i want to look decent and not like all those chocolate bars i’ve been eating are showing at my hips. i want to wean myself off of the food for a while so i can eat “normal” on this date.
on the bright side, my new size 5 jeans fit and i have this thing with 3 and 5 so as long as i’m in that range i’m happy...i think. going from a 9 to a 5 makes me happy even if it’s just vanity sizing. 

😞 i’m hoping i can do a juice fast for a handful of days and actually look decent for once. my head is imagining scenarios and this would be my first ever date- ever so i don’t want to be disgustingly fat on it. yikers, this year has to be the year i get small. ",1.1597574370709367,2.2774582877192984,3.6924332570556833,90.65993135011445,78.40350877192982,6.781083142639207,20.812356979405035,7.423996415210882,0.4294576659038905,992,24,239,13,23,349,153,285,0.046,0.8029999999999999,0.152,0.9851,2,0,1,0,3,0,21.0,1,0,1,1,11,10,2,0,12,0,21,9,4,2,4,43,42,28,0,8,6,1,1,3,0,3,1,1,0,1,16,20,6,0,3,2,1,3,4,2,0,2,4,6,27,8,39,30,2,41,0,0,4,0,10,16,0,4,25,151,43,0,0.11826296213234705,0.0,0.23081518280757826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19680851668496516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12510653282685102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15253965384922358,0.12192392104920872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3630376039267623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07811157112385547,0.21395123986213466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1114877955642827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1005944151751122,0.14300404324211996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12357503318078945,0.0,0.13442313350168933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11709892578744342,0.0,0.12589312228072858,0.0,0.0,0.12137191801318928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1174618058253858,0.0,0.13645958001149028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1733319288147226,0.11853055685153333,0.0,0.10465899996874067,0.19862220580610768,0.0,0.0,0.1005429412813744,0.0,0.0,0.07894144555029269,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12569481275848735,0.0,0.0,0.09121168707682004,0.11421910577058275,0.25154800378360903,0.0,0.11587259328530468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12594619498540469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13131702396998735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13332372046763852,0.0,0.0,0.12750747551101516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09424026926215699,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09782834437160744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09104460605505227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0785686570823734,0.15155626177058404,0.0,0.0,0.06896008426492019,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08029278830314683,0.0,0.11552572972280675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20926367746005467,0.0,0.18972682942132046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16802123033734365,0.0,0.0,0.1523149404194217
EDAnonymous,natts13,2019/02/22,"My friend’s comment has been on my mind all day I am doing Whole30 to lose weight (of course, smh). A friend who doesn’t know about my ed sent me a message today that really upset me. It completely reinforces the diet culture that has already wormed its way into my brain :/

https://i.imgur.com/iz8pNw1.jpg ",6.511545454545455,8.346363745454546,5.648863636363636,79.05329545454545,66.0909090909091,8.40909090909091,28.29545454545455,8.841846274778883,2.2207272727272724,246,8,42,4,4,74,47,55,0.13699999999999998,0.8079999999999999,0.055,-0.5849,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,0,1,1,4,0,1,3,0,6,3,1,0,1,4,8,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,5,1,2,0,1,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,2,1,7,2,5,6,1,6,0,1,0,0,7,2,0,0,2,27,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31386433763935684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3175065760516264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2982087639920964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18342725076668825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.43948408600628014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15630969172481235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31819302044353104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2871829334794881,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18220661603346586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26959672763123443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2257592099477587,0.0,0.34634671068720363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Seaslire,2019/02/22,"The guy who wouldn’t commit to me in college is now dating a girl who’s thinner than I’ve ever been in my life🙃 I knew it. I KNEW he didn’t want to be serious because I was too chubby. Good enough to fuck, but not to date, because I was too fucking fat. I’m so embarrassed that my fat ass ever thought I had a chance to have anything more than casual sex with him. He’d never have settled for me, and I’m sure he regrets our hookups. I’m probably a cringey memory to him now, if he even remembers me at all. 

The girl he’s seeing now doesn’t even have a very pretty face and she looks a fair amount older than she is, but you can see all her ribs, and her hip bones and collar bones stick out really far, and she looks great in a bikini so she’s worthy of his love. I was only worthy of drunken sex when he couldn’t find anyone better. ",3.0006410256410234,3.280161060439561,4.6535714285714285,88.71226190476195,73.01098901098902,7.605128205128205,23.957875457875467,7.492282038375204,0.8502622710622703,651,16,150,7,12,221,111,182,0.079,0.698,0.223,0.9827,0,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,1,1,0,1,12,11,2,1,8,0,17,13,8,0,7,27,31,11,0,5,4,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,3,4,7,2,0,5,1,0,0,6,5,0,0,9,4,23,6,18,18,5,16,0,1,4,6,23,6,3,1,10,95,27,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1256662619756532,0.0,0.14789643504450106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2191145296767648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1589500869327841,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18570154970542455,0.0,0.23741024261050006,0.3251388688747933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16426325443157164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33230140457972984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1507428395368491,0.0,0.19814486609185247,0.0,0.17795368842693488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12694342912549872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3018435386064041,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1622067166439518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1386131942185931,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13668718082933562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1828425557276201,0.1937714237479822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11513493745639465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2035907378779471,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28643138100156057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1693864792350107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14267971607888005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1482900158051108,0.10600508076791243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Neshamizz,2019/02/23,"Possibly the flu So, I’m either sick with a hellacious cold or I have the f-ing flu. Either way- I am now living on popsicles and boost shakes because I have 0 appetite and a constant fever that makes me extremely lethargic. And, my boyfriend can’t express concern about me not eating because I’m sick and “trying” with my one shake and one popsicle a day. Happy birthday to me 🙃",2.1602999999999994,4.641021480000003,3.6422500000000007,85.64737500000003,80.86666666666667,6.416666666666668,28.04166666666667,7.6454224807358475,1.9619666666666664,301,14,56,5,8,99,53,75,0.212,0.706,0.08199999999999999,-0.845,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,2,5,0,4,6,0,1,0,12,7,7,0,0,4,0,0,0,0,0,5,0,0,0,1,7,1,0,0,0,0,2,2,2,0,2,0,1,8,1,5,7,2,7,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,3,36,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3731636910938359,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3307607621909985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19739449966585848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31319343037996145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.325824915120635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27027181188987026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20430893546804715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4148117204406272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3450561009049285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2078063555794156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24294986762506945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,grace_kit,2019/02/23,"Did anyone else have parents that just didn't care. My partner says he acts like a mom sometimes when he's telling me to eat. I told him that I'm pretty sure my mom never told me to eat or anything and that since I was a teenager they only bought me eggs and quick potatoes. If I didn't eat what they cooked I was on my own. This was hard because I have celiac and can't eat anything with gluten but all they cooked was things I couldn't eat. I had already started restricting at that time but I don't think it helped create healthy views of food. Anyone else with a similar experience?
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EDAnonymous,fitnessaccountforme,2019/02/23,"I’m never going to be good enough so what’s the point of trying. I try so hard to keep my eating under control throughout the week but as soon as the weekend comes I hit by my bf liking my friends better than me, my friends being prettier and skinnier than me, my parents lurking me siblings more than me, and just never feeling food enough so I binge. I can never do anything right and I am so sick of trying. ",3.681071428571428,4.695245916666671,4.760476190476194,85.86785714285716,71.97619047619048,6.076190476190478,28.285714285714285,5.46131890053228,1.0965142857142856,323,12,63,1,6,106,55,84,0.107,0.674,0.219,0.9217,1,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,2,6,5,0,0,3,0,5,3,0,1,3,12,11,10,0,0,2,1,2,1,3,0,1,0,0,0,1,4,2,2,1,1,0,2,3,0,0,0,0,2,14,5,11,8,3,11,0,0,0,0,4,3,0,0,7,50,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1534967959407094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16496901396803973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16067750762900002,0.0,0.0,0.2092072106373987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19086489126021425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3854669366767389,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09431425052885448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2255506112971521,0.0,0.28822241275600113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10600826118759203,0.15645098458896992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16709260818036425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1657948136300096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09112824508344664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4315860861945582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2071174657628816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17632941792603338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15929404346688866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37992116321911457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1496216518962214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,tramb0p0line,2019/02/23,"when you fucc up your life to be skinny yehaw Feel the need to RANT yall this is just my stalking account lol 
Basically was put in CAHMS last year who took me out of school for 6 months so I gave that up and did NOTHING to help me but threaten IP like every week lol so I just discharged
summer-jan I just lost a lot of weight sneakily making my parents think I was doing better without them , returned to school repeating the UNTIL my gp saw me on NYE and was like damn this heaux needs help — I didn’t know as I didn’t feel it but basically my organs and heart where about to ... give up 
So then I was put in IP from 14th jan - 7th feb as a voluntary patient and self discharged there where I gained 2kg and I’m back to the weight I was when I was seeing cahms for the first time last year and have to see them again !!!!! Not letting me back to school meaning I will probably have to just give up as I can’t repeat the year twice
So now I feel like a fat whale after my IP treatment and not willing to gain anymore even though they are threatening to not let me back to school unless I do so
Parents have caught on so I’ve been eating maintenance 12-1400 every day where I was eating 3000 in IP which means yea folks I’m a fat pig!!!
Why am I putting my future and life on hold when I’m just a certified fatty anyways ugh my mind ",3.0069148936170222,3.806214762411346,3.9685744680851047,91.72350000000002,73.36170212765956,6.916595744680851,23.67446808510639,6.961326702584282,0.5704987234042553,1041,27,239,9,20,336,155,282,0.103,0.818,0.079,-0.7914,2,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,3,3,5,27,7,1,0,10,3,25,10,4,1,0,34,47,26,0,2,12,2,5,3,0,2,4,0,0,1,6,9,7,1,7,0,1,5,7,3,0,2,16,8,34,4,36,26,1,44,0,1,3,0,15,14,1,1,28,154,40,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09979395686168163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23212555719533004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08899552317007532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06489544793827025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20593104661210024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06646252655398244,0.0,0.16956349651084585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15263859314516628,0.07188723729702927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08559242751828841,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19305926417641808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1192422991248522,0.1348949786271721,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055301420149817884,0.1640472471157186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20579381323006152,0.14215024484767366,0.1474823480791981,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1098451700630132,0.0855486301015912,0.0,0.0,0.06716863898150101,0.0,0.0,0.21922243555673532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10160357869661996,0.0,0.08031871629031531,0.0,0.0,0.14922581373882185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09655336464688764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2234665381075604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10849185152792283,0.0,0.0,0.3034707810452553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4073555524784641,0.1603717940421171,0.0,0.1049748677907727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06447708020350837,0.09886453793228296,0.0,0.058675832090930566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1117991928512818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08071611066703001,0.2450707279103421,0.0,0.0,0.0907993171521805,0.0,0.0,0.09699987691881183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19439954208850385
EDAnonymous,buenothot,2019/02/23,Overweight with ED Peach Any others in here overweight/obese and struggling with eating disorders and on peach? I want to add more people I can relate to ,6.596785714285716,8.335153678571428,5.462857142857144,80.83214285714288,65.78571428571428,7.028571428571429,28.285714285714285,7.1686216300943375,1.6740142857142852,125,4,20,1,2,37,22,28,0.185,0.769,0.045,-0.6124,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,6,2,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,5,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,6,2,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,14,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31220451282046163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5261696716116255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4697750724761058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31828291851348484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4799521844197764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27078974239055864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,borrellia,2019/02/23,"Just bailed on a funeral because I’m fat My boss died unexpectedly earlier this week and today is his funeral. I’ve been planning to go, told everyone I was going, but after work I came home to get dressed and just couldn’t stand the way I felt and looked in everything — I was just indescribable levels of uncomfortable with how tight everything felt and how gigantic and fleshy and disgusting I am right now and I couldn’t handle it so I completely bailed 30 mins before the service like the asshole coward that I am. I wasn’t emotionally close with him personally, but I knew him really well and tons of my friends were *really* close with him and are devastated, and I really wanted to be there to support him. I feel like such a dumb, selfish, shallow failure right now — I can’t even get over myself and my body for a fucking *hour* to be with people who are in immense emotional pain. Who the fuck does that?? Who the fuck is actually that self-absorbed in real life?!??? I’m so disgusted right now I can’t even think. 
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EDAnonymous,_usernamechecksout2_,2019/02/23,"About to binge I'm about to binge, send help!
Binge meal is currently in the oven 
I don't want to do it 
But I also do
Fuck 
Somebody safe me ",-2.3337499999999984,-0.5793193749999991,0.18100000000000094,105.164,102.125,3.8100000000000014,12.65,5.6839178017228535,-1.3530449999999998,108,2,29,1,5,36,23,32,0.136,0.693,0.17,0.2892,1,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,3,2,1,0,1,0,4,2,0,0,0,3,7,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,3,1,6,7,0,3,0,0,0,1,2,1,1,0,1,17,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5282997284640981,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.610735034024182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4428014654106719,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3896523801420989,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,selfcontrolwya,2019/02/23,"Does anyone else have a VSCO? (TW) am I the only one who’s so sick of seeing extremely skinny, tan, beautiful girls all over those aesthetically pleasing vsco accounts? it triggers me sooooo much but i can’t stop going on the app. an example of an account like this would be @relatablemoods and other similar ones. especially the more summery posts where their outfits are so cute and they’re so fucking tiny. i literally want to be them and it kills me inside.",3.5569638242894084,6.331515755813958,5.013410852713179,76.13843669250646,77.48837209302326,7.543152454780363,26.997416020671835,8.515128840125781,2.427456330749354,369,15,62,8,9,123,72,86,0.105,0.7340000000000001,0.161,0.6559999999999999,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,2,0,4,4,2,0,6,0,7,3,1,1,1,9,11,7,1,2,1,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,1,6,3,1,1,0,0,2,1,1,2,0,2,0,1,7,2,5,8,3,6,0,0,1,1,4,3,1,0,2,44,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1946272442145487,0.28520020086737485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24358402370045185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2325238587954024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2573280433634083,0.0,0.0,0.15819146158330258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3079505850835181,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13598666858389288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2046176501688968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3772313276310817,0.211696034448955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30554228328248123,0.0,0.0,0.2665802370120974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22180714801440407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23271121308531925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16417673620781864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1977302813265776,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,birthreynolds,2019/02/23,"Felt good about myself today. I never really feel good about myself, there’s always something wrong with me, but today I have a thing, my friend’s cousin’s son is turning 1, and I was invited (I met a bunch of cool people since I moved out and I feel happy about that), I put effort into my hair and put on a bit of makeup and I felt good. I could actually stand to look at a selfie I took and my close friend online said I look adorable when I was doubting myself. I’m doing good today. ",3.3565966386554607,4.016378049019611,4.900700280112044,85.88029411764708,72.43137254901961,7.0050420168067244,20.45378151260504,6.868970318607317,0.3286957983193277,379,6,80,3,7,128,63,102,0.048,0.6859999999999999,0.265,0.9752,0,0,1,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,1,5,11,0,1,4,1,6,1,1,0,1,17,17,7,0,1,1,2,5,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,2,9,0,0,4,0,0,4,1,2,0,0,7,9,19,9,11,9,2,15,0,0,2,0,6,5,0,1,5,52,21,0,0.0,0.0,0.1427047491819869,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12167964719123632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15965128675790954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11675714410984822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14788212112823892,0.0,0.28081801752216745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2259623626125099,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4906215831411389,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15567040452261552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24560197225122024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1554251891924314,0.0,0.0,0.11278582949731432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1013812800252354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29401412759835105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09368220318667927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13910344410231576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12096751328596672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1125792290907517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09715236550840547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4158424534667989,0.0,0.16247301654125762,0.0,0.15906222685632473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1598855582302482,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Cabbagepatchkitty,2019/02/23,Your favorite apps for tracking weight? Any favorites?,7.063749999999999,9.876537875000004,2.1950000000000003,86.45000000000002,107.75,1.6,41.5,3.1291,2.6138000000000003,45,3,5,0,2,11,8,8,0.0,0.493,0.507,0.7319,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4875687999465165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8730845693967528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,danimarie82,2019/02/23,"Being triggered by a friend who is my only real support system right now I've been struggling with various forms of my ED for 20+ years but recent life events has brought it back with a vengeance and I've really been struggling with restricting again for about a year. 

About 6 months ago a friend who started out as a coworker and turned into a very good friend confided in me that she had pretty severe AN in her early 20's and a recent move and breakup sent her spiraling back into a dark place. That's when I confided in her about my ED so she wouldn't feel alone and knew that I meant it when I said that ""I get it"". She is literally the first person I have ever told and have been able to be completely honest with (my weight has gone up and down over the years but I have never been underweight so it has been a secret this whole time and it was weighing pretty heavily on me). She has literally been a lifesaver.

Recently she has started doing much better again and I am still really struggling. I was holding back because I didn't want to derail her progress and I am truly happy for her. I'm serious when I say that I care about her like a sister but the fact that she is cute and tiny and receives a lot of male attention is triggering me...hard. I suffer with social anxiety and dating is hard for me, and I know that's on me not her, and I want to be happy for her because she is happy but I can't help but feel jealous. This of course makes me feel guilty and ashamed but unfortunately it's where my brain is right now.

I know it's selfish as hell because I feel like I can't lose her as a confidant but sometimes just talking to her twists my stomach into knots. I want to be honest with her but I truly don't want to hurt her feelings so I guess I'm just not quite sure what to do...",5.406175115207372,4.9735388494623685,6.132012288786483,82.65016129032259,67.76344086021507,9.236251920122887,29.273425499231948,8.704169506293173,1.9804844854070665,1420,43,301,20,21,467,171,372,0.14400000000000002,0.634,0.223,0.9919,0,1,0,0,0,0,24.0,0,0,0,5,22,27,2,4,17,0,37,5,2,3,4,66,65,33,0,5,12,1,7,2,3,1,1,2,0,2,19,26,2,2,11,0,0,5,8,11,0,1,17,9,52,16,41,43,5,50,1,3,0,0,36,16,1,2,30,217,71,0,0.09412285982069407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08343423618265383,0.0,0.0,0.09748289680492753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07200373013723457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21712400803411652,0.0,0.17212926518968544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08324402069833173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10507223985856114,0.0,0.0,0.09596452854697107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09868602775965117,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08513951534323765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23795673000423695,0.0672413898625405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08006085648079715,0.0,0.0,0.2181572640468583,0.0,0.04917530947853585,0.0,0.0,0.07894578918876073,0.0,0.0,0.10368694159753918,0.0,0.0,0.3005866034597864,0.16863118957114245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0630885689130773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10076046813334276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10345492446403208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06648175943501594,0.0919673499582016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10529940444422957,0.0,0.08001988955423492,0.0,0.0,0.06282773980629781,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07512796872441581,0.10003770435088373,0.0691911318832644,0.0,0.07259335198397135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07158467623213982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08218445070748435,0.09833835548310224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1915135724331156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1001112472311299,0.0,0.10713242059236444,0.12059502830941135,0.0,0.2788049070195585,0.0,0.0,0.16076081601660794,0.08953239360750143,0.07485027594438577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10633204059048676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09594640241596264,0.0,0.0,0.09308991507796023,0.0,0.13324128925757622,0.0,0.07516663743626087,0.0,0.0,0.2951929480453108,0.0,0.0,0.10680950591817157,0.0887096814827127,0.0,0.0,0.07565238941331112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054883796477434965,0.0,0.0,0.08993842610521756,0.0,0.0,0.10237864342532886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07766121669538095,0.22206440544581754,0.0,0.0,0.11461628641553652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10508481166869926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1818361073560497
EDAnonymous,mynormalheart,2019/02/23,"[oh no] Bridesmaid in a wedding and need to drop 35 pounds...guess I won’t be eating for the next 6 months. I’m not the fattest I’ve ever been right now, but I’m close. All the other bridesmaids are skinny and attractive so unless I lose the weight, I’m going to be the pig in the wig in all the pictures. Talk about motivation. ",1.7265217391304333,3.356273173913049,3.431231884057972,90.9451086956522,78.13043478260869,5.759420289855073,21.644927536231886,6.42735559955562,0.27055362318840537,255,7,56,2,6,85,50,69,0.08199999999999999,0.815,0.103,0.3469,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,2,4,2,0,0,8,0,5,3,1,1,3,11,10,5,0,1,3,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,3,3,0,1,0,0,1,3,1,0,0,1,1,2,1,8,6,2,11,0,1,0,0,2,5,0,0,4,34,3,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3263730935740541,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2885152692414868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18127086610722706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3513675847370959,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3568317942816211,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2545887891974293,0.0,0.0,0.23650290362863205,0.0,0.0,0.3392148607577712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27238791488021274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25636591202509,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3884042398094813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,scudderbuggy,2019/02/23,"Acl injury has me SPIRALING. Advice on workouts/not going insane? I was doing p good with a regular recovery and was  eating pretty properly and exercising daily and was doing really well.  Until i tore my ACL and now i cant run and almost all cardio is off limits just due to leg mobility and most lifting too. Exercise has been a huge part of my life since I was in middle school way before this ED bs took over and not having this thing i loved and also felt comfort in how it helped my body image is just gone in a flash.

I dont know how to find peace with not being able to run and lift for a month(s)? Since the only solid exercise Ill get would be through PT. Have any of you had an injury like this that left them pretty immobile. I just want to restrict and restrict and restrict because my trash brain wont let me just chill out while I heal. ",5.488265895953759,5.294613462427751,6.572028901734103,78.75758092485552,67.55491329479769,9.232138728323699,27.704624277456652,8.841846274778883,1.9905079768786127,671,18,132,10,10,226,118,173,0.101,0.74,0.159,0.8675,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,1,1,1,10,5,0,0,6,0,21,12,3,2,1,34,29,16,0,2,6,0,1,1,0,2,7,0,0,0,6,14,1,4,3,3,0,5,5,0,1,0,9,1,16,5,18,15,3,20,0,0,0,1,4,10,0,2,5,94,22,1,0.1759293085530816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1719160841887708,0.0,0.0,0.17616778957994267,0.0,0.0,0.14069060448839088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11963796268914652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10724487357715333,0.0,0.149702883772824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19541780137887071,0.0,0.196395291660868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2061878393710913,0.0,0.0,0.18001960344983184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16891972561072996,0.0,0.16079620078936044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09191580250455267,0.0,0.09998468034322287,0.1475611571048161,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11792170709246605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0966861470318754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19114770850513266,0.17989963757085864,0.12426407347881215,0.08595017362640933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15878306970795486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14042509562356126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13380216683288307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1905142969770234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3579667090531895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11270481998651193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1780498526732379,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2910610840768407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11687961526769013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1954639350812336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1037676643558177,0.13964449629417391,0.0,0.0,0.1581815766497982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12497513313765447,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,throwwwwwawaayy123,2019/02/23,"Ponderal Index / Better BMI Apparently BMI is not very accurate measurement of body fat for very short and tall people (and muscular of course). 

Anyone heard of ponderal index? 

[https://www.omnicalculator.com/health/ponderal-index](https://www.omnicalculator.com/health/ponderal-index)

[https://tall.life/better-bmi-for-short-and-tall-people/](https://tall.life/better-bmi-for-short-and-tall-people/)

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I'm really short, my BMI is kind of low but according to ponderal index my weight could be a lot lower and be in the ""normal"" range. Thought this was interesting. ",19.14609375,26.16150392187501,12.789375000000005,17.61812500000002,48.84375,10.7,28.3125,10.125756701596842,4.528225,497,13,43,12,8,137,48,64,0.066,0.853,0.081,0.2508,2,0,0,0,0,0,62.0,0,0,0,1,0,4,0,0,2,0,6,4,3,0,0,12,9,4,0,2,2,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,3,2,0,4,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,3,3,2,3,7,3,1,5,0,1,0,0,1,5,0,1,0,24,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19789027042697072,0.2219274863484732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12770607440289758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4845904853631575,0.0,0.2028717711446485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14582310972065504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38827537574067017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19019136496127345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2580079450123332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1552739235502836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1789483375168429,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25323903960568656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11700380561990427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14499569057671133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3013941131675156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2224062116761764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2219274863484732,0.0
EDAnonymous,Sidehothrowaway,2019/02/23,"Had to have food sensitivity and allergy testing done. Now I feel more and less at the same time, but it explains a lot. Shoot me. Dairy, gluten containing grains, soy (Wtf I'm vegan), lentils, coconut, mushrooms, cherries, watermelon, pineapple, fava beans/broad beans, habenero peppers, grapefruit, tuna, swordfish, tigernuts, parabens, potassium bromate, mold and mildew. 

I went vegan from years of keto (keto fucked my whole system up) a while ago to help get used to eating more food without extra calories (among other health and animal welfare reasons) and still felt like garbage. Inflammation train. I could go to the bathroom and have really stopped laxing as much but I still felt gross all the time so I had the greats done. Apparently all that tempeh, tofu, and lentil soup was fucking me up. Not to mention I love grapefruits and pineapples and watermelon. I can't have gluten or wheat so there goes all the vegan ""meats"" and things along with the tempeh and tofu. Not to mention everything processed has some kind of wheat or soy in it. I eat while foods plant based to begin with, but damn. Can a bitch eat a halo top? No. Fuckin coconut. Can't really eat out because restaurants put soy in everything and you never know what else. 

Honestly I feel so much better having eliminated everything on the list from my diet. No more stomach cramps,  swelling joints, unexplained massive water weight gain, or rashes. I've lost about 10lbs which is ok for now because I gained over Christmas, but I really can't lose more than 10-15lbs without making the psych swad jumpy. I'm afraid of a lot of oil and sugar. Nuts trigger binges. Processed food is full of salt and chemicals. 

How the fuck is someone supposed to ""eat like a normal person"" when I literally fuckin can't. I do still have a good bit of options, but the things I really liked were taken away and it pisses me off. Coconut and tempeh and watermelon :(. Wtf.

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EDAnonymous,househippob,2019/02/23,"My friend's concern really struck me recently I took shrooms with two of my friends on Monday. One of them was visiting from out of town, and at one point he was in my room and looking at my ephedrine and caffeine pills and asking me about them. He was clearly concerned and even hugged me and asked me not to take them anymore. Obviously, I said yes while knowing I had no intention of stopping. Later realized that he actually took them with him. Ordinarily I'd be annoyed but I was so touched by the concern and care he was showing. Made me feel better; it's the little things sometimes that can really help.  ",3.9087288135593212,5.958642076271191,4.712,82.29698305084747,73.15254237288136,7.770847457627119,31.29152542372881,8.548686976883017,2.552366779661017,487,23,92,9,10,157,79,118,0.05,0.7929999999999999,0.157,0.9371,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,4,1,3,6,1,0,2,1,8,2,0,2,2,20,19,10,0,0,2,0,2,0,2,0,1,1,1,0,4,10,0,1,3,1,0,3,2,1,0,3,10,4,18,5,15,8,0,17,0,0,1,1,16,9,0,0,5,63,22,0,0.0,0.0,0.18274098178891146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18571387245507864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3501299245446615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1656182774873674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1909263846761208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12368497620147954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0946854402495676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28935676091965884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1255179654331177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10291445705998964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18768600979852368,0.0,0.0,0.1572531600936593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1771921062801023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2537875477067368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17702339224090582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2399300357502468,0.0,0.1848989195389753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1781293200905244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1852071927487527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15655965919813736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14079793673772692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1244087443332417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4161105881499729,0.0,0.0,0.18292804671368434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,dextroty,2019/02/23,"Becoming judgemental and intrusive thoughts Development of my ed has made me extremely comparative and judgemental of every person that walks by me. I ALWAYS compare my size to them and am instantly relieved when they are bigger than me. Well...I just did that with a picture of a boyfriend. Ive never seen my boyfriend as fat or even overweight. He has helped me through this hell a lot and I wouldnt for a fucking second wish this mentality and disorder on him. But I was looking at a picture of him and went ""god, he is a little fat"" and I have never felt more nauseous in my life more than when that phrase jumped across my mind. I do NOT see him as fat and would NEVER tell him to lose weight. I am so disgusted that I could even get an intrusive thought like that towards him. He has a lot of factors in his life that could cause him to develope disordered eating patterns; I've had to talk/help him out of a lot of them, some caused by his parents. I am smaller than him but not even by much I believe, I honestly am just so angry with myself I want to cry. ",3.734559859154931,5.082007300469486,4.725818661971832,84.89182658450704,72.23943661971829,8.141901408450705,29.274941314553992,8.660442795831766,2.14329131455399,837,34,172,15,16,273,119,213,0.102,0.845,0.052000000000000005,-0.9082,1,0,0,0,0,0,20.0,0,0,3,1,9,7,3,0,9,0,19,9,3,3,3,38,31,17,0,6,7,1,2,1,0,2,6,0,0,1,8,11,6,0,3,0,0,3,6,4,0,1,9,5,35,3,31,18,7,17,1,1,3,1,20,9,2,5,6,134,43,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10892469394644357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14457594344701322,0.0,0.14748679672216655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2689540688467168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20903637513409865,0.0,0.14379464235811018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3000603783357722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13395002941555004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2593875241271546,0.0,0.11029437143693288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12569076800977175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12102094901233193,0.0683932428096359,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.175487733903043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1849262633491098,0.06395430311420297,0.1312027024625312,0.0,0.0,0.10992848959391892,0.14645088789949945,0.0,0.3338760728046964,0.0,0.1238668946286072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13192296154864805,0.0,0.13217824683592613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09623133912825024,0.0,0.3028894866908081,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1453561755031648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11430250570902735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10431553125561534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1052176853209663,0.11441805014486338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2078502757641299,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07721204483554088,0.0,0.0,0.15940884947919115,0.11770066392321199,0.1213516361553817,0.0,0.0,0.15053601352431764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09299222106478172,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,HeartlessLoner,2019/02/23,"Back Again I haven't posted in a while. New Account, new subreddit. It wasn't because I recovered, it's because I fell into a binging phase and I can't stand to view all the posts of successful restriction when I don't have any willpower. 

So I'm back again with an attempt to lose more weight.It seems like I use my eating disorder as a crutch for when I'm unhappy in my life. Whenever something isn't going right it always gets worse. Well currently I'm miserable at school, depressed and my A Levels are going to shit. Why act like a normal person with normal coping mechanisms when I can plan to lose 16 pounds instead? FML",3.1294981818181853,5.161958168000002,4.417818181818184,83.62890909090913,75.32,7.745454545454546,26.56363636363637,8.575989854853784,2.05924,501,19,95,10,11,165,84,125,0.205,0.705,0.09,-0.9297,2,0,1,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,5,10,9,1,1,7,0,8,3,1,1,1,11,16,8,0,2,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,1,3,5,1,1,1,0,1,4,5,5,1,0,1,1,10,4,13,15,2,24,0,4,1,0,1,6,1,1,13,56,13,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13632485765250932,0.0,0.0,0.11141424612151256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25195987658910435,0.0,0.199746075098944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14111189410960104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18777049942364246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16764535231655353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08559766158261073,0.0,0.18622379608861692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11572236567253152,0.16008420042191576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36658163952793416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3164680796877549,0.0,0.0,0.3210494149647337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14305546571257596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3138196158106423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13991523460711802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1658109989650869,0.0,0.14915033920517407,0.0,0.0,0.1681755229317384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12612912458815315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1415018885859884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19950837524947254,0.14730843552176542,0.0,0.14783670325099346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1669631026094247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,azuredreamtofsleep,2019/02/23,"Im broken and i don't know how to fix it Im falling behind in my classes and feeling like I'm dropping the ball on everything. Trying to fight depression and suicidal thoughts more actively this semester and just fucking losing. Yoga, anti depressants, all that.... but i still can't do it. 

I freeze whenever i have to work on my projects. Im just paralyzed. Im burnt and I'm tired and not good enough. Im supposed to be getting my degree at the end of this semester but honestly i still don't know how I'm even still alive. Was going to attempt back in November.  I just...i dunno. 

Im caught in a loop. I don't work at school cause i think it doesn't matter since il be dead soon, then i don't die, then i have to work like a dog and writhe when i dont do it to catch up with school,  then i feel like shit after everything because my work is crap my grades are crap and im crap, then i wanna die and the cycle continues. I know i need to get out of it but honestly i don't think it's possible at this point. 

Being hungry is the only thing i do right. I fucking broken Thursday night because i didn't turn in a 10 point assignment. So i faked a flu and skipped class, a group meeting, and stayed in bed. Didnt eat anything. Literally have only touched the floor to go pee once since friday 1am.

I wish i never stopped restricting. Id be so successful if i was skinny. I wasted the majority of my college years obese. Id be productive and getting job offers and get accolades from my professors and talented and creative and outgoing and perfect if i never stopped. I know that's a lie my ED makes up, but it's honestly the only thing keeping me alive at this point because it gives me hope for a future where im not me.  Where im not this. 

Ugh im getting sob snot all over my bed, fucking gross hahaha",1.8475429759334787,3.5134163720316636,3.927085632046055,87.36310306228512,77.89182058047494,7.443543615575278,25.73286959302791,8.296473431620573,1.6488286719437109,1411,54,304,27,33,483,179,379,0.156,0.643,0.201,0.975,1,0,0,0,1,2,40.0,0,0,0,8,15,26,8,0,14,0,26,13,6,4,5,58,56,32,4,6,11,0,4,3,0,0,3,0,2,0,17,19,3,4,9,2,0,5,15,15,0,0,6,4,38,11,33,45,5,50,0,4,0,3,5,22,8,4,24,179,55,15,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05478009007748192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051186961492339776,0.0,0.12173836714894384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0683840450523994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11467046559446725,0.0,0.13817490029608073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07801762469310451,0.0,0.0,0.06811605331424618,0.0,0.0,0.05895981034982445,0.06878291297102754,0.0,0.04396777539501477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11965470313915705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06731792814172494,0.09511290247675733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18462413448580475,0.17389610864148586,0.06385843877256986,0.07566466858443903,0.05583438387733489,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06611740388417484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7190525433665282,0.0,0.06605882779130293,0.0591690189320917,0.0,0.0,0.1463369237519209,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09756581778167477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07447296974555899,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04443489866321537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.049359597067662825,0.10268324943650292,0.0,0.0,0.06246989843614941,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07089313315942021,0.0,0.15188471735674472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18878585715292334,0.07504582627142435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056849017573585674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13474147287146776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06833146715895205,0.11013207417827413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07095301687548818,0.15948474006700303,0.111308263023483,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07281498373640899,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08845012379044878,0.08530863713739878,0.0,0.05284784380826224,0.0,0.07651053971780186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.045195548254361874,0.07240726245934348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07655033125170888,0.0,0.0,0.19385024195331926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04286784271082806
EDAnonymous,life-as-a-loon,2019/02/23,Bar bulimia Just keep going to bars alone so I'm not home  alone... eating OMAD that I throw up at home alone later. It's so easy to puke it all up when you're just alone constantly. Plus alcohol makes it so easy to just puke and forget. Like for real. Idk what to do anymore just keep doing OMAD puke sesh after work 5 days a week it's too addicting and I have nobody who cares or holds me accountable and even if I wanted to quit the puking part I can barely keep my drinking in check so it comes up anyway due to liquor. Yeah pathetic I know.,0.9205263157894734,3.0568202631578965,2.709736842105265,92.55565789473684,83.21052631578947,5.905263157894738,16.517543859649123,7.1686216300943375,-0.0256350877192979,426,8,93,6,12,141,79,114,0.206,0.677,0.117,-0.8628,0,4,2,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,2,12,2,0,0,2,1,4,7,0,1,1,22,14,11,0,2,7,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,2,0,8,5,6,4,1,4,2,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,7,2,14,14,2,15,0,0,0,0,1,5,0,2,8,55,15,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16462636778317216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16138688026288805,0.0,0.625615347651953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14976423338088402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15396773140961473,0.0,0.0,0.13008425474608218,0.0,0.16319131288303382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09739083724132767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14793516556344738,0.0,0.15452391254478098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09974260617514204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08582411973526924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3029565333360741,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4026816526484281,0.0,0.0,0.08299274880032131,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0737772823522372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10080229345194386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16353227093299375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16062082373717504,0.0,0.1718857582982173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08907132992526066,0.0,0.12113345152040945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1099392007350582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,BackgroundRole,2019/02/23,"starving myself literally turns me into satan incarnate okay, that was hyperbole. but i get extremely bitchy and aggressive whenever i restrict / fast heavily, to the point where the slightest annoyance will make me want to physically hurt the other person. obviously i don't do this, but it's strange for me. usually i'm mellow to the point of apathy.

also, hi! first post here. not entirely sure if i qualify as having an actual ED, since i'm a guy and i'm not auschwitz level thinness, but i guess since i've gotten to the point where it's not even about weight anymore, but about control... ",4.80720720720721,6.8558086396396405,6.229009009009008,72.3707207207207,70.7117117117117,10.33873873873874,31.25225225225225,10.504223727775694,3.8990252252252255,473,21,80,15,9,160,78,111,0.238,0.737,0.025,-0.9781,0,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,0,2,7,5,2,0,7,1,5,1,0,2,2,18,14,9,0,2,8,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,5,3,1,2,0,0,0,0,4,3,0,1,2,2,9,2,10,11,0,12,1,1,0,0,3,8,0,2,3,52,14,1,0.0,0.0,0.18911718197095964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15497878899088094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19219380276827347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21735897023485612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12800059364017471,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16484298899690364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10125054059637638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21348841524054046,0.19188875348126144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2074628909798305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1293604999601018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16921540811819605,0.0,0.0,0.5496002826921123,0.0,0.18560323473269796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3206205168897677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18265066964504745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21079466712584147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21343918713082605,0.0,0.1143060477759467,0.0,0.0,0.2359916202619435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,paranormalpleb,2019/02/23,"Annoyed with myself and eating lmao I tend to go a few days without eating much, then binge and lose the progress I made.  I wish I could find it easier to not gain so much weight back.  It makes it difficult to get to my goal weight...I feel like I have barely made any progress at all, honestly.  Sigh.  I wish it was easier.",1.8395454545454548,3.692517500000001,3.003030303030304,93.12454545454548,78.54545454545455,6.824242424242425,20.090909090909093,7.793537801064563,0.5414727272727271,249,6,56,4,6,80,46,66,0.129,0.539,0.332,0.9385,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,5,2,6,1,0,2,0,3,3,0,3,1,14,12,4,0,3,2,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,3,3,0,2,0,0,1,2,3,1,0,3,2,8,2,7,8,4,5,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,4,34,12,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12778259840659406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14448819987367795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15002773881267872,0.0,0.0,0.12118389589526805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3845497227784375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09501097518631824,0.1342401625625304,0.0,0.0,0.17174278037615656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09817318696053476,0.0,0.10679137263734753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09180143386441048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21021887262038447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35560260941105243,0.1254287875707977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2762652232763937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4576380396713547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4321655062079984,0.18113478463950985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,happylilairhead,2019/02/23,"Kind of a terrible question tbh, but I’ll ask it anyway. What are some restriction tips? I was able to diet for the longest time (eat healthy foods around 1,200/1,300 calories daily), and now it’s like I forgot how to do that, and I just eat everything. Asking here because I know that you guys will give well thought out answers that may be unconventional, but will work. ",5.419285714285714,6.86519092857143,5.041428571428573,83.85357142857143,68.28571428571428,7.885714285714287,31.142857142857146,8.238735603445708,2.178942857142857,295,12,56,4,5,90,58,70,0.065,0.804,0.131,0.6956,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,1,0,1,7,4,0,0,2,0,7,4,0,1,0,16,13,5,0,0,3,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,0,1,6,4,4,2,4,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,3,0,5,3,6,6,1,4,0,0,0,0,6,2,0,3,3,37,11,1,0.2281737839006328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20312304332296272,0.4266233735007582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13909262083333207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4669574891558914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20506788423936986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2759086452031239,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21888508493795755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22592791949282864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23760788360463755,0.12539834437182248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11147418531084012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2556068579923093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18114449715811426,0.1330499683174226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20515563429650174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16611323221631108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,transedthrowaway,2019/02/24,"never take laxatives, but especially not if you have ibs someday i will follow my own advice. but until then i am in hell and the toilet is my only companion

seriously do not do this it will not help you with anything and will only end in burning pain from out your backside oh my god it is the worst and i have myself to blame for this nightmare

thank god i have some immodium but until it kicks in I have to suffer with the consequences of my actions.

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EDAnonymous,HeresLookingAtY0uKid,2019/02/24,First time I've taken an ECA stack A new low my friends. ,-2.2384615384615363,-0.4516590769230717,-0.34730769230769104,109.12980769230772,101.30769230769228,2.6,14.192307692307693,3.1291,-1.8089692307692309,44,1,12,0,2,14,13,13,0.14800000000000002,0.634,0.218,0.25,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,4,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,3,4,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5282082476850071,0.0,0.0,0.4797703115154046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5997497336825757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36210047253990896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,lemej,2019/02/24,"Scaring yourself into eating more Background *** 23F - I’m a chronic high restrictor and only purge when I feel uncomfortably full. I was diagnosed four years ago and have been on/off recovery throughout. 

I’ve lost quite a bit of weight again recently and most of my clothes aren’t fitting anymore. I force myself to avoid scales because it helps me focus on other things in my life. Knowing my weight would make me spiral and get me sent straight to a hospital. 

Guessing from how my clothes are fitting (I knew my weight in a previous relapse) the comments I’m receiving from others, and my questionable period, I’m likely right at the breaking point between good and not-so-good. 

For the past few days, I’ve been noticing some bad signs and side effects. 

I was born with heart issues - most have been corrected through surgery but I still have issues with arrhythmia. My ED behaviors exacerbate these problems.

Today was bad in particular. I was walking around stores with my BF and felt absolutely terrible. My heart rate was really low and irregular despite walking consistently and I felt like I was going to faint. 

I had my regular amount of food earlier in the day, but it feels like shit is catching up to me?? 

Anyway, I came home in the evening and ate at maintenance. The heart issues didn’t subside and I got kinda scared.

So then I decided to eat probably 3/4 jar of cashew/peanut butter with crackers. Some might consider it a binge, but I chose to do it believing it would be good idea since I was having cardiac issues and feeling fainty earlier. 

Maybe I can consider it damage control??

I feel better now and my heart isn’t acting as funny, but I haven’t eaten that much in a long time. It’s hard to stay calm about it. Im way over maintenance now and feel bloated. 

I’ve done things like this before. Like - ED-related symptoms start getting bad...then you try to fix/make up for it by eating more and therefore freak yourself out???

Looking for empathy, stories...maybe advice?? 

Ugh.

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EDAnonymous,wrappedinlust,2019/02/24,"I GET IT NOW. Omg. I didnt have monster zero white in my country so i never tasted it and to be honest, i didnt get the hype about it.
BUT I SAW IT AT A SHOP AND BOUGHT ONE AND OH MY GOD YOU GUYS WERE SO RIGHT IT TASTE LIKE A FUCKING DESSERT I CANT BELIEVE I DOUBTED ABOUT IT OMG ITS SO FUCKING TASTY I CANT BELIEVE IT HAS SO LITTLE CALORIES 
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EDAnonymous,lesbihonestquackle,2019/02/24,"Vent - seeing the pictures of the night my gf broke up with me all over social media Okay so this is mainly a vent because I just need to ramble as I'm completely broken. I (20) was woth my girlfriend (18) for 5 months until she ended it with me over text last night whilst she was out with friends. She explained it was because her mental health is getting worse and she needs to be alone. I understand this but her doing it over text meant I never got to say goodbye which she knows is a big deal to me as i hate that after I never got to say it to my mum before she passed


She was the light in my world, she made me so incredibly happy, and I don't know how to deal with her gone as she was the person I went to when I felt like this

All my old coping mechanisms are flooding through and I just want to restrict until I take up a smaller space. I've been healthy for a year and she stopped me relapsing as I knew If I did I'd trigger her ed too.

Seeing her photos and changed status makes me feel like I was nothing to her. She's moved on and I'm left still feeling like this is a dream I can't wake up from. I hate myself

I know a break up is so trivial but it's killing me as initially when I met her I was scared of commitment for fear of feeling this exact way, but then I fell in love woth her, and I can't believe I let my walls down

This really was a shitty post and I'm sorry if irs in the wrong sub but my ed is back in full force and I just needed to vent ",1.7788125000000008,2.8714080062500003,3.3776249999999983,93.64487500000004,76.75,6.120000000000001,21.8625,6.360717304075467,0.16525374999999976,1142,29,270,8,25,379,162,320,0.14800000000000002,0.737,0.115,-0.9193,0,1,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,0,0,12,14,3,2,12,1,23,3,1,4,6,50,55,29,1,6,9,1,4,3,3,0,1,2,0,1,13,14,0,2,11,1,0,5,5,7,0,0,19,9,57,7,45,34,4,47,0,1,2,1,32,20,0,2,22,184,70,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1210237778100542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08985223243188475,0.0,0.14246419715799416,0.0,0.09943273015091372,0.13165256604431305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12361427592453594,0.0,0.12251744960391002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2409392519771516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10349648483208126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1314913632911795,0.1772521541582922,0.16695866235177342,0.11219656609492216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0902798238357977,0.0,0.061050521918529485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1869149732634415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12439148302630675,0.0,0.2307349767787208,0.0,0.12420856740258693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12927979510483262,0.0,0.19265696140645586,0.09525024876030062,0.0,0.0,0.12696040343216586,0.11948942910128235,0.0,0.1712644447168031,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10546379418290726,0.11056850435579198,0.07799984070888771,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11775966929949895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09327041862962786,0.12419553891813842,0.0,0.25993357639317194,0.18024744830010264,0.0,0.0,0.2193160004280049,0.0,0.11212296655941696,0.0,0.12261686846876417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10203095135516306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.111912235563946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07485859771033015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18585133314291694,0.1169895719743988,0.0,0.18623236348333325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11911623954815186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13080662172662258,0.0,0.0,0.09331842534407646,0.0976937840144318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08785841315562072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1216474013221371,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06892253447796072,0.09275194416528328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10832328485394982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11908251191657705,0.0,0.12775968408214772,0.0,0.07524907231860645
EDAnonymous,Satrina_petrova,2019/02/24,"Living with mom again (Rant) I've gained 8lbs sense I moved back home. Mom never stops whining about her weight but doesn't do anything about it. ""I've tried nothing and nothing's changed!"" mentality. She has the most BS excuses why my advise won't work. Can't track calories because it's impossible to be accurate, can't meal-prep because she'll get bored, can't cut carbs because she'll starve, won't switch from beer to vodka because it's 'rotgut'.

 I'm super frustrated right now, really crave a cigarette about 2 weeks into quitting and I want to go eat her last piece of birthday pie out of spite! I'm going to try to watch Boruto and lift weights till it passes. Thanks for listening.",3.453666666666667,5.611272977777778,3.9189814814814814,87.00291666666668,74.7777777777778,6.87037037037037,26.064814814814817,7.793537801064563,1.4823703703703703,552,20,107,8,12,173,97,135,0.114,0.7559999999999999,0.13,-0.4692,0,0,3,0,0,0,18.0,0,0,0,4,6,7,3,0,2,0,11,4,0,0,1,11,19,5,0,1,1,2,2,0,0,4,0,1,1,0,4,6,4,1,0,2,0,4,7,5,0,0,0,4,8,2,16,14,2,15,0,1,1,0,10,3,0,1,8,49,12,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13137921672503136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12276180812930612,0.0,0.38928720997697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1688896492871777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16336288819840325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08341108790633645,0.0,0.1814667496589052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1601430272806941,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13013691976373554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14097480823713246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16089071508462233,0.0,0.0,0.3739627767210105,0.0,0.16968380758644291,0.0,0.0,0.1231327373017062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3063789899286095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1698085509121921,0.0,0.0,0.10227655518643966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13634113032383213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13347543231824832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1469852434512324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21678517580814324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09416632981025888,0.0,0.12806244788864368,0.3888239542600964,0.0,0.0,0.14406024677146895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11622787090055288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,funkypunkytaco,2019/02/24,"Damn. Well, hello everybody. I tried for a really long time to ignore the fact that I obsess over how big my thighs are, how much fat is on my stomach, or how I browse this and the meme sub everyday and relate to so many feelings you all have. I thought “everybody wakes up in the morning and hates themselves because they’re not skinny”. I’ve been on a health journey, I’ve lost over 50 pounds, and...I’m not happy. I’m not even close to being happy. I went from counting calories to wondering if I should even be eating at all...And then there’s the laxatives...I started taking them every once in a while when I felt extremely bloated and gross...but it’s not like that anymore. The few people that I’ve slipped up and mentioned something about this have told me it sounds like an ED, but i always shrug it off and say it’s not. I mean, I’m still fat. I don’t need hospitalization, I’m okay. 
But I think I might have an ED. Damn. ",1.7953567251461988,3.8015174947368418,3.0592982456140376,91.92953216374272,79.3157894736842,5.906432748538013,22.13450292397661,6.937597516519254,0.521573099415205,724,22,156,8,18,234,120,190,0.113,0.8640000000000001,0.023,-0.8875,0,0,1,0,0,0,32.0,0,1,1,1,11,12,3,1,10,1,11,8,6,3,2,31,27,17,0,3,9,0,2,2,0,2,3,2,0,0,9,7,4,1,6,0,0,2,6,6,1,0,6,4,17,6,17,17,3,22,0,1,0,0,6,12,2,4,10,94,26,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1487829395103078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17732991733446593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10899996053771982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18296566556098584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.236202565972868,0.0,0.15065381594642885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0904109158366439,0.0,0.17168413567447607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3806898016926789,0.0,0.17653630782519034,0.0,0.1900650018097404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17471353587356173,0.0,0.0,0.15823983559089552,0.0,0.0,0.19519052595402056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1812836850053803,0.0,0.1947748019903551,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18968748954267267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1314447715185143,0.13258418669154154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1904251444571596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12396325270212115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11454926022270667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1421956420109853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13765546678157006,0.0,0.0,0.12656152852682662,0.0,0.14279664481127094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13444168791754524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11457322328949684,0.0,0.14195392195189652,0.10426463466758246,0.0,0.0,0.17085911949063715,0.0,0.12139918806810107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16077025444221674,0.16575720791522627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19391011710100955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,noodlelunchcup,2019/02/24,"i feel trapped inside my head hey all. new here. i'm 18, male, and have been struggling with anorexia and body dysmorphic disorder for a pretty long time now

i'm relapsing again. i've been fasting for about 20 hours a day, trying to stay under 700 calories at the most, chugging water, and walking/running for about 30 minutes 2-3 times a week since feburary began. i haven't lost a *single* goddamn pound. honestly, i feel like i've gotten bigger. i'm so fucking frustrated... and exhausted. i miss being able to wake up and being excited to eat. i miss letting myself have snacks while i watched youtube videos. i miss not being afraid of my heart giving out every time i work out or fall asleep

my anorexia has taken so fucking much from me and i want to recover but i don't want to gain the weight that recovery entails... i'm still an average weight for my height/age and i'm terrified of just piling weight onto that. fuck. what the fuck is my problem.. ",2.507362792006756,4.932507149732622,3.5821108922037723,86.91050379960598,79.10695187165776,6.2897832817337465,25.884886011821,7.475848149327749,1.5064823529411773,755,30,142,11,19,243,123,187,0.163,0.7559999999999999,0.081,-0.9601,0,1,0,0,0,0,30.0,0,0,0,3,9,16,5,2,8,0,12,16,5,0,1,21,33,12,0,3,4,0,5,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,3,10,6,0,2,1,0,1,3,13,0,0,6,6,17,3,21,23,4,23,0,4,1,4,3,7,4,2,15,83,20,1,0.13491197022311036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14985678519129325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08700705980507978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15462080610064147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13804862634853135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11366915361853375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1364310915918942,0.09638113848407633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4988957701149594,0.0,0.1294198551499361,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1384586035532629,0.0,0.0,0.15987133429019626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13286111472286793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13795663011876766,0.0,0.06591117398417234,0.0,0.0,0.11939284821533525,0.0,0.0,0.14727235244701345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09917582128423508,0.0,0.0,0.130298821531178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13725397544570406,0.0,0.12909253524395434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11160057591038924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14379820964901285,0.10774087369307238,0.0,0.0,0.14103928380639472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2360047643112621,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09159637192718156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15914915097241847,0.0,0.10821824474838364,0.4928593027060763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09821752111623472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,gisboenvol,2019/02/24,"Today's binge: shame and stress edition - 12 chicken nuggets
- 6 cups of Italian ice
- full bag of sweet tarts
- Caesar salad
- 5 chicken wings
- popcorn

2330 calories and it's only 4pm :)",2.491176470588236,5.275364294117646,2.995588235294118,88.72514705882355,82.52941176470588,3.4000000000000004,29.088235294117645,3.1291,0.9082588235294118,142,7,24,0,4,44,30,34,0.156,0.6859999999999999,0.158,0.0258,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,0,1,2,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,6,1,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4554020295089948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6859047706863854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5675769877899788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Bisquick420,2019/02/24,"I’m so tired of dealing with this. I cannot remember a time where food was not a source of fear, guilt, and oftentimes comfort. if I eat lunch it’s probably a single carrot. I worry if that carrot is going to make me gain weight. I chug ice cold water to keep my stomach from feeling so painfully hallow and I desperately try to burn calories I can’t  afford to lose. I absolutely love the dizzy feeling I get when I stand up and the feeling my stomach makes when it growls.Planning what to eat, planning what not to eat, reflecting on what you did or didn't eat... It’s exhausting, but its  almost thrilling,somehow lol there’s never a time where im not thinking about food. ",2.7907777777777767,4.783738392592593,4.0063888888888926,86.37625000000004,76.18518518518519,6.5740740740740735,26.805555555555557,7.492282038375204,1.4835555555555562,533,21,105,7,12,174,88,135,0.107,0.758,0.135,0.3791,1,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,1,0,3,8,7,0,2,6,1,6,15,2,2,1,22,17,11,0,2,7,0,4,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,9,4,9,1,6,0,0,1,7,5,0,0,3,5,13,2,13,14,1,11,0,1,0,1,3,4,0,4,5,66,22,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14948116547012108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15389989884980035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6109979626880359,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16798016383029124,0.2264395557968884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3610170604863035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07799201724823321,0.0,0.08483858815791202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1612467317490315,0.0,0.0,0.1326858657494943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16700480494642644,0.0,0.0,0.13472995474066446,0.0,0.19928953040057948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11513302143044347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1588431793466986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1609478059339856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16910379216986055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09565183417589128,0.0,0.0,0.1740913497813365,0.17157403290848727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10135051343399136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1817813752844961,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15159987826300142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Miss_Robot_,2019/02/24,"Since I was ten years old. I'm 27 now... \*Warning: Near the end of this post, I talk about something gorey.\*

My eating disorder symptoms are on another level, and quickly on track to surpass how severe they were in high school. I've been tempted the yesterday and today to sleep, and avoid eating anymore today. I already am staying within the limits of a caloric intake to lose weight over an eight year period, but am so afraid of coming close or going over that I've been restricting. I seem to be unable to log my eating habits or exercise without my OCD and ED being triggered. It's tormenting, needing to eat to live and not being able to starve myself because of the health consequences. If I could ingest a pill that contained all my daily nutritional needs and did away with cravings, I would feel such relief and freedom. I'm sick of feeling trapped.

Tightening my shirt around my waist after I eat to see how it looks, being hyper aware of how my clothes fit each day and constantly touching my stomach and measuring the inches with my fingers (and doing the same to see how much there is to lose. Where my waist could be. Where it is supposed to be. Feeling my hip bone and following the line up to my ribs and imagining where the fat wouldn't be). I can't enjoy anything I put in my mouth, I'm already adding the calories to my count for that day and even thinking of the food in numbers (from seeing it in the bowl and on the plate, to chewing and swallowing).

I was going to start receiving services at Melrose Center but some seriously stressful life events happened. I did go to The Emily Program, but did not find my time there of much help. Food sometimes seems an antagonist. I have struggled with my weight from Middle school onward, and society has no issue making me aware. Of my supposed ugliness, laziness, worthlessness, poor character and total lack of any self-control. That I have nothing to offer, ought to be thoroughly ashamed of my body, for even existing and ought to stay out of sight. I actually recall a memory of journaling in 8th grade.

I do because the entry was so graphic -- I was recalling a day dream where I cut the lower part of my stomach between the navel and groin, and my intestines, fat, blood -- everything fell out onto a scale I was standing on (I drew a line at the end, over and over again in red and black ink. That is what the cut looked like in my mind)... That's how sad, unhappy and much I hated my body (maybe still do, but no visualization like that since). I don't even know what to discuss, I just sort of vented. I questioned this past week if I ever actually will recover, if that's even possible. Fighting is so tiring, and one does not often hear that recovering doesn't actually end. Everything just feels like limbo -- waiting and suffering...",5.572740254325623,6.668928529080683,5.947018449030644,78.79572884094227,67.64915572232646,8.774004586199709,31.69110902647488,8.998388855275968,2.709926037106525,2218,90,401,38,36,712,284,533,0.155,0.785,0.061,-0.995,1,2,1,0,2,0,80.0,0,0,1,3,29,20,4,5,26,0,42,36,17,7,3,89,71,42,0,12,15,0,8,3,0,5,10,1,0,0,17,34,16,5,11,2,1,8,10,15,0,3,11,17,49,5,72,45,10,73,0,5,8,0,9,36,0,11,28,285,66,5,0.07482071667467624,0.0,0.21904267936904426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1651330427709744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050880653050479605,0.07845604517186319,0.0,0.0,0.07420204601496372,0.0,0.0,0.06157107468503666,0.0666063007535689,0.0,0.0,0.07029652626324022,0.0,0.0,0.09122002884819624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16621789820477906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06445142233621654,0.0,0.08085461417876047,0.08391779588532264,0.11947650809520495,0.0,0.0,0.14475951747513666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08575102347207743,0.0,0.06547611336992126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3828013608529444,0.0,0.0,0.1988068410254525,0.0,0.0,0.1976735108505547,0.0676796217991144,0.0,0.0,0.13448807135907473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1513264098468457,0.053451934942274786,0.0,0.0,0.06838477954908301,0.0,0.1809470151910774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12756701259093273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06616371265620477,0.0,0.0,0.0738699675354249,0.0,0.07953092305073453,0.08432838549641404,0.0,0.0501507492340168,0.07905219510919513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0780933891758958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04111950915361751,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052848084898793835,0.10966086848060017,0.0,0.0660680636028136,0.0,0.12566111585542006,0.1674104871216767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.049943409372733005,0.0,0.0751674664875561,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07554759485267433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16500550721365792,0.11095722672882777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07179249557523959,0.0,0.07851175595080744,0.0,0.050700453994127856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0810235449330612,0.07142484020653862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08434911603143813,0.07165756421796142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07521548587866253,0.0838163262010651,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15144511952438788,0.17886727235661992,0.13622794078206307,0.07805432528366417,0.08452611297209854,0.0,0.12378494001848883,0.0,0.0748747513014462,0.0,0.0,0.057600643105652174,0.07399960195202633,0.0,0.05295848836245113,0.15949785752415702,0.059751920986256264,0.0,0.08570687815802769,0.07821885838762918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07776737296573669,0.0,0.060138057904729376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.047942094117006576,0.0,0.0,0.0436285615852686,0.08599540724548195,0.14184258170164565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060016665800367776,0.18222295218265208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07212450089088697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05315049041445572,0.0,0.0,0.09636417688987214
EDAnonymous,Butterfly_Rose97,2019/02/24,"Scared to go to the GP So I've had digestive issues for about two months now. I'm starting to get concerned enough about it that I should probably go and see my GP.

But I'm scared. I'll get on the scale and they'll see I'm underweight. I'm bad a lying. I think I might break down. I'm not drastically underweight but I am where they might ask questions I don't want to answer.

I have some form of disordered eating, but I wouldn't say I have a full blown ED. Plenty of my other friends are the same size as me and they don't have an ED (that's obvious anyway...).

I'm still scared. I should really go but the thought of questions terrifies me.

What should I do? :(
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EDAnonymous,surpriseDRE,2019/02/24,"I write a poem, “Nervosa” about relapse *Nervosa*

it sleeps

curled up 

in the dark

                   I poke it

                   Wake up

                   I want to be thin

it opens one eye

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EDAnonymous,RightWingAsylum,2019/02/24,"Can’t stop bingeing post fasts... This happens every freaking time, i go on a 24-48 hours fast and then binge like crazy afterwards. I just can’t stop this, does anyone else do this too? ",3.1947747747747783,4.842886675675679,3.2524324324324314,93.71126126126127,74.13513513513513,6.014414414414415,23.144144144144143,6.42735559955562,0.37253873873873866,145,4,31,1,3,44,31,37,0.252,0.682,0.066,-0.7269,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,0,0,4,5,2,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,2,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,1,5,0,11,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,9,14,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22024657964186206,0.3227419111219983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2756476786789773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2631316329401454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2653905490099252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17901465174044212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27854240069851066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3101992322094973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.153886978944621,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30167094868439,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5266872984118304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1836717408245968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,AntlerButts,2019/02/24,"Thinking of quitting my job due to constant binge triggers. I've been binging A LOT more than usual this month. I can't seem to kick the habit and even go a full week without binging and 90% of the time, it happens while I'm at work. Today I weighed myself and am the heaviest I've been since Spring of 2018. I've been bawling my eyes out all morning and planning on isolating myself for the next few days until my weight can go back down. 

I'm stuck at a job I hate and there are many shifts I'm usually left bored and alone for many hours. These are my two biggest triggers. I was finally doing good this week and thought there was a chance I could atleast make it to the 7 day mark, but yesterday I was stuck working an 8 hour shift with no one around (we barely even get customers walking in), a broken computer, no speakers and a ton of free chocolates and treats around me. I gave in and ate 10 bars and a dozen chocolates. I hid myself at the back when customers would walk in to quickly wipe off any chocolate and tears on my face. I felt nauseous and dizzy from all the sugar I had eaten. Then something unexpected happened and I was stuck trying to escape a dangerous situation that could've involved murder or the store getting robbed. I had to lock myself and leave way past closing time because I felt unsafe. The security was of no help when I called them and my boss didn't seem to care since he was out of the city. 

Is it just me or am I wrong for wanting to quit? ",5.274485321441843,5.386804454849499,5.41141025641026,85.8516452991453,67.99665551839465,7.982237086584912,30.992382014121148,7.3871296695380915,1.7572272761055374,1168,43,243,10,18,368,176,299,0.163,0.7829999999999999,0.054000000000000006,-0.9845,2,1,1,0,0,0,22.0,1,0,1,5,12,10,3,0,19,0,22,8,2,4,2,44,47,24,1,3,5,0,3,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,7,23,6,1,6,1,2,4,6,5,0,3,21,6,29,6,36,24,7,50,0,0,1,0,7,18,0,5,27,157,36,6,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1161586460260688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0762691738675438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1996832677366736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17248038113780126,0.0,0.0683685823914544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11452268643140487,0.0,0.11434938915338765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12119959664580067,0.0,0.1790931134464733,0.0,0.0,0.14466125655972847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14815449944314987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21537257293050385,0.1228602042767718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11719260617316613,0.0,0.12748042172871032,0.094070203924863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19835640471405952,0.0,0.0,0.11072973831447376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07517506131696086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2208999573918965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22259285299959475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11875583884580518,0.12185662047957214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09535008017227548,0.0,0.0,0.07486426263451791,0.22741491819582416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08952096636172048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11927800212657108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07599905875825022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1070645369030435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23858107035164086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2042032064882605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18555137456838544,0.1260667999492099,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08634231678490441,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07186432745185957,0.0,0.08903845800384312,0.13079684122121651,0.0,0.10630972557379673,0.0,0.0,0.07614581097777029,0.0,0.10955903468353033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2470455412090788,0.0,0.06615186230767171,0.08902333446766507,0.17992778175772148,0.13657444617394515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10811331554843366,0.0,0.16330019716430702,0.0,0.0,0.0796716188084998,0.12262377020648325,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,fLuFFLet0n,2019/02/24,"Diagnosed with atypical bulimia, confused! Anyone esle diagnosed with this? I purge, sometimes I don't eat anything, mostly I eat too much, I hate my weight. What the deuce is atypical bulimia? And for those diagnosed with it, what are you typical symptoms of it?",3.8031159420289846,7.0549607608695695,5.099999999999998,72.15333333333334,82.69565217391305,10.023188405797102,33.7536231884058,9.725611199111238,4.951866666666668,209,12,31,8,6,69,34,46,0.149,0.851,0.0,-0.7803,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,1,0,0,1,2,1,1,1,0,3,7,0,0,0,6,4,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,6,4,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,1,6,0,5,4,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,25,12,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15760748554834764,0.0,0.18548801311082508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6863399348710653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4612884488630741,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2225394566653073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16569763124416972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22292999118966286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2342807165548567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2744809434986468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,LLazarus732,2019/02/24,"I just purged for the first time in 6 months I feel like such a failure. 
I thought I was really recovering this time. It’s been so long since I even thought of purging. 
And everything in my life is so good right now.
I don’t know why I did it and that makes it so much worse. 
I feel so alone.",0.4619270833333324,2.096739671875003,2.0293750000000017,99.51145833333337,81.96875,6.141666666666668,20.041666666666664,7.1686216300943375,0.016904166666666498,225,6,59,3,6,73,47,64,0.14400000000000002,0.755,0.1,-0.4079,0,1,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,1,8,2,0,0,2,0,5,1,0,1,0,9,11,6,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,5,2,0,0,5,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,5,2,9,2,4,6,1,9,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,7,37,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2566853586271336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16369461991341455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22274075701175447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2506286151963844,0.1770554716484448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21081082252707656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20787470288834126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1362052486034185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17505526427767482,0.1210810971961946,0.0,0.0,0.2193287751597776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16543374738015187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19782187672925186,0.0,0.1821894002269255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1587713286372399,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2116522439571565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2050141024980382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3935112762797573,0.2890325881435419,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2236351893356235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25256803109799403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,VanillaNutMilk,2019/02/25,"Apparently I'm full of shit Apparently I never read the terms and conditions when I signed up for the anorexia premium package.

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My mom was worried about me and took me to the ER since I started vomiting. I had an X-Ray taken, which confirmed that I am, in fact, full of shit. I then got to have a lovely nurse give my 19-year-old ass an enema because I wasn't quite sure how to do it myself, have three separate lectures by three different people about how I need more fiber in my diet, and then proceeded to have the most traumatic bathroom experience of my life.  

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Those thinspo posts on Tumblr apparently neglected to mention this caveat of enrollment. 16-year-old me would be shook. 

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Also...

I missed two midterms today. I have an essay due. 

I just want to nap. I don't even know if I need to take a depression nap, or a I-don't-feed-myself-properly-so-I'm-kinda-tired nap, or if it's time to go to sleep. 

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EDAnonymous,aquaberries,2019/02/25,"am i like dying or feel weird posting here cause I definitely had an ED last year and always had a weird relationship with food but it’s not at its worst it’s been but alas I figure I should probably ask for advice here. not sure whether it’s okay to post heights and weights so hopefully just BMI is okay? Mine’s 16 and I quit my birth control a few months ago and my period just never came back and my hair is shedding. am I like in immediate danger of shit or? I convinced my doctor I was fine and she told me to gain weight over the holidays and instead I lost more even tho I know I should be gaining and I don’t want to get thinner, but I just can’t bring myself to gain. Idk it’s weird, just want to know how panicked I should be. ",-0.29190476190476033,1.9634042802547744,1.6059690627843501,96.86450106157112,92.18471337579618,4.773915680922051,18.304215953897483,6.42735559955562,-0.14880260843190785,580,17,134,7,21,190,100,157,0.152,0.596,0.252,0.9592,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,6,12,15,2,0,4,2,15,6,2,3,2,37,27,17,1,6,12,0,4,2,0,3,1,0,0,0,5,10,3,1,4,1,0,2,5,7,0,0,7,4,22,8,11,15,3,16,0,1,0,0,4,4,1,3,10,89,27,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16282645411104313,0.147705215574396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13864741938252045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15577420947723933,0.0,0.0,0.12812625400300434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19057745773774426,0.0,0.1711723312087559,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18688689792020785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17293302684927736,0.0,0.0,0.17055029595295007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1100558852092004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0842518652072503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20148662152181096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0870559858852626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16549869414207696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18314822091425384,0.13582364328858818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16281154922595487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18189358807208475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13300047227391493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1285133920395344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3191661493949021,0.0,0.1796526159473128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1772288454984375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17889556495636255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17104072330833806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15704443674962545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1592197067305915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.196562420766751,0.0,0.0,0.4058147846234663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10730264003950217
EDAnonymous,tokyopearl,2019/02/25,Pregnant and worried I found out I was pregnant a few weeks ago and it's a good thing but I'm worried the baby is going to be messed up or not grow right because I was restricting before I knew I was pregnant and lost 10lbs and now I am trying to eat more but I'm so nauseous and have no appetite that I think I've lost more weight. I'm passed the first trimester and still extremely nauseous. I had a sensitive stomach in the first place when not pregnant  where I would feel nauseous and throw up not on purpose but it wasn't an issue because I could smoke weed. Now I cant smoke weed and I'm worried I'm not going to gain weight. Like I try to eat and I just cant and if I force myself to eat I get sick and throw up not on purpose. I am taking prenatal vitamins so at least it's getting that but I'm going to hate myself if my baby is hurt because I cant eat enough.,1.1886037151702809,2.812216405263161,2.9909287925696617,93.52561919504645,79.6842105263158,5.523219814241487,23.808049535603715,6.2272716619740125,0.456390092879257,687,24,156,5,17,229,93,190,0.213,0.759,0.028,-0.9882,0,0,2,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,5,8,7,1,0,7,0,16,9,1,0,0,32,35,21,0,4,13,0,3,1,0,1,2,0,0,0,6,12,6,1,4,0,0,7,10,5,0,2,9,3,20,2,14,23,5,26,0,3,0,0,0,11,0,3,9,102,26,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.111980916769738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23102258498112416,0.0,0.10749463986716308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10086151799917367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5170546339303599,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13052915633127368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06387452920182274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2149066981679636,0.0,0.13851060638683196,0.0,0.0,0.13200087853112955,0.0,0.21538296928277167,0.1059567661063558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12472137291182946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1352352476867944,0.0,0.0,0.1318521591157418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061716800155377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27580083299888475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1319844191600043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10788223385170533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10088459313253667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09498188842979373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08392578575893601,0.08094499020422248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1715349504332891,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10133158583862446,0.30766355435810994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3848724104462462,0.0,0.08973879854825928,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,InnerCookie,2019/02/25,"Help request: Do's and dont's when helping a friend? Hi everyone,

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I have a friend who has an ED, Anorexia to be specific.  They are amazing and  I want to support them.  I have refrained myself from constantly messaging 'I'm here if you want to chat etc' but I want them to understand I will listen with no judgement, this is a medical condition and not their fault.   I'm just lost on how I can help them without pushing them away.  I never will get how this makes them feel although I understand the brain being illogical as Ive had depression.  But after reading up on ED I cannot imagine the struggle they face every day.   

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So...what are the do's and don'ts of being supportive?  What things can I do to help them, what can I say that will reassure I genuinely care about them?  Any advice would be very much appreciated.  ",3.997083529966969,5.755678042944787,5.009202453987733,81.48146767343087,72.25153374233129,8.450967437470505,30.32987258140632,9.057496981413335,2.6632099103350644,663,29,126,14,13,217,101,163,0.076,0.688,0.236,0.9711,0,0,0,0,0,0,26.0,0,1,10,1,7,11,0,1,7,0,25,3,2,3,1,24,40,12,0,5,6,0,1,0,2,4,1,2,0,0,7,5,0,1,4,2,0,1,7,4,0,0,2,3,25,7,16,30,2,10,0,2,0,0,25,4,0,1,5,97,32,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12673639502827247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28104882814506155,0.31518709756089514,0.08819700711133215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12185266609274592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1447824465236996,0.0,0.0,0.13223263576779856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14015415593493327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08364250736274234,0.0,0.11170606238904443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15200150459375966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1446441422001234,0.0,0.0,0.10927358124449364,0.12392907380229788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06557765891955669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20040397893955775,0.0,0.06776025355932667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3477271396216501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14157734845280368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08657238002116377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13065400816481432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0953407043124602,0.0,0.10002873371447477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12973003800215333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10313862242577106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1355853118199902,0.0,0.0,0.2943525635246168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08616355567436794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2700340144322136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10701190883814868,0.2294923089311344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12502129466899362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09213156475023576,0.0,0.31518709756089514,0.0
EDAnonymous,ilovegibbyhaynes,2019/02/25,"Pizza Yeah this is dumb as hell but I was gonna have a slice of pizza and the plate fell on the floor. My friends are all eating pizza like normal humans, I lost my appetite and I’m sitting on the couch trying not to cry lmao what is wrong with me",-1.1338888888888867,0.9398044074074079,0.8091666666666661,101.28375000000004,97.51851851851852,2.7,12.305555555555555,3.1291,-1.7508444444444442,194,3,45,0,8,63,44,54,0.237,0.583,0.18,-0.6044,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,1,0,6,2,0,4,1,5,4,0,0,1,7,8,4,0,1,2,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,1,1,2,3,4,0,0,0,0,1,1,4,0,0,2,0,5,2,6,5,1,5,1,1,0,0,2,3,2,0,1,27,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4182590629361467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3896237917132475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2941827293989673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18602547669796488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4156565254772317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3730747338276432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2585185139571294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4163133131362287,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,perlkat,2019/02/25,"I'm back :( I was doing so good. I've been in recovery since September, and I was maintaining a healthy but still reasonably low weight. I even finally went and got my recovery tattoo! I was seriously doing so good.

Then my stupid body went and got cancer. It's thyroid cancer, so treatable, but it can cause crazy weight gain which I'm terrified of. I have a lot of the ""typical"" cancer symptoms now--nonexistent appetite, weakness and exhaustion, poor healing. And my ED has truly seized the fucking moment to emerge again among all of this. Oh, you're not hungry? Well, instead of eating because you know you need to keep your strength up, do a fast! Don't try to get high calorie, high sugar foods in the house that you'll eat, only stock repulsive things! It's ok to be underweight now because it's cancer, not the ED! Oh, your fertility might be ruined because of being underweight and you could have nasty, permanent health problems? Well I have the green light now because of the cancer!

I don't even know what to say about myself, except admit that I used to have a fantasy about having cancer and becoming super thin and weak and having people take care of me. And now that it's happening I hate it. And I also feel mega guilty for ever fantasizing about something like this. Apparently hospital fantasies are common but I still can't shake the feeling that I brought this on myself. I am so disappointed that something like this is what's bringing me out of recovery.

Welcome to my pity party.",5.1966111391553085,6.832019551236748,5.718717819283192,78.06479387514725,69.03533568904594,8.782702338886086,30.083964327780585,9.23628265651192,2.746734948679118,1195,47,210,24,21,385,160,283,0.29100000000000004,0.568,0.141,-0.9963,1,0,2,0,0,0,40.0,0,6,0,3,21,24,3,1,11,1,27,21,1,3,2,34,49,20,0,3,6,0,5,2,0,2,13,1,0,0,19,12,6,1,6,2,1,5,5,13,2,0,9,9,27,11,26,34,2,28,0,4,1,1,9,10,1,2,15,146,46,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09662360483747756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09290686690904193,0.0,0.29461487703591904,0.13344157611981725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1342091924851935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1231890074583756,0.12412042416965867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09646882703722644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2472680118191012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15960737413657966,0.10929301221426807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12218536924469825,0.0,0.0,0.1323577391453027,0.0,0.0,0.14610191233125766,0.0,0.0,0.1117006453126849,0.06312600768057944,0.0,0.0,0.20268433681558584,0.1932693721044525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1068450334568881,0.0,0.0,0.11928954461477832,0.0,0.1284311867196291,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2553162176726886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13941567765216034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10739469596930644,0.0,0.0,0.13280437735040154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11805785670465342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10272098368398823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12817609320951906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08959011009347695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09189275816584846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08376475154587239,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11561308277660895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12422808965106966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0960847861307546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0999475809833808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18603377569636814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19298179441842975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1255833028831585,0.09084526535361066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08027067479202969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08203215553588906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10435389402635548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2942642823527005,0.21727213711759172,0.2240117298522429,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,owliesowlies,2019/02/25,"I made myself puke last night I don't even know if I'm in the right place but i just want to vent 

Last night I made myself puke for the first time I immediately told.my boyfriend and he was upset. I said it was just a one time mistake and I won't do it again but it is ? 

I don't think I can lose weight in any normal way: counting calories, move more eat less. But food is so comforting, it makes me happier than anything else. How can I ever lose weight (I'm a few kilos overweight And don't like my body) if I don't make myself puke. I know it's bad but i don't even fucking care, is easier this way 


I don't fucking care if this gets deleted or no one replies i just want to type. ",-1.0380000000000005,1.029698866666667,1.1016666666666666,100.5225,93.66666666666666,4.066666666666666,16.833333333333336,5.6839178017228535,-0.7502666666666662,530,14,131,4,20,175,82,150,0.234,0.633,0.133,-0.9571,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,3,9,11,2,1,4,0,15,8,1,5,1,27,32,13,0,7,11,0,2,1,0,1,1,1,0,0,7,3,5,0,3,0,0,1,8,7,0,3,5,3,20,4,6,26,3,16,0,2,0,2,2,4,2,4,10,79,27,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09203928110105283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11137745117004924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.113007470654042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.150337848864851,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2759866152556051,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13849178398891485,0.11306342945166772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17878826961355926,0.12242735425195013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11512443779570565,0.16365978222650845,0.0,0.0,0.25024865170807736,0.07071220701347544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14876420937334814,0.2206485742222347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06612275914159353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3028330015373289,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25613353411165884,0.18068775531797546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14385037804998807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2540243381428916,0.1326094210566226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18342662907596247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14140677962222156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11558394062353022,0.12874414453759545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08672364862594284,0.0,0.0,0.1578415842971686,0.0,0.0,0.1293280036802661,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15966004459069982,0.2148612156164776,0.0,0.329627638669719,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,diabloglobelily,2019/02/25,"I don’t want to sexualized anymore I’ve been a victim of multiple assaults. Physical abuse by a partner, sexual assault by who I thought was a friend, and most recently a physical assault and verbal threats of rape by a complete stranger on the train station platform. All three used language to highlight my curvy figure during the assault. 

When I get catcalled, men always call me thicc, comment on the size of my ass etc etc 

Even my close make friends use language about curves. They use words like hot, sexy, curvy etc. 

I don’t want a body that’s so easily sexualized. Having a “woman’s figure” makes that easy. 

I want to be thin, dainty, beautiful. I want a body that doesn’t immediately evoke sexual comments. I want my body to be appreciated but not fetishized. I want a body that is deserving of a partner who will respect and protect it. 

I want a body that doesn’t make me feel like a piece of meat that men can just come a cut a piece off whenever they please. I want a body that will allow me to be more than just a body. If I’m smaller, i can move in this world without drawing so much attention. ",4.343185483870968,5.726722013824888,5.1426929723502335,82.34832517281106,70.79723502304148,8.189976958525346,31.07402073732719,8.660442795831766,2.4246315668202763,875,38,171,15,16,284,121,217,0.107,0.6890000000000001,0.205,0.924,0,0,0,0,1,0,23.0,0,0,2,0,7,13,8,0,19,0,15,9,8,7,1,34,34,8,0,9,6,0,3,2,4,2,0,0,0,5,11,5,0,1,5,0,0,2,6,8,0,1,3,3,20,5,20,26,9,12,0,0,0,2,14,8,1,2,4,107,31,0,0.0,0.1077876861497995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07569651270337376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09022040016400297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7073505561559147,0.0,0.0,0.09289322274845396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07836486224571199,0.0953830677942503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30437557738228394,0.06008656165344805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04599849325250109,0.0649908623686708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14057045074350047,0.0,0.04752944245783273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08888925995972917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18217480330342573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0966895046107309,0.06687534773672045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09986062505322167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0898244934003688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07222210349985063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23571342067790865,0.0,0.0,0.4292640958437371,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08769436533721152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,PuddingAwayyy,2019/02/25,"Greetings + vent from a long-time lurker Hello! I've been lurking on this sub for a while, made an alt because I really needed to vent

Emotional eating often gets the best of me, and today I have eaten a grand total of five (5) puddings, along other crap that I really shouldn't have (hence my name)

I have an English competition tomorrow, and what do I do? Practice? No, I devour pudding

Well off to sleep have a nice day y'all",2.2373255813953503,4.28259127906977,4.24436046511628,83.77956395348839,78.06976744186046,6.625581395348838,22.377906976744185,7.6454224807358475,1.1220511627906973,334,10,64,5,8,114,67,86,0.07400000000000001,0.726,0.201,0.8968,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,1,0,1,2,5,1,0,7,0,8,4,2,1,1,9,12,3,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,3,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,1,1,3,0,9,4,9,8,2,6,0,0,0,0,3,2,1,1,4,46,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18336207783588415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3156662041589968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19398814234048853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3077887775773836,0.0,0.3383543277489211,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15715317638061882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2661944546329858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2846198709055285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22303597028853014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3853944582251548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3010126207902362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2851188585974033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2704511796454025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,pailblusea,2019/02/25,"Why do I look like shit as soon as I eat? I'm not making this up and I am sick of it.  I used to enjoy the novelty of eating a full meal and looking like I suddenly became 7 months pregnant.  It bewildered my boyfriend and I thought it was amusing.  I am sick of it now that literally every time I swell the fuck up and stay like that for hours if I eat ANYTHING halfway filling.  Even salad or just meat.  For hours.  This has gone on a year now.  I get anxiety eating because I will be wearing a cute outfit I thought of all day that shows off the body I want to show to the world to just be ruin my day in 5 minutes with a fucking salad.

FML how do I stop my body doing this?  ",0.5746403940886751,2.3477539172413806,2.853423645320195,93.05215517241379,82.24137931034483,5.5221674876847295,22.77093596059113,6.5431188927421005,0.4503694581280793,518,18,119,5,14,177,89,145,0.146,0.736,0.118,-0.7319,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,0,7,10,3,0,8,0,10,15,4,3,1,18,22,9,0,2,5,0,0,3,0,1,2,0,0,0,10,5,7,1,2,3,0,2,1,4,0,0,4,2,17,6,18,15,2,22,0,1,2,2,0,7,3,2,15,79,27,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1106176955297618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11899250180300926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08814609378442005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3212333657159845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.186508542983622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5918427359535213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09550615169791797,0.0,0.12183073575333304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26735854364372114,0.0755469112657197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2848014055601408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21193102698219704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2428531681716466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09652082995520027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11541739232519815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.148428602757194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1541230942947286,0.0,0.12089108168476798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2295906100462863,0.08431673021227018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12488694694796565,0.0,0.0,0.08528812584703982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1304779370817328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09311689418262087
EDAnonymous,VulpixVulpix,2019/02/25,"Mom argued with me about clothing size Mom called, there was a dress on sale she wanted to get for me. What size was I again? A 2, right?

I told her no, I'm a 0 now. She said, ""I don't know. I think you'd fit a 2.""

Last time she saw me was Christmas and I was at my low weight. She had even commented on how good I looked and said to ""keep doing whatever you're doing"" (LOL whoops)

And she still thinks I am a size bigger than I am. Even though I looked at the measurements for the brand and a 2 would definitely be too big.

""Well I'm getting the 2 just in case. You can always take it in if you *have* to...""

Thanks mom",-1.617442810457515,0.300666389705885,0.7184313725490199,103.36905228758171,94.66176470588236,4.1986928104575165,12.702614379084967,5.82211442006289,-1.3324464052287586,463,7,123,4,18,154,85,136,0.054000000000000006,0.84,0.107,0.7691,0,0,0,0,0,0,27.0,0,3,0,0,12,5,1,0,9,1,15,1,0,1,0,14,32,7,0,3,2,3,1,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,2,5,1,1,3,0,1,0,2,2,1,0,9,6,22,3,14,20,0,16,0,1,3,0,18,11,0,1,5,78,24,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13945387564335654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1711349634300412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2213920720361893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17512471106524996,0.0,0.0,0.14057215570279616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1489676425977373,0.0,0.0,0.09210676021748704,0.13661367477988806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2814780260026227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5888616687504907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14312666129641058,0.3188456712883052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13384293665215502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12601185653303618,0.0,0.0,0.15430051888998958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21477838904459973,0.16466290132643954,0.0,0.0977269802894686,0.0,0.0,0.1601458237107216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09885287264574733,0.0,0.0,0.20408762298337849,0.15068955583165106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11905588312732646,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Dansii,2019/02/25,"I guess I look bigger than I am. My mom was checking out a store I want to get some clothes from and she said there was a sale and asked what my size was. I told her and she just said “Are you sure? That’s tiny.” Yes. I measure my body every other day, multiple times a day for key body points like bust, waist, and hips. I know my measurements like the back of my hand. I stare at sizing charts to be 100% sure. I’ve been reviewing this store a lot the last few weeks. I know my size in their store and I remember trying on the same clothes in person in a size up and it was too loose and that’s when I weighed 20lb more. I know how big I am, I know I look too fat to be that size and it sucks when my family reminds me of that. I got defensive, she said oh okay and I know she didn’t try to be insulting but it hurt.",-0.9087082346750854,1.0047998287292828,1.0708760852407266,102.73639042357277,89.38674033149172,4.994580373585898,15.248881873191266,6.42735559955562,-0.8066024204156799,623,12,165,7,21,204,104,181,0.061,0.852,0.087,-0.1779,0,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,1,1,0,8,9,3,0,8,2,12,7,6,1,2,27,29,13,0,1,2,1,1,2,0,0,1,3,0,1,10,10,3,1,6,0,5,0,1,4,0,0,11,7,32,5,16,15,5,18,0,1,3,0,15,10,1,3,10,101,42,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13822309910405506,0.0,0.0,0.11369024413169156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3284638986544893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19070660055572344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12457298248671125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13938315683167546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07724737108281117,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11825198087481463,0.0,0.1628773410673278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1582802702191727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4062821884174155,0.12052036707459887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14446754041934054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2483194678126305,0.0,0.0,0.1256997905646042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17316427653458208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1291000062502722,0.0,0.0,0.13976938372960793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1674892360288542,0.0,0.4219277177675769,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2787004192469445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08621458691127154,0.0,0.0,0.14128039151408284,0.0,0.20076569364145605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08720784736110444,0.0,0.11859918965372625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,-humpty_dumpty-,2019/02/25,"Gf gone after 5 months 
I freaked and deleted posts on my main Reddit as she knows username, so enter throwaway account, I just need to vent and know that it's out there and not all in my head

erything at home is crashing down and the person is go to I can't as she's left my life.

 I feel like I never mattered to anyone, I never mattered to her. Her breaking up with me would have been ok (still hard but better) if she'd done it in person where I got to understand why better and hold her for one last time, but this way has made me feel like maybe she never loved me if she can leave afyer 5 months and move on changing every social media in one day. I have no answers, my whole life changed over one text

My ed is shouting at me and blaming me for putting my walls down. I just want to hide forever
I'm so sorry  ",5.496486833654462,4.276072971098269,5.957533718689787,86.58687219010919,67.84393063583815,8.151316634553629,29.62684649967887,5.82211442006289,1.2280885035324336,636,18,142,2,9,206,110,173,0.112,0.821,0.068,-0.7705,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,2,7,7,0,0,1,1,12,4,1,1,4,33,25,15,0,5,7,0,3,2,1,1,2,1,1,2,4,9,0,1,6,0,1,5,6,1,0,3,5,4,28,6,24,18,3,33,0,0,0,1,13,15,0,2,12,97,32,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09551724516259112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24163167079984266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2890195086617337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0880987883101804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13979412801079305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11509542702018676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13814297235199052,0.1951809780821276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07763565003275852,0.0,0.10925532939071768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12237105963652935,0.0,0.14019592469265274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13702574212102056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15014883976655732,0.11135113598617044,0.0,0.14464474809472966,0.14842150368563028,0.0,0.19297600566665127,0.1334764001246725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12329115609168866,0.12925875495918665,0.0,0.0,0.13723787216347655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2180732796709172,0.14518927270994464,0.0,0.1012907206334116,0.3160741056540461,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2777008225371639,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23855606650934785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1308296274601557,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13732554412271605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1392513800301559,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15291787804593587,0.0,0.0,0.10909276149664468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07965535140800149,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1422104036817088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08057304426028569,0.10843052361701308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12326457516878493,0.15251436923747408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09704012320453448,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,pobrecitoad,2019/02/25,"People commenting on my body Ugh. I hate it so much. So, I'm like mostly recovered now and I've been pretty good about eating normally. As a result I've gained weight (obviously :(..). I sit at 5'3"" 110 now. When I gain weight, it \*all\* goes to my boobs and maybe like a smidge to my thighs/upper arms. I've always hated that so much. I'm Asian so I'd always hear (even when I was like 12) that I had big boobs for an Asian girl or whatever. I remember my mom would have me stand still in elementary school so she could be like ""look at my daughter"" and like talk about how my legs were straight (a good thing apparently?) and how my butt was big (ambiguous) and stuff. But anyways there was an event recently so I had to wear a dress and all my girlfriends were like ""oh my god you're like busting out of that"" and my dude friends were joking around about my chest and like I could feel people (maybe it was just in my imagination) looking at me and I could feel my own boobs moving when I walk and I just hate it so much. I just want to be a waif. I used to do ballet and my body seriously stuck out like a sore thumb when I sat at my ""natural"" weight (the one I naturally maintain if I'm not restricting, I mean). My body type doesn't fit into Asian standards and I hate it so much. I know they were just trying to be nice and I don't blame them at all but it just feels gross that people have noticed my weight gain. I was hoping it wouldn't be that noticeable but if it's enough that people are commenting then that means it is and adhfowjieaj. I feel proud of my progress so I want to continue eating everyday but I really just want to fast:( to at least get ten lbs off. hopefully off from my boobs i seriously hate being """"""""""'curvy"""""""""""" (i'm really not though.,just by asian standards)",1.3264377492246382,3.4423228415300566,2.7760345591493127,92.77833628710678,81.51366120218579,6.470417958942549,19.18150937823069,7.63319966405982,0.4122303352532861,1384,34,312,23,37,450,175,366,0.077,0.754,0.16899999999999998,0.9757,1,0,0,0,0,0,65.0,0,0,2,5,31,26,5,0,9,0,29,19,12,4,4,66,57,38,0,13,15,2,8,9,2,2,1,1,0,1,18,18,6,1,9,2,0,2,5,9,0,2,14,11,48,17,33,33,11,36,0,0,2,5,12,19,5,7,22,201,66,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1321160019892808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07067303424999435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2645498191586401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1901569503144126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16246951642967497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08203005066567791,0.0,0.05243568042588425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1605658387425422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061335738222306126,0.0,0.04147747161692277,0.0,0.0,0.13317543966984652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39190096782227657,0.0,0.0,0.0894771637068504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15770236403876828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04363011375618028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3490690622207383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1333335171637911,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1595138259731595,0.17295577175659135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09297942783487552,0.0,0.08437793451298953,0.23344017469445774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07778435619983473,0.0,0.180769786968816,0.0,0.0,0.053796035526342746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22015332395629286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08076714563756053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10171724218693286,0.0,0.07838705195887014,0.0,0.08993225188310268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08034589819618576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06340015149600359,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09088140209526886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0638098645014654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05274251861775727,0.0,0.07799928147870376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053899914281472915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06856659935624485,0.0,0.0,0.14047705299182744,0.0,0.0,0.3866976185447325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05639566207651243,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,BlurJAMD,2019/02/25,"Chocolate Milk betrayed me I picked up some soya chocolate milk and read the back like a good lil ED-brained boy, and it was only 60 calories. Great! That'll be a nice little treat. But nope, it seems I can't read very well and missed the tiny 'per 100ml' above it, so I just drank 150 calories which IS NOT WHAT I SIGNED UP FOR.

I'm kinda sick of companies neglecting to put the exact info on the back, I can work it out myself but I'd feel a lot better about buying and eating food if they were just...straight up with what's in it.",4.0222321428571455,4.136938901785714,4.3464285714285715,92.39857142857143,70.69642857142857,7.114285714285713,24.035714285714285,6.18269132825596,0.3851107142857151,415,9,96,2,7,130,84,112,0.08800000000000001,0.785,0.128,0.6592,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,1,2,6,9,0,0,7,0,7,6,0,1,1,21,12,8,0,1,5,0,1,1,0,1,1,0,0,1,9,6,5,1,3,2,1,1,3,2,1,0,3,1,8,7,11,7,2,10,0,2,0,0,2,7,0,5,3,57,17,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3484169133489389,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20037137999435745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2529126959863431,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2318245150067471,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11455409762745693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2739537938496553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19002538070356115,0.0,0.2497800474586141,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11068437511162987,0.2270697736959205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1926107792784623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1723069145718305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22775250192378801,0.0,0.0,0.4532369005957441,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2062491120185808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1869333680756024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2037020779243157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.164936296725261,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,YukiHase,2019/02/25,Guess who ate a regular sized meal Guess who gained five pounds of bloat 😂😂😂,4.247647058823528,3.902930235294118,4.228235294117649,95.02705882352943,70.17647058823529,9.15294117647059,22.882352941176467,8.841846274778883,0.7909294117647057,62,1,16,1,1,19,13,17,0.0,0.833,0.16699999999999998,0.3818,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,2,0,5,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,donottellmymother,2019/02/25,"He filmed me during sex My boyfriend and I was getting down and told me to take of my shirt. It was dark in the room so I complied and didn’t think much of it, though I never take it off unless he urges me to. After a while we switched to doggy, which I enjoy because a) it feels good b) I don’t have to worry about him seeing my belly or face. It felt amazing, and he told me to give him my phone. 
I did, and he filmed with flash on. 

It got more intense and he gave me back my phone and I forgot about it until afterwards where he urged me to watch it. In my mind, I was already deleting it. However, when I saw it I was astonished. I didn’t recognise myself. My butt looked big in a good way, my waist looked small, my back looked defined and most of all, even though I consciously hid my face it was apparent that I was naked and thoroughly having a great time. My hair looked weird but you always find something, right? 

All in all, it was a great experience and made my night. My boyfriend is amazing, I love how he doesn’t specifically ask permission (knowing myself, id reject most proposals) but makes sure I still have all the control. I am very grateful for him and the video is hot af,
Will be used for future wanking. I wanted to share some positivity. Usually I feel crappy but this was a great spurt of positivity in dark times. ",2.036139705882352,3.9831772169117663,3.3164352941176496,90.66385882352944,78.30147058823529,6.263764705882354,22.277058823529405,7.24861992348623,0.6421874705882358,1041,31,225,13,25,338,148,272,0.044,0.763,0.193,0.993,2,0,1,0,0,0,34.0,1,1,0,1,12,13,0,0,9,0,21,8,6,5,6,42,47,23,0,1,5,0,5,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,15,13,1,2,7,3,0,0,5,2,0,0,19,12,44,11,27,26,9,28,0,1,7,3,21,13,1,4,14,152,59,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13904057471547618,0.0,0.1048394104888045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11778997664497627,0.0,0.0,0.19376748586648834,0.0,0.07680646479824252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14131609728688624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08321968181984607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12324902318544638,0.0,0.0,0.1274155108006853,0.0,0.120976663276269,0.0,0.11515877005285728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06582811479925217,0.12086758787363935,0.0,0.21136023458697856,0.10077113127799897,0.4167356689185409,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06924453263622891,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4232222328067392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11371700900283385,0.11922119531799745,0.08410382593223406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1272208254680585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0926221272626618,0.0,0.0971764806106446,0.0,0.0,0.11823943841752575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1076005577207586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.100403117102559,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09699847331582782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10062118755729836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11875046966400862,0.0,0.18946778915359144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08073364612238243,0.24758238413666506,0.0,0.14693946590055915,0.0,0.0,0.2407906366548645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10882075974890593,0.1387676473661211,0.10396053511985648,0.07431616256983341,0.1000103756117596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1279558414047251,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ieatavocado,2019/02/25,"All this mental anguish just to stay at maintenance 🙃 [https://imgur.com/a/VBSzhZE](https://imgur.com/a/VBSzhZE)

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I was doing so well at hitting 1200 calories a day, and then one binge just starts the cycle up again!! I know I should go back to 1200 but I just can't let that Net Average amount go over maintenance for my sanity's sake. Maybe next week I'll eat like a normal person again haha. Sorry if you can relate ",6.5321491228070165,8.864252828947375,5.18684210526316,80.43622807017546,66.76315789473685,7.698245614035088,23.192982456140356,8.344100000000001,1.34260350877193,349,8,59,5,6,102,63,76,0.052000000000000005,0.818,0.13,0.7785,0,0,0,0,0,0,25.0,0,1,0,0,8,4,0,1,3,1,6,1,0,0,1,10,11,5,0,3,5,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,1,1,0,1,0,0,2,1,1,1,1,1,0,6,3,7,7,2,15,0,0,0,0,2,4,0,1,9,38,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25029687934372724,0.2806997896044605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17763075636765174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14898093481872435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2363786737526813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2625741383960246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12695585796032813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23622114993403134,0.0,0.11285875349839462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2320784074289552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2328015516267988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24567944013108065,0.0,0.2263386186070384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15653687916740064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2017071203641827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25859434458472136,0.16350852587318745,0.2462236023922978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18530054116498734,0.0,0.2077037755002472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2806997896044605,0.0
EDAnonymous,Throwaway_For_Thot,2019/02/25,"Falling in and out Does anybody deny their ED for an extended period of time, and then it just crashes back down over them? 

I lost 18kg when I first developed my eating disorder, and then my binge habits lead me to gain 50kg- I’ve lost 5kg since and lost motivation. 
Until my boyfriend couldn’t keep it up during sex. 
And now I’m at the gym sweating my ass off and I’ve never felt so repulsive in my life. 

Anyone else been in a similar situation? I need to convince myself I can’t be this size forever. ",2.3725854700854714,4.140495788461543,4.3474358974359015,84.4753418803419,76.69230769230771,8.083760683760685,25.017094017094017,8.841846274778883,1.8678581196581199,398,14,83,9,9,136,79,104,0.163,0.764,0.073,-0.8253,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,2,7,5,4,0,0,3,0,4,5,2,2,1,15,11,11,0,2,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,7,1,1,2,1,0,2,3,3,0,1,5,1,13,1,14,4,0,21,0,3,0,2,2,9,1,0,10,52,16,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14565354451304538,0.2134357927113909,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16017571625125968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2387386011074057,0.0,0.18229141856219305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2131507186542252,0.17401430284892014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2000080003444494,0.0,0.0,0.17718637123471845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1851534006125847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14713384574414798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6821771847854365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15445747478817726,0.16065969287862486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17231423149019942,0.23414651387204585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1214658594085115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Alterily,2019/02/25,"Does anyone else feel like going to the doctor makes your ED worse I just can’t go to my doctor. I absolutely can’t gain weight in front of him. Honestly the the thought of gaining weight in front of him and having it recorded and other people knowing makes me want to loose weight.
Whenever I try to make a healthy choice and eat adequately I think that the doctor is going to wiegh me in
X days and I can’t and I skip. I also can’t loose any more weight.  I don’t know what to do. Whenever I go I just want to die. But at the same time I don’t want to have an eating disorder and I need help and my life sucks and I don’t know what to do. I have to see the doctor every week, but I just can’t anymore. It feels like the only option besides dying is running away but I don’t know where to run away to, or where to go and I don’t have enough money and I don’t want to have an eating disorder but I just can’t keep putting myself through this. I don’t want to die but I honestly don’t know another way thst I won’t have to see him (I’m not going to kill myself obviously im just venting )

All doctors are the same, he honestly is very nice and easily one of the better ones, it doesn’t matter, I just hate myself so much every time I see him, I can’t do it anymore. ",0.4064575006661357,2.1588962697841763,2.8147641886490824,93.22094990674128,82.70503597122303,5.845137223554491,18.92938982147615,6.937597516519254,0.07258390620836641,985,24,232,12,27,339,118,278,0.092,0.738,0.17,0.9492,1,0,0,0,0,3,19.0,0,1,0,3,10,10,3,0,12,0,30,13,0,3,2,49,61,19,4,6,13,0,6,2,0,1,6,0,0,0,9,11,7,1,9,0,1,11,18,3,0,2,1,9,37,7,28,59,6,24,0,0,3,0,7,8,1,2,6,152,46,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0653742959373995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055591825812598576,0.08572049562360072,0.0,0.0,0.1621452151138774,0.05716049568468123,0.08376106293206809,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15361093103029566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07229996035022815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052721059955798934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.254526304484386,0.0,0.187381870094407,0.4183655887726698,0.07153871798255759,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25094756412323976,0.06829043426524807,0.0,0.0,0.08446811788379656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13775337947226576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08266905899090511,0.11680237884168755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2787575519658884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08070978106231175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05479433829245031,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08830247567925925,0.0,0.0,0.07266187851523105,0.09044267240591013,0.0,0.2246343603431708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05774142732225555,0.07987643676642815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1637034008731206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06009459958542916,0.060615523299576216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11078988330849092,0.062173465551638725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0566741601691784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0821798844686244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19542906099413976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05238117802064481,0.0,0.06489922726275134,0.0953364884564751,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05550190785581125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06745112550695243,0.2410871011251405,0.06488820387091099,0.06557376588144123,0.3981909039864412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08330876921494491,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Whimsyprincess,2019/02/25,"Eating Disorder Awareness Week Is anyone else in this weird place of ""I wanna bring attention to it/acknowledge it/do a walk or go to a group"" but also thinking ""Will doing this make people suspicious? Will they know or think I've relapsed? Do I even DESERVE to do a walk or anything?""

Ugh. Boo hiss at my stupid head.  ",2.6526344086021503,4.950151145161293,3.8561290322580684,85.82086021505377,77.87096774193549,6.713978494623658,24.849462365591396,7.793537801064563,1.5049913978494618,249,9,47,4,6,81,48,62,0.235,0.765,0.0,-0.9369,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,1,0,2,3,1,0,3,0,6,2,1,1,0,10,12,5,0,1,4,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,4,0,0,4,0,3,0,0,0,0,4,0,7,10,0,8,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,3,1,28,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22772564431816544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1991135892584504,0.29177433961575394,0.23433648425020565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.326364180974528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29138463321405605,0.2378837572294864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1880839168354297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16183792681752987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29224998812983194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1564988309598991,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1900821615302954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19741948200980425,0.0,0.2975177402400991,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3649305080491661,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22842048042886726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Jordanlynn542,2019/02/25,"I can’t sleep :( I just want to be thin. I used to be 120lbs (I’m about 5’7.5) and now I am 150.2 and I just want to get back to the weight. I really want to be 95lbs. My girlfriend broke up with me and I was kicked out of my musical, so I feel even more worthless than usual. I’m fasting for at least the next five days, but my ana buddy is going for 6 so I at least want to get there. I need encouragement!",-1.6967948717948715,0.19861081318681428,0.8532142857142873,102.45220238095241,94.71428571428572,4.352014652014652,13.077838827838828,5.985473137389443,-1.2031106227106232,308,5,82,3,12,104,58,91,0.07,0.825,0.105,0.2372,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,0,0,9,3,0,0,2,0,7,2,1,1,0,15,19,6,0,5,3,0,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,1,0,1,0,0,1,1,2,0,1,1,3,14,1,16,15,3,12,0,2,0,0,2,5,0,0,6,55,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1971328342744462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16533754927488464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16933007796641,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1296284599159857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2678856628043709,0.0,0.14570107443005112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1900952309905949,0.0,0.0,0.2726525819422726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16423729424458114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2565553152981573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2214215114705217,0.2823555201591377,0.0,0.6048550692301874,0.0,0.0,0.3121897978903761,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,dem_cakes,2019/02/25,"IM SURE I LOOK EXACTLY THE SAME AS YESTERDAY - a rant Yesterday was a skinny-feeling day. LOL almost wrote skinny day but the truth is that at my height and weight I’m toeing the line between healthy and overweight. Especially the way I carry my weight, after a friend pointed out how I look sort of manly from the back LMAO (it didn’t mean to be hurtful but yeah), I’ve noticed that I am definitely more top heavy. My shoulders and back... if I was skinny I’d have broad shoulders but instead I’m “fluffy” and just have all this back and arm fat. !!!NOTE, I only started feeling self conscious about my arms when my mom mentioned how she had fatty arms... and now since I’ve gained weight my mom just tells me to not wear sleeveless shirts!!! AHHHH. 

I don’t even wanna blame her cause if I was skinny she wouldn’t say that. That’s the fucking reality. 

Anyhow skinny feeling day... there were photos from a party and I didn’t feel massive waves of disgust looking at them. However that was YESTERDAY. 

Today I woke up, had a large ass brunch (even for my standards) which included 3 thicccc slices of toasted bread. Told myself I’d stop eating for the Day. Then I went to a bakery and downed a deep fried donut + a milk stick + 85% of a huge cinnamon roll. Told myself I’d stop there. Then I got bread pudding and ate half of it. Then I ate more spaghetti. NOW WE ARE HERE AND ITS 9:41 PM I CANT POSSIBLY EAT MORE CAN I? 

The worst part is that it’s my birthday this Wednesday. I promised myself NUMEROUS TIMES I’d get my shit together for my birthday. I don’t want to look at my birthday photos and feel like crap. Clearly that’s not gonna happen anymore. 

That leads me to the title of this post. Realistically no one else is gonna notice a difference when I go into work tomorrow. But I’m fucking fearful of looking in the mirror now to see my swollen cheeks and more pronounced double chin looking back at me. 

IM SORRY THE RANT CONTINUES APOLOGIES TO ANYONE WHO KEEPS READING. the truth is I can’t talk about this irl to people. Some people know about how I Want to lose weight and sometimes have a bad relationship with food but I can’t go into detail cause folks will just say “you look fine!!!”. I DONT WANNA LOOK FINE. I wanna look HOT. 

Anyhow ok... so yeah what do I do next? I literally cannot make myself purge lol... sad sad. But not sad? But sorta sad. I told myself I’d fast until my birthday on Wednesday I REALLY REALLY REALLY WANNA MAKE IT. But will I just fucking hate myself if I can’t? 

Just another Sunday! ",0.7099122351175033,3.2301598486055774,2.4087458860211335,90.75130405912584,90.95219123505976,4.902176800046191,20.02436630290433,6.567769168759029,0.4051656793117382,1972,64,392,25,69,645,250,502,0.16899999999999998,0.72,0.112,-0.9906,1,0,0,0,0,0,73.0,1,1,1,5,27,25,7,1,23,5,33,35,17,8,6,77,77,35,0,10,19,2,9,1,1,5,3,2,0,2,20,18,19,3,7,1,0,4,15,16,0,2,18,21,57,9,44,53,10,56,0,6,10,4,23,17,6,9,34,244,77,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07092320389260702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07426848851762684,0.0,0.0,0.07024154468116278,0.04952402090697668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2178469613475661,0.05913774859331682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14551807711373602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1827107231464183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07399934300175748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08300894395485424,0.0,0.0,0.14494780312089833,0.05916703229718544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09356138739012328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07970028445911895,0.17906178720047716,0.05059896159447208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08564452420829459,0.0,0.05472091444286432,0.1964357988663574,0.037004285616155534,0.0,0.08050545320490184,0.0,0.056646977283884514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06263225380436557,0.0,0.0,0.06992719074335524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07582197613318953,0.0,0.15301104720298658,0.0,0.0,0.06295446440106515,0.0,0.0,0.038924773568896544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03460258940210282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5352930425959505,0.07923751326803777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0945554040457854,0.0,0.0,0.0771515780440228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16590390734543614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07532552440883737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16127445977291566,0.0,0.0,0.047994339722998935,0.05386727268468617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07669894911649895,0.0,0.09820531678335076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06695459176701128,0.07984701933076124,0.0678328734728446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0708463609130877,0.0,0.1361211424626917,0.0,0.0,0.07604190009212687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11264925503735032,0.0,0.0,0.05644010364485801,0.0,0.07388821025049452,0.0,0.0727030968971776,0.05858898684148356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07004990598039991,0.07928524505188947,0.05013185250724474,0.0,0.0,0.1184294113461404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06675379220414054,0.0,0.0,0.05692821570582494,0.0619060894508077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04129990643854356,0.0,0.06713589837050057,0.20303525749548948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08355142826183452,0.05621932991704922,0.0,0.3449937656729828,0.0,0.06565751848878354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0515630408296711,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,wouldbeafinething,2019/02/25,"BeatSaber is the fucking best 😍 Pros:


* Spend time with friends with less food anxiety: Nobody notices you not eating cause of their turns


* Good alternative to board games (my mates think games night = endless mindless snacking) 


* Burns a shit ton of calories (!!)


* Legit fun 


* Scroll Reddit when it's not your turn and it's kind of okay because everyone else is focussing 


Cons:


* Sweat 


* $$ 


In all seriousness, this disorder is fucking socially isolating. I want to try harder to avoid making/cancelling plans just because of avoiding food etc. I'd love to hear about other holy grails for reducing the anxiety involved in socialising ❤️ 


*To be clear: not looking for ED tips. This post is in the spirit of harm reduction.*",1.9981395348837199,4.491544224806201,2.6130976744186043,85.51853023255815,102.87596899224806,5.4748527131782945,26.09023255813953,6.918507183188421,1.9442636279069767,571,27,95,11,25,177,100,129,0.145,0.6809999999999999,0.174,0.7414,0,2,0,0,0,0,28.0,0,2,1,2,3,14,3,2,4,1,5,9,2,1,2,14,14,2,0,1,4,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,5,3,4,2,1,2,1,0,3,7,0,0,0,2,5,7,18,13,5,7,1,0,1,3,11,3,3,0,3,48,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25112193255110243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20010738166226508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17224700532151413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1686093610837716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18811014421419087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16794859415032795,0.13711170063158604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1830512012717604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15683570372743322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3969395086439351,0.0,0.12680841590450292,0.3034758310698831,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13766661192460647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18498933441005172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17091881354155242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13783002038090164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14813605197034144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1540272976571701,0.0,0.0,0.18686601802873146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15719363097126907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16847972375368245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16731248471502927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10516952303452126,0.0,0.0,0.09570702108686753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11143524062022922,0.3570582071224375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09680964191035696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,blackbirdgirlXO,2019/02/26,"Peach?? I’ve heard people say Peach is a new (ish, maybe just to me lol) hub for the ED community. Is that true? Have you guys found it helpful and comfortable? Tumblr is circling the drain. If you use it can you drop your @ below?",-0.6365217391304334,1.4225804565217433,1.0177173913043518,98.00744565217391,103.13043478260867,4.039130434782609,14.445652173913045,5.985473137389443,-0.7168608695652172,175,4,39,2,8,56,39,46,0.04,0.77,0.19,0.8299,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,4,0,0,1,2,0,0,3,1,5,0,0,1,1,6,8,2,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,3,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,5,2,3,6,0,3,0,0,0,0,8,1,0,1,1,22,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4322984391822197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3903908534359927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26427193050344233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3960987977871573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3807899507243399,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27333827151323936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31354058688178504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3405240568667969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,The_Fluffy_Walrus,2019/02/26,"Someone called me ""scrawny"" last week and I still don't know how to feel Been kinda thinking about it a lot.

Years ago I was literally obese. I started riding my bike every morning one summer to just try to be somewhat active along with eating less. Eating less turned to skipping meals. Skipping meals turned to ""fasting"" (aka literally starving myself). Y'all get the point.

Anyway, I don't recall the context but she told me I was ""scrawny and need to gain muscle."" Just, I don't know. I don't *feel* scrawny. And another thing, almost every other day I eat a piece of fruit in one of my classes and this kid almost *always* calls me fat for that. He sits at my table at lunch and ahhhh it makes me not even want to eat around other people as much anymore and it makes me question which one of them is being honest. I don't starve myself as much anymore, but I still look in the mirror and can't see anything but a literal whale. Like, I can wrap my pinky and my thumb around my wrist, my ribcage is there and fully visible, my shoulders are so fucking bony, I can wear my watch on the lowest notch when it used to be at around 4 notches. I *know* I've lost weight but it doesn't matter, because it doesn't feel like I have. idfk, scrawny people don't have thick (not thicc) thighs, or a stomach that jiggles and folds over twice? Do they? I actually don't know. Maybe my body expectations are unrealistic. Except I see people who look similar to me and I don't think they're fat at all?!?!?

Not sure what my point of writing this was, just wanted to somewhat vent a little bit and I don't really know if there's anyone I could really turn to. 


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EDAnonymous,KawaiiFirefly,2019/02/26,"Trying to recover And Ive literally eaten everything in my fridge. 
Its either I'm restricting or I eat everything in sight. I just want to maintain. Theres got to be a better way than this. 
Anyone have any recover advice? 
I purged the other day and my heart felt like I had ran a mile, my breathing was all weird. I'm really scared. 
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EDAnonymous,PleaseDisease,2019/02/26,"Well, my whole math class now knows I'm fucked up 🤦‍♀️ We were doing some problems today in math class and the teacher said to relate it to something that you know a lot about or that you can understand easily. Everyone else picked money. 


My dumbass picked calories. 


🤷‍♀️ shit. ",-0.17984674329502326,2.1137029310344886,1.978505747126437,92.35595785440613,97.27586206896551,5.33639846743295,18.513409961685824,6.937597516519254,0.5088904214559382,222,7,46,4,9,74,48,58,0.228,0.701,0.07200000000000001,-0.8957,0,0,1,0,0,0,5.0,1,2,0,0,3,4,2,0,2,0,3,2,1,2,0,11,9,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,3,2,0,0,3,0,1,0,0,3,1,0,2,1,5,1,5,7,3,4,0,0,0,1,4,2,2,3,2,25,8,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2421581167634285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27699341836588026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2679900234501568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3186216883598961,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2464461932984825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27737666758967106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2757429147226605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2975583588350279,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22316431463681646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2747729957954087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30177601767589984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2606375502944241,0.0,0.0,0.3236414340672917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Theblacrose,2019/02/26,"First time purging, confused and scared I’ve tried before and nothing happened. This time I just kept going, and a lot of spit came then some liquid stuff some or it cleanish orangish. Then yellowish orangish clear. My eyes started watering really badly.  So I got up and saw the sink was over flowing ( I had turned it on) so I stopped completely. Now I’m just standing here confused, as if to anything happened. Also was it normal that my eyes started watering. Also I’m scared because I feel....good. I thought I’d feel lousy and gross but I feel energized. I’m scared. ",1.7950000000000017,4.589230722222227,2.5142962962962976,89.86033333333334,89.0,5.102222222222223,27.57037037037037,6.742157984588678,1.5630992592592596,450,22,82,6,15,140,71,108,0.17800000000000002,0.765,0.058,-0.8419,0,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,0,0,1,8,8,0,5,2,0,3,5,3,0,1,23,19,15,0,2,5,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,6,6,2,2,3,0,0,3,0,7,0,1,8,5,9,1,6,11,3,16,0,0,3,0,0,3,0,7,9,48,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2705918600556137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13922354977194387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14126109953066854,0.1031326502867703,0.0,0.1439626403023962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19350077605939486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17738561036516576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2566326809410313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1439073414505253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09615084365271563,0.1419030365181407,0.1353114463528062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2992167016479365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14383370444802354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16576384302884922,0.16233606660434852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10838323919455417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5081463913457746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2394978089335988,0.0,0.0,0.14144492529274466,0.0,0.0,0.19367455369122005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13431274761273124,0.19730444032093944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1148644453297087,0.1840229925617164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,mattchampionstan,2019/02/26,"Tfw...... you’ve been heavily restricting for weeks and you lose weight and it’s noticeable but when you do a body check you just convince yourself you’re making it up and you haven’t really lost so you’re back to heavy restricting What A Vicious Cycle
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EDAnonymous,JimMakingTheFace,2019/02/26,"2 steps forward and a thousand steps back I was doing so well. I was genuinely happy for a whole month. I didn’t over/under eat. I was excited for my future, 

I’m currently drunk af and have taken a few xanax. I’ve been so miserable, I almost had a panic attack deciding what my breakfast was going to be. I was doing so well and now I’m right back where i started. 

I don’t want to make a big deal out of this, and I don’t want to look like I’m trying to get attention. But I want my family to somehow notice?? And be like really genuinely worried?? 

Why am i like this. ",-0.12457845433254988,1.9617588606557383,3.0905386416861838,88.4260655737705,87.44262295081967,6.436533957845433,19.370023419203747,7.7094869923839395,0.8452252927400465,439,13,95,9,14,158,71,122,0.123,0.679,0.198,0.7261,1,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,0,0,10,10,1,2,5,0,16,4,0,1,0,15,28,9,0,3,1,0,0,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,6,3,0,2,1,0,4,3,3,2,1,9,1,14,7,9,17,2,15,0,1,1,0,1,5,0,2,11,66,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19075350960784307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2167158859656064,0.0,0.2929582291387716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19639227284295865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19492423239314605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17958199979709974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09952592331419602,0.0,0.10826285967465843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20278577171111467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2791991199367535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15996806081884352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12715708106921372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15205151799362202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21688014305145725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22350517088387425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1220361566289133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16268193140482584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13483354225480082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12933379317245866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3370771616118614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3425562751646903,0.0,0.17189236386535836,0.2126811812377249,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19345720742704256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,HausDeKittehs,2019/02/26,"My dying qdad just confronted me about eating only a pickle when I was in high school. I've had EDNOS most of my life. When I was in high school and college it was the worst. My dad randomly brought up out of the blue how when I stayed at his house I ate only a pickle. I said, ""oh, I still eat pickles."" He said, yeah but that's all you ate. Weird eating shit.. And I know you ate only a pickle because I read about it in your journal.""

I didn't really know how to respond. I am an adult now and usually recovered, although I definately relapse frequently. I never get as bad as I was. I could tell that he had been afraid reading that. He brought up the subject after talking about how as a parent, you often find yourself having the behaviors you swore you would never have that your own parents have. I felt like he was indirectly apologising.

Anyway, I didn't know what to say. Maybe he wanted reassurance that I am better now. Last summer he told me that my shoulders were bony and he acted upset from a picture.

All I said on response to him reading my journal was a sarcastic, ""Well, that was nice of you.""

Any one else go through the experience as an adult of ""reconciling"" these lingering issues with parents? I sort of feel like I owe an explanation, but honestly it's best he doesn't know the gory details. My dad is dying. I don't think the details will bring peace. Thoughts?",2.079389989572473,4.41611130291971,3.68701251303441,86.05797445255476,80.13138686131387,6.396037539103233,24.38425443169969,7.5804360353943165,1.3131422314911374,1083,40,213,17,28,359,151,274,0.043,0.815,0.142,0.9834,4,0,0,0,0,0,40.0,0,8,0,2,16,15,2,2,16,1,24,9,2,3,4,34,46,17,2,3,3,5,2,2,0,2,1,4,0,2,12,6,6,0,10,3,1,5,6,7,1,1,24,7,39,8,27,19,6,29,0,0,1,0,34,10,1,5,15,147,51,6,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0725338082188617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08905830321207453,0.06502015679348411,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11193517400687544,0.09433385900929127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08516091682470246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2213966038623629,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3274255202638169,0.08910240291218717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1043358893448882,0.0,0.0,0.05393150506239674,0.07619934426123658,0.1024122335956742,0.0,0.09748712305208056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055726485484133184,0.0,0.06061846479016849,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22538848916273285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12307361137513947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11132740195031683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2344745526786517,0.08694375474765506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07533851523053714,0.10421931751536606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1071563014943401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16452859853764962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07227692229049774,0.24336374066001026,0.0,0.0,0.35530653927693256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3200725513779297,0.0,0.06833039960304013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30437992270730163,0.08482189253366686,0.0,0.21589524891447895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10948699607170026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1136874854721178,0.08518039996903767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08573086423220201,0.09322727726579186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06834469394179278,0.0,0.08467770279208761,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10192009872364544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11747310871954833,0.0,0.06291200298404034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09590193519330552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07576961472243209,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,redhotjillypepper,2019/02/26,"I swear to god I feel like I binged but all sources say im under maintenance????? I had like 1 soup soaked bread roll (130-ish), some broccoli dipped in chili for “seasoning” (100-ish) like 3-4 (??? Im so bad at estimating oz) oz of turkey (200??), 3 bites of a cookie (60??), 2 forkfuls of pudding (50??), like 1/8 a sweet potato (40??), a small nutty thing (idek what it was I estimated it at 160-170 cals though)
Idk its supposedly like 700-900 cals and I feel so fucking gross I hate myself so much I cant shake the feeling that somehow theres a shit ton of cals I missed/forgot about and it was actually like 1500-1600?????
All those silly British fat people shows say that lots of people gain weight by grazing on really small things and even though ive thought through everything I swear I must have eaten more than what ive counted. 
Even if my estimation is correct I still feel so gross having easten that much I should’ve stayed under 500. I fasted for like 43-ish hours cause I binged on sunday and my stomach feels so full and gross. 
I think another issue for me is its ed awareness week so I feel pressure to be sicker this week and ugh god im a stupid needy mess

Edit: well I purged as much asi could even tho my meds were prob still in my stomach now there’s broccoli in my nose 😩👌🏻 I am glamour incarnate",2.119448621553886,4.0101499360902295,3.2828759398496254,91.26661967418549,77.83458646616542,6.237844611528822,22.737468671679203,7.1686216300943375,0.6458025062656647,1017,31,221,12,24,328,170,266,0.191,0.6579999999999999,0.151,-0.95,0,0,0,0,0,0,55.0,0,0,0,1,20,23,4,2,6,0,15,10,5,1,4,25,26,18,0,3,2,0,7,7,0,1,2,2,0,0,14,6,4,0,8,1,0,1,1,12,1,0,6,11,28,11,24,17,10,23,0,0,0,1,2,12,2,4,16,122,42,1,0.0,0.0,0.1142694475189514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12278605651832175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09777081890419666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12029052426914552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09349215374961768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2320237161677872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10523892642537644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35524553407198445,0.0836538763897516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10825397412031493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11560870789424058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1153166215178882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3794534559297205,0.1222184890412712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4004525887044199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09955139183136796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13006799029074725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2582385524300753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16236015863037662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07501511801018072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18623992586681115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12019803745642625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12480945799404032,0.18702708583450064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15558763384457888,0.07503081075476639,0.2300937453290857,0.09296166720349236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18785575293433265,0.14259218430282758,0.10528395893663768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,StephPowell1,2019/02/26,"Think I talked myself out of therapy? Below is a copy of the email I sent my therapist about group therapy.

Now I think they will pull me from the group when that isn't what I wanted, I just don't know how to manage it?

Have I just lost all my help?



Hya.

I apologise for the rest of this email. 
I've been meaning to contact you all for a while but I hate to not meet expectations so I've put it off, nevertheless, I have several concerns and I don't know how to manage them.

I know I said before that I find it difficult to talk about my eating disorder in front of a group.
I hoped it would get better with time but I still really really struggle. I'm so very uncomfortable and ashamed and that is a huge trigger for me.

Outside of group, I'm a different person. I still have my fears and concerns and eating issues but around people who don't know, I am able to manage my behaviour, fake what I need too and adapt.

No one outside would ever describe the person in that group every week. I know its illogical because everyone is suffering with the same thing but I just feel so totally exposed. I've spent my life fighting to keep this as secret as possible and discussing it openly with everyone just terrifies me.

Being the biggest person in the room is not something I can ever forget or ignore. It dictates everything and I feel like such a fraud being in that room, speaking about this issue I have when I'm double everyone's size. It reinforces the idea that I don't deserve to be trying to get better till I've lost the weight. I'm so repulsed by myself and I feel like I'm sitting in a room full of mirrors. I can't help but compare so I just try not to look at people.

I tend to settle a bit more and talk more once I'm halfway through the session but then I get home and the realisation of what I've done and said hits me and I spend the rest of Friday binging and purging. 

I don't know how to over come these feelings. I'm aware that with every week, people are improving much quicker than I and I'm terrified of letting people down and not being recovered enough by the end.

I picture myself being in a separate room whilst the group is going on, just listening in. That way I'd be comfortable. 

I'm just humiliated and nervous and the only way I'm managing it so I can function in group is through the use of behaviours. 

I don't know how to make this better or how to make group work for me.",2.635313588850174,4.4040960853658575,4.352148664343787,84.72426829268295,75.95121951219512,7.449941927990707,25.332171893147503,8.269060116576782,1.6282220673635308,1902,67,385,34,42,641,215,492,0.162,0.7609999999999999,0.078,-0.9931,1,0,1,0,2,0,36.0,0,1,2,6,31,19,2,4,25,0,34,4,0,9,5,86,81,44,0,6,19,0,5,2,0,3,1,4,5,3,27,26,3,2,17,0,2,6,13,12,0,1,8,10,52,7,60,62,13,48,0,3,1,0,32,24,0,3,17,271,79,6,0.08366478135454898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07447939336925344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051001274165308,0.0,0.07119256673040217,0.0,0.0,0.2219841004852752,0.09134027225077612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07206980095092205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08741188937451679,0.0958870878090423,0.0,0.0,0.08561811911735402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17121991652253304,0.0,0.0,0.07410216325737984,0.08644808414504013,0.0,0.0,0.15135916926863555,0.14098237344727754,0.23983585187912745,0.0751925107452244,0.0,0.0,0.09414613921764907,0.16921370919306286,0.11954027303340713,0.0,0.0,0.07646809444274573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13113418536373714,0.0,0.047548623299433115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08260165041443314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1121574787281062,0.0,0.08392259730791835,0.08309800570438625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09444735443709856,0.0,0.17464858988308524,0.0,0.07436510183241987,0.0,0.0,0.32185983066581864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08555290739738915,0.059094909332253615,0.08174877219698025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07025734482419578,0.0,0.18265998408699824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11169378244367158,0.0,0.0,0.09113547406621364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06150324088871687,0.06203637526180286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08910026161951802,0.056693421107402574,0.0636308362995721,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23201050005137894,0.21915857993321272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09431947011285816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08410621362899016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10719560258977842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15916873222065234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09451738869742833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06440923617812501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1336296049278934,0.0,0.0,0.08746459504334521,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2017397462615856,0.0,0.0,0.19135593787384464,0.09714125961509093,0.05558316312727765,0.10721802731237794,0.0,0.0,0.048785606822186564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11360578927850926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07225950858967355,0.0,0.06903220670223131,0.04934765572265215,0.13281841832843988,0.13422168204160778,0.10188116426651422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0609089572688484,0.0,0.0,0.11886612042885066,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,proimize,2019/02/26,"I failed my intro to chem exam I'm not even in gen chem yet and yet I'm already failing. I honestly don't even know what happened, I was studying for a few weeks, I thoight I'd at least pass. Anyway, I got home and binged on 1 popsicle (80kcl), 2 cups of chocolate ice cream (400kcl?), and three oreos on top of my lunch which was pasta (200kcl), and bread (140) which was all dopped by my breakfast of lucky charms (160kcl[I had more than the serving of 120kcl]) and almond milk (30kcl), and 1/4 of a ponczki (100kcl). I purged the hell out of that binge and some of lunch but I'm just so disappointed right now. I failed something which I thought I knew. Luckily I have a shift at 4 so that should help to get my mind off things.",3.791621621621623,4.448140324324329,4.533351351351354,88.92110810810814,71.43243243243244,7.271351351351353,25.610810810810808,7.1686216300943375,0.959897837837838,560,16,122,5,10,180,101,148,0.115,0.78,0.105,-0.5254,0,0,1,0,0,0,31.0,0,0,0,4,9,8,1,0,5,0,7,6,0,0,1,19,16,10,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,7,8,6,0,3,0,0,1,2,5,0,1,7,1,14,3,19,8,5,14,1,4,1,0,1,9,1,2,4,76,21,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3410199325333022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4082199794947761,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.161454304353769,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2471578131782758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2732723196709325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20713486329926786,0.0,0.3099801443154052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1698336323496112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3120300488309136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2639081074683914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2379047475435605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20530438142283952,0.0,0.0,0.2453336053726979,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24788351233255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,sammy5198,2019/02/26,"Anyone else have trouble making food around others? I've been trying to recover and am happy to say that for a while now, I haven't been thinking about what I've been eating. Binging, sometimes. But I promised myself no more purging. I live with five other girls and when someone else is in the kitchen, I refuse to make food. I don't like them watching me cook, and I especially don't like them watching me eat. I feel so self conscious that I usually wait to cook meals until everyone is asleep or if I'm lucky, in class.

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Does anyone else have the same issue?",4.662321428571432,5.920214874999999,4.830714285714286,85.36428571428574,69.89285714285714,7.028571428571429,28.285714285714285,7.1686216300943375,1.4696392857142857,454,16,87,4,8,142,76,112,0.106,0.8109999999999999,0.08199999999999999,-0.1729,0,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,2,0,5,6,0,0,3,0,11,9,1,2,0,17,17,10,0,1,3,0,1,2,0,0,0,1,1,2,5,5,8,2,3,2,0,0,4,1,0,1,3,4,13,5,11,14,2,8,0,0,2,0,6,3,0,3,7,57,18,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17011473004458202,0.19077812339225425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2195629358151743,0.3217401225107485,0.0,0.1397676368723165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13739603511620374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3213103925160181,0.3934723113166439,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15002489833312213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07938638860502993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3797018664334234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16713462227145068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16387231143264255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15340931484952275,0.0,0.13863819215332085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2096039631806025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12485658827991393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1637903391891389,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13302973170544033,0.0,0.15528184837337022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10060239235077408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10659601256249293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1729187021326668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19077812339225425,0.0
EDAnonymous,notzacsthrowaway,2019/02/26,"i havent had any selfcontrol recently im eating far too fucking much. today i had a bowl of pasta and half a bag of corn chips. yesterday i had an entire pizza and the other half of the bag of corn chips. it's so much food. eating makes me feel disgusting and i jsut want to stop eating so much, but for the past week ive just havent fucking stopped. im really angry at myself for doing this. i'm fat and eating is just making it worse. i just wanna be able to not eat for a day or two without caving in like the weak piece of shit i am",2.629576271186441,3.0219034406779706,4.762500000000003,87.18917372881359,73.91525423728814,7.594915254237289,21.529661016949152,7.6454224807358475,0.6578101694915248,418,8,95,5,8,146,75,118,0.201,0.77,0.029,-0.9712,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,0,6,6,4,0,8,0,10,13,2,2,0,18,17,8,0,2,7,0,1,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,4,4,9,2,1,0,0,0,4,5,0,3,3,1,9,1,14,13,4,11,0,0,0,2,0,3,3,1,9,64,13,0,0.13398948732327526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09111744607512746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08641213464979236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6855234802194582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06774911072428065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1620206199276844,0.0,0.0,0.2477422439050674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2894632780412025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.065460495435724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17887804646741345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2954930706318403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12790812687657774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08583709657619888,0.0,0.13229845411954033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13753828325667086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2240424221086872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12700636700293624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13088825968085815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07903047117117869,0.0,0.10747828460944668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12916108435363194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13654673462456576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ALonelyComputerVirus,2019/02/26,where are we on the shame spectrum today guys? my temporary?! cbt therapist knows about my new unlocked suicidal thoughts. haven’t got the courage to bring up the eating/fasting. am I too fat or is it the diarrhoea from just a week of purging that’s got me fasting rn lmao,2.2710062893081755,4.923799528301892,2.9946226415094337,89.3257704402516,82.01886792452831,6.552201257861638,29.58805031446541,7.793537801064563,2.1628767295597493,217,11,42,4,6,68,47,53,0.139,0.741,0.12,-0.2851,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,1,0,0,0,4,2,0,1,5,0,4,1,1,0,0,5,9,1,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,2,1,1,0,2,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,3,0,5,1,6,6,0,8,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,1,4,26,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5192290342286148,0.0,0.0,0.3214078120757701,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17839321316704618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31350341291440353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35506278476825504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3768888767072063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2576983696032447,0.0,0.0,0.30768550542680456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.260376791359594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,depictured,2019/02/26,"My friend with depression is trying to ""help"" me with my ED He noticed my eating patterns and brought his concerns up to me, and I told him that I ate 3 whole grapes yesterday in my defense. (which didn't work)

So he said, ""I will only take my meds if you eat a good meal every day"".

What am I supposed to do??? I love this man and I'd be devastated if he stopped taking his meds because of me but I also can't physically hold down a meal without crying or fasting for 2 days.

I just feel so guilty and I already know I won't eat today because of it. But that means he won't be fine tomorrow?? I can't handle this.",1.4949271339347658,2.9001852519084004,3.6469118667591935,90.1274253990285,78.16030534351145,6.290353920888273,24.88619014573213,6.980632752743323,0.8669633587786256,472,17,107,5,11,162,87,131,0.111,0.8009999999999999,0.08800000000000001,-0.5915,0,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,1,0,1,4,6,1,0,2,0,11,7,0,0,0,19,21,12,0,2,7,0,1,0,1,3,0,1,0,1,7,6,6,3,3,0,0,1,6,2,0,0,5,2,22,4,12,11,1,11,0,1,0,1,14,3,0,3,7,68,29,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18129407983705012,0.13137974008314274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2002948763643777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18046084852158825,0.21190221797671796,0.0,0.14149959827859027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5043178710571443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13841834111659815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0830681181908507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1269272316421728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13779560147101522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1101176818758146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09028748517273212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1482748510726314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17895600462191882,0.3649702131302413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18704110596448986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1249471772830147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1562739464012064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1373507504417985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2470457890702121,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15572425663455072,0.15698265414628698,0.0,0.11153965214703736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1834198502308249,0.0,0.1583661852686238,0.0,0.11960242430517205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,sandywpskw,2019/02/26,"I think my 11 year old niece has eating disorder on top of anxiety. Help My niece is 11, very slender,lowest on weight charts or even below. She has anxiety,she breaks down in tears sometimes for the simplest things,avoiding school,avoids some social type things,sometimes she hides even mymwhen my daughter and I visit,or other people. She told my sister she doesn't want to get fat. The last couple times I saw her eat,right after she disappeared in the bathroom.I've brought thitup an Ed.and my sister doesnt think so.My sister,even after doctor and Pediatrician visit,saying nothing physically wrong,my sister is still convinced it physical. She does not believe me that her anxiety may may causing her more issues then she realizes. My sister thinks she's right and everyone else is nuts including me. She knows it all. She said yesterday that she will continue letting her daughter stay home as needed if she feels bad,even if she flunks. Niece complains of being weak,dizzy,sore tummy. She said she doesn't give a s... what anyone says. I almost feel attacked when having a conversation if I don't agree with her opinion. I'm just at a loss what I can do more to help,as she doesn't hear anything. ",4.960489476260399,6.9266177092511025,5.027011747430251,81.48318037200198,70.1453744493392,7.511404796867352,27.14855604503181,8.167268648758528,1.8635777777777776,968,33,170,14,18,302,142,227,0.129,0.8370000000000001,0.034,-0.9377,1,2,0,0,0,0,34.0,0,0,0,2,5,5,1,0,7,0,18,4,1,1,1,26,35,10,0,5,6,6,3,0,0,3,2,4,1,0,7,4,3,0,7,0,0,2,6,4,0,0,5,8,35,1,16,25,4,24,0,2,1,0,37,9,0,9,11,101,42,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12489151137554284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19082465629842715,0.0,0.0,0.08720883266683661,0.0,0.10263594423073093,0.0,0.0,0.14188978537263844,0.0,0.0,0.1041380309376592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1405194841143124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12812430619121906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13800301183852773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14294272607437755,0.12765870620193456,0.10914545108489772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2552443940595954,0.10418959778509553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32951199145596394,0.0,0.0,0.1191776399419797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12612683018063464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06516232917187305,0.1196451329534634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14057125874694118,0.0,0.16719765012524093,0.0,0.1251067804074535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13017782744977655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06854419335499053,0.1016654382038574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12753714901974902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09248011174721424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11967454863730058,0.0,0.13087522422573789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0864668385311421,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21302457111704648,0.2372792104681805,0.19836858665109175,0.0,0.1262257717689226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1271388248164433,0.0,0.0,0.24670737218397926,0.0,0.0,0.13293753027303276,0.09960350475277377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2397513178031323,0.0,0.0,0.07272665998829594,0.0,0.0,0.1191776399419797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1029090781503151,0.07356452881772224,0.0,0.0,0.15187833616231355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13636441307029445,0.0,0.08031716464024001
EDAnonymous,rbnshthrowaway,2019/02/26,"""I need to lose weight too."" Lmao the actual Fuck. I was complaining to my boyfriend the other day about not fitting into H&M clothes (bc they run about 5 sizes too small) and how I think my belly's too soft.

Yesterday HE was complaining that his work pants dont fit anymore and about he ""needs to lose weight too"" and I straight up asked what he meant. His response was ""Well when you came to me about not being able to wear that brand of clothes, you weren't crying out of happiness"".

Like. Fair. I know he didn't say it to be cruel. But did he have to call me tf out like that ??",1.8691749427043547,3.7977890420168094,2.412284186401834,97.03605805958748,78.74789915966386,6.007944996180291,20.902215431627198,6.980632752743323,0.19690924369747886,452,12,104,5,11,139,78,119,0.141,0.726,0.133,-0.2537,0,0,0,0,0,0,21.0,0,2,1,3,11,10,2,0,2,0,10,4,1,1,0,16,18,6,0,2,3,0,3,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,6,7,2,0,3,0,0,2,5,6,1,0,8,4,14,4,17,8,0,13,0,2,0,1,15,8,1,0,5,62,20,1,0.18539603479252725,0.0,0.1809197862579702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20087652624005808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18386304911354887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1733202659059566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18931008004251154,0.21204367373543495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20364883869246905,0.11956510500989538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2172827720192235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17139564673378704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.197357526461904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10188881219679524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1811502757683796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4148214809274761,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27493762130806393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1474343681189826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11879429313126967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4515248487894569,0.1666933004471762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1349705213850773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,__peewee,2019/02/26,"“little” spoon Do you know how hard it is to keep ur stomach sucked in when your mans laying behind you and resting his hand on your stomach? I literally feel like my stomach is hanging down into a puddle when I’m laying on my side. 

I know he loves me and this is completely irrational but i can’t help but think he’s just grossed out the whole time. Sometimes it gets really bad and I have to consciously control my breathing so my stomach doesn’t expand too much while he’s touching it WHILE trying to hide the fact that I’m doing it in case he gets suspicious. i would die from embarrassment ",3.3599999999999994,5.2322739495798345,4.321588235294119,85.27414705882354,74.21008403361343,7.1129411764705885,26.185714285714287,7.908726449838941,1.5502262184873952,476,17,93,7,10,154,81,119,0.199,0.7040000000000001,0.096,-0.9279,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,4,0,1,6,6,1,1,3,0,9,7,6,2,1,18,20,11,1,1,3,0,4,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,6,5,0,2,5,0,0,1,2,4,0,0,0,4,15,2,12,19,3,15,0,0,0,1,13,9,1,0,6,61,21,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20751914761019066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2605877398915528,0.0,0.2787569023229937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25794357662475376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12566846162824566,0.17755585273045474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2597020681932573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2226415510035081,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16659002251150493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.220912312381157,0.0,0.0,0.27318036361127035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12142328764002505,0.2491007282466749,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22431557182557127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18270429043826736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15922003642625085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2458107913304867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15925334437044708,0.0,0.0,0.14492471533614895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1687412307049433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2774842010701739,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17655451872363825,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,apocalyptic_thoughts,2019/02/27,"Cold cold cold When you're wearing 2 layers and are covered by 3 more but you constantly wake up anyway because you feel like you're freezing to death so you just give up with sleep at 4am. 

A.k.a. When your eating disorder leads to temporary anemia due to a lack of nutrition. 

I'll try to have some eggs and peas after my current fast without feeling too bad about it since damn, I haven't felt properly warm for at least 2 weeks. ",4.443448275862072,5.407759954022993,4.848908045977012,86.12439655172415,70.14942528735632,8.098850574712644,28.29310344827586,8.344100000000001,1.8194000000000004,344,12,70,5,6,109,70,87,0.215,0.711,0.073,-0.9105,1,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,4,0,1,7,4,1,0,1,0,3,5,3,1,0,12,7,6,1,1,3,0,5,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,2,0,3,0,0,1,2,2,0,0,1,8,6,2,15,6,4,13,0,0,0,0,5,4,1,1,9,39,7,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24173506053643926,0.17648721086829164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3128656178346173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3318121941591035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2962487311024721,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2927775439429702,0.20683139509140805,0.2779822497737163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2777316144445808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1414436505075232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2394919085995647,0.0,0.28972663544406524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19656341156564008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2322335146450843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2790845860985925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,speakofthewolf,2019/02/27,"My dad just asked me to help him lose weight... What do I do??? I lost a lot recently... obviously through bad habits... He said he wants to know how to ""eat right"". Like... WHAT... tomorrow I'm planning on eating a whole pint of non-dairy ice cream and nothing else and I'm suppose to tell him how to ""eat right""?

What help can I even provide? 

He's obese and has been my whole life. Awful eating habits. He's sick most of the time. I have a shitty relationship with him. I think maybe he's worried about his health now for some reason. Idk why this is making me so uncomfortable, like it's a simple thing... but I feel so anxious? And dirty? I don't want my family talking to me about... this kind of stuff. Advice and/or sympathy please? I seriously feel just not right.",0.0560962566844907,2.426599104575168,1.621619132501486,95.82319518716578,93.90196078431372,4.873321449792038,16.758467023172905,6.574015621080383,-0.20729803921568649,585,15,130,8,22,188,99,153,0.187,0.737,0.076,-0.9247,0,0,0,0,0,0,44.0,0,0,0,3,10,7,0,0,5,1,8,9,0,4,1,23,20,9,0,2,4,1,3,2,0,0,4,1,0,0,8,5,6,0,5,0,0,0,2,4,0,0,3,5,18,3,15,17,5,8,0,2,1,0,17,4,0,3,6,73,26,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12575105938997316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14537923255290242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12030460267862515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10744793851931646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5267140873200009,0.10750114435971006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08499628781278976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12131427678454708,0.0,0.13013562646482013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1367878416597283,0.0,0.0,0.17251183520058674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13400729451741647,0.07072279173275398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09089515363155748,0.12573954832992967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14396739234353953,0.14047662906611644,0.10940474825612896,0.0,0.0,0.08589930697605927,0.0,0.12928298967816138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12347826657107963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1412592465706788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13231126092432108,0.12706249589932495,0.13816125233611293,0.0,0.32969296828058503,0.12241042868171445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14731537278776682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10343341717721607,0.1124777633829875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08549366111006695,0.08245717926258019,0.0,0.0,0.07503819325924835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1518053855721727,0.0,0.0,0.15670561445658115,0.0,0.0,0.11611964356490552,0.2873479938600669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1306874922558291,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,patriotsfan4life,2019/02/27,"what do normal people eat in a day? I'm attempting to lose weight in a ""healthy"" way. but most healthy food is, like, fruits and veggies, and this is going to sound stupid but I don't want to eat too many of those. a normal amount is ok but too much fiber makes me bloated and uncomfortable, and I also weigh myself after every meal and i hate the terror of seeing the weight go up by a pound or two. 

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So I thought maybe I'd eat when normal, and skinny, people eat in a day. People always say models starve themselves but I like to believe they don't, since they all look so pretty and healthy. I want to know what a thin person normally eats in a day so I can follow that plan, but the thing is I literally forgot what I ate before stupid disordered eating :/",3.290978494623655,4.707215941935488,4.216532258064518,87.83813172043011,73.45161290322581,6.456989247311827,21.9489247311828,6.816661863887847,0.4854408602150535,601,14,123,5,12,194,92,155,0.191,0.679,0.13,-0.8678,0,0,0,0,0,0,22.0,0,0,2,3,7,8,3,1,10,1,8,14,1,1,1,25,22,18,0,6,6,0,3,2,0,0,0,2,0,1,7,7,14,1,2,0,0,3,2,5,0,1,3,8,13,3,14,19,4,15,0,1,2,0,4,6,0,2,7,76,20,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08235517823343194,0.08568980440773416,0.11158164501892144,0.12513517692531226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08763063972894496,0.11602616730839425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1992458454989512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1180270249037617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6322616886124464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08676731394215996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12452701439285367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1170548125828586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10167403425549393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056596564500303516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1006242299396964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08647947890284717,0.1152112297475668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06874171039758807,0.10440823095411493,0.10345990146657924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07570408810924491,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4036044789963383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21418558295903325,0.08992046709202865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10477036555821707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08189592699040169,0.0,0.0,0.08206382911094158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08518830217245267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06841708856272513,0.0,0.0,0.08175671113236771,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10059907315753187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12148365591243825,0.08174282442985367,0.0,0.250810218286224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12513517692531226,0.0
EDAnonymous,thepeelofanorange,2019/02/27,"The meal plan my parents are using for me is literally 4,500 calories Ughghfhfjejdkkkkjjfjd why did I even tell them and go into recovery. I feel fat and bloated and gross!!! Family based treatment is HARD you guys, being a kid is HARD. I gotta do everything my parents tell me to do and there’s no negotiations allowed :/",3.6660000000000004,6.327832266666667,5.223333333333333,75.42500000000003,76.33333333333334,8.0,28.33333333333333,8.841846274778883,2.6573333333333333,256,11,45,6,6,86,47,60,0.204,0.7959999999999999,0.0,-0.8966,3,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,1,1,1,2,1,0,0,2,0,8,2,1,2,0,8,12,4,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,0,5,2,0,1,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,1,3,9,0,3,9,0,2,0,0,0,0,8,1,0,0,0,29,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16285160119936656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2215936537859952,0.0,0.23243631846864998,0.0,0.12466894548122635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14012663049803098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2441347330342842,0.0,0.0,0.4417415002026792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5475549220316975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4310113850286702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2129500447647072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22248347983026948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,doggolemon,2019/02/27,"Does it upset anyone else when you’re told to gain weight? [rant] I can’t be the only one. I absolutely hate when people tell me I need to gain weight, and I’m not sure if it’s the fact that I have an eating disorder or I just dislike people telling me what to do. 

Either way, it’s really annoying. Especially when all my friends at school tell me I need to gain a few pounds, but as soon as I eat literally anything at home my moms boyfriend looks at me in disgust and asks, “are you really gonna eat that?” ",2.6448831775700943,3.693054925233647,4.403820093457946,87.31171144859816,74.51401869158876,7.966822429906544,23.655373831775695,8.472884824447931,1.2100850467289723,395,11,90,7,8,134,73,107,0.159,0.7609999999999999,0.08,-0.8168,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,1,0,3,5,6,3,1,4,0,5,5,0,0,3,13,13,10,0,3,6,1,2,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,6,2,5,0,0,0,0,0,2,4,0,1,1,3,14,2,10,10,3,9,0,0,1,0,8,4,0,2,4,54,20,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.106619681316435,0.15623688579972053,0.12548054286310026,0.0,0.1425510511367579,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17475876507573287,0.0,0.13343892878680427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4680846272144199,0.1273800069629734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11780801220080643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15054542534852602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15295291370916772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12804734296893042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1785862840534207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2261284721070662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10332644871204287,0.11597021691382205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21142506984010576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19536906958156805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1543209689703987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14371345300975644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3998306725451289,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1457040715038805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12103393322683326,0.0,0.37136650738943205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,NeverPerfectEnough,2019/02/27,"Halo Top dairy free candy bar Holy fuck. You guys. I have a monster sore throat so I just wanted cold stuff for dinner. Grabbed a box of sugar free popsicles. Just past that was the Halo Top section. In previous experience, the birthday cake flavor was atrocious & cinnamon bun was okay at best. So I don't know why I even stopped. But I did, and the candy bar flavor caught my eye. Holy cats. This is, like, actually good. The weird texture of HT is masked by the peanuts & swirls. The play doh flavor is almost unnoticeable under the coconut chocolate. I may or may not have just eaten the entire container in one go, for the first time in forever. (On an unrelated note, my hands are freezing.) ",2.409949874686717,5.089039218045116,3.5717593984962406,85.24736340852131,81.6315789473684,6.2534335839599,23.904260651629077,7.554174236665415,1.359461553884712,548,20,102,9,15,177,96,133,0.066,0.767,0.16699999999999998,0.926,0,0,0,0,0,0,26.0,0,1,0,4,6,9,1,0,12,1,13,10,3,0,0,14,19,5,0,1,6,0,3,1,0,2,1,0,0,1,3,1,5,2,1,3,2,2,2,2,0,2,6,9,9,9,11,11,2,15,0,0,1,1,2,9,1,4,5,62,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.2290389276843432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2350238771241501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5086071028336945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2463091747453113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15502091562895032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22958723233216236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19964056698946808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2169816577259067,0.0,0.0,0.1333886704448863,0.196860023835187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2323955648767136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12898812656848002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1146653601849613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15904267126444102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22405316888088267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1962244927784636,0.0,0.0,0.2686818985092592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13685879378417298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13843551568179752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2117854077061272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,extra-black-depresso,2019/02/27,"thinking of taking a shot of hydrogen peroxide to purge, how bad of an idea is this lol no matter how deep or how much I wiggle my fingers, I can't gag 😩

hydrogen peroxide is a stomach irritant, just scared to drink it since around five people died last year from drinking high concentrations of it

y'all ever do something like this before??",14.55227272727273,7.623813621212123,13.370909090909093,57.97636363636366,56.72727272727273,16.83636363636364,49.66666666666667,13.023866798666859,6.135630303030304,273,11,49,6,2,90,53,66,0.212,0.669,0.119,-0.8391,0,0,3,0,0,0,5.0,0,1,0,0,6,3,0,1,3,1,4,4,2,3,1,10,6,4,1,0,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,1,2,0,2,2,0,0,2,2,0,1,0,1,4,1,8,6,1,6,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,1,4,32,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2230249004673928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20918216510063206,0.0,0.0,0.2131826588644155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2600106855369385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4908482315899445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2266188145062161,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2646988009615964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2828179832012186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20421546564595952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12239634990159318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1841684465610955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1736860235448353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2508243309326759,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2072410839113176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19287030731559665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1883674529674116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16052956924005207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16133316755573165
EDAnonymous,hideousthing,2019/02/27,"worst nights of my life fellas I was doing so fucking good with eating at least SOMETHING 3 times a day and holding myself to it but everything's gone to total shit and I'm back to restricting until late late at night and then drinking and binging

I've developed some strong feelings for a really good friend of mine who has spent the last year and a half also dropping weird hints and wanting to spend every waking moment with me but I think hes found an actual pretty girl to pay attention to and I've been tossed by the wayside so I literally dunno how to spend my time with him being so busy 

I'm constantly thinking about how we might have been a really good thing together and he probs thought the same until he found out what I looked like (we met online) and though we might get along amazingly I'm literally the fuck ugliest thing most people have ever seen

All this coincides with the rest of my mental health taking a huge turn for the worse where I dont even feel real most of the time and everything is just falling apart around me except for eating a whole oven pizza and getting so drunk I puke cause I cant puke any other way and literally I don't want to be alive at all at this point ",5.4572038567493095,5.86038078099174,5.915223140495868,81.38859228650142,67.63636363636364,8.932672176308541,26.877134986225897,8.841846274778883,1.8479892011019283,967,26,190,15,15,312,153,242,0.16699999999999998,0.7070000000000001,0.126,-0.884,0,0,2,0,0,1,2.0,3,0,0,1,15,12,3,0,14,0,16,11,2,3,4,53,39,25,0,2,4,0,2,1,1,2,2,0,1,1,8,22,5,2,8,2,4,2,3,5,0,1,10,4,20,7,31,25,11,31,0,0,2,2,11,10,3,6,18,128,28,1,0.0,0.0,0.1134740222838686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09299031622720913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07907544376327404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1035152356298011,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08941333691785475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11945318655007454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12565904942592965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07499198219768102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13628111454240632,0.11391165346340545,0.0,0.2379701176602445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07680286933052956,0.10518332227744627,0.09797222390554652,0.0,0.20901272460152626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1175908945181042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25499344275100844,0.08983883969309442,0.21500084472901065,0.1215046245946201,0.0,0.0,0.2925943501044946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1236018536731488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09478498589749053,0.2623413141628655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08213310000689766,0.05680929337369391,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0976472185822492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11718445609454728,0.2467127046309147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21824472143873969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0806149879012072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10992365346441108,0.0,0.0,0.11830014376125655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13235386501908966,0.14898588131009444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11936134353450617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08951922079519148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08742925672444325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1545045943015175,0.14901704832608118,0.11424603580288255,0.09231456460875227,0.20341412666337189,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1264809389896231,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13717174587024547,0.09229888461283904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12982420169592213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11850083710600147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07488150793671318
EDAnonymous,slightlyannoyed0,2019/02/27,"I hate myself... so much This morning, I had an appointment with a new nutritionist. At the end of the session, she weighed me after asking my mother for permission (she was with me during the appointment... so I had to lie about all the skipped meals and stuff I have thrown away at school and say that I ate instead)
My mother was scared that I had lost weight, especially since I hadn't been eating as much and looked thinner. 

When I stepped on that scale and saw that number, it felt like my whole world came crashing down on top of me. I bawled my eyes out and continuously called myself ""fat"", ""ugly"", ""worthless"", you get the point... I threatened to kill myself since I felt so trapped in this piece of shit body of which I am told that I am supposed to love. I hate my body because I see it as the ugliest thing in existence, other than my face, of course. 
I threw away ALL of my lunch as soon as I got to school and fasted until I got home. I sadly ate a few minutes ago and am now sitting below 850cal. When I joke about my self hatred, people find it amusing and hilarious, but I genuinely fucking HATE myself.

sorry if this sounds like an attention seeking post, I just feel so lost right now in ""recovery"" (I truly don't want to recover)",4.8355561224489785,5.49837676734694,5.360650510204081,83.90260841836735,69.08163265306123,8.084183673469388,27.9655612244898,8.07648339933343,1.6581071428571437,968,31,196,12,16,311,143,245,0.15,0.774,0.076,-0.9552,0,1,0,0,0,1,41.0,0,1,0,3,13,16,6,1,10,0,12,15,6,0,2,23,35,21,1,2,3,2,4,2,0,0,1,2,1,1,15,12,8,0,5,2,0,3,2,11,0,0,19,10,41,5,35,16,7,33,0,4,4,2,11,16,2,1,14,141,56,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10932463126038257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11529693074649185,0.0,0.2317452479864469,0.0,0.0,0.07518084224956434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2739837235698208,0.0,0.0,0.12593375087548914,0.14105670008129118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12619741118958366,0.0,0.0,0.1092338012604806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06235936937611256,0.0,0.23683234117188415,0.0,0.11272141411195145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11401662643673842,0.0644348509895489,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1972765845641352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3652886178431218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12371007690768775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13644640654596962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1205056471082702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10356616466052973,0.0,0.26925859547041797,0.0,0.11131016819211767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18132352678501576,0.0,0.0,0.11911291255281065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08550151486445674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1165867431768478,0.0,0.11811607822277312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10532317269411152,0.0,0.09807699083435872,0.1234748762272836,0.2496331514952061,0.0982780671923953,0.0,0.12866011971587693,0.0,0.12659650462224134,0.20403975236378827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1380578726361891,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1411833791561372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08193499255056164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11784712990680285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07274324771270384,0.0,0.0,0.15018275257391311,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13769357535193394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Tay-tertot,2019/02/27,"Watch me, this is accountability I am flying to SF to see an ex in april and I will be damned if I don't lose at least 20 before I see them. ",10.341818181818184,2.3675831818181834,11.22545454545455,73.35818181818183,65.66666666666667,14.412121212121216,36.03030303030303,8.841846274778883,2.6492666666666658,107,1,30,1,1,39,28,33,0.084,0.843,0.073,-0.08800000000000001,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,1,1,0,2,1,0,1,0,5,0,0,0,0,2,7,2,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,2,0,0,0,3,6,0,4,5,1,3,0,1,3,0,2,2,1,1,1,20,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4004337189179638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5264649594209411,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7499916554572031,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,thecommunistagenda,2019/02/27,"Relapse I’ve relapsed back into this guys so guess you’ll be seeing more of me. 

I went into recovery around Christmas and I’ve slowly been slipping back into without even realising - missing meals because I’ve forgotten and such. 

I’ve lost more than 4kg since I went back into recovery without even deliberately trying to. 

Old habits die hard I suppose.",4.622727272727276,7.1669749090909125,5.684848484848484,73.89727272727276,72.63636363636364,7.4303030303030315,32.21212121212121,8.344100000000001,2.9517757575757573,288,14,45,5,6,95,46,66,0.15,0.82,0.03,-0.7658,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,1,0,1,8,2,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,0,10,9,3,1,0,2,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,7,1,0,0,0,0,2,2,2,0,0,4,2,5,0,10,3,2,11,0,2,1,0,2,5,0,1,4,29,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18351468404699636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4755433393230042,0.0,0.12566539939494878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2139482125321268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27231651869103624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2270943452910809,0.204118105385016,0.0,0.0,0.1846673698794083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2250339842429013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2163167737027536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1642726018484787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1705270665106873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13996039429318086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38220097755081656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3974370245244171,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,coldpizzainthetrash,2019/02/27,"I heard someone purging in the bathroom I was going to the bathroom before class periods and heard retching and was instantly like nope fuck that and was hurrying up to pee, for some reason other people vomiting grosses me our but me doing it isn't gross to me??? Lmao but anyways, when I came out my stall I was washing my hands and kind of looking at the stall waiting for the person to come out so I could ask them if they were alright  and the door opens and it's a girl from my gym class. 

There was tears on her face and I asked if her if she was sick and she was like no I was making my self throw up and Y'ALL WHEN I TELL Y'ALL MY HEART FUCKING DROPPED AND I FELT FOR HER I ALMOST STARTED FUCKING CRYING RIGHT THEN AND THERE. she is the most sweetest kindest girl I've ever fucking met she doesn't deserve to go through something like that. So I was standing by the sink and asking her questions like ""are you okay?"", ""what's wrong?"" And she said she just has to stop eating and I was like no you don't you need food to nourish your body or some bs like that but not trying to let on how much I knew and she just kept repeating I have to stop eating I just have to.  Attempted to scare her off and said she could get throat cancer from it and she was like I know I've been doing this since I'm six.

When I tell y'all I almosted reached out to hug her right then and there I honestly didn't know what to say because shes beautiful she's not fat she's an amazing sweet girl and the fact that someone in my realm of being purges too shook the fuck out of me. 


I don't even know what to say you guys. I feel so fucking bad. I want to help her stop but I'm so fuckung scared and angry and baffled ",0.5993012820512861,2.7330231138888905,1.9405555555555551,97.59076923076924,84.52777777777777,4.6923076923076925,20.34188034188034,5.873414542411696,-0.16808760683760715,1331,40,304,9,39,425,178,360,0.145,0.688,0.16699999999999998,0.8358,0,0,1,0,0,0,20.0,1,8,2,1,18,27,6,3,11,2,30,21,7,3,2,67,64,39,0,7,13,0,3,7,0,0,5,6,1,6,12,28,4,5,8,1,0,6,10,13,0,1,23,11,62,14,37,37,4,35,0,0,1,7,50,15,6,10,19,210,74,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18557688523457852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2598817222380323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07736959543135713,0.056486403227512035,0.0,0.07884924635609387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10292751866204168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10598159584704858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07982082611985912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14796746498977462,0.0,0.10178577147250806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1896344239150705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061202927593259585,0.08381883793508324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04685311281695401,0.0,0.0889708516189726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11204826606563884,0.0,0.0,0.5139917784507292,0.04841250597882739,0.0,0.10532484737143362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09175077358069704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10980590383461482,0.062109944036715325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09649408173428388,0.1527752098237495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09475402533809886,0.0,0.31689265902395675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07781344239696235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061853160890349465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.068117844534206,0.06870831690309177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06424074140011121,0.08090961202754376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.103803580389586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0952728257963471,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1582671069912081,0.17628714844036994,0.1473784088031467,0.1855433229622244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09666754433857264,0.0,0.0,0.07665165341060963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15702583622022084,0.07133637631368095,0.0,0.0,0.06558723047411248,0.0,0.0,0.2324108338830171,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16198280149230018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06291198138860148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05465494000105317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1013122619612333,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,LMichaelM,2019/02/27,"So. Egzackly Who's in Charge, HUH? 😡 Food's my habit, my drug, my drug-habit. I'm trying to fast, *two years now* I've been battling to complete a ten-day fast – and still failing. Mind you, I'm not beating myself up, 'cos I've done what few even try… finished many, many fasts over 30hrs, in some weeks four or five such, and several times exceeded 90hrs, even hit 120hrs about thrice…

But that's been my limit. And I *hate* how food ties me up, like a puppet on strings. *Welp, I'm battling on like a mofo, and I'm gonna WIN.* Before this is over I may acquire some kinda restrictive ED… and that would be just too goddam sad, 'cos it's a price I'm willing to pay – if that's what it'll take.

**tl;dr:**  ***Food has me whipt, but I'm not its b¡tch.***",-2.201176470588233,-1.0857183694267505,-0.11013675533907907,104.07675065567629,118.04458598726114,2.8661671037841887,12.897901835893595,5.0885558068054335,-1.368598201573623,564,13,136,4,34,182,103,157,0.092,0.871,0.037000000000000005,-0.6917,0,0,2,0,0,0,44.0,0,1,0,5,10,9,4,0,4,1,10,4,0,3,0,23,20,11,0,2,7,0,0,2,0,5,1,0,0,0,10,5,3,2,0,0,2,0,2,6,0,3,3,0,10,3,12,10,3,17,0,2,0,0,2,8,2,6,11,71,20,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1409847512613549,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17371636212107075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10685237512973624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16955210047329924,0.0,0.0,0.3842813245487436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21886523770269486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6010366991659645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16357849804118813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16188951801327076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3359548330637575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16729345509321236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1871755879492568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13231533485269625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1245736339147348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09661158402964318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11248845686329732,0.0,0.16184904446786508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1329015887864859,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11769705175489388,0.0,0.0,0.10669496580637687
EDAnonymous,PM_Me_Your_Furbabies,2019/02/27,"I want to scream but then I'd be OvErReAcTiNg My boyfriend ate my 10 cal jelly while I was out catching pokemon FOR HIM. MY LOW CALORIE SNACK. A SNACK I FEEL SAFE EATING. Out of all the flavours I had in the fridge he also took my favourite one, black forest gateau. 
This was after I had just cooked him a huge bowl of pho. I'm furious but he doesn't get why I'm so mad and I have to downplay it otherwise I'll be the weird one. 'I'll buy you a new one' that's not the point. I know they only cost like 70p but they're MY snack. I buy them because I feel safe eating it.

This is why I hide food. ",-0.9270454545454572,1.0587045530303063,1.1259848484848511,101.68397727272728,90.5909090909091,4.20909090909091,16.583333333333336,5.602791699666715,-0.87340303030303,459,11,117,3,16,151,85,132,0.15,0.732,0.118,-0.6456,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,1,2,0,3,8,2,0,7,0,9,8,0,0,1,15,18,8,0,1,5,0,2,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,5,3,8,2,3,1,3,2,2,5,0,3,6,5,20,3,9,10,1,12,0,1,1,0,7,6,0,0,5,64,25,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17938236222151313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13673861753863398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4590547013489519,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2268379471133172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2712391677286712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11719385127891215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12327610299027095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10958759637518453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21664209266777548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4559991972338809,0.17059951404800505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2120475058315314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24921907565531415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1323051302682521,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40481368986092253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,cumhacumha,2019/02/27,"Toilet bowl As a bulimic this made me cry with laughter. Thought if there were any other deranged individuals such as myself on here that you might enjoy.

[https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9qDSfnLT22g&feature=youtu.be](https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9qDSfnLT22g&feature=youtu.be)",24.818850574712638,32.84058100000001,9.745517241379314,42.40954022988509,32.10344827586207,8.004597701149425,30.356321839080447,8.841846274778883,3.171266666666667,255,6,20,3,3,53,28,29,0.08900000000000001,0.7170000000000001,0.194,0.5661,0,0,0,0,0,0,30.0,0,1,0,0,3,1,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,1,0,5,4,3,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,3,1,4,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,2,0,17,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7216952129075594,0.0,0.2264779335502838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3658276921388487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3151295448236397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3533017386072627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26439575719326625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ScottSteinerPhD,2019/02/27,"My hips are furniture seeking missiles So, I've got the spatial awareness of a drunk panda. No, that's too generous. I have the spatial awareness of a corpse. I bump into things constantly. Strangely enough, out in a car and I'm fine, but I'm getting off-track here.

I had a particularly manic day about a week ago and decided that I absolutely hated how my room looked and dammit, it needed to change now. Being the rational and logical person I am, I decided to wait for this manic episode to blow over and keep my room the same. Oh wait, just kidding. I moved *everything* in my room. Including every piece of solid wood furniture that could be used as an anchor in emergency situations if some random naval vessel sailed into my neighborhood.

Now, I know I'm not the only one with this problem, but fuck, I hit the solid oak dresser that I thought looked *lovely* next to my doorway. Right. On. My. Hipbone. Every time, zero exceptions. The right side of my body looks like that lonely last piece of fruit everyone forgets about and it's all gross and shit. Then you look at it when you wanna throw it away and go, ""Nah, I ain't touching that.""

So now on top of knowing I'm a clumsy idiot, I look at this everyday in the mirror and tell myself, ""Good job man, just keep adding imperfections to your body. That's what we need *more* of, right?"" Fuck I need a drink.

Thanks for coming to my TED Talk.",1.2397263071895424,3.867487768382354,2.8441666666666663,88.12861111111113,88.59558823529413,5.816339869281046,21.158496732026144,7.279313950308263,0.9675903594771244,1091,37,211,19,36,357,166,272,0.163,0.759,0.078,-0.9832,1,2,1,0,0,0,50.0,1,3,0,1,13,13,5,0,16,0,8,10,4,2,1,45,38,18,0,7,7,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,4,3,16,15,3,4,6,2,0,5,3,8,0,2,3,7,27,5,34,31,7,39,0,1,5,3,10,21,3,3,14,136,43,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10434446442162662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11059417033755757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2615026876061004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1245235432560774,0.10139834724773272,0.0,0.12720470624078836,0.0,0.09398334448374647,0.0,0.0,0.07591441372070422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11531281258622153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12162782107597662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19835464327633465,0.11247872974264783,0.10579183256195178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21764544153579815,0.061499590157120004,0.0,0.06689836454176956,0.09873112607167954,0.09414493020445236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11621609497245824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1168108610124384,0.20925542513574108,0.0,0.0,0.12938272319467292,0.0959508793215459,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05750807051590137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.49424159309381,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10623955233861954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12510908183554698,0.0,0.261845565179397,0.0,0.0,0.1251879019518528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07976460492828373,0.08952517628238436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10278145860992366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11263435577203565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3015758640825924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12082953603562445,0.0,0.1323130661987323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09461233681419436,0.10288535681911704,0.10837326857007218,0.0,0.0,0.07820253145620719,0.0,0.0,0.09345007085800447,0.06863873406027693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10166525572778763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09442135640902996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,rachaelbelle,2019/02/27,"11 pounds lost in 3 days ....because psychosis makes me so sick that I throw up consistently and my heart rate is over 160 bpm resting ripppp

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EDAnonymous,petitcherub,2019/02/27,I think purging made me a bad drinker anyone else have problems keeping alcohol down after starting to purge regularly? I've been purging for half a year now & lately Ive had multiple times where drinking makes me soooo sick & im left throwing up bile multiple times before i can rest & feel ok. I never had a problem keeping large amounts of booze down before & now im an even messier drunk - sigh,6.025443037974683,6.739129265822786,5.9568101265822815,80.4967341772152,66.46835443037975,8.345316455696205,36.05316455696203,8.238735603445708,2.8897979746835447,328,16,60,4,5,103,58,79,0.15,0.78,0.07,-0.8096,0,0,3,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,0,4,5,0,0,4,1,6,5,0,2,1,9,13,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,4,2,2,2,0,1,1,3,1,1,4,1,6,1,7,9,2,15,0,0,0,0,0,5,0,0,9,29,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15761868288917272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6392081420405293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1031262961668582,0.15111779699801034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12314543254738927,0.0,0.0,0.2510010423195648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14448105020135427,0.0,0.0,0.12320641143930296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09741373144861867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07457382724916005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31862240346549464,0.0,0.0,0.26218633390228546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1663716899414107,0.0,0.1602449894839443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13955570665160952,0.0984486762506487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11375101872919832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2822501618981614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10439201370111416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09450367449443972,0.0,0.0,0.1720016390044281,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09497675240780347
EDAnonymous,softcoffee,2019/02/27,"Awkward moments where people question your food intake. Last night I was with my friends, laughing and talking before we were about to leave campus and go home. During this I was eating Sabra hummus with pretzels, and a mixed fruit cup. So two friends leave and it's just me and this one girl, and while I'm getting ready she asks me what I'm going to eat now for dinner. Of course I told her ""I already ate"", and she looked at me for a little bit and was like ""*That* was dinner?"" I got so awkward I just started laughing and hiding my face while thinking of what to say. She kept asking me and was like ""Are you serious?"". I just told her I ate earlier (and what when she asked that) and rambled about how I would be too tired to cook when I got home because I still have homework to do. I'm glad she didn't push me about it, but yeah I got called out. ",2.58342857142857,4.0076516571428575,3.2427142857142885,94.07778571428574,75.28571428571428,5.457142857142856,23.357142857142854,5.288315135182226,0.13488571428571428,660,19,145,2,14,207,103,175,0.051,0.8390000000000001,0.111,0.8779,0,0,0,0,0,0,25.0,1,2,0,0,16,10,0,2,2,1,12,11,1,1,0,25,32,20,0,1,4,0,0,2,2,1,1,1,3,1,9,16,9,1,2,1,0,3,1,3,0,2,15,3,29,7,16,15,1,17,0,0,1,0,22,4,0,1,12,97,38,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15310913910319665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3891250152555051,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08457798543254975,0.0,0.11806222433410493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1514741806408871,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1416746956845272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2839426238345967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16777164190950508,0.0,0.21438889987971385,0.0,0.07248881131514806,0.0,0.1577045607026341,0.0,0.33290241761448114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2783461522770759,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11309612257402725,0.0,0.29382295951147835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13556811231018526,0.13905946775057687,0.0,0.0,0.11651129867481752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13020327815242952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09401755981627928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09618867868840436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15542674357713054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.110336011859521,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09820479808668284,0.0,0.11080235703833316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1115183989663606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08890253136363245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15946757292476732,0.0,0.2651545935981618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1355342193057679,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09856084153377466,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,bullymeahhh,2019/02/27,"Should I donate blood? So I'm eating sub 500 calories a day, and I read online that donating blood burns about 650 calories. I was wondering if you guys think I should donate blood and probably die because I'm so malnourished. I'm just so torn? Yeah it's risky, but a free burning of 0.18 pounds (650/3600) is too good to pass up. Ughhhh, please guide me in my decision.",2.559765166340508,4.8009176575342485,3.510019569471627,88.47191780821919,77.90410958904108,7.4590998043052865,24.127201565557733,8.418075326091056,1.5929037181996084,291,10,59,6,7,93,56,73,0.075,0.747,0.17800000000000002,0.8655,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,1,0,0,6,2,0,0,2,1,4,4,3,0,0,10,9,7,1,3,3,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,2,2,1,0,3,1,4,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,7,3,5,6,0,4,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,2,1,29,9,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19725739907600146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.208688715034736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3358352270731993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3311132511491145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2714118547978979,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3204048749013713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3552045370563664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.348884641471897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3236774671838247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2073433413952398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3509194422197189,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,nazea,2019/02/27,"the only time ive been happy to get my period i use to not get them, for a year i didnt have one due to high restriction. recently i upped my intake (partly for my boyfriend and to focus in college) 

i go to school +12 hours away and i visited him in late january, things happened and i am not on birth control yet. visited again two weekends ago, and after that i was very bloated looking and gross. 

cue the stress of not getting my period for more than 2 months paired with the bloatedness and occasional sick feelings i had (found out it was my vitamins and medicine on an empty stomach oopsies) 

got my period walking to my class thats a 30 min walk away. ruined my clothes BUT the only time im thankful. ",2.961807511737089,4.762785063380285,4.4813380281690165,84.01008215962445,75.1267605633803,7.8319248826291075,28.030516431924877,8.59863814320734,2.1701530516431933,557,23,110,11,12,186,96,142,0.081,0.865,0.054000000000000006,0.0772,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,1,1,2,5,0,1,7,0,8,3,1,2,0,18,19,8,0,0,4,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,4,9,0,2,2,1,0,5,4,3,0,2,7,2,19,2,21,12,2,32,0,1,1,0,4,9,0,0,18,75,23,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15937311205580834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33783751154648856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20164993096670814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09090729736501972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19713060965555604,0.0,0.0,0.2817987842812347,0.0,0.10217888038012654,0.0,0.14379459987769752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15898782789596988,0.1913899482493696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18995815510121167,0.0,0.0,0.17705707289198808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1942042043934473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2028111101243638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15097843711286568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14350677522629351,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12183045252842245,0.273477007727326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1946952022519383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1775210741661757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1819572212017486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20594899903658145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16552660624028798,0.0,0.0,0.11944458077293847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2096741540702196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17562884320093836,0.0,0.0,0.1552809560439788,0.0,0.1483456954491374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11577895613500636
EDAnonymous,MiauMiau1919,2019/02/28,"I hate when people call me a ""survivor"" I'm not inspirational. My life was never in danger. I don't feel brave. 

*I just feel disgusting.*

(""Survivor of"" childhood sex abuse, which I think is linked to my struggle with body image, dysmorphia, and disordered eating.)",2.051117021276596,4.809221851063832,3.0203989361702126,83.87187500000002,96.44680851063828,5.754255319148936,22.89627659574468,7.1686216300943375,1.5962361702127668,205,8,34,4,8,65,40,47,0.293,0.655,0.052000000000000005,-0.917,0,0,0,0,1,0,16.0,0,0,0,0,2,6,3,1,1,0,3,4,1,0,1,10,8,2,0,0,2,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,5,0,0,0,3,4,0,0,1,2,7,2,4,7,0,4,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,3,21,8,0,0.0,0.3553708431266105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3331572762639227,0.0,0.0,0.3062645100571864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3437485099421096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3069057186002203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3033096620513256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29612114516677196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21185112085769928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23132635350384104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20793535789305825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3135544618761973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19218456817126708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Dietcokewoke,2019/02/28,"I just ""binged"" on 3 packs of gum My boyfriend got me airhead flavored gum and I just went through all 3 packs in like 20 minutes??? I'd chew a piece until it wasn't as sweet and then spit it out and chew another one... I feel so disgusting staring at all these wrappers and chewed up gum pieces. I know it's not a real binge and I didn't really consume that many calories but I feel so gross losing control over some fucking gum lol. I guess gum isn't a safe food anymore?? ",1.0754545454545443,3.126390131313129,2.335646464646466,95.9501363636364,82.03030303030303,5.172121212121212,24.041414141414148,6.2581,0.4592698989898994,369,14,83,3,10,118,71,99,0.18,0.76,0.059,-0.9174,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,2,4,7,2,0,3,1,3,6,1,1,2,20,10,11,0,0,4,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,6,4,2,3,0,0,1,4,4,0,1,4,5,9,3,10,6,5,9,0,1,1,1,0,6,1,2,3,48,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2765347182812719,0.0,0.0,0.2615406097222052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29578579946386896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26669076948656484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3188927746745949,0.0,0.0,0.2438060402381473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21092196996801305,0.0,0.2905186821135912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1449342986222531,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12884087858933566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2950366144005315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2673719484094077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17870433987955978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3001725112400397,0.16894658167221369,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2444722350049427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,cashewrissa,2019/02/28,"Ok I'm literally in shock rn So from dec-jan I was hardcore restricting after a breakup etc and got down to my lowest weight ever, like 101.8. For 18.5 bmi  i need to be 101.0 and that was honestly the goal. Well Feb rolled around and I completely lost myself and started overeating, eating out etc and literally thought I gained like 10 lbs. I look like a bloated whale. Feel like a bloated whale. So I decided this week to get back on track and for the first time in forever, like a month, I hopped on the scale.... It said 100.6. IS THIS A JOKE i think its broken omg",1.2575101214574929,3.6741026052631582,2.4247368421052653,93.29738866396762,84.35087719298245,5.9638326585695,21.049932523616725,7.321109707123232,0.6184960863697704,443,14,96,7,13,141,79,114,0.11,0.684,0.206,0.8702,1,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,0,0,4,6,11,0,0,8,1,4,2,0,0,1,15,15,8,0,1,0,0,2,5,0,0,0,1,0,0,5,8,2,1,4,1,0,0,0,2,1,1,6,4,10,9,15,8,2,16,0,1,1,0,1,8,0,0,13,56,15,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17293700699363554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1493777681885092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2036831216169744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1987815593120196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.433313579155885,0.0,0.17572378432640873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09822620421013052,0.1387829310793878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16524168149773927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10149542714864636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15537144037169076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4745402503166226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1631336452081255,0.0,0.2120631594627823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15506044308318928,0.0,0.0,0.14404501134053393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18479046963192908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1375017433589997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12447714663327936,0.0,0.15422468401126985,0.11327746436345335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15582763846401962,0.2365623942440888,0.17466753541451602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,pinkglitterbunny,2019/02/28,Just pouring tajin into my hand and eating it I’m fairly high right now and usually I’d be ordering dominos but instead I’m just eating tajin. Yay I guess ,0.16843749999999955,2.5443514687500013,2.7622500000000016,86.65775000000002,96.8125,5.0600000000000005,22.025,6.742157984588678,1.0807050000000005,125,5,23,2,5,43,24,32,0.0,0.795,0.205,0.7717,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,0,0,1,1,3,1,0,0,7,4,3,0,0,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,1,1,3,0,6,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,1,2,12,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7035878135427011,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3787351892089401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3632442749726564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2936038865326057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3786478569880039,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,coffeecreamer06,2019/02/28,Stfu about my food. Any comment about my food  completely ruins my appetite. Just let me eat. Fuck . 🙄 ,-0.1942105263157892,0.5514053684210545,0.79726315789474,96.1148421052632,126.89473684210527,3.6252631578947376,19.589473684210525,5.6839178017228535,0.2450968421052635,78,3,15,1,5,24,15,19,0.295,0.705,0.0,-0.7713,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,3,2,1,0,0,0,1,4,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,4,0,2,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,8,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2112986978663811,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3257816074405949,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3179417882449659,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7514421769459294,0.0,0.0,0.2872535161953227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3177299103974528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,weightwasted,2019/02/28,"Do any of you have experience with Prozac? I was just prescribed a starter dose of 10mg (moving to 20mg in a week) of prozac for depression and I was told it wouldn’t make me gain but I would like to hear anyone else’s experience with it. I’m pretty tired all the time and for the past two months have been constantly binging. The nurse said I looked like a perfect candidate for Prozac lol. Anywho, let me know your thoughts please ❤️",1.8252309612983808,4.065970449438203,2.5857677902621745,94.13710362047442,80.46067415730337,6.202746566791513,21.124843945068665,7.3871296695380915,0.4937031210986276,346,10,77,5,9,108,64,89,0.063,0.684,0.252,0.9612,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,2,0,2,1,4,0,0,6,1,9,5,0,1,2,13,17,3,0,2,2,0,0,2,0,2,5,2,0,0,2,4,0,0,2,0,0,1,1,1,0,1,6,3,8,3,11,8,1,8,0,1,1,0,5,1,0,0,8,42,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13798305834104552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14187661397289467,0.20790120605544635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21926933473715451,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17476266631382725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16950195172797464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3969620638999315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2286898425657725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11151184763429994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20748516297431627,0.0,0.1982592741524799,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17038996200654966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1354413506130024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1619576573057989,0.2156569985054556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1936967649263648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22272988939759644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2064283785397461,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1930100995388568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1610847229927741,0.11831613781732447,0.23321063279677104,0.0,0.19388540700738888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19820970790611026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16275897815916732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1441386220502509,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,stillweighting,2019/02/28,"Fleabag.. So my GF just put on the first episode of Fleabag and I fucking detest it because of the flippant “she’s probably anorexic” comments. 

It put me right off my god damn rice crackers. ",2.6950000000000003,5.411099611111113,2.6700000000000017,91.95000000000003,80.66666666666667,4.711111111111111,36.77777777777778,5.985473137389443,2.2267444444444457,150,10,28,1,4,45,30,36,0.073,0.87,0.057,-0.1531,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,1,2,2,2,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,1,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,2,0,1,0,0,5,0,4,1,0,6,0,0,0,1,3,3,2,0,1,17,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21710443645753372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3029391970519929,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3292529677596247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3839876416816248,0.0,0.0,0.7160539579193309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30414833579238193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,TheCuntInTheRye,2019/02/28,"Uh-Oh! My thighs are awfully disproportionate I’ll jump right in.

My thighs are almost the size as 10 pounds under my hw, but my abdomen is as thin as 10 pounds over my lowest weight. Not sure how this happened, but I want to cry. I don’t understand how my body could be this fucked up.",1.2888700564971742,3.4141636779661013,2.645,93.613488700565,81.71186440677967,5.967231638418079,18.30790960451977,7.1686216300943375,0.02557401129943493,223,5,51,3,6,72,43,59,0.259,0.7190000000000001,0.021,-0.9596,1,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,0,2,2,1,0,1,1,6,6,4,2,1,10,10,7,0,2,3,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,0,2,8,1,8,8,0,7,0,0,0,1,0,6,1,1,0,30,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3127806453888662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34695846602548003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24939183097913406,0.0,0.3431097493885795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2887692253719584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2762164664296955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26675136726195536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2943929921634827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3251748917299221,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1842363868281356,0.0,0.0,0.3803669559462013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Just-Another-Mom,2019/02/28,Shuffling/dancing Does anyone shuffle here? How has it changed your body? Do you feel more confident? What is your experience and is it even worth the try?,2.228571428571428,4.955093285714291,2.186857142857143,89.35814285714287,98.28571428571428,5.097142857142859,27.028571428571425,6.742157984588678,1.6534628571428571,124,6,22,2,5,37,25,28,0.0,0.797,0.203,0.7471,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,3,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,0,4,1,1,1,0,3,5,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,5,1,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,16,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2924276930631317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4645458276032882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4424191046565662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3659853192970078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27622899123711303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4090973745751144,0.0,0.0,0.2114635459231073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.283942514501795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,sternums,2019/02/28,"I accidentally sent my husband my weight and I want to rip every hair follicle out of my body It’s red fucking alert, my dudes. I’ve been waiting a month for background check results to come in the mail to start my dream job, and when it finally came I got super excited and sent him a close pic of it, in which you can read EVERYTHING. My height. My weight. I’m overweight and it’s been a long joke that I’ll never tell him how much I weigh. Oh my god!!! I’m so mortified. He’s at work and I’m 83% sure he’ll read that part. Fuck!!! It’s not like he’ll leave me over it but it’s fucking embarrassing and disgusting. He knows I’m trying to lose weight and even tells me for every 10 lbs I lose he’ll get me a random thing off my Amazon wishlist.  I haven’t lost any in fucking ages and I’m just maintaining at this monstrosity of a weight because I’m not trying hard enough. Thanks for listening to my rant. I feel like crying forever. ",0.10772727272727067,2.3504900000000006,2.2285101010101016,93.77943181818182,88.3939393939394,5.724242424242425,19.36111111111111,7.1686216300943375,0.3602080808080812,732,22,167,12,24,245,114,198,0.182,0.711,0.107,-0.97,1,0,0,0,0,0,22.0,0,1,0,5,5,16,5,1,6,0,4,12,2,2,2,25,31,12,0,1,4,1,7,2,0,3,1,1,0,0,12,12,6,1,2,4,1,4,4,9,0,0,7,9,23,7,19,21,3,21,0,3,1,4,15,10,4,1,9,84,35,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07734441728576337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06933244320836955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12633511667350533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13008374680190296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09797354013690897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1249337153157694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11751974793867685,0.0,0.07512159137579635,0.0,0.19165506274867575,0.0,0.10221863210790444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057508366578642826,0.08125306011314666,0.0,0.12459228841130217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4205885989408884,0.059422394232335723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09096511282908164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10188516486040544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1128654844034938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0625063611390338,0.0,0.0,0.12043005960393033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11113138246958627,0.0,0.0,0.10065282923300592,0.0,0.2544831050243336,0.12415633903679955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09078303365564797,0.0,0.08360908674999734,0.0,0.08772025689276236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12316506360594785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2275336663311167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08050296482368076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10719488542500244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19882064963427407,0.10471287813081584,0.0,0.0,0.07556118085153424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15443863044998246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06708447178726072,0.0,0.0,0.5539994951981421,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08280120231968595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,fruitcakee,2019/02/28,"Chewing less should technically increase your metabolism If digesting your food burns calories, then wouldn't chewing less mean your body has to work harder to break it down? Working harder = burning more calories? I'm not trying to encourage anyone to swallow their food whole and risk choking, but I really want to understand how the science here plays out. Does anyone know?",6.377282051282054,9.419969523076926,5.699615384615388,73.49455128205129,69.15384615384616,8.025641025641027,33.91025641025641,8.841846274778883,3.5020256410256403,309,15,44,6,6,94,52,65,0.081,0.823,0.096,0.2609,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,3,1,2,2,3,0,1,1,0,3,7,1,1,0,12,8,5,0,4,3,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,1,2,6,0,3,1,0,1,2,1,0,0,0,0,5,2,7,6,5,5,0,0,0,0,5,2,0,1,1,28,6,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3395520838343632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26970343018299864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2124817190163572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5872054839519755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1334401744451007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2644876023411394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1555481452254547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16484976419014954,0.0,0.0,0.25277026588682405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14321364185539406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2710849323654373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3535322383341594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,throwawaygyno826378,2019/02/28,"Decided to try writing a poem about an experience I had with my ED Why can’t I cry

The movies gloomy storm had begun 
My friends tearing up around me
I couldn’t form the tears 

Why can’t I cry

The fridge remains empty 
While the cabinet crickets alone
They were all plenty full yesterday

Why can’t I cry

The sink reeks of dissolving porcelain 
The once white counter shamed with color 
I hope no one heard what happened 

Why can’t I cry

Food is temporary 
My eyes match my throats quench
Nothing left in them to spare 

Why can’t I cry 

Depressed movies ask eyes for it all
My eyes search for donations left to give
The gloomy storm rains no more

I can’t cry

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EDAnonymous,notsoskinny_legend,2019/02/28,"boyfriend ""forgets to eat""... must be nice!!! this is my first time posting but i am in the midst of my first relapse in five years and food has been constantly on my mind. i've been purging after meals and restricting, but i recently saw an RD and am trying to follow her recommendations (which involve increasing my caloric intake) and it's making me soooo hyperaware of what i'm eating. 

i met up with my bf and he was complaining about having a headache from not eating much that day. he said he just ""forgets to eat"" sometimes. i literally cannot relate to that at all given that all i think about these days is food! he knows i have a history of ED and is aware that i have been purging recently..... like..... can you not make comments like that?",4.0983573667711575,5.595699813793106,4.768840125391852,84.35062695924766,71.55172413793103,8.031347962382446,28.35423197492163,8.575989854853784,2.015344827586206,583,22,116,10,11,187,94,145,0.068,0.919,0.014,-0.8192,0,0,0,0,0,0,29.0,0,1,0,2,3,4,0,0,4,0,17,7,0,2,3,23,27,8,0,1,5,0,0,2,1,1,0,1,0,0,10,7,7,1,2,0,0,2,3,1,0,3,8,2,15,3,17,17,4,18,0,0,1,0,12,5,0,0,12,80,25,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16825214990950327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20082218174302696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6372638356484587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2648700113951743,0.3765366347342459,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08556649349687992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1521304798759898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20785668415149405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15720865634646256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1144545330636136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1491138058032736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3074621904110049,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14810262566166849,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15398740377820666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09976376102069186,0.0,0.0,0.09078763603956314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10570741783121608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10026317051080397
EDAnonymous,Edthrowaway1325,2019/02/28,"MAJOR anxiety about upcoming birthday. Help! Hi reddit. I was hoping I could get some advice or words of comfort or just hear if anyone else feels the same way I do now. It would really help me out.

My birthday is next week and I'm really freaking out. The last few years I've been in school and my bday has fallen during spring break, which was good and bad for me. Bad because I wasn't around my friends, so my bday has always felt a little lonely. But good for me and my ED because I haven't had to avoid eating cake/dinner/drinks around my friends. Instead I've managed to get by with a low key dinner (carefully pre-planned with minimal caloric intake of course) with my family and a small half-eaten slice of cake, which is about all my disordered mind can handle.

BUT. This year is different. Now I'm out in the adult world working. I was really hoping I could sneak my bday by my coworkers, but I've already caught wind that they're planning a bunch of bday celebrations for me.

First one of my female coworkers came into my office yesterday and told me she and the other girls had been chatting about taking me out for happy hour/dinner after work on my bday. I freaked out and told her I already had dinner plans (not a lie. Going with my fam). I hoped that would be the end of it, but she insisted we had to do something so she said we could do it on the weekend instead. I felt like I couldn't just say no so I pretended that I just wanted to get drinks next weekend so I could avoid any big food celebrations.

THEN today my immediate office co-workers were asking me questions about my favorite flavor of cake and where they should take me for lunch on my bday. I honestly almost went into a full-on panic attack. I tried telling them that I hate attention (true) and birthdays (also true) and that I'd rather not make a big deal of it. Didn't work. I told them that my parents were already giving me a cake. That didn't work either. Literally nothing I said mattered. 

Once I realized that I'm getting a cake whether I want it or not, I furiously researched what I *thought* might be the lowest calorie cake (vanilla) and told them to just get me that so they wouldn't surprise me with some obscenely caloric double chocolate cake or something. 

I also lied and told them I already had lunch plans with a friend, but their response was that I had to pick some other day for them to take me out to lunch then. Idk how pushy they're going to be about this. I'm hoping that maybe if I avoid giving them a make-up date they'll just forget about it. 

ANYWAYS. Long story short, I'm sitting at work now unable to think about anything other than the fact I'm going to be forced to eat cake and got out on all these dinner/lunch/drink ""treats"" for my bday, when really all I want to do is restrict like any other day. But I also feel so guilty because I know my family/coworkers are just trying to make my day special, and they don't realize that their good intentions are causing me this much anxiety. 

Any suggestions as to how I should react to the onslaught of birthday food gifts next week?? Anyone else out there dread their bday for this reason?? I just hate that it seems like you can't have a bday without a massive amount of sugary sweets and other fatty foods ugh.",5.2187939754973565,5.6926156712749645,5.5382301150200455,83.63675283803529,68.17050691244239,8.255981416957027,28.01322543179349,8.096554002634818,1.6933274212281293,2586,79,514,31,41,824,278,651,0.112,0.768,0.12,0.6313,3,5,5,0,0,0,73.0,2,1,13,9,37,39,4,5,22,0,50,11,0,9,6,121,102,44,0,20,26,1,4,3,3,7,0,4,0,2,33,37,11,4,13,5,0,7,13,16,0,2,31,10,87,23,72,55,14,64,0,2,0,0,46,27,0,17,30,340,120,8,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0596237226988664,0.0,0.0,0.06109829387954865,0.0,0.2693288575921057,0.14638242188800898,0.050769853899411146,0.0,0.0,0.12447806868034035,0.0,0.09335350979080494,0.0,0.0,0.0853270302918953,0.12503535297370266,0.0502106269204952,0.10863361196144612,0.05704133471562304,0.06941403550747018,0.0,0.0,0.10189092834555308,0.1115836013810889,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06978557357185329,0.062209454553292375,0.0626798124753685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19486391635745692,0.0,0.0,0.11805001232017495,0.062904388110604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06374829896941797,0.06992914561963103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1793161308807536,0.0,0.1248683503594337,0.1019413824775338,0.0,0.05404169720405593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05752006252276636,0.0,0.061702625355380326,0.0,0.11716905868009085,0.0,0.0,0.05189982473890885,0.22134085977740034,0.0,0.14142146695954347,0.0,0.15939062205946825,0.11706341630324595,0.10402968779302577,0.15353093145166155,0.04879973655335201,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06495222394632849,0.0,0.12048051457681333,0.0,0.0,0.0687689978553705,0.0,0.08179491985331515,0.0,0.0,0.2424089697322092,0.060088059769877175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03353256937332515,0.04973584475324693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08942739725144082,0.06115364472362706,0.0,0.05399687195627706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1221851287140823,0.0,0.06129835536690303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06472789260868428,0.0616083464401543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.044853474919912505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19467229796602564,0.0,0.0,0.05854609862601118,0.0,0.0,0.06497960582499755,0.041345738940261736,0.0,0.0,0.07158864150041418,0.06775058553114982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06835141836091699,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15635258249187994,0.06273418267455252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1160795859784202,0.04852204153104892,0.0,0.061751028662951415,0.0,0.05554629625798782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0939455553164598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13762837747451115,0.0,0.053330309949426086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03909632264517377,0.0,0.04843955833690793,0.0,0.0,0.057835639443467576,0.2915150272763869,0.0,0.08285115298851346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10796571723678966,0.04843133068529109,0.09788604246164508,0.0,0.0,0.056562057829535786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05881684580924401,0.0,0.2665204318776812,0.0,0.0,0.08668744076640776,0.0,0.0,0.07858407148273887
EDAnonymous,SubBiscuit,2019/02/28,"What does your ideal fridge look like? Today I move into my own space! I've been couch surfing for the last month after leaving an emotionally abusive relationship, and I can't wait to be in more control of my own living area.

For the first time in three years I get to have whatever fridge I want! So much cold brew.

So - what would your perfect fridge/pantry look like? What are your favorite safe foods? Help me decide what to get on this first shopping trip!",3.4487921348314607,5.653660887640456,3.333019662921348,90.981327247191,74.95505617977528,5.798314606741574,22.360955056179773,6.6274283507984215,0.4125157303370788,365,10,73,3,8,110,66,89,0.042,0.726,0.233,0.9532,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,3,0,5,2,5,0,0,3,0,6,1,0,1,1,10,12,3,0,3,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,1,0,5,2,1,3,1,1,1,2,1,0,0,3,1,3,10,5,11,9,4,16,0,0,2,0,5,6,0,0,10,45,15,0,0.0,0.24761274264181066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2343941554663285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18288395369121613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2350797031439251,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3555246249899504,0.25270517631221284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2183718015221904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14007806554851335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1703504553571279,0.0,0.22128466391231533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20419877479734144,0.0,0.18453735358635284,0.0,0.3509890937333261,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16680962508445735,0.2221177045035363,0.15362782948323786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22437139966077985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12186068210090263,0.0,0.19809309691924296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12326461385139692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14845676273888514,0.0,0.0,0.13457932028014574
EDAnonymous,ffawnn,2019/02/28,"Getting over a “failure” I got to a point where i felt good about myself on Sunday. Not great, but enough that i didn’t hate how i looked anymore. Then i binged Tuesday for the first time in a month, and then yesterday too. I had convinced myself that it was ok to eat before a (really important) exam because i thought i could control myself. And i couldn’t. I hate how i look. I’m massive and puffy and disgusting again. My waist went up a full inch. 

How do you cope when something like that happens? I don’t know how to interact with my body when I’m unsatisfied with it except for punishments. But the deprivation is probably what led to the binging in the first place. 

I don’t know. I feel like I’ve failed myself. I was so close to being happy and now I’ve gone and ruined it all again. ",2.0745548654244317,4.0855215900621165,3.4742608695652173,89.27110144927539,78.44099378881988,6.529358178053831,23.15569358178054,7.554174236665415,0.9720978053830224,620,20,130,9,15,203,96,161,0.22,0.667,0.113,-0.967,0,0,1,0,0,0,18.0,0,1,0,4,13,14,4,0,9,1,11,3,2,6,1,27,27,17,0,2,4,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,7,9,2,1,5,0,0,3,5,7,0,2,9,4,22,7,16,15,3,28,0,3,2,0,2,11,0,0,16,93,29,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17490013854761402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10750644046020964,0.0,0.15006800441110635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19589441926740428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19780093562370885,0.14080782768997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18045866561656126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18222536521175214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0891721032961441,0.1259904723537761,0.16933171552354329,0.0,0.0,0.30002072074012337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09213998226403963,0.0,0.0,0.1479210541389277,0.14104991882264134,0.1944357526671024,0.0,0.0,0.15595314592890194,0.18773679044278285,0.0,0.34823480618979474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19384392302409748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17231960680833364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29619326896631104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14076758802753347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1842569864058056,0.0,0.16671568698559205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19014417766620176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1129797035076164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13576930826918998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14000886590352205,0.1028359981388893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1634859986708179,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,DiabolicalFruits,2019/02/28,"Nausea? Hey there, I was wondering if anyone else has had/is having this problem. I've been eating very little lately, like 500 calories or less plus working out, and yesterday and today I've been really nauseous. I ate pretty much a normal amount of food for height + weight yesterday hoping that it would make me feel better, plus i drink at least half a gallon of water every day, but I feel even worse today. I went to work for an hour and started shaking, sweating, feeling really dizzy, and my vision was going kind of black some, and I literally was gagging and about to throw up before I sat down for a few minutes. I tried eating but that just made it worse. Anyone have any suggestions? I'm sure my blood sugar is probably low, but I don't know what to do about that since I'm struggling to eat 🙃. Thanks fam",6.383699102829539,6.101173484472053,6.777971014492753,78.32995169082126,65.70807453416147,9.143133195307106,28.44789510006901,8.515128840125781,1.9894383712905448,645,17,121,8,9,210,113,161,0.131,0.757,0.112,-0.7217,0,0,1,0,0,0,20.0,0,0,0,3,5,10,0,2,4,0,12,11,2,2,1,28,28,13,0,5,6,0,4,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,7,9,9,0,5,1,0,4,1,4,0,1,9,6,12,6,18,18,6,19,0,1,1,0,2,7,0,5,9,73,19,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09236627699413053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18994526984348653,0.13916969674978474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11557784601622285,0.0,0.0,0.12012698030256813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0875964758509136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13305768309259858,0.0,0.416951447087685,0.11346511965008832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08971173306045302,0.0,0.11443918794918705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2060329847954259,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1642412304517646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07719299520125926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13490577666523898,0.13376116206454874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14144178461510376,0.07464636840603445,0.0,0.15321754351143824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06635767917160251,0.1361332453409593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1285217609059119,0.09066485014601497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09984767274726156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13308055398541327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13818378155182254,0.14644330464328567,0.12996705291919375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17402711292395115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11235659697710776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09613827873678384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1419947329062107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12801431346929742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12505024985253668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25749416341057163,0.0,0.0,0.09221687756747088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11207060122729592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1653993676072952,0.0,0.12591198006752316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1472974062871543,0.1977657614420973,0.0,0.27683641401840137,0.09648682997690458,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Fieryirishplease,2019/02/28,"Well I am back. TW: Miscarriage I used to be over at r/ProED under CrookedlyAnnoying but I didn't post much, just lurked. When ProED went down I was absolutely devastated. It started me on a cycle of binge and binge some more. Then the tumblr-pocalypse happened and there went my next support system. This shit sucked so much ass. For two and a half months from December to The first week of February I was pregnant (Thanks IUD, you're kinda useless). I had been bingeing but maintaining through some miracle but when I got pregnant it was a whole other level. I have no idea how much weight I have gained, I am afraid to get on the scale and look. 

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I am just now recovered from the miscarriage earlier this month. Then I found this sub and I feel like I am really home again. I have missed you guys so much! My digital food scale just came in yesterday. My old one has been broken since November. I feel so much better and so much more in control. Thanks for listening!",2.2088442940038675,4.913050590425534,2.8693230174081243,89.71136363636364,82.98936170212768,6.822437137330756,22.375241779497102,8.00094639256281,1.3331085106382985,773,26,153,16,22,241,118,188,0.147,0.73,0.123,-0.7832,0,0,0,0,0,0,28.0,0,1,0,4,15,11,2,1,7,0,16,4,2,3,0,23,34,18,0,0,6,0,3,1,0,0,0,1,1,1,6,7,2,1,4,0,0,3,2,5,1,4,12,5,21,6,18,21,11,29,0,2,1,1,3,9,3,3,16,110,27,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1385640283307888,0.155395040086718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09833615673628088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1131044485711103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14626709334732696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14343461009488306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12932563566792335,0.09136152071652763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10877945284751048,0.15463981327174298,0.14021999411633546,0.0,0.0,0.06681496418871266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10228182210790053,0.0,0.0,0.12662688136329855,0.11308884161163316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12827971557986084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14436731170280595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06247845981193202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10739172166438272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20415418197148572,0.0,0.5640639232956528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1360078199611342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1341944576101325,0.0,0.08665861362968907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12247908415037402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08192681025573502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13127276299782548,0.1057883159338067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.090518108219417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14512309914494126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2354798150694604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12492567949403838,0.0,0.0,0.11045212501960107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10258213966957026,0.1557302466116644,0.11498454119080218,0.2371025233159779,0.0,0.14277974054207834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.155395040086718,0.0
EDAnonymous,tw04679,2019/02/28,"""You're not as slim as I thought."" ""You're not as slim as I thought."" <- comment from a LDR boyfriend after I sent a photo of myself in a swimsuit that caused me to spiral and have an absolute freakout yesterday. I stopped responding for a few minutes and went to cry and came back super emotional. He kept saying I looked good and things of that nature but I couldn't stop focusing on the negative implications of what he said. My evil brain kept telling me he's calling me fat and I should lose more weight. I ended up (almost?) scaring him off because this is the first time he's seen anything related to my ED. He's been noticably more distant and cold and kept saying how he didn't understand and it scared him off a little. I understand him but it's just sad. I wish I had controlled myself better. ☹️

I feel so shameful and silly now for blowing things up like this. I've never connected with anyone so well in my life. I have so many issues. 💀",1.8175000000000023,4.146604083333333,3.3342083333333328,88.25662500000004,81.08333333333334,6.34,24.704166666666666,7.554174236665415,1.3267866666666666,752,29,151,12,20,247,121,192,0.183,0.701,0.116,-0.9571,0,0,0,0,0,0,23.0,0,0,0,5,8,12,1,3,8,0,8,4,2,3,1,34,23,19,0,3,5,0,2,1,0,1,2,3,0,0,9,11,2,6,5,0,0,3,6,6,1,1,13,8,24,6,22,8,3,21,0,2,2,0,17,8,0,1,11,98,33,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14620487550608613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10209145827970828,0.0,0.12015128396982605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11227033648757692,0.0,0.08900448502760144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12913128721691636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16299204999804268,0.14908942636023895,0.16699306066235112,0.0,0.14998936300533194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1637592160786124,0.0,0.0,0.16038178491483904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16423817320126075,0.12931882561947192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07382550383703691,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12419344195926525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12246370721620245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15239332798781746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10312903077327004,0.07133162347520529,0.14633732704857266,0.0,0.0,0.12260907002471948,0.1633444363329575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1480281364159411,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11260956530501624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16622988683022746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1388860501590353,0.2322211829788185,0.2923568676172922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2441367055038869,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12761651482819486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1940010672797526,0.0,0.0,0.2318264274344329,0.08513783004506495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30399678026094784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17779713758056867,0.13127778793492478,0.1353499107460906,0.0,0.0,0.16790079343058853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,sammy_leigh,2019/02/28,"Starting a PHP program on Monday and kind of freaking out... Inpatient was hell for me, it physically started to heal me but mentally fucked me up even more.

I'm exhausted, stressed af about paying for it, and I'm so scared of losing all control. Any advice of starting recovery (again) ?",5.279150943396228,7.038765924528303,6.052971698113207,75.26549528301891,69.0,9.073584905660377,35.89150943396226,9.516144504307137,3.7579471698113216,226,12,38,5,4,74,43,53,0.386,0.614,0.0,-0.9818,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,2,4,8,2,2,1,0,1,3,0,1,1,6,7,4,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,3,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,7,0,0,1,0,3,1,10,6,2,8,1,1,0,1,0,3,2,0,5,25,5,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2598574445681692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18083715322184052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2982559067686767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17564001652119113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24584206455723245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2769184870148816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2975004652606385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2679884226186262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2662358941965946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5646662356060718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3046145622826824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,basicassbrowngirl,2019/02/28,waste of a day i restricted all day but at night i literally binged 2200 cal.... WHY AM I LIKE THIS ,0.6414285714285732,2.380827666666669,3.1145238095238104,91.43464285714286,81.85714285714286,8.009523809523811,20.02380952380953,8.841846274778883,1.0001238095238096,75,2,19,2,2,26,18,21,0.168,0.635,0.197,0.3918,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,3,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,2,1,1,4,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,4,10,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.680063766064944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2575871504327113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4947873187102312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4757600690064906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,llllllllambtalk,2019/02/28,"Pill heartburn HOLY SHIT Ugh guys I feel like I'm fucking dying. I always take iron, vitamin C, hair/skin/nails vitamin, birth control, and zoloft before bed and never feel anything unusual. But tonight..TONIGHT it feels like an angry black hole opened up in my stomach. I've been in so much pain for an hour and a half, nothing has seemed to help besides waiting.  
   
I had eaten a little earlier in the evening but maybe it wasn't enough..any tips to make this never happen again?",3.0330676328502406,5.463306413043476,3.4031884057971027,88.87031400966184,77.26086956521739,5.828019323671497,26.52657004830918,6.937597516519254,1.266546859903381,378,15,71,4,9,117,74,92,0.102,0.802,0.097,-0.3518,0,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,0,1,3,6,2,0,5,0,4,10,2,2,2,15,15,6,1,0,2,0,3,2,0,0,6,0,1,1,3,4,1,2,4,0,0,0,3,4,0,1,4,4,4,2,7,11,1,11,0,0,1,1,2,6,2,1,7,35,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1644279807000568,0.0,0.0,0.1343820916188005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16261681608496206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1681522001091658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2216372679792664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.205088767809841,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2041847374215141,0.0,0.1305200417699769,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2997538099433546,0.2823463296152496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1826879612651139,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1956657184729042,0.1747465404421001,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13245432545118654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19460679070931536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1930852690450198,0.198057893455378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1319067152582194,0.0,0.19852656683204004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1452666443175917,0.0,0.30481919735809304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18961285163463987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.210271778820292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17989741209741775,0.0,0.0,0.20284460306812455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14857869685158134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,peachgoo,2019/02/28,"I think I may be getting an eating disorder.... I want to be skinny! I want to be skinny so bad!! I'm well overweight. 257lbs last time I checked and I had been talking to my therapist about how sometimes if I eat to the point of my being stuffed, ill force myself to throw it up. 

She didn't say much and kinda glossed over it. I'm worried of what I may be digging myself into but no one is concerned in the slightest (and ive told all the people closest to me) 

Ive been restricting and overexercising for a week now. Ive tried it before and failed, but I'm determined this time! I will not fail! Im tired of hating my body! I'm tired of it!! 

Honestly.....I don't think I care if I develop an eating disorder tbh.....I just want to be thin....",0.24708144796380085,2.3082466794871803,2.6631825037707406,92.31319004524887,85.41025641025641,5.721870286576168,21.99698340874811,7.048011613610866,0.6523187028657618,566,20,127,8,17,194,92,156,0.191,0.696,0.113,-0.9406,0,0,0,0,0,0,34.0,0,0,0,2,6,6,1,0,6,0,18,10,3,1,1,23,31,11,0,5,6,0,1,0,0,3,4,1,0,0,6,6,6,1,2,0,1,1,4,4,1,1,5,2,21,2,17,17,2,13,0,2,0,0,4,7,0,5,5,84,27,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12777030690847865,0.0,0.0,0.1302138436972778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1699773738696225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1560201919826776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35076207637901663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4697513618034455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07994976208207412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15108148069634034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16529432491553026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12473660318263564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11249170754422892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10369436886155604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10608895133751436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14465901970386658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12169240655502665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15134661360843968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12299649150504408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17767496491560578,0.0,0.1961057465852316,0.0,0.0,0.17846136677379384,0.35176172112168985,0.0,0.14622288797769334,0.0,0.10389460000955712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27077607498392564,0.0,0.12274821606261885,0.0,0.13758873963258214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15540531744706138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,gayperidot,2019/02/28,"DAE feel the weight right after eating ANYTHING? After I eat pretty much anything I can FEEL the fat on my body, especially my face. It just feels different! Like I'm suddenly hyper aware of any amount of pudge on my cheeks whatsoever. Even if it's like a cucumber or something. I can never tell if I'm imagining it or not so it makes me feel like I'm crazy which makes the whole thing even worse :(",2.8299107142857167,4.762222312500004,4.059642857142858,86.31250000000004,75.875,7.571428571428572,22.67857142857143,8.418075326091056,1.289357142857143,315,9,65,6,7,103,53,80,0.098,0.773,0.129,0.3802,1,0,1,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,0,4,3,0,0,4,0,2,7,4,2,1,14,11,5,0,2,6,0,5,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,6,0,4,0,5,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,5,7,3,6,11,3,7,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,4,7,37,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12754655630264125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3086901630817466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20833577441359813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19595924221592548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38383937624635134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24776191017268584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37934187744127895,0.13399219194054166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2748955702667729,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2503941869293718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13787745082066655,0.0,0.14465706869724254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19081493860504295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16017436701003962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1443920867457136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1639348389490899,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12460587002894435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2283963416029608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2094029329841701,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19113865155279075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,itsalonstora,2019/03/01,"The guy I’ve been talking to found someone else I’m crying and shaking right now. I’m so fucking lonely.

We started hanging out about five months ago. Since we started hanging out, we spent literally every Saturday together. He lives an hour away and would literally drive to/from.  Sometimes he would pick me up, drive me to his place, and then drop me off again, so like four hours of driving.  When he would visit my place, he would help me clean my apartment (he lived with his family). It was amazing that he would put his time into helping me. We would watch movies and sometimes we would watch scary movies and I would kinda cling to his arm and have my legs around him (idk how to describe it) and we were sorta half cuddling. 

He vowed to never drink. I half jokingly would Ask if he wanted to drink. But he drank for the first time tonight. He drunk texted me that he got a girls number. It’s over.

I’m seeing red, I already went off on him over text. Pretty sad to be sober and yelling st a drunk person but I’m so shaken I’m not sober.

I want to starve. I’m throwing away most of my food tomorrow. I want to be destroyed. This is like the third time I’ve had dudes choose someone else over me. I am worthless, and I’m going to starve myself and isolate myself. Life isn’t worth trying anymore.",1.4768965517241384,3.890448490421459,2.2970114942528745,94.62413793103451,83.2528735632184,4.6727969348659,20.877394636015325,5.935793293072707,0.020642911877394976,1020,31,213,7,29,318,148,261,0.13699999999999998,0.7909999999999999,0.07200000000000001,-0.9391,1,2,2,0,1,0,34.0,6,0,0,1,9,10,2,1,6,0,19,11,2,2,1,45,40,19,0,13,4,0,0,2,0,9,1,1,1,3,6,21,6,0,2,5,2,11,3,6,0,6,9,5,31,4,28,20,1,47,0,3,4,2,31,17,1,4,20,120,37,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08762912223580506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1090891116567718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09803774153321786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08800203833254573,0.09241621692492984,0.0,0.18575532731506644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10858773585845537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19368081681155586,0.0,0.0,0.16516157911870671,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08328972398318661,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09319183364381488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08408613657708049,0.11953603478085145,0.10838956500941292,0.0,0.0913899894264698,0.0,0.0,0.056181657515807344,0.0,0.07906349074189523,0.0,0.0,0.09788213639546513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13252104099960416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19470481165898035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0698243130221594,0.09659126181184838,0.0,0.17458180982736352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07890523430054816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07624318272158853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08631650035319559,0.20656517437834168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10057122241652547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0993767255741259,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08442175443787366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07877475243972694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08177399820478126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16751928859761944,0.0,0.1955405339704717,0.0,0.13994036210324698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07945602168415396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1729296915869442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06711615502371734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1749219788484013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09163971060907024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6320147340019215,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,eloana12,2019/03/01,"‘How do you eat that much ice cream yet stay slim’ Hi guys so I’ve fallen back down this hole yet again!!! Anyways a friend saw me demolish a tub of ice cream and asked this, truth be told I skipped meals leading up to that wonderful binge so yea that’s my diet secret :) hope this helps! Jk pls don’t do this it’s so bad for you ",-0.2089788732394382,1.8175630845070436,1.1670246478873239,102.50293133802818,87.16901408450704,4.676760563380283,15.917253521126757,5.985473137389443,-0.8802549295774642,253,5,64,2,8,80,55,71,0.086,0.65,0.264,0.9205,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,2,0,1,9,4,0,0,2,1,4,3,0,2,1,7,9,5,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,8,1,3,0,2,0,0,2,1,1,0,0,2,3,5,3,5,6,1,9,0,0,3,0,9,2,0,2,4,35,13,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29580634016819257,0.0,0.0,0.2433044494546238,0.2641942265244942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3237726633397577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2444622937096281,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3133016855527206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2120870418511868,0.0,0.0,0.3142725819702262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2326022405687359,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3372574617584744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3023491429594504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34313976269712465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,TurkeysAreFriends,2019/03/01,"Want to stop losing but the competition part of my brain won’t let me been stuck at 19.6 BMI wanted to get down to 19 but a LOT of people have been commenting on how skinny I am and I just got clothes for this weight and really don’t want to have to buy more when i lose the extra 5lbs. I’ve also been feeling rly good and small and cute at this weight plus eating at maintenance has given me a lot of energy lately. 70% happy where i am, 20% scared i’ll gain more if i stop losing, and 10% wanting to get to underweight BMI. my super skinny friend is 5lbs less than me and i’m taller than her so if i lose 5 more i should be super skinny too. my sister is also losing weight rn and i’m nervous she’ll get skinnier than me and i’ll be uncomfortable. idk!!!!!! rationally i know i’m skinny rn and 5 lbs isn’t that crazy but it feels like it would make a world of difference. it wouldn’t tho, the day i see that 5 lbs gone it’ll be another 5-10 immediately. not even gratifying.",0.6734632034631999,2.6075877703349306,3.08377306903623,90.67974481658695,82.77990430622009,6.2776030986557325,17.12941444520392,7.447530270364453,0.10851177944862167,760,15,174,12,21,262,115,209,0.166,0.649,0.184,0.8099,0,0,0,0,0,0,22.0,0,0,0,8,10,14,0,2,6,0,22,9,5,2,0,33,41,21,0,9,7,1,5,1,1,6,0,0,0,0,8,10,8,2,3,0,1,1,5,7,0,0,7,6,18,7,21,24,8,15,0,5,1,0,5,9,0,4,6,106,26,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18068388178992054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11845872812962473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12611170373312786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07285620157205636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11802943925990295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11559635011832554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07461551442269249,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1142418917727226,0.08070567685968599,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08728021878960476,0.0,0.17706623752258452,0.0,0.0,0.09475374266840436,0.09035230170119964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12025849622664507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06208527010228235,0.0,0.12743490107345726,0.0,0.0,0.11551931618711868,0.0,0.0551913579012973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6319217765996585,0.0,0.19208583766379184,0.0,0.0,0.07540824597762008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12233532878567853,0.0,0.07831906340036518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07237137279226606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11310251841651167,0.0,0.09002233688500698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1888956907730027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26653015627109355,0.0,0.0,0.4127004956271446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08025053366085587,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Awassya,2019/03/01,"Chronic illness and ED are double teaming me. The brain fog from medication, my illnesses and restriction combined is kicking my ass and not taking any names. 

I couldn't perform a simple calculation today for about three straight minutes. Two numbers. I'm not joking. A ton of people laughed at me and I haven't felt so ashamed in years, I was standing there with a dry mouth and burning eyes and a brain that wouldn't fucking think. 

I'm leaving a binge-purge cycle and switching to just restriction, and I can't make myself eat - been staring down an orange for quite a while now. 

The time it took to type this post alone has my stomach in knots. I don't know what to do - I feel so upset over all this.",3.887509881422925,5.6158393188405835,4.266495388669302,86.8187549407115,72.47826086956522,6.4674571805006575,29.21212121212121,6.980632752743323,1.5262231884057975,558,23,108,5,11,175,100,138,0.18,0.784,0.036000000000000004,-0.9567,0,1,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,0,3,6,5,1,2,9,0,11,12,6,1,1,23,21,11,0,2,3,0,2,0,0,1,4,0,0,0,5,9,1,2,4,2,0,1,7,3,0,2,4,4,12,2,14,15,3,14,0,0,2,2,2,6,2,0,5,72,17,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2325817045105416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15271195960516942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5013778097289646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22978614640571204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11354685524967426,0.0,0.21561769971800346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20760680403910106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1234150987531879,0.0,0.0,0.2377820021519351,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.149898939133238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2262256993815267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15568515572034086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2150712775129173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23885261194367255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16884499771108666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14389224000171374,0.0,0.0,0.13094570794582958,0.0,0.21286144446322589,0.0,0.2495000741190383,0.0,0.0,0.21936745909991395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14461255316428026
EDAnonymous,bluebirdhall,2019/03/01,"I recently joined peach and it’s the only thing keeping me happy I know it sounds dramatic, but I don’t know what I would do without peach. Everyone there is so nice and supportive. I regret not joining sooner because I feel like I could have kept in touch with people from r/proED. If you’re considering joining, please do!!",2.4333333333333336,5.084441222222225,3.653333333333337,84.90000000000002,81.22222222222223,6.774603174603175,24.87301587301588,7.957251820313856,1.7328158730158731,259,10,48,5,7,84,50,63,0.055,0.687,0.258,0.9267,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,0,2,5,0,0,1,0,7,0,0,0,0,15,13,5,0,4,4,0,2,1,0,1,0,1,0,0,4,3,0,2,3,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,1,3,8,4,4,10,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,2,31,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1726940952922957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22618812704521585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2707006582141197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14324254098747152,0.20238611329185788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30157295730198963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2518057478455085,0.0,0.0,0.3113832136126391,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13840370154336734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21545872896880428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19640118830570424,0.0,0.0,0.31097300510909365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27971978575366896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3214799814458462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18820871099488412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27308641724917393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2012447479432641,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,bigmthstrikesagain,2019/03/01,"any ed group chats i can join? Hello everyone!
I'd love to have some people to talk to about ed stuff.. if anyone wants to add me to an ed group chat pls message me! 

a little  bit a about me:
I'm 18, female, 6' tall, CET time zone
I struggle with restriction, binge eating and bulimia; I've been bulimic for over 3 years and I started restricting a little over a year ago.

preferably group chats where the members aren't under 16 x",2.732305194805196,4.16236956818182,4.196948051948056,87.3636363636364,74.9090909090909,7.301298701298702,23.935064935064936,7.957251820313856,1.1991019480519474,334,10,70,5,7,111,65,88,0.083,0.8190000000000001,0.098,0.3147,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,1,6,0,4,2,0,0,0,10,8,3,0,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,4,1,2,1,3,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,6,1,12,7,2,12,0,0,0,1,10,7,0,2,5,34,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22092374421685024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16948217465844798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1742645608700105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2720901600874693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2550203395982503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23814605074872244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4995796997461303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22493612686276102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17278187524894614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17640339178405506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2605450485410312,0.2853040562293125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20031835722150051,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14532564052107128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14699990721128658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3209866477590925
EDAnonymous,dani_lionn,2019/03/01,Vengeance on my irregular period Normally I can tolerate how irregular my period is with my ed but it came out of nowhere on Wednesday and I'm supposed to be spending the night w the bf later and I'm FUCKING PISSED about it so after googling how to make it stop early I've been aggressively masturbating and drinking my bodyweight it water for the last 2 days to hurry it along and I know I should be ashamed to admit that but I WILL BE GETTING SOME DICK TONIGHT GOD DAMMIT,2.4607446808510645,5.008878265957454,4.018553191489364,82.99400000000003,80.17021276595744,7.164255319148936,28.54893617021277,8.238735603445708,2.2876374468085108,383,18,73,8,10,127,65,94,0.222,0.723,0.055,-0.968,0,0,1,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,0,4,4,3,1,3,0,8,5,2,3,0,19,16,9,0,2,2,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,6,8,2,1,2,1,1,1,0,4,0,0,2,0,8,0,13,9,1,15,0,0,0,2,2,3,3,1,11,48,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4104975462556157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.231467326328232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35159526514846395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33180660938226497,0.18751571679553455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1972476078200216,0.2925596392947424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23957528258288965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3368128210260654,0.3516556998218813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3000649193528724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,remiisme,2019/03/01,"🍑 appreciation post This isn’t a self promo I promise! I just have such a genuine appreciation for the peach community and I would never have known about it or joined it or connected with so many people on there without you guys here, so thank you! I’ve only had it a few days but it’s honestly such a great feeling to be able to just shitpost all my thoughts that I can’t really say anywhere else, and seeing everyone else’s thoughts and knowing we all relate and understand what we’re going through, there’s just no other platform that I really feel so connected on.

So thank you guys for sharing this with me, and I hope you all are having an equally good experience! In a world where everyone is shouting, it’s really nice to feel heard.",5.843713850837138,6.297456095890412,6.7394063926940655,75.6379375951294,66.8082191780822,10.050532724505327,32.660578386605785,9.994966539143718,3.1614651445966517,594,24,113,13,9,198,91,146,0.018000000000000002,0.7240000000000001,0.258,0.9894,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,1,4,0,0,14,9,0,0,7,0,10,0,0,0,4,29,23,12,0,2,7,0,3,0,0,1,0,3,0,3,11,8,0,0,8,0,0,1,5,0,0,0,4,7,13,9,13,17,5,10,0,0,1,0,11,6,0,3,2,82,24,0,0.1651887968043162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10653310821058852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2759880863331367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31568994871378386,0.0,0.1615863405195722,0.0,0.0,0.2505732570967662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09388060000120912,0.1385525254300801,0.0,0.1821212316444404,0.0,0.3271257595638206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16406974783063147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09078344266340237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16747551255269802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1274037836617874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12563352366195146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.114521112494879,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15820520493757073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31747251940119403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13136476141161266,0.0,0.0,0.13163408398742046,0.0,0.1723279414048328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3041673005652653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2622829057899389,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17196736316910574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15923610534340024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11734538175166807,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,LolitaJane,2019/03/01,"I posted an ED meme on Facebook, and everyone laughed, and no one noticed. It was the Mr. Krabs ""**THERE'S FOOD IN THE FATTY TISSUE RESERVES**"" one.

LOL real life is disordered and everyone thinks it's a big joke.
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EDAnonymous,dis__cord,2019/03/01,Spitting food into tissues. Don't know when it started but whenever I eat with my fam or someone else I'd chew the food and keep it in my mouth then spit it out into some tissues while pretending to be wiping my mouth or something. I've been using quite a lot of tissues and I feel bad. ,3.8895000000000017,4.472146949999999,5.010000000000002,85.86000000000001,71.16666666666666,7.333333333333332,30.0,7.1686216300943375,1.6620000000000008,227,9,47,2,4,75,46,60,0.081,0.8909999999999999,0.027000000000000003,-0.631,0,0,1,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,2,0,3,8,4,1,0,15,8,8,0,0,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,6,4,1,2,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,1,5,0,7,6,2,8,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,4,4,30,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2227540767206369,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2729873458568662,0.22286437960793606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13489435777505088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6451942243317957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2371304949320688,0.0,0.0,0.14661789134933814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2268108073778124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2837583623094449,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2260458063242305,0.20538389213173608,0.0,0.0,0.1888315802541128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2304163191227864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ohwellolivia,2019/03/01,"Back to square one Had the flu earlier this week. Puked constantly, barely ate, ya know the drill. For the past 2 days I’ve been feeling a little better, but instead of vomiting everything I ate, I actively purged everything I ate, a behavior I haven’t had in 2 years. But I’ve done it 4 times today already so I guess I’m back to square one. Happy NEDA week y’all. ",1.887942857142857,3.8595483466666662,4.0072380952380975,85.41600000000003,78.86666666666667,8.019047619047619,24.04761904761905,8.841846274778883,1.8793619047619048,286,10,59,7,7,98,53,75,0.054000000000000006,0.785,0.161,0.8102,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,2,0,1,4,2,0,0,5,0,5,5,0,0,0,5,12,3,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,0,3,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,7,3,7,2,5,5,0,12,0,0,2,0,2,2,0,1,10,32,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24017636744389104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33471072008571484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1924890736154156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2351966293198515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14036284310192565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22272611954053412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3912100921964593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11004771306051797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2397602033959179,0.0,0.0,0.2316868581302525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1196118496198095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21813719297646528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29496339832977675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2077665181747877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12691039010145008,0.0,0.20630175191050631,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3491629424649591,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1401560679120373
EDAnonymous,mipiacelapizza,2019/03/01,"Man, I love it when my mom overeats I know I'm kind of an asshole for saying this but I fucking love it, it's like watching one of those disgusting muckbang videos but irl. And plus I get to feel superior to her even though I know I'm a scum bag. ",-0.1833333333333336,1.8178573333333323,1.905185185185185,97.43333333333337,86.77777777777777,5.0814814814814815,21.962962962962962,6.42735559955562,0.18165185185185212,192,7,47,2,6,64,40,54,0.075,0.6559999999999999,0.269,0.9153,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,3,7,2,0,2,0,0,4,0,0,0,7,9,6,0,0,2,1,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,5,2,1,0,3,1,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,3,7,5,6,9,0,1,0,0,1,3,6,0,1,0,2,27,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1988057398552792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15219317317629835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2782669604563213,0.15725855686728446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3134421516292437,0.33084025895411623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14705197472776446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5433232527343408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35252415515348484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2039634187490397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2393649679270425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29572811369296503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,jooliacoolia17,2019/03/01,the scale won’t. move. been at the same weight ALLLL week and i’m getting so frustrated. i know i’m eating at a deficit but WHY ISNT THE NUMBER GOING DOWNN. literally triggering me to start binging i wanna die :-) ,-0.6021428571428551,0.5340130714285749,2.343238095238096,85.7434285714286,120.66666666666669,5.48952380952381,18.48571428571429,6.742157984588678,1.1093828571428577,167,6,31,4,10,58,35,42,0.256,0.6809999999999999,0.063,-0.8434,0,0,0,0,0,1,7.0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,4,0,3,2,0,1,0,6,9,3,1,1,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,0,0,2,2,1,0,0,1,1,3,0,4,7,1,6,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,2,18,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3766313574167402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3713357717884059,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1895994925468804,0.0,0.2062435853138327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.199439529591755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3857036830395792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25686143206231554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2910952937247764,0.4419126177839085,0.0,0.0,0.32745945856406883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,birdsbirdsbirds339,2019/03/01,"I started stacking again I thought I was finished with stacking, I was restricting just fine without it. 

I'm ~10lbs from my goal weight (when I told myself i would maintain lmao) and I look and feel bigger than ever. Down 35 since I started. Is this body dysmorphia? Or am I really just realizing how big I was to start? Every time I look into a mirror I see something completely different. I don't really know what I am anymore. I'm just yelling into the void and waiting for an answer I know isn't going to come",2.4176470588235257,4.702595078431377,4.121333333333337,83.68200000000002,78.6078431372549,6.825098039215686,26.86666666666667,7.908726449838941,1.8835772549019607,406,17,76,7,10,136,69,102,0.035,0.944,0.021,-0.2869,1,0,1,0,1,0,11.0,0,0,0,1,7,1,0,0,3,0,9,2,1,1,1,23,25,6,0,1,5,0,2,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,3,7,1,2,6,0,0,2,3,0,0,0,5,6,17,1,10,19,0,15,0,0,3,0,1,5,0,1,8,53,20,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2018134698106675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2260383141900024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17529388843646662,0.21336180994267165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21261013325778125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18407389073878816,0.1714542576536641,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1028937525490348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11565153445663524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2236722911260308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34177097766210424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2607296503295258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16216006075528605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1683340931758052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15666125494886393,0.0,0.0,0.4321068029660048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16155318839015126,0.11866022393231385,0.0,0.0,0.1944492631108843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24780345175191146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19616299771864976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1445578049224789,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,hamiifan,2019/03/01,"Health and Fitness class is such a trip I’m studying public health in college right now, and I have to take a one credit Health and Fitness class to graduate early. Being lectured about how to balance diet and exercise is hilarious to me but also scary. So many people in my class don’t know anything about nutrition. They don’t even think twice about what they eat. Meanwhile it’s my 2nd time today at the gym and I haven’t eaten in over a day.  I’m probably the most knowledgeable but also the least healthy in the class. ",5.0872399445214995,6.1074155048543695,5.500027739251041,81.8378640776699,68.70873786407768,8.215811373092926,29.277392510402212,8.418075326091056,2.0931897364771155,419,15,79,6,7,134,67,103,0.07200000000000001,0.861,0.068,-0.5326,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,2,0,10,1,0,0,7,0,7,7,0,1,0,12,13,11,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,2,5,3,0,3,2,1,1,3,0,0,2,1,0,7,1,13,11,2,15,0,0,0,0,3,9,0,1,5,54,9,8,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3435070912814108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1767395242791265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13851053915770664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2197659558701638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14185525609642438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6848795921154839,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1180333870015707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21774567483314886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14553545094829395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14889625678854895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23156115454576506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18341460022208647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16148224293016028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13761758992399187,0.0,0.0,0.1252356119981269,0.0,0.2035792824854204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,trynagetafullride,2019/03/01,"I hate myself I’m sorry I need to rant. Started this semester determined to get rid of my freshman 15. From my highest, I’d lost 16 pounds. I’ve never been happier with myself mentally - I actually stuck to my goals! Only 10 more pounds to go to goal weight! But I got fucking ravenously hungry and I binged. I binged like crazy. All the time. Sometimes I would purge, sometimes I wouldn’t. I couldn’t even purge it all up when I tried, I’d just give up. My teeth feel weak now. And now I’ve gained back 3 pounds. This might seem insignificant to some but to me the number is now so close to my start - it feels like I’ve lost nothing at all. I look no different. I had so many goals - spring break, summer, they all seem out of reach now. I can’t fucking stick to a diet. I don’t even want to study abroad anymore. I hate myself. My binges will never end. Food controls my every thought. I’m so lost. ",0.14395045045045052,2.4817991135135142,1.7038175675675689,96.57644707207209,90.29729729729729,4.596846846846847,17.978603603603602,6.21433560688645,-0.2616801801801807,696,19,155,7,24,224,110,185,0.16699999999999998,0.763,0.07,-0.9466,1,0,0,0,0,0,29.0,0,0,1,8,12,10,4,0,3,0,10,7,1,1,6,27,34,8,0,5,3,0,3,2,0,4,1,0,0,0,4,5,3,1,5,0,0,1,7,8,0,0,8,4,27,2,18,21,6,21,0,3,1,2,2,5,2,4,16,87,31,3,0.0,0.0,0.13180285502066902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.133947067411504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10385577990015063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15148561618111386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1411129984463681,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1196265007361759,0.0,0.0,0.17841682612113122,0.0,0.11379713668007505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1365847029124284,0.09648965651896396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16331976908576035,0.0,0.0,0.24972874493026265,0.0705652981072751,0.12956557233669286,0.07675991050864914,0.0,0.10802291605835466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2666952207532874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1319707701843591,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1134196350400931,0.0,0.4423145106767925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13693356620824407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1361126147328018,0.1432814232973931,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10014814905132564,0.20833916767076785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12959742703748975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10272216020193144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2459141512564975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2671632442343613,0.15119294588279614,0.19119780630485786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10722562689269598,0.07875682940805205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09169950266874274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07966417057394735,0.0,0.0,0.1644714086119051,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09594549887564953,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Mapletyler,2019/03/01,Getting annoyed when other people don't plan their meals? I can't go throughout the day without planning what I eat. I usually just skip breakfast and lunch and don't do specific dinner planning until 2-3 pm. It annoys me to no end when I get home from school and ask what's planned for dinner and my mom says nothing. It's only like 3 hours away how do you not have ANY idea ???? and she uses weight watchers so it's not like she isn't already budgeting for dinner all day long. ,2.9102040816326533,4.5233316020408205,3.997704081632652,88.2196173469388,74.81632653061223,6.124489795918367,26.535714285714285,6.6274283507984215,1.0824857142857147,379,14,76,3,8,123,70,98,0.136,0.8640000000000001,0.0,-0.8952,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,1,1,4,5,4,2,0,1,0,7,8,0,2,1,13,12,10,0,0,4,1,1,2,0,0,0,1,1,0,6,5,8,0,1,0,1,1,8,2,0,0,0,2,10,2,7,12,1,11,0,0,0,0,7,1,0,0,11,45,16,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23154336484759816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14268589030107826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19615488208034632,0.0,0.19713431006855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2706351614630684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21469988967152945,0.0,0.0,0.1858396686426062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21924626294710328,0.0,0.11924645664779206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21046818324534133,0.0,0.206632021101162,0.0,0.0,0.2368630587989368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20501648088544455,0.0,0.0,0.18568552268448446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2457405344283222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20132949429572472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15957878978906506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14546388578898753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16685856637596755,0.0,0.21235067177352987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18121850351305527,0.2310888607076525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25550619544600595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20226054512168085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Demona666,2019/03/01,"I thought I had worms...... You guys, this is gonna be quite gross but I HAVE TO TELL SOMEONE!


I had a spaghetti craving last night. So your girl here made a bunch of shiritaki noodles and covered them in tomatoe sauce and cheese (250 calories).... Fucking delicious, and filling! 


This morning I took a poo before weighing (ofc)......and my poo was full of worm looking things!!  I freaked out....luckily no one was awake. 


Guys, chew your konjak noodles well 😂😂😂",1.5929281183932351,4.276032267441863,2.277695560253701,92.65768498942921,86.7906976744186,4.52262156448203,28.74841437632136,6.11248444174946,1.2362697674418608,349,18,68,3,11,108,66,86,0.093,0.797,0.111,0.544,0,0,0,0,0,0,33.0,0,3,1,1,3,4,1,0,3,0,7,3,0,1,0,6,13,5,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,3,3,2,0,1,0,0,2,1,3,1,1,7,1,11,1,4,4,2,6,0,0,1,1,8,2,1,0,2,39,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2209431629340845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24004238996390986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5141889632024756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21164953631885966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2180407407362029,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2456872604843717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2436640869815801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17594566894122635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2761699072699128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2200007388795024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22694568532085144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17250002958493596,0.0,0.0,0.20613322468656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2884808827191748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2334566775342985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,thoughtfulfox,2019/03/01,"Periods TBH, I liked it better when I was skinny and had no period than being fat and having a period every two weeks. Yay.",2.9063999999999983,4.410841439999999,6.277000000000001,72.32350000000002,74.6,9.8,16.5,10.125756701596842,1.8322,96,1,17,3,2,36,22,25,0.075,0.614,0.311,0.7845,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,1,1,3,0,0,1,1,4,2,2,0,0,2,4,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,2,0,2,3,1,1,0,5,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,6,14,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4847728325304935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4618197273825162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26778663719960144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5354393772234902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4396735499169244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,thatssnotmythrowaway,2019/03/01,"Going back a mile, not even sorry. I am every single ED nightmare. I can’t even handle it. I basically recovered and then my dysmorphia had me thinking I was still thin. Hahahhahha Fucking NO. Now, I’m slowly but surely relapsing. I just basically have just accepted the dive. I’m really good at playing this off too, because I’ve been recovered for so long, my fiancé has never seen me in action. He. Has. No. Idea. How. Good. I. Am. At. This. He’s drunk all the time anyway. And if he gets to be drunk and I can’t do opiates(because I really can’t go back to that) I’m going to be fucking as skinny as I fucking can. 


Sorry if this doesn’t belong, can delete. Needed a vent. ",-0.5399873056172629,1.592589656934308,2.667350047603936,86.54825452237387,101.33576642335764,5.594287527768962,17.635353855918755,7.079830092131019,0.7308574420818781,521,16,103,11,23,185,87,137,0.094,0.774,0.133,0.748,0,0,0,0,0,0,29.0,0,0,0,0,12,8,3,0,4,0,17,6,1,1,3,17,30,11,0,3,6,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,3,3,0,3,3,0,4,8,3,0,0,4,2,13,5,10,24,2,18,0,0,1,3,3,6,3,2,8,74,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27133092680885235,0.0,0.21510285056779865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23306359470933105,0.0,0.1486517293177326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4893261492852266,0.09217853717144027,0.0,0.3008114379397117,0.2959658999783702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19917046682165407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1561369359266993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13082223313142666,0.13607538143048584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2260539571095536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3950027834058011,0.0,0.0,0.14089897463674986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1662852508450411,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1130506231687266,0.0,0.0,0.102879028670134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,isitworthliving,2019/03/01,"I'm sick of eating too much I feel so sick I literally can't take this anymore, I can't even talk to my therapist about my eating problems cause I'm too ashamed. It's ruining my life, I can't see my friends or go out of the house cause I gained weight and I don't want them to see me, I want to lose but I'm depressed at home all day and it's hard",-1.5637037037037054,0.2911302222222254,1.1171481481481498,101.48016666666668,92.45679012345678,4.721481481481481,17.976543209876542,6.2581,-0.4700627160493829,272,8,73,3,10,93,50,81,0.28300000000000003,0.6940000000000001,0.024,-0.93,0,1,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,1,2,5,6,0,1,1,0,4,6,0,2,1,12,14,5,0,3,2,0,3,0,1,0,3,0,1,0,3,3,3,0,1,0,0,1,4,5,0,0,0,5,13,1,8,14,2,4,0,3,2,0,3,2,0,1,1,39,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19271326579362555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3992404210341531,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1253203510575131,0.0,0.16736756698524355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3976758289675098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12834655472040454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09825405163534606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1501311820143672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11043655767918477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1740725888185411,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19491884549038915,0.0,0.0,0.2242192379576821,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13725399202242364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21739442127252084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14284758923702748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18593803619981894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3096958287151165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14610448776407298,0.15618708862784478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2256205453721002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2292299902450467,0.0,0.0,0.2366294603965019,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,kvltspoook,2019/03/01,"Frustrating times with meds So I was recently diagnosed at the ripe old age of 20 with ADHD and as a result got put on Ritalin! (Yay) 

Unfortunately, despite the massive positive impact the Ritalin has made on every other aspect of my life, I seem to be the only person who doesn’t get the appetite suppressant effect of it and I’m really bummed about it. 

I’ve plateaued at approx 55kgs for almost a year and can’t get over how fat I am. I hate myself and can’t stick to fasting. I don’t know what to do. I’ve just had my dosage upped so hopefully that will help with the appetite bc I’m such a pig I would eat till my head fell off. ",2.3752272727272725,3.9612078863636384,4.376363636363639,85.05954545454547,76.19696969696969,7.830303030303033,23.363636363636363,8.575989854853784,1.4700363636363636,499,15,105,10,11,171,91,132,0.096,0.856,0.049,-0.7206,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,1,6,4,2,0,9,1,12,7,2,4,0,18,22,9,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,2,5,0,0,1,6,7,2,1,3,0,0,2,4,2,0,0,4,0,10,2,20,15,0,16,0,0,0,0,3,7,0,3,7,66,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2668342595979457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2223287619673359,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2253535353608705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22718986064526686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1870679908473776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2320007150546436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1775759079889883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21920647816989705,0.2278645697421581,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14882054891791488,0.0,0.0,0.2205236951320972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12202066802475267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15682479572138452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21008806531824725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2466228244705732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2329808187428488,0.0,0.0,0.16886214086828022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19386610407436103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22319925557558187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14223668898327108,0.0,0.21922565909325545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2021257631719736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1294661910896179,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15772217323864965,0.0,0.0,0.1429786186628541
EDAnonymous,ohh_hello_,2019/03/02,he doesn’t care anymore i know he has stuff he’s going through on his own and he’s tired of me talking about myself but you can’t just do that. YOU CANT JUST FUCKING DO THAT! we’ve talked to each other every day for nearly a whole year now. and now you’re being short with me and not replying. i want to disappear. i want to disappear.,-1.16,0.8274363333333383,1.0083333333333364,98.52,102.33333333333334,4.066666666666666,15.722222222222221,5.985473137389443,-0.5295777777777775,264,7,60,3,12,87,52,72,0.142,0.8270000000000001,0.031,-0.6713,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,2,0,0,5,2,1,0,1,0,7,2,0,0,0,12,13,4,0,2,4,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,4,5,0,0,1,0,0,3,4,1,0,0,0,0,9,1,10,12,3,10,0,0,0,1,9,3,1,0,4,43,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27615373585538344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2839046631501703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17958121866037685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23461136575170316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2574282781835852,0.0,0.0,0.15825308056776327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15303225017570507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31876573917463075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4476251060281901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3200444496160643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3284813731715434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3108864130395689,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1793166690134171
EDAnonymous,virgomartini,2019/03/02,"I am too young for this community All of you have husbands and wives, “haven’t —— in 10 years”, ect...
But I’m only 18! I’m not married, I don’t live alone, a certainly don’t have kids or anything...
But this community is the best I’ve found on the internet because the other communities with more people of my age are actually promoting ED (tumblr for example) and I don’t want to be part of that.
I feel like most people on here are adults that have been struggling their whole life. No offense of course :) 
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EDAnonymous,maplelace,2019/03/02,"no power in weighing scale thought that this might be a good chance... i’m going to keep pretending that i’ve forgotten to put in the batteries for perhaps a few weeks before i weigh again hahaha

let’s hope this go on?",4.5292424242424225,5.434019500000002,5.416363636363638,82.35287878787881,69.9090909090909,9.503030303030306,28.303030303030305,9.725611199111238,2.5038575757575763,174,6,35,4,3,57,37,44,0.087,0.682,0.23,0.7717,1,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,3,0,3,2,0,0,0,4,9,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,0,2,1,1,1,0,3,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,2,6,5,1,8,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,2,2,20,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28441126266308503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37990943750334294,0.28034232844768475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33197298275068404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2970854048614514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3417802101381261,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3545728790516079,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3360007303377236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2653470237837068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2681049428290582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,finding_ferris,2019/03/02,"Dr. Christian is fucking Daddy AF™ like... Y'all ever just sit in your room on a Saturday night after work, crack open some White Zinfanfel, eat 6 cookies, because ""fuck it, I already went over my calorie limit, why not treat myself"" but actually ""treating yourself"" is going to cause yourself a massive feeling of guilt for the next seven days, and is totally not worth it? Bc same

And I'm watching my FAV supersize vs superskinny, episode 1 season 3. I love life. I love dr Christian 

I love you guys! What are you up to tonight?
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EDAnonymous,eyjafjallafuckyall,2019/03/02,"So I got drunk last night... and I told one of my teammates about my ED but I insisted that it was only during high school and that I’m fine now (even though that’s not true lmao) but I’m also worried that now that my teammates know they’ll be suspicious of my eating habits? I know that I’m probably just being paranoid, but I really love this team and my sport (and the cardio it provides...) and I don’t want them to catch onto my shitty eating habits now and then end up not being allowed to participate anymore. They haven’t said anything to me yet, but my mind is spiraling. I just had to get that off my chest.",4.383248031496063,4.651085307086613,5.281564960629922,85.47148129921261,69.94488188976378,8.239763779527559,26.111220472440944,8.07648339933343,1.3690637795275586,482,13,103,6,8,158,79,127,0.138,0.787,0.075,-0.8125,1,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,3,1,11,3,0,0,1,0,9,6,1,1,1,20,20,14,0,1,8,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,10,6,3,0,2,3,0,1,4,0,0,1,5,1,19,3,10,11,0,13,0,0,0,1,7,4,0,0,8,72,29,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17002377571274127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21085153799449632,0.0,0.0,0.17495953939997733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4351052835710352,0.0,0.0,0.1883089503380656,0.0,0.0,0.1404265988002743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.111079711728584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17004327477794615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22463365656054055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2336892905856151,0.17330515517114445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1918884145048473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21467503151138356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1995196547010583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14406972955335007,0.16169913894534502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22922904827032414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13620311821684425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20224036366527176,0.0,0.0,0.21517220944984414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2088877977353889,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20315753070045697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1254026177144216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2159153124857032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,okbunnie,2019/03/02,Vaporub and plastic wrap?!?! I’ve seen EVERYWHERE vaporub and plastic rub helps with a flat stomach.... I’m so close to just doing it but it seems “too good to be true” I don’t think I should give into that kind of thing :sss,0.7813043478260866,2.9687171304347832,2.1066956521739115,96.34482608695652,84.21739130434783,4.549565217391304,22.243478260869566,5.6839178017228535,0.07432695652173926,172,6,38,1,5,55,38,46,0.0,0.782,0.218,0.8832,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,0,1,0,4,1,1,0,1,11,9,4,0,1,2,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,5,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,2,3,5,6,0,2,0,0,1,0,2,2,0,1,0,22,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4361260453910221,0.0,0.3813251545968911,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3047313674520943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4734310090593595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41388142065426176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3020384106199343,0.2913109000749076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,1trualt,2019/03/02,"Can’t stop overeating. I’ve been in a binge cycle for a month now. 

I don’t know how to stop. ",-2.5628787878787875,-0.8595503181818174,0.14272727272727434,107.1007575757576,97.63636363636364,2.9333333333333336,11.87878787878788,3.1291,-2.0320484848484845,71,1,20,0,3,24,18,22,0.239,0.7609999999999999,0.0,-0.5267,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,0,3,0,0,1,0,4,4,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,4,3,0,6,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,4,12,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28436714878639,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4130093636616157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8651928052283643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,AlarmedRefrigerator5,2019/03/02,"help I can't stop eating I've pretty much been eating for three days, nonstop. Too afraid to get on the scale. I don't know what started this, I got an email that my wedding dress is in and I need to go in for a fitting and I'm panicking because I'm nowhere close to where I want to be. What is wrong with me? I can't even figure out if this is an ""oh no"" or a shitpost. ",0.4942857142857165,1.6130855714285737,2.5757142857142874,97.96928571428572,80.19047619047619,5.276190476190476,21.523809523809533,5.288315135182226,-0.24479047619047645,284,8,73,1,7,96,59,84,0.102,0.785,0.113,-0.0289,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,1,5,0,8,2,0,0,0,12,17,4,0,3,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,5,2,1,2,0,0,1,4,2,0,1,2,0,8,0,11,14,1,11,0,0,0,0,3,7,0,2,3,47,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17404576270246128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18413193495278185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5843011071532519,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18857830564443168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14916849092842488,0.0,0.16226332661373188,0.0,0.2283504187797289,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1913730024150705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15691019665214045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20988453022672213,0.2117038921957172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29046884396964273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.202087208587733,0.0,0.0,0.2387012244378088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16840266284307262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.312163085214216,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,fizzy_bubblech420,2019/03/02,"Does anyone have any tips to stop from binging I went out with friends and got chocolates, and eating just one would keep me below my limit of 160 a day. Then when I got home I realised if I ate one meatball I’d still be below so I thought alright, I’d been doing well all week I can treat myself, it was so fucking good though (sorry vegans/ vegetarians) and I ending up eating 413 calories worth of meatballs. I would’ve chewed and not swallowed but I was banned from having a bin for doing that before. 

Does anyone have any self control tips? ",1.91,4.431124444444446,3.1070370370370384,88.81666666666668,82.33333333333334,4.340740740740742,21.962962962962962,5.46131890053228,0.18665185185185207,432,14,82,2,12,139,78,108,0.055,0.84,0.105,0.2903,1,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,2,7,6,1,0,2,1,11,6,0,1,1,18,18,11,0,2,4,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,1,2,6,5,5,1,0,1,1,1,1,1,2,8,0,12,5,11,8,1,12,0,0,0,1,2,4,1,1,7,56,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2397203122207873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2464846525893631,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1499809142170775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1976861441867856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1136705690852736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3084857091843722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3607078771224424,0.0,0.0,0.1561105421706738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13617498477311216,0.16294587539864308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14783520990213342,0.281936124336157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17679918628833702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15666447314519222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2388713181245898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18387349714850504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19730421444156646,0.0,0.0,0.14075830689915006,0.14735794760509802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17317067138214387,0.13992761341172574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14138196938864958,0.0,0.15847535384981126,0.16339112150228946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25041447766404384,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,sentienttrashcan33,2019/03/02,"Here's a tip Don't exercise with the flu, I feel like death now, have a good day",3.4394736842105265,1.8288529473684207,4.862105263157896,94.04473684210528,72.15789473684211,9.705263157894738,24.26315789473684,8.841846274778883,0.9049578947368428,62,1,18,1,1,21,18,19,0.297,0.457,0.247,-0.2732,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,3,0,2,2,0,0,0,2,3,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,2,1,3,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,9,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4424997603920652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3469300392099701,0.4901743695403926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5754967665388392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3352104847640557,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,paperclip1213,2019/03/02,"Psyllium husk is miracle food! Damn that food is filling!

I made a Slimfast milkshake with the high protein powder and skimmed milk and added 1-2tbsp of psyllium husk. I forgot about it and when back to it when it was this weird slimy stuff. It was really difficult to eat because the texture was... not for everyone. It took me ages to eat it but eventually I finished it and it kept me full for five hours! Even now, I'm still not so hungry that I need to eat. I've been bingeing like crazy this week and for the first time in a long time, I was too full to even think of food.",1.935416024653314,3.91404956779661,3.0936363636363637,91.98919106317413,78.74576271186443,6.6637904468412925,23.43913713405239,7.686295010490155,0.9717355932203392,451,15,99,7,11,145,73,118,0.078,0.873,0.048,-0.3632,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,0,1,10,4,1,0,5,0,7,7,0,1,0,14,14,9,0,1,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,13,6,7,2,1,0,0,2,2,3,0,2,9,0,7,1,13,5,2,19,0,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,14,66,20,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1255878555423696,0.0,0.0995622063491925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5013707874627076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21575098282224928,0.0,0.0,0.1560652942207387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13892528103196472,0.5924844891697515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1725632201874477,0.0,0.0,0.16084352176891736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07979298811131698,0.0,0.0,0.14453865016135545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15454330935069222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12110439388145545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10463102029742301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13043260700770815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1869695564457589,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10465290852370084,0.0,0.0,0.1904737766965465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18146154673195244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13101051907691644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,kittencatmeows1,2019/03/02,"Welcome back to work I took medical leave for an episode of bipolar disorder. They changed my antipsychotic and I gained a ton of weight. I know I look bigger, I feel terrible about it.

The first thing out of my coworker's mouth was ""you got fat"" while gesturing at my stomach. If that wasn't bad enough she now calls me thiccums and it makes me want to die. 

I'm having a hard time with restriction and I just want this weight to go away so I feel like myself again 😭",1.1332344497607636,3.5499864000000048,2.3108133971291878,93.87751196172249,85.0,6.401913875598087,22.320574162679424,7.686295010490155,0.9815263157894742,368,13,81,7,11,117,73,95,0.147,0.713,0.141,-0.146,0,0,0,0,0,1,8.0,0,1,1,3,6,4,0,0,4,0,3,7,3,1,0,14,14,6,1,3,2,0,5,1,0,0,3,0,0,0,5,5,3,1,3,0,0,2,1,2,0,1,4,6,16,2,12,10,2,12,0,0,1,0,5,4,0,1,7,53,21,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1860219217681412,0.15224519828235308,0.1653167564030759,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20217405583823556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20945144532638432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20548655829443327,0.0,0.2269183276585645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2045807744473963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20022347525800815,0.14144698449185208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16841363255866315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11252457789793187,0.0,0.1583539239718168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17736377330147865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10881234851171473,0.0,0.0,0.2096471043604892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.096729888762616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1662651307649181,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1321625617228693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19945816915511916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13153844496699396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11545191919839362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2199786678697462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2335640338301908,0.0,0.0,0.4822068110214267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14414202202489526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,daintydaisydoll,2019/03/02,What is the best low calorie source of vegan protein? I wish I could take protein in a pill like I do all other vitamins. ,2.718,4.175647400000003,4.8610000000000015,82.47550000000003,75.0,8.200000000000001,28.5,8.841846274778883,2.3530000000000006,95,4,19,2,2,33,22,25,0.07400000000000001,0.596,0.33,0.8074,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,2,0,3,2,0,0,1,3,5,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,2,2,4,2,2,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,14,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.533792194321789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4061121364721431,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2484985558865948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3824382024143071,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5849173573655949,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,sobeautifulsotragic,2019/03/02,"This video really fucked with my calorie counting brain it's a vid by Casey Neistat for the New York Times but basically it summarizes that there's literally no standards to published calorie counts??? I mean I know no one can ensure exactly the same amount of ham or sauce or milk is put into something that different people will make for you each time but still ? 

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[https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hE2lna5Wxuo](https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hE2lna5Wxuo)",12.013285714285715,15.096982328571432,7.738571428571433,64.5164285714286,54.28571428571429,10.171428571428573,34.0,10.355215969177356,3.842085714285714,393,14,52,8,5,106,60,70,0.127,0.826,0.046,-0.7190000000000001,1,0,1,0,0,0,28.0,0,1,0,0,2,1,1,0,3,0,3,3,1,1,1,13,7,4,0,0,4,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,5,3,1,0,2,1,0,1,2,1,0,1,0,0,4,0,7,6,3,6,0,0,0,1,1,1,1,2,4,33,9,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2784838446662519,0.31231055221710746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2869221879644002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26853387872966056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2376132221862637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14125288145978962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17156455971955015,0.0,0.0,0.27997292491885384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24823399744569416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17416514363620547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17818708624941365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2583786705981268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1646552382757919,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19786852956377135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20525855453514927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2997438522353039,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31231055221710746,0.0
EDAnonymous,Saakkkaaaaiiiii,2019/03/02,"My dad went to the police about my boyfriend Sorry, it’s not actually ED-related, though the stress has killed my appetite. He’s 15 years older than me, I told my parents about him and they went to the cops. 

He’s not done anything wrong. Everything was consensual. It’s just, he has a previous rape allegation. 

Idk what to do. I told him I’m sorry, that my dad had gone to the cops and we can’t talk anymore. 

He said he was sorry too, and that he knew they’d call the cops. 

Again, sorry if this doesn’t belong here, feel free to remove it. It’s just, this is the only subreddit that I feel comfortable posting on. Reddit can be a mean place but I love you all <3",1.965434782608696,3.654526485507248,3.602246376811596,89.71902173913048,77.6231884057971,6.918840579710146,21.644927536231886,7.793537801064563,0.7603362318840583,517,14,115,8,12,172,86,138,0.098,0.8140000000000001,0.08800000000000001,0.5539999999999999,1,0,0,0,0,0,22.0,1,1,2,0,8,7,2,1,8,0,13,2,0,0,1,15,25,6,1,1,6,3,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,10,4,0,0,4,0,1,4,4,4,0,0,11,3,16,4,9,12,1,10,0,0,0,2,21,2,0,1,3,69,26,0,0.0,0.0,0.14363833824618727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1459750941883717,0.0,0.0,0.12112662533072187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1502996762984576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15062870762705255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13228684341058722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1488495810892246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16284634256803102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1328466922623706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.160335438562444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1119462881904208,0.0,0.0,0.1634395006173262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15378450336750704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14096942399562384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14001347306036338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6590783939466238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16860814874547236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11830750145593427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14461557283030513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2812968779943195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2728972572878298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16093154590440034,0.0,0.09478694020813973
EDAnonymous,Throwawayy88888881,2019/03/02,"I just ate a 2500kcal lunch. I was stressed out lonely and depressed, now I’m stressed out, lonely, depressed, sick and bloated.",5.003043478260867,7.446604304347828,3.7732608695652203,88.49293478260874,71.17391304347827,4.6000000000000005,37.58695652173913,3.1291,2.0143217391304344,101,6,17,0,2,29,16,23,0.621,0.379,0.0,-0.9565,0,4,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,2,6,0,2,1,0,1,3,0,0,0,5,3,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,6,0,0,2,0,2,0,2,1,0,3,0,4,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,10,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6009713029947985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.799270600595777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Linzcro,2019/03/02,"Rant about husband Jesus pole vaulting Christ.

I just witnessed my betrothed squirting MY fat free Reddi Whip into his “never had to diet a day in his life” into his mouth at 8:45 in the morning.  No wonder I got like 3 uses on the last one.  You guys I’m so angry right now.  I’m going to go buy another can AND a full fat one he can have to do that.  This is MY safe food.  He can eat whatever he goddamn wants.

Also, last night he ate directly from the sauce pan with the spoon I was using before I served any of it which makes me want to vomit.  Do all men do this?  

He acts like a morbidly obese person even though he’s skinny.

You may think this is an exaggeration but I swear I’m going to have to go to marriage counseling over this or else I’ll kill him.  

Anyone else have this problem?",1.5398181818181804,3.3183451636363657,3.432121212121213,90.04818181818185,79.18181818181819,5.854545454545455,20.090909090909093,6.742157984588678,0.23092727272727265,612,15,132,6,15,206,114,165,0.121,0.8270000000000001,0.052000000000000005,-0.9276,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,2,0,0,7,6,1,0,8,0,14,11,4,3,2,19,30,6,1,3,3,1,0,2,0,1,5,0,0,3,8,4,8,1,2,0,2,5,2,2,0,2,4,0,15,5,18,25,2,20,2,0,0,0,17,9,0,3,8,78,23,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1335939032296704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11360319666127805,0.17517183830330724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11680881024510895,0.17116769175573562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14215158603287895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1077367194691477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17093907279860274,0.2791062002558257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11033831811082256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20200369020056705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3797650527921139,0.0,0.13360922435884268,0.0,0.0,0.16541081350781564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18482171703688968,0.0,0.0,0.2723444063288365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11799595763783155,0.1632293673024537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11151057655011416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1288431918511668,0.0,0.0,0.1567698948621395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2264017185548564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1458660698299922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15984916955356046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14266414274926564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10704216278286276,0.16413078770623532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2885639392909274,0.0,0.0,0.1970668526264512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1811641300125056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,loploh,2019/03/02,"Suddenly stopped b/p’ing last week. As in, the urge to do so just completely disappeared after 6 years of doing it. The imposter syndrome is STRONG rn It’s like .... did I even ever really have an ED if it went away so quickly?

I have barely been able to go 2 days without b/p’ing for YEARS and now all of I sudden I’m eating ~1500 calories daily without the urge to eat any more or any less? What the fuck ",0.8991666666666696,3.0785715357142855,2.8000000000000007,91.61166666666668,83.64285714285714,5.6380952380952385,21.238095238095237,6.937597516519254,0.5427952380952381,315,10,67,4,9,105,65,84,0.093,0.831,0.076,-0.1078,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,1,7,3,1,0,5,0,7,3,0,0,2,9,11,6,0,1,5,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,1,2,1,0,0,0,3,2,1,0,0,3,0,3,2,12,8,3,17,0,0,0,1,0,2,1,2,13,44,7,0,0.21948099782452207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29850920968957423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20620962232878065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23012165041828206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14154708638689478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4491677085313229,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14496512908850714,0.1985331280565441,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20290664581908924,0.0,0.0,0.1247361090052556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1789063069655408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10722732912363743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14060514733853582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18349594188982168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17605441756512802,0.0,0.0,0.20346108386935516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4231436994103345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2826771332636317
EDAnonymous,Internet_Soup,2019/03/02,"I think I'm back on my bullshit!!🤙 Haha hey guys it's me, ya girl internet_soup. I made a post a while ago saying i wa going into recovery and while I did Attempt; I did not succeed lol. I just ate a lot, stopped working out and now I'm fat again. 😂😂😂🙃🤙 sooo ya I keep having thoughts of restricting ",-2.5272549019607844,-0.9614205882352956,1.1964705882352966,96.57745098039216,107.8235294117647,4.031372549019608,18.901960784313726,5.985473137389443,-0.050180392156863096,232,9,56,3,12,84,50,68,0.173,0.775,0.052000000000000005,-0.7222,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,2,0,3,5,2,0,0,3,2,3,2,1,1,0,13,11,4,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,2,1,4,2,3,2,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,5,1,11,2,4,6,1,12,0,0,0,0,6,3,0,1,7,33,12,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29700087354916743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2576321304260783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19041616455695898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3317513547161097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29780709692988944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2848468229143647,0.0,0.3170316258619673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3208844887737393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2664445479216912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2801161086799195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21468597948270865,0.0,0.26599161567315904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24391978622094185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,goodergrammerthanu,2019/03/02,"What is wrong with me lol I’ve been rewatching the show revenge and I started thinking...
If I were kidnapped, it I’d probably lose a lot of weight, considering they don’t feed the kidnapping victims too often. Then I started thinking how long it would take to get to my GW. A pretty ugly thought but now I kinda wanna be kidnapped. ",4.127384615384617,5.714033123076924,5.273846153846153,80.40615384615388,71.61538461538461,7.661538461538463,33.0,8.238735603445708,2.6686,263,13,48,4,5,87,53,65,0.157,0.779,0.064,-0.5994,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,1,1,4,3,1,0,4,1,6,2,0,1,0,13,13,5,0,3,2,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,2,2,0,3,1,0,0,1,3,0,0,3,1,7,0,5,8,1,5,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,4,5,34,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14351592094655272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2430949420646249,0.0,0.307311558670176,0.0,0.2335344355774737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2794618581251607,0.29616585655714983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3888586882051774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20653518890072975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3520247726966176,0.0,0.21807581070773072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33450245814069346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1951342515535361,0.3003340208189937,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ilikebigbooks98765,2019/03/02,"Willpower to restrict when traveling This past week I've been traveling for work and I'm so happy I was able to restrict while being forced to eat at a restaurant for every single meal. I would order a meal and eat only about 1/4 to 1/3 of the portion and I obviously was already choosing the lowest cal things I could. I was able to eat under 500 the whole week. I'm so happy I finally have the willpower to restrict while traveling since I travel quite a bit for work. One of the guys I was traveling with even said one day ""I don't think I've ever seen anyone eat as little as you do"" and omg that made my ED brain so happy lol ",3.7889228159457176,4.563777137404582,5.129414758269722,84.2122561492791,71.51908396946564,7.654283290924512,26.005937234944874,7.793537801064563,1.3839560644614075,499,15,102,6,9,167,76,131,0.098,0.775,0.127,0.7847,3,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,1,0,3,7,3,0,0,8,1,11,7,1,1,2,15,17,12,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,1,3,5,6,3,2,5,0,5,1,0,0,2,8,2,11,3,17,6,4,18,0,0,1,0,3,3,0,0,9,66,14,2,0.26837091548954256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1480769893541385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09382559202243897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1464957661284322,0.0,0.0,0.1497953486384564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1071361692391282,0.0,0.0,0.08653851935942883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5492208908366057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08862822930722908,0.1213784287925823,0.11305703552130685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1469936100260396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1328646997749375,0.0,0.42852874481327097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13448908044486824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1269695245867376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18185507782959773,0.10205408724320354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12809520281841116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1427227515260391,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12764109847591135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11099959728073436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08914685565876419,0.08598062315153934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2152709605216344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14981327153307816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19537722275856406,0.0,0.0,0.095321499213021,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,shaquille_ofeel,2019/03/03,I ate an entire jar of pepperocinis Low cal but RIP my asshole,3.185384615384617,4.538062923076922,6.726153846153848,69.99384615384618,73.61538461538461,8.276923076923078,28.384615384615394,8.841846274778883,2.2670615384615385,50,2,10,1,1,19,13,13,0.124,0.8759999999999999,0.0,-0.1406,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,2,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,5,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,UnusualReport,2019/03/03,my current size clothes don't spark joy in me. Can I get rid of all of them? I so much prefer the ones that are too small to wear. ,-0.8870000000000005,0.643976300000002,0.8966666666666683,106.445,86.0,4.0,16.666666666666668,3.1291,-1.3903333333333334,99,2,28,0,3,32,28,30,0.159,0.841,0.0,-0.5773,1,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,3,1,1,0,1,2,4,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,5,1,4,4,2,3,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,19,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.463145311181909,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6516593112869031,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6006967310908989,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,notickles,2019/03/03,"DAE find it easier to fast on their period? I mean on all other days I'm stuffing my face but on my period I just feel so ,,,fertile,,,, and awful that I just can't eat.  It's really strange because I get even more depressed than usual but I don't binge usually...",2.6579090909090897,3.5355765636363685,5.219772727272726,82.12965909090909,74.27272727272727,9.136363636363637,24.65909090909091,9.516144504307137,2.041454545454545,201,6,43,5,4,72,42,55,0.214,0.752,0.034,-0.9006,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,1,0,4,1,0,0,0,1,2,2,1,0,1,9,6,4,0,0,4,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,1,1,0,3,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,1,8,0,5,6,2,9,0,1,0,0,1,3,0,0,6,28,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1852734842818776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1960103172094261,0.0,0.2617752792624396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3109972351843726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20074352402618206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15367661888624215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2777873793482631,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1587913754994743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3310699016499,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19470594721938525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6694739980717995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,WorriedOrchid,2019/03/03,"I feel disgusting and worthless I literally just wrote on my Instagram and Facebook two days ago how I haven’t taken diet pills in five months and how I wouldn’t listen to the urges to, and yet now I’ve relapsed and taken them again _aaand_ ordered more online. I just can’t stand this fucking weight I’ve been gaining. I’ve been binging hardcore this week and I hate it I can’t stand it. 

I’m sorry for failing. ",4.017499999999998,5.115235273809528,4.760476190476194,85.86785714285716,71.26190476190476,7.028571428571429,28.285714285714285,7.1686216300943375,1.4404428571428567,329,12,66,3,6,106,55,84,0.182,0.784,0.035,-0.8957,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,1,2,7,5,3,0,1,0,6,4,0,2,0,13,14,8,0,1,2,0,2,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,4,6,2,0,1,0,0,0,4,5,0,2,5,3,9,0,5,8,1,12,0,2,0,1,3,2,1,0,7,41,13,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3084781351044763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22442912426563635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17595762043430171,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3217174015464017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3435747592835242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27776769760988623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38955388731995705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.339942273337866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27914201391076154,0.42376630869686027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Melancholy-Mood,2019/03/03,"I hate my parents I have body dysmorphia and I really hate being around my family for long periods of time because of how judgemental they are

Anyway I haven’t ate in about 2 days so I walked into the kitchen to grab a few biscuits 

Straight away my dad mentions how bad my hair and forehead looks, and it looked okay to me but nope he starts going on about how it badly needs cut and now I’m just thinking about how ugly I am to everyone including myself

Then after I grab biscuits he just looks at me in DISGUST and looks down at the biscuits and says it’s 10pm I shouldn’t “be eating so much” before bed

Like I know I’m fucking disgusting and fat but I’m also literally underweight so it’s like what fucking more do you want from me

People are disgusted by me when I eat and disgusted by me when I don’t eat I can’t win",0.5489320121112016,2.903527653179193,2.6968455821635007,90.40050096339115,87.49710982658958,6.069804569226536,21.53289292595651,7.447530270364453,0.9605020093586564,656,23,138,12,21,221,105,173,0.206,0.705,0.08900000000000001,-0.9777,1,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,1,1,1,18,15,9,0,3,1,11,11,4,4,0,23,29,21,0,3,4,2,3,2,0,1,1,1,2,0,5,10,6,0,2,0,0,2,5,11,0,0,1,8,24,4,22,25,3,22,0,0,4,2,8,10,2,0,12,94,29,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11857706090188574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13199796384772838,0.0,0.0,0.13931111962885712,0.0,0.2476101978629039,0.09038828109251944,0.0,0.12617280330032868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16470231697189858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09562639639250572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4551731558641236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14168502487113968,0.0,0.0,0.1397823564237884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27415938878084106,0.0,0.0,0.0842692344199304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2927856732428253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08148915975347444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14488130191333948,0.0,0.0,0.1312204763090195,0.4980613317385046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10900065373919082,0.10994551443852134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16464405773006938,0.0,0.0,0.10279659988046397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09499004110526403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11791581938942484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10495122162932326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09500991249242956,0.0,0.0,0.08646150934229904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08745761453446271,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,strangerousdangers,2019/03/03,Snap group for recovery? Hey y’all I was thinking about making a snap group for those of us who are recovering or trying to recover. If you are interested PM me your snap!  :) ,3.076666666666668,5.107957647058826,5.141764705882356,78.38460784313726,75.47058823529412,9.239215686274509,26.03921568627451,9.725611199111238,2.606992156862745,136,5,27,4,3,47,29,34,0.0,0.8340000000000001,0.166,0.7177,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,1,3,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,1,0,4,5,2,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,6,1,5,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,8,0,0,2,0,19,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4015013198530967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3854124959880806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4083743368730244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7235221482967724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,LivelyGhost,2019/03/03,"lol I found the ultimate thinspo I don’t think I’ve ever wanted to not eat as much as I do now. My partner left their old  phone in the bathroom and my dumbass was like “owo what’s this???” and I turned it on because??? If I had found anything personal I would have turned it off immediately but curiosity got the best of me. All that was on it was like, porn and hentai and shit, all I saw were thumbnails of them since that’s what he was last on. I don’t care about the porn, everyone watches porn, I watch porn! But what got me was that Every single girl I saw did not even remotely have my body shape. I’m not fat but I’m just of average BMI. It was all really skinny girls or in shape girls and I just kinda :) hello, I’m fucking disgusting and now I need to get back to my low weight haha. The worst part is is that my partner knows about my eating disorder thoughts and past with it. So if I got super skinny he’d know why, but he’d also probably like it. 


I love that anything can trigger this disease and obsession right back. I can feel it, I’m gonna snowball down again. This has been objectively the biggest trigger I’ve ever had in a long time. Food feels so.... Gross, I feel so gross. Curiosity killed the fucking cat yet again. Tfw I associate being tiny with being sexy, cute, attractive, capable, literally everything good and I’m!!!! NOT!!!! TINY!!!",0.9190204545454572,3.2921777963636387,2.908471590909091,89.51670738636366,85.58181818181819,6.34659090909091,21.684659090909093,7.6454224807358475,1.0153659090909088,1054,36,223,20,32,353,148,275,0.132,0.679,0.19,0.9618,0,0,0,0,0,0,49.0,0,0,2,2,18,21,5,1,8,2,26,16,5,2,5,44,55,22,1,5,13,0,4,3,2,2,1,0,0,6,18,11,7,0,9,0,0,0,6,10,0,0,19,8,29,11,20,30,8,28,0,1,4,7,14,14,3,4,17,143,47,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09829572064620316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2022984601671774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18902932572565295,0.0,0.07492833066011234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12899254852804165,0.0,0.0,0.13653174413091462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12532084974659116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14087215543093798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2515470982002222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08118472648371973,0.2223687558597244,0.10356186259843086,0.11745131409529147,0.11046879515246716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18644976466979613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14863027294981515,0.2695416601662521,0.0,0.2272673524471442,0.06421843220315833,0.0,0.0,0.1030959411237895,0.2949209808793701,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13598812092477955,0.0,0.13510261802574258,0.10019278214378063,0.0,0.0,0.13354837606752035,0.0,0.0,0.18015135311266625,0.0,0.0,0.10877661483788703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11093630822126156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0903572556842706,0.0911405080489739,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12897945516719636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1331058330644,0.11733703906731525,0.0,0.10732533525215612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1325240214100614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07874300875428343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1049694213799824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12617130208866087,0.10167721972421744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07875948135283509,0.0,0.09758141516785898,0.07167319129280722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2673941879198745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07249892332696657,0.0,0.0,0.1496783303776995,0.0,0.0,0.11091239093838799,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08731585751083039,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,noodledoodledoo,2019/03/03,"""Right seriously now, no more binging"" \*eats half a chocolate cake with icing\*

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\*gets takeaway afterwards\*

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\*is shocked when bmi is almost obese after doing the same thing for 3 years\*",5.869090909090911,9.466186666666667,3.7186363636363673,78.19795454545455,91.42424242424242,4.624242424242424,29.74242424242424,6.42735559955562,2.1815696969696967,172,8,22,2,6,48,32,33,0.181,0.8190000000000001,0.0,-0.6369,0,0,0,0,0,0,23.0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,2,0,3,2,0,0,0,3,4,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,4,2,6,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,5,15,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22161750756348475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4795948387811957,0.5378499751744531,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22646305504681705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11562925949929548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18900393621942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14703351323398567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5378499751744531,0.14252121418094793
EDAnonymous,elliegruff,2019/03/03,"I’m doing it! I’ve lost 7.6 pounds in 4 days! I’m so proud of myself. Diet pills are really helping me stay on track. I get triggered easily to binge and binge and binge. But I have eaten only one meal a day for the last four. 

It feels so good ",-1.262301587301586,0.7255140925925971,1.6222751322751314,97.17166666666668,93.25925925925928,4.567195767195766,11.417989417989418,6.18269132825596,-1.1131343915343912,187,2,45,2,7,65,44,54,0.04,0.73,0.23,0.8981,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,2,2,3,0,0,2,0,3,4,0,1,0,5,9,5,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,2,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,2,1,4,2,5,7,0,6,0,1,0,0,1,2,0,0,3,23,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4622727494141137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18121625979847086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18724760711693011,0.0,0.0,0.3006063464431337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24022591196017826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2921413379800345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3912325932567057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24285903966661254,0.2725770203146154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22959825490261515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3820034482500425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,bitterturtle,2019/03/03,"Grocery Shopping Stresses Me Out Went grocery shopping with my husband.... He would wander off and grab some things on our list and come back to put them in our cart. Then I noticed he picked up reduced fat sour cream instead of fat free.... This really stressed me out. I didn’t say anything because I gotta be ~normal~ but I did go back and get the fat free version.

Anyways, this kind of put me on edge for the rest of the trip because I was paranoid he was getting the wrong things. So I was in a bad mood and I lashed out at him. He asked me why I was so upset and I told him he got the wrong sour cream and I wished he wouldn’t wander off and would stay by the cart so we could shop together. He told me reduced fat and fat free are the same thing and it wasn’t important and I shouldn’t be so upset..... Y’all.

Like I get why a normal person would think that. 25 calories isn’t a huge difference. It just made me so sad because he kept insisting it wasn’t important even though I told him it was important to me. But he just doesn’t understand.

Not sure where I’m going with this lol. I just wish I could go grocery shopping with my husband and not worry. ",0.8720012767315666,3.0627479668049813,2.12624481327801,96.32797558250877,83.85477178423236,5.035493137567827,22.13230130864985,6.297961479604792,0.24464940951165026,904,31,202,8,26,288,118,241,0.124,0.7490000000000001,0.127,-0.0366,0,0,0,0,0,0,29.0,3,1,1,0,15,15,0,4,10,1,21,5,5,2,1,45,42,20,0,11,7,2,1,1,0,6,5,1,0,1,11,19,5,1,2,4,7,8,9,8,0,0,16,6,32,9,21,16,4,25,0,1,2,0,25,13,0,1,4,129,43,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09587867339548513,0.0,0.10892211144667838,0.0,0.0,0.17917962369502233,0.09728186680754666,0.2130721787252266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10036395992208268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18604919853505672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12172925755507152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07695445500476704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.182616657054784,0.0,0.19864775787673897,0.0,0.09318453661598716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12132833776182085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05692141776584319,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1102455802531732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2283121985120692,0.0,0.1326486118281213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10173296185446687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23425158783514302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07463996722753805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09265426977846868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12418528559933292,0.0,0.0,0.26692604670930736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10981029336709867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2322143095794401,0.07465558149267093,0.114471522982165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3339939268358331,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12129212042061155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10800691809328876,0.21026621552148497,0.0,0.26796393353926995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11832263503834722,0.0,0.2482983383346362,0.2547731035462931,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,prekheadaches,2019/03/03,"How do you deal with people you aren't close with commenting on your weight loss? I gained a lot of weight from a medication in a short period of time (50+ pounds) and got taken off of it. I was restricting before I started the medication but gained anyways because of the meds. Got off of the medication, still restricting, and rapidly lost the weight I had put on plus more. Coworkers at a new job and new friends began commenting on it and asking how I was doing it and I never know what to say. Does anyone have anything they typically say to others in this sort of situation?",5.814879898862202,6.3020322831858415,6.787130214917827,75.15442477876108,66.87610619469028,10.350948166877373,30.302149178255373,10.290406445055957,2.997625537294564,460,16,88,11,7,154,72,113,0.09,0.828,0.08199999999999999,0.2287,1,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,3,1,4,4,3,0,0,8,0,7,6,0,2,1,18,15,9,0,0,1,0,3,0,1,0,3,2,0,0,6,9,3,2,1,0,0,1,2,2,0,0,8,5,10,1,20,7,2,19,0,2,0,0,11,10,0,2,8,64,16,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10295676192630583,0.0,0.12116965853234456,0.0,0.1376537094560748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0897588665082432,0.0,0.1252942048628282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15180259030856152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12885463408983722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11376071767811692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23552971859924826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1461174232316462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08092171378604032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1607347404196337,0.12518198883707318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1635554200610027,0.444999959032788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11356401800010095,0.28441926685911084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10208078054640067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14802136858716902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23418943614940446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16550896145503388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10422039868709376,0.0,0.11758962953940184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08585943865016059,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5379123152960089,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,glitterandvomit,2019/03/03,"[gordon ramsey voice] for once some, some goddamn self control u know that feel when you wrap up your day way below your cal limit after a bad binge episode the week before and it’s like WOW a goddamn WIN for once thank you @ the universe... that’s the mood rn",0.2071153846153848,2.601340480769234,1.0142307692307675,99.36826923076923,96.1153846153846,2.6,16.115384615384613,3.1291,-1.1822384615384616,203,5,42,0,8,62,41,52,0.152,0.627,0.221,0.6559999999999999,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,4,0,3,1,6,0,0,5,0,0,0,0,1,0,7,3,2,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,3,1,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,4,4,5,3,2,7,0,0,0,0,5,2,0,2,5,21,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2447568799898245,0.0,0.0,0.2494377205938565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3287777078593481,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18904890531737176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14821871107059206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16110025084908566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1432117729044687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6243619856228014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3058054836228067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2698808669485911,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2326782488836681,0.23513655961806104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,PhoneWalletSanity,2019/03/03,"Reeeelaaaaappssseeee [loads of numbers yo] I want to be down to 90 lbs by the end of the month which isn't all that unrealistic (I'm currently sitting at 98± a some water weight from spending two weeks at home). 


This means 400 calories a day max given regular multivitamins and a lot of protein. But I caved and ate a PB&J sandwich out of boredom made out of bread I couldn't bear to see my roommate throwing out. 

Which means, in exactly an hour and a half, I'm off to do three hours or walking to burn off the sandwich so I can eat tomorrow and not half to fast until noon on Tuesday. 

The only things that really worry me about this whole situation are that I'm afraid I won't actually have motivation to get up to go walk and that I'll smell gross for the dick appointment I have afterwards. Ahh, priorities.

Hi, guys, I'm still kinda broken. ",5.074399350649352,5.816336732142863,6.029458874458874,79.03675324675326,68.58333333333333,9.204329004329004,30.74891774891775,9.339509955726095,2.5749690476190485,673,26,134,13,11,223,117,168,0.105,0.887,0.008,-0.9375,1,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,0,0,1,3,2,0,1,11,0,9,8,1,2,2,22,22,9,0,2,3,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,9,8,7,0,3,0,1,4,4,2,0,4,3,3,8,0,29,16,4,30,0,0,1,1,2,11,1,4,14,84,17,1,0.0,0.0,0.18605553571685124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20657878541401192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1229591860888994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19509160261860709,0.0,0.0,0.16886715145063574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09961138049937923,0.0,0.10835581876450752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18878223784276355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1912463729365633,0.0,0.3755211258899233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16209133710453513,0.0,0.18040601476478504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4153667646168783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15218207588545435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14500464761074766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1221409420565567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15193041957112752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2143085368290962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15226040470147734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12666526877654435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18624599362318264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11245553012679464,0.0,0.15293502991643085,0.2321711167379067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21286379833370134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1936233180025549,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,then_she_said,2019/03/03,"Borderline Personality Disorder? I've been seeing a new therapist and mentioned my ED for the first time yesterday since I b/p twice this week for the first time in months.  He asked if I had ever been diagnosed with borderline, and I was 8 years ago when I was in rehab but this was after going through most of my life being heavily medicated for various diagnoses like bipolar, OCD, and PTSD so I didn't take it seriously.  He went over the diagnosis criteria in the DSM with me and it was 8/9.  I don't know, I'm 29 and I really don't want this.  I know this sounds beyond immature, but why can't I just be a normal person who can get rid of stress and anxiety by going to yoga and doing face masks?

I know ED's are a common co-occuring with borderline- has anyone else here been diagnosed?  What's your experience been like? ",3.584881118881121,5.173668206060609,5.736969696969697,76.53776223776225,73.0,10.167832167832168,26.631701631701628,10.389873798559362,2.9810932400932413,654,23,128,21,13,229,109,165,0.068,0.878,0.054000000000000006,-0.2578,0,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,1,0,2,6,4,0,1,7,0,19,8,1,0,1,21,31,12,0,3,4,0,0,2,0,0,7,1,0,2,8,10,0,0,3,1,0,3,4,2,0,3,11,2,14,2,17,18,2,22,0,0,1,0,8,5,0,2,16,85,22,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13545128130840306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11689443029983143,0.0,0.0,0.10684391639370364,0.1565654723207732,0.0,0.0,0.1428508545649027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4652776888349572,0.0,0.0,0.17512630552142064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12764790370915716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13821971616030165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1494713624012033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2599495384420312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07983363883170236,0.0,0.17368375495233704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2519307909580388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10792978891058744,0.14930436185819096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15393367574416916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1219664743324564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1475787884180192,0.0,0.0,0.1497152058101945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2668446350389294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17861937579845946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09788997809108572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12176478413192947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12640081917907064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17503614909596255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11488938347738305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1774169004273774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17820216007403794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09012759517800374,0.0,0.12256993008083072,0.0,0.0,0.1416505826376749,0.13788159343604114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09840058812144188
EDAnonymous,rachelleeann17,2019/03/03,"I think I have an ED I didn’t think I could, because I’m not underweight. I’m actually overweight— A fact that was constantly brought to my attention of the past year or so. 

So, what do you do to lose weight when you’re overweight? You diet. 

Restricting my calories. 
Eating less and less. 
Going some days without eating at all

But damn does it feel good to see the scale dropping. I’ve lost 22lbs. Everyone has complimented my loss and praised me for dropping the weight to get healthy. 

I’m reaching a healthier weight, so that means it’s not bad for me, right? It doesn’t matter that I eat less than 800 calories a day(if that), because I’m not underweight. Who cares if I get dizzy or shaky because I haven’t eaten? I don’t need the food anyway since I’m still overweight. Its “healthy” to eat once a day, and to weigh everything that passed through my lips right? 

I had no idea that atypical Anorexia was a thing, until my therapist told me that my eating habits seemed “disordered.” I guess I’m one of you now? ",2.1483547619047627,4.582536345000001,2.8742857142857154,91.41833333333336,80.55,6.4095238095238125,25.023809523809533,7.62386473244151,1.2877309523809526,799,31,165,13,21,250,114,200,0.135,0.765,0.1,-0.7176,0,0,0,0,0,0,25.0,0,3,0,4,7,10,1,1,10,0,12,15,1,0,2,27,34,12,0,3,8,0,4,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,14,3,14,1,7,0,0,3,9,6,0,1,8,5,22,4,15,25,5,17,1,3,1,0,6,3,1,7,9,97,36,0,0.0,0.0,0.10958178064316898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09375997401830262,0.2053583324097005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11449020903663272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12134885247633352,0.0,0.08965683221973142,0.0,0.0,0.2172591077090324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1286975196493017,0.0,0.0982683709860239,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5745189231029212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10730078458283754,0.10092171793125712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056778720580123274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1357851550927501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11733692744362215,0.0,0.06381870615950619,0.09418605023791826,0.0,0.0,0.12370341205876825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12676514149329302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12562715629194107,0.12258108692378475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1223200092148268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08326384507710988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11958839227000165,0.07609265067562128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10719638557926292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19179523631622156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08948299144296852,0.102227340127855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09288993941573508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08967734394116311,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1303808411928028,0.07460248707301527,0.14390565499573854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10730078458283754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4102279078345411,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10824645578281084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07231301765635158
EDAnonymous,Daisyroads,2019/03/03,"My fear foods are just meals? The other day I was invited to a meal out with some friends. Even though I had looked up the menu which had the nutrition information online (thank god), and even though I had saved up my calories for the meal, it was the idea of eating the meal itself that made me feel anxious. This was weird to me because usually as long as I eat below my target I am fine and dont feel anxious about the food I plan.And it wasn't the lack of eating all day because I often do that too...

 Then I realised, I never really eat 'meals' more like snacks put together if that makes sense? I don't know why the idea of a meal makes me feel so out of control and afraid?  Is anyone else like this? ",3.5486301369863007,4.242247698630141,4.3286575342465765,90.03243835616442,72.01369863013699,7.4838356164383555,23.50410958904109,7.554174236665415,0.7613254794520552,548,13,123,6,10,176,86,146,0.061,0.8270000000000001,0.112,0.8078,0,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,0,1,9,9,0,2,11,0,13,13,0,4,2,25,22,10,0,2,2,0,3,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,10,6,13,1,7,0,0,1,4,3,0,0,8,4,16,6,16,14,4,12,0,0,1,0,2,5,0,3,8,84,26,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2895143560477779,0.0,0.08959565224321328,0.13129044764380315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15622100071822093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14371539032386232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16527420544952545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15017440707460372,0.0,0.0,0.5244603618204294,0.10704116412354564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16926520453061875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14418859453066826,0.19436819533935065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.309885056462402,0.0,0.0989975355608257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2892998354811385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0704201801965029,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12520152887459735,0.0,0.0,0.11339630467545846,0.10760194618536448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1212453566787923,0.17106351510745885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09882636238464827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12881204513787234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08208718597347797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11797038913310963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2517858875006952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1411236723093176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11562278614642454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,shiraruru,2019/03/03,"height and weight there’s been talk going around my class that the new school i’m at will be taking measurements during physical education next week, and usually i’d be okay with it considering i’m finally losing the mountains of binge weight i gained back in 2018, but like.

you know, i’ll just casually binge for three days straight starting from the moment i even heard about this stupid rumour which is completely counter productive to the issue at hand.

seriously. i dread height and weight sessions so much. no one normal gives a shit about weight but i keep thinking that everyone else will figure out what i weigh and associate me with ‘fat’ because it’s how my own brain sees things. as if other people around me need the reassurance of a concrete number to go ‘oh my bad you’re actually obese’. jesus christ.  and even if the numbers are hidden (don’t know how things work in this school yet) oh, i don’t know, people might deduce the scale number from the glint of the light reflected in my eyes or something. 

oh. i just hope i haven’t done enough damage water weight and actual weight wise to myself when the weigh-in comes. god knows i’d want to fucking die on the spot if 2018’s hw slid back onto the screen of the scale again. ",4.4089297511561325,6.252141071129709,4.473111649416432,85.39707553402336,71.34309623430963,7.709403215150847,23.45760845628716,8.371475516178862,1.2939322175732215,992,26,193,16,19,307,153,239,0.138,0.736,0.127,-0.8707,0,0,1,0,0,0,19.0,0,1,0,3,17,14,3,1,15,1,12,15,5,3,0,36,32,17,1,7,8,0,7,1,0,3,2,1,0,0,11,12,10,1,8,1,0,4,4,8,0,2,3,12,16,6,26,24,3,30,2,2,3,1,6,13,2,6,14,111,27,5,0.0,0.0,0.1878685561655034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1713807043012277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14803348088494667,0.08037171344336823,0.05867820541566601,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10745616906765663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08291805751278583,0.1009250635356328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06207868169255115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09990098486711473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09850572682924112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08041151173653753,0.0,0.0,0.09946062176430748,0.0,0.127155483520263,0.0,0.0,0.09197899211295583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10544633297624444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08898930667267116,0.0,0.09233979415633456,0.10941169336879487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0956062751010824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10046872358031213,0.0,0.0855588569598495,0.0,0.0,0.21160431849655464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04702697458013524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10768848767204374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1021149128977454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07076097336117453,0.07137435741422181,0.0,0.09296692802710103,0.10237186241889984,0.0,0.09431275938988218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06522715880929665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13346685944041248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19483720724185769,0.07670545370357854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09880782764404633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07410439156629926,0.0,0.0,0.068132165663013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07237431042302657,0.07736882699095322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12789956004092998,0.06167847307604817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10601498895421467,0.0,0.05677567720935513,0.0,0.07721265359514287,0.7033005330934518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07007723561358845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,nosleeptill8,2019/03/03,"Bad meal = good. Today I ate low-cal so that I could eat burritos for dinner with the fam (I normally binge on a couple, so I have to save most of my calories for that). This time though, I tried a new chicken mince from a different place, and it wasn’t very nice- the others didn’t notice, but it totally turned me off the meal- I stopped after 1.5, which saved me a heap of cals (and kinda ruined burritos for me!).  Little wins!",1.7860227272727265,3.6257010113636414,3.315909090909092,90.88136363636366,78.6590909090909,6.672727272727273,20.090909090909093,7.6454224807358475,0.5672681818181826,331,8,72,5,8,109,67,88,0.092,0.741,0.16699999999999998,0.779,1,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,0,0,1,3,7,0,0,7,0,4,5,0,0,1,12,6,6,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,7,3,5,1,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,3,0,10,5,11,2,2,9,0,1,0,0,0,4,0,2,5,47,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20930439077189067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2001447722524468,0.2773687581517693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2619035687512353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2565046213931461,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21025553889775972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25124368891704263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.242104907298728,0.0,0.0,0.24560972760677194,0.0,0.2853968349553521,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2619035687512353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20957676256615926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24628836971140314,0.0,0.14617147188847046,0.0,0.23761199304346176,0.0,0.0,0.1701928756817177,0.27266402763478426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2068343496915436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,justlc,2019/03/03,"How to get rid of the sick feeling after I eat I feel like whenever I eat I don’t know if I feel full or sick and it drives me mad honestly!! Every time after eating, no matter what amount I feel like I want to be sick. I’m just so tired of how I’ve been feeling as of late and I feel like EDNOS has been taking a huge toll on my body. I miss enjoying food and just life in general... ",0.8144850498338876,1.8918150000000007,3.3339867109634547,93.04174418604653,79.23255813953489,6.774750830564784,19.2624584717608,7.447530270364453,0.2083574750830568,294,6,73,4,7,103,58,86,0.209,0.5670000000000001,0.224,-0.5611,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,0,5,7,1,0,2,0,5,10,1,2,0,19,17,9,0,2,4,0,6,3,0,0,5,0,0,0,2,3,4,0,7,0,0,1,2,2,0,0,2,6,11,5,10,14,2,9,0,1,0,0,0,4,0,2,7,42,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19135618999155485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5288340959250247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14514722258482793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5226376740316705,0.3692150627110775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20831289404616612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09000540198068753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09467659850042404,0.0,0.1943311665391214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12168133857792522,0.2524912925774115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12952766896914747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10045362635356526,0.19800218466237887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10161093183601193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,SkittyTiddy,2019/03/03,"How many laxatives over time are enough to hurt me? I've been dealing with a binge disorder for years and have been trying to fight it with a low calorie diet. But now I have chronic constipation so yay. I got desperate and have taken 9 laxatives over the past almost 3 weeks. I know this isn't healthy and want to stop this habit before it turns into an addiction. I'm not exactly sure I'm doing this to purge either, because I'm genuinely constipated, but thought someone here might have an answer.

Just super worried and scared I might be doing irreversible damage to my body. Is it too late to stop it? Are my bowels already damaged by now?",4.187519999999999,6.010160912000001,5.144200000000001,80.44510000000002,71.88,8.200000000000001,28.5,8.841846274778883,2.3791600000000006,514,20,94,10,10,168,86,125,0.255,0.687,0.058,-0.9653,1,0,0,0,1,0,11.0,0,0,0,1,7,9,1,1,5,1,15,5,2,1,2,24,24,8,0,1,5,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,7,7,1,2,3,0,0,0,2,6,0,0,5,0,7,3,13,16,2,13,0,4,0,0,2,4,0,3,9,63,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2009187272571192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18455398303389986,0.0,0.20338421197400666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11235009887916614,0.0,0.1568292565730258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2047203616858247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19000948535501108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2112285226769713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19043545402668235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1474048648507473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19730140389695602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10128874058919034,0.0,0.2079031083471768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18685547990162735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3910351545289813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17593916513636207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18452060575722667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1561603077723754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3081730431324841,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17370447974327374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1463169077209157,0.10746923170168764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12513041946085607,0.20046999037511448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10870736252441107,0.0,0.14783767166507578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18716981014229306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11868582962195227
EDAnonymous,animperfectangel,2019/03/03,"Just struggling I’ve been eating at a deficit or restricting for a while and i’ve only lost 3lbs. So much of my social life revolves around lunch dates and grabbing a coffee and then getting home and being force-fed whatever was just baked and a big dinner. 

I’m underweight but i look HUGE. So many people tell me they envy my body but like if i could get rid of this stumpy, giant thighed sack that i’m stuck in i’d be so happy. 



i just want to be tiny tiny tiny where people worry, not envy me.",1.5997087378640769,3.647243970873788,2.9765145631067966,92.06787864077671,80.16504854368931,5.285048543689321,19.037864077669894,6.2581,-0.05924776699029133,391,9,82,3,10,127,74,103,0.16699999999999998,0.693,0.14,0.228,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,1,1,8,4,0,1,4,0,6,7,2,0,0,17,14,14,0,3,8,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,2,0,2,6,4,1,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,4,2,8,2,7,6,1,10,0,1,1,0,3,7,0,2,4,47,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2102878504640837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2623896247553425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18860421449654768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2417142955478681,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2468327118418133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2514629369293665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.236950138755164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1668507340713601,0.1154062406104244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19836716377570754,0.0,0.2578644486873296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2394922461602037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17365050570353013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1796576366073473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32753347693781504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2407987967023883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2469507450495629,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20646862497452875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13932998078958678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2398951225190492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ab515928,2019/03/04,Does diet coke/coke zero actually have calories? I know everyone has opinions about this but what is the real tea?,4.454285714285714,7.1407070476190535,5.92404761904762,71.29178571428572,73.76190476190476,8.009523809523811,29.54761904761905,8.841846274778883,3.0139333333333336,92,4,14,2,2,31,20,21,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,3,2,0,0,0,4,4,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,10,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.4745478643170161,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4255547346249191,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.46466992838101795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2672516877553887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5535032839656413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,punkrott,2019/03/04,"Weird ED Things god, there’s so many weird things i do bc of my ED. for example, i’m satisfied by making food, but not eating it. ( for example, i’ll make a sandwich and just give it to someone else or throw it away ). 

along with this, i love cooking super rich foods for other people; watching them eat and enjoy it has the same satisfying effect for me. ",3.84661971830986,4.8068407042253565,5.071943661971833,83.99101408450704,71.53521126760563,7.933521126760564,25.46760563380281,8.238735603445708,1.4716343661971831,274,8,56,4,5,91,57,71,0.032,0.642,0.326,0.9837,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,1,2,3,6,0,0,2,0,2,7,0,3,0,12,7,5,0,0,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,8,4,6,0,1,1,1,1,1,2,0,0,0,1,5,4,10,7,1,2,0,0,1,1,3,1,0,1,0,36,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2148302326550028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4679452017571093,0.19101309760854174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.552984499207823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21934807260093026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20637134558183998,0.0,0.3052598705930344,0.2318217199249311,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15852157047691132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19373984188666746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30381832922420904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Romaine_cookies,2019/03/04,struggling I'm struggling hard right now because all I want it to look and feel skinny but being at 169 and overweight it very disheartening to me because my mind is telling me that I'll never be skinny and my girlfriend today told me that if I ever have a concave stomach (which I want) that she'll leave me and I don't know what to do.,14.169857142857149,5.949272557142859,12.725714285714286,66.16428571428573,59.14285714285714,14.571428571428573,49.28571428571429,7.1686216300943375,4.536999999999999,269,10,55,1,2,87,47,70,0.199,0.784,0.017,-0.8895,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,2,1,0,7,4,3,0,3,14,14,6,0,3,2,0,2,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,7,4,3,0,2,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,1,3,11,0,4,10,1,6,0,1,1,0,4,2,0,1,4,39,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2969705079464404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22033375692912216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1231623179836826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2182015212551238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1338662317261431,0.0,0.0,0.2579180418113548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2045474325973012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2459482626876434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18786536317741634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2080175956906243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5092893391871415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21290130053070194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23088714215641865,0.23275292601990105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20098056200103856,0.28734180911681106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,tietack2,2019/03/04,"Too heavy for support. Hi all,

So I'm older (late 30s) and have had an ed since I was 8. My mom had an ed and thought it was great when I got one. Naturally I wasn't going to get any help from my parents. So I started treatment when I could afford it (a few years ago).

My outpatient teams have been lovely. So have the folks at iop and residential.

However since I am in a larger body, nobody in real life (aka not a paid professional) takes it seriously. I've been many different weights throughout the years due to what ed behaviors I was using. When I was thin I was congratulated, nobody asked how I did it. When I was heavier I was told I had to go to weight watchers or the gym etc. Nevermind the fact that I'm a gym fanatic and have gone regularly for at least the last decade.

My partner just told me that he would support me if my team thought I was going to lose weight. But since my team has me on a weight neutral plan he doesn't want to support me. He thinks he knows what my health is like (even though he is not a doctor or in the medical profession) and thinks his judgment is more applicable than my team's.  Also that he thinks that health at every size is bs and just an excuse for people to be lazy and in denial. 

He also told me I'm less attractive at this weight and he doesn't want to be intimate as much because of that :(

I educated him as best I could, showed him my meal plan, let him come to appointments with me, sent him articles, gave him books. I even sent him articles on mortality rates for eds. But none of it has done any good.

I haven't had one person in my real life who is not a paid professional support my recovery. Everyone has been in my crap telling me how they think I should be dieting or try exercising. I went on my first commercial diet when I was eight and I've been purging regularly since age nine. I know about nutrition and dieting and exercise and lax and diet pills and thinspiration and all sorts of stuff. I'm not ignorant but people sure treat me that way because I have the bad fortune to be in an overweight body.

My dietician is terrified I'm going to flip into restriction and lose a stack of weight again. I honestly don't see any downside to it. At least my partner would like how I look again if I did that. ",3.716753246753246,4.739790242424245,5.0925108225108255,83.48733766233768,71.90043290043292,8.890043290043291,27.41991341991342,9.259372276320047,2.108310822510824,1780,62,380,38,33,596,214,462,0.067,0.8440000000000001,0.08900000000000001,0.7268,5,0,0,0,0,0,44.0,0,0,1,10,22,20,1,0,19,0,50,25,3,4,4,61,93,40,1,9,14,2,7,2,2,3,10,0,0,3,18,19,12,2,8,10,2,9,10,6,0,5,34,9,57,14,42,49,11,44,0,2,2,1,38,17,1,6,19,251,75,8,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06507069951554699,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1174067836506919,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14975742466526834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06862544926221548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06129161219944827,0.08949620847465772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0770359082675292,0.0,0.0,0.1630768139167114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06323345873403881,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11721871404038728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07669448266399237,0.0,0.0751349708071228,0.0,0.07512064319117508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0818679867502523,0.09696899880638757,0.0,0.061848395416521686,0.07014334364111502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0624397869912109,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0383520234985635,0.0,0.16687510550015433,0.06157014148333001,0.05871012418533592,0.08093125668160572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1560559925140002,0.0,0.0,0.04920303101500936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08068491558387658,0.05983633986903447,0.08280606832033073,0.0,0.0,0.07506342695706637,0.10369878815670618,0.07172570959084848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06164322443084368,0.1642468660168796,0.0,0.0,0.0662525034290149,0.0,0.0,0.07442297403713856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07394962869982888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08597315752851319,0.0,0.0,0.05396244464994003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09948469558082107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08150956482755455,0.0,0.0,0.10178206535392743,0.06409598674972733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16710601948767576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05849571597469034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2428914556989145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051957711204806106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08403322413023062,0.0,0.3332046691140123,0.0691850407217077,0.0,0.05519277837440032,0.0,0.06416077915810375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1881444548520168,0.07212180876815585,0.11655359992911045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21043003092334508,0.0,0.04983839897922331,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06339990667739713,0.0,0.0,0.08659446565933543,0.0582669014183274,0.0,0.5363382424887939,0.0,0.06804883947927988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10429216983867433,0.0,0.0,0.09454314554950204
EDAnonymous,bakedeggwhites,2019/03/04,"I can’t even watch porn anymore Minor rant but everytime ya girl wants to get off my body dysmorphia ruins it for me. It feels so bad that other good-looking women are a trigger for me. 
Hey, body dysmorphia, I’m trying to masterbate here, please stop convincing me that my life is worthless and no man will ever love me unless I look like an underweight pornstar with G cups. :/ ",5.161643835616438,6.255895301369865,5.783452054794522,79.60230136986304,68.58904109589041,9.127671232876713,29.668493150684927,9.3871,2.6472158904109597,299,11,55,6,5,97,61,73,0.254,0.584,0.162,-0.8311,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,1,0,0,4,6,0,0,2,0,4,5,2,1,1,9,10,4,0,1,2,0,1,1,0,1,1,0,0,3,5,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,0,3,9,3,7,9,0,3,0,2,2,2,6,1,0,0,3,34,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2464874250248624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2075226482945426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5521494880785155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16416001074738434,0.22482096653448191,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1256705815560799,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1298532245811617,0.0,0.0,0.20846569959543887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17555295391143366,0.1214253359551222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4174262912737896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2243193558523526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2728250848588317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20779270147335505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16874407723642074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14659683598139933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,probwatchingcritrole,2019/03/04,"Accountability I guess? So I have been purge-free for a month (still using other forms of compensation though). The thing is, I'm going on vacation tomorrow and unknown calories are my biggest trigger. Like we're talking last time I went on vacation I was purging after every meal because I couldn't stand not having a number. It fucked with my head so much that I was ready to end it all once I got home.
I'm committed to not purging during this vacation. Even if I gain, I can fix it afterwards. I don't want to spend hours in the hotel bathroom after every meal and I don't want to fall asleep in the middle of the day and I don't want to ruin my teeth.
So yeah, I guess I'm just writing this to guilt myself into not purging. Thanks for listening to my rant.",1.9993118279569904,4.134558909677423,3.8180645161290334,86.09376344086023,79.25806451612901,6.455913978494625,23.23655913978495,7.554174236665415,1.1182172043010756,601,20,120,9,15,202,96,155,0.108,0.784,0.108,0.435,0,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,0,1,7,5,1,1,6,1,12,6,3,2,2,21,27,8,0,5,5,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,8,5,2,0,0,1,2,3,7,3,0,0,5,1,18,2,19,21,3,22,0,1,0,1,3,7,1,3,12,80,26,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1186914028439903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1255697198746855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1724523525095678,0.0,0.0,0.12860194523175167,0.0,0.3280976005912234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18000321537225256,0.0,0.0,0.11065630996625272,0.0,0.15572474229845418,0.0,0.4289827836510957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19982525672483747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19530670493647576,0.0,0.19174688807281068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15871195531409688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09512386319392636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15541303782759675,0.0,0.14313183464540186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2073562909646039,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15549302963462625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15649787765149545,0.0,0.17925977833820225,0.0,0.0,0.1293544860212631,0.0,0.1912983533992367,0.0,0.11353504803727872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1681640818526779,0.0,0.0,0.3445291856316789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18049507029090106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,bluesackskin,2019/03/04,"32 lbs in 21 days Might be my record but not low enough to satisfy me, I don’t feel enough pain, I can keep going I know it ",1.0868965517241378,1.2175213103448321,3.085689655172416,98.76577586206898,77.27586206896551,7.179310344827586,17.948275862068964,7.1686216300943375,-0.3805999999999998,94,1,27,1,2,32,26,29,0.136,0.6729999999999999,0.19,0.1952,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,0,0,6,8,1,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,2,2,0,0,0,1,5,0,2,6,2,4,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,1,1,16,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21972538279976925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7040749769429397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17226977841210278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19362948400943625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3028326646902585,0.0,0.0,0.1872415723726568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3614322616763052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3625322335406076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Pootties,2019/03/04,"ADHD Anybody with ADHD? I got diagnosed in October. Obviously it's hard to focus on planning food and impulse control. I find when my focus is on it it's easy but it'll swing the complete opposite way the next week and my mind is on something else completely and so the impulses are in there again. I'm on Adderall 30mg and 300mg Wellbutrin. I also have ASD. Regardless I always body check every time I go to the bathroom and I miss when I was skinny (bad time in life and needed help). People are nicer when you're thin. They'll deal with a lot of weirdness and it helped my nervousness because I felt more accepted... Anyway, any advice? Shit sucks ass.",1.1610678733031712,3.7590349076923104,3.0046606334841632,87.14092760180998,88.38461538461539,5.828054298642535,23.031674208144803,7.285733465282438,1.2735113122171944,518,20,98,9,17,172,90,130,0.16399999999999998,0.792,0.044,-0.9404,0,0,1,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,1,2,8,7,2,1,5,0,8,7,4,1,1,19,15,13,0,2,1,0,3,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,5,9,2,1,3,0,1,1,0,6,0,0,3,3,12,1,12,10,2,18,0,1,0,1,4,8,3,1,8,58,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4037012868487779,0.164124797757621,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13431446578727296,0.13975296452905386,0.0,0.0,0.11421593577555747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14023636273526488,0.1023845050301676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1865614103583744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3521976380168987,0.0,0.18837709444796533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17315540709966554,0.0,0.17047194831387655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14030580467743606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1415102932192654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1612642350130073,0.0,0.15350887067535582,0.0,0.20309323315228275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09545334584385387,0.0,0.13432986955368956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1504557129596493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22515492275327856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11863238989234925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1427903054524274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16958782414074286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12453735086026282,0.0,0.0,0.17862326205322496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11643964096155958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17240456579711455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12930084342783338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19587315371362046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13331576751759902,0.13472428586396235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,dekopacchi,2019/03/04,"I gave in I'm on my phone so sorry if the post is messy or something 
I've always been a lurker as well, but I guess I really need to rant, you can ignore this

I've always told myself that I wouldn't purge, that I would have enough self-control and that it wasn't THAT bad, I mean I just restrict to 1000 calories and occasionally binge and c/s so what's wrong with that hahaha 

Well guess what
I did 

I can't believe I gave in just because my sister forced me to eat some chicken and toasts she made?? But at the same time eating this really made me feel like a monster... She was practically force-feeding me and it was the first time she's done something like this, she usually never comments on my eating habits, it was so out of the blue and it fucked me up

I'm telling myself this is the one and only time I do this, but what if another shitty day like that happens? Will I give in as well? 

At least I guess I realise how bad it is but... I'll probably think the opposite by tomorrow 
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EDAnonymous,littlestpeach,2019/03/04,"Does anyone have experience with an IUD? I’ve been thinking about getting an IUD inserted, but I’m worried about any potential side effects (specifically increased appetite/weight gain)

If any of you have/had an IUD, what was your experience like with it? What type of IUD did you get and how did it affect your appetite, weight, periods, mood, skin, libido, etc.?

I really want to get it but I’m terrified about it increasing my appetite 🙃 pls help ",5.688594377510044,7.279958361445786,6.1543975903614445,75.57729919678718,67.79518072289156,9.870682730923695,33.110441767068274,10.125756701596842,3.554318875502008,356,16,63,9,6,115,55,83,0.092,0.7609999999999999,0.147,0.4641,0,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,4,0,2,4,2,0,0,3,0,5,2,1,3,0,11,12,5,0,2,3,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,6,3,1,0,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,4,2,6,1,8,8,3,4,0,0,0,0,5,1,0,1,2,34,12,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3083741427046362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1585378659153602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1984166782219663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2528686335801946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4435792249177539,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3553778770706383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15197519463529513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11077090628927563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14525177235057485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1452821582117796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1337337405992566,0.0,0.0,0.5522024904503813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2302596462310512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,porkpokets,2019/03/04,"mental break down + the flu made my 3 year recovery go down the drain! Ya I had a mental breakdown over figuring out I was a victim of covert incest via my Nmom, this made me lose my appetite for like 3 days and now I have the flu which is making me not wanna eat at all.

Weighed myself alone for the first time in years and I lost 10 pounds.. now I don't wanna stop watching that number drop. :/

Last night was again, the first time in years, where I hid food and pretended to have already eaten it.. lying to my sweet husbands face. 

But I just can't do this.

I'm not looking for anything.. just wanted to share this with people who know what it's like. No one in my real life would understand.. my husband believes I'm fine and recovered still and I can't break his heart like this.",2.1360869565217366,3.8675645652173927,3.1136335403726747,93.2221273291926,77.26086956521739,5.8422360248447225,20.816770186335408,6.5431188927421005,0.15581242236024906,609,15,133,5,14,194,105,161,0.156,0.7390000000000001,0.105,-0.8128,0,1,0,0,0,0,21.0,0,1,0,4,7,9,1,0,7,0,11,10,2,3,1,25,23,6,0,4,5,2,0,3,0,1,3,0,0,0,10,7,4,1,3,1,0,1,6,3,0,3,7,3,19,6,18,15,1,28,0,2,2,1,6,9,0,0,18,85,29,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16775678132634475,0.17874293994253285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13329125073881512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18248984730596632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1044601827471298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16574039817761893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27555093321293395,0.19586026470750825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09205386754651908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19194061761648407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08901697481957101,0.1320308739464438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11440741243100687,0.2373977454779779,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13601782482509314,0.18120808617837508,0.1768143514408995,0.0,0.0,0.3065284647766902,0.10811926761885916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3264644923371009,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1520021395420067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10975814472092373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11229275612584312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18436249478961755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12935308215824445,0.13541797371070555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1888973213926747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1686212153659981,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09553678420965774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11506207063892485,0.0,0.0,0.31291889242894
EDAnonymous,pinkplease,2019/03/04,"My mom was the only reason I kept my eating under control. Now that she’s gone, I’m spiraling. I’m only 22 and my mom died suddenly in December. When she left me, she took my soul with her. I’m not the same person I was before. The only reason I ever kept my eating under control was because I knew it would break her heart if she found out what I was doing. I never wanted her to worry about me. 

I lost about 5 pounds and became officially underweight by January. I just couldn’t eat because of how upset I was. Eventually, I gained my appetite back, but then I really started spiraling. I got scared of gaining my weight back and started restricting on purpose. 

Last Monday, I found out that we are going to have to sell my home because my stepfather can’t afford the mortgage and bills on one income. This is the home I’ve lived in since I was four. This is the home my mom died in. I have so many memories attached to this home. Like learning how to read, my mom doing my makeup for dance recitals, Christmas mornings, Easter egg hunts. Losing my home means losing her again and for good. I was out of town when I found this out and just began bingeing on food and alcohol in order to ignore my problems. 

My life is falling apart around me and there’s nothing I can do about it. I pretend I’m fine to everyone but I’m not. I just want my mom to give me a hug and tell me it’s all going to be okay, but that’s the one thing I can’t have. I hate the fact that I’m spiraling and I hate the fact that my eating disorder is real and tangible now and not something I can just pretend I have a handle on. I’m scared of what’s going to happen to me and I’m scared of people finding out about my eating habits. I just don’t know what to do anymore.",2.2991666666666646,3.810125162087914,4.118923076923078,87.14274358974359,76.22527472527473,6.721465201465203,23.397069597069606,7.42949916751922,0.9580065201465208,1365,41,285,17,30,462,164,364,0.16399999999999998,0.778,0.057,-0.9898,3,0,2,0,0,0,33.0,1,0,0,7,22,16,2,4,11,1,28,12,1,6,5,63,60,23,2,6,12,5,1,1,0,1,2,0,5,1,16,21,9,6,10,4,2,7,8,11,0,3,18,1,59,5,41,39,2,44,1,3,0,1,17,19,0,1,17,199,75,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0795206967385975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07379383110678082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0662398730550518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11443200705350424,0.0,0.13607728689223714,0.0,0.06331666209075107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.166912261561251,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15444979252836286,0.0,0.08527927305476163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38069541862136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06730728933549192,0.0,0.07110108207496918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06800856773277933,0.0,0.08997577691856179,0.24475720663144676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07137998723700427,0.12686521581943302,0.06241082126583555,0.05951175324191951,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06579971981048799,0.0,0.0,0.14692715904554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08817513964898517,0.0,0.0,0.3731919622764823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.040893294412176484,0.06065334629414794,0.0,0.0,0.08084570292718657,0.0,0.05255734660674925,0.03635252683844865,0.0,0.06570459696050558,0.0,0.0,0.1664894955816934,0.08122632053522742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07543914661884189,0.0,0.08105332172925657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.43573518258231536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05738888371774657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07139753656044963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10084306134430007,0.16977441658153053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051585899722119605,0.06497115446742416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0711994578222222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0744292343723539,0.08469384399184994,0.047668373669501315,0.15300989156282754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22348946425192392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06155197496471501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05728375910447639,0.0,0.0,0.10533428539426094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0650368315524713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04943409852031685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08267124598112545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08777682799930797,0.0,0.0,0.09061023569642468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07556605113951638,0.0,0.052858088469635515,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,adorablenari221,2019/03/04,I cant eat... I finally get the courage to eat something sort of high in calories (a burrito with 540 calories) and my roommate got it and said it is bean and cheese as she knows I am vegetarian.. I took a few bites and it tasted meh then I took a bite and it tasted really weird.... it had meat in it and my roommate shrugs and says meat wont kill you. I just started bawling and was sick for the rest of the night I couldnt leave the bathroom. Now I'm afraid to even eat anything for fear of finding meat :(... I know it is silly,1.823918650793651,3.083607919642862,3.48654761904762,92.23067460317465,76.94642857142857,6.406349206349208,24.94444444444445,6.937597516519254,0.7443718253968252,405,14,95,4,9,135,69,112,0.07200000000000001,0.8440000000000001,0.084,0.0992,0,0,1,0,0,0,18.0,0,1,0,0,3,6,1,2,7,0,8,6,0,0,0,15,17,10,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,7,9,5,0,3,0,0,2,3,4,0,0,6,4,12,2,11,9,2,10,0,0,0,0,4,3,0,1,5,59,19,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1547438216705227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5772464991596841,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1242009931957474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21160127620876054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20599252068294852,0.17186840063542097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09824499516797024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15039560734299465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1986783379243752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20804233029063668,0.0,0.20668763779733676,0.0,0.0,0.1991109711535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17646613595753918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.120465515104798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1788724803284692,0.1495397807651249,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1447651139832164,0.0,0.0,0.13309819458277514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41784661253688304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,WhoreBabyy,2019/03/04,"Just How I'm Feel'in </3 Lies flow through my mouth like vomit.

"" I love you"".

At the back of my throat.

My fingers know when to to do the damage.

Putrid kisse's and acidic affection.

Lingering smells of the boys on my lips.

Whom had the pleasure of drinking bile like liquor.

I used to be so pretty.

Before I purged my qualities.

And drown my body.

Puss and sores.

To match my personality.",0.3330769230769235,2.6576178947368447,1.2847368421052645,96.26431174089069,100.31578947368422,4.443724696356276,17.688259109311733,6.297961479604792,-0.0968651821862352,304,9,64,4,13,94,56,76,0.105,0.6729999999999999,0.222,0.8937,0,0,1,0,0,0,17.0,0,1,0,0,5,6,0,0,4,0,3,12,5,3,0,8,7,6,1,0,1,0,1,2,0,0,3,0,0,2,1,3,2,0,1,2,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,3,11,5,10,5,0,5,0,1,0,2,5,2,0,0,4,37,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2656383057882966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2939620003010709,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3837294669282679,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3384204155512304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1746755409912563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18985641736884884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33754974291323925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31179218201385145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3016433573478559,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3514581923289894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2983675215171281,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,kurotokyo,2019/03/04,"I'm afraid to start caring about my weight again I've probably been binge eating my whole life, but for about 6 years (high school through college) I started going through restricting/binging cycles. This past two years now I've not (purposefully) restricted. I still binge eat though. I'm overweight and unhealthy but for the first time my weight has actually stayed stable instead of going between the same 30 pound weight loss/gain.  I am in therapy, overall hopefully getting better, and I don't think I hate myself for being fat anymore— but I don't like being so unhealthy and out of shape.

But I'm also terrified about caring about my body again. I don't want to end up in a binge/restrict cycle. I just don't want to fall back into hell hole. 

Or is it my depression/anxiety thats just getting in the way of me wanting to make a change in my life? Making me want to stay the way I am (garbage and treating myself like garbage) instead of actually caring and trying to do something?

God I really hate eating disorders and mental illness. I can't even choose to live healthier without being terrified of going over the deep end again.",5.576651305683567,6.838528078341013,5.875963133640552,78.7015637480799,67.7557603686636,8.551643625192012,31.517357910906306,8.841846274778883,2.6667298924731178,911,37,161,15,15,291,123,217,0.177,0.682,0.141,-0.868,0,0,1,0,0,0,25.0,0,0,0,2,18,12,3,1,7,0,14,12,2,2,0,28,37,14,0,5,9,0,3,2,0,0,5,0,0,0,3,8,8,1,2,0,0,4,7,4,0,2,1,3,21,8,31,33,2,34,1,0,0,0,0,11,1,2,17,106,24,2,0.0,0.0,0.20496506726152194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08398295061974569,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08033857243739878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08075244997308306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09287999071863222,0.0,0.11665145389843848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32121890963416244,0.0,0.1110952434055799,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12035986099371042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3223792560012977,0.0,0.0,0.1860297621459394,0.0,0.0,0.06936347615681432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08932835709377514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10973526385766733,0.0,0.17905264894974904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2073672981190424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11095740702953376,0.0,0.10430668658279256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14835480428461256,0.10261309507730386,0.0,0.09273292177028772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14020081781557986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10583356191136904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10025167619785028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11322729283475895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06727729521068045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10628394155590823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08084807756961764,0.0,0.0,0.148664728178252,0.2238706802916844,0.08386760428993327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12009736977664845,0.0,0.0,0.06729136924586376,0.10317976723395368,0.0,0.06123690884538952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07130040820966871,0.0,0.10258744106453148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24776962649954584,0.16671698695502565,0.0,0.3836513251945482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11724897777136807,0.0,0.10123371768611722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13525644902669925
EDAnonymous,foggyandfatigued,2019/03/04,"Please help: What’s happening with my body? What to do next? hi, first off I want to give a big hug to everyone contributing to this reddit and its predecessor. reading the supportive messages and relatable posts for the past few months provided a lot of comfort when I was feeling isolated with my ED. 

to preface, I have PCOS and insulin resistance so weight loss has always been a gargantuan challenge for me. I lost ~20 lbs slowly & in a relatively healthy way over the course of a year. once I hit about 123 lbs in mid August, I had a big life shift, and started c/s basically every day. I’d eat a quest bar and maybe some veg, eggs, and fat free redid whip w jello and avg btwn 400 and 600 calories of real food per day - everything else was c/s. I’d have at least 1 or 2 days per week where I’d eat around maintenance (1300 - 1500 cal). 

I dropped quickly at first, then only got down to my lw of ~114 by mid November. 9 lbs over 3 months isn’t a lot and I was far from underweight, but I was finally starting to feel slim and comfortable in clothes for once in my life. looking back i realize a lot of the loss was probably muscle from being a dumbass and not keeping up w protein.

during December I had a few moments of b/p that I logged and further compensated w fasting. I gained maybe about 2 - 3 lbs but my body more or less looked and felt the same. then January rolled around and oh ho ho........ it was stress 24/7 for the entirety of the month. I already had poor sleep and it was getting even worse. I never lost my period during restriction but I started spotting despite being on BC. had more b/p incidents (that I compensated for w fasting again). I also started weight training for the first time & began eating ~1000 cal mostly protein, low carb on top of c/s. when I saw the scale go up I assumed it was the water weight from the workouts but halfway thru the month I noticed I had a gut. none of my clothes fit. I gained close to 10 lbs and a lot of the fat went to places it didn’t exist before (eg. back, love handles, thighs). my stomach has always been my stressful area and it’s horrifying to see all the fat pile on so agggressively around my belly. I ffreaked out, kept my protein high but cut my intake to 600 - 800 cal per day. after 4 weeks, I either maintained or gained. I also started getting IBS-like symptoms. I’m stuck now at 123 and the weight will not budge. I’m scared to eat more. I’ve read about reverse dieting and have been trying that for the past 2 weeks w no avail. 

I have no clue if my metabolism slammed the breaks or if I royally screwed up my hormones (that were already screwed from PCOS). I’m just so miserable and lost. basically went broke from all the c/s but told myself it was worth it cuz I was finally normal-looking. now it’s torture getting dressed in the morning and I spend the entire day distracted by how my stomach is hanging over my pants and my face is now wide and puffy. 

has this happened to anyone else? I was never  UW so I’m pretty sure it’s fat and not edema. I want to fix this but I’m just so scared of gaining more weight. I don’t think I could handle it after gaining 10 in one month and looking like this. I’m sorry for writing this novel but I’m reaching into the dark rn for anyone who’s gone through something similar. thank you if you’ve even read this far <3",2.3930973451327446,4.267711362831862,3.8193598820059016,87.80620796460177,76.96460176991152,6.820884955752213,26.344247787610627,7.7348632917899725,1.4645812389380533,2616,102,542,39,60,862,325,678,0.121,0.764,0.115,-0.9093,0,0,1,0,0,0,91.0,0,1,0,15,28,27,4,6,34,0,37,36,12,2,5,82,83,53,0,6,21,0,8,1,0,1,8,0,0,0,24,33,18,3,6,6,4,5,11,17,0,4,34,13,54,11,75,44,19,99,0,8,5,6,9,41,2,14,50,319,78,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13663781754188412,0.09901835167654477,0.10302768289675003,0.13415829828956366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08657742286251426,0.06343381804180878,0.0,0.16533831297703827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09520949706067304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052680606662805066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13753547119336504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04942986890968716,0.0,0.0,0.19963321901249828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2533963723858822,0.1034352437645431,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08178156429274391,0.0,0.05216160410461132,0.059157384713721575,0.05564045889170504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0626068230529695,0.0,0.05944303408337714,0.1356381309085518,0.0,0.15798111304962478,0.07486147179131603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09703581085024016,0.05938943884690277,0.035184717119148785,0.0,0.049514853765632034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1094931110831709,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04149677622624683,0.06541101181425224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05502819829363138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08745732363030911,0.03024595903098185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20795426926367327,0.0,0.2027452980694146,0.21053369938101546,0.05587593391114095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12439325768685795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2470787149083143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0954971759445825,0.0,0.06584168308278296,0.0,0.060658374944880876,0.0,0.07048461960969463,0.0,0.13186364957751648,0.0419516243744647,0.047085127179318384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1181996542949266,0.0,0.0,0.06468247421433479,0.0679582747237709,0.0,0.0,0.05929239249039415,0.06298443597996069,0.06674914264478858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18577940264272685,0.07046680817919122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12396484770113884,0.0,0.04933402650042727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061954424354731384,0.0,0.0,0.04766112239499458,0.0,0.06930285608784738,0.21910007072898474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14183473620216608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07025440967014253,0.058349172679152524,0.06434789754792622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05699814672651288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.039669244862281454,0.0,0.0,0.03610005203967944,0.0,0.0,0.059157384713721575,0.0,0.042032631877584034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07303190656690832,0.04914104923364458,0.14898071446202965,0.3769467647793675,0.0,0.11478185006391445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06309128755868068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03986782596174195
EDAnonymous,kano2018,2019/03/04,"I want my period back I am at my lowest weight (bmi 15.7) but have been trying to maintain for 3 months now. I last had my period when I was 4lb heavier. That’s nothing to regular people, but deciding to gain that weight back has been really tough for me. I have 1400 calories a day and I’m going to keep planning days around that, but I’m going to have snacks here and there to try and get my period back. 


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EDAnonymous,SanforizedJeans,2019/03/04,"Got that knowing look from the grocery store cashier A*ppar*ently, buying four things of rice cakes, shiritaki noodles, coke zero, white monster, miso soup, and two grocery bags of tofu is a bit of a tell to anyone else with a restrictive ED. The cashier checking me out gave me that look of complete recognition while ringing me up and said ""I never can get used to the flavor of these; they taste so bad without sauce"" while scanning the shiritaki. I've never felt more understood by a stranger lmao.",10.700054945054944,8.808768868131871,9.102280219780225,70.3239697802198,58.12087912087912,11.737362637362635,43.62912087912088,10.125756701596842,4.469129670329671,401,19,68,6,4,122,69,91,0.049,0.909,0.042,-0.1509,1,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,8,0,2,2,0,1,2,12,12,5,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,4,4,2,1,3,0,3,0,3,1,0,3,5,9,5,0,13,7,2,6,0,0,4,0,4,2,0,0,4,43,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1681039485472806,0.2463338577585401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20073671048249786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2624712106880055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2520708392468856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20083611085747244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2308363638616186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12560705716790388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19228205586488645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1321259464277169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4037765577291598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3708461587472228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2286899788021739,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21013354499928927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1597212243886377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2348507876413373,0.0,0.0,0.207641604693058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2317517435637188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,NeuntyNeun,2019/03/04,"I hit my lowest weight yet, but surprise sur-fucking-prise I don’t feel any better. I think I feel worse. I plateaued recently and was having a ‘dear god this is it I’m finally gonna have to just end it all huh?’ moment, ended up not checking my weight for over a week and ended up having lost more than I’d thought. I was practically skipping when I found out but now I feel even worse because I just keep eating too much, y’know? At least lent is here in two days...",1.5849713631156952,3.457962938144334,2.9679725085910644,92.9800916380298,79.41237113402062,5.5482245131729675,21.087056128293238,6.42735559955562,0.16570423825887734,363,10,80,3,9,118,72,97,0.14,0.764,0.096,-0.644,1,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,2,8,4,0,0,2,0,8,3,0,0,1,16,19,5,0,0,5,0,5,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,3,3,1,6,0,1,0,2,1,0,1,5,5,11,3,9,12,4,17,0,1,0,0,0,6,0,0,11,51,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12058788843778545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10809639816458852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15683060279689146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.114360721263285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1814489595900821,0.0,0.0,0.4711751074118699,0.0,0.0,0.1171222745996544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26898434573251834,0.0,0.0,0.19425217103440492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19442901211454608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15761566331014204,0.0,0.0,0.09745383530186796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19357248119534629,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13035515140211187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17508821760329707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11362346098662947,0.0,0.14077718553876942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17322191891986846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1422403716548678,0.4318710494302202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3614210694157232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,billiedove,2019/03/04,"Weighted myself for the first time in two months So, remember, when the Dreaded Holidays happened? Right. I started eating. Eating a lot. And I’ve never stopped. And I’ve been watching myself balloon. My thighs didn’t use to touch when I was laying on my side - now they squash against eachother, like a goddamn memory foam plushie. My stomach used to be flat and now it protrudes. I could still sort of fit into my clothes, but less comfortably - I swear they got tighter? So I couldn’t bear to weight myself - to see the evidence of all my hard work, destroyed. 

Finally, yesterday, I was drunk, and I had the courage to step on the scale. I lost 5 pounds since the holidays. 

I always thought I was lucid about my body, that I could properly see it, and here I am, inventing weight variations that aren’t there and feeling anguish over them. Inventing thighs that are getting bigger? Dammit, guys. I’m happy I didn’t gain weight but I always thought I didn’t have body dysmorphia and now I doubt. 

Just wanted to vent, thanks for listening, much love <3",3.0282251082251115,5.709011404040407,3.224516594516597,88.7377272727273,78.89898989898991,6.5997113997114,27.10533910533911,7.793537801064563,1.7859520923520922,830,35,156,14,21,254,122,198,0.116,0.6970000000000001,0.187,0.9349,1,0,0,0,0,0,35.0,0,0,3,4,12,11,1,3,8,0,16,13,5,2,2,27,33,13,0,4,3,0,7,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,5,8,7,1,4,3,0,1,6,5,0,2,12,11,28,6,17,17,4,24,0,1,3,1,6,9,0,3,15,101,33,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20594262975135527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27492044686707057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19761130028960094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2532577353549724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06257256990253553,0.0,0.0,0.13556392121261074,0.0,0.10526311944428604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06465514738267149,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09897552686366128,0.0,0.0,0.12253362366592728,0.10943320572745203,0.13173596908716914,0.11085720182194624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06045882200839677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1350895820106317,0.10520925658703544,0.11169072666620446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09877741374577444,0.0,0.09097172700944467,0.0,0.09544492797903917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1401865343591772,0.10568326222175713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19722814039995326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10236867206493776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08759207909170286,0.0,0.09882825493599676,0.1034619493057416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11393392433735833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1964900282687776,0.07216060229815066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12088741373495986,0.0,0.0,0.2137634438208073,0.0,0.0,0.07299194969383717,0.0,0.0,0.6027848503026153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09009270004352136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,makemedizzy,2019/03/04,"gah i feel bad for my girlfriend i relapsed into this eating disorder in january of last year and lost 30kg from it, but i’ve been with my girlfriend since may of that year and i feel super super bad for her because she knows im starving myself.. is there anything i can do to help her not worry? i dont want her to baby me especially since i have a tendency to freak the fuck out at times..",2.9079919678714887,3.8087210240963887,4.732710843373496,85.77007028112452,73.69879518072291,7.461044176706826,25.88152610441768,7.793537801064563,1.3328730923694785,307,10,66,4,6,105,61,83,0.225,0.5920000000000001,0.183,-0.493,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,3,1,7,1,0,2,0,7,2,0,0,0,12,13,3,0,1,2,0,2,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,3,5,1,0,3,0,0,0,2,5,0,0,2,2,14,2,13,10,0,8,0,1,0,1,7,4,1,1,4,44,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18713182149081573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3797410266333613,0.1386216680651524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2606214898654564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2665125266599159,0.0,0.0,0.2326882104690093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22996177067856136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21022875603543295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15242223887268674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24563233101198184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12497375896209165,0.18536233847063344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2482352852678085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3762172646374264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13259947532570315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13412712649504832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23093696892307636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29287784954397383
EDAnonymous,gayprincess96,2019/03/04,"Don’t you just love the mood swings Is my body gonna get 999 calories today or is it gonna get 0, are we gonna be exercising for hours today or are we gonna be laid on the fucking floor forever, are we gonna like our friends today and appreciate them for who they are or is every little bit of shit that comes out their fucking face holes just cutting us up like tiny little stabby fucking knives, like a personal attack that you have to mental gymnastics your way into convincing yourself everyone thinks you’re so fat and stupid you’re incapable of talking so you delete messager or are we gonna wake up feeling #fierce god damn I don’t care I care more than I want to and I want some cheesy garlic flatbread but my fatass has been pacing up and down my own hallway and the oven isn’t en route ",3.2294606003752326,4.763770079268298,4.151951219512196,87.76453095684806,73.8170731707317,6.997373358348968,24.81050656660413,7.61054688173877,1.1279508442776738,639,20,132,8,13,206,103,164,0.07,0.7879999999999999,0.142,0.7736,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,6,4,3,0,4,17,8,0,4,0,16,10,5,0,0,24,35,12,0,2,7,0,1,3,1,6,2,0,1,1,4,12,1,0,2,1,0,1,3,8,0,0,1,1,20,8,14,26,4,16,0,0,0,4,19,10,5,5,7,75,24,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17294051513316386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1659624546873164,0.1688558671122066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3099815487731359,0.0,0.0,0.1309486032820499,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12808030996839576,0.1452581127654252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07686402134680469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11744743536888445,0.4216099278746641,0.15884451082457735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14970545847080985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22280249281887496,0.3047205869376775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13720066815352888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15319670067444258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13273479118331755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15604257276922165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12218496351622385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09740592271632284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4322811030342476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18285692133532394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17932633382809648,0.12066348276779655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,JaimeRustic,2019/03/04,"Literally can’t afford eat- living my old ED dream But it’s turned into an actual nightmare. Back at my worst, 5’6 and 90lbs, I fantasised about not being able to afford food so I had no excuse to binge, but now as a very poor university student in A LOT of debt, I literally can’t afford to eat and it’s actually hell.

I wish I could go back in time and backhand 16 year old me for wishing for such a stupid thing. And of course not eating has caused a massive relapse into my ED, making me hyper aware of calories and just ugh

Sorry for the rant, am very hangry
",3.8073275862068985,4.6136421465517286,5.425344827586208,81.9916379310345,71.5,7.8689655172413815,24.84482758620689,8.07648339933343,1.3267275862068963,443,12,91,6,8,151,81,116,0.241,0.6920000000000001,0.067,-0.9769,4,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,0,7,4,2,0,6,0,7,4,0,2,0,18,12,9,0,3,5,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,7,4,0,0,1,2,1,5,4,0,0,1,0,10,0,16,9,2,13,1,0,0,0,1,5,1,1,7,60,13,1,0.16206578559268792,0.0,0.31630565693566776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24923717079369614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1664862048789449,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12939634238276504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4975012752871433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19597059124080413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09210572075981914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14310705786117744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.137782535383566,0.0,0.0,0.10818017034456867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34012155915997994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18141937844972014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10766930663183988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09450186287762014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17628103636298162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26744249203217785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3727353104823661,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10436505238619093
EDAnonymous,imokayjustfine,2019/03/04,"Science side of ED Reddit, why hasn’t my period come back? First post since the disappearance of r/proED (RIP), and I’m sorry it’s a dumb question that I might delete and could probably Google (maybe at least), but I guess it’s also? Kind of a vent? 

Don’t get me wrong; I don’t miss menstruating really.....but I’m also just kind of mystified and am wondering if I should be worried or something (???). Gah. :/ I don’t know. :/ :/

Anyway. I just realized that in May, it will be a full year since I last had a period. 

And I’m...fat...??! Like legitimately nowhere NEAR being underweight, have been up and down in a “”normal”” range for so long, have been binging like CRA Z Y and purging pretty damn inconsistently, have most recently gained weight back etc—have even aimed for Reasonable Calorie Goals on days when I’m not fasting and don’t end up bingeing, have also been fasting way less in general!!!!!

I mean, I’m definitely not starving. I’ve gained some muscle on top of all the fat, for fuck’s sake! I take a multivitamin and shit.

So why?? Do I still??? Not have a period?? Am I alone in this???! 

It was always super regular before it up and vanished, never to be seen again. 

I guess I don’t really care if I’ve damaged my reproductive health. I have two kids and don’t plan on ever having more. 

I’m just sort of...shocked, I guess, and morbidly curious. Have any of you experienced something similar?! Or if this actually makes sense to you, can you explain it to me like I’m five?",1.187659187386295,3.635291061855675,3.4001748534465364,85.92923741661616,85.11683848797252,6.997412573276732,21.61724277339802,8.124751697461798,1.3490937133616336,1133,38,234,26,34,386,166,291,0.119,0.732,0.149,0.9239,0,1,2,0,0,0,82.0,0,3,0,7,16,14,4,0,9,0,33,5,2,2,3,47,54,23,0,6,12,0,1,3,0,4,2,1,0,1,10,12,2,0,7,0,0,2,11,7,0,3,6,4,22,7,25,39,7,39,0,2,1,1,6,16,4,15,22,146,32,1,0.0,0.0,0.11567153326117795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12276489016157102,0.0,0.28437343384730424,0.09862931288530732,0.0,0.0,0.0806068000350267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18228978874853616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1008632222223355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12085273614766387,0.0,0.0,0.10210605801529683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09463930216617628,0.0,0.0,0.07644425912215046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1049854402368822,0.0,0.1321961121860477,0.07829021546531699,0.10722027752660744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10082447869572904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10958225002388296,0.061928827154924676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3917338245051321,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1259954978288398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2468686628950408,0.0651428755954785,0.09662056943283734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17372834598866807,0.0,0.0,0.10489835936016544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07912198784833444,0.0,0.11908276676973376,0.12911765926193167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12574524215013622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09142029191649988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11613759862091713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11352226442895187,0.12059111626139675,0.12779909029569242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1327845741102598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07593555325947231,0.12187211221587207,0.11703746642947185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1216728669775309,0.19610416355149454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1825056575472739,0.0,0.13268847526705546,0.0,0.0,0.09466095377882486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08912239095484299,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11578994176733813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09408632290089697,0.0,0.14434178993149555,0.0,0.0,0.2139159755888609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12854445324261818,0.0,0.12037645632085148,0.0,0.0,0.1295977027591918,0.0,0.07633164544287083
EDAnonymous,lilykeene,2019/03/04,anyone else suck at purging certain foods? i never really have trouble getting things up but popcorn is an ABSOLUTE BIIITCH for me. like i can’t get any of it up & i just end up gagging and spitting no matter how long i persist. anyone else have foods that they just can’t purge?? ,4.41,5.605222857142858,5.462857142857144,80.83214285714288,70.42857142857143,7.742857142857144,31.857142857142854,8.07648339933343,2.4243714285714293,224,10,41,3,4,74,44,56,0.083,0.772,0.14400000000000002,0.3553,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,1,1,3,4,1,0,1,0,5,3,1,1,2,8,8,3,0,0,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,0,0,0,6,2,6,8,0,7,0,0,0,0,1,4,1,0,4,28,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2377084225960982,0.0,0.14919237754167458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30680446731165184,0.4495809209929215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3665435377399257,0.0,0.19431397139439435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5305732884097069,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2292439088909572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10718262385294736,0.0,0.0,0.19415279636908456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16920670093155665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14054652617149233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14575262981743184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Fearae,2019/03/04,So I just found out that the mirror I've had since I was 5 is basically a funhouse mirror. So I had a really shitty day today which involved me desperately wrapping my waist with Saran wrap to look thinner. I was texting my partner about how I look so disgusting in my mirror and how I look especially bloated today and they told me that my mirror is very distorted and stretches things in weird ways. They are are very good at noticing if a reflection is distorted and assumed that I noticed how bad my mirror was. I've had the same one since I was 5 and I can't believe I've never noticed. Now that they've told me it just seems so obvious. The edge between my walls doesn't even look straight in it.  So basically my mirror has been making me look fatter than I am and making my dysmorphia a lot worse. I'm glad that I know now but wow that's so frustrating. ,4.960831168831168,5.354840885714289,6.123116883116883,79.49870129870129,68.71428571428571,9.106493506493504,30.766233766233768,9.095868883498916,2.497571428571429,685,26,136,12,11,230,92,175,0.132,0.812,0.055,-0.8414,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,2,0,15,7,2,0,7,0,17,1,1,5,2,26,30,17,0,1,4,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,10,8,1,0,5,0,0,0,3,4,0,1,11,5,25,3,10,19,2,15,0,0,5,0,6,8,0,4,6,95,35,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11369053376808125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1534092301335642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08781396034586239,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0899344693151494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.149295854129886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11420718101911966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07483170037943687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5717137171985931,0.0,0.0,0.11576103178346005,0.0,0.0,0.18177990559885465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.105017407210851,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4650679096907777,0.0,0.0,0.09226766711188283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08722959368490038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12395780807872528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22527111178162496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09046073939932853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25813346981573937,0.26021942946731946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22469770014173646,0.0,0.10807996209506532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1387618716777925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,depression_butterfly,2019/03/05,Favorite brands/flavors of tea Hit me with them pleaseeee :) something that tastes deserty maybe or is just satisfying? I recently got into the joys of tea so yah,4.517126436781607,7.496395655172414,4.455862068965517,80.33367816091955,75.20689655172413,8.004597701149425,33.804597701149426,8.841846274778883,3.3929908045977015,130,7,22,3,3,40,27,29,0.0,0.6629999999999999,0.337,0.9042,0,0,1,0,1,0,4.0,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,0,1,1,1,3,0,0,0,4,3,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,3,1,4,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,1,13,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.44594582929463183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.560161751869395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5505407206087124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4292505608953504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,smebyy,2019/03/05,"Not entirely ED related but this sub might appreciate it more than others. My son and I were out to eat and there are giant, bold calorie counts next to all the menu items. My son explained he wanted the seaweed salad (he would never actually eat this EVER). I asked why, and he said that it had the least amount of calories. I thought this was odd because I don’t discuss these things around him and started to panic. 

After asking more questions, I found out that he thought calories were “added” in to fast food!! He thought calories were added like sugars etc. He thought he could get a bowl of noodles and hold the extra 500 calories or just order seaweed salad for fewer extra calories lol. It ended up being really cute and I explained the very basics of calories and energy needs. 

But boy do I wish I could order pad thai and hold the calories. ",4.367621082621081,6.251696512345681,4.711975308641978,83.47542735042738,71.53086419753086,6.4660968660968665,27.893637226970558,7.010146845296331,1.5045568850902178,673,25,120,6,13,212,101,162,0.042,0.815,0.14300000000000002,0.9567,0,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,0,0,4,4,0,1,7,1,13,6,0,0,3,36,28,11,0,6,5,2,0,1,0,2,0,1,0,1,11,11,6,2,8,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,11,2,11,3,15,12,9,15,0,0,0,0,18,6,0,3,8,81,22,0,0.0,0.0,0.1534981149479052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14002670582887697,0.2941008791697265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09588612489144756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2511759647845671,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3219059634935628,0.0,0.0,0.1393174856336582,0.0,0.17542651551252966,0.0,0.1422831531710076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19020283501795213,0.17246684306492868,0.0,0.0,0.08218061921727808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07684683479863025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16686609997752894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11663292189300176,0.12131630040283813,0.0,0.16728598149404225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18455285547579964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1762074146113703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10076778576572452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1496244278824742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11133485251654077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10450041118990663,0.0,0.0,0.4995015198890855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1297855965701519,0.09277720129864928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14193509018330214,0.0,0.1808825301698665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11173849923690224,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,coffeeandcamels,2019/03/05,"Hung out at work for 5 hours I stayed at work for hours because I needed validation from someone that I should eat and I didn’t receive that validation so

Here we are, fucking hungry but also fucking ginormous and on the verge of a mental breakdown ",10.293125,7.588268729166671,9.995,66.15000000000003,59.625,12.1,42.75,10.125756701596842,4.394674999999999,201,9,35,3,2,66,37,48,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,1,0,0,2,3,2,2,0,2,0,3,3,0,0,0,7,6,5,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,4,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,1,0,5,0,8,4,0,9,0,0,0,2,2,5,2,0,2,26,7,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2072043205180262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1579465895352614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26512672788910235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4790725072278134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.510327897377841,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2611145610153377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1921213550071754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21953686093281466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2761689834153103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.377259675575224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,very_famous_model,2019/03/05,"Fat Camp Trauma Sorry I’m on my phone. I went to fat camp almost every summer in high school when i was 14,15,and 16. I was supposed to work there the next summer at 17 but my ED therapist advised me not to. The stuff they taught at that camp was insane, we were encouraged to eat zero grams of fat a day and if we exceeded 12 grams of fat we were punished with exercise. Day to day there included mile run prebreakfast to “kickstart metabolism”, after breakfast we exercised for about 8 hours everyday via running, playing sports, etc. If you accomplished a certain amount of weight loss you would be allowed to have seconds at meals. 

It was fucking torture, I self harmed with my disposable razors on my face and arms. The crazy part is that while I was there I thought i was having fun even though I was hurting myself. I actually loved it and was excited to lose the weight I hated myself so much. I’m still fat now, I have always been fat except for when I came home from camp. I don’t know what to do, I feel like I am so traumatized by these experiences and I don’t know anyone who can relate, not even in treatment. I hate being the fat girl at treatment in the first place. I feel totally alone, I can’t even remember most of camp but what I do remember is fucking horrible. I want to kill everyone who was involved. I feel like I will never have peace and now I have to hate myself forever. 

Has anyone gone through anything similar? Or can relate in any way? Or just words of kindness. Thanks",3.1469413298565847,5.190634318644069,4.195000000000004,85.19526401564539,75.3050847457627,7.521512385919165,26.26140808344198,8.384062270229773,1.839059973924381,1184,44,231,22,26,384,168,295,0.21,0.672,0.118,-0.9889,1,1,0,0,0,1,29.0,4,2,1,5,16,23,8,0,8,0,32,19,9,1,3,39,52,17,1,4,10,0,5,2,0,2,9,0,1,2,10,12,12,0,8,4,0,5,6,13,0,3,17,5,39,10,36,31,6,36,0,3,0,3,16,13,2,6,19,163,49,5,0.0,0.0,0.11174089286913268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11466076156107102,0.11859321003950918,0.0,0.0,0.09527778507084224,0.0,0.0,0.07786769616773552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16012987685550026,0.0,0.09422830582655416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13096383718176516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2215398083227961,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11716775737889942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12770394921751013,0.2268894947365777,0.0,0.09647585901373874,0.10941495387711744,0.0,0.1120083934705852,0.0,0.0,0.17369232995719186,0.16360556636461596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09739835683760932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21171705976490005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3391515542614326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12098139353770207,0.11485839637922265,0.0,0.11276489499893325,0.0,0.12258055261661828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12668341851627793,0.11923990300627865,0.12585850429882114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11188324934778447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12810241383449034,0.0,0.0,0.10334572363727706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08417474967658717,0.0,0.08831373421878007,0.0,0.12177794458894485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12399834516709307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1196339217338273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2594249186120637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11588572321891875,0.0,0.0,0.11945425464048105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12817958128303636,0.0,0.0,0.09144427498169633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13108145213889172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10542132018415667,0.0,0.13294976156075594,0.0,0.0,0.11250111514895862,0.09090461117525432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06753833631461027,0.09088917066553882,0.0,0.2788738081107,0.0,0.10614778604099087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08336139944956683,0.0,0.0,0.08134145280432807,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,AstridItesm,2019/03/05,"The fuck's wrong with me? I can't have my mother lose her only child, the most important thing in her life (her words). I don't give a shit anymore that I find the idea of going back to a healthy weight humiliating. I don't care what anyone thinks anymore. I'm gonna recover. (And why am I having all this ""clarity"" all of a sudden. Is my BPD up to some shenanigans?)",1.380779220779221,3.1198047402597453,3.4116883116883163,90.19467532467534,79.51948051948051,6.477922077922077,21.38961038961039,7.447530270364453,0.5990051948051955,283,8,64,4,7,96,58,77,0.147,0.75,0.103,-0.5058,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,0,1,1,5,2,0,6,0,7,4,1,0,2,10,14,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,4,2,1,0,3,0,0,1,3,4,0,0,0,1,11,1,7,13,4,5,0,1,0,1,6,2,2,2,2,41,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4483076624400928,0.15804036021858076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17379754113948806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28466773795141936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2304452545218276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20658069630551715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2089543878176928,0.0,0.2168216146477085,0.12845393599967586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25515217014382835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15964655072069045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25286163987426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1719004843138862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2320091020924692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15015947010806496,0.1448262500857716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2752348153562484,0.0,0.0,0.20395037386918535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.247120392551935,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Arakance,2019/03/05,"Any baristas who can share their coffee shop drink/food calorie knowledge? It could be nice if we could compile some info that makes it easier to estimate the cal counts of drinks are, especially since I like studying at hipster little coffee shops that have no cal counts for any of their stuff.

I'm thinking stuff like:

- Types of non-dairy milks you have and how many cals they are
(e.g. Starbucks Almond milk is 60 cals per cup, but the brand at my university's coffee shop is 70 cals per cup)

- How many cals in syrups/flavour shots, and how much syrup is typically added to different drink sizes

- What kind of snacks tend to be lower or higher cal

- Are there any drinks that kind of masquerade as low cal but aren't?
(e.g. I genuinely can't figure out if the Lavender Earl Grey latte at a local coffee shop has flavour syrup, or how much milk goes into it. Like is the tea bag steeped in water first, then milk added? Or is the tea bag steeped straight into hot milk? The line is usually too long/ I'm always too nervous to ask.)",6.089626865671643,6.332484094527366,5.501703980099503,85.4516604477612,66.26368159203979,8.491044776119404,28.192786069651746,8.07648339933343,1.5755502487562187,817,23,166,9,12,248,121,201,0.047,0.8690000000000001,0.083,0.6529,2,0,4,0,0,0,29.0,1,1,3,1,7,9,0,1,7,0,19,12,0,5,0,25,25,15,0,4,7,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,10,6,12,0,4,7,4,0,3,2,0,1,0,3,8,7,19,21,3,16,0,1,1,0,8,12,0,6,7,85,18,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1183243247206269,0.0,0.0,0.29010883994881703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13294065066174302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22707511982499765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14857191518789273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5572193856093753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12095783705655892,0.17195248593869225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2961651762261364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20841967385339888,0.1425248087273347,0.0,0.125845219564966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0949216364671894,0.28834313506277204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20907119968425905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11763182794407677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3255769284771101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09111796904547713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1566165632858052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,psychedelicsnack,2019/03/05,"Boyfriend wants to take me to an all you can eat place on Friday I am really scared about it because I have been deep in my disorder recently, but whenever I’ve been to this place in the past I’ve pigged out but I cannot do that this time because it’ll push me over the edge.
I’m planning on my first proper fast, generally I’ll just miss a meal or two a day but I want to miss all meals until Friday. I’m thinking just water and then if I get super weak I’ll just have apples or other water based fruits. Am I allowed to ask for tips? I need help staying motivated, and also excuses to skip breakfast. 
It’s in case I fail on Friday, so I can comfort myself with the knowledge I’ve fasted so I can eat a bit more than usual. ",2.840332167832166,3.5592930448717968,4.6909090909090905,86.69045454545454,73.6794871794872,7.4675990675990676,24.43822843822844,7.686295010490155,1.0535717948717953,569,16,126,7,11,195,96,156,0.105,0.78,0.115,0.5677,1,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,1,0,5,8,7,0,1,7,0,12,9,0,2,2,23,23,13,0,4,9,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,7,4,8,0,3,0,0,1,1,5,0,2,2,1,16,2,19,20,4,23,0,3,0,0,4,11,0,3,10,80,23,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15749867358948744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1841191266330702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2401144752927361,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21501542759013467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12701470653269226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22571865265552496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4030524833773613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16752326099971304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10289682832072043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13200961444446688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14603391717989164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1880084696925599,0.0,0.0,0.4115359918946065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12616947463952574,0.0,0.19446168518836202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19717859118106346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20991960237954824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14807984880242256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12619586859040588,0.0,0.0,0.11484154636978874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1923888810213412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21690961120557936,0.0,0.23232922421438595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,stkeen,2019/03/05,"What creamer do you put in your coffee? I can’t drink black coffee I’ve tried, Drinking coffee makes me happy I usually drink 2 18oz cups a day before 4-5 and I’ve been using heavy cream (I know it’s fattening but it’s what my husband uses and when I was pregnant and eating healthy and taking care of my body for my baby that’s how I would drink it and afterwards I couldn’t kick it I love it)

I’ve been drinking it that way for about two years now and I’ve been mostly at my happy weight

I don’t eat candy or drink soda and I’ve been eating super restricted and I’ve been stuck at my non-pregnant high weight for about two months now

I’ve finally realized it’s probably the coffee, it’s the only “bad” thing I do so I’m replacing the cream with something else

What’s your safe coffee creamer ",-0.5471929824561386,1.6737195906432767,1.8448514619883056,94.0187157894737,95.78362573099415,4.607345029239767,16.78152046783626,6.360717304075467,-0.1373753918128653,634,17,136,8,25,214,92,171,0.062,0.762,0.17600000000000002,0.9705,0,0,7,0,0,0,7.0,0,3,0,1,7,7,0,0,4,0,12,14,1,4,0,22,21,13,0,2,2,1,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,14,9,12,2,2,6,0,1,3,1,0,2,7,5,18,6,10,12,1,15,0,0,3,1,5,4,0,2,9,76,32,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0944593166134813,0.0,0.0,0.09626579904883464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1256625812676459,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11534417556924505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07295987105060366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6649494496046096,0.0,0.3472825078677273,0.09450609077585877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12392903081943088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.240859231969644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1195286789158716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06217361326920695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1021047737734888,0.0,0.07551554684384673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09029975706563588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08604091103668647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12197390955753792,0.0,0.0,0.11372748914401985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0870934547182786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08506012389232133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07515893663971675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07680824406067482,0.0,0.22102429449418268,0.0,0.0,0.19541701199236294,0.12459736116559285,0.0,0.0,0.08979779600592452,0.0,0.2755251604646328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08036472477703058,0.0,0.0,0.0728523903893594
EDAnonymous,emmmily20,2019/03/05,"Tired of this I’ve been bulimic for nearly 5 years, and it’s worse than it has ever been right now. I’ve never wanted to accept help before and I’d never reach out. But I’ve been trying to recover and it has only gotten worse. So today, despite how afraid I am, I’m going to talk to my doctor about it for the first time. I’m really hoping that this will make a difference because I’m tired of struggling with this. I don’t know how this is going to go at all, so it’s safe to say I am very nervous.",1.3802020202020202,2.625163000000004,3.873030303030305,89.0639898989899,78.0909090909091,6.343434343434343,18.585858585858585,6.937597516519254,0.11128282828282776,390,7,87,4,9,137,70,110,0.18,0.741,0.079,-0.8584,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,1,7,6,0,3,2,0,10,3,0,3,4,18,21,8,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,1,3,1,0,0,10,5,0,1,2,0,0,3,3,3,0,1,4,1,4,3,16,16,1,15,0,0,0,0,3,4,0,1,8,56,14,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11336087769660212,0.0,0.15824020050702922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19429099885810014,0.0,0.19034026986329472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1682135256082722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1581794173664208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3170599416605551,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12464659400121984,0.0,0.0,0.18470250039153285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10220000381417807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12413126356439798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2868511436485637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14143269103646994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11913219614284955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15881076802467542,0.0,0.14788466622810326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1944081481053643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1494694337006671,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10843609887860944,0.4274725612923256,0.17627049409520654,0.0,0.0,0.12625617883863768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1534383536327664,0.1096853687783903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3790228938491375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11975360903388416
EDAnonymous,samtheonionman,2019/03/05,"Do you ever feel like the universe wants you to get fat? Hey everyone, first time caller, long time listener here.

The past few weeks I have been day dreaming about a blizzard from dairy queen. I wanted a cookie dough one and thought ""mm wouldn't it be bomb with peanut butter"". Today I go on their website to look at their calorie charts (of course) and in their ""new"" blizzard flavour section [this](https://www.dairyqueen.com/ca-en/Menu/Treats/Blizzard-Treats/Peanut-Butter-Cookie-Dough/#open_nutrition) bad boy appears before my eyes. 1020 CALORIES FOR THE MEDIUM!! What kind of disgusting binge eating pig would eat that? Me of course, i'm going tonight. So yeah, the universe knew what I wanted and it came into fatty fruition. ",6.112569792412312,8.813467314960633,4.150522548317824,85.86911954187546,68.76377952755905,6.192984967788117,27.29348604151754,6.980632752743323,1.3879196850393694,587,20,96,5,11,164,98,127,0.06,0.868,0.07200000000000001,-0.3645,0,0,0,0,0,0,41.0,0,2,3,2,4,4,1,0,6,2,6,4,2,0,1,16,20,4,0,5,0,0,1,1,0,2,1,1,0,1,5,6,3,0,3,1,0,4,1,2,0,2,4,6,11,2,13,13,2,20,0,0,2,0,9,5,0,1,12,51,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16902619259618795,0.0,0.0,0.17225872548957205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2315336603664643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13055492732870694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4142865744719278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18311558907624928,0.0,0.1934369465277408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.102358080413585,0.14462082225093165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17219255756069615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1057648229129152,0.0,0.2300988888168957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21080667609386364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0989003484192094,0.0,0.0,0.17915011330391362,0.16999584691935402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1955146308141989,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13717635017413002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1932487407792878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1607121310929899,0.23608494086887524,0.0,0.1918863257058917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3582072400707033,0.0,0.16238251367667272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14380522679076135,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,mildno,2019/03/05,"""I completely forgot to eat"" Get out of here with that shit. How the hell does anybody ""forget"" to eat. It infuriates me way more than it perhaps should. I get annoyed when people even say ""I did not have time"", so the ""forgot"" excuse is even more frustrating.

I think about food single second. When I'm awake and when I'm asleep. Every single thing I do is literally dictated by food.

Either these people are using forgot interchangeably with 'I did not have time to eat at my normal set time' or they genuinely have a super power which I need to somehow gain.",4.537686915887849,6.05598570093458,5.506623831775702,79.40516939252338,70.49532710280374,7.966822429906544,23.655373831775695,8.472884824447931,1.5156925233644865,438,11,80,7,8,144,73,107,0.149,0.777,0.075,-0.8667,1,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,1,3,10,5,4,0,3,0,10,7,2,2,0,19,20,7,0,3,4,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,6,4,5,3,1,0,0,0,2,4,0,1,5,1,10,1,12,14,5,10,1,0,0,0,3,2,2,2,6,60,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18803892901357994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1569452741636264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.550541516016807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23691023915890225,0.0,0.15110518134747733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.43372731591150737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1873998323405192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13298141469551056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17571918854158095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2486693040239741,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1426216663541487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18409419263615406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11914828412722955,0.11491648966183933,0.0,0.0,0.3137310481768845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15489576296011867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14235503841414132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,misterladybug,2019/03/05,"DAE else’s sweat have a sweet ammonia smell? So I sweat a lot in bed when I’m sleeping like to the point it soaks through everything which is gross

But what’s grosser is my sweat has changed smells

It’s no longer really a BO scent or no scent 

It smells like pee 

Like sweet smelling pee

It’s super gross and I hate it ",-0.5060294117647075,1.7246298676470602,0.4237647058823519,104.13594117647058,95.91176470588236,4.484705882352942,17.094117647058823,6.2581,-0.5306870588235291,253,7,62,3,10,77,46,68,0.197,0.5820000000000001,0.22,0.4215,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,1,2,9,1,0,4,0,4,6,6,0,0,4,6,5,0,0,2,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,1,0,7,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,0,8,3,6,3,6,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,2,4,29,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35709860225370954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28199191974041954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30338130886656794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33327517021182856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4947510582148619,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2869853634881466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3191076708559835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2162525356322997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33780839923330125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,pinnekjottt,2019/03/05,"Crying over pancakes It’s Pancake Tuesday in Ireland and the UK (I don’t know if this is a thing anywhere else) and I told myself I could make a batch and just have one as a treat. 

Well, here I am, having just binged 1,156 calories of pancakes. I feel sick physically and mentally, and I feel stupid and weak for doing this, and I’m not eating again for a while. I wish I could purge them up, but I’ve never been able to before and that’s a slippery slope I know I shouldn’t start down.  I’m lying on the sofa sobbing over pancakes - I guess that’s my life now. Anyone else struggling on pancake day? ",1.551102150537634,3.575024701612904,2.8093548387096803,93.3256989247312,80.20967741935483,4.778494623655916,21.623655913978496,5.46131890053228,-0.007911827956988304,469,14,100,2,12,151,82,124,0.172,0.782,0.045,-0.9413,0,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,1,0,6,6,1,1,7,0,10,4,0,1,1,24,21,12,0,5,5,0,2,0,0,1,3,0,1,0,6,8,1,0,4,0,0,0,4,4,1,1,2,2,14,2,12,16,0,14,0,1,0,0,2,7,1,2,7,69,20,0,0.20937561455592896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1464002979230252,0.2145300599779503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17816322674440935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3343387823481873,0.0,0.2299892810682465,0.13502995017615166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21424352437019206,0.3498129189388552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2117332035055838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23065084464886154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23013472422914524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14788818853340327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13975984854437462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21100137380227107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1614833815427389,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14187833510659245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1481971376330605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.218884852653597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13909985480531525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20006737230303245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18825382248623154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2407716237376555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,JackFallsDown,2019/03/05,"ED Related Dream I know it's been posted about before how sometimes we have dreams about eating food or something in that category. But I had to talk about this somewhere because it was really hard for me to wake up to thinking about. 

So I had a dream that I went to a modeling center or photoshoot or TV set. Something of that nature. 

And the lady (who for some reason looks like Megan Fox???) taking my photos ends up bringing me to a mirror and holding my face to the mirror and says ""Do you think your beautiful?"" I started crying and said no. 

So she pulls me aside and starts talking about dieting and says something like ""Do you think you can do 50?"" I was like 50 wtf? 50 what? And she goes ""50 calories a day."" 

And my dumbass ED brain went ""Oh yeah. I can do that."" 

I woke up convinced I could stick to a 50 cal a day diet. Wtf is wrong with me. 

Anyone else have a similar dream? I'm starting to think I'm losing it. ",0.6555464216634448,2.9739507925531936,2.5554932301740827,91.96136363636364,86.2872340425532,5.333075435203097,20.247582205029012,6.7829847944221076,0.3888531914893618,711,22,150,9,22,236,108,188,0.125,0.7659999999999999,0.109,-0.7348,0,0,3,1,0,0,29.0,1,4,0,1,8,6,0,0,9,1,15,7,3,2,0,24,32,15,0,1,4,0,1,3,0,0,0,3,0,0,10,10,4,1,6,5,0,4,1,2,0,0,9,5,23,4,21,22,1,17,0,1,1,0,13,5,0,4,9,95,33,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10136759052748287,0.14854064905738848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08837340895521945,0.0,0.12336024770371712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1618363735991471,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11574811413412435,0.0,0.15924461630053513,0.18698951972897346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14834225175512306,0.12110526150316148,0.0,0.12840190534818804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17530036741512814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12986617698756708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07967266058461424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2124775643899008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12173972450437165,0.16218626137925168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1388428244833651,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09287258976278226,0.14905506308320152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1379012945816525,0.2305746453685764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3348189155517963,0.14338072829844736,0.0,0.3078351679208662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10900068411360317,0.2330455384455804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3715680727637147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2687804555176596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1585038070563082,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,tornessa,2019/03/05,"Restricted all last week by OMADing junk food. Now paying the price. Trying hard to get back to a ""normal"" diet but have such bad diarrhea! Is this from OMADing ice cream and burgers for a week? Now no matter what I eat, I end up starving cuz none of it will stay in me. On the third day of this.",1.1807103825136631,3.1697287377049186,2.689754098360656,93.88632513661207,81.29508196721311,5.3781420765027335,20.002732240437158,6.42735559955562,0.054702732240437424,227,6,50,2,6,74,52,61,0.218,0.765,0.017,-0.9245,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,0,4,0,3,3,0,1,1,7,4,3,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,1,3,1,0,0,2,0,2,1,0,1,0,2,3,0,10,3,2,12,0,0,1,0,0,3,0,0,8,35,7,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22319860533353844,0.2423621229682341,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18719920779936303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2970172023756463,0.0,0.0,0.2570917877745121,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3509938947874041,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15165334214072315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2600236150907396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23660761792522275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28440155882492496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3093876633639596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19707329842518265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4656718600012327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,i_love_junk_food,2019/03/05,I’m really spiralling with the bingeing. I’m deep in the vicious circle of hating myself but wanting to taste food to feel better. Please can someone talk me away from it. It’s been almost a week of pure excessive eating. Like 2000-3000 calories a day. I didn’t think I was capable but here I am. I’m also no where near underweight and I’m just ruining any progress I’d made recently. Feeling really alone even when I have friends around me as they wouldn’t understand. ,1.8904985337243403,4.535150268817207,3.3137243401759555,86.3633137829912,83.94623655913979,6.822678396871946,24.58357771260997,8.00094639256281,1.7986,377,15,71,8,11,123,73,93,0.12,0.652,0.228,0.9171,0,1,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,1,2,7,6,2,0,4,0,7,3,0,1,1,15,18,6,0,2,3,0,2,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,2,3,3,0,4,0,0,0,3,3,0,0,4,3,8,3,11,13,0,10,0,1,0,0,3,6,0,1,5,42,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22172824082266904,0.2293327157221791,0.0,0.17707595870885856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15057869015626668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19711794016630108,0.0,0.0,0.20803897380704975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19583514606242933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1428027958382884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22657620942909426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1462511610893452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22392138479611767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2677517180069065,0.0,0.17107478835835335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21861439047047326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.108178577037425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20952060690958527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2430615425354986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2837050010950476,0.0,0.21863351958519495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18761529694179094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1779755063059379,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1418821753000134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.230514444438652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13060402089822332,0.0,0.17761625258228875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,crystaldeluge,2019/03/05,"how do i stop obsessing over my partners diet??? title basically covers it - i am constantly counting his calories in my head and making sure when i serve dinner or we go out that he's getting enough calories, healthy snacks etc (he often forgets to eat, not disordered at all tho)
i try not to be obvious about it but i feel i'm obsessing over his diet to distract from my lack of and i'd HATE for him to pick up any disordered behaviors",3.516009852216752,5.20284526436782,5.261740558292281,79.47517241379313,73.36781609195403,8.649589490968804,30.81937602627258,9.23628265651192,2.9245513957307057,346,16,65,8,7,118,66,87,0.202,0.7609999999999999,0.037000000000000005,-0.9463,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,1,0,0,0,5,5,1,3,0,0,3,6,1,3,3,19,9,7,0,1,4,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,3,4,5,1,1,0,0,1,2,4,0,0,0,1,12,1,14,8,4,10,0,0,0,0,7,6,0,2,3,46,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17208505420375622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2734609292410535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.580042457693295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2589369003039148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2614719058431829,0.2822215386440917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12795145050083434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13221000676244912,0.0,0.14381613285336942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.249837936528676,0.25970589184983883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16891517293420694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2115640528418988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23849992431350844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1718067122669434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,gothrodite,2019/03/05,"im digging myself into a hole (tw - numbers and long fucking post)

im tired of having these thoughts spinning around in my head so i’m going to dump them somewhere. i cant talk to anyone about this because all they’d want to do is make me stop and i dont want to stop. i don’t want anyone to worry or get angry or disappointed and at this point i don’t expect compassion or sympathy from others, not that it’s their fault, i couldn’t blame them for being fucking tired of me being broken after so many attempts to fix me. im starting to realize how much responsibility i have for this illness, and it’s sad but almost a relief to realize it’s very much my fault and my problem that no one else is going to solve.
i think im officially relapsing. i dipped my toes in the water for too long now and i can hardly grasp that maybe things are actually getting bad now. it’s like i can’t keep up with my own downward spiral, and all i’ve been doing is making excuses, telling myself that it’s “not as bad as last time” - the time the landed me in treatment. but is it really not? i’ve been restricting to less than 500 and working more than half of it off almost every day of the week. im somehow convincing myself this bullshit is healthy and not that “extreme”.
sure i’m not crying over dinner, obsessively cutting up my food or surviving off saltine crackers and mentos (yet) but where i am right now should scare me. i shouldn’t be telling myself that i’ll be fine and that i’m not hurting myself. 
but fuck, i got a taste of my addiction again and it feels too euphoric, to just numb out the world and surround myself with numbers and calculations and the decrease of the number on my scale. i mean im finally doing it, im finally losing the weight again and i feel so completely in control. i feel like i need to lose as much as possible now before i get “caught”. im going behind my boyfriends back and i feel like a terrible ugly person for it. he is so kind and he deserves so much better. the fear and guilt of what i’m doing is starting to fester in the back of my mind, but the feelings i get from engaging in my behaviors numbs that out too. 
so i’m just left feeling detached from my life and hiding in the shadow of the consequences. im afraid im going to dig too deep and fall in this hole ",3.7571346375143833,4.616727164556963,5.1974721902570025,83.3824913693901,71.65822784810126,7.855159186804758,27.23283467587265,8.101407402915765,1.656874261603376,1812,61,371,25,33,610,224,474,0.184,0.6890000000000001,0.126,-0.9804,0,0,0,0,0,1,35.0,0,0,4,7,26,33,5,5,17,0,31,17,2,4,3,80,67,41,0,9,17,0,8,3,0,2,7,0,0,1,27,27,5,5,12,0,0,6,14,23,0,2,5,9,47,10,60,54,9,58,0,5,0,3,11,28,3,7,26,253,74,1,0.0,0.0,0.06284530652907097,0.07020572513313285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12897499782110267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09006023611456411,0.0,0.0,0.057329832702234886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09903955906899238,0.1075429560051646,0.039257764909575145,0.0,0.05479982792101469,0.0,0.0,0.056956744533272013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06752238569157061,0.0,0.07223030170442336,0.0,0.0,0.07074059701611951,0.04153280207734278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07547655617702116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053798104448056806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05425994706767468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07246813067005027,0.19537606041312788,0.09201503320801556,0.0,0.14109454511207636,0.0,0.0,0.07787297891872025,0.0,0.0,0.1786108448311085,0.13458578842382546,0.0,0.1464004737774041,0.0,0.05150672396881546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057689930785249824,0.0,0.06609318588820075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06894174733968263,0.0,0.6956326842443645,0.0,0.0,0.057241857835771286,0.0,0.06706289937831994,0.0,0.05249475935716677,0.0,0.0,0.0699710070346626,0.0,0.04548776664674649,0.09438805597738784,0.0,0.0,0.11398430300912753,0.0,0.1440947044153494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08597526875157062,0.06529169600405407,0.06469865807930393,0.07015069867112785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0650258447768242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18936623145220088,0.04775193317673326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04363924302243978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05623177165500947,0.0,0.0,0.06087900611722965,0.07260155054331913,0.06167759088835543,0.0,0.0,0.06162229510985641,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04125641794918431,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05499741994683459,0.0,0.0,0.06447583610567595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09116558774869048,0.0,0.0,0.10768290370420734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06069642748455153,0.0,0.0,0.05176244228712425,0.11257722880259208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.042784632084064994,0.04126504856187372,0.0,0.051126566179363404,0.07510455042313938,0.14803711525083832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05313691052347905,0.11395472165573667,0.0,0.051657956841217684,0.07842209554460981,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04688411347523377,0.06540153037727785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,nadaatractiva,2019/03/05,"Can only blame myself So I've been gaining weight and with that i've feeling horrible about myself, but have not been making changes in my diet/life. my so and I haven't been having much sex(only once this year) and the last time he didn't finish, (which is unusual) and he assures me it is because he is tired and very stressed and not because I look like a fucking cow (nicer words but whatever) . But today I left to do a small job for literally one hour and I walk in on him passed out with his dick in his hand, dirty shirt full of cum, like wow the little part of me that said it was OK to be this fat and that it was gonna be ok just completly vanished, and being 100% realistic, I don't blame him at all! 
So... 
I've literally decided to live out of pedialyte for 3 weeks, maybe a cup of coffee in the morning, while walking back and from work (4 miles total)
If I have one bite of food then I can't stop eating, so that's why I'm thinking a strict liquid diet might help.",5.349645232815966,4.41005785365854,6.1835476718403575,83.92299334811533,68.02439024390246,9.210643015521065,29.36807095343681,8.296473431620573,1.7707073170731706,760,22,170,9,11,252,129,205,0.127,0.743,0.13,0.1371,1,0,0,0,0,0,26.0,0,0,0,2,7,8,1,1,7,2,21,10,4,1,3,31,29,20,0,1,7,0,3,2,0,2,2,1,0,0,10,14,5,1,3,0,0,3,6,2,0,2,7,5,17,6,22,17,5,27,0,0,1,2,9,13,2,2,13,108,27,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13205991445904755,0.0,0.20938611296523973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1816815260198082,0.0,0.18006947046862196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17573616232941378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08683851876309273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20767255087461564,0.0,0.0,0.15877381463584755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1151158421784789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16913245022269774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17042861879367344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13999362467731674,0.0,0.0,0.1865994818731773,0.0,0.0,0.1678100981803499,0.17213179809377854,0.15165238603415454,0.0,0.1442210276189873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11463991503654375,0.0,0.1725391213750478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18219238758224254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12625100799161035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18290089561514536,0.2327552648567993,0.13061843743658574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18598114193134893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16336710548281572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14358499962598992,0.19673124749565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11004610348544294,0.0,0.0,0.1001448370489592,0.19739353608360904,0.16279246570337666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1417061207524235,0.0,0.0,0.1377620301566188,0.20913694137321429,0.0,0.0,0.15497151887458935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1250310900660322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11059698556795672
EDAnonymous,throwaway19031903,2019/03/06,"being forced into recovery is ASS i’m literally so angry about everything right now. i was seeing a therapist, who was really good to talk to, prior to my disordered eating habits for a while and kept seeing her as they developed.  once my parents found out about them, they made me stop seeing her and start seeing a therapist more specialized for ed. the thing is she has.. literally no idea what she’s doing. right now the basic plan that she and my parents gave me is “recover from ur ed and you’ll get to go back to ur old therapist”. like.. isn’t it kinda fucked up to make help for mental health issues a “prize” for recovering??? not to mention the fact that now that i’m weight restored my mom keeps dropping subtle comments that i should stop gaining weight. gotta love recovery as a minor :-)",3.7918431568431568,5.793685227272729,4.96766233766234,80.54621878121878,73.35064935064935,8.374825174825176,24.83316683316684,9.057496981413335,2.0648327672327675,631,20,117,14,13,208,100,154,0.132,0.746,0.122,-0.4269,2,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,1,3,3,7,6,1,0,8,0,11,7,1,2,1,18,29,8,0,1,1,3,2,1,0,3,1,0,0,0,8,6,3,4,2,0,0,1,3,1,0,0,6,6,17,5,19,19,1,17,0,0,4,3,21,5,2,1,11,75,25,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09949060417519136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14828869331763647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13239518620924734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11628467836970002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14186614969597408,0.0,0.11961618186735147,0.0675993589306733,0.0,0.07353360477656043,0.1085236635219484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13753231366829308,0.0,0.0,0.0867253680678739,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14606215598785016,0.0,0.13504639558512194,0.0,0.1150050964226135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06321194483220174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11677680473681892,0.12242909278235585,0.08636681657941912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13039164780863452,0.0,0.0,0.15153647197757275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13576987455793396,0.13779291531025015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28733786780596976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08288861514436296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22099155489073247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4124186980880341,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09158077328257554,0.0,0.0,0.21634662451207815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10399635671120036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4506847830514479,0.08595896297340433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3151169791045877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,texas_native,2019/03/06,"trying to keep it together on a work trip New here, current peach and former proED. 

On a work trip, at a really nice restaurant, really wanting to try and have a “normal” experience. 

Purged last night, mid dinner, would love some words of support not to do it tonight.

Thanks in advance, really love the world of kindness and support on here. ",6.481190476190478,7.333338031746035,6.473134920634923,76.70589285714287,65.50793650793649,9.474603174603176,31.62301587301588,9.516144504307137,2.913320634920636,268,10,47,5,4,85,45,63,0.0,0.695,0.305,0.9712,1,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,3,2,7,0,0,5,0,3,3,0,0,0,10,10,3,0,3,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,3,1,1,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,7,10,9,1,16,0,0,0,2,2,7,0,1,6,27,2,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19952289042693205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18129889979873096,0.0,0.21240452938276966,0.0,0.16626368319418885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3681837914903664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19699657484777688,0.0,0.19141307497443694,0.19984838650184494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39200735964667777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4629280105171196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18778919922005485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27696599748325745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12030744892038908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2969868034502171,0.0,0.0,0.14489522858219975,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,hannibalthecannibxl,2019/03/06,I feel awful I've been trying to fast to lose some pounds but I keep binging and it's making me feel awful. I used to be able to do it with no problems at all but the last couple of months I feel like I'm just putting on weight rather than losing it and I feel gross and awful about myself. I'm going on a mini vacation with my boyfriend and his friends next month and where we're going is a waterpark and I feel so disgusting in a bikini/bathing suit I don't even wanna go anymore. I'm just upset with myself and my body and I hate that this is making me not want to go have fun with my friends and boyfriend. This sucks. ,1.4116169154228864,3.0944160074626867,2.7664925373134364,95.11725124378107,79.22388059701494,5.362189054726368,20.12189054726368,5.985473137389443,-0.1463661691542293,491,12,112,3,12,159,81,134,0.282,0.617,0.101,-0.9815,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,2,7,12,3,1,4,3,7,2,1,3,1,33,26,12,0,4,6,0,6,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,6,13,1,1,5,0,0,5,3,8,0,0,1,6,16,4,17,24,2,15,0,2,0,0,3,5,1,1,6,71,22,0,0.16344070194466762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16208925850239694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1815457747917512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1808440280099404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10795104218848132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41320264873421736,0.11676207012626695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2525477617805188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3715484696304359,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16136385593732214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1452736055350552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1332259862248047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07984887126142425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3656966779272564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2181958753718312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2609136179539643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17382104071249102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15639067861210726,0.0,0.16430304807917734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11096550809098588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14116029008699305,0.0,0.0,0.09640156060953516,0.0,0.0,0.19902674378714194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,tennisskirt,2019/03/06,"My professor just outed me in front of my entire class Today in my studio class we were having a critique of our most recent work. I'd restaged a photograph from a vintage magazine. In the original image a woman is offering her husband a cake, in my image I'm cutting myself a slice. I know food is referenced but in no way was this piece about my ED, I would literally never make art about my ED in this context, I just wanted to make an image about women reclaiming agency. 

My professor is my faculty advisor, I've taken loads of classes with her, and we're very close. She's made references before to how skinny I am but I try to just ignore them. When I proposed this piece I specifically said it was about autonomy and self-sufficiency. Eating disorders never came up. So imagine my surprise when during the crit, in front of the entire class of 16 people or so, my prof goes, ""We can't ignore the way this image invokes eating disorders, you know, it makes you think about starvation.""

It literally doesn't??? I just had to stand in front of the class for fifteen minutes talking about eating disorders pretending like they don't affect me. I guess I did a bad job because afterwards my prof came up to me and was like, ""Are you ok? seems like that was a rough crit for you."" I just teared up and said she didn't have to put me on the spot like that and then left. I have a meeting with her tomorrow regarding something else that I'm now d r e a d i n g. fml. ",3.4419884255824305,4.97462624232082,5.125018548746105,81.00853687490726,73.26621160409556,8.372102685858438,26.73230449621605,8.964715089967882,2.15494847900282,1151,41,224,24,23,391,157,293,0.055,0.863,0.083,0.7754,1,0,1,0,0,1,34.0,3,4,2,1,17,10,1,0,17,1,20,5,1,7,2,42,37,14,0,2,8,1,1,4,0,1,0,2,1,2,10,13,5,2,6,2,0,6,7,4,0,0,14,3,43,6,36,22,3,35,0,0,0,0,22,15,0,4,15,152,53,11,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10628374974054236,0.07759620185299639,0.0,0.108316367950723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29117694999722804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4376639961940941,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3907553905615868,0.1063363791004264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15392234899234725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14022681455456462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1263179617612624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13991303325238225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13830345151399165,0.0,0.0,0.24875434319820944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1204470478019257,0.2549057870632357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19635133122283507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08824845010562253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12796391534636758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1256857851502171,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24216824532749756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1158821250597755,0.13279362562557245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09799582801550433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10231272537719308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08156376311937888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12065821223743965,0.0,0.0,0.08642311295940679,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10502947491589916,0.07508029391610327,0.20207739839997585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09267030716860032,0.0,0.0,0.0904247945294836,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,theweeping-weeb,2019/03/06,"Do you ever have ED related dreams? The last dream I had recently has stuck in my head and its pretty haunting. 

I had a dream that I was walking and suddenly one of my teeth fell out, I panicked and tried to put it back in (I know ) and when I touched my mouth ALL my teeth were gone and my gums were bleeding. In the dream I knew that all my teeth were gone because I had purged (the induced vomiting kind) too much.

After that, in the dream, I binged on a bunch of crappy foods and I couldn’t stop. Toothless. 

I woke up in a sweat and reached for my teeth and they were there thankfully. And then I started calculating the amount of calories I ate in the dream. 

For a few minutes I was just sitting there panicked about getting fat from dream calories. 
I kept telling myself mind over matter and figuring out how to burn roughly 1600 calories before breakfast. 

This just sucked a lot because I have had a pretty great last 2 days as far as balancing restriction and healthy meals. Ah well. ",4.411406480117818,5.674360994845362,4.351399116347571,88.54628865979383,70.49484536082474,7.398527245949928,29.836524300441827,7.7094869923839395,1.732068924889544,779,31,159,9,14,239,114,194,0.114,0.715,0.172,0.836,0,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,1,1,0,11,5,1,0,12,1,15,14,8,2,3,30,27,16,0,1,2,0,2,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,6,13,5,3,4,7,0,5,1,1,2,1,17,2,26,4,23,9,7,30,0,0,0,0,3,12,1,1,12,111,32,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15368818807761656,0.0,0.2436785790908721,0.0,0.17007519700847984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12890003059497712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18079444044970744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24168437627811645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10442416221505113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2203580907876864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20512494358660546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2081345189654098,0.10984367895939068,0.3258425027338139,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16992287421981864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20181237388192932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14692792086595166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13543752117324073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4066805998011799,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20092520201942976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19734814853017754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14146947066239346,0.0,0.0,0.1671008081296829,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1746957526478583,0.18401403567120092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1356990475284775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1797077125959154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,fiyacht524,2019/03/06,"Feeling at such a loss right now Ugh so idk if this is my body dysmorphia thinking for me, but I feel so utterly fat and blob-like even though my scale technically puts me being underweight (it's a nasty cheap thing and I don't trust it at all!). 

My life (and body lol) are going pear shaped at the moment and I cannot deal. I can't decide if I should eat healthy and exercise or if I should just fast until I'm thin again. 

Having said that.... I'm currently monching down on a kinder Bueno in bed so.... 🤷‍♀️",1.6074821610601404,2.956039330275232,3.314984709480125,92.86699286442408,77.71559633027523,7.046279306829766,21.285423037716612,7.793537801064563,0.5850236493374106,393,10,94,6,9,131,82,109,0.131,0.782,0.087,-0.5615,1,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,0,0,1,9,3,0,0,4,1,9,6,3,0,1,18,16,15,0,5,6,0,3,0,0,2,3,1,1,0,5,5,2,0,4,1,1,2,3,2,0,0,1,4,11,1,8,12,1,17,0,1,0,0,2,9,0,4,6,57,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.598282422210145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2776454042113255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2755699932076924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17787583069536875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2723411016664297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1530543182800293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19022067168401172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2707295878796363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2299881250363126,0.2561742076959242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17891670778183325,0.17256211577655933,0.2645943921005647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Jwish91,2019/03/06,"Recovery weight gain in stomach So I chose recovery just before Christmas and have slowly been gaining weight. At the moment it’s sitting around my abdomen. I feel like I’m pregnant and I’m seriously waiting for somebody to ask me if I am because I feel like my stomach is so huge. 

Anyone have tips on how they coped with this? How long did it take to go away (I know everyone is different but some light at the end of the tunnel would be good!). At the moment I feel like I still have ‘underweight’ arms and legs and a pregnant stomach...",3.298888888888889,5.206472452830191,4.254276729559752,85.53904612159329,74.47169811320755,6.975262054507338,28.758909853249477,7.793537801064563,1.8623576519916147,424,18,82,6,9,137,71,106,0.013,0.86,0.127,0.8686,1,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,1,2,7,5,0,0,5,0,10,8,6,2,0,18,20,10,0,2,3,0,5,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,6,2,1,4,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,2,6,11,4,12,16,1,15,0,0,0,0,2,8,0,2,8,54,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1378837097232863,0.0,0.0,0.17554584246800986,0.1843512146444603,0.0,0.18527170531676573,0.0,0.0,0.12020857361046845,0.0,0.1677988842120148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20602737304657828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17465672166831642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18842879337743046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2991239770525818,0.42262960912826747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11207077229953404,0.16539826682828954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10837351413568866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2890193468996866,0.0,0.0,0.1745118514804786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15748061654741102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14826650815859035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4802620967686384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14008205698007595,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,robxnarchist,2019/03/06,"My MRI shows me how fat I am lmao I have an injury in my pelvis from running that’s been persistent for like 18 months now, and it’s kinda funny bc I just got my MRI results from the most recent MRI and I can compare them to the MRI I had about a year ago and I CAN SEE HOW MUCH FAT IVE GAINED I HATE IT. The MRI shows my body composition and I can see it positioned around my midsection and it makes me wanna puke, I’m disgusted by it. Like even if my weight hasn’t changed that much (and it hasn’t), I can see my muscles replaced by fat from not being able to exercise and boy am I feeling triggered. And it’s nowhere close to healing, the doctor was basically like “idk what to do with you, I’m gonna refer you to someone else.” I am EXHAUSTED.",0.7026249999999976,2.6284260125000003,2.69125,93.57875,82.625,6.0,21.875,7.1686216300943375,0.5456249999999998,582,19,135,8,16,195,93,160,0.113,0.772,0.115,-0.2086,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,2,1,2,7,6,2,0,6,0,16,15,5,5,0,24,26,11,0,2,3,0,2,3,0,1,12,0,0,1,10,11,4,0,2,3,0,1,3,3,0,0,4,5,24,3,16,20,3,9,0,0,3,0,4,3,0,3,8,89,34,1,0.20549545353750864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18215932067483184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1829345212145359,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22825912324629785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21738694211792564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21033330428357788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1716650828299245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1357278089877443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10390467575608472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16435348656088447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2028842165131381,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3011840958663943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13716981093463493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1640245104726541,0.0,0.3021256059199953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2029019692120549,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4912598126500068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17411563092437904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25023810161117965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1323323346450602
EDAnonymous,fatterfly,2019/03/06,"EVERYTHING I OWN SMELLS LIKE PICKLES I used to live alone but my living situation has changed recently and now I find myself hiding food in my bag often. The reason is I wanna be able to eat ONLY the things I feel safe eating, so I usually hide shit in my bag and secretly eat in my room. When they ask me if I want to eat, I say I already ate while I was out and nobody questions it. I can't eat my own food around anyone because who the fuck has 2 lbs of cabbage for dinner amirite?


Well, I had a jar of pickles for dinner last night and hid the empty jar (still full of pickle juice) in my bag. I must've neglected to close it properly because now my bag and all my important work papers in it smell like pickles and I'm not sure how to explain this to my boss/colleagues. :))))


There's no point to this post, just thought my dumb ass might be amusing to some of you",2.5992028413575383,3.8382982375690604,4.055457774269932,89.01415745856356,74.91160220994476,6.939384372533546,25.083267561168114,7.447530270364453,1.0626239936858726,675,22,147,8,14,224,116,181,0.197,0.7090000000000001,0.094,-0.971,0,1,0,0,0,1,18.0,0,1,1,1,11,10,3,0,5,0,9,13,2,3,2,31,18,12,0,3,4,0,1,2,0,1,0,1,1,0,7,9,10,2,7,1,0,0,3,4,1,0,4,4,27,6,22,11,5,21,0,1,0,2,8,11,4,5,11,96,34,2,0.12457037009890512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12901733496450032,0.13746650104262464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0871024991785262,0.0,0.0,0.11089403984016252,0.116456480278595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15187388278383898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13177893412301905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6373329381908404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11195581630106323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0629865220428328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11385506148786392,0.0,0.30126197198367394,0.0,0.0,0.1151632998562364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10154147781642596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12171758107577035,0.0,0.21999583806462134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13214947698258686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11690085370952498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09474137981607918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1177592644454095,0.0,0.11930398012398005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13954732377925888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12807908762751688,0.12299821219124366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09906335819119773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1278696947822065,0.0,0.14002231528507705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0994820584750926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11740609958844345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0827590186686877,0.0,0.0,0.09889495921316394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10758880358552718,0.13719666349461784,0.0,0.0734748317913329,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.112003723018944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09068871305795027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,thatwasprettydumb,2019/03/06,"Discussion with friends about weight has me questioning.... The other day I got into a conversation with a few close friends about how the doctor told me to gain weight (not underweight, but for deficiencies) and idk why I even said that but it came out.  I said that I have gained at least 10 lbs -- when really from my LW to post-binge it could be near 20 lollll and definitely was trying to lose the whole time so f me -- and they seemed surprised.  One said they didn't notice a weight change over the past year (-20, then +10ish) and one said I looked so skinny when I was at my lowest and thought I had been looking better?????????

I'm so confused and conflicted.  At my LW I was still 10lbs from my GW and want to get there by the end of May.  But is this weight actually not noticeable or are they being nice? I feel like a bloated whale constantly after gaining and have just been trying to get back to feeling comfortable and I feel like everyone can see.  This one friend is pretty candid so I think she would tell me if she knew I gained a lot... hopefully...

Honestly now I'm more motivated so this is also accountability for the next few months -- sticking to xxx cals/day and only adding exercise cals if its the 4th time or more that week, if I overeat ill tack on to the next day (staying with the weekly total thing) so yay!",2.503678160919538,4.726872195402301,3.4463509578544063,88.94874482758621,78.00383141762453,7.087877394636017,21.551111111111112,8.109356740369918,1.0015641685823755,1037,29,217,19,25,331,157,261,0.055,0.727,0.218,0.9938,1,0,0,0,0,0,45.0,0,0,3,7,18,14,0,1,14,1,20,9,1,2,1,47,43,29,0,7,11,0,7,2,3,2,3,4,0,0,11,17,6,1,9,1,1,1,3,2,0,3,16,14,26,12,28,22,8,31,0,1,3,0,17,9,0,11,22,147,37,2,0.0,0.0,0.09496443708608206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07782197949132763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0748284676747496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0860663346491265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11130130391176787,0.0,0.0,0.10294532033100973,0.0,0.0,0.10516187452713556,0.0,0.07769731932348238,0.0,0.0,0.1882784596519409,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09960501387432316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08619132947618802,0.0,0.0,0.06427498651915242,0.0,0.0,0.09298770787440494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14761466386233985,0.13904229790038894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22555369065649955,0.0,0.10168510858915894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07783090445400485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09665477057132484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09508542057309033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1634385202718447,0.10886948642345434,0.0,0.08273289222680405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07767511520349069,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20698910954529956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22158529318435502,0.0,0.0,0.1978274772152658,0.07401169055338756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09289723487288387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09319992252450744,0.09900333427316407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10901396375220447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06234184735689183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3702716368343299,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07754666753254595,0.08859102081632733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1037237877557545,0.07771509494337095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08505673496081888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06465110485090701,0.0623548889238922,0.0,0.07725645470631361,0.11348916486289165,0.0,0.0,0.09298770787440494,0.0,0.13213965130945354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05739832504613171,0.0,0.15611885957383612,0.4740089957272999,0.0,0.0,0.08781075876139627,0.10864761807210443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06912908138629127,0.0,0.0,0.06266703256167082
EDAnonymous,ChaosSauces,2019/03/06,"They haven’t seen me in a while and I’ve lost weight. I’m nervous to see my boyfriend’s family this weekend because I know they’re going to give me compliments on my weight loss. 

I’ve lost 39 pounds since right before Christmas. I was overweight before. Now I’m normal. They didn’t know me when I was underweight a few years ago but they definitely know I have an ED considering I lived at their house last year while I was in treatment. 

His mom is currently battling to lose enough weight to get bariatric surgery. I feel like she’s going to ask me for “diet tips” which is usually what happens when she sees me drop weight and is jealous of my “self control”

I guess I’m posting here to gain some support from other sufferers about how to balance the joy of weight loss compliments with the “let me just hide myself forever” reaction like I might have??? 

Halp fam",3.7584873949579816,5.627874058823533,4.069243697478992,87.51588235294119,73.11764705882355,7.4453781512605035,27.43697478991597,8.192908349453996,1.7365210084033609,690,26,138,11,14,215,110,170,0.165,0.682,0.152,0.5632,1,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,4,7,7,15,2,1,5,0,12,7,0,2,0,15,32,8,0,1,2,1,6,2,0,1,1,0,0,1,4,3,7,1,4,1,0,2,2,9,0,0,7,9,26,6,17,23,3,21,0,6,3,0,11,5,0,3,14,78,30,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1006613551092162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10616038814924522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06922324248292075,0.0,0.1932571446660988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1273637381296839,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1173346507296993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10705135485045487,0.0,0.057417789136695624,0.08112508405030082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059328802138103966,0.10893414201110474,0.12907402547305893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12509574637309842,0.0,0.10041800649707468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1310294355414998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1872237351068868,0.0925640434302314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11611964114254925,0.0,0.11095634713224306,0.0,0.10027283799187334,0.0,0.0,0.1270411431626823,0.2479215779864108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12046594347201592,0.0,0.13299648850048945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11126166804576727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10875613626148277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09697698648111737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18098032084899607,0.0,0.11846463006372307,0.0,0.0,0.0939354550401799,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1288630434721266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1250669006527331,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6914086612428662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14625386261641354
EDAnonymous,punkblink,2019/03/06,"I might be actually worse than I thought I was. In the past few months, the only thing that kind of makes me feel better while I'm in a depressive episode is watching videos/documentaries about awful and often times rare diseases or disorders, weather they're physical or psychological. I don't agree with the whole concept of ""Sure, I might have it bad but there are people who have it worse"" but, in this case, I used said situations to feel better about my apparent privilegedness. And it works, at least in the short run.

In one of these episodes, I stumbled upon a video about Excoriation Disorder. People who have it repeatedly pick their own skin which may cause wounds and lesions. It was only then when I realized that I do that do myself everyday. When I come from school I spent 1/2 hours in front of the mirror, examining and picking the skin of my nose, forehead, legs, arms and chest. I wouldn't consider it anormal, in fact, I had never give it much thought until today. Now I feel guilty and self conscious everytime I do it and I'm so scared that it keeps getting worse to the point where it starts to interfere with my everyday life.

I started to analyze where and how this began and came to the conclusion that it was around the time I started restricting and purging. I remember when I was 11 or 12 my nose's skin was always ripped off due to me picking on it and I often had nosebleeds because I also picked the skin under my nose, near to my mouth. 

I just feel really really shitty about this. I'm decreasing my calorie intake because if I'm skinny that would at least distract people from my red, puffy and ripped off skin. 
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EDAnonymous,Laurenpower,2019/03/06,"What’s the weirdest thing you’ve eaten midbinge? I was binging yesterday and it got me thinking of all the fucked up things I have eaten before. To name just a few:

-Chickpea flour pancakes. Not great, but I had no regular flour. I’ll be honest, they were awful.

-Rice cakes with tomato purée.

-Bread dipped in a jar of pasta sauce.

I’ll add more as I think of them.",0.7373972602739727,3.262818424657535,1.804945205479452,95.12413013698631,90.78082191780823,4.015890410958904,18.25890410958904,5.6839178017228535,-0.30101534246575395,287,8,58,2,10,90,61,73,0.17600000000000002,0.765,0.06,-0.7682,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,2,0,1,3,1,0,4,1,5,5,0,0,1,10,11,3,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,3,4,0,2,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,6,0,7,2,8,4,3,3,0,0,0,1,3,2,1,0,1,36,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32531960540043103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3534415573010187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30577006813151514,0.4215006561966129,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5079826034071576,0.4899405645699266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,DominicAeris,2019/03/06,"I Am Waiting to Wear A Top I'm trying very hard to eat less in general, including going out less. I have this hoodie/top that has this kind of open elbow parts with ribbon and it's very goth/scene and 13 yr old me would love it and I can't wait to fit in it a little better and I hope that's soonish and I just wanted to tell someone",-0.3517000000000011,1.5051009466666692,2.2262500000000003,95.79937500000004,86.2,4.816666666666666,16.041666666666668,5.985473137389443,-0.6300333333333334,261,5,62,2,8,90,53,75,0.054000000000000006,0.7879999999999999,0.158,0.8146,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,2,1,4,0,0,2,0,5,4,2,0,0,15,12,5,0,3,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,7,8,1,2,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,6,4,9,11,3,9,0,0,0,1,2,7,0,1,1,38,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2311702046609297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2674579602188677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14854881438057568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23414598597204864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2596102551075135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27218803148739146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26197237379447663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2359065075555224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2742753324206605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.283050091687411,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22146722620325185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2284584664705773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17746050393317342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4313333067547952,0.1541692533114456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18567752370587567,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,HaveASchpadoinkleDay,2019/03/06,"Does any one want to get stressed out for me on my behalf? I'm in a community theater musical that opens this weekend. The role requires me to not only wear shorts on  stage, but also strip down to a slip and change into a dress on stage. I've dropped about 35lbs and will be doing a water fast for the next three days. Predictably, my ED brain is screaming that it's still not enough (and lots of other nasty things). 

This has to be someone else's reoccurring nightmare, right? Anyone have any tips for emotional survival in this scenario? Or just any love to share with a freaked out ED girl?",4.863017241379311,5.931539784482763,4.611551724137931,87.82612068965518,69.25862068965517,7.179310344827586,28.29310344827586,7.1686216300943375,1.3275896551724131,469,16,95,4,8,143,86,116,0.111,0.7959999999999999,0.094,-0.4784,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,2,4,5,0,1,7,0,7,4,2,0,0,16,11,6,0,1,5,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,1,8,8,1,1,0,1,0,0,2,3,0,2,0,1,4,2,20,8,2,20,0,0,0,1,4,12,0,2,5,60,12,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17866799576471254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4557974945542381,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15621967402415962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2494093565542173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.236347548303465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14408669312345232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19551536545433584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18663780382059247,0.25131616603545043,0.0,0.2308514242779275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11672714231566665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18994274027208846,0.20164425996499186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23760851104861996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15139441364453993,0.16992012411873272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19079850080195185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1893020900398166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17842260432020726,0.0,0.2559255695331931,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1484295748217645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13177824264142088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Bellawellaaa,2019/03/07,"Chinese shopping sites are insanely triggering Weird post but basically I have an online store selling harajuku style clothes and I buy all my stuff from a website which is basically the equivalent of Chinese amazon/eBay. 

I read product reviews to decide what to buy and. My.god. How are ALL these girls so tiny?? They usually put their weight and height and post pics in the review and I swear there is like a stigma of weighing over 100lbs / 50kg. Whenever a girl mentions how she is over 100lbs there is almost always a mention of how she is fat and she is sad that she had to buy a bigger size. 

For example right now im looking at getting some jeans in stock. There is a review by a 5'6 and 115lbs girl and the whole review was about how she was fat and had to buy size Large, and she was going to diet down to 98lbs so she could buy size small. Like wtf. I literally have yet to encounter a single girl that has a higher bmi than me except on ""plus size"" items ....and I'm 5'2 107lbs.  

I'm looking at one now and the girl is 5'5 114lbs and she is sad because she thinks she looks too fat to look good in the jeans and then she says ""i recommend a tall and thin pretty lady to buy, not me"" but she actually looks really nice in the jeans :( 

Urghhhhhhh",2.9733617909315133,4.727804772908367,4.021229368241318,87.52086321381144,74.97609561752988,6.852665528362738,23.50616581293872,7.62386473244151,0.9664659836843108,982,29,204,13,21,318,139,251,0.076,0.838,0.085,0.5267,0,0,0,0,0,0,26.0,0,0,2,0,14,7,0,0,17,0,20,6,3,5,2,32,30,25,0,1,4,0,2,2,0,0,3,1,0,5,6,16,6,0,2,2,9,2,1,3,0,1,5,8,23,4,29,24,6,26,0,2,5,0,22,17,0,2,7,134,29,6,0.0,0.0,0.15563157694887295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1596983403095543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1327019281664172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0972188409573444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1273335229697889,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08332284320078152,0.0,0.0906373835152664,0.1337660643866052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17226809384094235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15582984960172722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6696242147215721,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1080692351352559,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3054796376216861,0.16225068571892926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16032361426537015,0.0,0.0,0.15952531236354867,0.0,0.10216835177219176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13619688831473664,0.0,0.12682661018679528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18256891081957116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10218972482193996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17564706141273248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19420629910679235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17805612975911236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,throw------a-way,2019/03/07,"Anyone else affected by the news about Timberline Knolls? TW!! MAJOR TW: sexual assault, rape

I don’t know where else to talk about this but TK was in the news yesterday for sexual assault committed against some residents by a male therapist and I’m struggling to process it.

I was just wondering if anyone else was going through something similar because I don’t know where else to talk about it. 

Please be careful and check in with yourself before clicking because it’s very graphic, but here’s a [link](https://wgntv.com/2019/03/06/6-women-sexually-abused-by-counselor-at-rehab-center-timberline-knolls-prosecutors-say/) to the story for those of you who doesn’t know what happened. ",9.63175824175824,10.772913982905989,7.973015873015871,67.67,58.74358974358975,11.472039072039076,39.79120879120879,11.20814326018867,4.908346520146521,564,27,83,14,7,169,77,117,0.145,0.787,0.068,-0.8602,0,0,1,0,1,0,34.0,0,1,0,0,7,5,3,1,5,0,7,1,0,1,1,16,15,5,0,1,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,7,3,0,0,4,0,1,1,3,4,0,0,3,1,4,1,17,11,2,6,0,0,1,1,5,4,0,3,1,50,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2408760005472244,0.3529715688954045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20999841461247085,0.0,0.14656816315136773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17561568189775253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5755557744701115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09789103971718632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15231605315319754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28398472926179325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18907374322687345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13697646879778416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13260293693806355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18006830804158744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27688868283263784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1999902046222176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1421205077904686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18679280693151712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,saintshithead,2019/03/07,"Advice? Roommates and Secret Binging During more than one late night binge I've eaten my roommate's food. Like.. lots of it.  

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Tonight I decided to buy everything of his that I've eating without asking ($40 worth of food over 9 months of living together) but I'm not sure what to say when he gets home. It might be important to note that he never mentions it or gets mad at me for it. Sometimes I'll admit it to him and other times I won't... I'll just take his food without even asking or mentioning it afterwards.

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I push away almost everyone so he's my only close friend. He knows about my disordered behavior but not many details. He also doesn't seem very worried but he is supportive. He has many close friends and a girlfriend so I don't want to get too sappy seeing as I take up much less emotional space in his social life than he does mine. He knows me better than anyone else and I want him to know I care about him and I'm sorry I've overstepped his boundaries by taking food from him.  

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Can anyone offer me some advice on what to tell him? I respect his boundaries when it comes to everything except food. I want to express to him that taking food from him was a mistake but it's caused by a compulsive disorder I'm in therapy to alleviate- without it coming across like an excuse... Any ideas are appreciated. This is probably the most emotionally authentic and transparent conversation I've had to have in months so I'm pretty nervous. ",3.0598363095238104,5.474959517361113,4.277678571428574,82.71375000000002,77.0902777777778,7.169841269841273,25.910714285714285,8.192908349453996,1.8969589285714288,1183,45,216,22,28,387,164,288,0.08800000000000001,0.765,0.147,0.9715,1,0,0,0,0,0,39.0,0,0,0,1,12,12,1,1,5,0,13,9,0,1,2,43,40,19,0,4,13,0,0,2,3,2,1,1,1,0,16,10,8,0,8,0,2,3,9,3,0,1,3,2,28,9,40,34,6,25,0,0,1,0,37,12,0,8,12,133,44,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14343522654475155,0.0,0.0,0.073491281887683,0.0,0.0,0.05869139243932505,0.0,0.2385599396653046,0.2675371944216051,0.0499089377315841,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10263449987953847,0.0751985676509385,0.0,0.0,0.13722284347578895,0.0,0.06895400789250783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06490907910237721,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07482782693847599,0.07539359079937118,0.0,0.12644106674098354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16822671228852001,0.0,0.06422565492316806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07509812919822642,0.061309427808623834,0.16511178360737375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.048474588830630966,0.0,0.0,0.07012900584851096,0.13191962714082406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5324739034851494,0.0,0.11340463847520925,0.0,0.11503255222594495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07361795500526792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08285040397171878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12100263452977758,0.0,0.08278914217777314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05183879569766076,0.071711048351519,0.0,0.06480630012998784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06239508011826985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14881552291598465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07785709714052705,0.0,0.0,0.11716126212610377,0.0,0.05395141434685443,0.0,0.05660427724064436,0.0,0.0,0.06887322849013114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04973218010479368,0.05581776772782846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07466584096945879,0.07912876875088935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0583641016057537,0.0,0.0,0.058483759039073435,0.06681313432679914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0748136931849454,0.0,0.0,0.07258636248873537,0.08215610651861442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08328413993423751,0.06917089881295799,0.0,0.2207259863298048,0.0,0.06414766424374224,0.0,0.08392991444664431,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.042795346225557696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060555917594792036,0.12986514771258942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21224121594785206,0.0,0.0,0.07453293097177269,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2675371944216051,0.0
EDAnonymous,tulipsandmothballs,2019/03/07,"Hello Thank you for this sub for being so amazing and supportive. I’ve decided to make a separate account so I can feel comfortable using and posting to this sub.  

So I have been in recovery for a few years now. It stared with the help of a psychiatrist who put me on a medication that f$*%ed my metabolism and I gained weight no matter what. I’ve been fairly active and “worked out” and have been trying intuitive eating for almost two years. But I’m convinced no one can truly recover from ED. My body looks normal but my mind will probably never be totally okay.  I’ve never gotten over the fact that I weigh about 20-25 lb more than I did before recovery and I resent this doctor still. 

I’ve slowly been slipping back into my old habits of losing weight, except I am all or nothing. There is no such thing as a diet, it’s total restriction or what feels like a binge. I’ve also quit smoking cold turkey because I either have cancer or “precancerous” cells on my cervix. So I’ve been a total insane person for a months or more now. 

Sorry if this post doesn’t make much sense I have brain fog from quitting smoking probably. Thanks for reading this if you did, I look forward to having support online since I don’t have much irl.  ",4.307387511478421,5.736565367768595,5.451680440771352,79.92277318640956,70.94214876033058,8.022405876951332,25.427915518824612,8.515128840125781,1.7742747474747476,977,29,180,16,18,324,152,242,0.113,0.7659999999999999,0.12,-0.306,0,0,0,0,0,0,21.0,0,2,0,5,12,11,1,0,10,1,22,10,2,3,7,37,35,20,0,3,10,0,4,1,0,1,3,0,0,1,13,9,5,1,3,1,1,2,7,2,0,2,8,8,19,9,24,24,10,20,0,1,3,0,7,7,0,7,12,130,32,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12508192462169965,0.0,0.0,0.09989256053878448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09605007847503264,0.0,0.07614556114274182,0.0,0.10629142176541992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1387497383039943,0.0,0.13944377190720156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1278533383941497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12781677355906265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1263191268299237,0.0892375859060107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08372628227312055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06102598644391771,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20979024675726696,0.13974524722277473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1667602600037382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12583630233319582,0.0,0.0,0.12612611672409374,0.0,0.09970404503378663,0.0,0.18365026624194292,0.0,0.19268059441120436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12238782586806315,0.11985700794968615,0.0,0.13107476041528232,0.0,0.08464401005615273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10906886361421128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23926348221524926,0.0,0.2693538181422158,0.0,0.0,0.12557166339830605,0.0,0.26571985032458995,0.12494640243369334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1033289929606819,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13982942818277244,0.0,0.0,0.09975536316540468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2834986748321588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2300054778159033,0.0,0.0,0.08298638054996041,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08480745545334288,0.0,0.12202145901561473,0.0,0.0,0.10788437974363768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30421978861957844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09093785999979116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16087923707081445
EDAnonymous,jiggjuggjogg,2019/03/07,"Does anyone else see food as just food groups instead of what it actually is? Like, I don't really see a cheese sandwich as a cheese sandwich, but as carbs + fat + a little bit of protein. Or a plate of chicken and vegetables is protein + fibre + some carbs. If that makes sense? Protein to me is like it's 'free', carbs are affordable and fat is expensive. But if I don't have a balance of a bit of all of them in a meal I HAVE to have something that balances.
 
Which leads to making the weirdest food combinations. Like chocolate cake (carbs, fat) and chicken (protein). Or plain peanuts (fat, protein) and just bread. Or cereal with nonfat milk (carbs and protein) and cheese (fat).

I think it stems from some bullshit a dietician told me once about how you don't digest protein/slow release carbs unless it's with fat? So now every meal is fucking weird and I don't choose food combinations for flavour but for how balanced I can make it, and I can't eat in front of people any more without them making comments about my bizarre food combinations lol",4.487058823529414,5.888938294117647,4.811058823529411,84.79276470588236,70.47058823529412,7.400784313725492,30.266666666666666,7.793537801064563,1.9283807843137264,828,34,161,10,15,261,106,204,0.07,0.8690000000000001,0.061,-0.3776,1,0,1,0,0,0,32.0,0,1,2,1,9,6,1,0,9,1,15,21,6,7,1,34,24,23,0,2,12,0,0,3,0,0,7,0,0,0,9,10,20,0,2,0,2,2,6,2,0,0,1,3,13,5,24,23,6,6,0,0,2,1,6,3,1,7,4,97,22,1,0.0,0.0,0.12008030040797113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08367909104547037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08604031712731894,0.12608057945039586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.268680258846337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10768300569077574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12591218078653002,0.10279355611884493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10367601184335104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7439704902941273,0.0,0.0,0.11375892694824012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1803499217789029,0.12332971081994967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32855074370809245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13104559886509992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08530826500840502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07882980185327293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19611187974513705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09473088825989588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07884629260845716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11758077274428125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1186170442952039,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,daikon_ashi,2019/03/07,"I drew myself for a body image presentation in one of my classes I'm taking an amazing class this semester that meets a couple times a week, is pass/no pass, and is basically like group therapy for credit. Yesterday, we had to give presentations on our body image. There was no real criteria so people read poems, showed drawings and photos, stripped down to their underwear, and just talked.

I chose to do a slideshow of zine-style drawings depicting my journey with my body image and talk about them. The [body drawing](http://imgur.com/a/YvDO9yv) was the first slide and obviously the hardest to show. It wasn't blurred, I just did this because I'm honestly still uncomfortable with showing it to a bunch of people. I am currently fat, so the statement of I'M FAT in the corner and the drawing itself aren't even a result of distorted thinking. As with many people here, my body is a locus of trauma and whether I view it through a ""real"" or distorted lens, it will always fill me with disgust. I also showed [this one](http://imgur.com/a/ZW6oHNI) about the battle between the ""wins"" of disordered eating and the repercussions it has had on my body/life.

It was super nerve-wracking to have these projected on a huge screen. I cried. Some other people talked about eating disorders, and everyone talked about their various insecurities, but they were all about how they've improved and grown and healed. I was the only one in an active backslide. I could have lied, but things are so bad for me right now that it would have felt disingenuous.

People were super supportive and gave me a ton of affirmations, and I'm very very proud to have shared this, but showing and vocalizing all of the things I've been through and the terrible things I think about myself made me feel like even more of a piece of shit. Real talk, I'm embarrassed to even be alive right now. Still processing. But I wanted to share here because even though I've never posted or commented till today, this place has helped me so much in not feeling alone and indirectly inspired me to be as honest as I was in this presentation. Love y'all ❤️

Btw, for clarity: in the first pic, the mark on my back is a tattoo, the ones on my arm are scabs/scars bc I have dermatillomania, one on my leg is a bruise and the other is my hand, and the darkness around my stomach is stretch marks.

P.S. if anyone from my class or others I've shown this to see this, please let me know if you feel comfortable doing so! We're all in this journey together!",7.204861796257143,7.322506858350952,6.933976979093258,76.55180095528935,63.92600422832981,10.136371466604023,32.31767285255657,9.816601858774405,2.943081497141962,1996,70,368,37,27,629,239,473,0.085,0.7609999999999999,0.155,0.9909,3,1,0,0,0,0,76.0,2,2,4,6,29,24,3,2,32,0,38,16,12,3,5,63,58,40,0,5,13,0,5,2,0,2,3,0,0,0,26,24,4,0,9,6,1,6,5,8,0,6,15,8,41,16,59,37,10,45,0,0,3,1,22,21,1,8,19,265,67,6,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0844698467504489,0.0,0.0652221775171676,0.06786307496841545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05702748982697298,0.0,0.0,0.07260421673889117,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0627133315538964,0.06809780980082666,0.099434417922804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4529646659027261,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06511770050887679,0.0902427553844099,0.08958801021927071,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18694585417025608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16690909212411387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21547406571085131,0.0,0.0,0.07793249194560542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12371504648811275,0.05826529661240925,0.0783087994397193,0.0,0.0,0.13874696996695693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07823819438584352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05466683820913498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04482233243716209,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0833989315746301,0.0,0.07969057354296344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07360958890518929,0.07717247624692956,0.0,0.082687358823277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059954766407536775,0.0,0.06290282211717678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27633022018210496,0.0620287950932507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2827114297896316,0.0,0.08521110973929256,0.08952656922169637,0.0,0.0,0.07811034788901887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08158041395382751,0.27849374955128225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1393007587738568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06499144006271543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08371846717537328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13026519631834674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09255144124874903,0.0,0.0,0.061321723956103136,0.32776753407499565,0.0,0.0,0.09326907322396248,0.0,0.16255121746434525,0.10451858616396607,0.08013065800918319,0.0,0.04755732574103624,0.0,0.07730777289953575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13458834908936845,0.04810522386884383,0.0,0.06542118331773618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05793670692066968,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,kVIIIwithan8,2019/03/07,I overate I overate yesterday. I just got too comfortable and didn't pay attention. I'm freaking out because I wasn't going to log today but something came over me and reminded me to check and I'm on track to overeat again today. I have 637 calories left today and I'm terrified. I wanna cry and I don't know what to do. ,0.6836194029850731,3.0449238358208994,3.1747574626865687,87.21795708955227,86.76119402985073,6.335074626865673,26.285447761194035,7.6454224807358475,1.8032104477611928,255,12,51,5,8,88,42,67,0.181,0.767,0.052000000000000005,-0.8821,0,0,1,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,0,0,5,1,0,0,0,12,12,6,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,7,1,0,2,0,2,2,3,1,0,0,4,0,9,1,10,8,0,13,0,0,0,0,0,6,0,0,5,34,10,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16285884246895754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30556096753309664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29346377136203844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15183373118167307,0.0,0.21367302657832787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14682467761096898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2902711664380324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20567356051301106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7597120597444976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,borderline25,2019/03/07,"DAE get massively triggered by friends asking for help/support relating to food?? my friends all know I have an ED that is has taken over my life but STILL seem to come to me for weight problems/advice?? 
they are all gorgeous compared to me and will message me saying ‘i’m feeling really fat recently’ ‘i hate my body’ ‘i need to lose 6kg’ etc etc
I hate it!! Especially since they are already slim.
Am I being irrational or is it ok to get so annoyed by this? I don’t understand why they think I’m an appropriate person to talk to about this.

Obviously I want them to be able to talk to me and I don’t want to tell them they can’t. But I feel like they should be able to work that out for themselves?",2.8964952978056395,4.0953240413793095,4.361943573667713,87.267868338558,74.10344827586206,7.755485893416928,26.97492163009405,8.296473431620573,1.6127931034482756,546,20,120,9,11,182,89,145,0.14300000000000002,0.731,0.127,-0.8197,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,7,2,3,9,3,0,2,1,15,5,2,1,3,21,33,6,0,4,3,0,3,1,2,2,2,1,0,1,6,4,3,0,6,0,0,1,3,4,0,0,1,4,21,5,21,27,4,5,0,1,0,0,16,2,0,2,3,76,27,1,0.3052049905563195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1491213922309085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1684006482408825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14266273326245496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1695069704840554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13145353733375909,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3403842417660082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15432081360916786,0.10901925311813764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1845275430289974,0.0,0.23580061861009904,0.0,0.1594570106942374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3013267413900048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10228623586240644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08386634050484808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10778765540690896,0.0745538709431334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17072315800970395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11315281662955888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13324661272425148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09776106608540562,0.0,0.15067655398497784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1213556292608604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1389235803523407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12623436104476787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12186854985381762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17317150322027006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24531221044960336,0.13338130710036145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09778151715555247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15886457940061316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1800178110187538,0.0,0.0,0.18582872789721125,0.0,0.0,0.13770001618878028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1110964340494472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,mjdoesherbest,2019/03/07,"How do I know I've gotten it all out? I started my binge with lettuce so it would act as a marker, followed by 6 bananas and then a lot of oreos with milk. Like A LOT. I also had water ans coke zero the entire time so everything would be easier to come out later but since the coke zero & oreos are the same color how do I know the oreos specifically are all gone? Some of the undigested lettuce came up and I was relieved but I couldn't purge anymore so I had to stop and I'm still worried about the oreos.",0.879924242424245,2.908459601851857,3.316868686868688,88.76954545454547,82.6111111111111,5.4087542087542095,20.003367003367003,6.574015621080383,0.29122962962963017,399,11,83,4,11,138,69,108,0.059,0.8690000000000001,0.07200000000000001,0.1064,1,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,0,8,2,0,0,10,0,11,4,0,2,2,25,20,13,0,3,2,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,9,4,1,2,0,0,5,1,0,0,2,6,1,8,2,12,10,6,14,0,0,1,0,0,3,0,3,7,64,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2005230462238543,0.0,0.27168530069163177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2486745899060324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28678885650244634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21599715747847464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2253560904892487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27560903304070905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1225027833358903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4263538830717441,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2074212966407485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17748069066613267,0.0,0.2002476379742746,0.2096365152061656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.146213146982751,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2546467163460604,0.0,0.35624830087444964,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,thrwawy00025,2019/03/07,"Me: pans to allow myself a meal. Also me: ends up with Coke Zero. This morning I walked 20 min from my boys house. I couldn’t sleep because I was so hungry, and I have a long day ahead of me, so I figured it’d be best for me to grab a bite to eat. I was really craving a bagel with veggie cream cheese, so that’s what I planned to get at Wawa. 

As I get closer, I start reconsidering my choice and I think of getting an egg bowl. 

Then I think more on it and decide to get chicken noodle soup

As I walk in the door, I walked up to the kiosk and clicked to the soup section, but decided to look for an egg white omelette instead. 

Then I saw the omelette and decided against it, and walked over to the grab-and-go case and looked at the pre packaged hard boiled eggs. Then the salads. Then the freaking pickles. 

Then I went to the refrigerator and got 2 cherry coke zeros. 

:))))) cant believe how fast I went from allowing myself a bagel with veg cream cheese to nothing but coke zeros.",2.9541749174917484,4.037007915841588,3.973881188118813,90.55742244224425,73.8019801980198,6.574785478547858,24.85280528052805,6.742157984588678,0.6923692409240921,757,23,169,6,15,245,116,202,0.029,0.948,0.022,-0.3071,0,0,0,0,0,0,29.0,0,0,0,3,6,2,0,0,16,0,7,11,1,3,0,23,20,22,0,1,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,6,11,10,0,6,0,0,6,2,1,0,3,6,9,24,1,31,11,3,27,0,0,7,0,1,9,0,0,12,110,30,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16120143151797153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12287975594722475,0.0,0.0,0.22710878253025424,0.2115431205058765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13000079334173947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20626407771106708,0.0,0.0,0.1785378088146291,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4212636372339894,0.0,0.11456112268338625,0.0,0.1612199187984187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18057382104743225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23259333836051715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17838971943305784,0.33854861576653145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19341902094349306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12913569023935895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20172304882389414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14267757218409646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25832540941202026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37372867209558136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,athinsin,2019/03/07,"How to describe an ed to a loved one when you don't even understand it yourself? I told my boyfriend about my latest relapse. He's very sweet and supportive, i mean he wants me to get help but he'll never force me into anything i dont want. At this point all he really knows about restrictive eds is that ""eating makes you feel bad so you dont do it"". Which at the root of it it's true but i feel like i can explain this whole world in my head so much better i just can't figure out how. If anyone with an/ednos can help me think of anything else to describe your ed (analogy/personal experiences etc) itd be so appreciated thank you !! 
TLDR: How to describe a restrictive ed to someone you love who has 0 knowledge of it.
Also update about my last post about my bf, i just talked to him and he apologized and promised to never to it again, god im stupid",1.8346910112359536,3.638655769662922,3.5318960674157296,89.55548455056179,78.38202247191009,6.6971910112359545,22.922752808988772,7.6454224807358475,0.920212359550562,669,21,146,10,16,223,110,178,0.054000000000000006,0.7070000000000001,0.239,0.9891,0,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,6,0,1,16,11,1,0,4,0,11,4,1,5,4,33,28,14,0,3,5,0,2,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,12,6,1,2,9,0,0,0,6,2,0,1,1,3,22,9,22,24,4,15,0,0,0,2,22,7,0,1,8,95,34,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1223814003398638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10700507601199408,0.0,0.2518682266033484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12777717090646412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13534632022118134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3587099025843934,0.0,0.0,0.15659219916590306,0.12784044333267242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17067359397750176,0.10107765066444144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14969681976483235,0.0,0.0,0.15475738681413356,0.10932766831906636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07995405709410902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1570572471261393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20515120674791126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16530320475577395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08410359817739818,0.12474330420585207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07476478366202739,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.276238694002131,0.0,0.10215152174607377,0.0,0.0,0.16669911533542192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11249775075467937,0.0,0.2360588299586645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10369993946677876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.133623567066361,0.0,0.0,0.14466679098691235,0.0,0.14656446809332438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09803763190270268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12966538728538926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17366140498012644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12300309904704927,0.0,0.14089333734728313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09805814082887708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14623074327391045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15931400690791042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12626924811466053,0.18052708096665865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17085722735614262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Robbikinz,2019/03/07,"In terms of binging, this has been the worst week of my life. Having transitioned from anorexia to BED I’ve been having an incredibly difficult time learning how to cope.

How do you cope with the urge to binge?


I’ve woken up at 2 am 3 times this week and walked to the convenience store and binged.
Removing trigger foods from my apartment doesn’t seem to be working anymore. 

Today I also talked to my mom for the first time in 9 years about struggling with my ED. She has thought I’ve been alright since I was inpatient back in high school.

Now I’m living alone at 24 years old in japan. Finding English speaking support is almost impossible in the small town that I live. ",4.463358778625956,6.088410030534357,4.561748091603054,85.68964503816795,70.8320610687023,7.377404580152671,29.130534351145037,7.908726449838941,1.8324192366412213,538,21,104,7,10,167,92,131,0.09,0.8740000000000001,0.036000000000000004,-0.7902,0,1,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,1,0,2,6,5,0,1,6,1,13,2,0,3,0,12,18,5,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,3,4,1,0,4,0,1,2,1,3,0,1,6,1,9,2,22,11,2,27,0,0,0,0,5,12,0,2,13,62,12,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1845743503737949,0.1909045815130635,0.0,0.14740422746439338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18280036387539655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14173415456709074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1684692438614189,0.15678631639998056,0.2228859040654044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19474894301695594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13019383788513295,0.0,0.0,0.3255238019906256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21587861406491046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19341754475893674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18654622374313085,0.0,0.16780209227610254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15247512227028553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1926959773089448,0.0,0.0,0.20916924606506904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14815304237739318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14633305522498447,0.3224432759524825,0.0,0.1747180633190197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29570797400068594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13419042347332638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23739785553176465
EDAnonymous,LuluTheLoli,2019/03/07,"After ~6 months of restricting to 800-1000 calories a day I’m finally admitting I had been relapsed all along I wanted to lose weight (again) because I had become overweight (again!), very fair. So I immediately jumped onto the ‘dont-eat-more-than-1000’ train and now my BMI is shifting to an unhealthy low.  But I still don’t feel like I’m allowed to eat more yet. 

Fuck me man.",6.793082191780822,6.4195627945205525,6.722020547945206,79.37426369863014,64.89041095890411,9.491780821917807,34.688356164383556,8.841846274778883,2.7706465753424654,296,12,58,4,4,94,59,73,0.233,0.698,0.068,-0.9058,1,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,0,1,6,4,1,0,3,0,5,4,0,1,1,9,11,3,0,1,1,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,2,3,1,2,0,0,1,1,3,0,0,3,2,7,1,8,8,2,12,0,2,0,1,2,2,1,0,10,33,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15401167844124705,0.27902950888054256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1629368501501095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2961011949244438,0.0,0.0,0.5170432926976319,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12774625631715972,0.180491550382904,0.0,0.276763179993406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23356870556784035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1234308928808313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2826481249329931,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20166096477048354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2017647605987151,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2084607922981201,0.14901814531834198,0.0,0.0,0.3076568059726533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,plutocity,2019/03/07,"Upper abdominal pain after eating? I have recently been recovering from bulimia, but now every time I eat my rib area feels tight and sore. I thought maybe I was not digesting correctly, but then I throw up disgusting acidic stomach bile. Maybe it is just the acid creeping up where it shouldn't? ",6.078888888888893,7.922444481481483,6.282407407407407,74.06583333333336,67.14814814814815,10.585185185185184,32.01851851851852,10.686352973137794,3.809607407407408,238,10,41,7,4,76,46,54,0.187,0.813,0.0,-0.885,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,3,2,1,0,1,0,5,7,2,0,1,10,7,4,0,1,4,0,2,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,2,1,3,1,2,0,0,1,2,2,0,0,3,4,6,0,4,3,0,11,0,0,0,0,0,5,0,0,5,26,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5842778551886608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24054701243339774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14435794778411376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.573648510567684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30379332766261,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2818979190654219,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2266560034621005,0.16647800265918952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Kuchanec_,2019/03/07,"100 hours fast steak! So im currently at 83 hours of fast. Im aiming for 100 but I'm not sure whether I am able to keep it when I come home (because of family (and becouse of my stupid craving ass)). If I keep it today and tomorrow during school, it would be like 110 hours which would be def. my new record.

The problem is that im going to a party tomorrow in the evening and am not sure whether I should eat and if so, what particulary is the best if I'm drinking after. Obviously low cal options would be best. ",2.677222222222224,3.6758854259259266,4.3157407407407415,88.16583333333334,74.37037037037038,7.622222222222224,26.462962962962962,8.07648339933343,1.4134962962962965,398,14,90,6,8,134,67,108,0.127,0.721,0.152,0.7189,1,0,1,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,2,4,8,1,0,4,0,11,3,1,0,3,24,17,13,0,8,8,0,0,1,0,4,0,0,1,0,6,5,2,2,0,1,0,2,2,3,0,0,0,0,6,5,9,10,2,17,0,1,0,1,0,3,1,4,13,54,12,1,0.1479674160352453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09019956343118346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3105653485297509,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12746082698395272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1449517359309226,0.0,0.15140760670996548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09773108277734288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13949051107523788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08409329244327056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14842338280901915,0.0,0.4371542970855848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4794906019624159,0.0,0.0,0.26304047612843656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07228940535194134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14290785245017007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14158483370969766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14975092463099238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2789150769815581,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1402558090255789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3153354208766185,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,thund3rb1rds,2019/03/07,"Which vegetables/fruit are hardest to purge? I plan on eating them first so the unhealthy foods that I eat after come out easier and if anything has to digest at least it'll be some veggies yknow?
I don't know if this post is allowed. Sorry.",2.210000000000001,4.636591666666664,3.1498333333333366,89.57850000000002,80.25,5.506666666666668,22.1,6.742157984588678,0.6369949999999998,192,6,37,2,5,61,44,48,0.113,0.8270000000000001,0.059,-0.3691,1,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,0,1,0,6,4,0,1,0,8,8,4,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,4,3,4,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,4,0,6,6,2,7,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,3,2,27,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2568420955903053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26885738898159384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6387382661045872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2654828382807903,0.3774078234806391,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17152893553807838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2989176176116169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3493845292010474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Hydrangeor,2019/03/07,"Will you manifest on 8 mars? Hi all. This is a kind request.   
I am an anonymous ed student. For my university, I am preparing a small research on silence around ED.  
I am looking for people that would want to help me to answer a couple of short questions. Everything is, of course, anonymous, and you may change your mind whenever you want. It's not a big work and there wont be many questions. If you answer now, you do not have to continue, of course.   


My first question, for those interested is:   
Are you planning to manifest on the international day for Women the day 8 mars tomorrow? Or do something else?  
If yes, please let me know why and how you feel/have felt about it!  


I'd be very grateful for your answers.   


Take care all of you.  


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EDAnonymous,RedGeckoChainsaw,2019/03/08,"Relasping Oof So around October/September 2018 I began recovery. And it lasted a good 6 months. Not even sure whether I should live now that I can see what a blob I've become in that time. 95 lbs to 115lbs :(
This is fun aint it kids? ",-0.9693367346938756,1.0880692857142868,1.2477295918367342,97.02628826530615,101.04081632653059,5.715306122448982,16.32908163265306,7.1686216300943375,0.2493040816326535,181,5,42,4,8,60,43,49,0.101,0.77,0.129,0.3265,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,0,4,3,0,0,2,0,4,0,0,0,1,6,6,3,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,6,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,1,3,3,3,4,0,7,0,0,1,0,1,2,0,0,5,24,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33417178434960765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4145826793687486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2479379168795902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3148547022092778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30598846318809914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3314713841316672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.299628320438419,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2991328392304598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3537954415724024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21888971626719209,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,TrueLifeImANerd,2019/03/08,"Rant: My dad is making it hard for me to eat around people I (24 F) live with my family, they’re amazing and I’m lucky that they support me staying at home while I save money. A few years ago I struggled really bad and my weight was extremely low. Now I’m at a healthy weight and eat relatively healthy foods (with occasional binges that I’m working through). 


However, when I eat around my dad he always makes comments. He’ll say “Don’t eat to many almonds, they’re fattening.” or “Oh my gosh can you actually eat all that?” (In reference to the big salads that I eat almost every day). 


I know he loves me and isn’t actually trying to hurt my feelings, but it really gets to me- especially since I’m making a huge effort to eat nutritious food. I notice weird food patterns with him too, like he’ll refuse a random vegetable because it’s “fattening” but has to eat Pita Chips with every meal or have a Chocolate after dinner. 


I usually just take good upstairs to eat because I don’t want to be “watched” or judged. When I’ve tried to discuss this in the past he’s been really insulted. He thought I meant “never talk to me about food or eating ever again.” 


Am I insane? Has anyone else dealt with this?",3.7729893072989285,5.145842870292888,5.091262203626221,82.20993840074385,72.17991631799163,8.15629939562994,27.085309158530922,8.680891452615391,1.9673875406787549,942,33,186,17,18,314,142,239,0.121,0.772,0.107,-0.6728,1,0,0,0,0,0,27.0,0,1,1,2,10,13,1,1,7,0,12,21,0,3,3,35,30,13,0,1,7,2,4,1,0,2,0,1,1,0,9,11,20,1,5,0,1,0,4,6,0,0,4,6,25,7,26,23,2,23,0,2,1,1,18,9,0,7,14,100,34,1,0.0,0.0,0.14457779457725836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06566518247986045,0.0,0.07417785738683617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0616383657050302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05179666961496844,0.07590109307700812,0.0,0.131889256865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06185156959316236,0.09031384178281228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.047773821615289036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7579971630101425,0.06188219712110955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06700728702089921,0.1248268791129906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06983361930051954,0.0,0.0374557802958294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3582989461280408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.038702405848631785,0.0,0.0,0.062132643507969584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06635883746058162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0743057139190616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07930143343372144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04071102465958217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.036190496212932466,0.0,0.06541173817266639,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06685778330036862,0.0,0.14834180264367755,0.07510289895800172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057133089759659826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08433765834443216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07071530012899717,0.051355970847108114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14236771802103085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05890935488156183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0612776252599583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07895669652278943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07744182598986568,0.0,0.0,0.08406220297080669,0.0,0.0,0.05569701709844952,0.059540641625665636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05880921417020477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10058744067113873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08158583643784449,0.0,0.043692794388261375,0.0,0.0,0.180412734795429,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05392925980736259,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.047703443723121235
EDAnonymous,alunatniff,2019/03/08,"I need to stop talking about losing weight irl Seriously it's so much effort to pass off comments about my plate (we're not supposed to make them but a lot of students will ask me if I'm on a diet or gluten free or whatever) as ""I just like this"". I had one guy ask if the amount of food I ate for breakfast was filling because he didn't think it would be and it was SO much effort to just play it off as ""hahah, no this is fine for me"". I also have mentioned to two different people (one being my dad!!!1! Bad call) about uncontrollably losing weight rn (which is true to an extent I feel I'm overeating all the time but am still losing significantly everyday?). DRAWING ATTENTION is the worst possible thing I could do right now but it's all I want to talk about and discuss. Food and nutrition and calories and what other people eat and how they stay fit and whether I'm going to gain all this back if I slip up. And I keep rationalising it to myself by saying ""oh, well, if I mention I'm losing weight and I don't know how/why and I'm concerned, my parents will be expecting it when I visit them in the holidays and be less concerned or at least think we're on the same team"" or ""people at uni will think stress is really doing a number on me and I've noticed it too."" But I'm honestly making it worse and piquing the interest of people by discussing it. Goddamn though is it all I wanna talk about. ",2.8368070652173927,4.314503329861111,4.330283816425124,86.3191847826087,74.72916666666667,7.092028985507247,25.02173913043478,7.7425588080867325,1.2362389492753625,1101,36,230,15,23,367,160,288,0.14,0.728,0.132,-0.5648,2,0,0,0,0,0,32.0,0,0,3,8,18,17,0,2,10,0,23,9,0,3,5,53,43,34,0,10,16,1,4,1,0,4,0,1,0,1,18,13,9,2,6,3,1,4,4,9,1,3,5,5,24,9,34,29,13,24,0,4,0,0,20,12,0,9,8,164,42,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08357985204828354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19541306618696924,0.0,0.0,0.08036485705111486,0.08726487039576555,0.06371079788241989,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1067205355583763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08344596855607576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1091949428245555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10694397025900293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05284544651958451,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2527576204004643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05939774600137601,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10348534615686716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0928968942421767,0.0,0.0,0.0574381913662866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05106028807923943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4676979756783976,0.0,0.08885411212925322,0.0,0.0,0.13952788659606158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15365971197794914,0.07749584751259336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11898994436711655,0.0,0.0,0.14164285706781735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11605048970723315,0.0,0.0,0.2898275448464633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11782389352195435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06695437988809251,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08925443194125203,0.0,0.08311377144753904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11139807662537818,0.0834650593539463,0.08737842983538674,0.11972049692170787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2520133155352696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06943449413027375,0.2009051591135704,0.10268452842096984,0.0,0.060942985968255814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10209504527898322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061645097522989425,0.0,0.0,0.3818098883316581,0.0939706871061548,0.0,0.09430767854398883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.106508750961956,0.07424378603918504,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,abqnabra,2019/03/08,really close to relapsing hey so i havent restricted since like november-december and its been great but now that schools back i feel the pressure all over again and i dont wanna go down that path again im so scared haaahh help,0.7981055900621108,3.344010673913046,1.8511180124223607,93.49543478260873,94.43478260869566,6.976397515527951,19.614906832298136,7.957251820313856,1.2463515527950315,185,6,39,5,7,58,38,46,0.187,0.6509999999999999,0.162,-0.305,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,0,6,4,0,2,1,0,3,0,0,0,1,8,5,5,0,1,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,1,1,0,0,1,2,2,0,0,1,1,3,2,4,4,1,8,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,5,24,6,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2601716063472773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39654572469283295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1710808083736734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19229309374315848,0.0,0.0,0.3730339928459429,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2267900422189212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36547794555799396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16530157157725162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21675679154622732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3387491222272493,0.3424300292156826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2798880595169445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,juicypickle_,2019/03/08,"HAHAHAH why can’t I just loose weight like a normal ducking person Jesus Christ For some reason it won’t go in my head that it is very possible to eat and loose weight😩 nooo I will restrict hardcore, binge, purge repeat and end up maintaining my weight lmfaoooooo help",3.51576923076923,6.004409807692312,3.669846153846154,87.27515384615386,75.92307692307693,6.467692307692308,23.861538461538462,7.554174236665415,1.210803076923077,218,7,40,3,5,67,44,52,0.135,0.768,0.097,-0.25,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,4,4,1,1,0,7,5,2,0,1,1,0,2,1,0,2,0,0,0,1,3,2,3,1,1,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,2,4,1,4,3,1,5,2,0,0,0,2,2,0,1,3,20,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21435719620841,0.0,0.0,0.1855430404527663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11905612128592545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21499379482181266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1404145216412208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10234462180291146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20525249130153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18291570931554074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2361647823674117,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2153872212747999,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1728484697026741,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7652951068602247,0.0,0.0,0.18902916643784934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,darthacker666,2019/03/08,"#justrestrictionthings i'm doin a shift right now and i haven't eaten in 4 days and i feel dizzy whenever i stand up and that song that's like ""everything is gonna be alright"" is playing on the radio lmao
anyone who believes in god pray for me to get thru these next 3 and a half hours",2.3895000000000017,3.979025616666668,3.6433333333333344,90.315,76.16666666666666,6.8000000000000025,22.0,7.554174236665415,0.6163999999999992,227,6,51,3,5,74,50,60,0.032,0.718,0.25,0.8934,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,3,1,4,1,0,0,0,5,9,4,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,1,0,0,4,4,1,0,1,3,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,2,4,3,7,6,0,10,1,0,0,0,1,5,0,0,5,28,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2725978049092467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.43923650558285576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25142618244108605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3503792664770825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1971239380003588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20368473412419885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3839316366335547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1904649449386768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4146184463910176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33293663441228005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Wh7am1h3re,2019/03/08,"I just typed out a long post and it disappeared so I guess it’s a sign I need to be more concise : asking for some perspective from people who might understand? *I have never posted here because I don’t think I have the right to ‘self diagnose’ and at 228 pounds that I have an eating disorder. I’ve never been seen by a mental health professional at all so I’m trying to keep my wording general so as not to self diagnose or minimize the struggles of people with actual eating disorders . This just seemed like the best place to vent and possibly get some different viewpoints/ advice*

I FINALLY got health insurance for the first time in my life ever and I’m scared that a. Hearing the doctor say I’m obese will send me into a spiral and make me end my life or b. it will make me possibly get some mental health help and I’ll be happy with myself and I won’t be motivated to lose weight.  
I need to lose 110 pounds and it’s already seeming like an insurmountable task. I’ve restricted my calories to 300-700 and make sure I work out 2x a day. Because my BMR is 1800 so that’s just what I need to do to lose the normal recommended 2 lbs a week. 
But the real problem / reason I’m here seeking to maybe hear similar experiences / help from people who have experienced something similar- my relationship seems to be falling apart because of my dieting. My husband won’t let go of the fact that he thinks I have an eating disorder and that I’m going to die. He’s insistent. So I thought maybe I could just get help to get some perspective here to see if he’s way off base or I am??
In my head if I were to ‘get help’ for the condition he imagines I have, I’ll just be making an excuse for myself and I’ll never lose the weight that I MEDICALLY Need to. Like no one would look at me and think ‘that girl needs to take it easy and make sure she eats ENOUGH’ but rather the opposite. Anyone who sees me can tell I need to eat far less. 

I’m humiliated to post my weight on the internet anywhere (I’m literally obese and could lose well over 100 pounds before even approaching being underweight) and I’m nervous to post here if I’m doing something disrespectful in a community of people that struggle with far worse than I could ever imagine. I’m just really at the end of my rope here and I’m going to try to go to a doctor but was hoping maybe people could share their related thoughts/experiences/ something that might help me see what a good course of action would be. Because I really don’t think i need to see a doctor for anything other than a physical checkup and maybe some weight loss advice. And I’m just tired of crying every day wondering what is wrong with me. 

**disclaimer: I do post on EDMemes because I have had a history with disordered eating (binging and purging or fasting for up to 5 days at a time) but I wouldn’t presume to call myself someone with an eating disorder I really don’t want to disrespect any of the people here that are legitimately struggling. I don’t want anyone to look at my post history and think I’m being dumb or not self aware. ",3.8237072645864414,5.315794006525287,5.242762139460627,80.70480198535284,72.2300163132137,8.610169726840443,26.908784839123946,9.138037386147262,2.2064163618062542,2438,85,476,52,47,818,260,613,0.119,0.8059999999999999,0.075,-0.9825,1,0,3,0,0,1,41.0,0,0,1,10,23,25,1,5,33,0,45,28,1,7,9,114,107,38,1,23,22,1,4,3,0,9,15,3,0,4,23,29,14,2,16,0,0,9,13,14,1,2,7,15,52,11,72,78,10,55,0,6,7,0,29,22,1,21,20,298,75,7,0.0,0.0,0.044918300660998674,0.0,0.0,0.0899592867471589,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050794865769664535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03130174189978967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0643700060802985,0.0,0.03787848175556238,0.0,0.043031511232868414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14029624365595145,0.0,0.03916784375279449,0.0,0.04830528014879743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.047001421289445316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14700372716418916,0.0,0.05056141152305037,0.08905595313506118,0.0,0.0,0.0934382560724452,0.047771511807838285,0.04809118960583216,0.263769846045684,0.1413398983188048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32969877839788914,0.0,0.0,0.08153721899647895,0.047560935193468816,0.0,0.030402151142451837,0.08327291127059495,0.0387819671960428,0.0,0.0,0.09005166444051232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05042323404086972,0.0,0.03915279862174356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12024296727557696,0.0,0.1046388483283813,0.03860748837833807,0.03681411772928656,0.0,0.05070685129438569,0.0,0.0,0.04899942065311982,0.0,0.0,0.04723970268163417,0.14678210344015968,0.1037575266581543,0.0,0.15426352793141587,0.0,0.0,0.04571783056963872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04091326978366998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.047068437948413665,0.06502420917274856,0.0674632890085158,0.0,0.0,0.04073479370197649,0.07730662991773155,0.25747703424727325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1536257512486948,0.0,0.18497188964302352,0.0,0.0,0.04637003199650022,0.09277412619573217,0.09766037389400783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2389128269123729,0.10650271617519468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.045099286106304134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.031190883567312845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19146699084680116,0.0,0.04809118960583216,0.0,0.0,0.10378303347922928,0.26450209804810154,0.0,0.0,0.04404416068660452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052391821343041066,0.08846332151057508,0.04732614865874532,0.0,0.04941862031439072,0.0,0.03930907145163448,0.0,0.036604626900730006,0.04608371176015073,0.0,0.1467186932020854,0.12571099974884584,0.1440568977230405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.039000774911973374,0.10630762513796163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14436055967186653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08676480486377831,0.0,0.034608569971124284,0.0,0.0402319448358304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1474697125739642,0.0,0.03654240226112618,0.053680520682243216,0.05290431393431192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06250222471573483,0.0,0.0,0.0479184912320862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05429896287433982,0.03653619538878115,0.0369222105051448,0.22420686353141547,0.04138618524003805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.049917194285117136,0.033510134990442884,0.0,0.04690814798466959,0.06539628849299353,0.05032619879229941,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,kdanica95,2019/03/08,"So, it happened. My nightmare. Hi everyone! I’m gonna keep this post as short as possible as I’m basically just freaked out and really feel extremely alone right now. 
So I’ve had about a good 2 months of binging and I went from about 110-115 to a good 121 (which isn’t even a gigantic change) but last night at work one of my coworkers said to me,
“You’ve our back on some weight. You look good.”
Yep. It happened. First time. I felt my heart SINK. I wanted to cry. For some reason, it motivated me even more. That’s what it took for me.

Has anyone had this happen to you? Btw one of the reasons it hurt so bad is because these coworkers have seen my weight drop to it’s lowest so it’s not like a random weight gain. She noticed I put some BACK on. 

Why are people like this? Why even say anything? Damn, if this is what triggered is. Hahaha ",-0.5160875331564974,1.709276568965521,1.397011494252876,96.96644562334221,96.52873563218391,4.975773651635722,17.03713527851459,6.67199483983844,-0.08363236074270608,649,18,148,10,26,212,111,174,0.177,0.701,0.122,-0.8972,1,1,0,0,0,0,26.0,1,2,0,4,13,9,1,0,5,1,9,4,1,4,0,19,24,11,0,2,4,0,5,2,0,1,0,2,0,0,16,3,3,1,5,0,0,3,2,4,0,3,7,9,15,5,20,16,4,19,0,1,2,0,7,6,1,5,10,88,31,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12475349179847492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08422388293700886,0.0,0.099122961375284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18524260181926933,0.10057363524737764,0.07342733127873667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1274238239524272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1323125059188305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2386751881608559,0.0,0.0,0.1150984744117478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06090490524585015,0.0,0.11565424283902258,0.0,0.0,0.10245767954908726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3030920249669795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3195498779718499,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14273796907816486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12894795545558793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1070645990162412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09818567344816168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11769498460532035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10115059707037233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09614482886010968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11303744336758105,0.0,0.0,0.13713710005652902,0.0,0.0,0.16324480833499705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08350728548565407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13579321480408574,0.11536114980221568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12108902986852982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07716559195630371,0.2476925044575147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10286662481202696,0.11457885534487593,0.095789452223885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07023740038643121,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13382826269947454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07104659097009333,0.0,0.0,0.4400397120715083,0.0,0.11166159471422832,0.2173810840466296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08769157744424243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,spliffgriff,2019/03/08,"Anyone see Jennette Mccurdy’s HuffPost article about her eating disorder? Very honest, well written article, I’m sitting here crying haha. I’ll say that it’s very triggering so be careful, but I’m so glad she spoke up and was so raw and transparent about such a difficult subject. What are your thoughts? ",2.8444642857142854,5.906784517857147,4.207857142857144,77.36214285714289,87.75,7.8000000000000025,32.0,8.472884824447931,3.737721428571428,247,14,38,7,8,81,46,56,0.115,0.675,0.21,0.7126,1,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,1,0,0,8,6,0,0,1,1,3,1,0,1,0,5,10,6,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,3,2,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,4,3,3,5,3,5,0,2,0,0,1,0,5,1,0,0,0,22,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21552999305189016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3142732909317372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3385893939690699,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3532720690727068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3154085474825909,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2451264326972325,0.0,0.0,0.24562898818885145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2447097393657223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5086639098461031,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2771466016673173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Theseblondebitches,2019/03/08,Just saw an (upvoted)comment in a post on a certain sub that said that it's impossible to diagnosis anorexia below the age of 16 because you can't be underweight The ignorance... anyway the sub rhymes with catlogic ps I feel v invalid lmao,4.395666666666667,6.7872431777777775,6.366388888888888,69.45625000000003,72.7777777777778,9.833333333333336,33.47222222222222,10.125756701596842,4.070222222222223,193,10,33,6,4,67,40,45,0.0,0.86,0.14,0.7184,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,1,0,0,2,2,0,0,6,0,2,0,0,0,1,5,5,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,3,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,3,2,1,6,2,0,5,0,0,1,0,2,3,0,0,1,21,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38950619752352944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3230791265283489,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6119503735037064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6078005762263761,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,supemery,2019/03/08,"Stacking: Ephedrine and Modafinil? I used to EC stack and had great results with controlling my BED. I stopped stacking last summer thinking I could just control my hunger with Modafinil, but it isn't working. My binging has gotten so bad I've gained 20 pounds since December 1st. I'm so ashamed. I also haven't been purging, so it's just a disaster zone over here.  


So I went to my Primary Care Provider to request Vyvanse instead and he refused, actually telling me that my boyfriend should just lock our food up at night instead @.@  


I take Modafinil for my hypersomnia, but I was wondering if anyone had stacked ephedrine and modafinil together. I've been checking out other subreddits and they say it helps with energy, but I'm mainly wondering about appetite suppression.  


Any experience on this front?",7.030416666666667,8.685517875000002,5.9232222222222255,78.24400000000001,64.69444444444444,9.371111111111107,41.48333333333333,9.642632912329526,4.294346666666668,650,39,110,13,10,194,100,144,0.15,0.746,0.105,-0.8475,0,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,1,0,1,4,12,4,0,1,1,0,10,2,0,4,0,28,20,14,0,3,7,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,6,9,2,5,3,0,1,2,2,2,0,0,7,1,16,2,13,11,1,11,0,0,0,0,8,5,0,3,4,67,22,1,0.0,0.0,0.19074740888918654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1563147363169464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13292413277528953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13667493749000093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16320662063108704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1992914386747592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4384652937297599,0.15606434148770498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19120404607270292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23635924099370795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2155028466774586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13101728162468745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1593315377180795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18343235870338906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15544305176113105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16169216407535636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1634190045181802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14696671401649802,0.0,0.17084660637374874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12524723842699065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1688205636274227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.181199689985974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.42395083201228617,0.14230216475005295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,PM_ME_YER_SHIBA_INUS,2019/03/08,"watching my ""recovered"" friend try to diet makes me want to swan-dive off a scyscraper and it's a lasagna of horrible feelings, since I just realized I probably make people feel this way too

I feel like everyone I know with Food Issues is sitting in a weird twilight where we pretend we're all recovered, but we're not stupid either, so we just kinda...don't talk about it.",5.198749999999997,6.39890915277778,5.595444444444446,80.59400000000002,68.58333333333333,9.093333333333334,32.455555555555556,9.3871,2.9890688888888897,297,13,55,6,5,95,58,72,0.07200000000000001,0.797,0.13,0.5946,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,2,0,0,0,6,4,1,0,3,0,1,2,0,2,1,18,8,3,0,1,5,0,3,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,3,4,2,0,5,1,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,4,8,2,7,8,2,5,0,0,1,0,4,3,0,0,1,32,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2590306396146168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4112018853976214,0.19366116329735547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3277936476474819,0.0,0.20943741953901915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28293936617953724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1489796765169625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13243706008077602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3618989197904572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1879342509306237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29227243896392946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22424198028156272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21788558758164894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1840470056718195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15989129304691255,0.21517241635889672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,jirbl,2019/03/08,"Does anyone else get triggered by their partners eating habits My partner almost never cooks a meal, often just forgets to eat, and when he does eats like shit. And of course he's skinny. How I wish I could just forget about food. It's also a million times worse living together ",3.687547169811322,6.147693603773591,3.9062641509433966,85.9363773584906,75.22641509433963,4.994716981132076,21.92075471698113,5.6839178017228535,0.3861879245283015,223,6,38,1,5,69,46,53,0.154,0.753,0.093,-0.5267,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,1,0,7,2,1,0,2,0,1,8,2,2,1,13,3,5,0,2,2,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,2,1,2,7,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,4,1,4,2,0,3,0,0,0,0,5,0,1,2,4,22,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20395135134255607,0.0,0.0,0.16287903126347292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14241447697694548,0.2086893723649139,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16261812133149106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35647518388534644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6252319134948906,0.17014454409324145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2462849319923732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10641191658950892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09950544365137064,0.0,0.17984898545139522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15708691614117767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20906972676277832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11876468160147675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.234216496495908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2075624896744736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,gatechnightman,2019/03/08,"r/InstagramReality r/instagramreality

Go there. Now. 

If you are feeling shitty about your body and how it will ""never be good enough"", you need to go through this sub. So so so so so many images we see are edited unrealistically and make us feel like SHIT about ourselves. Most of it is fake. 

I used to spend hours looking at thinspo and, even at a BMI of 15, I didnt look like the girls I saw online. Yeah... cuz most of them are fake. 

Instagram Reality has helped me recover more than anything else I've tried, honestly. Take a stroll on down to that sub and ease your mind. ",1.9516076696165177,4.3684516460177,3.7462168141592933,84.97619837758113,81.212389380531,6.244542772861358,20.921091445427727,7.492282038375204,0.6122100294985255,448,13,96,7,12,150,84,113,0.135,0.767,0.098,-0.7607,0,0,0,0,0,0,20.0,2,4,1,0,11,7,1,0,3,1,8,2,2,4,1,17,20,12,0,2,1,0,2,2,0,1,0,0,0,1,4,5,0,0,2,0,1,2,2,3,0,0,2,6,11,4,14,16,4,9,0,0,4,0,9,4,1,3,5,60,15,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17796683610282393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2402205386091368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18066081246308027,0.0,0.0,0.2234585116978754,0.0,0.142840325133873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21869914173990607,0.15449903698956302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24581561756643855,0.18139197344044555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1449571932115899,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2129764661519776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21131132226848706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3632145666506356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14435789200888338,0.2192577409223369,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21836497900816895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16035700761019944,0.16679612060809074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1723343994805288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22199187696373554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16260360538077073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1468290526244972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.260138950945606,0.18678265001659625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,YaBoyBobbyB,2019/03/08,"Worried about my new medicine and it’s effects on my DE TL/WR: struggled with DE my whole life, last few years has been an entire binge period. New medicine I’m taking completely takes away my urge to eat, but I’m worried once I get back to “normal weight”(currently medically over weight), My medicine will make me keep dropping or when I quit I’ll just go right back into binging.

Long post: ok so a bit back story, I’ve had disorder eating habits since thirteen, started with major restricting, that would usually end in a big binge. It took a few year before I would start occasionally purging. I went through these cycles off and on for about ten years. I never thought I had a true ED cause i always convinced myself that since I could never “stick with it” and since I was never “super skinny” or underweight that it was not a real problem. A couple years ago after I got married something changed and a new cycle started that never happened to me before, I became a food addict. I would consume non stop, and not even worry about my weight. All I cared about was the food, it has been my only true addiction in my whole life. I quickly gained 60 pounds and on a 5’3 frame that’s a huge impact. Now even within that time there were a few times when the regret would really sink in I would purge, but for the most part it was all calories in and no calories out. Fast forward to now, over the last couple of months I was recently prescribed new medication, one of the side effects of this medicine is decreased appetite, well OH BOY, does this thing work. I’ve found that not only does it decrease my appetite, it actually makes food unappealing to me. Which for me, right now, is a great thing. It’s the only thing I’ve found that is helping combat my food addiction. The only problem is that it might work TOO well, I’ve been getting by on 400-800 calorie days and that’s only from making myself eat, I’ve lost 20lbs in less than two months, I’m feeling great, people are commenting and congratulating on my weight loss. But I know it comes at a price. First, this is definitely bringing back my DE habits, I’m finding comfort in not eating, starting to make excuses not to eat, worried about when I do eat. I’m also really scared that the weight loss will never be enough. Medically I’m still overweight for my height, I know I should probably still be like 30 pounds lighter but I worry that when I reach that goal I won’t want to stop. My other concern is that if I ever stop my medication my weight will just come right back, that my true food addiction will never go away and this little pill is the only thing keeping me from constantly over indulging. I don’t want to be on medication forever but I feel like it’s my only lifeline right now, but it’s a lifeline anchored to an ED. I really don’t know what to expect from this, I just needed to rant and air my feelings about what I’m dealing with. Has anyone else struggled with medications side effects and DE? Is there help to overcome sudden food addiction and binge eating? Is there ever a light at the end of the tunnel? 


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EDAnonymous,wles,2019/03/08,"Honestly, I hate the Asian mindset. I grew up in Asia and it was torturing.

I'm not Asian, but my family have been here for generations.

Most women I know have ED without even knowing it. The mental health help over there is horrible. I was fat shamed and shamed in general with how I look like. It doesn't matter if you're smart, talented, kind or whatever because it's all about how YOU look like.

Got tan skin? Shamed and treated like shit. Don't be surprised if random people fat shame you or call you ugly because that bloody happens.

My sister and I live in Australia now (THANK GOD!!!) and the most shocking thing for me is how 'body positive' Aussies are. It doesn't matter if you're an S, M, L or XL here and women openly talk about it. 

In Asia, if you're not skinny, a size S or XS or XXS, you're shamed. If you're not below a certain weight, you're shamed again. Got too tan, shamed once again. I was very shy and ashamed to say that I was a certain size or weight. It's the same shame someone gets when they admit they're a sex offender (no joke). 

Anyway, my sister's back in Asia visiting my mum. They went to a nail salon and that b*tch said ""why aren't you as beautiful as your mother?"" To my sister.

What the fuckkk??? Who the bloody hell does that? I'm so mad when she told me about it. Why even ask that question? What do they even expect her to answer? ""I don't know, bish. Ask God""???

I have had something similar happen to me as well. I've gained weight and people, saying ""Wow, *insert name*, you got fat!"" As if I don't know it and they say it in front of other people as well as if it's news to me. They do it with the sole purpose to shame you.

I'm glad that I have mostly recovered from an eating disorder thanks to the Australian mental health system. It may not be great, but it definitely is 1000x better than what they had back in Asia.
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EDAnonymous,everythingabove02,2019/03/08,"You guys probably know this one already [http://fudfacts.com/](http://fudfacts.com/)

Add your own useful/timewasting sites that other ED people would like! 

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~~^(my first post ever, I'm so afraid of my crappy English language (not my first language) (insert nervous emoji))~~",11.631428571428573,16.100479999999994,7.609761904761907,59.20607142857146,58.52380952380952,7.057142857142857,36.69047619047619,8.07648339933343,3.7132190476190488,248,11,25,3,4,68,38,42,0.132,0.813,0.055,-0.5411,0,0,0,0,0,0,36.0,0,2,0,2,2,3,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,5,3,1,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,3,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,0,3,0,0,5,1,1,2,1,5,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,4,17,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21443591950742813,0.0,0.0,0.4210892499721892,0.472237864818013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17577271863798086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3305753936555069,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19240642445922895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10679267585808623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09493447938312496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13167562698827526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13471637213537113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18610394885113848,0.0,0.20950881735183127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13803868799416186,0.0,0.472237864818013,0.0
EDAnonymous,LesbianSansa,2019/03/08,"So I already made and deleted this post twice. Maybe third time's a charm.

I don't think I have an eating disorder. But I think I am/have been engaging with disordered eating.

I lost weight. In a healthy way. It was good. I put some back on. I got anxious. I started binge eating. Same old story as a million others, and I knew it was a possibility, but I still ended up in the exact same spot.

It's Lent now. I've given up chips and chocolate - my two greatest vices. And I feel so ashamed, because I'm three days in and I can't stop thinking about them. I cried today because I finally got to the end of the week and I couldn't eat my favourite foods. And it's fucking *food*, not nicotine or alcohol or some other highly addictive substance. Why do I feel like this? It's for the best that I cut down on these two foods and to be honest, for reasons of my faith, I intend to see this through despite how awful I feel right now.

But I hate that it got to this point, I hate that I can't ever see a day I won't want those foods, and I *really* hate that I can't ever see a day where I'll look like what is supposed to be ""normal"". And I hate that I care so much. My whole personality was built on not caring, but here I am. 

I'm sorry, this is just a vent. I know a lot of others here have it much worse than me. But I figured people here would understand.",-0.17001838235294287,1.9594646493055592,2.0538071895424856,95.4248529411765,88.27083333333331,4.777124183006537,18.887254901960784,6.2272716619740125,-0.1608009803921564,1041,30,240,10,34,350,153,288,0.158,0.696,0.146,-0.5661,0,0,1,0,0,0,42.0,0,0,1,2,16,18,6,1,13,1,19,12,0,4,3,48,49,22,0,4,10,0,4,2,0,2,2,0,0,1,23,11,10,1,11,0,0,1,8,8,0,6,11,8,37,10,24,33,10,34,1,1,4,1,2,13,1,5,20,166,60,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09218476444249243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09037076952786788,0.0,0.0,0.09331596874069596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09553068221260076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06502274854329937,0.0,0.10309608807159797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08874231566663142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17243263327578698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09288708663126746,0.16360595530675295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1938301309423839,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3461110311911775,0.0,0.0,0.14979318212162213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15298184702979095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12827085022433884,0.06041091481758563,0.0,0.0926332388178623,0.0,0.0,0.40900950481997056,0.0,0.0,0.07817595419939967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07092636478274468,0.20289521434038585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3339487950196515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08934410756209578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04647291379634391,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08262517707741643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07101055344416189,0.0,0.09230911440345642,0.07189135652097088,0.0,0.08001435090647926,0.0,0.0,0.08495362085465079,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12432519859797835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08285253851457071,0.0,0.0,0.0887333078970003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05862445433545376,0.07383603850499472,0.0,0.0,0.07993816498252068,0.09533064180027974,0.08098675965017761,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08500789195538559,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05417240777977076,0.08694353931129946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07221525300293616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20215424503638732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09465993044498304,0.05985322575856561,0.0,0.06753110458556982,0.07069739037401622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1625512210366336,0.0,0.0,0.04930862316561225,0.0,0.0801546298552001,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16520904037618758,0.0880317402587793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04987669762935144,0.0671211630376945,0.06783031688594697,0.10297340268414504,0.0,0.0,0.07630380607493444,0.0944101485605427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0861756243410637,0.06007022481801925,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,alegnas97,2019/03/08,i know i need psychiatric help but i get panic attacks thinking about talking to people it's like an ongoing cycle to where i freak out even thinking of getting help. has anyone else experienced this? how'd you get through it? ,2.9148837209302307,5.782366534883722,3.954697674418604,82.02693023255813,81.32558139534882,6.2306976744186064,29.53023255813953,7.554174236665415,2.2701293023255817,183,9,31,3,5,59,35,43,0.24,0.594,0.166,-0.7059,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,1,0,0,3,4,1,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,6,8,1,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,5,1,6,8,0,2,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,0,1,19,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1906088808237405,0.27931182665316023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3101228667229264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22772306451069835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18005031712030795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4272681420734847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3654372612517568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1498143202108147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13317902542539908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20213010608608092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3198384096904877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.188987133720178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21910626973043587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3493432867979827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,kinlinlin,2019/03/08,"How do you deal with burst blood vessels in the face? I had a bad day and unfortunately ended up purging several times today. The strain of it caused blood vessels to burst around my mouth. It almost looks like a cluster of pimples from afar and red freckles up close; the area is tender as well. 

I don't suppose there's any way to deal with it, aside from make up and time. Better yet, is there a way to prevent this from happening?

The obvious answer is don't purge, but I'm not here for that, I am in a program and am attempting recovery. 

Also: fuck this disease. ",4.139048672566371,5.207652672566375,4.955918141592921,84.68927544247789,70.94690265486727,7.773893805309735,28.28429203539823,8.07648339933343,1.7461690265486722,444,16,90,6,8,144,77,113,0.092,0.852,0.056,-0.7183,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,1,0,2,8,7,1,1,8,0,9,6,4,3,1,17,14,8,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,6,8,0,1,1,0,0,0,3,3,1,0,1,2,5,4,18,13,0,16,0,0,2,1,3,8,1,1,7,59,11,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21970361630330668,0.0,0.0,0.17545905900108394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1492037398700392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19531803496078387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1831950125330118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19404695418844967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2253906057868028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14149884808307694,0.4523963165482919,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19432877013401628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2028374965862967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19402017820404813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10719078676439946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18424594927338714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14645534232587631,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2478665546922586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2558750394659505,0.0,0.20797142326092488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3483088583428169,0.0,0.0,0.19727252357190345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,fluentsyntax,2019/03/08,"retail therapy and new goods. retail therapied hard af today at target. just bought the new diet coke in two new flavors: blueberry açaí and orange. they’re in the fridge now getting cold and i haven’t tried them yet. (any opinions?) also, a few ‘healthy life’ and ‘love’ frozen meals. i feel good knowing they’re the healthier frozen food choices and the protein is up the wazoo. i’ve decided to only eat two of those a day or maybe just one. i haven’t decided yet completely, but we’ll see how it goes. i haven’t purged in a long time, but i feel a restriction mode acoming. 

i also bought a juul recently and omggg. i should have done this a long time ago. i vape it in the bathroom at work and along with my green tea, i never feel the urge to mindlessly stuff my fat face at my desk. i only really crave cigarettes when i drink, so it wasn’t bought to quit smoking, exactly. however, i’m liking the appetite suppressant aspect of it. weird how i vape the juul more than i’ve ever smoked cigarettes. maybe it’s because it’s just easier, scentless and convenient.

this week has been incredibly defeating and emotionally rough, so i guess i just needed to let some words out. have a good night, friends.",3.202838827838825,5.339734534188036,4.287338217338217,84.17115384615386,75.45299145299145,8.046886446886448,25.24542124542125,8.841846274778883,1.9964190476190475,947,33,183,21,21,308,142,234,0.044,0.877,0.079,0.8577,1,0,4,0,0,0,32.0,1,0,1,3,15,8,0,0,16,0,13,11,2,2,3,38,26,19,0,2,7,0,5,1,1,2,2,0,0,0,10,12,8,2,6,1,5,0,5,2,0,3,6,9,19,6,18,17,3,28,0,1,2,1,4,9,0,4,20,109,29,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11039412059684997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19918363763902752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08468911159633545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07591631337044141,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13057418331095094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08031575982276666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12744410933800004,0.0,0.12199838879394245,0.0,0.12743196175701801,0.0,0.14008683517767834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1126504221094888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1889082358810965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15059006757772456,0.0,0.09621661489792882,0.0,0.06506519737385143,0.0,0.0,0.3133660007351796,0.0,0.0,0.13719102923143942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11156027027773796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06844202050713312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12734704052061652,0.0879638348038926,0.06084225844671407,0.0,0.0,0.22042182193723672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11239908142740064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2502273684051482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09234225971446147,0.09605025011440348,0.3608344729289419,0.0,0.11686909797539972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08438917641315716,0.1894312872609544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13245993018669347,0.0,0.0,0.07978129067679711,0.0,0.12296480012965227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.099239491380697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1425645328518153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2848367532512956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1452365054047819,0.0,0.1180460696811926,0.0,0.0,0.08455212973316464,0.0,0.2433081897757048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09989569321299044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09066407776600294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,throwaway6112443375,2019/03/09,"I got dumped today. On top of that, I had to move out of my shared house and back in with my dad. It was increasingly toxic there, dirty, smelled bad and overall just miserable. On the bright side I had my privacy and now I don’t. 

The girl I was living with said “your eating disorder is out of control, get help.” during one of our house meetings, so in front of everybody else. It was humiliating. She’s been saying to other people that I’ve “been on a downward spiral for months”. 

The guy i was seeing called out my behaviour when he took me out to eat last week. I didn’t even realize what I was doing but he said he recognized it, and he said I could let him know if i ever wanted to talk about anything. A week later I get hit with the “it’s not that I don’t like you, I’m still just hung up on somebody else”.  

Hearing that phrase has become a pattern with people I’ve tried to date. You start to think there’s something wrong with you... when every venture is a failure. The only thing I can think of doing is to make myself smaller. I’m tall (5’9”) and always feel huge even though i’ve slipped into “underweight”. So frustrating i can’t get like, height reduction surgery. Maybe i’d be liked better if I was petite, or had bigger tits or something. Grass is greener, I guess. 

Probably one of the toughest days of my life so far. Just needed to post somewhere. 

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EDAnonymous,distimias44,2019/03/09,"I don't know how to ask for help When I was 15/16 I was aware I had an eating disorder, even though my then psychologist told me I was healthy (ok, does avoiding to eat and purge every time and track your status counts as healthy? cool) I remember I recovered myself, alone, but I did it. My relationship with food was fine, until now. 

I just started to lose weight suddenly, and without noticed, I lost almost 10 kgs in less than a year. Now, I just realized that I lost 3kgs in 2 months. Sometimes I forget to eat, other times I don't want to spend money, so I avoid it. But I am tired all the time, in a bad mood, with terrible headaches all the time, and I want to sleep all the time. I try to eat, but I get empty so fast. I am turning 25 in a month, and I don't know how to tell my parents that my eating disorder, might be back",2.054285714285715,3.378063919540232,3.6341543513957326,91.14413793103449,76.47126436781609,7.0403940886699505,23.34811165845649,7.7094869923839395,0.8575973727422004,638,19,147,9,14,212,103,174,0.205,0.723,0.07200000000000001,-0.9728,1,3,0,0,0,0,27.0,0,1,0,3,12,11,0,2,7,2,13,9,1,2,3,29,24,17,0,2,6,1,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,5,7,7,2,4,0,2,0,4,7,0,0,9,2,28,3,19,13,4,21,0,3,0,0,7,4,0,2,17,97,33,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11453526343988495,0.11846340778769478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1069300611158866,0.0,0.0,0.08795132530005037,0.09550270211472044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2621792723528562,0.0,0.1000948972078968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.585197576544311,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0755470534633161,0.0,0.0963702645725263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13830901036611434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05975894162746528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07666664728734429,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1257207500609307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12796220360008453,0.2497190331365837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12133933308284715,0.0,0.0,0.18259439321076434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13022263323147396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12700569311010074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12280154563673107,0.12957048684993006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1144628193283689,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11312495763097648,0.0,0.08095890510447261,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0999733496884571,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11237798079688988,0.0,0.3334801168277643,0.13146323148346786,0.0,0.10929519738017557,0.0,0.07765665807743585,0.1244128291459706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13492882895192207,0.0,0.0,0.13928428803183246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11025844588632268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0736571085536238
EDAnonymous,idontwanttoworkout,2019/03/09,"Why can’t I stop eating Why can’t I stop binging? I threw my scale away and am only able to weigh myself once a week at the gym, I’ve gained 12lbs(this isn’t good as I am nearing overweight now) All I do is eat nonstop. It doesn’t help that I’m on my period and want to eat everything around me. I’m going to Mexico to meet my in laws in 5 weeks and if I’m fat I’m going to freaking die. I lost 80lbs by restricting and now I can’t even do that for a day. Why am I in hell? ",0.22450450450450526,1.134872531531535,3.0398198198198187,95.23558558558558,80.44144144144144,6.374774774774775,19.54054054054054,6.937597516519254,-0.008902702702702658,365,8,96,4,9,130,67,111,0.211,0.703,0.086,-0.932,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,2,4,4,1,0,3,0,11,6,1,0,1,12,20,6,1,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,3,5,6,3,0,1,0,3,5,3,0,0,2,0,13,1,16,18,1,19,1,1,0,0,2,8,1,1,8,55,16,0,0.17347405819876352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15442869043300236,0.0,0.0,0.16298458809453806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11187641638743337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18003868438863918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5325218081503245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11457797936747514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1559072978372039,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19717860997119455,0.14550180959617814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11627600453442287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18936742675399515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1847442104008908,0.0,0.13193483830060587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2900641606165995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10231949408349772,0.0,0.27830085138632604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4696000660820494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,marigoldpollen,2019/03/09,"When doctors are blind to disordered eating... This happened yesterday and I don't know how to feel about it.

I went for my annual women's health exam, mildly dreading it because I knew I would have to tell my doctor I haven't menstruated in eight months, with the necessary context that I've been eating a very low-fat diet and running long distances (aka, a way of being honest without using the words ""anorexia"" or ""relapse""). Her response was that the Female Athlete Triad is fairly common and to be expected in lean women runners. She then spent several minutes asking me why I didn't use a treadmill to train through the winter (like she did when she was training for a full marathon as a medical resident working twelve-hour days in the frozen Midwest), encouraging me to join a local running group and train for a half marathon, etc.

I know I'm over-sensitive and projecting, but when people encourage me to exercise more and don't say anything about my weight being low already, it makes me feel like maybe my self-perception is accurate and I look a lot bigger than the scale would indicate. I had an ED dietitian once, years ago who claimed that it was essentially impossible to be ""skinny-fat"" and clinically underweight at the same time — but now I am questioning the truth of that...

It's weird to me that I've seen so many doctors over the past year, and none of them have ever seemed concerned that I tick all these boxes: bradycardia, low BP, severe osteopenia, amenorrhea, history of treatment for depression and anxiety. Of course, I always have bigger and more important things to talk about than ED (autoimmune disease, dermatological concerns, low blood counts, that sort of thing). But it still surprises me that even when the topic of food and exercise comes up, I'm never really asked about it. No one ever says, ""you're underweight,"" and in fact I receive compliments on my low HR/BP all the time. At the same time, I'm always told how important it is to exercise, which is fine, but frankly I don't need any added pressure, thanks. Is it because I don't look thin enough?

I see a lot of posts on Reddit about how being overweight has become normalized and it feel a bit like I'm living in an upside-down universe, where doctors and family members and other people seem to see me as completely fine and healthy even though physically and mentally I am a bit of a wreck.",12.601031879194627,8.185414845637585,11.54052432885906,62.0824643456376,57.143176733780756,15.112360178970912,45.83459172259508,12.602617957971056,5.593375950782997,1904,80,332,44,16,615,247,447,0.092,0.812,0.096,0.4068,0,0,0,0,0,0,65.0,0,0,1,1,21,20,0,2,26,0,31,18,1,6,7,59,60,35,0,5,6,0,5,3,0,2,12,2,0,2,25,20,6,0,9,6,1,6,10,8,0,3,12,13,34,12,48,41,14,53,0,5,6,0,20,21,0,7,27,221,59,7,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08100013927434295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10083671971214156,0.0,0.1520658595072541,0.0,0.0,0.06213944906880563,0.0,0.06990310496305302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07519543146796145,0.0,0.17085019799658696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11140506256953477,0.10091864529429803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19951989262530614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.078713138207955,0.09580697755132453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05893056347925117,0.0,0.0787028199918246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1047258837333434,0.3741126586965033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18700283302253567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09441680017619657,0.1019094366320146,0.12070720719291415,0.16531133779315568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0861420417297765,0.0,0.13860877131599586,0.06527970043307625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1104933521928564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0808043216097159,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0971294086458199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0899878742327404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1004367472347691,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13392646405364905,0.0,0.08068750747457139,0.08086571177654751,0.15346722261760656,0.0,0.0,0.15537080448416965,0.0,0.0,0.06099481348952927,0.09264186964485804,0.09180041283669448,0.0,0.0,0.09205264840500056,0.09208645812905036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07293619751913456,0.0,0.0,0.06775483927349985,0.07047552527742276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08952999488060473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09731345327286273,0.06191937583049033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08722962372079758,0.12669852223316916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0875138445589332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10236307949778546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058538404231754014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14533321220668735,0.0,0.0,0.14563117274527726,0.16637225901123698,0.09532607149818252,0.20645985368162714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07297373811623611,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07344531884369339,0.07986746856033207,0.08412760462616573,0.0,0.0,0.12141355029555526,0.0,0.08977737443167312,0.0,0.1598478764344885,0.0,0.0,0.08731457701236077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15784066589364198,0.0,0.07539554092362638,0.0,0.07253075754689399,0.0,0.1112724894183977,0.0,0.08470733396622136,0.08245347082585924,0.0,0.0,0.088084104291583,0.0,0.06652349678154552,0.0,0.0,0.12982310540764494,0.0,0.0,0.11768750011845892
EDAnonymous,junerose777,2019/03/09,"best binge foods?! i’m heading to the grocery store after a terrible fucking day. i do not care how shitty i’m gonna feel, i just need a damn good binge!! what do y’all recommend?",0.5486842105263143,2.5926215000000035,2.7097368421052606,92.55565789473684,84.0,5.905263157894738,22.657894736842106,7.1686216300943375,0.7707684210526313,139,5,31,2,4,47,31,38,0.187,0.509,0.305,0.7455,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,1,0,1,2,6,2,0,3,0,2,3,1,1,0,5,9,1,0,1,2,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,1,0,1,0,1,3,0,0,0,1,3,3,2,8,1,2,0,0,0,1,1,0,2,0,2,15,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3848503824110969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3738958373907511,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23650428769166526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1854248276417073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4434397027993233,0.0,0.0,0.33902705426363144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3075876305978795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37636087785873296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27191849278149754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,erisrain,2019/03/09,"Cant hold stuff down I know this probably isn't normal but i cant tell if it's from my ed or what. I used to purge a lot, I stopped for a while then last month did it one time, but haven't done it since. But I find now I cant hold food down. Even the slightest bit and it feels like it's coming back up when I have no intentions to purge. I have to fight not to burp or the battle is lost. The other day I v*mited in my jobs parking lot, completely involuntary. Is this bc I purged too much in the past? What did I fuck up ?",-1.169782082324453,0.7201975423728832,1.0971428571428596,102.20881355932205,90.52542372881358,4.727360774818402,15.20823244552058,6.18269132825596,-0.8956581113801452,402,8,107,4,14,134,74,118,0.175,0.7959999999999999,0.028,-0.9498,1,0,0,0,1,0,12.0,0,0,0,1,5,5,3,0,6,0,12,3,0,2,0,20,18,10,0,2,7,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,11,2,1,3,3,0,0,1,7,4,0,1,4,1,13,1,12,14,4,18,0,1,0,1,2,6,1,5,12,74,24,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1540070157387244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2186596499011844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17252803233507727,0.20999530316313092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1291674349790445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2049613767298516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.132286537036782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10127025434370096,0.1430838424633374,0.0,0.0,0.18305711541514927,0.0,0.2421857528990455,0.0,0.0,0.18516051195158886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1987522336691027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11007155075414707,0.16325923310882093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0978492699220715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21863504009360765,0.3405507617947153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1598657978892156,0.0,0.14723272428609135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19623704763125815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13571848764595432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1911949603904552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21594140456999586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16567805146873282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16744746040330016,0.0,0.0,0.22927872522267784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17505816070874367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11678795612376232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1729821738090494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,marshmallowwsx,2019/03/09,"Like real clothes fitting is even an option Bought a couple new pairs of work/dress pants in to be hemmed and to see if they could be narrowed through the waist and hips. As she’s pinning them she pulls them up off my hips and onto my waist and remarks “Not too long, are too big all over, just need to gain weight!” 

...yeah, or I can give you $20 and not... 
pffft",2.1320175438596465,3.3712341315789516,2.3921052631578945,100.47307017543864,76.10526315789474,5.066666666666666,20.561403508771924,3.1291,-0.658975438596491,278,6,68,0,6,84,62,76,0.0,0.918,0.08199999999999999,0.7345,1,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,1,3,1,4,1,0,0,3,1,6,5,4,0,1,15,10,8,0,3,5,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,3,0,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,0,1,2,9,1,11,6,1,11,0,0,1,0,7,8,0,3,3,43,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2568057954614872,0.3558919065019904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21244219472496853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30854931282452275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15713854274302191,0.0,0.0,0.2846439692760113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2384942389644612,0.0,0.3106448527446829,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3661001966473506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2563078599683969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3916745721202125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23415996419276816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ekaatauria,2019/03/09,"Thank You and Recovery! After months of browsing this subreddit, and the old one as well, I finally decided to post!

So, I'm Ekaa and I'm 17.

I just wanted to say thank you to everyone on this sub for helping me feel less alone. I think I'm finally in a decent place and I'm going to try recovery. It's taken so long for me to admit to myself that I have Binge Eating Disorder because I felt so guilty and disgusting and used to convince myself that it was merely a result of heavy restricting. Yesterday was a huge wake-up call for me when I binged and realised that it wasn't even a result of hunger; I binged because I felt empty and numb. I'm a bit worried about recovery and potential weight gain, but I hope it helps. I'll be seeing my counsellor on Monday!

Once again, thank you to everyone on this sub, I don't speak about this stuff with anyone irl so this sub is sort of my safe place :)",3.6677926421404687,4.6056115652173935,5.1289130434782635,83.50036789297661,71.93478260869566,8.922408026755852,26.11036789297659,9.265573868473778,2.0250556856187294,704,22,146,15,13,237,104,184,0.085,0.742,0.173,0.9541,0,1,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,3,0,1,11,9,1,0,6,0,7,4,0,3,0,26,26,16,0,2,2,0,4,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,13,10,3,2,6,0,0,1,2,2,1,1,6,7,20,7,24,19,2,19,0,0,1,0,9,7,0,2,10,91,33,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14875709148090174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1004292519457203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17511070958837946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1568064734616869,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1466620206496882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16461212255385274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14696907856038652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09486608694640676,0.0,0.0,0.27448873840002463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07262351081866343,0.0,0.2758141441034876,0.31467871350463866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08162808971131519,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19254397078457428,0.0,0.0,0.14265673733081335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1271077978320976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11464388608266453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15071524827573454,0.15296098276028072,0.097327227227031,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3001250110971639,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13755758549982325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11422013205363543,0.0,0.0,0.1144543049006245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16442168620596742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3967048947940832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09203213620939232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09751516358898957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12404997748323335,0.0,0.0,0.08471654043493139,0.0,0.0,0.17490232607301193,0.12914038315793053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1458629702800243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Ok_mini_,2019/03/09,"Climbing and ED The less you weigh, the better you climb. Restrict your calories. The scale decreases. Lose more to be more. There was never a goal, only less and less. Lightheaded. Fatigued. Ignoring every contradicting voice in your head screaming to eat. Screaming dont eat. Fat. Fat. Fat. It was all worth it: to be smaller. My worth increasing as the scale goes down and down. Losing control of the restriction. It controls you. You grow fearful of the scale. You're no longer in control. It dictates when it is safe to eat and what is safe to eat. The list shrinks as you do. You're miserable. Everyday wondering when it will let you eat again. Chewing gum, praying that it will satisfy something, anything. Your workouts are too much stress on your body. That's ok, you focus on climbing. But then climbing becomes too much and you're left with nothing but the monster you unintentionally created, only to be better at the one thing you can no longer do. 

Recovery isnt the right word. But the monster has been tamed. I can eat and eat without it stopping me. Physically it no longer holds my body hostage but it's still there. Taunting me and damning my body. Fat. Fat. Fat. Every chance I look in the mirror. After every time I eat. When my clothes fit differently than they used to. I have the energy to climb but the excess mass makes it so much harder. Time off makes it harder. I want to be good again. Despite the accompanied misery, somehow, I want to be small again. ",1.5491251784065128,4.271881277978338,2.385863487532536,89.43080765678785,93.62093862815884,5.031617832255899,23.77038032071195,6.7210904114959815,1.0990465787927135,1162,48,215,17,43,363,141,277,0.106,0.758,0.13699999999999998,0.8843,1,0,1,0,0,0,50.0,0,13,1,13,13,16,1,3,16,1,22,21,10,6,2,34,29,19,0,2,6,0,0,0,0,2,7,3,0,0,16,8,16,10,1,1,2,7,7,10,0,1,3,4,26,6,27,18,10,35,1,4,1,0,14,14,1,2,14,147,42,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07076593791425087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09497388934232563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15210984605498645,0.0,0.2865606664679983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28934958000488165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08984568494139895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1007846167730023,0.0,0.0,0.7039486635355052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21736158543772646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09676743544985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07212789422863898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08825490653582724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09343300074091747,0.08793494361977915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07221350908969315,0.19241113133804344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11480365496221435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1896469980217666,0.0,0.06632406449295054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08251379906190298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05827192716590227,0.13080499944886798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07343861688449865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0662025724690837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0686751165608328,0.07189504087453831,0.09850611914086392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05713075644645255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10028787368824374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07427141878780619,0.0,0.0,0.10144326956846626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08289538518289387,0.0932570923626174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,crenegade,2019/03/09,"hi all, need help finding the online tool that helps you visualise your body to help with BDD hi guys,

the BDD and ED been HITTING extra hard lately and so i’ve been looking for a tool (not sure if it’s a piece of software or a website) that helps you visualise your body by plugging in your measurements? 

i’ve seen it mentioned here a few times and i hope someone can help 😣

love this community so much, you guys make me feel validated and less alone everyday 

♥️💗♥️💗♥️💗♥️
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EDAnonymous,crazycatlaady,2019/03/09,Do I have an eating disorder I used to struggle with anorexia/ bulimia about seven years ago and now I think I’m struggling again. I’m purging maybe around 4-7 times a week and I just started to use laxatives. When I brush my teeth I throw up every time and I’m not honestly sure why... I binge to the point where I can’t move about three times a week and then run to the bathroom and purge my brain out. I just don’t purge after every meal so I’m honestly not sure. ,2.2178030303030307,3.6053280909090937,3.658472222222226,90.87437500000004,76.17171717171719,7.374242424242425,23.48611111111111,8.07648339933343,1.066423232323232,367,11,83,6,8,121,63,99,0.184,0.816,0.0,-0.9285,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,0,10,6,0,2,5,0,4,4,2,2,2,17,12,8,0,0,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,8,2,0,1,0,0,3,4,2,0,2,0,1,11,4,11,12,0,21,0,0,0,0,0,5,0,0,13,48,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16254719705562715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16323893588303434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20470251612270965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2101588838307161,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18763416101250407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3089957044319685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1842206683696488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19489419674817302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1733447266069887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1297908334264814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38339805888403705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.345649717344935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11749663829281352,0.0,0.0,0.3207750567158652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3167470828106592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2941780747364143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16546367315317265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11808481716276938
EDAnonymous,Carokoneko,2019/03/09,"I realized that feeling left out sparks my ed And now since I am in a loving relationship I just can’t restrict anymore and now I just have to deal with my anxiety and body dysmorphia. 

TLDR: Gaining weight because I love my SO. ",3.139666666666667,5.2192829111111125,4.793055555555559,80.73625000000003,75.44444444444444,8.055555555555555,31.25,8.841846274778883,2.849333333333333,181,9,34,4,4,61,35,45,0.08800000000000001,0.657,0.255,0.8442,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,1,5,2,0,0,1,0,3,4,1,0,0,10,6,4,0,0,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,5,1,1,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,8,2,4,6,0,5,0,0,0,2,4,3,0,0,2,25,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21855889396765912,0.0,0.2833365618502843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1741594115916933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3173470970451761,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2945430444334541,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14445795967171088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3104127155915293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5157088645578181,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3067337232753661,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2363331012908285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3479043202611253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,latex55,2019/03/09,"Do you struggle with eating at a restaurant? i now am obsessed with knowing exactly how many calories and what is in my food, so if i dont make it i get massive anxiety.

does anyone else struggle with guessing at a restaurant the calories or better yet, NOT believing the calorie count they have. For instance, Cheesecake Factory has a skinny menu and i couldnt bring myself to order the burger and salad because i didnt believe that it could only be 580 calories. I figured they were wrong. 

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I hate it about me but curious if anyone else was in the same boat. its like i have to physically 'see' what goes in the dish

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EDAnonymous,7aylorAbi,2019/03/09,"Does eating something like sugar free jello or a rice cake after chewing and spitting help you not get stomach issues? It's one of those things I do on impulse, so I want to at least make it safer for myself..",7.573571428571428,5.889692547619048,7.4904761904761905,78.76285714285717,64.0,8.4,32.904761904761905,3.1291,1.7666761904761903,165,5,31,0,2,53,40,42,0.0,0.7170000000000001,0.28300000000000003,0.9009,0,0,1,0,0,0,4.0,0,1,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,1,5,2,1,0,5,4,3,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,1,3,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,4,3,6,4,1,3,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,1,2,22,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3528817885579661,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4126195704898568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21067849402983704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27028614217275404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4208822642121429,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1970047875099392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26916868945109024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2732487614997578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3104371489855288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2678975829663681,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2378439251987649,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,cheekchub,2019/03/09,"none of my jeans fit me lmaooo sooo after days of eating like shit and binging on crisps and ice cream yesterday and in combination with period bloat all of my jeans are too tight on me..when i sit down everything just spills out and i just feel fucking huge 
i’m actually supposed to go shopping later for an event that i wanted to lose weight for lol i was doing so well but then my dumb period came around and decided to fuck me over...i have exactly one (1) week now to lose weight before this family event and oh my god i don’t know if i can do it but i really fucking need to unless i want to be the fat cousin again ",2.786846153846156,4.040537069230773,4.366153846153846,86.91384615384617,74.46153846153847,8.276923076923078,21.46153846153846,8.841846274778883,1.1679076923076923,489,11,108,10,10,164,93,130,0.124,0.779,0.097,-0.8286,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,2,9,9,5,0,2,1,8,8,2,0,2,25,19,12,0,4,6,1,4,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,10,4,1,3,1,1,2,2,7,1,1,2,5,14,2,20,16,2,23,0,2,1,3,1,8,5,1,13,68,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.17250299110714548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1573636627300568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15041909651851354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20217892537499496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11400266755145072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18088085829820474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.158870371594922,0.0,0.16664396139671345,0.0,0.08938072619208406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.490265807889535,0.0,0.0,0.1004630298621552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09714871561499587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08636137886370376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3955230531471675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1310734525628352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1197846007408721,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11324402555517338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18145288558434175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20852822506645585,0.0,0.14179502912396105,0.43051889782979214,0.1589383533963422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,CalvinPindakaas,2019/03/09,"Info on weight gaining methods? I tried searching this sub for weight gain methods but couldn't find any. So here is this post

een a sack of bones ever since I developed and ED as a small child. Been trying to gain weight but I've actually lost some more because my parents are the *best people in the world*. Looking for a way to actually gain some weight for once.

Do people here have experience? Apart from just eating a lot of potatoes, what's a way to prepare food in a way I'm willing to actually eat? My budget is also limited so I can't eat beef/avocado/etc all the time

I hope I didn't break any rules, I'm desperate to hear from people with advice",2.4309452736318384,4.366921074626866,4.175447761194032,85.01575870646768,77.05970149253731,6.854726368159205,24.59950248756219,7.793537801064563,1.3028129353233835,520,18,106,8,12,175,87,134,0.063,0.8029999999999999,0.134,0.887,1,0,2,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,7,7,3,0,0,9,0,10,9,1,0,2,15,16,7,0,2,3,1,4,0,0,1,0,1,0,1,3,2,8,1,2,0,1,0,3,1,0,0,3,6,7,2,17,11,6,13,0,1,1,0,3,6,0,4,2,62,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.3426967021902104,0.0,0.0,0.11438823540358095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09361165978873162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15920762160059498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0713577900663467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12284569957578224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3593402829150239,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13055119789422562,0.0,0.10588613718041907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11450569877746307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1069893707426372,0.0,0.14154763253390776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13193346471970682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11626552753890132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0982996786773242,0.0,0.12778320749159205,0.0995189715180201,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12466350826636725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12997963856783729,0.0,0.0,0.2434609256357945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11210970855184416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09683202115528937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06825776702349366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15895010848908908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2787468244804721,0.0,0.5701829885960067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,stealthyelfy,2019/03/09,"I binged. I'm so disappointed in myself. I think I can admit I have a problem. I'm house sitting for a friend right now. I'm away from my roommates and all by myself. 

I don't know what happened. I wasn't even thinking when I went to the grocery store and bought all the food. 

In the space of 6 hours, I ate:

- 2 rectangle pizzas
- 1 litre of chocolate ice cream
- 2 cups of mousse
- 200ml fruit juice
- 300ml chocolate milk

I'm so full I can barely move. I feel so disgusting. Why did I do that? 
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EDAnonymous,guldaanthrowaway,2019/03/09,"broke, need some food hey i've got £0 for the first time in my life. i srsly need some cheap options, i can't cook either :( my only idea is buying 5 bananas a day for £1 and eating them at 3 hour intervals? i might go to a food bank any idea for there?",-0.03827586206896783,1.112902758620688,2.361586206896554,98.79203448275864,81.75862068965517,5.329655172413793,16.772413793103446,5.6839178017228535,-0.8063420689655172,192,3,51,1,5,66,46,58,0.061,0.892,0.047,-0.1911,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,1,1,1,1,0,0,3,0,3,5,0,0,0,10,7,1,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,2,1,3,1,1,1,0,1,1,0,6,0,6,5,3,7,0,1,0,0,2,2,0,4,4,24,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15104596280036567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14324593848966113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2272793159866024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1889310883427169,0.537165199084076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12623319528575494,0.0,0.17764582798197132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21873874499260584,0.0,0.0,0.5014820833739393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1568865450247702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2356291424529833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3293912349019325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1689286298410148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12951716802266608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,mab564,2019/03/10,"Just curious... To those of you who are bulimic, how many of you use a finger to throw up and how many use another implement, like a toothbrush or something? ",2.724,5.15186206666667,4.436666666666671,81.06500000000003,78.33333333333334,9.333333333333334,30.0,9.725611199111238,3.4640000000000004,122,6,23,4,3,41,23,30,0.0,0.915,0.085,0.3612,0,0,1,0,0,0,6.0,0,2,0,0,3,1,0,0,2,0,1,1,1,4,0,7,3,4,0,0,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,1,5,3,0,2,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,1,1,17,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3490222059436973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16261367809605498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6749152353911565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25624416163816816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5749509945356388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,anxfloat,2019/03/10,Broken bones Y’all...I think I just hit a new low. I just googled the least painful way to break my legs because if my body needs to heal broken bones then I’ll burn more calories and be at my gw faster. Please end me and my horrible ed brain🙃,2.2796153846153837,3.4073223461538475,2.6415384615384627,99.27846153846157,75.53846153846153,5.9692307692307685,22.615384615384606,5.985473137389443,-0.037746153846153874,190,5,47,1,4,58,41,52,0.209,0.708,0.083,-0.7959999999999999,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,2,0,1,6,4,0,0,7,4,4,0,2,3,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,7,0,3,2,2,8,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,1,4,21,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20913121503644044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3810714757634741,0.0,0.3829776156426295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30385663284832043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2543807531730724,0.0,0.3313374442655026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36504879577786253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3765859063792743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21982427588936732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2723116006299597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,seanl25,2019/03/10,"How EDs Distort My Perception of Weight I (21M) have been bulimic for 3 years now, and before that I spent about 1 year restricting. I'm 5'4"" and at my lowest weight I was 88 pounds, and now I'm 120. I'm the heaviest I have ever been and I have to say it really screws with my mind. 

People tell me that I'm thin and it makes me feel so confused. In my mind I was skinny when I was 88lbs., or when I was 108 lbs. Not now, not now that I weight 32 lbs. more than I used to. Now I feel average at best, and fat at worst.

The rational part of me knows that I'm still on the thin side and that some of the weight I've gained is muscle, but I can't help feel a sense of overwhelming failure and disgust when I think about all the weight I've gained. When someone comments on how I'm small or thin, it just makes it all worse, because it makes me realize that I have such a severely distorted perception of weight.

Does anyone else feel this way?",1.863488805970149,3.0816604079602,3.3402207711442813,93.49003264925376,76.76119402985073,7.4130597014925375,21.51772388059701,8.07648339933343,0.6951514925373132,726,18,175,12,16,239,104,201,0.17800000000000002,0.784,0.039,-0.9799,1,0,0,0,0,0,23.0,0,0,0,3,18,6,2,2,7,0,12,9,2,6,3,38,29,18,0,0,6,0,13,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,12,9,8,1,9,0,1,0,3,5,0,0,7,14,22,1,18,22,7,25,0,1,0,1,4,11,1,4,13,107,34,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07679283381037448,0.11252962922164512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0669488588200632,0.0,0.09345376516717936,0.0,0.1152555227663878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09610939889931837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09174545998163776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09934382836831952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22212513143233512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07361399623707693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06035745105183159,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21992895454914166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22178573393805887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11893076420424355,0.0,0.07613946154740267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07035729382616432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08733797622364578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12407202399365687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09305514194157136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08770711811533358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09599269106148732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0703720121798914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09485432899768384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08717469987664885,0.0,0.8024302680118743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11192199074971658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1414485778040667
EDAnonymous,vinegar_doppio,2019/03/10,DAE love protein bars when restricting but can't stand them otherwise they taste heavenly when I'm in a restrictive phase but just taste like regret if I'm not🤔,3.4792708333333318,5.863519218750002,4.057500000000001,84.97083333333336,75.5625,9.266666666666666,26.291666666666664,9.725611199111238,2.6969041666666675,133,5,26,4,3,42,27,32,0.142,0.5660000000000001,0.292,0.7814,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,2,0,3,4,0,0,1,0,1,4,0,0,0,7,4,5,0,2,4,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,2,2,3,1,4,0,4,1,1,0,1,3,1,0,1,3,11,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4760376672120062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8794248912757423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,earlgreybaby,2019/03/10,"LGBT men in the community? I'm a trans/gay man and I feel like I'm the only guy in the community who is. I know I'm not the only one but I honestly feel like I am (if that makes sense)  if anyone else is going through the same thing and is part of the LGBT community please let me know, I'd like to get to know some more people :)",0.7761261261261296,1.8235037297297327,3.5713513513513497,91.4247747747748,79.27027027027026,7.095495495495496,19.09009009009009,7.793537801064563,0.2371333333333329,252,5,65,4,6,90,45,74,0.0,0.75,0.25,0.9619,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,7,0,5,0,0,1,0,14,16,5,0,2,4,0,2,3,0,0,0,0,0,3,3,2,0,0,5,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,2,5,4,6,15,4,3,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,3,3,37,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15913145535964146,0.23318586879264294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19011654922865207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2301457940988488,0.3251709473808351,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11890282163686612,0.0,0.129340769370756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2253431349098353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3752213019535179,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23271922711619875,0.0,0.33355694731117963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.151913543997041,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15421625686435236,0.34617453678367194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24645041282874014,0.0,0.1577775259115491,0.0,0.0,0.2498179964930858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15119615635702408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,redtopiary,2019/03/10,"Why do all the other ED folks at the grocery store have to steal my favorite foods? I have a very particular set of strange safe foods that I get at Kroger and lately they’re ALL GONE, like my fav cereal, ice cream flavor, frozen dinners, etc. 
Is this life’s discreet way of suggesting that I starve? Why does everyone have to like the same cardboard flavored low calorie brand of cereal as me?",7.467763157894738,6.857672881578949,6.880526315789478,79.57368421052634,63.605263157894754,10.23157894736842,33.473684210526315,9.516144504307137,2.827457894736842,313,11,61,5,4,97,59,76,0.117,0.7140000000000001,0.16899999999999998,0.6641,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,0,0,5,0,0,4,0,5,4,0,0,2,5,7,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,4,1,3,1,0,0,1,1,0,2,0,0,1,3,6,3,8,6,4,7,0,1,1,0,1,3,0,0,3,32,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21650051570513806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2759152610876887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2364003286576737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5983116603584198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1292557566992413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27907682681812895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17474521693088008,0.2417332912904165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20413006926833266,0.0,0.19637379586055206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.44647820029958185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,MissNietzsche,2019/03/10,"Does daylight savings mean I have to eat less Calories?!? My daily intake allotment is based off my TDEE of 24 hours in a day. Taking away an hour of burning Calories is taking away AT LEAST 60 Calories worth of burning. That means I'm getting 60 more Calories than I usually get in a day..an extra 60 Calories that I don't technically need because that time is gone.

Guys.. :/",2.817847358121334,5.1231012739726065,3.9949510763209415,84.99520547945207,77.35616438356162,5.815264187866927,29.606653620352247,6.868970318607317,1.7323557729941297,295,14,54,3,7,96,50,73,0.044,0.928,0.028,-0.2851,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,3,0,5,1,0,0,0,5,14,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,1,0,2,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,5,1,11,13,5,12,0,0,0,0,1,6,0,1,5,32,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39666310218166223,0.0,0.0,0.12868210403643926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2722787896943113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18473144854166532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2160038104111744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22057779483463127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2090181338645496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4157738877192525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4598906496801203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15652493836934495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3174356978863903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12309171947793665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23249231535608586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,patriljaz,2019/03/10,"I'm 15 turning 16 soon but I can't find a balance with food for last 7 years Hello. Firs't I'm sorry that my english isn't perfect so please don't mind. The short story withouth details is on the end. Thank you
  So where do I begin? When I was little I wanted to be a dancer or an iceskater. Everyone called me chubby or round but I was not a fat kid at all. Me and my mum always watched iceskating together and I always asked her to train but her answer was that I was to fat and that iceskaters eat only youghurts.
   When I was 9 I still wanted to be a ballerina but my mum told me that I was to fat. So at 9 years old I quit snacking and only ate weggies,meat,frui t and healty stuff in order to loose weight. I refused to eat cakes at birthday and my mum was proud on me. In that time I had binge attacks. My mum is bingeeating herself all the time so it was normal to her. I would eat half a loaf of bread with nuttela,jam,butter and all that I could find. I didn't know nothing abaut calories at that time so I would also drink araund half a liter of milk a day,trying to loose weight.
   When I was 11 I started hiding food and I had panic attacks at school. Everyone thought I was seeking attention but in reality I was o erexersizing and not eating much. I was put in hospital once but I was not skinny enough for noticing.
    After that I started binging again and I putted a lot of weight on so I stopped fainting. In 6th grade(I was araund 13) we learnt abaut anorexia in school and I finded counting callories an amazing idea. So I did it in a healty way. So I though. I would eat 1200 callories per day. I still wanted to be a ballerina so I saved up but my mother was constanyly telling me that I'm to fat and that my ass is to big so I started cutting callories down and restricded. I was in a hospital tvice that gear once beacuse my mead hurt so much I feelt like I would fall. I also couldn't feel my body right but I was tk afraid to tell them that. My weight was normal beacuse before restricting I was fat.
  My mum saw me writting my cal down and saw found my hidden food but she was kinda proud and she was still telling me that my butt is to big.
   I attemped suicede and I had to go to a psychiatrist. He was full of bullsbit and juddged me for my attemt. I fellt even worse. He told me that ballerinas are stick thin and that theyre anorexic. Like all of them? Wtf
  In 8th grade (13/14yo) my aunt eventualy singed the papers and I started going to balle classes. I was so happy and did much better at the beghining. But my mum thought that I was to fat so I went back to not eating much. 
In 9th grade I was 174cm tall and had 50kg and my balle teacher was consurned for my weight loss but my mum still saw me fat.
   I got my shit together for my last year in elemenaty school and wanted to gain a bit for my school dance. I also meet an amazing guy who I'm I curently dating that makes me feel apreciated. So I gained weight.
  I cried to my mum and asked her to send me to treatment 3 times in the past. On my healthcheck the doctor saw my ed and wrote a note to my personal doctpr but he ignored it...ugh
  I couldn't take it anymore so I ''relapsed''. Curently I'm loosing at least 1.5kg per week some weeks even 2kg. I'm back on my safe foods,exercise and counting callories. I can't find a way out and I feel bad for my SO beacuse he is so much supportive but I still can't take it anymore. 

 How can I get help if nobodey wants to help me beacuse I'm not skinny enough? It's to much to hanndle mentaly.



On short: I'm struggling with a mix of restricting and binge eating dieat for the last 7 years. I asked my mum for help 3 time. 1 doctor found out abaut my ed but my personal doctor ignored the note that he recived. 

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EDAnonymous,yelaa,2019/03/10,"for my rice cake gang out there: get your hands on some of the kallø lentil protein cakes. they have a gram more protein per cake than normal rice cakes, and they are super tasty/better textured than rice bois imo. same calorie count too (30 kcal)

this has been a crunchy psa ",4.479339622641508,6.040300660377362,2.9359905660377343,97.61266509433963,70.69811320754717,5.300000000000002,22.683962264150942,3.1291,-0.2741283018867926,217,5,46,0,4,60,45,53,0.0,0.926,0.07400000000000001,0.5994,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,1,2,1,2,1,0,0,3,0,4,1,1,0,0,5,5,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,4,1,6,4,3,2,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,1,0,24,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4705218328904261,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8823883525825995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,jane_doe86,2019/03/10,"Also trigger warning ( need to drop at least 5 kilos to get to the weight I want , support welcome) As I said, I need to drop 5 kilos.
I have been IF for a while and dropped 30lbs but I am obsessive with being a single digit weight in stones. I am 10 but need to get back down to 9 at least. Anyone else get that? 
I am not great at heavy exercise.
Can anybody help shake it off?
ED approx 15 years. Sorry for crappy format etc. I’m on mobile . ",-0.18595307917888704,1.942957892473121,2.1717888563049854,94.55041055718478,88.35483870967741,4.242033235581624,17.056695992179858,5.565023196281405,-0.53150752688172,336,8,74,2,11,114,65,93,0.212,0.7190000000000001,0.068,-0.9153,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,0,2,5,0,2,3,0,7,3,0,1,0,11,17,7,0,5,4,0,2,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,2,2,0,0,1,0,1,1,2,0,0,2,3,7,3,17,14,4,14,0,0,0,0,3,7,0,1,3,48,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1635086112776332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14296495488522046,0.20949602412965865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15721906476171085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17080220765894769,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2280297680491061,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3204696989533952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2254206610128024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1370469238958167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4548191255201292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19449068736751995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2288790626108109,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2320216559213031,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1205972975668275,0.0,0.0,0.4979605577439299,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13166716567767184
EDAnonymous,dezelita,2019/03/10,"When you get called out for using sweetener... lol I'm 16 and work at a fucking breakfast restaurant. Today I was pouring myself some coffee and had three packs of sweetener to add to it when a co-worker of mine said ""Are you seriously gonna add three packs of those to your coffee? That shit is worse than cigarettes,"" to which I responded with ""Sure, but *clicks tongue* zero calories, ya know."" 

""You don't need to worry about that shit, dumbass.""

Ha.

Hahahahahahaha.


Totally didn't make me wanna starve even more. ",2.342187499999998,5.183910510416666,3.6320833333333375,83.27125000000002,84.52083333333334,6.533333333333335,21.541666666666664,7.793537801064563,1.3108291666666672,403,13,74,8,12,131,75,96,0.142,0.778,0.08,-0.7462,0,0,1,0,0,0,23.0,0,5,0,1,4,6,3,0,2,2,6,4,2,2,2,15,15,5,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,5,6,1,0,1,0,0,0,2,4,0,3,4,2,10,2,15,10,3,5,0,0,1,1,8,2,3,1,3,50,15,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25732812471976546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16644876529916386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23297713650130306,0.13166366646326366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13849688810357044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1682171534092276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1868605794531112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2397171128072113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5173647398579789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2375143550423467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2388739137530064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21765381341319626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3669293378638008,0.2559261384913514,0.2568174626175165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,throwaway4fearr,2019/03/10,"Upset at a weight I used to be happy about I used to genuinely be ok with weighing like 140 lb, but now I have feelings of disappointment about that weight?

Specific weights haven’t historically been a big motivator for ED behaviors for me, but I compulsively weigh myself.

140lb used to seem like a perfectly fine weight to be at, but now it’s upsetting to weight that much? Again, weight isn’t a huge deal for me but It’s really upsetting to weigh that much now.

Unrealistically, I want to be really light/dainty in order to feel attractive, but I can never be light because of my height, idk I’ll see how I feel at 130 lb.
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EDAnonymous,fortniteandfoxes,2019/03/10,"Missing my ED. I feel weird writing this but part of me misses my full blown Anorexia. I’m what you call recovered now but I miss that disassociated relationship I had with food, I miss being able to say no and have this intense self restraint. Most of all I miss that state, it was awful and painful but it was powerful as well. 

I think some thoughts of Ana are creeping in so I’ll see how it goes. ",1.3285185185185178,3.705216913580248,2.779259259259259,91.1666666666667,83.56790123456791,5.575308641975309,23.814814814814817,6.937597516519254,0.7616518518518514,314,12,68,4,9,102,61,81,0.239,0.674,0.087,-0.8942,1,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,1,0,1,4,8,0,0,0,1,6,2,0,1,1,14,16,8,0,0,3,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,8,3,1,0,3,0,0,0,1,7,1,0,4,3,10,1,7,11,5,4,0,5,1,0,6,2,0,2,1,46,18,0,0.29587529502600396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30212175706269323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1496034392230553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3577735811895477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31483217466703634,0.0,0.0,0.3204041116761451,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3176593386198435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2352919101694549,0.0,0.0,0.2357743030321423,0.0,0.308662460716262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1895849421318732,0.0,0.234891934659482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2660274234228366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,_Trappedinacorner,2019/03/10,"DAE get kinda pissed/hurt seeing a girl skinnier than you? I live in an area where everyone is overweight. So I definitely stand out, which is fine with me. Might sound like an asshole, but it gives me an ego boost tbh. 

Anyway, I was at Zumiez today and the cashier looked so fucking beautiful and thin. She couldn't have weighed more than 90 pounds and she looked to be around 5'4. She had no fat whatsoever anywhere, her legs were my goal. Her clothing literally hung off of her, and she had most gorgeous olive skin. I'm 5'2, around 115 pounds on a good day. Made me feel like a fat piece of shit. All my insecurities are coming back fml",3.16717818181818,5.208996976000002,3.4738181818181815,90.3969090909091,75.24000000000002,6.465454545454546,23.363636363636363,7.348242739294969,0.7372399999999995,502,15,106,6,11,155,97,125,0.091,0.7170000000000001,0.193,0.9412,0,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,1,0,1,7,8,2,1,7,0,11,8,5,1,1,17,21,7,0,1,1,0,3,2,0,1,3,1,0,1,2,9,4,0,1,0,0,1,2,3,0,0,5,7,16,5,13,13,4,15,0,0,3,1,10,10,2,3,5,64,18,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4015565077721987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17342619713197166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19428258123834816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14545452318685673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21551295994423436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1140397079261076,0.16112568995911805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20850792603663645,0.11783524529876348,0.2163583433794756,0.0,0.18917209740027174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24144503826850536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22037472375302625,0.0,0.1991557900338416,0.0,0.3787932843797544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21341122767908305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2392621035248433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17972603299699713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23151338052364584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21378537434558584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,aswerefallingdown,2019/03/10,"How to deal with oral fixation (eating, chewing, etc constantly)? Hey. I literally can't go more than one or two hours when I'm at home without needing to put something in my mouth and eat it. I have food addiction as well, but eating addiction/oral fixation is torture. I am able to go more than a few hours when I'm outside, but when I come back home I'm uncontrollable and I have to eat something.

I can't gain anymore weight, and chewing gum is not a possibility unfortunately.

Does anyone have any suggestions? I want to stop feeling this need to graze all the time, and preferrably would want to eliminate it altogether but substitutes are plan b. Thanks.",5.334124444444448,6.811324848000004,6.063466666666669,76.32817777777778,68.52000000000001,9.715555555555557,33.08888888888889,9.994966539143718,3.3861822222222213,526,24,98,13,9,172,81,125,0.12,0.7809999999999999,0.098,-0.7795,0,0,2,0,0,0,18.0,0,0,0,2,6,4,1,1,3,0,10,10,1,1,1,21,22,13,0,5,6,0,2,0,0,1,1,0,2,0,3,6,8,1,1,0,0,4,4,2,1,2,0,2,8,2,14,21,5,15,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,1,9,60,11,0,0.13784062950257356,0.0,0.0,0.15026663219888536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09373635481834276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13670086558450875,0.0963813731024708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10599093569319527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11873749707301585,0.0,0.14895675171152428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14210763645542274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12062526376931247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5641815037280514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15372873842023507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06969636392400913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16667743633757282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15667601256973196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2765307804580901,0.0,0.271490508359304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20441416040776755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0934043778944743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15539459882899284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13856790448741896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21223290174988216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1152409383589686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1269051321733435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08037597954792973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13465026599718755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1626039492163642,0.0,0.0,0.16785275225234142,0.12393527991692806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13287344798614634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09791802835776273,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,nbarbacc,2019/03/10,"The one moment it goes wrong So like many of us on here, I struggle with binge eating, sometimes for emotional release or boredom. The whole cycle I realize what I’m doing, except for this one moment where I decide. “Fuck all that, I know this is bad, but I don’t care”. Then I fall back into the cycle. I was wondering if or how any of you overcame that little moment where you tell yourself it’s worth it, and allow yourself to fall back into the habit? 
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EDAnonymous,awfulyoung,2019/03/10,"Welp, Here We Are Again, You Stupid Bitch It started with a heaping plate of Pad Thai, a package of double stuffed Oreos, and a bag of Jalapeño potato chips and it ended with my head in the toilet. The next day it was two big bowls of Panda Puff Peanut Butter Cereal and every nibble of my roommates food I could sneak without them knowing (yes, I’m a horrible food stealing monster) and again... ended with my head in the toilet. Then onto crying in the Fred Meyer parking lot, $25 worth of Taco Time, and guess what happened next? Yeah... head in the toilet. Move on to self harming for the first time since December and laying in bed in the dark while Crazy Ex-Girlfriend plays silently in the background and disassociation to forget the past 24 hours. 

It’s been a rough few weeks... I dropped two classes 8 weeks into the quarter, I’m barely meeting deadlines for work, and all the while I’m shuffling between eating and yeeting  everything in sight and restriction while my doctors are lowering and upping my dosage of meds because they have no better clue of how to help me any more than I do. 

I don’t know where I am in my head anymore and I don’t know how to find myself as I slip deeper into this... It’s scary and lonely up here... I hate being alone... I don’t remember how I got here and I don’t know how to go back... I don’t even believe I am ready for change. I’m tired of not being able to move forward in life because I’m chained down by my own mental capacity, or rather incapacity. 

I felt like no one understood what I’m actually going through until I found this community. I’m so thankful to have found this and you guys have given me hope that maybe, with baby steps, I’ll get closer to having a healthy relationship between my body and my mind something I have wanted since I was 7 years-old...  As for tonight, it’s time to just sleep this day off... thank god I won’t ever have to do this day again...",4.402115384615385,5.225307000000001,5.165833333333335,84.33173076923079,70.14583333333334,7.366025641025642,27.790064102564106,7.321109707123232,1.4084518429487185,1504,50,303,14,26,488,217,384,0.119,0.804,0.076,-0.9498,1,3,1,0,0,0,57.0,1,2,2,3,17,12,3,0,17,2,24,12,6,4,2,52,52,29,0,4,5,0,2,1,0,1,3,0,1,2,14,23,3,1,10,1,1,6,10,6,0,5,9,4,35,6,54,39,6,55,0,1,1,0,10,22,1,4,29,196,49,3,0.09556029730989964,0.0,0.09325306543585248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09897164853527976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06498427907295531,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09477013711354523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07347997004618359,0.0,0.11650534056300488,0.0,0.0,0.10766373130208948,0.0,0.08451531734541552,0.0,0.10614594778434773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10109012371063074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07629712158979278,0.0,0.10496849942905326,0.18488545877620102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09781001353318784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09778204080240407,0.0,0.0,0.16927611923525146,0.0,0.0,0.06311667512256029,0.08643975984707343,0.08051367196541795,0.0,0.0858834334585969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0917528712732798,0.0,0.08734038052049431,0.08128354007480013,0.2311037816462228,0.20955386725507386,0.0,0.0,0.04992631123860127,0.0,0.10861823829826332,0.0,0.07642829935801959,0.0,0.10527044105003457,0.09461971830534166,0.08450365531841593,0.0,0.0,0.094346009684067,0.3922897367455935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06405205296220992,0.0,0.0,0.09491293710933876,0.09410764369422188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21006976113538176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06749706404371872,0.0466859343285545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08124194750430642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09600316282474126,0.0,0.10614594778434773,0.0,0.09630230366658196,0.0,0.09648865910439557,0.0,0.0,0.20313094583359625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20325892059402945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10027445705449606,0.0,0.06475413057712083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09122311665532357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1025959968679048,0.10825118848546594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09969023102066993,0.0,0.0,0.15809693085522786,0.0,0.09562930981377098,0.0,0.0,0.07356698552288171,0.0,0.0,0.06763807028209795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17595816566421582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16716593351087042,0.10983250427011113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18669705003499096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056363939235308975,0.0,0.1533054127874497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09211671652958144,0.0,0.06956903455925492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,DoingBetterForMyself,2019/03/10,"New on this sub I'm a male I don't know if this sub is for males too so I'm sorry just delete this if it isn't. I've known I have an eating disorder for a while but I've been struggling with other issues like addiction, bipolar, schizophrenia, and trauma stuff. I've made very vain attempts at controlling it but always give up early. And go back to either binging or starving myself. I've worked briefly with a dietitian when I was in treatment for my other stuff and also worked out with my therapist that the reason for the eating problems is that my dad yelled at me when I was young that I was fat and disgusting. I'm currently staying with my parents and I recently realized that whenever my dad is around I'm not comfortable eating. I'm generally uncomfortable eating around other people. I always think I'm fat. Anyway, I've decided since I've made progress with ny other issues I would really like to start working on this one starting now. I plan on talking to my therapist and my psychiatrist about this when I see them next and see what support they can provide. I want to get back to the gym as well which is literally next to my house so I should have no excuses for that. Anyway, thanks for anyone who read this.",4.353827160493829,5.768918806584362,5.359773662551444,80.68064814814818,70.81069958847736,8.527572016460908,27.90329218106996,8.998388855275968,2.260306995884773,982,35,186,19,18,323,132,243,0.14400000000000002,0.7709999999999999,0.085,-0.943,2,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,2,7,17,11,1,1,7,0,15,8,2,4,0,37,35,20,0,6,8,3,0,2,0,2,4,1,0,2,22,15,6,1,6,2,0,1,4,5,1,1,6,3,24,6,29,27,1,28,0,0,2,0,11,10,0,3,18,128,46,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1192110149963344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08744963080046128,0.18198107076108788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07646222681745292,0.0,0.0,0.1946948780329047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16817156063860658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12264879485750185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12532812111771796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4475820660741349,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05713247890987989,0.10490145337045564,0.06214788410009611,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12617878994459406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2282724413269943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060097601344475685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10684879744738393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20694508563363992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1056139008596699,0.2325965148633856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07410048745328876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12142367126047918,0.0,0.0,0.07581166743985597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1046361437406868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10938268779715574,0.0,0.0700543929930032,0.11243319469715048,0.10797298914962324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17428051791674026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09045801045300794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1224118373147056,0.15480136737637326,0.1165558496938124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11431959830644488,0.2503662632314269,0.0,0.12409259664971035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08789387577773324,0.0,0.10067763809735847,0.0,0.253934744056743,0.0,0.07006904798156423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09022775600224997,0.06449928884690538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09832156545038616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2388310672948901,0.0,0.0,0.07768130140508557,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,scattyduck,2019/03/11,"I feel jealous about my husbands exes I used to restrict heavily for a very long time following childhood obesity, followed by purging, b/p, then just binging. When we first got together I was restricting, and since then I’ve put on a lot of weight. He told me that a few of his exes were anorexic, and were much thinner than me. Every time they’ve been mentioned I feel insanely jealous. I hate it. I’ve got it in my head that he’ll never believe how bad it’s been for me because he never saw me at my lowest, and even that wasn’t as low as they were. He was in a psych hospital for a bit, and has talked about the anorexic people he knew there and the treatment they had. It makes my skin crawl, I have absolutely no appetite right now. I’ve eaten far more than I should’ve today, as fucking always, and I’m maintaining my weight for a while now, even though I’m actively trying to lose weight a healthy way. I’ve damaged a ligament in my knee, so that means I can’t even go to the gym or for a run or anything. I’m just vegetating and not making up for it by cutting calories. I just wish I was thin again, I wish he could’ve seen me then. I have no self control. I need to get my shit together. Sorry for the rant",4.14218503937008,4.350148051181105,5.328021653543306,85.13841043307089,70.45669291338581,8.39724409448819,30.04822834645669,8.278499904357787,1.955874803149606,951,36,206,13,16,317,141,254,0.156,0.79,0.053,-0.971,2,0,0,0,0,0,28.0,1,0,2,3,16,10,6,0,13,0,14,11,4,5,2,31,40,20,0,3,6,1,7,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,9,8,6,3,4,1,0,5,7,10,0,1,17,9,29,0,28,22,5,32,0,3,2,1,15,10,2,3,16,130,38,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10684707672582336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10567016240887914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1072166551845144,0.07827730239110245,0.0,0.0,0.14467365034018315,0.0,0.0,0.14019002914094056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1440222891277918,0.10252461954780767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2544399960009283,0.0,0.10819062914367912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12985550753392108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10922514307253693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11871260919870393,0.06708871787697716,0.0,0.0729781368251012,0.0,0.2054017805939144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12677789865675348,0.13178529928228727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11363845821375727,0.0,0.1436575003245504,0.0,0.1091692528583712,0.0,0.0,0.1714288148019741,0.0,0.0,0.13987570269156238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0943958335133848,0.09521409386511402,0.19807480471973474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08902305073579042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12908711840939488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10966109970409448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13395922146287875,0.0,0.13181061261692914,0.10622175089877016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14374403798166954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10321077516114413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12616178339078607,0.0,0.14975334479589728,0.0,0.12171728950307086,0.12270087894222545,0.0,0.08718169169568264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1109046685024557,0.0,0.10595137096459672,0.0,0.10192556622119883,0.0,0.4691049096576638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2953294134558825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ilikebiting,2019/03/11,"I have spent literally thousands on binge food and I need to stop, but I can't. Every day I restrict until the evening when I buy loads of binge food. Literally 10000 calories worth of food that even I know I won't finish, but I can't stop myself. I am spending about £50 on food a day. 

I just think about all the money I could have saved by now. I need to stop but I can't stop the binge and purge. Most of the food just rots and I have to throw it away. 

Anyone else in the same boat? How can I stop spending so much? ",0.8925663716814185,2.3944844955752203,2.3922212389380526,98.03806637168141,80.15044247787611,5.227964601769912,18.37964601769912,5.6839178017228535,-0.6187373451327431,400,8,100,2,10,130,63,113,0.124,0.7929999999999999,0.083,-0.5162,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,0,10,1,0,0,6,0,10,5,0,1,1,24,15,10,0,3,5,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,3,5,6,2,0,6,1,4,0,0,1,1,0,16,1,14,12,4,16,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,1,11,67,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08649132182067636,0.12674146652022386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11621673597973728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09876142204442236,0.0,0.0,0.15954774739947594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10333237765977317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16340046544177375,0.0,0.10421945902591706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7478702223505022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06798024586630669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09093100558645066,0.18343846288363724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5170781845951291,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07925958778457355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,sellie41434,2019/03/11,"I am upsetti spaghetti Sorry for the funny title, this is actually a serious post. So I offered my color guard captain a brownie that my friend had made and she said ""I'm suuuuper hungry but I can't eat it because I'm anorexic"" meanwhile I'm in shock because that's not something you just throw around!! And I was like ""what the hell man you good??"" And she was like ""I'm fine!!"" And I was like ""you really should eat something!"" (I know, bad reply, but that care instinct had set in) and she was like ""nooo being anorexic is fun!!"" And like, she doesn't know that I had an ed and am still recovering, but it felt really disrespectful. My heart goes out to her and I'm gonna keep an eye on her just to make sure things don't get too bad. I'm mad that she said ""anorexia is fun"" because it's really not, and I'm sad that she's feeling this way and may have an ed herself",0.4590109890109879,2.593451879120881,2.741417582417583,91.61608241758242,85.15384615384616,5.618021978021978,21.18791208791209,6.961326702584282,0.4761353846153842,670,22,150,9,20,228,98,182,0.126,0.6859999999999999,0.188,0.8936,0,0,2,0,0,0,32.0,0,3,0,0,6,19,2,0,7,0,19,4,2,2,1,30,38,14,0,1,7,0,2,5,1,3,0,2,0,1,13,12,2,2,4,0,0,1,5,7,0,0,11,6,22,12,8,23,0,10,1,1,2,0,18,5,1,1,6,89,35,0,0.0,0.0,0.1523693153562636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13899697273793846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2607393850536119,0.2855429828600857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15919429912087946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.319538720610731,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07894866035960221,0.0,0.14991809773264672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12063274237511447,0.0,0.0815762766203361,0.0,0.0,0.13096213537169654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18502567889536725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13878367645676878,0.0,0.0,0.1716200187717687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38140857982318105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14774266645683382,0.10422411442283114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14953817262606905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3000802687179767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2970482294816789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2404071365279977,0.0,0.17478502758719175,0.0,0.0,0.12469295004228405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1471593283758454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10373193255733464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12393601260933115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Foureyedlemon,2019/03/11,"My friend, knowing I have anorexia, talks about taking tips from ‘Ana documentaries’. Huge vent ahead I’d really like advice. I feel like I physically can’t say anything when she starts talking like this.... I just kind of stare at her like *you know* but I don’t make a (purposely) negative reaction with my body, face, or words when she does it. So she might not know I dislike it... idk I just feel like I shouldn’t have to clarify that to her though.


She is technically overweight, really not by a lot. She’s very close to a healthy bmi and is losing weight at a healthy pace and as far as I know a healthy way. I’m not going to share her stats but she’s only 30~ pounds heavier than me, and taller.

She hasn’t always known I had/have anorexia but I think I told her about a year ago? We’ve been friends for 3. I kind of talk about it fleetingly and non-serious, but only about experiences from the past. She knows it started very young for me and was bad until sophomore year of highschool, 2 years before we met. And she’s aware it’s still an issue for me but I wouldn’t say I’ve actively relapsed. Honestly though I’m getting there sigh. Anyways.

I’m sure tons of you can relate to a similar situation. It’s not easy to support a friend losing weight when it brings up a ton of hard feelings for yourself. But I think I’ve been doing well. I congratulate her weight loss and just yesterday went with her while she shopped for fresh groceries. The trip was really fun! I got some food too even. Every time she mentions something even slightly indicating she could have a disordered mindset I check in and make sure she isn’t feeling similar to how I did. 


The recent example is her telling me that once she hits a certain goal weight (healthy range) then she could finally do ‘something’, and she would feel happy. Huge red flag for ppl familiar with eds lol. But not something that needs to be over analyzed either. I told her ‘dude that’s exactly what a lot of people with eating disorders say haha! Please don’t put pressure on yourself like that” and just generally letting her know it’s the route I went down and to just be aware of herself so she doesn’t slip into anything. She told me she is okay though.

BUT ughh went into one of her very common tangents again where she told me she watches mukbangs and anorexia videos to feel disgusted and not eat. I didn’t say anything, focused more on ‘wow 10k calories in one mukbang? What did she eat’ etc. then she started saying she’s watching this one ana documentary 4 times and she loves a specific girl and wants to look like her. And she joked that when she hit x weight she would be able to start purging. 

Like dude. It’s really hard to not cry just typing this. I feel so shocked that she uses this kind of language with me FREQUENTLY. I stayed silent. She texted me later that day to say ‘I like taking tips from the documentary keke’. Ignored because I can’t fucking reply to that. What does she think I’m going to say. What does she WANT me to say? She also talks about this positively, and not in a manner like she is worried she is developing habits.


But back to the on-going conversation she was having with me while I was dissociating from trying so hard not to let my emotions show lmao. It’s hard to remember what happened now because I was so stressed and overwhelmed. She told me she wanted to watch the documentary with me. I laughed but said nothing. We were at work and our boss was near us. In earshot but not close enough that he was really actively listening. Well he left and I quickly took the privacy to comment to her ‘haha yeahhh.... I can’t watch ANY media about eating disorders it triggers me so bad and instantly lol’. Some time had passed since her ‘offer’ so it wasn’t a direct response. I thought that would be a pretty clear and soft “no, and maybe stop talking about it”


No she went on still. I really don’t remember what she said now. But conversations like this honestly at least once a week. And so many fleeting comments from her about wanting to skip meals and being jealous of girls who can purge. I feel like at this point if I tell her how bad it hurts me to just hear her say that, intentionally, to me specifically, she won’t care because so much time has passed. I’m worried she might even yell at me or make fun of me for it. And not necessarily bc of her personality, I’m just very nervous. I feel wrong for not telling her sooner that it hurts. I don’t ever want to tell her. 

I’m a really strong believer in not holding onto a grudge or anything when a person hurts you and you do not make it clear you were hurt. You can start making negative judgements if they continue to do it after they see the hurt on you. I haven’t made it clear to her. But I am so hurt she would even think it’s okay, multiple times. It’s my fault though because I’m not telling her.

I’m sorry I’m just so afraid lol

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EDAnonymous,Mommyslittlemanlet,2019/03/11,"I ate like if I were a semi-normal person yesterday And I woke up today and I wasn’t fat? I’m still underweight? Apparently you can ingest more than a couple hundred calories a day and it doesn’t make you put on five kilos overnight? Apparently the body needs a certain amount of nutrients and calories to live and continue to function and even if you have that amount or close enough to it, you don’t just secretly blob out overnight while you’re sleeping body is off-guard?

...Has this always been a thing? Food’s there for you to eat it and you’re even supposed to eat it? How come no one told me?

And how long until my big dumb bitch of a brain forgets it again?",3.092808080808084,4.74157671851852,3.88080808080808,89.09818181818181,74.4074074074074,6.983164983164983,24.865319865319872,7.686295010490155,1.1249259259259259,527,17,111,7,11,168,92,135,0.08199999999999999,0.882,0.037000000000000005,-0.7691,2,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,5,0,0,8,4,2,0,7,0,9,10,5,3,1,22,16,15,0,3,4,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,1,8,11,6,0,1,0,0,2,4,2,0,2,6,0,11,2,13,10,4,16,0,0,0,0,8,5,2,3,10,73,19,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16121140704687292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4304141606709171,0.0,0.2162835576479684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1668942102415048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21437521919067812,0.0,0.12494953288449268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3964991212491885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20019043399471248,0.0,0.25593356425069,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2342772905641759,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09465404783980573,0.0,0.17108043387556313,0.17145827761190827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12932632922433882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1436595039663663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1312866639947055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16917070965924133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19476729385685945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19388497619643846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1547250518598785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12871560612702168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18364765891605556,0.18513170361153608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,great_dayn,2019/03/11,"Hair Loss I knew at the beginning of this relapse that this day would come , the day where the hair thinning/loss is happening fast and becoming noticeable. Does anyone have any tips on how to slow down or stop hair loss all together? Vitamins, shampoos etc...Im desperate. ",4.328571428571428,7.2194259387755135,4.366693877551022,81.21044897959185,75.3265306122449,9.634285714285717,30.20816326530613,9.888512548439397,3.638866122448978,217,10,38,7,5,67,41,49,0.17800000000000002,0.8220000000000001,0.0,-0.7964,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,2,2,2,0,0,3,0,3,4,3,1,1,8,7,3,0,1,1,0,3,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,3,2,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,1,3,1,0,5,5,1,11,0,2,0,0,0,4,0,1,6,20,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20471279413536134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21048930512229175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3324673483293289,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2593133138317838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3882828216404291,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2634360471706628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33573142076943824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26620252839095937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3251673471979095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3427281180917985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25167710581411423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2138452388103814,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,sadpaleobotanist,2019/03/11,"Relapsing hard I made a new account because this is getting so bad again I can’t ignore it anymore and I don’t want it on my main account, where my boyfriend can see.

I feel like a worthless sack of shit. I’m the most garbage person I’ve ever met. I don’t understand why anyone wants to spend any time with me. I’m stupid and fat, I can’t follow up on any of my goals, I got a degree from a great university, but I can’t turn it into anything, so I rely on handouts from my family, and overall am just a huge disappointment. 

I feel like I can’t focus on achieving any of my creative or professional goals until I reach my goal weight- otherwise I don’t deserve it, and let’s face it, who would hire my fat ass?

I don’t deserve food, don’t deserve love, I should just stop taking up space.

I’m sorry for rambling, this is my first post in these subs and I just feel terrible.

Here’s to my relapse- fuck.

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EDAnonymous,babybighorn,2019/03/11,"Getting married in two months and feel like a fat monster. I feel like I've been so on and off the wagon, i'm restricting and working out like a crazy person but then I'll get this insane urge to binge and eat a quarter of a cake by myself. I had my second wedding dress fitting, and I love my gown so much. But I felt like such a sausage in it this time. chubby belly, fat armpits, lumpy arms etc. i starting tearing up while the seamstress was adjusting the bustle. I've expressed feeling heavy in the dress and the seamstress and a friend insist i look amazing and it's in my head- and sure maybe it is...but i am so tortured by the thought of hating the way i look on the actual day of the wedding, or worse- other people thinking i'm fat or bulging out of my dress. I know it's more an issue with ed and dysmorphia but good god i just want to like the way i look when i get married and i am so fearful that no matter how much weight i lose or don't lose i just won't. i hate this.",1.6509047619047583,3.194597804761905,3.0638095238095246,93.87619047619049,78.09523809523809,5.428571428571429,24.04761904761905,5.82211442006289,0.35619047619047617,769,26,173,4,18,251,116,210,0.16399999999999998,0.647,0.19,0.2881,0,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,0,0,3,9,16,3,1,17,0,7,9,6,1,1,35,27,25,0,1,8,0,5,5,1,1,3,0,0,1,9,14,5,1,8,0,0,0,3,6,0,3,5,8,21,10,19,21,4,20,0,2,3,1,6,11,0,3,12,109,30,1,0.0,0.0,0.13389285346423507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08848624805304041,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1403955612547254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15302048981664734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15439442237653314,0.20812579070812254,0.1960393868415376,0.13173887304291138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10600469038043787,0.0,0.2150527570360097,0.0,0.0,0.1150815304228842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27092420802517514,0.14081250839344311,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1432069778853982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07540459826576587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33515857814850963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34565439205415005,0.3069958952993884,0.0,0.0,0.1238333923761198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13784144630653852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10951618455160407,0.0,0.20172377604026276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09512107304238793,0.1198026197669309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09711481537423827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12931463493192324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08791579523498233,0.0,0.10892590412326876,0.0800056767934688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13402991443608567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08092740567216597,0.2178148052505588,0.0,0.16707943245141976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09988729599777227,0.0,0.1398242073267778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Whoevera,2019/03/11,"Recovery feels I love how recovery feels like giving up, losing control, giving into being unhealthy, being a slob that doesn’t care about appearance 
As a Type A personality who was always uber obsessed with looks its just hard ",20.4715,10.80082115,17.709999999999994,39.33500000000001,50.0,20.0,57.5,14.554592549557764,7.892249999999999,186,7,26,4,1,60,34,40,0.188,0.519,0.293,0.7436,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,2,3,5,0,1,3,0,4,1,0,2,0,8,12,2,0,0,1,0,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,2,0,1,2,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,1,4,1,3,5,9,0,3,0,1,1,1,5,2,0,1,1,18,4,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2327672410058366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2852149846548169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3137537489176699,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2828912979589102,0.19984730054111613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5367068514636848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25059333315181986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1366675098822259,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2349123077940103,0.3129590534905016,0.0,0.0,0.2524775207873963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2442593862786141,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,swaeter,2019/03/11,"anybody else “putting off” recovery whenever i’m really fucking up i’m like-

 “it’s fine for right now, lose the weight you want and then you can get healthy later and put it back on” 

“life is rough right now, it’s reasonable to not eat and when things get better you’ll get better too”

i just use the excuse that i could recover at any time to justify my relapses to myself. it frustrates me that ED’s aren’t seen as an addiction because the thought processes are so parallel. ",2.11042105263158,4.54225630526316,3.517105263157898,86.76723684210528,80.6842105263158,8.010526315789475,26.342105263157894,8.841846274778883,2.3186631578947376,379,16,76,10,10,124,71,95,0.057,0.784,0.159,0.7943,1,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,3,0,3,7,7,2,0,4,0,6,5,0,2,0,10,16,7,0,2,2,0,2,1,0,1,2,0,0,0,7,3,2,0,2,0,0,2,2,3,0,0,2,3,8,4,9,12,0,15,0,1,1,1,4,6,1,0,8,45,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2144530603466112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13377586136304276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15126498941110364,0.0,0.11991825184144365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3479644473261276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15706434395827726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2012929422436526,0.1643337223261237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18186381149822556,0.3083331254529299,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13894865051573305,0.09610710724865164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2200785639847224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3955144365491988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12602341292485164,0.20226019120877128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3359943935170669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1306915535568105,0.0,0.0,0.15617314060051735,0.11470859857693692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16990230324264494,0.0,0.0,0.1160301326502775,0.0,0.0,0.2395510958179521,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,dumbest-bitch,2019/03/11,"Binged. Feel like I might die Trying to stop purging and been 5 days clean. My digestion is really shit and I’ve binged earlier on high protein yoghurt (about a kilogram(!!!????)) so I was already very full. Now I’ve had 4 bowls of rice noodles, oil, vegetables and fried tofu and I feel like my stomach is going to rip open I’m so full. I’m scared to purge though because my hearts a bit fucked and it’s gonna to be really dry coming up and idk I feel so scared and I’m still shoving bits of tofu into my mouth typing this. Help",0.3134055944055945,2.5648725363636373,2.29909090909091,93.65017482517487,87.27272727272728,5.202797202797203,19.37062937062937,6.67199483983844,0.18849650349650385,409,12,89,5,13,136,74,110,0.202,0.7070000000000001,0.091,-0.9341,0,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,0,0,0,7,6,2,2,2,0,7,7,4,0,0,15,17,11,1,0,0,0,3,2,0,2,1,0,1,0,2,10,2,1,3,0,0,2,0,4,0,0,3,4,8,2,10,11,4,13,0,0,0,1,1,7,2,1,6,44,10,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20383113023562435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1125969779775795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40330908556329975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15911056975198815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11912211537313275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1916989266004012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28018347481516465,0.2639124945496369,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17076062453995372,0.0,0.0,0.1049744614841852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21888122148751846,0.12380664374616365,0.19515534875793605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18047911259869528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19594720931359935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2366588110127024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3698521459282633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1896012789491149,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1475089586433649,0.15442511264806064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1814757932649348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12540538214846178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15240438567478126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,SorryStop,2019/03/11,"Not even in my sleep am I free DAE I guess help me feel less weird

About half dreams I remember have to do with eating in social situations, eating way too much, and gaining weight. The frequency seems to be directly correlated with how far in I am into my behaviours. I go to sleep to repair my body and brain and escape my stressors for a few hours. I did not ask for my problems to weasel their way into my blankets and wake me up repeatedly.

Worst dream I've ever gotten I lost control and binged. Woke up as a terrified zombie and tried to purge in the bathroom until it hit me that *it was a dream, I ate nothing, it's 03:00, go back to sleep for Christ's sake.* 

 👉😎👉 please send help it's 02:34 and I've been pacing around my room listening to music regretting my life decisions",2.945658653846152,4.542903056250001,4.328750000000003,85.94894230769232,74.6875,7.673076923076922,23.55769230769231,8.384062270229773,1.3358461538461541,619,18,129,11,13,205,102,160,0.121,0.748,0.132,-0.0276,0,0,0,0,1,0,15.0,0,0,1,3,7,6,0,0,5,0,8,11,6,2,1,24,20,10,0,2,2,0,2,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,5,12,4,1,4,3,1,3,2,5,0,1,7,3,20,2,25,11,4,21,1,2,0,0,7,11,0,2,5,82,25,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14052640902461108,0.14757520787216738,0.0,0.0,0.1213824716673541,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17534380446045406,0.0,0.17622088353748355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17705031469403146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3230547260651838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10426321656073782,0.14279090878746525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07981736234324774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17942781174938205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17389754405363092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21161675757447101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1554575809872507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11149923521698277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17231982213509106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11604323282572468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15146827678405675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17327984310144354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.151048057171557,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17882147762221268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14370730028791565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17743814887333034,0.4739137202319082,0.16091557416824462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10717470221975564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25059945490546004,0.0,0.19222758824899489,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,lawsoflife,2019/03/11,One week. I just want to go one week without purging... I used to just restrict but I started this habit about 6 months ago. It used to be occasional but now I can’t go a day without doing it. Just the feeling of being full and knowing there’s food in my stomach makes me so upset. I don’t want to lose my teeth and fuck my heart up but I’m so scared I’m going to stop losing weight. How do you guys distract yourself/stop yourself when you get the urge? I tell myself every day I’m not going to but then I always give in :/,-0.1611912865895171,1.921185964601776,2.001769911504425,96.19283866575907,87.58407079646021,3.830905377808033,19.311776718856365,4.713530739802397,-0.5353629680054452,406,12,92,1,13,136,72,113,0.261,0.7040000000000001,0.036000000000000004,-0.9842,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,2,0,2,10,6,1,3,3,0,6,6,3,4,0,22,24,11,0,2,10,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,2,2,2,2,0,0,4,5,6,0,2,0,2,14,0,13,22,1,19,0,2,0,1,5,4,1,0,11,59,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13910233781224096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13057209992716035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2024040754002272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13221398350448846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07934473654024349,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18975132315119464,0.0,0.0,0.14507233277595935,0.0819855352439473,0.15053437145639978,0.35673071705936893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15537795718216746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.185953931051688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08624050815082278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35111230110294295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10474699459563312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1252540511280409,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21266950923933065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15710680883418088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1110705609401814,0.0,0.0,0.2623884913913836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13715719122728587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2710613317994761,0.0,0.0,0.1851139253841494,0.0,0.25174754576011155,0.19108934319066967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3025354015641186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,archersarrows,2019/03/12,"Garbage food! Last week, I sprayed a cake with perfume to make sure I couldn't eat it, THEN left it on my bedroom floor. Again, for a week.

GUESS WHO JUST ATE THE PERFUME FLOOR CAKE.",0.09162162162161992,2.448999783783788,0.052756756756757284,107.86454054054056,91.70270270270271,2.9600000000000004,20.913513513513514,3.1291,-0.8898821621621619,140,5,34,0,5,40,30,37,0.0,0.923,0.077,0.3802,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,3,0,1,3,0,1,1,6,4,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,3,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,3,1,4,2,0,9,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,1,5,17,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3324191741231008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3928294378044625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35787668968928593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26480927135816906,0.0,0.0,0.35296802225490503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21685067758880905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30618250151162363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5211760594196162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,satancookie22,2019/03/12,Hey guys Long time no see I was feeling good for the last few months and ate like a normal human no purging and I talked myself out of guilt every time I ate cake but I weighed myself today and I’m up 8 pounds and all I can see is my flat flabby ass and I’m back to hating myself for letting slip and my bf never compliments my looks 🙃,0.6589575289575293,2.3771649729729742,2.7247490347490357,94.35635135135138,81.70270270270271,4.769111969111969,17.328185328185327,5.288315135182226,-0.6209706563706567,264,5,60,1,7,89,53,74,0.219,0.716,0.064,-0.9167,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,0,1,5,1,1,2,0,4,4,1,0,2,12,13,7,0,1,1,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,7,3,0,1,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,3,4,11,3,6,9,2,10,0,0,3,1,5,2,1,0,9,36,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19665291978456506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2154770703448112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12931288297801072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2145076459655322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25322878959046224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25249626888434273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2084671579319864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2615176549338525,0.0,0.12494459772929015,0.0,0.0,0.22632719902093526,0.2147622637178013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20413405050285924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19724711358064306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2505768208122369,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4075929673215542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20555898080790166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2982551471080113,0.0,0.242417343905105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,super_throwaway_8118,2019/03/12,"Any other POC? I’m a black girl and I feel like being a POC presented a different kind of challenge for EDs. I’ve been wanting to make a post like this for a while but been too scared. But what encouraged me was a discussion I had with my hair dresser today who struggles with undiagnosed BED. And we just had some very interesting conversations.
I don’t know what it’s like in other minority communities, but in the black community there’s so much emphasis On food and being thicc or bigger and they see being thin as an adherence to a white beauty standard. It doesn’t help that I’m fairly light skinned either. At school, an HBCU, I’ve had people tell me to just get over it or that it’s trying to whitewash myself. But what they fail to see is more than that and the problems and prevalence of other EDs in the black community, like BED. Ultimately I think it comes down to a certain ignorance of mental health education and poor media portraits of EDs and mental health. But on the other hand I’ve met other black girls who have gone through disordered eating habits (who over cane it on their own). I just feel like there’s a strong prevalence of EDs in the black community that no one really talks about. 
Sorry for the rambling mess that is this post.",5.566086734693879,6.410353657142861,6.08309948979592,78.72301658163265,67.53061224489795,9.227040816326527,28.373724489795922,9.354420925462401,2.303943877551021,1006,32,193,19,16,326,135,245,0.113,0.728,0.158,0.8778,1,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,1,0,3,3,8,17,0,2,17,0,14,7,3,1,1,34,28,18,0,2,11,0,6,5,0,0,2,0,3,2,24,12,2,1,4,0,1,2,3,6,0,1,8,15,13,11,31,17,5,20,0,1,8,0,16,13,0,3,8,129,37,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10265628747366567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13003653339254687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15771847461179286,0.17301039174904334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15446722551317518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15265731177018682,0.2156881592700436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18253842762717745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07886907159892688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3209215609572538,0.0,0.0,0.1011836409662281,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15719902300662256,0.08296230294571656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3687510859379002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10076531417345716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3042593412007916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11097114369750682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10229271969254904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10465493431117437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28915114374509265,0.0,0.0,0.1444459556102461,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09670725027527334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15113480832628584,0.15277706548847722,0.2405871915264729,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1689845801537618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1578135721751849,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12133393323884745,0.13194352275709667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09672748089302624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14309007422452685,0.0,0.0,0.10249024429220728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1245557602983924,0.08903865414575513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,RaniBlue,2019/03/12,"Trying not to panic as a New ED Fear™ is taking over Didn't eat until 6pm. Had about a cup and a half of a friend's homemade yellow curry (no rice base, just curry), and I tried to just ignore the ED and enjoy it, but now it feels like a rock in my stomach. 

I don't know the exact ingredients, which has never been one of My ED Things™, but fuck if this isn't making me think it's going to be a problem moving forward.

What if there's loads of butter or something in it? Or cream - is that a thing to put in curry? I found a homemade yellow curry to log on MFP, and even made the quantity higher just in case. My brain is just screaming that it's somehow over a thousand calories and I ruined my streak of no binging for two weeks. I binged for _months_ and I finally got back in control recently. 

I worry my ED is at a turning point right now, and it's about to get much more strict. I feel like I can only trust packaged food, or food I make myself. I'm trying to breathe but I feel like I'm having a panic attack.

Hahahahakillme",2.167860962566849,3.2941825454545466,4.0997860962566826,88.71879679144386,75.81818181818181,6.0855614973262036,22.032085561497325,6.2272716619740125,0.3213556149732621,800,20,174,5,17,273,128,220,0.13,0.7709999999999999,0.098,-0.8425,0,0,1,0,0,0,22.0,0,0,0,1,12,14,2,2,14,0,13,7,3,4,2,35,30,17,0,3,13,0,3,3,1,0,0,1,0,0,12,7,3,2,6,1,0,4,7,8,0,4,6,8,18,6,26,23,2,25,0,1,3,1,1,12,1,6,14,118,30,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15343797963069056,0.0,0.10370933029425423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15056333558290413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1512720025641344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13800917392928996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08908261806920427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1517700880358712,0.20458815216311926,0.2890607821979254,0.0,0.14774723271488366,0.0,0.0,0.3261789356736974,0.14788173715867972,0.10420286525648248,0.12468829812285015,0.07046579223376756,0.0,0.07665166945886412,0.0,0.1078705902706158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07412290120944302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19767701240213253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12762048563533931,0.18005810259883312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1076546724609916,0.14334909459816014,0.09914747818381164,0.0,0.1040226917267911,0.13026158390071632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09139371602518348,0.1025773091412311,0.0,0.3164897829675165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1274989713756594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12905564235370187,0.0,0.13558503357557414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13317122528986697,0.0,0.0,0.11518115880594265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1038321435834802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10140802228806894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08960390337023715,0.08642143788080865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27471058479079496,0.1467035447928002,0.13175172781692926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10818731744635747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1369704990492102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,TelltaleTaurus,2019/03/12,"Anyone struggling with psychosis on top of their ED? First of all, hello. I'm new to the sub and am honestly hoping to make some connections with people that don't judge and truly empathize. I was diagnosed with EDNOS at the age of 17 and officially diagnosed with Schizoaffective Disorder at 21. I'm bout to turn 24, lost my job after having a psychotic break, and gained a shit-ton of weight after being put on a cocktail of anti-psychotic medication. At my lowest, I weighed 113. I'm currently 100 lbs bigger at my now-heaviest. I hear voices; they tell me what I can and can't eat, that particular foods are contaminated in some way. I have body dysmorphia, and suffer from hallucinations and paranoid thoughts. I can't trust my own eyes. I only realized I'd gotten so big the other day. My breasts popped a button on my baggiest go-to flannel shirt. I feel so humiliated and self-conscious. And legitimately scared because i have no idea how i got so big so quickly without even noticing.

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Sorry for the long post. I've been lurking for a long time and just really need a place to vent and feel safe doing it. ",4.895494186046513,6.473940953488379,6.225508720930238,74.362449127907,69.69767441860465,9.281976744186048,30.181686046511636,9.673873057562805,2.9999825581395365,895,36,160,21,16,302,144,215,0.15,0.7879999999999999,0.061,-0.9425,3,0,0,0,0,0,32.0,0,0,2,4,8,8,0,2,10,0,13,11,4,2,1,30,27,16,0,2,2,0,3,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,5,15,5,1,5,1,0,1,5,4,0,1,6,6,19,4,27,20,4,28,0,2,1,1,5,13,0,3,11,99,24,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15847717866552824,0.1777269889467246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1022713159477441,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08916128697157932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1624665318437039,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09432829640916612,0.0,0.0,0.2969101291204025,0.0,0.0,0.16763142280132515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14966477173524972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09660611189323484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14791112900421136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12441223737302982,0.17686322786578895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0831253045436277,0.0,0.11698082678235637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1648503617907903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14527333394377312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16511445665804095,0.0,0.0,0.14514463039824665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2588783944847933,0.0,0.0,0.15966463118761778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09763247636835984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1473457742696266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10845303667249637,0.0,0.14126285713702982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16652273914428914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11124050032865436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10140116651032544,0.0,0.1528149380736588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14008065394398014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14703590002793146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09370057945630628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14643596086002705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1525854394887619,0.0,0.15013807960216005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16373077545393336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.152907079012103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12784134077491582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11611742159772885,0.08528781998380776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15909342777035915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11609769859189738,0.0,0.1781103682767262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14099345073253527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1777269889467246,0.0
EDAnonymous,kinkyscum,2019/03/12,"Can’t purge anymore because deepthroating You heard it folks, I have to stop purging because it’s affected my abilities to deepthroat. U g h . I’ve been with my love for almost 6 months and due to constantly activating my gag reflex, it’s now way more sensitive and I can’t get all the way down on that daddy dick :,) 
Better for my health anyway I guess. Smh.",1.7811619718309863,4.302007169014087,3.1613908450704247,88.20433978873241,82.94366197183099,6.366901408450705,24.367957746478872,7.6454224807358475,1.4018577464788733,283,11,56,5,8,92,54,71,0.162,0.713,0.125,-0.1779,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,1,0,1,2,2,0,0,1,0,4,3,1,1,1,8,8,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,4,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,1,8,2,8,6,2,9,0,0,0,2,3,2,1,2,5,31,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2808781973954501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.278178612491779,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3419779159638538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2480776585274118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30311865499328583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14654861130513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3090001356926469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2981562236165596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2531603677541072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2238908021828312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2345088613585293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4452924622466724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Valaxian,2019/03/12,"DAE hate cooking? Hey y’all. Been struggling since like 13 or so, relapsed over the years and ‘recovered’ too. But there’s one fuckin thing that plagues me even through my ‘recovered’ periods. Cooking. 

I can’t express my hatred for it enough. I hate it. My mum tried to get me to cook so she could cook less, but I had a panic attack half way through and begged her to finish it. I hate chopping up the ingredients and mixing it, and the smell, I want to eat it right then but I also hate the smell as well? I don’t know if it’s just me being lazy, I feel like I’m not a lazy person, or if it’s being of my ED. 

I like my meals as simple as possible. Something I can spend as little time possible preparing, and then be done with it. I lived by myself for 3 months and I cooked once for a special date night with my boyfriend, but other than that I was living off packages of shredded cabbage and other ready to eat stuff. I loved it. Cooking makes my stomach turn. It’s gotten to the point where I don’t even want my mum or my boyfriend to cook. It just stresses me out, and the food shopping! Hell. No. Every time someone wants to go food shopping with me I nope the hell out of there and go to the cleaning aisle until they’re finished. 

Does anyone else feel this way? I don’t remember seeing anyone else feeling this way on MPA and a lot of them actually love to cook. But it’d be nice to know if there are any more of you out there. ",0.9994381900844332,3.121438231543628,2.3744684996752525,95.16045356137694,82.79194630872483,5.0532149815977485,21.022299198960816,6.207218560251982,0.07512976834812646,1115,34,248,9,31,359,158,298,0.146,0.725,0.129,-0.8334,0,0,1,0,0,0,32.0,0,2,1,0,14,19,8,3,12,0,16,17,1,1,0,42,38,31,0,7,14,2,3,3,0,0,0,0,1,1,20,16,13,0,6,10,3,2,7,11,1,2,5,6,37,8,38,27,4,28,2,0,1,3,12,11,3,7,15,168,57,0,0.0,0.0,0.10106189153933323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0828187550208881,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07042593326811784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1448263731517735,0.21222368369069067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11781709704398564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08268609070202701,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09062808974308807,0.10598021599793324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2119402285786506,0.1730260697904694,0.0,0.0,0.10700756714523353,0.0,0.13680387975979913,0.0,0.08725572661415364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15709267181090186,0.07398494668615377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2504559523689487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05410704117630695,0.0,0.1177137133968382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4089854270546811,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1138302924216548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15178596465883604,0.10379665787075022,0.18289486315473533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08804498649722448,0.1869380858718651,0.0,0.06912865705903576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08266246090507161,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09718622783943304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11029049772707396,0.07017651259529324,0.0,0.0,0.12150807630243178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09042662884354506,0.0,0.0,0.09789987276767953,0.23350192502290598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11731592756323495,0.08844166090651615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08252576589599436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08566782659698872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08774802310199797,0.07972733847450282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.118630295011889,0.1082658293644603,0.1185540866797425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06880220792987789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12077605072166556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0703120216285603,0.112646072472743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18325122998707435,0.24660886284464315,0.0,0.0,0.0931149687856978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06669074278930928
EDAnonymous,boucherfragonard,2019/03/12,"I’m falling back into my eating disorder I haven’t been weighing myself for about a month, but my therapist told me I had lost weight, which isn’t good because it’s been through starving myself. Curiosity finally got the best of me and I weighed myself, and I’ve lost about 17 pounds in about a month or two. I haven’t weighed this little in years. 

But I love the way I look, and I have for a while now. That’s why this is so different from the last time my anorexia was a big part of my life. Last time, I truly hated the way I looked, and I thought that if I lost weight I could be skinny, and if I was skinny I would be beautiful, and if I was beautiful I would be happy. 

Since then, I realized I’m kind of thicc and I love it. I love the way I look. That’s why this time is so confusing for me, because the entire reason I wanted to lose weight before is gone. I don’t even consciously want to lose weight now. Eating is just super hard for me, and honestly, I think it might be related to depression instead of anorexia, at least partly. Not wanting to eat is related to the fact that eating makes me exhausted, and I kind of have this weird apathy for everything. I wonder too if I just don’t think I’m worth taking care of. 

Either way, even though I know seeing the number on the scale get smaller is bad, there’s this weird joy and sense of accomplishment I get from it. 

I just wanted to share, because I know this is concerning and a big deal, and I don’t know what’s going to happen. ",3.666629800307221,4.310723051612906,4.9361751152073765,85.96521505376347,71.70967741935483,8.356374807987711,25.407066052227343,8.563005593585519,1.491093701996928,1166,33,253,19,21,388,140,310,0.153,0.638,0.209,0.9811,1,0,0,0,0,0,33.0,0,0,0,8,17,25,1,1,14,0,29,18,2,2,1,46,64,24,0,11,12,0,5,0,0,3,2,0,0,0,16,13,13,0,10,0,1,3,7,12,0,1,13,9,43,13,30,43,5,29,0,6,4,3,6,8,0,8,14,174,59,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06332819777841972,0.0687654675726763,0.15061396823063872,0.0,0.07008056928823507,0.0,0.0864296118474451,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08396944260416114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06575614011445133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08490745409893154,0.07093480168379061,0.0,0.0,0.08604655304990373,0.0943893725098554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33709106931971444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1087933291961205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0740180358883837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09021913407438843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0860572836509831,0.0,0.04680593414077749,0.06907796051830947,0.06586919475567095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07282888375758123,0.08767159396971765,0.07377656728149679,0.08131144796496301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17152631111638958,0.13578536476081954,0.1342654807493795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058171872124290425,0.0,0.08254432541691684,0.0,0.0,0.20747986544458424,0.184275011436216,0.269710369893089,0.0,0.2229938589964628,0.0,0.05497458666752976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08736879470044429,0.0,0.0,0.13147469702170825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17837131861746264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08467771320671398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06562864176110318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06812736653994474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06192294631115771,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09562395468872223,0.0,0.10554332758456697,0.08091629056828803,0.06538303128919881,0.1440707895299475,0.0,0.0,0.0786965728180928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08045177278809675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19430746578807934,0.2614877028852824,0.0,0.4011592962272833,0.0,0.0,0.14863052179782368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08931370883858926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11700948246862995,0.0,0.0,0.053035834563686185
EDAnonymous,countdowntocontrol,2019/03/12,"i'm done the past week i've binged every. fucking. day. 

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i'm done. 

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7 day fast. i don't care if it kills me. this is not a life. 

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that is all lmao send me strength before this gets deleted x",-1.2631400966183577,0.3959101739130446,-0.0010144927536206438,104.17330917874399,110.30434782608695,2.0444444444444443,18.15458937198068,3.1291,-1.1010743961352656,172,6,39,0,9,53,35,46,0.13,0.72,0.15,0.2434,0,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,0,0,1,0,4,2,0,2,0,5,2,0,0,1,3,10,1,1,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,2,0,0,2,0,3,2,0,8,1,6,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,1,5,17,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4602704992597834,0.5161783584442403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12049113839961795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14437059848278466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18264052253733384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2898118473281178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11930407520823615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13090688323107474,0.0739801358636118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15665937826114792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10001624082510753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1351731861745293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1135829484021015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5161783584442403,0.0
EDAnonymous,caffeine_is_life,2019/03/12,"DAE think I can do no more so fuck it all 

You're drinking too much
You're exercising too much
Maybe you should exercise more to reduce stress
Look after yourself 
Maybe you should go to the g p
Are you looking after yourself 
You should eat more
Are you losing weight
You seem in a good place as you've not lost weight 
You're eating bread
They should help you resolve this (kids dad)
You need to sort your divorce 
You need to get a house 
Are there no other properties available 
You need to attend this meeting 
No I can't help 
You don't care about me you're not interested
He should do more 
He only has the kids once a month 
You need to think about your kids 
You need to smile more 
Think about your face 
What's the matter with you
Are you ok 

Fuck the fuck off I'm doing my fucking best you fucking cunt 
Never fucking good enough 
Always someone with a fucking problem 

The end ",0.2975040128410917,2.7010595449438246,1.0758025682183003,98.67238764044949,96.80898876404495,3.4417335473515247,16.469502407704653,5.288315135182226,-0.7845576243980745,701,18,148,4,28,214,95,178,0.177,0.693,0.13,-0.8882,0,0,1,0,1,0,2.0,0,19,1,4,7,19,8,1,9,1,16,16,1,0,2,24,39,2,0,11,2,1,2,0,0,5,2,0,0,3,5,2,6,0,5,3,0,2,8,12,0,0,1,4,24,7,17,33,10,10,0,2,2,7,30,3,8,2,5,91,29,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08283798397179384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10447714422043554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10150326233732657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09752629191602644,0.0,0.2037398497571623,0.0,0.0,0.08817644533048469,0.10286723666978947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6442608879511578,0.052013534730970035,0.0,0.05657957067109948,0.16700452285412665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1334596367601852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11487344848885908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1672027550245301,0.11137691431511997,0.1086763691700348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20003335796243965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07946408984411703,0.0,0.14636919948032642,0.3690949637174741,0.0767831839737361,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10602314429522244,0.0,0.07571629101858192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1040140981835486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09526097590051913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09063140516866992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08435288176852497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11404025863547075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19137304718585466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24246306764216502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Dr0pDex,2019/03/12,"Former skinny legend learns to bake, gains 20 pounds in 3 months Me: *laying in bed eating an entire loaf of pumpkin bread* This is recovery, I have such a healthier relationship with food!

Lol I gotta stop. At this rate I'm gonna bust out of my fucking graduation gown. At the same time, I don't wanna go full slow starvation again. Maybe start rowing and sharing more of my baked goods with my family rather than hogging them.

Has anyone successfully avoided extremes and survived in a recovery-ish type of world?",3.915693012600229,6.3675799278350524,4.67106529209622,80.7697823596793,74.4639175257732,7.61008018327606,25.21076746849943,8.515128840125781,1.933951660939289,411,14,73,8,9,132,81,97,0.047,0.8029999999999999,0.15,0.8805,0,1,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,1,3,3,5,1,1,4,1,4,7,1,0,0,11,10,2,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,3,0,2,5,6,2,1,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,0,0,8,3,15,8,3,16,0,0,0,1,3,8,1,0,7,41,10,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2199397868505771,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3218618797406527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2965285501584072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3803535749787594,0.0,0.0,0.2907952339171712,0.0,0.0,0.17876529302269198,0.2638285525148247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3160064792497097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2510697966999801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33770762130542564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22263921129462846,0.0,0.0,0.2629768242893221,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1834158950078792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Zi657,2019/03/12,Hands? My hands are always cold now and before my hands were always warm and I’m just confused as to why so I’m thinking it may be eating related?,3.944516129032259,4.292362322580647,5.300161290322581,84.6702419354839,70.93548387096773,7.490322580645162,25.177419354838708,7.1686216300943375,1.0643419354838701,116,3,24,1,2,39,24,31,0.084,0.856,0.06,-0.1926,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,1,0,0,4,4,3,0,0,6,7,4,0,0,1,0,4,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,5,2,1,2,4,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,14,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6930787051396313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3543883122016609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4261564094290308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2668594312712073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37580259618713946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,chubby_jones,2019/03/12,"losing is the only option i’m on spring break and i’m half toying with letting myself relax a bit and stick to maintenance for a week so my body can have a break before i jump back into restriction. 

problem is i literally cannot eat at maintenance without feeling like a huge failure. 

also the constant fear that i’m miscounting everything and that in addition to water weight i’m going to end up actually gaining... :/

i wish i could just relax and enjoy this time off but i feel like there isn’t a minute that passes without me being hyper aware of what i look like and how my clothes and body feel",5.005819327731093,5.927181210084036,6.1759558823529455,77.27805147058824,68.83193277310924,8.639075630252101,29.160714285714285,8.841846274778883,2.3751252100840343,480,17,87,8,8,161,81,119,0.17800000000000002,0.755,0.067,-0.8339,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,2,6,9,0,1,7,0,9,5,2,1,0,22,19,10,0,3,4,0,4,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,9,3,1,3,3,0,3,4,3,0,1,0,5,10,6,14,16,1,18,0,1,1,0,0,7,0,1,9,59,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.16844974094532142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13804212068653982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13273217197845408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14688474489137915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18845355918506265,0.3834781692826725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18653815117508452,0.0,0.13782099608848952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17663075594657252,0.0,0.0,0.15288783430407552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1551374429352897,0.0,0.0,0.1942426334178965,0.26184172360019337,0.24663589634645866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09810248069467327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1765130484109222,0.0,0.25299651566451703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14495519188579414,0.19311478430875498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13128335704598856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16517159706922202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1006546292899407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13846331457771552,0.2102015633063704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19850156048489065,0.3327941438411065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,TinyJarOfRocks,2019/03/12,"Having trouble controlling my appetite, considering Bronkaid Who uses it? Are there different MG i need to ask for? I don’t wanna seem suspicious to the pharmacy and I’m really nervous for some reason? ",3.626666666666665,6.875839444444447,5.573555555555558,67.92700000000002,85.1111111111111,9.546666666666667,32.2,9.3871,4.707173333333333,164,9,23,6,5,56,32,36,0.219,0.7809999999999999,0.0,-0.7983,1,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,1,1,2,0,1,1,0,3,0,0,3,0,8,8,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,1,2,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,3,0,5,8,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,2,0,17,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35809547720006824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4296176698168746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40020062037387777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2840231007837935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2453885104460833,0.39383417645462737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34870988844082235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33082799573863764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,joey6766,2019/03/12,Food related nightmares I have woken up in a panic several times that all the diet soda i've ever drank has been regular. Please share your food related nightmares so I feel less alone lol  ,4.587499999999999,6.7229560833333375,5.806666666666668,74.80500000000002,71.5,9.244444444444444,28.66666666666667,9.725611199111238,3.172233333333333,153,6,25,4,3,51,31,36,0.134,0.687,0.179,0.1903,0,1,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,1,0,0,2,2,0,1,2,1,3,5,0,0,2,3,6,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,5,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,3,1,3,1,2,3,2,4,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,2,15,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29660388549322275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2590476061698003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14480261258496135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6925850039166802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3360058753080026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3143598491954408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3235285103875499,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16699080371402766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,shewaslike,2019/03/12,"Frustrated with eating out and myself I’m at a two-day training where they don’t provide lunch, but we get reimbursed for whatever we purchase. Great! I’m in a small city where I have way more choices than I normally do and was super excited to go to Chopt for a salad. 

Stood in line, fought back and forth for what I wanted vs how many calories I would allow myself, and ended with the lowest calorie “warm” bowl with dressing on the side. I fasted for 19 hours, so I’m hungry and ready to eat. I sit down and stir everything up and start to eat and the thoughts start creeping in .. “This can’t be only XXX calories it has to be more” “I’ll just over-estimate and undereat and guess how much more it is”... Y’all I have no clue if it’s actually more calories than what’s listed!!  I’ve never eaten here!!! I can usually guesstimate calorie as a health educator and it wasn’t like there was a massive amount of rice or quinoa and it was filled with veggies.  There is no reason to think that what is listed is wrong. Also it’s a salad - even if it’s wrong, I’m getting more veggies!

So... even knowing all of these things, I logged a whole salad and ate half of it and now I’m sitting here anxious thinking I should just start fasting again until tomorrow instead of finishing the other half for dinner. I can’t concentrate on the training just on trying to figure this out. I hate this. ",2.806753910950661,4.6880893790613705,4.03399368231047,86.69782566185322,75.7870036101083,6.638327316486161,25.260078219013238,7.492282038375204,1.2739363417569196,1086,38,215,14,24,355,154,277,0.11,0.8,0.09,-0.7067,1,0,0,0,0,0,33.0,2,1,1,1,20,10,3,0,12,0,20,11,0,4,2,46,42,25,0,6,8,0,1,1,0,2,1,0,0,0,18,22,10,0,6,0,2,2,7,5,0,2,9,1,18,5,35,29,9,35,0,0,0,0,5,15,0,4,16,154,36,0,0.0,0.0,0.1435467349596386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11763446830048414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1661792245820524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11310952337880405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09486624318030172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.451554894070393,0.0,0.0,0.13028544482311846,0.0,0.0,0.19431409772977729,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13220247937678178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15370559527203614,0.0,0.08359936154328917,0.0,0.0,0.16217641012900005,0.16204537652318124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14522913089580256,0.0,0.1563586288089288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1448622082707096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08084138624235987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07186480583862474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1491346020728494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10813418589978707,0.0,0.11345128782930218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1441251154719578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11187489605347202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15124156564711702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3123508305894105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09772558336199616,0.1885093196663088,0.0,0.11677963001661235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0998700991982038,0.0,0.14369367823921253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16200801061943787,0.0,0.08676239659121622,0.11675979453204748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16423001403415008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1044944215776917,0.3216578282462422,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,AllieBirdL,2019/03/12,"Thank god for makeup So I got drunk and binged last night, then ended up drunkenly purging two bags of popcorn and wayyyy too many roasted peanuts really quickly in our bathroom while my SO was upstairs... it wasn’t pretty, and I haven’t done that in a long time. I guess it was seeing 140 on the scale again that night (fully clothed, after eating, but still). I used to be 125 when I was “being good” (read: disordered to the max). 

Anyways, woke up this morning with the tell tale little red specs of burst capillaries all over my face. Sign it was a difficult purge.. luckily I have a lot of foundation and concealer to slap on quickly so no one will know. 

I don’t even consider myself someone who purges... I didn’t know lax technically counts until recently tho, so there’s another self diagnosis I can add to my growing list of failure. ",3.244741200828159,5.5463541366459665,4.207180124223601,84.01644306418221,75.95652173913044,7.523146997929608,26.8824016563147,8.447377352677275,2.037749979296066,660,26,125,13,15,213,118,161,0.081,0.8109999999999999,0.108,0.3207,0,0,0,0,0,0,25.0,1,0,0,0,14,3,0,0,6,0,14,3,1,1,1,14,22,14,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,7,6,2,0,2,2,0,1,5,1,0,2,9,2,14,2,19,10,2,25,0,0,2,0,4,8,0,2,16,86,21,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19877176602998672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2172539074214833,0.0,0.0,0.1939872338324271,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1939687435652448,0.0,0.0,0.1678952284807244,0.0,0.0,0.12520358617057792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15899519660163774,0.1516096522188662,0.0,0.20882336896912407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2083560912316288,0.15451792690740138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1899904274755424,0.0,0.16775596665870726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16115841265829314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1921856130851536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3557812621470273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1284517815913198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19285219904559672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18961280290698246,0.0,0.12143795402050825,0.0,0.18716911719038612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15105597677191554,0.0,0.1977539914091558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16061484792739472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15138406265705892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16568511051934054,0.17452276529441188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11053483790388627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1851740458956268,0.0,0.0,0.16372027713185386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,comrade_toastboy,2019/03/12,"I really appreciate my boyfriend I don’t know where else to put this, but it is ED related. 

He would visit me in the hospital when I was hospitalized. Whenever I have to try on clothes or eat without him around he always gets very loving and supportive and tells me I can do it and joe beautiful I am and that everything will be ok. He listens to me when I panic about calories or weight gain and assured me it’ll be ok. He told me I was beautiful when I was at my highest weight after I got out of IP/PHP for the second time and was very insecure. When we are together and I have to eat, he’ll rub my back and tell me it’s ok and that I can do it. He always eats with me, either the same amount or more to make me feel comfortable. He’s part of the reason I’m trying so hard to not purge anymore or cut. And when I do he gets upset but he comforts me about it. He’s put up with my bullshit from ED to psychosis to mood swings for over a year and still loves and supports me. I can open up to him about things I never thought I’d tell anyone and he listens well and comforts me. I didn’t know this until fairly recently, but he’d do hours of reading and research on all my problems to be a better printer. He respects my boundaries and encourages me to push them but never forces me to. I’m very lucky to have found him and everyday I love him even more. ",2.450871212121214,3.5801748194444443,4.1425378787878815,88.6789772727273,75.1111111111111,7.4585858585858595,25.59090909090909,8.00094639256281,1.3191124999999997,1060,36,237,16,22,357,144,288,0.076,0.68,0.244,0.9959,0,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,1,0,1,2,16,23,1,3,6,3,26,8,0,2,4,49,46,32,0,2,11,0,5,0,0,4,0,2,0,0,11,23,5,0,6,1,0,4,6,5,1,1,9,7,43,17,36,29,7,31,0,0,0,3,30,11,0,5,16,166,54,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1901462283953147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11331478956451717,0.07989294701498463,0.0,0.0,0.10171524046708308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08785855541196906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1010533031992982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3507481907545893,0.0954492080768628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0754673674361783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10268913273576108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05777307098746036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12527971940142724,0.0,0.0,0.11939181738138685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09138381479971604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10235413057680727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11252265920905974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12558814148598468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3093711648911925,0.0,0.07626914926395027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17624804632812854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13405898512351186,0.0,0.12373197825312715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1093309760345465,0.0,0.22972485024509395,0.0,0.0,0.11429048883703273,0.0,0.0731976054126559,0.11747786639944628,0.11281753959082134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09124783905915314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2593208087636865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29960369738686937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07590898029180368,0.0,0.0,0.0907093345309459,0.06662567328723416,0.0,0.0,0.10917991425972012,0.0,0.15514949373482206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28282833091345405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2782747456348881,0.10273307417153396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11014214674415516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08116671924855523,0.0,0.0,0.07357941601523849
EDAnonymous,intensitei,2019/03/12,"can i vent i posted in the depression sub yesterday & no one replied and while it was nice getting it out, i realized i just needed to hear some nice things. y’all are amazing whenever i reach out to y’all so i feel comfortable posting here

i’ll try as hard as i can to keep it short bc no one wants to read all that (plus i’m on my 15 min break lmao). 

but i have major depressive disorder and anxiety and a cocktail of other things and bc of it, i’ve been a job hopper. i get really severe self destructive thoughts when i do full time jobs. need the full time check thooo so can’t do part time (plus i can never find any i could possibly do in my area. customer service & retail really exacerbates my ideations and urges)

just got a job. 2 months in. data entry. pay is quite... okay. it’s alright. i can do the job. i was fine but the thoughts recently started creeping back in. 

we do something like copying data from tax forms and they trained me on a new form. i pretty much hate it but it’s still possible. it’s making the thoughts worse. 

i’m trying to hang in there. i have goals and need money to work on them. sometimes i don’t even want to reach the goals. most of the time i just want to stop everything and completely give up on life. i’m even too exhausted to reach out for help. therapy and whatnot. even online. i’m trying though. maybe eventually i’ll do it. but i get off work and become useless in bed until i have to go back. 

i’m so miserable. plus i’m the biggest i’ve ever been and i have BED so i’ve been binging for comfort. i feel so stuck. i really feel like there’s no way out and i’ll be miserable until i can’t take it anymore. i have big things to look forward to in the coming months and they’re slowly becoming less effective at keeping my spirits up. 

idk what to do and i have to stop typing bc my break is almost over and i have to return to hell but if u got this far ily and thank u so much



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EDAnonymous,Wanttoescape92,2019/03/12,"Dealing with perfection and my mind.. can’t deal with it anymore and health issues Well I’ve been battling calorie restriction and weight loss for a while now. 
Basically I starred a diet in 2017 and lost weight. I wasn’t really counting calories just eating less. I noticed I had issues with overeating and couldn’t control this. To this day I cant stop and put my fork down. I know it’s wrong to keep eating but in my mind I find excuses like “there is just a bit left” “I can’t waste it”etc. I was obese for most of my life and ate all what was in front of me. I want to overcome this. 

This has slowly driven me to self hatred and anger at myself on how to control this. I’ve tried meditation which doesn’t work for me (yet) and also have tried smaller portions and weighing and also got a food timer. 

I’m currently labelled anorexic and are several kgs underweight. I am terrified of eating and hate cooking. 
I stopped as it was overwhelming for measurements, weighing, planning... figuring out cooking times... finding equipment... I can chop.. not enough equipment.. I get overwhelmed very easily. I tried overweighing on scales as I was afraid. 

Well I lost weight so it worked. 

I have a set diet I’m trying to achieve in my mind of a wfpb vegan , oil free, additive free.. soy free..etc on and it goes and fruit but picking this diet in my mind gives me a sudden panic moment where I freeze, have gut pain and can’t make a clear decision. I had to cut dried fruit as I read it’s bad and I found I couldn’t control myself with it. I panic at making sudden choices when asked what food I want.. like today my mum asked me how I wanted my apple and is aid normal and she said without skin or skin and I said skin as in my mind I wanted the pleasure of the skin which is more calories. I measure my soup, my water for cups of tea even. I want to make salads but something about it repulses me and I don’t fight thst sudden pain in my head and panic over making a decision. I fight it when eating a meal and it wins. I fight it with every food and overeat. So I compensate for my self hatred by eating less the best I can and weighing. I hate weighing. I hate it. I can’t stand doing this all my life. I can never figure out calories (maths are so hard for me) and I just can’t figure out portions.. it seems so minimal for a human being and makes me feel sad and unhappy but I want to achieve this perfection. It angers me I am against little portion sizes. I don’t know what to do or what is wrong with me. I want to beat this demon! I want to eat small portion sizes and do what is for my body energy levels. I’m frustrated my bad side inside me doesn’t like this. The greedy side of me that overate and ate rubbish. 

I’ve been on fasts, tried vomiting and restrict the best I can using my kitchen scales

I mostly eat weetbix, almond milk, banana (under half), apple, dried fruit (used to), bought soup (I microwave it) and rice cakes. That is my diet. Doesn’t involve cooking or weighing (much). I sometimes eat a carrot or celery. That has been my diet for months now. 

I lost over half my weight since October 2017. I noticed around last year around.. July I found myself finding “new numbers” to reach... new goals for my weight. I feel proud when I see how much I weigh and see my ribs. I love it. I’m trying to battle my hatred of healthy eating in my mind. I’ve tried perfecting myself.. I even want to throw out a parfait ornament I have and keychain but can’t somehow bring myself to do it as they are beautiful and cost a lot. But I deeply want to I just can’t when I see them. I also removed myself from several food fb groups. I’m trying to grt courage to throw them out. 

I have palpitations, space out... low blood pressure... weakness and other symptoms.. I have stomach pain after all I eat.. I haven’t had a period since last year. ... I’m exhausted and can barely sleep. 

I don’t know what to do. I’m supposed to go to hospital if I get too bad but I’m scared when forced a meal. My mum presented me with celery and carrot recently and I panicked and tried making my own portions and ended up throwing it away. At hospital I went for another reason recently and ate up the whole meal I was given (first meal since last year). I felt guilty and tried restriction the next day. 
I am on waiting list for some public therapy but because I’m in NZ it’s limited for support.. someone told me 3 month wait. Can’t afford private. Dr keeps telling me to take ensure but I’m vegan so can’t. I bought some of my own vegan powder but refuse to take it because it’s soy based but because it’s sweet I’m craving it badly. 

Help me.. please ",1.5205044199497983,3.7936653251336914,3.048137618683839,90.20219442322384,81.84491978609627,5.784240969114919,22.268089053803333,7.043009809895983,0.7454009603841536,3609,119,737,46,98,1182,364,935,0.184,0.706,0.11,-0.998,2,0,1,0,3,0,132.0,0,0,3,24,34,56,12,8,23,0,62,73,11,16,8,158,136,81,0,14,22,2,14,3,0,0,12,2,1,3,45,59,50,14,18,4,5,10,23,37,2,3,30,24,127,21,100,103,25,95,1,8,3,1,28,43,0,12,43,472,172,7,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10391162706394437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.045417219134084426,0.0,0.0,0.04295463245281742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07711510184865797,0.08098319215860683,0.0,0.04069377612227,0.0,0.14465742554174102,0.07920919345107062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0909081664224098,0.0,0.0472863303449685,0.04811072677851951,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14573687406588484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05586631098139568,0.08930713447322929,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4431977995474844,0.0,0.0,0.0383622610784968,0.04475367287442333,0.048305191251289466,0.05721535631599217,0.0,0.036492879424218264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.043800478992619886,0.0,0.04158705455192485,0.0,0.11876126988353268,0.03684182269562068,0.20949590876239926,0.09498044026488653,0.0,0.0,0.045258272580309865,0.04154955868622162,0.024615647111412627,0.0,0.03464118136691405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.038799737226279614,0.12828718917585558,0.04445140096381441,0.04603945243758755,0.0,0.0,0.02903163883306108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0904145642660302,0.0,0.07699676571426355,0.0,0.0,0.07141070215143573,0.10591707293236788,0.0,0.0,0.04705945473412157,0.0,0.06118618514118041,0.06348129941175762,0.04341077734718792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1418430250234627,0.036822970833285784,0.03909146879082638,0.0,0.1734696743494418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2624013226484269,0.0,0.06914368456427744,0.0,0.0636797437600221,0.0,0.033405480783430495,0.08366349237036479,0.046063625593431,0.0,0.04243732149212925,0.0,0.09862375856079483,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13826353315458295,0.1524546210192498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.047544418311959616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04354130006100488,0.0,0.0,0.04332449417869146,0.0,0.027747271552199432,0.04453274450689667,0.08553227634237028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08240073153834555,0.0,0.043363641874649625,0.0,0.10354401737611377,0.03943032194097213,0.09036933707289736,0.0978622102859434,0.0,0.10748632053789944,0.0,0.043344053093915307,0.0,0.036698772115380085,0.03334428882392603,0.042837440127500966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07242283550380453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0491508216651162,0.0,0.045018555443750746,0.06513163010099851,0.0,0.03785727280088999,0.0,0.04953193081651342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02525602632254099,0.0,0.0410554444949148,0.041387210851114985,0.0,0.29406529828242445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07481665884146428,0.0,0.035737573910462284,0.2554699578565442,0.0,0.0,0.26371644569930963,0.07788676939251173,0.040151374620981284,0.0,0.048357164408171234,0.0,0.04175196767466744,0.0,0.06306442937841937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09471143612302456,0.0,0.08367601748652598
EDAnonymous,Chunky-chunker,2019/03/12,"Not even sure if this is a good thing I feel like due to all the stress in my life that I'm finally relapsing from bulimia to orthorexia again.  It's been a year long struggle of binging, purging,  fasting, over exercising.. I guess the main thing causing this shift comes down to me being more alone than ever.  I'm far away from family. Have few true friends.  The boy I tried with for years  isn't ever going to commit or love or care for me truly.  It's been a slap in the face, I'm struggling with every aspect of my life.. There's days where I just want to give up yet ironically that feeling is what is now motivating me to restrict. To finally get back on track. Only small portions of foods that will genuinely sustain me when I really need it.  I don't want to make friends or engage in many activities beyond the odd video game and studying now as its too hard to imagine getting close again. I'm currently living with my best friend and after all the stress from these past few months I don't really want to branch out. It feels like there's this expectation for me to be social but that I'm just too much of an outsider to properly intergrate so I don't try.  I feel like a child in constant need of help unable to look after myself and I feel like a burden to those who know me.  

And so I'll lose the weight. I'll save my money.  I'll keep at my study and eat just enough to fuel myself, and so perhaps in the future one day I'll have my shit together and be someone worth people's time. 

Sorry and thanks, this subreddit is almost like family and by posting anonymously online, I can vent without impacting those who know me personally. ",5.793245349022101,5.6116667885196385,6.462216568611865,79.76048656384164,66.91540785498489,9.747877245985055,29.505644776594053,9.414487439383343,2.3515160120845926,1301,40,263,23,19,428,188,331,0.085,0.747,0.168,0.9709,1,1,0,0,0,0,27.0,0,0,0,3,22,24,1,4,14,0,17,9,2,3,7,54,46,19,0,7,10,0,7,5,3,1,3,0,0,3,21,15,3,2,9,3,2,2,6,7,0,1,2,8,26,17,48,40,10,46,0,1,1,1,13,17,1,6,31,172,47,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09839445184165624,0.1017690248617856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0923196824793125,0.07555683884367849,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10311912359369924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10018389698748237,0.10094137492955554,0.0,0.08464336947658041,0.0,0.10618550737511824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12674075946150554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1005457935553005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10153014203291663,0.0,0.06490063139093218,0.17776585919527899,0.08278934427409768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18526393005287628,0.0,0.2484192116314532,0.2807914373064056,0.0,0.21528080106513625,0.0,0.0,0.11881789809545,0.0,0.2277492027446769,0.0,0.10267489902196156,0.09426114827835663,0.05584413494880293,0.08241687768841689,0.0,0.0,0.1082458490990298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08802278290046983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06586244714349626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08733911718240303,0.0,0.0,0.1080036306360773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13880965893609748,0.24002742612116496,0.0,0.0867664873082682,0.08695811748485488,0.0825147054374074,0.1099292087129928,0.0,0.0,0.08868461790263893,0.0,0.06559014990241574,0.09962148860885373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07843119529193202,0.0,0.0722333276054953,0.14571894921281567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06658436857558496,0.07473211131353318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09380148521579793,0.06812198111823632,0.08579793667846151,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09410711919206884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.125897350576146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10086376494243927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10016497388673648,0.08325644144924702,0.0,0.0,0.10999542882784576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22511586840614187,0.20544799449119708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09261006880377128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09046576065534843,0.0,0.0,0.13056082162521945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057296927269183576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13342588254305934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17387110000400638,0.0,0.0,0.1196557353556062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09472034217297412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12655405161187033
EDAnonymous,cuttoarose,2019/03/12,"So triggered today, old diary I miss proed too. I had high regard for that community. I hope this sub has a similar vibe. 

I read my old diary today, detailing my weight loss over the course of a few months. I looked through all the eating disorder documents I’ve collected over time. I mostly cried. The most disturbing thing I found was a long list of rules I had made myself in a contract format, vowing to restrict and live under “anas” rules. I’ve always felt like I was against idolizing the disorder and making it like a god figure, but fuck guys I was there. I was right there, worshipping this disorder. 

I’m triggered. I want to lose weight again. It’s been a while. I just want to be like.....on a diet. I want to work out. I don’t know what’s going on with my body dysmorphia, I took a video of myself and I looked skinny! But still....something feelings instinctual. God reading those diary entries, it felt so logical, even though I know it’s not. As I continue, conflicted, I may do some more browsing here...maybe a post here and there. Proed was such a loving and respectful community, I hope it’s the same over here.... 


Wow I just saw the “oh no” tag. Boy did I need THAT back when proed was a thing. ",1.8352719665271948,4.18086226778243,3.2957221757322195,88.46130711297073,81.13389121338913,6.836552301255231,21.69389121338912,7.976525956113202,1.1275742594142262,938,29,192,18,25,307,138,239,0.117,0.7290000000000001,0.155,0.8719,0,0,1,0,0,0,47.0,0,0,0,3,16,13,1,1,17,0,15,8,2,4,1,38,38,13,0,6,5,0,5,2,0,1,0,0,0,2,13,7,5,2,8,3,0,2,3,5,0,0,16,8,28,8,19,20,7,24,1,3,3,2,3,9,1,6,14,125,41,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09839485215910683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09092822554124774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13135093378996232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12989389332647144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.406579933743086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12100096739800285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07810410466077619,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059791591203907535,0.0,0.22708027147942944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12965683908712816,0.0,0.10932175207284114,0.0,0.0,0.067205142188204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11708773263393955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12493936883916786,0.0,0.23490115597042094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12997603706090596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17331536050828172,0.0,0.10441838023042307,0.10464899591238977,0.19860322007396786,0.1322933573770364,0.0,0.0,0.10672673793796764,0.11189257773248402,0.0789338997618756,0.0,0.11879968427470244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09438734499903063,0.0,0.0,0.0876821058320725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24817044539747846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11325240031067613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23656731657979035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10098626956989684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0910359033599215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09443592660063063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15712229385549287,0.0,0.11618165330549896,0.0,0.06895349256645987,0.0,0.22417748941496965,0.0,0.13138194276069984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20924367453988407,0.0,0.0,0.2879973238220964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08608861518472187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ddmar,2019/03/12,"Does anyone else get salty over people who recover but their recovery body is fucking amazing? Like, of course I want everyone to recover and be healthy and happy with themselves. But I'm so jealous of Instagram fitness personalities like fightforgrowth who overcome eating disorders, and spread all the ""body positivity"" and ""love yourself"" messages, but of course it's much easier to love yourself and be positive about your body when you look like that. I know they have to work hard to get there, and of course they should be praised for their hard work and being able to recover. But that doesn't make it feel less shitty for people like me who haven't gotten there. ",11.767685950413224,9.314426099173561,10.036429752066118,66.20919008264464,56.603305785123965,13.646942148760333,42.38181818181818,11.979248473330829,4.96214909090909,542,22,92,12,5,166,75,121,0.076,0.5660000000000001,0.358,0.9945,0,0,0,0,1,0,13.0,0,2,4,3,5,11,2,0,1,0,9,7,3,1,1,18,21,13,0,2,4,0,3,4,0,1,0,0,0,1,7,8,1,0,2,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,1,4,9,9,14,15,3,3,1,0,1,3,14,2,1,0,5,58,16,2,0.15982345989473462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11175227923893508,0.1637580217248372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5325835029693707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18317153149457344,0.0,0.1398625867851725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1635392994428174,0.133511992643608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15271816501332475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08081154348043464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14775421331175986,0.16700232264991074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1701350449631058,0.28634085507779394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08783479381357849,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3123266780391218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13421145374462715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2884938249589644,0.0,0.10668340052924047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1174886325456176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22160292688138816,0.13955168050185535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0942680175289748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2327067645831745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,EFFY-here,2019/03/12,"Muscle cramps!? Does anyone else experience muscle cramps, aches, and overall fatigue? Recently my legs have just felt so ""dead"" and I'm hoping to find some supplements or Suggestions to help combat this issue. Thanks! ",5.965833333333332,9.494329472222224,5.2922222222222235,73.15000000000003,73.72222222222223,8.044444444444443,25.66666666666667,8.841846274778883,2.7614666666666667,175,6,24,4,4,53,32,36,0.14300000000000002,0.648,0.209,0.6052,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,0,0,1,4,1,0,0,8,5,4,1,1,2,0,1,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,1,2,2,4,1,1,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,3,1,11,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22040694461128546,0.32297690454070604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27584838205260004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26332322318567564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3083425561857897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3026576002740856,0.0,0.2881024823367729,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2112832042545204,0.0,0.0,0.3130814478265081,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3290044864372009,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31123860276567183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2902093167741033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,LowStory,2019/03/12,"Grocery shopping with my friend was a Mistake I usually grocery shop with one of my best friends. She’s a sweet girl and she knows about how going into treatment in December really fucked me up, so to make sure I go grocery shopping regularly we go out together. It makes it fun. We invited another one of our friends with us tonight—nice guy, we are all fairly close. Everything was fine and dandy until we were unloading my groceries and he saw my protein shakes.

“I didn’t know you drink protein shakes! You don’t work out!”

Yeah, I don’t, because my nutrionist recommended that I shouldn’t until I get my calories to a better spot. The shakes are so I can down some fucking calories in the morning and function during labs.

“Oh, yeah, haha, I just use em as breakfast.”

“Ugh, gross! Why?”

Because :) my :) stupid :) stomach :) can’t :) handle :) a full :) breakfast :)

“Oh, yknow, morning labs are rough enough as it is. I get to sleep in instead of making breakfast.”

Just, fuuuuck dude, it’s already embarrassing enough that I’m such a baby about breakfast. The shakes are a huge milestone for me, especially with how consistently I’ve been using them!! This just made me feel bad. Guess he won’t be invited next time...

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EDAnonymous,retirethecows,2019/03/13,"I feel like I’m losing control I’ve made myself throw up since I was about 15 (I’m 29F now). Initially it was for ballet, then it became this weird punishment thing in college for getting fat and not doing as well in class as I wanted to, then I thought I got better. I left my boyfriend of almost 3 years about 3 months ago and I can’t stop purging. I feel like for every positive step I take forward (leaving a relationship I couldn’t be in even though i loved him, doing well at work, being with amazing friends, dating a great new guy) I take two steps back. I’m running all the time but when I don’t run.. I overeat and force myself to throw it up. I hate what it’s doing to my body and I know it’s fucking up my metabolism but I feel like I’m in a downward spiral. I feel compelled to purge every time I’m overly stressed or sad or find myself missing my old relationship. I don’t know if therapy will help... and I just wanted to tell someone because it’s so isolating. I don’t want to tell my friends or my family. I want to stop feeling like this and stop making myself do this but it’s like I go on autopilot and can’t stop until I’m coughing up stomach acid and hating myself, and feeling deserving of it. I just wanted to write it all down. Thanks for reading. If anyone found yourself in a similar position... how did you beat it? I don’t want to be this person anymore. ",2.2652083333333337,3.8238628819444473,4.044861111111112,87.43625000000002,76.43055555555556,6.605555555555558,25.541666666666664,7.333567415737692,1.1837958333333338,1082,39,227,13,24,365,148,288,0.13,0.713,0.157,0.5552,0,0,0,0,0,0,32.0,0,1,0,5,13,23,4,1,5,0,18,7,3,5,2,52,53,26,0,9,11,0,6,5,2,1,2,0,0,2,16,10,2,5,11,2,0,8,8,9,2,1,7,7,38,14,34,41,2,41,0,3,0,2,13,16,1,6,24,145,54,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0859187573593068,0.0,0.09705705656429917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09612421888901733,0.06777268136022564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07452985655402479,0.0,0.059084988157187913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0857228776006946,0.0,0.10766256786966838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10871037947845692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06401849021025457,0.0,0.1633281129115558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09137289451748272,0.0,0.2940511830537787,0.27697486904318463,0.0,0.0,0.0885883054589578,0.0,0.0,0.10627399315109667,0.14976906278439792,0.08960621910000277,0.050639661564176285,0.0,0.05508509131422066,0.0,0.07752031178348465,0.10686089218926093,0.0,0.09597165088726944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19138806299944466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06496723278825353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10653562565361592,0.0,0.0,0.1026302884507132,0.10531002290915427,0.0,0.0,0.23676492970879395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10843503092324354,0.0,0.0,0.08747920045341043,0.09171341152015698,0.06469863666077688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07736514422688108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09361141504891506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10170718490504428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08463175552522523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09695189840730066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20812379005533532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08017791495332606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08212480476120522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3241367971278909,0.1110280262985632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14575208099624296,0.0,0.1694346136590121,0.08923613359001674,0.1108429495941341,0.0,0.0643931076009895,0.0,0.09522897761971937,0.07694815443985148,0.11303627403453563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09468229470848946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34301562480662945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17429563337244075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07056304137092609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06241695296753725
EDAnonymous,Baphomet_Barbie,2019/03/13,"Who has been inpatient? Recommendations & experiences please. Hello, first time poster here. Yes, I know about edreviews online and such, but many of the reviews are years old. I would love to hear experiences of those who have done an inpatient or residential program... where did you go? What did you like/dislike? Would you recommend? Did it help you? The more info, the better! Tell me your story! ",3.081389610389607,6.177091528571433,3.243246753246755,83.14448051948054,90.85714285714286,6.545454545454546,22.07792207792207,7.686295010490155,1.592857142857143,317,11,55,7,11,97,57,70,0.0,0.736,0.264,0.9716,0,0,0,0,0,0,20.0,0,5,0,2,4,2,0,0,4,1,10,1,0,0,0,7,14,3,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,5,1,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,5,1,8,2,4,7,1,6,0,0,0,1,12,1,0,1,4,39,13,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2566460999795344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2094902693418688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2423979392473893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4634042069397635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20147958072187425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13461739665216302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26696716076145305,0.0,0.15876745480481674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13017631662250492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1157216143080152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2137823854929456,0.0,0.0,0.24014671297947066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2485528502555581,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26000965115924324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20703284726745053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13811948546104502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3365280963342873,0.0,0.0,0.15253506012217893
EDAnonymous,eldariya,2019/03/13,"hello darkness my old friend I am alive, which is a good thing.  
 However i'm back in restricting mode and I've fasted for 31 hours lol yeet! I'm back on my shit, smoking menthol cigs and drinking monster ultra silver and watching intervention.  
 However I've picked up and smelt the contents of a nutella jar maybe 15 times in last 3 hours?   
  Does anyone else have the ability of killing cravings simply by imagining how the food tastes, like if I'm craving a kebab I can just taste the kebab in my head. Damn i'm anorexic lol",4.0761407766990265,5.7059884951456326,4.89726941747573,82.88337985436894,71.81553398058253,7.480097087378643,30.350728155339805,8.07648339933343,2.1951757281553395,417,18,78,6,8,135,74,103,0.135,0.695,0.171,0.4753,2,0,1,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,0,4,6,3,0,7,2,4,6,2,2,0,10,8,6,1,1,2,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,4,4,1,1,1,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,3,5,3,9,8,0,13,0,0,1,0,2,5,2,1,9,36,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15598151972454216,0.2285700593283765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34306685398378084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19521730552548827,0.0,0.0,0.2185317869395919,0.0,0.0,0.18635327758707748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2697471408306669,0.0,0.17234972522823158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18710747681112685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2289426726610823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4393743388533148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2468030642639003,0.0,0.0,0.18183857150205374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1089847791535841,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22411211532936148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2340831283341304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2289866479945865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1482032963990562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13007873861586852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ella0124,2019/03/13,"ma’am i’m dumb director of my language program: if you don’t order your food in french, you don’t eat
me (terrible at french): 😈",-0.6105555555555569,1.5931211851851863,1.9017592592592607,93.4504166666667,96.4074074074074,5.662962962962964,21.564814814814817,7.1686216300943375,0.94397037037037,100,4,22,2,4,34,23,27,0.13,0.87,0.0,-0.5106,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,3,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,1,3,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,5,0,3,3,0,3,0,0,0,0,4,2,1,1,0,11,5,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6459705910368272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7633622963675454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,bluehydrangea98,2019/03/13,If I gain 3 more pounds I'll be overweight Eating normally for a year and then bingeing for the past couple of months has really done its damage. I hate bingeing so much but I can't stop. All I can do is cry about my BMI,0.34562500000000185,2.309150645833334,2.4123333333333328,94.86600000000004,84.20833333333334,5.506666666666668,17.933333333333334,6.742157984588678,-0.10779666666666632,173,4,40,2,5,58,42,48,0.214,0.6940000000000001,0.092,-0.7140000000000001,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,1,2,2,1,0,2,0,7,2,0,0,1,6,8,5,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,2,1,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,5,0,4,6,3,5,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,5,27,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34863390540005496,0.3461044351617857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3224398203653269,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3224090863922145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3110797293386333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2514966476923101,0.0,0.2316226302152404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3087149364274803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3007828580518864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2018505615360761,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2634239187621863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20290344686063347
EDAnonymous,oh_sugah,2019/03/13,"Anyone wear weights when they go to the doctor? Apologies to mods and everyone if this isn’t allowed....



I have an appt with my doctor next week and he got on my case last time about my weight. I have no idea what it is now compared to what it was then, but I don’t want to risk any drama. Who here has worn weights when they see the doctor? Is there a certain kind that works best? Maybe fishing weights because they’re small and I can put them in my bra or pockets? 

Please don’t lecture me. I’m aware that I’m not in a good place. Just doing my best over here...",0.7851400560224064,2.75858823529412,1.6640546218487415,100.79479341736696,82.61344537815125,4.302801120448179,20.00070028011204,4.7782277997778095,-0.6042442577030815,436,12,104,1,12,135,83,119,0.077,0.738,0.184,0.952,1,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,3,3,8,6,0,1,5,0,11,8,1,1,1,13,18,9,0,2,5,0,4,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,8,4,4,0,1,1,0,2,5,1,0,0,3,5,13,5,10,15,2,16,0,0,1,0,6,6,0,2,8,65,21,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09391707875630953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0965671966426274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08418837141289523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2898682644949346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.42407321625462535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1319665708133926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07848904216646925,0.11583708466512035,0.11045629362079333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15590530010178605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14381654925827309,0.0,0.11257513789109756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13874642809753635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14687770892957744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14429177954872546,0.1515993399148749,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.138835063770744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11005290942431273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08053094464732992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08145872502848743,0.0,0.11078061287995042,0.6727054911958936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10054309428233882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,scarletfawn,2019/03/13,"How to appear heavier on a scale without actually gaining weight? Hi, a reddit newbie here. I'm a F/18 currently in forced ""recovery"" (been since August) which basically means I have a meal plan and my weight is monitored weekly. I wouldn't consider myself an ED patient but rather just being a perfectionist and making myself obsessed with losing weight on purpose, though I understand that to most people the things I do appear to be symptoms of an ED. I live at home so skipping meals is quite hard and last fall I kind of slowly gave up trying to cheat. I haven't dared to weigh myself in about half a year because I feel so disgusted with myself to begin with but I could still see I was gaining weight unstoppably and I was so depressed about that. I've been measuring myself otherwise though and I despise my current body. I'm about 5'1 and my lowest weight's been at 43kg which was still a long way from my UGW of 35kg and I miss being smaller. 

Last January I got my period for the first time in 15 months and freaked out kinda and decided to do my best to cheat on my plan. So now I've apparently been steadily losing weight instead of gaining and everyone thinks it's because my new meal plan isn't enough and Idk what will happen if they come to the conclusion that my weight is going down ""too much"" which is why I came here for help. Anyone got any tips on making yourself appear heavier on a scale without actually gaining weight or maintaining? I don't have to strip to my underwear or anything for weighings but I can't wear shoes. Also tips for ways to ""cheat"" or purge are welcome if they're allowed in this subreddit.",5.822125,6.383881962500002,6.248125000000003,78.76437500000002,66.875,9.15,31.0,9.120678840339163,2.5826375,1308,48,244,22,20,423,172,320,0.166,0.78,0.054000000000000006,-0.9882,5,0,0,0,0,0,24.0,0,0,1,13,20,14,5,1,13,0,26,17,3,4,0,46,47,27,0,5,12,0,10,0,0,2,1,0,1,0,10,17,13,0,6,0,0,7,7,11,0,2,11,11,33,3,43,30,4,40,0,4,1,0,5,14,0,10,17,167,43,0,0.0,0.0,0.15738912304816113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0644890523328714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054839048171799694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056386476438875885,0.0,0.06636115946256267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0983167325167034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08462837606650837,0.0,0.0,0.08957462984627765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09223249857686663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06946559138559386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06438574969086018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.069456485396405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08332432183871549,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07705649738830557,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04077481214236525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06859369732688886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04583047536533664,0.0,0.1289928964350841,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07131109386467528,0.0,0.07223902719608398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05405235955536089,0.0,0.08089009232285121,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08397580905535347,0.0,0.13146732184410376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0712080035399245,0.07136527165940315,0.0,0.18043462922187364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10765777828118507,0.0,0.0,0.08784233505136367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06436734971355929,0.0,0.059280849178073025,0.0,0.0,0.07788415248040154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055906726468939266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08577225992125798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06426090846614135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06670755858697905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12880095977038525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08381749165112473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05357469074109991,0.05167187626564272,0.15845991024943765,0.0,0.04702276104961122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05475034780818162,0.0,0.0,0.08395074170022447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12801908503073553,0.06468582122308568,0.7855978768855693,0.0,0.0,0.07276649417256069,0.0,0.0,0.1554712348050367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05193054158774908
EDAnonymous,nosoulto_sell,2019/03/13,I want to die I don't want to live anymore. I am fat. I can't manage to restrict. I can't lose weight and all I am doing is gain. I am just so unhappy. I have wanted to die since I was 5. I am done with everything. I just want to die.,-3.6842460317460315,-2.2863655357142854,0.5330952380952391,102.32301587301588,106.14285714285714,3.9174603174603178,13.365079365079366,5.82211442006289,-1.0783944444444442,174,4,49,2,9,65,31,56,0.259,0.542,0.199,-0.8212,0,0,0,0,0,3,8.0,0,0,0,2,3,1,0,0,0,0,12,2,1,0,1,10,16,2,3,4,2,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,2,1,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,2,1,11,0,6,14,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,34,11,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.210023442958696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6593656279504849,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21671888591781727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1903293055963146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1870008029789204,0.0,0.0,0.2369215458398311,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1751820919053629,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4996404537320177,0.0,0.0,0.2578843432146102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,gainsforagirl,2019/03/13,Hair Loss Questions? I haven't found bald spots but for some reason when I run my hands through my hair it feels so much thinner. I don't know how to help this. Anyone have any supplements they would recommend? ,2.9945121951219487,5.405680097560975,2.509939024390245,95.32393292682929,77.29268292682926,6.051219512195122,22.445121951219512,7.1686216300943375,0.5729463414634148,168,5,35,2,4,49,35,41,0.039,0.789,0.171,0.7587,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,1,1,3,1,0,0,0,0,4,4,4,2,0,9,7,4,0,1,1,0,4,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,5,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,1,4,6,0,3,5,2,2,0,1,0,0,3,0,0,2,1,21,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2663712873288018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2738876551960695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19805666879785755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4294818237715379,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26255008206587976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21526957558329332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28794657522207023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4387967011193471,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4027356427288459,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2782543797110768,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,TemporaryAccount_101,2019/03/13,"I've started purging again I don't know how to feel about it.  


it's just so...easy and liberating. But my teeth are already shit to begin with, and adding acid on top of their natural sensitivity just does not sound like a good idea.

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I know I should stop, and I will, I just need to get it off my chest.

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I'm glad I found this new subreddit. I was so devastated when the last one suddenly disappeared. How are you doing you lovely human beings? c:",1.756129032258066,4.157826817204303,3.3896881720430123,87.32453225806455,81.90322580645163,6.730752688172044,22.203225806451613,7.908726449838941,1.1377019354838709,366,12,76,7,10,121,70,93,0.17600000000000002,0.711,0.113,-0.7377,0,0,0,0,0,0,22.0,0,2,1,1,9,5,1,0,2,0,8,4,3,2,0,19,18,8,0,2,5,0,1,1,0,2,0,1,0,1,4,4,0,1,5,0,0,1,2,1,0,1,2,3,12,4,8,13,0,12,0,0,0,1,5,3,1,0,9,48,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20379356103616847,0.0,0.0,0.40019077943193704,0.4488009114725104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16161042130097006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09337727756969566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2024867110654333,0.0,0.0,0.09648511564836107,0.0,0.0,0.15489670895011734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2084757050253925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20298520654275695,0.15053485176485334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0902229237668905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16667648463402124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1369342439182617,0.0,0.17836035881785645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12514062470154996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18956633252921484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13071398369912954,0.0,0.0,0.15439664973441564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4488009114725104,0.0
EDAnonymous,-Zed_Leppelin-,2019/03/13,"Logged into old account just to post. My favorite junk foods don't sound good today. So, I just got done with another weight loss competition at work. Lost by .44%.  Cool, I lost weight but something else changed. I got done with the competition and felt like I could have a free-for-all-day on my favorite snacks and none of the sound good. What the heck happened to me? I mean, yay for not wanting them. But, I'd rather restrict than have a day of favorite foods. That's a first. Not sure how I feel about it. 

That's all.",1.1121428571428569,3.4972178571428607,1.6453571428571436,98.85089285714287,84.71428571428572,4.642857142857143,20.17857142857143,5.985473137389443,-0.24200000000000044,405,12,92,3,12,123,71,105,0.14,0.684,0.17600000000000002,0.7842,0,0,1,0,0,0,21.0,0,0,1,5,6,9,0,0,6,2,6,5,0,1,2,21,15,6,0,3,7,0,4,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,4,5,5,1,3,0,1,0,4,3,0,1,7,7,10,6,13,7,2,8,0,3,0,0,1,3,1,0,5,53,14,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16434423819456911,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16579871863132212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1251355179963593,0.0,0.0,0.202154744258396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3207767863656497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13092714074565526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07924699585137268,0.0,0.15048461639437752,0.0,0.0,0.13331378274693273,0.3790351565646286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2629140444236928,0.25070132740174256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1385951194556002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07656997346187236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3421768855533741,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17072405231654128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1644609372392987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15010325560614307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12065780004560556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14771542204988175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14856096163299826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09244294654320608,0.0,0.0,0.38170790016781775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11410072876515487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,jellywalrus_,2019/03/13,"Blood when you purge Does anyone else bring up some blood when you purge? It’s not usually a lot, just on my fingers and in spots in the toilet. Sometimes after a purge I get spilt of blood when I blow my nose too",3.5493333333333332,4.0474910444444445,3.895555555555557,93.85000000000002,71.8888888888889,6.8888888888888875,21.66666666666667,6.42735559955562,0.093666666666667,167,3,39,1,3,52,34,45,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,2,0,0,5,0,0,0,3,0,0,5,5,0,0,5,2,4,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,2,6,0,6,2,2,10,0,0,0,0,2,4,0,2,5,25,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2810570326649993,0.4118514984617669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35175446881620226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3357827216872544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21000545837544565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.341728679762037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3975448348649704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4426978272380288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,TetchyRobot,2019/03/13,"What am i doing wrong? I hadnt weighed myself for 2 weeks, but since then I've been heavily restricting. Minimum 18 hours between eating, regularly more, I have had a few carb based binges, but I fasted for days after and they were at the milder end of binging. despite all this, I've gained 2 lbs since my last weigh in. I don't know if it's water retention, because my period is due, or because I'm doing something wrong, but this failure makes me want to binge so badly even though I'm 21 hours into a 48 hour fast because what's the point if I'm not loosing weight. I don't even feel skinny, I feel bloated and lethargic but I don't know what more I can do. During fasting I drink black coffee, cold green tea, and water, and when I eat I eat raw vegetables. Help?",4.415696202531648,4.729559936708863,5.3593417721519,84.78027848101266,69.8860759493671,8.092151898734178,27.8253164556962,7.908726449838941,1.5760005063291138,602,19,126,7,10,198,105,158,0.14800000000000002,0.797,0.055,-0.946,0,0,2,0,0,0,20.0,0,0,1,1,5,3,0,0,4,0,14,12,1,1,1,21,23,15,0,3,8,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,6,5,12,1,4,1,0,0,5,3,0,0,4,6,17,0,9,19,4,19,0,0,2,0,2,4,0,3,15,72,23,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12832918645666905,0.2810737524851563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09912077740536153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15056291774045202,0.0,0.4718060992083936,0.0,0.0,0.1361284493044237,0.0,0.0,0.2030286409802326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1554259607340634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10301874456836764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4540768418485757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16893387536471266,0.1252822130204476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10259283084754234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1452917720978299,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25427674186222776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.118322179223794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15100488815473212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09065349181508812,0.0,0.12328512850490793,0.18715951458473293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33608344681354513,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,I-Slap-Cat-Butts,2019/03/13,"evolving EDs howdy friends

for as long as i can remember, i've had an unhealthy relationship with food. i started off as a binge eater around age 5 and binged and ate compulsively well into high school. i started purging around age 17 and lost a significant amount of weight over the span of about 6 months, around 80 pounds. this evolved into patterns of restricting and b/p-ing and overexercising that led to another 25 pounds of weight loss, which led to restriction and a loss of another 30 pounds. i'm amazed at how fast it took over my life. in 15 months i went from binge eating to extreme restriction and lost an entire person in weight. for the last 5 years it's pretty much been the same. i'm curious about how many others have similar stories, with EDs starting in early childhood and changing over the years. ",8.252209677419355,7.633026438709678,7.344314516129034,76.91647177419357,62.03225806451614,10.846774193548386,35.504032258064505,10.125756701596842,3.3385,658,25,124,12,8,202,99,155,0.121,0.7809999999999999,0.098,-0.4019,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,0,4,8,7,0,0,9,0,4,7,0,4,0,24,14,13,0,0,0,0,3,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,6,15,6,3,1,0,0,4,0,4,1,0,7,3,5,3,31,7,3,33,0,4,0,0,3,15,0,0,14,68,11,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2818239670059988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35888729539283604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14215908364816254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13750705615424233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1624961006106533,0.0,0.10382374472871972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1419827062236083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10953984060295904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09491847888981604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11892446537289066,0.0,0.0,0.2933891944244513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13624297092819262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21452598649629925,0.0,0.09878675063411448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11733779484543524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13671552269818155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14427673411955014,0.1522294087102799,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13600247206752952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28535031132883754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14930413011844387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4909257962642969,0.12082619073767716,0.12457411409340174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17307611254735525
EDAnonymous,strongbutkindahungry,2019/03/13,tried not weighing myself to stop obsessing so much and start rEcoVErinG Gained 8lbs in 2 weeks and my jeans don’t fit hahahahahahaha welcome back to restriction bitch,15.807931034482756,11.564432551724146,14.030344827586207,46.12413793103451,51.06896551724138,17.117241379310347,49.68965517241379,14.554592549557764,6.845524137931035,140,6,22,4,1,45,27,29,0.272,0.518,0.21,-0.34,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,1,2,3,1,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,5,2,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,2,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,2,1,3,2,1,6,0,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,4,12,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4148250312506895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3965781634046996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3818450742545572,0.0,0.0,0.4510274915818773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.366269928325662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4327364492016193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,catsxinfinity,2019/03/13,"I feel good about this I had a friend in college who would make fun of my weight. Mind you, I wasn't even overweight, just not as thin as her. Now, five years later, I have a BMI in the low-average range, and she's morbidly obese. I just think that's wonderful how that worked out.",0.8098870056497169,2.8162127288135608,1.8450000000000024,99.34908192090398,82.72881355932203,5.967231638418079,18.30790960451977,7.1686216300943375,-0.08527344632768408,217,5,53,3,6,68,49,59,0.0,0.7390000000000001,0.261,0.935,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,1,0,1,6,3,0,0,3,0,4,3,0,2,0,12,8,4,0,1,3,0,3,0,1,1,2,1,0,0,4,2,3,0,3,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,2,4,9,3,7,5,0,7,0,0,0,0,5,4,0,1,3,35,13,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23386646254778204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17903345778936136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2735612851650265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2969854564761029,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2363511110278645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3575198049787335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2268801299685257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4311739801514321,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3839845934937761,0.2577744151390173,0.0,0.0,0.2515282320311695,0.0,0.0,0.22801587393873
EDAnonymous,chezpajama,2019/03/13,"Gauging interest in a blog centered around adult ED, food, cooking and harm reduction Hey all, a friend of mine has been wanting to do some social media collaboration with me for a while and knows I made r/safe_food for ED friendly recipes that are nutritious.

He’s proposed creating a blog around my experience as a 30’s “foodie” who also happens to live with anorexia.

Content would largely center around food in the form of meal & cocktail recipes, maybe a “hey what can I do with X product” or product reviews as well as a bit of personal story telling and light fitness talk.

Would like to see if there’s any interest in this sort of content. ",8.773469945355188,7.7575483688524605,8.202295081967211,72.47207650273226,61.213114754098356,10.756284153005463,43.284153005464475,9.725611199111238,4.331208743169397,519,28,91,8,6,164,87,122,0.028,0.8,0.172,0.9413,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,0,6,7,0,0,8,0,8,4,0,1,1,19,13,10,0,4,2,0,0,1,2,2,0,0,0,2,4,9,5,0,1,4,0,0,0,1,1,0,2,2,5,6,21,9,4,10,0,0,1,0,11,9,0,4,2,58,9,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14404512434815958,0.0,0.19516431481898025,0.0,0.12249051935618485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4810457344329622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1966487926413936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1761958676536362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4356133920827814,0.0,0.278326762611861,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15928308777309433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09899145804793336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08799950425107197,0.0,0.15905282142383606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17043771551966894,0.0,0.0,0.18095880175937676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1572773581644411,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1435355337980803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1836137683888021,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14477687498457106,0.15743634438706294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10624182168955867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16195313795803792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25590989048208523,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,emthebrainstem69,2019/03/13,"Celiac disease and bulimia This is pretty terrible, but when I really want to binge but don’t necessarily feel like it will be easy to purge, I ingest gluten. I have Celiac disease and this makes me so incredibly sick, and causes me to vom pretty soon after. For some reason I feel fine since I did “purge” the binge but on the other hand the after effects that I get are terrible. Brain fog for up to two days, cramps and shake-y limbs!! Some times this makes me so mad at myself that I am basically poisoning myself for food, but on the other hand it makes me feel like I am cheating bulimia since I am not technically making myself throw up. 
Is this awful? and does anyone else do this frequently? ",5.20798202614379,6.063257625000006,6.268039215686276,77.03839869281047,68.33823529411765,9.279738562091504,25.405228758169926,9.444778638647367,2.0512101307189545,551,14,104,11,9,184,78,136,0.192,0.636,0.172,-0.8194,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,0,1,4,8,3,0,4,1,12,8,3,7,0,23,21,12,0,1,5,0,5,2,0,1,4,0,0,0,11,5,2,0,5,0,0,1,2,5,0,1,1,5,16,3,14,18,2,13,0,0,0,0,0,5,0,2,9,74,27,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12794180387162293,0.18748160521297424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20426289569054165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18796782794385875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11800505632383088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16012444461367115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15285384149343306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2775560744787388,0.2614376741576629,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22125656839371155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09559795359921458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17878668273118625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4885543919041394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3723068711763177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11721978003667795,0.1881308764253697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3027210039180882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1066953860511786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1787419847729104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10792460155798553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,lameanonymous,2019/03/13,"how many times you weigh yourself At the worst time of my ED, I would weight myself every day multiple times a day, after every meal, after using the restroom, you name it. 
How many times do y’all weigh yourself? ",8.004634146341466,6.705551048780492,7.370853658536586,78.72993902439025,62.90243902439024,9.175609756097561,30.256097560975608,7.1686216300943375,1.817478048780488,167,4,31,1,2,52,30,41,0.1,0.9,0.0,-0.6249,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,3,0,0,2,1,0,0,3,0,2,4,0,3,0,5,3,2,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,6,0,4,2,1,9,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,0,8,19,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3147963295103984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4112612518780796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4948759828751714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5692521481865195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21078901735043706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29719867905835723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1733728419309842,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,roughsyrup,2019/03/13,"I just realized I like to send nudes to my boyfriend because I like taking bodycheck photos. I literally just made the connection. Obviously its a two-birds-one-stone kinda thing; My boyfriend likes to get them and i like to send them. But ive talked to friends before and i didn't understand why they didn't like sending nudes. After all, you get to pose, see your body, what it looks like, etc. I honestly feel like a lightbulb just went off in my head. Can't believe i didn't realize this sooner. ",2.4541836734693883,4.879485234693881,3.2830204081632672,88.97983673469388,79.3061224489796,6.777142857142858,25.106122448979587,7.908726449838941,1.4615191836734691,395,15,80,7,10,125,64,98,0.0,0.748,0.252,0.9678,0,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,2,3,0,3,9,0,0,3,0,5,4,4,1,2,14,14,3,0,0,4,0,1,7,1,0,0,0,0,0,5,2,0,0,4,0,0,4,4,0,0,0,5,3,17,9,9,9,2,7,0,0,2,2,10,2,0,1,8,46,22,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11498629112075895,0.0,0.16050911154028513,0.2125199255385951,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2095239376021457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21037083734336265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09537632708856984,0.13475636501866356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14573404845571555,0.0,0.1971013974441056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19358744266629047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.645081107355984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15840058189804512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1784850156638612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12781967373909048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15031263426735236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1418252904807562,0.15161258598542984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12531651181988046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18426280926667835,0.19636910580415468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17486067399179162,0.1702080422850006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ss-vs-ss,2019/03/13,I just realised I act like a nicer person when I relapse because restricting means I have so much more free time to talk to friends and family and I’m way more organised so I remember to text/call them regularly :(,1.9464285714285687,4.6162941190476205,3.700285714285717,83.49471428571428,84.0,8.121904761904762,27.447619047619053,8.841846274778883,2.734241904761905,171,8,33,5,5,57,32,42,0.117,0.619,0.264,0.7818,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,1,0,4,3,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,6,3,5,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,1,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,6,4,3,3,3,4,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,3,20,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22281997598879386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3445834009181444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28240285742888765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17857651358870238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.398162682707526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26870212327712223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.319161369447208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4140673226227906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2937942639909495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2131399248082433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2901358570659333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,babyflower05,2019/03/14,"Longtime follower, haven’t posted until now. I’m pretty sure my ED has returned. I went through bulimia and anorexia in my teen years and now I’m almost 22, starting college, and I’m fucking spiralling. Lately I’ve been feeling like an absolute cow. I was planning on losing weight 8 months ago and being at my goal weight by now, and I’ve only lost 8 pounds. I‘m technically obese. My doctor says with my height (5’6) and weight (254) I‘m obese. I just went for surgery, and they actually wrote that word on my discharge forms under “conditions”. So, I was planning on reaching my goal weight of 140 pounds by this time, and I have lost 8 pounds from my highest weight. I seem to have no fucking self control. 

I tried to talk to my sister about how I’m feeling and she basically just told me to except myself and not live up to societies expectations. She wants me to make healthy decisions for myself and focus on being happy and stead of being thin. That’s nice and all, but I’m fucking miserable being a cow and I would like to not be so disgusting anymore. My mom showed me a video from my surgery day and I could not believe how huge I looked. Appetite suppressant’s only work for a limited time, and once they wear off, I binge and lose all self-control. I’m trying to lose weight the healthy way, and I’m trying to not fall back into old habits. In an effort to motivate me, I throughout most of my current size clothing, so that I would have to lose weight and buy smaller clothes. Apparently that doesn’t work, because I’ve just been wearing the same fucking outfit.

Anyway, I’ve been lying in my bed for two hours just trying to stop thinking about how fucking gross I am. I hate myself. I wish I was never hungry. I wish my metabolism was as fast as everyone else’s. I wish I could be at my goal weight when I wake up tomorrow. I wish I was thin.",3.6268384557721127,5.227215135869566,4.525813343328338,85.21641304347828,72.91304347826087,7.141079460269864,27.635307346326837,7.753152298057669,1.6250799100449775,1462,55,288,19,29,473,182,368,0.132,0.763,0.105,-0.9474,4,0,0,0,0,0,44.0,0,0,2,17,18,20,7,1,7,0,25,19,3,6,4,64,59,30,0,10,10,2,12,2,0,2,3,1,1,1,5,21,10,4,6,2,1,4,8,15,0,1,14,14,49,5,45,35,5,46,0,7,1,5,11,18,5,3,24,179,54,8,0.0,0.0,0.06502284086110842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0590649030577373,0.0,0.06672193375732857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06608065391864665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051235596132533,0.0,0.04061801176985756,0.0,0.0,0.07507100848909383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14946603565069755,0.10639983944991874,0.0,0.0,0.042971876964936734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06820027754440107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05566216122340232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06366935999079194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06738188941464042,0.04760163639544627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30799925459692035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07093058919258508,0.0,0.06578492133095208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06561871517191638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07516335976631296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06510567913471847,0.0,0.058836933487416775,0.0,0.05595377185555246,0.2981749171608736,0.14547254955787794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.044477117916820234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07803813779158697,0.05318471640248432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05139040630974095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06991866737049687,0.07096049136789474,0.0,0.10135268579230766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06381466490540437,0.06778830314476264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052988131668414234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06065891637983966,0.13902260471047212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.047162197398547295,0.0,0.0,0.055707010576691376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06279950505675644,0.0,0.0,0.05355596516759872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04269484602678237,0.0,0.0,0.07770685672206677,0.0,0.0,0.06366935999079194,0.0,0.1809539609179911,0.0,0.06508940224605411,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03930105068474929,0.0528890715693932,0.0,0.6491148148010708,0.0,0.1235363423771058,0.0,0.0,0.3064922582998896,0.0,0.0,0.0970172131471451,0.0,0.0,0.09466636976494458,0.0,0.0,0.04290857304615794
EDAnonymous,fat_cacao,2019/03/14,"I'm either restricting or binging out of control. So I choose to restrict. Does anyone else feel like this? I've been on proED in the past but I ""recovered"" (aka got fat) and have been binging ever since. I feel like there is no possibility of an in-between for me. I know people say once you stop restricting you will eventually stop binging, but that hasn't been true for me at all. I haven't been restricting for a year+. But I can't stop the binging without going back to strict restriction. I'm so fat right now, I'm literally running out of clothing that fits. I can't look at pictures of myself.  I don't want to leave my house. I feel like putting makeup on, shaving, even washing my face or showering sometimes is useless because it feels like ""putting lipstick on a pig."" So I'm going to restrict again. 

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Idk what I'm hoping to get from sharing this. I just feel like no one in my personal life understands how fucked up my relationship with food is. Like when I tried to tell one of my friends that I was struggling with binging (in veiled terms like ""eating my feelings""/""stress eating""), she offered to eat a healthy dinner with me that night. When dinnertime came, I asked her about it and she was like ""oh, I'm skipping dinner, but I'll sit with you."" Like are you kidding?? I know she can't know how triggering that was but UGH. 

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I feel like a whiny bitch reading through all this. I'm very lucky in a lot of ways. But I needed to share with people who ""get it"". Thank you to anyone who read this. <3",2.396545253863138,4.7210571092715234,3.1446092715231764,90.44713465783664,78.90066225165563,5.880971302428256,25.62958057395144,7.03164865440522,1.0816897130242829,1205,47,244,14,30,379,155,302,0.17600000000000002,0.654,0.17,-0.4284,1,0,0,0,0,0,61.0,0,5,0,1,15,22,2,1,8,0,19,12,3,4,4,54,49,17,0,3,11,0,6,10,1,1,4,1,1,2,15,10,8,10,11,2,0,6,9,5,0,2,9,8,35,17,39,39,5,35,1,1,1,1,21,14,2,5,23,148,50,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1845549710043259,0.20697238282475566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1191003014329644,0.08726278283682141,0.0,0.0,0.07961885155886651,0.0,0.0,0.06548751062511006,0.0,0.05191649318315227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0974073845022765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09552107652313388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07452946981820735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2614386926927565,0.07114538816148516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05625143736602496,0.07703765649141263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.258375379544731,0.3650562778060487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1029832439135989,0.0,0.06579915448580304,0.07873473124336075,0.08899159418969486,0.0,0.09680376883887552,0.0,0.06811514842917869,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0845892012952862,0.0,0.09827029987451033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1404152625442124,0.0,0.0,0.0901786534434332,0.0,0.0,0.060155368816135514,0.41607877881044336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07151811446532144,0.0,0.0,0.07240521324449327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06314961941828605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07992266034777441,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09069916782850354,0.11542157166160172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08130072477528769,0.11808696685984478,0.0743637952014897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0960120351362434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17123100306777786,0.0,0.0,0.17037838983281456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09143657013956057,0.0,0.072731424836272,0.0,0.0677275390075266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07045031749925679,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08423149781484253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2136081390132059,0.09755753449815956,0.08903414917864501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07443896698105727,0.07840954641290503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05782222386765677,0.0,0.0,0.08866096335046147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07027099121206255,0.05023320052016085,0.06760092392393541,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08209712726733116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20697238282475566,0.054844206867426935
EDAnonymous,stegasaurus-,2019/03/14,"I’m so grateful this community exists... So I was in the very depths of my ed when r/proed (rip 5evr) was taken down, and I posted here a little bit (jaksusu if anyone remembers me)

Anyway, I’ve been in pseudo/semi recovery for a bit and I was SO glad to find this sub still alive!!

That is all, im  so glad and grateful, and also kinda/very relieved this sub is still here. 

Hi friends ☺️",-0.7007760532150762,1.4549986341463423,2.139223946784924,93.00278270509979,93.14634146341464,4.445232815964523,17.210643015521065,6.11248444174946,-0.247380487804878,296,8,65,3,11,103,57,82,0.0,0.728,0.272,0.9736,0,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,0,0,11,4,0,0,3,0,6,0,0,0,1,8,8,11,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,4,4,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,0,5,4,6,3,3,9,0,0,0,0,2,5,0,1,3,41,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1941022744931728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16971474896154967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5299725082783544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22184074349933688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18752407594410134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2621781409184854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2432681748526755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.232457681786549,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2749532804321552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3876713696968396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4005371435452503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,cr3030,2019/03/14,"Recovery/Journalism Hi - I'm a Journalism Masters student in NYC working on a piece for school about eating disorder recovery/the mental health resources available to those suffering. I've struggled with an eating disorder myself, so this issue is extremely close to home and I want to tell the story of just how hard it is to garner access to recovery. If there are any willing members of this community who would like to tell their story, please respond to this and I'll reach out with my email -- I'm looking for sources to help me better tell the story of how hard it can be to recover, and I completely respect privacy/confidentiality/sensitivity. ",7.020254237288135,8.503120474576273,7.762500000000002,65.6806991525424,64.59322033898304,10.984745762711864,37.63135593220339,10.9516,4.773996610169492,528,27,81,15,8,176,80,118,0.111,0.759,0.131,0.3597,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,1,3,6,5,0,1,5,0,7,3,0,2,0,13,11,7,0,3,2,0,2,1,0,2,1,0,1,0,7,7,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,3,6,3,20,8,1,4,0,1,1,0,9,4,0,1,1,55,13,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11982098436181535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15583320554514474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18474071674209488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4038773650276724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36058999342587983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31567839474011306,0.0,0.0,0.18729070709230952,0.0,0.0,0.11810210324424696,0.0,0.17674140617608888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1839053982644975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08608165985527595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14796231666742166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17756658973912573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19341298066068108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1783222326195545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1842008709747648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4620156202602748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10392640771012143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12827456610902405,0.0,0.0,0.12516631959214378,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,harmfulrash,2019/03/14,"i've spent over $400 on food in the past 30 days ah. okay. so i get paid biweekly and it's hard to budget with that for some reason. got paid today and had a fuckton of bills to pay so i was like, okay time to be an adult and sit down and figure out why i'm so fucking broke.

went through my bank account, added up everything from all the times when i went to hannaford, walmart, and walgreens in the past 30 days... holy fuck i kinda wish i didn't lol. came out to like $411. $100 a week on soda and energy drinks and straight up junk. and that's only counting the times i used my card to pay! the amount of times i've taken out a $20 at the atm and telling myself this is it for the week, only to spend it within 2 days and do the same shit... fuck.

my dudes. it's bad lol. i just kept buying candy and chocolate and ice cream and random shit and justifying it with, well, i walked a lot today! well, it was a long day at work but i got through it! .. no! i have so much food! i have veggies and eggs and bread sitting in the fridge going bad and here i am spending fucking $5 on a two pound cheesecake! what the hell! i've never had a problem with hoarding food like that and yet... here i am! new disordered habits seem to be creeping up on me more and more frequently.

i'm seriously just in shock lmao. holy fuck. and like tbh the worst part is that i'm still fucking maintaining my 15.3 bmi lmao maybe even losing still. what's the point of spending this much on food if i'm not even at least weight restoring! dude! the fuck!

i'm not upset, like it already happened it's too late lol... but at least now i know and can do better? fuck. i'm planning on leaving my debit cards at home and carrying only $10 in cash a day which is scary but i can't think of any kind of emergency where i'd have to have money immediately? plus i have cards linked to my venmo and squarecash accounts that i can use if i reeeeeally need to. just... insane. $20 a day on food. insane!",0.3079133439659749,2.3530389832535903,2.0345805422647523,97.0201749069644,85.00478468899522,4.7681871345029245,18.858266879319512,5.953557352011769,-0.3486920361509833,1517,40,355,11,45,496,207,418,0.172,0.72,0.107,-0.9864,0,0,1,0,0,0,66.0,0,0,0,4,20,31,11,1,23,6,22,20,2,3,2,60,56,34,0,5,10,0,2,5,0,0,0,0,1,1,19,31,10,1,6,1,18,5,6,20,3,1,15,3,26,11,51,39,13,63,1,2,1,8,2,29,11,7,32,206,45,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08024096165476903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04944755406772852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12142517734548156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06430902648465149,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08316467211271868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2813644730569211,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08333576939926163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07123137570290987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09605293003848728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0653500474276017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4396262027227731,0.0,0.0,0.537778374089007,0.0379897108899435,0.0,0.04132465796046677,0.0,0.1163109760921549,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06430015266595522,0.0,0.06513685634892823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07293739309893042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07571973798008325,0.039961341496437285,0.0,0.08202379714176229,0.07699291161045738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1776202871560637,0.0,0.0,0.06434900397762798,0.0,0.08134761070422078,0.0,0.061818268188784276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07305030773858287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1069053199366435,0.053916008727674984,0.05608099844509792,0.07022698185294705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16590527948153785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07874144451058318,0.13882619173098046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06873759462262005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06957683134347338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07476140791501419,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06619547965189577,0.0,0.0,0.14927836524542926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11613790965643662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06355465053313733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04659176226804476,0.0,0.0,0.1695988969123074,0.0,0.13784745885316838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07103035232203274,0.0,0.0,0.1256019320708817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11665248573693394,0.08854524008853952,0.13075602238785058,0.13481196048551886,0.06561246547614293,0.0,0.08361673459805198,0.0,0.0,0.052936166206390564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,sexsymboI,2019/03/14,about to sound deranged ive been fasting for 36 hrs & i just like. compulsively chewed at my lips till the skin came off is this gonna break my fast fr A REAL QUESTION ,2.2325000000000017,3.783030583333337,3.184444444444445,93.605,76.5,5.911111111111111,23.11111111111111,6.42735559955562,0.29417777777777765,135,4,31,1,3,43,34,36,0.0,0.925,0.075,0.3612,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,2,0,3,3,2,0,0,4,5,1,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,1,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,2,4,1,6,2,0,7,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,4,16,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4719246041822131,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4981598829389861,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2127905977608531,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4879222570884117,0.0,0.0,0.4957579364367311,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,drugsandsunshine,2019/03/14,"A woman on my main account called me morbidly obese She went lurking through my profile and mocked me for being child free (something I'm proud of so whatevs) and then said I was morbidly obese. Like I guess she was trying to hurt my feelings? Jokes on her, now I just have something to rattle around in my brain whenever Im trying to not eat ",2.267142857142858,4.672850588235296,3.1221008403361346,89.98088235294121,79.88235294117645,5.650420168067227,25.890756302521005,6.868970318607317,1.1523168067226899,272,11,53,3,7,86,50,68,0.098,0.752,0.149,0.5719,0,0,2,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,1,4,6,1,0,1,0,4,4,1,0,0,7,9,4,0,0,2,0,1,1,0,0,2,1,0,2,0,3,3,0,1,1,2,1,1,2,0,0,4,2,12,5,10,4,1,7,0,1,0,0,7,4,0,1,3,35,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2368412882908791,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2970002675686751,0.2716672348202443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2722360090206785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13452309111552074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29308454297062925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2848124874489333,0.0,0.2873801184269896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1299788011654456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25307488346385765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4096372374739586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36126155534897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.246631413663844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Samazing12,2019/03/14,"Dreamed I went on a date in exchange for colon prep... This is going to be pretty gross.....

I'm a nurse and whenever patient's need a colonoscopy we have to make them drink GoLytely.... Which is basically a gallon of zero-cal, sugar-free  lemonade packed with Miralax and electrolyes... The whole point is that they poop out EVERYTHING they have in their system.... Like they drink until they are pooping straight GoLytely (it literally looks like straight up pee).

Anyway, I had a dream this really gross looking doctor asked me on a date and I agreed on one condition........ That he gave me a prescription for GoLytely. Now I know I'd sell my soul for some solid colon cleanser. To be fair where I work we make people drink it pretty often and I'm always a tad envious that whoever I'm giving it to..... Yikes. ",2.4693382352941167,5.1444776907894765,3.1904798761609925,88.11365325077404,81.30263157894737,5.944891640866874,24.072755417956657,7.285733465282438,1.1897015479876163,627,23,118,9,17,197,99,152,0.037000000000000005,0.7929999999999999,0.171,0.9442,0,0,3,0,0,0,42.0,2,0,6,1,4,5,1,0,9,0,9,9,5,2,0,14,23,5,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,9,8,3,0,1,5,2,2,0,3,0,1,3,2,16,2,17,18,2,18,1,0,2,0,12,11,0,2,6,71,25,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15523475208293647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17441053642981313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.190954386513922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5482799926290123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1676701367823756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17896752710595,0.10602763617566724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10252974341201272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1822898009417711,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3133306362532283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2490635250035289,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13833355772456224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12641942099722658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12933878618035358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1763616454178472,0.0,0.0,0.37960179359682383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11951656601544487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17294509142896203,0.0,0.2082901095855963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13581955297573706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,thebluecrest,2019/03/14,"What treatment centers would you recommend (or not)? Hello, first time ever posting. For those who have gone, what treatment centers would you recommend (or recommend against)? And why or why not? The more info you're willing to share would be super helpful. I do know about edreviews online, but many of the reviews are years old... and I'd just love to hear from a real (recent) person. I do not discuss this with anyone in my real life, so here I am. Thanks!",2.8997545219638248,5.511071430232562,3.366899224806204,87.94308785529718,78.88372093023256,5.217571059431527,25.834625322997407,6.42735559955562,1.0755958656330744,357,14,64,3,9,111,64,86,0.0,0.765,0.235,0.9642,0,0,0,0,0,0,21.0,0,2,0,2,5,4,0,0,3,0,10,2,0,0,1,19,15,7,0,3,8,0,0,0,0,4,1,1,0,1,5,3,0,0,2,0,0,1,3,0,0,1,1,1,6,4,9,9,1,11,0,0,0,1,10,3,0,3,6,48,11,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14059938054688045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18188781474365048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17103802121835593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22663107965245166,0.0,0.1347792724523097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11050797070767447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14202831546783712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1814819946271776,0.0,0.0,0.2038629346107319,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2109989882030638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1755747620224019,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19257846629438988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4577447215005914,0.0,0.0,0.1985416331972029,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1851268808218989,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11725100578586742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36288573613287395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4285230752057125,0.0,0.0,0.12948853058084595
EDAnonymous,chardwork,2019/03/14,"so afraid of being The Fat American hey yall. i just got really wonderful news: i've been accepted to my dream master's program in the netherlands.

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this should be a good thing.

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i should be so proud of myself and so excited to learn more in a new place.

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but i'm NOT because suddenly i think i'm too fat to get a degree in europe. i'm so scared of the US/EU size difference when it comes to shopping. i'm so scared that i'll gain weight when i'm there, which is irrational because i will be walking/biking everywhere and too broke to buy enough food. i'm so scared that i will just be the young, fat american who doesn't know enough- even though i do. i hate that my eating disorder manages to ruin the happiest moments.

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anyways, time to restrict to the gods so that i can feel like a princess in five months!!!",3.821659919028342,5.2629640584795325,4.514269005847954,86.12595141700409,72.15789473684211,8.068556005398111,28.943319838056677,8.617729084823388,2.110287989203779,678,27,137,12,13,217,103,171,0.207,0.66,0.133,-0.9662,0,0,0,0,0,0,35.0,0,1,0,3,17,12,1,4,10,0,14,6,3,0,0,17,28,13,0,2,4,0,2,1,0,4,3,0,0,0,9,3,6,1,6,2,2,1,2,7,0,1,2,2,12,5,15,17,3,14,0,2,0,0,3,5,0,1,9,85,21,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4331085858988133,0.4857171581860918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12183621402889988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08608325808896704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10440850583443292,0.11453164596480865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10225620210896412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20651459114815326,0.0,0.06600467156152537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050529026056896166,0.07139201190917621,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12083913779175827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052210763149094966,0.0,0.0,0.08381889091622026,0.07992538877145135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09866295032564963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054920453120449915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04882211802056317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07976540712275912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09651572044920773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10440850583443292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06401951026631897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.300150497063095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06639091150182208,0.06403290279104944,0.09818346809313844,0.0,0.05827161900947955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1202068533618362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12169122770203218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10837285817783404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4857171581860918,0.0
EDAnonymous,kayasawyer,2019/03/14,I’m fucking tired i have ednos and gastroparesis and i just feel like my entire world is spiralling. my stomach hurts constantly and i feel like i’m faking everything. i’m ready to be done i just want to be better i want to be somebody else. i’m stuck in a place where i can’t gain or lose weight and i feel like i’m failing myself. i look so disgusting and my body can barely support walking these days. what the fuck what the fuck what the fuck what the fuck!!! how is this my life? ,-0.5063242574257423,1.692530168316832,1.2421720297029708,97.4000897277228,98.80198019801979,4.109158415841584,17.20358910891089,5.985473137389443,-0.3602430693069309,381,11,84,4,16,123,58,101,0.294,0.534,0.172,-0.9585,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,4,5,15,6,0,5,0,9,10,2,1,0,14,27,8,0,2,3,0,4,3,0,0,2,0,0,0,6,5,1,0,3,0,0,1,1,10,0,0,2,5,13,5,4,22,0,7,0,3,1,5,0,4,5,1,5,48,19,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12936659723212898,0.0,0.1624763475562478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1580691674809891,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09433399542564537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14968808181415533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12219233678143575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13146075639451335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2218800979882236,0.31349241879603856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.676135238354973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15658829052917372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10331695807054356,0.2143848234517225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12283249490303158,0.16364209139879635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15282417066751994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1659888868505328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16811931599140228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17255123105482695,0.0,0.0,0.17812112914024833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,aubreyelise,2019/03/14,"do you ever get high and paranoid aboit your Ed and you’re like, tomorrow I’ll eat at maintenance for once And then you wake in in the morning and you’re like nah lmaoo",-0.7674999999999983,1.3174239166666697,0.8444444444444449,99.695,101.5,4.622222222222223,17.11111111111111,6.42735559955562,-0.17152222222222235,135,4,31,2,6,43,27,36,0.091,0.775,0.134,0.3818,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,3,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,1,2,1,0,1,5,2,5,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,2,4,2,0,7,0,0,0,0,3,4,0,0,5,15,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4426619936586142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39131517517209147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22601778698360275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4570699828777386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4226970228092227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4607092474409585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,rayckul,2019/03/14,"Cost of treatment? I thinks its finally time for me to go to treatment. I want to get better before I go off to college next year and I know I can’t do it alone. I have a therapist but it’s not enough. My dad suggested we visit an eating disorder treatment center to look at some options, but I’m nervous about the cost. For any of you who have received inpatient or outpatient treatment, how much did it cost? I’m terrified that our insurance won’t be able to cover enough but I know my dad will find a way for me to somehow pay for it because he really really wanta me get better. I have asked him before but he always responds with “Don’t worry about it” but i can’t not worry about it:(",1.5290309690309698,3.5884080419580435,3.7418231768231776,86.42833916083917,80.46853146853147,6.882917082917084,23.500999000999,7.957251820313856,1.3938775224775224,542,19,110,10,14,186,84,143,0.158,0.794,0.048,-0.951,0,1,0,0,0,0,11.0,2,1,0,2,5,3,0,1,4,0,11,1,0,1,0,20,23,8,0,1,8,2,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,9,3,1,0,4,0,4,4,6,1,0,0,1,1,18,2,19,19,4,12,0,0,1,0,14,3,0,4,4,76,27,2,0.17051969346981766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17660697638589376,0.0,0.0,0.14188604501472468,0.0,0.0,0.11595923892892153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15941289492768732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10394722243262752,0.0,0.2901993995478879,0.0,0.0,0.3016216234762938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19543034184983707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17448421670776673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35238485228321825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18679598925941654,0.1558519106066976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17817900379435192,0.0,0.1938205428535509,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18742632811153995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14319359603243328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12535159494771253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18134962850889602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21847856408612432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1979865069226843,0.0,0.1092621342920127,0.0,0.0,0.09943140454530076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10057693322141474,0.13535059563793486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3463420518829898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1098090918868052
EDAnonymous,sodiddlydone,2019/03/14,"fucked up menstrual cycle? TW: NUMBERS

sry ill mention a few numbers in here to make things a bit clearer!!!




sooo im at a bmi of 17 rn and i lost like 3kg in about 1 or 2 weeks (ive been restricting heavily for over a week now keeping calorie intake between 300~600) but before that my weight was pretty stable for months. for a while now my menstrual cycle is kinda all over the place; its not that i dont get my period at all but it didnt get it properly for about 2 months or so. 
usually my cycles used to be fairly long, about 35 days until the next period and the period usually lasted for about 7 days and was somewhat of a  heavy flow. 
however, lately i started getting this weird spotting of brown discharge (probably old blood ok gross) or a bit of fresh blood here and there which lasts about a week. then the next week is all good again and then it starts all over again??
so i basically have my ""period"", or whatever else it might be, every 2 weeks now which isnt normal for me as i usually had my period every 4 or 5 weeks before.

idk if this is my period anymore at this point or if this is something else bc i have no period symptoms like cramps whatsoever which i normally used to experience.
what i experience right now is a lot lighter than my usual period but it still requires me to wear a pad sometimes or a panty liner at the very least.

anyone else experience something similar or did you guys' period just stop completely?? and how low was your weight when you started noticing differences in your menstrual cycle? (i always think my weight isnt low enough for my period to stop idk help)
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EDAnonymous,loafloafloafloaf,2019/03/14,"i threw up in the shower today. i've never forced myself to throw up, i only vaguely keep track of calories and went through a phase a while ago where i was restrictive on calories. i don't think i have an ED atm but i hope its okay if i post this here.

tw?? i talk about puking and my body issues.

i've been feeling a bit down and i impulse/comfort ate a box of mac and cheese. the box probably had near 800 calories and i felt so fucking awful. i felt bloated and disgusting. i already ate some junk food earlier in the day, so i got the thought to force myself to throw up. i struggled to make myself purge into the toilet and eventually moved to the shower.

i've never felt so satisfied to watch my food go down the drain, it was so surreal seeing my vomit and shaking and having mucus drip down my hands and having my eyes brim with tears. i'm so upset by how i felt afterwards. i felt like my body had been cleansed, i wished that i could've puked more, i wanted to binge eat and puke in the shower again.

idk i've been going through a rough patch emotionally and i think i'm taking some of the negative emotions i'm feeling and putting them towards my body. i hate how i look and i'm disgusted by my body fat, i'm so ashamed of letting myself gain 10 pounds. that's probably 10 pounds of fat, maybe more, i wouldn't be surprised if i lost muscle mass. who cares if i'm depressed!! i can't just get fat, that's gonna make me more miserable!!!

i need to make change. i hope this doesn't become a habit. i want to lose my fat, i hate having belly fat and jiggly thighs and arm fat that people can squish and having folds on my back/sides if i turn around. my self image hasn't been this bad since, well, fuck, two years ago when i was trying to buy jeans and cried because i was a size 7 at a store, ever since then i only wore leggings. i hate looking in full body mirrors i can't believe i let myself eat more than 800 calories a day and don't exercise what am i fucking doing!!! this is so ranty but god i need to get this off my chest. i need to run tomorrow. i used to be able to run 7 miles, what have i been doing these past three years.",2.260189282202557,3.5799237455752255,3.6128613569321537,91.5229695181908,75.92477876106193,6.349655850540806,22.73254670599804,6.816661863887847,0.4879172074729592,1671,46,373,15,36,548,225,452,0.208,0.7120000000000001,0.079,-0.9969,3,0,0,0,0,0,49.0,0,0,1,3,18,24,8,5,19,2,33,28,17,6,3,61,86,37,0,13,7,0,9,1,0,2,8,0,3,1,15,22,12,2,10,1,3,11,10,17,1,2,24,14,60,7,44,56,8,51,0,4,5,3,4,22,3,8,18,226,75,0,0.07742550255681477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13726607285822512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08544096737853124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0689251124353486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05953543227513674,0.06464706056953799,0.0471978677211013,0.0855103845612052,0.0,0.08723202771306766,0.0,0.0,0.08452859576269132,0.4300113950525116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07894045999591942,0.0,0.08190591544983948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06181796362113382,0.0,0.08504827893714838,0.09986608779426408,0.0,0.0666864718994843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15845123682704992,0.0,0.17418653837735326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0700357997563148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07829732093755871,0.0,0.3717031219736733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18724645004725746,0.0,0.0,0.21473588848754566,0.08090325893233062,0.0,0.0880053947488889,0.0,0.061924247348949225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2293249629706496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15380198809977158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08081210889223035,0.0,0.0688193441594497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15834564420526834,0.0,0.03782618963606257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13003584407323673,0.08661933268452666,0.08451908219913537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.155046372526663,0.0,0.07778432401318278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08229105605962785,0.0,0.1722300872726926,0.11943064140528753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11777116724244957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07391140306870593,0.05367709469296071,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07415222906372808,0.0,0.16695557414066906,0.0,0.0,0.07783401513689993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061698101224172686,0.0,0.08077168504142697,0.0,0.0,0.128094351616128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08094194615128926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058214342200041874,0.06223168612925677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09922227146727364,0.0,0.061467200517550814,0.0,0.0,0.07339032329747125,0.0,0.0,0.052566833892609736,0.0842167134890672,0.0756334656324708,0.0,0.0,0.0668707749722668,0.0,0.0,0.09133513486721803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06961482522762645,0.07177421656308422,0.0,0.0,0.08903550687526998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09971897030354704
EDAnonymous,itspellsyoudidit,2019/03/15,"Broken Heart The guy I love got a girlfriend three days ago. Told me a while back he doesn't date because he has ""commitment issues"". I'm a healthy BMI and she looks to be as well, but I can't help thinking that it's because I'm lacking somehow. I've been crying the last three days and have slept a grand total of three hours a night since I found out. It hurts so fucking bad and I've got a constant lump in my throat and no appetite. I don't want food. I feel on the brink of nausea every time I look at his social media (because *of course* I keep looking to torture myself on purpose). My chest aches so badly that I feel like I can't breathe. I'm supposed to go home in three weeks to visit family and he said he wanted to hang out. I don't know what to do. At least I'll see the scale going down until then.",1.1024071428571425,2.7959334514285743,2.633339285714289,95.66372321428574,80.2,4.832142857142856,20.651785714285715,5.148860815047168,-0.2745928571428577,634,17,145,2,16,207,112,175,0.199,0.718,0.083,-0.9757,0,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,0,0,0,5,9,2,0,10,0,10,9,5,0,2,20,34,12,0,3,1,0,2,1,1,0,1,1,1,1,5,7,1,1,5,0,0,4,6,5,1,4,7,7,16,4,20,26,3,28,0,1,4,2,14,10,1,1,15,82,21,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12943542385106865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11227820174688072,0.2438364997645508,0.2670321610930252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15779270284619518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1603930206906052,0.1883380085529132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1230257755771212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13765200631231267,0.0,0.14766135157699742,0.1043147057538754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17656455904808416,0.16010030604065456,0.0,0.13499053414375586,0.0,0.0,0.16596986179196985,0.0,0.2335665626727188,0.0,0.0,0.14457996940449147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.173031066630496,0.09787224083342448,0.0,0.1464671415269389,0.0,0.1437975137711995,0.0,0.15631441596372844,0.0,0.0,0.1524040041207863,0.0,0.1297867826324599,0.0,0.0,0.08024722589997321,0.11902349398894373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07133662071430467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3678529787364494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13178620986670106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13702723614041426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13889578002030015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11635679110606105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12078692388530628,0.0,0.0,0.14884613117938789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0935619158865067,0.0,0.0,0.0851437944977496,0.0,0.0,0.13952567718055153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17224943713867594,0.0,0.11712617775306312,0.0,0.13128698478847708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,shake_n_blake1,2019/03/15,"Could someone do me a solid and tell me what the lowest-calorie item on this menu is that I could order for brunch tomorrow? Cuz I truly have no idea. 

https://www.theospreybk.com/menu ",5.981458333333332,8.987190062500002,4.795000000000002,79.68333333333338,70.25,6.7666666666666675,23.166666666666664,7.793537801064563,1.2865916666666668,150,4,24,2,3,44,29,32,0.069,0.789,0.142,0.3182,1,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,5,1,0,1,0,5,5,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,2,3,1,3,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,20,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6932216437418922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4900705143127649,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3678298749730188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.379441466798694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,insomniaworkstoo,2019/03/15,"ED, mental illness, and upvotes I see it all over reddit and I’ve finally started calling bullshit when I see it because I can’t take it anymore. The mental illness pity porn, as I call it. I got into an exchange with someone today in the congratslikeim5 sub because a girl had gone from weighing 120 and “couldn’t lift a laundry basket” and is 145 now can apparently can lift a laundry basket. The whole post reeked of complete bullshit and I’m not sure if I’m in the wrong. Everything about her post seemed so insanely disingenuous to me though. The text of the post was like the caption on an insta girl’s selfie. I called her out on it and someone jumped to her defense and it was an annoying few hours of trying to explain to someone without an eating disorder what it’s actually like when you do have one and people go around claiming they have one just for attention. What do you guys think about this and about the general culture of mental illness/eating disorders these days?",5.032222222222224,6.615810925925922,5.720502645502648,78.0944047619048,69.37037037037037,8.151322751322754,33.076719576719576,8.634040054169528,2.8646338624338625,791,37,138,13,14,257,115,189,0.134,0.821,0.045,-0.9532,1,0,0,0,0,1,12.0,0,2,1,0,10,8,2,0,15,0,12,5,0,0,2,26,24,15,0,2,4,0,0,2,0,0,2,0,0,3,11,13,2,1,4,0,1,3,4,5,0,2,5,3,13,3,24,18,3,22,0,1,2,1,14,8,0,2,10,97,24,0,0.0,0.0,0.1211386749204094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12310939890611472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11050721765108958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1513441141156028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3802697215117268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1301540684881212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08005734854763713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2845408589704572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12702195684885853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11156529040802653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13598474713038786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07054925968461595,0.0,0.09928277282230057,0.0,0.0,0.1229140001272786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1222487990471693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12129300405406335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3752991948337868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16823531831522515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08606016263922768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3566634667797653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19784038820492128,0.11300860828362815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3155396881125396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08786398784695312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11699656193864028,0.0,0.09333470424076937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07954123512786729,0.12196283443138575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11766626333362568,0.0,0.0,0.08428008818481249,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13859323437660212,0.0,0.11966252182978933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13572305598759302,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,raindropslikebullets,2019/03/15,"Song / Lyric activity I’ve never really been into lyrics. I enjoy songs for beats and sounds. Butttt, there have been a few times in the depths of my ED where a song hits home and has been known to make me cry. (It just GETS me). Even if the song doesn’t relate at all to EDs whatsoever. 

You feel this way?! Share your songs / lyrics. I’ll post mine in comments with a link. (Don’t judge my music taste hahah) ",0.4818072289156632,2.807877481927715,1.5795301204819303,98.52134337349399,87.433734939759,4.765783132530121,11.914457831325302,6.2581,-1.195071325301205,313,3,73,3,10,98,66,83,0.038,0.8909999999999999,0.07,0.3802,0,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,2,0,1,4,2,0,0,5,0,7,1,0,1,2,12,11,3,0,1,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,6,1,0,2,4,1,0,3,5,0,0,3,0,0,0,3,8,8,2,9,7,2,10,0,0,0,0,4,6,0,1,2,41,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.43032766803360056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2587524044571427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19808457004308055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20467733849380426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3929651251996576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2615014466303905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30214785090287083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37519578539701137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2509701483498443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22843718745359856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3109591937184439,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Vickythescout11,2019/03/15,Drank too much Pepsi max... And now I’ve spent the last two hours on the toilet. Least I’ll be skinny tho right??? 🤪🤪 fml... ,-2.180555555555557,-0.3668291481481454,0.15361111111111114,105.98375,99.74074074074072,2.7,6.75,3.1291,-2.6530666666666667,91,0,24,0,4,30,24,27,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,2,0,1,2,1,0,0,1,3,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,1,0,2,5,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,3,11,0,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.501365099430676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4149878835408981,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3742501754784024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4347722169495182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4973208412185242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,welpthatreallysucks,2019/03/15,"I think my dysphoria is the opposite. Anyone else? Throughout the year, since I was 14 (25 now),  I always have switched back and forth between bed and Ana (about 8/4 bed). I have spent most Of the year binging on up to 3000 cal a day... Ew.

 Due to my lack of job for the past months(!) and other stresses I've finally turned to Ana with a vengeance, not dipping below 500 with exercise.

So now... I'm sitting on the couch and I'm over 200 lb. But! because I have eaten less than 60 calories today, I feel like a thin person....

I always feel hottest when I starve.

Anyone else? ",0.534186335403728,2.889570921739132,1.9787888198757777,95.50619565217391,87.6086956521739,4.6770186335403725,21.25776397515528,6.18269132825596,0.1903416149068317,436,15,94,4,14,140,79,115,0.084,0.893,0.023,-0.768,1,0,0,0,0,0,31.0,0,0,0,0,6,2,0,1,8,0,5,2,0,0,0,13,13,7,0,1,2,0,3,1,0,0,1,0,3,1,1,6,1,0,3,1,1,0,1,1,0,0,3,3,10,1,16,10,3,19,0,0,0,0,1,6,0,1,13,54,11,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3294929286760144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2768833367317378,0.40573550517763385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1522447906342322,0.0,0.12069500824943408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12768943674947614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33079634946707936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20022293914439426,0.14144660575677154,0.0,0.21689221642491746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19647801145873406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09672962976096712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15803653367655146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1890072122710834,0.0,0.17288029920741382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16378228055101776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2268009010067517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1268662489589132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1876747002250008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21536008764986672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25500266271628186
EDAnonymous,fweakybby,2019/03/15,"body dismorphia i may have spelled that wrong. 

but anywho. i’m so tired of looking in the mirror and seeing myself at 300 lbs then other times seeing myself as i really am (135). 
it really sucks. ",1.3339473684210539,3.980269763157896,3.5213684210526317,83.35257894736844,88.21052631578951,6.197894736842105,15.494736842105262,7.554174236665415,0.6238778947368422,153,3,27,3,5,52,33,38,0.253,0.747,0.0,-0.8968,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,1,0,3,2,1,0,0,3,8,5,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,3,4,0,4,7,0,4,0,0,3,0,0,2,1,1,2,19,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3707314135941179,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28027380696090803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4276295909343693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5319260034985187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19461776961778013,0.3836072918145314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3649134709506711,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,sidthewanker,2019/03/15,"I gained 6 kg in 6 months i can't believe i let myself get to this point. i had my doctor's appointment in september-october and i weighed 43 kg (im very short). he asked me if i had been dieting to which i answered no, of course. that really discouraged me from continuing my weight loss since I didn't think i could handle the interrogation and the monitoring my weight goes through. im finally seeing the consequences of my actions i gained weight, i really did. i weighed 49 kg with a height of about 153 cm. i want to die, i really do. i want to slice myself open ",1.5124712643678144,3.745456224137932,3.845517241379312,84.70954022988506,81.58620689655173,8.349425287356324,23.459770114942533,9.075114841892004,2.0207494252873563,446,16,95,13,12,154,72,116,0.11,0.8140000000000001,0.076,-0.6801,0,0,0,0,0,1,13.0,0,0,0,3,1,2,0,0,4,0,9,7,0,0,0,11,15,3,1,4,1,0,3,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,4,6,1,2,0,0,1,3,2,0,0,5,4,23,0,13,8,0,10,0,2,1,0,2,6,0,1,3,56,26,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15924589272687725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19191603800774334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1360034721982918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17678712243182976,0.0,0.0,0.1743512884771147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18660030031390826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0889961710352488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3679951416550077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17418527041247775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1359646055109688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16102735673110016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3273745263395725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13573976726176826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14090788153062386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1091476704219459,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14054921051070174,0.20094313607241213,0.0,0.0,0.6222885470836407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,pixelatedmilkshakeee,2019/03/15,"I just binged on 3000 calories because I had to study I have two important tests next week that I have to study for. I’m super lazy and have no motivation especially when I’m on my period (like I am rn). I sat down to revise this afternoon but I just couldn’t bring myself to study, instead I binged to deal with the stress of having to work but not being able to. I kept going back to the kitchen to get junk food, I ate two slices of leftover pizza, a muffin, a shit ton of ice cream, lots of chocolate cookies, I also washed down everything with soda, chocolate milk n orange juice. I still haven’t gotten anything done and now I’m uncomfortably full and angry at myself for having overeaten which makes studying even harder. I really need to do well on those tests but I can’t bring myself to do any study. Fuck me, I’m such a waste of organic matter, I just wanna die.",2.8217234848484867,4.629016664772732,4.138272727272728,86.29157575757576,75.5340909090909,6.738787878787877,21.96060606060606,7.554174236665415,0.8388019696969695,687,18,138,9,15,226,110,176,0.188,0.759,0.052000000000000005,-0.9825,0,0,0,0,0,1,18.0,0,0,0,3,12,6,2,1,5,0,14,9,1,2,0,20,29,8,1,3,7,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,4,5,6,1,1,0,0,3,5,3,1,2,6,1,20,3,27,21,3,18,0,0,1,1,1,7,2,1,9,95,24,4,0.20678318227307302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16536443615507046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14061965484315295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17016493994174936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15900350320389647,0.0,0.12605310862155786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21318438110447427,0.0,0.0,0.21460829634528947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2116109890527895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13657834167272564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1858433907704743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2500430448074625,0.0,0.0,0.1911677199516484,0.10803567807657236,0.0,0.11751964780609288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10102381783663728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17579966693199134,0.0,0.0,0.13802937986500166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15332710951529493,0.0,0.0,0.21991626025146885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13247060155012785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21225996504913344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1651373164760019,0.0,0.2368694366463603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4039942446184831,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16586899585018253,0.0,0.18592291452534296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15054061947061176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,EvolvinThouSelf,2019/03/15,"Patterns I’ve always been overweight but after almost becoming 270 pounds I motivated myself to go on strict diet mode and dropped down to 255. 


But yesterday I rebelled and binge ate.... chips, candies, pasta and whatever I saw.  Today I’m feeling really upset for not being to resist because this is a habit I keep going through and wish I could break it. ",5.365909090909092,7.169823772727277,6.364060606060607,72.94609090909094,68.84848484848484,8.31030303030303,31.381818181818186,8.841846274778883,2.9761309090909087,283,12,44,5,5,94,54,66,0.117,0.7490000000000001,0.134,0.2983,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,1,0,2,1,1,1,0,4,4,0,1,0,13,12,6,0,2,3,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,4,4,1,2,0,0,2,1,2,0,0,3,2,6,0,8,7,0,9,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,1,3,28,8,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33579036784093896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2790262515304124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2044175932126663,0.3703520487404601,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2677383524063463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16955585785816926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3811581296554114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2980618697157663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2148247023531165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31785913173491315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3856196244597596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,luckyadamson,2019/03/15,"When you restrict for a few days and eating “normally” feels like a binge -.- Title says it all. The last 4 days my boyfriend has been gone for work and I’ve been heavily restricting. He just got back and we went for dinner last night I had 2 pints of beer,  we split a flatbread, fried chicken, grilled shrimp and pork bao, then on the way home, he suggested we get skor mcflurries (my favourite)! I was so happy and excited to see him I forgot about my ED and enjoyed eating like a non disordered person. It wasn’t till we went to bed I felt so bloated and wanted to purge the McFlurry knowing it would come up easily, but I didn’t have a good opportunity to do it without him noticing. Afterwards I felt so self conscious about my body when having sex that night but justified it because it was burning calories. Then I couldn’t fall asleep because I was trying to count up all the calories I had consumed. Thankfully I only got a snack size McFlurry and the night of eating was technically my OMAD but ugh it really sucks that I couldn’t just enjoy everything. ",4.236189320388352,5.905789257281551,4.782706310679612,83.70473907766991,71.47572815533981,7.868446601941748,28.894417475728154,8.472884824447931,2.114787378640776,841,33,161,14,16,268,123,206,0.052000000000000005,0.7979999999999999,0.149,0.961,0,0,1,0,0,0,19.0,4,1,0,2,10,11,1,0,11,0,17,9,2,0,2,34,33,19,0,5,6,0,3,2,0,1,0,1,2,2,9,13,6,3,5,1,0,5,5,2,0,0,18,5,23,9,17,12,3,23,0,0,1,1,13,3,1,0,16,101,32,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10534265953207968,0.0,0.167024869728224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15217339407090852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.118011258661405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17670417234385954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15701106111598015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.420548085122739,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12312456421237868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0692700775538316,0.09787107703410344,0.2630782640100941,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07157556546627605,0.0,0.0,0.11490704506564126,0.2191389112659521,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14583643934572674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13741971266419845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07529027063892761,0.2233425760035236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1338601657518063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3856887603856524,0.13422851158463306,0.0,0.15597261859414174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10419281005790336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1196209763456811,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08776413849957825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1089459503730148,0.0,0.0,0.10916931015126126,0.0,0.14291832261886225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12612893776225398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09301234363828016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08080470442516688,0.10874227841304787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2539962025855424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13206074935101028,0.0,0.09973584797251436,0.0,0.0,0.09731912880930016,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,idkidkidkidkidkidkk,2019/03/15,"help getting out of binge cycle? ive been stuck in this stupid binge cycle for about 2 weeks now. Im too afraid to weigh myself and i feel as fat as an elephant. Going to try to really really low restrict today to undo the damage. I know its not a good idea, but ill feel so shit if i dont.

does anyone have tips?",0.1892016806722694,2.0787986764705906,2.601512605042018,93.71323529411768,84.29411764705883,5.0621848739495805,14.126050420168069,6.18269132825596,-0.7543008403361342,242,3,55,2,7,83,56,68,0.28300000000000003,0.6920000000000001,0.025,-0.9514,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,0,4,6,2,1,3,0,4,4,2,0,0,11,10,6,0,2,3,0,2,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,2,2,1,4,0,0,1,2,5,0,0,2,2,5,1,11,8,0,7,0,2,0,0,1,3,1,1,3,31,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1951267322047892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24420915352204406,0.0,0.3270587420214785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28220439907177514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14579844684695067,0.0,0.15859744141176044,0.2340640774991379,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1870494656538632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3150271810711309,0.3014349913957157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1533652504221472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3575486969258567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2864532697246301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2645182726030056,0.0,0.0,0.18946487047239047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22384681066082115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,unfortunatelyim,2019/03/15,"sick of people commenting on my weight I work in hospitality so I see a lot of the same customers daily/weekly, and tbh I used to love getting comments about my weightloss, how good I'm looking, etc etc but now I'm so ready to flip on the next person who says anything about my body to me. 
I know I'm being irrational and it's only bc I've played this game before, I NEVER comment on other peoples bodies, EVER, bc i DONT KNOW what kind of place they are in mentally, I just feel like it's so fucking out of place to comment on a STRANGERS BODY, in any form. I dont get it. 
In this job I used to be overweight, now my bmi is in the healthy range and people love mentioning it. I'm 100x more insecure, I body check every morning, I break down trying to get changed. I used to love dressing myself I found it to be a creative outlet and now it's just fear inducing. I hate myself so much deeper than I did when I was overweight.
at my most recent shift I broke down bc of what this food shit is doing to me, not even 30 minutes later these 2 women come to be served and comment on my weight, asking what I did and I gave them such a deer in headlights look they just started saying how it must be bc I'm happy I'm making healthy changes. it was surreal lmaoooo. 
I almost want to get to a sickly weight just so I can make everyone who had anything to say think before they speak. 
I know this is misplaced anger honestly, this disorder has just developed to a place I never thought it would, and feeling complete mental instability on the day to day is making me want to punch someone in the face. quite possibly myself",2.15826787512588,4.077722797583083,3.6858096676737166,88.28873464249749,77.82175226586102,6.105176233635451,24.628499496475328,7.03164865440522,0.9829153272910373,1270,45,260,14,30,420,174,331,0.12,0.738,0.142,0.7001,1,0,0,0,0,0,27.0,0,0,4,2,21,16,4,2,11,0,22,18,6,9,4,44,60,16,0,4,7,0,5,1,0,2,4,5,0,2,21,9,6,0,9,2,1,1,5,7,0,0,8,13,39,9,41,45,8,35,0,1,3,4,24,20,2,3,14,172,60,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08346190169348994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0566801224252167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13717811552212944,0.0,0.07791998709303326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1418475806328892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3703274331075151,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1763442072340674,0.0717977126762068,0.08738975478823692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1075063137071731,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0955250810885409,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1953686223913705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18591215181813248,0.055051174284830806,0.07539386818522781,0.07022505826032685,0.07964346302920554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09379070517658272,0.08428743463432102,0.05954448370360089,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1007858425414917,0.0913877865549662,0.0,0.07705473166389706,0.17418547831031275,0.0,0.0,0.0699091179915785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0887264731232796,0.0,0.08228980078735841,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08271094020833665,0.0,0.0,0.08679507206439266,0.13741915678123692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.040720071239189255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13998419838888862,0.0,0.0,0.07086026953438206,0.22567695807766525,0.0,0.16690815002535853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16799221102458636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061271045010803965,0.0,0.1285676477846686,0.0,0.0886425199112627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06339060801755937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17335093548991048,0.07277706031724049,0.26124563832511744,0.0,0.0,0.0939633816880748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08865183395951824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08229700127876384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19884721502448066,0.0,0.0,0.06641829645922906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08555646661468755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07062126778011114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05899479318514466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05340662119995294,0.0,0.06616973076140742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05658844418431647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2159601123102132,0.0,0.0,0.09832270271516608,0.0,0.06685747452461396,0.3044895835402344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060679005015903065,0.0,0.0,0.059208679980243685,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,bribear686,2019/03/15,"People who ""forget to eat."" How???? My friend's brother is one of those people. We were talking about food today and I said it's easy to get fat so I count my calories. He seemed super surprised at this and then told me he doesn't feel the need to eat, he doesn't get tempted by food, nor does he get cravings. Food just isn't that important to him. He can easily go a day without eating (unconsciously, not on purpose...... just because he forgets or isn't thinking about feeding himself) and I'm sure if he actually tried to fast he could last more than a week. Then I asked him what he eats on the daily and he said he just eats a cup or two of those kraft easy mac n cheese cups. Like are you serious bro? That's 440 calories in 1 day. First off, that's like all carbs... how does he get full from that? Second, I can eat a family size version of that in one sitting and be okay. He literally just buys a value pack from costco and it lasts him a month. I just don't understand why some people are wired that way like whyyyyyyyy",1.855881330685204,3.652417353773583,3.121956305858987,92.55313306852035,78.29245283018868,5.972591857000992,22.006951340615693,6.8360192770164,0.3977698113207549,797,23,177,8,19,258,126,212,0.023,0.838,0.139,0.9728,0,0,0,0,0,0,34.0,1,1,0,2,10,9,0,0,8,1,13,11,1,2,2,30,28,15,0,3,10,2,1,3,1,0,1,2,0,0,13,7,11,0,4,0,1,1,8,1,0,5,4,3,14,8,21,22,5,21,0,0,0,0,28,7,0,5,14,99,27,0,0.0,0.0,0.1020476835439756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09776117920960448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0637464305832122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08349263890598049,0.0,0.0,0.1348812338475168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1830242138046309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6420226965912581,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09858165431209087,0.0,0.052875002357003834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08894932232113208,0.3793484771523027,0.0,0.08079246067460634,0.0,0.2185392785098096,0.0,0.059430966462920225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17048110309142278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15326653649554434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08346877861596233,0.0,0.0,0.07753919002969945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14172207625377978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2174922314905894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1989448049206484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09519888428241208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09855835170965692,0.0,0.0,0.08405142120734664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06700584100295462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09912251072880857,0.09992351324154436,0.0,0.0709978689612782,0.0,0.10215214583841296,0.10886366931068098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08300478980881164,0.08388175861346794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09436042372068834,0.0,0.0,0.10080416652884372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,themarketcrashof1929,2019/03/15,"Falling of the wagon This past summer I lost a large amount of weight by barley eating & walking somewhere far every single day for reasons I’d rather not go into. 
I started homeschooling at my grandmothers, and she welcomed me to eating any food of hers I wanted. 
I got to a point where I was eating three meals a day, but my bulimia was horrible. 
I was very depressed and recently traumatized. Puking has always been a comfort and a coping mechanism for me, usually not even related to my body or food. My comfort with puking began as a very young child, I would make myself puke so my mom would come get me and I wouldn’t be alone. It changed and progressed over time and there were points where it was a food thing and times where it was a comfort thing. 
I stopped wearing strictly pajamas for a couple of weeks and started getting comments on how much weight I had lost, I didn’t see it but I was happy about those comments. 
Fast forward: I’m in normal school again, a few months had passed. My bulimia wasn’t doing good, but it wasn’t as severe as it could have been, I just wasn’t eating enough to make myself puke it up for a while; which I miss more than I can put into words, despite how sick it is to think like that. 
I started dating my current boyfriend, he wants me to get better. Bless his heart. He is supportive and really an amazing person, I could not be luckier. 
Since he wants me to be healthy, he’s actively working with me on recovering from my eating disorder. 
Well, because of this I’m just not doing anything anymore. We never spend time apart so I can’t purge (which is good, I know that.) and he asked me what I ate everyday until it became a habit that I just eat everyday. 
I hate myself for this more than anything, but I don’t think I want to stay like this. 
I hate digesting food, and I hate the fact that I do digest enough food to be regular, ya know, bathroom wise. Because I’m not used to that and it disgusts me. I also feel disgusted by the feeling of food in my mouth and in my stomach. Feeling even mildly full is gross. 
I don’t deserve to feel full until I’ve worked for it, somehow, anyways. 
Anyways, I’m not sure what I’m going to do. 
He said he can’t be with me if I’m actively self destructing, but I can’t be happy with myself unless I’m restricting and/or purging. 
“Oh just exercise if you’re unhappy with your body,” do you think I don’t know that exercise is a thing?
It has less to do with my body and more to do with food. I think my body is kind of cute, most days. Although, I would be much prettier and happier with my looks if I was sickly thin. 
I just don’t know what to do. 
I don’t know how to feel. 
Nothing makes sense. ",3.855107677450509,4.749381423853212,4.921219217769195,85.32473563495898,71.45871559633028,7.93867696764848,27.73660067600193,8.20500826718156,1.7274036697247714,2096,73,433,30,38,689,243,545,0.157,0.696,0.147,-0.8426,1,1,0,0,0,0,64.0,1,3,0,6,24,30,6,0,17,0,55,31,8,8,3,90,107,38,0,15,22,1,8,2,0,4,6,1,0,3,31,27,19,2,15,2,1,8,20,11,1,1,22,11,69,19,59,72,14,57,1,4,2,0,23,21,0,6,31,301,100,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06269863173108431,0.0,0.04841184690354095,0.05037208079889212,0.06559239663825288,0.0,0.041167601451569766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06003697032356139,0.0,0.0,0.0996344705349466,0.0,0.056594425638190365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07380624199727799,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05354053242820375,0.0,0.2689742280085549,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06404068773213625,0.05214772823555874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0966685954916666,0.06698363385174927,0.0,0.11712511071399855,0.0,0.05214089238143205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0693812627534546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3716700847312888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1251029179767033,0.0,0.07996894521140074,0.0,0.05100548634468391,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15304798966247551,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5124156148794791,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09488509431844158,0.0,0.06880975535043632,0.10155202861833147,0.04841739898445143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12888666881628125,0.0,0.17930485560326964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07173727346831794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06304052958639199,0.16634923720818318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059151165951210886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05083628476980311,0.0,0.13216774687870708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12122782917994908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07090083231421289,0.048320484907035166,0.0,0.08900411126860143,0.0,0.04669028097591301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059313933458352425,0.058087399981341034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05778992955235116,0.0,0.05285904274307069,0.0,0.0,0.11445508088378448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06085694581331174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03878189670390094,0.062242671109433115,0.05977351502325241,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057585061162395285,0.0,0.0,0.061267219940945486,0.0482405796023701,0.0,0.06315385440633181,0.06839018610145202,0.0,0.05007727663530432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12854634197914053,0.06452496024785064,0.0,0.05061209207954576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06869728020437736,0.05705591270432218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12065534996584118,0.15516003864215105,0.0,0.0,0.10589977491831784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05228499547175605,0.06667354492750475,0.099899616957741,0.14282643247144178,0.0,0.048559561051040964,0.1474368236457445,0.054430516519407314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08814409666345914,0.0,0.0,0.12901238929659334,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,MiaMiaPP,2019/03/15,"I think I might not wake up one day... and may be a part of me is okay with that. But I’m scared shitless anyway Bulimia is a bitch. Depression is a bitch. As a depressed bulimic, the cycle of hating myself/ stop functioning/ binge - purge/ hating myself a lot more is getting more out of hand than anything. 

My room right now looks like a shithole. I haven’t cleaned shit in a while. I look like shit too probably. I’m so out of everything i hold dear that i just want to stay in my room and not doing anything. 

Well... except to eat, right? One has got to eat to survive, right? But eating makes one fat, right? So one has to throw up everything one ate to stay thin, right? Because if you are a depressed bulimic, you might as well try to be a pretty and thin one. 

I’m going to die one day, y’all. I mean we all are. I think I might just be reaching the finish line a little sooner than average. I’m scared. I just want someone to hold me. I’m about to do something so stupid next week that is going to change my life forever. And im doing it for nothing more than the excitement. Change. But I think it might ruin me. Anyway. No pain no gain, right? 

Fuck this, y’all. ",0.2752968951209027,2.5480552448132805,2.0460552296465866,95.195020746888,87.83817427385893,5.1498640721133215,19.0987265703248,6.647476241863616,0.0968133066246959,898,26,199,11,29,294,122,241,0.234,0.6579999999999999,0.108,-0.9902,0,0,1,0,0,0,44.0,1,4,0,2,13,22,8,2,13,1,21,12,5,1,1,35,43,14,1,3,10,0,3,2,0,5,3,0,3,0,6,8,5,3,4,0,0,3,5,15,2,7,2,5,24,7,30,33,6,30,0,4,2,1,5,17,5,7,10,132,30,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1376770301249317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05099351734550114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17698556828334114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1078973124433622,0.0,0.2161481816261982,0.0,0.08681762791766934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2567908133467605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15036214932632266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07733497848530736,0.04370474702429107,0.0,0.09508278319146968,0.0,0.06690419151888888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16517817494217032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09035857602137852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059085921545758174,0.0817363389684827,0.08384133701612362,0.0,0.0,0.14049331867000606,0.0,0.0,0.0711179871965226,0.0,0.0,0.05583839742870865,0.0,0.0,0.09112161320759957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3549664510152378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08896491133240586,0.0,0.0,0.08026640453019733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3967935899546309,0.0,0.08901168625740123,0.0,0.0,0.0905870255931134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08510421514033317,0.09019106558138017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4286303962250312,0.0,0.0,0.1675006039897373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1717352682191184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07087811619671025,0.0643994401319064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17832392440400324,0.0,0.06993686510811922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16080258067032374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05679425544689255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09868030080568417,0.0,0.06710063408559679,0.0,0.15042649039680672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,emeyea11,2019/03/15,"Shoutout to supportive and kind teachers Backstory: My school has four floors, and the staircases are really steep. There is also an elevator. However, it can only be used by students who can't take the stairs due to injuries, and this is kind of a big deal at my school.

Earlier today me and my parents were attending a meeting with my teacher, since i've been ip recently and we needed to discuss my education. After the meeting we had to get to a different floor. My teacher stopped the elevator and insisted that we used it instead. Somehow he knew about the difficulties of climbing stairs with an ed 😌😬

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EDAnonymous,imrepulsive,2019/03/15,I want to study abroad but can I? I want to study abroad but I have to pass a health clearance at the school's health clinic in order to go. Do you think I can be denied for having a bmi of 12.4? I haven't been diagnosed with anything but if the school finds out I'm that low can I possibly get kicked out of school too? I'm scared I might ruin everything by trying to go but I also don't want to look back at this moment in my future (if I have one) and regret letting this stupid disorder ruin the opportunity for me. ,2.006666666666668,3.3596810180180188,3.7839639639639664,89.90045045045046,76.65765765765767,6.7351351351351365,19.54054054054054,7.3871296695380915,0.2832594594594595,407,8,92,5,9,137,66,111,0.267,0.67,0.063,-0.984,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,1,0,1,3,7,1,1,5,0,13,4,0,0,0,17,23,8,0,6,6,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,0,0,3,4,0,0,2,0,0,3,2,6,0,1,1,1,13,1,18,19,0,14,0,4,1,0,1,7,0,3,3,63,16,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1440756143500392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14825810696052333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1385335803789598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18286080012907416,0.0,0.0,0.20648144400486249,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1619181325846978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1646649504288041,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09412729273910422,0.0,0.20478061485947752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3830079028713295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18422801507338452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15129083949381844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19112358108778096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12208254232462283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20310576566326669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18037375181414306,0.547001173293291,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11544063756999867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12231828056064205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3187929296223915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,skinboneandblood,2019/03/15,"i'm kind of fucked. (rant) so, i've been mentally ill for as long as i can remember. got diagnosed with anorexia last year and received treatment for it (which was my parents controlling my food and monitoring me). i managed to bullshit my way through it and now i'm just pretending i'm eating. i haven't been seeing my therapist as much because i've been so busy, and i usually have to do my weigh ins there. well, my parents rescheduled my day i go in so now i'm going to be going in more frequently. for context, i'm currently lower than the weight i was when i originally got diagnosed. i know that as soon as i go in for my next appointment, i'm going to have to start treatment again. which is terrifying.",2.5147552447552437,4.535433202797208,4.4608391608391615,82.67279720279723,77.11188811188809,8.316083916083917,29.181818181818183,9.057496981413335,2.655668531468532,560,26,112,14,13,191,81,143,0.124,0.851,0.025,-0.9402,4,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,0,0,1,11,3,1,0,1,0,12,8,0,2,0,10,29,13,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,5,5,4,1,2,1,0,6,1,1,1,0,7,2,18,2,22,21,2,26,0,0,1,1,3,4,1,0,15,75,23,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09769689870487394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17975237472876046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.103358557646517,0.0,0.0,0.3253340075538975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16399251895688266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1937947448305541,0.0,0.0,0.1481636873218993,0.0,0.0,0.4554153901120357,0.0,0.25635933200944555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1668927740157936,0.08807821201767889,0.13063849150013565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14183070445653784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16151081763109534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1178142309866769,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1704451150494516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35591370111241605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1815505683265652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12771155640334528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11343736980657493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1860816216065234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17651077710520816,0.0,0.0,0.12721199395447302,0.0,0.1951612768147428,0.1440987243069935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10320629523210847
EDAnonymous,dreamingofskinny,2019/03/16,"B/P Confusion I recently starting purging...and it’s escalated, very quickly. 

I started off with excessive exercise, but quickly realized that due to a busy schedule I couldn’t always devote 1.5-2 hours to the gym to burn calories. So, I started purging. At first, it was once in awhile, when I felt uncomfortably full. 

Now, it’s every meal I have (I usually only eat one meal a day). My meals aren’t huge. For example, tonight I had two slices of pizza at 600 cals and that’s all. I drank water until I felt uncomfortably full, then purged. 

I have a lot of questions. I know purging is bad for you, and many studies say you don’t lose weight, but I also restrict? I’m not asking for advice, I just genuinely don’t know what to expect. I’m not binging before I purge—but I purge any full meal I have. 

Honestly, I’m just lost. Does anyone else have experience with this?",2.5111627906976746,4.6244430813953485,4.31296511627907,83.28770348837213,77.48837209302326,7.323255813953488,27.02906976744186,8.278499904357787,1.98676046511628,678,28,132,13,16,229,110,172,0.146,0.7929999999999999,0.062,-0.9282,1,0,0,0,0,0,34.0,0,2,0,3,8,6,0,1,4,0,11,10,0,0,1,22,24,9,0,2,6,0,3,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,7,4,9,1,6,2,0,0,6,4,0,3,6,4,20,2,16,17,5,25,0,2,0,0,5,8,0,3,17,81,27,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16324317297694171,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13359297236848666,0.13900225727222504,0.0,0.0,0.11360240509217524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11680799633979777,0.1711664990863374,0.0,0.0,0.15617287965810153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13948305882123768,0.0,0.0,0.14215059554311524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1077359687767299,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14619002526424674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17093788172218527,0.1395521277439878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14075014616697448,0.0,0.0,0.16341080467257407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3207959524812287,0.0,0.0,0.14209599273290152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1645144766354779,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18361694891872588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1868906237878548,0.18235910511690065,0.1420232825927037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16936647108406594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17790698992810858,0.1132000705117486,0.12705204616576898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18713864055527385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16494560839166447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13284799506485634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3547249074447785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1631874217130144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18398630944521369,0.13783699261101465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2034266896143012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,pugaachan,2019/03/16,"does anyone else compulsively steal? Soooo I used to have morals and shit, thinking that stealing was bad. But now I can’t help but go into a store and swipe makeup, clothes, food....anything I think I can get away with. It started up when I really fell into my ED behaviors and now I just can’t stop. I think because I kept having to buy new clothes as I lost weight and didn’t want to spend more money? But then now it’s like I tell myself, just fuck capitalism and the system, they don’t deserve my cash. And other times it’s about the thrill of it all. I just didn’t know if anyone else was in the same boat as me. ",3.2987596899224805,4.0590627519379865,4.1782945736434085,90.63550387596901,72.64341085271317,6.973643410852714,22.86046511627907,6.937597516519254,0.4644790697674415,481,11,109,4,9,155,86,129,0.156,0.768,0.077,-0.8767,1,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,1,1,8,8,2,0,4,0,10,3,1,1,1,26,22,14,0,2,7,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,6,9,1,2,4,0,5,2,5,6,0,0,6,1,16,2,13,16,3,17,1,1,0,1,3,5,2,1,10,70,22,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26237712776953603,0.3844785957118479,0.1543956238701841,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1762755658211278,0.0,0.15665521836177804,0.11437166994014004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1641878986854958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3134655811155257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2268713632236111,0.0,0.0,0.17345206007699995,0.09802392856354968,0.0,0.10662901151222592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12575801632751005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10311127914340937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09166186281366072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2048098577258676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1812049760612753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12019444885528105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19258967057281545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13279870282871056,0.0,0.0,0.1568590767841904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16398852157073848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.360658778592208,0.0,0.0,0.10940297889835804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16204380776189473,0.0,0.0,0.11066338802315588,0.0,0.0,0.2284711329924592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Fluff_Me,2019/03/16,"What movies really thrill your ED? My favorites:

- To the Bone
- Ratatouille
- Cloudy with a chance of meatballs
- La Chocolat",4.746833333333331,8.27838135,2.3500000000000014,90.08833333333334,85.5,4.666666666666667,26.66666666666667,6.42735559955562,1.348666666666667,97,4,15,1,3,26,20,20,0.0,0.6779999999999999,0.322,0.7645,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,8,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,debubun,2019/03/16,"thanks ed brain today i bought 6 mini ben & jerry’s ice creams with my thought process being i’ll just eat one every now and then when i have a sweets craving


good idea, right? *wrong*. i ended up eating all 6 and now i kinda really hate myself!!!!",0.036974789915966255,2.3893976274509825,1.8278991596638683,94.93411764705887,92.33333333333334,3.698599439775911,13.168067226890754,5.288315135182226,-1.079181512605042,193,3,40,1,7,63,44,51,0.07200000000000001,0.732,0.196,0.7546,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,0,4,5,1,0,1,0,2,3,1,0,1,8,6,4,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,2,0,1,0,0,2,0,1,2,2,6,3,2,3,1,8,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,1,6,20,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.268982342378022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2771327805079106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5080501963981031,0.0,0.0,0.21987873467676644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20916410886444364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20822308629494765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24509873365308765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2802477535651313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16822285814107188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15903741823627965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21200695825736304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2285582809736083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19708538677466564,0.0,0.0,0.2353150970080361,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2714260076007757,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,InAJamBindFam,2019/03/16,"I'm thankful my ED is helping me deal with no money So I was in a car accident. I'm OK, no one else was hurt, but I totaled my car and did at least $1000 in damage to the other car.

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Which means there goes my savings. :\\

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I do have some food stockpiles because my mom likes cooking in bulk but I feel like I need to be punished for the accident because of all the stress and money and waste that has just occurred.

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So I'm not really planning on spending money on food for the next month, or eating. Here's hoping the hungrier I feel the more my emotions surrounding the accident numb. I'm sorry if this doesn't fit mods but I lurk here and I felt this sub would be the only place to understand the need to starve the moment something bad happens.",3.058461538461536,4.781831191082805,4.0766878980891725,87.34507594316516,74.66878980891721,6.61420872121509,27.36354728074473,7.321109707123232,1.4486564429201372,615,24,122,7,13,199,100,157,0.266,0.645,0.08900000000000001,-0.986,0,0,1,0,0,0,26.0,0,0,0,1,6,12,1,1,11,1,11,5,0,0,2,25,25,11,0,5,7,1,3,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,5,5,4,0,5,1,4,3,4,6,0,1,4,3,14,6,14,18,5,15,0,2,0,0,3,9,0,4,5,79,19,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.386634252190084,0.4335977081623744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0993150516337142,0.1450169158017725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12262823893417778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12171158772158855,0.09936423024857388,0.13379838851479284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12028547629525592,0.08497514029364353,0.11420693973090867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28766026932763233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1051836714869362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07972708483975698,0.0,0.0,0.11814034741043042,0.0,0.0,0.12733429414810293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11622214355040295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1295672077365924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13930827192590295,0.0949416675560147,0.0,0.0,0.17639409907345988,0.0,0.0,0.1265005605378374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08060097722851647,0.09046389311904844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12427339129225852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07619993779320261,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0915705434086308,0.0,0.13315045623853786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1362523920504246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10950961720489816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12382711801950368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08449591926881365,0.0,0.4335977081623744,0.0
EDAnonymous,thin42069,2019/03/16,"Yo getting used to fasting is the best thing that’s ever happened to me Sittin here, no bbq sauce on my tiddies, holding my phone as a microphone pretending am whitney Houston mouthing along to her belters feeling pure euphoric it’s insane ",6.884242424242423,8.373945000000003,6.489090909090908,74.66196969696973,64.9090909090909,7.684848484848485,44.21212121212121,7.793537801064563,4.133630303030304,196,13,29,2,3,61,40,44,0.096,0.684,0.221,0.7506,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,2,0,2,1,1,1,2,6,6,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,1,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,4,1,6,6,1,3,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,2,21,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4993104025172065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4303777011252413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2405728292289073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24857971718740265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4207379680017811,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3160925642440621,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4109282753272562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,vaskebj00rn,2019/03/16,"I hate how recovery is a long long road and not a destination I’ve been so good and I’m just doing so well overall but this week has decided to kick my ass so brutally I want to relapse, I haven’t done that yet. Just had a big big cry instead...",-1.0006349206349192,1.0521724814814846,2.0593121693121685,94.03833333333333,92.70370370370372,6.048677248677249,20.67724867724868,7.447530270364453,0.7439026455026454,190,7,46,4,7,67,41,54,0.295,0.608,0.098,-0.9461,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,9,4,2,0,3,0,7,1,1,1,0,9,10,7,0,1,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,2,1,0,3,0,4,2,2,7,0,7,0,0,0,1,0,3,1,0,4,31,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3689386570088124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34371277049985977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28171276243531684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.331603198067114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5944707487087006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1981054902976501,0.0,0.26941555520764404,0.0,0.3019884758204709,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,thirdegreepoly,2019/03/16,"I keep getting bigger and bigger but the number on the scale never changes What gives? I can feel my jeans getting tighter and tighter. The other day my boyfriend told me my boobs were getting bigger. I just look and feel so bloated. My skin feels tight. Maybe I’ve lost muscle and gained fat, I don’t know, I just know I look like a fucking chipmunk. ",1.7907608695652186,4.373405956521744,1.7969384057971034,97.5414945652174,83.63768115942028,3.45,23.11775362318841,3.1291,-0.20710289855072486,277,10,56,0,8,82,46,69,0.044,0.835,0.121,0.631,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,2,3,3,1,0,4,0,3,4,3,0,1,15,18,6,0,0,3,0,5,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,4,1,2,5,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,3,7,11,1,1,15,0,6,0,1,2,2,2,4,2,0,3,30,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2578330337043473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15718508387803062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3697102158747664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2253235934175775,0.3820151311268695,0.2338071282123429,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21663759186039652,0.0,0.0,0.2678942403816015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1190737100461902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4093420601377799,0.0,0.2660590660592255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24485860544765006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1879788805342122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2328935666175152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,blacksunglass,2019/03/16,"Does anyone else get really annoyed by the double standard when it comes to calling someone anorexic vs calling someone overweight? So my friends are constantly calling me anorexic, saying I need to eat, saying I look like I’m dying and that I need help. We have an overweight friend and they say nothing to her. They don’t tell her to stop eating, or tell her she looks fat, but I get criticised constantly for my weight? 

I’ve fallen out with them because I bought this up and they can’t seem to see how hypocritical they’re being...",8.487352941176471,7.363509500000003,7.983647058823529,74.1584117647059,61.84313725490196,10.12078431372549,38.047058823529404,8.841846274778883,3.3367623529411765,427,18,76,5,5,135,73,102,0.171,0.755,0.07400000000000001,-0.8877,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,1,0,4,0,3,4,1,0,2,0,5,6,1,1,0,16,16,8,1,2,3,0,1,1,2,0,3,3,0,0,3,7,6,1,1,0,1,2,2,1,0,0,1,7,17,3,10,14,1,8,0,0,3,0,20,2,0,2,5,46,20,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09966586407032484,0.14604699648905747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0868898246325994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4366416177903404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12278384154942505,0.0,0.3080658199931232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1479319109069082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12473593968720065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29170385963358914,0.11907218538357968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22024896689671208,0.0,0.14894041447751993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0955401979402762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06963685316079431,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23939199444859866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21138020002671928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1367690282328295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09131347464204492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3400557487425543,0.0,0.0,0.11358430908809793,0.12976121619421802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2415439219418541,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11916812687043167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24916893997435435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1735728497250773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,throwawayaccunt6969,2019/03/16,Biking is ruining my life lol My legs used to be so much thinner and dainty but since I moved to Holland biking has become my main transportation and is basically 100% necessary in my life. Problem is it made my legs muscle-y and I hate it. I mean a perk is that I'm burning calories biking everywhere but aughhh I hate how you can't control where muscle goes. This has been a pointless rant! ,1.3099999999999987,3.9253589743589785,3.185333333333337,86.11800000000002,87.46153846153845,5.684102564102564,23.18461538461539,7.1686216300943375,1.2333907692307693,312,12,58,5,10,104,54,78,0.222,0.755,0.023,-0.9561,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,1,0,1,3,4,2,0,2,1,9,4,2,4,0,11,15,7,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,4,3,0,1,1,3,0,2,1,4,0,0,2,0,10,0,3,12,2,4,0,1,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,38,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2903354751979242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2948475220953817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5190883925228486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3713664477362915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2487478404487689,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2863584837438823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27940481133621903,0.19325048765787825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2515451353549981,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21746092382510004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2270479583041756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,uggggggggggghhhhhhhh,2019/03/16,"A subscriber to my youtube channel went through my reddit history and commented on a video to ask if i have an eating disorder. Posting from an alternative account which i just made purely to post here because people are snoops :)

So i have a youtube channel where i make ASMR videos as a sort of hobby, i have around 250 subscribers which is a nice little community and i feel like it’s a very rewarding hobby. I started to link my videos in r/asmr to perhaps get more people interested in my channel, not really considering that my reddit account is years old and piecing together bits from posts and comments you can probably decipher my life story. 

Last night someone commented on my most recent video ‘do you have an eating disorder’ and i don’t know what to do. i’ve cleansed my old reddit account of pretty much everything except ASMR but now i’m worried in case there’s some way of people starting a small scale eugenia cooney witch-hunt on me which i’m sure wouldn’t happen but people are weird. i’ve already had subscribers find my personal facebook and message me there which to me is an overstep as it is but wtf should i say back lol help i’m trying so hard to recover but she must think she doesn’t look like she has an ED ",4.3384123170998015,6.117924522821577,5.122817208997599,80.92650141952393,71.40663900414938,8.061236077746234,30.526534177768067,8.6894789155246,2.5357170124481327,994,43,182,18,19,322,140,241,0.059,0.8340000000000001,0.107,0.8532,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,2,0,1,10,7,0,0,12,1,20,3,0,2,3,30,35,15,0,4,8,0,2,2,0,3,1,1,0,1,8,7,2,0,5,7,3,1,4,1,0,0,3,4,26,6,24,29,6,25,0,0,1,0,13,10,0,4,12,116,34,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14304516835707096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11539434319211443,0.12118251866000555,0.0,0.0,0.09967415157272448,0.0,0.07901861532476202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14151767685742733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29712453385520765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2652788766762803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11649920867901598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06554264189098437,0.0926046163084794,0.0,0.0,0.11847552905842987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06772407107318662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11462756644243514,0.0,0.11611915398983765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08688536524289286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07123888727463347,0.10566223537596717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09155845583468547,0.12665712551744002,0.12991899172405866,0.0,0.0,0.10885292956423062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1226549587477788,0.08652615227295317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0952897944717916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12164492565922842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2720407051075438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35946451838523164,0.11318414952231005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3724367273422863,0.1318759244067534,0.139758414165055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08304153400259086,0.0,0.12798972722132254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10308354866821556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1098314234875141,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18349945611428775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12217067543290748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08305890582866632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08800733225377726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10695476683077754,0.0,0.1028908363340194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12016431001392233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13164117678213447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08347469213608671
EDAnonymous,chknsoup4thesoil,2019/03/16,hello there. Zoloft? any experience? my psychiatrist put me on zoloft (25 mg) because the wellbutrin made me happy but really anxious. i’m worried it’ll increase my appetite or make me super foggy. halp.,2.336428571428573,4.905443277777781,4.11571428571429,74.71500000000002,102.33333333333334,5.390476190476191,27.365079365079364,6.868970318607317,2.390441269841271,162,8,23,3,7,54,32,36,0.133,0.628,0.239,0.7073,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,1,0,1,2,0,2,0,4,4,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,5,2,1,2,1,3,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,11,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24052480083852645,0.0,0.0,0.3995747945313991,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21560925377106796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34598168249028954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3765150173279659,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33467486133792684,0.2360942297783729,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35556127282780176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2265861418188209,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35919454896657577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,PrioritizeApocalypse,2019/03/16,"my boyfriend is skinnier than me  and it makes me want to end things with him and be alone, why? why do i take it as such a personal affront? ",-0.7240000000000002,1.4216889333333356,0.7083333333333357,103.34250000000002,93.0,4.333333333333334,20.833333333333336,5.985473137389443,-0.1896666666666662,108,4,27,1,4,34,26,30,0.08,0.877,0.044,-0.264,0,1,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,1,0,5,6,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,0,4,5,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,19,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3738082107471913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31967136139498425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2409194409690043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3151447430997207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.271369782162441,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23978173708399514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2128822100877084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6513551877892109,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Alf_Casperi,2019/03/16,"Who needs amusement parks when you have an ED?! So Thursday something from my ex triggered me into the worst relapse of 9months...

 Thursday night I binged

 Today I fasted all day because I needed the boost. 
 Then I decided I should probably eat dinner because I wouldn't want to actually relapse... 
 Felt like a gross failure for breaking my fast and decided if I'm gonna fail I might as well fail the right way! So 15min later I purged it all up.
  Of course after purging, my face felt fat and gross so I decided to do 30min of sprints because what are the 3 horseman without their 4th? 
 At the end of my 3 mile ""cool down"" walk I felt like shit because of guilt, but told myself I couldn't eat anything tonight because it was coming straight back up if I did.
  
 After plenty of convincing myself 10 steps back 1 step forward was better than only 10 back, and a vow to not purge again tonight, here I am eating a burrito feeling like the fucking epitome of recovery! 

  Boy what a ride!",3.924624781849914,5.579698984293195,4.5739057591623045,84.94941012216408,72.24607329842931,6.978150087260035,31.05794066317626,7.554174236665415,2.0429138568935428,770,35,146,9,15,246,126,191,0.095,0.7659999999999999,0.139,0.8525,0,0,1,0,0,0,21.0,0,1,1,3,10,16,2,1,11,1,11,8,3,1,2,27,23,12,0,8,5,1,4,3,0,4,1,0,0,1,5,5,5,0,7,1,0,6,4,8,1,0,7,5,22,8,22,11,3,35,0,2,0,1,6,9,2,3,23,92,27,2,0.0,0.0,0.13366167199422305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11271355170493168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3159613769870452,0.0,0.4174741747932024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12113766526293206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11798638826934428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08833346632965877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4204594563268425,0.0,0.0,0.121313594464308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06925547916714897,0.09785045110328247,0.3945342320063492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12662533595028466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20074793290070175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14530212263337036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20312107878433575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12853582601681654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10417085184759832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14767540125618786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11697050283400078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14059637992198815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10544518019439496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12983029164565502,0.1308794417233998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0807876751628558,0.10871936142081863,0.0,0.0,0.12315129101598415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13203291808601533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,azi6,2019/03/17,"how can i Deal with my mom and her passive aggressive comments? i’m 5’7” and 98lbs currently (my lowest was 81lbs i’m just bloated rn lmao) And she keeps making snarky comments about my weight. Maybe she’s jealous? For example , i ate a diet pepsi with my dinner today. She told me those can make me bloated and that’s why i’ve been looking curvier. is it just me or is that sort of passive aggressive? She knows about my eating disorder? I’m kinda angry and i feel like i’m gonna cry. can someone just help me?",0.7759615384615408,3.2286715961538484,2.6203846153846158,90.5246153846154,87.84615384615385,5.123076923076923,22.423076923076927,6.67199483983844,0.7481769230769233,402,15,80,5,13,133,67,104,0.171,0.747,0.081,-0.8679,2,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,0,6,4,3,0,1,0,7,5,0,3,0,19,20,7,0,0,4,1,2,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,7,5,1,2,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,4,3,17,1,6,15,0,2,0,0,1,0,11,0,0,3,3,45,21,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2674301885618034,0.0,0.2509973304630853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2790270980973573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2491211149247609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12310106426544838,0.17392839981074038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16318660069092422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2163990902021934,0.0,0.0,0.13379965450858602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11894261886736687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2044457026931636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32502386612096346,0.0,0.24458903458082554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28513827376739576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2062834931736544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2307723124245567,0.23263716835650186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29646959007326185,0.0,0.0,0.21968544807103452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,rustghoul,2019/03/17,"I hate the way that I’ve conditioned myself to think as a result of ✨My McShitlording Goddamn Soul-Sucking ED✨ my friend (forcibly recovered from ARFID) is in the hospital for self-harm and an almost lethal overdose, she’s stable and is waiting to be placed inpatient for treatment bUT the first thing that my singular braincell zoned in on was ‘damn, I bet that no one’s making her eat, she’s probably getting to skip so many meals’

like, BRUH, shouldn’t u be more concerned about, idk, her WELL-BEING AND SHIT

apologies for a messy post, I am just. angery at myself. arghhhhhhhhhh",5.238581081081083,6.698587666666668,5.7671959459459465,78.42755067567569,68.72972972972973,8.432882882882884,30.091216216216218,8.841846274778883,2.3797648648648653,465,18,87,8,8,150,86,111,0.157,0.77,0.073,-0.8531,0,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,0,1,3,5,3,0,6,0,7,3,1,2,0,12,12,6,1,1,2,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,4,3,2,1,1,0,1,0,2,3,0,2,1,0,11,2,14,8,1,8,0,0,0,0,6,5,2,2,2,52,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26394603776481457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2697170757711889,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22420843906917431,0.0,0.0,0.2036479989247499,0.0,0.1377142321924897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2602392999148897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1287761390886607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17594752406368466,0.2672376003156657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17861454516643052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2753941208308742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2524451406689152,0.0,0.2841932328371309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27498053193821537,0.0,0.2705700434557177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17511663976111502,0.16889701492667344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2092244648150312,0.0,0.0,0.2369979239885921,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,astralpoppy,2019/03/17,"I simply don't remember how to eat anymore. any meal plans out there? I've never been diagnosed with anything but I've been binging, purging, restricting, all at different times for years. mostly restricting and some purging when I was younger, mostly binging and some restricting now. I've finally started to get it under control but it's been so long that I genuinely forget how to eat. does anyone have any meal plans aimed at people like us?",4.315609756097562,7.054906597560978,4.812378048780489,78.81661585365855,74.48780487804878,8.002439024390245,30.981707317073173,8.841846274778883,3.1025804878048784,359,17,58,8,8,114,56,82,0.152,0.81,0.038,-0.8645,1,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,1,0,0,3,6,1,0,0,0,0,6,5,0,3,2,20,8,8,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,4,4,4,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,4,0,4,1,9,4,5,12,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,4,9,38,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3049660302045069,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22237434122342048,0.15678572522732764,0.0,0.1845208846228031,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2514912401897495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22758712689913635,0.0,0.2342709749006241,0.0,0.0,0.1962238018823631,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4588833058427302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2456312745269317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11715009505681707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10954668007152586,0.0,0.0,0.1984350961403652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17293878118097475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15545175382647514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2540070897783604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15871003017104618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13074939522682485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2697191814187088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1443957512243064
EDAnonymous,this_is_ausername,2019/03/17,"Is starvation mode even real? I'm pretty sure it's not, but my aunt is trying to tell me otherwise, trying to convince me my body won't burn any more fat because it's trying to ""save"" it. If it was real though, then anoxerics wouldn't actually exist...? Ugh!",3.185384615384617,4.538062923076922,5.1376923076923084,81.38230769230772,73.61538461538461,7.507692307692308,24.538461538461537,8.07648339933343,1.4589846153846158,200,6,39,3,4,69,39,52,0.0,0.813,0.187,0.836,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,0,2,4,0,0,0,0,5,2,2,0,1,8,6,4,0,2,3,1,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,4,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,1,0,4,3,3,3,1,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,1,23,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.2406792705177619,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16771962196953566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15034583714256586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2739548470792821,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16289947418890996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2509155111412069,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5614471231717199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2324496879215404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2155690440668424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2423167171055044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5023450229289852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,welcometotheyeet,2019/03/17,when youre fasting all day and you forget to drink a bunch of water then choke on water a bunch of times because you arent used to drinking ,11.154000000000005,5.16439706666667,10.27,74.86500000000002,61.66666666666666,12.0,40.0,3.1291,2.8220000000000005,112,3,24,0,1,36,23,30,0.184,0.816,0.0,-0.6597,1,0,2,0,0,0,0.0,0,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,1,4,0,1,1,4,2,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,5,2,3,6,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,5,17,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25505907288076035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26984006900004154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8197657277400159,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2439784466101889,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3613722121522643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,LunaticalPitties,2019/03/17,"Waiting for bloodwork Saw a dermatologist recently for tiny red dots sporadically all over my body. She said it's probably nothing to worry about and could be capillaritis. She ordered some blood work and did a biopsy. She asked if I restrict my diet in any way. I mumbled some stuff about being vegan and eating mostly vegetables. 

I also can't stay awake through the whole day and my eyes are bloodshot and sore. I'm not even under weight. I can't stop googling to try to find anything that fits my symptoms but nothing fits. I don't get results back for at least another week and I'm freaking out. ",4.061043478260866,6.2706341043478275,4.90195652173913,80.40076086956525,73.17391304347827,7.382608695652173,29.76086956521739,8.238735603445708,2.2884956521739133,482,21,87,8,10,156,86,115,0.068,0.903,0.029,-0.6253,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,1,5,1,0,0,3,0,8,9,3,1,1,20,15,9,0,2,3,0,1,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,3,7,4,3,1,0,0,0,4,1,0,0,3,5,12,0,14,9,6,15,0,0,3,0,5,7,0,4,5,58,15,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15623816898858411,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13285902281853634,0.2048635949188635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16077373866301006,0.0,0.1826455713265652,0.0,0.0,0.15022828838512345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2170132084245107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15598789680973105,0.0,0.0,0.1259981733878853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19991337251929672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12904074493038808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17856561270033772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10207331709639933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3749276094537281,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21064305054170931,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19290535558067115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1858426210227936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20823955886814124,0.0,0.16333895732061968,0.0,0.0,0.2236531257235776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2030653413418609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13264412770224934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15507645652439536,0.15671488263235592,0.2379093222140535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2181248154250337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14223246117103153,0.1984087986397791,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,psychedelic_karma,2019/03/17,"i purged for the first time and i'm terrified title. really, i was fed up after a mini binge (had been trying to intuitively eat for the past few days but shitty ednos mentality said nope) and only a little bit came up but i am so scared. i really don't want this to become a habit because i've never been able to successfully purge before today. i know all the problems that come with excessive purging but seeing a friend of mine who does the same but weighs significantly less than me set me off i think. sigh.",3.030490196078432,5.0503120490196105,4.910392156862745,80.04343137254905,75.56862745098039,7.670588235294117,20.15686274509804,8.515128840125781,1.1814039215686276,407,9,78,8,9,139,78,102,0.16399999999999998,0.746,0.09,-0.8427,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,2,1,5,0,1,8,0,6,3,0,0,2,16,15,7,0,2,4,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,3,5,3,0,2,0,0,2,3,2,1,1,7,2,9,2,12,8,5,14,0,0,1,0,3,4,0,0,7,52,12,1,0.2128590276050381,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1297568875419663,0.2350860725053045,0.18112735468370708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2323869281398956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24345402128818305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18335920445536213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13727646341725555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18627436948884293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21780792555445166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18105778014176074,0.0,0.0,0.16445435670800454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11698175482724164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21334066573325008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21451183484828007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16417000443181454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16188888228877024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20319802735002104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2036773421784198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2727258873013921,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20247767947924367,0.0,0.21310902019024253,0.0,0.1696210860500082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1363914700184793,0.0,0.0,0.12411981076345363,0.0,0.20176546921675895,0.0,0.0,0.14451730731028511,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12554976946868945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,onespicyapplesauce,2019/03/17,"Headaches (TW) I get these giant migraines when I don’t eat, but I can’t stop starving. Pain killers are just going to hurt my stomach because yOu knOw I dOnt  have anything in my stomach to sUppoRt it. Anyways, what do you guys do to get rid of headaches? ",2.1405882352941177,4.3567214901960805,2.50172549019608,95.29376470588235,79.19607843137254,4.08,31.768627450980397,3.1291,0.9990674509803928,200,11,41,0,5,61,38,51,0.336,0.609,0.055,-0.9636,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,2,0,0,3,3,0,0,0,0,7,5,2,0,0,4,12,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,3,0,1,1,1,0,0,1,3,2,0,0,0,0,8,1,5,12,0,5,0,1,0,0,3,2,0,0,2,27,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2547875499030509,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18873901236261728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3628675932568965,0.0,0.0,0.3168144175822818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3235231150278939,0.0,0.17596188227865114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3065684731134121,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33145028336218685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17015683166258572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32945320557369284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2588528019906937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3513485165184362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,mintthin,2019/03/17,Why do people who are pro Ana say that they’re not? It’s all over tumblr. I understand using the tags to get more traction but I don’t understand the people who post “tiPz n tRickz” on how to purge and how to starve but then say they aren’t pro. I’m very confused about this mindset.,0.3612142857142828,2.6007928833333342,1.7161904761904765,98.02500000000003,86.83333333333334,4.761904761904762,16.9047619047619,6.18269132825596,-0.4955238095238097,223,5,51,2,7,71,44,60,0.126,0.8740000000000001,0.0,-0.8042,1,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,1,0,3,1,0,1,2,0,4,0,0,3,1,11,9,6,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,5,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,0,2,3,0,6,9,2,4,0,0,0,0,5,2,0,1,1,29,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14946729750537574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39666981961295694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2739897855394274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.455011613819012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5956479241384889,0.0,0.24708507788431325,0.0,0.23604960097921826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25814668413230546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,turdddburger,2019/03/17,i’ve had 5 monsters today and i feel like i’m d y i n g .WHY why did i do this tomyself is this hell omfg i’m so jittery i think restriction plus this finally killed off my last 2 brain cells i’m ,-4.289754500818328,-4.84372819148936,0.13063829787234127,100.56538461538463,139.42553191489358,3.9993453355155486,14.253682487725039,5.873414542411696,-0.4385927986906708,153,5,40,3,13,57,36,47,0.282,0.6609999999999999,0.057,-0.8971,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,0,1,3,2,0,0,0,4,1,1,0,0,5,9,3,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,2,1,5,1,2,7,0,4,1,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,4,16,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3546976935991392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16065652245067072,0.2269901729586129,0.0,0.3480635074717018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3515270503194504,0.0,0.0,0.2589966897901645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1552294257765416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20359196065343205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30117592738339233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5734134035430268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,artandtrash,2019/03/17,I weighed myself for the first time in a year And it was the biggest mistake i’ve made in recovery. How am I supposed to NOT lose weight when i’m almost overweight? i never thought i would be fully weight-restored because my weight was so high when my restrictive eating disorder began. ughhh does anybody have advice??,3.7445000000000017,6.4258297833333335,4.240000000000002,82.47500000000002,76.16666666666666,6.0,30.0,7.1686216300943375,2.0695,257,12,42,3,6,81,48,60,0.135,0.826,0.039,-0.6797,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,2,4,2,0,0,3,0,6,5,0,2,1,10,10,5,0,2,1,0,2,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,1,5,1,1,0,0,0,2,2,0,1,5,2,7,0,4,3,0,11,0,1,0,0,0,4,0,1,7,29,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1943808583001415,0.0,0.0,0.19918814638534388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12125887273774275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2279778371838881,0.0,0.17407492189457455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2035432879625527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16919997648130455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21016831911634828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22253892274725284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18822149657169776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15341821194897012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15791907145353332,0.11599097838047807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7266874407171025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14130599681875772,0.0,0.0,0.1280969937140882
EDAnonymous,throwaway123556677,2019/03/17,"bdd in legs only?? right, I personally perceive my upper body as quite bony, and my arms are thin, but my legs... i feel like they aren't even attached to me.

They're not obese, I can see that, but they just seem so average compared to my waist and arms.

for example, ill look at people in the streets, online, etc etc and think 'oh my legs looks like hers' and then I look at their arms/waist and it's double/triple the size of mine. 

I don't know if i'm going crazy, or if i just have fat legs. ",0.6862857142857166,2.4368262476190523,2.1030952380952392,98.68607142857144,81.76190476190476,5.342857142857143,17.166666666666668,6.2581,-0.5981619047619047,376,7,93,3,10,121,71,105,0.07,0.866,0.064,-0.168,0,0,0,0,0,0,20.0,0,0,3,1,4,2,0,0,2,0,5,11,9,0,0,18,15,13,0,2,8,0,2,2,0,0,3,0,0,1,2,5,3,0,5,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,6,17,2,9,15,2,10,0,0,4,0,5,8,0,4,3,53,19,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2430043889302621,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4879732345851817,0.1444956627136484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1106167932304713,0.15628948420205874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12433215386599634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12023038797755475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2137601515641024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5511356418390193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1663846054931888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1516677202684579,0.1910217120252868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23268905096345266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18682856694738495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17433153584577285,0.19916018589159,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14017911922562545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,BitterCaptain,2019/03/17,"The shame associated with... Having dealt with a 100% restrictive ED and getting to an underweight BMI and recovering to a ""healthy"" fat bmi and relapsing

Then going to the doctor after relapsing to try to, you know, not die, and being rediagnosed with binge eating disorder because your recovered weight is obviously fat as fuck and there's no way you could be restricting if you're that fat even tho you just started doing it again a week ago

Like yes I had anorexia but apparently when you recover you ""downgrade"" to the ""fat ED"" despite, uh, not bingeing ever. It's like if I had pneumonia and was in the hospital and came back with bronchitis developing into pneumonia and they were like ""she probably has sleep apnea now because she's fatter"" and you're still rapidly developing pneumonia ",8.554283216783219,8.81826277622378,8.957473776223779,62.6792875874126,61.0979020979021,13.024125874125874,39.55332167832168,12.38480682065935,5.434539160839161,639,31,102,21,8,213,95,143,0.066,0.85,0.084,0.5608,1,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,6,1,0,10,5,1,1,8,1,11,9,5,0,2,27,17,16,1,3,6,0,1,3,0,0,5,0,0,0,3,15,6,2,1,0,0,2,3,2,1,0,5,1,11,3,14,9,0,16,0,0,0,1,9,2,1,2,14,73,14,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19357741366904108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16791789495416826,0.0,0.26624033088149485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2497643108202367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17435570592050936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2266401219839176,0.0,0.2502781587651753,0.22351739620482655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22345347236182045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1442354864383468,0.197533865415862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20188537026322645,0.11409260347742865,0.0,0.12410828363982088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12001390331680713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32006288835551483,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2354465860851207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21853400851627616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.154567868949776,0.0,0.17439559507988875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1482631729431275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17333694217278134,0.17516829541553006,0.265923502195162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,RetailSlaveNo1,2019/03/17,"Struggling to lose weight and maintain recovery I have bulimia, and am in recovery and I’m struggling to figure out how to reach a healthy weight again without relapsing into restriction/binge cycles or just heavy restriction. I struggle so hard and I’m obese now and it’s bad for my health, but so is my ED. I’m just trapped between a rock and a hard place and I’m trying not to rip my hair out",3.900041666666666,5.279059587500001,4.655000000000001,85.4366666666667,71.875,8.333333333333334,30.833333333333336,8.841846274778883,2.459333333333333,317,14,64,6,6,102,51,80,0.239,0.725,0.036000000000000004,-0.9214,0,1,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,1,7,5,0,3,3,0,3,5,1,1,0,19,7,12,0,0,6,0,5,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,10,3,1,1,1,0,0,2,5,0,0,0,5,5,0,11,7,0,7,0,1,0,0,0,5,0,1,2,40,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16855714984115822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3616806035061345,0.0,0.0,0.21458363036851053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22584642998179305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21091635449754156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6331305843913326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13705983874674438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4916586041743401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19460024662118466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,drowing_dancer,2019/03/17,"Teeth advice Any other bulimics have advice for staining on your teeth? I’ve been struggling with bulimia for about 2 or 3 years now and before that I was dealing with anorexia for a good 5ish Years. I was just wondering if there’s any hope for saving my teeth, they used to be so pretty. I’m really trying to get my life back. I actually threw away my scale like two weeks ago and I’m really trying to stop my b/p cycles. ",2.8663546798029564,4.391831333333339,4.583579638752052,84.33724137931036,74.74712643678161,7.730049261083742,21.623973727422005,8.418075326091056,1.1743215106732352,334,8,68,6,7,113,63,87,0.06,0.7979999999999999,0.142,0.7994,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,1,1,0,6,5,0,1,1,0,5,4,3,1,0,12,12,5,0,2,3,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,4,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,1,4,0,9,4,12,7,0,10,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,4,8,39,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.19572125269845256,0.0,0.0,0.3919770791618764,0.1777876306829812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2727804055859964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1884362109734416,0.15422111561122595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17066494796073967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20677238188054647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10478626233422483,0.0,0.0,0.16822332719078595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1992050219636773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1416640822085544,0.09798529954458056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20404540057140197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2569725011725436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16768024512256172,0.0,0.20967274038604328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27233919221760305,0.0,0.19592160502804,0.0,0.0,0.17322265286242178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16088011314144487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2175027917999147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2583129114901587
EDAnonymous,craazyyy90,2019/03/17,"I think my sister might have an eating disorder Hi there.   
This weekend i've been having some alone time with my little sister. She is 13 and still lives at home. I live pretty far away, so I only get to see her about once a month. I'm her big brother and i'm in my mid-20s.

She has been periodically depressed in pretty much all of her life, probably because of our mother - our mother is a good person with a beautiful heart, but she has her own problems and she isn't really capable of raising children herself to be honest. I had (and have) a lot of problems myself, being depressed and feeling i wasn't good enough, but i've managed to learn how to control those feelings and turn them into what i would call my personal strengths. Since she was born i've tried to learn her how to do the same, while also using every opportunity to tell her that she's talented/good enough and that i love her - something that our mother hasn't really been good at telling us. 

When she was about 10 years old, she got an diagnosis for a special kind of arthritis, and the medicine she was prescribed caused her to gain a lot of weight. At the same time our mother was stressed out, so my sister mostly had unhealthy food such as pizza and other types of fast-food. 

In the last year, my sister went from overweight to slightly underweight. At first, i thought it was a good sign; that she was starting to attend gym classes again and having a more active lifestyle. However, this weekend i noticed that she nearly doesn't eat at all. I managed to get her to eat something without forcing her, by giving her time and not making a big deal of it, and having some fun at the same time. However, what really got me worried was when she asked me to fix something on her phone, and the first thing that came up was a google search about ""how to throw up"". I acted like i didn't notice it, as i didn't know how to react. 

Now i'm here. I know it's different from person to person, but i really need advice about how to help her through it. As I mentioned, i live pretty far away as i study somewhere else, but i'm definitely willing to do whatever I can and take a break from other things in my life while I try to help her through it. I think this might be the first ""phase"" of an eating disorder, but i'm not sure. She isn't *really* underweight, but I see know that she might be good at hiding it with her clothes. 

So - what I really need is some advice about how to help her. How should I talk to her about it? I mean, what is the ""first step"" towards getting her to realize that she isn't overweight, getting her to eat and most importantly - make sure that she knows i'm there for her? I have no idea which role she needs me to take, but i'm sure I have to do more for her than my mother is capable of. Thank you everyone. 

Ben

tl;dr: i think my sister is developing an eating disorder. I want to help her the best way I can, but i'm not sure how. ",3.8131764800514816,4.81499579222973,4.75680501930502,86.0638063063063,71.65202702702703,7.597554697554696,26.088481338481337,7.8761006319780495,1.350355566280566,2287,71,477,29,42,745,239,592,0.098,0.743,0.159,0.9925,3,1,3,0,0,0,74.0,5,1,1,9,27,24,0,1,24,0,51,15,1,14,6,90,95,43,0,8,12,11,3,1,0,6,4,0,1,5,30,21,11,1,15,3,0,6,13,5,0,4,21,5,90,19,80,64,19,58,0,2,2,1,79,25,0,10,26,348,120,6,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1157875004174525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061360187812973324,0.0,0.04737838667859573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055386289787326716,0.0,0.11132568212102033,0.0,0.0,0.036115340524069985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06217421066392221,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060496000846120376,0.06776075665296183,0.0,0.06086116804390309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06644855987650249,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06107922765408469,0.10205565451516978,0.0,0.0,0.06189865257837806,0.20370048894428727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3637359472434725,0.0494917850307154,0.0,0.0,0.12243231360973685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04991665902734886,0.05661135335835055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05991233384719409,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2015758395017617,0.1432791274669509,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12381274353806546,0.05683342028364414,0.0,0.2981525135445647,0.09476764047559624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07020587932582135,0.1588433074616001,0.0,0.05942779330602565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06688065000175172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061694787086279824,0.13023850959195338,0.048292767412511976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08369331193004287,0.02894422535159752,0.059379281798017734,0.15694386276191416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10073634684136812,0.053471130513613366,0.0,0.07909329822427248,0.0,0.0,0.06453542060646629,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18854947040881456,0.0,0.0,0.047288975010274036,0.0,0.04355205873544277,0.1317887555238575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13490216737481334,0.06216789968406496,0.0630942332684206,0.0,0.045058664874564544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2069225883103788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18082108490392304,0.0638763751798275,0.11337936211566566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2277240571087218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09442155092965468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04900826405085817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13682961076199132,0.0,0.0,0.041934076649609374,0.0,0.047313314863715684,0.0,0.0678652074334079,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22335170147849573,0.0,0.08909007518571824,0.047619069344955314,0.10356587958653993,0.05454504523350385,0.0,0.0,0.07871979265616216,0.1138858478561164,0.0,0.04703409253295902,0.13818547335471407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.080447240435612,0.06444179435072007,0.0,0.0,0.07126471348592446,0.05116885414194553,0.0,0.0,0.034944369913417636,0.047026103605298186,0.0,0.07214472580719791,0.0,0.05492091904112073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0571102847191103,0.0,0.0,0.06016640391553709,0.0,0.042086109477860414,0.0,0.0,0.07630396759665713
EDAnonymous,VelehkSain,2019/03/17,"I don’t know if this is the right place but I need help with my eating problems. Every day I wake up I am not hungry at all. If I don’t force myself to eat I’ll get horrible stomach pains and feel nauseous. If I force myself to eat I’ll still get stomach pain and nausea. The only thing that kinda helps is smoking weed sometimes gives me the desire to eat but my body always feels bad after eating. 

Summary is I just never have an appetite but my body is always in pain from hunger and eating makes it worse. No matter what I do I feel pain and nausea. 
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EDAnonymous,oldfl4mes,2019/03/17,"ed twitter am i the only one who thinks that it's legit the worst eating disorder community, even surpassing pro ana tumblr? 

everybody is always constantly 'recovering' for two days then instantly back restricting. you can't say anything without 'kpopidolskinnyggbigbang' getting offended. 

most of the big accs are annoying as fuck and it's just.. idk something about ed twitter makes me feel queasy. ",6.620194805194807,10.193140196969695,6.8598701298701314,62.67409090909092,71.27272727272727,10.438095238095238,35.18614718614719,10.290406445055957,5.087214718614719,327,17,44,11,7,105,60,66,0.231,0.746,0.024,-0.9356,0,0,1,0,0,0,7.0,0,1,0,0,4,4,3,0,3,0,4,2,0,1,0,8,9,3,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,4,1,1,1,2,0,0,0,2,4,0,2,0,2,3,0,5,9,2,5,0,0,0,1,3,1,1,1,4,28,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2332403096635171,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2306711812592287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2155410269645072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30291544297839723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1807767097635799,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3212594546981175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2868270289167077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1851420593387733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14173311856928358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2591420053682935,0.1464503645027908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18710904909576528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18994525713625174,0.213188326381292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22291370021726906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21579627210406746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17961127913686728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27382206246473545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2702087612298313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,babylentil,2019/03/18,"How long can you be on ec stack? I’m pretty sure I’ve been taking ec stack since last September with maybe a small 2 week break around Christmas. 

I normally take 200mg of caffeine and around 48mg of ephedrine a day. How bad is this?? I can’t find the long term consequences of it anywhere online. ",2.8150819672131107,4.425894114754102,3.289311475409839,93.20937704918032,75.0655737704918,6.847213114754098,23.67540983606557,7.554174236665415,0.8172990163934428,235,7,52,3,5,73,49,61,0.061,0.8340000000000001,0.105,0.3695,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,1,0,0,4,2,0,0,3,0,5,0,0,2,1,9,8,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,4,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,3,1,7,6,1,11,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,0,6,23,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.43968436795812016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2061969938281165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15926545543708065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2257122692133811,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2013011725409214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.43709456197106056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2480993511099879,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24196333053831165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2512418757613699,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20428361318297208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2327520341326633,0.0,0.3713586434890765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.198092293603128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,RecoveryForMyself,2019/03/18,"Cried earlier over nothing and coudlnt fit my pants so I got so fucking depressed, but guess what? I knew I ain't a little bitch- just started my period. I was so upset that my measurements went up today and I couldn't fit my favorite pair of pants that are usually loose on me and I got so depressed bc I'm spending the next few days with my boyfriend and I felt so fat and ugly. Now I have an excuse to eat whatever I want bc if I don't I feel like death :))",-0.0926870748299322,2.1157179285714283,2.164387755102041,94.09073129251705,89.10204081632654,5.307482993197279,21.431972789115648,6.816661863887847,0.5288340136054419,359,13,80,5,12,121,67,98,0.28600000000000003,0.617,0.097,-0.9686,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,0,7,6,2,1,3,0,6,3,1,0,0,15,17,12,1,3,3,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,6,2,0,3,0,1,1,3,5,0,0,6,2,17,1,6,10,1,14,0,2,0,1,1,6,2,2,8,50,20,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25156336934879275,0.14769640163896405,0.0,0.39450236431980973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2343405857933561,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1157973924468957,0.1636091067995571,0.21989131568497747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2117216413356417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3663301010241944,0.0,0.2522869907393418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11188567050847062,0.22953423964811534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2435611597429403,0.0,0.0,0.2197470697489445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16209873389602364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21708043051585946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25222881609953457,0.0,0.13507959569707292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21230016617176706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Taiz_eyes,2019/03/18,"🙃 I live with my fiancé and his whole family (mom, dad, older sister and younger brother)

His mom gifted me a rocking chair in hopes that we will have a kid and I can sit in this rocking chair and just be pregnant idk. I probably can’t get pregnant and she knows this but I love the chair. 

Hi younger brother broke it (it’s okay shit happens) but it’s still sitting in the living room and I guess yeah technically you can sit on the chair but it may fall apart. His dad is going to fix it soon, which I’m super grateful for. 

His older sister is small. Like 5’3”, skinny with IBS and disordered eating habits. I try not to compare myself since we are the same heights, but my PCOS and Endometriosis make me hideous compared to her. Not to mention huge. 

She was sitting on the chair the other day and it creeks but it still held up. I was talking to my fiancé about this, 

What I was going to say to my fiancé was “do you think I can sit in the chair? Your sister sat yesterday and it was squeaking a bit. If not can you scoot over so I can sit with you” ( he was on the couch)

What I actually got out of my mouth was “do you think I can sit in the chair? Your sister-“

And he cut me off to say “well she is like 20 pounds and you are not so....”

Ah. 

🙃

I may or may not be crying in my room finding the motivation to restrict for the next 5 days nbd. 

(My fiancé has no idea about my disordered eating and calls me “””””thicc””””””” in a “good” way. I know he didn’t mean anything, I’m just a stupid fat baby right now)",0.4125434173669476,2.490437209523808,2.108314659197013,96.44846638655464,84.84126984126985,4.84873949579832,19.105975723622784,6.068283710208149,-0.2580046685340798,1151,31,266,9,34,376,157,315,0.076,0.79,0.134,0.965,0,0,0,0,0,0,35.0,2,8,0,2,11,12,3,0,16,3,30,7,4,2,0,50,48,22,0,2,14,10,0,2,0,4,1,2,3,1,16,19,4,2,8,2,0,3,8,4,2,0,11,2,45,8,31,31,3,42,0,1,0,1,39,21,1,7,12,175,61,1,0.0,0.0,0.13334655684773505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1124478229673904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14918178622302544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13953060564776093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1500989582585483,0.1762504301157392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3132157739973338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2796454658429348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12881746762243912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1248917551583374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07139177322117593,0.0,0.1553178763641122,0.11461198593962722,0.10928810240699736,0.0,0.1505307175292886,0.0,0.1208354001564683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1357200785269847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15425643795194433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15019387949503085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13351643866795118,0.0,0.24132143081182764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12332813939573675,0.0,0.09121211030116752,0.0,0.0,0.1488472989455584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3200757407553184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1453243230296027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14732724792991847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11669473808719362,0.0,0.2173323963765375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1402649157992237,0.1130347902195284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21825097149577366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10983069117221557,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17511417949199026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09277350588201598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10846304921860644,0.0,0.0,0.12286095470244195,0.0,0.0,0.15256011854722198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,EdenOfHell,2019/03/18,"ED cat cafe? TL;DR at the end.

I've had this idea for awhile now and have been trying to reach out to reddit/tumblr/kik about the opinions of ED sufferers on the concept of a cat cafe that served ""ED friendly"" food; however I am also worried about potential negative effects of having ""readily available super low cal"" food may have on sufferers. I have been in and out of recovery for anorexia with bulimic cognitions since I was 10 years old, and over the years have amassed many tasty recipes at all the stages of my eating disorder; to help encourage recovery, I would break the menu into 3 sections: 1) lowest possible cal, 2) medium cal, 3) ""normal"" cals for that dish.

The ""cat"" specific part is because I love cats, but also to hopefully give people a calming/""therapeutic"" space, and possibly give people ""a reason"" to go to a place that serves ED friendly food.

One response I got said that it would be beneficial to not market the cafe as an ""ED"" cafe, because it may essentially ""out"" someone. Personally, with the intention of the cafe being to help sufferers, I think it would be more impactful if it was marketed as such, but I also don't know if that *actually* is more helpful.

Another helpful response suggested  engaging the patrons to help them build a sense of community/support, but I have no ideas on how to do that, or what to do.

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I'm currently just ""testing the waters"", so depending on how the idea is received, I plan on talking to an ED specialist about the concept before continuing forward. I'm sorry if you see this post somewhere else, I really am just trying to get some feedback that is very important to me!

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TL;DR: I'm looking for feedback on the concept of opening a cat cafe that serves ""ED friendly"" foods.",9.533629856850718,7.926384776073617,9.536306748466256,65.4014335378323,60.13496932515338,12.987811860940695,42.59222903885481,11.855464076750405,5.184457505112475,1391,68,235,35,15,460,176,326,0.065,0.792,0.14300000000000002,0.9837,3,0,0,0,0,0,69.0,0,1,1,3,13,12,0,0,23,0,28,8,0,6,1,42,43,19,0,8,10,0,0,0,3,5,0,1,0,1,15,11,7,0,7,0,0,3,4,4,0,1,7,3,15,8,47,28,6,32,0,4,2,1,19,20,0,10,8,159,30,5,0.0,0.0,0.08841391038384655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.217361753465757,0.0,0.1963331878347771,0.22018126898782728,0.0,0.09500348197269763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11045956174880646,0.0,0.07709512996992979,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10383706946640137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09270786490767276,0.07568585544715338,0.0,0.08024596063539598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4382223564305803,0.0,0.20999528249056826,0.0,0.047335499235488174,0.1738262634692054,0.05149087132990799,0.0,0.07246222715196439,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30364108911775056,0.0,0.0,0.08998764680422462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.306833904158199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04979216755119935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.076082368979267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08177131320152578,0.0,0.0,0.0918556130622333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08877014894823,0.0,0.0,0.09507094290539594,0.0,0.0613938627225903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09811250202008284,0.0,0.1256232249890986,0.07910965980460505,0.094659193813947,0.0,0.0,0.20427896172313287,0.0867711098039133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058041585613563276,0.09315334295270908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08618269196677142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07219759653367441,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07494642568190188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07676628383588366,0.0,0.0,0.10142086501733996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1028134106189872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07282198443102232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05805372758977475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1230248253715918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07475565487017125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09201013353428768,0.0,0.19308193448453426,0.0,0.22018126898782728,0.1166886799088117
EDAnonymous,Emorito,2019/03/18,"Woke up from a nightmare where I spent $100 at the bakery I suffer from bulimia and frequent this Italian bakery for binge foods... every time I am startled at how much money I spend. *sigh* 
It’s usually around $20-30 which is just too damn much for what seems like not so much food. Yesterday they were closed and I was planning to go today, so of course I dreamt that I spent $100 there, I thought FUCK, that’s too much and woke up. ",2.7395714285714305,4.0454018777777785,3.4531746031746064,93.205,74.66666666666667,6.476190476190476,22.857142857142854,6.868970318607317,0.4553809523809522,339,9,76,3,7,107,64,90,0.14300000000000002,0.8270000000000001,0.03,-0.8636,0,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,1,1,9,6,2,1,2,0,4,3,0,1,0,10,12,6,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,6,5,2,0,2,0,4,1,1,4,1,0,7,0,9,1,11,5,4,13,0,1,0,1,1,7,2,1,6,48,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1927777861347097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18245496242456488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5237126908650682,0.0,0.0,0.20019945185739796,0.0,0.0,0.12307187154402932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1057966949679153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6367645106804091,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19714141557583276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17191862903069627,0.12627360203905733,0.0,0.20526660819404371,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2385021692029865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,bi-the-wayy,2019/03/18,"Too old. Its dumb but I feel too old for this. Like my teen years were fine. My 20s were fine. But its heading into my 30s that the desperation is setting in and it's so dumb because even if I did get small I'm too old and ugly to look like any thinspo I would want anyway. 
So dumb. 
But here I am anyway. 

Fuck. ",-1.6142647058823556,0.3411355147058828,0.7708235294117642,101.64770588235297,98.26470588235294,3.308235294117647,14.152941176470588,4.935628992294339,-1.3370105882352938,237,5,59,1,10,79,47,68,0.275,0.578,0.146,-0.9364,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,0,9,8,4,0,1,0,6,2,1,0,0,10,12,8,0,3,4,0,1,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,5,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,3,2,7,4,4,8,0,8,0,0,1,1,0,3,4,1,6,38,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16719086350641665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1498718518518151,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16238591188413284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12431244302485205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2272903898741521,0.12844988367572344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2523197178103968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2402261527047795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20645755517528194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7739551766246529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1450125446616876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1746494169280048,0.0,0.0,0.1583235373307668
EDAnonymous,alchademy,2019/03/18,"Finally realizing my toxic relationship with food Even though I've had a very toxic relationship with food since I can remember, it hasn't been until recently I've discover I have ed tendencies. I've been paroozing the meme subreddit which has been very refreshing. Even though I consider myself an open book, my eating habits are something I share with nobody. The way I view myself is just sad. I know I've always thought myself to be bigger than I am, after looking at old photographs and thinking to myself ""you seriously thought that was overweight?"" I find myself constantly looking in mirrors and reflections of windows to check if I've gained or lost a few since the last time I checked. I have a corrupt sense of satisfaction when I'm the smallest in the room, as if it's some prize to won. I wish I didn't think like this, but the thoughts are still there. Always there. 

Ever since I was young I've had a binging problem. So much so, my mom had put a lock on the sugary foods cabinet because I would just keep coming back for more. My mom, although I love her, may be a partial cause to my obsessions with food. She was always restricting me from typical childhood treats, which resulted in me having such strong cravings for them I would binge them any chance I could take. 

I remember always thinking I was overweight, and constantly dissatisfied with looking down at my legs. Throughout junior high, almost everyday when I got home, I would binge on sugar. I would eat a bowl of icecream, oreos, and cookies while watching tv. Then I would still eat dinner afterwards, regardless of not being hungry. I don't know how but I managed to keep a pretty small frame throughout that, (god bless the metabolism of a growing kid). I would eat myself to the point that it was painful, then wallow in self pity and disgust as I ponder the thought of throwing it all up. However, I've honestly never been brave enough to do so. But the thought has entered my mind every single time.

Around my sophomore year my metabolism slowed, the weight finally caught up to me, and I completely gave up on my appearance. Wore all black, and wore over sized everything. My self esteem was practically non-existent. I did not wear makeup, and I wore my hair in a low-pony like a middle aged man working at a vape shop. Not my cutest moment. 

After about a year of looking the worst and feeling the worst I'd ever been, I finally realized my weight and diet was what was making me so unhappy. I watched a vegan documentary that made me realize major flaws in my diet. After that I went vegetarian the summer before my senior year. I counted calories and ate healthy, and developed a decent exercise routine. I managed to lose a significant amount of weight over the summer, and felt the best I'd ever felt after cutting out meat and many processed foods I used to binge on.

In the process of losing all the weight, I hardly had any binge episodes. I felt amazing. I finally understood nutrition and how to take care of my body. However once the weight stopped coming off, I think I had started to become obsessed with the idea of losing weight. Even though I had reached my goal, it was never *really* enough. Then came the ""fasts"". Let's see how long I can go without eating, maybe skip some feeding days here and there. That will surely fix my plateau, so I thought. Boy was I wrong. Skipping eating only made me obsess over the thought of food, resulting in me binging on anything I could get my hands on in the middle of the night. Eating to the point of pain. My binging habits were back. I'd lost control again. I've been in this never ending cycle of binging and starving ever since. For example, I didn't eat anything for three days  this week, yet tonight I ate a whole day's worth of food and then binged on 1000 calories worth of raisins??? What the hell is wrong with me??

Earlier this year I became vegan, which I am rather passionate about and proud of myself for finally making the transition. However, I can't help but feel that part of the reason I'm doing it is for my weight rather than my health, the animals and the environment.

I'm constantly browsing media about nutrition and diets. My recent obsession has been with intermittent fasting and posts of that nature. I'm just exhausted at this point. I just want to eat like a normal person. My stomach can't take this constant stretching and shrinking. 

I've never had boyfriend until last year, which happened to be right around when I was at my skinniest, having just lost all my excess weight. It is kinda a long distance relationship, we only get to see eachother once a week. I have this fear that he will leave me if I pack on any weight, so I don't eat anything the day before I see him or the day of (unless I have to eat around him, then I will just to not raise any red flags of course.) If I have a particularly bad binge week, I honestly don't look forward to him seeing me. I'm tired of putting all my self worth based on my weight.

I hate everything I've written about me on this post. I'm disgusted and disappointed in what I've turned into. I hate how much time I've spent thinking about my goddamn waistline. I wish nothing I've written here is true. It is the ugly truth unfortunately. It's so hard for me to open up about this, I feel like it's just too taboo to discuss with people that don't go through this. Sorry for rambling on about my entire life's relationship with food. I'm sick of the binging, I'm sick of the starving. I don't know how I'm going to get through this, but I'm going to do it. No matter what it takes, I just can't continue living like this. Thank you for reading my ramblings. This is hopefully the start of a recovery for me. As they say, acknowledgement is the first step.",4.7966506938205065,6.209859786163527,5.374998502545676,81.00027752820208,69.73674752920036,8.407347509234302,29.55385844065089,8.841846274778883,2.3608256164520323,4574,176,858,81,81,1472,444,1113,0.162,0.7490000000000001,0.09,-0.9982,4,0,1,0,0,0,134.0,1,2,3,16,58,55,6,5,61,0,82,56,6,15,16,163,174,66,0,21,27,2,20,5,0,10,11,1,3,7,43,45,39,6,33,5,7,17,21,30,0,2,59,36,130,25,134,98,21,155,2,9,14,2,31,55,1,13,87,570,173,8,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03426700795695027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.113897189402643,0.0,0.0,0.09308478080351784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08448196387938715,0.09139082147237744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05262708921891096,0.02857278845822912,0.020860572440473228,0.03779398641676861,0.05823845461935472,0.0,0.035912429639686785,0.0,0.0,0.03801139453895888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03913927301442186,0.0348902029634048,0.035154003433679346,0.0,0.058956068377203324,0.035879669189445594,0.14792133328783955,0.038381335375892826,0.054644761321057014,0.0,0.0,0.11034734509031202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3851786140011391,0.0,0.0,0.03030931226572838,0.07071809679901728,0.0,0.0678071906695446,0.12381804049930853,0.028832348429123043,0.0,0.0615105737279316,0.0,0.0,0.038507711606871095,0.05190892134040287,0.02444721789777934,0.0985714856624579,0.1874350836099306,0.03127702689029892,0.029108042047763506,0.3310376781013718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053636584927978986,0.0,0.0777934682625871,0.0,0.02736935607510524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.030261181414276805,0.0,0.06130990814192098,0.06757155543164937,0.0,0.03637491902833037,0.0,0.0,0.022937360370302085,0.036155964067893336,0.03432607222439424,0.03398879726095836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0386309148406792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06083371912592666,0.0,0.0,0.05642027372145705,0.05578874563224533,0.0,0.036234695708444745,0.0,0.0349929026571322,0.024171036060648368,0.08359233236053368,0.0,0.030217434574195238,0.060568344007246436,0.14368351135993546,0.1148523620741774,0.1120675480872911,0.0,0.030885445779192312,0.06476075647808756,0.045685059401938906,0.03469433772888388,0.034379212539824004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03455307118462718,0.0801575535378176,0.0,0.0,0.05031218662202242,0.0,0.10557220768400627,0.0,0.0,0.03211373387525198,0.0335289420556869,0.032835608002753945,0.0,0.03590878435625399,0.07288768731363901,0.0,0.05205264738181866,0.07282630521995208,0.0,0.0,0.037057596885280576,0.0,0.02372426925837658,0.029880125594704137,0.0,0.0,0.0970486414703704,0.0,0.06554778936824268,0.034814673263192056,0.0,0.032744511921356106,0.0,0.06880235016931839,0.0,0.0,0.03422988077083765,0.0,0.021922605559581598,0.035184496986440945,0.06757746805264836,0.14696055747645928,0.07753058351680221,0.02922422265971245,0.0,0.027213610686246663,0.0,0.0,0.10907761491530978,0.0,0.10709871027875703,0.0,0.0,0.11323060257271032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.026344705286662745,0.0,0.038307182613686916,0.04844306219904096,0.0,0.05465726296866342,0.02860997077261308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03225252953997375,0.0,0.10291859028161496,0.0,0.0,0.03150574938104358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10963595823238734,0.10086475675260118,0.19017144962575014,0.059862956474463325,0.0393315688460856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03722220806284069,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.029555628523360036,0.0,0.056471191051817575,0.020184208410819453,0.027162735464108828,0.08234915206929364,0.4167149629659724,0.0,0.03172285775323359,0.0,0.038206100347770736,0.07870404874733113,0.032987456692677296,0.0,0.02491301906031169,0.0,0.0,0.14585608045126447,0.07482975225872228,0.0,0.11018478716023247
EDAnonymous,itsamhquest,2019/03/18,"I can't do this anymore I've been trying to recover from my bulimia since October last year. I've tried everything I could think of. I can't stop binging. I feel so defeated. It feels like every two good days is followed by a week of bad. I don't know what to do anymore. At the beginning I really didn't want to recover. Now I do, but it's all the same, nothing has changed but my mindset so it hurts so much more. I just want it all to end. ",-0.6015625,1.5090036354166685,2.2800000000000007,92.965,90.77083333333334,6.533333333333335,22.583333333333336,7.793537801064563,1.2415583333333338,343,14,80,8,12,120,63,96,0.138,0.805,0.058,-0.8003,1,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,1,5,5,0,0,3,0,11,0,0,0,2,14,19,5,0,3,3,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,6,0,0,1,4,0,0,1,4,3,0,1,2,2,10,2,9,16,5,10,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,9,52,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4171637834302471,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17560922854641325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22249170339403804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16792418411878815,0.0,0.0,0.1356396290952384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18628195678339424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1772044920369489,0.0,0.18902293025408864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21268920823253254,0.15025334616575178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1764072547512207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2251529531024234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11558690718486744,0.1714396653370576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10275220438977416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1546101160566273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20180864736550927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13473700180412973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17397968345571446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1758377521836523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13476518803394094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2855882716300465,0.0,0.20545303119734365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2481055199093237,0.0,0.16870679933206406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13543981189687782
EDAnonymous,is-butter-a-carb1,2019/03/18,"im such a mess lol school is fucking me up big time lol

firstly im an insomniac so i rarely ever even sleep, i get like three hours of sleep a night. add this to restriction & its a nightmare lol

i skip breakfast in the morning & i get an iced coffee every morning bc is suppresses my appetite & makes me feel sick & it wakes me up a lil 

& then i eat only a little bit of my lunch, whether it be some turkey or a little bit of greek yogurt. then i throw my food away or give it away so i'm not tempted to eat anymore lol

& my friend will ask me a lot like ""why don't u ever eat ur lunch"" & im just like yeeaaa haha not hungry. my biggest fear is one of my friends catching on & telling a teacher or something 

& like i have a hard time focusing on my tests for some reason so i fail a lot of them 

but i have my first therapy session in like two weeks, & idk im hoping it helps some 

this was literally all over the place but i needed to rant lol sorry ",0.6660377358490557,2.3757137169811315,2.7373962264150964,94.31656603773588,81.64150943396227,5.372075471698114,21.449056603773588,6.2581,0.1219426415094338,756,23,177,6,20,255,120,212,0.083,0.754,0.163,0.9447,0,0,1,0,0,0,28.0,0,0,1,3,8,13,1,1,14,6,9,12,3,2,3,25,19,11,0,2,9,0,2,5,2,1,1,0,0,0,7,1,7,2,2,0,0,2,3,4,0,5,1,2,23,9,18,16,8,27,0,1,0,1,8,14,1,9,16,100,30,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7566335274961391,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0692549547878622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06528384706447662,0.0,0.13121963637290274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1524777414273935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2143678701252244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04612362728499572,0.12633476836506802,0.058836790592474826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07858084018297913,0.035309348714048144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11879877067463035,0.0844415890737673,0.0,0.10790464454883657,0.06455890850615792,0.07296907090914984,0.06698958049357416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06255609451060921,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04680717119415869,0.0,0.0,0.069359308411837,0.06877082599792994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3017238075895591,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17058286342243925,0.13998077743013068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11873798166077465,0.0,0.0,0.04661365479548641,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05177982369207112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06553295649174892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04732022683551509,0.05311067049076219,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07295997229532149,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07179931549390453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07067409504711482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13976562088566602,0.0,0.0,0.053760376543111374,0.0,0.07817163028428839,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061036576650894764,0.0,0.07985941057745352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08143964276774572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06821608659122927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05601532167569217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0630128597151314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,foxlatte,2019/03/18,"the breaking point do you ever just reach your breaking point? like it sneaks up on you all of a sudden? i went to california this weekend and going to the beach going shopping has triggered me. i've suppressed the thoughts of self hate for so long and that easily they're back. i mean i make self depreciating jokes often but this weekend it just hit me like yeah i'm fat and no matter how hard i try i just can lose weight the ""healthy and normal"" way. basically time to restrict again because i'm so tired of losing the same fucking 10 pounds over and over. i'm tired of being 195 or 185. i just want to be skinny already. i'd happily be 150 ffs.",1.951695804195804,4.136536325757582,3.2987878787878806,89.49702797202801,79.68181818181819,5.576689976689976,23.03263403263403,6.67199483983844,0.6001473193473195,513,17,106,5,13,167,89,132,0.213,0.639,0.14800000000000002,-0.9449,0,0,0,0,1,0,11.0,0,3,0,2,11,7,2,0,6,1,6,6,2,3,2,25,19,10,0,2,6,0,2,2,0,0,3,0,0,2,5,5,3,2,2,5,1,3,1,4,0,0,2,2,11,3,13,13,2,20,0,2,0,1,5,6,1,2,10,62,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18863742206398948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13144292264496232,0.0,0.10420392426482357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15462573895834222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.158032013883343,0.0,0.0,0.1942991904528169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1531293794294145,0.1687686487211323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1670260793709918,0.0,0.0,0.15127722764528584,0.0,0.3824780575370179,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11410431050102128,0.0,0.0,0.18620464278310786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1674856885457165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3231886154175956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35665706766816824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13570789988544285,0.09967695438422168,0.3929426033681004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11605758146014933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10082531198931624,0.13568484935896724,0.0,0.20815984108219365,0.0,0.15846383296597275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,supremesmolbean,2019/03/18,"I'm screaming but no one hears my calls for help I'm relapsing. After 5 years of being good I feel like I've relapsed. I was in Mexico for spring break and only had access to two meals a day. I lost weight and damn do I love it. I feel so good. So amazing. 

I'm thinking about getting smaller and eating smaller meals. I've told my SO and friends in hopes someone stops me. But I don't want to stop. I want to not be noticed, but I am scared to relapse. You get so ill. I'm so conflicted. My life is also spiraling out of control with my abusive dad and my BDD and anxiety have sky rocketed. At least I'm in control of one thing. It feels so good. I'm sorry everyone. 

I don't think I can be strong. I want to cope this way.",-0.5884210526315812,1.4789328598726144,1.9880455916862232,95.52687562856184,89.828025477707,5.088702648340597,21.002011397921557,6.5966054737557815,0.31392484076433114,557,20,130,7,19,191,94,157,0.185,0.574,0.241,0.9572,0,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,1,0,4,8,13,1,1,1,0,12,7,0,2,0,26,33,16,0,4,4,1,4,1,1,0,2,2,0,0,4,8,4,5,5,0,0,0,4,4,0,3,4,6,18,9,18,26,1,14,0,1,0,1,8,6,1,1,7,75,22,0,0.0,0.17384490489138582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11733577596732613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11224407653561394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14982243381044444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.329128696927248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.094625362935567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15013610849798648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14020184182133566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2225654145738329,0.10482023217001524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1133592227134404,0.0,0.15331531269980594,0.0,0.0,0.3691974229798437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16536952227833576,0.0,0.09834654599289866,0.0,0.0,0.14573084082491253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10363607107609217,0.07168232984465793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16016746034049725,0.0,0.1324248677614734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16704716642186632,0.0,0.0,0.1988490543711452,0.11159082817603097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1468971291826708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12431945369952728,0.0,0.0,0.16424641004695134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24533701882168424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09747744280485043,0.18803066498858856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14020184182133566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14332881749190424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.259626279845395,0.11646332313253605,0.0,0.17867128828094672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0944859658062637
EDAnonymous,stunninglyhonest,2019/03/18,"Fuck parents Sorry I just need to rant. 


Prefacing this by being transparent: I suffered with BED most of adolescents into early 20s and had a weight loss surgery last year and have lost 100lb, but I’m still overweight thus far. I thought I had fought my ED urges when I developed bulimia post-op. I’m in therapy and trying to deal, haven’t purged in 2 months. I don’t talk about my bulimia with my fam but they are well aware of my BED past which got me into this mess. ANYWAY. 

Was out with my mum last night before a concert. Due to having a small stomach I ate dinner and had already had 2 cocktails, and physically couldn’t fit anymore in my stomach, and commented I’m really full and feel a little ill. My mum The TELLS ME TO GO BE SICK. 

Like. Tells me to go vomit in the toilet so I can eat and drink more. My mother is an alcoholic and clearly addictive personalities run in the family but I haven’t made myself vomit in 2 months and she’s encouraging me to do so, so I can keep up with her drinking? Don’t think so. FUCK. YOU. 

I’m so mad and this was a whole ass day ago. 


Not only mad I’m just sad. I have shit genes and literally don’t want kids as a result. I couldn’t imagine being as horrible a mother as mine is. ",0.4623697916666672,2.7354415390625,2.8106562500000014,90.11038541666667,86.734375,6.069583333333334,19.861458333333328,7.42949916751922,0.6618905208333339,958,29,207,17,30,327,147,256,0.238,0.695,0.067,-0.9943,2,0,3,0,0,0,26.0,0,1,1,2,12,14,6,0,11,0,25,19,4,3,1,39,45,24,0,4,6,5,2,1,0,0,7,1,2,2,4,19,9,1,4,4,0,3,8,11,1,0,12,3,30,3,27,28,4,31,0,4,0,3,18,15,4,1,14,128,34,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15697895357990804,0.0,0.0,0.12764544000543815,0.15388995047598758,0.0,0.0,0.15890525092514732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14280721221276585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1225315973460417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09286672556944736,0.14845550033330512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28212622073283944,0.0,0.14734578926203132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13574839399130564,0.0,0.07280965918391406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26624745552152923,0.0,0.0,0.16367463717238673,0.0,0.11516826605837545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12799193978823387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2347549968806768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0703500948090981,0.1443237140895236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1571907057806961,0.0,0.0,0.1362542840201141,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2298754818956821,0.0,0.0,0.1067726098873894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13513226386926105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10951688315686912,0.0,0.0,0.15989261441056332,0.0,0.13746227847384562,0.0,0.12573340216354828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13791017269066494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09224873478390762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1478117634549242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16119384712937224,0.0,0.0,0.11499689993297398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11574004840152773,0.2517210033917385,0.0,0.16467413527962602,0.0,0.0,0.09226803270506956,0.0,0.1143182389150012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0977651141640115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0849336856174471,0.0,0.0,0.1753506351909547,0.12947139540095898,0.0,0.0,0.16076850028296225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0927299191726149
EDAnonymous,WearyBumblebee,2019/03/18,"Trying to tell myself it's not worth it to stop eating I was miserable. My depression was at its worst. I stole food from the store because for some reason stolen food == okay to eat in my head. My grades suffered. I was a worse person. I was antisocial. I couldn't sleep at night. I listed to mukbangs all day and I was obsessive with my meals. I tracked my food across 4 apps. All I thought about all day was eating. I ran up and down the stairs at 3 am when I weighed a pound too much. I'd binge and then feel awful and fast.

I told myself enough was enough and that it wasn't worth it and I started eating ""intuitively"". At first I binged but then I stabilized. I started eating normally. I wasn't hungry anymore after meals. I was able to think about things other than food. I joined a sorority and got a tattoo and started doing things I wanted to.

I was at the Ripley Museum in California over Spring Break and my mom jokingly asked me to stand on the scale. (warning: numbers) 118 lbs. I'm 5'3"". That's way over my safe range.

Now I feel miserable. I know that I'd eaten that day and I was wearing heavy boots, sweater, heavy jeans, etc. but none of that makes me feel any better. That stuff ways max 3 lbs.

I'm trying to remind myself it's not worth it. But for how miserable I was I loved looking at myself back then. My boobs got small so I could wear my nice bralettes instead of my ratty 32D bras. All my chest bones stood out and I'd just constantly tap on them. Just constantly body checking. I have so many photos of myself. 

I want to stop eating forever I feel so gross. My mom doesn't know about my ED and she keeps talking about ""last October"" when I was super thin. She says my face was like a V and that all my bones stood out and that it was scary. I got irritated and told her to stop talking about it and she got mad at me for being so sensitive. It's not like I can tell her *why* I feel so irritated when she talks about how thin I used to be and how chubby I am now.

idk. I Know it's not worth it. I know that. But I just look in the mirror and want to die. I go to school in the Midwest where it's cold and I just absolutely refused to look at myself in the mirror or weigh myself during ""recovery"" so I was blissfully unaware of how much I'd actually gained. I had no idea I'd gotten so big.

idk what this is. a rant ig since no one in my life knows about my food troubles",0.12676605055188972,2.378118169322711,2.028671543334859,95.17567467833584,88.42231075697211,5.204153876298086,17.592057997518125,6.712420376136187,-0.1084883809026187,1859,47,422,24,61,613,227,502,0.172,0.757,0.071,-0.9927,0,0,0,0,0,1,61.0,0,0,1,4,31,19,1,4,13,2,29,28,10,7,5,73,69,41,1,6,13,2,7,2,0,0,1,2,0,1,28,22,16,6,14,2,6,2,11,10,0,2,30,13,77,9,55,35,13,61,0,5,3,2,21,29,1,2,28,274,105,2,0.07262017267135114,0.0,0.0708668129413915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04938420766834931,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07201969766747797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06789005844499534,0.0,0.0,0.05584043020852722,0.0,0.04426858322438214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06422664131207441,0.0,0.08066464079183021,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15695321573749066,0.0,0.057981298720842615,0.0,0.0,0.1405020109680924,0.0,0.06254764831045333,0.0,0.07536827398621991,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4458513977326477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15007210193059256,0.08099068880426151,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18359470647340492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061770681776218875,0.43906300525951547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.041271717661664785,0.0,0.2323239442572189,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07452924808112918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08197933558815756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06454814616567828,0.0,0.0,0.1995507385929372,0.05919513321248322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051293775591427664,0.07095709636122621,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18294796555825865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0655425411167336,0.0,0.04847452916300928,0.07362545690194278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17010373708475504,0.0,0.0,0.10676836539520768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06814911262665244,0.07115235049532469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04920930842694834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06340913368598547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07466563237882794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057750476068561624,0.0,0.07349549174939153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0600721572698996,0.0,0.07267261809155913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1542027959722794,0.0,0.0,0.1821411482079872,0.0,0.0,0.08313272348460789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17510803196994607,0.1269464635568778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09649123176016793,0.04653207437374831,0.0,0.057652305349049575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13878337411321318,0.0,0.09860866066103577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06272051281281163,0.0,0.0,0.12849977809607485,0.11528502575143135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0655284104905998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0740061600670265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,deanisded,2019/03/18,"Getting sick threw me back into old habits So, recently I had a kidney infection and I was on very strong antibiotics. I couldn't eat while I was on them because thry made me throw up. Even now that I'm better, I'm still barely eating. What's worse is I've gotten obsessed with counting calories again. I've ended up eating less calories than I did back when my ED was really bad, but I can't exercise much at the moment (chronic pain) so I'm praying it doesn't make a huge difference. I'm so annoyed because I was basically almost fully recovered. I was/am in a healthy weight range, and I was able to eat balanced healthy meals, but you know, actually eat enough. I was even beginning to get over the guilt I felt when I ate, and I'd completely stopped counting calories. I'm so mad at myself for letting this happen again, because I don't want to have an eating disorder. I don't want to be sick again. It's weird how a little over a week being unable to eat much has really thrown me back. Even if I try to eat now, I just end up feeling awful and forcing myself to throw up if I've ate anything over 200 calories in one sitting. God, I fucking hate myself right now. ",4.248122384937241,4.950601205020924,5.442319560669457,82.64916971757323,70.42259414225941,8.150732217573221,29.581851464435147,8.278499904357787,2.0432612970711297,924,35,185,13,16,308,136,239,0.197,0.7240000000000001,0.079,-0.9812,0,0,0,0,0,0,26.0,0,1,1,2,21,11,4,2,8,1,19,20,1,3,0,22,41,16,0,5,5,0,3,0,0,0,6,1,0,0,5,6,12,1,3,1,0,3,5,9,0,1,14,4,26,2,24,23,4,42,1,0,0,1,2,17,1,3,21,117,31,0,0.0927546385201487,0.0,0.09051514717820162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09288037209815418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07632916429468786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2139677748595403,0.07744624880048487,0.169627100173361,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08203394014532396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09725147375752896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09690885543509156,0.1063048516291126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7592892114160332,0.0,0.0,0.16430615738710946,0.0958403364690873,0.0,0.1837906918581841,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04689953220084142,0.0,0.0890589988490665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08575016868354464,0.09692094064050503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08202262051646962,0.0,0.0,0.09157600248652127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05097552358731455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0948479022058799,0.0,0.0,0.09296451531505127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08776668168109956,0.061914441463771265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13637066359560596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09733039011726076,0.0,0.0628529435701654,0.0,0.09869747507370204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11884199310853515,0.0,0.09158401553567852,0.0,0.0,0.0792119544934724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07407397413824182,0.07754703108062416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06297431098080178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07653229083070456,0.10941817797800238,0.0,0.07440217614731598,0.11295016147243668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09452490090249176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,shamshels,2019/03/18,"Anyone else feel like alcohol really exacerbates BDD Lately when I've been drunk all I've been able to think about the entire time is how huge I feel and how ashamed I am of my body. It's really not great being at a party trying to relax and have a good time and suddenly getting hit with the need to be alone and wallow in how awful I feel about myself 🙃
Last night I was at a party and literally just wanted to be alone so I could hide my face and not let anyone look at me, it was so bad. I don't have great body image while sober but at least I can show my face to my friends without wanting to cry lol",3.907652671755727,3.8021783435114536,5.388616412213738,85.59452767175576,70.90839694656489,8.38206106870229,23.24522900763359,8.07648339933343,0.944350381679389,477,9,108,6,8,162,83,131,0.127,0.711,0.161,0.7666,0,2,1,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,9,8,0,1,5,2,15,6,4,3,1,24,25,14,0,4,5,0,3,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,2,7,2,0,4,3,0,0,4,2,0,0,4,4,13,6,16,15,2,14,0,0,1,0,1,6,0,0,9,70,15,0,0.16135271000769053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1724369765056899,0.0,0.3342254922733839,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2256431329495001,0.16532491918397793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13472277314922204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3584529729077149,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12882700955163304,0.0,0.17723837540388088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1347894848838941,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2447543348591095,0.11527040826929,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12466070349923887,0.0,0.08430013139150408,0.0,0.0,0.1353349978269758,0.0,0.3557838648171691,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13152399411559687,0.1820128849180332,0.0,0.0,0.16499407796342944,0.0,0.07882878386956381,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13549563868802736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11964098997793768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15141858800988034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20673335540639326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10338830143605064,0.0,0.0,0.18817212553921245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10954789862516884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1903400177342008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15553825456252968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,dreams_and_daisies,2019/03/18,"Does anyone else feel pressured to eat? My mom doesn't know about my ed and she constantly buys unhealthy food, cakes, crisps etc. I love her but I feel like if I don't eat them she'll be upset and think that I'm wasting her money, I've tried talking to her but she still buys it.  

I know that I can get away with not eating then but I don't want her to be sad when she finds them uneaten, she buys things she thinks I like too so I feel even worse knowing that she's trying to make me happy.",0.3368139337298217,2.2590343551401872,1.657841971113001,100.50200509770605,83.95327102803739,4.63857264231096,16.269328802039087,5.565023196281405,-0.9111233644859812,384,7,94,2,11,122,67,107,0.17800000000000002,0.7,0.122,-0.6682,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,2,0,6,7,0,2,0,0,7,5,0,1,0,19,20,9,0,2,5,1,3,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,5,3,4,0,9,0,4,0,4,3,0,0,0,3,24,4,7,17,1,5,0,1,0,1,16,1,0,1,6,56,29,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1172330704605296,0.17178938836941535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15752383604511278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18118290709972334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14672202305888565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5146798171423539,0.14005996967138865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1869872926988393,0.11073907691071634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25432462144088136,0.11977766589220395,0.0,0.0,0.15323990208750893,0.0,0.20273738596324475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08759640157508278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17847916704517694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27642771965350005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1638222312002145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15132137411054492,0.0,0.1119155930992046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1963635434210549,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13389497753520593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13476025170833866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11138708944441464,0.2148618992940437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2276627939074328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09889130867317827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17086175853392802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,PMmeyournavel,2019/03/18,"Knocked myself out of Keto by accident Hey y'all,

Just posting here to keep myself accountable haha.

I accidentally drank a regular Dr. Pepper last night, instead of Diet. Almost lost my mind when I found I consumed 120 net carbs instead of the sub-20 I'm supposed to be on haha. 

Of course I followed it up with 3 donuts and chocolate milk (goddamn I missed carbs), but I'm back on Keto + fasting today! Picked up some ephedrine to really keep it going. Broke my 3 months of keto but I'm back to square one today! Hope everyone else can get back to their goals if needed! :)

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EDAnonymous,fabscarbs,2019/03/18,"Calories after throwing up This is my first post ever on Reddit!! I’m a little saddened by the fact it’s on this subreddit but oh well... that’s how my life’s going right now.
Anyways, I’ve tried to look up how much you can actually expel throwing up and the very few answers I got said the maximum you can get is around 50-60% of what you originally ate. Is this true? Even if you throw up IMMEDIATELY (meaning <10 mins) after you ate while drinking tons of water? 
Idk if this follows the rules but i’ll give it a try ",1.8356074766355164,3.799444196261682,3.8016915887850473,86.86421962616824,79.0,6.149158878504673,23.78411214953271,7.1686216300943375,0.9175914018691588,407,14,85,5,10,138,75,107,0.08,0.879,0.041,-0.4718,0,0,1,0,0,0,16.0,0,5,0,1,8,2,0,0,6,0,5,5,0,3,3,14,16,8,0,2,4,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,8,2,4,0,2,1,0,5,0,0,1,1,4,2,8,2,13,12,3,23,0,0,1,0,7,9,0,2,8,57,16,1,0.0,0.0,0.23909531966413866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21811166868748932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2400174299820809,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16182740528724998,0.22162640890925112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2084061677413264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.128008095921051,0.2350368050104125,0.1392453550234407,0.0,0.1959576189906848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17305846224460086,0.0,0.2455653136476016,0.0,0.0,0.2057474695206595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2668887248672622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18011122127995824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2346527389876557,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2092379913336653,0.233061496724343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33269267043096096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20215967284205985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.220294246310122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,eardingu,2019/03/18,"Binged on +4k, can't study (finals tomorrow) So I'm new here, hi
The title says it all, I binged on over 4k calories today, I'm not feeling well at all and I can't study for my exam which is tomorrow... 
I think it comes from the fact I upped my calories to 1200 (I can't stand being higher than 900) and my friend literally said ""you ate everything ob your plate?!"" when I had lunch with her
I have no one to talk to irl so here I am
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EDAnonymous,fivehundredisplenty,2019/03/18,"DAE go to the grocery store just to look at / touch all the things you don't eat? This is something I do when I want to avoid a binge or am on a fast. I go to the grocery store just to walk through the aisles and look at all the chips, candy, cake, ice cream, etc. I pick things off the shelves and read the nutrition label and just feel it in my hands then put it back. After an hour or so of this I usually leave with a diet coke and some gum. Anyone else do this? I feel like it's probably my most disordered behavior but I really enjoy it for some reason??? Lol what's wrong with me.",1.7759999999999998,2.9996772000000007,3.161800000000003,94.6579,77.0,6.920000000000001,20.5,7.554174236665415,0.3299599999999998,450,10,109,6,10,147,82,125,0.055,0.846,0.099,0.7543,0,1,1,0,0,0,15.0,0,1,0,0,6,4,0,1,11,1,5,4,1,2,2,23,12,10,0,1,6,0,4,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,10,6,3,1,3,1,2,4,1,2,0,0,0,7,11,2,16,12,6,16,0,0,3,0,1,5,0,5,8,73,21,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14224573860244802,0.2084421088407607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15642814008069608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23315291612691635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2081637045633124,0.16994295002493226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2268826147326209,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20572462178423853,0.14533324501340394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2312323887062014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2003414489855057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2154071654042844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09938754561760474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3416665413328119,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2193361914148429,0.0,0.0,0.20450729519541455,0.0,0.0,0.20348898879408409,0.0,0.13032498906193699,0.20916396878306048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.156613383340452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2703049360825574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2240537403247635,0.0,0.11999060664639842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22242307416700066,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Upiko,2019/03/18,"Friend humiliated me(rant) I'm bulimic. I acknowledge i have a problem. But I'm so close to reaching my UGW(only 6lbs), i know I'll be able to stop once i reach it with calorie maintaining diet, because as I've lost more weight my purges became lesser and lesser.

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Now, the infuriating part. I told my close circle of friends about my ED.

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One of girl's father is subordinate of my father, so when i told her about my CW, she flipped. (Mind you my CW is still healthy BMI). Even the friend who was an actually doctor told her to calm down, (she did tell me to be careful, but let me be, bless her), that I'm an adult and can make my own decisions(Thank god). But she wouldn't listen.

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She blocked us, went on a high horse, made it all about **her** (""I'm being an enabler. I used to look up to you, blabla""). Went behind my back told her father, who told mine, which is extremely humiliating. She also lied and told him that I'm taking laxatives, like WTF. I only purge when i eat shit food, i do keep my safe foods and also take vitamins at the end of the day, when i know I'm not going to purge.

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Now I'm embarrassed to go to father's work place and am really angry overall.

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rant over.",2.091227891156464,4.292267583673471,3.5626785714285703,87.70211309523809,79.28571428571429,6.532312925170068,22.86139455782313,7.6454224807358475,1.001588435374149,958,31,199,15,24,315,144,245,0.156,0.75,0.094,-0.9652,0,0,0,0,0,0,71.0,1,2,0,3,15,12,1,1,9,0,15,8,1,3,1,26,44,16,0,2,4,4,1,1,3,1,2,1,0,2,7,8,5,4,3,0,0,4,2,4,0,1,12,3,38,8,24,26,4,23,1,1,1,0,33,9,1,0,11,119,45,2,0.0731027381680324,0.0,0.07133772725524264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11692046660336733,0.0,0.3960339313153085,0.4441391418379281,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05621149328848467,0.0,0.04456275067214803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07453311360441157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.047145218479742734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07482375014322615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07480235126448785,0.0,0.0,0.06474732797463402,0.0,0.0,0.048283669111641614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1767922423319604,0.0,0.16943698250831782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08309194150830998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07723705649336067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06497707255167381,0.0,0.0,0.0803507061907709,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07475250263885633,0.0,0.035714305306966815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061387888666072477,0.0,0.07980027422711226,0.0,0.0,0.0691715784048552,0.04879664537922651,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07381292630158491,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07785203033367713,0.04953630729639278,0.05559792651233215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07916314162614924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07637680226090589,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06994944768636795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.046831485973033965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07503891021491008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05837994113164719,0.061117162432407175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10992832270868697,0.0,0.06389501529247357,0.0673031796425035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4191167944114535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08793359311339616,0.06313729446320226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0890194410963382,0.0,0.1355339413335195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05321966403573709,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4441391418379281,0.0
EDAnonymous,shrirnpheavennow,2019/03/18,"Dentist...... So I've done a pretty fantastic job of hiding my ED, I was diagnosed with EDNOS a while ago but my parent's refuse to believe it because I've always been overweight and my other Dr's don't care bc I'm not underweight and I also don't go a lot I just lie and say I do. But I haven't purged in an extremely long time and I'm v proud of that but my teeth. are. fucked. I need to go to the dentist and get it fixed but I'm so ashamed and embarrassed but I also hate to smile bc I have a front tooth who has a cavity you can LITERALLY SEE. 
Has anyone gone to the dentist for things like this? also I know I have worse teeth but do you think i can tell him to fix my ugly tooth first because I'm vain and that's my priority lmao",-0.4468834688346917,1.4595846097560994,2.3535772357723594,94.41649051490515,87.04878048780489,5.595663956639567,18.257452574525743,6.937597516519254,0.02697533875338776,572,15,138,8,18,200,93,164,0.24,0.648,0.113,-0.978,2,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,2,0,2,6,8,2,2,8,0,15,11,4,0,0,21,30,19,0,1,8,1,0,1,0,0,6,1,0,0,8,8,1,1,2,0,0,4,4,5,0,1,4,2,20,3,11,26,1,10,0,0,1,1,8,1,1,1,6,85,28,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16804937351287902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.454816144260449,0.15774400298460978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1325572784560321,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23112986148782474,0.0,0.0,0.21358937867450936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19328730794002372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19241758208303272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19400401594184968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16125486838578665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17526171752741382,0.0990466303554172,0.0,0.2154829834547598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18716893186896286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1881268174737184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10418705820559368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09261818799588063,0.0,0.0,0.1677704794641797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16117235470005625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1405696137609489,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2105038274762243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19286888296155769,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15075995844419626,0.0,0.0,0.15106904483768996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1656994441721253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12594713568353913,0.12147386613021333,0.0,0.0,0.11054440042873938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19319608037643896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,stressedaboutdessert,2019/03/18,"I feel so stupid I'm really worried about my eating habits. I'm dieting (1200 cals/day) but seriously consider dropping below to lose weight faster. I think about self-harm/suicide at least 5 times a week. I took the screening in the stickied post and it said I'm at risk for disordered eating...but I'm definitely overweight. So of course I'm panicking, torn between letting things happen and fighting my way out. This is mostly a ramble but I'm so scared right now. I obsess over food - what I just ate, what I will eat next, what I'll have tomorrow. And if I deviate I freak out and get anxious.

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I told my bf about it and how I'm feeling and he said he was proud of my discipline (sticking to 1200) but I'm scared that I'm spiraling. I have OCD and it feels like my old rituals are better, but they're channeling into food instead.

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I'm sorry for the rambling. I'm super stressed about this.

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TL;DR: I'm really worried I'm developing disordered eating habits and I want it to stop, but I have to lose weight because I'm super unhealthy where I'm at (5 ft 7 in, 245 lbs). What do I do?",1.4913333333333334,3.9084710222222254,3.3386666666666684,87.15600000000002,83.22222222222223,6.4444444444444455,24.555555555555557,7.699297019823105,1.4800222222222228,880,35,175,16,25,294,123,225,0.251,0.634,0.114,-0.9853,0,0,0,0,2,1,47.0,0,0,0,6,12,16,2,5,5,0,10,10,0,1,0,27,37,18,0,2,7,0,5,1,1,1,1,2,0,0,12,11,10,2,4,1,0,1,0,11,0,0,6,8,18,5,23,29,2,24,1,2,1,0,7,12,0,2,9,92,30,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31814579759018985,0.3567901392988247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1105720145409805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05966429782214674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08656336336621681,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06312191940215252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22434873865283111,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3004547315633272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1484671310587451,0.06992263005908833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2367040822220137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05113616746676405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08655141873520246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10008483572319278,0.0,0.047817267026960014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21899640437081244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10409223057694876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.102704391759931,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09373814734974396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1254037367264744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08358556455559367,0.18620496837795372,0.0,0.19598189028854746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10210600827108476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1095641626667906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0818287140360649,0.11211662106217636,0.0,0.0,0.10706045211486727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06502446170214876,0.06271498524462549,0.0,0.0,0.05707227951675459,0.0,0.0,0.09352470717080118,0.1087438312637436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05772979746188075,0.07768940871682098,0.07851021903456018,0.23837318681732786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.198795646947406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3567901392988247,0.0
EDAnonymous,pleasegodnofuck,2019/03/18,"I have one month. Until my SO's best friend and his fiancee move to our state. The fiancee is gorgeous and thin and sweet and funny and weird andddddd :)

It's one of those things where I feel like no one gives a shit about me when she's in the room. She's just such an all around lovely person. I actually really like her and want to be friends, but I'm also incredibly bummed she's going to be around more often.

Once, my SO mentioned casually to her that she's, ""so fit,"" (physically - we're Americans) and even remembering that makes me want to die die die die die.",3.901239130434785,4.7911590695652215,4.9971195652173925,84.83915760869569,71.34782608695653,8.184782608695654,24.80978260869565,8.472884824447931,1.3299782608695656,443,12,96,7,8,146,76,115,0.225,0.584,0.191,-0.9299,0,0,0,0,0,1,17.0,1,0,0,1,13,11,1,0,4,0,4,2,1,1,1,18,12,14,5,2,2,0,2,2,4,0,0,0,1,1,5,9,0,0,2,1,0,2,1,2,0,3,0,3,15,9,11,10,3,13,0,0,0,1,16,7,1,1,5,64,20,0,0.0,0.0,0.13504779263898273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11066970827798732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24639126726886346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14523081596822204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7181301524923077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09140469124714133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06997368392999573,0.09886519623066027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2138381410936304,0.0,0.0,0.13275542888151312,0.07864971115939262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13521984181199495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12490156018565325,0.0,0.09237579469098467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11046085432698777,0.14708570556517686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14737986831860506,0.2813280944006755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12083601875146435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08865559711529679,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15676786588388247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14205441603571245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09193956463799256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1632509460700206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,tofu_snob,2019/03/18,"I feel out of place on this subreddit, but I know I belong here. Hey guys,

I guess this is my re-introduction. I was slightly active on the r/proed subreddit, but I mainly lurked. I feel out of place here. I have suffered with bulimia for the past 7 years, and it is a filthy bastard that is always lurking in the shadows of my success. The reason I have a hard time feeling like I belong is because I am a woman of science. I have my Bachelor's in Nutrition/Dietetics. I am currently in a Master's degree program coupled with a dietetic internship to become a dietitian. I have dedicated my career to evidence-based nutrition and science. My research thesis is about the motivators of intuitive eating. I believe in recovery, I do! I just don't believe in it for myself.

I read so many posts here that I just want to write a well-detailed response to. Incorrect assumptions about diets, nutrition, weight, metabolism. I just don't know what to do or what to say without coming across negatively. I feel like two people: this desperately depressed bulimic waste of space, and a young, bright dietitian-in-training that wants to help people develop positive relationships with themselves and with food.

I don't know what to do anymore. Its 3:30 am. I can't sleep normally anymore, my disorder is ruining me. ",5.1033788174139065,7.026384761316872,6.53945852285034,70.95738791423003,69.69958847736626,10.218670132120423,35.01169590643275,10.426177893888326,4.3130296296296295,1039,54,171,31,19,353,132,243,0.125,0.733,0.141,0.593,1,0,0,0,0,0,39.0,0,0,0,3,9,8,1,0,13,0,21,5,1,2,0,32,32,8,0,3,7,0,6,2,0,0,0,1,0,2,12,11,4,0,9,1,0,1,6,4,0,1,1,8,31,4,33,31,1,20,0,3,1,0,7,13,1,2,7,127,43,6,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1150052607176815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2741426327940276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08425407456739345,0.1526466907293193,0.0,0.3114400765319252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1190592682781756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15293134912758202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11904366123606812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15840541199279792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1414276000963638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2795409468784485,0.19748045990612229,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16712912178560194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15225848956126597,0.1368537573148038,0.0,0.0,0.12381274739822695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09264204405383836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2278766780156755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13504892301616953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14012747379857626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1354205399773571,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1319410635736685,0.1916406040012616,0.0,0.28880877844604763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13237096798083922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13825157172118896,0.0,0.0,0.14210718527360686,0.0,0.14839029230166256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10991345470263747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13831398562404273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08059379343522373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13501515981281478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16304459576857264,0.0,0.0,0.1683076227331332,0.12427113678913547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1332335267358773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08900539330913976
EDAnonymous,HisHollowHusband,2019/03/18,"I don't want to eat at another restaurant until my wedding over a year away. My wedding is over a year away but I've been engaged for a year as of last week and I'm suffering.
My college was shut down so I had a very limited time to finish my degree, I was transferred to another branch in a different state. I quit my job to focus on school and had a 6 hour bus twice a week to go to class. During this time I ate at restaurants more than I wanted to and gained weight. I never binged but completely stopped working out and overate.

My future husband was so supportive while I put our lives on hold to finish my degree and he's so proud of me. I want to look good in my suit, I want to be a good husband, I don't want to regret my wedding photos. So now I'm just looking at restaurant menus in New York City, day dreaming about finally getting married and getting to indulge for a week. I don't want to eat at another restaurant until I'm his husband. ",2.9072529313232813,4.07014749748744,4.467417085427137,86.66280067001676,74.02512562814071,7.1157118927973215,28.84455611390285,7.554174236665415,1.6753474706867673,748,31,156,9,15,251,105,199,0.084,0.78,0.136,0.9466,2,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,1,0,0,5,7,7,0,0,9,0,11,4,0,0,1,21,27,16,0,7,3,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,7,4,3,0,1,0,2,4,2,0,1,7,3,24,5,38,19,1,42,0,2,2,0,9,17,0,0,22,101,25,6,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3912339153521328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2336967588698929,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1303980950093549,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08020744847530137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12993870066976346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25452022191627965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13623970562049528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12995490492562534,0.0,0.07068153284838588,0.2086289366980376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12247800393874902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12341663008135036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10137699591090724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1098197389652622,0.0,0.20887657649978567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09592071972040328,0.12011595424287955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12502477861313185,0.0,0.1322812988252354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12586764759534233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1039777057955565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14113199625929718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14504064394949273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10261710743744074,0.4401348817592024,0.0,0.2992829309203977,0.1514474312618274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09054181099729897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24026787318761603
EDAnonymous,Lilac_Neptune,2019/03/18,"Short survey about the comorbidity between anorexia nervosa and OCD Hello everyone! 

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I have created a short survey: [https://www.surveymonkey.com/r/BHBF87Q](https://www.surveymonkey.com/r/BHBF87Q)

This aims to gather some information about the comorbidity between anorexia nervosa and OCD. You may participate even if you have never gotten a formal diagnosis of OCD. 

I am doing a research paper for a university psychology class and wanted some input for my paper. I need a quite specific subject, therefore I am only looking into anorexia nervosa and OCD, and not any other eating disorder. 

​

Thank you so much for your time, feel free to ask me any questions here or via PM. 

​

As a side note, I myself have an eating disorder and that's why I chose this subject. ",9.31714285714286,12.370225793650794,8.803365079365081,54.38885714285718,60.904761904761905,9.166984126984126,36.40952380952381,9.642632912329526,4.291958095238096,654,30,78,13,10,208,81,126,0.044,0.889,0.067,0.4003,0,0,0,0,0,0,42.0,0,4,0,1,5,2,0,0,9,0,7,2,0,1,1,20,14,10,0,3,3,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,7,2,0,3,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,1,2,13,3,12,12,3,6,0,0,1,0,9,4,0,6,2,61,17,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4245550130825685,0.4761246051499466,0.1776416421072013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12210483912099132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.299385949446052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2672979148884858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0862681711105151,0.0,0.0,0.1248056192387287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06604148710687499,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1096814094909188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09601504534243116,0.09684734166154838,0.10073623299095004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09933651534777993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14631563206331233,0.13892222428737605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12025022796540792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07616106376517136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07703849965120071,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1178572563358694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4761246051499466,0.0
EDAnonymous,primo2314,2019/03/19,"Is anyone else here scared that they think they're skinnier than they actually are? Before I developed an ED, I thought that I was already pretty skinny and was confident with my body. But now looking back at pictures from that time, I feel like I looked so fat and keeping wondering how tf I thought I looked good. 

And I remember even after I developed an ED, there would be times where I felt good about my body but seeing pictures again from then i'm just ??? How was I confident??? I looked massive?? 

Now I'm suuuper paranoid that I think I'm skinnier than I really am??? Maybe it's because my standards of what it means to be skinny now are completely skewed but idkkkk ",5.066991452991452,6.213005323076924,5.564871794871795,80.89235042735045,68.84615384615385,8.854700854700855,31.367521367521373,9.150863307647796,2.682957264957265,532,22,101,10,9,171,78,130,0.036000000000000004,0.8420000000000001,0.122,0.8645,0,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,2,0,14,4,0,1,2,0,10,5,5,2,0,22,27,10,0,1,4,0,2,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,7,4,3,1,9,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,6,7,19,3,10,18,0,11,0,0,5,0,2,2,0,1,10,68,26,0,0.0,0.0,0.1485682355812574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16800509976857364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10645258265534008,0.15599202505629653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1170662803340728,0.0,0.09280656245636104,0.0,0.1295484769513468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3382176468454805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15962499442648642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1271803718829303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1005557620533625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0769791683037046,0.10876318285075096,0.14617816723636162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2553901792448647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13532151070215218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0743787548134491,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5113866480520266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15294961559095674,0.16583840706610026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1548869360041847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09753143965139062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1724628353790993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1524228575990082,0.0,0.12131880021647848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19510368536993464,0.0,0.24172954666336946,0.1775494648168811,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16510218265104326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1081498081182188,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,hnr8,2019/03/19,"does anyone else feel like having add/adhd makes having an ED 1000% more obnoxious I’m mostly recovered, but like. Still have some slip ups and invasive thoughts and the like. And I feel like if I didn’t have ADD recovery would be way easier to manage. Like, my meds suppress my appetite, which makes me justify not eating. When I don’t take them/forget to take them, my appetite skyrockets, which makes me justify bingeing. does anyone else feel like this/have other ways their ADD impacts their ED ?",4.58991935483871,6.880511150537636,4.677083333333336,82.23562500000001,71.90322580645163,8.090860215053763,25.603494623655912,8.841846274778883,2.084936559139785,399,13,70,8,8,124,59,93,0.021,0.7609999999999999,0.217,0.9615,0,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,3,0,2,6,0,0,2,0,8,1,0,3,0,19,18,6,0,2,3,0,3,6,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,5,1,1,4,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,2,3,11,6,3,14,3,5,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,3,8,38,14,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18591731165057515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21633731689674413,0.31701340931511895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27075507511260105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15829499626127472,0.25846118270483365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2346603480023357,0.33154952047423764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4534666942527726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3097869786427879,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1718349532264996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12354227383163527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2326277601977053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12281318178332687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24558464295200064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10989324414488262,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,pillbugdeleted,2019/03/19,"Gave myself hepatitis from Bronkaid/Ephedrine abuse. Be careful with the ECs please So I'd been taking ephedrine/caffeine combo (25mg/200mg) 1 time a day for about a month straight when I noticed a ton of upper right abdomen pain. Initially I thought it was my gallbladder because of my rapid weight loss, but I had an ultrasound and it was clear of stones.

Turns out I gave myself acute drug-induced hepatitis from the ephedrine misuse. My liver is SO inflamed and swollen. The pain isn't from my liver itself, it's from it banging against my ribcage or other organs when I sit up and down or get in bed or sit on the toilet to pee. My back has a constant ache behind it, and the only sick upside to it is that my liver is so big that it stops me from being hungry because it's pressing against my stomach.

I am lucky because I QUIT the second we realized what it was. I don't have jaundice/yellow skin or failure. My liver is sloooowly hurting less, it used to hurt constantly dull and achy and sometimes a sharp stinging pain. Now it's slowly subsiding in severity but still very apparent.

Please be careful with the ephedrine use. This is only from using it once a day with caffeine in the morning. It isn't worth a swollen liver. It isn't worth potentially going into a coma and having 4 days to live while you get bumped to #1 in need for a liver transplant. I was almost there, I missed it by a couple more weeks of abuse, but if I ignored the pain or brushed it off as gall, I would probably end up there.

If you notice any symptoms with use like excessive burping, nausea, vomiting, pain in your right side or back, tingling in your right back, fullness/lack of appetite all of the time (formerly my goals but it isn't worth it when it's bc your liver), or pale/clay colored shit.. please stop the EC and meet up with your doctor.

For reference, I am 20, 5'4"", female, and 125 lbs. I have absolutely no other health conditions and no risk factors. I thought I was invincible because of that. I used to be 160 lbs and have been losing weight, now I must be bronkaid-free.",5.692413793103447,6.099476635467982,5.798772413793106,82.41346896551727,67.12807881773399,8.36792118226601,32.74246305418719,8.109356740369918,2.3411161773399005,1638,67,316,19,25,518,209,406,0.2,0.738,0.062,-0.9961,1,0,1,0,2,0,55.0,1,6,0,4,15,18,1,1,22,0,32,30,12,5,3,51,50,32,0,5,13,0,5,1,0,2,16,0,1,0,27,19,2,3,4,0,3,1,7,14,0,1,12,7,38,4,47,31,4,47,0,6,1,0,10,21,1,11,24,212,65,2,0.0,0.1985733044024596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08391135994890775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05698535569243439,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1933059328695621,0.0,0.2043293660178204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17087481832267148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18111123470762075,0.0,0.0,0.09272063627763703,0.0,0.16212788355923188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08577056621976388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09717880668660916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0742199498283751,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08756175016264567,0.0,0.04762420259493266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08907310867447712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.179414487280735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04093935658745352,0.0,0.07399496426630915,0.0,0.0,0.0937482675960124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06688657882819915,0.0,0.0,0.06213498307023733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1908086282320561,0.0,0.08924188790719456,0.0,0.12746395705853994,0.44583366592274604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27595435533732565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09034816683586216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0891292409898225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2146885076666383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09466762559503993,0.08601720450160474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08287813511652706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06692100565867153,0.1401173722925838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08709796639838803,0.06300549266953967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1330521347580524,0.0977263046454698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0911479082964598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3618718311583501,0.0,0.06914193449637747,0.0,0.0,0.06721751477353892,0.20408621200580312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059527530012049135,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,RaspberrySodaPop,2019/03/19,"Tips for that full feeling? I’m in recovery trying to get back to eating normal meals with a designated calorie goal everyday. But I can’t get past how full I feel. I feel gross, like I’m less able. Then I start to feel sick like I wanna puke.

If I eat small meals often I tend not to make my goal. And even the small meals sometimes make me feel gross :/

Any ideas of what I can tell myself? 
It’s hard enough to get the food down, but this feeling after word is making me really not want to eat.",1.1607692307692297,3.0644843076923074,2.648692307692308,94.59630769230768,80.92307692307693,5.6984615384615385,17.130769230769232,6.742157984588678,-0.2858315384615384,384,7,88,4,10,125,70,104,0.133,0.802,0.064,-0.715,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,2,4,4,0,0,3,0,3,8,0,4,0,23,20,6,0,4,5,0,7,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,4,2,7,0,7,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,0,7,12,2,13,20,4,12,0,0,0,0,1,6,0,2,8,50,16,2,0.16120875682898916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10962748272753596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12395958317879224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4948704121389557,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16657173962138178,0.0,0.10647686348955143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4890719474034561,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1949342686578592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25267476539124284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14441138149194102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18198506406260664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1575169112356125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3228242909695871,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15795035383242625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15389199954432428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10327445761078873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15943958260110885,0.0,0.11410438782047633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14090355903211935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10945016386616543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09508510155260408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Abowloforangess,2019/03/19,Someone took my picture I was standing in line for a coffee at Nordstrom and this girl sitting across from where I was standing at a table didn't even hide the fact she was taking my picture with her iPhone. I immediately turned around and a few seconds went by and I eventually got out of line and just went to my car and cried and never got my coffee that I allowed myself the calories for all day.,10.743333333333332,6.609077000000003,10.0025,70.84583333333336,60.25,11.666666666666668,41.66666666666667,7.793537801064563,3.4786666666666664,320,12,62,2,3,103,55,80,0.036000000000000004,0.944,0.021,-0.2691,1,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,5,0,4,0,0,1,3,14,11,6,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,9,0,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,0,1,9,0,12,0,13,2,2,16,0,0,0,0,3,7,0,0,2,49,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24555453900454266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3029953842604218,0.17789286287715342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18218857405812536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4412261213280556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2127434766305281,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23371686875316625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2073960485126872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3064664643749374,0.0,0.3000328258685553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5114096745824543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,peachbloompudding,2019/03/19,Im sitting at my desk crying because i feel so useless I want to order food because I'm stressed out and I want to treat myself but I'm almost having a panic attack at my work desk thinking about how disgusting I am. I feel so weak and pathetic right now :( someone walked into my office and I think they saw me crying too ugh ,2.106960784313728,3.8974000882352975,4.1005882352941185,85.84931372549022,77.52941176470588,5.7098039215686285,24.568627450980397,6.42735559955562,0.9012568627450984,258,9,50,2,6,88,47,68,0.452,0.499,0.049,-0.9907,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,1,1,6,8,2,2,1,0,2,2,0,1,0,14,11,7,0,2,1,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,5,1,0,4,0,0,1,0,7,0,0,1,3,12,1,7,10,0,9,0,1,1,0,1,5,0,1,1,31,12,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22412748354556408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2546322018697038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2728821618903502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4917204810726363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22634435875279255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27064896446765163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24176841345327105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26260933081969545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19114454029734154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18964541558712572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2563897259839323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2868348640838669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26403448145571856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16294659506091516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,demichka,2019/03/19,"Ate 500 cal/day for a month And since the girl who broke my heart to pieces still didn't write me I'll continue to do so.

Can't control this source of pain but it feels nice to hurt myself in a controlled way. 

Good thing that I'm overweight - everybody who knows just congratulates me. 

Ironically, this girl is ex-anorexic so she can't know ever.  Some part of me really wants her to know though because I guess that's one of only ways I can hurt her back. 

Fuck, I'm a mess. ",1.2181818181818151,3.3045674343434333,2.4548383838383856,95.09559090909092,81.72727272727272,5.9802020202020225,18.990909090909085,7.1686216300943375,0.09603757575757577,372,9,86,5,10,119,74,99,0.227,0.703,0.07,-0.9513,0,0,0,0,0,2,11.0,0,0,0,2,7,8,1,0,4,0,6,5,1,2,1,14,16,5,0,1,2,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,2,8,1,2,2,4,0,0,0,3,6,0,1,2,1,10,2,9,14,3,8,0,3,0,1,8,1,1,2,5,50,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14291248290208036,0.0,0.11329664043647945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4169086314350261,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11986232415713692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16811820545708592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09397483239943318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1718217080663047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15588794877797058,0.0,0.0,0.20474232770102915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22024131992340606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39792730826107375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3064262729792405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1483492034299917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12594144462940626,0.14135254655674678,0.19776484419032175,0.0,0.0,0.20126490975893807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1190646884979891,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15374274726512782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1484255594488922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12347506508841218,0.0,0.18260345940684355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10962321428815494,0.2950491106540827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,polamartinez,2019/03/19,How do you respond to people complimenting your weight loss? How do you usually answer to people bringing up you’ve lost weight? For me it’s usually very awkward and I’m afraid I might be hinting them about my ED with my clear discomfort towards the question. I’m just wondering what a normal person would say.,4.5872881355932185,6.805739254237295,5.212000000000003,78.71223728813561,71.71186440677965,8.109830508474579,30.444067796610174,8.841846274778883,2.7727057627118645,252,11,43,5,5,81,47,59,0.154,0.7509999999999999,0.094,-0.4124,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,3,1,2,4,6,0,3,2,0,5,2,0,2,1,12,10,3,0,2,1,0,2,0,0,2,0,1,0,1,2,2,2,0,3,0,0,1,0,5,0,0,1,3,8,1,7,6,0,5,0,2,0,0,8,2,0,3,2,28,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23824376661774416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2315269235944155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2138369648232042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3026117389826343,0.19056596999379352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24448800939789525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17355978310804726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4807392681624115,0.18007767847873074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5315351896821543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23668093754875585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15503730823013642,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,CuteProtection6,2019/03/19,"confession: this one tiny celebrity triggers the F out of me because i know my ex found her so perfect i don't want to say who it is, but she's 47kg / 104lbs and 5'3"" tall, absolutely tiny, the definition of petite, cute from all angles, could fit in your back pocket, basically looks like a child but is legal. 

and it fucking *twists* me. because i hate her, i hate how small she is and how big i am, i hate how i know LOTS of men (and women) find her attractive, gorgeous, perfection et fucking cetera.

looking at her makes me want to never eat again until i weigh LESS than her, and i'm 5'9. 

it makes me feel equally twisted inside because i've always had this ingrained perception inside myself that tall =/= beautiful. like, i can't be perfect and tiny and cute even if i'm underweight because i'm SO TALL. and that's not even my height complex talking. 

idk today is just a self-loathing/venting day, sorry y'all ",2.768422131147542,4.6819093224043735,4.023630464480873,86.58659323770495,75.99453551912569,6.542213114754097,26.73804644808743,7.413659706084162,1.4182243169398905,718,28,143,9,16,235,116,183,0.101,0.665,0.233,0.9856,0,0,0,0,0,0,32.0,0,2,0,3,10,14,5,0,4,0,10,4,0,6,5,37,28,17,0,4,5,1,1,2,0,0,0,1,0,3,8,9,2,0,8,0,0,0,4,5,0,1,2,4,25,9,11,24,5,16,1,0,2,2,17,10,2,2,8,87,33,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1315439898492803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.121561863401854,0.0,0.38548209222744667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12622242859957114,0.0,0.0,0.10195531685081738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16176608509373944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2088346153327364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07993532480419682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14449188533453572,0.0,0.0,0.17333811221330644,0.0,0.29230430514233713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4682450224673254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1737648476989662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15447010030267233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26551246729045913,0.0,0.0,0.13440291985437505,0.0,0.0,0.2110533199897544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12192916689855365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10712623822484284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12571993906605838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16492290672161694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17696941135484862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1270671840182652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14985134254968527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1864917875662333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,tired_and_alonex,2019/03/19,"My boyfriends mum She's had 3 kids. During her first pregnancy, she developed asthma. She's gained so much weight. She used to be 8 stone and now she's pretty much obese. I'm terrified I'll end up like that. 

I'm not having kids, reducing the fear but it's still their and it affects me all the damn time. When I was 16 I tries on one of her old cocktail dresses and it fit like a dream. It won't fit either of us now and it makes me feel so bad ",-1.0315855572998416,1.0338266734693882,1.0765306122448983,100.77121664050236,93.48979591836736,4.648037676609107,15.701726844583987,6.297961479604792,-0.6355896389324958,346,8,86,4,13,114,69,98,0.135,0.696,0.168,0.1313,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,1,0,1,2,6,5,1,1,3,0,5,3,0,3,1,12,10,8,0,0,3,1,2,2,0,1,2,0,0,2,6,4,3,0,1,2,0,0,2,3,0,2,2,2,14,2,5,6,4,12,0,0,0,0,12,4,1,0,10,51,20,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2155948462183445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2286977179866921,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2905584162442044,0.1305589049070818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21963358102689096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25229705622394794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17235740520453569,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3796286160008848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.270948313374875,0.0,0.17497000711150332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26269274135748805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20620710893638386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15056452417020258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17530786967602185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3105952432088403,0.22301082709150646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3144306285992087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,sunaflare,2019/03/19,"Mum just called me too fat after she handed me a huge slice of cake My mum handed me a huge ass slice of cake that my binging ass wanted so I took it and ate it. After I had one big meal for dinner (and I mean massive). That's all I ate but she then told me you might get too big to fit in your gown. 

The gown I just fitted for this week and felt perfect and happy in. I felt like a princess. Now I just feel like a whale.",-0.7651578947368414,0.9524525368421096,1.2813157894736875,102.7967105263158,86.78947368421049,3.8,13.710526315789473,3.1291,-1.631863157894737,321,4,84,0,10,106,58,95,0.044,0.728,0.228,0.962,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,2,0,1,7,4,0,0,5,0,2,9,5,0,2,16,12,7,0,1,4,2,5,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,5,4,5,0,4,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,7,5,17,4,9,4,1,14,0,0,0,2,8,8,2,1,7,53,22,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2752023207254044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13627358076744991,0.19253973132395424,0.5175483892143707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14080911911733446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2869009895444807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2633403159531181,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.293578042705092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2859100937930258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1826285952150124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25753067319693923,0.29943822246052965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15896541196038844,0.0,0.21618661177825987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,squegley,2019/03/19,"Cold hands and blue nails Noticed lately my hands are incredibly cold and my nails sometimes turn a pastel-like shade of blue/purple. I’m guessing it’s because I’m restricting for so long, but I’m getting comments on it now. Anyone have tips on reducing this or minimizing the appearance?",5.8172222222222185,7.5957860925925935,6.282407407407407,74.06583333333336,67.7037037037037,9.103703703703703,33.87037037037037,9.516144504307137,3.454237037037037,235,11,39,5,4,76,42,54,0.038,0.962,0.0,-0.2023,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,0,2,2,2,0,0,7,9,5,0,0,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,5,2,0,4,9,0,6,0,0,1,0,1,2,0,3,3,19,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2494020172086423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2174314921203576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1863528709708184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3929280660108274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4023555254099525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3156544589160842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4060875394906889,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3527699798367201,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3879701893230623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,TheRainWillStop,2019/03/19,"Struggling not to get food right now I'm super hungry at the moment and my pantry is empty and I feel a huge urge to go out and buy food to eat or groceries and tasty snacks but I keep thinking to myself that I can't because if I buy food I'm just going to end up eating it all and have all the calories of my likely giant purchase eventually inside of me.

But then I realised how FUCKED it is bexause I'm basically saying I shouldn't go buy food because I might eat it which is the ENTIRE point of food so that I can consume it and receive sustenance.  

But then I again think about how I'll probably just buy an excess of food, the majority of which will be unhealthy shit like I'm shopping for a birthday party for a classroom of junk food craving kids or something ): 

Guess I'll just keep looking at food and supermarket catalogues online until I want to die from hunger 🙃",5.8863687150837976,5.474409396648049,6.618932960893854,79.48996368715086,66.76536312849163,8.724245810055866,31.866480446927373,7.908726449838941,2.1650308379888257,698,25,138,7,10,231,106,179,0.16699999999999998,0.768,0.065,-0.9726,0,0,1,0,0,1,5.0,0,0,0,1,9,6,2,1,8,0,10,15,1,2,2,31,27,19,1,3,10,0,1,2,0,3,0,1,0,1,8,8,13,2,3,1,6,4,3,3,0,0,0,3,14,3,21,23,3,19,0,0,1,1,3,8,2,5,9,87,22,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1086361825587573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09247779096977983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2735325501194479,0.0,0.0,0.07892132370590295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04505458859654902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8619770558710501,0.0,0.0,0.08237691061772406,0.04655412220583045,0.0,0.15192270210050354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09816012550744734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15840272445904205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08706522224876438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0748264613318882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09452721194306787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08423381766359757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09607116331358627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07609589806458524,0.0,0.07086053815230238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0914658613546064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06859802675946193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09315276794613833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.114190845026185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052556931406817234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,stuckoutofphase,2019/03/19,"Baby Steps I broke up with my boyfriend tonight. We were together for almost 6 years. I promised him I would make an effort to recover during this time. I could have easily gone to bed on an empty stomach. The sadness completely suppressed my appetite. But instead I ate a 1000 calorie dinner. It’s not exactly maintenance or anything, but it’s a start. ",3.4088311688311705,6.184150878787882,4.356839826839828,80.61954545454547,78.0909090909091,7.40779220779221,32.15584415584416,8.418075326091056,3.0796389610389614,282,15,47,6,7,91,55,66,0.08800000000000001,0.856,0.056,-0.2357,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,1,0,0,1,1,3,0,0,5,0,4,3,1,1,1,12,8,3,0,2,4,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,3,2,2,1,0,0,0,2,1,2,0,0,3,0,9,1,6,3,0,8,0,2,0,0,2,2,0,2,4,32,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4222995256159805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3470460889007517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4421736294279512,0.0,0.0,0.3367153737535513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2815066161804126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2985011444789872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.245912902121436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29958336631042304,0.0,0.0,0.2715789099901628
EDAnonymous,bellexy,2019/03/19,"kind of pica, kind of look at me chic sometimes I'm like

look at this

and I'll just eat a whole slice of lime, rind and all. 

i almost ate a Very Tiny Grease Insert today. it was small. I could have if no one was watching but we really needed to match that size. 

I ate a whole raw chicken thigh the other day. i put mustard on the last of it. it was stringy but flavorless. it was okay.

i'm so desperate to get sick.

not because I want the attention

just because I want the pain and excuse


i'm waxing poetic and i'm sorry for it

i just had to get it off my chest somewhere

felt existential might delete later",-0.7652631578947364,1.4008332325581383,1.6020807833537347,95.66926560587515,96.51937984496124,4.5762545899632805,16.091799265605875,6.339386263674448,-0.3202651162790695,473,12,106,6,19,159,83,129,0.141,0.804,0.055,-0.898,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,1,0,0,0,4,5,0,0,7,1,8,7,2,0,1,21,22,8,0,5,7,0,1,1,0,1,2,0,0,0,9,5,3,0,2,0,0,1,2,1,0,1,8,5,10,4,12,12,3,10,0,0,3,0,2,5,0,3,5,63,19,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18423829761065014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22431584096544416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14690015848159066,0.0,0.0,0.11865761394070302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18826656879344456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17665818906841935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19225320380455704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3831922348681567,0.0,0.14997550317248715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08988767870691593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30900866000243576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19518313826666006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1364254316685771,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12467563449194732,0.0,0.195777152645686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18495965394369965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1178679951445213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18196971819204968,0.2059605005453793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.174399955803914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15181010429190986,0.21704283028735746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4108340532828601,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,unicorn_pianos,2019/03/20,"Really triggered myself tonight. TW: I’ve been in recovery for almost a year in April from AN. I’m doing amazing and I’m really healthy and happy and I have built back a great relationship with food and my diet is balanced. I feel normal most of the time. I haven’t worked out (besides yoga) since I was really sick and was doing it obsessively. I’ve recently been trying to ease back into exercise in moderation because I want to get stronger. I’ve been doing yoga 3x maximum per week, the past few weeks. Tonight my friend was teaching a class at a gym and it’s bring your friends and family week, so I went and took a cardio CrossFit class where all of the workouts were in one minute increments. I didn’t push myself and took breaks when I didn’t feel well, but from the start of the class, it sent me into an anorexic OCD rabbit hole and my ruminating thoughts consumed me the entire time. It brought everything back and I couldn’t enjoy myself. When I got home I couldn’t stop crying, now I feel numb. I just want to get stronger but I can’t because my ED gets in the way. I don’t want it to win so I’m thinking of going back tomorrow so I can get more comfortable with working out, but I also don’t want to think and feel what I did tonight. I’m angry and discouraged. I just want to be ready. I just want to be normal. Thanks for the rant. Hope you are all hanging in there",2.198396072013093,4.198374404255322,3.6201418439716337,88.42615384615387,78.00709219858156,6.749809056192036,23.61211129296236,7.748469712250963,1.128476923076923,1090,36,227,17,26,358,145,282,0.085,0.7240000000000001,0.192,0.9755,0,0,0,0,0,0,26.0,0,2,0,3,18,14,0,1,15,0,25,6,0,1,2,50,57,22,0,11,6,0,4,0,2,0,4,0,1,0,6,19,2,2,7,5,0,9,8,3,1,1,17,4,31,11,28,36,5,45,0,1,0,0,6,12,0,3,22,144,37,6,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11262854233802885,0.0,0.0,0.08994707682923496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3459486368734516,0.0,0.1371287431490391,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12354968731379715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10108624403473246,0.0,0.1060324337354363,0.0,0.22748513292061576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1360065167870925,0.0,0.17379747362897233,0.0,0.23505642838800894,0.0,0.06392274563949615,0.0,0.08995739235074794,0.12400527016028218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11973287370528175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11282267432512368,0.1117141215286082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22040534584241744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0762166995679251,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10737114086472103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2161651619711758,0.0,0.1110565552035708,0.12075721194094312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09304137183382516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07961114505128264,0.0,0.0,0.09403503534657016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10355285855456407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14414025501216554,0.0,0.08929344013663243,0.1311714081025887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24993011651388625,0.0763638720462273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3980478204131889,0.08927827329072513,0.2706645696055299,0.0,0.10112949958263162,0.10426644870868146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16376784489194476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07243090485912045
EDAnonymous,800goat,2019/03/20,"I think I'm an inch taller than I thought I was (I am so terrible with numbers just as a pre-warning)

Since I was like, 13, I've always been 5'6. I've always had in my head that I was 5'6. I went to the doctor the other day and they got my height and I never got a good look but she told me I was ""about 172"" without any other context and I didn't ask question bc I thought I'd figure it out later

So I googled it furiously. I am not 172 inches because that is 14 feet tall. I am not 14 feet tall. I used the  google inches to centimeters calculator and it said 172 cm was 5.64 feet so I thought that meant I was 5'6.4. I was wrong. I THINK. 

When I plug 172 cm and translate it to feet, it says that it is 5 foot 7.7 inches???

Can someone please help me?? I've always thought I was a bit taller than 5'6 but I'm so confused??? I don't understand all the numbers please tell me how tall I am ",-0.4465476190476174,1.3986141071428584,1.896938775510204,98.08615646258505,86.5,4.753741496598639,19.537414965986393,5.916634753146586,-0.31691564625850344,679,20,169,5,21,230,100,196,0.097,0.841,0.062,-0.8096,0,0,0,0,0,0,27.0,0,0,1,0,8,6,1,1,8,0,19,7,6,2,2,28,37,14,0,0,6,0,0,1,0,0,1,2,0,0,12,7,0,0,10,0,0,1,6,4,0,0,21,3,30,2,11,16,2,17,0,0,1,0,9,12,0,2,5,98,42,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3757704794806487,0.0,0.0,0.1023686738842896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1407295080972874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0917644804559802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16434476912542914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09708234825102938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15407851746352388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12626126047381878,0.2407925044064402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15449190443422267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10090015331164187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07354359014889986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1264111309280667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11610154534778802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3304835200227477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16863317682938414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14319285406207058,0.1197111370304316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12452375703557902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12754745793317054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13157385470159808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19291295625174776,0.0,0.4780305545926042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14384223860153467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15671180273828733,0.0,0.13001354127435236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13954706030293412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14510995964303502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16458592778951528,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,GailaMonster,2019/03/20,"THIS is why I bake my quest bars I buy the ""quest"" style bars from Costco (they are way cheaper than the brand name bars, and come in a pretty decent variety of flavors). I always tell people to bake them, but I thought I would share the visual evidence of WHY:

[they puff up and you get a larger volume of food for the same cals!](https://imgur.com/a/nNOsRzF) The macros are the same, the texture is WAY better (they are softer, and the puffiness gives them a more authentic ""cookie"" texture), and they are WAY bigger than unbaked.

Just thought I would show people who haven't tried it so they know it's worth it. the only flavor I don't think get improved by cooking is the ""cookies n cream"" one. the chocolate chip cookie, the brownie, the cinnamon bun, the chocolate pb, they're all way better baked.",6.536154970760236,6.8177526447368475,5.9795614035087725,82.27304093567255,65.31578947368422,8.071345029239767,30.046783625730995,7.3871296695380915,1.7748748538011687,630,20,117,5,9,193,93,152,0.023,0.8740000000000001,0.103,0.8981,0,0,0,0,0,0,36.0,0,1,7,2,2,3,0,0,17,0,11,8,0,0,1,17,19,6,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,3,0,5,5,8,0,4,5,2,1,2,0,0,1,2,3,16,3,11,15,4,8,0,0,1,0,13,3,0,0,0,72,21,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14744470369473986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3134382306362352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15264222196306187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21427110104930647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18515950893095748,0.1699865117252807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09738455748107992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12007539433076185,0.1347686841087394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2456965176768015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18027623720805933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1548807243767343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11354268852915594,0.0,0.281354220173255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12030725681584654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5626128620801512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3197911119278353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2517557770243367,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,anonymoushelp89,2019/03/20,"Recovery + Group Chat(?) I’ve been attempting recovery, and I look like shit. Not to mention that my hair used to be *super* thick, and it’s been getting a LOT thinner, to the point where I was literally crying in front of the mirror just a few seconds ago. Seems really pathetic now that I actually write it down. 

Not sure if anyone would be interested, but I really want to form some sort of recovery chat where we all support each other/get through these shitty times. Age doesn’t really matter, but it’d be nice to relate to fellow teens out there going through similar shit (I’m 15 lol). 

ugh. I hate this, but I’m going to get through it. It’s either I start now or wait even longer for it to get worse and start then, and that’s not happening. ",3.220400000000001,4.802831506666667,4.703666666666667,83.60350000000003,73.93333333333334,8.466666666666667,24.5,9.075114841892004,1.8324,586,18,120,13,12,196,98,150,0.191,0.721,0.08800000000000001,-0.9623,0,0,0,0,0,0,24.0,1,0,0,2,7,10,3,0,4,1,9,3,3,1,2,29,26,10,0,3,10,0,2,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,11,7,0,1,1,2,0,3,4,4,0,1,3,3,8,6,17,18,7,18,0,0,1,0,7,7,2,6,9,76,19,0,0.0,0.0,0.1789423939780066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1625461916652748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12821637082086534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20142302553082927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12111396975075517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3832124387019491,0.0,0.20842647370273185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16215323659222106,0.0,0.0,0.18103963399200407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08958518215787993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15398438080118487,0.0,0.0,0.15589437741171489,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17334365443152885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35241401160335983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16693290495113555,0.0,0.0,0.3764527621496352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2595800612829608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20808578366608108,0.1728237897125057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10692435755040576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15837256182996026,0.0,0.0,0.1081562109905656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1868694089921246,0.13026058697689447,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,sintos-compa,2019/03/20,"I'm not looking forward to going home from work Normally, I'm excited about the prospect of going home. But today I'm restricting because I binged yesterday, and I just want to stay at work until tomorrow. The fear of triggering and bingeing again, the excuses and lies I'll have to come up with to deflect drama and questions, the disappointment of not eating and the persistent cravings. Maybe I'll go home, say i need a workout and go walking until 10pm, without my wallet, then head right to bed.",7.9511578947368395,7.4611312736842095,8.215789473684211,70.0005263157895,62.57894736842106,11.389473684210527,40.05263157894737,10.793553405168565,4.524852631578948,401,20,68,9,5,132,63,95,0.124,0.8140000000000001,0.062,-0.7906,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,3,3,3,0,1,6,0,1,2,1,1,0,19,12,10,0,3,5,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,0,8,1,1,1,2,0,7,3,2,0,0,0,2,4,1,16,12,0,18,0,1,1,0,3,4,0,1,8,39,4,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11133977282761537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1573340156090718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1868932386609813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20552838972443327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4152094631412839,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18744827473483547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5496287929443328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15337728204285453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18349322508282406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13543026212070944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17895505036034245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20460617775076326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1559793395546062,0.0,0.1452480386275121,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1946771498262046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17312777712694158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10772979435625213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17606496393155407,0.0,0.2659380408222614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Manicrose,2019/03/20,"Anyone else here into fitness/strength training and therefore has two conflicting goals? So sometimes I just want to eat as little as possible and lose weight and be a stick and weak and ill. Fuck muscle, fuck my butt, I’m fine being just bones....

BUT THEN I go to the gym and I feel proud of my strength and get pumped like “damn I love lifting and I better eat more so I can make gains or at least not lose my ability to hip thrust 225 lbs” 

I also know that I have to eat a certain amount of protein and keep my calorie deficit in check to keep as much muscle as possible (aka avoid getting skinnyfat)

I’m telling myself I’m on a cut now but I’m actually relapsing a little but, just trying to slow it down so I don’t lose too much muscle. 

Aaaaaaargh ",1.1748013750954909,3.497950422077924,2.5013827349121454,93.26367074102372,83.74025974025976,5.441711229946525,22.695187165775398,6.794906146795322,0.6123625668449201,591,21,126,7,17,190,98,154,0.166,0.728,0.106,-0.8057,0,1,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,8,10,16,4,1,5,0,6,12,3,2,1,28,22,22,0,1,8,0,2,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,10,4,4,2,1,1,1,2,9,0,1,0,2,14,7,17,20,5,11,0,3,0,4,2,7,4,1,4,74,16,1,0.0,0.0,0.13585041768099093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11132744786424706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09733997149773356,0.14263871194196848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12312132698430298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4273445925649701,0.11629340937868335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0703895561920024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2573977194986077,0.1454646065163559,0.0,0.07911714736467731,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2474752921199695,0.0,0.0,0.07650704204468901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06801174469405755,0.27905314477800564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4672264373009858,0.0,0.0,0.12564388346270888,0.0,0.09292480867074368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2046730540295527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31388027238072497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13768380932474866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12167705433281699,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09451552272319368,0.0,0.1359894825361487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08211059498660564,0.0,0.0,0.1695221970192101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Contessa_,2019/03/20,"I am a liar I started purging two weeks ago and last week I managed to open up to my sister about it(and some other mental stuff) and I told her that I would stop doing it because of knowing the side effects and dangers that come with it. She reacted very well and I am really thankful for her. 

The truth is I couldn't stop and I'm feeling ashamed because she asked me yesterday if I was okay and I lied straight to her face saying yes while not having stopped. 
I feel so bad about it but she would tell me what I already know: That I should stop. 
I hate lying to her because she is the person I trust the most but I just can't tell her the truth and disappoint her.
I am a liar. ",2.592517482517483,3.7979418181818185,3.590489510489512,92.47496503496508,74.87412587412587,6.318881118881119,25.58741258741259,6.574015621080383,0.7512573426573423,532,18,119,4,11,171,86,143,0.221,0.6459999999999999,0.133,-0.9483,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,1,5,13,4,1,7,2,13,1,1,2,2,33,24,12,0,5,5,1,2,0,0,3,0,1,0,1,9,10,0,4,5,0,0,1,3,7,1,1,2,3,29,6,10,18,2,16,0,1,0,0,17,4,0,3,11,86,38,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14158308039023315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1762561585843317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14931762793462333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1333604113969626,0.2920934223873161,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13758554830280972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16151953142991085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1576914770546677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17555703218868554,0.1301939794870454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1609612590909083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13946226661524888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10232139927795972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12701659559829903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11305138652528195,0.0,0.0,0.5341358233717493,0.0,0.0,0.18284239782358988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27920648836029155,0.14704969047623642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15262031506526144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1560242647270052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13178659971805953,0.0,0.0,0.2562371960815542,0.0,0.14360841235306698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2269225131476097,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,bees1280,2019/03/20,"i cant eat in front of people i had to eat breakfast in the bathroom today because i was that scared of someone coming out to the kitchen while i was eating. 

i feel so disgusting. ive been especially trying to not eat around my boyfriend because i feel like he thinks I'm gross. i dont even want him to know what I'm eating. 

ive actually been eating a little more now that i always do it completely alone. but im still losing weight cus ive been throwing up a few times a day for a few weeks now. its completely involuntary idk whats going on but i dont care about myself enough to go get it checked out",3.225736434108529,3.9679022713178287,4.81860465116279,86.0448062015504,72.7984496124031,7.593798449612403,25.96124031007752,7.793537801064563,1.2680449612403095,479,15,105,6,9,162,81,129,0.156,0.8290000000000001,0.015,-0.9267,0,1,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,1,7,6,1,1,6,0,13,9,0,0,0,12,25,4,0,1,3,0,3,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,7,4,9,0,4,0,1,5,4,4,0,0,6,3,15,2,16,19,4,21,0,1,0,0,2,8,0,0,9,67,22,0,0.0,0.0,0.11600333681817887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1231170409983587,0.0,0.0,0.09891223086795403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10582257068967964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14492830020417596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12119940197456658,0.0,0.0,0.10239894903425066,0.2492730955659494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07666353932337126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27863758971496305,0.0,0.0,0.7298232799718256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12282804788797358,0.0,0.07851479078853943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12021197335730445,0.08492321446970541,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.062106469869182675,0.0,0.13511703902729158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12840372181939266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06532973780112633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05807556179814905,0.11914242332279774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13298898082609767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08241188076247981,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11901305834096935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1007210860986975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09493248853147654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07616930510040919,0.0,0.0,0.06931606304826571,0.0,0.11267812848865345,0.0,0.0,0.08070726762689258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0701146390947394,0.0,0.09535310905069284,0.14475583406122114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,pudseybear20,2019/03/20,Guys don’t drink too much caffeine! I’m sensitive to caffeine and can usually only tolerate one coffee a day. I’ve tried to up my dose a bit hoping I’ll adjust. Anyway I’ve got many assignments coming up so I’ve drank 2 monster ultras and a coffee & a modafinil (I’m prescribed it for tiredness). I currently really need to poop but I’m at uni and I’m shaking too ahhhh. Don’t want to fart in case it’s a shart. Think drinking it all on an empty stomach hasn’t helped either. :(,0.17540746382330494,2.513143920792082,2.9786138613861404,87.54527037319119,89.990099009901,5.879969535415079,21.63061690784463,7.321109707123232,1.1023322162985534,380,14,76,7,13,133,70,101,0.094,0.8690000000000001,0.037000000000000005,-0.722,1,0,2,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,1,6,0,4,6,2,0,1,12,15,5,0,3,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,3,4,3,0,2,2,0,2,3,1,0,1,2,0,2,1,10,13,4,10,0,0,0,0,2,5,0,1,3,37,5,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2674144246851797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26944845833117065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21260169561510453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15916958724402835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4835522500594927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.197393471770614,0.0,0.0,0.2443769500451288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1654289996565151,0.0,0.0,0.2451342543184881,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2502227584855685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1814309617376312,0.1830036769416868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16724227483107454,0.1877072437026496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1581103775254579,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1581434533351969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1675652153441553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27182217104889544,0.0,0.1455726967861431,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,sispad,2019/03/20,"Tell Me Your Story Hi everyone.

I'm doing a film project, a series of five 2-5 min shorts, on eating disorder recovery. I’m exploring the process of recovery through the five stages of grief (Denial, Anger, Bargaining, Depression, Acceptance), and I’m looking to hear other people's thoughts.

One of the reason I’m looking for help and not just mining my own experience is because eating disorder-related media is overwhelmingly about young, white, middle class females with anorexia (hello, hi, it me). I don’t want to just add to that pile. Not that those stories aren't important or don't exist or don't deserve representation- but it's not the only thing out there and mainstream culture is currently pretending it is, which is helping no one. 

So, I’m looking to collect stories/contributions tied to disordered eating of any kind: any disorder, diagnosed or not, of any length, **at any stage of recovery**, from any people of any age, gender, race, background, socio-economic status, etcetera (including the “white female with anorexia” descriptor above).

I’m interested in gathering stories through any means that someone is willing to provide it: a simple story, a journal entry, a poem, a slam poem, a speech, a stream of consciousness, an essay, a soundbite, a monologue, or whatever else. 

Here's an anonymous form, if you'd like to go that route and not have it out there on the interwebz:

([https://goo.gl/forms/rnXsGsgvEXWUPw7P2](https://goo.gl/forms/rnXsGsgvEXWUPw7P2?fbclid=IwAR3F_INXmeyHnquwTcpdylnAZgQYmRsGNOQwesWxKL7JZgimmZx1pRUcnGQ))

I know this stuff is hard to talk about and hard to live, and I’d be forever grateful if anyone would be willing to trust me with their experiences in order to make something constructive and positive and recovery-focused. <3

(Also I am totally open to crediting or not crediting people for their contribution, depending on comfort.)  
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EDAnonymous,Ardental,2019/03/20,"DAE feel like exercise hinders them? For the past 6 weeks I've been training for a 5k as some of my friends have entered a 10k challenge (for context, I'm not entering, it's just inspired me to take up running). I've been running every other day. In that time I have lost 0 pounds, just fluctuations.  In the past week, I've stopped running and lost 2 pounds! My net calories have worked out the same too. Is it really the muscle Vs fat thing? ",3.237929373996792,4.7308531460674175,4.0854253611557,88.41764044943821,73.71910112359551,6.8834670947030485,29.56821829855538,7.447530270364453,1.6610532905296944,346,15,72,4,7,111,65,89,0.07400000000000001,0.805,0.122,0.643,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,1,4,3,6,0,0,6,0,6,2,1,0,0,11,11,2,0,0,4,0,1,1,1,0,2,0,0,0,5,2,1,1,2,1,0,5,1,2,0,0,4,1,5,4,10,7,2,16,0,2,0,0,2,4,0,1,8,39,10,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1578194494810824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2061810074636062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1237340959191842,0.1748228046091132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18906442804790688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11955426624158387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5342656478460758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4672119315100486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1567692243874311,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20459077802498346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1839934985105452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1625762468225403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1426939456099225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3925875405572966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17815376300137625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Vedofox,2019/03/20,"going to the movie theater sucks with an ED a bit ago I went to see Captain Marvel with my boyfriend and decided since the movie was closeish to my dinner time I would save up my calories to splurge on some disgustingly caloric movie food/dinner (ended up going with a tube of Pringles, yeehaw). however once we arrived and sat down I realized JUST HOW uncomfortable I was to even open my food.. bright ass theater with no sounds at all, you could literally hear a pin drop (and definitely the sound of a pringles tube top getting torn off). better still, the six or so people in the theater with us were all seated really close behind, close enough to hear the cronch of my chippies of choice.

so instead I just handed them off to my BF to open and started chowing down like a slob during the loud actiony bits. but I was screaming inside the whole time lmao.

hopefully I am not alone in this but damn, I forgot how shit the cinema can make me feel. big yikes.",5.009114345114341,6.243370427027028,5.140540540540542,83.5540124740125,69.05405405405406,7.854469854469856,28.825363825363823,8.139509932561175,1.8626008316008318,759,27,146,10,13,238,120,185,0.124,0.7559999999999999,0.12,-0.212,1,1,0,0,0,0,19.0,2,1,1,2,9,10,4,0,15,0,8,6,3,3,2,34,22,11,0,3,6,0,2,1,1,1,0,6,0,0,1,14,3,1,3,1,0,3,2,5,0,1,7,10,19,5,28,13,7,26,0,0,2,1,8,16,4,3,7,95,20,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1483394571426415,0.0,0.0,0.17331686193037235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14800126909208286,0.3653903910085112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1336097547526373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14821621252043338,0.17291003458457774,0.0,0.11052846173236704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08461364007693821,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4047035975245727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0874298015612921,0.0,0.1902097468200687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3772154069278135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16620934034984328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08175532845881822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11170274029910712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17821481494346927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11601455366136874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1072041996906225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13335069113222772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.171775166815719,0.1384278444492301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11844622436636933,0.0,0.1336403220390581,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19515807773602045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20129300362304425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15512862137176414,0.0,0.18683246386706176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11887565350669695,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,-PM-ME-NICE-STUFF-,2019/03/20,"Insta accounts that post clean eating? Howdy y'all 🤠

I can't tell if I am imagining things but nearly every 'healthy' account I come across will randomly post things like freakshakes, burgers and pasta with captions like 'love yourself!' and how true health includes these things in moderation. These posts often comes with zero warning!

Honestly, seeing these things make me hate myself more. It brings out my inner binge monster and, as crazy as it sounds, I'm suddenly confronted with the desire to binge my heart out. I can't have a little here and there, I need to go cold turkey! It's the only thing that works.

So, who would you recommend? Anyone I can follow who won't make me want to jam my head into the dark depths of the fridge where I'll find the cheese?

Note: I struggle with BED specifically",2.789742457689478,5.671337072847685,3.0763686534216355,87.94809234731424,82.24503311258277,5.7396615158204565,20.97167034584253,7.1686216300943375,0.8008672553348051,642,19,116,9,18,197,110,151,0.105,0.7170000000000001,0.17800000000000002,0.9364,0,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,2,0,1,6,8,2,1,6,0,8,6,2,3,1,27,21,10,0,5,2,0,0,2,0,3,1,1,2,0,15,13,2,0,2,0,2,5,3,3,0,1,0,3,15,5,16,18,1,19,0,0,1,1,6,10,0,3,3,74,30,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11085878307288564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2731460241106985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16223174904612125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13358152190206965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14490782333769,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09010512888069322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1565309748187641,0.16271354535769564,0.16852657891581654,0.0,0.18787732171093488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1549147618483237,0.15890436152157578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1430936110511567,0.0,0.21166086342565307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11755956745697067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12058108747866927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.455528630419257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12634033125721136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16574630477202945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1385758590605664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5266533213422878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0935143137762027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11542309879587308,0.0,0.0,0.1126262587387812,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,barbie12312,2019/03/20,"Too much food? I’ve been binging nonstop for the past 3 months or something (I can’t purge no matter how much I try to) I’ve gained some weight but like the good kind of weight where I don’t look like I’m one step close to the grave, but now it’s really getting out of control because I’m still binging after reaching my healthy weight. 

It doesn’t look like I gained too much weight (or maybe I did and I can’t really notice because I’m too scared to try my old jeans and we don’t have a scale at home. 

Anyway, so instead of restricting like I always do after a binge and end up in the same cycle, I decided to make myself some oats. I’m not really hungry but I’m going out for the rest of the day and o don’t want to binge. But I still feel disgusting eating it because it has more calories than I’d like (not mentioning because it’s probably not allowed her/ really triggering. I just hope it’s worth it and I don’t end up binging again.",2.261847014925376,3.57896123880597,3.8098725124378134,90.12286847014929,75.91542288557214,7.015049751243781,23.507773631840802,7.6454224807358475,0.9234101990049752,743,22,165,10,16,247,105,201,0.083,0.723,0.194,0.9633,1,0,1,0,0,0,15.0,1,0,0,3,13,11,1,1,8,0,12,6,0,5,0,33,25,13,1,2,10,0,5,5,0,0,0,0,1,0,7,9,6,2,2,0,1,2,11,3,0,1,2,7,16,8,20,23,8,22,0,1,2,0,3,8,0,5,17,100,23,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09551235569399576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2798934618653351,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12874388826131122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07402841056521738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1174562203594508,0.0,0.0,0.2033352239259004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05803998482911533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.138801442883537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05997170611754608,0.0,0.06523635438534682,0.09627826888436028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11514117379258355,0.1140098402998672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1195334675379494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2803967551292265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19278509984449507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07662151570876355,0.0,0.11531942425637948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09162224924106377,0.0,0.25314595502777826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13068627518030895,0.1204501217970857,0.0,0.0777829483598174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1095776116331593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12376028801788022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2941431248202284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1149222645242726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08836898874116847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18333881527025994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15586629044816575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06770461337094917,0.0,0.0,0.5591207716301049,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,cerynitis_,2019/03/20,"I’m really glad I didn’t get into laxatives Last summer I was so close to buying laxatives to deal with my binging problem. I went to the pharmacy and instead of buying the laxatives I got some herbal laxatives that was extremely forgiving on the stomach. I even thought of taking my dad’s (who has just finished surgery and was given to by the doctor in case he needed it) and thought of an excuse for why it went missing. 

The day I decided I was done with my binging bullshit and went to the pharmacy to get some, I found out that I had a bacteria infection in my stomach. Even after that I started getting more stomach problems so that distracted from wanting laxatives. 

Now almost 9 months later, I’ve taken control (mostly) of my binging with heavy restriction (lol) and I have no dependancies on laxatives which makes me really grateful that I never bought in the first place. 

This is more of a rant kind of post but I just wanted to get that off my chest. ",7.347405405405407,6.977427983783784,7.889864864864865,71.4466891891892,63.75675675675675,11.291891891891892,37.95945945945946,10.793553405168565,4.2562540540540565,767,36,134,18,10,255,108,185,0.084,0.873,0.043,-0.6283,0,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,0,2,8,7,0,1,10,1,10,6,4,3,1,33,32,8,0,5,3,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,11,11,0,2,5,0,3,3,3,4,0,1,17,0,20,3,28,15,5,25,0,1,0,0,6,10,0,5,11,101,31,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15967447882238578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17884607055136414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10283742799409354,0.16439453132690274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16321235250841612,0.0,0.16318122926607578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2106414396061222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1356351698215317,0.0,0.17483782292051306,0.0,0.0,0.3332415737394658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12753338933142352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16605130742323254,0.0,0.12997981752849005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10643967017982324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12727811372748632,0.0,0.0,0.11823632752965588,0.12298409056642835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16660001069461353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15271699703812072,0.0,0.0,0.3051601634962974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20430617237154705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11286542319233027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11989281559829312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2531841968314374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18810530306520795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4434583945760167,0.14388633619467875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,breadcunt,2019/03/20,"I rarely notice how thin I actually am. It’s extremely bizarre when it actually sinks in. 99% of the time I’m not good enough, I always feel too big, even when people comment on my weight.

But the 1% of the time when I’m looking at myself in pictures or overhearing a conversation about how “Ariana Grande being 100 lbs is impossibly skinny” and it ACTUALLY hits me I’m just dumbfounded. 

5’3” 94 lbs and still not good enough. 
I’m chasing a LIE but I’d have absolutely nothing without it. Fuck.",2.8960022909507472,5.094622494845368,5.036013745704466,78.15328751431845,76.62886597938143,8.434822451317299,27.27262313860252,9.150863307647796,2.5329207331042385,390,16,75,10,9,135,67,97,0.11,0.89,0.0,-0.7939,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,0,10,4,1,0,5,0,4,3,1,2,0,12,12,10,0,0,7,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,2,2,0,1,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,0,4,6,3,8,10,2,12,0,0,1,1,3,6,1,1,6,45,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.5774082063497187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16411233038072534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4075855331161359,0.0,0.13026948409306302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09972612544584997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.182337257491548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3308566929760631,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16562470775783514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18924885423642945,0.2245492639437172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13673542376214726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15750925628743087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23001443885851516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2401747190972438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19012403798764507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,sad_chuu,2019/03/21,"Too much exercise? Okay so today has been a rough day. I ate full meals but I kept almost fainting. I kept eating and drinking water. I made sure that what I was eating was healthy. So to make a long story short I ended eating over 1500 calories (my normal intake that I'm supposed to have.) I decided that I was going to do intense work outs. I did some yesterday as well. 

So my main concern is that I'm 17 and 5'4 and weight around 148 (I know disgusting). Is it normal that I work out everyday up to 2 hours a night. Is this bad. I've been doing it for years. I'm just worried. I saw a video of a woman explaining an exercise eating disorder. (Exercising too much, causing harm to my body.)

My body hurts all the time and my bones crack all the time idk. Please help",0.5215789473684218,2.8646302292993653,2.589319477036544,91.21604760308416,87.47133757961784,5.598256788467985,19.728126047603084,7.0608816371341465,0.4993388535031844,594,18,125,9,19,199,100,157,0.13699999999999998,0.75,0.113,-0.7898,0,0,1,0,0,0,23.0,0,0,0,2,8,7,1,0,8,1,13,16,3,3,3,24,25,9,0,2,2,0,2,0,0,0,4,0,0,1,9,7,9,2,3,5,0,1,0,4,1,0,11,3,17,3,13,14,7,19,0,1,1,0,3,7,0,2,11,79,26,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1400605610278193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12451480779311545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1167864082739991,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3107302073915992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14368600402698298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09020519725968504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1603042367597114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13702029029926244,0.0,0.5724916391426339,0.0,0.0,0.12388415369204285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07949188927470864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0937525554024968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13774471966490048,0.0,0.14973475439057873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07686942107403548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12378139715084555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1323492832566842,0.0933649511866266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20564249711178925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13125941981618472,0.2740876846258916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1535363104199065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13182672346561866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16311976190296806,0.0,0.1325813143624655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17032514649375152,0.1257607898848165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2036554478796437,0.1420457482685955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09007231168697873
EDAnonymous,Sleepy_Golden_Storm,2019/03/21,"The Horror(tm) of unexpected food I love my family more than anything but I swear they have some kind of awful sixth sense for when I'm on a fast/low restricting. My dad especially is really big on little surprises of candy or takeout and (reasonably lol) expects it will be well-received and eaten right away. 

He knows bits and pieces about my ED but I'm pretty sure he thinks it's all in the past and isn't *actually* plying me with sweets in an intentional bit to make me eat. Still, he definitely gets concerned when I don't jump on the chance to splurge on some junk food. Homie is trying his best to be supportive and make sure I don't starve myself to death, and I'm really thankful to have that, but damn sometimes I wish I could tell him how Stressful chinese food is when I've already spent all my calories for the week lol

I'm sorry for the bitchy rant, I think the smell of sesame tofu is starting to get me kind of hangry",5.729975822050292,5.705947132978723,6.1392843326885895,81.48772727272728,67.03191489361703,9.389555125725336,29.32495164410058,9.095868883498916,2.14323829787234,743,23,153,12,11,240,119,188,0.139,0.643,0.218,0.9585,0,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,1,1,6,12,1,1,8,3,13,6,0,5,4,29,31,14,1,3,4,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,7,5,1,4,0,1,1,3,2,0,0,2,2,18,10,24,25,9,18,0,0,0,1,9,10,1,3,7,88,21,0,0.0,0.0,0.13034487370956374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14739761447809774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10991657850105814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12549323991648528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14017328233360887,0.0,0.2916472917588898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10664463019573073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13667526852744746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12591773605377374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4845394587033846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13956943297818716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2781848202465443,0.07340647826806543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13387204667915908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12055197475198867,0.0,0.1783177800618317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1275075040617323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13588852310011307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1711364900355082,0.13733201789266106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11406789390081075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13210396437961922,0.1495204746041315,0.09454140394927016,0.0,0.10666902839152463,0.0,0.153003774082685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15157344545219706,0.2517759435682241,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11674590738179225,0.1229731418183006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17117229083538232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0906851379866749,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1071416503863801,0.0,0.12009530656882678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1535986976729929,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,thotmija,2019/03/21,"excersize ideas? sorry if this doesnt make sense im kinda in a rush, but basically ive been around family alot lately and i cant restrict as much as id like so my intake is around 500-700 everyday but im going to the gym every night at about 6 or 7 and burning about 300-500 cals so that my net is low at least..but literally the only exercises i do are speed walking on the treadmill (no incline) and this rope pully machine idk what the real name for it is but you pull a weighted rope rly fast and it can burn hella cals fast too! idk what else to do i feel like im missing out on different ways to burn but i dont know what else to try, im not very strong- i dont like working against things, and running makes me anxious because i feel like i look stupid when i do it, and im scared of getting my legs too muscly bc i want them to be thin...does anyone know any machines that are good for burning lots of cals pretty fast? i can usually only be there an hour tops, dont exclude any suggestions, if running works better than i think ill suck it up and do it lol, but pls help im feeling stuck :(",1.264249547920432,2.864087468354434,3.300036166365281,91.50405063291142,79.37974683544303,6.033273056057867,23.100060277275468,6.868970318607317,0.5885959011452679,858,28,195,9,21,291,141,237,0.146,0.6759999999999999,0.17800000000000002,0.85,1,0,0,0,0,0,22.0,0,1,1,5,10,12,2,1,8,1,20,4,1,2,0,35,35,20,0,3,9,0,4,4,0,0,2,0,0,0,13,10,1,1,7,2,0,6,7,5,0,0,2,5,18,7,24,31,3,28,0,2,1,0,5,11,1,6,14,107,31,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13483921914995645,0.0,0.0,0.11200165866219496,0.0,0.06932203153687527,0.0,0.0,0.1765138819104392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06043572911949555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08768258692439118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10358175074094653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34857924651290634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1656399784885398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08353097713467465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09346176878688316,0.0,0.1503867412059677,0.14165339353093598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05179733405130885,0.0,0.05634439069924599,0.08315517396670989,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06645244765029956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09763439229298293,0.0,0.0,0.11191866913584206,0.6425389000392021,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10897113487522364,0.0,0.11183591349291712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19374208716176344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08325387806366479,0.0,0.0,0.08428654529970339,0.0,0.0,0.1323554223021604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07288039891462053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.093037567738782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15080313381126215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1008625323548546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11284471487810635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09925792195788542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1109807757374904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06586519739637957,0.06352586049492492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06731056056549223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1091903392350962,0.08180210814448546,0.05847621657980043,0.07869389621678839,0.0,0.12072761998127035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14435236384564634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,-Summerr-,2019/03/21,"All I see are my flaws I went clothes shopping yesterday, (Usually a big trigger) and when I was trying on clothes, I decided to take some pictures to ask my friends what they thought. But, when I looked at the photos all I could think was “My thighs look huge; have my hips gotten wider? My cheeks are super puffy; are my biceps fatter?” And on and on those thoughts went. After staring at the photos for about ten minutes, I aggressively deleted them and just sat on the floor crying, hoping no one would walk in on me because the doors didn’t have locks.",3.706593977154725,5.669565308411219,3.713956386292837,89.61076843198339,73.48598130841121,6.250882658359295,26.84215991692627,6.937597516519254,1.147401661474559,436,16,86,4,9,133,75,107,0.068,0.8190000000000001,0.112,0.7059,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,2,1,4,4,1,0,5,0,10,4,4,1,2,17,23,7,0,3,2,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,2,4,0,0,4,1,1,3,2,1,0,2,9,4,16,3,13,12,3,19,0,0,4,0,4,11,0,2,5,60,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2222041674797612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1448910769292096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1897727959992635,0.0,0.26108672533674593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18363548402327906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2360756615247088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3991924719672572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16106207096763686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18940483463538074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1787101651271967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1522994836674394,0.0,0.3773920013267835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16137307766668274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2617773636975172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4406742946536199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16884519535247658,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Pro_Ana_Online,2019/03/21,"ED Film Festival! (March 22 & 23) **A few of us are putting together an Eating Disorder film-festival event!**

Day #1 starts Friday evening, March 22, at 9pm Eastern time.

We'll be showing 2 feature films/documentaries with about a half-hour in between filled with various film shorts.

Day#2 start Saturday afternoon, March 23) at 2:00 pm Eastern time (in order to accommodate those in Europe easier) and will ave the same format.

We're still finalizing the exact films and shorts, but all films will have subtitles in English.

**An update will be posted on this thread a couple hours before the start of the event with the exact link.**

**We'll be using** [**www.rabb.it**](https://www.rabb.it) **so you may want to go ahead and sign up for a free account there in advance.**

If you have any suggestions for the films or any shorts we can use feel free to post your ideas here!",2.005293014533521,4.746543645569624,2.3757665260196923,88.45233239568684,96.72151898734177,5.8850445382090975,20.408813877168306,7.2427474758485975,1.1396954524144394,688,23,124,14,27,210,106,158,0.012,0.903,0.085,0.9095,0,0,0,0,0,0,57.0,4,3,0,2,6,3,0,0,12,0,13,1,0,2,3,22,21,7,0,2,3,0,1,0,0,6,0,0,0,0,2,7,1,0,3,6,3,4,0,0,0,0,0,1,7,5,22,12,4,37,0,0,0,0,8,12,0,3,18,69,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19055813607807828,0.0,0.23919910847841455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14965482331117866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1945999394552051,0.0,0.22684684942666875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20156549823842307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17996181013931592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11616234445325482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08892658641952972,0.0,0.0,0.19266008690167374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09995258136307196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3463986181548701,0.0,0.0,0.19853901593431705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3368751077087355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17680076892976582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37345107943371997,0.0,0.14045226793379811,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20510572112818992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2115533578989725,0.30379531142602195,0.0,0.0,0.1037343508903245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,UrethraLasso,2019/03/21,CARROTS From what I've read carrots have about 25-36 calories each. I think I finally found something I can snack on without feeling like a blob of fat holy fuck. ,3.0377083333333315,5.3122831875,3.3200000000000003,90.25833333333335,76.5,5.516666666666668,32.541666666666664,6.42735559955562,1.7956541666666668,130,7,25,1,3,40,28,32,0.233,0.767,0.0,-0.7167,0,0,1,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,1,0,2,3,1,0,0,5,6,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,2,0,3,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,1,3,1,5,5,1,2,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,2,13,4,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18850787904506253,0.2663411072005398,0.0,0.40840367117134657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4087754690563275,0.0,0.3446640439198525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18213994285543966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37291868473408135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28701335277741474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23888658927737216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35938305029201684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,snakessssssssss,2019/03/21,"FML THERE IS NO WINNING Currently in the cycle of

Restricting and losing but having no energy so can’t work out then getting super unflatteringly skinny fat. F’n wonderful.",5.864000000000001,9.071762733333333,7.583333333333332,58.50500000000002,71.66666666666666,10.666666666666668,30.0,10.504223727775694,4.654000000000001,142,6,18,5,3,49,29,30,0.18600000000000005,0.467,0.34700000000000003,0.882,1,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,4,2,3,0,0,1,0,3,2,2,0,0,5,5,4,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,2,1,1,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,3,5,0,4,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,1,2,14,0,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2906767792756851,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6224280450508664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6033520959285086,0.4050389944965137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,lotuscakes,2019/03/21,"starting a new medication brought back my ed i deal with depression and anxiety and a few other issues and i’ve has an ed (food restriction and bulimia) but was pretty much control as in i wasn’t making myself throw up and i wasn’t actively going out of my way to avoid eating, i still hated my body and still suffered from dysmorphia. i’ve never gotten help nor do i want to because i don’t want to be forced to gain weight (i’m not very thin) i just want to feel better about my body. whatever ; i was suffering a depressive episode which suppressed my appetite and i weighed myself and realized i weighed 2 numbers which has always been my goal (i used to weigh that much but it’s been a few years) it was 99.0lb so there wasn’t a lot of wiggle room which brought up some anxiety but oh well i’ll just stay of the scale.. so a few days later i started a new med and i got really “bad” side effects, my appetite was GONE i couldn’t eat any solid food without throwing up (i only drank ensure, which is normally 60% of my diet). i felt sick and was bed ridden and could barely move. it was wonderful. it reminded me of how i felt before, the addictive feeling you get when you don’t eat. i missed throwing up. it allowed me to cheat a little and eat something sugary and fatty and throw it up and it gave me a free pass because i wasn’t the one doing it. it was just my bodies reaction to the medicine. safe to say i went off of it, i was like this for around 9 days. 9 days of feeling sick and weak and being taken care of and getting to cheat and just feel a full blown ed without any real consequences. now the effects have faded and it’s been a few months, i still have a low appetite but i only find myself craving fatty foods. i feel like i’ve gained so much weight since then i don’t want to weight myself. i lost an inch out of all my measurements and my waist got close to my goal measurement. i’m only restricting food slightly, i haven’t made myself throw up but there’s nothing i want to do more in the word is binge and purge and binge and purge. or just even purge without binging. i feel disgusting and huge and ugly. i just hate my body. now it’s my own fault and no one knows and no one is comforting me. i know it’s pathetic but i just really like to be taken care of, it’s all i really want. i started another new medication and my psychiatrist warned me that it has a chance of causing seizures in people with ed’s (he doesn’t know) so i’m a little scared but mostly i don’t care. my ed isn’t back just the thoughts are, i’m still acting relatively normal so i think i’m safe when it comes to that for now. now everything i consume brings me horrible shame and i didn’t feel like that before the meds. i’m so mad and upset but at the same time glad it happened because i lost weight/got better measurements. i feel conflicted and so angry. i hate feeling like this but i do not want help. i just want to feel pretty and loved .. that’s it. 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EDAnonymous,PieldeSapo,2019/03/21,"ED during puberty I just have to rant. ED started when I was 13, still here when I'm nearly 20. The one thing I hate the most is that the restrictive eating during puberty really fucked up my height. I want to cry every time I think about how fucking short I am because it's really something I can't do shit about. I'm stuck with it until I'm old and then I'm going to get even shorter. Fuck man I hate this disorder but I also really don't want to let it go. Ever. Thanks for coming to my Ted Talk.",0.9783333333333316,2.692428314814819,3.5905185185185218,88.55633333333336,80.66666666666666,6.912592592592592,19.133333333333333,7.908726449838941,0.6618711111111111,390,9,86,7,10,137,73,108,0.162,0.758,0.08,-0.7715,0,0,1,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,0,11,7,6,0,3,0,8,5,1,1,1,12,27,8,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,6,3,1,1,1,0,0,3,2,6,0,1,2,0,11,1,12,24,1,16,0,0,0,3,2,4,4,1,9,54,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13795632629125235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1051606027714146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1486022424665253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18949432907756866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1977116085239584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17652097837418926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11394134498455127,0.15604533157033693,0.14534726449976773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4784486367783449,0.09012944743361807,0.0,0.19608301827567165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34063616996471563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17640334399481028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1810204115188101,0.0,0.1168973605934633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3315433104548017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1770792177432173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13280676240722947,0.0,0.0,0.12210359124806235,0.0,0.1377668502631458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.138657145774157,0.0,0.1588241935896034,0.0,0.0,0.11460809624992405,0.1105375558224896,0.0,0.0,0.10059207155024598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2035019440624208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,cheeseontheritz,2019/03/21,"Unusual weight gain even when dieting? I've been following an OMEOD (one meal every other day) diet for the past year now, and for some reason I have been suddenly gaining weight like crazy ever since January? I haven't made any drastic changes to my diet, eating the same types of foods, and I've actually been eating metrically less (1/2 to 3/4 times what I used to eat) but I've gained almost 15 lbs in two months. I went from around 125 to 139 lbs. I actually exercise more now than I did (5x a week, with an extra 8 hour catering shift on my feet lifting heavy trays the whole time). It's messing with me because I've always been able to maintain my weight no problem with OMEOD, and even then I'm fairly Paleo with what I eat (no wheat, corn, sugar, only big carbs are just brown rice and potatoes). This is a pretty sudden spike for me, and all this worry is destroying my self-image. Every time I eat now I get massively bloated to the point where I look pregnant, and I'm a dude. I have to wear baggy clothes because I'm so embarrassed. I can see all this fat in my face and my stomach and I have no idea where it's suddenly coming from. Should I change my fast to even more? I do 40/8, with a protein shake to break my fast and a meal later in the day.",5.800516953863259,5.123053256809342,6.3996359088382455,81.87642996108951,67.01556420233463,9.366203446359089,29.64118954974986,8.634040054169528,2.002835686492496,985,29,207,13,14,323,152,257,0.108,0.8390000000000001,0.054000000000000006,-0.9404,0,0,0,0,0,0,35.0,0,0,0,3,13,6,1,2,12,0,15,21,5,3,3,30,26,13,0,2,2,0,3,1,0,1,2,0,0,0,8,16,16,0,2,1,0,4,4,5,0,2,7,7,25,1,26,18,9,36,0,0,3,0,0,9,0,2,23,123,33,1,0.10727138143497912,0.0,0.2093627883954708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10741679318818734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08925838268510125,0.0,0.0,0.07294821786819577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09549427233069124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1307832769315959,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22695779576125066,0.09240479664899083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13836233337118592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5488270176885868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2125552072119312,0.0970331059104272,0.18076153087142804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1297129802330045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056044869336783217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1056407025391724,0.0,0.0,0.12109633252266665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05240737848235997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09008094341760188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1015027748272716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08562299323272475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07268986426551405,0.08158471941487942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10240267158950184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10140612863072103,0.0,0.0,0.1091335596771328,0.0,0.10264422471676693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1102928461385075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08548140253110495,0.0,0.11190744585567156,0.0,0.0,0.0887359952348838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1876524155050033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10478855252061968,0.0,0.0,0.09264803161773356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08604663167715876,0.39188293052816736,0.0,0.09944164529620776,0.0,0.11976466649027127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10893929492398956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06907925261373478
EDAnonymous,namasteawayplz,2019/03/21,"DAE have a hard time focusing on literally anything other than food/calories at all times?? I'm supposed to be studying rn but in the past hour I have rechecked cronometer 2 times and then used my phone calc to rough estimate what I can do with my ramaining day's calories like 3 times which proceeded to me using my calc to figure out my overall week's deficit thus far and then to googling how many flights of stairs I can do to burn some more since I'm in a three floor building. This type of process happens everyday. 

CAN MY LIFE PLEASE START TO REVOLVE AROUND SOMETHING OTHER THAN FOOD BC MY STUDIES ARE SUFFERING AND MY HUNGRY ASS DONT EVEN CARE",7.111901012373451,6.87487170866142,6.258942632170983,82.50346456692915,64.19685039370079,9.461867266591675,37.04049493813272,8.841846274778883,3.023997525309336,525,24,103,7,7,159,92,127,0.151,0.795,0.054000000000000006,-0.9345,0,0,1,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,0,3,0,10,3,1,4,1,14,17,7,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,5,6,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,2,11,2,18,16,3,22,0,1,0,1,1,9,1,1,14,59,16,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15589271012474085,0.16864147311011385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1931463727997404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12217291756445052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22202188666904865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.125123117811416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.458142410724805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1675208777929135,0.0,0.16970073786497855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18655991884936976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13380684391038505,0.09255065558799984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19206209536962726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18084160406460886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20794787402415596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15670645567601574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14583991597681722,0.0,0.0,0.13408637606480556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.441855188603657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3272301081820055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15195707939371028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,lilbee0718,2019/03/21,It’s only 8am and I’ve already eaten 1000 calories I work at a hotel as a breakfast cook and have unlimited access to food which makes not binging in the morning super hard. Lately I’ve been having really good control over my binging urges but this morning I was a little hungover and all I could think about was bagels and cereal so I had some..... 1000 calories worth. I know that if I stop now and maybe not eat dinner tonight I’ll still be at deficit for the day but I already feel like I won’t have enough self control for that. ,3.6607568807339455,4.845789880733946,4.554942660550459,86.6735149082569,72.21100917431194,6.55091743119266,27.386467889908253,6.6274283507984215,1.1705311926605502,423,15,85,3,8,137,78,109,0.07400000000000001,0.828,0.099,0.3811,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,4,4,3,0,0,5,0,10,6,0,3,1,20,15,10,0,2,5,0,2,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,5,5,6,3,3,2,1,0,3,0,0,0,5,2,9,3,9,7,3,11,0,0,0,0,1,5,0,2,7,54,14,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4376435944848279,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4448060208450551,0.15832121658352885,0.0,0.0,0.12788289672502318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2029037444307461,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20489018249911906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10026314666427652,0.1416609089723508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2397772753735125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16631917155313986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1776320183489013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10897691635464778,0.0,0.22368369392717574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0968761830882008,0.19874217068286965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13236244443835815,0.0,0.19921246329577205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1508111346934795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12703188737458482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2068633564126096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15835743736682986,0.16578223674641127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12705846173740235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1443600224813241,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,-Cokeman,2019/03/21,"How do you stop from passing out? (Other than eating) My diet for the past 5 days has consisted of antacids, pain and sleep pills. I ate half a burger two days ago and I hated myself for it. Don't feel any pain anywhere other than my stomach which I'm taking antacids for.

I can't stand up too fast or bend over without blacking out for a few seconds. This morning was the only worrysome thing where I was just putting on clothes and passed out after putting on my shirt. Woke up a few seconds later on the floor with a headache but I don't think I hit anything. Surprised I didn't hit my head on my dresser. An hour later I was waiting for the bus and felt my vision fading, like I was going to fall into oncoming traffic so I backed up to the bus shelter and blacked out for a few seconds there, and stayed there until the bus came just in case.

This has never been a problem before. I've starved for longer and with less food. Does anyone else experience this and are there any 0 or minimal calorie ways to prevent it?",3.8422491909385137,5.021870053398062,4.315514563106799,88.58304530744337,71.76699029126212,6.270032362459547,28.781877022653717,6.079149491110277,1.1613104207119735,805,31,163,4,15,254,125,206,0.067,0.861,0.07200000000000001,-0.223,0,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,1,0,0,10,6,1,0,13,0,13,13,4,1,1,31,26,14,0,1,6,0,2,1,0,0,5,0,1,0,9,16,4,3,3,0,0,7,6,4,0,5,10,4,18,2,33,14,4,41,0,0,2,0,1,17,0,2,15,117,27,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14544668282915418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22315953579481707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11472828510611968,0.16811896037208995,0.1350235464889663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12616709948658714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13961967129401634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18766337357943072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2116355614224223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14358718087584288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16789441343218392,0.13706746798740255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16050135243615948,0.0,0.0,0.08296358574008122,0.0,0.1575421659921752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19840572738638385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09325022906801374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16199465490378806,0.16839302674062195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1615853740407705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08016101418322416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12654831786801882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12478994446081312,0.3491845675791071,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15663256295960515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15700203657613446,0.0,0.32989067370285513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16419811599711387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17488704306745942,0.0,0.13717790903318824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1233674540222702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10900720850113887,0.10513559503224353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16028194670474316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13023876480695032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15816689815552093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,NotDido,2019/03/21,"Babette’s Feast This is kinda stupid maybe but I’m studying abroad and taking this class called Food In France which is like a cultural history of france through food kind of thing. Anyway for it we watched this Danish films called *Babette’s Feast* and I was wondering if anyone here had seen it and had ED related thoughts. 

In the movie this French woman escapes France (late 1800s conflict i wanna day?) and finds refuge in this tiny ultra Lutheran religiony community in a wintry, rural part of Denmark. After 14 years of diligent service as a maid and chef for these two old sisters, she comes into a loooot of money and asks them for permission to make one True French TM meal (before her presumed departure to leave for France off her new fortune) and they hesitatingly agree. Spoilers now- she makes a ridiculously ridiculously extravagant meal (live turtles are involved) and reveals she spent all her money on it and used to be the head chef of the Cafe Anglais, which was at the time like the absolutely most haute cuisine haute cuisine ever. 

Anyway there’s a lot of interesting French-food-is-literally-sinfully-good cultural comparison bla bla bla that we talked about in class but all I could think about was how these long scenes of her painstakingly preparing each dish and sending them out to the guests felt somewhat akin to the sort of ritualistic set up of a binge, if that makes sense? There are so many courses and each are set up just perfectly and yeah. 


honestly if this is a stupid post just ignore lmao",6.744148273910582,8.190514329749107,5.954763252216562,78.52407470288627,65.20071684587813,9.171175249952839,31.88851160158461,9.414487439383343,2.8634258064516125,1234,48,217,23,19,374,171,279,0.077,0.8,0.123,0.9509,0,0,0,0,0,0,26.0,2,0,3,1,13,12,4,0,15,1,13,6,1,5,5,52,27,20,0,5,7,1,1,2,1,0,0,0,1,1,16,19,5,2,7,1,7,2,0,5,0,2,9,3,15,7,37,16,8,27,1,0,2,0,23,12,0,9,12,134,31,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09966750243929487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1332559529485932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12129130943078707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2910991970497819,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12278585994597327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1138068428752766,0.0,0.0,0.091926711075653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12893587545783125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13686105565679174,0.0,0.1302792655272667,0.0,0.517080943900495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11955605339924848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14628748601887673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14843380332408404,0.0,0.0,0.16079168388085754,0.1509296123335932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13927599578870864,0.0,0.1258657095590318,0.12614369324717295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1211826784791972,0.0,0.0,0.2854403012151487,0.1445135067705514,0.1432009050861312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13766632440204993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14957208267646396,0.0,0.0965890063813553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15435727063678528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1365142199382018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1071725774800965,0.11456850582432622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0946974515407314,0.09133407829325177,0.0,0.113161088161314,0.08311640392523767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13924117578671807,0.0,0.0,0.1231090662717169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15457889119875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0917912894589458
EDAnonymous,PerfectWillingness,2019/03/21,"No YoU DoNt HaVe BoDy DySmOrPhIa \- my body @ me

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Been reading all your posts about body dysmorphia and feeling sad and sympathetic but grateful I wasn't disordered *that* badly. 

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I'd been avoiding weighing myself for the longest time because I was convinced I was at my heaviest weight. This morning I finally mustered up the courage to do the deed... I'm 10 pounds lighter than I thought and actually at my high school weight. Now I'm just 7 pounds within my goal weight. And the messed up part is even though I'm walking around with the same body I thought was squishy and blobby a few days ago I just *feel* skinnier. I catch myself walking by in the mirror and I think I just look so much leaner and better. EVEN THOUGH NOTHING HAS CHANGED. That's literally crazy. And I know it's crazy but it still doesn't change how I see myself now. AND even though I'm super happy I am not, in fact, the adult-size rotund toddler I was picturing myself to be I STILL WANT TO LOSE WEIGHT. I essentially ""lost"" 10 pounds overnight and it's still not. good. enough.  


And the cherry (5.2 cal) on top is knowing I do in fact have some degree of body dysmorphia secretly pleases me... because it means I'm more disordered than I though and I'm hopeful that means I'll actually reach my goal weight. I'm dumb. 

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So yeah. Body dysmorphia. I guess I'm in the club now? Do we have jackets? I'll order mine a size down.",1.6355652620760532,4.310840881294968,2.4487214799588912,91.65357553956837,86.23021582733813,5.335416238437823,24.12990750256937,6.868970318607317,0.9617507502569378,1127,45,224,15,35,352,146,278,0.096,0.733,0.171,0.9722,0,1,0,0,0,0,53.0,1,2,0,7,21,14,1,1,11,1,20,12,6,1,3,42,43,21,0,2,7,0,7,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,8,15,6,1,10,2,0,3,6,7,0,0,10,9,34,7,22,32,8,29,0,3,2,0,4,14,1,3,10,139,42,4,0.0,0.0,0.14078040757167753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06394046319362963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2344642326351328,0.26294399252206435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06421256939930167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0602270162007509,0.08794171672575958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06379469010657783,0.0,0.4807328227116055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15261169968984625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04651902526195352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16533851853247927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08453789891049743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07453140192857216,0.0,0.14292706422238968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07294398190787596,0.0,0.0,0.07901682983211389,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06050070760958742,0.0,0.0,0.07946127844166477,0.0,0.0,0.07678561197565252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07621117682840747,0.0,0.0716431245859106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07928347034196784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06057252115316954,0.08069700164136173,0.07874034933737592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15714529048865322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053025151591514455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06921238009494349,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07811167927251775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07917902426940167,0.0,0.0,0.06908229796989916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07215129131512081,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07300120362204793,0.057479682900459114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17281357752926935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04621912658122192,0.2834763968010801,0.11452913864206628,0.042060615991132914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.042545187661152,0.0,0.0,0.4391853259673491,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26294399252206435,0.0
EDAnonymous,Lillysland,2019/03/22,Cold dead body I often wonder what people are gonna think when they find my cold dead body over the bathtub slouched over in my own pile of vomit and probably piss. It maybe from heart attack or it maybe from chocking on my own fucking vomit or bile idk but what a sad fucking way to go. At least I won’t have to be there. I sometimes wonder what my last meal would be..? Would it be worth it? Sometimes I think maybe it will be for the better b/c the amount of shit I put my body through...it really doesn’t deserve it. People that know me in person will prob be hella surprised lmfao cuz I look so fucking put together from the outside 😂😂😂 what a fucking joke. I just wasted my whole evening b/p three fucking times and spending $70 on take out. Fml. Sorry I’m just venting. I’m just so tired. It’s so unfair. Why did god have to make me like this...fuck I don’t even really believe in god but idk if there really is anyone up there why ru like dis? If wanna take me just take me already. I don’t wanna live this life anymore but I’m too scared to take it myself. I’m so sorry if I broke any rules please delete if I did thx ,0.4788842975206613,2.4510444586776887,2.2769355371900843,95.97922148760333,83.75206611570249,4.698446280991735,18.770909090909093,5.6839178017228535,-0.380099041322314,877,22,200,5,25,289,133,242,0.177,0.6920000000000001,0.132,-0.9021,0,0,0,0,0,1,26.0,0,0,1,1,16,16,8,1,6,0,19,16,6,2,0,29,41,17,2,8,13,0,0,2,0,6,4,0,0,1,14,3,1,0,6,1,2,3,4,11,0,1,2,3,23,5,22,28,5,17,0,2,1,5,2,10,7,9,5,117,37,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10331534022264456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06366686996679773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09284888718346564,0.06546339849067444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1065097109726309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10548109294641823,0.0,0.08280196066486127,0.0,0.31198223715777385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1236742549148946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08556975208120991,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5193178883102673,0.0,0.0,0.053208124737327216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11094373975255857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051452768103911715,0.07631526406612513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0661287139122928,0.09147896545370918,0.0,0.08267084956997828,0.0,0.07861976452142176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06249409863268976,0.0,0.28217074827138544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1298128396837371,0.08174801742704299,0.0,0.10276997101301216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1009414597800092,0.0,0.0,0.18823400533697274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17993192856409854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09373298436917403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09610269353180843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18519113858072006,0.209606631134082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2815714641239433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11997971288046055,0.0,0.0,0.054592340914569694,0.10760589895353764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0743136023658375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16896044249019385,0.10452676804017433,0.0,0.0,0.20306036180557013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13301422678405594,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,boscodash443,2019/03/22,"Oops I think I have an eating disorder Hey.



Okay so I’m 23 now and have been in recovery for years now. When I was 14 I was diagnosed with anorexia and went inpatient treatment and everything. I have ALWAYS had a bad relationship with food. Either I restrict WAYYYY more than I should or eat until I gained LITERALLY 100 pounds during my pregnancy. No in between.


ANYWAY I think I accidentally dipped my lil toes right back into the Ana/mia pool.


It all started with my having my kid and telling my husband “I gotta lose this weight” and I started dieting. HEALTHY dieting. 

Shortly after that I found r/1200isplenty and r/fasting and was like “oH cOol LoOk I cAn Be hEAlTHy” And starting really cutting my calories. (I’m a giant so my TDEE is high af literally I could still eat 1700 calories a day and still lose 2 pounds a week)


ANYWAY I started dropping crazy weight. Literally I’ve lost 80 pounds since October.....


And then I realized....I’m in denial. 


I never get close to 1700 calories. I eat 1200 MAX a day.....usually less.


I was pretending I was doing Intermittent fasting...when no I’m just skipping meals. 

I would over estimate food by A LOT and under estimate working out by A LOT.

I weigh myself 5 times a day every day because I have to know or I’m anxious. I feel defeated every time it goes up even though I know it’s water weight.

When I’m not hungry I feel like a failure and I’m not losing weight.


Today I realized I think I have a problem again.....because I googled calories in allergy meds...

Will I really always be an inch from relapsing without knowing?  Anyone have some advice? I still have a ton of weight to lose but gosh, how do I find a balance?",1.1189093387866436,3.742684374233132,3.161713701431495,85.29783980913429,90.22699386503069,6.210661213360599,24.729107021131558,7.554174236665415,1.7390931970006818,1310,57,246,27,45,440,184,326,0.103,0.843,0.054000000000000006,-0.8769,0,0,0,0,0,0,53.0,0,0,0,8,16,13,1,0,15,2,25,18,1,1,2,48,49,23,0,4,8,1,7,2,0,4,1,0,0,1,5,18,16,1,11,2,0,1,6,9,0,0,10,9,42,4,25,32,8,41,0,6,1,0,5,15,0,5,26,157,47,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08049454460649069,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13708289534389853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0930587398337264,0.0,0.057597547880895175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06334022640494211,0.06877852896011642,0.1004283840073352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06576862990697245,0.0,0.0,0.2124966719593701,0.0,0.0,0.08360748671246747,0.0,0.0,0.09440730092957098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3371550967627669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05440699675949018,0.0,0.1388066491528921,0.0,0.07403209495434253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08330115102156603,0.058847728027483726,0.0,0.0,0.07528799308144568,0.0,0.1992130078892205,0.09031841866310714,0.0,0.0,0.04303681473235517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08703224837015626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13581115598016907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08048717625873575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0691730914650325,0.3686200256632181,0.08992053299102129,0.14006220593903082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09149851803698364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06353161115332634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07882042611137753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10554129594772793,0.0,0.0,0.08843843656671904,0.0,0.07034661833850638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06814030672578311,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2332178786991209,0.0,0.1973510294313732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07199817151275711,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1583450618978975,0.08093165989621721,0.0,0.09606543632790504,0.0,0.07808055666936115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06607514638994133,0.5015443660734912,0.0,0.07636116768470476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07940522671683649,0.0,0.059968973816767565,0.0,0.0,0.0585158536882736,0.0,0.0,0.0530459082475845
EDAnonymous,Temp_SU_AITA_,2019/03/22,"I'm not sure how to fight back against these new urges? (possibly triggering) This year's January I (17, ftm, started transitioning april 2018) started a diet. I was pretty mentally okay - maybe obsessed over calories and health (lots of r/fatlogic for a while, then none, then a while again, now none again) but I obsess over everything I get into because that's ADHD for you, the one time I had diarrhea for a few days and liked how I had a flatter stomach because of it, plus the fact I would be extremely proud whenever I ate 1200 or 1300 a day instead of 1600. Other than that, no disordered anything, lost 12 pounds, almost got to a healthy BMI. It might be relevant that I go to an online school and my parents do not generally keep any sort of track/don't notice my eating habits outside of dinner. 

Long story short, as of March 15th when I had over-eaten two days in a row (but still below/at TDEE), a part of me has been thinking it is a great idea to try to starve myself, and the part of me that wants to lose fat, period, is getting loud and ever more convincing. I told myself two days ago I'd wait 4 weeks before reconsidering trying a diet I found on a pro ana sight, because of course I've been looking up caffeine and bronkaid and high protein/low calorie stuff and so on. That's roughly when I'll get my next therapy appointment (if I can even talk to her about this?). It is unadvised to talk to my parents about this. All friends are online and emotionally at arms length. 

Where do I go to tell the part of me that wants to lose fat to fuck off? On social media? Key-words to google? What do I do on a day to day basis but try to avoid ED stuff as much as I physically can and.... eat my TDEE I guess? ",4.633838675775092,5.038619777456648,5.515312664214402,83.53251182343669,69.4335260115607,8.718654755648974,28.733053074093537,8.710501217029153,1.9696289017341035,1337,45,280,21,22,439,208,346,0.084,0.8190000000000001,0.097,0.7631,2,1,0,0,1,0,52.0,0,1,0,4,16,16,2,3,18,1,21,12,4,3,4,41,42,28,0,4,7,2,1,1,1,2,3,1,0,0,18,12,8,3,3,0,0,2,5,8,0,3,11,4,29,8,47,27,10,46,0,3,2,1,12,14,1,7,31,182,47,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11530247397778147,0.0,0.08504593440756496,0.0,0.09607108296317317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0652431904064863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07895129304300409,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0737727300383521,0.0,0.1754542843167755,0.0,0.08163875019978513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3712441643550169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10995673240257453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19634325093439656,0.0,0.10792074552042899,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06336814552058806,0.0867841544269837,0.0,0.0,0.08622561151461597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10519438744861166,0.07412380184095314,0.08869593632761326,0.15037568517656358,0.0,0.10905099670267704,0.0,0.07673280612778885,0.1057753243550295,0.1056898611107397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10198082856080344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10136696579823687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10830574496800834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08527679575128883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04687194112414541,0.0,0.0,0.08490479252481631,0.08056630189389269,0.21466694376909576,0.10473096769249557,0.08156563288278665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09638566005737564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09668599274061827,0.10177827147022467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07052769621869764,0.0,0.0,0.09266044468911301,0.1020343739079204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10922949862886673,0.0,0.0,0.06501212494958343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2130623200771686,0.3116843585457704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10815909600055833,0.0,0.0976065190052725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09709744447914057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09779979801872082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13581510978025935,0.0,0.07661863054689891,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21965905148225054,0.0,0.0,0.0904232854266036,0.0,0.0,0.15422753157912047,0.0838566890542591,0.0,0.10971692923003667,0.0,0.0,0.061475138140587665,0.0,0.0,0.05594398617181196,0.0,0.0,0.09167576569549978,0.0,0.1954129850510851,0.0,0.18744089120520066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11317701056467686,0.0,0.07695810724935143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06815375507991386,0.0,0.0,0.06178287781558841
EDAnonymous,xiaoyingdou,2019/03/22,"so rn I'm bloated af restricted until like 7pm today and then had a bowl of oatmeal, some grapes and some broccoli (idk I'm weird) and that area between my lower ribs above my stomach (I suck at bio lmao) felt like it was really blocked?? lowkey painful lol,, it's happened before but this time it felt like I was gonna burst or smth, and after like half an hour it wasn't as bad, and now (10:22pm) I'm super bloated ugh it looks like I'm pregnant and I literally haven't had my period in ages ;-;

if anyone knows how to stop whatever is happening please lmk 

and on a random side note this community feels so warm and welcoming, I love y'all already <33  ",2.2200497512437813,4.103644164179105,3.6470895522388074,88.80381840796021,77.50746268656717,6.854726368159205,24.59950248756219,7.793537801064563,1.2296039800995024,514,18,109,8,12,169,97,134,0.1,0.6509999999999999,0.249,0.9805,1,0,0,0,0,0,20.0,0,1,0,1,4,14,1,0,3,1,7,4,2,1,0,22,21,17,0,1,3,0,4,5,0,1,1,0,0,0,8,8,0,3,4,0,0,0,2,5,0,1,7,5,8,9,9,13,2,15,0,0,1,1,3,5,1,5,15,54,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2269513530850229,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14380252567513946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1717178341886687,0.0,0.0,0.17500184324590204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1039880719689524,0.0,0.3949324501634763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3637296051833835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2025340558148504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11302557118805535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5023763882448824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17270292968025058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18561653038896886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21883715379433746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22575334822156065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13175131128581266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1719412938802375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11992222657294085,0.0,0.1949420013225827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Loose_Egg,2019/03/22,"My 600lbs Life is the opposite of thinspo for me and I find that funny I started watching this show to trigger myself while in a bad restricting episode, but it actually is part of what got me out of that headspace.

​

The biggest reason why is that it (unintentionally?) humanizes absurdly fat people. The message I took from the show was ""hey even if you gain an unimaginable amount of weight you can still be a good person with value who is loved."" 

Yes the show has a lot of monsters in it, but it also has deeply loving and good people who are trying (and sometimes succeeding) to get better, and those people do get better if they honestly try. Even my worst nightmare isn't the end of the world. It's helping me accept that it's okay to eat and to gain weight. 

​

Plus if they can get over their ED then what's my excuse. ",6.022331288343557,6.480592736196321,6.114239263803682,80.25859815950923,66.4233128834356,8.728588957055214,30.410429447852763,8.548686976883017,2.201096196319018,668,23,127,9,10,212,101,163,0.049,0.6829999999999999,0.268,0.9924,0,0,0,0,0,0,25.0,0,2,3,5,4,12,0,0,11,2,13,7,1,2,0,19,21,14,0,3,5,0,2,0,0,0,2,0,0,2,16,8,4,1,3,3,0,1,1,2,0,0,3,3,15,10,18,17,4,12,0,0,1,2,15,6,0,4,5,92,31,1,0.0,0.0,0.12989978803870567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10645099313875192,0.0,0.2884573182429957,0.3234954776622748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11114439535484304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23545653449312925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13620856660161804,0.0,0.0,0.11789924495189767,0.0,0.0,0.1758407121912427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12166352777578684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20863927262240994,0.0,0.0,0.2232989442277537,0.10646320140108252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08922332005223435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09402215649999507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11316852385855924,0.2402806573402163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14414918603899174,0.0,0.2768528769055095,0.11622976515593435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1368630733797357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1316528719819241,0.0,0.0942185755709606,0.0,0.10630478809031256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14789423990230113,0.1807509550237957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3241932978426521,0.0,0.0,0.1201144270489762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3234954776622748,0.0
EDAnonymous,MhmStephany,2019/03/22,"Old habits die hard I don’t know how many of you are also into Kpop or are aware of BTS, but I was recently catching up on their Run! BTS episodes on Vlive and had the funniest moment of my old but ever present ED patterns crop up. 

The 60th episode focused on them playing guessing games involving snack foods and one of them was guess the calories of this ~~famous chocolate bar with nuts in it won’t say brand names but kind of like a giggle & rhymes with knickers~~. Immediately I know it’s 240. I have an unshakable confidence in my voice as I proudly and distinctly claim it’s 240. I’m watching this variety show with my boyfriend and just immediately pipe up “it’s 240 calories.” He goes, “nah it’s probably closer to 300, there’s a lot of nuts and chocolate in it.” The boys in the show are guessing 250, 255, even 256. But I would have bet my entire life savings it was 240. My boyfriends asks where the confidence in such an arbitrary piece of information is coming from— is it a lucky guess?? It’s barely 10 calories off from one of the performers guesses. I tell him, “I just *know*.” And I do. It’s not as if I can specifically recall reading that the candy bar is 240, from the packaging or the countless logging apps I’d downloaded over the years. It’s more like I have a gigantic filing cabinet in my head full of numbers, useless numbers, and all calories. It’s like a sixth sense— I can **feel** the calories in something. The show continues, my boyfriend waits with his breath held, I stare on with a knowing smirk. I don’t need to hear the answer but god now I want to. I need the validation. I need to know that the horrible disgusting psychological and physical torture I put myself through that took years to reverse the damage of could at least result in something productive, even if “productive” really just meant cool party trick. I wait. He waits. The Bangtan boys wait. 

It’s 240. ",2.2133165113871627,4.8690601168478285,3.314642857142857,86.90416666666668,82.34239130434783,6.765631469979298,26.424948240165637,7.957251820313856,1.8636589544513469,1505,65,292,30,42,483,195,368,0.09,0.7759999999999999,0.133,0.9561,0,0,2,0,0,0,49.0,0,1,3,2,12,15,3,0,26,1,21,7,2,2,3,63,47,21,1,8,13,0,2,3,0,2,1,3,0,2,18,15,4,5,9,8,1,5,4,5,0,2,7,8,33,10,45,37,6,37,0,2,2,0,18,22,0,12,13,181,51,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08986879017661295,0.0,0.12176171139286088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1050584286317002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09680385167552212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08972483266562832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1166308089142529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14844945643506893,0.10165249784434008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05682178454102079,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13588814167909144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6189861760862858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1006687762155001,0.0,0.11533243408310527,0.0,0.1266583765839406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11702458155149713,0.30880054471973434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07937603215629135,0.1647069073453146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0955399102006078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11393383636097422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2499809902383432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2358439923388945,0.0,0.15230072666903066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1211626853658131,0.0,0.0,0.11297111025289125,0.0,0.0,0.11240859142134536,0.0,0.07199233990139363,0.0,0.1109598956314635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08936763949630902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17302842697642046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09822348284206056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1248562932314357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06628356235316107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07983023499034647,0.0,0.0,0.14473572728648895
EDAnonymous,flamingoballoon,2019/03/22,"Can I have some support? I texted my boyfriend 

“I’m going to look into therapy to try to have a healthier outlook on food and my body. My insurance covers it with a $15 copay for each visit.”

He responded 

“okay”

Ugh wtf. I feel like I’m making a huge stride and I get an okay? Maybe he felt like saying anything else would make it seem like he thinks something is wrong with me. And I do try to downplay it, but he knows I’m subbed to eating disorder subs and that I’ve tried to purge but can’t. And that I’ve  restricted and dehydrated myself and weigh myself at least once a day. 

So hey ED friends, be proud of me for seeking therapy? ",1.768181818181816,3.603428848484853,3.450000000000003,89.92000000000004,78.69696969696969,6.824242424242425,23.12121212121212,7.793537801064563,1.0335939393939395,496,16,108,8,12,165,87,132,0.098,0.7490000000000001,0.153,0.6794,0,0,1,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,1,1,10,0,0,5,2,8,4,1,2,0,23,22,10,0,1,2,0,2,3,1,1,0,1,0,0,5,11,3,1,5,0,0,2,1,2,0,0,1,4,12,8,14,19,3,7,0,0,1,0,9,4,0,2,4,57,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14629451924313816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19746908456498505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11465082764499505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20374672388986828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18190925312924705,0.14850905530562325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08988889868571083,0.12700322619017046,0.17069286086505892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21496747239895705,0.0,0.13734931420172306,0.0,0.09288063446400267,0.0,0.10103421059179747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09770105287124743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26055715473898017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1492870850936489,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23733375130848144,0.0,0.17859990959674069,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18932566227123468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14137462871595582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16184061433182978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13686066768109953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.201738123901316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40660475074927,0.0,0.0,0.11391169711158634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3620947498142112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12628698593447646,0.19437017315438948,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,happyplantlover,2019/03/22,"anyone else like this? my only true safe foods are melons, apples and popcorn.

I literally eat whole cantaloupes as meals but could not even think about eating an actual meal. I’m sad because I haven’t always been like this; I used to love home cooked dinners with different sides and mains. Now I just snack all day on a combo of those three and never feel full, always feel cold, etc.

Part of me predicts I will eventually limit myself to less than this because of my perpetuating fear of food. 

Oh well, at least I don’t ~look~ like I’m starving, right?? Tough world out there",3.5540540540540526,5.794682108108107,3.940801801801804,86.57931081081081,74.76576576576576,6.241801801801803,21.009909909909908,7.1686216300943375,0.5454245045045036,458,11,88,5,10,143,88,111,0.112,0.718,0.17,0.7343,1,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,0,1,6,10,0,1,2,0,6,10,0,1,3,18,14,5,0,1,3,0,2,3,0,1,0,0,1,0,4,5,9,2,3,1,0,0,4,3,1,1,1,4,10,7,13,11,8,10,0,1,1,1,1,7,0,0,6,55,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.16600544338020115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2830947659151534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11894674600885287,0.17430055073301814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2073982300305939,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1358211383073434,0.0,0.0,0.10970860998954776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17773155118776018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3481354947884265,0.14210732153534555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18972061316964495,0.1123578253372508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1914240669229796,0.17202817163842976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4114018725251752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17063689511773042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24932539831074546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14285181303469222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15353334158468207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13120139126434047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12937836397109576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18421546257002164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14527530514658402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10900134092671826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1469227429083809,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1529517352501488,0.0,0.0,0.18992473986776065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,collarbonekween,2019/03/22,"My new dog is forcing me to eat I’ve been wanting a dog for years and finally felt stable enough to get one a few weeks ago. I adopted a 6 year old papillon mix and he’s the new light of my life. But being a rescue he’s come with a few quirks! Such as, he refuses to eat unless he sees me eat first! I normally don’t eat breakfast and will eat a light dinner late at night. Now I don’t want my baby to go hungry so I’m forcing myself to eat a piece of toast in the morning and dinner at a normal hour. Still not interested in recovery, but the little man is making me feel more normal ",1.7125781250000005,2.788722601562501,4.152000000000001,88.09300000000002,76.890625,6.995000000000001,22.175,7.554174236665415,0.7568006249999999,455,12,103,6,10,160,81,128,0.014,0.937,0.048,0.4320000000000001,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,1,4,1,0,0,11,0,7,10,0,1,0,19,17,9,0,5,4,0,2,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,6,9,1,2,0,0,2,3,0,0,2,2,5,10,1,15,13,5,21,0,0,1,0,6,5,0,0,14,61,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10753163244685668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1044955270737108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7447661233887428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12534290365808062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06133663301730161,0.0,0.11647406430197775,0.13288625509158386,0.0,0.10318395644716732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0633780753110761,0.0,0.06894175351874647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1194632886234318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1368399566822492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08568295758513521,0.0,0.1215818173855541,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0809735875034252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2343187584469808,0.0,0.11383871550352255,0.3565662944058527,0.0,0.0,0.12729164108690447,0.0,0.08220098906980647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09666623959380144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09687619374098824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1431004172774695,0.0,0.09730542629921324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1562358919342757
EDAnonymous,hikeinx,2019/03/22,"Questioning Recovery I don’t know if any of you could answer this, but if it’s too unrealistic of a question, I totally understand. I just thought I’d give it a shot & see if any of you have been through something similar.

I’ve been struggling with an ED for 8 months. Before my ED began, I weighed 125. I dropped down to 108. As of now, I’m 120. All of these weights are healthy according to my BMI. I’m pretty short, so I guess that’s why. 

How long will it take for my body to get back into the swing of things? Meaning when will I start seeing my hair getting back to where it was, my nails growing back, and getting my period back? I’ve read in a lot of places that it takes years for everything to go back to where it was, but I don’t understand it that applies to me, seeing as I only really restricted for about 8 months. I don’t know.

Again, I totally understand that I just need to be patient, but if anyone happened to know a general time frame that’d be great. I just really miss being/looking healthier. :(",3.4526953748006406,4.441647411483256,4.8621818181818215,85.01993939393941,72.49282296650719,8.826921850079746,28.7658692185008,9.21078282632365,2.2769021371610845,795,31,171,17,15,266,119,209,0.07400000000000001,0.846,0.079,0.4554,0,0,1,0,0,0,30.0,0,2,0,0,17,3,0,1,6,0,15,4,2,1,3,34,41,13,0,6,10,0,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,15,3,2,1,11,1,0,2,3,2,0,0,6,5,22,1,28,29,4,26,0,1,3,0,5,7,0,8,16,113,37,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12748866922960392,0.0,0.1600308265417007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08227325902902616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4523809646156392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10012322045339604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1306979472597607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09394496334305412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10574862904294564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18442342442673976,0.11287383071217105,0.06687104442929992,0.0,0.0,0.12972474582243135,0.1296199321741608,0.0,0.1040497024766492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1939948283578608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10412875305793708,0.09880795070841628,0.0,0.0,0.10003354807072383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12817036356633574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18783623203468788,0.0,0.0,0.08724621068922098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0894886157789752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12293361894416935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11970637713264765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2636207508252259,0.0,0.11769563326884902,0.0,0.1507568759302462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.281288424188372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09058333544172288,0.0,0.0,0.08328303743108313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1230077427121638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1769370559515896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07817059492129448,0.0,0.0,0.09341190749685772,0.06861070321158362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36747647062511496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14328279957279233,0.0,0.0,0.10617327064554133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07577162414462922
EDAnonymous,rebelizbec,2019/03/22,"Psychologist or counselor? Also has anyone else done therapy remotely? I am with a new partner who has been super supportive about my ED and it's given me the boost to try and recover. The first step I guess is to seek out a therapist, but I am a 'digital nomad' so I don't stay anywhere for more than 2-3 months. That means I don't have a regular doctor that could recommend or refer me to anyone. I am going to try and find somebody remotely and I'm not really too sure if I should be looking for a psychologist or counselor. I get the pyschologists have more training but I've also seen profiles for licensed mental health counselors who seem to just specialise in ED's. It's not cheap either way and I don't want to waste my money churning through too many trying to find the right one. Any advice would be appreciated, especially if anyone else has had to seek remote treatment.   


Not sure if additional info is relevant, but I've had this about 17 years and I did receive treatment about 10 years ago and since then there have been several relapses that I felt I kept moderately in control of, but have in the last 6 months or so felt myself spiralling and now feel very much out of control. I just want these relapse cycles to end and find somebody that can help long term. On the other hand I'm absolutely terrified about somebody trying to change me and take this away from me.",5.381,6.3340997666666645,6.211851851851852,77.24333333333334,68.0,9.25925925925926,30.92592592592593,9.444778638647367,2.792481481481482,1107,43,205,22,18,365,153,270,0.053,0.8540000000000001,0.093,0.8933,0,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,0,4,14,4,0,0,11,0,27,3,1,2,2,52,45,26,0,8,17,0,4,0,1,2,2,0,0,1,12,14,0,3,10,0,2,3,6,0,0,2,11,6,20,4,30,29,5,26,0,0,2,0,5,8,0,9,13,141,32,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1109953297396176,0.1006875031237905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1816700294232862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0772426569667369,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23826678629539824,0.23276540954208924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1067181755453804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1201593656173208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2547936448277769,0.09068950944109876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11626050840348785,0.0,0.11623833848851485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1897737486026089,0.0,0.10060384909456188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0574327041076449,0.0,0.21812154147370189,0.0,0.3114477754372664,0.09661654622637432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059344213517985536,0.0,0.06455377701262911,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12512824151878565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12073704717117285,0.0,0.0,0.07613457940220933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0925880880693488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.100520402557971,0.09538398078782227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11515879630363884,0.0,0.12372890448924398,0.0,0.0,0.11446839009898445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18132718489958008,0.0,0.08349908414554616,0.0,0.0,0.10970246701477816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0769690941671066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07276636573405759,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09700217743600892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10340480583724213,0.0,0.1283203174015455,0.0,0.09395985592018763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12106800480179575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1288965172191782,0.2141077030260648,0.0,0.08540284776953028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12989596424023014,0.13188258201354186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3084708779997864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09372068777012713,0.1339924204978636,0.09015960889078382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08068852997276818,0.0,0.0,0.14629185384082227
EDAnonymous,ILoveKissing,2019/03/22,"Binged I had a really shitty day and binged super hardcore. I had to have eaten at least 4,000 calories and I'm feeling super guilty because of it. I thought about purgung but I knew that if I did it this one time its going to lead me down a dark path. I'm so sad guys :/",0.4567816091954029,2.427558586206896,2.421379310344829,94.91988505747128,83.82758620689657,4.55632183908046,20.011494252873558,5.46131890053228,-0.23321609195402315,210,6,47,1,6,70,44,58,0.213,0.688,0.098,-0.8473,0,0,0,1,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,3,2,3,0,0,2,0,4,1,0,1,0,8,11,5,0,1,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,5,2,1,0,3,0,0,2,0,1,0,1,6,1,6,2,6,5,1,6,0,1,0,0,1,2,0,1,2,30,11,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2979313295407941,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3151968271998932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2471215973595768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2777621694610644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4839293776449826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33118283029552154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31309931882273795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.388004917543279,0.28498818786130026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Suffering_Skye,2019/03/22,"Got rejected from three schools in two days... feel like shit I really tried my best, even with this stupid ED I tried to do well in school. Yet I keep getting rejection after rejection, and I just can't anymore. Idk y even thought I could get into prestigious schools with my shitty Gpa and scores. They saw me for the failure that I am and rejected me accordingly.",5.0155714285714295,6.361203700000001,5.210000000000001,82.64500000000002,69.14285714285714,9.6,31.142857142857146,9.888512548439397,2.9615142857142858,289,12,57,7,5,91,54,70,0.318,0.565,0.117,-0.9625,0,2,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,1,1,5,9,2,0,1,0,4,1,1,0,0,11,11,3,0,1,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,6,0,1,2,0,0,0,1,6,1,2,3,2,11,3,9,7,1,6,0,4,1,0,1,3,1,0,4,38,13,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20532879858593486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21727650229188866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16530519833296775,0.0,0.0,0.13352416096026695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2734969362369273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10468602820571027,0.14790995900001938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21634050169553395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1655894078357875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18402733880307565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10114965640557097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1326356112605291,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6286089019171044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2125243629982081,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1643672353039518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2811341685601337,0.0,0.20224873652601194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18615450618359614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,bipolarspacecop,2019/03/22,"You’re never “too fat” to have an ED: I’m obese and I finally admitted to my psych that there’s a lot more going on than just some “comfort eating”. We didn’t totally get into it but I admitted that I make myself vomit at least a few times a week and have been having problems with overeating/binging and restriction for many years now. Also that making myself vomit has been a thing I’ve done for years but it’s gotten worse within the last 3 years and became a frequent, every other day” occurrence” within the last year. Regardless of what reasoning I have or excuse I make as to why it’s “fine”, “not a big deal”, or “normal for me”, it’s not okay or normal or fine. It’s linked to almost everything else that is wrong with my life.

I ended up deflecting and changing the subject as I always do when things get too “private” or “heavy” but at least it’s out there. No one else realises it’s such a problem. She just nodded and continued writing notes on her notepad of what I was lamenting to her. I felt gross and stupid and guilty but it was probably one of my most productive sessions I’ve had in the whole year I’ve been seeing her because I finally admitted to one of the several problems I have that are “too embarrassing” to talk about.

It doesn’t matter what your weight is, or if you think your symptoms aren’t severe enough. It’s incredibly validating just to vent to a third party who has no agenda towards you and just wants to help you get better, no matter the problem. Don’t let it get so bad that your health is irreparably damaged. My teeth are fucked because of my purging and that has ruined my confidence even more because I don’t have the money to fix them right now. People train for years to help people in our exact situations get better. It will feel weird talking to what is essentially a stranger but they *want* to help and hear your experience with disordered eating. They want to help and they even benefit from the experience because it helps them learn how to help others like us.

I just feel really content and validated right now and I want to urge people to do the same because I never thought it’d help me at all to confess yet there’s such a weight off my chest now that I don’t have to pretend or skirt around the issue anymore.",5.756284747999665,5.978695752783962,6.3222816134620174,79.35414418873215,66.97327394209353,9.324457642497732,29.99265858285903,9.150863307647796,2.3898170584838736,1799,60,349,30,27,587,219,449,0.16399999999999998,0.695,0.141,-0.9668,1,0,0,0,0,0,27.0,3,7,5,2,26,21,2,1,21,1,34,14,3,5,5,82,60,33,0,12,20,0,5,1,0,1,7,1,0,0,31,21,6,1,12,1,1,1,13,13,0,4,11,7,46,8,52,46,13,43,1,2,1,1,37,18,1,12,25,258,77,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07678709975454502,0.0,0.0,0.061323488857620866,0.06380652532758675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07604908129239217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06826426295000268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06402722876662903,0.2337266882092397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13564003250418827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08112060687130672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.049454289126987454,0.0790569624475944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08788553557699406,0.0,0.0,0.07847348820008644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15693201669653795,0.12811786726566513,0.0,0.06791851180482446,0.07923419459585926,0.0,0.10129699720810152,0.0,0.06460886278038236,0.0,0.0689178723561125,0.1500216737735719,0.0,0.0,0.07754661132799391,0.0,0.07362785133371665,0.16800528929445702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07089233826188837,0.2003189093978312,0.0,0.04358080238020689,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08151060458797313,0.08642748533618194,0.0,0.3597937020796026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08003728765967534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1250140071005318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07841371824496564,0.0541635779666389,0.03746351459542282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06519327351721431,0.0,0.0,0.1535597980131269,0.07774468011483722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11828554820023472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15026641494517726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15588746487865304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15948732662349252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08267740748916236,0.2935016802725061,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.049125190681893235,0.07884305169875064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13097398544043135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061106543851247676,0.0,0.0,0.1732602692774465,0.0,0.0,0.08619507561692116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07970315626302857,0.0,0.123270025558084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10188975746625116,0.04913546739798118,0.0,0.0608778570055503,0.04471456253374918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.092240389970264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1809188390950557,0.0,0.061510598985775586,0.1867588408692072,0.0,0.0,0.06919461727497947,0.08561400056643663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07814668299581846,0.0,0.08384098866345525,0.0,0.2962886139485083
EDAnonymous,littlepinky_,2019/03/22,"Anyone here who hasn’t been diagnosed with an ED but knows/suspects they have one? I haven’t had a diagnosis and I am in the process of seeing a psychiatrist who wants me to get physical check ups to to purging.

What happens when you get diagnosed? Do they make you have tons of check ups all the time or if you’re not under a certain BMI do they just leave you to it? I’m from the U.K. if that helps. ",2.151546218487397,3.6218072470588254,3.5833613445378165,90.99941176470593,76.52941176470588,7.2100840336134455,23.907563025210084,7.957251820313856,1.0110504201680683,316,10,73,5,7,104,60,85,0.051,0.906,0.043,0.344,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,3,3,0,3,1,0,0,7,0,9,2,0,1,2,12,16,6,0,3,6,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,5,2,0,0,0,0,2,0,3,0,0,1,2,1,9,1,12,14,2,6,0,0,1,0,9,4,0,3,2,54,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2180649820675891,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6330778222840919,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3258757561090577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27578336840532297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2090381871959658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3302226142070669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20817395387147486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2113294647601436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24851799114467704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1818524261959792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18394751044004706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,miamyamae,2019/03/22,"Just found this sub and I’m in tears I’ve been reading through lots of posts and feeling so much less alone ❤️ genuinely have never found a place like this before where people have the same bullshit going on. thank all of you for being so amazing as any other ed communities I’ve found have always been really toxic and passive aggressive.
just had to share as you all have made me feel a lot better rn and i finally feel like someone cares and doesn’t think that my ed makes me “weird”",4.313877551020409,5.485225897959187,4.800612244897959,85.58010204081633,70.63265306122447,7.6408163265306115,25.22448979591837,7.957251820313856,1.306208163265306,390,11,78,5,7,124,72,98,0.138,0.69,0.173,0.7040000000000001,0,1,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,2,0,1,5,9,1,0,3,0,9,0,0,2,3,22,22,9,0,0,2,0,3,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,5,0,0,7,1,0,1,2,2,0,0,7,3,6,7,9,14,7,8,0,0,0,0,3,4,0,2,4,49,10,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1827283394705271,0.0,0.0,0.14680394812337635,0.0,0.0,0.11997849467423632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15012899116414832,0.0,0.0,0.1560380556139512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17988221035891136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2676250269410105,0.1260416741396147,0.0,0.1932705130659489,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.580339381426451,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10026927213090077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17238963648152048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29998906520228125,0.0,0.16694239400114924,0.11776843881101028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12969639854276538,0.0,0.13607374318363585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12231439289197805,0.0,0.1843318673597457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16897123310040524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17647781011301408,0.0,0.11302561779363368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1494886220724582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16243310030670488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11304926212291985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,SoEmaciated,2019/03/22,"Do you ever wonder how the hell do some people get to extremely low weights? I was on MPA reading a post about this anorexic woman who went on Oprah and said she got down to 32 pounds before. I know they must have hell of willpower and control, but still... can't fathom. I guess they may must not have the extreme hunger mechanism in their body?",5.91,5.978171764705883,5.4429411764705895,86.31823529411768,66.64705882352942,7.976470588235292,28.764705882352942,7.1686216300943375,1.4175470588235302,272,8,55,2,4,83,57,68,0.147,0.853,0.0,-0.8464,1,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,1,3,1,4,3,2,0,3,0,9,3,1,2,3,14,16,4,0,2,2,0,1,0,0,3,0,1,0,1,2,2,2,1,2,1,0,1,2,3,0,0,4,2,8,0,8,9,1,9,2,1,0,0,8,5,2,4,2,38,10,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22805948390773664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2977022339561651,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3005995813153621,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2424332736788922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14002582952219034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21435463087652706,0.0,0.2952467439813785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1472930396356191,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18580659938580948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2566825495683127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2680857173784357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2549419173349534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21403567910437346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32636786127586376,0.0,0.2484509115005481,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2906488710135804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ImpulseFry,2019/03/22,"My boyfriend and his sister like to tease me EVERY SINGLE TIME I go to eat an Oreo because they’re not vegan. Guess I just won’t eat anything 🤷‍♀️
Also they are vegan where I’m from.",-1.6692857142857136,0.27192730952381083,1.7495238095238117,94.98714285714287,97.33333333333331,4.704761904761905,14.142857142857142,6.42735559955562,-0.5038857142857139,145,3,34,2,6,52,36,42,0.062,0.87,0.068,0.0516,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,1,0,3,2,1,0,1,0,2,2,0,0,0,4,5,2,0,0,2,1,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,0,0,6,1,3,4,1,3,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,1,2,18,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2710988797955147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2789688379877489,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20665178884050436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6937650600614086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.285622860846853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19266201134274732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3734476866020402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1656187054784618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1976741382342184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,tashi56,2019/03/22,"I am really struggling with body image, disordered eating and food, and have for 9 years. I honestly don’t even no how to start because this issue stems back so many years. Basically started when I was 14 years old in high school, like many girls, I want to lose weight and feel good. Started eating ‘healthy’ which was probably like 300 calories a day plus a 4km run daily. Obviously weight started to shred, food was becoming less- I didn’t realise what I was doing or even trying for that fact. 

Friends said I was being weird with food, I just shrugged it off because I honestly didn’t realise. Fast toward a bit- mental health declined, exercise addiction, depression, restriction of food became a whole lot more obsessive. Found help at a psych hospital, eventual tried to eat more but ended up bulimic. I couldn’t eat a meal without trying purge or purge. Everything was revolves around purging. At least 8 times a day. It was painful and I felt helpless. 

I ended up in hospital, despite not being underweight. Bulimia actually made me gain like 14 kgs. Lots of water and food weight. Being in the hospital was actually really good as it made me eat what they had and took away the control. I was discharged and my family said no more help as I should be better now. I slipped right back into bulimia. 

I was bulimic for another 2 years. I stopped cold turkey on the 27th March 2017. I’ve had a few slips but nothing more than a handful of times. However my obsession with weight is still there. I want to lose weight all the time but I can’t stop eating and I just feel like it’s a full circle everyday. Going to bed saying it will be different tomorrow, waking up dreading food, eating, feeling utterly shit, go to bed etc. 

I love working out but sometimes food really gets me down during the day and I feel unworthy to workout because I’d look gross in my gym gear. 

How do I get out of this head cycle??!? It’s literally killing me.  I wish I never dieted ever. I wish it was easier. It’s just not fair. I just want to eat and enjoy food and life. Food shouldn’t be this hard.  I haven’t spoken to anyone for a long time and it’s all just in my head. Thanks for listening guys. ",3.112501209482339,5.329950245283023,4.429716981132078,82.66758103531689,76.02830188679245,8.122302854378328,26.43783260764393,8.914623046629139,2.272952781809385,1720,66,326,40,39,567,223,424,0.139,0.7120000000000001,0.149,0.5321,2,0,0,0,0,0,54.0,0,0,1,6,18,26,2,4,16,0,33,37,6,5,6,64,61,25,1,8,14,0,12,4,1,3,5,4,2,2,16,20,25,4,6,3,0,4,13,13,0,0,22,18,37,13,46,29,15,58,0,4,1,1,11,22,1,4,36,202,53,3,0.0,0.0,0.10223822982582212,0.05710616637639813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05492907044835673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03662803010511756,0.0,0.0,0.046632763331146326,0.0,0.0,0.04921638396289026,0.08055994760133613,0.0,0.09579818954538652,0.05785388495866909,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0463292890060901,0.05718963468667696,0.05818668669997192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05875298088194776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1013498158879103,0.0,0.04511816305551542,0.0,0.0,0.054730010075685516,0.06003647008969639,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4288143328551896,0.0,0.0,0.09279314680707096,0.0,0.058421878394402785,0.06919812348110913,0.047384222663506566,0.0,0.0,0.04707925775486045,0.0,0.049382864363726665,0.0,0.10594746407323773,0.037423057631996964,0.05029674411544936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5700852108190119,0.05743622566502018,0.040471659305644926,0.0,0.05473683528697376,0.0,0.059541937621625386,0.08787423414816528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0518682815462539,0.0,0.0,0.04692567136680121,0.0,0.10752195672134852,0.05568161975928068,0.0,0.0,0.07022362729803044,0.055346450165034485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05467516577208386,0.0,0.0,0.057955007002480574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0370002868753784,0.10236848003241963,0.0,0.0,0.046358089454908734,0.04398926985372008,0.11720833519911053,0.0,0.08906981085952896,0.04727850106369856,0.0991337964141651,0.0,0.10621807403695817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05279063486547205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0404016811750857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05026375008423106,0.0,0.054968074980061815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0557401465632461,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056478687524959235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10067537354108674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04473555123603954,0.0996581401054809,0.04165776757684337,0.0,0.05301528786718827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053771304775254124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051809001331499065,0.0,0.148310332580608,0.0,0.04183383791636474,0.08759054625765839,0.0,0.054763009954840014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04822804295179717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12218185750393347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05820042325450665,0.10669565724456782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09269211708743512,0.0,0.0,0.3189472957699536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05848473643041231,0.12047776415534014,0.05049619544051272,0.0,0.03813609188494901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13493401686222142
EDAnonymous,questions_anonymous,2019/03/23,"Where do you find workout clothes that fit?? I've been running more lately (yay compulsive exercise), so my one good pair of high-waisted compression leggings is on its last legs and of course those leggings are no longer made. I have a 23ish inch waist, which apparently is not designed for except at Lululemon which is way outside my price range. Admittedly, I'm super picky because I need high-rise, very firm/tight leggings to suck in the jiggle that comes from weight fluctuations. Suggestions would be greatly appreciated!",9.630543478260867,9.881369663043484,8.25991304347826,68.61552173913046,58.89130434782609,11.273043478260867,40.13913043478261,10.793553405168565,4.46148,427,20,69,9,5,130,80,92,0.053,0.805,0.142,0.866,1,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,1,0,1,2,5,1,0,2,1,9,7,5,1,0,9,15,2,0,2,2,0,1,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,6,2,2,0,2,2,1,2,2,1,0,1,2,2,5,4,9,11,1,11,0,0,0,0,3,6,1,0,2,38,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15497208613332622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2189907523560499,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2323553737112981,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21323033526940025,0.0,0.28028194479080365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5372014784111939,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.207225816023542,0.2867748113761523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2405521123550212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18850326090501904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17226820080165084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20976074143474616,0.0,0.20179052094435884,0.0,0.3095753355670786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18059284748188134,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,coffee_til_wine,2019/03/23,Quick hyperbolic rant about my impending trip to Mouse Land. I've got hella anxiety about Disney world. Everyone keeps talking about all the amazing food and snacks. I'm going to be surrounded by people gorging themselves on Mickey shaped calorie bombs. I have dinner in the castle scheduled and I wish I could just be a normal fucking person without an eating disorder so I could enjoy a nice dinner. Instead I'll pick at everything so it looks like I'm eating while trying to calculate how many calories I've consumed just by looking at some kids cotton candy. At least I'll be burning a few extra by walking around. Maybe I'll take a second glance at that cotton candy 😂😭,4.552869318181821,6.829651218750005,5.449744318181821,76.71627840909092,71.96875,7.154545454545455,28.82386363636364,8.00094639256281,2.3121625000000003,548,22,86,8,11,179,91,128,0.035,0.8220000000000001,0.14300000000000002,0.9283,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,0,11,5,1,0,7,0,6,7,0,2,1,15,16,6,0,4,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,3,6,1,0,0,0,3,1,1,0,1,1,3,5,4,17,10,5,17,0,0,3,1,3,11,1,1,4,53,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14876602004692127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1731160417111363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.310530684408294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22287497711497464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3979746997070528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18582067450472806,0.1747735747792626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23514915762414354,0.0,0.0,0.17978075873365254,0.0,0.0,0.11051955557159338,0.0,0.15553229016560244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17285038838660371,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09500630454469333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32660506180009113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19715808395142986,0.1953673168537731,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19053547078128374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13481829532763387,0.16980028143253634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14621429166244407,0.15630447004075704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1320297042287933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22362639649589486,0.18745836299807803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,3113912125,2019/03/23,"Free Monster Zero Yes, weird post but I would like to give my Monster Zeros away instead of throwing them in the trash. If anyone’s willing to take them away from me, I would be very delighted. 

I honestly do not like their taste and I made a stupid mistake of buying a whole pack of 24 cans. 

Local to 08083. 

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EDAnonymous,fatxdiannee,2019/03/23,Anybody ever had any weight loss luck with the ACV shots? Apple Cider Vinegar is sitting on my counter and I hate taking the shots but o wanted to know if it actually worked for anyone???,2.4333333333333336,5.084441222222225,3.3255555555555567,87.25000000000004,81.22222222222223,4.711111111111111,22.88888888888889,5.985473137389443,0.5161888888888888,148,5,27,1,4,47,34,36,0.131,0.8170000000000001,0.053,-0.4515,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,2,1,3,1,0,2,0,2,1,0,0,1,8,6,3,0,2,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,1,2,1,4,5,0,3,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,2,1,15,3,1,0.0,0.0,0.3708377762087399,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25842180551716043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2657138578050365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.343743427284506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3751840678039133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.208845153518663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28572241017567823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22414145622660134,0.0,0.0,0.4627533402822968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2766539196150043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,the_better_cheddar,2019/03/23,"My heartbreak is doing me a solid. So, two weeks ago my ex and I broke up for the 3rd (and what looks like to be final) time. We were together for 2 years. In all honesty, I’m doing better than I thought I would be, but at the same time I’m still struggling a lot. I haven’t been eating regularly since the breakup, not even because of my ED, but because I just don’t eat much when I’m down.

I know this is going to make me sound like a psychopath, but in a moment of weakness today, I downloaded Tinder to see if he was on it. And of course, he was. I found him in literally less than two minutes, and we live in a pretty large metropolitan area.

I feel like I got kicked in the stomach. I hate feeling this way. And I hate myself. ",2.662615835777128,3.38072071612903,4.446099706744871,88.28369501466277,74.09677419354837,6.926686217008798,25.058651026392962,6.980632752743323,0.8273225806451605,561,17,128,5,11,191,99,155,0.136,0.74,0.123,-0.7269,0,0,0,0,0,0,22.0,2,0,0,1,5,10,2,1,9,0,13,4,1,1,1,23,28,11,0,2,6,1,2,3,0,1,1,1,0,0,4,7,2,0,5,0,0,1,3,6,0,2,7,5,21,4,19,18,5,22,0,2,2,0,6,10,0,2,13,88,25,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14961569083241352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20577674986601927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1492745931919729,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34541370300022983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11147938975420743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1706832215488432,0.12057840350802206,0.0,0.18489321146952253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1850615324465954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09592310509191704,0.0,0.13499095375096004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3332759707288488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09275856472045783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2473761232960749,0.0,0.14903822734755975,0.0,0.14173496945663902,0.0,0.0,0.14349302640921574,0.0,0.0,0.11266377118836332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1240747140481818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1717126970554156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13449796946164538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13961880390190454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13479009219855265,0.0,0.0,0.1764483377222153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13399462048377225,0.19683711390370956,0.0,0.15998627617046135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32975236997825025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13397186096461636,0.13538731112162944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11989839632119326,0.0,0.0,0.1086905330676409
EDAnonymous,Irene_sel,2019/03/23,"DAE feel like you wasted your life because of your ED? Wasting your life by thinking about food, weight, calories, body, self hating.. Not being present in the moment because you're busy focusing on certain thoughts or feel anxious about something...

Annoyed at myself for being like this and feel regretful, because instead I could've just focused on things I needed to do and enjoyed doing. Would've accomplished something, maybe.
 
It's not that simple but still : /

It's 3 am... Idk what I'm doing lol",5.0760000000000005,7.636554988888893,4.530833333333334,82.61625000000002,71.33333333333333,5.833333333333334,32.361111111111114,6.6274283507984215,2.1001111111111106,399,19,63,3,8,120,69,90,0.116,0.728,0.157,0.5927,0,0,2,0,0,0,19.0,0,4,0,1,5,7,2,0,1,1,6,5,1,0,1,15,14,4,0,2,5,0,4,2,0,0,2,0,0,1,6,2,2,0,5,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,1,4,7,4,10,11,0,7,0,1,0,0,5,4,0,1,5,39,13,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2314910011220515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3747353638648061,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2276098255726537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16360468674725115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31082733678303265,0.1463883940313499,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2477790840237523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20230709938446612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28946926932847994,0.20021823896296856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2058605495648005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15193884229398685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21376676705559716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3155008569293345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16364211628470404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13613370254074628,0.13129863627701527,0.0,0.16267637264043427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2495262833279826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14556283027272024,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,hannahruthkins,2019/03/23,"What are some foods with very very low calories, like Shirataki noodles Any suggestions? Shirataki noodles and broth are the only things I really know about. ",8.438846153846157,11.096358269230768,6.726153846153848,69.99384615384618,62.46153846153847,11.353846153846154,36.07692307692308,11.20814326018867,5.004753846153847,129,6,18,4,2,38,22,26,0.094,0.809,0.097,0.0238,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,0,0,4,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,2,3,1,1,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,1,1,10,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26432834032204705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4700158247205799,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21361855553720108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18989847565434687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29562275966137097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24901024176360695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2582340423286952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6414340165120552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,classicjunkie,2019/03/23,"im disappointed in myself for some context I'm 16 and a trans male

my gender dysphoria has been fucking me up a lot recently which I can usually handle except it's been playing into my eating disorder. well it was especially bad today and that coupled with the fact that my current boyfriend is losing a lot of weight due to unrelated issues has left me in a permanent state of self hatred and comparison and the whole nine yards. but today it peaked while I was eating cheez its and I purged for the first time in months. I just thought I was okay and beyond those coping mechanisms but apparently not. it seems I'll always be stuck in this headspace and I just feel hopeless.
sorry for the rant, I just needed to tell someone bc I don't see my therapist until Friday. I'm comforting myself with a walk and a white monster even though it's 8 pm because fuck my sleep I don't have to do shit tomorrow. goodnight my fellow fucked up people.",4.373575289575292,5.924524291891896,5.509517374517376,79.09817567567569,70.94594594594594,8.312741312741313,27.808880308880312,8.841846274778883,2.234752895752896,754,27,139,14,14,250,121,185,0.196,0.758,0.046,-0.9829,2,0,0,0,0,1,9.0,0,0,0,2,7,12,4,0,10,1,14,8,2,0,1,26,25,13,0,1,7,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,11,11,3,0,3,2,0,1,3,8,1,2,7,4,19,4,20,17,4,23,0,3,2,3,4,9,4,4,12,98,30,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12164747356920445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12206824582767935,0.08912023019707825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1617640109226767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16755423228782973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2991917089238571,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0965616269436996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0739215096220339,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12435494832586046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4054698387365549,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15791766315597955,0.15259150667026944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1588432828107737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1635568562965199,0.0,0.2485826324614624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11669291435562425,0.0,0.0,0.10840309647959584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10135447354559864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1443517316260929,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11649994479226453,0.13309210263433802,0.15251517731339387,0.0,0.15006894438117324,0.0,0.0,0.14630241091106205,0.0,0.12387209904718136,0.0,0.0,0.16365538110112596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1277824727024778,0.0,0.0,0.1697457869478066,0.0,0.0,0.1436376425146046,0.11606395212733298,0.0852485468540482,0.0,0.2771549996774311,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1610151529517952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17802835244367782,0.13144850708248634,0.0,0.0,0.16322353893413855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,hdiejdi,2019/03/23,"Distraught from mean Reddit comments. Just want to binge and die. I made a comment on another subreddit post about depression and got a ton of terrible and mean comments. Who cries from others’ Reddit comments? I feel like a loser. Ugh. 

I am frustrated with myself and just want to binge. And then google ways to commit suicidal even though I know I won’t do it. And sit in bed. 

Will there ever be an end to this black hole? I feel like I can’t climb out. 

PS- Two months ago I got back from residential treatment. So much good that did....",1.4484615384615367,4.055412952380955,2.506666666666668,91.47692307692309,86.14285714285714,5.897435897435898,20.457875457875463,7.321109707123232,0.7241282051282059,420,13,85,7,13,133,75,105,0.259,0.634,0.107,-0.9701,0,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,0,2,9,9,1,1,4,0,7,0,0,1,2,20,17,9,2,2,2,0,2,2,0,2,0,0,1,0,5,8,0,0,5,0,0,1,2,6,0,1,4,3,9,3,13,10,2,13,0,2,1,0,5,3,0,0,8,56,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16752712049469495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19817117852466065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1453206801765502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20759526336979106,0.0,0.0,0.16277573009333124,0.0,0.19614048098321307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16738793421834822,0.0,0.0,0.12482528440781787,0.1709511406629483,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19111677701548266,0.27002719595998537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15851479372353786,0.3023031294232613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1038632723772614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18466071031436584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17882572112238054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4117282969180824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15084901408414328,0.0,0.13892847371187228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18099897745512036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20672301412544167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18568048350104827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1846145438068904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2229409179659909,0.15001046995704168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,unimaginablemonster,2019/03/23,"Fluid Retention After Surgery? I was curious to see if anyone would have any information about this.

I got some teeth removed and a bone graft procedure yesterday morning. This morning, the scale says I'm about 2-3 pounds heavier than I was before surgery? Of course, I have been eating even less than usual since I'm on a mostly liquid diet now. 

Am I right in thinking it's probably just water weight? Definitely need some reassurance rn lol. 

Thanks 💖",3.1239285714285714,6.08625686904762,4.262190476190476,79.46614285714288,81.5,7.1695238095238105,26.25714285714286,8.238735603445708,2.3137657142857138,363,15,61,8,10,118,68,84,0.0,0.83,0.17,0.9143,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,0,5,2,0,0,3,1,7,6,2,0,0,10,14,2,0,3,2,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,3,1,4,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,3,5,2,9,9,4,8,0,0,1,0,3,3,0,4,4,36,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19119656079560832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19659167563815624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2392440984047721,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2876940419390772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18570170177219836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22486712468265274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20847452689849505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3031350522130387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24010674210024854,0.0,0.2235875177500269,0.0,0.0,0.22404591439728488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23257616982967005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2588518069203532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18015420327677226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30965497227685346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.342373767498423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19972603263880653,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Thechickentendy,2019/03/23,"cold. Is anyone else struggling with feeling cold constantly? It doesn’t matter how hot or cold it actually is outside or in, I will always need a blanket. Sometimes it genuinely feels like I’ll never get warm. I do my best to hide my shivering, and I try not to make it obvious to family/friends that I’m freezing even on sunny days. The only things that somewhat work for me are layers and layers of bulky clothes, hot tea/broth, and heating pads. Anyone have any other remedies? ",4.6981677018633565,6.3621538478260895,5.440062111801243,79.46891304347827,70.30434782608695,7.86583850931677,30.534161490683232,8.418075326091056,2.458681366459627,382,16,67,6,7,124,72,92,0.08,0.787,0.133,0.7090000000000001,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,2,2,4,0,1,2,0,7,0,0,2,2,16,13,6,0,1,3,0,6,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,8,4,0,0,2,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,0,9,6,3,8,12,2,5,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,3,4,42,14,1,0.0,0.0,0.2349903470207051,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2003685419212022,0.0,0.0,0.16375524192015553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3367520552634801,0.24673255327443666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2527093495982204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2602239969692951,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15529890952767253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2011611675003456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1590490277238784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2435158686818903,0.17203070347561344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18604487344782286,0.0,0.12581035431476584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11764486086947455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1607387994025003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17855340307584225,0.18572318976429286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18314258874576694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2381616978781105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2517410314147661,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1599797358922398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1634903731817854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17530846301476646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,pomp-and-regrets,2019/03/23,"Tossed back here Long story short, my living situation got a lot better so I was feeling better mentally. My disordered eating behavior got a lot less severe. I probably still need therapy at some point but I wasn't tracking calories as I was. 

Now I might have to move again in a few months, stuff at my job has been in a lot of upheaval, and I need to start preparing for grad school, which terrifies me. So my ED behavior has crawled back in like ""hey :)))) u want some control over ur life?? I can give you that ;) and u will even look fab to boot 😍""

Aaaand guess who's calorie counting again?? This bitch. And this time I live closer to a gym so guess who's gonna start living at a gym in a month when I have the money?? This bitch.

Fml...",1.0927000000000011,3.308255253333337,2.6195833333333347,92.97937500000002,83.13333333333333,6.15,20.708333333333336,7.413659706084162,0.5984333333333343,568,17,125,9,16,185,98,150,0.117,0.7759999999999999,0.107,-0.7632,1,0,0,0,0,0,28.0,0,1,0,3,12,6,2,0,8,0,11,2,0,1,0,17,24,9,0,3,1,0,1,1,0,3,1,0,0,0,8,3,1,1,1,2,1,1,1,2,0,0,6,2,15,4,15,15,7,25,0,0,1,0,6,11,2,8,14,80,23,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20839895350429946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2396966639860945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15198693762373988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15530717076307274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13866142679377766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08950363640557568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06851835588498728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1299943523177627,0.0,0.0,0.21676080698336989,0.0,0.2985609511813169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1344736059737445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09571531876294116,0.06620375492345841,0.0,0.3589756817056148,0.11992283531104787,0.11379498219511565,0.0,0.0,0.3456194285988561,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13656306127748144,0.14375559405789012,0.0,0.0,0.216326930441684,0.14402658475994656,0.0,0.2009591519870585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1281015513848812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14610361260094248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1371442117356588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1530886854729042,0.0,0.0,0.15231986970194222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19183054994415547,0.0,0.1082191374550286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15512749912078014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15496846342380305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07901746463092556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07992780852139438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,22cals,2019/03/23,"relapsing - purging?? sorry about the account literally being made 2 seconds ago but i have another reddit account and i wanted to make a separate one to join this sub <3

anyway, last year during the summer i purged a lot (almost after every time i ate whether it was a proper meal or me trying to throw up an apple) and i don’t remember how but i slowly started doing it less until the point that i wasn’t purging anymore. since then, i’ve still been restricting and having disordered eating habits (don’t want to call it having an ed because i feel invalid and fake) 

but the last few days i’ve felt even more shit about myself than usual and whenever i’ve eaten anything i get an urge to purge and literally 20 minutes ago i gave into that urge and it all just happened so easily and felt GOOD at the time. now i’m sat here mad at myself for doing it cause now i know it’s an option that i have now i’m terrified i’m gonna fall back into those habits of purging all the time and i literally don’t know what to do. idk this is kinda just a rant but does anyone have any advice on how to stop ??? ",3.3067933368037496,4.556394707964606,5.049573138990108,82.53793076522645,73.15929203539824,7.441540864133265,24.356064549713693,7.928766900206844,1.3357410723581469,868,25,171,12,17,296,135,226,0.123,0.818,0.059,-0.9367,0,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,0,0,15,4,2,0,14,0,16,5,1,5,2,40,36,20,0,2,8,0,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,13,11,4,2,6,0,2,2,4,3,0,2,10,3,16,1,20,24,6,30,0,0,0,0,2,7,1,5,21,116,29,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15042919968094626,0.2729185191542053,0.0,0.15414950684296175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1046850448212032,0.16142038501672545,0.0,0.0,0.15266794050765908,0.1076390092479558,0.0,0.12668018837529366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11837099783948675,0.0,0.09384090254394703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15719080139686736,0.0,0.0,0.158139639727674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09927910162726436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17642953062596076,0.0,0.13471465973614855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15751990281551753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10167646788468188,0.0,0.12970179062780698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07783711021619585,0.0,0.29561468031165056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08042773120407606,0.0,0.0,0.1291182664613167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1361293696069555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16920371106485824,0.2509646490700914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1308749906466167,0.0,0.14566253765744305,0.10275670093151394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10431429198766144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14552384459936205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17438495402599155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1580180521684556,0.1273414472606038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17232415844014232,0.10896011343223333,0.0,0.12293734752958853,0.12870142881836713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2692924118234417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10451572019120736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1695440781833113,0.0,0.18159658272191265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09913284885382903
EDAnonymous,ironicalyalive,2019/03/23,"I want an A$$ Do any of you guys know how to build a butt???? I struggle with ed and am terrified of eating calories that are above my BMI. I know a big butt isn’t that popular here, I also want to be skinny but also want a nice bum.  I am really trying to get into fitness and meal prep and overall just improve my health in general but am stuck because I don’t know what to eat or how much to eat. Also don’t get how much protein should I get daily if I want to build muscle - - I’m 5’3  105lbs and skinny fat :(

Please help if you have any fitness history but don’t be mean I’m very insecure about posting
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EDAnonymous,ihavenosister,2019/03/23,"Feel fat only when/after I eat Can't even eat a normal meal without feeling like a fat piece of shit. Even eating at a calorie deficit I still feel fat. I only feel happy when I'm fasting. 

Reeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee ",3.683780487804878,6.266146097560978,3.085548780487805,91.19710365853659,75.82926829268294,4.1000000000000005,24.88414634146341,3.1291,0.2644097560975607,174,6,31,0,4,51,28,41,0.242,0.667,0.091,-0.6224,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,4,3,1,0,3,0,1,8,4,0,0,6,6,1,0,1,1,0,4,1,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,7,0,4,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,4,3,2,3,6,1,4,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,4,15,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6395928171378817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2752309914223177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4213990800417904,0.1488477538978484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22179613314674385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10179097651907523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2041421537791191,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3169243911359013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21387183320664796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16639134279219134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2008453009270053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,nihilistatari,2019/03/23,"aaannddd I'm back hey compadres

i was very very active on r/proed back when that sub was around last year, and  I had slowly fallen out of my eating disorder for a while. i always had the ED thoughts in the back of my head, but, as of recently, I can tell that my disordered thoughts are coming back as of a result of a massive massive month-spanning depression episode causing me to gain lots of weight.

so hey i'm unfortunately back lmao ",3.6242857142857146,5.338014252873566,4.583579638752052,84.33724137931036,73.13793103448276,7.730049261083742,28.52052545155993,8.418075326091056,2.031218062397373,348,14,69,6,7,113,59,87,0.13,0.74,0.13,0.2359,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,1,8,1,0,0,5,0,6,3,1,2,0,10,11,7,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,4,2,0,2,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,6,1,8,0,14,5,1,16,0,1,0,0,3,4,0,1,10,46,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13667312792820402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1462215705241748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6315089015829846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16873489622276094,0.0,0.14149094139586332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1414723938681309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3765003966376469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16807363732690025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1685727828949726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13388956143237304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13964353278495034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13110659139968106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16218177085253702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14356590997109847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26079988201197896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2710547770094145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2000180609960636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10577468743714537
EDAnonymous,PoemOfLifeItself,2019/03/24,you know that feeling when... you shit before a weigh in,-0.2681818181818194,1.804562636363638,0.5004545454545449,101.2706818181818,104.45454545454544,2.2,14.590909090909092,3.1291,-1.451763636363636,43,1,9,0,2,13,10,11,0.275,0.611,0.115,-0.4767,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,2,0,0,1,1,1,0,1,0,0,2,1,0,0,2,2,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,1,1,0,1,6,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5568105675247161,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3308631286098712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3596181118480876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6716892106101658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,illmurderyoudickhead,2019/03/24,"BMI of 21.29. Ashamed of myself. Title says it all. I don't even know why I feel ashamed. Hell, I don't even know if I'm happy or sad about this. Just ashamed.",-2.2301904761904763,-0.5454242571428551,-0.5035714285714263,109.06273809523813,105.85714285714286,2.333333333333333,14.404761904761903,3.1291,-1.7776666666666672,121,3,32,0,6,38,25,35,0.389,0.526,0.085,-0.9231,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,0,4,6,1,3,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,7,6,2,0,1,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,2,5,0,0,0,2,4,1,3,6,1,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,1,2,0,17,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5490468962653238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21015788936990945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.44245191240478776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4568450022383746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33053017687180625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37504655518116375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,lovedieshere,2019/03/24,"Overeater finally became an undereater... So I've had an EDNOS for years, but always on the overeating end of the spectrum. Overeating (always) & purging (sometimes). Even once dug into an old first aid kit to use some Ipecac. I'd always wished I was on the undereating end, but now that I am... fuck. It finally got triggered.

This Friday morning I went to the doctor's and got weighed: 140lbs. BMI of 24. Fuck. Last time I'd looked I was at the low 30's. 

*Me: ""Did I just hit 140..""* 

*Nurse: ""Yep!""* 

*Me, audibly: ""Oh no...""*  
*Nurse: \*laughs\**  
I've seen myself as fat since the 4th grade, & since then every ten pounds has been a knock to my self esteem. But I thought I was a worthless pig without self control, so I surrendered to the Oreos, doughnuts, and buttered toast. 

At a doc appointment,  at the age of 21, my insanity finally swung to the other side of the disordered eating spectrum. To be fair, there are other contributing factors. For starters, my bff also has an ED. Really triggering. It also doesn't help that I feel like I have no control over anything in my life right now. One fuck up after another. 

Stayed up til 2am yesterday, looking up the menu the dining halls would be serving. Literally drew MAPS of where to go in the dining hall, where to stop first, and how to avoid the sweets aisle. Now I am three days into restricting. Went from binging twice a day, every day, to ≤1,000 calories a day. Tallying up calories, drawing maps, and printing them out 'tricks' me into a sense of productivity. When I know it's a huuuge waste of time & my academics will only suffer from it.

I once lost 15lbs in 3 wks by 'dieting' over summer cap in middle school, looking back I know that I was restricting. A part of me is gleeful knowing I'm back to that. That I'm finally caving to it's desire to be small, dainty, & precious.

Fuck.

(New accnt bc my ED friend may know my other username & she doesn't deserve for her bff to be a trigger. I'm also terrified of anyone realizing what I'm doing to myself)",1.5201362353452017,4.096147410714289,3.2255210594876265,86.79242726877987,85.09693877551021,5.9892314372557545,23.391445940078157,7.378060373470096,1.2608456795484155,1563,59,299,26,47,517,221,392,0.153,0.7559999999999999,0.091,-0.9785,0,1,0,0,0,0,101.0,0,0,1,5,17,15,5,1,27,1,24,13,1,7,0,36,51,17,0,3,5,0,1,1,1,3,3,1,0,2,15,8,7,6,7,0,0,3,5,10,0,6,14,8,31,5,56,29,2,69,0,4,4,4,7,33,4,2,33,188,46,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19465427806474672,0.2025359834352914,0.4395563424656208,0.0,0.0,0.0850786023859804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056732465779206424,0.0,0.06676835379773115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1247777851375334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1820027704326783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20930509394357316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09298935747003688,0.08304655571628955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08302280519360118,0.0,0.0,0.14372555692099606,0.0,0.0,0.05358983490390909,0.0,0.1367218529732723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04102500777873439,0.05796386893773747,0.0,0.3555238936758282,0.0,0.1380291811808961,0.0,0.0,0.06268579063618285,0.3000372218814661,0.0,0.0,0.04611169272347173,0.0,0.12978440124197302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054384026674978506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17836180051767067,0.06613700490479897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05730904727756415,0.0396391525400188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2044024540331289,0.0,0.08856997821001389,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0783620522932779,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08513901577031589,0.1728152615274201,0.054980132591517135,0.06170789746542212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0878628274999351,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0519780631375944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06929005251794725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08211438060055025,0.0,0.0,0.16928594579978715,0.0,0.0,0.13423375687795125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08024598611115226,0.0,0.0,0.08648061963860043,0.0,0.06783367347197734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06441324809518251,0.09462258862664456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07007580925010333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15042853357198946,0.0,0.0,0.0933028695848862,0.07821260579909672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05763697916056903,0.0,0.0,0.052249189160034064
EDAnonymous,raspbunni,2019/03/24,"reached a new hw :):):):) i stuffed myself like a fat pig while pregnant and now i want to :) kms

i don’t know how to cope",-3.684102564102563,-3.179899923076924,-1.1923076923076916,111.32897435897436,125.15384615384615,1.7333333333333334,15.871794871794872,3.1291,-1.6723897435897437,86,3,24,0,6,28,22,26,0.0,0.687,0.313,0.7351,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,2,0,1,1,1,1,0,4,3,3,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,4,1,2,3,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,13,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4072159565282488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3619989340924764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7156303196650541,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4370413962553054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,LifesOke,2019/03/24,"Yikes my friends know now At my friends house the other day, and accidentally told her that all I had eaten that day was a bowl of oatmeal. The conversation went like this: “why?” “Oh.. I don’t know just trying to lose weight I guess” “that’s really unhealthy..” “no it’s cool, I’m not that hungry anyway” “are you sure?” “Yeah it’s fine” *my friend continues to stare at me In a pitiful, concerned way*
Yikes 
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EDAnonymous,shaacat,2019/03/24,"Has anyone here seen a dietician? And did you find them helpful? 
I might be seeing one soon and I have no idea what to expect so I was curious to hear about others experience with them ",0.8554054054054028,3.4024891351351343,2.923027027027029,87.28616216216219,90.08108108108108,6.203243243243244,18.210810810810813,7.554174236665415,0.7703881081081088,146,4,29,3,5,49,32,37,0.058,0.7909999999999999,0.151,0.5482,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,1,2,0,4,0,0,0,1,0,6,0,0,0,0,7,9,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,2,3,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,3,3,6,0,4,4,0,1,0,0,2,0,5,0,0,1,1,26,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2554116276289285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3573130342220826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33385846379452994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4116960736255416,0.0,0.2448388692310709,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4123556221926823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3875033819322982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2475225597827016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2910801358911435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,myrtlewils0n,2019/03/24,"now we ALL have a complex I’m 23F, 5’6” and 110 lbs, working on recovering.... My step-sister is 13F, 4’10 and maybe around 125-130lbs? My step mom (her real mom) is very vain and very blunt/rude about it. 

I’ve always had a complex with my weight since before my father married her, and since coming into my life, this woman (46F) has always felt the need to compare us, even though I’m half her age. She will pinch my stomach and publicly accuse me of not eating or point out when I eat more at a function and say it’s my “skinny genes” that keep me from gaining or say I exercise for attention which, I don’t even get how that last one works but... Saitama-OK.jpg

Long story short, she recently bought her daughter some shorts because they were on sale. She didn’t check the tag, which idk why but I guess it happens. My sister tried them on and I guess they didn’t fit. But step mom can’t return them bc they were final sale. 

From the dining room, my stepmother tells my sister to give them to me to try on. I try and say no because wtf are you trying to prove I’m not gonna fit into teen girl clothing???? Whatever. I go into the bathroom. Not only do they fit, they look great on me which makes me feel weird because I’m a grown woman in teen girl jean shorts. 

I come out and show my stepmom, who makes a point to comment that my sister couldn’t even get them over her thighs yet they fit on me. My sister gets embarrassed and runs off to her room with tears in her eyes. I get embarrassed because wtf?? Why would you do that to your kid. 

Then to top it all off my step mom later, after pouring herself several glasses of wine, tells me I can keep the shorts but she wants me to “apologize for making her daughter feel bad.” Like LADY!! WHAT!!

Anyways, my family is a trainwreck but whose isn’t I guess. 
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EDAnonymous,wad_of_dicks,2019/03/24,"You’ve lost a ton of weight! I had a relapse about a week ago, and I’ve never restricted so much in my life. I had a reunion with an old friend/ex today. He told me I “lost a ton of weight”. The last time we saw each other I was near my highest weight, so I know he’s not saying that my normal weight from a week ago was huge. But shit, that was a trigger. He must’ve noticed the shock on my face because he immediately apologized, but he said his real thoughts. On top of that I’m feeling foggy and spacey, and I’m pretty sure I lost track of what I was saying and had to restart my sentences multiple times. I got home and immediately started walking. Even though it’s pouring rain, so now I’m walking in wet shoes. I’m not even sure how I feel. Hurt? Gross? Worthless? I don’t know just bad. I feel kinda validated but also so embarrassed when people notice that I was heavy. ",1.206448087431692,3.2018590710382533,3.076639344262297,91.11255464480877,81.24043715846993,5.5967213114754095,22.188524590163933,6.691623216298621,0.4439377049180329,682,22,150,7,18,228,107,183,0.175,0.7070000000000001,0.118,-0.9397,0,0,0,0,0,0,23.0,1,0,0,4,13,12,1,1,10,0,9,8,3,2,3,29,27,16,0,1,6,0,8,0,0,0,1,3,1,0,7,8,4,1,6,0,0,2,4,10,0,0,16,12,20,2,13,11,4,22,0,5,1,0,12,7,1,1,13,86,27,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.203118084937224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0916212720598992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09566083494839682,0.06984056806616852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1513442876937838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17378950479239832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08851619294373607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09163177958539416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11492265566886993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12264913218488692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1259289177673813,0.09338951981718972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08092390053248373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3751987747475981,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08422184252996985,0.0,0.08836314269047997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1122538878791046,0.0,0.2608765102612011,0.12022152820411446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07942813873817987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11655847722672673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1304052934443616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10898193092814752,0.1822206974312451,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11760405355208566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08109295640136817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2159609944617175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11256405562150476,0.0909554691527634,0.13361291652716809,0.0,0.10859858966390516,0.10947616774945568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18380165346847324,0.5580596566707767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,unharmed,2019/03/24,"I am almost at my ""goal weight"" but my ED brain doesn't notice a difference and wants to go lower (:( Have been restricting more than usual in the last two weeks and am almost at the weight I have been telling myself since forever that I want to get to before I start eating normally. Now that I am, my dumb brain is just like ""nope. No difference. Go lower."" Smh.",2.8866666666666667,4.599676555555559,4.003888888888889,87.73,75.1111111111111,7.5777777777777775,20.333333333333336,8.344100000000001,0.9218166666666672,280,6,58,5,6,91,50,72,0.205,0.737,0.059,-0.9136,2,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,1,2,2,1,0,3,0,9,5,2,0,0,10,15,3,0,3,2,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,3,1,0,0,0,2,3,1,0,1,2,2,9,1,7,13,1,10,0,0,0,0,1,3,1,2,6,39,11,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35436375261733954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1505646287492932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3950516306940469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3697335066394805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1810558626388952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09244490374208547,0.0,0.20112045803124246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.144231364472302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08644493450530871,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17336561369859355,0.0,0.2014496653767985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14636826947802506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12524047423905246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15465512669781994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17284664529823962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19487663959993065,0.0,0.20872997855704875,0.0,0.14193221746892185,0.4309354298861873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,2LOSEYOURMIND4,2019/03/24,"Triggering the girl with an ED So it’s November, I’m at my lowest weight (116) and our end of year formal/prom was on. 

As I walk toward the venue in a skin tight, backless dress, a girl in my grade, (who everyone knew had an ED) came up to me, clearly staring 

“Omg do you eat? Your body is amazing! Make sure you eat something today haha!” 


I felt like shit for clearly triggering her, but also a part of my brain loved the praise. Not just from her, from a shit ton of people. I was no longer the little chubby nerdy girl. I looked HOT and I hate how it fueled my ED. 

I hate how boys notice me now, when before they would tell me “I never knew you even came to our school, I only realised you exist like now” and how my friend tells me they all talk about me now.  

Sigh. It’s a never ending struggle ",0.4605689424364101,2.562197319277111,2.152449799196788,96.05637215528783,84.8433734939759,4.6527443105756365,16.451137884872825,5.82211442006289,-0.6279239625167339,609,12,137,4,18,199,108,166,0.117,0.6970000000000001,0.185,0.8269,1,0,1,0,0,0,24.0,2,5,2,1,12,14,4,1,11,1,6,9,5,6,6,26,17,11,0,1,3,0,5,2,1,1,0,0,0,4,4,6,3,1,3,0,0,3,4,5,1,0,8,7,29,8,17,8,3,20,1,0,2,1,22,7,2,0,12,89,33,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1156480217065716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1230561373664756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16063391168085395,0.0,0.1614374110883763,0.0,0.33080051920787396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2959531104878072,0.0,0.0,0.2561707324160588,0.0,0.0,0.09551639632842916,0.0,0.0,0.1381851827593503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13885242845558868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11172866707469213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.285553408366027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14130250675055964,0.14494154300530784,0.0,0.0,0.12143960911579338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13052007245968486,0.0,0.09653118342690806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2230709618886022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1646443650209195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1099857090709452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15660321904458846,0.0,0.10025736279780392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14635741527790205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29688904840964664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11133117091872473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15118228934090078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13629728781190303,0.0,0.0,0.1162355147846363,0.25279858454731463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1370774687186567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17610128586195187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10272986573938378,0.0,0.0,0.0931268825253432
EDAnonymous,annoyingdoggy,2019/03/24,"fuck my heel basically since the beginning of the year I’ve been uncontrollably bingeing but managed to (kinda) maintain due to the fact that I walk every day to and from school (abt 35 min each)      So of course because fml I guess, the ED Gods decided to punish my dumb ass. 
 I got a heel spur that is causing massive pain and doctors recommendation is that I take the bus/bike instead of walking since walking can worsen the joint pain. 
Problem is no option burns as many cals and I actually fucking like walking. My ED brain is telling me to just ignore all common sense because otherwise I will definitely gain but I know this could permanently hurt my heel. Oof. ",3.748733333333334,6.2893853600000025,4.614900000000002,80.52928333333338,75.4,7.046666666666668,29.61666666666667,8.07648339933343,2.264906666666666,530,24,95,9,12,171,88,125,0.289,0.636,0.075,-0.9877,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,1,3,11,4,1,7,0,8,10,5,1,2,18,15,7,0,2,3,0,0,1,0,1,3,0,0,0,4,4,0,1,2,0,0,4,1,10,0,0,2,0,12,1,10,11,2,10,0,1,0,3,1,0,4,3,7,52,16,3,0.0,0.0,0.18961171573019564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2368906310225057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21690642647791444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19960272135712104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15513514823668176,0.0,0.0,0.12530937146952625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1988773708932806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1637086717712519,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3592600159226441,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1554018723554321,0.0,0.2140466787861471,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2080053980239233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10678385650311888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09492663932419217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19699276184668268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41350421825242795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18592174576485504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19664502622068866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32145892653532826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14609168723275348,0.0,0.16982940082833448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12512477226572138
EDAnonymous,Inky-flower-,2019/03/24,"Am i projecting? So I saw a post over in r/Instagramreality of a girl who bought a $6 ice cream cone to pose with for a picture, then threw it in the trash after the photos were done.

Everyone in the comments was (rightfully) angry that she wasted food like that, but it didn't really sit well with me because that seems like a very disordered behavior, but i dont know if im just projecting onto this boujee insta model (sometimes people have to remind me ""not everybody is afraid of food you idiot"" lol) or if thats an actually concerning thing she did.",6.533848484848484,6.051295172727272,7.972727272727273,70.55575757575761,65.45454545454545,11.696969696969695,31.06060606060606,11.20814326018867,3.454878787878787,439,14,84,12,6,153,84,110,0.106,0.847,0.047,-0.7375,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,1,0,0,3,5,1,1,9,1,9,2,0,0,0,11,14,7,0,2,7,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,9,2,2,0,2,0,1,1,3,2,1,0,8,2,8,3,13,6,0,11,0,0,2,0,6,6,0,4,4,58,17,2,0.0,0.0,0.21543284612084893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13457507797978094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25301352819795864,0.0,0.0,0.2259172000164971,0.2587325961262389,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21094851058273792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5338950006269234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2384619270686921,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12132557335729925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21570730483128367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1530492700797103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2114299329705596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14142643310097705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18853039889254675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2009743472486704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2183402555098756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14666513012932494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1821525981872111,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19849245285647094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,skinnyasanant,2019/03/24,"For fucks sake, can someone give me some cake? Im so tired od restricting, i wanna scream. I'm mentaly exhausted and i'm worthless and i just want to die, because death is the only thing i deserve.  I just wanted to get it off my chest. Thank you very much, have a good night.",-0.2669736842105266,2.0186700877193005,1.4729605263157914,97.19259868421057,93.73684210526315,4.253508771929825,19.40570175438597,5.985473137389443,-0.10826140350877188,213,7,47,2,8,69,47,57,0.363,0.5379999999999999,0.099,-0.962,0,0,0,0,0,1,9.0,0,1,0,0,3,6,1,0,2,0,3,4,1,0,0,9,11,3,3,3,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,2,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,1,7,2,5,11,2,2,0,1,0,1,2,1,1,1,1,26,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17060826542801694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29046446840002704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2587385068360131,0.14622233313039776,0.26848012817355804,0.0,0.2347445823607825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30231136669989,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2057391980485652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2626422859922917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2128563802860539,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2371358770801287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2576698826577229,0.0,0.0,0.18593549285476135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3216733748098943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23092491779641186,0.3301532396422941,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,wwchim,2019/03/24,"My mom supports my eating habbits. So I've been considering recovery recently. But that's really hard when my mom supports my eating habits. I'll tell her things like ""I'm going to fast today, and maybe tomorrow too."" And she'll be like ""okay. I'll make (insert food I dont like) so you won't be tempted to eat it"" or I'll tell her that I'm trying to stay under 600 cals and she'll make me a really low calorie dinner. It's been nice to a point I guess. I honestly think she doesn't know I have an ed, because if she knew how bad it is then she would be more concerned, but idk. I'm 5'10"" and 230lbs so I feel like she doesn't think I can have an ed and that I'm just on a ""strict diet"". I would tell her how bad it is too, but I'm scared that she'll just think I'm faking it. Idk. Should I tell her? ",-0.24906269397889602,1.4585098324022354,2.1978305400372453,97.0173665425202,84.75418994413408,5.542023587833643,16.648355058969585,6.691623216298621,-0.4176520173805085,616,12,155,7,18,211,90,179,0.125,0.7909999999999999,0.084,-0.8417,0,0,0,0,0,0,25.0,0,1,0,0,10,14,0,1,5,1,20,6,0,4,0,26,38,17,0,4,7,2,2,4,0,7,0,0,0,0,10,5,6,0,6,0,0,1,4,5,0,0,3,2,25,9,6,25,1,12,0,1,0,0,18,4,0,3,10,85,35,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21300780774057365,0.07775693314382988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14949464255291114,0.0,0.0,0.3915647938161958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06449612920501534,0.09112600783390323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15424118080693186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07249299519442398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1405172777006284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11426509128762803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07010142321892415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2492696081947931,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17028919602878714,0.0,0.1281471128668591,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29878401224121226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12058161791492235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16343123657792288,0.0,0.12594612828563095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12770577461578247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13595768824770785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2894979979721348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.44595814732110417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08474251614188506,0.2451981382225792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12090814135432253,0.0,0.0,0.08660212814535789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18122419744445525,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,COOKIE_PRINCESS,2019/03/24,"Pooping undigested food? Should I be worried? [TMI] I'm so sorry for this.

So uhh, I just pooped what seemed like half a bag of undigested peanuts and I'm freaking out a little as this has not happened before. Apparently I don't even chew that much because half of these looked like I'd just taken them out of the bag.",1.6134598214285705,4.023127890625002,2.725714285714286,91.805,82.59375,5.5321428571428575,23.205357142857146,6.868970318607317,0.7277482142857141,251,9,52,3,7,80,47,64,0.114,0.805,0.081,-0.2735,1,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,1,0,5,3,0,0,3,0,4,4,2,0,0,8,10,4,0,1,3,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,5,3,2,0,1,0,0,0,2,1,0,2,1,1,4,2,7,7,1,3,0,0,1,0,1,3,0,1,2,33,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19186889331292492,0.0,0.267829367289815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20788963916736564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38059737528438137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27833269699895297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30754224689143683,0.31546254081998193,0.0,0.0,0.2643110239722693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2313777245295432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28653689947468114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35233725033182706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3196442610363512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,mbrace256,2019/03/24,"DAE eliminate foods that caused the stomach flu? There are numerous foods I don’t eat because they’ve made me sick: lettuce, peanut butter, pineapple, WhichWich, and more I can’t currently think of. 

Well this evening, I can’t seem to pinpoint what made me gave me massive stomach pains that’s left me sleeping in the bathroom. ",9.215500000000002,8.493178883333336,7.353333333333335,77.96500000000003,60.16666666666666,10.0,43.33333333333333,8.841846274778883,3.9558333333333326,263,14,46,3,3,77,47,60,0.14800000000000002,0.816,0.036000000000000004,-0.765,1,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,2,0,4,9,3,3,0,6,9,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,4,1,3,0,2,0,0,0,3,1,1,0,3,1,7,1,3,6,1,3,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,1,25,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14488555507894324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2441595174470756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2432026753442553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15698326730222498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5747993958534167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2582365098217061,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4497910197064146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25290484444399874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21637200806323686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2378484208059395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15229367948016795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21369996319386544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,skinnylegendthrow,2019/03/24,"Y’all know when you’re like sort of pretty where you are but you’d be hot if you could lose maybe 150 pounds I’m 5’11, have high cheek bones, a pretty symmetrical face, straight teeth, an oval face, shape, almond eyes, long, wavy hair, I know how to do makeup, hourglass figure, *but* I’m 266 pounds.

I used to get told I could model/act. 

End me. ",-0.41746753246753343,1.809202214285712,0.3775324675324683,103.69019480519479,98.28571428571428,3.116883116883117,10.649350649350648,4.851557810540192,-1.875,265,3,62,1,11,80,55,70,0.051,0.799,0.15,0.7140000000000001,0,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,4,0,1,3,2,0,0,2,0,7,7,7,2,0,11,14,5,0,3,3,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,3,8,1,3,9,0,7,0,1,1,0,5,4,0,2,4,25,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4121152344638062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22858420512515026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1348372850330553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2726779886833001,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2836704290416036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12608591497997007,0.0,0.0,0.2283946044248913,0.0,0.2887279401272472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2592782344365547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5251247105040395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24660857907700295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.222900136887158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,croutonsatan,2019/03/24,being helpful burns calories i feel like i'm so much nicer now that i care too much about my weight. want me to run upstairs to grab something? sure! carrying something heavy? let me get it! i've learned to enjoy helping people all because i wanna be skinny can anyone relate ,1.4334433962264157,4.1401201509434,2.3560141509433983,89.97100235849057,92.77358490566036,3.4047169811320765,23.60613207547169,5.148860815047168,0.4557188679245288,220,9,38,1,8,69,44,53,0.0,0.649,0.35100000000000003,0.9619,0,0,2,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,4,4,0,0,0,0,4,2,1,0,2,6,9,1,0,2,0,0,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,2,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,3,6,4,5,6,3,2,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,23,8,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18855027762337756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16438025907810508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27493304024987936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13634656100240794,0.19264284444941587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14088452832386994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3614904865144327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2757423086585161,0.0,0.1317406728849659,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3964574939309002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.186946045620702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4151898988117804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2541483066600281,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1590505446255003,0.0,0.0,0.3283692898147313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ristii,2019/03/25,"Yes, I'm done with treatment. No, my boundaries have not changed. After I got out of treatment my friends and family started treating my ED like it was a non issue. Like all of my triggers when I was in a treatment center are suddenly null and void.

I have VERY simple boundaries. Please don't discuss my body. That's it, that is all I ask. Talk about dieting all you want, talk about food, numbers, calories, fine, whatever, just don't make comments about my body.

Either they don't talk about it at all (Great! I like this one), or they make comments that send me into a spiraling fucking suffer hole. 

Just quit mentioning my weight restoration! Say I look healthier or something like everyone is supposed to. I could take that much. 

Don't poke my stomach and exclaim ""You've finally got some meat on your bones!"" Don't tell me it's good that I gained weight because I looked like a skeleton. Mom, don't tell me that I don't have an ass right now! I really don't want to hear it! 

My opinion of my body shifts from ""I'm satisfied"" to ""I'm fucking disgusting"" to ""I wasn't happy the last time I had a thigh gap, maybe this time I will be.""

Today marks the first day in 5 months that I've attempted fasting. I ""failed"" by eating over 1000 calories (and when I realized that I had a panic attack.) I'm horrendously disappointed on two levels. 

I hate myself. ",2.3682108902333643,4.617222509363302,3.4412172284644207,88.68139369057911,78.5880149812734,6.504696053010662,25.625036012676464,7.61054688173877,1.3968093921060212,1058,41,212,16,26,340,149,267,0.096,0.7609999999999999,0.14300000000000002,0.8204,0,0,1,0,0,0,48.0,0,2,2,5,9,20,5,1,9,1,23,14,7,3,4,26,42,8,0,3,6,1,2,5,1,1,0,2,0,0,15,7,5,0,1,0,0,1,11,9,0,3,8,6,36,11,23,31,7,27,0,3,2,3,19,11,3,4,20,129,51,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1054867023791565,0.1283675731119808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06878395703725543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3760070539322076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11936583666638947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0900905985620545,0.0,0.0,0.07277007441215774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11547070388654343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11545969757378555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10781991366318272,0.0,0.0,0.10637201507326714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12360664382618805,0.0,0.09597849336902327,0.13644209365067286,0.0,0.08717704023791698,0.20863066972099165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09464172926982327,0.1804909829564272,0.12440241162026387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12011633231320752,0.0,0.11140247898311403,0.0,0.0,0.12717470314900373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11777177433056032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09197663903233907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2756305664256493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1895081355134586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15063820382275864,0.0,0.1133592227663855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13215250287330252,0.09006485272580153,0.0,0.08294765862573474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0764607925109288,0.0,0.0,0.1323890781541268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12386036585076203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12001528713151205,0.0,0.0,0.07228581877404844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09636157788138083,0.0,0.08973194928436594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08686689120194911,0.0,0.0,0.0798661091051137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0848388498501926,0.2720806149781006,0.1972477874674442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1315914999620265,0.0,0.10695561236946824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11022466271959827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09310175907768008,0.13310753845538476,0.0,0.0,0.27480841373097714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,dontcareifithurts__,2019/03/25,"Temporarily moving in with my in-laws We sold our place and bought a bigger home that requires some renovations, and I'm excited to move into it when it's ready. But it won't be ready for probably a month and a half, and in the meantime my husband, baby, and I have to move in with my husband's parents. 

They do family dinners EVERY NIGHT and they make so.much.fatty.food. 

Most of it is delicious, i'll admit. But they put heaping portions on my plate, they push me to have seconds, and they basically don't take no for an answer. I feel like an asshole every time I leave a plate half full and they act like I'll die if I don't overeat (lol)

They also go out to restaurants a lot, and buy snack foods galore. Chips! Ice cream sandwiches! Chocolate covered nuts! Danishes! Etc. 

Nobody else in my real life understands why this is a problem, why it gives me unbelievable amounts of anxiety, why I have a really hard time with the idea of dealing with this for over a month. Along with my ED, I am a huge introvert amd just generally like peace and quiet and my own space. They're loud, opinionated, pushy and in your face people. They stress me out so bad. 

Send prayers lol. 

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EDAnonymous,pettybat,2019/03/25,"Eggy taste in mouth while fasting? Anyone else get this when you don’t eat “enough”?

Every single time I fast or even just drop under 300 calories, that nasty taste in my mouth takes over.
Could it be the lack of vitamins? I do brush my teeth regularly, have tried to make it go away with mints, mouthwash, etc. 
Doesn’t leave me alone until i start eating NoRmaLLy again.

Haven’t eaten an egg in more than 3 years, this is how I remember the taste. 
I can’t be the only one.",2.7525526315789466,4.4843215578947415,3.3254605263157906,92.37134868421057,75.52631578947368,6.434210526315789,19.24342105263158,7.1686216300943375,0.12723684210526232,368,7,80,4,8,115,75,95,0.128,0.872,0.0,-0.867,0,1,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,1,0,0,5,0,0,0,4,0,10,11,3,2,0,9,16,5,0,3,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,5,1,7,0,1,0,0,1,4,0,0,1,1,5,9,0,11,12,5,17,0,0,0,0,1,6,0,1,9,52,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23043583773923415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15557240717231846,0.2279705595895684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2090396699863516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1776427026409378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4553321445408068,0.18586450516619366,0.0,0.0,0.229894934798809,0.2481387130910936,0.146954649361001,0.0,0.18746010320520665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11624350534482393,0.0,0.1264480035769939,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23558815591494675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1485159277170255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21799608011714194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15076713935198896,0.1692160920274496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25204140452428786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1574818204929114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16728718442197954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1297375645791034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15105826680398776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14327831548981562
EDAnonymous,WithoutSymbols,2019/03/25,"Weird undefined eating disorder I feel so ashamed just typing this. I’ve never admitted this to anyone and I feel so fucked up.I’m a 26 year old woman who had been overweight all of my life up until four years ago when I decided to make a change. I counted calories, started exercising and lost  25 kg (about 55 lbs). Now my BMI is in the normal range - but ever since, I’ve obsessed over staying thin, yet still wanting to maintain my eating habits of when I was bigger. Not easy. I eventually figured out a “hack” to make this happen: I’d basically binge in such an amount that my stomach literally couldn’t contain anymore contents. Often this would consists of having a large dinner, followed by a large dessert; perhaps a bag of M&Ms or 4-5 candy bars. I’d also make sure to drink a LOT of diet soda throughout the binge.

What follows is going to sound so messed up, it’s difficult to even type it. But my stomach would be overflowing to such an extent that food would just start coming back up my esophagus - usually whenever I’d be burping. The carbonation in the large amounts of diet soda I drank would help push the food back up my throat. And the more I practiced this, the ‘better’ I got at it. I learned to almost effortlessly use my stomach and throat muscles to push the food back up. After about half an hour of this process, I would have managed to throw up at least  2/3 of my meal this way. Completely undigested and the process was completely painless. 

I don’t do this very much anymore, since I got into a serious relationship and am now living with my partner. But my relationship with food is forever strained. I am extremely uncomfortable eating in front of others and try to avoid it at all cost. I still count calories every day. I don’t own a scale any longer, but I measure my waist/hips almost every morning. When I’m alone, I still repeat this messed up eating/purge pattern sometimes. Sometimes I hate myself for doing it. Other times I feel like I’ve just found a neat hack to eat what I want and not gain weight. It’s weird. 

Not sure what the point of this post was. I guess I just I never considered whether this was an eating disorder until recently. And if so, what kind of eating disorder would it even be? Some fucked up version of bulimia? I don't even know. I just needed to get this off my chest.",4.065573951434882,5.8215861037527645,4.894541942604857,82.38344646799119,72.06843267108168,7.594039735099338,28.47737306843267,8.256446698504663,2.0315161147902883,1847,72,346,29,36,598,234,453,0.152,0.8009999999999999,0.046,-0.9931,1,2,1,0,0,0,54.0,0,0,0,3,33,20,3,4,24,0,28,33,6,4,7,68,58,26,0,12,15,0,5,1,1,6,4,2,0,2,28,14,22,2,9,3,1,8,9,14,0,2,11,7,40,6,54,37,12,64,0,1,0,2,7,23,2,8,31,234,68,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06441349530684058,0.0,0.14552780905235116,0.07525944268363648,0.0,0.058110496459840615,0.0,0.07873293370183042,0.0,0.049414965786744175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14412910783586289,0.05080933927469127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16762562842776585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06426664378919925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07687036119813613,0.06259481037893477,0.15237658488371486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0468631734229942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2498425415361917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0711844308513379,0.0,0.4461290887339911,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14398443990982282,0.06573001711171038,0.12244747198225203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11022543319845747,0.05191217836349856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3514691745803481,0.07967386365296245,0.0,0.134355988165058,0.037964673870492564,0.0,0.04129742305288464,0.0,0.11623432164802887,0.0,0.08004913368359319,0.0,0.06425777581876994,0.0,0.0,0.07174204141620225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04870608785464807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07156078454298688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0756698350851094,0.03993500507899967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0513257230519024,0.035500645394215186,0.0,0.06416488206805157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07932287113940348,0.061777527021062574,0.0,0.0,0.14551416211060386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05341743213278469,0.05388047552335177,0.11208807681994494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07119666653326348,0.0,0.0,0.07625011672545323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06869229329093676,0.0,0.06959336942234097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07174831896150778,0.15603089693101888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12021914439382668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14373588306990492,0.0,0.10286589238357054,0.07745165107055288,0.17409205390693758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13697256458005458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0423717808008871,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.049335038698664034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06275957722327741,0.08003067522283278,0.059956567543569934,0.08571987467282849,0.057678414539816786,0.0,0.08848688457999652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3097165041619976,0.0,0.0,0.0935882741001083
EDAnonymous,chubspo,2019/03/25,"Just a rant about my brain Hellooo. I don't know what's up. I've always had trouble with food and my body. I was skinnyfat growing up with my smallest weight shortly after starting college at 135 (I'm 5'4"" so still felt pretty fat). Over the past 5 years though my secret eating and bingeing has gotten worse and worse. My highest weight in October 2018 was 215. Now I weigh 197, which I lost through newfound fasting, restricting, and a few semi-successful purges. Now I found this sub and I feel like I relate to so much of it even though I kind of feel like an impostor. But I just feel like since high school I haven't been able to fully focus on my life. Like all I can think about is my weight. I weigh myself every day, usually more than once but I've been trying to limit that. I'm trying really hard to stop with the binge eating but man it's like a voice in my head just telling me it's fine, just do it. And as I gained weight it's like I felt like I deserved it, like I was becoming who I actually was all along. I'm so mad at myself for letting it get so out of control, but still feeling even more justified in my dysmorphia because now it's true, I really am fat. ugh. I would kill for a single day where I didn't think about my weight at all. I foolishly hope that day will come once I lose weight but in the back of my mind I know that's laughable. /endrant",1.7736713286713304,3.610281821678324,3.099300699300698,92.43433566433569,78.68531468531471,6.218181818181819,21.839160839160837,7.1686216300943375,0.5398293706293709,1075,31,237,13,26,349,153,286,0.135,0.718,0.14800000000000002,-0.0345,0,0,0,0,0,0,30.0,0,0,0,5,22,18,2,0,8,0,18,17,5,1,4,44,38,18,1,2,9,0,13,8,0,2,3,1,0,1,15,12,13,4,12,0,0,2,3,6,0,0,13,14,37,12,33,22,8,33,0,2,0,0,4,15,0,1,24,149,52,2,0.08314137026077595,0.0,0.08113398408767176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06918028037327179,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06393058172002555,0.0,0.050682207620670085,0.09182311136731196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09235131947946756,0.0,0.09281326571304424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07161892863962215,0.0,0.0,0.09325011640166864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16085791711274974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17014875608522775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1098281818646092,0.0,0.07005019030259965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16815509969004147,0.17818863458018888,0.1596575075165823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10053487493976022,0.09116022112473422,0.0,0.0,0.04343793442774554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07447833712425582,0.0,0.08532703217345708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08784342245849162,0.0,0.08257814038767942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0919836077747222,0.08657894298783965,0.09138464552129533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08501768409181966,0.0587252085976167,0.3249493910127055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09301392658292401,0.0907586270048792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0839490830229269,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061118473510341366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17708569177387978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07936784555604874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08458466341736035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10652498149102234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08414350540982095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06877540063892776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05884788979686149,0.0,0.1327936113766838,0.06950990836213049,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07266922221215166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10654726592342577,0.16337194829883742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11289506572837855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09156847321792908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6074627433724099,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16945631852341397,0.05906124399080687,0.0,0.0,0.053540316551040565
EDAnonymous,icetesseracts,2019/03/25,"I have a canker sore and a mild case of food poisoning... And it's fucking awesome. I literally can't eat. My inner cheek feels like it's on fire, and I'm getting a built-in cleanse!

But I don't even have to eat, because ""eating is physically excruciating and may make me shit my pants"" is a perfectly valid excuse to pass on meals.

I hope I can get at least another two or three days out of this. 🤞",1.1460714285714315,3.0108117023809555,3.5359523809523807,88.4132142857143,80.78571428571429,7.057142857142857,23.595238095238088,8.07648339933343,1.1972666666666676,309,11,71,6,8,107,63,84,0.146,0.675,0.17800000000000002,0.4186,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,1,1,6,3,0,4,0,8,10,2,1,1,12,15,6,0,1,2,0,2,1,0,1,2,0,0,0,3,5,5,0,1,0,0,1,2,3,0,2,0,2,8,3,8,14,1,7,0,0,0,1,1,5,2,3,2,41,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2368514049241748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13769233424008656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1456717792959735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6933847347999279,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14918942402299054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11421004173688233,0.16136635308675626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2731309911872333,0.0,0.0,0.20881936097683784,0.23602249652143406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2243465200309839,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1103519416846252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1507744451141073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2318591772383786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2206487058089341,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,infinityletters,2019/03/25,"im too fat to think ive relapsed? i weigh about 130 and i have a pouch. i used to be 105/110 and starve, purge, exercise, the whole works. but now i think ive relapsed bc ive started vomitting up my food to make myself feel better. i yearn so hard to starve myself but my binge-mentality and be-happy-mentality keeps forcing me to not and i just want to be skinny again. i want my ed back so badly. but i dont think im relapsing bc im fat and still eating regular food. ugh. ",-0.9234674063800306,1.185246951456314,1.943363384188629,94.23351941747576,94.04854368932035,5.272954230235784,18.036754507628288,6.868970318607317,0.13715312066574192,368,11,86,6,14,128,60,103,0.198,0.763,0.039,-0.9305,0,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,0,2,9,4,0,0,2,0,7,9,3,2,0,20,17,10,0,3,5,0,2,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,0,5,7,1,4,1,0,0,2,3,0,0,0,2,17,1,8,15,1,6,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,5,49,17,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1361805761857241,0.1478728484978128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15663240751709834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20756233176564945,0.0,0.0,0.1812196527668424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08954813857569169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.42830510305735997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15864868721754075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.573901947734004,0.0,0.0,0.1574164759070943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11821702102041158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12535377161037645,0.0,0.14143395871365375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3404396066973536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15295934400248334,0.0,0.0,0.20891880375937025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19772816001761306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12893243158658507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,wastedoreos,2019/03/25,"Any taller girls here? I’ll try not to make this too long. 

I’ve had an eating disorder for about 10 years now (21F) and it’s mostly about taking up too much space as a person (stupid I know). 

I am 5’11 and I feel like I need to overcompensate for being so tall. So, if someone is shorter than me, but has a BMI of we’ll say 23, I think that’s great. But for me I feel like if my BMI is 20 I’m overweight because I’m so tall. 

I’m constantly trying to rationalize but all my friends are 5’3 and shorter and I’m so jealous. 

Can anyone relate?",-0.28679269882659497,1.6685466440677956,2.150000000000002,95.81514341590616,86.79661016949154,4.986701434159062,18.39895697522816,6.297961479604792,-0.2635249022164272,416,11,100,4,13,142,78,118,0.087,0.7859999999999999,0.127,0.6966,0,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,1,0,0,0,10,6,2,0,3,0,9,2,0,1,1,18,20,14,0,3,6,0,2,2,1,1,1,1,0,2,3,4,2,0,4,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,3,11,4,12,17,3,9,0,0,0,0,5,5,0,3,6,58,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15746490466025093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16190819192848313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14115338821846318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25022800120840594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2653813566848929,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2369379171714661,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23416168298263426,0.3308449610990949,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17889832359854418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25528949858521865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1272562202007677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22625152738149004,0.0,0.0,0.204918321388364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15456433288076982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17021909707040128,0.17169462340515318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20218433507139325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1841413204255651,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19619525721126274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17410006089684507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1483706836831973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3144204206725919,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1491134155803081
EDAnonymous,shiftless-kitten,2019/03/25,"Shouldnt have weighed myself I was not home for like some weeks and I couldnt weight myself for that time.
After some time I was feeling a bit better, cared lesser about all the food and calories I ate.
But today I was home again and I coulnd resist.
I weighed myself.
I gained 4 lbs over a bit more than a month and I just.. 
let me just say: The stress is back again.
I was dumb.
I knew better.
Still I did it.
Yes, some part of me wanted to fall back to old habits - to restricting.
But some part just hoped for me to be successful at intuitiv eating.",0.2006390977443644,2.4861675350877235,1.4558897243107791,99.12789473684214,88.56140350877193,4.309774436090225,14.283208020050125,5.773587663045528,-0.990268671679198,425,7,97,3,14,134,70,114,0.093,0.72,0.187,0.8747,0,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,0,4,9,8,1,1,5,1,11,6,0,0,1,22,17,6,0,4,6,0,2,1,0,1,0,1,2,0,2,4,6,1,2,0,0,1,3,2,0,0,7,3,18,6,13,6,10,15,0,0,0,0,1,2,1,5,13,72,20,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26333606043870605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3028843193931689,0.3738853746739157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17458401619119635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17521467000039476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08658082779728321,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20705628817265725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3435224240621045,0.17007355152248102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17509790615083182,0.0,0.0836560631166195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1366769858278962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17968080598539027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3708584958025308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1361717916531422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13674733410258755,0.0,0.19614745281681195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19969531988396905,0.0,0.16230938344551288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10099798421055407,0.0,0.13735322504215353,0.20851633313188836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,fritterly,2019/03/25,"Anyone watched the movie Us? (Spoilers) ~~ Big ol' spoilers for movie plot below ~~

The night after watching the movie I purged and I felt really bad thinking that my tethered self would also be somewhere doing the same action. ):  I felt guilty thinking about a fake entity being forced to purge bc of me even though I don't give a shit when the real me is suffering from purging lol.",2.304322678843228,5.11794990410959,2.9294977168949785,88.50633181126335,84.2054794520548,4.888280060882801,21.80974124809741,6.42735559955562,0.6341914764079148,305,10,54,3,9,95,58,73,0.223,0.708,0.069,-0.9164,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,1,0,0,0,5,4,1,0,7,1,6,1,1,0,0,8,11,4,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,4,0,0,1,1,4,0,0,2,4,8,0,7,6,1,6,0,1,2,0,3,2,1,0,3,35,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19894883029083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1739523706106276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2077204429685872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16431647548067385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.47773455726499103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2386519102805648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23346265401063696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2831654703236035,0.15937448123129858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.259531215314533,0.0,0.2553685226761663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3188156429689745,0.2444245391403153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2992510379303621,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17672577812563692,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,sadgab_,2019/03/25,"a thought on a long plane ride I can either make myself happy or her happy
It’s always easier to choose her",1.9313043478260887,3.6119188695652182,4.286304347826088,84.81467391304348,77.69565217391305,6.339130434782609,15.847826086956525,7.1686216300943375,0.036060869565217146,86,1,17,1,2,30,20,23,0.0,0.611,0.389,0.8807,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,1,0,5,3,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,4,2,2,2,1,3,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,1,1,12,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3126232175353885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7999067035493612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3324940796808855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2507912677816801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2982740626608924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,werewolfnightmare,2019/03/25,"rant about a friend faking an ed i know someone irl who is faking an eating disorder. she’s literally stealing a mutual friends experience (down to her heart disorder from her anorexia getting bad) and claiming it as her own on the corners of the internet. she could very well have a problem with food but she’s known for lying and having unwell mental health. this is very triggering for me because im recovering from an ed of my own and i’ve seen her fake stories about me too and use them. any advice on how to approach? 

(she’s also pretending to be someone she isn’t physically. could this be related to body dysmorphia??)",4.234249999999999,6.281967258333335,5.609999999999999,76.215,72.25,8.8,31.16666666666667,9.3871,3.154316666666668,501,23,88,12,10,168,81,120,0.179,0.762,0.059,-0.9369,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,1,0,6,9,0,0,8,0,9,5,2,3,0,14,13,8,0,3,1,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,4,5,2,0,2,1,0,1,1,6,1,0,1,1,14,3,17,8,2,5,0,0,1,0,13,4,0,0,0,63,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17446084045047047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1427731513217693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1214088816588684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1490679899611654,0.10883234612143823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19831043749289726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28508889651935865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4092296476823684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1826843105670823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17463999138200922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21588338038884408,0.0,0.27586903184057066,0.0,0.09327636928965798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18977272982930354,0.0,0.21156302135529906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19284678391510385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09811732596571393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17991974606975872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17083241915684197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3025416592502001,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15419559566113245,0.0,0.2946176202968021,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16052303038616356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,LowFatMilkPlease,2019/03/25,"Boo Boo The Fool gets played again, then binges. People say they're ''disappointed'' but not shocked! Read More. So i got played by this guy, and it really SUCKED because I've really been there for him, and as a last attempt to patch things up, i decided to give him one last chance. Then shocker, I got played AGAIN. So due to this (idk if its minor) inconvenience happening, i decided that the only way to cope would be by throwing myself a pity party, then proceeding to eat a 840 calorie bag of flamin hot funyuns, knowing well that I'm already at my calorie limit. RIP past progress, hello new HIGHER weight.

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Ps: To anyone who's into astrology, can we agree that cancer men are the absolute worse? AVOID THEM AT ALL COSTS!!",4.715636363636363,6.569855342857148,4.9664935064935065,82.12396103896107,70.57142857142857,7.948051948051948,27.72727272727273,8.575989854853784,2.058071428571429,588,21,108,10,11,185,106,140,0.181,0.665,0.154,-0.8162,0,1,0,0,0,0,31.0,1,0,1,3,6,10,1,1,6,0,5,3,0,0,1,14,13,10,0,2,3,0,2,0,0,1,1,1,0,2,9,4,2,2,3,4,1,1,1,6,1,1,3,3,10,4,15,8,2,17,0,2,0,0,10,4,1,1,11,62,19,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1752512064264482,0.0,0.0,0.34414196670198266,0.38594399538898094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11104391213872694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09680933529501794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16250266860087553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0829718703260192,0.15234539008527495,0.0,0.0,0.25403034136713193,0.0,0.0,0.1572472470476715,0.1404354969796615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08727803310484987,0.25890331614878664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15338005726263354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10761402539118382,0.12078245234543294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15160248009688287,0.11009912330149664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15885335908727033,0.0,0.2034759955139384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1262923905386928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10550656163030794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12605628980597294,0.0,0.19338826241389875,0.1427896064455538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16184134756495885,0.11281433940764266,0.0,0.38594399538898094,0.0
EDAnonymous,youreacreep_goaway,2019/03/25,"Creeps that lurk and post in these subs... LOL So I made an account to reply to some creep who clearly has an ed-girl-fetish (his invasive questioning of one of the users and the way he wrote was sort of... disgusting... and I looked at his history and I was right lol his account is like blossum64 or some shit) and it just got me thinking:

I wonder how many creepy, old, ugly men are here lurking? Trying to lure innocent girls or guys and get their personal information? And WHY DO THEY ALWAYS USE the most ANNOYING EMOJIS lol

shit like this: ""hi you sound so sweet 🤗 so young, so tight :))) and what is your weight? please contact mail with me anytime 🤗 oh so young and tight hun. HUN. HUUUNNNNNNNNN."" 

Sigh.",0.31259803921568263,2.5837836911764707,1.2832352941176488,95.95539215686277,101.7941176470588,4.913725490196079,18.166666666666668,6.6274283507984215,0.2572460784313724,546,17,113,9,24,169,98,136,0.099,0.727,0.174,0.8937,0,0,0,0,0,0,31.0,0,2,2,0,8,8,4,0,5,3,7,3,2,3,1,28,15,17,0,0,3,0,3,2,0,0,0,1,0,4,6,10,1,2,4,0,2,0,0,4,1,1,5,6,13,3,9,10,3,8,0,0,1,0,19,3,2,8,5,63,19,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1752896193602738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1100634306561418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16848752927803734,0.0,0.0,0.2085908320891885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20583992560680936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1769050010573568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19933570638686768,0.0,0.2135805909293743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22105680305230965,0.0,0.14275161900932298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18394398911519835,0.0,0.2312462005119303,0.0,0.0,0.2017582191189704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2359922904438166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17990620815098046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.43248786623437613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1349852124537717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.143027268698569,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18194636411961226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16721555940964974,0.0,0.2565324311271928,0.0,0.0,0.19009181367641345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2284565066977131,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,InactiveDegenerate,2019/03/25,"I'm stuck in the cycle I'm not in a good place. I've been going through a really bad binge-purge cycle recently, which in itself isn't unusual. The pattern is usually a few weeks of BP and then whatever was stressing me goes away, or I have some kind of huge destructive episode, get really ill, and kinda reset back to restricting. But this time the cycle isn't stopping, if anything it's getting worse. My weight is impossible to determine- I'm terrified of weighing myself but I'm so bloated that I honestly can't tell what's going on in the mirror.

 I tried to break it with a fast- I went around 68 hours(or thereabouts), and felt fine. I wasn't hungry but I started to lose the ability to concentrate and since I have so much work to do for uni that was a problem. I decided to split my planned week-long fast in half and eat some biscuits or something. 

Well that didn't go to plan- turns out I can't trust myself with *any* food and ended up eating an entire packet. They were wafers so not that dense, but I guess fasting had affected my stomach because I began to feel really nauseous- I made myself sick purely because I couldn't stand the feeling. Now I'm sitting here feeling like crap. I still can't concentrate, I feel like i've binged even though it was probably under 1000kcal (and I puked half up- wafers are super soluble), I broke the fast that I was trying so hard to maintain, and I'm gonna be all bloated and gross in my face and stomach.

I'm so sick of this. I'm so tired of being... the way I am. It's ruined my life.",2.6796189800023664,4.5088512939297125,4.08638267660632,86.41292746420542,75.9968051118211,7.1929475801680285,25.96958939770441,8.045849151850463,1.6048150278073603,1217,45,245,20,27,402,178,313,0.211,0.7070000000000001,0.08199999999999999,-0.9903,0,0,1,0,0,0,41.0,0,0,1,5,14,18,2,1,14,0,24,14,4,2,2,41,50,25,0,3,9,0,7,2,0,1,5,0,0,0,14,14,5,2,6,0,0,4,10,9,1,2,14,7,29,9,32,32,5,39,0,3,0,0,2,15,1,7,18,153,43,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0877484941058684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10618513639618067,0.11486885955040127,0.0,0.0,0.12123300214628073,0.0992202546597198,0.1077391658646046,0.15731755950108905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2640708477007755,0.0,0.0,0.11428706113907212,0.0,0.0,0.08522666210940424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2609766932302179,0.18436582539835344,0.12389421563146301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15603011305904485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13483133736175862,0.0,0.2200013675400966,0.1082287681386749,0.0,0.0,0.14214703629520525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11559036969917585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1343705084531081,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09114151623894166,0.12608035333151907,0.0,0.0,0.11419226497058516,0.0,0.14435760217034535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12209641165947265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09485586307765237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1348145250568282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13912198123078853,0.12346944738025607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24799013649168195,0.0,0.12740688662358066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10673941300273124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09933775195526713,0.0,0.0,0.091331917444492,0.0,0.10304783394338528,0.10787936889527834,0.1478096101758109,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.112782623586779,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12677662144115673,0.0,0.0752415770944271,0.1483072058514154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.175213127583458,0.14035345742302693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14211425873258932,0.0,0.0,0.10242229125737126,0.20700882278427454,0.1571303500142739,0.1160183175500613,0.1196171048608505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09393930510670684,0.0,0.13149809234666396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,UnRickStricted,2019/03/25,"do we binge for the taste or to feel full and bloated ? do we binge for the taste or to feel full and bloated, with my it starts with taste then to stop i must bloat myself ....is that weird ?",2.1926666666666685,3.1476136000000032,2.2950000000000017,102.35666666666668,75.5,5.333333333333334,18.333333333333336,3.1291,-1.0219166666666668,144,2,37,0,3,43,25,40,0.103,0.897,0.0,-0.504,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,4,3,0,0,1,12,7,5,0,1,2,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,6,3,1,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,5,5,0,7,6,2,5,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,2,3,27,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6783153277925474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4747691355306759,0.0,0.0,0.5607874677889509,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ElectronicRanger,2019/03/25,"im tired of myself the end of 2018 was rough for me. i decided i didn't have time for my food bullshit anymore. i stopped obsessively counting. im finally not thinking about my next meal. i stopped using exercise as punishment. i gained weight. i'm mostly ok with how i look.

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but now? im just stuck with myself. at least when food was all consuming i didnt have to think about me. i could be hungry instead of remembering how alone i feel all the time. i could be 3,000 calories deep into a comatose state instead of thinking about how im treating everyone that loves me like shit. 

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now im just stuck with me and i cant get out. its fucking bullshit.",1.0267744610281897,3.612550798507464,2.459601990049752,90.68784411276951,89.52238805970148,5.365837479270317,25.35489220563847,6.937597516519254,1.2612036484245444,533,24,106,8,18,172,81,134,0.204,0.711,0.085,-0.9253,0,1,0,0,0,0,23.0,0,0,0,1,13,8,3,1,3,1,11,9,1,4,2,27,23,7,0,2,4,0,3,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,6,4,2,6,1,0,0,4,4,0,0,6,4,19,4,17,13,4,15,0,0,1,2,1,4,2,1,11,69,21,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11799811226988274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2468882898678654,0.27687716763957193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11298889575402064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1819291979563633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10090901191269523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10886591236795888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057606915392762185,0.0,0.0,0.1248057951234875,0.0,0.0,0.27553153227476845,0.0,0.0,0.1053273344201804,0.05952422300668845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6153249241637261,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055660910996763326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.095673310119095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1028271373740628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12116686590079374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1290615654209598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11694849072008873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19050276404851946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21900707185312035,0.0,0.0,0.13286811514231514,0.13094687581289682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09839976719376944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13873721314910584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27687716763957193,0.0
EDAnonymous,littlex-xbones,2019/03/25,"Life is just getting worse and worse I have horrible poison ivy thats only getting worse and has now made it to where I almost cant walk. I may have to go to the ER tomorrow and be admitted, I had to quit my job, my boyfriend and fiance hate me, (polyamorous), and I have no friends. 

The only good thing is the poison ivy has made me so sick along with all the gut wrenching depression and paranoia that I cant keep food down! Go me! I love being alone and useless! :D",4.327972508591067,4.433650474226808,4.947989690721652,88.38253436426119,70.03092783505154,8.116151202749142,28.537800687285234,7.793537801064563,1.4999223367697594,364,12,81,4,6,117,61,97,0.328,0.5479999999999999,0.124,-0.9768,1,1,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,1,4,8,3,0,4,0,13,7,1,2,1,17,23,8,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,4,0,0,0,4,9,1,1,1,0,0,3,3,5,1,0,3,0,12,3,7,17,1,7,0,2,0,1,3,2,0,2,2,53,16,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18645826737090568,0.19285311003401145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1603788308943686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22516086015889653,0.0,0.14386218241660145,0.0,0.19456974875907188,0.0,0.2116501581235002,0.1561806375082235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1838397324501012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1847805800124485,0.1655083204258567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1315227028309619,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1680580549723251,0.3523849663706688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2832358884404453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1980528483528949,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12370689673609203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5692790257254611,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ConnieGx,2019/03/26,"Scared. Disclaimer: this is a mix of a rant, a “oh no” and a story time. But I couldn’t put under that many tags.

I’m no longer scared of eating, gaining weight, I’m scared of my own body. Its reactions. Is it screaming for help? I don’t wanna know.

I stopped eating since Monday. At all. My last meal was Sunday’s dinner. I know I have this under control, I’ve done this before, I lasted two full weeks until I got busted. I’m trying it again(without the busted part). 

The next experience is gonna be disgusting, I’m ashamed of it, it’s literally gross, as in body gross. It was a gross reaction from my body. I know it will end in mocking, shaming, etc., but I just need to know...is this my body trying to tell me something?

[you’ve been warned] I literally shat my pants. I was cool watching tv and it happened. Embarrassed. That’s all I could feel. I’m disgusting. How did this happen. Gross. Disgusting. For several moments I thought I was going to throw up.

I feel bad. I just want to have a good body, I tried for so long healthy diets and exercising and it doesn’t seem to work and the only time it did was when I first stoped eating. Two weeks. Got busted. Stopped for a few years, still with the symptoms (not wanting to eat a meal, binge eating, making myself throw up sometimes, and other stuff) but never fully stopped like I did that time, like I’m doing now. Now, I’m back, I guess.

I guess.

Will I last?",-0.17018783542039273,2.1394222202797195,1.6508066352252406,95.07358025695237,96.02797202797207,4.1989266547406086,17.490323629858512,6.0184958892216835,-0.2654430639128313,1089,31,232,11,43,355,147,286,0.206,0.737,0.056,-0.9889,0,0,1,0,0,0,62.0,0,0,0,4,9,20,4,6,12,1,23,17,5,3,3,37,49,14,0,6,6,0,3,2,0,3,2,1,0,0,20,7,10,4,7,2,0,4,7,16,0,3,13,6,29,4,26,30,7,38,0,0,1,0,2,8,0,3,28,142,49,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06493422213519494,0.07050938291688319,0.0,0.0,0.07185783605346635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4690056724198149,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09471404153768301,0.06742373790399901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08641819011862761,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.43204976501115067,0.0,0.0,0.07479462172954747,0.0,0.09418028045377178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08260497795779763,0.0,0.0,0.08539747568899986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07183023406017602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.047992948344698534,0.07082980078853056,0.1350793192977514,0.0,0.18605489901850933,0.0,0.14935169740088813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05660277532297973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1856385695976572,0.2065057476270053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08251268552162215,0.0,0.0,0.07473258282949419,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05636876064198304,0.08561559707586046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06261608321828183,0.06513042319840902,0.0,0.08980991617523229,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06422544392976652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09144743757101573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08489215640892021,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25363733260091825,0.0,0.0,0.07687701223383803,0.0,0.09540062022122836,0.0,0.0698550994277325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06501111767951218,0.08351984580998845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06743916313033738,0.2118034143635736,0.0,0.0,0.09667115230478524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08777235049665474,0.0,0.0,0.07381004975335008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06704116691367464,0.14772447312117354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17200109271829964,0.0,0.1649841135119972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09961758417756113,0.0,0.13547593612533113,0.10283320766510726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0814035080544687,0.0,0.0614781299034612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054380841133890634
EDAnonymous,smmcg1123,2019/03/26,"Need Advice: how do I keep my daughter from developing an ED? What food decisions and rules have you made? The tl;dr is in the title. I’m looking for books, tips, resources, etc on how to teach the best eating habits to my tween daughter. 

She has always been a fantastic eater. Loves her fruits and veggies, eats a balanced diet without nagging, etc. it’s just the two of us, so I’ve always had a “eat when you’re hungry” policy, rather than serving meals at set times. This means we don’t always eat at the same time, but we do always have healthy dinner and meal options available. I always kept a variety of snacks easily accessible, too. Sometimes she chooses an apple or carrots, sometimes she chooses Pringle’s or Chex mix. 

Lately, though, I’ve noticed she spends a lot of time snacking on the weekends. Constantly getting snacks while she plays, reads, etc. I don’t know if I should cut her off or let her go. What do I do?! I’m terrified of accidentally teaching her the wrong habits. I also don’t want to put ideas into her head about diets and watching what she eats at this age. I keep my own food issues hidden and I muscle through recovery. I mention healthy choices if it comes up, we participate in activities together like walking and jumping on the trampoline. She’s a somewhat active kid at a healthy weight right now. 

How do i keep it this way?? I don’t want to eff up her relationship with food!!",3.5442034313725483,5.691619327205885,4.404264705882351,83.67210784313727,74.47794117647058,6.886274509803924,28.245098039215684,7.793537801064563,1.8510362745098043,1115,46,208,16,24,359,162,272,0.056,0.813,0.131,0.9503,0,0,0,0,0,0,41.0,4,1,0,1,12,7,2,0,17,0,17,20,1,4,0,43,34,20,0,7,9,2,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,9,12,18,4,6,4,1,5,5,3,0,1,4,4,32,4,28,28,8,31,0,0,2,1,24,14,0,8,11,136,41,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09214718157895983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07541029531599913,0.3923185884949152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09896022038512524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0812296129527403,0.0,0.10190293366874684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4824533773305753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31550250500673416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3420775401724283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.049266955929863215,0.0,0.05359188198228521,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09677723374964613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10645127285088808,0.0,0.09842289816094872,0.0,0.2514499149159077,0.0,0.0,0.05182386504879554,0.0,0.10637255994630322,0.0,0.0,0.09642637364301812,0.0,0.046069373283300886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07918680018338001,0.0,0.0,0.08016902006283813,0.08510787355985651,0.08922730650193436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10271846441901857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06992097501335931,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10735920947999383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09479581030972664,0.0,0.0,0.09432379203592636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10124105568535208,0.0,0.08053021040361827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1865268075501343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09264757501767397,0.0,0.16495824496016234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09211571121639164,0.0,0.1134292124812156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11123912988758797,0.07484958034753869,0.0,0.11482989312235126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09090017069311801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10310035897298403,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,fatfatfat159,2019/03/26,"For those that don’t have periods.. Do you still get pms symptoms?

Bloating, irritability, constipation, increased weight... etc?",7.021929824561402,11.09303610526316,6.132631578947367,62.37508771929825,82.6842105263158,8.849122807017544,37.91228070175438,8.841846274778883,5.09761754385965,102,6,13,3,3,31,18,19,0.132,0.767,0.101,-0.168,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,4,2,3,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,9,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5134657083538837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2405390640980189,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3676746076850848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4785300267158557,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5606409915288346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,jl962019,2019/03/26,"DAE feel like they project their disorder :( My two bffs/roomies were all about healthy eating and stuff the last few days when they normally eat large portions/fast food and stuff. They keep asking for my advice because I “eat healthy” (lmao) 

And I feel so guilty like my one friend was like so I’ve eaten a granola bar and a sandwich today and then I went to the gym and I’ll probably eat a salad later, will that make me loose weight? And I was like uhhhh.... like part of me wanted to explain CICO and every detail of weight loss to her and another part just wanted to say yes or eat more because I don’t want anyone to start restricting :(",3.611653543307085,5.203700755905516,4.043314960629922,88.69410629921259,72.93700787401575,6.969763779527558,24.511023622047247,7.554174236665415,1.0682037795275592,504,15,102,6,10,158,84,127,0.134,0.6890000000000001,0.177,0.6184,0,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,4,1,5,7,0,0,5,1,5,12,0,1,1,22,17,14,0,4,2,0,4,5,1,1,0,1,0,0,3,9,12,2,3,2,0,1,1,1,0,2,5,5,15,6,9,11,5,8,0,1,0,0,9,0,0,1,12,59,18,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11646372926585832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12497321037705245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08333515340165035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11141951999266612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14530505368800875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07686283273592312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13659343487105566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6097670982229663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10041637036567484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12052447464033182,0.08514397961263931,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1441159145037057,0.0,0.09208007984529926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10593485448275518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09714961924477486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29113267088459804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07955522347338817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1167735147107305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08076112540901527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2581259991943983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12849885935194624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09477868292189437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08435796493276279,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2728708255227866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11297104489904433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11642395424807442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21089072424689026,0.0,0.0,0.2902642784091959,0.0,0.11048334273002584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ndjdjssjjs,2019/03/26,"Relapsing I’ve been attempting to recover for the past 4 weeks. Honestly, it’s been going pretty good. I’ve gained about 17 lbs but I know some of that’s water.

I also know that I shouldn’t weigh myself, but some days, I literally can’t NOT do it. My brother keeps the scale in the bathroom, and it’s so fucking tempting. I weighed myself today. I’ve actually lost weight.

I don’t know why losing weight seems to trigger me into relapsing much more than gaining does. When I see a higher number, I think, “oh, fuck it, you’re already fat, so why not just eat?” but when I see a lower number, I just... want to lose even more. Fuck. I don’t want to relapse. I’m getting better. It may just be my imagination, but I swear my hair’s even getting better. 

I’m trying to hold onto those things. More energy. Hair and nails.

What do you guys think about when you’re tempted to relapse? I’m so close to it, but I’m trying so hard to fight these thoughts. I can’t go back to that place again, but at the same time it’s all I want to do. I’m such a mess. ",0.05649650349650059,2.2441533909090907,2.245454545454546,94.0347202797203,87.81818181818181,5.020979020979021,18.46153846153846,6.490185161304077,-0.06195804195804123,806,22,181,9,26,271,116,220,0.151,0.7140000000000001,0.135,-0.8637,1,0,0,0,1,0,37.0,0,1,0,8,18,12,4,0,7,0,12,12,3,1,1,35,38,16,0,4,11,1,5,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,14,4,7,2,8,0,0,2,7,8,0,0,4,7,21,4,19,31,8,18,0,3,2,3,4,6,3,4,10,107,35,0,0.0,0.0,0.12761129493377746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1443064074434686,0.10457560621557846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10055298542157727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2313084087430144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0843349320424795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11443648751605745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13380892938737504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17274286065898753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3626804045831215,0.13664239773023548,0.0,0.1486376236307399,0.10968250164410713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12948147841338056,0.0,0.0,0.11714298455589935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1162331446256684,0.0,0.0,0.2156010163281636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2925932394814029,0.1427493799144542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09612997114258008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12483343029928208,0.0,0.0,0.1366253596016964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13303868350114956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20841129511792014,0.11904682671502564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08687685055664708,0.16758248382637844,0.0,0.1038156654172418,0.07625222521973496,0.0,0.1239533472187008,0.0,0.0,0.17756659790877186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23139213407416406,0.0,0.1048946871329458,0.3184818633747545,0.0,0.0,0.2359966526101089,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,orangeinfusedbanana,2019/03/26,A FUCKING TEACHER WALKED IN THE BATHROOM WHILE I WAS MID PURGE and now i can’t get these fucking biscuits and gravy up ,1.41,4.02019,1.788333333333334,96.49000000000002,86.5,3.2,28.83333333333333,3.1291,0.5759333333333334,96,5,19,0,3,29,21,24,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,0,1,2,2,0,2,0,2,2,0,0,0,2,5,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,1,0,2,0,2,4,0,6,0,0,0,2,0,3,2,0,2,13,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.9623197057842848,0.27192054696040835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,GeorgeKillsLenny,2019/03/26,"Yesterday sucked I stayed home from work since I was super sick, I honestly wish idve gone in instead. First, my mother comes by and for some random, unprovoked reason, decides to pull up pictures of me from 3 years ago when my e.d. was at its peak, I was suicidal, and just all around hated myself and my life, but hey, at least I was 80 pounds lighter so those are the pics she wants to show off. So she shows the pics to my boyfriends cousin, who looks at them and says ""wow, no way!"" And just looks back an forth from the pic and me over and over with this incredulous look on their face, like they couldnt believe I used to look so good. My mom says ""these are the pics I show people when they ask about you"" oh I'm sorry that you're so ashamed that I'm a fat piece of shit now??? So after that debacle, my boyfriend is going through his old pictures of me too and comes across some nudes and asks if he can show his cousin. I say no, absolutely not. He fucking waits until I fall asleep to show his cousin nudes from when we first met all the way until now, so they got to see the wonderful progression of my weight gain and body changes due to my pregnancy with my son (who is a year old now). When I got upset he thinks itll make it all better by saying ""well they think you used to be super hot"" THANKS??? like these are situations that my ED brain thinks up on it's own when I'm being ""dramatic"" but for it to actually happen is like a nightmare. What my mom did was shitty but what my boyfriend did crushed me. And now hes walking around upset at me because I wasnt cool with it and refuses to apologize. I slept on the couch with my son last night and hes just watching comedies like he really doesnt fucking care how much he hurt me. I got ahold of his phone and deleted every single nude he had saved, going back over 2 years. He's destroyed my trust.",5.4756277056277085,4.730237740259742,5.597402597402599,87.58562770562773,67.70129870129871,8.995670995670995,27.943722943722943,8.11559375814309,1.4211125541125535,1450,37,332,16,21,458,204,385,0.131,0.721,0.14800000000000002,0.8615,0,0,0,0,0,0,46.0,1,2,6,8,27,26,6,3,11,1,23,15,10,5,3,53,60,32,1,4,8,8,2,4,0,1,3,4,2,0,18,23,2,2,6,5,0,8,6,10,1,2,15,13,51,16,49,41,10,54,0,1,6,5,45,17,4,5,30,206,69,1,0.0,0.0,0.0946759421237628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08600093858379397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17273385150475867,0.18139817433113548,0.0,0.0,0.14920228860752635,0.0,0.059141502902335615,0.0,0.0,0.10930648923918446,0.0,0.08580487146634523,0.0,0.10776554703197123,0.0,0.10830459605521574,0.0,0.0,0.09891670258385647,0.0,0.10263258003347164,0.1671454845733643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08174216806216507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1650475659919196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17938385475754512,0.0,0.0,0.11027556032230763,0.08137441268843658,0.2327833797039617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08579303149745952,0.0,0.0,0.0957855627663103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09731734380145994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10386018052157248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07908292716180736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06852694974754324,0.1895931161437046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3258840121807749,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06476052085634547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2272535041273977,0.0,0.0,0.07131967110730181,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0910451758027098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2036089354963609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06726032774047118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.062152457418342126,0.0997510512512863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3086116337365817,0.0,0.0,0.07731108647068477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0995879711042372,0.08025460506652378,0.10905272208797884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10860413146343506,0.0,0.10340868253154216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10612235910914417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0893214878822845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1864963780980688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16758545769370053,0.0,0.0,0.057223953164093774,0.15401734567639927,0.0,0.11814224783152524,0.08723117350499637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11156634700936936,0.0,0.10521229270861067,0.07063053486503182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1874299642032918
EDAnonymous,Shiddyfardy,2019/03/26,"Is binge food even enjoyable if you dont binge on it This occurred to me as I watched my husband eat exactly 2 small spoonfuls of his Ben n Jerry's from the pint, and then close it up and gingerly place it back in the freezer.

My question is as such:

What the heck is the point of this behavior?

Is two spoonfuls of icecream an enjoyable food? I am sugar addicted and a binge eater, but given the choice between not eating any treats at all or only having a moderate serving size of a treat with no option to binge, I will always choose to forego the treat. Eating two spoonfuls of icecream would just annoy me and make me fixate on the pint in the freezer until it's gone. 

It's such an all-or-nothing mentality. Get out of my face with your brownie sample, if I cant eat a whole tray of it I don't want to go through the trouble.
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EDAnonymous,alcoholhas2manykcal,2019/03/26,"""You're like a meth addict"" Yup, Fiance said I was like a meth addict with binges.

""You're literally like, high right now""

""Yeah I feel like a heroin addict""

""You're not a heroin addict, you're a meth addict. I've seen a lot of heroin addicts, and they're like, chill. You're a meth addict""

""Because I'm all jittery and manic?""

""Yeah""

At this point he pretty much had to take the food out of my hands. I felt like I was floating. And I knew it was all gonna crash to make way for self loathing but at the time I didn't care. 

Does anyone else feel like this? God damn I'm disgusting in body and behavior, I fuckin hate myself",0.8305226071638288,2.7626615648854944,2.3919083969465653,95.86188490898418,82.20610687022902,4.946799765120376,16.18379330593071,5.873414542411696,-0.7007491485613628,479,8,110,3,13,156,77,131,0.204,0.644,0.152,-0.8998,0,0,4,0,0,0,26.0,0,0,0,0,1,12,4,0,9,3,5,11,2,1,2,16,18,5,0,0,2,0,4,7,0,1,7,1,0,1,3,6,1,0,4,0,0,0,2,4,0,0,9,6,9,8,10,8,4,10,0,0,1,1,3,7,2,1,9,47,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7999064110665736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07329455184703691,0.10740336479416984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06389901714011442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11643452058161667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10687384938944172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09173115473259147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08756601416688373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10600313306902423,0.1497708847574536,0.10064634403562664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12675216803963804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10349083159228026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11075106276610246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35847793970860925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0891166116675409,0.0,0.0,0.06997004521572506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07705683256035124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09909144507636433,0.0,0.0,0.10664249075236433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08951811413460539,0.09971050444124062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10935306055342356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0788137140436514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0611230283466577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0832034741110925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,zevix_0,2019/03/26,"PSA/Harm Reduction: Please, please, please supplement your electrolytes if you purge and/or low restrict. #**Mods please delete if this is inappropriate for the sub or breaks sub rules.**

I know electrolyte posts are pretty common, but I just want to make sure that people are aware of how dangerous chronically low electrolyte levels can be. **I don't write this as ""tips"" or as a way to ""get away with"" your eating disorder. Even if you supplement electrolytes you will likely still run into health complications down the road. However, supplementing electrolytes can greatly prevent life-threatening complications.**

The main reason I felt compelled to make this post is because I noticed a common trend across ED forums and ED social media is obsession about hydration. It's practically a meme at this point. Don't get me wrong hydration is super important and you shouldn't take it lightly. However, particularly for eating disorder sufferers excess consumption of water can be harmful due to the fact that when you urinate you are flushing electrolytes out of your body. For healthy individuals this isn't a problem because they restore their electrolyte balance through their diet. On the other hand for people that regularly low restrict, fast, or purge you are likely losing electrolytes at a faster rate then you are replenishing them. This can cause serious complications with your health if you don't address it.

#**The Electrolytes**

Your body requires several chemicals known as electrolytes to function properly.

* Potassium

* Sodium

* Calcium

* Magnesium

* Chloride

* Hydrogen Phosphate

* Hydrogen Carbonate

#**Possible Health Complications**

Electrolytes are essential for the healthy function of your nerve, heart, and muscle cells. Failure to maintain a proper balance can result in the damage or failure of these organs. A study by Dr. Scott Crow and his colleagues in 1997 determined that nearly 50% of the bulimic patients in his study had chronic electrolyte deficiencies.

Common complications as a result of electrolyte imbalance can include:

###***Hypokalemia*** - Abnormally low potassium levels (<3.5mmol/L)

Common Symptons

* Fatigue/weakness
* Constipation
* Muscle cramps
* High blood pressure
* Abnormal heart rhythmn
* Hyporeflixia (loss of natural reflexes)
* Flaccid paralysis
* Cardiac arrest

Common causes for those with an ED

* Prolonged fasting and low restriction

* No carb diets

* Low magnesium (a nutrient necessary to properly process potassium)

* Metabolic alkalosis (can result from excessive vomiting)

***Hypokalemia is particularly nefarious because symptoms do usually not manifest until the levels become dangerously low***

###***Hyponatremia*** - Abnormally low sodium levels (<135mmol/L)

Common Symptoms

* Nausea/vomiting

* Headaches, dizziness, and confusion

* Fatigue

* Loss of appetite

* Muscle weakness and/or spasms and cramps

* Hernia in brain

* Fluids in lungs

* Osteoporosis and bone fractures

* Neurological impairment and brain damage

Common causes for those with ED

* Excessive vomiting, sweating, use of diuretics, lax abuse, excessive water consumption

###***Hypocalcaemia*** - Abnormally low calcium levels (<2.1mmol/L)

Common Symptoms

* Muscle spasms
* Cardiac arrest
* Seizures
* Confusion

Common causes for those with ED

* Excessive use of laxitives

* Metabolic alkalosis (often caused by excessive vomiting, dehydration, or diuretic abuse)

* Magnesium deficiency    

###***Hypochloremia*** - Abnormally low chloride levels (<97mmol/L)

Common Symptoms

* Dehydration and fluid loss

* Fatigue and weakness

* High blood pressure

* Difficulty breathing

Common causes for those with ED

* Excessive vomiting, sweating, lax abuse, diuretic abuse 

###***Metabolic Alkalosis*** - Dangerous rise in the pH levels of organ tissue

Common Symptoms

* Low potassium

* Muscular weakness, cramping, and pain

* Low calcium

* Abnormal heart rhythmns

* Coma

* Seizures

Common causes for those with ED

* Excessive vomiting, dehydration, diuretic abuse

* Low magnesium

###***Metabolic Acidosis*** - Dangerously low pH levels of organ tissue

Common Symptoms

* Coma

* Chest pain

* Heart palpitations

* Hypoxia

* Osteoporosis

Common causes for those with ED

* Laxative abuse

#**Ways to Supplement Your Electrolytes**

Obviously the best way to do this is through a healthy diet and proper hydration, however, that is likely not going to be the reality for many here. I highly recommend if you are able to get bloodwork done by your general practitioner even if you don't think you're ""sick enough"". There is no way to know for sure what your electrolyte levels are without proper lab work and life-threatening consequences can suddenly occur without warning for electrolyte deficiencies. These complications can occur at any weight and it is better to be safe than sorry. 

Overall the best way I have found to increase electrolyte consumption is through mixing the electrolytes with water. One popular method that I do is through this recipe called ""Snake Juice"". It sounds hella sketchy and like some crash diet you'd find in the back of a tabloid. Despite its name it does help with replenishing electrolytes far more efficiently and economically than chugging Gatorade or expensive tablets. The most common recipe for 2L of water is as follows:

*Water=2L*

*Potassium chloride =1 tsp*

*Sodium chloride = 1/2 tsp*

*Sodium Bicarbonate = 1 tsp*

*Magnesium Sulphate = 1/2 tsp*

Everything you need can be found at your local supermarket. I use table salt for sodium, NuSalt for potassium, and baking soda for the bicarbonate. I also supplement with calcium and magnesium tablets on a semi-regular basis. The taste is a little weird at first, but if you are using the correct ratios it shouldn't be too unpalatable. Please make sure to properly measure out the quantities when you mix it in water. Although uncommon, it is still possible to overdo it which can cause problems of its own. 

#**Also, if you flush, this should be mandatory. Flushing is among the most dangerous of all purging habits.**

If I have included any misinformation please PM me and I will edit. I am not a health professional I just spend an ungodly amount of time on Google Scholar.",5.704187556711965,8.951911510074236,5.488542434214125,64.37019183675702,98.26829268292684,8.646344743142635,34.765384657432406,8.284621642090338,5.088822155655892,4946,282,568,158,194,1533,411,943,0.179,0.718,0.103,-0.998,3,0,1,0,6,0,285.0,0,26,4,11,17,58,5,5,38,0,61,66,19,22,7,117,82,50,0,16,24,0,3,4,0,5,32,1,2,0,38,34,15,6,9,0,2,5,14,44,0,2,5,7,48,14,106,64,12,99,0,23,0,0,38,55,0,21,35,362,86,5,0.049197185136190265,0.3497437176188304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07868594235791583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06691154587194524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04622237490775352,0.03782959860872377,0.0,0.08997044228177488,0.054334425756390005,0.0,0.0,0.1032588211506256,0.043510912286116726,0.0,0.10929396394964866,0.0,0.1098406581959656,0.050235826599101766,0.0,0.0,0.4548515501089596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11276847282061522,0.0,0.043052788246660256,0.05034580129216861,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10068200497011276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05083384348223425,0.0,0.06498855358550022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04421525774759759,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04723701287962559,0.0,0.044965335932320535,0.04184710054444976,0.0,0.1078843483493902,0.0,0.0,0.07711049608417453,0.0,0.027959894062473296,0.0,0.0,0.05424007029397054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20917722894270946,0.0,0.23319560504638565,0.03297583616463338,0.15593858162784574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0540749726666139,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06949885359061381,0.09614103844693568,0.04930850407074003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055039066014804135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09851850930243114,0.04987822392455464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03647908940321573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056011321354300175,0.0,0.0,0.03333728588144132,0.0,0.10469854728873043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06821426734026335,0.0,0.0,0.3240224138526869,0.04650724188924375,0.11092486845631012,0.0942346080048356,0.05005122399082503,0.0,0.09415012390070432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05058290009961739,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05557881578189065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05015033469873078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05507222092709333,0.0,0.0,0.07857787120071262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13910329429826615,0.30680827573351177,0.03699016055718083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.031523569740001235,0.0,0.0,0.028687274286195226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16996228828334878,0.05418374890155066,0.0,0.02901777444843935,0.19525217810316264,0.0,0.05990891769703749,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0948486617312835,0.0,0.035816136714793535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05378939884291559,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,meowingkiwi,2019/03/26,"I wish I could come out So I’ve had my eating disorder for many years now, and ever since figuring out I’m ftm sometime ago, my eating disorder feeds off of that. 
If I could come out I feel like my eating disorder would get (somewhat) better, but I know it’s not as simple as that. Currently I’m relapsing from my latest “recovery attempt” and planning on getting past my lw because maybe someone will  finally realize that I’m not okay.
Sorry for the rant, but I needed to get this out somewhere.
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EDAnonymous,xwer15,2019/03/26,Scared of being “skinny fat”? How can I maintain my muscle when restricting so that I don’t end up at a lower weight but flabby? I run for exercise and do abs but it’s not enough. I’m so tired and sad someone please help ,-0.2767375886524803,1.9398490212765969,2.026702127659576,94.4841666666667,90.70212765957449,4.835460992907802,16.343971631205672,6.42735559955562,-0.2818624113475181,172,4,38,2,6,58,40,47,0.28,0.601,0.118,-0.8346,1,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,1,1,0,4,5,2,1,0,7,5,8,0,0,3,0,1,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,2,2,3,1,0,1,0,1,2,2,0,0,0,1,4,0,4,4,1,5,0,1,0,0,1,2,0,0,2,25,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31254868234538025,0.3646214037904488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2365293444261123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3873584319202184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3532964102894263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29899574597246026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4055859106813435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4297151695384686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,thatcrazygirl_,2019/03/26,"Triggered by seeing an old video of my boyfriend having sex with an ex and thinking it was me. (I know weird) So I stumbled upon a video of my boyfriend having sex with one of his exes I actually thought it was me because we looked so similar. The thing is apparently ""fat"". This makes me think since I was so convinced it was me I must be equally ""fat"". I swear to god I have like the opposite of body dysmorphia where I think I'm thinner than I actually am. Sometimes I think I look fine when I look in the mirror and sometimes I think I'm disgusting. I feel like this has just confirmed I'm definitely in the disgusting category. I don't want to eat until I lose at least 10lbs this is honestly the worst news I've ever received. I don't know if it would have been better to live in ignorance of how fat I've let myself get. I'm stupid. ",1.31711624919717,3.518564606936416,3.36873795761079,88.02885517019912,82.121387283237,6.619010918432884,24.640012845215157,7.793537801064563,1.3771800899165063,659,26,140,12,18,223,99,173,0.125,0.755,0.12,-0.2337,1,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,1,0,0,2,8,13,3,0,8,0,19,7,4,3,2,25,39,9,0,4,2,1,1,2,0,2,3,0,0,0,8,5,4,1,9,2,0,1,2,7,0,1,6,5,26,6,18,29,3,11,0,1,4,2,4,6,0,1,6,94,34,0,0.0,0.0,0.3081549343510717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09624803057396088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13964051447805592,0.0,0.1753797444525741,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1615604710866371,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14282017645479134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07983372240445714,0.11279635697381522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08249079582646808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1735439825738183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1614528064570645,0.0,0.15427375991227266,0.0,0.13941940352130766,0.0,0.39776247848828655,0.1766380682657221,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10539252953480517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16567856823952526,0.0,0.10699007460875208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1258175637948278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13060790313191195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31231368992404795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.104894830014084,0.5058463802979385,0.0,0.12534670061088454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09312737288390917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11216023697919944,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,archermary,2019/03/26,"Feel like a fraud for trying to accept my experience. Hello. 
Basically. I feel like a fraud or a fake for being open about my ED. My lowest weight was around 80lbs at 5”5 and that was around 5 years ago. My weight has been a pretty stable 115lbs since then and I fucking hate it but just can’t restrict like I used to. I’m hugely triggered by food, binging, seeing thin people, and any comments about my body at all. Hugely. Classic horrible binge and restrict cycle. Hate it. I feel like in order to recover I need to be HONEST with myself and people in my life about my ED but I feel like a fraud or a liar because I’m not thin anymore so they’re going to ignore me or think I’m lying. 

Any experience or advice with this. Please.",1.1264546899841008,3.5254866216216243,2.9539427662957074,89.39042130365662,84.81081081081079,4.833704292527822,18.16534181240064,6.2272716619740125,-0.05755214626391102,572,14,114,5,17,190,88,148,0.253,0.593,0.154,-0.9679,1,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,0,0,7,13,4,0,6,0,7,6,1,2,1,31,22,13,0,1,8,0,8,5,0,0,1,0,0,0,4,10,3,3,6,0,0,1,2,6,0,0,3,9,15,7,19,17,1,16,0,0,1,1,2,11,1,4,8,67,19,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13495074199498588,0.1224182430743126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1878268913796413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.136959126911878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24587841678109865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08418511468946445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15339912736815306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27017864132886593,0.0,0.0,0.2793121495215031,0.3946376540597355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1669923307295504,0.0,0.0,0.12767218996057828,0.0,0.0,0.07848600591456899,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2726923798467853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09754485159673322,0.33734597202509536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10240017434478127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19148375090274944,0.0,0.0,0.15159347548117574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14049841009404085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11004865216309326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11423861079485965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08848957279787363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09376154376848864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11927496160799635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.336339734206359,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0889325445942362
EDAnonymous,TeaCupGirl,2019/03/26,"""Oh, but you don't have to worry about that!"" I work as a Baker in a grocery store. My absolute pet peeve is these woman who are slightly overweight who come up to the counter and make some comment about how many calories are in something or how it's too tempting or how they'd blow up if they ate it.

If I make any kind of sympathetic comment about it, I get the whole ""you don't have to worry about that, you're so thin!"" 

Like NO WHY DO YOU THINK I'M THIN. KATHY. WHY.

I guess it's because despite being 25, people clock me at 17/18 and assume I'm still ""teenager skinny""
It just frustrates me so much because I go through all this fucking trouble and people think I don't work for it. But I'm suffering constantly ughh

/end rant",1.5622000000000007,3.701498820000001,2.7059999999999995,93.473,80.8,5.066666666666666,24.0,6.079149491110277,0.4692000000000003,573,21,122,4,15,183,96,150,0.14300000000000002,0.77,0.087,-0.8715,0,0,1,0,0,0,20.0,0,3,2,2,12,6,2,0,4,0,11,4,1,5,1,22,24,15,0,2,7,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,1,1,12,4,3,0,3,0,1,2,4,4,0,0,1,2,14,2,16,21,4,13,0,1,0,1,10,7,1,7,5,78,26,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12961870514298438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2323834564520674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16419030430988665,0.0,0.20597751338389572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1688204570390788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17621229658761225,0.09958383639292136,0.0,0.10832585668394587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20997414226012445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19848695402205774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09312052764737146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2544621448508952,0.1932446998700508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14011743759968706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26428458316726844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14673791170389525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1522183023154308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24426542462512305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3439847724159469,0.2128049381603664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27752706673854505,0.3871395562466113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,blacknponk,2019/03/26,"All eating disorders are terroble but at least when I'm restricting I feel good about myself I always seem to have some form of disordered eating, ya know, ever since I was a kid, and I'm by no means trying to say anorexia is a good thing, but this time last year I was barely eating 500 calories most days and yeah, sure, I was weak as fuck and tired all the time and obsessed with food but at least I liked the number on the scales. At least I had something to feel proud of. At least I actually liked the way I looked in most clothes and the fact all my old clothes were huge on me made me feel good. 

Now I'm binging all the time and I'm still tired all the time because my diet is shit, I'm still obsessed with food, I'm spending way more on food than I was back then, and I look like shit so I don't even have anything to feel good about. 

Like restricting does suck, I wouldn't ever say it's a good thing, but I don't seem to have the willpower to make myself restrict right now and I hate it, I wish I could go back to easily restricting. ",2.8883314479638003,3.793955217194569,3.679227941176471,93.28590073529413,73.75113122171946,6.791968325791856,22.86227375565611,6.9077264865688965,0.4097893665158372,817,20,190,7,16,260,110,221,0.206,0.593,0.202,-0.4596,1,0,1,0,0,0,17.0,0,1,0,1,13,19,5,2,11,1,16,13,2,2,9,43,39,16,0,3,4,0,4,4,0,1,3,2,0,1,5,10,7,4,8,0,1,1,4,8,0,0,7,8,24,11,24,30,14,31,0,0,2,1,4,10,4,5,22,119,29,0,0.0,0.0,0.09469329014539267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08074185478981359,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07985248796958129,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14922962780766455,0.0,0.05915233974270455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07747547427200031,0.0,0.0,0.06258029270398606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2224236820686012,0.0,0.08491699360312155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2978766365727685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06409146554548814,0.17554951616957878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19625758334719864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3520095132557912,0.0,0.0,0.0897083621504927,0.0,0.0,0.055147883376198775,0.4069466169686529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09580311411016204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05332853335435288,0.07909741798492655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18962785638928292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16297186289859728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09181795658095293,0.06477238730194272,0.0,0.0,0.10570082047565947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10182312197087842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0828683466101729,0.0,0.154334091217493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17667614310887106,0.0,0.0,0.199212438370816,0.08026931058297666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0747031732702896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15498639827620084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09145542819374626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12893301993287726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22633025049110997,0.22305757233040252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06588117997169157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1540455671673529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11158678995778552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06248810269400072
EDAnonymous,toastysnivy,2019/03/26,"ex rebounded days after breaking up honestly id talk about it but i just want to forget. does anyone have any tips or tricks? i dont want to think about him anymore (just trying to get my grandmas earring back from him then bever want to talk to him again). Ive been trying to do better but hit lowest weight 17.5 bmi today, ive been struggling since we broke up little over 2 weeks ago. If u have any advice plz help me get this asshole out of my brainwaves 💙 ",1.317157894736841,3.5519656105263167,2.6476315789473723,93.00092105263157,82.36842105263158,4.6421052631578945,18.973684210526315,5.6839178017228535,-0.23207368421052665,363,9,75,2,10,117,69,95,0.14300000000000002,0.711,0.146,-0.4019,1,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,1,0,0,1,6,5,1,1,0,0,8,1,0,0,0,13,15,5,0,4,6,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,2,1,11,2,15,12,0,14,0,1,0,0,8,5,0,2,8,43,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.198196609787456,0.17979064356954008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2758536377646949,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2011462421925232,0.14181878756965588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15595862052516224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17938075230777684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1308042681008853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1774920620797349,0.0,0.2377074311317992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.211933636439651,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13594820214967854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20328225933802466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16777755373298436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2120349812198965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3260434182058341,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12996099962703786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19225280045794385,0.0,0.0,0.2754074535439469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35889136338697025,0.0,0.1626926404729327,0.2469841738958027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,IHateBloodElves,2019/03/26,"Feeling really down today. I woke up from really bad nightmares and excessively triggering dreams. My mind is fucking is me once more. So many thoughts occur in my mind at the same time.

\- Fasting is the only way for me to feel ""pretty"", because I have control, I'm feeling dizzy, fragile and it's not rocket science but it's the only satisfying way I found to lose weight.

\- Binging to give me some comfort. Just feeling so many different tastes at the same time, so many different textures, even though most of the time I take the same stuff at the groceries. And then puke it all.

\- Pinching my body for a long time in front of the mirror just to see the mess I became or completely avoiding it for the day/week. No pictures, I look like shit.

\- Taking care of myself and pampering for hours, even though one moment or another of the day I'll still feel stuck in my excessively overweight piece of shit body.

\- Wanting to look like a gorgeous person but at the same time feeling like I don't deserve it and waste it all by eating.

​

I didn't binge-purge for a month thanks to intermittent fasting and yesterday I fucked it all up.

​

No sugar coat here, just need to write it all down to feel somehow ... better.

​",4.335784994400896,6.252200710638299,4.649003359462487,83.76105263157895,71.68085106382979,7.16013437849944,28.96416573348264,7.85451343220497,1.9112127659574465,977,39,180,13,19,307,128,235,0.174,0.677,0.149,-0.8856,2,1,0,0,0,0,51.0,0,0,0,3,13,16,4,1,15,0,6,11,4,2,4,42,30,16,0,2,8,0,9,3,0,0,1,0,0,1,9,6,5,2,9,1,0,1,5,8,0,1,5,14,17,8,31,25,12,30,0,1,3,2,3,11,4,5,19,118,26,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28032691262776305,0.3143774928452901,0.0,0.0904314177478939,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0720077997338385,0.052571835080877705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07627333311623481,0.0,0.1915890631092374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08792865111274277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0904222574316466,0.0,0.09672683907995007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11123687893521646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1802073970705187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08824627777738084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11392299852905542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30524299397899685,0.06161073053847516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0945590244761029,0.0,0.1594571995246565,0.0,0.08273041745910246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08493021006993452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12639928238088755,0.0,0.0,0.07632074818073863,0.14484177526021114,0.09648184319713923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2623051222387903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1741580548702181,0.0,0.06883690308075516,0.0,0.0,0.06394675706940245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09184406343147038,0.05843926908509463,0.13118063761139878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07530248939444077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08773830470903678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11049664215209916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06872307074394292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17705070503794768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06887233375211138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09872554101640812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12968529915660226,0.0,0.0,0.07939931012373093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16946308233237542,0.06846587959411571,0.2514396863756321,0.0,0.08174657371654942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05086729421446275,0.13690850078438624,0.06917748868095162,0.1050185481309073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3143774928452901,0.0
EDAnonymous,slowtiger112,2019/03/26,"think i might be developing an eating disorder and need help i literally created a new account for this post because i'm terrified of people somehow tracing it back to me. i've only ever lurked before so apologies if this post is really jumbled. i started having body image issues about a year ago but i never fully acted on them until recently. i've started meticulously counting calories, skipping meals, and substituting other things for food. i know this is a really slippery slope and i'm trying hard not to succumb to my temptation to not eat but i don't know how to stop myself. i've struggled with bipolar depression since i was very young so i'm not unfamiliar with the side effects that depression has on eating - i usually don't eat when i'm feeling depressed. but it's never come from a place of just not wanting to eat because i'm so terrified of gaining weight. i'm not even overweight or anything and i've always been borderline underweight and i can already feel the effects it's having on my energy. would really appreciate some input from you kind humans <3 ",5.1702941176470585,7.127396960784317,6.6197549019607855,70.31139705882354,69.58823529411765,9.217647058823527,33.338235294117645,9.673873057562805,3.722976470588237,876,42,137,21,16,298,127,204,0.14800000000000002,0.7440000000000001,0.107,-0.8957,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,1,1,3,11,5,0,1,7,0,13,11,1,3,3,37,29,16,0,4,11,0,4,0,0,2,2,0,0,1,9,8,9,1,7,0,1,2,9,4,0,0,2,4,15,1,20,24,1,24,0,3,0,0,5,5,0,5,15,92,24,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10128128139582487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12608462498572875,0.0,0.09507036188720866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09402316739718776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08785601195873195,0.0,0.13929911222508887,0.0,0.09722366259347487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1269129485498061,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09842165176268476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2952262500897385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13094757360723353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5845633946697162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07546518270050741,0.10335132921340692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11554279698242155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13815912412088194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10235116748523894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0765835632144698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.119253851596055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11898031342535655,0.1255845057835365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12120783697144667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08471956966822004,0.17624294405138538,0.11034940868361524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08689703494407612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07921090505332881,0.0,0.11937347435988645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2188518290513937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21958645915576108,0.0,0.11281427358974805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0945139596486344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16174233897576792,0.0,0.0,0.09552335010899472,0.0,0.11944545151141048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0759067827717017,0.07321079847304528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0775725011243515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12583712929921995,0.0942733810668275,0.0673913029140618,0.0,0.0,0.13913334487275916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08116436952001882,0.0,0.0,0.07357728593464508
EDAnonymous,Ctown_struggles00,2019/03/26,"I don't have an ED, I have food-anxiety. But maybe someone here can relate I have OCD, and one of my obsessions is food poisoning. I will inspect food, worry whether it has gotten bad or not, and sometimes avoid cooking so I don't have to confront intrusive thoughts about dying from eating spoiled meat. 

One year it was so bad that I became underweight for the first time in my life. I saw a very expensive ERP therapist for a few weeks that helped me, and then one year later I gained back all the weight lost and then some. However I feel as if this victory was elusive, because I was living in a dorm with a great dining hall, so eating was very easy. 

I'm now a senior thats been living on my own off-campus, and to say thats its been a struggle is an understatement. I have not used my oven once, and my stove only a handful of times. My daily ritual usually involves forcing myself to get to campus to eat Lunch and then finding dinner somewhere I trust, either at a dining hall still open (which is usually a slope and fair walk away) or at a nearby store, or microwaving frozen chicken tenders. I waste a lot of time everyday doing these things and obviously my grades and psychological health have only suffered. Clearly I'm okay with eating food someone else has cooked, but if I cook myself then nope I must have contaminated the food somehow, because the dishes were dirty or something wasn't cooked thoroughly.  

I don't feel like a human being. I feel like a homeless person that thinks constantly about where and when they will eat next. 

Everybody has to eat everyday or they will die. Sometimes I wish I could just catch a break and just stop eating and stop worrying. Obviously this sounds crazy and I need to figure this out...",6.403626865671643,6.724474161194035,6.581902985074631,77.70718283582092,65.59701492537313,9.565671641791043,31.376865671641788,9.3871,2.700346268656717,1384,49,257,24,20,444,188,335,0.136,0.8,0.064,-0.9767,1,1,1,0,0,0,35.0,0,0,2,3,14,15,2,3,20,1,32,26,1,1,5,55,46,33,2,6,15,0,5,2,0,4,4,2,3,2,14,18,21,3,7,4,2,2,7,9,0,4,12,8,32,6,25,28,6,39,1,2,1,0,7,11,0,10,27,176,46,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05983222555488123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07348306744736828,0.06014046122942545,0.13060807291399446,0.09535503229991199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08451975343532335,0.0,0.062446188804972325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16234412029672368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5602152424777094,0.06533637357010214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1186395264365866,0.11174982177204593,0.0,0.0,0.07148466126421438,0.06652737592824946,0.4728733562130153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0408627192347267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08622938028857649,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08313605939508058,0.0,0.0,0.05242408244611095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055243688323089415,0.07642119673378288,0.0,0.1381258571913619,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08537800754772548,0.06649333404756233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07857480736770447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05799345863090704,0.0,0.0,0.08317971023829362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08329358887310892,0.15899611596075028,0.11896801697443375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06829199796263609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06219759149441189,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1325381227088563,0.06021167996970848,0.1547080070772337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06246047526588695,0.13077803568942573,0.0,0.08176451884735515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09081055424446564,0.05196080296105708,0.05011530900368685,0.0,0.062091861070619814,0.13681873219154056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06755034936196755,0.17227968415859254,0.12906674210706393,0.0,0.0,0.0627372209610988,0.09524155884711548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08994033039902234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1588568543306939,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10073236454660353
EDAnonymous,nohatefornate,2019/03/27,"Relapsed twice this month I have been struggling with my eating disorder since sophomore year of high school and i'm now currently a freshman in college (\~3.5 years) meaning my parents are quite aware of it. 

Before I went away to university my parents were very direct about reaching a weight they came up with my doctor and not fluctuating too far from it (I was allowed about 10 pounds of wiggle space) and my first semester I did fine, eating healthy and working out but not taking it to an extreme. 

This semester has been more stressful so I have been not only stress eating but skipping the gym for the library- I am now the heaviest I have ever been. This is horrible for my mental health, so I tried to go back to eating healthy and being an avid gym user but I am now just stuck at this disgusting weight and I can not get rid of any of it. 

Leading to the beginning of this month where I fasted for three days and then went back to normal. I figured it was a one time thing but tonight I just couldn't eat. It wasn't that I felt fat, which I now did but I didn't at dinner, I just couldn't will myself to put my fork to my mouth without feeling guilt. 

I'm sitting in my kitchen, surrounded by food that my roommates have left on the table including bags of chips and brownies and my stomach is grumbling and this has made me *proud.* I haven't experienced thoughts like this in so long, and I know it's normal I suffered from them being way too loud for years but I don't want to be thinking these things.

 I want to be healthy, I want to be able to walk up stairs without being dizzy, I want to eat without feeling guilty, I want to look at food and just see a resource not something of harm but right now all I can think about is how I can limit the food I eat tomorrow. ",4.19640668523677,5.16685200557103,4.604271866295266,87.62895933147634,70.72701949860723,7.303888579387188,28.56612813370473,7.404127859558343,1.4725101058495818,1406,51,291,14,25,444,182,359,0.104,0.816,0.08,-0.762,4,0,1,0,0,0,29.0,0,0,2,6,22,10,1,4,12,0,37,19,3,4,2,60,63,24,0,9,19,2,5,1,0,1,3,1,1,0,20,16,15,1,9,2,0,7,14,7,0,4,18,9,43,3,48,36,2,51,0,1,2,0,4,19,0,0,24,210,63,5,0.08205192076157028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05579811979812162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07709048053955958,0.12618572460568134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06982014115857309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09384553847013268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0529167009051706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09403860983779992,0.08398361773704775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5877171945649258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07422065988995698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08297583304283432,0.0,0.07878271139055773,0.0,0.0,0.06979332188354853,0.29765252484261595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.042868742029780416,0.0,0.04663199745605636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08721735484875517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0866923592476527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.045093589807450034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08914965198812606,0.0,0.0,0.04008642388149609,0.0,0.0,0.07261336785062199,0.06890294813541388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07763951135704343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08937859605417499,0.0,0.0,0.08268903730993803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1309861206617986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16078692214801182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05560050502843996,0.06240418314032997,0.0,0.0,0.18221789563113805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08248484325796161,0.0,0.08727231770049364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07007189200630275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08304092435369193,0.06538475754897863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06787419675512432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06316757729641075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18798039601575295,0.08577848296198515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0616928329251684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1090233004319887,0.1051511154253292,0.0,0.06514005979619845,0.047845134840139365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055707868167571915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0677014278005981,0.2419817437856813,0.06512899549799457,0.0,0.1998342691428794,0.0,0.1521259051779863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2372853707535996,0.0,0.05973477554808294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15851624037767098
EDAnonymous,wastewoodrocker,2019/03/27,friends on peach! yoo maybe im a little late on the peach train? but ive just recently started using it and i could use some friends on there my user is @/matriarchy if u guys are interested 😋,-0.08091666666666697,2.2515340749999986,2.3500000000000014,90.08833333333334,95.75,5.666666666666668,21.66666666666667,7.1686216300943375,0.9386666666666664,153,6,33,3,6,52,34,40,0.0,0.755,0.245,0.8762,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,2,0,4,0,0,2,0,8,7,3,0,2,3,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,3,3,6,1,7,0,0,0,0,3,4,0,2,3,18,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22214099434768764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4299137692908148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2754876969311338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30053205760502755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3138512908162944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2788557615145536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27951563055118017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27471482326577074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19692994801306016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4805962401537728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,chancethecrapper,2019/03/27,I plan on taking a three hour walk every other day I don't know if any of you are familiar with NYC but I work in Manhattan and live in Brooklyn. It's about 3 and a half hour walk door to door. I did this walk multiple times already so I know it's definitely possible. I am just waiting for the weather to get a bit warmer. It should only be a couple of weeks. Then I plan to walk home instead of using the subway every other day. I know the amount of calories burned is not huge but I am hoping it will help kick my metabolism into gear and maybe a little sunlight will make me feel less suicidal. ,1.961418181818182,3.70375512,3.9458181818181792,87.0129090909091,77.8,6.785454545454545,22.56363636363637,7.686295010490155,0.9713999999999996,470,14,99,7,11,160,85,125,0.067,0.8190000000000001,0.114,0.6948,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,1,0,3,4,1,0,0,8,0,10,0,0,2,0,19,20,8,1,3,5,0,1,0,0,3,0,0,3,0,7,5,0,1,4,0,0,4,2,0,0,2,1,1,12,1,14,15,3,17,0,0,0,0,2,6,0,2,7,65,19,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21129081019818088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13020549038581666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2090345654033557,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2118568142414437,0.0,0.24696333911915325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3226417924633989,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09681248284532333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10003465346870938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12833763927426095,0.0,0.1920590252634426,0.19017192614240705,0.37711680643570816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31567907639426673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1919022455409636,0.1690706408919526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12780704882983013,0.0,0.19235635252876196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14562080760625393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2158525364363425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2094360167776536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.143960864512539,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11164711762645416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1653677463630957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1535848880340756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13939171734576367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,cloversandroses,2019/03/27,"fasting?? i joined a fasting subreddit and i noticed most people do a 16:8 fast (fast for 16 hours, eat over the span of 8 hours). i tried that out but i’ve found myself fasting for 20+ hours, “eating” for an hour or two and then going back to fasting. when i say eating, it’s usually half a sleeve of saltine crackers, or one granola bar, or 10 pieces of low cal popcorn. i’m at work all night and i just ordered 4 rolls of sushi that i’ll probably regret, but i plan to eat them over the span of 2-3 days. i don’t know how to explain it but i like the feeling of looking forward to “eating” and then immediately going back to fasting for a whole day. i feel like i’m on some sort of schedule, it makes me feel so in control and i’m loving it.",1.2223450134770886,2.7836784088050344,3.2367699910152763,92.08485849056606,79.37735849056604,5.549146451033244,24.564690026954175,6.18269132825596,0.5501407008086256,573,21,130,4,14,194,96,159,0.043,0.8640000000000001,0.093,0.8229,0,0,0,0,0,0,20.0,0,0,1,3,6,5,0,0,8,0,2,7,0,3,1,27,16,16,0,1,7,0,3,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,6,6,6,1,6,1,0,3,1,2,0,3,1,5,12,3,22,15,5,34,0,2,1,1,4,10,0,6,24,77,18,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19100933142178148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1393045543280793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16020169781531585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6354548806629046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1884027505076857,0.08873085734142137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13618249999313695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14117518736414195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4892608990562908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0682588816400971,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12135891042543433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10429948472747072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11209832115942524,0.0,0.08290666253676286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1165563767255572,0.0,0.0,0.14140627230271796,0.0,0.0,0.08416336574824848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08610692471823941,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13391215690839467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09877144375457424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08432588303369437,0.0,0.12132856982382055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13679237993849858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13866854108736887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09042147656340983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,natantantan,2019/03/27,"I fucking hate being ugly. It's such a terrible awful feeling. The worst is that it's mostly about my bone structure. I used to be a bit chubby but I happened to be one of the lucky ones that still remained ugly after losing 30 lbs. I don't know what to do. everytime I send a picture of myself to someone I get ghosted. It happens literally every single time. I must of tried to connect with 10 different people I met online this month and all of them dropped me after I sent a picture. I get 0 matches on online dating. So yeah, I am genuinely ugly. I feel so broken and alone. I am trying really hard to maximize my attractiveness and lose a bit more weight/ gain muscle but sometimes I wonder if it isn't all pointless. I don't think I will ever be not ugly. I also really dislike it when people pretend that ugly people don't exist. That is really damaging and hurtful. No not everyone is beautiful. Some people are just screwed. ",2.2275021337126617,4.616340421621622,4.727368421052635,78.51210526315792,79.91891891891892,6.705547652916074,25.95305832147937,7.85451343220497,1.9888378378378389,738,30,126,13,19,259,114,185,0.335,0.589,0.077,-0.9956,1,1,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,0,1,3,9,11,3,0,7,2,17,4,1,1,4,24,31,11,1,2,6,0,4,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,11,5,1,0,5,1,0,2,7,9,0,2,2,4,22,2,15,23,9,12,0,4,0,2,4,1,2,5,8,99,33,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15183024050904415,0.0,0.11723353693550423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3200918267768037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1531626229177525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13260534427136364,0.12351426251547322,0.14007967873467864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14824765669237994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13552652842967725,0.15318172335755567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2592704173521969,0.0,0.13132208268875836,0.14473414915680946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15693507899240033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08056585605294099,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3280090031427616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1170122958410836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1986757897838529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40652749856575215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2817413015903636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1242111295291872,0.0,0.14498814313588151,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11707252260918385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0939334134334504,0.0,0.0,0.08548186699758771,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1990594276024268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12661270618375134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17851560533277835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15897815105152652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,awlas,2019/03/27,"I’m fat as shit My BED and slowed metabolism has fucked me up. I’m 5’2’’ and can’t have all of this weight on me. My mom tells me everyday my face is chubby and that I need to lose weight because we have 4 weddings to attend to this summer. I come from a south asian background so body image and positivity is non existent. If you are literally 10 pounds overweight, no one will marry me. I hate this all!",2.2885714285714265,3.853028809523813,4.120952380952383,86.8907142857143,76.38095238095238,7.180952380952381,22.714285714285715,7.957251820313856,0.9478285714285716,316,9,70,5,7,107,63,84,0.211,0.753,0.036000000000000004,-0.9441,1,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,1,1,0,1,1,4,3,0,1,0,8,8,4,0,2,10,14,7,0,2,1,1,2,0,0,1,2,0,1,0,4,6,4,0,0,0,0,2,2,4,0,1,0,2,12,0,8,13,2,8,0,1,0,1,5,3,2,1,3,43,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15454624339406914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2816086782339836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2183889948125976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2343794080115529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25030305573001377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2836291789874601,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2969249481115309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18798527894461864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17179483063321194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26023935926709696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22159167547146405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6174493272057947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,sunflowermenace,2019/03/27,"How do I get used to eating? I don't know if this is an ED or not but I can't stand the thought of eating. When I'm hungry, my first instinct is to just ignore it until it ""passes"". I would probably end up fasting for days if I didn't end up feeling super dizzy and sleepy after 15 hours or so. 
My therapist has told me I need to keep eating once every 3 hours so as not to let my metabolism stop but it's so hard for me to get used to it. I also don't know what kinds of foods I should be having as snacks because I can't eat anything that I deem as unhealthy such as cookies, chocolates, sugary stuff, milk etc cause I feel bad so I'd rather not eat at all. Also if I try to eat ""too soon"" I fear I'll get nauseous (no idea why) but if I take too long/fast, I lose my appetite because by that point I already feel awful.
I don't know how to stop this cycle I've gotten myself into. :(",0.6755222088835566,2.032435387755104,2.9942256902761137,94.13060624249704,80.3265306122449,5.224009603841537,19.692677070828328,5.5289334501034215,-0.2950884753901559,680,16,162,3,17,234,116,196,0.201,0.772,0.027000000000000003,-0.987,0,0,0,0,0,0,22.0,0,0,0,3,15,6,0,1,2,1,15,9,0,5,1,37,33,24,0,8,14,0,4,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,10,2,9,4,8,0,0,1,10,4,0,1,4,4,24,2,23,25,2,20,0,1,0,0,1,5,0,6,13,106,34,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11710612841716687,0.1697283521604139,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08732776987400424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08860582000796656,0.1293796109277797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10901453686809966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06843866157286592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6515239044118044,0.0,0.0,0.1879817555159844,0.0,0.1183519218715011,0.0,0.0,0.08941073003961861,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11941457406389153,0.16097247728619116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09026567141806732,0.12832080147071534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16633005899715642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09506273238731534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20901377168893132,0.0,0.0,0.11979663420391455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0943243879603679,0.0,0.11050771547031728,0.1749624341170609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10851495432190376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09391291639477764,0.0,0.11872120609102885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07868668210843828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1130144037630536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10031776061703374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11441537651756342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17744224890176874,0.0,0.0,0.12148208318852725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07978908060809216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12321357240309845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08424747633487985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10140226791876636,0.0,0.07204855690642177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18330732437904104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0957568509818508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0753846480566964,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Kaetzchen156,2019/03/27,"Does anyone else feel like they're eating way more calories than they actually are? Today I had a bag of baked lay's (130), an egg and cheese subway sandwich (around 360, but i had whole wheat bread and cheese that added \~20 calories, but egg white that subtracted \~40), and a mini hershey's piece (38). But I feel like I ate WAY more than 528 calories. i feel like i need to double the caloric value of everything i eat just in case. Am I alone in this feeling??",6.251630434782609,5.663215684782614,5.951217391304351,85.16769565217396,66.06521739130434,8.664347826086956,29.269565217391303,7.554174236665415,1.5409365217391304,361,10,76,3,5,112,63,92,0.028,0.8190000000000001,0.153,0.879,0,1,0,0,0,0,20.0,0,0,1,0,2,3,0,0,4,0,4,8,0,0,0,13,10,6,0,1,4,0,4,3,0,0,0,0,1,0,3,4,8,0,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,5,9,3,8,7,5,6,0,0,1,0,1,3,0,0,4,40,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.18828279365448453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1998289106284744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13490898357691006,0.19769107542073486,0.0,0.17175858718944778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16884415738208072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3948540613751274,0.161177627387501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17340312304636285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39022750198828415,0.41351172746530906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28278399531423465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14306346611196188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18288571171754409,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30629551145414435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21541197612721252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ceru1eus,2019/03/27,"(re)^?lapse feels Rant disclaimer.

How many times? I don't know. Every time, I swear I'm too old.

I've had a great year on paper. I feel guilty that I'm struggling despite that.

With my partner, I hinted at and then discussed frankly my recent temptations to fall into old habits. They know I don't have a normal relationship with food, even in ""recovery"" mode, which I have maintained throughout our relationship. Mostly. They don't know details. I discussed that for health reasons I should gain a bit more despite my reluctance. They asked if I could compromise and gain muscle weight, and I said probably not.

Later that night, they felt my arm and commented on its size, which was extremely weird considering that they hardly ever make remarks about my body. They clarified that they meant that it felt strong, and I tried to laugh it off.

But fuck.

I don't blame them. They are a wonderful person and didn't mean harm, but I do wish they had been more careful. My disordered thoughts were looking for provocation. I would have found something else to latch onto sooner or later. 

So here I am.",3.877118226600985,6.541484039408871,3.7143128078817753,86.51107512315274,75.60098522167488,6.818620689655173,25.913546798029557,7.908726449838941,1.6398632512315268,872,32,159,14,20,264,129,203,0.053,0.818,0.129,0.9293,0,0,1,0,0,0,35.0,1,0,10,3,7,8,1,1,4,0,19,6,2,4,1,37,40,13,0,6,5,0,6,0,1,2,1,1,0,2,12,9,2,0,13,0,0,1,6,4,0,0,12,8,32,4,15,25,4,19,0,0,1,1,20,7,1,4,11,103,44,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1306923165935303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15262327629385947,0.15528413163483468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14253344123385175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11161737701357104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16022069055710172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11678334228289886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09233530146621392,0.12645535064463154,0.1177858966531879,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.141372201190599,0.0,0.2684561255154197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16904437145056994,0.15328135923538275,0.0,0.1292410556180386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15412785685569752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.125231604389993,0.0,0.0,0.1485988026251566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2304880764755048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1173951630156771,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09331629191668996,0.14173329266711446,0.0,0.15228107269475982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13119101098118413,0.13697241879446798,0.0,0.0,0.29338909895075704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1220662754521638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15072595546487266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1437356910425414,0.13803372083443302,0.30018160118952897,0.0,0.0,0.13297997037035073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10762337802213956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1461472877875901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1109840456114721,0.16303474832532935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09491370749384076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17023637766588942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16076087202416214,0.0,0.1516050348236033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09930853222324118,0.0,0.0,0.09002536845108035
EDAnonymous,accountyeet99,2019/03/27,"I binged and am scared of ruining my results I come and go from bulimia. I'm having a relapse in a particularly stressing college semester, and after about 3 weeks of calorie restrictions and one hour of sport everyday (if not two of walking), today I panicked because my periods were late and decided to eat more only to end up seriously binging: kebab, chips, iced tea, cookies and two chocolate bars. Now the guilt's coming up and I'm afraid I'm not going to eat tomorrow to compensate but at the same time I'm worried doing so will only end up with my body absorbing all the shit it received today and I really don't know what to do and I'm feeling like shit and I only have this voice in my head telling me ""I told you you shouldn't have eaten"" ughhhhhhhh",4.336020469596627,5.641114052980133,6.330523780854907,74.12565924142083,70.72185430463577,9.19951836243227,32.27031908488862,9.573946990214177,3.215498013245033,606,28,111,14,11,212,100,151,0.075,0.82,0.105,0.8592,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,2,0,0,3,9,2,4,5,0,10,9,4,1,1,25,23,13,0,2,4,0,1,1,0,2,0,1,0,0,3,13,5,1,3,2,0,6,4,8,0,3,3,2,13,1,19,18,3,25,0,1,0,0,5,6,2,1,14,72,16,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09462544998847476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.172423135712226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2674300772744085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3176736642974796,0.0,0.0,0.2749715828911054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0784878595616739,0.11089479932273548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1764391164604216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1593085462264181,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15286815332049222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08530916085197451,0.0,0.1751037638383629,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07583648135997366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10518640115315372,0.3541732995811493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09944292861160756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15541014672984252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3186782924586625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17781296531504254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13567597338307108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09051460133226123,0.0,0.2942756824464789,0.14832685247478836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30327008677388595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12451440938740732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1576414056210159,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Kazak451,2019/03/27,"When to tell a SO I’m just curious about how other people bring up their eating disorder to their SO.

In my last relationship I never told him about my issues with food. We’ve broken up, but in retrospect, my eating disorder is a huge part of my life and I feel dishonest having not told him about something that’s had such an impact on me.

In the future I’d like to be more upfront about it, but I’m terrified to bring it up, and I wouldn’t even know how to. I’ve literally never told anyone I have an eating disorder, so the thought of doing that makes me extremely uncomfortable. 

How has everyone else handled this situation?",7.826666666666667,6.2984105600000015,8.771800000000002,69.27956666666667,63.4,12.493333333333334,34.43333333333333,11.538034831475384,3.8994533333333328,500,17,95,13,6,172,79,125,0.187,0.752,0.061,-0.9588,0,0,1,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,2,0,14,1,0,0,6,0,8,5,0,4,2,17,19,11,0,1,4,0,1,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,6,3,4,0,3,0,0,2,4,0,0,0,5,1,14,1,19,12,2,15,0,0,0,0,9,8,0,0,6,72,20,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10378393679350413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5103322127244511,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4556350644179231,0.12399210378584705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09803494281540852,0.0,0.0,0.14182880647181212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07504938760870378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1794790835711648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1549197140108144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08157185474426447,0.12098819683714696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1048387102280795,0.0725141635438876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0990764875029522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22895282729608546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16073248378169427,0.0,0.10290091760696993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15935555329085727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1668386929913626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11426671643956425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12973214930919594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11783483014808305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4254864194154364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,46kgs,2019/03/27,"I thought I'd finally gotten over it. ED doesn't let me off that easily I started a new job last December and my workout level went from mildly active to sedentary (I work in the IT department). I could tell that my body had gotten slightly puffier from the change in lifestyle. For the first few months I was surprisingly cool about it...I guess my job kept me mentally and physically busy enough at the time. This made me believe that I may have gotten over it and that I had finally learned to accept my body as it is...and in the way that life is...they always strike back when you least expect it. The most insignificant comment from a family member this morning has thrown me into the old ED spiral again. Right now I'm on my way to work and I can see my body reflected on the windows of the sliding doors...I'm literally fighting tears. My body looks disgusting. I'm desperately thinking of ways to get out of team lunches until my bmi drops down to 16's again. 

Sorry for all the nonsense guys...just needed to let it all out ",4.223070607553368,5.590277349753696,5.150068965517242,82.24349425287356,71.06896551724137,8.171954022988508,27.819047619047623,8.648137234880735,2.01388170771757,814,29,159,14,15,266,126,203,0.092,0.847,0.06,-0.659,2,0,0,0,2,0,26.0,0,1,0,4,6,5,2,0,12,1,11,6,4,1,2,22,27,7,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,13,7,1,1,5,2,0,3,1,2,0,1,10,3,21,3,30,13,6,37,0,0,2,0,5,15,0,3,15,103,34,6,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10563011297736692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09761444349977147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14302585057610862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5640382061240675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13429314360272782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10135688759727304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13117023507958878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11967437831873474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2781285706729441,0.0,0.10798109369268974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06632459273580732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13984648488038318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25195071264623803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1034787870518412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2596239138447505,0.08966645386974054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10660354740997724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12012036572908436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12793276554482813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10132792211282916,0.0,0.0,0.0941296271288522,0.0,0.12260624946463165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13320957148545745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1084120848779968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1011603609117551,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1421068262895863,0.08985377356353919,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1109573148710836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0813425420957769,0.0,0.1007817755363028,0.07402384423731324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30229397205282393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11768118479528507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1848379249215752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,takayl,2019/03/27,"dealing w comorbid mental illnesses? Hi, so I've been in therapy for a while but I have so many issues that I honestly don't feel like I've made progress beyond realizing how fucked up I am in all of these different ways. My therapist \~gently\~ pointed out to me that I most likely have severe social anxiety disorder and body dysmorphic disorder (alongside the standard BED/former but sometimes still non-purging exercise bulimic) and I feel like these would actually be pretty common in the ED community idk?? She hasn't given me many solutions and instead leaves me with 'homework' to think about how to solve these problems. I guess I'm just turning here to ask if anyone has had success with treating any of these or has learned anything really useful in therapy in general?? All of this is destroying my life and i dont know how to fix it",8.775506329113924,8.081222215189875,9.140348101265824,64.70773734177217,61.0253164556962,13.216455696202528,41.901898734177216,12.38480682065935,5.554162025316456,682,35,112,21,8,228,111,158,0.201,0.6609999999999999,0.138,-0.8978,1,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,0,2,11,9,2,0,3,0,13,5,1,5,2,31,25,14,0,3,5,0,2,3,0,1,3,0,1,0,8,7,0,0,6,1,0,0,3,3,0,0,4,2,13,6,20,19,3,13,0,0,0,1,5,9,1,4,6,78,21,3,0.0,0.0,0.14142855599761178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.098555824506981,0.0,0.11086931487923707,0.0,0.0,0.1013368368296115,0.0,0.11926317111819175,0.0,0.13548786143959796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1609820336733573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14941412333288034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15141862897911734,0.33219946340796463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16985421730500908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14655962726481386,0.20707279501711284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13398334877133106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1596542311756982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15126689414027494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07964848886543381,0.0,0.0,0.15345753754712088,0.0,0.0,0.10236673997969573,0.21241310127318186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1371341199989703,0.0,0.2938679368272917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1460530619894436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13700354730144784,0.0,0.0,0.14744360136110968,0.0,0.1386762623333571,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09284441334513996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16372708007639988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14773556704230362,0.0,0.0,0.14333722832399085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1157394704198074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3314749740247321,0.1682722619711465,0.0,0.09286383587893686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15763975051290116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12517102421244405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11503688428641985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10295249946084756,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,people_soup,2019/03/27,"i'm having a lot of fun rn I have - and I still do, some days - struggled with binge eating, probably for about 7-8 years. It started as a way to cope with my depression, and it sort of spiraled out of control too quickly and I couldn't keep up. I'm the ugly one. I'm the fat one. At family gatherings everyone swoons over my little sister who is taller, prettier, skinnier than me. Always being told she should be a model. I've been fucking massive for as long as I can remember. I've never had anyone say something like that to me. Never. Not in the 19 years of my life has anyone other than my fucking boyfriend or my parents told me that I'm beautiful. 

In recent months, I've stopped binging and nearly stopped eating altogether. Obviously I slip up every once in a while and go on a fucking rampage, but I've miraculously been able to keep it mostly under wraps. I know it's unhealthy. I know I'm fucking myself up. But I can't stop. Watching the numbers go down on the scale, noticing that clothes fit better, or are too big now - I'm obsessed. And I hate it. I hate being like this. I hate that I went from one fucking end of the spectrum to the other. I hate that I can't stop. And I hate being CONSTANTLY REMINDED that I'm still ABSOLUTELY MASSIVE when I refuse food or don't finish what's on my plate with a ""wow, good for you!"" or if my friends ask me out to get dinner and I just get a drink how they make these little comments like ""oh are you finally on a diet?"" or fucking whatever. I'm just mad. I'm so mad. I KNOW I can't BE mad because if I hadn't started I would have kept ballooning upwards, but...? Having friends that constantly make fat jokes about you or literally CALL YOU A WHALE whenever you mention food is so EXHAUSTING because I know if I was skinny they wouldn't ever say shit about me.

And I don't understand why when someone makes a...positive...I guess...comment about my weight - like, 'woooow, you look so good!' or 'oh, have you lost weight?' - why it pisses me off so much. It makes me angry. It makes me want to lose more. I hate it. I absolutely fucking HATE it. I don't know why! I thought I'd be happier once I started to lose weight but I'm not. I'm absolutely miserable. When I was at my highest weight and binge eating all the time I was happier than I am now, and I don't know why. I was obsessed with food then. I'm obsessed with food now.



I don't know if any of this is coherent. I just needed to rant. Sorry guys.",0.7922444946357992,3.0264468339920967,2.952110389610389,89.99102272727276,84.61264822134387,5.90677583286279,23.264963297572,7.240123139073775,0.9794670807453421,1902,72,404,29,56,644,215,506,0.19,0.695,0.115,-0.993,2,0,2,0,0,0,80.0,0,7,2,5,24,41,19,5,17,0,40,28,5,7,5,78,98,39,0,10,20,2,4,4,2,3,4,2,0,1,24,18,17,9,10,2,0,3,15,29,0,3,14,8,64,12,52,74,6,61,0,5,2,7,26,24,9,15,37,258,88,0,0.05868065424754147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04882700514315595,0.0,0.0,0.03990485713370413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0820617556861025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054858490415401986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07154236435032016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05189827004916401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05991950887720272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1268258811145032,0.06581534345592639,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.037844167460260376,0.0,0.050541561517802494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05748470120419848,0.0,0.18013487680988335,0.0,0.0,0.051973642322376674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053080011297758495,0.04944098207941862,0.05607187983771796,0.0,0.0,0.05531889838009441,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06428178844046226,0.0,0.0,0.2838275201698525,0.0,0.09067305581598792,0.37974523499070856,0.061316439779305724,0.0,0.06669913621017125,0.09843709739610852,0.0,0.0,0.06464335636912391,0.05810307346438452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4055449816325215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1043161234168259,0.0,0.0,0.22574547059933525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04144788148815546,0.11467361436404938,0.117626863034085,0.0,0.05193053243657361,0.04927697046751165,0.13129728434590826,0.0640568659687759,0.04988819380120582,0.0,0.0,0.19584896186490916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04683833837429021,0.0,0.04313703275455725,0.04351096158468186,0.09051627620657836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06680831379358358,0.0,0.12498596328850975,0.11929058995620775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06515792215465974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06326767019470941,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05794006678257067,0.0,0.06647374215256867,0.0,0.0,0.0933304230532927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060234848321440985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.049719927918021316,0.04517523451713762,0.0,0.0656881881741992,0.1246034073122392,0.0,0.0937248925659557,0.1962386179868286,0.0,0.061345760755528576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04658588477986223,0.0342171613890625,0.0,0.0,0.11214375967543593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061088630556113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.034611370238526486,0.046577971982070684,0.0,0.2858289128528388,0.0,0.05439755438378878,0.2118006530660216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.041685053147233024,0.0,0.0,0.07557683482918846
EDAnonymous,FrankyP_,2019/03/27,"Lost Love for any Food Hey!  
I'm recovering from my ED and for now I've been binge free for about two weeks (as well as gym free for that matter) and I honestly feel really good. I haven't been counting calories for a while (just roughly going through some numbers at times because I still don't fully trust my judgement when it comes to portion sizes). My biggest problem now is that I don't long for any food. For example, today I went to the store and didn't find anything at all that I wanted to eat and ended up buying some natural yoghurt and rice cakes (probably the most bland things you can get). Nothing in that store made me go:' Oh i really want to cook that' or 'I want to try that'. Not even when I passed by stuff I binged on. Has anyone else had anything similar going on. Is it just me not being used to do normal grocery shopping and cooking?

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I also don't know if thats the right place to ask for that. It was the only place that I could find to get some answers from people who go/went through the same! :)",3.2547857142857133,4.568353752380951,4.082083333333333,89.17312500000001,73.38095238095238,6.773809523809526,25.505952380952376,7.1686216300943375,1.0153095238095236,808,26,170,8,16,259,128,210,0.037000000000000005,0.83,0.133,0.9609,1,0,0,0,0,0,26.0,0,1,0,1,11,9,0,0,6,0,16,6,0,2,1,33,34,14,0,7,6,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,15,7,5,0,5,4,6,6,7,2,1,1,8,2,18,9,30,24,7,27,0,1,0,1,5,10,0,6,11,113,33,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10122394262424587,0.0,0.1371466163463319,0.15380545875888407,0.17215401575628478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08850589750289838,0.12969355779372965,0.20832491577777176,0.0,0.11833283090947973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0771604398829208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10903526695476838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1010617957120242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12952033348004338,0.10573921907273212,0.0,0.11211005228384592,0.0,0.0,0.08360321325820168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06400136295241184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2313789959476931,0.0,0.3061159147599012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1322629887449248,0.0,0.28774753177497603,0.10616716130164716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06956365732668048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11201706184993802,0.0,0.0,0.13817424125010566,0.0,0.11424109233353885,0.11977064558652616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12401902801125025,0.12145447899598355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09626785603589554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08775286762148245,0.0,0.26449299338183285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13647190184229602,0.12111752689496495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1621775138898065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10809645239096227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1010849166649924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1449008991370786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08409243469258701,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07380833016355688,0.0,0.11998062417236922,0.0,0.0,0.08593778113821014,0.0,0.12364777816990427,0.0,0.0,0.10932227791860764,0.0,0.0,0.2239759820750223,0.0,0.10153279695118617,0.0,0.11380833067877776,0.2346771322376329,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15380545875888407,0.0
EDAnonymous,jmiles00,2019/03/27,"the joys of the flu- relapse boogaloo I was a few months off of restricting severely- I've been bombing but trying to manage it without severe restrictions. I saw the weight gain, it hurt but I've been doing well. 
And then about 3 days ago I got hit with the flu. Terrible fever, bad cough, sorest throat ever. Considering all the water weight I've lost, plus that I can't swallow anything but tiny pieces of candy or gum every so often I've lost a fair amount of lbs. Restrictions starting to look so simple again, and I know I need to loose, but I'm really scared I'm gonna fall into my old ways ",2.520743801652891,4.5429091735537215,3.718181818181818,87.99727272727274,77.09917355371901,6.383471074380165,21.743801652892564,7.348242739294969,0.7498198347107451,474,13,95,6,11,154,86,121,0.257,0.634,0.109,-0.9664,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,3,7,8,0,1,7,0,5,9,1,0,2,19,17,11,0,1,6,0,2,0,0,1,4,0,0,0,3,5,4,3,1,0,0,1,2,6,1,0,7,4,7,2,13,8,4,12,0,3,2,0,0,2,0,2,8,52,10,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16257304209991644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15092258056937075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1531313467452724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11827783338785887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1658958078307465,0.15452241741246533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14668174096689213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19633350261621807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10079184852555448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15400981694035354,0.0,0.4004055488000504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1463881373058573,0.0,0.0,0.13598878269056053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1924474580595256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11749074187882705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18361540322390746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4143796144700891,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12981147020090147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1245165672993241,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14557439043743764,0.0,0.4466636049972745,0.1648986333891621,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1767910638625888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,itcomeswithatoy,2019/03/27,"I should be making money out of this I just had my worst binge yet (until next week ha) and somehow I could STILL eat more. I literally never knew a human could eat as much as I just ate, and ESPECIALLY not as fast as I did. I don’t purge, so it all stays inside and yet doesn’t even feel like it touches the sides?

Times like these, I imagine all the ways I could monetise this because it just makes me laugh and takes the edge off. Like, at a hotdog eating contest this tiny 19 year old girl sits down and straight up devours everything. The table is shocked. I win in a landslide. 

Or the Guinness book of world records feature me for most instant ramen eaten in an hour or something (I’d KILL that challenge). Or some weird variety show where I eat massive plates of food and the hosts keep asking “are you full yet?” “Nope!” I’d answer and keep eating. Cut to the audience gasping. 

It’s so dumb but it does actually ease the guilt somehow? Like if I did do it, I would find it funny afterwards with everyone’s shock about how such a little person can physically fit so much in their body, and that feeling kind of transfers over to real life. Like it’s a secret ability for me to  whip out and surprise people with, since you would never know. 

Honestly I would be SO good at mukbang. Maybe in another life. Does anyone else do this or am I just weird?

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EDAnonymous,littlepooh109,2019/03/27,"#Ana.mia.support on kik This group is to help with the shower thoughts of Ana, Mia, EDNOS, and others. This is a support group for you to lean on. In the case that reddit may not work for you this may be of help. Stay safe everyone 💗


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EDAnonymous,mandaramaa,2019/03/27,"just chugging the dumb bitch juice over here i was doing so good on my (what was supposed to be) 4 day fast and at 51 hours in i ruined everything and ordered a burger and poutine because i ‘couldn’t take it anymore’. it was 1100 cals which is under my TDEE by like 1200 cals but i scarfed it down like a pig and then my stomach felt rock fuckin hard after and i felt horrible. 

i tried to purge (am not a purger) for like fifteen mins to no success and then chugged like almost two litres of water to try to somehow offset the food??? anyway, just woke up this morning and i’m feeling like trash. i’m gonna go to the gym for like an hour on the exercise bike to make myself feel better and i’m fasting until tomorrow night. 

i just really hate myself rn",2.4295384615384634,4.061115993548391,3.6767741935483897,89.93823821339953,76.16129032258064,6.059553349875933,24.18114143920595,6.67199483983844,0.7376997518610424,589,19,123,5,13,192,107,155,0.122,0.698,0.181,0.8839,0,0,0,0,0,1,12.0,0,0,0,2,7,14,4,0,8,0,8,5,1,1,0,21,21,13,0,1,5,0,5,6,0,1,1,0,0,0,6,8,2,0,4,4,0,1,3,5,0,1,6,5,12,9,21,12,0,22,0,1,0,1,0,8,3,2,18,76,18,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.178637010169669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17692008881243024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10874804989906056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1577760453469316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11505013704061018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16033009065721504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18040393296143836,0.12744555689578205,0.3425747103228368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2157161676612916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10138609561867913,0.14962941855167788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15980704673733276,0.17612831342013366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3513666474991436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5229292622719197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11908017226422032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16741179772877934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11428452455529638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13413097870904034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2422372429605921,0.0,0.17426617539676634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,CoffeeBonez,2019/03/27,"I feel guilty and panicky after eating normally I had a 400ish calorie lunch, and dinner is about 600 (haven't eaten dinner yet, just logged it in MFP). This is what I consider a good day as I'm eating at a deficit, but before I ate my lunch, my leggings weren't this snug and I am very aware of it and I want to purge but know it is a terrible idea",3.0888000000000027,3.4725722800000014,4.577333333333332,88.96200000000002,72.86666666666667,7.6,24.333333333333336,7.554174236665415,0.914333333333333,271,7,62,3,5,91,52,75,0.14,0.8109999999999999,0.049,-0.7391,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,4,0,7,9,1,0,0,12,13,7,0,2,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,6,4,8,0,3,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,4,1,8,1,7,9,0,5,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,3,40,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2710947250025288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2054627538971516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.651989643250355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1610875477143093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2672163040432153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3596468108152582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1750875052008751,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3121483695136165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2628682733567935,0.1879113195667229,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,PM_ME_UR_PRAXIS,2019/03/27,"got my makeup done and felt pretty for once so i’m getting married in june and decided to get color matched at mac and the girl went above and beyond and i felt great about my face for the rest of the day :) 

i’ve been feeling insecure bc i’m getting a big bollywood wedding instead of a more casual thing and every time i look at indian bridal makeup i’m blown away by how gorgeous these women are and feel kind of homely in comparison. i’ve been using nuface for about a week now and i think it’s helping, but whenever i look in the mirror all i see is a face that’s somehow chubby and saggy at the same time (schrodinger’s cheekbones?)  

but yesterday i actually thought i looked nice! no contouring or any magic like that, just some color correction, but it was the first time in my life i actually liked how i looked with makeup. i felt like a princess all day long 💕 ",3.8045716783216794,5.065460488636365,5.177500000000002,82.05596153846156,71.95454545454545,8.369930069930069,27.174825174825173,8.841846274778883,2.041130769230769,690,24,137,13,13,231,107,176,0.027000000000000003,0.812,0.161,0.964,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,1,10,9,0,1,11,0,6,3,2,3,3,32,27,16,0,0,5,0,5,3,0,0,1,0,1,2,6,10,0,0,8,1,0,1,1,1,0,1,10,12,13,8,20,17,6,22,0,0,7,0,4,10,0,3,14,84,19,0,0.0,0.0,0.2766274612255446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09638522902976132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13316548388553304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18281577783256933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1450449701915234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11941855512010315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14333179506234994,0.0,0.4082658900571117,0.0,0.0,0.12056042997205317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2221533736463233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1133590961239676,0.1562642599195031,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09500254342528082,0.0,0.14217260026744705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1475960626341068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1001122128228364,0.20773491082393936,0.0,0.0,0.12543175498074965,0.4760896217209957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15094403992858146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14419630049522592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1129451109502416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09416299168983336,0.09081860087466967,0.0,0.11252242199530696,0.2479419179111061,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12241425503727225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11369193852586695,0.0,0.0,0.13139054026363056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,tropicgold,2019/03/27,"jesus i am so obsessed with baking lmao i just cant stop the urge to bake ... made 40 of ba’s toffee and chocolate cookies and brookies today :( i really want to try choux pastry and dorayaki as well as buzzfeed’s ultimate chocolate cake, a lemon tart, and macarons !!!!! fuck i gotta study tho !!! but i just love measuring things out and being with food.  i could almost control myself but ended up binging on some old cookies, broken pieces of the brookies, and crackers.  ugh.  i only drank milk today so ig it balances out to a normal day.",2.8343689320388346,5.188564135922334,4.122145631067962,83.854286407767,77.54368932038834,5.6733980582524275,25.83398058252428,6.742157984588678,1.2958007766990298,418,16,73,4,10,137,76,103,0.133,0.754,0.113,-0.5103,0,0,0,0,0,0,21.0,0,0,0,1,6,5,1,1,4,0,4,7,0,2,0,22,10,13,0,3,4,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,2,10,5,2,0,0,0,0,1,3,1,0,2,1,8,2,13,5,2,10,1,0,0,2,1,4,1,2,6,47,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2391871513181469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2679055692250541,0.19071295648665865,0.0,0.0,0.15404710653950685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2115620385753968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2888345230765217,0.0,0.0,0.2208253273446481,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21558350826535266,0.22601828672439164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2340353773252139,0.0,0.0,0.25064691519785776,0.0,0.0,0.18166634888967514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15302198487405866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19970046456912188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15869020261705488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4528290714768042,0.0,0.0,0.16217254205014556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14088779847545685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2147668469933847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,drawitl,2019/03/27,"Haven’t sleep in 30~ hours..... thanks ED I’m too anxious to sleep because when I did I had dreams about bingeing, gaining weight and being called out for it too. 

So basically I’m tired, but like a kid refusing to take a nap. I’ve the highest recommended dose of sleeping meds for me and I still cannot fall asleep. 

Ahhhhhh there’s still 3 more school days left. ",2.1726418786692747,4.3176422328767154,3.348375733855189,89.63082191780823,78.72602739726028,6.36320939334638,24.127201565557733,7.447530270364453,0.9283831702544028,285,10,62,4,7,92,60,73,0.1,0.7440000000000001,0.156,0.4621,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,1,8,2,0,0,3,0,5,7,4,0,0,5,9,5,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,2,0,0,1,1,3,1,1,0,2,0,1,2,0,0,0,2,1,4,2,8,6,1,9,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,0,6,32,5,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2328721197861489,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12565703507415005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21048529488737294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1329390193094636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20299992133039532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2239645916006722,0.0,0.0,0.10070638923578172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2289677884165943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2086180517170616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6188469376244972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3292368715915534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1549866973413889,0.0,0.0,0.18977998165238105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2369200720697868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2510150038631944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,mina1200,2019/03/27,"Having an ED is... Telling your GP you haven’t pooped in over a week and them looking at you and telling you to ‘eat more green vegetables’ 

🤨",3.5231034482758616,4.2588235517241415,3.4925862068965543,95.84853448275864,72.10344827586206,7.179310344827586,28.29310344827586,7.1686216300943375,1.0738827586206892,109,4,26,1,2,33,25,29,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,4,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,3,3,1,0,0,2,4,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,5,0,4,4,1,4,0,0,2,0,7,3,0,0,1,17,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4382534134744731,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3596605093170313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7486986192965875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34355296691946885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,camaradaries,2019/03/27,when friends offer me food :-( especially when you've been fasting for days and they don't know how much it means to you :-( and you're too soft to turn them down if they insist like more than twice. at least i've got the calories for it but man it still sucks and i gotta fast for the rest of the day bc of this,2.0627941176470586,2.862544397058823,2.728705882352944,99.72217647058822,75.61764705882355,6.028235294117647,19.482352941176472,5.6839178017228535,-0.5831388235294113,241,4,63,1,5,75,51,68,0.097,0.848,0.055,-0.4497,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,1,3,0,5,3,1,0,3,0,2,1,0,1,0,8,8,8,0,1,2,0,1,1,1,1,0,0,0,1,4,3,1,0,2,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,2,1,6,2,10,5,4,9,0,0,0,0,7,2,1,1,8,40,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4436911190346605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4159549492310595,0.0,0.26576638027203103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2751208063565744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18904830592908792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16805649224005986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3747067430761626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.252872762425048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27471143676010273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3741631285924048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,WheelieMcScroterBall,2019/03/27,"New harm reduction technique I’m currently obsessed with So one of the ways I get really stuck with my restrictive Ed is being afraid to eat in volume or too late out of fear of triggering a binge. This is especially bad because I work nights twice a week so on those days I fast (and am on my feet for 15 hours that day!) There are also times when my appetite isn’t great at dinner time so I don’t even reach my very low calorie goal and then I’m afraid to eat later when I do get hungry.

So here’s my trick: SOUP! There are several varieties that are under 200 calories per can, they’re liquid so they don’t trigger a binge, and they’re loaded with salt- which is something a lot of us are lacking. I find my energy goes way up the next day and my brain fog clears a lot, I think due to the sodium. It’s also comforting to be able to eat something at night without fear.

Sorry if this is stupid but it’s been a game changer for me. Hopefully it can help some of y’all as well!
Stay strong, darlings.",4.344203165255799,4.499713210526316,5.1900478468899545,86.48725800515274,70.00478468899522,8.536032388663967,26.60323886639676,8.384062270229773,1.4899993375046012,787,22,173,11,13,257,134,209,0.081,0.7829999999999999,0.13699999999999998,0.93,1,0,2,0,0,0,18.0,1,1,1,3,15,15,2,5,9,0,18,6,2,2,1,23,25,18,0,3,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,9,8,4,1,2,1,0,0,4,10,1,2,2,1,18,5,25,21,4,31,0,1,0,0,5,9,0,6,19,108,27,2,0.13354175408901747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2135865849953608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11150178662153484,0.08140581380291634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14907676247305468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2583701512612272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4099396595055645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08820306911351747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30054320033551635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12205474392450184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13954010955774504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14723025532694828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0895102228265048,0.0,0.0,0.13263709368983556,0.13151172783980802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1506409152817955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2270648476563295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12897545825051393,0.1420231704718391,0.2506397796920537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09049134865847856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08555026720146865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1508641709715264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20561393311507054,0.0,0.1494890604782161,0.0,0.14233774156312765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08556816384054672,0.0,0.0,0.15573854144728974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1606342876065888,0.0,0.0,0.1101859327473204,0.0,0.2119984570777151,0.10711914001577746,0.0,0.12007007464595874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12872948549320518,0.0,0.09721998745141973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,jello_pacccc,2019/03/27,"Munchies Remember when having the munchies used to almost be ""cute""? Like just an innocent thing that happened when smoking? Now I'm in my 20's and its just a masking my binge eating disorder behind being a stoner lol :(",5.506991869918702,7.1311980731707285,5.857073170731707,77.41211382113823,68.26829268292684,8.393495934959349,33.178861788617894,8.841846274778883,3.043725203252032,175,8,29,3,3,56,36,41,0.121,0.711,0.168,0.2951,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,5,2,0,0,4,1,3,1,0,1,0,6,6,3,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,3,4,0,4,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,4,21,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3824730837867239,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.43775389251358143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39083565183904345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3377618317037921,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.186604078062633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4326809245019157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25375414535103485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32988676451664256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,jdkdjssm,2019/03/28,"Tempted to Relapse I’ve been in recovery for about a month now. I’ve been binging so fucking much and it’s awful; I can’t say that it’s “extreme hunger” anymore. I didn’t restrict for that long, and even then, most of my ED was a binge/restrict cycle where I mostly maintained my weight.

I’ve binged for an *entire* month. Literally. I’m so bloated and I don’t have the motivation to do anything. I was half-way through a package of Oreos when it finally hit me: this is fucking ridiculous.

I’m so tempted to restrict. I know that restricting will only prolong this process, and logically it’s just ridiculous, but the temptation is still there. 

I’ve gained AT LEAST 10 pounds of actual fat. Maybe more. 

I’m currently in track, and when I was running, I could literally *feel* and *hear* the food moving around in my stomach. It was fucking wild. My performance has definitely decreased since this beginning of this month, and I know that’s due to the excess amount of weight I’m carrying. Fuck me, man.

In fact, as I’m writing this with oncoming tears, there’s one thing I want to do: eat. Whenever I’m having a shitty day, which is usually everyday, I eat. It’s the solution to my problems. It makes me happy — but only during my total binge-out. Afterwards, it’s time to feel even shittier.

I hate this. Fuck this shit for fucking up my life like this. I hate that I’m spending my teen years wrapped up in this bullshit.",1.6541544477028332,4.240103982078857,3.229136526555884,86.96976539589443,84.44802867383513,6.392570869990226,26.37569240795048,7.686295010490155,1.7760910394265237,1117,50,217,21,33,367,148,279,0.201,0.726,0.07200000000000001,-0.9906,1,0,0,0,1,0,48.0,0,0,0,3,15,14,11,0,10,1,19,16,3,2,2,30,43,16,0,3,3,0,4,1,0,1,2,2,0,1,24,9,7,3,6,0,1,2,3,12,0,1,7,6,24,2,29,33,7,31,0,0,0,6,4,10,7,2,20,136,48,1,0.0,0.0,0.10996627544762726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11175524314754393,0.0,0.0,0.09273181525067713,0.10031533812925372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08997141541020658,0.0,0.0,0.0726738050237079,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23061390598692866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14885742681864514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11395588555380748,0.0,0.0,0.12344312144276864,0.0,0.0,0.13626159092313447,0.0,0.0,0.6250640006519971,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11995742735195745,0.0,0.22251020360160406,0.0,0.0,0.1270064604888533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12385967747152095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07959417421664793,0.055053185543108896,0.0,0.0,0.09972446594408246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07521946034940245,0.0,0.1132092569577887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2698371109013322,0.11976846786253904,0.08283792505140833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07635964057732314,0.17140711195625435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1078262586662829,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0896132405987998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11567160585952295,0.0932158667631661,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08999199910209059,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07486424836682601,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06570870710433024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12410883135383352,0.0,0.06646572354800415,0.0894457106971444,0.0,0.2744448626676525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07256674577995367
EDAnonymous,frenchgermanrussian,2019/03/28,I am so stressed I want to scream I'm so stressed from everything all I want to do is not eat for a couple days. I just want control in my life I'm not even thinking about being skinny right now. I wish my mom would take me to the psychologist already I'm tired of getting panic attacks all the time. I need to calm down ,0.7003105590062121,2.6718263188405835,2.4484886128364387,95.06478260869568,82.91304347826087,5.1022774327122145,22.900621118012424,6.18269132825596,0.2770273291925469,252,9,58,2,7,83,48,69,0.229,0.6409999999999999,0.13,-0.8574,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,1,6,6,1,3,3,0,5,4,1,1,2,13,16,2,0,6,3,1,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,1,0,0,0,2,5,0,0,0,1,9,1,10,14,2,6,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,3,36,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2192017087526372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2259791294655487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2227891395222452,0.0,0.21978890444433694,0.0,0.12810492298126813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2032560195191882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1311983677720701,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17852281138937215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1037800316741263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14030372504171226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2326421449905489,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1472873828840265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23305861368834924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16963556259309495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4550777682974052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14935087553053988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12727905663559627,0.0,0.0,0.11582727586718365,0.2283048855247268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3514850939716314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22842362212790596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14110656624971013,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,OpalMagnus,2019/03/28,"That’s It I’m Going Back to My Diet I got off my meds and now I finally am not hungry. Ready to fucking finally reach 85 lbs. 

Screw all the haters who think I can’t do it. I absolutely will. I had a temporary fall, but I will get back up again!!!!! ",-1.9785000000000004,-0.11291496363636,1.6803409090909118,95.26051136363638,98.63636363636364,5.65909090909091,15.965909090909092,7.1686216300943375,0.0665,187,5,47,4,8,68,43,55,0.125,0.85,0.025,-0.5905,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,0,4,3,3,0,2,0,6,3,0,0,1,5,12,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,4,1,1,0,1,0,0,2,2,3,0,0,2,0,8,0,4,8,1,10,0,0,0,2,1,2,2,0,6,32,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.465813631459494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6636112181395877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2800206538038299,0.1582496313540461,0.0,0.1721416598041828,0.0,0.2422520290077437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3364469893704378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19408226675937207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,midnightsii,2019/03/28,DAE get paranoid about diet drinks from soda dispensers? whenever I get diet soda/drinks from the dispensers in the dining hall at my college I'm scared they mixed it up with a non-diet drink or ran out and put something else in... even if it tastes like fake sugar :( ,6.348397435897432,6.350863711538459,6.1469230769230805,81.86474358974361,65.73076923076923,7.702564102564103,28.871794871794872,6.42735559955562,1.4392871794871795,211,6,39,1,3,66,41,52,0.193,0.762,0.044,-0.8126,0,0,4,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,1,0,2,3,0,1,3,0,0,8,0,0,0,5,4,3,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,3,8,0,0,2,0,2,0,2,0,0,1,2,3,1,9,3,0,8,0,0,0,0,1,6,0,2,1,21,5,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7937900186081635,0.0,0.0,0.2256351715161527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17839951465728585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2822338051331041,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1319579652978113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27152664244649194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2704187533670068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20793735548643533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,xox_morbid,2019/03/28,"When you have an ED and you’re fat Like no ones concerned I’ve dropped almost 10lbs since the 15th. 

🤷‍♀️ Yay?

Sorry. Just wanted to share. ",-3.146810035842297,-3.716344677419352,-0.924086021505376,107.82275985663084,140.93548387096774,1.3777777777777782,9.89605734767025,3.1291,-2.310379211469534,109,2,27,0,9,35,30,31,0.107,0.644,0.248,0.6808,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,1,0,0,2,3,0,0,2,1,1,1,1,0,0,4,2,2,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,3,1,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,2,10,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5015664063462579,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24470829663825924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3394142844459868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4143392566704717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5607024676602896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29543638272349554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Soft_Pretzel89,2019/03/28,"Gastroparesis PSA I’ve seen a few posts here and there with people who have confirmed gastroparesis on here, but wanted to address the issue it poses to this community. I feel there is an appalling lack of literature on the risks of developing gastroparesis from eating disorders. I’ve been told 25% of cases of gastroparesis are caused by EDs.

What is gastroparesis?
It’s is a condition where the stomach loses the ability to move food through it effectively. Food stays in the stomach for an extended period of time. This causes severe pain, nausea, vomiting, and bloating. Many people with gastroparesis lose the ability to eat all together and must be on feeding tubes or they will die. They cannot digest on their own. The stomach can recover in patients with ED induced gastroparesis. Generally studies show that with increase in nutrition and weight the stomach slowly begins to regain function. 

Why is this important?
I see a lot of people with stomach discomfort, who are bloated or constipated and turn to laxatives. Bad news is, if you have gastroparesis the pills just chill in your stomach and take hours and hours to empty and begin to work. You can actually overdose with some medications because you will retain several dosages and release them at once. 

There’s hope!
Check out the gastroparesis diet. It has levels, one with liquids, one semi-liquid, one soft. Lots of foods, and lots of ways to just drink low cal stuff. That will help constipation and bloating. To fix the condition it needs management through gastroenterology and nutrition. So if you continue to struggle, please seek a doctors advice. 

Please just be aware this condition exists and a large portion of its suffers have or had disordered eating. I just want you guys to have happy tummies.

-with love from someone with gastroparesis",6.73346153846154,9.369613022292997,6.782420382165607,67.94634982851545,66.86624203821654,9.926310632043117,34.36991670749633,10.214889679676881,4.219962175404213,1475,70,219,40,26,470,183,314,0.136,0.752,0.112,-0.8690000000000001,0,0,1,0,0,0,38.0,0,6,4,4,11,12,0,3,18,0,23,23,6,4,2,52,36,20,1,8,10,0,3,0,0,4,6,0,1,1,16,23,11,1,3,2,1,2,1,9,0,3,4,5,13,3,46,26,10,25,0,4,2,1,16,13,0,10,7,157,29,3,0.0,0.0,0.09895587406404156,0.0,0.0,0.09909101323118644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08466827356470169,0.06181506074173802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20834009840996096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10524155270214576,0.0,0.2324360029928881,0.10379149828645903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09933751362362653,0.0,0.3112854447242939,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05127301172025928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3678550931074547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10040610337940344,0.0,0.10794665933502656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0679690995341254,0.0,0.0,0.100717253719673,0.19972542659790765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10583964193805756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2268907291720293,0.0,0.2586306805587146,0.09152125198502553,0.0,0.0,0.10280794547825356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1021540659167322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10777661946269318,0.0,0.07518993138438271,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10799216635771272,0.2061423362513668,0.0,0.10790122115808937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21090271843373656,0.0,0.0,0.22262272682020307,0.0,0.0,0.09711719543763042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0808060206736209,0.0,0.0,0.2291157708940628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08591945184471865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1080833877770452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10600968983307464,0.11608355130273933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07624334049156799,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05912960604202582,0.0,0.0,0.0968960612232397,0.0,0.0,0.11029865354423188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1196216520422965,0.08048993609436918,0.0,0.123483000388595,0.0,0.0,0.09150152048586384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07382346725468428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Mexipads,2019/03/28,"my BF can’t even get hard anymore fml We just started living together like 4 months ago and I’ve gained what everyone says is “relationship weight” and EVERYONE NOTICES IT BECAUSE ITS A WHOLE FUCKING 10 LBS. 

I feel disgusting but I work 45 hours a week and I go to school 12 hours on top of that so I never have time to cook at home and do all that healthy shit. 

My boyfriend promises he loves me and it’s not my fault and he doesn’t even notice but I notice and our coworkers notice so like ??? I feel like that’s the only explanation here. 

I’m so close to a freaking relapse and I’m terrified because I have hypoglycemia so I have to eat or I’ll collapse at work. And I work with kids. In a gym. But I can’t even work out because of severe pain in my hips that I can’t get checked out because I don’t have health insurance. 

And now we just tried to have sex but couldn’t so I just spent 30 minutes crying on my bathroom floor trying to puke but I can’t because my gag reflex has desensitized I guess I don’t know. 

I’m mad. ",0.1979498941425568,2.4366752522935826,2.186422018348626,94.32094565984474,87.76146788990826,5.372194777699366,21.687367678193368,6.8449194561589275,0.4986508115737478,807,29,182,11,26,268,119,218,0.198,0.687,0.115,-0.9738,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,3,0,0,6,13,12,4,0,5,0,16,10,2,0,2,33,30,21,0,1,10,0,4,3,1,0,2,1,1,1,8,16,3,0,3,2,2,1,10,7,0,0,1,5,26,5,17,28,2,21,0,0,0,3,10,11,2,2,12,105,34,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09902748985449236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11079001144063992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3404982942676915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12271229742675395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11431104511548815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2213576144944976,0.0,0.0,0.2134945314095199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11297164686551935,0.07980831798876184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10327755225458647,0.11673163639483655,0.0,0.06348949273603395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12306527903743628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10007356798862307,0.0,0.0,0.118746481369242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11205798953665412,0.0,0.2200310612412171,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061394949792140274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16373307106796142,0.0,0.09864527887735797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10082601170721933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08916884124592064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08616052301789841,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5087473324918504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08496333308303404,0.11887129548324815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11993874877632135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08883924969914972,0.0,0.11306026872461444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12620472784972972,0.11467254846928747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07907155997250738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0651411800180795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1516925923963672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08961002354720661,0.13603723914157267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12472440088744828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3253157321277108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,pothosgonerogue,2019/03/28,"Feel like I’ll find some understanding here. Flared as shitpost bc

After like two weeks on constipation I FINALLY SHIT TODAY. Actually it happened twice and was so much that I was shocked it was all inside me waiting to get out. 

I feel like most people irl won’t appreciate my shit glory. I’ve been eating maintenance for a while since I’ve hit the lowest in my 10lb range (bordering on “underweight” BMI). 

I relapsed hard into my ED after a few years of recovery recently but my plan is to keep maintenance so I can avoid the B/P.

This is a throwaway account bc my partner knows my handle and I gotta keep this on the low. ",3.4715999999999987,5.116423560000001,5.144200000000001,80.44510000000002,73.4,8.520000000000001,27.7,9.120678840339163,2.3517200000000003,495,19,97,11,10,168,89,125,0.127,0.7959999999999999,0.077,-0.7298,1,1,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,1,3,9,2,1,6,0,8,3,2,0,1,17,19,7,0,0,1,0,3,3,1,2,0,1,0,1,5,4,1,4,5,0,1,0,1,5,0,2,4,4,13,4,13,12,5,15,0,1,0,0,1,7,2,2,11,59,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.19341481821166373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20280829973543466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.200431966971874,0.2831885450735444,0.0,0.2171186465681883,0.1811514049640476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10355143144152806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.175267794739418,0.0,0.17754846132083146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3523389140375084,0.0,0.0,0.10892565427169984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2904918393511841,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14569996255334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13740707270463992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19569880034613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4068993430667944,0.16395326522654774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1878706279994535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1936128095328471,0.20633341275705092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15898425647758216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12763443961440996
EDAnonymous,EngineeringAvalon,2019/03/28,"Expired Quest Bars Question Have any of you eaten an expired quest bar and lived to tell the tale? What was it like?

My local grocery store is having a massive sale on them but they expire in a week. I'm wondering if I should still stock up. ",2.9582653061224486,4.583330081632656,3.636479591836736,90.80941326530613,74.71428571428571,5.716326530612244,24.494897959183675,5.985473137389443,0.5536081632653067,190,6,39,1,4,60,45,49,0.0,0.954,0.046,0.2755,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,1,2,0,1,1,0,0,4,0,5,3,0,0,0,6,8,3,0,2,2,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,3,0,2,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,5,1,5,5,0,6,0,0,0,0,5,4,0,3,3,25,7,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2786241033424237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2001688220068333,0.0,0.3617908552125128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4589809157924661,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32720345376200066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3581139219501526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3286532049350683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.44432458562805344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,SummerShandied,2019/03/28,"Flare-up / relapse and I don't know what to do Just a rant. Feel free to chime in if you relate.

It seems like talking about my eating habits make them worse. I'm doing just OMAD and snacking but I feel guilty for all of it. I know it's bad for me but I just can't seem to will myself to eat more? It just sucks. I told my s/o and I'm seeing a therapist soon but it's been really annoying these past few days. I have studies I need to get to yet I can't focus and all I think about is food and my weight and other people eating etc. :(",-1.337500000000002,0.5902769166666673,1.1983333333333341,100.72,92.33333333333334,4.2,13.0,5.6839178017228535,-1.23915,410,6,104,3,15,139,76,120,0.198,0.769,0.033,-0.9674,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,1,1,0,8,5,2,0,2,0,9,6,0,1,2,25,24,10,0,2,8,0,3,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,8,6,6,0,7,0,1,0,3,3,0,0,2,4,16,3,12,21,5,5,0,0,1,0,4,1,1,3,5,68,24,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15620553830649875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12065232251114688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5742943420592882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2086457262500852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1891884187348669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2262201271637941,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09774255009383696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2056305947864641,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0913987467044874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12487859396146825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1387188283477974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17859080369040087,0.1296990056063543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.119849429730028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1490800204882327,0.3406245972550285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1503693121682655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2172164582660855,0.0,0.11987450156273825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1787647340132575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2278153047807458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1906523977278772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ocery,2019/03/28,What’s your story? I’m just curious on how other people ended up in the same situation I’m facing. I also find that sharing stories is comforting as we often feel like we can’t talk about this aspect of our lives to anyone. ,4.564710144927538,5.149880543478265,6.807391304347828,73.56731884057974,69.65217391304348,8.742028985507247,26.20289855072464,8.841846274778883,2.0856898550724647,179,5,32,3,3,64,42,46,0.0,0.782,0.218,0.8519,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,3,1,0,0,5,3,0,0,1,0,2,1,1,1,0,8,5,3,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,5,3,7,5,1,4,0,0,0,0,6,3,0,1,2,24,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30393805148210057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2657504670763741,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33662501142834145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1921724153757212,0.2715186980186452,0.0,0.0,0.3473727626045953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18568068842660115,0.0,0.3356045881112037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2634893969290182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.42720927687570137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3054820597476225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,External_Interaction,2019/03/28,"It shouldn't take me too long to get back to a pre-recovery weight And that is reassuring as fuck. I'm about 120 lbs (idk tho, ate like this this week) and I regret even trying to recover. It pulled my whole life off course and surprise, nothing actually got better. At least when I was thin I had being thin. It gives me a good distraction to how horrible the rest of my life is. Without thinness, I have nothing else. 

So I'm back, and I'm fat. But!! I'm at a BMI of just under 21, so if I intermittently fast and don't binge, I should be down pretty low within a couple months. Which is sad, that I have to stay fat this long, but at least now I'm #woke

PS fuck recovery. It did nothing for me but suck the only soul I had out of me. Let people be thin, damn it. I eat healthier when I'm ""sick"" than I ever did when I'm recovered. ",1.7561316211878015,2.881012382022476,3.88654895666132,89.84348314606743,76.86516853932585,7.3329052969502415,21.703049759229536,7.957251820313856,0.7297611556982337,636,16,151,10,14,219,105,178,0.15,0.797,0.053,-0.9519,0,0,0,0,0,0,29.0,0,0,0,1,15,13,4,1,6,0,17,10,2,1,1,17,33,17,0,4,6,0,5,1,0,2,5,0,0,0,11,6,5,0,0,0,0,1,3,8,0,0,8,5,16,5,21,19,4,27,1,3,0,2,2,13,4,1,13,98,27,0,0.0,0.0,0.15794630787548994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24891170960122114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14314684746547285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17908854437555927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1656172078535495,0.13520837812032796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10690314312340496,0.14640634983609066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29926311706927355,0.08456211588458827,0.1552652541187076,0.0,0.13575558638617494,0.12944955368899633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16550683979622416,0.2286447530344052,0.07907376473307635,0.0,0.0,0.2864716684566536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12919044261878485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4659102818567488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12309737856850947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11220929197847834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16466386360648474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17251499421864555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1216941818223294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10988834709441817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12982964052673476,0.19709475744859786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.180704384299144,0.0,0.15602162997492994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Shadowed-Heart,2019/03/28,"Looking for a place where you can share stories, help others freely, and get help yourself whenever you need? Angel's Wings Support is a peer-support Discord server where you can do all of that. Angel's Wings Support is a Discord server dedicated to helping anyone who may need a little bit of help. We help people with their emotional problems, mental health problems, and even help them learn to do simple things like cook and checking. It is a peer-support server, meaning that you can help people too, and they'll return the favor. The server caters to **everyone**, and we mean that. We hope you come and join (: we're here for you: to teach you, and to help you. 

🌸We have:🌸

● a friendly, welcoming, and accepting community 

● Lifetime support-- those who can help you learn how to do activities that your parents should be teaching you(and may not be able to).

● Mental and physical health support

● active moderators and support staff members

● helping channels and channels that you can share your art in, talk to others in, and voice chat in. 

● rules that keep the community safe 

● we have a place where you can get feedback on your writing and artwork, and also a group of people dedicated to spreading positivity throughout the server. We call them secret santas, hehe. 

Come one, come all. Join us if you need support, or a friendly community to become apart of. 

**Invitation Link:** https://discord.gg/KgE4UCc 

If the invitation link doesn't work, feel free to comment here for another one or message me personally. 

**We also have a subreddit for those who can't get on the Discord server. The subreddit serves the same purpose. We recommend joining the discord though, as with all subreddits replies aren't that fast nor are they guaranteed.* r/Angelswingssupport 

*DISCLAIMER: We are not medical professionals. Our support team members are volunteers. People who claim to be medical professionals are not vetted by the staff. We are also not professional chefs, tech supports, etc.*

**Moderators: I hope I'm not breaking the rules by posting this. I've read the rules, and didn't see anything against this in them. If it does break a rule I'm sorry, and feel dree to remove it if that happens to be the case (:** ",3.3831578947368466,6.486647538847116,4.054029573934841,80.21048796992483,82.38345864661653,6.500270676691732,28.28075187969925,7.770157013224466,2.3159477293233084,1764,81,290,33,50,559,185,399,0.046,0.7240000000000001,0.23,0.9972,1,0,0,0,0,0,83.0,11,15,6,2,12,22,0,0,24,0,31,5,0,1,3,69,60,29,0,12,11,1,2,1,2,4,4,1,0,1,22,30,1,2,10,7,2,4,10,2,0,2,1,5,34,21,34,51,6,22,2,0,2,0,62,13,0,10,3,191,56,13,0.06195362577651206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14863287645074466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0649637784628153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04331941563648602,0.0,0.05098255522304435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0684229122209844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06763731349955451,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06326157874843634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1601026885726166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05421603541514236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06968949026851852,0.0,0.0,0.06909466944218168,0.04091978552682567,0.0,0.0,0.059199344393762836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0626512293815524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09573043518463946,0.0,0.09710463727986554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05478538666917844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13170761423656474,0.0,0.0,0.4152620943161288,0.0,0.0,0.12306785877721277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055067229187319836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03026741215588963,0.06209380882954335,0.0,0.0,0.05202544223290352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13497132159674807,0.0,0.12482352023566773,0.12486936626885868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1378134855052257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08396276039720402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06879216970751517,0.0,0.0,0.17180337369785087,0.05409551636530524,0.12945670555875385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05933444792996129,0.0,0.0,0.11856250569640155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061970391307507824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04936901858091093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06935201183875597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7030424034750451,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.049795977637525614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04115923608608045,0.0,0.06086912276968399,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07452258366039881,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.045102977429422576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,anni_wannabe,2019/03/28,"How do you guys incorporate working out in a ""healthy"" manner while restricting? Hi friends,

I have started working out recently and during a hot yoga class I got extremely light headed and had to take a break (I think I was dehydrated). I was wondering what I could do for harm reduction if I want to work out while restricting. I've been drinking lots of water with electrolytes (snake juice recipe) and was googling protein shakes but they seem fairly high calorie. Any recommendations? Thanks!",5.004367816091953,8.104656103448278,4.72712643678161,78.38885057471266,74.17241379310346,8.004597701149425,31.50574712643678,8.841846274778883,3.132416091954024,399,19,65,9,9,122,67,87,0.069,0.84,0.091,0.4314,0,0,1,0,0,0,13.0,0,1,1,3,1,4,0,1,3,0,9,3,1,1,0,18,17,8,0,3,2,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,7,2,2,3,2,0,1,0,2,0,0,6,2,9,2,9,10,1,11,0,0,0,0,5,5,0,4,4,40,10,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16213805298759768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19036399140842875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23356699407778056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1842075599867634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19069128453592005,0.0,0.0,0.23607951213923284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2446941592271141,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2519104655886442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2027015053053172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2354171971251805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2170543394853819,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16875935502901804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17926689734288673,0.0,0.0,0.21951089398126689,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1527739392135482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14063000308220014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25856314060422675,0.5207315356534667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,catapultand,2019/03/28,"I‘m overweight for the first time in my life I fucking cant. I havent weighed myself in months because I always get so obsessive and about my weight. Well I‘ve stopped restricting but have been bingeing. And now I‘m at a bmi of 24.4. Holy shit. I started restricting when I was 10 fucking pounds lighter. God I‘m sorry, I just need someplace to vent. Restriction here I come  again🙃. ",1.5024283935242837,4.226793589041101,1.7077708592777086,94.63881693648815,92.56164383561644,4.8463262764632615,25.81444582814445,6.574015621080383,1.139394520547945,304,14,59,4,11,91,58,73,0.253,0.687,0.061,-0.9109,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,1,7,5,3,1,2,0,5,7,1,0,0,10,14,5,0,1,2,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,3,3,4,0,0,0,1,2,4,1,1,2,1,10,1,7,12,0,11,0,0,0,2,0,3,3,0,7,34,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22202627174679776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16265880307507544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2298528370593135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22696785013253315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4933652625304379,0.1394091290370134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1884719034402663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2129834015739606,0.0,0.0,0.19785314607031906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2739000428724428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29869748257873313,0.1888656348494884,0.0,0.0,0.223084175430258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1555923561295241,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32493047490877863,0.2399147396809998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,avakadava,2019/03/28,Does anyone feel like life is on hold til they get to their goal weight? I swear I wont be able to feel myself until Im skinny. RIP me til then,-0.08727272727272606,1.2871239090909157,1.9303030303030293,100.81545454545456,82.63636363636364,4.4,11.0,3.1291,-1.909436363636364,111,0,29,0,3,37,28,33,0.039,0.879,0.081,0.3182,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,2,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,3,1,0,0,3,6,4,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,6,1,6,4,0,5,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,5,16,6,1,0.3664227275351324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2562112908453397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3206589981451806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3705486816256859,0.2617724697658214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19144075159675145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3957994241936813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2588152088655207,0.17901563594677955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4462041672802535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Trip_the_light3020,2019/03/28,"I just know I'll never get better That flicker of hope always goes with the slightest breeze. It has been 19 years. I should've known better. Hope is a bitter poison. 


Nothing lasts. I truly, truly, felt some hope early February with this new therapist.  But the ED is insanely jealous and grew louder after a trigger...I cannot win this war. I accept it and now I just have to work on damage control. 


I don't think I'm going to make it, whatever that means. But damn, I do not want to die next to vomit. That is my one and only request. I don't care what happens to my life, but please at least let me have that dignity. 

I want peace. I wish I lived in a country that allowed assisted suicide for the psychiatrically ill. Nineteen years, almost no improvement, downgrading and consuming more resources...",1.9890394265232985,4.624068509677421,3.527043010752692,85.11278673835128,83.25806451612901,6.025089605734768,23.44982078853047,7.3871296695380915,1.311616487455197,629,23,115,10,18,207,106,155,0.221,0.617,0.162,-0.6397,1,0,0,0,0,2,27.0,0,0,0,5,3,14,5,0,6,0,12,4,0,3,1,30,28,7,3,6,6,0,1,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,11,6,0,1,6,0,0,2,6,6,0,1,2,2,14,8,13,25,3,14,0,1,0,0,1,3,1,5,9,73,25,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16248528316710434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13501774867005953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2870209860860613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16544031260005929,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.181994358968205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16840578829289085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1558001579846919,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08477693472282903,0.0,0.09221912323858013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14349069044041188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4834982401493247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08917677866237593,0.132267896616202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16592728796824546,0.11461279734988218,0.0,0.0,0.14328325424676314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1083133640199306,0.0,0.0,0.17675450793585393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12514902148491222,0.15671686140429708,0.17257101331481706,0.0,0.0,0.1556979550416035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10995518324465577,0.12341009112989645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17811859878282088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17749192811991196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18840254817854585,0.0,0.10397306786204588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1914165849119984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18659711497387801,0.0,0.0,0.11813108870338855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20898709761797232
EDAnonymous,goblinunderthebridge,2019/03/28,"my sister is dieting and it’s triggering me big time especially considering the fact that I’ve been nonstop binging for months. She’s talking about how she eats 1000 calories a day and how good the hunger feels and goddamn i miss that feeling. i feel like shit i feel like a failure. Even though she is technically overweight and I am technically not, I’m ten pounds away from there so I’m feeling very frustrated. Restricting is so hard these days, and my nightly routine has become locking myself in the bath to binge until my stomach is one the verge of bursting and then cutting myself. fun  . I’m doing really well as you can tell 🙃",3.0288650693568755,5.72254904918033,4.029016393442625,82.89158259773016,79.0,6.704665825977299,28.237074401008826,7.882392219407189,2.1008290037831023,512,23,92,9,13,165,88,122,0.192,0.684,0.123,-0.8508,0,0,0,0,0,1,8.0,0,1,0,0,9,9,3,0,6,0,9,6,2,3,1,17,18,14,0,0,1,1,6,2,0,0,1,0,1,0,4,6,4,1,5,1,0,0,1,4,1,2,1,6,14,5,9,17,0,11,0,1,0,0,7,4,1,0,9,60,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1926313586748436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2264382623601439,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2644533000860594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2097957044635418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1354196252407168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5183437482925005,0.2929453103606356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17196847628257111,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1836655825615288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20033348456676786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16365207619688693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1924056916468005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13893285852771065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1313467347576752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2104591736033755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16479442752084106,0.1792042565292623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2014398093264206,0.0,0.11955397431343852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1691702779665997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1843455638743612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,moth-wristed,2019/03/28,I ate 2200 calories and I'm going to die I was doing pretty well this week and now it's all fucking wasted ,-0.7487499999999976,1.3252582916666709,2.2800000000000007,92.965,91.08333333333334,3.2,16.333333333333336,3.1291,-0.9090666666666664,85,2,18,0,3,30,21,24,0.258,0.5579999999999999,0.185,-0.4754,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,0,2,2,1,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,1,3,6,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,2,0,2,1,1,4,1,3,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,2,12,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4766140685316184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4245559297086703,0.0,0.0,0.2609941853466199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4672077226722881,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3683711128679525,0.0,0.4129079734299148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,wordsanguine,2019/03/29,"I don’t have anyone to talk to about this. [TW] I’ve lurked here for a while, but I need to tell someone this. I don’t have anyone to talk to. Not about this, not about anything else. 

Also, please forgive typos, incoherency, etc. I can’t bring myself to read this over again to make sure it’s readable. 

My boyfriend is leaving, moving away for a job. He wanted me to go with him but he’s changed his mind. He says he’ll think about it while he goes on an initial trip out there, that we’ll talk about it when he gets back. He’ll break up with me then. I know he will. Or he’ll say he wants to try doing long distance for a while, but that amounts to the same thing. He says he loves me, that he wants to be with me longterm, but I don’t believe him. I don’t think he could be happy with me. He wants kids; I don’t. I can’t have them, and even if I could, I wouldn’t be able to handle them because of my issues. 

He’s successful. He treats me well. He’s considerate. At least for the most part. He travels, and when he talks about traveling, I’m reminded that I can’t. I don’t say anything about it, but it’s one of the reasons he cited for having second thoughts. I get it. I’d hold him back. He said before that he didn’t mind that and I believed him when he said it. I think it’s just finally sunk in what that really means. 

I’m older than most of you. I don’t want to say exactly how old, but it’s been a while since high school. I was ana then, although it wasn’t “that bad” because no one knew but my primary care doctor, and she thought I had a handle on it. I remember once when one of the popular girls passed out during an event due to dehydration, they held her at the hospital because they thought she was ana. She was sporty, very active. Skinny as hell but equally fit, and absolutely gorgeous. I suppose I can see why they thought what they thought, but at the same time, I was so pissed because everyone was fawning over her but no one even notice how much I was struggling, not even when I outright asked for help. Nope. I was “smart” and I “could handle it”. Fuck them. 

After high school, my ed morphed into bed. Really no wonder considering that I wound up in an abusive marriage with a disorder that kept me practically bedbound. He’d shove food at me, just the way my (also abusive) mother did.

It took me a while, but I got out of that. Got my own place, stopped eating everything in sight. I got “better”. Everyone applauded my weight loss. Yay me. Then some stress happened and I started seeing a guy who massively triggered me back into restricting. He didn’t mean to, at least I don’t think he did. He turned out to be not such a great guy for reasons, but he never hurt me and he actually made me feel loved and cared about. He didn’t know about me ed but he’d still make sure that I ate something that was reasonably healthy on most days, and he didn’t admonish me on days I couldn’t or even days I fell back into binging. 

After that guy, I wound up having to move to a strange city. I dropped more weight because I mostly didn’t eat, but I was pretty happy, all things considered. Then I met my current boyfriend, and he somehow gets me to eat without it being a big deal. He can be a jerk sometimes because he doesn’t understand eds at all, and he manages to say exactly the wrong thing a lot of the time. I’ve started purging again, which I hate for many reasons, but I’m having trouble coping with everything else that’s going on. Despite this, he is actually trying, which means a lot. 

Since I met him, I’ve gained weight. I’m not sure exactly how much; I stopped weighing myself after 10lbs up. Despite this, I’ve still been reasonably happy, but now that he’s leaving, I’m doing my best to not freak out about everything. 

Tonight, I ordered in. I got about $50 worth of food, including delivery fees and whatnot. In all fairness, I didn’t actually think it would be that much food, but it was somewhere I’d never ordered from before and the portions are simply massive. Makes it a good deal for a normal person. I’m not freaking out over having eaten about 2,500 cals (very rough estimate) in one sitting though. When he leaves, I’ll lose it again. I’m pretty much planning on not eating again for a while, and then going back to hardcore restricting on days I do. 

There’s one thing that keeps going through my mind: at least I’ll be a pretty corpse. 

That’s what’s kept me going the entire time. I won’t let myself die, I won’t kill myself, not until I can be a pretty corpse. I won’t let them win. I won’t let them know how unhappy I am, how much I struggle. 

They. Will. Not. Win. 

For anyone who’s actually reading this, please don’t worry. I’ve still got a long ways to go until I can be a pretty corpse because I’m still overweight, and once I’m at the point again, I’ll find something else to live for. I always do, because I won’t let them win. 



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EDAnonymous,AugustusMarius,2019/03/29,"TMI so my bf commented that I ""have no gag reflex"" (I will leave the circumstances to your imagination). I was like oh god what if he guesses why....

anyone relate?",0.5100000000000016,2.9464580645161327,2.8150967741935484,85.92264516129032,97.38709677419355,6.350967741935484,19.103225806451608,7.554174236665415,1.1761561290322582,124,4,24,3,5,42,29,31,0.221,0.649,0.13,-0.3034,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,0,0,3,4,2,0,1,1,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,5,1,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,2,1,15,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35513497054359994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5595082939195789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5377919795160344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24813392254902544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4583000818032417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,littledahmer,2019/03/29,"Comments my parents make Today I was just craving something crunchy. For some reason I just really wanted tostadas, but we didn’t have any, so my stepdad put some tortillas on the grill to make me some. 

He then said this. “Instead of eating the tostadas, eat some meat!” And then turned to mom and said “make her eat some meat! I’d rather she get sick from eating something than sick from not eating”

And after that... bam. Something clicked inside of me. My cravings for the tostadas vanished. Its like a twisted game. Just hearing him say those words made my fucked up brain go “I’d rather get sick from not eating than eating” and I just left to my room. ",2.745212307692306,5.300066192000003,2.3200000000000003,95.55538461538464,79.08,4.166153846153846,24.01538461538461,4.713530739802397,0.11301230769230795,514,18,101,1,13,150,77,125,0.147,0.8290000000000001,0.024,-0.9627,1,0,3,0,0,0,16.0,1,0,0,0,8,2,1,0,4,0,3,12,1,5,0,26,16,8,0,3,9,2,0,1,0,0,3,4,1,0,4,5,7,0,1,1,0,2,3,1,0,0,5,5,14,1,15,11,5,10,0,0,1,1,13,4,1,5,5,62,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07604155202505389,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12482829406840396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8009396694408327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1033759479670777,0.1168428502286523,0.0,0.0635499811358565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1260294616610453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.121492944998816,0.0,0.0,0.05462968820655069,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10580695126317008,0.22392250105501205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1309624349959612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1241630689408774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11241015866792436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0716348660562419,0.1149697613283176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2127331819123614,0.08892388959504682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2582538963316465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10599244908602816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12162823810574687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06595443511633015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,thumbelinax8,2019/03/29,"Hardly eaten and i feel like I look fatter For today, I’ve only had green tea, one of those This Bar Saves Lives granola bar, and a salad. But when I look in the mirror I still just see a fat person. I know that logically the 2 have nothing to do with each other and I’m not going to suddenly think I’m skinny because I happen to not have eaten a lot, but it’s just really sucks knowing the logical way of thinking but still having to go through my ED way of thinking. ",2.2178030303030307,3.6053280909090937,4.492815656565657,84.89255681818184,76.17171717171719,6.566161616161617,22.476010101010104,7.1686216300943375,0.8087464646464642,367,10,75,4,8,128,68,99,0.042,0.938,0.02,-0.4478,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,0,5,3,1,0,6,0,5,8,2,0,0,22,22,7,0,0,7,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,5,5,8,0,8,2,0,2,2,1,0,1,3,6,7,2,11,19,2,10,0,0,4,0,1,1,1,1,6,50,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12651838467605567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10494171715572892,0.14827121964541995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23590685181377616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18353263324141675,0.0,0.1859208457698784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2281241934463976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1013967079929162,0.0,0.18326731072653396,0.0,0.3485734787713302,0.0,0.0,0.17644856307034615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1991464086721081,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14063884045365704,0.1578484215534456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1812215477282404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13295956528533598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16538764315770574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3314937133840618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3989621390560024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19672975926194872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32948141036000256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Sargassso,2019/03/29,"Ever feel like you're eating way more than you are? Today all I had was a pack of flavored oatmeal for breakfast, cream of carrot soup for lunch, and a single donut hole. After eating the donut hole, I feel like I ate so much even though my total for the day so far probably isn't even 600. Whenever I eat an unhealthy food I feel like this, even though a lot of the time it's not a lot of calories at all. I feel more guilty eating a 60 cal donut hole than a 100 cal banana. ",5.877821782178216,4.2163110396039585,6.307801980198017,85.81714851485151,67.31683168316832,8.872079207920791,27.130693069306933,6.742157984588678,1.0649152475247514,369,7,84,2,5,120,63,101,0.068,0.853,0.079,0.0018,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,1,0,0,8,3,0,0,10,0,4,8,0,0,4,12,9,5,0,0,1,0,4,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,8,0,4,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,3,6,8,3,11,6,9,8,0,0,1,0,1,2,0,2,8,54,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09664364619077777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6133535661055137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2969321164408065,0.1355518214808091,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3030834089731836,0.3211678914786961,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1812044515664472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.219633769701522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2548015863149083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1101601755575452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1615683140614198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2944622382090905,0.0,0.08738126535376414,0.0,0.14204438353887305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11894739260009154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,axolotlass,2019/03/29,"Currently sick and happy I have some type of intestine virus (???) which means that i am in pain, i have constant diarreha, i feel like throwing up (which im scared  of) . But guess what? Im happy because i couldnt eat more than 200 cals a day for the past 4 days, and i count that as a win 🙃
 
 I only ate a chicken nugget and 10 grams of honey cheerios. I dont know if i want to get better. 

 I want to hear about your experiences, did you gain your sickness weightloss back? Or had a binge after days of not eating, not because you’re restricting but because you simply cant?",3.5476271186440687,4.1679760932203385,4.762500000000003,87.18917372881359,71.96610169491525,7.594915254237289,26.614406779661017,7.6454224807358475,1.2895898305084748,441,14,96,5,8,146,82,118,0.078,0.78,0.14300000000000002,0.7952,1,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,4,0,3,2,7,0,1,5,0,8,7,1,0,0,18,17,8,0,4,6,0,1,1,1,0,3,1,0,0,5,3,3,1,3,0,0,1,5,2,0,0,3,3,14,5,13,13,2,11,0,0,0,0,6,2,0,4,9,57,19,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12885011330140458,0.0,0.3064452732287468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1482010432069651,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1810824124677608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32420416470124785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19638946106846691,0.0,0.0,0.34292956375222994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16391450331016275,0.0,0.0,0.0847278527127962,0.11971123019667475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.087547815490013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18459599599809964,0.0,0.0,0.3567603441310105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18886228869314575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3620062569891184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09209146556020804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08186568290699263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18253161780841268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1274436723050857,0.17830508618632815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15996344186528658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16776566587159106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19767291554469665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,sad_skelly,2019/03/29,"I posted this on AITA and I'd like to hear y'all's opinions about this. I (17F) have had very bad food issues since I was 8 years old. I had binge eating disorder, which transitioned to anorexia, which has now transitioned to bulimia.  I've gone on the pill recently and the fact that puking after you've had it renders it useless has kept me from purging some of my meals, which is very helpful. 

My friend  (17F), has IBS. She can't eat many foods and the result of this is a very complicated relationship with food. Since last December she has been venting to me about her eating disorder, telling me very explicit details like the fact that she doesn't eat for 3 days and gets bad headaches and faints whenever she stands up. 

I've told her countless times that this is very triggering for me as eating disorders are highly competitive and it encourages me to fast and puke to keep up with her in a twisted way. Therefore I've told her that she isn't to talk to me about her eating disorder at all because it's inhibiting me from my own recovery, and that I do not want to hear about any of her food related issues.

I'm her only friend, and she has nobody else to vent to about her issues, but they trigger my eating disorder heavily. ",6.949981006647676,6.37771057613169,7.0934156378600886,77.49934472934473,64.63786008230454,10.933713200379868,33.50712250712251,10.389873798559362,3.2468970560303902,982,36,193,21,13,317,127,243,0.093,0.851,0.056,-0.7749,0,0,0,0,0,0,22.0,0,1,1,0,6,8,0,0,6,0,19,14,0,4,4,26,29,11,0,1,2,0,0,2,2,0,2,2,0,0,16,11,12,2,0,0,0,1,4,3,0,0,9,2,32,5,33,20,3,20,0,1,0,0,27,7,0,2,11,121,48,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052765117701766825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12957190492812914,0.04729927064967448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05004032325376871,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.44463490298189934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5557708227224971,0.0648180330334459,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.375297484679222,0.0,0.1198945393158302,0.0,0.04053853834344055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17490330487321884,0.0,0.052008180467717983,0.08198004800334217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24295719244255165,0.0,0.06896720005585354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06324771255427628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07581491569976745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07866595583282393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08141959262210564,0.0,0.0,0.05901209718885495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07431154247237025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07661258962003427,0.0833046073249129,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12836955774332662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06236538867829654,0.0678186955674772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.045244430823668066,0.0,0.0,0.14828467268951132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3201070053436177,0.04576568256681683,0.061588797717252335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.049966606470080034
EDAnonymous,VTMongoose,2019/03/29,"RENPHO ""Fat Shaming Scale"" parody video  [https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OI5Zssc3YHE](https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OI5Zssc3YHE) 

​

Pretty funny video. Not one of my favorite Youtubers but he's pretty spot-on with this one. Thought you guys might get a chuckle.",15.950454545454548,22.128170636363638,6.9365909090909135,60.02488636363637,54.75757575757576,5.724242424242425,29.46212121212121,7.1686216300943375,2.248339393939394,233,7,22,2,4,54,30,33,0.0,0.637,0.363,0.9226,0,0,0,0,0,0,30.0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,1,1,0,1,1,1,0,0,5,3,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,1,1,1,0,1,2,0,0,1,1,0,2,1,0,2,1,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,1,0,11,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29921383976568905,0.3355585658486419,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14427959571863522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.273436878580183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.292956826964885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3742595657079211,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5618978527698365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21923623245007487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3355585658486419,0.0
EDAnonymous,KateBlake1998,2019/03/29,"Warning TMI and talk of fasting/restricting - has anyone else experienced this? Over the last three days all I have had to eat is half a mini pack of sushi and a chocolate bar. This is my first relapse of my ED in over a year and back then I used to abuse lax so it wasn't such an unexpected thing before but I haven't taken lax in over 12 months so not sure how not eating is causing me to have diarrhea. I don't feel sick (Just a bit weak and have hunger pains) but twixe this morning I have felt a little bubbly wave come over my belly and then I have suddenly been having it, but not for that long either - maybe just a minute ot so. This has happened twicw ow, can someome please help reassure me this isn't me dying and that it has been had by other people too....",3.570857632933105,4.34039423899371,4.3705431675243,89.47307032590055,72.01886792452831,7.291252144082332,23.25957690108633,7.348242739294969,0.6787182389937105,600,14,133,6,11,193,101,159,0.094,0.8240000000000001,0.08199999999999999,0.0325,0,0,0,0,1,0,15.0,0,0,0,1,9,4,0,0,8,0,21,7,0,3,2,23,27,15,1,0,9,0,2,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,12,7,4,0,2,1,0,1,7,2,0,3,7,3,12,2,14,20,3,18,0,0,0,0,3,7,0,0,10,95,24,0,0.0,0.2288232577256301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13503850115327035,0.19788086610981792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14850231565620686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16433638074182785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2108440592472084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1983940587241036,0.0,0.16636133227095354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12455058043785915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20043475976400985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3952331357680212,0.16133236382616695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09765053367858467,0.0,0.18543167401434715,0.0,0.0,0.16427325593975034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17078107800413392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12944858553213584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15742382937961336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19356343459483047,0.0,0.17091082699108784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19402147252963411,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15415168631701645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20550015450906567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1338895604681968,0.0,0.0,0.2119948424483213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18201938938835466,0.0,0.0,0.15522772144621422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12830462895248704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16679924128566231,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12436709904526555
EDAnonymous,cranberryb,2019/03/29,"Is there one body part you blame most for your body dissatisfaction? I feel like the root of all my body-hatred is actually the smallest part of my body: my boobs (lol). If they had just kept up with the rest of my body as it grew, I feel like my body as a whole would have been okay. As it is, they make it obvious that my whole body is out of proportion.

Does anyone else feel like there’s one body part that just grew in Wrong and if it had grown in properly, maybe you wouldn’t have hated your body?",6.564285714285719,4.6297244761904786,6.310476190476191,87.22285714285717,66.14285714285714,10.304761904761904,26.714285714285715,8.841846274778883,1.3090571428571427,390,6,96,5,5,122,58,105,0.117,0.8009999999999999,0.083,-0.7059,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,4,2,0,4,6,1,0,4,2,11,9,9,2,2,18,17,6,0,4,4,0,3,3,0,2,0,0,0,0,6,3,0,1,3,0,0,3,1,2,0,2,4,3,14,4,13,11,8,7,0,0,0,1,6,4,1,3,3,65,20,0,0.0,0.0,0.0916112761150723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06564160168320134,0.09618898968054038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8342173577259655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08215317195012369,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07842292882728802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14240244184744769,0.2011991446821337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0926849782698871,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1375919815763719,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06266421885478643,0.0,0.0943129560015114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12722817224647154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3049818113647613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20962261755789924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06668815776499766,0.10264073274228927,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,-Camellia-Sinensis-,2019/03/29,"“It’s like you never eat. Maybe that’s why you feel like crap.” I actually eat quite a bit but my husband says this sometimes. We work together so it’s kind of obvious if I skip lunch. Honestly I eat all the fucking time. But I really want to try not to now. If he already thinks this, I may as well live up to it. 😅",-1.5291304347826118,0.44805528985507337,1.6372318840579716,95.61410869565219,97.55072463768116,5.658550724637681,18.49420289855073,7.1686216300943375,0.3885350724637684,241,8,59,5,10,85,52,69,0.027000000000000003,0.7929999999999999,0.18,0.8496,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,1,2,0,2,3,7,2,0,2,0,1,6,1,0,3,13,5,6,0,3,5,1,1,2,0,1,0,1,0,0,6,1,4,0,2,0,0,0,2,2,1,0,0,2,9,5,6,4,2,4,0,0,0,1,6,1,2,3,5,34,15,1,0.0,0.0,0.19251973392096733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21770667853910866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21538192262666825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6056092329901192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09975220437467583,0.14093900315166466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18238493968454567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2054398690586452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1927650016174056,0.0,0.17420448921816056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19819727401137666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15215679933110005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2098347374715049,0.0,0.0,0.12638453123679272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15688734719485145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1951179156376994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12641097017631436,0.0,0.0,0.11503729444798058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1339421961057136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11636261535856565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1773810953034136,0.0,0.17801720760812995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14362436194335598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,xrosieo,2019/03/29,"I'm moving to Canada and I'm worried about the climate I know this is such a first world problem but please bare with me. 

The average temp where I live currently is more on the warmer side, since I live in the south of the USA. I've been accepted into a university in Canada (I don't feel comfortable saying where sorry) and I love every part of it. 

I know the weather shouldn't be my deciding factor on if I choose to attend the uni or not, but being cold makes me miserable. The amount of times I have cried during the winter time is unreasonable. My ED makes me freezing even in 80° weather and I'm worried it's gonna affect how I feel in Canada. Will moving to somewhere noticably more cold effect me greatly if being semi cold already effects me this much am I just over thinking :(? 

Thank you ",4.406380575945789,5.2953798695652186,5.656070016939584,80.5803331451158,70.18012422360249,8.090570299265952,27.67984189723321,8.296473431620573,1.86772795031056,633,21,122,9,11,212,101,161,0.114,0.779,0.107,0.1883,1,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,1,0,3,7,7,0,1,11,0,12,1,0,6,0,28,25,9,0,4,7,0,3,0,0,3,0,1,0,0,4,5,0,0,10,0,0,3,3,2,0,1,1,7,18,5,16,18,5,21,0,1,0,1,3,13,0,3,5,81,22,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19381645423475968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1929256698293045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.116004581294874,0.0,0.1479791954618137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1776116257318002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1493941658718953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19363707289095392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1930476742945046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3101760280264073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15851651588907215,0.0,0.2344740787086039,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3733422312519018,0.12911117726940488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19996043989284654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19019447501171954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19279335808822445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16805799020580942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1396711830415502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14528623562832413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19660785098782824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16170016317918676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.112539156723885,0.0,0.0,0.20482716161288864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3567296457230289,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,voregeois,2019/03/30,"my dad said I was too skinny today.  I've been very sick for the last year and it's led to some dramatic weight loss. I was ~200lbs when it started. ive been so sick that I've been in the hospital for rehydration more than a few times. one time when I was getting back from a doctors appointment or something feeling like shit he said ""well at least you look better like this"" 🙄🙄 never mind that I'm fucking dying or something. he's always said triggering stuff like this to me.

well today when he saw me he was acting all worried because I'm ""so thin"" now (135lbs). and like HA! I've been waiting so fucking long for this. Hahaha. it almost makes being so sick worth it. (well and helping me lose weight is dope) ",2.272302387267904,4.173831986206896,3.4082758620689653,90.49315649867377,77.41379310344827,6.116710875331565,23.56763925729443,7.010146845296331,0.7621299734748006,558,18,117,6,13,180,89,145,0.131,0.682,0.187,0.7248,0,0,2,0,0,0,20.0,0,1,0,3,13,14,3,0,4,1,11,10,2,3,2,15,25,12,1,0,2,1,4,4,0,0,4,3,0,0,10,3,3,1,1,0,1,2,1,5,3,1,12,9,9,9,9,12,5,19,0,2,2,2,10,3,3,4,18,67,19,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13641687054133966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1133561045166432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10475415341139477,0.0,0.08304588523180598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1204863109395646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14138751628562615,0.0,0.0,0.13943943031531372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06888309411519594,0.09732431157243353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2518889491062584,0.07117570221471689,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09131357263892367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11104742643622204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2662246881012007,0.0,0.0,0.1205612108550609,0.1144007378335338,0.15240898600507738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09093605198821644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13755568751496236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10507067181416573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0923144650744113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3887640598638128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13984039655617686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20975640797442235,0.0,0.0,0.09642585300903496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1559532768084553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15887618383758664,0.0,0.258264394557048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11240583316625044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3317882391540293,0.3674673284255817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13835041292356315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0877290708575786
EDAnonymous,h8myselflol,2019/03/30,"My boyfriend asked another woman for a full body pic. I did a terrible thing and snooped. I saw his message with a girl I don’t know on a texting app. He told her he liked her profile pic and then asked if she had a full body pic in the outfit.

You can bet I went home ASAP with some bullshit excuse just so I could binge enough food for 4+ people. Maybe that’s why he needs to see body pics of other women. 

It’s also great because I can’t talk to any of my friends about it because I’m so fucking embarrassed. Hope this kind of post is ok, don’t really know where else to turn besides more ice cream ",2.216976744186045,3.3739015891472874,3.436348837209305,93.40196511627909,75.74418604651162,6.40031007751938,23.752713178294567,6.742157984588678,0.5264536434108527,471,14,109,4,10,153,94,129,0.077,0.7909999999999999,0.131,0.7159,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,1,0,0,6,9,1,1,6,1,8,5,3,0,0,13,21,7,0,4,2,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,3,6,4,1,0,2,0,1,1,3,3,0,0,5,3,13,6,13,15,5,8,0,0,3,1,18,5,1,4,2,60,19,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12938193406457366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11002149757302616,0.1696489935949046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3025001818638401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19724912281641005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5391305237116516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1291746819010839,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13515324848481872,0.0,0.0,0.1671704192281467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19563488673131127,0.0,0.12499713201543758,0.14957054801592945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17837201889280938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16228671709070566,0.1606921493750904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16847747326379736,0.1778290845465519,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0790415233299275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16253795373904353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1199638715244474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11216353995146994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1549483360575911,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10364563889167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12892421769792367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13003919555134966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10748486532592036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1545955213123666,0.0,0.0,0.17597906075291467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14997924632487045,0.14598865095038124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,throawaybecauseuhhhh,2019/03/30,"I'm tired of feeling like a total failure. No matter what, my eating disorder makes me out to be an utter failure. I could fast for a week, and my conscience would tell me I'm a terrible person for doing this to my body when I have people who care about me. I could eat normally for a week, and feel like a failure because I'm ruining all the progress I've made from all the suffering I've put myself through. I literally cannot win. If eating food is failure, and not eating food is failure, how am I supposed to win?

​",4.470119047619047,4.984259953703706,5.8326984126984165,80.72500000000002,69.83333333333333,8.393650793650794,32.09523809523809,8.418075326091056,2.4585460317460317,417,18,82,6,7,141,67,108,0.309,0.583,0.109,-0.9777,0,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,0,3,3,8,0,0,8,0,10,8,1,3,3,19,18,6,0,5,2,0,2,2,0,1,1,0,0,1,3,4,6,0,2,0,0,1,3,3,0,0,1,2,12,5,11,13,3,6,0,2,0,0,3,1,0,1,6,55,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15808959428336958,0.17729232569878012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08894322704260818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16206919078238302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1487613656141066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23298888018231445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16722145007222985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5971949587031697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14754938579277724,0.20847121604616667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35286135420117243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1425650579317553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13806022541610874,0.09739369862540348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14295735719943467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10115317175926404,0.12739989769768412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1466762973460352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12752868183250018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16769801824958966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23407473117579494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10364776674705872,0.0,0.17729232569878012,0.0
EDAnonymous,happyishpenguin,2019/03/30,"So scared of gaining I want to get healthier and stop caring so much about what I eat & weigh, but I’m terrified of none of my clothes fitting anymore, plus I have no money to buy new clothes... not to mention, my family is “so proud” of my weight loss.

I’m about 3lbs from being underweight and I’ve stopped having my period for a few months now, plus some other health stuff is going on, which I told my mom about. She did some research and said one cause was anorexia and asked me “that’s not something I have to worry about you having, right?” And I said no, and she moved on. Today, we were talking about my health, and I mused “maybe I should try putting on a few pounds”, to which she responded, a little too quickly, “oh no, you shouldn’t! You look so much better now, I’m sure there’s a different cause behind all this.”

I know she’s trying to help and be nice, but it just scares me so much more in terms of gaining weight. I’m half scared she’ll notice I’m eating less (I’ve started making a big show of when I eat so that she’ll think I’m eating plenty), and half scared she wouldn’t care even if she did know, as long as I’m skinny.",2.6890980939098093,3.792739083682009,3.5607182705718285,93.18316015806604,74.48117154811716,6.4826592282659234,21.645978614597865,6.691623216298621,0.2333708042770808,887,20,202,7,18,283,132,239,0.15,0.72,0.13,-0.6231,1,0,1,0,0,0,32.0,1,3,0,5,19,11,0,4,5,0,17,10,1,3,2,34,39,23,0,5,6,1,2,0,0,5,2,2,0,0,9,12,8,2,3,1,2,3,8,5,0,3,7,5,30,6,28,25,12,24,0,1,1,0,21,8,0,3,13,132,39,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1127907795851718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10323782989775934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09731813007399437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09206674403570206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21227090215304487,0.21387585595260603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10876087107762797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4260753863137139,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06875613741286547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09813488682132296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054387217155736516,0.0,0.05916162807591675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2213038681943555,0.0,0.0,0.06977509107528537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.114419726125192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10433413561206104,0.0,0.09212397702171116,0.08741659832956848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06948661766410849,0.0,0.10458102620947836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12191901134610868,0.08309050197777912,0.11064032759504404,0.22957332581478745,0.0,0.0,0.10053906762526243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11851693552914105,0.0,0.0,0.07053989918457781,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10464783592696028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08889962771505254,0.1980431962804208,0.0,0.4168833979450148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08014018095597615,0.0,0.0,0.07368151832501556,0.0,0.0,0.1740621661858678,0.0,0.0,0.11916798103856803,0.0,0.0,0.0981116898252038,0.0,0.0,0.0836705040599289,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06670217363542483,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09867329210181404,0.09947066450826676,0.0,0.14135221981592608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0614000459255513,0.0,0.0,0.25352807841857145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10571717197197973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,idonotdometh,2019/03/30,Food Dreams For the past two weeks I've been dreaming about eating huge amounts food almost every night. I wake up in the morning panicked that I just ate 1000 calories and can't eat any more the rest of the day. I can't avoid thinking about food even in my sleep lmao...does this happen to anyone else?,2.261693989071034,4.519202737704919,2.1094262295081982,98.04698087431696,79.0,4.066666666666666,20.002732240437158,3.1291,-0.6333300546448086,241,6,51,0,6,71,49,61,0.05,0.835,0.115,0.4382,0,1,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,1,4,0,3,8,2,0,0,5,6,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,6,1,1,2,0,0,2,1,0,1,2,0,4,0,8,4,3,8,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,1,4,27,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1885823883081942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1280688869971188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1316826881566772,0.19296337090217536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1214554005225238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3854112813904374,0.1573231276551845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12438827435217442,0.0,0.1586737054524543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6831776358485712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16653703385195556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17673222708259365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17977952798921945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1884631090298457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12067240229374915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18396821311800485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15106464106711567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,rich_random_guy,2019/03/30,"Unsure if I fit here, but I'll try. Idk what it is with me in the last few days. I've been in the hospital for some time (accident related) and since I got out I've barely eaten. It's not like I force myself to not eat or that I don't enjoy it. I'm just apparently fine with eating one sandwich and that's it per day. Anyone else like that?",-0.3809210526315781,1.4321245921052679,2.5544736842105285,93.66881578947368,85.97368421052632,5.905263157894738,16.07894736842105,7.1686216300943375,-0.16857368421052674,263,5,64,4,8,93,56,76,0.161,0.7859999999999999,0.054000000000000006,-0.7859,1,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,0,2,4,0,0,2,0,3,4,0,0,0,12,6,5,0,1,6,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,8,5,4,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,1,3,0,6,4,7,3,2,8,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,3,6,38,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1994390225749064,0.29225121862412073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3678987223868828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5837217505644717,0.2382725569107865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22812400072566205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2325000232773137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2786973465615353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1932788175956542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23594470027520364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16631955204141854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1936520340003284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Best__Wishes,2019/03/30,"Any downsides of drinking monster ultra / sugar-free energy drinks? Okay so let's talk some Monster Zero Ultra, my friends. Today ya girl broke down and said uh huh it's time let's try this baby, and of course this sub knows its shit bc that's some holy water in a 16 oz can when fasting. 

But...

I've got this worry thought that drinking that beautiful fizzy white monster will jump start my sugar cravings or otherwise impair my fasts. Before today, my fasts have been just green tea, water, and salt. And I've been really good about avoiding sugar (even artificial sugars) when I do eat, so the last thing I want is an enormous craving for sugar to return that I'll have to fight all over again...or just as bad, an enormous energy crash that makes me tempted to end my fast or challenge why I have to keep restricting in the first place. For those of you who've tried it, what (if any) downsides would you take into consideration when considering regularly drinking sugar-free energy drinks? Did you experience any consequences from it (physical or mental), or have you continued to sip your holy water with no issues? Bless you for your information \~angels\~",8.580126262626267,7.899575379629631,8.183922558922559,71.36242424242423,61.407407407407405,11.0026936026936,33.98821548821549,10.230975488527342,3.35519074074074,926,31,161,17,11,295,139,216,0.114,0.7829999999999999,0.102,-0.6990000000000001,0,1,5,0,1,0,36.0,0,8,0,2,9,10,2,1,5,2,14,15,1,1,1,27,23,16,0,3,8,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,0,1,15,6,14,3,4,5,0,1,1,5,1,2,6,8,17,5,20,13,3,25,2,1,2,0,14,8,1,7,16,95,32,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2663384134758156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1090050178751633,0.0,0.0,0.11108967884050372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6394536579243546,0.0,0.1335867381324755,0.0,0.0,0.11562984586329715,0.0,0.0,0.08622800958335791,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1277043809826216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1110470071328879,0.0,0.0,0.10086373591949352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10950037259791864,0.10441393049754376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13626180829756118,0.0,0.11604013816202255,0.0,0.0,0.07174766945970197,0.10641686623911584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26699543065045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08714411482828183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13156516795817916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13639849163227175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08363460970516888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12418433662324647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1340091999672808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09240499695459868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09815845231324473,0.10493232018839284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08673259055445381,0.0,0.0,0.10364327831958776,0.07612560752921144,0.0,0.2474950425410205,0.0,0.0,0.17727174654572586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0770026349312691,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11780238873707748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13258134707578326,0.0,0.0927400131074264,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,withfeathers,2019/03/30,"Any downsides to drinking monster ultra / sugar-free energy drinks? Okay so let's talk some Monster Zero Ultra, my friends. Today ya girl broke down and said uh huh it's time let's try this baby, and of course this sub knows its shit bc that's some holy water in a 16 oz can when fasting. 

\~But\~ 

I've got this worry thought that drinking that beautiful fizzy white monster will jump start my sugar cravings or otherwise impair my fasts. Before today, my fasts have been just green tea, water, and salt. And I've been really good about avoiding sugar (even artificial sugars) when I do eat, so the last thing I want is an enormous craving for sugar to return that I'll have to fight all over again...or just as bad, an enormous energy crash that makes me tempted to end my fast or challenge why I have to keep restricting in the first place. For those of you who've tried it, what (if any) downsides would you take into consideration when considering regularly drinking sugar-free energy drinks? Did you experience any consequences from it (physical or mental), or have you continued to sip your holy water with no issues? Bless you for your information \~angels\~

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EDAnonymous,030729,2019/03/30,"Took Laxatives For the First Time Had a massive B/P session yesterday that left me feeling bloated today so I thought why not let's pop some laxatives. I've watched a few ED people talk about how bad they are and I agree, they totally suck. BUT .. I am loving how completely empty I feel .. I feel like the sin I committed yesterday didn't happen.  I am back to heavy restricting today and so far so good.... ",2.2333749999999988,4.539377587499999,3.945000000000004,84.59000000000002,79.375,8.0,27.5,8.841846274778883,2.4675,317,14,62,8,8,106,61,80,0.173,0.6659999999999999,0.161,-0.2584,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,2,1,7,6,1,0,4,0,6,1,0,2,2,14,14,8,0,0,2,0,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,4,0,0,1,2,3,0,1,4,4,10,3,3,9,3,10,1,0,1,1,4,2,1,1,8,38,11,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1791285374023832,0.19450826112537906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2442495969196504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3533681720136046,0.1664235833895584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1981519812723872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19539217076221552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20600193730113192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25310702649553896,0.2382129646715723,0.0,0.11381037755297815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.210251595197832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16150213573530642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1872409503117585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18494078746323506,0.13583832961320724,0.0,0.4416294891757844,0.0,0.2588223305549051,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2102062660629654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,salletite-wishing,2019/03/30,"Sick from mental and physical stress (warning: numbers) So...  Wednesday night I ate 800 calories that day and burned 739 over the course of an hour and forty-five minutes and had an hour long panic attack later that night (full on bawling, rocking back and forth, coughing to the point where I was scared I was going to throw up for an hour straight) and when I woke up Thursday morning, I was the kind of sick I’ve only been once before. And I’m still sick and it’s Saturday afternoon. I’ve been eating only 200 calories under maintenance since Thursday and haven’t worked out for all this time except for last night where I attempted light cardio for three minutes and realized very quickly that it was a really bad idea. I bought some Premier Protein drinks so will that help? How do I start feeling better? I’m not as bad as I was on Thursday but I’m still pretty weak and (TMI) food still goes straight through me. How do I get better? I’m pretty desperate at this point and I’ll do pretty much anything except eat up to or over maintenance. ",4.217789408866995,5.965893300492611,4.355169334975368,86.43600523399016,71.66009852216749,6.848399014778327,27.465825123152708,7.413659706084162,1.4919657635467982,832,30,157,9,16,258,121,203,0.126,0.7609999999999999,0.113,0.3476,0,0,1,0,0,0,22.0,0,0,0,4,12,10,1,3,7,0,13,11,0,2,1,25,24,21,0,0,5,0,1,0,0,1,6,0,0,0,8,13,5,0,3,2,1,2,2,7,0,1,11,2,11,3,25,12,4,43,0,0,0,0,1,17,0,2,24,96,19,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09945525030963236,0.0,0.0,0.13749261261621926,0.0,0.09293179439116714,0.20182157452313,0.0,0.0,0.10284065052186804,0.0,0.0,0.21377689973231895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07794295248127919,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11839413138271075,0.0,0.24733435534299586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06110907616427245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14614111237027805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06314294477554826,0.0,0.06868598192351379,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08100809257917492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3570602514779961,0.0,0.0,0.13643316734403946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12585426742378902,0.0,0.09851482032135528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1069548967164288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12179572035907978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08884401269237767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3402491330516341,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12870906735698334,0.0,0.1838348271127581,0.0,0.1417999873019711,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2284984033615832,0.0,0.0,0.368865932603549,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0774242734158138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12099922900499295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09997439753226796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08554341049024022,0.0,0.28955035892594405,0.0,0.1384416150614203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07047285653707468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09971991979305647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08798554506199703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,EmissaryOfLiight,2019/03/30,"Passed out for the first time ...and I have mixed feelings about it. it was definitely a very scary thing to go through but as fxcked up as it is, my brain is kinda sorta.... satisfied?? like ""you're not eating enough to the point of passing out? well done!!!"" 

I passed out at home (luckily) I was walking to my room then I became light headed FAST.. I was heading straight for my bed, I was literally 4 steps away IT WAS RIGHT THERE!! but instead my body decided to plop down in the doorway of my bedroom.

.........

 I woke up on my left side and the left side of my head was pounding hard along with other parts on my left. i knew the moment I opened my eyes what had juss happend and I knew the sound of my body hitting the tiles was loud so I got up really quickly because my brother was home but by the time he came to see what the noise was I was already up so he asked what the sound was and I said I juss fell off the bed lol.

idk what my point is but the fact that I'm not scared by this ACTUALLY makes me scared. any advice on how I can avoid this in the future?",-0.21693050193050206,2.000434842342348,1.481422136422136,98.56317567567572,90.21621621621622,4.432689832689833,17.838481338481337,5.985473137389443,-0.4672707850707853,813,22,191,7,28,263,125,222,0.037000000000000005,0.852,0.111,0.9571,0,1,0,0,0,0,38.0,0,0,0,1,8,5,0,3,14,1,18,8,7,2,1,27,31,14,0,0,6,1,2,1,0,0,0,4,6,0,13,11,1,1,4,0,0,8,2,3,1,1,19,9,28,2,35,11,2,43,0,0,2,0,5,27,0,2,9,129,41,0,0.0,0.0,0.12742293194628782,0.0,0.0,0.1275969471733903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14409340132959714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08879587315644649,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12207054244446572,0.0,0.12268005725509552,0.0,0.0,0.07959766262134751,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2900800701335254,0.0,0.145765533070414,0.0,0.1493436796874443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13362415491205862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13361141826811812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13491948090817293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06602293744465948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11106752305562888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07420911217297163,0.0,0.1044332209600828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11697007350953895,0.0,0.4020246535188656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.261955909774771,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.425612254598522,0.0,0.0,0.06379263357179825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08716021469421525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14140063044049173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24687226085356065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08365006119040458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11151083328498346,0.12420727966621165,0.0,0.2614578726725801,0.0,0.10405183290565934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08674861439132148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15227934345418973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10773852985086788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11740312940949495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Kokuno,2019/03/30,"Feeling like I'm not as strong as I thought I was after a comment (Warning: Relapse) Sorry if this is a mess, I'm a mess rn. If there's anything too triggering lmk and I'll take it out of the story.

So my boyfriend and I were getting my safe food (chipotle, no nuts/250-300 calories for my meal without chips) on Tuesday, and I showed him a meme from the sister subreddit and he said ""you're skinny but they're like REALLY skinny"" I know rationally he means unhealthy skinny...probably...

So I tried to figure out if he meant it in a different way, while trying to still force myself to eat the chips and tacos, because sometimes he's bad at words. 

So, he realized what he said/how I took it and tried to backtrack, and lemme tell you this dug himself into a hole by trying to fix it..
""Your ribs aren't showing and that's good""
""You are really beautiful, you don't need to lose any weight""
""The only thing that matters is I can throw you around""
""Bones aren't attractive I like you like this""
""They're too skinny""
""The only thing I want you to do is take care of yourself, and that's not""

I'm sitting there, after maintaining the middle of my healthy weight for 2 months, already struggling about my weight because I'm 3 weeks out from a moderate surgery (recovery is 1-2 weeks) where I gained 6 lbs (he probably didn't notice but I did) like, WTF. 

And that's the story of why I've been on the toilet all morning (lax), worked out the last 3 days, and am back to 800 calories max a day. ",3.1710862342914936,4.481058504983392,4.2149097212191275,88.15306803408926,73.58471760797342,7.095247724974723,26.70821898021089,7.586124646067393,1.3507803264480724,1154,41,242,14,23,375,164,301,0.1,0.754,0.145,0.9147,2,0,0,0,0,0,56.0,0,7,0,4,12,15,0,1,17,0,16,11,5,1,1,39,33,22,0,5,8,1,4,5,0,0,0,1,0,0,14,17,9,1,7,2,0,2,8,5,0,0,9,5,27,10,33,24,1,28,0,1,0,0,20,12,0,3,17,138,41,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13029938671129784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08029547299195204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.097166177477182,0.10511233843531836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09079286612795932,0.09858821363269693,0.143955608341713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12038596752546345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15229801805964674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12336389548250312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12082084049178825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05970258303667709,0.0843532490486489,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14277751267102234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06168963990731224,0.0,0.0,0.0990362309642192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06489127475252594,0.09624739252755583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28842892715436674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13209642016496698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12861896908877912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09424683620140624,0.0,0.0,0.08755157872312831,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13442987999873593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17960366478505882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12730549282163192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15128453587601529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22463391406198654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11677981086561788,0.13217599355785686,0.0,0.0,0.09429534548248036,0.0,0.0,0.12343827868903498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1775563484168378,0.0,0.10320329936657074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15688839529006707,0.0,0.0,0.0937388559145656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13118636231708153,0.3206623907810655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0696440619970235,0.09372293399711,0.18942628598179986,0.4313528991357352,0.0,0.0,0.10654488475524784,0.0,0.0,0.11382068755282312,0.0,0.08596046021003878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,raisemeupdemo,2019/03/30,"ed twitter i know this has been talked about but i wanted to rant. i think ed twitter is the worst ed community next to tumblr pro ana. 

1. EVERYTHING is considered pro ana, you literally can’t express a thought without someone calling you pro ana

2. there is always fighting. I have actually never been in an ed community with so much fighting since mpa

3. so much kpop, i have absolutely nothing against kpop but seems strange to me to make it such a big part of an account about your ed? ",3.0348304093567258,5.3488467052631625,4.4256140350877216,82.13374269005851,76.6842105263158,7.169590643274852,31.60818713450293,8.167268648758528,2.499046783625731,387,20,74,7,9,128,65,95,0.175,0.825,0.0,-0.9549,0,0,0,0,4,0,9.0,0,3,0,0,6,3,2,0,5,0,9,0,0,1,1,11,15,4,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,4,0,1,0,3,3,0,0,3,0,9,0,11,12,4,4,0,0,0,0,8,2,0,1,2,47,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.24852242546737024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2119069002490986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2600478434708207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22888211868250294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13996067129457718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16999505214017446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3744253767013337,0.0,0.1964181855593068,0.0,0.27084578779158724,0.0,0.0,0.24436395476134976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2757841708939741,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2318431619612131,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21066670854973585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21578214299291995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2046951222898436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.163183068426626,0.0,0.2021805435356709,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15021171499493674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2454940190011192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,captainamyyy,2019/03/30,"why is this disorder so triggering it’s always a competition with people I love and eat around for me to eat less. my bf had some medical issues with his stomach and couldn’t keep anything down a couple years before I knew him as did he lost a lot of weight. he’s ‘6”3 and dropped down from his original 160 lbs to 130 lbs. and all I could think about while he was telling me this was “MUST BE NICE”. I feel like such an asshole wanting that problem when he obviously was suffering

another friend rants to me about how hard it is for him to eat and wishes he could gain weight.  #cantrelate. 

people have every valid reason to vent to me about their issues but I just use it to fuel me ED. it’s triggering and I don’t want to be an asshole and tell them to quit telling me either ",4.649056603773584,4.970240100628931,5.305339622641508,85.34555660377359,69.37735849056604,8.624150943396227,27.849685534591192,8.548686976883017,1.734486289308176,612,19,131,9,10,198,99,159,0.067,0.836,0.098,0.5932,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,2,3,9,7,0,0,5,0,15,8,1,6,3,35,25,13,0,8,3,0,4,1,2,1,1,0,0,0,7,10,5,1,4,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,7,4,19,4,22,12,5,8,0,2,0,1,17,3,0,2,5,87,26,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11382873190178668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14344694592997925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11257491506037152,0.12178118845862584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11640690120641498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2184476691259734,0.15136682818324051,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1567848901954454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4199422950155625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11526007539432362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06917029555698047,0.09773009593742656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10569150136213656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12254611607910225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2855677507084192,0.0,0.12159431047054466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06683367158902999,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14933358704779218,0.11630264482968836,0.1234675287671416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13781181745982096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18968007896531164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13089932379540914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14550386029073226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14065339787834558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3587082345460217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08765604954350388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11815145687155228,0.0,0.0,0.16137661411277215,0.0,0.0,0.3331715983349168,0.0,0.0,0.12344090981921944,0.0,0.1573134879171516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08809484878843894
EDAnonymous,wrinkle-crease,2019/03/30,"I just ripped my pants I couldn’t feel more fat!! You know when you wash your jeans and they’re tight when they dry? Well this morning I put on a pair of freshly washed and dried jeans and as I was pulling them up, they ripped along the side where the belt loop is and underneath. I am devastated 😭 awful way to start the day",1.899166666666666,3.6379948970588254,2.0182352941176482,100.7787254901961,77.97058823529412,5.7098039215686285,18.686274509803926,6.42735559955562,-0.4868313725490192,255,5,63,2,6,76,53,68,0.115,0.853,0.032,-0.7568,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,3,3,0,5,1,0,0,4,1,4,3,1,0,0,10,7,7,0,1,1,0,2,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,5,1,1,2,0,0,2,1,0,1,0,1,2,12,1,7,5,1,12,0,0,0,0,6,5,0,0,4,38,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32558122988870714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2552632090721126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2774478789960218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5075054993173294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3573296611130615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4007199635074224,0.0,0.0,0.4539134538401297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,winEblues,2019/03/30,"I'm not hungry, but... 22 hours into fast. Told my fiance I'll make dinner tonight (he always cooks, and my GI condition is always ""playing up again""). I got the ingredients to make tofu pad Thai. And dammit, I'm not hungry and I don't want to fuck up my fast, but shit I just want that delicious pad Thai in my mouth.

Fuck.",0.05093283582089825,2.255093104477613,2.2941604477611968,93.53138992537315,88.10447761194028,5.141044776119403,15.83768656716418,6.6274283507984215,-0.3247,246,5,55,3,8,83,44,67,0.165,0.721,0.114,-0.5746,0,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,0,0,2,4,3,0,1,0,2,6,2,2,0,13,12,5,0,2,5,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,4,2,0,0,2,0,0,3,3,0,0,2,0,7,1,6,10,0,9,0,0,0,2,2,4,3,0,5,26,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4626562710212087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5140349626598281,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22235147835291566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27378567723585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3711501457610681,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2853751753585919,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2656522426350795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32795719177414384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,_creepycrawlies,2019/03/30,"anyone getting sick of binging? i’m sick of doing this, at this point i don’t even know if i want to and i know i’m gonna feel sick and regret it but i just can’t stop myself, it’s kinda like a habit or ritual now and it feels weird if i don’t do it",-1.444535519125683,-0.10756526229507912,1.9159836065573792,99.4338661202186,86.8688524590164,4.722404371584699,13.44535519125683,5.46131890053228,-1.2738218579234974,193,2,53,1,6,70,39,61,0.231,0.7,0.069,-0.8042,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,0,1,0,5,3,0,0,0,16,14,7,0,4,5,0,2,1,0,1,3,0,0,0,6,3,0,1,4,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,0,2,6,1,4,13,0,4,1,1,0,0,0,2,0,4,3,32,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2952628506964645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2789070985150194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4270274729018903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2206200275929749,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4641400030201388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20630108382223164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.399184138732984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35303883812309295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24906734587129495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,livpagano,2019/03/31,"Recovery kinda sucks. I hate to be a downer and my judgement is definitely skewed because I’m in the early stages of a relapse but all of that aside, recovery sucks. I was unhappy in my eating disorder and I’m still unhappy! I’ve been discharged for about 5 months and I know it’s still early but I’m not as happy as I thought I’d be in recovery which sucks!!! Anyone else? ",0.4648051948051979,2.8833939870129868,3.1974155844155843,85.85326623376626,89.64935064935068,6.716363636363638,23.284415584415584,7.908726449838941,1.687245194805195,295,12,59,7,10,103,50,77,0.31,0.667,0.022,-0.9741,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,0,3,5,4,0,3,0,5,1,0,0,1,10,14,7,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,3,1,0,2,0,0,0,1,4,0,0,3,0,6,1,10,9,1,9,0,0,0,0,0,3,3,1,5,36,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20895942129280515,0.30620208987875913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1821731807657835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3425023407047213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3057931131510722,0.2496467088497428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31812613379548604,0.0,0.29504763633408165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16423743488413453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23853528356000775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4773161175402245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2372496040969277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Annielizabeth319,2019/03/31,"Flavored Aligners?! What in the...?! Is this a joke lmao? Food flavored aligners. I can get a zero cal taste of food and straighten my teeth at the same time! Sorry for the long a** link, I’m on mobile. 

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EDAnonymous,hetleyx,2019/03/31,"Water weight? So I’ve gained 21 pounds from binging.

However, I don’t look like I did when I weighed 135 (the weight I am now). 

Does this mean that most of it is water? Or is it probably just me trying to underplay how bad this is?",-0.3329931972789133,1.8157255306122444,1.8031632653061216,96.68052721088438,89.6122448979592,5.715646258503401,18.37074829931973,7.1686216300943375,0.19577278911564644,177,5,42,3,6,59,39,49,0.071,0.809,0.12,0.3439,1,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,1,5,2,0,0,1,0,6,5,0,1,0,5,8,4,0,0,2,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,0,5,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,3,5,1,3,7,1,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,3,27,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2500698213578801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2620942916729891,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14632047306721133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2515043995120029,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3262430815827113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32291143813994594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20334070327504486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7294201369138261,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Aghbugs,2019/03/31,just spent 6 hours binging and purging feels bad dude. i feel so trapped in this cycle and lifestyle ,3.399473684210527,6.151478684210532,2.399210526315791,94.78197368421051,77.94736842105263,3.8,30.552631578947373,3.1291,0.862347368421053,81,4,15,0,2,23,18,19,0.344,0.6559999999999999,0.0,-0.8345,0,1,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,3,3,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,2,1,0,1,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,7,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5091179912739632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6166185191820793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6004835324660158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,annieedisonirl,2019/03/31,"""Helpful"" Comments Nothing pisses me off more than hearing from people who have never had anorexia about how to best deal with it. Like, I've been hospitalized. I'm in therapy multiple times per week. I go to a group therapy session twice a week. I've been dealing with it for five years. Sometimes I'm good and my BMI is normal. Lately it's not and I might have to go back to in-patient. It sucks. I hate it. But one thing that's getting to me today is condescending people who don't have any idea what it's like. 

Not once in years have I ever gotten good advice from a random person who stopped to comment on how thin I am. That's happened to me more than once. ""Eat more"" is a big one. Great advice! Ugh. Not once have I ever gotten good advice from someone who wasn't someone I knew in my real life, a medical professional, or someone who's dealt with the same problem. 

In another subreddit, a girl posts pictures of things she cooks and someone responded by calling out her post history, saying her behavior is unhealthy, that she has an eating disorder, and that people shouldn't be encouraging her to continue her unhealthy behavior. It was honestly terrible and stupid advice. It was shaming for no good reason. Should she not be allowed to participate as she chooses, within the guidelines, because someone wanted to stalk her history and call her out publicly?

But please, person with no history of anorexia, please tell me how I didn't approach the issue the right way. You're right. Being rude, telling the poster she's toxic, and saying you don't care what she does -- that's how to help someone get healthy. Literally all I said was that the original commenter who linked OP's other posts, including a picture of her (and the poster called her emaciated), was wrong and inappropriate. That the OP had the right to post and it might be helpful for her to do so. That cooking is something that helps me. That they don't know her medical history or what's good for her. 

I've been cooking since I left the hospital because it's one way for me to keep dealing with food. It helps. I eat more than I would otherwise. I take a lot of pictures of food to send to my friends and boyfriend because it makes me feel good to share it. Who cares if you get validation that way? Are you not allowed to because you have an eating disorder? I don't get it. If she'd been a normal weight, would anyone have had a problem with her behavior, called her out on it, linked her threads, made comments about how she looks?

I hate seeing people bully people with eating disorders -- any EDs -- thinking it's going to help. It only makes things worse.

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EDAnonymous,cosmicjellyfish03,2019/03/31,"Monster Zero + MiO Has anyone else tried this??? I’m so tired of drinking the same flavors of monster so i got a mio flavor i thought would be good with the white monster, i got the berry blast electrolyte one, and hooo boy is it GOOD

I’m so excited to experiment with new flavors now !!!",2.5603448275862064,4.356958482758621,3.785724137931037,88.58168965517244,76.24137931034483,6.019310344827588,28.84137931034483,6.742157984588678,1.37452,224,10,46,2,5,73,41,58,0.06,0.769,0.171,0.7846,0,0,1,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,0,4,3,0,0,4,0,4,2,0,0,0,6,9,4,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,2,3,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,3,4,3,3,5,4,1,2,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,2,26,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18798897438478104,0.2754727041004035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2633745752047804,0.0,0.0,0.22459302607580053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26299081001633895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4510039744139462,0.4300542228426069,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2596608774001001,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1821824346158916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21344005200359176,0.0,0.3090081335283807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1825342241916348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19098617432214016,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,whatarethissssssss,2019/03/31,"Does anyone else keep clothing as inspiration? maybe im just weird but i have a bra and some shirts that are too small from my lowest weight that ive kept to inspire myself to lose weight, and i wondered if anyone else has done this? ",5.042907801418437,5.57984378723404,4.830638297872341,88.33333333333334,68.57446808510639,7.117730496453903,24.177304964539005,6.42735559955562,0.5465943262411348,186,4,39,1,3,57,38,47,0.16399999999999998,0.6990000000000001,0.13699999999999998,-0.1053,1,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,1,2,4,0,0,1,0,5,3,1,0,0,11,8,5,0,1,3,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,2,2,2,3,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,2,2,5,2,4,6,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,3,0,24,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2975776943544671,0.4360603190270122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18621537916464512,0.2177597052078577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35552018455578155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2298514630049601,0.0,0.0,0.18913896754241766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2380593909062264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21377778173461626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5182457294232393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23076343297962695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ibapconflicted,2019/03/31,"i don’t want to die but i can’t stop everything hurts most days and i’m so tired all the time but i’m not even really that skinny? like 16.7 bmi or some shit
my heart rate gets so low when i sleep though it scares me
i don’t know what to do
i feel like i’m dying",-2.166309523809524,-0.4250704285714289,0.40505952380952337,106.18473214285716,94.55555555555556,4.419841269841268,9.462301587301589,5.985473137389443,-1.8005222222222217,205,1,59,2,8,69,46,63,0.341,0.5489999999999999,0.11,-0.9622,0,0,0,0,0,1,2.0,0,0,0,0,5,6,1,1,1,0,4,5,4,0,1,12,11,8,2,1,4,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,1,1,1,2,0,0,0,4,4,0,0,0,1,7,2,2,11,3,5,0,2,0,0,0,1,1,3,6,30,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15219708080221184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4898505526049281,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15587229683471138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2120968509074337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11932602893066148,0.16859468593160884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12329750878248998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2796548974006571,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2526372449170101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12969653463252204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2305902140610445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15118427031551632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2362718994806035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24224520427656554,0.0,0.0,0.23616516770641374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19730216571429796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2318636290555525,0.0,0.13761042787431,0.2712412318051776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13919580919305136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,n34543,2019/04/01,Deleted Peach I deleted my peach and now I regret it :/ The community there was really supportive but I felt so insecure. I felt jealous/fat/ugly so I impulsively deleted my peach. I regret it now because there were a lot of people that I had saved as favorites because I liked seeing their posts):,1.5303968253968243,4.223469500000004,3.693809523809524,79.66230158730158,95.07142857142857,6.060317460317463,25.865079365079364,7.3871296695380915,2.1633912698412705,236,11,39,5,9,80,37,56,0.194,0.602,0.204,0.1586,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,1,0,6,6,0,1,2,0,3,0,0,0,0,8,7,5,0,2,1,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,5,3,11,3,2,2,1,3,0,2,1,0,1,0,0,1,3,30,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38813896398990383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6113516209130475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15553476000000516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2706585396382824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22071094447767986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3049011613873165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2039497581894324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2536919382757216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3612714920295568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,solaris-et-lunara,2019/04/01,"A letter to my barista: I decided I would get coffee today on my free period. I only had about 20 minutes to order and then bust out a couple sentences in an essay, and know even if I didn’t have an hour to cozy up and watch the sleet fall, I could still enjoy my short break. Besides, going somewhere besides school and work and home is nice. 

You were probably a local college student. Not many young people are at work at 11:30 in the morning. That’s okay, I’m sure I looked out of place too. I definitely felt out of place at the counter— I wanted to try something ~new~ for spring, something fresh, maybe fruity. A place near me has a lavender mocha (which clocks in at around 300 calories), but yet I was standing in front of you, most likely with a slack jaw and glazed over eyes, calculating calories, measuring macros, testing taste. Coffee and fruit are hard flavors to mix, and yet I settled on a raspberry americano with a little bit of white chocolate. I know I probably annoyed you when I asked if you had sugar free versions of those. I know I probably annoyed you when I asked how big your sizes were, and then took an eternity to decide if I could spare the calories (I know I’m probably annoying you, right now, dear reader). I went back to my seat, in a small panic, thinking that you would somehow put non-diet water or high cal coffee in my medium americano, so I practically fell over myself when you called out my drink to say thank you, and offered what I hope was a gleeful smile of a soon-to-be-caffeinated high school senior. 

Later on I asked how big your bagel sandwiches are. Your menu didn’t have calories on it, and I wanted to know if I could treat myself. You kinda blew me off— ‘the normal bagel size.’ Normal? I’ve seen about 5 different normal bagel sizes with about 500 different calorie counts. As big as a tea saucer? A frisbee? I asked if you could cut it in half, so I wouldn’t gorge myself on the carby goodness. You kinda looked at me like I was crazy. I mean, maybe I am. Who panics over s bagel?

I guess I do. But I also spent five minutes looking at your menu board, then your rack of syrups, and then to the menu again. I’m sure most people know what they want. I’m sure most people don’t stumble over the words ‘for here’ or ‘thank you.’ 

Maybe you got up at 4:30 AM today to open up shop. Or we’re really hungover. Or maybe I’m the thirtieth dumb customer today. 

But I’m sorry you had to deal with my disordered ass today. 

(Sorry for dramatics)",3.4439002444479136,5.020223833671404,4.203691683569982,87.43924741249286,73.34077079107504,6.922536017059343,24.40573152337859,7.516190064127842,1.0737519009725909,1942,58,391,23,39,621,245,493,0.07400000000000001,0.8109999999999999,0.115,0.9419,2,0,3,0,0,0,70.0,0,19,1,2,22,23,5,2,25,1,28,10,3,2,3,73,64,38,0,19,13,0,2,2,0,3,0,1,1,0,9,22,7,0,11,2,4,7,5,7,0,2,16,14,65,18,63,41,5,82,0,0,7,1,30,46,2,17,28,242,74,8,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058487126482912384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06510687268119167,0.2734905228568353,0.0,0.0,0.056237351992611685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07984597090651993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07468040811942415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2335737524210448,0.08092399930905762,0.0,0.0,0.0754003832489497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15282387503114328,0.08382061312989637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07164579661943833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.048305880816769536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07022238189380188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03821073330668474,0.0,0.04156508294816642,0.061343314935194765,0.0584938340406534,0.0,0.08056795401559576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06551581962798225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15454517497332448,0.07336173954737363,0.07264091492573665,0.07202458956231046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24116300862430556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07146146957568708,0.07330185361828992,0.0,0.0,0.18424838592774426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07414879720570516,0.2939012444771349,0.07966694461851648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07063555925156292,0.0,0.0,0.21497433481249625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05562350296027278,0.0,0.1716195377629933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15211064501413402,0.0,0.2292358125467149,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3154134951665913,0.0,0.0,0.07352224950720833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.046853029637305435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06245805803882984,0.0,0.05816097473247344,0.0,0.14803581648443148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11260789728916187,0.0,0.1637403507938679,0.0,0.0,0.058406797376453365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20679048185775506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13466828160399796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.046862831029966884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.277298898246522,0.0,0.08125719507365689,0.04965479257955139,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12941317294253082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06779814518181956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10648829284595462,0.0,0.0,0.10390795384838868,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,shardofopal,2019/04/01,"How do I trick myself into thinking I should eat food if I see it as a reward for good, moral behaviour and I am a shitty person? Does anyone understand my type of ED at all? My eating disorder might be a little bit different from most here, but I am hoping someone here can help me. My issues don't stem from body dysphoria, but from a very deep self-loathing of who I could potentially be as a person.  It's my inside person that I hate, not so much my outside. I've done a lot to improve my outside self, and I am at peace with her. 

​

I got overweight in high school and tried to lose weight, I tried to change my mindset to that food is a treat and that I don't need to be eating constantly like I do. Food is a treat, it's a reward. I don't deserve a reward everyday do I? No, because I am not doing something great every single day. This way I'd lose weight and become a better person. Basically starve myself into doing good things. Is that not an incentive, or what?

I managed to drop the weight by the time I got to University and become a little better of a person on the ride. However, I still have that understanding of food as a reward. If I do something wrong, or if I am mean to someone or if I havent done what I planned on in a day, I restrict. Because I don't deserve a reward for being a bad person. This has remained a constant in my life. I make a mistake on a test? No food. I upset a friend? No food. I got drunk the night before and made an idiot of myself? No food for a week, at minimum. Think of all the people you hurt. 

Its this weird fucked up form of self-flagellation, and I am spiraling harder into my ED than I have in a long time. I can't even bring myself to buy groceries, I don't deserve to even look at food right now. I don't deserve the calories and I don't deserve to do something I enjoy until I've earned it. 

Does anyone here also have this mindset? When I lurk I find that people feel this way a lot in terms of earning their food with exercise, so if anyone reading this does that, what are your go to coping mechanisms? What do you do when it gets really bad? ",2.4111688311688297,3.761470636363637,4.33103896103896,86.40227272727276,75.5909090909091,6.755844155844157,23.70779220779221,7.33818517376401,0.950351948051948,1640,49,344,19,35,560,193,440,0.191,0.662,0.147,-0.956,2,0,3,0,0,0,54.0,0,3,1,12,13,29,4,1,32,0,42,21,1,3,2,49,62,29,0,10,13,0,4,1,1,2,3,0,0,7,25,14,17,1,7,3,1,3,16,13,0,0,6,6,55,16,50,49,10,43,1,3,2,1,15,21,1,13,17,251,80,7,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.046579338865248864,0.0,0.06310956233676601,0.0707753165617075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1221809608818682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09726602451624856,0.0710124933512983,0.1286563547955521,0.0495630918476487,0.0,0.0,0.10302778193809163,0.06358959243734068,0.06469822220061187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06161658944725321,0.0,0.0,0.1258865585615204,0.0,0.046504725134796136,0.0,0.0,0.07512775722641135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060854717010723626,0.06675501050664635,0.0,0.15291451200113254,0.11921184743081314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1788007267856187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07694192301979512,0.0,0.04907480264426936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02945094900980582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053235827310914974,0.0,0.6338821083426441,0.0,0.04500074768109008,0.053847527405316266,0.030431153007691617,0.0,0.03310256803555675,0.09770803338471128,0.1397540423585305,0.06421646709918592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05750590790975955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03904109428061935,0.061540141463222724,0.0,0.0578514622836898,0.0,0.0,0.06235359279702664,0.0,0.0,0.06079373520986678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.041140902112076605,0.02845607407424172,0.11675567204125616,0.0,0.051545914408475405,0.048912005767120466,0.13032484481505127,0.0,0.09903740427892516,0.0,0.055113813414615416,0.0388796854243979,0.0,0.0,0.06344701531590974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06178984617756859,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.042817542857234714,0.04318870222279689,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05465996486455865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08076094353509787,0.3051491841153546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0582618043582245,0.0,0.03731390607772811,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04974180174685113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05894810426561725,0.04641455445465471,0.0,0.1822899748629891,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09870336499969808,0.1345219466783203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04651536450207697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03869608227067416,0.07464342387781576,0.0,0.0,0.06792747116220316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07909047850118955,0.0,0.0,0.12127236807449684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0480590847944166,0.0,0.09246599426033512,0.04672146166724199,0.2127839632981064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06368290347634471,0.0707753165617075,0.0
EDAnonymous,oanbjfknabd,2019/04/01,"Does social eating / peer pressure ever hurl you into binge mode? I was doing OMAD and was doing really well. Theeeeen, the last three days, I've binged (which I'm upset as hell about) because there was one social event each day which I was pressured into eating when I wasn't hungry and couldn't stop eating the rest of the day. Social eating is the absolute worst, it seems x.x They don't understand that they've just put the train on the tracks and the darn thing no breaks.",7.115161290322582,6.6336796559139835,6.382279569892473,82.43341935483875,64.26881720430107,8.730322580645161,25.05161290322581,7.554174236665415,1.1291135483870964,380,6,73,3,5,116,64,93,0.18,0.7759999999999999,0.044,-0.9234,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,1,1,0,6,6,1,3,7,0,10,4,0,0,1,12,13,5,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,6,4,1,2,0,0,1,4,5,1,2,5,0,5,1,6,7,3,13,1,0,0,0,5,3,2,1,8,47,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09861717289232187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.312996488663946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1415713034527608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6621491084941244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14633569071453315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13186906517451485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10962363201131536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1626296037994013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10363787421887212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14727483161868513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4947309018325166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13525201392139047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10747681303526052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16841456376274802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.145456089158712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,LemonyHummingbird,2019/04/01,"Is anyone else’s brain not very nice? I know many people who have eating disorders have a distorted way of thinking about food and their self image. My brain, however, tonight has taken to be a giant asshole. I’ve had an eating disorder since I was 14 (18 now) and I’ve been recovering from it for a few years. Everyone has relapses in recovery and I’ve had maaaaany but this one has been the absolute fucking worst. All I wanted was to take a shower and relax but no. In my experience, I’ve had voices in my head screaming at me about making sure I don’t eat and they decided to have a party tonight. I can’t stand my own body and how fat and meaty it feels. I know I’ve gained weight from when I was at my lowest and they voices tell me how I could’ve been beautiful if I was smart and didn’t let anyone find out. ",2.4286050420168053,3.967680835294118,4.138655462184875,87.01823529411767,75.94117647058823,7.680672268907562,23.319327731092443,8.418075326091056,1.3162857142857147,642,19,138,12,14,216,105,170,0.12,0.752,0.128,0.5402,3,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,3,1,6,7,1,0,7,0,22,11,5,3,2,26,31,15,0,2,4,0,2,0,0,0,1,3,1,1,4,10,6,0,6,1,0,0,5,3,0,1,12,5,19,4,15,17,4,14,0,0,0,1,6,7,1,1,5,90,23,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2103654704227088,0.15413123343096571,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1670915646412031,0.0,0.3358547311476204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12010449470910935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3448069753326236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4617761073087222,0.12566326758980506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14374037309982596,0.0,0.14714742087133612,0.0,0.0,0.07606090218303099,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1374884406061091,0.0,0.18189810009619867,0.0,0.0,0.13906823557401032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15438249710360735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16534255807498055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15382279253987294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10041183898649668,0.15251035237257338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10193388651156203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10428781470483542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15692918126774724,0.0,0.0,0.12443557240282856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1417765827809179,0.0,0.11310311348348767,0.0,0.1314806773647377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09638817004312383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12411883047765378,0.08872631497250845,0.11940272183335032,0.0,0.18318074360576314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09687068159202274
EDAnonymous,Melusedek,2019/04/01,As a bulimic who can purge without using their fingers... Weird flex but ok,0.7526190476190457,2.6384366428571475,2.2442857142857164,87.28404761904763,111.14285714285714,4.723809523809524,26.095238095238088,6.42735559955562,1.7309809523809532,59,3,10,1,3,19,14,14,0.08900000000000001,0.726,0.185,0.3506,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,1,1,1,1,1,1,0,3,2,2,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,1,1,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,7,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6673029976041073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7447863515052976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,agnesiscalling,2019/04/01,"Losing/gaining the same 10lbs For the past three weeks I’ve been gaining and loosing the same 10lbs and it’s. so. annoying. I’ve lost 55 lbs total from my heaviest weight (~230 lbs) and 40 of those have been just within this past year. I’ve been doing so well and now I’ve been going from 175 to 185 back to 175 and it’s just really... blah. I’ve been so stressed with life changes so now I’ve been chewing and spitting and purging more than ever and it’s just exhausting. I’m so tired of being fat. The moment I hit a goal I fuck it up somehow. The only time I’m happy is when someone tells me it looks like I’ve lost weight and then boom, I gain it back. ",-0.14655819774718282,2.0245846737588664,1.6205924071756392,98.21647058823532,88.7872340425532,4.452398831873175,17.513975803087188,5.900188976854957,-0.5032589904046723,513,13,119,4,17,167,80,141,0.15,0.748,0.102,-0.7341,0,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,0,5,16,9,2,1,6,0,10,9,2,0,2,18,18,16,0,0,3,0,2,2,0,0,4,1,0,0,8,10,4,0,0,0,0,1,0,6,1,1,8,4,5,3,11,8,4,16,0,2,1,1,1,2,1,1,14,71,13,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28214569147804125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1940810729645774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16595410829590454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16960993766556404,0.0,0.0,0.10426708098999103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19530132998666644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1295863743233913,0.08963146837940618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.154063940333126,0.0,0.4005462626013945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13953298963310776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3502751744634806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1175320314387796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15544884223715902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2101579199387214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1603560252275675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10697960245119087,0.21086540893102146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1471641240158892,0.4468205751840503,0.1649565834191009,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11814509761073168
EDAnonymous,cloakofdirt,2019/04/01,"What's your skin care routine? By which I mean how do you try and mitigate the damage that restricting can do to it? My complexion just breaks down when I'm restricting: acne that doesn't heal for weeks, blotchiness, huge dry patches... how do you guys look after yourself? ",3.710588235294118,6.316671823529415,3.8899607843137254,85.34082352941176,75.86274509803921,8.00156862745098,25.88627450980392,8.841846274778883,2.1973027450980385,217,8,40,5,5,67,44,51,0.158,0.7440000000000001,0.097,-0.5329999999999999,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,3,0,0,4,2,0,0,1,0,5,2,1,2,0,7,9,4,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,5,1,0,2,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,2,5,1,5,9,0,6,0,1,1,0,4,2,0,0,3,26,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4552342761043089,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4421030314386589,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3749457081156652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4863670117867207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30314270496314105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35815361186432626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,LowCalPal,2019/04/01,"I watch those 10k calorie challenges on YouTube and all I can think is, ""I could DESTROY you"" It almost (**almost**) makes me want to know how big my biggest binge ever was, because these girls and their 10,000 calories challenges just don't seem like anything I couldn't inhale over the course of a shitty Tuesday afternoon, and it takes them ALL DAY.

Granted yeah I'd probably puke it up before hitting 10k most of the time.  My point is that even if I didn't, I think I could easily double them.

I should enter eating contests or something.  Except I would die if anyone watched me eat that much.",3.2115550239234447,5.637351622807017,3.35708133971292,89.45275119617224,76.6315789473684,5.1980861244019145,25.27591706539075,6.11248444174946,0.8056070175438599,471,17,87,3,11,144,84,114,0.16399999999999998,0.767,0.069,-0.9346,0,0,1,0,0,0,18.0,0,1,3,2,4,4,1,0,3,1,11,2,0,2,3,26,19,7,1,8,5,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,1,7,3,2,0,4,0,0,1,3,1,0,0,2,3,17,3,7,11,5,12,0,0,2,0,5,6,0,7,6,60,24,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4074245907894459,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14224754977810727,0.0,0.16741092776415356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12401301859898088,0.0,0.17310950062600727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32485502597700444,0.0,0.0,0.13119972999861346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2111349964883957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4163327101084124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.134367907394717,0.18401998558700364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11180339488676592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09938881109174284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13579546144946708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14954925501485233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19231327446413135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21933898416192266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18520097359343152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1566153774553591,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1529589502780355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2607078241249204,0.0,0.0,0.1186254748576016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11999213445361595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14451547186598346,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,fragilelavender,2019/04/01,"How do I talk to my therapist about my ED? The following situation recurs in every therapy session I have. My therapist asks me how I’m doing and how my ED has been since the last session. And no matter how bad it has been and how horrible I feel I ALWAYS dial it down, because I feel like I’m not entitled to have an ED and also because I can’t express my thought eloquently on how badly I want to lose weight. I also feel so ashamed of what I do in order to achieve my goals or my ED in general, that I don’t know how to talk about it... how can I open up more? Any tips? ",3.146854838709679,3.2965811048387117,5.490483870967744,83.30572580645162,72.62903225806451,9.103225806451613,29.20967741935484,9.188382445141503,2.2620838709677416,443,17,100,9,8,158,69,124,0.17,0.79,0.039,-0.9548,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,3,13,5,0,1,3,0,12,1,0,8,0,23,22,16,0,1,2,0,4,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,5,1,0,5,0,0,1,4,4,0,0,3,4,19,1,14,19,1,11,0,1,0,0,4,7,0,1,3,72,24,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2994220639107665,0.15577294981469708,0.0,0.0,0.12730859264102248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17501521646338916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3126235206268503,0.2282418325451872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15773172238736288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28397560436047065,0.1337422026539094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10288521327041697,0.15260038494672445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09146089916342556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20943907193628072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15486128379948785,0.21043084730620146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3009431309153863,0.0,0.0,0.21408989600517728,0.4347283371476577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14862309639123802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11042076456207987,0.0,0.0,0.227970222456167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ThnksFrThMemeries,2019/04/01,"Stomach bug making its round I guess there’s a stomach bug going around in my town because people at work and in class are getting it. My natural reaction is, “What about me??” Which I know is already fucking sick in itself. Why would I want to wish illness upon myself for the sake of losing water weight?

DAE?",3.724,5.6449834000000045,4.626666666666669,83.265,73.33333333333334,6.133333333333334,27.0,6.742157984588678,1.3783999999999996,244,9,43,2,5,79,52,60,0.151,0.75,0.099,-0.6545,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,2,3,2,1,0,2,0,4,7,2,1,0,8,12,1,0,3,0,0,2,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,5,2,2,0,1,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,2,7,0,10,11,0,8,0,1,1,1,0,7,1,1,0,30,12,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31177697152169004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25151005982505503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17222661109597626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2611928330705705,0.14760936018202864,0.0,0.1605673267416316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31123674198989154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.155270148472389,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3160768662644759,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1885898141330156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19586952883283185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16664249373645065,0.0,0.0,0.3440433193739652,0.0,0.0,0.2549378192678661,0.0,0.3248935673736923,0.0,0.0,0.20568394549912986,0.0,0.0,0.20069997691854244,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,MonstersareComing,2019/04/01,"Why do friends from high school feel obligated to comment on your weight? I just rant into a friend from high school and her first sentence was Oh you've gained a lot of weight. And I was like yeah I've put on some weight and she insisted that it was *a lot*. 

I haven't seen you in such a long time, how in the world is your first fucking comment about my weight? This is like the third time this happened with friends from high school.

I know I've put on weight, it's my body, trust me I've noticed and you commenting on it doesn't really bring anything to the conversation.

Ugh, why are people like this.",0.5633064516129025,2.999941540322581,1.2308870967741932,100.04133064516131,89.24193548387099,4.712903225806452,18.233870967741925,6.322622252153567,-0.3400064516129029,477,13,110,5,16,145,71,124,0.04,0.755,0.205,0.961,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,4,0,3,4,9,1,0,7,1,9,7,1,1,0,13,15,5,0,0,1,0,6,3,3,0,0,0,0,0,7,6,5,0,2,0,0,3,2,2,0,3,4,7,13,7,15,11,3,19,0,0,1,1,13,11,1,3,8,64,20,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08906022326454834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12021394137107043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05472197746963282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.184112816832862,0.0,0.0,0.2508438590452213,0.10005257149737536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0957032998257063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3430380019510307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059477809742369186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15862028525937052,0.0,0.0,0.09577600932224803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18401860679592386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12321525284788926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07502981535641616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2175926926587534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06933191616370586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3285894283841221,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12621411776135233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6589464650539926,0.0,0.0,0.19531304967155405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,carbslut,2019/04/01,"I can’t decide whether to eat zero calories today or 10,000 There’s no in between. ",5.632941176470588,5.632298176470589,6.310588235294119,80.09764705882355,67.23529411764707,6.8000000000000025,34.64705882352941,3.1291,1.9479882352941171,67,3,12,0,1,22,17,17,0.145,0.855,0.0,-0.29600000000000004,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,3,1,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,3,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,10,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7336070785181236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6795738770347958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,artsypear,2019/04/01,"3 days so far of normal eating lately ive been attempting to slowly get out of an ed. i stopped using laxatives (and i am having normal bms now!!) and ive been eating normal portioned(maybe a bit less but i get full very easily and that usually triggers a binge) meals, breakfast lunch and dinner. with the support of my boyfriend i think i can beat this. 💖 much love to everyone here! ",3.848399999999998,5.5868116400000005,5.0183333333333335,81.34750000000003,72.6,8.200000000000001,25.833333333333336,8.841846274778883,2.050733333333333,303,10,56,6,6,100,56,75,0.019,0.7979999999999999,0.183,0.9362,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,2,3,2,0,0,4,0,7,7,0,2,0,14,13,6,0,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,6,6,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,8,2,7,11,4,8,0,0,0,1,1,3,0,0,5,37,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2178498625324049,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12868907439742394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4083657116199007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1906724021242309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20850652584259405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2250938027403344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1800958340421837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20046830472637656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1466874604459098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5865309013741774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16682733301157476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2264396425983105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1278594421465538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17234154907815874,0.21976901617110264,0.16464431701167684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,zyz129492,2019/04/01,"I woke up this morning and immediately had a breakdown First time poster (on this account, old one got found by RL people). I've been restricting again. I have felt so out of control in my life recently and at least food can be controlled. 

I'm the primary caretaker of my mother-in-law who has cancer, in school full-time, and desperately trying to pretend I am healthy and sane. 

This morning I just completely broke down. I can't eat any of my safe foods because her sense of smell is so intense and it makes her throw up so I just don't eat. I have so much homework to do but I can never do it because I am always busy with doctors appointments or doing what she needs and I am exhausted and cannot keep going like this. ",3.594719800747196,4.925600041095893,4.700062266500623,85.00564757160649,72.56164383561644,7.774844333748442,28.341220423412203,8.296473431620573,1.870912328767123,570,22,117,9,11,187,99,146,0.112,0.85,0.038,-0.8516,0,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,0,3,7,4,0,0,2,0,18,8,0,3,1,23,27,13,0,1,4,0,1,1,0,0,4,0,1,0,8,9,4,5,2,1,1,2,4,2,0,2,6,2,16,2,16,20,2,16,0,1,0,0,4,8,0,1,7,81,24,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14671145832462468,0.0,0.0,0.1199029055162552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2149647428723844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1848670232723588,0.0,0.3955133021263525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18046987638421325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3608365274424232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16929380477968078,0.0,0.0,0.1499767753778402,0.4264110534190488,0.19332458484184226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10020610022769984,0.0,0.14101833993425786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15672034920412542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12453926100453973,0.08614051356098537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11769424203807488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1296146868861418,0.13073823816307065,0.13598801365603574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18501703675747566,0.0,0.1194782570667468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12223733206542922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.174093653054791,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17844415085646675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10281297475444398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11970896649519785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,slicerpunk,2019/04/01,"anyone else really insecure about or scared that you will trigger someone with your ribs showing/hipbones sticking out/etc? im in a relationship with a person who also struggles with an eating disorder. i keep on feeling really bad about having my bones stick out even though i really like that they do. i just feel like im triggering my significant other when we’re doing things which have me naked/in only underwear. 

i feel like they compare themselves to me. they’re fit meanwhile i have no muscles whatsoever. so our bodies can’t be compared especially since our bone structure is very different. 

idk i just feel like i’m a bad person because of my body?",5.168292682926825,7.3208840813008145,5.995617886178862,73.98464634146345,69.97560975609754,8.822439024390244,30.999186991869927,9.3871,3.181722601626017,534,23,87,12,10,175,88,123,0.177,0.6920000000000001,0.131,-0.7932,1,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,2,2,2,0,9,9,0,3,4,0,9,6,5,2,0,14,15,5,0,0,3,0,4,4,0,1,0,0,0,2,6,4,1,1,4,0,0,0,2,5,0,0,0,4,17,4,10,13,0,5,0,0,0,0,10,4,0,1,5,55,23,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1152791056210991,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10079513247375653,0.14770178832866684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2407234749722574,0.08787433356605004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3202429820714385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1506092083040523,0.16521183199262976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14750451144499802,0.12042133795387552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16076870514821326,0.09521169993577204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2915523615622593,0.3089488056631637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3114199632889777,0.0,0.0,0.12812981383395364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2817035062052983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10963485570873792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2517376865852619,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.277044317802419,0.0,0.0,0.15476637908175847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14432230520383585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11924485496206105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12214037292237233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15070001928082202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09576885082265224,0.0,0.14162959502076355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11894132564003085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,N7girl,2019/04/01,"Why do I do this? Today I ordered Korean food, barely finished it, then later ordered a large New York pepperoni pizza and ate two slices. It’s not a full blown binge, but I feel so much guilt and shame, like I can’t fucking control my cravings. The pizza didn’t even satisfy me. It’s like I’m wracking my brain to figure out the perfect fix. Now I’m stuck feeling so dissatisfied and ashamed. Please tell me I’m not alone. ",2.2373255813953503,4.28259127906977,3.695523255813953,87.71444767441862,78.06976744186046,6.16046511627907,25.86627906976745,7.1686216300943375,1.2354232558139535,334,13,67,4,8,110,62,86,0.17800000000000002,0.601,0.22,0.5036,0,1,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,2,4,7,1,3,4,0,4,6,1,1,1,12,12,7,0,0,3,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,4,4,1,3,0,0,0,4,4,0,1,3,2,8,3,2,9,2,10,0,0,0,1,1,2,1,0,8,36,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27277609250423185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29401254946946714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2953963988978136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17395608001471174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26633967238593304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3184729538880853,0.0,0.0,0.24348507077224135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2573425203989158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19361023533009966,0.0,0.0,0.2543683044235714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2891056236878302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2302005335812158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.249647809520003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25727818291547644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2376541202804975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,matchamichelle,2019/04/01,"New Month, New Me (?) I'm hoping that April will be a completely binge-free month for me. I'm going to give it all I've got. My 2nd goal is to restrict at least below 900 cal every day. For the weekends, I'm setting the ideal bar at <800, and weekdays <700. Ultimately, I wan't to lose 5 pounds or more by the end of this month, in time for summer, and repeat the process in May. 

If you'd like to join me in tracking your days binge-free, your daily intake, or weight loss, feel free! 

I'm ready to start fresh this month!",2.8397477064220173,3.820861724770644,3.580630733944953,93.65883600917431,73.95412844036696,6.1839449541284415,20.9644495412844,5.985473137389443,-0.0799275229357801,404,8,93,2,8,128,76,109,0.042,0.769,0.189,0.9427,0,0,0,0,0,0,25.0,0,3,0,4,0,6,0,0,5,0,5,2,0,0,1,11,15,5,0,3,3,0,2,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,4,2,2,1,1,2,1,1,0,2,0,0,1,2,8,5,16,10,3,23,0,2,0,0,4,6,0,5,16,45,12,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2091889608943004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25734291289037203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17671215151988326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1681010205580399,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10088139571009093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19139413850294296,0.11338966577624812,0.0,0.15957134742428325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19816462474961824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0974735472219734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2232076160986512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6370077737787181,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3853880174107249,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14121860754134685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1163395124486209,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2429570061855568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,RachLizbeth_,2019/04/01,"Yikes 😬 So I work around a lot of social workers/therapists/etc. who have a lot of experience working with people with eating disorders as well as an array of mental health issues. I usually have my first meal of the day when I first get to work. I arrive a little early and it keeps me from being a hangry bitch throughout the night. We CONSTANTLY have things like pizza and cupcakes in the break room. Not a huge deal because I’m vegan so I walk right past. So the HEAD OF THE MENTAL HEALTH DEPARTMENT comes into the break room, grabs a slice of pizza. I’m watching TV while slowly eating a plate of cucumbers and celery. I look over after a few minutes.. and she’s looking at my food super suspect. I hope I’m just overreacting because the last group of people I want to notice my eating habits are the people at work. But I feel like she was really studying me. She quickly looked away when I noticed her, but she had actually been facing me and just watching. I feel like she might be thinking about the other times she’s seen me eating right before work and my food choices. I’m pretty sure aside from cucumbers and celery, she’s only ever seen me eat salad and zero calorie soda. If I have another meal later, on my lunch break, it’s always a carefully measured concoction of safe foods. IM SUPER NERVOUS.",3.55935369318182,5.589370148437502,4.850525568181818,81.01237215909094,74.078125,6.998295454545455,24.13636363636364,7.84624498591911,1.4625531249999997,1042,32,185,15,22,345,148,256,0.037000000000000005,0.831,0.132,0.9717,0,0,0,0,0,0,25.0,1,0,0,9,12,12,1,1,19,0,11,19,2,0,2,33,29,19,0,3,6,0,3,3,0,1,2,0,2,0,5,14,15,2,4,1,0,3,1,2,1,3,5,10,31,10,27,21,3,37,0,0,7,0,13,14,1,5,20,122,36,5,0.0,0.0,0.08770968904993713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07478716777140408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0942467743628838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08001204986201968,0.0,0.0,0.08444500146181406,0.0,0.0,0.10957974567031742,0.0,0.07648106330293544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09163841447845046,0.0,0.0,0.07742346233463702,0.0,0.0971280997150815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057965015317273015,0.09266209503982482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10301000187883047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4598472100280037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10023970087150524,0.0,0.08130139660613442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0879196604755418,0.0,0.0,0.09089182339448178,0.12842024959909107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1529033708761672,0.3260489196529135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04695846955465896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09224257311709023,0.19107598256361225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08927089057895737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09708557376488024,0.09381112714477062,0.0,0.0798892682478006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07326400767634919,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13173214512009998,0.09008314061411514,0.0,0.0,0.2264291070166249,0.0,0.0,0.1528251306294206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18115533403454398,0.09534823112956096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0843460744094168,0.0,0.0,0.2046574250276616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0683576143205422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08580040944078618,0.18693394433197502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09144003724399333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057579281405259974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15351366294487798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09162110547968404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08471061842381898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0597121246353284,0.05759132667000776,0.0,0.0,0.05240961598939517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09898986723052372,0.0,0.05301341635100649,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08081270629008094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3271677107973452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,kingofsomecosmos,2019/04/01,Guess who forgot what happens when you eat too much sugar free candy Went to the movies and loaded up on candy at cvs to take in. I grabbed sugar free to rationalize the binge to come. A pack of red vines and life savers down and my guts are rumbling. I guess I don't have to worry about all the popcorn I ate. :/,4.303153846153847,4.360037123076925,4.9075000000000015,88.82125000000002,70.07692307692308,7.115384615384617,23.94230769230769,5.985473137389443,0.4207692307692304,243,5,54,1,4,78,50,65,0.036000000000000004,0.831,0.134,0.7654,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,1,0,0,3,2,0,0,4,0,3,6,1,0,1,8,11,4,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,4,4,1,0,0,2,2,1,0,0,0,3,4,6,4,12,8,2,8,0,0,1,0,2,5,0,2,1,34,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26066838112436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30964161040606925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.666709523086339,0.0,0.26759359595356685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21373965440558496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22245031934083975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2275221453427461,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2805189084953025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3073112076263163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Anonymous_fiend,2019/04/02,"Does it really matter what scale I buy? I need a new scale. My old scale died but it sucked and would tell me different weight readings, I usually like analog but it might be nice to get another digital. Plus they look nicer. Any recommendations for a cheap nice scale? Does it even matter? I know those biometrics are not at all accurate unless getting a medical grade machine.",3.1980000000000004,6.101151871428577,4.1739285714285765,80.72232142857145,80.28571428571428,8.642857142857144,24.464285714285715,9.188382445141503,2.5914285714285725,301,11,54,9,8,97,55,70,0.08,0.695,0.225,0.8892,1,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,1,0,1,4,1,0,3,0,4,2,0,0,1,13,10,5,1,2,4,0,1,1,0,2,1,0,0,0,6,2,1,0,1,1,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,2,7,3,5,7,1,4,0,0,1,0,2,1,1,1,4,31,13,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15334140908124985,0.23644666088817606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2340237472408752,0.2355897892890559,0.0,0.0,0.39465686398900296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14893448135280998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2356191689673536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12392379217478668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11016336653020706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1893553975503727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22715815842612144,0.0,0.239209999754191,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16719849760444247,0.0,0.21778032414109555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2366145590740709,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2255517219796713,0.0,0.14445511707587935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1970888115733521,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24834615005814856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27458692626164805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16018212434156798,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,dietfreddo,2019/04/02,im scared of and intimidated by people who drink non-diet soft drinks that's all ,5.355882352941176,5.286424588235295,7.004705882352942,75.12117647058824,67.82352941176471,9.15294117647059,22.882352941176467,8.841846274778883,1.1756352941176464,66,1,14,1,1,23,17,17,0.326,0.674,0.0,-0.7003,0,0,2,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,6,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7691652653494624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4240578352079342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2721681525766609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3930448367574098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,throwaway12448es-j,2019/04/02,"Does anyone else get dramatic changes in appearance after only losing/gaining a couple of lbs? I literally lost 4 lbs (2 are water and 2 are fat—I counted my deficit and it was 8,000 calories which is a little over two pounds of pure fat) in the last couple weeks.

Yet I look SO different. It’s crazy. Maybe my mind is fucking with me but I can see my collarbones and ribs way more and my face is noticeably thinner too. Even my bf commented.  Am I nuts? Do I have BDD??? How 

I’m not sure if pics are allowed but here’s a couple of my collarbones - don’t judge me for the face I was making in the first pic pls - https://imgur.com/a/UnEblQM",1.5398660714285697,3.931255218750003,3.0022767857142867,89.82218750000001,82.75,6.4696428571428575,22.424107142857146,7.7094869923839395,1.1054825892857143,500,17,103,9,14,163,88,128,0.101,0.8859999999999999,0.012,-0.8613,2,0,0,0,0,0,22.0,0,0,0,2,6,3,1,0,6,0,13,6,4,3,2,16,21,9,0,1,4,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,3,5,2,0,0,0,0,1,2,2,0,2,3,2,14,1,10,18,1,12,0,1,2,1,2,5,1,2,5,63,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12726836958014132,0.18649477731035125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19254660025851691,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6041848437853463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1901658137073557,0.0,0.0,0.1592816138215128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1520492802372102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1202184819682072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15482095306540633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16826894229672695,0.09509476435065768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14836564333208707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18242577132321647,0.0,0.0,0.1528458570454658,0.0,0.1986897020201188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12149570943060616,0.0,0.1828574537002457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18378217962454246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.207224061923106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13842979311365064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1450415341538506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17154597186424525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17780115872363614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1444741829600303,0.14600059308438562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,tokimekanjitera,2019/04/02,"Don't tell me I'm not fat and then berate me for a fucking 170cal soda Like, bruh what the absolute fuck. How tf are you going to assure my tearful ass that I'm not fat at all and then see my food journal with a 860~cal day and bitch at me for allowing myself a small Mountain Dew? I almost NEVER drink full sugar soda anymore but I fucking love Mountain Dew and hate the diet version; so I had one at work because they're free.

And what do I get??? ""Why would you waste your calories on that??? I thought you said you were getting serious about losing weight!"" BITCH I'VE LOST 80 FUCKING POUNDS AND WAS UNDER 1000 CALORIES THAT DAY, FUCKING FUCK YOU.

So instead of actually eating dinner like a normal person who hasn't had anything since lunch, I smoked a couple of clove cigars, bought a 220 cal energy drink (because fuck your disapproval of an occasional 170cal soda) and a large pizza to chew and spit. Because bitching at me about a soda == ""Yes, I actually do think you're fat as fuck."" ...I'm so fucking sad, y'all...",2.793667214012043,4.776484724137934,4.2122742200328425,84.94963191023535,76.14285714285714,6.087465790914067,25.563492063492063,6.937597516519254,1.1775902572523265,801,29,152,8,18,265,122,203,0.224,0.6890000000000001,0.087,-0.988,0,0,3,0,0,0,35.0,0,8,0,3,7,22,13,0,11,1,10,31,5,2,3,22,33,16,0,2,3,0,1,2,0,1,3,1,0,1,6,9,19,0,2,2,2,1,5,17,0,1,8,4,22,6,17,24,3,14,0,3,1,11,13,8,13,1,7,88,28,1,0.0,0.0,0.1904491517381482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09771286149704783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09677372072984708,0.0,0.0,0.08030050795910262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17845265873687075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10797106251205296,0.0,0.12586281079366485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19118365013028646,0.0,0.09984930060477756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11799483205267301,0.0,0.0,0.8119051151477009,0.10196365749871356,0.0,0.0554572958285915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09634062660690598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09534589076958867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10916771570351096,0.10652073678102944,0.0,0.08807028875961978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07526016365599088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0956082560620929,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06612313054972555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08520360392765285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09282148311461016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07775909332409482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08071966919547185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08528973329363611,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06252569944429323,0.0,0.07746808550961487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11882686551214545,0.0,0.0,0.08805130126992597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07103982886313841,0.0,0.0,0.06931844864474072,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,kinabatangan,2019/04/02,What do you do for a living? I'm interested in hearing what your careers are. Do you feel the need to do something prestigious for a living? Does your ED impact your career at all?,1.6483333333333334,4.104466055555555,3.653333333333337,84.90000000000002,82.8888888888889,5.822222222222222,22.88888888888889,7.1686216300943375,1.0536888888888885,142,5,27,2,4,48,26,36,0.0,0.908,0.092,0.5007,0,0,1,0,0,0,4.0,0,5,0,0,0,1,0,0,3,0,5,0,0,0,1,3,9,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,5,1,5,9,1,2,0,0,0,0,6,2,0,0,0,21,7,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3418510236254726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19751893265046974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.44027880426811694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6898831958449773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2896540401046336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3007331650231761,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,cautionhotpockets,2019/04/02,"Amberlynn Reid She said she was afraid of eating only 900 calories a day, meanwhile I'm living proof you won't die on that much food lol",4.07357142857143,5.1852335000000025,4.620000000000001,86.875,71.14285714285714,7.028571428571429,24.714285714285715,7.1686216300943375,0.9772285714285708,110,3,22,1,2,35,27,28,0.0,0.795,0.205,0.7137,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,1,2,2,0,0,1,1,4,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,1,3,0,2,1,1,2,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,0,1,10,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24721217503222376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3978296426971979,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3922360008059797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4635167273059417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3384819869869513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28178713940235284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2915350651371161,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3646287666036233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,mementomori1791,2019/04/02,"I got away with... asking my mom to buy me a box of Ensure so I could add extra vitamins and minerals to my diet along with the school lunch, when in reality I'm just drinking them as meals for weight loss. 

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EDAnonymous,sophiegarrettt,2019/04/02,"sweet dreams are made of this? okay ever since my b/p cycles became more frequent a couple months ago, I've started dreaming about food, which has never been the subject of my dreams before. the dream is typically just me alternating between sitting at the table ravaging what's in front of me and scavenging the kitchen like a raccoon on crack (so, indistinguishable from real life) and then as soon as I get the deep feeling of guilt/dread and go to purge, I wake up and it's just the biggest relief. does anyone else get this lmao and if so how do they make you feel? I always feel accomplished afterwards for whatever twisted reason ",8.587499999999999,7.709198750000002,8.041666666666668,73.03000000000004,61.5,10.333333333333334,35.833333333333336,9.2995712137729,3.198833333333333,510,19,90,7,6,161,94,120,0.0,0.784,0.21600000000000005,0.9764,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,1,1,1,8,4,0,0,8,1,5,4,1,4,2,18,14,12,0,1,3,0,3,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,5,5,2,0,4,4,0,2,1,0,0,0,2,4,9,4,15,12,1,18,0,0,0,0,2,6,0,1,10,58,14,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20191517120880176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18953303248915845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1592706061017912,0.2333897755980449,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1938258699688756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2520366649484275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1993337327877758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19028279454363609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2060420350649567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3455205638168081,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2754351328939243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23801358978986356,0.0,0.12945386997683975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1608892997977062,0.11128287416557382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2155330193125735,0.15204638311638427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1818135739188764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17567967018210393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2592660044081269,0.0,0.2341980322928342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1884237845440854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1612254091571481,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Crotchetylilkitten,2019/04/02,Do you guys punish yourselves by eating? I hate feeling full! Sometimes if I give into a craving I just make myself eat because I don't deserve to lose weight.,1.7408064516129007,4.469904290322583,3.038951612903226,87.07842741935484,86.74193548387099,3.1,27.10483870967742,3.1291,0.7159612903225812,127,6,21,0,4,41,27,31,0.23,0.653,0.117,-0.6842,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,1,0,1,1,3,2,0,1,0,2,3,0,1,0,5,6,1,0,1,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,3,0,1,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,2,6,0,3,6,1,2,0,1,0,0,3,2,0,1,0,15,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17709129973338847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5945254908522055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1468898384605984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27868224749581383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2876491122917819,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28681702313165364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32500472898023697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.193916695502314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2873203583666015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35376111859143594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,punkspicelatte,2019/04/02,I turn 25 in 9 days And I won’t let myself celebrate unless I can drop 7lbs 🙃,-1.8063157894736823,-0.3473039999999976,2.399210526315791,94.78197368421051,89.0,5.905263157894738,14.76315789473684,7.1686216300943375,-0.3392315789473685,60,1,16,1,2,23,17,19,0.125,0.655,0.22,0.3818,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,2,4,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,2,2,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,10,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39656762103274396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6287895802301294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6688481036397184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,flora_bazilik,2019/04/02,"Do you ever spit out your food before swallowing so you don’t completely fall into binge mode? When ever I try not to eat, I always end up with massive cravings that need to be put under control or else I know I will binge. It is usually worse when I feel bad for things happening in my life and I just wan’t to stuff my face into food to feel less sad and empty. I know I will eventually fail and binge when I am sad and hungry, so to prevent that when I am in the verge of giving up and eating a mountain, instead I prepare a small portion of food that I crave and I chew but spit it out of my mouth before swallowing. Sometimes it is hard to resist swallowing but generally it works for me and I don’t start to binge uncontrollably and I don’t have to purge afterwards. 

Am I the only one doing this? It is not something I ever heard other people with ED talking about so I wonder...",3.0559890109890087,4.376528554945054,4.7162637362637385,84.40373626373628,73.89010989010987,7.397802197802199,24.538461538461537,7.957251820313856,1.3070065934065935,695,21,142,10,14,235,101,182,0.1,0.883,0.017,-0.8989,0,0,1,0,0,0,12.0,0,3,0,3,13,5,0,1,4,0,15,14,4,1,3,32,25,18,0,1,6,0,3,0,0,2,1,1,0,0,12,14,9,2,5,0,0,2,5,5,0,1,1,4,25,0,25,21,2,24,0,3,0,0,6,11,0,2,11,108,37,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11762879774878568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11803566961745865,0.0,0.0,0.2405860736529445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1482207725234946,0.0,0.15855528516332096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2893077840790221,0.1180941182678931,0.0,0.12520933944406604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3836240556926195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14295896247559048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.512825175346824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13561225670846508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12501050840282374,0.0,0.12663720365087955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15538338276989755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09985180238664028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10482195426678004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09579404292188734,0.10751609171881324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09800618557727306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14211303676858034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10883134258778493,0.1398157311651688,0.0,0.10006040000861696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16183157081997984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11362556439498192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09391805628137452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09597901874455253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15569594916643836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1533066494114921,0.10291697260403317,0.0,0.14406520840399545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,popcornkitsune,2019/04/02,"why am i jealous of my friend's gastric ulcer my friend was taking prednisone and ibuprofen at the same time (NSAIDs + corticosteroids should not be mixed!!) and ended up with a gastric ulcer. she has barely been able to eat for like 2 months b/c she feels sick and it hurts. 

i feel so fucked up for feeling jEALOUS but i wish there was something that could force me to stop eating. i mean i don't ACTUALLY want an ulcer but like... im jealous of the weight loss + not being able to eat, ya know?",0.8255610561056095,3.213601712871288,2.1796287128712883,94.42673679867987,86.32673267326733,4.158745874587459,19.307755775577558,5.46131890053228,-0.3268422442244221,387,11,82,2,12,124,73,101,0.214,0.705,0.081,-0.9196,0,0,1,0,0,0,15.0,0,1,0,1,2,10,4,0,4,0,10,10,0,0,0,19,19,6,0,4,4,0,4,2,2,1,5,0,0,0,2,4,4,1,5,0,0,0,3,6,0,0,3,4,11,4,11,12,1,7,0,2,0,1,5,3,1,0,6,48,13,0,0.3486924987508475,0.0,0.17013678964158638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13920129344284696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5351992160997926,0.0,0.0,0.15441902823818304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26446410660861164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2693989595657631,0.16118029816954496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18664126587128885,0.0,0.18832386729205933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09581613910840876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17035354175122686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18991417692423854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13916151289122025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13422026055628222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14576127118612334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13108668187186898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10166270006620713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1028339350371861,0.0,0.0,0.2123067625862196,0.0,0.0,0.1573203722369597,0.0,0.20048958253196106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,cyprinids,2019/04/02,Living in student housing hell Ok so I'm in a student apartment with 4 random people and their SOs they have over all the time and hello??? This is the worst thing?? I'm a masters student and they're all bachelors so I'm already the weird old one and none of them talk to me but the worst possible thing is mealtimes. I physically CANNOT cook anything when someone else is in the kitchen and theres someone in there ALL THE DAMN TIME I'm starving sitting in my room rn and cant make my pasta because they've been hanging out out there for ages so I'm making this post instead pls kill me lmao ,1.5618158890290057,3.89112004918033,2.7716393442622973,91.90633669609082,82.11475409836065,4.737452711223203,25.778058007566198,5.873414542411696,0.7230421185372014,474,20,96,3,13,152,78,122,0.208,0.73,0.062,-0.9713,0,0,0,0,0,1,6.0,0,0,3,1,8,7,3,0,8,1,7,3,0,2,3,16,14,11,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,4,9,3,0,0,1,0,1,3,6,0,1,1,0,8,1,12,13,6,18,1,0,0,0,5,10,2,1,5,61,12,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2534724555499235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18901815444543069,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14001900721683605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19187942034691055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26503542484635584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2541217923503933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20282354196136967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3066443493032233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24102465789342825,0.0,0.15564623961069984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15924053081390102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25894487505576386,0.21998285087308506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3892370630573291,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18461891034438785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30519626995306715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2678722187046839,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,clare988,2019/04/02,"So fuckin embarrassed Here's a fun little story that haunts me everytime I close my eyes - probably not that bad but I'm the sort of person who cringes over things for the next 10 years after they happen 

Ok so I was hosting pre-drinks in my uni room last term and an acquaintance who hadn't been round before starts poking around, looking at my shit. I don't care, I barely clock this, I'm drunk, I've got nothing to hide. But wait.  I notice he's looking at my books, he's got a stack of them in his hand and he's making comments about them. He suddenly goes quiet and we lock eyes and internally I'm like FUCKKKK cos I realise he's just found a fun little title called How To Overcome Binge Eating hiding amongst my stack of history books. Luckily he just looked at me quizzically and said nothing, just put them back quietly. 

Nobody knows about my disordered eating apart from the uni counsellor I saw once who gave me that book (which I never returned bc I'm a lazy piece of thieving trash) but honestly I'm so embarrassed whenever I see this guy now lol ha ",2.9445134061569007,5.011439518867924,3.9012015888778566,86.96634061569021,75.98113207547169,7.293346573982125,24.365441906653427,8.20500826718156,1.4814018867924528,846,28,168,15,19,272,136,212,0.108,0.733,0.159,0.9097,0,0,1,0,0,0,16.0,1,0,4,0,13,12,2,2,8,3,4,8,4,3,1,23,25,12,0,0,7,0,2,1,0,0,0,3,1,2,10,8,3,1,2,4,0,1,4,5,0,0,9,12,24,7,18,16,2,25,0,0,8,1,21,12,2,1,13,85,34,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13479985852773946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11643605014941395,0.12643308528777522,0.0,0.0,0.12885104844914852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15462128704271785,0.0,0.15438731201992556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17354553100632208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14833830670533,0.0,0.3098900176313313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.166029086439337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24221592064590095,0.0,0.0,0.14993400594474512,0.13390413526679035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08321891403555734,0.12343113177300365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07397833433159041,0.3035341459557167,0.0,0.0,0.3814751858631229,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1010769918411458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1167878658189418,0.0,0.1610416134949919,0.0,0.0,0.2905916748837643,0.17239773251625987,0.0,0.16126209032811292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1322179833182024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1632611611311467,0.0,0.0,0.15222338939151525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1440393215812698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1206656764506526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1554350151863076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10717900045993532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.100599671763363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09751237694431487
EDAnonymous,JustSwootyThangs,2019/04/02,"Fake sick. Fake recovered. Real weight gain. Ugh y'all I am struggling today.

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I've posted before about how it was much easier to starve myself when I hated myself. I've also flirted with the idea of purging but I reached out for help and y'all talked me down. I think I need help again.

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I got down to 99lbs when I was at my worst. I used to be fat (BMI 34) with big boobs, so I was looking a bit baggy even at 5'1"", but I didn't care. When I started ""recovery"" (read: eating whatever I wanted because obviously that's what recovery is, right?), I gained about 7-10lbs and was admittedly looking a lot better. I still don't care that my husband thought I was a little too skinny at that weight; that's honestly when I feel I looked my best. I stopped weighing a while ago because I didn't want to be triggered, but now I am truly terrified to know how much I've gained (my guess is about 20lbs, but again, I have no idea). My clothes are starting to feel tight. I hate the way my stomach looks. There are some specific items I can't wear anymore because they look and feel way too snug, including my favorite pair of jeans (which, to be fair, I couldn't wear at 99lbs either). The point is, I'm unhappy and want to fit back into my clothes. I don't feel like that's too much to ask.

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But I don't know how to lose weight without starving. I have completely forgotten.

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I feel totally powerless over food. I want to start dieting this month with my husband (who has also gained weight), but it's like I don't yet hate body \*enough\* to say no to high-cal/low-nutrient food?? Anytime I try to count calories, even at maintenance, I get anxiety and don't want to eat at all! But when I'm not counting, I just eat whatever I want?? Where is the balance here? I'm trying to be patient but I keep beating myself up.

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If you have any advice, I am very much in need. It will also help me immensely just to hear from anyone who is also struggling with this regardless of whether you have any suggestions. I feel very alone and sad.",2.727681159420289,4.606096574879231,3.7162560386473436,88.90163043478262,76.0048309178744,6.918840579710146,26.234299516908212,7.793537801064563,1.4424618357487926,1618,61,334,24,36,520,205,414,0.215,0.659,0.127,-0.987,1,1,0,0,0,0,90.0,0,4,1,8,32,19,3,2,8,0,34,19,7,5,3,65,76,30,0,11,15,2,11,2,0,1,2,2,0,0,14,12,13,3,13,1,0,0,13,11,0,0,9,18,56,8,43,61,14,41,0,2,5,1,18,19,1,4,21,217,70,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05800792675386149,0.05262089242795705,0.0,0.0,0.06148120077599744,0.0,0.189887300391458,0.0,0.32159388456765786,0.3606570564240039,0.08073648500547373,0.0,0.04541182027085892,0.0,0.0588712213414301,0.04150733885147772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055495521184376936,0.0,0.0,0.045645766825974605,0.0,0.10855969877186727,0.0,0.05051274845930345,0.0,0.06229682902159508,0.05250092598496437,0.06480800465981014,0.06593787639054784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1210471711520176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06223999989062781,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1822266488988432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06133688571369258,0.0,0.07841617337798068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1800914741710975,0.042408273923872586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14356169882750688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.031014230950909213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0474772693729907,0.0,0.06539401149479583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17582325998336742,0.0,0.0,0.06690536601812408,0.0,0.11936743056919068,0.06271928505665234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13402510055282246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052763734411156976,0.0,0.0,0.06524768129292291,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0580026167967836,0.05949638806983234,0.0,0.0,0.24924593602323525,0.06641097093353295,0.0,0.050467508219435436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04738223709418109,0.0,0.17455180388190794,0.08803244391491262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05611634268057163,0.0,0.056852452869192084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05937813317576069,0.06756703048369836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050694882540311716,0.0,0.04720709985346863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.126050333827642,0.0,0.04740662495004725,0.04962934770541616,0.0,0.1241162467213767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.047712982432305165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03803681685225761,0.0,0.04712685194428793,0.0,0.0,0.056268300346553085,0.0,0.0,0.08060589638630593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051269768022345286,0.0,0.0979598475763722,0.2100797177335218,0.09423769452214442,0.0,0.2891480310198017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0572229161340283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3606570564240039,0.0
EDAnonymous,oldangst,2019/04/02,"I'm gonna McFreakin' lose it I think my body is broken and defies the laws of physics somehow, like if I eat at maintenance, or slightly above maintenance I gain weight. My intake is low during the week where i should be at a deficit and then during the weekend i kinda eat whatever since im not at school, but its not enough in theory for me to put on 5 POUNDS over a few days. and it doesnt go away, i just go back to slightly above my lower weight, so I am gaining weight. I dont understand.",3.4799175824175848,4.0310375961538485,4.613901098901097,88.44538461538461,72.07692307692308,7.865934065934066,26.395604395604394,7.957251820313856,1.3319027472527472,386,12,86,5,7,127,73,104,0.099,0.8190000000000001,0.081,0.0596,1,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,3,5,3,0,0,5,0,7,6,1,0,0,15,13,8,0,2,6,0,3,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,3,3,5,0,2,1,0,3,4,2,0,0,0,3,12,1,11,10,2,17,0,2,0,0,0,9,0,4,6,54,15,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16633520248795813,0.1361330731529491,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1966518775869619,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1141763561266102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20748992907412847,0.0,0.0,0.3623128780600175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18292996986271806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20123218028951714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1912339190158389,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08649295459930552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1980628258195547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17797441408423886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17917424914831734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14644957693807126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11344028441443875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18430521017501308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1420110607055214,0.6467622212743286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,obviouslynotarobot,2019/04/02,I just ran in the rain so i could get sick which makes me lose more calories How many of you have done that?,1.0549999999999995,2.313067833333335,1.3816666666666642,106.53,79.0,4.800000000000002,16.166666666666668,3.1291,-1.4619333333333335,84,1,23,0,2,25,23,24,0.238,0.762,0.0,-0.7402,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,1,0,1,3,1,0,0,1,0,3,1,0,2,0,4,6,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,2,0,4,0,2,3,1,2,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,16,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3689624166131721,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4729056153917895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2414367942504412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5169901504451578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30846634723172106,0.4685135914871237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Bitofawanker_,2019/04/02,"Is it normal to feel light headed and happy after purging? I just feel better about myself after throwing up, like my body is rewarding me for doing it. I feel like I'm losing it. Have I succumb to bulimia entirely?   ",2.884285714285717,5.180756714285717,5.362142857142857,75.32035714285716,77.09523809523809,7.057142857142857,24.785714285714285,8.07648339933343,2.013457142857144,170,6,27,3,4,60,31,42,0.052000000000000005,0.6409999999999999,0.307,0.9146,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,3,2,6,0,0,0,0,4,2,2,0,0,6,8,1,0,1,1,0,3,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,3,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,4,6,5,7,8,0,4,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,4,22,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2771927404400642,0.0,0.3481367292593776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4754206551487687,0.22390587300608228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3336392758447449,0.0,0.0,0.3216572764277769,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30624039483036664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3506345589718448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3070830829642521,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,michigangirl77,2019/04/03,"Bulimia and drunken relapse Please help friends-
I’m 3 years straight without purging (besides tonight and 3 other drunken nights) I sometimes go out. A hand full of times I get sick with food and drinks. I go to the bathroom (btw  I still don’t have to do the finger down the throat routine because somehow my body still remembers what to do 😒) and the night goes down the toilet. Literally. My cheeks are instantly chubby right now and I need my body to trust me AGAIN. I was sick and I’m not going down this purge road again. I feel depressed and defeated please give me stories and advice on relapse? (I thought I was DONE with throwing up this is all the worst) ",2.1116279069767465,4.7796012480620185,2.582604651162793,91.86413953488376,83.03100775193798,4.9903875968992235,27.20465116279069,6.42735559955562,1.140361860465117,527,24,102,5,15,162,84,129,0.096,0.7659999999999999,0.138,0.5859,0,0,1,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,0,1,6,5,0,0,7,0,9,10,6,0,1,19,19,8,0,1,2,0,3,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,4,11,2,0,3,1,0,4,3,3,0,0,4,3,14,2,14,15,3,24,0,2,0,0,3,10,0,1,10,66,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1710872050795313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1067278013340261,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3889512213876004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1507970776691096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17916873170917103,0.0,0.17151280435254698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08852625465402338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2117087369204464,0.0,0.13526720811309773,0.0,0.0914726381033594,0.16795372551238547,0.2985078375547892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.117353157384066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12982040238768225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3286034665551033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3843728999923611,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1983327336415288,0.14951828570704254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17315966494761847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2796399533247323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13899482078642586,0.10209118572217914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16877191335268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11274647527172528
EDAnonymous,shinywetmeat,2019/04/03,"Dealing with Shitty Doctors?? My regular general doctor knows about my ed and treatment and has all that stuff on my charts. Last time I went to visit (cw is lower than after treatment) the NA took my weight and said, ""God I wish I was that weight! I need to lose this baby weight!"" I didn't respond and she left. My doctor comes in and sees my vitals and says, ""Oh great you've lost weight!"" Everytime I visit he comments on my weight and goes on a rant on exercise, and I usually leave triggered and in tears. Is this just my doctor? Is there a polite way to tell him to fuck off or do should I just write WARNING: ED on my face???",1.3763581730769232,3.5192971406249995,2.723437500000003,93.07396634615385,81.5,5.500961538461539,20.002403846153847,6.67199483983844,0.18752692307692292,486,13,104,5,13,157,82,128,0.17800000000000002,0.742,0.079,-0.9148,1,0,0,0,0,0,22.0,0,0,0,2,4,5,1,0,3,0,8,12,1,1,1,22,18,10,0,3,3,0,5,0,0,1,5,2,0,0,5,11,5,0,1,1,0,5,1,3,0,0,6,8,19,2,16,11,1,19,0,2,1,1,12,9,1,1,4,65,24,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10026175618790273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11999546520650632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4765302594585929,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10760290866160327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1283230442845247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.063966225288555,0.09487534984222162,0.0,0.1232427577571538,0.12646069536310486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13021333614277605,0.1270560661204553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08630349812559795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1107158366755587,0.09255991706095504,0.0,0.0,0.09274968237557628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1332414642201627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10173209761990816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06786935099232258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12931625151089815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.128189797175985,0.0,0.0,0.09238687841511613,0.0,0.7086730029117856,0.0,0.10789693129768033,0.0,0.0,0.13384552877608366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Pabloiscool12,2019/04/03,"Need support with recovery tw: numbers, BN/ ed behavior Not sure if this is a rave but it’s long.

Need some support with recovery. I am 23 and 4”11. I have always had discomfort with my body, because I am a lot curvier than a lot of my family. My older sister used to call me a fat pig and some of the neighborhood kids would make fun of me etc.  This along with some family issues led me to develop bulimia with purging through exercise and vomiting.  I still struggled in college but tbh I haven’t excessively purged or exercised in six months and my ED has gotten a lot better since graduating. However, I still feel very uncomfortable in my body, like how tight my jeans are around my thighs and like my stomach poking out. Many people say I look very fit, but it’s hard for me to see it.  I’m about 117 right now and wanted to get down to my high school weight of 110. 

While I do still want to lose weight, I’m also just so sick of this being an issue. I know that my health is fine and that I am fit.  I am sad knowing that I have wasted so much of my life worrying about weight and calories when I could have been doing life fulfilling things like learning Spanish, planning trips, reading—just anything else really. 

So, instead of waiting to lose the “last seven pounds” (which is never enough as I know first hand), I want to really try and move on from this issue. I have been listening to a lot of health at every size podcasts, like Food Psyche by Christie Harrison.  It’s been really helpful to hear her interview people who have gone on the same journey. I also recently started listening to the book “The Fuck It Diet”. For those who don’t know, it’s basically a book on how to stop dieting and living life and enjoying food and accepting your body. 

So far I like it.  As I dive more into intuitive eating and letting go of disordered eating/dieting, I do find that i think about food less and am less stressed out in general about it.  For example, i had a large bowl of pasta yesterday, which I haven’t done in years. And today I had a burrito (which has given me some anxiety) but with the actual eating part I am doing okay. 

The one thing I am having trouble though is accepting my body size and type.  It’s hard for me to not feel like I am huge and just feel super uncomfortable in my body. I don’t like how my thighs touch and like how my stomach pokes out somewhat.  It’s kind of like a constant low to mid level source of anxiety that compiles everyday. 

I guess I was just wondering if anyone else is having this kind of problem? It’s just also kinda distressing cuz I’m not restricting and over exercising anymore to compensate, so I feel bloated and that adds to my physical/mental discomfort.  I am wondering if anyone has had this kind of discomfort and has gotten over it, how did you do so?

Thanks, sorry the post is so long. I don’t have anyone to talk about this with irl (i go to therapy for ocd but that’s not a place I talk about my ed with)",4.54247461928934,5.397709252115064,5.685955583756348,80.61299428934012,69.84602368866328,9.497140439932318,28.480583756345176,9.704964791036993,2.540963756345178,2332,81,464,53,40,777,269,591,0.122,0.7390000000000001,0.139,0.9075,1,0,0,0,0,0,58.0,0,2,0,6,33,37,1,6,20,1,52,33,11,9,2,104,92,51,0,11,17,1,12,9,0,1,11,4,0,1,34,36,12,4,15,5,0,7,10,13,0,4,14,18,61,24,76,74,17,57,0,4,2,1,16,28,1,17,30,327,95,9,0.0,0.0,0.06209851058903027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15266648755431125,0.052949358047911683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09736109197272856,0.0,0.06310874967555473,0.1334850643959497,0.06520150408910659,0.052366123957946806,0.056648577590758316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.038791261664245576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0562799228591553,0.0,0.3534202994647494,0.0,0.0,0.06497837662359156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06876675078867699,0.0,0.050807312240211976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07293114092340028,0.0,0.0,0.06512062524392756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1302288362919717,0.10631763430709128,0.0,0.0,0.06575189164046485,0.07096976620754374,0.0,0.0,0.053615171659375585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1199786941081407,0.0,0.12870292709178274,0.04546080550482117,0.0,0.0,0.0581611716381886,0.054127837518875004,0.2308428237395837,0.0,0.0,0.058829465829876214,0.03324662361104033,0.0,0.07233039246057099,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07010104780688703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11400879319734356,0.0,0.0,0.13528190619602184,0.0717211890594453,0.0,0.0426531510844436,0.06723379556735186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19925499686990106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1987979563079665,0.13988836962441792,0.05187095981943659,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06507102560285714,0.13484169533699378,0.27979930486352805,0.0,0.056190807550209165,0.11262981817299722,0.053437312920396704,0.1423824152058287,0.0,0.21640056179557995,0.0,0.0,0.042476808785191035,0.06451582941691847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05079279267033157,0.06763385810348721,0.04677899424199485,0.09436898606422857,0.04907917968728405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.043120674312769586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06891042618926523,0.0,0.08823289382118471,0.0,0.06648495608761602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060944671009197725,0.0,0.0,0.060890032314976986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12229849363680492,0.0,0.0628318147384936,0.0,0.0,0.05434388108773123,0.0,0.05060504911701053,0.0,0.06440194476390633,0.05070879902703679,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052639470289370466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0712340923830304,0.04504112979024491,0.0,0.15245680786462668,0.05320164945682936,0.0728935953876188,0.06652504370158595,0.0,0.0,0.14442432509316924,0.05997516685072087,0.0,0.0,0.10229468986659013,0.0,0.058586492372425025,0.07277208636995824,0.0,0.08455243757275854,0.04077469260001148,0.06252099397968186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06031847140804175,0.0,0.0,0.04320393922112497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05496014661019008,0.0,0.10501096050137752,0.11260058833725875,0.0,0.0,0.23247059802333114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13801873055186545,0.0,0.06462435861926269,0.0,0.04520442730140393,0.0,0.0,0.04097880748333695
EDAnonymous,veronica-marsx,2019/04/03,"dae greatly overestimate others’ thinness? I recently had to gain 20 lbs (taking me from a BMI of 14.5 to 17.5) in accordance with military standards (joined the army). I’m almost 25 while everyone else is 17-18 here. I fking swear the teenagers have straight ass legs (my number one flaw as most of my weight is in my thighs and ass), so I constantly assume they’re skinny and get jealous that the military standard allows them to be smaller.

Then at Future Soldier Orientation the other day we all got weighed. The tiniest girl there of whom I was so envious weighed in at 120 lbs. She’s shorter than me by at least two inches and I’m 100 lbs. Despite being 5’3, I was the tallest girl and recorded the lowest weight.

Finally I saw her stand next to a girl who carried all her weight in her upper half and was clearly pushing the upper end of healthy and I realized the small girl’s calves were bigger than the big girl’s... meaning her legs were straight because she has a perfectly even distribution (vs the other girl who had thicker thighs).

I don’t understand why I can’t SEE that I’m in fact the smallest one.",3.828469022017412,5.752085152073732,4.500606758832569,84.26773553507427,73.0552995391705,7.402867383512545,30.027905785970308,8.167268648758528,2.1884769073220682,886,39,168,14,18,283,136,217,0.061,0.855,0.085,0.6198,1,0,0,0,0,0,26.0,1,0,1,2,6,4,2,0,15,0,15,12,7,1,5,23,25,11,0,0,1,0,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,6,8,8,6,0,4,0,0,1,2,2,0,4,9,6,22,2,22,14,4,30,0,0,2,2,17,19,2,3,9,103,30,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1780053229207208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1083635004912756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19210011515919975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11464330250789342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14849930787488105,0.0,0.1574464547399053,0.0,0.0,0.1174116795436084,0.0,0.0,0.16986145855030316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19473216118882533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0928745382192325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14217439329403572,0.19598582828590105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1936374953444683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1890544075937524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2409154542340055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17552085431544848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1416551752257931,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1336566714596133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17364994407484402,0.18505896212386166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6494072809786324,0.0,0.0,0.16040468036663105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,PhysicalWinter2,2019/04/03,"Anyone else feel like they’re lying about having ED bc they’re overweight/normal size. 5 foot 7 155 pounds here. I feel like I can’t tell anyone my fucked yo relationship with food, the restricting and binging and the torment every time I eat something healthy or not. 

I feel like no one will believe me because I’m on the upper side of average. They’ll take one fucking look at me and say: yeah right. Sometimes I wonder if I even lie to myself. 

I don’t have the body to prove to myself or others that I have an ED ",2.5879454926624743,4.3189477735849096,3.697672955974845,89.52961215932915,75.9811320754717,5.843186582809224,23.09853249475891,6.42735559955562,0.5188670859538789,408,12,84,3,9,132,76,106,0.127,0.758,0.115,-0.5126,0,0,1,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,1,0,3,5,2,0,5,1,7,6,2,0,1,14,16,6,0,1,4,0,3,3,0,2,0,1,0,0,2,4,2,1,5,0,0,0,4,2,0,2,0,5,14,3,8,14,0,6,0,0,1,2,4,5,2,4,4,47,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2465702970878087,0.18065789951752975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10748138328711224,0.0,0.0,0.19864920722569984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19584876097612994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18041660502928925,0.14729047100924902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11645590696312155,0.0,0.14855492108000093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26745395825206003,0.3778833209883616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21320356658488032,0.0,0.0,0.3260049863892444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2584191648607236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1480621167092482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2389543172647752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1892987842410412,0.0,0.15057400202797164,0.0,0.14021458563235756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13573766369939444,0.1743823079410647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13256865890177585,0.0,0.15410908270252924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10281202953389244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1912085794945776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,financepadawan,2019/04/03,"light bulb moment. How I realized exercise was amazing. So I don't know if I really fit in the community. Im not heavy heavy restricting I eat about 900 cal a day at 5'7 but im trying to be at a deficit. But I just realized that im a dummy and I can burn 600 calories in an hour of tread climbing at the gym in my building. OMG game changer. I don't even have to do it all at once and likely won't because I have bad endurance and don't want high intensity walking straight uphill for an hour. 

But my goal of hitting 135 in April seems doable now!",0.2321056062581448,2.316326838983052,2.75,91.51344850065192,85.6949152542373,6.0036505867014345,23.483702737940032,7.321109707123232,0.9710513689700132,429,17,97,7,13,148,79,118,0.044,0.8440000000000001,0.112,0.7523,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,2,6,3,0,0,7,0,10,2,0,1,1,17,14,9,0,2,6,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,2,3,1,1,4,3,0,2,5,1,0,0,1,1,10,2,14,10,1,19,0,0,0,0,1,11,0,2,7,57,12,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17726034886793976,0.12941517254393986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13691494560256126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.217234327988566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14022113255775825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2243049821231444,0.0,0.0,0.4181424435150279,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6879563118230213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11667368316432515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1037183053979838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2260909343916677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13600383159195922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1932685473160199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1441367207201024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12521913392371814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,frozen_orange_,2019/04/03,"Has anyone been to treatment (inpatient, residential, and/or outpatient) at Walden Behavioral Care? What was it like for you? I’m looking into Walden but I feel like I can only find info from their own website on google. I’m trying to find a really good treatment program in Massachusetts, but I want to make sure I get info from people who have actually experienced the program.

I’d appreciate any information you have to offer. If you want to share but don’t really know where/how to start, I can offer some general things I’d like to know about Walden. Feel free to just say whatever’s on your mind, and if you want to use some of my questions, only answer as few or as many as you’d like. Thank you everyone!!

• How did you feel like you were treated (as a person, as a patient, as a paycheck, etc.) when you were there?

• Was it generally helpful or did it not do anything for you? 

• Praise/Criticism about their approach to treatment? 

•  How were the staff & clinicians there?

• Did you love it? Hate it? Feel indifferently about it?

• Favorite experiences/most hated experiences 

Thanks again everyone!",2.9067647058823525,5.79417467647059,4.2102941176470585,80.01632352941178,81.64705882352942,7.51764705882353,25.16666666666667,8.472884824447931,2.215219607843137,870,34,155,21,24,285,116,204,0.046,0.693,0.261,0.9935,1,0,0,0,0,0,37.0,0,12,2,0,10,16,2,0,6,0,17,1,0,4,1,37,39,17,0,5,9,0,4,5,0,0,0,1,0,1,9,2,0,0,13,0,1,1,2,2,0,0,9,7,20,15,29,29,5,9,0,0,1,1,24,5,0,7,8,101,29,3,0.0,0.0,0.13369376828192833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14844114238629286,0.0,0.09316576466136876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0957946822404836,0.0,0.11274061770320802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1396822299076894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15279296376634965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2618217398237039,0.0,0.1340138226730075,0.0,0.0,0.2770884381702756,0.19574789602586776,0.0,0.0,0.2504339034944598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07157766508487083,0.0,0.0,0.11491041578254607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27052137102566043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0918292635924351,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15058495845154318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.334660231112757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1150468129335528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12364926459887852,0.0,0.09144961090397367,0.1388980873577601,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13833252957256106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20839173296060268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09497963759099608,0.11962448534242635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1534731111623447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1755334259970288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10894914622542252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09697041542888474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1291223570992813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25226527533089,0.0,0.0,0.09101775460715696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09301507208960257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11832536780586746,0.0,0.0,0.2424212243220785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,smorbe,2019/04/03,"Well, that worked well: Stopped C/S, started B/P instead Hey all. Long time lurker, first time poster (with a new handle to match.)

So...wee bit of history. Was anorexic from ages 15-22, gained a stupid amount of weight (like 100+ lbs) but was pretty much in recovery from ED behaviors, decided to get weight loss surgery, lost 100+ lbs (and over 40 lbs more than they said I would) because I started engaging in ED behaviors again once I got close to ""goal weight"" because I decided I wasn't skinny enough (we all know how that goes!)

So go back into restriction + purging at least 1x/day of the small amounts I can eat + the dreaded C/S binges. (My smaller stomach can't accommodate a real binge, plus I was actually never able to make myself vomit until I had my surgery, since it's more regurgitation now.) Continue losing weight.

Anyway...the C/S routine was getting hella expensive. Like I spent $150 on Cheesecake Factory delivery so I could C/S the whole thing while watching MasterChef reruns (aren't EDs fun??) So I was finally like fuck it, I'm not doing this anymore. So I stocked up on safe foods and told myself as of April 1 I would stop C/S. 

Then last night happens - I had an edible and of course it made me hungry AF. So I basically B/P the stuff in my kitchen (which thankfully was mostly safe-ish foods like rice cakes, skinny pop, etc.) But because of my small stomach capacity, I basically had to purge like 6 times and it was pretty gross.

Anyway...feeling pretty disappointed in myself and definitely don't want to start B/P. I think the big takeaway from this is ""don't have an edible that makes you hungry"" (duh) but I'm realizing that the binging behavior, in the form of C/S or B/P, is not something that I'm going to be able to quit cold turkey. And it's making me feel pretty hopeless.",3.319285301483337,4.993381731843575,4.782024658062031,82.76533519553074,73.86033519553072,7.842958967443652,27.42862646888846,8.53829466247534,1.9931892506260835,1412,54,280,26,29,472,211,358,0.113,0.748,0.139,0.8939,1,0,1,0,0,1,81.0,1,1,1,8,12,20,2,1,12,1,24,14,4,5,3,41,50,21,0,4,6,0,5,5,0,2,1,1,1,0,15,11,10,4,6,0,2,2,8,9,2,1,17,8,29,11,34,29,14,41,0,5,1,1,6,15,1,2,29,153,44,3,0.18679531218694195,0.0,0.09114263957336406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09262537814587804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07181703244262552,0.0,0.17080303280663273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1019660506732222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07457042855419185,0.0,0.0,0.06023376158498112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.095569118934026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09650474551176126,0.10416307509962586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09444932241285893,0.0,0.0,0.10231256700903417,0.0,0.07944399856089167,0.22587363295968374,0.0,0.0,0.08634462806863394,0.0975928409254836,0.0,0.1061600806154977,0.0,0.07469863761620668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08259123883296035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05132890922925014,0.07613155533528207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2281468853471738,0.0,0.0,0.08265398658988449,0.0,0.10448808697339618,0.10195457455091264,0.0,0.0,0.08837512045649157,0.18703098206123145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06865802370074509,0.0,0.07203403016214523,0.09020403825270697,0.0,0.08764737331298443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09946545556980133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3800759732421031,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09933990380013688,0.0,0.1063069799834834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08884255879292972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07725950626526645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07190207865738461,0.0,0.0,0.19832202509416946,0.0,0.0,0.1561692451286851,0.0,0.0,0.10691797103357896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08598801336003127,0.0,0.0,0.06204925262816709,0.059845446792632886,0.0,0.0,0.16338277305647184,0.0,0.0,0.08924546286593289,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05508835741375751,0.0,0.0,0.4549327345872015,0.16795141887121445,0.0,0.0,0.1042751476057728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06799460599676227,0.0,0.0,0.13269403035827418,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,_SirMcFluffy,2019/04/03,"Why is my butt nonexistent Why has starving myself not given me the perfect curves I wanted and instead just turned me into a flat stick (with a better waist tbf)?

Who would've thought that losing weight wouldn't make me automatically love everything about my body hahah nobody could've predicted this

I don't even know if you can have a decent butt at less than 120lbs 5'8, but I sure have an awful one

I guess the best would be to gain weight and do squats and stuff, but the idea alone makes me so anxious",6.120133333333335,6.41375128,5.66,84.16833333333334,66.2,8.266666666666667,25.66666666666667,7.793537801064563,1.171566666666667,408,9,82,4,6,125,77,100,0.122,0.6970000000000001,0.181,0.8237,0,1,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,1,0,5,5,6,0,0,7,1,10,7,4,2,2,21,19,7,0,4,5,0,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,4,5,3,0,3,0,0,0,3,1,0,1,2,2,12,5,6,14,2,2,0,1,0,3,3,2,2,2,0,53,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1890534072698961,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20621498985426426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19156144707636652,0.16143924999846615,0.0,0.20275759162857812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14574103811450778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12056404701810786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1640525944922238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20108521844232533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20606219136414106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10031762806512312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20421234745935635,0.0,0.0,0.16474687862729456,0.0,0.2436898916784486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12369187743741215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20896133217481336,0.0,0.0,0.17203907651302294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1449140846554492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1985479710349541,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10766512347008288,0.0,0.0,0.4445620757216602,0.0,0.0,0.3294227201385747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25933826733956433,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,getfreefromfood,2019/04/03,"Tell me about IOP Tell me all about your intensive outpatient experience. Was it useful? Are you “recovered”? Would you recommend it and why? What are other people like?

I’ve been recommended and will start soon and it’s giving me anxiety not knowing exactly what it’s like from a patients perspective. ",3.227222222222224,6.384110888888895,4.523981481481481,74.65041666666669,88.25925925925927,9.366666666666667,27.12037037037037,9.188382445141503,3.7589703703703705,244,11,39,9,8,80,40,54,0.028,0.7140000000000001,0.258,0.9163,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,3,0,0,3,2,0,0,1,0,6,0,0,1,2,9,10,3,0,1,1,0,0,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,7,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,6,2,3,6,1,2,0,0,0,0,6,0,0,0,4,29,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2441043171505952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3121329626991433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30610188480384626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17536448211798758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31178422449655097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22121804367677186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2258547846652903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5578005121738444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2755928222854147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2879306749432813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22667362567551705,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Such_fruits_as_these,2019/04/03,I drink non-diet drinks ama Full fat coke is worth it and my ed will never stop my addiction to that sugary goodness.,2.8212499999999987,4.518011958333336,3.84,88.905,75.25,6.466666666666668,20.333333333333336,7.1686216300943375,0.4297333333333331,93,2,19,1,2,30,23,24,0.0,0.737,0.263,0.6992,0,0,2,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,5,1,0,1,3,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,2,1,4,1,0,2,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,1,1,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,11,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41132201845320215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7392374832676799,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31646851516538804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2910036184237228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3154468472515859,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,smokvenjak,2019/04/03,"Triggered by figure drawing model So I'm in art school, we draw nude people all the time, never had issues with it, etc.

But this week we got a new model and they have an extremely similar face and body shape/proportions as me.. except they're chubbier. It's so insanely triggering. It makes me want to not go near food ever again. Someone next to me is eating a sandwich and I gagged just thinking about eating, gaining, and looking like this. We'll likely be drawing this same person for a few weeks and just the thought is giving me those cold anxiety sweats/tingles.

These are such mean thoughts to have but :^(",3.9087288135593212,5.958642076271191,4.312000000000001,85.16477966101695,73.15254237288136,6.753898305084746,27.0542372881356,7.554174236665415,1.5939769491525433,487,18,89,6,10,153,90,118,0.027000000000000003,0.915,0.058,0.3612,0,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,3,0,1,1,8,2,0,0,6,0,8,7,3,3,3,27,19,10,0,1,6,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,1,8,8,4,0,5,1,0,1,2,0,0,0,4,2,9,2,11,13,4,11,0,0,1,1,6,2,0,0,10,61,17,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14552817583707628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2113066336573333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38931290935529866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2121607390899146,0.0,0.17207717344558685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23003121242252345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1824893940253936,0.10811413326501247,0.0,0.1521471802796366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1985544439663252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1858770462374426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1597483042429032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12698239866949407,0.0,0.0,0.2072201486532247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14671987231760236,0.18372878686890826,0.20231558136730385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1318840188257145,0.1661046333410368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1925265494038763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16118430367426706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12189400332648935,0.0,0.3020484426957535,0.11092673628368252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11220470030261376,0.0,0.30518782274551204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,dark_side_sunchips,2019/04/03,"how do people follow food rules and be fine Disclaimer/about me: disordered eating, not a real eating disorder imho, was diagnosed years ago but disagree to this day

Title, basically. There's several people in my class doing intermittent fasting, so many who skip meals, this guy tried a multi-day fast. There's vegans, vegetarians, who eat three meals a day and don't snack. People with intolerances. And all ok... people on low carb, doing intermittent fasting, exercising several hours, being a healthy weight. All of these, at a healthy weight, maintaining, being happy, not thinking about food and how they failed at following their rules because they had to compromise. 

How? Am I just bad at following the rules? Why can't I fast, be vegetarian, exercise, eat no added sugars, cook everything I eat, meal-prep, stay out of the house for over a day and a half, eat 2-3 reasonable meals in little containers, not snack a bunch, ect.. ect... without just losing and losing until I need to compromise or even just get rid of most of the guidelines to regain and like not get osteoperosis or not be underweight and unhealthy and all.

May delete later",6.799233449477358,8.279403268292686,7.043641114982581,70.64371951219513,65.09756097560975,10.540069686411153,31.22822299651568,10.608840637214634,3.5970905923344936,910,34,150,24,14,294,126,205,0.104,0.784,0.112,-0.2568,0,0,0,0,0,0,45.0,0,0,3,3,11,9,0,0,11,1,14,20,0,4,3,36,21,17,0,1,12,0,2,1,0,1,3,0,0,1,5,11,17,1,2,3,0,3,9,5,0,2,2,3,9,4,21,13,5,26,0,4,0,0,6,10,0,4,13,95,14,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08947160943403595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08427539935975639,0.061528229065360485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26037547128086685,0.0,0.0,0.10244555152153104,0.0,0.0,0.2313574631097439,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6196820618757981,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06666573782829631,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09071267533701642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2440987914594377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10546735452409244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09994020315047418,0.0,0.10744576973166953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09939933448609747,0.1164639048263508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.049311093339008925,0.10116205466123344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22583792023805715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1023309003214161,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07484103818898813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2798987952038329,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11488461489572205,0.0,0.10377662436199736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2280526374139447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1075818637320527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06467422091289067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06852733721144845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2458200394020627,0.0,0.0,0.09107693893248307,0.0,0.0,0.09729645710646012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06499797494300191
EDAnonymous,trickasfuck,2019/04/04,"Maybe not the best validation lmao background: i have really really bad body dysmorphia and have no idea what i look like

today one of my coworkers joked about how i was too skinny and how i don’t eat anything and needed to gain weight and for some reason it felt so validating i went out to take my 30 with a big smile on my face wow that’s all lol",3.8067123287671234,4.5644313150684965,5.136876712328768,84.23791780821921,71.46575342465755,9.127671232876713,22.819178082191787,9.3871,1.4900926027397272,278,6,61,6,5,93,60,73,0.11,0.614,0.276,0.9284,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,2,5,5,0,0,2,1,4,5,3,3,1,15,9,7,0,1,1,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,6,3,0,3,1,0,1,3,1,0,1,3,3,8,4,8,6,3,5,0,0,1,0,0,3,0,1,2,39,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2030825990951275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2060547320529875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.258985085673226,0.0,0.0,0.27412192296652743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2525221321760057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2369518011392287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27858963846300355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12056643103920275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2072368083849164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2479281795839535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18298756443465086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1672275500322346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31619291348387285,0.2537355466568828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18555121575508748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23392283066104824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30051701170836953,0.0,0.2287716847746092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Kymiikat,2019/04/04,"Bingeing then starving I binged after my brothers suicide now I can barely hold down a half can of soup. 
He did it on the 20th I binged until the 1st, now I can’t even stomach eating anything.
I’m drinking a lot. Justifying it with how much water I’m drinking. I haven’t relapsed in a few years and now I feel like I’m spiraling, I’m thinking the same shit I used too. Like I don’t deserve to eat and if I don’t want to eat I don’t have too, but I never really want to eat.
I ate to satisfy my loved ones, but now I want to focus on me and I don’t want to eat. I want to drink alcohol and work out. It clears my mind. 
But at the same time I know what this means and no I don’t want to go down that path again, it took so much work getting better getting stable with the idea of food. But It’s been so easily corrupted. 
I feel like he won.",0.06054070112893584,1.694878122994652,2.5964260249554383,94.95124034462273,83.27807486631016,5.652881758764112,20.01455733808675,6.691623216298621,0.07191527035056478,647,18,158,7,18,224,98,187,0.053,0.722,0.225,0.9819,0,0,4,0,0,1,17.0,0,0,0,4,11,7,1,0,8,0,12,15,2,2,2,34,35,15,1,7,5,1,2,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,8,8,12,1,6,3,0,2,9,1,0,2,5,2,22,6,21,30,6,20,0,0,0,1,4,7,1,2,14,103,30,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12346353048869713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09506910961653746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1021744928038606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33951826432498194,0.0,0.5910662550954726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07630468027182366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1168281300854338,0.16506542684979691,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13969604810362718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1207164733825254,0.0,0.06565681675202231,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13041623947635542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06349077294981034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1693223835958235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09821716395768408,0.10426788259312983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1258430782042308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1166496218078864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1698516901848602,0.0,0.08910176199649911,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0782842762292624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07400973516664994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11858709491723884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12636809579487393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0740252175907483,0.0,0.0,0.06736488724582486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1283550612274135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09977847905682563,0.0,0.0,0.4088459051931397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16821047460296146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0743957819699798
EDAnonymous,Nevergiveup34,2019/04/04,"Ideas for snacks? I’m trying to follow my exchanges/meal plan and my nutritionist told me that I’m supposed to have 2-3 snacks per day, which are supposed to include at least two food groups. I’ve never done snacks, so I’m not really sure what foods to eat. Any suggestions?",2.738727272727271,4.815034509090912,3.503636363636364,89.53545454545456,76.63636363636364,6.581818181818183,21.909090909090907,7.554174236665415,0.759109090909091,218,6,45,3,5,69,43,55,0.05,0.95,0.0,-0.3692,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,3,6,0,0,2,5,8,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,6,0,1,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,2,0,3,1,6,6,1,4,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,2,21,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17972035839752767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17043958624950273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2704515441731255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2704257655627869,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6391400359747698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2983414388672593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20383004437467392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16930537921089414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2490820139711549,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2525321242648029,0.0,0.17942966660635196,0.0,0.2581644454836592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,youramericangirl,2019/04/04,"my self-worth is tied to him he's the only person who knows about my ed in real life. i told him in a moment of idiocy/weakness. i like him too much; he just finds me attractive and available. sometimes he can be really fucking sweet about my ed, and on those days, i feel like i'm literally floating on a cloud. on other days (like today), he's really fucking distant and i overanalyze everything he says and does and feel completely worthless. he makes me want to restrict and become the thinnest fucking girl on earth; he makes me want to binge because i'm already worthless anyway. 

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i hate this i hate this i hate myself",2.9562195121951227,5.357876430894311,4.140833333333333,83.63125000000002,77.37398373983741,6.701626016260162,26.51016260162601,7.793537801064563,1.7604260162601633,503,20,92,8,12,164,73,123,0.154,0.738,0.108,-0.8408,0,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,0,0,0,5,13,6,0,4,0,3,4,0,2,0,17,19,6,0,2,1,0,2,3,0,0,1,1,0,2,5,6,0,1,4,0,0,0,0,8,0,0,1,4,17,5,12,17,1,10,0,2,0,3,15,6,3,0,7,51,22,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1634942441502994,0.0,0.0,0.16052737060601152,0.18002621236433708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09031475117059848,0.16362707632859205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1553391405808736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1910972106370751,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12965264232624207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1331533968315414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14982462978170966,0.10584294403002754,0.0,0.0,0.13541224283341782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4109045444754159,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.43882124273680334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08142286917374825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10464722929259647,0.21714516373282136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19779106176851027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10891198284666027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11267959950463398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12936443214741986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16863439051065718,0.18982553539934166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11781989610282008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15455941101519347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1465304433994979,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14043492019826,0.14156976558431378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1747729373583102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18002621236433708,0.0
EDAnonymous,Afrolatinboi23,2019/04/04,Does any one know anything that can help me? Hey guys while I don’t have an eating disorder I need help I’m on the verge of becoming a diabetic I’m scared I’m at 262 and 5’8 I’m very overweight and idk what to do? I’m going to Nova university can anyone help me please give me some information I tried Overeaters anonymous to no avail. ,0.7860915492957758,3.0597851267605627,2.9951936619718325,89.39588908450705,85.05633802816901,6.366901408450705,21.551056338028168,7.6454224807358475,0.8983366197183101,268,9,59,5,8,91,51,71,0.168,0.693,0.139,-0.2997,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,3,0,5,4,0,0,0,6,14,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,2,2,3,0,2,0,0,1,2,1,0,1,0,0,6,0,6,14,1,5,0,0,0,0,7,3,0,1,1,28,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16541086156900456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17007836495220385,0.0,0.20016497235751265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2686383660727789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27877296816272995,0.0,0.2128600887642578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2488942225079247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2333370137512727,0.13823832960317015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24084485277942624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4891139249470553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13367779359369542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18035863702765287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16482504202114046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2670033795842183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24352467319383975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1651433149200987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20069764971409795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Ilovebigkitties,2019/04/04,"Anyone figured out how to make a low-sugar Orange Julius? Orange Juliuses are just sugar bombs, but I love their creaminess and taste. 

I haven’t had one in probably more than 15 years!

For ingredients I was thinking: 
Milk (like Fair Life, lower in sugar)
Orange Mio or orange extract (fruits are too high in sugar for me)
Banana extract 
Avocado to make it creamier 
Ice 

What do you think?",3.0874999999999986,5.901087194444448,3.9811111111111153,82.55000000000003,79.83333333333334,5.266666666666668,22.88888888888889,6.6274283507984215,0.9211888888888892,306,10,51,3,8,98,57,72,0.037000000000000005,0.838,0.125,0.8226,1,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,1,1,0,3,2,0,0,1,0,6,8,0,3,0,11,11,4,0,0,3,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,2,6,0,3,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,2,5,6,2,9,9,1,6,0,0,0,1,3,5,0,1,2,32,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23818045877716298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35990040562278264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2406011264480472,0.1664174367859054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30743709233969924,0.0,0.4547540587988184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2308236214382287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3672629859487676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4365313093528331,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21935827526525264
EDAnonymous,thecalcographer,2019/04/04,"Why is calorie restriction vilified but fasting is fine? On weight loss/diet/exercise subs I always see people saying “don’t eat even a calorie under 1200 a day. It will ruin your health and nutrition and kill you!”  But when people say they’ve just completed a 24/48/72 hour fast, everyone is like “fasting is so good for you!  I wish I had the willpower to fast.”  Do they think that you’re magically getting daily nutrients when you don’t eat anything versus when you eat almost enough?  It’s so strange to me, especially since high calorie restriction has health benefits too. ",6.7143530997304595,7.928064424528303,6.791185983827492,73.34424528301888,65.13207547169812,10.208086253369274,34.95417789757413,10.290406445055957,3.8590555256064687,463,21,77,11,7,148,75,106,0.166,0.6890000000000001,0.145,-0.5317,1,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,5,1,0,8,6,1,0,4,0,10,6,0,0,0,11,14,9,1,1,4,0,1,1,0,1,2,2,0,0,3,2,4,2,1,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,1,4,10,4,5,12,1,12,0,1,1,0,8,3,0,1,10,45,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17029941514994612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14151093062210726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13995219597669786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1783139831295599,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10968035701184044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5220687605174225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17572661348956822,0.0,0.1123288901138914,0.0,0.0,0.1625081012915381,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0888539695416911,0.0,0.0,0.14264570619702316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3615505295608905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17968710728057094,0.0,0.0,0.16748358729097593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1881560159621572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08308706339288903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2358086929933963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2704911960687328,0.0,0.0,0.1355228770583442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14068273351611238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10897327009020358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.207098076863004,0.0,0.0,0.15346071008178533,0.0,0.19557081681076272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,toloache-dreams,2019/04/04,"My coworker slapped my ass last week ... and it's really fucking with my head. ☹️

I don't really know where else to talk about this, I would like to get him fired if possible but I wonder about the consequences because we're really short staffed already. There's also the possibility of me losing my job, plus I have no evidence this happened. But I'm afraid they're going to have me work with him over the summer since that's what the setup has been for the past two years. I feel like an idiot because I've known he was a fucking pervert for a long time, I just stupidly assumed nothing like this would happen. 

I'm recovering and this has me on the verge of relapsing, I've gained weight and he told me ""I've never noticed before but you have a really nice ass"". Now I never want to eat again (though I'm forcing myself to) because he wouldn't have done that if I wasn't such a fat disgusting fuck. And he keeps saying that ""later we're gonna have sex"" and telling me he will pay me for nudes. I'm experiencing a bunch of physical stress symptoms now, everything hurts, I am shaky and nauseated, headaches, weird neurological shit, flaring up in hives, all that good stuff. 

I fucking despise myself right now and want to crawl in a hole and die. I don't know where I'm going with this, trying to get it off my chest I guess... 😕",4.391961999173893,5.126752907063199,5.372162329615865,83.16453015282944,70.11524163568774,8.505658818669971,27.58384964890541,8.680891452615391,1.8358672449401081,1048,34,218,17,18,345,152,269,0.205,0.7140000000000001,0.081,-0.9881,1,0,0,0,0,0,33.0,0,1,0,3,13,20,9,3,13,0,18,16,7,0,3,35,43,16,1,7,6,0,3,3,0,5,3,1,0,0,13,12,3,1,6,0,1,2,7,15,0,1,5,5,28,5,25,33,2,27,0,2,0,8,12,11,7,6,17,127,41,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12402854324944115,0.08988069433733553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20554130966214654,0.0,0.09563822109324392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11664625801389908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11501712863846535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11500616555910675,0.09388998474624076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10101164064558044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05682931124361009,0.08029362886444105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4156223140512943,0.11744147634768738,0.0,0.12775113910448732,0.09426997137464084,0.0,0.0,0.12381363359295736,0.0,0.19877763430072526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11534771119798748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1203191018068628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11153277554937538,0.0999001212809678,0.0,0.0,0.12353657956944453,0.09161534975755067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1647287246802682,0.0,0.0,0.09946432667688927,0.0,0.1257390919101416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17336892274660992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10784417816110196,0.1279602506678163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10729189911346083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2534125892724413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2880075044780401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09598306432667277,0.0,0.08937947727382747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11536986719891955,0.09297270569891787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12874587745761548,0.0,0.12866317085564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11681943019306698,0.0,0.09033728914108248,0.0982364936784609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11042561677241176,0.0,0.06553730067209207,0.0,0.0,0.1073963911380617,0.0,0.07630751419340746,0.0,0.10979169420849884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13258468475532173,0.0,0.09015493816379397,0.13686447561662374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12188548579608335,0.08182349070088317,0.0,0.0,0.1596816188566482,0.0,0.0,0.07237744960382396
EDAnonymous,Aygurlitsyaalt,2019/04/04,"Why can't I crave the ""good"" version? So like most people, bread is my weakness.

But not just any bread! Oh no, shitty ass white bread. Store bought, pre-sliced with ALL the additives. Buttered and toasted please.

I would feel less shitty about this CONSTANT CRAVING if it were for some really nice whole grain bread with lotsa fiber. Or some crusty ciabatta, properly fermented and lovingly baked. 

At least then I'd have some nutritional boost right?

But no. Gimme dat horrid bread of my childhood, and gimme it now. And hurry pls, it's been mocking me from the top of my fridge for days now.

What's y'alls ""bad"" version food that demands your attention in place of the ""good"" version? Come, make me feel better about this pls. ",3.142039800995022,5.986252507462687,2.7760895522388083,91.07065174129356,79.8955223880597,5.961393034825871,22.36616915422885,7.3011,0.8805936318407963,572,18,108,8,15,169,98,134,0.158,0.6990000000000001,0.142,-0.6753,0,0,0,0,0,0,28.0,0,2,0,2,6,9,1,0,4,0,6,10,1,1,1,25,12,10,0,2,6,0,2,1,0,1,1,0,1,0,7,8,7,0,3,0,2,1,4,3,0,0,3,4,9,6,12,8,12,12,0,0,1,2,3,5,1,7,7,63,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16233951293061716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19932334894441428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2111306865100125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20563832974719,0.0,0.2579742573459211,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1539562888843027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2414105774517405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2886642422142772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4004582798541304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11662777440524807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21545641215065656,0.0,0.15934914875443942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16550015084288056,0.0,0.24941424416119196,0.2620456612182529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1529317715738992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2038677442821816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2154099608847099,0.2665251899567663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1695816426991565,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,lmao-kill-me-please,2019/04/04,Afraid of being annoying I’m so afraid that everyone around me is annoyed by me. Mainly because I ask everyone if I’m fat at least 10 times a day. I also feel the need to ask everyone if they think I should eat or how much I should eat. Damn it must be hard being around me. ,1.5537288135593244,3.018716576271192,3.612000000000002,90.18342372881357,78.15254237288136,7.4318644067796615,21.969491525423727,8.238735603445708,1.0130447457627114,214,6,49,4,5,73,42,59,0.16399999999999998,0.836,0.0,-0.8126,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,1,0,5,5,3,2,2,0,7,3,1,1,1,12,14,6,0,6,3,0,2,0,0,3,1,0,0,0,2,2,3,0,2,0,0,0,0,5,0,0,0,2,8,0,6,8,3,5,0,0,0,0,3,3,1,3,2,34,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1653264964521861,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3680772779454209,0.386540018939101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12602418814990174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1333274493706861,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.42308454696458986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.59263457662528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.104531801773077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18519461585195515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.151974556095712,0.1532919315464742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13246791446112124,0.0,0.0,0.12054927242089307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,trstmfckr,2019/04/04,"What would you say is your core reason for weight loss and/or your ED? Is it control?

Perfection?

Beauty?

Being loved?

Is it self-loathing, and the desire to self-hurt?

Some other neurosis?

How would you describe it?

​

I ask because I can't tell whether we share struggles / neurosis / motivations, or only share the way they manifest?

​

​",3.7766129032258062,7.024419241935487,3.19574193548387,83.19361290322581,90.45161290322581,5.705806451612903,28.780645161290327,7.1686216300943375,2.3301883870967752,291,14,44,5,10,86,48,62,0.066,0.669,0.266,0.9399,0,0,0,0,0,0,28.0,1,4,1,4,1,6,0,1,2,0,7,2,0,4,1,13,9,4,0,3,2,0,1,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,5,2,1,1,2,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,2,8,4,2,6,1,1,0,1,0,1,12,0,0,2,0,29,13,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4414542227878371,0.4950765178593186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12696516397583507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08278926335901413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15232383922218734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14538872730228916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12257493469417455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10329055793949063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13963656057267904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10800253868787152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28336145795232154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14197938212607594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11870499842557965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10780063041445108,0.0,0.1653814865966788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19295279793896453,0.0,0.4950765178593186,0.0
EDAnonymous,JavaBean17,2019/04/04,"Frickin’ binge. Was trying to remain around 500 calories per day as well as going to personal training a handful of times a week. 

Girlfriend suggested we get pizza later. 

I also got a meal with my wrap instead of just the single wrap I wanted for lunch. So yeah, nearly 2,000 calories. Eek. 

Just gonna fast after this weekend (drinking over weekend, though probably gonna try and keep it low cal where I can). 🤦🏻‍♀️🤦🏻‍♀️🤦🏻‍♀️🤦🏻‍♀️",-1.6113412563667249,-0.1596150430107528,1.290990379173742,94.5249066213922,113.40860215053765,3.2482173174872666,18.873231465761176,5.399115186594226,-0.11584731182795728,343,13,71,3,19,118,68,93,0.028,0.909,0.062,0.3597,0,0,1,0,0,0,12.0,1,0,0,0,9,2,0,0,4,1,2,5,1,0,0,8,9,6,0,1,2,0,1,0,1,2,0,0,0,1,2,4,4,1,0,3,0,1,0,1,1,0,2,1,5,1,12,5,1,14,0,1,0,0,4,5,0,0,8,35,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2337248730257608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2601785463842496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18848727725881775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2863092397367144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15269682966789835,0.0,0.1661014024548408,0.0,0.2337516776095317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2597792922473375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25519524338749866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3151119893450441,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2871496871403493,0.0,0.17042255170555584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3968586179102787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1723859547262412,0.0,0.23443801397320976,0.0,0.26278207455238706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,MyNamelessFace,2019/04/04,"I don't know what I want... No... I actually know exactly what I want. **It's just impossible.**  
I'm having body image issues for more than 10 years now and sometimes it got better, but then it got worse again. I've had websites about my ED to communicate with other people with EDs and I remember how we complained together or proudly told us how we got rid of a few lbs. They were my best friends, but a lot of those websites got banned/deleted and the rest started recovering. There is basically noone left, except for me.  
**I wish** there were some people again on those websites to talk about our daily struggles and all that stuff, but on the other hand I'm happy for their recovery.  **I dont want anyone else to suffer through this** or to make other peoples ED worse... 

**But I also hate how my fucking mind works.** I just need someone to talk to, about the struggles, the achievements, the pain, the worries and the success, someone who is able to understand it. I can't hide it from everyone. Noone really knows this. My best friend (who also has a few mental health problems) knows that I have some issues, but not really how bad it is. And I know that he wouldn't be happy for me if I told him that I lost a few pounds... and he couldn't understand what I feel when I say that I gained weight.  
I wanted to go to therapy 2 years ago, but I realized that there are a few (really important) reasons why I cant, at least not now or in the next 2 years... And I know that it's not healthy at all and I know that **I am ruining myself**... It affects every single part of my life. But you all know that.  


**I hate the mini mental breakdowns**, the hours of crying alone in the bathroom in the middle of the night, and the feeling in my stomach when I look at myself in the mirror. 

But I have to say... sometimes I LOVE IT. I loved the communication with other people with EDs, **I love the feeling when I weigh myself and see a lower number on the scale**. I love my sugarfree combination of redbull and coke and how it reminds me of my skinny days a few years back, when people complimented me for my body.   
**Everything is so ambivalent, conflicting...**   
I don' even know what I am expecting from this post. I think I just had to blurt it out.   
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EDAnonymous,hamaesa,2019/04/04,"I've been severely bingeing every day for over a month. I've got stretch marks for the first time ever and I want to die :)))))))

I just want to be a skeleton damn it why am I like this",-1.8471666666666664,0.046589950000001316,0.5800000000000018,102.77833333333334,99.5,3.6666666666666674,16.666666666666668,5.46131890053228,-0.8408333333333333,138,4,35,1,6,46,31,40,0.225,0.6559999999999999,0.119,-0.7579,0,0,0,0,0,1,9.0,0,0,0,1,2,2,1,0,3,0,3,0,0,0,1,5,6,1,1,2,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,2,0,3,1,5,3,0,7,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,6,20,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21399753978003036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3443785273830938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3001517166719138,0.2795740860309405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28224736086477664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26538811879173896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16211131726810668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2648569080032743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3748640615558446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19348789646924475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39143406112649465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29941746457711954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,zewtherm,2019/04/05,"CHSP is weird. I just chewed and spat a hamburguer and some mozarella sticks and I fell gross, bloated and paranoid. It honestly feels like I swallowed EVERYTHING (even though I obviously didn’t) lol. How many do you consume any calories by chewing and spitting food? ",4.03241134751773,7.3192871702127675,3.5330851063829805,83.6841666666667,81.55319148936171,6.5375886524822695,33.36524822695036,7.793537801064563,2.9579248226950354,215,12,35,4,6,64,40,47,0.136,0.6990000000000001,0.166,0.3612,1,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,1,0,0,4,4,0,0,1,1,3,6,2,1,1,10,4,7,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,5,4,0,1,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,1,1,5,2,1,3,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,21,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2738496645581697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2659794115886936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3619206026327786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20361711225599227,0.2876888085419156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4869461813286563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1967387749444177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40827437813609335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3956504964471749,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,AzraelUaDuibhne,2019/04/05,Haha I was doing so good until I got drunk Now I'm chowing down on a pizza and mozzarella sticks and I want to kill myself 😊,2.055,2.6652973571428578,5.041428571428573,83.85357142857143,75.42857142857143,7.028571428571429,21.142857142857142,7.1686216300943375,0.6307999999999998,98,2,21,1,2,36,24,28,0.221,0.529,0.25,-0.0152,0,0,0,0,0,1,0.0,0,0,0,0,2,3,1,0,1,1,2,3,0,0,0,3,5,4,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,4,2,4,3,0,4,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,2,15,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4912567597601935,0.4684372112449266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6479894642134385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34546060467059425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,regattadeblanc,2019/04/05,"tips on how to lose weight in thighs? TW numbers ******not a joke****** well last post for fucking flagged (thanks guys, sorry humor doesn’t work for you all 😘😘) but anyways I was wondering if anyone knew any tips on how to lose weight in specifically thighs? i’ve been fasting but I lose weight everywhere but in my legs. thanks ",-1.0150000000000006,-1.674187301587299,0.06072222222222301,100.23775000000002,144.23809523809524,3.164761904761905,15.848412698412698,5.341637118332708,-0.5308596825396825,252,8,53,3,20,77,45,63,0.155,0.742,0.103,-0.5439,0,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,1,0,4,4,9,1,0,1,0,3,7,3,2,1,10,8,6,0,1,5,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,3,0,2,1,0,0,2,4,1,0,3,3,4,5,9,5,1,8,0,3,0,1,2,5,1,2,2,27,4,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11312511409132163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11631723731550167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15378981092102328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16471470609935787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13559914220523075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5583162554026483,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15931930196769914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18621752627156227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30630927741334474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6077160281905714,0.1495704917021035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18040172705725646,0.12110629038299342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,yogabba420,2019/04/05,"Coworker brought low cal treats for my last day.....but BUT I DON'T WANT TO EAT THEM. 
She was so fucking considerate and brought fruit for me and brownies for everyone else to celebrate my last day. And I'm low restrictingn and already had my meals planned out. And I don't wanna be rude but like UGH
FUCKKKKKKKKKM
thx",4.2049180327868845,6.160932114754104,4.063081967213115,87.66183606557377,72.11475409836065,8.158688524590165,31.872131147540983,8.841846274778883,2.5684465573770487,253,12,51,5,5,77,44,61,0.134,0.68,0.18600000000000005,0.5489999999999999,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,1,1,1,7,2,0,0,0,5,4,0,0,0,11,10,8,0,2,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,6,3,0,1,0,0,2,2,5,0,0,4,1,8,2,7,5,0,8,0,2,0,1,2,3,1,0,4,28,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35545085180188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4154621262108036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32959380509886554,0.26907737670189197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3077851090591109,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2977808609351434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5251170941184987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1573642216267357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1899858609053492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,sillywatercress,2019/04/05,"Triggered by roommate I'm in college right now and sometimes I get extremely triggered by my roommate. She definitely doesn't have an ED but I think she wants to lose weight, so there are days where she'll eat pretty little (e.g. saving half of a normal sized salad that she got for lunch to eat for dinner), and it's super triggering when I see her sometimes skips meals or doesn't eat. She also sleeps a LOT (like more than me at night and then like every time I come back to the room in the afternoon she's just napping like wtf) and that just reminds me of how more sleeping time means less eating time lmao. Or she'll comment about how she's cold or dizzy or hungry (but then doesn't eat), or how she's so full after eating, or how she eats too much. Idk these things all remind me of coping mechanisms that I use or have heard of while restricting. I don't think she's aware that these are restricting methods and I'm probably just projecting my disordered ass but I'm really tired of living around another person because I definitely subconsciously (or consciously) compare myself to others and it just makes me feel shitty af. 

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Also I hate that I have to compare what I'm eating to what she's eating. It's like I compulsively have to keep track of what she's eating and estimate how many calories she's had that day. I've even gone through the trash to read the nutrition information on a wrapper before. Wtf is wrong with me. I just want to escape this :'(

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Gah I have so much frustration pent up right now I could just explode. I need my personal space. I need somewhere to just be alone and away from other people. I can't wait to get a single.",5.152636363636361,6.0490160818181815,5.528484848484851,82.1427272727273,68.48484848484848,8.545454545454545,27.72727272727273,8.710501217029153,1.948636363636364,1337,42,259,21,22,427,177,330,0.155,0.7509999999999999,0.094,-0.9766,0,1,1,0,0,0,38.0,0,0,0,2,27,10,2,0,9,0,18,19,3,10,1,58,42,33,0,6,18,0,2,4,0,2,1,1,1,2,18,11,15,4,6,2,0,2,5,4,0,1,4,5,40,6,34,34,9,31,0,1,1,1,20,14,1,9,19,174,58,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0761691362183749,0.0,0.1176258064831346,0.0,0.15936922565893308,0.1787273905658841,0.0,0.07711702501175059,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06546952181825318,0.0,0.0,0.06909676573941866,0.0565505973741033,0.0,0.04483158200779278,0.0,0.06258030698163071,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06335142100850398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058718693014103485,0.0,0.0,0.09485925786313287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08428749890965685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7525360743015289,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04857494743403711,0.0,0.0619637738497344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03718592527680325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07684713870878745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0588196481608022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0726092185958101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06536905628106399,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1437190283876571,0.07371014928455312,0.06494047083529675,0.0,0.0,0.08227663460674726,0.0,0.06252425879210992,0.0,0.0,0.04909101830626577,0.07456181039791407,0.0,0.08011069421865015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10812622361984447,0.10906350441368144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06901581909667537,0.07205725153005245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05098597010541763,0.12843111614742805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07482042422024245,0.07929259175408869,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07356364314899716,0.0,0.04711400378745218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12561190624289248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058604839970767576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14719370715701108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14547328104783389,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.048859193751047414,0.09424771954890256,0.0,0.0,0.1286518406947873,0.08452771175144384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06351817946117765,0.0,0.0,0.08675600798723868,0.0,0.0,0.0895564639436113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08040853587749439,0.1787273905658841,0.0
EDAnonymous,caaaarol,2019/04/05,lol ive been 15 cal broth “fasting” for 5 days and now i feel like the 100 cal soup i ate was a binge wtf brain please. i can’t deal with myself anymore,-1.3101428571428568,0.4732944857142876,0.633928571428573,106.10232142857143,89.85714285714286,3.5,14.464285714285715,3.1291,-1.6605714285714286,117,2,32,0,4,38,31,35,0.107,0.6779999999999999,0.215,0.4215,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,1,4,2,1,0,0,3,6,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,1,5,1,2,3,0,3,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,4,14,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40766211136105374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4588800836598188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2651003743734185,0.423785898284112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20784482051348266,0.2936620999710324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20082366807636307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4512215992949399,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,HufflePuff_Badg3r,2019/04/05,"Unintentionally getting back into the swing of my ED. I noticed that I gained some weight, so I had the automatic response to engage in my old ED behaviors. 

And I feel like I want to be taken by it. I've experienced recovery and weight restoration, but I want to lose it all. I miss my ED, I miss my thinner body. I miss being sick. 

I hate how I feel in my body right now. I can't tolerate it. 

I've worked hard on recovery--inpatient treatment, therapy four times a week, etc. But I don't know if recovery's worth it.

There's so much promise in my ED.",1.3936602870813388,3.3679354473684207,3.978133971291868,85.00011961722487,80.49122807017544,7.654226475279107,25.27591706539075,8.575989854853784,1.821659649122808,427,17,93,10,11,150,70,114,0.18,0.7,0.12,-0.8684,0,2,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,0,0,3,6,8,1,0,3,0,5,5,2,1,1,14,16,8,0,3,3,0,5,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,5,3,2,0,3,0,1,0,2,5,0,1,2,6,19,3,10,12,4,11,0,4,0,0,0,6,0,2,6,58,24,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1509256746393161,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.43604124415166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.218901865577308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19848811931591806,0.14022104999684662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10254715946675497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1758265445748589,0.1937838999137537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10786926151694916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09589152159799848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2195848879000942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1442869218345313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.223463815999566,0.20596075461828492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16762034861474956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2244610109289549,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11445128641171128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2315397120894785,0.0,0.15744238080297376,0.4780274786342325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14289272938274394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,nervouslynervosa,2019/04/05,"Relapsing I know I know *I know* that it’s a part of recovery. Everyone always says “relapse is a part of recovery” so I know. But. Three years into recovery without relapse had me so fucking confident that I was “over” bulimia/disordered eating in general. I feel like such an idiot for letting my guard down due to stress/personal problems/anxiety provoking situations, only to be surprised (lookin like the pikachu meme) when my binge/purge/restrict cycle sneaks up on me. It’s scary, too, because I didn’t realize that this was default. I thought that after all this time and all this effort, I wasn’t even thinking about what I eat/food in general, but that is such a big fat lie. I feel so fucking powerless. ",1.920494893951297,4.752014238805973,3.627690494893952,81.61538491751769,89.44776119402985,7.597172034564023,29.44069128043991,8.371475516178862,3.1268865671641795,564,30,98,16,19,187,89,134,0.08900000000000001,0.85,0.061,-0.6674,1,0,0,0,0,0,23.0,0,0,0,1,9,6,3,0,5,0,9,4,1,1,2,20,19,7,0,0,3,0,2,2,0,0,1,1,0,0,11,2,2,1,9,0,0,0,3,3,0,1,6,3,15,3,15,11,4,13,0,0,0,2,1,8,2,0,7,71,26,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1433103759741178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13175659923239325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10499070241008654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19739218021295885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3524715724558322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11375725821466888,0.0,0.0,0.16457454553190576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17417080726269832,0.12304219294003542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.208262971014128,0.0,0.0,0.3184504280035777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3786156354745904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17611834190187495,0.0,0.1682871880083602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1309897901056285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3730197853120065,0.0,0.0,0.15038587187583552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1369653737555276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19359538276624846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19729056113678184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1103589683079678,0.0,0.13673254469150647,0.10042955223357496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16602498607214308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11091141656701596
EDAnonymous,fatlippieboy,2019/04/05,"I just wanna go back so maybe a year ago if even less, I got really into losing weight, pro ana and I had sever body dysmorphia that i didn’t know it at all at the time. I thought me losing 10kg was definitely barely anything and I needed to lose more, it wasn’t even about looks at the time, just numbers on the scale. 

like fuuuuuck dude, I’ve gained a good 6kg back or more (too afraid to go on the scale) and I’d do anything to get back in that fucking mindset. Not giving a shit about food, fasting and an empty flat stomach felt good. Compliments that kept pooling in. Clothes getting smaller. Now I’m just a slob who knows I should lose weight but I don’t. I keep eating unhealthy asf. I wear a waist trainer to make up for it but Ik it doesn’t do shit. I’m noticeably bigger again and I literally want to die. I’m say 70kg now and fucking hell. 

Sorry this is so necessary but I had a break down about it and I just needed to rant.
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EDAnonymous,hhhera2,2019/04/05,"Today is just hard for some reason I've lurked here and in the deleted subs for a while, but I have never really felt like I was ""sick enough"" to post. Maybe I'm not- I started developing issues with restriction and purging last year and lost 50 pounds in a few months, BUT I am still at an overweight bmi- at the moment I just need to vent somewhere though.   
The restriction, c/s-ing, and purging were like the only things that made me feel that I was actually doing *something* with myself because everyone praised me when the weight loss became noticeable. In all other aspects of life I've felt like a failure and a disappointment. But now I've started a new job, nothing glamorous but I am doing something I can enjoy. This means I've gone from being semi-sedentary to being on my feet for 8 hours a day. I come home ravenously hungry and scare myself with how out of control my eating feels.   
A few minutes ago I stepped on the scale for the first time in about a week and I was \~4-5 lbs. heavier. Instantly I felt my head go light and my heartbeat pick up. Right now I just want to lay on the floor and cry. There was a drawing I saw once of a girl standing on a scale surrounded by a void of black scribbles, and that's exactly how I feel right now.   
I'm upset for several reasons: The weight gain, the fact that I don't feel like I deserve to recover if I am sick because I'm not thin, and the fact that this fucking scale will forever be the only thing in my life that matters. ",4.0661571428571435,5.03990579666667,4.888761904761903,85.45700000000002,71.03333333333333,7.580952380952381,28.619047619047624,7.793537801064563,1.681404761904762,1169,43,238,14,21,379,170,300,0.196,0.753,0.051,-0.9927,1,0,2,0,0,0,34.0,0,0,0,6,14,13,1,2,25,0,18,11,2,7,5,52,40,21,0,3,10,0,11,4,0,1,5,0,1,1,11,16,4,3,10,0,0,4,4,6,0,1,12,14,27,7,33,24,5,45,1,3,2,1,2,18,1,2,25,153,38,1,0.0,0.0,0.1113595851866378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1011558864007234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13912664786391196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09829979723665017,0.0,0.0,0.12798945346840665,0.0,0.0,0.1253497512328329,0.07359460660490458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.116767930915354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11791109495003535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1090415832925273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23079948999258,0.08152363712506812,0.3287043156250108,0.0,0.0,0.09706599201779303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10549729533648064,0.0,0.0,0.06485407157429281,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10222444787853012,0.0,0.11711470865002048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11446645044238705,0.0,0.1123800929835316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11910620500301596,0.11324133246972592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0930187940730676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1612053184116484,0.22300291176828768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12456978624950645,0.0,0.0,0.10797818453493804,0.0,0.0,0.11464365636454643,0.12430447293555592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09108534598635287,0.0,0.0,0.08461467950611762,0.08801237001394174,0.1102127865618309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10949622991009744,0.1299204580663267,0.0,0.12152853949042368,0.0,0.17357889778288316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10929043576963428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.073104864035988,0.2346580438513793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19490683425282526,0.0,0.0,0.11424882397491995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1289172444172816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17570229896399334,0.0,0.0,0.16154208795678346,0.0,0.09113222803383872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15162560720554175,0.0,0.11211721326313978,0.0,0.06654125854952178,0.0,0.10816748890396363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06730786664644818,0.0,0.09153601061307892,0.2779221714918325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07348619088448177
EDAnonymous,vanilla_lilac,2019/04/05,"My willpower is hanging on by a thread today Long time lurker, first time poster. I’m on mobile so I have no idea how formatting will turn out- sorry friends. 


Info: I do IF and I fast from 8:00PM to around 2:00/3:00 PM (sometimes much longer when I’m downing black tea like no ones business) 

I realize this is such a small thing to make my day so hard but damn. 


I broke my fast HOURS too early for an almond milk starbucks frappuccino thing. I hadn’t tried it yet and I bought it Monday and kept it in my fridge this whole time just waiting for today. But now I’m SO hungry. 


I spent a decent amount of time looking at all three of my food delivery apps knowing damn well I wasn’t going to order anything. This just made me hungrier and now I’m trying to talk myself out of eating all the junk food in my house. I know once I start I won’t stop. 


I keep telling myself that if I can wait until dinner I’ll feel better about eating like garbage (we’re having Mexican food tonight) but I seriously just can’t stop thinking about food. Why does food have such a tight hold on me?? ",1.9630043290043275,4.0391085818181836,2.9238961038961047,92.7589393939394,79.0909090909091,5.463203463203462,20.930735930735928,6.42735559955562,0.17280086580086618,848,23,180,7,21,269,141,220,0.119,0.818,0.063,-0.8782,1,0,0,0,0,0,23.0,0,0,0,2,18,9,2,0,6,0,12,10,0,3,2,35,32,15,0,2,8,0,3,2,1,2,0,0,0,0,9,7,10,8,7,0,2,2,6,4,1,3,6,5,25,5,24,24,5,37,0,1,2,0,3,11,2,2,25,109,34,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0906474540823209,0.0980605198145048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09742236655187167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07104029384161119,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09639661172961772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2254303271987565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05569723225639947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09369703722979016,0.6659939888483223,0.0,0.08510479898188619,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06260312425062414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0986764540243263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1084796182192735,0.12710306358897594,0.0,0.12435059218715405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09791004211852336,0.0,0.0,0.1210756458924036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1076314767507588,0.0,0.0,0.0974829288428513,0.0925017168183818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10423049068020304,0.07352872969959066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08097595185722893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11731054154403467,0.07464328175032554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10894524018575424,0.1233085176128764,0.07796765228902316,0.0,0.0,0.1841875514832646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08853770817555233,0.09627955512268807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1463630038492054,0.07058231153691083,0.0,0.0,0.2569270101721623,0.0,0.2088264493918687,0.0,0.0,0.14957483199892202,0.11981604976783206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09904178183271213,0.0,0.09939695889370084,0.1229831398764667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,g-corr,2019/04/05,"Frustrated yet Complacent My history with eating disorders/ disordered behaviors is quite a riveting tale.  There's fifty pounds between my lowest and highest weights and the concept of eating 'normally' or intuitively is unfathomable to me.  I see a nutritionist and therapist who just kind of sigh in my general direction every month or so.  My first year of college was a massive binge phase, partially brought on by medication side effects that increased my appetite.  After going off that med, my appetite went down to normal, (what even is normal, I don't know her?) the bingeing went way down, and I slowly lost weight from a somewhat high BMI within the healthy bracket to a somewhat low BMI within the healthy bracket over the course of 6 ish months.

Subsequently my nutritionist has lost her fucking mind.  I had to go get labs and an EKG done (my EKG was fine even when I was very underweight several years ago, it's still fine) and they ordered a bone density scan and all that. (Of course not to say that these things aren't absolutely necessary for health & recovery etc).

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No one cared when I would binge massively then not eat for a day or two because I was gaining weight.  Now that my disordered behaviors are relatively not as bad, just because my weight has trended downward, everyone has lost their minds.  

WHY DID YOU NOT CARE WHEN I WAS SUFFERING MORE AND SO OPENLY DISTRAUGHT ABOUT MY DESTRUCTIVE BEHAVIOR ",8.981450892857143,9.132343796875002,8.273459821428574,68.31484375000001,60.25,12.314285714285715,41.332589285714285,11.765960540728905,5.1761214285714265,1156,59,189,32,14,363,165,256,0.135,0.799,0.066,-0.9565,1,0,0,0,0,0,32.0,0,1,2,7,14,16,3,1,13,0,18,11,1,1,1,31,32,18,0,4,9,0,4,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,10,10,7,0,2,0,0,6,7,10,1,3,14,7,25,5,27,17,6,36,0,5,2,1,7,13,1,5,15,131,35,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08227585608486132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2011323711446783,0.1127816982996124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.077497551157047,0.1131596436402592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18926436199876576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059858694111584725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3191258119651316,0.0,0.0,0.0949830764724242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2849220689321148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10351446574216944,0.12260829297802832,0.0,0.07820155182369809,0.08868974345893565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07894931154429713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08580697176693734,0.04849257176307312,0.0,0.10549903617523246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09865915440323772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09806528610535127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0966536660022932,0.05100929106511395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30395915168154863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10309774270509674,0.09350243740629173,0.0,0.0,0.18743556693309132,0.0,0.14816982153911268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27282015957255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06289457895176177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0987213276769573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07381107340673157,0.0,0.0,0.0739624000501893,0.0,0.0,0.10485575309493114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0741230426146635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10776662446883406,0.06166288033799312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0906678249621621,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07658298775836117,0.0,0.07367308529486012,0.0,0.45209993007961297,0.0,0.1720828749474677,0.08375207697345945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06593388130378508,0.0,0.1127816982996124,0.1195410268362402
EDAnonymous,atworkkit,2019/04/05,Fasting 3 days And my BF is being so complimentary of my body! He has no idea. The other night we ordered in and I “ordered the wrong thing” and gave it to him for lunch the next day. He’d be so mad if he knew but he didn’t notice and I’m so glad. Thank god for the video games that keep him distracted. ,-1.7004477611940274,0.2310241044776156,0.9364328358208952,100.28226119402989,99.0,3.8740298507462687,14.16268656716418,5.6839178017228535,-1.0887898507462683,233,5,59,2,10,79,51,67,0.119,0.6920000000000001,0.188,0.8109,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,1,0,0,0,3,5,1,1,4,0,6,2,1,0,0,10,11,9,0,1,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,4,5,1,1,2,2,0,0,2,3,0,0,3,0,7,2,5,5,0,8,0,0,0,0,10,1,0,1,5,35,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3387167806344448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3933188764462765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34423728112335245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2710424301223007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32430445370705946,0.2861631540833911,0.0,0.0,0.3471733252707388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28074544833879234,0.0,0.0,0.2025869021446529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.333401248338437,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,tenderistloin,2019/04/05,Yodka and Yoatmeal Been drinking vodka and eating oatmeal for three days and just wanted to say hi and that this was maybe a mildly terrible idea. ,12.82888888888889,9.018269666666667,11.547407407407407,60.36333333333334,56.03703703703704,13.762962962962966,41.81481481481481,11.20814326018867,4.814214814814815,119,4,18,2,1,38,24,27,0.11,0.89,0.0,-0.4767,0,0,2,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,2,2,0,0,0,7,3,4,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,4,2,0,1,2,0,0,0,1,0,1,2,1,0,0,2,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,13,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2704449098438719,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4108016076954651,0.0,0.4290979190716107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4733930967130727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.42129165084245895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3334825356488963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2473424448710745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,primeclone,2019/04/05,"Should I pursue a guy who told me he likes thin people? Sorry for the long post 

The guy I’m seeing told me that he’s attracted to very thin people. He told me he knows that’s messed up and that he’s perpetuating a horrible societal ideal. I told him my goal was to gain weight and he said he would support me in that but I feel like I’ll just be unattractive to him when I do. He comments on certain parts of my body that he likes like my hip bones that I don’t think will be around when I’m at a healthy weight. He told me he knows it’s terrible that he’s attracted to my body. He really does seem to want to be supportive, he’s always checking if I’ve eaten and making me food (even a smoothie made with ensure 🤢) I told him I was going to get fat and he said even if I gained a lot I wouldn’t be fat and could still be thin and attractive, but I just don’t see it. I feel like dating him will seriously mess with my recovery, it’s already sent me into a bit of a downward spiral, but I really like him. I’m just super confused because this is the only bad thing about him and otherwise he’s really great, he’s even in recovery from things himself. I’m just super conflicted and not confident in my ability to stay recovery minded and not start restricting heavily again to look good for him. What would you all do in this situation? ",3.224042553191492,4.077271723404255,4.930985815602835,84.82350000000002,72.90070921985816,8.760567375886525,25.09290780141844,9.120678840339163,1.7392575886524817,1054,31,231,22,20,359,134,282,0.093,0.662,0.246,0.9938,0,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,1,0,6,13,23,0,1,10,0,19,10,6,2,2,46,50,16,0,9,11,0,7,6,0,6,2,2,0,3,16,13,6,2,6,0,1,2,5,6,0,0,13,12,34,17,26,25,4,24,0,0,3,0,40,13,0,5,13,135,50,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10531128486657244,0.0,0.07940684254091405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0849544705876469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07968150666252688,0.058174295600504085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10418673033391816,0.21200627244595568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07619446942746619,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08351294824281863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18909526884298408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09650629812059644,0.1363528910487642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11539642425757453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04985913906095103,0.0,0.054236050225972485,0.08004360568705753,0.0,0.10521381698196032,0.0,0.18898482887502074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1048935638654966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2797387310374472,0.0,0.0,0.08445407618523247,0.080138616393421,0.0,0.0,0.08113264244260597,0.0,0.09029980844051708,0.06370141945430458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09635884071425617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07258012943363959,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10334326162910068,0.0,0.13232068838772884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09139721562169233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18340802580498447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18155485387579215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15209346319686218,0.08687746097177877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10726926066221364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10682800634307804,0.06754706823607866,0.1017175244123031,0.07621190122482993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21658958794880767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12680119918952076,0.06114879791391509,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5471346342286355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07874116998791361,0.05628810570293988,0.0,0.0,0.23242027040160795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13558392294866922,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,bbysylveon,2019/04/05,"I don’t want to recover because I love being underweight. I’m not currently at my lowest weight, in fact I’m about 20 lbs above it. But I’m around a BMI of 17, which as a 5’9 guy means I’m pretty lanky and scrawny. And I absolutely love my body. I think I look amazing, I feel like I’m almost perfect. At my LW, I thought of myself as genuinely perfect - I maintained that weight for almost a year and I felt like so was a constant high because I would wake up every day and look in the mirror and feel elated.

It’s not that I think larger people are unattractive, or that I looked particularly bad at a higher/healthy weight. I just absolutely adore how my body looks when it’s underweight. I love the bones, the bruises, the kids’ clothes, the sunken eyes, every little worrying detail that makes a body look “too thin” is yet another thing I probably love.

I tried to recover a few years ago. Reached a healthy weight, was eating normally, was pretty happy in general. But I was just so normal looking. I looked like everyone else. I didn’t hate myself, but I didn’t love myself.

So I decided to start losing weight again. Now I’m underweight, I’m full of confidence and I’m starting to feel that rush of “damn, I’m so perfectly tiny” that I never felt when I was healthy. No matter how good I feel about myself at a healthy weight, it just doesn’t compare to how this feels.

I’ve had anorexia since I was 12 and I also have NPD if that’s at all relevant. My lowest points mentally have all been at healthy weights, and while I’ve been at dangerously low weights, I’ve always felt like I was on top of the world and like I was perfect in every way when I was at those weights.

TLDR; I don’t hate my body and I never thought I was fat. I just love being skinny so much that i’d rather have a shorter life where I can keep feeling this confidence than a long one where I have to accept being average.",2.439760743675709,4.305129474093268,3.816921670222495,87.91798232246265,76.79792746113989,7.028223102712588,25.08351112465712,7.928766900206844,1.3725381895763484,1491,53,311,24,34,490,178,386,0.086,0.67,0.244,0.9958,3,0,0,0,0,0,41.0,0,0,0,6,26,27,4,0,17,0,29,26,9,4,9,61,72,30,0,6,12,0,19,5,0,1,2,0,0,2,17,11,12,1,16,0,0,1,10,7,0,1,20,27,45,20,32,48,5,45,0,2,8,6,8,25,1,4,23,190,62,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05212769231769813,0.0,0.11777079970296325,0.0,0.0,0.047026885677566486,0.0489310413996492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061662888909358775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05234952787938394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04910029131660328,0.07169480048163439,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2612794404636695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06354805523261338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03792480245929678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06017289741515504,0.04912460469384504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14863897963070818,0.056191352831315496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17840352988091882,0.042010793675817504,0.16938804095416007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04932341922086359,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058226874345398284,0.0,0.06259974600702856,0.0,0.11611688027090165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.062131435689641835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0522691954851043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04153619496175396,0.14364743842683772,0.05893874596605725,0.0,0.05204118141405159,0.34567375829175817,0.06578852048323579,0.0,0.0,0.31844656409754263,0.0,0.03925325189613208,0.0,0.0,0.06405663129903585,0.0,0.0,0.059262300027899124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04322894532201562,0.0,0.09070914026819,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11523417288294803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.039848254592052317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.040768458198007534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0555903807456752,0.0,0.0,0.11965304694108493,0.06340247534085361,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04864467096379417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08324593414179716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03906788463393916,0.07536061796495454,0.0,0.09337029171129664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0399252005424487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0346851170796682,0.046677216197968316,0.0,0.6444853464958743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05972002841212224,0.0,0.0417738719651893,0.0,0.0,0.07573786725274556
EDAnonymous,rambler7m,2019/04/05,"Male ED performance problems I’ve been on a 2 year journey with anorexia/bulimia/EDNOS. When I was in a severe anorexic stage, I had trouble becoming erect and ejaculating. It also seemed like it took months for my testosterone levels to rise after I began eating again. Has anyone else had this problem or similar problems? Any information is appreciated, thanks",6.999523809523812,9.476965777777783,7.492253968253973,63.78885714285718,65.82539682539684,9.484444444444444,36.40952380952381,9.888512548439397,4.3936247619047615,296,15,40,7,5,97,56,63,0.202,0.6709999999999999,0.127,-0.628,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,1,3,6,0,0,2,0,6,1,0,0,0,8,10,4,0,3,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,2,1,0,2,0,0,3,0,4,0,0,6,0,4,2,6,4,0,13,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,2,7,26,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18192292183979814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15470036406849205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1590656425382534,0.2330894289033805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2512437976564603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2327781046014168,0.1900379217412768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11113966547812068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18157960006191665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6530289319158945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20709749945993947,0.0,0.2569978894945586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20944136549178685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2527487198849645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14649549833051198
EDAnonymous,SecretFinn,2019/04/05,"DAE write stories or fanfiction to cope??? Idk if this is weird but I have a word document that's almost 10,000 words now where I write about a character from my movie that is my special interest (asperger's) and I just write about him doing dysfunctional shit, sometimes after I've done the same thing, sometimes when I'm THINKING about it and trying to talk myself out of it, and I'll write a scene where it all goes wrong and his friends find out to try to convince myself that it's a bad idea. And sometimes I'll write his friends being shitty and doing annoying, triggering stuff that people have done to me, but sometimes I write his boyfriend or his sister being supportive and helpful too. Idk I haven't told anyone irl about this because I'm afraid they'll tell me I'm fetishizing my bad behaviors or that I should stop, but I like the idea that someday I could write a happy-ish ending to the story. And I like the idea that this character who's a really good and kind person could fall into this mental hellhole and it doesn't make him worthless human garbage, he's just sick and his friends still love him. Anybody relate?",9.035429864253397,7.098161886877829,8.086013574660637,76.45236877828056,61.352941176470594,11.011945701357467,36.12714932126697,9.3871,3.1303462443438925,911,31,173,12,10,282,118,221,0.14800000000000002,0.6409999999999999,0.211,0.9599,0,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,0,1,0,12,20,2,1,10,0,16,3,1,2,1,46,24,19,0,4,9,1,0,2,3,2,1,0,0,2,19,14,0,1,5,0,0,1,2,8,0,0,3,0,25,12,16,15,2,12,0,1,0,1,29,5,1,5,8,113,44,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12533932066635595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08752152746153521,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20902285366712625,0.07630225497612786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19987555582795669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2561840135324542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11086315484630216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11440278964006495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2901172761271157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10498636119780674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08389857586354985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4239038869924297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13034492563673444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12230313383821928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1129704932891977,0.0,0.08355171127334632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12614156387418587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08677687284184117,0.109293307666974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0801868809651096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12848484382108374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4951839255102039,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0999606417137616,0.10464742954589633,0.0,0.0,0.14328929914090371,0.0,0.14204103199060644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10060662084753416,0.1094037884783674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08315715155607105,0.08020365561368027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11960496165372292,0.0,0.16996394780641488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13685335944012042,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,frida569,2019/04/05,Called a catfish My twitter display picture is a picture of me back in august when I was at my thinnest. I got a message on curious cat saying “you’re such a catfish holy shit..your face is double the size irl” and I have an idea of who it might be (this guy in my uni who is a complete jerk off) and it triggered me so much because I didn’t realize my face was this big now so I deleted twitter and deleted curioiscat and I never wanna show my face in uni again,1.3645464852607674,3.1414479489795966,3.4668707482993177,89.60114512471658,79.71428571428571,5.580045351473924,28.23582766439909,6.42735559955562,1.218581405895692,361,17,77,3,9,123,64,98,0.028,0.946,0.027000000000000003,-0.0258,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,7,1,1,0,7,0,9,3,3,1,1,10,10,7,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,1,6,4,0,0,2,1,0,0,2,1,0,0,4,1,13,0,9,4,2,13,0,0,0,0,6,7,0,1,6,58,19,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24381888008332975,0.0,0.19329214234807754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3237793535199913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3324577091140899,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25360193185208924,0.0,0.0,0.31396411479902003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.357950497846052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3363771972893849,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2330940429879782,0.0,0.24455558750710416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2521588094277544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3254833127697918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,throwawayasdfgh123,2019/04/05,"A ridiculous thought I had earlier I have 2 similar keys on my keychain. One to my friend's apartment and one to my own. I was coming home, feeling around my pocket trying to find my key without looking. I took the slimmer key and it wasn't mine. I then made a note in my mind that my key was the thicker one so next time I'll get it right. And that's when I had the most insane thought I think Ive ever had. ""Of course I have the thicker key, because I AM thicker. I am fatter than my friend. My key is fatter than hers too!"" 

What the fuck brain",0.058205128205127465,2.1193881538461525,1.9388034188034204,97.19230769230772,86.26495726495726,4.283760683760684,21.820512820512814,5.369823440869387,-0.08763589743589728,422,15,97,2,13,139,68,117,0.086,0.87,0.044,-0.6793,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,0,5,4,2,0,7,0,12,2,1,1,1,15,22,6,0,0,1,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,5,5,0,0,5,0,0,2,2,2,0,3,10,2,22,2,10,12,2,12,0,0,1,1,3,5,1,1,5,68,27,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18136578427861644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12419389672443758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22743368289905594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17549815299198876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18428838635988687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10301365146175732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18620849732410896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3148076033539581,0.1883481044485788,0.10644221306654666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20436105868891932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17108461641463532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19277732489812727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2057125022077476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2166726200755073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4141647635986243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17398708023038129,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13054403864373512,0.0,0.3234828826643813,0.11879849502730686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2263551343493061,0.13832150168662544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19639158040282825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Anoniempjuh,2019/04/05,"Lost fat in my face, but my stomach fat remains So I'm not sure if I'm allowed to post this, however I just want to rant I guess.

I don't fucking get how many face looks like that of someone who uses heroin, yet my stomach fat looks like that of a lazy sedentary fuck...

Is there a way to gain more fat in your face?

Thanks for reading this.",1.6222374429223727,2.9509375479452093,2.8947260273972617,95.97898401826487,77.63013698630138,5.414611872146119,24.495433789954337,5.46131890053228,0.2461159817351595,263,9,62,1,6,85,51,73,0.175,0.636,0.19,0.3097,2,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,1,0,2,5,7,2,0,2,0,2,11,9,3,1,10,14,4,0,2,4,0,0,2,0,0,4,0,0,0,5,0,4,0,0,1,0,0,2,3,0,0,1,2,7,4,8,13,1,5,0,1,2,2,2,2,2,2,3,33,12,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4484984570380034,0.12673121522465314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2672148330315912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2370119099358409,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4073902772185908,0.0,0.26479047044885745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2459248060460917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2323120780270004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2426325833146232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20552618216622576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2286164714713824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2233230496116224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20949995555402928,0.0,0.0,0.14307226664517608,0.19253834740678755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,BronArianwyn,2019/04/05,"Why is this disorder so sneaky Im drunk and miserable and couldn't even answer my bf when he asked me what I wanted before we drank...hes a saint and bought me 2$ burgers.  that I had to eat way too quickly and ended up cramping so much I couldn't walk hardly. I hadn't eaten in 24 hours and no one knew that of course so downing shitty food like that made me sick af.  why couldnt I tell him? {its not like the last time I told them they gave a shit i was on a four day fast}

Im now spinning and locked up in my room and I need to go and eat some food and chug water but instead i'd rather say 'im fine i dont need anything' and spiral and cry and here I am.   back on reddit. Trying to work up the courage to go downstairs after I overreacted to my bf saying he didn't care if I hung out later with pals or not.
I need to eat.  Why am I punishing myself by ingesting so much alcohol that i'll be sick tomorrow.  Why can't I stop with this perpetual self hatred.   I just want some one to notice all these destructive habits and help me stop.  Why do I lie about food.  Why do I hide food. Why lie at this low of a point?!

Why cant I just ask for help, god dammit?!",0.29634114583333115,1.890026160156253,2.444218750000001,96.53723958333336,82.3203125,5.672916666666668,17.697916666666664,6.6274283507984215,-0.3350098958333336,891,18,222,9,24,301,150,256,0.2,0.7040000000000001,0.095,-0.984,0,0,1,0,0,0,24.0,1,0,2,1,16,10,3,1,6,0,16,16,1,1,1,41,32,21,0,10,8,0,1,2,3,0,5,2,1,1,10,17,12,2,2,1,1,3,11,5,0,3,10,3,31,5,25,18,5,32,1,2,0,0,19,13,1,4,17,130,41,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09043790437319993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06963879139300001,0.0,0.15822505523897912,0.0,0.0,0.06507105279244238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07200925628477524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08628036521369761,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09295609080404273,0.05457583175850315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09698706195816163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09917933839276034,0.0,0.0,0.25977611321317323,0.0,0.0,0.07495223041281651,0.0,0.0,0.05589371493213977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4093133507425944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09618816003988656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07580697182030638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11344409958655804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08333813210797737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27422709599755474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0689803001864578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0826865578591958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08007379215170174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12441755758775296,0.188244087144198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09634560721930642,0.0,0.0,0.11468756578600107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07999754963056857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1345936721122252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08828185805682304,0.0,0.0868658810222721,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1414998204282949,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0739655837273798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04934525366911525,0.0,0.0,0.08086238080464422,0.0,0.05745451225666271,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09982750029063994,0.06717102616182838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6108839265765558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06160767781586275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,alibunn,2019/04/06,"Eating as self harm Guys this post is probably going to be triggering af but I need help or at least like some opinions or something so don’t say I didn’t warn you.

I just realized today that I’ve been eating as a form of self harm, not necessarily binging or anything extreme but just like... eating a normal meal when I don’t want to just because I feel like shit about myself, and then I won’t purge it because I “don’t deserve it”.

Like I know it’s really the “healthy” thing to do to eat when you’re hungry, but it’s the way I feel about it, it’s like I’m punishing myself mentally.

I don’t know if this even makes any sense but like, if I’m in a decent mood and feeling okay about myself then I might eat, might not, but I feel okay about it, but if I feel bad instead of cutting myself like I did when I was a teenager I just eat. And it’s not even a gross amount of food, like today I had 2 frozen burritos (they’re not that big) and some popcorn, but I’d almost rather go back to the blade because like yeah I know cuts and scars aren’t a cute look but at least it doesn’t make me fat, you know?

For me it’s like ‘I don’t deserve to be happy and have the things I want so eat a meal and keep it down fat bitch’.

Can anyone relate to this at all? Or am I just crazy? What should I do?? This whole mentality I’ve somehow curated is just making me hate food which has never been a problem for me before (I would eat whatever I want then purge ie. bulimia style), so yeah, just, yeah. I don’t know what to do. I’d like to hear your words. Thanks.",0.3399929762949938,2.223357128358209,2.3069754170324863,96.07187664618088,83.68656716417911,5.3740122914837585,18.50965759438104,6.522977012572876,-0.2033792800702368,1198,29,286,12,34,399,151,335,0.1,0.679,0.221,0.9902,1,0,1,0,0,1,36.0,0,3,0,0,23,28,6,0,12,5,30,15,3,4,2,68,56,33,0,12,27,0,5,11,0,5,2,2,0,3,22,7,14,1,11,0,0,2,15,11,0,0,6,8,35,16,25,43,8,20,0,0,1,0,9,6,2,14,21,180,57,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07646672200209667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051929599932323565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05339493044975872,0.0,0.06284041347946162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05871859320395936,0.06376008884712014,0.13965090815173392,0.0,0.06497946544975006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6251090056700457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10087435715008347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19305766168982605,0.1091077818677782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18467738805353545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08679794160446448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07561158156096917,0.0,0.08129005470616453,0.0,0.07539285821120541,0.0,0.0,0.08606688513653539,0.0,0.05118464854303253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06787512779930885,0.0,0.0,0.2098361097726463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4103792670177179,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06412586201426332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1529191025953923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1539123053547267,0.16201859186600226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0566223510133763,0.058896013523141215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0748197302319942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07313484436356787,0.0,0.08233245368736096,0.07306927681956622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.048920226329422965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06072708786342816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1593269599329532,0.0,0.07838573547165263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058788128158525535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07030498205196671,0.0,0.0,0.10146464424282052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14476678422005726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13512299544694845,0.06061355996297954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08525679445802434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0542462318769996,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,cryingtoliability,2019/04/06,"Please talk some sense into me I havent purged in over a month and ive kinda barely been bingeing. Ive also had my mfp at my maintenance, and ate under all week but today....total calories is 3500. While not a """"binge"""" it was a lot of food and I am physically uncomfortable. I'm also very stressed due to exams and am pmsing so this is all the perfect formula for purging. I'm trying to keep my thoughts at bay so I won't ruin my recovery, can anyone help? like what do you do after a binge? I know I really didn't gain weight but it was just so much..and I feel so bad physcially..
Also I saw a picture of my friend who lost weight and she's so small, I just feel a little frazzled right now...",-0.17278911564626045,2.0157204625850333,2.4453401360544227,92.07644557823131,89.27210884353741,5.171428571428573,17.69047619047619,6.691623216298621,0.02223537414966037,536,14,118,7,18,185,99,147,0.13,0.723,0.146,0.3565,0,0,0,0,0,0,24.0,0,1,0,3,11,7,0,1,7,0,16,4,0,0,3,22,26,16,0,0,5,0,4,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,5,6,4,1,4,0,0,0,4,4,0,0,9,5,18,3,12,16,4,15,0,2,1,0,6,9,0,3,7,80,23,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4420983390053521,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12885064298624085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15386345436935386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18635180255968772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22282827222809012,0.0,0.14237182041421964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12351687361031667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1637937119881338,0.0,0.0,0.10127372556979918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09002835011770488,0.18469379320095536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20115992641766092,0.1566655696057986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1470880062332493,0.0,0.13546467195277284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2022806201634999,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11805245487696035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15737140448353673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2110884841935594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14811473429294206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14629521773648205,0.0,0.0,0.17467288628979805,0.0,0.0,0.12511187015652372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1520476823654564,0.0,0.0,0.14781575624294807,0.4487990647680435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,belivets,2019/04/06,"shout out to my fellow babes with physically demanding jobs trying to fast when i spend all day working retail is actually a monumental task. i'm in a supermarket, surrounded by food and picking people's online grocery orders. pushing heavy trolleys, constantly lifting heavy trays and stacks of shopping, pushing people's entire heavy orders up a steep ramp and packing it all into people's cars, all with a smile and like i haven't literally been running around the last two hours without being able to catch my breath. i'm on my feet all day, walking around 20k steps (not including me walking to and from work). all i want to do is fast, but i'm surrounded by people, surrounded by food, doing physically tough work, and it takes all my strength not to binge like crazy when i actually do get chance to sit down for twenty minutes.

this shit is hard. i'd kill to be able to stay at home and literally lock myself away from temptation until i was thin, but i'm not an unemployed student anymore, i'm an adult with a job and i have to work. to anyone else who has to slog through the work day and still manage to keep to their goals... seriously, well fucking done.",7.504267563527655,7.128407076233184,7.637769058295968,73.40251307922274,63.43946188340807,10.482660687593425,34.72683109118087,9.928628108626363,3.3082319880418534,930,36,170,17,12,302,134,223,0.098,0.826,0.076,-0.792,4,0,0,0,0,0,25.0,0,0,1,7,8,9,3,0,9,0,14,6,3,1,6,31,24,14,1,1,6,0,2,2,1,0,0,1,1,2,4,16,2,1,0,1,3,8,5,5,1,1,3,3,13,4,37,19,6,38,0,0,0,1,5,14,2,0,14,102,17,11,0.2458091160699556,0.0,0.23987423889299644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12188829613078105,0.08593772465136852,0.12593024389554264,0.0,0.2188222278612013,0.0,0.0,0.11547287804451033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13281616459165266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2377898168764808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12577403442090435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10267098746979668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2972333588637604,0.0,0.0,0.1136232834456736,0.06421255887471328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11009834308390326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.123283292734217,0.0,0.12103623242655287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2439276187306028,0.10924321830481587,0.13597568364047638,0.0,0.0,0.10018361865135077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12008991781373553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3408261816576004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12615976263694773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13099990589349164,0.09815173880902307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0924089319813315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08344412723867607,0.0,0.12005989446941374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07249229267632623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11050595791748696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11847560808633732,0.0,0.4473799101784264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,aceshighsays,2019/04/06,"I binge on a lot of things... I think it's a personality trait... I decided to temporarily stop smoking weed cus it was time to do so. I've done this several times. The only way I was able to stop was by smoking my entire stash. Anyway, I've been good. I relapsed twice. Which from a comparison stance it's ok. My goal has never been to quit forever, it was just not smoke daily. But I just realized that I binged on it. I guess I just get fixated on something and lose sight of everything else. In the same way when I work out. I either go 5 times a week for months or I don't go at all for months. It's like I become obsessed with it. I like to binge on tv too. I'll find an interesting series and that is the only thing that I watch for weeeks.",-0.009937106918236792,2.076324515723272,2.5493396226415084,92.51822327044027,86.86163522012579,6.049056603773584,18.26729559748428,7.3871296695380915,0.2660842767295604,574,15,135,10,18,198,98,159,0.061,0.851,0.08900000000000001,0.6124,0,0,2,0,0,0,22.0,0,0,0,4,7,7,0,1,8,1,11,0,0,0,2,22,16,6,0,0,7,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,14,4,0,2,4,1,0,2,3,2,0,1,7,2,17,5,20,9,4,21,0,1,2,0,1,7,0,3,12,88,31,2,0.17417192560669928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1923592078393761,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1782383510966111,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14549829459104818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15653449606470632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15918998461404346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09099764244837412,0.0,0.19797183823177586,0.14608714766785974,0.0,0.0,0.19187001237229934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17018321017529667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19485383330073625,0.0,0.14807474270381474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2780447386443403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13433212638650951,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26493119582290164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1520802073154204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1852532821288181,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1967646998679796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13408605760242934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2912310574195361,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2314241762531747,0.11160233717465627,0.0,0.0,0.30468315142436786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27649913502155715,0.13971021283309598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12679923621929934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ohwhoaohno,2019/04/06,"Tell me why my psycho ass is happy that my ED is back in full swing? I ate all winter and gained. I started get back on track this week and look decent already in my super tiny black dress.

I have a pounding headache everyday and watch food videos at night for 2+ hours but At least I’m looking good!

Right???

Yeah, I need therapy. ",1.2281722689075636,3.3758246323529413,2.2544537815126056,96.20147058823532,82.08823529411767,5.0621848739495805,20.00840336134453,6.18269132825596,-0.0875361344537815,257,7,57,2,7,81,56,68,0.031,0.767,0.202,0.9053,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,2,2,3,0,0,1,1,3,3,1,0,1,6,10,4,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,3,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,4,8,3,6,9,3,15,0,0,4,1,1,7,1,0,8,29,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2665848604300017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3715136986544728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2921143702102095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12621336492631366,0.0,0.0,0.20262228760605974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2571618906366717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23790346375021096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4057255951887983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17912536646120486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2267024877620087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20630438072395266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17098856766381135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2111478637924198,0.0,0.2762629372809672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19377750457920292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2179845504180382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,annashae,2019/04/06,What are your ED stories? How did it develop? I’m working on a book to bring the issue of EDs to light but I don’t want to only rely on my own personal experience. Please PM me if you want to share but not with all of Reddit. ,-0.03920000000000101,1.7023494800000023,3.1780000000000013,90.089,84.2,6.4,20.0,7.554174236665415,0.5736000000000008,174,5,41,3,5,63,42,50,0.0,0.823,0.177,0.7912,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,2,0,1,1,1,0,0,2,0,3,0,0,1,1,9,7,4,0,3,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,2,0,0,0,1,1,5,1,9,6,2,3,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,1,0,28,7,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.383277165180998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4089604382001031,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2979983372729461,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34212391463642505,0.0,0.4301029663676269,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4622136124200841,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2852511305319399,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,cookiesncloudberries,2019/04/06,"starvation mode here’s the stitch—if you are ever deprived of food for a significant time and refeed, your body remembers what to do when it’s being starved again and can catch on the second restriction starts 

basically what i’m saying is if i was ever deprived of food unrelated to my ed, i would be better equipped to survive than some civilian because my
body can switch to energy saving mode real quick",18.066883116883112,8.706418350649352,15.822402597402599,50.196461038961075,53.805194805194795,19.03636363636364,55.383116883116884,13.816669648895859,7.090381818181817,331,13,57,7,2,107,59,77,0.146,0.7709999999999999,0.083,-0.7269,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,2,0,2,6,4,0,0,3,0,9,4,2,0,2,11,11,4,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,3,2,2,1,1,0,0,1,0,2,0,1,1,1,6,2,9,7,1,9,0,2,0,0,3,1,0,2,7,41,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13710790766062309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19892166780521053,0.0,0.4996663238624778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4069023635842605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5439434072438177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2560058920924935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25478821628767345,0.0,0.0,0.17886379828402305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1591980976969119,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13115147777805375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1597752735638633,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,yoonboomboom,2019/04/06,"Scared of relapse Just... Ugh I was doing so well, eating pretty much like a normal person, being active but not excessively so, and I even lost a little weight completely normally, and yet one little thing threatens to take it away. I felt like I ate too much yesterday and was practically kicking myself, I'm so mad about it. I ended up scrolling through what remains of the toxic ed community on tumblr and now I'm debating on whether or not I wanna start restricting again and it SUCKS, man. I keep having thoughts too like ""I'd be the skinny friend"" or ""my boyfriend deserves a skinny girlfriend he can easily pick up"" or ""I want people to feel bad for me"" and it's just,, idk man I don't know who to go to with this but yeah. I'm gonna try and convince myself to eat at least something today even though I really don't want to. Vent over.",2.7296428571428564,4.726887440476194,4.1601428571428585,85.18485714285717,76.38095238095238,6.860952380952381,23.7,7.793537801064563,1.240318571428571,662,21,130,10,15,219,113,168,0.14300000000000002,0.682,0.175,0.2562,0,0,1,0,0,0,23.0,0,0,0,1,15,12,2,1,5,1,9,6,2,1,0,30,26,17,0,5,10,0,3,3,2,1,0,0,0,3,8,8,6,2,4,0,0,1,4,6,1,1,6,3,14,6,20,17,3,17,0,1,0,0,7,9,1,3,10,89,22,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15076702994371596,0.0,0.13398590943429964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16824994569842694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3284021404875083,0.0,0.0,0.14212896211332834,0.0,0.0,0.21197809986999014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08113855185112097,0.0,0.15407655165895798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12397887408808544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09119890948383368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14263328189465774,0.0,0.0,0.0881902221543514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23519289388434805,0.3216665835344639,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17517217323164072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2359281135628329,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3144534388212508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1087387566900284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11124982767764467,0.14011638407886975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16325587772597436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10280131557212467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16065865879195246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1235377954718138,0.0,0.0,0.11358162949355917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12065361538599467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10660926670678583,0.0,0.15766115119313168,0.12739540961596668,0.0,0.0,0.15210698095254835,0.0,0.0,0.10894872842063724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.189298956529124,0.0,0.0,0.195409465791204,0.14428197641252807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,fatnewlife,2019/04/06,I ate a donut. Well Saturday is completely ruined. Might as well go on a 6000 calorie bender,0.6716666666666669,3.1140450555555566,3.1388888888888893,83.245,98.44444444444444,6.844444444444445,22.66666666666667,7.793537801064563,2.0782000000000003,73,3,13,2,3,25,16,18,0.173,0.612,0.214,-0.0498,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,2,0,2,1,0,0,0,1,4,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,2,0,1,0,1,2,2,2,0,3,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,9,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4360594108061077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2363634803601121,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4412003043920469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7478815325998166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,hellbelles,2019/04/06,Purged for the first time in 5 years last night I had saved up calories so I could go out last night and have a burger I’d been craving and drinks with my friends. Some guy at the bar was too drunk and is falling into my friend so I tell him multiple times to leave us alone. He called me fat. I went home and made myself throw it all up. ,1.6222374429223727,2.9509375479452093,2.2481506849315096,100.61460045662102,77.63013698630138,5.414611872146119,19.015981735159816,5.46131890053228,-0.6437470319634704,263,5,66,1,6,81,60,73,0.096,0.784,0.121,0.5994,0,1,1,0,0,0,4.0,1,0,0,1,3,3,0,0,3,0,6,4,1,1,1,12,9,6,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,1,1,1,7,4,0,0,3,0,4,0,0,0,1,5,0,10,3,9,3,2,18,0,0,0,0,8,6,0,1,8,39,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21993831256586294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21684073692267264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16955017345305512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20802949163758166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1806311697138056,0.0,0.0,0.3281337349153409,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12068765347826432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21026729864074112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21301187374261416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3461993892918919,0.0,0.22485591642681704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20093778851550512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3985662315758763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1856098034208346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24765471647012316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2554399096260591,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1968575177000447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1367512590284218
EDAnonymous,nekkedpebbl,2019/04/06,"My fat if it’s getting more squishy and grabbable and less firm and “chubby” feeling am i losing or gaining fat?? 

bc it’s gross and i hate it 👌",-2.6276612903225818,-2.3825710645161244,0.005120967741936155,101.92768145161293,130.61290322580643,1.55,20.00403225806452,3.1291,-0.7722612903225801,111,5,25,0,8,37,23,31,0.278,0.599,0.123,-0.755,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,2,0,3,1,0,0,0,1,2,2,0,0,7,4,6,0,1,2,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,3,4,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,4,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,15,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3046317430889429,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3147706779110188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5948237850885397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6740204641722479,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,carlsolomonsblues,2019/04/06,"Been so depressed for so long that the idea of food was a completely foreign concept and made me want to hurl... Now it's 2am and I'm sitting in my kitchen, halfway through a pack of frozen burritos and a million packs of TB hot sauce, binge eating and crying because in two hours it'll be exactly 2 weeks since the most important person in my life passed and I have no idea what to do or have any control what so ever as to how to handle my emotions BECAUSE THEY ALL DECIDED TO COME BACK IN ONE QUICK FLASH. 

FUUUUUUUUCK MY LIFE. 

Off to the bathroom to purge I gooooooo 🙃",5.123040293040294,5.14433866666667,6.056776556776558,81.40846153846154,68.31623931623932,8.736996336996338,33.808302808302805,8.418075326091056,2.4739020757020764,452,20,95,6,7,150,84,117,0.079,0.892,0.03,-0.7579,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,1,1,8,1,0,0,6,0,7,5,0,3,3,18,11,11,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,1,2,0,1,1,5,6,3,1,3,0,0,2,1,1,0,3,3,1,8,0,18,6,2,15,0,1,0,0,2,5,0,2,7,63,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13395057043839673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15146253900012646,0.0,0.24014972621322744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16967755462841588,0.2065257978191672,0.0,0.2209255572568944,0.0,0.0,0.21636910614641008,0.0,0.0,0.1696553122211,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20155582751649886,0.0,0.22157171245815308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1781762497830375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23818440262473775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19398187892955465,0.0,0.0,0.4447243070068482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2782602303373355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17431773830793826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1863836428980255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13347617074138754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17199201990408716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16294074793722607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19241712540410916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11618166609571365,0.0,0.1580024260261357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Comfortable_List,2019/04/06,"I'm triggering my roommate? I live in a dorm and my roommate apparently reported me for ""triggering"" her ED.

She's fatter than I.

I told the superintendent that that's her problem not mine and I want to move to a different room if she's going to give me trouble over something so trivial as eating and that I have no reason to change my eating habit for her and I might mention that she has been stealing my food and it's annoying because I'm on my own unlike her. 

They say they'll arrange for me to move to a new room but it's not going to happen very soon.

The thing is, I'm triggered. I want to make sure that my eating habit is triggering to everyone. ",2.7606417112299435,4.287890411764707,4.589171122994654,84.1814973262032,75.02941176470588,7.592513368983957,27.06951871657754,8.296473431620573,1.8073470588235288,520,20,107,9,11,177,75,136,0.105,0.871,0.024,-0.6416,2,0,1,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,2,0,2,5,1,0,5,0,7,4,0,6,1,20,18,9,0,4,4,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,3,0,8,5,4,0,1,0,0,4,3,4,0,0,2,1,26,1,17,14,1,11,0,0,0,0,13,5,0,2,2,75,34,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10661823153188836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18502242323455734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1827346710939915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5369031951094132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16712572253531574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21149139069832568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16778129943180792,0.19880092060170146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15466467450318205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15444108472692278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11674800043870462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18554267890550924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3717848831567632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16892080095134515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16735695836689254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1798277039969997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13908856304132647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1346475939674191,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16484244005261736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11619667650597452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16712572253531574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14431192000183682,0.2063226799526713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,whyisithowisit,2019/04/07,"i feel terrible about this but.. does anybody else watch body positive youtubers to fuel their self hate and as motivation for restriction? like sierra shultzzie and carrie dayton... they seem like such lovely people and i feel so terrible for thinking this, but looking at them feel confident and flaunt their larger bodies motivates me to ... not look like them and makes me lose motivation to recover. i feel like such a terrible judgy person for thinking this, i’m just trying to see if anybody else relates to this f’ed up way of thinking. positive, encouraging, women living their lives, and i’m just sitting there, miserable, using them and their bodies as fuel for my disorder. it makes me feel so mean but i can’t help it :(((",7.718797709923661,8.559920374045808,7.550448473282444,70.09529103053438,62.81679389312978,10.824809160305342,34.6956106870229,10.686352973137794,3.985571755725191,583,24,93,14,8,186,77,131,0.142,0.635,0.223,0.9231,0,0,0,0,0,0,23.0,0,0,8,4,8,12,1,1,1,0,1,4,3,6,0,31,21,15,0,1,7,0,5,4,0,0,0,0,0,3,6,7,0,1,13,0,0,0,2,6,0,0,0,9,16,6,15,21,0,4,0,2,4,1,14,2,0,2,4,58,22,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4788805250942967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1647014575092697,0.0,0.12575956376287148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2400986616637049,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3633146178939825,0.10266479903356472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14188158725835634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09632423217332302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28083326416690324,0.0,0.2537930377878652,0.0,0.24135652375470684,0.16077214075617022,0.0,0.0,0.12970179663146295,0.0,0.1918519915823453,0.0,0.0,0.15653979855344152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09962881444479824,0.12548000766813722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1145164192216535,0.13082607933885634,0.14991845716346744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27624624607619064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0975680850425043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12411729937323762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11406847148353515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,omgitsjesiz,2019/04/07,I think I saw someone I know on this sub Context: I talked to my friend a few hours ago and she told me about something that was gonna happen at a certain time. Looking through EdAnon as usual and I saw a post about this exact event. I look through this persons post history and guess what she matches every description and even the type style is exactly the same. So I made a new acc and commented on her posts on this sub giving her advice to talk to someone (like me) and I made another account to get advice bc if I tell her I saw her account directly she’ll wonder why I’m on here especially since I am super disordered when visiting her ;-;,4.26991452991453,5.217953615384619,5.2925641025641035,82.84465811965815,70.53846153846153,8.547008547008549,30.5982905982906,8.841846274778883,2.4091880341880336,510,21,102,9,9,168,84,130,0.0,0.902,0.098,0.8971,0,0,1,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,1,6,4,0,0,6,0,4,0,0,2,3,17,21,10,0,1,1,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,0,1,6,6,0,0,3,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,7,5,22,4,14,12,2,16,0,0,5,0,17,5,0,3,8,64,28,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30093457401330154,0.1364938098391258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16146125521208987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17647420100253058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10170221145545816,0.0,0.12973462995923052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11896441827008887,0.0,0.08044809478508655,0.1477114633368443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16962611916566475,0.0,0.13616383634379364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15163909473969814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08462327596432469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07522675673042774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2586085170737664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2913988362140529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14871465879125673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13444922971479853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4424102784710207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12737368897423246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2609331845262553,0.11854117954186125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24752627522951545,0.13458513977468406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09866404400924512,0.0,0.0,0.0897868647498657,0.0,0.0,0.14713430591203822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16958700522500755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13894282736184874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16698453424104492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,riskyclickyhoe,2019/04/07,"The fact that fasting for weight loss is trending and “ok” is... interesting to say the least. How do you feel? Fasting for religion, or for a doctor’s appointment, typically for a short period, has always been excusable by society, but lately it seems that extended-fasts with nothing but water and some electrolytes (salt basically lol) for weeks on end is seen as acceptable.

It sort of feels invalidating in a way, like all those times not eating for a few days weren’t really disordered... as long as you sipped some diet gatorade.

But part of me is glad because people will get off my back more...

So what makes an ED an “ed”? Hating yourself? As if these people don’t dislike themselves enough to fast for weeks on end?

Anyway, I dunno. What do you think?",4.854622823984529,6.703105680851067,5.477176015473892,78.62454545454548,70.20567375886526,8.815215989684074,27.711798839458407,9.339509955726095,2.4792638297872336,595,21,108,13,11,192,104,141,0.064,0.8370000000000001,0.099,0.6261,1,0,0,0,0,0,27.0,0,3,0,1,4,7,1,0,8,2,11,5,0,2,2,22,19,13,0,1,6,0,3,1,0,1,1,1,0,0,8,3,4,0,5,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,3,6,6,5,21,15,8,19,0,1,1,0,5,5,0,7,14,74,14,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16312229693180338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15074387207002482,0.0,0.11950512597015164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12643059928599332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.224680631907138,0.2006568614269604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2005994754788161,0.0,0.0,0.3472692986465681,0.2025633546359244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.198249023813104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10242363285599684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1935504710357593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22114343823886676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09577601225844157,0.0,0.0,0.17349062690019984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13085927517957213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18810718075321486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21229392417507845,0.0,0.27182109161792234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12558925439211546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1559001308541654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17846888922724474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1256155269641537,0.0,0.0,0.11431342028669267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15560867912877813,0.31450545663462665,0.238725827323298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ipromiseimnotracist1,2019/04/07,"Does anyone know a good/big ED forum? I would really like to join a nice ED forum right now, I feel like it would help me. ",-0.706666666666667,1.164540555555554,1.905185185185185,97.43333333333337,87.88888888888891,5.0814814814814815,9.0,6.42735559955562,-1.4390888888888893,93,0,23,1,3,32,21,27,0.0,0.556,0.444,0.9109,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,4,4,0,0,2,0,0,1,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,3,1,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,3,10,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2538269558369324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3176749045382369,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18355015412496464,0.25933638171583506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3044778723605755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24331979489112585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19950231424450093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3546993871321036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23255526364502055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3100109057283027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5157476856691136,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,nothinginlifematters,2019/04/07,"Why did I play myself? TW mentions of cals My father is in town today and we were going to eat dinner at a restaurant, and so I wanted to budget a little bit for that. So, I woke up to find that sOmEonE (family member) got a damn sausage biscuit for me. And I ate 2/3 of that bitch, (247) cal, and was NOT in the mood to purge through vomiting, so I hauled my ass to the gym. After logging it, I had burned 354 calories. Alright, and I went home, and a few hours later, around maybe fiveish, I ate a yogurt cup with m&ms, (130 cal) and that was good, but I panicked and went to the gym a second time, this time burning 239 calories. My budget is usually 5-7 hundred. So,  now can budget around -216 PLUS the original 5-7 hundred, so I can eat with my father in peace, but I know I won’t be able too.",1.256247504990018,2.9133298742514984,3.1663712574850313,92.19095409181641,79.59880239520956,5.411417165668663,22.51057884231537,6.079149491110277,0.3017627944111778,607,19,134,4,15,204,103,167,0.066,0.8540000000000001,0.08,0.3,0,0,0,0,0,0,36.0,1,0,0,0,9,6,2,0,10,1,11,7,1,1,0,21,20,16,0,1,3,2,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,6,14,5,0,2,3,3,3,2,2,0,1,11,0,19,3,22,7,2,21,0,0,0,1,4,9,3,0,9,88,25,0,0.19175895237551133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20777074478282248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34141224574598394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2093511108608244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3924345619101801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18077327418991265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1752642084648836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10898103172179474,0.16083831131070594,0.15336715172837292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19234986430193227,0.0,0.18884394119044248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10538570529573267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19219284716460813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1926476418162094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1624767380664499,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2236323744296128,0.0,0.18176506506620646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21119539454089425,0.0,0.11310439841421607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3555249400056672,0.17303262832184196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,sweatherwetter,2019/04/07,"Just ate a big meal I’ve been really good all week (less than 1000 cal/day) but today i just had a huge meal and i feel absolutely disgusting. It’s too late to purge it, how do y’all recover/counteract the extra calories???",2.1360869565217366,3.8675645652173967,4.286304347826088,84.81467391304348,77.26086956521739,8.947826086956523,22.369565217391305,9.516144504307137,1.8595391304347828,174,5,38,5,4,60,39,46,0.113,0.762,0.125,-0.368,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,1,0,0,4,2,1,0,3,0,3,3,0,1,1,7,5,3,0,0,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,3,1,3,1,2,2,3,5,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,3,22,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3006981604460736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2357543075311298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3910755090298023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5259598977516993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2986971348769589,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.44195854063204304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3740044451041439,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,sweetlycreeply,2019/04/07,"I’d rather be thin and miserable I stopped taking my depression and anxiety meds a couple months ago and I’m finally back to the weight I was before I started taking them. I tried several different pills, but they all made me gain. At this point, I guess it’s either be fat and happy or be “thin” and depressed. Great.",2.585238095238097,4.8074328412698435,4.051031746031747,84.72035714285717,77.73015873015873,8.009523809523811,24.785714285714285,8.841846274778883,2.032980952380953,251,9,49,6,6,83,49,63,0.16,0.63,0.21,0.8225,1,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,2,1,2,5,0,1,2,0,4,3,1,1,1,13,10,7,0,1,4,0,3,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,5,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,2,3,9,2,2,5,2,10,0,3,0,0,2,4,0,2,6,30,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18454264293513128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15926026615289834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16008072193756082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1771493350356933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23035174616988596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35861731937391206,0.0,0.0,0.21750807405987949,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22805550484386586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2295237044519034,0.2293382562810424,0.0,0.0,0.22161584489100425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1969888284550911,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23124560259599,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16617056188301274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19680126490261152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2351887749807639,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14735377701455776,0.0,0.0,0.17405122889626504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31305706771175074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1413433378733535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2535121478457372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Yatessc,2019/04/07,"I found Reign energy drink in the wild I found Reign energy drink at 7 eleven. I ended up getting the lemon HDZ one, it's pretty good. Not as sweet as bang but I like it.

https://imgur.com/a/Dg6v55C

This is the 7-Eleven I found it at
5511 Westminster Blvd, Westminster, CA 92683
(714) 894-5452
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EDAnonymous,Liza_8989,2019/04/07,Sundays are the most triggering day of week for me My brain is telling me that I can binge today and start fresh on monday. :(,9.5332,6.064720720000004,8.32,79.94000000000003,61.8,11.6,37.0,8.841846274778883,2.8886,98,3,21,1,1,30,24,25,0.103,0.816,0.08199999999999999,-0.1531,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,3,1,1,1,0,3,4,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,3,4,1,7,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,6,14,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5280675027641267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3050707530401027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3348191443241041,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4134565722536484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4483852664848677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37944301867030855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,elk-ears,2019/04/07,"Prom Shopping Yesterday I went dress shopping and ended up at this boujee boutique type formal store and one of the employees asked me what size I was looking for and I just shrugged because I honestly don’t know how dress sizes work and she said “oh but you’re so tiny, I’ll pull some zeroes and double zeroes” and this somehow triggered me beyond belief and gave me a sick sense of satisfaction  because I for some reason felt my disorder wasn’t valid enough to be that small and when I look at myself I don’t see that but also because she was thin and pretty and she was saying that I looked small which is kinda fucked. I ended up hated all the things she pulled for me and freaked out in the dressing room. ",4.019516441005802,5.660578907801424,4.3055448098001285,87.02454545454546,71.97872340425532,6.545712443584787,24.8749194068343,6.980632752743323,0.9670652482269504,570,17,110,5,11,178,91,141,0.14800000000000002,0.785,0.067,-0.9338,1,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,1,7,4,2,0,4,0,8,2,0,3,1,26,20,17,0,0,3,0,2,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,8,12,0,0,4,2,3,3,3,3,0,3,8,8,19,1,13,11,5,18,1,0,4,1,8,11,1,4,4,79,27,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15584463419100214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1821855212094488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3563892163005992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22334817209237828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3452098314756836,0.2013620604802855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18711436304633192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18016245861386251,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19240262743841013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1071003800880208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4909477355428124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13205502704617272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19826196293567888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20036802829373085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1853745181339813,0.15497557114594449,0.0,0.0,0.15529330034180955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1294689219085789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1806547486612474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14187420413833027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,saltyhoez,2019/04/07,Under 30 BMI woooo lol im so sad that im proud of going from obese to overweight as if im not still huge but healthy bmi here i come 😎,-3.1436363636363645,-1.5751083939393915,-0.143272727272727,107.84509090909091,102.63636363636364,2.64,12.66060606060606,3.1291,-1.9581466666666667,105,2,30,0,5,36,27,33,0.155,0.63,0.215,0.4718,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,1,3,2,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,4,2,4,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,0,0,2,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,5,2,0,5,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,1,1,13,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2465837808323513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16268560689562225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.9276152391538952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22860402539957195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,randomboy82,2019/04/07,"Focusing on Specific Body Parts but Not Realizing How Skinny You Are? Sometimes I focus so much on one specific body part (e.g. legs/thighs/etc.) that I don't realize how skinny I am overall.

Some days I'll get a glimpse of it, but it's rare. When I do realize it, it's a bit of a shock to say the least.",2.0984615384615397,3.1811742307692303,4.547692307692311,85.61230769230772,75.92307692307692,8.892307692307693,26.84615384615385,9.3871,2.1639846153846145,235,9,54,6,5,83,46,65,0.063,0.938,0.0,-0.5267,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,1,0,0,4,1,0,0,4,0,4,4,4,2,0,9,5,6,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,5,0,2,0,3,0,0,0,2,1,0,1,0,1,5,0,5,5,6,4,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,1,2,36,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2785566991052165,0.5668261903687069,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16455004083245545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28455865630598953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13330485708240936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18756392272619246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17289561171114065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5526031528565479,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.202904779718782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2523489522866667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,StockPersonalities,2019/04/07,"My favourite singer has a Russels Sign I didn't know where else I could talk about this. My favourite singer was previously extremely thin and over last summer gained weight. Now she has started losing weight again although so far not to an unhealthy point,  which made me happy because she has talked about having health issues and body issues in the past. However, I was looking at a picture of her with a fan the other day and noticed extremely prominent scarring on her middle finger. And being the neurotic weirdo I am, I looked at more pictures and lo and behold, that knuckle and sometimes the finger next to it are always very cut up/red. It just makes me feel so bad if it's true because I've been there. But it's not as if I can talk about how this makes me feel to anyone... but it does make me feel bad. I guess this is what it takes to be skinny even in Hollywood.",4.740968992248064,5.859482244186047,4.75,86.53666666666668,69.58139534883722,7.36124031007752,27.124031007751928,7.492282038375204,1.3633937984496125,694,22,137,7,12,215,114,172,0.093,0.841,0.066,-0.7714,1,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,0,2,12,6,1,0,8,0,15,7,4,5,1,28,28,16,0,3,7,0,8,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,13,8,3,0,4,0,0,0,3,4,0,0,5,10,17,2,16,20,1,19,0,1,2,0,7,11,0,3,8,93,30,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11957100090941908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10047929660034513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2399691815148002,0.1751979685772963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15961975935749195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1147338022980833,0.0,0.0,0.09267545630824496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1257539840492364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12004400447043642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0949133594339028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21797909898753806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15830319309034768,0.0,0.0,0.15297271573683446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15274777188191468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2999736640228809,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07897448141129128,0.11713574653974315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2413458152229164,0.16076500760081344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13597365329818026,0.2877652192093165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15282797256847686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16360489294701416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13717915975413553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13584418554279404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14212426921173793,0.0,0.10171252626400908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10804550065458901,0.3465050070295196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11856862969186086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.349978962445699,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,mild-rose,2019/04/07,"Does anyone else struggle with sensory processing issues? Do you think it affects your ED in any way? Touching slimy food makes me actually want to vomit, I can’t eat any squishy fruit, loud restaurants make me panic, can’t eat any trace of the white stuff on oranges, earlier I smelled the fridge getting milk for my tea and puked in my mouth. Too much dressing on a salad and it feels like rotting leaves in my mouth, fried breaded food often feels... bad and inedible (I don’t know how to explain that one) and so on and so forth.

I’ve had sensory issues for years and years, far before my ED started. I have very severe adhd, and my therapist has mentioned a there’s moderate possibility that I might be mildly on the autism spectrum as well. 

While these behaviors started way before my ED, I think they definitely play into my ED behaviors. Like oh god, this lettuce made my lose my appetite, better ride that as long as humanely possible. 

Does anyone else struggle with this? How do you explain to people that your issue with a food isn’t from a place of an ED, but rather from a legitimate sensory processing issue?",6.519176342525397,7.096896948113213,6.7445283018867945,75.75344702467345,65.36792452830188,9.730624092888245,33.76052249637155,9.661875296680813,3.2144291727140786,891,37,159,17,13,287,128,212,0.069,0.868,0.064,-0.4778,0,0,0,0,0,0,26.0,0,4,1,2,9,10,0,3,9,0,11,13,2,6,0,29,25,16,0,2,2,0,3,2,0,1,1,1,0,1,10,11,10,0,7,1,0,1,4,5,1,1,2,7,22,5,23,21,1,19,0,1,1,0,9,10,0,2,8,95,32,0,0.0,0.0,0.10025564022394083,0.0,0.12346886016682065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2095922682809387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1436709776601733,0.2105306060970811,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0857803748708381,0.0,0.0,0.17484175464532756,0.0,0.0,0.09086175569233934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1798101543731704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2102494123325525,0.17164570282681074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10389294551422956,0.07339470975632416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3726867982112692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05367538615327177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.42891930020063096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05646108869419787,0.0,0.0,0.10878272471533852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10038336463656007,0.0,0.0,0.0909182396013422,0.0,0.11493544738585845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09721140755531477,0.13715432524983984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10898679563978313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07552287441804925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06961665858179908,0.0,0.0,0.12053870946338435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07122429487396183,0.0,0.10733738659107224,0.0,0.0,0.2316390939267444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1160625809920104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14543431913899413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21480421298240648,0.11760828617200622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1192845619956189,0.0,0.1316583239363767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08476806428797289,0.06059642958832606,0.16309431150095555,0.0,0.0,0.0923721164115467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13231739508358856
EDAnonymous,zerocaloriewater,2019/04/07,On global warming... Yeah the planet’s dying and all but I’m far more upset at the fact that I have no summer body to embrace this with. People’s last memory of me will be how gross i am send post,-0.3711627906976744,1.6801449069767465,2.3081860465116293,93.83158139534883,88.30232558139534,4.370232558139535,13.251162790697672,5.6839178017228535,-0.9694055813953488,153,2,34,1,5,53,39,43,0.223,0.6829999999999999,0.094,-0.8042,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,1,2,1,4,1,1,1,2,6,5,3,1,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,0,1,3,1,5,3,2,8,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,0,2,22,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5311585209040508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4962831364602858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3897866412496975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3315150081087736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4579714487149627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,intertropical,2019/04/07,"Restriction as a form of self harm? TW: self harm

Just to clarify, I currently don't have an ED; I'm just concerned that I might be developing one. I hope this isn't the wrong sub and I'll be happy to delete this post if it is! 

I'm bipolar, and am now in a very weird and sometimes acutely distressing mixed hypomanic episode. I have a ton of restless energy and am... obsessed with self harm for some reason. I guess it's like a way to expend all the energy, feel like I have a sense of control, and punish myself for something. 

As such, I've started fasting, planning and reducing intake, and drastically increasing exercise so as to induce hunger, as part of the self harm. 

However, it seem to be related to body image (thinspo doesn't appeal to me; I've also seem to have lost all interest in my appearance after a recent depressive episode). Still, I'm getting increasingly obsessed and distressed about weight :/

Just wanna ask — should I be worried about possibly developing an ED? Especially since it's not really motivated by aesthetic purposes? 

Thank you so much for reading, and thanks in advance for any responses! ",5.161214285714284,6.948293442857143,6.385892857142861,72.65598214285714,69.33333333333333,10.202380952380953,33.601190476190474,10.411451182825502,3.9885476190476186,893,43,153,26,16,300,128,210,0.205,0.6809999999999999,0.115,-0.9587,2,0,1,0,0,0,32.0,0,1,0,5,11,21,1,5,11,0,16,5,1,4,2,32,31,17,0,4,5,0,2,2,0,2,2,0,0,4,7,10,2,2,6,2,0,4,4,14,0,1,1,2,11,7,29,24,9,16,0,2,0,0,6,3,0,8,9,102,18,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10965120369420464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09324323158672428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1281844691026616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15230439319234215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15378667542296495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11809736618199194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06932970899832026,0.09795532977212974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07163718159995991,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1510481650961337,0.0,0.0,0.1459619832724029,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13618661469686744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13397539985179802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14967774895757166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14545786124295926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1007956580729132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09291300110940624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14848270828354815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1545771071855519,0.13131873226326374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13715259024515233,0.0,0.087839690636054,0.1409775549751365,0.13538499955170807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2496495754156744,0.5721654178887631,0.0,0.0,0.11342334597829945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10555819909221767,0.13561072054819406,0.0,0.0970510459046934,0.0,0.1095006033186248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2524750328026918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11313463489455378,0.0,0.10883588967158472,0.0,0.1669697214177507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13924743060680955,0.0,0.0,0.14991425793148688,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,BRMTS,2019/04/07,"Guess who has bulimia now! That's right! This guy 👆! It was bounf to happen at some point but what it boils down to is me eating on giant ammounts of food (we're talking well into the 7000s) and then fasting to get rid of it (thanks dr. Jason Fung!) So yeah, this should be fun, not! ",-0.5789406779661022,1.6139371016949156,1.0862499999999995,100.41039194915257,93.23728813559322,3.6279661016949154,14.154661016949152,5.148860815047168,-1.2057983050847456,215,4,50,1,8,69,53,59,0.0,0.8240000000000001,0.17600000000000002,0.9101,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,0,1,1,5,4,0,0,0,7,9,4,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,8,2,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,1,0,1,3,9,6,1,10,0,0,0,0,3,7,0,2,3,32,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3288315954726118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3885898914303144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16789738121571102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35401436503601097,0.3181970091664278,0.2841776626218583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3037891539011449,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27443975744647264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25829706411406,0.0,0.2958651909746992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28894131098684495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Squirrella,2019/04/07,"When the other sub got banned, I really missed you guys. You are all seriously so funny and it makes me feel a million times better to know I'm not alone with my crazy thoughts.",5.886666666666668,5.4215454444444475,6.18,82.81500000000003,66.77777777777779,9.422222222222222,26.333333333333336,8.841846274778883,1.565433333333334,140,3,30,2,2,45,34,36,0.218,0.591,0.191,-0.0546,0,1,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,2,0,1,2,3,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,1,1,9,8,3,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,2,0,1,3,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,2,1,5,1,2,6,1,2,0,1,0,0,3,0,0,0,2,18,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4278839713249135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3653849375930224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2088938141455733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33042234553930405,0.0,0.0,0.40906927825600825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2270485663827309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27577127577037897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26466529681780554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3279835837857544,0.2409027385095733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,yeongwoni,2019/04/07,"am i anorexic?? okay so tea is i think i have anorexia. i’m 15(almost 16🤪🤩), about 5’6” and 105lbs, and my waist is 25.5 inches (that one probably doesn’t matter). up until like a month or two ago, when i started to get “bigger” (for lack of a better word), i was about 5’5”, 100lbs, and had a 24 inch waist. that was when i was happy with my appearance because i always looked skinny and that made me happy. ever since then, i started measuring my waist regularly because i always wanted to make sure my waist was the same size, and i continued on because when i noticed i started getting bigger i always thought i look fat even when i know in the back of my head that i look skinny to other people, maybe even too skinny. sometimes i talk about how fat i am and my mom yells at me and tells me basically that i’m a boy and i can’t have an eating disorder and to stop being a sissy gay or to stop being a girl or something along those lines (please don’t think negatively of my mom she’s so amazing i love her to death). i don’t really like to talk about it with my friends because although they always try to hype me up and tell me i’m skinny and i look good, etc. i feel like they’re empty compliments and they’re just trying to make me happy. i only started thinking this when my friend made a comment on how she thinks i may be anorexic. i did a little bit of research and i think it may be true. i’ve been really depressed lately over my appearance bc of how big i look in my stomach and not anywhere else, which only triggers more sadness, which causes me to stress eat, this restarting the cycle. i’ve cried probably 4 times today. i just don’t know what to do or where to go with this like i’m so stuck and confused and i feel so anxious and depressed and just overall unhappy. almost every time i pass a mirror, i stop and lift up my shirt and contemplate whether or not i look skinny- which to others i probably do but i don’t think so- which also causes me to be sad sometimes. i just feel like a weight that hangs over my head and i just feel like depressed, anxious, a feeling of apprehension, etc. even writing this, my chest feels heavy like i’m going to cry. i literally just have no idea what to do. i want to start eating good and going to the gym because i know doing this will help me get a flat stomach and like bigger arms and legs and such, which will make me happy, and just all around more healthy and happy, but my mom is reluctant to because we had one a few months ago and i only went a couple times because of school and stuff. it’s also really hard to eat good foods and meal plan and stuff because we’re kind of struggling with money and my mom is saving up to move soon so we’re constantly buying fast food and the cheapest and easiest foods to make, which isn’t helping anything. i literally have no idea where or who to turn to and i feel so sad all the time for the past few days...... sorry if this post was a mess, but there are so many thoughts that are going through my head and i have no idea how to organize them for anyone to read. thank you so much if you preserved long enough to read all of this, i really appreciate it.",3.5694481605351167,4.4939903769230805,4.661792642140469,86.80768561872914,72.15384615384616,7.252173913043477,25.668896321070232,7.423996415210882,1.1371163879598662,2475,75,521,26,46,812,272,650,0.11,0.755,0.135,0.9541,0,0,1,0,0,0,64.0,1,2,2,2,43,39,0,4,23,1,42,32,20,13,6,121,98,71,1,5,21,4,9,8,2,4,2,1,0,2,32,43,21,3,21,3,2,10,13,11,0,3,15,16,80,28,62,74,14,66,0,6,6,2,26,21,0,14,42,349,112,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08928315920719161,0.0,0.10085761130334904,0.0,0.0,0.08054661033868639,0.16761601234264953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11378614994547938,0.0,0.035213260094524905,0.0,0.041442432936248365,0.0448315571269734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03872414623371734,0.0,0.24559453914503404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.044539804600027585,0.05498066576753885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10346829284088388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05442185219001625,0.0,0.0,0.05572297898152969,0.1106373755805757,0.03247838169430218,0.0,0.1301263763927402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05771754119341161,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20612561734490126,0.04206976855161692,0.0,0.0,0.05203589942860215,0.11233062729329696,0.09978798395110387,0.04555399108929457,0.04243092648299638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17824661322501084,0.1079327382454936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1826884924560109,0.0,0.07781685564288962,0.0,0.07893390985727937,0.0,0.11448422041726633,0.12672009334597803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2680486532480599,0.04511315149100803,0.0,0.15505332734391716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06751121602035139,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17055275725511984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052442752104218435,0.08303050624927852,0.0,0.056808882002254014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19682892596285875,0.05047449067463422,0.0,0.04456749262180159,0.2537410168576114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.045452353021919266,0.09530472010838358,0.13446420444177132,0.051057682559897344,0.05059393075130607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23592662037786244,0.08039460417484434,0.053525283462347056,0.03702079102237665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05733580790274286,0.0,0.0,0.06825120968692858,0.11490437865645925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04807483327818365,0.03491365704183138,0.0,0.0,0.055280749283181586,0.0,0.0,0.0482314758134225,0.0,0.16289153753883584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10074833536917824,0.0,0.12904900439878972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05096755450117919,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04165875860926345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03877000362916996,0.09961572237917153,0.05637450078850565,0.17822724498418938,0.0,0.0,0.1263109978208262,0.05768782774068541,0.052647770234015664,0.11530153793598613,0.0,0.0,0.047464212398980056,0.0,0.0,0.08095578790469454,0.08803466234540422,0.04636521853448722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1936140010968693,0.0,0.07996128592528631,0.11746254206876028,0.0,0.047735902854911146,0.0,0.0,0.06838300101000729,0.054777805482327344,0.04919492932845941,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05940790187814795,0.0,0.0,0.06132556978991646,0.0,0.046684724571322285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,CheckOutMyNewLog,2019/04/07,"How can I be supportive but not enabling? I'm not going to include too many details about the situation because I'm sure my girlfriend visits this sub. 

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She's obsessed with counting calories. I've convinced her to see a therapist and I hope it sticks. 

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I've dated an alcoholic before and done all anon but this is different. 

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Her weight is not in a dangerous place but she's surpassed her 20lbs goal and wants to keep going. I'm worried she won't stop. She counts calories and is obsessed with it.

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She constantly needs validation and wants me to tell her she's skinny. She IS skinny and she IS beautiful. I loved her 20lbs ago and I love her now but I also suffer from my own issues which makes it frustrating because I cannot focus on my problems when I am stressed about hers. How can I support her without triggering her?   


I don't want her to feel attacked or feel like I do not support her happiness but at the same time I think her fixation is unhealthy. She doesn't have hobbies, she doesn't seem to have many other passions anymore and I'm concerned with this singular focus. 

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Please help me. Please give me tips to be a better boyfriend and best support the woman I love. I just want her to be happy with herself.

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EDAnonymous,nowandloud,2019/04/08,"Help me math so I don't restrict even more? I eat 600 calories a day. Have been for a while. Went out to dinner tonight unexpectedly so the day ended around 1700 calories. My brain is trying REALLY hard to convince me to go down to 3/400 or even lower for a while to cancel it out. 

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""But brain,"" I say, ""divide that over a week and I'd barely have 850 a day instead of 600. It's fine. Still WAY under recommended intake for someone my height. I cannot possibly gain weight from fat since I work and move every day. Maybe weight from salt and water retention, but not fat. It'll go away in like a week.""

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Right? RIGHT? Someone just tell me I'm right. I'm not going to freak out or anything but I know I can talk myself into something stupid like even heavier restriction just by telling myself I missed something math-wise.

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(Also who wants to talk about the other fucking voice in my head telling me this post is stupid anyway because half the people here probably have ""REAL"" issues and eat even less and will just laugh? Like fuck me, right? I can't win in my own head.)",1.7518055555555565,4.321367828703707,2.5295999999999985,92.3154,83.67592592592592,4.752296296296296,20.214074074074077,6.152001189255117,0.09395985185185207,865,25,172,7,25,270,128,216,0.136,0.75,0.114,-0.7945,1,0,2,0,0,0,44.0,0,0,0,3,16,13,4,0,9,0,12,14,6,0,0,25,23,15,0,1,10,0,3,3,0,2,2,2,0,0,7,10,8,2,1,0,0,5,5,6,0,1,2,6,20,7,27,19,3,35,0,1,0,2,8,17,2,2,14,106,27,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07083011955070018,0.0,0.28789961090068944,0.3228700270611458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07288630687259329,0.07884688226097628,0.0,0.0,0.08321527943940563,0.0,0.0,0.05399200070461206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1977488409850674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22848362194735786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18126029211671152,0.0,0.0,0.07844753128789933,0.0,0.0,0.2340009857898073,0.0,0.07462480625318435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16376474619624373,0.0,0.0,0.15101065677488193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0793421324617112,0.0,0.1817985994498335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05936720963958344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09244501183895174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04867625224916422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12981380872233764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08898137733137282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09413685344874778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061403912388782775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09985038570381607,0.08482644231971126,0.0,0.09549441438656137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10081307885214308,0.0567407887869548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3025562706752145,0.0,0.07043513746037625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07326676666393935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15009167826984485,0.13637241743573406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07073283796830689,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14237987449750095,0.2322446208094099,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06013382954798417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052241413693165095,0.07030346058346637,0.14209247258952162,0.21571099871093247,0.0,0.08210611492337556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06448067264197513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3228700270611458,0.0
EDAnonymous,TheBoyWhoCriedTapir,2019/04/08,"I’m proud of myself. I finally did something right. Title.

Ive been doing really good with eating healthier for the past week and trying to control binging. Tonight my little cousins were screaming and crying and at the same time I realized i had an assignment due at midnight. I went upstairs and did what I always do to cope.

“Just a couple of these crackers”

“Just one more granola bar”

Snack foods are my weakness and they always seem to help my anxiety. Tonight about five minutes in, I looked down at the box of crackers in my hand, and (this sounds irrationally stupid) audibly said the word “No.” while pointing at it. I threw the box away and decided that tonight, that box wasn’t going to control my emotions.

Thank you for attending the TED Talk.",3.9688216039279887,6.408531163120571,4.28964539007092,83.62615384615388,74.24822695035459,7.175340971085652,29.99509001636661,8.139509932561175,2.3361364975450085,598,27,106,10,13,187,98,141,0.099,0.802,0.099,0.2398,0,0,1,0,0,0,16.0,0,1,1,3,3,6,1,0,8,0,10,6,1,2,0,17,18,8,0,0,2,1,1,0,0,0,1,4,0,0,6,8,4,2,3,1,0,4,2,3,0,2,9,6,16,3,19,9,2,24,0,0,1,0,6,11,0,1,9,73,22,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3069822057595313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14111654924078726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1733125721069665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4137902631481264,0.0,0.20410893637384803,0.20262804919699692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1887555245817712,0.0,0.20750025108600006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2020742942124381,0.0,0.0,0.22305791114349185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10483669792987407,0.15472194740710465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1236441657200928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18488413207460008,0.0,0.0,0.15490560032212392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1249994353321008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17609437374144435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17438069180806254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1181741155505696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15753358587227834,0.17547010977178482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16793158968739202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14201150671759855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1482673760856461,0.0,0.1698321879552072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10756403804869263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12524080601317847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1479680899194762,0.0,0.0,0.1710025137083412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,doesglitterhavecarbs,2019/04/08,"When do you feel your hungriest? Aka, the literal hunger games.

For me it's always in the morning or early afternoon. If I make it to dinner time fasted as I usually plan before my big meal (intermittent fasting), I'm Gucci. Doesn't happen too often tho.",2.694489795918365,5.1794776326530645,5.089142857142857,76.03085714285714,78.79591836734693,8.001632653061224,24.08571428571429,8.841846274778883,2.3219273469387764,200,7,34,5,5,70,45,49,0.044,0.956,0.0,-0.25,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,2,0,1,4,0,0,0,2,0,2,3,0,1,0,5,6,5,0,1,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,3,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,6,0,4,6,0,9,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,3,7,22,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39432649525182256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4032578120562395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.239620346873852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4190721710291636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31633492369426025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2763375162669846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.52193883755257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,GeniGeniGeni,2019/04/08,"“If you don’t stop, you’re going to kill yourself.” Something I needed to hear loud and clear from my doctor.",2.2677272727272744,4.227049409090913,3.1818181818181834,91.8427272727273,77.63636363636364,4.4,20.090909090909093,3.1291,-0.3835272727272723,85,2,17,0,2,27,20,22,0.271,0.627,0.102,-0.6486,0,0,1,0,0,0,3.0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,5,4,2,1,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,2,3,0,3,4,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,1,9,3,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.42847503723028985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.237911242507626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4718148657235223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4631407131262225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31040122920616364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3222739239284673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3499848430278936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,wildstylemeth0d,2019/04/08,"Certain mukbangers are clearly bulimic. Thoughts on people monetizing EDs? There are some mukbang youtubers that are clearly just so beyond bulimic. One in particular (not sure if I'm allowed to post a name) actively talks about her mental issues and how she was hospitalized for potassium deficiency because every morning after filming a mukbang she would wake up and faint from lack of potassium. She never explicit said it was from bulimia but it makes no sense otherwise. She's also skeletal. 

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All of her videos are her ingesting massive amounts of food. It's clear that after she turns the camera off, she purges. I'm curious, because, societally, isn't this super damaging? Allowing the monetization of bulimia?",6.046622889305812,9.467463105691062,6.711382113821141,63.797392120075074,72.41463414634147,9.963477173233272,38.7298311444653,10.035473477838034,5.418432645403374,594,36,78,19,13,194,92,123,0.071,0.787,0.142,0.7593,1,0,0,0,0,0,20.0,0,0,0,1,7,4,0,0,4,0,8,5,2,4,8,23,14,7,0,3,4,0,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,1,6,2,2,0,1,2,0,0,4,1,0,1,4,1,9,3,16,9,4,9,0,1,0,0,13,5,0,2,3,59,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18753223780436007,0.0,0.25408427298862346,0.2849472280945413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2859021212980685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19757917960817736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28356237187654537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2447605630765564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15653280167543546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23632421287397515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1808634339560154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15890553347465766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1625750905583142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22458937884202215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.223066378884526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2210166245202504,0.0,0.0,0.1884849034012138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18616945920169894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2550722966719029,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16658444586565185,0.0,0.2849472280945413,0.0
EDAnonymous,Paxthe0utlier,2019/04/08,"Hiccups while fasting Okay, so this may seem really weird.. but does anyone else get really bad hiccups while fasting? It always happens to me and I’m not sure if it’s from the fasting? I have a hiatal hernia and one of the symptoms is hiccups, so it’s possible that the fasting just aggravates it? Idk, just curious if I was the only one haha",2.1978781512605075,4.586382191176472,4.336806722689079,81.27205882352945,80.02941176470588,6.8268907563025225,27.36134453781513,7.957251820313856,2.152610924369748,271,12,48,5,7,93,47,68,0.177,0.7140000000000001,0.109,-0.7369,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,0,4,5,0,0,5,2,4,4,0,0,1,11,8,9,0,2,6,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,0,0,6,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,0,2,1,0,3,3,3,6,0,6,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,6,35,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22586295282149035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18979978803365985,0.2781262093610766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2266442009804211,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2375422631775403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2267564301711313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1418181609178246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2400368200810672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3678746329322136,0.20644521083433448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3060120536772303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3477876461181943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24711220394652236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25583253093659825,0.2821340000938295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Colgate_Grizi7,2019/04/08,"I am a land whale I went to my first psychiatry session last Thursday and of course I couldn’t tell them the whole truth, especially with my mum in the room, after Thursday I stupidly stupidly agreed to eat lunch with my mum at a restaurant and binged from Thursday through to Sunday, I was previously at my lowest weight and now i just feel disgusting and want to cry. Luckily I’ve been able to resist my urges to eat today but I’m meeting new people for the first time on Wednesday and have my football tournaments on Thursday and Friday and as I play in midfield I need to run a lot, i need to try and wake up tomorrow and burn maybe 3-5k cals and then Wednesday who knows if I’ll make it there bc let’s face it I’ll spend 2 hours in front of the mirror hating whatever I try and wear. I honestly don’t really know the point in this post and I’m sorry if this was triggering or annoying to anyone but I just needed to let my thoughts out, wish me luck with not eating until Saturday :) ✌️🤘",5.992962305986693,5.213159453658534,6.701596452328161,80.20884700665191,66.65853658536585,9.991130820399112,31.80709534368071,9.339509955726095,2.5443658536585367,788,27,165,13,11,261,129,205,0.094,0.784,0.122,0.7684,1,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,1,2,4,9,5,0,8,0,9,8,3,2,1,39,23,20,0,8,8,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,5,16,5,0,4,1,1,3,3,5,0,2,5,2,21,4,31,15,2,37,0,0,0,0,6,13,0,5,20,101,26,1,0.14904224478336808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10421380295733036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16371590740987638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4575222745517586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07536023718085914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2535505145489337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14714836041233215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14677658883766542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16381943988300948,0.12148932190186787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3048115864240456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1267103867137089,0.0,0.0,0.09948685572489596,0.0,0.1497329675241637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3315388079983232,0.0,0.1439459287527889,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10332712636405257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1408930960311593,0.0,0.14274127142072765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09548027845301793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16684059076667715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13026949124352086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11832289417769926,0.08690773149916489,0.0,0.1412746210023725,0.0,0.0,0.2023798016360283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08790897752463916,0.0,0.0,0.18149330193162255,0.0,0.13816365410453654,0.0,0.16640034369521894,0.171391226041803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,withextracheesepls,2019/04/08,"sometimes i feel okay, because i’m a healthy weight but then i realize i’m dying anyways and my body doesn’t give a fuck whether my bmi is over 18.5 or not. my heart rate is still dropping below 40 at night, which may be normal in athletes but not in my sedentary ass. i almost faint if i stand up too fast. my nails are almost always purple or blue and my hair is falling out. every night i lay in bed and wonder if this is gonna be the day my body decides it’s too much and i’m not going to wake up. it doesn’t scare me anymore. it’s just a fact. 

i hate being bulimic. i hate feeling invalid because i don’t starve myself. i hate that i feel like i have to ignore problems since “i’m not skinny” so i’m probably imagining. i hate the mental wall in my brain that convinced me since i’m not anorexic anymore, i’m basically recovered. i nearly convinced myself the other day i’m normal just because my weight is. 

i hate this. i hate trying to make myself worse in hopes i won’t be able to handle it anymore and i’ll finally leave this god-awful world. i’m alone for real this time. my best friend, the one i love more than anyone else on the world, the one who i have more memories than anyone else besides family- well, he blocked me on everything you could ever imagine this weekend, so what do i have keeping me alive anymore?

i just want this to kill me. i won’t feel invalid anymore if it does. it’s been 5 years, anyway. i’m surprised i haven’t had any real issues before now. 

i’m sorry for the attention whore post. i know this is basically begging people to comfort me or tell me they feel the same. but it is an attention whore post lol. i’m being honest, way moreso than i should be on reddit, but i’ve never felt as alone or suicidal as i do now. 

i did glance at suicidewatch before typing this out, but i’ve been on this sub since before the original one was deleted (i’ve had a few accounts...) and this is also a lot more eating disorder centered, so i figured it’s be better suited on here. 

anyone who read this, and even if you didn’t, you’re welcome to vent in the comments or dm’s. whether you feel alone in this world or not, i’ll be there for you.",1.6071617786187318,3.4827310706401766,3.4641106906338703,89.43716887417222,79.3532008830022,5.815389467045097,23.14774519079155,6.763600653459839,0.6953029959003478,1697,56,355,17,42,570,211,453,0.2,0.669,0.131,-0.9919,0,3,0,0,0,3,50.0,0,4,1,2,19,27,8,1,16,2,38,16,8,2,3,73,74,31,3,11,26,0,10,1,1,5,1,0,1,0,27,9,4,3,16,2,1,2,14,13,1,3,8,13,52,14,36,52,8,49,0,0,3,5,14,26,2,16,17,231,79,2,0.07283851713438406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1458745068161692,0.22631621041142566,0.0,0.05824893583653552,0.060607481227757935,0.0,0.0,0.04953268939056237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.361181183519496,0.15279115428072046,0.1492633369237973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13320505194734092,0.0,0.18594063981323847,0.0,0.07643952995314167,0.06441974924605244,0.0,0.16181434453604815,0.0,0.08131187426588629,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05815562900772375,0.0,0.0,0.09394963554300058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07559488106670309,0.0,0.08347925106918802,0.0,0.0637414771944046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07453198718421224,0.12169446926280165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.048109153610844786,0.06588660883185476,0.0613695921852028,0.0,0.06546256254568694,0.0,0.06866567149228017,0.0,0.220976056894245,0.05203585119462786,0.06993639905382945,0.07979103520212763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056274857654271176,0.06733803538650973,0.0,0.06987334275289774,0.041395807851756526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4314777351925483,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0863139935080316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07234508253457576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07602448784743912,0.0,0.064742220756744,0.08058502728505593,0.0,0.04003014412526931,0.0,0.0,0.07712547259369422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.035585220256246164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061924702537631424,0.06573960551935781,0.0,0.04862027578755629,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07340409346939436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05354469100096895,0.0,0.056177554766183684,0.0,0.0,0.13670802822829856,0.14273256342035578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1480717928576957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05049705655637424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13951832997784622,0.0,0.07853224096803547,0.06969662384099652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07285822827156765,0.16581235775943368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07292406243356991,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1807583221980896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07203915592196636,0.08153675655471264,0.0,0.0,0.0581689338728674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07967351557530145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06366407446305145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04247272509289778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.049452571888410256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04296204458676507,0.057815824547373024,0.0,0.17739538211783087,0.06549057445805777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07899026474912174,0.0,0.0,0.07422867172854639,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04690561692995265
EDAnonymous,sisterberlin,2019/04/08,"What do you eat (if anything) pre- and post-workout? I’ve started exercising more (bodyweight and flexibility stuff, my EDS hates running) to build some lean ballerina-looking toned muscles but I’m noticing that if I eat absolutely nothing before I work out, my head starts pounding halfway through. I usually have some mio sport in my water and then a 120 cal protein shake afterwards but is there a low cal snack before exercise that helps you to not die? :’)

Also tell me about your exercise routines and workout playlists!! Just out of curiosity.",5.997448453608249,8.430497030927839,6.048028350515463,73.29719716494847,68.38144329896907,8.561340206185568,37.89819587628866,9.188382445141503,3.930650515463919,440,25,70,9,8,139,75,97,0.066,0.83,0.104,0.6951,0,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,3,0,1,4,3,1,1,2,0,3,8,1,0,0,14,7,10,1,2,6,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,4,6,4,0,0,5,0,2,1,3,0,0,0,0,10,0,8,7,3,11,0,1,0,0,5,4,0,4,5,43,14,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1720032708710614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17699649899396558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3660427185083392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22322410903902204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4401709798160329,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21235175285555952,0.2207391004244055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14416683616052736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18061709723161384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20637970728721586,0.2448755188042953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20599182421119505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3044763171705532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2462206861103377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1879936326279667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2368855670999133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15658432701708253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,dismyedun,2019/04/08,"How do you guys prepare shirataki noodles? I want to try these but it seems like it's something that should be flavored. Recipes online are all dishes prepared with coconut cream/milk or something else calorie-dense, and I want something lighter. How do you guys make these?",4.8091836734693825,7.819410734693882,3.1626122448979617,89.8431020408163,74.3061224489796,4.736326530612245,34.289795918367346,5.6839178017228535,1.865600816326531,222,12,37,1,5,62,39,49,0.0,0.8240000000000001,0.17600000000000002,0.7622,0,0,3,0,0,0,7.0,0,2,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,5,1,0,3,1,12,9,5,0,3,2,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,2,5,2,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,4,1,2,7,1,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,2,1,22,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22889873364581734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5426224957891909,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13386659069233547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1829026351764347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2494468205779116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6328348150957203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1860336159787325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32323433136502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ladygreyinatracksuit,2019/04/08,"thanks mum hahahahahhaha wow i love when mother dearest tries to make me eat two sausages instead of one because im ‘wasting away’ and not eating enough,, the fact that she hasnt realised dinner at home is my only proper meal each day astounds me",4.28712765957447,6.451565744680856,4.8095212765957465,81.50875,72.40425531914894,5.5510638297872354,28.77127659574468,5.985473137389443,1.2738553191489363,198,8,35,1,4,63,45,47,0.0,0.6890000000000001,0.311,0.9559,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,1,0,2,5,0,1,1,5,5,2,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,2,4,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,2,0,0,5,3,4,5,2,4,0,0,0,1,4,2,0,0,2,21,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2542106279433521,0.0,0.0,0.16493774335074654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17449609435098762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5537239433743322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27957246459495905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2714050588468841,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2922634169432892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2442011475829977,0.0,0.18060843306440136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1833461044518218,0.20578165386132974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2491056858728093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1837001410439624,0.0,0.2643088288846302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,allroadsleadtoprozac,2019/04/08,"The vicious cycle of my mind Step 1: see beautiful girl/thing happens that reminds me that I'm an ugly and worthless POS
Step 2: binge because I am hopeless and not even losing weight would make me acceptable anyway and life has no meaning so I might as well eat
Step 3: feel overwhelmed with guilt and purge and swear I'll start restricting
Step 4: restrict for half a day until step 1 happens

Rinse and fucking repeat every day",11.981044176706831,7.570120759036148,10.412048192771085,69.69068273092371,58.27710843373495,12.512449799196787,44.53413654618474,8.841846274778883,4.195324497991966,345,14,62,3,3,107,66,83,0.232,0.644,0.124,-0.8574,0,0,0,0,0,1,5.0,0,0,0,1,4,9,2,2,3,0,4,4,0,1,0,17,13,9,0,1,1,0,2,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,2,7,2,2,3,0,0,5,2,7,1,1,0,3,5,2,5,11,0,10,0,4,1,1,0,0,1,1,5,32,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14397767024224914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3046427169504884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2416787137521685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15599957553308533,0.0,0.19899810354119585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1194234654986267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21835148093645568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4177195435301089,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16682617264143482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2642333291739106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1576569491642557,0.0,0.0,0.2572773611487892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.250557547761717,0.2384819833239608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18821080912211105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16717468455674028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2876126707171261,0.21236087210172666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16778077969787109,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,studio__,2019/04/08,"dEADASS JUST WOKE UP AT 2AM Deadass just woke up at 2am in sudden, horrific realization that I'll be in Korea in less than two months and I STILL HAVENT LOST THE WEIGHT AHAHHAHAHA GUYS IM ACTUALLY DESPERATE NOW 

I legit made a new account just so I can finally post and keep myself accountable BECAUSE I'M LACKING DISCIPLINE

Im reach 52kg by June no matter what everyone REEEEEEEEEEEEE",3.4564726027397263,6.3287141506849345,4.456421232876714,79.36490582191783,78.72602739726028,8.581506849315067,29.67294520547945,9.188382445141503,3.1928917808219186,315,15,56,9,8,102,60,73,0.131,0.805,0.064,-0.7863,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,1,6,1,0,0,2,0,3,1,0,1,0,10,9,3,0,1,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,2,1,2,0,0,2,0,2,1,0,1,4,1,4,0,9,4,2,15,0,1,0,0,1,7,0,0,7,32,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.2331177843779909,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14562238106228045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2282653285715745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26168738415758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2365341984922089,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5160746571168264,0.0,0.0,0.2123324049057224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2607717379896396,0.0,0.0,0.2260392322560751,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1906761237486108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2307171005563455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22878627104817345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19077426562852787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2333564181008209,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29089817791217004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,stormyeyed94,2019/04/08,Death of the calorie | 1843 [Check it out](https://www.1843magazine.com/features/death-of-the-calorie). Does anybody else think this is bullshit?,8.333571428571428,12.442665095238096,3.314642857142857,80.64910714285716,88.5238095238095,4.0047619047619065,33.82142857142857,5.985473137389443,2.2942285714285715,121,6,15,1,4,30,17,21,0.3720000000000001,0.628,0.0,-0.8271,0,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6392187748323239,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6101944367306454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4680407111404231,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,rabbittttttttttttt,2019/04/08,"I feel so broken Hey, this probably isn’t the right subreddit for this, but I’ve been a lurker for a while and I really need some help. 

For the last two years I’ve been dating a guy who in many ways is wonderful — he’s handsome, charming, does really interesting work. But at the same time he can be so cold, and condescending, and he just makes me feel like shit about myself. He never has time for me, never returns my calls or messages, and never seems interested in anything I have to say. He yells at me, and never apologizes. I hate being yelled at. 

I know I need to break up with him — this relationship is destroying my self esteem — but I keep thinking that if I were somehow better, or more interesting, I could make him like me more. I could make him want to talk to me and spend time with me. 

Because my brain is broken, the only plan I can come up with is: I’ll restrict heavily for a while! That’ll take my mind off him, so I don’t feel sad anymore, and I won’t have enough emotional bandwidth to realize how shitty he makes me feel. It’s not even a weight loss thing — heavy restriction is just the only hobby I can think of right now. 

I know objectively that this plan is garbage, but fuck me if I can’t come up with something better. ",4.167598039215683,4.905986726190476,5.222128851540617,84.02483193277314,70.62698412698413,8.627824463118582,25.93464052287581,8.841846274778883,1.6768671335200742,973,28,206,17,17,321,133,252,0.147,0.6779999999999999,0.17600000000000002,0.8112,0,0,1,0,0,0,28.0,0,0,0,6,10,15,4,0,10,0,24,4,2,5,4,56,47,21,0,7,11,0,5,2,0,2,0,3,0,2,10,13,1,3,11,0,1,2,9,6,0,1,3,9,33,9,25,38,5,29,0,2,0,1,21,11,2,8,16,138,43,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1151712994838354,0.0,0.0,0.0955663767096385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07079271951127243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20541785042049965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12964122509669532,0.11858330441599467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2000741074591562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18544319778380253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1016275084981354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13063237122123664,0.0,0.1199949427406574,0.0,0.07670379841547538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2348784191849646,0.08296440782759222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10736175351911977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11498850002679906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11465587016519653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07784053499286114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10322306416083082,0.0,0.0,0.12764573371479715,0.09466271917271686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11347202585123453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3100748654262636,0.11773917165882505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11725976761215146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17222015666393606,0.35827126547396465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17664656501807208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12520946074116462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14879369880805768,0.0,0.0,0.12468183165081925,0.0,0.19835143101538613,0.0,0.09235247564264454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10572180828216783,0.12115054174437087,0.0,0.11920737483998815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08940374657923544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08731647843189116,0.0933421468718676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07715264650182498,0.14882482562053612,0.0,0.0,0.20315173511681706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11344365702756436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0684974014333325,0.09217982480378788,0.0,0.14141695091820372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1259397201853053,0.0845451569245441,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0747849154581171
EDAnonymous,teddypanda,2019/04/08,"DAE chew up food and then spit it out hello long(ish) time lurker here!

just genuinely curious does anyone else do this?? anytime i binge, i just chew food and then immediately spit it out 

i haven’t seen any other posts or any info online about it so i was just wondering if any of y’all have experienced this ",2.647759562841532,5.001157737704919,4.043852459016397,84.17812841530056,78.18032786885246,7.3453551912568305,21.642076502732237,8.344100000000001,1.2725715846994534,246,7,49,5,6,81,44,61,0.0,0.948,0.052000000000000005,0.4501,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,1,0,0,6,0,0,0,0,0,4,6,2,0,0,11,6,7,0,1,5,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,6,4,4,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,2,5,0,5,4,0,7,0,0,1,0,2,3,0,3,3,31,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5064052601920442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17356493972984546,0.2543362100935789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2172236809052134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2073604325049488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6003101690925041,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21967162796199166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2377312742463109,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14474220066497567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2691898088924079,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,apricaught,2019/04/09,"So I was c/s-ing brownies while reloading my weed vape aaaaand I spat into my ABV bag i'd been building up for months to cook with and emptied the ABV into the tupperware I was spitting into previously

s k i n n y l e g e n d (jk i've gained 4 pounds in 4 weeks)",-0.9938172043010738,0.39800843548387377,2.7141935483870974,94.0079569892473,85.61290322580646,5.423655913978496,23.23655913978495,6.42735559955562,0.4078946236559138,201,8,52,2,6,75,46,62,0.039,0.901,0.06,0.2263,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,2,0,3,3,2,0,0,5,3,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,6,0,8,0,0,8,0,0,0,0,0,5,0,0,3,22,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.705359667680191,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7088495885659317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,b-ees,2019/04/09,"I guess my body's forcing me to recover? Yesterday I ate over 1000 calories over my limit and when I ran to purge I tried and tried and... Nothing. A bit of apple and juice, a little bit of cake, then nothing. I knew the rest wasn't coming back up. 

Got super scared I was gonna gain weight because it was over my TDEE, but I couldn't even exercise purge because while I usually just go run, it was late at night and I live in a dangerous area. 

But then a magical thing happened— I woke up the next day, and felt good, I didn't even follow through on my plan to run for 40min in the morning. I did some calculations to reassure myself I was still at a deficit considering the fast preceding, and I feel okay. 

I actually feel okay guys!

I mean—
I still feel really bad about it, and when I think about just how much I ate yesterday, I still feel sick and want to cry about it a bit, but the soul-crushing, morbid guilt isn't there. 

The blood vessels near my eyes are broken as usual which sucks but I guess I'm gonna celebrate this mini victory!",3.574922118380062,4.43578390654206,4.751570093457946,86.40666978193147,72.0841121495327,8.510404984423676,26.41619937694704,8.841846274778883,1.7225829283489098,812,26,178,15,15,268,123,214,0.156,0.7390000000000001,0.105,-0.9357,0,0,0,0,0,0,25.0,0,0,0,4,15,10,2,2,12,2,10,8,3,1,0,30,32,20,0,2,6,0,6,0,0,2,2,0,0,1,7,10,3,1,7,1,0,6,4,5,0,0,14,7,28,5,24,15,6,38,0,0,1,0,2,13,1,3,19,112,35,0,0.0,0.0,0.12670235558748572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09983677480021967,0.10840861955532516,0.1582950760799301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4252457094964076,0.14421983403424374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11184323148098677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14262004233301498,0.08373423805187287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1715124618692454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2625983115996656,0.0,0.12466405118056725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07378945983078508,0.10890126404757797,0.10384265135892884,0.0,0.2860605770423273,0.12855921827639955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14646199105025012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13013096087968945,0.11464860608480107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14143074890768925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09544526440737514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13808331079018868,0.12184339527353642,0.0,0.24916454626346704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08317702030533404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12998966453100005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3110644119894433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08625805119571417,0.08319442047438892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17630184099591234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.285994614580356,0.0,0.07658133100424519,0.0,0.0,0.15810670333850013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,eriwhi,2019/04/09,"You know you have an ED when you research the calorie content of semen 12 calories per teaspoon. 

(I won’t be swallowing)",3.979130434782608,6.168375826086957,4.799347826086958,81.1364130434783,73.34782608695652,6.339130434782609,37.58695652173913,7.1686216300943375,2.9978,96,6,16,1,2,31,21,23,0.0,0.946,0.054000000000000006,0.0516,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,3,1,0,0,0,1,4,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,1,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,11,4,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,distracted_tatertot,2019/04/09,"So Frustrated ... Does anyone else ever take an extra bite of food or two (or three) while in the process of making a meal and just pretend that the calories don't count? Because I do it more than I'd like to admit, and it always makes me feel like I'm terrible at restricting. D:

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Like, I'm  *juuuuuuuuust* on the verge of being underweight, but I feel like the way I look doesn't reflect that. I hate it.",0.9925301204819306,3.445451686746992,3.427722891566269,85.27074096385546,86.34939759036146,5.729638554216868,21.55301204819277,7.1686216300943375,0.7970973493975908,322,11,66,5,10,111,59,83,0.085,0.725,0.19,0.8453,0,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,0,0,0,3,7,2,0,6,0,4,2,0,2,1,14,14,7,0,0,4,0,2,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,2,2,1,4,1,0,0,2,3,0,2,0,3,5,4,8,13,2,7,0,0,1,0,1,4,0,2,6,41,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17361952573440456,0.2260800152684359,0.2535413661009896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1458979826981131,0.21379398418536627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12719550719937633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1825973430328658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17430633652723826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1887424051603015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21100672402945467,0.2981295253517188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2523091437708688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20600581048063607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4077575202854105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17521951668167882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27856063483612786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1568842649029656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2038277889843674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16562239239305515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2535413661009896,0.0
EDAnonymous,imaginary_gerl,2019/04/09,im going to jail just to focus on the gym yea judge send me there for 7 months and i’ll see u bitches in Cabo!!!!!!!!,-2.1022222222222204,-0.5776375185185181,1.0311111111111124,103.70000000000002,90.85185185185185,3.6,12.703703703703706,3.1291,-1.7964962962962965,85,1,24,0,3,30,25,27,0.187,0.813,0.0,-0.7243,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,0,2,1,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,5,2,0,5,0,0,1,0,1,2,1,0,1,10,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34197429268936863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6499664626161611,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4802913064967287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4794970714378827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,kittykat23317,2019/04/09,"So my hair is falling out again... 5 years ago I was underweight. My hair, understandably, was falling out. Not in chunks or anything. It was like other people’s hair shedding but just in a much higher quantity. Fast forward to now. I’ve been eating pretty normally for the past year and am on the lower end of overweight. Up until the past month. I’ve been heavily restricting but only for a month and my hair is already falling out two or three times my normal rate. Is there anything I can do to slow or stop this? (I mean besides eating)",2.3621558441558435,4.842974514285718,3.6412987012987017,85.95779220779222,80.04761904761905,6.103896103896104,24.78354978354978,7.348242739294969,1.3428095238095241,424,16,79,6,11,138,71,105,0.151,0.794,0.055,-0.8271,1,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,0,0,5,1,0,0,5,0,11,7,4,0,0,18,13,9,0,2,7,0,4,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,5,3,2,2,0,0,4,1,0,0,2,5,4,7,1,13,8,1,26,0,0,0,0,0,8,0,3,17,55,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1660048486771468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20665871129207028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3082169076221742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3832509089022872,0.0,0.0,0.16586692714733925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09149137519295412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20399351885281766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2989565830557921,0.0,0.13766606975266818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3669725357355831,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14242838299021315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35754359475582304,0.12983044967181614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1905223986336967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15656732479523575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10919949346834323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1829370033804993,0.19495619281658555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2411933587198754
EDAnonymous,boobrgeoisie,2019/04/09,"i really just had a huge binge and i have two events this week f u c k I have prom and a college admit day and was planning on fasting this week/keeping my calories low but like wtf 
Ive never really posted here but i’ve lost like 20 pounds recently and have reached lower than my goal weight but everytime i binge i feel like my old self.
like i feel good about my body now most of the time, but not today bitches!!!",-0.5969755244755248,1.610523113636365,1.3977272727272734,97.09832167832168,96.27272727272728,4.525874125874126,16.996503496503493,6.297961479604792,-0.2497755244755244,326,9,73,4,13,107,61,88,0.126,0.605,0.269,0.9221,1,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,3,4,8,1,0,3,0,6,2,1,0,1,15,10,8,0,0,6,0,3,4,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,4,1,0,3,0,0,0,2,3,0,1,3,3,11,5,4,7,1,14,0,2,0,0,2,3,1,1,14,40,13,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2354617735069927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1367094361672144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2143667151721924,0.1514384134900167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17779860129160546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18841738862982116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.414250496577258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2314009956336328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16349189207493314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22243714421836897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20301805447167307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2715993794788421,0.0,0.20930448185056966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22114116541818776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12360712772062997,0.0,0.20093206692538804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.207073465484874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3400748227948599,0.25813429214311623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,nipplesalami,2019/04/09,"i've never felt so in control before i was diagnosed with EDNOS back in 2014, and i've had contant binge/restrict cycles since. 

during the binge phases i'm always overcome with a complete lack of control, i'll eat EVERYTHING in sight and i wont stop until i can't physically move to get more food

but in the restricting phases, i've never quite been able to 'succeed'. 
sure i'll eat maybe 1000 calories per day, and maybe lose 10-15 lbs in a month thanks to the added help of my diabetes (type 1) abuse, but i've never managed to keep up a binge-free streak longer than a week, and i'd always give in to hunger

this time restriction feels different, in the past 3 weeks i've been able to lose 22lbs, i've been consistantly sticking to 500cal a day, with no binging the whole time. 
i absolutely THRIVE off the feeling of hunger, it just inspires me to continue. 
after i've eaten and i don't feel hungry anymore, that's the worst feeling, all i want is for my stomach to ache and rumble again. 

i know this is wrong, and that i'm ill, but the satisfaction from the feeling of finally succeeding completely overwhelms any part of me telling me to stop

i'm not quite sure what the point of this was honesty, i think i just wanted to write it out somewhere

sorry lmao

(also if ive put the wrong flair please let me know)",8.131742138364778,5.979412535849061,8.02853773584906,76.8347562893082,63.26415094339622,10.946540880503145,35.29088050314465,9.2995712137729,2.9489559748427685,1042,35,211,14,12,337,154,265,0.179,0.659,0.162,-0.8,1,0,0,0,1,0,27.0,0,0,0,8,6,12,0,1,16,0,13,10,1,2,6,45,32,14,0,4,7,0,6,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,8,11,6,7,10,0,0,2,8,6,0,0,8,7,16,6,35,22,6,32,0,3,1,0,4,11,0,1,19,115,24,4,0.2085251180344663,0.1235340832956025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0833787307770563,0.17350960280359634,0.0,0.0,0.07090211544721145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10340044235974412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08017147214056515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08871975842333668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2186346189027444,0.0,0.2338786511263376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13448145027962993,0.0,0.0,0.105824302692866,0.0,0.10893218301852266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2133732541020464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09370446515607417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26359141289244803,0.0,0.10010840720919248,0.11421453708975632,0.0,0.0,0.1260747002222799,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054472883808076585,0.10001814711664868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06988499554883157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09267335302972927,0.0,0.0,0.11459995146878232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10661553059961684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23328626842109965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2094915087464611,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08322137988472021,0.11081459991443368,0.0,0.0,0.2412411392909092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11290619110345873,0.09953041013641033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11444898034207003,0.09856181890859923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10481266932435264,0.0,0.2217921308937876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0862470662386114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11671339871836048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17433633581351224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1965324559540797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09113007213937373,0.09599095622648736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06680723788062773,0.0,0.0,0.12159267324047568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12299351731624113,0.0,0.16726627164602687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11640542371210108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2279894817492507,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,CodingIsKillingMe,2019/04/09,"Counting calories like crazy. Eating less than 1000 a day.. Hello everyone,

I would like to share a short story about myself and the issues I am currently facing.   
When I was a kid my parents divorced (I was about 6) and there was a lot of drama revolving around that event. My mother wasn't mentally stable and would yell at me or blame me for things that were out of my control every time she had to talk with my father (at that time they had to) or I mentioned him, she would freak out on me. I do not know what happened then, but I am assuming it was a result of all the stress, but I would close myself online on browser games for all day lone and just eat junk- waffles mainly. The food seemed to help me cope I suppose. so I just kept on eating.  When I got to my early teens I was  very overweight - 91 kg (I am female) and you know, kids would bully me and all that, but it was okay, up until my own family started doing the same. ""You're fat"", ""Your ass is too big"", ""Start wearing make up so at least you look prettier"" ( I was gifted an actual make up course voucher for my birthday) and all that jazz. Obviously all that think broke my mentality.  I had to change something so started a diet (90 day diet) and doing some sort of sport. I got down to 77. But since I had to weight everything and calculate calories everyday during the diet, that kinda stuck to me. Currently I can't eat without counting and if I eat more than a 1000 I feel guilty, scared and angry at myself for being such a pig. I am afraid that I might go back to ""normal again"". Currently I got to 72, I barely want to eat, I barely eat a 1000 calories a day and I don't know how to cope with it. I am aware it is unhealthy and potentially dangerous for my body in long term, but I can't just break myself to eat more. It is just all the guilt and anxiety that comes back from back in my teen years. Lately I also noticed that if I don't feel hunger then I get sad and when my stomach actually hurts, I feel good, because I know that I haven't eaten that much or at all that day.  I just want to get this off my chest here, because no one around me seems to understand me completely.",3.462765289738723,4.299888165158375,4.707296745000728,86.70876587359508,72.32579185520363,7.603678295139396,24.43905999124216,7.831003766801068,1.1076135454678149,1667,45,357,21,31,552,215,442,0.151,0.7979999999999999,0.051,-0.9936,4,0,1,0,1,0,59.0,0,3,1,1,25,15,1,4,17,1,36,23,7,5,8,80,66,36,0,10,17,3,4,2,0,6,2,1,0,2,21,23,17,2,12,4,0,2,9,10,0,1,19,6,66,5,53,40,18,55,0,4,1,1,19,22,1,13,32,261,87,0,0.0,0.0,0.1497341838248658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06135249647300438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058690150152367185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13659310746641593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1769775067058144,0.0,0.0935348988202411,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08521798604432566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08115897904170401,0.0660869914552526,0.08043885748857195,0.0,0.08604735874852233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24738841150109925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6280249985926419,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06463942446362662,0.07330869834829824,0.06895047231367522,0.0,0.07232424605779995,0.0,0.1163749393574238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09276943326715864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08016546619414461,0.0,0.04360141724046843,0.06434861378090607,0.1840785979314702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.067842734178131,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05142341341690773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08212973123611314,0.0,0.0,0.08007514739172944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1686519584255818,0.0,0.08654285308899201,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07496247163688201,0.0,0.0,0.06789427692592641,0.06442499473846484,0.0,0.0,0.06522411164203415,0.0,0.0,0.10242162387802917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15463027164387622,0.08138718607929958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056397604842156474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07516874744634901,0.0,0.08734557388171914,0.0,0.0,0.0519870679099748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08518784235631667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07680952826002485,0.0,0.0,0.13968496632186742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06346310117576721,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05906236155476208,0.0,0.0,0.16290721171218084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08788184215607568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06166416775339456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05096897699425814,0.04915870976019053,0.0,0.0,0.08947142738447947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07986762710488403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06330156035222441,0.09050220922076617,0.0,0.0,0.09342359134469304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07395478798319738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2724963917428433,0.0,0.0,0.04940479436971936
EDAnonymous,strawberriesnsugaa,2019/04/09,Super triggered today!¡ Had to learn about eating disorders in class today and it somehow triggered me so guess who’s gonna eat a whole pizza & exercise it off 🤪👌🏽🥴,1.1121428571428569,3.4972178571428607,3.6682142857142885,84.34803571428574,84.71428571428572,5.7857142857142865,23.035714285714285,7.1686216300943375,1.2108571428571433,135,5,25,2,4,47,32,35,0.0,0.87,0.13,0.636,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,1,3,1,0,0,1,0,1,4,0,2,0,6,3,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,3,1,3,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,4,1,1,3,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,2,1,14,4,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3036834099037255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.321225317815383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5735931016155796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3087601685075732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5313455926470906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3129227621001045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,liquidaited,2019/04/09,DIET PILLS LEGAL IN AUSTRALIA so a lol the pills I've ordered online have either been siezed at the border or are a scam. does anyone know any diet pills that work similar to ephidra or or oxilofrine? but that are legal and/or that I can still get inside Australia? I'm hella struggling,2.9353333333333325,5.666866927272732,3.4322727272727285,86.78174242424242,79.72727272727272,4.393939393939394,21.89393939393939,5.46131890053228,0.3414848484848481,231,7,39,1,6,72,41,55,0.119,0.782,0.099,-0.4896,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,1,4,1,5,5,0,0,0,6,8,5,0,0,5,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,3,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,3,7,1,4,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,3,1,23,4,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31870594847576433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32769907673013715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4101289107544332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24485633455025416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2575641502214959,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3742737466887569,0.0,0.0,0.4899468453439174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3411912151685002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,benefitssupervisor,2019/04/09,"does anyone else feel like they gotta get a little drunk before they don’t feel guilty about eating it’s unhealthy but I’m making it a bad habit to have a beer or two with lunch so I know I can eat what I want without feeling bad 
 
It’s not exactly a perfect system because I feel guilty again as soon as I sober up, but right now I’m day drinking red stripe and eating shortbread and life is great (catch me crying in 20 minutes)
love to you all anyway",1.5167708333333323,3.413581302083333,2.705416666666668,94.66458333333335,79.72916666666666,4.683333333333334,20.041666666666664,5.033348758259628,-0.3309083333333329,359,9,78,1,9,115,73,96,0.257,0.611,0.132,-0.917,0,0,2,0,0,0,3.0,0,1,2,1,6,6,0,0,4,0,4,9,0,1,3,18,16,8,0,1,5,0,4,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,4,3,7,0,5,3,0,1,3,2,0,1,0,5,9,4,9,15,1,10,0,0,1,1,4,4,0,1,5,43,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12508759401965133,0.18329914233946926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29873982571697505,0.10905277558635497,0.0,0.15222653022163501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19650783657737125,0.1153725219671956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1565522832596199,0.0,0.0,0.1752490647184509,0.0,0.5491629602799393,0.1494438775324745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36181889485651386,0.12780267534483686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09346529161748274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19723244868680664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09831605318636527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12635888007068435,0.08739909595162076,0.17929985979454954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1614597872160015,0.0,0.119413849855405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15277541421691654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17475449109639715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10551694861176007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17244846574256004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,kckamienie,2019/04/09,"Found out that my crush is fasting (Just a disclaimer i wasn't diagnosed with any ED but had some food issues for the past 2 years, especially the past 6 months. I hope It's ok for me to write here, maybe someone can help) 
 I oveheard her convesation with a guy from her class, she said she was water fasting for a second day in a row. I don't know if its her first time fasting but I really don't want her to get into that. Im afraid she might get herself into problems with eating and i hate the idea of her waisting her life on thinking about food. I know how it feels and I don't want her to feel this way. Im really worried about her. Maybe she's doing it for the ""health reasons"", like cleansing or smth, and i shouldn't be worried, but what if she stumbled upon some proana blog? That would be terrible... What if she's doing it becouse she thinks she's fat? Or as a form of selfharm? If she's been dealing with some kind of ED already I can't realy help, but if it's just the start? And maybe she has no idea what she's getting herself into? Maybe I could talk to her and tell her that fasting and restricting can lead to binging later, feeling weak, cold and tired, having realy low self esteem and other stuff. I'm probably over reacting and making a big deal out of nothing but it Just breaks my heart to se her like that. Today she was weaker then usual and she told me she's super cold. Should I talk to her? I mean I overheard her convesation, she didn't tell me that. I just want her to be happy... And how do I start the convesation? I'm really worried.
 Also it's really triggering to me. She's so beautiful and skinny, what if it's the way to achieve that? I have been trying to get better with my eating habits for the last week. I miss the feeling of fasting... Ugh i don't know what to do",1.3010544853364008,3.321485093085112,2.997711328349628,91.67040540540545,81.04787234042553,5.6606095457159284,21.066417481311106,6.766488616294105,0.3578103220241511,1409,41,305,15,37,466,170,376,0.142,0.774,0.085,-0.9576,0,0,0,0,0,0,46.0,0,0,0,5,11,16,1,1,15,1,30,14,4,7,0,74,58,31,0,15,17,0,4,2,0,4,6,1,0,2,24,22,8,1,14,1,0,1,9,8,0,2,10,7,58,8,40,40,4,35,0,2,0,0,45,11,0,13,22,209,82,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09917977257530204,0.07187334938989813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0611183747764916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07948751472755726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07175821811391274,0.0,0.0,0.05796221753634436,0.18531524508961067,0.0,0.09122167020896482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18393000588533692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18177487268932185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07644799536629959,0.2173554548948845,0.09854377072014747,0.0,0.0,0.18782481209419236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08899080650167067,0.0,0.09567406711408807,0.0,0.08873338076219542,0.0,0.09553337997671964,0.0,0.10650281800940677,0.12048321329388265,0.0,0.0,0.08926658176624028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20291684297350865,0.19416177552613934,0.09380659918974492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0935914305792692,0.14817955865756027,0.07326047146330221,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06348167457402322,0.08781719122804772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05999254782815069,0.0,0.3611678005176486,0.09790069182258744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09534362898357383,0.0,0.0,0.0717377112534539,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0862378996266784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1715925362735927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09690091522542392,0.0859986491543463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23030600896976194,0.09240691140171302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08549211577922193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09375967523215986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07615116070136649,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12722858474798007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.102885865543189,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1444769334114102,0.15711017555096132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1151770938516058,0.0,0.0,0.0524070863493478,0.10329858627938432,0.08519139936259715,0.08587982547742401,0.0,0.06101951780783239,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0989850893147214,0.0,0.15903257270249574,0.14267786692686615,0.07209264923512511,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2738185873333311,0.0,0.06384492725520174,0.0,0.0,0.05787683063285505
EDAnonymous,donout_disturb,2019/04/09,"I'm not okay. Hi everyone. I'm a 17 old girl, English is not my first language, so I apologize in advance. 
In the last 6 months I developed a serious eating disorder. It all started by a diet, and it quickly escalated. I would starve myself for a whole day, and then binge in the evening. I get so excited when I eat, and I use it as a coping mechanism. If I feel depressed, anxious, whatever:I binge. And after I binge I punish myself, by fasting. 
Yesterday I binged hard, and today I'm fasting. 
I feel so fucking miserable, I truly can't help myself, I'm obsessed by food, I would love to learn that at the end of the day food is just food. 
I never told no one. I'm trying to open up right now, because I want to be free and live my life. I don't have support from my family, so I really feel like there's nothing I can do. 
I'm not asking for advice, because I know I need professional help, but I hope that I'm not the only one feeling like that.",2.066639447236181,3.3896218793969908,4.677710427135678,83.67827418341709,76.43718592964824,7.7890703517587925,27.010364321608037,8.472884824447931,1.925404271356784,730,29,154,14,16,260,115,199,0.12,0.746,0.135,0.7773,0,0,0,0,0,0,32.0,0,0,0,2,10,14,2,2,10,1,10,9,0,1,2,28,33,15,0,6,7,0,5,2,0,2,1,0,0,1,6,7,6,0,6,0,1,1,8,6,0,3,1,5,27,9,17,29,2,26,0,2,0,2,8,7,1,2,20,100,33,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1261094238249355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14579353320994518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1206474458417082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15733942846374174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1664574474985703,0.0,0.1111534469833398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14790630077228215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26410755660678925,0.0,0.0,0.11430294836411975,0.0,0.0,0.08523850960244063,0.0,0.0,0.12331599055566675,0.0,0.0,0.12165999730939725,0.0,0.2610129720129271,0.1843914543832097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10977269949236776,0.4681554091551969,0.0,0.0,0.1193077272223851,0.06742504023956143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11560643809920686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1730034581471121,0.0,0.0,0.1281790792287545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07092433701930043,0.10519569126799362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09115418596520147,0.12609787996075866,0.0,0.11395645778924113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1164756720030777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10300913950671224,0.0,0.0,0.09569141151275123,0.09953388663024734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12383015401794918,0.0,0.13541976433204211,0.0,0.17489975732332932,0.09815087544278148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08267486999753608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11021084161753662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09134461363872444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14644819343015578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1223274702855996,0.12331599055566675,0.0,0.08761874211866065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11146064454899113,0.0,0.0,0.07611899971617794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14408343801926474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1833515707015348,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,meepmelo,2019/04/09,I hate being rewarded with candy why? why is that a thing? are you trying to make me fat or just tease me? now I'm the asshole who is throwing away the lifesaver you gave me because I don't want to eat 15 calories.,0.26934782608695684,2.3296028913043507,2.363217391304349,94.50569565217394,85.30434782608697,4.549565217391304,22.243478260869566,5.6839178017228535,0.14541391304347773,167,6,37,1,5,56,37,46,0.153,0.7090000000000001,0.138,0.3222,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,2,0,1,2,3,2,0,3,0,5,2,1,1,0,5,10,1,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,1,2,0,0,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,1,0,7,1,4,8,0,3,0,0,0,0,5,1,0,1,1,25,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32752459150844804,0.0,0.0,0.21250554098515692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3567085487915531,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3441739190807513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23269563409276756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23159676583262545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2366789860134228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2056154566198012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6291211196265566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Jerry-Larry-Garry,2019/04/09,"ED and Alcohol In general, do you find that your ED has affected the way you drink (whether that be more/less?)

I’ve noticed that the worse my body image got, the more I relied on alcohol especially when going out with friends that I felt were prettier/skinnier than me. I’ve also occasionally used alcohol as an excuse to purge all of the food I would drunkenly binge.

I don’t know, I’m starting to feel like my alcohol use has gotten a little beyond just early twenties partying but damn, being drunk just makes me feel so skinny and pretty.",6.743142857142857,6.7558798380952405,7.64261904761905,71.43821428571431,64.9047619047619,11.190476190476188,33.6904761904762,10.864195022040775,3.748904761904761,433,17,78,11,6,146,78,105,0.094,0.799,0.108,0.1143,0,0,5,0,0,0,12.0,0,3,0,0,6,3,1,0,6,0,8,9,2,4,1,20,20,8,0,1,4,0,3,1,1,1,4,0,0,0,4,4,8,0,5,2,0,1,1,1,0,0,4,3,11,2,10,13,2,10,0,0,0,0,5,5,1,0,4,50,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6990133257955046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13076702040541208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18163404524003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16018751325102826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16536142177824156,0.1168188417051364,0.1570050060282286,0.0,0.14945447243046048,0.0,0.1977292379354583,0.0,0.1263352772630743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09293228060406616,0.0,0.1307820173353817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08986640869029171,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07988769505486634,0.16389016804677414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10915098284147964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1861687966868461,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1663587988602295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11574041754779553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2824578489382901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12979469924667594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16664102255590296,0.1161600367317298,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,hanabira,2019/04/09,"“Anyways, it’s better to be underweight than fat.” My boyfriend is my best motivation and worst critic. I’ve relapsed fucking hard because he told me he was less attracted to me—but whether I chose to get fit was my own decision.

Of course!!! I’ve lost 5lb since we had that conversation last week—mostly water weight but I’ve upped my step count and intermittent fasting.

He knows about my ED—he’s just the insensitive, engineering type who sees food as fuel and forgets to eat and has a really hard time understanding my obsession. 

At least when I ask him to hug me to keep me from going to the kitchen to eat food while I was on my 42hr fast, he did. :) 

Shitty toxic relationship? Maybe, but my ED fucking loves it and I honestly haven’t been happier with my body.",3.3362307692307698,5.350364100000004,4.6433333333333335,82.32346153846156,74.66666666666666,8.348717948717951,26.871794871794872,9.057496981413335,2.2111641025641022,605,23,121,14,13,200,104,150,0.114,0.693,0.193,0.9467,0,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,1,0,0,4,4,11,2,1,3,0,10,13,2,1,0,17,22,11,0,0,4,0,3,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,4,7,8,1,4,0,0,2,1,5,0,0,8,4,18,6,17,13,5,12,0,1,1,4,12,4,2,0,6,69,22,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16094039072204125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10494324565378936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1806645976018375,0.15225588229393608,0.0,0.19122385668600456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3523122520862019,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4163376684986145,0.0,0.0,0.3183064855019315,0.08994315830640652,0.0,0.0978388665200472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3084316487243489,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1530180427330814,0.0,0.0,0.09461112443742994,0.1403281730237283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.187926006701595,0.0,0.15537535859965315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1729514449925009,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11028601382705436,0.0,0.0,0.18482855550439573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13718414211847862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14240724907265495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1003841571588114,0.0,0.0,0.16450015633437928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17921798423412216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13809124557263094,0.2096367242602654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,shlxueqi,2019/04/09,"just wanna disappear okay so I’ve been eating normally recently, actively trying to shut off my ed thoughts and not go through with my usual routine of restriction, compulsive exercise, weighing 24/7 etc etc I’ve been trying to feel better in my own body and appreciating myself and trying not to care about the number on the scale and my measurements. I’ve also been trying to get myself out of depression and try to do my homework and not just sleep my days away.

we had a lesson in geography today about malnutrition etc etc and briefly talked about eating disorders. the teacher ended off by saying “I’m glad none of you appear to have an eating disorder, keep it that way.” my dumb brain immediately thought “oh so I’m not skinny enough huh” so I’m back here....... probably gonna relapse

I’m still pretty sure I don’t have an eating disorder or depression or any mental illness though.

I’m just a dumb, useless, fat, ugly, stupid kid and I should die already.

I should start getting back to how I used to be: constant restriction/fasting/OMAD, constant weighing, constant exercise 

I should just die, I have no place in this world. I’m failing everything, be it academics, weight loss, social life, etc etc. I’m useless and worthless.

sorry for this post.",3.8254180602006693,6.4688680598290595,4.817142326272762,78.64693979933111,75.66666666666667,7.659308807134894,28.549981419546643,8.587818076936951,2.5843261241174287,1002,43,169,21,23,326,137,234,0.231,0.6940000000000001,0.075,-0.9906,0,0,0,0,0,0,36.0,1,1,0,4,17,15,3,0,7,2,14,16,5,2,1,37,33,17,2,5,10,0,2,0,0,4,5,1,1,1,5,12,9,2,4,2,0,3,7,10,0,0,6,3,17,5,27,21,9,28,0,7,0,0,6,11,2,3,12,109,22,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09300668561659133,0.06739985218097101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057314282142745136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07918520495224396,0.12961447892156794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07454010128019871,0.0,0.09361770087179533,0.0,0.09408598161274832,0.0,0.0,0.08593056434792197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27323494639426205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05435456851799338,0.0,0.14518299399295978,0.0,0.17494169589062536,0.0,0.2897815608871089,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34496389311332776,0.0,0.0,0.07464835646623225,0.08708527683149818,0.5639766323967275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07574674070181765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.042615237961892906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08806716730559454,0.0,0.047899095323390456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07491323311241244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05953048687461113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08493588729585311,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08257793501103754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08805618608935747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08071834001767804,0.08574454336744451,0.0908696675170161,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08321777280944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06702399887631989,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08434232589745645,0.08591433346875671,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09434619294205997,0.059654850358297415,0.0,0.06730728189710264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07943427752268688,0.0,0.0,0.06774224408733126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0828061053858759,0.13382012797070236,0.0,0.0,0.07988896820406348,0.0,0.0,0.2861078908464001,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07279211993503479,0.09282411971286443,0.0,0.0,0.06689869904489686,0.0,0.10263211130484924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,anatookover14,2019/04/09,"My Animal Crackers So is it just me or do you get really possessive over your safe foods? I have a sister who always comes home late and then veges out while watching Netflix until like 2-3am almost every night. So when i have a safe food or multiple i try and hide them in a cupboard where she doesn't usually look but at least once a week she does and eats MY safe foods and i honestly dont know why this makes me so mad even when i have more than one of the thing. like tonight i woke up to get a water and found MY ANIMAL CRACKERS sitting out open on the table with like half of the bag eaten not having been open prior to this.and since my sister was still awake i asked her not to eat the things i put in that cupboard and she responded "" what like you need it anyway, there were two bags and i only ate like 3 "". Idk, when people eat my safe foods without asking it just makes me so angry. Which is why i hide safe foods like animal crackers in a cupboard so no one in my house hold eats them when im not around. 😡😒",3.774152823920268,4.151097767441861,4.6690531561461786,88.94052325581396,71.32558139534882,7.817275747508306,23.26411960132891,7.7094869923839395,0.8057840531561462,800,17,179,9,14,260,128,215,0.094,0.747,0.16,0.9384,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,3,2,0,17,13,1,0,10,0,12,12,0,2,0,35,26,22,0,1,9,2,0,6,0,0,0,0,1,0,10,14,12,6,2,1,0,2,7,1,0,4,7,2,28,12,20,19,2,31,0,0,2,0,15,14,0,3,20,118,38,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10053981081683176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0835439286784008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08938058742266132,0.18772782796044524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08648890455500037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08786396195171903,0.0,0.11767239864069348,0.0,0.0,0.4109522385976016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0663157025605258,0.0,0.0845944548211147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6070428145376746,0.11008748404689156,0.0,0.0,0.10491358740346186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10071310608329656,0.0,0.0,0.11585239919483002,0.0,0.0,0.1084532345857346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05517925242958195,0.0,0.1132597565104674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2943130824316216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08431382785316095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1340405101956105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07444807767139544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09422207893073567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10692667277218927,0.136072302749765,0.07636154470880546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06960728949552099,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10093345877275016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0643211866744061,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08305498524731236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08018253133653977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13340752512564358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06816752742591528,0.0,0.098079834013806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11058050002735086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08053779873218661,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1811974603183979,0.0,0.0,0.09678559211754934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,SwimmingPackage,2019/04/10,"Freelee on Meredith foster I never really watch freelee but her video criticizing Meredith's what I eat in a day video *really* pissed me off. It's basically freelee criticizing how meredith promoted collagen powder, which I kind of agree with, but then freelee basically bullies her for the rest of the video. Shaming her for eating eggs and turkey, adding that the latter can make you gain weight? Like really? You're going to criticizing the eating habits of someone struggling with an eating disorder saying what she's eating will make her gain weight? Not to mention the unnecessary comments about her eating disorder, pointing out how unhealthy her coffee habit is (not even related to veganism, mind your own business?) And she needed needed to eat more carbs. No shit. But thanks for finding the cure freelee. She also kept saying how Meredith has a privileged eating disorder but didn't say why. I don't even know what that means. 

She obviously has a lot of compassion for animals, but not for humans. I don't know, she just made me angry so I had to rant.  That this is cyberbullying and so many people don't bat an eye. There are other ways to get your point across, yet she had to stoop so low to pick at someone battling mental illness.",5.975092879256966,7.833524692982454,6.201991744066049,74.48521671826623,67.42105263157895,9.048916408668733,30.955624355005163,9.478462496947786,3.029990918472652,1002,40,167,21,17,320,131,228,0.221,0.669,0.11,-0.9862,0,0,0,0,0,0,27.0,0,3,0,3,13,10,3,2,11,0,13,15,3,7,2,33,25,16,0,2,9,0,2,1,0,1,1,3,0,1,10,6,11,1,4,3,0,1,9,6,0,0,5,7,23,4,26,19,4,15,0,1,2,0,21,9,2,1,5,113,33,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07218835976903526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05821625745902422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3103694577190369,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7389445768079181,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11924409739568576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08250454274673466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04716200519421146,0.0,0.051302147021510126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09400162813206203,0.09921933866159184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04410104056711376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07674376606504724,0.0,0.08541503353080028,0.12051097278314095,0.09151894392846467,0.0,0.09832977623719462,0.0,0.0,0.09097026463726204,0.0,0.09114630199928808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13386714581915254,0.06962128107862015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06258139541293424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17066741065869848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17348655489419024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21535741047556214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09266018182507416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15296984020373214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09436911529137876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0831078815673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07165160157572108,0.0,0.21984747844363567,0.0,0.0,0.08145404018881372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,itsmebutprivate,2019/04/10,"Are wrist checks obvious to non ED??? I do wrist checks like it’s crack. (Especially after a binge) it’s like my method of checking progress in way. 

I’ve started doing it on knowingly, and today in class a girl watched me do it. 

She didn’t react but like does she know what I’m doing???? I know wrist checks are fairly common/known in the ED community. But do non ED peeps know I’m tracking my weight loss or do they just think I’m weird?

P.S. sorry this is like my second post in a day. But I found this reddit on my main account today and fell in love with the ability get feedback from people that can relate. :-)",0.6007142857142861,2.9363366904761925,2.295523809523811,93.56614285714286,86.85714285714286,4.947301587301588,17.923809523809524,6.42735559955562,-0.14051999999999998,477,12,103,5,15,156,80,126,0.048,0.767,0.185,0.959,0,0,1,0,0,0,23.0,0,0,1,2,1,7,0,0,5,0,11,5,3,1,1,16,23,6,0,0,5,0,1,4,0,0,0,0,0,1,8,3,1,0,6,0,5,1,1,2,0,1,2,2,11,5,12,21,1,15,0,1,1,1,5,7,0,1,9,56,19,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1394363599611387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18920519504231065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2370610592572062,0.0,0.0,0.11295982634022425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4752893444056076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4225134926617403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19513628224145585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14989149695529935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2070676268995622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24202730476422105,0.15303323004456998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13853744214927813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4098800609092571,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17161595308898778,0.0,0.2632832603709705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Minyaksol,2019/04/10,"Desperate coffee addict in dire need of a good substitute I hope this does not count as a ""tip"", if it does feel free to call me out/ report my post !

I have a really long day tomorrow (4am to 8pm :) ). I usually drink coffee in the morning and carry a thermos flask filled with burning hot black coffee with me throughout the day, or Diet Coke (it hurts my back so I try not to lol). I just noticed that I ran out of instant coffee and whilst panicking, I noticed a 0 calorie Monster on my desk. I’ve never tried energy drinks. If you have, do they really help with concentration/staying focused and energy ? Thank you ☺️",2.476605571847508,4.382649637096776,4.507976539589446,82.82060117302055,76.8225806451613,7.734897360703813,24.982404692082113,8.575989854853784,1.8695580645161287,481,17,94,10,11,165,88,124,0.114,0.728,0.157,0.762,0,0,2,0,0,0,20.0,0,2,1,0,3,5,0,0,7,1,3,5,0,0,1,18,8,8,0,4,6,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,4,8,4,0,1,2,1,2,3,1,0,0,1,3,15,5,14,7,0,16,0,1,1,0,5,5,0,4,8,55,19,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20023520182309865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1412363882079701,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1875549032619876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2369131289639152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3214742179600397,0.0,0.0,0.3598673545703812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09287268432414914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15405967626799316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12311491978021025,0.0,0.0,0.18243285106278373,0.0,0.0,0.19663018459563647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16254849497257376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1361942770187812,0.1416631389815949,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.418235298167452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1759119336218336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23533656717846066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19577539951170547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1691052390093091,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24940945164249945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20229442753478788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Blahblahblahhhgh,2019/04/10,"Do you look down on people who are recovered/are recovering Knowing that they let go of their control that you still have, watching them expand and get soft and lazy? I always feel bad thinking about my friends who also have EDs and how I must look to them inflating before their very eyes, them watching me eating junk and no longer strict and ortho. I must look like such a failure to them, and even people who didn't know I had an ED before and thought I was just clean and disciplined. 

I think this, more than just my weight. Is what has driven me to relapse. I feel like I've let everyone down and proved that I really am the gluttonous monster I am within. Now everyone can see. Is this how you see me?",5.15413492063492,5.774561635714289,5.226666666666667,85.29611111111113,68.35714285714286,8.222222222222221,27.698412698412696,8.167268648758528,1.6289603174603178,559,17,113,7,9,175,89,140,0.08,0.825,0.094,0.2406,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,3,7,2,10,4,0,0,3,0,17,4,1,3,3,25,32,12,0,2,2,0,4,2,1,2,0,0,1,0,9,9,3,2,8,0,0,2,2,1,0,0,5,12,24,3,10,23,1,8,0,0,8,0,14,4,0,0,4,83,33,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1320355157929586,0.13738173805056475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13785693430821544,0.0,0.0,0.2809867445877547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18518084916042446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1689450498899784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10905120960830204,0.0,0.0,0.31553245116234085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16696549748596606,0.11795203386185972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1275607828683545,0.0,0.0862612712294782,0.0,0.09383376301863036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1814763017020215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3376649282872992,0.0,0.16132527894844215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4159433388661569,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2289279559426758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1057713775087203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26313682362258056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13185417169824393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21158700858274174,0.0,0.1310760264922354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13623005830386484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20105509603598185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,imjustlurkinganyway,2019/04/10,"Recovery is too hard. I don't know if I can do it right now. I have been eating and gaining weight and the people that are close to me have applauded and applauded ... but when the fuck did this happen? I look in the mirror and I just want to scream. I'm not ""healthy."" I'm fat. I worked so hard, I was 40 pounds lighter. I miss the feeling of picking up tiny clothes and knowing they would fit. Of ordering 00s online and knowing I'm good for them. Of loose shirts. I worked so fucking hard, I was 90 pounds and now I'm 130 and it's all in my stomach. I have no one to talk to about it because I don't want to be policed by my friends.

I just don't think I can do this. I have to start restricting again. I feel like I've failed and I can't look at myself in the mirror without crying right now. Sorry if this isnt the kind of thing I should be posting here or what but I lurk on here and I thought maybe you guys would understand. Idk what to say I'm just feeling so useless right now.",-0.6356964006259744,1.4836556338028188,1.1702347417840393,100.72355242566513,91.25352112676056,4.282316118935838,19.156494522691702,5.82211442006289,-0.3896397496087641,762,24,185,6,27,247,116,213,0.171,0.696,0.132,-0.8672,0,0,0,0,0,0,24.0,0,1,2,4,16,10,2,0,6,0,24,7,3,1,1,38,47,19,0,7,10,0,7,1,1,3,1,2,0,1,10,11,3,1,9,0,0,0,8,6,0,1,5,11,27,4,21,37,1,20,0,3,2,2,7,11,2,3,8,122,37,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08710833957866679,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15696502236108706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14621872566098582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21675819108919625,0.10208524068408134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11040143009502228,0.2642109004391464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11985474879095392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14148993536518986,0.1263628442703783,0.0,0.3840214102371609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14880464605237445,0.2355964284524936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06981197945753938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23999402960032204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14355867409256065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09683032156595052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09906639468842457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13685528312353154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3660983204505559,0.0,0.11363697940618132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15996085826201528,0.10114283115446494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1148547404711828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0949340409193303,0.0915622647172445,0.0,0.11344380655651964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14876022684463594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16856803765988673,0.0,0.0,0.17400935954722066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13774706267634487,0.0,0.20806061103337573,0.0,0.0,0.20301905299766335,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,DiabloDeSade69,2019/04/10,Esophagitis Think i might a gave myself esophagitis. Anyone have this? How did you know you had it?,2.2416666666666667,5.073995388888889,1.1722222222222245,97.345,95.11111111111113,2.4000000000000004,17.11111111111111,3.1291,-0.9740222222222216,79,2,14,0,3,22,16,18,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,4,0,0,1,0,4,7,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,4,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,1,0,12,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.458381105438226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3602773040371183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6954430000706037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.42005482978508185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,jesjjssm,2019/04/10,"Dark Circles? I had really bad dark circles under my eyes during my ED. I’m in recovery right now, and honestly they’ve gotten so much better, they’ve faded so much. Is this because of recovery? Have been seeing some progress lately (on top of getting my period back) so I just thought it might be related. Pretty sure I’ve been getting the same amount of sleep as before so Idk.",2.2895945945945932,4.83780491891892,3.9634459459459457,83.12192567567571,80.8918918918919,6.943243243243244,24.114864864864863,8.07648339933343,1.7822756756756761,300,11,54,6,8,100,55,74,0.069,0.7290000000000001,0.202,0.8744,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,3,7,4,0,0,1,0,7,2,2,0,1,7,13,6,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,5,2,5,3,7,6,5,10,0,0,2,0,0,5,0,2,5,34,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2044346694424272,0.22198714199102892,0.16206954610423355,0.0,0.2262325238893757,0.0,0.0,0.2351370169785369,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2778081952980682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2999086136962402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28204198588855395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3908844434931377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2704814697503446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17032067277166893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2270482516826469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21186091117468392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2660581697093535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25057571349841395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21106803695124474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,shes_toast,2019/04/10,"Any other artists who feel like they're wrecking their creativity with their ED? I'm a creative writing major in college and feel like I'm just barely getting by. I've been diagnosed EDNOS (or whatever they call it now lol)—I tend to go through intense restricting periods interrupted with binges. 

When I'm restricting, my brain is just vaporized. I spend most of my time in bed because I'm exhausted; my hands tremble when I try to write and draw. I bought myself a little set of gouache paints on sale before relapsing, in the hopes I'd finally have the energy to funnel into drawing more and experimenting with painting. I look at them and the books I checked out from the library on painting every day and feel so sad. There's a definite tug-of-war of ""up your intake, this is what you care about"" and ""you're not even good at this shit, why try? Starve."" With the irony being, of course, that I'd probably improve maximally if I ate a healthy amount.

I've upped my intake to around 1,000 a day in the hopes of boosting my energy and brain power—which isn't a lot because I'm 5'11"", and still I'm struggling with guilt over eating this amount.

Has anybody else dealt with these kinds of feelings around their ED and making art? How have you coped?",6.617278630460447,6.711549417355375,6.510932703659979,79.17016528925622,65.15702479338843,9.724203069657616,32.98819362455726,9.424239791934726,2.8302127508854777,997,38,191,17,14,315,151,242,0.111,0.741,0.14800000000000002,0.7979,1,0,0,0,0,0,31.0,0,3,5,0,13,13,1,3,12,0,8,8,4,2,0,38,28,15,0,3,5,0,5,2,0,0,2,0,1,0,9,19,2,2,4,3,4,1,2,6,0,0,3,6,20,7,35,24,6,27,0,1,1,0,12,16,1,6,11,109,29,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10264618461884438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26874193761413057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18402648866944926,0.0,0.1284410859255858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33700385584921155,0.1541293319224802,0.0,0.1538961013328295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1946910566228492,0.0,0.0,0.1532036222453728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1544520237170416,0.12609322361387734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09969620313683218,0.0,0.1271757008741333,0.0,0.0,0.14765088478122626,0.0,0.0,0.30528457619118193,0.2156669324537092,0.0,0.16535030564778536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0788613097481931,0.0,0.08578419196449301,0.12660354150384862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29984023841533985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15718355236233406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14748591821145265,0.15128419904721832,0.0,0.0,0.12675381824117385,0.0,0.0,0.12832605148946,0.0,0.0,0.10075539741759963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16274171671511214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15494047104528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1205430029917442,0.0,0.0,0.15779804105042136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08801587870134246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20496031555684527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1362022727218609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,skinnyfuckup,2019/04/10,"Everything was easier when I was skinny I‘m sorta recovered (sorta developed BED) and I’ve come to the conclusion that I hate it. When I was underweight, I could just buy the smallest size of clothing and it would fit (or be too big, which made me feel good). I wasn’t embarrassed to leave the house. I didn’t have boobs that draw attention to me. I didn’t hate to be seen eating. My thighs didn’t rub and chafe when I ran. I could wear whatever and it didn’t matter if the outfit was ugly because I was skinny and that’s what matters. I saved money because I wasn’t spending much on food and because I could buy children’s clothes. I could wear a bathing suit in public. I had fucking abs. I didn’t have heartburn from eating fatty foods. I actually enjoyed eating (small amounts of calorie calculated) healthy food. 

I still wasn’t confident or even happy with my body, but at least I didn’t cry when I looked in the mirror. And of course there were a ton of downsides, but all I can think about right now are the great things about being underweight that I miss so much. I can’t believe I let myself lose that. 

ok thank u for letting me rant i’m going to go cry and take a nap now ✌️",2.798264462809918,4.447275479338845,3.9033801652892564,88.62870661157027,75.19834710743801,6.988760330578513,24.909917355371903,7.7348632917899725,1.200599338842975,934,31,196,13,20,303,139,242,0.115,0.765,0.12,-0.1901,0,0,0,0,0,0,25.0,0,0,0,2,14,13,3,1,9,1,31,15,7,1,1,32,48,18,0,6,6,0,2,0,0,1,1,0,2,1,11,10,8,0,4,2,4,4,10,6,0,0,19,4,30,7,18,19,6,19,0,2,2,2,2,8,2,5,7,129,41,0,0.0,0.0,0.1153799382887083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21622418965483675,0.0,0.0,0.13320993380225388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13133201410284054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10184866008568932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3776029083651705,0.0,0.2597503670206669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3629506155361552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0780928546058244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10626165698854928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059782978869259824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4289093330069232,0.0,0.0,0.10930600545205103,0.0,0.0,0.1343909240227891,0.09916959370732416,0.0,0.1303540912848317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12586295670014616,0.0,0.23346442766799136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.136426882574311,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12519339596752252,0.0,0.2418058290682059,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09928730670971876,0.1322743019439486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11187646081195014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1738321070071736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10097172358557284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09442232412265213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08889772339486324,0.0,0.0,0.10885455722470072,0.0,0.0,0.07854983104077927,0.0757599734889848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08399048516525512,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,michellenemangepas,2019/04/10,"Guess who got the worst idea ever? It's me!

Summer is coming. I lost weight and thought ""hey maybe I'll look alright in a bathing suit!""

So I put my best two-piece on. It's hard to tell what I actually look like in a mirror on a picture, so I got the brilliant idea to film myself (just walking around, standing) from two angles (waist height and a little lower).

GOD IT WAS TERRIBLE. Worse than I thought. My body is a weird shape. Lighting was terrible too so my skin/stretch marks/scars/fat was just highlighted. 

Never going outside again.",2.0948799313893645,4.481811009433965,2.8625214408233286,91.70314751286452,80.41509433962264,5.363979416809607,23.78730703259005,6.574015621080383,0.6795962264150943,421,15,85,4,11,132,75,106,0.179,0.6829999999999999,0.138,-0.5476,1,0,0,0,0,0,23.0,0,0,0,2,9,8,0,0,7,1,5,3,2,0,2,13,15,5,0,0,2,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,5,4,2,0,4,2,0,4,1,5,0,1,8,5,10,3,9,7,2,17,0,1,2,0,3,8,0,1,5,50,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.16954378606350853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15466416551295215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18232791451962893,0.0,0.0,0.19298438907659574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14966039757461916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1571564868392929,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09873963537050558,0.0,0.2779092177826037,0.0,0.19139262664213014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15563563650610138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39225940486647903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08487989134706019,0.17413169383730068,0.0,0.0,0.29179328984373243,0.0,0.18965617691971728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17454374956257773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13399789885690594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17465525371413532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15185517145103086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2758580418242074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3394346830517282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21156677760043854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17705444973463966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,8yearsandcounting,2019/04/10,"well I feel like a right idiot now me: IF is stupid and I'm gonna lose weight the ~healthy way~ this time!!1! 

also me: fasts for one (1) day and breaks the moNTH LONG plateau I've been stuck at?!?! well fine then who would have thought just not eating makes you lose weight 🧐",-0.2669736842105266,2.0186700877193005,-0.3901973684210525,110.55049342105265,93.73684210526315,2.85,14.142543859649123,3.1291,-1.8714192982456144,213,4,54,0,8,60,49,57,0.236,0.635,0.129,-0.8453,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,1,0,2,5,8,2,0,3,0,4,3,0,1,0,9,10,5,0,2,3,0,3,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,2,3,0,2,0,0,0,1,4,2,1,3,3,4,4,2,5,0,10,0,2,0,0,2,2,0,1,7,26,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16882442232605335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13614834949775875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21601801819176092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10674345266939754,0.15081687574225774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10313757954249092,0.0,0.0,0.18682552039765965,0.0,0.4723557091328423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14091742373118346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1685058198089179,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14305345687422222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18028660667904803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1675975916059263,0.12309981590984236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16756912448849376,0.0,0.514149700406502,0.3796261079072992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14996633736709195,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,DelicateBones,2019/04/10,"Do you personify your ED? I always imagine mine to be myself, but not representative of the image that I want to be. She’s me, at my lowest weight prior to my semi and brief recovery. Though taller, and more foreboding. And I always think about this character hovering over me while I’m eating, weighing myself, cooking, binging, choosing food, etc. I think about her when my ED is talking shit to me. Anyone else?",3.9498701298701313,6.326996194805198,5.250649350649352,77.01025974025976,74.06493506493507,7.5168831168831165,26.584415584415584,8.418075326091056,2.157576623376624,325,12,55,6,7,108,58,77,0.111,0.871,0.019,-0.8485,1,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,2,0,0,4,1,1,0,1,0,4,6,1,0,0,10,8,7,0,1,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,3,5,0,4,1,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,1,17,0,9,6,2,7,0,0,0,0,5,3,1,0,3,43,19,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.43116553503506616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18116102294508005,0.26546725429827434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2651126847752057,0.21643557811503752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2889526742751134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31329139538897144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2659510912877535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2082458896275232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3320274843533761,0.2545535849158124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1528173796799292,0.0,0.0,0.3155005508154742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ororeo,2019/04/10,"skipping class to b/p so. what's in the title. 

i always feel anxiety about going to class because of my stomach issues. i feel like everyone sitting there in the lecture hall knows just by looking at me or something. i'm skipping class more and more because i feel like their eyes are on me and i feel like i'm going to dry heave or my stomach's going to growl and everything's going to come to a stop and all my classmates will just look at me.

that would be bad enough i suppose. but whenever i skip class i end up coming back to my apartment and it always, always starts with just the opportunity. i realize no one's there looking out for me, watching over me. i eat a couple bites of something that's not a safe food and it's like my brain goes haywire. i have to eat everything. i'm not even hungry. i'm just eating until i hate myself, then going and purging it up. 

i should be in class right now but i'm laying in bed and my throat's burning with stomach acid and my teeth ache and i'm thinking about my parents shelling money out for expensive college classes just for me to skip them and waste even more money on food that's just going to end up in the toilet at the end of it. 

ugh. :( not a great day.",1.6320238095238118,3.617462996031752,3.254999999999999,90.4275,79.75396825396825,5.469841269841268,23.595238095238088,6.42735559955562,0.611076190476191,953,33,199,8,24,315,120,252,0.139,0.813,0.048,-0.9752,2,0,2,0,0,0,21.0,0,0,2,1,15,10,1,0,9,0,7,12,7,0,1,42,32,18,0,2,13,1,4,4,0,3,0,0,1,0,8,17,5,2,7,0,3,8,4,3,0,1,0,10,29,7,38,27,5,38,0,0,5,0,3,19,0,2,14,130,37,8,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2696461731007249,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08263570710841184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08306141871592403,0.09019295504406018,0.13169709880206582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1205870698869092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1861009131990473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11952309190624508,0.0,0.06966455618786845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3315971017223308,0.0,0.0,0.28702341487555155,0.11161448478715567,0.0,0.14269359601036513,0.0,0.0,0.10321861691411176,0.1941644729245837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2184744885591649,0.2315104976222627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.261238647240676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3683446645041188,0.0,0.0,0.1190934441696586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10664829353658567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11274577436498467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05936547190429325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2110942580390778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27213109773177296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07319777008715866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11994444675773615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09224927431910902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1663195612176701,0.0,0.0,0.07645776220795057,0.0,0.0,0.09031032485606047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06921544298360745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07673496134428419,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,banishedlight,2019/04/10,Any guys here? Is everyone here a girl? :/,-1.7674999999999983,-1.1481827499999984,0.7199999999999989,97.025,126.5,6.6000000000000005,16.5,7.1686216300943375,0.97255,30,1,7,1,2,10,7,8,0.28300000000000003,0.7170000000000001,0.0,-0.4137,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4430477486057263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6225437680168879,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6450953025396576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,BabyBluePirate,2019/04/10,Any Sprite Zero lovers out there? I love Sprite so much but I hate all the calories so Sprite Zero is a godsend. Does anyone else feel this way? Am I the only one on Sprite Zero island? Come join me there's no food!,-1.1381666666666668,0.7600154888888895,0.5015277777777811,101.48562500000004,105.22222222222223,2.25,10.069444444444443,3.1291,-2.0467222222222223,167,2,37,0,8,53,35,45,0.14800000000000002,0.608,0.244,0.6582,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,4,3,1,0,3,0,2,3,0,0,1,5,6,3,0,0,1,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,1,0,0,1,1,1,0,4,0,1,4,2,2,6,2,4,0,0,0,2,2,2,0,0,0,24,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2158883190777568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2219801769529319,0.3252822661649708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27346954876014945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2778173472174744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2652027856094137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1605207593419405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.383882130138764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3134327522433603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2865261932479101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23337463557832944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21512372843194533,0.24144781670653825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25199037910517863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,rocksnowls,2019/04/10,"Can we talk about body dysmorphia manifested around the face? I know i must not be the only one here who has strong dysmorphic feelings about my face. The things i feel about my face aren't necessarily related to my eating disorder, they're specifically just about the appearance of my facial features.

Needless to say I have no idea how my face actually looks let alone how other people see it. I always just assume that my ugliest perception of my face is how other people see me. My parents say i'm pretty but in my head i feel like i can't trust them because they're ""supposed"" to say that.

Some days it messes with my confidence more than dysmorphia about my body. I hate exposing my hideous-feeling face to the public. I can lose weight until i die but I can't change how ugly my face feels.

And btw i am completely aware that most celebrities with ""perfect faces"" have had work done. I'm not necessarily comparing myself to other people, these are just the images of myself that plague my thoughts.",5.767200966572695,6.96697304188482,6.14104712041885,77.20293596455902,67.27225130890052,9.227708417237213,29.35199355618204,9.466822959209583,2.6042763592428506,805,28,146,16,13,259,111,191,0.135,0.763,0.102,-0.6762,1,1,0,0,0,0,18.0,1,0,1,4,14,7,1,0,6,0,16,14,12,4,2,30,29,8,1,1,7,1,5,1,0,1,0,3,0,0,12,5,2,0,9,0,0,1,6,3,0,1,3,11,31,4,19,23,3,5,0,1,3,0,9,2,0,4,3,102,43,1,0.0,0.0,0.139015928078335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14754083965249462,0.0,0.0,0.11853431073245076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12681551479091302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08683949406247501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3164716864593802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15069893200298054,0.0,0.14936178421907903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.091871952662126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14784622196177552,0.0,0.16326623851537778,0.0,0.0,0.1457813411216536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1457674456920716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36014867116682203,0.1017701714339955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14064522206768845,0.14620034626853087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16081481510193096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07828976631743441,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.145670305606142,0.0,0.0695965163027552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11962666381492285,0.1593711620788022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09653147075659828,0.10834375653276666,0.0,0.0,0.15817987133793862,0.0,0.0,0.29628192782507584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14492836286027586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3398587728621143,0.0,0.0,0.2270370316973933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11450026026712425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09464104266728487,0.0,0.0,0.11309368096716775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1734723083726035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10370923314495516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,101goal,2019/04/10,"Liquid fast Starting today a liquid fast. I’m planning to have a monster absolute zero rn cause i have to go to class till 9 pm... And water for the rest of the day. I hope I can make it trough the day without messing it up.

What are your thoughts about liquid fast?

What has triggered your ed?",0.218,2.597659133333337,1.888333333333336,94.8825,91.0,3.6666666666666665,20.833333333333336,5.148860815047168,-0.13066666666666604,228,8,47,1,8,74,43,60,0.0,0.941,0.059,0.504,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,2,0,1,1,2,0,0,5,0,5,1,0,3,0,7,11,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,1,1,0,1,0,0,1,1,1,0,1,1,0,5,1,9,10,1,10,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,1,8,31,9,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3767952826017523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4730995621149993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2084557162448911,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3643061164682849,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2448357681438296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25961648074902444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29119099677957344,0.0,0.0,0.34767487725203666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3535733302831248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,moneetree,2019/04/10,"My eating disorder is leading me to drug use. I do drugs. 
I haven’t really been into heavy drugs until my eating disorder spiraled. 
I learned that coke was an appetite suppressant when I first tried it (not smart; I should have been more careful) . My usage has gone up HEAVILY and I’m scared it’ll keep getting worse. I’m addicted to thinking about anything besides my body/weight which is why I love doing drugs. 
When I’m on acid, I don’t obsess over calories and eat whatever the fuck I want because I’m not fixated on my body. It’s a liberating feeling. 

I know it may seem dumb that I use drugs to avoid eating and to also eat. Wow. I sound fucking stupid re-reading this. 
Basically, my drug usage has gone up a lot and I feel almost dependent on it to cope with my eating disorder.
I don’t want to end up a fucking druggie because of this fucking disease. I don’t know what to do. I know asking strangers online isn’t the best option but it’s the only one I’m willing to take. 
I’m just so lost. I feel like a failure.",1.60257142857143,3.7518975428571433,3.5938095238095267,87.10785714285716,80.71428571428572,6.2857142857142865,25.714285714285715,7.447530270364453,1.418285714285714,804,33,162,12,21,272,115,210,0.14,0.7759999999999999,0.084,-0.8803,0,1,7,0,0,0,24.0,0,0,0,4,6,16,6,3,8,0,20,20,1,4,0,33,51,10,0,3,4,0,3,1,0,4,7,1,0,0,12,6,7,3,9,0,0,3,7,10,0,2,6,5,24,6,20,41,3,16,0,1,0,5,2,8,5,6,6,100,36,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0904247874068208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08305972722774695,0.0,0.0,0.06633291625090038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06825855046251099,0.0,0.07754451722541716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10112779375994098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08704806132199915,0.0,0.0,0.09213573784786268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08457028826975085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28519433481497675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5771551204000793,0.5092547006638241,0.0,0.0,0.07346667711446313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12582192330993808,0.0592575591256134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07055492080482766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30673372466947946,0.043336534460422266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07372736077799275,0.0,0.0,0.1367569806884334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04052385509070297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09054676329787197,0.07051881804017751,0.07486316590435678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056207229046002685,0.06308515027701793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08296973472081076,0.0,0.05313815668376764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08304470556606018,0.0,0.0,0.07551209571900032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06236603766365122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05314927288997661,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056315763753541775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14327964940965826,0.0,0.0,0.09784891911291724,0.0,0.0,0.10100745066262504,0.0,0.0,0.0748470258006842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08453037286385724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,chzkayla,2019/04/10,"i wish the r/proed page still exist. that place was my safe haven. and when it got taken down, i feel like absolute shit.
and i hope that this could act like the new proed and not be taken down. 

this page is sometimes the only support i get. and i believe it is the same for many others.",0.9185000000000016,2.8979191833333324,2.0766666666666684,97.985,82.16666666666666,4.666666666666667,16.666666666666668,5.46131890053228,-0.7953333333333332,221,4,51,1,6,70,41,60,0.054000000000000006,0.7040000000000001,0.243,0.8909999999999999,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,0,2,6,1,0,4,0,5,1,1,0,0,11,13,5,0,3,1,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,7,4,0,1,1,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,4,1,6,5,3,7,3,7,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,1,5,33,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2965184513990445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21013115620646236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1330738317207601,0.18801883432921632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13750287412014905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21049243505331436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.261401279604823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2571569976592815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2668274551682802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2541849258484349,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2001634322032256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2749714573952504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27015478381328656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2602958885374613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2101792300858702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2986582942301991,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30264882417985023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,FlarpyBlundergufff,2019/04/10,"I think about this at least once a day. When I was 13 I went to a mates house, and her little sisters came downstairs while we were hanging out. One of them took one look at me and said 'you're really fat.' And the other agreed with her, and said it was gross. I just agreed with them and made an excuse to leave. 

I always think about this when I'm eating. Fill me up with shame.",0.7026249999999976,2.6284260125000003,1.5850000000000009,101.51000000000002,82.625,4.5,13.75,5.148860815047168,-1.3768749999999996,291,3,71,1,8,90,55,80,0.095,0.8340000000000001,0.071,-0.4404,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,1,0,2,0,5,2,0,1,4,0,3,2,1,1,0,15,13,8,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,1,2,0,0,4,11,2,0,2,0,0,5,0,2,0,2,9,3,12,0,12,4,1,14,0,0,1,0,10,5,0,0,4,47,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18961062442725926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.260628801634724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1469608099458777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23317346874548145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2629376676465428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24128719295861775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22839106027414005,0.0,0.0,0.19135798136368312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21562125524946293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2426799111915085,0.30882859711993005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14598284474009374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4335234610726596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29202676707513536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2531780033069249,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2112428199064292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Bootybumpin_,2019/04/11,So Embarassed My friend caught me purging in the bathroom after lunch. She confronted me and now I’m so embarrassed 😞,1.8727272727272712,4.477222181818182,2.6459090909090897,85.88886363636364,99.9090909090909,5.836363636363638,28.22727272727273,7.1686216300943375,2.3732363636363645,96,5,16,2,4,30,20,22,0.198,0.667,0.136,-0.1475,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,0,3,3,1,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,1,0,4,1,2,1,0,4,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,2,11,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,xxpepperbombxx,2019/04/11,"Relapse Issues Hey guys I have been having a really hard time with relapsing recently but its been different this time than all the others. My ED used to be based about so much other stuff like weight, number or the usual.. 

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When I am dealing with a long period of depression, stress, anxiety etc. I get soo hungry  that all I want to do is eat. But I physically can't bring myself to actually put food in my own face.  I go back and forth between my thoughts of being so hungry but I just can't bring myself to want to. I end up going to bed stomach growling and crying because of how hungry I feel but I can't eat. Sometimes I get so mad that I will go in the kitchen and be so angry that nothing is ok to eat. It is like my brain is frozen or there is an invisible force stopping me from actually picking a food to eat. 

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Also..DAE hoard food to look at? I tend to buy food that is safe that I can eat but then during these long periods  I will just keep collecting food just to look at it. I will be so hungry for my safe foods but I will open my drawer and just stare at the food and then close it. 

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Why am I like dis???",2.932665732959851,4.122117457983197,4.4406162464986,86.77578898225958,74.0,7.473762838468722,24.146591970121374,7.984000788550335,1.1578563958916903,897,26,193,13,18,300,128,238,0.132,0.7809999999999999,0.087,-0.9352,1,0,0,0,0,0,33.0,0,0,0,0,14,9,1,1,8,1,25,17,3,3,2,34,41,22,0,2,12,0,3,3,0,4,0,0,2,1,14,9,14,4,2,0,1,6,3,3,0,0,3,6,27,6,27,30,5,28,0,1,3,0,3,8,0,2,17,134,41,0,0.0,0.0,0.1454105171559694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05958090539555087,0.0,0.242175498069173,0.2715919252913207,0.0,0.0,0.056995435962699466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057289057443214025,0.0,0.045417010538791436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08317122053124268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08183926027377772,0.0,0.07681046020369044,0.06417027597413306,0.0,0.0,0.07784093173967324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3811814940127737,0.0,0.0,0.06598852253571612,0.0,0.08309177071068242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03767151379796765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6306346116926231,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07785063904294731,0.0,0.12702719848699312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07377077690489595,0.0,0.0,0.06674104347231405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07776292825151268,0.0,0.06622267127472492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10919682623132436,0.0,0.0,0.1318675758272649,0.1251293667670169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054769089308610484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07148869758795891,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07489720312446672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.047729237084862,0.0,0.07356381488307677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07368646434687041,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06228876737693236,0.08534419990214742,0.0,0.0852893746222114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05914793672866525,0.08688788487922679,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06434762497320982,0.08205574516970382,0.0,0.0878889022558917,0.0,0.0,0.09072592767386356,0.0,0.0,0.06722836587647223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2715919252913207,0.0
EDAnonymous,MsOlivine,2019/04/11,"Laughing at whats not funny I used to say to myself that the day I could laugh about my ED would be the day id be ready to talk openly about it. I love smart sharp comedy about politics and social issues---you know the shit that makes you laugh about things that are deeply unfunny. But id never heard anyone do it right about eating disorders and was skeptical that one ever could. But then i stumbled across this reddit community where people share the utterly shitty and ridiculous things people have said to them, stories that are relatable as fuck, and I find myself laughing out loud even though they were in no way meant to be funny nor are they. I relate to the pain so deeply, and it is validating and heart wrenching that we all share this shit yet have to face it daily alone. Somewhere the sadness and despair turned to anger and rage, and all I can do is draw dry, cynical humor out of the infuriating, the relatable, and the absolutely absurd. Honestly, its a great fucking coping mechanism. So I just wanted to say thank you for that.",10.734249999999996,7.564082725000002,9.854000000000003,68.94200000000002,59.25,13.0,37.0,10.9516,3.79475,835,24,154,15,8,266,124,200,0.173,0.619,0.209,0.8753,0,1,0,0,0,0,19.0,1,2,3,0,13,24,9,0,10,0,18,9,4,2,4,31,30,18,0,4,4,0,1,0,0,1,1,5,0,0,17,14,1,0,3,0,0,0,4,12,0,1,5,6,17,12,22,19,2,15,0,2,0,3,15,8,4,0,6,112,34,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16586879044160588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11198174405910978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2557360912860597,0.0,0.0,0.20656910587559688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18354764393560613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16387510034275166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1057786418051128,0.14486631903262792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14637568928115702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2961152042967543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17656773848834034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1897804537554112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08801514803368722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1445430996539924,0.0,0.10690245724544152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12351881081025115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10852288987685377,0.0,0.17041262684204786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2220579518358081,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13676861776296972,0.1523408753715592,0.25471800986710386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3287866954234922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16325441936554005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12872381450782838,0.0,0.14744610471272215,0.0,0.0,0.21279525466072588,0.0,0.1573481642572361,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17419898575637524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13831958876457345,0.0,0.0,0.09446158130984644,0.12712091018964045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11376712363989493,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,thothothothothothot,2019/04/11,i have a 23 inch waist why am i so fucking sad,-1.6925000000000026,-1.1168452499999972,1.8733333333333315,103.005,84.83333333333333,4.800000000000002,20.333333333333336,3.1291,-0.7852666666666668,35,1,11,0,1,13,11,12,0.315,0.685,0.0,-0.5678,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,1,0,2,2,1,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,3,0,1,0,1,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,6,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7156236940749818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6984860259722284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,throwrwayw,2019/04/11,"why am i so angsty!!!! alright I'm 22 years old i should not be as much of a brat as i am being

I'm a senior in college and I'm in a sorority and tonight is our last date party and all of my friends are out in the common room and I'm sequestering myself in bed

I got ready by myself because I had to work while they went to dinner, they're probably about to leave and not notice I'm not with them

nobody cares that I had a shitty day. I can hardly get myself to drink because of the calories. I've had two shots on an empty stomach so hopefully that gets me drunk enough to have some degree of fun. my friend brought cupcakes and i am about to cry because they look so good but I can't bring myself to eat it because of the calories. I feel like I need to get drunk to be able to enjoy my last party but !!!! can't!!!! 

I feel like a whiny self-centered child and I normally don't post and just lurk so thank you for being a community where I'm not self-conscious and can rant and I hate everything okay bye sorry love you guys",1.1234615384615412,2.7795369457013592,3.0290022624434383,93.02739479638012,79.99547511312217,5.686968325791856,21.00475113122172,6.508806274219699,0.1688495927601812,799,22,183,7,20,268,125,221,0.101,0.701,0.198,0.9735,0,0,1,0,0,0,19.0,1,2,3,1,8,14,1,0,10,2,19,7,1,0,1,27,41,19,0,4,7,0,3,2,2,1,0,0,2,2,3,12,5,0,2,3,0,3,7,1,0,1,6,4,28,13,28,30,4,22,0,0,1,1,12,8,0,2,13,116,31,3,0.14243273662273928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3473026969294273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14521966763116656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15645567305401892,0.09185733195535972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13952985718112548,0.0,0.14574424793674173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1471710916017523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.128009359560643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14403654252269124,0.2035079510053828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22008635799009751,0.0,0.22324567857291253,0.0,0.0,0.11946582180373595,0.1139164709553174,0.0,0.0,0.14103080249946395,0.0,0.0,0.1275917553733581,0.14062283947441226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14146784547503272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23220338118330505,0.0,0.15081570241984366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1391708811168932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11960762616172856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12855110574733766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10470444993843518,0.10561206944710863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1395538405568605,0.0,0.16216061468281068,0.14945919732034602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13641118963965193,0.0,0.1535665803513928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2971768154462647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15944178750925642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13113292744054306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1391360873943276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13203657382180498,0.12852339080703393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1036927286270601,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09172201254433927
EDAnonymous,aliensbruv,2019/04/11,just finished up a tattoo session and I sat in the chair the entire time wondering if my heart rate was jacked up enough from the adrenaline to burn calories lmao sob,6.440312500000001,7.15561240625,5.7687500000000025,82.20125,65.5625,8.9,31.625,8.841846274778883,2.4814500000000006,135,5,25,2,2,41,29,32,0.059,0.826,0.115,0.4404,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,4,0,1,1,1,0,0,4,3,2,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,2,0,5,1,1,5,0,1,0,0,0,3,1,2,2,16,2,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5174142183363374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5933975941968342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2919945175142878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5430479017604288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,tumjin,2019/04/11,"My advisor literally doesn't understand what an ED is, how do I get her to understand??? my advisor knows I'm bulimic but she keeps trying to get me to eat in front of her even though I hate eating in front of people. How do I get her to back off???",2.1687735849056606,3.1558454528301887,4.9397641509434,83.24662735849058,75.60377358490567,9.828301886792454,24.57075471698113,10.125756701596842,2.2845509433962268,191,6,44,6,4,69,35,53,0.113,0.887,0.0,-0.7912,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,0,5,1,1,0,1,0,4,2,0,2,0,7,13,4,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,1,3,0,0,2,1,1,0,0,0,0,10,0,9,13,0,6,0,0,0,0,4,3,0,0,1,31,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19234843585209271,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5119278788749261,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16522045025846754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3920761481764575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24696944460117146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22234311064144527,0.0,0.0,0.13747484501156262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17342118484268526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2457692224279183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16983412886317256,0.0,0.0,0.5208259547145467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,drunkonhalloween,2019/04/11,"The Starbucks barista yelled across the store at me for ordering extra caramel (TW-calories/numbers). 
I allow myself one treat throughout the day, and that’s a Skinny Iced Caramel Macchiato, with extra caramel. The “Skinny” part means it’s made with sugar free syrups, which makes them 0 cals instead of like 100-150, and non-fat milk, which cuts down more cals. All in all, it makes the drink around 175 calories instead of like 350, so I’d say it’s worth it.  

My boyfriend goes up to the counter and orders it for me while I grab a table, and I’m sitting there on my phone, and apparently she tells him there’s no point in getting it “skinny” if you get extra caramel (which, is just not true, because you’re still cutting out the calories from the milk and syrup). He says it’s not for him, he’s just ordering it for me, so she YELLS across the Starbucks the same thing she said to him. I didn’t hear her, because I was on my phone, zoning out at 7:30am, not expecting to be yelled at, so she yelled AGAIN to get my attention. At this point I feel like everyone in the store is looking, (and there’s a lot of people in there getting their morning coffee) and she yells across the store AGAIN that “THERES NO POINT IN GETTING IT SKINNY IF YOU GET EXTRA CARAMEL”  

lol thanks for telling everyone i’m trying to cut out some extra calories, failing at it by getting extra caramel, and making me feel guilty about the one thing i usually never let myself feel guilty about",5.9660545193687256,6.109454344947737,5.38436154949785,86.52868005738884,66.52613240418117,8.007296577167452,30.81963517114163,7.285733465282438,1.6846632096741132,1155,40,235,9,17,350,140,287,0.077,0.843,0.08,0.2108,1,0,1,0,0,2,38.0,0,2,2,1,18,11,3,0,16,1,6,8,4,5,4,40,27,15,0,3,7,0,4,3,0,0,0,9,0,0,18,15,8,0,5,1,5,0,7,4,0,2,4,21,29,8,40,21,13,35,0,1,1,0,23,24,0,4,10,157,47,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1158761912520556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15869714109990174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08394692065027308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12751406556005934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2487602166115228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19744897791775887,0.0929913021153872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4760480484979662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14670762398159395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13310453551360116,0.0,0.19077900476620704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1093074628756436,0.0,0.0,0.11066329443798674,0.0,0.1231671247021912,0.2606623693605033,0.0,0.0,0.14178997901321358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10039278396401477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1764090014644692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14095813282469158,0.0,0.09024138040152556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3691495521737409,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12381858673785548,0.2070279819615108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.103951502268502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2275433204752235,0.11984024813434585,0.0,0.0,0.1729542884163582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0883748213449581,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1433605164097244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,gaymeowth,2019/04/11,"Anyone else weird about Lean Cuisines? I love to eat lean cuisines for a meal (even though i know they have a shit ton of sodium) but when I'm in Dillons looking at them I still feel like a lot of them are too many calories for me??? Like I never get the pizza ones because they're all over 300 calories
Even low calorie meals are ""too many"" calories for my dumb brain :/",4.156400000000001,4.805338506666672,3.790666666666666,94.60200000000002,70.6,6.0,27.0,3.1291,0.399,288,9,64,0,5,86,55,75,0.179,0.7120000000000001,0.11,-0.6917,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,3,0,8,7,2,0,4,0,3,7,2,0,2,6,9,3,0,0,1,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,2,0,0,0,1,4,0,1,0,2,9,3,10,9,3,7,0,1,1,1,4,4,2,1,5,39,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16038339164796442,0.23502041401442744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13982405013255125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25605685559627783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2347065106054033,0.19161225481653965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3029982695690839,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11597821105722407,0.16386458380731553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11983826684381635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12605776125963156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2241207618636374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1926160996103216,0.0,0.0,0.1950052776261376,0.20701867752283076,0.0,0.0,0.4650977658222952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17690710192559955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15542952376863273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2354487590089296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18317809588510647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2253584498544303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,motenashite,2019/04/11,"Children are just so honest. :’) I work in an elementary school, and the kids are honest to a fault. They’ll point out zits and your lack of makeup and roast your clothing choices—most of the time not with malice.

So it feels extra nice when one of my students came up to me and said, puzzled, “Miss M, you look different. You look tall and your legs are all...big.”

I asked him if he meant I looked fat (jokingly but not rly lmao) and he responds, “No, you’re just...like a tree. Tall.”

I haven’t lost that much weight and I don’t see the difference but it was so nice to hear 🌼🌼🌼",0.018701298701302,2.1571507107438066,1.5311275088547838,99.47902892561984,87.34710743801655,4.779456906729634,16.90731995277449,6.18269132825596,-0.5829721369539551,440,10,106,4,14,141,84,121,0.1,0.8079999999999999,0.091,0.2362,1,0,0,0,0,0,23.0,0,5,1,2,5,8,0,0,6,0,7,4,2,0,0,20,19,14,0,2,6,0,2,0,0,1,2,2,0,2,3,10,2,0,2,1,0,1,5,3,0,1,5,8,14,5,10,13,3,9,0,2,4,0,15,6,0,2,2,61,17,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1974259248182713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24153504594665695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4412788355102055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10677956551361023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23801657286086775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5320170894126403,0.0,0.23052923821059104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15524248882892122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14310185391472444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19963450409489594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20088169157124305,0.0,0.0,0.2137266598518724,0.16828408335927206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1231414623468218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2571618223198936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15374243668718818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,SoftElevator,2019/04/11,"I am one if those weeble wobble toys... You know those things we had when we were kids? That you’d push over and they bounce back up? I am one of those things. I’ve been woozy and falling all day, I have a UTI and I’m pissing knives, I hate my fucking job. 

I just want to not bounce back up for once and just stay the fuck down. I’m so fucking tired. What’s a hunger cue again? I just want to lay down and sleep for a day and wake up feeling something other than this. 

I got sick of feeling like I’m gonna pass out and the last few days have been hitting electrolytes hard, upping my calories (I heavy restrict) and still nothing. Either I’m malnourished as fuck after 15 months of this bullshit, or...guys, I’m just so tired. How do you all keep going?",0.8569936708860766,2.861707405063292,1.7042879746835449,100.432128164557,82.54430379746836,4.203164556962025,18.735759493670887,4.557286568694721,-0.7875708860759496,582,14,137,1,16,180,99,158,0.208,0.7390000000000001,0.052000000000000005,-0.9813,1,0,1,0,0,0,24.0,2,3,1,0,13,7,6,0,5,0,10,11,3,1,2,28,30,14,0,3,7,0,3,1,0,1,3,0,0,1,10,11,1,2,3,1,0,4,1,6,0,2,5,3,16,1,18,22,4,24,0,0,0,4,7,8,5,1,12,86,26,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2309165232159484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2905084699065094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15184356976253105,0.1072692152092149,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.555255505103525,0.0,0.0,0.08533531631107077,0.0,0.1200909387413272,0.0,0.0,0.1486749134832883,0.0,0.0,0.13450744699114225,0.1482448381637199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1490035196128172,0.13346273870878184,0.0,0.0,0.08252007119031643,0.12239460102372356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07335709058851078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1198505602249615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14407569467005793,0.0,0.0,0.15990786864256865,0.2034948937423647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15026127341816792,0.0,0.0,0.11559498806099587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16004294346541914,0.1199122478608246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1995097429915551,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34515719054069105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17712806462485106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Light__Bright,2019/04/11,"Anxiety from psychiatrist ranting how men prefer ""T&A"" I had a psychiatrist appointment today with someone new, because my former psych left a couple weeks ago. I was just recently diagnosed with BPD (borderline personality disorder) and like many people with bpd, I also struggle with disordered eating issues. I have lost about 20 lbs from restriction and my meds quelling my appetite. I told the psych that I'm happy with the weight loss, and I'd like to lose another 10-15 lbs (I would be at the low end of healthy; not underweight.) She started ranting to me about how men like T&A and not ""12 year old boys"" (body shaming much!?) I told her that I don't care what those men want. She said I should bring that up in therapy. Then she started saying that she bet my boyfriend liked me heavier, and that he wants should be the most important thing (UGH.) I'm not super feminine and I have no desire to have that hourglass shape or wear curve-hugging dresses. (I actually am somewhat into fitness, and I'm working toward having a lean and athletic body.) When I told her that, she said that isn't a ""normal"" mindset for a woman, and that I should talk about it in therapy. Wtf. I was so angry that I got major anxiety. Does anyone else feel like they are treated like a freak for not wanting a ""curvy"" body?",5.520770872865279,6.709929971774192,5.991347248576852,78.09084440227706,67.83064516129032,9.061100569259963,32.33017077798861,9.325443323948027,2.9600803605313093,1035,44,187,20,17,334,151,248,0.139,0.747,0.114,-0.7582,0,0,0,0,0,0,47.0,0,0,1,5,9,18,0,2,11,0,17,7,4,2,0,38,35,16,0,10,6,0,2,6,0,4,1,3,0,6,14,15,2,1,2,0,1,1,7,8,0,0,10,5,29,10,22,19,4,24,0,4,0,0,22,10,0,4,19,118,43,3,0.0,0.0,0.09971058226810847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09057426278984593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08171137666306799,0.0,0.22141873821176689,0.0,0.0,0.10714210539800016,0.15633114351336044,0.0,0.0,0.07144494217744463,0.10469300915293976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.062286506564615526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3404887831679288,0.2573781792144001,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10417685622588704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11305755276857625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10370809649962603,0.0,0.0,0.2342087260377649,0.0,0.08941629194237541,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10455317665110406,0.08535625992936911,0.0,0.09049901112711008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05166405634452742,0.07299568611656351,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08172074767870892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10876993769189333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10664685067469568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1110162435135036,0.0,0.0,0.2995128368514391,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11431057999819945,0.11153890254830534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10359203233140474,0.0,0.0,0.11349626105597625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07511228062545129,0.0,0.0,0.09868374691817326,0.0,0.0,0.10011233754085704,0.0,0.0,0.10721818583433076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07083707108801934,0.08921752479788878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10088803697723196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1943885608075047,0.08125571556066759,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08657473497782679,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14464363910821776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10681819547646708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08212647125336278,0.0,0.0,0.23369794334794944,0.0,0.06788224630992153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09685240191059494,0.2929051794682592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18080095835379006,0.0,0.08196069428089997,0.12442476998375572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07438649776617991,0.0,0.0,0.07258402374815721,0.0,0.0,0.06579901379370676
EDAnonymous,carlems,2019/04/11,"please promise me I can do it 4000+ calories. I’m physically hurting. I was supposed to be weight 54,9 kg on Sunday but because of the binging I’ll weight at least 55,7 kg. Please promise me I’ll get to the 54’s by next week. I’m so so so tired. I’m so tired but I can’t give up. I’m tired and scared and hurting and deep in self-hate right now. I hope you all are doing okay today, I’m not but I hope I will be soon.",-2.76349226804124,-1.1624994432989677,0.27746778350515555,103.87125322164951,105.28865979381443,2.8373711340206187,15.340850515463915,4.557286568694721,-1.323927319587629,322,9,85,1,16,111,61,97,0.243,0.588,0.16899999999999998,-0.9244,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,1,0,0,6,8,0,1,2,1,9,5,0,0,1,10,18,10,0,2,4,0,2,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,1,3,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,1,2,9,5,8,14,2,12,0,2,0,0,2,6,0,2,6,44,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09859315907856507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08450072284010685,0.15515252980294494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3212819691119411,0.0,0.0,0.3462848523481634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17200875938753366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3550765405147943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1381222131779176,0.0,0.0,0.16192659924813824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16872659670540188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5576774513427997,0.1533074303791041,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1297353827516958,0.3939033288886145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ashworthxx,2019/04/11,the blood won't stop flowing i don't wanna say it but i had a huge eating attack aka a binge a little less than an hour ago or so and then made myself throw up furiously.. it wasn't the first time of course but my stomach never hurt more than today. i felt like it would come straight out of my mouth too if i didn't stop.. my head also felt like exploding and my nose was bloody to no end. still is! and the blood won't stop flowing! it's been 20 minutes.. i put toilet paper in to stop it but it wont.. what can i do? i feel nauseous. and stupid. like a loser.,-0.8258536585365874,1.1943714552845572,1.4226341463414618,99.4680975609756,90.54471544715449,3.93040650406504,14.704065040650404,5.2151,-1.137212032520325,431,8,105,2,15,144,80,123,0.147,0.667,0.18600000000000005,0.3412,0,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,0,2,4,8,3,0,8,0,13,7,6,1,1,22,18,12,0,3,5,0,3,3,0,4,0,1,0,0,7,6,1,4,3,0,0,5,8,5,0,1,8,5,12,3,10,6,2,24,0,2,0,0,1,6,0,2,16,69,19,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15435795479294767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13925369742497493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1981008574581221,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14999973009877415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17818101983800474,0.0,0.0,0.15422970983243806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08804662415141287,0.0,0.3343890154547933,0.0,0.0,0.14811701563724294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1787101823395205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17148543628653504,0.0,0.1864124428609117,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25521703134306345,0.1745265113585874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16476838195102142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13430171901232085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17505125832898474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13847715325360893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13906243952331454,0.5823302689139532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10153806115013664,0.0,0.16505724932469465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12369873197206235,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,chris12312,2019/04/11,"I think I've watched enough YouTube videos with bariatric surgeries I can perform them Also gastric bypasses. Any takers on me putting my weird pass time to use? Idk why I'm addicted to watching shows about fat people on YouTube. I can also instantly change the weird measurement ""stone"" to pounds.",6.701037735849056,8.813815283018872,4.9397641509434,83.24662735849058,65.98113207547169,8.318867924528304,37.778301886792455,8.841846274778883,3.452475471698113,242,13,41,4,4,69,42,53,0.096,0.904,0.0,-0.4215,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,1,1,3,2,0,0,1,0,2,2,1,1,0,3,5,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,2,0,2,0,2,0,0,0,2,6,0,7,5,1,5,0,0,2,0,1,2,0,0,1,19,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3413780314314597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5008494024312664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2129516833723518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3312695366263929,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32356605727046045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2170977051990566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3148006830344635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20065288148883226,0.0,0.0,0.18259937865734008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27045971609311925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2825677677447313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Junglejibe,2019/04/11,My sister hugged me and said I’m so tiny it’s ‘gross’ and my friend wrote me a poem calling me thicc WHICH ONE IS IT YOU FUCKS,-0.6801149425287356,1.0082842068965512,1.2006896551724149,103.67160919540231,86.24137931034483,3.866666666666666,13.114942528735632,3.1291,-1.7432160919540234,98,1,26,0,3,32,24,29,0.117,0.703,0.18,0.2656,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,1,0,0,1,4,1,0,1,0,1,2,0,0,0,3,5,3,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,3,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,2,1,6,2,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,2,6,0,1,0,0,15,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.519849396864869,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39333043829210734,0.4706559923265313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3449802487949676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4842719646238681,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Theonewhosaysno,2019/04/11,"Working out. I work out every morning at 5AM for about an hour before work. I find it so hard to restrict below 800-900 per day without feeling weak the next morning. I used to be able to restrict under 500, and I don't know what happened. I usually do cardio, but I want to figure out how to fit in some strength as well. What do you all do? I just love food so much.",1.2302747252747253,2.8772328333333337,2.976227106227107,93.57115384615385,79.64102564102564,4.96996336996337,23.96336996336997,5.288315135182226,0.25782930402930404,283,10,63,1,7,94,58,78,0.077,0.6970000000000001,0.226,0.94,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,1,0,4,6,4,0,0,2,0,5,4,0,2,1,18,11,6,0,1,3,0,2,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,3,4,1,2,4,0,0,0,2,1,1,0,0,2,8,3,16,10,3,12,0,0,0,1,2,8,0,1,4,44,11,3,0.226108472094492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19240165607653464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1458212590137587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1905061397180463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11432723729040392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20665904719401335,0.0,0.27341126196911275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1999469751384628,0.0,0.202548778766625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22267129892980145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12426330301573743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20407172392942374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16621574336369366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2404689252171809,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19528512256873967,0.2490265376477585,0.0,0.13336463510983906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20329867094880447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2179604983994474,0.0,0.4938289818710871,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,NarrowInterest,2019/04/11,"My hair loss is most likely caused by me being underweight right? :/ im 90 pounds 5""5' and my diet is fucked",-0.9104545454545452,1.002764772727275,1.036818181818184,97.42522727272728,105.8181818181818,4.0181818181818185,10.045454545454547,5.985473137389443,-1.161763636363636,83,1,18,1,4,27,20,22,0.324,0.6759999999999999,0.0,-0.8442,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,1,0,3,1,0,0,0,3,3,1,1,0,3,4,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,3,1,1,3,1,1,0,1,0,1,0,1,1,1,1,9,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5107901418975598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4596792901007714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5370915838285926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24292049347118155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4246300102735709,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,mgonzo11,2019/04/11,"I’m terrified for my senior prom Prom is coming on Saturday, and I had of course planned to lose a bunch and maybe tone my arms, you guys know. And I of course lost control (again) and I just...didn’t do any of that. So now I have my dress, tickets, date, everything so there is no going back. I’m just so terrified- at any event where there are tons of other girls around me, all I do is look at them in misery. Concerts, the beach, a new city, school, literally anywhere I am always sizing everyone up and I conclude that they all look much better than me.

And the *entire fucking basis* of prom is to look nice. I don’t know how I’ll handle it, the getting ready, the photos, being there, wanting to dance, all of it. So I’ve been on a laxative kick since Tuesday, I’m miserable, holding back tears, trying not to think about it. I desperately want to try on my dress again but something is holding me back and scaring me away from doing that either.

I’m just so mad at myself for never being able to have a good time without ruminating on this shit.",2.6460874144286457,4.414302047393368,3.969344391785153,87.4829160084255,75.91943127962085,6.584623486045286,23.57056345444971,7.3871296695380915,0.9506427593470241,816,25,167,10,18,268,126,211,0.154,0.797,0.049,-0.971,0,0,1,0,0,0,36.0,0,1,2,6,20,10,3,2,8,0,17,3,2,3,4,29,34,14,0,2,6,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,8,9,0,3,4,4,0,3,5,7,0,0,3,4,21,3,29,29,7,29,0,3,3,1,5,12,2,0,14,119,29,5,0.15708846822498604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13071018965800366,0.0,0.0,0.2136510903721944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1398420414095311,0.0,0.0,0.1475897869335357,0.3623740067176533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1389319844860355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13531780581225925,0.0,0.0,0.17618807461789673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15010476326738684,0.14118098611771338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14522575758414588,0.08207224106013004,0.0,0.08927699659743041,0.13175835413522433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15554228095652836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17266342783619204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3957442487018758,0.17574181426976246,0.1714806196924744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15781648045720556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11547809897617756,0.0,0.12115631089199112,0.15171702149189534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15727296099806326,0.15898191639674614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16124905521100202,0.1299452042231479,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1209343774877729,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10065594748423018,0.0,0.0,0.0915995490939872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2133055167337891,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18530969716193268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1514276776538254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,icanreadyourmind-,2019/04/11,"I feel like I’m not “sick” enough for help... This is kind of a rant and kind of me just wanting to tell someone my story because I have nobody in my personal life that I feel like I could tell... I was chubby in high school and lost like 15 pounds naturally in college and looked good! I started getting into nutrition and being more active. Then I realized I was treating myself a little too much on the weekends and figured I’d better rein myself in so I started eating 1,200 during the week because that’s what everyone said I should do (I’m only 5’2) and I was 110 at that time. Then it progressed to me eating less and less during the week so I could eat more on the weekends. I stopped eating sweets and stuff because they were bad. But now every time I get near sweets I binge and overdo it hard because I don’t allow myself to have those things... I’ve gained a little weight and some muscle so I look healthy so nobody knows I binge and then restrict again. 

I don’t know what’s wrong with me. I don’t think I have BED because my binges aren’t too massive because I’m able to stop myself halfway through but I do not have a normal relationship with food or my body at all... what sucks is that my family sees me as being so healthy and body conscious. I ate some jelly beans at my parents house the other day and my mom made a comment about how surprised she was to see me eating them because she sees me as so healthy so then I felt like shit...I get so anxious for situations where I don’t know the calories in the food because o know that I’m just going to binge if I eat something unhealthy.",4.515895760743323,4.945900064024394,5.143501742160279,86.00544715447157,69.70121951219512,7.223228803716609,28.42392566782811,6.655083550727371,1.2771754936120792,1263,42,260,8,21,407,162,328,0.079,0.8059999999999999,0.115,0.8459,2,0,1,0,0,0,27.0,0,0,2,4,17,16,1,0,12,0,23,14,2,3,1,50,52,32,0,6,8,2,5,4,0,1,2,1,1,1,15,16,10,4,11,2,0,1,7,4,0,0,10,13,47,12,28,37,9,34,0,1,5,0,13,16,1,4,21,173,62,2,0.08138120150333628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09193759346072024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06794990396022807,0.3968738006674448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07197505935650897,0.0,0.1807923375831884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1299525347035569,0.0,0.0,0.052484142470829484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4996397158628464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08408853571936531,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0685671722090007,0.07776322555121079,0.0,0.0,0.0767189540358893,0.0,0.08229756142319047,0.11627749322943272,0.07813871571982765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19681294378293976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12755495670080896,0.0,0.046250812244870605,0.0682586907160453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07290157164996798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05454810392558257,0.08598370752628587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09390298008558204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16949199617806449,0.17889992017579434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05748194934986265,0.15903497732504526,0.1631306870301854,0.0,0.0,0.1366794257669181,0.0,0.08883719488004113,0.0,0.0,0.07700486057758922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09531267962425397,0.0,0.0,0.05982454694601025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07973629860811914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06189407092067571,0.0,0.0,0.09036419345357292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07105892613343961,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08737295435012904,0.0,0.0,0.07741215873729877,0.0,0.0,0.0823621206563669,0.1945508434154437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08353663386388475,0.0,0.09147588022842916,0.0,0.0,0.06895402794179603,0.06265122484304404,0.0,0.0,0.1152040665816136,0.0,0.0,0.13607665693154253,0.0,0.0,0.0931620054394472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1422615142711419,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054066054143914265,0.052145787894444906,0.0,0.0,0.09490806609376344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04800074116089309,0.0,0.13055818201514854,0.09910037920773088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08897756840885833,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,myemosoul03,2019/04/11,"I think I have an eating disorder but I’m not skinny yet...? So I’m 13, and when I was 10 I started restricting. I was always a big(ish) child in my opinion but no one ever commented on my weight/size. I have also always been more developed than my peers, (I have a DD chest, period when I was 9). So yeah this bitch I used to be friends with started calling me fat and ugly, so I started skipping lunch. We didn’t have scales at home then, so I don’t know how much weight I lost, but it was enough that my mum noticed. She made me eat again, so I just kind of accepted it and ate normally again. Except then, I was eating sooo much junk. I’d come home from school and eat 2-3 bars of chocolate, have dinner, eat something else, then have hot chocolate before bed.  


Anyway so I started gaining weight, but only gained the weight that I’d lost before. I was fine until I went to secondary school. At that point I had so much more freedom than before, so I didn’t have to eat lunch or breakfast and no one would notice. I went on eating nothing until dinner every day for a few months, and I couldn’t work out why I wasn’t losing weight. I realised that I was binging every weekend, and I was too scared to purge at that point. 


Now in the last few months, I have been losing weight as I’m restricting again, so I’ve eaten like an apple and then half of whatever my mum makes for dinner. Right now I’m 5’4” and 132lbs..... I’m really struggling to eat at all but I can’t tell anyone because I’m not skinny or underweight. Does anyone think I have an ed or am I being stupid?",2.4281538461538443,3.813810415384616,3.771769230769234,90.2847307692308,75.61538461538461,6.353846153846152,22.346153846153847,6.8449194561589275,0.510846153846154,1215,32,262,11,26,399,160,325,0.152,0.76,0.08800000000000001,-0.9702,0,0,1,0,0,0,48.0,1,0,0,7,24,13,2,2,8,1,30,26,4,4,2,41,53,37,0,3,12,2,6,1,1,1,1,0,3,1,8,13,25,2,4,2,0,3,10,8,0,3,21,6,38,5,27,28,9,40,0,4,0,0,9,12,1,4,26,172,46,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05582339393459257,0.11616745443917402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.097619188775908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.042552755011135146,0.0,0.1781978921275682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07127917017541886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060131215028583214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04501874102598417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08000309449219306,0.0,0.061087220569688815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5714272264802628,0.05831349706012584,0.0,0.0,0.07212769104321992,0.0,0.0,0.06314302685557513,0.11762820628256235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053931518272941334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1400411178578418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07269163525114551,0.038363250292408,0.056900759364147575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03410341734290855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1561888882240661,0.15240179153169087,0.0,0.0,0.06605160554945269,0.046595680582286116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11143608999055407,0.0,0.15394511518157053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06839452086703257,0.06698021288581478,0.15894793723309095,0.0,0.0,0.0946039603366388,0.053090191029994745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1319774285976235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04471915937324405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059613473732717824,0.0,0.0,0.0698874340977509,0.14129368626878674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05373964655585864,0.0,0.0,0.19763462998220666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07297581376034114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061013040962767474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08945702874427908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06028949700893861,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5100254016278476,0.0,0.12942070483237564,0.06298856197276709,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05081919969772098,0.0,0.0,0.04958778956520235,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,broomppl,2019/04/11,"Tfw you go to the store to buy a snack and end up eating and yeeting it along with your lunch 🤧 😪
(djsjsbsjsjs i fully did not intend on purging but something in me just took over and was like THROW THIS UP NOW!!!!)",7.09,4.443659444444447,7.082777777777783,84.35750000000002,65.66666666666667,9.888888888888893,31.38888888888889,7.1686216300943375,1.7085555555555554,165,4,38,1,2,53,41,45,0.0,0.901,0.099,0.6617,0,0,1,0,0,0,6.0,0,2,0,0,2,1,0,0,2,0,2,3,0,1,0,9,4,4,0,0,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,5,3,0,0,0,2,3,1,0,0,0,3,0,4,1,9,1,0,10,0,0,0,0,2,5,0,0,3,26,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4980952830766953,0.0,0.0,0.4311407076223245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2766470801207457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23781507814990946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3747453845145968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5408281221034029,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,myjjn,2019/04/11,"I just really really really miss my former ignorance and my carefree attitude about food Man I just really miss my childhood. How for breakfast, every single day, I'd eat a huge bowl of sweet cereal with whole milk. How for lunch, I'd have 2 thick slices of bread, with a thick layer of butter, thick slices of cheese, ham, and also a yoghurt on top of that. How for dinner, I'd have whatever my family cooked and enjoy the meal thoroughly, and eat until I'm 100% satisfied. And I didn't give a fuck. I was a happy child and I ate whatever I wanted and yeah, I was maybe a bit chubby and not thin as a stick, but I was... genuinely happy?

I'm really sad lately, because I feel like I'll never regain this kind of carefree attitude towards food ever again in my entire life. I feel like until the day I die (which will probably come relatively soon given how badly I'm treating my body, lol), I'll obsessively think about calories and feel guilt for indulging/binging/overeating. The best I can hope to get is maybe that state when you don't count calories, but you just know, at least approximately, how much calories is in everything you eat and so you approximate how many calories you consume every day. So basically, calories will be something that will always be in the back of my mind. And that's really fucking sad. I'd rather be overweight and happy than thin and obsessed with food the way I am right now. Fuck this. I just want to eat a toast with butter and cheese and ham and not feel upset and fat for the rest of the week.",5.372964447542699,5.876618314569537,6.277159288950852,78.3687295224817,67.84105960264901,9.404252352736146,27.81526664342977,9.414487439383343,2.29031523178808,1209,36,232,23,19,401,155,302,0.118,0.725,0.157,0.8637,0,0,1,0,0,0,40.0,0,5,0,2,22,24,3,4,15,2,17,22,2,6,2,50,39,32,1,4,9,0,9,2,0,3,3,0,0,2,7,22,17,1,6,1,0,1,5,13,0,0,6,12,26,11,31,27,7,33,0,4,0,3,8,14,3,1,18,144,33,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07750438084951806,0.08064259440873509,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07452308582944661,0.080921532931526,0.05907962053406325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10170826911022247,0.0,0.10580811386325276,0.10765278717736426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08348529643289221,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1875100779754748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1005844032740745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3966805873609353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.087666851770781,0.16331327523817862,0.0,0.08710262781734766,0.0,0.09136459367361567,0.0,0.19601631315885204,0.1384748535195612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3515767686957364,0.0,0.0,0.2687942362535417,0.0506350611635176,0.09297148677783633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3095094105663667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0962603135804012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10092399952751377,0.05326297366964052,0.0,0.10932644360387947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06845524697144262,0.09469736824356467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09825848804255508,0.19473203210588733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09785840439898973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0712450461834169,0.0,0.07474825998558401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10449277099299467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3725245473317349,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08276647201631715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07461133657089886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.062100412898457476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11432815442571904,0.07692809526037568,0.07774086208865592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10820421716967184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,asskukkaa,2019/04/11,apple cider vinegar in the mornings for stomach fat basically i wanna try to start eating more because i’m in a shit cycle of super restrictive diets that end bad but i’m scared that ill gain weight if i eat normally. have any of you tried apple cider vinegar in mornings for belly fat? and were the results worth it? i don’t wanna eat while doing this but i’m gonna try to so i don’t burn my stomach or something,2.073023255813954,4.077480197674419,3.9699418604651164,85.7470058139535,78.41860465116278,5.695348837209302,24.703488372093023,6.6274283507984215,0.9736790697674412,331,12,64,3,8,112,59,86,0.139,0.757,0.105,-0.4696,0,0,1,0,0,0,3.0,0,1,0,2,1,4,1,1,3,0,5,11,5,1,0,10,10,7,0,4,4,0,1,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,4,1,7,1,0,0,1,0,2,3,0,0,1,1,6,1,11,8,1,6,0,0,0,0,1,3,1,2,3,37,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14672779017188176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1801549973404962,0.13152851280261796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6623452458090512,0.0,0.0,0.1911039966787683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21140416433987405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21601868711115765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2214799605955418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16610665486126092,0.0,0.0,0.15271977662229566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.43947138833643146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2627439850843757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,anon-uwu,2019/04/11,"hello I'm suffering i hate feeling the fucking fat on my body, thighs touch, clothes squeezing me in, folds. fuck this I'm never letting myself go like before, i dont care how much i wont care by just letting myself get fucking obese and being ok with it cuz ~self love~ Stop preaching this shit.",1.0975,3.7067654237288146,2.08625,93.24090042372885,89.67796610169492,3.6279661016949154,22.62923728813559,5.148860815047168,0.17047288135593194,236,9,45,1,8,74,48,59,0.307,0.604,0.08900000000000001,-0.9447,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,0,2,11,5,0,1,1,5,9,4,2,1,8,17,3,0,0,1,0,3,1,0,1,2,0,0,1,3,2,2,1,1,0,0,1,3,6,0,0,0,3,7,5,4,13,1,5,1,1,0,4,3,2,4,0,3,26,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.166178970461142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2169252069465868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3982260893105502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2288805800180272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09874542130255136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5416324728247215,0.10203192513308844,0.0,0.11098885220232073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19281025891709855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39939827215653,0.0,0.09540972761665636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17625850875905225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14356197170997606,0.0,0.15062110504909898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20373197890368014,0.0,0.2004642655854405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16327272139999935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,breadndread,2019/04/11,"Has anyone else been very open about their ED? All my life, I've hidden the fact that I hate my body, my weight, and inability to control my eating habits. 

Now I'm in uni, and I've managed to find a welcoming friend group that accepts the fact that I struggle with eating. In fact, many of my friends have admitted to me, they struggle with food still. 

I've been lucky that, while I don't give the ""stereotypical"" eating disorder look, my friends are still sensitive about my problems. Was just wondering if anyone was the same",6.432904290429042,6.717752306930696,6.046287128712872,81.69570132013202,65.53465346534654,9.505610561056104,31.684818481848183,9.2995712137729,2.5520085808580864,417,15,82,7,6,129,65,101,0.14400000000000002,0.6920000000000001,0.165,0.34,0,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,2,1,6,10,1,2,5,0,8,7,1,1,4,19,14,4,0,2,2,0,1,0,3,0,1,0,0,0,4,5,5,1,4,0,0,0,1,4,0,0,4,2,13,6,10,10,2,7,0,0,1,0,9,3,0,3,4,50,17,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22137247250270012,0.16219587827765694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17583433595181353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17754562021782666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18142419597708032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4859377273855536,0.13223837635152405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14468228068207456,0.0,0.1914155972504712,0.0,0.36690389550293184,0.0,0.0,0.15185468085559245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15628734123892332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11181115890487542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13293116505528288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16049018747769772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15147062031246358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2528353315000953,0.0,0.0,0.3309766558726051,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13061312929241856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19276535281863205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17166834978249534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,oftenheardseldomseen,2019/04/11,"I made a miscalculation I thought I had eaten \~978 calories so far this week, but it turns out I've actually eaten \~1058.  


I feel ridiculous for being upset about this. Most people eat more in a single day, and I haven't even exceeded my limit! I could have eaten up to 2000 by now without exceeding my limit!   


I have a headache.",2.826666666666668,4.987466461538464,4.610384615384618,81.30378205128206,76.69230769230771,6.7948717948717965,24.679487179487186,7.793537801064563,1.457871794871795,260,9,49,4,6,88,49,65,0.124,0.8759999999999999,0.0,-0.8039,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,2,4,2,1,1,3,0,6,4,0,1,0,11,13,3,0,1,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,2,4,2,2,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,6,1,9,0,8,5,3,7,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,1,3,37,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.3345851655681883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2737484815129996,0.0,0.0,0.2211184928047156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35083479731798084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2264580053995341,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17336200885356473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3244255866239494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.237698272532614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27219519729993297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3729368630927518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27502429373366044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3305080289596393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,mostlyoff,2019/04/11,"got transferred to a new hospital i hate it here so much, it’s awful. my old hospital was just a general adolescent mh unit so they couldn’t tube me or anything which is why i’ve been sent to a specialist unit, but i honestly don’t see why it was necessary because i was motivated to recover at the old one! it’s only now that i’m here that i realise how much i took it for granted. the atmosphere there (esp around and after meal times) was so much more supportive and i was eating actual food there but here i’ve just been living off of ensure bc i don’t see the point in even attempting a meal bc i can’t finish on time and so it’ll all be replaced by ensure anyway and if i don’t have that then i’ll just be tubed!! i desperately want to go back to my old unit except i’m on a bloody section so what i want doesn’t matter anymore. urgh. i truly believe this isn’t the right environment for me and my mindset is so much worse now that i’m here :( hope i can convince my consultant to transfer me back asap",1.9801757105943127,3.4912441674418635,4.161356589147289,86.50208656330751,77.09302325581395,7.75452196382429,24.502583979328165,8.515128840125781,1.5444832041343668,796,27,174,16,18,275,117,215,0.092,0.745,0.16399999999999998,0.9314,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,1,2,23,5,1,0,9,1,21,4,0,2,1,23,35,17,0,5,8,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,13,6,4,0,1,0,0,3,7,1,0,1,10,2,21,4,18,21,7,25,0,0,2,0,3,9,0,3,13,121,34,4,0.0,0.0,0.140386424576212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1426702773124379,0.0,0.0,0.11838436770284655,0.1280657328148468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22123863112782768,0.0,0.08769560619390625,0.0,0.0,0.16208074472824086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14720450241346314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09501804911378232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17395585581941272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08175884646360188,0.0,0.11505783357538467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1420317810537802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14288525341799807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.127030849712801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4230140584444197,0.0,0.0,0.13894070296746386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4528700189020098,0.0,0.0974831317959886,0.109411869668776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13599402202927804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12285549349148332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22927528929226645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1632504099481909,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16777162664376669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15983354452521614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16970448890431294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2596222089046303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14660543881121074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,somesad,2019/04/11,"potlucks My roommate and I are having friends over on Thursday, but they want to make it a potluck, which I recently discovered is my worst nightmare. Everyone is going to leave their food behind, and my roommate will leave it in the fridge and make sure everyone knows they can have some! And I guarantee 2 hours later, I will be in the dark, shoveling whatever people brought into my mouth. I really hope people want to take leftovers.

On top of that, I like this girl who's coming, and I finally managed to convince myself that when they asked me out it wasn't a sick joke or something. But, now I think she doesn't like me at all because I dragged my feet. I feel bad about it, because if someone was so indecisive about me, I'd feel terrible. I'm just terrified that once someone sees me in the same light I do, they'd be disgusted and I'll just be left behind feeling even worse about myself.

In conclusion, I'm going to be near a lot of dangerous food, and a girl that makes me uncomfortable because I don't understand why anyone would have any interest in me (but I somehow manage to believe that it existed, and subsequently left).",7.881698889345947,6.778043167420815,7.943192102015632,73.89793089263678,63.027149321266975,11.65627313862608,38.190456602221296,10.832165505486646,4.052661538461537,904,40,171,20,11,294,128,221,0.18600000000000005,0.6729999999999999,0.141,-0.9442,0,0,1,0,0,0,25.0,0,0,5,2,10,14,2,1,7,0,20,5,2,3,2,39,41,15,0,5,7,0,3,2,1,3,1,0,0,2,13,11,2,0,7,1,0,4,3,6,0,0,3,5,32,8,25,30,5,26,0,0,1,0,11,15,0,7,9,121,45,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09120287489076334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09377640436199797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12537952513620804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11198051619358318,0.24526598165868405,0.0,0.0,0.15110180425628095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11552829327937054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08858176634169182,0.0,0.0,0.2563054730202269,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20343789039869872,0.0,0.0,0.14691654926232786,0.0,0.0,0.3243450506021626,0.0,0.10361700253481307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15244141721184928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13320656706801015,0.1320763694935044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07370615792187883,0.0,0.0,0.2840170769808399,0.2914329223366363,0.0,0.0,0.13104373822306714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1140198718800722,0.0,0.0,0.2685686352406169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14282821680967367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18595706343133864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08591757470430708,0.0,0.13242249293683306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10687238000272437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2272705976764463,0.10324836518077644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12640190549532712,0.0,0.10083787309120604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08593554818206754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1396185609984684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15820913524815355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12101802794732418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13667475649436558,0.0952715273297112,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,kirbias,2019/04/12,"I had a meltdown at Starbucks today. I think I've hit a low. Today was my birthday. I had a starbucks reward for a free food or drink item of my choice, and thought this would be a good opportunity to ease into eating food I didn't make myself. I spent two weeks picking which specific food item I was going to eat. Finally, I placed the order through the mobile app. When I went to pick it up the cashier told me they had just sold out and didn't have any more, but they could offer me a different food or beverage of my choice.

I should mention that I'm in exams right now and had some other personal stressors today that were overloading my brain. Maybe it was the stress, the hypoglycemia, or the fatigue from not sleeping, but I just lost it. I stepped away from the counter and  started sobbing- I couldn't stop, something broke inside me. Like, full-on ugly crying in the middle of a food court. A stranger came up to me and asked me if I was OK. The barista ended up finding the item in the back fridge for me, but it didn't matter because when I got home my family surprised me with thousands of calories of cake and pie and fudge that I binged on (and purged after they left, but it had been so long that I definitely didn't get it all and I hate myself). 

I hate this disorder so much, you guys. Before my ED I would have just picked a fucking different food item and gone on my merry way. But now my life revolves around these obsessive anxieties, number crunching, bizarre food rules that don't even make sense. I'm always hungry but I hate feeling full. I'm irritable and inconsiderate. My behaviour is erratic, as evidenced by today's episode. I can't imagine living the rest of my life like this and I don't know what to do. I am so embarrassed and ashamed of myself.",4.058031290743156,5.346205954802263,4.753333333333334,85.23402868318124,71.37288135593221,7.7060408518035635,28.022164276401572,8.139509932561175,1.7491194263363758,1404,51,283,20,26,451,191,354,0.18600000000000005,0.71,0.104,-0.9894,2,0,2,0,0,0,39.0,0,1,3,3,13,21,4,4,21,1,29,16,2,5,1,52,55,29,0,6,14,0,1,2,0,3,3,0,1,2,18,18,10,1,6,1,3,5,9,13,0,2,24,1,47,9,34,24,10,42,0,5,0,1,10,19,2,5,18,197,65,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.068064792354983,0.0,0.0,0.05562732768060319,0.0,0.062577364040767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07282002677787287,0.07647267630043339,0.0,0.07685451476760345,0.06289974175340303,0.0,0.049864989259653936,0.0,0.06960642912316667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0913167108381213,0.0,0.0935582872456656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06531125749656194,0.0,0.08985430318194043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17092878545341397,0.09375076764238552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08013361129932926,0.0,0.16740521561797714,0.0,0.0,0.07245120117920202,0.0,0.0,0.054028636144615234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07711448450520637,0.0,0.041360926416020106,0.0,0.0,0.08960874355449377,0.07476442050711445,0.0,0.6923966981921812,0.0,0.0,0.07562349240271891,0.04273752536418116,0.0,0.04648926186535099,0.06861060364699137,0.06542354725035565,0.0,0.0,0.08099562156115553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2422839710275613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08205284048076174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04495556311913891,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08887677437335749,0.0,0.11555660392333865,0.07992744719239114,0.0,0.07223157728754825,0.07239110604502312,0.0,0.0,0.08929520187225427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10920529639850368,0.0,0.08217986677717433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06013297699993365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07142527589349472,0.08546439272670699,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06985740938829378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08185984408488166,0.0,0.0,0.06297422805231442,0.0,0.0,0.05789900500460875,0.0,0.0,0.06838910530218416,0.0937025039959309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052414629515371465,0.0,0.06494067299269822,0.0,0.0,0.3101502554832401,0.07816413984265815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07990746475496838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06492964256113584,0.06561564238301065,0.0,0.0,0.07583013197094401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1162178379957652,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,_Throwaway_main,2019/04/12,"Any blogs your recommend? I obviously follow the Balanced Blonde and I poured over eatglitter’s blog today. Any others people recommend? I really enjoy reading about other people’s journeys, whether or not they realize their eating disorders yet.",6.591000000000001,10.488026100000004,7.0000000000000036,59.12500000000003,75.5,10.2,33.0,9.888512548439397,5.2928500000000005,204,10,22,7,5,66,34,40,0.0,0.7829999999999999,0.217,0.8340000000000001,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,1,2,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,6,1,3,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,1,0,1,3,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,1,6,1,2,1,0,5,0,0,1,0,3,1,0,1,2,16,8,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4680916469706125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3944459770065984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3521694568001569,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4772050672286949,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3442608152980378,0.0,0.22048262785153047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32623071687687943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,plantbasedmood,2019/04/12,"Boss commented on my weight loss and it went the best way possible! For some background, I’ve been dealing body dysmorphia and BED for most of my life. My BMI has fluctuated multiple times between 19-33 for the past 6 or so years. I have never controlled my weight in a healthy way until this last year, when I really got my shit together with diet and fitness! (It’s not ideal bc im becoming obsessed with control, but at least I feel a sense of self worth and accomplishment)  

Anyway, since I kinda look like athlete rn she’s been commenting on my weight and it’s always so awkward...it clearly makes me and my manager uncomfortable but she does it anyway. Today I clocked in and it was just us two, so when she brought it up again, I braced for the usual glances/vibes/comments of concern that I get from people (who knew bigger me) all day long. 

Turns out, we related like crazy on all sorts of things! Once we broke the ice she immediately showed support for a lot of my lifestyle; she’s Indian so some forms of intermittent fasting and my yoga practice made perfect sense to her. We shared recipes and our favorite products and our favorite apps for tracking macros. 

Idk, I’ve felt really alone in all of this because all my friends are either too body-positive to outwardly support my weight loss, or too care-free to understand why I need to track my intake and exercise. But I feel as though I’m finally becoming who I am and getting on top of my BED and doing it in the most healthy way possible. Hearing someone I know just show me love and support was so fucking nice. 

She even cried 😭",4.559356241234223,6.035530764516133,5.1968443197756,81.81004908835907,70.38709677419354,8.488078541374477,31.54277699859748,8.964715089967882,2.666887798036466,1267,56,242,24,23,408,184,310,0.083,0.726,0.191,0.9915,1,1,0,0,0,0,34.0,6,0,0,9,16,18,2,1,8,0,9,11,2,5,7,56,32,29,0,2,9,0,7,2,1,0,2,1,2,1,13,20,5,2,6,4,1,2,2,6,0,1,10,9,40,12,35,22,13,37,0,3,1,2,23,15,2,9,19,156,53,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10272802668908164,0.0,0.0,0.08253169675037304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06046359695883328,0.21908894098586654,0.0,0.0,0.1040908478299276,0.0,0.0,0.1101746198866376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10112796165162864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2224937594145089,0.0,0.0,0.10895248255884936,0.06396753893553804,0.10225764868455443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08679938779274078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06551221064288137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10030405788879357,0.0,0.09523526735640342,0.1086547301966462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0766317852599619,0.09169696881810012,0.10364243718903376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07932906536818014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11179118395872162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1071391974260966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05451069156636309,0.080850806955862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07005885320831179,0.09691571230116226,0.0,0.0,0.0877775514302961,0.08329226770058852,0.0,0.0,0.08432541111528906,0.0895203212095851,0.09385332760195836,0.06620822670618255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07354605256446795,0.07649928392036003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10563113168560197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0946854063877577,0.06876391617126586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22363733140431186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12708372127605422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10347388231369677,0.0,0.10181423621814546,0.08204867743800605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08404099332632776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3376693799908168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06589556884660831,0.0,0.09745092114231044,0.0,0.05783685440343904,0.0,0.09401786866216573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1078871921013486,0.09689148267511552,0.10325737401199976,0.11930998991212274,0.0,0.10924068857108284,0.0,0.0,0.2361905495289504,0.0,0.4831331573356978,0.0,0.09194752881529278,0.08950102110054388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12774661061410433
EDAnonymous,porcelaindollx,2019/04/12,DAE not know if they want to be thin or fat? I don't know if that makes any sense...it's not that i think fat sometimes looks good on me. But when I'm thin then people notice me and look at me and I feel like if I'm thin and not PERFECT in all other ways then everyone will notice all my other flaws. Like sure she's thin but look at her bad skin and frizzy hair and thin lips and flat ass. And especially compare me to other thin people who look better. Vs being fat where people just wouldn't look at me or notice me at all? As if there would be less pressure to be perfect or less judging and comparison. That's totally not even true and I bet there'd just be even more judgment and pressure and shame but part of me still imagines it'd be better... But of course I freak out and stop eating the second i see the scale go up so that's not gonna happen.,1.8538768115942013,3.1975164891304364,3.1744347826086963,94.15172463768116,77.04347826086956,5.776231884057971,19.331884057971013,6.079149491110277,-0.2593937681159417,670,13,156,4,15,218,98,184,0.157,0.757,0.087,-0.9509,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,1,4,9,14,0,3,2,0,11,8,7,1,8,51,28,28,0,7,19,0,9,2,0,4,3,0,0,0,9,13,4,1,5,0,1,1,7,5,0,1,0,15,17,9,14,17,8,22,0,0,6,1,4,15,1,8,7,100,26,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0927979795684594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11393901416204245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24137686234656444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13963339986209214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18026205759324967,0.0,0.0,0.1303940806531755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06899864804803019,0.09748757669730976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07755378071555101,0.11445679058987528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12067177772172945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14999050293307936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13333564492088512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.572963246468746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09108860057185124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4660843554192709,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14777367852969206,0.0,0.2838140759309508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10874153855132318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1349631566875799,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10897771963260096,0.11408728517351074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12861262824904274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08743852925640071,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08048807736535872,0.10831618010434546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09693779123944968,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,hellirl,2019/04/12,"Honestly? Fuck the college dining hall. The dining hall at my college is the worst. There are two dining halls for students on campus, but only the main one is open on the weekends. OFC it's the shitty one. OK let me get out my list of grievances:
* The main dining hall is open until 8 or 9 pm, depending on the day of the week. But they stop making food at 7:30pm. I legit don't get hungry until later in the evening, and I get anxious sometimes eating around so many people, so I bring tupperware to take food back to my dorm. Sounds like a good solution, right? Tupperware is banned at the dining hall though, so I have to be kinda sneaky. If some of the higher up dining hall staff see you putting your food in tupperware, they will SCREAM at you. I've seen it happen before. I would probably have a panic attack if that happened (or get all confrontational and tell them they're yelling at the kid with an eating disorder... which would be a nightmare for me actually)
* Along with the fact the dining hall stops making food at 7:30, they actually put the vegetarian and vegan food away way before everything else. I'm a vegetarian, so often I have nothing to eat for dinner if I can't make it to the dining hall in time. It definitely fuels my ED though :(. 
* I'm forced to be on a dining plan, and there is no kitchen in my dorm. So I'm wasting so much money when I don't go for days at a time. Which makes me feel really fucking guilty.
* The online calorie counts are absolutely messed up, if present at all. The dining hall posts calorie counts online only. The dining hall listed garlic button mushrooms as having 1700 calories, yet they also said that the mushrooms had 1800 calories from fat. Fuck me I guess! Sometimes food is listed with 0 calories and no nutrition info. I tried contacting the dietitian to see if he could fix the counts and he just said ""we're working on it!"", but jack shit changed.
Legit my eating disorder has never been worse than at college. I would keep food in my dorm but it causes me to overeat when I'm stressed. I'm honestly either terrified to go to the dining hall, or just too lazy as it is, in fact, shit. I only really go if my friends invite me because I have to hide my disorder haha launch me out of a cannon pls.
Thanks for letting me rant. What's your dining hall like? I know a lot of people have it a lot worse. Dining hall more like ~diNinG hELl~ amrite^uptop",3.078941686844232,5.14812011652543,4.267857142857146,84.48045197740115,75.58898305084746,6.7833736884584335,23.526230831315576,7.7094869923839395,1.2036705407586763,1893,58,361,27,42,619,223,472,0.191,0.7140000000000001,0.095,-0.9951,0,0,0,0,1,0,67.0,0,4,5,2,21,23,8,2,34,2,31,35,3,7,5,60,64,34,0,10,16,0,1,3,1,4,1,5,4,1,13,15,30,4,3,1,1,6,6,13,0,3,5,9,40,10,57,49,11,67,1,0,3,3,17,42,6,16,20,231,53,10,0.0,0.0,0.1324528595404243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054271599111249284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07666810916421077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0604142194363595,0.0,0.07720621081069923,0.0637613816595819,0.052183979722664905,0.0,0.041369861240422384,0.0,0.1154961971122536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06971602760406582,0.07179214910623427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05418466343191215,0.0,0.0,0.0875345941279769,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23333743611291524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2777712637207842,0.0566924816310931,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04482417851677911,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060992667080558165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.034314572448740706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5744382131194695,0.0,0.052432314355511066,0.18822023830743698,0.14182660181625606,0.0,0.11570769438199878,0.056921924473254136,0.0,0.0,0.07476092542904232,0.0,0.12002555343600918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06032151145803656,0.0,0.0,0.03729681758356671,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13879307784636485,0.0,0.09946620210121417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11539275638054583,0.0,0.0,0.18120160159668094,0.06880443677986224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04988856813960196,0.0,0.05234165547464376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.065118277587785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0919741321307404,0.1548431237105799,0.0,0.07962493041825434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09409806274972887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0649958901779571,0.0,0.07316992556028719,0.0,0.0,0.1364460964646032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08695208653706807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057956321176778076,0.12911027172457248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10815920335741812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13932485119970744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13424039887978406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11347632231406712,0.07773910404365114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05102601823559673,0.0,0.05931698283284818,0.06248095462809498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13335399440935014,0.0,0.0791452299102172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04607586590216524,0.0,0.06629422322289948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053868061399900406,0.05443719252502986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.049406512910712436,0.0,0.13832042274274098,0.14462800161786474,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,-L-I-V-I-N-,2019/04/12,"The big friend. For the longest time, I have had this ”irrational” anxiety of whether or not peers around me compare me to my friend's body. But it actually happened and I really want to vent because I haven't acknowledged this outside of my head, And now that I'm 30 pounds heavier from a year ago when this happened, I obsess about moments like these because relative to how I look now, I must be extra hideuous.

I think about this one time this guy said something and I will never eveeerr ever forget it. Me and one of my friends (I'll call her T) went to go trip acid with a mutual friend, and three other people that I didn't know. Everything is ok I guess, I'm tripping hard, when T complains about sitting next to the wall because she was uncomfortable. The bed we were on was in a corner and we need to push the mattress back to the wall.

 So me and T sitthere while our mutual friend tries to reposition the mattress. He was struggling a bit to move it. One of his friends says ”well tell the big one to get up” followed by stoned laughter.  Everyone laughed, even T. I KNOW he was directing it to me. T is like 5’5 and 95 lbs. I know because she always posts scale pictures on her snap chat. I was about 130 and 5’5. I thought I was okay looking then. I just looked at my lap.

Spent the next seven hours sad quiet and having a horrible trip.",3.402460317460317,4.872936462962965,4.152433862433863,88.1916666666667,73.25925925925925,7.216931216931218,28.04232804232805,7.793537801064563,1.5831216931216927,1055,41,220,14,21,337,159,270,0.081,0.7859999999999999,0.132,0.9187,1,0,1,0,0,0,28.0,3,0,0,0,17,16,0,2,14,2,17,2,2,1,3,33,38,19,0,3,5,0,1,2,6,2,0,3,3,1,13,14,0,0,6,1,1,8,4,4,1,6,13,8,33,12,29,22,2,38,0,1,3,0,23,11,0,2,19,141,46,0,0.0,0.0,0.10758639124536958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09772842412119773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0917353781451257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08433961164041791,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09814431899192144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08477410119589895,0.0,0.2688252465139327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1203625380263886,0.122460955187505,0.0,0.0,0.11257579261731317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07281793120799601,0.0997258565023816,0.0,0.10534693014941354,0.09908402078136792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5110651598515863,0.0,0.05760016176679099,0.0,0.06265662274651054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12145087997318872,0.10916310349205287,0.19498433172697865,0.0,0.0987607795581219,0.0,0.11314651400946905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10857232120300686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1817686695179945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10772345494170572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27774229689676144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11717644514071453,0.0,0.08174768251147416,0.08503024915980345,0.0,0.2345005352149349,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2988282774174815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0764322569520211,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10558735076448264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07062785382087698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10487133502252914,0.08767383567900898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08487449125896755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11525541130383335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09636183234839099,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07064262877424697,0.0,0.08752479788543699,0.1285732856182937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07485132677572169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06502727594377608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09912641956319901,0.10220123488909852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07099626018163756
EDAnonymous,5mokahontas,2019/04/12,Peach??? Not sure if this is allowed but I just downloaded this Peach app everyone is talking about. I don't really know how to find ED related groups or pages you guys mentioned. There isn't really a search bar either idk what do!! I just wanted another community to talk about this stuff that I obvi can't mention on FB or twitter. Is it still popular or did i miss the cool train?,1.5082748538011683,4.060110236842108,3.384912280701758,85.83494152046785,84.78947368421052,7.588304093567253,22.91812865497076,8.515128840125781,1.869411111111112,302,11,60,8,9,101,57,76,0.066,0.825,0.109,0.7362,1,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,1,0,0,7,4,0,0,2,1,8,1,0,2,1,15,11,6,0,2,9,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,7,0,1,0,2,1,0,0,4,1,0,0,1,1,6,3,5,10,2,2,0,1,0,0,7,1,0,4,1,40,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30866762427641736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28127860517231895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26904449993423885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2914678713748649,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16177543966250493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3771558256301276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23508046392573376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3369777778547369,0.0,0.0,0.2774357585882925,0.0,0.0,0.4731992651780414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17362424751892644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,billionsofatoms,2019/04/12,"Feeling very cold after eating So I don't know exactly what the reason is, but whenever I eat, I feel very cold afterwards, my fingernails turn blue/purple, and I am shivering a bit from the lower body temperature.

I'm not yet underweight, but I'm on the low side of healthy BMI. I am restricting though, so that doesn't help my case.

I just feel it's a bit weird, because I'm still eating enough to (relatively) function, but obviously also restricting enough to lose, slowly.

Anyone else?",4.863179723502307,6.503187698924731,6.086052227342553,75.09193548387098,69.86021505376344,10.04546850998464,29.414746543778804,10.290406445055957,3.2657262672811065,388,15,70,11,7,130,66,93,0.223,0.727,0.051,-0.9463,1,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,0,1,7,3,0,0,5,0,5,4,1,1,2,15,13,8,0,0,5,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,3,2,5,0,0,0,3,3,0,0,0,5,8,0,6,13,4,7,0,2,0,0,1,3,0,0,4,41,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13752524836645372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12024621073262284,0.17620474252145416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1048320030208126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37549586174960936,0.19102115430937044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5279081875857208,0.14365981000199834,0.0,0.0,0.35538429055173704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26086130734391244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11526862163013715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0945108341278846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19239170293248975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1768149606101929,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13733636440204727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16896075942235492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18705520374475929,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2837883805838038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,IBleedToo,2019/04/12,"No longer in denial This is more of a rant to get the feeling I have off my chest. I think I hit that moment of clarity that iv always been dealing with an ED and denying it.

Im an adult male but I weigh around 120LBS. Being average hight im 40Lbs under healthy. It shows.

Iv blamed it largely on just having a high metabolism and brushed off the insults a number of times. Im reminded of times past partners have felt hurt or jealous of my weight. I dated one woman who ended up going to in-care for her ED. Every day I was a symbol of her being unable to achieve her goal weight. I remember feeling so bad about myself like it was my fault I could not be a larger man who could simply pick her up and throw her around. That I reminded and fed ED for her.

I don't wear short sleeves or shorts because I hate knowing people are looking and thinking about how small I am. Some comment out of the blue and you have to act all friendly and kind about it when in reality you want to slap the person or lash out sometimes...

Today at worker I overheard some coworkers talking about the weight type they like in men. All of them said they hate scroungy/skinny guys, going on to explain how bad that body type was. Normally this would not be such an issue but I keep hearing this from society that im a problem because of my weight. Specifically recently. People joke about my weight and I have to smile and laugh, crack a funny joke about being ""low drag when I run"" or ""at least I'll look better than you in 20 years.""

I just went back to my chair and decided I did not need to eat for another four hours until I got home. I got home, I did not eat. I had a normal coke.

Inside it grinds on you. I'm just not a man who will ever fit that role. It hurts and I'm just now coming around to noticing the internalized hate and habits I have picked up over time. Not eating everything I order or flat out skipping meals. Refusing to take a launch brake to ""get this work done."" 

I don't feel like there are any good resources around me for male ED. I happen to work within a University system in admin and student health so im well aware of the options open to me. Maybe that's why im here, feels sometimes like men are forgotten in the ED world and we have few options when we do reach out...  we are so conditioned not to talk about it or assume its a woman's issue. If I bring this topic up, its not a safe space. I don't feel exactly comfortable explaining how im feeling to anyone. 

This overwhelming dread and desire to be the stereotypical man makes you want to stay inside all day and watch Netflix feeling sad about yourself. I can only imagine the pain women feel knowing an entire society has been built on this demand... Makes me want to minimize my struggle.

Im trying now to eat more and eat over my needed cals. Im just so tired of feeling the suffering of other peoples opinions... Hell truly is other people. Thanks for reading.",3.0561992385786816,4.678837049069376,4.166528130287649,87.1205536167513,74.44839255499156,6.8200930626057525,24.495241116751266,7.492282038375204,1.0965941624365485,2300,72,467,28,48,749,291,591,0.16399999999999998,0.706,0.131,-0.9882,0,0,0,0,0,0,60.0,3,5,3,6,35,34,6,3,28,0,39,22,3,8,5,107,86,37,0,13,22,0,15,4,2,2,5,2,2,14,29,31,14,4,20,5,0,8,12,19,1,2,15,22,58,15,79,60,9,71,1,6,4,0,46,39,1,13,25,302,87,9,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04731589351317647,0.0,0.0,0.038669870602570086,0.05962747985516955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.039761042912255934,0.0,0.0,0.20248616140213613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04372535902686015,0.09495911343587304,0.06932825151483014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050292108065295126,0.0,0.06316373935917266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04898380843147603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09080349467025846,0.0,0.0,0.07334591144365894,0.05862489451417122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058192217680241964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29093335488412264,0.0,0.0,0.050365147696595884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05143727645960248,0.047910868921776206,0.0,0.051106226092312426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2587720038474657,0.040624073862103816,0.05459892315753352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04393344053075675,0.0,0.059418801679492164,0.0,0.06463491293575027,0.04769531947008335,0.09095961326988378,0.0,0.0,0.056304883512079185,0.05028516840109525,0.0,0.0,0.16842602726680264,0.0,0.06044439917513743,0.06409052478227265,0.0,0.0,0.060080560536219074,0.11407963877692336,0.0,0.05600016582907416,0.0,0.1217494376067146,0.0,0.5528116288036593,0.11870371440995385,0.0,0.05054385962057882,0.0,0.059215719057402486,0.06250258213604422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11112466370018532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09550386637299377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0759151096578375,0.0,0.0571281229372786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08432874467564162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11143044777394877,0.0,0.06474071166118138,0.0,0.0,0.0385329172858563,0.04324808247708882,0.06050793212401041,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054283684721103634,0.15769098483214705,0.04965196589009253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05441173210112138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05687997753117857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056146921606039145,0.0,0.06441649443564447,0.0,0.05409124615653313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11248106541744077,0.0,0.0,0.06061008597636479,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05944721522205115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04275509416721508,0.09141120555817364,0.0,0.05235327370533662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07287306529189315,0.0,0.0,0.09947459770640824,0.06535748012705116,0.05390098152725471,0.0,0.0,0.03860732335388761,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1006206240020106,0.0,0.0,0.34622875097193023,0.05112809482264058,0.05271404385860338,0.051311447001054826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08279619633332866,0.0,0.0,0.04039497261859085,0.0,0.0,0.036618931043961966
EDAnonymous,throwawayignorename,2019/04/12,"Dietitian's instructions making me feel somewhat restricted Hey everyone.

To give a little bit of context for this post, I'm severely underweight (won't give exact numbers, but it's rather low), and have been having anorexic tendencies for the past few months to year - I guess I was anorexic, or still am. I lost a huge amount of weight from being overweight and have only recently, with the help of my family, accepted that I need to gain weight and get out of the eating disorder way of thinking and am willing to do what is necessary.  

As of Monday, I decided to stop tracking calories on my phone, stop restricting my eating and food choices and generally just enjoy food. My thinking was that if I've got to gain weight, I might as well enjoy it. I'm tried and mostly succeeded in temporarily suppressing the restrictive mindset I've had. I met with a dietitian recently and am willing to work with them to make changes. They given me a task until the next time we meet to have 3 meals a day at the same times each day, no snacks in between, and I am to take a picture and log everything I eat (so the dietitian can see what and how much I am eating/my food choices). 

While I completely understand the reasoning behind this to understand what and how I'm eating, this is making me feel even more restricted. I just feel that I've been restricting myself for months on end and all I want to do now is eat. I wanna eat a donut when I feel like it - heck, I wanna eat 4 donuts if I feel like it, but I just feel even more restricted by having to take a picture of everything I put in my mouth, only eating at certain times, and a feeling of being judged based on my food choices. It feels similar to tracking calories, but I understand it is by no means as restrictive - and I know it's nothing like tracking calories and not at all restrictive, but it's how I feel right now. I just want to eat and I just want to eat what I want (at least for the time being) after I've been starving myself for months! 

I understand this is probably irrational thinking but I just want some advice or thoughts on this. Thanks for sticking with me in my ramblings, but any feedback and discussion would be appreciated :)",7.478417587085812,6.623635563084115,7.767366185216655,74.02508496176722,63.69626168224299,11.52013593882753,36.27697536108751,10.832165505486646,3.8620990654205607,1743,72,328,40,22,572,187,428,0.097,0.753,0.15,0.9747,0,0,0,0,0,0,45.0,1,0,2,5,18,12,0,0,18,0,33,21,1,7,4,102,76,38,0,12,18,0,12,3,0,5,1,0,0,0,20,25,20,11,22,0,0,1,4,2,1,0,11,13,43,10,59,56,14,45,0,2,1,0,11,17,1,9,28,235,63,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059997730208720776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.041752964779390125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06703106621003252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06495128414205556,0.0,0.06437497305280117,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07919367739016492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0703677969556359,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6282581208750794,0.0,0.0,0.05438068980104078,0.0,0.0,0.08110602597978846,0.0,0.0,0.05866872837394661,0.11036170666151902,0.0,0.0578808741993445,0.0,0.2794035302982718,0.08772594781049159,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2969723814163038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.032078089415594216,0.117797731351767,0.0,0.0,0.049105847395206834,0.0,0.06763717440857453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0411540013912654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.033742912374443636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08998835716210747,0.06153724912379373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06702352196653888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12295157122493308,0.0,0.0,0.0668807728035118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06513391754032034,0.0,0.0,0.14702266588107685,0.0,0.045134831663567014,0.0455260782033524,0.0,0.0,0.06529781259196335,0.0,0.0,0.05891334641879651,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09339238204340077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05861164624908573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058802620949088384,0.0,0.06619777628730399,0.0,0.0,0.06172227250386893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06312770146846214,0.121246872759503,0.0,0.0,0.05243383199200338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.048926513813165616,0.0,0.0,0.06936262815576254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04903277970832851,0.1026634937910839,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09232779490007363,0.0,0.0,0.056527326288994886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11802469782364833,0.0,0.04874340985392127,0.14320742254922786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04168543072689413,0.0,0.0,0.2556712764548421,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1810716071095836,0.048735130591915914,0.0,0.22429984822316604,0.05520446562407556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04469871007459722,0.0,0.0,0.04361560674310496,0.0,0.0,0.03953850670593767
EDAnonymous,petaldust,2019/04/12,"who else is an inverted triangle? well i unfortunately have this body type that takes my BDD and just rakes it over the coals and then serves it to me with a sprig of parsley like EAT THE HELL, YOU IDIOT!!! it’s so frustrating because it doesn’t matter how thin i get, i am always just going to have big linebacker shoulders and a square torso and sad, poorly placed boobs. thanks god you fucked up!",3.1625824175824206,5.289479397435901,3.5813553113553134,89.23269230769232,75.53846153846153,6.508424908424907,21.399267399267398,7.447530270364453,0.6275728937728937,315,8,64,4,7,98,64,78,0.25,0.636,0.113,-0.9511,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,2,0,0,5,8,4,0,5,0,5,5,3,1,0,9,10,7,0,0,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,7,5,1,0,0,0,1,1,1,5,1,0,0,2,7,3,6,10,0,7,1,1,1,2,3,5,3,0,2,40,14,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2766706252992143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2026918364351265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3693378686777271,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3402354145284097,0.2777650895923965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3073953244615881,0.17372003141626252,0.0,0.18897013720257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16244504705133256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3473967400531498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.250002224615626,0.0,0.0,0.3061257412053888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29896174233713296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Heisenbergslover,2019/04/12,"My period is not coming. Help. I've been lurking and occasionally commenting for a while now, but this is my first post. Trigger warning: numbers.

So, hi everyone. I'll try to keep this brief and straight to the point. I've been struggling with orthorexia for 6 years now, and in the last few months it's been especially bad. So bad that I've ended up with a BMI of 17.2. I've never been underweight before, and honestly I've never wanted to be. 

I used to be perfectly happy with maintaining a BMI between 18.5 and 19, but following a health scare (everything is fine now) I started restricting my caloric intake. Chronometer has been my best friend, basically I've been playing a game of ""how can I hit most of my essential nutrients targets with the least amount of food?"".

Right now I'm trying really hard to recover. In the last couple of weeks I've been in a much better place mentally, and I've managed not to lose anymore weight. I don't think I'll be ready to try and get back to a healthy weight anytime soon, but I'll be happy if I can at least maintain for a while.

There is one thing that is worrying me a lot though: I haven't had a period in almost two months. The last time I had one it was two weeks late and very short and light. I'm afraid that my weight loss has fucked up my hormones. I don't want to hurt myself. I want my body to be healthy. I'm trying not to panic, I'm telling myself that there may be other factors at play, but I'm really terrified. 

So, to everyone that has lost their period as a consequence of being underweight: when did that happen? How low was your BMI at that point? What did you do to make it come back?

It's weird, nobody likes to bleed from their vagina, but I really want my period to be regular again.

If you've had the patience to read all of this crap, thank you. And thanks to everyone that contributes to this awesome community: if I'm finding the courage to attempt recovery I owe it all to you!",3.984422028353325,5.057026648854965,5.136854780079972,83.23302480916033,71.31552162849873,9.074845510723378,27.52171937477281,9.424239791934726,2.2573185023627773,1535,53,317,34,28,508,189,393,0.139,0.669,0.192,0.9846,1,0,0,0,0,2,51.0,0,4,2,8,17,28,2,4,18,0,37,10,3,5,5,49,63,28,0,7,11,0,4,1,1,1,2,0,0,0,20,16,4,2,2,4,1,4,8,14,0,5,15,5,29,14,46,38,10,51,0,5,0,2,12,16,2,7,31,206,49,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09312339009549864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09222835979264273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14301840899211746,0.15529776799040027,0.0,0.0,0.07913387615998674,0.0,0.09759495777440323,0.08224857886175077,0.0,0.10329906615051923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16021792625969958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10289977408592374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0823680291315083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26658879533307955,0.08358000149094283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08499787258321014,0.07910347929808875,0.11245273760431113,0.0,0.07184950456780538,0.08597453077205354,0.04858726531667172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08223722961551364,0.1979947688898975,0.08330733893942555,0.0,0.0,0.0988518104242696,0.0,0.0,0.06233414835074427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09955556254838917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0826602976869278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2274157023999696,0.10490503614394817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04543379675974113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1040402217224975,0.1015175686449366,0.07906300225887547,0.0,0.0,0.06207643826924623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09371943295576814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14845915919284985,0.0,0.06836373615178487,0.0,0.1434505442049643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12603479186214833,0.0,0.0,0.10911232647498473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09716241380744488,0.0,0.17582506783662627,0.0,0.08906573294792695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09302249393789257,0.0,0.17872940806498908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07941920959066777,0.0,0.0,0.09310654838281997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06582398708765594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09722099862973108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0812837632933744,0.17123888922825306,0.0,0.0,0.06178329212586155,0.059588932420331774,0.09136940213514162,0.0,0.05422748955345756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2525563235798876,0.0,0.18168975193337708,0.0,0.0,0.08031983206576572,0.0,0.07673253468879558,0.21940893304381387,0.0,0.14919369328104154,0.3397370739546051,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0944433003148979,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05988722989881385
EDAnonymous,markexclamationmark,2019/04/12,"Current mood: split my pants at work after my 10th week in BingeMode™ Non-stretchy pants are my nemesis I swear. I have limited work clothing so I reluctantly wore these work pants that have given me me a permanent mini muffintop since I gained 9lbs in the past 2 months. And now they have split in the front crotch :/ thanking my lucky stars that my underwear is also black and that my shirt is long.

Someone please tell my inner demons that binging on brownies will not make my problems go away 😭",7.80242105263158,7.2754517684210525,6.601052631578948,81.57736842105264,62.89473684210528,9.284210526315787,34.78947368421053,8.238735603445708,2.5484315789473686,398,15,76,4,5,119,69,95,0.076,0.82,0.103,0.5561,1,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,1,5,3,4,0,0,3,0,7,2,2,1,0,7,12,4,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,5,2,0,1,0,0,0,2,1,1,0,0,2,1,15,2,7,9,0,16,1,0,1,0,2,7,0,1,7,43,20,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20532063719266025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2412224390844635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14591534631773453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2272131861219356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17138074476070414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20493315965281056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2450942469236764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2818313177819482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2456723888891167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21238393090270136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2175410631463184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22440836295649227,0.23637831990815736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2059471111825392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5607450422550131,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,cheesy-endeavor,2019/04/12,"I thought I was in this for the hip bones and collarbones But I am seriously thinking I’m doing this to punish myself. I feel like everyone has watched me closely as to not self harm so I found another way. I’ve been fasting for 52 hours now. My mother-in-law is accusing me of having an eating disorder but I’m healthy weight (finally. Took me four months) and I don’t see it. 

I think this is just a different form of self harm for myself. I feel better about myself every time I compare old pictures so maybe I’m doing this to make me feel better? I don’t know. 

When I reach my goal weight, will I be able to stop myself?",1.2506153846153865,3.312524061538465,3.2869230769230766,89.30807692307694,81.46153846153845,6.461538461538463,22.30769230769231,7.61054688173877,0.9680769230769228,488,16,104,8,13,165,83,130,0.075,0.765,0.159,0.9129,1,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,0,3,6,7,1,0,3,0,13,5,2,1,0,17,27,8,0,0,4,0,5,1,0,1,0,0,0,2,5,3,3,1,8,0,0,1,3,4,0,1,5,7,22,3,12,20,1,13,0,0,2,0,2,2,0,0,10,67,27,1,0.1659394908262797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1740020246620942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2935199894123148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1733714494932071,0.1901810328101948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16979752595458394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13981117793269449,0.15856229466516364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2517119774567752,0.11854720540257226,0.0,0.18177860114195726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18194408667553616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1634169724989163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09119600446552877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08106965329027818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11076589866780533,0.0,0.16670852231850095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1324513184224484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1741255815952861,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13223228993024272,0.0,0.3462221579800469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13873284460930949,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2126546507570211,0.0,0.1317374200950725,0.09676065155083982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18436488001369314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13171504397037906,0.0,0.4041391909346028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,hammochi,2019/04/13,0 Calorie Energy Drink? Anyone know any zero calorie energy drinks?,3.953333333333333,5.529192818181818,6.221818181818183,56.98606060606062,120.8181818181818,8.73939393939394,21.84848484848485,7.793537801064563,4.128066666666667,55,2,5,2,3,19,9,11,0.0,0.637,0.363,0.5514,0,0,2,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30136049056461983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30986417101178426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8682460732443573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2435463129377767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Whisperingoceanwaves,2019/04/13,"Prom was last night I just woke up this morning and I'm already crying because I look so fat and disgusting in the pictures my friends have taken. I will never be happy with this ugly, useless body",2.5265384615384607,4.985538000000002,3.643269230769232,86.30798076923078,79.25641025641026,4.925641025641027,27.698717948717945,5.985473137389443,1.2316102564102565,158,7,28,1,4,51,34,39,0.331,0.605,0.065,-0.9146,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,2,4,1,0,1,0,4,2,2,0,1,5,8,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,2,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,3,1,4,2,3,3,0,5,0,1,1,0,1,2,0,0,3,19,6,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3761892280248477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2078081506703699,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3786606348451505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3744602546043616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26337681478467045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36289207481616026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2778772272702211,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2862683165837027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2629214191461549,0.0,0.0,0.3199095167105172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Cashmeresweateryay,2019/04/13,"Breaking a long fast safely/without bathroom troubles? I’m on day 17 of a 28-day Water fast. I’ll also be traveling the day I end the fast. What’s the best way to break this, so I don’t end up pooping my brains out in the airplane bathroom?

I was thinking a tiiiiny bit of plain oatmeal, made very watery, and chewing it very well. Maybe adding a bit of a banana to it, for potassium. 

I want to refeed smartly, with healthy foods this time (instead of junk like I normally do.) Thankfully, I think I’ll be forced to do that since I won’t be at home with a bathroom close by. 

Any other suggestions?",3.4315610651974287,4.643204644628104,4.671515151515155,85.51616161616163,72.80165289256199,7.361248852157942,29.973370064279145,7.793537801064563,1.908861524334252,466,20,95,6,9,154,81,121,0.051,0.787,0.162,0.8986,0,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,0,0,1,4,6,0,0,10,0,8,5,2,1,0,10,14,3,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,7,5,3,0,2,1,0,1,2,1,1,0,2,0,8,5,17,8,3,19,0,0,0,0,1,6,0,0,10,56,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14502642847877653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12332498323095725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19031681634168626,0.0,0.3959769161296045,0.0,0.0,0.20244783099196625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3508694168573453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32124653629922184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21929049920007893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18190996400984444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08859899887058509,0.0,0.0,0.1604900381038063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17159881857684786,0.0,0.0,0.18219157947706446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17768559719756286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15001552394462914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1669637498442325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2324049554619889,0.0,0.0,0.10574729889091546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2992673401336255,0.10696559168135823,0.14394808116652094,0.0,0.0,0.1630564400237189,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17481601217038534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,maeian,2019/04/13,"I'm the ""best nanny ever"" Cause I always clean everything and leave it spotless for the parents. Little do they know I mostly do it cause cleaning burns a shit ton of calories and I'd rather be doing that than being tempted by the pantry full of snacks 🙃",1.5676470588235285,4.122452333333335,2.76421568627451,90.3839705882353,84.49019607843138,4.184313725490196,20.264705882352946,5.46131890053228,0.015023529411764438,203,6,38,1,6,65,41,51,0.091,0.778,0.131,0.4767,1,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,1,1,2,2,1,0,4,0,5,2,1,2,1,8,7,2,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,3,2,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,1,5,5,4,3,0,0,0,0,2,2,1,1,1,28,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2367232301054273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29856070689109626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5845109462386608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25734266706708364,0.0,0.0,0.25568640938168946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15635140789483185,0.0,0.0,0.30123989028973386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2851394518561855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3158988300467382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2920307689926105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,kiselozele,2019/04/13,"I'm continuing this journey alone from now on. Today me and my boyfriend had a fight.. again. I'm staying at his place for  a few days and my ED is making it challaging. For dinner he gave me a leftover dish that was already cold and I was like ok with it, but was honest about the taste. Anyway, I ate half of it and didn't feel like I want more. He offered a sandwich and I said I was already full... he insisted then I just raged ''im not  a pig dammit''. He answered ''yeah, I forgot you do that at home only'' :) Mind you I was attempting recovery but failed because he was commenting how I was getting bigger. I gained only  3 kgs most of which was water probably. We had many fights and he knew exactly where to hit. ''you're fat"", ""you never eat normal"", ""kill yourself if thats what you want"" (im suicidal) etc. Anyway, today I decided it was enough. Finally. I can't take this anymore. 
Please, if someone is experiencing this kind of relationship, LEAVE. They're not going to change.  No matter what they say. No matter the situation, they should be respectful and mindful towards your mental state. They don't want to help you, they don't want to understand you.",1.1496350592638829,3.6644458209606983,3.006629756706179,88.07348799126639,86.4235807860262,6.066188396756082,22.152370555208982,7.447530270364453,1.086518278228322,899,32,180,16,28,299,140,229,0.124,0.74,0.136,0.726,0,1,0,0,2,0,42.0,1,7,4,3,8,11,4,0,7,2,20,8,1,2,2,37,38,13,2,8,7,0,1,2,0,1,1,2,1,0,13,9,8,1,5,0,0,2,9,5,0,1,17,6,29,6,16,18,6,21,0,1,0,0,28,8,0,3,11,116,42,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1372188987117038,0.2924103476174031,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13139372777894376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08076421259361383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1401560512681364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08544460094224196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13556957119801752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13689680425572315,0.1477605274949906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06699054193590431,0.09465034141574402,0.0,0.14513548929082798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06922016098839212,0.0,0.07529668980900224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08880474658927362,0.0,0.13289751288204954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2862222346421714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14657971706850906,0.13796715821724506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14028697802098045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12945510332906304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08843759825908132,0.1343232970296499,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13351799478027254,0.0,0.26755273326087065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1021838716279112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12981132765899428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20152807844568668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1384230596625976,0.14543340264759044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14284581205304514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14224386388213978,0.0,0.0,0.12602760948342204,0.10536076347739992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1489234598107919,0.0,0.0,0.11225770534636402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14121590440125875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14492172757564925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09961542197677613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2511686209273825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1379259740739772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3125823519516514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,maypay_pma,2019/04/13,"How long did it take you to seek help? Title says it all really; for those of you that have sought out help, how long did you suffer with your ED before you got there?

I'm on my fourth year with bulimia. I sometimes have periods of a couple weeks/months where I'm able to control it, but have kept relapsing. Now back at it since August. I've previously booked appointments with my GP or psychologists with the intention of getting started with recovery, but I've ended up cancelling them.

I told someone, a friend, for the first time last week. I was tipsy+ and she was talking about her own struggles with Anorexia and body image and I was just unable to keep my composure. Immediately regretted it and I've been dodging her and her messages ever since. But I'm once again researching recovery and how to get help, maybe I'll crack it this time.

Any advise on how to actually go through with seeking help?",4.355147783251233,6.2504049252873575,4.990476190476193,81.42000000000002,71.58620689655173,8.419704433497538,27.94581280788177,9.04235418022936,2.3278847290640403,723,27,136,15,14,232,110,174,0.071,0.841,0.08800000000000001,0.6046,0,0,0,0,0,0,20.0,0,5,1,2,12,4,0,1,4,0,9,1,1,6,2,30,21,14,0,1,5,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,9,14,0,3,0,1,0,1,0,3,0,1,9,1,17,1,24,12,2,23,0,2,0,0,20,6,0,1,16,87,26,3,0.1609716119847069,0.0,0.15708507286288492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10946621610138084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12377723343161685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13697498567954555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1788031724627221,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1805433505348396,0.0,0.17811202693208547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1425730693127042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14560803883887544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13692237092180562,0.0,0.0,0.12436626811203624,0.0,0.16820204680747194,0.0,0.09148387668316284,0.0,0.1287437031407775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4315835135095849,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1430789649308113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13121334836238968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2849096222504913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16171762029384087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12848600492743378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17142951321862385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10312253655110072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1280110867776548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2663147617369788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13639072446201714,0.0,0.15920504028633575,0.0,0.11393653547911553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16828247953045505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12103061904821046,0.12938288421701788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1877276828953907,0.0,0.0,0.15381527353827015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12912171747617698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10366044045654206
EDAnonymous,almondmilkicedchai,2019/04/13,"Recovery sometimes feels like the wrong choice. Hi, I think this is the right place to go and maybe someone else here can relate. 
I've never had a good body image. I started going on diets at age 8, I had my friends call me fat and even my 5th grade best friend's brother called me fat multiple times. At age 15 I had developed anorexia/orthorexia. I didn't get proper help and it morphed into binge eating disorder. I eventually recovered and started eating but recently I was diagnosed with IBS which led to heavy restriction. Long story short, I relapsed last year into my anorexia and lost 25 pounds. 
I decided to go back into a recovery mindset about a month ago. I try to turn off the calorie counter in my head, I try to stop all the disordered thoughts and deal with my body dysmorphia. I'm trying to intuitively eat and reject diet culture, I've tried to educate myself as to why I was conditioned to hate my body and also why I relied on it so heavily. (There's some sexual trauma there.) I've gained about 5 pounds and I'm a mess. I cry constantly. I hate when my boyfriend touches me. I used to deal with these feelings by self harming but I've been clean for about 5 months. 
I hate gaining weight. I hate recovering right now. I hate facing fear foods. I hate that no one in my life understands and that no one told me recovery was really, really isolating.",2.8445030250648244,5.211814183520602,4.2367228464419515,82.97802290406223,77.57677902621722,8.00282339383463,26.37409968308845,8.841846274778883,2.304412388360704,1085,43,205,26,26,358,162,267,0.254,0.688,0.058,-0.996,0,0,0,0,0,0,29.0,0,0,0,4,12,18,6,1,8,0,10,16,7,2,2,31,33,16,0,0,2,1,4,1,2,0,4,0,1,1,7,16,9,2,6,0,0,4,4,13,0,2,11,4,33,5,29,22,3,36,0,2,0,0,12,14,0,1,19,116,40,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07789675806070226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07027439299725101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06757120776327012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09222042413833932,0.0,0.0,0.2928312254260875,0.0,0.0,0.1794624104472905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09496272064977576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09652764255430786,0.0,0.18119256264463965,0.0,0.08919227441808114,0.0,0.0,0.20142698274232465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2697572109959905,0.07340910898840773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05804125893563635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0988849134578764,0.08886547620800103,0.06277862083283077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10625998918262622,0.0,0.13578553516440775,0.0,0.04591157491540692,0.0,0.14982584115751552,0.07370620648920881,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5205560496002429,0.0901861122438352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05890142001491276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07163065595910012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06206940660212953,0.042931767203421525,0.0,0.0,0.07776748092159746,0.0,0.0,0.09592701765976326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08828323769163768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1402835447670705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0677753765724107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11909408259166293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09181170027594897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11259121163375355,0.0,0.08676693318353633,0.0,0.0,0.15009122110822765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09167381679704356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07445703643632895,0.0,0.08691159558103285,0.0,0.1243981481447456,0.0,0.0,0.07346825780676643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05630738254384614,0.0,0.06976371579202532,0.051241193199110434,0.0,0.0,0.08396926896221801,0.0,0.2386481003782505,0.09558383683200497,0.0,0.09148199890115524,0.0,0.07589663594042571,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10700927510358638,0.0,0.0,0.1585888154200147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0960785939673672,0.0,0.056589252843422526
EDAnonymous,yyiikkes,2019/04/13,"Why does my brain do this I just snapped and ate 1300 calories in one sitting completely in a trance, and then spent the next 30 minutes unable to do anything but try not to eat anymore. Like I couldn’t do anything but resist the urge to continue eating. I think the urge is gone now but that’s just insane to me that I had to just sit and have a war inside my head for a FULL HALF HOUR about whether or not to keep eating after I’d already eaten more than most people would in one sitting. Why can’t I just eat like a normal person. I wasn’t even hungry to begin with.",8.193249999999999,4.966835158333335,8.028333333333332,80.25000000000003,64.08333333333334,10.266666666666667,34.0,6.742157984588678,2.11405,449,12,97,2,5,145,79,120,0.076,0.868,0.056,-0.5267,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,7,3,1,0,7,0,10,8,2,0,0,21,17,9,1,3,11,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,1,3,4,6,1,1,0,1,1,5,1,0,3,6,0,9,2,15,9,3,15,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,2,9,67,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17720142991495427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1592498804094945,0.0,0.0,0.2642834478795588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1792577637424914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1683626110249245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14052258372681156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6572440972760197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1060600234551738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16479899566822218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15813663945603976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14272879351700846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1569002575087589,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17077615260797022,0.0,0.1573320032465459,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21762314299645355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11132432397603023,0.1402102103092104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10289167435052106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10902168383234956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28979270594090845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11406975544179937,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,KH0SH3KH,2019/04/13,"why do i do this ""I'm doing great ED wise, I'm eating when I'm hungry and I haven't gained weight, I'm not stressing over my old fear foods, I've stopped restricting and I'm clearly recovered and will never have a disordered thought in my life""

  
*starts comfort eating to cope with depression*

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*""****oh no***""",-0.6524999999999999,0.08317290322580817,0.9567338709677422,95.10510080645165,126.41935483870968,4.130645161290323,20.00403225806452,5.985473137389443,0.5288677419354841,248,10,49,4,16,79,45,62,0.147,0.638,0.215,0.6834,0,0,0,0,0,0,21.0,0,0,0,1,1,6,0,2,1,0,6,5,0,0,2,10,13,4,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,4,4,2,1,0,0,0,4,3,0,0,1,1,4,3,4,11,0,7,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,5,23,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2312725925871343,0.25936467226719195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18384385963765795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2446317764916484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4368245329660443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2401901842353341,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2581041484097761,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23532897841319736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15076579111832009,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16462551886118698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2239794880113454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15108075173746782,0.0,0.0,0.17845345423266568,0.2445058380927523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16945516927783036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25992415428435306,0.0,0.0,0.1926050974885222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25936467226719195,0.0
EDAnonymous,nvrgonnaleavethisBED,2019/04/13,"My boyfriend won't have sex with me My boyfriend is having a pretty tough time in life between his studies and assorted other long term issues, but we're sort of hitting an impasse in general because we haven't have sex since November. Three months of that time were long distance, but last year we lived together and only had sex 9 times total.

And instead of being worried about his mental health and why he is feeling this way my brain keeps telling me he isn't attracted to me because I'm overweight and maybe if I was thinner he'd actually want to fuck me like when we first started dating. There's so many problems with our relationship right now its hard to deal with it all, and my own long term mental health problems flared back up earlier this year AND I broke my leg so I haven't been able to work out so I've just been packing more pounds onto my already overweight self. 

I just feel really overwhelmed with everything in my life at this point and it's so hard to even think about restricting food when the only thing that makes me feel any better is eating.",6.02520879120879,6.558989447619048,5.712857142857146,82.87598901098903,66.42857142857143,8.556776556776558,31.39194139194139,8.384062270229773,2.2310183150183147,864,32,166,11,13,267,132,210,0.161,0.7759999999999999,0.062,-0.9732,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,4,0,0,3,15,9,1,1,3,0,17,14,2,1,2,35,28,17,0,4,5,0,5,1,0,1,6,0,0,1,10,16,4,2,4,0,0,0,4,6,0,2,5,5,23,3,22,19,6,29,0,2,0,4,13,9,1,2,20,104,33,1,0.12298837731890615,0.0,0.1200189149765352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13572073267115325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08363631402802005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09457047053876984,0.0,0.14994514655351646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10877322519410204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1372957037863624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12679561661426655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12584781407929865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08123266328812571,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11053402319788344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1865598568791024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10461385091881988,0.14871803404271766,0.0,0.0,0.11370077302301937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22034685739703566,0.0,0.0,0.26146178778838736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1283679125373576,0.0,0.10931772073563484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10025194255496317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17374065619754547,0.06008590877511957,0.0,0.10860099042412026,0.3265225311261044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08209569688077115,0.1246909108122412,0.12355835577831005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24788671432478826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09816814939838804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1870764060391301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11626376992305465,0.0,0.0,0.12512339485310164,0.0,0.23536653430205326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07878950380787887,0.0,0.0,0.13204349012518202,0.0,0.10503140223326904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12830370031204286,0.0,0.0,0.10173725664502227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08705180648402581,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1074972627088878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08170801296075157,0.07880598613293661,0.0,0.0,0.2151465355829553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07254173146166992,0.0976224492779979,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11097788091194456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08953700347266795,0.12490066716525297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15840096532206455
EDAnonymous,asadghoul,2019/04/13,"One day at a time. It’s 3pm and I’ve yet to binge purge today.

Yesterday I went for a consultation, I begin therapy in two weeks along with new medication for my depression.

For the last seven months I have binge/purged everyday, 3-15 times a day. I am underweight now. I’ve lost friends. My high GPA. Money.

I didn’t think recovery was possible for me.

Sure, I might be less than 20 hours b/p free, but... it’s something. It’s progress. And I’m proud of myself. And I wanted to let you all know that anyone can do it. If I can, you can.

Don’t know if this sounds dumb or not, sorry if it does... just don’t give up friends. Much love",-1.026035087719297,1.0718605407407438,1.5158674463937631,96.84982456140354,95.44444444444444,5.508771929824562,16.734892787524366,7.0608816371341465,0.01796296296296296,483,13,117,9,19,164,95,135,0.07,0.755,0.175,0.9156,0,0,1,0,0,0,30.0,0,2,0,3,3,9,1,0,4,0,13,2,0,0,2,19,23,8,0,4,7,0,0,0,2,1,1,1,0,0,7,5,0,0,3,0,2,1,4,3,0,3,4,1,14,7,13,16,3,20,0,2,0,1,7,4,1,5,15,69,21,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12879172468555974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2375779341178053,0.0,0.15864478700841353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16118815556801874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2846134388282121,0.0,0.0,0.17669429290697786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1946095586227622,0.0,0.0,0.1813925745287902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2024548342045807,0.1501415249669681,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1883493779406936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20106794394279714,0.0,0.1662409819765617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18555463198508865,0.0,0.195399204585372,0.0,0.0,0.1470207487079705,0.0,0.13540272931834896,0.0,0.0,0.17789432780921613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12481364951525813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20764944247815031,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14180043597390687,0.0,0.20618849732598293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1735993134204817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2106402515135129,0.0,0.0,0.11802315878356093,0.0,0.0,0.2148083326902462,0.0,0.17459301529034668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1799293725428633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10864154756331157,0.0,0.14774816594638546,0.0,0.0,0.17074835382668216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Mokikimo,2019/04/13,"They aren’t lying about gut flora, my god So I was on anti-biotics because I had a bunch of procedures done on my mouth, and i’m freaking out at the complete lack of “HEY MOKIKIMO I NEED THIS THING RIGHT NOW” signals from my body.
I now understand that your gut flora really does affect your appetite in a huge way. 
Since today is my first day off the pills, I feel like now is the time for me to make better choices and lay down the groundwork for beneficial cravings",3.823647416413377,5.13998227659575,4.710972644376903,85.20500000000001,71.97872340425532,7.073556231003039,27.258358662613983,7.447530270364453,1.4479167173252283,370,13,73,4,7,120,72,94,0.087,0.782,0.131,0.4939,1,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,2,1,2,5,3,0,0,6,0,6,5,4,2,0,9,11,3,0,2,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,3,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,3,1,13,2,14,8,2,17,0,0,0,0,4,9,0,0,8,51,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16495228372152945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23931940867615306,0.0,0.3005701954983889,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2837138524774724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17451147735466216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23679962758073264,0.2769127734058877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13682103155852554,0.19331321968195564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23016808499105465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13219911547323135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1806243549118204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2006428651188656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17335017351504892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2310867681825073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22383909328029145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1797713850166392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1577862002423112,0.0,0.256492549674377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2816990802906433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21478582429672224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,bl3rb,2019/04/13,"How long can I just consume coffee and kombucha (Not) asking for a friend. 


Fuuuuuck y’all it’s been 9 years of recovery. Welp.",0.34660000000000224,2.7494411600000035,3.3675,82.05125000000002,97.4,5.7,22.25,7.1686216300943375,1.3080000000000007,99,4,19,2,4,35,25,25,0.0,0.856,0.14400000000000002,0.4939,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,1,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,1,0,4,3,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,2,1,2,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,2,12,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5722628615828788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4729333781954845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5417195199985408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39419436664434
EDAnonymous,fairshine,2019/04/13,"me: yeah uh can i get a trenta iced coffee, black? please and thank you! barista: *looks at me for .00001 of a second too long* name please 

me internally: FUCK SHE KNOWS!!!!!!!!!!! 

me externally: haha fairshine :) 

why i’m like dis >:(",-1.264758497316638,-1.6366137906976732,0.2441860465116293,99.20327370304115,140.3953488372093,3.1835420393559932,12.610017889087658,5.369823440869387,-1.0291631484794277,169,4,37,2,13,53,37,43,0.077,0.58,0.344,0.9142,1,0,0,0,0,0,27.0,0,1,0,0,1,4,1,0,2,2,1,1,0,0,0,3,7,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,2,7,3,3,7,0,2,0,0,2,1,3,1,1,0,2,16,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2977821415196285,0.16828727981012614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1770212328670067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15736489835988807,0.0,0.0,0.2850539944686088,0.2704882197045053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7071521179847607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29655226197760665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29065089146384737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,whaleterweight,2019/04/13,"Going wedding dress shopping today Send help. I am terrified and I just know that this is going to be super triggering. Not to mention that the laxative I took yesterday night is apparently still doing its thing even though it's been 36 hours, because fuck me right? This might end up like that scene in Bridesmaids...  fuck",5.1461016949152585,7.503348694915258,5.0120000000000005,80.14613559322035,70.52542372881356,8.109830508474579,28.749152542372883,8.841846274778883,2.4974515254237293,259,10,44,5,5,80,50,59,0.159,0.7090000000000001,0.132,-0.4404,1,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,1,4,4,2,0,1,0,7,2,0,1,0,6,13,2,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,8,1,0,0,1,1,1,4,1,2,0,0,2,0,4,2,4,9,0,13,0,0,0,2,4,3,2,1,7,30,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1564831925065177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2273618310116968,0.0,0.0,0.16954928891407725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4746338340934786,0.0,0.0,0.29177939159199634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17206197905928255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2527998193623388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14107673825376738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12541165947549096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27232031824371383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2408974928393736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21922215573722664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20500259586382408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17054144152507056,0.0,0.25220846955949777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24332353648974955,0.0,0.28520543277430976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,kat-official,2019/04/13,"Am I being too sensitive if this triggered me ? I go on facebook maybe once a week because there's always something on there to make me lose faith in the world. Today I saw [this interaction](https://imgur.com/sufVbdc) in a group that I'm in that I like a lot usually and it really really upset me. And I feel like I'm being dramatic, but it really is kinda a shitty thing to say, right? Or am I just reading into it too much ? Idk somebody either validate me or put me in check on this because I really have no idea if my feelings are rational about it.

[Screenshot](https://imgur.com/sufVbdc)
Image description : Original post reads ""Ate too much cake, what do now"". A commenter writes ""yak"". The original poster replies ""Tempting but bulimia is so 1988"". The commenter replies back ""Also GROSS"".",4.682003205128204,7.2116379375000035,5.282777777777781,76.9169230769231,72.40277777777777,8.597435897435899,29.13247863247864,9.265573868473778,2.9501170940170938,629,26,105,15,13,202,93,144,0.094,0.802,0.104,-0.1529,0,0,1,0,0,0,40.0,0,0,0,1,11,6,0,1,8,0,9,1,0,4,0,21,17,10,0,2,8,0,2,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,11,3,1,0,3,2,1,2,1,3,0,0,2,4,13,3,11,13,4,20,1,1,1,0,5,10,0,6,9,75,24,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14166374492491474,0.14739982178018313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1362144862812087,0.0,0.2159733476188484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17914087361314934,0.1265532742310271,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10067626266905566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19997648730704887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1730893618254159,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19818127546495268,0.0,0.1506033567627834,0.0,0.0,0.1182464580413362,0.0,0.17796715890499412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2604456661433765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18865491196661247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16965708322807393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17808085004036014,0.0,0.0,0.3543882585086024,0.0,0.4539375441149692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15128187918589833,0.0,0.14087376119414455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13637579239564368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11768805788001628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16791387588785098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1951015023382434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1420959891099989,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,BoofDatKratom247,2019/04/14,I guess ive been doing okay since i just realized proED is gone Oof tho,3.3493749999999984,3.2969601875000016,4.662500000000001,90.1325,72.125,8.9,22.25,8.841846274778883,0.9589499999999996,57,1,14,1,1,19,14,16,0.0,0.863,0.13699999999999998,0.2263,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,1,4,0,0,0,0,3,6,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,3,1,0,4,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,8,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7996511659827866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6004648305624318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Six_FoxSox,2019/04/14,"Help - is this an ed or am I just overly concerned?? I’ve been having issues with my eating habits since moving to uni. I usually eat 1 meal a day if I’m alone but will eat better round other people. 
I’m on antidepressants and don’t know whether this is just a loss of appetite due to side effects. I’ve spoken about it to my GP a few times but they just increased my dosage of medication in the hopes it would help. 
I have safe foods that I can usually force myself to eat if I know I’ve not eaten enough. I’m at a point where I don’t have an appetite and feel like I’m just eating to show face or because I have to. It’s so frustrating. I have displayed concern but everyone just brushes it off... 
HELP!!",2.7918547895057984,3.7979723221476505,4.264539353264187,88.61388041488712,74.1006711409396,7.028920073215375,24.28370957901159,7.348242739294969,0.8842966442953015,552,16,122,6,11,184,91,149,0.063,0.752,0.185,0.9625,0,1,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,1,3,8,6,1,0,7,0,14,10,1,1,0,24,23,11,0,4,14,0,2,1,0,2,1,0,0,0,8,3,8,1,4,1,0,2,3,2,0,0,2,3,13,4,15,19,3,15,0,1,1,0,4,8,0,5,6,77,21,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1457529635553068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08578718708027358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12446350193429885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09075866315832852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7200052964842756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14541083705564328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13447273903408266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07115688953201972,0.10053693691166184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17017025361443971,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28298335975627514,0.0,0.0,0.13977580517407792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14688467591068202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15468212711402402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06875315694382575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14176981885406625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14957282102098848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0975638770709096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13303453976734358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11641261180434853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08206030237037537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30998656575479466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09996995445333848,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,fatfuckingpig100,2019/04/14,"How to explain it? My boyfriend is really sweet and caring, but he just doesn’t have empathy. He can’t really help it, he just really has a hard time understanding other people’s emotions. Mental illness is especially hard for him to understand since there’s no real “reason” we feel the way we feel. He’s very supportive and never dismisses my feelings, but he doesn’t understand them at all, like beyond the normal amount of not understanding. 

How can I explain eating disorders to him in a way that might help him get it. Also, he said he feels like he can support me best if I tell him specific ways he can support me, but I’m having a hard time thinking of specific things. Could you guys help me out in how can I explain it to him? And what specific things do your S/Os do or you would like for them to do that help you? I have nonpurging bulimia btw.",3.3983109243697456,5.178238394117648,4.971596638655463,81.04647058823531,73.88235294117648,8.857142857142858,26.26050420168067,9.424239791934726,2.3822857142857146,677,24,132,17,14,228,94,170,0.063,0.698,0.238,0.9894,0,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,2,4,2,1,8,9,0,0,5,0,19,2,0,4,2,37,38,12,0,4,8,0,7,3,0,2,1,1,0,1,10,6,1,0,13,0,0,0,6,0,0,0,1,9,22,9,14,34,3,11,0,0,0,0,32,5,0,3,6,90,32,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08866187603049468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.116350144963229,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11303830493558426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0885198518309089,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12706544597116035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11344663577335627,0.0,0.12471266978803328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22423473185326184,0.07920481501510239,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05792446138487189,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10977771205711788,0.0,0.0,0.297950463317231,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29725253689983944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16249493702672246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11172984607956013,0.1176144577231464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08550898526890491,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10862805184118696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07686258476670603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12619316127291272,0.2130765053008472,0.11399176736031055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10546178013331092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09171195847641564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.377438383207014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09690436737728003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14731283580789425,0.07104035990605306,0.0,0.0,0.12929717711690158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4616740351446855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09147851218988813,0.0,0.2640078858953916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.078758135992369,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,cookiedoughbabe,2019/04/14,"Getting stood up I got stood up on Wednesday. My crush/FWB was going to get a hotel room for us so I started preparing a week in advance. I shaved and moisturized the hell out of my body. And not to be a ""pro ana Tumblr"" cliche but I dIDn'T eAt FoR ThReE dAyS sO i CoUlD bE lOvElY. It was evening I was sad and so fucking hungry and still hasn't texted me anything about where i ate popsicles on the kitchen floor. There was no excuse or apology, just radio silence until the next day he texted me ""hey wyd tonight"" like an absolute male thot. I just made a dumb excuse about getting called in to work or something... Then I cried again. I know I shit talk about him now but I just know a week from now he's gonna say some lovey dovey shit and I'll be head over heels in love again and forget this even happened:/",0.4007142857142867,2.7602219285714327,1.5073809523809558,98.50428571428571,88.64285714285714,4.390476190476192,19.30952380952381,5.916634753146586,-0.25859047619047537,636,19,142,5,21,199,113,168,0.165,0.731,0.104,-0.917,0,0,1,0,0,0,18.0,1,0,0,2,18,9,5,0,9,0,10,11,5,1,0,21,27,15,0,1,8,0,0,1,0,1,0,1,2,1,2,7,3,0,2,2,0,2,4,6,0,1,10,1,18,3,20,12,1,29,1,1,0,3,14,12,5,3,16,89,20,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14140058720269238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19086323025855034,0.0,0.0,0.17545657221894168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13719143679081253,0.0,0.18874603594972286,0.2216309187268118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17582391564053906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22698280525123804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15885309785092178,0.2693206072431443,0.0,0.09765435355440176,0.0,0.13742731025658764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1519477752979876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17634607800727836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1888653972519024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08394694681788331,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.310164676718194,0.16258870958715524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18274204043219866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13664527980556188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35275990116230377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13228232250380575,0.0,0.0,0.12162141703915072,0.0,0.13722282349570267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13810960332360142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20668907322007168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27566164240372304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12509352395557125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,aprilfades,2019/04/14,"I hate feeling like I’m not ‘good enough’ to visit stores for new clothes. I need clothes for work, but I don’t feel like I deserve to be seen in any stores. 
“I don’t look good enough for *that* store with the nice clothes. Maybe I should go to the other one that only old ladies go to...” 
Convincing myself that the store won’t even carry my size. Afraid that when I go in, I won’t fit into the size I think I am. 
And there’s no way in hell I can ask an attendant for a dressing room lol. 
Having to go through the process of putting all the clothes I chose back because I look like shit in all of them....
I can’t do that today.",0.5089743589743634,2.2561874074074098,1.6585185185185196,101.66794871794872,82.33333333333333,4.746438746438747,20.014245014245013,5.369823440869387,-0.5339515669515666,480,13,121,2,13,151,79,135,0.114,0.6940000000000001,0.191,0.8442,0,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,0,1,1,4,11,3,1,8,1,11,1,1,0,2,12,25,3,0,2,2,0,2,3,0,3,0,0,1,0,6,3,0,0,3,0,4,7,7,4,0,1,1,5,17,7,18,20,4,20,1,0,3,0,3,7,2,0,8,73,23,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11809352941707753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1623469726991198,0.0,0.0,0.13353243473660847,0.0,0.10586042546981007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35887067993563443,0.0,0.11469960175946944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17561360518603594,0.2481229022450899,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3947758227895887,0.2913125141164992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1714515176432279,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25452187071907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2916582982363068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17446300081975308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12876535316614462,0.0,0.167720169453966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18222506601407887,0.0,0.1176752890587808,0.1320748846752241,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17457445338642102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17825764438518124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11127316106391147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16460766608241895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13784179419619172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1264252361716233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,itsoobak,2019/04/14,shitty pro tip so .. if you go to an all you can eat sushi place that charges for leftovers ..... you go with your bulimic friend who eats all the leftover pieces for you and throws it all up ............ i hate me and my dysfunctional friends ....,4.596,5.354124600000002,4.157777777777781,91.97000000000004,69.66666666666666,7.777777777777778,28.333333333333336,7.793537801064563,1.3156666666666674,177,6,40,2,3,53,37,45,0.16,0.733,0.107,-0.4767,0,0,0,0,0,0,23.0,0,5,0,0,1,3,1,0,2,0,1,2,0,0,3,7,4,4,0,1,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,3,3,2,0,0,0,0,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,8,2,5,4,4,5,0,0,0,0,8,2,0,1,0,27,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6493035761347011,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4902521414205567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3606296717770057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3132436231602855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3314851071084086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,swingsurfer,2019/04/14,"Does this qualify as binge eating? Warning calorie/weight discussion. Hi guys, I've been tracking my calorie intake and have been eating ~1200 cal a day. Yesterday I logged 3200. I was just wondering if anyone could give me their opinion on whether or not this is drastic enough to consider a binge? I used to be much better at restricting and have never purged. (Very rare laxative use on occasion.) 

This isn't an isolated event. I do restrict in the following days. I am hoping to hit 600 cal today and tomorrow if I can stand it. If I slip up, I may go back to 1200 a day. I know that 1200 isn't restricting, but I'll likely restrict enough to compensate in the coming week regardless. Would you guys consider this a true binge/restrict pattern?  It's not near as extreme as some examples I see on this sub. 

*Note: I am what I consider a *mostly* recovered anorexic from my highschool and early college days. 111 at my lowest. BMI of 17.4 at that time. (Healthy range BMI now.) I'd like to get a little lower and keep around the low healthy range for my height. 

Sorry if I rambled, I just thought my background might be relevant. I'm worried I'll fall into old habits and scared I could develop new bad habits.",2.8592642140468243,5.2627447777777805,3.909450018580453,85.15463210702342,77.71794871794873,7.488368636194725,27.695280564845785,8.456263369488248,2.237061166852472,954,41,180,20,23,308,148,234,0.138,0.7909999999999999,0.071,-0.9299,2,0,0,0,0,0,37.0,0,1,1,1,5,8,0,1,10,0,19,2,0,2,2,42,34,16,0,9,11,0,0,2,0,3,0,2,0,2,10,9,2,5,3,0,0,4,5,3,0,0,4,3,23,5,24,22,5,36,0,1,1,0,7,15,0,12,18,111,33,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09932769156247932,0.0,0.0,0.1264584723658136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1092310124878517,0.1186094332487635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12563551235213533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12236722829866972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.226837649387274,0.0,0.0,0.36645316800777705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12431270284541973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2907140902006877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2935601960594397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07421752516976253,0.1362714589742773,0.08073275027540835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28131224401185195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14109200387714815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12626441690297358,0.0,0.0,0.07806934558995063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1388011419287241,0.1423757592465239,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15069719713743168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10442627868589124,0.0,0.1095610578796552,0.13719695862827094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1490621248735946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14222116748152486,0.0,0.1131989104261336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1590181940348112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1127752716449132,0.08283302310998354,0.0,0.1346508963527156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24537866534038602,0.0,0.11720970067955798,0.0,0.0,0.11394741620142315,0.1729839061942812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1540518629571482,0.0,0.14426306919215026,0.0,0.10091132141047104,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,shoeflygabs,2019/04/14,"Being happy with my body but unhappy with the fat 3 months ago I was finally getting the hang of intuitive eating and my body looked somewhat normal. I was working out and the curves and muscles actually stayed for once and damn I felt gorgeous. Then at the same time my ED brain is telling me anything aside from bone is fat. Fast forward now, I feel like shit, I look like shit, and hey, I still feel fat 🙃",3.985555555555557,5.309177370370372,4.388580246913584,87.64361111111117,71.5925925925926,7.375308641975309,28.314814814814817,7.793537801064563,1.5947925925925919,321,12,66,4,6,101,58,81,0.177,0.674,0.149,-0.5719,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,1,2,7,3,0,4,0,5,10,9,0,0,15,11,7,0,1,1,0,3,2,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,8,4,0,3,0,0,2,0,3,0,0,3,5,10,4,7,7,2,13,0,0,2,0,2,3,3,1,11,37,10,1,0.0,0.0,0.1817326173618236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16508075139062747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1532505800493786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4137168214908801,0.0,0.20789312756666267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19055873523241326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18832593230222655,0.13304201813219305,0.1788090221916165,0.2040047411244012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09729695398435342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19824420856232985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18196414240873812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3127708748467791,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14864619243744653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18246485696563206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19832778228060904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3823227367068187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19849531055976927,0.14872270131795828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1627723339703342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1085916139009239,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13557691298079072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,oenone_,2019/04/14,"Might be having sex tonight, terrified I'm meeting a guy who I was FWB with in the past tonight. Haven't seen him in a year, and I've lost 2 stone since then. I'm terrified of what he'll think of my body, if he'll think I look better or not. I used to be incredibly curvy, with huge breasts and a butt and I've lost a lot of that now; I'm 22 and have loose skin and a lot of sag on my much smaller breasts now (not that age makes a difference, but I feel cheated out of having perky breasts while young). I recall him being very into the curvy look and I'm worried the way I look now won't appeal to him. The last time I slept with someone (the only person I've been with since losing weight), I said I wished my breasts were perkier and he agreed with me... like, thanks great I never want anyone to see me naked ever again now. 


It sounds strange but I sort of associated my old body type with being sexy and I was very sexually confident (even though I was unhappy with being chubbier), whereas now I'm scared of showing my body to anyone. I simultaneously feel too fat and too skinny (just all in the wrong places). Friends have said I should just regain weight if I want more 'assets' back, but obviously the idea of gaining weight makes me freak the fuck out. I feel like I'll never be happy with my body.",3.8807777777777765,4.461258337037037,4.638518518518519,88.52333333333334,71.18518518518519,7.481481481481483,25.37037037037037,7.3871296695380915,0.9212592592592594,1021,28,229,10,18,329,139,270,0.168,0.6890000000000001,0.142,-0.5569,0,0,0,0,0,0,31.0,0,0,0,5,14,15,2,1,14,0,19,18,13,3,5,52,49,18,0,6,10,0,7,2,1,5,1,3,0,2,5,20,5,0,6,1,0,0,6,8,0,0,11,15,29,7,27,27,5,31,0,3,5,7,13,9,2,7,23,134,34,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14218345003295293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07817982056064435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08992099943069687,0.0,0.4517405843145597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10622604642628602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06715367919127962,0.09196853115076058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15422590213980594,0.07263480222153595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07855186495315881,0.09399452050840812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1120942097916278,0.0,0.10067168772606937,0.0,0.10823218921846336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11477579456370818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08287659810881381,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0993440243978974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2561376956779867,0.11374543910361652,0.22197492913940808,0.17287652332715803,0.0,0.0,0.13573426915135295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10785837797216016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0747409324836826,0.0,0.15683208734183318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1066881090780154,0.0,0.0,0.07732646232987478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0970578361234149,0.0,0.08877644163850364,0.10622604642628602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1934275218104742,0.0,0.10179183640605326,0.0,0.0810197608097776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16820896466998853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0861467175259477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09360631073449248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13029517184123246,0.09989264338764156,0.0,0.05928600985873352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0878123327285615,0.0,0.16778080067899767,0.11993806346785205,0.08070284015469338,0.0,0.3714288764187455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1169182734554796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1032532849974679,0.0,0.0,0.11116283820770737,0.0,0.06547370957848332
EDAnonymous,muser666,2019/04/14,"What is your ED? I am wondering what kind of ED you have?

So I am close to underweight, suffering from (kind of?) AN and BED with b/p. My goal is unfortunately still to lose some fat, and then eat more and gain muscles. Been in this cycle for a year now.

Hope you are all ok!",-0.4773152709359607,1.61330284482759,1.8828078817733989,96.32155172413796,89.51724137931032,6.0729064039408875,16.9064039408867,7.447530270364453,0.031233497536946164,207,5,52,4,7,70,47,58,0.125,0.7290000000000001,0.146,0.3422,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,3,0,3,3,6,0,0,2,1,7,2,1,0,1,9,9,5,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,3,5,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,6,4,8,8,3,6,0,2,0,0,3,2,0,3,4,36,9,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3260139603189482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.316448115201928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6635592227205144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3564391449905833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2544395395302373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3455151272681791,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20517212158508735
EDAnonymous,crimsonfantasies,2019/04/14,"Comorbidities Anyone else with a laundry list of mental illnesses? 

On top of anorexia, I was also professionally diagnosed with NPD, dysthymia and GAD - pretty sure I have ADHD as well although it hasn't been formally diagnosed. Life is wack 😎",7.662142857142857,9.665119976190477,8.412857142857145,59.682142857142885,63.52380952380952,11.314285714285715,37.80952380952381,11.20814326018867,5.216038095238097,197,10,27,6,3,66,38,42,0.07200000000000001,0.7170000000000001,0.211,0.6369,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,1,2,2,0,0,1,0,5,4,0,0,1,4,5,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,2,0,2,2,6,3,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,19,3,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3374022246353613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22451253455781853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19630418314619816,0.2876575306316577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5699027124535451,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2345273209156466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1982992552534608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28292601118037763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28561968807051497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26459985297152705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2524244374607721,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,_sadgalriri,2019/04/14,"I hit my goal weight today... ... and I still think I look the same from my highest weight lol. For a year I’ve been restricting, denying myself of experiences, and just generally turned myself into a calorie obsessed monster for WHAT? I saw the number on the scale this morning and I literally just laughed. Like what the fuck do I do now lmao

Idk just ranting at this point but I feel like I could’ve been so much happier these past few months if I wasn’t so concerned with all this shit.., I just feel hella stupid 🤧",2.4176470588235257,4.702595078431377,3.3115294117647056,89.48788235294118,78.6078431372549,6.04078431372549,23.925490196078428,7.1686216300943375,0.8982831372549018,406,14,83,5,10,129,70,102,0.127,0.706,0.16699999999999998,0.6343,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,0,1,8,7,3,1,6,1,5,4,1,0,1,18,13,7,0,1,6,0,4,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,6,5,2,1,3,0,0,0,1,4,0,0,4,6,14,3,8,8,4,10,0,0,2,1,0,4,2,1,8,56,20,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18243140224624585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2235079577287488,0.0,0.0,0.2310637428677757,0.16323395451972791,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2112361680145658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2232582379850557,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1918748207393607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1823792675164894,0.0,0.16796711219220709,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21812043156985814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2159977683924898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23454263957965876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.182473138966255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14640775154589605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21658266960262315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2485325014673957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5564807545537229,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1471406571601183
EDAnonymous,uwuchris,2019/04/15,"DAE get really upset over comments on what you're eating? I can't believe I threw away so much food because of one little comment (plus started crying about it.)

 I was about to finish a fast early because I just desperately wanted some food... one of the things I was preparing to eat was a tuna and cracker snack kit. I took it out of the package and I spooned and arranged it onto a plate in a way I thought looked nice. My brother passed by and asked, ""What is that? It looks like slop,"" in reference to the tuna. 

Its like something snapped. He left the kitchen after I wouldn't answer him, and I started wildly throwing away all the food I had prepared. I threw away like four plates of food into the trash and almost cracked a glass because of how forcefully I was putting the plates in the sink. 

I started crying really hard too, all while thinking how stupid I was for thinking that would be good food to eat. How could I have considered eating something that looked like slop! Theres no way I could choose healthy food for myself to eat, clearly my judgment is so wrong in regards to food! 

Anyways... now I feel so awful for wasting my family's money like that, and wasting food so many people need... all because of a little comment on how the food I wanted to eat looked. 

Why did I have such a strong reaction to that? This disorder sucks so much...",4.903901515151514,5.9017349204545475,5.1034848484848485,84.59606060606063,69.11363636363636,7.381818181818183,30.196969696969692,7.3871296695380915,1.7976833333333344,1065,41,204,10,18,335,138,264,0.142,0.754,0.104,-0.9061,0,0,2,0,0,0,36.0,0,0,0,1,17,12,2,1,16,1,17,17,0,4,4,35,37,18,0,7,1,1,2,5,0,2,0,0,1,0,14,10,17,0,7,0,1,6,3,4,0,3,11,6,25,8,35,21,6,33,0,0,4,0,7,16,1,2,14,140,39,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06557426227785433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061220096435019675,0.0,0.18457733009323207,0.0,0.0,0.1596773958434058,0.0,0.0,0.0737797261396994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10456967574990607,0.0,0.14386547907095318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0750520488308245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4020480493030584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06173389511567035,0.0,0.033111433080787234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7126678669847782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.034213467486222164,0.0,0.0,0.05492612492378431,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05866213942256441,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07115018018454775,0.0,0.0,0.15996452137034062,0.13126733608174088,0.0,0.0,0.2199652860443789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06639201195063328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0962787450094746,0.048556663590706296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08874933020831664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04539939572937485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06583100807931164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0839033678448938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10082786429855238,0.0,0.0,0.13905290783658947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.043505651996730434,0.0839209199618056,0.0,0.05198816695716365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07275679268860852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07725008135316311,0.10395867312052126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05909047217448379,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04651901563911865,0.07159810694538714,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,moon--princess,2019/04/15,"Chocolate Mono I was doing a chocolate mono starting today bit like an idiot i had a cup of coffee with sugar and creamer this morning at work without even thinking about it. Do you guys think i totally fucked up the mono or are the ingredients close enough?
Or am i just gonna gain now from the chocolate ive been munching?",5.704374999999999,6.236885687499999,5.9531250000000036,80.87937500000002,67.125,7.65,33.1875,7.1686216300943375,2.18160625,260,11,48,2,4,83,52,64,0.126,0.785,0.08900000000000001,-0.5351,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,1,0,2,4,3,2,0,6,0,8,5,0,0,1,10,13,3,0,0,4,0,0,1,0,1,3,0,0,1,2,3,1,0,2,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,3,1,6,1,7,9,3,6,0,0,0,1,2,3,1,2,4,36,8,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3585643382352878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33935962001592795,0.0,0.2169272411780931,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3036314951808992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3252008191681417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16045602712832102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23246693455278275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.42089387367497305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3113165724402868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3165981912758266,0.0,0.2391035128047856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,coffeeanddietcokee,2019/04/15,"normal people just ... eat you know what I think is so odd but amazing and I'm very jealous of? people without eating disorders don't think about food 24/7. they eat when they're hungry, stop when they're full, and thats its. they don't think when their next meal will be, obsess about how much they will eat, will they be satisfied, how much weight they'll gain after. they don't ""feel"" the food inside of them turning into fat. they just eat, enjoy, and move on. I wonder how much of my time my ED has taken from me without me realizing it.",2.2550458715596307,4.248960422018349,3.0591651376146807,92.5439770642202,77.80733944954126,5.460917431192661,18.239449541284404,6.2581,-0.2380245871559632,422,8,89,3,10,133,69,109,0.096,0.755,0.149,0.8577,0,0,0,0,0,0,20.0,0,1,9,1,11,4,1,1,1,0,11,10,1,3,0,21,20,11,0,1,5,0,2,0,0,4,1,0,0,0,4,4,10,1,7,0,0,1,5,2,0,0,1,2,16,2,11,13,4,11,0,0,0,0,10,3,0,1,7,59,20,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15196757716728101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6783988457479184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06704499530940405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32067348447675664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07287180872445043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1409295593120885,0.2924220159154493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14101834650557546,0.0,0.12991684501271675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18385204085243104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11085697641490293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2548882891057139,0.0,0.0,0.07731834013113212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14422739100743456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10940635948753616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16146734713017213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25563743057496024,0.14379572169109625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,twdawydhfthaa,2019/04/15,"[Rant] I sent a pic to the guy I'm currently seeing... I sent a racy pic to the guy I'm currently seeing while he's out of town (haven't seen him in about three weeks). I carefully posed it to look skinnier because I'm currently feeling shitty about my body.

His response? ""Have you lost weight bc you look great"".

I absolutely haven't and now I am terrified of seeing him again because he's definitely going to realise I'm still as fat as ever because I'm trapped in a bulimic downward spiral where I can never fully purge all of the shit that I binge in the middle of the night and I constantly gain wait while craving the ecstasy of restriction and weight loss.

FML. 

I replied like ""oh, not much"" and he responded ""it's nice you're looking after yourself better"".

Someone please kill me.",3.41,5.252993333333336,4.672051282051285,82.93961538461541,74.0,7.876923076923077,28.66666666666667,8.617729084823388,2.2661435897435904,624,26,120,12,13,206,95,156,0.13699999999999998,0.713,0.15,0.0516,3,1,0,0,0,1,22.0,0,2,0,4,7,9,2,0,9,0,5,5,3,0,3,12,24,8,1,0,1,0,3,1,0,0,1,0,0,2,3,5,3,2,1,0,0,3,4,4,0,1,4,10,16,5,18,20,2,25,0,2,7,0,13,8,1,0,15,67,19,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28552685781063075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13808461701922173,0.0,0.173425634646085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1591853091750557,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16872145454204426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14122885068198934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07894420200786845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08873248251212912,0.0,0.0,0.1721342748317501,0.0,0.3091872094915225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17273511245190634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07627740821933597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39333054387523575,0.0,0.17043473311096466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11477378035175202,0.0,0.12041735998281895,0.0,0.0,0.1465177677831021,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17138425194840254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3732470517422181,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16026557250940718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13228874870548551,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12468590844046995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12523835842211975,0.3802494372829343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,synedchdochee,2019/04/15,"Thin coworker rant... I have a job where you spend 6+ hours 2 feet away from your coworker. I have a coworker, we are the same height (5' 9"") and she weighs 110. She is very, very skinny. 

She infuriates me. I brought up to her thay I used to be very clinically obese, and showed her pictures of what I looked like 100lbs ago. She squinted and said I look the same. Whenever I talk about the prejudices and rudeness I faced when I was fat she counters with ""yeah but people tell me to eat a sandwich all the time :("". She's been on adderall since she was, like 10, and her family is already naturally rail thin, and complains ALL. THE. TIME. that she wishes she could eat ""those big healthy lunches like you, synechdochee, i'm just never hungry"" whenever I bring the one meal I eat into work (and it's usually just 10 baby carrots and a string cheese lmao). I also grew up really poor and it makes me sooooo upset when she'll buy fast food, take it all out of the bag, eat two fries and not even TOUCH the chicken sandwich, let it sit there for 4 hours and then just throw it away!! And yet she insists on buying a large combo every time!! She does this at least once a week and my goblin brain wants to dig it out of the trash and eat it because that's wasted food!! 

Worst part is she overshares about her roommate's bulimia!! I'm like, yeah, I'd be bulimic too if I had to hear you, my ideal body type, constantly make comments about my eating habits!! Also that's private don't talk about other people's secret struggles with near-strangers, weirdo!! Ugh",2.3227474249888047,4.436433616883118,3.1488222122704883,91.40370129870131,78.0909090909091,6.1963278101209145,22.309001343484105,7.237678284180719,0.6730520376175555,1206,36,253,15,29,381,184,308,0.123,0.7959999999999999,0.081,-0.9459,2,0,0,0,0,0,55.0,1,4,0,2,16,12,2,2,15,2,16,21,6,3,4,40,30,21,0,5,6,0,3,4,0,1,3,2,0,0,14,20,16,0,1,1,4,4,3,7,0,2,6,7,41,5,26,19,8,35,0,0,2,0,30,15,0,1,19,152,55,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08780185069570501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10930414056231788,0.15842050209246678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1861214753579397,0.0,0.0,0.06037996204763507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1100222233205387,0.0,0.1105725603591335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10703786431846256,0.0,0.07908336705722371,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08667932449093214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6081172812224791,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06542159235030369,0.0,0.08345389892163224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09337552693538104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2395433118762084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11163655131671232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19508860030589234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09829184360761492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10128533818539352,0.0,0.19356331164180926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16635411108760612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13223329133006514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07639346800567401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.105485019797414,0.06711884498650521,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10726150012875878,0.0,0.13733760006023665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06345396778779777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09421923440091703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08193518544949385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10354856845559482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07447327479785885,0.1592252797880075,0.08657406780779972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17327055862448462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0967574597099434,0.0,0.0,0.08554739969992868,0.10908958384448024,0.24517987573615285,0.05842225764822723,0.0,0.07945193723370457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11390261436783634,0.0,0.0,0.07210958134759148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,fuckoreos,2019/04/15,"Breakfast rant Ok so I wanted to post this in the daily thread, but this rant got kind of long. 

So to preface this, I have the most shitty sleep ever. I have sleeping pills (recently got it, don’t remember what it was, but it’s definitely not melatonin) prescribed to me but don’t want to get addicted, so I never take more than 2 in a week. I’m always constantly tired and never really get a full cycle of sleep. I know it’s not 100% accurate but my vivosmart HR tracks my sleep and I think it gives a good estimate of my sleep, just based on how I feel the next day. 

My mom usually wakes me up for work, but recently she’s been waking me up earlier than usual. I usually grab like a bite or two of something then head out the door, as a way to kind of skip breakfast. But with all this extra time, she’s been preparing me things to eat now. I didn’t realize this until yesterday and it makes me so mad. 

My parents are super traditional and always nag me to eat breakfast every single fucking morning, saying the same thing each time. (You have to eat breakfast, it’s healthy. Everyone eats breakfast, it’s not good for you if you don’t). 
But I’m like why???? Why is more food better than more sleep?? They know I have prescribed sleeping pills too!! I’m so fucking tired each day, I’d rather get more sleep than eat stupid fucking food. And it’s not even like I’m getting a full meal either, my mom will heat up like a bun or two to eat. Like that’s sooo much healthier than what I’ve been doing before??? Like I still have at least 20lbs of fat reserves if I’m really dying for energy. Like my body is not at the point that it’ll shut down if I skip that days breakfast??

I’m like super stressed bc of lack of sleep and my calorie intake bc of this. And can someone confirm this for me, but does sleep help you lose weight better? 

But I really fucking don’t understand their logic here. Ugh. ☹️",2.210382579767128,3.983802580976864,3.614475275971572,89.52657606230154,77.17480719794345,6.838681385150462,23.009299863904427,7.724431198458867,0.9763451686072888,1480,45,316,22,34,486,187,389,0.104,0.73,0.166,0.9789,1,0,1,0,0,0,52.0,0,4,2,6,15,27,7,1,13,1,21,40,15,2,4,52,47,30,1,7,22,3,3,8,0,2,6,1,1,0,24,11,17,0,8,0,0,0,12,10,0,2,7,4,36,17,40,38,17,38,0,1,0,4,14,14,4,6,30,196,60,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0663140433995815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10123142248830083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051762134215586064,0.0,0.0,0.10759897491880603,0.0,0.06756878831030304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06573598112310645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1176915999759392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06313228324452651,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05323303556904692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3734677104556218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0401778621721,0.055024520074628734,0.05125218032975837,0.058125991353791824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03075764482385233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14711256365141026,0.0,0.0,0.22494665581389944,0.12712535619537998,0.058353999684521374,0.0,0.1020431968519398,0.09730315076615677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06242947265476339,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04077329090543084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12669086492425846,0.0668615218801862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23774902986395285,0.0,0.0,0.05383293173230863,0.0,0.06805358440589435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04060472057279298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1424875049221734,0.0,0.0,0.044717295018045465,0.0,0.09383220793360753,0.0,0.06469375074826868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0675448875756282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057504328117481025,0.0,0.058258645305577214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11690840961497223,0.0,0.1201252332038415,0.0,0.06890891071954555,0.0,0.0,0.04837472347228345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6087426534826134,0.0,0.05154134494221157,0.04683016332871938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0485791836361726,0.0,0.0696809425404009,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0457368410464777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08082594242784387,0.038977622067555465,0.0,0.0,0.07094131435607998,0.13983104179718728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11884479544712825,0.06332652341595046,0.0,0.0,0.20098805791731525,0.0,0.07175861458720646,0.04828428803426373,0.04879442503308778,0.0740749595217423,0.0,0.0,0.10977983050036508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0442852079349902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,dkaspa,2019/04/15,I binge but how do I purge I always binge and took my first lax (wish me luck hasn’t kicked in) but I want to purge until I can start fasting again. I love the feeling of being hungry but I binge and it takes me a few days to feel hungry again,-0.5322222222222202,1.3823128148148172,1.2496296296296308,102.13333333333335,87.51851851851852,3.6,12.703703703703706,3.1291,-1.7359407407407408,188,2,47,0,6,61,38,54,0.0,0.759,0.241,0.9186,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,1,3,2,0,0,2,0,4,1,0,1,0,11,12,7,0,2,3,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,2,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,1,2,10,2,5,10,1,9,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,1,7,32,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3010358680920814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23332276411834066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3658608792575791,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30773594158965106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3265270031793889,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2560747874220781,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27201889116607353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4019588049854177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21339141843868975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4160373361498334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Missyxmoo,2019/04/15,"A goodbye letter to my Eating Disorder (ED) ED,

First and foremost, thank you for being there when no-one else was.

You told me that I only needed you and I believed you.  I pushed away my family, friends and loved ones because I was convinced that you would be the one to solve my problems, not them.  
For 15 years I've drowned in the life that you've created for me.

Starving, Bingeing, Purging.  You made it seem so fulfilling.

Hospitals, ICU's, Treatment centers. You told me that I didn't need their help. I fought getting better because you told me that I needed you. You told me that I would be nothing without you.

You told me that my body was the cause of all of my problems.

After I was raped,

You told me that I needed to punish myself.

You told me that being in control of my body would fix my problems.

You told me that I was unloveable.

I believed you.

I spent years fighting anyone and anything that would help me get better.

Because I was loyal to you.

I chose you... over relationships, family, friends, school, college, birthday parties, dinners, celebrations, work.

I chose you over everything.

Now... I choose me.

I choose the things that once made me happy, the very things that you took the joy out of.

I choose treatment.

Im choosing to let go of you once and for all so that I can finally help myself.

The 14 year old girl in me is scared, but the 29 year old woman in me is confident.

Im not sure who I am without you, but im excited to find out.

  
This is my goodbye to you, to who I once was.

I have to let you go in order to finally be free.

Goodbye ED, I'm finding me.

​

\-I'm no longer a slave to you anymore.",1.7595913261050846,3.9775174862385363,3.0335668612732865,90.96259382819021,80.55963302752293,5.55385043091465,24.893800389213233,6.714681859716394,0.8945828746177376,1266,49,260,13,33,409,142,327,0.097,0.789,0.113,0.8031,0,0,0,0,2,0,66.0,0,25,2,5,6,22,4,1,10,0,25,7,2,4,3,38,51,10,1,11,6,0,0,0,2,4,1,0,0,2,20,7,2,1,7,0,2,4,6,9,0,3,21,0,75,14,33,19,2,28,0,0,0,2,49,11,0,1,12,183,95,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07787662515220686,0.08733609604980376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07128077144288189,0.05025673098771427,0.0,0.059147071244257186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06752900884684615,0.0,0.0,0.13144315507210105,0.0,0.0,0.1619572168485386,0.0,0.12713534458441034,0.0,0.15967403391089438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07383551175187633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08061402009434902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08237507499286087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07354615614097826,0.06004241115814071,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0645966923500127,0.0,0.13551486785437794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15747128596268076,0.13138505211101711,0.06113691104190715,0.0,0.0,0.11106102558685182,0.0,0.07510353131854391,0.0,0.08169653494740367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07651236506784788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14452906432465504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2329122786255521,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14699428929893166,0.05076749851486938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06487007088947119,0.13601988760737202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.213177860804502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06896608305626467,0.0,0.15084162316441382,0.2296338610494076,0.09740883620586356,0.0546642413676622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20632424975493305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0771669433688147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07195949933439932,0.07274142379295616,0.0,0.06543237843510719,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06774141751363043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06617292204184783,0.0,0.0,0.09550122619363023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.549437794971646,0.07985586466098768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059304472937415975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13857003518200786,0.0,0.0523259183003908,0.0,0.0,0.20423199427928898,0.0,0.08733609604980376,0.18514079427899385
EDAnonymous,wingsinallblack,2019/04/15,"Hey y'all Been lurking here for a bit, finally got up the nerve to introduce myself.

I'm 27 years old and a teacher in the Midwestern US. I have a beautiful family with 2 sons, one born just 2 weeks ago.

I've struggled with eating ever since my dad died when I was a teenager. I used food as a way to cope and then panicked when I put on weight and swung the other direction into extreme restriction. I struggled all through high school and college. Getting married helped me recover a lot because it finally held me accountable to someone else's standards of health. However, since having kids, my obsession with weight loss has resurged. Breastfeeding shaved so much weight off me that I actually weighed less than I did in high school within 1 year of having my first son. That triggered me to try to lose even more, just to see how low I could go. Thankfully I fell pregnant with my second before things could get too out of hand. But now the desire is starting to build again.

Well, that's me. I'm happy to be here to offer support and to talk to like-minded people. Please feel free to message me anytime.",5.0586201550387635,6.2560303348837225,5.367441860465117,82.10992248062018,68.90697674418604,8.524031007751939,31.077519379844965,8.841846274778883,2.5185100775193803,882,36,166,15,15,280,149,215,0.11,0.77,0.12,0.6369,1,0,0,0,0,0,22.0,1,1,0,3,14,11,0,3,10,0,11,8,1,3,2,27,24,12,1,3,3,3,5,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,6,11,6,2,1,0,2,3,0,6,1,3,5,6,22,6,31,16,6,31,0,3,1,0,11,11,0,1,16,109,28,3,0.0,0.0,0.11495282165545627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10441988042011162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07180792166483738,0.0,0.10023652033330636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1286037500429778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18810254375968516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1222546266498913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1205356783171634,0.09840422853468582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07780376832587843,0.10655407681451802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11104847197980933,0.0,0.05956167259159029,0.0,0.0,0.258081581212808,0.0,0.10019801753509204,0.14244052820844896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12308807919399994,0.0,0.06694671599948124,0.0,0.09421297438823367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12539703374062444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12521263947116762,0.0,0.0,0.07895680626065467,0.24891787058218065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05754963504529871,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1317846452900276,0.0,0.10014674647696856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11894132991726145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08659430526296015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1236080736274814,0.0,0.07982225558908085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08166556662442041,0.0,0.0,0.1293056670696087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11841846108042485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2384335856202531,0.09386891047185683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19488569316123389,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09980896554204133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08337728088526665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24629387763772656,0.0,0.0,0.13367457228577614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09468071882074727,0.0,0.10845159642678788,0.0,0.0,0.07825905311288074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07997639030293377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1416952156398399,0.10173873530156707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09350172848685158,0.09448960038259738,0.4303348170710217,0.10591359648270357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1517147353005096
EDAnonymous,genomskinligt,2019/04/15,does anyone else think ”hey i’m Recovering” right before binging just because you’re gonna eat i for real think i’m about to fix my fucking eating disorder myself right there and then only to binge and afterwards wanting to kill myself and purging. it’s like i think eating will fix it when it literally is part of the disorder like why am i so stupid,3.5124761904761925,5.518538914285713,4.974285714285717,80.17904761904764,74.14285714285714,7.523809523809526,25.952380952380953,8.344100000000001,1.8815238095238096,284,10,52,5,6,95,51,70,0.198,0.737,0.066,-0.9006,0,0,0,0,0,1,1.0,0,0,0,0,5,5,3,0,1,0,3,4,0,0,0,9,11,6,1,1,1,0,0,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,3,3,3,0,3,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,6,2,6,9,1,5,0,0,0,1,1,2,1,0,5,28,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12240717829690348,0.1793713515226139,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10671595892134628,0.0,0.14896457296501592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4012716423731131,0.0,0.15319763242657855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5373953262102179,0.1462415478198771,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1618416774686236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19367978171339773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17105256208633304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13314227583151286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18957471077163307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19925848720402675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29900339060795234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3365173160539923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10325589874273064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1579659129060272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,beigecarpets,2019/04/15,"I’m finally “skinny” and i’m still not happy hi, first time poster!! im on mobile so sorry for any formatting errors

I lost the weight i gained during recovery in a HeAlThY way and for once im at a place where i look at myself and dont think i look completely fat. and for some reason i still want to crawl out of my skin. people have noticed i’ve lost weight, but i’m so scared that people still think i’m gross looking...my friends have started to poke fun at me for being skinny like calling me beanpole (because I’m 5’9). at first i secretly loved it bc i was like yes!!ppl finally think im thin. that feeling quickly faded & morphed into me  feeling gross and lanky and unattractive. i have this feeling that all the years of hating myself and crying all the time because of how i look were for nothing bc i finally made it and people still hate the way i look. 

it’s also like this fucking crushing realization that being skinny isn’t going to make me happy and no matter what i’m never gonna be happy with my body...and that’s scary. because if i cant count on that then when the fuck am i going to start feeling better??? 

i think i’m just scared and a little disappointed at finally reaching this point and not feeling the way i thought i would feel.",2.942588475078743,4.568840809338521,4.288693718732631,86.11216601815826,74.75875486381324,6.45165832870113,25.467667222531038,7.07126945348624,1.133427422642208,996,34,197,10,21,329,132,257,0.245,0.607,0.14800000000000002,-0.989,0,0,0,0,0,0,27.0,0,0,0,6,12,21,4,2,9,0,13,10,5,4,3,42,50,19,0,3,5,0,10,3,1,2,1,0,0,0,13,14,6,0,13,0,0,2,7,11,0,2,6,14,24,10,23,39,3,40,0,3,4,3,5,15,2,2,23,117,37,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06666485543312396,0.0,0.09032309071194357,0.0,0.056689268739644534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15245077705713864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07372723997186778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08512229802267075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08740385663101471,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09156964666254636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09770007424252837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25290310759285445,0.0,0.0,0.3652775969357876,0.0,0.14181597497563667,0.0,0.0,0.06440555859371644,0.15413433154521486,0.0,0.0,0.09475350944501863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2662223720057825,0.0,0.16460615932935818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2701369869213582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12217992637303544,0.08355099264230391,0.0,0.0,0.2800135745028283,0.0,0.18199974390868104,0.0,0.07523779164785592,0.07887948805547898,0.055645027843805484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06429419719501582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07998844022533898,0.0949086082929025,0.0,0.08877820108220975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1733789086504209,0.0,0.08709593160349133,0.0,0.07880438269486797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08571039810873943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16692054575461548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0933173458045622,0.11800862602316901,0.0,0.26629317852027523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21366095711420507,0.0,0.06618040838765897,0.09721853412445974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04916928438874061,0.19850750214632887,0.0,0.2030258121208684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059218234321003475,0.0,0.0,0.053682631737891125
EDAnonymous,el3ctraheart,2019/04/15,"When is the actual best time to weigh yourself? Like, straight in the morning after you've used the bathroom or a few hours later?

Sometimes after waking up I can't go #1 full way and #2 at all. When I come home 3-4-5 hours later after classes and stuff (after not drinking or eating anything, I find it much easier to get stuff out. Am I just delusional and trying to convince myself I weigh myself less than I actually do after binging or what haha ~~I fucking hate myself~~",3.285,5.200533617021278,4.935053191489363,80.60875000000001,74.53191489361703,6.402127659574468,26.643617021276608,7.1686216300943375,1.5487489361702125,376,14,66,4,8,127,71,94,0.041,0.7859999999999999,0.173,0.8949,0,0,1,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,0,1,3,6,2,0,4,1,4,6,1,1,1,13,10,8,0,0,5,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,4,5,4,0,1,1,0,2,2,2,0,0,0,0,10,4,13,10,6,21,0,0,0,1,0,6,1,3,13,51,14,1,0.0,0.0,0.3852990752201509,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16245654640084795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20717591155159432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17005640289577115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19339252215124755,0.0,0.20200585213052166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1804346467681076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18250791013295972,0.1031417115323628,0.0,0.11219606179367696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19490742804046515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19802434350517426,0.0,0.3888299855565996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0964474853373827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14512347438131076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19524947111383176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.451988175419181,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11511485670562682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13403250472409606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17050403835781303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15669963119935107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,dietpepsi4life,2019/04/15,"Psychologist with an ed? I’m starting a new job, so idk if i’ll be working with ed-patients, but I’m worried. How would you react if your psychologist was visibly underweight? I don’t want to trigger anyone. 
Also, how do you hide your body effectively?",1.2944897959183663,3.97183355102041,3.9971428571428578,78.87285714285716,91.04081632653059,6.881632653061224,27.40816326530612,7.957251820313856,2.5143795918367338,200,10,36,5,7,70,37,49,0.139,0.753,0.108,0.1423,1,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,4,0,2,4,0,0,0,2,0,5,1,1,5,0,12,9,7,0,4,3,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,5,0,3,6,0,2,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,2,2,22,5,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2981415628677977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26068226469387457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4141155617828973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3699632747436543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3600689125230766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26388174073011983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2198970836658632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2714151640318003,0.3786136876546993,0.0,0.2648384492252711,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,edanon72733,2019/04/15,"Ed logic Me: takes a drink of Coke Zero after brushing my teeth

Also me: hey at least there’s no calories",1.8395454545454548,3.6925175000000046,3.718181818181818,87.99727272727276,78.54545454545455,4.4,20.090909090909093,3.1291,-0.2348909090909093,83,2,16,0,2,28,21,22,0.104,0.8959999999999999,0.0,-0.29600000000000004,0,0,1,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,3,1,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,3,0,3,1,1,2,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,12,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5435619851815418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6658547578286779,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5110555838090552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,rocketsheep3,2019/04/15,My boyfriend has a thing for chubby girls and I have anorexia. Do you see my problem He's always gone on about how he loves my thighs but it was today where he said he legitimately had a thing for Chubby girls. If I was thinking of recovery I sure as hell ain't now.,0.8991666666666696,3.0785715357142855,2.589285714285716,93.12238095238096,83.64285714285714,5.161904761904762,20.047619047619047,6.42735559955562,0.021783333333333488,210,6,47,2,6,69,43,56,0.141,0.769,0.091,-0.6059,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,1,0,0,4,4,1,0,2,0,7,2,1,1,1,7,12,5,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,3,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,5,2,7,2,6,7,0,5,1,0,1,1,9,2,1,1,2,31,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29557022065076666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3205985352836573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3398960997881234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3378941064974115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2830631280514226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3347892014780199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4719827312604419,0.22760965067503586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3367055722802103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,mrmeeseeks8,2019/04/16,"I just looked at myself in the mirror and cried for a half hour I fucking hate myself. I hate myself I don’t know how I got like this. No, I do know how I got like this I’ve been overeating like a fat fucker because I’ve been so stressed out about school and so I eat and eat and now I hate myself and I just don’t know what to do and I even covered all of my mirrors I don’t want to look at myself. I can’t share any of this with my boyfriend and have to pretend I’m fine when I am sitting here shaking and wish I could just rip my eyes out. I can’t even touch my body. I’m just so fucking fat I am so disgusting",-0.10649754500818176,1.3210005106382994,1.9463829787234024,100.42615384615387,82.90070921985816,4.622149481723951,19.356792144026187,4.713530739802397,-0.6962039279869069,476,12,124,1,13,159,68,141,0.223,0.669,0.108,-0.961,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,16,14,7,2,3,0,13,9,4,2,1,24,29,15,0,3,4,0,1,3,0,0,2,0,0,0,4,11,4,0,3,1,0,1,6,9,0,1,4,4,26,5,14,24,1,11,0,0,3,3,1,6,3,0,6,86,30,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11140799687735037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09986743565367684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18197489589791355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13080255109522276,0.0,0.17995629748363218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3352718981200129,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21641241374913825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3029108949410917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2620548802783608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4852358186726742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1613366220936345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.270105150350928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2401128319075117,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2751468851812042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16580169859773372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18766330700834027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.096629425699604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1883929970375164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,djthreedog,2019/04/16,"Purged for the first time last night *TW (obviously) for gross discussion of vomit and destructive behavior*

I'm almost done with a 100-hour fast (80 hours in, 20 to go), but last night I gave into temptation. My mom was cooking burgers, and her food is my biggest fear food because she is an *amazing* cook. I decided to take two burger patties and chew/spit. After I was done, I realized that I might've swallowed small amounts of meat by accident and broken my fast at only 50 hours in! I was freaking out and I felt like shit, so I did what I never ever wanted to do in all my years of having EDNOS:

I purged. It sucked.

It was just stomach acid, and I could only get a little bit up. I felt gross but I needed to punish myself. I wanted to get anything of caloric value I had swallowed up and out of my body. I *needed* to finish this fast. I've come so far, I couldn't let this ruin it, or me.

The jury is out regarding whether or not chew/spit breaks a fast--some people say it breaks because you swallowed some of the food, others say it doesn't break because you're not technically eating anything of significant caloric value as long as you don't swallow large amounts of food. I couldn't find a lot of information about it.

I still (unsurprisingly) feel like shit. I decided to continue my fast and disregard my slip-up, but I hate that I purged. I don't want this to become a habit.",3.0129746637472654,4.720817388489209,4.404488583046604,85.01278229590244,74.75539568345323,7.136940882076948,25.75602126994057,7.893859768569023,1.4682412887081642,1086,38,218,16,23,360,148,278,0.203,0.746,0.051,-0.9936,3,0,0,0,0,0,45.0,0,2,0,1,6,14,6,1,9,0,20,16,4,0,4,47,37,18,0,8,9,1,3,2,0,0,1,2,0,0,13,14,11,1,8,2,0,2,8,11,0,2,11,6,36,3,35,22,6,39,0,1,0,0,10,14,3,5,22,140,49,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10468866370492168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17206645561841144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1911925420208664,0.11546388698494355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11413818658660715,0.11612808754249705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09005793595197087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08347222856986469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21397564544543768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10697762497213334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09456869723437128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11764437897590582,0.05286207670769664,0.07468835844194154,0.20076292482019925,0.0,0.09555401375929497,0.0889275780621215,0.5056743238270309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10924292755799753,0.0,0.05941643816417329,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10321846382808604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30887304452386005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1704394278412321,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10690633459839456,0.0,0.10215271297448636,0.10478350442032583,0.0,0.09252075647959428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08888207405779322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11090778729431998,0.0,0.12244411849835585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1550404701082609,0.08063304914673326,0.0,0.0,0.1962204514732786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1590253255712341,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07247968801814937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16627985384123947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21463187345286716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08349132537551035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07860629165896632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060962164410061415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10212717406055527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1849934907469864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06732480491385491
EDAnonymous,theflyingroar,2019/04/16,just ate a bowl of rice and now i wanna fucking die someone please just kill me oh my god i’m so tired of obsessing over every single little fucking thing. i literally ate no meals today now i’m lying in bed having a panic attack crying just wanting to end my life someone fucking kill meeee,2.1670056497175167,4.510407084745765,4.245000000000001,82.14230225988702,79.84745762711864,5.289265536723164,23.39265536723164,6.42735559955562,0.9113367231638416,234,8,41,2,6,80,44,59,0.431,0.511,0.058,-0.9847,0,0,0,0,0,3,1.0,0,0,0,0,6,8,6,2,2,0,1,8,0,0,0,6,9,2,3,2,3,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,1,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,8,0,0,2,0,5,0,6,7,1,7,0,0,0,3,0,3,3,0,4,24,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21644588609901744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2089894256447245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1974577155613788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16851207327324838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1603005297029444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5276712305193944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4209844680387297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1343848175779261,0.0,0.19068844972952886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2232267124494512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2088460971037437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3224098894009976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1263989288022563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2186735269093415,0.1803422915254284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1122190690724597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,SteelPandas,2019/04/16,"My boyfriend loves me so much ..and I don't doubt it. I know he does. But his exgirlfriend (from over  YEAR ago, yes I'm that fucking insecure) is so goddamn hot and its my most powerful motivator. Isn't that fucking stupid? Anyone know how to stop being a jealous insecure fucking disaster?",2.109298701298698,4.9151036181818215,3.565194805194804,83.49636363636365,85.54545454545455,7.506493506493506,29.675324675324674,8.418075326091056,2.882350649350649,229,12,42,6,7,75,43,55,0.238,0.5539999999999999,0.208,-0.4851,1,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,2,3,9,5,3,1,1,4,4,0,2,0,10,11,6,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,1,3,0,0,0,2,8,0,0,0,1,6,1,3,10,2,4,0,0,0,4,3,1,3,2,3,26,10,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24207291462781444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19094701801148506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2389780688132631,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.757386604264008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30016017696600256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.246469405213925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2007485143713886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2283108532713601,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1758574517535464
EDAnonymous,garlish13,2019/04/16,"My Crush Motivates Me Does anyone else feel like their crush motivates them to lose weight and encourages their behaviors? i feel like they’ll only like me if i’m not so fat so i have to turn to my behaviors.  so even if i try to be a little more normal with my eating, i can’t so i restrict then eat a lot then purge when i’m reminded of my crush. i wish it wasn’t this way but i also wish i wasn’t so ugly",0.08467643467643171,1.8201531208791228,2.7467399267399317,93.37881562881563,83.72527472527473,6.681807081807082,17.803418803418804,7.793537801064563,0.3221711843711841,318,7,77,6,9,111,55,91,0.145,0.7120000000000001,0.142,-0.0574,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,4,3,8,5,0,0,2,0,6,4,1,2,0,15,13,13,0,5,4,0,3,3,0,1,1,0,0,0,2,2,4,1,4,0,0,0,4,1,0,0,2,3,18,4,6,9,2,5,0,1,0,0,5,1,0,3,6,50,20,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15378150112901334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13445998470233667,0.19703312761011701,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16828221677121236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3935399233208807,0.1606412022259984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12701172569201802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19446438093525187,0.2747569957910421,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28184284453037256,0.1927341923397996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.215133477184415,0.0,0.16348579723290918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18841226494138744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14625211217692435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13055844936003375,0.2091661739756528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15263805527465055,0.0,0.2341684681758944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4422688929436974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,nf686,2019/04/16,What do you tell people who comment that you've lost weight when you were a normal weight to begin with? If they seem concerned or ask you why/how?,4.4390000000000045,5.158129566666666,4.026666666666667,92.91,70.0,6.0,21.66666666666667,3.1291,-0.2273333333333327,117,2,25,0,2,35,26,30,0.093,0.907,0.0,-0.3939,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,3,1,1,1,1,0,0,1,0,2,2,0,0,0,5,6,3,0,2,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,2,4,0,2,4,0,2,0,1,0,0,8,0,0,3,2,15,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2814837196441005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3286813903390292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29500973688322363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20874176167074532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2741061050043982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2631708056828781,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7333065944980665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,tergernaut,2019/04/16,"goodbye ""real food"" this is my first post on this subreddit but I just wanted to share something! I love protein bars and would rather eat them than actual meals lol. but it would cost way too much money to go through them so quickly right???

Wrong!!!

on eBay you can a box of 100 protein bars for $40 + shipping when typically a box of 12 will cost you $25 OR MORE. The catch is users will sell giant boxes of bars that are past/ almost at their best before date. I honestly don't give a hoot about BBD unless it's like..... idk 1.5 yrs and I figured y'all probably won't either lol. 

I have a gluten allergy and I'm vegan so it's harder for me to find cheap boxes that I can eat but!! I've seen a lot of listings that have multiple brands and flavors, so I thought I would share. lmk if any of you found this helpful - or if you already knew about this.",0.7447161442933208,2.875730780898877,2.449077468953284,94.19009757539921,83.8876404494382,5.545121230041397,20.042578356002366,6.8360192770164,0.2266247191011237,661,19,148,8,19,217,118,178,0.033,0.782,0.185,0.985,0,0,1,0,0,0,29.0,0,5,3,2,10,7,0,0,6,2,14,8,0,0,0,27,23,16,0,7,11,0,0,1,0,6,0,0,0,0,10,4,7,0,5,3,5,2,2,1,0,1,4,2,18,6,18,13,5,14,0,0,1,1,13,5,0,6,6,91,28,0,0.0,0.0,0.17573804248995764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18033020203937092,0.0,0.19872947434655994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1224647140930514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15323999546681832,0.0,0.1889892371340197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3685460496332599,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16459542033562516,0.15318113300227745,0.2177608103750296,0.1974550984221512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17275498359250815,0.1023470729247778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12070790758921462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08798096526230167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15310275062539228,0.16253472390804768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13238399439469636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17191254653035912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17247269027484305,0.0,0.19416325976981014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2049773920611385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15379253371902898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13863906743710894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14296823670417408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10621943956415922,0.1429439529806171,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3837839663371085,0.19689586497198835,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,nerdytrashkid,2019/04/16,"It‘s not fair It‘s not fair; How can others enjoy food & eat tons of it and still be skinnier than me? Why can‘t I eat without feeling awful? Why can‘t I be skinny? Why can‘t I not be hungry all the time? Why can‘t I think about anything but food 24/7?? Why is food & calories all I ever talk about. 
I‘m so jealous when I see others post on their social media stories what huge portions of high calorie food they had while I‘m restricting on way too little calories. Yet they are skinnier, prettier & happier than me. Why am I punished to live in my ugly and disgusting body while others don‘t have to deal with that and enjoy life??? Imagine being able to...not think about food, calories and weight loss all the time. To just eat when you‘re hungry. Stop when you‘re satisfied. Not thinking about how to get rid of the calories. It‘s not fair, I‘m so done.",3.0515227272727286,5.455333254545459,3.163996212121212,90.74599431818184,77.06060606060606,5.337121212121213,23.03977272727273,6.322622252153567,0.5297954545454542,677,21,129,5,16,206,94,165,0.177,0.703,0.119,-0.8888,0,0,0,0,0,0,31.0,0,0,3,1,16,6,3,0,3,1,16,12,2,2,4,26,25,14,0,0,8,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,9,5,10,2,5,0,0,0,11,4,0,0,2,3,13,2,18,19,5,19,0,1,1,0,6,6,0,0,11,87,22,0,0.0960941215997388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3123538218168512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07907727432679146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10673890622828734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09906881989061077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09833764956294364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2949848289608688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0869226344792503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04858807518612165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5809869663667057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0502052123972572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10152871540350217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06787411992669194,0.0,0.09631155467448416,0.08485286989848953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09203160562390687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07657457356712766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09795585555284926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07674088963938862,0.08033898846731527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07723681496123821,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18471969903163268,0.0,0.0,0.11206651014652648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07627504091268465,0.0,0.11701675220139775,0.0,0.0,0.5202599895556658,0.0,0.0,0.0926313040954222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,catherineslongfinger,2019/04/16,"Feeling guilty despite staying within my calorie limit I've eaten 884 calories so far this week. Just typing that makes me feel ashamed. My limit is 500 on weekdays, so I haven't actually exceeded, but I could be doing so much better.  


I'm desperate not to eat more than I did last week (3,200), so I'm going to decrease my limit to 200 on Wednesday and Thursday, and 100 on Friday, allowing myself 1000 on Saturday and 750 on Sunday as per usual, making my total 3,134 at the most. If I stick to fruit and vegetables, it should be a walk in the park.",6.32048929663609,5.87416803669725,7.300504587155968,75.07840214067282,65.88073394495413,9.468501529051991,32.84556574923548,8.841846274778883,2.7614574923547406,432,16,79,6,6,146,81,109,0.064,0.884,0.051,-0.0983,0,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,0,4,5,2,0,1,3,0,8,4,0,3,1,20,16,11,0,3,4,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,4,4,3,2,0,0,2,2,1,0,0,2,3,10,1,14,10,4,20,0,0,0,0,0,9,0,2,8,54,13,1,0.0,0.0,0.27410683448509143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24842321262876366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22426675607450544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2874192451322285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28405151427517505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15963551079060626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2289617651525572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3749907521032883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20648550038387908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2993899610731252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3093591990413949,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.45062391474417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,mhaeveh,2019/04/16,"I can't be the only one I dress in super baggy clothes during late fall, winter and early spring. I mean oversized hoodies, big sweaters, boyfriend clothes and multiple layers. Hoodies at the gym too.

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And I LIVE for the first few weeks of warm weather, where i switch back to short shorts, tight fitting tank tops, sports bras in the gym. Because people I commonly see haven't seen my body in months, I get showered with ""Oh you look so thin!"", ""how did you lose all the weight"" , ""WOW"", etc. I swear it's the best feeling ever, It makes it all worth it.

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I can't be alone with this twisted hapinness, can I? Please share :D",3.3072505543237227,5.455012422764231,3.065218033998523,93.00252771618624,75.17886178861791,5.4483370288248345,25.815964523281608,6.11248444174946,0.7060634146341469,500,18,100,3,11,149,91,123,0.03,0.759,0.211,0.9697,1,1,0,0,0,0,35.0,0,2,0,5,6,6,0,0,6,0,7,2,1,2,3,13,14,5,0,0,0,0,5,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,5,5,1,1,2,3,1,1,3,1,0,2,2,8,13,5,9,10,5,22,0,1,3,0,3,11,0,0,10,56,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17272353366003926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3613906784180467,0.4052878632084361,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12823591672403573,0.0,0.10166150816986404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17501493641331084,0.0,0.0,0.18524399114632503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18599275088213005,0.0,0.15085310783915692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08432397602374525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1418545662105678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08713049673683268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18812394255663611,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14726105818058716,0.0,0.14004488616671407,0.18657308947537996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11132034015087594,0.0,0.0,0.18166153479453687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1331143068178303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11300773926562435,0.12683617988360832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11561739256757385,0.0,0.0,0.18306349528625526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13289418197301506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13377291890020568,0.20308105989400527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4052878632084361,0.0
EDAnonymous,mtngoat92,2019/04/16,"Recovery & Peach If there is anyone that’s active in recovery that’s interested in connecting on Peach, my username is mtngoat. 

Recovery is hard and we could all use support! ❤️",3.0452941176470567,5.967111470588236,5.077941176470588,73.79573529411766,81.3529411764706,9.282352941176473,32.029411764705884,9.516144504307137,4.135317647058823,146,8,24,5,4,50,26,34,0.038,0.7340000000000001,0.228,0.7901,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,1,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,1,1,6,6,2,0,2,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,2,3,5,1,3,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,1,0,15,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4780736814227841,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3085190241951594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3522871071440544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3952563732813328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5007037909007562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3810819782392053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,carmsabitch,2019/04/16,"Recent issues with fat people? Little background: I recently lost 50 much needed pounds. I was obese for my body type and prediabetic. I took my health seriously and turned it around after years of not losing weight because of excuses. 
Now a year later, I find myself really getting frustrated and angry with people who are overweight. I feel like it’s because I am mad at MY overweight self, not the person in front of me. It’s starting to effect friendships I have and even my job with coworkers. I knew I was starting to struggle with ED, but this seems like a new and weird aspect of it. Anyone else ever experience this?",5.117692307692308,6.950309487179487,5.919316239316242,75.77846153846156,69.51282051282051,7.935042735042735,27.52991452991453,8.515128840125781,2.186463247863248,498,17,83,8,9,163,82,117,0.146,0.782,0.07200000000000001,-0.6834,1,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,3,4,9,2,1,3,0,5,7,2,1,1,20,15,6,0,1,3,0,2,2,0,0,5,0,0,2,7,10,5,0,5,0,0,2,2,7,0,0,5,2,15,2,15,10,1,17,0,2,0,0,4,4,0,1,13,57,22,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11490109425071833,0.1683721890654836,0.0,0.1462856593517668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20034414034667086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1825299901049384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13727392546101772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1085362778896057,0.14864296601896432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16074310712983214,0.0,0.0,0.08308854939896726,0.11739507311159958,0.0,0.0,0.1501916853628417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08585395190848512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17467166597910694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17151444829336102,0.16306895733986573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16056351295376434,0.16469858782444546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18383961587660105,0.17938207469598247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12079907929796115,0.12184621340797355,0.0,0.1587078127587704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22784697512426375,0.14348379203887648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1052719329137903,0.0,0.3245057100529241,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1495969143607615,0.1714286532984837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.232622658839342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17179001300959815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18257308128791336,0.0,0.1787403317294961,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20010572879350624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21164209683976345
EDAnonymous,cervidaes,2019/04/16,"Anyone else get triggered by the way people on the big weight loss subs talk about themselves I’ve noticed that people on the big weight loss subs often speak SO negatively about their “before” pic and I mean that’s to be expected and obviously i do the same thing in my head about me at my HW but especially when someone’s starting BMI is within 20 lbs of mine and I see them saying “I CAN’T believe I had let myself get that chunky” or “I realized I was flabby and gross and I decided to make a change” and stuff just makes me wanna off myself. (Incidentally saw someone recently (with a very healthy starting BMI) in a certain fitness sub casually joke that if she gained the weight back she would throw herself off a building and nobody commented on it so that was something else) Like I’m not saying they shouldn’t talk about themselves that way, it’s fine but I get so triggered because I suck ... I just can’t help but think that’s what everyone was thinking of me for the ~2 years I was at my HW and idk those subs just make me so upset sometimes because I’m crazy",4.532112676056336,5.662593666666673,5.127342723004698,83.5938309859155,70.07981220657277,7.745727699530518,28.753990610328646,8.021203637495839,1.7916813145539905,853,31,169,11,15,274,124,213,0.095,0.785,0.12,0.6803,0,0,1,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,3,3,14,10,1,1,10,0,13,4,1,5,2,36,29,18,0,5,9,0,3,1,0,2,0,3,0,0,13,9,3,0,5,2,0,1,5,5,0,0,6,8,28,5,22,19,1,22,0,2,2,0,13,13,1,3,7,112,41,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09171558079017328,0.1343969194528115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10085994744295786,0.0,0.1599173559627613,0.0,0.11161414319598116,0.14778120178623394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1387581480782855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21914774412038268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12533646111556548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20558929696274225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13461601238304852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08791901645198863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1341279700343621,0.0,0.06408196519056626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2626665900734753,0.0,0.0,0.14288019550103015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14933541818502327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18187048427239305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1295123856796753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20861981038933505,0.0,0.0,0.1045237602045455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2222761152364254,0.100979386473771,0.12972831554524156,0.0,0.18568249849605944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15015575793624686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21085543020084072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08714206290759059,0.16809406941250152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10822717817121592,0.0,0.20822980043004372,0.0,0.4791811580755922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09317784704221696,0.0,0.0,0.08446776750860947
EDAnonymous,eanerahtnamas,2019/04/16,"I rescheduled my doctors appointment because I’m too fat. Like the title says, I had an appointment this morning that I rescheduled. I’ve done nothing but binge for days and couldn’t stand stepping on the scale to see I gained.",5.8910852713178326,7.295259813953493,5.093023255813954,84.0773643410853,67.13953488372093,7.593798449612403,35.26356589147287,7.793537801064563,2.6266496124031007,184,9,33,2,3,55,35,43,0.0,0.868,0.132,0.631,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,3,0,3,2,1,0,0,3,5,2,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,2,1,0,0,2,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,2,2,5,1,3,2,0,4,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,2,19,7,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26456027431804874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.279891877086946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4442138684174467,0.0,0.4441291605159599,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2120287968443363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4164314035675348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34513148327461113,0.0,0.0,0.34583906801095193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Lairabel09,2019/04/16,"""You just need to eat something!"" Or ""That's because you haven't eaten anything yet!"" comments when I'm feeling unwell get me worked up because they sound so banal! Like telling a depressed person to just go out and get some clean air... But it's worse when the comment turns out to be true and all I actually do need a sandwich or snack. 
It's insane how fast I start to feel unwell when I haven't eaten for three or four hours. I used to be able to get through whole days without eating and now I feel like fainting after six! I'm not even that underweight, just slightly.. Maybe it's just in my head🤷🏾‍♀️",1.650714285714287,3.6407957380952425,2.7399206349206366,94.12035714285715,79.71428571428572,4.834920634920637,23.198412698412696,5.46131890053228,0.16163174603174602,477,16,103,2,12,152,85,126,0.075,0.815,0.111,0.5182,0,0,1,0,0,0,16.0,0,2,1,1,12,4,0,0,3,0,5,7,0,2,2,25,21,12,0,2,10,0,3,2,0,0,1,1,1,1,5,5,6,0,3,0,0,1,4,1,0,3,2,4,10,3,14,17,3,16,0,1,0,0,7,5,0,4,12,63,15,1,0.18266953815652426,0.0,0.17825911884309936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1503214654494644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2227073099657252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11780674023711242,0.0,0.157333005545918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3738330820686376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1206515071549392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2770896212923219,0.13049915455812047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2863118828389011,0.0,0.10381530815551147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1874716463116279,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17989269910780595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17848621869700687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1835161035329297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2708942958914984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15949999482573193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14062793489907174,0.0,0.0,0.12929443930214093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15966122783461192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19869200263594786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15776783071429587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2039440158464691,0.0,0.17608691620521896,0.0,0.13298559936164892,0.0,0.1861558652767386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,unicorn6642,2019/04/16,"didnt eat anything for an entire day so I can binge on a snack I havent had in months only to find out my mom ate it Bought one of those mega packs of like doritos bags of a snack I don't even remember when was the last time I had it, went the entire day without consuming anything just so I can sit in my room that evening and eat ALL OF IT, I come back from work, open the drawer and NOTHING IS THERE, AND THEN I NOTICE ALL THE EMPTY BAGS IN THE GARBAGE BIN.
my mom was even disappointed when I came back home the day before from the grocery store because she doesnt like this type of chips and even said ""if you went out to buy snacks you couldve at least bought my favorite type"" WHAT???? IF YOU DONT LIKE IT WHY EVEN EAT ALL OF IT",1.264249547920432,2.864087468354434,2.2544665461121163,99.00025316455697,79.37974683544303,5.273779385171791,19.51356238698011,5.773587663045528,-0.4509399638336346,572,13,140,3,14,180,94,158,0.06,0.888,0.052000000000000005,-0.3061,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,3,0,1,13,4,0,0,10,0,12,7,0,0,3,18,20,11,0,2,4,2,0,3,0,0,0,1,2,0,9,9,7,0,2,0,4,4,6,1,0,1,12,1,16,3,19,8,4,25,0,1,0,0,7,9,0,2,14,91,25,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2200562388709587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2056223385048267,0.0,0.081505546885122,0.0,0.11377341410548522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15292331314634736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11517532917643165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25868668948290274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15670168697539122,0.0,0.0,0.4104418907818196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4415556487432295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12220427741898768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13411737846844918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10898771440157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1959650565838533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3131882050081009,0.10672234330119217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12829389966199972,0.1522244393700836,0.0,0.0,0.0906022127441384,0.10168895181999377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15146210939061452,0.0,0.12718441626190166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07796467106442616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2478924178436957,0.12064829150907724,0.0,0.0,0.12888719644478494,0.0,0.09733909502552984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,blondierespondy,2019/04/17,"Im poor and its feeding my ED Im trying to recover, but i literally cant afford food. Im gonna go on random acts of pizza tonight but tbh if it doesnt happen the universe just wants me to get skinny lol",-1.4792907801418416,0.43861046808510906,2.528829787234045,90.88416666666667,93.25531914893615,4.835460992907802,18.471631205673766,6.42735559955562,0.06366950354609903,160,5,37,2,6,60,39,47,0.047,0.8690000000000001,0.085,0.3919,1,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,2,4,1,0,0,7,7,4,0,2,4,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,4,0,0,0,1,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,4,6,0,4,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,1,17,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32145708747584445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13889142345356853,0.0,0.1510840812789773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2350831191616255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8614646302291683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1804892035782799,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1568004436464316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,serendipitousbluejay,2019/04/17,"When people I know compliment my weight loss, I’m so uncomfortable that they assume my weight loss is a good/healthy thing, but when people don’t say anything, I’m convinced that I haven’t lost enough yet. brain: stop being a bitch and make up your damn mind !!",6.187058823529411,6.324045352941178,5.385098039215689,86.73294117647059,66.05882352941177,8.368627450980393,26.803921568627448,7.793537801064563,1.240733333333333,207,5,43,2,3,62,39,51,0.339,0.5670000000000001,0.093,-0.9291,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,1,1,3,4,7,2,0,2,0,4,3,1,1,0,7,9,5,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,3,1,2,1,2,0,0,0,2,5,0,0,1,3,6,2,1,7,1,5,0,3,0,0,3,1,2,1,4,23,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20395176086474268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2766721628410003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2560856726961457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2078770022552672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1362067552121565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2705473774358363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16543557729443134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2502484336698389,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3436430405938347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19709285499819448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2072059046482569,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16465433399480564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6036063550577534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ziiiiiiiiiiiiii,2019/04/17,"Can rexies fly? I was looking on parents experiences with anorexia so I know how to hide from my family and make it easier on them (ya know, normal people stuff :p) and I was just scrolling and then there was a tab that said ‘people also searched for: can anorexics fly?’ And idk why but it really just made me giggle and at that moment I couldn’t even comprehend planes so I was just imagining rexies in capes like Superman",2.4250677506775062,5.044859609756099,3.792601626016261,84.09941734417345,80.95121951219512,7.546883468834688,21.30623306233063,8.515128840125781,1.6055728997289969,336,10,63,8,9,110,60,82,0.031,0.856,0.113,0.8253,1,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,1,1,0,9,2,0,0,1,0,7,0,0,3,0,18,13,11,0,2,4,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,5,6,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,6,2,9,2,8,6,0,6,0,0,1,0,4,4,0,0,3,46,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21396108145025167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1767154435768463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2617170040349171,0.2522240298470972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2940789494142105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13071229714888954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22467613119433508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2531639866154528,0.17859290712380785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2621439618509805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2970846163528335,0.0,0.0,0.3709734667488809,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1714005370625857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2545030348921433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30628280502341426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24142388860269515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,roseprints,2019/04/17,"I just ate an entire tamale entree and now I wanna die Obviously not dying literally, but I just feel so heavy and wanna purge. Why did I do this to myself?",1.8602083333333328,3.8423204375000033,4.795000000000002,79.68333333333338,79.0,6.7666666666666675,16.916666666666664,7.793537801064563,0.4759666666666664,122,2,24,2,3,44,26,32,0.083,0.917,0.0,-0.3506,0,0,0,0,0,1,3.0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,0,1,10,4,4,2,2,4,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,1,5,0,3,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,20,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8950280852017435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21802598082332625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3890879057309891,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Ityma,2019/04/17,"Being consumed by an ED Having an ED controls E V E R Y aspect of your life. 

I don’t socialise because I’m afraid that I won’t know the exact calorie contents of what I’m eating/drinking and I’ll go over my 500 limit. I’m also worried that I’ll come home and won’t have the energy for my exercise routine. It feels like I’m stuck in a prison. I keep telling myself that I’ll be able to do whatever I want when I’m skinny/pretty enough and that it will all be worth it in the end but I know that I’ll never get to the point where I’m happy with myself. I’ve isolated myself so much that I wouldn’t have anywhere to go even if I did feel comfortable enough to leave my house. It just seems like I’ll be stuck in this cycle forever.",2.709377104377104,3.1326154259259265,4.648698092031427,87.96459595959602,73.75308641975309,7.372390572390572,24.603815937149268,7.348242739294969,0.9407950617283944,577,16,131,6,11,199,96,162,0.081,0.794,0.125,0.8248,0,0,1,0,0,0,9.0,0,1,0,2,6,5,0,1,7,0,14,2,0,1,3,21,33,8,0,3,3,0,2,2,0,4,2,0,1,0,12,5,0,3,5,1,1,3,5,1,0,0,3,2,14,4,13,22,4,12,0,0,0,0,2,6,0,2,5,76,26,0,0.19021042965164348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15211121187128385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11595051244626292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16384944276242894,0.0,0.0,0.21333717077543893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1863338071917466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1684699832247405,0.3930764405660032,0.0,0.12563219486762392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19235221683162101,0.13588636894897502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09937709884701486,0.0,0.21620194114420088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2024825393127419,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19079656975106735,0.0,0.0,0.21947729767686025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16906776951570573,0.0,0.0,0.20906935540812546,0.0,0.0,0.20140538078317768,0.0,0.0,0.13435125165365308,0.18585441605575284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13982655168649755,0.0,0.14670200944838174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1798103374649901,0.0,0.0,0.19351238883954386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17316043135072648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16625229937959307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11219103959083844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1931679243452188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,RaineeRose,2019/04/17,"FML at the salon I was feeling skinny this morning after having lost almost 7.5 pounds in a week and a half, and now I'm sitting here at the salon feeling fat because my stylist has such skinny thighs and I feel enormous... :(",4.850378787878785,5.834918431818185,5.416363636363638,82.35287878787881,69.22727272727272,5.866666666666667,30.57575757575757,3.1291,1.3368121212121211,177,7,31,0,3,57,34,44,0.118,0.8140000000000001,0.068,-0.4939,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,1,3,1,0,0,4,0,3,4,4,0,0,7,8,3,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,3,3,0,3,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,2,3,3,0,4,6,0,8,0,1,0,0,0,4,0,1,3,22,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4265791223478663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2596866552956885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6461977110821032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4650311301063726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3417128321595532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,36434007,2019/04/17,Weird Dream I'm fasting right now and I fucking dreamt I was eating a barbie doll last night. It was really good too. What kinda fucked up social commentary?? lol,1.269677419354842,3.894821129032264,2.4344516129032283,88.65167741935484,95.77419354838707,5.060645161290323,15.877419354838713,6.742157984588678,0.2390593548387101,129,3,23,2,5,41,28,31,0.161,0.608,0.231,0.3707,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,2,4,2,0,1,1,2,3,0,0,0,2,5,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,0,0,2,0,2,1,1,3,0,6,0,0,0,2,1,2,2,1,4,11,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34312600747398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6200138251032431,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2812586503098619,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27333846870570144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3146842160512832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21482079820169486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28636973928674314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3418264092727875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,seriouspuppy,2019/04/17,"Anyone else just always have an appetite? So many people talk about not having an appetite lol even when I'm sick I could eat and eat and eat. I thought it might go away as I gain weight, I was pretty underweight so I guess it was reasonable for my body to be hungry...But now I'm at a normal weight and the extreme hunger is still there. I honestly can't remember the last time I didn't have an appetite. I could recover if I had a normal appetite, if I could just eat like 3 meals and 3 snacks a day, like normal people, but I can't. So I'm going to be stuck in quasi recovery lifting weights (which I hate) and trying to surpress my appetite forever because that's the only way I can maintain a normal weight.",2.605816326530612,4.1433412312925215,4.037840136054424,87.93186224489797,75.4625850340136,6.8047619047619055,25.17517006802721,7.492282038375204,1.190614965986394,559,19,116,7,12,185,87,147,0.048,0.861,0.091,0.5499,0,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,0,1,11,4,1,0,10,1,17,13,1,1,0,23,26,13,0,9,6,0,4,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,4,5,11,0,3,0,0,2,4,1,0,0,6,4,15,3,9,14,0,12,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,4,8,74,19,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09061554851083738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07614711348214663,0.11158341242626303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10231742094914054,0.0,0.0,0.06638591255350765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12096605311771387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2608491945931969,0.0,0.0,0.07023306021520666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4457375072176341,0.09097400898037576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07192903012181659,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12378352502192945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11996830806631532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10751860675900532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0887700181665797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10640845608749264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1104099744694876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11552827203929635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4268050498943952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08282520786830315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15099847033217167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11079292581372603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1119698391233618,0.0,0.0,0.12336522768624687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08696962392105498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08753165074843293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08645636753294908,0.06350188463664876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07393760367800199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08644168257510593,0.0,0.5304553011694756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Arkhamgel,2019/04/17,I ate a whole tin of mentos now mints yesterday I seriously don't know how I finished the day without shitting myself. These mints are sugarfree and seriously sweet. I ate the whole 30gr tin in about 1.5 sitting and almost shat myself on the spot. 10/10 would not do again. Even though we know it's gonna happen.,2.9566120218579215,5.386721737704921,4.043852459016397,84.17812841530056,77.52459016393442,6.689617486338799,23.281420765027317,7.793537801064563,1.275194535519125,250,8,47,4,6,81,47,61,0.059,0.8490000000000001,0.092,0.4464,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,1,0,0,0,6,4,1,0,4,0,4,3,1,1,0,10,10,4,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,3,2,0,2,0,0,0,3,3,0,0,2,3,7,1,5,6,2,8,0,0,0,0,1,2,1,1,5,32,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2857079419289979,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18400855366590246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18845194497791334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.252308572521852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3136101116712507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2928780856799726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28032660551278776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6371018043482453,0.0,0.27503943072523723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2026839762603632,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,imaprettyflower,2019/04/17,How sad that I got excited when my BMI went into the ‘underweight’ category again ~just ED things~,3.7416666666666663,6.717733166666669,4.964444444444447,75.50000000000003,78.44444444444446,10.266666666666667,31.222222222222214,10.125756701596842,4.19368888888889,79,4,14,3,2,26,18,18,0.151,0.732,0.117,-0.1779,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,3,2,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,2,0,2,1,1,0,0,4,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,10,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5741601862788096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4769325329665698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6654888725518815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,mikeymousedoesdrugs,2019/04/17,"Emotional eating is so fucked Was binging pretty bad for a couple days and was borderline concerned with myself cause I’ve been making OK WL progress. Then my 10 year old cat cat suddenly had to be put to sleep and I’ve been too depressed to eat for 3 days.

GREAT",1.7377987421383665,4.2581560188679255,2.771981132075471,90.92199685534591,83.15094339622641,5.79748427672956,22.040880503144656,7.1686216300943375,0.8189144654088052,211,7,42,3,6,67,43,53,0.181,0.596,0.223,0.2382,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,1,2,5,1,0,1,1,7,4,1,2,0,5,9,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,5,0,2,2,6,3,0,7,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,6,21,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19727156603354234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24270943383242544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2614229404724309,0.0,0.30474300547085953,0.0,0.20349486316879725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4835165489883498,0.0,0.2657665399241196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21842336234285584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26048320763190275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15770884990331224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.247920574314084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.240366638545493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2375117742626301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23643581931742344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15214703701704296
EDAnonymous,maplesmith,2019/04/17,"white monster (of course) interning in china and just found that they have the white monster ultra over here!!! 


but then i realized they don’t have the 11 kcal per 500 ml can ones i’m used to. it’s 26 kcal for 330 ml instead. it hurts",-0.4357142857142833,1.8118882857142893,1.1073469387755104,99.59122448979595,94.71428571428572,4.4326530612244905,17.20408163265306,6.18269132825596,-0.3941918367346937,182,5,42,2,7,58,40,49,0.103,0.897,0.0,-0.7207,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,2,0,3,1,0,0,2,0,4,0,0,1,0,6,7,3,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,1,2,3,0,5,6,0,3,0,1,2,0,2,2,0,0,1,24,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5816614961215082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.567906953480364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35947782749042656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4581782269609758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,poopybuttholeboy,2019/04/17,"Platform to share and read funny stories?! Hey everyone just found this page and was curious if it was the right platform for this - I am desperately looking for a place where I can share and read funny stories about situations our EDs have gotten us into? I have so many fucked to stories that I want to share but can’t with those round me because that would just find it super sad/heart breaking/ gross, but I need to get it out and need to read other stories just to normalise my experience a little. If I’m in the wrong place could someone redirect me? 

Love you all 
Xx",7.037708333333335,6.501057830357144,6.966785714285713,78.36154761904764,64.44642857142857,9.609523809523813,33.84523809523809,8.841846274778883,2.6820488095238093,455,17,88,6,6,145,74,112,0.103,0.71,0.187,0.8197,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,2,1,0,1,6,8,1,0,4,0,9,2,0,0,1,22,19,9,0,7,7,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,9,7,0,0,2,3,0,0,1,3,0,0,4,2,11,5,13,13,2,11,0,0,2,2,8,10,1,2,0,60,20,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10647727872948423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13945987098128582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16690477684332009,0.0,0.17086088559505894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15964531747779698,0.0,0.0,0.19151676158994052,0.0,0.16147970346754698,0.09125792400585588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2069849231088349,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17506533918876674,0.0,0.0,0.14667890185237695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15764659518810542,0.0,0.0,0.1770880774837177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2590313488524968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3649861797191065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5241521390815885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14916732082353734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19633652369547985,0.0,0.0,0.14799741863195298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2101066375481176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10302495729805908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12408063566580832,0.1909743467310496,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,redhair-redeyes,2019/04/17,That fuckin “gotta look good for my bf” feel SO my long distance bf is visiting next weekend and this entire week my mind has been a hellscape of “you’re too far for him to see you rn!!! Lose that shit within 4 days!!!” Even though he is nothing but amazing when it comes to my self image issues. But still....I don’t want him to even look at me...what the fuck do I do I’m #stressed,-0.27456639566395324,1.6747011097561002,1.2023577235772365,102.67014905149051,86.6829268292683,4.132249322493226,17.647696476964764,5.033348758259628,-0.9195490514905148,289,7,73,1,9,92,64,82,0.168,0.792,0.04,-0.9149,0,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,1,0,1,6,7,3,1,2,0,7,3,1,0,0,7,16,6,0,1,2,0,1,0,2,1,0,0,0,1,4,2,0,0,1,1,0,2,1,5,0,0,1,4,8,2,8,14,0,11,0,1,3,2,8,3,3,0,6,38,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19064292736686375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14272960510584526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29235240593177164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11190330917223787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20460177719201408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18562818238590909,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23099493821607556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19585645252710876,0.3716970411900796,0.2475944221238316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2234646516116763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2353705829219104,0.0,0.0,0.21235732313304503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17635907880257276,0.0,0.2308793898775062,0.0,0.22717625175815154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1767421217361164,0.0,0.25351512123790754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2174404662630444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1305370824052236,0.0,0.17752521890508385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Czarcasm3,2019/04/18,"Help with the bad thoughts I’m a 5’4 female and I ate like 1600+ calories three days in a row. After a week of 800 calories a day. I feel like shit but I know I shouldn’t, any tips on how to cope?",-2.785590062111801,-1.1297889999999988,-0.20105590062111744,108.20847826086958,102.04347826086956,2.6285714285714294,13.093167701863356,3.1291,-1.9160397515527952,150,3,42,0,7,50,37,46,0.114,0.752,0.134,-0.0516,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,1,4,1,0,5,0,1,2,1,1,0,8,6,3,0,1,1,0,1,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,3,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,2,1,4,2,6,3,0,6,0,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,6,20,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24630693526983355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3024200474668237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4671752550695001,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18313809866878267,0.2587541922233668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2427735613586075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19905444746118345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3539031152985606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3717908533486897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28754460812916954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29053324067472985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ItsLilly22,2019/04/18,"This was the most unnecessary binge ever and it just ruined my last day of holidays. So I’m on holidays with my family and I’m having an awesome time. I’ve been eating lots of amazing food, but I haven’t been binging. I’ve just been eating intuitively and enjoying hearty holiday meals (I’ve been walking a lot as well so I think I may’ve even lost some weight). Today was one of those days, I had just had my favorite dish for dinner, I ate a regular restaurant portion of lasagne and I was satisfied with it. But when I said g’night to my family and went to my hotel room, I was feeling really tired and somewhat bored (ya know that feeling when u know u’re gonna need to go to sleep soon but also wanna do smth quickly beforw bed but aren’t sure what?) so dumbass me had the awesome idea to treat myself to a couple teaspoons of cocoa powder (there was a big pot of it next to some cups n instant coffee sachets in my room). Yeah Ik it’s weird that I like to eat cocoa powder on its own, I’ve done it ever since I was a lil kid. Anyway a couple teaspoons ended up being the whole pot (100g so more or less 400 kcal). I was gonna go to bed satisfied now I’m full af, which makes it harder to sleep, which is smth that bugs me a lot since I suffer from bad insomnia. And the worst part is I’ma beat myself up for this tmr the whole day, which is my last days of holidays with my family before I go back to school and we can’t enjoy time together anymore.

Ugh like Ik 400 kcal isn’t a big deal but twas so unnecessary. I was in a good mood (holidays with family make me happy), I was satisfied, I had just eaten a nice hearty meal that I had really enjoyed. Why did I have to do this to myself? Now I’ma wake up full n disgusting tmr. Ughhhhh",2.0970561594202906,3.5010957527173936,4.2325869565217396,86.5653115942029,76.52717391304348,7.51536231884058,22.59275362318841,8.238735603445708,1.1559051449275364,1359,38,295,24,30,469,183,368,0.104,0.691,0.205,0.9891,1,0,0,0,0,0,35.0,1,1,0,2,23,22,1,0,16,1,32,16,3,2,3,43,53,23,0,2,10,0,3,2,0,2,2,1,4,1,19,13,11,0,6,6,0,5,4,9,1,1,25,4,34,12,36,25,17,38,0,3,0,0,5,13,0,8,22,191,53,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08137679353481947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10091778048069457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07824654171349615,0.08496467948922183,0.0,0.0,0.08658958221587146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2251892332480731,0.0,0.26250505642573185,0.10490926446674874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10413498915631132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3123751899871716,0.0,0.0,0.09012844531996232,0.0,0.0,0.06721099028334597,0.18409404005819704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3837180605419533,0.0,0.10290501562973008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1230476256275167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17349629106768288,0.08535078699209461,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10832455802141716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11487374788820873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11184838750677703,0.16589465528291075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09942880775745533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1110821848125376,0.2595360925005525,0.0,0.0,0.13585010910665507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07545315561452558,0.0,0.0,0.10822206105218032,0.0954941135654934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06895466582443198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11019529461052097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1303790953173162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09679629951402333,0.0,0.0,0.1029857406085044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16835251956640945,0.0,0.20366537369770504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09590683944224214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06520318494868975,0.0,0.0,0.11867321286161578,0.11695722822787608,0.09645582090886673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1239152885568985,0.0914937394067776,0.09433179563226704,0.0918218481792576,0.2272210201203848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,N-em,2019/04/18,"survey for class on interactions with ed-websites trigger warning!!!  


hi, everyone. i hope this is allowed. i'm a university junior doing a study/research paper for my research methods class on how people with eating disorders interact with ed-specific websites/networks. it is, of course, not for any kind of profit at all. i feel like it would be interesting and beneficial (on a personal level) to cover this subject. i am not pro-ed and do not encourage it in any way. i am aiming to make observations and come up with efficient hypothetical solutions.

**\*\*\*it is potentially triggering, so please proceed with caution\*\*\***  


i have suffered from an ed for around 8 years now and constantly lurk this and other subreddits/websites, so i don't want anyone to think i'm just a random outsider. i really really *really* don't want to fuck anyone up, so **please don't take this unless you're comfortable doing so**.

[here is the survey.](https://docs.google.com/forms/d/e/1FAIpQLSekGyoAbVlDLTj137k97ZSOmN8j_D_LlyvDBkqd42N_37XmaQ/viewform?usp=sf_link)

it's 35 questions; most of them are multiple choice but 5 are optional answers that you can type.  
i **do not** ask any questions about weight or caloric intake.  
i **do** ask questions about pro-ed websites (and pro-recovery websites), though.  
if you are uncomfortable with a question, it is optional OR there is a ""prefer not to say""/""n/a"" option.

i'm leaving it open until sunday at 7 pm central time.

thank you for taking the time to read this, and thank you endlessly if you do participate in the survey.   
also, if anyone could direct me towards other places to post this, i would greatly appreciate it.",3.9987412587412585,7.342801164335668,4.7747237762237775,73.5651625874126,84.55944055944056,7.475384615384615,28.129020979020986,8.317959484511023,2.9874380419580424,1327,60,200,33,40,426,163,286,0.049,0.8390000000000001,0.112,0.9436,1,0,1,0,0,0,96.0,0,5,1,0,14,12,1,0,10,0,26,3,0,5,1,54,43,22,0,10,13,0,2,1,0,2,0,0,0,1,17,16,2,0,8,1,1,1,8,2,0,0,0,2,18,10,37,39,2,25,0,1,0,1,17,14,1,15,9,139,35,8,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09307283446455136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23743684244306276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2441367486940004,0.0,0.0,0.10360709352564228,0.21760804207841047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10025514803104056,0.0,0.12577055741606696,0.0,0.09292374451281764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13338699504813786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11909064441927902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1112106065510324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058847621473189726,0.08314528145288229,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1075958166563732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12831458663488932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11559630737221994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12119679685929853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12323463494436505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0568597051041197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07768771763822853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08068652445441904,0.10162266572855376,0.12159728198615208,0.2555109894991436,0.0,0.0,0.11146440912877516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5215101784330329,0.0,0.1164162352824785,0.0,0.22367713378103896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09255381652497456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1750136803189381,0.0,0.0,0.21430286346887653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07457464193024856,0.11434741605278682,0.0,0.13572975557607336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13729347005768358,0.09238078928394802,0.0,0.14172525898981914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16535275999423235,0.0,0.0,0.07494795668422974
EDAnonymous,eatsomethingxo,2019/04/18,"DAE count any weight lost as water weight and never actually fat? i can't be the only one who even if youve lost 20 pounds, still says oh its water weight. not actual fat. 

i hit my first gw today and immediately told myself it was all water weight, not actual fat. you're still fat and need to restrict more.

i love being back on my bullshit.",2.4359047619047622,4.1745729714285735,4.300000000000002,85.01333333333334,76.42857142857143,6.9523809523809526,17.38095238095238,7.793537801064563,0.3065238095238092,268,4,56,4,6,91,52,70,0.14800000000000002,0.792,0.06,-0.6712,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,3,4,3,0,0,1,0,4,12,4,0,2,10,10,5,0,2,3,0,4,0,0,0,4,1,0,0,3,3,11,1,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,2,4,5,6,1,3,3,2,7,0,2,0,1,4,1,0,1,6,32,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.4258155835695935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09891120321163244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11184231560164326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0960685625531282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1237199652714989,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3175524054983513,0.0,0.13127458978265524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10784956700423882,0.11218025113874233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09856089903091236,0.11062152026235292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11566792996553403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.232313621961316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13786989338398248,0.1389840109564613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7084772058754851,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,smastorakis,2019/04/18,"Anyone else terrified of Brandy Melville? every time i’m in a store and i see a brandy melville section, i avoid it at all costs. something about it only being one size freaks me out so much.",2.0360526315789467,4.449416552631583,2.399210526315791,94.78197368421051,80.84210526315789,4.852631578947369,22.657894736842106,5.985473137389443,0.2615578947368422,151,5,31,1,4,46,32,38,0.202,0.7979999999999999,0.0,-0.765,0,1,1,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,1,2,0,1,0,0,0,1,4,3,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,2,0,1,0,1,3,0,5,2,3,5,0,0,1,0,0,4,0,0,1,19,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2832892096509507,0.4151224553482709,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33844953438545783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34135503488910385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29783072062142696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2745390684933708,0.30813364556082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.322850852199627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3119030631298959,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2362453136753483,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,lilcassatt,2019/04/18,"Does anyone just feel too old for this? I saw someone on an ED blog mention they were born in 2004, and it just hit me. I’m a grown adult living with this for 10+ years, and I just never expected it to last this long. So many people in the community are teenagers, and I just keep beating myself up thinking that it’s something for young girls and I’m an adult who should’ve been better by now.",4.4615662650602435,4.377719012048196,4.958698795180722,89.07756626506027,69.72289156626506,7.60385542168675,26.23855421686747,6.742157984588678,0.8590742168674708,310,8,70,2,5,99,63,83,0.039,0.924,0.037000000000000005,-0.0258,0,0,1,0,1,0,8.0,0,0,1,2,7,1,0,0,4,0,3,0,0,0,1,14,10,5,0,1,4,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,8,5,0,1,2,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,3,2,6,1,10,6,0,13,0,0,1,0,6,4,0,0,8,43,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21425738691877524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2710053576936075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26815195695669497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15493617004420307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2723619526528205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2497748274274756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27057623972488953,0.271173827275189,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31066381295132744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23633153655429295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3215383430499545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21243443252572308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2596303660441721,0.23589862586193644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19634284468667185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19732572142416566
EDAnonymous,hungry_duckling,2019/04/18,"Confession: Body Positive Instagramers Make Me Terrified of Recovery I know this is going to make me sound terrible, but when I look at body positive Instagramers (several of whom are open about having a history of disordered eating) I became completely focused on their weight.  So many of them have gone from being thin to overweight. They do seem happy and healthy. But, as someone who has been overweight/obese for most of their life- I can’t go back to that. I was miserable before I lost weight. Don’t get me wrong, I’m miserable now too but in a different way. If recovery means gaining weight like some of these Instagramers I just don’t think I can do it. I wish I could be happy and not care about weight, but I don’t think that’s possible for me.",3.3356748768472926,5.794563124137932,4.236871921182267,83.13353448275866,76.3793103448276,9.108374384236452,26.90886699507389,9.606745405546679,2.8346453201970454,603,24,114,18,14,194,95,145,0.158,0.635,0.207,0.882,1,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,4,2,8,9,0,2,2,0,17,9,2,2,0,22,33,10,0,3,7,0,5,1,0,0,2,1,0,0,7,3,6,0,6,0,0,3,5,5,0,0,4,7,19,4,18,26,2,12,1,3,1,0,7,5,0,4,4,79,26,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10086246266253196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11161692660093853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2914029956312943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13373765662950726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1375303801778206,0.0,0.0,0.10472943269808564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13704585869634486,0.1503334200955162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13422076020580656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06853147463201659,0.0,0.14909509350565647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27926810436878235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07208819432604313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09265001193741908,0.06408356325022503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11015066966352637,0.0,0.14318872723028667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17511542692381388,0.13298688548875198,0.0,0.14288375861080352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14787568219717748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1194132234293719,0.0,0.1481859823470595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11114082915066968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16809826129941394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10411749660577573,0.0,0.6389241436970137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15084026679011628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1434149827638534,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ogre-ish,2019/04/18,"question for y'alls with medical/healthcare jobs i've been accepted into a BSN track and for my health paperwork it asks the doctor to certify that i am 'physically and mentally healthy and capable of entering this program' or something along those lines. for those of you who've had similar papers signed, did having a history of an ED, depression, anxiety, etc. cause any issues? 

i haven't talked about my mental health so there isn't anything suspect and i should be fine, but one of the main reasons i've kept mum about it is that i don't want to potentially mess up my career.",6.423233766233767,7.279009245454546,6.8440259740259775,73.98318181818183,65.63636363636364,11.012987012987013,34.8051948051948,10.914260884657429,4.0479740259740264,467,21,83,13,7,152,82,110,0.079,0.8440000000000001,0.077,-0.3047,1,0,1,0,0,0,10.0,0,2,0,0,4,4,0,0,5,0,11,3,0,2,0,18,14,7,0,2,2,1,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,7,7,0,1,4,0,0,1,3,2,0,1,4,0,9,2,15,8,2,3,0,1,0,0,6,2,0,2,0,58,16,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.145978496360545,0.0,0.1642169395827887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1766497158145211,0.0,0.20068133351831904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22051847866017685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1848893013039072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21971712094474088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2394064728192106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4563543848226216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2240528539656523,0.2130203353055613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4326605045359291,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1454614985290565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24047217430871995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2207097624744548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16525839913299298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17253833708199687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1266140552131133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,smashwords,2019/04/18,"Is this normal behavior?? I’m wondering if it is normal for people without eating disorders to dictate what they eating during the day depending on what they have already eaten, despite what they might want to eat. For example, say I eat two slices of toast for breakfast I don’t believe I can eat two more in a sandwich for dinner because that’s too much bread for one day. Even if I want to eat a sandwich for lunch, I won’t because I already ate two slices in the morning. It extends to almost all food, like if I eat some chips in the morning for snack I won’t finish it later in the day because that’s just too many chips for one day even if I do want them. I’m struggling knowing if most people do this?  I’m trying to decide if this is a healthy behavior or another eating disorder ritual. 
If it helps for context I am at restored weight now.",5.5718604651162815,5.451446418604653,6.485441860465119,79.2002558139535,67.37209302325581,8.973023255813953,33.47906976744186,8.548686976883017,2.672235348837209,672,28,129,9,10,224,88,172,0.034,0.868,0.098,0.7489,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,4,0,6,2,0,1,7,0,12,19,0,1,1,24,22,8,0,12,10,0,1,1,0,3,0,1,0,0,12,0,19,0,3,0,0,0,4,1,0,5,2,2,14,1,22,17,5,13,1,0,0,0,6,6,0,14,8,91,26,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09047695619687453,0.0,0.19941682249716536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09474454640532456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16523775008103167,0.0,0.0,0.10179855355251748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2330846491347093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20710811524738945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7396414890483958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11935655870021115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10925699122433136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060562700779214676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.049656457123666696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.044142633070738034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0916052571301054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09585182060594696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06642093629663415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17705640512944945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12245306287603673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12528083415918004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07185350600529845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09445811654212713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061344758288835365,0.0,0.2647895825673731,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15988023312819416,0.0,0.0,0.11002741032488443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08709849071092596,0.09798557513126256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,spoonjah,2019/04/18,"I got my wisdom teeth out Skinny legend incoming guys.
The first thing I actually thought of after we were finished was how many calories my blood has and whether it'd break my fast. Now I can finally truly experience the pain of eating so that I will finally become the skeleton I always wanted to be. How to beat binge purging in one secret step.",4.8832835820895495,6.475942701492535,6.0151044776119456,75.80414925373138,69.74626865671641,8.345074626865673,29.817910447761196,8.841846274778883,2.596226268656717,279,11,48,5,5,93,55,67,0.049,0.858,0.093,0.4588,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,1,0,0,2,4,2,0,0,3,0,7,5,3,2,0,9,10,5,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,3,3,2,0,2,0,0,1,0,1,0,2,4,0,9,1,7,3,0,11,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,7,36,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.24357779592128015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20769077722510365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27566834456589445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2554075178978222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2441609056963715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5468586313445298,0.0,0.21231329440551455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19963136457368325,0.0,0.0,0.24714750477946945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2530595884240465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16913833694425487,0.0,0.2655965790357507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16582600925844346,0.0,0.0,0.19815793717597924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14722308617105484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,pussypalooza,2019/04/18,"for the first time in a year and a half, i saw my weight without crying since i've stopped all forms of starving myself or ""dieting"" 1.5 years ago, i've also stopped weighing myself because doing so had ruined every previous attempt at recovery. the problem was that i also had to go to the doctor's office a lot , where i was forced to hear my weight, which always led to me crying for hours and never wanting to eat again. once i started having my period again i was able to go longer periods of time without seeing the doctor, so i havent known my weight for a while.

yesterday i went for a vaccine and was told my weight. it didn't phase me. at the end of the appointment she gave me a graph with every weight change since i was 13. i didn't cry. 

i'm not fully recovered, and i don't know if i'll ever be, but this gives me hope.",5.932093770070647,4.819874219653184,6.7760308285163795,80.71866409762364,66.91907514450868,9.538599871547849,30.204881181759795,8.515128840125781,2.0875682723185616,652,19,136,8,9,218,104,173,0.069,0.873,0.058,0.0879,0,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,0,0,2,8,3,0,0,12,0,14,10,0,1,3,23,28,12,0,4,6,0,5,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,4,5,8,2,2,0,0,4,8,2,0,2,13,8,22,1,19,14,3,27,0,1,2,0,5,4,0,4,19,94,26,2,0.10570649693772237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09370243157022963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16906689482078227,0.0879562734231003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06443769940100301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11182345757880717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.348340869874158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21639015756710947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10816413602318067,0.0,0.0,0.09362458093627624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09561757829133023,0.17812456550772054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08991389229503767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10140330394303088,0.120150876433771,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1191389045630033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1049904026916332,0.10409960653135164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0580935262532531,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08986788359634908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0815273670372002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1125739693518215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10114684159515992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0842343921930702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17488301321536567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07481960260087378,0.0,0.0,0.17675072932709046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12327661686703252,0.0,0.0,0.10100708777640116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06234843065476661,0.0,0.0,0.6436101788703427,0.0,0.09799098168934388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20379458180564905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13614303660851007
EDAnonymous,not_the_cicada,2019/04/18,"Stupidest triggers Does anyone else get triggered by the dumbest things? Big ones for me are seasons changing (especially heading into fall and spring, something about idealizing the future and being restless). 

Lately my stupidest one has been a video game. The character can easily be underweight and having that notification (“you are at your lowest possible weight” legit the text verbatim) pop up is so freaking triggering. Plus a plot point has been illness that includes him fainting and I’m just a mess. I’ve been more restrictive and over exercising since I started playing it vs before. 

Does anyone else want to chime in here and make me feel less dumb/alone?",6.518434782608697,9.338382452173915,6.338478260869567,70.10163043478265,67.95652173913044,9.121739130434785,34.108695652173914,9.642632912329526,3.9496260869565214,542,26,78,13,10,170,93,115,0.173,0.765,0.062,-0.943,1,1,1,0,0,0,13.0,0,2,0,1,4,5,0,1,7,0,12,5,1,4,0,18,18,8,0,2,2,0,2,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,4,8,1,1,1,4,0,1,0,3,0,2,3,2,7,2,10,13,2,13,0,0,0,0,4,7,0,0,5,53,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20204471603442195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27280984709932393,0.3997663508278197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16599926139638055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20636945672091447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3414327759185883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32592969509957564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.098638636146388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1019215858898581,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20020902358650794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22005946582787636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13021784604585468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2643833889428762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18441426612820527,0.21992411698434056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16137272629732838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15018261208593148,0.0,0.0,0.1380790853290815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12960291290161352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11506361938914253,0.0,0.0,0.2375556718230032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,motherofdogandcat,2019/04/19,"Eating order came back with a vengeance after break up (trigger warning) I'm new here and was looking to vent/hear others stories... don't feel comfortable talking to close friends or family 

I'm a 23 year woman and I went though a really bad break up in February. I have struggled with bulimia since high school but thought I had a handle on it. After we broke up I convinced myself it ended partly because I wasn't pretty or skinny enough and I started making myself throw up again. My therapist helped me with the bulimia but now I'm skipping meals and refuse to eat more than twice a day. I feel proud of myself when I go to bed hungry and feel sick to my stomach when I do eat. Thinking of eating makes me feel guilty. I'm a normal weight according to bmi but when I look in the mirror I see someone very overweight and feel disgusted by my reflection. Some days I feel like I'm hallucinating because I'll look down at my body and cannot interpret my actually size and think I've swelled up like a balloon. I want to overcome this but I'm addicted to the control I feel when restricting food or throwing up. I know deep down it's bullshit but I've convinced myself my depression/anxiety will be cured if I can get down to 120 pounds or less. I think about my weight all day and I am starting to feel miserable. Thank you for reading I don't know where else to go.",2.9678939393939388,4.922624618181821,4.197295454545458,85.37860984848486,75.54545454545455,7.201515151515152,27.09469696969697,8.07648339933343,1.7907606060606067,1090,43,214,18,24,357,156,275,0.159,0.754,0.087,-0.9696,0,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,1,1,0,2,11,13,1,2,10,0,12,14,3,4,1,51,47,24,0,3,10,0,10,2,1,1,3,0,1,1,5,15,10,3,16,1,0,6,4,5,0,1,6,14,34,8,35,39,6,43,0,2,4,0,7,17,0,6,19,132,39,2,0.0,0.0,0.10017558338943468,0.11190810994352618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07853009754410595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07893465842018982,0.0857118769263876,0.1251539604015709,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1140255518038274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11740893110606565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11513529030665788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19861018623424834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4201630450048181,0.08575431955028923,0.0,0.09092105401058123,0.10606911569318717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09677313966616033,0.0,0.4152399367731293,0.0733361020997428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12412973258149955,0.0,0.07931029495695441,0.0,0.053632524908789884,0.0,0.1166813695335944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1156986196168617,0.0,0.06880687238312973,0.1084596817308406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11283200598210814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1003032058106633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2586107434359374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1370448038194864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09914395938439108,0.0,0.0,0.10057921225120536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11116437543582026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10443611390360108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10268186922407208,0.0,0.06576283838644485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10389141908466523,0.08180201871715026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08491652369002248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08697847696716711,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1453181859100524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10731634301050756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08250946872820142,0.0,0.09451009366374548,0.0,0.11918931005350883,0.0,0.1973297868171044,0.10085712179880107,0.08149588054514627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08470037470084392,0.060548041703870084,0.0,0.0,0.25001005184593234,0.0,0.0951613694782864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06610586803625808
EDAnonymous,SunShineee_3,2019/04/19,"this is more of a confession and i guess a way to talk myself out of it... i haven’t done any ED behaviors in what feels like at least a year and i’m at a “heathy weight"" (according to everyone but me and my mom) but summer is coming around and i was trying on a bathing suit and my mom told me i looked fat and needed to do sit-ups and stop eating as much. i looked in the mirror and realized how absolutely disgusting i look. i want to start restricting and exercising 24/7 and i want to be back at a good weight. 

i’m falling back down a rabbit hole i thought i climbed out of...",0.8884146341463399,2.7764784308943122,2.9896138211382137,91.88490853658541,81.76422764227642,7.0268292682926825,20.819105691056908,8.07648339933343,0.8340032520325211,449,13,105,9,12,152,77,123,0.113,0.807,0.08,-0.7049,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,0,1,4,3,1,0,8,0,7,5,1,1,0,27,21,14,0,3,2,2,3,1,0,0,2,0,1,0,3,14,4,2,4,2,0,3,1,1,0,0,4,6,15,2,19,16,3,20,1,0,3,0,5,10,0,1,7,70,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11424277077451155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14955170370118556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25835649773324065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1447133365356484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1719178285758866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17190144189661413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16052699784723568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08494362452026365,0.12001609226607292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1409067412001034,0.0,0.0,0.18506609656635994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08207416578251496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4232219869415997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3935088393878653,0.0,0.0,0.12349609794014654,0.12456661087251407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1189081523885652,0.0,0.0,0.14045184635456928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1350285020362871,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13336974339743962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16052699784723568,0.0,0.11405798683594486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19817631839168035,0.13334709001614184,0.0,0.4091467720629281,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10818366030386847
EDAnonymous,insectways,2019/04/19,"when someone dies of an eating disorder triggering warning for death


hi all. i am hesitant about making this post but i don’t really have anyone to talk to or share these feelings with and i know that it’ll be bad for me to try and suppress them so thank you for listening in advance. 


a girl i have followed on instagram for quite a while died yesterday after battling anorexia for 12 years. she was 22. i don’t feel like i should add her username but i’m sure a few of you know her as well. 


i don’t want to make this too long. i cared about her deeply, and i hope she knew that. she was such a sweetheart and didn’t deserve that world of pain. i am heartbroken that the disease she was trying so hard to fight was what killed her. 


i haven’t had someone i know and love die of an ED before. i am devastated over her death and i am furious at this awful disorder that took her. 


but something that’s also been in my head is that she died trying to fight an illness that i don’t have any desire to recover from. of course i never wanted it in the first place but essentially i can’t see my life without it. it feels weird to not want help with something that others are trying their best fighting against. 


i don’t know. if you read this, thank you. i just needed someone to listen.",2.599287936398201,4.259917095057041,3.6988886968544783,89.83573712409266,75.7680608365019,6.759004493605255,24.121845834773588,7.520522993642371,0.9851688212927758,1008,32,215,13,22,326,148,263,0.276,0.569,0.156,-0.9919,1,0,2,0,4,0,19.0,0,4,2,4,10,20,6,0,9,1,26,6,1,3,3,40,51,18,7,8,9,0,4,1,1,2,3,2,0,1,20,9,1,1,8,1,0,3,11,9,1,1,9,7,39,11,34,39,3,20,0,0,1,1,29,8,0,3,9,154,59,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08896485206934515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07565234147100429,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07778707165990156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09288729395123757,0.0,0.0,0.0946637123184912,0.0,0.11674773756580956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11342458029316835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4618307486455864,0.0,0.2549993099641066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11383430648219288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16875074136661666,0.07947547431293754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09462735014429062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09965620730415313,0.0,0.1141723719306407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07456707763389807,0.0,0.0,0.11049419999182436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12307924477003715,0.0,0.24455559912120556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07857763462441429,0.054350071988204414,0.0,0.0,0.09845083167443623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10040551292712899,0.0,0.14851758511604005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08248885874987602,0.08580118722540295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11837553814947985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11623030786768047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10654467252649656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11832576444387607,0.11127793850868946,0.0,0.07126821065318238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0886501198067372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28277978433790096,0.17128803424967726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10484976628830547,0.0,0.0,0.08941679438543944,0.0,0.20484411650541398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1236004360961355,0.3021199051496868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19685056317513805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10002516243297742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10723894137934424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07163995721922196
EDAnonymous,partywombat,2019/04/19,"Changing Goalposts (TW numbers) I'm 104 lbs again.

I remember the first time I reached this weight. I was drunk at a friend's grad party and I weighed myself on his bathroom scale (my family doesn't own one because of my mom's own ED) and I was *ecstatic* for the rest of the night. 

That was back when I thought I was just dieting to look good in my grad dress, before I found out all of my friends were terrified I was losing so fast, before I realized I ate the exact same thing every day because it was safe and I knew the calories off by heart...

But now 104 feels like a disappointment because I know how small it feels to be 102 and 101... My UGW is <100 and getting up to 104 feels like a defeat. I feel like I look the same as I did at my HW. Is this what's gonna keep happening forever? I thought I'd stop at BMI 19 but my standards just keep getting higher.",1.7000274725274735,3.3729492637362672,3.1748214285714305,92.56080357142858,78.34065934065933,6.528021978021977,24.561813186813183,7.413659706084162,0.9451417582417584,674,24,153,9,16,221,113,182,0.07,0.8440000000000001,0.085,0.128,0,0,0,0,0,0,23.0,0,0,0,3,8,10,0,0,9,0,12,6,1,1,2,31,31,11,0,0,4,1,5,3,2,1,0,0,0,0,7,6,5,4,11,1,0,0,1,3,0,2,13,7,26,7,17,16,6,19,0,3,2,0,4,9,0,0,13,94,33,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11324331573634835,0.0,0.26932749954963536,0.0,0.2506357772143971,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15579457626335882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09497845635163618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1240832728938511,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1388352268743038,0.0,0.2978612196940429,0.31563410285804394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12526975156730885,0.0,0.1614764863024851,0.22756444260880115,0.0,0.15388740696520656,0.0,0.0,0.1235250262571601,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13023241727077906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17451839632067098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2618047915869973,0.0,0.0,0.08093701001770097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21584943481708094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2473432976748179,0.1647600439807695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17248354941649513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13820508634178574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09979552862594672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1668308180962748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12312624549436428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09784117872302167,0.0,0.0,0.23383552716876466,0.08587566823555122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1793379980675772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Bleacheee,2019/04/19,"What I ate today (on holidays) 😭 Breakfast: cappuccino
Lunch: restaurant portion of pasta with some fatty sauce, mushrooms and meat
Dinner: cheeseburger with fries
Dessert: pain au chocolat

I’m so bloated, I just wanna kms. Can I get an “oof”?",2.989285714285714,6.0073050714285765,3.6071428571428577,79.88785714285714,93.5238095238095,5.257142857142857,29.809523809523807,6.868970318607317,2.418438095238096,191,10,28,3,7,60,38,42,0.084,0.916,0.0,-0.5106,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,1,7,0,0,0,6,4,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,3,6,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,3,0,5,3,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,15,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3442229556554481,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7010649372794324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6245146199387273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,hon3yg1rl,2019/04/19,Being tall.....it’s terrible I wish I could be short and petite and people would feel the need to protect me !!! But fuck lmao !!!! I’m 5’9/5’10 and sometimes I just look in the mirror and cry !!!! I’m so fucking huge and gross no matter how much weight I lose !!! I’ll never be fragile or small because my hands and feet are large as fuck !!! I look so fucking big next to 99% of women and it fucks with me so hard. I wish I could chop off everything beneath my knees but whatever I guess !! I also hate that tall girls are automatically expected to be thin !!! I’m an average weight but I still look huge to the point where I don’t leave the house outside of going to school because I can’t stand the thought of people having to see me looking like this !!! Love this for me so fucking much 🤪🤪,1.60648033126294,3.5011885714285715,3.1078012422360253,91.89843064182196,79.43478260869566,5.784016563146997,22.53457556935817,6.742157984588678,0.4700481159420296,604,19,133,6,15,198,98,161,0.14300000000000002,0.723,0.134,0.5988,0,0,0,0,0,0,33.0,0,0,0,1,9,12,7,0,6,0,12,12,3,1,1,26,35,18,0,7,5,0,7,1,0,1,0,0,0,2,4,8,2,1,2,0,0,1,4,10,0,0,1,12,18,2,15,27,2,17,0,1,5,7,3,12,6,2,4,79,22,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08943570803754097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13634913627172202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1785848885298256,0.0,0.12284728033690592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10051154664276428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056547957554515776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6203469422566209,0.0,0.0,0.06355933085880806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12320065022558516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10018364841022437,0.11041551287641907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1290444489555855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11841883718707374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0546377255409532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37565839051291017,0.12511657587751476,0.0,0.0,0.10093691981312763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16442557387698473,0.08292543983272621,0.08625529915998895,0.0,0.11893951868897762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15506686747394127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10572175874358734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11318463445172605,0.08911931002086514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11060928107577044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08931287262154074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0887857874124026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.272373758841222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2572131972506566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07944552914458741,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,aoty2015vulnicura,2019/04/19,"Anyone else super affected by other people's casual estimates of your weight? Today my dad was talking about how small I am and said I'm probably barely pushing 120, when in actuality I'm about 108 right now (huge difference for me since I'm short) and it really fucked with me. But someone recently also said I'm probably barely 100 pounds and that also fucked with me. ????? love ed logic",5.701081081081077,6.831863702702704,7.244162162162166,69.485972972973,67.37837837837836,10.784864864864865,28.313513513513517,10.793553405168565,3.4078032432432437,310,10,52,9,5,107,56,74,0.141,0.743,0.117,-0.4671,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,1,0,1,8,5,2,0,0,0,2,4,0,2,0,9,11,8,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,3,5,1,0,1,1,0,1,0,2,0,0,3,3,6,3,8,8,0,10,0,0,0,3,6,5,2,0,4,28,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.1900488755547921,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3114845967521145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1361744221730746,0.1995454064691343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20347333657295805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16268946436919535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36008830886298504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17577037435760784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13501581679338773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41994901810077984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12476247270803036,0.0,0.19229311020266446,0.0,0.0,0.16631628353146202,0.370505582876298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16110003353384725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16501188399190195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15653347077060087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18460116929611567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2371542426960597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Odd_Toes,2019/04/19,"""Do you have a baby at home?"" It finally happened. 

I'm at Walmart, buying my weekly assortment of fiber supplements, no carb energy drinks, and Gerber Puffs/Crunchies, when the cashier asks me if I have a baby at home. 

I almost lied, and then I realized, this white-haired gent is a grandpa. He's not calling me fat, he just wants to talk babies. So I told the truth (or a version of it). I said they're for me; that my husband eats a lot of cereal and chips, but I have a sugar problem so I can't, and these help me be not envious and they taste really good. 

You guys he said he's gonna try them! If everyone starts eating them then no one will notice us buying them!   \o/",1.8801558752997642,3.5145600791366896,3.783615107913669,88.56712529976022,77.70503597122303,7.223261390887291,22.37470023980816,8.07648339933343,1.0794311750599528,517,15,112,9,12,175,94,139,0.092,0.799,0.109,0.5,0,0,1,0,0,0,27.0,1,2,4,0,4,4,1,0,8,0,8,6,1,0,1,18,17,14,0,4,7,2,0,0,0,2,1,2,2,1,5,5,6,0,1,1,2,0,5,2,0,1,3,4,20,2,8,11,2,9,0,0,0,0,21,3,0,5,6,70,25,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18435553906903324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17211423336054574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18799278389995036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18035376480106088,0.0,0.3767727473463841,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17592114799870492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20167909566408146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1544193562771813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1822938595190786,0.1628043049309555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1234023536925126,0.0,0.3693466063334683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1565203155394547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2096058718280929,0.0,0.0,0.124754972791325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17616455321683838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11794300135021606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3502538825413096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1303111560991643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1479774082199853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17592114799870492,0.0,0.12499587142155055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22145681854456734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10859047358126876,0.0,0.14767870737051228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,zioioio,2019/04/19,Whyyy Why the hell is that when I eat over my limit (that’s still under the recommendation) I wake up the next day and have gained like a pound??? What the hell is up with that,2.0490990990990987,3.4126526486486526,2.933513513513514,95.99774774774777,76.56756756756756,6.014414414414415,15.036036036036036,6.42735559955562,-0.944218018018018,136,1,34,1,3,43,28,37,0.222,0.6609999999999999,0.116,-0.7677,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,2,2,3,2,0,5,0,3,2,1,0,0,3,3,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,2,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,3,1,5,3,0,8,2,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,5,23,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3115620664945757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4943359239841231,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2360201760362591,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5137865066802465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38580741986852973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.43592615178709215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,CannonEyes,2019/04/19,"Triggered by my old (thin) photos I was scrolling through photos from a few summers ago where I was at the peak of my ED. I'm in recovery now but I still suffer from body dysmorphia and ED thoughts, but I mostly have it under control. Anyways, in these old photos I looked fucking amazing. My stomach is completely flat and my body is just perfect. I remember that summer I was miserable and I remember looking at my body and thinking I was a whale. 

I showed my boyfriend the photos and he told me not to get hung up on it,I look great now (I'm still relatively fit but probably 10-15 lbs heavier than the photos). He also pointed out that in the photo my bra is literally falling off me. I completely lost my tits and ass which I have back now and love. I just hate the pinch of fat on my stomach and inner thighs.

Stupidly, today I took a photo of myself in the same underwear as the photo and looked at them side by side. Again, I don't completely hate how I look now, but seeing my current photo beside the super slim version of me makes me want it back. I've been debating getting back into calorie counting, which is what sent me spiraling towards bulimia (probably not an uncommon story here). I obviously don't want to get back deep into my ED, but I've also come to terms with the fact that it's the only way I could ever get that body back, and at one point today I even told myself it was worth it to look that good again.

I guess this is a rant, I'm worried about slipping into my old ways. Especially because I'm going on vacation in June with my cousin who has a perfect bikini body and I'm freaking out about looking like a fat whale in comparison.",4.950339729921822,5.3197693701492526,6.129936034115138,79.52691542288558,68.73134328358209,8.888415067519547,31.474769012082447,8.841846274778883,2.5196112295664537,1309,52,256,21,21,440,167,335,0.124,0.745,0.131,0.5579999999999999,2,0,0,0,0,0,32.0,0,0,1,5,25,16,4,1,17,0,17,14,12,4,5,47,51,20,0,3,9,1,1,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,16,19,2,1,4,1,1,5,4,8,0,1,12,9,41,8,41,38,5,63,0,3,8,4,9,31,3,2,26,177,57,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07122249679119791,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12850644505255984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3089082426476971,0.0,0.04897859918800895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4462353233626568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06921156288945983,0.25272594142507776,0.0,0.09011564984809008,0.06415029765136565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053068233919043015,0.07267818506857232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0742792243331953,0.16791132665846056,0.0,0.045662878048421285,0.06739099528478784,0.0,0.08858251428411472,0.08851094230734009,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15865145309128464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03925333644185011,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4722969125640211,0.0,0.08770790823075854,0.0,0.07251602868898674,0.0,0.053632042450249884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2529310201815889,0.0,0.054444999550722656,0.061107281692865764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15190719321124008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1732546520186089,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18203428432838176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06402591295811715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12832994795779634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05148291754869575,0.0,0.06378630058349276,0.0,0.0,0.15231854329970845,0.15354941946519546,0.08926813387651028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09478112419990124,0.1275509324533495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08159596833924161,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,dumbbichenergi,2019/04/19,[Triggering] I'm excited and can't talk about it to anyone I'm gonna rent my own apartment when fall arrives and my plan is to not buy any food there so I'll never have to eat anymore. I'm super excited for this upcoming period in my life. Thanks for listening!,1.882363636363636,3.745970690909093,4.361818181818183,83.38272727272731,78.45454545454545,8.763636363636364,25.54545454545455,9.3871,2.405109090909089,208,8,43,6,5,73,43,55,0.0,0.7909999999999999,0.209,0.8977,1,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,2,4,4,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,1,1,5,9,4,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,1,0,2,2,2,0,0,0,2,1,3,0,0,0,0,1,3,4,7,8,1,6,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,3,23,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2564522570966543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3739983872228991,0.263688733385295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3858844850635543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4560109558206327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.266368645899358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29085561263111426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3031120821459616,0.0,0.3471983484537486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,bellalinda,2019/04/19,"The urge to binge is a type of intrusive thought I’ve dealt with intrusive thoughts since I was a child. Random passing thoughts about distressing or absurd situations, sometimes violent and always scary. I learned as I got older that these were not intentional thoughts and that I would never act on them, so it became easier to dismiss them. When I first had a baby, they came back with a vengeance and were terribly disturbing. My amazing sister who happens to be a therapist helped me reframe these intrusive thoughts as “threat assessments” - my brain was presenting me with worst case scenarios, and I was calmed by the idea that I could look at the absurdity of the thought and dismiss it. 

It never occurred to me until last night that the urge to binge is another form of an intrusive thought. It’s distressing, it’s absurd, and it’s not an intentional thought. I recently read Brain over Binge and her main point seems to be “stop acting on the urge to binge” which sounds great but didn’t really click with me. Ok cool, but... how? Then yesterday I read a review of the same book where someone said to “dismiss” the urge, and that is the word I use for intrusive thoughts, so this connection became clear to me. I already know how to dismiss an intrusive thought. I’ve been doing it since I was 6. I still need to work on not restricting so that I can re-learn the difference between “hunger” and “urge to binge”, but I suppose this is a step in the right direction. 


 I don’t know how well I’ll be able to apply this today, but I woke up feeling encouraged and wanted to share with the people who have similar struggles. 💜",7.386355996944232,7.230961363636367,7.068739495798322,76.65273109243702,63.61038961038962,11.143162719633308,36.299465240641716,10.718039707386858,3.8172900687547737,1292,56,243,30,17,407,162,308,0.081,0.818,0.102,0.8104,0,0,0,0,0,0,30.0,0,0,3,2,12,16,2,4,22,2,22,3,2,6,3,58,45,26,0,4,8,1,1,0,0,1,0,2,0,1,21,16,1,2,16,3,0,5,7,8,1,1,23,6,28,8,37,17,4,31,0,0,2,0,12,10,0,3,16,167,49,7,0.0953849764849254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10525969344881132,0.0,0.07936794156660908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10001946461375294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07334515915368707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21296235892577006,0.0,0.1090950022510778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0761571421770362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09965699876938536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04822951010864538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08113441227063972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07628807927842553,0.10516227331317844,0.0,0.0,0.08434861969189714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06393453910883408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10767802815223916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10484217708695057,0.07775148669843675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08009935692714074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0707267514449237,0.1471335483249017,0.0,0.0,0.08951233887558907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06612793260605737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09016963392730756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19082157802842464,0.0,0.06110605840815647,0.0,0.09418115694955903,0.0,0.0,0.08145824874346924,0.09073295557699336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08683490018269811,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15780687645895966,0.10721671004290667,0.0,0.0,0.08081938103972904,0.0,0.09433818073112454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07617456543465853,0.07974611139791499,0.0,0.09971708772079872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11074930949541867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7572501672376591,0.0,0.0,0.09041380463515272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08238199414434401,0.0,0.0,0.05626053047033322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08576254913510906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06944139891061273,0.0,0.0,0.06775875056621875,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,banditoindisguise,2019/04/19,All hail the halo top gods For the past month I haven't binged so I was going to treat my self to some Halo top as I found $5. It is normally $10 a pint but the toasted coconut has been on sale recently. When I went to scan it it scanned at full price so I ended up getting it for free as they forgot to remove the sale tag from the shelf. So not only I got free Halo top but also $5,0.5918619582664526,1.4275660674157322,3.289919743178172,94.12101123595508,79.3370786516854,5.984590690208668,19.455858747993574,6.18269132825596,-0.19557592295345166,296,6,75,2,7,105,60,89,0.0,0.8079999999999999,0.192,0.9313,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,1,3,5,3,0,0,6,0,5,0,0,0,1,8,11,9,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,0,1,1,0,5,3,2,0,0,0,6,2,8,5,12,5,3,15,0,0,2,0,2,7,0,1,5,46,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2545319120939484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2819054981753376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34898240584669565,0.0,0.0,0.16629045733515208,0.0,0.18088835399070796,0.0,0.2545611029193482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25405156389096256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31185112452017216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2420696214230668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30383846536659675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31426743750881314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3320400345430887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29505281875308736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ethioqueen,2019/04/19,"just found out im shorter than i thought i was i really somehow deluded myself into thinking i was 5'9""... looking back i dont even know where that number came from?? but yeah i was always taller than most girls around me and my sister and cousin are the same height and also think they're 5'9"" lmao. turns out im fucking 5'7.5""!! 

part of me is disappointed because that means lower TDEE and i'm further from being underweight than i realized but also... another part of me is weirdly happy because i can lose more weight. i thought i was 2 pounds away from being underweight and i'm still kinda chubby so i was getting worried but now i'm 6 pounds away.

anyways this is just a psa to make sure you know your actual height so you don't fuck yourself over when calculating bmi",2.002352941176472,4.546415640522877,3.2677124183006576,87.66470588235298,82.13725490196079,5.952941176470588,23.37908496732026,7.285733465282438,1.1110418300653593,615,22,118,9,17,199,99,153,0.104,0.755,0.141,0.7857,1,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,3,0,1,15,7,2,0,2,1,14,3,0,1,1,30,32,13,0,0,5,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,10,1,0,9,0,0,1,2,5,0,0,9,2,19,2,16,21,5,17,0,2,1,2,6,12,2,3,4,81,22,0,0.0,0.0,0.1457960165805854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2389554439619685,0.124315469254562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15666233031397978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1330005644152721,0.0,0.0,0.2807385356540158,0.11488187418958028,0.0,0.18214966430390492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1708775121348995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17509949180914808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09867943503702048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1638129479285747,0.0,0.2762417872571251,0.07805702973011375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1590425336857012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3227622871699207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16421623372071273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12546109861031618,0.16714401658934352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09972782695097453,0.0,0.0,0.16274393413713847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3235783127152845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09571154518265274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11931362538014854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14081079139659325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19146313500889975,0.0,0.2372189779024077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16250782960639426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18193290436123846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15172624868764753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,plunkmonkey,2019/04/19,"Confusion and fear I don't know how to really start
I've been doing a lot of research on eating disorders, have heard a lot of stories and experiences.
I fear that I've been developing an eating disorders. I talked to my girlfriend who's been struggling with ED for her whole life.
Part of me is worried that I've been making it up just because of how much I hear about her experiences. 

When I was in elementary school I was always teased by classmates and my family about being overweight (I had a lot of baby fat) I started losing weight when I was going through puberty and felt more confident but late high school I started gaining weight again.
At one point a family member commented to me that I was getting fat and it just threw me for a loop. Not too long after that I went from eating 4-5 meals a day to 1-2 meals a day. I've only been able to comfortably eat the same meals over and over with little variation, changing that pattern just throws me off and it's almost impossible to keep it down or to finish it in under an hour, and the time that I'm able to eat it just feels like I binge. It makes me violently anxious to take a break from doing something like studying to eat physically pains me and it only makes it harder to eat. I don't know if it's ED or if I just have something else wrong with me but I feel like I'm at a point where I don't know who to ask or who to go to because I feel so guilty asking my girlfriend so I just resort to not worrying about it and just trying to make it through the day.

I'd like some input because I just feel lost right now",4.32921893147503,4.712857189024394,5.539233449477353,83.16825203252036,70.09756097560975,8.564692218350755,27.509291521486645,8.563005593585519,1.7676023228803714,1250,39,264,19,21,418,157,328,0.116,0.807,0.077,-0.8649,0,0,2,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,0,3,21,15,2,4,14,0,19,17,2,6,0,52,48,23,0,2,17,0,7,4,2,0,5,2,0,0,21,13,15,1,8,0,0,5,5,10,0,1,15,9,32,5,46,32,9,39,0,2,0,0,14,17,0,11,20,179,53,3,0.1556576655072618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0779343336511626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06475982358882057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08792442791511706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14551890500900014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1423312021965146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08233258531839535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15057947552221132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17839717021902934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5574682812745331,0.06501600298796746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15226306523034666,0.14674019386277906,0.17515814910265254,0.15741038534002416,0.11120186734026002,0.07472788463429927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04066235284716176,0.0,0.08846383844008616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08771875094061335,0.0,0.0,0.08223043490364386,0.0,0.0,0.07664572283783715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06917784257028299,0.0,0.0,0.12831807324473773,0.0,0.08779431333143574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05497280624592079,0.15209294558892705,0.07800493678713206,0.0,0.06887606785642521,0.0,0.08707055600689509,0.08495936475375078,0.1985018712652193,0.0,0.0,0.2078054008553576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057213147174189766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05273883129988356,0.11838466882131635,0.08281536539057492,0.0,0.0,0.08428104150779714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14714680690818502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04985914318313658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06646539792208336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15753386765949776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11983287565297256,0.0,0.0,0.1652629452174712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08136359444537587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058517596312985275,0.06255586766358125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04538261826153577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05284066862095843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18954910216860574,0.0,0.07214810769632507,0.0,0.08689311234157616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1580779151255144,0.0,0.0,0.08509361084124434,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,bananamo7,2019/04/19,"How to dedicate a long weekend to beginning recovery? Hi guys,

I called in sick for my Friday shift. I don't have a cold or something like that. i have an eating disorder. My mental health is killing me. Every day has been intense binging, restricting, a combination of the two, or some other combination of ED behaviors. I'm just about ready to kill myself. But I'm going to commit this sick day to healing myself.

How can I make the most of this Friday through Sunday and start the recovery process?

my current situation: no therapy, no official diagnosis (though a suspected bulimia diagnosis from the doctor I briefly saw), I'm engaging in intense ED behavior every single day, it's having major impacts on my physical health (on top of my mental health of course), and, as you can see, it is affecting my ability to do my job.

thank you so much for any help.",5.119444444444444,6.724697055555558,6.7194444444444485,70.93250000000003,69.18518518518519,10.585185185185184,33.87037037037037,10.686352973137794,4.191088888888889,681,33,116,21,12,234,104,162,0.155,0.7240000000000001,0.121,-0.8796,2,0,1,0,0,1,26.0,0,2,0,1,6,5,2,0,9,0,11,8,0,4,1,15,21,10,2,0,4,0,0,1,0,0,7,0,0,1,6,2,1,1,1,1,0,1,3,2,0,1,2,3,17,3,21,19,5,15,0,0,2,0,6,5,0,4,10,81,23,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10439155126649788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15675010342374482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29700229230207925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17593489521565125,0.15712321791957798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15707828217817507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25867632093589943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08724284206538767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1519982881275728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4895194499185615,0.0,0.0,0.1028940116889242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15233423968783544,0.0,0.3396704725967449,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07499686349389566,0.0,0.0,0.13585085196484442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1024686136552684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30940242820899994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11284695873471885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12232699407107107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17255082417382292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11817891727492788,0.0,0.0,0.10865463435385167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14133068900459184,0.17555120114698464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15082205468507093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14995622747581358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,blackplumsummer,2019/04/20,"tw numbers: my depressing recovery my antidepressants have loosened by restrictive behaviors because I used restricting to cope with my bad feelings. less bad feelings now that im on meds, so more eating without counting/feeling terrified. Today, I had 2,390 calories by eating ""normally."" I want to go off of my antidepressants because I can't stand the thought of gaining weight. I love food so much. I'm terrified of gaining weight. These two perspectives are battling it out and I'm not sure what to do.",5.651666666666667,8.355203444444445,5.841944444444442,73.21625000000002,70.1111111111111,9.388888888888893,39.02777777777778,9.827888789773867,4.684777777777779,410,25,63,11,8,130,65,90,0.16,0.6679999999999999,0.172,0.3134,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,0,2,3,6,1,0,1,0,5,6,0,1,1,14,14,3,0,2,2,0,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,3,5,2,3,0,0,1,3,4,0,1,2,4,9,2,13,12,3,7,0,1,0,1,1,3,0,0,2,41,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3083331934012481,0.2251095277645793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15903006769591113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37786540810088143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2800784303271425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2232672892915832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10493510517107904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1994427668112885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1666447105896097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20509329498879347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1357315649367425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18090789057058107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17402091228978592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14658344910071394,0.0,0.0,0.17501702743869274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1803663444324637,0.0,0.0,0.15946958307746173,0.0,0.0,0.10890539165756333,0.0,0.0,0.4496832902998522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17798626618308275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,devourpizza,2019/04/20,"unsure what to do so I was feeling extremely insecure and doubtful of the number on the scales so in desperation I posted on another ED forum (not myproana, it's more support-based like this forum, maybe a bit more disordered??) one of those 'guess my BMI'  things. but someone privately messaged me, saying they couldn't post on the thread itself, and called me 'thinspo' saying they were jealous and it kind of sounded a bit like they were asking for advice, whether I fasted or exercised a bunch and stuff like that. I was a little uncomfortable, but responded saying I did neither of those things (which is true) trying not to give advice or sound at all disordered or anything. My BMI is supposedly 14.8, which I know isn't healthy, I just don't see it and really wanted some kind of validation, I guess. But I now have this horrible image of some 13 year old (or anyone really) taking extreme measures to try and reach that sort of number. I'm an adult, and I feel really irresponsible having done this. I'm probably going to delete the pictures I put up, and maybe my reply? Should I send another message or something making sure I don't encourage it or anything. Was this a really awful thing to do?",7.843531571218798,7.37192879735683,8.213931718061676,69.86542033773864,62.78854625550661,11.26710719530103,34.775697503671076,10.686352973137794,3.757998825256976,955,36,165,21,12,316,131,227,0.154,0.772,0.073,-0.9719,0,0,1,0,0,0,30.0,0,0,3,0,4,11,1,2,10,1,18,1,0,1,3,37,32,20,0,3,13,0,2,3,0,1,1,5,0,1,20,8,0,0,3,1,0,3,7,3,0,1,7,8,21,8,19,23,9,16,0,0,1,0,15,7,0,12,7,120,41,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2241345276853172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2405110299811589,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08018928023773128,0.0,0.1887492870320697,0.0,0.1072134717216284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2504090790262113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11710454520229002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2628741600730637,0.0,0.0,0.11736090679295574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1159747174863604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11001474050385213,0.06517720319841794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2526733275958457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23885016801252695,0.06302698203301099,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16808550806456107,0.11494286716708516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07655204135445348,0.0,0.2304297233743299,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12034090711553032,0.0,0.07771242090987537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21966993796653614,0.0,0.12364807193836605,0.0,0.0,0.11528846464018645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2938764190068208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2736024614518685,0.0,0.0,0.09138779939386006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09717084895109612,0.08828886270376192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.131285023206752,0.0,0.13014133150906387,0.10808772090706822,0.0,0.08622762323743273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2285716094077057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15572496317491327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06764322416121807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07385233153895203
EDAnonymous,jdoebe,2019/04/20,"I binged after month of high and stable (almost healthy) restrictions I lost weight and i was really glad and decided to increase my calorie intake to lose weight more slowly so i won’t binge because of malnutrition. I ate max on my TDEE (~1400) and burnt 300-400 on those days so i was in deficit. Today i started with really low-cal salad, I didn’t even included its calories. However then i ate chips, chocolate. I might have stopped on 1500 calories and burn them later, but I continued eating. I ate overall 4000 calories, which became my max. I couldn’t even purge.  I feel how food is coming to my mouth and my stomach is hurting so much because of the amount i ate. I hate myself and I don’t understand why am i like that. Everything was so good and i could have stopped, buy it was like i was unconscious. I don’t think i need an advice or anything, just wanted to share it somewhere.",2.6108873949579845,4.911605382857147,3.6635630252100846,87.13161344537819,78.02857142857142,6.631932773109245,25.72268907563025,7.724431198458867,1.5222907563025214,702,27,136,11,17,226,108,175,0.105,0.778,0.117,0.4454,1,0,0,0,0,0,24.0,0,0,1,2,8,9,1,0,2,0,17,11,2,1,0,27,30,16,0,4,3,0,3,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,6,10,9,3,4,0,1,2,5,4,0,0,11,3,29,5,13,15,4,17,0,3,0,0,2,5,0,3,12,88,35,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16320441834914132,0.0,0.0,0.16724067306394844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1374385192768407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2036207059470675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1438680110179828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13334730995821875,0.0,0.0,0.10771039179672813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17089730033760225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2206227093690574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15010166285502047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08444743657318872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2019543264645135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14008365145040222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16489202127836866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1764597531709498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1787922375976455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16318947886578355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18684625515404185,0.182315812285011,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1771757546491951,0.0,0.0,0.1333092023414224,0.0,0.12277471036509592,0.12383897002516395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2139872447402429,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1182135647446146,0.0,0.0,0.2792628276365885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10701600483958476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15831000595005182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1738677522351086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0985093476538499,0.0,0.0,0.40675679049540253,0.0,0.0,0.1507044074129773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,luxiocharms,2019/04/20,"Recovery is hard. I’m trying to recover from EDNOS, it’s been almost a year, but I still can’t weight myself. I can’t stop comparing myself to other people, and I still feel fat in my prom dress. I feel guilty eating 3 meals, and recently I had to work through a meal and genuinely forgot how great it felt to be extremely hungry. 

Now that summer is coming, I’m seeing bikini pics posted from girls I’ve seen eat normal amounts of food and can’t help but be so jealous.",4.772187500000001,5.073165177083336,6.0145833333333325,80.43875,69.10416666666666,8.9,25.375,8.841846274778883,1.7389499999999996,371,9,73,6,6,125,69,96,0.134,0.772,0.095,-0.4213,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,1,5,2,1,0,2,0,9,7,1,1,0,15,18,8,0,1,2,0,5,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,4,5,7,2,3,0,0,1,3,1,0,0,5,7,8,1,9,11,1,10,0,0,2,0,2,1,0,1,7,43,12,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21391219649025967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.184016971934656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4371785429910779,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2160280309136924,0.0,0.20511121597246404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2583133203979413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2355196930165497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1913639080151192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1431867394043888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2093048115008216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14809902730817065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20459141948513407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2109265659049227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17022957055198676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34119860101182553,0.1785980759446636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14503573661535427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26013480123620863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1555198117994447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13756596356978693
EDAnonymous,HateIsExhausting,2019/04/20,"I am 2 cm shorter than I thought (tw number) So I was all about thinking I was recovering (cause  I ate 800 for 2 days instead of 500) and then BOOM I’m 2 cm shorter and I jumped out of that underweight range which clearly means I need to get back on track because Obviously I need to be underweight to seek recovery, duh.

For all you Americans: I was 5’8 and now I’m 5’7

Life is pain y’all",0.9518373493975892,2.8124082048192807,3.2417921686747,90.2995557228916,81.40963855421687,7.041566265060243,26.037650602409638,8.07648339933343,1.5321096385542172,303,13,70,6,8,104,56,83,0.046,0.917,0.038,-0.1531,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,2,0,0,5,1,0,0,0,1,6,3,0,1,4,14,15,5,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,2,4,1,0,3,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,5,2,11,0,11,9,2,7,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,4,40,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25972908211966905,0.0,0.20590526334897669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3469892475596116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21783773398852774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17647414640306214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2385813505208159,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3679373524515206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5009136102794196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3594177388429091,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21643337848733565,0.0,0.268156607935748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,bunnylover9000,2019/04/20,"Literally being triggered by manga girls. They are FICTIONAL CARTOON of girls with outrageous proportions and fucking WINGS fighting goddamn magical FIRE BREATHING DRAGONS with mystical swords, but I'm like, ""yep, that's it, goalz"" 

WHO IS I.",8.982307692307693,11.774802615384619,7.936410256410259,61.3169230769231,61.30769230769231,11.353846153846154,46.33333333333334,11.20814326018867,6.58654871794872,198,13,24,6,3,61,37,39,0.188,0.738,0.075,-0.4381,0,0,0,0,2,0,8.0,0,0,1,0,0,4,3,0,0,1,3,2,1,1,0,5,5,2,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,3,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,2,1,4,4,0,0,0,0,0,1,5,0,1,0,1,14,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8841369295195497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4672278778708979,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,youcanbeastarr,2019/04/20,"ooo wee in 6 days i gained 8 pounds tw:numbers my binge eating the past two weeks has been so fucking bad. i went from 136 on april 14 to 144 right now and i want to fuckung scream. i don't know how much of it is water weight because on Sunday i weighed 150 then 140.8 on Thursday but binge ate on friday and i'm just so fucking confused and don't know what is water weight or actual weight gain and i could  find out if i fucking stopped binging :))))

on top of that i realised my scale puts me at 1.2 pounds lighter than i actually am so a couple months ago when i thought i was 135 i was actually pushing  128-133 and my stupid fucking body dysmorphia made me think i was hugeeee.

But um can someone tell me if its possible to gain 8 pounds in 6 days??????",3.9983544303797487,4.208560481012661,4.687189873417727,89.5992658227848,70.77215189873421,7.5858227848101265,29.7240506329114,7.1686216300943375,1.4117600000000001,588,22,134,5,10,189,105,158,0.105,0.8029999999999999,0.091,-0.4926,0,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,0,0,4,8,8,5,1,2,0,12,13,1,2,0,23,25,16,0,4,6,0,3,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,4,6,8,1,5,0,0,3,2,8,1,1,8,4,19,0,16,16,1,27,0,0,0,4,1,11,4,4,13,73,23,0,0.0,0.0,0.3866918735669476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11708664075051005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11028664256024716,0.08051865500309673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1467182346890378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10546025755266714,0.14615111023161598,0.0,0.17036962595707048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13515738198472907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12072459396255315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4884470635857978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1451824829806453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12498336331561385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10543011941877213,0.0,0.09709871597795286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1260914327666388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14890759100403067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13278333354690836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11280108006555202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11191639412996504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11043016067091466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11544935209683455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08463564383995646,0.0,0.10486186244100433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12902923839558972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07790799213103983,0.0,0.10595175794249977,0.4825370219359741,0.0,0.12244543367319898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,depression_obsession,2019/04/20,"Flipping My Disorder I'll delete if not allowed! ( Idk how people feel about pro-ish talk )
Have any of you guys ever battled overeating with starving yourself? I'm overweight, like 230 and disgusted with myself. I'm sick and tired of how I'm treating my body, I want to lose weight quickly so I've started not eating instead. I'll have half a stick of gum if I start feeling hungry. I have one or two days a week I'll eat a meal around 500-600 calories. Being fat, will this even work? Has anyone experienced anorexic behaviors while being fat?",3.0654716981132104,5.371109509433963,3.7949433962264174,86.73449056603776,76.54716981132076,5.749433962264153,27.581132075471697,6.742157984588678,1.3620369811320754,432,18,80,4,10,137,79,106,0.21600000000000005,0.723,0.06,-0.9585,1,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,1,0,2,9,5,2,0,3,0,7,10,3,3,1,17,15,9,0,3,5,0,3,1,0,1,5,0,0,1,1,5,7,0,2,0,0,0,2,3,0,3,0,4,7,2,9,12,0,9,0,1,0,0,3,2,0,3,8,45,8,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14332467970955448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14736896326563298,0.0,0.0,0.1876219378055631,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23410791326282646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1359233830093175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24155031897308046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4313221560438496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1392056259655842,0.19064535409162595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21313414748605994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20868648562056946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1029671588272814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23578760302987736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14281708064218493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14611511198494656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2983553837219836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16940167570173778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2422387186682389,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20588283259204315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12431227449642407,0.0,0.16905972874481418,0.2566500692453464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15343648861156295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,AnIraqiCamper,2019/04/20,"Anyone else seen the recent 1200isplenty post? You know... THAT one The fucking bracelet. That’s so 2000’s proana. The post has been reported but because it’s not in violation of the subreddits rules it’s been kept on!!! 

It’s fucking ED behaviour!! She bought a bracelet to stop her from eating!! A fucking ENGRAVED one !!! 

That sub is so in denial sometimes.",1.9231818181818203,4.750185863636363,2.5385454545454564,88.61781818181818,91.87878787878788,5.670303030303031,26.29696969696969,7.1686216300943375,1.7223078787878796,281,13,51,5,10,87,46,66,0.043,0.887,0.07,0.4234,0,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,1,0,0,2,4,4,0,6,0,4,4,0,0,0,5,11,3,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,6,0,1,2,1,0,1,0,1,4,0,2,5,1,3,0,6,6,0,7,0,0,1,3,3,3,3,0,2,31,9,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1571109179808876,0.2302250414500671,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13697107067263833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22991754294762015,0.18770258529444425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6231765539024459,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12348567009723573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.304516258319594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4303885195678315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2218577217602778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22222761463023868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18785382519199964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,FigsAndRabbits,2019/04/20,"I don't know what to title this as, I'm just struggling. I'm undiagnosed (too sneaky to bring it up with doctors. And the one time I did see a doctor at a lw (sub 15 bmi) she didn't say anything, so) so who knows if I actually have a problem. But lately, I'm in a ""relapse"" and it's all I can think about, estimating how much I'll lose by x date over and over, planning out my meals.  I feel like I can't do anything else, I don't have enough will, or energy. 

I'm trying high restriction, so I thought this time would be different. If you'd asked me if it was different a week ago, I would have said yes.  I was on cloud nine, losing seems to just get rid of depression for me.  But now I feel like shit.  Maybe it's just because I'm tired, and I just came off my second 48 hour fast this week (I'm garbage at fasting, frl), but I really really feel like shit. And I don't know what to do about it.

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I don't think I'm looking for anything here, I just wanted to get it out.",1.7424999999999995,2.5665414158878512,3.742137850467291,92.055636682243,76.42990654205606,7.219158878504674,23.18808411214953,7.6454224807358475,0.7113934579439256,749,21,185,10,16,256,118,214,0.114,0.833,0.053,-0.8674,2,0,0,0,0,0,38.0,0,1,0,3,14,10,2,1,6,1,20,6,2,1,1,38,46,17,0,7,12,0,3,3,0,3,3,2,0,0,12,9,1,1,10,0,0,2,6,7,0,3,7,7,22,3,23,34,3,24,0,3,2,0,6,11,2,5,14,112,34,2,0.0,0.0,0.1160339053694074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10540190618084724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12883327091398966,0.14448231290150787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2935454883344221,0.0,0.1111599109677056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07248324545007867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13599538271240386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10241250599397436,0.0,0.0,0.2484603585491603,0.0,0.24340814538257485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09932967957904236,0.0,0.0,0.12286041484893474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1803654764173813,0.25483677888219514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1242456716382898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12562942006963862,0.0,0.0,0.11709724899568848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1960408593859385,0.0,0.1341297620785375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17427259663720907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09985006164859693,0.2660480506786788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11945582548203346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08740868886653351,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0805729508681132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11377580847847722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15234688350137765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11310566720483148,0.09455784727781677,0.0,0.0,0.09475170872679327,0.10824643878700453,0.0,0.0,0.24410807974711446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12430508481356567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15237875362029002,0.0,0.09439710727124516,0.13866865765988756,0.13666354395319832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08072853515516061,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07013311531271574,0.0,0.19075647193853834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1689330771387594,0.0,0.14448231290150787,0.0
EDAnonymous,FriendWithAKid,2019/04/20,"I don't feel like eating I'm not saying that I'll never eat but I just never feel hungry. And idk if this is the right place to post. I just want some help I don't want to hurt myself.

It started a while ago when SO breaks up with me and says I'm mean for wanting to move taking our son with me. He said I'm taking away his happiness (words burned into my mind). Long story short I decided to stay until I have money for my own place (he still doesn't want us to leave). 

Now since that day I've had 1 meal a day. Usually around noon and I haven't finished my plate. I thought I was ok from the break up after talking to my cousin but I can't seem to want to eat. I was so confident and happy. I even had normal conversations with ex which we haven't had in a while. I also haven't been sleeping well. Idk what it is but when I want to try to make myself eat I have a hard time swallowing and I end up giving up and not eating.",0.7379566395663986,2.1664258878048805,2.7814227642276457,95.40600948509486,80.36585365853658,5.7262872628726305,17.242547425474257,6.42735559955562,-0.4366802168021682,717,12,175,6,18,242,116,205,0.043,0.775,0.182,0.9831,0,0,0,0,0,2,17.0,3,0,0,0,12,6,0,0,6,1,17,8,1,1,2,39,37,18,0,8,8,3,3,1,0,0,0,3,0,0,7,12,7,0,6,0,1,1,11,1,1,0,8,6,28,5,26,29,2,37,0,1,0,0,16,12,0,3,21,113,35,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09593590352478752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08654836933770202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09634417011204696,0.0,0.0,0.10168197915163006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13959375633808546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5537115710057358,0.0,0.0,0.09585619725907876,0.0,0.0,0.07148231526358621,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10944473126251986,0.07731674413130735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10382033231317007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23041738187851896,0.09694932364785452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0725416703942957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11585827344054354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11459580834431395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05287380346902916,0.0,0.0,0.09577668869410799,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0722417590249428,0.0,0.0,0.11788994538591452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10927750449572984,0.0,0.0,0.11502721176037906,0.0,0.0,0.16694127329766614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10603859485166407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2261464697479797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10365068287417672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0924244940780188,0.1029478001892263,0.17213146977420835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09852497250432947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0895257444380125,0.0,0.10830425492587076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07660298731416132,0.11535461768600802,0.08642949953519231,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1627451095750507,0.08698803589795412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08591943072314939,0.06310750652054208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0734784145844055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13018266715932247,0.0,0.11919575394297725,0.0,0.3830073304171099,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09730825713693214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0